This may sound corny, but I don’t care. I don’t know what I’d do without my friend Gwyneth. She has been there for me through all of this latest scandal surrounding me. I was so happy to see her in New York. She’s been helping me in so many ways. We were just just joking around yesterday singing, “Keep smiling, keep shining…knowing you can always count on me…for sure…that’s what friends are for!” I am so frustrated with all of the lies and rumours about my life. My attorneys have sent a warning letter to Mrs. Rodriguez’s attorneys. One more comment about me and their firm will be facing a defamation lawsuit. I don’t play around! I hope you are having a better week than I am having. Oh…I almost forgot. I have been working with Britney on a special project. She has made so much progress. I cannot wait for you to see it! It’s da bomb!
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Everyone needs Best Friends, hence why their called such because they are their for you when needed and vice-versa! I am so glad you are blogging again, I have missed them! I will be seeing you in Atlantic City in November, I can not wait!!!
Love you, M!
Hi M,
we know very well that all this shit about you is a lie. Don’t worry…we still love you more than ever!!! You’re a fantastic person…not only the Queen of Pop!!!!
I’ve been your fan (ventilateur 🙂 ) from the beginning…and now you’re so mature…I mean mentally 😀
See you in Rome at the Stadio olimpico!
We really love you.
PS: sorry for my english
Yep!
I totally agree and I love your way to move !!
Thank you for making my day and have a power of jump for transforming week.
Much love and shine the light on your life and power of blessing,
Love ya,
you think you are having a rough week…you should try being me.
i just stepped out of a 12 year relationship today, the last day.
some moments i am smiling, other times i am crying, then uncertainty grips me as i take a deep breath and sigh relief, recalling that i deserve only love at all times. Fortunate for me, i have had many loving relationships in life for me to easily recall of how my (divine) true self has shined brightly in loving relationships, and not so brightly in relationships i unwisely entered into, of my not slowing down into loving grace of my (divine) true self to feel loving of the lover i hurriedly got involved with for all the wrong reasons….ya, i admit, Thanh and i started out as a convienent relationship to stave off being alone, of me being a care giver.
i am not saying it was a bad one, not at all, in fact it was exceedingly pleasant most of the time, but we just did not connect at the loving lover lever that anticipates seeing our lover, or at least i didn’t. i don’t see this as something bad of me, and rather sadly made myself unavailable for the one who is my loving lover.
my new walking alone has brought this fully into my awareness of the graceful tender loving feelings i am once again feeling, fear left behind, stepped thru the door, out walking alone in the ghetto, my new single life.
a friend just bringing you up to speed on how my week is going. definitely emotional, yet a powerful loving feeling of now being free to greet the soul mate i pray for to one day hug, kiss, hold hands with and run down the street in exceeding joy with, of the loving tender feelings so graceful within that you don’t want to ever stop feeling, married of course, with eyes only for each other…for sure, i will not settle for less than the tender graceful loving caress of another and they with me, of sincere loving tenderness with each other, each and ever single day we awake, of smiling joyfulness that reaches tenderly for their hand to hold.
oh, why is this so hard for me…i hope i am feeling less anxiety by the week’s end.
i am sitting in an internet cafe crying listening to this video.
thanks M.
for sure, an excellent video and song for such a special day that today is for me. You have no idea how much i need this today.
God blesses us with sicerely feeling our tender loving feelings, like i do for you.
i love you M. thank you for that.
love forever more, ‘that’s what we are M.
we all need a good cry once in while, reconnecting with our love that is sincerely true of us, as i my hand grip tightly like before.
without doubt, sincerely we love Britney.
just as she does us.
‘that’s what matters most in everyone’s life, always of love we feel for one another.
Good day Madonna!
I’ve been hearing rumors that Mrs. Rodriguez is a “gold digga” and she seems to be using you as her golden excuse to divorce the ball player. It is nice that your awesome friend is helping you get through this. And glad to know that you have your attorneys ready to attack any further lies.
Did you get my message yesterday about a costume that I had designed for you approx. 20 years ago? It is such a simple yet screaming timeless design. Let me know if you would like to have it shipped.
Twenty years ago, I was a 30 year old stay-at-home mom living in New Hampshire with two sons (8 yr. and 4 yr. old) and I had time in the evenings to be creative. Last year my husband and I moved to Maine … our sons are now grown and living on their own … and I couldn’t believe my eyes when I unpacked a few boxes the other day and found YOUR costume! It brought back fond memories of the days when I and everyone else in the world enjoyed listening to Madonna songs. And through the years I have enjoyed seeing the new generations become Madonna fans. You have a great gift … I am so amazed that you keep sharing your talents even after having your own family.
I am sharing a recent photo of my oldest son’s wedding …I am standing next to my son.
Sincerely,
Gloria
P.S.
My mother love Brittany! I hope the best for her.
Good for Gweneth, she is obviously living the right way and really cares about herself and you. That is what a true friend is all about, caring about someone else other then yourself…You have always been so supportive of friends and family, and even when they have let you down, you always stood there with an ear open. Other people wouldn’t give a shit, you do and that is what matters.. I knew Britney would make a comeback, and its nice to see you give a shit about Britney, see, friendship is contagious…
…it’s not corny, it shows you are a regular person with feelings……hang in there, you have many wellwishers xxx
It is sad that they are trying to get you to divorce your husband. I do notice though that these rumors do come up when you are going on a tour, perhaps because you will be kind of seperated from your husband for a long time and perhaps becuse you need to focus on your work.
yunno, i didn’t like gwennie when she came out, but she has grown on me and think she’s a cutie! i loved her iron man movie, the stewardess move, possesion, the karoke movie, shallow hal, that thing she did no snl, destiny3 of fate3, she’s great. it’s always nice to have that best bud who you know you can always turn too. as far as those tabloid pix, it’s great to see you on more magazine covers! (hahaha) i wish it could help the give it 2 me radio play, oh well, i love u girl!
well she is a scorned woman
i feel bad for her
he is a man who made a lot of money
and they say money is the root of all evil
and then their marriage went down hill
they were together along time
it is a shame
however, divorce is over way before you go to court
she needs others to blame.
again, we all know he is way hot…
gwenith is so sweet and kind
you can see it right through her face.
incredible actress as well
just a joke though
i would never name my daughter apple
monica
i mean not a joke but you know a comment
but to each their own
but hey in todays world anything goes
I get you sister 😉
We love you in Romania!!!!
whats wrong with people , why can’nt madonna
put her career first that’s who she is, she an artist, teacher, angel, it’s jealousy every one is just jealous, even her brother,(just read something he said) well at least Lola her cute daughter is wise, she’s proud of her mum, she said so in that confession’s video, Jealous Moron’s… for God’s sake women fought alongside men in the second world war and still managed to grow up a family with lot’s of kid’s.
ok i’ve vented, sorry M
i just see things for what they are..
did i mention, JUDGEMENTAL ?
NO !
well i should have ..
I love you ….no matter what they say!! Hoping that all gonna be ok….give them a kick on their asses…you are my sunshine!!!
kisses
Everybody who knows U, knows that this smear is nothing U havn’t faced AND conquered be4.
Look at the positive — U started to blog again.
Is not THAT wonderfull.
I WILL START TO SAVE MY MONEY FOR GO TO YOUR SHOW!!!!COME TO HONG KONG!!!!PLEASE!!!^O^
I LOVE NEW YORK,HING UP,LA ISSA BONITA,LUCKY STAR,SORRY,JUMP,LIKE A VINGIN……..4 MIN MADONNA FT JUSTIN TIMEBERLAKE………………………..
ARE GREAT SONGS!!!
Good songs but not for right now :
VOGUE
LA ISLA BONITA
HUNG UP
MUSIC
HOLIDAY
A totally new remix of Causing a commotion can be great !
Britney is a sweetie,
I only have 3 real friend’s but they mean more to me then 1000 more, one girl she know’s who she is and one guy and he know’s who he is. their the best, and rachel cartwright who i’ve never met but she’s the best too, i know because she’s real.
Hi M!!I belive in you and in your marriage..But do you really want to work again with Britney??However I can understand you about friends..I have not so much friends, but fortunatly I have a lovley boyfriend that love me..I’d belive in friendship but I had bad experiences with friends, so I prefer to speak with my mum..She’s like my best firend..She’s young so she can understand what I feel..
Glad to see you back. Keep up the good work. I bought 2 HARD CANDY cd and one of i gifted to my best friend on his birthday.
Marco, on July 11th, 2008 at 9:18 am Said:
I only have 3 real friend’s but they mean more to me then 1000 more, one girl she know’s who she is and one guy and he know’s who he is. their the best, and rachel cartwright who i’ve never met but she’s the best too, i know because she’s real
and only 3…have u even metthem???and rachel??a 13 yr old .be careful hon….
you think you are having a rough week…you should try being me.
i just stepped out of a 12 year relationship today, the last day.
some moments i am smiling, other times i am crying, then uncertainty grips me as i take a deep breath and sigh relief, recalling that i deserve only love at all times. Fortunate for me, i have had many loving relationships in life for me to easily recall of how my (divine) true self has shined brightly in loving relationships, and not so brightly in relationships i unwisely entered into, of my not slowing down into loving grace of my (divine) true self to feel loving of the lover i hurriedly got involved with for all the wrong reasons….ya, i admit, Thanh and i started out as a convienent relationship to stave off being alone, of me being a care giver.
andy nowhere in you rlong long unending ramblings across atwo year period have u ever mentioned a relationship??yes??no!! youre an attention seeking sad individual..personal shit displayed on various fake websites all to do and to achieve?i truly beleive you hav elost all your marbles…all your stabilty and truthfullness have given way long ago .i think you are lost inyour ownlies and sad tragic fantasies…i may write a blog and screen play with you inmind ..it would probably screen at the local mental asylum..half price
ms bitch of course i’ve met them i’ve know one for 8 yrs and the other since 1995, i have not met rachel , but i’m no deviant so why should i need to be careful because she’s 13, its all innocent she has boyfriend silvio , i think your thinking in a perverted way …
whatever ms. anan retentive bitch!
keep smiling.
love is not fake for me.
you are old and a has been, and you should of never accepted and enticed alex rodrieguez, you are not very well liked in the sports field, you should here what the men say, yes men the people you try to seduce with your hard candy. you are an old joke, grow up keep your religion to yourself and stay the hell out of insecure peoples lives. alex has a crush on you and how did that happen don’t play mis innocence because you are not, my god you are fifty, and you look it. nice schnozolla, you could play a perfect halloween witch. stay home and raise your kids, maybe your husband should go after someone young like cynthia, and qweneth get a life naming your kid apple, and moses, right…………….. peace out home wrecker
you must love all these people doting on you you are such a fake. who are you trying to kid. oh are you gonna kiss britney again, oooh you suck madonna you are such a phoney from michigan.
I love Dionne Warwick! Reminds me of my mothers old records that I used to listen to!
can i entice you with say, your soul back
we can negotiate
Andy i saw the wing’s on your blog that you made for pride and it reminded me of this;
Sexual cannibalism
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This article is about arthropod behavior; for the human psychological disorder see sexually motivated cannibalism
Sexual cannibalism is a special case of cannibalism in which a female organism kills and consumes a male of the same species before, during, or after copulation. Rarely, these roles are reversed.[1][2]
This female Stagmomantis carolina is eating her mate. Sexual cannibalism occurs in roughly one quarter of all intersexual encounters of this species.
This female Stagmomantis carolina is eating her mate. Sexual cannibalism occurs in roughly one quarter of all intersexual encounters of this species.[3]
The New York Times provides this lurid description:
A male mantis approaches a female, flapping his wings and swaying his abdomen. Leaping on her back, he begins to mate. And quite often, she tears off his head. The female mantis devours the head of the still-mating male and then moves on to the rest of his body. […] If you put a pair together and come back later, you’ll just find the wings of the male and no other evidence he was ever there […] Sexual cannibalism has fascinated biologists ever since Darwin.[4]
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A male mantis ( ANDY) approaches a female ( LIKE A GAY BISEXUAL- YER RIGHT), flapping his wings ( BLUE ANGEL WINGS ) and swaying his abdomen ( THE GAY MINCE WALK). Leaping on her back, he begins to mate. And quite often, she tears off his head. The female mantis devours the head of the still-mating male and then moves on to the rest of his body. […] If you put a pair together and come back later, you’ll just find the wings of the male and no other evidence he was ever there [.SEE ANDY’S BLOG- THE BLUE WINGS ON THE BENCH..] Sexual cannibalism has fascinated biologists ever since Darwin.[4
and the wings that were left behind were cast into heaven, when god blew life into the world like a big gust of wind…
what a great title for a band….
The Greedy Grasshoppers
love you till the end.
the song is good, I love it
Dear M.,
I am sorry that I have never been a follower of your music. I am 11 years older so I think that really puts me into a different realm of artistry than you.
Presently I love your new work with Justin. You being a great businessperson, it was a cleaver move to have Brit incorporated in your new show. It is intriguing for your fans and giving Brit a chance to show her professions, kudos for you.
God bless you. It is hard be married to a strong Englishman . I have been married to one for 30 years. When we fall in love we think the accent is cute and not really realizing that they are European and so different from us Americans. Marriage is hard and at the end of the day your can snuggle up to someone who is really there for you.
God bless.
Patty Joyce
why would you sue c rod, how much more do you want to hurt this women, you are a cruel and mean and un holy person, where are your morals? what do they teach you in your religion, narcissium, and feel sorry for me as i home wrecked so many marriages with your monetary ruthlessness. Hey i said it once, i will say it again, you were cute in the eighties but now you look like a hag. what was the deal wearing a red slip, unlatched shoes and a hoodie, and sunglasses. give me a break for some one who wants to not be seen with that get up people notice. so you are all hype, phoney and worst of all you are an idol to young girls. i don’t know why maybe its the kissing britney. nice pals you hang with. nice mother roles, oh thats right you have no role, you create and it comes out manure.
I’m so excited that you are asking Britney to be a part of the tour. This is gonna be fasinating!!!
I had actually deleted this bookmark and found it on another computer.. Wow! It’s been revived.. COOL…
Girlfriends are like oxygen… A necessary part of life….
Dear Madonna,
In this comments one reader is giving you all kind of insults, which means that you are really wooing that woman’s husband heart. don’t you have a heart of your own. I am sure if your husband flirts with anybody you will be upset too. you have grown but I do not think that you will turn into an ugly ha… as she is saying. Stop playing with young and old man’s hearts and women too!!!!!They love you so don’t play with their hearts and remove that from your hand
Its amazing that your critics come to your blog to bag you. It shows what level their souls are at. You look Great you will always will. At least you can laugh at what is real and what is fantasy with Gwyneth.
IYour new CD is great thanks…
I CANNOT FUCKING BELIVE THAT U SENT ONLY 500 DOLLARS TO UR 97 YEAR OLD GRANDMA
YOU ARE FUCKED UP IN MANY WAYS
MADONNA
REALLY AND TRULY
THEN U CALL UR FATHER AND GET HIM IN THE MIDDLE
I HAVE MY SOURCES
MADONNA
U ARE SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO WRONG
AND U KNOW IT
Hi Madonna,
I stumbled upon your blog, I didn´t even know you have a blog. I just want to say how I admire your work, I love your music, your way to perform on stage and stay on tune with time through all those years. But I can´t imagine how tough it is to handle the fame. All those rumours and sad people that are after a little drama, to make their lives feel more comfortable to live in.
I work in the filmindustry, behind the camera, my work is very creative and I am dedicated to it 24/7. Having to handle peoples stupidity on top of that, daily, must be exhausting.
I am glad, that you have stayed strong and that you keep on making good music. Your new album is GREAT. I have listen to it 3 days in a row now. The music video of “4 minutes” is amazing. Who made it?
You never sieze to surprise and amaze me and I have listened to your music sinse the 80-s.
You look great too.
Just stay strong and know there are people out there who appreciate you for what you do professionaly and for who you are.
You inspire me in many ways.
Thanks for the new album.
Greetings from Stockholm
Maria
HI YOUR MAJESTY…TOTALLY LOVE HARD CANDY…HOPE YOU’RE PLANNING A BIG BASH FOR YOUR 50TH BDAY…WE LOVE YOU HERE IN CAPE TOWN, SOUTH AFRICA….WISH I COULD ATTEND YOUR LONDON CONCERT, MAYBE NEXT TIME…
I would never write this shit…or post this song…nothing is all that it seams…be aware my friends xx
Indeed, awareness is the doorway to our divine true self.
Maintaining awareness is exceedingly difficult for most people who do not have the fortitude of descerning wisdom to set flexible boundaries for themselves, with those who may not be at the same level of positive mental emotional well being.
While we are able to connect with the divine true self within another thru our sincerity with them, where they see and feel their own divine true self within you, many are not aware of how one maintains always just being their divine true self.
I met Mika, and he connected with me, in the same way i connected with him…unfailing sincerity devoid of useless doubt, where words do not even have to be spoken, as the feelings flow, calming us both. What a sweety he is, but i am afraid for his future, as he is ADHD, with an already low impulse control issue. Normal people have a difficult time with impulse control when it comes to substance abuse…add into the mix ADHD, and you have disaster in the future.
I do not assist or enable his substance abuse in my approach with him, and rather merely always there as a friend he can always turn to, unable to turn away from him, because of the hazardous direction his life is taking. I truly depise the drug dealers who know and care nothing at all about Mika’s condition of ADHD.
I am completely at ease and accepting of his condition, where most are not understanding, as i look for the sincerity in his soul, that is expressing himself artistically, verbally, poetically, musically in his singing, story telling in his theatrical wizardry of his writings, and in his fashion sense that he loves.
Field study is fascinating for me, as individuals are merely stuggling at being themself as they live and experience their life, however haphazard it may be.
i pray love and wisdom for Mika’s loving soul.
I composed a guitar piece for Mika, that i am still working on. It is one of my best yet, that has a harkening feeling to is, like that of the summoning of all souls into Porta Caeli. i will record and post it eventually, once i practice perfecting the timing of it.
Looking into returning to my music again, with new instruments, like a Martin guitar.
My guitar was always my best friend in life that i could turn to and feel good, if ever something painful in life came my way, soothing and calming for me, healing too.
I was speaking with a musician the yesterday, about the composer within. I said, “A composer connects with their sincere feelings within in a fearless way, that naturally comes with years of playing music, and the confidence that comes thru years of playing. As a musician, we connect with our feelings while playing music of other, but with composing, you open the door to expressing your feelings, which may be alot more intense than you first realize while exploring your own depth of soul, and sincerity of love you feel. Being fearless in exploring and expressing our feelings is the goal in composing, doing whatever it takes to get into the zone, like playing for four hours before entering into composition mode.
I have descovered that my love devoid of doubt is coming out in my compositions, and i am truly more excited than any previous time in my life as a musician. A true artist connects with their loving feelings and wants to express for sake of others feeling what they too feel.
While out walking, i felt the gentle breeze on my skin, the warmth of sun, and i realized that nothing can compete with real life experience, when it comes to loving another…not music, not art, not words written.
Out walking, talking, holding hands, hugging, kissing, swimming, biking with another, will always win over words written, albeit, writting is one of the best experiential techniques for maintaining positive mental emotional well being.
Still, nothing can take the place of a soft gentle kiss, or hand to hold.
Mika says to hug a tree.
Indeed, acceptance of the divine true self of others starts with acceptance of and knowingness of our own divine true self within. Jesus came to this place of certainty in his own mind, of his knowingness that others too are capable to come to the level of awareness he arrived at and journeyed, of love in each step, breath, heart beat and dance move! haha! 😉 😀
what?
well someone has to cheer this place up! 😉
HEY MADDY!!!
REMEMBER….JUST BREATHE AND….
OHMANAMSHIBAYA
OHMNAMASHIBAYA
OHMNAMASHIBAYA….
OHM SHANTI SHANTI SHANTI OHMMM….
BLESSING THE ENEMY, LOVE´S GOD IS THE SAME…
KISSES AND TIGHT HUG!!!
Vote Madonna… MTV VMA 2008 HollyWood
http://www.mtv.com/ontv/vma/2008/best-female-video/
Best Female Video: 4 Minutes
Give It 2 Me
Madonna Needs Our Votes.. C’Mon!!
i’ve become a nude model 2 earn money 4 myself & i feel really ashamed. i know you were a nude model yourself M (i’ve done a tribute 2 you as well, look @ my page),please help me get thru this, you’re still my no.1!
i am in san antonio,texas.there is no society here worth staying for.i talked to the illustrious potentate of the local #99 freemasons,he told me something about the future of this area.i understand that arian brotherhood want this state,and want me out because i am the godspirit of the american skinheads.nobody can compete with me,cuz i have all the books that the movies are using and it takes one good out-burst and i am on thier game and tell the mehecans whos who.i have the 1980 revcon prince 33 foot motorhome,from dalongega georgia,i was told to buy.and the 327 v8 from a 1969 impala to put in my truck.and the z1r-900 kawasaki motorcycle,you people are going to get me black-balled in the union,if you do not stick to u.s.a. products,madonna.please tell hollywood that.i will have to custom an exterier for it not to be noticed,readily.are you coming back to the u.s. now that your divorcing guy?i would like to live in the same square as you,because i know you are at such a level in ambiguity,that -that place is best for our people.3456 BT,2.5 .i may go to france to get what i need from the society around me,i do not want to raise children in texas with this silent confederate side-line.the mehecans are at war with the A.B. and do not recognize any left-wingers.the only gang i represent in my strongest form with is SLUM-BOARD,they are like E.M.E. i deal great with them also.alot are coming over to our side in secret.they are tired of the racism.i also found the mask from the 15th century,with the long nose it is so masculin,i love it.$55 out of california.i may go to oregan,then down into cali.the union is paying electritians $48 an hour in san francisco.i want to jion that local committee of 300,chapter 31.they say i am up for an aunterage prospect,under robt. williams,who was anton levays prospect.i am a secret inside free masonry,just like you who i respect most,your THE MOST!
Hi Madonna,
I have been a major, big time, ‘hell of’ Madonna fan for 25 years. I just wanted to express my support for you. I admire you so much. I am now 45 with 2 girls 7 and 6 but when I was at UCLA I will never forget when I heard Borderline and thought who is this amazing new black singer? It makes me so incredibly sad to read people bashing you on this site. They SO need a hobby. I have a confession.. in 1991 I was working for a famous rock star whose music I wasn’t into and I wanted to work for you so I put a letter/resume on an exact replica of the open your heart bustier and delivered it to Oriole way.. I bought it at Trashy Lingerie on La Cienega. Now that I am older, I think how pathetic, I know, but I really wanted to try to work for someone whose music I loved and was in my 20s… Anyway, I danced on the stage with you at the AIDS danceathon in 1990 in LA and met you once at Roxbury during the Body of Evidence era. You were so cute in person. So tiny like a little Venus De Milo. Anyway, for what its worth f**ck everyone who says mean things. You RULE. write me puhleeeeeze
oh–almost forgot. Remember Facade on La Cienega circa 1985 and that club in Manhattan around the same time that was in a church?? 85 was SUCH a great year. ya think? So fun growing up with you!
Hi, i´m from argentina, sorry if the question don´t like you, and sorry for my english, is it realy you Madonna who are writing? This is not for what friends are for note, is only to know if you are writing all of that, if so it´s amazing, I know you are making a lot for poor people, living your life, singing, a so on, and I am realy happy that people like you make that, and also write for the fans, here in Argentina we need more like you!! you are an example of human in the world. Thanks for being what you are. If you are coming to argentina next december I hope you have a wanderfull stay and feel the love of all of us. I love you. Once I would like to see you and only hug you and be a part of your life just while that hug happens.
Adrian.
This blog is FAKE!
Dear Madonna
I have always loved your music and your art. At the moment, I am sending you lots of positive vibes during this difficult time. As a fan, I will never purchase or read your brother’s book.
I am horrified and can’t believe he is dumb enough to do this to himself. The media will turn on him. He is portraying himself as the poor, little neglected brat. I feel sorry for him…
Keep strong!!
Lots of love Rose
hi.
Hi, how ya doin? You need to chuck this “macrobiotic diet” nonsense and eat a few good pies. A good steak pie and chips would give you the energy you lack – seriously. Steak pie, chips, and peas. Normal food – not this fashionable macriobiotic stuff. All your problems can be solved by pies. Have a nice steak pie, chips and peas on me.
And have a lie down a bit. You do too much running around. Have a lie down and eat some good food for a change.
I know it sounds like I’m joking but I’m not. You need to do some things which normal people do. Chuck all the weird stuff and try doing normal things. Act normal, eat normal, live normal. I like normal. The singing and dancing and your work can be exceptional, but for the rest of your life, normal would be good.
Feel free to ignore me. But I am the voice of reason.
Your friend Gweneth scored when she married the hottie from COLDPLAY.
Their new song Viva la Vida… OMG….
Possibly THE BEST SONG EVER!! outside of your work my dear… cuz I LOVE YOU…. but… this is the bomb… come on.. ya godda give it to em… http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O5I3RPbS8aI&NR=1
WHAT A FAKE!!!
Friends!
She’s not the real Madonna on the blog! This blogger is a woman that wrote on another blog 1 year ago and than she confessed the truth! She wrote: “”I tried to take things that happened to me or friends and apply them to Madonna and how she’d react to them. The longer I did it the better I got at it. When I first started it was obvious that it was a joke, but I do see that the longer I did it the more convincing it was. I’m sincerely sorry to the ones who really thought it was her. I really thought you were laughing along with the rest of us. I even thought that Madonna would laugh if she read them. She used to have a great sense of humor! I’m going to keep blogging. I don’t care if anyone reads it or not. I do this for fun. I will still post funny stories and everything. I will never lose my sense of humor. If you post negative comments, they will not appear.!” Now the other blog does not already exist and she’s created this ’cause all Madonna’s fans was very angry with her!
I’m a fan too and I don’t like this joke of illusion for all of us!
Now plese post this comment or I’ll write private messages to everyone to advise them!
People, play attention!
It’s good that Coldplay song because it’s simple and catchy, and doesn’t try to be more than it is.
Really can’t stand the rest of their stuff, though. Pretentious and overblown.
http://www.shotdeadinthehead.com/products/info.php?products_id=114
THE PROVE SHE’S NOT MADONNA!
Go back on blog!
On february 17 she wrote than she didn’t find the title for the new album (sorry for my english if it’s not perfect), but the real Madonna decided it BEFORE this date!
This article is dated 1st february 2008.
Go to see it on this link!
http://music-flash.blogspot.com/2008/02/madonna-licorice-il-nuovo-album-in.html
you are right Val it is a fake blog, i don’t understand how it is possible to believe it is the true Madonna, thank you Val for your sens of reality…
I actually feel better out of my 12 year relationship, of no more toxic feelings each day like before. Not of accusing any, rather of my awareness of such, as happiness seems to be flowing within me, of the me who will not tolerate any more inappropriateness from anyone ever again, or at least not for long, setting healthy boundaries along the way.
With you M, i have come to know i need no boundaries, of someone i sincerely and completely trust, like none other i have before. I have said this many times before, of not knowing why it i trust you at the level that i do. Perhaps because we pose no threat to one another, of dear loving sincerity that comes with soul mate friends?
Truly, it is a most loving feeling beyond all the riches of the world for me, that i have explored and felt with you since and before we first started chatting, of what i had not expected or anticipated i would feel, knowing you too felt it too.
Always know that i love you, of the depth of the sincere love that my divine true self is, 100% love for you, now and forever more…eternal love i suppose, like that of Jesus, where it is silly to be unloving, is it not? duh! 😉 😀
I feel the same for Matt, and i know he feels it too, just as i feel for many souls i have met in life, and continue to meet.
We connected M, both with each other and with our divine true self within, and i know you felt it too, praying that you always feel the sincerity we have come to know, of my daily prayers for you and those you love.
Only love is good enough for Jesus, you, me and others…at all times.
Love one another.
Words they cut like a knife ..i dont wanna hear your words….we have a good vibe ..the best tour yet ? are you ready or are you paying for the top
paying for the top? huh?
i am a top, why would i pay for one? lol 😉 😀
ready for a hand to hold, but not just any hand to hold. Only one that yearns to hold mine like i do theirs will do, of gentle sincerity like when we are alone praying, the divine true self that loves without useless doubt, unlike so many yet full of insecurity, fear and the manifesting behaviours that come with aimless uncertain soul conditions. Bin there. done that. not again.
It is what i want most in life, where everything else is second. Finding a true loving soul mate to live out the rest of my life with, will see everything else flow from the joyful loving couple that sets an example for all to easily know love is beyond all the riches of the world.
Oh, you must be talking about Kyle! Ya, Kyle is a beautiful guy. loves his pot. loves me. too dysfunctionall for me though. I mean this guy smokes pot every single day, for the past six years. Still, i love him alot, as he is so relaxing to be around, albeit, i think his pot use is effecting his sexual funtioning. He actually walks strangely because of his chronic pot use, and a small speech impediment that may or may not be a result of his self abuse. Reminds me alot of Mike, and how Mike behaves, always smiling.
paying for a top. ha. as if that will ever happen, what with this body? who would not want this body? duh!
i suppose Kyle is broke most of the time, and i guess you could say it is abit of a codependent relationship at times, but he’s so fucking adorable!
and dysfunctional. ah well, i can function for him!
actually, he does not like to hold my hand in public, so he is off my list of potential partners.
why is it people don’t recognize a good thing when the have it? Are they really that stunned? lol 😉 😀
apparently so. ah well. who wants someone that don’t want them? does not work when it is only one sided.
I was thinking of you lately, hoping you are feelings as sincere as i do. lit a candle for you this morning. one for Matt too. and Rosie.
if you love someone, and yearn for them, let them know. If it is mutual, great! If not…at least you expressed how you felt for them, good for them, and good for you as well, to feel the depth of your own spirit and soul, which radiates thru them to others, and back to you again. 😉
Why hide how we feel for another, if it is true of us?
well ok, there are many reasons not to open up to others, such as those who may not be appropriate for us, and instead, we eventually come to realize they were not what we thought, nor need. Who needs or wants dysfunction? Go ahead if you must. We eventually feel the results of our own decisions. Personally, i am done with the idiots.
A camera grew drove by shelter yesterday, filming from the door of a van as they drove by. Always alot of film productions here in the city.
Cruise time! 😉
i miss you.
Valentine… Did you ever think.. We don’t care if it’s real or not?… We love the blog…
Why are you so worried?
Dearest Madonna,
first of all it´s a great pleasure to have a possibility to comunicate with you. I found this blog only today…thanks!!!!
I have kept you from since as my “universal” sister and I “ti voglio bene” a lot – I am a finnish woman and at about the same age you moved to NY i started my experiences in living in italy from 1991 moved alone in Milan. After 10 difficult years (imagine from scandinavia to latin country learning the language, social life and all the rest…surely the most difficult is in the working field) the lady in the next door talked to me about buddishm. Firstly I could´n understand it and I tried not to go ahead but misticly one other dearest frend of mine talked it to me again after not to see him for a long time – he has converted to buddishm and this way, i understood that this practice i could not leave it anymore.
Now after 7-8 years after conversion in buddhism I understand that this is a huge occasion to give me and my life could be orientated for a reason and a happy future I want to realize could be mine. this means anyway working very hard with the difficult side of me, while living with all kind of difficulties around. Still I can say i have received some important very personal benefits by chanting.
You Madonna are doing it too in your way and i am sure you will super them since you have won so many other obstacles in your life!
I am also very fond of the idea of your interest to kabbalah. (i have only once studied some parts of it when I studied astrology)
Also with this occasion I express to you Madonna my deepest gratitude, you have been to me all these 20 years a great teacher in life listening your music and “feeling” your feelings that has given me a very big hand to go ahead and that I have learned lot of things from your incredible way to transform your life and passing them to me as teachings.
I hope you all the best and I wish you the most most pleaseant and peaceful summer and to make an excellent candy tour as the confession one was!!!!!
Big big hug
Minna
Oh I love this song! It is so beautiful, and I hope it will be sung forever.
I LOVE YOU M. I hope that you`re administrator blog. Unless read it.
As a white collar professional who deals with difficult individuals who try to propagate BS as a way of life, I feel deep empathy for the trials and tribulations that you have had to go through. I believe that you are not involved in the Rodriguez scandal, I truly believe that, and it is unfortunate that you have been put in the middle of something that you are truly uninvolved with. Stay strong, and remember who your true friends really are. It is better to have a few true blue friends; rather than suffer through a number of sycophantic admirers who are out for their own gain. I am waiting on pins and needles to see you in Chicago, center stage. Take care and stay true to your family, your children, and your faith. That is what really matters.
Ingredable your welcome to my party, see ya soon xxx
Ingredable your welcome to my party, see ya soon xx
Clearly this woman is not Madonna!! I’m sorry, but there is only one way to communicate with her and that is to go through her people!!!
If this blog were legit, which it is not, then there would be a link to it from her OFFICIAL website. And furthermore, if Madonna had a blog then it would not be on some public site like this. She would do the logical thing and have her tech team take care of it and make her a blog on her website!!!
I feel incredibly sorry for all of you who have been duped by this cruel joke. Now lets see how long it takes for this post to be ripped down!! Bet it won’t take long!!
Crusty Candy Girl…did you block me?
Where’s Crusty Candy Girl? MIA for awhile now.
I’m shocked I’m gagging..I’ve started my alcohol ban, none now until the tour is over …”Put your hands up for Detroit” xXx
bless you.
Truly a life without alcohol is a pure life of sincerity and true gracefulness that is true of the divine true self by nature.
Forteen years of clean and sober, i truly know that clean and sober is the only way for the divine true self of me, where in acknowledging the truth of this, i easily know it to be true of everyone.
Why invite such things into our path of an exceeding joyful loving life?
Truly i do not want such things in my path, nor in your path, nor in Matt’s path, nor of the path of anyone.
I ask for forgiveness from Jesus and God for unwisely inviting such things into my path, when ever i relapse, which is less than five times a year now, and with recent events, may see me cast it from my life forever more.
Truly i wish all of you to not invite these things into your precious loving lives, especially you Matt, of whom i know is at high risk of high risk behaviour.
I pray for safe passage of you to journey, of a journey which will see the natural exceeding joyfulness of a healthy divine true self, merely by your desire to just be who you are right now, delicate, sensitive, tender and loving.
Jesus and God summon you to the wisdom which your divine true self feels the truth of these things i speak of. Truly, it is the divine will of Jesus and God that you feel the truth of the divine true self of YOU.
bless you, bless you, bless you.
yeah,friends are good.friends can disagree or come to blows but they wind up laughing.tiffs between friends,and the resolution of momentary anger,makes for the best friendships.we all must slip sometimes.Those moments when we don’t feel forgiving towards ourselves ,and so,friendships don’t have a chance to grow slowly and firmly,by time and season.To be even cornier;the song on the other side of the coin plays”I don’t want ourlives…to be over..”…….but its true.forgive,forget are good words and betterrealities.Before I went away from a recent jaunt in the woods it occured to me that it would truely be a bizarre strange event for anyone to be seen leaving said central park west apt building.if it makes you feel better,many people areupset to see there number2 news story when they toon in is not about important problems and sollutions but what the famous are doing.To boot,they know their lying!!!!!!!!!!h Ditto for a hard week.I learned about myself and others through it all ,actually not crying on the bus from seeing so many in discomfort and various distress.crying on the bus.jeesh.we alwayse knew you would be there for britney at THE RIGHT TIME.Bearing in mind that i am also a mean person and can wax nasty,hurtful mouth,it is not brown nosing to say that you are very wise.And……considerate…………and generous……………….plus your kind. rock on dude purdas dafogoo
We are not what the business machine of society would like us to be, of slavery mentality that buys into it all, like owning a car, a house, the false status of life sensibility that many hold their noses above the meek and weak, which disconnects from the sincerely loving and gentle divine true self within themselves, as though they are so much greater than the weakest and meekest among us, shunning them as outcasts, when in truth, the weakest and meekest one is of more connected with the sincere feelings of the divine true self than the ones who shun them as outcasts, making them seem as though unworthy of even speaking with them.
Ok, not all are like this, but many there are who are not of the gentle grace of their own divine true self.
For me, i see so much absurdness daily, it bewilders me of just how snared so many souls are, and worse, the weak and meek actually buy into all the falseness that surrounds them.
~ an observation
So what could M truly want for her birthday, that she does not already have?
You already have my heart, so besides that, what else could you wish for?
Ok. Let’s not go there. 😉
Sometimes i get these moments in my day, where i feel lifted beyond the mundane life i actually am living. Not sure what it is, other than it has to do with the future of my life, of where i know my path is one of a wholesome fun loving life with someone loving of me and i them.
What does it matter what we own or what status any of us are, where one can easily choose to live a wholesome healthy life free of substance abuse and the anxiety that comes with such?
I am excited about my future, in my knowingness that it will be free of the unwiseness i once participated with many others, of the first half of my life.
Please, please, please know fully and completely the depth and truth of my words of my life experience which saw how dangerous and haphazard one can easily fall into substance abuse issues, which derail the ability for the divine true self within to sincerely live a wholesome fun loving and exceedingly joyful healthy life with one just like you.
Pray to Jesus and God, asking forgiveness of the unwiseness of inviting such into your life, including unwise descerning for entertaining friendships or lovers who may be participating in such, for no one escapes the truth of the reality that comes with substance abuse, including those who associate with individuals who may not desire to become free of their unwise learned behaviours.
I discovered my sincere connection with Jesus, God and my divine true self while praying, where my divine true self has Jesus and God to be 100% safe and supportive of me.
Ya, i know, some of you may look apon me as some religious freak. Truly i tell you, Jesus and God are 100% safe and supportive of me, and are restoring me fully, where i feel certainty of my future path to be forever free of the absurd unwisenesses which snare so many in life who think causual drinking and associating with such is ok. Truly, time reveals the truth of these things i speak of, where i pray for all to become wise of unwiseness which fails to descern for sake of themselves and those they love.
When we turn towards Jesus and God, we turn towards sincerity of our divine true self within and the divine true self within others.
A peaceful loving life is for those who come to know themselves, who come to awareness and feel the sincere emotions of their own divine true self. Jesus and God will this apon us all, and will apon us the descerning wisdom which nurtures and protects our ability to live a wholesome fun loving life of exceeding joyfulness which comes natural to those who are deliberate in their health approach to life.
One cannot live a healthy life without descerning wisdom.
I am thankful of where my path is this day, of the dark passage of spiritual death i currently am surrounded by, where the light is bright, by means of the contrasting darkness and illnesses of heart, mind, body, spirit and soul of nearly everyone at the hostile i am currently a resident. Truly, it is a passage of great depth of learning, which is ushering me into a future life that will remain free of absurd unwiseness.
I am deeply saddened by my inability to assist those who are so deeply snared physically, mentally and emotionally by substance abuse, encouraging all i speak with to come free of it, asking their counselors for a rehab program referral, if only they would. I do not recall seeing so many not only caught in substance abuse, but also caught in the group dynamics of substance abuse mentalities/personalities which feed into the notion that it is OK to continue, to the degree they actually think it is cool.
Scared straight, i guess you could say. Truly i have seen enough to ensure my future will remain free of such learned behaviors, where i now question why i even bother hanging out in the ghetto, where so many are of substance abuse, where indeed, alcohol is substance abuse.
OK…that was my sermon for the day.
Jesus and God summon and bless us all with wisdom that protects and love that nurtures the divine true self within us all.
Please choose to become wise, for sake of you and those you love, and for sake of the example which others are affected/effected.
bless you, bless you, bless you.
i love you
Truly, my love is with you in every sincere step towards feeling the tender loving feelings of your divine true self…at all times.
Truly, any other direction is the wrong direction, is it not? 😉
truly, i love you
i used to be a dreamer, but then i woke up to the sincere feelings, delicate, sensitive and true of the divine true self me.
Best of all, it is true of everyone! 😀 😀
I’ve personally reported this site to Warner Bros and asked them if it was real and to rip it off the net if it is not Madonna. They haven’t yet.
So….maybe it is Madonna….Most people don’t believe it…fun for her right?
I sent these sites to Liz herself!
hello Madonna.
im from Mexico.
let me tell u these ….here in Mexico every day the radio play u music
i really like it.
U NEED REALL FRIENDS, SOMETIMES THE PEOPLE WHO IS AROUND U.
THEY JUST LOOKING FOR U MONEY
TRIE TO SEARCH NEW STAFF. HONESTLY PEOPLE
GODBLESS U ALWAYS JESUS LOVE U
Truly, she is a free loving spirit of exceeding delight and joyfulness, yes?
I am too, but lately, life has kicked me around, ever reminding me of where i don’t belong, of those who unfortunate for them, are not suitable for me at times.
So many there are who are complete jerks with me! agghh!
ah well…makes it easy for me to descern when they are…Next!
You there…what’s your name?
😉 😀
You have no idea how special you are to me, in feeling your true self that i connect with.
Truly, i don’t know why it is that i don’t feel overwhelmed by you, as i feel the sincerity of gentle loving You that has no desire to ever hurt me, or at least that is how it feels for me when i am around you.
of course, i want to always be safe and supportive of your true self, of the way you just are. I am so amazed by how healthy you are, for more than i am, of this i know you know the truth. I get my good days, bad days emotionally.
Is it just me, or is there something special between us (still)?
My heart pounds at the thought of you and Brit Brit together.. you previously blogged about going back and giving to B again…soooo amazing M. your music moves but your actions soar. she needs you.. i love that you need her too. give receive ..make’n the world go round ;D
Judas was always loving never turning his back in my moments of ignorance never reacting to intentionally inflict pain as some form of revenge, instead accepting my short comings and continuing to embrace me with his loving soul unconditionally, by doing so allowing me to heal and grow in love and light with minimal pain, his compassionate patience in me and warm loving embrace always there for me in my moments of Despair, instead I turned my back to him, with out reason without cause for I judged him and without consideration without thanks, without patience, now I walk alone unable to turn back, experiencing that inflicted pain. Perhaps one day I will be forgiven for the love and tenderness I so dearly miss, I doubt I will find anywhere else.
And yet it was the ignorance for such was the insecurity and doubt that caused a judgement of error for I was not with Judas that night, but instead another with whom I had sought to take away the pain, for I was alone, abandoned and rejected by the one that I had sought with which I had offered my heart and love I would have waited if I was desired but unable to discern or clarify my concern, I was left with very little choice, now I have experienced that inflicted pain from another as I had also done to another, once there were three, then two now there are none, not even one, as one became lost inside the frost.
Without communication there is a manifestation of misrepresentation = darkness
Open communication manifests cooperation = brightness
as clear as black and white
But you’re always right, and way too uptight you gave me a fright by abusing your might, the other night, how about assisting me to help make it alright.
I still want to hold you but only if, it is alright
Next time “JUST ASK” openess & honesty from the truth you shall recieve, as i wear no mask.
No point beating around the bush, I am bitter and angry as hell for the way I have been treated for so many years. It will remain like that until the situation is resolved. I’m being honest here.
However … as I have said before, plenty of high-quality begging for forgiveness will go a long way towards sorting the matter. I am sure things can be sorted. OK.
I’ll see Madonna a week on Saturday. 🙂
Indeed, life teaches us the truth wisdoms about our divine true self, but only when we take time to reflect on the greatest treasure in life one shall ever find, ‘that’ of the loving purity and sincerity of our divine true self.
Be thankful of the purity and sincerity you come to know of your divine true self, irregardless of how others may or may not be in their conduct with you, in your turning towards feeling the treasure you come to know of YOU, no different than the same way Jesus came into the knowingness of the greatest treasure one shall ever find in life.
Entering fully into Porta Caeli, we feel the fearlessness there, which does not seek to correct another, while being what Porat Caeli is, of the pure divinity of Jesus, God, and your divine true self.
Many there are who do not seek the cognitive level of understanding, aimlessly of the subconscious searching of purity and sincerity within and of others instead. In purity, we easily feel compassion for the innocent souls unknowingly snared by unwiseness and their crucial lacking of desire for wisdom, rather than judgemental, where our loving feelings of compassion feel the truth of their anxieties and fear which no longer plague us in Porta Caeli.
Learn to be always nurturing and protective of your divine true self which yearns to always be found of the purity and loving sincerity of your divine true self, for the world does not seek to nurture or protect the divine true self, where our knowingness of nurturing and protecting the purity and loving sincerity within another, reveals the truth of this fully and with clarity of our feelings which see the obvious truth in the conduct and approach of others.
Responsibility for others, starts with responsibility of our divine true self, where when nurtured and protected, others feel their own loving sincerity, merely by us being among them, where our conduct is always of loving sincerity, pure and true of the divine true self within and within another.
Turning towards the hypocrisy heart leads away, not towards the purity and loving sincerity of our divine true self, when in time, our loving feelings of sincerity in our cognitive reflecting and searching of our heart, reveals the obviousness of these unwise bitter things of the hypocrisy heart that we can easily pluck and cast from us.
I always did despise foolish hypocrisy conduct, my entire life, in their bitter gnashing of teeth about others.
Do not invite bitterness into the loving heart, mind, body, spirit and soul of the divine true self which despises the unwiseness of the hypocrisy heart, that of which we easily see and feel with clarity, just how bitter their bitterness feels which grips their precious loving souls, indeed, able to derange and lead away from their divine true self.
Everyone needs to take the responsibility of nurturing and protecting their own divine true self, just as we do, just as Jesus did, of our embracing of wisdom which protects, and love that nurtures, able to always be found of loving sincere conduct that is of Jesus, God, and our divine true self.
Know this…the pure loving sincere feelings that are 100% true and sincere, are of Jesus, God and our divine true self, where it is in these moments of standing in Porta Caeli, that we are connected with Jesus, God and our divine true self.
Fully becoming ‘that’ of our divine true self at all times, is not small feat, and indeed, many souls there are which do not accomplish this in their life time.
Truly are of knowingness of the truth of where we always wish to BE, merely by means of feeling what the loving sincere feelings of our divine true self feels like, alone, or with another.
Magical is the feeling for the loving soul mate lovers who are of the loving sincerity of their divine true selves, where in doing so, the discover that once united, they no longer concern themselves of the fear that the world projects, for they have turned fully towards one another in sweet anticipation of each other, hourly, daily, forever more, having turned away from the world which once troubled them. The nurturing and protecting of the divine true self for the two soul mates comes natural for them in their turning towards one another, of eyes only for each other, of their always yearning for love’s embrace of the loving lovers.
I too am yet growing in wisdom and certainty of the greatest treasure one shall ever find, where my yearning for loving sincerity and peaceful grace within, is what i am becoming more and more as time passes.
Like all of you, i am always that of a humble student of Jesus and God’s loving compassionate wisdom which restores the divine true self within us all.
By choice, i have turned towards Jesus, God and my divine true self, and in doing so, i turn towards the divine true self within everyone, here in Porta Caeli, where indeed, the beginning and the end is of the same place, is it not?
The forces of negative and positive energy clash in the world, of wisdom replacing useless ignorance, love replacing absured hate and jealousies, of compassion replacing empty apathies which lead to now where, and certainly not to Jesus, God, me and your divine true self.
When one comes to knowingness of fearless loving sincerity, they feel the truth of all things with clarity, compassionate of the truth of the many innocent souls born into the (yet) unwise world full of ignorances which snare so many souls, holding captive the world in great sufferings and despairs.
God’s loving sincerity is of us all, sadly (yet) unattended, (yet) unnurtured, and (yet) unprotected for so many souls that dwell here in Heaven all around us.
Peace be to you.
Nothing to sort out for me with regards to my recent break up of a twelve year relationship.
At some point we may salvage a friendship, but the break up is permanent, with his ex now moved in with him, me signed off the lease…it’s over.
Been a few weeks of freedom, and i have to say, i am loving my freedom over condescending belittling that my ex gave me daily. I know, manifestations of low self esteem is why he behaves the way he does, but to call the police and trump charge on me, wrongfully sending me to prison, and bragging about it with his friends that he did it to help get me away from druggies? Sorry, that’s just too much for me to trust ever again, indicative of something that feels like a progressive illness for me, of which i am now free of.
I will comply with the judge…no contact…thank you Your Honor.
Anna? You are amazing with your fearless connectedness of self within, of such depth and patience of understanding with true certainty, fearless of embracing truth, even of mistakes we sometimes make.
Your words stimulated my thoughts, where i felt a moment of certainty about how any conduct which leads away from our loving sincerity connectedness of self within, or self of another, in my mind, is of the ones who are yet immature, including ourselves at times of course.
But here is the problem for me. I don’t see the desire in others to reach for understanding, like you do, and that is where i get discourage fast, when issues that need to be addressed are not, and psychological stuckness continues with those who don’t desire understanding that ushers us into being of the sincere grace, fearlessness and tender lovingness of our divine true self at all times, which for me is a path that i am on, of my knowingness of how my future self is, having dwelled with my future self, ever of my sincere desire to continue nurturing the growth and addressing protection required, such as my recent exiting of an unhealthy relationship that was toxic for me.
While you appear to be blaming yourself for the breakup, i look at the truth of my knowingness of loving sincere conduct of the divine true self, and i question the truth of the maturity level of Judas, of my knowingness that Judas, if of the required maturity needed for you, would not behave as such.
In this reqard, Judas is not the soul mate meant for you…at that time, nor any time, so long as they are not able to sit down and talk heart to heart with one another as sincere loving friends like you do here.
Truly, your words are moving for me.
Your words of, ‘love and tenderness I so dearly miss, I doubt I will find anywhere else.’ caused me to feel a gentle moment of sincerity that describes how i feel for M, and those i know of loving tenderness, like Matt.
I do hope you keep writing Anna. Writing is an excellent experiential technique that helps us maintain positive mental emotional well being, so keep writing.
And yes, is why i keep writing, of my knowingness that it assists my growth and nurturing of my true self that yearns to feel connectedness of loving sincerity at all times, where i am not yet there at this point in time…of the toxic environments i yet find myself in, not by choice…or at least i don’t think so(projection identification perhaps?)
I will say this, i am glad my ex terminated the relationship, rather than me, as i could not bring myself to leave, hurting him…although in truth, staying was hurting us both.
I love the outfits M.
My spirit has been set free to just be me…no more toxic feelings will i tolerate…or at least not for long. snap snap
breakups are always so…my body actually feels it all over at times, a detox sorta feeling i guess, as i take a deep breath, a chapter of my life over, a new chapter begins.
Harder than i thought, walking out the door for the last time, of a sancuary i became so comforable in. Not sure how long it will take to regain myself. This is a tough one for me, yet each day i feel excitement building and growing of a new life approaching, a new lover, a new space, a new grace? 😉
In retrospect, i recall waiting during the day for my ex to dig his claws into me, and i started counting how many times a day he did.
I would wake in my peaceful state, gracefully get out of bed and begin my morning routine, feeling fantastic…and then, the condescending belittling…ANNOYING!!!!…behavior of my ex would start, and every time, i felt it, the negativity that cut thru me, lessening the graceful loving feeling i was feeling, fear cast into me, anxiety building…fuck that!
No more. Not again will i tolerate such negative approaches as much as i did my ex. And yet he treated everyone but me like royalty. jerk!
like i said, it would be nice if one were loving all the time, and more often.
I have learned that this has to do with the yearning of the divine true self within to always feel fearless, free of absurd anxiety the world projects, to always feel…well…divine! 😉
i hope you are getting the proper rest.
Each day is more peaceful than the one before, as i find my confidence restoring to normal levels, actually better than before, although i know i am not out of the woods yet…
It has felt like i have been violated, somewhat traumatizing for me.
I know he’s too young, not of the same maturity, nor same passions, ambitions,
I just wanted to say Thank you. I have one daughter age 12 and we just finally got around to reading English Roses. She cried… she kept saying I am so thankful to have a mom, and you know what, its ok to be different. Thank you so much for finally getting through to her what I have been trying to for years. I’ve always been the artsy fartsy one, the one that went against the grain, always the different one… now my daughter sees it’s ok, and that my dear is an awesome feeling. I have watched you and admired you throughout the years, continue being just you M, you’re an inspiration to more then you know. Thanks again E
PS good luck on your tour
Ya. me too. i am not ready for anyone right now. too messed up. over sensitive. unfocused. uncertain. confidence issues.
why is it people kick the fuck out of ya when life goes down for you financially. what a bunch of fucking morons, treating me like i am a loser, when in truth…
oh wait…”I’m FREE! I’m FREE! I’m FREE!!!!” 😉 😀
why am i complaining when i have nothing to complain about here in the present…where looking back, our hearts do indeed turn to stone, do we not? ha.
Running!
“Im FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!” 😉
hmmm….easier than i thought it would be.
even my boss treats me like a loser now, when i have been his financial advisor for years…can you believe that? jerks!
I can’t believe the way people can be such jerk offs! fuck!
i will soon ditch his ass too…motherfuckers. 😉
deep breaths…inhale…exhale…hummmmmm…
compassion for the morones….hummmmmm…
ah, fuck this…im going out dancing!!! 😀 😀
FREEDOM!!!!
of course, the greatest prison of all, is our own minds…rendered useless by some people…so long as we don’t build apon our own understanding and insight.
Jesus was right. We all hold the key to freedom of our divine true self, able to free, nurture and protect our divine true self from useless, absurd, unwiseness of the morons, all the while having compassion for them…but dwelling among them too long…no wonder Jesus left them alone for long periods of time…so they could grow. 😉
Truly, i understand.
ok…i am not entirely blameless.
My own insincerity has now surrendered to sincerity in my exiting a relationship i was not truly happy to be in since the beginning…admitedly, i sought shelter at the time, thinking a couple years…that turned into twelve years.
Now, being sincere to my self, happy to be free of inappropriateness which likely stems from his subconscious awareness of my not being truly happy at all times…as difficult as it may be for us both…we will be happier with someone else. I feel abandonment guilt, but not in the sense that one may think. I feel i am now sincere in leaving, of no desire to return, knowingness of my own feelings of insincerity all those years, where today, i feel guilty for staying, rather than leaving, hinder both of us from true happiness.
although, had i commited whole heartedly, we could of become happier in addressing our needs and commitment to making it work.
I will not entertain thoughts of returning, and instead stay true to myself, now free to fully experience the loving souls of others, of my full attention and appreciation to do so, unattached to thoughts of loss or returning to something i sincerely do not wish to.
Does not make him a bad person, rather incompatible for me at this point in time. Truly, he is and was a loving soul for me, precious indeed, but i want something of more grace and purity of sincerity with someone, which neither of us seemed to connect with at a deeper level of sincerity which is of me, of my knowingness of loving sincere feelings of my divine true self.
I will be there as a friend, like most gay couples are when the split, unlike the hetersexuals are in many cases, of our maturity to do so…family.
ya…im ok…as you can tell by my ability to think rational in my certainty of understanding clarity…likely because of my thinking it over for the last few years.
Only one life to live. CHOOSE wisely.
Truly, i have experienced sincere appreciation in meeting new souls, precious and true like my own.
I love meeting, interacting and getting to know new people, where i connect with thru sincerity with and of the divine true self within us.
Actually, that is what i love most about life, interacting with the soul of others, feeling the sincere joy and happiness of them shine radiant and bright…now if i can just find the key to this damn shackle around my leg. ha. 😀 😀
Happy birthday!!!!!!!! a very big kiss from italy.
Happy Birthday girlfriend!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 😉
of course i love you! duh!
Happy Birthday M!!!!!!! You look like a young girl!!
I wish you a wonderful day!
Much love
Hey M just wanted to wish you a happy 50th birthday! You look just as hot as you did 25 years ago! I’m resting at home sick today watching an afternoon dedicated to you on the Star network in Canada. Have fun on your birthday 😀
ya. i thought so too. She looks better than she ever has, in such perfect shape, physically, mentally, emotionally….just perfect please!
oh, how i could lay next to her…no problems…just perfect.
but only if she passes the rule: They must love me!
give it up…let me have my way…which is the same direction as you, is it not?
Only LOVE is good enough for me.
Only love is good enough for YOU.
Only Love is good enough for YOU. 😉
The expensive!!! Spit lie and envy round you!!! Envious persons wish to misdirect you, to destroy your rest and everything that you have created!!! Dear to listen to provocations and to endure – not our method. You are a beauty, the clear head and the remarkable skilled adviser. Spit gossips about operations, changes and other bosh!!! We do not trust these rascals!!! (Russia)
Happy birthday Madonna! Love and kisses x
M, what’s the matter with you, more than a month you didn’t blog ! Are you sure to be the Real Queen of Pop ?
There’s something strange in your blog, you talk and talk and talk, but nobody has never seen you face. By the way, can you tell me why this video from the real Madonna from You tube (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kCkwYuoqnyo) can’t be found on your blog ? Sounds like it smells fake on this blog…
Gbai
there are 10,000s of us sitting in Cardiff getting very board waiting. come on it’s not like there’s even a supporting act here for gods sake !
YOU are the supporting (act)! 😉 😀
MADONNA – HOW CAN YOU CALL IT A WORLD TOUR WHEN YOU ARE NOT GOING ALL OVER THE WORLD???? HONESTLY, I READ SOME OF THESE COMMENTS FROM PEOPLE, WHO CAN’T WAIT TO SEE YOU ON YOUR TOUR, WHAT DO THESE PEOPLE HAVE DIFFERENT TO WHAT THE 20 MILLION AUSTRALIANS HAVE WHO HAVE BROUGHT YOUR ALBUMS FOR THE LAST 20 YEARS. PLEASE EXPLAIN THIS TO ME, THEN PERHAPS I WILL BE ABLE TO UNDERSTAND THIS BETTER, AND EXPLAIN IT TO MY FELLOW DISSAPOINTED AUSTRALIANS WHY THE QUEEN OF POP IS LETTING US DOWN. WHY SHOULD WE HAVE TO JUST SETTLE ON BUYING THE DVD WHEN IT COMES OUT, FUCK YOU.. THIS JUST TELLS ME THAT YOU MUST REALLY THINK VERY LITTLE OF AUSTRALIA, AND MUST NOT HAVE MUCH RESPECT FOR US AT ALL. EXTREMELY DISSAPOINTING AFTER ALL THESE YEARS MADGE.
THERE IS NO EXCUSE YOU COULD COME UP WITH, THAT YOU COULD NOT OVERCOME OR CHANGE TO MAKE THE TOUR TO AUSTRALIA HAPPEN. YOU OWE IT TO US AFTER WE HAVE SUPPORTED YOU, AND SPENT MILLIONS OF OUR DOLLARS IN CONTRIBUTING TO MAKE YOU WHO YOU ARE TODAY.
VERY DISSAPOINTED FAN HERE.
Ive been saying this for ages, this blog is a place for Andy to vent as he has no real friends to talk to.
As for the nasty comments, GET A LIFE, she may be 50 but she aint desperate, the only person who wants to fuck ARod is CRod and YES Madonna should sue, try looking up the word SLANDER you daft twats
The only true and faithful REAL friends one can trust in life are Jesus and God.
Obviously!
Most turn on YOU eventually.
Then there are the ones we can easily do without, of their belittling condescending bs. that no one wants to hear or need.
Oh yeah, almost forgot, i trust my SELF. 😉
You make only a mockery of YOU, in your belittling approach with me, who sees the condition of your soul as one who does not search for Jesus and God, a prisoner of your own mind, in chosing to turn towards the hypocrisy heart, chinadoll.
as for friends, i am selective who i invite into my inner circle, where most i passby, depending on the condition of their soul.
actually, you may be shocked in knowing the friends in my inner circle. 😉
Like Jesus said, “God casts no one out of heaven. He does not have to…they do it on their own, in all their unloving conduct.”
Don’t mind me, i am merely one who stands in the kingdom of heaven with Jesus and God. ha. 😉 😀
i jest not.
your loss, not mine chinadoll.
why not delete the blog if the words of Jesus and God, and a student of God are uninteresting for you?
Bonjour my darlings…Quick Hello..Nice was tuff, things went wrong. .Cardiff was so smooth the crowd was amazing,thanks for all your support …i’m in the studio tomorrow with a top DJ to remix ‘Miles away’ , i feel so deep about this song the last time i felt like this was ‘live to tell ‘ xXx
don’t mind me…i am an emotional wreck lately…toxic at times, what with my recent break up…normal reaction to so much unbelievalbe behaviour of controling others of me…
i realize it is of my own inconsistency of behaviour with my ex, and i am to blame mostly for everything.
i just want to get back to the calm Andy i used to be, without feeling abandonment guilt and all the toxic feelings i am currently experiencing.
deep breaths…biking is helping me alot.
When it comes to the TRUTH, we know only love is good enough for us all. We push forward in what the world needs to stay connected with, sincere fun loving SELF.
So always know and feel the TRUTH that is of You and me, as we are learned of many things that others sadly are not.
Positive and Negative forces clash in the world daily within everyone’s day, as the positive energy pushes out the negative, growing, just as we have.
I have lost my footing…and these damn high heels are hurting bad! ha.
You know how it is for tours, by the end of it, the last shows, you feel relaxed, wondering why you where uptight in the first place…uncertainty that gets pushed out as we become centered in stepping forward, shining brightly into the darkness.
It is not about us, so much as it is for sake of them, and that is what you music has always been about, unconditional love.
Why? Because we care, just as Jesus and God care about us all becoming the enlightened sincerity pure and true of the core of everyone’s BEing.
Ya, i like that song. For me it reminds me of how we take time out to reflect, slowing down into grace(decending into grace where we learn thru sincerity, as Jesus says), and think our feelings, rather than ego. Sorta like writing a love letter to someone we deeply love and care for.
Song writing, to me is love letters meant to be felt, for sake of nurturing the reader, for sake of those who hear, by means of their feelings.
i have come enjoy dwelling in writing lately, of self reflection, self-actualization, self-discovery, such as our own fearlessness we feel at times. Your music has always had a fearless sense that grew as the years went by. At what point does fearlessness become 100% i wonder. For me, pure fearlessness is connected with pure sincerity, and love devoid doubt, macro thinking wisdom, all woven into a feeling that is incredible to feel, where doubtfulness fades away and viewed as something useless and unwise, of the world as Jesus says, not of we who are loving.
Jesus was just a man, but he tapped into something of knowingness, that today, is frowned apon as something of a crazy person. ha.
You think you got worries, i am worried they will chemically straight jacket me like they did my brother, who is still sadly instutionalized, shut down, broken hearted.
I don’t think i be talking about God with them! ha. Nope! I will wear the mask they want to see.
For you it is great, as you get to just be YOU, so fun loving and full of joy, like that of your own children who are fun loving, accepted by all who feel your inner joyfulness.
Out here, it is a bit more difficult with so many who are doldrum mentalities that tend to weigh down our spirits, the work class stiff mentality i suppose, and yet, the dance floors await us all, so long as there are the enlightend artists in the world who keep us entertained.
A sense of responsibility for you at times, and yet, it is your real self that is shining thru.
I saw the video Rosie did of you from above, and the real YOU was shining brightly, of fun loving sincerity that is true of YOU, although there was a certain lacking of zeal, like something was missing in your world, that i felt, a sorta uncertainty or insecurity, unlike your previous tours of the decades past, and yet more enthusiastic than previous.
Hey, we should chat more often! ha.
just ignore my rantings. ok?
Ok. deep breaths…i love YOU, because YOU love me!
Because YOU loves us all.
Here comes another blessed day for us all…well ok, for some, as many there are in the world who are suffering greatly.
Oh, yeah, i was reading about what suffering is, and what it is not, from the view point of Jesus and God. It is not what we think, as most think only on the surface, rather it is of the deeper level of feeling, of one suffering for example, where they come into a knowingness of how the world really is, uncompassionate for example, where the suffering actually serves their hearts, by means of the coming into a knowingness of the world and of their own self-discover, as to the depth of their own loving heart, mind, body, spirit and soul. In that sense, suffering is something good for a soul, albeit, a growing experience that is healing for them, albeit, their should not be any children in the world suffering, who do have any fortitude of unstanding to grasp the truth, that the world is an unloving world, and rather they feel only what it is that they feel, completely unloved.
Our empowerment and motivation, as bright as the sun, an eternal truth of the past, present and future generations.
In the eyes of Jesus and God, all souls of the earth are Children of self-awareness, learning and growing in certainty of what matters most in life…Love.
For me, having grown to a level of love devoid of doubt, finding of a soul mate of the same depth, is something i realize i may not get to experience in the physical realm, hence my self-reflections that i leave for others to ponder, for sake of them to be of the sincere diligence and determination that is needed to overcome the crucial lacking of desire for wisdom that grips the world for so many souls.
My best friends in life are psychologists, and students of psychology, conducive interation that is healthy for me, a student mentality like their own.
honestly, i don’t what is really happening to me, and have yet to sit down with the depth of the love devoid doubt feelings i feel in my visions with Jesus.
For me, the visions is not something bad for me at all, and actually incredible for me, although the mental health community may have a different opinion, so i keep myself about the visions, because of the personal growth i have feel occuring over many years.
Hey, there’s a new one for ya! ha. 😉 😀
Ya. It revolves around our pure sincerity of love, that i suspect you have felt and know about, love devoid of doubt.
I will slow down and write extensively on it.
The most significant aspect about it is the standing still aspect where we sense the uncertainty that grips the world, in our descerning of truth ability by means of the pure sincerity feelings, sight returned to the soul.
I love being deliberate in just feeling the souls of many, who do not comprehend the macro level and sincerity as they pass by. I am a mad scientist, watching the world around me with complete awe and disbelief most days! ha. 😉 😀
i am not disconnecting from you, because i suspect you know the love devoid of doubt feeling, in your own personal growth, although at the same time, i do not wish to alarm you in any way, as you the most dear to me in life, of any have met or shall meet, along with my short meeting with Matt, another pure soul like our own, yet unjaded by the world.
I cannot turn away from the purity of my own soul, as it is not possible. It is who we are, of a level of sincerity that many do not reach for or attain, at a cognitive level like we do, fearlessness and confidence that is good for us, and those we love.
So, so long as you wish, i shall remain forever true to you as a friend, forever true to me, unable to turn away from someone so dear to me, beyond words.
admittedly, i am lying about my feelings for you. i am too afraid to allow myself to believe something that may be true for you too.
and so friendship i accept as the only thing we will ever be.
oh oh.
oh no…the cat is out of the bag, as they say, as i laugh in finally have spoken sincerely with you.
i did sorta hint at a few times, did i not?
i don’t to allow my inner happiness to be dashed of a dream i onced dreamed, trying hard to let go, thinking to myself, ah, it was just a dream, and yet, deep within, i know was just a dream, of my inner happiness that is real for me in my thoughts of a you and me, thoughts i have had since i first started thinking about you.
there, now you truly know the truth.
you would feel and understand perhaps my fear of a dashed dream that felt true for me, where rather than feel fear, i let go?
If you’re feeling guilt, feel some un-guilt because I am being treated with respect at last. I have feelings too.
ya. i was thinking about you all week, of my own uncertainty in knowinging how you (truly) feel, and yet at times certainty of your feelings for me, that i have felt numerous times, and of my knowingness of issues and how one feels while experiencing them. But then i see the kids, hoping and praying everyone is healthy and happy.
It is not up to me. It never was, and never will be, but at least now you know the truth of me.
i am not a home wrecker with an agenda. i know i am a loving brother to all, respectful in speaking the truth, unafraid of consequences in having spoke the truth to all, knowing my love is my life. If i have put people on notice in doing so, well good for them, is it not?
I fear for everyone caught up in serious life issues.
People don’t know how life plays out, often times until it is too late and serious things happen, like my loss of Troy that devastated me, and still, i am devastated, painfully wiser.
May his life serve us all of the truth in just how serious life issues are. It sobered me up instantly, at a deep level that my inner five year old felt, that my entire life passed into, finding myself standing there, where i still see him laying dead on the road and me kneeling at his side, humbled before God.
Time has stopped for me.
I can only repeat what I just said. No situation is ever perfect, and we can’t always have evrrything how we would like it, but the trick is to focus on the positives. And it’s then often the case that we find out things have worked out for the best and everyone ends up happier. I am serious about things.
frozen in the moment, emotionally, spiritually, physically, of the grace of my five year old within, who was so angry with me, while keeping a diary, he just kept striking at the page with a pen, telling me to just feel, and not write about it, where it was important that i feel what it is important, my own loving self that loved Troy. At first, i was not sure if it was Troy’s spirit or my own that was striking the blank page with the pen, and yet i knew it was me that feeling the depth of my love for him, that of my entire life that lead to that day, knowing i wanted to spend the rest of my life with Troy. I did tell Troy i wanted to be with him forever. He knew i was deeply in love with him, having cryed many times while with him, expressing myself to him.
I’m not saying I’m perfect in relationships – far from it. I think I must be incredibly frustrating and hard work sometimes. And I am a bit strange, but who isn’t. OK, I’m very weird and strange. But I do feel there is something there. I think our joint weirdness would work/cancel. It would be … er … “unconventional”!
I tear my hair out thinking about how things should have worked out for me (and you). I dunno. Just insane.
So I’m warning you very clearly in advance in the clearest language: I am exceptionally weird and strange and hard work and very very frustrating for much of the time. I want to be very clear about that.
Now it has been said.
You can’t turn around and say I didn’t warn you.
I want to live a healthy life like a Christian does, who are just their loving selves 24/7, of serenity and peace all around them.
I am living the life of a Christian now, and have been since Troy died. It has taken along time to come free of the old self i once was.
I know my life will not be that of a True Christian, if ever i allow alcohol into God’s house of love and peace. Without doubt, i know my true divine self, and his desire to be forever free of these things, and his desire to be sincerely joyous and happy, and is, and will be, with someone also of the same path.
Ha! As kids of imagination, we were weird, were we not? And still are? Not strange at all for me.
I know who i am…who i always was.
Yes, you make a good point: if you’re weird yourself then other weird people seem normal. And normal people seem weird.
Some people at first think we are wacky, what with our fun loving approach to the world. In that regard, we are of the same spirit, are we not. It is what connects with each other and the world, the truth we know of ourselves, and in so doing, that of everyone, that of the inner joyfulness and happiness within all.
Our desire has always been to nurture and protect that of ourselves, naturally becoming self-actualized, naturally assisting others in self-actualization merely be being ourselves, and getting paid great attention in doing so, yes? Where everyone wins!
Blessed are YOU and ME, forever free to just BE, for sake of thee, for sake three. You are of my daily prayers with Jesus and God, the real YOU i have come to know, no different than me, mentally, emotionally, spiritually, phsyically.
Our work is our play, where every step is of our divine true self.
Worry not of how i feel about you, for i love you completely. I have for along time, and in my knowingness of how that love has grown within me, i desire it to keep growing, just as you do, so don’t ever wonder if my love is able to change, for it is the love my true divine self, unable to change, because the divine true self is of becoming or restored into the purity of heart, mind, body, spirit and soul.
i love her with all that i am, ever becoming what i am.
Honestly, the world is not ready for us, and never was, still ain’t!
Truth is, they don’t know we are of the advanced level.
Lunchtime
Always know that we too are yet growing. It is important to be of the humbleness of awareness of the truth of such. That’s how i connect to Jesus and God, where it is my divine true self that is growing richer of the wisdoms which protect the divine true self that is 100% pure and sincere, just as we were as kids…adult children.
Jesus was a mature adult child, merely a man, who knew he was merely a man, and he knew he was advanced in his understandings, praying we would reach beyond what he had reached. He expressed it, telling them directly, both those of the current time, and those of the future, who he knew are listening, to reach beyond what he had reached, knowing he would soon his life was short and would soon pass out of the physical realm. When i write, i know i am speaking the future generations as well, and this is of the purity of Truth words that don’t fail. Truth does not fail.
Ya. i have to go to work.
That was a step we needed to take, reconnecting again in purity and sincerity of heart, for sake of us, more for sake of the many.
i felt it coming on all week, knowing i was about to grieve something. i cannot lose your friendship. it would devastate me.
actually, i don’t think it is possible for us to lose our friendship, in our knowingness that it is of our divine true self.
I know i cannot turn away from that which i am, who is no different than YOU.
hmmm…two large letters, M M
Matt + Madonna!
now there is a secret i would love to know and tell! 😉
oh yeah, i already did.
me and my thoughts eh?
Truly, i love YOU both equally, and always will, of the pure sincerity of love that is of our divine true selves.
I pray safe journey for all, just as i used to pray for safe journey of Troy, who i knew was snared by unwiseness of the world. I told him the bridge is out up ahead Troy, we need to get off this runaway train before we both die. This was around the time of breakins at the local LCBO store of the friends we were keeping.
Beware of the unwiseness which grips many souls of the earth, where merely slowing down into your our graceful (true) self, we are able to slowly reflect and dwell in our sacred place within us that is of pure certainty and knowingness of wisdom that sees(feels) with clarity, the TRUTH of these things we are 100% knowing of in our life, in the life of those we love.
Without doubt, in know 100% i do not want any thing bad to happen to Matt or YOU, or those you love.
without doubt Matt.
without doubt Madonna.
My love is Pure and True for both of YOU, that is of the loving respect of my own divine true self.
RESPECT MATT.
RESPECT MADONNA.
RESPECT JESUS.
RESPECT GOD.
RESPECT LOVE.
RESPECT PEACE.
RESPECT SINCERITY.
RESPECT TRUTH.
RESPECT YOU when you do.
RESPECT WISDOM.
of course, M&Ms still are one of my favorite candies! 😉 😀
without doubt…we love them, do we not? 😉
It is not up to me, of who it is who chooses to BE a friend of mine, of who chooses to feel the words i write, of who chooses to reflect on my words that may help in deciding the direction of their own path ahead of them.
What is up to me, is who i choose as friends, which is everyone, just as Jesus and God do, obvious truth anyone can feel in the words i write, which is about the YOU of everyone…of the YOU of me…and YOU.
Me & Matt
Me & Madonna
Me and someone like Me.
Me! Me!
Pick Me!
as in Pick the YOU who is like Me.
or better yet, Pick the YOU who loves Me, where Me is YOU.
Hey! i heard that! ha. 😉 😀
It’s about Self-Actualization, and how we maintain it.
Just BE YOU!
and attract someone just like YOU!
Preferably a healthy YOU that attracts a healthy one like YOU.
Now it has been said.
Oh oh.
Houston? We have a problem! ha. 😉
ah Houston?
what does unconventional mean?
“Oh! That kind of unconventional!” ha. 😉
being out of the ordinary.
as in Extraordinary and Wonderous! 😉
Ya. We always knew that about our SELFs.
Exceeding Joyfulness, like we felt as children, unafraid, so imaginative, purity of fun loving spirit.
i don’t know if i am fixable though…not without alot of practice, work, and sincere love.
Love fixes everything?
If the REAL YOU is Pure Love, and only Love is what YOU wants and deserves, then only Love is good enough for YOU…Love!
So who wants more of Love?
We all do.
When two Loves get together?
A most incredible thing happens. Fear disappears, cast out forever more, love devoid of doubt flooding over them. Those who find themselves in such a place, desire without doubt to always remain, where thoughts of love fill their minds full, pushing out all foolish unwise thoughts.
Jesus said, seek to BE filled, and yet not always full, to BE filled even more.
in other words, be what we are…thirsty.
in other words, loving feelings grow and increase to higher levels of value to us, just as wisdom grows, but only if we are of the descerning wisdom that realizes fully what plagues the world…’Crucial Lacking of Desire for Wisdom’…of SELF. BE thirsty.
If one does not desire to drink, then how is one able to quench their thirst?
If one does not decern between drinking of sweet, over bitter, then how can one remain sweet, sweetie?
~ common sense.
As Jesus says, “Where our hearts are(bitter or sweet), there too is our treasure and our life…at all times. What we turn towards(embrace), we become…at all times. Turn away from the hypocrisy heart and turn towards sincere loving feelings of the divine true SELF. YOU.”
We can serve both bitter and sweet side of ourselves, as most do, and yet, it is uselessly absurd to do so. Unfortunately, the world does not conduct itself as nurturing and protecting of our delicate sensitive divine true self, leaving us feeling isolated and alone at times, toxic, afraid, overwhelmed, feeling unloved, and yet these very feelings is what makes for what the divine true SELF is…beautiful!
Hey M, don’t down while sitting on top of the world, with a best friend at your side forever more.
Holy fuck, how the hell did you get up so figing high up in the tree?
i ain’t comin up their to get you, so you will have to come to me.
opps.
Every sincere loving step one takes, is always in step with Jesus and God’s purity and sincerity, of their divine will for us to be of the fearless willingness to feel our sincere loving feelings, so pure and true, like we do, and are.
i am…because we are…of the God’s divine will for us to be of the fearless willingness to feel our sincere loving feelings, so pure and true.
YOU know who YOU are, of many i have come to know.
With flowers in my hair, i don’t care, if they stare, apon the one inside them all that yearns to BE forever FREE, to just BE the ME of all of YOU, that yearns to always ME!
ok, that sounded self -centered, rather than the truth, centering of SELF.
the hyprosy heart views it one way…bitter.
the enlighted joyful Real Self views it the other way…sweet.
opps…a word is missing.
flowers in hair
without a care
when they stare
i truly do care
apon the me
inside them all
that yearns to BE
the YOU in me
hmmm…that sorta has a sexual overtone 😉 😀
once a month, they bring me crayons for the plain white walls, that are so boring!
no not really, i am not institutionalized…(yet).
ya, there is no such thing as perfect, but if we truly love someone utterly and completely, they can do and say anything they want, so long as they too love us utterly and completely, like a childhood friend we grew up with, of not desire to be apart, granting and respectful of their boundaries(space) and independence, of what works for them as needed.
A truly respectful approach of the delicate true nature of the other, where indeed, we all have days of uncertainty and need our space, for however long they need it.
The key word is RESPECT.
Respect the loving soul, approaching them as YOU desires to be approached, tender and loving at all times, of low tolerance for inappropriateness, and rightfully so.
Out in the world, we are inundated by inappropriate others some days, where i have seen myself overly sensitive to inappropriate behaviour, abreactions that come on, questioning if i am having an over-sensitive day, or if it is my lowering of tolerance(or both).
Unrealistic expectations of others is a necessary reality check as well, that serves those who are of commited relationships, such as family, yet inappropriate behaviour should not be given the green light that is ok when it occurs, as it serves no one when we do.
ya, i am serious about things too.
i have thought about your feelings alot, of the sincerity that we are, pure and true.
i do know the purity of you. The whole world knows, which is such a beautiful thing that has stirred the souls of millions.
At first i thought, oh don’t go there. But i then i thought about what i know to be true of me, that may be true of you, while you are alone, in dwelling with your sincere feelings, of truths that are rays of light feelings for me, pure and true, that feel amazing, leaving me wanting more of that!
After awhile, i started to wonder, is it possible that she is…?
I actually arrived at a special place in time, that made me feel yes, it is true, to turn around, and repectfully ask if it is ok for me to stay awhile, as i too yearn to stay? 😉
But be warned, i am crazy…for YOU!
Our friendship is a life long friendship we both wanted and wish to keep?…best friends in life forever more, you shall have of me, but why do i sense it is more than that, where my own sincerity awareness of my own sincere loving feelings, senses we are of the same level or degree of purity of heart, mind, body, spirit and soul.
To describe the feeling?
Love utterlly and complete devoid of doubt forever more. I see you in a calm joyful state, that is far more mature and less afraid than i am, and yet we are the same in our love for one another, that is devoid of doubt.
i am here to ask if my visions are true, because the purity of the visions, seems to have a true connection with you, not an imaginary one, where an imaginary one would be doubtful in feeling for me. I am not about imagination in of how i feel in my visions of Jesus, and in fact my visions are more real and enjoyable to me than that of real life, full of certainty that is about my divine true self that most do not know, or take time to know me, of my true peaceful state of pure grace, and thoughts only of love, and compassionate love for those sadly snared by bitterness of the hypocrisy heart i see and feel of so many, such absurdness they are some days.
Good Morning! 😉
if you have been waiting, forgive me, so too have i been waiting…how many years now? 😉 😀
Like i said, i am have been afraid to know the answer all these years, watching you grow as you have, into the certainty of sincerity that surrounds you now, knowing at some point, maybe she would turn to me and say, what i’ve to hear, and have heard.
like you wrote one time, “i am here, just for you.”
only love do i feel for you.
There was a day, in quiet reflection, i came to an awareness level that is 100% pure and true, devoid of doubt, in my loving thoughts of you, where i realized that the purity of the loving sincerity i was feeling, is what Jesus and God are about, of what Jesus and God want for me to always feel, for us all to feel, free of useless anxiety, ego and untrue thoughts that are not of the loving sincere divine true self.
Of all the things i have come into awareness about, it is of that feeling i want for everyone to know and feel how it feels, that is true of them, of the core of their being, knowingness i have come into, devoid of doubt.
Nurturing, protecting and maintaining the feeling?
Not an easy task if we are not deliberate in approach, like meditation, yes?
Our openness with one another, indicates to me that you know the feeling already, perhaps wondering how stable minded i am in my own certainty of what i consider the most signficant self-discovery of all.
Granted, i have (acted) like an immature moron most days, hiding as i have, trust that has been building over time, like my own trusting relationship with Jesus and God, i don’t wish to hide from someone who may love me, who may want to love me, who is deserving of my sincere love for them, who i want to feel what it is that i feel, that i now feel is already true for you, perhaps long before my arrival before you.
Without doubt, i do not to tarnish or deminish the feeling, and will continue to nurture and protect this of me, becoming it more and more daily, as Jesus says, in my seeking of those who are conducive for my positive mental emotional well being, meditation, prayer, and conduct with you.
Forgive me for hiding behind my egotistic mask, for i don’t wish to any longer.
To describe myself, i am a student in quiet study, calmness of the sincerity of my divine true self, of an uncluttered mind that sees past the immature behaviours and conduct of most in the world, seeking what is of the higher divine true self, that yearns to come forth in the world like we do, of exceeding joyfulness and wisdom that is of the knowingness about all souls of the earth, of motivation to write, reflect, spend time nurturing those who merely need our time, a hand to hold.
I am compelled that there, for sake of all souls, that need to know it is not about ‘keeping up with the Jones’ mentality that seems to rule the hearts and minds of so many, so bitter they can be, so empty of grace and loving sincerity.
I see so many who are down and out, unaware of the most signficant thing need to come into awareness of, their own loving sincerity, pure and true.
Of all souls of the earth, truly i know, love devoid of doubt is the greatest feeling one shall ever feel, of the visions i have of Jesus, of my knowingness that it is of God’s divine will for us all to know the feeling, to come full awareness of the certainty that comes with feeling the feeling, indeed, love devoid of useless absurd doubt is the most beautiful feeling in life.
How does one instill that in another, for sake them to come into the awareness of themselves and the knowingness that love devoid of doubt is what matters most in their entire life, of understanding to search for, feel and know, of understanding how nurture and protect, of understanding of how to instill in another?
The only way to instill it in another, is to become Love devoid of doubt, of our conduct that is not so much deliberate, and rather what we have become, albeit, deliberate in our approach of how to become Love devoid of doubt.
I look at it this way, why not just BE who YOU are, rather than be who you are not, where it is more loving and sincere to just BE your divine, delicate, graceful, sensitive, sincerely loving true SELF? YOU.
Let others love YOU for who YOU are, and when they don’t, then it is just as well, when they don’t, is it not? As we are deserving and yearning of only LOVE, yes?
Jesus says to be a passersby. Don’t be afraid to passby those who do not take time to know YOU, to sincerely love YOU, like the many who snear at us.
There are many who i sincerely connect with, snared by substance abuse, who need encouragement to become fearless enough to walk away from the path(rut) they find themselves in, that i take time with, but i don’t welcome them into my sanctuary, passing them by until another day.
Every day counts, in our conduct with everyone we meet, even of our expressing intolerance for inappropriate behaviour of others.
As Jesus says, “Do not do what YOU hate doing.”
Then Andy comes along and says, “But there is nothing i hate doing!” ha. 😉
i jest.
Sometimes we get intimately involved with someone who may not be healthy enough for us, in meeting our needs on a regular consistent basis, for what ever reasons, disfunctional, emotionally unavailable, insincere of love for you, whatever, that feels toxic for us after awhile, in our own hurried rush, of our needs not being met for example(often the case), jumping to quickly into a relationship we did not take time(in BEing our true self) to feel thru of how may really feel about them.
i speak from my own experience.
Then a day comes where we wake up and wonder how we arrived where we are, as our true self takes back control of our life, and starts breaking things! ha. 😉
No! Don’t break that! It is a one of kind! ha. 😀
Allowing our sincerely joyful fun loving true self to be held hostage, is of our own choosing, in most cases, where dynamics for allowing such, can be of many different issues, such as a substance abuser involved with another substance abuser, where one becomes free of continued chronic use, of no desire to continue and where the other partner chooses to continue. While the relationship may have started out with the dynamics of familiarity of same behaviours, when one partner grows out of such, becoming healthy and centered in their true self, we wake up and find ourselves feeling toxic during our transition of restoration of our divine true self.
Bin there. done that.
Life is the greatest teacher.
Oh, we can pretend for along time, but eventually, we start breaking things! ha. 😉
Remember that video of duality you made. I love that video! It’s so true of our divine true self.
i am here, just for YOU!
“ah Houston, could repeat that last transmission?”
“Houston, we’re not recieving. There appears to be a density in the atmosphere outside, that may interfering.” ha. 😉
im bad…i know.
am i so really so strange and weird?
Maybe at first, our delicate sensitive true feelings may feel strange and weird, but given the right enviroment, we come into the knowingness that the delicate feelings is of our divne true self that is graceful and sincerely loving, in our true knowingness of who we REALLY are, and not what others may project onto us of their own unresolved junk that is not true of the divine true self.
“ah Houston, we’re still not recieving. Not sure if you are hearing us or not, yet we know our transmissions are of a stronger signal strength than that of yours. We’re gonna take a break for awhile, thinking maybe the current atmospheric conditions may be (responsible) for the interfering with our nightly transmissions, perhaps trying again in the mornings.” lol! ~ get it? ~ wet dreams! haha! Love it! 😀 😀
ok, perhaps i am strange to some, but at least i KNOW my SELF, fearlessly unconcerned of what others may think, of my education in psychology on knowingness of the divine true SELF, who is who we always were.
It takes alot of practice BEing our SELF, and conducive enviroments and atmospheres that are healthy.
Trust me on this one, where i have seen myself surrender to someone, of the horrible feelings of being rape by someone i do not truly love. Don’t ask.
We hurt ourselves in the end, and no, not that end when we do or continue to do, allowing our own divine true self to be held hostage in intimate relationships we realize we should of avoided in the first place.
i speak of my own experience that others too may be experiencing, merely that of my own self reflections of my long life lived.
Today i know my divine true self well, that yearns for the delicate sensitive loving lover like that of my SELF, of what i know to BE my type, in my descerning of who is my type.
Don’t rush into BEing involved in intimate relationships, until YOU are 100% certain that the one YOU love is indeed someone YOU wants to spend their life with. We’ve all done it. As you say, the trick is to undo the unwise approaches, leaning from life experience, looking to the positives of how the divine true self REALLY feels.
Today i am FREE, filled with positive feelings to set my SELF free to BE who i am and always was, delicate, sensitive, mild, gentle, calm, peaceful, and sincerely loving of another who is like my SELF.
Do YOU know who YOU are?
“Houston, we are still not recieving, so we are gonna try switching back to the other channel, and see if that works.” 😉 😀
omg! ha.
Look what you’re bring out in me! 😉 😀
Truly, i am FREE, to just BE!
Like that old match book cover from decades past said, “Just BE YOU!”
The i truly and sincerely LOVE…Love!
blessings to all.
The ONE i truly and sincerely LOVE…Love!
The ONE within us all.
Tom Hanks is my one of my favorite actors, of a sincerity approach i suppose, that i connect with.
i do see my SELF as corny, albeit, corny, rather, i see my SELF as somone searching for something tangible, something sweet, of my own sweet loving SELF, with ‘that’ of another, of ‘Love devoid of doubt’, i know of my divine true SELF, that i know shall one day find and experience, of a tangible sweet loving experience in the physical realm.
It will happen day for me, and has happened, albeit, the love devoid of doubt we experienced while with them, was fleeting at the time. We all come back to what we all search for, of the core of our BEing, within everyone.
I pray for all souls of earth, to one day come fully into the knowingness of the greatest treasure ONE shall ever discover of their SELF…Love of doubt, sincere and true within, sincere and true of another.
It is of Jesus and God’s blessing and divine will for us all, ‘that’ we become the willingness. As Jesus said, “It is our willingness that is of most importance.”
Always know, that what we look for has already come, Kingdom Hearts, the special part of every soul.
*sp error*
i don’t see my SELF as corny.
do you really think i am corny? 😉
ah, who cares what anyone thinks of us.
think for your SELF.
BE a leader, not a follower. Follow your own sincere loving feelings of heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, in order for your soul mate friends and lovers to find YOU, those who are indeed, no different than YOU.
ok…a bit too personal for this blog. swtiching channels.
Hi beauty, you have the chance to have a good friend, keep it forever,friendship is very important,but it really doesn’t matter if you like to kiss her.lol
i hope one day you make a concert in Porto,(portugal),in the dragão stadium,,please i never see you,give me that joy.
big kiss
It’s about true loving feelings, pure and true of us all.
always will BE, what i am.
…someone to BE loved.
only love is good enough, of what i sincerely pray for daily, exactly like others who are pure and true in their heart, praying love for another.
without doubt, i will praise and love him forever more.
without doubt, i will praise and love her forever more.
i too yearn for love just as YOU do.
Stop with your shit, please!
come on come to Porto..madonna please
and you’ll drink the wine,big kiss
indeed…you are wise of YOU and me.
😉 😀
BE of your exceeding joyfulness in having a true and faithful friend for the rest of your life.
truly, i am…like you.
in our calm loving stillness, pure and unafraid of the world that surrounds, united as ONE spirit that feels the delicateness of our divine true self, sensitive to everything, in every passing moment.
would love to meet you someday…of your choosing.
feel purity of the pure feelings which are indeed pure and true, unable to change, our sincerity connection that does not change nor fade, of our knowingness of the purity of our pure feelings in our just BEing, easily felt while in calm settings of twilght and tranquility as souls(spirits) which travel the earth, feelings of beauty in each passing moment, in our knowingness that we do indeed have a true and faithful friend who loves us without doubt.
indeed, i feel it too in each passing moment, growing in each passing day.
It is the treasure found, of our WILLINGNESS to just BE, of the feelings of what just BEing is, know known.
Indeed, the treasure is our purity feelings of everything all around us which flow and eb, of love, of compassion, of wisdom that feels with clarity the truth of all things we look apon and hear, our fearlessness that is not afraid of our purity feelings, even of the dismay of conduct some souls which are sadly snared by unwiseness of conduct of the many souls we come across each day.
We are of the compassion of Jesus and God, united as one with them, of their pure blessing apon us as ones who fearless come before them, in our knowingness that they will apon us ‘that’ which is goodness of restoration and maintaining our divine true self to fearless wise loving compassionate state…enlightened ONEs which affect/effect the entire world of all souls, directly/indirectly.
~ knowingness of what it feels like to BE and enlighten ONE choosen by God who is only loving of us, not ‘that’ of what the world thinks in their unknowingness that is not yet of purity of our knowingness, of the many things God reveals clearly for us to know we are chosen.
the future is unfolding as it should, of God’s divine will.
God is not fearful, rather it is the unwise world of souls which are snared by fearful controling others, is it not?
😉 😀
blessed BE this day and the days to come.
YOU know who YOU are.
i am…because we ARE.
Andy,
Help me i’ve just been cast out of Heaven and into Hell, Jesus you think God could have compromised alittle met me half way..
Anyone know the right path to purgatory ??
dont worry about it Andy i’ll find my own way..i’ve got map’s & a GPS,
im used to being lonely, less baggage to carry when’s there’s only one set of clothing, now where’s my stilettos ?
awch there they are, wedged in the back of my head,,
Doctor, im bleeding,
i need some blood. quick hurry before i die..
Not !
All right All right
i’m dead
God
Lest me rest in peace then
Visit me occationally, if you want
Red Roses
my favourite
and a candle
Blog’s closed? That’s it.. no explanation?
well if you carn’t beat them, i say you may as well join them..
see you soon
make some room
i’ll make you notice me
I just sent an email to Andy asking him not to post miles of off-topic stuff on my blog. I think that’s fair. Real people actually read my blog.
People who post on-topic sensible comments are MORE THAN WELCOME to post on my blog.
(I do have rules in my life, I’ll admit. I like rules. Though I’m not really aware of it. That has caused friction in my relationships in the past.)
if people don’t know how to post a comment in a more or less a normal way the only choice for M to do is close the blog! i think that the amount of comments are a good reason for this to happen mostly the comments by Andy and hes friends here and in the other blog ….
correction :
if people don’t know how to post a comment in a more or less a normal way the only choice that M have is close the blog! i think that the amount of comments are a good reason for this to happen mostly the comments by Andy and hes friends here and in the other blog ….
I’ve never had a bad word to say about you, i wish you well always.
God bless you..
Love Mariah
Rules are made for breaking
Love is for the taking
Rings are for king’s
i’d just be happy if the whole world got up and started to sing.
Cool. We’re cool.
Leave Andy alone you boring old fart’s, go stick a pole up your ass if you’ve got nothing better to do, or get blind drunk like a skunk and call yourself Pepé Le Pew, and chase pussy’s all day.
What now i have to rewrite all my song’s.
I know,
i love it.
not too cool..warmth is good
I have absolutely no idea what any of that means.
Right, I’m going to have a shower and get to bed. Night all.
X
Im off to bed too,
Night Andrew, by the way your amazing when your like this, i like it, something about you today that’s very real i feel it very strongly, I like it, never felt your energy so intensely real like this before, and that’s definatly the best compliment i could ever give and receive.
thank you,
everything i have learned and continue to learn thru my attention to inner awareness in my on going growth experience has and will BE of the experiential experience of my interactions with all of YOU.
I am not about ego or hurting of anyone, least of all me, rather i am of what i have stated many times before, a humble curious student who is interested in restoration and maintainance of the divine true self within us all.
Many interpret what ever they wish to, just as we do of any art piece where everyone has a different experience according to how their life has been up until the very moment, where indeed, our entire life does greet us in each moment of life, subconsciously for some, cognitively for others.
i prefer cognitive awareness of certainty of conduct of descerning wisdom which takes time in fully surrendering to our inner grace, peaceful at rest, thinking by means of sincere feelings, descerning of words which are loving and not loving, wise and unwise, truthful of sincere SELF or false bitterness of the hypcrisy heart.
If we don’t take time to feel the difference of what feels bitter and what feels sweet, then we are of the ones who are not of seeker mode mentality, aimless in approach to life, sadly snared by unwisness of fate which tosses to and fro a person’s life, sadly learning often too late of serious life issues which could of been prevented.
Without doubt, life will greet each and everyone of you at all times, of the harsh realities of life which come your way, depending on YOUR CHOICES you make each and everyday, of whether or not you hear(feel) the call of God summoning your precious loving innocent souls to wisdom.
wise are they who pay heed to one who takes time to give advice of life learned experience, one of a certainty path of destiny rather than uncertainty path of fate such as ignorance of the true powerful effects of alcoholism and substance abuse which takes the lifes of precious loving souls each minute of each day.
I come in peace as a loving brother to all, and care not what any of you have to say or think of me, for many of you are not of my comprehsion at this point in time, not to be egotistical, rather, of the truth in my knowingness of the snares of ignorance which yet snares the precious loving souls of many of you, of how i know it statistically ends…badly.
I offer forth words of protective wisdom for all to drink from, summoning you to embrace awareness of the level of your ‘crucial lacking of desire for wisdom’, for sake of you, for sake of all those you love.
you make a mockery of only yourselfs in useless words of chatter which do not serve Jesus, God, nor YOU.
beam me up Scotty, no intelligent life down here! lol
oh, come on, i jest.
i take time to offer constructive critism which is meant as something of goodness for you.
those who fail to interpret my words as such, are not of their sincere graceful self in doing so, and rather of the disconnected superficial masks you all wear, including me somedays when i am weary.
just thought i would drop in for a moment, and will from time to time, as a fierce loving warrior of God.
hey, i like that new name.
FIERCE LOVING WARRIOR of GOD, with bubblegum pink nail polish.
if you are not fierce, do me a favour and stay home, ok? lol
i jest.
actually the demeanor my peaceful by nature natural true state, is like that of the graceful morning sunrise, calm and at ease for hours on end, of the preferred life i enjoy most…me.
I completey over steped my boundries, now and also recently as well, it was very insensitive of me to say the least, infact i think i was acting on my ego rather than my sincere self, i cannot take back my childish action’s what’s done is done, maybe for a reason, such is life,
Anyway this is a situation i rather not be in right now, because it perhaps is premature & just not healthy for both me and Andy right now in fact it’s more than likely the worst time but life never goes to plan,
Your courage to say goodbye was the courage i craved for then when it happended i played it on, if it was the other way round i would have be really hurt, as i expect you are no doubt.
Respect goes a long way & it’s about time i showed some, no exscuses,
Im not ready at all to take on the sensitivity of someone with so much on their plate at the moment, and my stupid actions prove that beyond doubt,
Im not closing the door and im not running away and im not anything else, except learning growing and trying my best,
all is good,
trying my best to keep it real.
nothing more nothing less.
hope that make some scense.
and both better from it all, ahh i need a holiday..
then dont we all…
i’d rather you did’nt respond to this message, because there really is no need to, you know i know, its not nessasary, i just had to get the word’s out thats all. Xox
At all times, God blesses us all, sadly unknowingly for most who are not of awareness, yet asleep, their divine true self yet submerged, sticking it’s head OUT, when environments are conducive enough to do so.
ok. whatever. go back to sleep. sorry if i woke you up.
well…ok…im not sorry.
with such a beautiful loving spirit like yours, why would i ever BE sorry to wake you up, of my inner delightfulness within me to do so, of someone who adores YOU utterly and completely? 😉 😀
always did! always will! duh!
you guys bore me some days. lol
im sorry, but truly you do, well not completely, alittle somedays, as in, “is that all YOU has to say?”
Ok. good then. we understand one another better now, yes, as likeminded students in seeker mode like we always have been, yes?
There is a truly fucked up world OUT there everyone.
As veterans, we must always remain connected with the sad truth of our loving brothers and sisters who are suffering thru the things we knowingly experienced of our SELF, as loving warriors and veterans of God, which i know i am and have been for along time.
12,981 blessed days to go.
blessings to all.
somedays i do take delight in annoying some of you, of my deliberateness to keep you awakened.
in case any were wondering who Andy is, a small tidbit about me approach with all of you, of one who enjoys watching and studying the human condition of every single one of you for hours on end, taking notes along the way.
Hi, im Andy! Do you know where i might find a copy of the English translation of the Nag Hammadi Gnostic Gospels written in early coptic and classical Greek of leather bound books that were burried in a sealed clay jar along the Nile river near the town of Nag Hammadi, in the Egyptian desert, carbondated to the third century, of such severely damaged fragmentation, full of lacumas, it took them eleven years to translate into English, of secret missing teachings of Jesus(God)?
Oh and get this, they say a peasant farmer found the clay jar burried, took it home not knowing what it was, where his wife used some of it burn in a fire to keep warm.
Warm indeed, shall one BEcome, of any who pick up and read the Nag Hammadi.
I prefer HOT or COLD over luke warm my SELF. 😉 😀
you guys are so luke warm…boring if you must know. lol
Ok, now get your seeker caps on and get out their and help me find the Holy Grail will ya?
Oh never mind, i ‘forgot’ i found it already.
ForgetFULness is indeed my greatest foe somedays.
sorry bout that.
my love is true for all of YOU…although i could do with a little less annoying ego which distracts me and others from the truth within us all…LOVE.
Seek and YOU shall find.
Beware. Where your heart is(focus), there too is your treasure and your life…at all times.
What you turn towards you BEcome(embrace)…at all times.
These are not my words, rather the missing words from the lips of Jesus, which were not part of the words edited in creation of the bible by the early church who sided with the Roman empire in their gathering of recorded words of Jesus, who taught alot of people the entire time he walked the earth, and not just of the words in the bible.
I will share something most may not BE aware of, the burial, and surfacing of these ancient books is of the Holy Spirit, of those who knew Jesus well.
ok. get out their on our sacred quest and see what you can find out about YOU. 😉
blessed are the pure of heart.
Matt.
Do you know how blessed i feel in your return?
What you do not know about me Matt, is of my intellect of what Jesus and God wish apon us all for all souls unattended, unnurtured, unprotected, for your precious loving pure soul to remain intact as you are today.
YOU Matt, are my motivation, as well is the motivation of M.
i have prayed daily for your return, for a reason…to protect you from the unwise world which lurks, of great dangers of self destructive behaviours able to derail your precious loving life that i adore.
M is one who is most protective of us, including me, wishing us only to protect and nurture the goodness within us all. She is as wise as i am Matt.
much wiser actually.
i apologize to M for my inappropriateness of such demanding work she is currently engaged in.
forgive me M.
if my words keep you safe in life with Jesus and God in your life Matt, then my life has been one of purpose in the eyes of Jesus and God, of the very thing Jesus wishes for YOU.
I have seen how lives play out for many Matt, and the many i have sadly seen get derailed in life, all a result of lacking in wisdom.
it is my hope that my words with you increase your sincere desire for wisdom which protects and love which nurtures, because great and numerous are the harsh derailing unwisenesses in our path of life, everywhere we turn, the learned behaviours are there, enticing us, cajoling us to participate.
Unwiseness took Troy’s precious loving life Matt.
Don’t let them take yours.
i have delved into my inner pain over Troy to bring forth goodness for sake of you Matt.
Troy’s life was the most impactful event of my life, which is yet being healed within me, and why i get the way i do sometimes, of deep core unhealed pain.
i am not afraid of anyone’s opinion of me, in my knowingness of needed healing for me to become healthy again. A long road since 1993.
my chosen path of my CHOICE, is about SELF – ACTUALIZATION.
i leave these words of reflection for sake of you, for sake of all in my doing so, and maybe make some great friends along the way, of what we all need in getting our needs met thru good friends, where talking is one of our needs, unknowingly for many, and why i talk so much.
It is has to do with my Self-actualization process, and of course for sake of the focus of others apon my reflections of what i know is most important for the SELF of me, ie, such as our increasing value for sincerity of SELF to fearlessly embrace and feel their own sincerity, the most significant part of SELF in our self-actualization process.
i am no expert, but like M, i like to delve deep into the soul as she does for us all in all her music.
She is of the gift of blessedness 100% pure and true within, in my knowingness of 100% pure and true within myself which easily detects it within another.
Like her, i too know it is not something many people nurture and protect within their own SELF, much less SELF of another.
Truly we are wise of such in our approach with all of you.
thank you Matt.
you are focused in thought, and that is pleasing for me, knowing your path is of the desire for understanding, able to stear your life clear of the unwiseness in the world, of serious life skills you need make a part of your healthy approach to life, a wise leader, not a follower of ignorance.
It is my prayer that God bestow the greatest of wisdom apon your life forever more, as i endeavor in my quests of revealing truth wisdoms as a revealer. In the bible they speak of a revealer. I know i am one such enlightened person in life, of many in enlightened ones like my self.
There are scholars in the world of such amazing depth and understanding, dedicated lives to their cause for spiritual enlightenment thru wisdom. It is my single greatest passion in life, my theology studies. I am no scholar, but i know the difference of decerning wisdom between drinking ‘that’ which is sweet and good for the soul, and ‘that’ which is bitter, ie, hypocrisy(words of Jesus).
Jesus summons me to wisdom, and so i came to him daily for some 20 years now.
There is great enlightenment in theology and psychology study, of what i consider the greatest investment of ones time to embrace, greater than any investment of their time of anything in life.
Of all things i would wish for you, is for you to increase your value for understandings of psychology and theology, in that order.
pyschology is the foundation of my belief system, spirituality to the top of it.
ohoh, here comes M again.
shesshhh…don’t tell her im here. lol
i love so damn much, and she knows it fully in her heart that i do, by the way i love to entertain her, like she has all of us for decades now.
She is more than deserving of my time, she is deseving my life that willing and easily would surrender to her if she wanted me for a partner, without hesitation. i know the depth of my own soul, and she is there in the depth of my soul forever more.
i am blessed by my knowingness of my own depth of soul which she has nurutured and protected for many years.
i know i am more than a fan to her, of which i care not to explain at this time of no need to, just as she is more than a mere artist to me, far more actually. 😉
best of all, i know without doubt, she always will be, forever remaining in the core of my BEing, someone i hold closet in my heart of hearts.
and if she says i am being chessy in saying this, i won’t speak to her…well…at least not today. lol
anyway. I need to give M some breathing space, as i have been troublesome in my soul of my own instability of life experience in my personal life, doing what one should not do, deal with serious psychological stuff so openly like i have at such a critical time as this, where she is of a massive multi-million dollar music production, asking forgiveness in doing so, as i take my place quietly in the background for awhile, for her sake.
once again M, forgive me of my inappropriateness, and yet, i have expressed myself well, something she loves about us all.
So please, rest in the knowingness that i am more than ok, of professional counsel in my life, working thru my issues that must be worked thru.
Serious life issues left unattended, do have the potential to manifest itself in your life everyone, so make your best friend in life a therapist of your choosing. You can thank me later. And remember, issues sometimes take years to work thru in our healing. Truly, i am one such person who knows this fully of my life experience.
I am proud to say, i am 14 years clean and sober, a survivor, where statistically, only 8% make a full recovery program like i have successfully done.
With the help of nurture confidence from M, Jesus, God and those of pure heart and sincerity along life’s road for me.
Thank you for BEing YOU, the YOU i have come to love of many of U.
Jesus loves YOU.
God blesses ALL.
Rio de Janeiro Dec 14 2008
Dec 14 2008 VIP
i think we have all come to a new level of sincerity, of my knowingness we have, of greater depth of soul, increased value of sincerity and grace, and of the joyful delight of loving purity of the divine true self within us all.
which was my main objective with you all.
i am just the puppet master. lol.
~ some jesus humor. 😉
ok Andy, back to your cell.
oh man, it was just getting to the best part!
someone let me know how everything turns out one day, ok?
i pray everyone is ok.
Jesus says, “Love one another as i have loved you.”
that was my approach with all of you, to increase your value of love.
my knowingness is of the purity of feelings of the purity of heart and utter sincerity i have felt within many of you, which felt so good for me, each and every passing moment i was here.
what may not realize about me, is that is what is most valuable to me in my passing moments of each day, where feeling my feelings is what i enjoy most in life, of deep healing for me within.
Truly, my value of loving feelings is of the greatest value in anyone’s life, of what Jesus says is far greater than all the riches of the world.
truly, we SINCERELY are of the knowingness truth of these words Jesus spoke, are we not?
Good then…mission accomplished father.
i just know i will make a good film director one day, what of my director skills of the players of the world stage, yes? 😉
Andy? shut up! lol
your spioling the moment.
hey, i finally found a pair of pink converse running shoes….
(Andy exits stage left, muttering on and on like he does, of any and all who will take time to listen to his endless bable, somewhat like a madman out in the street proclaiming God’s return, of such enthusiasm and delight in his voice as he leaves the staging area to go have a smoke break. After a few days, weeks, Andy did not return, leaving many to wonder, who was ‘that’ guy anyway)
~ a little inside humor between me and M. 😉
Sweetest of dreams are of lovers dreams, of the many dreamy lovers of lovers dreams.
Oh dreamy lover, dream of me.
ok, i better go before M decides to kick my butt some more.
hey, what round is it?
and who won anyway?
we ALL did.
win win win
the only formula for true success…God’s formula.
It’s all Troy’s fault, he is the one who set it all in motion, changed my time line of life, arriving before you today.
we would of still been down at the lake had he not did what he did. I don’t think they even have a dance hall in the local town, and Andy never would of wore the clown outfit like he did, if it was not for Troy.
I was just his loving lover who still loves him more than my SELF…although i am working on loving my SELF, which is what i wished Troy had of done, loved himSELF more than he did, and yet, he truly did love himSELF much more than i loved my self at the time, albeit, his lack of self respect was an issue in his alcohol abuse, of which i sadly unwisely encourage in my own unwise behaviour.
~ lessons learned of love and life, is the only thing i feel is of any value in leaving behind for future generations.
Truly, without doubt, i wish Troy and i had of been taught the lessons, rather than learning like we did.
God bless you Troy.
Live your lives for sake of the precious loving soul of Troy who can no longer, of the unwiseness of the world ‘that’ to him from us all…’that’s my motto.
You would of loved Troy. He was magic spark like Matt spirit, vibrant, exceeding joyfulness within that lights up the room. Lucky is the one who marries Matt, but if they like to drink, you better make sure Andy doesn’t find out about it!
Blessings to you and those you love.
It is about what Jesus says is of the most importance, “Our WILLINGNESS.”
without our WILLINGNESS to look towards love and compassion and protective wisdom for sake of the divine true SELF, how else are we able to?
Truly, restoration, maintainance of purity and sincerity conduct ‘that’ is natural of the divine true SELF, is of our WILLINGNESS.
Without doubt, WILLINGNESS is what easily moves mountains, so easy for the fun loving divine true SELF, yes.
BE without doubt, your WILLINGNESS is of God’s divine willingness ‘that’ we BEcome God’s WILLINGNESS, in every step, every breath, every heart beat, every word uttered, of healing powers of our WILLINGNESS so brave and true, where indeed, we are.
i am…BE cause…we are…God’s divine WILLINGNESS for all souls of the earth to BEcome WILLINGNESS ‘that’ changes the world, and indeed, the world is changing, however slowly, it is changing for the better.
May God continue to Bless us all in our continued work of God’s divine will for ALL, united under ONE sky, ONE world, of the ONE eternal human BEing ‘that’ walks the earth thru safe passage of True Loving Compassionate Wise Life forever more, of the extraordinary wonderous feelings ‘that’ feel pure and sincere of us ALL, of what MATTers most in life, in our knowingness of what the greatest hidden treasure is, ‘that’ of just how good purity of loving feelings truly FEEL, where indeed, it is our FEELINGS which is sight restored to our souls.
‘That’s what is about. always was. always WILL BE.
Always.
Forever more.
stop being so afraid to talk about whatever YOU wants to talk about.
foget M’s rules, for she loves to hear us express our true SELF words and emotion, where in truth, she prods us to shut up, knowing it frustrates us more to express ourselves. ha.
So please, the stage is ours to share in life, where truly, openly talking with one another is what loving life is, fearless talking, which the divine true SELF yearns to BE and speak, for i know the divine true SELF within all of YOU, sincere and sweet like my own.
I continue like i do, hoping it instills fearlessness in all of YOU to JUST BE who YOU are to me, fearlessly loving like i am, of my yearning for sincere friendship with all of YOU, for sake of me, for sake of YOU, for sake of others who we are all affect/effect direct/indirectly thru others.
Sincerely, i want life long friendships with YOU all, if only YOU would BE fearlessly loving of me, like i am of YOU, like we were, so fearless, beyond most any in life, and still are, are we not?
im ok, alright? I was missing you the most Matt. So please, know that i do.
You are growing in confidence, and i am pleased to know that you are.
If you want my friendship, it is there for you to have.
If not, then don’t.
I just to know you are ok in life, of someone i came to love so dear to me.
You have no idea how much it hurt me in your leaving like you did, and yet, i sensed you were still there, praying you were, so that i could nurture you some more.
Anyway, i am getting all sappy again, gushing over your return.
i don’t fucking believe it, he came back! Well almost. You are coming back, yes?
I need some fun loving spirit around her, as these guys can get rather annoying somedays for me, yes? lol
That better not be someone pretending to be Matt. That would be insincere, and well, just wrong.
There is only one Matt in the world who i came to know, of pure heart, like my own, like Ms is, and Rosie too.
Im ok, alright. I get weary when i am over tired, that’s all, and if you knew what i went thru the past few weeks, you understand fully, and still, i am not done with my detanglement and establishing more safe and supportive networks of friends in getting my needs met to keep my positive mental emotional well BEing healthy.
Only thru a descerning Healthy approach to life do we lead a Healthy Life.
M is one such individual who knows this better than most any in life, of greater health of heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, there is likely no other one alive as healthy as she truly is, of the one most do not know much about. I do. I was the one who told her to get and stay healthy long ago, and stop being so fucking lazy. lol
😉 😀
Truly, she is anything but lazy, yes?
God bless you Matt.
thank you.
don’t be so hard on your SELFs about forgiveness, as all is forgiven by God, in God’s knowingness of the stumbling blocks of the unwise teachings of the forefathers before us all which sadly yet grips the world.
What we need to BE is focused on a sincere approach with your precious loving heart, mind, body, spirit and souls, of which M is here to help us with.
As M says, “Never forget, we are your family.”
without any doubt whatsoever, the worldwide GLBT family is a REAL family of respect more so than of some of our immediate family snared by homophobia.
Those of homophic issues internally and externally, M is here to help us with.
Truly, i look forward to seeing concert, of my knowingness of what she is about, and has been about…the GLBT family, where she truly is to all of us worldwide in the GLBT communities…of our loving family forever more.
Not sure why i am writting so much, other than to say, seeing Matt return is of great joy for me, if it truly is Matt.
If not, inside we are not all so different, are we, in as much as we toss around our egotistic indifferences like we do, of all these useless words of seperation of the undescerning weak mindedness lacking in zeal and passion for loving life, where the words of Jesus resonate true, “If you are of spiritual poverty, indeed, you are spiritual poverty in outward appearance.”
Not of the Matt i came to know, so enthusiastic about his loving life.
Well, news flash, i am still as i was and have been for many years motherfuckers!
Trust me, there is nothing any of you can do to get me down, although somedays i am overly sensitive, but think that’s a good quality about Andy, of the same precious quality he is of knowingness in all of YOU, of the YOU Andy loves.
If anything Matt, it was your sincere attitude so fearless of exceeding exuberance and intensity which was is cause for my own awareness within, as in, oh ya, i remember feeling like that, the joyful fun loving high spirited Andy i know i yet am.
I am on such a downer right now, need to bust free of all this self-motivational experiential technique stuff, although the internalizing experience of it was good, yes?
I am on a quest for restoration of SELF, doing what i do at this point in my life, of my own focused approach of self in me. If it helped others too, then great, as there is good wine which flows forth in nurturing ability and protection from the unwise world, assurance, what ever spin you want to put on it, call it what ever you want…
~ experiential techniques is what it is
~ Jesus returns as a therapist?
nah, it’s just some psyche student working out his own stuff, trying to get healthy enough to attract healthy friends and lover(s) of the GLBT community.
just doing my part everyone, as someone who truly cares…without doubt.
without doubt, i care about Matt and always will, expect him to be as respectful of himSELF as i am of me.
wow!
obviously, i really did miss you Matt.
thank Matt.
Thank God for Matt, a precious loving soul like our own, more so than most, so you need not ever apologize to me, and get back to the fearless one i remember, so fun to be around. 😉
The door to Jesus and God does not ever close, always there for anyone to turn to, if only the world would.
If the leaders of the world were of God, the world would not be the way it is, yes?
Where is loving sincerity in killing someone like they do in warfare? Is that something to teach a child to do, when in God’s eyes we are all yet children.
Truly, my knowingness is of God’s eye, ‘that’ indeed, we are all yet as children in all our better than the next person bullshit mentality of ego and hypcrisy like that of the self-serving business communities. Not all of course.
My point is this; the world is not yet of the FULL knowingness 100% true in their heart, mind, body, spirit and soul of what the greatest treasure known to mankind is…YOU, the delicate, sensitive, gentle by nature, sweet loving, sincere, Pure and true YOU ?
And will NOT be so long as the many useless distractions of life continue to distract the heart and mind away from encouragement of loving sincerity development of SELF, as priority number one in teaching of our children.
God’s divine WILL is for sake of us all living a truly more loving and blessed life than the one the world yet lives and is, of these many empty vessel approaches to purity and sincerity of the loving divine true SELF YOU.
It’s your life to live, love and lead…always YOUR CHOICE each and every second of life in development of your own belief system to a truly loving blessed life.
I know i will live such a life from this day forward, having cast out desire of anything less than what i am…a loving child of God who loves Jesus as much as Jesus loves me, forever more, loving of SELF within, of sameness of loving of SELF of others in doing so.
God bless you all, for you are loved by Jesus and God forever more…without doubt, where in truth, love devoid of any useless absurd doubtfulness like ‘that’ of the world is what the divine will of Jesus and God is.
Once you experience it, you know. I know Matt knows. I know Madonna knows too. I know Rosie knows too, what love devoid of doubt feels like.
That’s what MATTers to Jesus, God and me, and to all who come into the knowingness of how love devoid of doubt feels like.
When you know, you just know.
i know without doubt i love all of you without doubt.
and i would love to kick your butts for all eternity until you too feel what love devoid of doubt feels like, if ‘that’s ok with YOU? ha. 😉
i am relentless, i know.
It’s not just about acheiving the feeling, it’s about maintaining it as well.
So if you don’t mind me annoying you all from time to time in my endless chatter with YOU of Jesus and God’s willingness to do, then don’t kick me out the door when i do.
ok, i will keep it to a minumum from now on, and post most of my research on my blog.
But be ready, as the flow of the fountain is able to intoxicate if you drink to much too quickly. I am leaving the blog for the future generations to ponder, so don’t feel like you have to rush thru it.
What?
am i some kind of a ghost around here, nobody speaking? 😉
It’s just words of Jesus and God speaking to your divine true SELF what is nurturing and protective for you, meant for you to come into knowingness of sincere loving life with one another, and truly we are BEcoming ‘that’
thank you.
all of you. thank you. You have no idea how i love each and every one of you forever more.
sorry…i have the day off…i tend to write alot on my days off.
not ‘that’ of Jesus and God to ever take a day off of their wisdom and knowingness of truth which surrounds us all in each waking moment of life, obvious for the enlightened ones to see(feel) the truth of how the world really is.
Truth is everywhere.
Truth does not fail.
It is we who fail the truth of the purity and sincerity of the spirit of the loving divine true SELF within us all. YOU.
Just alittle wine for all you whiners. ha. 😉 😀
ok M. you can have your blog back. YOU know how to find me, yes? 😉
i am much closer than most realize, as in the YOU in all of YOU.
Stop treating one another like YOU is any different from YOU in another, as ‘that’ is what breaks the sincerity connection of pure loving feelings we feel between one another, which is of the willingness of God for all to one day feel…love devoid of doubt that we are of the knowingness of.
It is God thru all of us, thru all souls eventually of the earth.
You’ll see(feel) soon enough, the truth of who i am, of who we all are, divine children of God.
i have alot of writing yet to go for anyone interested in me. lol 😉
M is married, so forget that.
I remain a true and faithful friend to M forever more, and to Matt forever more.
It is of God’s willingness that i do.
ok, i am back over to my blog.
Matt, get your blog back up, if indeed you sincerely are the Matt i know.
maybe now i can get some sleep, and stop worring about you all like i do.
a mother’s job does not end. 😉
i agree, no more useless drama queen, as i prefer real.
as in the real you in all of YOU, no different than the feelings in me….sameness….truth.
Truth ‘that’ is not able to fail, always of our learning of truth of our sincere pure feelings…i am.
i am…BE cause we are…truth for all to see and feel.
time for much need rest.
i’ll be back another day, with no more drama. on topic. it’s your blog M, not mine. run it your way. always.
thanks for listening to your feelings everyone!
after all, ‘that’s what true life is, the sincere feelings of YOU, some i can love who feels what i feel too….love.
i had to have the last word, you know ‘that’.
you don’t need me to know what ‘that’ is
although i am near anytime you want to chat, please do, as i am always of the willingness to listen, if only some of you would more often, like true and faithful friends do.
who does not want ‘that’ ? 😉
again, thank you
God blesses ALL.
can you believe M dedicated the song ‘Like a Virgin’ to the Pope.
True fearlessness M
Bravo!
hey, i noticed you have a body alot like Cloud from Final X
ok. one final post.
Let always BE of the remembrance of who’s side we all are on.
Jesus’s side.
God’s side.
OUR side.
The side of
love
compassion
wisdom
‘that’ which pushes out of the world, all darkness of
hate
apathy
ignorance
for sake of us
for sake of others
for sake of children yet unborn
the future, always right here in the present, of our descerning wisdom to think with our loving feelings before speaking, of our one stream of thought in memory and knowingness of Jesus, who is only loving of us, just as we are only loving of each other and another along life’s road of many unwise stumbling blocks that derail pure loving sincerity of our tender loving true feelings for one another.
Truly, we want everyone to feel the purity of love which we feel and know of our knowingness of what God wants for all precious loving innocent souls born into the (yet) unwise world sadly snared by so much apathy and unloving, unbecoming conduct not of Jesus and God, nor should ever BE of us…ever. We know what unloving feels like, so why invite such into our own lives or the lives of others, our loving neighbors who are no different than we are, albeit, perhaps not (yet) of our knowingness of what pure sincerity of love feels like.
we know.
we always did know.
along time for some of us.
As Rosie says, “Life This.”
alright, i better go before i start crying again.
stop hurting one another like you do. Nobody wants or deserves it.
ok. thanks for sharing your sincerity we have come into the fullness of knowingness.
Let it be known around the world, that what we look for has already come, within every soul of the earth, the precious loving divine true loving child of God sincere and true of love devoid of doubt, yet unattended, unnurtured, unprotected, ever growing in our conduct which is BEcoming of Jesus and the divine true self within us all.
i’ll drop by from time to time, but for now, M needs to stay in the zone. Just make sure she does not cry while on stage, although it would be nice to see the real M i know.
God blesses you forever more Madonna, of this i know to BE true…without doubt like ‘that’ of the world we see and feel of all unbecoming conduct so easy for us to feel.
i love you. andy.
when love is true, you just know, by it’s radiant and bright light, on par with ‘that’ of the sun, lighting up the whole world, like loving lovers do.
i say, “BE THAT of what is TRUE of YOU, as i am of YOU.”
Truly i am, yes? 😉
glad some of you understand, because sure don’t understand why people are so unbecoming of love ‘that’ is true.
Someone fill me in someday will ya, and talk to me like i really do exist, as sometimes i feel i don’t.
am i being too needy, or is ‘that’ what we all need? ha. 😉
ok, i really have to go now, but not far.
when you are far away from me, i am near.
when you are near, i am far away.
so where am i?
Where we always want to BE found, in each other’s heart.
And indeed we are ‘that’, each others heart, mind, body, spirit and soul forever more.
BE pleasing of Jesus and God, and we are pleasing to the divine true self when ever we do, of what Jesus so desperately wanted us all to know…
…pure sincere love without doubt in each waking moment of each blessed day.
blessed BE this day in your hearts forever more, as you are in mine…forever more.
oh look, i just spammed Jesus and God.
‘that’ of me.
so i guess i am spam and i just spammed all over the place! lol
stop laughing Matt. 😉
~ whatever
keeping it real Matt.
we are ‘that’ of real emotion pure and true, forever more, of what we yearn to always BE;
~ ‘that’ of our pure loving sincere feelings for one another.
~ ‘that’ of his contemplation while apon the cross of each passing moment while there, of each word uttered in betrayal of self within, self of another, compared with the pure sincere loving feelings of his followers who sincerely weep while there, not leaving his side the whole time, while others did, yet Jesus they would all return to their sanctuary eventually and weep before God asking for forgiveness, in his knowingness that eventually they all would, perhaps after his death.
Jesus sacrificed his life to the cross in his knowingness of the many years in seeing so many innocent souls snared by unwiseness who turn towards the bitter, unwise, learned conduct of egotistic self defense mechanisms of the wearing of the insincere hypocrite masks we sometimes hide behind afraid.
Jesus became fearless over time, of his continued steps apon the earth where each and every step of his life felt the truth of each passing moment, internalizing more and more the truth in his sincere desire to not BE like them, until eventually he became the TRUTH which freeing of LOVE.
Jesus TRULY loved us all, in coming into his own knowingness of just how much he truly does love us, just like some of us truly know how much we another, not different than ‘that’ of the knowingness Jesus also transitioned thru his entire life, greeting him fully apon the day he surrendered fully into his WILLINGNESS of YES!, this is what i want to teach them all, ‘that’ of what i have fully into knowingness of self and self of another, sincere of love for all innocent souls snared by the ignorant teachings of the forefathers. Jesus knew the hypocrisy heart well, and knew what they would do as the drove the nails into his body, surrendered and commited fully to his WILLINGNESS to teach his pure sincere loving feelings he wanted everyone to come into the sameness of knowingness he did, of what is TRULY so VITAL to us all, is it not, tender sincere loving conduct with another?
Jesus said, “Come before God alone in your safe sanctuaries of love and peace and pray, not as groups.” For obvious reasons Jesus asked of this healingness for us all, of what is easily understood of those who gather in groups, of the truth which is there, truth of ignorant snaring teachings of the forefathers all around them, of insincere conduct unBEcoming of the divine true self within, where dynamics of groups interfers with one’s ability to gently surrender into the grace pure and true of the divine true self while alone in prayer before God, the true healing power of weeping, trueness of the divine true self which needs to do in order to BEcome restored into the fullness of sincere pure love within.
There is much which i will continue to write of my knowingness as one who surrendered their heart, mind, body, spirit and soul fully to Jesus and God, of my sincere desire to do so some time ago, and i will bring forth from the storehouse of goodness, the vast amounts of goodness reflections while in my sanctuary of love and peace where i pray, of so many things i love reflect apon as my divine true self which yearns to only speak words of wisdom sincere and pure, for sake of me and others.
I have grown weary of insincerity in life, and truly love my restoration transition, a passage of learning, of my sincere desire for myself and others to live a blessed sincere loving pure life, especially you Matt, someone who already is pure of heart like the Matt i came to know.
Beware of the bitter gnashing of teeth outside the gate of Porta Caeli which is able to taint your pure loving heart that i love so much, for great and numerous are the many bitter ignorant teachings of the forefathers which yet lurk in the world, those of unBEcoming conduct so obvious to feel, are they not?
Not of me, do i desire to BE like them, has always been at the forefront of my thinking, that goes way back to my youth like youth of you Matt, sincere and true in your feelings of each passing moment. Embrace the goodness sincere and true of YOU, loved by Jesus and God who want you to live a pure sincere fun loving life forever more of your exceeding enthusiasm so true of YOU, incredible you are to me byatch! 😉
ok, i will slow down in these reflections here and just go and enjoy the blessed day, for i know i am walking in the direction i yearn to walk, toward setting Love to free, to forever more BE, someone like me, alongside thee.
it is thru descern what we turn towards which is of the healing power of God, of the words Jesus spoke that i will speak once again as assurance;
At all times, what you turn towards(embrace), YOU BEcome. ~ True, is it not?
At all times, where ever your heart is, there too shall be YOUR treasure and YOUR life. ~ True, is it not?
BE descerning of what YOU turns towards, and BEcome fearless in fearlessly turning towards the pure sincere love within YOU, ‘that’ of which is true for YOU, is it not?
‘that’ of which is true of M so brave and true to her SELF, of greater purity and sincerity of heart than most yet know, and yet, we all know, there is something special about M, is there not?
i know she knows i know, that special place Kingdom hearts like to hide.
these are not trivial Matters of life and love everyone, just as there is nothing trival out YOU in each blessed step you take each day, yearning for ‘that’ which is pure and true of YOU to be also of another, do we not?
Love is TRUE of YOU too?
Not to worry, Andy will BE around somewhere to hold your hand, of the many hands he has been holding of his 14 years living a gay life in the GLBT ghettos of the world.
And yet, truly i tell YOU, the ghetto is not a ghetto at all, and rather of where i found hearts like my own, sincere and true, of greater wealth than all the riches of the world, seeing them holding hands so fearlessly daily, kissing in public too, of the sincere feelings of me and YOU.
BE TRUE to YOU in all YOU do, always in step with your loving feelings, and you will live a most blessed true life forever more, just i am yet doing in every step.
It is the BEcoming of these things i speak of which is most signifance in life, where ‘Crucial Lacking of Sincere Desire for God’s Pure Truth Wisdoms’, is of exacting cause for why the world yet is the way it is.
Do not make a mockery of these sacred words, for the world is in great need of leaders who embrace their pure of heart knowingness we know about, as armagedon is approaching, where the only safe passage for mankind, is thru the safe passage of TRUTH, truth of the sincere loving BEcoming conduct of the divine true self to love thy neighbor as YOU love your SELF.
this concludes today test of the emergency broadcast network, brought to you by nerds of telecommunications electronics, using the annoying boolean algebra mathematics created in the 1940s when they created the atom bomb.
Trival dishearted approach, obviously, is of unwiseness, is it not?
Is YOUR life trival?
Not to me it’s not, for i love YOU with all that i am, of the truth of what the divine true SELF within all of us yearns for…LOVE.
without doubt…i love YOU.
God blesses ALL.
12,980 blessed days to go meant to be enjoyed in each tender passing moment.
Lead by the eample YOU are, such as taking the hand of a starving child, of the sincere yearning within YOU to do so, a reflection for all souls of the earth to feel the REAL YOU, doing what Jesus and God want for us all the world over, to unite in BEcoming the knowingness of the Loving Divine True Self YOU.
Every step, even of our stumbling, is of God, for it is the child of God within us all, sadly unattended, unnurtured, unloved, unprotected for so many innocent souls of the world.
I still don’t believe there are one billion children in poverty today. In pure reflection of truth, i asked my SELF why?
I BEcame knowingness of the obviousness of why the world is the way it is in one sentence of pure truth that does not fail.
The world is (yet) gripped by spiritual poverty of heart, mind, body, spirit and soul.
bless YOU who likewise of likemindedness embrace this truth of words Jesus spoke so long ago. True words Jesus full heartedly embraced in every step he took while walking the earth, just we too can easily do as well, and indeed, we do, yes?
Love is what MATTers.
not to worry, Andy will forever BE somewhere near, as the thorn in your side who loves to annoy YOU forever more, of where i yearn to foreve BE…at your side as someone who sincerely loves YOU all.
no really, i do enjoy annoying YOU, in a good way of course, the goodness of the storehouse of goodness within us all.
blessings to all this blessed day.
so don’t run away damn it.
i love my sincere friends.
im not going anywhere other than where i always am.
so where am i?
Same sky above. Same moon too. Same earth beneath our feet. Same great beachs to walk apon with another. Ya, loving of life, perhaps more so than most, but ‘that’ is a good thing, is it not? 😉
The GLBT family, is a blessed family in God’s eyes, as seen thru our eyes, the truth, of just how sincerely loving we REALLY are Matt, just like YOU.
Give thanks to M while praying, for she is one like me who is most loving of us all, and has been for along time, ever nurturing, ever protective of us, in our knowingness of how the world treats. She is a blessing for so many of us, and has been for me, indeed of why i feel the way i do today, blessed by Jesus and God.
Truly i know, we are the blessed brothers/sisters of Jesus. Truly we are.
i am…BE cause…we are brothers/sisters of Jesus, all children of God, the world over.
hey, i think maybe i will wear those big ass pink wings next year, that are so frigin awesome, yes!
wings of truth wisdom 😉
enjoy the blessed day everyone!
Jesus loves YOU.
God loves YOU.
i love YOU.
i think my favorite film was the Romeo & Juliet film with Leonardo Decaprio.
the sincerity level which is intense in awareness is something of a good experiential experience.
i wish more directors and writers would BE like that.
what a powerful film, if you have not seen it, do.
It connects with the driving spirit of purity and sincerity within us that is demanding of integrity, honesty, genuine forceful pushing into a high level or increased value for sincerity.
God actually speaks of our requirement to INCREASE our level of VALUE for sincerity, graceful approach, sincere and true of our divine true self, where it makes sense to me why…in order for the process of self-discovery/actualization/maintainance to be successful in our BEcoming of the divine true self, something i study in my knowingness of ‘that’ is what the divine will of Jesus and God.
Here is something i know fully about Jesus that i will share with which is of the higher awareness level.
In BEcoming the awareness level within Jesus, of his knowingness level of purity and sincerity he felt in each passing moment, sincere and true of him, he realized it was of God’s divine chosen one who chose God, where indeed, Jesus did chose God as the one to look to for understanding, all the while coming into the fullness of understanding is own SELF.
Blessed Jesus, you are forever in my heart, of this i know, of someone i love that i am, so wanting to know youme more, and indeed, i am, BEcoming of the awareness of God’s divine will, which is incredible to feel and BE of purity, sincerity, honesty, truthfulness with others, of our desire for others to be of the knowingness of just how good it feels to just BE YOU.
Best of all, it is true of every innocent soul the world over, of what the world is yet growing in and BEcoming, loving of SELF, loving of SELF of our neighbors, who are not any different from any of us, other than to say the obviousness of truth which is there, of every innocent soul snared by the unwise teachings of the forefathers, bitter to the taste, hateful, untrue, fearful…not of God.
God asks us to be of the BEcoming knowingness, obviously for just how good pure loving emotion feels for another, sincere and true, thru and thru, yes?
I love how ‘that’ feels, and so grateful you too feel as i do while we pray.
obviously by all the words i write and express, it is not me to turn away from ‘that’, am i?
Why would we want to?
Truly we know how precious every innocent soul of the earth is, do we not? Truly we see and feel with clarity the harsh fear mongering of those who control so many preciously snared souls, yes, of how the world really is?
I say, the BEcoming conduct of pure grace and sincere approach is what the world is in need of experiencing, of our fearless BEcoming conduct which the divine true self within all easily connects with and recognizes instantly of the mirroring experience they feel. I have practiced this with many snared souls, some so raging and full of terror within, my calmness actually protected me, like that Russian guy, 350lbs, drunk out of his mind, raging so loudly of such incredible brut force, i laughingly in my mind imagined him dressed in a Roman centurian skirt with heavey sword in hand, his nose two inches from me, yelling like i was at the other end of a football field…i recall not feeling hardly any fear of him…i don’t know, maybe secretly i wanted him to come home with me? maybe! lol
This feelings of exceeding joy continues to grow within me, in my just BEing Andy, sincere and pure of heart, of what Andy knows about all of YOU, the very sameness of loving spirit of himSELF.
anyway, i hope my words continue to evoke self-actualization feelings, as i am just BEing me from now on, unable and of no desire to BE anything other than how good it feels inside in our feelings we feel like we do, sincere and true.
YOU know who YOU are, just as i too know YOU, by means of the knowingness feelings sincere and true of the YOU in me, sameness of YOU, the world over.
and ‘that’ is the best news actually, our knowingness of the truth we know and feel, is true of every soul of the earth.
Thank God for ‘that’, as the world sure could use some purity and sincerity, yes?
YES! The only word of positive forward momentum for me to speak, as in YES, i know i am of Jesus and God forever more, of the very thing Jesus wanted everyone to feel, ‘that’ of himSELF so pure and true in loving sincere feelings for us all, the loving sincere YOU, that i love too.
LOVE YOUR SELF, just as i do too, no different in ‘that’ of YOU.
Truly, i do love YOU, do i not?
So it is true, we all love one another, of God’s divine will for us to BE of the BEcoming into our knowingness awareness level like we have and continue to do.
God offers words of wisdom of greatest significance;
“BE not of FORGETFULNESS(of YOU) the greatest foe.”
blessings to YOU. someone i love.
you know i know you know i know YOU. 😉
not ‘that’ difficult really, seeing as i know me.
and ‘that’s the joyful simplicity of, “Do unto others as you would want them to do to you.”
And no, ‘that’ was not some gay humor, although i guess it is, and does work when practiced, yes? lol 😉 😀
YOU know i had to end on a positive note. 😉
ok, enough self exploration for today.
thank YOU for listening(feeling), as ‘that’ has always been my approach with YOU, listening and paying attention to my feelings sincere and true for each of YOU, especially YOU Matt, someone i know is of pure heart like my own.
YOU are loved by me forever more Matt. Truly you i do love YOU.
So keep smiling, BE cause, my TRUE feelings don’t change like the hypocrits, something i always despised about others since my youth.
keeping it real like Matt is.
‘that’s what MATTers.
love andy OXXX
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all my words, realness of YOU, someone i love, someone Jesus loves, someone God loves, forever more.
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Truthfully, who would want to BE anything other than who Matt is, of sincere heart, mind, body, spirit and soul?
The ONE i know and love.
bless you
i love you too.
forever Byatch! 😉 😀
i can’t you came back. i prayed for you come back, and you did.
Truth is, you did not leave, nor did i.
why would i want to,
and where would i go?
same sky above,
same earth below
someone like YOU.
sincere and true.
i can’t BELIEVE!!!
i forgot BELIEVE! 😉
as in BELIEVE in YOU! 😀 😀
and me 2.
It’s all Rosie’s fault ya know, she is the one who has kept us all real.
as real as it gets baby!
ain’t nothing better! 😀 😀
oh sure, one can try to imagine, but i prefer REAL. 😉
GLBT family.
keep on….keeping it together.
and indeed, we are still together as ONE family forever more…we shall always BE.
bless you M
oh hey, we got sunshine today.
Pray hard enough, and realize, the sun always shining bright.
something we all forget ‘that’ is true.
~ some Jesus humor. 😀 😀
Don’t ever forget me, just as i cannot forget YOU.
i would have to leave me for that to BE possible.
~ impossible.
and besides, who would want to leave me damn it?
ok…i can BE annoying somedays, i admit. forgive me.
but YOU love that about me.
these fucking energy drinks are bad for ya. I have cut down to one a day now. But i love the taste of them. The green Monster one is my favorite, as it tastes like the pop rocks we ate as kids. remember the pop rocks that fizzed and poped when you ate them. They bottled the flavor!
One of my many enjoyments of life, that and the Hot tub, my favorite place of all.
LOVE is what MATTers damn it!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and Matt is LOVE…Loves. 😉
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blessed are the pure of heart.
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i am about experiential techniques guys, of deliberate approach with YOU.
i am trying to get YOU to feel what we feel, of my knowingness like your own, of how good love feels, of M’s knowingness too in the approach of all of YOU, prodding us all awakening into our loving sincere divine true SELF.
And for those who have seen and will see her, YOU know!
She is most beloved to me, always was, and always we BE, what we are, united together as ONE, forever more, of this i daily pray, of my pure sincere loving thoughts, pure and true of me, pure and true of her, for all of us.
~ family.
Oh how i love your precious souls like my own.
thank you.
thank you father. thank you Jesus. thank you Matt. thank you Madonna, thank you Rosie & family/friends, thank you loving friends and family of the GLBT communties world wide, thank you to all who turn towards their pure sincere loving feelings within, ‘that’ which is TRUE of the divine true self within us all, ‘that’ which is TRUE of Jesus, ‘that’ which is TRUE of God’s divine WILLINGNESS for ALL to BE the WILLINGNESS of the divine TRUE SELF, of YOU, of Jesus, in exact sameness of the knowingness of Jesus Christ, our loving brother and saviour of ALL for all eternity, who sacrificed his life to reveal to us ALL the truth ‘that’ is there within us ALL, ‘that’ of the knowingness Jesus came to know about himSELF, and in so doing, came into the knowingness of ‘that’ which is TRUE of us ALL.
thank you Jesus, for loving us as much as YOU did and do, forever loved by me, someone like YOU, who discovered the treasure of the pearl YOU spoke of like you did, and yet do, of those like me who yearn to truly know YOU, and in so doing, realize fully in their heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, what it was YOU so desperately were trying to tell us, the TRUTH about our knowingness of purity and sincerity of heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, of the knowingness you came to BE…the TRUTH.
i love you Jesus with all that i am or ever shall BEcome, ever BEcoming the truth of YOU, of the YOU in all of us so loving and true like YOU.
~ now ‘that’ truly is some good vintage wine, yes? How old is it anyway, 2000 years old? Hey, is our time based on his death or his brith, as in 2008 AD?
I am pushing forward in study, as have for decades now, in my understanding of what Jesus and God’s divine will is, of ancient text research and interpretations which i will continue to post, sincere in approach for all to easily read, in the hopes for unveiling the bridegroom Jesus to the world. We are obviously close in our knowingness here at his cross. I know that the world is of great need for sincerity and pure of heart, what with the one billion children needless suffering in poverty world wide. It is of God’s divine willingness for all of us, and indeed, it is what is the greatest treasure we shall ever find, more valuable than all the riches of the world, is it not?
i am especially thankful of M, and she knows why. And you too Matt, your pure heart connectedness i feel in your every word, of my knowingness, indeed, it is you who is one most real in your pure heart sincerity that you are. i am of the knowingness of YOU Matt of what you have been wanting us to about you, indeed, BEing real, of what Matters. How does one thank a friend like you, other than to say, “let’s be best friends in life!” where sincerely, that is what i wanted and had with you, and yet have, i pray.
thank you.
break time. class dismissed. lol 😉
blessings to all. Peace BE to this house forever more.
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we tend to do alot of alot of musing, do we not? 😉 😀
i love you Madonna.
always did. always will.
always.
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‘that’ which is good for our heart, mind, body, spirit and soul. of God’s divine will for us to BEcome the WILLINGNESS to.
blessed are those who seek.
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the sacred treasure Jesus spoke of, in our knowingness of now found, is it not?
blessed be this day forever more.
bless you M
as Matt says, don’t run away, for i know won’t either, a loving brother of the GLBT family. Honesly, where would i go, other than where we BELong, with and of Jesus and God?
silly question, is it not?
sincerely loving family forever more we all shall remain, ‘that’ of the truth of what we truly are…a blessed family blessed by Jesus and God forever more.
thank you for returning Matt, as we missed you greatly.
bless you
ok, i will go and enjoy my hot tub now. catch ya all later.
Truly, i love Matt more than realized, and my realizing today, the depth of my soul, the depth of his soul, the depth of M’s soul, the depth of Jesus, of what Jesus wanted us to turn towards…the sincere depth or our souls, where Jesus and God dwell forever more, for ALL souls, for all eternity.
blessed is pure heart of Jesus.
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give thanks to Jesus.
thank you Jesus.
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ok. Let’s foget about our mission from God, for each and everyone of us to pick up starving child from of the cold ground and sponsor them for life, not just a gift, sponsor them, take of their hand, each one of us, one child in the world. You can sponsor them thru many of the child sponsor agencies world wide. When you do, God’s thru YOU, radiates into the child’s life, surrounding them with love and protection from the great walls of poverty(spiritual) of the world, lighting the world all around them, these precious loving children of God.
blessed are those of couragous heart in doing so, for your reward is YOU when you do.
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Let’s not forget…about our mission from God.
damn tears in my eyes today keep falling, of a fatigued student frustrated by the insincerity of the world we live in.
JOY for the world, for exceeding great JOY is coming to the world in our mission from God, for so many precious souls.
Let it be known for ALL, God’s WILLINGNESS for us ALL.
God blesses ALL.
many there will be who are last to enter, and we are of the knowingness of why. Be not concerned of them as time passes, staying focused on our work, for the radiant bright loving light thru us that lights up the world, is what ‘Power of the Love of the ALL’ is, which is what changes the hearts, minds, bodies, spirits, and souls of all God’s precious innocent souls born into the (yet) unwise unknowingness world around us.
we know.
BE of thankful of ‘that’ which we know, pure and true of our precious souls in our love for one another, and BE not of the unwise attitudes like many, for easy it is for us to fall from great heights of purity and sincerity, as great there are many and numerous unwise bitter gnashing of teeth outside Porta Caeli(gate of heaven) yes?
thanks for BEing YOU.
thanks Matt, for keeping it real.
God bless YOU Matt.
i’ll be back. To kick anyone’s butt that gets in the ring with M and i.
‘That’ you can count on! 😉
God bless YOU Madonna.
for the incredible workout we kept at together in our diligence, determination, stick-to-it-tiveness, of our sincere approach within like we have for so many years.
the best is yet to come, yes?
of course it is, in our all of BEcoming conduct with and of one another in the world.
~ family united as ONE.
blessings to ALL.
thank you.
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heading out to a cafe in the ghetto, always returning here to pray with all of YOU, forever more, God WILLING.
thank you God.
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relax everyone…it’s just experiential techniques able to usher you into Porta Caeli merely by turning towards them.
At all times, where your heart is, there too is your treasure and your life.
At all times, what you turn towards, YOU BEcome.
Turn towards your precious sweet loving pure souls like my own, and away from the bitter hypocrisy heart which in truth, does not feel as good as our TRUE feelings, so why would you want to BE like those yet unwise?
thank you Jesus.
sincerely enjoy the blessed day of your loving SELF, as do i.
practice at BEing you and pray daily, as prayer is how we connect and remain in connected knowingness of our sincere love within for each other, the great significance of prayer. Do pray in gatherings like the other 99sheep, rather pray in privacy alone with Jesus and God, as do i, as did Jesus in the desert for most of his life, the desert of life(metaphor).
Extraordinary and Wondrous is our loving sincere pure feelings, yes?
thank you Madonna.
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*correction note*
Do not pray in gatherings, as the group dynamics which are fear based, however subtle, do hinder the true fearlessness pure and true, as the world is yet snared by controlling fear in our daily lives, of another dynamic, familiarity, which is cause of our not leaving the 99sheep and remain of our stuckness like the world does.
It is of subtle intellect knowingness i speak of my knowingness findings of my life long research of my divine true SELF.
I know M is of the knowingness i speak of.
Truly, i am a true and faithful friend of M, so do not think any negativity of her, as she is of great intellect like my own.
thanks M.
how’s your day’s off going?
hey, at least i don’t annoy you before concerts, considerate of YOU.
more considerate now than i have ever been, yes?
what time is it?
4 minutes?
nah, take less than four minutes for me! lol
to feel love ‘that’ i feel.
oh, you guys are so bad!
ok, ‘that’ too. 😉
truly, who would ever want to live without a loving lover?
although i don’t know if Jesus had lovers.
i think he wanted to, in his journey, ever evolving of his virgin spirit until he came into his knowingness, easy for him to do actually, of the fearless virgin spirit that does not enjoy being among the unpure hearts, hence is waunding off into the desert like he did, alone, ever nurturing and protective of his divine true self virgin spirit, until such a time as he BEcame of great solidness in his ability to walk among them as his TRUE divine virgin spirit SELF.
sadly, Jesus may have died a virgin, which is so heart breaking for me.
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Jesus loves YOU
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God loves YOU
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i love YOU
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forever more
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forgiveness of God is of Jesus and God’s knowingness like our own of the obviousness of the innocent souls snared by the unwise teachings of the forefathers before us all, obvious in all their sadly unwise, bitter, hurtful, false conduct, of learned behaviours, not of Jesus, not of God, nor should ever BE of us, in our knowingness of how such conduct leaves us feeling, bitter anxiousness of foul tasting; rather, it is of the false teachings of the forefathers before us all in their claiming to know God, and did/do not no God, in their not desiring of God’s wisdom, in their not coming into the knowingness of purity and sincerity feelings true of the divine true SELF as we have.
BE of the knowingness that all such conduct is forgiven at all times, as we journey safely thru dark passage of our ever learning and evolving, merely by means of surrending to our gracefulness within while in pray alone with Jesus and God, of where we truly feel best, of safe and supportive fearless places of sanctuaries of our CHOICE thru out life. We are all in it together as ONE in our journey along life’s road, as true and faithful friends to the end forever more, on the sameness road we walk apon together.
It is of God’s divine will for us to BE of the knowingness of these words of Jesus and God forever more.
i ask forgiveness from all in my own useless conduct of unwiseness, as i too am yet of the detanglement of snaring of ignroance, ever evolving away from the absurdness of bitterness of the hypcrosy heart Jesus spoke of.
thank you.
at all times, all is forgivable and forgive by God, of Jesus and God’s divine will that we BE of the desire to come free of such bitterness of leaned life unBEcoming conduct, of our knowingness of the contrasting difference between loving light and bitter darkness, and indeed, we are of ‘that’ knowingness, are we not?
i am…BE cause…we are…of the descerning wisdom of Jesus and God’s divine will for ALL.
blessed are those of sincere approach with Jesus and God, for they are ONLY loving of us ALL.
Let’s go change the world, move the mountain, shall we? And indeed, we are doing just ‘that’, as we are ‘that’ 😉
oh hey look, it’s the Mountain movers. I heard these guys work for free, where even if you had all the riches of the world, you could not buy them! lol
although i hear they love their morning coffee more than anything, where it is best not to speak with them until after they have had their morning coffee, as they can set your world on fire if you do. lol 😉
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respectFULLy yours forever more, a true and faithful friend i shall always BE till the end, a loving brother of Jesus, child of God, knowingness of the greatest treasure which lays (yet) burried(submerged divine true self) for all souls of the earth to discover, ‘that’ of the divine true self YOU.
bless you
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ok. how about some precious humor?
my cat, when i am out, will snuggle with a pair of shoes, the odor of feet, the precious sincere love within the soul of the creature which sincerely loves a human BEing.
can you believe ‘that’?
everyday, the cat does this.
i don’t know about you(albeit i know), but my feet stink! badly somedays. lol 😉 😀
Jesus said, “Blessed is he/she who IS, before he/she came into (knowingness) of BEing, for he/she who IS has always BEen and always WILL BE.”
this is the pure truth of ALL innocent souls born into the unwise world sorround, (yet) of the unknowingness of the protective nurturing wisdoms of God which briing one into the knowingness of BEing, able to then always BE in their path of life, protected forever more by the great power of God’s descerning truth wisdoms which feel the truth of each passiing moment of each day of the true condition of each soul in passing, able to guard us against the tendencies of the unwise teachings which snare many unknowingly.
peace be to you forever more.
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ok..break time.
enjoy the blessed day.
12, 981 blessed days to go, God WILLING >
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BE of the knowingness of who are, a divine loving child of God forever more, of God’s divine will to protect and nurture ALL souls of the earth…(eventually).
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something special to say.
the locket around my neck which opens has a picture of both Matt and M, forever of my heart they shall remain, always of my remembrance of their love for me, and i them.
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Indeed, Love is what MATTers most to me to Matt.
forever more, to BE, loved by thee!
if you find better guys, BE SURE…to let me know, ‘that’ IS.
What is more blessed than the forever more loving feelings of thee, other than the loving feelings to BE, loving of ONE like thee who is loving of thee?
hint: me
~ some more Jesus humor for the morons who have (yet) to BE as loving of thee, as in the thee of YOU Matt and M.
BE of joyful spirit, as YOU are found to BE of Jesus and God forever more protective of thee, of ALL souls the world over eventually.
the future IS unfolding as it should and WILL, as in it is ours of our WILLINGNESS to BE the loving ONE we always were and are.
i am…BE cause…we are WILLINGNESS to BE set free as ONE like the love of thee Jesus.
thank you Jesus.
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Andy I’m SORRY for saying that publicly but u are sick! do u think that any of us reading your to many long comments?i don’t think so !do yourself a huge favor give it up kid and check yourself in in 1 of the hospitals near u as soon as possibile thank u!
whatever Ron.
your belittling comments are indicative of the condition of your precious soul left uncheck, unattended, unnurtured, unprotected from the unwise ignorant teachings of the forefathers which clearly is evident for anyone to see and feel the TRUTH of your turning towards the learned behaviours of the hypocrisy heart, the same hypocrisy heart of many who laughed in emptiness of sincerity and shallowness of shortmindedness mockery(limited vocabulary such as your own), expressions of the defensive ego mechanisms like the one you hid behind.
truly, i am not one who is mad?
rather it is you who is angry mad, are you not?
~ bitter gnashing of teeth outside Porta Caeli, of those unknowingly snared by unwiseness of the world devoid of God, obvious to taste and smell of bad odor they give off, not of the storehouse of goodness, and instead of the turning towards the hypocrisy heart, yes?
You one of the last to enter into full knowingness.
you are already forgive by Jesus and God, unknowingly by you who are not of God’s divine wisdom, in your CHOICE not to BE (yet).
i don’t plan on staying here much longer Ron, if that’s any consilation for YOU to embrace alone with your SELF where YOU are, where Jesus is not found in all untruthfulness.
thank you for serving Jesus and God Ron(unknowingly in your blind ignorance of impure thought).
any more contenders that want to get in the ring?
come on, i need some exercise(of the heart, mind, body, spirit and soul).
just like our sister M who is most like me(unknowingly for many). 😉
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all is forgiven by Jesus and God, but why waste your time in uselessness of negativity that only hurts YOU, and not those of pure enlightenment, YOU who turn towards the empty words devoid of love?
Who would want YOU as a friend in your foul smelling odor?
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YOUR life is always of YOUR CHOICES which YOU make in each waking moment of YOUR life, by all things you ponder or reflect apon.
Reflect apon the loving sincere feelings of Jesus who looks apon all in the sad condition of our souls world wide, in your embracing of truth wisdom of God meant as ONLY goodness for YOU.
Rather than reflect apon your faith in Jesus, it is better to reflect apon the faith Jesus has of YOU, in his knowingness of YOU, which is of his own knowingness he came to know of himSELF.
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Just as i shall love and praise forever more Jesus, Matt and Madonna, i shall love and praise ALL who are of pure heart in all they say and do, those of loving pure thought and feelings.
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I have to catch a plane soon, one of those new planes that fly themselve’s you don’t even need to hold on to the CONTROL’s
to fly, well sometimes you do
Andy i don’t think Jesus died a virgin, there were a few guy’s in his inner circle, he must of been gay.
i am happy today, found gay yesterday
gay’s coming back soon, pure heart, freshly squeezed gay.
have a wonderful day
Love you M,
Love you Andy
Love you Gay
Love you Jesus
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YOU lead only your SELF away from your SELF in all your unloving unwise useless absurd bitter mean spirited arrows you shoot into darkness hoping to hit the target, of one who’s comprehension is of all you refuse to reflect apon, the ONE you cannot see who is there…YOU, yet unattended, unnurtured, unprotected by God’s wisdom, who summons YOU to wisdom for sake of YOU, of only goodness meant for your divine true loving sincere SELF…YOU.
take time to get to come into the knowingness of the sincere pure thoughts and feelings of YOU, or BE like that of the many in all their mean spiritedness which serves no one, painful to all who are of sincere feelings of sight restored to their precious loving souls.
truly, they make mockery only of themselves, do they not?
blessed are the pure of heart, for the kingdom of heaven is your reward, of a joyful fun loving life you shall always live.
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oh hey Marco.
always of sincere delightful feelings i have in seeing YOU each and everytime i did, and shall, yet again, of the joyful sweet loving beautiful soul YOU are.
OXXX
thanks Marco. i love you too. always did. your brace heart fearless and true in expressing your sincere true SELF which loves to feel feelings that are real for YOU, as are me.
me gay? nah. just a figment of your imagination. lol 😉
bless YOU this day forever more Marco.
thanks for BEing YOU Marco, a joyful fun loving pure heart.
i tryed to convince M to come to Australia…no decision yet, butt she may…she is the boss after all.
im just a sincere loving true and faithful friend of hers, like YOU are too.
i am…BE cause…we are…sincere loving true and faithful friends till the end.
hey, can i come over to your place tonight Marco?
indeed, my happy self is returning Marco…your so smart. i can’t get anything past YOU.
why would i want to when i would rather hand you ‘that’ of me too? 😉
are you looking to live a gay life Marco?
good news if you do, as the sex is amazing. just asking.
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i just though i would amuse everyone while M is resting and working. She is so busy right now. I don’t does it. Well actually i do. She is of pure heart like we are, sincere and true. I am only here to assure her, as a humble servant of God.
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good point Marco. I think Jesus for sure thought about gay sex, and heterosexual sex, without doubt, and i even see Jesus as perhaps a frustrated homosexual struggling with homophobia, but of the pure virgin spirit he was, i think mayBE he was holding our for someone as sincerely loving as he came to know about himSELF, come to think of it, alot like YOU Marco.
well now, isn’t that interesting, yes?
im such a tease, i know.
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I know i am.
holding out for someone like me, sincerely loving like Jesus.
i am a loving brother of Jesus, of his brotherhood, child of God, fatherhood of God.
a sincere loving bisexual, where frustration is not of my heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, rather frustration of finding one like me who is equally as frustrated in finding ONE like thee! 😉
blessed are thee who know who thee is!
someone let me know. take your time as Love waits, wise of what not to BEcome like in our knowingness of likemindedness…soul mate lovers and friends till the end.
ok, im heading OUT to a cafe with the loving lesbians, gays, bisexuals and transgendered, as many there are who need my support.
if anyone wants to chat, please do, as i am always here.
bless you
i love you
OXXX
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ya. i was hurt Matt.
but something tells me you were hurting more than me at the time.
your words of keeping it real, tell me you too are a tender loving sensitive soul like my own, who feels their life in each passing moment as do i.
I so wanted to keep our friendship, and still do. i know you know that i do, and i know you know my love is true for you.
always was Matt. always will BE.
always.
without doubt.
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keeping it real.
in this moment, relaxed, listening to music, at the key board, pondering of my feelings for you Matt, clasping of my hands tightly in prayer from moment to passing moment, real feelings i feel of my sweet memories of you, sensing your hesitation with me like before, someone like me afraid to lose a friendship like we had, knowingness of how much we enjoyed chatting like we did before, wondering if you are wanting to get back to the friendship we had and obviously enjoyed with one another, hoping and praying you want to keep the friendship going as much as do, wondering if you know just how much hurt me losing your friendship, where i got to a day of realizing just how hurt i really was and yet am, encompassing feelings that crashed in around me that i lost a best friend, a hopelessness feeling of life goes on, yearning to get away from the key board, so as not to feel the pain i was feeling all this time in having lost your friendship…letting go.
I did let go in my mind, decided to call i quits and move on, feeling ok in doing so in my leaving something special always there for you at my blog for you to always have and feel how much i really did care for you as a young gay male in our community…a real friend that i was for you(still am).
You sensed my loving joyful spirit that loved you, actually surprised when you openly expressed that you knew i how much i loved you.
ya Matt. It’s true. i loved alot, of sincere life long loving feelings that wanted to keep you as best friend for the rest of my life, indeed, i did, and indeed, i sensed also that you did too as time passed, of your delightful loving spirit so joyful somedays so radiant and bright, pure loving light.
well, new flash for you Matt, i will always want you as a best friend in life, today, tommorrow, the day after, even you don’t come back, i know my feelings for you are of one who will always you as a best friend in life forever more…without doubt, ok?
these feelings won’t ever change for me Matt, no matter what you shall ever say or do, even if you don’t come back.
i don’t want to be too forward with you in making you feel any expectations of you in doing so, and is not why i am expressing the truth of my feelings for you, rather, i want to come back because of your joyful fun loving feelings like before, wants the friendship to continue as much as i did and do, and for you to just feel at ease in just BEing you like we always did, talking about whatever the fuck we wanted to like we did, so fearless you were Matt, unbelievable some days.
Do you know how much joy it was for me to see you just BEing you each day? Incredible was your fearlessness, beyond M’s if you must know, and M felt it too Matt. We all did Matt, Rosie and Kelly too.
i know exactly what you mean by keeping it real, as in life is not about fame, fortune, glamor, status, or any of the things in life which are insecurities of many who allow their heads to carried away but such things, rather, true life, is about someone like me and you, who are in the real world of ordinary life, school, job, career, doing ordinary things in life, where what matters to us, is the friends we love who are always there, loving of each other each day, delightfulness of joy each day when spend time with one another.
that is how i feel about BEing a real friend of yours, where each time i came over to your blog, i was always of joyful feelings in seeing you again, going on and on about whatever like we did, back and forth in our endless chatter about whatever we wanted to talk about, expressing ourselves openly and fearlessly i might add, you were.
I encourage that for your sake Matt, as a friend in life who wants you to become fearless, because of the road ahead which inundates us with alot of fear sometimes, living a life as gay males, in our work place, schools, family, and restful play in the ghettos.
My concern is this Matt, that you feel my sincere loving respect for you, of someone i sincerely love with all that i am and always will…without doubt, for truly i do, in my sincere concern that your self-esteem is ever of increasingness each day, so that you remain respectful of YOU, when it comes to making CHOICES of disrespectful conduct of things which are disrespectful of SELF, such as substance abuse, unsafe sex, drinking and driving, and most important, your higher level of good self-esteem which won’t tolerate inapporpiateness of others who may not be mentally/emotionally as healthy as you yet are, because of my knowingness of how traumatic the experience is for many gay males coming out of the closet, who do not transition very well, succuming to self-medication substance abuse and such as a means to cope with their anxieties, which become problematic for them in life rather than of any healthy use for them, derailing their life and the lives of those they are involved with, loving friends and lovers, all avoidable when we are of the life skills to slow down and make healthy CHOICES for ones self, RESPECTFUL of self at all times.
I best friend is someone you can always turn to and chat with about your feelings of uncertainty you may have for some of these individuals you may get involved with, where without doubt Matt, you can probably guess my response in your CHOICES of friends, should any of them like to use drugs or alcohol.
Seriously Matt, i am concerned for your life, as a true and real friend who does want to see you make unwise CHOICES in life…ever. Someone who will always reasure you at every turn in you questioning of concerns you may have as we venture thru life along life’s road.
I want the friendship Matt, not just for sake of you.
i’m going to be honest in saying this, ok? I utterly and completely adore your personality and warm loving spirit alot like my own, of why we connect like we do. I know how sensitive you are, and you can trust me as someone who will not ever betray you…ever. It is because of how much i love you Matt.
Think it over and decide if you want to get back to our insanely fun loving joyful times like we did.
I know i do. Unbelievably overwhelmed that you reappeared, all this time of daily praying that you would, of my only desire to love and praise you forever more, for that is of my sincere feelings for you Matt.
And let’s not forget how much Rosie and the gang enjoy us too, and of course M, equally concerned for you precious loving life to remain safe and sound.
bless you Matt. I really need to know you were ok, restful now in knowing you are.
I realize i am still someone healing from devasting events in life, of somedays where i am abit too much. Your friendship was healing for me Matt, of my ever yearning to become restored to my fun loving self i was before, you being of the reminder of how fun loving i used to be.
anyway, i don’t want to guilt you into coming back, rather i want Matt to do what Matt sincerely wants to do, of joyfulness in just being you Matt, of your freedom at all times to do what Matt wants to do, not what i want of Matt.
Ok?
i hope this increases your true sense of my loving life long concern for you that indeed, i too am a real friend to you, hurt badly that i lost a friend like you.
i’m ok…just…well…still hurting over the loss of the friendship.
i actually did feel that you were gone for good…my insecurities, nothing to do with you. I never was much of a secure person in life, having had my sense of security stripped away from me at age 15 when my parents seperated, loss of family home i grew up in since birth, hitting the steets alone, where i fell hard into substance abuse and prostitution.
I survived, but i nearly did not survive Matt, having little or no life skills, bash in self-esteem from the loss of my sense of security, in great need of safe and supportive friendships, and not those of the street life survival mode artists snared by substance abuse.
Life teaches us. Sadly too late for some, of loved ones who gather at funerals each day from preventable real life issues which could easily of been prevented, had individuals invested time in developing understanding for themselves and their children, being best friends for them along life’s road.
Don’t follow the crowd into destruction Matt, as great is the issue of substance abuse in out GLBT communities. Don’t associate with those who do. Do make friends with them Matt…ever!
As time goes by, you will see clearly the results of those in our community who make bad CHOICES in life, as regards substance abuse and alcoholism, CHOICES of wrong friends who start out incredibly healthy youths, and get sidelined so quickly into bad situations like prostitution and drug dealing, which is so prevailent now, more so than before.
CHOICES Matt…that you to make in keeping your path ahead of you in life, in order to live a true and healthy loving life.
Remember…healthy people are wise in their descerning CHOICES and decisions when selecting of friends and lovers in life, avoiding unhealthy individuals who do not embrace a Healthy Approach to life, wise of increasing their desire in establishing a Healthy Approach to loving life thru education, building of a life long belief system foundation for navigating thru life….YOUR RESPONSIBILITY in doing so at all times. Don’t leave it to late to take charge of building it, as great is the distance in life that many do not, often suffering the consequences in having not done so later in life, all avoidable had they taken the time to build their foundations of understanding.
ya, i guess you could say i care about you Matt.
just abit, yes? lol 😉
i fucking love you damn it!!!!!!!!!
of course, you always i did. I tryed it, and so did you damn it, but i sorta knew too, what with our just BEing ourselves the way we did…so incredibly insane we were some days, cutting everyone up like we did…FEARLESS!!!!!!!!!!! 😉
welcome back Matt.
you have no idea how i am you are still near. i sensed that you were.
i hope that helps Matt, i sincerely do, as do miss you greatly.
love andy OXXX
fuck…my spelling really sucks today.
ah well, if it slows you down enough to really make you think, then the spelling errors work to your advantage, yes? 😉
Andy
My empowerment has and always will be my intent to be real, i call it the power of truth my mind sometimes decieves me often burdens me, something i am well aware of, i have made many sacrifices too, over the last 15 years always choosing road of self discovery of spiritual growth whatever it took to nurture my soul, often and usually putting other superficial delights and often myself last. Inner knowing that those foundations needed to be strong for whatever it was i was to do. ( help solve some problems in the world maybe, give some hope to lost souls maybe, wake up the sleeping maybe,) just like you and M.
That’s my passion
In that selfless persuit i became frail, vaunerable from all the negitivity in the world and defensive and isolated, ( my only form of preservation) yet my own walls of protection also served as a barrier to the very support love and protection i so craved, i carried the burden to understand it to be able to recognise it, if i was to fight it i would have sucuumbed to fear and i woul have imprisioned my soul and become it.
Through the friendship’s so prized and valued that i have made here, YOU know who you all are !!, I have re discovered the great courage, hope and great strength that makes up that who i am, which was once buried by the weight of the ingnorance of the world that which weighed me down during my last 15 years of examination, many souls do not emark on this journey rather prefering the easy option of denial, and they continue to life in that very state fear for having never taken the time to understand the very nature of ingnorance, fear and that which imprisions the soul.
yes i was hurting, so i ran away, then i came back, then i ran away again then came back, all the time learning, thinking will you just LET GO, i feel like a YO YO , ha ha.
learning to let go is hard sometime YES a fear perhaps perhap’s not often we need to be in CONTROL of our lives we need to CONTROL to maintain healthy SELFCONTROL, but one must be careful to not allow that to burden the soul which needs to be free at all times.
See the purity of sincere INTENT of mySELF & youSELF is enabled the YOU to grow, also i have helped YOU as YOU so sincerly have helped me,
Hang on “WHO’s ME & WHO’s YOU ? yes we are all YOU,
we are ONE every ONE of the Billion’s and Billion’s of souls are ONE.
The maze i have created in my mind, from all the confusion that one accumilates along the journy’s of enlightenment, for me that journey has been relentless and intense, without take time for a break, every thought every waking moment for me was a conscious effort on my part to find the answers so intense i forgot how to release some of the baggage, i became so weighted down, my soul started to charge me excess baggage fee’s $20 a tonne lol… so i became bankrupt, and then when i had no money left my soul said Marco i have to give you some credit, you’ve done well, but only for the short term, because i have a billion souls to feed, and food’s not cheap go get your ass into gear, (figuratively speaking) and start doing something you really enjoy like being creative and healing all those things that not only heal others but heal yourself, so i say’s to my soul hey YOU, but i have offloaded more than half my baggage thank’s to ANdy and Candy , and MAtt and Madonna and Rosie, ok on and on i go, My soul say’s Marco you know the price of oil has gone up, not to mention inflation your baggage bill is the same as it was before. besides do whats best for YOU will be GOOD for YOU, and i know you’ll always have some baggage to cart around in your travels, i’ve seen your inside your closet, what ! you did’nt is nothing sacred. i love my clothes, yer i need the purity that keeps me real.
freshly squeezed angel boy, deep soul like mine, expressing through poetry and music as i also find rewarding to do, i need, although one should never need, but will me off the streets at night, of pure innoccent heart thus far un burdend by that which has weighed me down i need that contrast, time out for me to re harmonise, default on my loan to my soul you know, a loving embrace with a heartbeat, unlike my pillow.
Freinds for SURE, how could i not desire to have friends who help ME to help ME to help THEM, i remain true to YOU as do YOU to YOU.
(ok guy’s thats a wrap, we start filming the next episode soon, and can somehire a few more editor’s i am having trouble fitting this all on the tape and everyone in the cinema has fallen asleep, WHAT ELSE IS NEW) ANGEL dont worry we willl wake them up, just as Madonna has
pump up the volume !
Love YOU ANDY
Love you Madonna
Love you YOU
love you ME
i tried twice to spell check and MS work spell check crashed twice on the dont worry we will wake them up line, how did you know that one ? amazing your amazing, i am going to pratice a little now in my guitar, it help’s me find my way through the maze that is my mind.
no no. i am not letting go.
i am probing, instilling, nurturing the gift, purity of heart within another.
it usually only takes a few seconds of ‘Pure Knowingness’ experience for one to come into FULLness of awareness(awakening), of another enlightened pure spirit who approaches them in peace and only love, easily recognizing the life long enlightened one who approaches, not to take anything, rather to give them the much need assurance.
i am one such enlightened one of God’s wisdom, who approaches another to instill the ‘Pure Knowingness’ of acknowledgment of their pure of heart feelings, so that they know what the gift is(pearl), ‘that’ of themselves, pure truth seeds planted and nurtured which take root in the them as cognitive awareness of something for them to love about themselves.
Jesus did this with the blind man, but not of the way the religious organize preach it(sell it, merchants of God, not fully knowing of God, partiality of heart).
I love the blind man story.
One can easily imagine a blind man’s journey thru life, of one is of survival mode dependency of the decency of others, where in doing so, however struggling the experience was the entire life, we can identify the reality of being a blind man who would easily hear the tone of voice of others, ever descerning of the bitterness or sweetness of the souls the blind man would listen to daily, hourly. The blind man is of a higher level of increased value for appreciation for sweetness of the soul of another, dynamics of perhaps a struggling survival mode blind person handed around, lets say, from one family location to another, a burden you could say for those looking after the blind one, or perhaps i blind one who grew tired of the annoying mentalities of another and left for anywhere than where they were. Who knows the entire life of the blind one Jesus spoke with.
Here is the beauty of the story. Jesus recognized the condition of the blind man’s sweetness of soul instantly, where apon speaking with the blind one, the blind one recognized(mirroring) of the spirit and soul of Jesus instantly …ok…here is the important part….instantly the blind one came into full ‘Pure Knowingness’ of the loving spirit of Jesus, by means of the exact sameness of emotional depth of soul as that of Jesus, one and the same of the blind ones own spirit and soul.
Great joy came over the blind one, in hearing the voice of Jesus speaking directly to their soul, instantly recognizing(by means of their own sensitivity of soul) the one speaking. 😉
beautiful story yes?
beautiful is the soul that understands what the gift is(pearl)…YOU.
i always shed a tear when i tell people that story, seeing eyes light up brightly in exceeding joyfulness flooding them with sweet loving feelings of love, of Jesus recognizing how beautiful their precious loving pure heart is to Jesus, mirroring of his loving delight of them of himself, exactly that of their own.
ah, love
oh how i love your precious loving souls like my own.
especially you Matt. It’s all Matt’s fault! 😀 😀
he was the one more jubilant about his own loving self than most i have ever met. Secretly, he still is…somewhere….out there…. 😉
ya, i love Matt.
i love you too Marco, equally so, just as we all love M, and Rosie, Kelly & family.
i am probing my SELF too, searching the depths of my heart, self-discovery, self-actualization, sharing my findings fearlessly openly with all of you.
slipping some days.
your sincere desire for wisdom Marco is what impress me the most, of the same thirst as i am.
without doubt Marco, i truly am blessed by your friendship, just as you are mine.
So hey, can i come over or what?
second time i asked that question….
if you have to ask more than once….
i don’t agree with that one. I mean what if it takes time for someone to grow to liking you. Maybe they did not like you at first. Of maybe they did and did not like you later. or maybe the never liked you.
is there a right time or wrong time to ask.
biggest question of all is, if you don’t ask, how are they to know, and secondly, how are they ever to answer if you don’t ask them to ask themselves of their own feelings for you in asking if they will marry you.
lol
snuck up on ya with that one! lol 😉 😀
BE of joyful spirit which draws out the joyful spirit of another, for the joyful spirit within is of the one who yearns for joyful love with another.
Now get over here damn it! I need that body massage! NOW!!!!!
lol
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for me, i know me.
what i love of another is something i love of me.
of increased value over all things in life, at the top of the list for me is pure sincerity of the pure of heart, those who love without doubt, radiant and bright in fearlessly being unafraid of their sweet loving sincere feelings of tender love for another, dancing with inner joyfulness within of the sincere loving feelings they feel for another, like Matt and M do.
like them, someone equally fearless of feeling my feelings, outward radiance of feelings within, is not only what acknowledges to them of what i like about them, it also encourages them to be likewise in fearlessness like that of my own.
i know i have succeeded in doing just that with both Matt and M, as a friend, but then…here’s the problem…i feel in love with them both.
And now i am fucked, because they both know i love them both, and it won’t be long before they get together and decide my fate, as in, “ah fuck you Andy, i’m tired of waiting for you.” where it is not so much my fault for falling in love with them both, as that is a good thing, yes?
The problem is…there is no problem in loving them both, of what they may not know about me as one who approaches them both, in my attempts to get them to reflect apon the negative reality of useless jealousies and such other distracts such as, ‘what ifs’ doubtfulness, until such a time where they break free above their notions,
and just feel their sincere pure hearts feelings
‘that’ Andy’s knowingness of what i know about their pure of heart feelings…TRUE,
‘that’ of M’s knowingness about Matt’s pure of heart feelings…TRUE,
that Matt’s knowingness about M’s pure of heart feelings…TRUE,
that of their knowingness about Andy’s pure of heart feelings…TRUE.
‘that’ of what matters;
PURE KNOWINGNESS….TRUE for us ALL.
Ok….now pay attention, as this next part is of Jesus and God….
It is the ‘Pure Knowingness’ of our sincere feelings of love devoid of useless doubt which is what the PEARL is that Jesus wanted to give to others, reflections and mirroring that of the divine true SELF within them, of what will always BE the most important thing one shall ever come into the full Pure Knowingness about themselves in life, of what TRULY matters, to BE one who loves another as much as we love our SELF, where it is the overcoming of fear to allow our SELF to love another as much as would like to be loved by another, where our conduct of BEcoming ‘that’ of the delicate, sensitive, gentle by nature, sweet loving, sincere, Pure and true YOU comes into full view for them, of who they TRULY are, the radiant bright loving light of their divine true SELF, loving of their now visible (mirrored) SELF in doing so.
I don’t know, i mean what do you give someone who already has everything already, of no need of me.
I mean Matt has great looks more so than me, so i can’t give him what he already has.
And Madonna, well, don’t even get me started on M, as she truly has everything one could ever want.
So then i realized the only thing i can give them is me, and what i have come to know of the reflections of me, so easy to see, as just like thee, mirroring what to LOVE of their SELF.
a true and faithful friend yes?
Here is the thing though, i know i will love them for the rest of my life(which running short now), but hey, i will always know i loved and love them, what ever it is they will ever do in life, be it a friend to me or not, my prayer, is for them to always BE of the remembrance of the pure sincere love i came to know within them that WILL remain forever TRUE of them, of what i LOVE about them.
With or without them in life along life’s road, i know they shall always be a special part of my heart forever more, where what i wanted most for them is to realize what i love most about them…their delicate, sensitive, gentle by nature, sweet loving, sincere, Pure and true YOU.
forever more, loved by me, loved by Jesus, loved by God, of what Jesus wants ALL to come into the Pure Knowingness of…the delicate, sensitive, gentle by nature, sweet loving, sincere, Pure and true YOU
Now if one of them asks me to marry them….well….they better hurry up, as they only have 4 fucking minutes to decide!!!!!!!!!!!
LOL
😀 😀
best one all year, yes?
ya…i thought so too.
i am so frigin happy to see Matt’s return…can you tell? 😉
i was worried about him, as my sincere love for him is true.
I wish you only love Matt, just as i wish only love for M, just as i wish ALL only love…
…just as we ALL wish only love for ALL
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forever more, i will BE, only loving of thee, forever more.
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hey Marco, is there anything better than feelings of only love for someone?
let me know if you find something better than feelings of only love will ya?
i already know no one will, so don’t bother looking for what you ALL already have.
who does not want ‘that’?
Jesus loves you
God loves you
i love you
any questions?
‘that’ was a hint by the way! 😉 😀
ok, really not much more to say, having already said it.
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if you have doubt of my love for YOU, it is of the doubtfulness of YOU, not me, so worry not of my love that is true.
without doubt…i love you.
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hey, i should get a job writting for Hallmark cards, yes?
say yes damn it!
damn, i cannot even trick them into saying YES.
ah fuck it.
if someone loves as much as you do them, trust me, they will let you know.
if not, don’t be afraid to let go.
if Love comes back to you and says i know(their feelings),
then don’t be afraid to let go…
…and Just BE YOU.
the one they love.
ever notice when you love someone, there is nothing anyone can ever say to change your mind, you just love them with all that you are?
i say trust in ‘that’ of another, of your own knowingness of this truth of when you love someone, in there being nothing anyone can ever say to change your mind when you love someone, so trust in ‘that’ of someone you love, for if the do love you like you do them, trust me, come hell or high water, they will tell you their feelings eventually.
you got 4 minutes!
ok, i am starting to sound like a broken record now, so will stop for awhile, and just BE what i always am, my sincere loving thoughts and feelings, with or without another.
God blesses ALL
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thanks Marco
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ok…im bored…time to move on.
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Pop Corn , Hot Dog’s, anyone ?
(best to keep their energy level’s up, were only halfway through the movie)
wake up everyone, the best is yet to come.
now look Andy everyone’s gone !
where did they all go ?
oh yer, to Madonna’s concert of course
well it was too be expected
she does know how to liven up the party.
time
thats all
it does not diminish the love
only strengthens the bond
and love is all that matters
one must always attend to matters that are at hand, in the moment in the now that is what is most important
the future cannot escape the present, as the past can never escape the future.
Marco…i love you.
now shut and fucking hold me damn it!
what ever it is one does, party, no party, big star, little star, who the fuck cares, when what i want is to merely be hand they yearn to hold as much as i do theirs.
ah fuck Marco!
hold me damn it!
Truly, without doubt whatsoever, some i have had the chance of life time to meet, like Matt, is one individual i know i would love to be the hand Matt yearns to hold each day, where it is not about whatever fucking party or place in life that matters most, is it?
It’s the true sincere loving feelings within of the hand we yearn to hold each day, where apon waking, we feel the bubbling beautiful REAL loving feelings within, of exceeding joy of waking to another day with love in our hearts for the one we will see and be with once again to hold their hand and kiss their lips, sweet anticipation of overflowing pure loving feelings within which indicate to us, just how much we REALLY do love the one we are in love with.
That is how i felt with Troy each and every single day for three years.
I realize, in seeing and feeling the joyful spirit of Matt, it is memories of all those beautiful days with Troy that come flooding back to me, unable for me to stop how the feelings once again as before, which i was feeling in seeing Matt the whole time i was there for him, and yet again, sensing his possible return, and yet again the flooding in of my loving feelings overflowing again, just like they did the whole time i knew Troy, no different at all of my time spent with Matt.
After awhile, i realized that actually was more loving of Matt, than i was of Troy, as Matt was more recipricating with me more so than with Troy, in a more REALness of his delightful expression of Matt’s feelings of delightful loving joyfulness within him, exploding somedays all around him, lighting up the entire room, the entire world for that matter, at least my world, where Matt was my greatest of loving feelings i was feeling each day for him, my greatest joy of each day passing, more so than anyone else in my life at the time, feelings indeed ‘real’ for me, where indeed, i came to a day of awareness that i was falling in love with Matt, and indeed, i fell in love Matt, and still, i am in with Matt.
But i far to old for Matt, and wish for him to be with someone of his same joyful fun loving youthful spirit exactly like his own.
Today, i figure, i should just be honest Matt in telling him the truth, that indeed, i love him more than any other in my current life today. i mean, it has been sorta obvious everyone, has it not, that Andy loves Matt?
ya, kinda obvious Andy!
i would like to express, that of all the healing experiences i have felt since Troy died, nothing has compared to feeling once again my ability to love once again as much as i did with Troy, and Matt, i want you to know, that i came to realize i loved you more Matt, than i did Troy, as Troy was somewhat painful for me, what with his disfunctional issues of serious substance abuse which causes one to be emotionally/physicallly unavailable, of many days(weeks) of pain rather than delightful joy, when Troy would take off and run with his drug loving clics and clans of so many hard core alcoholics and drug users, that and his homophobic issues, hiding behind his girlfriend lover, who plyed his weakness for alcohol.
Unknowingly for me at the time, my own unawareness of the true dynamics of internal/external affect/effects of homophobia both for Troy and myself, i did eventually come to terms with the reality check of statistical case study data that indicated to me that (at that time, 1992), most gay males were not coming out of the closet until the age of 30-35 years of age, a time of gay history when things were alot different than today, where police used raid the bathhouses, busting the doors of gay guys having sex, completely traumatizing beautiful gay guys of loving embrace of one another, likely for years later of the tramatic experience of the ones who experienced these events.
It has been a wonderful experience for me being around Matt, seeing his pureness of loving delight of himself, accepting of himself as a gay male, so radiant and bright, far beyond my experience with Troy and many others in my life experience since then, and as i said, the most healing for me in my efforts of many years to reveal to myself just how wonderful and loving i really am, of who Andy is in life, a truly loving soul for another, pure and truly loving.
Ya. I so very much love Matt, afraid to admit to myself i was falling in love with him, knowing my age and what not that i would eventuall have to let go, and accept i am a mature adult gay male of many years much older than he is, and of the truth that i am a veteran educated in the dangerous statistical data of the age group of 15-24 year old young gay males which are of the highest for high risk activity like substance abuse, unsafe sex and self abuse during their transitional years into a gay life.
Truly, in my heart of hearts, my duality within is one of my sincere love and adoration of Matt, just as i was with Troy, and acceptance of my place in Matt’s life as merely a friend, too old for him as a lover, repectful of Matt in doing so, surprised beyond belief in sensing Matt was perhaps falling in love with me, a day when the door to my soul exploded off it’s hinges, if you must know.
i was WOW! He read my mind, of my careful loving approach with Matt in not leading him on too much, sincerely desiring my accepted place in his life as an older adult gay male who merely wanted to successfully see Matt transition safely during his coming years, and indeed, i do want to be there for him, even if i of my knowingness that i am in love with him.
Here’s the thing everyone. God says it’s ok for me to love Matt as much as i know i sincerely do and always will, ok? so fuck off everyone in any innuendos you may of me, as i don’t want to see Matt fall in life like Troy did from the stupidness of many of his friends in life like he had, likewise of so many in our GLBT comminities that may endanger Matt’s life, in my knowingness of just how much truly love Matt like know i do, with all that i am, more than any other in life according to my self reflections.
We all love Matt. There is not one of you hear who does not love Matt as much as i do. Truth.
So Matt. I am here as a life long friend for you, nothing more, someone who will always be safe supportive of you, in my ability as a wise adult gay(bisexual) make of wisdom which is safe from the dangers of substance abuse, wise in fearless commincation with you in helping you to likewise stay of the openness to your beautiful self, not ever being left to feel like you don’t have a true friend in life you can turn to and talk with, along life’s road of broken promises, broken heartedness over failed relationships, someone you can always turn to who WILL always be there for you, of my sincere delightful joy in doing so, of great admiration of your precious loving pure heart and soul, of the Matt i have come to know, that i hold so close in my heart. I will be there for Matt everyone, should Matt decide to include me in his life as a life long loving friend, of my prayers for him do so, my unceasing love and praise for him forever more, even if Matt chooses not to entertain me as a friend, in my knowingness of reflections of my feelings for him which are as real as i have felt since my years with Troy so long ago.
God bless you in life Matt. You are forever of my daily prayers with Jesus and God, as one who is a true and faithful friend of Jesus and God, and in doing so, a true and faithful friend for Matt to have in life, should you decide to do so.
there. i said what i have longed to express.
the real Andy who loves Matt without any doubt whatsoever, where not doubtfulness shall ever come into my heart for Matt, so help me God, of my knowingness of just how much i really do love Matt.
you are free to decide Matt, and don’t feel you need to be a friend with me for sake of me, as i do not wish to feel how that feels, insincere. I want my friends to embrace the own sincerity in chosing to be friends with me, just as i have embrace my sincere feelings for you Matt. If your feelings are sincere like my own, that follow your heart, as i wish to bring only loving goodness into your life forever more.
thanks Matt.
i am finally giving you what you are deserving of in God’s eyes Matt…the truth about Andy’s sincere loving feelings for you, of someone who truly does love you with all that he is.
blessings to all.
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being real is what i am, openly more so than most.
why?
because someone as beautiful a pure heart as Matt, is deserving only of the truth, in God’s eyes.
Truly, Andy fell in love with Matt, of Andy’s awareness of his true loving feelings for most of his time spent around Matt, that he was in love with Matt, feelings of forever more love for someone Andy wanted Matt to know for his entire life, should Matt of decide(d) he wanted Andy in his life, as much as Andy wants Matt in his life.
in reflections of my feelings in life, of looking back over my entire life, i realize fully, it was the tender loving feelings i felt for another, in my sincerity of yearning to hold and kiss another which matter most to me, much like any of you who are connected with your sincere loving feelings, openness of awareness, fearlessly unafraid to express them.
well…if you don’t express them, how the fuck is anyone ever to know how you feel about them?
bin there. done that. lost some dear friends along life’s road in not doing what was right, fearless embracing my feelings for someone and always remaining of turning towards the loving feelings and not the fucking uselessness of bullshit motherfucking ego, like so many morons do, in all the cold heartedness so cold to the taste and tough, arrogance ever a wall that gets between us and someone we love, between our own fearful inability to fearlessly feel our own fucking feelings and express them, of the learned behaviours of egotism that seperates so many from one another long life’s road, leaving us feeling hurt in passing by once in a life time chance in having met someone we loved, my sincere loving feelings for the once in a life time chance of having met Matt.
well fuck that everyone…i ain’t passing thru life without Matt knowing i love him and always will damn it.
without doubt Matt, i love you.
and if any motherfucker every treats badly, remember, it will always be their biggest mistake of their lives, in not coming to love you Matt, as much as i did, do, and always will, a truly precious loving soul i had the once in a life time chance to meet.
Indeed, i met Matt, and indeed, i fell in love him.
so fuck of cruel world, who wants anything more than love? It’s just stupid to turn towards anything other than our loving feelings, of all these bullshit things we put between us all.
i am so done with pretending i care for anything other than my loving feelings for another, where being loving of another is where i always wish to feel, feeling the joyful delight of my loving feelings each and every waking day…a blessed day when we do.
12,981 blessed days to go…God willing.
alright, i said what i wanted to say, ‘that’ of my loving feelings for Matt i know i shall always feel for him, each and every time i thoughts of him enter my mind, just as i did the whole time i spent with him, and still, the endless days since, of him in my daily prayers. Why is it so hard for people to be open to their feelings, respectful of another and themselves in open expression of their feelings when they do?
i know what it is….it’s the motherfucking heartless world around us which cause us to be such fearful morons.
not me. not ever…when love is the only thing of value to me in life, and the time spent feeling our feelings of love.
if anything, Matt is the one who was keeping it real, not me, albeit, real were was the love i was feeling the whole time i was there with him, something he sensed which was true of me…my love for him.
True.
love damn it, or get and stay away from me everyone.
thank you.
Jesus loves you.
God loves you.
i love you.
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rant over
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I accept my place in life as a life long loving friend for Matt, nothing more, nothing less, of a gift of friendship i bestow before him, his to have if ever he wants it, of the greatest gift i know of that i can give to him…me.
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ok.
i have said peace with all of you, of my reflections of the truth of how Andy yet feels for Matt, of his sincere desire for a joyful fun loving extrordinary life long friendship with Matt, where Matt could say or do anything in front of Andy, and Andy would love whatever the fuck he does, so sincerely loving Matt that Andy yet is. In my mind, that is what a true loving life long friend is, not different then the joyful friends we had youths, sincerely loving of one another, no matter what the other said or did, although, i have admit, Mike nick naming me Pansy in high school, secretly fantazing about fucking me, all the while i him, of neither getting the courage to ask the other, was somewhat of a daunhting high school experience for me, all the years of being called Pansy by a guy with an eight in cock on him!
By the time you have read this, M’s jaw just hit the floor, in mad hysterical laughter, exclaiming, oh my f&@$ing God! LOL
what?
it’s true ya know, Mike was fantasizing about me all those years, sadly, to this day, Mike with four beautiful children now, secretly does still think of me, however more or less his homoerotic fantasies of me have become, they will always be apart of Mike’s life, no matter how hard he ever trys to forget…just as i cannot forget him.
Truthfully, why on earth would i want to forget?
anyway…i want to talk to Matt.
Matt, i have joyful fond, truly heart felt loving sincere memories of you and i, and recently i have explored my sincere feelings of how it would be if i were your age again, and we had met like we did, keeping in mind that i am not your age, although i am of your youthful fun loving spirit so much like your own.
ok…here it is.
If you age Matt, i would run with you for the rest of your life, ever fond of holding hand each and every blessed day forever more of the most joyful loving laughter of two souls united forever as the most beautiful fun loving gay guys the world has ever seen of would see again, always of insane mad laughter and lightness of feet, running thru the ghetto streets hand in hand, endlessly kissing one another in our true knowingness of the forever loving feelings we have for each other day after day, utterly and completely fearless of the entire world around us each second of each day, embracing of just how much we love one another, of our surrendered spirits with each other of the only thing we yearn to be…together forever more hand in hand for all the world to see and feel with undeniable clarity, our love so obviously true they all would feel in our passing thru life of all who bared witness to us everywhere we went.
i know the kind of person i am is one who surrenders their heart to only one, beyond what people call marriage, rather of the simple fact of how two souls surrender to their true feelings within they discover for each other, in their true desire to be with the other each and everyday forever more, of no thought at all for anything other than the blissful state of exceeding happiness they truly feel while with one another everywhere they go, laughing at the absurd bitter mediocre mundaneness of others who have not found a true soul mate friend/lover.
That is how i feel about you Matt.
i did not want to tell you because of our age difference, but know, deep inside is the Andy who felt and has these beautful feelings of running with you thru life, of music in the air, flowers in our hair, of a none stop extraordinary, wondrous exceedingly joyful journey thru life as loving lover soul mate friend forever more feeling, of love devoid of doubt for one another.
something tells me, you felt it too, and is why we are where we are, in denial of what we both felt for one another, too afraid to say to the other how much we deeply loved each other.
Sadly, i so much do not want to say this Matt, as i don’t want to hurt you in any way, knowing what we both felt for each other, but i need to something. If your age Matt, please know, there is nothing in life i would rather of been than the one most loving you for the rest of your life. I know the feelings in my heart are true of me, in my thoughts of you. However; i am not your age, but i am of your joyful fun loving spirit so radiant and bright. We both know that about me, and about you, obvious in our radiant interactions we shared together, so obvious for all who were near to see and feel how we were.
Matt, inside, i still am the radiant bright loving one like you, and you felt that about me, yes?
ya…i admit, i wanted more than a friendship too Matt. hello?!!! We both did! Best of all, those feelings are always with us for life.
And that’s good thing for you to have felt, and for me to feel as well, but….there’s a problem with our age difference Matt…
….you are not 18 yet, and you are going to have to wait until you ARE, before we can get married!!!!!!!!!!!!!
if you are fucking laugh at me instead of with me byatch, you are so dead! i can easily dump your sorry ass of any time of my choosing…not that i would want to…but i would if anytime you disrespected me with useless motherfucking ego!
LOL.
ok, i hope i brightened up your day Matt.
Here is a news flash for ya Matt, when you are 18, your are an adult who can make whatever fucking decisions for yourself that you want…of my prayers for you to someday want me.
always know, that is how i feel about you Matt, and always will.
There are alot of young/older gay couples here in the ghetto, where two of my best friends are 20 years apart in age, and have been together now for over ten years now.
Now. As for real life, it is likely you will meet someone radiant and bright like you in school, who like us, you will find your fun loving joyful spiritedness return again for you daily, of true loving feelings i know are true for you, which are not really about me Matt, they are feelings about YOU, a gay male who loves the whole idea of being who you are…a gay male who wants gay sex, a gay life, a gay lover who better bring you the gayest fucking flowers to you daily, or i am going to bitch slap them into next year!!!! lol
I hate unhappy endings everyone…and i ain’t about to give Matt anything other than love forever more, so you can all take your innuendos and….well….fuck off! ok?
thank you.
this concludes our test of the emergency broadcast network, brought to you by Matt and Andy forever more.
you better fucking say something byatch, and you so owe me a java big time! 😉 😀
i am so glad one of us has the courage to say what needed to be said.
your welcome.
you can thank me by not saying anything and walking away, should you have a lover in your life, or you can pick up where we left off. And you think i am going tolerate anything less than the Matt i remember, well don’t…i know the joyful Matt who loves Andy, where Andy know the joyful Andy who loves Matt, and he ain’t about anything less than the sincere fun loving joyful kick all your sorry motherfucking asses, get the hell OUT of my way, as we are late, come on, it’s time to go!!!!!
tic toc tic toc.
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i am so done with this fucking doledrum downer mind fuck i have found myself in lately, unable to stay where i don’t feel happy.
remember Matt….we are once in a life time chance of having met one another, and unfortunately, life sometimes does unfold differently for us all, if we remain of denial of our true feelings. I know i am more than deserving of no less than your life long friendship, as are you, but if we fall back from the courageous ones we once were, then we are both liars to each other, and to our SELF.
i deserve your friendship that i so wanted so badly, and you deserve me Matt, someone who truly loves you with all that i am.
i love you Matt.
don’t you ever forget how much Andy loves you damn it, of his forever more loving feelings for you that will not ever change…not ever!
i like hot or cold, not luke warm mundane mediocre.
you and i Matt, are not luke warm, it’s all the motherfuckers around us which keeps us down, including me of recent.
i know you Matt, i was there for months, remember? Recall how happy we were?
I pray return of the joyful high spirited Matt father. Please make it so, granting Matt the courage to do so, as i am most loving of him.
thank you Matt. thank you Jesus. thank you Matt. thank you to all who CHOOSE to be of courageous fearlessness of heart like Matt and i were…and ARE.
i am…BE cause…we are….Courageous fearlessness of heart.
a friendship is ok too Matt…if you alread have another, as i know i will one day too.
i ain’t changing my mind, because there is no changing my mind, in my knowingness of how Mike long ago is not able to ever change how he yet feels of Andy, ever delightful of my occasional visits with him after some 30 years later.
Deep inside, Mike still loves me so very much, as do i him, but i cannot break up his beautiful loving family, as much an arrogant ego part of me would like to, and yet, i can’t wondering if Mike would be happy living out the rest of his life with me…
one never knows what direction life takes…and who knows, maybe one day i will ask Mike to have sex with me…maybe one day, something i know Mike will love, if ever they day he gets his hands on my body. Trust me, he won’t ever let go if he does…i can see it in his eyes how much he wants me. 😉
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is that real enough for you all?
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Good luck for the show. I’m off out for a long run.
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the one we hurt most in denial of TRUTH, is our SELF, and likewise, the SELF of another.
i am hurting, and i don’t want to hurt like this any more, as the true joyful fun loving happy Andy, extraordinary, radiant and bright, is wondrous to behold when he is happy, just as all of you will be too, when Andy finally says goodbye, if Matt does too. i cannot bare the thought of Matt not being happy, of me not knowing, deserving of knowing. I don’t deserve ‘that’, just as Matt or Andy do not deserve to forever free to BE happy. Maybe someday i will return if Matt does not, but for now, i have to go and regain something i lost along the road…a friend like Matt would be nice, of this i pray, just as i pray the same for Matt…forever more.
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oh oh, i think i just ex rated the blog. lol
hurry up Matt, before M deletes us. 😉
ya…me too.
hey…wait up!
I am Andy. I am a poor pathetic loser that has verbal diarrhea on a blog that isn’t even mine! Forgive me ya’ll, i am just very sad, and have no self confidence. I hope God helps me heal from my sick ways.
Oh and i am a proud gay man, and if you don’t like that then i will get God to go after you! He’s my only friend and he defends me, so ya’ll better fuck off!
god andy you still ranting and raving on this fake blog.. oh dear..
one day you who mock Jesus and God, will face God, and weep when come to know the harshness of your ways, kneeling before God asking forgiveness of wretchedness.
You who mock me, know not what you do in all your unwiseness, snares of the ignorant world you which you, sadly, are oblivious to the condition of your own soul, of unwise ignorant fate of unclear paths, rather than the destiny of clear peaceful by nature loving path.
you do know love as i do, nor do desire it, so obvious of your unBEcoming conduct of one who is BEcoming the oneness with Jesus and God.
you do no know me, you do not love me, nor do love your SELF as much as i do, saddened by the harsh word you utter which continue to derrange your precious loving soul, obvious, by the foul odour you eminate apon one you have not met before in life, thinking that you know me, when in truth, you do not even desire to know me, Jesus or God.
i am deeply saddened by how harsh a soul can be with another as you do, in you mockery of one who loves you, who loves another gay male in life with all that he is, cause for concern which you attempt to place between us in you making a mockery of me.
how much more do you think i will take of any of you before the day comes that do not return to you?
You used my name to slander me, pretending you are me.
i would say that is not a friend in life, and God says to me, come away from those who of untruthfulness of cajoling and enticing of your precious loving soul, lest their bitterness of fire which burns day and night within them enters into you, in their attempts to ignite fire within you, in order to cause bitter unloving rage like their own to take root in you, pointing fingers at you when you become enraged like them, those who turn towards the hypocrisy heart within bringing forth negativity hurtful and mean spirited of another, not love.
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i am of God household for any and all who wish to enter and speak with sweetness of desire for God’s descerning wisdom of all things loving, of God’s divine will that the world become as loving as Jesus.
Some of you WILL bE last to enter.
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[edit] Gospel of Matthew
In Byrne Fone’s book Homophobia: A History, a global and a broad historical overview of gay bashing, the author explores the theory that Matthew 5:22 from the Bible contains a reference to verbal gay bashing. The word “raca” is often translated as “fool”, and sometimes refers to one who deserves to be spat upon, or was sometimes used to insult homosexuals. If this is the case, then Jesus is warning of hell fire for those who engage in verbal gay bashing as part of the Sermon on the Mount, and the warning is even harsher than Jesus’ pronouncement about murder in Matthew
do you know why verbal gay bashing is as bad as murder, you of infinite wisdom?
How about some statistical data for you to ponder?
Although the suicide rate among youth significantly decreased in the mid-1990s, suicide deaths in the United States remain high in the 15 to 24 age group with 3,971 suicides in 2001 and over 132,000 suicide attempts in 2002, making it the third leading cause of death for those aged 15 to 24.[1]. In the United Kingdom the suicide rate for males aged between 15 and 24 rose substantially between 1976 to 1991 (when it peaked at 15.8 deaths per 100,000 people), although it has been declining since. This compares with the rate of suicide among females in the same age group remaining largely static.[2] However, given the overall decline in the suicide rate in the UK, the rate of suicide amongst the 15-24 male population, which remains high, has been a considerable cause for concern. [3] More preventive measures have been taken in the last ten years, including increased understanding of the risk factors and causes and spreading information to schools and parents.
The young gay male holds the highest rate of suicide in the world.
i have reason never to return to this blog, of you who verbally gay bash.
Incidently, monitoring of verbal gay bashing on the internet is on going, as statistics are coming in on teen suicides who experience verbal gay bashing and bulling on the internet.
I will be sure to pass this website to those who monitor such….’that’ you can count on.
i WILL NOT tolerate it.
any more, and i will not come back here.
Don’t listen to these fuckheads Matt, for i truly love YOU.
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ok Marco.
you played the role of Matt.
i needed to feel what i was feeling for Matt, of unexplored feelings i felt for him, and clearly, it was a most beautful of awareness experiences for me, in my now knowing i loved Matt more so than i did Troy, where i loved Troy with all that i am, even more loving of Matt in my exploration of feelings awareness.
and so, i guess i will not ever know how Matt is doing, moved on in life…can’t say i blame him, and yet, i felt a strong connection with him and still do while in prayer awareness.
people move thru our lives, and as time passes, more people move thru our lives, passing by of many we don’t really get to know very well, of some i so wanted to know as well as do myself, Matt being of one them, M too, and Marco of course…seems we are the only one’s keeping the warm fire aglow.
You are such a warm soul for me Marco. Someone i would not tire of, and obvious in my feelings, i do not tire of you at all.
As time passes, sweet memories of one’s we happened apon, radiant bright souls like our own, ever aglow in the twilight and tranquility of lover’s souls…fade as time passes, the by chance we met ones along life’s road.
Matt was one who caught my eye, captured my soul, not sure why he left like he did, his own personal life perhaps, beconing him.
I ask God, why Matt? Who is Matt for me in life, of what lessons am i to know about Matt?
I sensed Matt praying, of pureness of heart. Only Matt knows if he prays like i do, and truly, i have sensed that he does, in my knowingness of his sweet loving prayers…
I don’t who i am dancing with here, of who is who sometimes, although i have been rather good at knowing which one’s were M, yes?
What does that tell M about me being able to do so?
how long has it been that i have been here?
I came to love and know many of you, but somedays the uncertainty of not being real is too much for me, where it does not feel like a real life ordinary friend, of sporatic moments, not of quality time to look forward to like friends in real life do.
It has been a while, hasn’t it?
I don’t feel like doing this blog here, of random attacts out of nowhere, so draining for me they can be, of wretched negativing that cuts like a knife they are.
i am not going to do this blog anymore guys. I was here before, and all it was always painful for me, annoying mostly of immature unBEcoming conduct.
People don’t act that way out in public in cafe’s.
I think i am going to go network again in the cafe’s guys, like i used to do, with hundreds of friends, dancing the night away, chatting with everyone we know, supportive of the new comers who arrive in the ghetto.
It just not rewarding for me here like it is for me in real life. I’ve never been able to feel at ease at this blog, so with hesitation, i am not going do it any more. M needs her space right now anyway. And she knows how to contact me if she needs me.
If you want someone as a loving friend, be sure to act like you really do want them as a loving friend, lest they feel like you really don’t care at all for them…and sadly, that is how i feel at the moment, like i don’t really have anyone here who wants to be a real life friend.
Matt, if that really is you, please know i want your friendship more than you may realize, and i know, i am worthy of your friendship, just as you are of me.
sorry guys, i am back here at this blog of viciousness again, and i am just not going to allow myself to openly bashed any more…i get enough in my real life, i don’t go looking for it…i run from it and hide from it in life.
Matt, you know how to contact me too. I may stop in here, but i am not going to participate any more…just seems so empty for me, like my head is caught in a net all the time, of a useless kinda feeling, sickening for me somedays of the bantering that goes on in here.
I spoke alot of words of Jesus and God, and i know when i do, they are always pleased, acknowledging me when i do.
I let Troy spirit go, that’s what i did here, gave meaning to his life, of one i loved like i still do of Matt.
I feel Matt was the reason why God put me before him, to teach him about real life.
If anyone wants me as a real life friend, let me know, as i am leaving for good now, respectful of myself in doing so, not interested at all in so much uncertainty which is so toxic for me, for anyone.
God blesses ALL.
~ for the professionals who were here. thank you.
At all times, Jesus and God love YOU ALL, as do i.
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I love you Matt.
I will always love you Matt.
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Goodbye!!!
Sorry to see you go, Andy!!
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oh, don’t worry, i ain’t that damn far away ya know.
and i ain’t left yet….well i mean…i am left as in go left, but i ain’t really leaving! lol
besides, where the fuck would go, other than where i always want to BE found, in your loving hearts? 😉
just as you are in mine, forever more, of my forever more loving feelings for YOU, forever more.
same sky above.
same earth below.
same loving feelings we all feel for one another forever more.
so where am i anyway?
alway explaining…forever more.
LOVE! LOVE! LOVE!
JOY! JOY! JOY!
forever more
gentle breeze
rain drop too
tears of heaven
all around us now, our pure loving feelings for each other forever more.
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i just need a long walk with someone, holding their hand…forever more. 😉
The same walk we have been on for so long, have we not, secretly of each others heart and mind, yes?
i know i have always been loving of you.
good news…
…having loved you for as long as i have, of my pure loving feelings for you, without doubt, i know i always will love you like i have, and yearn to, like i have…
bless you
so don’t be thinking anything less of me as you have, just i have too, and always shall remain, sincerely loving of you ALL.
i just find love tends to work better in drawing another to me, so that i truly love them some more….
always worked for me, in getting them to come into the hot tub with me, my favorite place of all, tenderness of skin with one another, cuddling and kissing in sweet loving embrace with each other for hours on end, soft mucic playing playing, gentle breeze, warm sun…HEAVEN!!! 😉 😀
so don’t be running away, for i want love you some more!
always, i will be yearning of loving you some more, like we always have, yes?
i can feel you smiling, just i am too, of no more silliness between, our pure loving feelings ‘that’ shall always remain.
why be anything other than loving?
just makes no sense to me why they are unloving like they are, i mean, don’t they like hot tubs with someone? ha 😉 😀
i can take anyone of them, and in less than one hour, change their life forever!
just don’t ask how many, ok? lol
i love you damn it.
and you know, i always did, and without doubt at all, you know i always will, yes?
ok…so call me some time, will ya?
im serious! i would love to meet you one day.
but then again, we have already met, have we not, in a way so true and pure of the feelings of YOU and me, no different from one another.
and that is what Heaven is, free of doubt, love devoid of doubt feelings when in the presence of Jesus, who is true and faithful friend to all, just as YOU are, just as…i am.
i am…BE cause…we ALL are.
ok…mystery of God solved.
next puzzle please…im bored! lol
took us long enough to arrive at this day, yes?
CLARITY of heart, mind, body, spirit and soul.
i will continue to write, from this sacred place we have found, where purity of heart is how one internalizes the pure truth words, and understand, interpret, the words of Jesus and God, which many do not realize, all amount to the ‘LOVE devoid doubt feelings’
‘that’ is what the mystery of Jesus and God is.
the difficulty, obviously, is all the unBEcoming conduct which seperates us not only from each other, but from our sacred ‘Pure Knowingness Omnipotence’ understanding and pure feelings of sameness, no different from one another, unlike the absurd world which is sadly (yet) snared by the useless teachings of the forefathers.
i am so thrilled in finally solving the mystery of Jesus and God.
Hot tub time everyone!!!!!!!!!!! LOL
LOVE! LOVE! LOVE!
oh, how i love to love…YOU!
Jesus and God blesses ALL.
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don’t say goodbye…say, “Ciao!”
which is hello or goodbye, but i prefer the one word, as it has the joyfulness of feelings of hello, even when used as good bye, where in truth, i always want to say hello to YOU, in my true turning towards the storehouse of goodness within of the pure of heart love i always have and will feel for YOU.
bless you M.
bless you Matt.
bless you Marco.
bless you Rosie, Kelly & family
bless you ALL forever more, always of my daily prayers for all of you.
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i think i BEcame annointed by God today as a priest of some sort. 😉
of not ever BEing anything other than my loving self Andy, of the sameness of love we all ARE.
i am…BE cause…we ARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 😀 😀
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sheesshhh…and guys thought you could get rid of me annoying you like i have for so long with my experiential writing techniques. Ha! i don’t think so Byatches!!! LOL
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enjoy the blessed day everyone
12,990 blessed days to go….
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welcome to the book of revelation everyone…i am your master…you will do as i tell you…on your knees…now! LOL
OOOXXX
somebody cuddle me, will ya? 😉
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blessings to all
peace ‘BE’ to this house forever more
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somebody tell Matt how much i love him, ok?
with all that i am or ever shall BEcome, i love Matt.
i will always love Matt…forever more
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thank you Madonna
bless you
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Jesus and God are with us.
it is the pure of heart sameness feelings we ARE, ‘that’ which moves moutains out of our way,
bless you M, and all those work tirelessly along you, so love of one another (i pray)
and if any of those motherfuckers step OUT of line with you…well…call me damn it, and i WILL see what we can do about a remedi we carry with us at all times…LOVE.
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This thread is tooo long.
I didn’t say I dreamt about Madonna again, I think three nights ago. And Guy featured in it as well.
But just to show I can be annoying too …
… I’m not going to tell you about it. Ho ho.
Fascinating, it was. Nay, astonishing.
Nobody here? Nobody’s ever here. Just me typing away through the night on my own.
That Andy character really seriously spooks me bigtime. He couldn’t fall off a cliff, or have his car blow up like in a soap opera could he?
That’s how they clear out the fictional characters and bring in bew blood.
Ho hum ho hum tiddley om pom.
I’m back on the wine again.
Still not here? Feel like I should pour anouther glass. She sdoesn’t love me. This is the proof. I have been here ten minutes plus and she’s buggered off, abandoned me, betraed me. This is the proof I wanted. Nothing left to do but get drunk. Goodbye cruel world. It’s always the same, me on my own left here all night because no one cares. Well I’ve had it.
someone is holding me and i them, and yet, i am alone.
how is this possible what i feel, as though someone is?
YOU know who YOU are to me, someone holding me like i am YOU forever more.
cast all doubt and fear away, as fear is not of Jesus and God, rather from the projections of the yet unhealthy world.
peace be to this house.
i care. i always care. forever more of those who love me like i do them.
don’t let negativity from the world fool you into thinking i am not there, for i am always there where in truth of our hearts, and not there in falseness of our hearts, which is not of Jesus, God, nor me.
i care.
i am yet here in the world with all of you.
12,980 blessed days to go.
writting will continue until my last day on earth…in case you get bored.
im bored…someone hold me damn it!
so quiet…need some soothing music, a lover, someone who loves me and cares like i do them.
tic toc
(oops, I was only joking …)
I know you’re there and I know you typed through the night and I felt sorry for you. Genuinely.
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i am pure of heart, as are many of you
can’t fool me, none you…i know your pure hearts.
so stop pretending like i don’t when you know i do.
i am a loving brother of ALL, who greets in love and peace forever more.
BE not found of foolish bitter impure thoughts, for i am of the pure of heart in all of YOU forever more.
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I had another dream about three nights ago. This time it was my mum playing the Madonna part (sounds kinky, but it’s just my brain getting mixed up). And we were in the car and Guy was driving. And we were driving through Wiltshire. And you (my mum) doesn’t feel well so she gets out and walks with me, but feels worse. Then Guy drives by and I try to flag him down but he doesn’t stop. Then we eventually arrive at the big house (for which my brain substituted Cyfarthfa Castle in Merthyr where I used to live). And we go in there and I have a chat with Guy and I’m apologising though I don’t know why but he’s angry and that’s it.
Are you still there?
ya, i know.
i am pure of heart like you.
sameness i came to knowingness of me, by means of you.
i am forever in your dept, ever at your side as a true and faithful friend till the end.
i have no place to go other than where i am always found, in my pure of heart body i dwell in along side all of you, surrendered to me by Andy.
do you know who i am, like i have come to know, because of YOU who knows me too, like you do you?
so who am i?
an evolved adult child of God, are we not?
ALL children of the light of God, are we not?
sameness within, but not always sameness in OUTward appearance.
Truth.
reflect apon the truth which is everywhere for you to reflect apon.
look for me(you) in everything you look apon for i(you) am there, the one who feels the truth of everything in each passing moment, always loving of who i am…YOU.
😉 😀
ok, mayBE i would like to BE YOU?
or mayBE you would like to BE me?
or mayBE we would like to BE (of) each other united as ONE?
how can one seperate that from themSELF, which is true of the SELF of another?
easy…you tell them to GET OUT damn it! LOL!
a muse me & YOU, of each other now forever more, united as one in all our truthfulness and untruthfulness, hoping the other does not ever fall, nor will they, as they are found of God, where many are (yet) are not.
i have surrendered to Jesus and God, surrendered to the truth wisdoms for the divine true SELF of us ALL forever more.
i stand in stillness, of no time constraint, of eternity, by means of the purity of truth wisdoms, protected by God, in God’s chamber with God, of God, at all times, alone with God for all eternity to know who i am…the evolved adult child of ALL of YOU.
any questions?
oh come on! ask me a question damn it…im bored.
nobody here.
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yes i am here.
and will still till you leave, when you tell me goodnite.
I would willingly stay up all night with you but I really can’t.
I stayed up to 12.30 last Friday night and I fell asleep three times on the Saturday. People are different physiologically.
You’re very quiet. It’s not like you …
I have absolutely no idea what you write, you know that? It makes no sense to me whatsoever.
If it makes you happy, carry on. But don’t feel you have to for my sake. I’d rather you were tucked up in bed, or just chilled in a bath or something.
Chilling-out in a warm bath, I mean.
You know what – I’m starting to believe you.
But don’t think you’re the only one who feels guity.
If it happens, I’m going to die from guilt.
(But, you know, it wasn’t my decision for things to go like this. It should never have been like this)
And I do know that absolutely no other person on this planet has been hurt by this awful thing like I have been hurt.
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apologizing for what?
for being YOU?
it is your life to live, no one elses.
sometimes people grow apart.
sometimes people pass by
sometimes the soulmate self within does not recognize who their soulmate is, because they have not come into full awareness of their own soulmate self.
i met another soulmate today, gave her my soul to protect like i did M to not ever be harmful with, forever loving as (true) friends do who are safe and supportive of us.
She is a psyche major, criminolgy student artist.
she is amazing spiritually. i handed her a crystal as a symbol of my soul to protect, encouraging of outward conduct in doing so, and forever more trust.
i know i am doing as an enlightened one. have for along time. i know the road ahead for us all is paved with only love.
i am a friend till the end, unable to betray another, as i betray my true feelings when i do. i am here to merely nurture and protect, by means of words i speak, God’s words.
i too am yet evolving, as one who dwells in celibacy for now, until my soulmate lover surrenders to me…who ever they are….a most blessed day when they do, released from the fearful prison of the world of unhealthy fearful projections. yuk.
We are all drawn to light.
As a devote humble student, i know it is about the BEcoming in OUTward appearance which lights up the world, of exceeding grace and only love radiant and bright.
blessed are those who are found of purity of love they feel within, and indeed, are purity of love outward when they become free of the prison of fear, how ever long it takes…it is the process of turning towards their own fearlessness to just BE, and away from the false conduct of the fearful world which is not of the purity of love of the divine true self so graceful in outward appearance.
You know who are, as do i.
i am here for as long as you ask for me, as one who sincerely is of encouraging words that nurture and protect you from the world of unBEcoming conduct.
i am not here to lead anyone away from the divine true self within, rather i am here to lead by example of the divine true self of all, of the many who will BE last to enter.
i am taking measures to protect myself from the world in sanctuary away from the world, of my desire to venture further in my BEcoming and evolving, as i have grown weary of the world i do not enjoy at times, although i will once my soulmate appears for me, and surrenders to me…
tic toc tic toc
😉 😀
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So, yeah, sorry. But I suffered too. So that takes away plenty of guilt.
Well I read all your essay there and I understood 60%.
But it sounded nice enough in tone so fair enough.
Is there another essay coming? Oh heck …
Am I allowed to surf eBay in the background while waiting for you to finish your essay?
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i am not sure that i follow you on what aweful thing.
Let me assure you of something, ok?
i do not look apon anyone’s behaviours or decisions as something hurtful of me or another.
I don’t really care what any of you do, where i am concerned.
I am not about another being concerned for me.
rather i am about the BEcoming conduct as an enlightened one who leads by example, of my chosen path and destiny of a wise clear path ahead of me by means of God’s wisdom.
I am going ahead to where i am of exceeding grace and pleasant calm, awaiting the arrival of a soulmate lover, with soul mate friends along side.
I am of the mindset of a soulmate friend to all, as all is connected.
I stand in peace of my knowingness of who i truly am…a soulmate friend to ALL.
Let me clear something for you, ok?
I chose this path i am on as a student on a quest.
and one more thing…all my words were of a student who deliberately uses experiential writing technique in pobing the depths of my own soul as part of my BEcoming, unconcerned of what any or another may think of me.
with that said, i don’t wish burden your blog.
i just thought maybe you were interested in my on going healing of my divine true self, which you have greatly assisted me with, but i don’t want to feel like a nescience or an annoyance for you, thinking maybe you were interested in watching me evolve, much like one watches themselves evolve.
a reflection or mirroring dynamic is what is cool about watching one evolve.
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we go thru pain, not around it, and grow from the experience.
and we did just that, ending your fearful state by revealing your fear to you(mirror).
You now stand in a higher awareness level, do you not?
Weeeel, I think perhaps you get more out of your writings than other people do.
It sounds like you’re saying stuff to me which means a lot but in all truth it’s not really registering. Maybe too much wine.
we must become completely fearless in order to BEcome what we are OUTward in appearance, of all the emotions of the divine true self who will one day unite with their soulmate lover.
but until one surrenders(lets go of fear), to their soulmate self, how can they step forward into the life of the soulmate lover life, until they surrender to themselves first, soulmate love second(actually it happens at the same moment, in identification of the soulmate self which is of reflection of the soulmate lover, exact sameness of both of forever more feelings which do not fade, but only thur complete surrender does one fully become a soulmate lover.
I’m not like you. I don’t think ANYONE is like you. The whole going-through-pain thing you talk about? It’s not really me, you know? I’m more of a let’s turn around and go back the other way kind of guy.
do you know your soul mate lover self?
if you do, then you also reflect on who your soul mate lover, of the sameness like you.
let me enlighten you some more ok?
i have many soul mate lovers and soul mate friends coming into their awareness of their own soul mate lover self.
Look, it’s really easy for me to sit here and take the piss out of you. But I’m not, you know? Not really.
it is not about light inward.
it is always about light outward which nurtures another.
such is my approach with my soul mate lover friends and soul mate lovers, ever nurturing them all along the way.
call me a tramp, and you do not embrace who i am, nor what i am about…outward light that nurtures evolving of another.
I am being very thoughtful and understanding and caring and sympathetic.
i am not hurt nor angry.
i am anxious for a soul mate lover.
But it is starting to get to me.
stop thinking about me and think about you.
i have exceeding joy in my heart, knowingness of exceeding joy of the soulmate lover self i am, and in so doing, i know the soul mate lover of another, pure like my own soul mate lover self.
I think I preferred it when you were nasty to me …
… not.
if we don’t take time to feel the feelings of our soul mate lover self which is overflowing in abundant bright inner light of exceeding joyfulness exploding outward, then we are yet of fear within, a self emposed prison of our own minds.
Oh really that’s enough or I’m going to kill something. Really.
sorry about that. i expecting far more from you in an email, hurt when it was not, but you did not really say anything that hurt me, it was my own feelings of anxiousness that wanted to hear YOU.
Right, I’ve got myself a big new comic book and I’m going to take it to bed and read it and wind down and feel less stressed.
kill the fucking for me, will you, so i can finally get thru to YOU.
I’m sorry if I hurt you but I’m sure you appreciate I really don’t want this kind of off-topic meandering on my blog.
i gave you something to protect, remember?
why do you think i gave it to you?
wake up.
*correction*
kill the fucking EGO for me, will you, so i can finally get thru to YOU.
nor do i want to continue here like this.
I’m glad you corrected that. That seriously had me scratching my head!
Oh, so I’ve got an ego have I??? Mr Pot meet Mr Kettle.
you are toying with me? 😉
I’m toying with you??? Mr Pot meet Mr Kettle and here’s Mr Saucepan as well.
One of God’s laws is, “Forgetfulness is the biggest foe”
with that said.
i shall remind you once more, but only once more.
ready?
i know you know i know
Eh?
i am here in the room with you still.
i have traveled all this way.
i surrender only to sincere love.
Que? Comprende, por favor?? Explainez vous s’l vous plait, monsieur?
Oh I’m tired and I don’t understand a word of this so I’m taking the Fantastic Four to bed.
“i know you know i know”
Oh, you think I love you? Is that it?
you’re welcome, but am i?
Bloody cheek …
lol
😉 😀
damn….i am always explaining!
well, you got 4 minutes to decide, before M blocks this blog on us for good.
tic toc tic toc
3 minutes and counting….
Well, I’ve decided …
im bored…nobody to talk to.
… I’m going to bed. I’m tired. Nighty night. Sweet dreams etc.
X
Exploding white light, radiant and bright which lights up the whole earth.
~ from the Nag Hammadi
hey, your spanish is better than mine.
Knowingness puro ominpotence
Caio
Someone asked Jesus, “Where can we find you Jesus?”
Jesus replied, “I am not found where all untruthfulness is.”
sadly, Jesus died alone….without a lover to wed.
about as heartbreaking as it gets.
apon further reflections as the years and centuries unfolded, Jesus now long gone, yet not gone, in their pure of heart reflections, they came to realize Jesus loved all of them as his equal, each and everyone of their precious souls, both of those he walked among, and his precious loving thoughts he contemplated while in the desert of the many unborn children yet to be born into the yet unwise world around him, of what he so desperately wanted to teach all of God’s children;
‘that’ of himself which is of ‘that’ of everyone…
Love, not hate
Compassion, not apath
Wisdom, not ignorance
of what Jesus wanted them to turn to within them, just as Jesus turned to within himself, the pure of heart virgin spirit which is only loving of another.
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bless you Jesus
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i want YOU to BE Happy
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miles away
Jesus said,
“When you are near, i am far away.
when you are far away, i am near.
So where i Jesus?
In our hearts where he BElongs, and longs to BE,
…FOREVER with THEE!
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the problem with people is the fear in the world, with all it’s expectations of each other, business/government/church/spouse, where indeed, even the church of today, everyone of them, use fear, not just as merchants of God( i hope the Pope is listening tonight, as he is sincere in passion about knowing Jesus as much as i am ~ no pun intended), but also of what the early started out as, those not fully knowing of Jesus and God(partiality of heart, dynamics of group mentality which prevent 100% surrendering to the spirit realm which opens wide the soul, just as Jesus did while in mediative prayer alone in the desert ~ God chosing Jesus to speak with, only by Jesus 100% chosing God, of no partiality of heart, of his pure of heart reflections and contemplations of pure truth by means of his feelings; sight returned to his soul.) who did not understand themSELF, these rulers of church who sided with the Romans(Roman Catholic Church) and gathered the recorded words the followers of Jesus had(monks), in order to control the masses of uneducated people of that time period.
I read they had crosses along the road ways going into the cities in order to instill fear into everyone, because of the uprising that was occuring as a result of Jesus teaching behind the great walled city(plausible).
Anyway, they did not get all the recorded words of Jesus, as evident in the monks who kept rewriting(did not have printer back then) the books of word spoken by Jesus, hence, the monks who kept rewriting the hystorical words of Jesus well into the 3 century, ‘that’ of the Nag Hammadi Library which today’s churches dismiss.
i have cross referenced the words of the Nag with the bible, of verbatim words in each, but of continue words of Jesus found in the Nag, the bible leaves off.
Indicative, indeed, the Nag is of the words of Jesus.
Anyway, just reinforcing that the Nag is of God, and better yet, none of the churches understand the mystery of Jesus to the extent that we are all able to BEcome fully into the pure of heart loving feelings of Jesus which are completely free of any trace of fear, of our inner sanctuary of only loving peace, gracefulness in outward appearance.
The world is not a horrible place, and rather of goodness mostly, but there is a much higher level of awareness the world has not reached as yet, although growing more and more in joyful spirit as time passes.
My greatest passion in life, is the heart, mind, body, spirit and soul of Jesus as a devoted hermetical monk away from the world, of no affiliation with any organized group, other than the GLBT, of BEcoming conduct only, of no desire to become a merchant of God.
All of Jesus’s words of of transformation, rejuvenation, restoration, salvation, nurturing love and protective wisdom for an individual to transistion thru.
‘that’ is what BEcoming conduct is, BEcoming of the conduct of Jesus…to levels of anyone’s choosing to do so, merely by approaching alone as a humble student with Jesus and God, ALONE, leaving useless boastful pride of ego checked at the door, while in sanctuary of study alone with Jesus and God.
Group dynamics interfer with the process, be it church/spouse/friends.
Only thru being alone in the sanctuary of our body, does fear gradually deminish, and indeed, completely disappear with practice(takes years for that).
Where apon eventually, the spirit realm opens wide the soul into full BEcome of the divine true SELF, fearless, graceful, wise, compassionately loving in each breath, of great empowerment that comes with the abundance of wisdom, and free flowing of emotions which eb and flow moment to moment.
The channel of radiant and bright pure loving light of exceeding joyfulness extraordinary and wondrous to BEhold by all, utterly fearless in every step, is of one who is closeness of full BEcoming of the divine true self.
Those of the church are yet of the lower BEcoming, fearful, snared, unwiseness of what ALL of God’s words are meant for…’The Transition Process of BEcoming conduct of the divine true self within us all’, a process, not a mere, “oh, let’s recite a verse approach while others fall asleep in a pew”.
Most individuals do not embrace the words as a process, which requires a deliberate diligent approach in knowingness that it is a growth curve process, not to be sold like the merchants of God do, rather to be TRULY and LOVINGLY embraced as the most sacred of all investments of one’s time into the Beautiful Growth Process for restoration(of some), rejuvenation(of others already well into the process), salvation(souls of substance abuse snared by fate which may take their lives eventually, hence ~ salvation from physical death cause by spiritual death in the world or spiritual poverty, openly spoken as spiritual death for those who embrace the truth that unwiseness(not of God for God is wise) is indeed why people remain snared by fate of spiritual death(poverty) track they are snared by, which is statistically a progressive illness according to psyche case statistics), and indeed, it usually hits the bottom, of serious life incident before individuals are ‘Awakened into awareness’ of “oh, i have a problem”.
sadly, prognosis is poor to nil during the first five years of ENTERING into a full recovery program with professional therapy during the 5 year program, where the prognosis does not generally change until after the 5 years have passed(what with relaps, psychological detanglement with others in their inability to set boundaries or exit relationships, societies peer pressure of the norm, and hereditary issues).
~ just abit about me as a student of God.
I see the truth of how important it is to lead by example in life as loving lovers radiant and bright, but the thing is, only healthy evolved adult children become the soulmate loving lovers who are obviously radiant and bright(insane). 😉
if you know of one such individual, let me know, as i am getting bored here alone now, looking to leave my Frankenstein laboratory and take Franky OUT for a walk! LOL
Franky was my hero as a kid. I used read all the books, film, you name it, anything Franky. i was a demented fearless child, insanely vibrant in every step, restoration of my Franky mentality well in it’s advanced level.
gasp!
a heart beat!
oohhh!
he’s breathing!
oh yes! he’s moving
oh no, what’s this.
no wait, Franky, come back here, you have to put some clothes on before going OUTside!!!!!
RUN EVERYONE!!!!! Franky’s on the loose!!!!
LOL
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you guys are just way to serious, and boring i might add, for me.
M, you got any of ‘that’ wine left?
i like vintage. you got any vintage?
tic toc tic toc
ah fuck it
im taking my pet for a walk
who’s got time for broken heartedness.
bin there. done that. spent years grieving over Troy.
time for me to fly everyone.
so if someone is with me, then get back to me soon, as i don’t uncertainty feelings in waiting, being one who is of the destiny of cleared path wise certainty.
your gonna have to run to catch me! So hurry the fuck up will ya!
LOL
tic toc tic toc
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you should be exceeding gratitude i am yet waiting for one of you in life like me…
like Jesus and God, i am of no time contraint, just as truth is not of time constraint, always the truth for all eternity, just as these words of truth are of eternal truth for all of mankind in the future, of no time constraint, where indeed, Jesus knew this, leaving God’s eternal words for every soul of the unborn child yet to be born for all eternity.
well…i don’t have all eternity, but i would wish all eternity if i were a loving lover with someone like some of you i have come to know, of my forever more eternal loving feelings pure and true of the pure of heart love i have for ALL.
hurry up, as the world is in great need of our radiant bright unfading light that pushes OUT all darkness, forever eventually, where forever is how the most loving lovers truly feel, as in, “Oh, i wanna do this forever with YOU!!!!!!” 😉
oppss…i keep X rating the blog. lol
ahhhh….i so need to get…..
like i said, it is me who worries about ALL of YOU.
sheeshhh! Always explaining. 😉
OOOXXX
hmmmm…
Dear madonna. i don`t write very well in English. Por eso escribire en español. En Venezuela estamos muy tristes porque no vienes.. No te imaginas la emocion que teniamos de que vinieras. En comparacion con tus fans mundiales no somos nada pero creeme que habiamos mucha gente esperenzados de que vinieras. Se que tienes tus obligaciones y verga (otras cosas) pero un dia aqui en nuestro pais nos daria un momento de alegria inimaginable para nosotros.. Somos capaces hasta de hacerte la taima nosotros mismos para que vengas pero es un sueño (soñar no cuaesta nada) igual dios te bendiga y bueno sera en otra oportunidad
Saludos
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YOU are of God’s divine will to move mountains, insurmountable obsticles, an evolved adult child of God, oneness of God’s divine WILLINGNESS pure and true of YOU, of the oneness of Pure Knowingness Omnipotence as one who knows the truth of ALL, ‘that’ of Pure TRUTH Seeds that do not fail, of comprehension of God’s divine will for ALL, of what God wants all to know in what is more valuable than all the riches of the world, these many distractions which lead away from the ‘PURE of HEART’ sincere loving precious feelings which exist in all God’s children, of what God’s children are yet unaware of because of the false emptiness of the world which distracts them from their burried treasure(divine true self submerged, unattended to, unprotected, unnurtured), because of the great blind ignorance which yet grips the world, of all these things which are not of God, of empty vessels of gold boastfully held up high, empty of loving compassion, devoid of sincere love for one another as equals, which lead the world into great suffering and hardship in emptiness of feelings, made to feel as though they are worthless, when in truth, every child of God already owns the greatest treasure they shall ever find, the sincere pure of heart loving feelings of the divine true self which is yet unwisely unattended to, unnurtured, unprotected by God’s wisdom in a world ruled by fear from governments/church/business, none of whom know God, nor truly desire God’s divine will, that we embrace what we are in the eyes of God…EQUAL, no matter race, sex, religion, political, or orientation, all loving children of God united as ONE sameness of equals.
~ Where love is what MATTers.
“And I heard a great voice out of heaven saying, Behold, the dwelling of God’s love is within us ALL of the truth of pure of heart sincere feelings within ALL, in our pure knowingness ominpotence of love revealed which wipes away all tears from our eyes, and death shall BE no more, nor shall their BE mourning, nor crying, nor pain any more, for these things will desolve away, like shadow from bright light which enters. ”
God blesses ALL, of we who pray.
hey, that’s not bad writting, yes?
seems the wine which flows forth is getting better with age?
😀 😀
hey, can you picture some beautiful famboyant gay guys with flowers in hair, without a care, dress all in satin colors so vibrant and bright, giving this surmon?
a flip of the wrist held up so high, radiant bright smiling of joyful tears, as they say the words…
…”Where LOVE is what MATTers?”
as the spin around dancing like the most insanely happy faggots one had ever scene in their entire lives?
i do.
still practicing my line. 😉
The world needs to know what is of most value in life, lead by those who fully embrace what is obvious of what is most valuable…loving feelings of SELF.
no matter status, wealth, education, the gentle breeze and warmth of sunshine apon the loving lovers is what they enjoy, no matter where, no matter stare, no matter care…
…so long as they are in each others arms, the only place they ever yearn to be found forever more, of their delicate beautiful feelings for one another, each and every moment of each blessed day together.
hey, that almost sounds like the words of someone who is in love, yes?
WOW!
😀 😀
If you feel that way about someone, tell them your thoughts and feelings they may BE yearning to hear from you, of you fearlessness to do so, because if you don’t and they pass you by, thinking you don’t really care for them, you may find your SELF alone wishing you had.
After Troy died, i found my SELF…alone…
…wishing i had of said what i was feeling inside, too afraid of his rejection, of his many rejections before, of his own gripped by fear inability to say what he too wanted to say.
He called me one time, crying, saying he was sorry, and that made a mistake, in running off with another. I knew that, for i knew how sincerely and joyfully happy he was around me, where time together was the only thing on our minds, doing what we always were…loving of each other each and every minute of our time together, and even while apart, the flutter of the heart apon waking to another blessed day, thoughts of love pouring in of the sweet anticipation i would see him again….
i should of BEen more fearlessly loving of him, and indeed i was, but not as fearless as i could of BEen, my self gripped by homophobia from the homophobes all around me.
Don’t make the mistakes i made, of denying my self to fearlessly express my feelings like i did, for we don’t get a second chance at life, to do it over again, sadly, i wish i could.
cast fear from your hearts, when it comes to love, for fear is not of God, nor shall ever BE found of me.
a fooliish world of fear,
till the loving lovers appear
tic toc tic toc
my biggest passion in life is to teach the world what it is i feel inside.
pondering how to teach this…
…i ‘REALIZE’, the only way to teach the world your loving feelings?…
…get OUT there and FEARLESSLY BE your loving feelings forever more, of what you yearn for inside, BEcoming OUTward of what is inside YOU…
,..indeed, of ‘that’ which is YOU, of how you yearn to always feel and BE your sweet loving beautiful feelings, forever SET FREE to BE what you long to BE.
express what you feel.
write it down.
tell someone
sing a song like M does.
but don’t ignore your feelings like so many do, as loving life passes you bi.
Don’t leave someone wondering, even if they already know, tell them daily, for some of us are insecure in our SELF, and may need reminding of just how much you love them…
…i know i have insecurity issues and complexes, so for sure, ignore me, and it’s not long before i feel uncertain and insecure again, even if i may know, it’s always nice to BE reminded every day, just as loving lovers love to hold one another everyday, so too should all who entertain a new lover.
Generally, once you know you love someone, the yearning to tell them and BE with them, is constantly on your mind, so you may want to let them know before someone else snatches them away from your opportunity to say what it is you feel for the.
Or…do what i did…suffer the consequences of my own CHOICE, not to do so.
don’t say i didn’t warn you.
Oh precious loving souls like my own, of forever more love feelings.
of pure loving feelings incredible for us to fee
wanting always feel just how loving we really are.
ya. me too.
God bless your sweet loving soul that is so loving like my own.
hmmmm….
I think we should all just go over to Rosie and Kelly’s family vaction cruise for two weeks, seperate rooms, free to roam the ship, where Madonna meets some beautiful female lesbian like herself, Matt meets someone drop dead georgious sweet his own age, finally admitting to himself he wants someone his own age, and Andy runs of with a two post operative transsexuals, one male, the other female.
LOL
YES!!!!! i knew the answer was somewhere!!!!!
maybe Rosie and i are the only ones who know how this story will actually end?
we know! 😉
it’s time we all stop pretending?
Can i bring kyle with me?
just asking.
oh…you guys are not fun.
ok.
truthfully.
i love both Matt and Madonna.
and so with that said, if either one of you experience life enough, and you still feel you would like to get to know Andy better, i will leave the (closet)door off it’s hinges for either one of you to waunder in someday, as my heart is always open to both of you, and i cannot hurt either one of you, knowing how much i truly love you both.
So experience some more life in the mean time guys, with healthy people of your CHOICE, always knowing that Andy loves ALL of you in the GLBT communities world wide, and has probably slept with half of you.
You just may meet someone i was with thru the last 14 years, as i have been with people from New York, Chicago, Miami, France, Germany, Vietnam, Japan, China, Africa, West India, Russia….hmmmm,,,,
it would probably be easier to look at a world map and find a country i have not been with…hmmmm…let’s…..NOPE!
LOL 😀 😀
i believe in love, and truly, i have loved you ALL, knowing i always will LOVE ALL.
Remember…it’s always YOUR life, YOUR CHOICES…no one elses…
…i CHOOSE to love you both equally, knowing in my heart of hearts, i could love either one of you without doubt at all, where i seriously would love to be with either one of you.
At this cross road, the road ahead for me is that of a bisexual, who loves both males and females, of the same level of emotional intensity, where in truth, i really do want to be with you both…
of course if either one of you come knocking on my door…hey, where did the door go?
without hesitation whatsoever…i will love YOU….trust me on ‘that’.
It is always YOUR CHOICE…not mine to make, so how about pursuing Andy for a change and get up off your sorry asses and kiss me for fuck sakes, before someone else does, as time does bring new faces our way in life, which surprise us sometimes.
So, there you have it….Andy is frustrated with both of you, and has quit your sorry asses!
i ain’t joking around this time.
you’ll see.
you will wake day, weeks, months, however long, and find your self sitting there wonder, what the fuck am i doing? I have all these feelings for Andy who is gone now, not expressing how i truly feel for him. Not much wonder he left. I would of too. I so owe Andy and apology, and a java.
now practice these words with me now, ok?
“Andy? im sorry. i love you with all that i am. give me a chance with you, please? i beg of you, just one more chance. it took you leaving for me to find my feelings of just how much i really do love you Andy. I love you so much Andy, so please wait for me, as i know how much you too love me. We just can’t walk way like this, knowing our real feelings for each other that we feel each day, the tears we shed. I am so stupid for not expressing myself to you, all the while knowing how much i sincerely do love you.”
(Andy leans in for a soothing kiss on the lips, slowly reaching his hands out to finally touch Matt’s body, as Madonna roles up in her limo, and screaming at Andy, frying pan in hand raised high, “Get your hands off my husband! Andy, get back in the car!)
LOL
omg…what a great short film this would make.
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don’t you dare show this script to Guy!
You know what he will do with it, don’t you?
Hello, we are talking about Guy Ritchie here!
Secretly, Andy and Guy Ritchie have been writing this script as film producers, to one day finally show the world, the real life consequences of trying to have a relationship with an out bisexual….impossible! as they never truly know what the fuck they want, and settle for wanting the whole fucking world.
LOL
😀 😀
and indeed M, we took on the whole world and won, did we not? And oh what a sweet ride it has been for us emotionally, and yet is, is it not, as we probe for our higher loving self, which is loving of all.
so let’s be of celebratory loving spirit as we venture forward, everyone safe, hand in hand, of love so deep, for just how much love is in the air for us all, united as one, under one sky above, one earth below, one eternal human being which only feels good when loved.
i was the only one trying around here it seems, if you must know, yearning for a hand to hold with all that i am, day after day, month after month, no one showed.
any ways guys…you all have issue to work thru, and so with grace, i leave to your precious loving life to do so, as i feel i am making people perhaps feel awkward, concerned for everyone, especially you Matt, knowing how sensitive you are.
I don’t want to hurt anyone, and is why can’t stay…..
you can chat with me in private if you like, but i am not sharing any further open dialog between us, as it has become way too personal for all of us.
for all our sakes, i ask that you please don’t, and if you really do have love for me, you will respect my wishes in my closing the door to the public eye for now, as we all are sensitive loving human beings,when it comes to matters of the heart so deeply felt within for me, for us all.
Jesus loves you. God loves you.
respectful yours,
love andy
OOOXXX
don’t hesitate when i comes to your feelings, lest the one you loved, slips away from you, and you loose the one you love.
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Happy Birthday Guy!
i love you Matt.
(taking center stage, Andy graceful bows to the right and to the left, converse running shoes, one pink, one black, Andy makes a quick dash thru the exit door into the bright suhshine, running as fast as he can, everyone chasing him, wanting his autograph, phone number, address, which never told anyone about his new address, and likely never will) LOL
Caio
Don’t forget…Jesus and God love YOU ALL.
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im bored…
hmmm….
i know….how about some radiant and bright light everyone?
brb
oh, you are so gonna love this guys! Trust me on this one!
you’ll see, what i see in all of you soon enough!
and what i always wanna see from your sorry motherfucking asses!
GOT IT!!!!
ok then…
always explaining!
why can’t people just be the joyful happy self all the time?
i suppose if they all had a friend like me, maybe they would, yes?
i know who you all are on the inside…same as me!
😀 😀
oh sure, you can hide all you want, but i will find ya all eventually, and ask you all the same question?
do you know what time it is?
and your response had better BE, “Loving life time Andy , because YOU fucking love us! ”
Andy says,”You’re fucking right i do…or wait…was that left?….ah fuck it! ,,,,who cares!….where’s my fucking coffee! Come on! The parade starts soon, and we are fucking late damn it!”
14 year run guys, you all better show up next year, of i’ll have kid all your sorry asses again! And you all know how much i love your ASS, right?!!!!
Good then, i am glad we are on the same page, where we shall always be found….family forever more.
It’s all Rosie’s fault!
blame Rosie, not me!
please don’t hurt me…i am very fragile!
enjoy the blessed day everyone, here in the kingdom of heaven all around us.
don’t let the motherfuckers wear you down, as i don’t ever want to see any of you frown…i want fucking happiness, as i am tired of crying, ok?
God knows how much i love you all, of my daily prayers with you, so you need not ever wonder how much Andy loves to love you all.
Always did.
Always will.
always.
forever more.
oh sure, you can try being miserable, but don’t expect me to hanging around when you get in your moods. Trust me, it ain’t me guys that is causing it…it’s the motherfucking bullshit world we live in, so anal they all can be around me.
Here is a good thought for you all to ponder. I want to do the 100 clowns for the parade some day, and i looking for volunteers, come one, come all, but BE sure to cum! LOL
you all love my unceasing relentlessness of surprises, and trust me, i am just getting started, for truly, we are the one’s who usher in the kingdom of heaven for everyone else, we the enlightened children of the light of God, for God’s love is us.
12,979 blessed days to go! 😉
with or without you guys, i am going to enjoy every last fucking one of them.
if you need me, i’ll BE where everyone can find me, my favorite place of all, a warm soothing cuddling or so fucking beautiful skin to skin contact with someone in my hot tub!
And so should all of you BE doing what you love to do.
Jesus said, “Do not do what you hate doing.”
Love in a hot tub is mind blowing experience for me, so gentle, so sincere, and so erotic!!!!!!!!!!!!
la la lalala la la lalala la la LOVE!!!!!!!!
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on we go
Your language is terrible.
Can we have a night off? Can I just talk for a bit tonight?
I’ve had a very busy day and I don’t want a hard time here.
(whisper it – looks like there’s no one here. Can I sneak out the back now and not be noticed?)
Or maybe we’ve got another humungous essay coming up … 😦
She’s really not here?!
Whew! A close escape!
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Let it BE known YOUR Exceeding Joy apon the earth forever more, for God is with us…motherfuckers! lol
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oh yeah!
you won’t believe what’s coming in the future.
you forgot, i am not of time contraint that rules the world…
i tend to think outside the box, like how the world will be by say 2050?
aim for the target of the next 20 years, where it is always a growth curve for all souls of the earth, of exceeding joy meant for all…of what is inside of us all.
sorry…i was having a stupid moment there.
everybody just seems so uptight for me, that’s all.
the can’t breath sorta feeling…mostly just me…not going to try to explain or understand, as i don’t really don’t understand why people can’t just be relaxed around me…
I’ve had an excellent day surfing, and I’ve been down the beach in the afternoon, and I’m a bit done in so I just want an easy night cos I’ll probably be doing it all again tomorrow. So I hoep things are well with you have a good night and a good day tomorrow. Okey dokey, see ya,
X
ya, i was thinking of taking a week or two off…still moving into my new place…packing and what not.
yes, please relax and be safe out there.
Thank you very much, you are very understanding and sweet. Big hugs and kisses.
X
i jest Rosie.
she is supportive…i totally connect with her. totally.
letting go is never easy, but let go, i must.
fresh new start in life waiting for me…i am excited about it actually, just in transition, that’s all, my own emotional stuff, past, present…inhale, exhale…toxic ex….life that’s all.
i have come thru worse.
can’t wait to get back to the happy andy again. soon…however long it takes…i will BE happiness again, as i am a truly happy spirit, looking for other happy souls to run with.
so ya, i guess it’s goodbye…or caio.
i have to do this, as hard as it will be, staying is harder.
a few months, a year, whatever, till i regain my composer, whatever that is, as i am no longer a corporate ladder climber, and won’t ever be again.
art, music, writing, reading, lover.
not necessarily in that order. lol.
bless you.
it was all about my healing over Troy guys, mostly.
valuable are life lessons, should we take time to internalize what works for us….
simple…a hand to hold, lips to kiss, cuddling, fun loving good times….
being together was all that matter with Troy…
it’s that simple…loving of one another.
sincerely loving of one another…of each and every beautiful day.
‘More Than Words’ was the song i felt deeply when i fell in love with Troy, of the many days we would run and hid from the homphobic world, camping, cottage at the lake, alot of time out driving all over Ontario, taught him how to drive, had alot of sex out in the truck out driving, finding local beaches…just the two of us…mad passionate lovers, insanely mad if you must know, some the places we would have sex, like a rock along the waters edge, bright beautiful day…top of a hay bail one time….
we were exceeding joyfulness most of the time, only way to fly!…like it’s your last day together, of no time constraint, who cared, let’s fuck! where? right here? yeah! ok!! lol
Live your fucking life people!!!
you only get one kick at the can of life!!!
Live it well, and be sure to have lot’s of sex!!!….healthy for ya, stress reliever!
caio bella caio bello byatches.
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i’ll pop in from time to time, to kick your sorry asses, if any of you are mistreating one another, like we sometimes do…ever learning.
God Blesses ALL. Jesus Loves ALL. We Love ALL.
forever more
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catch me if ‘YOU can’. 😉
I don’t desire judas or you as a lover. Nor do i desire him as a friend. However i do desire you as a friend. Just certail the head a tad & focus on the heart. Your heart not mine.
good contructive criticism Marco.
i lose it somedays….vent…..
but i know who i am, and if anything, my heart has always been the only significant part of my everyday since Troy died.
I walk around in a sorta, what the fuck is wrong with everyone, as though i had left the earth and came back, seeing all these doldrum mentalities everywhere, in all their useless conduct of words with one another, and as for the one billion children in poverty world wide….well….let’s just say, as a revealer of truth about people’s heart, i ain’t no where done yet!
ah fuck! i can’t find the door! lol
how the hell do i get out? 😉
hey, how can you say that about me as a lover?
you cannot go around making assumptions about how good or great one is as a lover, having not ever met them in real life, nor having not experienced them in say a hot tub, to give out words like that.
that is like killing the spirit of someone with words like that…
one more reason for me to leave i suppose.
No, one more reason to express my sincerity, leave if you want, perhaps the hot tub might have changed my opinion but uhm the water is cold, its been while since you filled it remember.
friends take it or leave it,
i would say you need to becareful of your lacking in descerning words spoken, with a statement like that that cuts right thru a person, in all honesty, to the degree that i would not ever be able to ever trust you again, so careless with my soul like that.
curtail my thoughts, ya sure, i can do that, but don’t go around knocking a soul to the ground and then telling them how stupid they are, ok? You may attack someone to you eventually, if you think with your feelings in descerning your words before speaking.
as for Judas, Judas was often referred to as the twin of Jesus because of how close they were, indeed, Judas was the closet one to Jesus, and recent survacing of the gospel of Judas reveals Jesus asked Judas to betray him, not like the controling mass church says.
In other words, Jesus killed himself on purpose for an exact reason.
So far, i have reached the level of pure love compassion of the purity of heart level of Jesus, where i feel what Jesus was feeling of the awareness level where i am sensing why he did it, as far as the true compassion emotion level is concerned.
It has to do more with concern for the eternity of mankind generations(us) than it did at the time few at the time, as to his empowerment, sorta like how i feel all the time, feeling of truth in every word one says for example, from an observation view(tend not to react much anymore).
Jesus became in his mind, of no time constraint mentality at all times, like that which rules the world. I love the feeling of no time constraint level of awareness. very cool. It is like you are not part of the world any longer, totally seperated from it completely, as a wise observer, of how God looks apon i suppose, of the many aimless fearfully snared souls, ruled by government/church/business, no different today than was then.
the dynamic of no time constraint is what played into the phyche of Jesus, as though an alien being sensibility. I love the feeling. It is utterly fearless of any who walk the earth, of no concern for serving government/church/business ever again, a humble student of Jesus and God.
not interested in preaching, just speaking of my awareness level i am growing into, of my only driving empowerment…change the world for sake of every soul today and tomorrow, feeling of how the future will be, or should be, looking apon what needs addressed, revealed, that sorta thing…
why?
i don’t to see what happened to Troy ever happen again to anyone.
i think i will leave and come back, is that ok?
just don’t project onto me like that.
speak of an issue or whatever, but don’t ever project at me again.
nurturing words, protective understanding discussions only please.
i don’t want to be drilled, nor do i want to drill anyone again…i prefer the calm peaceful andy who writes alone in reflection with no one there in my interpretations of everything. 20 years of writing so far. alot, still exploring.
speak openly of anything but me, and i will do the same, no more interactions of my phyche please, or toying of my emotions, as i am not up to the challenge, nor am i interested anymore in participating like that anymore.
i need to chill out for awhile.
ya, you are right, friends take it or leave it, always accepting.
i am getting grounded again as a calm student, free of clutter, peaceful and at ease.
all the prodding we did back and forth was great in my probing of feelings, but i don’t need someone for that.
it is projection stuff, and i was really not ever comfortable around people who project and prod alot, too interpersonal for me and annoying, as i am sensitive, healthy sensitive emotions just under the survace, right there all the time….i had years of therapy.
anyway, not to pull punches or anything, i am just looking toward less interaction emotionally with people for awhile, ideal for me.
i like calm pleasant relaxed at ease all the time, like loving lovers are with each other who truly love each other, only feelings of love ever present…gee, i wonder why? 😉
oh, i couldn’t possibly be…
😉
ask troy if that is ok, dont ask me, im not troy, never was never will be
im MARCO always was alwyas will be
ya…i fell in love with Matt guys…it’s true.
God bless you Matt.. I love you.
less thoughts from the head and more from the heart ok…
goodnight.. xox
not sure what you mean by your words of Troy.
using a small cap on his name Marco?
about as cold and insensitive a thing one has ever done with me.
Troy was my lover who commited suicide in ’93
for sure, it will be awhile before i return.
i don’t even want to speak to you any more now.
Repeat;
YEAH!
i FELL IN LOVE WITH MATT EVERYONE!!!!!
in case any of you didn’t hear(feel) what i said. 😉 😀
IT’S 100% TRUE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i fucking love you byatch!!!!
(andy grumbles to himself as he walks around the studio set, still trying to find the exit door, sensitive to everything everyone says, of everyone realizing how on edge Andy is, someone approaches asking Andy, “can i get you anything Andy?” as Andy snaps back, “fuck off! just leave me alone. fuck!”
LOL
😀 😀
yer well i lost two lover’s to suicide in 1992 & 1994 also, get over it, i did, life goes on, such is life
if your spiritual enough to connect to their souls you’ll realise you never lost them at all, eternal such is life eternal
go go , fuck go im not stoping you
i hope it does hurt
only way you’ll learn
no pain no gain
just ask M
God know’s she’s suffered enough
enough
enough
enough
goodnight
i have no time for victims today..
been there done that
my dear
just ask JEsus
he should know
he suffered enough
hey i think its time we nailed you to the cross Andy
then you can be Jesus for once the victim
GOd;s know’s im not interested in being Jesus one bit
please don’t talk to me anymore about it.
please stop
you totally do not get my words and research on Jesus at all, do ya?
there is an exacting reason why Jesus did what he did, which is only pure white light understanding, because of the purity of Jesus, a virgin spirit.
It has to obviously do with teaching, easy one there, of wrong and right conduct, but what i am probing, is the emotional level of Jesus, at his awareness level.
i have nearly achieved it, and he standing very close in my visions with me, which i can enter into any time i want, sorta like a memory added to memory the vision is growing in my mind.
i am close to what he feels like.
he is there. i am looking apon him right now.
do you want me to describe him for you?
he has only love for me and all is calm, no fear at all of any kind whatsoever, just pure radiant love that is part of me, connects with me emotionally.
it is not an intense emotion, rather it is one of one who has walked away complete from the world, of only desire to be with Jesus, with no hesitation, rather it is more one of , ‘what was i thinking?’, who would want to stay around the absurd unwise bitter conduct?
anyway…i will write more later, as the vision continues to open for me.
celibacy rocks everyone! i feel like a virgin!
restoration.
Repeat;
YEAH!
i FELL IN LOVE WITH MATT EVERYONE!!!!!
in case any of you didn’t hear(feel) what i said.
IT’S 100% TRUE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
not sure if you heard me or not.
you better be fucking nice to me Matt…although i know you love me too….
Like a Virgin, cobweb’s more likely ha ha
only Madonna could that one off and get away with it..
i get it about Jesus truly i do, but there comes a time when we have to get off our cross and end the sufferiing, even for Jesus.
Hey Jesus get off that damn cross, your setting a bad example, we hear you we know you’ve suffered for our sins for for God sake stop playing on it, sympathy card you know, i mean its been 2000 yrs don’t you think your stretching some what,
you know what, you don’t no anything about my life in the real world and my efforts daily.
i am probing the human condition and ways to nurture it, but at a higher more effect level of approach, of the intensity level awakening into awareness sorta thing.
bad example?
Jesus knew their hearts, and he knew they would reflect later the truth of the condition of their own hearts.
All those days he hung on the cross, Jesus was the one who placed himself there on purpose, from the first nail to the last they unlovingly unwisely apathetically drove into his body.
Every second of it was staged by Jesus, (a puppet master), for exacting reasoning of approach by Jesus.
I am probing the teacher mentality of Jesus, of why and what compelled him to do so, as there is an exacting compassionate level of higher awareness associated with it, it is not about victim mentality at all for one thing, not at all. That is a totally shortsighted opinion, and i am having difficult sitting here chatting with someone who is of such limited emotional depth and desire for understanding.
One you enter into the no time constraint awareness level, everything becomes calm within, even all the while the fearful unwise all around. It is in this mode of pureness feelings and awareness which great macro thinking awareness comprehsion occurs, beyond most anyone’s ability to reach, and what i notice is the negative spirits cannot penetrate into the sphere that surronds you. The dark spirits do sense your presence, but they cannot see you, as the dark spirits are not of the comprehension to see.
makes sense, right?
anyway, the dark spirits do become agitatted by the my presence, of my observations of dark spirits. But what i don’t understand yet about the spirit realm is the existence of the dark spirits, other than to say, i detect them, unafraid, because in the sphere, it is pure white light loving positive light feeling serene and calm, where dark spirits are of dark bitter exceedingly fearful and definitely not calm.
I can see the spirits to striking the sphere, and desolve when the attempt to enter. It is very cool to experience the sensation of fearlessness while among them, sorta like an invincible warrior would feel unintimidated whatsoever by the motherfuckers.
LOL
now that was funny! 😀 😀
ah fuck…im bored again.
it is not about sympathy in your shortsightedness, but it may be about protection from dark spirits, a shield.
something to think about.
his spirit is able to be channeled, and i have channelled his spirit in my research.
it is a pureness connection which opens, free of fear, but the dark spirits don;t like it.
only apon entering fully into the sphere are you protected, by an invisible fearless state calm and serene, unable to be feared.
there is alot to it, and it is the most fascinating of my study of the evolved adult child Jesus.
the sphere is macro wisdom thinking awareness, or Halo.
well that should shut them up for a few centuries i suppose.
lol
fucking morons…i am surrounded by pissy unthirsty fucking morons father.
Jesus a victim….ha…
it is all of you who are victimizers. duh!
even of the low ignorance of victimizing your SELF.
other than M, although i think she tolerates too much, knowing she would rather not.
her life, not mine.
i am just her soul mate friend, yet evolving along side her, of sameness awareness level as her.
what you do not see about Jesus is his level of awareness of your ignorance which surrounds you, and you do not look apon him in the light of purity which is pure protection by means of God’s pure loving compassionate wisdom…
any more shortsightedness?
M gets it.
Jesus is of the continuation for evolving growth curve we are all apart of, all connected, affect/effect, direct/indirect every second of each day for all eternity of the pure truth wisdom which provide safe passage for mankind to safe pass thru into the future for all eternity, because TRUTH is an eternal thing which does not change.
still with me?
Jesus is the most empowered one, and the most fearless one.
why?
because God is not fear based.
rather it is the unruly world which rule that is fear based controling the world.
Jesus and God are here to calm the world, and put out the raging fires within the hearts of men, and for good reason, as we are yet of great wars, and indeed, great war is yet lurking.
if these fires are not extinguished by grace of God thru us, the beast of ignorance WILL rise up. It is a projection identification dynamic, where fearless loving joyful life exceeding and bright light will draw the souls to it, but it must be of pureness of heart and of the truly exceeding brightness, which is difficult because most souls of the world are of mundaneness survival mode mentality, sadly for many.
Jesus is about increasing value for purity of the loving heart feelings.
any more shortmindedness questions?
ok…im tired and in need of R&R .
anyone CARE to join me…
…like that will ever happen, you and all your infinite wisdoms.
stop laughing Matt…these guys really annoy the fuck out of me, which i then take their negative spuing and channel it into motivation, as there insipidness fires so tasteless and boring, remind me of the lacking desire for wisdom which is the single thing which grips the world.
Truly, the enlightened ones lead the world, by means of affect/effect.
so before anyone discredits M’s work, always know, she is of God’s wisdom and work in the world, affecting/effecting millions of souls hourly.
i am merely one who understands and here to keep her stationary in her efforts as she is of God…we all are, unknowingly for many.
at all times…it is a growth curve journey, just as it has been since God was here before thru Jesus, God is returning, and indeed, is here.
let’s not forget the 30,000 children who died today, direct result of the spiritual poverty which yet grips the world.
you people and your shallowness of spirit so undriven in compassionate awareness. Time is ticking, and another 30.000 children will die tommorrow.
fucking morons father.
never doubt, Madonna and i are of the same motivational pure of heart empowerment to change the world.
It has not ever been about fame and fortune, nor shall it be in our pure of heart awareness wisdom thinking.
indeed, we are one and the sameness of spirit in that regard.
i always be somewhere near, and she knows i will, as in of God’s divine WILL for us ALL.
always explaining….
not to sound harsh…but it’s called FEELINGs.
i think just bitch slapped them Matt, yes? lol 😀 😀
is it just me, or is Matt fucking goreous? 😀 😀
so fucking adorable!!!!!!
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Open wide the soul to radiant white pure loving light which is of YOU, radiant and bright in exceeding joyfulness feeling, is it not?
😉
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Repeat;
YEAH!
i FELL IN LOVE WITH MATT EVERYONE!!!!!
in case any of you didn’t hear(feel) what i said.
IT’S 100% TRUE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
not sure if you heard me or not.
Welcome to heaven everyone!
I am your flight stewardess. We will be approaching the 1,200,000 crowd, in our upcoming flight, so please fasten yourselves in early for the party of a life time here in Toronto Ontario Canada, as limited hotel accomidation is the norm.
LOL
fucking umbelievable how big it keeps growing each year.
hmmm…that almost sounded homoerotic, yes?
get offa ya Cross,
your welcome
i love you too
sadly, living a gay life is the cross, of every unloving snear, unloving hiss, unloving spuing of hatefulness, unloving unwise not of God for God is wise, of the very things Jesus railed against, ‘that’ of all things unloving unwise apathic in understanding of no compassionate desire to understand, even for sake of their own precious loving children, where thousands of young gay youths lose there lifes to unwiseness of hatreds yet in the world, where in TRUTH, the GLBT is of the most loving souls who walk the earth, respectful of one another anywhere you go in the world of our communities all united in sameness of loving compassionate understanding youthful spirit, ever of our concern for the all youth in the world of that GLBT communities, in our knowingness of the transitional difficulties they experience during the coming out years, having navigated thru our own coming out of the closet years.
I am here, just for that, for sake of my loving concern for you Matt, and all members of our worldwide GLBT family, united with Madonna as one of the single most strongest forces of our loving family forever more, ever pushing forward in safe garding the mental/emotional well BEing of our family, of special concern for the youth.
God Blesses Madonna because she is of pure of heart feelings just as we all are of the GLBT communities worldwide.
May God continue to bless us all as we push forward in pushing out all wretched darkness of spirit of ignorance and hatred towards our most loving family worldwide forever more.
We are here to stay, forever gay, of forever prayer, in our oneness with Jesus and God, of our understanding of what the cross is…the world which surrounds us, in all of it’s unwiseness, hateful mean spiritedness devoid of compassion, devoid of Jesus and God’s love.
We are here by example of who Jesus and God protect from the false ignorant teachings of the forefathers before us, obvious and clear are do these false teachings yet exist in the world handed down generation after generation, harming our precious loving children.
forever i shall BE found of Jesus and God who summon us all to the goodness of wisdom which protects and the increasing in value of our love for one another, compassionate of our stumbling towards the cross, where the cross is the doorway into heaven in which all must pass by Jesus and God forever more, because Jesus is of God’s wisdom apon the cross which is indeed the symbol of reality check condition of how the world yet is.
thank you Jesus. God bless you Jesus. thank you God. thank you.
Matt asked me to tie him up, and i was the one who ended up tied Matt.
It’s funny Matt, you can untie me anytime you know.
(Matt laughs in hysterical mad laughter, Andy still swearing at anyone who comes near him)
LOL
ah fuck, how do i can down from here? 😉
fear not, for i am of the no time constraints commitment to the growth curve process, diligent, determined, of a dedicated life, empowerment of God, of magnificence and magnitude on par with the sun which shines constantly, so too are we who pray, we the enlightenment of Jesus and God forever more for sake of all those yet to come, at all times, forver more.
where’s my coffee?!!! lol 😉 😀
It’s not me, it’s my alter ego.
hey, what’s that line about God, some silly fear based mass churched leader thing, oh yeah, “And no one shall know the hour apon which i come.”
oh fuck, what time is it….i am so late for my hot tub session!
lol
an excellent example of the fear based church, yes?
clearly we know our love is certainly not fearful, yes?
the future is about about exceeding joyfulness growing richer and richer, more and more, of the growth curve, in our determination to feel what is that we feel as artists, musician, and all participants of True Loving Life, which we easily feel the truth of yes?
As true artists, musicians,writers, poets, we bring for the express of the feeling we delve deep for, find it, and express in outward appearance of what it is. Combination of music, art, dance, costume, is an excellent way to express it to the world, so let’s lock onto what it and push forward the pure true knowingness of the feelings radiant and bright white light as bright as the sun of exceeding joyfulness which comes with the pure loving feelings we genuinely feel.
Madonna has always been one of the true artists in the world in approach for sake of all, may God continue to bless her with fearlessness in her continued efforts to explore and bring forth to the world our knowingness of what is there within all souls of the world, of our knowingness of what is there within our divine true self, which genuinely yearns for others too to feel what it is that we feel, for sake of all, for sake of our desire for increasing value of ‘that’ which is beyond all riches of the world, for truly we are pure of heart sincerely loving of one another…without doubt.
bless you
blessed ARE the pure of heart.
i am…BE cause…we ARE.
thank you God. thank you Jesus.
sooooooo…do we or don’t we all love one another as utter equals?
our feelings clearly reveal the truth of this with utter clarity, yes?
so it’s true!
for all God’s children of the world over, of what is more valuable than all the riches of the world, is it not?
i so love the feelings within, of a forever dancing fall down stupid say whatever, do what ever, so long as we have someone there to be doing whatever we feel like doing, forever more God’s children forever at play, yes?
and does it cost us any money to feel the incredible beauty of our own pure of heart feelings which overflow in great abundance of exceeding joyfulness?
absolutely free for all God’s children of the earth.
Exceeding while light radiant and bright which shines thru us from God, thru another, thru another, ever growing ever nurturing, ever protective as we grow in the richness of the divine true self with in us all, returning day after blessed day forever more of all God’s children forever at play of joyFUL pure loving pure of heart joyFULness
who’s got time for useless bickering that leaves one another feeling less than what we truly are, exceedingly radiant of bright light which yearns to always flow thru us day after blessed day.
oh sure, you can go bicker all you want, but don’t expect to find me near…no way…i only have 12, 978 blessed fucking days left guys, and i ain’t waisting one of them on no sorry ass motherfucking useless bullshit whatever! Got it?
LOL
i jest.
i just wanna spin and dance with someone of the same insanity i feel within…you know who you are.
this is what i expect of all of you, to connect within, feel, and bring forth your expressions of the pure geniune feelins true of you, true of another, for sake of you, for sake of others, for sake of another.
or sit around wasting your sorry asses away like some of you do…not me…no time for that anymore…i am running with and to the future.
been saving this day for ya.
it is able to be expressed apon in various ways and it is also of increasing radiance which grows within us, so long as we focus in and explore it in deliberateness of a true artist, where a true artist is not about fame or fortune or technique(albeit technique), rather for sake of the genuine desire for other to feel the magical feelings.
That is the mission of God, who knows we don’t just approach in deliberate desire to do so, rather it is of the ease of having BEcome our pure of heart feelings which push out all negativity in our life, because of the radiant brightness of positive light flowing fearless thru us, every of the yearning to BE found of our precious loving feelings forever more with those we truly love with all that we are.
It is of God’s divine will that we BEcome the willingness of our descerning wisdom to do so, of the exceeding joyfulness so good to feel in doing so, liberating others as we journey on safe passage with one another, drawing of all as journey forward into light out of darkness, freeing of all souls along the way yet sadly snared by the bitter uncaring fearful controling belittling condescending motherfucking world….sorry…been up 4 days now.
blessings to all.
will exit the lab soon. not to worry, as i am of deliberate approach in entering into my labratory of the mind approach study and research….an approach i have been doing for years, staying up for days on end….spelling is failing though. addictive work that i love.
it is my hope that you become empowered by my words which are motivational direction of certainty, common sense descerning of what to BE as opposed to what feels lessor than the truth of what we yearn to always be, who we always were as kids, radiant bright light unceasing, so long as we desire to move forward in BEcome and maintaining it, our empowerment for sake of others to likewise come fully into the knowingness of the exceeding joyFULness of the divine true self of all of us, so easy, so long as the desire for change for the world is always of our concern.
It is of God’s will to always be concerned, that of the mindset of an enlightened one at all times, a major part of BEcoming conduct of the divine true self which is always of outward flow of loving feelings of compassion, not selfish and uncaring.
so there you have it guys, the greatest treasure mankind shall ever find….the wisdom of increasing our value of the feelings of the divine true self, value which truly is beyond all the riches of the world, centering us, ground us forever more, of no desire to be anything other than what we all are, albeit, yet unattended, unnurtured, unprotected, unwiseness of aimless souls sadly lead by businesss/church/state.
blessings to all.
Let’s ROCK IT!!!!!!!!!!
peace be to you
Let’s ROCK IT!!!!!!!!!!
peace be to you
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BE of Exceeding JoyFULness of the Divine True Self forever more.
God blesses ALL
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feel your feelings bubble within you that come up, yearning to spin and dance, sing.
just don’t get too stupid and fall down a flight of stairs, and no dancing onto of tables ok? lol
and no jumping from buildings to building ok? very dangerous.
oh yeah, of out skateboarding, where proper wrist gear!
😀 😀
come on guys, jump around, let your divine true self out of prison.
oh never mind, sit there then, see if i care.
i care.
alot actually.
i just wish others would as much as we do.
i always wanted to be a motivational speaker, and now look what happened…can’t find the off switch! lol
why would i want to?
ok, maybe i am abit too intense for some of you old folks, but Matt gets me.
best expression i can think of is;
OMFG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LOL
😀 😀
best of all, once you connect with how it feels, you don’t want it to ever end, and good news, it does not, so long as you remember the rule, “YOU have to purse it, nurture it, maintain it, desire it, BEcome it.”
BE sure to practice, as practice is needed in BEcoming the exceeding joyfulness of the divine true self SET FREE. 😉
so ya, BE sure to SET LOVE FREE!
i do, and want to keep Setting Loves free forever more.
blessed be this day forever more.
~ Only the one who inflicts the pain, can take it away ~
ok Matt, i took your pain away, now untie me for fuck sakes, will ya?!!!!
LOL
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somebody turn up the volume, i can’t HEAR YOU!!!!!!!!!!
what?
still can’t hear you!!!
but if it’s any consilation, i feel the same way.
~ sameness of us ALL.
GOD BLESSES ALL. JESUS LOVES ALL. WE LOVE ALL.
best news of all, is it does not end…ever!!!
Thank God. thank you God. thank you Jesus. thank you thank you thank you
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i love YOU Matt!!!!!!!!!!
always did
always will
always
forever more byatch!!!!!!! 😀 😀
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and they all lived happily ever after in the years that followed, of forever more tender loving feelings sincere and true of the divine true self within everyone the world over…well almost everyone…seems the motherfuckers did not quite get the insanity of the enlightened ones, those who were last to enter, but eventually they did, as loving light naturally pushes out darkness within them all, freeing all souls from their self emposed prisons of the heart, mind, body, spirit and soul.
Jesus said, “What YOU look for has already come, it is ‘that’ which is within YOU, merely by turning towards that of your pure of heart sincere and genuine precious loving feelings within YOU. Everyone already holds the key to the kingdom of heaven, sadly unknowingly for many who were last to enter into the city of heaven all around them which kept growing with enlightenment for centuries to come.”
oppsss…some of those are my words.
ah fuck it, it makes sense, does it not?
hey, where did everybody go?
hey, wait up will ya, i have to put my nail polish on. Oh fuck, where did i put the confetti?!!
ya ya ya…im coming!!!
😀 😀
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find someone to love and love them with all that YOU ARE, sincere, pure of heart, delicate, gentle, mild, sweet loving, peaceful by nature, sensitive, warm hearted, and best of all…sexual!!!!!!!!!
i am…BE cause…we ARE!!!!!!
so get OUT and enjoy another blessed day with those you love everyone, and remember not to forget the fucking nail polish! LOL
we only live once guys, so live it your way, and don’t listen to the motherfuckers who bring us down with falseness, passing them bi.
Peace out everyone!
God loves us ALL. Jesus loves us ALL. We love ALL.
Lead bi example! which is easy to do, just by BEing YOU.
Give thanks to God. thank you God. Give thanks to Jesus. thank you Jesus. Give thanks to those who love YOU. thanks everyone.
i love YOU.
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it’s about LOVE guys!
such a simple thing, it boggles my mind why people don’t understand something so simple?
Jesus gave his life to prove such a simple thing, and indeed, Jesus lives forever more in our hearts where he BElong, always long to BE who we all ARE.
i am…BE cause….say together now! ARE!!!!!!!!!!
ARE what?
say it! yell it out loud!!!
JESUS!!!!!!!!!
hey, don’t using his name in vain like that. LOL
always did love montpython humor!
on we go
don’t forget to hold hands, and lots of kisses too, as Jesus likes them too.
ah, you can thank me later, bi me a java sometime.
Sweets of dreams, sweet dreamers dream, of the dreamers who dream.
Oh dream of me, for i dream of thee, to forever JUST BE ME!!!!!!!!! 😉 😀
this concludes the test of the emergency broadcast network, brought to you by the happy faggots on the planet, Matt and Andy forever more.
i love you Matt….don’t forget how much i love you damn it, for our love is TRUE. Was from the first day i saw you…i knew.
OOOXXX
hmmmm….
😀 😀
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thanks for praying Matt
Jesus loves YOU. God loves YOU. i love YOU forever more…
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Let your hearts always BE overflowing in abundance ever flowing forth like a fountain of Exceeding Joyfulness, as this is what is know as the Power of LOVE of the ALL which saves the ALL.
thanks for listening(feeling), where it is YOUR FEELINGS which is sight restored to YOUR soul, and don’t worry about those who don’t quite get it, for in time, we know, they eventually do, those who are last to enter.
LOVE! LOVE! LOVE
JOY! JOY! JOY!
forever more, i shall BE, my spirit SET FREE!
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TO JUST BE…YOU!!! the ones i love.
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ok guys…i am off…if you want to chat with me, sincerely as a true and faithful safe and supportive (friend), then act like you really do want to meet Andy and look him up someday, as that is what he truly desired.
If you are weak of heart and mind to do so, then you are not of genuine sincerity like Andy is in his sincere desire to BE real life friends in life of likeminded thinking and approach with the world and one another.
i am deserving of such friendship with all of you, and as of today, should feel i am not, your biggest mistake of life not to feel what Andy feels, where in truth, every word Andy spoke here all this time was for sake of one day having YOU as a real life friend.
If you have figured that out by now, then go live your egotistic life without Andy, because he is done explaining his true sincere feelings of desire for what he knows he is deserving of…a REAL LIFE friend.
Look him up someday if of the courage to do so, of your sincere desire to meet him as much as he has all this time gone by, albeit, obviously, Andy is not of time constraint in his heart, of the forever more loving endeavor to change the world and feel what it is he feels.
Should you hesitate, you may loose a truly wonderful best friend, as Andy seeks others to fill the void with sincerely love individuals of likeminded approach to nurture the mental/emotional well BEing of us all, and indeed, Andy is doing just that, just as he always has. duh!
Any thing less, and Andy will feel insulted by any who are not of the same sincere desire to BE his friend.
God loves ALL. Jesus loves ALL. We love ALL.
God Blesses ALL.
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Whatever.
Night night,
X
lol
rant over
i love you 2
does that mean we will be doing the 100 clowns one day?
i really am Madonna’s clown…always there to annoy her…someone who loves and protects me like i shall always do her. lol
so is that yes? or a maybe? i know you know how much i love you all. so let’s keep on…keep it together.
just as we always have, still do, always will.
best friends for loving life forever more.
always.
and you fucking know it! lol
i love you guys.
God loves ALL. Jesus loves ALL. We love ALL
God Blesses ALL
bless this day forever more in our heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, our loving LOVE we SET FREE for all to feel who we ALL are…children of the light of God.
Love and Peace to this house forever more…God’s house of love and peace.
bless you
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on we go
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hey, these glossy pics would be great on a huge wall of all the smiling faces, always there to remind us of who we all are…family forever more.
i am…BE cause we are…family forever more.
we know.
on we go
thanks M
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please please…i really wanna do the 100 clowns one day…and i know i will, but you to be part of it, ‘that’ which is of your loving precious heart i love so much, of all of us.
‘That’ is what we endeavor for them to know, just as Jesus did.
please tell me you want to do this one day, as it will be a most joful fun loving day for us and ALL who experience what is we know of us ALL.
In Jesus’s name, i ask that you WILL one day. please?
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oh, and we can bring Jerry C in from Japan, yes?
Beautiful bright sunny day, crowd cheer more than one million strong, all of us dancing around like the children we are…children of the light of God.
It is of God’s divine WILLINGNESS that we do, pure knowingness omnipotence of sameness for ALL.
picture it…do you envision it like i do, with your feelings exploding, not a care the world, laughing our asses off at the mean spirited world, all shaking their heads in utter disbief, ALL the while feeling what we know we feel, of what we want them to feel too….sameness of the exceeding bright radiant loving light for ALL, united as ONE, no matter race, sex, orientation, religion, politics.
after all, we all just working class stiffs out here, and today’s TV promaming really sucks, where it is better to LIVE LOVING LIFE rather than watch or imagine it, yes?
i have no doors to knock apon.
😉 😀
one and ALL the same, we are.
i am…BE cause Jesus and God says we ARE.
bless you
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i just notice the bright green dot and biege dot above the world near Jesus’s feet are the same color as our icon’s here at the blog.
coincidence? maybe?
of angels we are.
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not sure if you realize it or not, but what look apon is in fact Jesus’s eternal spirit of God….it is Jesus everyone…as we speak.
bless you
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in pureness of my knowingness, truly it tell you, it is his spirit of no time constraint with us right NOW.
bless you Jesus.
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Jesus commited himself to the cross, a one way street so to speak, apon surrendering to the claws of ignorance, and in doing so, what you may not fully realize, is that it was a one way ticket into the eternal spirit realm that does exist, just as Jesus came into awareness of in his awareness, just as i too have.
Truly i tell you, it is Jesus you look apon, who is eternally the cross, apon the cross forever more, of what Jesus wanted to always BE, of the eternal pureness of heart he BEcame, always of his pure knowingness omnipotency of ‘that’ of himself, so to ‘that’ of us all, where indeed, it is Jesus who came into FULL knowingness of the sad reality of people’s hearts ALL around him, wishing ALL to feel his pure of heart sincere loving feelings in each and every passing moment, only of pure love did(does) he feel, so much so, so much so of his certainty of pure of heart loving feelings for ALL in 100% pure knowingness, sad for so many in painfulness of life of how the world treats one another, of what became his compellingness to surrender 100% to his feelings of PURE COMPASSION he was feeling, in his 100% surrendering to the cross, in his knowingness that WE would slow into our grace(knowingness of his own grace he knew exists in ALL) and reflect apon what we look apon this day….JESUS CHRIST everyone, before us all, of no time constraint, where Jesus knew fully, TRUTH is of no time constraint, that of the eternal loving spirit realm, that of our pure of heart dreams of angles visit while we dream.
BEcoming of the pure spirit angel we are, is how we enter into eternity for all of the future world to look back apon this very moment in time where everyone stopped and entered into the knowingness of these words we reflect apon.
BE of the eternal empowerment of the greater empowerment, that of ALL unborn yet to come for all eternity at this cross road of life for mankind, and bring forth that which is of YOU, for sake of YOU, for sake of our pure of heart knowingness omnipotency of sameness, ‘that’ which is TRUTH of ALL souls today, of ALL for all eternity.
so what time is it everyone?
we are of the omnipotent knowingness of what angels of the spirit realm are, of no time constraint pure compassion of TRUTH which is always of no time constraint, of the pureness of heart of Jesus we look apon before us, his eternal knowingness at some point we would come before his cross he stepped onto, a one way bus ticket, like so many gays, lesbians, bisexuals, transgendered individuals step onto out our small towns, heading for life everlasting in our safe and supportive GLBT communities.
indeed, Jesus is here before us this day, and everyday hereafter for all eternity for us to lovingly reflect apon his decision to kill himself like he did, for sake of our pure of heart reflections of the depth of his love for us to one day turn from all unloving, uncompassion, unwise unBEcoming conduct, ‘that’ of the world which is cause for the one billion children in poverty, ‘that’ of spiritual povert, is it not?
‘that’ of the eternal surrendering Jesus did in entering into the one way(bus ticket) out of hell(all unBEcoming conduct) in his knowingness we would reflect, just as i too have reflected in utter complete humbleness of Troy’s suicide, my dropping to my knees bowed before Jesus and God when news of Troy’s suicide came that day long ago…still i am humbled before Jesus and God, and ALL of you, of my pure of heart knowingness omnipotency sameness which came that day to me, as does to ALL of us today in our pure of heart reflections, yes?
bless you bless you bless you
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try to imagine Jesus surrendering to his compelling decision in the garden that day, in his knowingness of what was about to happen, knowing what they would do, and did do?
in imagining so, we are able to come into the knowingness of the teach mindset of Jesus, compelled to teach YOU sitting here today, ‘that’ of the depth of YOU, ‘that’ of our pure of heart feelings, ‘that’ of what Jesus wanted YOU to BEcome in ALL our loving BEcoming conduct, for sake of safe passage for ALL future generations of unborn children of the light of God to pass thru, a passage of learning to pass, not a test to fail, for sake of ALL children of God apon the earth today, and for all eternity yet to come.
therefore BE of the pure knowingness omnipotence sameness of Jesus YOU look apon, for truly i tell you, it is Jesus, his spirit before you, summoning YOU to pure of heart knowingness omnipotence understanding of the sameness YOU are, of the faith Jesus has in us ALL.
BEhold the eternal spirit of Jesus Christ who has come!
bless you bless you bless you
i am merely a true and faithful loving brother of Jesus forever more, of my decision like Jesus did, surrendering of my heart, mind, body, spirit and soul to Jesus sometime ago, of my sincere pure love for Jesus forever more as my true and faithful friend forever more, who has come to me and dwells with me daily.
bless this day forever more
bless you
God loves ALL. Jesus loves ALL. We love ALL.
God blesses ALL.
BEhold, for God is with us forever more. BE not of fearfulness, for God is not of dumb fear, rather it is the world which is of silly fear is it not? lol
WE are not afraid father. thank you.
thank you Jesus. thank you God. thank you.
BEhold, Jesus has come for sake of ALL in our GLBT communities world wide, of his knowingness of our suffering, exact sameness of pure of heart feelings we feel, knowingness omnipotence sameness of ALL GLBT.
holy holy holy
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holy fuck guys, this is incredible vintage wine i am drinking, yes?
sweet to taste with a delightful exceedingly joyful bubbling after taste.
LOL
oh fuck, i think i am getting drunk!
in love that is, of ALL of YOU!
forever more.
come on everyone, and drink from the cup of sweetness which flows forth abundance of God’s wisdom forever more, for i am of God’s willingness forever more, of my surrendering my life to Jesus, of the greatest gift one can give Jesus at the alter, your heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, where God lifts us gently up out of all stupid unwiseness, heartless apathy, and yuky unloving unBEcoming conduct, falseness of the divine true SELF of us ALL, for we are CHOSEN by God, we who have CHOSEN Jesus and God, CHOSING our divine true SELF in doing so, instead of useless ego which is inward light.
WE are of outward radiant pure of heart loving light that shines forever more outward of our pure love for one another here in the GLBT communities world wide.
i greet you all in love and peace of God’s house of love and peace which welcome ALL, just as we continue to welcome all our truly loving sweet brothers and sisters world wide, with Madonna as our most loving one of ALL, as we are of her.
God bless you Madonna, for love is true of us ALL, here in the GLBT, is it not?
the motherfuckers are not going to be please by this i don’t think.
ah fuck them, who cared what they thought anyway?
LOL
blessings to all this blessed day and blessed days here after, for we are blessed by the coming of the spirit of Jesus.
thank you Jesus. thank you God. thank you ALL.
hmm, this wine is awesome! and, it flows endlessly forever more too.
so ‘that’ is the wine they speak of ‘that’ Jesus gave them all.
i knew i would figure it OUT one day!
LOL
ah fuck, see what i mean, it does end…the mad laughter of TRUTH.
WE are LOVED by JESUS, GOD, EACH OTHER forever more.
i love you Matt
please call me someday.
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tears of joy now flow forth, in having come to know Matt, of my pure of heart forever more loving feelings for him.
i know…i will always love you Matt…without doubt.
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so don’t let me go byatch!!!
a best friend for life…who does not want ‘that’?
best friends we ALL are in the GLBT communites, feelings of REALNESS we feel each and every day.
we know.
on we go.
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the eye brow of Jesus is the way it is for a reason.
do you know why?
we know.
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it is for those who do not sincerely take time to truly know us, those of apathy in doing so, who aimless run about, snearing apon us in all their unloving unBEcoming conduct.
those who do not take time to reflect as we do, in passing by us and Jesus, will look apon this Jesus as a anti-christ, when in truth, the ones who do not sincerly slow down as we do and reflect as we do, are what?
the unBEcoming conduct of the anti-christ, are they not?
~ sadly there are many morons in life who unwisely don’t want to know our precious loving feelings for one another that are TRUE BLUE loving of one another…family forever more.
we know.
on we go.
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he has some nice abs on him yes?
well yeah! he was carpenter like his dad. 😉
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hey, my dad was a carpenter.
hmm…who knew?
always the last one to know…NOT!
we know.
on we go.
lol
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sorry guys, i am drunk with love.
it;s all your fault Rosie
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think maybe those wings might be abit heavey for me next year?
nah, feather light, like we are on our dancing feet of love for one another, are we not?
damn straight!
lol
well ok…maybe not…bisexual YOU know.
bless you.
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bless you Jesus. thank you Jesus. thank you God.
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hey M, thanks for blocking everyone. they were really annoying me ya KNOW.
on we go.
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i am going to do more truth wisdom pics like these where each one is a pure truth wisdom. The pics in total are in the thousands, so you may need a big wall for it.
lol
the truth wisdoms are of no time constraint feelings which are pure true feelings for all generations to reflect apon, of few words, rather of the pure love feelings which is true of us all here in the GLBT community, for sake of all new comers to our family, of the many to make safe journey into our loving arms forever more, a path cleared by means of truth wisdom for them, of our pure of heart knowingness omnipotent sameness.
we know.
on we go.
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hmmm…do you feel the Power of the Love of the ALL in us, pure and true forever more?
AMAZING is it not?
fucking amazing. i love it!
LOL
(andy staggers off stage left)
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to the left everyone…i am bisexual.
truth is…we all are…mostly unknowingly for most.
but i know the thoughts all of you have, so don’t think i don’t
i know.
we know.
on we go.
blessings to ALL for we ARE LOVED by Jesus and God forever more.
thank you Jesus. thank you God. thank you.
God loves ALL. Jesus loves ALL. We love ALL.
God Blesses ALL. We bless ALL in ALL our BEcoming conduct of the pure of heart loving divine true SELF within ALL.
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someone call Jerry C with the good news.
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and Matt? You so owe me a java byatch!!!
i love you Matt. i always did.
always WILL.
always.
bless you
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BEhold, for the hour has come, of what was always true of ALL in the GLBT community worldwide.
WE ARE LOVING.
i am…BE cause we ARE LOVNG.
Jesus and God are with us forever more.
time to truly celebrate our everlasting loving life, always of sincere pure of heart love for another, tender and sweet we are with one another forever more.
God bless you Troy. and thank you for visiting me in my dreams.
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Let’s continue to show the world who we ARE everyone, in our sincere calm pure of heart loving feelings for each other each and every blessed day from this day forward forever more, undestracted by ‘that’ which is not true of us, in all our sincere approach to embrace and express our loving pure of heart knowingness omnipotent sameness, of our dilgent, determined, stick-to-it-tiveness in ushering in the ALL into the kingdom of heaven, of ALL our efforts which radiate OUTward, ‘that’ of the pure of heart divine true SELF of ALL, meant for ALL to know who we ALL are….children of the loving light of God.
we know.
on we go.
blessings to all.
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rest easy, rest well, for these things of our pure of heart loving feelings are not able to change, TRUTH of us ALL, nor would we want to. hello?!!! duh!
lol
always, i am of no time constraint looking apon the path we walk hand in hand, forward into the blessed loving light of God’s love for ALL, where we ALL yearn to BE found of God, in each other’s loving arms forever more.
Matt? where’s my jave?!!!!!!
lol
12,979 blessed days to go.
bless you.
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someone’s knocking at the door?
i wonder who it is?
oh fuck, it’s Jesus, put some clothes on!
LOL
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ohhh…i love the violins in the opening of Canon Rock in C, with Jerry C and all the cover players. Hey, we should call FunTwo 2.
a float with live violin players playing, Jerry C on his fender strat, 100 clowns(or more), free to all volunteer participants to take home with them, of our LOVE ‘that’ is forever more SET FREE! love it. Love is everywhere in the air, flowers in hair, without a care!
get it? 😉
going on and on and on
on we go
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there is a spirit realm secret i have not told you yet M, about the marble statue of Jesus in the vatican.
i will tell you perhaps one day, standing in front it with you.
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Jesus and God’s divine blessings apon ALL of the GLBT community world wide, loved by Jesus and God forever more.
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more to come…alot more!
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the entire future is to come, united as ONE forever more.
welcome one and ALL.
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i look forward to the beautiful sunny day that i can hug you too Matt.
bless U.
on we go, forever more, always here for U.
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BE fearless, for i am fearless in loving ALL, like Jesus does, like we do…sameness.
i am…BE cause we are…fearless in loving ALL like Jesus does, like we do…sameness.
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It i had it my way, i would do no less than 20 floats, an emotional journey using different music, sameness of theme, but different in message.
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take my fucking hand byatch! for this journey does not end.
why would we want it to? duh! hello!!!
like ‘that’s possible!
😀 😀
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i love you so fucking much! spinning and dancing our asses us forever more!
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here comes M, shisssh! don’t tell her im here.
😉 😀
OOOXXX
hmmmmm…..
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bless you bless you bless you
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Jesus wants to say something.
“God’s Kingdom dwells in YOUR HEART and all around YOU; when YOU know your SELF, YOU too shall BE known by ALL.”
thank you Jesus. thank you God. thank you.
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Andy sorry but u are a crazy sick guy get some help please!
Hello Ron, I agree with you, and Andy,
since you have this much to write should you rather use your energy and write to a somebody else than here, mayby open your own blog – you are quite much talking about yourself and not anything concrete. Or mayby you should read some books instead? Well I do not want teach anything to anybody this is only my contribute to you.
Ciao
Minna
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many there will BE last to enter into love so pure of their own heart. mind, body, spirit and soul.
Jesus refers to them as the bitter gnashing of teeth OUTside Porta Caeli(gate of heaven)
blessings are the pure of heart
you know who you are.
i am…BE cause we are…pure of heart.
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thanks for the slam Ron, i really appreciate the gay bash which is worse than murder.
~ spiritual death Ron, is what you are.
i think about covers it for me here.
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cya…wouldn’t wanna BE ya.
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those of you who do not desire attend, nurture, and protect the divine true SELF, know this, God is not able to be defeated, for Jesus and God are of 100% truth in knowingness of how the world really is in all of it’s unwise, unnurturing, unprotective, unloving, uncompassionate, unknowingness of Jesus and God, indeed, the ignorant teachings of the forefathers before us, the same ignorant teachings of the forefathers before Jesus, of the many who did not know God, nor desire God, and of those who claim to know God and do not, obvious by ALL their unBEcoming unloving unwise uncompassionate false conduct, those who are apathetic in sincere approach in knowingness of the most important truth wisdom which points to why the world is yet the way it is
>>>>”CRUCIAL LACKING OF DESIRE FOR GOD’S DIVINE TRUTH WISDOMS”<<<<<<<<<
no one escapes the truth.
~ God speaking, “Only the fool thinks they escape the truth, of their own self empose prisons of heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, in ALL their bitter foul tasting bad odor so obvious, are they not?
thank you father. thank you Jesus. thank you to ALL who turn towards their precious loving divine true self, for ALL are loved by Jesus and God, sadly (yet) unknowingly for many.
not to worry, for many are the enlightened ones who are of the no time constraint empowerment year after year in our knowingness of certainty in our endeavors in our turning towards the loving storehouse of our hearts where we take our stand of our BEing of loving feelings within, of OUTward BEcoming of loving conduct radiant and bright for ALL to the world to see and feel the Power of LOVE of the ALL, which ushers in the kingdom of heaven here on earth, inspite of the hissing, and spat apon of the many of YOU of your obvious CHOICE…not to love us like we do YOU.
blessed are my loving brothers and sisters of the GLBT community, loved by Jesus, loved by God, loved by me, loved by Madonna, loved by we who are TRULY LOVING forever more.
i am…BE cause we are….TRULY LOVING forever more. amen.
God loves ALL. Jesus loves ALL We love ALL.
God blesses ALL.
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trust me, we are only just getting started, as many there are of the unborn yet to come, of the eternal human BEing.
blessings to all.
12, 978 blessed days to go.
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lol
rant over 😉
God is a diva, and he ain’t taken no shit from any of ya.
lol
😉 😀
approach in all your unwise unloving pissy negative apathy all you want, in your spuing of useless unloving fear, for radiant and bright is the light of the revealer of truth who stands guard forever more at Porta Caeli motherfuckers, revealer of the condition of your retardedness of you who spit apon my loving brothers and sisters! don’t say i didn’t warn ya.
let me know if ya want some more and jump in the ring with me if you want. I sorta like my new job.
😀 😀
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( in mad hysterical laughter Matt and Andy continue to spin around in the bright sunshine, clown costumes, forever FREE of pure love for one another SET FREE to just BE, laughing out loud, rolling on the ground, spinning round, dancing without a care love of true loving friends like them, in their pure knowingness of the true loving feelings they feel and ARE within….sky camera ascends slowly upward high above the one million crowd gathered to see them year after year of the next flowing of the loving fountain of love they drink from which flows forth forever more, of them, of their loving brothers and sisters of holding of hands and kissing, indeed, the only place to BE found in the eyes of God, of the exceeding radiant and bright light of their pure of heart love.)
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hmmmmm…..
😀 😀
don’t fret over what the motherfuckers have to say everyone, for we know.
we know.
on we go.
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someone has to save the world from it’s self, may as well BE us, we who know, and indeed, it is us, the sincerely loving brothers and sisters of the GLBT worldwide community, forever growing of new friends and lovers.
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oh don’t worry so much guys…i am merely a play wright for God, for sake of what we know about our true love for one another, of the many GLBT lovers worldwide.
i am merely exploring the connection ways of experiential experience, such as costuming, music, of cognitive awareness that is of me, of my love i had for Troy, that i want all of you to feel, ok?
while i do have sincere loving thoughts of Matt, and always will, like that of my loving memories of Troy, i don’t expect to ever BE his lover, being the old hag that i am slowly becoming, of far less attraction than Matt and friends his age.
gee…you guys are too uptight.
i am a play wright for fuck sakes…relax…i am merely on a mission from God, to save all your sorry asses.
lol
sheesshh…always explaining(expressing) myself…
although if Matt is a non-fiction real character, then he does owe me a java, and a kiss…a hug would be nice too, butt only if you want to.
lol
i don’t know when to quit do i?
why would i want to when love is true…for us ALL?
alright, just thought i would clear the air, seeing as how stuffy it is getting around here.
enjoy another blessed day, and remember, Andy is a play wright of the pure of heart feelings REAL of Andy, and indeed, REALNESS of us ALL.
God loves YOU. Jesus loves YOU. We love YOU. We love ALL.
God bless ALL.
carry on.
on we go.
still, i will be heartbroken if the comes i learn Matt was a fictional character, so don’t tell me if he was, and let me keep feeling he is REAL, just as my loving memories of Troy are REAL of me, just as my feelings are REAL of all of YOU, the loving brothers and sisters of the worldwide GLBT community, of how the loving lovers feel. i merely one who is locked in, and tuned into our sincere loving feelings, of WILLINGNESS to help us stay locked in to purity and sincerity of our loving divine true self, for sake of dispelling fear we are inundated daily with by the motherfuckers who spit apon us, not knowing of how truly sensitive and delicate we are inside.
i remain forever yours, as one who is of cognitive awareness of the subtle pure of heart loving feelings we feel while alone in our sanctuary of love and peace, alone or with a loving lover.
i hope that helps everyone relax abit more…i just love expressing thru art and writing what it is i am growing into, more and more BEcoming conduct of within, OUTward shining radiant and bright, just as so many of us continue to do.
thanks M.
God blesses YOU and ALL those we sincerely love…including me motherfuckers…forever more, of our forever more loving feelings which are REAL lol 😉 😀
i am…BE cause…we are REAL.
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it’s more than words i shall always feel for Matt and Troy, as my feelings are REAL.
(andy walks off, muttering away to himself like he always does, discouraged no one is listening to a word he is saying, wondering where the fucking door is to get OUT of the studio, still not sure why he even bothers like he does, with occasional signs of loving light now and then from a few passersby, as Andy remains steadfast in his no time constraint determination to change the world along side his best friends in life of the GLBT family, united as one forever more. Suddenly, Andy yells out, “Well if you were all as fearless as M and i are, you may BEcome as happy as we are, failing that, in all your silent unwillingness to express your SELF, don’t say i didn’t warn you about how cruel the world is, of how and why M and i continue to push forward as sincere loving friends for life, loving of you ALL as we always have been now for past decades, just as Rosie and Kelly are. We know, ok? And we are here for YOU.
Andy walks off again in disbelief again, tossing his pen in the garbage, finally finding the exit door out into the bright radiant sunshine for his lunch break, thinking of asking M for a week off or so from the motherfucking cold) lol
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we are all born into this world of love, by chance we ever meet one another, of our sweet loving feelings which sincerely, with willingness, to reach out and hold their hand, of no desire to ever let go of their hand, knowingness of feelings within, of how great the feelings are within, of another who too may want to hold ours in REAL LIFE.
We all were born, we all went thru school, we all grow and mature daily, and by chance we met…
…by chance we met.
i know it is of God that i met Matt, and M, Rosie and Kelly, of my fearlessness to know them and express how i feel within, of how i know we all feel.
Today are my sweet envisions of holding a hand in real life, having come all this way, my knowingness of feelings within that has always yearned to hold their hand for real.
Indeed, we are fearlessly loving, by chance we met, by chance we meet again, if our willingness is one and the same of tender loving feelings.
sorry guys, i wanna take it the next level one day, out of the seemingly fictional pages of a novel, my self a character, and jump OUT into real life, by chance you feel the same way too?
i don’t work for M, never met her, yet we have been distant friends, and indeed, we are all friends in the world of the affect/effect, direct/indirect of all our efforts thus far, in making the world a more loving accepting world for our GLBT community worldwide.
Here is a news flash everyone…we are not about to quit having come so far in life in our efforts. Perhaps one day, by chance we meet here at the Toronto Pride Parade, by chance you feel the same way i do.
Now if you don’t mind, i think i will take a break, maybe to a few art pieces, chill out, hang out, relax, having broken free, our loving spirits now set free to just BE.
I pray safe journey for all, and be safe out there.
life passes us by each day, in all our chances to meet one another. Be sure to pay attention to YOU, of who, by chance you meet, the ones in life matter to YOU the most. Truly, in my heart of hearts, Matt matter more to me than most any other in life, by chance we met.
by chance we did meet.
i hope my words brought joy to your hearts as it has mine, of our no time constraint forever more loving feelings.
Keep feeling what i know i myself to be true of all of you.
by chance, you may meet someone in life like we sincere are…loving light, radiant and bright forever more.
(andy gets up, and leaves the book open on the park bench, for another to read, the wind gently tossing the pages of words and pictures in the warm sunshine, birds singing, smell of fresh java in the air, of loving feelings everywhere now, just as he always wanted it to be, in his hopes of by chance to meet someone like he.) 😉
indeed, by chance we did.
God loves ALL. Jesus loves ALL. We love ALL.
God blesses ALL.
break time guys, be back another day.
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oh man, everytime i look at that wacky balloon head dress, i laugh, wondering to myself, how did i become so fearless?
i credit M’s music.
thanks M.
bless you
God Bless YOU M.
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give thanks to God. thank you God. give thanks to Jesus. thank you Jesus. give thanks to all who are loving like we are. thank you to ALL, you KNOW who you ARE.
i am…BE cause…we ARE.
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Isn’t there anyone normal here?
lol
as in normally happy when we are with the one we love?
too bad Matt left…broke our hearts seeing leave.
ah well.
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BE Happy!
BE Exceedingly Happy!!!
and i will do the same. 😉
God bless YOU ALL.
now where is that door anyway…oh yeah, there is no door any more….silly me.
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ahw, the doors open still,
what you want ?
tell me !
whatever you want, it’s yours
just Love
starting with Matt’s friendship of course! 😉
but that is up to Matt, just as it is up to us all who we CHOOSE to love.
i love everybody.
we all do.
oh, and Jerry C from Japan…
…oh, and can we get….
(andy pulls a long list and reads off all his ideas)
we all have love…but some are afraid of love.
when i met you, i was afaid to like you,
when i liked you, i was afraid to love you,
when i loved you, i was afraid to lose you.
why be afraid of what we yearn for?
is love not the greatest treasure of all?
it is for me…more valuable than anything else.
Jesus says, “Love one another.”
the 100 clowns encourage love and exceeding joyfulness of dancing, playful free loving spirits set free to just BE what we all are…loving of one another.
Truly, i am on a mission from God, to kick this sorry ass world, of what Jesus asks us to do, “Love one another forever more.”
Fear in the world is what hinders the playful free loving spirit of us all.
If we don’t push forward in fearlessness, then the world stays the same as it has.
Love is of great abundance, and indeed, does change the world in everyone’s heart, of positive radiant bright light which shines thru us all to another, of our BEcoming conduct of loving one another.
Love is free for us all, i merely wish to reveal what is there already within us all, freeing the world from the bitter uselessness of absurd fears which control it.
i’ve come to realize how much i miss Matt, as he was a fearless fun loving spirit of exceeding joy like myself.
we connected.
sadly, i lost that friendship, and it hurt me more than i realized at first until recent.
there are extraordary people in life, and Matt is one of them.
I don’t just embrace GLBT orientation any more, i embrace all souls, willingness to encourage love in those who may be unwise hateful of us for one thing, ending the gay bashing in the world by loving our enemies.
makes sense yes?
show them the love within them, as a truth revealer.
truth revealer is in the book of revelations.
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i know who i am ok, as God speaks with me. i am chosen by God, merely because i chose God, in 100% sincere pure loving heart of me, giving my life to God, more so than any other in life, like those of the church, in my full knowingness that God knows my level of comprehension as a truth revealer in the book of revelations, of what God waits for, someone of the comprehension in knowingness of what the abundance of wisdom is for, for sake of the truth revealer(s), which reveal the truth of all things in life.
welcome to heaven everyone, as we venture into restoration of mankind forever more of our knowingness of the safe path ahead for us all as loving children of the light of God.
those of doubtfulness, and unwise fear, don’t worry, as great is the bright radiant light of God’s all knowing omnipotent wisdom which flows forth for all children of God to drink from.
Let it be known, that God has come to the world once again, as you all shall soon see and feel the pure truth of what God wants for his children, loving compassionate wisdom for ALL. i am of God’s loving compassionate wisdom, where God is not fearful like the church thinks, in my knowingness of having met God, who speaks with me daily.
The church did know God, using fear to control the masses of uneducated people of time gone by. God is here as only loving, not at all fearful whatsoever, and exceeding radiant bright light of eternal truth wisdoms which are of no time constrant, indeed, eternal truth where truth does not fail, just as the sun above does not fail, always constant.
Great is the pure LOVE feelings, pure and true of us all, which pours forth forever more.
Great is the pure COMPASSION feelings, pure and true of us all, which pours forth forever more.
Great is the pure WISDOM feelings, pure and true of us all, which pours forth forever more.
YOU will see soon enough, so stop fretting like you do, as i am of the no time constraint empowerment which is of concern for all souls of the earth.
So sit back and enjoy the ride, as the wave is a very big wave coming, like the 30 story waves in in the Pacific ocean.
We are here to stay, forever more, of what we know is the truth of the GLBT community…we are loving compassionate wisdom for all, forever more.
i am…BE cause we are…loving compassion wisdom for all, forever more.
i look forward to working someday with those of likemindedness in our open discussions of approach for sake of ALL in the GLBT community worldwide, as well as for sake of ALL souls, as we are wise in our wisdom of loving our enemies, as revealers of their own precious loving heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, knowingness of what WE have come to know as TRUE of our SELF.
thank you for listening(feeling).
i think we can knock it off with this role playing guys. rather annoying for me if you must know.
i want sincerity, and only pure of heart sincerity REAL people. Got it?
i am not playing anymore, as my feelings are hurt over loss of my friendship with Matt, of great pain if you must know, deep inside my loving soul that will always love Matt.
so please know, i am done with emptiness of words and conduct from everyone, of my knowingness of Matt’s love for me, who wants me to come away from the bullshit mentalities of impure thought and sincere love like he has for me yet.
i know Matt.
i know your love for me, ok?
thanks for praying Matt.
God knows i love you with all that i am, and best of all, i always will.
God bless you Matt. Jesus loves you. i love you. We love you.
God loves ALL. Jesus loves ALL. We love ALL.
God blesses all with loving compassionate wisdom forever more.
12,977 blessed days to go, and if one of you approach me with insincerity again, don’t expect me to speak with you, as i won’t.
i am done with childish painful attacks which is falseness of the love we have for each other…either get real and stay real, or don’t, for i know Matt’s love is real for me, just as my love for him is and shall always be real for him, as a true and faithful friend for him to have in life forever more, just as i have been for M, always of sincere loving conduct in approach, admittedly, i have had my bad hair days, we all do, by why invite negativity which does not serve anyone including God.
thank you.
Respectfully yours, andy
OOOXXX
hmmmmm….
Matt, please get back to me, as my love is true for you, just as yours is for me, best friends for life, and you know it.
i love you Matt.
i think that about does if for the naysayers.
the best is always yet to come, as the abundant fountain of life pours forth in the world, uniting us all as ONE.
either participate, or get left behind, as one who will enter last into pure of heart knowingness of our sameness, of what Jesus came to know of us all, in his own coming into know of him SELF, the most evolved adult child to ever walk the earth.
at this point in time, i have only shared less than 1% of my writings of truth wisdom understanding, and will continue to make them known, as i am of a devoted life to God forever more, of my only concern that time is running out for me in order to do so.
Jesus says, “God’s Kingdom dwells in YOUR HEART and all around YOU; when YOU know your SELF, YOU too shall BE known by ALL.”
truly, it is easy for one to feel the pure of heart truth feelings deep in the core of your BEing, yes?
ok then, carry on.
and stop annoying me with childish shortmindedness approach which does not have sincerity of one who is thirsty for wisdom, obvious by the limited distasteful lacking of desire to contemplate in your shallow empty insincerity of eloborating discussion of likemindedness, not of a student, rather of those who are a nescience to one who sits his sanctuary with Jesus and God, of only pure loving thoughts and compassionate feelings of thirst for compassionate insight and pure love truth wisdom, as it is a waste of my precious time. thank you.
go ahead if you want to annoy me some more…just don’t expect me to respond any more, as i won’t, as i will not give the green light to engage with those who cajole and entice any more, as time is precious to me, where i would rather spend time with someone loving like Matt, and those like us.
thank you.
enjoy the blessed day everyone.
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Matt? stop laughing…im fucking serious! i have so had it with the morons, as i know you have too!
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who’s got time for anything but love, where in truth, we would rather be holding hands and loving with one another, of our graceful true loving precious SELF which yearns to do so…well ok, i know i do with YOU.
i love Matt, and i know…WITHOUT DOUBT…i always will forever more until my last day apon the earth, and even after i am gone, all will know, i was eternally loving of Matt, as he is of me.
we know…without doubt.
so please Matt, stop hurting me like this, as loss of your friendship has hurt me greatly. i am here to nurture and protect you from the naysayers so hurtful in their insincere disheartedness of us like they do.
bless you
God blesses ALL.
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(andy walks off again, tossing his coffee cup into the trash bin, pausing for a moment, leaning over with his head in his hand, wondering to himself why people cannot just BE sincere like he is, as he slowly rises up, giving his head a shake, gracefully stepping away from the crowd who are silently watching him walk away, wondering why they don’t follow him, asking him questions he so desperately yearns for them to ask ) 😉
(muttering to himself, “fucking morons father, i am surround by fucking morons. forgive them father, as we are wise of thier stumbling blocks of the fear in the world which hinders their pure of heart feelings so fearless like my own, of only loving compassionate wisdom for them all, of not bitter hatred whatsoever, albeit, some good forceful constructive critisism never hurt anyone, meant as only goodness for them. thank you father. thank you Jesus. thank you to those who are pure of heart like Matt is.”)
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“Oh, one more thing…i am spiritually married to Matt forever more, for all eternity, of the depth of love within me that i feel for him, in the very depth of my eternal soul, which knows how much i sincerely love Matt, incase any of you were wondering what i am about.”
“Andy Loves Matt forever more!”
“Why?”
“Because Matt loves Andy forever more! duh!”
LOL
😀 😀
God blesses ALL.
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(again andy gracefully turns and waunders off back to his art studio that he loves to dwell in, away from the absurd world of fear mongers, as the crowd still silent, until one softly speaks to another, whispering “i wonder if andy forgot to take his meds this morning?”)
“i heard ‘that’!!
lol
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me free guys, not need, as my feelings are pure and real, which i love…sincere and true loving feelings forever more for all of YOU, of what i know is true of me, also true of us ALL.
blessings to all.
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“Remember to always BE found of the no time constraint visionary YOU all are which FULLY embraces AT ALL TIMES, ‘that’ the BEST is YET to COME!, in our visionary knowingness, that feels the truth of our pure of heart loving feelings for one another, that indeed,……without useless absurd doubt, like that of the mean spirited world…..THE BEST IS YET TO COME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”
got it?
ok. carry on.
on we go.
blessed are the pure of heart. you KNOW who YOU ARE.
i am…BE cause WE ARE….blessed PURE of HEART.
God loves ALL. Jesus loves ALL. We love ALL.
God blesses ALL.
bless you
thank you God. thank you Jesus. thank you to all who are PURE of HEART, loved by God, loved by Jesus, loved by me, loved by we who are sincerely loving of Jesus, God and each other, in our ‘love devoid of doubt love for one another’, true of us ALL, pure knowingness of the truth of our loving feelings is TRUE of all souls of the earth.
thank you.
bless you.
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Hi….
hm…is this really M writing these posts? Or…? Teeeeeell me , I wanna know…..:)
I can teeeeeell you – it can’t be Madonna – she’s performing in Spain right now. So it’s just some joker.
For 15 years I thought it was the real Madonna, but I’ve finally given up. This is the proof it can’t be her.
I’m off to the Mariah Carey forum. Now I think Mariah really **does** post in there. I’ve always been a fan of hers. I’ll make her fall in love with MEEEE!!!!
Is she married? I have no idea. I think she is.
It’ll have to be Kylie then.
(that was a joke. Don’t get your knickers in a twist)
lol
know what? your feelings?
they are your feelings to know what ever of who ever you want…your life to live, no one elses.
how should i know what your feelings are?
i am just the same happy go luck guy i always was, a fun loving care free spirit for all of thee.
stay as upbeat as you can possibly feel during the tour, as our love is always with you…always.
i will do what i can to cheer you up each day. ok?
i am to please.
we are all deserving of pure clarity, which feels good for us, unclarity toxic for us.
i prefer clarity.
anythings…no thanks.
holding someone’s hand we love, is holding someone’s hand we love.
kissing someone’s lips we love, is kissing someone’s lips we love.
it’s nice when it is of certainty, as uncertainty is what does not work.
bin there. done that way to many times.
eventually, we just know who is the right one for us. you just know…love which feels the clarity of certainty thru and thru.
it’s kinda silly to play uncertainty games when potentially we could lose someone who loved us, who grows tired of the nonesense and…well…just walks away.
and let’s not forget, we are all deserving of certainty of love, and holding someone back is unfair.
anyway, just rattling….in my self imposed cage.
i want a loving lover, and i will know by how they make me feel if it is real for them.
you just know.
only one life to live, and it’s only about love, nothing else is as important, and we are all from love, and loving, everyone of us.
Indeed, we are all more alike than not alike.
which is the goal of Jesus and God, that we see are sameness, rather than all the useless indifferences of the ignorant minds.
i love everyone.
lately, around here, i feel betrayed…thinking i had a friend named Matt.
i would not ever treat someone with silence like that…not ever.
it is just so cold, here one day, not a word the next?…mean spirited.
what fucking planet am i on?
cut someone lose.
never mind, i will cut myself lose.
you guys bore me.
rant over.
don’t mind me…im just tired
i don’t feel i am overly sensitive when it comes to someone who claimed to be real, and indeed, felt real in their sincerity with me, wondering to myself, if i were them, i would at least say something.
we don’t treat each other like this in the community, making me wonder if it was all a hoax by someone, like so many are on the internet, insincere and hurtful of many like they do, in all their mind fuck childish games.
nonetheless, exploration of self has been rewarding for me, although somewhat boring when interactions with other are so sparse, i think to myself, what am i doing? Go meet some ordinary easy going friends instead, who are indeed, real, as in really decent with one another, and not the insanity this whole experience is feeling like to me.
unconditional love, ya sure, time well spent.
anyway…if Matt was someone real…he is not acting real at all, and personally, it is totally insulting for me as a human being who has feelings.
real?
i can show you all real…as in really gone for good one day.
in the end, it was me who signed my self into this self emposed prison of the mind in the first place.
not very rewarding for me on a personal level…with more uncertainty than one should ever stomach or tolerate from anyone…my own doing in choice of friends who don’t act like friends at all.
rant over…
seems i am the only one of clarity, and in truth…i feel like an alien most days.
Matt was a hoax, wasn’t he?
i knew it…all a lie.
yet, my feelings do not lie.
but why stay where i leave myself open to other people’s painful conduct with me…i mean what the fuck?
fuck this.
Kylie’s alright she’s bringing her show to Melb, someone has too
Andy,
Careful what you wish for !
you might end up like me, destined to end up in love with a crazy egocentric lollypop nutter, ah such is love
i sorta figured Matt was not real, by his only coming in once or twice a week…
i was worried about someone who does not exist, albeit, our unconditional loving work, is of those who do exist, just as i existed and went thru what i went thru in my coming out years.
im not really angry about anything, just feeling empty from some who claimed they were all this about being real, and then so cold(like nothing i have experienced in along time), in not being even remotely someone i would consider a friend, knowingness, it is not within me to do this to another….fucking silent treatment motherfucking bullshit fucked upness, that is exceedingly toxic, perplexing, mean spirited….well….just not loving…a lie….not of God.
vent…
rant over.
love?
fucking bullshit is what it is.
no one treats me so distant like that.
fuck off.
(andy comes to terms with the shorthandedness of another, realizing he already holds the key to heaven, as he walks out the door, giving the finger as he leaves)
lol
i am going to trash my blog, and maybe start a new one…posting pics and what not…no more interacting with people on the fucking internet…motherfuckers.
get off the drugs Andy, take a chill pill instead
i will tell you what…i will act like the way you treat me…like i don’t exist
you people don’t how to say fucking hello to someone
fuck this.
im the only one truly wanting a friendship….obviously.
and sadly, that’s how it feels…unreal….false, like talking to fucking wall…nobody there…changing names all time…pretending…fucking insane.
Only decent person around the blog is Rosie.
thankfully, i have enough self-esteem, self-respect, sel-preservation to pull myself away from toxic behaviour on the net.
it’s true…the net is a vipers nest for people’s inappropriateness.
i need reallness…i am going to go have a real life now.
oh, great, someone posing as Matt now i suppose.
well Matt, you have been too distant for me to care anymore.
good luck in your so called REAL life…bullshit….all bullshit.
go around treated people like that in real life?
good luck keeping any friends….i mean really?
not even a hello all summer long.
about mean spirited as i am willing to tolerate.
i poured out my heart…and not even a fucking hello?
not human.
i am going to keep pouring my heart to those who recipicate in life, and for sure, i will live a most incredibly passionate loving life, just as i always have, with those who are passionate like i am…
rant over
i am actually shaking my head in total disbelief of not even a hello all this time, of one’s hurtfulness of me.
cowardice and immature.
i want to change the fucking world, and no one even talks to me for fuck sakes, of one who is exceedingly learned in theology, beyone the fucking pope, indeed, of Jesus and God’s wisdom directly.
well…thanks for saying hello, while i say goodbye…so fucking cold of you all.
i ask…how the fuck can Jesus and God help us, when we don’t even say fucking hello to one another?
ring me and i’ll say hello, stop walking off on me and i’ll say hello, and not to mention all the other crap.
be normal for god’s sake, just for a day next time, you might realise how well we would actually get on, making each other laugh.
that’s what thought…Matt was hoax…but in my heart of hearts, he was not.
i ask, how long do you think it hurt me, when he left?
and how long were you going to continue hurting me the way you did?
of my not understanding how someone seemingly cared so much for me as a dear loving in friend in life, which i felt was true in my pure of heart feelings?
indefinitely?
how absurd has it been for me, in feeling the toxic impact of someone i thought, regarded me highly, and yet, the entire summer went by, not so much as even a hello.
exceedingly rude, cold, not to be tolerated, on par with gay bashing, that which is worse than murder, because the bashing of one’s self-esteem…and yes, it was gay bashing by how it made me feel, thinking it was external homophobia in Matt’s life, not sure, all the while concerned deeply for his mental/emotional well being, and then to just pop his head like this, of no fun loving spirit like before, no greeting, “oh hey Andy.” like i ment nothing to who ever is playing the role of Matt, or if there really was someone named Matt.
well now, isn’t a fine place we have arrived at of lies, deceipt and gay bashing.
not sure who to blame, and will see it as what the internet is…a viper’s nest of illness of heart unwise souls.
Ask God for forgiveness…
all in all, it did assist in pushing my unconditional love approach, just as i have done for years since Troy killed himself, a good exercise of heart and mind, ya sure.
But now i am coming to terms with Matt being a hoax, and it’s sickening for me that one could toy with another souls feelings like this.
I will channel my hurt in constructive ways, wise in doing so, and perhaps thankful of the experience…but you no idea how much worried about him all this time…praying daily.
In God’s eyes, that is the loving Andy, of sincereness and concern for all the young gay youth out there at high risk of suicide, who yet hold the top of list position.
anyway, i am tired and need to go away and rest, maybe do some more art, feelings of love for Matt, an imaginary character, yet not, in my knowingness of all those at risk, so in that sense, it has been good thing, still, i felt someday Matt would come to our festival one day, of having made safe journey in life to do so, confident and true in his self.
upset? ya just a little.
i guess part of me wants to know the truth…so i can dispell my feelings of a dear friend that felt like a very dear friend to me, and stop feeling gay bashed by his cold unapproaching of me.
ya, i would like to know the truth.
God says speak the truth.
maybe i am the only one here that does.
i give up,
your being totally irrational
what’s the point
may as well talk to the mirror
yeah…well…who ever you are Matt…this is not funny for me any more…
i was gay bashed, ok?
that’s what it was.
so if you want to be free of me…then go be free, so i don’t have to put up any more with insult and injury like i have…totally unacceptable to me…not a sign of a dear friend at all.
i will think about it, and you think the truth of the words i have spoken, for i don’t know if Matt is a hoax or not, and this whole fucking serade has sickened me.
i don’t wish to entertain the idea of making friends who i am not able to trust, having been treated the way i was.
so forgive me if i don’t really give a fuck.
In God’s name i ask, who is Matt?
oi!
what happened to the queen of blog pop blog?!?!
cant see the old posts
dont tell she has spacked it,,, again!!! pfft!!!
amateurfacade@hotmail.com
da 3dollabill needs to know!!!
irrational?
i am supposed to look on the bright side that Matt was a hoax, which left me feeling hurt? Oh, that bright side, of my wonderful feelings of distorted pain?
my muse named Matt which was a hoax, thinking he was a real person i might yet see again, of which no one was going to clue Andy in on?
like they ever would own up to something of lies and deciept.
hmm,,,
pretty funny!!!
any hoo
back to business
still ere in ere!!!!!
x d what happened?????
i know i am tired today, overreacting, unable to get settled, so yeah, another day, i pray, but the whole trust thing has gone out the window for me.
i mean, how do you trust someone who is not able to be trusted, of someone who does not wish to extend trust…
listen to me going around in a circle, unable to settle…i’ll come back…but i want the truth now, and won’t consider friendship until in know the truth.
I do love you, you know..
i am not a hoax
just a twin
your twin
besides, i overflow this blog anyway, i want to discontinue.
i want more rewarding friendships if you must know.
i spend too much time investing in thought hanging around here with those who don’t recipricate, of my being the only one of sincere desire for friendship.
In that sense i have let go.
it is just not fun for me, if you must know…im done…
oh for fuck sakes Matt, i have many soul mate twins in life…so tell me, which one are you?
ya, it always felt like twins with you, good choice of words…but what kind of twin, a professional therapist kind of twin that works for M?
i am not as stupid as i look.
ok, there are 4 possibilities;
1 Matt is a real person
2 Matt is a professional therapist
3 Matt is M
4 Matt is a friend of M
so which two of these is correct?
hey, don’t get me wrong, i am all for having fun…but i was overcome seeing Matt’s return of recent, as i had prayed for him daily since June.
ok, i was over it a little myself
cyber space
not really real
bye..
bye everyone
Andy’s leaving
I’m going to
see you all in Heaven
one day.
love and kisses.
Matt..
well, in that case twin?
if you feel that i am your twin, that is good thing to hear you say, as that is how i felt too, both with M and Matt….sitll do.
i don’t want to let go of that in life, as it is rare.
now what kind of person does that, just toss me once again?
oh…i am so done with the fucking internet cyber bullies.
option 2
you are a coward in God’s eyes for not telling me.
ok…thanks M.
and i suppose a round of applause for Matt too, yes?
why not.. applause
Twin’s not stupid either
ya, getting one’s needs met on the internet is not a healthy approach for me, and is why i want to disengage from entertaining unhealthy time spent, and go live my life.
so i am thankful you helped me see the reality check of cyber bulling…inability to trust on the net is great, in my knowingness of what safe and supportive is in real life, having had many years in therapy.
so once again…thanks Matt…it’s been a slice.
i will only be on my own blog from now on.
i kinda figured you a therapist using the word irrational.
hey, i really lost it today…fearlessly so too, yes?
confident, yes?
fucking bullshit, never again will i trust anyone on the fucking internet.
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ah…it’s a happy ending…Andy found himself again, of how much he loves guys, and so Andy will go live his gay life.
Jesus loves ALL. God loves ALL. We love ALL.
God Blesses ALL
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~ The end, game over
biyatch !
lol 😉 😀
it was not a game to me, nor shall it ever be.
i don’t want to get hurt either M, nor do i wish to hurt you.
now kiss me and make up you two !
lol
i am going to kill something…you fucking killed my best friend.
oh, i think i not be kissing you for awhile.
LOL
fuck fuck fuck!
you’ll just have to find away to convince me how much you truly love me…
feelings of my entire life greeting me this day, here you stand Andy, a loving friend, a loving lover for one most loving of Andy is the only lover Andy will settle for…’that’ you can count on.
you just know.
i love you, but this whole thing has unravelled for me now, of what matters most to me in life…sincere genuine heart felt love for another we love with all that we are.
i want that with someone.
we all do.
here’s the thing for me…i am totally fearless of the world, in not being lured into anything that is not pure of heart loving friends and lovers.
did that for the first half of my life, walking around in life in a sorta uncertainty, running with who ever, no concept of belief system for mental/emotional/sexual/spiritual well being yet developed.
Today it is fully developed…where i can easily detect who is real and who is not, avoiding the lesser mentalities, knowing it usually flys apart before it gets better, all the work i have gone thru, knowing they to must do the same.
I am as free as the air i breath, not tolerating any negativity from anyone ever again.
they can think about me all they want, but without sincere pure of heart approach with me?
no thanks.
i am exceedingly sensitive over Matt right now, who did not exist, wanted to exist, crushed.
all good for Andy, as he walks away, looking for someone like Matt who is as loving like Andy truly is.
what did we learn?
Love is what MATTers, until someone fucking killed Matt.
fuck.
lol
anyway….i want to live a homosexual life…so just forget anything we may have had felt…all imagination.
yeah right.
i wonder how Jesus would feel if his best friend was killed like that?
fucking pissed off i bet.
well…Matt is not dead in my mind, where i should change my name to Matt, knowing how loving i was of Matt.
Indeed, i was loving of Matt.
Indeed, i will love another like Matt, the same way i loved Matt.
i happy ending for Andy coming to know just how loving he really is.
thanks everyone, for the spiritual awakening i have gone thru of how much i love to love, like Jesus loved to love.
Love is the only thing of value to me.
all the useless negativity, hypocrisy…all lies.
so do me a favor everyone, and love someone like i love(d) Matt, and i will do the same, ‘that’ i know….without doubt.
i am thankful.
i am grateful.
i am a homosexual, loved by Jesus, God, and someone like Matt forever more.
Go live your lives as loving as i know mine will BE, and feel love each and every second of each blessed day.
thank you for mirroring who i am…someone as loving as thee.
God blesses all.
i am free to fly, Love Set Free.
free to love again…free to love ALL.
just as we have been doing.
don’t settle for anything but your own loving feelings for another, who equally feel the same for you.
life is too short to betray your SELF.
and forget about me while you are at it….hell, there are way better looking people than me.
i want a soul mate lover, and won’t settle for anything less.
When you know, you just know.
i know i had that with you, but along the way, Andy fell in love with an imaginary guy, someone you created for me to love.
why, so i could deal with my pain of Troy.
i deal my pain of Troy in every waking moment of life, where indeed, i am as though a spirit walking the earth, in the mindset of just how sensitive a human being is.
fuck…i was just getting into my bisexual art too.
too pissed off to give a fuck now.
i am just upset…bare with me.
it’s all good, and i will eventually come out of feeling what i feel, like a lab mouse.
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ok, so let’s keep doing what Jesus wants us to do, “love one another.’ and remember all the Troy’s and Matt’s in the world who need our love to make it thru to a joyful loving life, shall we?
Instead of wondering about it. There is nothing to wonder about love we know.
we know.
on we go.
blessings to all.
God loves ALL. Jesus loves ALL. We love ALL.
God blesses ALL.
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sorry…i am being totally insensitive of you right now.
i am just too emotional right now to talk with anyone, barely even able to feel.
will take a break and try to get grounded again…have not had much sleep in the past 48 hours.
i am not at east at all, and i don’t like how this feels.
need to go and pray, reconnect with my sensitive true self.
forgive my absurd outbursts…not me. just upset about Matt, that’s all.
sorry…i am being ungrateful, and i hate it when i get like this…will go listen to some Candy Dulfer for awhile, and just feel my life of loving feelings.
on a positive note, now is a time to be in remembrance of what Jesus said, “Where your heart is, there too shall BE your treasure(loving joyful feelings sincere and true of us all) and your life(our life as loving family united as one).
We must turn towards what we know joyfulness of feelings to be, and in our pure knowingness having felt and yet feel(the future), and continue to push ourselves forward into what we all subconsciously yearn for, stepping forward into the world as loving warriors of the light of Jesus and God, of the unstoppable force and fortitude we are, truth which is not able to fail, our feelings so true in loving feelings for one another, for we have BEcome wise of God’s divine will for us to BE the WILLINESS to do so, for sake of other’s first, for sake of us second, having come all this way, where we know….without doubt…the world is a more loving place for our loving brothers and sisters to safely journey in the world, of our ever determination to push out fear in the world by means of loving our enemies, leading by example of what we know to BE 100% true in our knowingness of SELF, pure of heart, exceedingly joyful by means of our united spirit of pure sincere love for one another, Rosie, Kelly, Madonna, and all we who are sincerely pure of heart, where united we stand, divided we fall, of our KNOWINGNESS of SELF, TRUE of everyone including our enemies yet sadly snared by ignorance.
with or without you, i am committing myself to production of the 100 clowns, which is a vision of the future i feel within me of the exceedingly joyful Andy, who is already standing in the future in his knowingness of how you too will feel within, of surrendered spirit to what i know to BE true of you all, of what we all subconsciously yearn for and seek, to BE fearless, of no more fear, in allowing our thoughts to BE only of pure love for one another, deviod of the immature unwise afraid fear of the world, where we know without doubt, the only way to experience the treasure Jesus speaks of beyond all riches of the world, is thru coming clear in BEing free of fear completely, which is the only way to experience EXCEEDING JOYFULNESS of the pure of heart loving spirit within us all united as ONE ~ family.
Rosie is one such individual in life who is of the fearlessness i speak of. We all are. It’s just useless ego and hurt that gets in the way, in our afraid stuckness which may be afraid of rejection.
In the name of Jesus, i say this, “What we turn towards, we BEcome. If we do not turn towards gratefulness and gratitude of our arriving in life thus far of the exceeding wisdom of God now before us, then we will fall from God’s grace, in turning away from our pure loving compassionate wisdom of Jesus and God, should we not embrace that out there in the world is a young gay youth who may kill themselves without out help. We know they are out there hurting and afraid, and i am turning away from any useless attitudes of any kind and turning towards them, for i know they need us to take their hand in our revealing to them, ‘that’ which we know to BE true of them, mirroring their inner joyfulness, saying to them, “Come with us, for you are loving like we are, here, put this on(clown outfit ;), for it is of God and it will protect you, surrounding you with our loving feelings we feel for one another, as you are one of us.”
If we turn away from that which is 100% TRUE of us, we turn away from our SELF, the SELF of those in great need of us, and in so doing, away from the divine will of Jesus and God who will apon us to BE the WILLINGNESS of our WISDOM in doing so.
So who is with me?
i am not taking no for an answer, so you can sit there for all eternity if you want…i am going ahead with my commitment with Jesus and God, commitment to my SELF in doing so, commitment to SELF of ALL of you, commitment to SELF of the many Troy’s and Matt’s in the world, and i will succeed in saving them from this unwise world which surrounds us.
again i ask, “who is with me?”
Keep on…Keeping it together.
We have not come all this way to quit, have we?
i am not quiting, so don’t even think that i will ever BE something i can no longer BE, uncaring, inconsiderate of my SELF and SELF of us all.
IT is of God’s divine will that we do not fall from grace.
At all times, You have 4 minutes to decide, which is all the time one needs to shed a tear of compassion for those we know are in darkness about to hurt themselves, in turning away from unwise apathy like so many who are seemingly disconnected in feeling(subconscious aimless souls), unlike we who are awakened in cognitive awareness, peaceful and at complete rest, graceful in our pure loving conduct of fearlessness of love for each other, as we stitch each loving stitch in our costuming, which is of the angels of God who walk the earth, we who are more loving than most in the world, of the GLBT worldwide community.
Andy, shut up!
lol
so who’s with me motherfuckers?
lol
i ain’t taking no for an anwser, and will do this with or without any of you….’that’ you can count on.
You’ll see. It is coming, and i will BE there, of Jesus and God’s WILLINGNESS to do so….a mission from God, for sake of another, for sake of Andy’s pure of heart loving compassion he has felt since loss of his best friend and lover life, Troy, who Andy betrayed long ago, when Andy betray his true feelings for Troy in his egotistic useless conduct with Troy, which Troy felt, instead of the TRUE love within Andy, Andy, who cannot escape the truth of his feelings of the pure undeniable truth over Troy, that Troy killed himself because of Andy’s unBEcoming conduct.
Welcome to the pure truth wisdoms of Jesus and God who i stand before at all times, as one who has given his life to God’s work, of not being able to BE to turn away, nor will i, for i cannot escape the truth…no can anyone, just as many there are in our community who know full well, both the Becoming and unBecoming conduct of how the world yet is, in their daily experience of the many who do not know us, do not desire to know us, and do not love us in all these unBEcoming unloving, unwise, uncompassionate conducts…not of God.
So again, who among us is of God and wishes to remain as i am and shall always BE, of BEcoming conduct united as ONE with Jesus, God and one another?
this is not just about orientation, as i have expressed before.
At all times, BE of the empowerment of the visionary YOU, who like me, can easily feel the feelings i feel of my visions with all of YOU.
or, get left behind and be one of the last to enter.
you have 3 minutes left to decide. lol
i jest.
i am an OUT bisexual. Respect me as one, who is open with all of you, a human BEing just like YOU, with real feelings for us ALL, asking you to participate with me as a friend of Jesus and God, for sake of another first(of love like Jesus, of God), for sake of SELF of us ALL second in making the world a brighter place for ALL.
anyway…i have to think positive right now, while feelings of losing best friends keep trying to creep in…my own insecurity.
forgive my absurd childish unfocused immature behaviour….i am just really sensitive right now, and yet while out walking, i felt a freeing from fear come over me, of an the world we have created thus far, in having come all this way with all of you.
come on, were late, let’s go!
~ some for you think about, of my new mission from God i have assigned myself.
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i am going start campaigning for volunteer’s in the coming months ahead.
i am going to do this, and reveal to you all, just how fearless i really am.
in my heart, i am standing in the warm sun, of music playin, forever in the moment of the future i am going to create, in my pure of heart knowingness of how it feels while standing there with all of you, with or without you…i am already there, and i WILL BE there for all to see and feel who we are….ourely loving of one another, of no useless fear or absurd jealousies, resentments, bitterness or anything that distracts me from God’s work that is for sake of one soul out there which i know is always there, where i (we) will greet them in full glory of who they all are inside, of our knowingness of SELF within.
thank you for listening(feeling).
i am not falling from God’s grace. I cannot escape the truth, nor do i ever want to turn from ‘that’ which is true of me, true of us ALL.
God loves ALL. Jesus loves ALL. We love ALL.
God blesses ALL.
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i am so in need of rest and some down time, return to my peaceful by nature self.
forgive my inappropriate conduct with you.
this has been an impactful event for me emotionally.
at least i know Matt will BE more than ok!
lol
fuck!
better off than me, that’s for sure.
thank God for ‘that’! 😉
thank you Matt.
God bless you Matt.
anyway…time to set Andy’s spirit free, and in so doing, set yours free too in my letting go.
my heart is always open for you, but i don’t want you to feel like i have expectations of any of you, rather i want you to come to the fearlessness we in joining me in the celebration of True Life of forever more loving friends, as my love true for ALL.
We are chosen by God, of this i am certain.
i am not about accolade which seperates anyone from us, rather i am about accolade which unites us ALL in exceeding joy, of God’s knighthood of pure truth wisdoms of theology and psychology findings, of no religious organization whatsoever, nor shall i ever BE of such, and rather, i am the divine true SELF within us ALL which always yearns to unite in harmony of the peaceful loving by nature rays of harmonious loving feelings within us ALL.
i am there, and i WILL BE there forever more.
always did.
always WILL.
always.
(ok Andy, get off the fucking stage, we get it. stop already, will ya?)
lol
God bless you ALL.
from the bottom of my heart that Jesus and God help me search, i found the loving Andy who loves you all.
forever more, thank you. thank you. thank you
bless you bless you bless you
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in no small measure shall i ever BE found of God, for i know i am the WILLINGNESS of Jesus.
thank you God. thank you Jesus. thank you to all who embrace their WILLINGNESS of God’s divine will for us to remain of the WILLINGNESS which saves us all from the unwise teachings of the forefathers who did/do not know God, nor desire to know.
we know.
on we go.
peace OUT everyone!
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i am not saying goodbye…i am saying hello to someone just like me…so either get with a real friend in you life, or don’t.
and who knows…maybe we will fall in love when we do. 😉
still not sure?
i am…only loving of you, of us ALL.
you’ll see by to continued effort of what i turn to, ‘that’ which true of us all.
you have no reason not to BE a real life friend to me, just as i have no reason to ever turn away from YOU, someone just as sensitive and loving as thee, as in the thee in ALL of YOU.
how can we ever unite in doing God’s work if we don’t speak with another.
anyway, just wanted you to know, my love is true, and my the door of my heart is always open, just don’t bring Matt with ya next time, who was totally distracting for me, in a good way of course.
forever more friends, true and faithful till the end, ‘that’ is what we are, so let’s act like we are.
i am deserving of such friends in life of the same great empowerment, and i have many visions of the world i want to create and participate in, and indeed, make no mistake…i am going to create it, with or without YOU, always with YOU in my heart of hearts, for sake of us ALL, of Jesus and God, that i(we) do.
ok…im OUT.
and who knows, i might start liking girls again.
ewww, kissed by a girl!!!!!
lol
i fucking love you damn it, and you know it.
i look for the same sincerity you do and are.
i know…you are just like me in pureness of heart, and deep inside, i don’t want to let go, and i won’t…i just can’t handle the uncertainty which keeps trying to get in, because of my mission with God, that i won’t allow anyone to interfer with in anyway. I am going to do it, no matter what, come what may. It is of God that we do, and we both know it.
My visions of the future 20 years from now is my empowerment, and i cannot do it alone…why would i want to.
we are likeminded, so why not say hello to real life?
it is what i came for, in every step, every letter typed here with you.
of Jesus, of God, a true and faithful friend of ALL forever more.
i am…BE cause…we are…of Jesus, of God, of a true and faithful friend of ALL forever more.
just don’t bring Matt with ya, ok? that fucking biyatch broke my heart! lol
😀 😀
sweet dreams everyone, like the dreams i have of you.
ah fuck…i feel like i am talking to no one again…
12, 976 blessed days to go.
bless you
yeah sweet dreams x
remember, i am of the no time contraint mentality, that of Jesus and God.
i am not one to merely be listened to, felt and heard, like that of someone hold a Jesus sign up in the street.
i am of the empowerment of God which is as bright as the sun above, and i am of the same magnitude of empowerment.
i am taking on the entire world of God’s divine will that i do, and you all shall see one day, the truth of these words i speak with you, in ushering in the kingdom of heaven for us all.
i merely seeking volunteers of likemindedness as my own; for those not of the maturity and willingness to rise up with God, then you are not yet of the destiny of clarity i am BEcoming of.
if i am merely a flower in your garden to look apon, well keep looking, for my seeds fall apon the ground year after year of perenial freshness which does not stop growing in numbers and strength.
join and unite together as ONE, which we have done, and indeed, you taught me that.
i am here, as one just like you, of my chosen path of destiny with Jesus and God.
i know who i am, a pure loving child of the light of God, which does fade or die, as i am of the TRUTH within me which explodes outward with radiant bright light of wisdom that pushes out all darkness from the earth, of no time constraint or concern in how long it will take to do so, of 100% dedication of my life to Jesus and God, the true and faithful friends in my life forever more, where my fearlessness is of Jesus and God, beyond most any.
you’ll see, as time passes…i will BE there, year after year until my last day apon this blessed earth, looking around me in knowingness that every step was in step with Jesus and God. i ask one and all to join me, for sake of all our loving brothers and sisters of the GLBT worldwide community.
peace OUT everyone.
God bless you all
Some normal people would be nice …
They didn’t like my photo of a skyscraper in the “UK Urban Photo Contest”, so I substituted it:
http://www.skyscrapercity.com/showthread.php?t=707510
surely my art works speaks with clarity of my understanging of God’s divine will for us all, does it not?
Radiant and bright, free of fear of forever more loving lovers and friends.
so why hesitate in an opportunity to be real life frlends?
i did not come all this way to get a cold shoulder…that’s just not something i will ever be able to deal with, nor want to, of your decision to do so, not mine…i was willingness, and i will always BE WILLINGNESS.
maybe that’s my problem, i am trying to hard to make friends, with those who don’t act sincerely enough to want to be my friends.
well, your loss not mine, as eventually i will just stop trying.
anyway…too emotional right now to keep going like i do, and will go find somewhere else to hang out, seeing as no one wants to chat.
i would not do that to anyone, who truly desire a friendship, nor will i, as i am here to stay as i am, sincerely loving of ALL forever more.
We cannot change the world by ourselves…it is not possible.
Jesus knew this, and is likely the single biggest reason he let them kill him, telling everyone, i cannot do this by myself, you and all your immature approaches with one another, who do not take up God’s wisdom and side with the truth that does not fail, the truth of all things i reflect apon and know of all of you, leaving all to think with clarity what happened that dreadful day they crucified someone of God.
Jesus knew he was of God, an eternal BEcoming of pure truth wisdom within and out, a spirit of no time constraint nor desire of anything of the worldly desires which grip the world with egotism and unloving apathy for one another, shaking his head in disbelief of how cold and seperated everyone was(is) from their pure of heart available to all.
So i ask, “how will i ever be able to do this alone? It is not possible, and yet i have not given up faith all these years that one day we would unite in friendship forever more, nor do i want to let go of how it could be, and indeed of how it is becoming, a more loving world for GLBT community of what is actually happening, what Jesus wanted to happen, unite together as one, and stand forever of the forever more loving feelings which surround us now like we do. How far we have come, and how much further we have to go?”
I know now, it is not about orientation any more, and that is the next step for us all where we all feel united forever more loving feelings now, of no issues of seperation of race, sex, orientation, religion, politic…ONE worldwide family.
anyway….just rattling on like i always do.
goodnite.
shut up Andy!
what?
oh you fucking love me, and you know it!
fine…i will let myself out of here on my own…as usual.
catch up with me someday, ok?
alright then…caio.
(andy walks off, wondering to himself how the hell he is ever going to afford to make 100 clown outfits, thinking maybe it was all just a silly dream he had so long ago, and yet, the feelings were real for him, of his delightful fun loving spirit which he wants everyone to feel how it feels, if only he could find friends in life who think the way he does, of his dreaming child self within who won’t take no for an answer, as Andy yet again finds ways to keep himself calmed down, lest they all think of Andy as some who’s lost his mind.)
ah fuck…now i am having out of body expiences…this is not good.
in the blink of an eye, these passing moments are gone from our thoughts, of friends we pass on by in life, such as this moment.
Is anyone actually listening to anyone, or are we all just doing our thing like zombies without a care, as we shut one another out, pretending we don’t really care.
such is this fucking world we all live in…so disconnecting in all it’s useless fucking trivalness.
well fuck that, i am going to spend life in a lover’s embrace of one most loving of me and i them till the day i finally leave this bullshit fucking world behind.
sorry…it’s just how i see the aimless souls of the world, so self serving they all are, disconnected, seemingly heartless while so much of the world is in need of a healing hand of love. don’t people see how they really are, so cold and uncaring, arrogant, so ego driven, and feeling proud of it in their emptiness of such illness of heart, filling their lives with useless nonesense of conversation.
i prefer just being ordinary, a curious student of life, forever my self in greeting of another, sincere in approach, open conversation with them, gentle questioning of their thoughts on issues, always nurturing of them in every way.
anyway…i felt like we wanted to be friends…i really do feel that with you.
i need to spend some time getting grounded back in study, of the calm mentality of me who is ever curious, and open discussion with likemindedness with others.
that’s who i am, the same easy going fun loving student Andy i always was, still am, seeking those who are fun loving of carefree gentle spirit, free of substance abuse forever more. I love it. i feel who i really am in each passing moment of each day, mornings being my favorite time of all.
It’s just life everyone, meant to be enjoyed, an ordinary world of all of us who all went thru high school, all running around doing our careers, doing what we dreamed of doing, raising families, building communities, participating in the lives of others, what ever way we choose to do, in making the world a better place.
Indeed, we are all the same students from long ago, a little wiser, some not so much wiser, a little older, some healthier by the choices they make in staying physically fit, many not so fit, including my Mom, who is way to overweight for her own good, each and everyone of us, pointing our life in what ever direction we chose and choose to do, doing whatever we want, our life to live where, with who, at all times, everything we do, our own individual choices of whatever, and whereever with whoever, ever waking and walking apon a ball of dirt covered with life. Nothing complicated about the ordinary world we live in, all around us, all of us entertaining ourselves how ever way we wish.
But i will say this, if it were not for the musicians and artists of the world, we would likely not be as easy going as we are, ever the music which lifts our spirits up each day.
So, if you don’t mind, i think i will hang around somewhere in the world with you all, of a fellow student from the schools we all passed thru, of just another like any other, doing my thing, with who ever is there, of what ever the fuck we feel like doing.
lol
i am trying to cheer my self up, can you tell…fuck. ha.
im bored.
that new video scares me for some reason, a vivid snap shot of the world we live in that is so disconnected from the damage business and goverments are making of the world, in all their arms dealing around the world, children being born into the absurdness of if all.
i mean, why manufacture a gun in the first place, that has only one purpose, to hurt another.
Is the world that unnurturing of it’s own children as loving human beings?
aah, the world of the unwise, so obvious to feel everywhere it seems.
think about it, who puts a weapon in a child’s hand and tells the child to go kill another child?
In God’s eyes, that’s what they do.
worse, the arms dealers sit back in their wealth so boastful and proud of the empty thrones of nescience…sickening to believe how absurdly fucked up a soul can become so derranged. Who raises these children to do what they do…oh yeah, the ignorant teachings of the forefathers.
anyway, i though maybe i would go back over to my blog, start a fresh new chapter, one day at a time of the life of Andy, new camera in hand for what ever and what ever, just doing my thing, whereever with who ever is there….maybe take some film course and hang out with the film junkies and writers.
enjoy the blessed day everyone.
rant over.
I might become a private detective and spy on everyone
about as boring a job anyone could ever want, bad enough having to tolerate working with them, who would want to spy on their boring ass lives? lol
truly, most everyone in life, in all they say and do, bores me to tears.
which points me to what the ultimate goal in life is and has been for me…passionate lovers embrace.
i am not just talking about sex either…i am talking about truly passionate loving lovers who are of the same mindset, lover’s embrace, and not all these things which stress out our minds and bodies with so much negativity.
yeah, that’s where i want to always be, and have been my entire life.
sorry…im just feeling unispired lately. like what’s the point of my even being here.
at some point we just become annoyed by it all, bored, and…well….move on.
that’s it feels for me right now…hot tub calling me to come to lover’s embrace and forget what ever reason i once had for being here….by myself in spirit if seems.
life is too short to spend it alone, and disconnected from the yearning of self to find another like they are.
how fucking long have i been at this?
wow…months….years…..
and for what?
to find out if i could make any friends?
what friends?
friends talk endlessly for hours at a time, tireless in doing so, about whatever.
i was such a friend here…but in truth…i am bored.
so on that note…i will take my self to a new beginning somewhere in the world.
tired of waiting i suppose for something of even the remote possibility of a real life friend.
what do we talk about around here anyway besides nothing?
and how much fun have we had while the rest of the is living life?
just stupid how much time i spent here, although i suppose i did explore the depth of my own soul in my experiential writing, and indeed, i have grown confident in the truth of what what Andy is all about…sincere, pure of heart, tenderly loving, genuine.
who would not want that?
passion is a two way street.
i think i am going toss my PC into the recycle bin, and not ever do this again….it’s all just seemingly absurd for me now…and i don’t know why.
i think it was the sparseness of it all….
like Matt said, yeah, i was sorta over the whole internet thing too.
yep!
real life guys…go live it!
and i will do the same.
i mean think about it…hot tub? PC? lover? PC?
duh!
such morons we are.
one thing i did learn…don’t ever trust anyone on the internet.
they can toy with you endlessly, and think nothing of it, which is all fine and well, but genuine consideration for you…no.
i have met truly incredible souls on the net, but most are flakey at best.
wow…i have really lost my motivation…like someone died i suppose…oh yeah, Matt died, i forgot.
and to think i had a real life friend there for awhile…of my approach with him which was genuine for sake of his mental emotional well being.
and prayed for him too…
only to find out….he did not exist.
ah well…people do what they do in life.
i am going to keep being the supportive Andy i always have, but this whole internet thing is bullshit for me.
we all live scattered around the world.
where in truth, real life will always win over anyone you meet on the net, and let’s not forget the way everyone changes their names.
i am deserving of real life, and not all this mind fuck stuff full of uncertainty conduct of others.
honestly, i don’t know how or why i tolerated as much as i have.
so yeah…i am so over this internet thing, which always felt like i was the only one interested in any of you.
Important Announcement
ANdy
is going to live in the real world
whoo hooo
meet ya at the $2 bagel & caffe, down town
if you really want to know someone and take time with them in your desire to spend quality time with them, you may want to tell them, “hey, i really want to keep what we have.” before they become uninterested in you and walk away from your own conduct with them, leaving you wonder why they left, too late once it wanes for them.
i can’t handle uncertainty very well, and let’s face it, it was exceedingly sparse at best….sometimes days at a time.
well, i held some hands for awhile…but i deserve better treatment of genuine sincerity which is passionate, and not, “oh, i am not having a good day today and need someone to talk too kind of friend like so many are on the net, of passing by like you are a TV, something to watch or not watch, according to what ever kind of day you are having…yeah, that’s it felt for me most of the time…an empty feeling of sorts.
it’s been fun. but Andy is yeaning to unfold his wings somewhere else now, of utter disdain for the net now.
yeah probably, with the most passionate loving lover on the planet sitting with me, that you can count on.
you people think it’s all about you wealth.
obviously it is not by the way you treated Andy
who want lack lust zeal like you all have been with me?
i mean, do me a favor…and get real someday, ok?
if we do not know our soul mate lover self, we will not recognize a soul mate lover.
Troy and i never had any money, and yet, we were the most passionate lovers alive.
anyway…this whole thing is just a stupid pipe dream for me, nothing sincerely genuine at all in approach.
so yeah…get real someday…for your sake, not mine…i have already left.
here we go, now it’s the money thing, on on on you go
if it’s not one thing it’s another, is it not ?
retorical question.
meet you at the cross road then..
bare naked and penny less.
Lol.. 🙂
so,,, we should spare a thought on the last thought,,, no not the one thats up your ass!!!
for all those people lucky enough to go on tour,,, please remember there are people livin on the streets, homeless, etc,,, pull ya bloody heads in!!!
madonna you should just firte their asses!!!
pluueezzz,, as if some people,,, really
at least i do cuz i love it
i am a performwer at heart
its in me blood
now i am off to dance and eat dumplings!!!!
yum
dance dance dance
and f off to all the spoilt losers out there dont cum near or on me,,,
xxx
yeah hey fuckers!!!
fuck or be fucked????
oh and hey lady,,, madonna, lovin the footage of the tour!!!
but i could a dressed ya better!!!!
may b ?!?!
x d
why’s this blog only got comments from guy’s
were did all the girls go (excluding andy), like liz butterfly and Maria
Madonna, I know it’s a long shot, but you might be able to help me – chuck this across to your legal team.
I am having a nightmarish time trying to complete the sale of my flat because the bunch of idiots at my flat management company (Wood Management, Solictor Enquiries Department, RMG House, Essex Road, Hoddesdon, Hertofordshire, EN11 0DR – Tel. 0845 002 4203) are dreadfully slow in supplying something called a “Licence to Assign” to my solicitor (John Collins, Swansea). They don’t seem to have a clue. If there’s any way you can kiss some ass in this matter I would seriously be eternally grateful. I’m stressed-out by it!
Thanks a lot,
Andrew.
Should read “KICK some ass”
Anything you can do to help would be genuinely very much appreciated.
See ya,
X
ok then…seeing as we are indeed of the same mindset, in our knowingness of the true depth of compassion we are so pure in our understanding what the world is in desperate need of, the all powerful leaders of great wisdom in ushing in the kingdom of heaven on earth, the most enlightened ones chosen by God, of humble student mentality, free of ego with one another like we are, fearless of feeling our feelings like we do, untangled from the world controlled by fear, i agree…let’s truly “KICK some ass” for sake of all the precious loving souls of the world snared by the world which is self serving, not of God.
I know who i am, a visionary who feels the approaching future of how it will feel for everyone, of the most exceeding carefree fun loving experiential experience this world has ever seen, but i cannot do it alone, where it goes without saying, like you once said, “who would want to?”
I am about others in my BEcoming conduct, for sake of my self and everyone all at the same time.
i jumped out because i was having out of body experiences brought on by fatigue of staying to long in the laboratory of my mind, of my chosen quest in doing so, as i have done for decades now.
anyway….
So just who are we all on this beautiful planet?
are we not all the same children who all went thru the same schools of thought, of humble curious fun loving children loving of life and one another?
indeed we are, and indeed, some of us don’t allow ourselves to become jaded from the projections of others, easily tiring of those who approach in unwiseness…that being me and those like me.
i busted out of the world as part of my restoration of Andy, the high school sweet heart lover, of great love for music and his loving soul like others. Look apon any musician and notice how they all have a much more genuine disposition of humbleness in drawing near to them, of greater grace than most any.
anyway…you know i am fearless in pushing forward in my thinking outside the box, of learned life experience of what works for Andy, and what does not work(all negativity).
Everyone is evolving subconsiously, of the subconsious part of us all that connects us all, tenderness of loving feelings of the child within us all, afraid of all the frightful conduct of the many masks so many of us dawn in life, acting as thought they are all so much greater than another, confusing for all the child within us all, that stands back and disbelief some days.
anyway…forgive me in my stream of consciousness exploration and let me get to the point.
for years i was all about the exceeding joy of my outward expression for sake of a wise deliberate experiential experience meant for others, knowingness of what they need to embrace within them, fearlessness, rather than unwise fear projected onto them from the unwise world they may or may not be surrounded by of their own personal life ~ issue of homophobia.
then i started looking deeply into the human condition of all souls, irregardless of orientation, of a more mature Andy.
In looking around at everyone, i came to realize something we are all in need of….reconnection with exceeding joy, free of absurd useless motherfucking fear of those who dawn all these egotistic mean spirited masks like they do, in our career lives, personal, even friends we trusted for years who turn on us, all of the immature mindset that is of shortmindedness in sincere approach not only of others, but of their own child within.
anyway…at the very top of the list is restoration of exceeding joyfulness which is true of the child within us all, having experienced full heartedly what exceeding joy is as a child, where on average a child laughs 400 times per day, and adult 10 times a day.
i look at that reality check from many different angles, both of the highest levels of human condition understandings of psychologicl perspective as well as from the view point of Jesus and God.
(andy keeps yacking on and on and on, everyone glad to see him come back into clas again, some worried about him, and yet as they start to truly reflect on just who the hell andy is, the begin to fully grasp the truth that andy really is a hermetical monk of exceeding wisdom of the fountain of life which pours forth from him, of his enthusiastic explaination of the holy grail he found, and the safe passage path for mankind he knows about, if only they would really listen, suddenly, they start to really listen to what he as to say, as his own confidence and fearlessness is obvious way superior to their own, of his not stop words of wisdom and exploration of the human condition and what needs to take place to usher in the kingdom of heaven, of heaven and has already found all around him, seemly stuck here with all the doldrum mentalities which bore him to tears, pissed off in his inability to find someone like himself of sameness of enthusiasm, wisdom, passion and exceeding inner joyfulness he has come to know about of his own child within, desperate to not only find one like himself now, but to also draw out that which he has come fully into awareness about himself, exactly that of everyone of the…how many people on the planet? 6-8 billion souls.)
oh yeah, i am as fearless a one as you are likely to ever meet, thanks for noticing.
anyway……let me catch my breath, one second…ok….so what is most important in life for sake of us all from our thrones of wisdom we sit apon with one another, in open discussion of pushing forward in safe passage for mankind?
is it not experiential techniques we endeavor in in our outward radiant light of our loving zeal for life we feel inward?
indeed it is.
i propose we truly kick some ass in our deliberate creation of experiential experiences for others, as artists, musicians, passionate lovers, poets, and take it to the next level, of total freedom from fear, of such radiance so absurd and exceedingly joyful, it will leave everyone breathless for an entire year, when we roll around and do it all again, where for me, i merely wish others to feel what i feel within me, what i know is true within us all, unattended, unnurtured, unprotected, malnorished joyful loving spirits snared by the useless motherfucking business world/government/church, of all these self serving boring fucking mentalities of ego and “oh, look at me, im so fine and proper!….andy interupts, “ah, you couldn’t get laid if your life depended on it with your low sex drive left unattended in all your unwiseness of one who yet has many illness of the heart of the snaring which comes from unwiseness, sadly unknowingly for you, ya moron!”
i jest…
(the crowd chatter quietly among themselves, whispering, “he’s back, just when we thought we were free of his insanity”, as another speaks up and interrupts Andy, “ah…Andy? Can we take a coffee break and come back?”
ya sure….
anyway, i merely wish to push forward in the world with all of you, who are leaders in life in our creative experiential experiences, of my only desire to experience with all of you what it is i have found within myself, true of everyone, of one who does not have the resources to do so…i know what i am talking about intellectual, and i have moved past orientation to the last level…all of mankind.
Truly, i tell you, i care not at all of any of the wealth any of you have whatsoever, as that is not even on my list of passion, and in fact is on the other list of masks we wear(not all of you of course, in my knowingness of your pure of heart like you M, who is so remarkable to me, in my loving reflections of, “Yes, she gets it! Bravo!”
ah…double double please…thank you.
I guess i am inviting myself, tired of waiting for someone to invite me, ya sure, impatient if you must know, and yet i am truly of the no time constraint mentality of my only concern, to eleviate(did i spell that right) self awareness blocks and stuckness within others who are gripped by the controling world which uses fear, stifling for the child within us all, of nearly everyone of them sadly unwise, of no where near the level of our comprehension of the human condition.
i have come fully in my realization of, “Yes, that’s it, they don’t to know the comprehension, where our outward BEcoming of radiant brightness is what connects with the child within us all, so easily when they do….”
here is the thing though, one individual attempting to do it alone, does not have the impactfulness required to lift an entire crowd up into exceeding absurd laugh my ass off joyfulness of the playfulness of those who are like us, children of the light of God.
i want to take a moment and touch breifly on something about Jesus, of words he said which left me searching for the meaning of his words, in my attempts to understand and elaborate on, where he said, “Reach for that which is beyond my reach!”
This is a most significant statement that has to do with the entire life of Jesus, from a perspective of looking apon his entire life journey of growth into wisdom and his standing back like i do, in bewilderment of why the world is so mean spirited, and ….well….just not much joy.
we can only imagine how the world was back then, likely far worse than today, as far as controlling fear, and who knows exactly how much slavery was there at the time…10%….30%….80%…?
we just don’t know, but suspect is was alot like what the history of the GLBT community has navigated thru, and indeed, perhaps far worse. I mean look at Iraq for example, where they would kill you in front of your house, in front of you loving family, if you were caught speaking anything about the controlling regime which was not of God like we are.
We are of God, make no mistake, and we are going to continue to be victorious for all eternity, trust me on that one, i know Jesus and God’s pure truth wisdoms as relates to real pyschological fear in the world, of we who are open minded in loving sincere discussions we endeavor in, as we probe for safe passage for all of mankind to journey thru, in our 100% knowingness that we are all exactly the same, albeit, a generation of our own personal on going growth of our child within BEcome the exceeding joyfulness we always were and still are. M knows this one far beyond most any in life, and is why so many are lured to her deliberate experiential experiences everyone…
we know.
her and i have been of what a true best friend is in life, of no ill conduct toward one another for the past 15 years, ever watching of the other from a distant in our personal growth…of the true and faithful friendship we have maintained in keeping ourselves only of positive attitude toward one another in our approach with one another, just as she is of all of you…
maybe someday a biography will reveal our friendship, which is not really of any releavance other than between her and i.
she know fully why i am here over the past year or so, and we don’t have to talk about, as i am merely ‘addressing’ in saying “hey, i am here…are you ok?” i need say anything more.
anyway…sorry about that, i really became discombogulated over Matt, temporary insanity of deep seated sadness which ran it’s course with me yesterday…deep breaths…breath…ok, stop the silly confusion and feel the beautiful experiece i went thru in the mirroring of my self reflection, which i want to say, was the single greatest experience for me, which revealed my own tenderness so sincere and pure of me, where my greatest concern at this point, is to nurture the internalizing experience further so as not to ever become of ego again like so many adults are in life, in their fearful ways of unwise thinking like they do.
we are not these things of the world at all, rather we are yet the exceeding joyful children we all were, of so many submerged child within of adult children in the world.
another note about Jesus, is of the evolved adult child view point i hold of him, which is yet eluding for me, and yet, i have made incredible insight into the depth of Jesus, who was indeed of a pure no time constraint purity. This is not something most any are able to comprehend, and only of those who are of the true knowingness of what plaques the world the most for the human condition, the truth wisdom of “The Crucial Lacking of Desire for God’s Truth Wisdom’, or any wisdom which serves the mental/emtional well BEing, is it not.
Time constraint is the most significan aspect of Jesus, which he stepped fully into, 100%, and it is in doing so, that one becomes 100% free of the useless fears of the world, much like a monk does, as i have done, although i am not yet 100%, as i am yet approaching that level as we speak.
so are you with me as life time friends, or am i just junk mail….
don’t answer that!
i know what your first words will be….sorry…i was really in turmoil over Matt….crushed actually…took me some time to come full circle.
i want to keep what we have, just as i always have for so long. It is not something i can merely switch off, having been of the internalizing experience in my BEcoming of my greater sincerity within, where you can easily tell, it is where i always wish to dwell, in my ever growing and evolving divine true self like your own.
so forgive my falling off the dock into the water, cracking my head on the way down and nearly drowning…we all slip…but i am unable to fall from my BEcoming of the grace which i am, more so of the experience of recent mirroring….thank you for that….there is no value one can place on that mentarily speaking.
did you miss me?
(smack)
lol
ah, you know how much love you, so much so i don’t even have to tell you….our spiritual connection pure and true within of our most sacred pure of heart feelings for one another.
(crowd mermers some more in their hypocrisy, just who the fuck is this Andy guy to M anyway…he seems extremely intelligent and wise…wow!)
LOL
you have to pat your SELF on the back in life people, as most others in life will do the opposite most of the time, what with 90% of us all not BEing of the fortitude of wisdom in psychology.
bless you
your stressed?
i felt like i lost a best friend this week…truly…i was crushed by it….but i have come full circle…into my gratefulness and intellect that knows the greatness of mirroring, and it’s effectiveness…it was just the letting go of my hopes of a life long friendship which felt real for me that Matt and i would indeed one day become, a sense of his self which purely yearned for someone so much like himself…of a pure of heart level of trust and loving connection that was indeed, 100% real for me…
…understandable yes? my feelings of discombogulated temporary confusion in coming full circle? I wanted to break my computer, i was so upset by it at first. lol
thanks Matt.
i really want to try an explosive experiential experience for the GLBT communites world wide events. It is not a costly thing to do, of all volunteer participants, of something i would gladly manage and administrate, of no one’s knowing who is behind it, our secret.
i just don’t have the resources, but more importantly i want you to experience it for sake of you, as we are indeed like minded free spirits in the world, pure of heart sincerity we feel for everyone.
who would not want a life time real friend like that?
it is who we are to one another, is it not?
Best of all, i feel we are of God’s divine will, of what Jesus spoke of in reaching beyond what i reach for….it is my pure of heart knowingness, that what he wanted us to probe for and find(of the treasure) is the exceeding joyfulness of the child within us all, which in truth, only those of comprehension in the highest levels of psychology are of the level of awareness, yes?
i think Jesus knew his own inner exceeding joyfulness, as he is recorded as having laughed while among others, perhaps of the same secret sarcasm we are….ya…maybe….i mean it is rather obvious he was frustrated with them for not fully embracing what he was trying to say to them all…i am a bisexual you morons, i cannot be with any of you, lest i hurt any of you with your own useless jealousies that go against you….i am your fucking true and faithful friend for life damn it…don’t be stepping on me like you do.
(andy walks off once again, hoping no one tosses their coffee cup at him as he walks away) lol
ah, see, you did miss me.
i was hoping maybe you did….sincerity….ya…i need your pure of heart love for me, as my love is true for you.
i am fearlessly loving, am i not, in my openness which is beyond most any, am i not?
it is of Jesus that i am this way, of his own sincere desire for others to be openly loving of one another at all times, of what he came into full knowingness of what the greatest treasure mankind shall ever find…the FULLNESS of the fearless loving emotions of divine true SELF within us all, sadly submerged for many as we speak, sadly and so unnecessary dwelling in fear projected onto so many of the controling world of fear mongers of business/church/government…albeit, we are evolving, and indeed, our governments today do approach the mental well being of us all in their approaches for such of even the law makers, of eight laws i had changed after Troy died.
Thank you for coming yesterday to our poor country,well portugal isn’t poor,I’m. I couldn’t see the show, My heart is broken, but who cares?75 000 had fun, always the sames.lisbon,lisbon
portugal is lisbon and lisbon is portugal.
the capital is lisbon and the capital is in lisbon.this is not your fault,I know, and I still love you.but more when you come to Porto.thanks for the attention,
big kis
any hoo…just thought i would drop a line or two…or 200.
whoa!
now that was a nice stream of connected consciousness yes?
~ fountain of life which flows forth is a fountain of pure words of wisdom…every single word, i might add….all loving consideration for ALL.
Jesus loves ALL. God loves ALL. We love ALL.
God blesses ALL.
i want to get past my uncertainty into the physical realm with or without you, always with you in my heart, and feelings of with you one day perhaps true, in my continue efforts in revealing to everyone…none of us are different from one another, and it is just silly of the things we put between us, knowingness that i am deserving your you in life as a real life friend, just as i know i am, of the one reading and feeling of the sincerity of my words with you this day.
i am no slouch when it comes to forward thinking wisdoms….kinda obvious, yes?
my empowerment is of the many Troy’s in the world, and now i am reaching beyond that to the child within us all afraid and submerged, of my desire for just one day out of the year to be set free and feel what we all feel united as ONE, where indeed, none of us are any different from another.
we know the nuturing we do has a direct affect/effect on everyone’s personal life, of their freeing of fear of sexuality for example, bolstering the correct way to feel from a psychological perspective.
we know.
i am going to unstuck myself from Matt today, and move to the next level of broader embracing of the human condition at my blog…my new mission which is all inclusive like your own.
oh, and i am going to scale back on the blog here, less emotional, and more focused in probing of ideas, as you need to stay focused and at ease while in production. So you don’t need to tell me to stay on topic..please don’t, as i am…on topic….friends for life, i now we are and will always BE….who does not want ‘that’? 😉
did you feel the time warp there in one of my comments?
i felt like i did not exist in that moment, like a stranger yelling on the street, of the sense that, i could easily be disregarded by you. It was an all encompassing feeling for me, that felt so real, and i cannot grasp why i was feeling like that, shouting like i was.
Perhaps it is my knowingness of useless inappropriatness of unwanted baggage i tend to toss around, knowing it is always wrong…a temper tantrum of sorts.
ya…i need to relax…and will do so today…of easy listening music in the hot tub which sooths my soul, calming it to the level of grace with is true connectedness of the child of the womb within me.
no one knows how to cognitively relax better than me.
and as for the…oh let’s not go there.
ah…Valencia tonight.
bless you bless you bless you
God is with you.
I haven’t yet read all you lengthy replies, but I will. Sort of.
Is Madonna performing tonight? Good luck Madonna!! Turn the sound up!!!
Aw, just have a good show.
X
Help support Guy by voting for him in hello poll
xx
http://www.hellomagazine.com/vote/mostattractiveman/month/index.html?presentar=resultado
not with out all of YOU! 😉
affect/effect…where ALL is connected, each second of each day, here in the kingdom of heaven all around us, where, at all times, only love is good enough for us ALL, of the very thing Jesus was trying so desperately for us to come into FULL KNOWINGNESS, that of his SELF is not different than that of SELF within us ALL
~ PURE TRUTH
I bet Madonna voted for Guy. 60 times.
Poor bloke was up against tough competition.
I’m sorry, but can you actually believe that several thousand people have actually bothered to vote in those polls?
ya, it is kinda silly isn’t it, the disconnect learned behaviours which do not embrace we are all the same inside.
the nescience which seperates us all from one another daily, not of pure of heart sincerity of the divine true self yet sadly unattended apathy, nunnurtured by loving conduct, unprotected by wisdom.
all common sense perspective for me, of every word one ever says, of my descerning wisdom of a world which continues to fuel the unwiseness of the hypocrisy heart, indeed, injury of their own precious loving souls.
ah, such a long way to go for the kingdom of heaven, and so easy for one to full from such great heights of God’s grace, if ever we step to far our of our halo of descerning wisdom.
is that what mean by ‘that’? 😉
ya…we are like minded for sure.
bless you
to fall from grace, not full ^
i prefer openness of the halo of wisdom meant for all.
of God’s divine willingness for ALL.
God does not cast anyone out of heaven….he does not have to, as we OBVIOUSLY, do it all by our self.
truly, it is the real truth of God who is only loving, who is aware of the stumbling blocks of unwise teachings which yet plaque us all here in heaven as we slowly venture foward into our ONENESS loving feelings as equals, loving brothers and sisters of Jesus, of what Jesus asked us to turn our hearts to in his every word spoken with us….
LOVE
only love is good enough for Jesus. only love is good enough for you. only love is good enough for me. only love is good enough for ALL.
Power of Love of the ALL united in ONENESS pure and true of us, is the opening of the gate of heaven for ALL.
The gate is open everyone…always was.
Jesus said, “What you look for has already come, and is ‘that’ within us ALL…LOVE, COMPASSION, WISDOM.
we merely need turn towards it in our ever growing BEcoming conduct with one another.
it’s that simple everyone, yet an ever eluding halo for all to stand in because of the clashing of the negative and positive energies in the world (yet) unwise.
i am mere one who is here to assist in keeping us in remembrance of the focused direction Jesus speaks of, nothing more, nothing less, as great is the reward of our beautiful loving pure of heart joyful fun loving feelings, is it not?
ah, i can feel you all smiling, just as i do, and i am pleased in greeting all of you, a mere high school like all of us were, who somewhere on his path, stumbled apon a book, of Andy exclaiming, “Oh hey guys, what’s this? Looks like a puzzle of some kind. Let’s solve it shall WE?” 😉
the mystery has been solved everyone, and the path is open, and indeed is of the very feelings you feel, thanks to Jerry C who unknowingly is ushering us into the kingdom of heaven, of the greatest passion i have ever felt in anyone!
i so want to meet Jerry C one day and hug him, telling him, “Jerry, it’s all your fault for why we all feel the way we do! How did you learn to play so well?”
Jerry says, “ah, i got tired of the girlfriend cursing me OUT all the time, and found more enjoyment with my own hands! It’s true!” lol
😀 😀
the never ending story of LOVE continues forever more.
opppss…sorry…wrong blog.
i will be staying the course from now on guys, no more silly emotional stuff from me, as i love everyone.
if someone wants to love me…well…let me know someday….as my door is always open to any who are of interest in my knowingness of how the world is, and how the world is going to BEcome, of my steadfast determination to not ever quit, knowing what i know.
it is not a light switch i can simply turn off, nor would i want to, as much as many yet attack my words of wisdom so easy even a child can understand…all words of Jesus and God forever more loving conduct of one united in oneness with Jesus and God forever more, my life freely surrendered to them, surrendered to all in doing so, but mostly, surrendered to the gift of my pure loving feelings i feel in each waking moment, where it became obvious to me what the greatest treasure mandkind shall ever discover yet burried(submerged)…
…the beautiful feelings of the divine true SELF within us ALL ever growing of the ONENESS of us ALL, of such explosive love, trust me, you ain’t nothing yet…
…i envision thousands of people of a most beautiful of blessed days, united in such overflowing abundance of exceeding joyfulness, it will leave one and all baffled in the exclaiming, “what just happened to me, i don’t feel anything but love in my heart for everyone i look apon, thinking to myself, why have i held on to any bitterness for another like i did?”
don’t thank me guys…give credit to where credit is deserving…Jesus Christ, more loving of us than we yet realize.
It’s about 100% PURE ONENESS in our SAMENESS of feelings, albeit, we are not all of the same level yet of comprehension and internal growth of our peaceful loving by nature self….where i am merely one who has run up ahead of you all to greet Jesus and God at the gate of heaven.
The gate of heaven is the opening of our soul which allows the flow of wisdom and loving feelings which nurture and protect the divine true self within us ALL.
And indeed, it is opening.
Eventually, the entire world will know and feel the pureness of Jesus and God’s only love for us all, however long it takes, how ever many generations it takes, as TRUTH is the no time constraint eternal realm, where indeed, God’s pure truth wisdom is eternal for all generations yet to come…
…for all eternity, ‘that’ of our knowingness so easy to embrace.
hey, do they have a word for a homosexual who is afraid of heterosecual sex?
oh…silly me…of course…heterophobia.
i have heterophobia…not sure why. 😉
oh it’s just like the gay guys around me to say, “Oh, he’s a deviant heterosexual, a cursed soul, an evil one, you don’t want to near that one!”
lol 😉 😀
seriously…that’s what they say about me!
do they have any laws which protect a guy from the slurs of gay guys, calling him names and what not?
I would really like to see you again soon, but only if you feel want to see me too. xox
oohhh….i just realized somethng i said earlier about kicking some ass.
ohhhh…is it true?
well it’s about time, fuck. waited how long now?
(andy smirks of his certainty within, feelings of victory flooding the room, as reaches into his pocket for the lucky piece of satin fabric he has carried with him all these years, it has nothing to do with luck, but with how we feel…good…like the softness of satin against our skin) 😉
Don’t bring Andy ha ha 🙂
ok, next stupid question. 😉
Andy is the most radiant one anyone will ever see…trust me…you’ll see soon enough.
yer of course its true, i want to see you
i’m not so timid anymore
i think about how much you love me
every day
it lights a passion in my heart like i’ve never felt before
Marco played on my insecurities, and then like magic, he would rise above me, ebing and flowing, wonderful to watch and feel of his every word, delight in seeing him grow out of fear, just as we all have, yes?
and how do you suppose it is that we do?
someone holding our hand perhaps, for how long now? 😉
thing with me, is i don’t like letting go of my feelings i have for you all.
do you remember the bonding feelings as a child with childhood friends?
same dynamic within us all as adult children of the light.
personally, i don’t enjoy the stuffy adult mentalities so cold like they can BE, or as in most cases, not BE their true self, sadly unattended, unnurtured, unprotected.
you not timid, hey look at me, how i fearless joke around with M.
to most everyone in the world, she is like some unapproachable soul.
not true.
quite the opposite, in her search of safe and supportive true loving friends of forever more feelings that we all subconsciously yearn for, that of the child within all adult children.
oh sure, i fall of the stage now and again, my own worse enemy of needs not being addressed, although being met, just not as well as one should.
i like this new found certainty that seems sincere, yet scares me deeply within…insecure, afraid, not sure why.
yes we must rid ourselves of all the mentalities we have collected through life as adults, and return to the pure state of feeling and realness and sincerity as that of as child
we are of kindered spirit.
likemindedness of friends like back in high school.
i know i am still emotional of the high school student, feeling like i did then.
i was somewhat of a loaner in high shcool, where i spent my free time practicing guitar, sometimes for 12 hours at a time, trying to perfect a piece.
My quest is not of the certainty of what Jesus asked us to reach for, for what ever reasons that existed then, the environment being the first, which he knew he could not get enough people to reach as high as we are reaching today.
Indeed, the world has matured in it’s approach with one another, of a growth which has been continuing since all the efforts of Jesus walking the earth when he did.
did you know the Catholic church has one billion followers?
well…without doubt, so does M.
not sure why i don’t feel any intimidation that reality in my ease of speaking candidly like i do, not really here to impress her, of the quest which i am yet probing.
It looks like exceeding joy is what Jesus was reaching for, unable to because of the current environment back then, likely alot like Iraq was.
‘that’ of a wise child, who is protective in setting boundaries, knowingness of the results of effective boundaries, as well as the indicative feelings which come from toxic boundaries.
I have my own detox issues, which i am not that worried about, knowingness of detox from detanglement from others, which i am currently experiencing yet.
yeah, i mean look how uptight people are from the world which controls by means of fear, all of survival mode in appearance…fascinating for me, and then all the boasftul masks the wear so arrogant some have become(what Jesus calls derrangement of the once precious loving soul).
indeed, people are their own worse enemies from what is the single greatest cause of why the world is yet as it is, ‘Crucial lacking of sincere desire for wisdom’.
meanwhile, their child within remains submerged and afraid, stiffled in many cases, which manifests itself in many alarming ways, however many years go by, the manifestations do surface and grow, until the child within is attended to, sadly too late for many.
i see costuming as the single greatest experiential experience both of the participants and those who watch of the delightfulness of the fearless child within set free to just BE what ever they want to BE, but BE FREE.
i see myself as fearless, and yet, i am afraid of the alarming behaviour of co-workers, who do not have the words safe and supportive, what with all their hypocrisy of a gay guy, and immaturity.
i don’t tolerate it, and have changed careers some 20 times now.
i don’t really blame them like i used to, and rather a new compassionate perspective is the way i view the world now, where it is hypocritical to say belittle a grade 10 math student for not understanding grade 12 math.
But associate with them….not!
seems sincere ?, is sincere ! ,
fear, insecurites afraid ? maybe because it is sincere a new feeling ? reallness ! not used to it ? unfamiliar ?
afraid of the unknown ? is that not what fear is ?
alright don’t go over board, contain the fear a little,
keep it in perspective
lol 🙂
keep it real
anyway, i just thought i would run the idea by you, where great success is possible for so many, and at such a low cost in doing so, and in truth, we may one day look back, and think to ourselves, why we did not do it sooner, having once experienced, oh say, 10,000 strong insane lunatics. lol
all in the bright sunshine, broadcast around the world in HDTV of everyone’s bewilderment, exclaiming, “what the fuck is wrong those who live in Toronto? Must be something in the water!”
~ the fountain of life giving life which flows forth radiant and bright.
i know it is my own kid inside which is yet in healing mode as we speak. But he is rejuvenated in spirit in my rest assuring him that no more corporate ladders for him, and his delight of knowing, that he is in charge from now on, a surrendering of sorts where i pay attention to the indicative emotions…overly sensitive lately though, i do realize, somewhat demanding of attention…or perhaps…relentless is a better word…although all good in the end with certainty of how life should be for us all, devoid of useless fearful conduct, making way for only love to remain.
there are many dynamics which contribute to fearful conduct, but none more than the reality check of unwiseness which is fixable.
even fear of acceptance is a silly fear, where in truth, why be afraid of those who are rejecting of you, when in truth, if they do, they are not someone who we should regard as necessarily appropriate for us as close friends, albeit, we all have our limit for inner cirlces in any given day or week.
aware, aware aware
i know i know i know
doin it doin it doin it
speeding up speeding up
faster progress
eveyday
oh
i need to take a break
just one day
today
because tomorrow never comes
just today
fear is a powerful dynamic.
deep seated sadness for example of the overwhelming experience of feeling deep seated sadness of issues, where manifestation of anger is fear based, where anger is a lesser overwhelming experience dynamically, ~ hence my learning of Matt not being someone who was sincere and genuine of approach with me, albeit, sincere and genuine of approach, a sincere connect of spirit like my own.
mirrored for sake of me.
thankful i might add, truly.
i was upset and hurt at first reaction, clearly revealing of the dynamic of fear based anger, yes?
i have slowed in my creation of colorful prints which are of sincere perspectives of life, something i am enjoying more than i first realized.
thinking, ya, a book of these kinds of prints is something truly worth while in creating, to leave for generations to come, pure loving moments captured in time.
ya, i know what you are saying Marco…the submerging that occurs of the ill at ease insecure child self, from needs not being met.
for me though, it is the delightful sensibility i have of M, where i merely want to be as real as i know she is inside, of our delight with one another which is sincere in feeling for us both.
i keep slipping up with her though, my own insecurities, nothing to do with her…frustrated rants and what not, all transference on my part from the detox i am going thru here…you have no idea how absurd i have been treated lately…unbelievably, hence my overreacting of late, and overly sensitive demanding.
i know my grounded self at ease well, of my most comfortable state, which i stay tuned into, calm, confident, easy going sincerely happy self.
welcome back..
lol 🙂
when you are far i am near
when i am near , kiss me
ha ha who said that !
yeah…hurry up and wait…just feel what you feel.
i do that alot. cognitive awareness at all times, emotion and sensitivity right there under the skin, close to the surface, like the gliding across a room sensation of delight within…oh yeah, i am fully awake to each passing moment, of what i love most about life actually, delight of interactions with others, my most cherished thing of all in life, without too much ego when ego gets in protective mode, instead of fun loving mode.
people are the way they are each day, according to how their entire life has been up to each day, reality check greeting them each day, of the manifestations of unresolved issues, wants and needs, boundaries, or in most cases, no boundaries, all greeting us each day we wake to, sadly the undeniable truth many remain in denial of their state of mental emotional well being.
i don’t like to see things run their course for others, statistically speaking.
thanks Marco.
oh, i don’t know, some girl dressed like a guy? 😀
lol 🙂
i feel my biggest issue is unrealistic expectations of others, and letting go completely of any demanding behaviour as it is fear based.
i don’t ever want to do that, although my kid inside may have differing of opinion, and often does from time to time, his own insecurities of acceptance, impatience, all unrealistic expectation and consideration psychologically of others.
yeah, i am all that.
my real focus in life has been the quest i have been delving into about the adult child Jesus, who for me is not the one speaking or the one on the cross i look apon, rather the adult child Jesus alone in the desert like he did, at total ease with himself, of the natural boundaries he unknowingly set for himself in coming away from the world like he did, returning to them saying those very word to them all, “Come away from the world(which we know today as toxic for the adult child).
What else did he say, oh yeah, “Don’t gather in prayer like you do in groups, rather come alone in approach before God, of your higher sincerity level which is pure of heart and true for you.
these words are 100% of the experiential experience of Jesus in the desert…alone.
one thing i have learned of great amounts of time spent in my own deliberate approach of experiential experiences like that of Jesus’s deliberateness, is the sincerity is key to opening of the soul to fearless feel and BE open to each passing moment. It is where i learn in my observations of others, of my preferred state of BEing actually, totally at ease, so relaxed in state, of a truly delicate sensation of each passing moment.
There is an awareness of time dimension that opens as well in this state, of reflections which see a sorta matrix connectivity of evreryone all around us, where we are all of the affect/effect results of every day previous in life, and where the connectivity is what is of the everyone in all they say and do, where we really do flow thru one another.
This matrix can be nurtured by our deliberateness of BEcoming conduct, and profoundly i might add.
Jesus stepped fully into his preferred state of graceful by nature loving self, all from his deliberate approach of experiential experience in the desert alone with God.
As for the opening of the channel to God’s spirit, it is not as easy as merely applying oneself in an attempt to do so.
Some may refer to it as a figment of imagination, for those of not of the research i am yet probing. Yeah, sure, Andy is a lunatic. I have no concern whatsoever of defending myself from those not of the same desire of research i engage in, uninterested actually in what their shallowness of heart words my spu forth like they do…like a med student, “Oh, let’s categorize this one, shall we?” ~ limited thinkers, who are not of research desire, just doing their job so to speak.
Of the biggest thing i can say about God, is the sincerity state experience which is of no time constraint dimension in outward appearance of the depth of inner sincerity of compassion understanding of the growth curve we all are on, of deliberate nurturing approach of another, such as the gentle grace with another which is affect/effect direct/indirect of another and all the ones they know, of subconscious awareness results often being the case.
Yeah, the entertainment industry is a significant role when it comes to God, and in truth, is of God for those of God’s wisdom, where sincerity is the most significant aspect of God and of us all.
For me, what is nice, is how we are all becoming alike in feeling and approach, where my observations of oneness has seen a healthy increase over the years, of real sensibility we all feel at a deeper level of sincerity we feel, good for us all psychologically speaking, less defensive, less fearful, more relaxed, more open, more room for love to take root, less desire for mean spiritedness, all happier more often during our day.
ooppps…rattling on and on again on someone else’s blog.
is that unethical?
i am socially inept, in case anyone was wondering.
the greatest feeling of all in life, is knowing you love someone who you sense loves you as much as you do them.
and kissing too, seriously kissing is the best
& by kissing i mean sensual lip to lip ,maybe a tongue too, not kissing ass lol 🙂
just needed to clarify that one for Andrew Thomas
You can kiss me wherever you like!!
I’ve been kicking management company ass for the last two days. Absolute bunch of idiots. Dreadful company. Really, really grim. Won’t get back to me or my solictor via telephone. Two months waiting for a single document.
As I say, any help really appreciated. “Don’t let them get away with it”!
Anyway, at least it’s a nice day.
But, no, no kissing on bottoms. You’re right.
Marco played on my insecurities,
yes i do because i love you and want the best for & from you !
that’s what love is about !!!!!!
Intent !
& my intent is pure, real & true
anything else in between is a lesson
too be learn’t
anything outside that… is a bonus
WHY
because
I love you
like i Love All that is
including you & me
I do not see the need to prove to someone how much i Love them when i already know how much they love ,me
to me it’s just something to be accepted
with Grace
Gratitude
& Honour
to you it may seem
egotistical, selfish unwarrented
BUT TO OTHER”S
it may seem
“Inspirational. Guiding & Achievable”
remember THAT
Some people don’t realize the significance of their job as relates to God’s work, like the disconnected uninspired who may not fully embrace the level of the compassion driven one’s who hold it all together at the pure of heart level.
While it is not necessary that they embrace God’s work, it is sad that they may not be of the level of comprehension.
As Jesus says, many there are who unknowingly serve God, which goes for all those who are not of the descerning wisdom halo of comprehension, who at times can be annoying for us, yet necessary, where in time, eventually we all feel the oneness that we are, the calming of the spirit, the level of awareness we stand in, where we are the passersby in the lives of so many, from the view point of our sanctuary of descerning comprehension.
I keep my focus on the truth, that there is always someone out there who may be gripped by darkness around them, where for me, it is merely that of one soul which is of my driving determination, empowerment, motivation, and steadfast stick-to-it-tiveness, which does not wish to see them fall, in our knowingness that many do fall each day that passes.
The world is one where all is connected, where we know the reality check as enlightened ones who embrace fully the truth of this, the affect/effect direct/indirect flow of light thru the matrix of life, in our deliberateness of maintaining the flow of life giving life waters of living light into the matrix(sorry, only word i think works best to discribe connectedness of the ALL).
For me, it is always for sake of the ONE out there first, of the same ONE i once was of dark passage in life.
Secondly, it is of the nurturing of the Power of the Love of the ALL, who are uniting in the ONEness feelings as One powerful force of positive energy, all of which is required in changing the world, ALL for sake of the ONE.
ya, we are likeminded in our intent, as enlightened ones who serve God.
all for sake of the ONE, which in truth, is the ONE within us all, is it not?
life is a reflection
of the
SELF
thank’s Andy
i knew
I you would understand
i you
get it !!!
lol
🙂
connected
For me, the one most loving, is the one i came out into the desert looking for, finding him there alone, of his silent pure of heart loving reflection of his pure of heart loving feelings he feels flow endlessly, in his knowingness of what he feels is true of everyone, wishing they too all felt what it is he feels like he does.
I see Jesus there alone in the desert in his state of grace which surrounds him, as though waiting for me as in my BEcoming the level of grace which he is in my slow approach with him, not wishing him to feel anything but the love we feel for one another, true of us both, of his knowingness in his watching me approach, not ever looking away, the BEcoming he already is, of which i am yet BEcoming, of my knowingness sincere and true of my own grace like his own, like my own…
~ Ominpotent sameness approach is of the gate of heaven opening like it is.
ya, this is true of everyone, is it not.
the KNOWINGNESS is the Power of God connection.
I am still wrapping my head around God speaking with me, and don’t wish to delve to deep in discussion about it at this time, but he is there, and yes, God is with us.
Something tells me you know too that God is with us.
My approach with you is of the sincerity level of God, focused in purity of love for sake of the One within us all.
Keep in mind, that we are of the no time constraint knowingness of the slow growth process for ALL.
It is where we dwell in our likemindedness, yes?
for me is the the same “omnipresent”
all that is !
“everywhere all at the same time”
“Love” – some would call it
ok off now i am too be toxic and naughty
well
untill the wife comes to kick my ass
i can do as i please
yer
would’nt you ?
life too short to be restrained
and the wife’s on her way
so may as well have some fun b4
it’s too late
🙂
LOL
yes…life is a reflection of the self of everyone….the matrix that connects us all in all we say or do, each and every second of every day.
i am merely one who stands outside the matrix in the no time contraint comprehension of one who choses to maintain the life giving life flow of loving light into the matrix.
‘that’ is what enlightened ones are…all knowing in comprehension, not for sake of anything other than maintaining the flow of life giving life waters of living light into the matrix.
It does not matter if others chose a destiny like we do, for that is a matter of their own time of those who may become aware of the enlightened ones who walk among us, in their slowing and curiousity of just who are these ones who dwell among us, not wishing to be revealed?
Some do and many will take up their destiny of likemindedness like we are, praying they do, yet fully of the knowingness of how long it took us to arrive at our level of the knowingness comprehension halos we stand in.
lier
i can see right through you !!
i’ll enjoy my freedom
B4
it’s
TOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
LATE
for me, in approaching Jesus in the desert there alone, of his knowing i am there with him, feeling the same thing he feels, the pure love devoid of doubt forever more true and faithful friendship with him, is actually of the same approach of me with my SELF, the SELF of Jesus, and the SELF of us all.
this is what the pure knowingness HALO is, which is of the no time constraint sincerity level of likemindedness wisdom.
It is the purity of the knowingness HALO which is most significant of all things in life for me, because of the 100% purity of love that flows forth from it, where it is not just wordiness of my use of words like FOREVER MORE, of say a poet wishing to inspire, rather it is of the eternal spirit realm of FOREVER MORE which is free of the elements of doubt and all the useless things of unBEcoming conduct like that of the world.
It is 100% pure forever more, of no egotism whatsoever.
Jesus came to knowingness of the 100% pure knowingness level of comprehension, and he stepped into it full and BEcame pure truth in his BEcoming conduct.
He must of spent along time alone to acheive this, where i am not able to as yet, and yet, i know what he stepped into and BEcame, if that makes any sense.
ok, i would like to say, i have been stepping into the 100% purity level of sincerity over the past year, and i like how it feels there, where many things open to me, and i am continuing in my study of it, taking notes.
All fascination curiousity for me guys, in wanting to know Jesus, no different in our desire in fully knowing our SELF, is it not?
The no time constraint forever more feelings of what i see as the eternal realm likemindedness they speak of about invisible eternal realm spirits. There is something there, an invisible realm, which is of great curiosity for me, nothing more.
i am not here to way any flags, althought i do love waving flags, rather it’s just Andy who became intrigued by the words in the Nag Hammadi.
I will say this though, God did speak to me in away that is much like the art piece i did of the divine true self.
The connection with God, is of a feeling of someone who is not of ever turning away from you, and feels like the best friend one could ever make in life. There is an approach feeling with God which seems of the knowingness of what i will do next, where each and every time, it is me growing away from the world into the knowingness of the one who is there. I have not made alot of notes as yet, but there is something there, an eternal spirit realm i do believe exists.
huh?
ya, of course my love is pure and true.
i think i am looking mostly for one who is most safe and supportive of me….is that one you?
feels like it, in our friendship which is drawing us toward one another.
oh, i don’t want to lose this feeling, not ever.
and so i will commit myself to being of graceful approach in not turning away from you, which i think i have proven thus far yes, still here waiting for you?
does that help?
i am in no hurry, were time really is not of constraint for me, and rather is of those who aimless toss attitude around, is it not? Not of the pure of heart determination to hold on to best friends like we do.
so ya, looks like ya stuck with me, it that’s ok with you, my life surrendered to the forever more friendship of the ALL, just as Jesus did.
i really have surrendered to the level i speak of our friendship with Jesus, our friendship with the ALL, of our comprehension of the ONE within the ALL which we nurture for sake of the Power of Love of the ALL which lifts the entire world up out of darkness.
does that help you understand me(us) better?
seems we are not so different at all, are we?
as though it is you typing these words, yes?
love it.
we keep rising. feels good yes? 😉
too late is of the time contraint mentalities of the world in all it’s controling expectations of each other and another.
again, i am of the no time constraint realm of the ever nurturing of the matrix which connects us all, of my knowingness of the future world…which is….the ever growing into the ONENESS of the Power of the Love of the ALL.
It is for sake of the ONE yet in darkness, that of my pure empowerment for sake of them, for sake of those like them, for sake of us all, for sake of me one day to be found of the ONE like me, who does see(feel) me as one most loving of them utterly and completely of the love devoid of doubt pure feelings which surrounds us, of no desire to ever feel anything but the love we have for one another, ever of our pure of heart feelings which love one another….without doubt.
Useless doubt, fear based, is of the immature world.
I know who i am, of my own pure of heart feelings which can only BE loving of the one who loves me like i do them…but the world keeps distracting us both from our ONENESS pure of heart feelings, ever present the immaturity yet of the world, yes?
That is the great difficulty for one who has become truly enlightened in BEcoming of the pure love devoid of doubt which Jesus is forever more, sadly, one who was of the feelings of being alone in his knowingness he not only knew of himself, but true of us all, sad that others did not turn towards that within them which he came to know of himself, to always be of the tender loving feelings he felt for another which he could not be anything other than the sincere loving feelings is was for everyone, of no desire to BE anything but love in all his words of what he BEcame outward of what he was feeling within at all times, ever of his days of reflection and feeling of the loving compassionate wisdom while alone in the desert, indeed, a wise adult child.
truly the uselessness of negative conduct which betrays the ONE in darkness is indeed cause for alarm for the one gripped by the darkness of the unloving ones around them, yes?
And what happens to the ONE in darkness eventually if the ones of wisdom do not arrive in time?
we know….statistically….we KNOW.
so don’t ever be of forgetfulness of the ONE in darkness who awaits for us to take hold of their hand and say, “hey you, don’t be of you sad feelings any longer that others cause you to feel, for they are unwise in their unloving of YOU, the one we love, who are just like you. Come and dwell among our loving extended family forever more of our love for one another, where you will be surrounded by our love for each other forever more.”
I come for the ones who are yet in darkness, each and every ONE of them.
We come for the ones who are yet in darkness, each and every ONE of them.
until the day, we are all of the ONENESS loving pure feelings of love devoid of the motherfucking useless darkness. lol
😉 😀
any more questions?
you need not ever wonder if my(our) love is true then, yes?
i am not here to constrain, rather i am here to free, am i not?
why would i want to constrain someone into loving me, when i already know our love is true?
i mean, ya sure, if you want more of what i am, then let me some day, for my love does not change.
i am not about today, tommorrow or a particular day.
i am of all the blessed days which remain of my life, all of the ONENESS in each step, each breath, each heart beat of my loving feelings for all of each blessed day i wake to.
do you know who i am? 😉
am i not like ‘that’ of you, ‘that’ of true love of us all?
anyway guys, leave a message and i WILL get back to you, not that i am anything other than where i am easily found….always ‘that’ of you.
i ask, “why would i want to feel any other way than the way we all feel, loving of one another?
doubt does not dwell with me, as i cast it out of my precious loving soul some time ago, last decade actually, seeing and feeling all the doubtfulness so many were back then, the way they treated us, calling us sinners and what ever bullshit fucked up unknowingness they felt like thowing apon us, toxic for Troy and i who killed himself as a result of the fucking unloving bullshit way they treated him and i so openly in front of the congregation of the church.
Well, i set my self on the path to build the biggest motherfucking church this world has ever seen, and indeed, my church steeple is the tallest in the world(cnn tower) all lit up with the bisexual colors…cool eh?
So if you wonder if my love is true, well, i can’t help you decide if it is, or it is not, other than the words which may reveal who i am…true love of us all, are we not?
we know.
on we go.
bless you
i am not angry, rather i am hurt, each time i feel the contempt for me, i feel of others each day in my journey, of those who do not yet know me(us).
what keeps me going, is the increasing numbers and strength of our ONENESS love of the extended family we are a part of.
so yeah, either get and stay with me, or don’t.
i know i WILL always BE as i am, purely of my loving feelings for all, in our efforts to one day feel the exceeding joy which is yet growing of how the future world feels.
so where is Andy?
and where has Andy always been in his heart?
standing in the future, of a very long and difficult road he has journeyed, never letting go of his prayers for us all, of his knowingness within him, within us all.
i do pray one day we shall meet, and end this silliness which has been between us, for it is our love which is the bridge for us to easily walk across, if only we would one day, i pray.
i cannot usher the kingdom of heaven in alone guys, it is of the Power of the Love of the ALL that rises us ALL up into the kingdom of heaven, of the exceeding radiant and bright light which pushes out all the negative darkness in the world.
Delay if you will, but know that it is of heart ache that you do.
for i know how much i love you all.
why be of the fearfulness of the world. fuck that. bin there a few times. So isolating they were to Troy and i.
i can’t believe how cold they were to us.
i left the church behind, went down to the waters edge where i liked to be alone many days, and i recall the day Troy came down to the water’s edge after i had left the church, where he asked me to baptism him in the river. Beautiful sunny day, he disrobed, where i baptised him in the name of Jesus.
you have no idea how harshly they treated us.
we know.
on we go.
i just want to be happy, nothing else but happiness.
with those as of the happiness we feel for one another.
damn world is so stiffling, is it not?
for so many of us.
new art peice of the ONE in darkness i am yet working on.
i am taking my time with this one, depicting of the naysayers(darkness) surrounding the ONE, in their pointing of fingers, mockery, cajoling, bitterness, of the harsh feelings of the one isolated in the middle, afraid…a powerful peice that is revealing of how the world yet treats the ONE in us all.
we know
on we go
bless you
i want to express all of it that i feel, not just of happiness(the end goal of our continued efforts in pushing forward like we do), but also of our empowerment in doing so, of the ONE we look apon, that of myself long ago, that of ONE who i know they yet treat as they did/do me(us) to this day.
oh yeah, a mighty fearless warrior of God…i am.
~ a truth revealer, like the one they speak of in the book of revelation…i am.
i am…BE cause…WE ARE…truth revealers…always of God’s divine will for sake of the ONE held in darkness of the yet unwise ignorant unloving bitter apathetic world.
and i(we) am coming for ALL of YOU.
😉 😀
so let it be know, there is one motherfucking pissed off dude walkning among us, and his name is Andy.
it’s never to late to hug Andy….
until his last day, it is of his prayers, that you do.
and indeed, you do.
thank you.
bless you
(something to share with all of you)
I recall the Hillary Swank moment, a beautiful day, the minister of the church coming over to my house alone where i stood outside the house beside his car, his asking me to come back to the church.
I was so livid with him that day, an all encompassing deep feeling in his betrayal of Troy and i in front of the congregation, of Troy’s family in attendance, who all knew i was secretly having sex with their son Troy, threatening me all the while if they ever found out it was true, terrified me, yet i stood in solidness of my love between Troy and i that we had for the years we were together.
It was near the end, a few month’s before Troy’s suicide.
I stood there and said to the minister face, “I will build the biggest church this world has ever seen one day!”
as i stood there not moving, as he backed off and got back in his car and drove off.
ah fuck.
every day that has passed sinced has been of that day in each step, each heart beat, each breath, of the internalizing truth from Troy’s suicide that is of my depth of soul, always there with me each day, where i will always BE in memory of us, and what they did to us…unknowingly unwise betrayal.
i am not so much angry as i was, rather i am more of the compassionate pushing forward in connecting with the happiness of the one in darkness, of knowingness of loving feelings they are, like my own, in freeing their precious loving soul from darkness, of my(our) sincere love for them all.
ah fuck. i have get this out, express it once and for all.
and i am doing just that, am i not…and it is the light, is it not?
pureness of TRUTH…i am of ‘that’.
i am…BE cause…WE ARE….pureness of ‘that’ which is TRUTH
Habla espanol?
Hey you guys, i find it funny this site, as it says i would never sing ‘Spanish lesson’ on my tour as i hate it ..???? As I’m just leaving Spain and so far i still love it , this site is questionable?? don’t you think?? But seriously as I’m in Alicante airport waiting for my flight , thought i would check in and say hi… i feel fantastic ..i love the crowds ..i love my husband..i love you!!!
Bonjour Paris xXx
P.S …ARE YOU MILES AWAY? # WINK WINK #
P.S are you Miles away?? # wink #
i’ve never really shared that with many to any great extent of someone who wanted to know me like you do.
perhaps i feel it is something i want the whole world to know about me, in my approach with you, a good place to leave the life story of Andy, for all the world to one day see i suppose.
We know the approach of radiant bright exceeding joyfulness unattended, unnurtured and unprotected within the ONE in darkness, submerged and afraid from the absurd external fear around them, many of which are sadly unknowing of the wisdom of homophobia reality check(about as sad as it gets), where it is our approach which shines so brightly and radiant, it rushes in to precious loving heart and soul, of the ONE who is there, thru the useless fear, dispelling of the useless fear in doing so, resonating with the pure of heart love we know of the ONE who is there.
‘that’ is the mission of God we embrace FULLY forever more, of no time constraint, in our full knowingness, there will always be ONE who is there in darkness.
bless you
you need not every wonder about Andy’s heart.
i WILL always BE there, as ONE who of ONE who is there…the meYOU, YOUme of us ALL.
bless you
keep on…keeping it together…knowing i am not going anywhere other than where i am always found.
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here among you all forever more, till my last blessed day of ONENESS we share.
pure TRUTH of God’s divine WILL of our WILLINGNESS.
Jesus loves ALL. God loves ALL. We love ALL.
God blesses ALL.
bless you
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bless you bless you bless you
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That’s very profound Andy…hope you feel the same way about the planet?? your voice needs to be heard ..keep on singing xXx
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come on, let’s do this ONENESS together one day.
i know i WILL BE always BE there, as ONE like YOU who sincerely cares, who i know is there too.
let’s take each other’s hand and kick some ass, shall we.
ohhhh….what fun we will BE, yes?
damn straight! lol
(teasing you again like you do me 😉
so enough of these things which seperate us from what yearn to BE, always of the pure love for ONE another, forever free to just BE, of the ever yearning to always BE….there.
we care.
we know.
on we go
bless you all
i await your reply, yet i already know how you feel.
if not, it’s ok, as i know how both feel.
You have your commitments, i have mine…no biggy…just expressing myself that’s all, like we do, and have done for years now.
i love you
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now stop crying damn it, you ruining my satin outfit!
lol 😉 😀
Jesus loves us ALL.
bless you
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ahhhh…a new level of awareness. love it.
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let go of the past and grab hold of the future where i am standing in the beautiful sunshine forever more, peaceful and at rest of no time contraint along side my loving brothers and sisters forever more, till my last day with you all.
enjoy the blessed day everyone, each and every single day.
what is it now…12,975 blessed days to go…of God’s WILLINGNESS for us ALL, of the pure of heart ONENESS of the Power of LOVE of the ALL.
thank you God. thank you Jesus. thank you to all who turn towards their pure of heart blessed loving feelings like ‘that’ of my(our) own within us ALL.
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(andy steps away from his PC over to his sewing machine, diligently at work in the sewing of the 100 outfits of satin, of each stitch he knows is of God’s work forever more)
i am miles away when you are near
i am near when you are miles away
so where are we anyway?
forever more
you need not ever question why.
we know
on we go
thank you
i am always with you in our pureness of love for each other…for ALL….forever more.
we are just scratching the surface of the future world that is within our grasp. It merely took ridding ourselves of the fear between us, of my own fear in expressing what needed to be felt and spoken, in your embrace of getting to know me, one who has always loved you, always will…
always
forever more
it’s like i can BE anything else other than what we feel.
so yeah, welcome to my heart that loves the YOUme, meYOU of us all forever more.
damn…i really am fearless, yes?
(crowd shouts out in together as Andy stands apon the stage…waiting for them to say it, as the shout it OUT loud.)
i AM…BE cause…WE ARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FEARLESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
whew….that took some doing….can we go for lunch now? 😉
i need a shower…i have to appear in court for trumped up charges..don’t ask…the outcome according to my lawyer is good…never been charged with anything before.
an emotional storm me of late, yet look at what has come of the emotional storm i have been going thru…pure white radiant bright light from the darkness i stand of late.
i am not stable, faulting somedays, crushed inside and exceedingly toxic, yet knowingness of memory…i have gone thru far worse in the past.
God bless you Troy.
candy girl who are you in real?
yes of course, i am of the probing of all truth revealing of all things of the world…trust me…i am no wherer finished exporing the truth of all things.
the world is not ready for what we have to say.
but they are going to hear(feel) it, if they like it or not.
and we WILL be always in their face of what we know of us ALL…in a good way, pushing out of darkness of radiant pure white light of our pure of heart love which connects us ALL, subconsciously for many, cognitive for some, all of the affect/effect direct/indirect flow of life giving life water of the water of eternal life forever more, for all generations yet to come to look back apon and reflect apon the enlightened ones of today, ever radiant and bright for all eternity to feel, just as we feel for the ONE called Jesus who was and is forever more the most evolved adult child to ever walk the earth, which i am still exploring of the depth of his soul, of my own soul in doing so, of ALL souls of the earth, probing of the TRUTH which does not fail.
~ Eternal Truth Wisdom
common sense really, not that difficult to understand, if only more would, and WILL. 😉 😀
‘that’ is up to Candy girl to reveal.
😉 😀
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i am her true and faithful friend till the end
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candy girl you are a spanish
so habla español
ya, i get it.
thank you
let’s go kick this world’s ass, shall we?
take a camera crew ever step we take.
¿listo?
ah joda. no puedo mi esmalte para uñas. yo segundo.
okey. encontrado ello. el derecho donde siempre era.
¡siempre SERÁ!
de que somos. niños de la luz de Dios.
¡Hola! ¡Hola! ¡Hola!
¡Dios te bendiga!
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oh oh!
here they come, 1, 000 strong and more!
(someone in the crowd says, “what’s going on? who are these people? Oh, this is truly the most breath taking thing i have ever felt! ~ everyone smiling radiant and bright of the ONENESS love within us ALL)
😉 😀
opppsss…candy boy is andy? lol 😉
always was.
always will BE
always.
forever more
blessings to all this blessed day forever more!
Jesus loves ALL. God loves ALL. We love ALL.
God blessed ALL…forever more.
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(exceeding joy was felt by all in the decades that followed, of no quite sure who was behind it, of one they never met or knew, yet they knew it was one just like them all. Year after year their love grew stronger in strength and numbers, of the united pure of heart oneness of the Power of the Love of the ALL, as they all became restored in what MATTers most in life, the hidden treasure now found, free of absurd fear like the centuries before, of what they all feel for one another, God’s love for us all to BE loving of one another forever more, in their knowingness of love for ALL, for all eternity to know the truth…we are loving. i am…BE CAUSE…WE ARE!) 😉
ONE
😉 😀
the never ending story of LOVE, Loves. 😉
OHHHHHHHHH my god u fools Candy girl that’s Madonna she says Habla espanol? …before spanish lesson on tour !!
looks good on the banks and all involved in their over speculation of markets, such as housing(remember people, it is the banks money 90% behind most real estate), who are crying now, because of the fall from their over speculation in the first place.
i pray it collapses into the ground for them all, if you must know, such heartless idiots apon the earth in the eyes of God, of so many suffering in need of food to eat.
a heartless uncaring world of morons.
ah, poor babies have to sell the BMWs because they lost their jobs.
rant over.
To whom it may concern: Madonna soy un fan tuyo desde que empezaste tu carrera. El 16 de septiembre estuve en el concierto que distes en Sevilla y aunque me gusto mucho, sali un poco decepcionado. Creo que hubo un problema de comunicacion con el publico, que no entendia muchas cosas que les decias en ingles. Sabiendo que te gusta mucho todo lo hispano, tienes canciones como la isla bonita o spanish lesson y hasta una hija medio cubana, lo minimo que podias hacer es aprenderte unas 4 frases en español, para asi ganarte al publico. Bueno seguire siendo un superfan tuyo, pero please ve a que te den unas cuantas spanish lesson y asi tus espectaculos en españa seran perfectos.
P.d.: Perdon que escriba en español, pero seguro que tienes a alguien que te lo pueda traducir. Un beso. Manuel.
John, no, Madonna doesn’t post here. For fifteen years I thought she did!! But, no, it’s just a load of fakers here. Fakers including bloody Avril Lavigne(who I think is both Andy and Marco) and bloody Shakira (who is Candy Boy, I suspect, but I’m not sure). Jennifer Lopez got banned for starting stupid polls all the time.
We also had Gwen Stefani on here for a while posting spam links to the No Doubt blog trying to increase the Google ranking.
But, to the best of my knowledge, Madonna has never posted here. In fact, she is one of the very few major international female pop stars who has NEVER posted here.
No one here tonight.
I’m drinking a beer while dancing to Bimbo Jones remix of Britney “Piece of Me”. Well brilliant!
gimme all of your lovin!
but are you gettin it?
😀 😀
you got!
you know YOU got it!
but are you gettin it?
gimme all of your lovin!
i never want it to stop!
love it!
easy to sing and play on guitar too!
a sing along! yeah?
picture it…a Sonny and Cher moment, yet to happen!
ah fuck, ok, i admit….i love more than i want to admit.
Fack you Andrew, I never posted those polls. Someone faked my nickname.
J-Lo’s back. I have notified the site admin.
nope…but i was out listen to Avril earlier…trying to cope best i can…i am not doing very well….breaking down daily now.
i might check into a hospital…afraid i might hurt myself.
sorry…im really fuck up…ruminating is getting worse…i gotta take a break…i need of suppportive friends…only strangers in my…no close friends.
bailif ask me to call the number she gave me for a therapist.
i will follow thru…i have to, or i may not make it thru.
sorry…just being totally honest right now.
i has nothing to do with you…it’s my delving into the past which nearly destroy me then.
i have break, and i am breaking…healthy i know…need to heal it some more….little by little…one day at a time.
sometimes i will round a building and just sit on the ground where no one can see me crying.
sunglasses help in my sparactic moments of not being able to hold back my tears which flow like a fountain somedays.
i run away from it, but it seemingly won’t let me.
stopped fighting for awhile now…months ago…just feeling it all over again, that’s all, and sharing it with the world, leave something for all to ponder what happened to Andy long ago…still haunting him today.
purity of love in my thoughts of still holding Troy’s hand is what it is for me.
Try this site: http://www.nodoubt.com/journal/
stop…please stop…i can’t the bullshit ok?
i have to go.
i have to stop thinking about it for abit, that’s all.
im so screwed up, i can’t look at anything…way way way oversensitive right now, even of the way people look at me while out walking.
i need my peaceful sanctuary to hid for abit…no tv, no music, i need to calm down.
Am I still in No Doubt or did I quit? I can’t remember.
it’s like the film The Fisher King for me somedays, frightened, running away, calm other days.
ya…it is always about the doubtfulness of others, their projections(unknowingly).
**Burp**
so yeah…i don’t to do this spinning around any more…wondering if you care.
it’s not you…it’s me.
oh, very funny…fuck…im talking serious, and she’s belching.
actually…i needed that.
ah fuck…love…makes us crazy and insecure.
i need to go break something.
I’m sorry. I have trapped wind.
i remember flipping out over Troy one time.
i broke all the windows in the house, and all the furniture, even the doors.
can you believe that?
spent the night in jail for it…detox…alcohol and me don’t get along, hence my 14 years clean and sober.
for sure, it would destroy me if i ever entertain the idea of going back to my old ways.
According to Wikipedia I am still in No Doubt. I thought so.
nah…it’s not you…it’s me…don’t apologize.
Does Madonna post here?
No, Gwen. Though I’m sure she checks back here sometimes.
yeah…good point…it’s about my doubt.
why am i so doubtful?
with or without you, i can keep doing what i do, pushing myself like i do.
i have learned it is better when surrounded by those in particiaption of the same objective, of steadfast determination in creation of the outfits for example.
that’s all i want to do, if you must know…is sew the costumes all day long.
DIdn’t I look sexy in that “It’s My Life” video!!!
heaven for me…a loving peaceful sanctuary with easy listening music.
ok…next stupid question.
Oops … Gwen, stop faking my nickname!!!!
I thought you looked like bloody Madonna, actually, Gwen.
I’ve had a bloody awful stressful week. I miss not having a holiday this year.
set your boundaries…adjust them accordingly…including the ones for me.
anything you want to tell me would be appreciated.
I feel run-down and low.
it’s the running from the world…i know.
i am out in a desert.
i left the world behind, no desire to return…not for awhile at least.
that’s how it feels for me.
I think I’ve got a bug, but the stress from this blinking solicitor thing is too much.
it’s a calming sensation, of utter gracefulness which surrounds me, at ease, unafraid.
i turn and look sideways, and…you are still walking beside me.
i say to you, “look how far we have come all these years, all this way. Do you feel what i feel? Tell me you do.”
I’m not going to be late. I’m done in. Sorry I’m a bit off tonight.
silicitor?
surely i am not a silicitor when it comes to God’s work?
I’ve never even met you. Something went seriously wrong down the line somewhere.
i am merely expressing myself with you, as a friend.
Honestly, trying to sell a house is just too much grief. Anyway, you don’t want to hear my problems.
for me?
or for you?
or for us both?
scrape that…what about now?
i approach as a true and faithful friend till the end.
of what i shall always remain for ALL.
Is Madonna in Paris? I love Paris.
i am being too open too.
and will stop for now.
i respect you. even while i have been too open, and the timing of it all…well…i wanted to share my life experience, and i have done that so far.
it is you getting to know me better, feelings you wanted to.
You said: ““look how far we have come all these years, all this way.”
My situation has gone absolutely nowhere!!! After 10-15 years of being royally shafted, absolutely nowhere.
I am absolutely slap bang in the same position I have always been.
One day I’ll get an enormous fuck-off gun and go on the rampage. Settle a few debts.
ya…it’s like that….i know.
Sick of being treated like a second-class citizen.
lol
nah, i don’t care about the motherfucker world and how it wishes to poison my soul.
i will kill myself first before ever hurting another.
i am really tired of the uncaring world, wishing to leave it.
i am no were near comparison of any citizen, seeing my self standing with Jesus in the desert.
honestly, i have no concern at all for how anyone will ever treat me.
i am beyond their comprehension of the unwise bitter snares which i see snaring their souls.
Well I’m tired too. I hope you don’t mind me cutting off the conversation but I am stressed and tired and I REALLY need to get sleep or tomorrow I am just more stressed and more tired. I would love to talk some more.
NIght night
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so you need not ever worry about me, other than my own suicide….just tired of it all, that’s all….sickening for me.
i think that’s why Jesus let them kill him…he wanted to die, because of their many illnesses of heart which sickened him, feeling of their doubtfulness and impure thought.
I might have another look at that Gwen Stefani video, check out how much she looks like Madonna.
nah…i am way to open…this is way off the scale for me in being so open in such a public place…where in truth..,i obviously don’t give care what anyone thinks or says from this day forward.
actually, i have felt this way for years.
it’s me…nothing to do with anyone.
What a woman!
Is Madonna.
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it’s what happens when i followed Jesus into the desert with him like he did, the BEcoming of wisdom which seperates all unBEcoming conduct from BEcoming conduct of Jesus.
i found myself isolated in my halo for many years, wise in the snares of the illnesses of heart which snare nearly every soul.
chillax?
nah, i am the one who is calm, not others.
think about…who am i standing next to?
Jesus.
people annoy me.
saw someone meditating out in public today. very cool. i went over and sat beside him and quitely spoke with him like i had always known him…
i could tell he does like i do, sitting in the calm santuary of his mind, peaceful at ease, listening and descerning the world all around him.
he was shocked by my words so pleasant and informative of his own self which is no different than me, calm at ease words of pleasant reflection of knowingness, my enthusiasm like his own, of his inner child yet afraid, calming him even more as he smiled.
duh!
ya, i know ‘that’!
😉 😀
always did.
OOOXXX
hmmmmm….
well….in seeing how far we have journeyed, i am commiting myself to a life time true and faithful friend to all…till the end.
done.
now where did i put the purple thread….
😉 😀
come to think of it, i commited myself along time ago, unknowingly i suppose, it was just how i felt when i woke up in the hospital after my ……………
something changed….i had left and came back.
they could all see it in me. I remember them looking at me, how calm i was, my grace.
yah, something happened to Andy in coming back, after he made the decision to leave…and did leave….note and all, which my therapist still has in his possession.
my best friend in life he was…still is…always will be….the years he let me chat about whatever i was feeling.
which is what i am doing here i suppose…no care at all of what any of you think of me.
however; this may be toxic material for others to read, and should be deleted…professional perspective.
print it if you want…but please delete it if that is the correct thing to do.
it’s just way to deep for others, a trigger….
ask them.
not that many would actually read all this stuff, but you never know.
did you know just the word suicide in public television(news for example) is a trigger, according to case study incidents which indicate the timing of such events of the pyschological probing after the fact, of the indicative numbers which appeared like a anomoly?
yep.
delete it.
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many may think Andy is psycotic.
Andy is not psycotic.
And sent Madonna, the Nag Hammadi Library in 1995, along with a few words of psychological view points, and book titles, of Dr.Charles Whitfield.
Since then, we have watched each grow as individuals.
Than may help some of you better understand our depth of friendship all this time, tangible, not psycotic.
real life impactful events for me, and the healing journey since the time Troy walked the earth along side me.
to dispell the notion of Andy being psychotic, he is anything but, more tuned into the mindset of Jesus than likely anyone alive today, the impactful event of Troy of the emotional intensity which is of Andy’s fearful determination in trying to explain the unexplained and why the world is the way it is, and why it has remained the way it is since the time Jesus walked the earth.
In concluding of my resent study, the main cause for the world problems is, according to God everyone,”The Crucial Lacking of Desire for Wisdom.”
I will share something else with you as well…the fire within Andy of deep seated anguish has been channeled into God’s work since Troy. So for a very long time, Andy has walked along side Jesus and all of you.
Further research concludes that what Jesus meant by the words, “Reach for that which i am unable to reach for.”, is without doubt, of the understanding of how harsh the world was during the time Jesus walked the earth, where there was not likely much Exceeding Joy to be had among any of them, with particular note that Exceeding Joy is able to BE maintained every second of everyday for those who seek it, and come into the fullness of knowing it.
My open reflections are for other seekers and likeminded individuals to further explore where i have left off, the scholars of the world who are as enthusiastic as i am in our on going research of likeminded approach that we share…open, relaxed dialog.
just as i do here, fearless open discussion of any and everything, all of the seeker mindset of exploration into probing for the safe passage for mankind to journey.
In concluding all of the research, the most significant truth wisdom is this;
The Kingdom of Heaven is a Perspective anyone can attain, which IS of the macro thinking ability of everyone who are able to fully embrace the “Truth Wisdoms”, which are meant for the BEcoming conduct of the divine true SELF within everyone.
It is not about how charitable one is in life, albeit, always charitable of the BEcoming conduct of one is fully of the BEcoming conduct of Jesus and actually further than what Jesus was able to reach for, merely a man, an adult child of the light of God.
As for my open dialog with God which is on going, i will relate the words openly as to the puzzle i am working on.
Here is one particular wisdom which is important in the opening of the channel with God, and that is of the 100% sincerity level everyone is able to experience, should their sincere desire change from lacking of desire to desire, which i have done for many years now. With that comes the obviousness of the ALL the recorded written words(from God) which point conclusively in the same direction, where all the words mean the same thing, a building of fearless transistion from lacking desire over to desire for wisdom(which is a slow process) which comes with the drawing in affect, a dynamic known by God, of all the words one looks apon. It takes years to clearly see this dynamic, but it is a part of God’s knowingness, in my attempts to understand God, which no one will ever do until such a time of God’s chosing, clearly disclosed by God in written word.
I was trying to understand why God wises it to be this way, and there is a reason. It appears the luring dynamic affect/effect, is designed to increase our desire to desire wisdom at an individual level(follow me on this), where it is also of the increasing sincerity levels which occur during the transition of lacking desire to desire for wisdom, which does occur while in sincere approach alone, of the same sincerity level of emotions we feel while alone, the subtleness, of subtle fearless intellect.
Here is one other significant aspect which i think is crucial. It appears the increasing sincerity level is only possible for those who embrace their curiousity at an individual level, where it seemingly is not something you can teach someone fully, albeit, certainly encourage. What does ‘not’ occur though, is the attaining of the 100% sincerity level(which i have achieved) , merely by teaching it, where it has to occur within an individual while alone in study, because of the subtle nature of the 100% sincerity level, much like how one feels while falling asleep or waking each day.
it is of pure grace and subtle fluttering of peaceful loving feelings.
so if anyone is thinking Andy may be psychotic, perhaps these words dispell it, in the truth, that Andy loves Jesus more than anyone else in life, and it is Andy’s most true and faithful friend till the end, where Andy did ask for Jesus to have his heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, of sincere 100% willingness in doing so, which came from Andy’s sincere disinterest in any learning he found in life from any and all along his journey of life. In doing so, he was rewarded with many gifts of what i refer to as pure clarity insight of the world around, revealing of subtle hidden truths of people’s inner fear for example, so subtle, most do not detect it, of the adult child of us all.
anyway…i hope that helps, and if not, remember, Andy does not concern himself with anything any of you have to say, unless it is sincere in loving approach which he is thankful of those who are…you know who are.
As for expectations, i am letting go of all expectations of everyone, and instead inviting any and all to participate with him in his endeavors of projects of strickly volunteer effort, where Andy knows, without or without any one, Andy is going to BE just fine…you’ll see.
i think that about covers any concerns, yes?
I am of the mindset of the evoking exceeding joy in others, which is what i truly believe Jesus wanted us to reach for beyone his reach. So i think we can easily say, Andy is not some hateful psychotic, and rather quite the opposite, is he not?
Any and all who wish to think otherwise, i say this…only Jesus and God can extinguish fires within you of the fearful hypocrisy heart of impure thoughts of another. Fact.
i can’t do it guys, and i am not even going to try any more with my words, letting go and just go sew the customs.
yeah sure, ask me how the work is coming along which is commencing soon, and i will be glad to share.
I was thinking maybe some multi-coloured special ones of all the rainbow colors for the volunteers who help create the outfits freely given to the volunteers who will wear them, where those who participate in wearing one, will have a selection of one solid color outfit of whatever color they wish, free to keep after the event.
anyway…just thought i would end on a positive note in closing discussing this day.
12, 975 blessed days to go.
I am so going to do this without fail, however long it takes, a year, two…i will do this presentation to the world of the 100 loving brothers and sisters like me.
thank you.
blessings to all.
Jesus loves ALL. God loves ALL. We love ALL.
God blesses ALL.
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100 is God’s number…as in 100%
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as you can probably tell by my spelling errors, i am fatigued…my own worse enemy somedays.
too much caffeine today. knew there was something causing my edginess. damn. that’s it, two java a day, no more…;)
Jesus,
there seems to have been a party going on here whilst i was asleep,
was i invited ?
oh that’s right
I’ve been asleep !
i so feel like running today, but i just cannot somehow i think i should stay on the couch, like being at the cross road where i run too often, how can i run when it’s such a beautiful day & the sun is shining, i think i am waiting to see if you want to go for a bike ride with me that might be the deciding factor, if you don’t feel like a bike ride then i’ll go running instead.
For me it does not matter if i run or bike ride with you, well it does i mean i do have a preference for the bike ride it’s the healthy exersise option, sound’s like im not enthusiastic no not really, i just want to do what’s best for me & you that’s all, and i heard running is not good for your back beside’s i prefer to ride a bike with you it’s more fun, than running which is so boooring..
anyway see how it goes
i might just go to gym instead
Lol 🙂
i love biking!
it is such an incredible experiential experience which takes me back to when i was a boy.
i actually feel the same sensation of emotional calm i did as a boy, as though i am back in time still feeling the same way i did then, the way i felt while alone as a boy, insecure sometimes. It is just the me who wants to feel good, and run with the feelings of happiness, joy.
If i am feeling toxic, i just need to go bike, and it relaxes me, away from everyone…till the cell phone rings.
im off on my morning bike run…still moving my butt to new place this weekend.
looking forward to seeing your butt, on the bike, enjoying the sunshine and all, yer exercising is definalty a healthy thing to do,
enjoy xox
i am the wise parent of my inner child who is yet afraid at times, listening to him, feeling what it is he feels, taking sides with his constant urges to exit the toxic enviroment he has been feeling for a few years now, taking him places for hours at a time to calm and sooth his emotional turmoil from unwanted unwise projections of those in his immediate world(ex), where sometimes it takes at least 2-3 hours for him to calm down, anxiety free, until i allow him to be subjected to more.
well today is the last day i will allow for him to be treated inappropriate any more, and he is thrilled beyond words, of the bubbling anxiety free feelings he and i have felt during our deliberate approach of the 2-3 hours away which indicated all i needed to know.
Jesus says, “Come away from the world(which i know is toxic for my inner child”.
In truth, it is my inner child which knows by his feelings the truth, and so it is my inner child who is leading me, is it not?
Once there, my sincerity level can thrive and grow, which is of my wisdom approach in doing so, as i love the tranquility and twilight feelings best, unable to be experienced so long as healthy(flexible adustable according to my feelings at all times) boundaries are not set.
It is pure truth wisdom which works for the adult child of us all, which Jesus came into full knowingness in his own deliberate approach of experiential techniques, unknowing of the words we use in our understanding today in psychology.
I believe Jesus BEcame so enthusiastic about his feelings, so much so, that he may not of had friends who were safe and supportive enough for him to dwell with for extended periods of time, hence is passerby words, “Be a passersby.”
im free guys, forever more. And you can count on me not entertaining anyone less than who feels purely comfortable for me of the same grace.
It has taken my entire life to arrive at this level of pure sincere awareness, and i honestly cannot tell you how relieved i am of the assistance of many of you each step of the way this past year with you all, in my knowingness that my inner child was reaching out to all of you, of my awareness now of what i was failing to address all this time during this transition.
I hit a few walls along the way, falsely prosecuted, jailed, shelters, meal lines, career loss, all learning of what my inner child was feeling all that time.
I am forever of the mindset to maintain my knowingness, which protects my inner child forever more, oddly enough of the pure truth wisdom of Jesus as our helper, yes?
thank you Jesus. thank you God. thank you to all who have loved me.
Jesus loves ALL. God loves ALL. We love ALL.
God blesses ALL.
ok…time to get back to God’s work, thread and fabric, of the new Andy who is allowed to do what he wants, giving him full rein of his life to do so, as the wise adult who cherishes his feelings of my awareness at all times.
i hope these words here are able to assist another as it has me, of God’s divine will for our willingness to BEcome wise, and the reasoning which makes perfect sense for the inner child who feels every passing moment, lending to the words of Jesus, “In your heart, let there BE ONE of understanding.”
i look forward to more words with you all, of a more grounded, less fearful, less anxiety ridden Andy in the future, as i pass thru this door into the light of heaven.
blessings to ALL.
bless you
12, 974 blessed days to go.
Enjoy everyone of them.
my biking will increase as a result of my new location, up to 20 miles per day, with not 2-3 hours of peacefulness now, rather 24 hours.
oh oh…you may not be ready to handle the new Andy…he wants to rock the world guys, and he is smiling from ear to ear inside forever more now.
The feeling of going outside and screaming with all that you got, of the utter freedom from his self emposed prison, a new sanctuary of God’s house of only love and peace.
deep breathes…here he goes…
catchya on the flip side. 😉 😀
thanks Marco for pushing me in the correct direction.
God bless you Marco.
not enough words to thank you, truly…would a kiss do?
oh come on, i just wanna kiss you, nothing more, honest…oh come back here! Kiss me damn it!
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is that music score on my blog awesome or what?
another experiential experience of deliberate approach for my inner child, assurance for him that i am listening and pay attention to him, soothing for him to know that i am, for he is the one most like Jesus in his heart of hearts who loves Jesus with all that he is, ever of his yearning to feel the love he feels for Jesus feels, and the cognitive awareness he feels of the love Jesus has for him, a merging of the two souls in the bridal chamber of love devoid of doubt with no useless fear forever more, united as ONE(the process of BEcoming conduct continues).
I have stepped passed the point of no return so to speak, of more desire in the feelings of Jesus than that found in the world, and yet, i am of the awareness of the inner child within others who i approach, who sense what i know to BE true of me, true of them as well.
That is the one thing about Jesus i like to tell people which really helps us grasp the faith Jesus has in us, rather than the way most are in their thinking, of faith in Jesus.
I say to people, “Look not apon the faith you have in Jesus and rather look apon the faith Jesus has in YOU, where it is Jesus who came into his full knowingness of ‘that’ of his SELF, pure and true of only loving in his own process of self-awareness-actualization, and in so doing, came into the full knowingness of his feelings and awareness of, ‘well if this is true of me, then it is true of everyone’, which lends to the approach Jesus was with everyone in his words of wisdom to look apon ‘that’ which is true of you and feel your loving hearts, for “i am”(self) there, no different than YOU.
Jesus was trying to explain to them the self-awareness-actualization process he transitioned thru, having a difficult time in getting them interested enough in their sincere desire for wisdom like his own curious desire for wisdom which was of his everyday thinking, an introvert.
hey, that’s a pretty good dissertation, yes?
The Pope will love this one for sure!
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God bless the Pope, in his own sincere desire to know Jesus as do i, for his desire is on par with that of Jesus’s desire.
I want you to know that i know the words of God are of God’s design to draw us to our own desire for wisdom, where the words evoke the inner child to feel at ease in their pure loving feelings, dispelling of fear in reading of each word as one becomes increased in their fearlessness, desire for wisdom, sincerity, loving feelings, purity, BEcoming conduct outward of the ONE inward, all words which nurture, protect and maintain the ONE, all of dynamic design meant for the PROCESS of transition of the growth inward which eventually transistions into the BEcoming conduct outward.
It is the most significant dynamic of the written words of Jesus(God thru Jesus).
Many may argue the existence of God, fine, just beware, that there is no greater process of self-actualization than the words of God, no therapist, no one on the planet able to deliver the greatest treasure to you more so than the words of God.
Should you be of the opinion of skepticism of God, you hurt your self in destroying the required desire for God’s wisdom, and in life, you fail to transition into the BEcoming conduct of Jesus.
I leave these words not to impress any of you, and rather it is like these words will be read more by those of the unborn children yet to come, than any here in this century.
while it may sound boastful, truly, i tell you, there will BE one of the future who will appreciate my words to(with) them of the sincerity level of my awareness, exactly that of their own, a true and faithful friend to them in taking the time to speak with them from here in the past.
It is of their own purity sincerity awareness that indeed, Andy did know God, where at some point, they do will be opened to the channeling of God’s spirit with them.
It is God who choses who to speak with, where as humble student’s of God, we know our destiny is as an instrument of God for sake of others…100%.
bless this day and the many days to follow.
thank you
bless you
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i know….i am still fucked up a bit guys….but i know without doubt where i am going…destiny of heaven forever more, of no more negativity, only love, only wisdom, only compassion in my every step, every breath, every heart beat, of my sincere desire in having stepped away from the world to find Jesus in the desert and stay with him till my last day, bringing forth only loving pure thoughts from now on, for sake of another, and for sake of me in the end, of my knowingness of the life giving life waters which flow forth into the kingdom of heaven all around us, where indeed, it is about our BEcoming which feels the best in life, where tranquility is always felt ever more.
There is nothing more valuable in life than the discovery of the treasure of purity and sincerity of the divine true SELF within us all, yet unattended, unprotected and unloved by the sadly (yet) unwise world which surrounds us.
i don’t care you are in a beautiful place in Dubia(did i spell that right) or a begger in the streets, it is not about wealth, status, race, religion, sex, orientation, or politic guys…it is about how your divine true SELF feels in each waking moment of YOUR LIFE.
I already know, no one shall find anything of greater value in life than what i have spoken with you about, having journeyed all this way…into happiness.
I am happiness bound, unbound by any and all of the world’s unwiseness, destiny for another most like me.
thank you for listening(feeling ~ sight returned to our soul).
bless you
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i am moving my books of Jesus and God this day to my new sanctuary.
God bless you all.
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I’ve had a really great day. Great weather. Out and about and a great night out. Felling a lot better.
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ya me too! Spent most of the day out in the beautiful air.
the day is not over for me yet.
spending the night at my new sanctuary…wake to a beautiful Sunday, relaxed, calm….24 hours of it too! 😉
im free! im free! im free!
im bad, i know…
i can’t fix anyone…they have to desire to fix themselves thru increased desire for wisdom, which brings increased value for sincerity, all of it.
It is about increasing of our value for these things we know about our good feelings, and how one goes about ensuring them, of how wisdom protects.
just a short sermon today.
enjoy the blessed day today, peaceful, relaxed, at ease, for truly i am.
😉 😀
thank you
bless you
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opppss…almost forgot…
i am…BE CAUSE….WE ARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i love you
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ANDY, GET A LIFE, YOU ARE A CREEP!
WHAT’S WRONG WITH YOU? DO YOU SIT AT HOME ON YOUR COMPUTER AND TALK NONSENSE ALL DAY? STOP POSTING PICS OF YOUNG BOYS ON YOUR BLOG! YOU ARE PERVERTED! YOU HAVE SOMETHING HORRIBLY WRONG WITH YOU! GET HELP!!!!
iehter reely strong or reely stupiud
mos likely stupid
no one human is that strongh
stupid
cat’s got your tongue
feel free to talk, i am listening
ya…stupid…
the blog is not for me morons…
it’s gay history, something the GLBT community cherishes.
the two young gay lovers walked around all day on pride day, dressed like that, holding hands, kissing when ever they felt like it in front of millions of people.
that picture is from Gay Pride Day, Toronto, 2008 fuckheads! ~ gay history.
*cough*…sorry.
Aww that’s sweet; thanks for posting that M!
=-) Queen Friend
chatting away all day in their own tender way opening up to a complete strainger, who was LISTENING ,
that rejection one, get’s me everytime
what work’s for you , works for me
i’ll see you later , when i feel less like a traitor lol 🙂
it’s always about the ONE…in our knowingness of the ONE, who is isolated, confused, afraid, outcast, betrayed, spit apon, and what we can do to help the ONE who we know is always out there, embracing what we know of them, radiant bright light that is nurturing for them…us too, everyone, including the ones who currently may be harmful of the ONE.
It is the shift taking place in the world, from darkness to light.
It is constant like the sun which shines, for both darkness and light…one merely need to serve the light or darkness, where in truth, even darkness serves the light by means of the truth of what not to BEcome like.
In that sense the balance is leaning towards the light, and is how God’s will, WILL WIN…eventually, until the day there are no more tears, no more pain, however long it takes to rid the world of ignorance, hate, and apathy.
likely another 2000 years
the rejection ONE is about how all the ONEs feel, is it not?
ya, it’s a powerful piece.
i like the halo being blocked by the mountain, where the mountain is a metphor for all issues we can think of, with regard to the shift taking place in the world of likemindedness in the GLBT community, or whatever issue of many who may find themselves in a world without God’s halo of wisdom.
I like the statue, and is the right one for Troy’s grave, of my own betrayal of him as a friend. It is truth, which most turn away from, that of ourself at times, that of another, all these conducts which are unBEcoming conduct, BEtrays both the BEtrayed, and the one BEtraying, in turning towards unBEcoming conduct, does it not?
sometimes i find myself wondering how he was must of been feeling that dreadful day, and the statue portrays it well, an isolation feeling i think we have all experienced at one time or another.
only way we can stay the course is in our knowingness and awareness of the ONE, as artists, muscians, writers, serving God.
ah…you certain no traitor, rather my inspiration for expressing as fearlessly like i do…it’s just where we have arrived in our likemindedness, who embrace the reality of how the world is, that’s all.
i am here to nuture the likemindedness for sake of the ONE, just as M has done for years…decades.
keep on…keep it together.
remember…what matters, is our knowingness we are all the same inside, and indeed, we have all experienced BEtrayal from unBEcoming conduct.
What bothers me, is how it keeps continuing in the world the way it does, on and on, the egos, the shortsightedness, all seemingly aimless souls(asleep) of no desire to even reflect apon themselves…
In truth, all of our efforts, if have helped even just ONE, it has been worth every ounce of energy, as there is no value one can ever put on say Troy’s life BEing returned to me, where without hesitation i would trade all the riches of the world(if i had that) to have him back.
Just as any mother/father would to have their child back alive from war.
the list is long, of all the unBEcoming conducts of the world, of God’s will for us all to BEcome the halo of descerning wisdom.
so far i am just focusing on the GLBT community.
so far…. 😉
i quite enjoy being kept in line..
awsome word’s truthful, DIrect
sincere, to the point
your hilarious,
it’s like when someone abandons you it feels like ther’ve Riped your heart out and tossed it aside, like a disposable razor blade.
lol…well now, there is an interesting choice of words. ha. 😉
i’ve always felt ashamed before Jesus and God for betray of Troy…which has taken me years to deal with.
The only for me was to digest it, however bitter the pain, where i was/am the one of the lesser unBEcoming conduct with regards to Troy. His life stopped, and is always in the frozen of the BEtrayals which lead up to that day, not only of me, of others too. A sweet friend of Troy’s also took his young life just prior to Troy’s suicide, someone close to Troy, a gay lover, so beautiful he was to me, alot like me in spirit, personality.
The emotional snowball affect built up for Troy…add alcohol…end results.
Since that day, it has always BEen the unBEcoming conduct vs BEcoming conduct, which has always BEen at the forefront of my thoughts as far as the most valuable thing in life.
I ran the GLBT community(ghetto) here for daily support, only to find myself surrounded by so many others just like me, all feeling the toxic feelings we did/do, of the unBEcoming conduct of the world we ran/run from(small towns).
I survived…barely…
Eventually i came into my warrior mode approach, BEcoming fearless of the motherfuckers, inspired by M, wearing the clown outfit from The Girlie Show, White Rolls Royce, ’95, and well…the rest is alot of gay history, where that fearlessness continued to grow more and more each year, with occassional falls from time to time, ever more BEcoming self-actualized, tired of fear, not just of homophobic external fears, but i noticed i was growing weary of the egotistic jerks too, the bitter arrogant hypocrisy heart of many in my professional career who treated me extremely badly, thinks like not speaking with me for months at a time…still don’t know how i tolerated that as long as i did, until i finally quit that job.
Now i’ve just grown tired of even entertaining a career, of no desire to plug back into the mean spirited world(which i am compassionate for, don’t get me wrong, they are sadly unwise morons i am empathetic for), but tolerate their shit…no thanks.
100%…without doubt…we BEtray our SELF when we BEtray another, a vicious cycle i am free of.
BEcoming conduct(the opposite) of inner/OUTward appearance, such as all our efforts, is what we know others too instantly and easily connect with at a deep level.
Every year(marching in the GLBT parades without Troy’s hand to hold) has always BEen of my mindset that there is another Troy out there in the crowd, in turmoil, silently aware, silently closeted, afraid, where some do feel like they are evil according to the church constantly telling them so…who i hold directly responsible for many suicides of our loving brothers and sisters, where they are not of God, as Jesus says, “Gay bashing unwise hateful self-serving fearful hypocrisy of these merchant’s of God, is worse than murder, because they do murder the loving spirit of our loving brothers and sisters, where their suicide is the murder.”
ok, Jesus may not of said it exactly like that, but he implied it…i am merely a loving brother of Jesus who understands his words, elaborating into all areas of the psyche.
oh oh…i just made some more enemies…
damn…i am so running out of friends now…lol
😉 😀
so let’s move some mountains, shall we? 😉
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i do see myself in the statue too, as the one humbled forever more before Jesus and God, of my pure humility over Troy, sadly not able to walk beside anymore.
It’s not really guilt, so much as it is deep my deep sadness that he can long live joyful along side of us, of my love for him to do so.
It’s not like reading a news paper. This was my lover and best friend in life, where i came to a complete halt inside in my own life, when his life stopped…forever more.
It is this stopping which lends itself to my entering into the eternal realm of no time constraint, where apon reading words of Jesus, i am standing beside Jesus, right there, feeling his every word deep within, of him and God nurturing my BEcoming within, BEcoming conduct OUTward eventually.
And is why i am of fearlessness as well, albeit, fearful at times, as i tend to prefer dwelling in the eternal realm more than the world of aimless haphazard souls of so much unBEcoming fearful conduct like they do, which i am empathetic of, yet wise of avoiding toxic experience with them, a passerby.
There are some truly wonderful souls in life, and indeed, we are ALL wonderful precious loving souls in the eyes of Jesus and God, just stupid, that’s ALL. lol
I don’t really question how long it WILL take for the world to change, our knowingness that it is changing, rather, i spend my time thinking of ways of BEcoming conduct, such as art, music, poetry, writing, costuming, BEcoming conduct of SELF OUTward, where it is indeed, our WILLINGNESS, which is most important, is it not?
Jesus said, it is not the size of the gift that matters, rather it is the WILLINGNESS to give that matters, where in truth, when we are of the WILLINGNESS, we are reward with the BEcoming conduct in doing so, and the increasing value of love, sincerity, all these wonderful things of the transition into BEcoming within/OUTward, which feel good for us, does it not?
oopppsss…my surmon was only going to BE a small one today.
i suppose it is, when we view it as no small truth is small, alBEit, smallness of those of smallness approach…
i am so relentless, yes?
likemindedness. i thrive when around those of likemindedness, and in truth, the only place i am able to dwell.
so if you were thinking of tossing me, well don’t.
we like each other.
we love each other.
we love our SELF when we do.
bless you
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i would like to say, i sense at a cognitive level of awareness, the presence of loving spirits with me, and more than one, yet ONE in purity of love they evoke in me, where in sensing the spirits, it is of their knowingness of how i am feeling, of them telling me i am loved sorta sensation. I get it all the time in my awareness of the spirit realm, of subtleness, exceedingly light and brightfulness of spirit, sorta like the angel picture does for me, as though a REAL spirit that is watching with me…always with me.
sometime i sense it is Troy’s spirit, especially the day i was jabbing the pen into the pages of my diary shortly after his suicide…
i really felt it strongest that day, of his spirit to foget about everything else Andy, feel the love you have for me, for that is what is important about Andy, your pure love you felt for me, which i felt for you too.
Troy and i were very close, of deep love for one another, and we both knew it for most of the time we were together.
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the sensation was, i did know the ONE who was jabbing the pen into the pages of the diary, where it was an important time for Andy to realize how loving he is, lest he hurt himself, where in truth, i realize it was my feeling inner child connected to the pure truth of his feelings which was as ONE with Troy, where it was my ego unBEcoming Andy who BEtrayed Troy, my inner child angry in doing so, of his knowingness how much he loved Troy and his knowingness how much Troy loved him.
oh yeah…he was pissed off that i was BEing so stupid in trying to write about understanding what happened…Andy the ego fucktard fucked up miserably in BEtraying his best friend in life! lol
To try to describe my inner child, he is of the emotional intensity of a five year old, who will always love Troy, and the many Troy’s of the world forever more.
Perhaps this dispells any desire of my ever BEtraying YOU?
…not possible, of the purity of love my inner child yet feels in his bonding with the pure undeniable truth of what happened to his best friend, Andy, the ego fucktard with no brains! lol
ya…my inner child is control, not me…i have to, or he will throw me down a building, or something stupid. lol
i think that is about as open as one can possibly BE, yes?
all goodness.
ya, it appears the inner child of Andy has united with Troy’s spirit, and in that sense i do see the relationship of the two expressing themselves to the world thru the art pieces…it is of their love they had for one another, and still do, who they want the world to wake the fuck up, and stop being so stupid! lol
hey, now that’s some awesome writing, yes? love it.
fearlessness of others…
i may not ever get another chance to speak with you M…this my chance.
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i love doing these pieces, and sense there are thousands to come…all depicting of subtle indicative truths of unBEcoming and BEcoming conduct able to nurture, evoke, instill…whatever you want to call it.
i truly enjoy the relaxation of art work…hours on end, soft ejoyable music that evokes the loving soul.
I’ve had a fabulous afternoon down the beach in glorious weather:
It was even nicer than it looks.
That was a photo I took (above), sitting in the rocks.
awesome!
feels safe and peaceful away from the mad world, does it? lol
i don’t know how you do it.
unbelievable you are to me, of such incredible depth, and fortitude of soul.
well, if don’t mind me hanging around you for, oh, say a couple more decades, knowing i would love to, if ‘that’s ok with YOU? 😉
thanks sharing your day with me.
glad to see you find time to relax as needed.
i feel i have been opening up too much lately…perhaps i should stay to my own blog, less invasive, and just drop in here to say hello?
Thanks!
Your blog is quite tastefully understated …
Clean and minimalist.
Not remotely over-the-top.
Where I took the photo (red arrow):
Corresponding Story:
http://tinyurl.com/499q2v
looks like it faces east.
standing under a full moon on that beach(because it has not much development) would give a incredible feeling belonging to God, doing God’s work, as an individual in life who like me searches their heart and mind for definitiveness as one who walks the planet.
well…if you are ever standing on the beach wondering if i think about you, always know that i do.
I am still researching the ancient text, absorb by it, as you can probably tell.
It is the most fascinating and passionate thing in life for me, in grasping what to me is how one calms their divine true self, in order that we can feel the more enjoyable subtleness of graceful loving life, free of any anxiety, of tranquility with another, but how does one appreciate that unless another is of the same consideration and midset of say a lover or friend?
I mean, we can all feel that special feeling alone in our sanctuary of the mind and meditation, quiet, calm, at ease, free of the negative attitudes of the aimless souls, but finding another who prefers the high awareness level of grace…well…not many.
candles, oh don’t get me started…lol.
huh?
oh think the same way, ah well, that’s good then, yes?
i am being very brave speaking with you like this here.
feel free to push me into the water any time! 😉
yeah, i am a mimimalist at heart, of the ability to stand still in pureness of feelings.
who does not enjoy that?
but how many are deliberate in approach everyday with a lover or friends?
ah, let me see….nope, can’t think of any. lol
it’s your life…i say live it according to what feels best, open minded to other’s ideas, but in the end, be the one in charge of what works best for you, not someone else, because most just don’t have much intelligence about approach…
like drops of hot candle wax on the skin….
what?
oh, you have to try it sometime! lol
opppss…doing again….
i feel each strike of a piano key for example…
what do i do now, i fallen in …. in… in…
into the water
on the dance floor,
omg, love
i just want one wish
if you wish Love, you already are love, love…
if you wish for love of another love, love…
…then pray they are love like you, love! lol
😀 😀
ya…me too?
hey wait a second, who’s who around here any-way? 😉
🙂 😉
Love
ah…thought so.
Love of the future world love, love?
i am making a wish today
I only get one wish
I shall wish wisely
can i cry now, i cried yesterday
as long as it tears of love and joy, ya sure, only way to stay real with our divine true self.
i cry daily, in my pure of heart feelings…sincere and true of another.
i sensed my sincerity level along time ago with God.
those who know God, know the sincerity level is 100%, not 99%…100%.
that is how we detect it to be true in another. 😉
i mean it’s there within most any, but most do not attend, nurture, and protect it in a cognitive approach with their own divine true self.
yes tears of love,
how did you know ?
100% know’s
ya…100%
i felt along time ago…and why i am still here pestering like i do.
i remember the day of the sincerity connection which opened for me while alone one day…i knew from that day on…not even sure how, other than it was the opening into the highest level of sincerity so incredible is the feeling, like tranquility feels…
i always knew from that day on…till now…
i don’t even know how long ago it was…lost track of time, as time is irrelevant to the sincerity level, which is a forever eternal feeling which does not change. 😉 😀
that is the best part…it does not change.
oh no, were stuck together for eternity…oh damn! lol 😀 😀
well…one thing for sure, they ain’t never gonna forget about us!
😀 😀
the reason it does not change, is because it is who we are within…the same.
i am…BE cause…we ARE…the same! 😉 😀
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maybe not intellectually…but emotionally, everyone is the same, much the way a crying baby crys, and feels with all of it’s BEing, how we all came into the world, thru the harmonious bliss of the womb of warm fluids which surrounded us, of pure graceful feeling for nine months, ‘that’ which is of the experience within the core of the human BEing of us all.
Jesus tapped into the grace of experience of the womb, cognitive awareness, and realized he could evoke it in others, the calm, fearlessness, much like we were as kids, of anxiety free ability when practiced.
takes time…along time for some, and some not at all ever experience it.
The BEcoming conduct naturally evokes it in another, merely by their presence.
That is the joy of it all, it will continue to grow in the world, and it is, as great is the enthusiasm and delight in others more so now than years gone by. love it.
Of course, one does not grow tire of this, and rather the opposite is true, as increasing of value for the feelings is a dynamic of the restoration, rejuvination, salvation of the divine true self.
I have felt the increasing value within cognitively…and i love the way the 100% sincerity level feels. It is eluding at first…but it is the end goal of effort.
It was never about anything else in life like so many think, in their endless pursuits of wealth and status, rather it is the 100% level of loving sinceity feelings, of what Jesus felt, and wanted others to feel all the time like he did.
It is the twinge in the heart kinda feeling.
Pray the ego does not get back in, in our knowingness of what the greatest treasure is, our cognitive level knowingness of our feelings which speak the truth of what it is, of what it always was, lending to the words of Jesus, “What you look for, has already come, the kingdom of heaven all around you and within YOU.
It is the feelings of YOU, which is cognitive level knowingness feelings of how it feels in the kingdom of heaven, at all times, in each passing moment of each day.
Be sure to set boundaries to protect it well, in knowing what the greatest treasure is…YOU.
i am…BE cause…we ARE…YOU, as in the divine true self BEcoming conduct of YOU within us ALL.
Children are already natural of the knowingness of the kingdom of heaven around them. Ask any five year old where they think the kingdom of heaven is, and they usually say “right here!” with great enthusiasm.
“BEhold the Kingdom of Heaven ALL around you!”
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thank you Jesus. thank you God. thank you to all who find, nurture and protect the greatest treasure they shall ever find.
Jesus loves ALL. God loves ALL. We love ALL.
God blesses ALL.
thank you
bless you
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Louise… R U going to post again… This is so boring!!
speaking of ego…
eternity is not a long time, its a wonderful time
will be
I see all things we say or do and all of God’s words, are meant for all unborn children yet to come, of the affect/effect direct/indirect truth in unBEcoming conduct and BEcoming conduct of us all.
It is our knowingness of the sincerity level that realizes the pure truth of this. Our lives do affect/effect direct/indirect the entire future of mankind for all eternity.
Jesus knew this at a cognitive level.
blessings to all
i’m happy, enjoying my life, all the wonderful Angel’s i meet along my life journey, some stay for one day, others stay many year’s returning periodicaly making the effort to connect that is especially appreciated so i continue on my journey knowing i will always be loved because i am loving..
I love you Marco
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ya, it has always felt that way for me too.,,a knowingness within many of the special loving ONE who is always there within us ALL, ever growing in confidence, as walls of oppression are held back.
i have maintain rather good boundaries for the last 14 years, maintaining the confident fierce warrior one within, but of late, the last two years, i grew weary, my professional world, took a beating of a life time from them, ejected me they did…fell harder than i first realized, then the three month sabatical turned into 8 months, where now i do not wish to return, glad to have come to a higher level of awareness, however difficult, to let go of the world which wants me to serve it(career), which i won’t ever again…other than my part time gig which keeps my head above water, of my sincere preference of the down time to continue my research, writings, art, music, whatever my kid inside feels like doing, as he is truly of the free loving spirit more so than ever before, loved by me, ever the essential bond of inner child wanting/needing our respect, of we the adult(parent) of our own inner child, which is what we do, listening(feeling) our inner child, is it not?
Unity of the two is essential in approach to true loving life, wisdom protection of the adult(wise parent approach) for the delicate sensitivity of inner child respected, protected(boundaries), honored….happy.
Is that what you mean? lol 😉
Then there is the painful stuff too i am yet working thru more so than i had before, of issues which plague us thru life, if we do not sit and work thru them…and ya, the issue of Troy is a serious issue…hard to believe how i have been still frozen in time all this time of the same emotional intensity of crushed feelings over Troy, of what i feel has been good for me in coming into the sensitivity, and delicate knowingness of my inner child, where now i won’t allow for him to experience the inappropriateness the world all too often tosses at him, disengaged, a free loving spirit happy and truly at ease on a more regular basis than any time over the past decade, no stress, no fear of greeting another beautiful blessed day, able to stop and pray at his favorite church daily while out biking, as the absurd hustle bustle of the business machine world rushes by, honking their horns at him for merely being in the street, seemingly in their way, when in truth, they are the ones in their own way…morons.
i swear one day i am going to take my bike and pound the crap out of one them.
Picture it, Andy on the six o’clock new totally destroying somebody’s brand shiny new bmw or fancy benz, taking every window out of it, lights, fenders…a mad man? Arrested and taken away, as the news dude asks Andy, why did you do ‘that’?
Andy’s response,”I think it was an abreaction triggered by the extremely loud blast of a horn from behind me that is truly loud, frightful for my inner child, of his occasional temper tantrums i am not able to control, of his pissed off feelings from time to time of the unBEcoming conduct of Jesus!”
LOL
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enjoy the blessed day everyone!
we only get so many of them in life.
always know, i WILL BE here somewhere near.
always.
i love you guys.
thanks.
Jesus loves ALL. God loves ALL. We love ALL.
God blesses ALL here in the kingdom of heaven.
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“Behold the Kingdom of Heaven all around YOU, of ‘that’ which is of YOU ALL. i greet YOU in peace and brotherly love forever more. What we look for has already come, and it is ‘that’ of YOU ALL, which i shall continue to speak of, for sake of ALL, as a truth revealer who is of the definitivness of God, wise of the many illnesses of the heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, of the many unwise false bitter ignorant teachings of the forefathers before us ALL, yet here with us today, just as they existed when Jesus walked the earth, which i shall reveal with clarity of feelings for ALL to easily understand and feel, where it is our feelings which is the means of sight returned to our precious loving souls. God blesses ALL. Jesus loves ALL. We love ALL.
God loves ALL.
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Marco, don’t ever leave me, as our love is true for one another, just as it is not within me to turn away from you, of the sincerity level we stand in, pure and true of us ALL.
it is clear we are all the same inside emotionally, where that is what is most significant, more so than intelligence and mental fortitude, albeit, fortitude which is necessary in a healthy approach to true loving life, yes, but where we all tend to faulter is in our steadfast knowingness of BEcoming conduct which leads the world by example, where we let go of ALL our indifferences in our knowingness we indeed ARE, all loving brothers and sisters of one another, and Jesus, who is of God, just as we all are.
i am…BE CAUSE…we ARE!
Marco? YOU’ve got the helm?
Ok then. Good.
Exploration of truth is a painstakingly long process which i have been exploring for decades now, and will continue to do as i do in my labratory of the mind, bring forth from the storehouse of goodness which i dwell in and turn to, bringing forth truth wisdoms for sake of ALL, of my definitiveness of one who is of God, a child of the light of God, brother of Jesus, of the truth of what all precious souls of the earth, the same…ALL children of the light of God…where it is silly to regard any of us otherwise.
It is the illnesses of heart, mind, body, spirit and soul which yet snare many precious loving souls of the earth, in our knowingness which is compassionate, not apathetic in our understanding of why the world is the way it obviously is, of the many innocent souls who are born into the (yet) unwise world, of so many learned BEhaviours of unBEcoming conduct, harmful to them, harmful to another, of no ones fault, in truth, of the bitter false unwise teachings of the forefathers before each and everyone of us, of what indeed does plague the world in all of it’s unBEcoming, sadly dark painful unloving ways, hurtful to the one who is unBEcoming, of sadly derangement of soul, of the unBEcoming conducts which goes against us all, all these silly indifferences which are indeed stupid unwisenesses, are they not?
i know i love you.
i know you love me.
we know we love all.
ok. Marco. YOU’ve got the helm.
morning bike ride. im off for now, but shall always return to where it is i cannot leave…my divine true SELF.
😉 😀
God blesses ALL.
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besides, where would i go, other than where i yearn to always BE found?
when you are far away…i am near
when you are near…i am far away.
so where are we?
hello?
hey, where did everybody go? lol
i jest.
i am not about ego guys. these dissertations are extensive in research and of great length, of many i have yet to share with you, and further exploration and collaboration of likeminded elabortation, of my favorite place of dwelling with you all, a student in class with all of us in attendance, where in truth, life is a classroom of hard knocks, where none of us actually ever leave school as class mates with one another in life, always of the humble genuine loving spirit of one another as class mates who sincerely love one another, of the sincerity of our youthful loving true self we always were and yet are.
i love you guys.
i love you all.
i always have.
without doubt.
i will always love you guys, ‘that’ i am certain of.
thank you for loving me.
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(someone in the class whipers to another, “oh oh, Andy is in his anal retentive mode again.)
“i heard that!”
LOL
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i love Madonna, like i love my SELF guys, and she’s know fully that i do love her the same way i do my SELF, just as she too is loving of her precious loving divine true SELF, exceedingly wise in our doing so.
So ya, i am the WILLINGNESS of sincere love for her.
i always was.
always WILL BE.
always.
i am…BE CAUSE…we ARE…always loving of one another forever more!!!!!
rather silly not to BE, where loving feelings is what feels so incredible and amazing for us ALL, is it not?
Welcome to Porta Caeli everyone!
I want to stay…of no better place i have found, than that of my sincere precious loving feelings i feel so deeply within for ALL of YOU.
bless you bless you bless
thank you
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candy girl is madonna…………….ouaaaaaaaaaaa she used to be on this site…..ouaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
she is a candy girl, with a raw sugar we like it
Was on a flight from Oahu to LA yesterday with Kanye West.. Checked out his blog http://www.kanyeuniversecity.com/blog/ (not bad)…..
Common Louise I know you’re a bit busy and all, but can you throw us a crumb now and again?
yes say something queen of pop
why are you so quite? say something.
shit
Rosie and her questions of the day, so fearless she is.
Somehow i picture her riding a Harley somedays, so fearless she is in approach, kicking all of our butts.
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i just bought a hundred bucks worth of Christian stuff, pins, key chains, more crosses, a white dove pin, a rosery of dark blood red stones for my pocket, ever able to remind me of what the kingdom of heaven IS.
‘that’ which Jesus came into full knowingness of feelings of his divine true SELF(inner child), in knowingness of it to BE true of his SELF, must also BE true of us ALL, Jesus Christ, the most evolved adult child to ever walk the earth here in the kingdom of heaven all around us, where it is our sincere purity of loving feelings, 100%, which is what heaven IS.
i am determinded to safe guard this knowingness in my BEcoming what is of Jesus, of us ALL.
blessings to ALL.
enjoy the blessed day.
12,974 blessed days to go.
please disreguard my sometimes quick snaps at some of you, of constructive critism, nothing bitter or hateful of any….thank you.
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met a special soul today from Trinidad. Had a large hard cover harliquin clown book in his hand of thousands of clown costumes…expensive book of glossy pics i would like to see one day, recreate them in life…so beautiful of carefree fun loving spirit the costumes are…
i am…BE CAUSE we are…
…are what?
going to do this!!!!! lol
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ONE day
he had two blue stone rings on his hand, one of which he gave me, after telling what the kingdom of heaven is, ‘that’ of Jesus, that of his SELF, of pure sincere loving emotions of sameness of us ALL.
exchange contact info…looking forward to working with him one day, of same enthusiasm like that of my own…
very bizzarre bumping into him…by chance we met…by God we met.
he is like SOOO spiritual too!!!
not my type at all, butt a jolly soul indeed. ha. 😉
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who loves Rosie?
i do!!!!! 😉
incredible leader of example of the truly compassionate and joyful loving self.
and so LOUD and OUT spoken!
lol
God bless Rosie. thank you God.
on we go
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ok guys.
time to kick it up a notch!
Ready?
ok, here comes the future of exceeding joy of loving light, dance, of the forever more loving feelings for ALL.
i ain’t taken no prisoners, so if you wanna catch up with me, please do….i ain’t waiting no longer! lol 😉
blessed BE this day forever more.
thank you God. thank you Jesus. thank you to all of your knowingness of where the kingdom of heaven IS.
thank you
bless you
new day…here it comes…
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WHAT A FEELING
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what we ALL already have
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i can really have it ALL
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what i(we) already had…JOYFUL LOVE of and for ONE ANOTHER
thank you God. thank you Jesus. thank you to ALL for your joyful love of and for one another, ‘that’ of which i am, and always was.
i am…BE CAUSE…we ARE…JOYFUL LOVE of and for ONE ANOTHER!!!!!
forever more
thank you
bless you
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This is so good. I’m grooving to this tonight:
http://www.ipod.org.uk/Beggin‘ (Remix).mp3
Oops. This link should work:
http://www.ipod.org.uk/beggin.mp3
i’m still here.
lol 🙂
where’s my bike
i feel every moment, the twinge in my heart of what ever music i hear out there, people i meet and greet, what a feeling, where it is our feelings which are the most valuable thing in life, beyond everything else.
oh sorry…right here!
i was adding pics to my blog i took today.
tranquility 24/7! love it!
oh oh…i think something is happening to me…hmmmm…what’s this?
HAPPINESS!!!!!!!!!
oh yeah…nearly forgot what that feels like.
Proof of reincarnation?
this one is better
oh did i just make the 1111 post
gee i wonder who i was in my last life,
annoying most likely, like i am in this one LOL 🙂
madonna this is so unfair we all wanted to see you on astage here in Argentina… but some ppl is reselling the tickets at very high prices this is so unfair i just wanted to buy a ticket in the traditional way….
nevertheless u are great i hope i have better luck next time…
do you really read this blog? to be yours, it lacks colours
ok
bye
madonna just goes where there is a lot of money, london,paris, new york..
she never goes to asia,africa,do you really wanna know why?she wouldn’t sold the tickets that she used to..at least 100 000 persons that what she wants.
So I ask you madonna, why you don’t do a free tour around poor contries?poor people also like you, not just the VIPs..ok?answer to that if you are a Woman.
love you the same
lindsay lohan we love YOU
You are sexy,girl
you are beautiful
love you
madonna you are 2º because you like boys
lol
M you are more sexy than that samantha dj,
you should take her place,
i would do that
lol
thanks
xoxo
a new day, new faces…
of all the things i recall in my tender feelings of Troy, was my sincere desire to know him, and always of my joy in being with him…irregardless of what we had financially(as we had nothing), or what career path we were anticipating or working toward, not of intelligence of one more than the other, nothing of anything but our sincere tender loving feelings for one another, and the eternal desire of forever more feelings to always feel our forever more feelings.
if you find yourself feeling that way with a lover or friend, you may want hold onto to what is real for you, free of all the absurdnesses of attitude, distracting world, all these things which derail the possibility of coming into your knowingness of sincere love of and for one another, like so many people do, ever placing of so many things between their sincere feelings of a lover or friend.
anyway…
that’s what life is to me…sincere enjoyment of my pure thoughts of desire in being around those who too feel the pleasantness of being around me.
i realize my life is a journey among many souls of the earth, and i will keep an eye out for those who’s approach with me is of their inner sincere feelings of enjoyment in being around me, just as i felt for Troy.
utter and complete messmerized by him i was, of each minute of time we had with one another, of sincere love in our eyes which felt the knowingness…we were in love with each other.
as for those who don’t wish to take time with you, don’t fret over it, as their distractions are likely going to be to painful for you to sincerely connect the way you want to, of seemingly you being the only one their in the room of sincere spirit, body, heart, mind and soul, leaving you feeling like you don’t exist.
I realize it’s not so much they don’t like you, as much as it is their own inability to fearlessly embrace their own feelings, fearlessly turning towards ‘that’ of them selves, rather than all the useless distractions which lead apart.
Truly, if one does not desire to connect with you as much as you do them, then pass them by, as it will not work for you until they do sincerely BEcome as you are in your sincere reflections of them.
a two way street as they say, where indeed, we do meet those in life who are of the fearless certainty that love is of the highest value in life, of lovers and friends.
if anyone makes you feel otherwise…it is their aimless loss soul, not yours.
i am reflecting on how i feel inside, in my art pieces, but in truth, i want real life more than anything else.
these blogs are not real life for me, and rather merely that of our reflections of what we truly yearn for…real life.
soooo….i guess there is really not much more to say, is there…where i know i want and yearn for real life, rather than the rather emptiness of words with one another here where we can hide behind our PC screens probing of our feelings in wondering what works for us.
well wonder no more…we all yearn for real life.
with that said…i am going to go do what i yearn for…something real, something fearless, something wonderful with one as excited about being around me as i am them, of lovers and friends.
those too afraid to be real with me of real life…well…enjoy your PC screen.
i will keep posting on my blog of my real life and reflections of truth wisdoms….but hand around here any longer….what’s the point when all it does is go round and round, back and forth, going no where for me.
fuck that.
a new day has arrived for Andy, and he is so done with the smallnesses of many, including himself at times, frustrated no one here really wants him in real life.
ya…that’s how it feels for me…like don’t exist.
ok…i don’t exist any longer here at this blog.
bye.
as for the clown thing…i’ve realized it is my tender loving feelings i yet feel for Troy, where in truth, it is how i would want us both to dress and feel with one another, of our exceeding happiness, irregardless of what any one on the planet feels, of our life of eternal loving feelings for one another of the only thing that matters, our time being together forever more.
where it is our loving light of love for one another that others sense of themselves, joining in the eternal loving feelings they too feel of friends and lover.
but in the end, it is about the two lovers sincerely loving of each other, radiant and bright, of what is true of us all.
and so, Andy is off to find that lover again one day, and likeminded friends who too feel the same for their lover, joining in the celebration of loving lovers the world over, irregardless of wealth, status, race, religion, sex, orientation or politic.
so go find a lover everyone, who feels the same for you as you do for them, and without doubt, i WILL do the same.
see you all next year at 2009 Toronto Pride Day of our celebration of loving lovers.
a free event for all to express their loving lover feelings.
that’s what it has always been about, no mystery.
the loving lover within us ALL, along the way lending a helping hand up in life for others to one day join in our ever eternal loving feelings of loving life, outwardly expressed for ALL to see and feel forever more.
Jesus loves ALL. God loves ALL. We love ALL.
God blesses ALL.
find your lover and BE the HAPPINESS you ARE!
i am…BE CAUSE…we ARE!!!!
ok. bye.
i really don’t a fuck about what anyone thinks of me, so save your time and go do something sincerely loving, and forget about any negative bullshit of words, as i am no longer care to listen to empty words.
ok. bye.
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The Kingdom of Heaven is YOUR FEELINGS
thank you Jesus. thank you God. thank you to ALL who know.
Jesus loves ALL. God loves ALL. We love ALL.
God blesses ALL.
bless you bless you bless you
12,972 blessed days to go, and i am going to ejoy each one of them with a loving lover most like me.
enjoy the blessed day everyone…it is the only thing any of us truly yearn to do each waking day, of time with one another in real life.
keeping it real from now on Matt. thanks. bless you
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I am turning towards the loving lover within me, to BE as loving of another as i was Troy, leading by example for all the world to see and feel, the loving lover within them, so as to change the motherfucking world, so that when i do return in my reincarnated life with Troy there waiting for me, of him saying to me, “What took you so long?!” lol
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God blesses ALL everyone!
catchya ALL on the flip side of loving life!
caio bella! caio bello!
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i don’t fucking believe it, these greedy financial fuckheads are now taking even more from the hard working class citizens that work for them.
ah, who fucking cares, i don’t, as long as i have my coffee and morning bagel, im happy.
hey, maybe that’s what everyone needs, to feel what it is like for those who suffer from their egotistic fucking boastful pride of wealth.
looks like the future is unfolding as it should! greedy fucking idiots snared by their own apathy.
financial meltdown…ohhh…i like that word.
how about break down and face the truth of your arrogant pride wealth motherfuckers?
lol
cough* sorry …wrong blog again…
yep…financial institutions that engaged in this irresponsible lending, all speculators…all cause for increased worldwide inflation for the most poor who are barely able to survive…all greed driven…
…i hear they are highering people at the local cafe here in the ghetto if anyone is in need of job! lol
oh hey look, a fire sale, everything at 80% off! yes! love it!
finally i can afford to buy one! lol
thanks mr.bankers. idiots.
Are you having another rant? 😦
proposals being debated would amount to the most sweeping economic intervention by the government since the Great Depression…
…oh hey, this really is serious.
idiots don’t have the words insatiable desire of greed in their vocabulary…obvously.
well…looks like alot of people will soon have lots of time to think about it in the unemployment lines. lol
hmmm…perhaps they will learn to share in order to survive?
nah…i doubt it. their too stupid. lol
I don’t care, as long as I can sell my flat.
they have to freeze the markets, while there is still a market to freeze…yesterday, not tommorrow, as it is panic driven.
shut it down now.
idiots…always explaining.
Madonna’s in Vienna tonight. Sounds nice. So you’re not Madonna.
you might have to sell it real cheap, like me REAL CHEAP, as in FREE!
lol
i am like that of Madonna, yes. 100%
I AM selling it real cheap. I have a buyer. But the management company have screwed me.
invest in gold
while you still can.
It’s 10.34 pm in Austria. Madonna would be doing a big jumpy number on stage right now,
So you can’t be Madonna. You must be a humble serf.
What’s it like working for Madonna? Really? You can tell me in confidence. I won’t let on.
yep…a humble student of only love in his heart, sweet music, dance, lover…all that matters to me.
i don’t work for her…i work well with her…always of love in my heart for her of matters to both of us…100%
he and i could be the poorest in the world, yet always of happiness of the sincere love we have for each other.
oh look, the financial meltdown everyone…hey, we will all soon be poor, but definitely not ever poor in sincere loving spirit of and with one another, of the only thing that matters in the eyes of Jesus, God and those like us.
truly!
you know what…i have only a mattress to my name, not even any sheets for it.
i swear. and i am as happy as fuck to feel so free like i do this day, knowing the loving lover within me who is going to find one just like me, undistracted by the cold motherfucking useless bullshit world i used to work for.
lol
can you believe ‘that’?
it’s true.
i am
i am…BE CAUSE?
we are
😉 😀
I’m poor already. Financial meltdown doesn’t bother me. I have no money at all. I live in a small flat with no money on low income.
But do you find me complaining??
i don’t even think gold is safe to invest in anymore.
yeah…that’s how i want to fly too, no stress, forever of carefree loving spirit of a lover and friends.
You’ve got a mattress with no sheets? Bloody luxury. I dream of a mattress. I have to sleep on floor.
Well, I say “floor”. It’s more like gravel.
wow…there is real panic out there in the markets.
to the tune of 700 billion dollar bandage.
nah, the Christians gave me a mattress.
ah fuck…i feel like i am in some cartoon.
I’m sure the financial thing will just blow over and everyone will forget about it. Just like it always does.
pandamoniam all around, me standing still silently laughing at the morons who don’t see us(comprehend).
ah…no.
American government is looking to pass a 700 BILLION dollar buy out of existing companies, selling off of the assets later.
they have not passed it yet, and likely will not get the green light…besides, that won’t save the world economy anyway.
they have to freeze it for a month or so…no trading.
then when the stupid dust settles and people calm the fuck down…slowly open the trading.
they have to in order to save what yet exists…or say good bye to the world economy.
it is worse than the great depression meltdown.
it’s sliding into the ocean because of the ‘sky is falling’ panic striken ones losing millions as we speak.
i find them all rather entertaining and amusing for me.
Why do you care?
this guy is smart;
Bernanke argued that setting up an auction process for the government to buy the troubled mortgages would benefit all banks and the broader economy. Auctions would allow financial institutions to more accurately value the assets, rather than having to take huge losses when they marked them down to fire sale prices.
If I had any money I’d be bothered. But I don’t and I’m not.
i don’t care…like i said, i find it all rather amusing.
well…i mean i care…i would like to see people keep their jobs.
the great depression was worse for the working class and poor…the wealthy did not go without.
gold was the investment of choice when it hit back then.
it is all because of the insatiable desire of greed which speculated far too long, of housing prices which are utterly absurd!
i know how much it costs to build a house, dad and i built hundres of them.
not in your heart you mean…it is not you are about.
ya, i know what you are saying, i am no stranger to wisdom seekers.
Madonna will be coming off stage soon. I’m sure she’s not bothered about financial meltdown.
In the end, it will be good for the working class, with more realistic values, as inflation is far to high in many parts of the world, the poor being the hardest hit, which is who i care about.
but then again the greedy fuckers may increase prices to make up for their recent loses.
ah…i never fucking ends, this bullshit world that is upside down.
hmmm…let’s see, lower prices means companies closing, more unployment, less work, less buying, meaning better barting world wide at better prices…hey, this is going to be a good thing for the poor caught in the inflation of the insatiable greedy ones.
ah…good then, let it fall into the ocean. lol
so it’s true then.
oh, i couldn’t possible be?…
only one way to find OUT!
😉 😀
and i ain’t waiting another 14 fucking years! lol
i jest.
do what ya want.
i want you to be happy, however and with who ever that will be…be wise.
I don’t understand. I’m just left in the dark.
I’m wise. I won’t be silly.
If Madonna contacted me, she wouldn’t regret it. I give you my word.
But she’d have to treat me well. No screwing with me in any way whatsoever.
Anyway, I’m going to bed. Night night X.
gratitude and thankfulness of the day, and everything about the day, the food, the tender touch, the soft spoken, the pleasant music, the lover, the friends, the time alone in peace and tranquility of loving feelings….
ya…i agree….
i am so done with people screwing with my head, and my emotional well being.
hey, i redid the pic of M…do you like it?
anyway, we are all free to do what we want….just be sure that what you want to do, is what you truly want to do, with who ever you want to do it with. 😉
looks like the housing market is going to come to a complete hault.
which means alot of unemployment and further economic slowdown on a huge scale in the coming months, less people buying and spending, more job cuts, more companies feeling the pinch, which could see no recovery of the economy for along long time…decades.
i don’t see why the banks don’t put back some of their profits from years gone by…oh yeah, i forgot…they don’t care.
just like them to have the balls to ask the tax payers for 700Billion.
can you believe that?
as if we will vote for that, as they cry wolf saying we will all lose our jobs if we don’t…motherfuckers.
oh yeah…if forgot…i don’t care…at least not for the insatiable desire of greed ones….
oh hey…this new ring i am wearing is glass…i wonder how long before it gets broken. 😉
not that i would be the one to intentionally break it, just that working with it will likely see it get broken eventually.
maybe i should put it somewhere safe.
😉 😀
i took it off and put it on my crystal cross necklace…safe
im just left in the dark…do you write your own comic stuff? lol
ah fuck it, i ain’t gonna lie…i would love to spend my life with M.
duh! who wouldn’t
a moron if you don’t
but it is always a two way street for us all, where it is not about what we may want, and rather what two people who sincerely connect want, where it is always the connection or the lack of connection which is the only way i will know who is right for me, as i cannot enjoy being around one who is not of the desire to connect at the same level of sincerity as i am.
I will share something else…i know God is on my side, in my steadfast knowingness of who i connect with, and those of lessor sincerity to do so, where God wills me to always remain of my knowingness that somewhere is one who is meant for me, good for me, sincere like me, of exceeding joy for us both when we do finally get together.
i am not looking at heart ache in the future, rather i am knowingness of what works for me, just as i know what works for another, open sincere divine true self pure loving sincerity of eyes only for each other, commitment and surrendering of self to another, of the same way i surrendered to Jesus and God, where i know Jesus and it is Jesus who helps me feel who is sincere with me, honest with me, of the same level of reflection of me as i am of them…and i ain’t setting for anything less motherfuckers!
lol
Jesus and God tell me not too, knowing i am not about the ugliness of the mean spirited world, of having left it behind now, where i don’t care if it takes me ten years to find one right for me, where settling for less is stupid, and painful. nope…not again…not ever. I would rather read a comic book. 😉
tic toc tic toc
man, the clock is driving me nuts, so slowly! lol
i would secure real gold, not just on paper, if possible.
don’t buy american gold on paper, as this is bank gold who are the ones faultering.
But questions remain about whether it will prevent more failures of banks and Wall Street firms and many doubt this will lead to a quick turnaround for the battered housing market
here comes the fall out.
ya. i know your depth of compassion is like my own.
just think of the stress free feelings which come with knowingness of what kingdom of heaven is for ALL. It is about sincere loving approach with everyone, rich or poor, rich in loving spirit we ALL are and can BE.
i am …BE CAUSE we are…rich in loving spirit we ALL are and can BE.
how dare he call me a zionist. i am no zionist. i am of God.
we all are you morons!
Children of the light of God, so try recognizing what you are.
Those who know God, know 100% that God is only love, compassion and wisdom, not hate, apathy and ignorance.
All of us, including the leaders of Iran, are all God’s children of the light of God.
What most people fail to comprehend, is that the ignorant bitter false teachings of the forefathers who did not know God, nor desre, yet claim they did, and did not, existed before Jesus, and are the exact same teachings handed down till this day of the very same ignorant teachings which existed the time Jesus walked the earth.
Jesus saw it everywhere he went, himself of a non-denominational child of God, alone in the desert where God spoke with him, of his own self-awareness of the purity of loving feelings within him, of only sincere love, wisdom, compassion for all innocent souls being born into the unwise world and learning these ignorant false teachings the existed, and yet exist in the world.
Sadly, the world is still gripped by these false teachings which Jesus and myself are of the awareness of…the list is long.
It is the very cause of all warring factions yet in the world, of the burning fire of ignorant unwise hatred which burns in the hearts of men, day and night, of what they turn towards, hate rather than love, ignorance rather than wisdom, apathy rather than compassion.
Woe to you who do not come before God and humble yourselves in surrendering to the truth, that you are not wise of God yet, for no is until such a time of God’s chosing.
Woe to you who do not come before God and humble yourselves in surrendering to the truth, that you are may be snared by the unwise false teachings which were and are not of God, of the many fate’s of ignorance, hatred and apathy.
Woe to you who do not realize what the greatest truth wisdom of God is, ‘Crucial Lacking of Desire for Wisdom’, wisdom that is meant for the divine true self with you all, of the what Jesus came to know of himself, and in so doing, came into full knowingness in his awareness of ‘that’ which is true of me, is true 100% true of all innocent souls born into the unwise world, which Jesus cognitively became aware of in all things people say or do, of the descerning wisdom which thinks with our feelings in each passing moment, the truth which is so obvious to see and feel.
Woe to you who do not know what and where the kingdom of heaven is, for you shall not find it in all your useless shallow attempts in doing so, in your attempts to serve God and your unwise foolish unBEcoming conduct at the same time, unknowing of your own unwiseness which yet grips your precious loving souls snared by the ignorant teachings of the forefathers which yet plaques the earth and all of it’s inhabitants.
In the eyes of God, all are equals in the ability and capacity to know God.
I speak these words as one who knows God, chosen by God, because i chose God.
ok…lunch time!
lol
ha.
(CNN) — Got an idea that could change the world, or at least help a lot of people? Google wants to hear from you — and they’ll pay as much as $10 million to make your idea a reality.
really now?
how about what it’s really worth…10 million lives of precious innocent souls born into the unwise world?
these people just don’t get it.
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if i were to surrender to their lure of money, then i would become distracted from my purity of sincere love for all precious innocent souls born into the unwise world, serving the world, rather than God, would i not?
duh!
my therapist said something funny this morning, she goes. “The first thing we experience from exiting the harmonious blissful state of nine months in the womb is a slap on the ass!”
lol
from that first day, It’s like, wtf? What’s going on? What is this place? This isn’t heaven that i was experiencing in the womb, is it? Oh damn, it is! Why are these people so mean spirited with one another? Did we all not experience the blissful pure harmonious state of nine months in the womb? Indeed, i know, we all did, and i know without doubt, it is the harmonious state of feeling which is the core of the precious loving innocent soul of all divine true self within us all, ALL innocent souls born into the yet unwise world, are we not? duh! lol
So i ask, “Why are so many of you forgetful of your harmonious feelings you experienced in all your inharmonious conduct with one another, where in pure undenialable truth, you are all exactly the same within of what you all experienced while in the womb…harmony.”
Wise are those who pay heed to the one who offers advice in their knowingness that many there are who turn away from harmonious love and pure truthfulness that all inhabitants of the earth…are you truely listening?…are all exactly the same!
i offer you all warning, to those who turn towards stupid raging hatefulness of any one, hear my words with you this day…”YOU shall experience the full extent of the stupid hate you turn towards in your utter stupidness in deciding to kill a precious innocent soul like your own, where it will be YOU who decides the fate of your own precious innocent soul, in your turning towards unBEcoming conduct with another, where the fortitude of God’s might will greet you full in your own death, not of we who are loving of you, rather of your own unwiseness in turning toward a deciding moment in the future of hatefulness toward another, in your decision, not ours, in doing so. YOU will face the full wrath of GOD on that day, should you unwisely decide your own fate that day, in turning towards useless hatefulness of my loving brothers and sisters, including you who are yet able to turn away from hate and towards the truth of your own precious loving soul born into the unwise world, which may yet be snared by ignorant hateful apathetic unBEcoming conduct of these many false teachings of the forefathers before us all, which yet grip the many inhabitants of earth.
I have spoken the truth of that which will come to all of you who chose to turn towards useless hatefulness of one another, as one who stands forever more united of the oneness of God’s willingness of wisdom, love and compassion for ALL.
Should you fail to pay heed to my words, it is YOU who shall BEcome obvious for ALL to see and feel the truth of your hatefulness, when you are cast out of heaven for all eternity, and forgotten, just as we have forgotten the useless absurd hatefulness and stupidness of Hitler.
Know this…”None of YOU will not become victorious over the truth of my loving brothers and sisters, not now, not ever, for we are of the eternal TRUTH which does not fail, in our knowingness of love, compassion and wisdom for one another as equals of all the inhabitants of earth, as loving divine children of the light of God, ALL, one and the same, including YOU who are yet of the unwiseness of God, unwise of your own divine true self within, an innocent loving soul of God born just as we ALL are, into the (yet) unwise world of the kingdom of heaven which surrounds us, where it is our precious feelings which feel the truth of all things we look apon.”
thank you for listening(feeling).
Mark my words, these things will come to pass in the future, no matter your decisions of BEcoming or unBEcoming conduct with one another, where it is you who shall decide YOUR fate in doing so.
Turn towards hate, and it will BE defensive fire which shall greet you, as we are of the might and fortitude of God’s wrath, and of God’s asking that we “do not allow the unwise wretched bitter hatefulness of the beast of ignorance that may rise up against you, to become victorious over your pecious loving souls, lest the beast of ignorance become victorious and rein over the earth of the many precious loving inhabitants of the earth in all it’s wretched hateful unwiseness to do so.”
we have come along way as inhabitants of the earth, in our ever increasing value of love over hate, of the many who experienced world war II, of the one thing they all unnanamously felt within…let’s not ever do this again with one another, and instead be loving of one another, just as we ALL are today, of the free world, truly loving, wise, compassionate and considerate in our feelings for all precious loving souls of the earth, where today, many there are working in the field today, in our efforts to bring an end to world starvation, that of our fortitude of wisdom of God’s spiritual wealth in doing so, where we know fully, it is our loving feelings for one another as equals, which is of the only TRUE VALUE of life in each blessed day we wake to(mostly…some are yet learning of the enlightened ones who walk among us, which feel our presence of BEcoming conduct so obvious to see(feel) the truth of our love).
Jesus loves ALL. God loves ALL. We love ALL.
God blesses ALL.
bless this day forever more and ALL the blessed days yet to come.
slow down and humble yourselves before God, and embrace fully the truth, that NONE of you are fully of God’s wisdom, nor shall anyone be until such a time of God’s chosing, where truly, all unloving unBEcoming conduct is obvious to see and feel by those who are of the enlightenment, wisdom, love and compassion of God who dwells with them.
thank you Jesus. thank you God. thank you to all who turn towards their loving compassionate wise feelings of God’s divine WILL that we BEcome the WILLINGNESS to do so.
God summons ALL souls of the earth to love, compassion and wisdom.
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hey, i think my spelling is improving…thank you God.
hey…my dissertations are improving, yes?
truly focused on pure truth wisdom of God who dwells with me(us).
let me take a moment to describe my dwelling with God.
i am alone in a chamber with God and many angels of God, in pure oneness of connection with them of the utter purity and sincerity of my loving divine true self child within. I speak with God directly in thankfulness and complete humbleness with God and the angels of God, where it is the angels which teach me by means of the pure feelings of the angels, exactly that of my own, where learning of our 100% pure sincere feelings is of God’s divine will that we ALL do.
cool eh?
a mighty super hero that walks among us, invisible to all who are not of my comprehension, yet many there are who are close to my level of awareness in psychology and spirituality, where spirituality is of the wealth of pure connection feelings which God’s word nurture and protect, ‘that’ of the divine true self child within us all, exactly that of the adult child called Jesus, who knew conclusively without doubt, we are ALL exactly the same in our capability to know what Jesus came to know fully!
Let me say this…Jesus did speak with God, and knew God was ever present with him, and God did speak with Jesus just as he speaks with me.
ok….break time. lol
i would like to submit my knowledge to CNN, but it may take more than a few years to fully disclose what i know, of the extensive writings i have and written over the last twenty years, of ever eloborating on all that has been written.
In truth, that is the main problem, is it not, of the many in such haste and aimlessness of soul of their ‘Crucial Lacking of Desire for Wisdom?”
If we don’t take time to get up each day and go to class at university to get a degree in say psychology, then we do not get the degree. duh!
such is the length of time needed for ALL to BEcome of the much needed wisdom that ALL must embrace to enter into the awareness level(wise perspective) of the kingdom of heaven all around us, where in truth, it is those who sit apon the many thrones of nescience in the world, who MUST be of the sincere yearning and desire for the amount of wisdom which is need of them, in order for them to surrender and let go of these uselessnesses of unBEcoming conduct so obvious for us to see and feel the truth of their yet unwiseness, is it not?
oh well, we shall see soon enough what they decide, God rest their souls if they turn towards the fires of useless hate within them, for they will not become victorious over us, not ever.
look at us, the USA, the UK, Canada, Japan, Hong Kong(China), all of the collaboration of likemindedness and love for one another. Only an idiot would think they could wipe us out, where sadly we know the truth, they WILL DIE should they attempt to do so….without doubt.
anyway, that’s all i have to say for now of how the future WILL unfold, where the fate of those who sit apon the thrones of nescience WILL be the ones who decide their own fate first, not we who are yet loving, empathetic, and wisely compassionate of them.
I embrace true and faithful friendship as the best course for us to take, of our enemies that we do indeed sincerely love, inspite of the lack of comprehension of us to know the truth, we do love them.
i pray they take the time to fully come into the awareness and comprehension level that we have become, as darkness of ignorance is of our knowingness of which they sadly yet dwell.
we love them, truly we do, just as we are ALL loving of so many of us the world over, in all our continued economic relationships of so many decades now, ever growing of peacefulness and loving harmony with one another which will continue come what may of any who stupidly attempt in trying to derail us….they won’t succeed.
Just as we all learned of the uselessness of world war II, which was not completely useless, as it did teach us all to be of harmonious approach with one another.
The world did rise up against one another back then, stupidly, many millions of family members died on all sides of the stupidness and utter uselessness of war.
As they said then, “Let us not repeat history with one another, and indeed, we don’t and we won’t, and only of those who rise up against us, shall we eternally be of God’s fortitude in defending ourselves shall war be experienced again.
Granted, we did go into Iraq, and Afganistan, but the regimes which were there were indeed of the useless unwise ignorant ones snared by the unwiseness of the teachings of the forefathers, not of God in all their wretched controling ways, such as beheading a father in front of their family outside the family home, for outspokenness of those who spoke against Saddam.
Many of you do not embrace the wretchedness of the regime that existed before in all your armchair warrior opinions.
Our soldiers in Irag and Afganistan are always of the loving feelings of the homefront each hour of everyday, bringing forth peace and love which is of the free world we live in. They are not there to harm anyone, rather to defend against wretched stupid unwiseness of the hateful unBEcoming conduct of those yet snared by the ignorant teachings of the forefathers which yet exists through out the earth of ancient ignorant teachings not of God which go back way before the days Jesus walked the earth, all of learned behaviours and unwise unBEcoming conduct handed down generation after generation, century after centrury, still alive and thriving with us this day, exactly as it did then, no different in any way, where today they still stone people to death in Iran(for example of the truth of this knowingness of learned behaviours) for adultery…utterly and completely hateful unBEcoming conduct of the hypocrisy heart Jesus(God) spoke against and railed against each and ever step, breath and heart beat of his precious loving life walking the earth.
ok…dinner time….
😉 😀
Do we live in 2008?
So i enter Montenegro and they steal my fucking towels!! I’m pissed they were suspicious of the amount? Well hello it’s a mother fucking tour! I’m breathing and letting in light ..and they can kiss my arse.. xXx
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i say, “Let’s keep living our loving lives together like we do, of our on going celebrations of loving life the world over, and just forget about the morons who sit apon their thrones of nescience of words and speech(and indeed we do, do we not?), and let them mull over their thoughts over time, as we need not concern ourselves or engage in their bitter cajoling and enticing of ones obviously ignorant, lest they continue to enjoy their arrogant egotistical words with us(and indeed, no one was there listening, was there…guess what, we don’t care what you have to say with to us, unless it is words of love, compassion and wisdom).
Good going guys, in your not engaging in useless debate with those yet so obviously unwise and unloving in their obvious unloving conduct, so bitter to the taste their immature childish words are, are they not.
We need not concern ourselves as many there are who have taken up their posts in defensive position forever more.
forget about trying to make sense with those who don’t thirst for our wisdom.
If they want to die in stupidness of approach with us, then let them decide their own death, as God has spoken.
Let’s all stay the course and get back to our loving lives, focusing our time on helping those in need in the world, of time well spent in our concern for the one billion children in poverty, concern of time and moneies for education of our own children and ourselves, where there is no way i would invite a hateful war monger to speak to my loving classmates at university…a complete of our precious time, is it not.
If we allow ourselves to be cajoled and enticed by those obvious of the hypocrisy heart they turn to, in all their useless ignorant words with us, that of an unwise child of God, then we lend ourselves to the possibility of their raging hateful fire within that they seek to cast into us, in the hopes of engaging in useless debate with an unwise child, of what God calls, “The bitter nashing of the teeth outside the gate of heaven.”
Nope. Who wants to listen to that, when sweet soft music, candle light dinners with our loved ones, and peaceful serenity is what we enjoy.
Why be fearful of those who cast fear around like they do, apon us who dwell in the kingdom of heaven, of our pure knowingness of what and where the kingdom of heaven is and always has been, as Jesus said, “What you look for has already come.”
It is our wisdom, our loving feelings, our loving compassion which is what the kingdom of heaven is and always was.
We have God’s fortitude of protection in technology, and without doubt, it will be used against any ignorant rising up of the beast of ignorance against we who are of God’s love, compassion and wisdom.
Go ahead, oh yeah of seemingly infinite wisdom of God, so obvious to us all that you are not, in all your unloving stupidly ignorant ways of unwise embracing of hatefulness against we who love, for if you do, you will die stupid.
Like dirty Harry said, “You need to ask your SELF, did i fire five shots or six, as the idiot turned towards his hate within in unwisely reaching for his gun, thinking he could possibly outdraw the gun of God’s loving child which made final judgement apon hateful ignorant unwise unBEcoming ways, for sake of the unborn children yet to come, for sake of we the children of the light of God.
It’s over people, this whole bullshit ignorance yet in the world, will be brought to not from this day forward forever more, where such unloving ways will not be tolerated ever again in the world, a free world of free fun loving high spirited children of God forever at play with one another, sincerely loving of each other like we are.
blessings to all, and thank you for your continued efforts in feeling your loving feelings within. thank you.
be sure to offer only love and praise of the children who take their posts each day in defensive position of our loving free world, for truly we know, in their hearts each day, is the loving feelings of our homefronts which miss them hourly, of our sincere pure loving feelings for our loving sons and daughters.
enjoy the blessed day everyone, we only get so many of them. Don’t waste time with the babbling hate mongers who seek to entice you into emptiness of words so shallow, lest we fall from God’s grace of exceeding wisdom and BEcoming conduct of the divine true child within us ALL, loved by Jesus, loved by God, loved by ALL who are loving like we are.
i am…BE CAUSE…WE ARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
😉 😀
on we go
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oh hi M.
my therapist is awesome!
we had my first session, get this, out on a roof top patio in the beautiful sunshine, and get this, she smokes like i do. lol
she is exceedingly wise of 30 years as a therapist, of a program she created for me to work thru in the coming years, right here in the ghetto, steps away from the cafe’s we all hang out at, of where she too lives, works and plays, of what she said to me, “i love the GLBT community the most in life, and is why i chose to live, work and play here daily.”
God bless her. thank you God.
you still taking the towels from the rooms? lol
how many are in your entourage anyway? 😉
2008?
ya, unfortunetly is many ways, we do physically live in the year 2008 here on planet earth, albeit, we are of the eternal spirit realm of no time constraint, which is always of our yearning to not have to experience the useless unwise negativity yet in the world that is so hard for us to escape and keep detangled from some days, of our fortitude of wisdom which sees(feels) clearly the obvious condition of many souls, of which we are empathetic for, but somedays, we really need a break from them, do we not. lol
sometimes i fall, slip, faulter, and become my own worse enemy of insecurity, but i am taking steps in establishing my three safe and supportive friends in life which i need to maintain my positive mental emotional well being.
forgive my abusdness with you somedays…just don’t tolerate it when i am of the lessor conduct, as i am in need of the guide posts.
sadly, i am no where near your level of mental emotional well being, and i am thankful of you putting up with me for as long as you have….i would of quit my sorry ass long ago. lol
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these writting are raw(new), of the eloboration of my studies.
feels good to connect with my fortitude of macro thinking which i know is of God’s divine will that i release God’s wisdom to the world.
God knows, i know, what he yearns for me(us) to know, where God knows i know 100% what it is God knows i know is of God’s wisdom.
God knows, i know.
i don’t really see God as a he or a she, where consideration of such is useless, just as a name is useless, where anonymous conduct is of the unity of the angels of God, silliness of egotism for need of a name or boastfulness of the generation of BEcoming conduct, we the generation who finally get it right for all generations yet to come.
the angels in the chamber God are all of the exact same likemindedness, watching of the ones who come into full knowingness of the likemindedness of pure love for one another, of the angels which know we are of the ability to feel as they do, pureness of genuine forever more love for one another, of no silly desire to ever think or feel anything other than the pure knowingness of feelings they feel, exactly the same within each, of the wisdom they know which unites them in the sameness of likemindedness.
It is the angels knowingness that we are able to come into the full knowingness of them, where indeed, they know it is we who eventually BEcome of the angels who walk the earth forever more in the kingdom of heaven, ushering the exceeding joyfulness for all to feel forever more with one another.
and indeed, we are doing just that, are we not, in our GLBT community. i know i am of the forever more loving feelings of all my loving brothers and sister, and have been since i the first day i arrived here in the ghetto, of sincere joyful spirit each day in greeting each and everyone of them, day after day, year after year, decade after decade…no changing me…not possible, is it?
why would i want to feel anything other than love for them, knowingness of how the world has treated and continues to treat us?
looks like the “Sky is falling mentality” still is running around like an idiot in America. idiots.
look people, the houses that are standing today will still be standing next year inspite of your stupid panic driven fear of losing you precious insatiable desire of greed.
those assest will still be what they are worth their market value next year.
What we are seeing is the spiritually poor souls feeling their loses of over speculation in the first place, like losing a monopoly game.
well, tough!
you play, you lose, so suck it up and be grateful if someone gives you a job and a meal to eat, with a roof over your head.
why on earth should tax payers come in and rescue your insatiable desire of greed which is heartless(not all) of consideration of those suffering far worse in the world than your poor poor me victim mentality of losing at your insatiable appetite for greed.
too bad for you, i say.
700 billion is about what the entire education cost is for children in America, where if we are smart, we will spend that 700 billion on educating them further in areas of psychology or whatever, so long as it is not about the stupid insatiable apetite of a greedy businessman who mostly don’t even know there are one billion children in the world in poverty.
so enjoy your downtime everyone, which will be good for you all in your really feeling your feelings of thankfulness of a meal to eat each day.
if government passes this 700billion, it is just stupid, as it further fuels the insatiable apetite mentality of so many of you.
let the chips fall as they say, and spend the money more wisely on the tax payer’s and their families, of who’s money it is and belongs to, not you of the business who are suffering you over speculated gambling like you did and yet do.
morons…i am surrounded by morons.
oh look…600, 000 of you gambling speculators lost your jobs.
well tough.
go get a real job.
they don’t even realize they drove up inflation world wide with the hardest hit being the poor, inflation of 100% in some areas of the world, of ones who could not afford a loaf of bread each day, and certainly cannot today.
fucking heartless uncaring business world morons, of no consideration other than their self serving bullshit insatiable apetite of the desire of greed and wealth.
rant over. lol
😉 😀
about time the inflation comes to a stop, and goes the other way.
if they pass this 700billion, i’ll be pissed. Government better not be taking any bribes along the way in sleeping with these bankers.
anyway…who wants to by your best in life M?
and who will always want to be your best friend in life M?
ok then.
just don’t put up with any of my shit ok?
i hate it when i get stupid about my sincere feelings for you, which i have had for decades, knowing i always will.
you would not believe what i bought at Priape today…then again, maybe she could…
http://www.priape.com/
and no, i am not giving you any hints…you will just have to use your imagination….
lol
😉 😀
i am sooooo bad! lol
Is Montenegro a proper country? I’d never heard of it.
I still can’t sell my flat. I know it sounds bad, but I hope I don’t suspect that Madonna is screwing me around over this. The days of that are in the past. I would not consider that acceptable in any way.
It’s your decision …
I don’t want to even think that.
I would consider that so serious, I don’t want to even think that.
You could say something.
Hello? If you want me to continue posting here, I want an answer.
Don’t you value me being here? Don’t you know what it will cost you if you take my new home from me? Don’t you understand? Is it worth that much to you, to screw me around? What sort of message is that sending to me? IS THAT SO IMPORTANT TO YOU?
I have been striving for almost two years to sell my flat, to get my new home by the sea. I don’t have much, but that’s all I’ve wanted.
Just think about it, OK?
Just think about it, seriously.
I’m going now.
If you want me to carry on posting here, then I want my new flat.
That’s the deal. The only language you understand. It’s a business proposition. Black or white. Your choice.
No flat, no posts.
Right, bye bye. Have a good tour.
You could give me this ONE thing to keep my happy. To keep me here.
Bye,
X
You have no idea how much stress my mother is under over this as well. I have been to hell and back over this thing.
You have no right to hurt my family as well.
no one is hurting anyone other than the one’s who chose unwiseness for themselves to follow.
i follow no one, only my pure of heart feelings for ALL.
people can take me or leave me…i don’t care anymore…truly, i don’t, of my knowingness of the only thing that works for me, of my knowingness of what works for another, who ever that may be, and indeed, of any one of you of my family, a loving brother i am to ALL. duh! 😉
ya, who would not want a place by the sea Andrew, with a most loving lover?
silly question.
all i can say is who ever the loving lover is, that better damn well love YOU or kick their sorry ass out the door. lol
i don’t any crap from anyone any more, and i expect you to do the same, and no i am not talking about same sex….although i suppose that would be ok too!
lol
😉 😀
by now Rosie is laughing her ass of again…lol
just deny you’ve got anything to do with my problems. Clear denial – honest swear-to-God denial. Clear and indisputable.
drama drama drama….shesshh….you’d think the sky was falling….
i was born and raised in a beautiful country setting of gravel roads, of my entire youth, of carefree fun loving spirit at one with nature.
i am way out of my element living in this cold city of steel, concrete and glass, of the only thing that keeps me here, and barely that i might add, is the loving brothers and sisters who greet me each day with sincere approach like we do daily.
what amounts for one to be of their happiness, may not be the same for another, where in truth, if there is no sincere desire for the other to be in their life, then in truth, the other feels the lack of sincerity, do they not?
So it always starts and stops with our own inner embrace of sincerity for another, feel it, what ever it is, then move in the direction which is best for you, of where happiness is able to thrive and grow within you day after day, of our inner child to do so.
We all have commitments, but none greater is the commitment to self to embrace their own happiness of the life they lead, be it of whatever orientation it is, it is YOUR LIFE, no one elses, and as for those of you who have loving families and children, don’t think that your children don’t detect if or whether you are sincerely happy or not, trust me, they do.
So sort out what needs sorted, just as i have done, and go live YOUR LIFE YOUR WAY with someone of YOUR CHOICE, and do not leave the decision for someone else to make, albeit, someone else may have already made up their mind for you, albeit, eventually someone you meet will, albeit, maybe you too already have.
lol
ya, i don’t have anything to do with what ever your problems are…
i am just am merely a passerby in your life, of someone who admires another who may be of the same comprehension as your own.
i don’t really care what anyone thinks of me, including you.
the thing i remember most as a youth, was how i sincerely felt my feelings of what ever those feelings were.
i hated school from the first day, always of an insecure one who walked among them, where i actually had problems walking in hallways the entire time of my school years, and even today of walking among others in public.
i identified it as the innappriateness of others which i feared, where today, not so much any longer, where i value my level of sincere feelings and approach with another, which is of a higher level than most, albeit within everyone is the subconscious yearning of their own sincere knowingness and memory of sincerely feeling their own feelings, however submerged they may be.
so ya, i am so ready for one like myself. 😉
opppsss….my spelling is failing again….
Thank you.
I apologise.
I have been under stress over this.
I am very happy now.
🙂
Time for bed.
XXX
I’ll start to trust you soon, I promise. Seriously. But give me time.
I guess we’ve both been through a lot. It ain’t easy.
If things work out, we’ll have done remarkably well. Against all odds.
You’re really being nice, aren’t you? You’re really making an effort. I really appreciate that.
I am almost moved!
Right, it’s far too late. Bedtime.
Night night.
X
ha.
my explained to my therapist how i hesitated for the last two years or so in exiting my 12 year relationship over abandonment guilt, and fear of the whole drama thing that usually comes with breakups, my psychological stuckness…normal.
She said,” ah, so you left along time ago!” as she smiled the reassuring smile my inner child needed to feel ok about feeling, as i too smiled and laughed inside, exclaiming, “Yes! i did!”
She said, “And so how is that process going for you now?”
i said, “Very good actually, just a few more boxes to pack for the moving van to pick up and deliver, graciously doing so, keeping the friendship of 12 years with my ex intact, for sake of him, and for sake of me too, as i am a kind and considerate one of loving sincere feelings for everyone, not ever dambing of anyone as completely bad, as that is not realistic, rather we all have our idiosyncrasies, and psychological stuff, that they can keep, belongs to them, not me!”
😉 😀
ya, me too…almost moved…a gracious one i am.
i don’t screw around, as much as some may think i do, of their own insecure self.
i am very respectful of another in disclosing the truth about me…openly more so than most any in life, in my opinion, not many as fearlessly open like i am.
i think it was because of the massive impact of Troy in my life, where i did hide my feelings away from him, which resulted in what happened, fucking egotism i once was of.
my openness is not of ego, and rather the death of ego, fearlessly expressing everything about me, from sexual orientation, to whatever i feel like talking about, indeed, it is because of Troy that i became as fearless as i am today, as well as the fearlessness of my loving brothers and sisters along the way, where indeed, we have all become so fearless, have we not, in the GLBT community?
i mean WOW! look how fearless we all are!
anyway, ya, i am nearly moved to my new flat, forever free of the harmful effect/affect of inapprorpiateness of other people’s psychological stuff, which is theirs, not mine….there is the line….lol 😉
for me, it’s not about trust, or holding onto anything other than our friendship which will last forever, that you can count on.
rather, i am just going thru the motions of my detanglement of another, setting my spirit free, faultering somedays, but it is a most extraordinary freeing sensation for me to say the least.
i do not have any expectations of anyone, and that is how i wish to fly from now on, free of fear in anything they may say or do, their stuff, not mine.
my attitude is so much healthier and genuinely happy of being free of worry about what anyone thinks of me, fuck that, did that for years of my life for many decades, including my experience with Troy, which was lack luster at times, of which most would not of gone as far as i did with him, where today, maybe holding on too long was unhealthy for both of us at the time, both of the psychological stuckness of getting past and out of our feelings of denial we held back from one another, mostly Troy, not me. anyway…
So yeah, why worry about what anyone thinks of us.
i have seen myself come across some truly beautiful loving souls in life, glad i was of fearlessness in getting myself out and about in order to do so, where they became enthralled with me as well, which is what i realize what works for me, of likeminded excitement about life, exuberant and always bright, that of our inner child’s sincere joy of life, not weighed down like so many are, their own worse enemies, be it whatever they fail to address, such as a horrible job environment of innappropriate immature others, family, friends, lack of good friends, their own approach to well being of physical/mental/emotional/spiritual/sexual well BEing….all vital areas of concern which must be addressed or fail ourselves in the end when we don’t, where it is easy for us to don’t, of the familiarity dynamic of so many in life who don’t….it really is boring for me out here most days!
anyway…i am doing really good, so relax about me.
if anything, i will be at the very least a much healthy pen pal friend to you, more if you like….that was a hint!
i don’t want to just toss myself at someone, as it does not work for me when i don’t detect a sincere interest from them for me…we feel the difference, do we not?
sweetest of dreams Love.
OOOXXX
hmmmmm….
$10 Million for an idea to change the world,
Hu,
hey google
I got an Idea
Pay Madonna $10Million to sing “Don’t Cry For Me Argentina” to me in my bedroom lol.. 🙂
That will change the world
Now get out of here… as she would say …
It won’t be easy, you’ll think it strange
When I try to explain how I feel
That I still need your love after all that I’ve done
You won’t believe me
All you will see is a girl you once knew
Although she’s dressed up to the nines
At sixes and sevens with you
I had to let it happen, I had to change
Couldn’t stay all my life down at heel
Looking out of the window, staying out of the sun
So I chose freedom
Running around, trying everything new
But nothing impressed me at all
I never expected it to
[Chorus:]
Don’t cry for me Argentina
The truth is I never left you
All through my wild days
My mad existence
I kept my promise
Don’t keep your distance
And as for fortune, and as for fame
I never invited them in
Though it seemed to the world they were all I desired
They are illusions
They are not the solutions they promised to be
The answer was here all the time
I love you and hope you love me
Don’t cry for me Argentina
[chorus]
Have I said too much?
There’s nothing more I can think of to say to you.
But all you have to do is look at me to know
That every word is true
Have I said too much?
lol 🙂
Blame ANdy
he put this in me !!
get it out, it hurt’s
who does not want to feel loved?
we all feel love when ever we choose to feel love?
seems i feel love for everyone, and i don’t know what to do?
it’s like that
it hurts
but free i must be, of God who chose me…
…to BE….free to just BE me.
ya, i remember those lyrics…they really cut thru at the time…still do?
“What you look for has already come.”
just love everyone,
that is ok too do too, two
my spelling is bad i know
ha
oh, very funny Marco.
i just don’t want to hang on to dreams like i have of many in life, when love was not true…
so many there are who lead us on to nowhere bridges…
can you believe they built a bridge to nowhere?
these guys and their giant art peices, i tell ya.
in the name of art it has all been worth it for so many who felt and will continue to feel it.
but the artist i feel needs something real for their best work to come out.
ah, everything in life is created for a reason ( by the self ),
Change occur’s when the lesson is truly learnt not before not after.
except maybe for my favorite shirt’s i alway’s hang on to them. ok take the shirt off my back then
i can’t believe these giant motherfucker money producing giants are squeezing the balls of hard working class tax payers for money?
that is intolerable.
it’s like somebody with a gambling problem coming to us and asking if for money to keep gambling…
in truth….that is exactly what it is…a serious gambling problem on a huge scale….
well we will just see if this stupid gambling is brought to a stop, and maybe the world can return to normal levels of existence of what is normal…those of us who work for an honest living, the working class citizen of the world, not all you useless gambling junkies at your desks too lazy to go work for a living, and now they come and scare everyone they will lose more.
i feel that fueling these gambling mentalities is what is futile, of where we will just find ourselves back where we are today.
what happened to the accounting principles we used to adhere to of good business?
this just makes not sense…it is cut and run from the loses before they lose more. The courts should be the ones to decide this one, no one else.
you seen those huge paintings at the Louvre Museum
slap bang there taking up the whole wall some of them, pictures of Angel’s and all… huge, LOL 🙂
it is all about the over speculators, pure and simple…
why not let the chips fall where they are supposed to, seeing the obvious uselessness of over speculation in markets which is the cause for where they have arrived at.
just like the money marketing buys to cut and run, leaving their damaging gambling mental fuckedness in their wake…well too bad.
crops in a farmers field only grow at certain rates of growth.
there is a lesson in that, is there not?
it is all a ploy everyone, and an opportunity for the opportunist to once again be part of our hard working class society which make up the bulk of society, where it is the courts who see thru these ones who sit apon thrones of utter nescience….
they won’t get their green light for 700Billion guys…trust me on this one…no way.
oh stop teasing me Marco! lol
and just get your sorry ass over here…now damn it…before i change my mind….
…not that i will ever change my mind if one day you come to your senses and let everyone know the truth…whatever that is…
i am loving…this i know…of whoever is loving of me…that won’t change for me…
the one piece of mind i do have…
well…one thing a farmer knows…the sun comes up each day, and his crops continue to grow year after year, able to feed his loving family.
that is the disconnect in a society of opportunists lurking to take advantage, wielding of their fear mongering, rather than taking responsibility for their actions in the first place.
no…what do they do…they cut and run.
what they used to call fly by night operators.
well good riddence to the lot of you, where in truth, global societies will eventually be better off without you, and truly, would of been better off today without you, would they not….bullshit…all liars and deniars of gambling addiction.
and now their asking Johnny who works for minimum wage for $2300 of his hard earned money, barely able to pay his rent and for the food on his table.
well people…that is about as low as it gets, these opportunists and their scheming ways.
see the ugly truth everyone of the insatiable desire of greed these opportunists are, where they should not ever be able to come to the hard working class citizens for money ‘they lost’ and never made in the first place, all of their over optimistic gambling speculation, which is cause for inflation in the world guys.
so who’s side are we on, theirs? or we who know the value of a dollar?
not that i care at all about money….
did i say slap bang, sorry,
the truth is coming Andy, so start tickling..
ahwa i’m going
one track mind,
talk soon,,xoxo
i see us all as classmates of the fun loving school of life, where if some beautiful day in my joyfulness of fun loving spirit out in the sunshine, someone comes up to me and kisses me, and says to me, “i fucking adore you Andy!!!”, where Andy does not say a word, and instead gracefully holds out both of his hands in front of him to hold, and then while holding their hands, leans in for a long sincere loving kiss, as the two lovers let go and surrender to the moment, now hugging one another in the middle of the street, still kissing one another, of no care in the world for anything other than the pure delight of exceeding joyfulness within the two of them, of two individuals who truly do love one another as equals in life forever more, of no need for words of how they truly feel for one another inside both of them….where they both know how the other feels for them.
LOVE
😀 😀
marco….it is you who brightens my day, each and everytime….”i fucking adore you!!!”
who has time for the motherfuckers anyway…so boring in all their uselessness of negativity. fuck that. let’s get married!
oh yeah…i forgot…we already are…spiritually.
i ask Marco, “how is it possibly that you and i will ever not BE loving soul mate friends, knowingness of our tenderness and sensitivity of lover for each other, which feels genuine and sincere inside for us both?”
i am radiant and brightness of exceeding joyfulness of joyful tears inside, of having a best friend like you, who truly feels like a best friend in life to me. thank you.
“now fucking kiss me damn it!!!!” lol
i keep sensing a delicate lightness of the exceeding joyfulness of my child within who was fearless and fun loving as a child, happy most days, sincerely loving of his life of whatever he become curious about, in his many interests of music, science, mathematics, nature, sports, friends, but nothing compared to his wholesome loving feelings he felt for some of his most beloved childhood friends, of his cousin David being one of them, eternally loving of each other, insane in the brain the way the two would carry on laughing at the entire world of boring morons around them, ever of the entertaining of each other and everyone around them…ya, i was an exceedingly joyful fun loving child, and it is my knowingness of how i felt which is returning to me yet again, where in truth, who has time for boring negativity or emptiness of victim mentalities which snare so many…been there, not me, other people’s unresolved stuff the project on to us, not mine, they can keep it…
come on Marco…let’s blow this popsicle stand and get out of here!
😀 😀
we you won’t regret it. trust me, just as i trust you, for i feel your tender loving fun loving spirit so much like my own. We would be stupid to ever turn away from one another, having come this far, so fearlessly, so growing of love within in delight of one another.
damn, i have a real friend in life who feels sincerely enjoying of me as much as i am of them.
well, it’s about time i found someone like me! 😉
hey…i have interesting question for everyone to ponder…and i want you all to seriously ponder this, ok, because i doubt anyone has sincerely reflected on the truth of this question which is truly revealing of my fearlessness of asking the question.
“Is there any difference in the experience of orgasm for a female or a male?”
So how is a male different from a female in this reguard, when orgasmic experience is the same?
that’s what we have all failed to fully embrace in life, the male and female are not any different at all, physically, mentally, emotionally, sexually, spiritually…albeit different as far as healthy approach being addressed at the individual level.
so why do we all put all these indifferences between us all, which hinder us from all loving one another as equals, of true equality love like that which those of the GLBT community are of knowingness of?
why?
fear.
fear of not being loved.
fear of the stupidness of rejection.
well…reject me all you want motherfuckers, but remember this, i will always be there to kick all your sorry asses year after year, with who ever decides they want to be with Andy.
not to worry, Andy ain’t about to settle for anything but the best of you, who are sincere cognitive healthy approach to their life at an individual level, be it male or female, where in truth, Andy loves his orgasms as much as the next guy/girl.
oh hey, now that is some open minded discussion, yes?
love it.
i love both the male and the female equally, where as a lover, i have spent countless hours with both over the last 30 years.
truly, i love the female body as much as i do my own, perhaps more, where i used to fantasize of being a female myself, and still do, so who could love a female more than another female?
oh hey, now there is some of the most refined bisexual openness ever written.
for me, it’s not about sex in deciding who a partner is, rather it is about the openness and healthy emotional well being of another, who is of sincerity of their increased value of love over everything else in life.
that is who works for me, for us all, where i merely want to smile each and every waking hour of someone sincere thankful and lovingly appreciative of me in their daily life.
if i don’t feel that with, of, and for someone, i won’t be with them, that you can count on.
as for orientation, Andy loves his orgasms as much as another male does, as much as another female does, where all of us, love orgasm, do we not, male or female, be it with male or with a female, of we who are of the male or female body, no different from one another in our love of orgasm.
😉 😀
stop it Andy, your making us all… lol
love your bodies people, knowingness of just how sincerely Andy loves both the male and female body…equally…without doubt.
especially the west indian girl Andy almost married long ago, regrets of not have done so.
i’ll be in the hot tub if anyone is looking for ‘me’…;)
of all the things i love most in life thus far, is my coming fully into the knowingness of the ‘Equality Love’ we all sincerely feel in the GLBT worldwide community.
so take any doubt about whether Andy will ever stop loving any of YOU and cast it away, for i have loved ALL of YOU for decades now, and i will always BE LOVING of ALL of YOU till my last day, where my art will be left for the world to see, just how much Andy truly did love us ALL.
blessings to all this blessed day forever more.
bless you
ok. back to the open discussion of inflation and why we need to avoid it, for sake of us the working class and for sake of third world countries caught in the inflation rising which has been crippling them for the past few years.
here is what is best for everyone guys, of the correct thinking which is not of concern for the those who sit apon the thrones of nescience of their self serving dictatorship(only way to categorize them, as they are not telling us the truth about inflation which is of the tax payer concern which pays for these thrones they sit apon guys, ‘we the people of our countries, of we the tax payers’, who we can all say to hell with these money greedy self serving gamblers of their lies, deciept and denial of their self serving gambling addiction who TRULY do not give a fuck about us, as you will soon fully grasp the reality chech i shall present here.
read this;
http://www.wisegeek.com/what-causes-inflation.htm
the concern of the many outweigh the concern of the few.
fuck you guys and your lies and decieptfulness of wanting to print and borrow money to keep your over speculation of con artist false market values who cut and run, crying when we all see thru your scheming ways of conning us, and indeed, dictating to us of your self-serving approach with us, who don’t even consider the child starving in third world countries of your false con-artist approach.
had you of you opportunists not been among us the past ten years, the child starving in the world today could afford a loaf of bread, which they cannot, you fucking heartless jackasses.
rant over.
where’s my coffee?
“oh for fuck sakes, what do you mean it costs $10 for two cups of coffee?”
fuck that, let’s go somewhere else…
lol
😉 😀
if the feds bail out the banks which don’t give a damn for anyone in the first place, never did, then we will see an inflationary depression in the coming decade, and who knows what the banks and government will cook up in their think tanks of lacking concern for us in their on going dictatorship with us.
what we need is a global world bank of our money, of zero interest, and say to hell with all the banking jerkoffs, which Jesus always did depise. lol
i think we have that already, don’t we, the union banks?
picture it….zero interest bank loans of OUR hard earned monies!
just perfect! lol
then we can use the monies to invest in our on going business development of fair market values, without these henchmen lurking around dictating to us.
what do they think we are, fucking idiots?
liar liar, someone set them on fire! lol
opppsss….i just made some more enemies…damn.
so what is it exactly…it is the two world’s seperating apart from one another, those of real work class stiffs(slaves), of real concern feelings of equals for all of us the world over, and those who control it all(masters), who are lying to us, of no concern for us all as equals, all of their heartless insatiable desire for wealth.
well guys, they need us, and it is we who hold the power, not them.
what we need is leaders who give a sincere fuck about us.
either way, what ever way we go from this cross roads, the truth will catch up with everyone eventually, of an inflation depression, or a real depression of surplus supply and demand, which is better for all, because of how cheap everything is….FIRE SALE everyone…80% off!
finally we can afford to buy things at what they truly are worth, without the money middlemen and all the gurus of sales rep, who were always so condescending with us anyway, were they not?
lol
love it.
oh hey look…coffee and a bagel for two bucks…good looking bucks too! lol
sorry…im bored….i really need to get off your blog…sorry.
well ok…im not sorry.
what it really is fundamentally is stupid business decision making and the disconnect between thirsty banks who participated with them.
oh hey Billy, whatcha building?
Billy says, “700billion dollars with of realestate!”
why?
Billy, “Because it is so easy to make money at these over inflated prices and sell it to the morons who actually buy them!”
oh really?
well Billy, have fun with your 700 billion worth of vacant realestate that is really not worth what you want people to believe it is worth and won’t buy into…as most cannot afford them. People are not as stupid as you think Billy.
In proper business, you always keep a finger on the pulse of the market demand. Those who go around in over production of demand, well, that’s just dumb business decisions guys, of all who participate with them…your own worse enemies.
i will just wait until the value hits the true value of 80% of the value you want us all to believe it is, when it is not.
sorry…80% off that is, as i cannot afford it at today’s over speculated prices and the banks upping their interest rates, who are 90% of the money behind these over priced developments.
ya, it’s all a con-artist game people…of slave/master.
truthfully, i personally checked out of the so called American dream, happy with a paint brush in my hand, coffee and bagel in the morning, a dedicated artists with more free time than i ever had, and no stress guys…i am not about to return ever again to my previous approach of life, so you can all keep your bank loans, and your over priced houses and coffee. i will make my own thanks, with my own money from now on.
hey, now there is an idea…teach people how to build their own house without using bank money, showing them how much money they can make working on Saturdays and Sundays building their own home at a cost of only the materials to build it…no realistate fees, no bank fees, no labor fees…
…ah, they will all catch up with me eventually anyway, the government and their ways of taxing us, their buddy bankers who come with laws to stop me, with their court law makers injecting of laws, of the slave/master relationship they egotistically love with us all, who don’t really love us.
Truth
lol
Jesus would love my ideas, yes?
he always did despise the slave/master relationship of the precious loving souls so easily conned by the by those of the desire for slave/master relationship with his loving brothers and sisters so naive and gullable.
not me. not ever. cya.
OK, imagine you come to me and ask to borrow 20 quid off me, but you promise to pay me back. And I agree. And then next week you come back to me and say “Oh, sorry, I now realise I can’t afford to pay you back, bye”. Then how is that my fault? If you can’t pay back the money I lent you then how is that my fault?
Jesus said “Give to Caesar what is Caesar’s” – I know that bit. Pay back what you owe, basically.
I would never take out a loan I could not afford to pay back.
ha.
give to Caesar what belongs to Caesar…the finger. lol
i have ideas to truly change the world and eliminate the banks….but i cannot do it alone.
i am a simple country boy from the fields, who watched the crops grow from the previous rain.
i was no slave to the world then, and i have returned once again to the carefree mentality of my youth, leaving the world behind, leaving behind my art work of what matter to me, my only motivation now, art, music, writing.
Here you go:
“Interpretations include the belief that it is good and appropriate to submit to the State when asked, that spiritual demands supersede earthly demands but do not abolish them, or that the demands of the state are non-negotiable.”
http://tinyurl.com/gc2sd
i love it…fully reconnecting with and restoration of Andy, who has patiently been waiting for years for me to allow Andy to do what he only ever enjoyed doing…loving life.
The thing is that gets me about bloody hippies, they don’t mind dropping out of society and smoking dope 24/7 as long as they can still pick up their welfare cheques.
there was a time when neighboring farmers would get together and freely rebuild a neighbors barn if it was struck by lightening and burned down….’equality love’.
they not only relied on each other, they were all friends of Sunday get togethers, of loving family, and kids forever at play, true spirits of the earth and nature, of a prefered life style of no stress….i miss that life actually.
Mind you, as to whether it is a good idea for the government to bail-out the banks is another question. You could do an awful lot with 700 billion dollars.
I suppose, at the end of the day, if you’re lending money you should only lend what you can afford to lend. Financial prudence works both ways.
yah, it’s true…i know those type…not me.
i am not about welfare…i am one of the hardest working carpenters that ever lived…i started working on the farm at a tender young age, not ever afraid of work, rather of the enjoyment of physical labor.
what i am not interested in doing again is the retail management….way to much stress for any human being to sign themselves up for.
ya…prudence is the word.
that is not what was driving them. They stepped away from healthy business practices, and now they want everyone to help them stop the bleeding of their self inflicted injury.
nah…let the lessons be learned, and stop asking the slaves to give more blood than they have to give.
it’s gotta break sometime, and indeed, it is breaking.
i can’t believe the short-sightenness of the government not addressing inflation which has hit the world over the past few years, and what was causing it.
Well, I suppose the key thing about crisis management is that you need a crisis. And I don’t see no crisis, not yet. I sometimes think we forget what a real crisis is.
I’d let a few banks more banks go bust, then see if a crisis ensues.
“Another thing worrying Congress is that bailing out banks that have made bad decisions will encourage them to take even greater risks in the future – the so-called moral hazard problem.”
Ain’t that the truth. If someone fails to pay back his mortgage, ain’t no way the government is going to pay it for him.
as for the slaves to insatiable greed of wealth, well, those lessons are going to be learned too, either way in the coming decades.
At least make the banks suffer a bit first, isn’t it?
what needs to happen and is happening…finally…is people don’t trust the banks anymore…nor should they ever have in the first place, as the bank is not interested in their lives in the first place, from a spiritual perspective or mental emotional well being.
banks are self-serving, not different than a casino.
banks are heartless, the do not loose…they cut and run, and go party somewhere in the world with their theft….pirates.
I need go get some food. I have to go out go get food. Food go get go out go get out go go food.
oh hey…i’d make a good president, yes?
banker comes to the door knocking for new laws for his pirating, and can he borrow some more money for his scheming ways…
Andy says,” who they hell are you? who left the door open for you to get into my art studio?…get out! fucking idiots. lol
If you think about it, banks – unlike factories or shops or any other commercial outlet – do not supply you with any sort of physical, valuable good at any time. The sole purpose of a bank is to relieve their customers of their money. It’s never a trade as they have nothing to give you. Even if they lend you money, they end up receiving more money than they give. If they give money as a result of insurance claims, they still always receive more than they give. The sole purpose of a bank is to take money from people. That is their function in life.
ya me too! lasagna…i love lasagna!
yep!
gotta love their $10 monthly fees which costs them next to nothing for the automated computers they use, all of excees ancient micro-computer chips from decades past, bought out of Japan by the pound from the warehouses which still stock pile them.
i could run a world bank for probably less than 100,000 per month, all via internet, no checks, no paper currency, all microchip cards people can reload from the home PCs using the plugins needed we send to them free of charge.
Madonna has been scammed, anyway. Not only is she playing in some dodgy “Montenegro” village (I’m still not certain there’s even a country called “Montenegro”) but she’s playing on a beach! Really! On the pebble beach! They’ve already nicked all her towels. She better do a runner quick after the show or they’ll be nicking all the lights and equipment and all the costumes. It sounds like a bloody zoo.
It’s never a good idea to go to these hot countries where you have to buy bottled water and you get the runs.
I just hope Madonna doesn’t get the runs before her show. It would be awful doing a two hour show with the runs.
deposits can be done automated via the internet from the place of business.
no fees
low low interest on interest, as there is no overhead.
that’s what the banks need, a serious contender to compete with that they people can trust.
I’m off to get good British food I can trust. Right, bye.
becareful what you eat…
bottled water and only fruit you slice yourself, as they do rinse….
oh what i am saying, you are a jet setter who knows far more than i likely ever will.
pebble beach…sounds fun.
Oh, Candy Boy, how right you are. If you ever need sensible travellers advice, I’m your man. Don’t eat the fish either, and never sit on the toilet seat. You can catch all sorts.
Right, food.
ok. im bored now….
man eh?
hmmm….you are such a tease! lol
hey, you like my bisexual writings? mind opening, yes?
it comes from the equality love of the GLBT community we have felt for decades.
why do i feel like kissing you all the time? 😉
man eh?
well, if you were a lesbian, that would make alot of sense…but the fish part…i though lesbians love fish?
im bad…i know.
Right, food.
~ catcha later…
Rosie’s right…
the more i think about war torn Iraq, the more i think it would make more sense to offer everyone there one million dollars to board a plane and come to America, then we would have a clear line of sight the warring factions who chose to remain, and may as well claim Iraq as another state, seeing how much we have paid for it….and i am not talking about money here….the thousands who paid their lives for the land. fuck it. It’s ours.
as for the money, it would be far more cost effective to do this, and recoup the monies in future oil reserves.
they can preserve their culture like many do once they get here….
it’s just a desert guys, i mean come on…they can all go back for a visit as tourists after the dust settles.
the warring factions hide amongst the civilians, making impossible to bring settlement to the desert.
now that’s brilliance, yes?! 😉 😀
admit it…it’s ours now….we can share the wealth of any oil revenues with the generations who come…and regain full stability in the process…who is going to come up against in the world anyway…nobody with half a brain.
we could strike a deal with all the other countries, including China, to divide up the much needed energy supply in the future, keeping it as desert of oil for everyone of the world economies, which is what we all are now…so who is going to bicker with us…no one.
the just quarantine the entire area like they do area 51, no one goes in, no one goes out except by one exit, via aircraft out of Bagdad, all others stopped and question why are you in here….you have to leave.
just thinking out loud guys….don’t mind me…im bored.
Madonna will be jumping around on the beach round about now.
It’s not even sand. Pebbles apparently. Really hard on the feet doing that dance stuff.
In front of 50,000 boozed-up leering Montenegran farmers. Not good.
Nobody here?
Have the Moldovans captured her? I fear the worst.
We’ll have to pay a ransom to get her back!
Ten goats.
Right, I’m off to bed. Night night.
X
(We would insist on getting the towels back as well or the deal’s off)
opppss…missed ya again…i was bored so i went i did some more work.
towels…yes…i need towels…thank you for that! lol
your funny…mold ol’ vans.
who writes for you? lol
no bail out….
Sen. Richard Shelby, ranking Republican on the Senate Banking Comittee, emerged from the White House to declare of the bailout plan: “It will not solve problems, it will create more problems.”
glad to see they have a few smart ones at the helm. 😉
ohhh….she is gonna love this one! 😉 😀
wake up guy’s
Financial Meldown !
staged world event !
to keep Bush in power !
emergency rule !
lucky aliens Rule !
your all so dumb
human’s seriously
wake up !
I thought this was bang on the money:
http://tinyurl.com/52lccl
ya.
we just ordinary people living ordinary lives, where some of us got caught up in the zeal of investors over ambitious speculation of false market values which they created, plain and simple, a crap shoot.
It is not a crisis, as much as these very zealous ones which created the false market values, now bleeding, would like us to believe it is.
Rather, it is an adjustment, loss, call it whatever you want…it is an adjustment of time over valuation of current market values….which always settle however long it takes, where time is the only thing that is needed, where time has to pass until things settle, and will, inspite of all the crying going on, which is of those who are bleeding financially from their own gambling addiction of their own self inflicted injury which comes with gambling addiction, dragging alot of others along with them.
Personally, i find it all rather amusing and funny how they have managed to get the president of a country all wound up in their little pity party, of ‘oh poor me, i lost everything in my (denial of) gambling addiction, can somebody please help me?”
And of course, the banks being the casino, have their pit bosses do what they do, clamp down, and send everyone home, closing it’s doors, knowingness of the many they all have lured into signing of the once low mortgage rates, legally holding them where they always had them, intentionally, where the banks don’t loose, they simply take your house, bail out the back door with all their net proceeds they netted at the card table, and taking your house as you leave the building.
The banks always held the power, legally speaking, and now they have treasury power coming on line, as the pit bosses sit back and squeeze everyone’s balls with their ability to instill fear into everyone, including the leader of the country, saying to everyone, “oh, we are going to close our doors, and we are going to take away your gambling chips(credit) if you don’t co-operate.
well, if the courts don’t see thru these pit-boss mentalities who are running the show, and call it what it is, then we will likely set up the card table for them to come again and roll us one more time like they always have thruout history people, always in control, gladly taking the family home from you if you fail to have the ability to make payments on the second mortgage they gleefully had you sign, all nice and legal of course.
People are treated like potted planets in this regard, but in the end, these potted planets will be less likely to play their silly card game again, in their hesitation to do so, having lost the family homes, in having come to the reality check of having been treated like potted plant, owned and controlled by another, which is what is taking place, “You get no more credit(water) and you have to mover yourself out of our container(pot) on your own.
Well, in the end, these potted plants become much healthier on their own, indeed, make their way in life, much wiser to their own weaknesses of the sweet talking pit-bosses PR specialists, irregardless of where things go now.
The banks run the show people, and now they want to run the country by tapping into the treasury, which does not exist, and they may want to be looking at an even greater problem that may come in the future, if we allow these muscle bound pit-bosses to have their way with a treasury which is already way over it’s threshold of healthy survival, albeit, there is some 3 trillion in annual taxes collect.
anyway…just my two cents worth.
it was all gambling addiction folks, of some crafty casino mentality bankers and their minyuns, who have all decided to retreat to another country and relax for awhile in their posh places, without concern for all the job loss, all the vacant houses which the built, and took away from you, all nice and legal too, where they will now sit back and let their legal team sort it all all out, laughing the asses off at how easily they manipulated everyone, where they will not lose financially, but they will lose our trust after all is said and done, and restrictions come and treat these bankers the way they should be treated, as casinos, and not allowed to legally manipulate the market and economy like they do and always have, leaving the table like they do, after knowingly created the whole mess in the first place.
get over it everyone…it’s just the lure of money that snared your minds, and the cute guys behind the desk.
lol
the thing for me, i was a member of a family as a youth, and the banks took our family home, which stripped away my sense of security when it all happened.
there are real life emotional considerations here that these banker dudes don’t give a fuck about…stability, and that is cause for stressful self-medication behaviour of drugs and alcohol where all are concerned, and that is my primary concern.
but in the end, some of us survived, and become healthy and wise.
i am one who survived the pit-boss mentality some 30 years ago, gladly punching him in the face today.
lol
come on everyone…let’s head to the beach, play some volleyball, get stupid and have fun, which is free for us all.
give the banks what they want….their empty vacant house back, and wait for the fire sale, where it is we who control them, and not they way they want us to think.
we’ll just see who’s in charge around here, and always were.
besides, everything is too over priced now as it is, inflation which came from their heartlessness, worldwide damage.
don’t trust them again guys.
use the union banks who treat us better…take a stand.
ah…nobody is listening…i am wasting my time.
i picture a different world than today, without banks, without heartless greed which is causing one billion children to be in poverty today, all because of the lure of wealth being of greater value in the heart and mind of many.
if some of you suffer, let me say this, your are not suffering…rather the ones who are truly suffering, are not even of your awareness of suffering from the ill effects of the lure of wealth which currently snares all your hearts and minds.
my concern is this mentality won’t ever change, so long as we go about in all our better than everyone else false mentality…duh! we are all equal you morons, same schools of thought, same music, and oh look, we all eat food too.
well now, isn’t than amazing, after all this time, we are all the same!
lol
it’s not entirely a heartless world…i am optimistic, being one who knows all the snares of heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, having grown wise in such.
anyway…enjoy the blessed day everyone, of the sunshine above you which is free for you to enjoy, and the birds singing, music playing, people saying…..
the way i see it, they are wanting to try and fix something that is not fixable, using alot of fluff to elude us all from the real problem.
You built how many new construction developments?
And who was responsible for this decision? i see, no one wants to own up to their greediness. oh, i see, you all are cause for the developments of specualtion projects which you knew there was no one to buy them(mostly), and now you have an over saturation of your developments which exceeds demand, because there are no living blood cells to take occupation of this newly formed part of the economic body.
hmmm…well now…that is a problem which you all gambled on. How smart is that?
we used to do 40 million dollar test projects called pilot phase of new condos, and then depending on the sale of those, we would go ahead with the 400 million dollar second and third phase.
So let me see if i am right. You guys managed to convince people to purchase second homes as a business opportunity for them(and for you) and you have been doing this for how long now? 10 years of more(correct me if i am wrong)?
so who is to blame?
and who should suffer the consequences of these stupid enterprising ideas?
all of you.
so now we have a market saturation which exceeds the population growth of a nation.
and you all knew this was approaching, in your words of market saturation, holding your breath as to how much longer you could all keep your jobs.
well now, isn’t this a fine mess.
so now all the construction stops, job loses in the field, job loses in the supply chain, job loses in the service industry, oh wait, there is lots of new jobs poping up in the mental health field over here, dealing with the psychological issues of this new fallout we are entering into, dealing with all you sorry ass motherfuckers!
sorry…i have to make light of these morons father. lol
the only thing that will fix this is that new constraints and priviledges taken away, where economic consideration for all(preferably of global consideration for all) is of those at the helm of these banks and institutions.
here is an idea…why not take your brilliance and use it where it is truly needed, in third world countries, giving employment to the many, new homes, new families, seeing as what you really need is life blood for your economies.
oh i see, that would take too much time, and you just want a quick dollar now, get out, and go retire somewhere. i see. meanwhile the entire global economy hangs in the balance of your absurd enterprising ideas.
they don’t need money guys, as what the real problem is, there is no life blood for these vacant lots, all of their imagination at this point of the population of the nation. oh sure, you may sooth the hurt, but keep in mind, you are fueling the stupid enterprising get rich quick mentalities of those who are all crying over their loses.
the only thing that can heal this is time, where population needs are of realistic demand. plain and simple.
so you all may have to wait another ten years or more(not sure just how far they went past the realistic demand).
i have thought about this alot. what does an economy do when everyone has two of everything? what do they build or create that someone needs?
that is where we are at.
well, if we don’t look at the opportunity of the human heart consideration for third world countries, then we all will soon be like the third world country, where the life blood becomes constricted by those who inject poisonous ideas into our feeble brains, just as they have done, wondering why everyone feels sick now.
oh, it’s about to get a whole lot worse guys, when the supply chain feels this globally.
we need think tank approach of a global economy, where we all participate as a global economy which address the needs in all areas of the world where the demand exists, the life blood of the economy, and we all have to participate as the equals we are in addressing what the economic considerations are.
if we don’t take a humanitarian approach and let go of our million dollar salary expectations, and really embrace each and all as equals in the world, which all of us are the life blood of our now dwindling economy…well…don’t say i didn’t warn you ALL.
the demand is out there, where we merely need to take a hard look at it, how long to transistion thru(next 100 years realistically) before we all arrive at a healthier place and time.
if people are suffering from the illness of heart over greed of wealth, i have no sympathy whatsoever, as they are not suffering, and rather they are feeling the toxic detox which comes with death of the ego, as their divine true self comes forth in the world as a free loving spirit uniting with Power of the Love of the ALL.
One billion children in poverty folks, and the harsh reality of your inflation which was created by all this absurd business decisions, where reality is now coming towards us, which is a good thing, where you are all cause for increased starvation in the world as we speak, such as the 100% inflation rate in Argentina last year, constricting the possible purchase of food to one of my sponsored children and his friends.
don’t get me wrong…i care…but not in the ways of your limited feeble minded comprehension.
you do know true suffering, like that of a starving child, and i have no sympathy for any of you in your emptiness of words and inquality of others from a global perspective.
It is merely a shift in times, that’s all, back to stable life of food on the table, a roof over our heads, just don’t hurt one another while we transistion. Try being nice to each other globally, as that is the only way we should ever feel for one another, sincerely loving of each other, and indeed, we are.
(andy quietly squeaks out the words as he runs for cover from the egg tossing at him) i am…because we are.
well ok…i know i am.
fuck you guys if you don’t know or like me.
honestly, i see you all as a bunch of egotistic fucktards. lol
well ok, maybe not.
remember…we are all God’s loving children at play on the same beautiful beach of life. So try treating each other respectfully, and everything will be just fine.
the governments need to spend the money wisely at this point in time, and let these vacant lots site, in the hands of all those involved.
spend the money in positive realistic growth markets, which is what the stock market is.
people with money should put (THEIR) money into the continuation of the stock markets which exists, and keep all your jobs, and loving family lives.
if you do not see that this is merely of a handful of the population crying wolf over their stupid enterprising ideas, and cause more panic in the existing stock markets…well…don’t say i did not warn you.
banks who want to tighten and pull out…say goodbye to them, and let the couragous institutions stand by us and see us all thru.
do not invest any more into their burning ship of the own creation. it must sink and take their own sickness with them. They can all get jobs at Starbucks, as i hear they are yet expanding.
the service industry is the most growing industry, what with the baby boomer generation now entering into retirement.
let’s pamper them and pamper ourselves in the process with new job creation.
love one another…simple rule, and have fun along the way with your loving lovers and loving families.
ok guys…don’t believe in luck…believe in truth.
Jesus loves ALL. God loves ALL. We love ALL.
God blesses ALL.
enjoy the blessed days everyone, we only get so many.
12, 971 blessed days to go.
oh, and if anyone has any towels, i hear M needs some towels you may be able to sell her!
lol
love it!
ah, the sun is shining above, just as it always has, just as it always will people…enjoy it, and remember to give each other a hug once in awhile, and i will do the same.
oh, one more thing…Danmark is an excellent example of a country who has been of a bulk of elder population as far as economic consideration and job creation for the lessor population of youth, an excellent example to follow, as they have been that way since 1980s, with their 160% import sales taxes(is it still like that? not sure.)
i like the words of Chris Rock;
Rock, an avid supporter of Democratic presidential nominee Barack Obama, spoke with CNN’s Larry King on Thursday. He said Obama is more grounded with your average American — not somebody like McCain with “12 houses.”
“The other guy [McCain] can lose five houses,” Rock said.
“I’ll go with the guy with one house. The guy with one house is scared about losing his house.”
and that is really what the MAIN problem IS…people in their over zealousness of home speculation in creating projects which surpassed the demand along time ago, in their second and third home retirement mentalities, unaware of what the banks and economists knew all along, and for some time i might add.
if the shift sees it more economical for renters to pay into a low mortgage rate and pocket some money latter in life(moving money from one pocket to another) of the one home owner, great, but cooperation of the banks to do so needs to continue in low mortgage rates, like they are doing here in Canada, and it is working, although there is a reality check of vacancy rate of renters and owners which may be of surplus demand at current populations.
banks need and all envolved need to channel their focus onto positive growth market sectors like the service industry, and allow the current low mortgage rates to stay as they are, of all hell will break out.
stop with the scare tactics and get REAL, will ya.
i don’t care if you lost a billion or so dollars, and neither does anyone else.
you made alot of money along the way, did you not?
so why hurt everybody in being stupid with jacking it to the life blood and loving lives of you who need us?
we are all in this together as equals, and it is about time we act intelligently and compassionately with one another and stay the course of ONE loving global family, because that is what we are.
i am…because we are.
excuse me guys…i have to appear in court today over demostic disputes which i am yet exiting from.
God blesses ALL.
Bank failures are scary – especially during these times of economic distress.
Washington Mutual, once the nation’s largest thrift and rocked by “bad lending on real estate”, had been reportedly teetering on failure. On Thursday regulators seized the bank and arranged a takeover by JPMorgan Chase.
And experts and banking regulators say that the number of failures is likely to pick up pace in coming weeks and months.
there. that’s what has to happen, is happening, and without doubt, will be the course travelled…so say goodbye to all the bad lending on realestate, which has more below it’s surface than just bad lending on realestate, where it is the banks all along who were pushing developments past saturation levels for along time, albeit, the renter over to owner market is still on going.
Well, that’s nice for you.
I am totally knacked after two really busy days, out and about enjoying the weather and generally having a good time. And it’s same again tomorrow so I’m outta here, totally done in. Sleep well,
X
Hello!
Is been ages! jmjm. I hope everything gets allright soon. Put those worries at the back and smile!
Please can you come to Peru? I see you are going to Chile and Argentina is not fair. i am working as an English teacher in a beautiful school in Huaraz (3, 200 mts above sea level). i will teach my students ” At your majesty pleasure for sure!!! Please come!!!! (to Lima I mean not here at 3,200 mts.)
here comes the big juice squeeze of the economies life blood(our money) everyone, by the banks, all planned, all ideal for them now to pretend there is a problem, when in truth, this is where they cash in on the massive asset grab and high interest rates.
watch and see the truth of how these sharks devour their slaves one at a time.
regulators need to act fast and swift to prevent an all out collapse of this juice extraction squeeze play these institutions are now engaging in.
people are just so feeble minded about how these sharks play ball, not ever to lose, no way, they don’t lose, they play to win.
in truth though, they are not winners at all, no matter who they hurt, the families they place in stressful times of job lose, financial stress, bankruptcy, divorce…no, we are not the losers they want to make us out to be, they are sharks with their only appetite of money.
welcome to the reality of the cold heartless businessworld with no soul.
sorry! “At her majesty’s pleasure”!
please come to lima…ok, sure.
problem though…courts want to take away my travel priviledges to leave the country on the trumped up charges, and i cannot afford a lawyer.
talk about feeling my dreams vanish in front of me, as duty councel spoke with me in front of the judge today, about losing my right to travel, asking if i want to proceed to trial instead of a plee of guilty.
trial it is then. i have month to find a lawyer, a list of university lawyers i can call for free support.
i will get my life back eventually, although it looks like April-May of next year now for trial.
anyway…my shit..not yours.
NEW YORK (Fortune) — When John Dykstra got his September credit card bill from Advanta, a small-business card issuer, he was shocked: Dykstra says he has a good credit score and has never missed a payment, but his interest rate had jumped from 7.99% to 26%.
just an example of the lepards not able to hid their spots.
it’s hilarious what is going on out there in the streets. people who have lost their jobs and all, but still of good spirit inspite of the obviousness of the shrewedness of the business world now showing it’s teeth.
check this out;
http://money.cnn.com/galleries/2008/fortune/0809/gallery.10days_shook.fortune/2.html
http://money.cnn.com/galleries/2008/fortune/0809/gallery.10days_shook.fortune/5.html
i care about people’s jobs and their loving families, which is now obvious, the banks and institutions don’t as they grab assets, and increase their rates.
in the end, people will trash their credit cards, and just say fuck you guys, as the gap between the rich and poor increases and we all take cafe jobs. lol
best of all, none of us will sign up for those stupid credit cards again…never should of in the first place.
but then again, Jesus never did succeed in kicking the bankers and their tables out of the temple….why?…because of the lure which snared their hearts and minds.
anyway…all will be fine as regulators do their job…a massive shift in investment for sure for everyone, global banks now reacting as well, the entire world economy about to feel the shakedown in the coming year, as more banks become nationalized.
it’s all silly to me, like a giant monopoly game, albeit, REAL lives, and REAL families are the ones who feel the impact of who wins and who loses the cash/asset grab…but in the end, it was all just a game, and we will all we come closer together in our opinions of the shrewedness of the businessman/bankers.
one thing no one can take from any of us is our loving feelings for one another, no matter rich or poor, as the gap increases….a silly unrealistic gap that is, as we are all the same.
besides…i’d rather see all of you guys and gals in shorts all summer long, rather than your stuffy business suits…and let’s face it, those air conditioned office jobs are hideous and damaging to the free spirited fun loving soul of us all.
lol
😉 😀
inside, i am smiling, having exited the world some time ago.
i feel so refreshed inside, of a forever at play fun loving spirit, go do what, whereever, whenever i feel like doing…partime job, low low rent…like $100bucks a month…can you believe that?
24 hours a week, nothing but free time on my hands, no stress…oh man…i love my new life…truly! 😉
FIRE(sale)!!!!….everybody get out of the building.
lol
😀 😀
oh wow! i am soon gonna be surround by ordinary people like me, with ‘real’ down to earth feelings.
hmmmm… 😉
The Alien’s have disabled all weapon’s of mass destruction,
they are having a little difficulty with bush’s ego, but that should be resolved by monday
wow! M looks awesome on stage…and i thought i had a great body!
just perfect! 😉 😀
Hey! My first comment here to you. Just wanted to say you look very good for your age, and may you cotinue to inspire people, and live a long a very healthy life. Are you trying to make it to 100 or something? 😉 The secret to a long and healthy life is simple; Eat a healthy *low calorie* diet and exercise. You’re a great role model for what a person at 50 can be like. You look great!
Take care
Matt
Oh yes, of course, you’re welcome to take a look at my blog which has lots of information about how to stay young. I’m part of a real anti aging study that involves lots of testing to see if we are really staying young by doing a Calorie Restriction diet. Since it’s the only real known way to extend lifespan of all animals ever since it was tested in the 1930’s. Blog link is on my username/post.
It seems to work for me since I look about 7 years younger than my real age, and I started CR 5.8 years ago.
Matt
I look good for my age and I eat sweets continually every night until I feel ill. So that puts paid to your theory, Matthew.
Well, Calorie Restriction in animal models (hundreds tested) have extended maximum lifespan by upto 50%. This means, in human terms, having the average lifespan of about 110-130 and changing the human max lifespan from 120 to 150-180 human years depending on the level of restriction. How long one lives is ‘directly’ related to the intake of calories. You best do some research on Calorie Restriction, youtube it or something there are plenty of videos I uploaded. Plus lots of studies on my blog.
The fact you look good for your age doesn’t mean much on its own. Studies have shown in humans the that CR results in practically zero risk for diabets, stroke, heart disease, little risk of cancer, autoimmune disease. Less risk of brain related diseases. Better immunity, slow skin aging, slower muscle decline. Just generally better health. I have all my biomarkers to show that what I do is benefiting me a lot. Very low insulin, low glucose, very low cholesterol, low blood pressure, no inflammation, and also up regulation of longevity genes such as SIRT1. It’s okay if you don’t understand the research, but it’s out there if you take a look 😉
I’m sure all them sweets are doing some harm to you even if you can’t see it on the outside! hehe 😀
I’m so sorry to the moderator of this blog, I shouldn’t even be getting into a debate on someone elses blog! So we’ll leave it at that!
So my last words… Madonna you look amazing! I hope you keep going for many years more 🙂
Madonna looks great!
The Daily Mail can insert their trashy story up their rear orifice.
I actually think you have a point about calorie restriction, Matthew. I think we, in the western world, are eating ourselves to death.
However, I know I don’t feel good at all when I haven’t eaten, or missed a meal. And I don’t see how that can be a good thing. I like to listen to my body, you know? I’m I’m feeling rough and lacking in energy because I haven’t eaten enough, I don’t see how that’s ever going to be a good thing.
I think all things in moderation. Don’t eat too much, or too little, and don’t exercise too much or too little. Just do what your body feels is right.
I definitely think Madonna doesn’t eat enough. And she appears to exercise too much. I really don’t like this “taking things to extremes” thing.
Here you are: “weighing too little can increase your risk of osteoporosis and fertility problems, weaken your immune system, and cause other health problems.”
http://tinyurl.com/4jtvly
Now, I’m not saying that article’s right and the other article is wrong. But what I am saying is that you shouldn’t base your life around any extreme article posted on the internet. There’s always another article somewhere with precisely the opposite message.
Everything in moderation (and, seriously, you don’t want osteoporosis)
On a happier note, I’ve had a super day out, and Madonna is playing at the Olympic Stadium in Athens tonight! How amazing is that!
At least, I think it’s tonight. I’m pretty sure it is.
lol
oh, very funny.
ya, it’s good to practice good eating habits while you are young Matt, as that is key for later in life, where alot of people’s metabolism naturally slows down as they age, and with that the usual diet they habitually eat, can become a problem for them later in life, as habits are difficult to change or break free from, as creatures of habit.
110lbs?
and i thought i was slim…i am 5’11” at 140lbs…apparently i am ideally supposed to weigh 180+ -, but i have lower back disc problems from damage as a youth, where too much weight, crushes the nerves between the already too small a gap for the nerves to pass between the discs(1/4 of normal spacing).
i was showing off in front of Mike weight lifting when the free weights went backwards and i hit my back on something.
Mike…he so owes me big time!
lol
😉 😀
M is about to go on stage…
here is a cute quote i found on the net;
Don’t take life too seriously, as nobody gets out alive anyway. lol
Andy i was thinking about what Jesus was thinking on the cross when he said GOD WHY HAVE YOU FORSAKEN ME, it hurt a little not too much, then i thought about JUDAS & how much pain he must have felt for the BETRAYAL even though JESUS asked to BE BETRAYED .. it must have TORN JUDAS ALIVE.. if i was JESUS i would want to heal that PAIN..
Madonna can wait she’s judt the mum, she ain’t a GRANDMA yet, well maybe soon, HEY MADGE how’s your Daughter GOING ? she’s a treasure hey !!!
Norma Jean
nah…the bible is not what people think.
those who know 100% are able to feel the truth of all things.
who knows if Jesus said those words…i doubt it.
Jesus knew 100% God was with him, long before he surrendered to the cross.
what is compelling most about Jesus(which i am still probing) is why he surrendered to the claws of the beast of ignorance for them to kill him.
Why this is so compelling is because of the purity of sincerity level he reached, where i have sensed the feelings of how he was feeling in making his decision, and it is mind blowing to say the least.
It is now what most would think as to how he was feeling in making the decision.
Let me eloborate.
It has to do with someone in the future, that i am certain, where Jesus knew God was with him, and he felt compelled to reveal to someone of the future the full extent of his compassion and level of sincere love for someone of the future which Jesus knew would come to his level of awareness, where it is his own awareness level which, having reached, of his knowing if he could do it, someone else would too. He had no doubt within him in doing what he did, which was more to do with someone in the future, which in doing what he did, knew would give them a message.
what is the message Jesus wanted to convey?
It seems to me he wanted to convey the extent of his level of love for us in the future, where he wanted us to see the most important aspect about love, and that being, “WITHOUT DOUBT”.
As far as i can tell, that is the most compelling reason(which was not a reason, as it was more about how much love Jesus was feeling for others…100%), albeit, he did decide to do what he did, not so much hoping someone would understand, rather, he knew someone would understand, of those who come to the level of sincere love he arrived at. In other words, doing what he did, was of his level for one of the future he knew(without doubt) would arrive at his level of love, and understand it is not 99%, it is 100%, where the act of doing what he did, is what is able to assist one in the future of pushing past the last 1% element of doubt into 100%.
It is in the 100% level which everything opens wide the soul, and love is the only thing which matters, of grace, of wisdom, of beautiful sensitivity levels, like the tenderness of loving lovers.
The 1% element of doubt, is obvious with his followers, is it not? I don’t think his followers grasped that it was about nurturing and protecting their own divine true self from the world which taints, temps, cajoles, entices, belittles, etc….the loving spirit Jesus saw in us all, just as we approach our own mental emotional well BEing, where the words of Jesus are of the healthy approach to mental emotional well BEing.
so yeah, Jesus was a therapist, a good one too! 😉
God did not forsake Jesus.
God was with him at all times as an equal in wisdom.
The church did not know Jesus and God.
It is likely those words written are of those who did not know Jesus and God.
Shutta uppa ya face ANDy
Jesus knew God, and God knew Jesus, just as God knows what is in everyone’s heart, where God wants us to search the bottom of our hearts, and pluck out what is not loving, wise or compassionate, of the many things of the world which taint the loving spirit of the divine true self in us ALL.
freeing of the heart and mind, free from useless stress and toxic feelings which arise from one who does not understand why others behave the way the do, albeit, while we can intellectualize a persons behaviour, and justify it, we are not exempt from our feelings of another’s behaviour, should we become to entangled with them emotionally.
i’m not saying avoid others, just be careful who you select as close friends and lovers in your inner cirlce.
and remember, your bourndaries are flexible and adjustable at any time and to what degree of your choosing.
i will share something special with ya…
Ya, i feel like Judas where Troy is concerned, having betrayed Troy like i did. i should of been there for him.
i was jealous over his girlfriend, unable to trust him anymore, gave up eventually, tired of the pain, but i loved Troy, and wanted to spend my life with him, and deep inside i knew he did too…significant homophobia(internal/external) in our lives at the time, including his girlfriend who made me out to be some kind of perverted deviant evil alien in words with Troy.
She caught us several times actually in bed together. lol
i think that is where i learned to sware so much….as in, “ah f*_&k!!!!!!!!”
lol
😉 😀
so in that sense, Troy was Jesus to me.
And in God’s eyes…i did betray Troy, and betrayed myself in doing at the same time, and lost him in life, although spiritually he is still with me.
i know…i am one f*_&ked up dude.
told ya i was…along time ago.
but i like who i am…i feel everything all the time, and that’s what i love about life…my loving feelings, sensitivity, all of it…the divine true SELF.
Andy work with what you got !
not with what you aint got YET
now where did the Alien GO ?
ok it’s me
i’m the ALien
and your my friend
now can i out my hand on your breast
of life
ya.
i’ve realized the most significant thing in my life is me.
inspite of how anyone treats us…ever…the most significant part of life is our SELF.
in truth, anyone who treats us less than the way we want to be treated, are not true to themselves in their not being true with us.
i have learned, rather than be upset or hurt, or whatever, i am compassionate in my understanding the evolving of self of another, by means of the evolving of my own self, so i don’t really get all wrapped up about how others my treat me, as well as knowing there are other extenuating circumstances, not necessarily to do with either.
so you want touch my breast you say? lol
Troy and i were the faggiest emos that ever walked the earth! Truly! we were! lol
there was an emotional level of trust i had with Troy, which i have been afraid of feeling for another, since losing him, although it is coming out and i am feeling how i once felt with him…which is overwhelming for me, as we were intense the whole time we were together…
without doubt….Troy was/is my closest friend in life emotionally, where we knew we loved another completely…it is a scary feeling to feel that way for someone all the time, knowing you both love each other without doubt.
freindships do feel abit like what we had…but Troy and i could stand being away from each other for extended periods of time…and indeed, girlfriend or not, we always got together and took off with each other…pissing everyone off when we did, as we would sometimes leave for days, weeks.
them bloody tramps is at it again! lol
we only get one pass at living a loving life…be sure to live a loving life…
reality check of where two world’s clash together…neither of which…in truth…realize they are better off without their master/slave co-dependent relationship where financial institutions-banks(investors) is concerned, a relationship of trickery now obvious to see, of the massive asset/cash(high credit rates) grap becomes apparent of the trickery protected by legally signed documents, albeit, the supreme court does protect the consumer(eventually, usually after/during the asset grab of bankruptcy takes place, of institutions who do not play to lose…albeit it, they are losers in God’s eyes, of the heartless consideration and obviousness of their insatiable appetite of greed as the masters devour their slaves once again, a cycle which repeats itself over time, where the hard working slaves lose all of their years of hard working investment, gone forever, stripped of it all, to start over again, all to often to find themselves once again at the same bankers card table of trickery.
I don’t want to say this, but i do feel the massive asset grab and high interest rates now hitting the consumers globally was all a systematic ploy, now with of the average American having the highest debt ratio to income, than any other time in history, prime time ripe fruit for them to now cash in big time.
This institutions know full well the income levels of every single one of their slaves, knowing full well they cannot put out enough to survive, knowing full well they will get all of the slaves assets in the end, stripping not only of their future investment gains, but also of their net worth of assets they once held for years.
i doubt the regulators stepping in to nationalize the institutions are interested in the consumer, albeit, stabilize the economy, but you watch, the interest rates will continue to climb however slowly, as more and more consumers file for bankruptcy, flooding the Supreme courts, where i hope the Supreme courts wake up one day and realize the slave/master relationship of trickery, which will become so obvious by the millions of cases that cross their desks, as the investor(master)/slave gap widens.
In the end, the slaves never needed the relationship, which is a cold calculated business opportunity for the opportunist investors, who do not lose, in their get rich scheming mentalities.
God does not despises this unBEcoming conduct in the temple(God’s chamber of BEcoming conduct), which leads to and fro the hearts and minds of many who become snared by these useless unwisenesses of heart and mind, for both sides of the co-dependent relationship, where in the end, the slave is made to feel like a loser(yet unwise of God’s love for them), as the boastful ignorance of the masters, pride and boastful of their empty vessels of gold they hold up high, empty of love(not entirely) in their boastful ways….
we need regulators at this point to stave off wide spread collaspes of the economies, and avoid what happened in the great depression, such as the starvation which hit hard so many back then, all because of the co-dependent get rich mentalities of the controlling few, which i might point out, did not suffer at all financially during the depression, albeit, in God’s eyes, they were not wise of God’s loving compassionate wisdom which is meant for the divine true self of us all, which does not require any money at all to know and feel, albeit, we do need to survive physically.
and let’s not forget the most important issue of inflation worldwide which is hitting the third world countries who could not afford a loaf of bread before the inflation hit, and certainly cannot today.
where are the leaders in the world who are of forward loving compassion of the Power of the Love of the ALL, able to be of long term consideration of the ALL, as in ALL souls of the earth.
As Bill Clinton says, we ALL need to work together…globally, rich and poor, in our consideration of building out economies at realistic growth rates, and get off this get rich mentality of boastful pride of wealth which is of the stench of useless apathy for another, including the one snared by such useless endeavor and illness of heart.
The only question any of us need to ask is, “How many of God’s Children will die today from unnecessary starvation and treatable desease, in our embracing one and ALL as equals, ALL united as ONE of God’s divine WILL that embraces the divine compassionate wisdom and love meant for the divine Child within us ALL.
God blesses ALL.
we merely need to come away from the unwisenesses of the ignorant teachings of the forefathers which (yet) grip and snare the loving precious hearts and minds of the many loving souls in the kingdom of heaven all around us, for when we do, we come fully into what is of most value in life, of our willingness to increase our value of such….our Feelings, which feels the TRUTH of all things we look(reflect) apon, sight returned to our souls, leading by example for ALL to see and FEEL the truth, we are of God’s divine willingness as loving children of God.
blessings to ALL.
Jesus loves ALL. God loves ALL. We love ALL.
God blesses ALL.
(just a short surmon today) 😉
here is a reality check look at the face of the slave/master relationships of millions now gripped by the harshness of the relationship which is devoid of love…self-serving systematic trickery in taking advantage of the meek minded;
cnn.com/2008/US/09/27/bailout.real.people/index.html
in truth…the slave/master relationship is not of God for both parties involved.
bankers and institutions alike need to ask, “what will you do when the cash flow stops?”
timely careful consideration of this is of your decision, where low interest rates is the only direction, albeit, i already know you will do the cash/asset grab, damaging the global economies, of absolutely no consideration whatsoever of the meek you intentionall drag thru the mud.
oh yeah, i am much wiser to those of trickery than you may realize.
and proof is on it’s way, where even the regulators are likely all involved in their systematic removal of assets from the hard working class meek.
i am going to track the bankruptcy data which comes in, and one day publish a book on the truth of you who take advantage of the meek for all to read.
oh i know, you will not eat all of the slaves, no, you won’t do that, just squeeze what you can out of them to keep your cash flow life styles going.
anyway…rant over.
truthfully, i doubt the meek of the earth will every realize the truth of the slave/master relationships, albeit, the meek who starve to death daily, FULLY realize the world is not a loving world….FULLY of the feeling of BEing UNloved…not of God’s divine will, but of the useless ignorant teachings of the forefathers which rule the many souls of the earth, all blinded by the insatiable greed of wealth…ok…not all of us….but most.
God blesses ALL, rich or poor(sadly unknowingly for most).
now someone will come along and say, “oh Andy, you are such a socialist,”
save your words with me, and say them to the starving child taking their last breath today for me, will ya?
Truly i say, we are all unwise and meek minded in God’s eyes, seemingly unable and unwilling to humble ourselves before God, where God wants to reward us with the greatest treasure we shall ever find…pure sincere loving feelings of the divine true SELF of us ALL united as ONE as EQUALS.
“such morons father…”
thank you.
I should open a bank called God’s Bank of Trust, where all the monies which you deposit safely, is used properly, only for purchase of materials to build houses which are built by Christian volunteers two days a week, providing the lowest priced homes in the world to any an all who want one, where the monies are safely returned to God’s Bank of Trust, when the home is purchased(at one third the price of any home built today), and put all of you bankers out of business forever!
lol
oh, i am so tempted…
i would have a waiting list well into the next century for the houses God built. ha.
but then i realize you motherfuckers would come along and snap them all up to resell them and make your get rich no labour involved mentalities.
whatever…
we either serve God, and serve our SELF when we do, or we don’t….
here comes the reality of a world without God people…fasten your seat belts for the crash landing….
im bored…
time to go do some more truth revealing art work….
hmmm….how about a useless money lender table in the temple…that sounds fun!
😉 😀
some overweight dudes with pudgy fingers from over eating, beggers near for scrapes of food, hangman lawyer’s evicting tenants…you know…the truth of trickery…
ALL the laziness of the zealots of profits = inflation and lack of ABUNDANCE of love for ALL(starvation in the world).
i always thought about that, that abundance of God’s wealth only comes with those who work diligently havesting crops or building something.
sadly, the world is of the user(draining off of) slave/master relationships which weigh down ABUNDANCE of wealth in the kingdom of heaven for ALL of God’s children worldwide, of those who make these absurd multi-million dollar salaries…ludacris!
sadly, these taught and learned ignorant behaviours won’t change anytime soon, and if anything, we will see more like 50 – 100,000 child starve to death instead on a daily basis in the coming decades.
if the regulators increase rates, it will bleed off growth in the economies, job loss, less cash flow, more job loss, less credit, less competitive business markets, higher inflation.
alternatively, lower rates, more jobs feeding into the glutonous greed of wealth mentalities in their over abundant building of more vacant parts of the economic body, all heading toward the eventual reality check, “oh wait, what are we doing? There is nobody here to buy these things any more?”
lol
finding us all back here again.
What if God came along and said, “You morons, there are lots of poor people out there in the world who would love a job opportunity to build and buy these over priced homes no one can afford, but you have to spend the trillion dollars where the market is.”
hmmm…ya, i guess there is no saving the zealots.
lol
i feel like i am in a really bad movie.
and no, i am not talking about the Zealots of ancient Rome, in their, “i know everything there is to know mentalities.”
although i suppose ‘that’ does apply here in what a Zealot really is, without God’s loving compassion for ALL souls of the earth, not of monetary gain, but of the restoration of the pure sincere feelings of the divine true self of us ALL.
anyway…
enjoy the blessed day everyone…and remember to hug each other from time to time. 😉 😀
time is the only thing of any value guys…time with one another in harmony of loving spirit.
God knows there is not much of that going around these days…in particular for the starving children, all of a world obviously without God’s love in their heart, mind, body, spirit and soul.
kinda obvious, as a whole, are we not?
look to the weakest link(mind), and you will find the truth there which is cause for the condition of the unloving world.
“Crucial Lacking of Desire for God’s divine WILL of Love and Wisdom for the divine Child of God of us ALL.”
this concludes the test of the emergency broadcast network, brought to on BE(half) of the divine true SELF.
lol
😀 😀
“ya…it’s a really bad movie…Come on, let’s get OUT of here!” 😉
A good name for the movie?
~ Salvation and Death of the Egotistic Zealots? ~
i don’t know…but i do know the child in starvation today about to die, knows the truth.
hey, i know, we could call up all the millionaires and ask for their million dollar salaries back the gleefully extracted from the Abundance of the Human Spirit which flows forth.
like that will ever happen…not today, not tomorrow. lol
I suppose it is sorta like the sinking of the Titannic, of the survivors in the limited number of boats and those freezing to death in the water, where in truth, most do not know they already own their own survival equipment…their heart, mind, body, spirit and soul.
but survive this world of useless ignorance…look not to luck, and instead to wisdom of your compassion hearts…or…suffer the consequences.
oh i see…let the meek ones suffer and die…i get it.
oh look…the bridge is OUT up ahead where we can just float across(the room)!
lol 😀 😀
Andy really is a lunatic from the lunatic fringe of hopeless wannaBEs, shouldaBEs, and finallyBE! ha.
can’t get me down…nope!..bin there, done that a few times.
i say this…”How do you save a world that does not want to BE saved from it’s SELF?”
easy…”Lead by example of the loving divine true SELF of us ALL, in knowingness of ‘that’ which is of the only value in God’s eyes, and knowingness of our own eyes, by means of our feelings which restore sight to our souls.”
“Love, love, love, ohhh, and hey look!…more Loves, Love!” 😉
good thing some of us understand one another.
shutting down for awhile guys…no internet at my new place yet….a week, maybe two…internet cafe once a day for an hour or so from here on in…
Jesus loves ALL. God loves ALL. We love ALL.
God blesses ALL.
bless you
thank you Jesus. thank you God. thank you to ALL.
_andy
So i say Goodbye to Europe..was so much fun apart from my fucking towels and then in Budva The turntable didn’t come round in time i was pissed , Wembley stadium fining me for over run and falling on my arse in Lisbon, how we all laughed!
Not bad really guys come on…
USA here we come …get ready !!!
P.S Anyone got a towel? xXx
Yay!! Madonna posted here!!!!!!!!!
How do you know A Thomas ?
Because she says she lost her towels, and I know Madonna actually did lose her towels. Also, she says she fell over on stage and I know for a FACT that Madonna did fall over.
She also swears a LOT. Madonna swears all the time just like that.
ah !
Each one of those things would be conclusive evidence on their own, but to have all three together leaves absolutely no doubt:
Yay!!! Madonna posted here!!!!!!!!!!
im just flattered someone care’s, appreciative too..
im not the only one left who loves to help lost souls
im still a lost soul, but less lost these day’s
whats for dinner ?
roast alien on a spit..well done
lol
lol
yah, spit was what we used back then, broke most times…i don’t recall lube being available much back then. lol
that kind of spit?
what?
lovers, family, friends?
an alien to love i seemingly am to some, but those who know me, love to love another like the way i(we) do.
so far i have networked 3 safe and supportive ones into my life, my therapist, Jesus and God.
i love me like i love me of another, like another loves me, forever free to just BE me.
it is what i have been doing all this time, difficult as it has been…i survived, and will survive, knowingness of the loving me in others of the GLBT family.
we are here to stay, even if many do not yet love(know) the me themselves, saying no way, it’s not OK to mock and ridicule me, hurting only themselves when they do.
we know, we love, we survive(d)…
it’s just other people’s shit…does not bother me any more…
they can choose to love me(us) or choose not too…
truly, love is what works for us all, so obvious to feel when they do, so obvious to feel when they do not….their own worse enemies when they do not.
anyway…i am really toxic right now(unhealthy environments i allow myself to be in of recent), and need some down time…i know when i get like this, it’s just other people’s shit….not mine…
looks like the US economy gets a temporary ‘get out of jail’ pass, but in truth, the banks don’t need us as they simply adjust(manipulate) their rates/credit according to what suits them.
personally, i think it is a futile attempt to avoid the truth of the economy which is slowing down not from available credit, but from too much credit, too much high interest rates(now coming into play) which drains the economy, our spending ability now frozen.
thank the banks and their inconsideration of the economy or main street…they don’t really care at all for main street at this point, now that they have everyone right where they want them, by the balls, of the highest dept ratios ever seen in American history.
Truly, the world would be better off without the zealot bankors and investors of these institutions who control the world.
Jesus did try to warn us all, and now the truth is gripping the world of the reality check we wake to each day now, of high interest rates, tighter credit, less disposable income…
do you think the zealot’s care…hell no.
in truth, they created this environment deliberate, and anyone who thinks otherwise is niave…
don’t get me wrong, i don’t care about financial wealth of anyone, as that is not the measure of anyone’s loving soul, rather, it is time the world realizes the truth of these self-emposed prisons we now find ourselves locked in…
destory your credit cards everyone…
pay down your depts if you can, lest they come and take all your assets…
and don’t borrow again from the zealot’s who are not of God’s love, only self-serving, serving no one, other than serving the truth of how they manipulate and control the world.
i can’t believe the how some think we want the credit markets, as though we cannot live without them…
well people…the TRUTH…they want you to think we can’t live without them, even while they tighten their grip on our income and assets…sqeezing the life out of the economy….
ya…welcome to the world seemingly controlled by bankers and business….
They cannot ever control our feelings of loving life though, even though they do attempt to, what with all their fear mongering us into their slave/master relationships we stupidly stumbled into….
in the end…we just won’t trust them ever again…
our own worse enemies when we do…
think about it…how much monies would be available for a thriving economy if no one had to pay any interest ever, and no one had to worry about losing their home/assets.
no only would their be more abundance for everyone to assist those in need, of our willingness to help survive and educate those in need of us, there would be no useless fear like the fear which now grips the world.
ya…the heartless self-serving zealots everyone which have snared us all, cause for all job loss, asset loss, and shrinking of disposable income.
ah well, the bright side is we will all have more down time for quality time together with one another…
this problem will not go away until everyone destroys their credit cards, and wake up to the reality that the world is controlled by the zealots.
anyway…rant over.
perhaps i should keep my writings with Extra magazine and not here?
ok.
government should suspend the priviledge for the zealots to operate in their country, putting a freeze on interest rates which they are hoping will occur in their buying up of the flooded housing market which the zealot’s deliberate did, knowing full well what they were doing…flooding the market until such a time as the housing values have now fallen to 1991 values, all controlled by the zealot investors, who now sit back and jack the interest to the record high debt levels of all Americans(deliberateness of the zealots), freeze credit availability, resulting job loss, resulting asset grab from those who built apon the assets the zealots will now reclaim with the use of their use treasury money….you tax dollars people….
rah, rah, rah, long live the zealots!!!
even the politician is naive in thinking the zealots will ease on interest rates….nope! Mark my words, they will not, as they already know the condition of the housing economy they built….dead.
Now they get to come in and take it all away from everyone with the help of the politicians….utter retardation our taxes will now feed the zealots controlling behaviour.
this is just one more cycle that has seen the zealots behave like this in the past, only on a much larger scale now, what with the highest debt ratios of the average American….prime time for the zealots to take all the assets away, and sit on them indefinitely with the help of treasury moneys.
if politicians had a spine, the would freeze the interest rates, or suspend the zealots priviledges of those who did not co-operated, which is the real problem that everyone knows will hurt the current economy, irregardless of how slow it is currently.
nope…politicians don’t have the back bone to do something like that, and instead, we will be left to our own accord, of high interest rates, job loss, asset loss, in the next decade to come.
you watch…the interest rates will continue to go up in the coming years, because the zealots already know the housing economy they created(flooded) is already dead…no reviving it.
yep…prime time for the zealots to celebrate in their high interest rates for the next decade, while we all try to stay affloat.
for me, it is legal theft on a grand scale, so cold too, in their deliberateness of controlling the economy we all work for still, which will dwindle from here on in…TRUTH.
as for the product manufactures, they should be grateful someone buys their products…nope…that was not good enough…they had to listen to the zealot’s entice them into store credit cards of high high interest, where the stores made more money from the kickbacks from the zealot financers, more than the profits of selling the products…
well…who wins/loses in the end with an economy crashing into the ground in the coming decade because of the zealots?
the zealots seem to think they win, all proud and boastful they are and so mighty and powerful too, in controlling everything and everyone, completely heartless of how many they hurt now with higher interest rates, job loss coming to the economy, bankruptcy, more job loss, more asset grab, oh and hey, look who the zealots managed to talk into coming on board with them…the Nation’s Treasury.
well now, isn’t that just perfect…NOT!
the Supreme court protects the consumer Mr. Zealot.
it is the Supreme court which should be dealing with the zealots, not parliament, albeit, parliament should suspend the priviledges of the zealots operating in the country.
ooooo….them’s fighten words!
lol
Do you think we’re ever going to get a new thread here?
oh hey…i was just thinking about you!
something new…something different…ya sure! 😉
im bad, i know.
I have nothing against Zealots. And most people I know get on well with the Zealots – they’re cool. It’s the bleedin’ Herodians I can’t stand.
how naive it is of parliament in thinking they will slow down the aggressiveness high interest rates by the zealots, which the zealots already know the housing economy they built(flooded) is already dead.
oh sure, it may slow the aggressiveness of the zealots, but they will still jack up the interest rates.
it is a power struggle, where parliament needs to flex it’s muscle using the Supreme Court rulings, where the Supreme Court sees right thru the zealots who control the world economy…and wrecklessly i might add.
We get a load of Herodians congregating outside McDonalds in the town centre here every Saturday. We also get Pharisees, skateboarding and listening to My Chemical Romance.
no restraint now sees our economy coming to a grinding hault worldwide, and you think that’s cool?
well…we may see the world return to the dark ages sooner than we expect, if they don’t get a handle on the run away interest rates.
I tell you, don’t blame the Zealots!
oh wait, what is a Herodian?
hmmmm….(andy googles it and comes back)
oh, ok…
The Herodians were a sect or party mentioned in the New Testament as having on two occasions–once in Galilee, and again in Jerusalem–manifested an unfriendly disposition towards Jesus.
how can one be against Jesus if they do not know what to be against about Jesus?
i see Jesus as the me of us all, as the most evolved adult child, a rather easy going dude you could say, who secretly laughed at all the retardation of so many bumbling ones who stumbled over themselves.
This is a very surreal conversation.
thinking to himself, “now wouldn’t they all look great wearing beautiful colored free flowing satin outfits?!”
lol
😉 😀
bizarre or dreamlike
dreamlike perhaps for many who do not peer into the truth and see with clarity.
What does Madonna do to get muscles like that??
oh…i don’t know…maybe she thinks about someone special to her she wants to impress?
well…i’ll say this, “she impresses the hell out of me!”
but i still am certain i can beat her in an arm wrestle.
Well, I was actually thinking she could beat me at an arm wrestle.
As long as she’s OK, yes?
i remember i used to listen to the soundtrack from ‘Rocky’ when i worked out in my youth.
today i listen to more melancholy music which evokes my emotions of transcendent thought.
She must lift an awful lost of heavy weights. It’s rather ironic, in the old days people wanted to get rich to avoid having heavy manual labour.
oh ya…she is more than ok…it’s the motherfuckers she can do without!
lol
stay tuned into zen or the equality love that is real for us.
Some things I don’t understand. Well, a lot of things I don’t understand.
It all seems like a very strange world to me.
hey, did you know what depression is?
Someone was telling me it is the emotional experience which one feels between navigating between ANGER and the unresolved emotions of the manifestations of anger.
is that cool or what?
Does Madonna have good friends? Are there a lot of weird ones?
Can I dodge the weird ones?
that’s why i strive for clarity, so as to not feel the uncertainty emotions of the manifestations of anger.
I was depressed once, for two years. Very awful time. Yes, I was very angry over that period so you might have a point.
Very strange thing. And it really does affect you in a physical way.
ya, for sure, dodge the uncertain and weird ones, just don’t dodge me!
as in dodging me may be dodging the me of you?
does that make any sense?
It’s totally different from “being unhappy”. Totally different feeling. Yes, that’s so true – anger played a massive part now I think back.
“does that make any sense?”
No, but I’m used to it.
ya…it can affect us physically if left unresolved too long.
liberty is always available to everyone, so long as they take time to deal with issues.
here is the thing…left unresolved….the issues can and do plague us for life.
I was so angry with things – and certain people – and I couldn’t move on though I knew I should, and I just kept circling this black hole and I just couldn’t get out.
i had a connected moment the other day, which i want to hang onto as it was pure of feeling, serene and true, which has to do with the me within.
does that ring any bells? 😉
You talk like a counsellor. They’re a right waste of time. They got me more angry than anything! Bland platitudes.
They did me good, though, because I came out of the meeting and I had redirected my anger towards them! 😀
There’s a long delay here between questions and responses.
i think people put to much emphasis and expectations on intimate relationships which may not be true for them, where solidness of friendship is the better relationship, freindship which is sincere and pure, which is what i feel deep within.
“i had a connected moment the other day, which i want to hang onto as it was pure of feeling, serene and true, which has to do with the me within.
does that ring any bells?”
Nope. Can you be more specific, please?
i want to nurture, protect and grow friendships, just as M does, but mostly, my friendship with her is of utmost concern for me, and yet, i feel at times, i am too fucked up to be of any use.
Are you talking about shagging? If you’re talking about shagging, then just say “I’m talking about shagging”. I’m not goog on picking up on hidden meanings and such like.
~ my own insecurity at times…nothing to do with anyone, so much as it has to do with my entire life up till today…a rather rocky road you could say, and yet, i have such amazing clarity of my true SELF.
no…not shagging…although i suppose if two eventually come to a true knowingness of a pure friendship, then that is up to them to look apon the day they may eventually find themselves…but no…no shagging, it is something pure inside that i feel, of a forever more feeling one would not ever want to live a day without feeling how good that feels.
does that make sense?
You’re going off on a bit of a tangent again.
I keep answering your question before last.
” it is something pure inside that i feel, of a forever more feeling one would not ever want to live a day without feeling how good that feels.
does that make sense?”
Yep. Not shagging. I’m with you now.
here is a weird one i was feeling the other day….
i pictured two insanely loving lovers dancing in crazy costumes together on a roof top patio on top of a 30 story building.
i just stood there having coffee, feeling the enlightenment of the two lovers dancing on top of the building….
where it felt obvious they loved one another completely.
Right, we’re talking dancing. Dancing’s nice.
shagging is the end result of coming together of a friendship in my mind, where i can’t just shag with just anyone…although i know i have in the past….i am holding out for the one most like me this time….something sincerely fun and happiness between the two…with no element of uncertainty…bin there. done that way too many times.
I wonder if all the men in Madonna’s life try to change her, and I’m presuming they find that to be a total waste of time.
ya, dancing….it is the free loving spirit set free, which feels the enlightenment within, and is of the knowingness of that which is true of us all.
as i said, “Leading by example, of what the example of sincere true love between two obviously loving lovers is what i want, what we all want…”
I think the only successful approach would be to let her do her crazy stuff – just let her get on with it – and just keep your own feet on the ground and do your own thing. And just say “That’s nice, dear”. and try not to be patronising.
ohhhh…who would want to change the loving spirit of Madonna?
not me….no way!
i love her!
Maybe in some things she would be amenable to change.
i am not patronising of her…i am the antagonist if anything.
I’m not into crazy stuff. I’m not boring. But I don’t do crazy.
Right, I’m going to go and have my shower and get to bed.
“When two worlds collide”.
well ya, we all let go of things we are answerable to should we chose to…but it is we who chose in the end, albeit, somethings people chose to answer to…i would not! 😉
what two worlds are you refering to?
there are many worlds i can think of
like i said to my therapist, it is the indifferences between us all which does not unite in sameness of loving spirit.
Right, Night night, sleep tight, no more naughty dreams,
X
naughty?
no no…not ever naughty…sincerely loving is the only way for me!
alright…sweetest of dreams the dreaming lovers dream of the dreaming lover who dreams of the dreaming lover who too dreams of the dream they dream.
no wait…
sweets of dreams are of the dreaming lovers dreams who dream of a dreaming lover who dreams the same dream.
no wait…
sweetest of dreams are of the dreaming lover who dreams of a dreaming lover who dreams the dreams they dream.
no wait…
sweetest of dreams are of the dreaming lovers who dream of the dreaming lover laying next to them.
ya!
that’s the sweetest of dreams that i too dream! 😉
anyway….that connectedness moment was/is of M.
two worlds collide?
more like two worlds apart, and yet, we are not.
same sky above.
same earth below.
same love we feel.
let’s keep it real
the word ‘crazy’ is a derogatory shortsighted word which is detractring from truth and full knowingness of character, of the connotation of frustration in dealing with someone…
hmmm….let’s see….
GLBT individuals were categorized as ‘crazy’ where Homosexuality was once thought to be a mental illness because mental health professionals
and society had biased information.
Is Homosexuality a Mental Illness or Emotional Problem?
No. Psychologists, psychiatrists, and other mental health professionals agree that homosexuality is not an illness, a mental disorder, or an emotional problem. More than 35 years of objective, well-designed scientific research has shown that homosexuality, in and itself, is not associated with mental disorders or emotional or social problems.
ok…so that rules me out as being ‘crazy’.
whew! for a minute there, i thought you were talking about me.
oppppssss….oh damn…i am so fucked either way i look at this…ah fuck!
lol
😀 😀
M should get a laugh out of that one…
i am doomed to ever getting with M…she just won’t ever trust me….i suppose i should give up the notion.
and yet, i full trust how i feel about her…
what is it about my sincerity of love i feel for her that is true of me?
what is it?
my bisexuality…’that’s what.
TRUTH.
but that does not negate her ever being able to trust me.
only time spent together is able to establish trust between two souls.
well…let’s see…i got 12,964 blessed days to go…
made ya smile!
😉 😀
fact it Andy…you’re a fucking nut case!
lol
im just CRAZY for her!
and what is wrong with ‘that’?
absolutely nothing wrong with love that i feel for her, the real Madonna.
anyway…they better not pass this stupid bill…and let everyone face the truth…the banks have us all in Check, but not Checkmate.
new restraints need to be put in place for stable growth of economies worldwide, and not these hyper driven sales reps of the banks, business, and politicians ever again.
unrealistic and obvious of the truth which sees what happens when we over zealously inflate these bubbles of unrealistic markets driven so high, and the flooding of the market which saturates, all of willful blind heartedness and lacking in concern for future generations….absurdity.
we are not about wealth, status and all the bull crap of the over zealous salesmanship and never were…we are all just ordinary people, all from the same schools of thought, all of equality love for one another, and not all these indifferences of opinion which seperate.
we need to work together for a stable steady economic future, and let go of the greed which fuels instability, satisfied in a realistic growth market unhindered by the controlling manipulators of finance, where in truth, if they want to be stupid, then we should all walk away from their disrespect and sanction them, strip them of their priviledge to operate in our countries for good.
what ever happened to realistic growth of our crops mentality?
look at the reality of the fear that everyone is gripped by now…is that what we want for the children of future generations to ever experience like what we are all experiencing today…hell no.
so let’s make some changes, and isolate the ability of these institutions to ever manipulate like this again, and take hold of our own power over the few who cast controlling fear over the millions of us worldwide, and not ever tolerate this spectacle of absurdness ever again.
We have Supreme Courts…let’s use them and make some new laws to usher in a new era of stability that all generations of the future will be thankful for one day, when one day, we will not have governments which owe anyone, of the surplus abundance of the human spirit united as ONE.
no one wants to lose their job.
no one wants to lose their family home as a result of losing their job.
no one should feel dictated to by the ones who brought us this insecure environment in the first place, the ones who saturated the market place with their over zealous behaviour, now crying to the National Trearury to help fuel their continued behaviour, with threats of high interest rates which we are not seeing looming over us this week.
where i come from, a threat for money, is robbery.
Where is the Supreme Court in viewing this spectacle of absurdity where billions of us worldwide are directly affected by the apathy of not sanctioning this foolheardiness of a few?
what? they are having lunch with the finance dude?
oh well…that figures…
i jest.
millions, not just a few are at the table…
The Supreme Courts of the land hold up the laws of the country, and make new laws all the time…
it’s time to deal head on with this absurdness of banking fraud which knew full well what they were doing in flooding the markets, holding their breath of too rapid a growth for the economies to sustain….
now we are faced with the same banking economists who know full well the housing industry the saturated is dead(or nearly dead), with them dictating to us?
what is wrong with this picture?
we are talking about the average Joe six pack here, who just wants to wake up tomorrow and have a job.
simple question…”how many will be affected by high interest rates?”
Everyone.
And do we actually believe they will keep interest rates down when the housing industry is bust?
is everyone asleep? hello?
they got into this mess….we sure as hell should be trusting them then, should we?
so do everyone a favour and do the simple task of sanctioning them, stripping them of their priviledges if they fail to co-operate, where ALL are concerned.
it is the only solution…there is no other way out of this mess, but a slow climb out of debt, where we all keep our jobs to pay off the debt, where it is not the power of the government, but the power of the ALL which is what we need to embrace, using new sanctions, and new Supreme Court Laws.
hell, i’d be glad to draft if for you all, if you want.
hmmm…let’s see, nationalize all the banks into five banks…
hmmm…freeze further extensions of credit to consumers.
allow business to have necessary credit based on their continued operations…
freeze the interest rates for the next ten years.
what?
it will work, when we ALL decide to keep the economy, forcing our hand with the zealots if necessary….it’s time fight back or die.
it’s the fucking world that is crazy…not me.
i am going to live a simple fun loving life with a lover like me, and i will find them, and they will find me.
who needs or wants to play guessing games when truth of our feelings is easy to know when love is true?
ya, a gay life.
what i am used to ejoying and what i want, love with a guy who is tender loving of me and i him.
so there you have it…Andy is gay!
gee…who knew? 😉
whatever…
there…now i can get on with my life and forget my silly notions…
it wd be nice to do a private concert with your unique slave idiot fan iAndy with your unique tyranical voice….give your money to mum…
ANdy
Your almost turning Andrew Thomas gAY
and me straight
almost,
Lol 🙂
i’m such a flert
I had a spooky dream last night, was not going to mention it but i will,
In my dream M slipped or something and knocked her head on the toilet very hard there was blood & stuff seemed quite serious, then next thing this doctor was checking her vital signs she was still breathing, but i got spooked out, maybe she fainted and fell over i don’t know the meaning of it really but my dreams are usually prophetic in a symbolic way, but falling on her throne and hurting herself, i think maybe she’s working too hard, and needs a good holiday after this tour and a nurse on hand when she goes to the loo.. too.. hey i always rhyme, cause i got rythem baby.
like my therapist says, “other people’s shit.”
thanks for the projection…any more?
no that’s it for today !
today !
lol 🙂
aren’t we touchy
ya…i am overly sensitively lately…
it’s a human thing….
ha.
it comes from feeling the depth of our own reassured feelings, while BEing among those who are less reassuring…or so i am told…or so it feels…
i am self-assured…just not as reassured as one could be with safe and supportive friends. You try being nicknamed Pansy in high school and not being able to get a date with girls sometime and see how that feels.
fucking Mike…i am so going to have sex with him one day, then dump his sorry ass….well ok…maybe not…i love him.
Mike knows he’s got it…but he ain’t getting it…even if he begs me for it…
lol
We’ll those that are less assuring (like me ) make you appreciate what is more reassuring ( like Mike ) a good thing ! Yes, a good enough reason to keep me as a friend.
Then say one day i might become enlightended (don’t hold you breath) then i’ll be on the other side (so to speak )
lol 🙂 (i liked that one,)
then you can screw my brains out and toss me out like a disposable razor blade ha ha
in the end Love is all that MATTers..
hey should that be MIKEers, NICKers
ok are you screwing Mick or Nick ?
😉
when a person sincerely prays…it is there that we realize we are the same…
M knows what i mean…
i know what she knows…the greater depth of sincerity within which is the calmness of the divine true self, pure and true in loving feelings for another…heaven.
does that help?
i keep pushing myself toward standing alone in likeness of mind which is of sameness of my true and faithful friends…irregardless of any words of another around me, irregardless of any words said between us, as ones who are aware of the sameness of the depth of sincerity within…the calmness of the divine true self.
~ a true and faithful friend of those who are not any different from one another, where knowingness of the truth of self, is true of everyone, yet we all put all these indifferences between us, with seemingly useless words and conduct…immaturity of the mind.
i take delight in the sight of the morning sunlight gleeming here and there, it’s soft rays of warmth, while i stand there feeling my sincere feelings of love for another, whoever they may be, knowingness of our sameness which we all subconsciously seek, where i greet them in my preferred cognitive awareness, which knows the truth of, just as i do…
there…i am finally speaking as me…
it is who i am…and what i love most about life…the knowingness of our sameness, irregardless of those yet unwise of what we know and feel, such incredible purity and depth of love within, such clarity of the sameness i openly speak of….the calmness of the divine true self we know about…just as Jesus too knew about his own divine true self…just a man, where in his own knowingness of this, he too knew was true of everyone…
how is it so many become disconnected, and so annoying in their outward conduct with one another?(including me somedays, i know).
Bring the Heaven and Star’s Down to Earth for Me.
Heaven on Earth, only humankind has to Dream the Same Dream !
Dream on Baby !!!
hahah
kidding 🙂
does that help?
so where am i?
am i not always right beside you?
are we not in truth, of the same level of loving sincerity, pure and true within?
i know i am….and i know M is too…we just don’t speak of it openly like i am today…
in truth, when you know…you don’t have to speak of it…you just know.
you just know…
there is no questioning it, like that of those who are yet of uncertainty of our knowingness…
where questioning it, is of those who are yet of unknowingness, is it not?
i don’t question it here today with my words, rather i am merely being fearlessly open right now, self-assured in doing so, for sake of what needed to be said…
it is in this way that i know my love is true for her…
and always will be, of a true and faithful friend, who prays like she does, and feels the sameness of the genuine feelings of the divine true self which is only loving…
only love…without doubt…
doubt is of the unwise world which surrounds…
it has taken many years to arrive here today, to speak openly like i do, of what needs to be said.
not so much i fear for sake of us, perhaps more for sake of others?
as we already know our own depth of sincerity, and purity of heart and mind.
forgive my inability somedays, which is lacking in wisdom and sincere approach…as the world does get to me somedays in all of it’s useless outward conduct so fear based and unwisely controlling, rather than just BEing themselves…
does that help?
M con’t decide whether she wants to kick my ass or kiss me?
lol
😉 😀
that’s what friends are for? 😉
alright, so let’s get thru the rest of the day, always in our knowingness that each day is a blessed day for the tenderness of loving feelings of our divine true self to experience while among others….
i love her…i know i do…and she knows i do…perhaps more than i was willing to admit, but hold back the truth from her i cannot, and perhaps today, is the last day i shall not forget what we know…
you just know, when you know…
we know…
we like knowingness, do we not?
there….i said what needed to be said…
no more doubt…
there is enough doubt in the world without adding more…
lol
Ya i know,
i just get less worked up about it,
that s all
Anal, im anal i have obssesive cleanliness disorder
LOL,,
i’ll be a GAY bottom Bitch in my next life, to deal with my Anal disorder..
so now what?
i jest… 😉 😀
lol
anal eh?
i get discombogulated when i am tired…have you noticed?
i always seem to retreat away from others, wondering days later why i did, when in truth, i love everyone…
it is a fear thing, insecurity from my past life that still grips me from time to time…but have grown rich in the knowingness i speak of, and yearn to always be found of love devoid of doubt, which is of Jesus and God….of what Jesus knew of us all…
M knows, and i know too…
you could pretend to be one in this life, please me tease me it might heal you !
lol >
enjoy your day !
i wrote an affirmation in my phone today schedualled it to repeat daily for two years (low on memory )
it goes like this
“Be Loving & leave it at that”
Ciao Bella
you know, it’s all so sad for me, in my knowingness today, that my own fearlessness in writing like i do, was because of Troy, and that’s is what hurts deep inside…his life which meant so much to me…of which i am eternally grateful for, of why i feel the way i do today…blessed…in a seemingly unblessed world(somedays)…
and is Troy not with you every moment ?
for sure
Troy gives you a big kiss on the forhead
guiding you , minding you protecting you
more that you realise
forever more
for sure
you already know that ..
Ciao Bella
it is because of Troy, that i am of the knowingness of the truth about love devoid of doubt which i turn towards in prayer…turning toward knowingness of the sameness within us all, pure and true inwardly, but not necessarily as fearlessly outward like we yearn to BE.
i yearn to BE ‘that’ with another who too yearns to BE.
it is not like i can simple BE anything other than what i yearn for…where we easily feel the difference.
i yearn to eternally remain of the truth of our knowingness, love devoid of doubt, where anything less is of our being our own worse enemy, is it not?
we know…
what matters, is ‘that’ which we know to BE true of our SELF…
ya, i am blessed because of Troy, as it was Troy who changed my life forever…in a good way…where love devoid of doubt is what we have to come to know is not only possible….it is TRUE of us in our silence praying like we do…
we are blessed because of Jesus and Troy, where it is God who knows the truth of our knowingness of our pure loving feelings sincere and true till the end…forever more….without doubt.
it is BEcause of you ! that you know the Truth
and it’s beacuase of you that i need a Valium
Lol
kidding
God Bless
help me fix the world’s mess
😉
we have been doing just that, have we not?
look how far we have come as friends in life…
best of all, that which is not able to change, the truth of what we know to BE true of us…our purity and sincerity of loving feelings so tender and mild like we are when we feel what we feel in each passing moment of the day…
gotta go…my morning bike ride down to the lake and back…
of another blessed day…
thanks Marco.
hey…who is Marco?
oh yeah…someone like me….sweet loving…
Ya, i know
Mwah
Thanks Andy
hey who is Andy
ah does’nt MATTer
cause ANdy is .. someone like me..sweet loving
😉
enjoy you bike ride..
im off to dance the night away
i enjoy doing that
chat to you again
in the spirit realm
on on here too again
Ciao
Bella
a
get it
no i don’t get it…Marco is Matt?
Matt is someone Andy loves?
Marco knows Andy loves Matt?
Marco knows Matt loves Andy as much as Andy loves Matt?
ok…so who is Marco?
if Marco is Matt…i will die a thousand deaths…
lol
it’s all good…i love(d) Matt…like i love myself…where tenderness of the loving SELF is what MATTers to us ALL…
where at the end of the day, it is…not wealth…not status…not race…not religion…not sex…not orientation…not political…
it is the sincere love between the loving lovers who truly love one another utterly and completely forever more of what we ALL are…loving creatures stuck on a ball of dirt hurtling thru space at an extimated 1.3 million mph, in relationship to other galaxies in the universe.
cool eh?
spirit realm eh?
hmmmm….me thinks Marco is M…?
he has her solidness of true loving spirit…and he prays like i do….sooooo…..who really knows M the way we do?
we know, that’s who…
lol
hmmm…so who am i to M?
oh just someone who can dance better than she can!
lol
i jest….NOT!
well, ok….she can dance as well as i can?
i can dance too?
wanna dance?
lol
I’m having a night off. I’ve got a cold and I’m getting to bed.
Is there any chance of a new thread sometime, please? This is toooo loooooong. Ta.
sweetest of dreams love
a new thread?
a new life?
someone new?
i suppose i have nothing to complain about really, seeing the world is a whole lot better in accepting the GLBT community…
someone invited me to a bisexual dance…i said what? a bisexual dance you say….get out of here! No way!
a new day, for us gays? lol
of course, i didn’t go…them bisexuals is just to wild for me!
nah…me looking for a soul mate…
a cold…yuk!
i am the most impostible person to be around when i have a cold.
come to think of it, i am impossible most anytime, what with my chastity lock and all. 😉
Nighty night
X
rest. chicken noodle soup is good too…soothing great taste…with someone spoon feeding you, is a must! ha.
i’ve saved up $6000 by December, i can afford to meet you half way for a week’s holiday i’ll pay for my own room, (its a catholic thing, virgin, you know how it is) but i’ll shout you dinner Italian boi’s we areindependant.. be fun we can talk exchange jokes you know, as friends..
thats what i want a friend
not really after anything else apart from what you can teach me and Visa Versa,
hey can you lend me $20 i’ll pay you back !
Lol 🙂
as if
i’m not Madonna Andy,
i’m like her though, my friend Roy told me in 1995 before he died at 25 (drug over dose) that i was like her, i’ve always connected to where she was comming from more than anyone else on the planet, but it was really hard to discern that connection because she was so famous so i thought maybe i should find a way to connect im still not there yet but one day im sure our path’s will connect because we both have compassion for the world were both half italian & were both crazy..
I’ll meet her one day, Lol 🙂
we could go for a scenic drive through the Hollywood Hills, in the back of a Taxi or something you know
Is Andrew Thomas a FAG ?
yep.
yeah…being her best friend in life would be joyous indeed.
she is just as sensitive as the next person, perhaps more so than most realize, and yet she has a solidness which is i know about, that is unwavering.
ya ya & being my best friend would be joyous indeed also, like a love injection,
addictive yes ?
ya ya i’m strong too, like an old walnut, need a nut cracker to get inside me, im soft and tender on the inside but.. and it’s the inside that MATTer’s..
its really hard but, cause i’ll alway’s be alone in this life i’ll have beautiful soul’s that i am close too and love and love me back but i’ll never have “the one” that hurt’s me but it’s something i have to accept, because that’s the only way to protect my soul so i can remain pure it’s a protection thing i guess a sacrifice in a way, for the sake of it all and everyone, do you know how much that hurts, and how much strength it takes, that’s why my two closest friends, (you know who you are) mean so much to me without you both i would’nt have made it this far,
so if you feel special about that, God damn it
so you should !
LOL 🙂
nut cracker, get it
LOL 😉
crazy hey,
Andrew Thomas when you sell your apartment can you buy the music rights to this song, it will be the best investment you’ll ever make, and then you’ll be rich and can by a big mansion in the Greek Island’s, heap’s of gay’s guy’s there.
LOVE IS IN THE AIR (John Paul Young)
Love is in the air
Everywhere I look around
Love is in the air
Every sight and every sound
And I don’t know if I’m being foolish
Don’t know if I’m being wise
But it’s something that I must believe in
And it’s there when I look in your eyes
Love is in the air
In the whisper of the trees
Love is in the air
In the thunder of the sea
And I don’t know if I’m just dreaming
Don’t know if I feel sane
But it’s something that I must believe in
And it’s there when you call out my name
(Chorus)
Love is in the air
Love is in the air
Oh oh oh
Oh oh oh
Love is in the air
In the rising of the sun
Love is in the air
When the day is nearly done
And I don’t know if you’re an illusion
Don’t know if I see it true
But you’re something that I must believe in
And you’re there when I reach out for you
Love is in the air
Every sight and every sound
And I don’t know if I’m being foolish
Don’t know if I’m being wise
But it’s something that I must believe in
And it’s there when I look in your eyes
(Repeat Chorus 4X)
Enough of the “gay” stuff already, thank you very much.
Greece is too hot for me. South of France instead. Cap d’Antibes.
Good song, though.
I’ll be humming that blinking song all day now.
Any chance of a new thread?
This is absolutely killing my iPod touch.
Biarritz would be nice too. I get bored if there’s no waves, and the Med is now full of jelly fish as well.
I actually always fancied this place:
I’ve been on that beach.
Fantastic house, view to Cannes.
that’s nice dear. 😉
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We are all friends along life’s road, a road i have walked apon, long and hard, a road of emotional certainty where i felt/feel my emotions in each step along side all of you, be it gay, straight, lesbian, bisexual, transgendered, transexual…all of you.
i ask my self, “What is life all about, and what do i want for the remainder of my life?”
well…forgive me for getting too emotional on this question, as i cannot simply turn off my deep emotions.
i had a sweet loving friend name Troy in life, who i yearned to always hold his hand, of each and every waking moment of each day, so tender and mild his loving spirit was and is of my memories of him, which has affected/effected my heart, mind, body, spirit and soul for all eternity, in a positive pure sincere way, which is of the depth of emotional exploration.
Troy is gone from me in the physical realm, but not ever gone from my heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, so profoundly his life impacted my life, of a stranger i met along life’s road, of a stranger who’s hand i held that first day, of a stranger who’s lips i kissed that first day apon a round hay bail in a farmers field, of a stranger i had sex with that first day, apon a rock along the water’s edge of the cottage lake we played apon so often, of a stranger i came to know well, and know well my emotions which ran deep within, of what became clear to me without doubt, of me telling that stranger named Troy, with tears in my eyes expressing to him, “I want to spend the rest of my life with you Troy!”
Push came to shove, people interrupted what we both knew we wanted, all kinds of things which distracted us both from that day which never came, of us surrendering to the depth of our emotions of what we both wanted, of a day we did not find the courage within to surrender to taking hold of each other’s hand and say fuck off to the rest of the world and walk side by side thru the remainder of our life, apon life’s road where we met…the road Troy died apon, in his commitment of suicide, where he jumped in front of a van on a highway outside the hospital he managed to escape from, killing himself in front of the staff and doctor’s who chased after him.
Troy died that day, where apon i did take hold of Troy’s hand that day apon life’s road, where i have not let go of his hand, which feels the truth of everything that happened to Andy’s most loving lover, of everything everyone said and did, of what Troy and i failed to do, now of many years gone by of all the issues from one end of the spectrum to the other, probing of the psychological autopsy the professionals and i diligently worked thru, which resulted in a number of laws changed, including our address of the co-dependent welfare relationship here in Canada…yep, blame Andy everyone, for lowering the welfare cheques you all get today, of the unhealthy co-dependent relationship Troy had, which did contribute to the dynamics of his low-self esteem, where had he been working somewhere, he would likely not of found himself where he did that dreadful day apon life’s road.
God bless Troy, who’s life has altered the lives of many(unknowingly).
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Along life’s road, i met Matt, where i am still confused and yes, hurt, in my loss of his friendship, yet, i know who i am in life along life’s road…a true and faithful friend to ALL, in particular the GLBT community, of the many i walk along side daily, year after year, my favorite day being the GLBT Toronto Parade, now the largest event in North America with over one million now attending.
Along life’s road, i met Matt, who reminded me of the importance of my inner anquish i felt during the first Pride Day Parade i walked alone, without Troy’s hand, the year after he died, where i knew it was important to take a stand in the world, for sake of another, knowingness of my feelings which would not want anyone to experience what i experienced in my loss of Troy…not ever!
Matt rekindled my spirit with overflowing joy in watching him accept himself so well like he did, and God willing, i pray he continues to always be as accepting of himself like he appeared to be, of my the memories i have of him…a stranger i met, and came to know along life’s road.
well…i will say this, if i was his age, and i had a motorcycle(and will someday), i wait patiently for him to get on the bike with me, and ride off apon life’s road forever more with him, with no element of doubt of the depth of my emotions which would always be loving of Matt…but i am not his age…and so a friendship, like that of the friendship i have of everyone in the GLBT community i shall remain for him…forever more….where perhaps one day he will reach out and hand to me, and i him, to tenderly hold and embrace, sweet feelings of my sincere love for him in shaking his hand…although it might not be a good idea, as i might not want to let go of holding his hand…. 😉
ya, i loved Matt…i will alway love Matt…without doubt, i know…i will always love Matt…
~ ~ ~
As for Madonna, she and i know the depth of out heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, which is of the same loving compassionate likeminded wisdoms, however many wisdoms we may ever have and share with one another, we know we are seekers in life of what is most important for our heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, and in so doing, we are the knowingness of ‘that’ which is true of everyone’s heart, mind, body, spirit, and soul.
I would equally wait for her too, to get on the bike with me, with no doubt of my love for her which have, and have felt everyday along life’s road since the day Troy died, knowing full well, i would live a most loving life with her forever more, if ever a day came, she surrendered to getting on the bike with me to journey with one another forever more in each others life, of each waking day, apon life’s road.
i am running on empty in my patiently waiting, and yet i cannot my self to just simply walk away…and yet we both have to eventual accept what ever direction it is we are going to accept, for sake of both our mental emotional well being…
there…i said it….and have cleared the air of whatever anyone shall ever say or do, where it is up to her, not anyone else, of what she wants to do…i already know and have known along time what i have yearned for, and continue to yearn for, a sweet loving lover who wants me as much as i want them, as much as i yearned the same for Troy, as much as i yearned to be with Matt, even if i was for older than him, where i don’t feel age difference in my emotions, rather, i am merely older than him, not like they say, ‘too old’, for him. One day Matt will reflect and realize(and perhaps already does), the truth of this…emotions are not bound by the contraint of time when it comes to loving feelings.
~ ~ ~
as for Marco…well Marco…
i have issues which are hurting me which may or may not be true…
i don’t know if you played the role of Matt, as it appears perhaps you did…
i don’t know how i am supposed to feel about that, if it is true, knowing how much i love Matt…
i will say this though Marco, you and i are no different in any way in our yearning for to love another like we do, and God knows you and i love one another sincere and true.
~ ~ ~
i don’t know if i want to know the truth about Matt, and yet i know, it would be fair to let Andy know the truth someday, knowing either way, i’t change the depth of Andy’s emotions and love he has for everyone, as it was Troy who impacted Andy’s life the most in life, something that cannot be changed…
~ ~ ~
for me…i don’t like uncertainty…and i am growing weary of playing this silly charade like we do…
i am getting on my bike, and if one of you wants to join me someday, then please do…before someone else beats to it, as i am keeping an eye out for a soul mate lover like mySELF.
~ ~ ~
i think about covers what needed to be said, and will close for now to let you all come to your own conclusions, where i am happy in accepting a true and faithful friendship with you all, which is what i have been and am for many years along life’s road with you ALL, and without doubt, will continue to BE…but spend my life without a loving lover on the bike with me….think again loverboys….lovergirls….
lol
you got 4 minutes motherfuckers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(andy revs the engine of the bike, patiently waiting until it becomes obvious to him, he is wasting his time, and decides to take off apon life’s road to meet another stranger to love, like the way loved and still loves Troy, like the way he loves everyone…forever more, but spend it alone?…..duh! think again! 😉 😀
like Madonna said, “Why would i want to?”
Jesus loves ALL. God loves ALL. We love ALL.
God blesses ALL.
enjoy each and every blessed day everyone….you only get so many of them to spend with one another.
12, 963 blessed days to go…
thank you Troy. thank you Jesus. thank you God. thank you ALL.
PS…i would appreciate some clarity about Matt, as it did hurt me significantly, more than i realized…but ya, it hurt me to see him go…
God says speak the TRUTH…
either way….i know the truth about my emotions, and it does not really matter what anyone ever says or does, because i feel the truth of all things i reflect apon, with the descerning wisdom to turn towards love, not hate, wisdom, not ignorance, compassion, not apathy. It’s not so much that i deserve to know the truth, rather, it is just rather silly to play charades, where in truth, i prefer playing Chess, if you must know! 😉 😀
anyway…let Andy know the truth someday…ok?
and yet, Andy will always know the truth of his loving emotions, does he not?
thank you
bless you
bless you
bless you
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(andy gets on his bike, his favorite R&B music playing, as he kick starts the engine of the bike, a beautiful day to head to the beach, as he waits for one to join him, knowing someday, someone will)
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it’s been fun everyone…but let’s face it…REAL LIFE is what is more fun, is it not?
friends…ok fine…we can and have done that for some time now, and will continue to do so…but REAL LIFE is where it is at for me…for all of us.
oh, i’ll be around…those who want to BE REAL with me ‘that’ is.
blessed be this day and everyday forever more.
thanks everyone.
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hey, how far is Kansas from Toronto?
…just wondering. 😉 😀
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“there’s no love like the future….Loves.” 😉 😀
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i will be on a bad ass motorcycle for next years Pride Toronto Parade, with some bad ass bitch riding with me…that you can count on!
lol
😀 😀
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and biyatches tooo! 😉
actually, there are two parades, the Dyke parade on Saturday, opening with motorbikes like they always do…and yes…i will out front with them on the most bad ass motherfucking bike most have ever seen….
OC chopper would be the best choice to build it between now and next year…if they have time to squeeze it into their schedule…oh hell, i can build it myself. ha.
time to kick some more ass around here damn it….and i ain’t alone on this, that i do know.
we know!
on we go!
whoo hooo!
love it.
any volunteers?
ah, never mind then…plenty of fish in the sea of the road along side, which we all walk apon.
you guys are boring…
i jest…
come one guys, i wanna have some fun damn it….with or without cha….i am going to have some bad ass fun with someone…
she’s my sweet little thing, and i’m her little loverboy!!!!!!!
love it!!!!!!!!!
😀 😀
where’s my coffee!!!!!!!
lol
whoa!
what’s gotten into Andy?
time to get the funk out!
keep on funking in the funked world!
lol
that whole chastity thing is really funking with his brain cells…
you’ll all see soon enough….watch and see, the real me….same as i ever was, only more focused than ever before, knowing what works for me, knowing what works for another, just like me, the most fearless insane loving lovers the world shall see and feel again, what they all repress and hold back within them, the fearlessness to JUST BE YOU!
strange how a simple match book with the words, “Just BE Your SELF”, written on it, is indeed of the no time constraint then, just as it is today.
(andy gets up from his bar stole, and walks outside to get on his bike again, always returning year after year, to the same place he started, that special day andy walked into his life everlasting forever more, without his most loving lover of all….Troy….with only one thing on his mind….change the motherfucking world)
no more bullshit, ok guys…i am really done with bullshit…either get with it, or get lost…
(andy fastens the top of his leather motherfucker boots as he gets on his bike, as the boots of his favorite lover in life step up beside the bike, and gets on the bike with andy, as they tear off apon the road of everlasting together as ONE)
😉 😀
~ the script of “Life Everlasting”
~ The End
no wait
~ The Beginning
where the beginning and end are the same place of life everlasting for all the everlasting lover lovers who love like we do.
hey, who started all this anyway?
wasn’t me
i am just another soul like any of you along life’s road of life everlasting, no different in any way, albeit, perhaps abit wiser…knowingness of what it takes to fearlessly surrender to my own tender loving feelings of SELF, with another who is likeminded and of the yearning to likewise do as…i do. 😉
hey…Jesus said that, did he not?
“Do as i do.”
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Lead by example people….of the loving lovers YOU ARE!
i am…BE CAUSE…we ARE!
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(with arms of andys favorite loving lover tightly wrapped around andy on the bike, they head off to where ever they want to go, each and every day, be it to the beach, to their friends places, to where ever the road of life everlasting is, which is every road we all walk apon together united as ONE loving family, sincerely loving of one another forever more…
….hey, how far is it from Toronto to Kansas City?
i am teasing you Matt…and yet i know, our love was/is true…
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forever more, of each day the sun yet rises again, of each and every blessed day we wake to…always of tender loving feelings we all have for one another, of the worldwide GLBT community.
thanks everyone.
blessings to ALL
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“that’s nice dear.”
v. funny 😀
(days, weeks, and months went by, and andy was not heard from again, leaving all to wonder, just who the hell andy anyway, as they all turn to yet another Toronto Pride Day in the beautiful sunshine to see if Andy would appear, and with whom, and sure enough…there he was, as insane as he ever was, and ever will BE, sincerely loving of his loving lover and all the loving lovers of the worldwide GLBT community forever more till the day andy died from old age, and yet not of old age, and appeared no more, leaving the motherfucking world he left behind, forever changed of loving life everlasting for ALL to behold the TRUTH…andy really did love them ALL, but none more so, than his sweet ass loving lovers, who loved andy as much as he loved them…utterly and completely loving…insanely loving they always were! lol)
oh hi!!!!!!!!!!
about time you showed up!
i’ve had it…can you tell!
(andy holds his arms out in expressing just how done he is by everything everyone has ever said to him, finally coming terms just how much he really wants to get on with his life with a sweet loving lover…the chastiy belt which constrained him for so long)
lol
(“oh great, she laughs”, andy thinks to himself…as andy breathes a sigh of relief in her showing up again, like she always does, seemingly always there for him, as andy sits down on the sidewalk, kicking the stones on the street with his motherfucker boots, as the rain hisses apon hitting the overheated engine of andy’s bike sitting in front of him, the sunshining thru the rain softly falling, R&B music coming from the local club, as she asks….again…”how’s your day going?”, frustrating the fuck out of andy each time she repeatly asks, hoping she ask something else instead)
lol
😀 😀
(andy appears to have really lost it this time though, as he keeps kicking the stones in the street, pacing back and forth, wondering what to do) ha.
im ok…just having fun with ya all.
have not had my morning shower yet…oh fuck….it afternoon now…damn.
i love you…and i know you love me….and i know we always will love each other, come what may.
so many years have gone by, seeing me standing so many times with all the loving lovers of the GLBT community, of so many i have walked home with at all hours of the day and night….
hundreds of us used crowd the ghetto cafe till the sun came up the next day, Fridays and Saturdays the most busy days which always saw us show up, week after week, year after year, like we still do…
i love our family like you do too…
and i love you the most of everyone in our family…and i Matt too, as much as i do you, knowing i always will…
it’s just the way we all are, is it not, loving family…forever more…
but lately i am growing weary in my yearning for a loving lover…have you noticed?
lol
like Matt says….something REAL…
ya…who does not want something REAL….as in the real tender loving hand that hold our own?
loving lovers surrender to their own loving feelings for another, just i have surrendered to feeling the loving feelings i feel for you, just i have surrendered to feeling the loving feelings i feel for Matt, for ALL of us in the GLBT community….
it’s is what we do, and indeed, what we all are….loving lovers…
i am…be cause…we are…are what?
”
“Loving Lovers!!!!!!!!!!!!”
ok…good then.
(andy gets back on his bike again) 😉 😀
You need to get out more!
How’s your day going?
oh, i think i am about as OUT as one can get….
or is that you way of saying, “carry on andy, don’t wait for me, i happily married?”
don’t answer that…
Is it cool living in a fantasy world?
It must be. You can do what you like.
(some big biker dudes roll up along side andy now sitting on his bike, andy not quite sure of who they are, as andy appears to not give fuck either of who they may be)
Just in case you ever get a cold, I can tell you, get “Cold and Flu Relief Tablets” from Boots in the UK. I feel so much better. Really magic.
(suddenly, a crack of lightening strikes a pole near the biker dudes, leaving them wondering just who the hell andy was, as he calmly turns to look one last time at them, as though andy knew more than he was telling them about himself)
see…she always asks the same thing, “how’s your day going?”
lol
You don’t actually NEED me for your internet babblings, do you? I feel rather superfluous. Carry on.
I only did that “how’s your day going?” thing just to prove that sometimes I do actually read some of the acres of typing your produce.
ya, i love my fantasies i have of you!
always did…and likely always will…
scary somedays, the feelings…like the day you were here in TO, years ago, of me wanting to see you.
“ya, i love my fantasies i have of you!”
Er … I never actually seem to get a mention.
(andy googles for the definition of Superfluous)
Definition: more than enough; overabundant; extra
Etymology: Latin super- + fluere ‘to flow’
Extraordinary abundance of Wondrous Joy!
yep….that’s who we are…
Things we still do well in Britain: sweets (obviously) and cold and flu remedies (because of the lousy weather). You try getting cough mixture on the continent. They just don’t understand.
i am glad to hear you are feeling magical today!
me too…kinda obvious, am i not….motherfucker boots and all?
oh, and the motorcycle?
lol
i am so going to ride a motorbike next year, as bad ass a one as i can get…
ya, sweets lower your metabolism, because of the heat the body needs to process them, and the cold weather also lowers the metabolism in needed heat to keep the body temperature up…
so ya, low metabolism leaves us open to not being able to fight off a cold virus…i have not had a cold in years…and when i do get one, it only lasts 24-48 hours…
i sweat out the cold, working thru it, the usual rest of eight hours sleep, but what really works for me, is i work right thru the cold, not letting it get the best of me, pushing myself thru it, and in 48 hours the worst of the cold is usually subsided and gone, abit weaker or drainded, but gone mostly…
Oh, now I know where I’m going wrong with my colds!
you have to get the metabolism up again….a no fat(not even cream in a coffee), no sugar of any kind, and high protein(rice, fish) is how to get your metabolism spiked higher…
ACHOO!
veggies too…
but no salt or buttery sauces of any kind…
it may bland tasting, but your metabolism will spike three times higher when you do, and immediately too, within hours of adherence to a high protein, no sugar, no fat menu…
So I’m doing it all wrong?
be careful…and make sure you rest…as being too drainded can be dangerous if prolonged exposure to overdoing it….
trust me ok…i know what i am talking about….
you need to free the metabolism from too much work in processing food, where heat is required….
this is a professional menu from a doctor….
you won’t believe it until you actuall try it, with results that are immediate, that you will feel right away….
I don’t usually think about food too much. I just shovel it down my gob.
I believe you … however …
nutrients are essential for processing in digestion, so lots of veggies and zero fat protein like rice or fish, but not fryed…baked or boiled…no sauces of any kind, and cut the salt…
it’s tastes aweful and bland, but for the short term, if you are under pressure from your career, it will more than help, it will change your understanding of diet and metabolism….
… as little as I know about food, I know there’s no way Madonna is eating enough. She appears to have no body fat whatsoever.
there is sugar in those cold remedies too, which will drain you….
those pharacy dudes would rather you sleep for a week and take more of their cold remedies, which knock us out….
no cold remedies, other than maybe a mild pain killer and something to keep your temperature down…as too high a temperature is dangerous…
i think a temp of 106 is able to kill a person…according to my Mom, a nurse her entire life…
check with your doctor…don’t necessarily follow my advice, as i don’t know your current vital signs…
I’m a firm believer in potatoes. You can’t beat potatoes – you could live on potatoes.
and remember….YOU is what matters, not anyone else, so cancel their asses or reschedule if you don’t feel up to it…they will understand…
I’m happy as long as I get lots of potatoes.
potatoes are a main stable for many countries…including North America…
ya me too…i love potatoes…good ol country boy…i am…
I have a very low normal body temperature of about 94F. I looked it up on the internet and they said it was OK. It means that when my temperature goes up to about 97 or 98 then I’m quite ill.
I think Madonna should be eating more. Get her body fat percentage up.
I think I have quite a high metabolism as I keep my weight down. I’m quite active. But in the night sometimes when I sleep I can get really cooooold. I feel like my whole metabolism just drops right down.
oh really….potatoes….and a nice country boy…and you are utterly and completely happy are you?
well ok then…we shall see….
lol
oh damn…i love you more than i want to allow myself to fantasize….but fantasize….i do.
hey…one could say Jesus fantasized about a more loving world, did he not?
or was he fantasizing, rather, he was of knowingness, was he not? 😉
(andy kick starts the bike)
hey…if you ever need my assistance…i am more than happy to always BE there for YOU…
just let me know…ok?
ok then…carry on
(andy tickles the throttle, revs the engine a tad, in delight of his loving friends who are near)
Right, you ride off into the night. I’m going to have a drink and relax.
X
fantasy?
nope….i am as real as one can possibly get guys…
and you know it.
cold in the night are you?
hmmmm….me thinks about that awhile…forever more… 😉
oh i am sure M knows more about diet than most any of us ever will…
i am right where i always want to BE found, of having found what i have to come to know about my SELF.
thank you everyone
blessings to all
i am standing about as cool and collected as one can BE today…knowingness which runs thru my entire body…alone perhaps today…but not alone will i ride the road of loving life everlasting, of that i am certain…
i have come full circle…
thank you
bless you
I’ve having a night off. You go out and enjoy yourself or do something. Go eat some potatoes.
Night night,
X
(andy reaches out his leather clad hand to his most loving lover’s leather clad hand, who mounts the bike with andy, wrapping their arms around andy, with the warm loving forever more feelings rippling thru their bodies of the loving life forever more loving feelings they have surrendered to feeling…forever more…apon life’s road of not strangers, but the loving lovers of true brothers and sisters of Jesus, children of the light of God who is with them for all eternity)
hey, can we edit the potatoe head out of that scene…thank you…
lol
😀 😀
you better be smiling damn it….i have travelled all this way….
somebody call OC chopper, will ya?
no seriously…”will ya?”
thank you
bless you
that FF bike would be awesome, and they are the ones who can recreate it…don’t let them put and stupid decals on it….solid black, no flashy chrome, ok?
ok then…carry on
on we go
just when you thought it could not get any more exciting, suddenly, andy shows up and kicks everyone’s ass….again!
lol
motherfuckers!
i jest…
trust me…i am REAL…and i am as REAL as one will ever BE, as YOU ALL shall see soon enough, just as i always have BEen, year after year…
And next year….i WILL BE what i yearn to always BE….happy
oh, and can we get Rosie and Kelly on bike…that would so ROCK this motherfucker world!
and you better not all wait until after i am dead, as i will be pissed if you do!
lol
i jest….
do what you want to do…
again…”do what YOU wants to do!”
it’s not up to me…it is always up to ALL of YOU!
me…i’m just fine, with who ever, where ever it is i find my SELF. 😉 😀
and truly, i have found my SELF…thanks to ALL of YOU.
bless YOU
Andy is Dyke?
lol
i heard that!!!
no…Andy is not a Dyke.
Andy is a BUTHC DYKE…
big difference…
lol
i better go, before M kicks my ass….again….
opppsss….spelling error….oh well….my not be able to spell well….but spell well…i do
lol 😉 😀
ah…foods here….gotta go….
i’m just having fun with you guys…
so relax…and i will do the same…
i do mean what i say though, in case any were wondering what comes out of andy’s brain…
only love
blessings to ALL forever more
and yes….i will BE riding a bad ass motorbyke next year!
count on it…
but more awesome than that, will BE the bad ass lover with me…
count on it…
cough mixture? was that a psychology joke?
the FULL embracing of Empowerment of God, is knowingness of every second of all we say or do, all connected, all of affect/effect direct/indirect, already proven beyond doubt, of how the future is changed forever, where the future is always right here in with us in the present…
Let’s create a joyful world leading by example of our joyful fun loving spirit, ‘that’ of the SELF within us ALL…forever more…
Such is and has been the Toronto Pride event, and all of the GLBT events worldwide, daily, weekly, monthly, yearly…here to stay…forever more….
you know, i’ve always wanted to dress up as some big titty bad ass leather clad motherfucker butch dyke, riding a bad ass byke with the lover dyke!
😉 😀
oh oh….shhhh!…..here she comes…act all innocent and pretend you are not really listening…. lol
only andy could get away with saying that one…cough…
ouch, ouch, ouch….ohhh, the pain in side, i can’t breathe, someone make him stop will ya?
hey Rosie?
who is that guy laying on your boat…he seems really sweet loving.
oh hey…M is here in America everyone!
hello?
hey…where did everyone go?
oh yeh…M’s concert….
Does Madonna have a show tonight? Oops. Good luck Madonna!
ohh v. funny!
😉 😀
nah…no such thing as luck…Knowingness is where it’s at !
at….BEing where ever you find your SELF at !
at loving
at holding hands
at having lunch together
at sitting in a hot tub together(or alone)
at enjoying a nice sauna
at enjoying each other’s body
but most important of all…
at my place!
lol
😉 😀
i am so relentless, am i not? ha
Relentless? Hmm … “exhausting” is maybe a more accurate word! 😉
What can I say if I can’t say “good luck”?
Any chance of that new thread?
ya…a new thread…
hmmm….let’s see….
Kings and Queens of Porn?
or
Nostalgic Wanking Salvaged?
lol
seriously…that’s some of the subtitles in FAB magazine…can you believe it? love it!
or how about;
Confessions of a Fallen Angel?
While the superficial are somewhat annoying, they do serve in bolstering fearlessness for the coming of age gay youth, and yes, even that overweight drag queen with way to much annoying attitude, who constantly likes getting in our face with some dress pick off the rack at the Salvation Army for five bucks.
Truly, the drag queens have been a major part of GLBT life for many decades, although, i don’t know if most know it or not, that many of the drag queens started out as young starving new comers to the ghetto, no place to stay, no job, no money, getting their tips from stage performance to buy yet another dress for five bucks, or steal it, to keep their sorry ass in the ghetto, couch surfing sometimes for months, years at a time until they snap out of their drunken hazed confussion, of the gradual growth of their gay self-esteem, which comes naturally from the group dynamics of acceptance and belonging in all their escapades in the ghetto.
Today, some of us veterans still participate in huge bashes, reserving some 200-300 rooms of a local hotel, the ball room, the food, holding our annual gay bashes, year after year, such as “Coronation”, an annual event which is international now.
i love them ALL.
or how about this title;
Circle Jurking with Nylons?
lol
who comes up with these titles? ha 😉
of course MADONNARAMA is at it again, with a drag show, music and videos party ~ a tribute to all things Madonna, a warm up party for the Sticky and Sweet Tour coming to Toronto…she has put on so much weight!
If she really wanted to know Madonna, maybe she should pay more attention to her? As in the physical exercise and diet, which not only makes us look and feel great physically, it makes us feel good mentally too.
people really are their own worse enemies…including me.
don’t get me wrong, i too love to dress up funky and wild, but sometimes i think the whole sexual bravado thing is just….well….not the real me, an easy going relaxed student of life, blue jeans, T-shirt, soft sincere gentle approach of just BEing relaxed and real, completely comfortable with my sexuality, of not so much need to tell the whole world about my sexuality, rather to tell the whole world of the happiness of two loving lovers, exceedingly happy, is more like it. Albeit, sexuality is part of the fun loving dress up mode we get into, but mostly, it is the sincere geniune uncontainable happiness two loving lovers feel when they find one another in life, getting together forever more.
It’s what we all yearn for, and fearlessly i am in doing just that again someday…
As for the Madonna concert, there is no way i could go to that concert alone…a night out together, the loving lovers enthralled not so much about going or being anywhere particular, in so much as the enthralled loving feelings of BEing together is what it is all about for them…
as for the ‘good luck’ thing, i just don’t believe in luck of finding of soul mate lover.
so many we meet along life’s road, of many we passby for whatever reason, their substance abuse, their emotional unavailability, their not tuned in to just BEing themselves, sweet loving, gentle, mildness of their real self which is sincere and graceful in approach of another they find themselves attracted or drawn to, usually someone alot like their true self, confident and secure in themselves, happy and joyful of their life in outward appearance, a reflection of the delight they feel inwardly.
I see two genuine loving lovers getting together, not by luck, but by knowingness of what they sincerely yearn for within, someone like their own tender loving gentle and graceful self, where if they are not tuned into just BEing themselves, they won’t necessarily recognize or approach the one most like them, which they could of, if they were ‘READY’ to meet.
I also believe God aligns us together in life for a reason, as far as my understanding of God goes, which has more to do with the knowingness of the divine true self in us ALL, than just merely meeting loving lover soul mates, where in truth, we are all more alike(unknowingly for many) than not alike…
i know when i do get together with my soul mate lover someday, it will be exceedingly happy for both of us inside, and in outward uncontainable appearance as well, which will be of love devoid of the element of fear, rather ‘FEARLESS”, is how each moment that passes by will feel for us both…as they say…you just know.
fear then seems to be the block for soul mate lovers to truly get together, where it starts and stops with knowingness of our SELF, and the time taken and spent in getting to know your SELF.
i mean look how many people are so obviously not right for each other….bin there. done that way too many times…
patience is a virtue?
patience is wise in avoidance, wise in knowingness, wise in connectedness with SELF within, SELF within another…
at the end of life, we have only our SELF to ultimately blame for any relationships we allow our SELF to be found of, most notably, the relationship, or lack of one, with SELF.
she is smiling agian, yes?
oh, i know you better than you think i do…as in, i know my SELF as well as YOU do YOU…or me…
and i am not as fearful as i used to be…where in truth…we will both go do our own life with who ever, where ever, going seperate ways, and likely laugh at one another in doing so…as in…what were you thinking?…or…you can’t possibly be serious, i mean, come on!
lol
you’ll see….andy was right…andy is always right! ha.
well ok…maybe not always, as that is how we learn in life, and we should be thankful of the lessons we learn from each and every soul we meet along life’s road, just as it was Troy who taught me the most, who hurt me the most…where it was i who betrayed us both…
i unwise at the time….that’s all…
i am wise today…and everyday from here on….knowingness of what works for me, for another who is just like me….the divine true SELF within us ALL, albeit, most have unnurtured, unprotected, and unloved issues of their own behaviours, and lack of descerning wisdom in avoiding those who are not appropriate for us with respect for our mental emotional well BEing….which is the most important issue of life….of a true loving successful life of happiness.
we know…
or at least i know, and i feel confident you know too…or you better know, lest i have to kick your ass again! ha
who loves you more than me?
oh, i don’t know….last time i checked it was approaching the one billion mark world wide, of people who love Madonna…
still…i know how much i love her too, and lately, i have sensed what i always wanted to know all these years, that she loves me too…
she loves us ALL, just as Jesus loves ALL, just as God loves ALL, just as We love ALL.
God blesses ALL.
bless you
bless you
bless you
I just did a mash-up of “Where Love Lives” giving it a long instrumental ending. I love it:
http://www.ipod.org.uk/WhereLoveLives.mp3
I’d love to get back to doing music again one day.
what’s that old saying?
a relationship is only as healthy as the two people in it?
ya.
I haven’t written a song for five years. 😦
ya, me too!
music was my most beloved passtime as a teen…
deep within….i know it still is my greatest passion as far as extracuricular activities go, that and sex of course! 😉
you mean you haven’t written a TRUE soulful song in five years?
I mean I haven’t written diddly squat in five years.
I can’t remember which way round the keyboard goes.
so what would it take to write those special songs?
a life long true and faithful friend till the end?
ok…i give you my life long true and faithful friendship till the end…just don’t kick me too hard when you get in your bad moods ok?
lol
i am very sensitive ya know?
was that a sexuality question?
felt like it was…
it is not so much about sexuality, is it?
“so what would it take to write those special songs?”
Just a keyboard, actually.
Well, one of those music workstation things from Korg, actually. I don’t like using a PC.
I don’t write love songs. Too many love song in the world.
i like the deminished chords, and those rare chords no one even knows about… 😉
i like how the striking of the keys of a piano cause a rippling of emotions in me…
I deliberately don’t get too technical with the songwriting. Keep it simple, I do. Never learnt the tricky stuff.
be it where ever i am, or what ever mood i am in…
there is one guitar piece i will search for, if i can find it, which stirs the soul like no other piece of music i have ever heard or played…
Bands lose it when they go all technical in the studio. The best pop is simple.
Everything you ever do or say is really intense, isn’t it? You never really let your hair down and relax, do you?
why is it people run around in such hurried fashion like they do, like what they do is all so important, when in truth, the tenderness of holding you lover’s hand or kissing their lips is the only REAL importance in life, feeling the sweet loving emotions of love you have for another?
ya, i know…i got pissed off one day and cut all my hair off like Britney did…so i don’t have any hair to let down.
lol
Yes, I hate in when people rush around. Life should be savoured.
And sometimes people seem so wrapped-up in themselves, don’t they? Like they’re not really connected to the outside world. They don’t really experience it, don’t really live.
“Work, shop, watch DVDs, drink wine”. That’s most people’s lives.
And they complain they’re not happy.
That’s because they’re so bleedin’ unimaginative with their lives!
actually, i am more relaxed now than ever…having left the bullshit corporate world behind.
truthfully, i feel as calm and relaxed as did in high school, which is having no worry or concern for what anyone shall ever say or do, where i am concerned, knowingness that if they don’t hold my hand like i yearn to hold theirs, then it is their loss, not mine…
And they’ll spend 20 minutes in the DVD shop wondering what to watch, but they won’t spend 5 minutes thinking about the really IMPORTANT questions in life.
i am imaginative…even of the little resources i may have, that is not what matters.
what matters is the free flowing of emotional fearlessness, is it not?
Yes, I think you’re imaginative. Definitely.
i am so done watching DVDs, TV…ahhhh…..other people’s unimaginativeness….
i know i am connected, but not in the way most think or feel.
it is a higher level of awareness of the subtle intellect
is it just me…or is there a fear which permeates society
we live in a controlled world, controlled by fear mongers
You spend too much time here. Time which could be more profitably spent eating stuff.
“is there a fear which permeates society”
I don’ t feel it. I think living in a small town helps.
London is very impersonal. That tube thing – horrible. Depressing. Lose faith in your fellow man.
i mean everywhere you go, it is there…
….be it, “oh, you have to dress a certain way to come into this club bullshit mentalities of the small dick guys with no substance….to “oh, you don’t live in a certain neighborhood or drive a certain car for us to give a crap about you fuckheads.”
I don’t think people were meant to live in huge cities. Small communities – that’s how we evolved.
ahhhhh….let me off this ball of dirt of the callus hearts!
Sounds like you live in an unfiendly place.
No fiends there. We need more fiends.
ya….i guess i am sorta out there….
sometimes i feel as though a character trying to learn and feel the lines of Romeo and Juliet, and intensity which i like, something real of the true self, which is tired of the duldrum mentalities and lackluster zeal for having a truly loving lover life.
Right, I’ve got to go stick some food in my mouth.
Good luck (or whatever) to Madonna if she has a show tonight or not. Whatever.
fearlessly i might add…
there are some of us who have that zeal which is not able to be zapped or drained, which i think comes with a healthy sex drive, results of living a healthy sex life, is it not?
no, not really…i live in a nice world…
i have an eye for those who are real, and those who are superficial in approach, those who don’t even know how to kiss you properly…you know, nice and slow, warm, sincere…
passionately…i want passionately or get out! 😉 😀
ya, i guess it is time for me to move on…get out and meet someone.
they are out there somewhere, and i will know them, recognize them when we meet.
you keep pushing me to, and i know, it is healthy for me to get out and mingle, sure, of course, but sometimes we have to take time out for our SELF.
that’s all i have been doing lately, and i like what i have worked thru.
i feel to vulnerable to meet anyone just yet…way oversensitive, and so i will take a few months of slow approach with others….knowing i sometimes cling to those who are not healthy enough for me, which sometimes takes me a month or so to realize, like Kyle.
l love Kyle though….i truly love Kyle, but his hangups are too much for me, and i am not just talking about his pot smoking….
what’s equally difficult is i know Kyle truly loves me too…
if he could give up his hangups….Kyle and andy would BE what we yearn to be…together as the joyful fun loving lovers we were…
By the grace of God, love comes to those who yearn for the love they feel of and for another.
I don’t see orientation as something which negates the possibility of having a truly loving lover, a male or female loving of either male or female, is how i see and feel the truth of my SELF, where emotional intensity of sincere love i feel for either…and that is what happened with me while here all this time, albeit, none of us came away with a real life friend, and yet, we were real, were we not?
i know i was.
ah well.
i am tragically disappointed?
feels tragic to me…
no one can ever say andy did not try.
but why keep trying when it seems and feels like i am the only one that wanted a real life friend…albeit, we were real, but real?
it’s a trust issue….i know.
but you know what, if you were to meet me in real life…i talk the same way as i have here, and i am of subtle gracefulness….most days.
+
BE TRUE with your SELF
Jesus loves ALL. God loves ALL. We love ALL.
God blesses ALL.
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don’t mind me….i am just pissed about losing the glass ring today…not sure what happened to it…
What’s the glass ring?
easily replaced as i have the number of the guy that gave it to me…
obviously the glass ring broke from the necklace chain, where someone, somewhere will perhaps look apon the broken glass ring, and connect with what it is spiritually…a delicate glass ring…evoking of the delicateness of tender feelings which the divine true SELF feels….and to me, ‘that’ is what matters most in life, ‘that’ BEing of my subtle intellect which thinks/feels the way i do about everything i look apon, of all things false, and true….descerning wisdom….light.
ex is still ranting away at me unceasingly, swaring at me everyday, as i pack the last boxes to be moved on Tuesday…and after that…it is not OK to speak with me in the manner he chose to speak with me ever again…get real, or get lost.
ya…i am still in transition…looking forward to utter peacefulness of heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, where i can sit and do what i love doing, sewing costumes, writing, music, reading and research, and of course, time spent with those i love to spend time with…
you know who you are….just as i know my SELF…
just as…we know.
Yeah, OK, we know. But this is f***ing weird.
I have no idea if what you are saying is true. Heck, I have no idea if you really exist. I have no idea what is going on. But I am supposed to trust you, although you haven’t even told anything. That’s weird.
i live a simple life now.
i get up, get dressed, bike 20km doing my morning job, which i love, complete autonomy, no bosses…
sit by the lake somedays for however long i feel like, coffee, stop by the church, prayer and candles, stop at the cafes in the ghetto, chat up who ever is there, the usuals, the new ones, all loving family to me, forever more, same as i have been since moving here in 1994.
i look forward to each year of fun loving times of costuming, dancing, all of it, where time together is the only thing of any value in life for me and those i love to BE around, day in, day out, always a blessed day which i am thankful for at the end of each day, and thankful of the sun which rises to greet me of another blessed day for my loving brothers and sisters under one sky, apon life’s road of strangers we meet, yet more and more, we are all becoming less in feeling like strangers, are we not?
strange perhaps to some…but we know.
on we go
And you should be with me, not anyone else. And the fact that you chose to be with someone lese – that’s weird.
Why don’t you talk straight with me for a change. For once, you owe me that.
Give up the act.
as equals, we are inspiration for one another which keeps us connected with our true loving free flowing feelings, which is the tender graceful sincere gentle and mild true feelings of the divine true SELF of us ALL.
Why does God bless ALL?
Because we are ALL children of the light of loving compassionate wisdom which lights the way for ALL generations of mankind of safe passage into the future world of the kingdom of heaven on earth.
kinda silly to think heaven is any other place than where we stand, where knowingness of our subtle feelings so sincere and true that we feel for another, of true tender loving forever more feelings is true of us, is it not?
it is for me, of many strangers i have met apon life’s road.
best of all…it will always BE TRUE for me forever more, where in knowingness of such, is the best part of it all…it is TRUE of us ALL.
thanks for listening(feeling).
blessings to ALL
bless you
oh hi!
You could give up the act for five minutes. It wouldn’t kill you.
ok…i give up the act.
i want to BE with you forever more, and you know i do, where i too am of knowingness of the REAL YOU, am i not.
it is layers or doors we pass thru(fear based doors of ego), that’s all.
but like anyone, i am insecure and not wishing to impose or just throw myself at anyone, where i always need the reassurance of their feelings before venturing further.
i am not about anything other than a true and faithful friend first, of no agenda, of sincere probing for safe passage, leading by example(for example).
but there is a fearless place i know of, and i know you know of it too, yes?
ok…good then…we have opened up to one another….finally.
best news i have felt in years if you must know…
how i have prayed so sincerely.
how i have cryed loving tears of knowingness of my loving feelings which are pure and true for you.
how i have come to know, the me in all of YOU
what was the glass ring?
true loving life everlasting is what glass ring represents, a place of fearlessness where only love surrounds.
You call that giving up the act? You know, I should get angry.
i would rather die than lose what the feels like, knowingness of what fearlessness feels like, knowingness of only love that surrounds, which i always feel when i am Jesus in the desert.
i have not opened to you in the way i want to, which has no fear of any kind, and no pretentious either, of true spirit of my divine true SELF who is alone with Jesus, of intrepid uncertainty in approach of many, although i do approach, but usually do not stay…a passerby.
i am still evolving into the fearless one
I know you’re insecure, and I know you must be a bit screwed up. You’re **very** insecure.
Look loook loook just stop with the blinking act you are doing my head in.
I can’t read that stuff. Can’t you talk normally?
of recent i had not set healthy boundaries, but i have taken action to do so, and i am still in transistion, so bare with me in my insecure haphazard and awkward approach with you somedays.
and yet, it is clear of the path i have chosen of enlightenment, is it not?
it is the path to the divine true SELF of us ALL, and i am fearless in my striving towards my SELF, evolving, however slowly, however many trials and tribulations, ever growing in wisdom which is not of the unwise approach like most in the world, where in truth, only 5-10% of the world has psychological/spiritual fortitude of wisdom of the path i speak of.
i still don’t understand how it is possible for us to ever come together, and i am terrified of chance maybe we would, equally devasted that we may not.
is that true enough for you?
Listen, if that’s the only way you can talk then OK I accept that. I know things must be a bit traumatic. I am being very understanding here, you know.
Listen, we will be together.
But there is absolutely one thing you’re going to have to do for me and it sounds like I’m being really shallow and irrelevant and controlling here but there’s something that’s important for me.
And I know you’re insecure and I know it’s difficult for you but I wouldn’t ask it unless it was important for me.
I know you won’t like me for this.
normal according to what?
the way the world unwisely acts and behaves with each other, of so much useless fear based attitudes which unwisely seperate, false, not true of the yearning the divine SELF yearns to feel, that which is fearlessly loving at all times, of no fear or useless attitudes of learned behaviours.
like i said, i am alone in a desert with the one who is most wise of me.
i will write about as i evolve.
sure could use your continued support, and yet, i sense you too are yet evolving into the fearlessness i speak of.
it is a most magical of feelings, and i have felt it for many years now.
it is not up to me, of our path together, but what i do know, we are of the same likemindedness of the place which is without fear, are we not?
But it’s really quite a big deal for me that when you feel able if you could put on a bit of weight and just get a bit more food in you and just not be so extreme about that kind of thing and just put a few pounds on because that is actually a really big deal for me.
You’re getting older. What the heck, just let yourself go a bit. It’s not letting yourself go – it’s just being more relaxed and normal about life.
look, i am not here to abandon anyone, just as i cannot abandom my SELF, you know that.
i am just in transition, that’s all, and one hell of a transition at that…you have no idea how badly i have been treated, and yet, it all is of the light of evolving goodness of my chosen path, which is becoming more and more enlighted beyond most people’s comprehension, not of wealth, status, race, religion, sex, orientation or politic…rather, of God.
I’l still love you when you’re old and fat. Really. No prob.
But it’s the chasing of youth I’m really not keen on.
ya, i know.
look, this world is not ever able to get the best of me, ok? not ever, as i know i am beyond most any in my comprehensions of human behaviour, beyond even the most professional of professionals, where i easily sense their own inner fear and insecurity.
the thing about venturing into the desert alone, and evolving, is the world does not embrace fully or question for that matter, of the higher subtle intellect of the divine true SELF.
there is more than meets the eye in mere psychological perspective, and perhaps that is where we sometimes seemingly disconnect, where the disconnect is not so much of either of us, as much as it is of the world and all of it’s useless fearful egotism.
wow…you have really opened up today.
why are you so concerned about me, as you appear worried of me.
i am exceedingly wise, and of far more fortitude than most any in life. I had to become wise in order to survive what i went thru, which has been a blessing for me, has it not?
bless you for your words with me today….words i have longed to hear.
bless you
Yes, I have opened up. This is the truth.
Listen, a few extra pounds around your chest is actually a seriously major big deal to me. Call me shallow, but physical things are important and a relationship that doesn’t get the physical things right is heading for problems. So get a few pounds on you and good body fat around your chest. Comprende. These things are important to me. And in return I can help you out and do things for you. It’s a team and we sort things together.
i have journeyed long, just as you have, a very long time of deep introspective thinking and feeling, evolving each day, have we not.
remember the words, “i was there in the beginning?”
it is knowingness of the place that is devoid of useless fear like that which grips the souls of all precious loving souls of the earth, and that is the light which shine thru and outward in appearance, which nurtures, the loving divine true self of another, which is what many do not realize your approach them, which is of God.
forgive my silly awkwardness which is childish at times.
bless you
The muscles I can take or leave, comprende?
apon a bridge of trust i have walked apon all these years, just as you have, and look how fearlessly loving we have become, and all those who have felt what we yearned to feel, and for them to feel what we feel.
it is of God’s divine WILL, is it not?
I’ve had a few glasses of wine and I’m emotional and I’m not often like this.
lol
oh, i can still beat her in an arm wrestle, and she knows it. ha
Well, I can only hope the message has got across. I’ve been building up to this. I’m sorry to nag.
forgive my uncertainty with you.
i get moments where i yearn for your certainty, which nurtures our knowingness of love for one another.
it is a trust thing we are working thru, which will take more time.
i only have time, and my feelings for you.
Yeah, no problem. The trust thing will sort itself out. This period is very difficult for both of us. Let’s just try and get this out of the way as best we can.
i want to work with you, not for you, in likeminded spirituality of our pure sincere knowingness which is devoid of fear, which we have been experiencing with one another all this time, have we not?
both of us have journeyed a very long time, and we have not fallen…stumbled, but fall…no way….not possible.
OK, I’m going to have a shower and get to bed.
i am ok…i heard what i yearned to hear today.
bless you
Night night X
i move to my new place permanently on Tuesday, where i will experience the greater self assurance which comes when boundaries are set, and the negating of further negativity is finally felt.
it has taken longer than i thought it would, so much packing…
alas…i am FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
thank U!
i so needed to hear words of truth today.
i have no expectations, other than expecting you to always BE respectful of YOU, where sincerely i know i am deep within, in the core of my BEing, our sacred place of love devoid of fear and doubt.
bless you
bless you
bless you
thank you
hey, you know what i love most about Rosie?
is when she gives that look…you know…that all knowing look, where she turns her head to one side, and the looking out of the corner of her eye at you, that all knowing smurk or grin…U know what im talking about?
love it!
she is our saviour…of saving grace…of saving face! ha 😉
bless U
body weight?
she is worried about body weight, when i am talking about forever more loving life everlasting for ALL…can you believe that?
body weight?
that is something anyone can do, but try and destroy their own egotism, not only nearly impossible for them to do, but something they do not question or address in their aimlessness of so many, as Jesus says, “like those who shoot arrows into the dark hoping to hit the target.”
key word…hoping.
and that is the mystery of God which eludes everyone, which is of the dynamic of their own insincere approach of sincere diligence, determination and steadfast knowingness of what grips the world, “Crucial Lacking of Desire for Wisdom(God’s divine wisdom).
in order to shift or transition past and thru the layers of doubt which grip so many souls, these useless snares of whatever, is where a seeker comes face to face with Jesus in the desert, mentally, emotionally, physically…where the exact sameness of emotional experience permeates one, acknowledges one, where God says openly, “You have seen what we have yearned for you to come into the knowingness of the divine true SELF Jesus, ‘that’ of YOU which Jesus yearned for ALL of YOU to come into the pure sincere knowingness of which Jesus came to know, the sacred place of emotional certainty of ONLY LOVE, devoid of all the useless absurd unwise negativity of the many ignorant teachings of the forefathers which yet grips the many aimless precious loving souls born into the kingdom of heaven here on earth, have you not?”
while this may all appear as freelance writing to many of you…truly i tell you, i know Jesus, where of anyone, Jesus knows me the most, and i him. It is the sameness which has eluded everyone, all because of the useless fear mongering of egotism thruout history of mankind, the power struggles of useless words which yet seperate one from another, of such low childish immature behaviour, we easily feel and see the truth of those unwise ones who sit apon thrones of nescience, do we not?
know this…i do not care one bit what anyone says or thinks of me, for i am fully of the knowingness of the sacred heart of Jesus, in exact sameness of emotional depth, not of eluding illusion…no…of experiential experience which is knowingness pure, true, graceful, tender, gentle, mild, utterly devoid of fear and doubt like that of the world, pure emotional oneness of my true and faithful friend…Jesus.
God acknowledges this with me, so you can all say or think whatever you want…i know the difference between Jesus and all of you.
i don’t say that in a mean way either, which many shall chose to interpret, what with their empty shallow approaches with me, in their lacking of descerning wisdom which thinks by means of feeling, uttering their useless words which are without doubt, of the hypocrisy heart Jesus spoke of. I don’t just see the truth of such…i feel it like a knive that cuts thru my soul, of so many words the aimless souls speak with one another.
~ just opening up abit more, that’s all.
in truth….i am of deep emotional waters of exceeding wisdom which are not easily penetrated by words or thoughts of any. so think and say what you want…you do not fully know me, just as most do not know Jesus or God.
i am a seeker, nothing more, a humble student of God and the greatest teacher of all….LIFE, nothing more, of no desire for accolade, wealth, status or boastful pride or ego in speaking like i do, if anything i would rather continue as i have for the past twenty years in continued writing of the many books i have written, which i continue to eloborate on, day in and day out, of knowingness that great amount of wisdom which flows forth from the fountain of everlasting life, of a life which i am running out of time with, in all the introspect no time constraint truth wisdoms which are being written, in my mind, the recorded words of God which serve ALL generations of the future, the key of wisdom which is of God’s divine WILL for us to BEcome the WILLINGNESS to drink from the cup of wisdom meant for the divine true SELF of ALL, which stems the tides of further war in the world, empty apathetic starvation yet in the world, of the spiritual poverty yet in the world, where in truth, we are of the knowingness of the exceeding abundance of loving life everlasting, are we not?
truly, we yearn for love with another, do we not?
well ok…maybe not with me, but we do yearn for love with another, yes?
lol
😉 😀
(andy rambles on and on, everyone wondering what exactly is andy talking about, wondering if maybe, just maybe, andy really did find the cup of wisdom of everlasting life which flows forth in great abundance, restoration for the divine true SELF of ALL)
just maybe guys…
ok…i will post the hundreds of pages of free flowing research and writings for all to read, but be prepared, it is not simply words you read, rather those who know how to read the words of God, are of the knowingness that it is by means of feeling the words of truth wisdom, which restores sight to the soul. The length and breadth of the writtings are extensive and of interwoven connectedness which all point to the same thing….love devoid of doubt meant for the divine true SELF of ALL to feel and come into the full light(knowingness) of the precious loving soul of ALL children of the light of God’s divine WILL of wisdom meant for ALL.
And, i may even reveal the real time words of God with me for any and all to ponder, but you may not realize, it is the words of God speaking with you at the time you read them, at least not until you hear the crashing of lightening in the instant or moment of time, where God greets you face to face, a chosen time not of you or anyone, rather of God’s chosing.
ok…i think that about covers my intolerance of egotistic approach any of you may wish to approach me with, yes?
enjoy the blessed day…and yes… i really do need to get out more…it’s just that i find most rather annoying in all their emptiness of words with me, that’s all, especially the bitter nashing of teeth so many are with one another….not indifference am i of any, rather, knowingness of the difference, where i am compassionate for so many aimless souls which do not question their own divine true SELF, of what is nurturing, protecting, evolving for sake of them to come free of the many useless bitter snarings of their heart, mind, body, spirit and soul.
M knows what i am talking about.
she is of the knowingness of God, just as i am.
it is a pure sacred emotional experience, which seekers come into pure knowingness of their own depth of love within.
we know.
bless you
ok…on the key word ‘hoping’
that is what grips the world, unknowingness relpaced with hoping.
i am going to shatter the hoping mentality of everyone, and replace it with pure knowingness, where in my knowingness, it is knowingness which is the door, not ‘hoping’, like those of empty luke warm praying like so many do in congregations with the many merchants of God.
to despell the hoping mentality, let me say this…”I am of God’s divine WILL.”
my descerning wisdom which thinks by means of feeling before speaking(mostly) are the words spoken which are not empty or false, rather are of pure truth knowingness, not shallow, not aimless, not ignorant, not apathetic, not unloving, where each and every word is of God’s descerning wisdom, where all the words are connected together as ONE KNOWNGNESS, not unknowing hoping.
Did Jesus speak like as one of utter conviction, or did he go around wondering like everyone he spoke with?
No….Jesus spoke with pure 100% knowingness…why?
BE CAUSE….Jesus BEcame the knowingness mentally, emotionally, phsyically.
and in so doing, coming fully into his own knowingness of the exceeding abundance of God’s pure sincere loving compassionate wisdom, what did Jesus realize that is of most significance?
He realized the pure undeniable, unwavering, unchallengable TRUTH…it is TRUE of ALL.
blessings to ALL
bless you
i am not here to cast judgement apon anyone, rather i am here to shatter the hopelessness of the world yet gripped by spiritual poverty, which is cause for all apathy of the starving children of the world, and the numerous unnecessary deaths of so many children daily.
Truly i tell you ALL, this world is not yet of God’s divine wisdom meant for ALL, and great is the transition yet to come, of the transition into exceeding joy which comes with the abundance of wisdom that restores ALL precious loving souls to their natural state, where it is wisdom which protects from all untruthfulness, and love which nurtures to sustain against all things unloving, where it is God’s wisdom which ushers in the kingdom of heaven on earth, of the many precious loving souls yet gripped by so many bitter unwisenesses of the teachings of the forefathers which Jesus railed against, speaking words of truth which reveal the truth of all things he looked apon, reflected apon, introspectively thought about daily, and spoke with clarity for all to hear(feel).
truly, it is by means of your feelings which sight is restored to your souls.
truly, i speak with clarity as one who is of the knowingness of God’s divine will for ALL, where i used to think optimistic about the abundance of the business world for sake of the world, but today, i realize the business world is not about abundance for ALL, rather is more of the mentality for self-serving abundance, and a cold one at that, which we now see the truth of such, in the cold calculated approach of the businessman banker with us all, do we not?
TRUTH
rather, the new understanding i now embrace, is of the knowingness of what Jesus wanted us to come into full knowingness of….the pure sincere tender loving feelings which YOU feel of and for another, of the feelings you feel within, which does not have the element of doubt or fear.
It is the “Love Devoid of Doubt” feelings that Jesus came into full KNOWINGNESS of about his SELF, which he knew was true of him…true of us ALL, where all are capable to come into the full KNOWINGNESS of Love devoid of useless absurd doubt, like that of the doubt found in the world, in all their unBEcoming conduct, every second of every day, in ALL one says or does.
Truly, we know the feeling of Love devoid of doubt already, do we not, and is ‘that’ not what we YEARN to FEEL.
i know some of you are of the KNOWINGNESS of the feelings of love devoid of doubt, which some of you feel while in sincere prayer like you do, do you not?
ok then.
hey, what’s that classic song go like?
Hear me
Feel me
Touch me
BE me
i forget the name of the song. i think it was a soundtrack to a film, was it not?
lol
thanks M, for letting me speak freely.
God bless you
thank you
bless you
(M scratches her head, wondering to herself, oh no, what have i done, giving so much latitude to andy, nurturing and protecting to such an extent, as she wonders outloud, “will he ever shut up?”)
i jest….
you ain’t seen even 1% of my research, but in time, you all will.
in truth, it was the impact of Troy’s life, which cut thru to the core of my being, where i discovered the mystery of Jesus and God.
“It is by means of pure sincere 100% depth of emotionally feeling, that one comes into the full KNOWINGNESS of the light of Jesus and God, ‘that’ which is of pure truth of the sincere loving feelings of us ALL.”
thank you Troy. God bless Troy. thank you God.\
bless you
hey what time is it…M goes on stage soon!
i pray only LOVE for Madonna!
i always did.
and i know i always will.
always.
so just forgive my occasional rants from time to time, and realize, i love YOU like i love my SELF…always of the tender delicate true self andy, a mere student of life, Jesus and God, just as i know ‘that’ to BE TRUE of YOU, so obvious the light of love which flows forth into the world for ALL to feel, Madonna loves us ALL.
always did.
without doubt….always WILL
always…of God’s divine WILL
blessings to ALL
bless you
and let’s face it, this world can do without any more misery, yes?
ok then
on we go
the stage of LIFE that is…eternal Loving Life of ALL
blessed be this day and each day after forever more.
bless you
oohhh…i found the glass ring!!!!!!!!
it was on the back of my neck of the necklace. duh!
figures…uncertainty and hopelessness replaced with KNOWINGNESS!
ah…there it is, right where it always was…as Jesus says, “what you look for…has already come, and it is the feelings of YOU in ALL of YOU, that of my SELF, equal exact sameness of me, of YOU, of ALL.”
that is the disconnect people have about Jesus, where rather than see and feel the faith Jesus has in YOU, most reflect apon the faith they have in Jesus, of their ‘Crucial Lacking of Desire of the Wisdom of Knowingness”, where Jesus was the opposite of such, and indeed, the opposite of many, was he not?
and yet…the SAME.
~ mystery of God which reveals the TRUTH, where TRUTH does not ever fail, and rather it is ALL of we(mostly) who fail to FULLY embrace the pure sincere TRUTH of the tender loving precious feelings of the divine true SELF of YOU, sameness of the feelings of Jesus…no different in any way, where full knowingness comes to those who sincere feel the pure 100% sincere love they have of another. It is in those moments, where their divine TRUE SELF shines brightly within, and uncontainably brightness in outward appearance, is it not?
kinda silly to BE anything other than LOVING, is it not?
(“ain’t got time for your sorry ass unloving unBEcoming conduct”, as andy breaks into one of his vogue routines, “Talk to the hand biyatches!’ …”I love Madonna, and that’s final!”)
lol
😀 😀
bless you
i jest….
i love ALL
bless you
oh oh….ssshhhh!….here she comes…..quiet!
“Oh hi dear….i was ah….just talking to everyone about Jesus and God, about what we know about God, you know, the same stuff we always talk about?….” 😉
(andy cringes, hoping she has something nice to say to him)
“How’s your day going dear?”
(andy hides behind a door)
ah…tonight was her night off….four shows in a row coming up…should be fun though…New York City is a fun crowd!
breaking free from unwiseness into wisdom…
ready?
😀 😀
ok…here we go…
~ Radiant and Bright is the Light of Eternal Truth Wisdom which does not change or waver…eternally unable to fail forever more
Wisdom # 1
+ The unwise snare of useless uncertainty is of the many innocent souls yet of unknowingness of ‘love devoid of doubt’ +
only a few thousand more to go…so kick back and relax awhile…
i ain’t going anywhere other than where i am easily found…
“what’s the name of that ball of dirt in the universe again?…oh yeh….Earth!” ha
“and how many inhabitants thus far….what, six billion plus?” 😉
hey, this would make for a great film script, yes?
trumpets sound loudly as someone comes forth and shouts out loud;
“Behold the opening of the gates into the kingdom of heaven!”
don’t mind me…i’m just bored, that’s all, with nothing better to do than annoy ALL of YOU. 😉
wow! what a beautiful sunshiny day, yes?
(andy spins around on one foot, doing a full 360 spin, one hand high above his head, that other, Annie style, held out to one side, feather bowa(pink…no wait…purple…no wait…rainbow), a cool gentle and soft the breeze apon which feels so good in the warm radiant sun shine)
blessed BE this day
bless you
God bless Annie Lennox. thank you God
bless you
here comes the necessary fire sale of the banks, which will see the needed nationalizing of the banks, which will see stability come with a few banks who will operate in an orderly fashion, unlike that of the wrecklessness of conduct of banking in the past…relax everyone…it’s just a transitional phase we are going thru, which will level out.
the values of realestate do not fall below a certain level, which is alread hit the lowest level, not able to fall any further.
the banks know this about realestate, and are just adjusting accordingly, albeit, the economy is taking a hit.
thankfully, this will see worldwise inflation come to an end, which is a good thing.
Asian gold is still your best investment as far as stability, but hey, what do i know? ha 😉
Asia has surplus cash stock piles, and in my opinion, is the most stable economic environment of any country, which saw growth recently, albeit, they too are feeling the reality of the economy which is leveling off.
the Dow now below 10,000.
it was below 10,000 for decades in the past, so let’s not forget where we came thru.
of course, there will be many companies which may close in the coming year, of a new environment which is shaking out many nervous investors.
Asia is our best friend, as far growing economies, and will likely be at the table for the fire sale of many stocks in the market, as they do have stock piles of cash, and their economic outlook of the future is hugely bright, growing exponentially in the coming decade.
hey, what do i know, i am just the weatherman forcasting of the future. lol 😀
God bless Asia.
the bigger banks need to let these smaller banks fall, and buy them at fire sale prices…it will see them with gains in the coming years, both from holdings, as well as lower operating costs which historically comes with the merging of banks…
ya, i have studied business for years…can you tell? 😉
i welcome this new horizon which is coming.
hey, who’s buying lunch?
😀 😀
i’ll…ah…just be at my desk, if anybody wants to chat…
ok then…
enjoy the blessed day everyone
looks like some of you may need to get a new job.
trying working with the farmers for a year…low pay, but hey, they eat well, and think of it as a wonderful sabatical for you, of outdoor fresh air, the birds, all that sunshine, rather than being so negative and afraid…shessshhhh…you guys put way to much value into your materialistic desires, things of no value in God’s eyes, nor should be of anyone’s eyes, agreed?
not in my eyes…i know what is of value…me.
hey, who’s buying lunch?
well ok…fine…looks like im on my own again…let’s see…Whole Wheat Honey Bread….toasted….hmmmm, all natural wholesome goodness, right from the farmers fields! hmmmm!
blessings to ALL
bless you
(andy waunders back to his desk, where he has big skyscraper lego buildings, which he topples off his desk onto the floor)
lol
Good luck Madonna for her show at Madison Square Garden!!!
Let’s hope she gets enough good luck and fortunate lucky breaks so that even if her meticulous planning fails completely she’ll still be fortunate enough to get enough lucky breaks to carry her through to triumph!!
X
Triumph is a good band too…yeh…i love Triumph…SuperTramp too! 😉
You BE Triumph….and i’ll BE SuperTramp!
lol
ohhh…the lucky horseshoe!
ah…so that’s your secret, is it?
a lucky horseshoe.
i found a few of them in my life time.
im with ya all the way!
Let’s hope Madonna has a great show and she really enjoys it!
I’m of to bed.
X
ahh…hope?
no…don’t hope…know Madonna always has a great show, for she is loved by many, and is why she keeps doing what she does, year after year…knowingness of what we all need, an older brother or sister who is always there for us, to keep us connected with that special loving place inside of us ALL, pure and true.
I hear they loved the violin’s in your show,
& i loved the war dance in 4 minutes
there is a god
it’s the tears that reveal to us the sincere depth of out compassion, and knowingness of the divine loving child of God YOU…here in heaven….stuck with me.
😉 😀
~ our compassion
i suppose out compassion works too, yes? 😉
that’s where you find PEACE in YOUR HEART.
😀 😀
that is just like my heart…like everyone’s heart.
and that…is what heaven is…the knowingness of the tender mild gentle sweet loving child of God YOU, that sincerely connects with another, of the true grace of God that tenderly holds the hand of another, just like YOU…that is what Love devoid of doubt feels like and is, when both of you feel what it is that you feel, sincere and true of both who stand with one another as equals, indeed, it is YOU who are the children of God sincerely loving of one another forever more, are we not?
i know that is how i feel about all of YOU, standing still forever more in sincerely loving feelings of all of YOU…everyday.
while merely standing with one another, we realize the only thing of value, is out time spent together, of each blessed day, is it not?
i love the graceful sincere loving feelings i feel in each waking moment of each day, free of the useless anxieties of the world, of only love that surrounds.
blessed be this day
bless you
i love you
of course, what comes with the sincere equality knowingness feelings, is the tears of joy, pure and true of the divine child of God You, yes?
The impact of Troy’s life, is what keeps me from straying too far from the truth, that of my own unwise egotism at the time, which derailed it for us both, all these useless words and conduct which seperate, untruthful of the divine child of God, is it not?
Jesus went into the desert, experientially experienced the depth of the subtle intellect of the divine child within, which fully embraces the sincere equality knowingness feelings, BEcoming the outward conduct which is a reflection of the purity and sincere feelings of the divine child of God within, speaking of the divine child within us all, both in words, and the BEcoming conduct which he became, which we all are, are we not?
i am…BE CAUSE…we are.
all the useless words and learned behaviours of sexism, egotism, homophobia, of whatever seperates us from the pure equality knowingness feelings that are pure and true of the divine child of God within us ALL, are what the false teachings of the forefathers are.
it is easy to explore all these useless words and unBEcoming conduct so bitter to the taste, which go against the divine child of God within us ALL.
and ‘that’ is what the kingdom of heaven is, the divine WILL of God’s divine loving compassionate wisdom meant for the divine child of God YOU, where in pure undeniable truth, we are ALL children of the light of God, where it is our pure equality knowingness feelings which shed tears of compassion and joy, which reveals the TRUTH, indeed, we are ALL God’s children of the light, where light is the equality knowingness feelings we stand in, peaceful, sincere, gentle and mild BEcoming conduct in outward appearance, of what we ALL feel within…the TRUTH.
blessed BE this day
bless you
i am merely reflecting on what is and what is not of the divine child of God, where useless seperating of words and unBEcoming conduct of learned behaviours, is what the revealer of truth does, where it is ALL of us, by means of our feelings of the truth,
BEcome the TRUTH in outward appearance of the light of God which shines radiant and bright thru us, genuinely connecting in purity of the child of God within us ALL, despelling all the false unwise learned behaviours of the forefathers before us ALL, indeed, what Jesus BEcame, the TRUTH, in outward appearance of only wise revealing words of the pure TRUTH, of pure sincere graceful sincere tender loving touch of the hand of another, so beautiful is the joyfulness of the purity of love between, our forever more love devoid of doubt feelings for one another.
Welcome to the kingdom of heaven everyone.
i am your attending servant today, where we will soon BE arriving at an altitude of 30,000 feet, high above the useless unwiseness yet of the world.
thank you for coming, and enjoy your stay.
😉 😀
of course it is the outward BEcoming conduct which everyone feels of us which easily connects…the pure gracefullness for example, standing still, of yet another beautiful blessed day with one another….Heaven.
here comes everlasting joyful life loving feelings!
love it!
always did. always will.
always.
bless you
(andy spins around again and again, the music, the loving feelings between us ALL, the exceeding joyfulness radiant and bright, extraordinary and wondrous to BEhold forever more)
~ what he always wanted to feel and felt when he was Troy, and yet feels, the TRUTH of his tender loving feelings for ALL today
blessings to ALL each and every blessed day forever more
bless you
let me know if you find heaven is somewhere else, will you.
don’t bother looking, i already you will not. ha
😀 😀
know(you WILL not) ! ^
the most important word…know…and how it is that i forget ‘that’ word?
perhaps BE CAUSE it is not something that needs explaining, where it is our feelings we feel that is always of unceasing KNOWINGNESS?
i am…BE CAUSE…we are….KNOWINGNESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The Kingdom of Heaven
‘Love devoid of doubt’ forever more loving feelings pure and true of the divine child of God YOU
wow!
i got two full hours with my therapist today…she loves me!
she has abstract art in her offices, where we laughed with one another about what we could make of the art, which is so abstract, we both had some twenty different opinions of what we could see in the paintings.
i love my therapist, and that is rare for me.
she is into God like i am, as we elaborated on the words of Jesus, and making sense of his words as it relates to psychology. Jesus said, “When you make the outer like the inner, you will BEcome known.”
She referred to the process as ‘endogenous'(arising from within) and ‘exogenous'(in attentional psychology, exogenous refers to attention being drawn without conscious intention).
Then we spoke about God, where we feel the words of wisdom, and not just read them, internalizing the words, by ‘waiting’ on the subtle emotional intellect that comes with awareness of what ever it is we are trying to extract the truth wisdom of what we reflect on, discerning between the absurd and uselessness and that which is loving and useful for sake of ALL.
i love my therapist! Hey, is there a law that says you cannot marry your therapist?
just wondering…i jest…although i don’t jest about my bisexuality, as it is REALness of me.
i spoke openly with her how i overcame my alcoholism over the last 14 years, of my rule, “Not allowed in my hand or in God’s house of love and peace”, of how the substance has power over human willpower, if it is in our hand.
She went into all kinds of dynamic understandings, like people being addicted to people as being influential in ones life(birds of a feather ~ dynamics of familiarity behaviour like that of our own yet unaddressed and adjusted which takes years).
Emotional Honesty was a favorite topic today as well, of avoiding excuses(fuzziness which lacks Power of Assessment Reasoning), an all too common reality check for those attempting to take control of THEIR life, where YOU is what is most important.
She stressed IMPORTANT, in expressing it to me like she said she does her own sons, where she said, “those who know me, like my sons, know i only use the word important, when it is something important to me(her). Are YOU listening to me Andy? Your not listening to me.”, as she WAITED for me to emotionally feel…and did. “It is IMPORTANT to me, that YOU get this, for YOUR sake, in your avoiding fuzziness excuses you tend towards, rather than Power of Assessment Reasoning and Understanding.”
i got it.
~ respectful ‘OPEN’ dialog with YOU, is my approach with YOU…hoping you appreciate me doing so, as much as i do you, as i do love you, and want to know you better, building of trust between us to grow more in our chosen friendship with one another, which i want more than anything in life…but don’t want you to feel you have to(as you say, patronizing), rather because of what i sense is sincere and genuine of your desire in wanting me as a real life friend too (that i am hopefully of ~ as it feels of genuine and sincerly that you do, knowingness for me at this point) …i pray for it daily, and sense you do too, which is where we sincerely connect? Just how much, i am not sure, yet sense it to be true.
have not spoke about you with my therapist yet, as we are yet delving thru my immediate life issues(ex, moving, court, anger management, where it is my therapist who gives the thumbs up or down with the Judge, as she is a court respected assigned therapist, where she already knows without doubt that i was railroaded).
anyway…just abit about my day.
“How are YOU today?”
i sense you are smiling within, yes? 😉 😀
surely i am not of bland platitudes? 😉
i give a little bit of my love to you, of so much we need to share in our sincere growing into genuine life long friends?
(andy crosses his arms, his hands firmly grasping his shoulders, as he pushes out his chest, his chin held up high as he exclaims, “you like my chest?”)
😉 😀
you like my new drag number?
“i need la la la la la la love!!!”
picture me doing the erotic stage performance, of my hands gracefully caressing all the various parts of my body, lips, tongue, ears, chest, working my way down my stomach, down, down, around to my butt.
“i need la la la la la la love!!!”
i love my body, can you tell?
i make myself crazy over my own body…is that weird, or normal?
feels normal to me, and the audience always goes wild when i perform for them, upstaging them all….as in, “OMG, who is this guy?” lol
of course, as a veteran who is of good self-esteem, i realize what others need to embrace within, connecting with them of the importance of self love, which is of my every heart beat, just as M does, who is one of many who inspire me…more than most any actually, healthier than most any she is, a God sent for me.
ok…how about less serious and some Jesus humor?
ok…
you will love this one…
ready?
stage…picture a guy expressing himself on stage, like that of Romeo speaking to Juliet outside her bedroom window.
“And if I go and prepare a place for you, and i will come again, and receive you unto myself, that place where i am, there ye may BE also…is the couch ok for you?”
lol
it has a teasing gay flare to it, yes?
i am bisexual, with a teasing gay flare that love entertain you, make you laugh with me, my joyfulness within that loves you.
“i need la la la la la love!!!”
“i need oooo la la lalala love!!!”
hey, can i wear your boots someday?
M dressed as a man, arm in arm with andy dressed as Madonna!
picture it…i am so there!
hey, did you know most draq queens are tops?
yep!
who knew?
😉 😀
hey…what does a frustrated male bisexual living a gay life, and a frustrated female bisexual living a straight life have in common?
…they both love females.
men….who needs them?
lol
Andy is a lesbian trapped in a male body.
my therapist is going to love listening to me on this one…
who knew?
come on…one of you must of known andy was a lesbian!
it’s true…i always wanted to be a female, since i was very young.
andy is a freak!
as in Fan freakin tastic!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol
😉 😀
Yo!
No one here.
These chocs are good.
When are we getting that new thread???!!!!!
Madonna’s not here. She must be busy. No time for the little people anymore. 😦
Whatever. 🙂
I’m tired and getting off to bed.
How many of these smileys are there?
:[ :] :{ :} :; : 😕
Not many, obviously.
😯 8) 😈
Oh, those were better.
Right, I’m of to bed. Have a good show, Madonna.
Night night,
X
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💡 little people as in the smallnesses of people?
is that what you mean by little?
ya, i have no time for smallnesses of people.
lol
oh, those little people…ya, i always have time for them…as in every heart beat.
you only get…on average human life….2.3 to 3 billion heatbeats guys…that’s it.
make sure each one counts, be cause we all do.
and of course…it’s kinda obvious…i always have time for her!
i was thinking horses would be cool for the parade…a white black one and a pink one, like how they painted that sheep rainbow colors….how awesome would that look?
people would be like wtf? :rol:
🙄
and of couse the twins dress identically in their suits of armor…the music…the clowns…the wierd ones. 😮
my favorite look of all is the androgynous look, where you cannot tell(or have difficulty at first), if they are male or female.
oh cool…250 billion has shifted from stocks to commodities in less than one week…
greed and fear…where fear outweighs the greed.
not sure what the realistic values are in terms of past or forecast sales of these companies.
and do investors care about Joe six pack? nope.
banks are the same. They saturated the market with housing and low low interest rates, and now, all calculated timing, they get to foreclose on people’s houses, because the renewal mortgage(owing) is beyond the asset value, taking their home from them.
and to think, Uncle Sam is now helping facilitate the banking fraud.
you’ve all been had people…and soon, they will have everything you worked for, and jobless to top it all off.
ya, greed everyone…cold heartless greed.
hmmm…i suppose the investors and the bank are the same people, are they not?
last time i checked they were…
it’s a calculated stalling game…sorta like a game of chess…only these motherfuckers think they are the smartest snakes…in God’s eyes, they are idiots.
Game Over.
i told them to freeze the markets last week…no one was listening, and now look, Mr Panic has taken over the world…question is, is it deliberate, or just uncaring?
Ok…how about deliberately uncaring?
wow -7.33 loss in one day on the Dow!
I just watched a really good documentary on BBC4 by Robert Peston called “Super Rich: The Greed Game”, basically explaining how hedge fund managers were encouraged to take huge bets with borrowed money, so the super rich became outrageously rich. And how the banks didn’t do their job when they took on bad debt. And how absolutely nothing has changed now: the government’s have bailed-out the banks and reduced interest rates to fund more bad behaviour.
the smart investors will estimate the true value of the stocks against sales forecasts, and buy back in when stocks are below the estimated value.
that’s if they come back to play.
At this rate…we will not have an economy by the end of the month, making Halloween a true hell on earth.
Behold the mask of greed
Really good show. Well worth watching a copy.
“the smart investors will estimate the true value of the stocks against sales forecasts, and buy back in when stocks are below the estimated value.”
Well, yes, they had one of these equity fund managers saying that this was a brilliant time with the market in turmoil and he was going to make a killing by buying businesses cheap.
ya. that’s what i said before…they are incouraging the banks.
truth is, the banks simply adjust their rates according to the environment, just as they have always done.
remember, Americans are at an all time high debt load.
banks know exactly what they are doing, and they are now in a winfall state.
one realestate hits a certain low, it stops.
banks know this…they think long term, not short term.
in TRUTH, Uncle Sam is helping the banks carry the foreclosed realestate of homes people cannot get financing for their renewed mortgages, as what is owing on the realestate is more than the current value.
banks love this…they get to take it back, sit on it indefinitely now with Uncle Sam’s deep pockets.
like i said, it is an asset/cash grab of both realestate and the all time high credit card debt.
OK, imagine if you are in government. And the banks say: “Look, we’ve been very silly, and we lost billions by our incompetence. Can you please bail us out?”
Would you do it? Noooo. Of course you wouldn’t. If banks are going to the wall then you deal with them individually on a case-by-case basis, but you surely don’t reward their profligacy.
Even if it means a recession. Recessions happen. But you get through them.
i mean look who is at running the treasury. hello?
Imagine if a mate of yours comes up to you and says “I’ve been very stupid, I’ve lost 500 quid on the horses. Can you lend me another 1000?” Do you say yes? No, you say clear off.
question is, all Americans are greedy.
for me, i just find it all rather amusing, like children playing a silly game of monopoly.
ya.
gambling addiction…on a huge scale, where everyone is involved, including joe six pack with his unrenewable mortgage.
On that Robert Peston documentary they showed a lot of decent Americans who had lost their homes through defaulting. It was horrible.
These people were given promised low “teaser rates” for a year, but after a year the rates increased by 75%. Just bonkers.
that’s why if you built your home without the bank, owning it outright, you have nothing to be concerned about…other than a job to feed yourself and your family.
Jesus tryed to warn the world about the banks, did he not?
i mean, we have had 2000 years to learn this one guys. hello?
guys nobody cares to listen.
Game Over.
lol
Oh look, it’s on YouTube:
http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=ocw-m4iEdtE
Last thing I’ll say on the matter: If you’ve just spent 700 billion dollars on this year’s crisis, then what are you going to do if there’s another crisis next year?
Game right and truly Over.
ya…that’s why i call it bank fraud, because that is exactly what it is.
banks do not lose…the play to always win, just like a casino.
it is not a calculated risk on behalf of the bank…no….it is a calcualted always win winfall by the banks, even if the banks have to sit on the realestate for 5 years or more, the banks KNOW the realestate holds it value till years later.
the banks will soon have alot of family homes, and second home investor’s homes….
hey, now would be a good time to launch God’s bank of Trust, yes?
0% interest rates coming in, 0% going out, a school of though if you will, or money mangers, which teaches people how to stay out of debt, and build their homes without bank financing, all run by nice honest Christians like me. 😉
i am sure alot of people would have loved to hear about me sooner, yes?
i am compassionate for everyone, to an extent, i mean most Americans are greed driven, and so i don’t care about them continuing like they do, these same ones who do not sponsor children in need in the world for example.
welcome to the world without God.
i find it all amusing, if you must know, the greed being bitten by one who is more greedy than they are. lol.
they should of listened to Jesus, yes?
small fish(slaves), big hungrey sharks(masters).
what bugs me, is government allows this kind of speculation in the economy, where government does not really serve it’s people, do they?
Russian markets were dropping so fast, each time the open, the close them up (investors pulling out).
It’s funny, I’ve never been motivated by money, but I’ve always been interested in economics. I studied it in my first year in Edinburgh University (Gordon Brown’s university, I think). I was quite good at it, but I found it a bit frustrating as it’s so inexact – not hard science.
I’ll admit I’ve lost touch a bit recently. You seem to know a great deal about it all? Why’s that?
I was there in about 1984 and the lecturers were all saying how Margaret Thatcher’s policies were leading the country to ruin. Mind you, raw monetarism probably WAS doing that – just killing-off the money supply.
I hope the Supreme Court steps in with new rulings against these shceming bank investors, giving peope six months to a year.
perhaps once the courts are flooded with millions of cases, they will eventually see thru the shceming bank investors?
one would pray they do, as it is the last chance for people out there, seeing as how the government is siding with the bank investors.
i don’t get it, these are multi-billion dollar bank investors, with high interest rates racking people over the coals with higher payments…since when do these billionaire bank investors need money?
oh yeah, i forgot, the foreclosure of properties it is taking back to resell later in the decade.
i see right thru them all.
It seems to me that whenever the economists say they’ve got it all worked-out – that’s the time to panic! That’s when it all goes tits-up and some new model gets hurriedly rushed into action.
I see the American National Debt clock in Times Square has to be replaced as it doesn’t have room for all the digits now required!
i was fifteen years old when the banks took our family home.
i ended living on the streets at 15, family split, everyone went different directions, my brother ended up on my uncles farm 200 miles away, mom/dad seperated.
that is my only concern, is the family crisis.
as for the second home investors, i don’t give two hoots, as it was them who helped the banks spike the markets, flooding them like they did.
Oh, this is boring. You didn’t say how you know so much about financial things?
Any chance of a new thread??
nah…the markets will level off, and Asian investors will jump back in once it bottoms out.
it is the housing market which toppled it over, and all the supply chains to it, which means it will likely be a long haul out before it ever returns to levels like before.
it is slidding worse than i thought it would though, i mean another 700 point drop in the Dow?
it is adding to the jitters day by day.
i graduated in corporate accounting…
hated the idea of a desk job in those stuff offices.
Where’s all your money? Under your bed?
Heck you’re right. The Dow Jones is down 7.3% today. Wow.
nah…i quit the American dream.
i value money as an insatiable snare.
i don’t place any value on money, other than assisting those in education.
i really don’t.
i am of the value of sincere loving life…nothing more.
in fact, i dread the idea of the pursuit of wealth, or getting all caught up in their boastful mentalities.
nope…not me…blue jeans and t-shirt forever more.
If I had money I’d be bothered. i bet Madonna’s money is tucked away in gold bullion in a suitcase. She’s pretty savvy with money.
A year ago exactly, the Dow closed at a record high above 14,000 points.
ah…maybe she took my advice? good then. she is a precious soul to me, and i know her heart is like my own.
Are you stil there? This is very slow. I’m going to have my shower and get to bed.
Good luck (whatever) to Madonna for her show if she (is/is not) doing one tonight.
the corporations are going to feel this drastically if it does not bottom out soon and bounce back abit.
not sure what the sales numbers are…having not been following any of that data….bores me.
You know how concerned I was for Madonna’s well-being, without having any ulterior motive. That’s me, that is.
RIght, nighty night.
X
it is such a nice warm evening…enjoy.
yeah…i know…i connected all the dots which lead me back to the beginning dot … 😉
turns out it looks like Madonna!
and those like Madonna…of course.
family.
Heaven
😉 😀
im just the seamstress.
i like to dance once in awhile too.
it is a dancing feeling in our hearts of exceeding joy, yes?
Truly, the arts and education of SELF are of the most value in life…priority # 1 in my world.
a suitcase eh?
oh v. funny!
as if she could pick up a suitcase full of gold, and why on earth would she hide it under a bed? duh!
a vault maybe, the walk in type with high security. 😉
whatever
the walk in type with high security and high maintance.
oh wait…that would me!
lol
😉 😀
actually, i am low maintance.
rather, i need qualified ones to maintain me. 😉
and i ain’t settling for anyone else or less than qualified.
hey…ah…can i borrow your fencing armor top some night when you’re not wearing it?
ah…great! thank you!
😉 😀
you are so tiny…
i think it will fit me though, as i am rather small too.
(andy and M hit the clubs all over the world doing drag shows for the gay boys and les girls, andy dressed as a girl, M dressed as a boy, having the most fun two people could possibly have with their loving family who truly love them forever more)…
…to BE continued………
lol
😀 😀
my first girlfriend i fell in love with was tiny like you…if that is of any consolation for you…of course you are far better looking, and way more intelligent, albeit, we are all capable in God’s eyes to understand our SELF, where it is we who knows our own SELF better than anyone else.
i like the Keith’s heart running on the back of the top…what does it mean?
catch me if you can?
you want another post do ya?
ok…
of course if you are too busy, i’ll understand…just let us know either way, ok?
lots of beautiful fish in the sea, yes?
ok then…
hey, i know…they have these draq queen contests all the time, in every GLBT ghetto around the world, where you could enter as a draq queen as Madonna, only change name to something wacky, and bring the sound tracks with you and sing live….just don’t ever tell anybody you really are Madonna….
and then i could do all of Annie Lennox material….lipsinking of course, as no one sounds like Annie….
we could win all the contest prizes, buy everyone, and kick all their sorry asses at the same time, yes?
just don’t tell anyone it really is you. You could screw up on the lyrics from time to time, just to throw them off abit…don’t want you sounding too perfect, although some of your songs close to the heart deserve dedication.
just thinking OUT loud…
come on…i know you want to…i do a very good Annie Lennox…taught by the best…
well ok…if not…come to one of my shows sometime then….
was watching the Lost Gospels…
http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=gtjdM17x0ws
What you bring forth from within you will save you.
What you do not bring forth from within you will destroy you.
common sense…
~ Jesus according to recorded words by Judas, the one often mistaken like twin of Jesus.
you don’t love me anymore
ahw 😦
i don’t think the world needs financial consideration, which is actually the cause of today’s problems of restraint, greed, and the uncontrolling systematic investor speculators of the markets, which is now in chaos…
rather, i see the understandings of Jesus as a mindset of emotional honesty which is how one sees and feels the truth of the kingdom of heaven all around us on a moment by passing moment.
i know what the kingdom of heaven is, by means of my feelings on a moment by moment basis.
‘that’ is what the kingdom of heaven is.
it is a perspective of wisdom understanding of the emotional honesty of SELF, where sincerity is the center of the divine true SELF, where ‘that’ of Jesus is found within us in sameness of emotional honesty exactly that of Jesus, where purity and genuine sincerity is what comes with continued drawing in further by the words which nurture this, and indeed protect us from others who are of the haphazard and aimless approach to their own life.
indeed, is the loving feelings of YOU, which is what the kingdom of heaven is, where by means of your own feelings, you come into knowingness of what the kingdom of heaven is, where your joyful loving feelings feel so good for you to feel, moment by passing moment.
cool eh?
it has absolutely nothing to do with wealth, status, race, religion, sex, orientation or politics…
best of all…it is FREE from God for anyone to come into full knowingness of their divine true self loving sincere feelings they feel for and of another like them who is loving of them in sameness of their tender loving spirits inseperable once united.
you know how you just know when you love someone and they you?
that is what heaven is, but maintaining the subtle gentle divine self is of sincere wise approach, if one is able to always feel what they feel.
some natural grow into life long loving relationships…rare…but it does happen.
there is a cognitive wise approach that not only is obtainable, it is not able to be cast down by those unwise, a protective invisible shield of wisdom.
i suppose i should return to my writings, as that is what i am about inside.
oh hey Marco.
nah…it is your own insecurity that thinks i don’t love you, or were you talking about someone else?
nah…i love everyone Marco.
indeed, i am on a quest for what the Kingdom of Heaven is, in case you fell asleep in class.
it is an emotional honesty quest….which i have found within me.
for me, i found while with Jesus.
and what i found was Jesus saying to me, not to be concerned for any who may not be as loving of us as we may be of them, for they my yet be snared by unwisenesses which i have come free of on my quest.
i thought, who better to go to than Jesus and God in trying to undestand my SELF?
well…it is a forever more loving emotional honesty between me and Jesus which does not change, fade, become doubtful or troublesome, rather just the opposite, where it is Jesus who says to me, “No, what you look for is everlasting love with another who does not turn away from you, is it not?
duh!
of course Jesus, ‘that’ is what we all want…
but why do so many turn away from not embracing what their own emotional honesty of such?
i say blame the world with all of it’s useless distractions into nowhere places the do lead us into nowhere places, do they not.
it’s like….omg, how did you get in my house somedays…i’ve had alot of bad relationships…life being the greatest teacher for me…
lol 😉
well fuck them…
that’s what i say…their biggest mistake they will ever make.
lol
lol, just kiddin, i know you were thinking about me yesterday, i know when you do
i want to see M show i car’nt make i quit my airline job don’t get cheap airfares anymore, my sister want’s me to see her too,
im so lonely, i love everyone but no one loves me that’s how it feels somedays or maybe they all do love me but too afraid to touch, i should marry my pillow since my pillow is the only thing i sleep with everynight.
TRUTHFULLY speaking…
we know it does not work unless it feels genuinely loving of another who appears and feels like they genuinely love us, yes?
my own inventory of life experience tells me the truth of this.
and there is no way i will settle for anything less than what feels genuine emotional honesty of another.
there…that was not so difficult, was it?
the next part is getting out to meet others, without getting to quick to just jump into relationships, where for me, genuine fun loving friendships need to form for me, before a mere, “Oh let’s go to the spa and have casual sex!” kinda approach…although i have had alot of stimulating ones like that…
anyway…where was i…?
oh yeah….inventory of emotional honesty which keeps us on track for the kingdom of heaven…
well…if i know what the kingdom of heaven is…then it goes without saying, i likewise know what the kingdom of heaven is not, yes?
i won’t just trash a relationship though if it is of someone i sincerely love…no…i will wait, walk away and give them the time and space they need to grow more into what i have already grown thru or growing thru…respectful of my self in BEcoming conduct and likewise respectful of them…
Jesus actually did this alot with most he knew…abit more information here and there of what he KNEW was the kingdom of heaven…his EMOTIONAL HONESTY.
in other words…let people live and feel what they feel.
if they come to realize they love you and want to be with you, then hey, great!
if not, or if they pretend, and it is obvious they are pretending with you(you know how you can just tell?), then it won’t ever work for you, and it is here where we find it easy to just move on, yes?
toss it to the wind, and forget about what others may or may not think of you, because in the end, it won’t ever work for you so long as it feels emotionally unavailable or some sorta disconnecting that is just not really anything close to what we know the kingdom of heaven to feel like…
you just know, when love is true…
it is obvious by both people involved, and equally obvious by both when it is not.
im not helping, i know….life sucks somedays! lol
hmmm..you have an intimate relationship with your pillow Marco?
i did too for years as a teen….ok, let’s not go there. ha
aannnyyywwayy….
sounds like you may be your own worse enemy at times, the fluctuating between unresolved emotional issues and the manifestations that come with the emotions, such as betrayal, hurt, dissappointment, fear, guilt, lonely…
i usually move away from those who make me feel that way, which may not have anything to do with them, and perhaps more of my own unrealistic expectations of them…
be thankful someone you know, knows what the kingdom of heaven is, and what it is not?
i KNOW what the kingdom of heaven is, and i am truly enlightened inside my knowingness…GENUINE EMOTIONAL HONESTY that is reciprocated with another.
i don’t view this as a light discussion either, rather it is of Jesus that i came to know it.
i walk around in the mad world, that is just not all that friendly, of such madness and insincerity of their own divine true self, like those chickens they have in cages like those huge farms, everyone just making a whole lotta noise, no one actually saying much of anything about the kingdom of heaven.
i mean really…look at the world…
it is…A WORLD WITHOUT GOD.
spiritual poverty that is wretched, death and destruction, mean spirited cold heartedness of the cold businessman which rules the world….
i’ll BE in my spa if anyone is looking for ‘me’ !
do you know when i was a teen, i would storm off at dinner parties or gatherings if i was not the centre of attention or people did’nt devote the night to ME..
lol
i just was thinking about that ..
i think i can be so selfish sometimes but in the other hand i can be so loving more than most
ah the joy of being me
may as well be good to me, when others cannot, is my approach that works for me.
who has time for fickle hearts, or uncertainty, when only certainty works for ‘me’ ?
some people make the list with me…many do not…
ya…my Diva takes back control of my life when i get disheartened by some…checking out the back of the building for a new stomping ground so to speak…
need any more clues Marco?
Marco?
hey…where did Marco go? ha
the other thing too, is you don’t do anyone a favour when you let them think their innappropriateness is ok, knowing and feeling inside that it is obviously not, as we kick our brains across the floor once again…
run!
i am looking for someone to come into the kingdom of heaven with me, as i am a devoted lover when i love someone, where we can and will lead the world by example…and for me, that is what Jesus wanted and asked us to reach for beyond his grasp….he knew what he was feelings, and yearned to always feel with another, pure sincere emotional honesty while alone in the desert(of life, where spiritual poverty was everywhere around him ~ the desert).
happy is the one who eventually gets Andy as their lover.
i already know the emotional honesty of my lover self, which connects with the emotional honesty of the lover self of another…which is where it all starts and stops….genuine emotional honesty….everything else is like those who pretend they are happy in relationships, and so obviously are not…no way…not me…i am walking to the road of everlasting happiness, and yes, i have walked alone for along time, and i know….
i know…what works for me.
awwh shuck’s
will someone stick their head on my pillow and squeeze in between my arm’s.
how do you know when i think about you Marco…explain yourself damn it!
ohhh…tease me why don’t cha?
never mind…i don’t trust you any more Marco…
as it was you who used Matt’s name in one of your posts…
does not matter…i am over it all anyway…and i am done with people who are cold and disconnected with me…
i am so done with useless friendships that leave me feeling less than i am deserving of.
i’ve been here along time…and i have succeeded in expressing what i feel is the kingdom of heaven…there is not much else for me to say, and rather i want to move on to doing life in the kingdom of heaven as ones who lead by example…
blessed is the one who chooses to be my lover…
and yet…i was loving till the last day…my last words with all of you, was i not?
forever TRUST in who you are…a child of God, a brother or sister of Jesus, where only love is of Jesus and God, only wisdom is of Jesus and God, only compassion is of Jesus and God, for sake of ALL precious loving souls born into the OBVIOUSLY unloving apathetic unwise world that has not changed that much since Jesus walked the earth.
and indeed, the snares are doing just that, are they not, snaring the life out of people’s loving spirit?
a world without God in their hearts, all lead around to and fro by the businessman which Jesus said are not of concern for God.
kinda obvious, how the world really is, is it not.
fortunately, God’s love, wisdom and compassion is constant like the sun which shines, where one merely needs to come face to face with their own denial of what snares their heart, mind, body, spirit and soul more than anything else in life, ‘Crucial Lacking of Desire for Wisdom’, and indeed, is the single cause of why the world is upside down.
not me…i stand in the kingdom of heaven all around me forever more, no matter my wealth, status, race, religion, sex(change), orientation or politic, and i ain’t no businessman, albeit, i am wise to the businessman.
what do i say to that…
cool no worries, whatever you want..
ok…
bye..
obviously nothing else left toooooo say..
oh, i have lots to say, that i will share on my blog, with my loving lover life someday…but hanging around here feels futile for me and cold mostly.
so ya…we now return to your regular scheduled programing.
while Andy makes a quick dash for the exit door….you could tell me the truth…but no one wants to tell me truth…so, why would i want to be around people who don’t speak the truth, when i am of God?
who sees thru those who are not truthful with me.
ego ,
I cannot deal with it today..
leave please, the door’s ajar
switch me on
turn me up
i need la la la la la love!
i need oooo la lalala love!
i love that song, such a great dirty dancing song!
well…some may think i am ego in my outward appearance, rather i destroyed my ego along time ago, and have built apon my true self which speaks and writes like i do…the TRUTH.
don’t get me wrong, it’s been a rewarding time for me, in expressing myself like i have…
but it gets abit boring after awhile…
you wear me out someday’s
I’m going now, ego makes me tired ..
grow up
correction…excruciatingly boring after awhile…REAL life becons me to rejoin in everlasting loving life radiant and bright…
no worries…i will post lots of pics and whatevers as i journey forward, out of this stuckness place of sojourn….my own chosing to stay at rest like i have for as long as i have…but after awhile…you sit a table alone long enough…you ask yourself, “why am i still here when everyone else is out having the time of their lives?”
ya, my therapist said the same thing to me…time for Andy to grow up in using his Power of Assessment.
at least i don’t go around playing other people using their name like you did Marco.
God knows, i know you did.
what are you like a paid therapist that works for M?
fucking bullshit doing that you know?
Matt was/is someone real to me, and for someone to play Andy’s brain like that?
well…i don’t think i want hear about it, as i have my own professionals now…thank you.
grow up?
what is that supposed to mean.
God speaks with me, and you tell me to grow up…oh…ok….
i should grow up.
what i should do is do what Matt did…walk the fuck away and keep on walking…
but i didn’t…
why?
because i am fearlessly maturity of Jesus and God who know me more than anyone else knows me, and where i know the condition of everyone’s soul, and indeed, is of my every heartbeat that i do.
that kind of growing up?
whatever
im yawning now,
goodnight all..
devil’s gottem today, i think,,
grow up…such infinite words of wisdom.
i suppose one could eloborate on that one yes?
likely for another two thousand more years in trying to find the kingdom of heaven for everyone who is yet snared by the businessman who has zero concern for the well being of their fellowman, nor of themselves for that matter, in God’s eyes.
people actually killing themselves over the fucking retarded businessman greed of wealth and power over the meek…
well not if i can help it…as God wants to speak to them ALL.
the only devil in life is the retardation that leads the world.
telling me to grow up…fucking bullshit.
disrespect yourself when you disrespect me
anywhere else on the fucking planet is better than being here tonight, and that is not hate in my heart, that is the truth….something no one wants to BE with Andy.
well enjoy your untruthfulness alone
LOL :
save the hormones for Mariah
you speak of the devil getting to me?
why not speak something you know about God Marco?
since you seem to think you are so wise
if you were of God, you would not cast fire like that apon me, where it is you who casts you out of heaven, not me…i know what heaven is, and what it is not, and this cajoling and enitcing like you do, is exactly that which Jesus railed against, to disregard anything they have to say against you.
so go talk to Jesus, and try to get to know him like i have, and maybe we will connect at a real level, rather than this charade of people pretending and lying with me.
i have my own therapists now…thank you.
it’s always my life to live, with friends of my choosing…i may choose to come back here…i may not…certainly not if i am going to be cajoled and mocked like this…not ever will i return again…as Jesus says, where untruthfulness is, you will not find me there.
who the fuck would want cajoling and mockery from a fool?
grow up…
i’ll grow up when all of you stop lying to me, ok?
in the mean time…i choose to grow away from this place of liars, and if you want to talk to me like an ordinary person then great…if not, then ejoy your blog with who ever gives a fuck for people who love to cajole and mock them.
be sure to put my picture on the dart board while you are at it.
go fuck yourself Marco.
i am going to go find some ‘real’ friends for a change, and spend real time with them, instead of spinning my wheels here.
i used to be like you, turn nasty on those that care, blame them for whatever, l
Like it was their fault i was hurting
even when it was not
only i guess because they hit a raw nerve, or because they touched my heart
but i don’t do that anymore
im less selfish in that regard i guess
these day’s
i’ve grown up a little
i don’t spew fire anymore
when i don’t get my own way !!!
sorry…forgive me…
i too want to see Madonna Marco, and cannot, but i want to more than just see her concert Marco, and she knows the truth about my emotional honesty which is pure and sincere in our knowingness of what the kingdom of heaven is.
forgive my absurd useless unwise conduct which is unBEcoming of my divine true self…these rocks are slippery, for great and numerous are the many bitter unwisenesses of the world which distract us from our knowingness of constant emotional honesty we feel of each passing moment in every blessed day that greets us all.
i stumbled on a branch along the waters edge, tripped and fell into the water….which is a good thing for me to feel my own haphazard unwiseness that sometimes gets the best of me somedays, fatigued, trying to rush something that cannot be rushed, just as rushing to obtain a university degree is not only impossible, it is absurd to even think one can….
forgive me
thank you
bless you
forgive me God. thank you God.
i found it…the kingdom of heaven.
i was my last step into my knowingness which i have recently taken…i found it… the kingdom of heaven all around us, which is our constant emotional honesty which feels each passing moment of each blessed day.
Truly, we are knowingness of the truth of this, are we not?
We FEEL the truth of this, where we are indeed of the constant emotional honesty which feels each passing moment, are we not?
BEhold the Kingdom of Heaven which is that of YOU ALL, constantly all around us at ALL times!
BEhold, for God greets the divine true self of ALL precious loving souls of the earth forever more, willing apon us ALL the divine wisdom of the halo of protection which is what the kingdom of heaven is, protective of all the divine children of God at all times!
BEhold, for that which you look for has already come!
(andy kicks back, puts his feet up, joyful of what he has stumbled apon…himself! Smacking his head on rock in his stumbling, knocking some sense into his thick skull…finally!)
lol
😀 😀
forgive me, just as i forgive you
forgive us father. thank you.
bless you
the journey has been long, weary and troublesome at times for me, but i am finally of coming into fullness of my knowingness of the kingdom of heaven all around us, of no more uncertainty like before.
forgive me
bless you
Jesus loves ALL. God loves ALL. We love ALL
God blesses ALL.
BEhold the kingdom of heaven all around us, constantly like the sun which is always shining!!!!!
ya, it is not about controlling another….that is imature.
it is simply about standing still and feeling the knowingness of the constant emotional honesty which feels each passing moment.
i have a rough emotional week, nothing to do with anyone, more than it has to do with me, emotions which run deep within of how everyday up to today greets me emotionally, where everything of my entire life is meant to teach me about my divine true self, of what God has wanted me to come fully into knowingness of my divine true self, where God wants me to step fully into my halo of descerning wisdom forever more, which i am now doing from this day forward.
a child is forgiven when they are tired and cranky, so forgive me likewise, as indeed, i have not be responsible in taking better care of my self, with an emotions storm i have traversed thru recently, which i welcome, don’t get me wrong, as it is all of necessary journey on the road of life, meant to teach me…
i look at all of it, my own stumblings, all meant as wisdom understanding, where i see clealy my own absurdness, and feel it too, like a sorta spiritual death when ever i am of unBEcoming conduct, not true of my divine true self which is always loving of another…
that and i have not gotten laid in awhile…
what?
lol
😀 😀
actually, i am exceedingly greatful of you Marco, as you have brought me fully into fearlessly feeling my true self.
you are a blessing for me.
thank you
God bless Marco. thank you God.
bless you
i know know fully what the kingdom of heaven is.
It is the halo of protective descerning wisdom which…key word here…’FEELS’ the truth of all BEcoming conduct and unBEcoming conduct of the divine true child of God, that of me, that of another, that of descerning of another, that of descerning of my own conduct which yearns always to BE the truth of my knowingness of the divine true child of God which is ALWAYS of the yearning to BE loving of others at all times, constant like the sun which is always shining.
It is the full embracing which is required of the divine child of God to step fully into and surrender to the knowingness at a congitive level, of the subtle emotional honesty intellect which feels each passing moment of life…constantly, do we not?
BEhold the kingdom of heaven!
LOVE! LOVE! LOVE! LOVE!
JOY! JOY! JOY! JOY!
for ‘that’ which we have yearned to know has already come, ‘that’ which is beyond all the riches of the world, that which is meant for the divine child of ALL God’s children of the earth, God’s constant divine wisdom which is unfailing, yet failing, when ever we step outside of the halo of pure knowingness, where it is the world which leads us away from the halo, in all of it’s unwise undeserning ignorance so obvious of the unBEcoming conducts, is it not?
bless you
look not to the world, rather look to your divine SELF, for that is what is required of us, to come fully into the knowingness of the constant emotional honesty where indeed we do feel each passing moment of each blessed day, do we not?
Peace in your heart is a blessing, knowing you are always loved by Jesus, God and me, is it not, of one who is always loving like you/we are, yes?
i’ve always been difficult with others…
i remember the time a girl i feel deeply in love with back in high school, where she deliberately played other guys against me at parties, driving me insane with childishness, where eventually David and i got together and invited all our old girlfriends to the same party without telling them who was who…
it was a breaking point for both David and i, where we had had enough of the hurtfulness of others, as we walked away from life then, giving the finger and saying to the girlfriends, “Who the fuck do you think you are?” and left them to think about it for the rest of their lives…
ya…these immature mindsets of mine go back along ways, and do run deep with hurtful useless pain of betrayal feelings, disappointments, embarrassed, lonely, guilt, all fear based immaturity….
things which unwisely seperate…
when i am tired or weary, these old abreaction mentalities of youth surface…so forgive my once again being absurd…for i am not of the desire for immaturity like i was then.
It is obvious i am of the desire for constant emotional honesty, am i not?
and that is most mature is it not?
it is wisdom meant for the divine child of God of us ALL.
i am going to sit with this for awhile…a week, month, however long it takes to fully internalize the wisdoms, so that i do not slip again in useless unBEcoming conducts which only do what…seperate, do they not?
sillly childish unwise unBEcoming learned behaviours.
ah well…i had to go thru my own stumbling, and now i know what the kingdom of heaven is, and what it is not…
so all of the light of wisdom goodness in the end, is it not?
blessings to ALL
bless you
all these words i don’t just say…
life’s a two way street
until you reach the cross road
indeed it is a cross road we have arrived at, and for the first time, i feel and sense someone who is of emotional honesty seeking their own knowingness of their divine true self, of the self of another who is also of the sameness of their own fearless emotional honesty, yes?
why is it i want to sabotage my own path like i do?
is it because, what i have yearned for all my life, may be true of another, and that is what terrifies me, that someone actually may love me utterly and completely like the way i know i do them?
i am of fearlessness and diligence to build the trust required for both of us to dwell in, sameness of the trust level between God and our divine true self in outward appearance…which starts and stops with me, with you within to likewise be of the desire and zeal to fearlessly move in the direction the divine child of God yearns to move towards, into the kingdom of heaven where there is no childish element of doubt, like the doubt found in the world.
i am tired of annoying immature doubtfulness of the world which drains the soul, leaving me weary…not any more, for the halo of descerning wisdom i am stepping fully into from now on.
morning bike ride…be back later…
blessed BE this day
forgive me
thank you
bless you
what a heartless world, yes?
how the rich cast aside the meek slaves, self-serving, not of God.
where are the team mentality leaders who are of God in this world?
oh yeah…they are having lunch with the finance dude.
well…in God’s eyes, it is the way the world has been for a very long time…self-serving and lost, not of certainty of emotional honesty which embraces the truth, we are all children of God…EQUALS.
it is better though, and i am optimistic, as i am not the only one who feels the equality love like we all feel in the GLBT community which is truly loving of one another(mostly).
fortunately, God’s wisdom is easy to know and come fully into knowingness of the constant pure sincere emotional honesty that one feels in each passing moment, and i will write in depth about the halo wisdom in the coming year…free for all to engage and come into full knowingness of what Jesus came full into knowingness of his divine child(adult) self, of God, equal to all, as he said, “I am not your master.”
so many immature adult children in life, like everywhere i look, i feel the truth of everyone’s aimlessness, wondering to my self, does no one seek or care to know what matters, where i feel their uncertainty at a subtle intellect level where they do not detect what i am reflecting apon while among them?
‘What goes around comes around’…I feel so bad for bitching about Palin last week ,,Ive had a shit couple of days at my lowest Eb .. I forgot all my teaching about ’cause and affect ‘ and boy have i paid for it !!..Don’t fall into the trap guys as i see so much bitching on here why? Sending you a virtual hug Peace xXx
ya, me too…i am hanging on…
…to my wisdom which sees(feels) with clarity…my sincere feelings which is not hopeful of another, rather is knowingness of another, just as i am knowingness of my SELF.
Truly we know it is exceedingly easy to get swept away and caught up in the hypocrisy heart which is ever present in the world in so many circles of chit chat nonsense, yes?
the divine self is the wisdom which is constantly of the descerning of all truth of the condition of the soul, and the reality check of how the world conducts itself in so many unBEcoming conducts which may or may not be true fullness of the divine true self’s yearning to always be of loving BEcoming conduct pure and true of the divine true self…yearning of the constant wisdom which protects so that the divine child self is able to always stand in certainty of loving feelings for another, not slipping foolishly to lesser egotistic ways like that of so many of the unwise snares which seperate, divide, cause of all war, all useless manifestations bitter wretchednesses which do indeed stem from those lacking in their desire to stand in the knowingness of cause/effect, where indeed, bitter unBEcoming conduct of one towards another, does cause feelings of betrayal, disappointment, fear based hurtful pain that naturally goes against the divine child self within us all….hence, the manifestations of these deep seated emotional turmoils which do manifest themselves in the form of anger, yes?
Indeed, Andy reflected that one well recently, did he not? 😉
Indeed, all unBEcoming conducts are cause for these deep seated emotional turmoils within us all, hourly, daily, weekly….and the effect of the affect is the manifestations and continuations of more anger in the world, which does go around and around, of the silly immaturity of the many children of God yet sadly snared by unwisenesses, which are the teachings of the forefathers before us all.
fortunately, great has been the evolving of understanding and indeed, the greater BEcoming conduct which is yet spreading thruout the world, where many more generations are needed to one day see the end of all unBEcoming conduct yet in the world, indeed, of what Jesus spoke of, and indeed, was one of the deep compassion which reflected apon the affect/effect results of all unBEcoming conduct which lurked, just as it does today, everywhere he went, feeling the truth of his emotional honesty in each passing moment of each blessed day.
i know what the kingdom of heaven is, where i am not able to simply turn away from all that i feel in each passing moment, where indeed, i feel the uncertainty of every word someones says to me, or to another…in retrospective reflection i realize, i have always been this way, tuned into my feelings in each passing moment.
we all do, do we not, but why is it so many CHOSE to be of the untruthfulness of the divine child which constantly yearns for what is naturally occuring for the divine child of God…love devoid of doubt, where the child is seemingly constantly inundated by all these untruthful false unBEcoming conducts which the divine child feels the truth of in each passing moment?
i blame it ALL on the unwise false teachings of the forefathers before us all, and indeed, are the exact words of Jesus of whom God taught.
i met God and God greeted me
i know fully the pure undeniable, unwavering, unchallengable, and unfailing truth in everything i look apon, just as Jesus instructed, “Look apon the truth in all things, where life is your greatest teacher.”
we are evolving, and i am thrilled of where i now stand in my knowingness of what the kingdom of heaven is, the halo of great decerning wisdom as regards to all conduct which goes against the divine child of God of us ALL.
i have grown past my desires to find fault in anyone, and i do not blame anyone for the way they may conduct themselves(although sometimes i do slip out of my halo of understanding when i am enticed, cajoled, ridiculed or mocked), rather i usually find my self silently reflecting within of my knowingness of what Jesus meant by the snares of unBEcoming conduct which are WITHOUT DOUBT, the false teachings of the forefathers who did not desire God’s divine willing for us to BEcome wise of the divine child SELF of us all….where rather than anger or resent, i lean towards compassionate reflection of the truth…passingby when it seems i am up against too much negativity, returning another day, for sake of them, for sake that i remain of my protective halo of understanding, ever yearning of one like myself, a single soul mate lover and friend that i know exists for me, of my knowingness, of Jesus and God’s knowingness, there is someone meant for me…without doubt.
it is what any and all of us yearn for subconsciously, ideally cognitively like i am, pushing myself away from my own immature old self, constantly growing in the direction of what the kingdom of heaven is…love devoid of useless absurd doubtfulnesses, like that which seems to permeate the world in all of it’s fearful unBEcoming ways.
so who’s with me? 😉
ah, you know me, i always show up, year after year…where else can i go, other than where i am always found…the divine child within us ALL.
Hey Andy, what’s gone wrong with Madonna? She sounded right miserable in that last posting of hers. What’s up with her?
If she doesn’t explain her problems then we can’t fix them for her!
Did she forget to follow our advice and hide her money under the bed?
i live each breath, each heartbeat, each footstep in my constant effort to be of comfort for all my loving brothers and sisters of the GLBT community…indeed, i have BEcome what i am, just as so many of us have, the knowingness of how we are all treated by the unwise, bitter, cajoling, ridiculing, belittling, condescending, mocker and spit apon behaviours which many of us are inundated daily by those who are ignorant of just how loving we truly are with one another in our favorite places of sincere love for one another, like the many clubs here in the GLBT ghettos of our cities worldwide.
i came here to survive and live out my life in peace.
ah, she’s probably like me, beside herself yearning for tenderness of love like i am.
like me, i don’t gives to hoots about money…we know.
when i was a young boy, i had the most incredible friendship with my cousin, where we knew we loved each other utterly and completely, without doubt, of genuine constant joyfulness of forever at play exceeding joy, which grew as time passed for us both, affect/effecting out personalities forever.
i realize today, i am out of my element when i don’t feel that with another.
Aw … babay wants huggy wuggy.
X
of course, the only way to find out, is by time spent together…impossible to merely speculate or get all caught up in whatevers, or what ifs of wondering…kinda silly be anything other than encouraging of our own emotional honesty in outward appearance…
that’s all i am doing, seeking environments which are conducive for me to grow mentally healthy in…cognitively…although sometimes i do trip over myself in my earnest yearning to belong, where my own silly insecurity gets the best of me somedays…
today, a most beautiful of fall days, i am just happy for the day, and do what i always do, feel everything in each passing moment, where ever i am, with who ever, where i connect with the importance of a mere smile or touch of another’s hand, is of my purpose in life as one who is passing thru this world…as one who is of God.
however small my life affect/effects the world, i always strive for positive affect/effect input into the connected matrix which connects us ALL, moment by passing moment.
ya….i need a hug damn it! NOW!
lol
😀 😀
don’t we all…world sure can get the best of us, if we are not cautious in our thinking and setting of boundaries.
i always believed that if you sit at a table with someone day after day, you eventually start thinking and behaving like they do…so becareful of who you invite to the table to sit with you daily of your inner cirlce people…
i am thankful of each blessed day, of my own inner serenity, albeit, like anyone, i get my bad hair days…but great has been the enlightenment of recent…coming into full knowingness….
all i need to do now is sit with what i feel and know of my own sincerity within of what i know fully about my own life, and the choices i make of where i put my heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, diligent to remain in step with positive radiant brightness for the divine child of God within us ALL….hence why i want to do the clowns, and all the bizarre ideas that float around in my head daily…
that is all i want to do in life, is promote the arts which are radiant and bright, be it theatrical, art, music, film, where ever life leads me too, i know what the world needs and is lacking of….encouragement of exceeding joyful spark of loving life within us ALL.
of God’s divine WILLINGNESS.
it is not about anything other than our sincere joyfulness and thankfulness of loving life, where in our joy, all nonsense of the bitter world falls away, does it not?
I just want to always encourage what it is i feel and know within me, within us ALL….that’s it…that is all i want to do with my life.
lead by example of what we feel within, outward in appearance….endogenous
it all comes down to what Jesus said, “What YOU brings forth, is what is able to save YOU.”
the YOU within us ALL.
thanks for the hug….i really felt that one!
Right, I’m off out for an evening with the works crowd, so have a good evening.
X
P.s. A new thread please!!!! This is agony on an iPod touch
i am so friggin insecure somedays!
and it’s not like me to be insecure.
just alot of personal junk in my immediate life, that’s all, ex keeps digging his claws into me daily…argh!
people and their immature behaviour…still have yet to set my boundaries as of yet with him…soon!….for his sake and mine….i can’t take his absurdness anymore, so fearful, and belittling…feels like i am stuck in some prison camp in North Veitnam somedays, daily rastions, all of my own doing for staying way too long…
ah…just life and what life teaches us, where indeed, i too am to blame for everything.
the other day though, i felt something different…hard to describe…a sort of wondering why i bother fretting about any absurd behaviours of anyone, and just let go into being me, forever free to just be me, unmessing if you will from the enmessed relationships which still grip my spirit…
not you…the morons in my immediate life…
you are much more sensitive than you are telling me, and i am sorry for my wacky rudeness….again….
forgive my unwisness with you…
it’s just that….well…you know…..
but hey…i found the key to the kingdom of heaven….damn thing was right where it always was…our heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, able to be nurtured by love, protected by God’s wisdom, of God’s divine will for us to fully embrace the protective wisdoms which entice and cajole us into being like that of the unwisenesses of the world.
it is an individual level awareness, which i know you are of…and is why i am here…you know….
you know the divine child within us all is in need of, just as you too are in need of….love devoid of doubt.
Kingdom of Heaven on earth…constantly all around us, constantly of our emotional honesty which feels each passing moment….
of course, who better have as a friend than one who truly YOU?
see that, we all followed the businessman bankers in life, of what Jesus warned us not to do…and now look, like Jesus said, “They will turn on you eventually and betray you all.”
nah…i jest…
it may level off soon…as everyone waits with baited breath to see where the bottom is, and jump back in, thundering the stocks back up thru the ceiling…like they always do, a volleyball game these investors play…that’s all. That’s what they do.
blame government for the no constraint speculation of the worldwide economy, both of the banking and stock market wide open to the few investors who are now running the worldwide economy into the ground, of absolutely not consideration for God.
~ truly we know, this world is not of God.
and yet it is of God, just not of God’s wisdom.
fortunately for me, i am of God, and care not of the mindlessness of those who sit apon the thrones of nescience so obvious to feel the truth of, are they not?
lol
well…it’s not like someone did not warn us.
for me, i am thrilled to know what the kingdom of heaven is, and obviously, what it is not….
don’t worry people, this thing will hit bottom, when ever it does, and when it does they will volley it back over the other side.
the instant connections of worldwide trading is what we are seeing, that’s all…a new era of unprecedented trading not seen before, of it’s massive swings that come with the entire world trading that has alot more investors than any other time in history, hence, the massive swing is because of the number of investors, that’s all.
they need to come up with better constraint, as this really is absurd over speculation which is unrealistic of the markets these corporations represent, although who knows what the pessimistic, realistic, and optimistic forecasts are as a whole, where attention to the pessimisitic forecasts is what would likely be realistic, whatwith the housing market data.
i just find it all rather amusing…although the family crisis issue is something which i positively despise when people lose their jobs, all because of the zealots left in control of the economy….
government leaders need to embrace the wholesome goodness of stability for sake of the mental emotional well being of the ALL, and bring in new control measures which won’t allow this sort of thing to appear again on the economic horizon, as growing investors will see larger swings of the markets, just as we are seeing today, where millions are affect/effected by it…it is just absurd that this sort of instability is allowed to exist like it does, from a mental health perspective, which is the only thing i am considerate of in life, at a personal individual level of experience.
there goes your friend the banker everyone, exiting the temple…not a true and faithful friend…not to be trusted.
not of God, nor should ever be of any of us.
they are self serving…of absolutely no consideration for the economy for their own children one day.
hey, maybe the whole thing will crash so hard into the ground we will see cities on fire, burning of houses everywhere that the banks reclaimed, chaos, anarchy…
at what point is the point of no return?
i would say about a month from now, when the fall out from the corporations hits who are now operating under tighter conditions…that’s if it does not bounce back, which it will, how long it takes is the question, as fear takes time to switch back over to their greed mode.
lol
morons….i am surrounded by morons father…their own worse enemies.
hey, maybe this will usher in a new way of thinking, like, “to hell with the rich mentality so boastful in their self-serving greed slave/master mentalities, for what they did us all!”
lol
of course, it will take a great economic impactful disaster for that, like 1929, only on a much larger scale…which won’t happen.
i am just bored with my imagination…that’s all.
look how everyone is fretting so much, like they have no concept of self-serving greed.
sadly, joe sixpack just wants to feed his loving family…motherfuckers.
i suppose the companies could increase the buy back in prices for stocks…if they are wise.
lol
good time to check that one…and keep profits for the company instead, turning the profits into expansion to meet the massive china economy yet unfolding in the next two decades…
opppss…my secret is out!
lol
as for problems, i have everything i will ever need to fix my own issues…merely by using what God gave me…my brain.
i have no problems i am not able to fix on my own.
it is an individual independent thing…i value my independence.
i told my therapist there is no way i am going to live with anyone for a long time, where even after two years, i am not moving in with them, no stupid let’s get married like so many do…no way…i am keeping my independence where i can easily disconnect if it don’t feel right for me….
people make the big mistake of rushing into relationships like they do, and find out later it was a bad idea.
it takes along time to truly get to know and trust someone, and giving them independence as well, is healthy for them, autonomy, their own peaceful place of dwelling, without feeling awkward…their own space…healthy.
20yrs now since i choose the hard road, the path of self discovery, the spiritual journey sacrificing the pleasures of the material world, (mostly)
well was it worth it ? i have to say YES most definatly, being whole to have the knowing i now have about me it has removed the shackles the self imposed prison we all often deafult into, it is truly wonderous to be free from the burden of emotions we sometimes don’t fully comprehend those feelings that push us into the growth phase of our life’s journey, yes i am truly proud of how far i come and the anticipation of the in knowing how i can also help so many others to be free to experience the love of the self is my reward, confidently so .. so.. so there you go …
LOL 🙂
yep.
it has always been our own feelings we feel in each passing moment, has it not?
sadly, those who do not choose to love us or be as loving as we are, are their own worse enemies in life, are they not?
the world is it’s own worse enemy in all of it’s, “oh, life is this way or life is that way.”
no…your life is YOUR life of emotional honesty in each passing moment, where last time i checked, if they don’t love me or want to love me, well, since when did it ever work for us when they don’t genuinely love YOU?
we can fool ourselves all we want, but we usually know when someone is genuinely loving of us, or rather, the obviousness of when they are not, yes?
i have a life inventory which is what keeps me on track for the kingdom of heaven knowingness.
the kingdom of heaven is as simple as the gentle breeze on your skin…or the drop of rain on your face, where our greatest joy in life is our loving lover, is it not?
you know that overwhelming feeling of love you have for someone?
ya…that is what heaven is.
i always surrender to my feelings and swim far out to sea with my lover, where it is like, omg, how did we get here, of only joyfulness in our hearts which is of the genuine loving feelings of the divine self, which is so incredible when two souls truly connect.
i yearn for that connection with another, and i won’t settle for the pretenders, knowingness of what the connection feels like, having a life inventory to draw from of how it feels.
kinda silly to pretend away to ourselves about another we love, where we only hurt ourselves, do we not?
there is someone any of us can truly connect with.
i don’t fret about it like i used to, having connected with many in life…always around the next corner in life, there is someone who connects with us, and i know God knows our feelings.
God has revealed his presence with me many times about my sincere feelings, even the feelings of being hurt by another, where i don’t necessarily express having been hurt by them, and instead just feel what it is i felt, where God is soothing for me in knowingness of what i am going thru at the time, ever reminding me, that many there are who are yet sadly snared by unwiseness…not necessarily of their fault.
we do have to allow others to come to knowingness of their own feelings for us, which takes time, where it is always up to them as to whether they too feel as you do.
and if they sincerely do, there is nothing in life that will keep them apart, as it becomes obvious for both in their own individual emotional honesty of each, as to what they feel, where it is not something you can cause another to feel loving of you…no….they love you or they don’t.
and when they do love you, they overcome their fear in expressing it to you eventually, of their thinking of you while apart like you do of them.
i usually get scared when i know i love someone alot…and i get all stupid, tripping over myself alot, but one thing i did learn, is not to be afraid to express myself to them, which i cannot hide when i know i am genuinely crazy for someone…certifiable i am! lol
i jest…
and of course i am always accepting of loving friendships that feel good for me, where some friends may or may not evolve into something more than they both realized at first…
i can usually detect if there is something there within them that tells me, oh, they love me…and of course the usual, oh…they don’t really love me…which is fine, for whatever reasons, not their type, not their sex, even not their political….can you believe that, someone ditched me one time because of my politic… ha
ya…for me there is no greater significance than the loving embrace of the most loving of lovers…i know the difference having had alot of lovers in life.
and of course if you are best friends to top it all off…well…hey…it could not get any better.
generally, the most loving lovers are truly most loving as best friends in life, always of exceeding insanity for one another…you just know when you clic with someone.
you just know…
and likewise, you just know when the opposite is true, something one can not usually hide from when they don’t feel comfortable for you.
i forget the intimacy of kissing a female, but i do remember how incredible i used to feel when i was with females, some twenty years ago…
yep…it is all flooding back to me…help…im drowning.
lol
😀 😀
feels amazing for me actually, as i really love the female body…always did, so much so i feel like a female.
not sure if that was the right thing to say or not, but i said it anyway. ha.
ah, it’s futile…i will never get a girl interested in me.
what kind of a girl would ever date a gay guy?
i mean really? Could she really love a gay guy as much as the gay guy loves her?
😀 😀
ya just never know….
to be continued….
a gay guy with the nick name Pansy no less…
sssheeshhhh….never get a girlfriend in highschool for too long, once Mike got talking with her about me and my Mom’s playgirl mags…
hmmmm….come to think of it, Mike dressed up as a girl one time for Halloween, which tells me everything i need to know about what Mike was thinking of Andy back then!
lol
I sumbled across this word today, i liked it so thought i’d share it, “Self-illumination”
its a good one yes..
always radiant and bright in my thoughts of you Marco.
People just need to increase their value in what is of the only value in life…time together with one another.
When you have the bubbling butterfly feeling inside in your thoughts and anticipation of another, then you already increased your value, have you not? 😉 😀
my therapist has a joyful montepython twisted sense of humour.
she says, “I was sad one day for not having any shoes, until i saw a man with no feet, and i asked him, What did you do with your shoes?”
lol 😀 😀
what a beautiful morning! wow!
Two lovers were chatting one day…
one lover says, “Do you love me like i do you, and do you…?”
(the other lover, without hesitation interupts quickly and says)
“YES!!!!”
~ The end ~
😉 😀
im going to go chat with Jesus for abit…be back later dudes and dudesses!
is that a word? dudess?
do you know the proof of the future is always of today, or that tommorrow is always of today?
at any time of day or night, it is always tommorrow somewhere in the world.
lol
(andy laughs while he rolls another spliff)
i jest…
~ say no to drugs and alcohol
Good luck Madonna for show etc. etc.
X
oh, you and luck…
sheesshhh!
since when did luck cause the wind to blow?
since when did luck cause me to know?
since when did luck cause our spirits to grow?
since when did luck save the gambling fellow?
since when did luck…
oh never mind…
lol
😀 😀
no wait….mind your mind….don’t leave it to chance…
by chance we met?
nah…i googled your name!
lol
morons….i am surrounded by morons father. 😉 😀
Saying “good luck” is a conventional, well-meant phrase said before an important event. It’s a “nice thing to say”.
So what is OK to say? “Best wishes”? That basically means the same thing.
I have decided that from now on I will say “Klaatu” which is the greeting in the alien language in Mork and Mindy, if that’s OK?
oh hey, i love Mork and Mindy…
Klaatu!!!
nano nano!
i surrounded by moron’s too, i hate everybody, everyone is an IDIOT im surrounded by IDIOT’s and i have been celibant for a month because everyone is an IDIOT i don’t want anyone near me..
except andy M and Rachel their my friends..
nano nano!!
~ emotional honesty
a good place to start…with self.
hey, how does that phrase go again, of how a slave who becomes free and sells themselves back into slavery, is not able to become free again?
Jesus spoke those words…
and i have been trying to understand it for years…
today i understand it…
slave to the world serving the world, or master of self serving God’s work, which is of the pure of heart divine true self, constantly compassionate, wise and loving inward and outward in appearance…
in other words, when we serve God, we serve the divine self within, as well as the divine self within another, and best of all, it is easy and fun, as you get to Just BE Your SELF.
oh and i like Annie Lennox too, just heard her new song Heaven from the link on Andy’s Blog, i’ve alway’s like Annie Lennox her music is so haunting i love it.. move’s the soul I like M music to the old stuff more like a prayer and stuff very hunting.
stop spooking me, and say hello GOd damn it
Klaatu!!
hi
my spelling is so bad..
i felt an inner joy today that was so amazing!
something i had not felt before to the extent that i did, and it felt real assuring for me, of a forever feeling of confidence because of someone i have to know recently.
and i am afraid i won’t feel it again…
ya…i ah…sorta noticed the stuttering in your posts… 😉
i feel it everyday, then the world cut’s me down.
alone i am strong
alone i never go wrong
alone i shall be
for evernmore
alone
i have a new saying
“If you cannot be real i cannot stay”
ya, the world does weigh on us at times if we allow our self to be around those who are uncomfortable for us…
immature fearful insecure dweebs, is what i refer to them as…
i enjoy them, but their novelty wears off quickly for me…some…not all…
i had a vision today of a best friend who came along and ushered me to come and have fun, “Come on!” they said, as i exited the house to go do whatever, with great enthusiasm which was mind blowing for me to feel….
i like that saying, and it works for me…
but sometimes it is hard to be too real, as i feel awkward in doing so…comprende?
i emotional today, can you tell..
anyway i best go and eat something
yes i comprede, i know more about you than the whole world know’s about you,
because you kept it on a spiritual plane
comprende ?
good emotion i pray you feel
pure sincere emotional honesty spiritual plane…BEing REAL
the higher divine true SELF of the subtle emotional honesty and intellect, of grace, of trueness of the real self, no masks, only love from now on…
it is what we yearn to always feel like…and yearn for of another…
i won’t be any other way from now on, and if i do, kick me upside the head…ok? promise?
bless you
Im a little emotional right now, i have to go and eat something im hungry,
its been a long time since i have spent time alone with mySelf and not been depressed or repressed by intoxication i’ve had a lovely day the weather was beautiful today sun was shinning it was warm and spring is always beautifull in melb..
If i ever stop crying today i’ll be fine but all is good it is good to connect with your own inner emotions, & understant them more importantly..
i am terribly happy at the same time..
but i am so alone
it frighten’s me to thing there is noone left on this place who are real .. is scare’s me to death …
your my last hope
dont let me down
It’s “nanu nanu” is it? I can’t even get that right! I never watched the show.
This thread is tooooooo looooooooooooooooooong
What’s up? Your friends let you down? Are you going to name names? Tell us what they’ve done, apart from their general “unwiseness” of course?
i have to go now
i’ll be back i always come back to a safe place
there is a pure sincere knowingness feeling of my true self which grips things tightly and does not want to let go…and the assurance of holding something tight tells me about my true self, where i sometimes ask, “what does my true self want?”
to be loved merely for just BEing my Self, without having to be a certain way for my best friends, and just BE me…
i sense we have that, yes?
feels true for me, deep within, and it scares me sometimes, like maybe i am have unrealistic expectations of the future…and yet, i have to just BE me, and do not yearn to be anything other than my self, where in truth, i like me, and i know others do too, and perhaps i need to stop fretting to much about whether or not any particular person likes/loves me or not, and just let them like/love me or not like/love me…i love me, and that is good, yes?
Let’s hear the goss!
Was it the spooky woman?
thanks Marco…i appreciate your every word which is wise for sake the divine true self…thank you.
just immaturity , not real to themselves
im just changing as a person gowing faster then the rest, no one can keep up with me i guess
no, it is not anything bad they are doing, in fact the opposite is true, where i sense the truth more so than before…and i am like…oh oh….nah….they couldn’t possibly be….
oh i can keep up with you, not to worry there…
no its wasn’t the spooky woman, its just me
im fine don’t stress..
I have to go, now i’ll chat soon..
Bye bye then.
respectful open dialog…thanks
Are your “friends” slagging me off?
I had this with my ex. Her “friends” turned her against me, and now she’s stuck with some boring fart.
shoose , i have to go … seriously i’ve enjoyed the chat but neeed to eat sleep and rest soon for work ..
you have a good day…
and do what i do look for love in everymoment in every tree and in every flower , take the time to listen to the bird’s sing and watch the kittens and the children play, for that is the joy of life is it not !
good love to you ALL
i love you All
excep the IDIOT;s
🙂
lol
ya, i love the smell of the fall leaves…takes me back a ways to my youth.
ya, nature is so relaxing for us, where even the sound of a gravel road under our feet, has an recall of youth, or at least it does me, country boy that i am.
So what have your friends been saying?
ya, friends of mine who don’t know you, which pisses me off even more!
hence…why i am still here defending you. 😉
people can be such jerks!
i don’t listen to them at all…
they don’t even like me so fuck them!
no wait…i take that back…i don’t want to fuck them! lol
they are not conducive at all for me…a total negative environment soon to come to a closed door for them, where i will decide if i want to be around them or not ever again…
ya…i am toxic from my immediate environment, which is why i went off the other day like i did, frustration, that’s all, of trying to cope with too much negativity…you have no idea…it’s bad…
Which friends? What did they say? Can you be specific?
actually, it is really horrible for me…
was hoping to get moved by now, but delays for the moving van(a friend) has stalled my exiting sooner…
ah well…Thursday is the new day!
i think maybe i will spend the day/night at the new place tomorrow…i need the break from the toxic negativity which is almost constant around me…hard to believe i can stay so positive considering…i have learned just how solid i really am inside…intolerant of inappropriateness…healthy.
I bet it was a woman friend. They think they’re looking out for you, have your best interests at heart, but really they’re just bitter old crones who nobody loves so they don’t want anyone else to be in love. Trust me – I’ve been there with these women.
ex boyfriend i have lived with far too long! lol
i trust you…
and that is what i love about you the most.
you know how to be real with someone, and fearlessly i might add, so healthy for me.
i feel so stupid for being so fucking retarded the other day with Marco…who was being sincere and open with me…it’s a wonder he still talks to me, forgiving he is…and so wise.
hey…how was/is your day?
Ex-boyfriend slagging me off? Oops …
i thought alot about you all day today…all good feelings of course.
It’s a FANTASTIC day here so I’m going to be off out surfing.
boyfriend/girlfriend…same thing…his nasty alter ego has sharp claws and fire like a dragon lady…
surfing for what? ha
are you looking at porn again?
sheeshhh!
Surfing for fitness and fun.
oh, is that what they call it? lol
“i thought alot about you all day today…all good feelings of course.”
Oh, how sweet. I always think of you too.
It’s a lovely morning out there and I’ve really got to go and make the best of it.
So have a good day.
X
ya…i have sorta been reading between the lines for awhile now…. 😉
you too!
I am taking in the film here in TO, which is raising funds for her organization this week. For sure i want to feel connected with what her and i are about, where it will be a blessed day to feel what it is i will feel in each moment, just as most will.
the benefits are two fold, for sake of us in increasing our value of feelings, and for sake of those who cannot cope without us.
This world needs are real hard kick in the ass. I really despise the way the world ignores those in horrific conditions, all these self-serving ones everywhere i look, such emptiness about them, where they don’t see the sad condition of their souls like the way i see them…all thinking they are so right about what they are all about. Having conversations with them is like, “Yikes!”, are you not connected with how the world is, going on about nothing? 😉
Everything we do in life, echoes thru eternity.
the sun is coming up…notice how calm, graceful and peaceful the sun comes up?
that’s what i connect with, and actually feeling move across the sky and slowly set peacefully again at the end of a day.
i connect with it, the moon too, delicately there in the sky, so incredible it all is, is it not?
more so when you feel love with another who loves you as much as you do them…ultimately, what i yearn for, what we all yearn for, of the only value in life, and is indeed of value when we have that with another at our side…
that is what i want…and that is what one day i shall have again…
i know i will…without doubt.
Marco…do you read minds, is that how you were really feeling, because i am bewildered to here say those words today, as though said them myself.
for me, it is environmental, which i have addressed and taking action, and i know myself well, i am at my very best when alone away from toxic environments for extended periods of time, although not being alone, getting out with the crowd is healthy, so long as we are cautious of our inner circle friends we select according to how we feel around them and they us…
M sounds like she has great healthy friends who sincerely love her…i am pleased to know that she does. She shines radiant and bright, and i want to always feel that way.
opppsss…
should of read;
i want her to always feel radiant and bright.
and of course, me two! 😉
Nanu nanu to Madonna for her show tonight!
X
indeed, nano nano to the precious love souls she greets are may be struggling inwardly from the OUTwardly on their home front, where if even ONE precious soul is saved from spiritual death, every step, every breath, every heartbeat is in step with God, is it not?
Just one, is all i ask for, i my asking God for forgiveness over Troy.
i really did humble myself, in giving my life to Jesus and God in this regard…100% knowingness.
so yeah….what we do in life…really does echoe in eternity, yes?
we know
on we go
Everyone was impacted by Troy’s loss years ago, and without doubt, we all still are, his precious soul which revealed so much truth of the purity and sincerity of my own soul, of whom i am eternally greatful of, thanking God for Troy’s life, which is why i am standing here this day with you.
for sake of one…just one
we are of life and death, both physical and spiritual life and death….of God’s divine WILL, that of our WILLingness.
God knows us…100%
and who knows, maybe one day we will all gather together, of smiling faces, and colourful satin outfits, on a most beautiful of days, maybe horses too?
i love horses, my favorite creature of all.
without doubt…my spirit is always with you, 100%, all the way thru life, i know i will always be there, just as i always have been, of my warm thoughts and prayers of you, and of the ONE.
Jesus and God are with you, always.
i was thinking, some really wild stallions, freshly broken, big ones, which are nearly impossible to maintain, heavey breathes, extremely wild and jumpy, where you need professional riders to ride and control them.
they have a wonderful sensibility of the power of life, untamed, intimidated and intimidating they are indeed, rearing up in the air, the heavey heavey breathing like they do, huffing away like they do.
i had a stallion chase me in a field one time across 10,000 acres of land in Tennessee, a field i did not know a stallion was in with his mares. I had no saddle, just bareback, holding the horse main as we took off for dear life, this wild stallion wanting to kill us, kicking, rearing, biting…it was so intense! lol
so yeah! i definitely want horses one day, suits of beautiful colored armor, the flags, the chain mall head dresses, leather chaps, so intense, so so intense and beautiful to behold and feel the significance of their own homosexuality, something beautiful of them, which i love utterly and completely of them ALL.
it is so hard for some of them coming out of the closet, where some don’t survive, sadly, of high statistical data…of which Troy is ONE.
God bless Troy. thank you God, for Troy’s life of which i am eterally thankful for, forever loved and missed.
Let’s keep on…keep it together!
Andy can you believe this , I received a lecture at work because they said I was negative and too outspoken, I mean they are the most false and fear based people I have ever met in my entire life, even the work phone number is an evil number is 9666 6666, also today when I got to work there were hundred’s of dead fly’s in the foyer from the hot weekend weather, honestly it was something out of a poltergeist movie, then they offered me counseling if I needed it because I earlier tried to brush them off by saying it was personal, when they tried to delve into my life to suck me try because they feel uneasy around me, ( unable to discern or understand me because I don’t fit into the norms of the constricted mindset of an Idiot & Moron.
I have to be one of the strongest minded and sane person on the planet, see the ignorance and ignoramus of the morons I have to deal with trying to sap the life force out of my soul, chip away at me like they do, Vampires their all Vampires, I am a light in a bat cave ..
I am getting a new Job .. TODAY ( they miss me when I am gone, Idiot’s, why do I attract this, to make me stronger so I shine brighter in the darkness, damn Vampires, where’s my silver Bullet ?? HA ??
( I might write a song from this I’ll call it, “Bat Me up Vampire” )
It’s that you attract them
Be wisely descering of God’s wisdom which knows many the innocent souls of the earth who are born into households which teach learned behaviours.
BE forgiving of them ALL, compassionate of God’s wisdom, of YOUR wisdom, of God’s divine WILL that you BEcome the WILLINGness to embrace pure TRUTH wisdoms.
Like me, you are of the journey of life which teaches you these truth wisdoms i speak of.
BE of the knowingness that i am of God’s wisdom, chosen by God.
i know who i am
a revealer of truth, like that of the biblical book of revelations.
TRUTH(wisdom) does NOT fail.
it has always BEen we who failed to come to the cross and fully embrace the precious loving soul of Jesus like i do, fully and completely i embrace him, his wisdom, his love devoid of doubt i feel while in the halo of God’s wisdom where i dwell, eternally protected by the truth wisdoms which are not able to be challenged, of which no one is able to become victorious over for all eternity.
indeed, i am of the truth wisdoms of the no time constraint eternal realm, of eternal TRUTH that does not fail, not ever, CONSTANT like the sun which is always shining, pure TRUTH.
who are these motherfuckers anyway Marco?
let me have a go at them, for i am of God’s powerful wisdom which sees thru all layers to the conditon of their precious souls held captive by the bitter chains which bind their souls.
like you, i dwell among them here on earth, as one who comes into the darkness undetected, to break these bitter unwise chains which bind the many innocent souls i find there, able to set free the precious loving souls.
great and numerous are the many of the bitter unwise nashing of teeth, OUTside the gates of heaven Marco, are there not?
(andy rolls another spliff)
lol
i jest guys…i do not do drugs, nor alcohol.
alcohol blurs my rational thinking, where should i consume alcohol, my emotional intensity would likely see an irrational destruction of me, a wise adult child of God which i have BEcome.
God asked me to cast alcohol out of God’s house of love and peace where i dwell with God.
i don’t againt those who do, and may be able to handle it, where i know i cannot ever play with it again, because of what has happened in my life, of what increased my emotional intensity.
but please know, statistically, substance abuse does spiral downward into darker places of psychosis, points of no return for some, where death does lurk there, and indeed, death does come to many gripped by unwise spiritual death, these voids devoid of God’s descerning truth wisdoms, which protect the precious loving child of God from destruction and nescience eternally.
i too have dangerous spirits which lurk near me in my immediate physical life, which actually falsely prosecuted and put me jail, where i am out on bail as we speak, where they still which to prosecute me.
sadly, i may end up jailed during M’s concert here in TO, if i am not cautious in breaching my bail conditions.
like is said…it’s bad for me right now.
i may lose my right to leave the country to travel, which upsets me even more…
people can be such fucking jerk offs, yes?
why i have such a horrible time trusting others…betrayed so badly like they have of me.
loss of my job, which initially was of betrayal, turns out i am glad to be finally free, no desire to return to the aburdnesses you speak of, of many cirlces i too have found myself in, where indeed, someone betrays…fucking jackasses that they are, yes?
lol
i am proud of your strength in spirit Marco! So very proud of you.
you inspire me greatly, as we are of great awareness of these things i speak of, the condition of souls bound by chains of unwiseness, all learned behaviours of the teachings of the forefathers before us all, of what lurks for of all precious loving souls born into the kingdom of heaven here on earth, indeed, the voids devoid of God’s love, compassionate wisdom.
God summons all to the gates of heaven, where it is the wisdom of Jesus we pass thru, where Jesus knew it was him who became that of the child of God within us all, of the truth wisdoms which protect the peaceful by nature, precious loving child of God of us ALL.
bless you
*correction* ^
It’s >NOT< that you attract them
In truth, when you silently dwell in the halo of wisdom, they cannot see you, because of their blindness which cannot comprehend you.
but you can see(feel) them, yes? 😉
(andy laughs, as he rolls yet another spliff)
lol
don’t mind me, it is just the joyfulness of my youthful self i used to be long ago which is become rejuvenated, because of my setting of healthy boundaries, like you, of no desire to be around the absurd ones who are indeed toxic for us.
i am compassionate for them…don’t get me wrong…but dwell among them for extended periods of time…i cannot, nor desire to.
i am on track with the kingdom of heaven, and i know, there is someone like me of the same mindset, their spirit set free like my own.
if i am struck down, then honor me by remembering, ok?
and do as i do, and have done for many years, fearlessly.
dragon lady has her claws tightly wrapped around me.
i love your sense of humor Marco!
indeed, we have to laugh at the absurdness, where laughter fearlessly sets our spirit free, yes?
montephython
i have a court therapist working closely with me, who is the one who is able to fully assist me at trial of the false prosecution i am yet snared by.
trial date will be sometime in late spring.
she loves me, and i her
she knows fully, i was railroaded by someone who is of insecure controlling behaviour.
call the new song…”The Dragon Lady”, so i can perhaps one day chuckle about this bullshit, ok? ha
raging false egos of insecure controlling learned behaviour, which have roots in childhood.
drag lady was badly neglected and abused as a child.
i am compassionate, am i not, in maintaining the friendship, for sake of drag lady not harming herself.
she was moderately suicidal when i met her.
still is…
fortunate for her, the court referred her to counseling, which she is attending faithfully.
thank God, because i am not qualified to save either one of us. lol
i am still nurturing of gentle light of friendship as we speak, but trust?…destroyed for a very long time.
(andy exits out of the therapists office ~ stage left, to go outside for a spliff)
lol
his spirit eternally set free to Just BE his SELF. 😉
that was some of the best writting i have seen you write Marco! 😀 😀
you are loved by me forever more…always.
always
drag lady holds me hostage with threats of more jail time…embarassing for me to say the least to speak of such wretchedness of unloving spirit against me…one of many worse experiences of my journey of life.
she has calmed down recently, yet still theatens me daily…
i need to keep my job, in order after my kid…and so i co-operate long enough to safely exit…gracefully.
in order to look after Rodrigo, i need to keep my job.
ya, of God, in a world without God…obviously of my feelings daily, yes?
still cannot believe this dark passage i am yet in, and yet, daily it is there for me to feel.
truth wisdom(light) is what saves me, and indeed, i have written from the emotional honesty and intensity of it all, so not bad, the silver lining of every dark cloud, where darkness serves the enlightened one, by means of the truth of ignorance vs wisdom.
without doubt…the greatest prison in life….is the mind
we are no different from one another in life.
While our journey of life experience may be different, our emotions reveal the truth of this we are not different, where indeed, many have experienced the horrific painful feelings of the loss of our loved ones to unwiseness, have we not?
It is unwise indifferences of all ignorant teachings of the forefathers before us, which continues to grip the world in all it’s absurd useless unwise indifferences of the issues of mental, emotional, race, religion, wealth, status, sexuality, and political.
Where are your leaders of wiseness which cast out our foolish indifferences? Oh yeah, they are having lunch with the bankers who all exited the temple, taking everything you worked for with them, these con artists and masters of trickery.
They cannot ever become masters over your soul, of which the divine truth wisdoms protect your precious loving child of God within from all unwiseness for all eternity, TRUTH which does not fail, nor does God wish apon any to fail, even those who sit apon the many thrones of nescience which rule the world.
We are not different from one another, where all are of the capability to enter fully into the kingdom of heaven understanding and perspective.
Many there will be who are last to enter, where it is the Power of the Love of the All which ushers in the kingdom of heaven on earth.
Let it be known that God sees with clarity, all wretched hateful unwiseness of all souls of the earth, at all times…God is compassionately watching and dwells amoung us. Always did, where it has always been the useless unwise indifferences which has been cause of all absurd seperation, such as that of the wretchedness of war….not of God, rather of those who claim to know God and do not, who do not truly desire God’s divine wisdom meant for the loving child of God within us ALL.
blessings to all
bless you
Look at you…people you have turned this into public gay toilet..and why,because you want to be seen on Madonnas blog.You are just dyinng for a minunte of fame,forgeting its not about you..its about the children and the good people..”you shell know them by theyr froots”i don’t think you can give any froots and if you do they would be no good,just like you”.
Speking of ignorance..you should know what God would do to all gay man like you..i don’t want to be the one to remind you,better start reading and finding out what the future holds for you.Future -God..He is the future and the past and everything…One day you would know that Madonna was never who you thought she is and youllbe scared ass hell.
boring R.s.. change the subject
well…you may to check your ignorance at the gate into heaven Shwartz, for truly you are clueless about Madonna, one of the most loving members of the GLBT worldwide community, one her dearest friends in life, an gay artist, Keith Haring, which is part of the Sticky and Sweet Tour.
Keith Haring was born in Reading, Pennsylvania, and studied graphic art in Pittsburg. After coming out, he moved to New York where he became influenced by graffiti art. Keith Haring born 5 May 1958 (d. 1990)
You can add yourself to her black list any time you want Shwartz, which you just did, and indeed, like i said, many there will be who are last to enter the kingdom of heaven understanding, here on earth.
You are already forgiven by Jesus and God who are yet compassionate for your useless absurd unwise indifference, but if you physical or verbally attack one of my loving brothers or sisters in public, wild horses will come and drag you to prison, like the darkness of prison of the mind you yet dwell in, restrained, lest you ever bring harm to any of us. You have been fairly warned by one who is of God, who stands vigilantly at the gate of heaven where only wisdom, love and compassion for all souls yet snared by unwise, unloving apathetic teachings of the forefathers, yes, the unwise forefathers who created and edit the bible which is composed of the writings of those who recorded the words of Jesus, writings they stole from his followers, after they executed them, indeed, the very ones Jesus spoke of who do not truly desire to know God, yet claim they did and do, the same unwise teachings handed down today, of the many who do not truly desire to know God, the many merchants of God in the world today.
Think what you want of me…but truly i tell you, you do not fully know ‘me’.
hey, that was a nice uppercut to the jaw!
we are the champions, yes we are the champions…of the world.
(andy rolls another spliff)
what?
oh come on guys…i would rather you smoke weed than drink alcohol, if you are of the desire to self-medicate like many of you do.
since when did weed ever cause someone to be unhappy?
lethargically dysfunctional maybe, but seldom ever unhappy or violent.
oh, one more thing Swartz…the ones who created the bible, from the stolen teachings of Jesus, did not get all the teachings of Jesus Swartz, teachings which are yet surfacing from having been burried in the desert in clay jars, carbondated, and conclusively pointing to their origin…words of Jesus while he walked the earth.
but hey, what do i know…i am just a hermetical monk who has studied the words for twenty years now.
sorry…correct…a bisexual hermetical monk…i am
a loving wise compassion child of God, loving wise compassionate brother of Jesus.
oh, and another thing swartz, i am not about fame or fortune, where indeed, i do not even reveal myself during pride events, where it is not me they look apon, rather it is a reflection of their own loving SELF, of my intention in doing so, and yes, i will continue just as i have been for decades, as one who is about the self of another, for sake of them, not at all about fame, so stick that one in your pipe and smoke it.
Can’t decide if i want to ride a horse as one of the androgynous twins, a motorbike or walk as one of the masked clowns….hmmm….i’ll get back to you on that ONE.
😉 😀
fucking morons father…forgive them, for they know not what they do to their own precious loving child within, lead to and fro, this way and that way, ever stumbling as they make their way into heaven.
(andy rolls another one)
Sarah Palin condoms with her picture on it, to promote safe sex?
you didn’t…did you?
tell me that is a rumor…
oh, you are too much M.
There is truth or dare, but then there is the Sarah Palin condoms…unbelievable..you didn’t?
omg…she did!
😉 😀
Mama?
Hope you’re doing well.
Immortal and I Love You.
Sorry for not seeing all those illusions right a way.
Thanks for helping to Light the path.
Xox
Gay students who are harassed have higher dropout rates than their heterosexual classmates, a national study found.
Public school officials in Chicago, Illinois, are recommending approval of a “gay-friendly” high school because harassment and violence are causing gay students to skip class and drop out at alarming rates.
Way to Chicago! OUTstanding!
Gay and lesbian students are three times more likely to miss school because they feel unsafe, according to a 2003 Chicago Public School District survey. And a study released Wednesday by the Gay, Lesbian and Straight Education Network showed similar trends across the country.
The national study, which the group says is the most comprehensive report ever on the experiences of lesbian, gay, bisexual and transgender students nationwide, found that 86.2 percent of those students reported being verbally harassed, 44.1 percent physically harassed and 22.1 percent physically assaulted at school in the past year because of their sexual orientation.
This harassment, the study concludes, has affected students’ ability to achieve success in school, causing their grade-point level to be, on average, half a point lower than that of heterosexual students nationwide.
Dropout levels are higher among lesbian, gay, bisexual and transgender students because of more frequent truancy, the study found. Almost 32 percent of those students missed a class because of feeling unsafe, compared with only 5.5 percent of heterosexual students nationwide, the study said.
Truancy and lower grades aren’t the only repercussions of anti-gay sentiments in schools, said Kevin Jennings, the founder and executive director of GLSEN. He cited the killing of Lawrence King, a 15-year-old student shot by a classmate in Oxnard, California, in February after King asked to be his valentine.
Jennings said the repercussions of harassment alone underscore the need for Pride Campus.
“If we keep doing nothing, we are going to keep getting these horrifying levels of harassment, greater rates of skipping, not going to college and more tragic violence like the murder of Lawrence King,” he said. “Those are our choices. We can continue to do nothing, and we know the results, or we can save young people’s lives and offer them an education and a future.”
A similar school in New York, the Harvey Milk High School in the East Village, was created because of similar fears.
The school, which had been around since 1985, serving gay and lesbian students, expanded to a “gay-themed” school for 100 students in 2003. The Pride Campus is expected to serve 600 students, school officials said.
Harvey Milk High School, like the Pride Campus, is open to all students regardless of sexual orientation. But unlike the proposed school in Chicago, Harvey Milk requires its attendees to be at risk of dropping out because of harassment.
Harvey Milk boasts a graduation rate of 95 percent of its students — all of whom were at risk of or had dropped out — well above the city average of 52 percent.
When the school opened its doors, protesters, led by anti-gay Kansas minister Fred Phelps, screamed at supporters gathered outside to repent for their “sodomite behavior.”
Edelman said that while some concerns have been raised about Pride Campus at community meetings, officials have not heard any large-scale opposition.
One Chicago resident said at a meeting that he could not support the school because of his religious beliefs, Edelman said. Others told local media they didn’t support the use of public money to create the school. Some thought that if gay students went to the Pride Campus, students in other schools would not learn to accept the gay community. Instead, they suggested, the focus should be working toward acceptance in all schools.
“Absolutely, we should work for [acceptance] across the board,” said Jennings, the GLSEN executive director. “But it’s not going to change overnight, and in the meantime, these kids aren’t going to graduate.”
Jennings said that GLSEN research shows acceptance among peers is helped by having a lesbian, gay, bisexual and transgender support group at school.
The most important factor, according to the GLSEN study, is the existence of a state law that protects students from harassment based on their sexual orientation.
Thirty-nine states, including Illinois and New York, do not have laws offering that specific protection, Jennings said citing the GLSEN study. Some have laws, but they don’t specify on what basis the protections apply, which Jennings said was essentially as effective as having no law at all. California, Connecticut, Iowa, Maine, Maryland, Massachusetts, Minnesota, New Jersey, Vermont, Washington and Wisconsin are the only states with specific sexual orientation protections for students.
The Chicago School Board will vote October 22 to approve the School for Social Justice Pride Campus in addition to 17 other proposed schools.
As far as Jennings is concerned, the school board’s choice is an easy one.
“The choice they are making is not should we have this kind of school,” he said. “The question is ‘Are we going to do anything we can to get these kids an education?’ And there’s only one right answer — yes.”
You got that Swartz?
ok…God blesses ALL
Jesus Loves ALL. God Loves ALL. We Love ALL.
God Blesses ALL
you got that Swartz?
ok then….God Blesses ALL children of God with loving compassionate wisdom which protects the loving child of God within us ALL.
blessings to ALL
bless you
That concert last night at MSG was disappointing at best. To come on 2 hours late with no opening act so your fans (who all paid upwards of $100 a ticket) had to just twiddle their thumbs for two hours is unbelievably rude, and then to not even bother to THANK us for being there even once? And then after throwing in an Annie Lennox song (how random was that?), an interlude from some other band in the middle of your show, and all that waiting, you don’t even give us an encore? I get that you’re Madonna and you can make us wait because, well, we will, but if you continue to treat your fans this way, there won’t be any left.
two hours late ! ooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
http://fr.youtube.com/watch?v=Jz2xoQKrS2Q
we didn t come for buttering sandwiches…
What is it with Madonna and Sarah Palin?
I’m just not mentioning the subject ….
British government basically bought-up several banks today. Some greedy top bankers lost their jobs! You’d be happy.
We’re hoping that from now on the banks will be run to provide a decent service for the British people, not just trying to devise newer sneaky ways to part them from their money.
Is anybody here?
there is construtive criticism…and then there is Emma…
oh wow! you played an Annie Lennox song? Excellent.
BE happy Madonna yet leads the world as the world’s # 1 most influential artist in history, more famous than Jesus Christ, leading us all in the right direction, opening our hearts to feel the truth of many issues of our own pure hearts, able for us to see(feel) with clarity these issues of the heart which are not addressed, not attended to, not brought forth from the storehouse of the abundance of our heart, of God’s divine will that we BEcome the WILLINGNESS to embrace what Madonna continues to bring forth, the light radiant and bright which shines into every dark corner of our hearts, so as to bring us into the light which reveals the purity and sincerity of our own divine child of God within us ALL.
Truly, many of you will look forward to videos of Madonna’s concerts long after having seen her in person like some of the fortunate ones of you have(personally, i have not ever seen Madonna ~ if you can believe that), and yet i know her heart like my own.
Please, save your trival illnesses of the heart of hypocrisy for your friends who love to chit chat like you do, for who has time to be bothered by such trivalness, when time wasted could be spent in loving positive ways, such as helping a starving child. Perhaps next time you can take your $100 and send it to those in the field helping these children of God? None the less, inspite of your trivalness to see why M continues to entertain you, your attendance has helped a child of God in need.
thank you
hello
Excellent…nationaling the banks = stability
You’re happy with the bank nationalisation are you? I’m so pleased!
As long as we’re getting something for our money, and not just letting the banks off the hook by giving them more gambling money.
Banks have had a good humbling, apparently.
America’s still screwed, mind.
I’m debugging a program while I’m talking to you, and I can’t figure out why it works because I reckon it shouldn’t work.
It’s totally useless to have something working when it shouldn’t work.
banks should be run by the government, and indeed, the government does have the right to exercise restraint with banks, at the local level. There will always be the world banks which can operate anyway they want for the jet set crowd, but at least if the local level is kept in check, we won’t see this kind of instability again, where it is critical that stability be embraced, as more and more investors come on line worldwide, able to toss the world economy around like it does.
there is nothing more valuable than stability of the world economy, with respect for the mental emotional well being of the millions of people affect/effected.
Indeed, the needs of the many far outweigh the need/wants of the zealots, and without doubt, it is obviously time the issue be addressed, as once again, this instability will be seen on the economic horizon, only of far greater devastation that what we are now in, where it is the greater number of worldwide investors who do play havoc with the economy, now proven beyond reasonable doubt.
The Supreme Courts of the land have the task of enforcing the law of the land which protects it’s people from the mental emotional crisis that millions now face worldwide from job loss, which is yet to come.
Although we have seen the bottom of this, which is statistically on par with previous bottoms seen in the past, the fall out is yet to come…
~
I’m debugging a program while I’m talking to you, and I can’t figure out why it works because I reckon it shouldn’t work.
It’s totally useless to have something working when it shouldn’t work.
~
huh?
too much caffiene today? ha
have i told you how much i love you today?
i love you today!
i love you yesterday!
i still love you tomorrow!
Well, I wonder if they’re going to do anything about these hedge funds and derivatives using leverage. Borrowing money just to make money. So you get rich people just taking money out of the system. How does that do anything to help the economy?
ya i thought about that.
they do indeed bleed money’s from the slush play money out there that could be better placed in useful ways.
there will always be gambling, just as there always has been in history…one of the many voids devoid of God.
That”s very sweet.
Don’t overdo it, OK?
Look, I’ve never met you.
But I’ve known you for a looooong time.
And right now I ain’t got no one else in my life – don’t mean that in a nasty way. I’d just be ready to meet someone. It’s really awkward and weird to say you love someone if you haven’t even met them and I’m not sure that’s totally valid but in a roundabout way this is me saying I love you too OK. In the nicest possible way.
I’m not even sure if we should say that. Don’t ask me to say it on the internet again!
in truth though, those in play these silly childish games, are indeed silly children of God who praise boastfulness of wealth(not all), are they not?
and do they know the kingdom of heaven? Nope.
it’s just the silly unwisenesses of unwise children of God, where we are compassionate for them who do not see the empty vessels of gold they hold up high, empty of love, voids, until they lower the empty vessels and fill them with tears of compassion which embraces the love of the own precious loving child of God within, which feels for the precious loving children of God in need of their compassion that is able to save them(both).
nano nano
Oh, it’s the strange way ASP handles arrays (I’m still debugging my program). It says the top element is 22, which means there are 23 elements in the array. Weird. Not at all how C does it. There you go. Problem solved.
oooo…that sounds like something Jesus would say, yes? 😉
~ truth
ah…C++ ? 😉
oh come on, it is worth at least a B+
Nano nano indeed. I never saw that show. I just saw a clip on YouTube and it looked so dated.
can i rewrite it and hand it in later?
(andy…you’re a fucking nut case, you know that?) lol
yeah…dated…but lot’s of us still out their who feel alignated.
alienated?
Social alienation; the individual subject’s estrangement from its community, society, or world
fortunately for me, those who alienate me, don’t trouble in a hurtful way anymore, rather in a compassionate way perspective, where in truth, alienating me, alienates the me in th>em<, going the wrong direction.
oh hey…that one is original, yes?
C++ is horrible. Really complicated and horrible. Everything in computing is getting more and more complicated every year now. Just complication for no good reason.
New features on websites. New website languages. I just wonder if we’re going to hit the limit of what we can get our heads round at some point.
I don’t think the average man in the street could create a proper website from scratch now. Too many complicated languages to learn. He’d have to create a blog (like this!) using someone else’s code.
You must have seen it yourself. How computers have got so much more complicated over the last 15 years.
There has to be an upper-bound on this complication soon.
i figured out what Jesus figured out…he knew he became the evolved wise pure of heart me of the me in everyone, where he stepped thru a point of his study which engulfed him in coming into full knowingness of this, which one can imagine to be a somewhat significant door, yes?
it takes time for one to understand the truth of this, as all of his words speak to the me within us all, where most are afraid to embrace the pure truth wisdoms which protect them, because of the fearful dynamics of the unwise world all around them.
love devoid of doubt is something tangible and real, that does leave one who comes into full knowingness of how it feels.
(Notice how I panicked when you mentioned the “L” word and I’m making sure it’s a discussion about computing from here on in)
This is why Apple are doing so well, because they are at least trying to fight the battle against over-complication for the user.
You’re not interested, are you? You want to talk about love!
we have that, and are yet growing in that, and yet there is the fear between us which is of the unwiseness of the fearful world, although it may be more of me, as one who is yet insecure, growing in security, and less you, as i suspect your wisdom which is more than my own, albeit, i too have my area of study which you too find useful, yes?
You understand people. I’m …. not really a people person.
You’ve got that “emotional intelligence” thing in bounds. You’d probably have the highest score ever recorded! You know how to work people and get what you want better than anyone in the all-time history of the world ever.
i am always interested in everything you have to say, and i am waiting to openly discuss anything you want to talk about, as a true and faithful friend of likemindedness…surely you know me as someone of likemindedness with regards the world?
But I sense I have an inner security that you lack.
I’m going to have to watch what I say.
Let me say this ok?
If what ever makes you happy…know without doubt…i want you to BE happy, as someone who genuinely loves you as a loving brother of God for you.
Yes, I know you you as “someone of likemindedness with regards the world”. I think that’s the best thing we have going for us. I think that is a MAJOR thing we have in common. But I also think we have a lot of other things in common.
I’ll take ya dancin’!
i think my inner security comes from uncertainty of the future between you and i, which i want to openly discuss with you, where i am not sure where you are in your thinking of me.
Can you see into my room, or am I just being paranoid? I’ve never asked before.
Oh, you just want me to say “I love you” again!
That’s emotional blackmail! Go away!
i love dancing, more than most any other activity in life…the music, the trance of love between lovers…
just don’t tease me about it though, as i am sensitive to real and imagined, where i yearn for real with someone, praying that someone is you at this point, equally understanding and respectful of your decisions either way….always.
Can you answer my question: are you now, or have you ever, been able to see into my room?
huh?
i don’t follow you sometimes…
yes
trust me…you don’t want to see my room…it’s a mess! lol
and…
Oh! I can’t say I’m totally surprised if I’m honest.
etc…etc…
I’m just going to wipe what you just said from my mind or else I’d go crazy.
Just don’t do it for much longer, OK?
ya…i know…
everyone thinks about it….at some point…so?
I’m beyond anger. Nothing makes me angry now. I have other things to concern me. Anger is beneath me. Life is too short. I look to the future.
it’s a primal study i am researching…that’s all.
Right, it’s 10.30. Time for bed.
primaly goes back thousands of years of the human being, of which is of great interest to me as a monk who’s subject is the human being.
you lead…i’ll follow…as a friend who will alway love you, no matter what you ever do or say, ok?
think of me as a high school student in the same class, ok?
but i do want to say this…if one day you ask me nicely to go out dancing with you, skin to skin…my answer is YES!
If there’s any way you could stop doing that, I would very much appreciate it. Seriously.
OK, time for bed,
X.
Oh, do what you want, as long as it’s not for long.
Deal?
as a bisexual, i am mostly looking for someone, male, female, who is of genuine emotional honesty within themselves as regards to sincerely loving me in the same graceful way i do them…that is i am, and that is what works for me, male or female….and i won’t settle for less.
you can be happy in knowing, andy will be happy either way.
i cannot ask you any further…you know that.
out of respect…
i have tread far enough, in my own mind, and my prayers are for everyone…
please know my purity of heart which is sincere for all who are concerned, as i cannot be treading like i do, other than to put those on notice, that i stand next to you as someone who genuinely loves you with all that i am.
i will follow from here on…ok?
I’m off to bed.
X
as long as what is not too long?
lol
oooo…that should spin some heads
lol
something is troubling me deeply…
and i know you what it is…
i’ll get thru it…it is causing me great anxiety though…
God knows i’ll get thru it.
where’s Marco?
he is good at prodding me in overcoming my fears.
Marco?
damn…just when i need him the most…
i don’t know how to deal with it…and it is crippling me emotionally.
i’ll be in my sanctuary, if anyone wishes to speak with me, with God, with Jesus…
im not enough anyway…so don’t worry about it.
i have a therapy session tomorrow and will deal with it from the correct perspective of respect and understaning….
damn…my stuttering is bad today….
*correction*
im not >healthy< enough anyway…
i’ve lost my footing and i have fallen along ways from stability i once had in my mind, and yet, a new stability is forming which is much greater than the previous one, of a more true restoration of self…in fact, it is the most true restoration of my self, which is of the pure connection of the confident one i was way back in the 70’s-80s…who i always was.
i love what i am experiencing deep within, where no one is ever able to cause me heart ache in their approach with me ever again.
i am just going to let people do what ever they want, and if they don’t show geniune interest in me, i am going to pass them by, for sake of the one who is out there for me. God knows there is someone for andy.
like you said…do you what you want…i am happy either way…
or at least will be one day…
i think i just said goodbye…
or see you later some day….
i just don’t feel the respect i feel i am deserving of, and yet awkward in perhaps being unrealistic in expectations, where it is wrong to do so, considering the emotional well being of another…
i keep looking for an email…something real…
i am of spirituality in the phsyical realm too ya know….
and my life is yet of this earth…although the way some are with me…you wouldn’t know it…
and that hurts…
i don’t want to hurt anymore…ok?
i think i will go for another walk, and see who God presents to me…no one yet that i recognize as a healthy soul mate like your self.
there are alot of healthy people out there though, and i know, around the next bend in life, they will greet me, and i them, in deep pure knowingess of each other forever more…
can you blame me for wanting real?
like Matt said, a real friend…or was that the message, andy, go live your gay life?
sure would appreciate clarity on this…
i have been struggling with this question along time…emotional honesty within, and i don’t the emotional honesty of my own self…and yet i know…
you just know…
no ever take away from me, that i did serve the best interests of everyone…not ever…in God’s eyes…not ever.
~ truth
my wings are of God’s 100% pure strength…so worry not of me, for Jesus and God are with me…forever more.
blessings to ALL
bless you
i will have prevailed and will prevail in the face of ALL forever more without fail…without doubt, where it is the doubtfulness yet in the world which is not of ‘me’, of what i prevail against, the unwise doubt which grips the many precious souls of the world, breaking the absurd chains which bind them in dark places, of all these unwise wretched hatefulness of my loving brothers and sisters.
indeed, i am like the man Jesus speaks of, who puts his fist thru a wall…
with or without anyone…Jesus and God are always with me.
hmmm…just like you to ignore me like this…
no email…
ok fine…take care…
blessings to all
bless you
there is someone out there who needs me…comprende?
it is only fair to them that i move on…
time is always of the importance on matters of the soul of another…
something everyone needs to stay tuned into, of all unconditional lovers of ALL, the many in the One and One in the many united as One, of the WorldWide GLBT community…
where it is the two lover who unite as ONE, who’s love between is radiant and bright for all to feel, so bright so as to light up the whole world, and indeed, they do light up the whole world, of affect/effect, direct/indirect, over the course of their radiant and bright loving life, apon which all feel their presence, everywhere they go, of each moment, of each blessed day they walk the earth.
It is of God’s divine will, that i unite with my soul mate, because of the unfailing truth, of what ushers in the kingdom of heaven on earth, the radiant and bright loving light of the all the enlightened ones who unite as ONE.
being alone just sucks.
nope…not me…i will not be alone…
oh, andy is being so impatient.
no, andy is not being impatient…he is just feeling it any more…
lackluster at best…
psycological stuckness? maybe.
i am unsticking if that’s ok with you.
a clean graceful break….until another day, perhaps in another life time of the future world we will meet again and unite, easily recognizing of one another as soul mates perhaps after the teachings of future generations take root apon of my life as one who yet walks the earth, just as Jesus did, sadly as though he did not have a loving love, yet was loved, and is loved by me forever more, till my last breath, my true and faithful friend he has been for me.
my destiny is of God’s divine will that i live out my life with someone as loving of me as i am of them, and yes, God has revealed this to me with purity and clarity of the sincerity level i have been with all of you while here all this time, indeed of those who walk among the high places and paths.
i have spoken, and will continue to speak on issue i reflect apon and study, God willing, but being alone just sucks, and i don’t feel respected at all as one who yet walks the earth…painful for me.
~ God says to speak the truth…i have spoken the truth of how i am made to feel…like i don’t exist somedays.
oh well…i have been ignored by countless many, so worry not…i have a thick skin, and thick skull according to others. lol
alright then…
Jesus loves ALL. God loves ALL We love ALL
God blesses ALL
blessings to ALL
bless you
you’ll be alright, just keep in touch with your friends, seek their sincere advise .. and the company of their humor, don’t let life cripple you too much, joy is always just around the corner, past the cross road
truly, today is the hardest day of my life…
do you know how upset i am?
crushed beyond my ability to absorb it this day.
it is like the full impact of the day i was born, and the day i will die greeting me today.
the only words i know that accurately describe it.
obviously someone loves you, and you them, and i am happy for the happiness between the two of you.
God blesses all
bless you in every step, every breath and every heartbeat with another forever more, till your last day, where only love is good enough for both of you.
why did God reveal to me my sincerity of love for you is also true of you?
did you know God revealed to me?
God greeted me with pure clarity of my feelings for you, and acknowledge to me, that indeed you too were of the same level of sincerity.
so why this?
did we not feel the tranquility of the moon?
so why? tell me the truth.
i know you are not telling me the truth.
i know ok
and God knows i know the truth, and revealed it to me…to us both, did he not?
i know you know what i speak of.
you think you are going to be happy, but inside you know won’t, so why lie to me, of what you know to be true of our feelings for one another?
i will respect your wishes, and leave you in peace, if that is what you truly want, as i want only happiness for you, if indeed you are happy.
we both know that happiness is the only thing of any value in life, so you have my blessing if that is true, and i will go.
ah fuck…forgive me
God says to speak the truth, and i know you are of pure truth within
under a full moon, i went out tonight, and someone i feel in love was there who i had not seen in over year, who had walked away from me over a year ago…and he was there tonight, and i know God meant it to be so, as i looked apon the moon asking God what is the meaning of this, presenting me with him before me, knowing how torn between love him and loving you i have going thru all this time.
again, he walked away from me, yet i know God put him there for a reason, and i am struggling to understand why.
God knows i know Rob is struggling with homophobia, and he knew i was in love with him, even though he has a girlfriend, and now an eight month old child, but why did he come back? He denied his feelings for me, yet again, of me knowing what he is struggling with inside, afraid, he would not express himself, of my knowngness of his love for me he openly expressed with me before.
God put me before him for his sake?
i know my every step is for sake of another each day, and that is how i greet each day, each soul, with purity of love for their soul, like i do my own.
I know the importance of my life with each soul i greet is always of God.
how is it that i knew tonight, someone was needing me, and indeed Rob was there after leaving the city for over year? He denied it, but i knew he was looking for me.
how did i know before going out tonight?
God
you wanna some Reiki onna ya head
why have you not had a poem competition for free tickets to your concert for one plus airfare to your show for your ausie fans since it did’nt make it to Aust HEY ?
i’d never forgive mySELF (that includes Andy and M & Me, were all the same SELF) if i did’nt get to see it..
i mean i’d win i’ve got a safe full of poem’s i can submit hundreds but i only need one to win..
Comprende !!
ya, i know
just ONE
ya, i cannot afford to go either Marco, as i too am of limited budget, and Rodrigo is my priority in life.
besides, i would want to attend with someone, and not attend alone Marco…and right now, i just don’t have that special someone that would make it all worth while…my life that is.
and yet…i love them ALL
I love them one at a time, even if it is just for a moment, where they too feel…as i do, of each and every moment…ONE by ONE…each and every time.
And get this…they always come back! lol
So get back with ‘me’ damn it! ha
I don’t play around when it comes to matters of the soul.
i need to know…and yet…i know
we know
on we go
it is not about faith…it is about 100% knowingness, just as i know Rob is hurting inside, and badly, looking he had not sleep in days…
he is his own worse enemy right now, and i know i hurt him before, stupidly, realizing he was in love with me, and now he is hurting, and dening from himself to trust me again…as he walked away, too afraid, to messed up, the girlfriend, the child…i can only image what he is going thru, if i had a child…i let him go, just as i have let Mike go all these years…not really knowing if he would be happier with me, yet knowing.
i know…but i cannot bring myself to take him away from his child…
we all make decisions in life, that alter our lives forever…decide wisely, and knowingly, by means of YOUR Feelings…which is the kingdom of heaven.
when you know…you just know…so let it grow, protect it using wisdom, nurture it with love…
Only love is good enough from now on…forever more
blessings to all
bless you
i know my feelings…and i know it is important to know what ‘my’ feelings are of ‘me’, where in doing so, i know how important it is to just let others come into knowingness of their own feelings, of the ‘me’ of them…
in time, they do, and like Rob, they come back, how ever difficult it is for them, where i have been there for years for so many of them, where they have counted on me always being there, and indeed, i have always been there, a loving brother, true and faithful till the end, loving of many, how ever painful to let them go, knowing i need them too…in time, they always come back, if not with me, someone like ‘me’…
just ONE, who loves us as much as we do them…is all i know i am to each and every ONE.
but if i don’t get laid soon…i am going to kill myself! lol
fuck, it’s way toooooo loooooonnnnnnng! ha
what?
i always try to end on a happy note….
but seriously though, if i were to ask Mike what i already know, knowing his answer already, it would make me happy, and it would make Mike too, yes?
i wanted to call out to Rob last night, yelling at him in the street, under the full moon, everyone there, and simply scream at him, “I fucking love you Rob, and if you walk away from me again, it will be the biggest mistake of your life!!!”
but i hesitated, because of his loving child, which needs him and he needs too, more important than me…
even if i know, he would be equally, if not be more happier with me…
i let him go home to his family that loves him, and i know he will be loved…
and besides…there is always someone for me around the next bend…
still…it was one of hardest nights of my life…knowing, and yet not brought to life…at least not in my life today.
there is always tomorrow everyday, where it is always tomorrow it seems for me…
one day…i will be with ONE
it is always about the ONE within us ALL
while everyone can leave ‘me’…i cannot leave ‘me’, and i love ‘me’, the same ‘me’ in all of thee…ONE
Wha’choo talkin’ ’bout, Willis?
http://fr.youtube.com/watch?v=5tT7ivum_Hc
oh, i met a most beautiful precious loving soul a year and a half ago, and fell in love with him, and he with me…but he ran away back to his home town, disappeared, no phone call, nothing, where i looked for him for months…
last night, i felt his presence again, and sure enough, in the tranquility of the full moon, i went out and he was there…where my heart jumped out of my body and into his lap once again…
he does not trust me any more, and has a family now…
i am happy for him…i guess….
lol
i just let people figure out their own feelings, and if they have feelings for me…without doubt…they usually let you know eventually.
i had one guy come back to me after two fucking years of not calling me, disappeared like Rob did, and then just walked up to me telling me all his feelings and thoughts of me over the years he was gone…i smiled of course, but regretfully, i did not follow his desire to have sex with me…damn….i hate it when i do that, because i really did want to have sex with him the entire time i knew him…himself just coming out of the closet…it think his name was James….who was in my life for a year or so…way back when…
anyway…
talking ’bout sex….let’s talk about sex! 😀
no…let’s not talk about sex….
seems everywhere you look, someone is doing the whole shallow sex thing with their bodies, which feels shallow to me, in all their raunchiness, and, “oh, i have such a hot body.”
no…you have a beautiful tender loving body that loves the tender caresses and kissing.
what am i laughing about…it is not a laughing matter at all.
at least i am not in denial of my love for him.
he is the one in denial, and sure enough, however long it takes, the usually come back around years later, expressing everything, all their moments of thinking about you…
that’s all i want…someone that sincerely knows their pure sincere feelings for me without doubt, male, female…does not matter to me…it is the sincerity issue which is most significant for happiness.
admittedly, i used drive like that…worse actually.
sliding corners, tires breaking loose, once you know the road, you know what the maximum speed is for the corner…nearly bought it a few times, trees, cars, buildings…scraped a few of them…
back when is was really really irresponsible and….well….just plain fucking stupid!
what if a child walked out into the street?
Life happens and changes people forever, when people are irresponsible like that.
take you fucking race cars to the track morons, and stop risking the lives of others like you do.
i love to race, but only a track.
they say James Dean was cut off at the intersection where he died…and what with driving a porshe, we know he was speeding, and what with his homophobic issues, he may have been drinking too…
unwiseness where death does indeed lurk…
another beautiful warm sunshine day
Yes, I thought that driver was a moron too. It wasn’t romantic – he was just a twat. Yeah, imagine if a child walked out.
I’m having a night off. I’m tired.
Night night,
X
ya, me too…i have a two hour session later this evening, get myself grounded and centered again…
i was so emotional last night…don’t recall ever feeling the level of emotional intensity like i did, so overwhelming, and yet, it really brought home to me, the feeling of one passing thru their own life, of our one chances at love with another, that don’t always come true, where people’s words with you reveal sincerity, or the no sincerity, and so yeah, i am sensitive to what people say…overly…
It was like, this is my life passing by each day, where each moment that goes by fluctuates between certainty and uncertainty, and yet, always of certainty that i am one who is loving, but not yet a soul mate lovers embrace which i yearn for with all that i am.
it came crashing in on me, where at one point i felt this moment where…oh no, tell me anything but that.
i came away feeling my own level of sensitivity, and realized, my soul mate too is of this level of sensitivity, and to stop playing around, stop wondering, stand still, and realize how much i yearn for my soulmate….and don’t ever be of useless uncertainty with them ever again…
as you say…emotional blackmail…
i am not of emotional blackmail of the personality disorder, where maybe at times i appear that way, no, not at all.
i am going to let people think thru their own feelings from now on, and just be me, the one loves to have fun, light hearted, as we cannot make anyone love us…they either do, or they don’t, and no one wants ones who don’t or pretend at it like they do…nope…100% sincerity or forget it, works for me, works for my soul mate lover forever friend.
the thing with me is i know when i love someone, of how i hang on their every word, and the moments when you realize they love you too, of how incredible that feels, of what keeps you there before them, and of those we don’t really love in life, of so many we pass by and they us…
knowingness of the soulmate lover self, is what reveals to us who our soulmate love is…of what connects them…the sincerity.
how many people don’t conduct themselves sincerely?
their own worse enemies, of haphazard approach with themselves, of the same approach with another, and ironically, they end up with someone equally(familiarity dynamic) wrong for them, do they not? lol
ya, time froze for me yesterday in a profound way, where i was feeling every foot step…of the exceeding grace of my child within.
it’s actually a good feeling…pure.
Madonna do you have to bash Sarah Palin so much what is your deal with her. It is quite annoying just leave her alone and talk about yourself . You don’t need to put others down. That is going to come back and bite you.
Only love is good enough for everyone from now on, forever more.
blessings to all
bless you
tightly clasp your hands together, and ask your SELF, “Does andy feel the same love i feel within?”
duh!
morons father…i am surrounded by morons! forgive them. lol
(andy spins around in exceeding joyfulness, like he always does, wondering to himself why so many don’t get him…well…actually, he knows fully why they don’t get with him, does he not? They must love ‘me’) ha
oh do what you want…i am easy to find, if anyone is looking for ‘me’.
😀 😀
(two archangels with very large wings, riding horses come forth, exclaiming in great joy)
“BEhold the Kingdom of Heaven is all around YOU!!!!
bless you
check mate
i win
lol
no wait…we ALL win!
😀 😀
ok…time to delve into the book of unwiseness, revealing the truth of everything. This may take a few months, so bare with me….as i explore ALL the wretched unloving unwisnesses which are not of God, not of love, not of compassion, not of wisdom, nor should ever be found of us forever more.
bless you
(andy walks of stage with Freddie Mercury, Annie Lennox, Madonna and David Bowie singing WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS OF THE WORLD!!!!!)
lol
😀 😀
blessings to ALL
bless you
Jesus loves ALL. God loves ALL. We love ALL.
God blesses ALL
bless you
i yearn to only to feel love all the time…we all do, do we not?
bless you
Yes Andy Check Mate you win, we all win, ohh shit..
I have decided today that i am going to be a healer, it’s one of my best gift’s i make a good healer, people look up to me and its very rewarding to see people you’ve helped achieve contentment in their lives, Ya so that’s where i am, healing takes time, you cannot rush these things you know..
really?
When you make the outward like the inward, you are healing by means of the self-actualization acheived thru healthy boundaries, according to Jesus and today’s psychologist.
but hey, who do i know?
let’s see…i know Jesus and Jesus knows me…i know God and God knows me….
hmmm…i know me, and ‘me’ knows me.
oh yeah, i know Dr.Charles Whitfield and he knows me better than most any.
and of course it goes without saying, if i know me, like i do, just as Jesus, God, Dr.Charles Whitfield and me know, then…i know YOU, like YOU know YOU.
It has always BEen about YOU and me.
can i tag along with you?
i promise to be quiet, and won’t annoy…i promise.
ok…i won’t annoy on Mondays…no wait, make that Tuesdays…ya, i won’t annoy you on Tuesdays, as i have my sessions on Tuesdays…ok? 😉
ok…how about every other Tuesday then?
…the first Tuesday of the month?
oh…you don’t trust me at all, do ya? lol
well, you will in time…you’ll see, as i am growing and increasing in love, not decreasing…i have too, i only have 12,946 blessed days left to go, and i have annoyed you far too much already…but i thought that was why you loved me, someone you can say or do anything you want, anytime you want, always loving of the real YOU, so long as YOU are ‘me’…and we all know, i am not difficult to find…
😉 😀
bless you
anything i can do to help?
ya…i know…i am still healing over Troy, in ways which have healed me far beyond any healing previous in my life, more self-actualized than ever before…
i think i will wear purple next year…
ya…purple, on a harley davidson, or a horse…i am so done with walking! hard on the feet.
lol
my therapist asked me(my inner child), “what are you so sad about?”
i am sad for my brothers and sisters, who are yet going thru what i went thru, what so many of us went thru, knowing some of you may not survive…
my inner child prays daily for peace in the world which he has come to know, the inner gentleness that so many don’t about me, of just how sensitive i really am…
i am…BE CAUSE…we are
KNOW
most important word, and keep forgetting to include it.
As Jesus said, “Forgetfulness is your greatest foe.”
how true is that statement, as regards to self-actualization?
clasp hands together tightly, and realize fully…it is 100% true, is it not?
i know
we know
on we go
blessings to all
bless you
bless you
bless you
nah…actually…i think will walk, as it is ground level with people, at one with them before them, not above, not below, just me walking, standing, just as they are, a more REAL sensibility for them…of them, for sake them.
God knows how many miles i have walked without Troy’s hand to hold.
i’ve realized i cannot be around unhealthy people for extended periods of time, because of my sensitivity level, because of Troy…
God bless Troy. thank you God.
God bless YOU. thank you God.
i’ve realized, i have been Troy’s hand, their hand, all this time, have i not?
It is my inner child of God who i respect, respecting of the inner child of God of YOU when i do.
Jesus said, “Do as i do”
i understand the meaning of this now
100% equal of my loving brothers and sisters…i always felt connected with everyone of them, at all times, here in the ghetto…
what is the chance of that ever changing, when in fact it has been increasing and growing all this time, to the 100% level i now stand in, where TRUTH is not able to change…nor would we want to, yes?
so what does that say about me, about you?
and what does that say about the future?
am i included?
please tell me i am…
i am…BE CAUSE…we are
i already know i am and always will BE
for i cannot change me, the one who loves YOU
when you are near, i am far away(spiritually/physically)
when you are far away, i am near(physically/spiritually)
where i too, am always loving of YOU, as you are of ‘me’…100% love that our inner child yearns to always feel, and indeed, constantly feels, do they not?
we know
on we go
if these words ring true as though it was YOU who has written them, then what does that say about YOU?
100%
Love Devoid of Doubt ~ 100%
always did. always will. always
always
constant like the sun that is always shining, is it not?
like our heart which is always beating
like our dreams which are always dreaming
i dream of setting my dreams free to always BE that of the ‘me’ i have come to know of ALL of YOU, my loving brothers and sisters who are truly loving of one another in the worldwide GLBT community.
blessings to all
bless you
Sorry to hear Madonna and Guy are getting a divorce.
“I have annoyed you far too much already”
Yeah, no more fighting or arguments on annoyance. Everyone is getting older. We need to chill and relax and just be happy.
That’s the way it’s going to be, OK? OK?
I’m in work so cannot post here.
if you want, i can wear the red one, i want to wear the purple one.
Rosie says she wants to wear the yellow one, so radiant and bright like we know she is, the strongest one of us all, always of the solidness which has kept us focused.
God bless Rosie, Kelly and family. thank you God.
ya,sincerely…happy.
*spelling error*
if you want, i can wear the red one, if want to wear the purple one. 😉 😀
and compassionately sad for the many who will be last to enter.
with God’s fortitude, i take my place in the world as a loving brother to ALL, of unchallengable TRUTH which does not fail.
bless you
forgive my unwiseness at times of my inner child, who was sad…you know why.
he does want to ever see you sad…only happy from now on, OK?
ok
With God as my witness, i will see all of my loving brothers and sisters thru to a day of exceeding joyfulness, inspite of any and all of you who continue to go against the truth of the divine child of God within us ALL, where indeed, many will be last to enter, where radiant and bright light will reveal the wretchedness with the hearts of many of you to fully realize the TRUTH, only love is good enough for any of us, including you who yet are snared by bitter hateful unwisenesses, just as i always have been and will BE, of God’s divine WILL.
no one shall become victorious over TRUTH that does not fail.
I am sorry to hear about the split, where it is Rocco who is going to take this the hardest, so before any of you have anything to say or do, know that Rocco is going to be the one who is hurt the most, as children do not understand protective psychology, albeit, they feel everything with all that they are.
as for those who i am not qualified to assist, the door is open for all to enter in addressing their own mental emotional well being, with the best friend in life one shall ever make, a profesional psychologist.
those who fail to embrace better understanding of themselves, fail themselves in life, and have no one to blame but themselves at the end of life, where it become obvious in their reflections of their life, a life now run short, where there are no excuses one can make for themselves any more, nor time to make them.
God summons ALL to truth wisdom, especially for sake of the children, and the many unborn children yet to come.
that’s all i have to say on the matter…
Give Rocco a hug, as he is the one who needs your love the most right now, and protect him, a child of God.
Rocco, you Mom will always be your Mom, and your Dad will always be your Dad, who both love YOU
I came here as this Solace surrounds me ..and i see kind words , thanks Andy (AKA Candy boy? ) i see every thing! People think they know me or want to know me they don’t know the times i cry ..its not easy!! My eyes are wet ,i may have to cancel tonight ,but i know Boston needs me and maybe this will help ..cure or kill me..i know one thing I’m done with dance songs Ive got a lifetime of ballads coming..M signing off ..thanks for your love and support xXx
Ya gotta go and entertain them. I’m sure you’ll get a great reception.
Nanu nanu for the show,
X
ya, Candy boy forever more…i am stuck with…but i kinda like the name
every step ok…i am thinking of you.
got it?
oh come on…i am certain you have friend you text hourly, daily, and i 100% certain, if you asked, they would be there for you tonight Candy girl…you don’t even have to ask, ok.
i will ask them all to be there tonight, because their love for you is 100% true, just as mine is for you, always.
always of constant loving feelings i have for you, like that of the hands tightly clasped.
you are free to be you tonight Candy girl, so go shine radiant and bright.
I know it feels, trust me, i know…
i got off that bus of the one way ticket into life everlasting, and found the best friends in life i have had, where it you i look to the most today, just as so many love you Candy girl, even if they don’t know you, they feel something about you that is true of them, that come thru in your music, that kindles the precious love within them, and indeed, is why so many the world over, continue to come.
they come in the name of love, forever more, just as they continue to come from all corners of the world here, at the GLBT Toronto pride events year after year.
you think 50,000 or so people is difficult, you should try over 1,000,000 in attendance some time like our parade girl…a dream i have of you and i to one walk together in…since the beginning, a dream i have held onto, and always will.
i always found work as the most theraputic…
if you want, i can be there for you too, as a hand to hold…but i don’t to empose…but if you need me…i will come.
it is your decision to make, not mine…i already made my decision of yes.
i am certain Rosie will be there for you, without hesitation.
Just stay away from toxic others as much as possible, and only those who are comfortable for YOU.
It takes time, but time is on our side, as in POSITIVE TIME.
who’s got time for the negative bullshit…God knows i have tolerated enough in my life time.
So smile damn it…and grow with the positive less toxic environment you will find your self in every day from now on…trust me…it is the only way, and you know that by now, just as i too have grown tired of toxic environments.
i am not pulling punches here either…i am YOUR best friend, a true and faithful friend, and if others choose not to respect you, then it is their loss, their mistake of treating you properly at all times.
i am no angel, but i know a few of them here in the ghetto, wings and all! lol
just trying to make you smile.
deep breathes, relaxation techniques, and no drugs, got it?
stay off the caffeinne, as it stays in the body for hours, one coffee, two if you absolutely need it, but no more.
ok, if you need that wine to help you sleep, have one, but no more.
got it?
ok…i am always near if you need me.
and will respect your space at this time, by minding my words with you, as i do not and will not cause you any further anxiety.
i am a friend first, just like we all were back in high school, ok, and i am self-actualized of that high school guy i always was, gentle, easy going, a friend, who can only feel loved, when another is sincerely loving like i am, where i don’t just throw myself at anyone, and rather let them JUST BE YOURSELF.
i am shocked by all of this…i had no idea, yet i sensed something was wrong…you hid it well, but i knew.
well…last time i checked Candy girl, Boys Cry too.
and besides, if she crys on stage, well, that is something good, something real, of the real Madonna we have all come to love and respect, who connects with the real in all of us, and indeed, has seen us cry too, of your loving words, which have helped so many of us walk thru life, where at times, it was very dark passage we came thru in our coming out years, where you words and song greated us in the dance halls, telling us all, yes, we are ok, it’s the motherfuckers who got it all wrong!
lol
sorry…i had to make you smile again…
it’s true you know, so much confidence you have instilled in every one of us, and there is no one who would ever say otherwise, so then, every soul there, loves YOU…without doubt, and it is all because of YOUR love us Candy girl.
best of all, we will always love you, just as we have all come and grown into the love we all have for one another, of your constant nurturing of our self-esteem like have done for decades.
In God’s eyes, there is no value one can ever put on that Candy girl, of how many souls you may have saved, mine being ONE.
i love you too, you know that…i will always love you
Without doubt, Madonna is one of the most loved members of the GLBT worldwide community, and without doubt, a great number of us are there in every, every city, and every country she performs in, loved by us forever more, just as she has and will continue to love us.
REAL LOVE…from someone who kept us REAL.
i like short hair…we all short hair, just don’t shave your head bald like Britney did, ok? Promise? lol
you look good. you’ve held yourself well.
it just another day…another blessed day.
It must be hard. I can’t get my head round it as nothing like that has happened to me, but I’m sure it must be awful. These things happen. Gotta look to the future.
“i know one thing I’m done with dance songs Ive got a lifetime of ballads coming”
I’ve got a sing called “I just don’t feel like dancing” you could have if you want. Would signal a new phase.
Here it is:
http://www.ipod.org.uk/Dancing.mp3
It’s quite danceable, ironically.
I’m sure the good people of Boston won’t mind if you don’t feel like dancing for a few tracks. It’s going to be quite a dramatic evening.
when i got off that one way ticket bus, i knew i was walking into a life of everlasting peace with my loving brothers and sisters.
M could look apon today as that day i stepped off the one way bus ticket, much she did back in New York, a precious loving soul, a wise precious loving soul today, and instead of $35 bucks, she’s got probably $350 million bucks, and the most endearing best friends in life forever more.
Yes?
Yes.
It was a pretty emotional day for me too, actually. My Dad came home today for the first time in over two years – we never thought he’d be home again. Pretty emotional and amazing. Miracle.
I’m off out,
X
you are not alone…you are with those you have loved, who love you, and is why they are sincerely there…to feel the love they feel within, of you, of them, of we who are sincerely loving of one another.
you are a day ahead of me…damn…i still have not moved my ass out yet, although i feel the better feelings which come with assertiveness in addressing what works for me and what does not.
we feel the difference, and yearn to always feel what it is we feel in healthy environments.
you have nothing to be sad about in respecting YOU, where i am happy to see you respecting your SELF.
Respect starts with Self, where we know how imparative it is for our well being…there is no other way.
Friendships can be salvaged or saved if one choses to, only of our desire to do so, boundaries set according to how others do indeed, make us feel.
i am so proud of you, as it will only get better in each passing moment for you, day after day, where they may need to tie you done from getting to hysterical in your new found exceeding joyfulness of extraordinary wondrous, radiant and bright new YOU.
which i will selfishly say, i am looking forward to.
blessed be this day of understanding the divine child of God in all of YOU.
bless you
ya, me too.
father greated me today, and was pleased to see how healthy i had become, and indeed how healthy i feel inside.
a miracle for me is the only word to accurately describe it, the awareness knowingness of 100% constant feelings of the divine child of God in ALL of us.
always
doesn’t it feel amazing?
ya, im off out too for a walk…freedom of my spirit set free from all unwiseness, forever more.
and if they approach me again, in being friends with me, they better damn well be friendly each and every time, or i will set new boundaries for them to enjoy.
got it?
ok…Only love is good enough for you from now on.
Jesus loves ALL. God loves ALL. We love ALL
God blesses ALL
bless you
i want to comply with what i know i love doing…dancing…where you can always find ‘me’ doing what i loving doing.
especially with those like ‘me’ 😉
i’m out of word’s today, & it’s not like me to be limited in my expression especially with my writing, anyway word’s can be limiting so instead i will focus on my thoughts although they can sometimes be limiting also.
So i’ll just focus on my feelings instead, sincerity and kindness of feelings for all, if you wanna a little bit of love you gotta give alittle bit of loving.
Lot’s of Love … luv..
ya!
you got it…dat’s da spirit!
i was thinking of how M’s concert is like a Pride Day celebration each and every time, and i was like, oh, i would so love to do that everyday!
It’s where my heart is at, and that is what matters…
i am…BE CAUSE…we are.
i always found getting ready and actually performing, shuts out everything in life, and becomes the focused purposeful important work for sake of others, where we are of the delicate emotional sensitivity which genuinely is of the divine child of God SELF within.
and then when we get there, while the lead up may have been frustrated by whatever and whatever, we realize things about the performance of things we want to change or alter, or improve, and our spirit begins to soar in ways of the enthusiastic divinde child of God SELF, so radiant and unstoppable!
ya…dat’s who we is, is we not?
it’s magical, of the divine child.
and then, when we do get there…it’s like, what was i thinking…these people are so much more important than the whatevers and whatevers…
and if you say whatever, you just know i am going annoy you again… lol
deep breaths…
if i was there…i would your hand for hours or how ever often you need to my hand to hold, of my too wanting to always hold yours, a true friend that knows his feelings for you…without doubt.
i must have disflexia or something wrong with me…missing words….
im ok when your’re ok
and we are both ok
peace be to you
bless you
whatever 🙂
LOL, that got your attention… 😉
pure, sincere, without doubt..
like an image of GOD , .like a reflection hint lol
use your relaxation techniques for how ever long you need to relax, and make sure no toxic ones get in your face too much…shut the door, and select only those who are comfortable for you…although, i know how much you love everyone…and so you decide what works for you.
ok , i am
LOVE, LUV
love me like i love you
then it is true,.
HEY YOU ! 🙂
it is spiritual what you are doing…highly spiritual of the affect/effect direct/indirect results that last for a life time in everyone who is there, however subtle, it changes people for the better, where they get to embrace the joyful butterfly feelings of the divine child within that is always of the yearning to smile and feel those magical feelings we did as a child, where indeed, the child yet dwells within us all.
oh, i am too afraid to love you…i would go out of my mind if i were to love you….they would have to scrape me off the ceiling everyday.
“Andy, what are you doing on the ceiling? SShhhh! im hiding from M.” lol
bless each and everyone of you tonight.
ya, love me like i want to love you forever more.
and that is what we do year in and year out, and indeed, we have seen the results of our efforts increase in number, because it is of the spiritual work which nurtures.
look how amazing the family is today…how far we all have come together for decades.
it was so much worse way back when we all felt the harshness.
as veterans, we always know, there is ONE who is yet experiencing a difficult emotional struggling with their own accepting of their divine child self within, and it is always of the ONE that i take each step.
without doubt, you are not afraid, dont worry i’m on the ceiling too…
floating around up there like two Angel’s..
oh look around, all the angel’s are singing like a big choir , blessed be the Angels in Heaven , and now the violins are playing my favorite song Rythem as a Dancer, care to dance with me, i promise i’ll lift you up like a Ballerina , i am stronger too have a gym in my spare room now…
ya…love me like i love you is what we yearn for, and when we do find it with another that does genuinely want to love us and you them…it is magical, beyond words, where it is silly to even try to describe it, as the feelings are of the self for the other, and the self of the other for the self, which is not really anything to do with what either says or does, as it is of the individual self of each which reflects and anticipates the other, without anyone’s urging, is it not?
yes, of course!
next silly question?
hey, how did you know i am like ballerina?
oh, you know alot about ‘me’…
Yes! blessed BE all the angels in heaven all around us
can you imagine 100 of these angels in the girlie show clown outfits, how incredible that would feel, sunshine, music, dance, squirt guns, big ass squit guns?
radiant and bright, as though to light up the whole world, and indeed, we know we do…our looking back reveals the truth of this…without doubt.
it is a truly mean world for many of the angels in heaven, and we are here to kick ass! lol
without doubt.
i am wearing a clown outfit already with nothing on underneath , lol 🙂
hwat happen’s if it get’s too hot and i need to take off the gown ..
I better go back to work..
ciao xox
i have had enough doubt to last me several life times.
so i don’t be looking for any more doubt…ok?
without doubt
i suppose what happens is whatever you want to happen with who ever you want to happen with?
😀 😀
without doubt, that is usually the way it goes, is it not?
was last time i checked…
ok…i’ll be here later…
have fun, and feel how much they love you, for you are one of us who loves us more than we love our SELF, ever teaching us to love our divine SELF better than the mean world does.
bless you
peace be to you
what do their faces look like when you look into their eyes?
do you their divine chils smiling within them?
i would to see their radiant faces.
i am watching the directoral version of Boy’s don’t cry, which is had not seen before…quite insightful understanding of from the director’s point of view.
get some rest…i’ll catch you when ever you feel up to chatting…
you are such a brave fearless soul…you reming me alot of my own self…fearless…and wise.
hey…no more than one glass of wine, ok? promise?
ok
rest well…
bless you
why do you lie?I’m so sad for you but I’m not happy that you said to us you don’t want to get divorce…and know? What is changed from july?
I believed in you but you don’t have trust in your fans…tha’s sad!!
well, lucilla, if you had more to say about their relationship from a psychological perspective, i may have more to go on as far as trusting in one of her fans…just a bit vague don’t cha think?
what do you know about any of their issues Lucilla?
obviously nothing, as you speak nothing at all of their issues.
anyway…
there are armchair warriors, and then there is lucilla… 😉
ok…i am out, as in out of danger with dragon lady, today the last day, no more useless bitter speaking, our spirits set free to JUST BE our SELF.
how is your second day going in the kingdom of heaven of life everlasting.
indeed, it has to and can only get better in the future…without doubt.
you have made life altering decisions for sake of all of you, in God’s eyes.
bless you
~
as for me…i am into my new place which is offline from the internet, and my funds are depleted for a few weeks, so i will only be here an hour or so per day from here on in…
welcome to life your life everlasting everyone…
i am your loving brother, who is of concern for ALL.
it is a beautiful day here in TO…
please know, i am of good spirit and so thankful everyone is safe from here on in the future.
turn towards wisdom everyone, and do not let unwiseness in the door again, at the individual level of each and everyone of YOU.
always know, that God is with you at all times, hoping you do not stumble, and instead turn towards those who are able to assist you fully in your coping with life, utilizing what is available to all of you, professional psychologists which you should establish as your best friends in life for the rest of your life.
be thankful that some of you can afford them, as many there are in life who cannot, and sadly, the statistics are bad for many who do not survive the journey of life along life’s road with the many strangers of life.
truly, we are not strangers when it comes to our intimately knowing our divine child of God SELF, where we feel the feelings of our divine child in each passing moment of life, do we not.
God summons you to turn towards wisdom which is nurturing for ALL of YOU, and wisdom which is protective for ALL of YOU, especially for sake of the children and the children yet to come.
I pray my time with all of you is clearly one of concern for all precious loving souls whom i have had the opportunity to greet, and look forward to meeting yet more of you as we safely journey forward in life as loving family, friends and lovers.
i am please everyone is safe now, and in full awareness knowingness mode, however painful it may have been for you all.
if we do not embrace the wisdom God summons us to, which averts danger, then we do not find safe passage to journey thru safe passage for our loving family, friends and lovers.
Give thanks to Jesus and God, and embrace just how beautiful your precious loving divine child of God is within all of YOU.
The feelings of our divine child of God SELF are constant, so always remember that our decisions each and every day, do affect our divine child of God SELF directly in each passing moment, where the divine child feels the consequences of all of our decisions in each passing moment of each blessed day in the kingdom of heaven all around us.
Do not take these words spoken lightly, in allowing your precious souls to be ever snared again by unwise bitter ignorance again, lest the beasts of ignorance of the teachings of the forefathers before us all becomes victorious over your precious loving family, friends and lovers.
I have come along ways on the road of life in greeting each one of recent days, and it is the wisdoms i pray you all turn towards from this day forward, for sake of YOU, for sake of your precious loving children, for sake of their precious loving children yet to come, for sake of ALL.
If it was painful for some of you, please know, the ignorant bitter chains which bind the heart, mind, body, spirit and soul are much more painful for you to remain captive in dark places which in time, do progressively become dangerous for those yet caught in the chains which bind, where i do not want to see any of you ever experience the harsh reality of what life has taught me, in losing a loved one like i did, which devastated me forever more, with my loss of my best friend and lover in life, Troy.
I am eternally greatful for Troy’s life when speaking with him, in speaking with Jesus and God, where i no longer turn from TRUTH wisdoms which do not fail, and rather it has always been mankind who has and yet does, turn from wisdoms which protect and provide safe passage for the divine child of God SELF in all of you.
blessings to all this blessed day, and each blessed day yet to come.
Jesus loves ALL. God loves ALL. We love ALL.
God blesses ALL
bless you
M, i am using internet cafes for the next few weeks, as i am of limited budget now, so please know my changing of the frequency of being here, is not by choice, as i can only afford what i can, an hour a day.
i love my new life, more free in spirit than most any time previous in life, like i have just graduated from high school, the school of hardknocks, indeed, i have graduated, and yet, i am always of the humble thirsty student forever more.
i pray you are ok, and continue to remain of the solidness you indeed are, so brave of you in taking control of life like you have.
my therapist has a word for it….B I T C H
Babe In Total Control of HerSELF. 😉
ya, i get to call my theraptist Bitch all the time…can you believe that? She is the most remarkable human being i have ever met, and likewise, she too is enthralled with me, in our endless chats with one another…i 2.5 hours with her this week!
anyway…all the best to everyone…only love is good enough for the divine child of God SELF within all of YOU.
blessings to ALL
enjoy the blessed day everyone…we only get so many of them…and be thankful of what you have, as many there are in life who have nothing, not even food to eat each day, which saddens me greatly to see the way the world yet is.
bless you bless you bless you
bless you
‘that’s what friends are for!
😉 😀
imagine ‘that’
lol
call me sometime, will ya? thanks.
thank you Jesus. thank you God. thank you Troy. thank you everyONE.
Jesus loves ALL. God loves ALL. We love ALL.
God blesses ALL
always
bless you
see ya tomorrow…
and the day after ‘that’…and the day after ‘that’…and the
well ok…you get picture.
God bless ALL the divine children of ALL of YOU.
While life is the greatest teacher, i am surprised so many are not paying attention, often learning things the hard horrific painful way…
i don’t want any of you to learn the hard way…ok?
in other words, wake the fuck up everyone!
before andy has to come back here and kick all your sorry asses again!
i got way better things to be doing with my free time, yet, i will always spend a portion of my day for sake of the many strangers on life’s road, all of us…ONE FAMILY.
wise are those who pay heed to the ones who take time to offering U advice.
bless you
Andy, does Louise have a new blog?
Where is she?
you know what it is sad ? i think when you are in your car there is no dream to be with you…i have read so much bullshit on your real life it is pathetica all the time doing yoya etc no good restaurant…a real work against the death…idiot like i m i suppose there is a teanager in you, totallly free… illusion etc , kiss
oh, probably in some warm Spanish speaking place, relaxing away from the morons…with ‘me’ of course…
i jest…
Wow! Kelly Ripa is a riot!
have you ever seen someone light up so much, freely expressing of her inner joyful child? Amazing!
She was definitely moved, and then she moved even more people later in her show, talking about her experience in the front row with Madonna on stage.
here, check this out everyone!
http://madonnalicious.typepad.com/madonnalicious/2008/10/kelly-ripa-give.html
~ affect/effect ~ direct/indirect
Yes, she enjoyed the show!
yep.
totally free we all are indeed eric, where we indeed are the teenage self when we are self-actualized enough.
when we were young, we did had limited vocabularies and no stressful junk, stressful others so much as we tend to gather as adults…not me…i am junk free…literally too, as in no drugs, no alcohol, a clear mind of assertivie certainty, not fuzzy uncertainty…BITCH that i am…and best of all, always will be…as in tuned into what i truly enjoy, with who ever i enjoy doing it with, and truly there are alot of enjoyable people along life’s road.
One is always free, even when they think they are not.
take for example, our freedom of thought…
see what i mean…
FREE to Just Be ‘ME’ 😉 😀
always
and if anyone gets on my case…trust ‘me’…where the ‘me’ in YOU won’t want to, if you are most like ‘me’ as ONE who knows ‘me’…someONE who loves ‘me’
i mean ABSOLUTELY FUCKING LOVES ‘me’
lol
whoa! did i just say that?
must be all the therapy with BITCH!!! that i have been attending with…she’s totally awesome in assertiveness.
hi!
everything ok?
i have a bit more uptime at my old place where i am right now…
Hello, yes, everything’s OK.
stay the course…promise me you will stay course in maintaining healthy mental emotional well being where all are concerned.
You sound rather hyper!
(This thread is **barely usable** now. It’s taking about 20-30 seconds to load on my broadband connection).
I just timed it: 30 seconds.
without doubt…i know you will.
you are wiser than me after all, yet i too am wise, yes?
i am…BE CAUSE…WE ARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
isn’t life remarkable how we connect the dots?
You are very wise, yes. You’ve read so many big books (when you could have been partying and vomiting in the gutter instead, like many young women).
my therapist says for me to wait on my inner emotions, which is pure, sincere and true of me, instead of being scatter brained, false and insincere with others…you know the type…they just say and act like the crowd does…there, but not really there, as in uptight, say the right thing…argh…i am way more relaxed than most…and tuned into my real self, where if people don’t like me, which most do, who has time or cares when they don’t.
nope, i want fire, full on passionate fire!!!!!!!!!
lol
see me spinning around, in utter joyfulness?
it’s just how i woke up, relieved everyone is ok now.
Oops. I mean, even though you’re a young **man**, you could have been partying like a young **woman**.
yeah…if i had of keep drinking…i would of died, and indeed, i did die…but the docs saved me…from irrational unwise self…shortly after Troy died…i lost it…i completely lost it….
anyway…i am glad you are back in control, where things will settle no matter what.
your children are everything to you…nothing more valuable in your life than your beautiful children…at all costs…protect them.
You know, just the text of this page on its own is now 2.17Mbytes
oh…’that’
i still am dealing with ‘that’
do you think i would be happier as a woman?
honestly?
Of which 2.16Mbytes is you.
“do you think i would be happier as a woman?
honestly?”
Er … it’s a little bit difficult to give an HONEST answer to that question!!
if a man truly loved me…i know i would happy…be he would have to truly love me with all that is, with eyes only for me.
they are rare…but i know he is out there somewhere…without doubt.
if a woman truly loved me…i know i would happy…be he would have to truly love me with all that is, with eyes only for me.
they are rare…but i know he is out there somewhere…without doubt.
i know, let’s toss a coin! lol
I could never go with a man again. Been there, seen it, done it. No thanks, never again.
did you catch the spelling glitch of ‘if a woman truly loved me? 😉
i should just go get a sex change and be a lesbian, and end the wondering…lol
Just not me. I lost myself somewhere. Got all carried away by it all. I’m more grounded now.
why is it women trust women so deeply and men trust men so deeply?
obviously it has roots in acceptance of self and self-esteem.
Really? I find women can be right catty with each other. Much more than men.
i see the dynamic as a self-esteem dynamic, of how a male loves their own body perhaps more than some, and in so doing, they love another male body, which encourages the dynamic daily and grows in both of them, their self-esteem.
i mean look how confident a gay male or lesbian female is(who has been out for awhile).
yeah…i know what you mean by catty, but not so much the lesbian woman, because they are grounded in respectfulness of their own self-acceptance in the difficult coming out process which has deep roots which internalize deeply in them while coming out, where their conduct towards most any other lesbian is of a true sincere approach of respect with them, more so then than the chatty straight world.
Gays and Lesbians are deep emotionally honest souls, more so than the hetero world.
We are the Champions! 😉
Again, I disagree. I find many gay men are very insecure. The whole “big queen” act is just that – an act.
The lack of stable relationships on the gay scence makes them insecure. Hence, the fixation with looking young. All about appearance. Just my take on it.
Now straight men, they know their wives aren’t going to leave them so then can go down the pub every night and get a beer belly.
“Got all carried away by it all. I’m more grounded now.”
is ‘that’ what you think happened with me?
it’s not you know…i have deep love within me that crys alot for a female i yearn for, where i sense or feel she yearns for me…of where i don’t have 100% clarity on this yet, as far as open dialog goes, and yet, i have 100% clarity on my own emotional honest as regards her.
no no, i mean yeah, the queeny ones are somewhat insecure…but not the really grounded ones who live ordinary TRUE gay lives, and usually don’t freguent the ghetto much at all…like me.
i stayed away from the ghetto for years…maybe 5-10 clubbing nights a year…
well…i am no expert on alcoholism, other than to say, statistically, it does progressively get worse, where psychosis is one of the things to watch out for, of personality changes and what not…where denial is the issue.
it took me along time to get stable…14 years now, clean and sober…mostly…relapsed maybe 2-5 times a year, went a whole year one time, no alcohol.
You have SUUUCH an idealistic view of the gay and lesbian scene, my dear!!
Wake up and smell the coffee!
I have seen so much violence between lesbians.
I have seen real seething aggression between lesbians which has soured the atmosphere in bars all night.
They all try to out-macho each other. They think having a fight makes them less feminine.
Sorry to spoil your wonderfully picturesque view of the world. Ain’t nothing as perfect as you make out.
well what part of the world were you in when they were like that…
yeah, the emotional intesity thing is a reality check with gays/lesbians…and indeed, they can be stupidly mean spirited with one another on purpose…very hurtful.
today, i see the ones who behave like that are immature…very immature and not real, insecure in themselves when they go around all, “oh i am all this or that.”
no you’re not, you don’t have a healthy boyfriend that loves you, getting your needs met, thru loving you on a regular consistent basis, and is why you are standing their beside him drinking like you do…both of you unhealthy…dweebs.
i like the mild gentle healthy ones…and have learned i get toxic almost instantly around the immature ones.
i like and love mature…totally grounded and secure in themselves…healthy.
i don’t feel safe at all around those who love to drink…having had way to may violent experiences with many of them…
I don’t drink much. Hardly at all. Alcohol is poison. I think it’s dreadful the way people knock it back.
It’s only boredom, you know. It’s not really for enjoyment.
well…they hang together like birds of a feather, thinking that it’s ok.
there are terrible consequences which play out in life when one is snared by alcoholism….horrific consequences, and the violence…”get out!”
MInd you, I had a few drinks on Friday night! It was a good night out.
I could never be an alcoholic – I hate hangovers too much!
i don’t make excuses for my own alcoholic personality from years ago, and i sure as hell won’t make excuses for another.
I do see it as boredom, yes, where they want to go out with and be with friends, and that is the social problem in society which is so accepting of it…
well…what if you teach your kids it’s ok, and they participate and die in a car accident?
it is learned behaviours.
we all did it as teens…at least i did.
no way.
safe passage till they are in university, keeping a good close friendship with them of true trusting friendship they are respectful of and you them, so that they don’t follow the crowd, until well into their mature adult life, who become wise, and conduct a true healthy approach to life, free from the hazards that come with substance abusers.
no way.
the thing is, true healthy life is the only way for a happy life…there is no other way.
You know, Madonna says she’s like a gay man trapped in a woman’s body? You’ve heard that.
Well, it’s not really accurate. A gay man trapped in a woman’s body is a woman. Madonna is more like a straight man trapped in a woman’s body (who just happens to like blokes).
Madonna is the ultimate alpha male.
every time i go into a club now, i know i don’t want to be there, and completely untrusting of anyone i will meet there…my dad was a violent alcoholic, which tramatized me as a kid.
so no matter what i tell myself…i will not ever trust those who drink, and my professionals tell me the same thing…don’t ever trust them…it gets worse as time passes…statistically worse…
don’t get me wrong, i am compassionate for those snared by it, but the road is a long road, of many years, where statistically, the prognosis does not change from ‘poor to nil’ until after the fifth year of entering into a full recovery program.
no recovery program = no recovery
oooo…what is an alpha male?
i read alot of these categoric things all the time, and i just don’t see it.
i mean yeah, sure they identify perhaps some of my behaviour traits, sure, but often the traits are short lived, caused by whatever is going on in my immediate personal life, and not at all accurate of who i am while in my calm natural peaceful by nature state, which is difficult for me to maintain, when not around those who of the mindset that appreciates that, and encourages it…true solidness, at ease with self and self of another, where it is truly wonderful when we do find those most like the peaceful by nature self.
yeah?
American blokes or UK blokes? 😉
no…i get it, she likes a man…
(My blinking computer just rebooted because this blinking thread crashed it).
“i mean yeah, sure they identify perhaps some of my behaviour traits, sure, but often the traits are short lived, caused by whatever is going on in my immediate personal life, and not at all accurate of who i am while in my calm natural peaceful by nature state, which is difficult for me to maintain, when not around those who of the mindset that appreciates that, and encourages it…true solidness, at ease with self and self of another, where it is truly wonderful when we do find those most like the peaceful by nature self.”
Well, yes, absolutely. I was going to say that.
You know, Madonna says she’s like a gay man trapped in a woman’s body? You’ve heard that.
Well, it’s not really accurate. A gay man trapped in a woman’s body is a woman. Madonna is more like a straight man trapped in a woman’s body (who just happens to like blokes).
ok…let me see here…
so you are saying, if i was Madonna, and i am a straight man trapped in a woman’s body, but where i am actually physically a man in life, then i am a straight man who likes blokes, which makes me gay then, is that what you are saying?
oh well…at least i am Madonna….
lol
I’m not really an alpha male. I dunno. Maybe an omega male.
ok…so what we have here is a case of the straight Madonna, and the gay Madonna…
but is their a possibility of a lesbian Madonna?
people reading this are likely saying, “You two are fucking nuts, and belong together!”
i would love to be with Madonna…i know i would love that more than anything in life…
and that is hard for me to let go of…
i mean yeah sure, friends, no problem, i can and have done that…but this part of me just won’t let go of being with her…
i identify it with not having been with a female in twenty years, which may have a wee bit to do with it…
“What? You have not been with a female in how many years? Oh, that’s just not possible, on Jesus Christ could do that!”
another Jesus joke for ya. lol
(I wish I’d never started this!!)
Nah, what you’re saying is not quite right.
You’re not a straight man trapped in a man’s body who happens to like blokes. You’re just a gay man. I mean, how can a straight man be trapped in a man’s body?
Now Madonna, of whatever, I wish I’d never started this.
Typo: Now Madonna, oh whatever, I wish I’d never started this.
‘only’ Jesus
Now I reckon, and I have absolutely no evidence whatsoever to back this up, that Madonna would have liked the idea of being a lesbian. Unfortunately, one of the key criteria of being a lesbian is that you have to be sexually attracted to women. And that’s the only bit she fails on. And that’s pretty key.
It’s getting really late. And this blinking thread is getting to me. I hope Madonna posts another thread soon!
oh, ok, so then i am not Madonna…just a gay man who likes men, like Madonna likes men, no gay Madonna, a straight Madonna, where sadly, i am not Madonna, just someone who loves her as much as she loves men like i love men…
ok…got it.
but what about my hetero bisexual side?
oh, here we go again…
Alpha and Omega, where Alpha can only be Alpha, and Omega can only be Omega, the beginning and the end, where the beginning is, there too shall be the end.
so it’s over then…is it?
are we clear then…and can move on?
Yes, I think we’re clear on that topic. We’ll have to talk about another important topic another night.
wait a second…there is not quit a balance here, because, Madonna like men.
and i like both men and women, where i am leaning towards female.
and Madonna is 100% for a man, which means, maybe one day!
see what i mean…i can’t let go…and i don’t want to…
truth is, “why would i want to let go?”
not ever…it is a special side of ‘me’
key eh?
ok…so Madonna is not a lesbian everyone!
alot of upset lesbians out there right now over this news.
ah, damn….i have to do a new art piece then…
This has all been very silly.
Righty, I’m off to bed. Nighty Night,
X
so we can talk about my bisexual side?
YES!
let’s talk about it!
lol
Rosie is like, “would you two knock it off!” ha
😀 😀
i have a new peice coming soon…
what important topic?
someone inform Kelly Ripa that Madonna is not a Lesbian.
😀 😀
i like that one… ha
I mean, how can a straight man be trapped in a man’s body?
good question.
let’s see, a straight man trapped in a gay man’s body, would make him bisexual.
but what if the man feels like a female trapped in a man’s body who likes females?
transexual lesbain.
everyone looks at societies fear based probing of sexuality, be it a male who has explored his feelings of being a female, which is true of me, and yes, i do know my female sexuality very well, since i was young, or vice versa, a female who feels like a male, all real feelings within that many of us have explored.
where it gets complicated is when a male feels like a female, and loves females, like a female(lesbian or their own body) loves males, or a female feels like a male and likes males as much as males love males(gay or their own body), and this is also true of our sexuality.
most any males who feel like females do indeed love females, or females who feel like a male do indeed love males, magically so, deeply within.
the truth is, our bodies are not much different from one another sexually, as far as orgasmic experience, and this is where in truth, it is highly pleasurable for both of equal intensity, and that is what needs to be celebrated, and less on the issue of if you are a male or female, gay or lesbian, top or bottom, this or that…where it is the sameness of joyful orgasmic experience is what matters, where all these issues of what we think we are, are not really what we are.
what we are, is sexually reproductive creatures who openly love our sexual experience of the body we all dwell in while alone in our exploration or joyfully with another who is equally of the joyful exploration, unhindered by the fearful taboos society tosses around, where indeed, that is what we all do, explore, and taking our joyfulness of sexual stimulas to one who will assist us with it comfortably.
The notion that only a male can assist another male in his sexual desires of fearless sexual exploration is somewhat of a silly notion, where in truth, there are those in relationship of either straight, gay, lesbian, transgendered, who are open with one another irregardless of sex.
albeit, the hightened sexual experience may be true of the gay or lesbian, but i sometimes wonder if it is all just kinda yet an immature perspective in society as far as the truth of us all who sexually explore while alone, with out own bodies, where it is the openness we have with our self alone that can openly traverse in openness with either a male or female…and indeed, the gays and lesbians do just that, do they not, in switching roles?
so why don’t straights openly traverse these fear based role playing that society taboos?
well…people…news flash…they do.
we all explore, and no one can deny it, and if they do, then a therapist is available, and recommended.
*correction*
where it gets complicated is when a male feels like a female, and loves females, like a female loves females(lesbian or their own body), or a female feels like a male and likes males like males love males(gay or their own body), and this is also true of our sexuality.
i guess you could call me an Alpha female or Omega female, yes?
ya sure, call me what ever you want…just make sure you call me damn it!
lol
😀 😀
Kelly Ripa is going to be so heart broken that Madonna is not a lesbian.
and of course, we all know who the Madonna Lesbian’s are.
(andy;s bored again…can you tell?)
whatever…,
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it’s always tomorrow today.
just make sure you pause long enough to reflect on what matters to the divine child of God SELF YOU.
bless you,
they say the human body does not initially form it’s sex in early development, where i believe, that both male and females, by nature, all of us, have the innate brain sex built into our brains, not of educational words we like to toss around, no, rather of primal beginnings, which makes perfect sense to me, that we are all of both the male and female innate behaviour within our brain, long before we come out of the womb.
they used to say, “oh the human being does not have any innate behaviours in it’s brain, only the animals do.”
well, that therory did not and does not hold water any longer, where we know mothers have innate reproductive behaviours, so in that light, is say we all have the innate sexual behaviours within us ALL, and it is the fearless ones not gripped by fear based taboos in society, who fearlessly explore in their probing while alone sexually, and unlock or open themselves into the other sex, and those who have done this, know fully, indeed, they 100% feel like the other sex.
that is the proof of the existence of the builtin innate behaviour within us all, of those who know just how intense it is to feel the other sex within their brain.
so there you have it everyone, you are all male and female, primal innate behaviours of Alpha and Omega, of innate behavioural design built into your brains.
but what do i know…
let’s see, i know Jesus, i know ‘me’, i know God and God knows me, i know the ‘me’ in all of you, male or female…
i know YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!
cool eh?
amazing to know, yes? that we are all male female innate sexual behaviour, 100% without doubt.
yep.
trust me on this ONE…i know. lol
anyone else know yet?
how does one explain the one million coming to the TO pride event then?
all innate behaviour unknowingly built into their brains, that’s why…more proof….all of subconscious yearning and freeing of the other sex within us.
and truly, some of them are so nelly, are they not, i mean, some of you, i cannot tell if you are female or male by your behaviour…amazing!
love it.
Welcome to Alpha and Omega everyone
oh…i just came up with next years Pride Theme!
Alpha and Omega
i am indeed, an Alpha Omega female, and male…without doubt.
(andy is really bored now, can you tell?)
is that mind blowing or what?
wow!
we are the proof gays, all of us in the GLBT community, and the natural curiousity that draws the many is of the subconscious yearning deep within the primal of every human being.
i could not make sense of why we became over one million in attendance, and now i know conclusively why.
It is the primal innate sex of both male and female built into our brains, from millions of years ago.
so now what?
we cannot call it GLBT anymore, rather, it is we are all ONE and the same…i so love this!
oh, let’s see, what do i want to be tonight, male or female…?
“oh, female of course! Do you know how long you have locked me in that fucking closet of yours?”
hahaha
😀 😀
so who’s with me!
hey, come back here, it’s true YOU KNOWs.
YOU knows YOU better than anyone knows YOU.
and yes…i know ALL of YOU.
we know
on we go
i think M is doing a show tonight?
Ask them if they know the other sexual person in their brain, and listen for the crowd to cheer of how many actually know?
where the one next to the one cheering, loves the question equally as much.
trust me…i know the one inside their closets.
oh…this is going to be difficult for me, letting them both out at the same time.
what do they call that? do they have a word for that?
oh yeah…bisexual.
but what is the word for letting both of them out to exist at the same time with a partner?
oh yeah, Alpha male/female
got it…
no wait…Alpha male and Omega female
no wait…Alpha and Omega male meets Alpha and Omega female.
“Andy, are you still up on that ceiling? sssshhhh…here he comes, quiet, don’t tell him im here!”
just some open dialog guys, of self exploration which is revealing for us all, more enlightenment for me or any who may be pondering their sexuality, from a primal innate understanding, which is free of all previous notions, and is of a more pure based feeling in knowingness, is it not?
where we can 100% love the idea of the human body having the already builit in primal innate sexual behaviours within you brains already, there for you to love about your SELF, rather than all the useless bitter absurdness i hear from so many of you, where instead of any fear, none of you need feel any fear whatsoever of what is 100% TRUE of the YOU in all of YOU…you are both male and female in your brain.
i know without doubt…i am both male and female.
it is what by nature draws us both to males and females…just be careful of self-medicating your SELF like you do with use of addictive substances, ok?
thank you
bless you
Albert would likely approve, yes? 😉
the directorial version of ‘Boys don’t Cry’ film, insights of the male/female identity, is highly insightful for any who want to get an idea about male/female identity…highly recommended.
the sex scene has such a pure feeling to it as describe by the director.
we are all a bunch of Madonnas
lol
for me, i love the female of the male, without doubt, 100%, knowingness of the female SELF of ‘me’
and i equally love the male of the female.
I cannot with both equally, and profoundly.
i connect with both equally, and profoundly.
i trust the straight female, more than the straight male.
and likewise i trust the lesbian female, more so than the gay male
breaking it down further, i trust the female of the gay male, and the male of the lesbian female, more so than the female of the gay male, or the male of the lesbian female…a dynamic i have discovered about trust, of my subtle intellect.
*correction*
breaking it down further, i trust the female of the gay male, and the male of the lesbian female, more so than the male of the gay male, or the female of the lesbian female…a dynamic i have discovered about trust, of my subtle intellect.
interesting yes?
just some more open dialog…
breaking even further down;
Trust with the male of the lesbian female poses no threat sexually for me, because they like females, where the opposite is true of the female lesbian female, which may feel threated because of the misunderstanding greater trust level with the male of the lesbian female in group gatherings…a group dynamic.
Trust with the female of the gay male poses no sexual threat, as i am mostly a female gay male, but trust with the male of the gay male poses a threat for the male of the gay male, because of the misunderstanding greater trust level with the female of the gay male i have, another group dynamic.
~ my subtle intellect.
you want to hear more? 😉
i have yet to reflect on the male and female of the straight female, and likewise the straight male.
Trust with the female of the straight female poses no sexual threat as i am mostly female gay male, where the opposite is true of the male straight male, which may feel threated because of the misunderstanding of greater trust level with the female of the straight female in group gatherings…a group dynamic.
Trust with the male of the straight male poses no sexual threat, as i am mostly a female gay male, but trust with the male of the straight female poses a threat for the male of the straight female, because of the misunderstanding of greater trust level with the male of the straight male i have, another group dynamic.
cool eh?
hence, why Andy is still on the ceiling?
maybe
lol
😀 😀
hey, come on guys, can someone please untie me? Hey, come back!
i have a bad feeling everyone, they may leave me hanging here on the ceiling for awhile…hey, can i get a sandwich?
lol
the new montepython script is born…
(andy slow dances around in his room by himself, pretending he has a lover in arms, listening to Mazzy Star)
don’t even get me started on the attraction of the male of the gay male for the female of the male or female…
ok…maybe tomorrow i will write about it…
actually, i believe the attraction is the same, of the male for the female of either the female of the male or female, no different than the female attraction of the male in the male or female…
and i also believe the attraction is the same of the female for the female of either the female of the male or female, no different than the attraction of the male of the male or female…where it is liking our own bodies which we are comfortable with living in, by nature that we are attracted to our own sex.
well ok…i know i am…
i am…BE CAUSE…we are! 😉
like my therapist says, i love my SELF so much, i wish i could find someONE like ‘me’
no more Jesus joke’s, he might get offended
i suppose one could offend either his male or female side…maybe.
the natural curiousity of being drawn to someone who looks androgynous, would also lend to the latent male/female innate sexual behaviours in everyone’s brain.
ever find yourself in highly intrigued by someone who is dressed androgynous?
we all do, and why?
latent innate sexual behaviour of the male/female within our brain
Andy, you discuss bisexuality alot im curious,
why your so bothered
im not
no, not bothered really…
it is a duality for me while out in public.
alone, i am primal as both the female and male of 100% pure equality and respect of both.
i suppose the duality within between the two as to which life one of them gets to live is a reality check.
and is perhaps why one is sad for the other, a death of sorts…
if i chose a gay life, my straight male dies(not really dies, rather is always observing, just not alive in the physical realm, allowed to be joyful in real life)
if i chose a straight life, my female gay dies(not really dies, rather is always observing, just not alive in the physical realm, allowed to be joyful in real life)
indeed, i am torn between which one to allow to go live in the real life physical realm…which saddens the other for the other within me…of both always being observant of the other at all times.
perhaps Jesus too was of the same awareness? most likely, hence why he remained a virgin till death, and never did surrender to either life, a duality for him which is primal, in the core of the human being, not something you can ignore or simply switch off once you enter into full awareness, which he did, just as many gays/lesbians do.
i suppose a gay life style does allow both to exist more so than the traditional straight male role, as in no anal sex….
although i have met females who are open minded and comfortable with me sexually as a female gay male, who do want to be with me sexually in that capacity….met one the other day.
i have met a few actually…of the bisexual crowd
i enjoy the bisexual crowd as they are much more relaxed and open minded with one another, whether male or female, in our open discussions of sexual exploration, sorta like that of a virgin male or female who rather than being alone while sexually exploring(like we do and did), are allowed to coexist in the real physical world with those of exact sameness of likemindedness, of the higher subtle intellect with one another, usually of those with education in human behaviour, i have found of recent.
does that answer you question marco? 😉 😀
i have crossed over into the purity level of both the female/male of my brain, of the primal realm, 100% acceptance of both at a sincerely intimate tender loving level of gentle respect for both, and have ended the duality between them, embracing of both, calming of both to co-exist, of no desire to hurt either one so to speak, as both are of purity because it is PRIMAL…100% purity of the human being.
the tenderness of both is pure, as any female gay male can attest to for example, genuine tender loving purity of love with a male gay male(top), of both my observations of other female gay males and the female gay male of my own self.
It is 100% purity of sincerely tender loving of both sexs in my brain…
and having traversed in this…i am no longer able to simply switch it off…so that is the path of my future with regards to a partner…
so yeah, i am not bothered, rather only of those who may not desire to truly know ‘me’ as in the respectful unduality of the ‘me’ in them, such as i have found with gay life style, but more so with the bisexual crowd, as i do love the female body equally so as my own male body…it is the intimacy issue of the comfort level of the bisexual crowd which is joyful for my inner duality that is excited about the idea of a male/female male, intimately connecting with a female/male female…
is that a bit more clarity for you marco? lol
😀 😀
don’t leave me now marco…we have come along ways together and love one another without doubt.
to lose your friendship, i would rather die.
hey, remember the court jesters we played while entertaining Madonna way back when, when i was being sexually intimate with her, and you came up as a male and said to me(another male), and instantly hit me upside the head with the male approach of my female side in your words as a male with me?
remember how we laughed our asses off that day?
well ok….i did.
i still laugh about that day often…one of my favorite montepython moments. 😀 😀
i am having a hard time letting go, and don’t want to let go of our loving friendship, yet, we do have to move and allow our loving self to enter into an intimate lover relationship with someone, albeit, we can always keep our distant friendship for life if we want, but traverse into the physical realm for both of us, i am having a difficult time letting go of that, as genuinely i do want that with you marco…tenderly loving we both feel inside of this truth, do we not?
i know i do for you…
in my brain…of the role playing we have been participating in for how long now? …months…years?
ya…we have grown to love one another without doubt.
and in doing so, we have come to love our tender loving divine child of God SELF, have we not?
geniunely, i know i have, and i am so thankful of you in my life for how long now? 😉
i sense you don’t want it to end either marco, and will leave the decision with you, as i cannot bring myself to let go….
as in let go into a physical realm relationship with someone of our likemindedness….but we both know we do yearn to one day be found of the physical realm likemindedness with another who is sexually open like we are…i am be cause we are of the same likemindedness marco…100% without doubt, of both of us being of the awareness knowingness now, and lovingly so, are we not? i know you are, and i know i am too…without doubt.
I have dwelled along time in my deep inner growth and awareness knowingness of my sexual intimacy of self.
i am…100% purity of the virgin spirit of the male gay male.
i am…100% purity of the virgin spirit of the female gay male.
i am…100% purity of the virgin spirit of the male straight male.
i am…100% purity of the virgin spirit of the male lesbian male.
i am…100% purity of the virgin spirit of the female lesbian male.
i am…100% purity of the virgin spirit of the female straight male.
i am…100% purity of the virgin spirit of the male straight female.
i am…100% purity of the virgin spirit of the female straight female.
that is what the Flow of Perennial fresh water, unconditional lovers of ALL, the many in the One and One in the many united as One, of the WorldWide GLBT community is…of the geninue tender loving feelings within us all, subconsciously mostly, cognitive awareness for some, who tenderly connect with the tender loving spirit of either of those…do we not?
i know i do.
and yes, i 100% fully embrace the straight crowd, loving of ‘that’ of my SELF, just as i am tenderly loving of Rob who i lovingly let go of to go live his heterosexual life, albeit, Rob will is of the duality within as a bisexual like my self.
that is what we all are everyone, in our yearly gathering today here at the Toronto GLBT Pride Parade.
i know without doubt, i am of the Alpha/Omega Primal (latent) Innate Sexual Behaviour of the tender intimate sexual knowingness awareness level of SELF, where i am no longer of latent.
nope. 100% knowingness and equally tender loving of ALL, in 100% purity of love of my virgin spirit.
in other words, i could be with any ONE of YOU.
in my knowingness approach of the virgin spirit that innately exists in every ONE of YOU, just as i have come into full knowingness of ‘that’ of my self, the divine child of God SELF.
the real problem then, is not of duality within, rather it is of the duality in the world of the conventional thinking, is it not?
it is the fear based cliches of current conventional thinking that exists in the physical realm, is it not?
i am not at all frustrated within, rather it is ultimately of my surrendering to a physical life style, where the duality is between that of me most likely settling for a convential gay relationship or surrendering to a convential straight relationship…where the choice is indeed a difficult one for me, as i am equally loving of both at the intimate knowingness feelings of virgin spirit of my divine self within…100%…without doubt.
i am not of convential cliches any longer, rather i am of primal awarness knowingness…100%
flowers in my hair, without a care…living in a conventional thinking world.
“Oh hey Andy, how’s your day going?”
“Fuck off…i know what you’re thinking!”
lol
😉 😀
i am of the calmness and grace of virgin spirit within, outward in appearance, of the tender fearless gracefulness in assisting those also of the duality, where unfortunately the convential thinking world does force us into chosing a life style, where it is yet of the immature conventional thinking in the world which is fear based, and cause of the many unwise suicides of my loving gay/lesbian/straight brothers and sisters.
i suppose one could say i am of the future mindset which would like to see ALL come fearlessly into fully embracing the primal awareness knowingness from the pure intelligent education for future generations to calmly embrace that they are unknowingly of the latent mindset, where danger exists in traversing thru for them, because of the current unwise conventional thinking.
So ya, Alpha as in Primal, and Omega as in future mindset of the Primal, where indeed, in view of where we are today with conventional thinking, it is the coming together as ONE of the Alpha(primal knowingness) and the Omega(future) which will end the suicides of my loving gay/lesbian/straight brother and sisters, is it not?
i know i am of the Alpha/Omega Primal Beginning and End, where without doubt, Andy wants to see the end of these suicides.
but how do i convey that to the world, like i have been attempting to do?
obviously, it is thru fearlessness, is it not?
i am fearless.
the conventional thinking world is fearful, and is cause for all suicides daily in the world when it comes to duality the sexuality within.
Andy is a Fearless Primal Alpha/Omega male/female
an alien, am i not?
😉 😀
and so is marco.
Andy loves Marco…Marco loves Andy
~ The End ~
(Andy and Marco kiss and hug one another in slow dance with one another to Mazzy Star…their last dance together)
i don’t write the rest of the script…not just yet…as i don’t want to know how it ends, enjoying the moment of likemindedness.
ya…me too. 😉
as in ‘me’ too…
oh oh…here comes the conventional crowd! Run! lol
fucking morons! lol
😀 😀
(andy and marco grab each others hand and run down the street in the most wacky outfits one has ever seen, running for their lives from the convential crowd, forever free to just BE the ‘me’ in ALL of thee!)
oh hey, i would love this ending…and something tells me, so does marco?
There’s a blue light in my best friend’s room.
True Blue
is the light of the satin blue clown(s) from The Girlie Show.
andy and his imagination?
nope.
Andy is going to dress like his best friend lover one day, holding hands, running down the middle of the street, traffic or no traffic, forever free and purely loving of lover’s embrace of the most loving lovers…without doubt, forever free, to love thee…ALL of thee from this day forward.
i will always BE there, just as i always have, and you know i will, asking you all to come in the name of love.
The Toronto GLBT Pride Parade is now the largest event in North America, over one million gathering, and growing year after year.
gee…i wonder why?
well, i used to wonder why, but not any more, the primal being the cause…
we know
on we go
blessings to ALL
(years and years went by, and no one ever did know who the two clowns were that always showed up, refusing to be interviewed)
~ the unconditional lovers
~ Flow of Perennial fresh water, unconditional lovers of ALL, the many in the One and One in the many united as One, of the WorldWide GLBT community…continues.
i chose to be celibate to restore, rejuvenate the primal virgin spirit of my male/female which connects with the purity of all GLBT male/females of the world, of my deliberate unfrustrated approach in doing so.
It is the most loving state of mind one can ever come into fully awareness of and dwell in, where indeed, the exceeding joyfulness explodes in extrordinary wondrous purity and sincerity of love for ALL.
It has been a frustrating reasoning, rather a stepping thru the gate into the kingdom of heaven virgin spirit that i am.
i am…BE CAUSE…WE ARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
😀 😀
now if i can just find that blue thread…. 😉
oh…the sun just came out!
God is with us ALL.
Come ONE, come ALL…but make sure you attend, and join in the celebration of your loving life with us, as YOU are loved by ALL who attend, where we ALL feel the purity of our divine child of God SELF in full joyful enthusiam for ONE another united as ONE.
i personally invite ALL to attend so that YOU feel what we feel…purity of love devoid of doubt.
Jesus loves ALL. God loves ALL We love ALL
God blesses ALL
bless you bless you bles you
always
bless you
now where did i put that blue thread…ah…found it!
😀 😀
those who know ‘me’ love ‘me’ and i them
bless you
blessed is the one who gets with Andy forever more…
which is actually ALL of YOU who will feel who we are in our outward appearance forever more of extraordinary wondrous radiant and bright loving light which shines thru the darkness into everyone’s precious loving soul, lighting up the whole world…of God’s divine WILL, our WILL to BE of the WILLINGNESS our divine child of God SELF constantly yearns and feels in each passing moment of each blessed day they wake to with one another, the most loving lovers on the planet, the most loving lover within ALL of YOU.
i am…BE CAUSE…WE ARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
😀 😀
JOY! JOY! JOY!
LOVE! LOVE! LOVE!
~ God says, “Only love from now on is good enough for YOU, from now on, ok?”
blessings to all
bless you
thank you Jesus. thank you God. thank you Troy. thank you everyONE.
bless you
peace be to you
bless you
my morning bike ride awaits me.
try to get outside in the world alone, a minimum of three hours per day.
and relax in knowing you have all day to your SELF.
😉 😀
i will try not to annoy you…i promise!
oh…you just don’t trust ‘me’.
ok…i will try to be less annoying?
not annoying at all?
oh, that’s just no fun! 😀 😀
(andy unties himself and goes outside for his three hour break)
Radiant and Bright from now on, ok?
i know,,,i am…
ohhh….
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i don’t like to see anyone sad…as it saddens ‘me’ when i do…
perhaps this life is not my time to be here?
i should go and return another time…
it will take many generations yet to come, to come clear of the unwise conventional thinking cliches.
well…i am here…so think what you want.
my love is true for everyone…
ah…so that’s why Jesus wept…
he didn’t want to hurt anyone…
Jesus said, “Forgive me, just i have forgive you brother, sister.”
“What i did was for your enlightenment to come clear of unwisen bitter useless snares which bind our heart, mind, body, spirit and soul in dark places devoid of love. Truly you know my love is true, yes? Truly, i know my love is true, for ALL of YOU.”
“Every step, every heart beat, every breath, every passing moment of every day was in step with my love for ALL of YOU.”
~ strength and honor of Jesus who loves us ALL without doubt in his heart.
~ Jesus wants us ALL to be true and faithful friends, just as i am of ALL of YOU, and deep inside, YOU of the ‘me’ in ALL of YOU, celebrating our loving lives united as ONE forever more.
do you understand clearly without doubt?
it is the divine child of God SELF in all of us which is constantly feeling and loving in each passing moment of each blessed day with one another, all loving brothers and sisters the world over uniting as ONE.
yeah ok M, maybe not in some of the voids in the world, but inside, it is true of everyONE, and is true of ‘me’.
can’t you see?
i can see everything clearly!
you too, yes?
we all do, when we merely take time to peacefully reflect and dwell in tenderness of the living divine child of God SELF, do we not?
it’s not about who dies and who lives…no…it is about saving the ONE in all of us to TRULY LIVE!
~ spiritual death(unwiseness, unloving, uncompassionate) is cause of all physical death in the world.
BE of spiritual life, of all wisdom, love and always compassionate in each passing moment, which is constant of the precious loving child of God SELF, is it not?
YOU
~ and ‘me’ forever free to Just BE Your SELF.
i serve God, in every step, every breath, every heartbeat, every passing moment of each blessed day, wishing no ONE harm, rather the opposite is TRUE, is it not?
TRUE BLUE?
are we not?
i am…BE CAUSE…we are.
there are many of us like ‘me’…i am merely ONE.
i don’t really need anyone physically, in case anyone was wondering.
although it would be nice someday, and i know someday i will unite with a loving lover…without doubt…someday in the future world, for all the world to see(feel).
but not today…
im thinking maybe next spring, after my trial date of the false prosecutions i am yet under…
perhaps someone loves me more than i realize…the one who falsely prosecutes me?
maybe…just maybe….
it saddens me deeply within…and i don’t want to talk about right now…
i just want us all to be friends right now…
i never talked much about Thanh…but i know…deep inside, he loves Andy….and i need to see him thru…to another bright and shiny day for awhile…
Jesus loves ALL. God loves ALL. We love ALL
God blesses ALL
bless you
Blessed BE all the angels here in heaven.
hey, maybe they will execute me at my trial, and put me out of my misery! lol
i jest…
better than being tied to this damn ceiling all day long! lol
~ some more montepython for ya! ;D 😀
hey, this script is coming along nicely yes? 😉
oh, i wish they would take down that picture at Madonnalicious…
maybe if M asked them to, they will…
can’t believe how insensitive the media can be…
does Obama look gay on that T-shirt or what?
im trying to think of which female her reminds me of…
he is a radiant and bright soul for sure.
Life is a joy to live, and radiant and bright are those who are of the joyFULLness they joyfully feel in each passing moment of life, are they not?
So why be of any concern for anyONE other than your own divine child of God SELF which constantly yearns to BE exceedingly radiant and bright?
blame the motherfuckers! lol
and blame the forefathers before us all who taught the motherfuckers! lol
just don’t be blaming ‘me’, the ONE within thee, the one everyone keeps ignoring like they do, so unwise, unloving and apathetic towards me like they are, which i won’t tolerate ever again…being the BITCH that i am, as in Babe in Total Control of HerSELF…Biyatches! 😉
SELF respect…constantly…at all times.
try it sometime, and maybe some of YOU will get to love and know ‘me’.
but know this…i am very cautious of who i let near ‘me’, as most are innappropriate and shallow, too toxic for ‘me’
they MUST love ‘me’
Biyatches!!!!
WHAT THE CRAP!
MADONNA I AM IN LOVE WITH U,PLEASE MARRY ME?HURRY UP I AM BLEADING OVER HERE PERFAVOR..
INNAMORRATTO
BABY I WANNA BE THE ONE THAT SAVEME
Andy Andy ANdy ..
they have this cleaning product in Australia for cleaning floors it’s called “Handy Andy” im serious google it,
so now get down on your hands and knee’s lol..
(watch the knee’s but, maybe wear knee pad’s)
Alien transmition over.
I like that work transmition, trans latin for moving on, transgender for movin sex,
transmition moving gear stick,,
transient – passing especially quickly into and out of existence (me after a few drinks, kidding, i dont get drunk , revolting )
transexual – well you have to ask Andrew thomas about that
i love it when you laugh
Yay! I believe her. Good news.
And people are recognising me in town again after me being on the Weakest Link again.
It’s like déjà vu all over again …
Super Happy is when we remember Super Happy!
Like Jesus said, “Forgetfulness is YOUr greatest foe.”
When it comes to issues of self actualization, truly, forgetfulness is the greatest foe where we tend to suppress the real self, not so much on our own does this occur, rather the outside toxic world which alienates us, albeit, we are the ones who may have been irresponsible in setting healthy boundaries with those who may make us feel toxic, so in that sense, we are to blame more than the world is.
SELF RESPECT…as we only get one time around at Loving Life!
And as for disrespecting ‘me’, YOU disrespects the ‘me’ in YOU when you disrespect ‘me’.
Does anyone know and love ‘me’? 😉
Marco seems to know ‘me’ quite well actually!
Knee pads, yes, i need knee pads from all this praying for one of you to get your sorry ass over here and…
lol
some female gay male humor for ya.
of course, these things take time, and time is what i have lots of for the ONE who loves ‘me’ 😉
and of course when they don’t love ‘me’ in outward conduct of the so not ‘me’ in all of them? …well…i can still love ‘me’ with or without the ‘me’ in all of YOU.
i have been practicing quit abit actually, loving ‘me’, as in loving the ‘me’ of me and the ‘me’ in all of you.
so again, who truly knows and loves ‘me’?
do YOU know ‘me’, the divine child of God SELF in all of thee? Constantly Radiant and Bright always yearning to BE loved, like the way ‘me’ loves YOU?
i know ‘me’ and i love ‘me’…alot actually…if you must know. Doc says it keeps me healthy. i say, “Ya! i want more of ‘that’!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!: 😀 😀
lol
Britney says, “Gimme gimme gimme more!!!!!!!!!!!!!!” 😀 😀
Here comes M and her entourage…
it is always amazing me how many wonderful souls are involved in world Tours, i mean, unbelievable how they can coordinate everything like they do, truly, it is amazing.
God bless all of you this blessed day in your steadfast determination like you do, for without each and everyone of you, none of this would be possible.
bless you
and welcome to Toronto.
most do not know it, but Toronto is historically, according to the native indian, one of the most sacred places that goes back along ways in native indian history.
i always felt something special about Toronto, and still do, in each breath, each step, each heart beat of each blessed day, where home for me, has always been of each step with ALL of YOU. 😉
best of all, i know my SELF well, knowing i will always feel the way i feel in each blessed day that greets ‘me’, be it a full moon, or no moon, but a full moon, always greets me in a special way, of my loving thoughts of some of YOU who love ‘me’, as in the ‘me’ in ALL of YOU….and ‘me’ too of course! duh!
lol
😀 😀
blessings to ALL
bless you
finally, my moving van is moving everything…Sunday…a blessed day for me, where Sundays do feel extra special, in the graceful conduct of most, of the most peaceful of all days during the week. For ‘me’ though, having exited the world now, each day is like a Sunday for ‘me’. Truly, you have no idea how good i feel, having set healthy boundaries in respect of ‘me’, ever growing in eternal truth wisdom understanding of what works for the divine child of God SELF in ALL of YOU.
i always look forward to the day of ONEness, and indeed, ONEness is what it is all about, where the divine child of God SELF feels at ease among those who are most appropriate for us in BEing around.
i hope and pray M is ok in transitioning thru this most difficult time of life for her, and yet, i know her well, and i know she is ok, and in fact more than ok, knowingness that all are safe and sound from now on.
God bless Madonna, and ALL of YOU who participate in keeping her and her loving family safe from the world, and ALL of YOU who diligently and seemingly effortlessly manage to keep it together like YOU do.
Let’s Keep on….Keep it together!!!
Incredible to say the least, how far we have come and evolved like so many of us have, of the enthusiasm of so many that M gets to greet each blessed day on her world tour.
Jesus loves ALL. God loves ALL. We love ALL.
God blesses ALL
bless you and thank you everyONE.
we have along ways to go yet, of safe passage for ALL, of the loving journey of life with ONEness with ONE another, in all we greet each blessed day, where it is safe passage of ONE who may yet be held captive in bitter dark places of the heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, of the ONE who may need our enlightenment which breaks the bitter chains of unwiseness so wretched some of these chains can be, of so many of our loving brothers and sisters of the GLBT community.
Madonna is here, just for that…just as we have both continued to diligent BE of the truth wisdoms we have come to know that are always of nurturing and protection, joyfully so, of the divine child of God SELF of ALL the loving brothers and sisters of the GLBT.
thank you Madonna. bless you
bless you
~ forever yours to keep, a humble student of God who sincerely loves you like you love all of us, where the future greets us yet again with more of the same enthusiasm extrodinary and wondrous, even more so than before, of each passing year, where i still cannot believe how far we have come now, of so many of us freed from the bitter unwise chains that bind.
It has always been and always will be for sake of safe passage of the ONE, as in the divine child of God SELF ONE in all of YOU.
blessings to all this blessed day and each blessed day yet to come, which is always the same day, is it not, of yet another joyful blessed day for the fun loving joyful SELF?…where in truth, we don’t want each day to end, do we? Just as our love does not and will not end, not ever, always constant of the divine child of God SELF of us ALL, united forever more as ONE.
now some of you, we still need to kick your sorry asses, and trust ‘me’, we WILL…in a good way of course! 😀 😀
bless you
oh look, the lit up the CN Tower with Bisexual colors!
is that cool or what?
fucking awesome if you ask ‘me’…to dance that is! lol
someday…i know i WILL…dance again, thru the streets, thru the people, thru the world…affect/effect direct/indirect each and every blessed day, of each step i call home, planet earth, where millions of us dwell each blessed day.
thank you Jesus. thank you God. thank you Troy. thank you everyONE.
bless you
im relentless…i know…
but YOU love ‘that’ about ‘me’, YES?
YES! of course…duh!
some of YOU know ‘me’, some of YOU have yet to truly know ‘me’, but let tell you this, once YOU truly know ‘me’, you will come to love ‘me’ one day, of this i pray, for each and ALL of YOU.
God blesses YOU.
😀 😀
Here comes M, extraordinary wondrous radiant and bright, a mirale for so many of us to BEhold, and holding on to one another while we do, of the loving lives we all lead, where only love is good enough for YOU.
Only Love from now one everyone.
Only Love.
bless you
my spelling is a bit shaky today, ya? lol
gee…i wonder why? well ok…at least i used to wonder why, but not any longer, well ok longer as in forever more longer, but no longer do i wonder about ‘me’, forever free, to just BE ‘me’
love it!
incredible we ARE, YES?
i am…BE CAUSE..WE ARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
likemindedness is awesome, YES?
love it!
😀 😀
Only JOY from now one everyone, radiant and bright forever more, constantly ‘that’ of the divine child of God SELF YOU.
im off out…morning bike ride to the lake for 3 hours or so…
i keep misspelling the word on with the word ONE…
gee…i wonder why?
NOT!!!!!!!!!
😀 😀
just ONE, is all i ask for….
it has always been about the ONE for me…
and i know, it always WILL BE about the ONE who needs us most…of God’s divine WILL.
so let’s go kick some more ass, shall we? lol
😀 😀
i’ll BE at the cafe, if anyone is looking for ‘me’, so easy to find…merely by looking, hello! lol
hmmm…now i wonder where they are…NOT!!!!!!!!
always with ‘me’ of course! hello!
oh oh, andy has set him SELF free to forever BE of everlasting loving life for thee!
love it!
ah…double double please! lol
get it?
oh never mind marco…go back to sleep, i will annoy you another day…and you just know i WILL.
Super Super Joy is of the divine child of God SELF YOU…forever more
oooo…that is a truly relentless one, yes?
ya…just being ‘me’, the one who loves all of thee…forever more.
always did. always will. always
always
bless you
Nano nano for Madonna in Toronto.
X
BRAVO VIVAVIVO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
no more alienating me motherfuckers, where alienate our selve(s) when we do!
lol
oh hey, that’s the best ONEs ALL week, yes?
me thinks so two!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i am sooooooooo relentless!
gee…i wonder why?
NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so of you get me….and some of you….sorry to say….just won’t!!!!!
get with me that is… lol
or….get with ‘me’….as in get together…as in ALL together now!!!!!!!
lol
Keep on…Keep it together.
oh….that has a whole new meaning for me! 😉
My physics site has just become really popular, so I’m having to spend time fielding a load of mad theories people are posting.
Oh, this thead won’t work.
I’m moving to the “Illusion” thread.
illusional…delusional….good point.
just don’t elude ‘me’!
i mean, one could try, but rather pointless, when i know the truth of the ‘me’ in all of YOU.
where the divine child of God SELF constantly yearns to always feel love, truth, not falseness of what the divine child of God SELF despises…rather silly is it not, to lie with one’s own divine child of God SELF?
there is no illusion of the divine child of God SELF, albeit, for some, it is illusional for those yet snared by empty unwiseness which do snare the heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, where it is truth that breaks the chains of unwiseness forever more, for sake the divine child of God SELF of us ALL.
Merry Christmas to Madonna for her show tonight!
X
¡¡HOLA!!! ¡Navidad Alegre a Virgen para su espectáculo esta noche! Gracias. ¡Dios te bendiga!
these translator’s tranlate so differently in other languages…where Madonna in Spanish is Virgin
cool eh? 😀
The spanish tranlation of what Andrew says, is
Christmas Makes virgin happy for his spectacle this night!
dat’s a funny one Andrew!
i suppose alot of virgins besides Madonna at the show tonight, but then again, what is the virgin spirit, is what most fail to realize, the pure loving feelings of the divine child of God SELF within ALL, constant of yearning for ONLY LOVE each blessed day the divine child of God SELF wakes to.
~ God’s truth wisdom meant for the divine child of God SELF of us ALL
bless you
having faith is believing in your divine child of God SELF, which is not really of faith, rather is of pure knowingness awareness, where faith is in knowingness of what works for SELF, not only works for SELF of another, is true of SELF within, and SELF of another.
~ TRUTH, which does not fail, and only fails when we fail to believe(knowingly) in the truth, of what the constant knowingness awareness of the divine child of God SELF feels with clarity, do we not?
blessings to ALL
bless you
It’s all gone quiet …
I miss you all!
“ah, ‘me’ easy to si senor, merely when you ALL feel like ‘me’, si ?”
“no worry senor, you get used to ‘me’ soon enough, you WILL si.”
“sissi senor ?”
“ah, si senor, ‘me’ a sissi.”
” ‘me’ always a sissi.”
The Curtains are Drawn
&
The Knives R OUT
it’s Gonna be a hot night…. in PARI
si
Have you heard about the atheist bus campaign?
http://tiny.cc/QnLl7
I had an idea for the second poster:
http://tiny.cc/cgXCd
The Name’s BOND,
Jame’s Bond….
is that YOU molly penny, or just a fantacy
Is anyone able to see my comment awaiting moderation above? 😦
Is the Bond film any good?
Is the Bond film any good?
Is he 007 because he got in at the start, or are there just seven of them? Is there a 00174?
Or does it max-out at 999? A sort of millenium bug for secret agents?
“ah, nice to si you Senor Bond”
“We thought you’d got lost somewhere, and where about to send out another agent to find you”
“You have arrived just in time Senor Bond, as we have a new assignment for you.”
“no no Senor Bond, it does not ever end this sorta thing, and has thousands of agents thru out the many millenium of the past, present and future, always of a constant, that does not stop, not ever, as it not possible to stop, albeit, alot of things stop. But not the truth senor Bond, the truth is a constant, not able to fail or stop Senor Bond. Here, let ‘me’ show you Senor Bond, it is the most protective shield known to man Senor Bond. Trust ‘me’, you BE ok in this.”
“Sorry to keep you waiting Senor Bond. We had to make sure it was YOU. Here, we have a new conduit uplink using satellite images and communications for you, where you can si everthing in real time Senor Bond, constantly of real time.”
“Oh, sorry Senor Bond, you have to push the Power button, to turn it on, si? “
“YES, of course Senor Bond, ‘me’ always love YOU!”
“More than YOU know, constantly knowing of ‘me’, the one who can si YOU when YOU feel like ‘me’ Senor Bond.”
“YOU need not worry Senor Bond, as we are Immortal Senior Bond!!!!!!!!!”
‘me’ thinks i won that round for sure, si ?!!!!!
‘WE’ always constantly win, si?
MEGA SUPER VIVAVIVOs constantly always WIN!!!!!!!!
do you know why?
i (hear) it is something in the water of the Fountain of Life, ‘that’ which constantly flows forth!
do what it is in the Fountain of Life, ‘that’ which is ‘Constant’ of ‘that’ which constantly flows forth?
Purity of Truth Words of the divine child of God SELF within us ALL, of all pure thoughts, not of impure unwise thoughts which snare the minds of many innocent precious loving souls born into the yet unwise world.
It takes time to understand and learn the pure thoughts of constant pure truth of the divine child of God SELF, which constantly yearns and is of the pure truth, constantly of the descerning ability which is of the halo of wisdom protection mindset which is constantly protective from unwiseness of thoughts and words of another in the world, because of the macro thinking wisdom perspective of the halo, which is how the divine child of God sees(feels) the kingdom of heaven all around them, of the many aimless souls who sense it, but they do not yet have the perspective of what is innately constant of the divine child of God SELF within them.
cool eh?
‘me’ tinks so two!!!! 😀 😀
si?
si ‘me’ ?
the one who can si YOU any time YOU si ‘me’ ?
si
C++
“si you later ali-gater ”
“BEhold the opening of the gates into the kingdom of heaven!!!!!!!!”
(andy on his horse again, clop clop clop, thru the gates into the kingdom of heaven, in his wacky beautifully colorful outfits of course, like he is, year after year, constantly there, for all to stare, ever the of the fearless truth or dare, of someone who cares)
“i WILL BE there!!!!!!”
BE CAUSE we care.
i am…BE CAUSE…WE are….someone who constantly cares
A++?
‘me’ is a fearless sisi, si?
si
Si you win again
‘me’ likes winning, si?
‘me’ always likes winning, si?
BE CAUSE ‘me’ is a winner, BE CAUSE Jesus told ‘me’ so, a Champion spirit of many precious loving souls in God’s eyes, of my many loving brothers and sisters who like ‘me’ are Champions too, like ‘we’ of spirits which soar high in the flowing of love from God thru us, thru another, for all eternity, of God’s divine WILL, the WILL of the divine child of God SELF which is constantly loving, in their knowingness awareness that ONLY LOVE is good enough for ‘me’, for ALL of ‘we’ forever more
Jesus loves ALL God loves ALL We love ALL
God blesses ALL Champions of loving spirit forever more, especially ‘me’, Rodrigo, who loves YOU like ‘me’
SUPER MEGA MUCHAS GRACIAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
God BLess YOU!!!!!!!!!!
Love forever more of ‘me’ Your Beloved Rodrigo!!!!!!!!!
wow,
Andy love’s me and Rodrigo Love’s me too…
I cannot decide ,
ok .. you can both have me..
take turn’s…
Dear Madonna
I have created a free to use non commercial web resource for anyone going through relationship break up and divorce in the UK. Personal stories and contributions of advice are welcome. Good luck with what must be a very tough time.
http://www.sos-village.org
Best wishes
Suzy Miller
Best advice?
Subscribe to God
Subscribe to your divine child of God SELF when you do
Howdy Mame
So I was just thinking, & it hurt
‘
I like your tomboy look, the leather, muscly Abs & shorter cropped hair ! suit’s you far more than this long blond dreary English look you got happening…
So that’s my advise , take it or leave it
do it or don’t do it
if you do it, you wont regret it
LOL
🙂
where’s Andy when you need him ?
Others have been saying that people believe the real reason Madonna and Guy broke up is here. Very interesting http://www.polldaily.com/polls/2008-10-p25-madonna-ritchie-divorce.aspx
James Bond and Co couldn’t wait to go home, did i keep them up all night again.. sorry guys ..
Andy wrap yourself tightly in multi colour’d light every colour there is, let it surround your being all inter twined like one Mother Fucker combination lock, & give the combination lock to the universe ie: GOD.
it’ll will put a complete STOP to EVERYTHNG
pull yourself together ANdsy Pansy for GODS sake
oh before you lock it make sure any resdue slime is gone and once it’s locked its locked for eternity..
Mother Fuckers they’ll try anything or anyone you know what i mean, would’nt take it personally either some people are just weak they let the darkenss in with out even realising, ahhw
by tomorrow thing’s will be back to normal, one mother fucker bitch back in control again flaunting a new rainbow outfit that’s not gay that’s spiritual …
nano nano
yep
Spiritual blessedness of the purity of love which flows thru the invisible conduits of love between ALL, ALL connected, on giant matrix, in real time, at all times.
of couse it takes descerning wisdom of pure thought and impure thought, and that is and has always been the problem throughout all of mankind’s history, and indeed, how far into the future is anyone guess, where what grips the world the most, has always been “Crucial Lacking of Desire for Descerning Wisdom in how to protect the conduits from forgetfulness foe, forgetfulness which hid and forgot loves primal beginning garden.”
i think all thought is valid, impure thought being a necessary catalyst to validate the very wisdom it deceives.
As for the lacking desire for wisdom.. yep… its abundant.. ..there in lye’s the awakening beast.. as yet unaware of its beauty, but yet fully aware of its ferocity… OK that takes us back to the first paragraph..
now i have completely forgotten what i was trying to say,
maybe I’ve said enough..
enjoy your week everyone..
Andrew turn off the light on your way out please, Andy put the satin clown outfit back in the cupboard before you spill something on it.. & someone put the kettle on please i need a Coffee…btw has anyone seen where i left my ego, i forgot where i put it & I feel lost without it…
ego come back, ego where are you. ego..
& for God’s sake don’t slam the doors everyone, Andy, wait not yet at least wait till i take off the clown outfit before you put it away, make that two coffee, extra strong for Andy
I’ll set the table for our special guests Rachel & Silvio Cartwright, i think they have a big surprise for us tonight, hey
Where did Erik go ? Andy ? i knew it..
Andy get back here NOw !
oh my Silvio are you OK your looking a little pale ?
Good morning everyone…slept in, peaceful SUNDAY morning.
bless you
i think all thought is valid, impure thought being a necessary catalyst to validate the very wisdom it (deceives) Life indeed is the greatest teacher, yes? Excellent understanding of this, indeed, each passing moment is all truth all around, of all things spoken or what one does. In the center of the halo, the divine child of God>SELFYOUSELF>YOUSELFYOUSELFAlien offspring<, as evident of how we feel when a conduit of ONLY LOVE feels, glowing of the chakras like one 100% feels in difference, and that which is obviously toxic in feeling, of learned belittling behaviours, that do indeed, feel naturally uncomfortable for us, of instances of feels of being inadequate, a failing or lack, as projected onto us by another, which none of us in purity of heart, really like to do with another, albeit, seemingly they do, but take that same child into a peaceful natural setting like a secluded beach all day, and you will see the true divine child self unafraid, is not of mean spirited approach of the many unwise learned behaviours(yet of the forefathers before us all of all precious innocent souls born into the yet unwise world), and rather is of knowingness awareness purity of heart feelings (PRIMAL and PURE), in tenderness of feelings which reaches out in knowingness of their love within, to genuinely hold that of another, tears of joy flowing in doing so.
That is who we ALL are, tenderness of pure loving feelings which flow thru invisible conduits of sensory perception of all our senses with one another, of pure primal within every human brain, where it is our failing in addressing full, all areas of human behaviour as to what works better for us and what does not, that of all findings in the on going research in psychology and spirituality, which i do believe, Jesus did directly connect with our alien life force creator entity, of which we are the offspring, and i do knowingly know, the entity connects with us thru our brains unknowingly with us at a cognitive level, and is something i will continue to reveal as time passes, of such incredible wisdom and breadth of macro thinking, such as channeling of focused concentrated purity of ONLY LOVE thru conduits, of chakras glowing(which one can do alone, for those who know how), where my greatest discovery so far, is of the conduit most are not aware of, the invisible conduit of the spiritual realm, a what Jesus refers to as the inner chamber, where the divine child of God prays in purity of heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, and indeed, those who do, know fully in their hearts the KNOWNGNESS LOVE KNOWINGNESS AWARENESS, such is of Madonna, which most of do not know about her.
Truly, i know, and so does God, of her prayers, of everyone’s prayers, of ALL those who pray in God’s primal beginning garden of the beginning, where identity of ONLY LOVE within, is indeed, the TRUTH…ONLY LOVE is good enough for the divine child of God SELF.
at least it is for ‘me’…i don’t know about the rest of ya, but i love the feeling of someone who genuinely loves me in purity of their loving heart feelings of glowing love within them, of the chakras which do glow in purity of incredible loving feeling, as i have demonstrated in experiential experience with some of you.
i look forward to on going open discussion with those of you who embrace these understandings with open likemindedness, so that we can ALL one day let go of all these silly unwise indifferences with one another like so many sadly yet unwise divine child of God SELFs do, sadly of snared unwisenesses, unknowingness of what snares them, not of anyone’s fault, no, all that of the entire pass of handed down learned behaviours thru mellenia, exactly that of what Jesus asked God to forgive us for, his own knowingness comprehension of the TRUTH, of what we too know is the undeniable, unavoidable, unchallengeable, unbreakable TRUTH, where all findings in psychology case studies point to…..the TRUTH.
God bless everyone for coming today
thank you for your time in listening(feeling), as i pray for ALL souls to come to wisdom, for sake of them, for sake of us ALL, the divine child of God SELF which constantly yearns for ONLY LOVE
(andy leaves the building and heads over to his spa like he always does daily, of where he loves to dwell ONE’s SELF, and SELF of another, naked of course, of how we all came into this world, and indeed, naked so many of us are in God’s eyes, naked of wisdom of course)
i thank God for nakedness, where descerning wisdom of nakedness is what matters, si?
si
blessed are those who seek
blessed are those who know the divine child of God SELF YOU within
Jesus loves ALL God loves ALL We love ALL
God blesses ALL
bless you
peace be to this house
bless you
peace be to you
bless you
thank you Jesus thank you God thank you ALL thank you
bless you
i am here for sake of Madonna, as a true and faithful friend of hers since 1995, and shall always remain the truth of what we are to each other, true and faithful spiritual best friends till the end….without doubt, like so much unwise doubtfulness and unwiseness of the world.
so think what ever any of you want to think, where i pray for ALL to think, if only one would, for sake of their own divine child of God SELF, loved by Jesus, loved by God, loved by we who are loving of Jesus and God, where TRUTH will prevail, as it cannot fail, where indeed, thruout all of mankind’s history, it has always been we who failed the truth, in all areas and aspects of nurturing, protecting and attending to the divine child of God SELF within us ALL, and indeed, that is what the mystery of God is, the obvious unattending, unnurturing, unprotecting of all manifesting unloving behaviour in the world, sadly, a world yet sad and not joyful, of many many voids devoid, where today will see another 30,000 children die once again like yesterday, from childhood preventable disease and starvation.
Today, this blessed day, i ask each of you to search your loving hearts, and embrace the courage to pick a starving child up from off the cold ground, a divine child of God not forgotten, not unknown, who weeps apon the ground from the world so cold, not understanding why they are where they are and why so many don’t care in each passing moment of moment to moment, blessed tears they weep like they do, which fall apon the ground each day, where i want each of you to sponsor ONE CHILD this day, doing this not for just for sake of restoring joyfulness of smile to a loving child’s face, but for sake of the smile of YOU as well, of the PURE COMPASSIONATE WILLINGNESS of FEELINGS like YOU do, ‘that’ of your own divine child of God SELF like the one apon the ground weeping, th child unknown….now found.
Truly, YOU know, si?
bless you all this blessed day and all blessed days yet to come
bless you
Hello, hello. Hope you all had a nice weekend.
Si
not si si
just si
My dear Madonna….
…i don’t know if you,one day you will read what i’m writing…My name is Daniele a 18 year old italian boy…..
On the 6th September i was with you in Rome,and something while you were shaking the hole stadium hurt me like a thunder;i felt tha you was feeling alone….
And this question is still haunting me….was you?
I’d like to take this opportunity to thank you from the bottom of my heart for what you gave to me….I had a lot of sufferings in my life,but you gave me the strenght to go trought my
wilderness and come out of it as a better person….i also understood that you have to give something to recieve something…..i’m one of youre billion fans, i love your voice,your songs
your fantastic eyes, and the power of that woman that one day maybe,just maybe (but i hope) will make the world a better place…..
If there’s one possibility that you’ll read this…..you know…..i’ll be happy…..
waiting for one answer….praying The Bless One every night before sleep to talk with you just for 2 seconds……….with tears in my eyes for how i’m grateful……your truly…..Daniele….
EMOTIONAL HONESTY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
God Bless Daniele’s soul
si ya later….
i am done here for awhile everyone, and take my leave now, as i go attend to unattended issues i have left unattended.
It has been great in exploration for me, of what i truly love to do in my spare time, of endless seeking for truth in the higher subtle intellect realm.
Great has been the learning i have had great enlightenment in participation with ALL of YOU.
Give thanks to Jesus and God, and feel blessed as divine children of God forever more, for truly we know, we are blessed.
Jesus loves ALL God loves ALL We love ALL
thank you Jesus bless you thank you all bless you
God blesses ALL
blessed are those who seek, for you shall find the kingdom of heaven when you sincerely seek that which is TRUTH of the precious loving divine child of God SELF
blessings to ALL
blessed BE all the angels of HEAVEN
blessed BE YOUR WILL BE done on earth which is of HEAVEN
blessed are those who know their divine child of God SELF
ONLY LOVE ONLY
ONLY WISDOM ONLY
ONLY COMPASSION ONLY
forever more
bless you bless you bless you
today is the last day i am using words
ciao bella biyatches
ciao bello biyatches
oh, and sex, i love having sex in my spare time!
Cya
ONLY TRUTH ONLY
Jesus and God FULLY despise untruthfulness, that which is of ALL spiritual death
When it comes to LOVE, there is
ONLY ONE answer Daniele…YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
si?
duh!
people really are the own worse fucking morons father, unbelievably so. forgive them.
ALL is forgiven already, of the snares which yet bind, where everyone already holds the key to their own freedom, which is freedom of the wings of the mind to turn towards LOVE COMPASSION WISDOM TRUTH, and toward me and kiss me damn it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol
where’s my fucking coffee!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hiya. Have a nice day.
Maddona and Richie,
Please learn to respect each other and stop making your private life part of your divorce and getting what you want. If you can’t respect each other, please learn to respect your children and work things out in private. It’s a shame what is going on, and should be immediately stopped. You have children and need to work things out together. Drop the press, lawyers and jargon, and meet and treat each other with kindness and love, and your children will benefit in the end. Madonna is such a believer in Kabbalah, but you are not following any of the teachings whatsoever in your behavior. Just because your famous and rich doesn’t mean you get to act this way. Reach back to your roots and work things out in a way that will ulitimately benefit not only you, but your kids. Money can’t solve all your problems, its the root of them. Get back to the basics.
If you always pay attention to the darkness, you’ll never find the light xXx
i agree on that one, money is the root of problems.
i all want is a hand to hold each day, a kiss on the lips, and it has zero to do with money.
no matter how much money one ever has, how ever exceedingly wealthy they are, if they do not have a loving lover in the room with them, then are they able to be genuinely happy?
no
and that is why Guy and Richie split, where not being with one another is what is painful for the divine child of God unattended, unnurtured, indeed, unprotected by wisdom which conclusively points to our needs being met on a regular consistent basis, which all psychology cases point to.
Truth is, Guy will be happier in life once with someone who is there more so than what of the relationship with Madonna and him, both putting their careers ahead of their own mental emotional well being….stupid.
not me.
i will be with my lover daily or at least every other day, where passionately we will be so, of what i know what is of true loving lovers, of sweetness of anticipation in seeing each other, of the joyfulness within when they wake, of the bubbling feeling inside of the hour they will great, and truthful, should i not feel that of my lover as well for me…i will know, and i will not stay, as i fully know what works for me.
no way.
i come first or get lost.
there is no way i would of tolerated a relationship like the way those two conducted so irresponsibly like they did, for so long, wondering why i fell apart….needs people, consistently have to met on a regular consistent basis, not just in achieving positive mental emotional well BEing, but in maintaining it, and anyone who trys to go around it, you will suffer the consequences of YOUR DECISIONS at every turn of your entire life.
not me…i will not entertain the idea of a lover if they are not truly of lover mentality and understanding that i come first in their life, likewise of me for them, and should they think i will tolerate otherwise…think again…i will not tolerate it, nor should anyone, sparing yourself in walking away, sparing them as well, albeit, perhaps not them, as most go about conducting their lives the same most of their lives, of psychological stuckness of absurd unwiseness.
so there you have it…Guy Ritchie will be happier eventually.
and so will Madonna, should she too embrace wisdom.
as for me…i am aways down the road ahead of them both, on horse back of course. lol
i am not a child…i am a wise adult child like Jesus BEcame.
sadly, so wise was Jesus, i believe he did not find his soulmate in life, and frustrated by it all, he surrendered his life to the claws of the wild beasts of ignorance in killing them like they did, forever for all eternity of constant truth for all to look apon, the reflection of themselves in all their unwise unBEcoming conduct yet that of the unwise world then in which Jesus was born into, yet that indeed, of the truth of the unwise world yet of today.
there is someone for everyone…seek someone just like YOU, and you will live the most blessed life of exceeding joyfulness radiant and bright, of the extraordinary wondrous YOU&’me’ of another just like YOU, as in the ‘me’ within ALL of YOU, joyfulness of your divine child of God SELF which constantly yearns to BE JOYFULNESS.
any motherfucker who wants to rain on my parade….well….fuck off.
lol
i will not tolerate inappropriateness from anyone, not even Madonna, and she knows why.
God bless ALL
take care
If you always pay attention to the darkness, you’ll never find the light xXx
ya, well, news flash, everyone has light in them, of the ‘me’ within ALL, and i am tired of waiting on the light of another in moving my sorry ass towards find one of my courage….
this not a laughing matter, and time has hit the wall for me of no more inappropriateness, so go do what you want.
so many think it is ok and don’t even know their inappropriateness is deathful for another, not even contemplating their actions which shred like they do, like every mind fuck gamer is on the motherfucking planet.
well…fuck off motherfucker mind fuckers…
take care
God blesses ALL
so
God Bless Guy Ritchie, who i know will be far happier than the relationship he had with Madonna, easily so.
God bless
omg…did i really say that? lol
these motherfucker boots fit me perfectly, si? lol
😀 ::
ooo…ooo…ooo…everyone so wise….
well….where is wisdom in not kissing me like i constantly like to BE kissed?
where is wisdom in not holding my hand like i constantly like to BE held?
where is not fucking me like i constantly like to BE fucked?
opppsss…i better stop.
lol
personally, if i were Guy Ritchie, and i had to tolerate Madonna’s career ahead of me, i would ditch her sorry ass.
no way…happiness comes first for me, and there is no motherfucking way i am ever going to settle for anything other than REAL WELL-BEING AND HAPPINESS FOREVER MORE!!!
nope.
bin else where way too many motherfucking times, and it is just fucking stupid to allow one’s self to be fucked up all the motherfucking time in letting motherfucking idiots into our lives like we do.
so ya, go do what ever people, i really don’t give a fuck, knowing full well God has someone for me in the garden who is meant for me, and i them, and when you know, you just know, because it is true and pure of kneeling heart of the divine child of God SELF,(for those of you who like to kneel alot like i do, prayer wise 😉 which is CONSTANTLY of YEARNING in feeling of it’s PURE TRUE EMOTIONAL HONESTY of LOVING FEELINGS which FEELS SO MOTHERFUCKING GOOD, every second of everyday.
think what ever any of you ever want to think of me, and trust me, i don’t give one motherfucker shit about what any of you think of me, and you know why, because i will be fucking my ass of in the hot tub with the most loving one of ‘me’, flowers in my hair, truly without a motherfucking care of what anyone ever says of ‘me’ ever again in all useless inappropriate unwiseness of approach with ‘me’, my door permanently bolted now, where it is ‘me’ who invites YOU to ‘me’ at a time of my chosing…where in truth, God choses ALL to come to WISDOM for sake of the divine child of God SELF of YOU ALL.
so take care, and remember, approach me ever in unwise belittling apathetic condescending conduct again, and i will leave you to spend your entire life to think of your own miserable motherfucking uselessness of approach with ‘me’, will i go do what i want to do, fuck my ass off in the hot tub with a most loving lover, you got that motherfuckers?
ok. have a nice day
lol
LIGHT = TRUTH LOVE COMPASSION WISDOM
DARK = FALSE UNLOVING APATHETIC UNWISENESS
in every passing moment, our feelings of the higher subtle awareness, feel the TRUTH of the clash of LIGHT vs DARK of all the unwise apathetic unloving motherfucking unBEcoming conduct, easy to descern for us by how good the motherfucking BEcoming conduct feels for us…duh!
what a bunch proud boastful sorry ass motherfuckers you all are, so, owe i know fucking everything, and yet, where is the tenderness of the loving lovers?
oh yeah, they jumped off the motherfucking building, and some of them fucking hung themselves motherfuckers.
ok…be sure to have a nice day, and if i ever see any of you treating my loving brothers and sisters of the GLBT community badly with your motherfucking shit for brains approach, trust me, you will know i am near by my words.
lol
Candy boy is having a bad hair day?
ah…just maybe….a frazzled bad hair day to be exact, as in frazzled frustrated motherfucking i am late for my spa!!!!!!!!
lol
mORNING EVERyone
Joy Joy
happyness 4 all
be happy everyone
Ciao Ciao
& IM having a bad hair day too, i had it cut yesterday & now i look like Olivia Newton John , seriously its gone from Orange to Blond to Brown & now it’s just Wrong ..
i think I’ll shave it all off, number 1 crew cut
suits me better
( Andy stop singing Xanadu that’s crule )
🙂
Go on Andy, i’ll sing it with you….here are the lyric’s…..
A place where nobody dared to go
The love that we came to know
They call it Xanadu
And now
Open your eyes and see
What we have made is real
We are in Xanadu
A million lights are dancing
And there you are
A shooting star
An everlasting world
And you’re here with me
Eternally
Xanadu, Xanadu,
(now we are here)
In Xanadu
Xanadu, Xanadu,
(now we are here)
In Xanadu
Xanadu, your neon lights will shine
For you, Xanadu
The love
The echoes of long ago
You needed the world to know
They are in Xanadu
The dream
That came through a million years
That lived on through all the tears
It came to Xanadu
A million lights are dancing
And there you are
A shooting star
An everlasting world
And you’re here with me
Eternally
Xanadu, Xanadu,
(now we are here)
In Xanadu
Xanadu, Xanadu,
(now we are here)
In Xanadu
Now that I’m here
Now that you’re near in Xanadu
Now that I’m here
Now that you’re near in Xanadu
Xanadu…
You needed the world to know
They are in Xanadu
ya, that is correct, we are God’s WILL, OUR WILL BE Done on earth, ‘that’ which is of HEAVEN, where heaven is your heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, which is of the form of ‘that’ which created us, True Spiritual Wise Loving Compassionate BEings that walk the planet in outward appearance of ‘that’ which is TRUTH of inward pure genuine sincere constant feelings in each and every passing moment, of tenderness of kiss, of delicate the touch in caress of skin, of exceeding grace of surrendered spirits with one another at all times, of equality exact sameness in heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, the form of the divine child of God SELF of ALL, loved by Jesus, loved by God, loved by we who love Jesus and God, blessed of Jesus, blessed of God, blessed of we who are blessed, thankful of Jesus, thankful of God, thankful of ALL.
bless you
blessed be this blessed day and every blessed day yet to come
bless you
http://www.imeem.com/lithargoel/playlist/5PYKcgTH/strangers_on_lifes_road_music_playlist/
we are not strangers to exceeding joy, rather exceeding joy appears to be strange for many, and indeed, strange we are somedays, but you get used to us….eventually.
It’s all around YOU
God bless Marco
thanks Marco
bless you
peace be to you
bless you
that has always been one of my most favorite songs and films, which set my spirit so many years ago that i connected deeply within of eternal yearning to sing and dance in loves embrace of ONLY LOVE is good enough for YOU&’me’ forever more of each blessed day we wake to everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
http://www.imeem.com/nibor43/music/KjHQf0pc/olivia_newton_john_xanadu/
eternally everyone, primal of our brains to BE loving, wise, compassionate of all snared by useless absurd unwisenesses which are harmful to our loving brothers and sisters, and indeed, the spiritual poverty(death) does lead to physical death, where spiritual poverty of the heart, mind, body, spirit and soul is what yet grips the world in all of it’s motherfucking bullshit, so unnecessary, so unwelcomed, so no true of natural love in feeling, and wise of brain, for all of us who do…indeed pray with Jesus and God always with us, of their descerning wisdom and WILL for us ALL to become wise in how joyful we are able to feel, wise in how to protect our wise pure loving divine child of God SELF from all that goes against our ability to always remain of what is constant in yearning of the divine child of God SELF….our constant feelings in each passing moment.
bless you
thank you Jesus thank you God thank you ALL
Jesus loves ALL God loves ALL We love ALL
God blesses ALL
bless you
peace be to this house
bless you
peace be to you
bless you
each passing moment, we are there…
forever more of loving feelings meant for the divine child of God SELF, true of YOU, true of ‘me’, true of ALL the divine child of God SELF at all times, moment by blessed moment, blessed of beautiful joyful feelings, blessed of protecting is so, where truly, we so easily know our constant yearning of ONLY LOVE feelings that we FEEL, primal cognitive awareness constant like the sun always shining, of same gracefulness as the movement of the sun, radiant and brightness of the sun, warmth in feeling within glowing like the sun, where we know the truth, without doubt, the shall the sun rise above us each blessed, in likeness in appearance and feeling, always warm and comfortable, meant for us, of us, meant for each other, of us in shared knowingness awareness of SELF, easily respectful of SELF of another, for those who know the divine child of God SELF, like those who KNOW, where those who KNOW, shall BEcome known, just as Jesus knew the truth, truth of himself, knowingly true of ALL
God blesses ALL
thank you God
blessings to ALL
bless you
🙂
http://www.imeem.com/people/rNHQtU/music/NCf1gepX/debbie_gibson_only_in_my_dreams/?rel=1
i love this RUSH song, and i do love alot of the music of RUSH, which has sacred sincerity in alot of their work, good for the soul of inner connectedness with the divine child of God yearning for connectedness in likeness of another.
http://www.imeem.com/rockmusic15/music/jE5V4-MW/rush_xanadu/
blessed is how i feel
blessed is how i know we are blessed
blessed is of YOU&’me’&’me’of YOUof YOUof’me’ofALLYOU forever more
blessed are the pure loving feelings we so love to feel, knowing what is and of the divine child of God SELF which constantly yearns to always feel this way, and indeed, we do constantly feel this way…without doubt forever more.
blessed BE YOU&’me’ forever more!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
of no one ever able to part in unwise way, of that which comes not from the heart, of so many useless words that go against the divine child of God, falseness not true of the divine child which constantly yearns to feel the most beautiful of pure loving feelings within, the loving feelings of the divine child of God SELF of us ALL
blessed are those who weep
blessed are those who pray
blessed are YOU so gay
blessed are YOU holding hands
blessed are YOU of joyful kiss
blessed are YOU of graceful step
blessed are YOU of tender touch
blessed are YOU of sincere feeling
blessed are YOU falsely prosecuted
blessed are YOU who also just farted
what? made you laugh didn’t i? i mean, i did make you laugh…and no it wasn’t me…lol
blessed BE this sacred blessed day forever more and the sacred blessed days yet to come for ALL
bless you bless you bless you
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I LOVE YOU
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I know, everybody loves you , but not like I do ..
oh I was meant to keep it a secret, don’t tell anyone, Andy it’s our secret.
nooooooooooo bodyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy knowwwwwwwwnssssssssssssszzzzzzzz the beautifuuuuuuuuuuuuuuoooooooooooooooooul stranaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanger is ERIC…
and why i wear always purple ? is it a good color??
Purple was the color of the old robe they mocked Jesus with, when they placed the crown of thorns apon his head, calling him King, where indeed, Jesus is the king as far as wisdom about the divine child of God SELF, of the heart, mind, body, spirit, soul and form of the divine child of God.
Purple was also(still is for me), the color prior to the rainbow flag symbol(diversity) for gays for many years.
Purple is my favorite color, and yours?
Purple is the color of skin of the bruises GLBT get after being beaten by bashers.
God bless the GLBT worldwide community forever more.
blessed BE this new day of blessed feelings
delicate radiant and bright are the feelings of blessed feelings so joyful, true and pure of the divine child of God SELF in each step, each breath, each heartbeat, of overflowing abundance of exceeding joyfulness with one another sincere and pure of us ALL.
blessed are those who know the divine child of God SELF within us ALL so easy to know and feel the constant feelings of yearning to always feel of the joyful beautiful fun loving spirit of the divine child of God SELF of YOU
bless you
peace be to you
bless you
one more sleep… Vancouver is a wonderful city. Enjoy The Canadian West Coast, i’ll be enjoying the view from row 15 seat 2.. better known as a catwalk hugger 😀
…..Nobody Knows What Madonna feels,as I do….my mother died when i was 5……and all i do was break whatever i got in my hands…….i’m praying for your happiness Louise Veronica…….
http://www.imeem.com/people/sjCX7y/music/6Cmq1Bno/queen_somebody_to_love/
http://www.imeem.com/adjiearwaga/music/exh0_A4D/u2_01_beautiful_day_remix/?rel=1
Beautiful Taxi driver too …
Purple Dah ! ,
it’s a healing colour.
Reiki anyone ?
http://www.imeem.com/adjiearwaga/music/exh0_A4D/u2_01_beautiful_day_remix/
this song truly evokes ‘me’
i feel it so purely within, of standing still in the beautiful sun shine, a blessed day, simply happy to be feeling what i always feel, my loving feelings thru and thru of each smiling face, of each dancing skip i love to skip, of constant inner joyfulness to dance quickly and fearlessly, of no care whatsoever of anything, rather 100% surrendered to the joyfulness feelings, looking skyward, the divine child of God SELF, thankful of the beautiful day, beautiful music, beautiful strangers who are not strangers at all when the music plays, turning to look beside me, forever there for me, a most beautiful smiling radiant and brightness of feeling within like my own, i gracefully reach out a hand to them, to feel what i am constantly always am of feeling within, the tenderness of one most loving of me exactly in sameness of feeling within for them as i feel, we grab hold forever more and run into everlasting life, of constant dance and joyfulness, at all times we shall feel, knowingness awareness of how silly it is to feel anything other than how the music evokes what we know SINCERELY in FEELING within, constant of no return to BE anything other than how incredibly beautiful the feelings feel spinning and dancing away the most beautiful day!!!!!!!!!!!
ya, we all feel the same way everyone, so easy to do, merely by fearlessly allowing our divine child of God SELF within to get out and feel what they constantly yearn to feel at all times….LOVE
Jesus blesses ALL God blesses ALL We are blessed of Jesus, God and each other, by our sincere loving presence with one another, when we are of genuine sincere approach like ‘that’ which is true of the divine child of God, constantly ‘that’ of what is TRUE, LOVE COMPASSION WISDOM
it is a most beautiful sunshining days here in Toronto today!!! 😀 😀
blessings to ALL
bless you
so who is constantly with and of ‘me’? 😀 😀
come on now….anyone will do.
take my hand, smiling stranger, for i truly know the ‘me’ of YOU like i know ‘me’, of our constant yearning of forever at play, dancing and smiling like we shall always do, free at last to just BE our SELF.
can you feel it bubbling over in abundance within YOU, of constant yearning of YOU to always feel this way, of surrendered spirit to always BE found of, the TRUTH of YOU&’me’?
😀 😀
oh, and to think later on, after dancing away the most beautful day, we can have sex with one another!
AAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! is all i have to say!!!!!!!!!!
😀 😀
UFFF!!! i am so there!!!
CONSTANTLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
😀 😀
so why delay in reaching out your hand to me for that which you pray for?
😀 😀
i am there!
i am always constantly there year after year!
and you know i always WILL BE of the divine WILL BE Done on earth, ‘that’ which is of HEAVEN.
sure feels like HEAVEN for me, especially the hot naked with a most beautiful smiling loving lover like ‘me’.
YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’YOU&’me’
forever more
God blesses YOU&’me’ forever more
bless you
thank you God thank you Jesus bless you Jesus thank you ALL bless you ALL
thank you
bless you
i love you
bless you bless you bless you
http://www.imeem.com/adjiearwaga/music/exh0_A4D/u2_01_beautiful_day_remix/
Today is another blessed beautiful day for the divine child of God SELF YOU&’me’, meant to BE ENJOYED!!!!!!!
forever more
bless you
Yay! This internet connection is not being monitored. Good news.
I can post at lunchtime.
It hasn’t been easy. We are closely monitored.
Glad you’re sounding happier.
http://www.imeem.com/peekie/music/XHsB8cgK/evanshewsonclaytonmullen_i_still_havent_found_what_im_l/
still haven’t found what i ‘am’ looking for?
ya, people and the useless hypocrisy heart they turn towards, not at all like we are, of fearlessness to just BE.
too bad everyone cannot feel and let free their own divine child of God SELF to dance like we do
http://www.imeem.com/adjiearwaga/music/exh0_A4D/u2_01_beautiful_day_remix/
(andy turns to the crowd and gives them a joyful wave in passing by, of song and endless dance, of radiant smile brilliant and bright, of the ones silently scorning him, of no desire to embrace their own feelings of reflection they feel of andy, sadly gripped by their own useless unwise learned fearfulness the learned apon the road we all walk together on)
they can try all they want, and indeed, so many have over the decades, to break my loving GLBT spirit, where i have learned, no one of the earth is ever able to do so. Oh sure, they could even hurt me, where truly i tell you, the truth of ‘me’ofandy will live on. 😀 😀
and on and on and on we WILL BE as we go along life’s road, picking up all the abandoned childrend of God along the way.
blessings to all
thank you
bless you
ah…monitoring…i understand
monitor this motherfuckers!!!!!!!!
(andy turns and gives the finger with both hands, standing in the middle of the intersection like he always does, traffic honking horns, screaming out the window at him, so joyful of color and bright andy always is, so not like they are in bitter scorning bullshit way, not ‘me’, no way, “JESUS SAYS ONLY LOVE IS GOOD ENOUGH FOR ME MOTHERFUCKERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
😀 😀
seriously….i do this alot, and people have gotten used to seeing me too, where the other day, they gasped, smiling and shouting apon seeing me in the intersection shouting, “IT’s CANDY BOY!!!!!!!!!!!”
hey M, can you do a request to freak someone out for me at tonights concert?
Say, “Andy says hello LEO”
of course, he will likely faint, and forever for sure, he will remember today…forever biyatches!!!!!!!!!!!!!
he is a sweety friend of mine, a real gem.
he is at tonight’s concert in Vancouver tonight
bono says the lyrics of Only to BE with YOU, is of his thoughts and feelings for Jesus.
i like the joyfulness of feelings that song evokes in me, the stumming of guitars, in harmony of quick dance and fearless step of a spirit set free forever more to just BE how we constantly feel in yearning of constant feelings constantly flowing, like the fountain of life that does not stop flowing in joyfulness of surrendered spirit to our shared joy of life each day.
bless you
# SLEEPING WITH THE ENEMY #
Ok so they think we hate each other..not true ..well early on..but this record well i love so much, and this song cuts so deep, if you ever loved and lost this is for you mother fuckers ..peace xXx
Ok i was miles way..wrong link ..im gagging..fuck me..
http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=DM6ipyO0Hm0
oh for fuck sakes, that was a nice car…fucking stupid destroying that classic.
oh, im so cool, i have money to blow things up, to throw away memories, bullshit…regardless of some hurtful things we all experience in relationships with others in life, there is always the loving times too, where in truth, all are evolving each step of the way, all one human being, ever learning, ever growing, ever turning away from useless bitter thought, useless negativity, including me, a humble student ever of open mindedness to learning yet more, of error of tongue, so on and so on…
fuck, that was a nice car…
http://www.imeem.com/michaelaouno/music/RrnQXjGx/dave_pearce_rank_1_airwave/
everyone’s haveing sex it seem’s except me, two 1/2 month’s now.. i feel like a monk in a Monastery…
LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL
ya me two!!!!!!!!!!
hanging from the ceiling if you must know!!!!!!!! lol
i like the purity of genuine grace restoring though, so incredible it is to feel our true SELF again…si?
oh, monk…i thought you said monkey
how about a monk who holds the key?
the same key we all hold that unlocks the bitter chains of unwiseness.
yep
you all hold the key everyone…what God gave us…our brain…
not to sound sarcastic, rather, it amazes me sometimes how bitter and wretched some are daily with one another, like bosses are with staff, where i want to go up to them, and say, “It’s just a bullshit job ya know, managing this bullshit store you fucking stand in motherfucker, wondering why no one likes you, what with your motherfucking bullshit fuckedness you are with everyone!!!!!!!!”
ah…that one has been coming for along time….finally got that one out…my old boss who fired me, because i was the only one who stood up to her of all 27 staff, and told her the TRUTH.
imagine that…i was fired for speaking the truth, of false prosecution…
hmmm….’me’ thinks i will come to love the monastery with me loving monks who are there? 😀 😀
The Journey of EQUALITY moves on on on…
http://www.imeem.com/people/9x4Xtw/music/XkosF1Dv/u2_where_the_streets_have_no_name/
sun is coming up, the sunlight softly reflecting, peaceful and calm, the grace and gentle inner peace of it all….WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
love it!
i feel like dancing, sharp sharp look out for the lover…where did they go?
bah…i know they are somewhere in the garden there for ‘me’ feeling the same way…
you only get what you put out everyone…so don’t expect much if you putting nothing out…
BE of JOYFULNESS
BE of EXCEEDING JOYFULNESS
and BEfore YOU can turn around, someone is there like you, smiling away, feeling the same way, of sparkle in eye, of one not at all shy, of same inner joy in drawing near, one like you so dear…
http://www.imeem.com/peekie/music/XHsB8cgK/evanshewsonclaytonmullen_i_still_havent_found_what_im_l/
give thanks to Jesus and God
thank you Jesus bless you thank you God thank you
bless you bless you bless you blessed Jesus blessed Jesus Jesus bless you bless you bless you
bless you forever more bless you
Jesus loves ALL God loves ALL We love ALL
Jesus blesses ALL God blesses ALL We bless ALL
thank you God thank you
thank you Jesus thank you
thank you ALL thank you
blessed BE this blessed day and ALL the blessed days to come
blessings to ALL
bless you
peace be to this house
bless you
peace be to you
bless you
bless you bless you bless you
thank you
http://www.imeem.com/people/9x4Xtw/music/XkosF1Dv/u2_where_the_streets_have_no_name/
Hey Mothers..
I love what this fan has done to ”devil wouldn’t recognize you”..i never would have seen it in this light..Happy Halloween xXx
http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=HSu9tWQNMQQ
thank ‘YOU’
God bless ‘YOU’ ALL forever more!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Happy Halo weens us from uncertainty, wise in wisdom of all things wise and unwise, where it is descerning wisdom which is what the halo is, constantly always of decerning between all things;
wise + unwise
loving + unloving
compassionate + apathetic
God summons ALL to God’s divine WILL for us to WILLINGLY embrace the divine Halo of descerning wisdom meant for ALL the divine children of God SELF YOU.
blessings to ALL this blessed day and blessed days to come, of ALL thee, of ALL unborn to come forever more.
bless you thank YOU bless you
blessed are YOU who come to knowingness awareness of the divine child of God SELF YOU.
bless YOU
http://www.imeem.com/adjiearwaga/music/exh0_A4D/u2_01_beautiful_day_remix/
a blessed beautiful day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
si?
si
😀 😀
my little seeds don’t do yet a apple tree … i go to danse this nignt x
My Heart still beats
Deep in you
Sweet and warm
In all I do
Hey Candy Girl, that video was well done, it’s a fucked up world right now 4 sure, its just the purging of all the darkness on the planet .. making way for the light….validating the love .. the Heaven on Earth… hurry up Heaven..lol 🙂
the halo chamber is one of descerning by means of our feelings of truth, from the perspective of purity of the divine child of God, which embraces things like a gun should not ever be found in the hand of the divine child of God SELF, as it goes against the divine child’s purity of love for another like themselves, love of SELF, love of SELF in exact sameness of the delicate sensitivity of the divine child of God SELF, which is truth of us ALL within, in sincerity feelings of the subtle awarenness knowingness pure and true, like the one who weeps while in prayer, the divine child of God in purity of heart, mind, body, spirit and soul
i am working a a diagram of the HEAVEN’s halo perspective which easily reveals the halo in easy to understand knowingness awareness, able to be taught to anyone, no matter age, where the subtle higher intellect is above all race, religion, wealth, status, (education), sex, orientation, language, or political barriers, of the purity of the divine child of God SELF by means of truthful feelings which see with clarity, above any leaders of the current world, in 100% pure knowingness awareness, much like that video, however horrific, the exact truth of unwiseness which grips the world, of so many nescience leaders of the world who too are unwise in many ways, like death and destruction, actually believing it is ok to kill another without remorse in doing so…wrong.
every child of God is a sacred child of God, just as we view our divine SELF as sacred in each passing moment.
anyone who kills another, is not of God’s divine wisdom meant for the divine child of God SELF.
while the world is yet gripped tightly by so many ignorant teachings of the world, we all need to embrace one another as 100% exact equals with regard to purity of loving sacred feelings of everyone of us, all divine children of God SELF, as sacred as is Jesus in purity of heart, mind, body, spirit and soul.
The halo is one of descerning of all things by means of our feelings, like that of what an angel would feel looking apon us, in all reflections of past and current, the TRUTH, constantly there in everything, where it is our feelings which clearly reveal the truth of all wretched unwise bitter hatefulness for example.
Killing another human being is an abomination against God, and is not ok, where today, the war mongers continue to grip the world with absurd fearfulness, which is against the divine child of us ALL, controlling us with unwise fear.
Sadly, those who carry weapons to kill another who claim they think they are of God, sadly and obviously are not of God.
I look forward to a day where rather than weapons, we can use restraining devices that do not kill another human being, rather simply disarm them from injuring another.
We are of God, and it is thru our senses that we feel the truth of all things, not only of absurd wretchedness, but also of all things joyful and pleasant, like a hot tub Marco, come on!!! HEAVEN awaits!!!!!!!!! 😀 😀
HURRY UP damn it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
let me teach you the wholestic experiential healing technique of submerging the body in warm fluid of a hot tub, which mimics the experience of the womb of God.
and you may even get to experience ‘me’, should you make the CHOICE to be nice with me like i want to BE with YOU…
badly i might add!!!!!!!!!!! 😀 😀
HURRY UP!!!!!…these flowers are wilting and soon will die if i don’t get them is water….living water which gives life that is…
http://www.imeem.com/ronieldavidmedia/music/ULLOeGbQ/gregorian_breathe/
blessed Jesus thank you bless you bless you bless you
http://www.imeem.com/ash0621/music/yUP9iku1/gregorian_hymn/
thank ‘YOU’
bless you
i like sex in the morning,
now who want’s me to fuck you ?
Hey ugly Sister Leah,
Just give her what she wants’ for now, compromise & change it later, make amendments after the dust settle’s that way you’ll put an end to it now, resolve the jealousy of the ugly sister there’s no other way to approach it and win usefully, I’ve been through it have the stab wounds to my head to prove it….
Do what it takes to finalize it NOW ! agree & compromise will go in your favor if it gets to worst case scenario that but it won’t…
After then you can fix it your way… & you will..
Call me if you need to talk, I’ve been through it & I can say that rationality does not work & wont work
A speedily end or resolution is the only way to empower you to succeed at a later time & achieve you desire’s… hope I explained it sufficiently, otherwise call & I’ll teach you a trick or two !
Angels know what the devils still learning..
There is a pure loving sex feeling of our own body so incredible is the feeling when one is of love of their own body, so tantilizing is the feeling, of exceeding delight, where it is the tantilizing feelings of our entire body in gracefulness with one another that drives me wild for hours at a time.
‘now who want’s ‘me’ to BE sexually tantilizing with you for hours you ask?’
well, that could be anyone actually, in truth, our bodies not at all different from one another of the oh so tantilizing sensations so beautiful to feel, of what i love others to feel what i feel, like the delicate graceful gentle teasing of our bodies floating in a warm hot tub, of music, of smiles, of oh so sensual sensations of skin to skin, of natural love of our own body and of another, where delite is of each breath, each heartbeat, each touch of anticipation of coming together in joyful pure feeling sensations of the body sensations, the mind anticipation of…lifting higher into exceeding joyfulness, higher and higher, delite in each passing moment, each second, hearts racing, sweat beading, smiles and kissing….
ohhhh….i am so there with YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
pick ‘me’
‘me’ wants ‘me’ of YOU to have sex with ‘me’, si?
si
i find the slowing grace of the hot tub is more wholistic in approach of sex, of candle light, of music, of the smell of hair, body, taste of lips, the delicateness of our bodies fully of tantilizing sensation, where slowing down and truly enjoy the experience for hours at a time is far more than fucking, rather it is pure joyful delight of coming together of heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, so joyful is the experience, so incredibly joyful of delight is loving lovers delight high above the mundane world.
devil
people do know devil is merely anything unwise, unpure, untrue of the divine child of God SELF, nothing more.
although haunting are the wretched images in our minds, much like a ghost or devil spirit of what we see.
the only devil in life, is the unwise unloving apathetic fools, who fool only themselves in hiding from truth.
not me…i run to and am of truth in heart, mind, body, spirit and soul(most days).
i strive for truth and purity of loving feelings of my divine child of God self, within and within another.
love luvs
so who wants to love ‘me’?
I’m in the library!
This ain’t easy!
love ain’t easy, or false unloving ain’t easy?
not sure about you, but you can keep all the falseness you want…i am done with being false, unreal, like an imaginary friend.
nothing imaginary in my heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, of genuine sincere loving feelings.
not sure what you mean by ain’t easy?
oh, loving Andy as a real person who yet stands here before you all?
ah, yes, Andy is as real as one gets, of no motherfucking fear of any of you and any bullshit you care to cast apon Andy, where Andy knows all unwisenesses, unloving and apathetic unBEcoming conduct of the yet illness of heart of many of you, the condition of your souls left unchecked, is not at all anything do to with Andy’s approach with any of you, of TRUTHFULNESS, rather it is merely that of what your lives have all been, of many miles walked in your own journey of life on the road of life.
well, i am real with everyone, and i am deserving of real life friends, and indeed, 100,000 of my real life loving brothers and freinds came out to Church street last night, all of equality, not of any false fame, all of fun loving spirit, sameness of smiling faces, of what Andy has been pushing forward in all along.
not to slam anyone, but as far as Andy being made to feel like some Jesus freak obsessed fan of Madonna, to Madonna, Andy says, “Oh, i see, i am not adequate enough, not good enough in life of a friend’s hand to hold am i? Well fuck that…see you later, and get real if you want to talk to me again….CIAO!!!!!!!!”
oh…that felt good….i so needed to end this whole Madonna fantasy obsessed fan thing. Trust me, i am more than adequate enough as a REAL friend in life to Madonna, where in truth, this whole inadequacy thing goes against the mental emotional psychological spiritual well being of the divine child of God SELF ANDY.
Indeed, Andy was tolerant, was he not, and for how long now has Andy tolerated Madonna’s bullshit approach?
way to fucking long, where most any agree, fuck her Andy, let her go live her fame game without you.
i speak my final words of truth with you this day.
either get real or forget about Andy continuing like he is not worthy of friendship in the public eye…we are just fucking friends everyone. fuck. all you speculators of this or that, fuck off. I come in peace and love for sake of all you motherfuckers.
Oh, God forbid if Andy loves Madonna, or God forbid if Madonna loves Andy as true and faithful friends in life, way more loving than most any of you motherfucking speculators shall ever know, of Jesus and God’s divine WILL BE Done on earth, ‘that’ which is of HEAVEN, ‘that’ which is LOVE.
Well M, i truly have tolerated this whole secrecy fucked thing long enough, knowing i am deserving of far greater respect than this unwiseness which yet grips our blessed friendship like it does, the unwise world of God forbid we love one another in life, leaving me to feel like some obsessed Jesus freak fan…
i grew up in a fucking church, ok. literally, my Grandfather a minister…of course i love Jesus and God, i was raised in a sanctuary of Jesus and God from the first day i entered the world from the womb of God.
Truly Andy deserves real friends in life, and i am heading away from this whole bullshit secrecy God forbid Madonna loves Andy fuckedness.
Jesus loves Andy
God loves Andy
God forbid Madonna loves Andy motherfucker…fuck off!!!!!
(andy walks away, kicking the garbage can along the way, cursing, pissed off he allowed himself to be subjected to the projection of inadequacy for so long like he did and yet does)
lol
😀 😀
oooo…that got everyone’s attention
~ fade to white, loud sound rushing air over wings, thunder lightening crashing, rain…
ahhhhhh… is so want to go to film school!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and i will, i have already decided i WILL
i will publish the diagram of the initial draft of the hola diagram soon on my blog, of exact understaning of what it is and how one is able to make sense of what is of angelic sight by means of the feelings of the divine child of God SELF in each passing moment of each blessed day…
it is an initial draft that does not include the macro awareness, which is expansive into all areas of psychological understanding and spiritual understandings as well, merely a starting point for one to easily enter, a doorway so to speak, that is initially required of a humble student, to endeavor diligently in devotion to higher understanding which is healing and necessary for study, a sanctuary boundary of the mind, at one with SELF, of only the student who dwells there who holds the key to their own sanctuary of peaceful study, no matter age, which shields SELF from the retarded world of haphazard aimlessness, surrendering to what is meant for the divine child of God SELF.
coming soon to a library nEAR to YOU, of YOU, meant for ALL YOU! 😉 😀
coffee anyone?
i love the cafe’s with real people…
join me sometime, where can relax and just BE who we all are, ordinary people everyone, all of subconscious seeking for understanding, as friends along life’s road, some of us as devoted, dedicated, diligent, determined, steadfast cognitive seekers of the higher subtle intellect level, that of psychology findings, that of spiritual seeking, nothing more, just mere students of life of the same schools of thought we all came thru as youth, one and the same in tenderness of sincerely delicate feelings of emotion, that of same tenderness of sincere delicate feelings of tantalizing sexuality so wonderful for us all, male, female, gay, straight, lesbian, transexual, trangendered, transwhatever, all the same in sensuality, emotion, thinking, feeling, divine children of God, across all barriers of language, race, religion, sex, orientation, wealth, status, (education), diversities, or political barriers, where indeed, yet there is the unwise ones who sit apon thrones of nescience, where our hope and prayer, is in further exploration of human understanding, making known to the world our on going findings, for sake of all today, for sake of all unborn yet to come for all eternity, not something small to be ignored, no, each second or research is vital for the entire future of the human race for millions of years, where we truly, sincerely want the children of tomorrow yet to be born, to be the generations who come free of all the fucking useless absurd unwise learned behaviours of the forefathers before us all, of those who did not seek God(of whatever life force entity that may have created us), those who claimed and yet claim to know God, and so obviously do not, these many merchants of God, not of God in outward appearance, where in truth, the wisdom of God was not meant to be sold, rather like findings in psychology, we 100% want for the safeguard and well being of our blessed children and their children yet to come, and then there are those who truly do know Jesus and God, of 100% surrendered spirits to the truth, no one is of wiseness of the universe, nor is anyone of complete wiseness of what may have created us, offspring perhaps of a life force entity in the universe, where in looking skyward, one cannot wonder if maybe there is more going on than we yet realize, yet realize, we do, of our sincere loving tender delicate feelings of emotion, sensations of our body of all the senses, and indeed, our sincere love for another, 100% trueness of our own love of SELF, the divine SELF of all God’s Children of the earth, where we yet fail, in embracing what is of most value in life, our 100% love for one another as equals in capablity, in ability of feelings, of our compassionate feelings in seeing the tears of a weeping child apon the ground of us kneeling before the precious loving child of God asking forgiveness of the child, in our graceful courageous lifting the child into our arms of loving warm embrace.
thank you God thank you Jesus bless you Jesus bless you thank you ALL bless you
bless you
blessed is this day and the blessed days to come
bless you
why the book is under blister ??
an obvious answer for the one who asks eric?
actually i am of transparency of psychological/spiritual protection understanding that addresses everyone’s life, where most consideration for me, is of the children of God in life who are defenseless in ability to take care of themselves, where of the future, the on going cold heartedness yet of the world WILL come to an end, as continue revealing of the TRUTH of what HEAVEN PERSPECTIVE 100% is, of the discerning wisdom halo(psychological/spiritual), yet being revealed daily as we speak, of effort of all those who work in the field daily, like those of greatest high risk ones of the GLBT community, who Madonna and Andy are devoted and dedicated to in heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, just as many of the veterans of the GLBT worldwide community and friends of the GLBT community, of daily effort, of each blessed step, holding back the deadly spiritual walls(ignorance) of death, that are indeed, cause of physical death, of everyone of you who slander in unwise words of our loving brothers and sisters of the GLBT community daily, where i say to YOU directly, “Your unwiseness is of learned behaviours of the forefathers before us all, before you were born, yet of unwise snaring of your own heart, mind, body, spirit and soul…in the wisdom eyes of God, or whatever may have created us, where truth points conclusively to the TRUTH, your mean spirited words are indeed, of direct cause for suicide of the highest high risk suicide group in the world, that of the 15-24 year old age group of gay youth motherfuckers….each and every suicide, yes, of your stupid hateful words you uncaringly utter unwisely like many of you yet do.
Know this, without doubt, those of you who have the most to say against our GLBT community, we know, are the ones who have the most to hide, of secret feelings you hide and deny from your own precious loving child of God to feel openly like those of us who are open in outward appearance, accepting of ourselves like we do, of what i have come to know as THE MOST LOVING of all human beings of the earth, those of the GLBT worldwise community who walk the earth, daily of grace and tenderness, many yet of fearfulness in our schools, our places of work, and even our biological families who ostracize us like they do, that of some Catholic families for example, where today, psychology points to the truth, the untruth yet of that of the Catholic Church, where i want to see a court case of precidence brought apon the Catholic Church one day, and banish them from operating in the world, of worldwide law, ending once and for all, these unwise learned behaviours of the forefathers they yet embrace, of utterly absurd and indeed, cause for death of our loving brothers and sisters of the GLBT community.
you of the Roman Catholic Church, yes you, the same church of the early church who sided with the Roman empire in desire of being the only church at the time Jesus walked apon the earth, of who Jesus did not teach you, no, Jesus taught his fellow brethren in the world, not in your church, of those you executed and stole the recorded words of God, crucified apon crosses along the roads which lead into the cities of the Roman empire, yes you, who claim to know God, and truly i tell you, you do not fully know God, and are direct cause for continue death in the world of willful dismissing of conclusive evidence(which i know the Pope is aware of), which points directly to your apathetic unwiseness…where one day, i WILL stand in that court room, when you are banished from operating in the world, of world laws which WILL BE sanctioning of your continue operation, of God’s divine WILL BE Done on earth, ‘that’ which is of HEAVEN, ‘that’ which is TRUTH, ‘that’ which is LOVE, ‘that’ which is COMPASSION, ‘that’ which is pure truth WISDOM you yet turn from, and yet are of knowingness of, of the thousands of case study findings of the psychological autopsy of thousands of suicide youth, whom i hold YOU DIRECTLY responsible for many of their tragic suicide deaths motherfuckers.
oh hey, M and i make a great team, do we not?
in God’s eyes, we have and shall remain what we always have BEen, a team in the GLBT community.
thank you for listening(feeling) the TRUTH everyone.
bless you
thank you
bless you
_andy
~ M and i are veteran truth revealers of the GLBT worldwide community
God bless Madonna bless you thank you Madonna bless you
bless you
just preparing for SUNDAY’s sermon tomorrow.
thanks Madonna 😉 😀
blessed is she of Jesus, God and ‘me’
loved by ‘me’, i know i always have, always WILL BE, always
always
forever more
bless you
thank you
bless you bless you bless you
peace BE to this house
bless you
peace BE to you
bless you
bless you
bless you
yes that video is accurate of the view from within the discerning wisdom halo of psychology/sprituality
thank you for ‘that’ of ALL TRUTH, ALL LOVE, ALL COMPASSION, ALL WISDOM meant for the gentle peaceful by nature divine child of God SELF, which is not of these many wretched hateful yet learned and taught wretched unwise hateful behaviours in the world, that even our own governments of the free world continue to promote, wondering why returning soldiers of war have mental emotional difficulty in having killed another child of God.
obvious are the true feelings the divine child of God feelings when doing so, and 100% great is the remorse, of only God who can forgive them, where Jesus and God say, “ALL is forgive of the innocent child of God SELF who unknowingly becomes snared by ALL unwise unloving apathetic taught behaviours of the world, of any and of ALL who continue to teach these learned behaviours. YOU are forgive, it is not your fault of an innocent child from the womb of God born into the unwise world, so long as you come away from that which is painful for you, untruthful for your loving precious soul within. Do not do what you despise, of all these untruthful unloving unwise apathetic unBEcoming conducts which are not true of your divine child of God SELF. YOU are forgive.”
thank you God thank you Jesus bless you Jesus bless you
blessings to ALL
bless you
Sweet Tides – Thievery Corp. – Radio Retaliation
xXx
hi Madonna I was looking for a blog of you but I guess you dont have time to blog but I wanna know if you have a blog on my space ? I have one you can see mine if you want? http://www.myspace.com/amir2210 I live in Barcelona spain and I’d like to talk with you one day ? well I know it’s a dream LOL excuse me for my poor english
love yaaaaaaa
i love this song!
~ Sweet Tides Lyrics ~
it took so long, for me to realize
how strong your heart is
and all this time, my mind was working
in strange ways
looking back on the days, just wanna be free
through the love in your eyes
now i’m staring inside, just wanna be free
through the love in your eyes
sweet tides, pools of love
your eyes are full of…….
sweet tides, pools of love
your eyes are full of…….
sharp turn, my mind is a blur
slow passage thru the air
looking back on the days
all over your mind, just wanna be free
sweet tides, pools of love
your eyes are full of…….
sweet tides, pools of love
your eyes are full of…….
it took so long, for me to realize
how strong your heart is
and all this time, my mind was working
in strange ways
sharp turn, my mind is a blur
slow passage thru the air
looking back on the days
all over your mind, just wanna be free
sweet tides, pools of love
your eyes are full of…….
sweet tides, pools of love
your eyes are full of…….
i finished the first draft depicting diagram of the HEAVEN’s Higher Subtle Intellect Awareness Halo of TRUTH (art piece), shown here.
http://www.lithargoels.blogspot.com/
blessings to ALL
bless you
you guys are boring…
me needs to go live life with someone who seeks EXCEEDING JOYFULNESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
any volunteers of fearless courage like my own?
we’ll soon see who is as fearless as Andy is, and i am not looking back, once i step thru the door into 2009…a new life, a new beginning, seeking in knowingness awareness manner, for the most loving lover like i know i am, and as for you fear boring fear monger ones, watch you don’t trip over your own feet, stumble and fall, doing a face plant into the snow!!!!
lol
😀 😀
ahhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!
sky season is soon to begin!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i love love love the snow, full moon, night skiing, outdoor hot tub with a most loving lover, warm red wine, AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!
hurry up Marco, fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!
so fucking slow some of you are with me…
actually, graceful slow is a good thing….
YAAAWWWWNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!
ok, wake me up from my wet dream will ya? And help me truly enjoy and remember it, will ya?
ok.
sweet dreams morons!!!
(((((((((((SMILE))))))))))))))
what ? i can’t i am celebrant…
lol..
i know im boring, the calm before the storm
what ? i can’t i am celebrant…
lol..
i know i’m boring, the calm before the storm
ah, YES!!!!!!
the snow storm, and racing to the storm on two foot deep snow covered roads in the 4X4 to get to the ski slopes with no one there, fresh powder, AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!
HEAVEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
don’t forget the ipod and battery charger!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
loaded with some of M’s best remixes of course!
celebrant?
is that a word? or is your spelling as bad as mine?
let’s si, shall we? brb
(andy googles the word celebrant)
ahhhh, YES!!!!
~ celebrant;
Celebrant or Officiant, the leader of a liturgy or ceremony who is empowered to perform it
In the Catholic and Anglican churches, the celebrant is the priest who celebrates the Eucharist
Celebrant (Australia), a legally-authorised conductor of weddings who in addition can perform extra-legal ceremonies
EXTRAORDINARY WONDROUS ceremony of BEAUTIFUL COLOUFUL RADIANT BRILLIANT BRIGHT TRUE GRACEFUL LOVING SEXUAL SPIRITUAL WISE COMPASSIONATE EXCEEDINGLY JOYFUL TRUE LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!
indeed, ‘me’ ALL ‘that’, as in the ‘me’ of YOU&’me’, as in the ‘me’ of the ‘me’ of ALL of YOU!!!
ok…si ya on the slopes where the EXTRORDINARY WONDROUS TRULY ZEALFUL, DEDICATED, DETERMINED, DILIGENT, DEVOTED TRUE loving lovers of true loving embrace love to do what the do best, Just BE themSELVES…the divine child of God SELVES of EXCEEDING JOYFULNESS, peaceful by nature, while at one with nature of our at rest natural state, especially of the outdoor hot tub.
Hey! No drinking and skiing everyone. It is damaging to the beautiful trees along the ski slopes, and no skiing beyond your current skiing ability. You have to take your time in practicing, slowly evolving you ski legs in sink with your brain.
sheshhh! always explaining, graceful and slow is best, no stress, able to truly enjoy each delicious delightful passing moment with one another of exceeding joyfulness radiant, brilliant bright smiling faces, of yet another beautiful blessed day of warm rays of sunshine and tranquility of the moon, hand in hand of course, in case you fall on your ass.
lol
ok…me wait for ya…
oh hey, your not boring Marco…not at all…i was refering to myself in the library, that at times is exceedingly quiet, where i tend to spend alot of time, and indeed, it does at times get boring for me, not in a bad way, just, well, yawn, sleepy boring from reading and reading and re-reading what i just read, expanding and elo’bor’ating into the fearless place if found called HEAVEN.
Come, let’s explore together in fearlessness of feelings of love devoid of the element of doubt like we love to do, and kick this motherfucking world’s ass!!!
‘me’ loves YOU Marco, ‘me’ always has loves YOU Marco!!!!!!!!!!!!
forever more
bless you bless you bless you
thank you
bless you bless you bless you
oh, an update, i read somewhere that the ‘sensitive part’ of the male reproductive sex organ and the ‘sensitive part’ of the female reproductive sex organ is exactly the same thing, according to film footage of the early stages of development of the human being while still of the womb of God, or what ever may have created us, where personally, i do believe a life force entity exists, and oh how EXTRAORDINARY and WONDROUS the we the offspring of the entity are, si?
so ya, the male and the female reproductive sex organs are actually of exact sameness of the ‘sensitive part’ of their sex organ!
I told Rosie this one, and like usual, she says, “WHO KNEW!!!!!”
lol
i love Rosie!
Everyone loves Rosie, Kelly and family!
we know
we always know the many of you who are yet struggling with your sexual orientation, and we are here to always say what we always say, “IT’s OK to BE GAY/LESBIAN/BI/TRANS!!!!!!!!!!!!”
‘me’?
i am bisexual by nature, and i know, we all are, and anyone who says otherwise, is a liar. And as for you who have something bad to say about gay sex, do not knock something beautiful you have not yet tryed. Gay?Lesbian sex is like having sex with your SELF alone, only with a partner who is truly more able to stimulate you better in the same way they want to be stimulated, of a genuine knowingness way, of the same genuine knowingness way of all we who masterbate while alone.
ok.
class dismissed.
oh hey!
PRACTICE SAFE SEX!!!
there are some 20 nasty Sexually Transmitted Diseases you can pick up from another if you fail to put a condom on that beautiful penis!!!
hey, i’m SERIOUS!!! more than 20 STDs!
ok…enjoy the blessed day everyone
bless you
BE JOYFUL
BE EXCEEDINGLY JOYFUL
i am
i am…BE Cause…We are….EXCEEDINGLY JOYFUL by nature.
blessings to ALL
bless you
thank you God thank you Jesus bless you Jesus bless you bless you bless you
bless YOU
i don’ t know why the gays usually love their mother…because mine is the most idiot of the world…and my position is like the hetero versus gay…if the soon has to kill is father…for the gay he has to kill his mother…
my sister has the name of Véronique…. Help doctor Freud…
her name is etc… etc it is hard to speak english
i explain why my mother is a motherfucker : she gave me a call.. you were not here today..no i was in paris.. why, that? because i wanted to see a exhibition of a photographer…i have baught a picture of him last year and ..l he was very confidential… i think he is less now…ansver of my mother,…oh yes i thouhgt about you i have seen a reportage on him on tv..i said great…answer of my mother i hope you will not buy an other art work… a normal mother wd say, wouah eric you had a good feeling etc…no??
Hi, It is interesting story, but what it is about at all ?
It looks like story from lonely girl who looking for understanding and support 😦
lol
i say, who gives a fuck about whatever and whatever about what others do, want or say, when in truth, when you meet a special someone in life, they become your confidant, your lover, your fun loving friend in life, where you yearn and anticipate in being with hourly, daily, sleeping with them, not your mother, not your father, not your sister too…lol
of course, when we do find ourselves of thoughts of another, the only way it ever works for you, is if they too are of thoughts of another.
freud freud frued…i think freud only added to more retorical crap confusion, of theory, not nailing down the primal pure perspectives 100% conclusively, round and round the fucking marry go round, this way, no this way….oh just fuck me for fuck sakes, and find out how much you love me…lol
one cannot live on crumbs alone, and in truth, many people are like this, even when the one most appropriate for them, if they took time to truly discover they may have feelings for them, as in spending time with them…so many, out kicking the tires so to speak, not really knowing what they even want, what to look for…
i used to ask people, “do you know what you are looking for?”
if the hymmned and haaud, i would walk away instantly, knowing full well they were fickle and slight of of mind, totally not another i want to find out later the truth about, of merely their body there with you, no mind, no heart, seemingly no soul or spirit, of lackluster appeal, the doldrum crowd of occasional smile, no grace, just sight seeing.
figure out what you want, and if the sex is truly great, and they truly enjoy and are comfortable with you and you of them, then hey, you just may have found your soulmate lover friend…
personally, i find most people are such fucking jerk offs when it comes to respectful consideration of SELF of not only lackluster for another, indeed, emptiness for sake their own SELF, of no self respect for example in setting boundaries for themselves with selection of inner circle, which includes boundaries with our biological family everyone…mine included, of the moron fucking moron crowd like so many, so desiring of their wonderful hypocrisy heart bullshit, that really is like standing in a pile of shit, or perhaps preference in standing in pile of shit than to continue dealing with them?
ah, you have not met my family…
lonely girl?
understanding and support?
story?
nah…nothing really….never mind…forget about it and go live your life with one of YOUR CHOICE….and i will do the same…
*correction*
of course, when we do find ourselves of thoughts of another, the only way it ever works for you, is if they too are of thoughts of *YOU*
don’t try to convince yourSELF otherwise everyone, and just let them TELL YOU, express to YOU ‘their’ thoughts and feelings for YOU, and if they have any, trust me, they will let you know…if not, run as fast as you can from trying to convince yourSELF they want you, they want to fuck you day and night, like you do them, where indeed, certain people do turn on us on more so than others.
take time to figure out who or ‘what type’ turns you on, although, we don’t always find the perfect combination of heart, mind, body, spirit and soul of a soulmate, where i don’t think we meet our soulmate, until such a time as we identify our own soulmate lover SELF, where in truth, our soulmate is seemingly identical in heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, where apon union of the two, the bonding of ONLY WISDOM, COMPASSION and LOVE enables both to be of what is constant of the divine child of God SELF within, constant of yearning in dwelling of WISE COMPASSIONATE LOVE, of what is the bond between the two soulmates drawn together of likeness they love of themselves, equally so of ‘that’ within them, true of ‘that’ of their soulmate, si?
maybe?
perhaps?
how about some more retoric, yeah, let’s do some more boring ass retoric, of whatever and whatever….lame as shit.
Okay Louise:
It’s finally here… tomorrow night’s the concert I’ve been waiting for.. I’ll be there, row 16!! Ready to celebrate my birthday with my brother and sister.. Can’t wait!!
i know…i take a break and come back next year?
or, i just take a break and forget about coming back here?
or just go be the sweet guy i am and let someone come in close who genuinely sincerely becomes the delightful fun loving connection of the joyful fun loving SELF within us all, no matter any, whoever they are, free to Just BE our SELF, comfortably so, without having to ever again listen or take any sorry ass motherfucker lame ass bullshit ever again from anyone, joyful of every fun loving step of life, tenderness of hand holding tightly our own, radiant smiling within, constantly outward of appearance everywhere you go, of YOU, of THEM, of finally finding what YOU always wanted, someone to run thru life with hand in hand, of joyfulness each blessed day you wake to?
don’t tolerate other people’s motherfucking lame ass bullshit everyone…YOU deserve only comfortable fun loving tenderness of genuine sincere love at all times from another, where if it feels the opposite to be true of your feelings for you of them?
RUN
truly…who in their right mind could possible want someone who shows little or no interest in you on a regular natural consistant basis that is natural occuring for soulmate lover friends who find one another in life?
oh yeah, only the fool who foolishly fools only themselves, sometimes their entire lives, and we have all played the fool at one time or another in life, or least i have.
at the time, i did not realize it was because of the evolving i and they had yet to go thru to make sense of the manifesting behaviours which came between us, and yet between us for so many in life along life’s road.
bah, if it feels like boring lame ass bullshit everyone, it likely is boring lame ass bullshit, excruciatingly boring, where in truth, we’d rather read a comic book, anything but be found of the lacklust zeal that is well…what it is…lackluster pathetic zeal.
i suppose two of lackluster zeal work for one another, but for how long? Long enough for one of them to wake up and realize how boring lame ass the bullshit relationship is, and run back to True Life again?
What is True Life?
one need only ask themselves what True Life is for them, what is most comfortable each moment of each blessed day, true of them, true of another of always your CHOICE of who is truly suitable for YOU.
here is a hint: YOUR FEELINGS, for those of you who are not suppressing your feelings of course.
What do i feel?
ask yourSELF this question, and answer truthfully, because it is kinda stupid to answer falsely.
don’t pretend you are truly happy if YOU are not truly truly of exceeding joyful happiness, as we only get one kick at the can of life, one successful run at TRUE LIFE, where at the end of life, you have only YOU to blame for all your CHOICEs, that YOU make along life’s joyful fun loving road of life.
oh, and make sure they don’t have substance abuse issues, and address this as well of YOU while addressing issues.
blessings to ALL
oh…one more hint everyone…
if they don’t motherfucking call YOU?
DITCH their motherfucking lame ass bullshit approach with YOU, and walk away.
blessings to ALL
BE JOYFUL
BE the EXCEEDING JOYFULNESS of YOU at all times!!!!
and if some lame ass motherfucker tosses you bullshit, toss it back and walk on by, as you are not doing them a favor in saying it is ok, and without doubt, you are not doing yourself a favor pretending and lying to yourself their lame ass approach with you is ok either. duh!
fuck that shit.
bin there. done it way to many motherfucking times along life’s road, no way, this boy’s motherfucking ass is meant to BE JOYFUL each and every blessed day, and anyone, i mean anyone who thinks otherwise…ya don’t be seeing much of me hanging around anymore.
not to worry though, i am always there, every motherfucking year, and without doubt, i WILL always BE there to kick all your sorry ass motherfucking lame asses!!!!!!!!!
lol
so who’s with ‘me’?
bah…just as thought, no body there, just me and my sorry ass typing away on this motherfucking computer, while everyone else is out having the time of the motherfucking life.
fucking stupid of me, si?
si
si si si si si si si sisi si
yawn…i am so motherfucking bored, it is not funny any more.
gee…i wonder why…not
here you go sorry ass motherfucking lamers!!!
http://www.imeem.com/people/AZW-8Ui/music/x_DtKaLk/kim_mitchell_all_we_are/
all we are is all that love brings
we spin as the highest star spins
we get hearts on fire and in love
and sometimes we’re too blind to see
and i know now that love sometimes stings
when you’re waiting fo a telephone ring
and you feel like a lone star spinning
that might as well give up burning
don’t ask me if I’m still in love
i’m hit by this love song i sing
cause you made me feel such a long way away
iknow now that love sometimes stings
I’ve waited for your telephone rings
and you made me feel such a long way away
~ Emotional Honesty of my sorry ass motherfucking day
lol
in wiseness of understanding fully two soulmates who do come together in life, we know most any of us come from dysfunctional families, of truth, most of us feel inadequacy feelings tendencies on our own from time to time, from whatever, whoever, whatever, where the union of two wise soulmates, sees the overlapping of the halos they are of preference in constant feelings of love of the divine child within them both, where it is the dwelling of such, is indeed of the orgasmic sexual experience and of the true by nature gentle self, graceful by nature, while of the natural enlightenment they both feel of the joyful union together they experience daily, which is of greater ability to dwell in the light, rather than of the wounded side of our own personalities, si?
si
fucking Leo did not call me back…big mistake Leo!!!
Sounds like you’re having a strop.
Don’t get annoyed, but it should be said (in the nicest possible way) …
I don’t seem to remember the last time **I** got a call. I don’t remember when I got a letter, or a present, or any form of direct communication whatsoever.
It works both ways, you know.
It’s not nice when someone doesn’t contact you, is it? Well, multiply that by 15 years.
And only **then** do you have the right to complain.
That’s my strop over for the day.
~ Strop
Someone who is easily agitated, throws a wobley then goes into a sulk.
These people generally are unable to communicate their feelings effectively/openly, but instead build up the thoughts inside their head then just lose it.
Jesus says, “Do not do what you hate. Do not arose anger(unwisely), as anger is fearful(mask), untrue of the joyful sweet loving divine child of God SELF.”
We all do it, bring out the worse in others at times, for what ever reason, enticing or cajoling of another, unwisely, unfocused, where i sometimes find myself stropping unfocused like i do, usually when i am tired, too many stressors of the day, unresolved whatevers breaking on the surface, abreaction time, temper tantrum, something we do from the earliest years of life…normal…but not really true, of a mask, where anger dynamically is a manifestation of deeper emotional waters or level of something not resolved past or present, a combination of perhaps not getting needs met, whatever…all normal human behaviour, acceptable, so long as one eventual resolves and puts to rest whatever it is that may not yet be resolved.
~
i see the past 15 years in the light of self growth, maturity, ever learning, evolving, phone call or no phone call, for whatever reasons…i don’t look to the past and prefer to look ahead to where i am of and going to, joyfulness of the future life ahead of me, and just let people be who ever and how ever they choose to approach…always our own decision, their decisions each waking day, of how to feel for another, always free to Just Be Your SELF, irregardless of the approach others choose to be with us, where in truth, the only thing that works for us and is conducive for us, is positive joyfulness of the likeness of our own joyful self, which is constant yearning within for us to run in joyfulness of each blessed day.
ya, i wouldn’t trust someone who did not contact me in 15 years i suppose, justifiable perhaps in not ever being able to trust them.
~ it was just my imagination, and we can leave it at that, and walk away as friends along life’s road with so many friends now, of likemindedness and joyful spirit.
i don’t have any presents, other then presentation of SELF, as in Just BE Your SELF everyone, the fun loving joyful one we always were, and yet are deep within, constantly yearning for joyfulness with and of another who is Just BEing their SELF, or trying to BE, inspite of the misgivings others of their daily life, like those of our work place, family life, inner circle of friends, who may or may not be conducive enough for them daily in allowing their joyful true self to easily BE.
blessings to all
bless you
Hola!! Que tal?
Have to say quickly sorry about no new threads the link is ..how would you say in England? its buggered!! Yeah well i know what that feels like.. Being buggered in England.. #coughs# Anyways looking forward to the shows in L.A..in Spanish it means ‘The angels ‘ and god knows i need them!! Here’s the link to my fave video of this week and I’ll leave you with this..
te quiero no me deje nunca
http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=HSu9tWQNMQQ
bless you
peace be to this house
bless you
peace be to you
bless you
each blessed day for me is of such gentle inner peace, like this morning, feelings of no desire to engage in any useless uncertainty conversations, trying to convince anyone of anything, no, just relax and enjoy the day, the warm sunshine, my feelings of tender joyfulness of the graceful ones who are there before me, my coffee, my favorite chocolate chunk gourmet cookies, sitting in the warm sunshine, the smell of the fall leaves, living in the present, not the past, not the future either, no, right now, today, of whoever is there, today, right now, the present, and for those who don’t truly want to be there with me in the moment of the day, fine, go do what ever you want, where i will feel each passing moment, each passing day of those who are of genuine approach with me, and those who chose not to be, where i don’t really care any more, letting go of hopeful tomorrows, and Just BE my SELF today, each moment, where those who want to be with me, are indeed, there with me.
those who don’t want to be there with me, ok, i am fine, i don’t care if you’d rather be with another, you have my blessings, go be happy.
and that is what i am doing now, living in the present moment, today, each day, Just BEing me, and let others BE their own free SELF to Just BE, where in time, i will know who is genunie of desire in wanting to be around me, and obviously those who don’t…i don’t care…i don’t fucking care, and i will not take it personally of any who have better things to do with their time, making obviously clear for me each passing day, of who is truly of desire of wanting to be around me, where truth is revealed for me, of their doing so, si?
i am not going to pretend, no, i am setting everyone free today, to do as i do, Just BE your SELF, of whatever SELF of YOU wants to do, of who you want to do it with, and in time, the natural truth will grow within me of those who sincerely are of genuine loving feelings of Andy, and those who are not, well, i will know the truth of this fully from now on, each passing day.
i am walking now, down the road of life, and if anyone wants to tag along with Andy, feel free to just BE YOU, and do what you want, ask me questions, ask me for a date, ask me of whatever, and be sure some of you ask me to join you in the hot tub. I am yet single in spirit, and in truth, we all always are single in spirit of OUR own feelings we individually feel of everyone around us, born alone, we die alone, do we not? Alone, constantly we are always alone in each passing moment, alone at one with the divine child of God SELF within, of the feelings the divine child YOU, feels of whoever, whatever of each passing moment, constantly yearning for happiness.
Today, we are FREE, to JUST BE your SELF.
blessings to all
thank you
bless you
thank you God thank you Jesus bless you Jesus bless you bless you bless you
blessed is this day and each blessed day to come
Jesus loves ALL God loves ALL We love ALL
God blesses ALL
bless you
thank you
bless you
Just BE YourSELF
bless you bless you bless you
Hi Candy girl
Hola!
I am happy to see you today! Angels we are in likeness of loving spirit, and the feelings are pure and true of us, more so perhaps than most take the time to realize of themselves, like we do, where we do not want to leave feeling how we truly feel inside, do we?
Truly, the loving pure feelings i know you truly feel within of your own, i want to say to you, i too feel the same way, and that is what we want everyone to feel and come into knowingness of the purity of the feelings, is it not?
We love those of you who are of purity of loving feelings, as many of you are, and we cannot simply turn away from the loving feelings we know are the most beautiful in feeling, can we, knowingness awareness that there is no greater way for us to feel.
so i ask, why would anyone want to leave these feelings?
bless you Candy girl bless you bless you bless you
Jesus loves ALL God loves ALL We love ALL
God blesses ALL
God bless Candy girl
thank you God thank you Jesus bless you Jesus bless you bless you bless you
blessings to All this blessed day and the blessed days to come.
thank you Candy girl
bless you
peace be to you
bless you
i pray Candy girl got the message today, and fully connected with me(finally), in knowingness awareness, i am just like she is inside, sensitive like her, and of true loving spirit, i know we both are, and always were, always WILL BE?
blessings to Candy girl forever more
bless you
i love you Candy girl, the same way you do me, unable to BE anything other than what we are to one another, sincerely loving, genuinely true of us within, are we not?
bless you Candy girl
bless you
buggered?
as in buggered up, i need something to unbugger me?
as in taking too many laxatives, i was just in there, don’t go in there, as you may not be able to breath, kinda buggered? lol
i hear bugger is a derogatory word too for homosexuality too.
ah that bloody bugger better bugger off…
sadly, many there are of bloody buggers along life’s road, of loving brothers and sisters, who are not sexual deviants everyone, rather, homosexual sex is generally graceful and loving in sincerity of love between two males or two females, and, indeed, i will say this, of my own observations, are for me, the most loving ones who walk the earth, more so than most any heteros i have met, other than Madonna, who loves us like she does.
‘me’?
i and a real sexual deviant, i love both sexes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol
😀 😀
and i love Candy girl, who we know, truly is Madonna everyone, for those of you who are that slow in not knowing, now YOU know, and indeed…without any element of doubt….aka Candy boy Andy, LOVES aka Candy girl Madonna.
always has
always WILL
always
thanks Madonna
i love you
bless you
Jesus loves ALL God loves ALL We love ALL
God blesses ALL
blessings to ALL
bless you bless you bless you
peace be to you ALL
bless you bless you bless you
someone gave me a blessed book today called;
10 Secrets for Success and Inner Peace
by Dr. Wayne Dyer.
i read in the book today, “You will only come to truly know God when you give up the past and the future in your mind and merge totally into the now, because God is always here now.”
hence; my previous post i wrote after reading this.
in truth, our feelings are of moment by passing compassionate moment, such as our feelings of those in great need of our hearts to be open, the weeping child today who will go without food and proper medicine, of the yet 30,000 children of God who will die today, because the world is seemingly distracted by the insatiable self-serving desires of proud and boastful wealth.
Truly, what is equally sad in compassionate feelings we have for the weeping child without, are the compassionate feelings we have of those who do not connect within of their own pure love for another that we all are capable of doing, and in God’s eyes, compassion is for all who may be snared by illnesses of heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, such as the many of the business world who are seemingly just that, all business(not all), and it is an empty feeling for me, the way they are, in my having dwelled among many of them, seemingly all they talk about or think about….sadly, devoid of what i feel is of the greater wealth in life, purity of the loving heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, where in truth, if we all were of purity of heart(which we actually are, just yet apathetic for many; changeable for the better feelings unknowingly), then there would be no weeping child of starvation in the world, and indeed, there would be no hardship of life anywhere, would there?
What the world desperately needs, are people like Madonna who lead the world in loving heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, revealing to us, the divine child of God SELF within us ALL, of the true tender loving feelings all of us are of, always were…where it is the motherfucking cold hearted world leaders who lead us astray from our loving peaceful by nature divine child of God SELF, away from the greater wealth of life, of what Jesus says is beyond all the riches of the world; YOU
loved by Jesus loved by God loved by we who love Jesus, God and each other, in each passing moment by blessed moment, of each blessed day we wake to, blessed indeed in purity of loving feelings, when we see smiles returned to the divine child of God we come across who is weeping apon the ground, wondering why the world is so unloving, tears of sorrow, pain and death.
We are the children of God of who God wants us to come into full knowingness of our wise loving compassion which once fully of knowingness of your divine SELF, YOU come to realize fully, blessed are the loving feelings pure and true of YOU, where YOU know fully, is indeed, beyond all the riches of the world when you feel the way you feel.
God bless YOU ALL
thank you for listening(feeling)
bless you
bless you bless you bless you
God bless Madonna
bless you bless you bless you
i pray Candy girl got the message 100% today, and fully connected with me, in knowingness i am just like she is of true feelings inside i too have for her.
bless you
thank you
bless you
perhaps from now on we can breath easier now, each waking day, and put behind us the immaturity uncertainty, and be of the TRUTH of our feelings when we look to the sky, each of us somewhere in the world, and Just feel the pure loving feelings we ARE, and easily of allowing ourselves to Just BE TRUTHFUL of what i 100% know about mySELF, 100% knowingness of others in doing so, OUR TRUE LOVING FEELINGS of TRUE LIFE, where LOVING FEELINGS is what We ARE Candy girl, TRUE of the divine child of God TRUE SELF, YOU&’me’.
That is how i feel looking skyward, and i won’t feel anything different tomorrow, ONLY LOVE, ONLY COMPASSION, ONLY WISDOM is good enough of FEELINGS for the divine child of God TRUE SELF, constant in feelings, unbroken, not breakable, only if we unwisely allow another or our unwise moments of SELF to do so, as in our occasional moments of Strop…ok, so what, so i have more moments of Strop than you do, what of it? I’ve had a rough week.
bless you Candy girl
‘me’ always loving of YOU
forgive my Strops, just as i forgive yours.
hey, i know, let’s have a Strop Competition!!!
ya, let’s switch it up, and Strop the heck of each other!!!
oh yeah, we already did…so who won?
i don’t Strop, yuk, foul tasting, bad smelling…nah, me like rose pedals, candle light, hmmmm…warmth, sensual, the senses, all of them, music, someone massaging my skelp, another on my feet….
what?
oh whatever…
lol
😀 😀
bless her soul father. thank you father. thank you
grant us fearlessness, to be of focus in wisdom, compassion and love devoid of doubt father, for sake of her, for sake of me, for sake of ALL. thank you father thank you
thank you Jesus thank you father thank you ALL
Jesus loves ALL God loves ALL We love ALL
God blesses ALL
thank you God thank you
bless you blessed Jesus bless you bless you bless you
thank you blessed Jesus bless you bless you bless you
bless you
Oh, that was much nicer! Goody.
She’s in a better mood, boys. Yay! Madonna was here!
Sorry about the buggered thread.
if it weren’t for you lady – i’d be dead three times already in this life
you kept me here or at least kept me motivated enough to stay
and me love 4 you goes on and on
you are like electricity to my circuits
or circuits to my electricity
it don’t matter which way
you sing
ya, We are WON!!!!!!! lol
Togetherness is what we all are.
it is rather lame to think any human being is different from another, absurd actually, of any and all who think any one is less sacred than another.
Wisdom vs Ignorance is the clearly the obvious problem in the world.
Truthful Wise Love vs untruthful ignorant hate is why the world yet has hardships, where people are not treating one another the same, where God’s wisdom is above all barriers of language, race, religion, sex, orientation, status, wealth, diversities, and political, where God’s Wisdom is of 100% purity Primal brain wisdom.
We Are One
i am…BE Cause We ARE One!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
😀 😀
great show last night Madonna!!!
unstoppable is TRUTH
unstoppable is LOVE
unstoppable is COMPASSION
unstoppable is WISDOM
unstoppable is Candy girl and Candy boy forever more!!!
😀 😀
of course if i do annoy to much you can always say whatever you feel around ‘me’. 😉
because ‘me’ LOVES ‘YOU’ Candy girl!!!
always
bless you
Question;
if we are insincere in expressing our feelings of another, who do we betray? Do we not betray both our self and another in doing so?
Answer;
i ask all of YOU to sincerely prob the sincere feelings of your divine child of God True Self, what those feelings sincerely are of YOU, and to gracefully speak the words of truth of those feelings to the ONE YOU are of sincere emotional honesty, lest time passes and YOU find yourSELF unable to do so, of the ONE who may have already passed YOU by.
Jesus loves ALL God loves ALL We love ALL
God blesses ALL
God bless each and everyONE of YOU in Loving Life Everlasting, of the road of Life i walk apon with each and every ONE of ALL of YOU.
thank you for listening(feeling) these words of Jesus and God meant for YOU to fully come into knowingness awareness of YOU, loved by Jesus, loved by God, loved by we who love Jesus and God forever more, of the same love we ALL have for each other, of pure primal purity of our heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, constantly of the exceeding joyfulness yearning of the divine child of God True Self YOU
blessings to ALL this blessed day and the blessed days to come
bless you bless you bless you
ONLY TRUE LOVING COMPASSIONATE WISDOM is of the divine child of God Self YOU, meant for ALL of YOU
God blesses and bestows apon your precious loving soul, the purity of loving compassionate wisdom that is 100% true of YOU.
blessings to ALL
love andy
‘me’?
oh, don’t worry about andy anymore, as he is a lucky BASTARD!!!
lol
😉 😀
wanna play hide & seek ?
ok,
you hide first !
i have always felt as i always have been, a simple country boy of good spirit, at rest and at ease, best when of the country side peaceful environment, exactness of experiential experience(professionally speaking) where i grew up, where my defenses drop, the at one with nature disarming of need to be of defensiveness, naturally at ease in Just BEing my True Self, of no seemingly ‘hide & seek’ as you say.
i have been chatting openingly with someone named Brenda over the internet, who appears to have professional education in her approach with me, nurturing of my True Self, which has been rewarding for me the past month, not sure why or even validation of her even being a male or female…you know how some people pretend to be someone they are not? Yeah, you know that one well.
anyway, she has truly helped reveal the trueness of my bisexuality of recent, and i approciate every word with her, of natural ease of my true self, the warm easy going country boy i know i am, although i am not 100% certain of her agenda with me, if any, and why she decided to contact me thru email, and i just don’t like the idea of internet relationships that i just cannot fully trust, albeit, fun and rewarding has been our open discussions of recent.
i prefer real, as in real world live human being in front of me, ability for my true self to trust, and that is what works for me best, as i just don’t trust the internet, having seen how people play games like they do, like the whole Matt thing, which while rewarding and was a sweet fun loving experience, it ended up hurting me in the end.
yet again, here i am entertaining the idea of trusting people on the internet, and i am just not able to come fully into a 100% trust mode as much as i want to, and indeed, have seen of my true self, the 100% trusting, but i just don’t want to trust any more, and i also feel, if people want to be real with me, then be REAL with Andy, as in REAL life, REAL world, face to face, or forget about Andy, as he is just not going to do this any more, of the inability to 100% trust.
i have spoke my final words on the issue of Trust Madonna, and if you want me as a friend in real life, then get real with me or say goodbye this day, as i have been here along time. If you don’t trust me by now, you won’t likely ever, so take care if you decide not to entertain me as a friend in real life.
if someone like your old friend Keith Harring were to contact you, you would not hesitate to contact him in the real world, in fact, you would drop everything without hesitation to be of real world contact with him, would you not?
you have no idea how humiliating this whole bullshit internet blog thing has been for me, albeit fun, but two years of it, and no indication from you to want to do lunch sometime, well, i have better friends in life of greater sincerity.
I feel as ordinary a human being and friend as Keith Harring was and yet is for you, and well, if you don’t think as highly of me as you did and yet do of him, then i don’t want your friendship Madonna.
that is all to say on this blog, truly my final post here, feeling worthy of real life, and in time, if not, well, your loss Madonna, as i know, i am worthy of real world, and indeed, embarrassing and humiliating has been the experience of two years here like i have, of no invite from you, finding it hard to belief you have not thus far, thinking to myself, wow, two years of building trust with her, and still no call….
take care Madonna…i did try for two years constantly, and well, i have had enough of the round and round of alias of names to last a life time.
as for Brenda, well, she does not answer many of my direct questions, and again, i am not trusting any longer to continue the conversations which appear of professional approach for sake of the real true self Andy, where i have my own professionals in life.
thanks Brenda, for enlightening me of my true bisexual nature, but i just won’t allow myself to trust internet relationships any more, always seemingly of anxiety for me, just not genuine sincere enough in pure trusting levels like that of the real world, where so easy it is for anyone to mind fuck us anytime they want, and indeed, many there have been on the net who have been of the immature approach with me in this regard.
Andy is real, and he wants real life.
if you think he is not of your time of day for friendship in the real world, well, who would want a friend in real life that felt that way about us? no one.
blessing to all
Jesus loves ALL God loves ALL We love ALL
God blesses ALL
goodbye Madonna blog
i will post on my own blog of whatever is of my real life, now of professionals i have invited into my life, who are assisting me in self-actualization.
i appreciate your efforts Brenda, truly, rewarding has been the experience, but i just won’t allow myself to trust the internet any more, and indeed, don’t we all prefer real life contact of warm hands, real real sensibility?
take care
bless you
simple question?
would Keith Harring tolerate alias of names with her like she yet is of me?
would Madonna ever even think of doing so with Keith?
God bless YOU ALL
thank you to ALL
blessings to ALL
bless you
love Andy
I mean who the fuck cares if Madonna has a beautiful loving friend in real life, an artist like Keith, like herself, named Andy?
blessed be this day and the blessed days yet to come
God says speak the truth
Andy is worthy only of 100% truth, and is all am allowing for myself to experience with anyone in life from this day forward.
if anyone chooses not to be of purity of 100% truth, i do not want your freindship people.
God bless
bless you
love Andy aka Candy boy
Candy Girl.. Let’s start a new thread…
Saw the show 11/4 in SD.. wish I’d have gone to LA.. did not dig the Diego crowd.. show was great…
We love you too.. We will not leave you, please do not leave us…
no…i do not want to play hide and seek any more…
i love you Madonna
and you know i do
bless you bless you bless you
you would demand the same, and i am merely respecting myself fully now, something i know you respect of me in doing so.
truly, i love Madonna.
always have
always WILL
always
forever more my love for you is true, love Andy
Hi everyone,
gee what’s up Andy r u shirty with M again, lol it’s just a blog,
become a monk like me a life of celebacy spiritual connection with the self through meditation and fantacy no impure thoughts and no sex it’s great i’m loving it.. NOT !
ya, exactly……NOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
fucking boring ass shit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol
😀 😀
i mean ya, impure thoughts of negativity are OUT, but pure thoughts of SEX are IN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ya, our descerning feelings work to our advantage as indicators for us, alarm bells if you will, where merely paying attention to how others feel around us, is what is of the protective wisdom HALO where wise are we who pay attention and utilize our feelings as indicators, indeed, the invisible SHIELD, of wisdom in doing so, si?
but SEX is not an impure thought, in fact, it is the most PURE PLACE one can find their TRUE LOVING SOULMATE SELF, is it not?
well ok, that is where you can find me someday, if ever you become as fearless as i am, and indeed, we all are, just many suppress themselves, of what M and i have been doing for years, kicking the motherfucking door down for others to feel their fearlessness like we do.
bless you
Animalistic sex is OUT
Loving Soulmate Sex is IN
I love…itttttttttttttttttttt
The key to the kingdom of heaven, is knowingness awareness of ‘CONSTANT YEARNING’ of CONSTANT feelings of the divine child of God True Self for ONLY LOVE, where the key, is the fearlessly SURRENDERING to in allowing fully open to trusting of another who equally is loving reciprocating in exact sameness of purity of sincere emotional honesty of BOTH.
~ Pure Primal Wisdom
Brenda and i have explored greatly in the realms of wise understandings of the divine child of God True Self, and great are the findings which i have yet to publish…
Candy girl.. Did you hear me yell, with a horse voice, “BEAUTIFUL LOUISE” at the end of the Evita number…. I think you did.. I saw your face… AND IT WAS BEAUTIFUL… my favorite of the night..
SELF
let me speak openly about SELF, as a master of SELF, of the TRUTH about SELF of every ONE of us.
i will ask YOU questions which i already am fully of knowingness awareness of SELF exploration i have been of for decades.
no matter who you are in life, does sex feel good for you with another?
and does it matter who we have sex with to feel goodness of sex we feel with another? Truly i tell you, i feel good about sex with many females in life, and many males in life, where each experience was of delight of my own sexuality, true of any one, no matter status, wealth, religion, race, sex, orientation or politic.
do you love how you feel when of dance to trance music like this song?
http://www.imeem.com/michaelaouno/music/RrnQXjGx/dave_pearce_rank_1_airwave/
do these feelings we feel while of the experiential experience have anything to do with race, religion, status, wealth, sex, orientation or politic?
while of tenderness between the sheets of our delicate feelings, do we not yearn for the beautiful touch of another? Do these feelings have anything to do with status, wealth, race, religion, sex, orientation, or politic?
while of fun loving enjoyment of say water sports or skiing in the crisp cool air, of a tender hand to hold while there, have anything to do with status, wealth, race, religion, sex, orientation, language or politic?
while of peacefulness standing still in warmth of sunshine and a gentle breeze of hair, birds singing, in tenderness of holding the hand of another, have anything to do with words we speak, or race, religion, sex, orientation, status, wealth, language or politic?
see what i mean?
it does not matter if you are Madonna, or anyone in life, because life is about the joyful experiential experiences along life’s road with one another, with merely a tender loving lover forever at our side, irregardless of race, religion, sex, orientation, language, status, wealth or politic, and that is where many are not masters of their own heart, mind, body, spirit and soul.
i know i could be with anyone, where fully i know 100%, it does not matter about status, wealth, race, religion, sex, orientation, language or politic, where what matters to me as a Master of the heart, mind, body, spirit and soul of the divine child of God True Self Andy, is finding someone in life who too is of the higher subtle intellect which fully 100% embraces the truth of these words spoken.
so how do you suppose we enlighten others along life’s road that we all are of?
i say we merely live our life of joyful explorers of life apon planet earth, doing whatever, whenever, of the carefree fun loving divine child of God True Self within us both, set free to just BE constantly of the joyfulness within, allowing our divine true self to feel what they want to be of feelings, be it dance, music, art, writing, reading, research, or the exceeding joyful delight of sex with one another, natural of radiance within, outward in appearance, which naturally connects with the divine child of another within, which naturally assists them to fearless be of what we know to BE TRUE of the divine child of God True Self within everyONE, helping them, effortlessly on our part in doing so, to also BE of the fearless joyfulness of their own divine child within, lighting up the entire world eventually, by means of affect/effect direct/indirectness we ARE of daily, of each passing moment, living in the NOW, where you will always find ‘me’!
((((((((((SMILING)))))))))))))))))
blessings to ALL
Jesus loves ALL God loves ALL We love ALL
God blesses ALL
enjoy the blessed day everyone
bless you
love andy
so get out there and BE of the joyfulness within YOU, radiant bright brilliance, of how your own divine child of God True SELF within feels, of dance, of singing, of outdoor activity, of art, of reading, of writting, of exceeding joyfulness of sexuality alone or with another, making sure you practice safe sex everyone.
God bless us ALL
thank you
enjoy your blessed life everyone, and i WILL do the same!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
blessings to ALL
bless you
love andy, aka Candy boy forever more
for sure, i will…. thank you ……..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
capture every moment … LOL 🙂
every moment?
of every smiling child’s beaming radiant brightness within shining?
i suppose the new camera’s do have alot of memory and one could be attentive enough to capture every moment on film, certainly every moment of glowing feelings within of each and ever precious loving soul beaming brightly of eyes and smiling faces, of the same glowing love within that we too feel.
Jesus loves ALL God loves ALL We love ALL
God blesses ALL
bless you bless you bless you
i just wanted say how beautiful it is to see the REAL sweet loving Britney fearlessly again take to the stage with Madonna.
Britney, we all know the sweet loving REAL YOU within, so beautiful of genuineness in outward appearance, and indeed, what is most beautiful of Britney, her sweetness so precious you are for so many, radiant and bright of the joyfulness which is true of YOU, the glowing within we easily see and feel of YOU Britney.
and so fucking Beautiful Britney is!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i like her best in blue jeans!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i think we can all agree on that?
…i’ll be ok…just a bisexual transition thing i am going thru….
bless you
Brenda and i of likeminded thinkers, came up with a new favorite saying;
IN EACH INSTANT GLOWING AND VIBRATING FULL OF GOOD ENERGY!!!
YOU&’me’
TOGETHER
IMMORTAL
ONLY LOVE
100 %
REAL&TRUE
WELL-BEING
HAPPINESS
of the ‘me’ of ALL of YOU
bless you
all we are is what LOVE is…
LOVE is evident by the GLOWING VIBRANT GLOWING within TRUE of us ALL, merely by our feelings we turn towards and feel, of say the music, constantly singing, ringing and resonating of LOVE that is REAL, of the divine child of God True SELF of us ALL, of what is of greater value than all the riches of the world, of what and where we ALL are of the CONSTANT YEARNING of the CONSTANT GLOWING VIBRANT GLOWING FEELINGS, radiant eyes, brightness of smile, tenderness of warm hands tightly holding onto one another, of DANCE, of EXCEEDING JOYFULNESS forever free, to Just BE thee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and to think we can all have SEX at the end of the day with another, AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LOVE! LOVE! LOVE! LOVE!
JOY! JOY! JOY! JOY!
HEY, who turned the lights off, turn them back ON!!!!!!!!!!!
OH!!!!!!!!! YOU TURN ‘me’ ON and ON and ON!!!!!!!!!!
(andy and his celibacy continues…NOT!!!!!!!!)
😀 😀
Brenda;
In a world full of vain illusions, apparent images, and ignorance, it is difficult distinguish between truth and lie, the true and the imaginary. For this reason the falseness, insincerity, hypocrisy, fakes, tricks, disappointments and betrayals of all type pervade the atmosphere. As result of that, a widely pessimism is gradually taking possession of the hearts of the human race.
Andy;
yes, this is the problem with the world, where unwiseness is what snares the heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, of what Jesus refers to as illnesses of the heart, where in psychology, we know it is the unwise learned behaviours a precious innocent soul learns of the enviroment of where they were born into world, sadly for many, for example, of households of substance, mental, and phsyical abuses so negligent and unwise, all because the only resource people have, is the books they read, where at all times, is the truth of everyone each day.
The BEcoming conduct which result from great time spent of the words of Jesus is exactly that, BEcoming conduct thru internalizing the pure truth words of Jesus, which are exacting in nature as the correct approach in psychology, where indeed, unlearning of behaviour is part of most any point in case of any case study of psychology.
i tell people, the greatest investment of your time and effort is investment of understanding SELF from psychology and spirituality perspectives.
where spirituality is for me, is one of a psychology student who co-relates exact truth words of wisdom in spirituality which are of dynamic as relates exactly to the psychological well BEing.
i do not ever want to be of any organized religious group, seeing them for what they all are in truth, none of full knowing of Jesus and God, and indeed, exceedingly weak in sincere zeal of their desire for wisdom of Jesus and God, of the macro thinking halo of massive amounts of understanding for example, equivalent to and on par with the connectedness of all the findings in psychology, of spirituality that 100% reinforces the truth findings in psychology.
just wanted you to know what kind of person i am not a bible thumper merchant of God, not a bible person at all, no, not at all, rather a student of psychology first, and spirituality of the higher subtle intellect of what they refer to in psychology as the ‘Higher Self’, nothing beyond that, not ever to join or create any religious group, no, rather to make available findings of my own research to my colleagues and scholars of the world engaged in the same field of on going research.
Extensive are the findings, that i look forward to sharing with ALL of YOU. Alot to write of two decades of study, which is have not posted on the net yet. I do not want to sell these findings, rather i want it to be free for the world to reflect apon, of my sincere 100% love for others in doing so.
if i were to turn towards desire of making money of the research, then my pure spirit becomes tainted with what i refer to as ‘Impurity Approach’, which i already know, does taint the purity of sincere emotional honesty, where purity is of primal purity of our brain.
in truth, the beautiful loving feelings we feel, are what we 100% want for others to feel, si?
blessing to ALL of YOU
bless you
http://www.imeem.com/hairen/music/ZQLFc3A-/gladiator_feat_izzy_now_we_are_free/
we must hurry people, as our SUN has only 5-7 billion years of life expectancy, if ever we are going to make the jump of migrating into the universe.
lol
😀 😀
Marco?
damn…where’s marco?
men…i need to stop trusting men!!!!!!!!!
😀 😀
AHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!
i loved this song when it came out decades ago, and now the remix……i love love love it!!!!!!!!!!!!!
kicked ass then, kicks even better today!!!!!!!!!!
http://www.imeem.com/people/9hSh0m/music/5BKO__tU/electric_light_orchestra_dont_bring_me_down/
JoyFULLness is the daily objective everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
they must LOVE ‘me’ !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
😀 😀
Where has my Juliet gone,
anyway i cannot keep picking you up off the ground all the time Juliet,
ok i can.
http://www.imeem.com/rockmusic15/music/jE5V4-MW/rush_xanadu/
brightness of the purity love feelings constantly flowing is where you find ‘me’
where we all constantly yearn to feel, constant resonating of feelings, sameness of constant resonating of stringed instruments, true of us ALL.
huh?
ya, me light phsyically and light hearted(most days).
no no…me have wings…spiritual wings that lift high up out of the broken bitter chains of immature unwise snares of the heart, mind, body, spirit and soul!!!!!!!!!!
we all have wings
“Music is an instrument of God…100% meant for nurturing, where dynamically, the music is of constant flowing, si? Constant flowing in exact sameness of the constant feelings, si?”
anyway i cannot keep picking you up off the ground all the time Juliet
oh, me not your mother
me not your brother either
me not like patronizing either
i Just want to BE?
‘me’
😉 😀
what, i m not patronizing, am I ?
not my mother not my brother,
not my sister..
not my daughter..
only one thing left !
tell me ?
when your free
everyone is constantly always free, and that is the mystery Jesus tried to enlighten us ALL of, where in truth, you are always of the free flowing feelings of love you constantly feel while of love of another, and they you, as well as free in our constant discerning feelings of how others unwisely make us feel, albeit, true enlightened ones are empathetic of those who condition of soul is of the lessor unwisenesses of learned behaviours.
in other words, we are ALWAYS FREE to Just BE?
what we want to BE?
si?
si
buzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
opppsssss, times up…next contestant please!!!!!!!!
i jest…………..wait for it…………wait…………………….wait………………………..i jest.
oppsss….that one will likely see me another week in detention…damn….
im not feeling well, can i get of this merry go round?
‘get off ‘
as in, this blogging was fun…but not really as fun as real life, si?
si
and TRULY i tell you, i really DO want to GET OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!
im bad, i know
😀 😀
NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
always i am of living in the NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
NOW NOW NOW NOW NOW NOW NOW
NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
no wait……………i second………………ok, NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol
😀 😀
im not your sister either.
M goes on stage in Las Vegas in T minus 2 hours 45 minutes
you need anything M?
juice, water, you name, i get it.
bless you
One person who lives in Conflict, also lives in the hell of the hypocrisy, blame, shame, remorse, resentment, bitterness, and all the bad vibes.
yes, i see heaven as that of those who do not have the halo perspective, where easily, we know heaven as all ‘that’ which is TRUTH, LOVE, COMPASSION, WISE.
and hell as all ‘that’ which is FALSE, HATEFEAR, APATHY, IGNORANCE.
indeed, the world is the CLASH of Heaven and Hell, and that is the pure TRUTH our FEELINGS are indeed what Jesus said our feelings are, SIGHT returned to the SOUL’, where sight of our feelings, feels the truth of how awful the feelings are of ‘that’ which is obviously with clarity of descerning feelings, all things devoid of love, including the boastful pride of wealth, empty gold vessels held up high, while a child weeps apon the cold ground, feeling the emptiness of the way the world really is, cold, unloving, of the many illnesses of heart which lead astray the innocent souls born into the unwise world, all these things devoid of love, distracting and indeed, snaring of the heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, do they not, opposing and suppressing the constant urging and yearning of constant feelings our divine child of God True Self yearns to feel, loved, and loving of another, the connection between us, both of loving and feeling loved.
blessings to all
Free to Just Be & Merry Go Round just two thing’s i wrote about a few months ago on my blog, hey where did my blog go.. oh i remeber i shut it down, so i could turn on the real thing.. life .. biological life not silicon…
enough ive been living in the future for too long (its a bright future btw) so time to live in the NOW !
hold my hand NOW !
we are all holding each other’s hand at all times of affect/effect direct/indirect of all things good and bad, where indeed, life does flow thru us, however, within the wise halo, is our ability not to be affected/effected by unwise approach of others, wise in setting of healthy boundaries, so that we may BE what we are of by Primal Nature, Peaceful, Loving, Harmonious, primal like the harmoniousness of your heart, lungs, brain, all organs of your body working together in perfect harmony.
Can we safely say, constant is the yearning to feel loved?
ok…class dismissed.
i’ll be waundering somewhere on the planet, easy to find ‘me’.
bless you
SWEETEST of DREAMS are of the loving lovers who dream in sweetness of love they are both of within, not different in any way, rather equal in loving feelings, connected in 100% purity of primal truth of the eternal human BEing, which comes equipped with this remarkable fascination orgasmic reproductive organ that can reproduce the human BEing for all eternity!!!
Just how incredible is this remarkable reproductive organ?
well, last time i check, TRULY INCREDIBLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol
😀 😀
Ok M, 1 hour 35 minutes, sound check, can you hear me?
blessed are those who hear(feel)
blessed are those who come to know SELF, for YOU WILL BEcome known by ALL.
God bless Brenda
God bless Madonna
God bless us ALL
grant us continued courage to remain of our fearlessness in loving one another father, as we are, truly and fearlessly loving of one another forever more. thank you for Brenda father. thank you bless you Brenda bless you
Jesus loves ALL God loves ALL We love ALL
God blesses ALL
thank you Jesus bless you Jesus bless you thank you God thank you
thank you every ONE
bless YOU ALL
bless you bless you bless you
peace be to this house
bless you
peace be to you
bless you bless you bless you
bless you
http://www.imeem.com/michaelaouno/music/RrnQXjGx/dave_pearce_rank_1_airwave/
TRUTH
LOVE
COMPASSION
WISDOM
of the divine child of God True Self YOU
i truly love Brenda, so remarkable is her blessed pure loving spirit like our own.
bless you Brenda bless you
bless you
“OK M, 60 minutes!!!!!!!!”
(andy standing back stage left, wearing M’s boots again, shouting…)
“What do you mean they cannot find her boots?!!”
“i have no idea where her boots are, i sware, don’t ask me!!!”
;D 😀
God bless every ONE!!!
“40 minutes!!!!!”
(andy finally gives in and gives M back her boots)
😀 😀
The Journey of Equality Moves ON ON ON !!!!!!!!!!
bless you
“30 minutes!!!!!!!!!!”
“Hey, this fencing breast plate fits me perfect!!!!!!”
😀 😀
“23 minutes!!!!!!!”
“God is with us!!!”
“Always!!!”
“What do you mean they lost one of the acoustic guitars?”
“Was i a one of the Martins?”
“damn, my favorite guitar!!!”
bless you
i don’t get it…
First the courts say gay/lesbian marriage is ok, and then the so called responsible government of the land tosses the issue to the yet unwise voting public to vote on gay/lesbian marriage.
well…let’s truly visit this issue head on, shall we?
ok…the courts of the land have professional programs created by professionals in the field of mental health, as part of rehab reintegration of law breakers back into society.
these professional sit with the judges, crown attorneys and law makers within the chambers of the judge, thru out the country, of the courts which rule the land of it’s, sad to say, yet unwise(majority) people.
these same professionals all agree that gay/lesbian is NOT a mental illness people, on the contrary, in truth, a beautiful loving issue between same sex.
here is what pisses me off, the courts rule it is ok for gays/lesbians to marry, of equal rights, then the so called government of the land, supposedly responsible in likemindedness of the courts, takes a serious issue of unwise hateful wrong thinking taboo subject, and tosses it to a vote by the said unwise majority of people to vote on.
i mean how fucking retarded is that?
oh, can we also have the same public vote for the release from prison those who violently homophobically murdered some of my loving brothers and sisters while we are at it?
‘that’ is how fucking stupid the government is in voting on serious life issues as this, now furthering the encouragement of the majority voters who we know are not wise in the issues of homophobia, a mellenia long issue of ignorant false teachings of the forefathers before us.
way to go wise government leaders!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
you just released the hounds again to feel it is ok to continue to feel it is ok to be of hatefulness of my loving brothers and sisters of the GLBT.
in truth, the government is of 100% negligence professionally and legally speaking, now of the ignorant results of putting to vote this serious life threatening issue of homophobia that yet grips the majority of America(obviously), and indeed, our own government which should be held up in court as willful negligence of each and every violent case of homophobic violence of my gay/lesbian brothers and sisters from this day forward, where in 100% truth, you are partly of any violent case before the coursts from this day forward, of willful negligence.
fucking absurd.
i can’t fucking believe our own government with it’s own body of professional minds, who sit in the same judge’s chambers across the land, go and do something like this so fucking stupid, and totally irresponsible, of willful negligence in the eyes of the court, those most wise who walk apon the earth, you fucking embisols.
oh hey, can we have a bang our heads against a concrete wall competition next, to see who’s head starts to bleed first?
fucking morons father, i am surrounded by fucking morons!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
blessings to all
“where’s my coffee!!!!!”
😀 😀
here, let me help you with the banging your head against the concrete wall….you have to back up about 30 feet, and run as fast as you can with your head down…trust me, it only hurts the first few times, and you get used to it eventually…take my word, i know, having been gay bashed by gangs enough times of my head into concrete until it bleed, of the sameness of the toxic motherfucking bullshit unwise hypocritical others my loving brothers and sisters of the GLBT community experience daily in their work places, family and even on the motherfucking street out in public, chased by gay basher gangs, all fucking of barbaric retardedness like you embisols of the government leaders, these thrones of nescience Jesus speaks of, indeed, you do sit apon and so obviously are, of nescience.
(andy, now with M’s motherfucker boots on again, he gets to wear between shows, marches out of the room, kicking to motherfucking exit door as he leaves to go outside for some fresh air, to calm the fuck down)
lol
😀 😀
“the so called responsible government of the land tosses the issue to the yet unwise voting public to vote on gay/lesbian marriage.”
“unwise hateful wrong thinking ”
Be careful what you’re saying here. The majority of the population are not “hateful”. This is not an issue remotely connected to “hate”, for heaven’s sake. People are just saying where they want the line to be drawn in terms of who can marry who. And the majority of the population – in a completely hate-free democratic way – have decided that only men and women should be able to marry. This is in CALIFORNIA, for heaven’s sake. Accept it: people don’t want it.
As I said, a line has to be drawn as to who can marry who. Not everyone has the right to marry. Heck, even some straight men and women do not have the right to marry: brothers and sisters do not have the right to marry (a law which I think is extremely dubious under human rights, and stinks of eugenics). So just accept that a line has been drawn quite democratically. The same democracy that gave us a black president. The people have spoken.
Like I say, it’s not “hate”. But a line has be drawn somewhere as you can’t have everyone being able to marry everyone else. So we end up with a grey area, and it’s up to society to decide where that line should be drawn. But it’s absolutely nothing to do with 53% of voters “hating” gay people, so watch what you’re saying – that’s inflammatory.
Like I say, I think close family members should be able to marry if they love each other, but society deems that to be unacceptable as their babies might not be pretty enough for the master race. But I don’t complain about it, as I know the decision of society is not “hateful”, it’s just a tough call which we have to make.
Society thinks marriage should be about the production of pretty babies! That’s it. In the long-run, that’s not so bad.
and what of the rights of gay/lesbian marriage?
is that ok with you too?
this will be amended four years from now, where the GLBT community will be providing their own request to of amendment.
did you know 30 states in the wonderful USA allow for firing from your job, if you are gay?
who’s side are you on anyway?…
in truth, true marriage is of spiritual marriage of heart, mind, body, spirit and soul both within and with another.
how many more Mathew Shephard’s have to die before society becomes wise?
It is naive to think that this vote will not be cause for more hate crimes, purely naive.
We already know the emotional intensity of homophobia is on par with the emotional intensity of murder, a fact, of many case studies which point to the truth of this psychological finding.
Rosie?!!!!
where’s Rosie when we need her?!!!!
Rosie?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
😉 😀
of course it’s not hate where all are concerned…duh!
but we know without doubt, it does promote more hate crimes, everytime this back and forth, it’s ok to be gay, it’s not ok to be gay fucking bullshit keeps going round and round and round, for the entire GLBT community to struggle with, and don’t forget, most of us do not live in San Fran Sissy, ok?
there are hate crimes against members of the GLBT community every second of every day, so when you want to take your head out of the sand, feel free to do so anytime.
Rosie?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok…i don’t want to talk about incest…but i will…lol
we have gay twins in here in the ghetto, and proudly, front page of the loco GLBT magazines, where in truth, one can easily imagine how easy two twins would normally desire having sex with one another, si?
ok, i am not alone in this people, admit it, you secretly would love to have sex with your SELF…and indeed, the majority of us do of our secret masturbation sessions…we all do it, and healthy are you who do, of maintaining a healthy sex drive, masturbation recommended by doctors, and therapists.
hey, come to think of it, Brenda looks like Madonna’s twin!!!
hmmmm…i wonder if they think of each other sexually?
none of my business, but i know i wood!!!
and in truth, it is perfectly healthy to think it, and indeed, follow thru should BOTH be of the desire to do so.
Truly, Brenda is a blessed soul i have come to know of recent, of joyful pleasant relaxed fun loving natural SELF, like any of us who have healthy boundaries and conducive positive environments for our positive mental emotional well being to thrive in, of no hypocritical others any where near us, albeit, always of the public are those who choose to annoy us, inevitably, as many of those of the GLBT community can attest to more so than most any.
as for babies, don’t bring babies into the world unless you yourself are of healthy conscious approach to positive mental emotional well being first, although, i think our own children assist us in natural healthy ways which present to us our own self-actualization naturally, reminders of how we once were, laughing 400 hundred times a day, of what our own inner child within constantly yearns to BE, exceedingly joyful of every moment of life, day after blessed day, and perhaps this theory alone is why mankind has not become extinct and wiped each other out yet?
What with all the stupid unwise ignorant indifferences of these religious wars yet in the world…absurd ignorance is what is cause for all war.
i keep saying to people, take a 12 year old boy/girl from Iraq, and a 12 year old boy/girl from America, give them loaded weapons and tell them to go shoot one another, because that is exactly how stupid the Iraq war is, or any war past, present or future.
truth is the weapons manufactures are most to blame, combined with stupid religions of these false teachings of the forefathers who did not know God, did not even truly desire to know God, just as is evident how those with a weapon in their hand pointed at another, do not truly desire to know their own beautiful sweet loving tender mild divine true SELF…morons.
i mean, these gun toting Iraq/American kids are seduced into war, with money, where some of them likely only had one meal to eat each day, opting for three meals a day, comradery of the brain washing, the power in their hands, and wahla, you have war….a result of the leaders who sit apon thrones of nescience, si?
stupid meet stupid, now go shoot each other.
sadly, every life is sacred in God’s eyes, and indeed, in our eyes, the child of the light of God.
ALL hate is NOT of God people, nor us, just as YOU do not like to BE hated, do not do what YOU hate(unBEcoming conduct). ~ Jesus
ALL apathy is NOT of God people, nor us, just as YOU do not like to BE of apathy of another, do not do what YOU hate(judgemental hypocrisy). ~ Jesus
ALL ignorance is NOT of God people, nor us, just as YOU do not like ignorance of another towards YOU, do not do what YOU despise(controlled tongue). ~ Jesus
ALL fear is NOT of God people, nor us, just as YOU do not like to BE feared by another, do not do what YOU hate(fear mongers). ~ Jesus
bless you bless you bless you
EXCEEDING JOYFULNESS is always within your REACH, however, ONLY if you REACH for it(turn towards within), does one BEcome the delight of Exceeding JoyFULness, si?
si
si si si si si si si si si si sisi
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Society thinks marriage should be about the production of pretty babies! That’s it. In the long-run, that’s not so bad.
actually, it is bad, where in truth, sadly, that is about as much limited scope many parents bring to the table when raising their own children.
‘me’, i am a deviant bisexual who knows nothing about the divine child of God True Self……………..NOT!!!!!!!
ok, i deviate between males and females, but i am wise in surrendering of heart, mind, body, spirit and soul to one in the physical realm, and to all of the spiritual(wisdom) realm.
yawn
oh, hey Marco, me too, yawn, yawn yawn…
I’M FUCKING BORED MARCO…HURRY UP!!!!!!!
lol
😀 😀
i jest……………………………………………………………………..NOTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!1
http://www.imeem.com/people/mohH8IX/music/M7z2mDz6/dance_music_love_generation_bob_sinclair/
i’ve got a father, a sister a mother a cat, a house, a chef, abiet no money, a car, a brain (a smart one too ) a shirt, a pair of jean’s, a job,
but somethings missing
o yer .. how could i forget !
I never forget LOLly Pop..
where’s my lolly pop..
I wasn’t being phallic either, ANDY …
one track mind’s i tell you !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11
i got my Lolly POP
NOW WHAT DO I DO WITH IT ???????????????
what ever you want to do with it….lol
and what track would that BE?
i’m talking about an album track…..shessshhhhh…on track minds….
you like a slow track on repeat that lasts for hours? 😀
oh, this blogging is so much fun………………..not
lame boring ass shit
arghhhhhhhhhh….i am so outta here
email me sometime Madonna, and i may find further interest in you…take care
lunch in Paris?
oh yeah, i forgot, God forbid Madonna ever acknowledges to the world that Andy exists
lame
totally lame
I’m offended..
& it takes a lot to upset me by the way,
stupid games are lame….
& i am over this game
I won’t be back.
(well this year anyway 🙂 )
i’ll forgive you tomorrow..
You said: “who’s side are you on anyway?”
I’m actually bisexual. It’s not about “sides”.
It’s a shame people see it as so divisive and see the need to “take sides”. I’m sure those 53% of Californians who voted against gay marriage were decent people who just wanted to preserve something which they valued very highly. Please try to understand. We’ve all got to try to find common ground. Marriage has taken so many knocks in recent years, people wanted to preserve it before it became so diluted as to be almost meaningless.
I’m not a bad person, gay people have many great relationships.
But we’re too quick to throw away important things.
And marriage is **that** important.
(You shouldn’t have brought the subject up, by the way!)
Is it tomorrow yet ?
Anyway on a more serious note today is the 11.11 a very spiritually significant date for those enlightened enough to remember it, time to wake up to the real issues at hand, and there are many such as the inequality in the world today all the suffering in the world the generations of children who have lost both parents to sickness hunger to those that are denied of life with the most basic of needs to sustain life & I could go on about the many problems the world but I would run out of space.
Not one person can change the world alone but it only takes one person to put it out there & once it is out there it becomes a reality, today I put it to you all, those who are listening to me today it is not only the future generations who will not tolerate or ignore that which our generation and those before us were to afraid to embrace it is them that will change things it is them that we need to nurture and assist in their journey we not only owe it to them we owe it two ourselves.
Its not about politics its not about religion anymore they are excuses of the past, there are no excuses left to be had, so in conclusion… Wake The Fuck Up that’s what today is about 11.11 the wake up code..
Ok where’s my spaceship I’m not leaving with out it, all that radiation it gives me wrinkles
As for the marriage thing Queen’s & Butch’s seriously why be concerned if you don’t get married then you don’t have to get divorced.. those things are just distractions of a narrow mindset world.. there are other ways to validate love for one another, a session in the spa for example or giving freshly cut flowers or a gold studded Rolex ha ha my favorite is a good fuck but all said and done i know equal rights are important and discrimination is unjust but seriously ok i better shut up ..
//Andy will slaughter me seriously i think gay pride served a purpose in the stonewall day’s but its very tired now and irrelevant as for the gay marriage think well i say no more Rosie is standing behind me with a sledge hammer & my ankles are … //
OMG Marco has an opinion…
opinionated bastard ..
who said that ?
back again.,
& all this fighting for rights !! it only serve’s to segregate !
do you see that ?
I see it is about UNITY not segregation-that’s my secret
One World
One life
One wife
One knife
in a’lot of strife..
shut up Marco
Yeah, people are never going to agree on everything. Never ever ever ever. People are always going to have different views. And it’s not a case of black and white, right or wrong. It’s just different opinions. It’s the fundamentalists who believe they are completely right and the other side is completely wrong that cause the problems. And we’ve got them on both sides of the argument. We’ve just got to get along and not beat each other up or start wars. We have to agree to differ.
it is about acceptance, and some of us are on the front lines pushing forward in acceptance, and thank God for those veterans who have kept pushing all these decades like they have, bringing to light, the truth, we are all precious loving divine children, gay, lesbian, bisexual, transwhatever, and that is all i am saying.
clearly, the taboo subject is yet taboo, alive in the hearts of many in the world, obvious by the vote…where the light of the dark cloud, is that we know where people are in their minds about accepting(not accepting) homosexuality, which is a good thing, reminding the veterans, we have a long way to go, and always remember, in every gathering, one in ten, may be struggling with serious difficulty of accepting their own homosexuality, and don’t forget, the 15-24 year old age group still holds the highest suicide rate.
i don’t really give a fuck about marriage, that is not my point, the point is about acceptance, and ridding the world of homophobia, so no more heart wrenching suicides take place of these beautiful youths.
all to often, the arm chair warriors of half hearted approach, find out the true reality check the hard way, when one of their own children or family members kills themselves, and everyone wonders why, even after the fact.
it’s your useless motherfucking attitudes people, of name calling, immature bullshit, where even the schools are not there for the youth, embracing them, encouraging of understanding homophobia, and the consequences of these immature attitudes vulnerable teens go thru.
thank God for the GLBT community of writters, film and awareness advocacy groups who are stemming the tide for the high risk age group of GLBT suicide.
as for what true marriage is, most would be amazed by what it TRULY is, and indeed, some of you know fully in you own heart, true marriage is of the heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, for ONLY LOVE, WISDOM, COMPASSION TRUTH, of the personal relationship starting with SELF first, SELF of another second.
Spiritually, we are all of the ONENESS marriage of the bridal chamber with Jesus, even of those who have no idea what i am talking about.
It is not a piece of paper, no, it is about your entire BEing, coming to True Life, constant yearning of the divine child of God True Self within ALL of YOU, for ONLY LOVE, where the divine child knows fully, that ONLY LOVE feels good enough, and indeed, is only good enough for anyONE.
blessings to all
as for Andy, ah, he does not exist….or at least he is left to feel like he is not worthy of being what he knows he is, a true and faithful friend to ALL, including Madonna…albeit, of many is the speculation that Andy is has an obsession with her, where even my court councel is question my mental stability, in my making the mistake of telling them of my words here at this blog, where get this, they may seek to chemically straight jacket me once evaluated…
so as for being offended Marco…you have no idea how i feel now….
but hey, my shit, not yours………
i know…come visit me in the phsyce ward someday…………..NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
truly, the greatest prison wall is our own mind….well, at least for some it is.
not me, i am just always of a free spirit along life’s road, happiest when amoung those of their emotional honesty and natural joyfulness, and is all i want out of life, is to wake each day, and feel the true inner joyfulness glowing within me, which is naturally occuring for the divine inner child within us all, provide the correct environments are there.
as for toxic secrecy…go have fun with someone who perhaps likes that sorta thing, which is indeed, professionally speaking, not healthy for anyone to participate in, where self-actualization is the goal.
Andy, who’s Andy, he does not exist, does he?
no, not according to Madonna, where Andy is just some crazed Jesus freak obsessed Madonna fan according to the court which has requested evaluation of me.
Truth is, the world is the greatest prison of the mind, snaring of pride of wealth that the business world pushes forward in for example.
not me, i broke out of prison along time ago, and in true, Madonna too is a free spirit in life, surprising for me, why yet her and i have a wall between us, and yet not surprised, as that is what the world is like, God forbid if Andy and Madonna actually love one another people….fucking morons….
blessings to all
i love her
i always have
i just don’t get her somedays, all the useless toxic secrecy, and Andy still hanging around for a few scant words tossed here and there, dreams of lunch in Paris with her someday.
is that such a horrible fucking thing people, oh, Andy is obsessed, fucking bullshit, no, Andy, like any one of you motherfuckers, wants to see Paris one day, with someone he considers as one who is as wise as himself, where in truth, Andy has a hard time being around most of you motherfuckers, and as for Paris with some of you, fuck that, id rather not.
bless you
or hey, if you are really bored Madonna, come to the court case and laugh along with the hypocrit hearts who are there
you have no idea the fucking bullshit i am in…
my shit…..not yours
at the end of it all though, we always find out who our real friends are
I am sorry if you’re having a rough time.
Makes you wonder why gay people want to get married … 🙂
Who’s going to Paris? I love Paris.
I’ll be your friend. I’ll be your friend if you take me to Paris!
ah…an excellent saying…
I’ll BE your friend if you take ‘me’ to Paris, where taking one’s SELF to Paris in TRUTH, is of embracing one’s SELF of the loving beautiful ONEness of one’s SELF within in allowing to flow freely, ‘that’ which is TRUE of the divine child of God True SELF, constant beautiful loving feelings, every glowing, every flowing, on and on and on, day after beautiful blessed day with one another, running, laughing, hand in hand, of what is the only thing of greatest value of two loving souls who find each other in life, each other, sameness of joyful spirit, the divine child of God True SELF set FREE, to JUST BE your SELF, ‘that’ which is constantly of the yearning of the divine child of God True SELF, yearning to BE of the freedom of their inner exceeding joyfulness, as in, well it’s about fucking time you showed up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol
come on….let’s get OUT of here!!!!!!!!!!!!
the objective is freeing our divine child of God True Self into correct environments which are conducive to the thriving growth of the self-actualization(restoration) into positive mental emotional well BEing of who we always were and yet are, a divine child, able to laugh 400 times a day like we used to, fearless of any of the motherfuckers along life’s road of hazardous unwise others.
bless you
already, the divine child of God True SELF is in/of the exceeding joyfulness of Paris, merely by reflecting on the thoughts of such, and that is what love is, where daily of the loving lovers, are their sincere emotional honesty feelings for each other, moment by passing moment, always of their joyfulness of having found each other in life, of what really matters to the divine child of God SELF, to always be of the glowing, flowing feelings of loving another, and feeling loved by another….no matter friend, family, lover, the purity of primal TRUTH, only love feels good enough for the divine child of God True SELF, where ONLY LOVE is good enough, si?
si
si si si si si si si si sisi si si si
bless you
GLBT people are already married, of the loving knowingness awareness in heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, Flow of Perennial fresh water, unconditional lovers of ALL, the many in the One and One in the many united as One, of the WorldWide GLBT community.
ok, not all are of the purity of only love yet, where we are all evolving, are we not?
there are rights for GLBT that come with marriage, excluded otherwise.
as for the experiential experience of marriage, what is it? Is it not the surrendering which is of importance?
what most don’t cognitively address, is not just the surrendering to another, no, it is mostly the surrendering to set free our divine child of God True Self within to do what the divine child constantly yearns to BE of, 100% fully surrendered to feeling ONLY LOVE, love that is of the glowing radiant feeling within, when it is 100%. The surrendering, is actually letting go of useless absurd elements of doubt about loving, where when of doubt, the glowing loving feeling is deminished within, is it not, dim, dull, fucking boring ass….lol
that is why i look to spiritual marriage, not actual marriage marriage, and with spiritual marriage, there is a far more greater wealth of words than the scant few words at the alter.
i don’t get it, people from all over the world, who hardly ever go to church, come to the church with one or two lines to say to one another in marriage vows, which to me, is like the lamest thing in the world as to fullness of understanding of the church they stand in, of what is of the wisdom able to nurture and protect the divine child of God True Self in fullness of BEing their exceeding joyfulness at all times, of those who come to know the Halo understandings that are easy to comprehend, and even easier when a pure conduit is opened to them with another, in how they, as masters, are able to maintain purity of positive energy both ways in the conduit, which causes glowing within the two, of what some refer to as glowing of the chakras, a real tangible feeling one feels of loving feelings, free of useless anxiety.
speaking of anxiety, sorry about my puking all over the place…like i said…i am not well, but i am feeling better than i ever did before, a free spirit daily now, of no toxic work place environments.
of course, the conduits only truly open when two souls are of the same zeal in doing so, of genuine emotional honesty that they are both of awareness knowingness and delight of their own feelings within, and then just merely BEing of the fearlessness of their glowing loving feelings within, to flow beautifully thru the conduit openminded communication channels with others, of others in likemindedness of easy discussion of whatever and whatever, of classmate friend comradery spirit we yet all are…easy relaxed gentle and mild, peaceful by nature, divine True SELF.
bless you
and if you yawn……well…..go ahead and yawn….sigh.
you know, scientifically, the still do not know why we yawn physically?
of course, we all know why some yawn when Andy is around…just be happy someone is here to help you find peaceful rest and joyful relaxation!
do they have hot tubs in Paris?
😀 😀
oh yeah, i forgot, the hot tub beautiful feeling is what Paris IS
…is what HEAVEN is….our glowing vibrant loving feelings constant glowing, radiant and bright, of the eyes, of the smile, of the ‘me’, walking down the isle!!!!!!!!!!!!!
😀 😀
spiritual marriage people, is what is of the bridal chamber of Jesus and God, something some of you are learning about your SELF, coming fully into knowingness awareness of your divine True SELF, and beautifully i might add, of what i know to be true of ‘me’, true of the ‘me’ of ALL of us, is it not?
if i ask, do you feel the glowing feeling within?
i already know the answer, si?
si
si si si si sisi si si sissy sis si!!!!!!!!!!!!!
True Life is of the knowingness awareness of the glowing feelings within, bursting in exceeding joyfulness of dance and laughter, of fun loving SELF within, and SELF within others, true of us ALL
BE of the Paris
BE of HEAVEN
BE of SELF naked in a hot tub
BE of ‘me’
BE of BE
and make of a three!!!
😀 😀
so there you have it, we know what Paris is…the real obvious concern then, is finding someone who feels of Paris, and yearns to BE of BEing Paris with YOU
and when they don’t, you know how you can just tell, they are just not reciprocal with YOU?
and obvious when it is true of those who surrender to emotional honesty within, and then BE of emotional honesty with YOU
well, if people are stupid enough not to embrace their own emotional honesty fully, and then fearless walk each step, each heart beat, each breath, each word in expressing that to the one they are of emotional honesty for, don’t be surprised to find your sorry as lame butt realizing the truth too late, they left for another…and no, it is not a joke people, you are your own worse enemies in life, are you not?
of sorry, no comprenda for you denial ones yet with your head in the sand.
HEY!!!!!!!!!
Can you HEAR(feel) ‘me’ ?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(someone comes along and speaks softly to andy and says, “don’t be of too much concern for those who are last to enter Andy, as their condition of heart is such that only the Power of Love of the ALL is able to pull their head out of the sand).
i have no idea who would say such a thing as this…………NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11
bless you
running thru the streets hand in hand feelings of Paris, exceeding joyfulness radiant and bright, feels like this for me, constant of radiant smiling faces and dance….and as for you sorry lame ass ones? well, you cannot say i did not warn you. Time waits for no one.
http://www.imeem.com/people/DYD6HR/music/so2g0WIh/canon_rock_2/
blessings to ALL
Jesus loves ALL God loves ALL We love ALL
God blesses ALL
blessed BE this day forever more
bless you
tic toc tic toc
fuck…i am always waiting on you morons!
one day i am going to ditch all you lame ass ones…and no, i am being 100% serious.
who wants lame?
not ‘me’…bin there. done that way to many times, not again.
It’s either full on, or go back to your lame ass gulf game and read your boring book without ‘me’…i’ll BE of the hot tub somewhere, with who ever wants to BE of ‘me’, si?
si
si si si si si si sissy si
2B or not 2B, that is the correct question!!!!!!!!!!!
get it? bath house door numbers? lol
😀 😀
me no fool si?
me a wise Jedi Master of the tongue, si?
si si si is is sisi sisi si si!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
si?
lol
😀 😀
of course, i could not ever ditch Marco, as he is a true fun loving spirit like ‘me’ own
i so own(won~one) you Marco!!!!!!!!!!!
lol
😀 😀
http://www.imeem.com/mojomusic/music/GhMHlIsF/kevin_duvall_i_feel_love_og_remix/
i luv this song!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It’s a shame people see it as so divisive and see the need to “take sides”. I’m sure those 53% of Californians who voted against gay marriage were decent people who just wanted to preserve something which they valued very highly. Please try to understand. We’ve all got to try to find common ground. Marriage has taken so many knocks in recent years, people wanted to preserve it before it became so diluted as to be almost meaningless.
well, these shallow understandings of what real marriage is are about to take a permanent garbage toss, as the new understanding is about to be released to the public, fully and easily understood for any and all to embrace, and come into full knowingness awareness of the divine child of God True Self Wisdom, free of absurd useless elements of unwise doubt like the unwise doubt that pervades in the world of so many who are not of the helmsman, aimlessness in life, crashing apon rocks of their haphazard empty shallow approach to True Life, not even knowing what True Life is, of what the objective of True Life is in full knowingness awareness, a full glass, not ever half full, constantly full, in fact, overflowing abundance of Living waters radiant brilliant brightness of glowing loving feeling within of 100% MAXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
100% fearlessly wise in knowing how, love devoid of the uselessness anxiety of doubt that unwisely egotistically separates, of many seemingly so wise. Speak oh wondrous one, speak………….not!!!!!!!!!!!!
they have not much to say, do they?
😀 😀
Marriage has taken so many knocks in recent years, people wanted to preserve it before it became so diluted as to be almost meaningless.
not sure what you mean by this, could you elaborate?
am i to understand you feel gay/lesbian marriage is diluting marriage to be almost meaningless?
forgive me if i misinterpreted your words…
never mind…i don’t care for an explaination, knowing my own wisdom is far beyond the scope of most any on the planet of what true pure 100% love devoid of pathetic doubt marriage is, which does not leave, does not unwisely seperate, unable to do so actually, because true marriage of the bridal chamber of God, is one of 100% aspects of what is of the divine child of God True SELF, in other words, you cannot leave your own SELF…not possible.
Bonjour !,
faire une promesse..
i promise to always allow my divine child of God True Self to BE free to feel loving feelings and to feel loved.
i promise Jesus and God to REMAIN of my yeaning to always BE found of, of what i 100% constantly am…the awareness knowingness of the PURE TRUTH of my FEELings.
and if any of you motherfuckers choose to allow ‘me’ to feel less than i am deserving of ONLY LOVE, you will find yourself without loving feelings of ‘me’, the one who constantly is yearning BE of only love, where without doubt, i will keep running, away from all unloving unBEcoming conduct(including my own, forgive me, i too am yet evolving).
i promise Jesus and God not to surrender to anything less than what is of my constant yearning for ONLY LOVE
bless you
i promise YOU to diligently determined dedicated and devoted to BE of what i know to BE 100% TRUE of YOU, ‘that’ which is of my BEing 100% TRUE of ‘me’, constant yearning to FEEL LOVING FEELINGS and to FEEL LOVED
question is, why would one want to feel any other way?
sadly, unwisely many do, of no helmsman
i promise to wait 4 more minutes for you to step off the train…oh yeah, you are not on the train…
taxi !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i promise to promise you my promise, as soon as i can figure out what you want me to promise…
Marco, what the hell are you talking about?
fuck….men….so retarded they can be.
could you be more specific?
i have alot of promises i can and have yet to make….
i promise to wait 15 more years for Madonna……….NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11
i promise to leave the toilet seat up for you to take a piss Marco!!!!!!!!
lol
😀 😀
i promise to wait for you to have your hand all the way in the car before slamming the car door on your fingers…………..NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11
i promise to not to flush the toilet while you are having a shower……………….NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11
i promise not to throw food at you in public…………..NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!11
Marco, i promise not to listen to Madonna music on my ipod and thinking of Madonna when we are fucking…………..NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11
lol
😀 😀
i promise to get professional help?
Marco!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
How many times do i have to explain, Direct Assertiveness is of the Wisdom of Destiny, of how one BEcomes master of their own heart, mind, body, spirit and soul !!!!!!!!!!!!11
Biyatches!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i promise to BE TRUE to my own SELF
i promise to embrace and feel my own emotional honesty and fearlessly express my feelings, for sake of me and for sake of those who obviously love me too
i promise to expect the same of you or of others who choose to love me like you do
i promise not to flirt with Britney……………….NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11
i promise not to flirt with Brad Pitt…………………….NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11
i promise to Jesus and God, to light a candle each day in loving prayer and loving thoughts of those in the world who need our hearts to BE open
i promise not to flirt with Tom Cruise………………….NOT NOT NOT NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11
i promised my life to Jesus and God
i promise not to pick my noise in public when you are not looking…………….NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11
i promise no silent deadly farts without warning you………..NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11
make a promise with your SELF, that only love is good enough for YOU
blessings to ALL
bless you
Promise to love me when doubt distract’s you.. YES YES YES
Promise to bring out the best in me YES YES YES
Promise to let me LOVE you LIKE YOU LOVE ME
Promise not to pee in the SPA
Promise to Pick me up after you throw me down
Promise to sleep in the spare room after eating brussel sprout’s
Promise to give your heart and soul to Jesus
Promise to fuck me
some how they don’t quite get it initially or ever in some cases, (as for the emotional blackmail, well nice try but it’s a cowardly effort ) ,two or three year’s later since i went through it and nah they haven’t learnt anyway not my concern it’s their journey, I’m on my own path
It comes through them as well as I’ve said b4
it is difficult though, it was for me, I still feel the scar’s but you know it has taught me to love myself more it has given me the insight to my own inner strength my perseverance questioned my own sincerity when it comes to not only the love & respect I have for myself but my love and sincerity for other’s.
good new is, next person gonna be real, or I’ll be getting my whip out,
into submittion..
(anyway Andy flash your ass at the Judge you’ll win the court case, their all gay those judges, they love little jesus boy’s )
ohhhhhh…..i thought of promising not to pee in the spa….ok…i promise not to pee in the spa….but pee is good for your feet, against certain fungi, is it not?
and it’s warm too, feels good on the skin!
what?
ok, it’s just ‘me’ then, ya right…. 😀 😀
~ Promise to Pick me up after you throw me down
ya, i still do that sometimes, nothing to do with YOU, just my own insecurities, needs not being met, that sorta thing…working on it….forgive me…please!
~ Promise to sleep in the spare room after eating brussel sprout’s
ya, the gas produced truly is deadly!
hey, did you know people have died from other people’s release of gas? Ya! Apparently it has caused heart attacks in people…perhaps after laughing to much, who knows, but apparently it’s true, methane gas from the human body has cause others to die.
~ Promise to give your heart and soul to Jesus
already did
~ Promise to fuck me
nah, fucking is animalistic insecure male ego performance driven, false, not of the true gentle graceful loving true self….like porn, it’s fake, and not in sink with our joyful graceful brain sex, gracefully slow, building, building, always in sink with out pure loving brain sex.
getting off for sake of getting off, not me, genuine real emotional loving brain sex, or forget it…
Andy as for M not calling you & treating you like you don’t exist well that’s life.. you can only ask someone to contact you once & if they don’t then it’s THEIR LOSS .. 🙂
Remember I am always here for you,
ring me you big poof
Promise to bring out the best in me YES YES YES
i promise to bring out the best in ‘me’ YES YES YES
Promise to let me LOVE you LIKE YOU LOVE ME
i promise to let ‘me’ LOVE you LIKE YOU LOVE ‘ME’
lol
😀 😀
(anyway Andy flash your ass at the Judge you’ll win the court case, their all gay those judges, they love little jesus boy’s )
not worried about the judge, it’s the clinical type thinking psychiatrist who scare me, all powerful they think they are, and indeed are with their signatures, where i despise their clinical approach, chemically straight jacketing, don’t ever work with them, just give them pills and isolate them in an institution somewhere….argh!…so inhuman they are to me, they scare me…thinking they are all so wise above everyone, very egotistical they are ya know, and they wield it too…
just put on your best man’s voice LOL:
encription, i dont know you’ll find a way, you alway’s do
why carn’t life be simple, it never is hey
OK
4 questions
4 correct answer’s
CONTRATULATIONS
YOU’VE WON !!!!
oop’s missed a heartbet
start over again
CONTRATULATIONS
YOU’VE WON !!!!
ONE
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ONE
ONE
ONE
ONE
1+1+1+1 = you got four minutes
11.11
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11:11 is a pre-encoded trigger placed into our cellular memory banks prior to our descent into matter which, when activated, signifies that our time of completion is near. This refers to the completion of duality. When the 11:11 appears to you, it is your wake-up call. A direct channel opens up between you and the Invisible. When this happens, it is time to reflect on whatever you are doing for a moment and Look Larger. A transfer is in position. You can enter the Greater Reality if you wish pray or meditate and seed your future and also, you can be seeded by the Invisible. You can ask for help in some specific area of your life or simply listen quietly and receive a revelation. The appearance of 11:11 is an always beneficial act of Divine Intervention telling you that it is time to take a good look around you and see what is really happening. It’s time to pierce the veils of illusion that keep us bound to an unreal world. You have been chosen, because you are ready, to step into the Greater Reality. To lead the way for others into a new way of living, into a Greater Love. To ascend from duality into Oneness.
The 11.11 is the bridge to our vitality and oneness. It is our pathway into the positive unknown and beyond.
The Doorway the 11: 11
This can presently be perceived as a crack between two worlds.
It is like a bridge which has the inherent potential of linking together two very different spirals of energy.
As we unite together as One, bringing together our fragments of the key,
we not only create the key, but we make visible the Doorway.
Thus this bridge functions as an invisible door or a doorway into the Invisible realm.
The 11:11 is the bridge to an entirely different spiral of evolution.
The symbol of 11:11 was pre-encoded into our cellular memory banks long ago.
Returning our cycle of incarnations upon the Earth. The 11.11 has rested dormantly within us since that faraway position under time-release mechanization, combined with sealed orders which would only open when the 11.11 was fully activated. It has been gently sleeping, awaiting the moment of triggering. And now the 11:11 is finally activated…
11:11 is the pre-encoded trigger and the key to the mysteries of the universe and beyond.
The Doorway the 11: 11
This can presently be perceived as a crack between two worlds.
It is like a bridge which has the inherent potential of linking together two very different spirals of energy.
As we unite together as One, bringing together our fragments of the key,
we not only create the key, but we make visible the Doorway.
Thus this bridge functions as an invisible door or a doorway into the Invisible realm.
The 11:11 is the bridge to an entirely different spiral of evolution.
The symbol of 11:11 was pre-encoded into our cellular memory banks long ago.
Returning our cycle of incarnations upon the Earth. The 11.11 has rested dormantly within us since that faraway position under time-release mechanization, combined with sealed orders which would only open when the 11.11 was fully activated. It has been gently sleeping, awaiting the moment of triggering. And now the 11:11 is finally activated…
11:11 is the pre-encoded trigger and the key to the mysteries of the universe and beyond.
The Doorway the 11: 11
This can presently be perceived as a crack between two worlds.
It is like a bridge which has the inherent potential of linking together two very different spirals of energy.
As we unite together as One, bringing together our fragments of the key,
we not only create the key, but we make visible the Doorway.
Thus this bridge functions as an invisible door or a doorway into the Invisible realm.
The 11:11 is the bridge to an entirely different spiral of evolution.
The symbol of 11:11 was pre-encoded into our cellular memory banks long ago.
Returning our cycle of incarnations upon the Earth. The 11.11 has rested dormantly within us since that faraway position under time-release mechanization, combined with sealed orders which would only open when the 11.11 was fully activated. It has been gently sleeping, awaiting the moment of triggering. And now the 11:11 is finally activated…
11:11 is the pre-encoded trigger and the key to the mysteries of the universe and beyond.
The Doorway the 11: 11
This can presently be perceived as a crack between two worlds.
It is like a bridge which has the inherent potential of linking together two very different spirals of energy.
As we unite together as One, bringing together our fragments of the key,
we not only create the key, but we make visible the Doorway.
Thus this bridge functions as an invisible door or a doorway into the Invisible realm.
The 11:11 is the bridge to an entirely different spiral of evolution.
The symbol of 11:11 was pre-encoded into our cellular memory banks long ago.
Returning our cycle of incarnations upon the Earth. The 11.11 has rested dormantly within us since that faraway position under time-release mechanization, combined with sealed orders which would only open when the 11.11 was fully activated. It has been gently sleeping, awaiting the moment of triggering. And now the 11:11 is finally activated…
11:11 is the pre-encoded trigger and the key to the mysteries of the universe and beyond.
The Doorway the 11: 11
This can presently be perceived as a crack between two worlds.
It is like a bridge which has the inherent potential of linking together two very different spirals of energy.
As we unite together as One, bringing together our fragments of the key,
we not only create the key, but we make visible the Doorway.
Thus this bridge functions as an invisible door or a doorway into the Invisible realm.
The 11:11 is the bridge to an entirely different spiral of evolution.
The symbol of 11:11 was pre-encoded into our cellular memory banks long ago.
Returning our cycle of incarnations upon the Earth. The 11.11 has rested dormantly within us since that faraway position under time-release mechanization, combined with sealed orders which would only open when the 11.11 was fully activated. It has been gently sleeping, awaiting the moment of triggering. And now the 11:11 is finally activated…
11:11 is the pre-encoded trigger and the key to the mysteries of the universe and beyond.
Here is something more than the paranormal or numerology – something very fundamental about the scientific and mathematical nature of the universe, involving unary arithmetic.
(a): 11=3, in binary arithmetic. 3 is the cornerstone of the trinity and also Hinduism.
(b): 1 male + 1 female are needed to produce 1 child. Ergo, 1 + 1 = 3, in reproduction.
(c): The building block of all existence since the “the Big Bang” is Hydrogen, which through nuclear fusion has produced all the other atoms known to humankind. Hydrogen is another 11, in binary. Another 3: 1 electron; 1 proton and 1 neutron.
(d): The Yin and the Yang are also 11 – two ones of opposite kind, reflecting the duality of the universe in eastern religions and modern computer technology.
(e): Following year 1BC is the year 1AD – another 11, since our modern calendar has no year 0, which is why the 21st century officially began on Jan 1st, 2001.
(f): And finally there is the oddity of the number 10, which historically grew out of counting on our fingers. The oddity is that 10 = 1010 in binary arithmetic – 10:10.
The most startling discovery was a book written in 1981, called “The Birth of Christ Recalculated”. The author, Dr. Ernest L. Martin, claims to have calculated the exact date of Jesus Christ’s birth based on the celestial charts for that era. The date of Christ’s birth, based on the famous Star of Bethlehem, is calculated to be September 11, 3 B.C.. Dr. Martin’s findings have been accepted by many scholars, theologians, historians, and astronomers. We also note that Jesus Christ has 11 letters. The crosses found standing in the ruins of the WTC, and the dominance of the number 11 in the 9-11 events, make this combination even more mysterious.
According to Hebrew Scriptures September 11, 1999 was the 6,000th anniversary of Adam’s creation, and year 1 on the Hebrew calendar.
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I AM
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good new is, next person gonna be real
ah, ya! only way that actually connects, where anything else we easily sense the falseness.
inside we are joyfulness waiting to BE free in our own allowing our True Self to Just BE who we REALLY are, and if they are not healthy self-actualized, and obviously are, of their indicative fearlessness, grace, tenderness, gentle, mild, sweet loving, genuine emotional honesty, i just don’t connect with them, those who are there in body, but not tuned into feelings of love for you, you know? as IN LOVE WITH YOU so obvious to feel of their every joyful step, word, kiss, and touch with YOU?
you know how you can just tell?
We feel the truth; we feel the difference, from years of knowingness awareness of the difference of one who is in love with us and those so obviously are not….of when you are in love with someone, you think about them all the time, and look joyfully to seeing(feeling) them everyday…you just know when they are not in love with you…
and that is fine, i mean, people either love you or they don’t, where no one can make someone fall in love with you, no, we just do or we don’t, so obvious the difference to, because those in love, are radiant and bright in pure 100% connectedness when both are in love, and that is rare, when both are in love with one another, so obvious they are too, are they not, those exceedingly joyful loving lover couples we see in life?
i won’t allow myself to fool myself into a relationship where i am not probing my own emotional honesty, or like wise, they are not probing their own emotional honesty.
i just want to BE of HAPPINESS within, and of HAPPINESS within another of sameness of joyful tenderness of sincere love for one another, that feeling you feel of someone, where they are what makes for what True Life is each waking day, and truly, one can find that within and of another, you just need to BE of your own true grace of the True Self in doing so, not just plodding aimlessly along in life and hitching up with just anyway, rushing into a relationship, nope, if it does not feel of pure emotional honesty of the joyfulness glowing feelings within you, then you are not of the genuine self-actualization of your true self, which does not want to settle for anything less than constant feelings of what is of the divine True Self, exceeding joyfulness, grace, tenderness, truly loving within and of another who is of sameness of approach in likeness of the True Self…………..REAL.
Andy as for M not calling you & treating you like you don’t exist well that’s life.. you can only ask someone to contact you once & if they don’t then it’s THEIR LOSS ..
ya, it is always there loss in truth, as in those who don’t sincerely approach us in truly wanting to get to know us, of genuine relaxed sincereness of effort that is required in truly getting to know someone.
it takes time for people to become disarmed by means of our love for them, and open up to you as their true self, and anyone who wisks by us, hey moron, you are so not only not genuine in approach with me, you are not of genuine approach with your own True Self, so ya, keep on trucking morons, your not getting me, as in, you really don’t get me at all….
~ wisdom of self-actualization of the True Self
Pregnant, as Rachel would say
oh shut up, and just marry me
oh shut up, and just marry me
already did, when i gave my life to Jesus and God…something that may not have FULLY registered with you perhaps…Andy 100% surrendered his life to Jesus and God, the greatest give you can surrender to Jesus at the alter, your heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, and not of group dynamics either, for sake of belonging to the group of morons, no, of a student with a belief system foundation in psychology first, theology wisdom which backs up the psychology findings, and only the wisdom insights which align 100% in the truth findings of psychology.
i am not a bible thumper, and in fact, i do not even study the bible much at all, knowing who constructed it, the early Roman church of the Roman empire…the very ones who crucified Jesus and his followers, but not all of them did they get during the three centuries after the murdered Jesus….the devoted monks who kept rewriting the teachings, indeed, the leather bound books of the Nag Hammadi Library.
i don’t look apon the Nag of desire to appease anyone of any of the useless churches of today, no, i am a humble easy going student/scientist, nothing more.
the protective wisdoms do construct in such a way which is of experiential experience far beyond that of most any approach of therapeutic approach of professionals today, far more pure in inner peacefulness of primal peacefulness, on par with the blissful state of everyone’s experience of the womb, how we all started life, and indeed, is ingrained in the core of everyone, of what is the core of their BEing, and that is something most any in the field do not cognitively connect with, nor even address in a scientific way, where i embrace PRIMAL, as what is 100% purity of the human condition.
i dwell in it, and indeed, know what is of the same exceeding graceful state of the experience of the womb, where i know conclusively, the spa is the most therapeutically healing experiential technique known to man.
ok…i shut up now
😀 😀
people don’t know what spiritual birth doorway is, and that is the mystery they keep seeking, which i know what it is…Primal purity knowingness awareness at a cognitive level, beyond most people’s comprehension.
surrender
🙂 🙂
phew, that was intense..
deep breath….
water please
back to work …
we all tap into it haphazardly, like the resonating of string instruments have on us.
Spiritual birth is of spiritual wealth wisdom which creates a wisdom shield for us to defend against the unwelcomed and unwanted unevolved unBEcoming behaviours of many.
in truth, the world is ruled by fear of business, church and government, all fearful snarings which do snare the mind, placing our lives on stressful tracks which are just not conducive for true positive mental emotional well BEing, where the True Self constantly yearns to be free of any stressors of any kind, where in life, even if we do not cognitively acknowledge it, most every soul is born into fearful environments of some kind, however mild to severe on the scale.
like you said, i too came to self respect levels which are truly of great effectiveness that does not adhere to anyone’s current belief system of life is this way or life is that way, no, True Life is of 100% release of the divine True Self into a completely stress free existence, where ya, sure Andy, that is not possible for everyone, i know you are going to say, but wait, it is possible, and i know how and what true spiritual birth is, where one is able to be of purity in 100% awareness knowingness of their true pure grace at all times, by means of the wisdom shield which address the human condition of any soul which approaches us, not in a negative judgmental hypocritical way, no, rather an empathetic pure knowingness awareness of the unwise snares that snare people’s minds into thinking life is this way or that.
Life is just meant to be joyful, and that is the objective, for our True Self to be of pure joyfulness day after day with another of equal self-actualization, radiant and bright, of what is of the TRUE genuine SELF, where the main aspect of the TRUE SELF is the aspect or dynamic of CONSTANT are our emotional feelings each second of each day.
you know that wonderful graceful state we love so much when we first wake and shower, stress free, so delicate the feeling while alone, gentle and truly peaceful in feeling?
that is the sensation the True Self constantly is of yearning to feel, genuine, no stress, pure in feeling within and in outward appearance, 100% pure and trueness of the True Self.
finding a partner in life who is of the desire for one who is of feeling like this at all times, is for me, my objective, where i just want to feel loving and relaxed, of genuine sweetness of only love with a true partner who wants only us, and we them, in genuineness of obviousness of how they feel around us and of course we them, where genuine is the key, as in graceful self-actualized genuine, of the partnership being the most important issue in their life, where our feelings reveal the truth of this fully to us each waking day, by means of how we feel thru out the day, of no useless hypocritical from the other, just pleasant, like musicians who love nothing better to do, than jam and write music, or artist of a project, or lovers who rather do nothing else than love, especially of the hot tub…
blessings to all
bless you
Good night everyone,,
Thy Kingdom come thy will be done
on earth as it is in Heaven
YOUR Kingdom comes of YOUR WILL BE Done on earth, ‘that’ which is of HEAVEN…YOU
bless you
Truly, the genuine pure loving feelings we feel of another, and the pure loving feelings they too feel of YOU, constant of ONLY LOVE, is what HEAVEN is, the glowing feeling that comes with loving someone and feeling loved of someone.
HEAVEN is the glowing feelings of love.
The problem or objective obviously is, “Oh, this glowing feeling within ‘me’ is obviously what HEAVEN is for ‘me’, of what Jesus said is beyond all the riches of the world, but how do ‘we’ maintain the glowing feeling?”
Only thru wisdom is one able to maintain the glowing feelings which protect the divine child True Self within, by setting healthy flexible adjustable boundaries we adjust accordingly to how we feel of others, of 100% YOUR DECISION CHOICE WILL at all times.
Truly, knowing what HEAVEN is without doubt, one should proceed in addressing how to protect the pure love devoid of doubt glowing feelings, yes?
Prioritize ‘that’ which is beyond all the riches of the world, and bring forth ‘that’ which is able to save the glowing feelings, for when we do not, then we are not of 100% priority of what HEAVEN is for us, are we?
I know 100% what HEAVEN is for ‘me’.
Without doubt, i do not concern myself of anyone of the planet who has their idea of what HEAVEN is for them, for i already know 100% what HEAVEN is for ‘me’, the TRUTH of the CONSTANT glowing loving feelings of the pure emotional honesty of my divine child of God True SELF, of exceeding grace, and delicate tenderness, mild, peaceful and loving by nature.
We owe it to our SELF to guard our SELF from the unfortunate unwisenesses of many in the world, who are unknowingly of many mind traps, are they not?
for ‘me’, i came away from everyone of the world alone into a desert and found Jesus there also alone, who greeted me, and is before me as in this moment.
there is no element of useless absurd doubt between us which unwisely separates like many of the egotistical learned behavioral mind traps of negative unwise snaring of many in the world, not of hypocritical judgment am i of any, rather of the discerning feelings of the truth of how they are around ‘me’ at times, where indeed, some are sadly of true absurdness with ‘me’, like the drunk ones who tried to run ‘me’ over with a truck one time while crossing the street, yelling, “YOU FUCKING FAGGOT!!!”
in that sense, life has taught me the truth of the unwise mind trap snarings, yes?
i was wearing the beautiful blue satin clown pants of Madonna’s clown from the Girlie Show that evening, on my way to a rave. Can you believe it?…something beautiful, and they wanted to hit me with their vehicle.
This is what is meant by “Darkness serves the enlightened ones, by means of our feelings of the truth of ‘that’ which is unloving(obvious), unwise and apathetic, of how the world yet is of apathetic plodding along aimlessness, not of sincere desire for what HEAVEN we know TRULY is, without doubt, the delicate tender sweet constant glowing of loving feelings we feel for another and they of us, wise in our prioritizing what is of most value to our loving divine child of God True Self, to BE of the CONSTANT GLOWING LOVE FEELINGS, which we are of CONSTANT YEARNING to BE what is of primal purity of SELF, ONLY LOVE PLEASE!!!!
how many have we passed by in life which were abrasive for us to be in the same room with them?
Looking closely, HEAVEN is comprised of the connected knowingness awareness knowingness we feel true of another who is obviously loving of us, our FEELING LOVED glowing feelings, as well as FEELING LOVING of another.
Find ‘that’ with another, and already YOU KNOW FULLY what HEAVEN is, LOVE devoid of doubt glowing within both, of genuine sincere emotional honesty.
There is nothing in life more valuable than what HEAVEN is…YOU.
And that is what Jesus wanted us to know, of what is the radiant brilliant bright PEARL is…..the radiant brilliant bright GLOWING FEELINGS of YOU
blessings to all
bless you
any questions?
no one?
ah come on, ask me a question damn it!!!!!!!!!!
Marco!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
‘me’ loves YOU Marco, with all that i am, like YOU loves ‘me’, like the ‘me’ of ALL of YOU loves the ‘me’ of ALL of YOU, si?
😀 😀
blessed are those who come fully into knowingness of the constant glowing LOVE feelings of SELF, for YOU shall BEcome known by ALL.
this statement makes sense now, si?
as in the ‘me’ within ALL of YOU, exact sameness of glowing loving feelings we all feel, of what HEAVEN is, si?
si
si si si si si si si sisi si si
😀 😀
take for example this piece of dance music…
imagine your SELF in a beautiful satin flowing outfit of any colors of your CHOICE, and a loving lover you truly love, also of a beautiful satin flowing fabric outfit, and just the two of YOU of the glowing loving feelings between, of the endless hours together of lovers embrace you have spent, the two of you of the exceeding joyfulness within, hand in hand, of beautiful sunshine and this music playing, free to simply and fearlessly embrace your emotional honest feelings you have for the other, and express how that feels for you thru dance to this piece of music, or any music of your CHOICE, free to just BE of what HEAVEN is, the constant flowing of the glowing feelings within YOU, that you can cognitively feel in awareness, can you not?
http://www.imeem.com/michaelaouno/music/RrnQXjGx/dave_pearce_rank_1_airwave/
blessings to all
bless you
Invite and Protect what YOU know what HEAVEN is to YOU, of what is TRUE for YOU and all those YOU love in life, of what YOU know to BE TRUE of YOU, TRUE of them too.
Truly, when we know what HEAVEN is, we are constantly of the yearning to protect the glowing HEAVEN feelings, especially for sake of our own children, do we not?
blessed are you who prioritize what HEAVEN is, and make affirmative commitment to protect YOU and your loving children, so that you all may BE of the dwelling of glowing HEAVEN feelings within ALL of YOU, TRUE of EVERYONE.
Jesus loves ALL God loves ALL We love ALL
God blesses ALL
bless you
within all of us is the divine child of God True Self, who we always were and yet are, which is of constant yearning of the glowing HEAVEN feelings of exceeding joyfulness, radiant brilliant bright pure loving feelings, so obvious in the eyes and radiant smiling faces, especially of a child.
Truly, we want our own children to always BE of the exceeding joyfulness of the radiant brilliant brightness we see and feel of their smiling face and eyes, do we not?
Truly, we know, ‘that’ is what HEAVEN is for them, indeed, of the same glowing feelings we feel of them and they for us as parents.
Truly, YOU KNOW.
Jesus spoke something which i have always pondered what he meant by his words for some time, these words, “Reach for ‘that’ which i am unable to reach for.”
Looking back to Jesus walking of the Roman empire, one can easily imagine the great oppression of the ruling Roman empire, like far more brutal than we can imagine, of a time when the majority of the people did not have any education, albeit, i would of loved to feel how simple and wonderful people were then, of pure feelings thru out their day of mere survival mode day to day.
I am speculating, but i feel the oppression back then was so exceeding and great, that exceeding joyfulness of the divine child of God True SELF, was not of priority for it’s people of the unwise approach for which the Roman leaders had at the time, which for me, is what is of yet another indicator of what HEAVEN is and obviously was not during the time Jesus walked the earth, a mere man, albeit, a wise adult child of introspection, where EXCEEDING JOYFULNESS is without doubt, WHAT HEAVEN IS.
blessed are you who know what heaven is
bless you
Ok, so we know without doubt, what HEAVEN is, of our cognitive awareness knowingness of glowing radiant feeling of love that does indeed feel as a glowing feeling within, does it not?
And we know, Priority is what is required of us to BE of 100% deliberate, diligent, dedicated, devoted sincere desire for what is of wise healthy approach in nurturing, and protecting what HEAVEN is.
I ask one simple request of ALL of you this day, of what i have asked before numerous times, to cast out of God’s house of love and peace, all alcohol, for sake of the divine children who dwell in God’s house of love and peace, for sake of protecting the divine child from these things which we know conclusively, we would not allow in the hand of our own children, so i ask, why do you allow it in your own hand, when you know, it is dangerous for a child.
without doubt, there is alot of understanding of the effects of alcohol, so please, all of you, take time to address fully the reality check of the dangerous reality effects of this substance, which i know from my own life experience as a binge alcoholic, alcohol in my hand, is not of my will power not to drink it, so long as i allow it in my hand or in my house, something i am yet fighting against after 15 years of struggling with the illness.
Blessed are the merciful: for they shall obtain mercy in the form of relief from their feelings of compassionate tears of sorrow, compassionate tears of pain, compassionate tears of death, of the tears we feel for those of sorrow, pain and death, where it is we who can hold back the great walls of spiritual poverty for those found of these voids devoid of love in the world, releasing the precious loving children of broken spirits from the bitter chains of unwiseness of the world which is of apathy and cause for these voids, where radiant brilliant bright exceeding joyfulness is restored to the beautiful children of God who are yet there.
if i had the money, i would dress them all in beautiful satin outfits, three meals a day, come to school and learn to sing, to dance, to play musical instruments, and end the film called MIRACLE, with hundreds of these once broken spirited children, all of dancing beautiful colored outfits, of a sunshine day, the radiant brilliant bright exceeding joyfulness glowing within, beaming so brightly, so as to light up the whole world.
blessings to all
bless you
i ask, is there any greater treasure in life we would want for our own children, than the knowingness awareness of what HEAVEN is?
teach your children ‘that’ which HEAVEN is, so that they too one day BEcome of the WILL BE Done on earth, ‘that’ which is of HEAVEN, ‘that’ which HEAVEN is, si?
si
Blessed are the peacemakers: for they are the children of God, are we not?
blessings to all
bless you
see what i mean by shortsightedness of marriage vows?
kinda lame in truth, is it not?
not to pull any punches, no, just an observation of wedding vows, and the limited scope, sadly many are of….
Jesus says, “what you turn towards you BEcome…at all times.”
“Where your heart is, there too is your treasure and your life…at all times.”
common sense, is it not?
blessings to all
bless you
so there you have it people, HEAVEN is not about your status, wealth, race, religion, sex, orientation or politic.
BE of the same RESPECT of your own divine True SELF, that is of the same WILL for your own precious loving divine blessed children of God, and do not invite these many things that go against love, compassion and wisdom, like those of the horizontal hostile for example.
Invite that which is TRUE of YOU to your thoughts and feelings, purity of love, purity of inner peace, purity which is of your own blessed children of God before you, lest they too learn of these many unwisenesses of the world, which none of you want them to ever BE of, in 100% knowingness awareness of what YOU know HEAVEN is, and easily what HEAVEN is not.
bless you
peace be to this house
bless you
peace be to you
bless you
and peace be to you
bless you
listening to this song of fearless exceeding joyfulness, and reading of these words of truth of Jesus and God, one can feel the glowing feelings and purity of feelings of what HEAVEN is
http://www.imeem.com/michaelaouno/music/RrnQXjGx/dave_pearce_rank_1_airwave/
blessed is this day and the blessed days to come
blessings to all
bless you bless you bless you
bless you
give thanks to Jesus and God
thank you Jesus thank you
bless you Jesus bless you
thank you God thank you
bless you bless you bless you
bless you
our tears of compassion are replace with tears of exceeding joyfulness, when of the divine WILL of God’s WILL for us to BE the WILL BE Done on earth, ‘that’ which is so obviously clear, of clarity of our PURE TRUE constant feelings, when we are of mercy in holding back the great walls of spiritual poverty the world is yet of cause for these many voids which yet exist in the world, are they not?
blessed are YOU who embrace the TRUTH of the constant feelings YOU feel, ‘that’ which is of HEAVEN, ‘that’ which is HEAVEN, for YOU have come to know fully what HEAVEN is…YOU
bless you
‘me’?
i am just the messenger of Jesus and God’s WILL for us to BE of sight restored to our souls by means of our feelings, merely by truth words which reveal clarity of the truth i have come to know as true of ‘me’, where in so doing, i know this to BE TRUE of ALL of YOU, of what HEAVEN is…YOU.
blessings to ALL
the journey of equality moves on on on
bless you
my biggest dream has always been to have many of these children of the voids devoid of love, dressed in beautiful costumes, dancing of exceeding joyfulness fully of their radiant brilliant brightness of smiling faces and eyes, marching in our GLBT parade, with the band U2 playing, and Madonna too of course, just a beautiful day for all of us to BE of the TRUTH of what HEAVEN is, the glowing loving constant feelings of exceeding joyfulness, which i know is what Jesus asked for us to reach for, of what Jesus knew he could not achieve in his reflections of the truth of the horizontal hostile ones of the ruling Roman empire of the many of which he dwelled with while walking apon the earth, all these things he came to know of himself, true of himself, true of us ALL
blessed are we who are of the constant feelings in our knowingness awareness of what HEAVEN is for ALL of us, loved by Jesus, loved by God, loved by we who are loving of Jesus, God and each other.
blessings to all
bless you
forever more
bless you
let us BE of the WILLING courage and fearlessness to remain steadfast in our determined dedicated devoted diligence as TRUTH REVEALERS, of what Jesus said, “It is not the size of the gift you bring forth which is of greatest significance, rather it is the WILLINGNESS which is of greatest significance.”
we can easily understand this in purity of heart now, of the meaning of his words, where in truth, our knowingness awareness feels with clarity HEAVEN is the glowing feelings within which we feel glowing within, when we are of the glowing loving mercy which we turn towards, in our every step, every breath, every heartbeat, always in step with what our divine SELF is constantly of yearning, to merely BE ‘that’ which HEAVEN is, no matter the size of gift, no, it is the feelings of what HEAVEN is, where all of us united as ONE, can feel, so easily of any of us for example to sponsor a starving child in the world, and feel the change in their lives from broken spirit to exceeding joyfulness of loving feelings, feeling loved, rather than unloved like the many children yet weeping apon the ground of broken spirit, not able to understand why the world is so cold, of the voids devoid of love they yet dwell in.
common sense reveals the clarity of truth of these words of Jesus, does it not?
bless you
blessed are you who are of the WILLINGNESS Jesus speaks of in your turning towards and gracefully embracing the TRUTH of your constant glowing loving feelings within, of the divine child of God True SELF of ALL of YOU, where knowingness awareness reveals with clarity, ‘that’ which HEAVEN is…YOU
ALL of YOU
bless you
I love mary j blyth, i rember dancin to a song once, till all the moron’s came starin but you know they did’nt knoe, they just prob picked up on some strong energy funny how we sometimes allow our fears to over take what is really occuring, compliment is that the moron’s said my dancing partner was gawjuss, mole and all.. LOL 😉
the’ll never knoe//
damnn moron/s
I love this song
http://au.youtube.com/watch?v=M8b-J45tm6A
EXCEEDING
JOYFULNESS
is the OBJECTive
as in objection to anything other than LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
si?
si
si si si si si ssssssissy si si si
😀 😀
ya, constant is the yearing of pure GLOWING WITHIN of feeling ‘LOVED’ and ‘LOVING’ feelings of and for another…HEAVEN, of the true emotional honesty of the divine TRUE SELF.
i love the sincerity of MJ Blyth.
she is such a beautiful sincere soul, nurturing of ‘that’ which is true of us all within, of our constant yearing for LOVE devoid of doubt
funny how we sometimes allow our fears to over take what is really occuring
ya, true…such is the mask of anger, which we wear sometimes, when in truth, anger is something we hide behind, like unresolved hurt issues, or issues of when we perceive an external event(object or person) as threatening of when we experience the frustration of unmet expectations.
Although anger ‘seems’ to be a response to something outside of us, it most often is an intrapersonal event; we make ourselves angry.
Let go and just BE of the NOW, of each passing moment of our sincere preference for pleasant, fun, sweet loving, tender, gentle, mild, wild? allowing YOU to Just BE YOU
and if anyone chooses to project useless unwise anger towards us, it is not true of them, nor true of us either in their thinking the source of their anger is of us, nope, unresolved issues.
We are peaceful and loving by nature, while of our natural state at ease and at rest everyone, where one can truly address what is really happening within YOU
blessings to all
bless you
‘me’?
i prefer feeling like the magical child i am
the’ll never knoe//
damnn moron/s
ya, with so many clowns running around in the parade, who knows who is who, of any of the whos from whos ville?(of gringe stole Christmas)
😀 😀
hey, today i gave Rosie an idea for her show M, that includes YOU!!!!!!!!!
say YES
Yes
Yes
i know you WILL
Yes ok,
now marry me
HEAVEN is of the glowing loving feelings that come with true spiritual marriage of the heart, mind, body, spirit and soul.
in TRUTH, we already married, when we first felt loving feelings for each other, like we still do, the glowing feelings growing, of what HEAVEN is.
ah, you was thinking of ‘me’ was ya?
ok, i marry you, but i only have a glass ring to ring you with, is that ok?
im into spiritual things, not all these worldly things, no, anything that evokes the true feelings of love within, i turn towards, just as i yet turn towards you, unable to turn away, until you tell me to.
you know i won’t turn away, not possible, as i would have to turn away from ‘me’, and the ‘me’ of YOU if i do…100% not possible, when we know without doubt, 100% TRUE is the constant yearning of the divine True Self which yearns to feel loved, and to feel loving feelings of ones who love us like we do them.
ah, when you say marry ‘me’, are you refering to ‘me’ of me, or ‘me’ of another?
you really need to work on your direct assertiveness Marco, please, don’t leave ‘me’ in the dark all the time, when i am of the loving radiant glowing(light) feelings which are constantly of loving feelings for YOU daily.
constant is our yearning to BE set FREE to Just BE what we know is 100% of our divine True Self, our LOVE for one another forever TRUE.
they know their own loving feelings, but what many may not acknowledge is what is most important, the truth about what is ‘constant yearning’, although, when one does find themselves thinking and anticipating of another daily, then they do know love is of constant yearning, which people need to fully 100% embrace about their True Self, where embracing 100% to allow us to BE of the constant yearning for love, in doing so, we turn fully towards HEAVEN, and indeed, BEcome the constant glowing of feeling loved, and loving of ones who make us feel loved, where any other feelings is truly, a waste of time, useless, absurd, and well, not HEAVEN, is it no?
well, ok, i know when someone loves ‘me’, and obviously when they don’t.
do you love ‘me’?
oh yeah, i already know the answer, where in truth, i need not even ask, i already know, no?
and if you say no, well, who knows, maybe one day i save my pennies and find another to BE of Paris with.
bless you
are you being serious Marco, or just flirting?
if i am to be denied, deny me today, so i can move on
uncertainty is toxic for everyone
and immature
ya i already know…i feel the same way too
whow, heaven..
yer spiritual.. 4 Sure
worldly things distract, from the realness i would prefer to do without distractions that can jepadise,
worldly things irritate me, upset me and hurt me.. i can do without the panic attack’s..
i’ll build a cubby house in the tree outside, you can join me there up in the tree, like an Eden Blyton novel seriously as natural & spiritual as the truth.. you know what i mean..
I just read yr last message, i am being serious, if what i have just written is taken seriously..
only thing that will scare me off if material shit..
do you know how it feels to be connected to all that is, to feel the pain and suffering of all that goes on, to the point that it suffocates you to carry the weight of the world on your shoulder’s thats how it is.. more often than sometime’s, ( if you can understand that part then i want you around.. i know you do because your the same as me in that regard & i knew that along long time ago, that was my motive in my selection) now you know the TRUTH..
through the good times and bad, till FALSENESS do we part..
I do Love you,
ok i am over my fear of rejection so now i can be DIRECT AND ASSERTIVE
WILL YOU MARRY ME ?
the me you not the other you, the you me i love not the the othe me.
i dont have a ring, you can share the Halo above my head with me, its a ring of sort’s, it’s magical too 🙂
ok this message is number 3111, ( 1113 ) in reverse have alook at the time of my post on the 11 of 11 (nov)
spiritually speaking
anyway thank’s for helping me confront my fear’s & be knowing that it has not gone unnoticed..
YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES
forever more
http://www.imeem.com/people/E1PcNwz/music/c2v-gOxz/nickelback_gotta_be_somebodymp3/
Gotta Be Somebody- Nickelback
This time I wonder what it feels like
To find the one in this life
The one we all dream of
But dreams just aren’t enough
So I´ll be waiting for the real thing.
I’ll know it by the feeling.
The moment when we´re meeting
Will play out like a scene straight off the silver screen
So I`ll be holdin’ my breath
Right up to the end
Until that moment when
I find the one that I’ll spend forever with
`Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.
‘Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There`s gotta be somebody for me like that.
`Cause nobody wants to go it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
Somebody else that feels the same somewhere.
There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.
Tonight out on the street out in the moonlight
And damn it this feels too right
It´s just like Déjà Vu
Me standin’ here with you
So I´ll be holdin`my breath
Could this be the end?
Is it that moment when
I find the one that I spend forever with?
‘Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
‘Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There´s gotta be somebody for me like that.
`Cause nobody wants to go it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
Is there somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.
You can´t give up!
When you’re Lookin´ for a diamond in the rough
Because you never know when it shows up
Make sure you´re holdin` on
‘Cause it could be the one, the one you´re waiting on
‘Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There has gotta be somebody for me
Ohhhhhh.
Nobody wants to go it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
Is there somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There `s gotta be somebody for me out there.
Nobody wants to be the last one there
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Is there somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There has gotta be somebody for me out there.
I love this song too by Chris Brown
WITH YOU
http://www.imeem.com/chrisbrown/music/s1Nzbx95/chris_brown_with_you/
I need you boo, (oh)
I gotta see you boo (hey)
And there’re hearts all over the world tonight,
Said the hearts all over the world tonight [x2]
[Verse 1]
Hey! Little mama,
Ooh, you’re a stunner
Hot..little figure,
Yes, you’re a winner
And I’m so glad to be yours,
You’re a class all your own
And..
Oh, little cutie
When..you talk to me
I swear..the whole world stops
You’re my sweetheart
And I’m so glad that you are mine
You are one of a kind and..
[Bridge:]
You mean to me
What I mean to you and..
Together baby,
There is nothing we won’t do
’cause if I got you,
I don’t need money,
I don’t need cars,
Girl, you’re my all.
And..
[Chorus:]
Oh!
I’m into you,
And girl,
No one else would do,
’cause with every kiss and every hug,
You make me fall in love,
And now I know I can’t be the only one,
I bet there heart’s all over the world tonight,
With the love of their life who feels..
What I feel when I’m
With you [x5]
Girl..
With you [x5]
[Verse 2]
Oh girl!
I don’t want nobody else,
Without you, there’s no one left then,
You’re like Jordans on Saturday,
I gotta have you and I cannot wait now,
Hey! Little shawty,
Say you care for me,
You know I care for you,
You know…that I’ll be true,
You know that I won’t lie,
You know that I would try,
To be your everything..yeah..
[Bridge:]
’cause if I got you,
I don’t need money,
I don’t need cars,
Girl, you’re my all.
And..
[Chorus]
With you [x5]
Oh..
With you [x5]
Yeah Heh..
[Bridge 2]
And I..
Will never try to deny,
that you’re my whole life,
’cause if you ever let me go,
I would die..
So I won’t front,
I don’t need another woman,
I just need your all and nothing,
’cause if I got that,
Then I’ll be straight
Baby, you’re the best part of my day
I need you boo,
I gotta see you boo
And there’re hearts all over the world tonight,
Said the hearts all over the world tonight [x2]
Woo Oh.. Yeah
They need it boo,
They gotta see their boo,
Said the hearts all over the world tonight,
Hearts all over the world tonight [x2]
[Chorus]
With you [x5]
Girl..
With you [x5]
Oh..
~ carry the weight of the world ~
truth is, most do not really feel the way the world really is, of the useless mind traps, a disconnect reconnect needed, reconnect with purity of the divine True Self within them, and that is easy to do, merely by living each day free as the divine True Self which yearns to Just Be Exceeding Joyfulness, which is a constant feeling shared, when of TRUE emotional honesty connectedness in BEing REAL.
BEing REAL is easy for those who are at ease as their True Self, like we always were, not snared by any of these useless boastful mind traps.
i learned the depth of this when i used to compose and write music back in my youth.
the greatest depth i have connected with in purity of the True Self was when i tuned a quality guitar perfectly, and played a classical(finger picking style), and it resonated deep within me, telling what matters to my True Self, feelings of pure connectedness love within and of within of another, Just BEing your SELF, who you always were and yet are, of healthy self-actualization, which does require work and maintaining, and the wisdom in knowing how(boundaries).
Blessed is the pure loving constant feelings, where music does serve us well, both of the purity of the harmonious resonating of the strings, as well as the constant flowing music does for us, a constant stream which carries us long enough to tune us into what matters of the True Self, long enough to center and ground us, so to speak.
I noticed when i moved to the GLBT ghetto here, that there was a sincere emotional honest searching in the eyes of those of the GLBT, not of cruising, albeit cruising, rather of a deeper sensibility of genuine emotional honesty connectedness with the TRUE SELF, where one can see clearly, those who are well adjusted of the GLBT community are what?
The are of their TRUE SELF, are they not? Where even of whatever age they are, they walk the earth as their beautiful sweet loving REAL SELF of who we always were and yet are.
so yeah, if that is the ‘me’ you are refering to, than simply love ‘me’ like the way i love the REAL ‘me’ of YOU.
blessed BE of this REAL day forever more
blessings to ALL
bless you
thank you God thank you
thank you Jesus thank you
bless you Jesus bless you
bless you bless you bless you
ONLY LOVE is good enough for us ALL
bless you
if you are wondering where i am, i am merely standing on a sidewalk somewhere, just like you, looking skyward, thinking of you, wondering if you are thinking of ‘me’, the same way i constantly yearn for you like i do, praying you do.
ONLY LOVE works for us when LOVE is TRUE.
i know that about my SELF, and i am not afraid of rejection at all, because this is true of us ALL, where no one wants to feel unloved, no, we all are of the constant yearning for the connected constant flowing feelings of the glowing beautiful feeling within of FEELING LOVED and LOVING of SELF within, SELF within another, pure and true, where love devoid of doubt is of the pure 100% surrendering of our own SELF to surrender to our own feelings to love, and when two people do this at the same time, surrendering to their emotional honesty, fearlessly like we do, then the connection with SELF within opens wide, yearning to trust in order for the connectedness of the constant flowing of loving feelings is obvious and true between two, and indeed, when it does open for them, it is magical.
i know the feeling well with many in life, and is why i am pressing to move on, as there are others who yearn for me to.
thank you for your emotional honesty, which i nurture and protect of my own SELF, but if we don’t surrender to it, then someone we may have loved will pass us by eventually.
bless you
http://www.imeem.com/spankmehard/music/mJucpHLe/madonna_ray_of_light_ambient_edit/
big sword eh?
practice this mantra
left kick….HAH!!!!!!
right kick….HAH!!!!!!
back kick…..HAH!!!!!!
front kick…..HAH!!!!!
peace be to you
thank you
bless you
soz busy at work,
smack my ass..
🙂
do you know the mantra?
ok!!!!!!!!
lol
😀 😀
I was thinking when i woke up this morning, best way to overcome my fear’s is to be true to my self, tune into my own inner feelings those feelings that make you cry, like i did this morning, but all within perspective, true, too true.. hey you .. thank you .. thank me .. hey Me .. is good to see .. your welcome to me tree.. in the enchanted forest .. where the fairy’s play ( haha) no no not those fairy’s lol… the one’s with big wing’s and magic dust.. forget the lust .. with LOVE we trust..
with LOVE we trust!!!!!!!!!!!!
and what of the enchanted forest of special uniqueness dwells there oh wondrous one? 😉
and what kind of Tree is it?
it is a solid tree, do you know what type of tree?
when you know, you just know.
if is fearless and free flowing exceeding joyfulness of the divine true self set free from all projected mind traps, living in the NOW, moment to moment, YOU, allowing your SELF to feel what ever you want, of who ever you want, with who ever you want, where at the end of the day, it is YOUR LIFE, of YOUR DECISION CHOICE WILL, of what YOU want, Just ONE Life, for YOU to live as Just BEing YOU…blessed YOU, the divine child of God True SELF YOU.
not my prisoner, nope, i want YOU to BE free to BE YOU at all times, say what you want, do what YOU want, go where YOU want, with who ever YOU want, of who YOU feel most comfortable around, of who YOU truly are of delightful joyfulness with, and they YOU.
YOU and YOUR feelings of each passing moment, each beautiful day you wake to, of exceeding grace, gentle and true, always just YOU, at all times, set free.
YOU are FREE
truth is YOU always were, and for sure, how many free souls are there now around us, WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
how far we have come!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
bless you
i KNOW I GOT OUT MY GYPSY FORTUNE TELLING CARDS LAST NIGHT, ( LIKE TO DO MY OWN READINGS, DON’T LIKE THE TARROT ) it’s just kept saying
WHAT DO I WANT ?
i SAID BACK NO TELL ME WHAT’S GONNA HAPPEN ?
gYPSY said ! WHAT DO YOU WANT ?
I SAID ohh shut up then i get the message ! !!!
DAMN GYPSY CARDS their all worn out from all the Shuffeling.. 🙂
BUT NOT ME,
I”m HERE TO STAY
Anyway so this morning, I tried to read my palm .
( It’s a Palm tree, with big coconut’s btw)
anyway in my palm i saw it all, two big line’s straight down the middle with a few diversion’s along the way there in the past but, hey pain is growth in disguise..
& yer we’ve grown..
must have been that coccoNuT that fell on my head, knocked some sense into me,
prefer the smack on the ass tho 🙂
hear to stay as
YOU
😀 😀
ok so i’m totally Craaaaaaaaaaaaaazy !
you gotta Love it !@!@!@!@!@!@
TWO Pina Colada’s
per favour !
Just BE YOU
the one i love
the one who is loving
the one who constantly yearns
for EXCEEDING HAPPINESS
finally, set free to Just BE YOU
everyday
forever more
JOYFULNESS
LIGHT and TRUE
such a beautiful loving feeling this song evokes of my True Self
http://www.imeem.com/spankmehard/music/mJucpHLe/madonna_ray_of_light_ambient_edit/
like standing on a beach, the breeze, so free in spirit, so pure the loving feelings flow gently of such height, so incredible the delight our feelings of HEAVEN are, allowing our SELF to BE of the gentle true feelings we love to feel, smiling radiant brilliant bright, beaming of the TRUE YOU shining thru in your eyes…ya, i know YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!
😀 😀
!@!@!@!@!@!@
huh?
ah,
would that BE
two virgin Pina Coladas please!
or
two virgin(s)….Pina Coladas please!
lol
Happiness
true of YOU
true of ‘me’
true of YOU&’me’
free to just BE
Happiness
ya I know YOU DO.
I know YOU TO
TRUE sincere LOVE is VIRGIN, never tried it before
i am loving YOU
i am loving ‘me’
i am loving YOU&’me’
i am loving
yes, it is the TRUE YOU, who you always were.
i ask people, “Do you recall when you were yet a virgin?”
they smile…
i say, “Do you recall what you were thinking most of the time while with a girl or a boy?”
the smile some more, knowing the warm feelings they were feeling in recalling…
i say, “You warm loving thoughts were of holding hands and tenderness of kissing, and looking into each others eyes, yes?”
and that is what is of the TRUE SELF, of who we always were and yet are.
The True SELF is exceedingly graceful, pure in spirit of only love, real delicate sensitivity, where we merely need to practice BEing who we TRULY are.
Gentle, mild, peaceful, calm, tender delicateness of exceeding grace, are we not?
i trust you
Truly, Life is our HEAVENLY loving feelings!!!!!!!!!!!
TRUE of what is constant of yearning of the True SELF.
Without doubt, we all yearn to feel LOVED, and to feel LOVING with another.
CONSTANT is a major aspect so many don’t realize is indeed constant of the divine True SELF, where when of clasped hands, we can feel the truth of the hopefulness of sincere pray of the divine True SELF, can we not?
i do
i feel it daily of my True SELF, the constant yearing to feel LOVED, and feel LOVING with ONE of open fearlessness who wants to LOVE us like we do
i want to LOVE and feel LOVED at all times.
CONSTANT refers to two things, 100% free of doubt, and @ all times.
we know that special feeling when we are away from the one we love, the sweet anticipation of the hour when we will greet, oh, we know love is constant.
Constantly Yearning
LOVING outward
LOVED inward
of what is 100% TRUE of YOU
of what is 100% TRUE of ‘me’
of what is 100% TRUE of YOU&’me’
forever more
easily we FEEL the lyrics of this song, of our yearning to shout sing along, do we not?
http://www.imeem.com/people/E1PcNwz/music/c2v-gOxz/nickelback_gotta_be_somebodymp3/
picture 100 people singing with microphones ALL this song at a concert, shouting the pure TRUTH
no body wants to do it on there own!!!
everyone wants to feel that someone cares!!!
there’s gotta be someone for ‘me’ out there!!!
it was playing on the ‘radio’ alarm clock that woke me this morning when it woke me this morning
God bless ChumFm Toronto!!!!!!!!!!!!
way to go Marilyn Roger Darren!!!!!!!!
hey, my Mom’s name is Marilyn!
😀 😀
and we all know Marilyn is the one who truly runs the show you two, so give it up, surrender, she RULES!!!!!!!!!!!
so funny they were this morning, insane, the capacino story, ya, i know what Marilyn was thinking…hilarious!!!
😀 😀
bless you ALL
On to thy OWN SELF BE TRUE
YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
forever more
http://www.imeem.com/people/E1PcNwz/music/c2v-gOxz/nickelback_gotta_be_somebodymp3/
Gotta Be Somebody- Nickelback
This time I wonder what it feels like
To find the one in this life
The one we all dream of
But dreams just aren’t enough
So I´ll be waiting for the real thing.
I’ll know it by the feeling.
The moment when we´re meeting
Will play out like a scene straight off the silver screen
So I`ll be holdin’ my breath
Right up to the end
Until that moment when
I find the one that I’ll spend forever with
`Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.
‘Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There`s gotta be somebody for me like that.
`Cause nobody wants to go it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
Somebody else that feels the same somewhere.
There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.
Tonight out on the street out in the moonlight
And damn it this feels too right
It´s just like Déjà Vu
Me standin’ here with you
So I´ll be holdin`my breath
Could this be the end?
Is it that moment when
I find the one that I spend forever with?
‘Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
‘Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There´s gotta be somebody for me like that.
`Cause nobody wants to go it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
Is there somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.
You can´t give up!
When you’re Lookin´ for a diamond in the rough
Because you never know when it shows up
Make sure you´re holdin` on
‘Cause it could be the one, the one you´re waiting on
‘Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There has gotta be somebody for me
Ohhhhhh.
Nobody wants to go it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
Is there somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There `s gotta be somebody for me out there.
Nobody wants to be the last one there
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Is there somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There has gotta be somebody for me out there.
Every ONE wants to FEEL like some ONE CARES!!!
it is ingrained in the core of every human BEing
and so wonderful is our loving feelings!!!
TRUE
the PRECIOUS LOVING DIVINE CHILD of GOD TRUE SELF YOU
blessings to ALL
Jesus loves ALL God loves ALL We love ALL
God blesses ALL
bless you
blessed are YOU who know your TRUE SELF, so warm inside of your loving feelings indeed, TRUE of YOU.
bless you
hmmm….so quiet
so it’s true!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i fucking knew it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol
😀 😀
YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES
lol
so powerful the feeling hearing 100 people singing this song with microphones.
so incredible the resonating within of all who experience an event such as this, would they not, purely connecting within of what is TRUE of us ALL
Truly, we ALL are of CONSTANT YEARNING of CONSTANT LOVING FEELINGS to FEEL LOVED, of LOVE FEELINGS of and for another.
blessed is the TRUE SELF, yes?
blessed is the PURE TRUE FEELINGS of the TRUE SELF, si?
si
si si si si si you big sisissssys!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol
😀 😀
can you IMAGINE ALL THE PEOPLE?
feeling this kind of event?
i do
easily, i feel the 100 shouting singing, and i feel the ones feeling the Power of LOVE of the ALL, si?
si
si si si si si you big sisissssys!!!!!!!!!!!!
😀 😀
hey, M has the POWER, she could arrange with Nickleback, and 100 singers, even if just one time, oh, the feeling!!!
come on, i dare YOU!!!
i double dare YOU!!!
Just DO it !!!
Just BE your SELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
😀 😀
just make sure you have lot’s of sky cams, and lot’s of lights to capture the smiling faces all jumping for JOY and dancing around, the happy loving lovers there, all of true loving CARE!!!
so incredible the Radiant Brilliant Bright of smiling faces that don’t stop smiling of what the FEEL is TRUE of them ALL.
blessings to ALL
bless you M
bless you
BE FEARLESS!!!!!!!!!!
BE JOYFUL!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BE EXCEEDINGLY JOYFUL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i am
i am…BE Cause we ARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Radiant Brilliant Bright Exceeding Joyful Smiling Laughing Faces, the Power of Love of the ALL, which lifts the ALL, si?
si
si si si si si you big sisissssys!!!!!!!!!!!!
😀 😀 😀 😀
come on, i know you want to
no less than 100 singers
100 is God’s number, as in 100%
when the 1 returns to the other 99 sheep, they become 100%, si?
si
si si si si si you big sisissssys!!!!!!!!!!!!
😀 😀 :D:D 😀 😀 😀 😀
it would make for a great finale for M’s concert tour…
just thinking out LOUD!!!!!!!!!!
lol
😀 😀
Like Rosie….shout it OUT LOUD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
😀 😀
Ok everyone, this is the last song of the tour, and we have special guests of a special surprise for ALL of YOU with us tonight, let’s hear it for Nickleback!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
😀 😀
(shhhhhhhhhhh….M is back stage looking for her boots again, don’t tell her i am here!)
😀 😀
LOVE
if YOU love some ONE, say it is so
lest some ONE, say it is no
and on we go
blessings to ALL
bless you
give thanks to Jesus and God
thank you Jesus thank you
thank you God thank you
bless you Jesus bless you
bless you bless you bless you
sweetest of dreams dreaming lovers dream of the dream lover who dreams the same dream
blessed is this day and the days yet to come
bless you
tic toc tic toc?
bah!
i feel like a lost sheep that misses feeling like i belong
i want always to feel at all times like i belong and loved, always loving……….
Cause nobody wants to go it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
Somebody else that feels the same somewhere.
There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.
Tonight out on the street out in the moonlight
‘Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There has gotta be somebody for me
si?
si
si si si si si you big sissys!!!!!!!!!!
why is it these super stars think they are all that, and if someone like me comes along and feels love for them, they treat me like i am some obsessed fan, not to be listened to, when in truth, it is just my loving self exactly like them, an ordinary person that is loving?
and then when they turn around and i am gone, from growing tired of them ignoring me like they do, thinking it is ok to leave Andy wondering in uncertainty, they actually wonder why i left? duh!
no, you are not some big super star, you are just like everyone of us.
at some point we say goodbye to the world and say hello to heaven of loving lovers embrace of where we all belong.
so for all you out there yet alone, there is someone out there for YOU, but hesitate with me, and you will find your self alone, wondering where the fuck did Andy go?
duh!
you need not wonder
damn, always having to explain to the morons!
😀 😀
Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
There is somebody for me
the REAL thing
i know it by the feeling
The moment when we´re meeting
Will play out like a scene straight off the silver screen
So I`ll be holdin’ my breath
Right up to the end
Until that moment when
I find the one that I’ll spend forever with
when you know
you just know
blessings to all
bless you and those YOU LOVE
Jesus loves ALL God loves ALL We love ALL
God bless ALL
God bless ALL of YOU
bless you
see what happens when i get over tired?
apparently since a boy, any time i am over tired or hungry, i get cranky
rant over
sweet dreams
so it’s just the 4 the zoo, & (you ?)
i just have trouble with it sometime’s, discerning the two world’s, i guess i need to trust my heart, just sometime’s when it is open, all the animal’s try to enter, i am guarded i knowe.
throw me some flesh & blood this tiger’s hungry
It’s very quiet here Tonight 😉
ok
Talk soon everybody
Love & Light, sleep tight 🙂
big asshole you don t see a TIger up to you… get married with Andy child of bullshit
GOOD MORNING MOTHERFUCKERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol
huh? what?
oh whatever
yawn….
ok, let’s get this day off to a correct start…fun, joyful, dance that we all constantly yearn to feel, of what is true of the TRUE SELF…ya, that means YOU, come one, get up, and feel the exceeding joyfulness of another blessed day together once again, and be happy i am yet here. lol
http://www.imeem.com/people/vAV7Jml/music/U_e_GfXa/madonna_ray_of_light_ultra_violet_mix/
i woke this morning with a beautiful calm, relaxed, pure surrendered feeling, that felt connected, i felt complete, whole, like this was it, there is no other way i want to feel than the way i do right now(True Self), of how i will always want feel, as though the future had arrived, and i had woke up in the future, completely happy for where i am of who i am completely, where i want to be, loved by someone forever more…TRUE LOVE….there is nothing beyond this feeling, so pure the sensation feeling in my hands, i felt it in my hands, of complete relaxed surrendered, feeling completely loved by someone, as though they were there, a knowingness feeling without doubt feeling so pure, of my True Self, no longer of any useless absurd motherfucking doubt. lol
good morning
bless you
http://www.imeem.com/angelarivera/music/t7Qmxdzl/madonna_ray_of_light_live_8/
i love love love love the LIVE 8 remix!!!!!!!!!!!!
it has such an upbeat feeling to it, where you cannot help but feel like instantly jumping to your feet and dancing you ass off, so perfectly does it tune into the True Self.
love love love love it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Just BE Your SELF
enjoy all the moments of each blessed day of how, where, when, what, who and of why you CHOOSE of, of YOUR DECISION CHOICE WILL, YOUR LIFE, and remember, YOU only get so many blessed days to enjoy Just BEing YOU
blessed days of blessed HEAVEN feelings!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
‘me’ always wants more of ‘that’
forever more
blessings to all
bless you
Remember!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
EXCEEDING JOYFULNESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
true of YOU
true of us ALL
is the objective
bless you
I wonder if she gets the texts?
Have a good weekend!
so it’s just the 4 the zoo, & (you ?)
i just have trouble with it sometime’s, discerning the two world’s, i guess i need to trust my heart, just sometime’s when it is open, all the animal’s try to enter, i am guarded i knowe.
throw me some flesh & blood this tiger’s hungry
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
ok, i suppose i could try to read between the lines, but why bother?
vagueness = lack of assertiveness, of what uncertainty is
why say anything that is not of 100% TRUTH of feelings of the TRUE SELF?
people really are their own worse enemies
it is a beautiful sunshine day, of forever at play joyfulness of the loving lovers day by day, radiant brilliant bright, of what you want to alway feel of what is to Just BE who YOU always were and yet ARE.
if you are lame with another in BEing indirect of your own thinking within, you betray not only your SELF unwisely, you betray SELF of another in doing so, where in truth, eventually they look at you and ask, What?
huh?
am i wrong to feel it is a waste of time to have to read between the lines?
everyone wants REAL
what is REAL
REAL is someone who fearlessly talks easy simple true words of their sincere emotional honesty they have gracefully surrendered in feeling true of their SELF within, speaking directly with YOU, of simple words like, “so what do you want to do today?”
or “wanna go horse back riding?”
or “let’s go to Tokyo and Hong Kong for the weekend!!!!!!”
or “i want to practice this music piece on guitar in the studio, and tell me what you think of it. Is there some changes you would like to make?”
or “Hey!!!! I need a spa, come on!!!!!!! Let’s spend a few hours in the spa!!!!!!! and then we can go out dancing to some of M’s remixes!!!!!!!!
Life!!!!!!!!
REAL LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!
who does not want to always BE ‘that’?
duh!
lol
😀 😀
fine
i do not want vague uncertainty ever again
so go enjoy whatever and whatever with out ‘me’
i am done with useless vagueness and emptiness of your words
ya, have a good weekend
have a good life
blessings to all
bless you
REAL
i am going to do REAL from now on.
if you want REAL, then BE REAL
eric is right, it is bullshit to keep on like i do, of standing here endlessly.
GET REAL or get lost
i am not going to allow myself to do this blog any more, and i am going to go live REAL from now on, and anyone who approaches me insincerely of not BEing REAL, as in REAL LIFE of the REAL WORLD, well, have fun spinning your wheels by yourself, as i am simply not going to do this ever again.
take care
God bless ALL
those of you who contact me like you do, of BEing REAL with me like you obviously do and (i pray) are REAL, thank you, bless you.
blessings to all
bless you
Jesus loves ALL God loves ALL We love ALL
God blesses ALL
thank you God thank you
thank you Jesus thank you
bless you Jesus bless you
bless you bless you bless you
bless you
ya she got the text, just like i got the words,
should i hide ,
will i change
need some boundaries, i ain’t going to hide, you ain’t gonna run, did’nt really do it, played you right to it..
but now I WILL do it , even though i shouldn’t..
tell me to stop, sort out my
if you were here i would’nt , if we did it, i’d never look the other way, if you wanted me to stay..
excuse me while i go and lie and hide and deceive you would never catch me, i can be a fox i can outsmart the locks, but i’m not gonna lie, wanted a show so gave them a show,
Get REAL
i mean, am i not already
thanks for the unconditional, NOT
im insecure so it’s temporary cure, i’m sick of waiting and anticipating, how many years have i carried these tear’s, until you stay im gonna play so get used to it.. it can be the way you dream it to be, because you know i dream the same dream,
ok so anyway did that fear have less of an impact then say back in August ? good were’ getting somewhere..
now time to fix me, only you up to you,
fuck i’m human, not a monk and computer not very sexy
arwh you frustrate me sometimes,
but i love you so i accept that about you,
..
actually i m not insecure at all quite the opposite, i just thought i throw that one in… so yer anyway .. i love you
yeah i know you do…
however, you fail to realize, you are not the only one who loves me though, and that is what is unfair, seemingly ok to jokingly holding me back from a potential life of exceeding joyful happiness.
you are not even REAL in the REAL world with me…so if you have time, reflect how that makes Andy feel…while i am (yet) here to listen.
i am listening with my heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, one last glace for you to say hello…
forgive me if i am pressed for time, yet at the same time, YOU know only REAL works for YOU, does it not?
have i not been REAL?
have i not been more REAL than most any, one who is more self-actualized than most?
is it not obvious to you how i love YOU 100% without doubt?
i want you to always feel loved at all times, every moment of every blessed day.
i want all to feel loved.
and i want feel loved too.
there is someone who makes me feel loved more than you, and it is not fair that i keep them waiting.
bless you and those you love
bless you
did the picture turn out ok btw ?
you gotta stop this too, you creating you’re own hell, i could say more but perhaps a more appropriate time,
don’t worry i’ll make an angel out of you Devil.. mwah
i do not speak these words to condemn you.
i am merely speaking as one who has paused to speak with you apon life’s road this beautiful day, praying you love is true for me, because i feel that it is.
do you have something to say before i have to go?
do you want to stay awhile longer as who i have always been for you, a true and faithful friend?
our lives are short, and time does not wait for anyone, but i wait for you patiently to speak words of truth with me that you may want to say.
i will wait for as long as you need to find what you want to say…
bless you
yesterday i broke down and cryed, of my pure thoughts of YOU, and said to God, “oh please God, make is so.”
i am a pure spirit for someone to have and to hold in this life.
we all are
please, no useless bitterness, as it is a waste of time, unwise, and untrue of the True Self.
i am here, and you know why i am here
i am a pure child of the light, of what is the opposite of what the voids devoid(hell, devil), so save your mockery of words, as it is a waste of time, and not true of me or you
Nickleback is playing on the radio right now
tic toc tic toc?
and stop breaking things!!!!!!!!!!
lol
😀 😀
one more time I LOVE YOU, ( in case you missed it the first time, ! like you missed it the first time,)
( stop the taxi i wanna get out)
until you stay im gonna play so get used to it..
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
ok…i want to stay
so now what?
i heard YOU the first time…
i am the one who is insecure, which is normal, considering what i went thru this year.
we all need to feel loved, and i need to feel loved by you, where you don’t even contact me in the real world…where i feel a voice in my head saying, if you REALLY loved me, you would contact me….
do you REALLY LOVE ‘me’?
then why do you hesitate when others do not?
is that fair to them?
is that fair to ‘me’?
is that fair to YOU?
EMOTIONAL BLACKMAIL !
it’s not even LAME, it’s
LAST CENTURY ! 12th CENTURY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
what’s that SAYING ?
CAREFUL WHAT YOU WISH FOR !!!
do you LOVE ME ?
you say you want REAL
so do i want REAL
so get REAL
i am REAL
of course i LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!
duh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and it is not emotional black mail for fuck sakes…
someone sincerely 100% of genuine emotional honesty pure and true of their TRUE SELF is in love with me damn it….
fuck….you think the whole world revolves are YOU
ok, so what if it does…
ah for fuck sakes, stop puking…and get back in the cab!
lol
😀 😀 😀
Look I am a child of
God
I need to protect myself
from them
and i did not trust you
until now…
perhaps i am being impatient, but what do you want, another year to make up your fucking mind?
if you don’t know your own emotional truth by now…then i am not the one for you…
ya, i know that…
that is why i am here
ha ha .. we are gonna have so much fun..
wow you know me well…
Listen…
there are many things i have not spoken of that you do not know cognitively yet, of time for you to internalize what what may be of the future, of what is of greatest understanding, but you don’t even give me the time of day some days, and i am like, what the fuck, bored out of my mind most days….you cannot expect me to enjoy where we are yet doing, here at this boring blog, albeit, not entirely boring, albeit boring, not in a bad way boring, boring as in i am late for my spa, my hair is a mess, and i so need a shower.
no we are not going to have any fun, so long as you leave me sitting her feeling like a boring ass jerk, of no contact.
what are you afraid of, i might love you too much, as in 100% every second of every blessed day?
you need a friend right now, and who is a better friend than me, and yet, you do not treat me like a real life friend. HELLO?
i am so not going to wait here for another year, no fucking way, and neither would you.
if you want your freedom for awhile, say to me, Andy, i just need some down time for six months to a year to just relax and be myself.
just don’t call me up in the middle of the night, and expect me to drop my lover and run to you.
at the rate we are going, we won’t ever be together.
how many years now?
you did what Andy? how many years?
ah well, at least we are finally talking about it.
friends first.
let’s try that, shall we?
hi, my name is Andy, and yours?
Paris sounds fine for lunch, and Venice for dinner? ya, sure!
let’s
😀 😀
i had a fantasy about you tonight
so tell me about it sometime…in person damn it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ah, i am one of the most gentle mild exceedingly graceful human beings on the fucking planet, and you treat me like i am some disease, not to come near, which is really irratating the fuck out of me, ok?
fantasy?
what happen in the fantasy?
NO you kept me waiting because you Because you live so much in the material world
now becaUSE loved me so much you wanted to make sure it was real, and build a foundation in HEaven
besides neither of us were ready all that time ago there were lesson’s to learn, im sure it was a mutual choice even though it broke my heart, you know i never thought about you once EVER in that whole time, except when i was forced to ..
but you came back..
ALL THAT STUFF I WROTE TO YOU I DONT EVEN REMEMBER the word’s I WAS POSSESSED by GOD, i dont recal just litle bits and pieces,
I do however REMEMBER standing AGT HEAVEN\’s GATES holding your hand before we were born and turing around to you and saying you go first i’ll meet you down there then giving you one big kick up the ass..
WEL HERE WE ARE TOGETHER AGAIN
Im MARCO
as if you did’nt know
and i brought you a gift !
apparently i refused to leave HEaven so i tied myself to the GATES and so guess what ?
the only way to get me down heere was to take HEaven with me, only kidding I came to see you and yes i still brought heaven with me !
my gift to you
for Jumping first and taking my short’s with you..
do you know how embarasing that was standing there naked for all to see
NO you kept me waiting because you Because you live so much in the material world
perhaps to an extent, but deeply of my true self, this is not true. LOVE is what matters 100% the most. Please don’t toss the past in my face like this, as it is not true of me, and i will leave for another if you believe this to be true of me, for someone who wants to merely love me every second of every day.
you cleared the way, you lit the path all on your own
i cry over that often
the one you LOVE so much
you did it for me i know you did
the WORLD might revolve around ME
AND YOU ARE MY WORLD
do you know how embarasing that was standing there naked for all to see
ya, i know the scripture you are refering to, and i am pleased that you understand it fully, of the exceeding joyfulness and what comes with it, 100% fearlessness of solid self-esteem.
ok. You are wise in the scripture, internalized of the words. Excellent.
We are here with one another in HEAVEN, of the free flowing feelings of what HEAVEN is, exceedingly joyful radiant brilliant bright illumination of heart, mind, body, spirit and soul as ONE.
i am pleased.
and borded out of my mind!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hurry up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
You are hilarious, and so pure in spirit, so connected i feel of your precious loving brilliance that shines way brighter than i first saw in you, WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so beautiful the feeling flowing and flowing with YOU.
forgive me
you cleared the way, you lit the path all on your own
i cry over that often
the one you LOVE so much
you did it for me i know you did
the WORLD might revolve around ME
AND YOU ARE MY WORLD
You MEan the World to ME
Without you I am with you
With you I am you
you & me
we
ARE
ONE
no, we are on opposite sides of the fucking planet Marco, as much as i want to BE ONE of tangled bodies with you daily, you are not with ‘me’, you are on the other side of the planet!!!!!!!!!!!!!
albeit, you are with ‘me’, as in, within my heart, mind, spirit and soul, just try working on the BODY will ya?!!!!!!!!!!!!
arggh….you watch, fucking January will be here, and still no Marco!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
well, i warn you, i am not waiting that long, and if you ignore me too much, for sure that time will come sooner rather than later….i hate being ignored…..i need to feel loved.
if you love someone, you cannot wait to see them, when love is true, so stop fucking pretending with me, ok?
and yes, i am getting bored with this blogging, greatly so, if you must know…..
bless you
this is my favorite song of M’s
http://www.imeem.com/angelarivera/music/t7Qmxdzl/madonna_ray_of_light_live_8/
i love how she apologizes, so sweetly, and then the golden cirlce, and in come the instruments, instantly lifting up to a much higher platitude.
Madonna is a MAGICAL CHILD of TRUE LOVING LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!
100%
God bless Madonna!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
have you heard this LIVE 8 recording Marco?
what !
you are forgiven, although im not sure why you did everthing right
Venice it is !
that is where the river of music flow’s through
like the gentle warm flow of love
through our heart’s
ok…the bridge is build, and solid enough now…it should hold long enough for it to cure(harden).
alright, i am yet waiting, but you better not be jerking me along, and i don’t feel you are, of sincerity.
i respond to sincerity ok?
alright, i give you an extention, but not a fucking year, ok?
fuck…on and on and on, so easy for me to get distracted you know?
i am so not going to speak with you if you play me for a fool.
argh…i can’t believe i am doing this for you…fuck…i said i wouldn’t, feeling i had already over extended myself to you far too long…as far as the REAL LIFE REAL WORLD issue goes, still sitting here, BORED out of my mind!!!!!!!!!!!!
not entirely, i love writing the disertations and expanding on them. I have a lot of work you have not seen yet….
you better not be lying to me Marco.
bless you
AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!
i love how the instruments come in after she says, “Is this the Golden Circle?”
pure spiritual power!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
you are SO going to love love love love the writings i have for you!!!!!!!!!!
years of it!!!!!!!!!!
all of pure truth wisdom
my life’s work
M?
please don’t delete this blog yet…i don’t have a copy of my writings here…
make copies of it first before you delete this blog, should you decide to, and get me a copy of it, as i want to expand on the writings in a more intricate way of many missing macro thinking elements, and put it in a chronological flowing order that flows into and connects to the next.
thank you
bless you
ya, I LOVE YOU
same as i always have…PURE and TRUE
i am just irritated in missing you daily, hourly…
go do the stuff you need to do today,
i leave you be..
YOU FIX THIS SEPARATED=NESS DISTANCE THING,
I’LL GET BUSY KEEPING IT TOGETHER.
THEN NEXT TIME WE CAN SWAP
come to my birthday,
could you be more normal and speak like normal people please?
do you want candles on the fucking birthday cake or no candles?
fuck, i really really really hate this retarded, oh, let’s play mystery fucking puzzle number 1,9675!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
would you please stop, as i really dread it, ok?
i feel like i am in an institution talking randomly with the patients at the sitting in the cafeteria.
huh?
i have no fucking idea what you are talking about…
no…don’t explain…just be fucking normal, will you.
that is my final warning…i am not going to do this fucking insanity thing….arghhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!
is there any ordinary people in this fucking planet?
i am tempted to leave, each and every time you act like this…
and if you don’t do the contact thing soon, i am going to leave…and i am not going to warn you, i will just decide enough is enough, you don’t really give a fuck for my sanity.
over extended yourself too much already..
uhm, did i read that correctly
Lie’ing to you ?
I think i’ve heard enough..
goodbye…
look me up in a year
no, you will not see me in a year…i am not waiting that long for you
so say goodbye, as there is one who is exceedingly loving of me, a soulmate lover
and you are unbelievably naive to think i would wait that long…
you are not 100% truly loving of me in saying next year…so i should say goodbye, ok?
someone who truly loves me hourly is waiting for me, and they make me feel 100% loved at all times.
you are so friggin high on yourself…a year?
are you for real?
i will not be there ok?
i want to get married, and indeed, i am spiritual married of another, and others….
truly, are you for real?
i have been here two years, and no real world contact, no, “hey Andy, let’s go for lunch!”
are you for real in thinking i will be there for you a year from now?
i will not wait that long…nope…no fucking way…
in truth, now i am doubtful of your love for me, because people who truly are 100% loving cannot wait to be together.
what planet are you from anyway…
i am feeling now that you are not loving of me like i perhaps thought, knowing when love is 100% true, they would not ever say something like that, expecting someone to wait a year….
you do not love me….just words to you
hmmmm…… you are thinking of someone else….
i am not the ONE for you
ok….goodbye
i will not look you up in a year
goodbye
the fact that you think it is ok to say that to me, look me up in a year?
soulmate lovers do not ever say things like this to each other
goodbye
Flippant
definition:
someone you chat with for two years daily on internet, who does not invite you to real world contact with you, and tosses you another year to enjoy of no contact with you, because you got upset with them over the two years of no contact.
If that is what love is to you, thanks, but no thanks.
you are not the one for me
i am not the one for you
there are egos, and then there are egos…
if true love is true between two, love disarms both completely, of their only desire, to BE of HEAVEN each moment of each blessed day…
if you do not turn towards your loving feelings for someone, then don’t expect them to love you back, as we are of desire for simultaneous feelings of feeling LOVED and LOVING, of what HEAVEN is
blessings to all
BE wise, lest unwiseness derails your own loving life.
There is some ONE for every ONE
and when you know
you just know
both of you know by how HEAVEN feels within you both, 100% true of the divine child of God True Self of both, dwelling of what HEAVEN is, pure and true.
i really am shocked by how some people think it is ok to be so belittling and well, just plain lacking of descerning thought, or seemingly even care to lovingly think…ah well, their loss.
i just won’t tolerate it….where no one should…absurdness is absurdness….
oh, i am so wrong in being upset for waiting to years…ya right, and they are so right in tossing me another year….
well…i won’t be there, as i am leaving for another folks…take care….God bless.
i am just a lier & you’ve held out to long already for me..
im not going to contact you, i might bumb into you one day on the street, but knowing me after a have spoken for a while and been normal and had a fun moment with you i most likely will turn my back towards you like i always do and vanish into the eather, leaving you wondering.
yer look best you just forget about me..
besides you have so many other loving souls who desire to be with you.. like you said,… their all your soul mate’s their always your soul mate until they part anyway…
I could’nt possible be obviously not…
it was true love,
this blog corrupted it..
the blog’s not real, & the fact that it belongs to someone else, well it’s very rude of me to be hijacking it like i do/did, did I ? .. i tried my best not too, i don’t feel i did..
& the time i have spent here i could have been working for disadvantaged and others in need..
time for me to focus on REAL issues in the world
yer this blog has been about my EGO that is true, i agree
but i leave wiser than when i came.
Am i am sure M will be glad to see the back of me clogging up her thread with Lies and cry’s, half harted tries.. yer
see ya Andy ..
i am going now off to heal as many as i can, i have delayed to long through my own selfish desire’s to appease my ego.. go back to Rodrigo or Matt of the Indian Girl or David John and Frank, whichever one it was that you met in the GETTO , they changed daily so i have trouble remembering.
I need to be with someone who’s hand i can hold, so i can feel the warmth of their body, not just and Alt Cntr Enter key, and all the letters of the alphabet & numbers 1 2 & 3
one must let go of the past so they can embrace the future
with this blog of the past i bid my farewell
& in this moment i cherish the thought
of the future Love, with a heartbeat and hand
draw a fucking line in the sand..
seriously
Blog’s not healthy, for the mind body & soul..
Good Bye EVERYONE
I LOVE EVERYONE
God bless Everyone
your welcome to my party everyone, but don’t expect an invite..
Mirror Mirror on the wall, who’s the sexyest of them all ?
huh ?
Mirror Mirror on the wall, who’s got the biggest heart of them all ?
Huh ?
Mirror Mirror on the wall, who’s the smartest of them all ?
huh ?
Mirror Mirror on the wall, who’s the most honest of them all?
huh ?
Mirror Mirror on the wall, who’s the most spiritual of them all?
huh ?
Mirror Mirror on the wall, I can see right through you !
HUH ! WHO .. YOU !
hey you!!lol STILL GOING???ARENT YOU ASHAMED?????WHAT A FUCKING FRAUD
Nah not still going, I’ve gone, i left when i got a whiff of your Hypocrisy. perhaps you were to protective of your own feelings to notice.
anyway at least now i know the truth.. you do have feelings..
it’s just a shame, you allow your fear’s to suppress the emotions to such an extent. then try to regain control by suppressing the fear,
viscous circle really, Almost a Self imposed PRISON.
so much for setting your soul free..
good luck finding the KEY to your PRISON CELL..
Im done with Vampires
half hearted attempt indeed, and so many untrue words of the SELF, not true of you, not true of me at all, thinking maybe you knew me like you said…
the prison of the divine child of God True SELF, is any thing which goes against the sincere purity of the constant emotional honesty of your divine child within for you to allow them out and Just BE what YOU constantly yearn to BE,
allowed to BE;
fun loving
exceeding joyfulness
free of inappropriate others
free of useless negative thought that leads to no where, and certainly not ever ‘me’
free to express
free to be the delicate sensitivity
true in exceeding gracefulness
free to BE LOVED and LOVING of another
so many Wondrous Extraordinary Beautiful things about YOUR divine child of God TRUE SELF, are there not?
look…we are all the same inside, ok, i am merely trying to help free your beautiful spirit, the one i love.
Listen…in TRUTH, everyone is ALWAYS FREE to exit from relationships which are half hearted, abusive, not fun any more, or anything that YOU feel is making you feel toxic.
truly i am not here to make you feel toxic, knowing how much i love YOU, no, i am here as the true and faithful friend i always have been, not afraid to tell you the TRUTH about what you need to hear, of what may be things you are yet learning….
forgive me if at times i am of transference…it was not my intention, and i too have many issues i am working thru in therapy…but calling people vampires? that’s just childish immature…
i extend my hand to you as a true and faithful friend, knowing i always wanted more, and without doubt, i likely always will, but i too need to feel LOVED by someone, and that is the only thing that TRULY WORKS for us, is it not?
We ALL CONSTANTLY YEARN to FEEL LOVED, and to FEEL LOVING with another.
It is a constant yearning of your divine child of God True SELF within, while of clasped hands, where anyone can feel the TRUTH of this while sitting alone, your divine child of God True SELF sitting there, CONSTANTLY YEARNING to FEEL LOVED and FEEL LOVING with another….CONSTANTLY at all times ideally.
so why say anything unloving, where anything unloving is NOT TRUE of your beautiful precious loving divine child of God TRUE SELF?
i won’t ever stop loving you, as it is not possible, just as i cannot BE anything other than what is TRUE of my divine child of God TRUE SELF, constantly yearning to BE the TRUTH of his feelings to feel LOVED and LOVING with others…
TRUE of YOU
TRUE of ‘me’
TRUE of YOU&’me’ of us ALL
but fail to make ‘me’ FEEL LOVED, and for sure, i will leave for another, always i am FREE to do so at all times.
see…i am not a prisoner of anyone, nor of my own mind which is obviously of PURITY of wisdom for sake of my precious divine child of God True SELF, am i not?
are these words not the PURE TRUTH of YOU?
are these words not the PURE TRUTH of ‘me’?
are these words not the PURE TRUTH of my LOVE for YOU, just as they are for ‘me’?
so do i TRULY LOVE YOU, or do i not?
Truly, i love YOU
Truly, i love ‘me’
Truly, i will always love YOU&’me’ of us ALL
TRUTH WISDOM meant for the divine child of God True SELF, for those of you who are still paying attention….to these words meant ONLY as LOVE for YOU, paying attention to the True Emotional Honesty of YOU, of your own divine child of God True SELF, just as i pay attention to mine, of what he constantly yearns for of you, your LOVE.
Give ‘me’ LOVE
i YEARN ONLY for LOVE
ONLY LOVE is good enough for Jesus
ONLY LOVE is good enough for YOU
ONLY LOVE is good enough for ‘me’
ONLY LOVE is good enough for ALL
ONLY WISDOM is good enough for Jesus
ONLY WISDOM is good enough for YOU
ONLY WISDOM is good enough for ‘me’
ONLY WISDOM is good enough for ALL
ONLY COMPASSION is good enough for Jesus
ONLY COMPASSION is good enough for YOU
ONLY COMPASSION is good enough for ‘me’
ONLY COMPASSION is good enough for ALL
ONLY TRUTH is good enough for Jesus
ONLY TRUTH is good enough for YOU
ONLY TRUTH is good enough for ‘me’
ONLY TRUTH is good enough for ALL
Truly, i come to YOU FULL HEARTED, do i not?
Truly i come in the name of LOVE, COMPASSION, WISDOM, do i not?
so who am i?
do you know ‘me’ like Jesus and God know ‘me’?
and have i warned you not to approach my halo with useless absurd bitter enticing of cajoling hypocrisy, how many times now?
are you listening(feeling) my words for sake of YOU?
or do you look apon ‘me’ yet as a fool, when i truth, you know fully, i am not a fool, am i?
do you know ‘me’?
do you know who i am?
am i not LOVING of YOU, making you feel LOVED?
i am…BE Cause…We ARE…LOVING, making YOU feel LOVED, of what HEAVEN is.
so please, bring forth ‘that’ which i know as true of YOU ALL, ‘that’ which is constantly yearning of your divine child of God True SELF, lest i have to leave and return another two thousand years from now again….
lol
and no…i am not Jesus….i am his twin brother Judas
lol
no…i jest…my name is Andy, someone who loves Jesus with all that i am, beyond any of you motherfuckers….you get used to ‘me’, merely by trusting ‘me’ 100%, as in trust the ‘me’ of YOU 100%, you morons!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
😀 😀
and please, spare you shortsighted half heartedness for another blog please, as these are words of Jesus and God, where any who ridicule these words, make a mockery only of your SELF, the divine child of God True SELF of ALL of YOU, which i have come to know the TRUTH about, TRUE of ‘me’, TRUE of Jesus, TRUE of ALL of YOU.
ONLY LOVE from now on, ok?
i don’t respond well to anything other than love…i get a rash from anything other than love, and i usually leave the room feeling toxic, so please, i am only deserving of 100% LOVE, which i know is true of YOU, true of ‘me’, true of the ‘me’ of ALL of YOU.
ok…from the top…say to ‘me’, I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
bless you
blessings to ALL
bless you
So i am going to say it again.
ARE YOU FUCKING READY???!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
http://www.imeem.com/angelarivera/music/t7Qmxdzl/madonna_ray_of_light_live_8/
fuck!
good thing someone around here uses their fucking brain!!!
lol
ok, say it!!!!
OMG …..he’s back!!!!!!!!!!!
ya, where the fuck am i going to go?
the planet is only so big you know….
i know, you stay one side of the planet, and i stay on the other?
lol
😀 😀
Remember the RULE, God’s RULE;
ONLY TRUTH LOVE COMPASSION and WISDOM is good enough for ‘me’, si?
si
si si si si si si you bunch of big sisissys!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol
😀 😀
do i annoy you?
forgive ‘me’, it’s just ‘that’….well…..my love is TRUE for YOU, is it not?
hello?
oh come on, i know you still love ‘me’
you just don’t trust ‘me’ well enough, ‘that’s all.
but i know you want to, and i give you no reason not to, do i?
i am attractive, am i not?
and i have a pure heart too?
and my love is true for you?
and it’s true, you love ‘me’ too?
😀 😀
just when you thought you got rid of ‘me’, no, we have to share this planet together YOU moron!!!!!!!!!!
and it is big enough for us both!!!
lol
😉 😀
and no, that was not a sex joke….
ok…it was a sex joke!!!
shhhhhssh……you people are so uptight!!!!
blessings to ALL this blessed day of revelation, as in, i reveal to YOU, just how much of a moron you really can be sometimes….
lol
goog thing ‘me’ loves the ‘me’ of YOU?
si
😀 😀
peace be to this house
peace be to you
bless you
and if you fuck this up…i am so not going to speak to you!!!!!!!!
for at least a week….
come on!!!!!!!!!!
we are late!!!!!!!!!!
the parade starts soon!!!!!!!!!!!!
😀 😀
‘that’s what friends are for everyone…..
to kick your sorry ass when it needs to be kicked!!!!!!!!!!
lol
😀 😀
truly, i am 100% fearless ok?
and emotions is what is of most value to my life, pure and true.
and i am not of any prison of the mind, as i do not allow anyone to be of toxic prisoning of my spirit and soul, rather i have come to free those from the bitter prisons, have i not?
and do you know why i am fearless?
come on, think about it for a moment?
ah, yes, you remember!!!!!!!!
indeed, i am well…….
😀 😀
i am the most beautiful stallion in the field, and i love ‘me’….
apparently, a few love ‘me’ besides you….
so don’t ever treat ‘me’ badly, and we’ll be fine…more than fine actually….
blessed are those who come fully into knowing their TRUE SELF
bless you
anyway…just thought i would stop by and say hello…
Ciao
blessed is the ONE who wins Andy’s heart….
here is a hint….you all WIN Andy’s heart, merely by BEing YOU.
BE TRUE TO YOU
BE LOVING
BE LOVED
BE JOYFUL
BE EXCEEDINGLY JOYFUL
so me and my partner can feel HAPPINESS ALL THE TIME!!!!!!!!!!
24/7
especially of the spa
oh how we love the spa, si?
si
si si si si si you big sisisys!!!!!!!!!
😀 😀
i am of the WILL for feeling LOVED and LOVING
toss anything other my way that is not conducive for my feeling LOVED and LOVING, and i pass you by on the road of LOVING LIFE.
and yes, i am always there, every year, just as i always WILL BE Done on earth, ‘that’ which HEAVEN is…’me’!!!!!!!!!!!!
especially of the spas!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BE HAPPINESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
for i am HAPPINESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and my partner is HAPPINESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hmmmm….where did my partner go?
HEY!!!
I LOVE YOU!!!!!!
si?
si
bless you
I’m here.
(Well, in Fforestfach Library).
X
im sorry….
please…to lose your friendship is too much for me, of what would just be so wrong, absurd of us both to simple not be what we have been for so long, like Rosie is, family
im sorry….
please….forgive ‘me’
i mean you no bitterness, only nurtureing love, only protective wisdom, only compassionate feelings, only truth, ‘that’ which HEAVEN is, of Jesus, of God, of YOU, of ‘me’, of the ‘me’ of us ALL, the precious pure loving divine child of God True SELF of us ALL.
bless you and those you love
peace be to you
peace be the house of God’s love and peace forever more
bless you
i have alot of useless stressors in life right now, career loss, divorce, bankruptcy, court, and somehow i have held onto what always gets me thru, love of my divine child of God, to be free of any and all useless absurdness of unwise mind traps which do indeed feel like a prison for the divine child of any of us, where all the divine child is of constant yearning to feel LOVED and feel LOVING as all times of another and others.
forgive me
i really lose it somedays…so stupid i am at times with you, of going against how much i sincerely love you, my tears telling me today the truth, i love you with all that i am, and the music is what HEAVEN is for ‘me’
http://www.imeem.com/spankmehard/music/mJucpHLe/madonna_ray_of_light_ambient_edit/
oh how i love her music for so many years
we all do
like shes screams out
“And i feel!!!!!!!!!!!!”
HEAVEN is your feelings
hey, did anyone give a call to Nickleback yet?
just curious…
God summons ALL to wisdom
ALL are invited
rather silly to think 100% TRUTH is anything other than what is of goodness of and for the precious pure loving divine child of God True SELF of us ALL, is it not?
100% PURE TRUTH…that is not able to fail, albeit, fail of many to embrace ‘that’ which is TRUE of us, si?
si
Subconsciously, the precious pure loving divine child of God True SELF, is of seeker mode, even if we are not of cognitive knowingness awareness of the subtle truth of the constant emotional awareness of the our own divine child which is indeed, constantly of yearning, not ever letting go, of hopeful sincere 100% pure primal subconscious knowingness awareness to constantly feel and BE of feel LOVED and feel LOVING with and of another and others.
of hands tightly clasped, we are able to come into full awareness knowingness cognitively of this TRUTH, indeed, the sweet loving precious divine child of God True SELF of us ALL, is of CONSTANT YEARNING and hopefulness or prayer, seemingly knowingly, yes?…that to feel LOVED and feel LOVING AT ALL TIMES, is what the divine child is of knowingness, are we not?
i feel this while of the experiential introspection of my divine child, where of the tightly clasped hands, he knows 100%, always of not ever letting go of his hope to one day feel LOVED and LOVING at all times with someone and others.
i embrace the truth of this introspection 100% in acknowledging my divine child within, of 100% saying, yes, you shall always be of my respect(as the adult parent of ‘me’) to BE one day of only feeling LOVED and LOVING with some ONE who i will select for YOU, and they ‘me’
it is not therefore a subconscious knowingness awareness for ‘me’ any more, rather of deliberate, diligent, dedicated, determined, devoted awareness in seeking a partner who is of likemindedness of healthy approach to what is truly of healthy conducive environment for exceeding joyfulness happiness to thrive for both, spirits set free to Just BE the truth of what is of the divine child, constant yearning to constantly feel LOVED and LOVING of another and others.
and in so of knowingness awareness of this to BE 100% truth of ‘me’, then it is 100% truth of the ‘me’ of ALL of us.
and that is where it stops and starts apon gracefully entering fully into the halo shield of protective wisdom, where indeed, it is required of us to surrender to what is true of the divine child, exceeding grace, unhurried, able to be of the graceful slow introspective reflection, where indeed, gracefulness is required(scripture speaks of grace required), where one can easily embrace fully 100% the truth of this, that in order to be of the discerning wisdom in slowing before speaking and BE of our discerning feelings in selecting of *CORRECT WISE WORDS*, of what Jesus refers to as *CONTROLLED TONGUE*, such as my deliberate focus apon truth reflections i write about, where indeed, is what is of the halo, both of reflection of what we see, hear, feel around us, as well as of reflection of what not to be in outward appearance, like Jesus says, “Do not do what you despise.”
Truly we feel the uncomfortable feelings of unBEcoming unwise conduct of others apon others, devoid of love, and yet, so many of us yet conduct ourselves in say hypocrisy ways(including me at times), of what is not true of the divine child of God True SELF of any of us.
the discerning of TRUTH, is what is of the halo, where it is our feelings which is the of detection defense shield, like hot or cold, ok, not ok, where more than just our feelings is required, our descerning of TRUTH using our minds, and setting of boundaries for example, is what is of the adult parent protection halo for sake that the divine child True SELF is able to BE found of the more conducive enviroments to thrive and grow in…..
ok…class dismissed
HEY?
are we still on for Venice?
just wandering…
😉 😀
i fucking love love love love this golden cirlcle instant jump to higher platitudes of this song!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
http://www.imeem.com/angelarivera/music/t7Qmxdzl/madonna_ray_of_light_live_8/
that is the aim for future music composing, to focus on the jump from mundane to the higher platitude which is more of purity of truth the divine child True Self we know is constantly yearning to BE of, constant of feeling LOVED and LOVING with and of another and others.
something one can slow down and experiment with in the studio, of deliberate approach such as that presented in this incredible piece of Madonna and other’s composition.
EXCELLENT work!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
blessings to ALL you and those you love
bless you
sorry everyone…my writing is not on par with that of a University student, abit hurried in appearance(not smooth flowing, fractured abit), of what is of my stream of conscious introspection, flowing, stuttering…i really need to take some courses in writting…
but at least i get the point across…
indeed i am of a waundering spirit apon the earth, constantly of introspection of SELF within and SELF of another apon all i meet along life’s road of strangers, abeit, strangers we are not within, ablet, seemingly strangers we are in outward unBEcoming conduct not true of our emotional honesty at times, of slowing into the truth of the natural grace of the divine child within, where even the babbling idoits(of my compassion), such as the racist skinheads, for example, reveal the truth of the condition of their soul(deranged unwise bitterness mind traps), so appalling they are, are they not?
and of those of wise University wise likeminded introspective OPEN discussion of humble students i am most loving of in life, where we openly speak of any and all input with one another in our ever expanding on issues as pertains to the alignment of spirituality with psychology(obviously my favorite field of study), where we invite any and all input of any, so please, feel free to speak freely of input, as i curious zeal is of my passion to unlock the mystery of the halo, which i feel is of a more pure grace that is of primal purity, more so than the mere findings and probing in psychology, of primal evolution of our brains, such as the theory of both male/female innate sexual behaviour of the brain of both the male and female, which makes more sense to me, of one who has fearlessly unlocked the door into the other sex of my homosexual life style of the past 20 years….truly, Andy knows the truth of himself, si !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
si
😀 😀
M?
do you want me to stop posting on your blog?
it is your blog, and i do feel i have taken it over, but then again, you are not posting any more, so i just felt, hey, why not entertain those who are yet here?
i suppose i really am a fearless bugger, in that regard, but hey, we have had some fearlessly funny moments, si?
si si si si sisssyss is everywhere si si si si?
si
lol
feelings of LOVE keep growing in me, more and more each day passing……..
i know i have the same depth of loving spirit and soul of M, and i feel that is our connection, likeness, sameness, in purity of sincere flowing love feelings that overwhelm me somedays, in a good way, pure of loving feelings of feeling LOVED and LOVING of her, of ALL.
i love that about my SELF, and SELF of her and others, of what i feel is what is more valuable than all the riches of the world, the purity of connectedness that is growing in the world, knowing the future is growing of this, of reflections of the road we have walked apon for so long, where best of all, the continued growing is yet growing within us all, and how beautiful the future world is and will BE of so many when we arrive in pure fearlessness of our state of minds, of sameness that i know is true of us all, albeit, unwise indifferences do pervade, and yet, emotional depth is true of us all in life experiences…
i pray you are transition well today from your recent break up, and i feel for all involved, of my prayers for all of you.
bless you all during this difficult transition of growth along life’s road, praying love for you all along the road of life yet to come.
blessed are those who come fully into knowingness awareness of the divine True SELF
bless you
We are consciously/subconsciously seeking the REAL THING.
without question, the only way we can BE of the REAL THING, is by Just BEing the REAL SELF in doing so, cognitively rather than subconsciously seeking, where introspection reveals the pure 100% TRUTH of the REAL SELF to us of the constant emtional yearning of the precious pure loving divine child of God True REAL SELF within us all.
Once of cognitive REAL connectedness of constant flowing of pure sincere emotional honesty 100%, then we can feel thru those who are comfortable for us in our DECISION CHOICE WILL of those we invite and set boundaries for us, as wise adult parents for sake of our inner divine child in which to thrive of what we know is constant yearning of the REAL SELF….HAPPINESS, JOYFULNESS, FEARLESSNESS, LOVE devoid of doubt, which is possible while of those who are of commitment of surrender heart, mind, body, spirit and soul to what is of more value than all the riches of the world, indeed, of what is of conducive environment of healthy wise descerning to be found of, for sake of the positive mental emotional well BEing of our precious pure loving divine child of God True REAL SELF…
‘me’ !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol
😀 😀
si?
si
Any ONE can si ‘me’ any time they ‘feel’ like ‘me’, si?
si
😉 😀
somebody say YES damn it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol
😀 😀
oh ya…somebody did already…sorry…….
bless you
you are LOVED by ‘me’ who is LOVING, si?
si
😀 😀
bless you bless you bless you
Jesus loves ALL God loves ALL We love ALL
God blesses ALL
BE wise
BE happy
BE joyful
BE true
BE compassionate, not other-oriented, overly conforming
BE honest
BE loyal
BE loving
BE loved
BE of the spa…lol
BE of grace
BE of tenderness
BE of sincerity
BE of gentleness
BE authentic self, not mask self
BE genuine, not as-if
BE spontaneous, not planning plodding
BE expansive, fearless, not contracting fearful
BE giving, communicative, not withholding
BE accepting of self and others, not envious, critical, idealized, perfectionistic
BE loving unconditional(free), not loving conditional(expectation binding)
BE of free feeling all feelings, not suppressed deny or hide feelings(including long-held resentment)
BE assertive, not aggressive and/or passive
BE intuitive, not rational, logical
BE your inner child within fearless freeness, not overdeveloped parent/adult scripts childish immaturity
BE of need to play and have fun, not avoiding play and fun
BE vulnerable, not pretends to be strong
BE powerful in true sense, not limited power
BE trusting(wisely so, in descerning), not distrusting
BE enjoyment of being nurtured, not avoidance of being nurtured
BE surrendering, not controlling and withdrawing
BE self-indulgent, not self-righteous
BE simplifying, not complicating “is rational”
BE of want to BE REAL, connect, experience, create, love, not want to be right, control and win, telling us the opposite of what we truly want and need( a hand to hold, tenderness, truth of our true exceeding grace of REAL SELF we sometimes hide from others)
BE non-defensive, with occasion use of ego defense as deemed appropriate with incoming others, not always defensive, closed off, afraid to be self with others, speculative energy wasting of time, not living
BE connected to higher power(trueness of graceful self, fearlessly, not believing it is higher power, fearFUL mongering of others…God is not of unwise fear
BE open fearlessly to the subtle unconscious feelings, not fearful blocking of unconscious flowing of subtle feelings
BE remembrance of our ONEness, not forgetful of our ONEness, feeling serparate at times(we all naturally do this from time to time, depending on life circumstances of stressors that come along).
BE free to grow(of healthy select conducive environments, not tendency of acting out unconscious often painful patterns repeatedly(projection identitifications)
BE private self often(unafraid), not public self often(uptight, afraid, not real of our mild exceeding gracefulness that is without fear, like when we fall asleep, just being YOU, for example)
from CO-DEPENDENCE
healing the Human Condition
The New Paradigm for Helping Professionals and People in Recovery
by
Charles L. Whitfield, M.D.
~ my personal favorite writer in the field of mental health
blessings to all
bless you
Just BE your SELF
a moment of joy for you…
Reve(a)lFULLation!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ZealFULLation!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SealFULLation!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ApealFULLation!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Cele*brat*ion!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ya…i am a brat, i know.
lol
a brat who loves YOU
i promise to “oh behave!!!”……..
😀 😀
bless you
‘that’ of what HEAVEN is…YOU&’me’…a positive conducive environment for both of us to thrive 100% in of what matters to our divine child True SELF, their constant yearning to BE of feelings of BEing LOVED and to feel LOVING of each other at all times.
si?
si
of the only thing that works for the REAL SELF
“as tears run down from my eyes…can anybody find ‘me’ somebody to LOVE?”
God bless the Champion of spirit Freddie Mercury, and all we who are indeed, Champions of heart, mind, body, spirit and soul forever more.
blessings to all
bless you
i promise to “OH BE HAVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”
‘me’ !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol
😀 😀
no one can ever say Andy did not try….
I understand all of the above, i clearly do however if applied to real life situation it would have purpose, but the reality is this is not real life, i don’t do online relationships, i may as well have a relationship with in inanimate object like my fridge or something at least it wont answer back or get upset with me, no seriously like i said this blog is counter productive to me, today i am off to visit the children s cancer ward , far more productive don’t you think. Anyway i just stopped by to let you know that & the reasons why i am focusing my time in those area’s as apposed to rambling on here. out of courtesy to you, i did not want you to think i have vanished because of what was said, not at all.. it’s just now time for me to get on with it, real life ambition’s, thank’s for everything,
http://www.imeem.com/people/E1PcNwz/music/c2v-gOxz/nickelback_gotta_be_somebodymp3/
Gotta Be Somebody- Nickelback
This time I wonder what it feels like
To find the one in this life
The one we all dream of
But dreams just aren’t enough
So I´ll be waiting for the real thing.
I’ll know it by the feeling.
The moment when we´re meeting
Will play out like a scene straight off the silver screen
So I`ll be holdin’ my breath
Right up to the end
Until that moment when
I find the one that I’ll spend forever with
`Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.
‘Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There`s gotta be somebody for me like that.
`Cause nobody wants to go it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
Somebody else that feels the same somewhere.
There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.
Tonight out on the street out in the moonlight
And damn it this feels too right
It´s just like Déjà Vu
Me standin’ here with you
So I´ll be holdin`my breath
Could this be the end?
Is it that moment when
I find the one that I spend forever with?
‘Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
‘Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There´s gotta be somebody for me like that.
`Cause nobody wants to go it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
Is there somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.
You can´t give up!
When you’re Lookin´ for a diamond in the rough
Because you never know when it shows up
Make sure you´re holdin` on
‘Cause it could be the one, the one you´re waiting on
‘Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There has gotta be somebody for me
Ohhhhhh.
Nobody wants to go it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
Is there somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There `s gotta be somebody for me out there.
Nobody wants to be the last one there
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Is there somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There has gotta be somebody for me out there.
God bless Nickleback
bless you
real life ambition’s
i guess you could say, YOU are my real life ambition’s
praying i was yours too….?
what happened? a change of heart?
is that what i am to understand?
ok….fine, if that is what you want….i understand…..eventually….
bless you
a real friend…
+
and please…do not call words of Jesus and God ramblings, as thou of no value, when in truth, the true words are of what is of the greatest value beyond all riches of the world, indeed, of what HEAVEN is…
you hurt only your SELF when you unwise toss the true words as though nothing to YOU….do what you want, but beware of the condition of your own soul, and wisdom God summons you to, for sake of YOU.
don’t you people know how to read(feel)?
ramblings……arghhhhh!
so condescending belittling, so not what i am…….
i can’t believe anyone would call my writings ramblings……
that is just so…….well……..shortsighted unwise absurd uselessness of comment from the hypocrite heart Jesus railed against…….not of God……..nor of ‘me’
bah!
more negativity…..ok…..i will invite myself out of here…..and go with those who make me feel like i belong, always loved, always loving….
people really don’t think by means of their feelings before speaking……..sheeeesssshhhhhhhhhs…..
arghhhhh….i despise belittling condescending 100% with all that i am…..
i am not going to tolerate it Marco….so you take care, ok?
goodbye and fair well apon life’s road……where you WILL always find ‘me’, somewhere among my loving brothers and sisters of ONEness….forever more
blessings to all
thank you God thank you
thank you Jesus thank you
bless you Jesus bless you bless you bless you
thank you to ALL thank you
bless you
blessed are the ONEs who come fully into knowingness awareness of the precious pure loving sacred divine child of God True REAL SELF forever more
bless you bless you bless you
bless you
i will be at my own blog from now on….
blessings to all
bless you
+
rambling on……..you know, that was the most insulting thing anyone has ever said to ‘me’….who needs enemies when they have friends like ‘that’?
and to think i actually trusted you….not now…..not funny at all….abomination against God and the precious pure loving divine child of God True REAL SELF.
your mistake against YOU, not ‘me’, like Jesus says, “Worry not of what you hear or see, as it cannot harm you, rather what you say is what is able to harm and derange your own soul.”
ya ok…..ramblings of Jesus and God…..abomination you are to ‘me’, Jesus and God and those who love Jesus, God, and the divine True Self.
take care….my final words here…
blessings to you and all those you love
bless you
+
you remind me of those returned the third day of Jesus on the cross, of laughter and mockery in front of Jesus who looked apon them without a word, a beautiful sunny day, while he was yet alive, of Mary yet weeping, having not left his side…..
just an observation from the precious pure loving divine child of God True Real Self ‘me’, and maybe one day ‘you’ too……….
+
+
http://www.imeem.com/people/E1PcNwz/music/c2v-gOxz/nickelback_gotta_be_somebodymp3/
Gotta Be Somebody- Nickelback
This time I wonder what it feels like
To find the one in this life
The one we all dream of
But dreams just aren’t enough
So I´ll be waiting for the real thing.
I’ll know it by the feeling.
The moment when we´re meeting
Will play out like a scene straight off the silver screen
So I`ll be holdin’ my breath
Right up to the end
Until that moment when
I find the one that I’ll spend forever with
`Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.
‘Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There`s gotta be somebody for me like that.
`Cause nobody wants to go it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
Somebody else that feels the same somewhere.
There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.
Tonight out on the street out in the moonlight
And damn it this feels too right
It´s just like Déjà Vu
Me standin’ here with you
So I´ll be holdin`my breath
Could this be the end?
Is it that moment when
I find the one that I spend forever with?
‘Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
‘Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There´s gotta be somebody for me like that.
`Cause nobody wants to go it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
Is there somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.
You can´t give up!
When you’re Lookin´ for a diamond in the rough
Because you never know when it shows up
Make sure you´re holdin` on
‘Cause it could be the one, the one you´re waiting on
‘Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There has gotta be somebody for me
Ohhhhhh.
Nobody wants to go it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
Is there somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There `s gotta be somebody for me out there.
Nobody wants to be the last one there
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Is there somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There has gotta be somebody for me out there.
God bless Nickleback
blessings to all
bless you
+
far more productive……more belittling….ya ok, be sure to pick up the book called Magical Child, once published ok?
arghhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
you are so not for ‘me’ at all, of open discussion likemindedness i have with others…………
i actually thought you were intrigued by my writing….obviously not, “Oh hey Andy, that is brilliant!!!!!!!!!!!”
arghhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
spiritual poverty of concern for my favorite past time…writing….which by the way is an excellent experiential technique for self-actualization……..or sorry, i keep forgetting, you don’t really care about my ramblings………
anyway, that’s my final rant………of how you make me feel…….belittled………….thank you for ‘that’……..
you go live your life somewhere without me…..and i will do the same……..as there is no way i could tolerate your belittling like you……….it is futile………it is over………..
your an idiot, i returned briefly to apologize for calling you a vampire, and upon my return i find paranoia (fear) has gripped you once more, you took the negative of what i write and see the word rambling as a personal attack on you, when had you taken the positive view you would have interpreted it as WOW MARCO is NOT going to waste his time rambling on the internet INSTEAD he is going to do something to help children in need by taking toys and games to sick children with cancer.
ANyway i made the wright choice, HAVE you ever been to a cancer ward for children, they have no SELF PITY, they are ALL SMILING & JOYFULL
not SELF INDULGENT,
sorry for calling you a VAmpire,
but it;s TRUE.
anyway i’m going now now, i can see you have become now person we once new who went by the name MS BITCH, defensive argumentative. and i need no part of that, i can see now CLEARLY is is
you go nurse heal your fractured heart & soul, so you are strong and prepared for your next victim,
i will go nurse & heal Sick children.
& no need to point out that is over, I already did that
Duh !
about the photographer désolé ses photos sont froides convenues fascisantes… sans interêt : elle font parie du visuel planetaire du commerce de luxe… Isabelle n’ aurait jamais eu l’ idée de le mettre dans son très beau livre intitulé “la femme aux portraits”…
once again, thanks for your disconnected impersonal bullshit Marco that you love to be of delight with me, of falsity of me, someone you choose not to truly know at all…
truly, you belittle me at every turn, postering yourself up so high and so mighty, and those questions of making me out to be a hearltless carring person for sick kids?
i sponsor them monthly ok…thanks for more of your fucking bullshit Marco…………
i despise you utterly and completely now, as you are not who i thought you were at all
fuck off
so fucking impersonal, i am shocked by how horride you are with ‘me’
i will not ever return here with 100% trust for you ever again, not in this life time……
you just had to go and be a fucking retard with me today, way to fucking go……like anyone would would want to ever be friends with you after remarks like that so appalling, not ever had i expected you to say such horrid words with me like that, i actually 100% trusted this morning, and now, not ever again will i allow you to hurt me, not ever………
good fucking bye to your cold hearted disconnected fucking bullshit, that no one should ever tolerate, and for sure, not ever will i again of you, i am so outta here, wasting time with impersonal attacks like this……..did you ever stop to ask Andy how his day is going?
self pity?
is that what you call deep intrapersonal introspective reflections for sake of addressing the mental emotional well being?
you are so fucking way off about me, 100% if you must know.
motherfucking useless of words with me
fuck right off
i am not coming back here ever again
go be like Madonna, and don’t work things out with her husband, and father of her own child, no, can’t do that, i am too fucking smart to do that….
fuck off
i can’t fucking believe it, how you have to twist it around like you did….
you are your own worse enemy people when you don’t take time to think with you feelings(deeply) before you speak, of what is fundamentally, well, a word called decency
defintion;
Surroundings or services deemed necessary for an acceptable standard of living.
of what every fucking word i spoke is about, how one is able to live a TRUE BLESSED LOVING LIFE with someone of exact sameness of likeminded healthy approach to life, from the professional/spiritual perspect of what HEAVEN is for the precious pure loving divine child of God TRUE REAL SELF, and you have the fucking audacity to say your impersonal belittling condescending useless absurd words of betrayal with one who is exceedingly wise for sake of YOU, of your obvious total disconnect from who Andy is at a deep pure emotional honesty level of what he has been all this time………..since two fucking years ago, and you deal me a mouthful of shortsighted hypocritical devoid of love remarks Marco?
ask God for forgiveness, as i am not about to today……..
fucking morons father, plain and obviously simple.
how dare you attack me like you have, so horrid and of no love for Andy at all, just rant rant rant, your a fucking idiot….
no…….i am not a fucking idiot Marco, and Jesus and God know 100% that i am anything but an idiot without a heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, no, what i gave to Jesus, of what belongs to Jesus and God….but no, Andy is a fucking idiot according to Marco……..
fuck right off
now your not only criticizing me your criticizing Madonna, who are you to judge her, did you ever stop to think maybe she couldn’t work things out with her husband or it was in the best interest’s for her children to to not be in an unhappy environment, i cannot speak for her and the reasons but simply trying to point out there are valid reasons’ why people make the choices they make just because it does not fit into the views of yourself does not invalidate them, unless your a hipocrite & judgmental..
oh spiritiual one, who would;nt even realize if Jesus was standing in front of him in the flesh… because your too busy reading some old crinkled book from the past, holding onto the wisdom of the past instead of embracing the future..
your prison not mine
your cross not mine
your gonna be alright
look it’s not competition & it’s certainly not in vain,
it;s how one would say
purging of all the crap clearing out the junk, & it’s painful but it does not have to be, if you look at it as healing re living all the shit but second time round you are in a position to understand it because you’ve been there before but this time you going thru it again so you have an understanding and that’s when you grow and heal and learn , that way you can move on you are a better person.
unfortunately the one that has to be the catalyst and play the role of the devil & (it’s just play acting ) is left to pick up their own pieces and life & so on, so bear a thought for them & the sacrifice they have made to YOU before you go making it any worse because that is the greatest un indulgent sacrifice/gift someone can give ..
as Jesus knows to well.
now that will be $20.00
i was merely validating Guy ok, as he has a tough road ahead….so don’t short change me like that, i am far wiser than you think, far wiser………..
i am thinking of the future, it is you who is derailing it like you do seemingly of disconnect with me……..
what part of the halo perspective understanding that protects the divine child True REAL SELF does not address the future for you?
huh?
what?
huh?
prison?
just the opposite is what the halo is, protecting me from motherfucking useless bitter fucking words like you have with me, of any and all who unwisely approach……..always……..you will not have any affect on me, protected by Jesus and God’s wisdom, it is you who chooses to belittle with horrid condescending remarks of me, words of seperation that lead apart, not ever together with me so long as you spu forth from the empty bitter heart of hypocrisy, and that is exactly what it 100% fucking is ok…….in God’s eyes, in the eyes of Jesus, in the eyes of every precious pure loving divine child of God True REAL SELF to feel the obvious 100% truth, WORDS DEVOID OF LOVE, not of Jesus, not of God, not of me, albeit me who is now hurt beyond belief of your remarks, after two years of 100% trust, genuine and true emotional loving honesty of pure feelings for you and you like just shred me like i deserve it, because i interpret your words truly to you, for sake of YOU damn it, slow the fuck down and really feel the words you spoke with me, will you?
i realize i am oversensitive right now, and you can’t even take time to comprehend why, seemingly of no desire to, of perhaps maybe i did over interpret your words with me seemingly empty, where ya, words like ‘more productive’, and ‘rambling’ i felt you were speaking of me ok, so maybe i felt you thought this of me, ya, im insecure, and you would be too if you were me, and that is the point, you don’t even think how my life truly is for me right now………
i mean i thought real friends talk about things openly and now i don’t feel we even have that now…………so fucking hurtful you are of me today, i don’t understand you at all, spuing of horrid negativity, when i was in such a good fucking mood too, for fuck sakes……….what the fuck is that anyway?
definitely not something i want to get used to ok?
my cross, prison, you are clueless about anything i have spoken!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i am not of any mind trap prison or cross…….it is the fucking world that is yet of ROME ok, and the child apon the ground is the fucking proof of the motherfucking mindtrapped world, of such horridness i cannot stomach it, all so proud they are of their boastful proud vessels of gold held up high empty of loving compassion so many of them are……
my prison, ya, surrounded by a bunch of heartless motherfucking cold fucking pricks who DON’T fucking care, you are correct………….
and the unlocking of the channel with God is of the old books of ancient Christian Antiquity ok, and yes, the channel opened to me with God, just like it did with Jesus.
any more stupid question?
fucking bullshit you people are, you have all the right fucking directions, at least now you do, after devoting two fucking years of my life here leaving you the fucking words of God to ponder the rest of your miserable fucking lives…….
fucking hypocrites you are to me now……..oh, don’t contact Andy, so fucking unbelievably horrid that is for me to experience like i did, thinking you were some wonder loving human being of me, and no, after two years you fucking kick me in the fucking head, and shoved my fucking head into a toilet you, bash, bash, bash Andy’s precious soul some more why don’t you and see if he really does leave for good………..fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
catalyst ?
of for fuck sakes, you are so fucking cold to me, of what i have wanted for fucking years, and you cannot even come to me in life, of your bullshit catalyst fucking remark thinking you are wise in saying that…………
you fucking hurt me ok, and you do it on purpose?
fuck fuck fuck
fuck fuck fuck
fuck fuck fuck
fuck fuck fuck
fuck fuck fuck
fuck fuck fuck
fuck fuck fuck
fuck fuck fuck
fuck fuck fuck
you are a coward of pure REAL LIFE, that is what you are to me, because i know 100% what REAL is, so fine, go then, go do what you think is so right, so correct, so unindulgent, and remember, i am going to hate you for it the rest of your fucking life, ok?
i am not going to love you for it, and i will not ever speak with you directly again if you do that…………..and always remember how you fucking hurt me on purpose ok?
plan fucking hurtful bullshit that is not conducive for my postive mental emotional well being, no, it is 100% the opposite, and any professional will tell you the fucking TRUTH, should you care at all about Andy, where obviously you don’t, you just want to keep on hurting me more and more and more, for another 15 fucking years….there is horrid and then there is fucking horrid how people can be with me, so don’t go patting youself on the back for unindulgent, it is a lie………
i am too fucking upset to talk to now, and i don’t think i will be back any time soon, as you are obviously enjoying hurting me yet some more…………
i am not allowing you to do this with me any more……….
go be REAL with someone else then, and forget about Andy, obviously, that is your choice, not mine.
more fucking mind games………no thanks………
ya, i”ll BE OK when you stop BEing immature with me and start BEing sincere emotional honesty of your TRUE REAL SELF, and not until.
i won’t tolerate immaturity, that you obviously are realizing….and that is my sincere prayer for YOU …OK?
doubtfulness is not going to work with me, not ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
nor does it work of anyone, and forgive my temporary insanity that you willing pulled out in me damn it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
fuck.
you did it on purpose i 100% know you did….so go ask God for forgiveness, ok?
i am too pissed off right now to want to trust you again…..
you play me high up into love, than you kick me on purpose, and i know you did it on purpose, because i know you better than you think……….
second time round you are in a position to understand it
excuse me?
what part of this do i not understand, please, tell me, as i am so fucking lost? NOTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Give ‘me’ LOVE
i YEARN ONLY for LOVE
ONLY LOVE is good enough for Jesus
ONLY LOVE is good enough for YOU
ONLY LOVE is good enough for ‘me’
ONLY LOVE is good enough for ALL
ONLY WISDOM is good enough for Jesus
ONLY WISDOM is good enough for YOU
ONLY WISDOM is good enough for ‘me’
ONLY WISDOM is good enough for ALL
ONLY COMPASSION is good enough for Jesus
ONLY COMPASSION is good enough for YOU
ONLY COMPASSION is good enough for ‘me’
ONLY COMPASSION is good enough for ALL
ONLY TRUTH is good enough for Jesus
ONLY TRUTH is good enough for YOU
ONLY TRUTH is good enough for ‘me’
ONLY TRUTH is good enough for ALL
all bullshit you are with me….lie….lie….lie….kick….kick….kick
well, i am not doing it anymore, ok?
go bully somebody else that maybe enjoys your approach, because it does not work for me, i am simple and seeking peace and ease of my grace, which you have not respected, in fact, the opposite, drilling me like you did………
you cast fire into me, then like a hypocrit, you stood back and said, “Oh, look at the fool, and mocked me, an abomination against my pure spirit, your fucking shit no mine……..
who could possibly enjoy that with anyone who kicked me like you did, and i am supposed to trust you after that?
why?
why did you kick me like that?
obviously, you are not thinking of me…….the TRUTH
oh spiritiual one, who would;nt even realize if Jesus was standing in front of him in the flesh…
if you ever mock me and Jesus like this again, for sure i will not speak with you again
i have fucking seen Jesus ok, and speak with him in the flesh daily, but hey, you choose to mock us both, so be it…….i won’t tolerate anyone who mocks me and Jesus, of who i love more than anyone on this planet……
if i knew where the plug was that is running the server for this blog, without hesitation, i would unplug it, of you how mock Jesus, God and me
you go nurse heal your fractured heart & soul, so you are strong and prepared for your next victim,
you brought this on yourself………..
and i do not victimize people for fuck sakes, do you actually read anything i write?
i am not going to tolerate this approach from you ever, not ever………
it is horrid hateful mockery of empty shallow self serving untruth of me, true of your emptiness of love for me….
don’t ever speak like this with me again……as i will leave permenantly and you can spend the rest of your life without having what i feel is a true and faithful friend, someone who is not afraid to stand my ground with you, constructive criticism of my time for sake of you….but keep bully on me….i won’t stay…..
one more insipid shallow short sighted remark, and i will not stay, of my inability to trust you 100%, of what i want to do, trust you for fuck sakes, so tell me why are you bully on me like his, bashing like you are?
care enough to fully explain?
i mean you could say to me the truth, Andy, i am seeing someone else, sorry…….have a good life……if that is what is going on……….
i deserve the truth, so why hesitate in telling me, someone of God who is 100% of God?
and keep in mind, there is fate and destiny, so tell me what my fate is not and what my destiny is going to be, and remember, i already know my destiny, which may or may not involve you, as i am loved by many……….
here, try listening to this music before you answer, and maybe you may know the exceeding graceful Andy, if you care to know me at all………i am standing in stillness………
http://www.imeem.com/groups/VPjoxAc1/music/te8Q2Zyb/gregorian_grupo_dos_bgms_brothers_in_arms/
don’t ever cast fire at me again……….
i am of exceeding 100% pure grace, standing still, looking and feeling every single moment at all times all around me each blessed day.
you who approach me in mockery, do not realize i look apon your soul in truth of the condition of your unattened, unnurtured, unprotected soul, of pure compassion for every precious loving innocent born into these households of unwise learning and teachings of the forefathers before us all, the teachings of Rome which yet grip the world tightly, their hearts, minds, bodies, spirits and souls, in so many useless mind traps of unwiseness, so untrue of the nature of the divinity of all of YOU, of God’s wisdom that feels the truth of every word you speak unwisely, unknowingly of the one who looks apon you and feels the truth of all your useless bitterness of empty hateful words, words that lead to death and destruction of so many of our loving brothers and sisters of the GLBT community, of who are the most loving souls who walk the earth(mostly, some are truly nasty with sharp nails who will shed you directly in front of you and behind your back, stealing your boyfriend and then dumping him, for amusement)
what?
ok….i don’t do that any more….i used to, but then i got bored with it, and now i only do it if i think the relationship is unhealthy……….
anyway………go do what you want……..and perhaps drop me a line of how life is for you from time to time….
sorry for taking over your blog M, you can have it back now……..
none of my business…….go do whatever………..
you go nurse heal your fractured heart & soul, so you are strong and prepared for your next victim,
ya, i am, and her name is Brenda……….one of my most dearly loving friends in life, a true blessed loving soul at all times, every single word, and we are writing the book called Magical Child together, of the sacred halo construct understand that will teach others of what is easy for them to use their entire life.
would you like to hear some more of our research?
thanks for glorious falseness of approach with me, slandering me like that of next victim, like i am some victimizer……..i am not.
do you even read any of my writings?
where do you get off saying that, of a 100% wretched slam against my spirit?
truly, i too can do without your bullshit falsity, where it is you who victimizes your own self……..not me, of who would want to tolerate your insipidness for one second?
immature…………..
anyway, i am not as healthy as i will be, you are correct, over sensitive(a normal response for someone who has been thru alot)
i thought you wanted our friendship, and these words you hit me with, well………..
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emptiness is how it made me…….hurtfully so
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victimizer?
why not spend the next six months and with a bit of soul, feel the words i have written for the last two fucking years for sake of others?
where do you get victimizer?
you don’t contact me like others in REAL LIFE, which is toxic for me, ok?
i want REAL LIFE from now on, and for you who are that with me, thank you, bless you.
so frigin retarded of me, two fucking years, oh, Andy is such a victimizer, after two fucking years you call me that?
do you even look at any of my spiritual art pieces for fuck sakes?
victimizer?
do you actually believe that of me, and not trusting of me?
obviously you do.
oh, i get it, i am supposed to wait more and more years am i, Andy is not worthy of an email, a phone call, to a fellow artist in the world?
fine, go think what you want, as i cannot be anything other than what i am, and if ever you say something that wretched again at me, i will not come back again, as others make me feel 100% loved all the time, every blessed day.
ya, Andy is such a victimizer, and he is loved by many precious souls like his own, of his deliberate constant nurturing with them at all times.
go project your garbage on someone who will tolerate it, because i am not going to.
not ever again will i allow you to speak with me like that.
so feel your words before speaking them, are they wise, are they loving, because if they are not sincerely loving, i won’t trust you again like i have, of 100% trust, did you know that?
you know i did.
i am not healthy right now, ok?
i am in therapy, and it will be six months before i am fully functioning, albeit, everything appears to be working ok….lol
forgive me paranoia, i am not well…….it’s called oversensitivity, off the scale if you must know……..
anyway…….my shit…………..
i am taking a break for awhile……………..with those who choose to nurture me…………always nurturing………….constantly………….
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the only victimizing in Andy’s life is allowing others to be inappropriate with him, like Andy is not worthy of an email, no, Andy is not worth of contacting him, no, Andy is not worthy of a lunch together sometime, no, Andy is not……….here any more until people CHOOSE to BE loving of Andy at all times……….or forget it, and that means REAL LIFE people……of where i am, and where i am running to in the REAL motherfucking world………forever more
blessings to all
Jesus loves ALL God loves ALL We love ALL
God blesses ALL
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truth is your too flamboyant & gay for me, i don’t do gay marriage OK i don’t go prancing around to gay pride in perfume candy rainbow;s, gay gay gay you and your gay shit shits me to tear’s I’m not homophobic i’m not anti anything you actually give a bad name to all the beautiful souls out there who are in tune with their own sexuality and ability to love regardless of orientation, your just as bad as a homophobes you are making a mockery of gay people by the way you prance around, anyway it’s just not me its not who i am. Obviously the gay ghetto has made you bitter and twisted its know to do that to people, maybe you should try to be fucking normal & get with a woman and have a balanced lifestyle, because one only has to look at you and listen to you to see your not content in the life your leading Byatch
God where’s Madonna when you need her, hopefully she will return and some sanity will prevail.
ok, let me see, you love Madonna, and you think Madonna is clueless about the oh so beautiful prancing around of beautiful erotic females and males scantily clad is not homoerotic for her MOST FAVORITE fans in the audience?
i see…..ok, next retarded aggressive passive conversation of limited intelligence, shall we?
go ahead Marco, take the first swing, and let me enlighten you on why we do what we do in the parades, where FEARLESSNESS may have something to do with why we do what we do, so that our loving brothers and sisters don’t take their own lives in suicide, from the motherfuckers who put them down FUCKING DAILY OK?
where we want them to stand up and tell them all to FUCK OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol
fuck.
always explaining
oh, i so won that motherfucking argument……..
have you been drinking again?
you don’t embrace the full scope, and that is where you fail to realize….not everyone is fully of the perfect loving family of their oh so wonderful gay/lesbian son or daughter, for FUCK SAKES!!!!!!!!!!!
i push hard and loud, radiant brilliant bright loud, of exceeding joyfulness, of what is pure and true of the divine child of God True REAL SELF of us ALL, where i am of the fearlessness mirror for those who need to come fully into fearlessness i know is within them, and SHOUT OUT….I AM GAY of I AM LESBIAN, and i FUCKING LOVE WHO I AM MOTHERFUCKERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
that’s all….i just want the ones who are of high risk mentally/emotionally to come fully into what i know they are going thru, having gone thru it, all for sake of the Troy’s in the world who STATISTICALLY, age group 15-24 hold the highest suicide rate, so go back to your rose coloured glasses Marco, of your pretty perfect FUCKING WORLD ok?
that most of us do not live in, in fact, we are afraid to speak of being GAY in 30 fucking states of the USA, for fear of being fired…………….
you keep trivializing me, and i am so not coming back here any more……………..
and as for the parade, i WILL find those who want to do RADIANT BRILLIANT BRIGHT easily, and do you know how Marco(fuck, i hate passive aggressive responding to those who are passive aggressive, knowing i am ASSertive), BE Cause………We ARE…….come on Marco, guess what we ARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
RADIANT BRILLIANT FUCKING BRIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
most of the time………..i really prefer ASSertiveness over passive aggressive in case anyone truly wants to know Andy…….Brenda knows me, and we are of ease of our humble classmate mentality at all times, peaceful and loving…….so dig at me some more Marco, until i get weary enough not to return…………
truth is your too flamboyant & gay for me, i don’t do gay marriage OK
well, if that is not the single most horrible thing to say, i don’t know what is.
HEY EVERYONE, GAY MARRIAGE IS WRONG FOR MARCO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok, what other immature thought do you have?
(prancing around to gay pride in perfume candy rainbow;s, gay gay gay you and your gay shit shits me to tear’s)
i don’t know what shits me to tears means, could you elaborate?
HEY EVERYONE, what does shit’s me to tears mean? Does it mean ok or something not ok?
you actually give a bad name to all the beautiful souls out there who are in tune with their own sexuality and ability to love regardless of orientation, your just as bad as a homophobes you are making a mockery of gay people by the way you prance around
(andy on the bullhorn again behind the scenes of the parade line up, now 5 minutes till the parade starts, a beautiful warm day of sunshine, and 1, 200,000 people waiting for the parade to start)
OH HEY EVERYONE, MARCO SAYS WE ARE GIVING HOMOSEXUALS a BAD NAME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ah, Marco, they want to know if everyone still calling us FAGGOTS, everwhere we go, mocking us with bad names at every turn is appropriate for the self-esteem of our loving brothers and sisters, asking what bad name are you refering to that we have not already been called, you name it, we have been called it every second of ever day?
(Obviously the gay ghetto has made you bitter and twisted its know to do that to people, maybe you should try to be fucking normal & get with a woman and have a balanced lifestyle, because one only has to look at you and listen to you to see your not content in the life your leading Byatch)
ya, i am dealing with my bisexuality Marco, which has nothing to do with the level of degree of addressing getting my needs with, where regardless of orientation, if we fail to address our wants and needs, we suffer the consequences of our unattending and unnurturing of our beautiful loving TRUE REAL SELF……….
truly, it has nothing to do with orientation………so i don’t know if that covers what you refer to as normal?
and i really despise your approach in words of where some may interpret homosexuality as not normal, where a being with a woman is what is normal………ya, that is irresponsible consideration for homosexuals ok?
as for what i want……..ask me sometime, but then, you already know, and you are yet toying with me……..well……..i am not so sure now Marco………i don’t like some of your perspectives that seem rather limited.
if you are going to speak on serious life matters, please be of greater elaboration, of research and understanding please………thank you…….
actually, i am not bitter at all Marco, and the ghetto is a fun place, just a bit boring, that’s all.
and twisted?
of what aspect of professional psychological understanding are you referring to in painting me with the word twisted?
could you elaborate on that some more please……thank you
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh………..this is so not working for me……..
Brenda has informed me, remember 8 Embraces daily is the Minimum for our WELL-BEING!!! (((Smile)))
God where’s Madonna when you need her, hopefully she will return and some sanity will prevail.
ok……..please stop with the insinuations of homosexuals being insane……….thank you
i have heard enough bashing for one day……….
God blesses ALL homosexuals who are of what HEAVEN is, and trust me, we know the difference of HEAVEN and HELL, of loving homosexual lover embrace, constantly made to feel EVIL by the unwise hateful of many of the heterosexual crowd……….enough already……thank you
again, you make a mockery of your SELF when you approach unwisely like this…..and i don’t think many of the homosexual world have much to say to you Marco, of these slights you speak seemingly so wise, obviously not.
blessings to all
shits me to tears’ it mean’s ,
ok your boring me to death, or
been there done that boring, or
your so not stimulating my senses that your actually painful,
or who gives a shit, no one’s listeneing
A final Word about Forgiveness and Resentment ~ an introspective reflection of the True divine Self, for those of you who prefer assertiveness over passive aggressive with others.
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At the root of virtually all spiritual practices is the notion of forgiveness. This was what came out of Jesus of Nazareth while he was being tortured on a cross by a Roman soldier throwing a spear into his side.
Forgiveness
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It is perhaps the most healing thing that you can do to remove the LOW ENERGIES of resentment and revenge from your life completely….
Think about every single person who has ever harmed you, cheated you, defrauded you, or said unkind things about you. Your experience of the is nothing more than a thought that you carry around with you. These thoughts of resentment, anger, and hatred represent slow, DEBILITATING (unwise) ENEGIES that are able to disempower you. If you could release them, you would know more peace.
You practice forgiveness for two reasons.
One is to let others know that you no longer wish to be in a state of hostility with that person.
Two is to free your SELF from the SELF DEFEATING ENERGY of resentment, which is not something the divine child of God True REAL SELF likes to feel or participate in, peaceful and loving by nature.
Resentment is like venom that continues to pour through your system, doing its poisonous damage long after being bitten by the snake. It is not the bite that kills you(breaks your spirit), it is the lingering venom of useless thoughts, impure thoughts projected on to you by an unwise other, sadly of many who are yet snared by unwiseness, both of the lacking of desire for wisdom, as well as the obvious false teachings yet of the world of many households which continue to teach innocent souls born into these households, not realizing, not reflecting apon, that they themselves who continue to teach were also taught of these many unwise teachings not of God, of all the forefathers before us, of what society yet is held prisoner by, these many immature mind traps of the heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, of what we know is of 100% reality in the world daily, of which God is compassionate and sad for those who suffer in the voids devoid of God in the world of all these useless unloving apathetic unwise unBEcoming conducts we all experience at some point in life along life’s road, and indeed, we see it daily in the news of the truth of useless bitter violence and unwisenesses, do we not?
i am not pulling punches here, OK? this is merely an introspective reflection surmon for any and all to lovingly embrace the truth of their precious loving divine true self, in purity of loving feelings about their own pure love within, where light(wisdom) reveals truth of all darkness(ignorance).
You can remove venom by making a decision to let go of resentments. Send love in some form to those you feel have wronged you and notice how much better you feel, how much more peace you have and in truth, are of by nature, peaceful and loving while at ease while of at ease peaceful state, like in the morning when we first wake.
forgive my bitter rantings, as i am weary of many stressors in life, which have nothing to do with you, just how life has been for me of recent, that’s all. It is not who i am by preference, where i am of gentle graceful spirit, that of what i am, a classmate student on the road of life, of best friends like myself who are of delight of the study of the human condition like we are, of open minded ease of discussion, building apon, elaborating into unknowns, which is of my greatest passion in seeking of the higher subtle intellect feelings and emotions, beautiful in feeling, and not of the lessor low energies which grip many souls in life.
thank you for listening(feeling)
http://www.imeem.com/spankmehard/music/mJucpHLe/madonna_ray_of_light_ambient_edit/
Marco is such a sore loser?
Marco hates losing?
oh, i so won that round and you know it!!!!!!!!!!
lol
😀 😀
have you had enough fighting now?
i really do despise useless engagement of low energy, low wisdom thinking and behaving, and i will not ever join you again in such absurd useless unloving apathetic unwiseness ever again Marco….so do not approach me ever again expecting me to engage of such utter absurdness of heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, ok?
i simply WILL not follow you into such, should you take preference of dwelling in the hypocrisy heart mentality of useless absurdnesses bitter to the taste, so do not entice or cajole me into such, as i WILL not respond ever again….it is of low energy, and is poisonous debilitating unwiseness of bitter unloving words that derange and twist the soul into twisted contortions like useless childish bitterness does, and does not serve the peaceful and loving by nature loving divine child of God True Real Self which is of preference of dwelling in love and peace…..especially of the hot tub.
and if you don’t want to realize i am a peaceful mild loving gentle soul of preference of my own grace as one who dwells in God’s house of love and peace(St.James Cathedral), than don’t….i cannot help you with that.
i prefer the gentle graceful approach of those like me in life who are sincerely loving of Jesus and God. Ya, us homosexuals love Jesus and God, inspite of the many of you who yet ostracize us like you do, casting us off as deviant souls, which reminds me, just how many where burned at the stake because they loved Jesus over the centuries? And yet how many are their who are being prosecuted?
i have been falsely prosecuted, and i won’t be back to tolerate this kind of unBEcoming conduct again….fair warning.
Jesus loves ALL God loves ALL We love ALL
God blesses ALL
thank you Jesus thank you
bless you Jesus bless you bless you bless you
thank you God thank you
peace be to this house
peace be to you
blessed is this beautiful day of REVEALation.
bless you
i don’t get you at all, thinking perhaps you had come to an understanding of what we know 100% what HEAVEN is…
glowing feelings we cognitively of awareness knowingness of FEELING LOVED and LOVING of and with another and others?
PURE and SIMPLE, nothing more, especially of the spas.
me?
i am a bisexual of twenty years of the GLBT worldwide community who is going to have a loving family of children as an OUT bisexual, with a female who is 100% accepting of me, of beautiful satin outfits of our exceeding joyfulness of the GLBT Toronto Parade each year, nothing more, just the joyfulness mirror of what we know 100% what HEAVEN is, the loving feelings of exact sameness between the many lovings of each other and our friends of the GLBT family, indeed, of Flow of Perennial fresh water(spiritual wisdom of God water of the constant flowing fountain of LIFE) of the, unconditional lovers of ALL, the many in the One and One in the many united as One, of the WorldWide GLBT community.
perhaps you have a better idea?
i just want to live out my REAL LIFE of REAL LIFE with those of REAL LIFE EXCEEDING JOYFULNESS every moment of every day, nothing more, of smiling radiant brilliant bright faces, constantly of our primal yearning for release of the divine child of God True Real Self to always BE of dwelling of TRUTH, NUTURING LOVE, FEELINGS of COMPASSION, PROTECTION of WISDOM of psychological/spiritual findings, pure in primal truth of what we ALL are………peaceful and loving by nature.
anything else, and don’t expect ‘me’ to ever participate ever again.
i simply WILL not allow my REAL SELF to BE of useless bitterness that Jesus warns us about of those who’s minds are (obviously) not of desire for wisdom, for sake of their own precious pure loving peaceful by nature divine child of God True Real Self, loved by Jesus, loved by God, loved by we who love Jesus, God and each other forever more.
blessed are you who hear and see by means of your feelings, of what Jesus says is sight restored to your precious loving divine soul.
blessings to all this blessed day of REVEALation
bless you
of course PFLAG is my favorite group of the GLBT worldwide community, in case any of you were wondering….
we know
on we go
blessings to all
bless you
i no longer wish to be in a state of hostility, of any and all horizontal ones of hostility………thank you
say something loving, wise, compassionate, truthful, of graceful reflection, or find your self without ‘me’, as i am not going to allow myself to engage ever again in bitter uselessness of words from the hypocrisy heart, which are not of Jesus, not of God, nor of we who are loving of Jesus, God and each other in life………
SELF RESPECT and PRESERVATION
something M demands of others for her own SELF, and expects ALL of YOU likewise to do the same, without doubt, knowingness awareness that ONLY TRUTH, LOVE, COMPASSION and WISDOM is good enough for Jesus, YOU, ‘me’ and the many lovers of YOU&’me’ along life’s road of exceeding joyfulness, so easy to Just BE your SELF, merely by turning towards the TRUTH and come fully into awareness of what we know is TRUE and CONSTANTLY YEARNING of the divine child of God True Real Self of ALL of YOU
FEELING LOVED and LOVING of and with another and others.
peace OUT everyone
on we go
bless you
Rosie?
WE LOOOOOOOOOOOVE U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
forever more
bless you
Let it BE KNOWN this day of REVEALation, that the false teachings of the forefathers who did not fully know Jesus and God, nor desire to fully know Jesus and God, yet exist and are yet being taught in the world everyone.
If you do not come fully into embracing the TRUTH of this 100%, then you are one like the many who are of why the world yet is the way it is, of the single greatest TRUTH WISDOM which REVEALS the truth with clarity of WHY, “CRUCIAL LACKING OF DESIRE FOR WISDOM”, of what every professional in the field of psychology/spirituality know conclusively that indeed, ignorance of your own TRUE REAL SELF, is what is of the stumbling(aimlessly) of the 95% of the population of the world who are not of the full fortitude of wisdom understandings of why you my be snared and bound by useless unnecessary heavy bitter chains of unwiseness, unknowingly that YOU all hold the key to what HEAVEN is……the precious pure loving divine child of God True Real SELF within……..YOU.
God summons ALL to wisdom for sake that your precious pure loving divine child of God True Real SELF within YOU, comes fully into 100% knowingness awareness at a cognitive platitude level of the higher subtle awareness intellect, 100% pure and true, of what HEAVEN is for your divine child of God True Real SELF YOU……
CONSTANTLY FEELING LOVED and LOVING of and with another and others forever more, where WISDOM is how one protects your own precious pure loving divine child of God True Real SELF from the yet many unwise false bitter teachings of the forefathers in the world, indeed, of even of many who claim to know Jesus and God, these many merchants of Jesus and God, where in truth, they do not fully know Jesus and God, obvious by their outward appearance of the indicative truth so obvious to feel, indeed, should they BE fully of embracing Jesus and God, they would BE of embracing of the divine child of God True Real Self within them in doing so, wise in understanding of what HEAVEN is, and obvious in outward appearance of what HEAVEN is, RADIANT BRILLIANT BRIGHTNESS of feeling LOVED and LOVING of and with another and others.
True, we all feel momentary moments of HEAVEN, where indeed, we do feel the blessed pure graceful feelings of our precious pure loving divine child of God True Real Self at a cognitive level, where one merely needs to prioritize what HEAVEN is for them, and continue in learning of the teachings which protect them from the unwise world all around us, where indeed, if you do not embrace the most significant Truth Wisdom of all, “Crucial Lacking of Desire for Wisdom,” then you are in truth, your own worse enemy everyone, and don’t say i did not warn you of how life may play out for you.
False Life Fate is of ignorance
True Life Destiny is of wisdom
there is no going around the TRUTH
only the fool thinks they can avoid the truth, where obvious are the many, sadly of aimless unwiseness in the eyes of Jesus and God, and we who sincerely love Jesus, God and each other, loved by Jesus, God and each other forever more.
it is my prayer that these words empower and encourage you to fearless come towards wisdom, and surrender to the pure grace of your True Self who is waiting for you to do so, and take time with your True Self which is constantly of hopefulness and pure sincere prayer to BE released into environments we subconsciously/cognitive seek to BE found of, which are 100% conducive for HAPPINESS of our True Self to thrive and grow in at all times forever more.
it will take millinia for the entire population of the world to come fully into wisdoms which bring an end to all the tears of sorrow, pain and death, and yet i ponder the possibility that we could somehow fast track what HEAVEN is (seemingly instantly somehow in my mind), and would appreciate any and all input from others of open likeminded discussion of such, so that our tears of compassion for those yet of sorrow pain and death stop flowing, and smiling radiant brilliant bright is restored to all souls of the earth one day.
We can do it, and the only way we can do it, is for us to BE of the WILL BE Done on earth, ‘that’ which HEAVEN is, ‘that’ which is PURE TRUTH, ‘that’ which is NURTURING LOVE, ‘that’ which is COMPASSIONATE FEELINGS, ‘that’ which is WISE PROTECTION.
blessings to all
again, thank you for listening(feeling)
bless you bless you bless you
Jesus says, “What YOU bring forth from within YOU, ‘that’ which is PURITY and TRUE SINCERITY of the TRUTH of divine child of God True Real SELF YOU, is what is able to save YOU ~ Pure Truth, Nurturing Love, Compassionate Feelings, Protective Wisdom.
‘that’ which YOU do no bring forth from within YOU, is able to destroy YOU ~ Falsenss, unNurturing Hate, unKnowing Apathetic unwise fear to feel your Compassionate True feelings of Concern, avoidance of unProtective unwiseness unknowing snares of low energies that fearfully bind, of not embracing wisdoms that avert False Life Fate.
“What you turn towards YOU BEcome, at all times, in outward appearance for all to see(feel) and hear(feel) the obvious truth.”
“Where YOUR heart is, there too is YOUR treasure and YOU LIFE, at all times, in outward appearance for all to see(feel) and hear(feel) the obvious truth.”
“Let the Truth YOU feel BE what serves YOU, of all things you gracefully take time to look and reflect apon.”
blessings to all this blessed day of REVEALation.
http://www.imeem.com/hairen/music/ZQLFc3A-/gladiator_feat_izzy_now_we_are_free/
EXCEEDING JOYFULNESS is the OBJECTIVE TRUTH.
i don’t know about the rest of YOU, but i am so going to enjoy my TRUE LIFE, especially of the spas and the fun loving music daily, with or without YOU who choose to mock ‘me’. Not to worry, it is easy to find ‘me’, any time you FEEL like ‘me’, si?
si
si si si si si si ya big sissysssssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
this music is insane of the exceeding joyfulness it evokes with me, of running, dancing, exceeding radiant brilliant bright, hand in hand of one who is as loving of ‘me’ as i am of ‘me’ of them, sameness of surrendered loving heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, to FEEL LOVED and LOVING at all times(or at least make an effort to, which i find is easiest while of the spa!!!!!!)
blessings to ALL
thank you for listening(feeling)
bless you
now go enjoy the day damn it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
http://www.imeem.com/ravagedragon/music/KUqnQh_D/ddr_max_2_burning_heat/
http://www.imeem.com/people/DYD6HR/music/so2g0WIh/canon_rock_2/
bless you
ok M, you can have your blog back……… 😉
http://www.imeem.com/people/NmZ1Onw/music/zEM8Rcqh/madonna_future_lovers_edit_manu_mix/
*correction*
‘that’ which YOU do no bring forth from within YOU, *and cast from you* is able to destroy YOU ~ Falsenss, unNurturing Hate, unKnowing Apathetic unwise fear to feel your Compassionate True feelings of Concern, avoidance of unProtective unwiseness unknowing snares of low energies that fearfully bind, of not embracing wisdoms that avert False Life Fate.
*sorry, my spelling still needs focus*
*correction*
‘that’ which YOU do NOT bring forth(into light of awareness*denial) within YOU, *and cast from you* is able to destroy YOU ~ Falseness, unNurturing Hate, unKnowing Apathetic unwise fear to feel your Compassionate True feelings of Concern(by means of true graceful peaceful reflection*meditation), avoidance of unProtective unwiseness unknowing snares of low energies that fearfully bind, of not embracing wisdoms that avert False Life Fate.
Ok, you win that round
I surrender, I do not like competition’s anyway
Competition breed’s aggression, aggression breeds hatred
Hatred denies love.
Love is all that is.
“God forgive them of hatred and aggression for they know not what they do”
“God Why have you forsaken me”
ya, it is not a competition….
what it is, is the reality of all precious loving souls born from the womb of God who are indeed taught unwisenesses, of whatever and whatever, you name it, it is all yet here in the present, the entire past of unwise wretchednesses, of some truly horrid wretchedness in the world so sickening of many who are held in dark captivities, it makes me sick to even think about it…..
God has not left anyone alone….it is we who do not sincerely desire to know Jesus, just as we do not sincerely desire to come fully of awareness of our own emotional honesty, is it not?
i know you know the purity of sincerity connection, and is why i am here….you know it 100% at a cognitive awareness knowingness level, do you not?
truly, i know you know, just as you know i know, do i not?
bless you
anyway…..sorry about my bitterness with you…..forgive me
it is not true or sincere of either of our emotional honesty, where for me, i am merely frustrated in life of many things, financial, inappropriate others, creditors hounding me hourly, lack of resources to eat properly, lack of resources to do anything actually, sorta like being shoved into a box you could say, and yet, my spirit is free from inappopriateness of any now, and i am starting to enjoy this new found feeling of exceeding grace, love, tenderness of who i really am, of the conducive stress free environment i am now of……forever more.
and i plan i keeping it that way, selective of inner circle friends and lovers that work 100% correct with me, where indeed, it is our choices which is of most significance in living a truly happy life of the peaceful by nature true self of peaceful settings, like the beach, a spa, dancing, horseback riding, always of exceeding delight of allowing our self to be what we are by nature, spontaneously free to do whatever adventure we want to explore, where what we are in life is merely children at play apon the earth, free to be of whatever adventure we want to experience in life, music, art, travel, the spa, the sauna, all of it, where ever, whatever, however, whenever, why ever would one not like the spa?
Go live life people, you only get so many days to enjoy it, hand in hand with a most loving lover of your choice and they you………leading by example, radiant brilliant bright, natural of the divine YOU.
blessings to all
bless you
as for me leaving you, it is you who is leaving me alone….
Speaking of Jesus supposedly saying, “God, why have you left me alone?”
i have probed this saying at length, and will reflect with you my pure thoughts on this….
There are alot of indicators which back up what i am about to say.
1. Did the followers of Jesus know what Jesus knew? No, they did not all know what he was speaking about, of his prodding them to think by means of their feelings, of a deliberate approach Jesus was with them all, where any of his words are of introspective thinking questions of our emotional depth honesty, where only of surrendering to the true graceful state(such as meditation) is one able to truly explore the subtle delicate pure emotional feelings of our pure true self(those of meditation, know fully the awareness i am speaking of).
2. Those of the early church, we know created(edited) the current bible of the stolen teachings Jesus taught while behind the great wall city and where ever he had taught, where Jesus did not teach the churches of that time, did he? No. And did the early church intervene between the rulers of Rome and what they did to Jesus? No. So did the early church know Jesus in as much as even his followers tryed to know him? No. So is the words in the bible 100% accurate? Not likely.
3. Jesus was communicating with God teaching him while alone in the desert(the actual desert is the desert of spiritual poverty of all around him). Jesus was in constant contact with God at all times, of the channel that opened to him with God, or whatever life force entity, or for you speculators, his imagination(just thought i would add that in to appease some of you who are curious). So did Jesus feel God left him alone? No.
What Jesus like said, which is 100% of pure understanding of why i know to be true of what he said, is “why have you forsaken(abandoned, unattended to, unprotected, unnurtured) ‘me’?
This is an introspective PURITY question meant for the pure loving divine child of God True Real Self to probe in 100% sincereness(like that of Jesus) while alone(like that of meditation), where the question Jesus is indicative of how wise Jesus was as to the condition of those around him snared by unwiseness mind traps.
Constantly, Jesus was revealing the unwise bitter untrue unBEcoming illnessess of the heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, in all of his words, did he not? Jesus knew his own pure divine child True SELF within well, the purity, the sincerity level we know of, the honesty, the true exceeding gracefulness he was of at all times, preference in just BEing his True Self, just as we are of preference of our own exceeding grace, where the question of who ‘me’ is of the question, points conclusively to the truth, the question was yet another deliberate probing question Jesus asked for sake of the purity true connectedness he wanted others to come into full awareness knowingness of their own divine child True Self within, of which Jesus was 100% of knowingness awareness at all times.
Truly, Jesus was an exceedingly wise adult child of 100% introspection internalizing of his own findings within, outward in appearance, of what is of the objective truth approach of today’s psychologists with their patients, is he not?
So many are the pure aligning of the words of Jesus with that of protective understandings of today’s healthy psychological approach to achieve and maintain positive mental emotional well being, so much so, from my own research, the protective halo wisdom appears to be far more conducive an environment in which to thrive and grow in, than the approaches of psychology, where the halo is able to 100% protect even while of environments which are not conducive for positive growth, a perspective that embraces the truth, no one is of the full wisdom of God, until such a time of God’s choosing(according to God).
do you know if you are you chosen?
i know i am, cognitively, although not sure why…
blessings to all
bless you
Jesus asked, “Why have you forsaken(left alone, abandoned, unattended, unnurtured, unprotected) ‘me’,” as in the ‘me’ within all of YOU.
Jesus was a wise clever ONE, like that of today’s psychologists, amazingly so, si?
si
si si si si si si si ya big sisissysssssss!!!!!!!!!!
i can no longer be here as much as i would like to…my resources are now at an all time low…………
perhaps while of the sanctuary, i can do better uninterrupted writings, and enjoy what i love most in life, pleasant peacefulness, calm and true.
so ya, i will be here one hour a day when i can, and leave some written words here or on my blog.
blessings to all
bless you
I told you not to call me a sissy..
like i said, it is you who leaves ‘me’ alone, and now, i leave you alone, as i cannot be here as much as i would like to….can’t afford it right now…..
all the best at your shows M, sorry i cannot be much support for you any longer……..Rodrigo is my priority right now, and i going to make sure he is taken care of before consideration of any one else……besides, all we do is annoy each other……..
blessings to you and those you love.
bless you
and i could use the down time for awhile, rest!!!!
yes, i need to rest!!!!!!!!!
sissy?
actually, i love what i feel is a sissy, someone of tender effeminate qualities, my favorite kind of male…..something i am 100%….a true sissy, who loves his own sissyness….sis.
😉 😀
oh hey, M is about to go on stage in Houston Texas!!!!!!
have a fun show M, kisses all around!!!!
blessings to all
bless you
i wish you all the best, i always wish the best for you ..
best wishes
now im shitty,
no actually im not, now i am free to find my true soul mate, already have anyway
her name’s Juliet , met her in the ghetto, when she fell into my arm’s
get lost Andy
Er … I’ve actually lost my internet connection, as you well know.
(oh, drama queens ….)
Are you OK? You sound rather stressed?
“actually, i love what i feel is a sissy, someone of tender effeminate qualities, my favorite kind of male”
No you don’t. You seem to go for basic blokes.
I think you just like the idea of going with an effeminate bloke. You’d never actually do it.
She’s never ever here. I am abandoned.
She has left me for an effeminate bloke.
All is lost.
im ok…managing…survival mode…..
not stressed at all actually, free from stressors, as i ditched my old life….well….actually, it ditched me first, daily, way back in January 2, when i had enough of my boss and i finally told her what i wanted to say…something everyone else had failed to do. I may have lost my career, and yet, i feel good about all her staff feeling it is not ok to be treated badly like she was/is with everyone, a parting message they all felt that day i walked out, “No, it is not ok to be speak down to us.”
since then, the stress levels have vanished, and i feel true self-actualization restored now, better than ever, albeit, a train wreck of personal/professional life….everything destroyed, but i came thru unscathed, where none of it was a conducive environment for me, something i had to go thru.
i finished the court proceedings Friday, bringing an end to that stressor as well, bringing to closure….
two more courts to go, the Supreme court, chapter 11, and divorce court, which i will avoid, and just do the friendly split, keeping the friendship.
i have not felt this free in decades!
AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!
i love it!!!!!!!!
calm and utterly peaceful.
actually, i love the truly effeminate ones, tender, sweet, mild, gentle, graceful, a true connection i have with them and they ‘me’
ya, i have been with alot of them in life, and still, they are my favorite. More genuine for ‘me’, my type as they say.
not sure what a basic bloke is?
oh, someone like Mike, who i grew up with? ya, sure, Mike too! He so wants me, and i know it….you know how you can just tell when they so obviously do? I love teasing him, merely by just standing in front of him, the occasional quiver of the lip, the smirt, you know the look, that “i know you wanna fuck me look”? lol 😀 😀
ah, life!!!
such a joy!
is this the goldent cirlce?
http://www.imeem.com/angelarivera/music/t7Qmxdzl/madonna_ray_of_light_live_8/
Good morning!!!!!!!!!!
bless you sweet thing!!!!!!!
😀 😀
Silence is an amazing thing when you think about it.
Did you know we humans have an average 60,000 seperate thoughts every day? wow!
We are seemingly of constant need to fill silence with noise, where being alone is seemingly a nightmare for them, fearful for them, unable to sit quietly in a room alone…i like it actually…exceedingly calming for the soul.
Notice how a pause in conversation, people become uncomfortable feeling silence, seemingly of embarrassment and they quickly fill it with chatter?
I like this spiritual saying…
See how nature; trees, grass, grow in silence; see the stars, the moon and the sun, how they move in silence…
i still see the gracefulness of the sunrise or sunset is of primal connectedness evolution in our brain which is of exact sameness connectedness with that of our own exceeding graceful state while at ease, peaceful exceeding grace by nature.
i connect with it daily, hourly, those moments of exceeding grace so calm, so genuine in feeling, of where we yearn to BE found, relaxed and at ease within and with others……..especially of the SPA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol
😀 😀
enjoy the blessed day
blessings to all
bless you
I find my best writing comes from the time spent while of meditation of morning sunrise and evening sunsets, where i feel at ease, at my best, of what is of who i am, of preference for the peaceful graceful state, where i meditate like those who work, of time spent in the laboratory of the mind.
here’s a good one;
The space(meditative thoughtful feelings) between the notes is what makes the music you enjoy so much.
this is true of us, is it not? What we feel while of music, our thought filled feelings and reflections? Of who we are inside…….loving and loved……..at all times, of and by ‘me’, si
si
bless you
hey!!!
my words of abandonment was not a threat of abandoment, ok?
not sure how you interpreted my words, so i will clarify….
the words of Jesus as to forsaken, we know fully 100% what is meant by the word forsaken, of the context of what is of most value in life, the positive mental emotional well BEing of SELF.
the words i speak are of my encouragement empowerment 100% for the divine child(true self) within to hear and embrace for sake of them at an intrapersonal awareness knowingness embrace, where the words are of prodding the true self within to BE of emotional honesty we know is constantly of yearning for us(the wise adult decision maker) to BE nurturing, protecing, unabandoning attentiveness to what is constantly of yearning for the divine child of God True Real Self YOU, to BE of cautious wise descerning in selection of correct inner circle friends and lovers of choice which work 100% WELL for the inner child SELF YOU, of wisely understanding that only conducive environments for growth of HAPPINESS and feeling LOVED and LOVING at all times, where indeed, of clasped hands, our divine child within is constantly of the hopefulness that we the adult parent is indeed paying attention to the feelings waiting to explode in HAPPINESS of EXCEEDING JOYFULNESS one found of the conducive environments we constantly yearn to always BE found of, eventually surrendered to of the journey of transition in establishing the trusting friendships of best friend lover partner and friends in life, (still with ‘me’ ?;), of what is the opposite of forsaken, that Jesus prods us using PURE TRUTH WORDS(his final words before he died), of what Jesus knew 100%, where his most significant words of his last breathes of life in the physical realm for us to fully of diligent, determined, dedicated, devoted zeal in our overcoming the truth wisdom awareness we know of that plaques the entire world, ‘Crucial Lacking of Desire for Wisdom.’
so please, don’t misinterpret the road i walk apon with all of YOU, and be of the true grace meditative self reflections that i come to you in earnest with wisdom meant for sake of your pure loving divine child of God True Real SELF, do i not?
im just broke, that’s all, of my own desire not to re-enter back into the horrible environments of retail again, that are too toxic for me to grow in mentally/emotionally, my decisions, no one elses, where i would rather be of little or no financial wealth, and be spiritually wealthy of excellent self-actualization, of what is greater than all the riches of the world, according to my own inner child who 100% holds onto his 100% pure feelings that are what is his awareness knowingness descerning wisdom who has had years of knowing 100% the difference of how he wants to feel, and is not able to feel, because of the many many many innappropriate others he constantly found himself surrounded by from one company to the next, now of no desire to return ever again, unwilling to at this time, a long vacation, time out, until the path ahead is revealed of the steps he will take apon waking each blessed day, perhaps of returning to University one day, once he gets the creditor monkeys of his back. lol
so ya, don’t misinterpret my words that are only of descerning wisdom, not projection or transference, no, merely of the physical world reality i am of today, by choice, of descerning wise healthy approach to positive mental emotional well being choice….where my words of you abandoning me, are not an attack on you, rather the reality of real life that grips my life, where your life is concern for me, where should i be of ability financially to be here like i obviously so much have wanted to be all this time, and yet want to, i merely am unable to….a temporary situation i am yet addressing.
i am merely giving you the heads up, that’s all, of why i cannot be here as much as i sincerely want to, which i think may be good for us both, to be of some down time of self reflection for awhile for sake of us both to yet grow in our both becoming free from anxieties of our old lives we have both now stepped out of M.
i see how healthy you are on stage, of great relaxed real you lately, and i am pleased to see and feel your self-actualization improving greatly more and more each day passing, of happiness restored for you within.
i am an email away, and if someday you want to find me in the ghetto, i am at my sacred cafe called Timothy’s(sacred to me, because it was Troy’s first legal name before he was adopted by the Bateman family)…i know, i likely won’t ever let go of Troy in life, and why should i, as he was the one who is cause for my heightened acute sensitivity i now am of, which serves me, as regards to everything, from slowing in proper selection of inner circle freinds and lovers to my writings which go on and on and on……….lol
if you feel compelled to look me up, don’t hesitate, as you know, i would love to meet you in real life, always have, still do, always WILL……..forever more
bless you
i love you Madonna
bless you bless you bless you
trust requires time to build bridges we become of with one another in life, and it is always of our own discretion of who when and how long we wish to take in establishing OUR DECISION CHOICE WILL of all inner circle friends and lovers in life, which we are 100% responsible for all decisions, feeling the consequences of our own decisions along life’s road…….CHOOSE WELL…….
as in healthy approach to YOUR mental emotional WELL BEing……..
and include me or don’t, but don’t leave ‘me’ unattented to long, as they are lining up outside my door as we speak.
what?
WELL, it is TRUE!
True of ‘me’, true of YOU, is it not?
i respect any and all decisions as regard our friendship at all times, respectful of YOU in doing so……YOUR LIFE DECISION CHOICE WILL, not mine, ableit, mine, as in, you are so mine!!!!!!!! 😀 😀
of a best true and faithful friend in life along life’s road forever more.
not sure if that clarifies for you, need i say more?
si?
si
blessings to all
bless you
“Right now Here is coming an ANGEL!!!”
“BEhold for the angel of the LORD speaks!!!!”
(andy trips and stumbles over his own feet again, as he makes his way to center stage.”
“Evening, evening, good evening, hi, how are you, hi, nice to meet you too, bless you, bless you, bless you, peace be to you, peace be to this house, bless you.”
“No one ever fails at anything. We are all born of the womb of God, and every precious loving innocent soul of the earth, is raised according to the household(s) they are raised in, and of life’s teaching along life’s road with one another daily. All my life i have questioned what is life about, or what is life supposed to BE, or what is the best for my life. Many years i thought like most think, this career or that career was what was important, not truly sitting and reflecting in a diliberate embracing of what TRULY matters and is of greatest significance in life than anything else. Today i realize it is about a conducive environment of no toxic stressors from others in life, of cognitive selective CHOICEs we make friends, lovers, and work places, where failing to address what is 100% of constantly loving friends and lovers, albeit, we do have to accept people’s idiosyncrisies, we can draw the line as to what extent of numerous and extent of level of intensity the idiosyncrisies are(we all have them), always our CHOICEs, no one elses, according to how OUR feelings are, no one elses. We are born alone and we die alone, and we make decisions alone(ultimately, we have the final say, albeit, advice is always recommended if stuck on the fence), as to who, and when we invite others into our lives, or not invite, but do invite others, as that is how we get our required needs met in maintaining our positive mental emotional WELL BEing.
In closing today, i do know 100% what HEAVEN is this day. It is the inner child within me who has been seeking all of his life of not giving up, what has always been constantly of yearning of my inner child, subconsciously/consciously now of my awareness knowingness 100% of what HEAVEN is, a conducive environment of someone who is of equal healthy self-actualization as i am, of many years of practice in doing so, therapists along the way, still of therapists today, where without doubt, the happiness of our inner child is only able to grow continuously, when the environments are FREE of unwise negativity of others, including the descerning wise thinking by means of our feelings before speaking, and/or wise thinking of not engaging in bitter conversations with those who entice us to do so, always of our power to simple say, no, i am not going to speak with you, so long as you are obviously upset, and not of your true exceeding graceful by nature state of SELF at ease while of peaceful at ease rest, such as meditation or the spa, where i choose not to engage for sake of ‘me’, for sake of you, where surrendering to the exceeding grace of our true self(grace of God), is what is true of ‘me’, true of you, of what, rather than the untrue manifestations of these unresolved issues any of you may want to address with ‘me’ or ‘me’ of any of YOU with one another.
Only thru commitment to our pure loving divine child of God True Real Self to always BE of the constant yearning of our divine child within to BE of peaceful loving by nature SELF at all times, are we able to extinguish fires within us from raging, which can take years to BEcome fully extinguished, where peaceful meditative sincere prayer while alone(only true sincere PURE prayer is possible while ALONE, for those of you who know meditation well, you know the truth of this), is how God extinguishes any and all fires within from raging, freeing us permenantly to a new day of forever more at rest state our inner child has been constantly of yearning to one day BE full of to FEEL in each and every passing moment of each LOVING blessed day we wake to, feelings LOVED by those of likemindedness as ‘that’ of our own approach to prioritize what HEAVEN is, where without doubt, we can safely conclude, we know fully, HEAVEN is of the 100% conducive environments 100% FREE of toxix negativity. Blessed are you who are of these beautiful environments you find yourselves of daily each blessed day you wake to.
Surrendering 100% to commitment to our steadfast diligent, determination, dedication, and devotion to learning the wisdoms of psychology and spiritual findings is 100%, the only way to achieve and maintain our sacred sanctuaries we indeed are 100% responsible for seeking and BEcoming of, 100% according to our DECISION CHOICE WILL in alignment with what we know to BE 100% TRUE for correct conducive environments for our inner child’s HAPPINESS to thrive and grow in, and if any of you want to argue this, well, go argue it with someone other than ‘me’, as classmate descency of humble easy relaxed discussion is the only way i will engage in open conversation with any from this day forward, where i need not even request this of any, rather, bluntly, i will point it out to you, so don’t stress about that one.
Once fulfilled in establishing the learning of the many required wisdoms that are required to BEcome fully of our selected conducive environments(eventually), without doubt, we experientially get to experience indeed, what HEAVEN is ~ the pure flowing exceeding joyful loving feelings of feeling LOVED and LOVING of and with another, especially(recommended) of the SPA!
Do not take light of the wisdom that is available to all of us in the on going studies of psychology and the theology everyone, as there is only ONE possible way for the door of HEAVEN to open for YOU that YOU can step thru and BE of what HEAVEN is, YOUR commitment to overcome ‘Crucial Lacking of Desire for Wisdom’, which yet grips and has gripped mankind down thru the mellenia to today, of all the unwisenesses of the unwise false teachings of the entire human history of the forefathers, yet being taught today thruout the entire world everyone, and will continue to be taught, so long as YOU, a pure loving divine child of God True REAL SELF does not make the commitment to BEcome of the require wisdoms which extinquish all unwiseness of bitter mindtraps that sadly yet fearfully snare the heart, mind, body, spirit and soul of so many precious innocent souls of the world today, and sadly, of many precious innocent souls of tomorrow.
I am here before you all today, to merely ask a simple question of you all, who wants to join Andy in the SPA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
NOW DAMN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol
i jest……………
no seriously, HEAVEN is constantly feeling LOVED and LOVING of and with another thruout your entire day, where one is easily able to be of the awareness knowingness of the entire day, as to if they did or did not feel LOVED and LOVING of and with another and others 100% thru out their entire day, and if not, ask why, and BE of YOUR DECISION CHOICE WILL CHOICES, your choices, no one else, of everything you turn towards, or not turn towards, of where your heart is, or is not, where rather silly it is indeed of any of us at any time to not turn towards TRUTH, LOVE, COMPASSION and WISDOM, is…….well……..not wise, is it not?
thank you for listening ~ BEing attentive to awareness knowingness feelings of the pure loving feelings of the divine child of God TRUE REAL SELF YOU
Jesus loves ALL God loves ALL
God blesses ALL
LOVED! LOVED! LOVED! LOVED!
LOVING! LOVING! LOVING! LOVING!
JOY! JOY! JOY! JOY!
HAPPINESS! HAPPINESS! HAPPINESS! HAPPINESS!
HEAVEN HEAVEN HEAVEN HEAVEN
blessings to all
bless you
Next time there is a pause in your conversations with others, say out loud, “Right now Here is coming an ANGEL!!!”, embracing to always BE of SELF reflection of PURENESS and TRUTH daily, if you can……something someone has recently taught me to do, exceeding joyful of spirit when we do, where some look at us and say, “What is wrong with those two!!!”
“Oh nothing, they think they are angels of HEAVEN.”
“Are they?”
“Who knows?”
“We know…on we go.”
si?
si
😀 😀
that is awesome Rosie, you let the kids skateboard in the house!!!
JOY! JOY! JOY! JOY!
who cares if something gets broken, as if anything in life is more valuable than life itself…….LOVING LIFE of our BELOVEDs.
blessings to you and your loving family and all those you love
HEAVEN according to Annie Lennox God bless Annie Lennox
http://www.imeem.com/people/dpxN2mL/music/g5VES0lz/annie_lennox_heaven/
bless you
http://www.rosie.com/
you r funny
“ooooooooooohhh,” *gasp* gulp* “romeo romeo romeo!!! ”
“was not sure if you were here or not, and with no one here, thought i would, well, you know, fuck around on the stage…”
HEY!!!!!!!!!!!
what’s up?
say, tall buildings, the sun, the moon, and….your loving feelings for me romeo?
you know, all day i think about you, wondering you too think of ‘me’ ?
so do ya?
(andy, yet again, sets himself up to be pushed into the swimming pool, drop kick style when ever Marco(romeo) is in a good mood or when ever he feels like it, as andy loves to tolerate anything from Marco, mostly of any time he has for andy 😉
and now, open your eyes and si
every second of the day
Duh !
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
‘me’ 2
lost the debilitating defeating ego!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
si?
si
bless you bless you bless you
huh !
anywaz, enjoy yr day,
love & light
let’s dance tonight
your correct….i am more insecure than you are….understandably so, considering the thrashing it took this year……of my inability to trust 100%, yet constantly yearning to trust 100%, so that i can Just BE my SELF…..
practicing daily now, free of the constricting critical others now, daily i am so incredibly feeling of total freedom from any and all critical others in life, of occasional snear of the public, of them being their own toxic self from transference and projections of others, si?
All is connected of affect/effect direct/indirect constantly of every second of everyday, indeed, on giant matrix in real time.
can you imagine one giant super computer being able to handle tracking everything everyone says in real time of every soul around the planet?
in that sense, the many many numerous radio stations, tv, internet, ipods, cd players, people, all serve M as an instrument of God, si?
a matrix of the subconscious/conscious self of ALL, where growth of Power of the Love of the ALL is what is indeed occurring in the world, looking back in retrospect of where we were and have come, conclusively the world is growing in the shifting of love over hate, wisdom over ignorance, compassion over apathy, where indeed, the worldwide telecommunications is of necessity in this regard, si?
how incredible must the responsibility of M must feel, knowingness awareness of this truth?
leading by example of Exceeding Joyfulness is the objective truth M and all of us, is what is of serving God’s WILL BE Done on earth, ‘that’ which HEAVEN is, si ?
si
‘that’ which is TRUE of YOU, true of ‘me’ 2, si ?
si
‘that’ which is LOVE of YOU, love of ‘me’ 2, si ?
si
‘that’ which is COMPASSIONATE of YOU, compassionate of ‘me’ 2, si ?
si
‘that’ which is WISE of YOU, wise of me 2, si ?
si
‘that’ which is CONSTANTLY YEARNING of YOU for what HEAVEN is, CONSTANTLY YEARNING of ‘me’ 2 ?
say si ya big sisssssy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
bless you
ok, dancing spinning dancing spinning dancing spinning we all fall down dizzy drunk from the bubbling stream which flows forth from the eternal fountain of living waters of spiritual life wisdom, intoxicated from the content of the highest purity truth wisdoms about the primal human being from the womb of God.
God is a female si?
😀 😀
actually, we are of God in God’s form, of God’s wisdom meant for us, or maybe we are just crazy ass drunk fools with nothing better to do than sit in the spa and…..well….you know ?
😀 😀
say i si i si i si i si i si i sissy !!!!!!!!!!!!!
dancing is the best experiential experience for self-actualization of the REAL SELF which constantly yearns to be of the freeness of natural occuring joyfulness within of and for another and others, great relaxation, and after, coming home, well……..
ah, life!!!!!!!!!!
JOY&LOVE!!!!!!!
where ya wanna go dancing?
that is the thing, our true self wants to do all these things, and we need to let ourselves out to go enjoy whatever it is we feel like doing, spontaneously so, no planning, albeit, planning, rather, paying close attention to what comes up for us within, is what is of importance, not of life is this way or that way, no, life is meant to be joyful and fun, of true free spirits of adventurous fun loving with another and others, leading by example of the HEAVEN is……..YOU.
blessings to all
blessed are you who come fully into knowingness awareness of YOU.
bless you
ya aware of your sensitivity
Si
me not big sissi, me very complex
me many things Si
me can be anything si
me very sexy si
ya i know…i am the big sissy, which is why i keep reminding myself, don’t be afraid, just BE YOU, the one who constantly yearns to BE fearlessly of joyful fun loving adventure, where i look apon life as our SELF is what is of only any greater importance and not any of the material things of life, where in truth, BEing self-actualized of the fun loving soul we are in truth, just wants to go do life, of whatever, whereever, however, whenever, with whoever, of why ever would YOU not want to BE of the spa with ‘me’?
I mean where is anything of any value at all, more valuable than the glowing feelings within of feeling LOVED and LOVING of another and others, of what is radiant brilliant bright of smiling faces, leading by the pure example of the truth of what we are, not weighed down by any mindtraps or critical opinion of others who apon close-up we see(feel) the truth of their life, do we not, these critical others, not of joyfulness, no, of useless jaded controlling fear mongering…yuk.
We are all our own enemies when it comes to releasing our SELF out of useless mindtraps of life is this way or that way, of this religious group or that, of this status or wealth or not, bullshit…..
and worse, we teach our own children all this crap of things like the useless pride and boastfulness of gold vessels of wealth held up high empty of love and compassion, when in truth, the loving feelings of compassion and love for those we can restore to radiant brilliant bright, of no ease in effort in doing so, is far more valuable than anything wealth could ever come close to feelings, of purity of the divine child within us all in doing so, of what is true of the divine Self, knowingness awareness in purity of heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, we are all the same.
i mean ya, sure, wealth can open adverture doors others may not be able to afford, but not that many more, and not any more adventure than one can participate in of lesser wealth in life of say outdoor biking or camping adventure for example. Heck, we have isolated beaches here in Ontario anyone can go to for free, and camp out all weekend long under the stars and the moon, waves crashing on the beach, oh how i love love love the beach…….having grew up on one.
complex eh?
hey, that reminds me, i don’t see the female and male sexually much different from one another, of exact same sensitivity biologically speaking of the sex organ stimulation and the instant brain sex from stimulation, wondering if the feeling of the female brain sex feels any different than what a male brain sex feels like…..
any thoughts on this?
😀 😀
Romeo?
Romeo?
Romeo?
where did you go?
hey, did you hear my question?
so what do you think? Is the male brain sex and different in feeling than the female brain sex with regards to the ‘instant pleasure level’ aspect of stimulation to the sex organ?
oh hey look, the modern day new Romeo and Juliet script is born!!!
😀 😀
what i feel is 100% true, is the pleasure sensation is not any different at all in pleasure feelings of the male or female, both 100% exactly the same.
biologically the sensitive parts of the sex organs we know are both identical for the female sex organ and the male sex organ, where the only difference, is the sensitivity of sensitive part of the female is of a higher density of sensitive tissue than that of the male, both of exact same brain sex pleasure sensitivity, so in that sense, the male and female are 100% the same, are we not?
aside from the other aspects of who carries the newly created human and the one who gets to feed the new born all day, while the other is out as a hunter gathering for the two of them.
well ok, that and PMS
ok, that and the unwelcomed male ego, a result of too much testosterone in the blood, where the male, get this, ACTUALLY thinks the female cannot live without the male!
can you believe that?
i mean these males don’t even know how to pleasure a female properly, all this butch bullshit deep voice, “I am a dominant male with a penis that you need female, do as i say.”
ah, no, the female does not need the male you moron, in case you had not noticed where the sensitive part of the female sex organ is yet, where in truth, the female would rather do with out you in truth, where indeed, females who do get together with another female, learn full well the truth of this, not ever to return to you dumb ass males! argh, so friggin egotistical these self serving males can be!
lol
😀 😀
ALL together now!
“WE ARE ALL EXACTLY THE SAME SEXUALLY MENTALLY EMOTIONALLY PHYSICALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”
ah, good then, class dismissed…..
so is there any need for these cliches of names we have for GLBT which are unnecessary seperations in truth, when we view what i feel is the correct way, the male and female are sexually the same as regards to brain sex pleasure?
Oh wait…….one second…….let me check again……….YEP! We all have brain sex pleasurable experience.
(andy waunders off stage yet again crumbling to himself like he always does, no one listening). 😉
lol
made ya laugh
“A Conducive Environment Of Someone Who Is Of Equal Healthy Self-Actualization As I Am”!!!
~ some more introspection ~
all are capable of what we embrace, where merely they need to prioritize what they come into knowingness awareness of what HEAVEN is, where indeed, they do daily experience the inner joy of sex and love, but they do not make it the 100% priority of their knowingness awareness of what HEAVEN is for their SELF, knowingness that thru out life, they will not find anything of any greater value than what we feel HEAVEN is, and that is a congnitive deep probing of introspection reflection that most fail to do intrinsically, conclusively, like we do, of a priority knowingness, indeed, there is nothing else in life beyond what HEAVEN is, and easily is the truth of just how significant and of priority Andy has place ON what HEAVEN is, has he not, what with his on and on and on words which reinforce his priority approach of obvious passionate knowingness awareness which is 100% PURITY TRUTH for the divine child of God True Real Self Andy, is it not?
with that said….memories of being with a female some twenty years ago, personally, i question why i went over to males today, as i truly loved the female experience, actually more so than the male homosexual experience as far as pleasure height goes, albit, the homosexual male who is of the female gay sexual experience, is one that is real for the gay (female) male…incredibly so, but not as incredible, in retrospect of memory, as that of the female male encounter, personally speaking, of a deeper pleasure i recall, at least it is for me, and perhaps after missing it for so long, is why i want to return…i just had not connected well with females in the past, like i do today, perhaps because i more fearlessly of my (female) male within emotionally, sensitive, wise, not afraid of my delicate effeminate true exceeding gracefulness(which i don’t really see as true of either the male or female primal brain), rather i am of preference for my delicate effeminate true exceeding gracefulness in tenderness subtle feeling, of BEing what i have been a long time, TRUE REAL SELF…still, i cannot help but wonder why a female would be of trusting enough in consideration of a (female) gay male of twenty years, and indeed, i am speculative as to if a female is willing enough to trust me, which is why i have continued at length like i have as to the depth and breadth of my understandings like i have, truly indicative of how truly i do want to BE with a female lover again……..
again, i ask, WHO WANTS TO BE WITH ANDY OF THE SPA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
tic toc tic toc
patience of Job
i think i know how Job felt, passionately so, was he not?
what was it, 40 years he waited?
what time is it, ah damn………
TRUST is what is troubling me most, the trust issue of the female to be able to love and trust me, an OUT bisexual.
i am not of promiscuity, despise it actually, knowing the contributing dynamics are of low self-esteem, where promiscuity derails relationships every time……..
Truly, HEAVEN is of the 100% level, which is what is key to fully feeling what we feel HEAVEN is, it feels 100%.
Here is what YOU need to embrace fully…..it is of primal 100% PURITY of our brain, to BE and remain of the 100% level objective truth.
I am one who merely wants to unlock the primal brain for sake of ALL, into the pure wisdom perspectives that are 100% true, and reveal what it is that you are feeling to
everyone, merely by leading by example, of no, life is not this way or that, this religion or that religion, this wealth or that wealth, this career or that career, no, life is what
HEAVEN is to us, of the PURITY feelings that do glow radiant brilliant bright within, of and with another and others, of where no element of doubt is allowed to enter, because of our priority and wise ability to focus intently, intentional, deliberately, dedicatedly determinely, diligently, devotedly of what HEAVEN TRULY is to us in 100% knowingness awareness, delicate, gentle, mild, exceeding grace, peaceful, loving….always loving….
and oh how i want to BE of the SPA right NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
damn chasty lock…….still cannot find the key………
OHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I FOUND IT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LOL
😀 😀 😀 😀
TRUST in SELF is what Self-actualization is about, trusting of the truth in awareness knowingness of just how delicate and sensitive we really are, and the truth of what we now know to be true of the divine child within, ‘that’ which is of clasped hands of CONSTANTLY YEARNING to SURRENDER to ONE we can 100% TRUST, si?
“i don’t see the female and male sexually much different from one another, of exact same sensitivity biologically speaking of the sex organ stimulation and the instant brain sex from stimulation, wondering if the feeling of the female brain sex feels any different than what a male brain sex feels like…..
any thoughts on this?”
I get the impression that the female has more fun, definitely.
Well, she does when she’s with me, anyway … 🙂
“i think i know how Job felt, passionately so, was he not?
what was it, 40 years he waited?”
I’ve thought of Job several times over the years. Job had it easy.
ha
hmmmm…..it seems there is more to the female sex organ than most know.
aside from the organ itself, what i am curious about is the feelings of the brain sex as regards the male or female where the question is, “How is it possible for the female or the male to ever know if the brain sex feels the same or not, as far as sensory pleasure perception?”
It is a perplexing question where i do believe the sensory pleasure perception that occurs in our brain, is exactly the same for both the female and the male.
I am not talking about waundering thought here, rather, the immediate brain response to what is a sensory perception, like hearing, smell, taste, touch, sight.
I am certain, the sensory activates in the brain exactly the same for both sexes, from a pure body function view point, obviously of significance, of organs which are for creating another human being.
Of course, there is alot more to the picture than meets the eye, as to why the pleasure aspect, where indeed, great is the enjoyment of so many different chemicals the brain releases into the body during sex, of so many ‘feel good’ chemicals the brain manufactures and releases, huge stress relievers, including dopamine – important for emotional processing, cognition, motor and behavioural outputs.
of course, all these things are likely just part of survival of the species.
So i ask, WHO WANTS TO SURVIVE WITH ANDY IN A HOT TUB???!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
pleasure pleasure pleasure!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hey, did you know the activity of smiling(humor) releases a bunch of ‘feel good’ brain chemicals?
Yep!
“who knew?!!!!”
all this sex talk your making me blush
ha
blush eh?
ah, …..i doubt very much it is my words that are making you blush……
😀 😀
im bored
(Well, she does when she’s with me, anyway …)
so who is the girl?…….Andrew?
lol
well, i don’t know what to say, other than i know i am a female in a male body, of female brain sex awareness knowingness exactly that of a female…..without doubt……..i know this to be 100% true in experience of awareness connectivity of my own brain sex.
that is why i ask the question, of what is it like to be a girl.
i know what it’s like to be a girl……as i am one.
i am also male.
hmmmm….this could be fun Andrew! So it’s a date?
😀 😀
i am ONE, both male and female.
as a female role playing as a male with another female male, i have felt the pureness of exceeding joyfulness connectedness within me, in feeling the disarming effeminate female male which is like being attracted to my female self, of great tenderness of respect and pure harmony with while of tangled body lover delight.
which is what works for me, the female SELFof ‘me’ that connects in a more true way with the female SELF of another, be it male or female……
ONEness.
so is it a date Andrew?
😀 😀
Romeo?
Romeo??
are you going to ask me for a date Romeo??!!!!!!!!
im bored!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol
😀 😀
arghhhhh………you guys are boring me to tears!
and yes, my brain sex does 100% feel like i am of a females body, which is why i wonder if it is true…well….not really wonder…..rather wonder if it is true of other males who feel as though of a female body of their brain sex like i do, in a cognitive awareness as though they feel of a female body….
here is a thought……a female butch(male) lesbian woman and a male effeminate(female) male gay man, would make for a perfect couple, and viceversa of the usual female male copulation……..
much like gays and lesbians of role playing do………
question is, who is the right one for Andy?
they would have to be of alot of truth and dare, si?
si
😀 😀
Romeo?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
arghhhhhhhhh…….men are so unreliable!!!!!!!!!!
lol
im here i hear you, but as you know i don’t like the games, so i don’t participate
anyway yes,
get it chopped off then
then you can be Butch like me
omg i’m so not confused with all this
huh?
oh, i don’t be thinking so!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(frustrated yet again, andy walks off stage, back to his usual night alone, singing the words, “Until i learned to love my SELF, i was never ever ever loving any body else……happiness lies in you own hands………….”
lol
“my baby has a secret…………….NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!”
lol
ohhhh, so you wish you could be me, do ya?
lol
and all this time i have wished i could be like you…….si?
si
so marry ‘me’, and BEcome ONE like ‘me’, BEcome ONE with and of ‘me’, si?
si
😀 😀
when the two BEcome ONE, and you make the outer like the inner?
i forget that scripture…..brb……..i will look it up………
omg, did you know in Heaven they are all androgonous, far less confusing my Dear
ya, that is why everyone is almost always instantly attracked to someone who is dressed androgonously, like many lesbians do, where you cannot tell right away if they are male or female, of what is innate in our brain to try and figure out, and while doing so, the door of both sexes in our brain, is unlocked momentarily, giving us that wonderful sensation of ONEness when we do, si?
si
i don’t even see the psyche of female and male much different, primal speaking, albeit, different of taught/learned behavoural of generational teaching/learning….although today it is less so, and obviously of many everywhere we go…….
i love the world today, so much more joy than ever before, of genuine true self, a more conducive environment for all of us, relaxingly so.
Ambiance of Heaven
http://www.imeem.com/spankmehard/music/mJucpHLe/madonna_ray_of_light_ambient_edit/
Madonna is back in her old stomping grounds of Detroit tonight.
Enjoy the evening Madonna, and yes, i too despise games, and if i have done so, it is just my insecurity, that’s all, not true of my true emotional depth….so forgive me for that if you felt i did….i am just an insecure twit somedays, that’s all, of how my life has been up till now, truth of all of us, that who we all are, is of how our entire has been up till today.
not all of us have had conducive environments to thrive in, and that is my priority now, and indeed, i am of one of the better conducive environments thus far, although not as good as it could be………
ah well…….at least i am 100% of the priority for correct environment for my SELF, of what is my priority in life from now on…….forever more…….
i figure, at least i figured it out for myself half way thru life, and not like many who don’t ever come to terms with SELF, so i feel fortunate in that regard.
bless you Madonna bless you
oh, you mean the long hair?
ya, me too, i want to let my hair grow long….finally, no need to cut it, of work places that sometimes expect it, no, i am going to do relaxed for awhile……….
or are you talking about the ghetto?
ya, all of what HEAVEN is
short hair too, i love……..i just don’t look well with short hair…….some do, i don’t………
actually, i love to play chess, checkers, some card games, bored games, but not painful head games…..that’s just not ‘me’
i yearn for pure trust, genuine love, sincerely, of what is of the divine child of God True Real Self at all times, when if the correct conducive environments of our selection of work places, friends, lovers, and unfortunately, not our biological family, and yet, all of us are indeed evolving in self-actualization, where some of us are fearless in doing so, of setting healthy boundaries which take into account what is healthy conducive environments for sake of the positive mental emotional well being, and thriving growth of what is most significant to self-actualization of the divine child of God True Real SELF…….Happiness of Exceeding Joyfulness as much as humanly possible, where all the time, is possible…………merely by our WILL BE Done on earth, ‘that’ which HEAVEN is……..YOU
blessings to you and those you love forever more
Jesus loves ALL God loves ALL We love ALL
God blesses ALL
bless you bless you bless you
i love Madonna
always did always WILL always
forever more
bless you Madonna bless you
bless you
peace be to this house
bless you
peace be to you
bless you
and peace be to you
bless you
i know without doubt……i am a most loving lover……..we all are, merely by our WILLINGNESS to Just BE your SELF
blessings to all
sweetest of dreams are of the dream lovers dreaming loving dreams of a dreaming lover dreaming the same dream
blessed are you who come to truly know your SELF
bless you
A blonde in Heaven
A Blonde was sent on her way to Heaven. Upon arrival, a concerned St
Peter met her at the Pearly Gates.
I’m sorry,’ St Peter said; ‘But Heaven is suffering from an overload of goodly souls and we have been forced to put up an Entrance Exam for new arrivals to ease the burden of
Heavenly Arrivals.’
‘That’s cool’ said the blonde, ‘What does the Entrance Exam consist of?’
‘Just three questions’ said St Peter.
‘Which are?’ asked the blonde.
‘The first,’ said St Peter, ‘is, which two days of the week start
with the letter ‘T’ ‘?
The second is ‘How many seconds are there in a year?’
The third is ‘What was the name of the swagman in Waltzing Matilda?’
‘Now,’ said St Peter, ‘Go away and think about those questions and
when I call upon you, I shall expect you to have those answers for me.’
So the blonde went away and gave those three questions some
considerable thought (I expect you to do the same).
The following morning, St Peter called upon the blonde and asked if
she had considered the questions, to which she replied, ‘I have.’
‘Well then,’ said St Peter, ‘Which two days of the week start with
the letter T?’
The blonde said, ‘Today and Tomorrow.’
St Peter pondered this answer for some time, and decided that indeed
the answer could be applied to the question. ‘Well then, could I have your answer to the second of the
three questions?’ St Peter went on, ‘how many seconds in a year?’
The Blonde replied, ‘Twelve!’
‘Only twelve?’ exclaimed St Peter, ‘How did you arrive at that
figure?’
‘Easy,’ said the blonde, ‘there’s the second of January, the second
of February, right through to the second of December, giving a total of twelve seconds.’
St Peter looked at the blonde and said, ‘I need some time to
consider your answer before I can give you a decision.’
He walked away shaking his head. A short time later, St Peter
returned to the Blonde.
‘I’ll allow the answer to stand, but you need to get the third and
final question absolutely correct to be allowed into Heaven. Now, can you
tell me the answer to the name of the swagman in Waltzing Matilda?’
The blonde replied: ‘Of the three questions, I found this the
easiest to answer.’
‘Really!’ exclaimed St Peter, ‘And what is the answer?’
‘It’s Andy.’
‘Andy??’
‘Yes, Andy,’ said the blonde.
This totally floored St Peter, and he paced this way and that,
deliberating the answer. Finally, he could not stand the suspense any
longer, and turning to the blonde, asked ‘How in God’s name did you arrive
at THAT answer?’
‘Easy’ said the blonde, ‘Andy sat, Andy watched, Andy waited til his
billy boiled.’
And the blonde entered Heaven…
lolllll
((((((((SMILING))))))))
ya, i did watch along time, indicative of sincerity, genuine and true, of the pure loving joyful divine child of God True Real Self Andy!!!!
Just BEing ‘me’
the ONE who can si YOU any time YOU FEEL like ‘me’
si?
si
😀 😀
still my favorite number ONE
http://www.imeem.com/angelarivera/music/t7Qmxdzl/madonna_ray_of_light_live_8/
si me now ! ok soon, dinner but only if your blond and female
how is the tour going? have a great week lady!!!
3dollaallhollanobothabill
once a jolly swagman, now a bastard of oz,,, pfft!
so,, molly meldrum said you were coming?!?!?!?!?!?
down under!!!
beating the drum ringing the bells!!!!
xxx
amateurfauxpasfacade myspace ????
this Guy’s A bastard
http://aspcacommunity.ning.com/group/stopping
No, it was an all an act. The dogs were fine.
Hi Angel Eyes,
Having friends in life is very important. And I am glad you found a great friend in Gwenneth. I saw a video once from u both dancing on a gig from her husband… U both were having such fun….
Talking about your problems with friends is very helpfull. It can be a relievement of the mind.
Oh MAdonna, sometimes I pitty you … you have a total different spot in this world then most people have…
How can a popicon know which people she can trust in a STAR enviremont ?
To be famous as you are, is it hard to find real close friends with whom you can built a longterm friendship ?
I’m sure you have felt yourself alone alot in your life….
Anyway I am not changing my opinion ….
WAUW !! What you realise in this stage and periode in your life… I cant find the words…
And like your manager said … WHATEVER THAT IS THAT YOU WANT TO DO MADONNA… YOU CAN DO IT
You have very devoted fans out there… 🙂
Keep it up hun !
Greetz,
Kev
waiting for the real thing….i know it by the feeling(loved and loving of and with another 100% at all times, sincere, genuine, no act, just being ‘me’)
i don’t like being anything other than what i am, genuine, sincere, tender, mild, joyful, graceful, loving, loved, of what we all constantly yearn to feel and indeed do with some along life’s road, merely by our staying true and connected to our True Real Self, someone to love……..
nobody wants to do it on their own……..nobody wants to be the last one there, everyone wants to feel like someone cares….
loved and loving
http://www.imeem.com/people/E1PcNwz/music/c2v-gOxz/nickelback_gotta_be_somebodymp3/
+
holy holy holy
is the pure loving divine child of God True Real Self YOU
bless you bless you bless you
you are loved by Jesus, God and ‘me’
+
seemingly, no one is seeking……….for what is of greater value than all the riches of the world.
i know 100% what is of greatest priority, and indeed i know, just as i know you know……..
uncertainty is of the immature aimless minds.
get this, i tried yesterday explaining the primal grace connectedness the human brain has with the morning sunrise, and without hesitation, they did not even register in a cognitive knowingness awareness way, slowing of grace in thinking by means of their feelings, and straight away the quipped back at me, a useless remark, going on about something else of another topic, not even taking time to really feel the words i took time to say, of what i feel were of the most valuable of words for them to ever hear in their life, where i back up and quipped back at them, tuning out anything they were saying, i said, “You are annoying for ‘me’, take care.” and walked away. lol
argh……is there anyone who is self-actualized, sincerely of understanding and seeking what is pure and true of them, of primal understanding, of what works for them and another lover just like them?
i am doing real from now on, and i am not pretending to be anyone other than who i am, who i always have been, a simple easy going country boy born and raised in the country side of rural Ontario Canada, of what i truly am, a free fun loving joyful boy named Andy…..waiting for the real thing, knowing by the feeling, the moment when we are meeting……..
i am done with fearful others of no commitment to their own real self, being their real self at all times, fearlessly so, of sincere loving approach who like me, yearns to trust of me like i do them, in their genuine real self speaking with me, of no useless alias of names, albeit it fun i suppose, but in truth, lame, where in real life, real people, they have beautiful names like Nick, Tray, Brenda, Josh, Madonna, Leo……..ordinary real life, defenses down, of genuine approach and delight of spending time with me, obvious by the radiance in their eyes, and of mine, of what works for them, of what works for the real self ‘me’……..Andy
holy holy holy
is the pure loving divine child of God True Real Self YOU
bless you bless you bless you
you are loved by Jesus, God and ‘me’ Andy
we are loving and loved at all times by Jesus, God and each other at all times
truly, i love you all of YOU
bless you
without doubt, there is nothing more valuable in life than feeling 100% LOVED and 100% LOVING of and for another and others, of what HEAVEN is
so go ahead, anyone of you, and be of use remark, of no sincerity in genuine emotional honesty pure and true of you with Andy, and he will see right thru you, walking away when you do…….
😀 😀
for sure, Andy is done with useless words of uncertainty which lead to no where, and certainly not to Andy, where he is just being real from now on, expecting 100% the same of each and everyone of you, and truly, i have no time for insincerity or those of you with no zeal or passion to speak with ‘me’, as many there are in life who are, and really, in truth, is that not 100% what we all constantly yearn for, to BE of the spa with a most loving lover of tangled bodies so incredible and beautiful the loving lovers are of pure delightfulness of, ……of,…………of……………….what is true of you, true of them?
was the last time i checked………still is………..of the only place i want ever to be found in life, the loving lover embrace of the most loving lovers who walk the planet forever more…………
it’s time, and i am running to this in life………..REAL LIFE, of the REAL YOU of all of YOU.
blessings to all
blessed are you who truly know your real self, and are your real self as much as possible, inspite of toxic others who may not be conducive for you to Just BE your SELF.
many there are in life who are able to Just BE their SELF with me daily, and that is what i love, those of you who are fearless of what anyone thinks, radiant brilliant bright, of good self-esteem of your own body, heart, mind, spirit and soul, for sure, i yearn to always BE of nurturing of YOU, protecting of YOU at all times, and indeed, many of YOU have come to know this fully about ‘me’ in real life, of what i have been for many miles apon life’s road, of what i yearn to always so easily love to Just BE………’me’……..Andy
blessings to all
bless you
holy holy holy
is the pure loving divine child of God True Real Self YOU
bless you bless you bless you
you are loved by Jesus, God and ‘me’ Andy
we are loving and loved at all times by Jesus, God and each other at all times
truly, i ask, who wants even to feel even 1% of uncertainty of or for another?
no one.
and why?
We are all of primal constant yearning to surrender to feel LOVED and LOVING of and for another….at all times, it is of primal constant yearning within us all.
what is surprising, is how we tend to suppress this pure truth about us all, seemingly not connected in knowingness awareness of the pure truth of their real self, where indeed, many there who operate from subconscious approach, not having taken the time to come fully into living in the now of their pure constant loving feelings they feel in each passing moment of their pure loving divine child of God True Real Self, of healthy self-actualization in approach with another, sincere feelings and tenderness of words, like, “i miss you!”, or “I think about you all the time, when can we get together again?” or “Hey, let’s go to the spa!!!” lol 😀 😀
“YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”
grapping each others hand tenderly and tight, off they go to true loving real life forever more of everlasting life, sincere, genuine and true of both in each passing moment, especially of the spa………..sauna too…….all of life, so long as love is sincere and true of both, and indeed is of us all, even if of subconscious unknowing awareness, in truth, we are all of constant yearning to Just BE what we all yearn to BE, our true constant yearning feelings to BE LOVING and LOVED ~ what HEAVEN is.
holy holy holy
is the pure loving divine child of God True Real Self YOU
bless you bless you bless you
im bored, can you tell? 😉
bless you
*gasp*gulp*
OMG!!!! Is it just ‘me’, Andy of too many Pride Parades, who things Madonna looks like a boy in this picture?
http://mail.google.com/mail/?ui=2&ik=ebb6241c38&view=att&th=11db6c98720893d1&attid=0.1&disp=inline&realattid=f_fnqiwm0j0&zw
ok….it’s just ‘me’, and my imagination…………
lol
😀 😀
im bad, i know
wishful thinking on ‘my part’…….lol
😀 😀
wow! i have not seen Madonna with a………before NOW!!!!!!!…damn it……..
amazing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
😀 😀
soooooooooo homoerotica!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
there’s gotta be some body for ‘me’ like ‘that’!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol
http://www.imeem.com/people/E1PcNwz/music/c2v-gOxz/nickelback_gotta_be_somebodymp3/
😀 😀
by now, Rosie is rolling around on the floor in mad hysterical laughter, with Kelly asking, “What is so funny?”
lol
omg……this is just too perfect for ‘me’ !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
😀 😀
there are those who dream, and then there is Andy!!!
lol
😀 😀
as i wish apon a star, i wish……this dream could be true, ableit, true of ‘me’.
ah, forget it Andy, you’re just going to have to settle for a homosexual life……..bah!
(andy walks off stage for the final time, actually thinking, how perfect it would be if only it was not just him feeling the same way, ‘that’ of a boy, and ‘that’ of a girl, he knows he is fully of both, of what HEAVEN is for Andy)
i am blond and female……..and male!
dinner?
how about breakfast, lunch and dinner everyday?
with you with you with you with you!
just asking………
😀 😀
ok then
Destiny of God is WISDOM
Fate is of all things devoid of God’s WISDOM
it is essential to embrace this truth 100%, as God’s WISDOM of feeling LOVED andLOVING is what HEAVEN is
obvious is the world of the many many voids devoid of LOVE
indeed, the world is going against it’s SELF, is it not, of what HEAVEN is
truly, those who are 100% of what HEAVEN is, FEEL the TRUTH of FEELING LOVED and LOVING, and we also FEEL the TRUTH of that which is NOT of the joyful HEAVENLY LOVING FEELINGS, do we not?
merely by BEing what HEAVEN is, one leads by example, not of effort, rather of what is 100% true of the pure loving divine child of God True Real Self of ALL of us.
Obviously, many do not bring to the forefront of the minds, of what HEAVEN is, in fully embracing the TRUTH, there is nothing of any value than of what HEAVEN is in life.
Truly we know this to BE 100% TRUE.
bless you
look around….
people do not approach life in knowingness awareness, wisely so, of what HEAVEN is.
not only do they not come fully into awareness knowingness of their own subconscious, in so doing, they are not able to prioritize what HEAVEN is.
so long as people do not fully embrace what HEAVEN is 100%, they will not be of God’s divine WILL BE Done on earth, that which HEAVEN is, not of ability to prioritize what HEAVEN is, so long as they do not fully 100% BE of constant awareness connectedness of the constant yearning of divine child within which does know the truth, silently hoping, praying, and occassionally fearless in BEing what HEAVEN is, feeling LOVED and LOVING, where society oppresses and suppresses this of their own divine child within, do they not?
we know the TRUTH
God knows the TRUTH
and without doubt, many there are in the world of the voids devoid who FEEL the TRUTH of how self serving the world is.
i have despised the world for along time, and i look to the future that the only way the world can change, is when those who are of knowingness awareness of what HEAVEN is, KNOW 100% that BEing the TRUTH of their divine child within in outward appearance, is what is of the MIRROR for the divine child within of others, easily leading by example of the divine child within us all, of what is of 100% priority(easily so) of what HEAVEN is, BEing 100% of constant awareness connectedness of the constant yearning of divine child within, of the many yearnings of happiness, joyfulness, fearlessness, calm, relaxed, graceful, fun loving, EXCEEDING HAPPINESS building within and within of many in doing so!
bless you
i have one question…..
“Who knows 100% what HEAVEN is?”
bless you
i know
and so does the precious loving divine child of God True Real Self within everyone, subconsciously seeking and yearning to BEcome fully into the Kingdom of HEAVEN LOVE devoid of doubt, of what HEAVEN is, the wise descerning perspective halo of our descerning feelings that knows 100% the TRUTH at all times of everything the divine child within us all feels.
Indeed, the useless absurd suppression and oppressions of those who control by means of fear, business, church, government, and those not wise of what Heaven is, boastful pride of wealth for example, is why the world is yet the way it was when Jesus walked the earth, is it not?
we are of clarity of our feelings of sight restored to our souls forever more, of the TRUTH of our feelings that does not fail in knowingness awareness.
bless you
it is sad for all souls of the earth who are not of 100% awareness priority of what HEAVEN is, their own divine child within yet suppressed, oppressed by the unwise world that leads them away from what is of exceeding joyfulness, pure and sincere, fearless surrendering to BE of LOVING and LOVED of and for another and others, the absurdness of so many wretched ill regimes of government, the absurdness of gross materialism yet promoted to such levels like it is, the absurdness of fear mongering religions who yet think God is going to judge us all, utter absurdness nonsense to think a father or mother would want anything other than love, and wisdom for their own child, things we know to BE 100% TRUE of our feelings for our Beloved children and family, where it is clear, the churches of today, do not fully know God, just as they do not their own divine SELF, do not fully desire God, just as they do not fully desire to know SELF, and obviously so in outward appearance, are they not?
~ Discerning Wisdom by means of our feelings
The most over looked aspect of the divine child within us all, is the CONSTANT aspect to always feel LOVED and LOVING of and with another and others at all times, subconsciously seeking and hoping to one day be found of such.
blessed are you who are of constant feelings of feeling loved and loving of another and others, for truly you know what HEAVEN is.
bless you
oh i am sooooooooooo bored, i need someon to cuddle up to
‘me’ two!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
😀 😀
sweet dreams……..
🙂 🙂
Madonna’s divorce is sorted, apparently.
Great dress 😐
Madonna looks fit, though.
that green thing?
kinda funky, but i would not wear it, unless of course they paid me to wear it, then i would wear it.
oh, she was likely paid to wear it….
good morning!
it snowed all night last night. I love the cool crisp air, so refreshing!
for sure is in prime physical condition, still, i know i could beat her in an arm wrestle….. 😀
Put your Legs up for Detroit
Put your Leg’s up for Detroit..
How was your day/night ??
Hummmm >??
each day sees me more and more self-actualized, like this morning, of the morning sunshine, standing on the sidewalk, feeling so at ease in just BEing ‘me’, of no hurry to BE anything, other than feeling of wholeness thru and thru, where i am truly happy and loving of my SELF, living in the now, praying you too feel self-actualized of the SELF we always were, where i actually felt 100% as the same as i felt back i high school, of the same calmness and living in the moment, of no urgency whatsoever, no, knowing i am loved and loving at all times, truly confident in ‘me’, no matter what of anything, of the ‘me’ who is wise, of the ‘me’ who is truly of my own grace, of the ‘me’ who has sexual feelings, loving of my own body like i truly do, loving of the body, heart, mind, spirit and soul of anyone, in truth, knowing i am of loving with others, knowing they are able and do feel my sincere love for them, of love devoid of doubt. Yeah, sure, we all have our hangups, mine included, but in truth, we are all the same inside, even of those who’s true self is mostly submerged.
i prefer being conscious of the delicate subtle subconscious, like that of the subtle delicateness of when we are just falling asleep.
We are sensitive at all times, even if we do not acknowledge it, where living in the now awareness, is what self-actualized for ‘me’ is.
last night was spiritual for me, with the snow slowly falling, recalling of my own feelings i have felt of so many winters gone by, particularly of the feelings i felt while living in the country, so at ease the feeling, here in the city, feeling the city is more of a small town feeling for me, than of what it actually is, connected of the ones walking on the street, the disconnect of the cars rushing past, of the commuters exiting the city…not of the same spirit of those who dwell here like we do, of simple life, ease of heart, picking something up at the loco shop for dinner, wine, anticipation of the evening ahead….
what does hummmm>?? mean, is that some kinda mantra?
Ohmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
or a question?
question not, my love is constantly true for you at all times….every second. duh! 😉 😀
ONEness of heart, mind, body, spirit and soul is what i am
i am…BE Cause….We are….ONEness of heart, mind, body, spirit and soul forever more
bless you
I just saw the green dress, actually i quite like the look , miss America M is back,
(what happened in London lol, )
yay , M is back, the one we all know so well.. yay double yay
well…i know ‘me’ well, not sure if you know ‘me’ well, albeit, know ‘me’ well of you, however know ‘me’ well of the ‘me’ of ‘me’………..??………….ok, yeah, you know ‘me’ of you, so yeah, you know ‘me’ WELL, or, i pray, you want to know ‘me’ WELL, as in WELL it’s about time!….as in love ‘me’ WELL damn it!…as in how swell it wood BE for you to truly desire to know ‘me’ WELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WELL?????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol
😀 😀
oh oh….the moderation is on…….does this mean i can say what i want to say?
or does it only moderate every other one…….hummmm>??
hummmmm>??
someone is moderating it right now as i type?
oh, i see, it moderates when i use the two smiley faces… 😀 😀
i want to marry you forever more!!!
😀 😀
hummmmm>??
London?
oh, the divorce is final, and merely the announcement.
yay double yay
now you can marry ‘me’ forever more!!!!
of what we both have been and are already for so long, the one you love, the one i love, YOU
let me know when you want to see me, as i do want to be alone with you, getting to know you better and to feel at ease in how i know you are of a pure spirit while of the beach like you do
you know i love you 100% pure and true, of my genuine emotional honesty of only pure loving feelings for you and you of ‘me’
i always have, afraid of my purity love i have felt for you all these years.
i want us to be what is true of us both, pure true HAPPINESS everday, and you merely need take a chance on me and spend time to find out for sure, that my love for you is 100% love devoid of doubt, of the only one i want to be with the rest of my life, unable to turn away from you or think of another, knowing i cannot, i just cannot, only if you move on am i able to let go, and even then i will always want to be with you like i have for so long
just take a chance on me, when you are ready, alone, no one else around, just you and me alone, where our defenses are down for one another and i can relax and just BE me. I don’t handle the presence of others very well, an insecurity thing i have of most anyone while around them, but of you i don’t, knowing i trust you because i know your pure love for me is exactly that of my own, the love in the eyes of the we have for each other, and i know you know what i am saying when i say this…..you know i am 100% loving of you, the real you, the self-actualized real you who i want as my lover forever more, everyday, love love love love with you when ever we feel like it, public places too! lol
let’s do this and find out for ourselves. I know you will love me sexually, i just know you will, like i know 100% i will of you.
when you are ready, it is up to you, and i will wait for you, you know i will, as long as you need, i am of great patience, as you know…..i do feel loved by you more than i ever realized, and i need to know just how much. You know i need to know.
if of friendship only, i am ok with that, i suppose, still, i will always wonder why you would not take a chance with me to find out…….
it is your decision to make, and i am patiently understanding, no matter how much time you need to finally come and see me, knowing how much i want to see you, like i always do when you are in Toronto.
you have no idea how hard it was for me not to see you when you were here….all day i was anxiety ridden, seemingly unable to cope, wanting to see you so much….i finally went and had a drink to calm down……
😀 😀
Ohhmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
this is sweet!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
now i can chat privately with you
thank you God thank you
thank you Jesus thank you
bless you Jesus bless you bless you bless you
bless you Madonna bless you bless you bless you
i love you Madonna i love you
bless you bless you bless you
yay double double yay
😀 😀
ohhmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
you know, i think about you constantly, hanging on your every word, praying you say something loving.
i did not want to be so public, and i have held back like i did, because you were married, and i did not feel correct in approaching, of God not to, where i had to let you decide without to much of my own desire for you, yet i have been rather obvious of my love for you, even as much as i tryed to hide it from the world and you like i have for so long…..
you are a blessed soul Madonna, of purity of 100% love devoid of doubt, and i know this about you, because i too am of the surrendered heart, mind, body, spirit and soul to Jesus and God.
i am curious to know all you have learned over the years, as i am sure you too want to.
here it the thing, the purity clarity of our pure connectedness with our pure feelings, is how we are able to discern of the subtleness like we do….this is an on going learning of many things yet in purity understanding of the the way one is able to feel what HEAVEN is, at all times, of the purity of our true self…
i know you know, and have known this of your self for some time, having watched you grow.
forgive me in not contacting you sooner…i had issues i too was working thru and am yet working thru, where today, i feel better than i ever have, of true self-actualization of my true self, standing in the same grace i was as a teen in high school, and i love ‘me’, like i did then, thru and thru, where we just don’t tolerate anyone who is absurd with us, do we?
i love you and i want to always be with you. you know i do. you have known this about me for along time, as much as i tryed to hide it from myself, i will not any longer. This is our chance in life to find out if true HAPPINESS is for us.
i want to be free with you, just for you, only you, of the depth of my love i am, of how long love has been for me in my pure loving thoughts of you like i have for so long, i just know we would be perfect for each other in life, sincerely loving of one another.
if you need me, let me know, i am here waiting just for you.
😀 😀
ohmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
i know you know that i cannot return to life and turn from you.
you know this about me 100%.
i cannot and i am here before you of the truth, i cannot turn from you, of my sincere desire for you that i have.
i have to know what you want to do, and i cannot turn away from you until you tell me otherwise.
i am here
take as long as you need to approach, knowing i am not leaving until you make a decision regarding me.
i have searched my soul in telling you this truth. I cannot turn from you, and i don’t want to until you tell me to.
i love you with all that i am, as one who wants to always be of your world everyday, of the most loving lovers we shall always be, daily, if you must know, i love sex daily, and have since puberty. I am 100% healthy in this regard.
take a chance on me and find out, that is all i am asking, knowing you will love me when you do, and without doubt, i know i will, just as i do everyday…..
😀 😀
i’ll come bak after
i know 100% what i am within of YOU, 100% loving of YOU for sake of what HEAVEN is, 100% CONSTANTLY FEELING LOVED and LOVING of and with YOU CONSTANTLY at all times, every blessed second of every blessed day i know we WILL BE, of our pure 100% WILL BE Done on earth, of what HEAVEN is to us both, where we are 100% of the knowingness awareness our LOVE is CONSTANT.
i prayed to God, “Please God make is so”, crying because i know how HAPPY we WILL always BE.
what HEAVEN is to ‘me’ is the only thing that matters to ‘me’, to CONSTANTLY BE of our YEARNING to BE CONSTANTLY FEELING LOVED and LOVING at all times.
there is nothing greater in life than fearlessly surrendering to our constant yearning within, that of the divine child within us which is constantly yearning to BE of the FEELING of FEELING LOVED and LOVING constantly at all times.
‘that’ is what i am of YOU, praying you are the same for ‘me’
Please tell me if it is true for YOU, because i feel this to BE TRUE of YOU, of the beach where you go to Just BE your SELF.
i know why you go there.
i too go to special places where my pure loving feelings can flow without others around.
we WILL BE HAPPY, i know we WILL, all the time, everyday, of likemindedness as best friends and lovers in life every single day.
i do not drink, (rarely if i do), and if of YOU, i will not ever again.
i am in therapy dealing with my feelings for you, and have decided i want to return (100%) to a female lover, only if that female is YOU.
😀 😀
ok
what does hummmm>?? mean?
ah, i know….hummmm bug
lol
holy holy holy
Only thru Wisdom is Destiny able to overcome unwise absurd fate of many many things which snare the heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, BEcoming divinely wise in pure discerning feelings, TRUE of the divine child within us ALL, of what HEAVEN is, CONSTANTLY FEELING LOVED and LOVING of Jesus, God and Each Other, CONSTANTLY at all times, not of all these useless absurd distractions which go against feeling loved and loving, of so many voids devoid of love, full apathy, empty of compassion, full of unwiseness, empty of the serving TRUTH Wisdoms, full of bitter emptinesses, empty of LOVE, where HEAVEN is not able to BEcome of priority of the knowingness awareness of what HEAVEN is, until such a time the divine child within us ALL comes fully into surrendering to their own knowingness awareness of what HEAVEN is.
Jesus loves ALL God loves ALL We love ALL
God blesses ALL
blessings to all
bless you bless you bless you
Rosie? We are perfect when it comes to feeling LOVED and LOVING, and anything other than LOVE, is….well….a waste of our time, are they not?!!!
lol
it think what it is, where we are of 60,000 thoughts per day, and sometimes people just have nothing to fill their VOID during the day, than whatever random thought pops into their minds of void?
i could be wrong….just thinking OUT LOUD!!!!!!!!!!!
lol
Rosie is so amazing to ‘me’, each and every time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
time and time again, purity of love she is for ‘me’.
bless you Rosie bless you bless you bless you
not sure what that video was about on your blog….
http://www.rosie.com/
oh hey, Rosie is going Prime Time!!!!!!!!!
yay double yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i will return later….
bless you
ya, be of peace with one another is what is of the divine child within you both, and you will be thankful later in life for keeping the friendship, of what is true for you both, even if not of lovers any longer, we are all friends in life.
bless you
and of course, where Rocco is of greatest concern for you, BEing the truth of friends in life, is what will be of reward for him, of no nasty break up in the news.
bless you
i am truly loving of you, so you need not ever doubt that i am, ok?
constantly…………………………………………
bless you
😀 😀
Ohhhhmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
😀 😀
i will wait for you tonight……..returning after 11:00pm
bless you bless you bless you
peace be to this house
peace be to you
bless you bless you bless you
😀 😀
ohhhhmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
😀 😀
Are we doing Christmas presents?
I’m skint.
I could get something.
nothing for me please…where if anything, help a child of God in great need instead of me, as that is the greatest gift of Heaven for ‘me’.
I would rather be stony-broke and have spiritual wealth in cognitive constant awareness of feeling loved and loving than to be wealthy having seemingly everything, and be of spiritual poverty in no cognitive constant awareness of feeling loved and loving.
It is all a bunch a bull crap, the entire world over of all you and your boastful pride of wealth, of every single building you dwell in which will crumble to the ground one day of no value, seemingly of all you who think it is of any value when it is not, and if anything, the boastful pride of these empty vessels you hold up high above the destitute poor, of the many outcasts of society, reveal the truth of your unwiseness, of the wretchedness like you do in causing your own brothers and sisters of these beautiful souls of God to feel as though not worthy, unloved, all of you, who carry yourselves like you do, obvious for all to see and feel the truth, you do not know what HEAVEN is yet.
~ just an observation of how i see(feel) the world daily, the disconnect, all the apathy i feel of so many souls, even while they know how the world really is, and yet is, just as it was when Jesus walked the earth, the apathy, the empty vessels, so obviously unwise of their own divine child within that has submerged for so many, all these aimless souls running around thinking life is all about business and how wealthy they become, and so obviously miserable many of them are, are they not?
what was the topic again?
I say bring forth your joyful fun loving divine child SELF before the world, not just during Christmas holidays, and rather what is of the truth of the divine child within us all, CONSTANTLY YEARNING to BE of our exceeding joyfulness like i know you all are.
truly, the greatest gift you will ever give or receive, is allowing your divine child within to BE of your constant yearning to feel LOVED and LOVING of another and others, receiving to your SELF the TRUTH your divine child within constantly is of yearning for you to BE fully surrendered to what your divine child is of constant awareness knowingness of, the TRUTH.
i don’t do Christmas, rather, i live of the TRUTH of Christ daily of how i feel the way the world yet is, broken spirited, apathetic, unwise, unloving, thinking they are all so wise, when in truth, obviously so many souls are not of the truth of the joyful divine child within that merely yearns to feel loved and loving, so many lead by world of government, church, business….ya, ok everyone, you are all so wise in letting your brothers and sisters die daily from lack of a piece of bread.
I say Get Real of you want to get something…and surrender fully to the constant yearning of your divine child within to always be of feeling connected with feeling loved and loving of another and others like Madonna does daily.
bless you Madonna bless you
Jesus loves All God loves ALL We love ALL
God blesses ALL
blessings to all
bless you
a child of God is dying right now, in this moment, from lack of a single piece of bread to eat today, lack of clean water, lack of medicine…..
lack of YOUR LOVE, COMPASSION, and WISDOM of what HEAVEN is………
WILLINGNESS, like Jesus said, is what is of most importance then, not the size of the gift, rather the WILLINGNESS to surrender to the feelings our divine child of God within constantly yearns to BE of, the WILLINGNESS to LOVE and feel LOVED, 100% TRUTH of the divine child of everyone.
~ divine WILLINGNESS of God’s WILL, that We BE of the WILL BE Done on earth, ‘that’ which HEAVEN is, nurturing LOVE, feelings of COMPASSION, protective WISDOM, TRUTH of the divine Child of God True Real SELF YOU
blessings to all
bless you
Standing tall on a mountain top
I see all big and small
I’m your friend & that will never end
some might say i’m a Heaven Send
your my best ever friend
i cannot wait for a dinner date
hold me tight every night
you never know we just might
if we do it better be true
what do you mean, i can last all night .. haha
Any ONE can get with and si ‘me’, when ever they feel like ‘me’ 😀
Constantly we all are of Heaven Send, merely unwise, that’s all, where business, rulers, and those who claim to know God and so obviously do not, yet lead the world away from the truth of the divine child of us all, our constant yearning to always BE of our feelings to feel loved and loving at all times, indeed, we are ‘that’, of what HEAVEN is
bless you Marco
all night all right, 100% pure primal passionate joyful sex, of what is true of the ‘me’ of me, and the ‘me’ within YOU? lol 😀
you are what i too am, a true and faithful friend till the end forever more, of what is of the TRUTH about us all.
bless you
hold me tight every night….
It feels oh so right !
of yet alone my plight
my heart pounding delight
nocturnal dreams at night
WELL OK!…..not always nocturnal…… 😉
WELL as in ‘me’ healthy si?
of what HEAVEN is, si?
si
The greatest gift i can give to you is ‘me’, which you can come and get any time you want, of my prayer that it is ‘me’ that you truly want, like i know i do you…constantly.
😀 😀
when you are ready….
i am ready…born ready!
😀 😀
are you being true, or is it my imagination?
i have a good imagination!
are you being serious or just flirting?
am i just someone you admire?
am i merely a fan to you?
is this how it is always going to be, of me and my imagination of You&me?
or are you too feeling as i do?
i feel it 100%, and have surrendered till you tell me you are not interested, you found someone else.
i’ll be fine. I love my SELF, and others, of what matters to me, love that is true, sincere, passionate like me. It is wonderful when it is both ways, and indeed, it only works when it is both ways for ‘me’.
so tell me, is it true you want to be with ‘me’ like i do you?
i like to feel like you do, as in just being you, the passionate you. I love when someone is passionate for me, and you know how you can just tell when they obviously are not.
i need to feel that within and of another, constant of passionate anticipation, which i know i am for you.
time will tell me what i need to know……………..
😀 😀
I do not like that ou are divorcing and I would like you to go back. You had a nice relation to start with and I tink the kids should not be shattered between two continents. I hope you reconsider coming back together some time in the future.
If two people feel loved and loving with another, it is of emotional honesty of feelings, each moment of each day, of heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, is it not?
And when it is not 100%, or tainted in some way, that is also true for them in feeling as well, is it not?
So who is anyone to say anything about the feelings between two lovers, when it is of their feelings, not ours, is it not?
Stay true to YOU, of your own emotional honesty the feelings of your divine child within of feeling loved and loving of another and others, where always it is your own heart, mind, body, spirit and soul that walks the earth living in the now each blessed moment with others, of each blessed day you wake to and feel what it is of your feelings of those you love and those who love YOU
blessings to all
bless you
No presents? Oh well.
Is Madonna divorced? Not yet, apparently. A bit longer.
See ya.
X
“It is Your Life, Your Heart, Your Mind, Your Body, Your Spirit, Your Soul, Your Journey, of Your Decisions Choices WILL at ALL times, of What is Your Life accordingly. blessings to all. bless you”
blessings to all
bless you
Jesus loves ALL God loves ALL We love ALL God blesses ALL
Present your heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, your life before Jesus and God, and all WILL BE WELL. 😉
blessed are those who weep, for you feel the truth of how the kingdom of heaven sadly yet is, snared by many unwisenesses not of God.
bless you
ALL WILL BE WELL, when ALL WELL BE WILL 😉
Romeo? Did you fill up the well with warm water yet for my spa? 😉
Romeo?
Romeo?
men…they don’t know what they want, and when they think they found what they want, they don’t know what to do with it. lol 😀
Romeo? Did you fill up the well with warm water yet for my spa? 😉
Romeo?
Romeo?
men…they don’t know what they want, and when they think they found what they want, they don’t know what to do with it. lol
yawn…….
sweet dreams…………
…………..passionately of me, of the same zealful excitement of passionate zeal to be of the spa with me like i do them, kissing kissing kissing kissing, the delicate delightful pure loving sex, of just being me, and they too, of the tenderness of lips that touch of delicate touch of hands, the beads of sweat of salty taste to our tongues french kissing, the incredible feeling of skin to skin, the tangled joy of our bodies intertwining, floating in the bubbling hot water all around us………
ha
😀
Peace from Peace
Grace from Grace
Truth from Truth
Compassion from Compassion
Wisdom from Wisdom
Love from Love
what is that smell?
Fragrance from Flowers
and what is that salty taste?
hmmmm Salty taste from beads of sweat!!!
*gasp*gulp*
you going to do what with that hot wax?
ok
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!
fuck!
lol 😀
+ FULLness of TRUTH +
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BE always in WANT of the FULLness of TRUTH of your loving feelings for another who is of exact sameness of their feelings that make you feel loved at all times, for when is anyone truly of desire for anything other than what are the loving FULLnesses of TRUTH of the divine child within us all, which is CONSTANTLY YEARNING to always BE of what are the FULLnesses of TRUTH, pure and true of the divine child within us ALL;
peaceFULL peaceFULLness,
tenderFULL tenderFULLness,
graceFUL graceFULLness,
blissFULL blissFULLness,
thankFULL thankFULLness,
JoyFULL JoyFULLness,
artFULL artFULLness
bashFULL bashFULLness
beautiFULL beautiFULLness
bountiFULL bountiFULLness
careFULL careFULLness
cheerFULL cheerFULLness
colorFULL colorFULLness
delightFULL delightFULLness
dreamFULL dreamFULLness
dutiFULL dutiFULLness
effortFULL effortFULLness
eventFULL eventFULLness
faithFULL faithFULLness
fanciFULL fanciFULLness
fitFULL fitFULLness
forethoughtFULL forethoughtFULLness
fruitFULL fruitFULLness 😉
gleeFULL gleeFULLness
grateFULL grateFULLness
healthFULL healthFULLness
heedFULL heedFULLness
helpFULL helpFULLness
hopeFULL hopeFULLness
lawFULL lawFULLness
lustFULL lustFULLness (oooo…i like that one!)
*gasp*
manFULL manFULLness
masterFULL masterFULLness
meaningFULL meaningFULLness
merciFULL merciFULLness
mindFULL mindFULLness
mournFULL mournFULLness
needFULL needFULLness
playFULL playFULLness
plentiFULL plentiFULLness
prayerFULL prayerFULLness
prideFULL prideFULLness
purposeFULL purposeFULLness
regardFULL regardFULLness
regretFULL regretFULLness
remorseFULL remorseFULLness
reposeFULL reposeFULLness(rest)
reproachFULL reproachFULLness
resourceFULL resourceFULLness
respectFULL respectFULLness
restFULL restFULLness
shameFULL shameFULLness
sinFULL sinFULLness ~ YES! another good one!
skillFULL skillFULLness
songFULL songFULLness
sorrowFULL sorrowFULLness
soulFULL soulFULLness
sportFULL sportFULLness
sprightFULL sprightFULLness
successFULL successFULLness
suspenseFULL suspenseFULLness ~ now Romeo!!!!!!!!!!!
tactFULL tactFULLness
tasteFULL tasteFULLness
tearFULL tearFULLness
thoughtFULL thoughtFULLness
trustFULL trustFULLness
truthFULL truthFULLness
uneventFULL uneventFULLness
useFULL useFULLness
~ VOICEFULL VOICEFULNESS
wakeFULL wakeFULLness
watchFULL watchFULLness
~ WILLFULL WILLFULLNESS
wishFULL wishFULLness
woeFULL woeFULLness(awareness of what not to do)
wonderFULL wonderFULLness ~ withOUT a care of flowers in my hair
worshipFULL worshipFULLness
youthFULL youthFULLness
zestFULL zestFULLness
~ ZEALFULL ZEALFULNESS
blessings to all
bless you
tuneFULL tuneFULLness
ooooooo….i am getting dizzy from spinning around in this dress……
(andy does a face plant into the stage) lol 😀
this would be funny with some mimes or actors/actresses playing out tiny skits of each of the meanings….slapstick clown fun teaching of course! 😉
use of props for each one…
Daniel is such a powerful pure life force.
[http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QtuV4OICQmo]
God bless all involved with Rosie’s Broadway Kids
bless you
http://www.rosiesbroadwaykids.org/
indeed, thru art, dance, music, the divine child is able to free ONE’s True SELF to Just BE all the wonderful extraordinary things which are of divine child of God SELF, of what HEAVEN is, freeing our Constant Yearning of Exceeding Joyfulness within, set free to Just BE YOU
blessings to all
bless you
God bless all involved with Rosie’s Broadway Kids
bless you
[http://www.rosiesbroadwaykids.org/]
indeed, thru art, dance, music, the divine child is able to free ONE’s True SELF to Just BE all the wonderful extraordinary things which are of divine child of God SELF, of what HEAVEN is, freeing our Constant Yearning of Exceeding Joyfulness within, set free to Just BE YOU 😀
blessings to all
bless you
God bless all involved with Rosie’s Broadway Kids
[http://www.rosiesbroadwaykids.org/]
indeed, thru art, dance, music, the divine child is able to free ONE’s True SELF to Just BE all the wonderful extraordinary things which are of divine child of God SELF, of what HEAVEN is, freeing our Constant Yearning of Exceeding Joyfulness within, set free to Just BE YOU
blessings to all
bless you
and of course God blesses Rosie’s For ALL Kids
[http://www.forallkids.org/]
[http://www.rosie.com/]
Peace from Peace
Love from Love
Joy from Joy
of what HEAVEN is
blessed are the pure true joyful feelings for those who know what HEAVEN is…YOU
bless you
and of course God blesses Rosie’s For ALL Kids
[http://www.forallkids.org/]
[http://www.rosie.com/]
blessed are the pure true joyful feelings for those who know what HEAVEN is
of what HEAVEN is…ALL of YOU
bless you
and of course God blesses Rosie’s For ALL Kids
[http://www.forallkids.org/]
[http://www.rosie.com/]
blessed are the pure true joyful feelings for those who know what HEAVEN is…ALL of YOU
bless you
and of course God blesses Rosie’s For ALL Kids
[http://www.forallkids.org/]
[http://www.rosie.com/]
and of course God blesses Rosie’s For ALL Kids
[http://www.forallkids.org/]
blessed are the pure true joyful feelings for those who know what HEAVEN is…ALL of YOU
bless you
i am feeling neglected today….deeply so….profoundly so…..
i realize you have your life and many things to attend to, where i merely am of prayer that i too am one who is worthy of your love, where not even a word leaves me feeling like you don’t care for me….
it is exceedingly difficult for me being alone, of no hand to hold, of my new sanctuary which is like an ice box, so cold of little heat, having to bundle up just to keep warm, no one there, just the loud rocking head banging music of the one in the next room, the druggy type music, violent and desolation of loving feeling.
it is perhaps the worse time of my life in many ways, of extreme financial hardship, not even to afford the bus fare to go to work, biking in subzero temperatures for a small token of money per day to feed myself, but living without a hand to hold, of lips to kiss, alone, is not how i want to be and yet am of, hoping for a word from you today, no one there, afraid to say anything to you fearing you may think i am being selfish….
i am feeling neglected, and in truth, that is what you are doing with me this day….
we all have wants and needs, and if you don’t want to reciprocate with me, then i am going to leave my hopefulness, as it is just to painful to feel isolated like i am, where in truth, i would rather kill myself than to feel this way.
ok, fine, my shit…..whatever……..
if i was you child, and you knew i was feeling like this, you would be there for them…….
i don’t even feel we have a freindship so long as you choose to ignore me like this, of the only word that speaks the truth of the way you are with me….neglectful.
i won’t tolerate it from anyone who i deem acceptable as my being of my inner circle friends, so keep doing it, and i will not return to you again, making time for those of joyful reciprocation of sameness of loving feelings.
you are being deliberate in ignoring me, and that is what hurts….when i am constantly always of feelings for you, and there every day…..so decide to ignore me, and i will begin to feel the truth, others love me more than you are willing to, and to them i shall go to and be found of everyday…..
😦 😦
if you do not realize i need your nurturing of love, then i am not going to participate with you like i yet do, as it is not ok today, nor tomorrow, of where you will not find ‘me’ so long as this is going to be your approach with ‘me’….leaving ‘me’ to feel isolated and alone like you do….
if you say some bitter unprofessional insightful shortsighted remark as regards my words with you this day, i will not return to you again……
if there is someone else, then fine, God bless you and those you choose to love, of my final words with you this day, of no longer wishing to feel neglected like i am feeling each second passing, of my living in the now, where now, i am not feeling openly loved by you….my emotional honesty of the TRUTH of how i am feeling as regards you, and so would you if you were me, one who is yet hopeful, of purity of prayer, feeling it neglected with my whole body, of despair….in truth, the worse day of my life today.
i am simply not going to allow myself to do this any more with you not there for ‘me’
blessings to you and those you love forever more
love andy
😦 😦
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ONLY LOVE is good enough for the precious pure loving divine child of God True Real Self of YOU ALL…failing ‘that’, you WILL not find ‘me’
Jesus loves ALL God loves ALL We love ALL
God blesses ALL
blessings to ALL
bless you bless you bless you
Jesus loves YOU
bless you bless you bless you
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every ONE wants to know their not alone…and indeed, i am alone this day…not again do i want ever to feel this way, nor WILL i ever again…
blessings to all YOU and those YOU love
take care
bless you
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the breath of life for ‘me’ is your loving words, touch, and radiant brilliant bright smiles forever more of where i constantly yearn to always BE found, and indeed, where ALL shall BE found of ‘me’
blessed are YOU who are constantly of loving feelings of loving words, touch and your radiant brilliant bright smiles, loving and loved by Jesus, God and each other forever more.
blessings to all
peace be to this house
peace be to you
bless you bless you bless you
Jesus loves YOU
bless you bless you bless you
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truly, who wants ever to feel feelings of neglect?
in Jesus, God’s and our eyes, obviously the sight of such of the TRUTH we see and feel of many in hardship, no ONE ever wants to feel unloved, neglected, or abandoned, of what is TRUE of the divine child of God of us ALL, our constant yearning to feel feelings of LOVE.
blessings to ALL this blessed day and the blessed days yet to come.
bless you bless you bless you
Jesus, God and We love YOU
bless you bless you bless you
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so painful some of you are with ‘me’ daily on life’s road that i journey apon here with all of you.
not again WILL i allow myself to be found of your emptiness of love for ‘me’, nor should any ONE.
many there are in life who i have walked away from along life’s road, of where i yet continue to walk toward love of the future world, constant yearning of my child of God SELF within to always BE found of feeling LOVED and LOVING with another and others forever more, of what HEAVEN is, and always was.
neglect of ‘me’ within us ALL, is not of Jesus and God, nor should ever BE of any ONE, and in truth, it is a lie as regards the TRUTH of the divine child of God SELF within us ALL, of egotism, of bitter useless unwiseness devoid of love, devoid of Jesus, God and our Wisdom which is of knowingness awareness, that ONLY TRUTH, LOVE, COMPASSION and WISDOM is good enough for us ALL.
so many of you who are so neglectful not only of another, but even of your disrespect for you own divine SELF, what with all you who are of unwise distructive substance abuse…
ok…don’t say you were not wisely warned, as you have been warned by one who is of Jesus and God.
What you turn toward, you BEcome within and of obvious outward appearance for all to see and feel the truth of YOU at all times.
Where your heart is, there too is YOUR TREASURE and YOUR LIFE, at all times, where Crucial Lacking of Desire for Pure Truth Wisdom which is only of Goodness for the divine child of God True SELF, is yet of many precious innocent souls yet snared by the false teachings of the forefathers of all human history handed down thru the mellenia, all of it, yet here in the present.
PRESENCE of GOD WITH US TODAY, of what HEAVEN is, for ‘me’ is the PRESENT God WILLS for ALL, of our WILL BE Done on earth, ‘that’ which HEAVEN is, to feel LOVED and feel LOVING of another and others at all times, where it is truly useless and absurd to feel otherwise, sadly, of the unwise illnesses of the heart, mind, body, spirit and soul of many held in bitter dark fearful captivities of the useless false teachings of the forefathers, of those who did not know God, of those who did not desire to know God, indeed of those who yet claim to know God and so obviously don’t, as are many who do not desire to know God, nor their divine True SELF in doing so.
Turning towards the purity and sincerity within of your divine child that is constantly of yearning to know Jesus and God, is of what is to turn fully towards your own divine child of God True SELF in doing so, where Jesus and God are only of TRUTH, LOVE, COMPASSION and WISDOM for us ALL, of LOVE devoid of useless absurd doubt, like the doubtfulness about love in the hearts of many, that does not lead to Jesus and God, nor to the ‘me’ of any of YOU.
Turn towards Jesus and God fully, and you turn towards YOU in doing so.
blessings to YOU and those YOU love, loved by Jesus, God and we who are loving and loved by Jesus, God and each other forever more.
blessings to all
bless you bless you bless you
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fucking useless some of you CHOOSE to deliberately be of ‘me’, fine, go be that with another, and watch how quickly they too, like ‘me’, leave you standing there wondering why….
all fucking bullshit….mean spirited to say the least Rosie…..
does not work at all for ‘me’, nor any of the ‘me’ of ALL of YOU
arghhhhhhhhhhhhh
(andy kicks his foot thru a wall)
blessing to all
bless you
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go ahead people, say something empty to ‘me’, and see if i respond….
blessed are those who are of PURE TRUTH of their emotional honesty each blessed day.
bless you
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ah, don’t worry about everyone, as it appears the shock way from the Vela Pulsar is due to hit the earth in approx. 8, 000 years destroying everything on the planet anyway, and at the rate we are going, we will not be able to come up with the technology in time to escape fast enough to get ahead blast wave, of the estimated speed required, of 5% of the speed of light, a technological impossibility today…and likely tomorrow…so drink up and be merry Mary!!!! lol 😉
[http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Vela_Pulsar]
ah, don’t worry about everyone, as it appears the shock wave from the Vela Pulsar(initial blast 11,000 years ago) is due to hit the earth in approx. 8, 000 years destroying everything on the planet anyway, and at the rate we are going, we will not be able to come up with the technology in time to escape fast enough to get ahead of the blast wave, of the estimated speed required, of 5% of the speed of light, a technological impossibility today…and likely the same tomorrow…so drink up and be merry Mary!!!! lol
ooopppsss…we just calcualted, a friend of mine from University, that the blast speed of the Vela Pulsar my have occurred 6500 years ago, rather than 11,000 years ago according to recorded written words of an event at that time, and that the initial blast speed is the same speed at which it is traveling to the earth, of thickness like that of a book, rather than a piece of paper, which will vaporize earth’s atmosphere when it hits in a newly calculated time of 3,000 years from today….sorry….new input changed the calculations….lol
the only possibility for survival is underground, with solar collectors in space and on earth, powering artificial atmospheres, for life and trees which could regenerate the atmosphere on earth, however long it would take, powered by the sun for enough time for that to occur of 5-7 billion years….ha
i really do want and need to get out more…si? 😉
oh yeah, the Vela Pulsar Nebula is now one third of the southern hemisphere in the night sky, expanding towards us at 22 million miles per hour…..for those who are curious to know like i am of many of YOU…. 😉
any questions?
people REALLY do need to ask more questions, si? 😉
somebody SKYPE me damn it!!!!!!!!
before i kick another hole in the wall!!! 😉
thank you!
i so love new technology!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
[http://www.skype.com/]
sweetest of dreams forever more!
blessings to all
bless you bless you bless you
somebody SKYPE me damn it!!!!!!!!
“we will not be able to come up with the technology in time to escape fast enough to get ahead of the blast wave”
In 8,000 years time, they’ll probably be able to look after themselves, build a shield or something. I’m not going to worry about them.
I’ll have to send a text …
ah oui…
send a text….
ya, a text message…
reminds me of the day i broke down after losing Troy, emotional intensity of my five year old inner child, striking with the pen over and over again on the blank page of my diary, trying to think of words to say, unable to, where what mattered, was not the words, rather to FEEL the emotional honesty of feelings was of what was beyond words, and indeed, ‘that’ is the purity of TRUTH, as regards the genuineness of what is of CONSTANT YEARNING of the divine child within us ALL, we ALL CONSTANTLY YEARN to FEEL LOVED and LOVING of and for another and others….
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Jesus too of his own emotional honesty awareness knowingness so pure of his own divine child inner self, was aware of the divine child self within others which was submerged, of occasional peeking of it’s head out from time to time, of delight in doing so, during an extremely oppressive time of life during the Roman ruling at the time, he himself being incognito while teaching of the many followers he had, teaching what he knew 100% about coming into FULLness his own precious pure loving divine SELF, ‘that’ of CONSTANT YEARNING to feel LOVED and LOVING of and for another and others, TRUE of himSELF he 100% was of awareness knowingness, and in so doing, he realized was 100% TRUE of ALL, of those around him, and indeed, of every precious child of God yet to be born, his final message of just how pure and 100% his love was for all the precious loving souls snared at the time and yet to be born and indeed become snared by so many useless bitter unwisenes generational teachings of the forefathers handed down at the time, generational teachings he knew conclusively would continue to be taught, and indeed, 100% TRUE, what with the yet stoning to death of the woman in Iran of 2006 for adultery….
Jesus loved 100% with ALL his heart, ALL his mind, ALL his body, ALL his spirit, ALL his soul, to the extent, that he surrendered his life to the claws of the ignorant wild beast of ignorance at the time he knew he could not become victorious over of his own generation of precious souls, as he did state, “This generation WILL NOT BE the generation which WILL SEE(feel) the coming of the Kingdom of HEAVEN, of what HEAVEN is(my interpretation)…and so Jesus taught 100% the truth to those at the time, and to all of us, the PURE UNDENIABLE TRUTH, as regards the ignorant teachings which bind the heart(illnesses of the heart), mind, body, spirit and soul in dark captivities of chains which bind(we can all relate to the truth of this of a homosexual born into a Catholic family who ostrasize their own child, and trust me, i have seen the scars on their arms of suicide attempts and their stories they have told me, many of them)….and ya, Jesus gave us all the mirror reflection of the ugliness of those who crucified him, where, “This is not of ‘me’ place apon the cross, rather, this is the TRUTH of the hearts and minds of YOU who nailed me to this cross, of what Jesus wanted us to deeply reflect apon(feelings) in what is correct in turning towards and what is incorrect in turning towards, a) the Hypocrisy Heart of shortsightedness, devoid of love b) the Pure TRUE Heart of sincere emotional honesty to BE LOVING and BE LOVED, that which is Pure,True and of CONSTANT YEARNING of the divine child within us ALL to FEEL, where FEELING is what is sight of the soul, ingrained within all of us, “YOU came from LOVE and it is THRU LOVE that YOU are returned, restored, rejuvenated, replenished, self-actualized in TRUTH of what YOU are in the eyes of Jesus, God and we who love Jesus and God, YOU ARE LOVING AND LOVED by Jesus, God and each other at all times, indeed, of the constant yearning of Jesus, God and the divine child of God in exact sameness of 100% pure loving spirit of the child within Jesus….
oh hey, i really do love to eloborate on words, si?
si
si si si si si ya big sisisssyssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 😉
blessed are YOU who come fully into awareness knowingness of the divine child within YOU
bless you
as for me, i constantly yearned for Troy and i one day to BE of our exceeding joyfulness we were of while alone, ostrasized and afraid of our own families, church and friends at the time as loving closeted homosexuals, where Troy did take his own life, where i fell to my knees by his side where i yet kneel in prayer with Jesus, God and him daily…of my own inner child still yearning to one day be of the pure true exceeding joyfulness of my SELF and SELF of another, of so long it has taken for me to stand up again, of broken spirit, mending of the shattered life still mending, seemingly unable or holding mySELF back from HAPPINESS, where it is surrendering to our own emotional honesty to BE of what is pure and true of the divine child of God True Real SELF of us ALL, CONSTANT YEARNING to FEEL LOVED and LOVING of and for another and others at all times, of exceeding joyful delight of SELF-ACTUALIZATION, realizing today, i require someone who is healthy of Self-Actualization, as a best friend and lover, my own SELF of the deep seated sadness woundedness over Troy.
the most significant question my therapist pushed me in asking was, “What would Troy want for YOU andy?”
Without doubt…what we both wanted and denied from our SELF at the time, allowing the external homophobes at the time of oppression to suppress our Exceeding Joyfulness and Happiness that was Radiant Brilliant Bright Wondrous and Extraordinary for Troy and i to BEhold of ONE another while alone, indeed we were, and i yet AM of awareness knowingness within, deep of my loving thoughts of Troy and i to this day, of running, laughing, holding hands, pure and loving of one another every waking moment of each blessed day….HAPPINESS.
it has taken me along time of SELF reflection, where today, i am of 100% PURE SINCERE TRUTHFULNESS AWARENESS KNOWINGNESS of the CONSTANT YEARNING of the my own SELF within for HAPPINESS…TRUE of ALL of YOU.
blessings to all
bless you
The Journey of Equality Moves ON ON ON…
Good luck for everything!
Don’t place your life in the hands of luck people…BE of knowingness awareness of what works for YOU!
many have said to me along life’s road since Troy died, “Oh Andy, you are living in the past.”
No i am not living in the past, i am running to the motherfucking future everyone, and have been all this time, of knowingness awareness of what works for ‘me’, where in it takes less than 4 minutes to save my world, while of the hot tub with a most loving lover like ‘me’.” 😀
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perhaps my text messages i continue in of deep emotional honesty reflections are of a shield of sake of my own SELF, and others, today, tomorrow, where without doubt, i know what works for ‘me’, and what obviously does not, just as everyone of you do, even of you who are of denial in allowing your SELF out to Just BE your SELF…the exceedingly joyful SELF i have come to know of many of you, exact sameness of feeling LOVED and LOVING of and for another and others like ‘me’
blessings to all of yet another blessed day
God says speak the TRUTH for sake of YOU
and that is what i do, what i always do, where i do live in the NOW daily, of the TRUTH which constantly surrounds me daily, of the TRUTH of where i am constantly of yearning to BE found, of a hot tub with a most loving lover in outward appearance Just like ‘me’, of ONE who is FOR ‘me’ forever more…what we ALL want and need daily, moment by precious moment, feeling LOVED and LOVING.
bless you
LOVE+LOVE+LOVE+LOVE
JOY+JOY+JOY+JOY
of what works for the ‘me’ of us ALL
forever more
get left behind…well, don’t say i did not warn you, because i did…where luck has nothing to do with it, and should you wait for luck, well, good luck with that, standing there alone like you choose to do. duh!
lol
fuck.
(andy waunders away like he always does, walking seemingly yet alone again, thanking God for the friends he makes along the way who appear to truly connect with him in a sincere loving way, of what works, leaving behind what does not work, and won’t when love is cold of emptiness, no one there)
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ok…which ONE of YOU prayed for rain…it’s fucking raining!!!!!
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!
rain rain rain go away
rain rain rain not today
rain rain rain ………………………………
ah fuck it, i will keep my day job………. lol
i can write poetry somedays, when of a poetic mood…….
hmmmmm…let’s see, what do i need to BE of a poetic mood……..
and if someone says an English class to improve my spelling…..well…..you are correct, so long as there is a beautiful girl sitting in class next to ‘me’, that i can chat with endlessly of this or ‘that’, forever and a day, of joyful cheer, and sometimes tear, forever i know my love is true, of constant yearning of love True Blue……….
ya, and if she won’t let me wear her motherfucker boots, the deal is off !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol
have a great show tonight M
bless you and all those who work tirelessly along side you
blessings to all
thank you Jesus thank you God
bless you Jesus bless you bless you bless you
bless you Madonna bless you
Jesus loves ALL God loves ALL We love ALL
God blesses ALL
blessed are you who come FULLY into knowingness awareness of what HEAVEN is…….YOU
bless you
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still number ONE…….gee…….i wonder why………ahh……….let’s see…………..everything about her is is is is is…………AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!
for someONE to LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
including ‘me’ most days, depending on if i have had my coffee yet, or which side of the bed i wake up on…..mood i am, i know….
blessings to all
bless you
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blessings to all of another blessed day
bless you
my internet, died
died of what?
pneumonia?
ya, internet can be unreliable some days, you learn to expect it after awhile……and eventually, you just go find better things to do with your time, as the internet is not living, and i love to live, especially of ……..
i love open discussion on the net, of easy going chat about whatever, but it is not living, sorta like reading a book, boring……….
who does not want True Life?
What we all constantly yearn for, companionship with friends, lovers, families….Loving Life!!!!!!!!!!!
blessings to all of another day of HEAVEN with another and others
bless you
over usage, seriously
its working now again
Love to YOU ALL
I LOVE YOU ALL 🙂
over usage eh?
ooooooo…do tell more!!!….lol
sorry….could not resist that one…
you know, there are so many beautiful sweet loving souls in the world, i mean truly such sweet loving oh so beautiful souls we meet along life’s road together, all of ONEness of what is the same for us ALL….we ALL love to love and feel loved…..
i see some of these beautiful souls of broken spirited, and love to spend time nurturing them, laughing, embracing who they once were inside, fearless, tender loving, exceedingly joyful, where merely they just need a hug, a kiss, another hug, maybe a few more kisses, and before you know it, they are back to their usual REAL SELF…although some of you do need to address getting your needs met with safe and supportive people….seriously….it is required to maintain positive mental emotional well being….
of course, one could always call apon ‘me’, and without doubt, all your worries WILL go away, replaced with exceeding joyfulness of forever laughter and play, but do know….i don’t take no bodies crap….i have enough of my own to deal with…. 😉
hey Marco, always a joy to si you, albeit, somedays, you know id rather see you more than just here at this blog……arghhhhhhhhhhh…..men, can’t live with them, and you can’t live with them!!!!!
bless you bless you bless you
oh hey, M has two days off!
lot’s or rest and relaxation, proper diet, some tender loving, quietness for the mind, and always remember, Andy LOVES Madonna forever more…..as in forever MORE i want of Madonna!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol
who knows, maybe someday she may want to actually hold Andy’s hand, and ah, well…..you just don’t know necessarily how joyful one’s life TRULY can BE and IS, for those who know what HEAVEN is……
and for those who yet do not, and yet do(within), YOU shall come to know the Revealers who TRULY do know and are what HEAVEN is, for all the world to see(feel), the TRUTH we know about YOU, the Wondrous Extraordinary Exceedingly Joyous YOU, loved and loving by we who love Jesus, God and each other, of forever MORE….ALL of us, the precious sweet loving divine child of God True Real SELF, indeed the Truth of the SELF Jesus came to know fully of his own awareness, awareness of the Truth of the SELF of us ALL…..
i ask;
who does not like to BE KISSED?
who does not like to BE HUGGED?
who does not like to BE CARESSED?
who does not like to BE LOVED?
who does not like to BE LOVING?
who does not like to BE of NUDE BEACH?
who does not like to BE of NUDE SWIMMING?
who does not like to BE of NUDE SUNSHINE?
who does not like to BE of NUDE RAIN?
who does not like to BE of NUDE SHOWER?
who does not like to BE of NUDE HOT TUB?
who does not like to BE of NUDE MASSAGE?
who does not like to BE of NUDE FRAGRANCE?
who does not like to BE of NUDE RIDING HORSES?
who does not like to BE of NUDE WARM FIRE?
who does not like to BE of NUDE DOWN HILL SKIING?
who does not like to BE of NUDE LOVER?
who does not like to BE of ‘me’ ?
(andy pauses, waiting…..waiting……waiting…..still waiting…………………………………………)
“oh for fuck sake!!!!!!!!!!!!!”
lol 😉
hmmmm….surely this next video is one that will leave you to die….laughing that is!
it is one of my favorite all time skits of comic relief!!!
[http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OSBlhHq-jrc&eurl=http://www.lithargoels.blogspot.com/&feature=player_embedded]
blessed are you who are of YOUR exceeding joyfulness, loving and true, pure knowingness of your fun loving self, true of self of another.
bless you
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All any of us have is our words and time together, no matter where you live in the world, no matter race, religion, sex, orientation, status, wealth, language or politic, where all of us know our own tenderness of love within, and out constant yearning for tenderness of love with another, irregardless of anything else in life, where a life without loving tenderness, which is constant in yearning of the divine child within us ALL, then truly, life is not True Life for us when of a void devoid of love…..
ONENESS of loving heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, the blessed TRUTH of the precious loving divine child of God True Real Self of us ALL.
forever more…amen
bless you bless you bless you
Jesus loves ALL God loves ALL We love ALL
God blesses ALL
blessings to all
bless you
without doubt, who wants to BE found of any void devoid of love, where in truth, the voids are what are of spiritual poverty of the heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, are they not?
of what Jesus said, “The false teachings of the forefathers before us all, which are not true at all of the precious loving divine child of God True Real SELF of YOU, of ALL of YOU, where many of YOU are deniers of the genuine divine TRUTH of the divine child of God SELF YOU.”
ok….maybe Jesus did not historically say this particular sentence verbatim, but he did say it, and i am merely repeating words of TRUTH, which are not only meant for the divine child of us ALL, the divine child of us ALL instantly recognizes words which are indeed…..the TRUTH.
bless you
again, i ask…
where do you suppose one may likely find ‘me’?
of what is constantly yearning truth of ‘me’ ?
of what is constantly yearning truth for ‘you’ ?
of what is constantly yearning truth for ‘you&me’ ?
of what is constantly yearning truth of us ‘all’ ?
and of course, what is constantly yeaning truth of us ‘all’ not to BE found of without…..’LOVE’.
LOVE
HAPPINESS
JOYFULNESS
FULLNESS
COMPASSION
Wise are ‘you’ who turn towards the divine TRUTH of ‘you’, and away from false bitterness of TRUTH, of these many unwise impure thoughts which are not TRUE of the precious loving divine child of God True Real Self of ALL of ‘you’, for ‘you’ are of the TRUE GENUINE awareness knowingness of the CONSTANT FEELINGS of feeling LOVED and LOVING within, TRUE of another and others within, of what HEAVEN is, and always was….always WILL BE….
…Jesus, God and OUR WILL BE Done on earth, ‘that’ which HEAVEN is forever more, amen
blessings to all of another blessed day of what HEAVEN is
any guess where you WILL not find ‘me’ ?
ok then, come and find ‘me’, i am easy to find….
bless you bless you bless you
oh, and for those of you who hesitate, i ask, who wants to feel ‘that’, when we know the truth already….CONSTANTLY YEARNING in feeling LOVED and LOVING is the divine child of us ALL.
do i hesitate to speak the truth?
no i do not, nor WILL i hesitate to feel LOVED and LOVING of another and others, nor should any one hold back the truth of their precious loving divine child of God True Real Self, the ONE i know of ALL of YOU.
bless you bless you bless you
Truly, ONLY LOVE is good enough for the precious loving divine child of God True Real SELF of ALL of YOU, of what is CONSTANTLY TRUE of ALL of YOU.
blessed are you who know the TRUTH
bless you
hmmmmm….Madrod?
that’s a cute nick name.
is A-Rod your type M?
he’s definitely not my type at all….
just curious…..
blessings to all
bless you
I love you
to each their own….where happiness is the only thing that matters, and for sure, we all have a type(body wise) that works for us….
so long as you are happy, i am happy for all….
and yes, we are all welcome to have loving friends, such as Alex likely is, of Champion positive spirit without doubt.
hmmm…seems M has better things to do than hang around this boring blog….i can relate…Life in the physical world is where it’s at…..and no i am not speculating….just curious damn it….to know what your type is?
God knows we can all BE more of ‘that’….and indeed, many there are.
blessed are the champion hearts in the world who rise above, and prioritize True Loving Life of Happiness, is what matters most.
Jesus loves ALL God loves ALL We love ALL
God blesses ALL
thank you Jesus thank you
bless you Jesus bless you bless you bless you
thank you God thank you
blessings to all
bless you
you love who Marco?
mirror mirror on the wall….
who is the fairyest of the all?
lol
i jest
M is likely relaxing well today, no show, no stress, just R&R!
Hey M, how is you day off?
i look so forward to my days off to just relax and breath easy.
by now you are likely getting bored with it all, yes?
same routine and what not….still, there is a lot to be said for the comfort level you are all experiencing by now, and indeed, the end is drawing near where the goodbyes take place, the tears, the sincere heart felt love within all….
Bravo for the incredible endeavors for so many involved…it is truly amazing to me how a tour is organized across city to city, country to country, across oceans….wow!!!
Hey, if i had Champion Base Ball players as friends, i would have them around me all the time, as they are such a positive force of personalities, and who does not need to feel that all the time, especially considering what you do M?
Bravo to Alex, for being there for you right now! A huge shoulder to more than just lean on, i bet he could pick you up above his head with one hand…*gulp*…. i like big strong men, having grown up on an Air Force base, the chiseled faces and bodies, just abit intimidating for me, that’s all, where i like the softer fem type, especially the a female. 😉
blessed are the true of heart
bless you
i more than just love you….
wow, the media sure love to speculate….God forbid Madonna has nice friends…. 😉
If Madonna feels safe and supportive of her selection of inner circle friends, then that is entirely up to her who she selects as truly wonderful loving friends…her decision choice will, where wise are all of you who are selective of health positive like minded loving friends, which is essential in helping get our needs met to maintain positive mental emotional well being, and let’s face it, you do not get to be a pro baseball player without having a positive attitude….Bravo if Alex helps Madonna feel good about her SELF, as that is what matters most in life everyone, and not all your useless hypocrisy speculation, and even then, hey, if two people find love in life and it is true for them both, well hurray hurray, as rare it is to find one you love as much as they love you.
Maybe they are doing a sitcom together and need to practice *cough* their lines!
lol
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im sorry…i am just as bad as the others who speculate like they do…i don’t begrudge anything you do though, as it is your life to live, no one else’s, free to Just BE your SELF, of what you want to do, where, when, why, how, and with who….CHOICES of YOUR LIFE.
blessings to all who’s hearts are full of love
bless you
hey!!!
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ya, i love you too, more than you know…
i guess i am still seeking to if i am more than just an acquaintance along life’s road, of many loving friends we meet….time will tell….
i just want to know what i need to know, and yet feel i know, just insecure in my self, that’s all, and yet not insecure…perhaps, uncertain is the word, of where it starts and stops for us in life as far as more than acquaintance…who wants to be left wondering…i don’t….no one does….uncertainty is what it is, debilitating negativity…
sure wish you would clue me in someday, so i can truly come to know what i so want to know…the truth, and yet, are we not all the truth, as far as being loving souls?
anyway…finding out thru the media is not my idea of a friend, and i don’t feel right even speaking to you of it…your business…your life…i just like to let go and get on with mine, if that is what you too have done….
so tell me, how much do you really love me…is it true?
am i the one for you?
or are we to be of the spiritual friends only, like we are of so many?
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blessings to you and those you love forever more
bless you
love andy
arggghhhhhhhh….i am such an insecure twit!!!!!!! “:???:”
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Hey!!! 😀 😀
you can talk to me ya know…i am here if you need a real friend to chat with, hoping and praying you are ok emotionally, mentally, knowing how wise you are spiritually, of our deep purity of love within like we do while of meditation, beyond most people’s understanding of the way we surrender to our true graceful pure state we love to feel of deeply of only love like we do.
ya, i know you, of what matters most to us both, purity of loving feelings, not of anything else in life of more priority than the deep feelings of purity.
i am a true and faithful friend, and i know you know that i am, just as i know you too are of me. I wish we could be of the disarmed communication i cherish in just being our SELF with one another someday, of ease in speaking with one another. I am loving of my Self, in a pure sincere way, of being my real self most of the time, where i don’t like being anything other than the graceful tender loving Andy i am most of my day, of desire to be of holding hands, truly loving of another.
If you ever need me, i am here for you to speak with, something i yearn for with you daily, feeling maybe you do too, more than you let on….
you can trust me ok? 100%
i know i have my mood swings, lack of sleep, not eating well, and for sure my smoking is the worse thing for my joyful spirit, something i do that i will soon be undoing, as i truly despise it, and it does go against my real self.
i pray happiness for you, and i am not going to speculate on anyone in your life, and merely ask you to sit and feel the truth of how you feel around them, and just be honest with your self when you do. I find i have to get away by my self to get a real gut feeling for someone, and if they are the one for me or not, not something that can be rushed. What matters is how you feel on a day to day basis, not what anyone else says or feels, no, it is always of our own emotional honesty alone that we discern for our self who is most compatible, comfortable, of making us feel loved and us loving of them….and that is what i pray for you Madonna.
Something we have not learned about our self being together, and i know how i feel, always of love for you, and always i will be of the same love till the end, someone you can turn to later in life, but if i do marry someone, i am looking for it to be my last relationship in life, someone to grow old with, someone truly comfortable, of a genuine real joyful friend at my side, where we both genuinely love each others company, true for both of our emotional honesty reflections.
there is only one way to find out ya know, and that is time together, and i know, this is not necessarily an easy time for you.
my greatest wish is to hold your hand, and the only thing that will ever work for us both, is if it is also true of you…like you said, it has to be both ways, and obviously so, no emotional dishonesty, which is not difficult for us, because of the genuine sincere praying like we do, of what is truth of our Self, 100% genuine connectedness with the feelings of our divine child of God True Real Self.
we are both highly spiritual, and we both know, that is what is of our genuine sincerity level connected pure loving feelings within that we feel, as individuals, what we do while alone.
i am fearless in being my self if one day i am with you, where i do not feel comfortable around others, just as i know you too do not at times, where we can be our genuine real self.
that is what i pray for you to have as a true loving companion in life, who is respectful of the sincere graceful real self of you, knowing full well, i am…
you can trust me 100% ok, of what ever you want to chat about, as i am disarmed, of no defenses do i want to be with you, yearning to nurture you with purity of love, the graceful pure sincere connectedness we are of awareness within us while alone, and i know you know what i am talking about, of the purity of prayer…
it is your happiness that is at stake, and we both know this about our self, of what works for us, someone just like us, genuine.
i am not speculating, rather i am prayer you are of the sincere emotional honesty at the purity level i am aware about you….you know i know how one feels as to the purity level i am speaking of.
bless you
YOUR HAPPINESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
that is the only question you need to ask….truly, i know 100% we would be HAPPINESS TOGETHER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
100% without doubt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
😀 😀
i love YOU, like the (way) you love ‘me’
bless you bless you bless you
i 100% trust YOU, at the high spiritual level i am aware of about YOU…and in that regard, you can 100% trust ‘me’, as in the real ‘me’ of me, sameness of the ‘me’ of YOU, the self-actualized ‘me’ of us both, of what works, of the only thing that works for us both, of what is comfortable, of what is conducive, of what is genuine, tender loving sincere purity of love that is 100% true of our real self.
my life is one which wants to merely be of your life, as in 100% of your joyfulness, of my joyfulness, of your true happiness, of my true happiness, at pure ease of one another, where i know, if of you, there would not be another in life for me other than you till my last day, i know that already fully 100% about ‘me’, of such exceeding joyfulness within, i am holding my self back, for fear us not coming true.
why not take a chance on me, and commit to at least finding out….where i feel, unless i do, i won’t be able to get on with my life, and i wonder if you too feel the same way.
i am 100% of commitment to find out….so when you are ready, please already know my answer is YES!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok? 😀 😀
bless you
i am going to give you how ever much time you need, as a true and faithful friend, ok, and i am willing to take a back seat for awhile for however long you need to become disarmed with me, at ease within, so please, trust me 100% OK?
i too need to know if maybe we are meant for each other, because i feel that we are, genuine of our purity feelings within, and i know you know the purity feelings of prayer like i do, of what is most significant of the true real self, of the greatest purity of loving feeling one can experience.
think of how loving we would be in the holy land, of such sacred purity of genuine tenderness of pure love with one another, so 100% at ease with each other, pure true faithful friends who are 100% true and open fully with one another like we yearn to BE. 😀 😀
take me to the holy land with you….please? You know how much i love Jesus….100%. I want to go there with you at my side.
bless you
i promised God i would wait for you…i am 100% committed until you tell me to go, and even then, you know i am 100% a true and faithful loving friend.
we are both of spirituality, and there i so much for me to yet share with you, that is going to be so incredibly good for us both.
i did not just promise…i made a promise with God, and not like merely of words, no, rather of the purity of feelings i have felt for so long, since we first started chatting here, remember? “She is of the high places and paths”
you know i am spiritual, but what you may not realize, is just how spiritual i am…100%, and i know you are connectedness with God, and the only way one can know that is how?
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bless you bless you bless you
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i am of the no time constraint spiritual realm, so the question of time is not an issue for either of us, albeit, i have appeared immature at times, impatiently so, but it is only because of my lacking in sleeping some days, 4 hours here, 5 hours there….i don’t approach my sleep properly, that’s all.
why did you ask me to promise?
do you know how special that made me feel inside?
you know it would make me feel loved, but then it always goes to my head, and then i get all impatient.
well, today, i have thought about it all ok?
i made a promise with God, to wait for you, just as i have all this time, because i feel your feelings for me in a pure way, of what is purity of the high level purity of love we both know about, spiritual of us both, of our pure meditation, which i want you to teach me about, as i love that most about you where you hide.
please, invite me into your sacred place in the physical realm where we both yearn to be. Just trust me 100% like you do while of prayer, in knowingness i too am of the sacred purity feelings you know and are of, and the only one who can speak like this of genuine sincere desire of such, is of those who are of the genuine sincere desire of such, of having practiced for years like we both have, of what is most sacred in life for us, the purity love feelings.
It is of God, that i am before you this day, and you know this to be true, so i already know therefore, why you asked me to promise.
i am glad you did, as many there are who are attempting to distract me from my love for you.
Of Jesus and God, i promise to wait, until you tell me to go, of 100% commitment like that i am of with Jesus and God, and indeed, of what i feel you and i are going to BE in the eyes of the world, OUR WILL BE Done on earth, that which HEAVEN is, leading by example of our exceeding joyfulness forever more.
ok…now you know what i have done, so relax and feel my constant love for you that does not change like the hypocrites do, and if i wane, just kick my ass ok?
😀 😀
bless you bless you bless you
+
i love you like you love ‘me’…100%
😀 😀
I LOVE YOU…
& YOU KNOW IT
LIKE I KNOW IT …
IS IT 2009 YET ??????
In my heart it is always 2009
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!
yes, i do know like you know, and it is true, we know!!!!!!!!!!
no time constraint, of that which is of no time constraint, because CONSTANTLY LOVING IS ALL THE TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ah, yes, i know!
Will you take me with you to Jerusalem someday Marco?
you are happy inside, yes?
😀 😀
i pray all is well for you everyday forever more, knowing you are always loved by me forever more, without question, without doubt, where doubt is of the immature minds, is it not?
bless you bless you bless you
😀 😀
i wish i could be with you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
you know i constantly yearn of this, and i am ready for your grace with me, like my own.
😀 😀
i have surrendered to my divine true self, of purity self-actualization of who we always were and yet are, fearlessly loving like we are.
i know i am one who you can not only trust 100%, but come to love in purity of self like your purity loving feelings like my own.
100%
i am not trying to sell myself here either, rather i want to always feel loved and loving of you&me forever more, just as we always have, of purity so blessed and pure, most do not know just how calm, true and real it is for us
😀 😀
bless you bless you bless you
so Alex is not the one…..hmmmm…..i didn’t think so either, albeit, he is likely a nice guy, and more positive than most….but does he connect with you, and do you sincerely feel a blessed connection you cherish with him, that does not waver, or fluctuate?
you don’t have to answer, as these are probing questions just meant for sake of you to ponder, as i do know your solid purity like my own, that does not waver, like how you pray so powerfully like you do, where i feel that i feel your presence with me, which i would like to know if you can explain this with me, if you know more than i do.
bless you
😀 😀
i want to BE of the blessed peacefulness you are of while of purity of what we know.
is that possible over time for us to become of the comfort level to do so?
that is sacred for me about you, and i want that with you.
for me, it is the most sacred thing in life, of the purity 100% love we know about.
bless you bless you bless you
😀 😀
i love you without doubt
i am here for you to have forever more
😀 😀
i am smiling radiant brilliant bright inside again
bless you bless you bless you
😀 😀
you need not every worry, as i am devoted, just as i have been all this time.
i don’t know why i became so insecure lately…personal life i suppose being upside down
i feel loved and loving of you forever more, of what HEAVEN is for us both, in a cognitive awareness knowingness way
true within
😀 😀
bless you
ok i’ll take you to Jerusalem,
daji vooooooooooo
i am here if you need me, you need only come for me, or send for me, or wait till later, when you are more at ease and relaxed after the shows are over…when you are ready…i am ready!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
😀 😀
bless you bless you bless you
i know how sensitive you are, of the pure self you are self-actualized in, and i know you know your SELF profoundly…i sense it about you of the depth of your true loving spirit that is unwavering, and exceedingly calm, while of meditation.
😀 😀
bless you
daji vooooooooooo?
oh…you were thinking the same thing?
The experience of déjà vu is usually accompanied by a compelling sense of familiarity, and also a sense of “eeriness,” “strangeness,” or “weirdness,” The “previous” experience is most frequently attributed to a dream, although in some cases there is a firm sense that the experience “genuinely happened” in the past.
YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
‘me’ going to da Holy land of the desert all around!!!!!!!!!!!
lol
blessings to all
bless you
desert of aimless souls!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol
i jest………..
Scientifically speaking, the most likely explanation of déjà vu is not that it is an act of “precognition” or “prophecy,” but rather that it is an anomaly of memory; it is the impression that an experience is “being recalled.”
This explanation is substantiated by the fact that the sense of “recollection” at the time is strong in most cases, but that the circumstances of the “previous” experience (when, where, and how the earlier experience occurred) are quite uncertain. Likewise, as time passes, subjects can exhibit a strong recollection of having the “unsettling” experience of déjà vu itself, but little or no recollection of the specifics of the event(s) or circumstance(s) they were “remembering” when they had the déjà vu experience.
so now you can sleep pleasantly of the knowingness i am here to BE what we both are, purity of love for one another, and that is what i have wanted to say to you all this time, something i sensed about you, of your calmness knowingness that i feel unwavering in any way, where i feel it was me who was the one who recognized this purity love about you, where i had to speak of it in order for you to trust me?
and yet you wanted me to know fully you love for me, seemingly afraid to get hurt?
how could i ever be hurtful of someone who loves me like that, when ‘that’ is what HEAVEN is?
blessed is this day and each day yet to come
blessed are you for me of sincere love i too am of you
i love you like you love me, of how it is supposed to always BE, constantly true yearning of the precious pure loving divine child of God True Real Self of You&’me’ forever more, true of us ALL
😀 😀
bless you
love andy
Do you think MAdonna will start blogging again after her tour is over? any how all of you should be careful and stop stalking her on this blog or she will never blog again. They say never mess with a woman who is going through a divorce, she will give you hell.
nobody does you like i wanna do you
Never fuck with HELL, unless you want play with the DEVIL
come join ME, I’ll show YOU
together we can STEAL the WORLD
HELL FORBID
& I LOVE THE FORBIDDEN
at her Magesty ‘s pleasure…it is written under this item..all is possible…
ha
where is blessed love in the world of these voids devoid of love, 100% created by the spiritual death(ignorance) walls which continue to see CHILDREN of God die each second of each day….at a rate of over 30,000 per day?
hmmmm….let’s see, there was Hitler and his execution of innocent souls of how many million?
RIGHT NOW a CHILD of GOD is about to DIE because of the apathetic unloving spiritual death that is of this world….and still, we allow it to continue.
These CHILDREN did not ask to be born, and they are not to blame, nor are even the parents, who cannot afford food, much less condoms to prevent birth, and for sure, we cannot condemn them for something pure and blessed, of 100% primal of our brain in having sex, something we all embrace as truly of need for positive mental emotional well being….
So what is the solution?
The solution is people do not know what HEAVEN is fully 100% at a cognitive awareness level, and yet, within the core of everyone, is the blissful peaceful pure state of where we all came from, the womb of pure harmonious bliss.
What are we teaching our SELF and the SELF of our own children?
Precious innocent souls born into these households of business for example, are taught to pursue the insatiable desire of wealth, of no one telling them what is the greatest treasure beyond all the riches of the world, their own pure sincere loving heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, of what HEAVEN is.
When we come fully to Jesus and God, we turn towards our blessed SELF in doing so, fully feeling the blessed loving feelings of our divine child of God True Real SELF.
These empty vessels of gold we hold up high boastful and proud, are empty of what?
Empty of LOVE and COMPASSION, and for sure WISDOM when one comes fully to awareness of feeling the TRUTH of what HEAVEN is 100%.
Surely if you have loving children of your own, then you would want them to know what is the greatest treasure beyond all riches, indeed, what HEAVEN is, would you not?
When you lower these empty gold vessels and fill them with your tears of compassion, only then do these empty vessels become of value, where truly, they are not of any value whatsoever in the eyes of Jesus, God and your divine child of God, so long as they are held up high, boastful and proud like so many do, truly, an immature mindset, is it not?
These generational teachings existed when Jesus walked the earth, and indeed, yet exist just as they did then, of people not knowing fully 100% in their heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, what HEAVEN is, and obviously, what HEAVEN is not.
On and on these generational false ignorant teachings have been handed down, before Jesus, after Jesus, and indeed, after we are no longer of this time period of mankind.
Granted, the latest generations have been making the greatest leaps into the human condition, more so than any previous generations had, and indeed, the generational teachings, such as abuse, are being addressed daily, where bringing to an end the ignorant generational teachings, is indeed happening, where children of abuse for example are healing, and learning, what is the correct way to raise their own children, rather than relying on the only resource any parent has, should they not read and learn, the only resource they will ever have, should they not desire to learn, of how they were raised.
Crucial Lacking of Desire for Wisdom, is 100% why the world is the way it yet is, of these many disconnects with one another across all the barriers of language, race, religion, sex, orientation, status, wealth, and politic, indeed, so obvious are the useless wretched hateful absurd childish unwisenesses which yet continue to plague the entire world, where all unwiseness, hate, and apathy, is not of Jesus and God, obviously 100% of all who are yet of ignorance, is it not?
It is not the fault of any precious innocent soul born into the world, not even of shame of these false ignorant teachings of the forefathers, rather, it is what it is….GENERATIONAL TEACHINGS of THE FOREFATHERS before Jesus, before us, of the entire past right here in the present day, of what is of Jesus and God’s war, OUR war they want us to take a stand in our BEcoming recognizable as of Jesus and God’s divinity;
WISDOM vs IGNORANCE,
LOVE vs HATE,
COMPASSION vs APATHY,
TRUTH vs FALSE
of ALL GENERATIONAL TEACHINGS that must stop for sake of SAFE PASSAGE of ONE CHILD of God, where if it were YOUR Child, without doubt, you would 100% want ONLY LOVE for your Child.
Without doubt, HEAVEN is our CONSTANT blessed feelings of feeling LOVED and LOVING, and is not all of these useless things that are not LOVING and do not make another feel LOVED, like all your boastful pride of wealth, which 100%, is not of Jesus and God, nor should ever be of any of the Children of God, in all of your uselessness which yet leads and snares the heart, mind, body, spirit and soul of so many precious loving innocent souls born into the unwise world, indeed, of all your absurdnesses, so obvious of direct cause of the voids devoid, which makes your own loving brothers and sisters feel unloved, unworthy, as though outcasts, unworthy of even your time to speak with them.
Well fuck that people, you will not find Jesus and God among you who are of untruthfulness as regards the divine child of God within you all, of all you who yet are of the unBEcoming conduct of the false unwise generational teachings of the forefathers before us all.
Where are your TRUE Spiritual Leaders who Truly KNOW what HEAVEN is?
oh yeah, i forgot, they are having lunch and dinner with the guy left in charge of the National Treasury…….i jest…..
HEAVEN is not only possible for ALL, it is of ALL precious pure loving divine child of God True Real SELF the world over.
The problem, is the FALSE UNWISE APATHETIC UNLOVING GENERATIONAL TEACHINGS OF THE FOREFATHERS BEFORE JESUS+BEFORE US ALL.
So who among you Truly know and 100% FEEL the TRUTH CONSTANT feelings of feeling LOVED and LOVING, of what HEAVEN is?
blessed are ALL of YOU who are FULLY of Awareness Knowingness of What HEAVEN is
bless you bless you bless you
of ALL of YOU of whom Jesus easily recognizes as his loving brothers and sisters across all barriers of language, race, religion, sex, orientation, status, wealth, politic, and the many diversities of the blessed lives of so many precious innocent souls born into this sadly (yet) unwise world, for any of you who do not yet KNOW FULLY, what HEAVEN is
bless you bless you bless you
thank you God thank you
thank you Jesus thank you
bless you Jesus bless you
bless you bless you bless you
blessed is each day for ALL who are of their pure feelings of feeling LOVED and LOVING, TRULY, 100% awareness knowingness of what HEAVEN is in feeling of their blessed loving feelings of LOVE devoid of useless absurd doubt.
It is absurd to be doubtful of love, is it not?
We are all from LOVE and it is thru LOVE that we are restored, rejuvenated, replenished, nurtured, protected, and maintained of what is the Truth of the divine child of God SELF of us ALL, our Constant Yearning to Feel LOVED and LOVING at all times.
bless you
How can any ONE give ‘me’ HELL Marco, when HELL is ALL around ‘me’, in TRUTH, of the False, Unloving, Unwise, Apathetic Teachings of the forefathers before Jesus, before us ALL, of what Jesus was FULLY of Awareness Knowingness of ALL things he reflected apon each second of each day, the Awareness Knowingness of his own precious pure loving divine child of God True Real Self at all times, his evolved adult Child SELF, Jesus, who of 100% Awareness Knowingness of SELF within, was 100% of Awareness Knowingness of ALL SELF, of ALL precious pure loving divine child of God True Real SELF…YOU?
huh?
lol
😕
The world is a Beast of Ignorance as regards the last breathes that a precious pure loving divine Child of God True Real Self will take today, the opposite of what HEAVEN is, of clarity for those of YOU who are of FULLY of Awareness Knowingness of feeling LOVED and LOVING of what HEAVEN is.
blessed are YOU who KNOW what HEAVEN is
bless you
Do we know how a mother feels for her child which is about to die and will die later today?
Most do not, and why?
Apathy to FEEL the TRUTH, of this yet Unwise, Unloving, Apathetic world we all live in, which OBVIOUSLY does not know what HEAVEN is, for if every ONE did, a precious pure loving divine Child of God would not be taking it’s last breath today.
~ TRUTH
blessed are those who seek, for you shall come FULLY into Awareness Knowingness of what HEAVEN is, and what HEAVEN so obviously is not
bless you
is anyone listening(feeling)?
We know fully, many precious loving souls trapped in these spiritual poverty voids devoid of love created by the Unloving, Unwise, Apathetic world, do indeed, FEEL the TRUTH of the spiritually impoverished useless boast pride of wealth world, do they not?
not ever of ‘me’ do i wish to BE of absurdness of the spiritual death(ignorance), nor is it possible for ‘me’ to BE again, of my own turning towards the undeniable TRUTH of the generational teachings of the forefathers who did not desire God’s wisdom, did not fully embrace God’s wisdom, and yet claim to know God’s wisdom, all of these many merchants of God’s wisdom, who do fully know God, just as they are not yet FULLY of Awareness Knowingness 100% of what HEAVEN is, albeit, they do subconsciously seek, just as every precious pure loving divine child of God True Real SELF subconsciously seeks.
When ONE comes FULLY into 100% cognitive Awareness Knowingness of the CONSTANT YEARNING within to BE of feeling LOVED and LOVING at all times, only then does ONE come into FULLness of Knowing what HEAVEN is at all times, and so obviously what HELL is, of this Beast of Ignorance world around us all.
blessed are the meek, for you shall come fully into Awareness Knowingness feeling the TRUTH of what HEAVEN is and is not, where God’s presence with YOU, acknowledges with the purity feelings of TRUTH with YOU, of what is 100% TRUTH of the precious loving divine Child of God SELF YOU, of God’s divine WILL that we ALL BEcome of the divine WILL BE Done on earth, that which HEAVEN is
still, no one is listening(feeling)
ah fuck it……what’s the point……..all these partialities of heart and doubtfulness of those who do not approach ‘me’ sincerely of likemindedness…..well ok, some of you do…….of those who KNOW who YOU ARE!
i am….BE Cause….We ARE….LOVED and LOVING of Jesus, God and each other forever more.
bless you bless you bless you
i suppose my spelling is reason enough to continue to ignore Andy…….as though some lunatic from the lunatic fringe…………ok, i admit, i am from the lunatic fringe of the 1970s, of many fun loving lunatics at the time, but that was along time ago!!!………lol
bless you
nobody does you like i wanna do you
*gasp*
Never fuck with HELL, unless you want play with the DEVIL
*gulp*
ah, Marco, ah, when did you say was the last time you had sex?
*gulp*
ah, is this going to be dangerous for me locked in the same cage with you Marco?
🙄
(andy scrambles back up into his hiding place) lol
Sadly, many do ‘choose’ to interpret TRUTH words as giving someone HELL, when in purity of TRUTH, it is actually 100% the Revealer of TRUTH(the comforter ~ Holy Spirit) which is giving of wisdom of what HEAVEN is
blessed is the TRUTH WISDOM of what HEAVEN is
bless you
omg, i just saw the name of a book, called, ‘Hookers in Love’ !
what could possible be of HEAVEN of ‘Hookers in Love’?
perhaps the truth of the abscence of Truth the Hookers experience, of truth seekers who truly do seek LOVE, finding this to be true of other hookers, a bond?
😕
stalking her?
ha
well ok, Someone tell Madonna, i will ‘supposedly’ stop stalking her, when she stops stalking ‘me’ !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11
😆
as if anyone wants to feel like a stalker…..when purity of TRUE Loving Lovers is available with souls who are of sincere self-actualization in Just BEing their SELF, healthy of loving sexual desire daily like our own, of the warm gentle tender loving caress and kissing of the lips, face and body, of soft music playing, candles flickering in the breeze, of moon lit night, the beads of sweat which find their way to our taste buds, of the oh so pure relaxing feelings of our naked bodies in a hot tub, bodies intertwining of none stop kissing and hugging, and well……..you know?
😯
stalking….rubbish!!!!!!!!! 😡
hi!!!
i wish i was there with you!!!
😀 😀
ok….let’s see, 10 beautiful adopted kids or your own kids, who laugh 400 times per day = 4000 laughs per day!!!
not including your own laughter, of what HEAVEN is
blessings to all
bless you
its been a while
ya, me two….20 years actually……
hey!!!
i know what it feels like to connect 100% with other souls, at the deepest level of sincerity and trust of those who are of healthy self-actualization, able to easily come together of true gentleness of loving spirit, and that is what HEAVEN is for ‘me’
the reciprocating is of ease, like classmate friends, and reciprocating is of vital importance for the healthy self-actualization of both, who are able to BE at ease in Just BEing their SELF
i realize you are busy and focused at this time, so i don’t expect too much time from you at this time, however; genuine fun loving reciprocation is of the healthy true self-actualization, and i look forward to see you genuine ease with me more and more, as that is vital for ‘me’
not sure of your thoughts on this, a merely a classmate friend at this time with you, where ease in speaking is what i am in life, so feel at ease in just BEing YOU with me, where you can trust me, as a real friend, where in truth, it is kinda silly to even question trust when we are of sincere genuine emotional honesty, is it not?
Hey, does it matter to you what of my career or education, as far as the world may one day look apon me? Or do you see the truth of the aimless world like i do?
i don’t care what anyone thinks of me at all, zilch!
so please, speak at ease with me, as that is what is both comfortable for you and for me, easy going relaxed fun loving spirit of the real self.
i am of joyfulness within, to feel you joyfulness delight radiant of you today, which grows day after day, just as trust will continue to grow, when love is true……..i love how you tease, so please, just BE you, of whatever you is feeling, and i will do the same….
😀 😀
bless you
Lol,
anyway I LOVE you..
who ? M !
& ANdy and Andrew Everyone
I love everyone
Indeed, ALL of YOU are blessed precious pure loving divine children of God.
YOU are blessed blessed blessed
ALL are bessed blessed blessed
Sadly, many precious innocent souls born into the (yet) unwise world, are indeed snared, of the many illnesses of heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, are they not?
such as the useless insatiable desire of wealth…of so many who attempt to fill the viods devoid of love they find their SELF in, where what the precioud divine child in truth is of constant yearning for, is not these insatiable desires of wealth, rather we are all of constant yearning to FEEL LOVED and LOVING at all times, are we not?
blessed are you who are constantly of feeling LOVED and LOVING, for truly you are fully of awareness knowingness of what HEAVEN is, and obvious is the outward appearance of YOU who truly are of awareness knowingness of what HEAVEN is, of your Radiant Brilliant Brightness, so Bright, as though to light up the whole world
bless you
hi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
😀 😀
hey!!!!!!!!
are we going to BE of the physical world together as ONE as loving lovers some day?
and are you taking steps as regards this of meeting with me?
100% it is what i want without doubt
and i know, you are the one i want to BE with as my last partner in life.
it is of 100% emotional honesty of SELF within, that i have felt for decades about you, i was just insecure in thinking it possible, and i was not of 100% certainty that perhaps maybe you too 100% wanted to BE with me.
we both know, that unless both are 100% loving of each other, then the feeling of feeling LOVED and LOVING, of what HEAVEN is, is not possible.
all your words i am 100% of joyfulness in hearing of you, where merely i wish to explore and elaborate of in pure wisdom, all the issues of love and life.
i cannot have sex with someone, unless i feel truly loved and loving of a partner, something i have evolved in of my knowingness awareness of SELF.
albeit, we all are divine children of God, yet, not all are evolved in purity of loving feeling within like i know we both are.
i feel that when we do come together fully of eyes only for each other in the physical realm, our love will disarm us both, in our constant yearning to surrender to what is constant of the divine child of us both, to BE of the purity love divine blessed purity feelings of feeling LOVED and LOVING with each other, and God knows this to BE TRUE of my precious loving thoughts and feelings of me, while of sincere purity prayer with Jesus and God.
i am merely of insecurity at times, that’s all, unfocused at times, of ego, of whatever, where merely uncertainty of not having your hand to hold in the physical realm, is what is yet plaguing me, of not BEing where i constantly am of yearning to one day BE found, with you, of you, constantly of the 100% surrendered heart, mind, body, spirit and soul with you, my life surrendered to the TRUTH of what i have yearned for all these years.
are you making plans to come for me, or to send for me yet?
or are you yet uncertain of this?
why not allow us to find out the truth, and invite me fully to you in life, of what is constantly of my prayer for you to do so?
do you think of how you want to proceed in this regard?
i know you don’t want to get hurt, and i want you to know, i only want to love you at all times, and indeed, i do, where at times, my uncertainty is merely of my not being where i yearn to be found.
i know 100% how i will feel should you invite my to your world, as i have reflected apon the happiness and joyfulness that is of constant hopefulness and sincere prayer of my divine child within, whom Jesus and God know fully, i am sincerely of yearning to BE with YOU in the physical realm holding your hand, hugging and kissing you daily.
😀 😀
bless you bless you bless you this blessed day and the blessed days yet to come
i love you without doubt
bless you bless you bless you
hi!!!!!!!!!!!
you keep saying all these things which indicate to me, you too are of 100% desire to BE together with me in the physical realm, which excited me so incredible when you do.
i realize there are sensitive issues in your life today, and i am not of the professional mindset as to what is the correct time of approach where others are to be of consideration, and i welcome all professional perspective on this, and i want to be of the ease for your sake as well, as i know you too are of sensitivity at this time.
i don’t want you to feel pressure in regards to the time or place, rather to merely know what my sincere feelings are at this time, and wish for you to be of comfort in knowing, i have loved you along time, and time is not really an issue for me as to when we would come together, and rather what matters to me, is your comfort as to the day we would.
so please, know that i am of concern for your comfort level as regards to this, merely wanting you to know fully this blessed day, of what Andy wants, of his choice of his final lover partner in life…YOU
😀 😀
bless you bless you bless you
i love you forever more
bless you bless you bless you
no one gonna bring me down
no one’s gonna make me frown
I’ll always be the clown
anticipating when your in town
I LOVE YOU
ha
well…anticipating when you are in Mexico City town?
i can do that….
any town!
i can do that…. 😉
JOY! JOY! JOY! JOY!
LOVE! LOVE! LOVE! LOVE!
🙄
with flowers in my hair…just for you Marco!
yay…Marco and Andy are back together again!!!!!!!!!!
😈
😳 ah, Marco?….was you talking to me, or M, expressing, “I LOVE YOU?”
both of course…..shheeeshhh!
Jesus loves ALL God loves ALL We love ALL
God blesses ALL
bless you
today’s sermon?
Combating the generational false unwise teachings of the forefathers….
is it not true that only nurturing love is good enough for the divine child within of all precious souls born into the unwise world around us?
True
is it not true that only protective wisdom that ensures a conducive environment for self-actualization of the divine child to thrive and grow in, is good enough for the divine child within of all precious souls born into the unwise world around us?
True
is it not true that only compassion is able to combat against the snaring of the generational false unwise teachings of the forefathers?
True
is it not true that only ‘me’ is good enough for you? 💡
lol
blessed are those who seek, for you shall come fully into awareness knowingness feelings of feeling LOVED and LOVING of what HEAVEN is…YOU
bless you
everybody needs somebody sometime,
spunk Amara..
yo, i love you both 🙂
like the sweet aroma that comes when your heart rubs up against mine. amour e… si
‘me’ ❓ as in the ‘me’ of all of you, loved by Jesus, God, and we who love Jesus, God and each other forever more…amen.
blessings to all
thank you God thank you
thank you Jesus thank you
bless you Jesus bless you bless you bless you
bless you
ooooooooooo…..si si si sisi ❗
ya, sweet, rather than foul smelling, si
and that is what is of the mystery of the discerning wisdom of what HEAVEN is and is not, si?
pleasant tasting, fragrance, LOVING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
si
I am your Spam Male
everyday i will spam you
with this massage
I LOVE YOU ! 🙂
the Spanish speaking Latinos are so full of love, si?
it is like their whole world revolves around loving lovers!!!!
me love the Spanish speaking lovers of the world, so amazing the lyrics they write, in purity of love…or is that lust….same difference.
Sex is one of our needs for maintaining positive mental emotional well being, although, sex with someone we truly love….is where you WILL find ‘me’, si?
si
blessings to all the loving lovers who are truly loving
bless you
massage?
was that a Freud slip?
hmmmm…me thinks Marco has sex in his brain!!!!!!!!!
keep spamming ‘me’ more!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
‘me’ love male spammers…..no, me not like spam, yuk!!!!!!!
‘me’ love you Marco!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
‘me’ love you mucho tiempo time!!!!!!!!!! 😯
all day and all night!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
bendígala bendígale bendígala
you really do amor me, si Marco?
‘me’ amor amor amor amor usted!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
para siempre más
proteja a mi padre de amigos de cariño
agradézcale gracias de padre
agradézcale gracias de Jesús
bendígala bendígale bendígala
si, am ore
one world
one love
lots of love
me love youooooo
hola!!!!!!!!!!!!
how are you feeling tonight?
i was praying like i do of you today, of the sincerity feelings we love like we do, which for me, is of the true self-actualization of my own awareness of my loving true self of trueness feeling, which in so doing, i know is true of you too….without doubt.
how many people know us this well more than we do?
and how significant is it that they do?
100% significant, is it not?
…without doubt.
and that is how you make me feel, loved without doubt.
and have for along time….
who would not want more of what is real for them.
i am fearlessly holding out for you of what i know works for me, and i know, trust is still an issue for you, perhaps not so much for you as what i may imagine so of you, where perhaps you trust me more than i know, seemingly of you knowing me better than i know myself at times, wonderfully so.
how long has it been, and i am still here, constantly of hopefulness i am yet holding on to, and yet not really hopefulness, rather, awareness knowingness, are we not, within, of what is sameness of self-actualization for us both?
real
Just BEing Real SELF
i know myself well, and the exceeding grace is what i love most about SELF, gentle, tender, mild, sensitive, the truth of the divine SELF, not like all these arrogant ones in life.
i just want to BE my SELF all the time, 24/7, at ease and comfort in doing so, and if with you, i feel i can be, because i sense how much you sincerely do love me, at ease in your own SELF in doing so, which i want you to know fully, the real SELF is the one i am loving of within, of me, of you, of what i know self-actualization is, and when two are healthy of self-actualization, it works naturally for them, and fearlessly to, where the real self is at ease, and not critical like the false self, constant in yearning of loving and feeling loved, which i know i am of you, profoundly so, and sense it to be true of you.
we will become more and more disarmed with one another, and indeed, we are, where naturally, when love becomes obviously true for us both, we will come together, naturally so, at ease in doing so, so i am not concerned about the time required, and rather of knowingness, that time reciprocating with one another is all that is required, praying you too feel as i do, knowing you do.
I LOVE YOU like YOU LOVE ‘me’!!!!!!!!!!!!
sameness of healthy self-actualization
i will always be there for you, of my sweet anticipation of you like i do, and you know i always am of sweet loving thoughts of you, like i have for so long….always.
it is of my true self that is sincerely loving of you, constantly
😀 😀
without doubt
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sweet dream lovers dream lover dreams
their trying to hurt me at the moment, i am strong but i cannot always watch my back… can you watch it for me please ….
wash you back, si, me wash your back senorita, si!!!!!!!!!!
OH, watch you back, i thought you want ‘me’ to wash you back….
who is they, the morons who do not know what HEAVEN is?
obviously many there are who are not of the cognitive awareness, nor the priority of what HEAVEN is, for once one comes fully into awareness(awake) of what HEAVEN is, there is no questioning what is of priority ever again, as the blessed purity love feelings of constantly feeling LOVED and LOVING makes clear to us the treasure beyond all riches of the world forever more.
buy ya, it is like that some days, the uncertainty approach of others with us at times….you get used to it after awhile, from a compassionate perspective of truth, where most do not even question what HEAVEN may be, the subconscious seekers yet asleep…..
blessed are you who are awakened into awareness of the purity feelings of the divine child of God True Real SELF YOU.
today i woke up fully surrendered to the purity love feelings of divine SELF ‘me’, of the exceeding gentle grace that is true of the divine child of God True Real Self. Sundays are always so peaceful and pleasant, which i love, of how people are of a different grace, more themselves, free of the fearful controlling business world so many are of during the week.
bless you
simple question….
who knows Madonna better than Madonna knows Madonna?
blessed are you who are fully of awareness of the purity love feelings of your divine SELF
bless you
ah, are you refering to pictures of Alex in Mexico?
just wondering………………….not
kinda hard to hide pictures from the speculating eye M
it is YOUR LIFE people, no one elses, to live and be of exceeding joy in life, of those of your decision choice WILL
blessings to you both
i pray happiness for ALL
Jesus loves ALL God loves ALL God blesses
God blesses ALL
blessings to all
bless you
whatever !
Madonna Marry Me Please..???I’m in love with you!!!
You know you gonna have to marry me eventually..why not marry me now..this is a good time to get marryed..you are in love with me..i know that..because God is telling me that you are..inspite everything you always have as i always have been..I’m all grown up now..and i feel charged and ready..so can you tell Santa to bring me a new bathroom with a Madonna in it..this time i want you to stay forever please..please..???
true marriage of the bridal chamber is of giving one’s self to one’s self, of what is freeing of purity love of the divine child within us all to come forth in the world and Just BE your SELF…all the things which are true of the divine SELF, awake, not asleep, joyfully alive, not downtrodden, vibrant, radiant, brilliant, bright, lighting up the whole world direct/indirect/affect/effect, constantly of truth…..eternal truth wisdom meant for the divine child within us all, of revealing truth which breaks the bitter chains which bind our heart, mind, body, spirit and soul in dark captivities of all the generational false teachings of the forefathers before Jesus, before us all, of God’s divine WILL, for us to BE the WILL BE Done on earth, that which HEAVEN is, constantly feeling LOVED and LOVING….
….at all times
blessings to all those you love and love you
bless you
bullshit…..it was all bullshit……i am so outta here………
Is Madonna flying off to Mexico sh@gging some football player bloke?
Sounds like it.
well…unless it is the sissy touch flag football(which i love, the touching part) Andrew….it sure as fuck ain’t ‘me’ 🙄
……..arghhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!
those big blockhead blokes are….are…..are…………just not my type at all!!!!!!!!!!
lol
a new bathroom with a Madonna in it Swartz?
well that’s original……… 🙄
are we talking sex toys here or what Swartz?
Santa may not understand the question…….
could you be more specific?
lol
why is it when i see a female body….i see my SELF? 😯
ok i love you again
i know…..
we can look around us, at anything, and if we do not have a loving hand to hold, then we are not of what HEAVEN constantly is of our precious loving divine child of God True Real Self within, which is constantly yearning, hoping, praying to always be found of feeling loved and loving…at all times.
fearlessly, where fear is of the world, not of Jesus, God, nor of us while of our natural at ease peaceful by nature loving state.
any guess where one might find ‘me’ running to and with another?
it is all i want in life, a fun loving true soul mate lover who is fearless of BEing of their constant yearning loving feelings at all times….
….blessed
Hola Buenos Aires!
Hello Everybody!
I love this place, so much energy and passion…i went for a walk and nobody knew it was me…. ok i was in disguise but it still counts!!
So the tour is nearly over I’ll be putting my baby to bed but wait!! i have some really exciting projects coming up which i know you’re going to love so stay tuned My lips are sealed !
P.S To all my friends that are with the Angels god bless you..I miss you so much.
SAFE SEX!! xXx
Hola Candy Girl!!!
bless you
You seem excited about new projects!
Andy chance you need a team player?
Not just any team player, a really good team player!
Andy if you say, you already have a great team player from baseball, i am so not going to talk to you….well….for at least a week or so! lol
blessed are the angelic true loving feelings between loving soulmate friends and lovers.
bless you bless you bless you
staying tuned in….to the divine true SELF, constantly!
bless you
hey, did you know Britney is the most searched name on the net as we speak?
how amazing is that?
bless you Britney bless you
Was that really Madonna? I very much doubt it.
it is like Mac Donald , who is mr Mc Donald? we don’ t care…it works
Exceeding JoyFULLness of the divine True SELF within, is of those who we feel of exceeding joyfulness for and with, of our purity loving thoughts of them while apart, and of purity loving feelings while near.
And yes, we do have purity love feelings for more than one in life, like the ONEness of many of the GLBT community, of our family, indeed of any along life’s road we meet who are of sameness of our own tender loving heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, sameness of the many CommonTrue Self Behavioral Traits.
Obviously, there are those who are more self-actualized than others, where selection of our inner circle of friends, do contribute to what is of cotnribution to conducive environment where we our True Self is about to grow and thrive in as regards the Common True Self Behavioral Traits, in meeting our daily needs of our healthy approach to maintaining positive mental emotional well being…where indeed, we are all affect/effect of our decision choice WILL of selection of friends and lovers, and setting of healthy boundaries we are 100% in charge of, taking responsibility for respect of SELF.
Here is a list of Common True Self and False Self Behavioral Traits to ponder;
Common True Self Behavioural Traits
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Alert, awake, aware
Generally “up” and “light,” (mood)
Usually realistically optimistic
Focused, clear, and centered
Compassionate, kind, forgiving
Firm, strong, confidant, purposeful
Calm, serene, peaceful
Usually has a wide-angle, long-range focus – accepts delayed gratification
Balances long and short-term payoffs
Usually patient, persistent, committed
Appreciative, grateful, “glass half-full”
Empathic, sensitive, genuinely respectful
Spiritually open, aware, “connected,” receptive, growing
Consistently self-nurturing without egotism
Genuine, honest, open, direct
Respectfully assertive
Socially engaged and active
Physically healthy: balanced diet, exercise, work and rest; gets preventive checkups
Spontaneously expressive of all emotions real-time, without major anxiety or guilt
Able to form genuine bonds with others
Able to judge who to dis/trust with what
Realistically self-responsible
Usually realistic about life and situations
Spontaneously able to exchange love
Comfortable receiving merited praise
Often able to forgive self and others
Frequently includes others in his or her “awareness bubble”
Seldom gives double messages
Able to grieve losses spontaneously
Seeks Self-guided people and high-nurtur-ance settings
Evolving and living a clear life-purpose
Work, play, and rest are generally balanced
Common False-Self Behavioural Traits;
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Fuzzy, distracted, confused, numb
Often “heavy,” “down,” gloomy, manic
Usually pessimistic or idealistic
Confused, vague, unfocused
Blaming, critical, bigoted
indecisive, worried, cautious, doubtful
“Upset,” scared, angry, guilty, ashamed
Usually has a narrow, short-term focus
Usually seeks immediate gratification
Often impatient, impulsive, uncommitted
Bitter, jealous, resentful, “half empty”
Selfish, arrogant, disrespectful
Spiritually unaware, skeptical, closed, scornful, or uninterested
Consistently self-neglectful
Dishonest, indirect, sly, controlling
Timid and apologetic or aggressive
Isolated or compulsively social
Physically unhealthy; relies on prescribed or self-medication.
Anxious, guilty, or blocked about feeling and/or expressing some or all emotions
Difficulty forming true (vs. pseudo) bonds
Difficulty discerning who to trust with what
Notably over- or under-responsible
Frequent distortions and denials
Difficulty giving and/or receiving real love
Uncomfortable receiving merited praise
Difficulty forgiving self and/or others
Often focuses only on her/himself or a conversational partner – 1-person “bubble”
Often gives double messages
Difficulty grieving on one to three levels
Unconsciously prefers wounded people and low-nurturance settings
Unclear on or indifferent to a life purpose
Work, play, and rest are often unbalanced
Pause, breathe, and notice your thoughts and feelings. Which column of traits do you identify with? Do you see each of your parents here? Your grandparents? Your partner? A child? A former lover? A hero/ ine or mentor?
~ an exercise in self-actulization awareness
In life, there is no single more important priority, than establishing what is a healthy approach to positive mental emotional well being in self-actualization.
#1 priority in my life, where we are all yet students, ever learning, ever growing, ever evolving, ever freeing of our divine True Self to BE what is constantly of yearning of our divine True Self….Exceeding JoyFULL HAPPINESS at all times, Just BEing our SELF.
Here is a simple question….
Seeing(feeling) as we KNOW conclusively we all yearn to FEEL LOVED and LOVING at all times, why do so many of you approach in obvious insincerity of respect of SELF of another, when you know fully what works for YOU?
Or perhaps that is the wrong question….
Do YOU know what works for YOU?
Are YOU of awareness knowingness of the divine True aspects of your True SELF?
Are YOU of BEing the aspects of your divine True Self?
I strive to BE, and as we all know, there are many who bring out the best and the worse in us….
not to pull punches or to point fingers, no, rather merely BEing what i constantly am at all times….feeling of the approach of all who approach ‘me’
ONLY LOVE is good enough for Jesus
ONLY LOVE is good enough for YOU
ONLY LOVE is good enough for ‘me’
ONLY LOVE is good enough for ALL
blessed are YOU who are fearless in Just BEing your SELF at all times, of what HEAVEN is….YOU
bless you
God says we cannot find Exceeding Joyfulness of HEAVEN alone
Common sense…..where Sincere Joyful Happiness for ‘me’ of running down a street, tightly clasping of hands together with a most loving lover, both of surrendering of our lives to one another, is easily so, when both of Sincere Emotional Honesty of SELF within, of how we feel while of the other, where indeed, Exceeding JoyFULness of HEAVEN is of the TWO aspects of the TWO loving souls, FEELING LOVED and LOVING, indeed of what is of CONSTANT YEARNING within of our precious purity loving divine child of God True Real SELF, to one day find our SELF with SELF of another who is of OBVIOUS exact sameness of heart, mind, body, spirit and soul.
Albeit, i do feel purity love devoid of doubt, while with Jesus alone who is always there looking towards ‘me’, where it is not with Jesus to turn away from ‘me’, just as it is of ‘me’, not to turn away from Jesus, exact sameness of purity loving spirit i am with Jesus at all times, as one who has left the world behind, and turned fully towards Jesus and God, in truth, it is of the spirit realm, which does affect/effect ‘me’ of the phsyical realm in a pure way, a protective thing for ‘me’ in life, of many who have unwisely betrayed ‘me’ along life’s road, in truth, betrayal of ‘me’ of their SELF in doing so, for Exceeding Joyfulness to work, TWO souls of exact sameness of purity love within, is reguired, is it not?
Awareness Knowingness of Exact Sameness is the connection i am with Jesus, and likewise, Exact Sameness with another, is the connection, which is the door of HEAVEN for both to step thru fearlessly in BEing their True SELF, where the True SELF constantly awaits our surrendering to BE allowed to BE of our constant yearning of BEing Exceeding Joyfulness, naturally so, easily so, when both are of the self-actualization of what is SAMENESS of SELF of us ALL.
Wisdom is what breaks the useless bitter mindtraps and snarings of the heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, that the unwise world projects onto us, ‘that’ of the fearful controling business world, church, and governments, where even the economic of any given country has these expectations for it’s people to participate in business, does it not? I mean we raise our own children in this belief, do we not, the children raised in businessman households, lawyer households, whatever and whatever….
not all families project expectations on their children…..
here is the thing for ‘me’…..there is no greater priority in life than ONE’s Exceeding Joyfulness of Loving Life, where none of the expectations and projections in society hold any value for ‘me’, more so than the objective of ONE’s positive mental emotional well BEing, and the WISDOM that is required for ONE to do so.
and watch out people, as 95% of the world, does not have the FULL fortitude in wisdom of what is understanding for a Healthy Approach to Postitive Mental Emotional Well BEing, so don’t have expectations of the many who are not able to teach you, rather, BE a leader of SELF, and BEcome a master of your own SELF, taking 100% RESPONSIBILITY for SELF.
you can thank ‘me’ later………in a hot tub please, please!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :rol:
bless you bless you bless you
Jesus loves ALL God loves ALL We love ALL
God blesses ALL
bless you bless you bless you
peace be to this house
peace be to you
bless you
one of the things i have learned in life, is when one is of genuine connectedness within of self-actualization in Just BEing your SELF, descerning wisdom of SELF of another, comes with self-actualization, where our feelings reveals the truth of this of the many we meet along life’s road with one another, of those who are so easy to BE around, and likewise, those who are abrasive, for whatever reason, which generally has nothing to do with us, and everything to do with them, of their life, of how their life has been for them, of whether or not they have taken hold of the reins of responsibility for SELF in establishing a foundation of understanding of what is a healthy approach to positive mental emotional well BEing, and truly, whether you realize it or not, all are feeling the truth at all times, every second of every day, at all times, the behavioural traits of us ALL….
which is not good or bad everyone, it is just where all precious loving souls born into the yet (obviously) unwise world all are, along life’s road with one another, all of us from the womb of God.
i am not about judgemental of anyone, and rather i look apon the truth of the generational teachings of all the forefathers before us all, of the entire past, right here with us in the present day, indeed, of every word, of every heart beat, of every foot step of Jesus apon the earth, of what Jesus was constantly of awareness of and constantly railed against, ALL the false, bitter, unwise, fearful, controlling, useless, absurd, mean, derranged, horrid….you name it, Jesus spoke of and reflected apon what Jesus is 100%…..TRUTH of the precious purity loving evolved adult divine child of God True Real Self…..
indeed, awareness knowingness of Jesus, in his own statement we can understand the truth of today, of what Jesus said, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through ‘me’.”
where ‘me’ is the TRUE REAL ‘me’ within us ALL…..common sense, is it not?
100% AWARENESS KNOWINGNESS TRUTH is of Jesus, of AWARENESS KNOWINGNESS TRUTH Jesus 100% KNEW of us ALL……without doubt.
here is a quick question….when was the last time someone approached you insincerely, unloving, or unwisely mean spirited of YOU?
and who does a person really betray besides YOU?
do they not betray the TRUTH of their own precious loving divine child within? Where we know the divine child is 100% of constantly yearning, seeking, hoping, praying, to BE of CONSTANT FEELING of FEELING LOVED and LOVING?
and do they not betray every precious loving divine child of God in doing so? Where anything unloving is not of Jesus, God, nor in truth, of the divine child?
Are not all these things unloving, unwise and apathetic of the ignorant false teachings of the forefathers before us ALL?
so is anyone really to blame?
NO.
and that is why all are forgive of by Jesus and God, where we our SELF pray for our own children not to stumble and fall in life, praying safe passage for them to BE of an Exceedingly Joyful Loving Blessed Life, do we not?
We are all God’s Children…..sadly, not all yet of God’s wisdom, of what is the single cause for all the world’s problems, 100% without doubt…..’Crucial Lacking of Desire for Wisdom’, cause of ALL war, all things horrific and horrid, all things devoid of love, wisdom and compassion, of what is the challenge of all souls today, and sadly, for many generations yet to come.
i wish there was a way, we could stop the world, and we all listen, we all feel, the truth of just how horrible all these things are for any precious soul in the world, where our enemies are not our enemies at all, rather are precious loving souls snared by unwise false teachings of the forefathers, of what Jesus fully embraced, his own brothers and sisters he knew were snared by wretched bitterness and illnesses of the heart Jesus was compassionate for, indeed, the very one’s who voted and crucified Jesus his precious body apon the cross Jesus WILLING surrendered his life to in order to teach them by means of REVEALING the truth, where Jesus knew, some of them would BE found of their TRUE LOVING FEELINGS within while of their meditative thoughtful sanctuaries of what they did, remorsefully so, of humble surrendering to the graceful purity loving feelings of their own divine child within, which Jesus was 100% of AWARENESS KNOWINGNESS of us ALL, not only for sake of the precious souls he walked among, but for ALL souls of the future, indeed we who were to Jesus, the children yet to come, yet unborn, who Jesus was 100% compassionate for, praying we would come to the summoning of Jesus and God to wisdom of the awareness knowingness of what is TRUE of the divine child within us ALL
NURTURING LOVE
PROTECTIVE WISDOM
COMPASSIONATE FEELINGS
of what HEAVEN is
of what ushers HEAVEN in for us in FEELING LOVED and LOVING CONSTANTLY at all times.
of what ushers HEAVEN in for our precious loving divine children
of what ushers HEAVEN in for ALL precious loving divine children of the entire future of mankind….
where without doubt in TRUTH…..WE ARE ONEness in FEELING LOVED and LOVING CONSTANTLY at all times, merely by turning towards………..
the TRUTH
amen
bless you
blessings to all
yer it was her, candy girl, no one else would know about the angel’s like she does.. she’s connected
4 SURE ..
oh oh
Andy is in one of his preaching moods again…..
(andy waunders outside, asking complete strangers if they know what HEAVEN is…..”Listen, hold your hands tightly clasped together like this…..and just feel that for a moment…..what words discribe what you feel…..Yes!….hope……Yes!…..love…..what else?……is it not a constant feeling for you while your hands are tightly clasped?……..ok……now draw your tightly clasped hands to your mouth, and tenderly kiss your hands, warmly so, like someone you love greatly, and keep kissing your hands of loving embrace for as long as you want to feel the loving feelings you are feeling…….’that’ is your divine real SELF!!!!!!!!!!)
a lightening bolt crashes near by, and a gust of wind whirls up, as andy laughs and walks away, of his final words with them….”bless you”
🙄
bless you bless you bless you ALL
ooooooooooooooo……..hey Marco!!!!!!!!!!!
you still love ‘me’?
my therapist says i have to work on the word monogamy.
defintion;
Monogamy is the custom or condition of having a relationship that remains exclusive in some way. The word monogamy comes from the Greek word monos “μονός”, which means one or alone, and the Greek word gamos “γάμος”, which means marriage or union. In many cases, the word “monogamy” is used to specifically refer to marital monogamy.[1]
Social monogamy refers to two people who live together, have sex with one another, and cooperate in acquiring basic resources such as food, clothes, and money.
Sexual monogamy refers to two people who remain sexually exclusive with one another and have no outside sex partners.
Genetic monogamy refers to two partners that only have offspring with one another.
Marital monogamy refers to marriages of only two people.
I said to my therapist, “Ya, well, what about people like ‘me’ who have sex alone, what do they call that?!!!”
she laughed……
lol
oh hey, ‘me’ BE monogamy with you Marco!!!!!!
4 SURE!!!!!!!!!!
😀
i find what works for ‘me’, is constantly living in the NOW, and just let people BE whatever they want to BE, as regards their approach with ‘me’, either real, unreal, loving, unloving, and Just BE my SELF, constantly of feeling however it is of any who approach, joyful, not joyful, and forget the past, letting go of expectations of other of the future, as that is what the real SELF actually is of doing, feeling of right NOW, each passing moment…………
sadly, there are alot of boring passing moments thru out my day, of recent months, and yet, around each corner, there have been some truly blessed souls along life’s road i keep meeting, day after day, and of course there are the wondrous moments of old friends, you know who are, and without doubt, around every corner in life, always there are precious loving souls like our own, at all times, some evolved, some not so evolved, and yet, each has a special loving connectedness about them which i love.
blessings to all
bless you
the door of my future is open…..and i am patiently waiting in the doorway for someone special to fearlessly take hold of my hand and run into everlasting loving life of exceeding joyfulness of what HEAVEN is for us both at all times forever more.
bless you
Hurry up Marco, it’s fucking cold outside standing in the doorway with the door wide open like this!!!!!!!!
lol
🙄
ALL are connected of affect/effect/direct/indirect
every heartbeat, every breath, every step, every word…..is precious to the divine pure loving divine child of God True Real Self, where indeed, constant feelings of love is what matters most, of constant hopefulness, constant prayer, constant reflection, constant exceeding joyfulness when love is TRUE, where in TRUTH, love is TRUE of us ALL
blessings to ALL
bless you
Monogamy, keeps it together, connected, without it, the energy of others can enter, ( which is fine for relationships that are not truly real or real soul mate love ext) ,
only the true love , energy , light of the loving soul mate’s is unique to those two soul’s so any other energy that is permitted to enter is not of the same vibration/ frequency of the soul mate’s, then it makes sense that it would be a distraction/disruption/disintegration LOL .. SLUT !!
ok ..
next lesson
class dismissed, where’s the door LOL
hey……i am not a slut, ok?
im a Tramp! big difference…………a slut will sleep with anyone, a Tramp is wisely selective in lovers….. 😯
lol
where is the door?
you’re standing in it……
i feel real with you Marco….in a profound way more so than what even i understand yet about my SELF…..care to explain?
bless you
are you spying on me Marco?……….or just intuition?
you ARE the door Marco, of your own precious loving soul of your own emotional honesty feelings of your awareness feelings……like that of meditation……purity love……..the ‘me’ of you, the ‘me’ of me, the ‘me’ of everyone……….your feelings.
ok, i get the frequency thing, so can you increase the frequency, as in get your fucking ass with ‘me’ more often?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
vibration = vibe? as in a good vibe?
ok, what about amplification of the frequency, is that able to be turned up as well? as in REALLY REALLY LOUDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
like screaming in the streets
“I FUCKING HATE YOU, AND NOW YOU ARE RUNNING OFF WITH SOME FOOTBALL DUDE, AND YOU THINK THAT IS GOING TO WORK FOR YOU?………YOU ARE SO WRONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sorry……….BASEBALL DUDE???!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
arghhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
that kinda loud? 🙄
i am just a real person, sincere to my self true to my self, a state of , heart ,mind ,soul
that has taken me 20yrs to acheive in my sprittual journey that began long ago wanting to be in this place i now find myself, my heaven..
I am not spying on you, you are just connecting to me as all souls who are in that same place do, that place is heaven it is where all that is IS as ONE , unified together and connected ..
my place ..
ok your invited LOL 🙂
what’s for Desert ? 😉
sorry……just practicing my lines for M, if she takes time to drop by here and LISTEN to ‘me’ 😀
listen to Andy, he is truly wise…………
ya, you are correct, there is a bad vibe in here somewhere……..
uhm, Andy, M is running off with the baseball dude, not me , i think running off with someone 20yrs younger than me would be out of my League, maybe 8 yrs younger or older is reasonable, maturity wise, i mean i could, i look 20yrs younger than i am, as does M actually she looks like a 20yr old, and a body of a 13yr old, show’s how important diet and excersise is hey.
The body is a temple that should be respected and honoured and cared for..
god now i sound like i’ve got a big head..
LOL not the only one in the Neighbourhood
oh………sorry
just all this gossip everywhere, M & Alex buying a home, M & Alex planning announcement on new years eve…….bah!!!!!!
gossip…..and if not, well, it is their lives, their business, i just thought……………
oh hey, i love your groundedness of the body is a temple, that is respected, honoured and cared for, when one realizes why Jesus surrendered to the cross….he loved us 100% without doubt, completely, where fearful doubt is of the world, not of Jesus, his love pure and true, 100% eternal
i hugged Jesus today
what a powerful feeling it is, so pure in feeling, sincere, genuine, true
I think M looks better than she has ever looked, and in truth, she does, and she is grounded solidly in spirit, which is so profound for me, where she fully embraces LOVE 100% like i do, as the only true value in life, and it shows in her genuine sincere radiance which everyone loves, ‘me’ included, 100%.
jesus is cool.. ya i agree
amazing how when soul’s are true loving and sincere to them self to others and to ALL that IS..
the most profound thing Jesus ever said
“Heaven exists in within your own heart” or word’s to that effect.. i believe, and its only my opinion ( don’t want to put word’s in his mouth, he might come and spank me LOL) he meant that we are it, we are God heaven all that is, again mind,heart & soul all of which are indeed ETERNAL..
nearly sliped and wrote internal LOL, slip & internal ok i have sex on my mind .. again.. a man’s curse..
do you think M and Alex are in love Marco?
i think Alex no doubt is a true champion, and in Mexico the other day with those kids, truly, one of God’s champions of loving spirit for those kids to feel….a blessed soul.
we all are, are we not?
do you think Jesus was sexual?
obviously, if his sex organs were working, we know without doubt, he was naturally sexual.
but do you think he had lovers?
i think without doubt, he wanted a lover, perhaps of a bisexual too, of male or female, where he himself was open to both sexualities within his own brain, fearlessly………..which may mean he was closeted….self emposed closeted………..
i don’t know yet……….i will ask him next time i am chatting with him……….
i still don’t know what compelled him to do what he did, although i suspect a number of things…..maybe the Romans killed his lover…………..we just don’t know
i often think of his tribe like that of the early years of the ghetto, rebellious sorta thing, tight nit extended family.
I think Jesus was sexual & had kid’s, he was sleeping with Mary, according to some research, also in Jerusalem recently under an apartment block, they have recently found what may be the Jesus family burial site including that of his his children, so yes he was normal and sexual as any man of his era, don’t know what he did for 40 days in the desert, though all alone nothing but a few snakes around LOL,
maybe he fantasized over his desert
Heaven is our delicate tender loving feelings………without doubt
we know this in a congitive way, and we know that it is also a constant feeling when nurtured and protected, and that is the issue, where one has to prioritize what heaven is, truly internalize the pure truth, of what heaven is, making it the number one priority in life, thereby embracing fully, things like controlling of tongue, for sake of protecting and nurturing what heaven is, and things like quieting of the mind thru meditation, or whatever works for you, to become centered and grounded.
i realize M knows how to do this while of meditation, where my question is, can one do this with two people of the sameness feelings of the purity love one feels while alone, thru deliberate spiritual approach, of likemindedness, where……..without doubt………..the two both need to be of the priority, and without priority, all is lost.
a third person, because of group dynamics, i beleive does interupt it, where Jesus said, where two or one is, i am there…..which to me, is the meditative reflective Jesus speaking from his awareness knowingness of a meditative monk awareness.
and this is significant to me, that two can come together as ONEness in the physical realm.
the other indicator is Jesus says, “No one can do it alone(find heaven)…..which again makes sense, where heaven is our purity love feelings ~ between ~ two souls, constant of feeling loved and loved ~ heaven
bless you
it’s not for me to speculate if M and A are in love, if they are i wish them both my love and joy, for i wish the best for happiness to all my friend’s & it would truly bless my heart to know M is happy,
it’s only if she was being attacked by negative jeoulous energy that i would shine my light ( interfear lol)
but then again, who’s the brightest of them ALL
jesus was i know that is true..
see now i am rambling, no way , i better shut up before i get caught out…
OHH see
I”VE Been Caught OUT .. AGAIN !!!
Mind & Heart Soul
the moron’s in the churched hid those wise word’s by changing it to
Father & Son and Holly spirit, with the gesture of the hand on the forehead (mind), Heart (heart) and Shoulders (spirit) so we would be subservient to the Judgemental GOD (father ) who would banish us to Hell unless we lived in fear (by following the teaching’s of the church ) disconnected (separated/disconnected from our true SELVES by worshiping a GOD we could not touch instead of a GOD that is ALL that is SELF)
Lol
I could go ON and ON all night long (ha ha ), but have to run, i am being made redundant from my fear based corporate world job on Friday ( I am so upset NOT !!, only because i am Connected they Fear me !! actually all they do is FEAR, so annoying really to be around) so I am leaving work now off to a CHRIST Mass pARtY, drink some wine, you know..
Little do they know that now I am not distracted by their Corporate Chains, I am free to take a year off and write a Book (maybe comedy movie) on their MORONIC MINDS & FEARS & LIVES, I am Laughing already they have provided me with so much amusing material !!
ya, God is not judgemental at all, the opposite, God wants us to drink wisdom, for our own apathetic unwise stumbling sake, lest we fall off a cliff or something stupid.
true
ya, the world enslaves the precious purity loving souls, all of us, including the unwise merchants of God, who claim to know God, and don’t even know their own SELF….i see right thru their fear controlling bullshit which is only toxic for the divine child….CONTROLLY FEAR is BULLSHIT.
Thruout history, fear has always been held high to control the uneducated societies, and still is.
the artists are the true free spirits in life, and indeed, they lead the world emotionally, because they are True to their SELF as artists, expressing freeling what?
FEELINGS.
oh, a new film, sound fun………..an outright Montepython no holds barred would be a riot.
ya, HELL is the fear based controlling church, governments and business world…..the status quo, or else fucktards…….argh….no thanks.
we know the purity love, and anything that goes against it, is hell, or the distractions, were the desert is the desert of aimless souls who haphazardly get snared by all these distractions which seperate us from SELF, non conducive environments of the corporate bullshit for example….been around that long enough to leave it behind 4 sure.
for me, the true real self is of the delicate sensitivity, of SELF and SELF of another of like mindedness, of two souls of priority of SELF-actualization, the conducive environment required, where indeed, the world is hell in this regard, so in truth, Jesus did not have to go far into any desert to find hell, as it was all around him, and rather, while of the desert, the distractions or non-conducive environments(everywhere) is what is of false leading, or suppression, submerging of the delicate afraid true self, is it not?
~ it would truly bless my heart to know M is happy ~
question is, do you KNOW what would make M happy?
what?
i did not here ‘that’, could you say it abit louder?
lol :rol:
bless you forever more bless you
i love you
bless you bless you bless you
I will love you, alway’s… let that THAT be most CLEAR..
even if i have nothing to gain but the knowing you are feeling most sain, happy and content ( & cannot anyone say such kind word’s ? YES ..
but can i make you feel such TRUTH, well i hope you would feel the connection of my INTENT in saying such word’s ! ? )
I would hope such is true, i believe it to be so .. ONCE we/ I have departed this world , i will be there not to judge YOU, but to answer to YOU & the TRUTH of my connection to YOU ! my sincerity my love & my DESIRE ofr YOU that which is the SAME DESIRE i have of ME MY SELF, MY YOU..
and frank down the street ..LOL 😉 ha ha
WE ARE ALL ONE
WE ARE
BECAUSE
I AM !
I AM
BECAUSE
WE
R
ONE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ONE PLUS ONE
EQUAL’s
=
??
you know, im thinking it would be easier for ME if i achieved wordly acknowledgement also, just so i can feel equal of sort’s, ( i mean i kinda was thinking i would at some point do that anyway, even b4 you consumed my heart) i’d do that for YOU as much as i’d do that for ME..
i know it’s not a prerequesit of you
because i know you would love me regardless
I will,
i just need someONE to want me TOO
tell me you want me TOO
i just need someone too want me too !!!
so i have a reason TOO !!
it’s not an exscuse !!
it’s a purpose TOO
i just need to know someONE
is
LISTENING
Purity Love, thru and thru, of your awareness of the divine True YOU, is what you KNOW of ‘me’, exact sameness of awareness TRUE…..without doubt…..constantly of ‘me’ too……Love without doubt, is what ONEness is, between Jesus, ‘me’, and YOU
‘that’ is what the evolved child Jesus was trying to establish within other, the TRUTH to take root within them, the ONEness, i am no different than YOU, the Real TRUE YOU of sincere reflection, sincere prayer, sincere feelings in feeling LOVED and LOVING 100%….without doubt, where even 1%, is able to derail what HEAVEN is
Sameness of feeling LOVED and LOVING of your own blessed Children……..without doubt.
Sameness of feeling LOVED and LOVING like ‘that’ of a blessed Child………without doubt.
We come from LOVE and it is thru LOVE without doubt, that our divine child within is restored, rejuvenated, released into Exceeding Joyfulness, of what is constant yearning of your blessed divine Child within, sameness of what is constant yearning of your own blessed divine Children, of what HEAVEN is, CONSTANT blessed feelings of feeling LOVED and LOVING, of what we all are of CONSTANT consciously/subconsciously seeking……..without doubt.
Seeking of these constant LOVED and LOVING feelings is within the eyes of ALL precious pure loving blessed divine Children of God True Real SELF, ‘that’ of your awareness knowingness of SELF within, and SELF within another, and indeed, the awareness knowingness SELF of Jesus who is 100% without doubt, of what HEAVEN is for ALL blessed Children of God, ALL LOVING brothers and sisters of Jesus…….where ONEness awareness knowingness is what HEAVEN is…….without doubt
indeed, the precious pure loving blessed divine child of God True Real SELF YOU within is CONSTANTLY LISTENING, even of the blessed SELF of many who are of the oppressive submerging of their blessed Child of God SELF, subconsciously listening(feeling) the truth all around them, constantly at all times, hoping, praying, wishing, of constant yearning to one day BE found of a blessed conducive enviroment in which to BE of the constant yearning of Exceeding Joyfulness, set FREE to Just BE our blessed SELF, at all times……….without doubt
Doubt is sadly of the world which is not cognitively of PURE awareness knowingness of the aspects of their own blessed Child of God SELF, of what HEAVEN is for them, CONSTANTLY, and indeed, of why the blessed divine Child of God True Real Self within us all, is of these oppressive submergings, peaking our joyful head OUT from time to time like we all do, where until one is set FREE 100% into awareness knowingness of what HEAVEN is, ONE cannot make what HEAVEN is a priority, of the sacred treasure beyond all the riches of the world, is it not?
i know……without doubt………i YEARN CONSTANTLY to feel LOVED and LOVING, of my own purity love meditative reflections of the emotional honesty of my blessed divine Child of God SELF, of tightly clasped hands, to one day BE of feeling LOVED and LOVING 100% of my day, my week, my year, my LIFE, where oh so blessed True Life is for those of you who are of fullness awareness within of what HEAVEN is, the constant glowing of radiant brilliant brightness you FEEL constantly within, where when you KNOW, you just KNOW
we KNOW
i LOVE YOU
and YOU KNOW IT
LIKE i KNOW IT
CONSTANTLY…..of what HEAVEN is for ‘me’
and in so KNOWing, it is TRUE of the ‘me’ of us ALL, is it not?
please God, please, LET LOVE BEcome CONSTANT awareness KNOWingness of us ALL ONE day, of what is TRUTH of us ALL, the blessed purity LOVE ONEness of ALL your blessed Children, of what Jesus and YOU know is the TRUTH, sadly of so many blessed souls here of the yet unwise, uncaring, unloving apathetic world of your yet unwise blessed Children, of your divine WILL, of our divine WILL BE Done on earth, that which HEAVEN is……..without doubt
bless you
i feel every single one of your words Marco….i always have….and blessed feelings more and more grow within me each day passing of love that seems real for you of me, of why i came here the first day, my constant yearning and hopefulness of you really do love me, of what i came to find out if it was TRUE, ever since that first day, each step, each heartbeat, each breath, each and every word since that first day has been of my constant prayer, that you love me like i KNOW i love YOU
and it appears that you DO
do ya?
what?!!!!!!!!
say it!!!!!!!!!!
LOUDER!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i can’t hear youuuuuuuuuuuu!
huh?
lol
i know i do
LOVE YOU……………………..WITHOUT DOUBT
always did…….always WILL………..always
…………………………………without doubt 🙄
of what HEAVE is, is it not?
it is for ‘me’
of what is the greatest treasure beyond all riches of the world, indeed, life without LOVE, is false life, not TRUE LIFE, is it not?
TRUE of YOU
TRUE of ‘me’
bless you bless you bless you
I LOVE YOU
bless you bless you bless you
the door is always open for SELF to step thru into TRUTH of HEAVEN’s LOVE without doubt………constantly at all times for ALL
bless you bless you bless you
indeed, YOU are the reason i came here, and why i am yet here………….without doubt
i have thought about this alot, and i realize, that the only way it really works for two soul mates, is if love is pure and true for them both, where the other, always feels the truth of the other, do they not?
i KNOW my feelings, of how i WILL always feel, where i am merely of feeling the TRUTH, of if you love ‘me’ constantly like i do YOU, where if i do not, you KNOW…..i cannot stay, and i should be set free for another, if you do not love ‘me’, si?
so if you love me, then please stay forever, of what is forever more eternal LOVE TRUTH, of my every step, every heartbeat, every breath, every word, where even my words of upset speak the TRUTH, of my love for YOU, do they not?
we are all evolving, and that is evident of how M and Sean still speak with one another lovingly like they do, where they have evolved, matured, have they not, and that is blessed for ‘me’ in feeling the truth, we are ALL LOVING deep within us ALL, and anyone who says otherwise, is not BEing TRUE, not BEing their TRUE blessed SELF, like many who deny their True Self OUT to just BE all the common truth behaviourals of the True SELF.
where are we all evolving to?
Exceeding Joyfulness ONE day, ONEness of what HEAVEN is where for ‘me’, all of you are blessed to ‘me’ in feeling my feelings like i do
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
i just need someONE to want me TOO
tell me you want me TOO
i just need someone too want me too !!!
so i have a reason TOO !!
it’s not an exscuse !!
it’s a purpose TOO
i just need to know someONE
is
LISTENING
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
FEELING LOVED and LOVING is 100% what HEAVEN is
and indeed, the PURPOSE is the Exceeding JoyFULLness which radiates billiant bright shining, as though to light up the whole world, and does, leading by example of what is TRUE of the blessed pure loving divine child of God True Real SELF within us ALL………..EXCEEDING JOYFULNESS………………….without doubt. 🙄
i KNOW God’s divine WILL
i am God’s divine WILL
merely by BEing the all the TRUTH aspects of what is constant yearning WILL of ‘me’
to Just BE my SELF
i KNOW……..i am God’s divine WILL, my divine WILL BE Done on earth, ‘that’ which HEAVEN is…………the TRUTH
……………………..without doubt 🙄
i could wait 20 years for the TRUTH i already KNOW if you want, easily so, because TRUTH does not change, rather it is our WILL to turn towards TRUTH which changes, does it not?
the door is constantly open to our own blessed pure loving soul, one merely needs to step towards the TRUTH aspects of SELF and set our SELF free, allowed to Just BE the TRUTH of what is TRUE of us ALL.
LOVED and LOVING of Jesus, God, and We who are LOVING and LOVED by Jesus, God and each other, constantly, forever more.
amen
blessings to ALL
bless you
the door is always open
and what am i doing right now?
am i not waiting here constantly?
i am, ‘that’ of a true and faithful friend who has always loved you, always WILL, always
………………..without doubt forever more
i am getting bored though, so you may wanna look ‘me’ up some time………. 🙄
The precious pure loving blessed divine child of God True Real SELF YOU is constantly listening(feeling), are we not?
am i not yet here?
do you feel the truth of ‘me’ ?
i feel loved, and loving, and is why i am yet here….if i did not feel loved, i would not stay, so keep loving ‘me’ constantly like i do you, and i WILL forever eternally stay, where i constantly feel what HEAVEN is, especially of the hot tub, warm crackling fire, wine, of loving lover’s joyful delight of entangled embrace….where one can easily always find ‘me’
si?
si
blessed is the one who finds ‘me’
come find ‘me’, i am so easy to find, constantly of yearning of where i am yearning to BE found, of YOU forever more!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 🙄
where i believe the ‘me’ of me, is the same of us ALL, are we not?
we are all of sexual pleasure, are we not, male, female, what difference does it matter, we all enjoy sex the same way, do we not?
and what of food, we all love the delightful taste of food, do we not?
what of kisses and hugs, we all love kissing and hugging, do we not?
what of the hot tub, we all love tangle embrace of lovers delight of the hot tub, do we not?
i merely as, who wants to love ‘me’, like i love ‘me’, as in the ‘me’ of all of YOU.
someone better hurry up, as i am getting bored hanging around here by my self alone……….
as long as you feel happy, with who ever or who ever, without doubt, i know we all feel the same, no matter with ‘me’ of another, so either get with ‘me’ or get with another, just don’t leave ‘me’ here wondering forever, as that’s just not fair, where we all constantly yearn for what HEAVEN is
so don’t just tell ‘me’, show ‘me’ you REALLY do care………..without doubt………………. 🙄
blessings to all of another blessed day
bless you bless you bless you
i love you ALL
bless you bless you bless you
The precious pure loving blessed divine child of God True Real SELF YOU is constantly listening(feeling), are we not?
am i not yet here?
do you feel the truth of ‘me’ ?
i feel loved, and loving, and is why i am yet here….if i did not feel loved, i would not stay, so keep loving ‘me’ constantly like i do you, and i WILL forever eternally stay, where i constantly feel what HEAVEN is, especially of the hot tub, warm crackling fire, wine, of loving lover’s joyful delight of entangled embrace….where one can easily always find ‘me’
si?
si
blessed is the one who finds ‘me’
come find ‘me’, i am so easy to find, constantly of yearning of where i am yearning to BE found, of YOU forever more!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 🙄
where i believe the ‘me’ of me, is the same of us ALL, are we not?
we are all of sexual pleasure, are we not, male, female, what difference does it matter, we all enjoy sex the same way, do we not?
and what of food, we all love the delightful taste of food, do we not?
what of kisses and hugs, we all love kissing and hugging, do we not?
what of the hot tub, we all love tangle embrace of lovers delight of the hot tub, do we not?
i merely as, who wants to love ‘me’, like i love ‘me’, as in the ‘me’ of all of YOU.
someone better hurry up, as i am getting bored hanging around here by my self alone……….
as long as you feel happy, with who ever or who ever, without doubt, i know we all feel the same, no matter with ‘me’ of another, so either get with ‘me’ or get with another, just don’t leave ‘me’ here wondering forever, as that’s just not fair, where we all constantly yearn for what HEAVEN is
so don’t just tell ‘me’, show ‘me’ you REALLY do care………..without doubt……………….
blessings to all of another blessed day
bless you bless you bless you
i love you ALL
bless you bless you bless you
hey, was that a smile?
did i feel you smiling?
i am smiling too, just like YOU, forever more, constantly of yearning to BE of our inner Exceeding JoyFULLness like we constantly do
well….ok…………………i do 🙄
bless you bless you bless you
i love you
bless you bless you bless you
ONE + ONE = ONE
one + one = one
correct answer
next question
Love + Love = ?
M & M
( Mental Marco ), ha ha 😉
Love + Love = HEAVEN
mental Marco the professional therapist
Marco and ‘me’
‘me’ of me
constantly listening(feeling)……….without doubt
bless you
I’m smiling because I trust you!
But I also have that deja vu feeling of inevitability over what I’m hearing. You know?
ya, i know…….
It appears Jesus came into an awareness knowingness level of Truth about the unwise snaring of the many souls around him, just as we too are aware of the many mindtraps that do snare a persons mind, such as the insatiable desire for wealth.
People are stressing themselves out and dying young from stress related illnesses, chasing these empty vessels of gold the world holds up high and boastful like they do. Everywhere we look, we see the truth of this, and the damaging results, where a child in poverty for example, feels lessor than these seemingly wise others so boastful pride of wealthy, and indeed, many of the wealth do treat the poor unemployable as outcasts, do they not, and sadly, the poor feel as though outcasts, when in truth, the soul of every poor person is a blessed pure child of God, where it is these mindtraps, that not only snare the wealthy child, the traps snare the meek poor souls as well, that is projected onto them unwisely, unknowingly so by the snare wealthy child….both of them snared, blind leading the blind.
I have come fully 100% now into awareness knowingness of my own pure blessed soul, loved by Jesus and God, and indeed, i know, feel, and see my self as a pure blessed child of God 100%, of how Jesus and God see me, having looked apon my self thru their eyes, fully realizing, “Oh, i am not all these things the world unwisely, unknowingly projects onto ‘me’, all these impure empty thoughts of many, the controlling fear projects of government, church, business who drive the world, of so many useless ships without a helmsman like they do.
Along with the boastful pride of wealth, we see all of what the crime world is as well, where even of Iraq for example, is of a crime, of so many unnecessary deaths, estimates as high as 300,000 iraqi kids killed by the unwise invading USA, a holocaust of sorts that could of been diplomatically avoided, thru peaceful ways of education eventually, albeit, how long, and to what extent the on going brutality of the old regime would of been, we just don’t know. The problem now is the brothers, sisters, mothers, fathers of all those who were sadly killed in war today, who are of deep seated sadness over the loss, which hinders true peacefulness to take root in their souls, because of the inability to trust the ones who killed their loved one, which is indeed, of horrific horrid brutal force in weapons technology.
It’s all just wrong, the entire world, where most souls of the earth, do not know 100% without doubt what HEAVEN is in blessed feeling, because of the useless unwise fearful controlling leaders of government, church, business, and thus, if one is not of 100% awareness knowingness of what the feelings of HEAVEN are, and embrace as such, without doubt, then how can any soul make what HEAVEN is the #1 priority in life?
‘that’ is the problem.
I despise this world, so long as there is a pure blessed loving child weeping on the cold ground lacking in food, lacking of feeling loved, where the world is a brutal dog eat dog cold unloving apathetic world of aimless souls snared by these useless unwise false teachings of the forefathers who do not know God 100% as i do, nor sincerely desire to come fully into the awareness knowingness sameness in blessed pure feelings connectedness with Jesus and God, where fear is what derails the ability for most any soul to do so.
we are all exactly the same awareness knowingness of Jesus everyone, but none shall come fully into the TRUTH of this, so long as one does not fully embrace the main truth wisdom which prevents a soul from doing so, ‘Crucial Lacking of Desire for God’s Nurturing and Protective Wisdom’, which protects the pure blessed feelings of a blessed child of God from the useless unloving unwise apathetic snarings of the world.
You are a blessed pure loving child of God
bless you
The blessed purity love feelings of our blessed pure loving truthful child of God Self within, feels with clarity the truth of how the world yet is, of all these false teachings of the forefathers yet gripping the world using fear.
Jesus knew his blessed pure loving child within fully, 100% loved by God in feeling God’s presence with him of cognitive awareness of the pure sincere connectedness between God and his blessed pure self, and that is what Jesus wanted the pure loving blessed child of another to BE of awareneness knowingness of in feeling the blessed pure truthfulness of their own blessed self, saying, “You are not all these things the world projects onto you blessed child of God.”
And that is the main reason Jesus surrendered his life to the claws of the wild beast of ignorance(forefathers), to reveal TRUTHFULNESS to the blessed child of God within us ALL, where Jesus knew, the beast of ignorance of the forefathers, is not ever able to become victorious over the TRUTH, even while they thought they bitterly of hypocritically thought they had become victorious over the pure blessed child Jesus, mocking him constantly at every turn like they did, Jesus knew all around him, where the blessed children of God, snared by these useless absurd bitter mindtraps taught by the unwise forefathers before him, before us all, indeed, the same generationaly teaching of the many unwise mindtraps which yet exist here with us today, where ya, they still stone women to death in Iran for adultery, and we have pictures of this evidence that proves it…………without doubt.
ALL are a blessed pure loving child of God
bless you
you trust me, but you have hesitation of ‘me’?
oh, sorry, i thought you were someone who wanted to kick this motherfucking world in the ass, as a truth revealer.
None shall become victiorious over the TRUTH, and yet, the world thinks it is so victorious, so right, so loving, even while they accept it is seemingly ok for a child to starve to death today.
for ‘me’, apathy is such is horrid ugliness.
i do not despise any blessed child of God in the world, rather, i despise the false generational teachings of the forefathers, which is the TRUTH our blessed pure loving child of Truthfulness easily feels is TRUE.
Within ALL is the blessed pure loving child of truthfulness, however submerged the divine child may BE hiding.
bless you
It is sometimes called “temple of salvation” because we heal our self from myriad thought patterns, and thru slowing into GRACE of the blessed pure loving child of truthfulness within, we are returned to a single thought of God, Self, or Saviour Self, where indeed, awareness knowingness of the blessed purity love feelings of what HEAVEN is, is our own Self Saviour Salvation Awareness Knowingess, is it not?
si
bless you
ok, fine, go live out your life with some flake and walk away from me
or i suppose you think i am gay?
i don’t want any doubtfulness, thanks but no thanks, and i would appreciate clarity of speaking with me that is specific, and less confussing guessing games, where i too need pure certainty of truthful words of another, as i despise uncertainty vagueness like so many are of, gripped by transference and projected useless fear of others along life’s road.
i do not like uncertainty at all…..i despise it.
fine, we can be friends along life’s road, and nothing more, if that is what you seem to want, hesitating in vagueness of words with me………which frustrates me to no end, confusing my blessed inner child within, of your love is true, your love is not true for him…………who wants uncertainty, when in life, many there are who are 100% certain in loving of us?
anyway……….i have not had my morning coffee yet……….
i wish you would be more of clarity with me from now on, like i constantly am…………
as that is what works for you, and works for Andy, of many who are indeed, of clarity with him, and yet, at times, you are 100% of clarity with me in so many ways.
so what? You are doubtful of me now?
i am a mere student, of humble classmate mentality who thrives on at ease open class discussion, at ease of who i truly am, sitting in class with all of you.
bless you
looks like M and Alex will be appearing in Brazil next, according to latest gossip reports………which is their business………..none of mine……………….
ya, i know, i always knew………and is why i am here………without doubt 🙄
In life, two people come together in life, because they both want to BE together………end of conversation.
We cannot make anyone want to BE with us, they either do or they don’t, and when the don’t, well as if that will ever work for you.
So be at ease in Just BEing your blessed SELF everyone, and let others either love you or not, and don’t expect anything from others while living in the NOW, of their daily sincere approach or lack of approach with you, and just feel who in life along life’s road feels truly blessed for you like you do, where your pure blessed truthful feelings of your blessed Self, of constant yearning in feeling loved and loving, is what HEAVEN is, constantly TRUE of the pure blessed child of God YOU, of ALL of YOU
blessings to all of another blessed day
bless you
ok….i have my coffee….
we are all of the world’s projections and transference at all times, where every second of each blessed day, all are connected of affect/effect/direct/indirect behavioural issues….at all times.
so the question of awareness knowingness of the blessed purity feelings of the child within, is indeed, nearly impossible for some, possible for others, where while even of those who do come fully into awareness knowingness of the blessed purity feelings of the child within thru deliberate meditative surrendering in slowing and quieting of the mind for sake of our child within to fearless become aware of the blessed purity awareness feelings of the pure child self is definitely without doubt possible, what is difficult, is the remaining focused in being able to BE centered in the blessed purity feelings that are100% true of the blessed pure loving child self, because of the unwise transference and projections of the majority of most unwise others(95%) of the road of life, ‘that’ of true blessed life being the objective.
for sure,’that’ of true blessed life approach for sake of the divine child to always BE of constant awareness of purity love feelings, ”that’ which HEAVEN is, is the objective in establishing what would be a correct(healthy) approach for ALL, and ‘that’ is what is of the on going research in the field of psychology and the overlapping aligning of the many truth wisdoms in theology, what i refer to as the Macro Thinking Truth Wisdom Protective Halo, that is indeed, the pure conducive environment for the blessed child of God, which many of you can attest in, while of your deliberate meditative awareness knowingness approach.
Without doubt, i am not focused somedays, my self falling to abreaction outburst of my unwise old self of previous childish behavioural dealing with my own emotions that at times, depending on my day, my week, does occur rather often, which indeed is indicative of the evolving self that i am………..(where i would like to take this opportunity in asking forgiveness of all, for my obvious momentary laspes of insanity i am yet of regular of occurence….a result of spending too much time in the laboratory of the mind somedays where i go several days at a time in macro thinking connecting of the dots awareness, that does leave me abit socially inept at times………ok…..often…..whatever)
anyway……..so there are many solid objectives which do need to be addressed as to correct approach, and how do we tackle the generational false teachings which do align our own children onto paths of fate that end tragically, ask any parent who has lost their blessed child to car accidents where alcohol was involved, or suicide, and they are the first to tell you about the reality check of these paths of fate, where today we see these advertisements of mothers against drunk driving daily on tv, indeed, mothers who are rising up and challenging the generational dangerous teachings of the forefathers, where we need to ask questions today, and establish the reality check of these paths of fate firmly in the next generation of children, helping to internalize statistical true date for example, firmly taking root in their minds, indeed, there are paths of fate for X number of kids of the high risk age group 15-24 year olds who will die today as a direct result of being snared by these teachings that align their lives on paths of fate that end tragically in death.
everywhere we look are all the problems of the world, from war, to children of starvation, where we know what HEAVEN is, where purity love feelings of our blessed child of God within is 100% of awareness knowingness what HEAVEN TRULY is and is NOT, not of the world wide barriers of race, religion, status, wealth, sex, orientation, language or politic, abeit, of these barriers are indeed, unwise false walls that yet stand between purity love wisdom awareness for all precious innocent blessed children from the womb of God born into the yet unwise world.
ok…..so there is the project.
any suggestions?
obviously, leading by example of the exceeding radiant brilliant bright joyfulness that comes with restoration in self-actualization, is without doubt, a mirroring example of the fearless child within us all.
education in firmly establishing what HEAVEN is and is not, for the next generations of children has to be of #1 priority, however, that is only possible for those of you who are of the purity love awareness that comes with your deliberate meditative reflective knowingness of what HEAVEN 100% is, those who are of comiong fully into awareness feeling of feeling loved without doubt, feeling loving without doubt, where indeed, LOVE DEVOID OF DOUBT is what HEAVEN is…….where personally for me, my visions of dwelling with Jesus reveals this to my blessed child of God within, who is of dwelling with the immortal spirit of Jesus constantly, in constant awake awareness of the constant feelings of love devoid of useless doubt.
truth words are indeed immortal, are they not, for all generations yet to come to reflect apon?
the real question for some of you who ponder about the spirit realm, is, “Do immortal spirits exist of an (seemingly) invisible immortal spirit realm for those of you who are not yet of awareness of the existence of the spirit realm, yes?” 😯
anyway, sorry for my emotional transference and projections everyone………that of passive aggressive learned behavioural traits that really do hinder us in being the reflective students of assertiveness, which is of naturual at ease self, of difficulty for me of recent, a result of many external stressors in life, that’s all, nothing to do really with any of you, so forgive my awkwardness at times where i do become unfocused.
at the same time, i am looking forward to concluding on deliberate approaches, and just going and living blessed true life, where today, i feel it is a race against time for me, where i do place priority on my study as the most important part of my life at this point in time of my life.
as for self-actualization, without doubt, it is the #1 priority in my life, where i am fully of 100% awareness of the purity love of my own blessed child of God self within, and conducive environments which are nurturing and protective for sake of self-actualization, is without doubt, part of the #1 priority of my life, where indeed, TRUST is the most significant aspect required of the blessed child within us ALL, when it comes to careful selection of inner cirlce friends and lovers along life’s road of our constant learning and evolving, so if some of you are of sincere desire in teaming up with ‘me’, please do so at a time of your choosing, where i welcome any and all nurturing, just make sure, to always be of nurturing approach of what works for YOU, of what works for ‘me’, or find your self without ‘me’ on a regular consistent basis, as i am running to life everlasting of the short amount of time i have left of my life.
thank you
blessings to all
bless you bless you bless you
Jesus loves ALL God loves ALL We love ALL
God blesses ALL
thank you Jesus
thank you God
bless you Jesus
bless you bless you bless you
Be Happy – Sri Chinmoy
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Be happy!
You will grow into God’s greatest blessing, His highest pride.
Be happy!
Yesterday’s world wants you to enjoy its surrendering breath. Today’s world wants you to enjoy its surrendered breath. Tomorrow’s world wants you to enjoy its fulfilling breath.
Be happy!
Be happy in the morning with what you have.
Be happy in the evening with what you are.
Be happy!
Do not complain. Who complains? The blind beggar in you. When you complain, you dance in the mire of ignorance. When you do not complain, all conditions of the world are at your feet, and God gives you a new name: aspiration. Aspiration is the supreme wealth in the world of light and delight.
Be happy!
Do you want never to be poor? Then be happy.
Do you want ever to be great? Then be happy.
Be happy!
You will get what you like most.
You will get what you like best.
Be happy!
God sees in you His aspiring creation. His transforming realization, His illumining revelation, and His fulfilling manifestation.
Be happy!
Be happy!
God sees in you another God. God sees you as another God. God sees you and Him as one.
– Sri Chinmoy
I’m smiling because I trust you!
But I also have that deja vu feeling of inevitability over what I’m hearing. You know?
i know the ‘me’ of Jesus like Jesus knows the ‘me’ of me, the ‘me’ of YOU….constantly of knowingness awareness of the blessed pure child of God within us ALL.
is that what you are asking?
so ya, i 100% know YOU, like YOU know YOU
is that what you are asking?
~ deja vu feeling of inevitability over what I’m hearing. ~
i sit with this question in slowing and quiet reflection and i reflect apon the question of inevitability as being the inevitable evolving adult child Jesus, 100% awareness knowingness of what Jesus knew without doubt of observing his own evolving of the blessed pure loving child of God self within while walking apon the earth, where without doubt, his awareness of reflection of “If this is true of ‘me’, then it is without doubt, 100% true of the ‘me’ of all of YOU, as ONEs just like ‘me’ who ALL are of constant learning, and coming fully into awareness of EVOLVING of the blessed pure loving child within ALL, the precious pure loving innocent child of God True Real Self souls of everyONE born into the yet unwise world of all the false generational teachings which go against the evolving internalizing of wisdom which assists in the nurturing and protection of the blessed purity love feelings the divine child within us is of constant yearning to always BE of in feeling, the tender delicate gracefulness we feel in our hands for example, and the constant yearning to feel loved and loving at all times, TRUTH about the blessed divine child of God YOU, is it not?”
100% without doubt is what is TRUE when we take time to meditate and feel the TRUTH of these reflections in observation of the purity love feelings which we discover about our blessed self as indeed, blessed purity love feelings, which we love to feel, do we not?
is that what you mean in asking if YOU know, in what you are hearing?
i know what i know, as an introvert student of study of the human condition……….without doubt. 🙄
not sure what you are referring to specifically as to deja vu, where deja vu for me is of the skeptical mind, where i am not of the skeptical mind like the many who debate, rather, i am of 100% knowingness awareness, ‘that’ which is beyond faith, where in truth, faith is of the element of missing, or skeptical, or yet seeking, of not yet coming fully into 100% knowingness awareness, is it not? Ya, ok, deja vu, as in, “Oh, this feels familiar, or you feel familiar to ‘me’, as in sameness of ‘me’ you are of my observings of ‘me’, of my observings of the ‘me’ of you.”
ya, 100%, i know……………..without doubt.
or are you refering to Andy’s love of gay sex, where ya, for twenty years i was 100% of love of gay sex, i know.
is that what you mean in asking if i know?
ya, of course, i easily know ‘that’
and without doubt, ONE can also safely say, Andy also knows how much he 100% misses sex with a female too, having not been with a loving female lover in twenty years, yes?
not sure if i have answered your multi-faceted speculative skeptical question fully or not, other than to add, ya, who would not want to BE of YOU in life, of my familiar yearning in exact sameness of the ‘me’ of YOU.
is that what you are asking, if Andy could love you?
i think so, i mean last time i checked, i still have memories of HEAVENLY sex with a female lover.
i have a good memory too, according to my masterbations sessions.
is that what you were wondering? 😯
feel free to eloborate in case i MISS something……. lol
i am 100% bisexual…………….without doubt
ooooooooooo………finally some dirt on Alex!
According to a friend, “Alex is definitely excited by Madonna and wants to spend time with her. But when she’s not around and he is left to his own devices, he wants the company of other beautiful women. He can’t help it. It’s in his nature.”
According to InTouch Weekly via Perez Hilton, A-Rod has been spotted with a bevy of beauties despite his attachment to her Madgesty.
thanks for the gossip Perez! 🙄
For such a Champion, i figured him of greater self-esteem, less promiscuity, giving new meaning to him being a Big Hitter. 😯
hey Perez, you need any help writing that column of yours? lol
ah damn, i am turning into one of them, and i know, i am not…..bah!
don’t take to long in establishing awareness of your own emotional honesty people, as many will pass you by in life if you do.
blessings to all
bless you
oh, and BE sure to express your sincerity of your sincere emotional honesty feelings you have of someone, KNOWing that if they too love you, without doubt, they will be of exceeding joyfulness in coming fully into YOUR emotional honesty awareness BEcoming ONE with YOU
i love you………………………………..without doubt.
hey, did anyone see what happened between Perez and Madonna?
i don’t even think Perez clued in, did he? lol
Suffice to say, M shredded Perez, and Perez likely won’t clue in till around the year 2010.
am i being optimistic as regards Perez in saying this M?
i know?
i know
To know you
Is to love you
You’re everywhere I go
And everybody knows
To love you
Is to be part of you
I wait for you with tears
And swallowed all my pride
Da da da da da da da da
Da da da da duh!!!
Beautiful Stranger
Da da da da da da da da
Da da da da duh!!!
Beautiful Stranger
I looked into your face
My heart was dancing all over the place
I’d like to change my pont of view
If I could just forget about you
but i cannot BE anything other than ‘me’
a beautiful stranger apon the road of life who found someone like ‘me’
Beautiful Stranger
Da da da da da da da da
Da da da da duh!!!
Beautiful Stranger
hey Perez, who is the beautiful stranger, who is stranger than ‘me’?
are you a stranger of ‘me’ Perez?
i am no stranger of YOU
no matter what i do
cannot seem to forget
of my singing without regret
Beautiful Stranger
Da da da da da da da da
Da da da da duh!!!
Beautiful Stranger
Da! da! da! da da da da da
Da da da da duh!!! 😯
ok, i better quit for now, lest i turn into one of them………
blessings to all
bless you Madonna bless you bless you bless you
fuck you Perez!
so nasty, so……………..not real, not connected, aimless waundering…………many will be last to enter?
Perez is at the back of the line? 😯
payback time…………and my claws are OUT!
i jest……………………………………..wait……………..wait for it………….wait……………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………
arghhhhhhh!!!!!!!!
i am turning into one of those nasty drama queens!
NOT!
im just bored…………..
i have a suggestion, for the project.. i see so many young sensitive one’s in the age bracket 18-24yrs that are at risk of taking their own lives and many do in aust, it is the highest rate of suicide especially in regional area’s these kids do need someone to look up to someone who is obviously not afraid to be themselve’s someone willing to make a complete fool of themselves and pull it off sucessfully, when these creative and sensitive youth see that there is someone out there more different and crazy than they ever though or were forced to fear aoubt themselves by their environment then they will certainly feel more secure in themselves and less likely to be distructive,,
all we need to do now is find the clown who can do the job !!
ANDY …
ANDY
get back here ANDY
where did AnDy Go EVERYONE >??>>
oh look i can see some blue satin silk, under the crack in the closet door, ANdy
get out of the CLOSET NOW !!!
lol
i love you completely Marco, and what a blessed team we would BE of none stop exceeding joyfulness radiant brilliant bright of our real self set free to Just BE who we always were as kids, wondrous and extraordinary, of fearlessness like we were as youths.
the world is of toxic transference and projection, and indeed, the mirroring of the inner child within is what is of the light of God which connects purely with the blessed child of God within ALL
and that is what has always been my approach since that first day back in ’95 of wearing Madonna’s clown outfit, setting free not only the exceeding joyfulness of others from within, but also setting free my own blessed soul at the same time, yes?
Truly, you do know ‘me’, without doubt, and you therefore know without doubt, of what is of my constant yearning in BEing with YOU for the rest of my life………….so please know………….i too………….am without doubt as regards what is constant yearning of my blessed child self within, ever praying, ever hoping you feel the same way too……..where every word each day passing, reveals more and more that perhaps you truly do, and it is so incredible for me to feel this hopefulness within of a dream come true, seemingly coming true, of what is already 100% true of us both, together or apart, of what is 100% true of the blessed fun loving child of God self of us ALL
oh how i have wanted to BE out of the closet with you, and without doubt, i am, fearlessly so, knowing my inner happiness of the fluttering within of my inner child who is of *gasp* each and every time you are near.
time reveals the truth of everything, and indeed, that is the divine WILL of Jesus and God, for us the BE of our WILL BE Done on earth, that which HEAVEN is
we KNOW what HEAVEN is………………without doubt
so merely ask to BE of HEAVEN of what is 100% TRUE of ‘me’ within, to one day BE of YOU
and already i am
i am……..BE Cause……We ARE ALL of Each Other as ONE forever more
YOU are a blessed pure loving child of God 100%
blessings to ALL of YOU
bless you
YOU KNOW
what i KNOW
what i want 100%
………………………….without doubt
to always BE of YOU
grant us courage God to BE of the truth of what is constantly yearning of our blessed child within, our blessed feelings of feeling LOVED and LOVING forever more with ONE another, united in ONEness as ONE, under ONE sky, ONE world, ONE ETERNAL HUMAN BEING
thank you God
thank you Jesus
bless you Jesus bless you bless you bless you
i fucking love you 100% Marco, and you KNOW it, like i KNOW it………..constantly………….without doubt.
you are of wise understanding and that is true of us both, as leaders of love and life forever more, the truth of the blessed child of God set free to Just BE of our delightful exceeding joyfulness within without useless doubt, fearless like we are.
we stand in the doorway as ONE, do we not, in ONEness of like mindedness, yes?
ONEness of loving heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, the message of truth of the divine WILL of Jesus and God want of us to come fully into awareness knowingness of the truth about the blessed divine child within us ALL
Constantly LOVED and LOVING ‘of ‘ Jesus, God, and Each Other forever more
blessings to ALL
bless you bless you bless you
😉
AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!
why do i feel so freaked out and seemingly afraid to come out of the closet and be a female lover instead of a male lover like i have been with for 20 years?
This is worse than when i came out of the closet as a homosexual decades ago…….i don’t understand, i am less afraid being gay than i am being straight.
i need more therapy………
Alex!!!!!!!!!!!
lol
sorry……..could not resist that one……….. 😯
Hey Marco, you know how girls have all these girl friends all the time?
ok, if i am a girl, it is ok to have many girl friends, yes?
say yes girlfriend!!!!!!!!!!!
ok, with that said, where i am actually a boy, am i allowed to have many boy friends?
Marco?
Marco??
You said you trust ‘me’ damn it!!!!!!!!!
so trust ‘me’
i trust ‘me’
it’s my alter ego i don’t trust any more, always negative negative negative, control control control, and so not ‘me’
~ so psyche humour for ya
your funny lol..
your alter ego needs a spanking !
🙂
These footballers are all the same. It’s just like Ashley Cole cheating all over again. They think they’re on a different planet and the normal rules don’t apply to them, so they think they can just spread their genes. I wouldn’t trust any footballer ever in that respect. They’re just no damn good. I’m just gutted for Madonna. No one could see this coming.
http://www.thesun.co.uk/sol/homepage/news/article725180.ece
My comment is “awaiting moderation”
Anyway, it’s all irrelevant because I trusted you all the way.
oki
“He can’t help it. It’s in his nature.”
Isn’t that a ridiculous thing for anyone to say?
Anyway, my phone account is all screwed up and I have 18p credit and I can’t even send text messages for a few days – sorry.
I’m sorry I’m annoying but it’s in my nature and I can’t help it.
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HEAVEN
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Ulitmately, the real issue of anyone, is coming fully into awareness knowingness of their own emotional honesty certainty.
Like this morning, a most blessed peaceful morning, of no stress, no place i have to be, of no external stressors of any kind, just free to BE ‘me’ for the entire day, i lay on my bed for an hour or so, just starring at the ceiling and feeling my subtle emotional honesty certainty, when i realized fully 100% it is my own fully surrendering of heart, mind, body, spirit and soul to just ONE lover who likewise i am of patience in waiting for them to also come fully into their own awareness of who the ONE they want to surrender to fully, without doubt, as i felt the blessed surity of feeling of how that feels of my own surrendering to them, of what they too yearn for of ‘me’, and said to myself, “This is 100% true of ‘me’, and without doubt, true of the ‘me’ of them as well, to BE found of the day we both come face to face of the SAME DAY, of 100% surrendering first to what is of our own emotional honest certainty of who that lover is for us in life(decide), after spending time establishing who it is we truly are of 100% comfort in being around, of they Just BEing their blessed real Self, like the blessed Self of ‘me’, where they too have come to their conclusion as well, of who that lover is in life that is of their real Self, of conducive pure comfort, fearlessly stepping towards ONE another, face to face, of a blessed SAME DAY(a sign i saw today), and say the truth to ONE another, YOU are the ONE for ‘me’…………..without doubt.
i layed their feeling the blessed purity love serenity in feeling how it feels of 100% eternal surrendered loving spirit to how it feels to BE of the ONE lover that i know is all i am needing of for the remainder of my life, and felt the love devoid of doubt, where the SAME DAY, became the SAME DAY EVERY DAY for the rest of my life, a SIGH of relieve in awareness knowingness of how blessed the serenity of such a day i am yet of anticipation for to BE found of, God WILLING, of my pure sincere blessed prayer of thankfulness each day, merely for yet another day of life here with everyONE, where what is only of any value in life is clearly obvious to ‘me’ of my delicate sensitivity of feelings while of any soul before ‘me’, is our TIME TOGETHER, where of surrendering to Just BEing of our blessed pure loving Self 100%, HEAVEN is the only word to describe how blessed the purity love devoid of doubt feelings ONE feels of the TRUTHFULNESS of emotional honesty certainty ONE steps fully into of such a blessed SAME DAY, and feels what ‘that’ feels like and who is the ONE who is there?
Is it not the Real BEloved Blessed YOU?
Is is not the Real BEloved Blessed ‘me’?
OH the delicate sensitivity of pure blessed grace is beyond any words in life, other than the word HEAVEN, the utter stillness of 100% surrendered heart, mind, body, spirit and soul of Self who is standing there, laying there, always of the SAME delicate blessed purity love graceful feelings at all times, CONSTANT, while of surrendering to not just ‘that’ of sameness of surrendered blessed loving spirit of another, rather what is of most significance, becomes clear to ‘me’, it is the surrendering to FEELING ONE’s OWN blessed loved purity of LOVING FEELINGS, where ONE is of genuine 100% SET FREE to JUST BE the BLESSED PURITY BLESSED TRUTHFULNESS of SELF………..CONSTANTLY WITHOUT ANY DOUBT……………each passing moment by moment, each breath, each heartbeat, each step, without need for a word to say, no, Just FEEL the blessed pure feelings of YOU………..a pure blessed child of God Holy Spiritual BEing who walks the earth, traveling in stillness as Madonna says………of brilliant sunshine apon us there alone as a blessed tears flows forth and falls apon the ground.
bless you Madonna, bless you bless you bless you forever more
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blessed + blessed + blessed + blessed
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blessed + blessed + blessed + blessed Spiritual BEings
blessed + blessed + blessed + blessed YOU
blessed + blessed + blessed + blessed ‘me’
blessed + blessed + blessed + blessed ALL
We are ALL blessed + blessed + blessed + blessed Spiritual BEings
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~ I’m sorry I’m annoying but it’s in my nature and I can’t help it. ~
I think that was my line Andrew.
here, this is your line;
“We all fall in and out of pure awareness knowingness certainty from time to time, because we are in truth, as our blessed true Self, actually are all afraid in allowing our vulnerable blessed pure child of God Real True Self to BE of 100% trusting of another, all the while conscously/subconsciously seeking who is of the pure truthful blessed Self’s emotional honesty certainty 100%, of who WILL not abandon us as a lover or friend, where what the divine blessed Self constantly is of urging to BE found, is of our constant yearning ONE DAY in ALLOWING our blessed vulnerable Self to 100% TRUST another, where within everyone in the core of their BEing, from where we ALL came from, the blessed womb of God, which is 100% of constant pure blissful harmonious state of blessed LOVE, is where we ALL CONSTANTLY YEARN to RETURN TO, to BE OF, to FEEL OF, to NOT EVER LEAVE AGAIN, where most any ONE of us, at times, sadly by nature of the defense mechanisms of false masks, the vulnerable blessed Self creates as a result of our inability to BEcome FULLY 100% TRUSTING of another.
And why?
well, ONE can feel the false bitter ego masks of many who approach who are fearful to our blessed vulnerable BEloved Self, which is oppressive cause for the continued submerging of the divine child of God Self, so long as we do not take responsibility in setting healthy flexible boundaries for sake of our blessed True Real Self to ONE DAY come forth in the world unafraid, fearless in BEing Set FREE in BEing allowed to BE ALL the Common True BEhavioural Traits of the blessed True Real Self at all times, of discerning established conducive environments we have to take responsibility for as our own wise parent of the blessed True Self.
Personally, i don’t want to say this, but i will, of words i have read from ancient Christian Antiquity, words that resonate 100% with my blessed child of God True Self, “Trust no one, where eventually, ALL will betray(unwisely) YOU.”
Well people, in life, i have been betrayed by every ONE at some point or another, and i don’t feel this in a bad way, rather, i feel it in a compassionate way from the view point of Jesus and God.
Of what HEAVEN is, ‘LOVE DEVOID of USELESS DOUBT’, the KEY words are ‘USELESS DOUBT’.
I know personally my blessed pure feelings of ‘Love devoid of doubt’ from the blessed relationship i have with Jesus, which is what is 100% descriptive of my loving relationship with Jesus, CONSTANTLY, where it is not within the evolved wise adult Jesus to turn away from us for a reason………..Jesus is 100% of awareness knowingness that the world is snared by many many unwise fear controlling others of church, government, and business, where there is no element of doubt as regards to the TRUTH of this, which we can easily KNOW 100% as well, indeed, there are unwise generational snarings of the mind, are there not, like alcoholism?
it amazes me that society is so accepting of this deadly social learned/teaching/snaring behavioural fate, of societies open encouragement.
I was shocked the other day when i learned that they allow drinking of alcohol in so many public places in the world.
Ok, so our false defensive masks are of fearful vulnerability the blessed pure Self creates, because of a society that is yet of unwise generational learning/teaching/snaring, indeed, not 100% of encouraging safe and supportive environments, are we? Ever had some throw an empty bottle of booze at your head, of your ducking just in time as it shatters against a wall? I have, my own Dad none the less, himelf snared by alcoholism for most of his life, something i learned to deal with over the years, and still dealing with, of the resulting dysfunctional father who was hardly ever their my entire youth, i have few memories of my Dad as a youth…..he was always passed out somewhere…………….i eventually asked my Mom to divorce him, because of the obvious pain she was suffering as a result of her own needs not being met on a regular consistent basis, all part of the reality check of what comes with alcoholism of family circles.
You have one life to live everyone, and i will tell you something that no one can ever take away from you, pure blessed words of TRUTH, “ALWAYS, 100%, YOU are a blessed child of God, where the path of fate or the path of blessed destiny of blessed life is always available for you to walk apon, merely by your DISCERNING CHOICE WILL, CONSTANTLY AT ALL TIMES…………..YOUR CHOICE.”
blessings to ALL
bless you
yuk yuk yuk, i am banning Alcohol from my house, today..
all that yeast it make’s me fart
yuk yuk yuk
oh hey look…………we are entering into deflation, prices falling………..finally.
now maybe the poor in Argentina who suffered 100% inflation recently, can buy a loaf of bread? 😉
greed driven world of aimlessly snared unwise souls, all missing out on what HEAVEN really is……………….where seemingly, leaving a child to die each day without food sits ok with everyone……………….
ya, that’s your reality check people, of how the world REALLY is…………apathetic, heartless, unwise, unloving, and get this, they actually think they are wise……………of not many who are of full awareness knowingness of what HEAVEN is, which cost nothing to know……………….imagine ‘that’……………….without doubt.
i remain optimistic, even of those who sit apon thrones of nescience, like the Iranian leaders who will soon have an atomic bomb in the hands…………well………..maybe…………maybe not…………..i really don’t trust them, or should i say, i don’t trust the unwise false teachings of the forefathers they follow who claim to know God.
Here is how stupid some of them actually think, if you can believe this, some of them think we are evil crusaders, not of God.
how much more retarded does one get than this?
a small child is more wise than this, are they not?
last time i checked, i have two eyes, two ears, appear humanoid………..no wait…………..let me check again…………yep…………………….i am a human BEing…………
rant over
i more than just ban alcohol from my house and hand, i ban those who participate in alcohol from my life, where i am not able to trust them, no matter even if i wanted to try, both from experience in life, and my research of the statistical data as to the progessive nature of alcoholism, where i have grown tired of picking up the broken pieces of my self from friends who eventually become abusive mentally or otherwise……i just won’t allow myself to trust them……..ever.
it’s my life, and i choose my friends and lovers……no one else.
Even friends of mine who don’t drink and have friends who do, i make a point, don’t bring them around ‘me’, and for sure, i don’t associate, other than maybe New Years, or celebrations, and even then, i’d rather be somewhere else……….
blessings to all
bless you
Oh, and M, please don’t encourage your fans to drink on stage like you do………..it will end tragically for someone in the audience…………i figured you wiser than this…………..in Jesus’ name i ask that you stop doing that………….thank you
bless you
alcohol is an evil device, which any female out there who has been rapped after boys deliberately plyed her with and got her drunk, will attest to………..alcohol is an evil device.
I am so, tired, I have been counselling my therapist all day,
It’s not easy saving the world on your own you know, I’m too tired when I get home from saving the world I need a wife to cook for me and wash my sock’s & shirt’s ( I don’t wear jock’s)….
tonight I’ve eaten a whole King Island seal bay Triple Cream Brie & I’m all fat now, I need some meth so I can burn off those calories, who’s got some meth …
oh where’s Tommie Lee when you need him …
yikes
yikes.. i need a WIFE
& i know you & Alex are playing second pitch, im not bothered i just want you to be happy because that would meke me happy too
not sure what you mean by second pitch…………..
i have blessed loving real friends in life who are self-actualized like i am, of who i take comfort in BEing around, blessed like my Self, who they too take comfort in BEing around, and so should everyONE, as that is how we get our needs met on a regular consistent basis, vital in maintaining the postive mental emotional well BEing of the blessed Self, so in that regard, i am healthily happy, respectful of Self in what is a healthy approach to my own well BEing, lest i do something stupid and irrational like hurt my Self like i did once before……..actually twice………..
i have issues just like any other, perhaps moderately so, or even extreme of some issues i am yet working thru in healing, where if we do not work thru our issues, the issues do plaque us our entire life, until the day we sit down, and address what the issues are with a professional psychologist, my best friends in life, not only of weekly sessions, but also of selected friends like Brenda in my life, truly a blessed soul for me, a virgin spirit like my own, who is healthily self-actualized and evolved, of like minded classmate OPEN discussions we have daily as regards to Self, which i want with M, but she is too busy right now, where i don’t want to distract her from her focus and attention to her current project of good WILL, albeit, i want to distract her.
Happiness is a personal thing, which starts and stops at the individual level of what Self enjoys doing in life of whatever and whatever, with whoever, wherever, whenever, however, and whyever does M not want to BE of the hot tub with ‘me’
as for the needing a wife, it is both a want and a need, where of course i want to BE of Wife, and without doubt, a best friend who ONE is able to get their needs met.
So as for playing second pitch?
no………..i have friends who you would equally adore like i do, who are more self-actualized than most any i have met in life, which is how i am selective of my friends……….they have to BE of real self-actualized Common True Behavioural Traits, fearlessly like we are.
Trust ‘me’, you WILL come to love them if ever we meet in life, as they are likeness of a twin(mirror) for anyone who is fortunate enough to meet such blessed souls like them, like us, i know i am.
i am…….BE Cause……..We are………..blessed
i just want YOU, and YOU KNOW i do, and so do my friends, of OPEN wise discussion in class, praying one day, you bring me to REAL LIFE alongside you as best friends like we have been for so long, as i need to feel validated, i need real, i need more, always more, where for ‘me’, each second of life, is a blessed moment, where at times i feel perhaps we will not ever cross that bridge into real life, and yet, i am of real standing on the bridge before you this day, praying you would take more time to get to KNOW me better, by spending more time with me, building of trust that is vital, disarming that comes when we feel loved by another, blessedness of purity love feelings that are fleeting at times, because we hardly spend any time at all together, like i do with my best friends in life.
someone has to push, it may as well BE ‘me’, where in truth, i feel your anxiousness of desire to spend more time together, where it is obvious, Andy truly does want more time together, wondering why it is we still are here at this blog after two years…………………
i too have trusted all along, and yet do, truthfulness trust of my own emotional honesty certainty of feelings for YOU, at times frustrated by this blogging, the uncertainty of it all of alias names and reading between the lines……………..
my friends are not like that at all, they are real, of every single word at all times, Just BEing their real Self, like the simple country boy Andy yet is, albeit, wise.
i am always here for you, of the same eager yearning you too are of, praying couragous fearlessness for us both to one day BE of the SAME DAY blessed certainty, lest we make the mistake of walking away from each other as best friends of love and life, which we both KNOW we are…………….without doubt.
i am expressing myself here today, of my true thoughts and feelings, praying respectful reciprocation of positive likemindedness of you, lest the useless negative hypocrisy heart come between us, and we turn away from the real self of each other.
you can ask my friends if you like, i talk openly about you with them all the time, of my love for you, of wisdom as regards self-actualization of us both.
i don’t play anything other than living in the NOW, where i love to feel what i feel each passing moment by moment of each second of my day, each heartbeat, each breath, each step, each word uttered and heard(felt).
come to my window Romeo, and make sure you catch me when i jump, ok?
you better fucking catch me Romeo, and not laugh your ass off in my doing a face plant in the snow, although i do love doing face plants in the fresh powerdery snow, clown outfit and all,
such a riot life is for me,
of the down hill ski
that was a fucking hint Romeo, i want to go skiing with you someday,
of warm fireplace,
flowers in my hair,
without a care,
of those who stare…………….
……………………………..what are you fucking looking at, get away from me you fucking morons!!!!!!
ok, so no more pretending love this flowers in my hair, because YOU KNOW…………….i am yet of glare…………
with a body like yours Romeo? arghhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!
“What are you thinking?”
ya, ‘me’ 2
hey Rosie, ah, can i ask a question?
“i have been looking at what you are holding in your hand, and i cannot understand what it is other than art. I see a princess and a knight. If only i could convince Romeo of how blessed of knight he really is of ‘me’, of how blessed of night he really is of ‘me’.
Romeo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
men, always waundering off somewhere leaving me stranded as usual…………..
my next life, i am coming back as a Hermaphrodite of fully functioning male and female sex organs, capable of self fucking my Self, and to hell with everyone…….fucking morons!!!!!!!!! lol
(mumbling and grumbling to himself, inaudible, although obviously frustrated, Andy waunders across the street to his favorite massage spa)
blessings to all
bless you
Shiatsu
so go ahead and keep making excuses for your self of not inviting ‘me’ to life, always this blog of a few words, no letters from you, no email, no phone call, no REAL LIFE person’s hand to hold, and whisper of ear, fine.
who is the one that is really standing between us?
is it not YOU Madonna?
everyone else knows obviously Andy is real, as in really there daily for YOU.
people are their own worse enemies, where it is not fair that you make these excuses for your self, when it is obviously 100% Andy loves you.
it is not about me deserving anything or umnet expectations, not at all…………rather, there is Andy and what he wants(obviously), and then there is you M, of what YOU want, and that is where it starts and stops M, with YOU.
like i said, it is YOU who has to decide in telling Andy what you want to say, of either go away, or please stay here with ‘me’ in real life, and get to know each other better as the real life best friends we have been for how long now?….respectful of each other all this time, as mere true loving best friends, we both KNOW………..without doubt………….we ARE.
i am……BE Cause……We ARE………..Real ‘True Life’ Best Friends along the road of life forever more.
why not decide today once and for ALL?
blessings to all
bless you
on the issue of Hermaphrodite creatures, which do exist, including that of trees, grass, the moon, the sun, all of single aloneness, one can sense how horribly isolating the feeling of aloneness would BE, where unity of two in loving harmony is obviously what HEAVEN is for us humans…….albeit, many there are who are alone in life……….such as the starving child apon the ground, who knows full well how isolated they are, looking around them at the wealth of the of others of world, feeling the reality that they are not loved, obviously, by the lack of no food to eat each day, a mere child unable to grasp comprehension like we do of the truth about the false teachings of the forefathers which lead the world like a ring thru their nose, self-serving like most are, a child defenseless in ability to fend for itself, not yet of God’s wisdom, and yet, of the feelings they feel the PURE TRUTH of feeling unloved……………how horrible is ‘that’?
just how horrible are the false teachings of the forefathers?
without doubt………..horrible, not only for sake of the starving child, but also for those who have not yet come fully into awareness knowingness of what HEAVEN is, the blessed precious pure loving divine child of God within, the divine True Real Self, which some of you know fully ARE of HEAVEN within and all around us
i am……BE Cause……We ARE of HEAVEN within and all around us
without doubt, HEAVEN is of the wise perspective Halo of TRUTH, is it not?
and is that not how Jesus and God see(feel) of what HEAVEN is and is not yet of the unwise world which unwisely thinks it is wise?
and is that now how we too see(feel) of what HEAVEN is and is not yet of the unwise world which unwisely thinks it is wise?
The importants of the words of Jesus, “BE full, yet do not BE full, so you can BE filled some more.”
appreciation in understanding what this means is without doubt 100%, we are all evolving in wisdom each second of each day, of the growing of wisdom our blessed Self is of each blessed day, where instead of looking negatively apon blessed others, or our blessed self, we need to look apon the world thru the eyes of Jesus and God, of 100% compassion at all times, where when one is of 100% compassion, you are not of negativity, and rather of embracing pure truth as that of us all as yet humble classmates where indeed, we are all of the same schools of thought, albeit, not the same schools, albeit, of thought, where sincere reflective thinking is of a humble student slave yet of the world(for most), who eventually BEcomes a master of Self.
Who is the master and who is the slave?
We are all slaves to the world, until such a day we BEcome master of Self, like Jesus said, “I am not your master.” where Jesus knew, he was merely master of his own Self, not ever able, nor desire to BE master of Self of any other, rather, merely as a wise evolved brother who knew fully his own discerning between falseness learning/teaching/snaring of blessed Self, and Trueness of learning/teaching/freeing of blessed Self that is required to come fully into the awareness knowingness of the purity love of our own blessed Self, learning, unlearnin, ALWAYS of humble student mentality, where no one shall know God until such a time as God’s chosing, where when God does reveal God’s presence, YOU KNOW the blessed subtle purity love of your own Self 100% without doubt, when you do, indeed, of such incredible blessed pure loving feelings, without doubt, so pure, only one word is able to fully discribe it…………HEAVEN
love devoid of useless absurd unwise doubt, is of HEAVEN with Jesus, God, and Each Other, indeed of the awareness wise knowingness for those of you who take time to slow and surrender to the true aspect of ‘GraceFULLness’, of your blessed True Real Self, a true aspect that is of unity, not seperation from another, is it not?
bless you
i want to go ice skating at the out door ice ring located at City Hall………….who’s with ‘me’ ?
they have a sound system hooked up with music playing all day, and the Christmas lights everywhere………JOY JOY JOY JOY LOVE
blessings to all
what you look for has already come, within you and all around you…………’that’ which HEAVEN is………….without doubt.
i realise want to have my own blessed family with someone, more than anything else in life, of my emotional honesty certainty……………without doubt.
bless you
i think i would make a good father, able to teach my children what HEAVEN is, and what it is not, of their blessed feelings of constantly feeling loved and loving at all times, radiant, brilliant, bright, of radiant smiling faces, which reveals the truth by means of our feelings of what HEAVEN is, where it is of clarity awareness knowingness emotional honesty certainty without doubt, indeed, our feelings is what Jesus said, “Sight restored to our souls.”
blessed are those who are of awareness knowingness of blessed Self
blessings to all
bless you
Like Rosie, Kelly and family
check out the Rosie Christmas video everyone, that truly captures the true love feelings of blessed Self
rosie.com
bless you
without doubt………….the only way i can have a Real True Life family, is of another who is of ‘me’……………….without doubt
i love that song of Rosie’s video, “Portrait of girl, Portrait of a boy”
~ im not bothered i just want you to be happy because that would meke me happy too !
am i to take that as a hint to move on?
“MOVE ON ALEX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!
‘that’ felt good saying ‘that’!
lol
my therapy is helpFUL for Andy, si?
si
si si si si si ya big sissysssssssssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven
Will it be the same
If I saw you in heaven
I must be strong, and carry on
Cause I know I don’t belong
Here in heaven
Would you hold my hand
If I saw you in heaven
Would you help me stand
If I saw you in heaven
I’ll find my way, through night and day
Cause I know I just can’t stay
Here in heaven
Time can bring you down
Time can bend your knee
Time can break your heart
Have you begging please
Begging please
(instrumental)
Beyond the door
There’s peace I’m sure.
And I know there’ll be no more… Tears in HEAVEN
~ other than blessed tears of JOY JOY JOY JOY&LOVE
forever more
(lyrics by Eric Clapton, in honor of their four year-old son, Conor, child of Lory Del Santo & Eric Clapton, who accidently fell 53 floors to his death through the open window of a New York skyscraper. Lory has since given birth to baby boy named Loren, restoring Joyful tears once again to her blessed life renewed)
God bless ALL
Jesus loves ALL God loves ALL We love ALL
God blesses ALL
blessings to all
bless you
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In my heart,
i believed in you
you believed in ‘me’
certainties disappears
what must we do
for our dreams to survive
how do we keep
our passions alive
like we used to do
deep in my heart
im concealing
things that im longing
to say
scared to confess
what im ‘feeling’
frightened you’ll slip………away
YOU MUST LOVE ‘me’
ahhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!
this video from last night’s concert of Madonna’s ‘You Must Love Me / Don’t Cry For Me Argentina (Buenos Aires, Dec 04)…………..clearly reveals the pure hearts of the audience cheerfulness of blessed love……….WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
for sure they love Madonna, yes?
[http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LAMuVjpm-RM]
Such an amazing moment of feeling for ALL of where Evita was filmed in ’96, the blessed spirit so alive in their hearts…………..
truth is, i never left YOU
i kept my promise………….of God
what an incredible feeling, the violins without doubt, resonating in their hearts………unbelievable the feeling, si?
si
bless you Madonna bless you, so alive in so many people’s hearts, their own loving feelings!
blessed love
bless you
how do we KEEP our passions ALIVE?
silly question……………
why am i at your side?
ok, next silly question…………
you can feel the JOYFUL tears in their voices of those in the audience, yes?
i do
bless you Madonna bless you
100% without doubt, the love Madonna, si?
si
and in so doing of setting love free within them, their blessed Self feels LOVING and LOVED, what HEAVEN is
WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
3 more nights of ‘that’, would bring me to tears for sure, blessed tears of purity love………..wish i was there with you!
it is moments like this which are able to change a person forever more
blessings to all
bless you
the scream out, “THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!!” with utter conviction of heart, mind, soul, utter gratitude of their Loving blessed Self, of what is most blessed of the blessed Self, LOVE
ONLY LOVE is good enough for the blessed Self of ALL
i kept my promise……..don’t keep your distance.
that is an easy three chord sing along song, yes?
what key? ;D
another video from last night’s concert of MADONNA – BUENOS AIRES – STICKY SWETT TOUR – 4/12/2008
[http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t7J4evneMPA]
God blesses us all thru Madonna bless you
I have thought thru the issue of Israel announcing their plans to attack Iran.
It is the incorrect approach in God’s eyes, as it will only add fuel to the already burning desire fires within the heart, mind, and soul of the current leaders of Iran.
Attacking is not of God’s divine will.
i do not know the alternative approach, but i do know, attack will fuel the fires within them, resulting in certain Armagedon for Israel.
what, attack no way, there is not going to be any more war’
And i’m the Boss, what i say goes !
no war !
end of story !
& the story has only started !
optimistically, i keep coming back to what Rice said, “The current leaders are not the one we will negotiate PEACE with.”
without doubt, the problem is the generational false teachings of God, of the forefathers who claimed to know God. We are without doubt all children of whatever ‘may’ have created the blessed loving peaceful by nature while at rest human BEing.
obviously, the unlearning and learning of generational teachings is the issue, were our optimism is for the next generation to one day be of fully embracing us knowingly that we are loving in exact sameness connectedness the children of tomorrow connect with at an emotional awareness knowingness way, and indeed, the next generation of children are doing just that with the advent of worldwide instant telecommuncations, of internet, radio, television, entertainment, that the youth of today are embracing and feeling more and more, where time is the only way thru dark safe passage becoming brighter and brighter each blessed day passing.
It is the safe passage available, of ‘time’ for new generations to come fully into embracing us emotionally/intellectually, of exact sameness of Self within, Self of another, Self of ALL, feeling LOVED and LOVING, of natural occuring ‘Desire’ to do so, what we know is constant of the blessed Self of ALL.
Albeit, we too are yet of evolving in ways of compassion for other, at least we do not have desire in our heart, mind, and soul to willfully be of delight in killing another………..or at least we better not be at this critical cross road, that could dangerously past the point of no return already, if we do not turn towards compassion, away from unwise unloving positive optimism of our supposed enemies of these unwise children of God, where in truth, we too are unwise in many ways, where the way forward is of humbleness and graceful slowing in our thinking to fully embrace TRUTH, rather than quick fast solution, where generational thinking approach is of long term compassionate patience awareness knowingness of what the TRUTH actually is……….Generational Teachings.
Hey, let’s get Madonna to do some free concerts in Iran, all over Iran, yes?
just thinking out loud M
with performances like last night, of true heart felt blessedness, we are of the correct thinking, are we not, LOVE is the WAY, TRUTH is the WAY, LIFE is the WAY………Jesus said, “i am the way.”
i am……..BE cause…….we ARE the WAY
blessings to ALL
bless you
argh…..my spelling is worse in the evening hours…….
*correction required*
or at least we better not be at this critical cross road, that could already be dangerously past the point of no return, should we do not turn towards wise loving compassion, away from unwise unloving negative pessimism of our ‘Supposed Enemies’ of these sadly unwise children of God, where in truth, we too are (yet) of unwiseness in many ways of compassion, are we not, where the way forward is of humbleness and graceful slowing in our thinking to fully embrace LOVING LIFE TRUTH, rather than quick fast egotistic driven solution, where generational thinking approach is of long term compassionate patient awareness knowingness of what the TRUTH actually is……….Generational Teachings.
alternatively, we could see a backslide which could see millions of innocent souls die needlessly. This is an open discussion where wise cool heads must prevail, wihtout ego, of wise speculation as to how long, how approach and without doubt, our ability to ‘Love Our (supposed) Enemies, Like We Love our SELF’
forgive us father, for many of us who know not what we do, of the many souls yet snared by the generational teachings of the forefathers, which you know father 100% without doubt, of what is cause for all pain and suffering in the world, of what yet grips the world tightly, ‘Crucial Desire For Wisdom’………we just need more time Dad!
thank you God
thank you Jesus
bless you Jesus bless you
bless you
maybe ego wants me to chase you, i cannot feed ego, this has been going on for so long now, my gentle approach to you sneaking in like i do when your ego is not looking, i don’t really have any other option but to approach you the way i do my gentle sincere loving (sometimes firm) approach is my only way to get through to you as i have done for so long now.
you keep saying its up to me but its not up to me, surely you can see that now, yes you kept your promise yes you trusted me ( more so in recent time’s, understandably so, ) sometimes i think you are afraid of me, i know my presence can sometimes effect people i am aware i know i sometimes make people feel uneasy around me, i try not to shine too bright & reveal myself to quickly but i cannot help being who i am.
I do sometimes think your not ready to jump, which makes it impossible for me to catch you .. you have to jump first, i know why your holding back to, something you must come to understand about your self, i cannot push you off the balcony Juliet because then how can i catch you , you have to jump
‘Crucial LACKING of Desire For Wisdom’ is the foe……….
if i stay will you go, if i go will you stay
that’s how it feels sometimes
i just know i don’t want to stay alone for any longer, i have been alone for too long now..
Jump to TOTAL HAPPINESS CONSTANTLY
Jump to FEELING LOVED CONSTANTLY
Jump to FEELING LOVING CONSTANTLY
Jump to ‘ RECIPROCAL’ LOVING CONSTANTLY
Jump to LOVE DEVOID of DOUBT CONSTANTLY
Jump to EXCEEDING JOY WITHIN CONSTANTLY
Jump to EXCEEDING GRACE FEELING CONSTANTLY
Jump to FEELING BLESSED CONSTANTLY
Jump to FUN LOVING CONSTANTLY
Jump to MAGICAL CHILD CONSTANTLY
Jump to FEARLESSNESS CONSTANTLY
Jump to INCREDIBLE SEX CONSTANTLY
Jump to MORE INCREDIBLE SEX CONSTANTLY
Jump to TENDERNESS CONSTANTLY
Jump to CUDDLING CONSTANTLY
Jump to HOLDING HANDS CONSTANTLY
Jump to KISSING CONSTANTLY
Jump to HUGGING CONSTANTLY
Jump to CARESSING CONSTANTLY
Jump to DELICATENESS
Jump to SWEETNESS
Jump to MILDNESS
Jump to EMOTIONAL HONESTY CERTAINTY
Jump to SELF ACTUALIZATION CONSTANTLY
Jump to the HOT TUB CONSTANTLY
Jump to Just BEing YOU CONSTANTLY
Jump to Just BEing ‘me’ CONSTANTLY
Jump to WAKING EACH BLESSED DAY and DOING IT ALL OVER AGAIN CONSTANTLY
Jump to 100% PURE BLESSED TRUE LOVING LIFE CONSTANTLY, when you jump with ‘me’
blessings to all
bless you
ok, i jump without hesitation!!!!!!!!!!!
what HEAVEN is
not sure what part of jumping i may have overlooked……feel free to reciprocate with ‘me’, if you have time………….
http://www.lithargoels.blogspot.com/
Jump of SPIRIT SET FREE TO JUST BE
well, i finally did move to my new sanctuary, and the spiritual adjustment of having no critical others is amazing to feel, indeed, my free spirit soaring brightly like that of my youth.
it is my bashed in self-esteem, that’s all, a real bad beating i took of recent in life, so many critical others all around me, i finally got the courage up to save my self from them in fearlessly walking away, indeed, my spirit SET FREE now.
thanks for tolerating my absurdness some days…….self-esteem is a real issue people.
Constantly feeling loved and loving is not of criticalness towards or of another, so don’t do it people.
Just live in the NOW, moment by blessed moment, of reciprocating smiles with one and another, constantly loving and feeling loved, and when others cannot, of healthy positive emotional well being in ability to do so, well, it is entirely up to you of how long you want to wait for them in life.
blessings to all
bless you
quick question;
how many times a second do the fluttering love feelings flutter?
~ each heartbeat, each breath, each step, each word, each blessed day here in HEAVEN
blessings to all
blessed blessed blessed blessed
bless you
~ if i stay will you go, if i go will you stay
that’s how it feels sometimes
i just know i don’t want to stay alone for any longer, i have been alone for too long now..
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‘you’ want to stay with ‘me’ or go to another?
‘me’ want to stay with ‘you’ or go to another?
when ‘both’ want the same thing it is apparently clear………..
ah………..no one here……………
i will stay if you stay, go if you go, so just BE loving, and leave it at that, either way……………
blessings to all
bless you and those you love forever more
bless you
HEAVEN is a focused PERSPECTIVE that only comes into view when we turn towards fully what the perspective is, of eventual internalized awareness knowingness which one can come fully into the wisdom halo perspective that is indeed, love devoid of doubt, of no critical others able to trouble our souls.
the real difficulty is most do not desire something they are not of awareness of at a cognitive level, and yet, all subconsciously seek what HEAVEN is;
CONSTANTLY FEELING LOVED and LOVING of another and others.
bless you
FEARLESSNESS is KEY to not just awareness of one’s own emotional honesty certainty of feelings within, but to also BE of the feelings outwardly fearlessly expression of how YOU feel……….LOVING and LOVED by Jesus, God and each other forever more
bless you
if you knew how much it pleases me to see your spirit set free away from the critical world of fear, you would be truly astounded at how much joy it is for me.
like a bird flying high in the sky free and in flight that is how your soul is meant to be…
to experience that joy and felling of being able to float to whatever place you want to be, to any place that sets your heart free, that is where you will also find me.
I’m not going anywhere just yet, lets float way to the crystal candle’s in the sky
second pitch, midway between a high octave & a scream
i can hear the screaming miles away way in Melbourne
ha ha
healthy humor is good, helps lift the soul, from the shackles of life
YESSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i am totally free now, living in the ‘NOW’, my first night was last night of my blessed new life, free of any and all critical others, where indeed, i do feel the process of detox taking place within ‘me’, freeing of the blessed child of God True Real SELF to BE allowed to exist in a conducive environment free of ALL transferences and subconscious projections of unwise others………you have no idea how good this feels for ‘me’, where i am yet in transition, so please, bare with ‘me’ awhile longer while fearlessness is BEing restored for ‘me’, a blessed pure loving child of God.
i saw my pure blessed child of God Self the other day, and i had not taken the time to express it, where i want to work on an art piece that truly captures the moment and blessed pure feeling of how 100% PURE my blessed child of God truly is, an awareness i am now of, seemingly like your own, where perhaps you have more experience of this awareness Romeo?
please please please wait while i catch my breath and sigh of releif where it feels as though my entire life up till now is of a sacred reason, where i have a blessed sanctuary to continue my work in research of the divine child of God Jesus.
We always have to BE of remembrance ALL of us are of evolving transition of our likemindedness of the blessed purity love of our virgin spirit set free, the true self-actualization taking place for us, is a TRANSITION.
with that said, please please please BE of graceful patience with ‘me’ during my own growth transition(6 months), as a blessed true and faithful spiritual friend you are to me and i you, like we have for so long now, where i know my life is of a divine purpose WILL as regards you, as regards the blessed vision i had where 100% purity of the blessed child within(me), is of God’s wisdom meant for all, where i saw my Self thru God’s eyes, the blessed pure virgin spirit Self, like that of Jesus, like that of us ALL, who we all are within, and not these contolling fearful others of subconscious transference and projections, where i too have been of transference and projections at time of them thru ‘me’, my ex being the one who truly was so critical of me, of his constant controlling low self-esteem belittling and condescending bullshit, which i walk away from for the last time last night, and biked my way to my new sanctuary thru snow and ice in the dark cold passage of emptiness feeling some 5 miles away, waking refreshed, and the feeling of WOW!!!! i am FREE to Just BE ‘me’ forever more.
thank you for understanding and putting up with my occurances of useless shortsighted outbursts of abreactions, which has been of the transference of others pushing me to the ground over and over daily……….not any more……….indeed Romeo, the shackles of life of bitter binding of heart, mind, body, spirit and soul are no more for ‘me’.
i am in full awareness of my blessed True Real Self, of great SIGH of relief in coming clear of my old life, still haunting ‘me’ likely for a brief period, of my moments of feeling how one feels after being traumatized by another, where i am merely asking you to come fully to embracing me at this point in time, as one who is healing, boundaries set, no toxic critical others now, where it is so amazing to feel away from the critical world of fear, thanks in part to you Romeo, clearly now, i realize, you knew what i was going thru, and i you, so please don’t walk away from ‘me’, as we have been blessed true and faithful friends for along time, where i KNOW the undescribable solid foundation of YOU, having felt the love devoid of doubt feelings as regards your purity love sincere prayer which does not faulter, in truth, unwavering, of awareness knowingness, indeed, it is of the unwise critical fear world around us, is it not?
i too stand in the same awareness as you, and acknowledge this of you this blessed SAME DAY of spirituality between us.
to lose your friendship?
not possible
YOU know it, like i KNOW it
bless you
children are so amazing to ‘me’, watching them smile, laugh, and skip down the street like they do, constantly of connectedness with their inner joyfulness delight merely of loving life they are constantly of feeling delight of like they do.
as adults, we connect with the delighful joyfulness within, at the sight of the mirroring children are with us like they do, their own spirits truly free, not yet of understanging of any wisdoms of why the world is the way it is, of what does indeed fearfully control so many souls, the snaring mindtraps of insatiable desire for wealth for example, which i child does not contemplate, no, they are how we too need to come to realize what HEAVEN is, constant feelings of feeling loved and loving.
we know this to BE 100% TRUE in awareness of the constant aspect of our own blessed Self, do we not?
The real problem is, most do not embrace this wise awareness sacred blessed knowingness truth wisdom aspect of CONSTANT, nor many of the other aspects of what HEAVEN is in each passing moment by blessed moment, and when ONE does not come fully into acknowledgement and full embracing of this vital awareness of the CONSTANT aspect, how can ONE prioritize what HEAVEN is, when they do not turn towards the scared blessed Truth Wisdom Aspects of the blessed divine pure loving child of God True Real Self?
HEAVEN cannot BE ushered in on account of first coming fully into awareness knowingness, and secondly, how one establish the ability to BE of the constant focused turning towards the greatest hidden treasure that is beyone all the riches of the world, as Jesus said, “Where your heart is, there too is your treasure and your life, at all times(constant). What you turn towards, you BEcome, at all times(constant).
without embracing the setting of vital HEALTHY boundaries with unwise critical others of subconscious transferences and projections, who we know are not of our awareness knowingness platitude, we leave our blessed Self open to oppression of the world that is cause for the suppresive submerging of our blessed child of God within, gripped by the tightening of fear, afraid to Just BE.
discerning by means of our feelings is also of vital importance as to establishing HEALTHY boundaries which we are always of CONSTANT responsibility of the flexible adjustable boundaries we set, constantly adjustable every second of our life according to the blessed child of God True Real Self.
in life thus far, i have not come this far previously in life, in my now established boundaries, of what now is the most conducive environment for my blessed child of God True Real Self to thrive and grow in, where blessed pure loving happiness is able to continue to grow daily for ‘me’, moment by blessed moment.
I don’t blame anyone, rather, i compassionate embrace the reality that it is of the entire population of all souls of earth who are all evolving out of the unwise generational teachings, by means of so many things which are nurturing and protecting of our blessed Self, such as soothing music, the spa, massage(Shiatsu), loving others, sex, more sex :mrgreen:, and more sex after that if you like……love!!!!!!!!!………. lol
of what works and indeed, what HEAVEN is for our blessed Self.
come on!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i KNOW you want two!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ha
for sure, HEAVEN is of loving lovers embrace, si?
si
si si si si si si si si si si more sissyssss, than one can count!!!!!!!!
mmmmmmmmmm, warm soothing floating in bubbling water………ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
ROMEO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
thanks Romeo, i always knew you truly do love ‘me’
bless you
ok……without doubt, we know the blessed tender loving delicate sweetness of feelings of blessed Self, when of tender holding of the hand of another…..what HEAVEN is
without doubt, we know the blessed tender loving delicate sweetness of feelings of blessed Self when of tender sensual kissing the lips and body of blessed Self of another……what HEAVEN is
without doubt, we know the blessed tender loving delicate sweetness of feelings of blessed Self when of the ohhhhhhhhhh soooooooooo gooooooood feelings while of the skin to skin loving embracing of blessed Self of another in a hot tub…….what HEAVEN is.
without doubt, we know we are CONSTANTLY of YEARNING and SWEET ANTICIPATION for what HEAVEN is each moment by passing blessed moment each blessed day we wake to, to BE CONSTANTLY of blessed feeling of feeling LOVED and LOVING in so many ways that are PURITY LOVE of the blessed precious pure loving divine child of God True Real SELF…..
CONSTANTLY WITHOUT useless absurd DOUBT, where it is useless absurd unwise doubtfulness of the blessed loving aspects of blessed Self, which is cause for turning away from our own blessed Self, and in doing so, turning away from blessed Self of another, away from HEAVENLY LOVING FEELINGS for both, where indeed, wisdom is of vital required embracing, is it not, while of a world which at times, sees us all of occasion in turning away from the CONSTANT TRUTH ASPECTS of the blessed Self of us ALL.
so if you want to find ‘me’, i am EASY to find, at your local SPA, of SHIATSU MASSAGE, HOT TUB, SAUNA, SHOWER…………..ROMEO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i jest………i am waiting here of my SAME DAY SURRENDERED SPIRIT of my CONSTANT YEARNING SWEET ANTICIPATION like your own blessed Self of ‘me’, of SAME DAY is always the SAME DAY as TODAY of what HEAVEN is forever more. amen.
ROMEO!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i love you
thank you Romeo
bless you bless you bless you
only love, Yours to have, Your BEloved Juliet
if you knew how much it pleases me to see your spirit set free away from the critical world of fear, you would be truly astounded at how much joy it is for me.
is that your way of saying you have been waiting for ‘me’ Romeo, so we can be together of SAME DAY forever more?
ya, ‘me’ 2
do you want to marry ‘me’ Romeo, besides our spiritual marriage we have been of for how long NOW?
hey Romeo, they found our bones which lay burried in the ground some 5000 years ago, of us still hugging each other, burried under the town where Romeo and Juliet was written……is that cool or what?
i think about that loving couple they found burried, carbon dated to 5000 years ago, where i feel what happened that the two skeltons came to hugging one another, may have been because one of the lovers died, and the other did not feel like living on alone without the other, and laid down beside the one who died, and waited to die, while hugging the other, where they remaind like that for last 5000 years, time stopped, the truth of their love yet there forever in our hearts to feel and embrace, the TRUTH of our own blessed loving Self.
i added the pic to bottom of my blog
i love you Romeo
you know i do……..without doubt
blessings to all of same day every day
bless you
have you felt birds in flight feeling the birds have on us when they fly near us?
it is a subtle pure feeling within, like the fluttering of love feelings. I feel it all the time of the birds, of delightful love of life, moment by passing blessed moment, which is what living in the NOW is, of love everywhere, of music near, of tender hand we hold, feeling loved and loving, what HEAVEN is, without doubt forever more each blessed day.
i was thinking ten kids all around daily is a blessed life, si?
si
i see these families of like what 16 children, and i feel how amazing is it to feel the laughter of your blessed children of so many each day, of what matters to the entire family, feeling loved and loving of each other at all times, and with (10X400) 4000 laughs per day, ONE cannot help but feel ‘that’ daily, each blessed day we wake to, si?
si
blessed Self constantly feeling loved and loving is what HEAVEN is
blessings to ALL
and a child shall lead them?
bless you
when connected
time is no importance
except for me when i procrastinate, what am i waiting for ? Heaven ..
lol
HEAVEN is constant of no time constaint, si?
si
constant nurturing is the way forward, which builds apon and maintains focus toward love, where love disarms us, as we BEcome what is one of the pure true aspects of blessed Self; FEARLESSNESS to LOVE, to feel LOVED and LOVING, what HEAVEN TRULYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY is Romeo!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!
KISS ‘me’ some more!!!!!!!!!!!!!
keep kissing ‘me’!!!!!!!!!!!!!
mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
feels sooooooooooooo goooooooooooooooooood!!!!!!!!!!
the water is warmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
YESSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i love you
standing still in awareness of the graceful Self, is pure connectedness with the trueness aspects of blessed Self, and Self of another, indeed, the only way one is able to connect with blessed Self of another, where purity love connectedness of the feelings of what HEAVEN is, feeling loved and loving constantly, merely by our allowing our blessed child within to (constantly) BE of feeling our loving feelings for True Loving Blessed Life, where it is TRUE, we are of constant yearning to FEEL what HEAVEN is, are we not, of blessed Self within, and blessed Self of another, of whoever, whenever, wherever, however; whatever is Romeo doing right now, and whyever is Romeo not of the Hot Tub with ‘me’ in this moment?
update:
where role playing of fictional names is 100% ok, where others can feel themselves as playing the role, like books we read.
anonymous unconditional love without ego, albeit, ego at times when not fully disarmed of fearless surrendering of SAME DAY what HEAVEN is, which takes time for 100% focus, as the world is indeed full of distractions, and yet, of all distractions there is always the lessons of truth we can embrace, of even old truths we may have already learned, which serve as reminders for us, aiding us further in maintained focus, where in Jesus and God’s eyes, everywhere 100% is the TRUTH of that which HEAVEN is, and that which HEAVEN is not(sadly, compassionately so).
when one comes fully into discerning awareness, we realize fully 100%, compassion for the unwiseness of others is of our love as well, and that is significant in understanding the 100% purity love perspective of Jesus and God that is constantly 100% loving feelings, as well as compassionate loving feelings of the voids devoid of love, where indeed, the mystery of loving our (supposed) enemies is of purity love 100%, of their precious innocent soul born from the womb of God into the unwise world, of many unwise households which teach the innocent child these false teachings.
Welcome to what HEAVEN is, of the purity love Halo perspective of;
100%
ONLY TRUTH
ONLY LOVE
ONLY WISDOM
ONLY COMPASSION
where 100% PURE TRUTH is what is 100% ETERNAL safe passage for mankind, albeit, many a stones will unwisely be thrown apon many precious souls from the womb of God, for some time to come, of all children who will die of starvation in the future, of all war, of all unwise hateful words and impure thought, of all wretchedness, of all false betrayal of blessed Self, constantly at all times………..the TRUTH.
~ the Fountain of Life flows forth forever more. amen
thinking outside the box again M, of the continued efforts of ‘me’ and some university students of sincere zeal and thirst to push further into awareness of Self, of humble student classmate equaility respect like we are, which is my favorite environment, university students who are of constant thirst for knowledge and thinking outside the box, ever expanding and elaborating on open fearless ease of discussion here at the Library.
another great show coming up tonight, in Argentina, of incredible loving souls of Madonna, fearlessly of pure love like herself and each other………easily of our love for them like we are as well, my favorite people in life.
bless you
>QUEST<ioning
how can one find heaven if they are not of QUESTioning what HEAVEN is?
already what we look for has already come.
we are what HEAVEN is
Romeo?!!!!!!!!!!!!!
where are YOU?
i don’t like being alone…………..
upDate:
we are constantly what HEAVEN is
mmmmmmmmmmm
Sex is so incredible!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
~ andy and his imagination……………….
Romeo? Romeo? Romeo?
is the hot tub full of water yet?
ah, good!
i love you
we are ALL of affect/effect/direct/indirect connectedness of Generational Evolution……….constantly every second of every blessed day forever more. amen
constantly growing in brightness, fearlessness, the unshakling of bitter unwise chains that bind the heart, mind, body, spirit and soul of dark unloving captivities of many unwise generational teachings of the forefathers of the entire history of mankind, all of it, right here and yet unwisely being taught again and again, sadly of the fate of many who’s lives unwisely end tragically as a result…….statistics of truth.
blessings to all
bless you
Procastination is of fear based hesitation of those who are not yet fully of surrendering to wise awareness constant knowingness certainty of what HEAVEN is, of those who stand at the door peering in, where bitter nashing of unwise teeth is outside the door of the Kingdom of Heaven BEing ushered in by the Wise Spiritually Enlightened BEings who walk the earth, Romeo in tow………..
fortunately, TRUTH wisdoms do not change over time, of why SAME DAY is everyday, constant like the sun always shining, where building apon the truth wisdoms which support cognitive awareness knowingness certainty of what HEAVEN is, is what ushering(building apon unchallengable, undenialable, unbreakable, unchanging, unwavering, unconquerable truth wisdom) in the Kingdom of Heaven is.
Romeo lost his internet connection.
http://www.ncte.ie/pollen/surprises/fevrier99/elseneur.htm
Where’s Madonna? In Argentina?
She must be fed-up with that tour by now.
I’m glad she’s friendly with her brother again.
my sex organ is so annoying, waking me every morning, trying to get my attention, of my gentle soothing it to try to calm it down, does not seem help………. 😯
lol
The Book of Life
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
In the Book of Life is written the divine WILL teachings of ALL the pure truth wisdoms of the sacred protective wise Halo meant for the blessed pure loving truthful divine Child of God True Real SELF, for sake of maintaining a healthy conducive environment for sake HAPPINESS of the blessed child of us ALL to grow and thrive in forever more, where every blessed DAY is the SAME DAY of what HEAVEN constantly is, FEELING LOVED and LOVING
~ still BEing written by those who are of purity love virgin spirits of the blessed pure Child of God True Real Self, not for sale or organized religion, rather for the blessed Child of God alone to fully embrace all the truth aspects of the blessed Child of God within us ALL
blessings to ALL
bless you
i want what you want
Andy has a Green Nz cross , Romeo a cross of Iron….hypothèsis : are you working together??
oooooops i wanted to say blue !
to constantly feel loved and loving of and with someone, of what HEAVEN is for both when they obviously do.
not sure if M and A are in love or not…….mayBE
hello!!!!!!!!
Romeo?
ciao? bonjour? hallo? olá? привет? hola? Romeo?
im right here in front of you Romeo!
what is this mess ??
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actually eric, my (supposed) nazi symbol is the opposite direction, indicative of how NOT to interpret the words of God eric, from a hypocrit heart view point……..i say this sincerely for sake that you do not turn towards the hypocrisy heart Jesus spoke of which cajoled Jesus even while apon the cross with Mary weeping while kneeling before him, not able to leave his side, of what HEAVEN is, constant of feeling LOVED and LOVING
blessed are the tears of the blessed Child of God YOU
bless you forever more
bless you
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since few days the shell in the Andy blog was working my mind…and now the Rosie blog … it is a big agency of communication for artists or stasr in NY…
the door of blessed Self is open to ALL, for this generation and generations yet to come, to work together in expanding apon the truth wisdoms BEing written in the Book of Life, of at ease likeminded humble student mentality ONEness with ONE another and others, ALL of God’s summoning ALL to wisdom of safe passage for mankind to come fully into cognitive awareness knowingness certainty of the Kindom of Heaven within YOU and all around YOU, which ALL subconsciously are seeking ‘unknowingly’, knowingly for those who dwell within the sacred halo with Jesus, God and others there, of ‘only love’ devoid of doubt between Jesus, God and ALL who come to dwell within the sacred wise halo of truth wisdom macro thinking of blessed truth, where truth is not able to fail as truth is pure(thought), not impure(thought).
ALL are from LOVE and it is thru LOVE which ALL enter into constant cognitive awareness knowingness certainty of the Kingdom of Heaven within and all around YOU forever more, of blessed SAME DAY every DAY, constantly radiant brilliant vibrant bright warmth of exceeding joyfulness, constant like the SUN, always shining.
blessings to all
bless you
shut up Andy!!, you have a machin for writting this fast food of light… you write many many miles of bullshit because your computeur if full of this kind of letter… there is no merit, i think… i m going to walk my dog because my gog is calling me…xx
Romeo lost his awareness connection with blessed Self within?
not possible
nor is it possible to lose the awareness connection with blessed Self of another, just as it is not possible to lose awareness connection of blessed Self within, however submerged, the blessed Self is constant in yearning listening(feeling) at all times, albeit, great are the numerous distractions, seemingly impossible for blessed Self to come fully into constant congnitive awareness knowingness certainty of the Kingdom of Heaven, as though a fat man thru the eye of a needle….indeed, it is that difficult……a result of the lacking of generational wise embracing of encouragement, motivation, determination, dedication, and steadfast devoted diligence to overcome what (yet) grips tightly and plaques the world since the beginning, cause of all the world problems, the ‘Crucial Lacking of Sincere Desire for Wisdom’ for sake of our own blessed children none the less.
where are your sincere true spiritual leaders?
you cast only your blessed Self out of Heaven eric, unable to distract or discourage those of true sincerity of heart, mind, body, spirit and soul……..again, sincere fair warning for those who’s WILL is deminshed, of those last to enter
where are your sincere true spiritual leaders?
calling God’s words bullshit?
ok fine eric, turn to the hypocrisy of hell voids devoid of love in your heart eric………your choice………..not mine………you will not find ‘me’ where untruthfulness is allow to thrive and grow within
someone is pretending to be me, posting last two messages under my name, sound’s like andrew,
there’s only one ROMEO, ME !
( the Roman cAnDy aLiEn )
owch naughty roman’s killing Jesus like they did, just wait till he comes back to kick you reincarnated ass.. Pontius Pilate..
oooooooo……Romeoooooooo!!!!!!!!!
there you are!!!!!!!!!!
mmmmmmmmmmmmm
hold ‘me’
i miss you
i love you
perhaps Jesus will come back incognito, anonymously manipulating the matrix connectedness between all souls of today and yet unborn, by means of wise understanding of purity truth awareness knowingness within of blessed Self, exact sameness of all the truth aspects of blessed Self of ALL children of God True Real Self, and utilizing what Jesus and his true and faithful friends fully embrace 100% and understand about the pure truth of affect/effect/direct/indirect connectedness between Jesus(only of wise pure thoughts connectedness) and the heart, mind, body, spirit and soul of all blessed Self, where the key to understanding fully in awareness, is the ‘Exact Sameness’ of pure truth words of wisdom(omnipotence) and purity love emotion one easily comes into awareness of blessed Self those of you are aware of thru your sincere loving approach with blessed Self using meditation and relaxing technigues which open wide the soul?
mayBE
in case anyone is wondering, i really despise wasting precious precious time engaging in useless absurd bitterness of words which speak against God, where God is omnipotent of all your emotions, thoughts and your entire lives from beginning to end, that of all paths of fate, that of all chosen paths of destiny of those who turn to truth within they are 100% of awareness of about blessed Self, of why i push forward into ease of open discussion like i do, prodding those of sincere zeal like my own to also BE of fearlessness of what i know is true of blessed Self of all of us, when of correct encouraging enviroment and empowerment.
thanks, but no thanks for your shortness of damning words which feel like poison to ‘me’, unloving bitter taste you leave take delight in leaving ‘me’ feeling, knowing it does when you do.
i simply will not tolerate any further absurdness any more in life from those of you of these useless cajoling and enticing ‘me’ into unloving debate which seperates, going the wrong direction.
Like Jesus said, “Beware of those who seek to cajole and entice you, fueling fire within you, and later pointing at you in further mockery of you, like those of the delight of emptiness void of the hypocrisy heart, of foul bittern taste and smell(feeling), instead of the turning towards the storehouse of goodness within and bringing forth goodness of love.”
i have always dispised empty mean spiritedness so obviously deliberate, frustrating and confusing for the blessed Self, those of bully mental abuse, like my ex, who found out the truth that Andy truly does not enjoy it, as i walked away to somewhere else on the road of life with others who make me feel loved, like Romeo so obviously does…………sameness is the KEY to the Kingdom of Heaven of loving likemindedness.
i don’t claim to know everything, and i certainly hope i don’t come across like that(egotistic?), rather i am what i keep saying i KNOW i am, a humble student of Jesus and God, ever of open mind to learning, of sincere zeal of that of a seeker who turns within to feel the subtle emotional honesty truth lessons of the blessed Self within, writing down what is there, for sake of understanding my Self better, able to cope better with the world which has tossed me around for decades like it has……..im just tired of that approach with those of aimlessness delight of their empty feeling mean spiritedness.
anyway……….whatever eric……..don’t expect me to engage in conversation with you again, if you are not of sincere loving approach with ‘me’, as i have better things to do with my precious time, like spend it with those who are genuinely loving of ‘me’, constant in my feeling loved by them, of what we all subconsciously seek, some of you congnitively of wise seeker like my Self, like i know M is.
blessed are those who seek, for you shall find the kingdom of heaven
bless you
ya, that’s is a blessing Madonna and her brother talking again, for both of them in trueness of loving feelings restored to what they originally were with one another, is it not?
truly, a blessing for both, for all, true of us all
bless you
Argentina?
Paraguay i ‘think’
ya, spiritually she is at times in Paraguay, in the hearts of those there of sincere prayer like ‘that’ of the sincere prayers of Madonna, sincere like the prayers of Jesus, whom God listens to.
blessed are those of sincere prayer, where the sincere pure loving blessed Self is the ONE praying, sincere like Jesus.
when of prayer, ask God to hear your prayers, like God does of the sincere prayers of Jesus, which opens wide the soul of blessed Self into a higher platitude of subtle emotional awareness of surrendering to the many numerous pure truth aspects blessed Self which we come fully into awareness by means of our feelings, of what is sight restored to the soul of blessed self to fearlessly BE the aspects of blessed Self………….eventually, some of you have along road ahead of you till you reach SAME DAY awareness knowingness certainty of the Kingdom of Heaven YOU within and all around you.
i KNOW Madonna KNOWS.
bless you
hola!!!!!!!!!!!
😀 😀
i met someone who is in love with ‘me’ and i do love her, of heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, however; the purity love i sense with you is more pure, and of greater focus for ‘me’, which i know would be the healtiest conducive environment for ‘me’ to BE of if ever a chance for us to BE TOGETHER
😀 😀
i love you
like you love ‘me’
bless you
i want to marry you forever more
she is a 33 year old virgin female Venezuala University student graduate in psychology who is constantly of loving encouragement(platonic friend) with ‘me’, wants to marry ‘me’, assisting in open likemindedness and sincere zeal in writting the Book of Life, my choice of her as a loving friend.
i feel it is 100% of God that i met her, for sake of the nurturing protective way she is for ‘me’, which i know you too are of sincere approach, more so than i am aware of, as regards to the extent of your approach with ‘me’.
please, i want to only BE of the sincere respectful purity love i KNOW you are of, profoundly so, our awareness knowingness i continue to speak of which i know you too are of from meditation and your wisdom in Kaballa.
the body of work of the Book of Life is my main objective in life, which is a life long endeavor of mine till my last days on earth, which i want to leave public available on the internet world wide in all written languages free for ALL to read, where the main concern is the conducive correct environments which are 100% feeling loved and loving at all times, which i know about you.
there is extensive macro thinking awareness which i have not spoken of yet with you which i know is of help for any who are keen in nurturing and protection of self-actualization, of both the findings in psychology and the overlapping alignment of pure truth wisdom words found in theology, a body of work which i do feel is of God(the Book of Life), as regards to safe passage of future generations in bringing an end to all the horrid unwise generational teachings which continue to be taught to innocent souls born into unwise households.
i want to have a family, and so does she.
interestingly, she too is bisexual like ‘me’, and without doubt, i know you would love her like i do, as one who truly is of purity love virgin spirit like our own, where only those who know the awareness of such, are able to recognize those who are also of self awareness platitudes like our own, fearlessly so like we are.
i have not commited to anything other than the pure spiritual relationship of encouraging macro thinking understanding i am with her, where we are discovering more and more connections of wisdoms daily.
this is a life time body of work, of life time patience of no time constraint spiritual realm of unchallenging truth that cross thru all time, albeit, time is running out in continuation of the work where i am a part of it, where future generations can pick up where we leave off after we are gone from this world.
i approach you sincerely of my yet sincere purity love i am of you and always will be, of my sincere desire to know the extent of your loving soul like my own, which i feel would be unfair to us both should we not take time to truly come fully into awareness of one another of our sacred love within, which you know fully, i too am of likeness like your own.
with that said, i leave it to your discretion and lead as to direction of the road ahead for us both, wishing you what i know we both are constantly of yearning for, to constantly feel loved and loving at all times with a most loving lover like we are.
i realize i have emotional issues to work thru, unstable somedays, yet i am of full addressing of the issues one must do, knowing fully how unresolved issues both past(healing) and present(addressing our wants and needs), which you can take comfort and confidence in know, truly i am
i know without doubt, a conducive environment with you would be excellent for me to thrive and grow in, yet i fear perhaps i am not healthy enough for you as regards to the level that perhaps would be healthier for you in selection of partner, and yet, i know in time i would be, and will be, of my surrendering to professionals in continued work which i am commited to now, for the next five years, or longer of my desire to do so, as my awareness is of my own growth thus far of doing so.
i don’t want to hold you back from loving life perhaps of another, and respect our spiritual friendship, abeit, i have been rather forward with you on this blog for some time, knowing the day will come when i am not here like i am, respectful of you and those you love to be of spending time of blessed loving life together, where you happiness is of the greatest priority to ‘me’ and those you love, as well as my own happiness, a future of occassional visits with you being the norm.
i want to be open with you at this time, fearing your selection of someone else, where at times i emotional feel the twinge of uncertainty between accepting my place in life as a true and faithful spiritual friend, and that of my wanting you as a partner.
i pray you appreciate my open honesty with you at this time, and sincerely trust that i do want you as my partner in life, fearing i may not be healthy enough for you at this time, which i feel you are of reflection of in your descerning.
i am accepting of any and all of your decisions, of loving light heartness as one who is sincerely loving of you, wanting merely to get to know you more, of the purity love i sense about you, and of your perhaps desiring me like i do you, where i feel it is fair to us both to find out once and for all, of time spent together in doing so.
i feel we are more alike than we realize, as far as personality and depth of soul, our sincere preference of delight of calm and gracefulness unlike most others.
i have to speak with you openly, wanting you to know this day, i truly want you as a life long partner, without doubt, i know i do, in my sincere awareness of emotional honesty that is profound for me, where you are concerned.
please realize fully, i am seeking a conducive environment which has nothing to do with wealth and indeed, if the environment with you is not what i pray it is, healthily so, i won’t stay, and i don’t care about your wealth, and i know you don’t either, of your sincere desire for real.
i know we would be an excellent team together in life of likeminded projects, which is forthmost of my heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, knowing you too are of the sincere zeal like my own in revealing truth for the world to lovingly embrace as regards the blessed Self.
you know i truly would be of exceeding happiness everyday with you, which i try to avoid feeling, avoidance of getting my hopes up only to be let down.
i have been gradually letting go, not so much out of feeling rejected, rather, i have concluded that purity love research of blessed Self is above the boundaries language, status, wealth, race, religion, sex, orientation, language or politic………..without doubt.
i pray my words with you encourages trust for you, should you be of reflection like my own as regards our future in life, where at times i feel you want to let go, fearing your hurting me, where i want you to know, i am ok, and i do feel loved by someone who truly does love ‘me’ like the ‘me’ of you, of ‘me’, blessedly so.
i like the words of Rosie today………participate in life(living in the NOW).
living in the NOW is the constant feelings of feeling loved and loving, and indeed, is of purity love heavenly feelings.
without doubt, i will always keep myself open to you for the rest of my life, so don’t ever doubt that i won’t, of your purity love like my own, good for ‘me’, nurturing, protective, welcomed.
bless you
without doubt in KNOW i love you, and i want to go the distance with you, however long, of your discretion, your lead, i just need to know if you are of continued desire, that’s all, seemingly you are, knowing i am.
😀 😀
bless you forever more
peace be to this house forever more
peace be to you forever more
bless you bless you bless you forever more
She must be fed-up with that tour by now?
surely only Madonna or someone who knows her well could say something like that?
mayBE
you must love ‘me’
that is so true for us to feel what HEAVEN is, for without someone loving us, we do not feel loved, we do not feel blessed love of HEAVEN, what we all subconsciously seek to always BE found of, of what is pure and true of blessed Self, ‘that’ of where we all came from, ultimately to always BE found of LOVE forever more.
In HEAVEN, love devoid of doubt surrounds for as far as the eye can see, constantly in feeling at all times, without wondering if it is true, without hestitation, rather of what does not change, of why SAME DAY is always the SAME DAY……….TRUTH of the aspects of blessed self forever more, ……..constantly TRUE
where TRUTH does not change, is not able to change.
blessed are those of awareness knowingness TRUTH of the aspects of blessed Self, for truly you KNOW what HEAVEN constantly is, by means of your feelings, constantly feeling loved and loving.
who does not want ‘that’?
blessings to you and those you love forever more
blessed is the SAME DAY of HEAVEN, of what we look for has already come.
blessed blessed blessed
bless you
That tour has gone on FOREVER!
I’ve run out of stuff to say …
I think everyone is flagging.
normal, and actually a good thing, in that they feel more like everyone in the audience, sameness, no ego, all of us the same fun loving students who came thru the same schools of thought, sighing, yawning, flagging…………
“You there on the horse, hold the flag out to the side abit more so that the flag does not get caught up in the wings…………….” :mregreen:
say whatever you want, whenever you want, however you want, whyever you want, with and of whoever you want, Just BEing your Self living in the NOW as YOU each blessed day of SAME DAY loving feelings every day forever more
we are pure and blessed when we are of our true purity love feelings which feel so good for us, the grace, the delicateness, the calm, the at ease of smiling faces delightful and true aspects of the peaceful loving by nature blessed Self while of our natural at rest state, which is not of any of the useless stress of the world, nor do we like the useless stress.
i feel like i am walking around in one giant prison, so bizzarre is the feeling, where i don’t feel many are of the priority for purity love blessed knowingness of the trueness aspects of blessed Self, nor even of QUESTioning it in open at ease searching, other than perhaps the students enrolled in mental health education of the study of the human condition, which i feel there is no greater reward in life for Self than coming to better understanding one’s own blessed Self, beyond value, beyond time.
if one is not of awareness knowingness of the purity love aspects of blessed Self, how does one live a blessed life not knowing?
easy, just jump on the back of the horse with Andy, who will gladly of exceeding delight, show you how!
sounds like someone is itching for new projects?
mayBE
the never ending story of joyful fun loving blessed Self of us ALL forever more……………………
Madonna we love you http://www.surroundsounddj.com
hmmmm……..if one feels second best by another, and another makes them feel best, then there is no such thing as second best…………
when you are madly passionate for someone of your mind, you simply are
there is no ignoring it
you either are, or you are not people, where there are no making excuses or hiding the truth from your self or self of another
not to pull punches with anyone, rather a mere truth wisdom observation i have of the truthful passionate lover Self ‘me’
Romeo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol
I just got fired for being me,
now i have more time to be me
where’s my pen amd paper i have much to write about
well…..don’t feel so bad.
my therapist says i have to terminate my desire of all internet communications time which are dangerously distracting me from getting my wants and needs met in the world, dangerously so that the risk of my own suicide is approaching, as a result of not taking responsibility for my blessed Self.
with that said, i am off to the spa to get my needs met, with complete strangers, no name, casual sex………..at least it is warmer than the reception i am getting on the internet…………..real life people, i am running to, where you WILL find ‘me’, according to my professional therapist, not this bullshit fantasy internet, which leaves me alone each night, painful of the reality check of neglect.
but hey, don’t lose any sleep of Andy, as odds are he will likely die from exposure to the cold before anyone actually is sincere in giving a fuck……….motherfuckers, fuck off.
i am drunk, and i am tired of making excuses for all your sorry asses ever again, running back to my gay life style, where at least i am warmly embraced, even if of a complete stranger with no name.
it is a dangerous time for Andy, and i really don’t care any more, what with Madonna spending millions to do what ever with who ever, and Andy left to his own accord of life, where Andy actually felt she gave a damn about him, so obviously not, according to the professionals who are steering him clear of danger………so much for praying real, fuck off, all of you.
i am done with your neglectful painful insulting ways, which i tolerated for how fucking long?
stupid of me to stay as long as i have.
i am no longer going to do any more internet which distracts me from getting my needs met in real time, real life.
thanks for the honest effort…………….NOT!
oh oh, here come the motherfucking heartless flamers……………to throw gasoline on Andy and set him ablaze, like fucked up Andy needs any further horrid neglect from any of you sorry ass motherfucking idiots……fuck off, and stay away from me with your insulting ways forever more.
thank you
in real life, we eventually find out who are real friends are, and who are not………………
a year of casual sex……….ya, why not.
enjoy your close proximity to Madonna Alex, fucking heartless fuckheads………who do not even make the list of friendship with ‘me’
and if anyone wants to ever contact me, do it in person.
in the ‘mean’ time, go enjoy your life like you continue to do, without Andy
apparently Madonna wants Alex to live in the neighborhood of her new life in New York, fine, see if i give a fuck, as i no longer do not.
it is your life, i just thought perhaps Andy was someone special to you………..clearly and obviously not.
take care
Jesus loves ALL God loves ALL We love ALL
God blesses ALL………eventually
blessings to all of you of real life
bless you
you two are so obvious and you do not care or consider others like you do.
i try to rap my head around a man who fathers a child, and within weeks of his own child being born, he is off with another woman?
what the fuck is that?
fucked up, that’s what.
[http://www.nydailynews.com/gossip/2008/12/09/2008-12-09_madonna_on_alex_rodriguezs_home_team.html]
i have no respect for either of you now
God to God for your answers, as i do not have any.
scathing to say the least……….
il manque un verre de vin et je suis de nouveau faché, c’ est terrible…bonne nuit
hi
😦 😦
that girl from south america on the internet, she pretended she was you for two months with me, tricked me into feeling it was you i was chatting with thru email, i will sent it all to you eventually in a word document………….i am so fucked up right now i do not know which way is up.
i despise the fact she did this, and i am unwilling to trust her, part of my terminating my unhealthy internet time i am dealing with right now.
the truth comes out eventually, and all i want is the fucking truth.
if you cannot be that with me, then join the rest who likewise are and have been untruthful.
from now on, i am being truthful with Andy, and without doubt, i am going to BE real!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i agree, don’t do internet relationships which leave you alone without a hand to hold.
i don’t trust any of you now, and unless you are of real world with me, i will not allow myself to trust the internet again, where even you betrayed me playing the role of Matt, thinking it was theraputic for me, messing me up even further if you must know.
my therapist said i am dangerously at a point past no return, so if you chose not to embrace my mental emotional fucked upness, then don’t………not a real friend to me in life, thinking you actually gave a sweet fuck for me, so obviously you don’t……….you have no idea how bad i have hit the ground, clueless, after my being there for you like i was for so long, completely drained i am now, no nurturing from anyone, no hand to hold, so cold……………
i may return, i may not, after i sober up……….forgive me, i am still an alcoholic who occasionally falls, you would too if you were me.
i am not doing any more guessing games with you……….get real or go do whatever or who ever without someone who genuinely loves you, and you know i do.
point of no return……..return to what?
more hollow feelings of feeling like a friend in real life of no REAL person there?
ya, a real friend…………………………………….and i just love being alone, ya right……………you people have astound me, if you must know……………all bullshit dumping ground of unreal is what internet chat is, of say what you want unreality, still i am, having not ever met Madonna, nor does it appear she actually will………….
who was Andy anyway?
obviously some lunatic who thought he was her muse………….
obviously i have something wrong with me. Therapist said it is of pattern behaviour, that stems from my high school years, unresolved(unhealed) past issues, where clearly, alcohol and Andy do not mix well.
not a good time for me right now, and for awhile, my therapist digging thru my old stuff in therapy, detox from split, on an on the list of things i am addressing
take care people and happy safe holidays
rant over
SAY NO to Alcohol
it is not to say no to the Alcohol but yes to to truth of the art : a brasserie without alcohol it is a fake brasserie… and yes to the fake bags of Vuitton when all is fake… the picture is a collaboration to the aseptique or ascetism world : no alcohol, no sex, no drugs… but real money, it is my point of view and M is enough rich or to say no of this kind project or to say yes … i see just the fear against the alcohol associations in the world… her father has vignobles , isn’ it ? ok
her voice when she says get stupid means nothing without ethic
“i try to rap my head around a man who fathers a child, and within weeks of his own child being born, he is off with another woman?”
Yeah, I wondered about that too. The guy seems like an immature idiot.
I just saw the clip of the live show from Buenos Aires.. Oh man that was beautiful.. I cried.. I wish I was there.. What love..
i am an idiot at times too, unfocused, where without doubt, alcohol really is a bad idea one hour after a therapy session, self medicating like i did yesterday, getting drunk after talking about old painful issues i have to grieve some more, go thru it, not around it, as it does yet plaque me. I also have past issues of a teen who’s sense of security was stripped away from me when his parents split, and the family home i grew up in was taken away from us by the bank, something i never did deal with rebuilding my self-esteem, coping this way or that of pattern behavioural modification i have to deal with once and for all, putting to rest my occasional drinking for example, of obvious reasons, yes? i get more than just stupid with alcohol………………….
Champion race horses have certain personalities, particularily the stallions in a field with his mares, a dangerous place i once found myself in, as the Stallion attempted to kill me, kicking and biting as i took off on my horse to save my own life, while of my living and loving my experience of living on a ranch in Tennessee back in ’84.
Champion stallions like to be in the lime light center of attention? mayBE
please forgive my momentary lapse yesterday, where i will not make excuses for myself again, Andy cannot drink one hour after his therapy session……….obviously!
LOVE indeed butterfly, so moving the pureness of love of the voices of exceeding joy, yes?
one can eventually come fully into feeling that way all the time, and that is the objective, however difficult, it is possible thru applied wisdom, where truly i feel there is a mystery yet to be unveiled as to the macro thinking wisdom halo, which i am still researching with others, of my hope to reveal the findings to all, as the power of human mind, when everything is in proper alignment, where yet to organize all the writtings of the truth wisdom findings of blessed Self, which allows one to constantly feel the blessed purity of love Self feels while of meditative approach all the time, not just while of meditation, yesterday a clear example of what happens when one gives way to unfocused thought and emotional junk while of intoxication like i was, my pattern of pity parties i occasionaly hold……immaturity yet of my old Self learned behavioural traits i am trying to rid my True Real Self of.
blessed truth
bless you Madonna bless you
Champion stallions like to be in the lime light center of attention?
i was not refering to ‘me’ when i said that, albeit, ‘deferring’ to ‘me’ ?
oh hey, that was a good one, yes?
Romeo?!!!!!!!!!!!
forgive me
i love you
wow…….i read about the show in Argentina…….that was truly a powerful show with the rain, lightening, thunder, and crowd cheering, yes?
and Madonna feeling blessed pure love connectedness within of her true real blessed Self and blessed Self of all those chanting?
for me, that is what is most significant about the artist Madonna, where nurturing the trueness aspects of the true real blessed Self within and of another and others, is of God’s divine WILL, where i 100% believe, that is what HEAVEN is, and without doubt, while of feeling our moments of purity love shared connectedness of sameness pure flowing love between, our feelings tell us, yes, this is what HEAVEN is, feeling loved and loving.
of course, even while i may be of fearless cognitive awareness knowingness of such and writting about it like i do, i am yet struggling in how to maintain this feeling constantly at all times with a loving lover, because of my own pattern behavioural traits i picked up along life’s road of why i am in therapy, mostly of choice, albeit, of court order as well.
blessings to all who who’s blessed life finds them beside who i feel is the most pure loving soul i have come across on life’s road, as i am aware of the solid purity love stillness Madonna is of awareness within of, and is truly what my focused approach with her is of most desire to maybe one day be found of while of her presence someday, praying we get to meet, provided the reasons we meet are of the sameness purity love feelings we both are of when we do, of obvious reasons why we may eventually choose to meet, a dream i have had since the beginning.
bless you ALL at tonights concert
“Oh, HEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
no drinking alcohol while of swimming in Rio everyone……..very dangerous. thank you
bless you
it is Rio, where the big cross statue of Jesus up in the mountains, is it not?
what a blessed sight that must be while of morning sunrise.
that and a most loving lover’s lips to kiss good morning of course, of cool morning air, the feeling of love surrounding at all times, the blessed still calm graceful feelings of Self entralled to be of holding their lover’s hand of waking to another blessed day of love……….again and again and again, the same day every day forever more…………..
at least my dreamy thoughts are 100% in the correct direction(mostly), even while not of living my life’s dream……..yet.
i know what HEAVEN is, do you?
time seems to stand still of true real blessed Self when of trueness feelings of our Self-actualized Self Just BEing our Self.
i opened my old diary recently, that i wrote when i was seeing Troy, tears flowing, when i came to the page of a rainbow and blue satin piece of fabric i removed from the Madonna’s clown outfit that i reproduced and wore one time, as i read the words on the page Dec. 23, 1993, that haunt me to this day of Troy’s spirit, where on that day, no had yet told me the news yet, erriely so are the words, “i fear Troy may not return to me again.”………seemingly, i knew, but how?………….
working thru it in therapy, painful, but necessary.
forgive me M
bless you
Louise:
Will you be blogging again soon…. Your presence is missed!
if one knows 100% what HEAVEN is, and is not, albeit, everywhere is what HEAVEN is and is not, where what is of priority is the discerning wisdom which distinguishes between, so that one may stand fully in the blessed purity love feelings of loving another and feeling loved of one who is of the sameness purity love, where teaching of this is what matters most, is it not?
thru word, art, music, and most of all, leading by example of the exceeding joyful Self especially when of what HEAVEN is between their joyful soul and another.
with that said, i realize, without doubt, what HEAVEN is has already come, is here right now, always was, and always will BE, where one becomes of the certainty awareness knowingness of what HEAVEN feels like all around us, of each blessed second of each day we wake to, of our feelings we feel living in the NOW, however that may feel for us, where when one feels blessed purity love 100% of another for us, we are of what awareness knowingness of what HEAVEN is, and NOW is the time for Andy to write songs about it.
what?
you did not know i was a song writter?
i compose music scores, so ya, i guess lyric writting is easily of something to do to pass my time, yes?
ya, i will post ya some lyrics soon for you to play around with in adding, changing………just don’t expect me to get the spelling correct, ok? i flunk English, remember? Twice!
i miss you i love you bless you
i will write the lyrics first, music score second, with priorty focus on the lyrics, where lyrics can work with most any music score later.
capturing the feeling of purity love stillness is what i want to achieve, of how that feels as one looking outward apon the hustle bustle rat race of aimless souls who are not of priority of what HEAVEN is within(albeit subconsciously seeking, hoping of the submerged child within), where words can awaken them, nurture, and offer words of protective truth, something you do well in song writting M.
let’s take it to the next level of 100% awareness knowingness of what HEAVEN is, as i am not going anywhere other than where and what HEAVEN is for me each waking moment of each blessed day, knowing how i genuinely feel within, amazingly so, the tender delicate grace of my true blessed child of God True Real Self standing there, completely free now from the critical others.
YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i just need to learn to stop beating myself up…… lol
Now THAT’s a lot of people:
You really wouldn’t want to be stood at the back.
was i really that egotistical?
i know i was, but in a fun way, was i not, not in a mean way.
in retrospect, in truth, i meant no one any harmful mean spirited belittling(self-esteem bashing), where if i did knock anyone, i feel it was usually for sake of revealing something they need to address, for their own sake, of whatever it was, did i not?
ok, i too have my bad hair days of tripping over my Self, so what, at least i know my blessed Self more so than most, and i am appreciative of my vulnerable, sensitive, delicate, tender, mild, gentle, calm, peaceful, joyful, oh so fun loving, “can we have sex again?!!!!! please!!!!!!!”, blessed loving lover Self.
lol
discerning of what HEAVEN is and is not, is what i am
i am……..BE Cause………We are discerning of what HEAVEN is and is not
blessings to all
bless you
do feel the glowing within of blessed purity love growing?
the ‘constant aspect’ is of required wise diliberate approach if one is to maintain always of BEing what HEAVEN is, which does require the blessed True Real Self of self-actualization to come forth and Just BE of our many ‘trueness aspects’ of blessed Self, especailly our ‘fearless aspect’ to Just BE our SELF.
with practice with those of likeminded awareness knowingness certainty of what HEAVEN is, Just BEing our constant loving and loved blessed Self of priority #1, we eventually BEcome constant of what HEAVEN is……YOU
Rio must be nice. I’d like to go to Rio. A bit rough, though. Good surfing.
rough as in the mentalities of those who dwell there and vacation there, or rough as in the ocean surf?
no matter where we go, there are always those of the lacking of awareness knowingness certainty of what HEAVEN is, which for me, as a true free spirit of one who has lived the many various lives, from business man, bin there, done that, not again, to the artist, which i should of followed in the first place apon leaving high school, i realize the path on my road of life leads up till now, where i have come fully into awareness knowingness of what HEAVEN is and is not of my blessed self-actualized Self, albeit, still working thru issues, i am of what i feel is the most vital crucial milestone, of PRIORITY of what HEAVEN is, and the discerning of how one develops a correct approach in maintaining the awareness knowingness certainty of my purity love feelings in constantly feeling loved and loving at all times(i said developing, as i am not yet grounded in fullness of the applied wisdoms, but at least i am focused and turned towards the direction of Heaven), where even if of 1% toxic element of doubt, we feel………..well………..1% toxic, where it is not always of others at times, and indeed of our own negativity within, albeit, rooted in transference from others, like this morning, i walked into a toy store, thinking of my own kids i want to have someday, and the lady was like, all nasty, “Excuse me sir, you can’t bring that coffee in here!”, as i turned, “Whatever!” and walked out. Had i been dressed in my Hugo Boss she would of treated me different, another indicator of the status wealth bullshit of mentalities for me to embrace fully, of people so caught up in what is not true of the blessed Self within, 100% of no desire of such……….scary these souls are to me at times.
i’d like to go to Rio…………with YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
you forgot the words ‘with YOU’
just trying to help, don’t mind ‘me’………no wait…………mind ‘me’
my therapist asked me to make a list of goals.
I replied instantly, “Ushering in the Kingdom of Heaven priority # 1 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol
she loves me, and is of faith like mySelf, knowing i can speak of such things, which is integral actually of my knowingness awareness certainty of what i feel HEAVEN is, of the word HEAVEN being the only word appropriate in describing the purity love delicate feelings so calm and centered while of the bridal chamber with Jesus, God, and those of our joyful understanding of those who dwell there like we do while of our meditative telepathic awareness.
huh?
am i the only one who is aware of our telepathic clarivoyance ability? It is my favorite area of study, which i am still writting about how one is able to enter into the telepathic mode subtle pure awareness, which i started documenting back in 1994.
goals……….hmmmmmmm…………end all starvation on the planet…………..end all war on the planet…………….bring all souls of earth FULLY into awareness knowingness certainty of what HEAVEN is…………YOU
blessings to all
bless you
Jesus loves ALL God loves ALL We love ALL
God blesses ALL forever more
bless you
To BE of Rio is to BE of ‘me’ !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
to BE or not to BE!
she loves ‘me’, she loves ‘me’ not, she loves ‘me’, she loves ‘me’ not, she loves ‘me’, she loves ‘me’ not, she loves ‘me’, she loves ‘me’ not, she loves ‘me’, she loves ‘me’ not, she loves ‘me’, she loves ‘me’ not, she loves ‘me’, she loves ‘me’ not, she loves ‘me’, she loves ‘me’ not, she loves ‘me’, she loves ‘me’ not, she loves ‘me’, she loves ‘me’ not, she loves ‘me’, she loves ‘me’ not,
“OHHHHHHHHH, SHE LOVES ‘me’ !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”
always did?
always WILL?
always WILL.
always
“Where it is yOUR WILLINGNESS which is of most importance, and not the size of the gift, where the WILLINGNESS to BE LOVING and FEEL LOVED is what HEAVEN is.”
forever more
thank you Jesus
thank you God
thank you ALL who are of their WILLINGNESS to BE LOVING and FEEL LOVE of what HEAVEN is
bless you Jesus bless you
peace BE to this house forever more
peace BE to YOU
blessings to ALL
bles you bless you bless you
forever more
always we are of the road of life of eternal forever safe passage of mankind for all eternity, are we not?
i remain optimistic, inspite of the obviousness of the many aimless souls sadly snared by the unwiseness teachings of the forefathers before us all, where in truth, Jesus knew 100%, “They do not know, forgive them God, all these precios innocent souls born into the yet unwise world who are not yet of the priority of what HEAVEN is, sadly not yet of 100% awareness knowingness certainty of what HEAVEN CONSTANTLY is………..YOU”
bless you ALL
bless you
oh, you were talking about surfing the net!
you like the images i found?
ok……..back to song writting…………
opening song starts out with a soft gentle increasing in sound striking of strings of a sustained note, which is of feeling time slowing and stopping, of one who is entering into the Kingdom of Heaven, an ushering of sorts in welcoming feelings, of the knowingness we are of certainty of within that we sit with, such as, “oh yeah, this is how i am, this is how i want to always feel, tenderness of hand reaching out to hold mine forever more, of the surrendering of lover self to lover self of another of the blessed surrendering feelings one feels while of feeling thru what ‘Same Day is Every Day’, true love feeling of our subconscious yearning/seeking, becoming conscious cognitive awakeness of prayers being answered of the one who appears before us just standing there holding out their hand to us, themselves of fully surrendered love for us, making us feel loved forever more.
still with me? 😯 lol
~ andy and is imagination ~
“Hey, this is real for ‘me’……….keep up will ya?!!!!!!!!
i love you bless you
here, like the opening repetitive notes of this song;
the striking of the strings as a summoning of the future assuredness feeling to it, does it not?
forget the rest of the song, albeit a great song, i am referring to the summoning feeling, ding, ding, ding, ding, ding, ding, like time slowing and stopping to 100% certainty knowingness, like a door one steps thru………finally……….our entire lives subconsciously seeking for what was always of us within, in the first place, having come from love, returning THRU LOVE, where we have to surrender fully to our OWN FEELINGS completely, do we not, in allowing our SELF to BEing 100% CONSTANT of our blessed LOVING FEELINGS, yes?
i look an an entire album as an opportunity to take the soul of someone from uncertain subconscious yearning/seeking thru to the end of the album up thru gradual building in certainty of feeling, growing in brilliance of the brightness of joyfulness, like that of the song ‘Ray of Light’, where the entire album is of deliberate spiritual intention for sake of the listener, and not the usual uncertain unknowingness plodding along aimlessness of most musicians who clearly are not fully of awareness knowingness certainty of what HEAVEN in feeling for them, albeit, the do tickle at the trueness aspects of the blessed Self which is of constant yearning within to always BE of their feelings of LOVE.
still with ‘me’?
are you listening to ‘me’ Romeo?
Romeo?
i love you
don’t leave me to feel like you are uninterested, as i will leave for someone else Romeo.
i love you, you know i do.
what we look for has already come, and we are all standing in the doorway of our own blessed soul, which our awareness knowingness reveals the ‘constant aspect’ of our blessed self, that indeed, the doorway of blessed self is indeed of our 100% constant yearning to 100% constantly BE of FEELING LOVED and LOVING(eventually), where until one complete fearlessly surrenders 100% to to the blessed FEELINGS of our blessed SELF, then we are yet of uncertainty, are we not?
which is the objective, to come free of uncertainty, so in that light, the summoning of strings of, “Oh hey, i really am standing in the doorway of greeting and surrendering in allowing my own blessed Self to constantly 100% BE of surrendered loving spirit of love for another and others at all times.”
si?
si
oh, sorry, this song, the opening summoning of the constant striking of the opening strings;
[http://www.imeem.com/gavinrossdale/video/fwCPVNvA/gavin_rossdale_love_remains_the_same_music_video/]
indeed, LOVE REMAINS the same with in us ALL, sameness, like Bill Clinton says, we need to embrace what is of SAMENESS, not our indifferences.
i love Bill Clinton, always did.
i wanted to see him here during one of his dinner gathering motivational speaking seminars…….too expensive for me at the time, albeit, my priorities at the time were different than today.
HEY!!!!!!!!!!
“are we on the same page?”
i would love to meet Gavin someday, picturing myself holding his hand on his sofa, tenderly, lovingly, of him saying, “Andy, let go of my hand!!!!!”
butt, butt, butt………..i love you Gavin!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol
argh! this whole bisexual thing has me spinning around and around unable to settle for just ONE, knowing i have to and yearn to eventually, of a soulmate lover friend………………….
he reminds me of Mike from my youth…………..
of course i am still listening, i understand everything you know…
yes writing lyric’s that connect the sleeping child within in \the audience is that not the true purpose of every artist, where by the subtle clues that are hidden in the lyric’s , maybe not even hidden but disguised to the ego, and open and obvious to the subconscious truly awakening the spirit to the truth & light.
Such as Jesus spoke in parables so by using simple story’s and verses he was able to invoke the interest and curiosity without his followers being disinterested through complexes yet at the same time his teachings also had a higher meaning ( a spiritual level of understanding) that invoked & stimulated the subconscious mind & spirit bringing the true meaning of creation to those interested in the knowledge and understanding of them SELVES.
Being in tune with all is truly a wonderful state of awareness, communicating through all level’s is the role of the Artist, Jesus was one of the greatest Artist’s ( Jesus Christ Superstar ! ) Lol
Madonna is another,
Hey Madonna get of my Cross, Byiatch, if you wanna be nailed to anything I’ll nail you to my bed post
🙂 😉 ha ha ha
“rough as in the mentalities of those who dwell there and vacation there, or rough as in the ocean surf?”
I actually meant it’s a bit lawless, or so I hear. Well, a lot lawless. Shame.
compassionately speakin, ALL precious innocent souls when born into the unwise teachings of the forefathers which snares their souls, the truth, is it not?
Hey Louise – Candy Girl:
Hola Buenos Dias..
Your book recommendation, SHANTARAM, was one of the best reads ever.. Yestereday, I saw the movie SLUMDOG MILLIONAIRE… Wow! It really brought that book and Mombay to life for me.. If you haven’t go check it out… a beautiful movie!
Indicative of the true ‘Crucial Lacking of Desire for Wisdom’, where most any are not seeking, aimlessly plodding along in life like they do, not connected within in feeling the blessed purity love feeings of their own precious loving blessed divine child of God True Real Self, is it not?
we feel the truth of this most anywhere we go in the world, which saddens me to feel the anquish of the false mindtraps so many are unwisely of snaring in bitter dark captivities of heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, able to be released from their prisons, already in possession of the key which unlocks the chains that bind…………..the mind.
where are the blessed pure spiritual leaders of exceeding joy, of constant free flowing nurturing love and protective wisdoms of discerning awareness knowingness constant ability to remain free of the useless absurd mindtraps of the generational forefather teachings, all here with us from the entire past of mankind?
i firmly believe the oppression of the Roman empire was so great, that Jesus knew he could not bring his loving brothers and sisters out of the unwise darkness all around him, releasing them into exceeding joyfulness during the time he walked the earth, as much as he constantly yearned to do so, of a regime likely much like any wretched dictatorship which kill it’s own people for rising up and speaking up about TRUTH.
no doubt, blessed pure loving divine child of God Jesus was likely of feeling his inner joyfulness feelings, sad that the world around him at the time was not of the priority of what he felt was so joyous in feeling inside, of an entire society held hostage by the dictators of that time, of truth words he spoke of in his attempt to reveal what he was of constant awareness knowingness certainty about at all times, feeling the anquish of truth about the absurd mindtraps like we do, of our loving subtle intellect awareness reflections, sameness of ‘that’ of Jesus, do we not?
without doubt……….Jesus gave his heart to us, in surrendering to the claws of the wild beast to do what he knew they would do before they did what they did……..he knew………without doubt.
Jesus gave us his heart………in his blessed revealing of the pure undenialable truth of the wretchedness of the emptiness of snared souls, who turned away from the blessed trueness aspects of their own precious loving divine child of God True Real Self, of exceeding grace and the constant yearning to BE of feelings loved and loving at all times, where unwisely, they picked up the false unwise useless bitter generational behavioural traits of that time period, of any precious innocent soul born into the absurd teachings of the forefathers that existed then, the exact same fucked up teachings that yet grip the world today of any innocent soul born today, like the stoning of the woman in Iran for adultery, in 2006, EXACT SAME!
‘Exact Sameness’ aspect is one of the purity love truth aspects of the halo of understanding of 100% certainty assuredness which the blessed Self comes into awareness about blessed Self, when of embracing the discovery of the many aspects of blessed Self, which is what connected with Jesus is of within Jesus, within us, where the overlooked aspect of ‘Exact Sameness’, is what most are of doubt in ability to embrace about their own blessed Self, because of the fear mongering world of the false merchant of God teachers of God who claim to know God and do not, fearing the divine child within ALL, which prevents the subtle delicate free flowing blessed purity love feelings from flowing, stifled, afraid, rather than fearlessness to BE of openly feeling and expressing our pure true blessed real child of God Self, where God is not fearful, just as it is absurd to think Jesus is fearful, and far from unwise about the his own blessed child of God Self, and in so doing, in full awareness knowingness certainty of the blessed loving truth aspects of his own Self, 100% certainty of Self of ALL………….100% Exact Sameness…………without doubt.
100% Exact Sameness connectedness is what Holy Holy Holy means, and of vital understanding for safe passage for ALL of the future
Holy Jesus
Holy YOU
Holy ALL
like Bill said, we need to embrace what we have in common.
it boggles my mind, of seemingly no one seeking, of aimless souls just plodding along thru life, unaware of what HEAVEN really is, the blessed 100% pure loving feelings between you and another, of no fear whatsoever, just pure loving feelings of feeling loved and loving constantly at all times, like that of loving mother or father of their children, love devoid of doubt, blessed for the child, blessed for them as well in feeling what HEAVEN is, of our feelings which reveal the truth of what HEAVEN is, love devoid of doubt, is it not?
It is 100% true of us ALL the world over, no matter the absurd barriers of language race, religion, status, wealth, sex, orientation, or politic, which all parents can attest to.
i see the love between parents and their children all the time, feeling how blessed joyful they truly are within, of their obvious exceeding joyful outward appearance, blessed for me to feel their inner joy like i do, yearning for a family of my own someday.
i had a vision of my own son one time, of blessed pure love which moved me deeply within beyond anything i had felt before, of me saying to my son, “Only love is good enough for you in life.’
and in truth, that is how you parents feel, that love is what is most important for your kids, is it not?
so too is love only good enough for us ALL, of our conduct with one another.
sadly, there yet exists all these mindtrap barriers.
i remain optimistic, because of my own blessed purity love feelings which reveal the truth contrast of how the world is indeed snared by bitter behavioural traits, like all you motherfucking bosses who are condescending and belittling your staff like you unwise bully them, you fucktards!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 😯
it appears i am yet healing over that one…………….. lol
oh man, it’s snowing again.
is it ever going to stop snowing? all week now…………
actually i like the snow delicately falling, blanketing everything in purity white, the softness of it under graceful step, the quiteness of the blanket which absorbs the city sound, a powerful peaceful thing, snow is, yes?
i was born in the winter, so i guess i automatically connect with cold, naturally comfortable with it, of why i love to downhill ski like i do, where i would live in the mountains year round if i had it my way……………
a nice log cabin, stone fire place, five feet of snow outside, so peaceful and pleasant, where you love the warm cuddling together in front of warm fires, the hot tubs, the loving embrace of loving lovers, beit in bed, or out on the ski runs under a full moon, so tanquile and incredible is the feeling for the soul to feel how that feels, blessedly so, utter calmness and inner peace, the delicate warm smiles, hot chocolates all around……………..who does not want ‘that’?
i know what Real Loving Life Living is, having lived it for so long, where pleasant pleasant pleasant is what we are all of constant yearning of within.
hmmmm…..come to think of it, i know how to build log cabins, built a few in life.
so who’s with ‘me’?
come on, let’s go live in the mountains of BC, ski all winter, build cabins in the summer…………….this city is horrible for ‘me’, the country boy that i am
hmmm……goal # 1
what else?
a family, yes, i want to have my own family someday, for sure, ten kids, all insane like ‘me’.
lol
enough of miserable company…….i’ve had enough miserable company to last several life times……..which appears it may be several life times for many of you of the generational teachings, yes?
hello?
it appears everyone is sleeping……….shhhhhhh, don’t tell M i am here………….
hear, as in hear ‘me’, feel ‘me’, touch ‘me’……..BE of ‘me’ !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
forever more
amen
you can guess what generation i am from, yes?
finally the sunshine is out again…………..
anyway, just my take on everything everyone…….think what YOU want, not how others want you to think……
i figured out why Jesus did what he did.
he realized his own awareness knowingness certainty of unfailing truth, and in so doing, he also realized others to would come to the level of awareness knowingness certainty as well, and in retrospect, Jesus realized how long and difficult his own struggle to come free of the world was, where it is nearly impossible to do so, as he said, “like a fat man(ego) thru the eye of a needle”, where, “even 1% doubt will prevent you from entering into love devoid of doubt(about what HEAVEN is)”, where Jesus wanted to assist us all with the aspect of the element of doubt uncertainty, easily surrendering his life to the claws of the wild beast to do what he knew they would do, as it was his whole life, of what consumed him daily, constantly, where indeed, the pure 100% undeniable truth of the wretchedness of the mindtrap snarings of precious souls was all around him, was it not?
Jesus wanted us not to hesitate to embrace the truth 100% about the mindtrap snarings of precious loving souls of the unwise world seemingly growin away, apart from one another of their own blessed constant yearning to feel loved and loving at all times, which we know is TRUE, of those of awareness knowingness of the ‘Constant’ aspect thru meditation like you do.
I realise without doubt what love devoid of doubt feels like, where i feel the purity of love Jesus has for us in his choice to assist us in overcoming the element of doubt which Jesus was of reflection about of his own journey of life apon life’s road, and who knows, maybe they did kill some of his lovers……….without doubt, they were a murderous regime, so highly plausible……….without doubt for ‘me’ in feeling the truth of this, my own life of revealing truth, like those who came between the love of Troy and i like they DID, and yet do of many………..generational false teachings.
blessings to all
bless you
obviously the quest for understanding Jesus, is of understanding Self, where in truth, Jesus was correct in saying, “what you look for is within YOU.”
when of awareness of the aspects of Self in the quest for Jesus, we realize fully that Jesus truly was evolved in awareness knowingness, able to see with clarity awareness the blessed Self of us all of the introspection of his own blessed Self, and likewise, we too are able to come fully to know the blessed Self of Jesus, while of our own introspection of our own blessed Self………..sameness
fearl to embrace exact sameness of us and Jesus, is what blocks us from accepting Jesus the man of evolved Self awareness knowingness certainty and internalized Self-actualization acceptance, and that is where religion misses the target, because of their fear mongering.
while fear has been used to control societies since the beginning, fear is not an aspect of the pure blessed spiritual Being while of our natural at rest peaceful and loving state, of our subtle intellect awareness of the truth about our sensing of truth of the unwise fearful world yet evolving.
we learn the unwise behaviour traits and we create the masks as well, starting very young actually.
Unlearning our masks thru coming into awareness is of an individual’s endeavor to do so, albeit, subconscious/conscious affect/effect/direct/indirect of the enlightened loving spiritual ones along life’s road is true as well.
Lead by example of blessed Self within
You are holy blessed Self at all times within, not of the bitter unwise affect/effect/direct/indirect transferences and false projections we are inundated from others along life’s road, albeit, we are when not of descerning wisdom of our self-actualization awareness knowingness.
while we are free spirits in life, we are not really free from feeling all the oppressive behavioural traits of others, and that is something we need to be of focus in regards to healthy self-actualization, where only nurturing love, and protective wisdom is good enough for ALL, sacred wisdom, lest the world actually succeeds in making us feel the way it sometimes unwisely condescendingly does, which for me sees one in every crowd of many useless words of negative transference and projection, until recently where i basically have told the world to fuck off, i am not participating with you bitter nasty mean spirited ignorant motherfucking miserable fuckhead fucktards!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol
still healing…………………………..
sometimes you just have to scream the truth out loud like you mean it………theraputic, lest you take it out on someone not deserving of it, or take it out on your blessed Self, which Jesus clearly revealed what we can expect from others, did he not?
and what is all this mess?
teachings of the unwise forefathers before us all, those who did not desire to know God, those who claimed to know God and did not, and those you do sincerely desire to wisdom like we do, sadly, their own worse enemies in life, are they not?
the single greatest cause of all problems in the world, without doubt, is the ‘Crucial Lacking of Desire for Wisdom.’
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Slumdog destiny appears to tap into the ‘constant yearning’ aspect of blessed self to constantly feel loved and loving, that which is our primal beginning, of where we all came from, blessed blissful state of purity of the womb, ingrained in the core of everyone’s precious soul, all of us subconsciously seeking to return to, and some do, when of fearlessly allowing our blessed self out to BE of feeling loving and loved of and with another, openly fearless of expression of the many trueness aspects of blessed Self, first by merely BEing the trueness aspects of blessed Self, such as free flowing fearless joyfulness and delight of the tender loving hand we yearn to warmly hold daily, and lips to kiss, of incredible zealFULLness in BEing allowed to Just BE our Self with one another as equals of sameness feelings within, where it is surprising many are not of assuredness of such.
without doubt, the true leaders in life, are those of you who are of the exceeding joyfulness openly so with one another like you do, were truly, that is the quest beyond all the riches of the world in life, of TRUE destiny for the holy blessed pure loving Self of you who find come fully into discovery of holy blessed pure loving Self, is it not?
and what of the constant glowing love feelings within free of the element of useless doubtfulness like the doubtfulness found in the world?
truly, that is what HEAVEN is to feel, is it not?
when you KNOW……….you Just KNOW
Just BEing your Self
why be of oppression of holy blessed pure loving Self, when already there is more than enough oppression in the world for one to feel how horrible falseness feels, does it not?
and what of the blessed exact sameness connectedness with another?
if we are not fearless in Being our Self, how is another able to BE of the fearless open pure loving connectedness of Self within of Self of another?
As if oppression works for another blessed Self, when already we are of awareness knowingness it does not work for our own blessed Self, is the correct way forward, lest one who may of been appropriate for you passes you by on life’s road, of by chance we met.
Trueness aspects of blessed Self, is what destiny is, destiny of what HEAVEN is……….without doubt…………for those who are of awareness knowingness of holy blessed pure loving Self within.
i WILL not be silent, i WILL not be quiet anymore.
i am FREE
to BE ‘me’…….constantly, joyfully so!
Quest for true love, is the quest for True Self, of the trueness aspects of blessed Self, where the most conducive environment for True Self, is of the fearless loving environment of True Self of another, who is of healthy self-actualization like our own, equally so, as though one mind, sameness of easy loving self at all times, not repressed, not critical, constantly only loving warm thoughts of the other of each other at all times, where is true of true soulmate lovers and freinds who find one another in life, albeit, the world, being like it is, is always seemingly there to come between, although those who are fearlessly aware of the emotional honesty, know who is for right for them, and likewise, the soulmate knows too, do the not?
when you know you just know, truthfulness of Self, truthfulness of Self of another………..i cannot happen any other way for True Love where both are of equal love for the other.
indeed, it is not something one pretends at, is it?
who wants to go thru life feeling unloved?
or worse, who wants to go thru life feeling fake intermittent love?
you know how you can just tell when someone is obviously in love with us, or of our own awareness when we are in love with someone?
you just know
and of course it goes without saying we just know when we another does not love us or of we them.
you just know
so don’t waste your time people, living a life of denial when already you know, and miss out on living True Loving Blessed Life, lest you find your Self alone feeling unloved.
thanks but no thanks………..bin there. done that way too many times. not again.
when it comes to the arts, when art is of real connectedness which feels sincere of the artist, such as Gavin, only then is real connection possible, where we so many passing off garbage art and music just thrown together and tossed out there, of a disconnect feelings to it which is easy to see the true artist contrast with that of the fly by night operators of get rich quick mentality, their work almost unbarable, unrefined, lacking the sincere connectedness feeling of realness within that blessed Self identifies of their own awareness knowingness in sincere introspective reflections while of meditative connectedness with real Self without the empty ego which is not of feeling, a mask, obviously so.
The police here shot dead a 15yr old Boy yesterday in a neighborhood next to mine where my Godson grew up , a kid who was obviously distraught brandishing 2 kitchen knives, his father died two yrs ago & something must have set him off, but clearly the police lacked the appropriate negotiating skills and used the wrong approach trying to subdue someone with aggression when they are not of clear mind is not the right way…
Such a shame to have your life taken from you at such a young age, a young skater kid, described as have a sweet loving nature and kind to his friends going through the typical issues that a boy of that age goes through & in one night through some silly act of attention perhaps a cry for help from him has resulted in tragedy.. yet another example of the need for healing in society …
I think I’ll become a counselor, having experienced much adversity myself & surviving i could help many others who are not yet at the stage to be able to heal themselves alone.
No one want’s to get through it alone.. we all need help sometimes…
reminds me of an incident here Marco, of a father who was denied medical treatment for his child at the hospital, and returned later with the child, carring a fake gun, merely distraught over the childs condition needing medical help. The father was shot dead by police at the hospital, the child now without an obviously caring father, where any father of any child is loving of their own child, are they not, where it is wrong clearly wrong to think otherwise, of these many sad stories along life’s road which cause our tears of compassion to fall.
God says, “No one is able to find the Kingdom of Heaven on their own without assistance.”
clearly, this is 100% true, where we come into the world alone, and are greeted with the voice of the one who carried us for nine months, a familiar voice we recognize from being in the womb, and the tender moments of joyful loving purity love of our parents, who seem endless in their wanting to hold us all the time, “Can you put me down now, thank you.” lol
where HEAVEN is feeling loved and loving, i feel we are in a race against time, in pouring love into the matrix of ALL connected souls of earth of affect/effect/direct/indirect, when ever i hear these horrid tragic incidents of unwise approaches with the eternal human BEing, and yet, all these incidents are not any different than that of the crucified incident of Jesus, are they not, the unwise, unloving condemning of our precious loving brothers and sisters which Jesus railed against in his every step, every heart beat, every breath, every word, did he not?
Each on of these incidence for me are exact sameness of the horrid crudified Jesus, like that of Troy laying apon the cold hard ground taking his last breaths of life, at the tender age of 21, a tragic suicide a result of every step, every word, every heartbeat, every
breath of his entire life, the same every step of the entire lives of all those who’s lives where a part of Troy’s life in the lead up to his suicide, including mine, where undeniable truth shines outward from Troy laying apon the ground dying, the TRUTH, of my yet kneeing their at his side, of time stopped since then for me, where i cannot shut out the truth of every word people say at all times, of my seemingly constant turning away from those of empty hearts of hypocrisy like i do, of the foul taste so many are of.
i WILL NOT BE silent and i WILL NOT BE quiet any more!!!
it is a race against time, and that is the truth, where Jesus too was of the same awareness as we are of this reality check, himself unable to do anything other than give his ALL, his life WILLING surrendered to the claws of the ignorant beast, which Jesus knew could not ever become victorious over what Jesus 100% was of awareness knowingness certainty of his own precious blessed pure loving child of God Self, awareness of blessed Self within, exact sameness of blessed Self within ALL, of no one ever able to become victorious over + TRUTH +
it is not possible for + TRUTH + to fail
where Troy lay apon the ground dying, so too is Jesus apon the cross there as well, of the no time constraint pure eternal spirit realm i stand in, of pure quietness, calm, feeling my own pure love devoid of doubt feelings my tears clearly revealing the truth to ‘me’ the TRUTH, i loved Troy, i love Jesus, i will always love Troy and Jesus, asking forgiveness from Jesus and God, expressing to Jesus and God, it was not Troy’s fault, please forgive Troy, please forgive ‘me’, where nor was it entire my fault either for Troy’s suicide, it was just where we found out blessed Selfs in life apon the road of life that was at that time of lessor wisdom than of today’s world of greater acceptance of homosexuality, which we continue to push forward in as veterans of the GLBT community, knowing statistically the 15-24 year old age group hold the highest suicide rate in the world. TRUTH.
as veterans, we must always BE of AWARENESS KNOWINGNESS CERTAINTY of these facts, in our race against time, where yet again today, another beautiful blessed gay youth will take his own life unwisely knowing the wretched bitter unwise snaring around him that has it’s unwise claw binding his soul, which is why i am fierce and fearless, raging like i do, where i WILL NOT BE silent and i WILL NOT BE quiet ever again of the ETERNAL UNFAILING TRUTH which continues to radiate OUTward from Troy’s body laying apon the cold hard ground, three days before Christmas day, where love is the greatest treasure, the greatest gift beyond all the riches of the world, not of Christmas day, rather of EVERY BLESSED DAY of BLESSED TRUE LOVING LIFE.
forever more
amen
bless you
I actually recall my mother’s voice of being upset over President Kennedy being killed, two weeks before i was born, if you can believe that. Andy is still in the womb of God!!!!!
without doubt, i know where i am, constantly standing beside Jesus, where i have been all this time, not just devoted to Jesus, rather 100% surrendered to Jesus as ‘his’ best true and faithful friend as well, surrendered to TRUTH, surrendered to TRUTH of the trueness aspects of blessed Self in so doing.
i just don’t speak much of where i dwell since my loss of Troy, albeit, i speak much…….
……….where i am of 100% awareness of every word of every soul who approaches me, of my constant instant descerning of the condition of their soul, by means of the words they utter, unwise? wise? unloving? loving? apathetic? compassionate?, where standing with Jesus forever more like i have since Troy died, i am of purity love feelings of exact sameness between Jesus and i of love devoid of doubt which does not change or fade, of what HEAVEN is, where in truth, Jesus is ‘me’ best true and faithful friend in life, where ‘me’ does not trust any one, compassionately aware of the unwise snarings of heart, mind, body, spirit and soul of the many precious innocent souls born into the unwise world of unwise snarings, the illnesses of heart clearly visiable of all who approach ‘me’
the 100% surrendering aspect is of greatest significance, where any of you can attest to as regards meditation, the purity love feelings so blessed pure in feeling, like ‘that’ of feeling tranquility, is without doubt, not only where i dwell, but where i always want to dwell and BE found of, as that is sacred in feeling for me, as one who is of great sensitivity which i love about my blessed Self, where the world is not of the blessed loving pure thought approach with us, nor do we expect it to be, knowing the contrast of where the world yet is, away from the TRUTH of the blessed trueness aspects of blessed Self, not of priority for what HEAVEN is
blessed are those of awareness knowingness certainty of the trueness aspects of blessed Self, for you know the TRUTH of what HEAVEN is and is not forever more
bless you
and yes, clearly i am of the affects/effects of transference and projection from the world, as evident of my abreaction outbursts which come on, combined with the unresolved unhealed past issues and my neglecting of addressing and getting my own needs met on a regular consistent basis, something i am now of addressing with professionals assisting ‘me’, of my not BEing alone in life, where the connection of feeling loved and loving is necessary for us to BE of constant feeling of what HEAVEN is, unable to do so alone.
so forgive my occassion lack of sleep abreaction outbursts everyone, as i too am of exact sameness as anyone else apon life’s road, of a life of hard knocks which continues to teach us all, but only of those who slow into the grace of their own blessed Self, does one come fully into awareness knowingness certainty of the constant pure trueness aspects of blessed Self, such as those of you of meditation are of knowingness awareness like i am, where in life, these are the friends i seek of likemindedness of our journey of life apon life’s road, where without doubt, ALL of us are of the ‘Constant United Connectedness of Exact Sameness of Affect Effect Direct Indirect Emotional Honesty Feelings at All Times; even of you who are of subconcious seeking and peering out of the submerged/emerging blessed pure loving divine child of God True Real Self.
Coffee!!!!!!!!!!!
where’s my coffee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
blessings to ALL
Jesus loves ALL God loves ALL We love ALL
God blesses ALL
forever more
amen
ask any who have been belittling and condescending with me of the last decade how i responded with them, and look to see of they are standing beside ‘me’ this day, and clearly you WILL see, they are not, rather they are of the distance in life yet futher away from the cross here with Jesus where i stand, where we know, it is tragic events in life which cause us to stop and truely reflect, after the loss of loved ones for example, like the campaign of Mothers Against Drunk Driving here in America.
we do not want to see any of you have to learn what HEAVEN is the hard way, where we are of unceasing constant prayer that you slow into the ‘True Grace’ aspect of your blessed Self which we know is 100% true of the blessed Self of ALL, in order that you come fully(eventually of gradual growth) into blessed Purity Truth Awareness Knowingness Certainty of the Purity Trueness Aspects of blessed Self, in order that you may feel what we know is of ‘Constant Yearning’ of your submerged/emerging blessed True Real Self within, ‘To BE of Your Constant Yearning in Feeling Loved and Loving At All Times of What HEAVEN is”.
“Where your heart is, there to is your treasure and your life at all times.”
“What you turn towards you BEcome at all times”
“Turn towards TRUTH of your blessed pure loving Self, which is of constant yearing to BE found of what HEAVEN is……TRUTH.”
“Turn towards YOU when you turn towards God’s divine WILL of TRUTH wisdom for the divine child of God True Real Self YOU.”
ok……….without doubt i know my destiny is of a truth revealer with Jesus of our shared sameness platitude level of awareness knowingness certainty, constantly of reflection apon all truth as regards the trueness aspects of the blessed pure loving precious divine child of God True Real Self of ALL souls sadly born into the (yet) unwise world, awareness of the greatest stumbling block we are 100% certain of, ‘Crucial Lacking of Desire for Wisdom’, in overcoming the false generational unwise teachings of the forefathers before Jesus, before us ALL, indeed, of the exact sameness wretched false teachings such as that of the stoning death of the woman in Iran for adultery in 2006, exact same woman Jesus came across burried up to her waist in the ground, where Jesus said, “Let one who has not ever sinned(been unloving) cast the first stone.”, where Jesus knew before speaking, that most souls of earth he greeted, were not yet of his evoled platitude level of awareness knowingness certainty awareness of the unwise snarings all souls born into the world sadly become snared by, of so many illnesses of the heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, are they not?
Coffee!!!!!!!!!!!!!
with ‘that’ said, we know without doubt how to influence, encourage, motivate, nurture, and offer words of protective awareness wisdom for sake of the holy blessed pure loving divine child of God True Real Self YOU of us ALL, do we not?
(the discription of Self keeps getting longer and longer….JOY!!!!!!
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OUR blessed objective divine WILLINGNESS thru;
+ art
+ music
+ lyric
+ poetry
+ book
+ theater
+ film
+ behavioural modification
+ court intervention
+ open wise communication
+ hugs
+ kisses
+ holding hands
+ sex
+ parenting
+ friends
+ lovers
+ aquaintances
+ discerning reflection
+ all of every second, every heartbeat, every breath, every glance, every step, every discerning word uttered
ask any film director if the film is finished, and they WILL tell you, “no film is ever finished.”
ask again if the film budget is enough, and they WILL say, “no.”
ask again if they learned anything for their next film while creating a film, they WILL say, “constantly.”
ask again if they it is best script far outweighs the best equipment to create the film, and they WILL say, “DUH!!!!!!”
lol
i have a best friend in life i have had for over a decade, Robert, of the same zeal as my own in script writting for film, himself passion channeled and devoted to his career of choice in film, seeing us of endless chat of things like how to get a message across to the audience in the lead up of character development for the impactful message we want to get thru to the soul of those watching the film, with today of us speaking fearlessly like we do of my on going discussion of what compelled Jesus to surrender his blessed Self to the claws of the beast of ignorance, with me saying, “We know the regime of the Roman empire at the time Jesus walked the earth was a brutal murdering regime, with their constant crucifying of precious innocent souls of learned behavioral traits, placing them along road ways that led into the cities of the Roman empire, where it is highly plausible, Jesus while of graceful walking on his life long journey of his blessed life apon the road of life, of a beautiful peaceful loving day feeling within, most likely came apon a cross with one of his most blessed beloved loved ones apon a cross, brutalized and perhaps yet alive there before him left to die(think Mathew Sheppard), of the tender blessed tears of Jesus streaming forth at the sight of such horrid brutality of someone so pure loving like himSelf.
Robert jumps in with a quick remark of, “yeah, do a close up with the high def cameras of the tear duck forming a tear in his eye, of the brilliant sunshine gleeming brightly thru the tear drop forming, impactful instant real time exact sameness connection within of the souls in the audience, revealing the truth of their own holy blessed pure loving divine child of God True Real Self YOU of us ALL, revealing the TRUTH of the platitude level of awareness we are of, lifting their souls up here with us as equals of this platitude where we stand with Jesus.
descerning approach of objective divine nurturing WILL of our descerning reflections of words we speak, lyric, book and scripts we write, songs we sing, are of exact sameness approach of the evolved adult child Jesus, of his objective divine nurturing WILL, our WILL BE Done on earth, ‘that’ which HEAVEN is; TRUTH of LOVE COMPASSION WISDOM vs false unloving apathetic (obvious) ignorance, where TRUTH of both is what is of descerning reflections and approach to our objectives, in revealing truth of the blessed pure trueness aspects of the holy blessed pure loving divine child of God True Real Self YOU of us ALL
~ awakening all the holy blessed pure loving divine child of God True Real Self YOU of us ALL to awareness knowingness certainty of what and where HEAVEN obviously is, within and all around YOU
~ constantly
Jesus said, “There is light within those of the light, who light up the entire world. Those not of light are darkness, which constantly serves enlightened ones, by means of the obvious TRUTH, where everywhere is the TRUTH. Look apon everything and see(feel) the TRUTH there for you to reflect apon, and come forth in the world as one who is of the light of TRUTH, of radiant brilliant bright light which lights up the whole world by means of affect/effect/direct/indirect.”
well ok, perhaps Jesus did not use the slashes in between and was of pause(comma) instead?
“coffee!!!!!!!!!!!!”
“where’s my coffee!!!!!!!!!!!”
i have come to realize the significance of meditative introspective reflections as to free flowing stream of conscious writting as BEing the only way to write, because the stream of conscious writting is of the holy blessed pure loving divine child of God True Real Self YOU of us ALL, is it not?
~ just some insight for you upcoming script writters and directors.
DILIGENCE, DEDICATION, DETERMINATION, and STEADFAST DEVOTION to remain of the insightful significance of meditative introspective reflections as to free flowing stream of conscious writting, is what is KEY to unlocking the mystery of the Kingdom of HEAVEN wisdom halo perspective as regards the REVEALING TRUTH of the aspects of the holy blessed pure loving divine child of God True Real Self YOU, something i learned over the last 20 years about as a hermetical monk with Jesus and God, of quiet chosing of my isolation sanctuaries i run to, away from the doubtful aimless plodding along in life souls of no helmsman at the wheel, which is the only way one is able to write, in my opinion of my 100% awareness knowingness certainty i am of surrendered heart, mind, body, spirit and soul to Jesus and God, chosing to BE ALONE, of the instruction of Jesus, “Come to God ALONE.”
albeit, my therapist keeps at me about getting my needs met like she does, and yet, where is there a therapist who will say to me, like Jesus says to ‘me’, “You are forgive for your unwiseness with Troy Andy, as you too were of the unwise snarings both of you found your blessed Self among at the time, of the projections of external homophobia which was cause of the internal homophobia within you both, was it not? You are a child of the light of pure unchallengable, unbreakable, undeniable, unwavering TRUTH, of your own awareness knowingness certainty of exact sameness of sincere reflections of TRUTH like my own, are you not?”
well ok, i wrote that Jesus, but why is it that i 100% feel blessed pure loving feelings of you gracefully speaking these words with of truth with and of ‘me’, Jesus?
they won’t higher ‘me’ as a script writer just yet, as my spelling really sucks……….at least i know what to write about………blessed feelings of the holy blessed pure loving divine child of God True Real Self YOU.
ok, so now you are getting to know the real Andy of his sanctuary, which he has not invited many to, praying you invite ‘me’ to yours.
blessings to all
bless you
wow!!!!!!!!!
what a beautiful day of sunshining here in Toronto!
i have recently surrendered to what is part of my destiny as a truth revealer, that of a writer and speaker, which i embrace fully within, of my blessed chosen devotion of our race against time, and will continue as such apon the road of life with all of you, where perhaps one day we may work together in colaboration of likeminded projects some day, once i learn how to spell properly.
i do enjoy these open discussion with you M, and i know, you are sincere interest like my own, as regards the holy blessed pure loving divine child of God True Real Self YOU of us ALL, so don’t hesitate in your loving approach with ‘me’, should you wish to work together one day, knowing i sincerely am of desire to, knowing i WILL continue as i do where i stand here with Jesus, of my surrendered life to Jesus and God alone, of the request of Jesus to do so.
it took me years to come to the day where i realized only Jesus is the most evolved in awareness like my own, of a life long journey of painful lessons along life’s road which indicated the truth of this to me, where i had not found inner peace before like i am of today, knowing without doubt, i am here to stay where i am of the self-actualization Self, of Self love i need to BE of, lest darkness become victorious over my soul which i keep running from, knowingness of my feelings i constantly feel of the behavioural traits of others like i do.
while we can intellectualize from one end of the spectrum to the other of learned behavioural traits of others along life’s road, the intellectualizing does not negate us from feeling the affect, effect, direct, indirect feelings of transference and subconscious projections of the precious innocent souls of aimlessness, of the unwie snaring by the many illnesses of heart, mind, body, spirit and soul Jesus railed against.
i know you are of the purity love feelings of blessed sanctuary meditation M, and is why i am here in support of your sincere approach with the world like you do, albeit at times, i am more of a thorn in your side, of my own transference and projections as one who also is of healing within, albeit, i feel i have come clear enough to survive the bitter poisoning i have experienced from many along life’s road.
i have my bad days, like anyone, like one does in the loss of a loved one like we all do.
bless you Madonna bless you
of the greatest race against time, without doubt, the issue of Iran soon to have a nuclear bomb is of my greatest concern, where i don’t feel the would actually be stupid enough to use it…….would they?
they would not hesitate though, if Israel were to attack them any time in the distant future, would they.
and yet i keep coming back to the funding of the on going support we know Iran is of like they are of weapons to on going terrorism in the world, and that is something we cannot simply ignore, once they have a truly serious weapon in their hands, combined with the billions of dollars they have in oil revenues, some $80 billion a year last time i checked?
so is it a race of time, or time of erace?
i feel it is time for AWARENESS of the holy blessed pure loving divine child of God True Real Self YOU of us ALL as the only TRUE SAFE PASSAGE for mankind to journey, regarding ALL falseness in the world of the many voids devoid of love which are of lacking of the AWARENESS of the trueness aspects of the holy blessed pure loving divine child of God True Real Self YOU of ALL, are they not?
what Jesus speaks of as, “Spiritual death(unwise, unaware).
some body hug ‘me’……….i need a hug……..
kisses too?
*gasp* “You wanna do what?”
“AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!”
“i thought you’d never ask!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”
“blessed love. blessed you. blessed me. blessed all. i love you!!!!!!!!!!!”
“bless you bless you bless you!!!!!!!!!!!”
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enjoy the blessed day, every moment by blessed moment everyone……..we only get so many of them.
blessings to all
Jesus loves ALL. God loves ALL We love ALL
God blesses ALL
thank you Jesus
thank you God
bless you Jesus bless you bless you bless you forever more
peace be to this house forever more
peace be to you forever more
bless you bless you bless you all forever more
bless you
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it’s my birthday today, where it’s my party and i am supposedly allowed to say whatever i want.
with that said, i will speak of what is of the bridal chamber of God, which some of you are of full awareness of as regards blessed spiritual between all blessed souls of the earth united as ONE.
i merely want to ask all males and all females, “do you feel what i feel within of the blessed love of Jesus?”
huh?
i can’t hear(feel) you!!!!!!!!!
say it!!!!!!!!
SAY IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol
i jest……………………………………….wait for it…………………………..wait………………………..wait………………………………….
of fuck this, im tired of waiting!
~ andy turns, stops for a moment of reflection, and says, “oh for fuck sakes, i have no place to go other than where already i am………constant of feeling loved and loving!!!!”
i am……….BE Cause…………We ARE………..Constant of feeling loved and loving of ALL souls of ONE World, under ONE Sky, of ONE Eternal Loving Human BEing of likeminded heart, mind, body, spirit and soul of our open communications in revealing the truth of the holy blessed pure loving divine child of God True Real Self YOU of ALL of what HEAVEN constantly is forever more…………without doubt………..i know………….i am……..like YOU.
blessings to all forever more bless you
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i think it is safe to say perhaps the celibacy has been abit too long for Andy, yes?
obviously……………..
ok, so now some of you have a more clear understanding of what spiritual marriage of the bridal chamber is with Jesus and God, yes?
it is surrendering of Self to Self, is it not?
blessedly so, is it not, of our feelings which clearly reveal the TRUTH, do they not?
blessings to you and your loved ones forever more
blessings to all
bless you
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Just BE your Self
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someone sent me this cute birthday message today;
[http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UeypOvsY91Q]
a ‘yellow’ flower like the one on my desk!
thank you bless you
we know
on we go
ooooooooooooo!!!!
someone found ‘me’ my coffee!!!!
you really do know ‘me’ !!!!
thank you bless you
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the geo-musical phenomenon of Madonna in Argentina, truly of phenomenal blessed feeling, i am certain of, and look forward to the filming.
bless you
you know how to double skip jump?
and to think you get paid millions for it!!!
how amazing is that, to get paid to Just BE your Self, having endless none stop fun loving fun?
OUTstandind M!!!!!!!!!!
the skipping is an excellect experiential technique for self-actualization.
then again, so is alot of things like sex, more sex, and more sex after that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol
more more more more
of True Loving Blessed Life
forever more
don’t ever stop
Just BEing YOU
~ like ‘that’s possible…………….
hey, what’s with the moron Catholic naysayers?
oh yeah, i forgot, the ‘claim’ they don’t like sex……….like ‘that’s possible………..
Catholic priests are liars……….an abomination against God………and creation of life, themselves NOT of truly fun loving exceeding joyful life, are they not?
against blessed Self, a horrid example of leaders of blessed True Fun Loving Life, their own wore enemies………without doubt.
we know
on we go
oh hey, i just made some more enemies………..
or wait, they are not my enemies, they are their own enemies, not against ‘me’, rather against the ‘me’ of th>em<……….so backwards, are they not?
many WILL BE……….last to enter, and of course Andy stands constantly hold the door open for them to exit, as in GET OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
oooooooooo!
best one all week!
lol
did i tell you about David the Gay Catholic Priest who’s bed i was in?
oh yeah, i told you that ONE!
he is such a blessed soul, a reader of souls like ‘me’
abit anal at times, but then again, so am i
every time a picture of Madonna and David is taken and published, it is 100%, a blessing of God’s divine WILL, OUR WILL BE Done on earth, ‘that’ which HEAVEN constantly is
full moon yesterday
i am so sore from gym, am all stiff
Shiatsu massage therapy(licensed) should help untighten the sore muscles, as shiatsu penetrates deep into the layers of muscles, flushing out damaged blood cells, and unstiffening them. Rest for the body is equally important.
working thru abandonment issues i experienced at 15 in therapy which continue to plague my life in the form of manifesting vulnerable patterns, finally coming clear this time in squarely dealing with unresolved issues with a therapist of thirty years in the field, who i totally connect with, fully trusting of her in my at ease openness like i am.
incredible awakening for me of just how real all this stuff is for me, where conducive environments free of critical others is what i need to ensure for my self from now on, of self-respect in doing so, in order that my self-esteem is free to easily grow in Just BEing ‘me’.
some insight can be found all over the net, such as this page; [http://www.myshrink.com/counseling-theory.php?t_id=7]
it takes along time to work thru this stuff, not a mere evening reading as regarding our transition to healthy relationships of healthy CHOICE, living with the consequences of OUR CHOICEs in life at every turn…….YOUR LIFE, no one elses.
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i used to work out with my cousin from Danmark who i sponsored years ago to work for my construction company i owned in my twenties. He was a champion body builder of a decade of investment, of competition level, where i recall getting stiff alot working out with him at the gym, in more ways than ONE.
my therapist thinks i am gay. I said, “no, i know i am bisexual, albeit, i am naturally more comfortable being gay, as that has been my lifestyle of recent for along time.”
ironically, it is easy for me to be of a gay life, than that of a hetero life, merely of the familiar aspect, where indeed, i am of heterophobia, where without doubt, females don’t trust a female*male, albeit, they feel comfortable with ‘me’
i am beyond sexuality spiritually/mentally/emotionally, where purity love is what i know i am of another soul, male or female, and irregardless of what anyone thinks of ‘me’, i love who i am, and likewise love another soul as i do my own, of sameness sincere approach in Just BEing the real ‘me’ at all times, where practice of BEing Self, is how one approaches healthy self-actualization, always respectful of how Self feels around others, in choosing our inner circle friends and lovers, and indeed, setting boundaries according to feelings of Self………YOUR LIFE.
i know my Self well, where conducive others of at ease in BEing their real Self of reciprocating conducive real Self with ‘me’, is without doubt, what is of conducive environments for Self to thrive and grow in Self-actualization, for both.
blessings to all
bless you
im going back to school…………..the arts of course, some writing courses………
my therapist knows i have been living as a gay female*male for nearly two decades, and we agree, females do not generally trust female*males for long term relationships, for obvious reasons, that the female*male is of desires of sex with a male.
true, the desires do not go away, however; i do feel that love surpasses the desires of sex, when we feel sincerely genuinely loved by someone, of a fun loving soulmate lover friendship in life, or at least that is what i tell my self, of my yet dealing with my bisexuality.
my therapist suggested a gay life of adopting my own kids as far as having my own family, like some of Rosie’s friends do. Fortunately i live in a country where laws allow this, and perhaps i should reflect on this some more, accepting a lifestyle i am familiar with, where issues of female trust of the hetero world is put to rest for me, out of thought, out of mind.
of course i know i am happy as a gay male, having lived as one for how long now?
i find once a female realizes my female*male(flamboyant gay male in appearance), the almost instantly run away, leaving me feel the transference of unacceptance, which may or may not be of them, of what my therapist says is of society, albeit, trusting a female*male of 20 years previously of gay lifestyle, for sure is a trust issue, and i empathize.
however; inspite of all these awarenesses, i feel if you love someone, you love them, and you want to be with them all the time, something i know about myself of how i have felt around those i have come to know well and truly love along life’s road, likewise of both, where i feel when both are of obvious sincere genuine fun loving joyfulness with one another, in truth, there is nothing, and no one in life that can seperate them, of the sheer delight of their fun loving real self with one another like they easily are of, when of conducive healthy self-actualization, where for me, what takes priority of sexuality, is the conducive fun loving true real self of both who are of obvious sincere genuine fun loving with one another, as true best friends of their reflections within of their own sincere emotional honesty of just how blessed their loving feelings, which is not something for real Self to simple ignore at an individual level, when it is true for them both, where true happiness for both is able to thrive and grow for them when it is genuine for both within.
just reflecting out loud M, for any and all to contemplate, as someone who is yet dealing with his bisexuality that has been calling me for many years now, where open at ease communication is essential for all of us, regardless of issues, where addressing issues is what we all must do in life, where failing to do so, can be leave us feeling debilitated at times.
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truth is, because i love my own female Self, i equally love females, where in truly reflecting apon this at length, i have to say, i love females more than males, likeness of my own Self.
so there you have it, Andy is a female with a really really really nice effeminate male body!!!!!
we are not alone in our Decision Choice WILL when it comes to who we turn towards in our selection of a loving lover, albeit, ultimately we are alone in our discerning CHOICES in life along life’s road, where true self-actualized individuals are who i love to be around the most, those most like ‘me’
blessed are those who come fully into knowing awareness of Self
blessings to you and those you love
bless you
speaking of self-actualization joyfulness, the ‘Give it to me’ number of last nights show in Brazil was of exceeding joy in feeling for all, liberating the fun loving Self merely by BEing fun loving like M truly was last night, the crowd lifted up with her, especially when someone picked her up and spun her around, of joyfulness we easily recall in feeling of our own youth, yes?
people are just too uptight in life, are they not, stiffling so many are for me, of ‘sticks in the mud’ boring as fuck, get ‘me’ out of here!!!
downhill skiing anyone?
this city is boring boring boring! yawn.
it all starts and stops with turning towards and embracing one’s own emotional honesty of who one truly enjoy’s being around in life, where it becomes obvious for those who find one another in life of both being healthily self-actualized as their real Self, healthy for both, naturally so, easily so, of their priority in Just BEing their real Self, of no critical others like so many are, their seemingly endless spuing of critical words of others, which many of the GLBT community seem to relish in like they do, which to me is not BEing real, where i say, “You know, if you took time to really know your Self, you may actually take time someday to truly come to know ‘me’ as well, but seeing as you are all caught up in your seeminly endless opinionating self like you seemingly are most of the time, of your sorry boring ass sitting there in waiting for ‘me’ to actually take appreciation and interest in BEing around your false nasty bitter facade, well, don’t hold your breath.”
so annoying and boring many of them are, and not of the TRUE real tender mild sweet loving SELF, i know of the delicate sensitive one, who is of slow loving sensual kissing with ‘me’, warmly hugging ‘me’ tightly of unceasing passionate loving lovers embrace daily with me, seemingly unable to get enough of me, all day and night, till the sun comes up the next morning………..
ya, who does not want to BE of BEing ALL ‘that’?
you know what i mean, the ones who think they are all ‘that’, where in truth they cannot even do anything correctly, the way i like it, the way i know they like it, of my endless teaching them what they so desperately need to learn about what works for ‘me’, works for them…………and yes, they always return for more.
NEXT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol
i’m going to gym now, i am addicted to gym..
BEing REAL requires freedom from critical others, where we need not worry, where in time, we come fully to realize the truth of anyone of our inner circle in their approach with us like they unwisely do, unwise of BEing their own Self, the true loving Self of others, are they not?
all the attitude facade masks they seemingly wear all the time like they do, where some don’t know how to stand still and BE the gentle sweet loving Self.
i know i am, and i know those who are most like ‘me’, recognizing them easily so, do we not?
oh hey, you only have three more shows to go.
so what is the next project for you?
i was thinking of joining a gym with a pool and spa…….no, not that kind of a spa………..well, ok, no matter where we go, we are always crusing.
so who are you addicted to at the gym Marco?
my therapist says i have to let go of my internet relationships, get my feet back on the ground and go live real life, where occasional internet is ok, a couple days a week or so. I did get abit overly into my introspective postings, which is what i have been of, introspect reflections, that at the time, a need i felt compelled to participate in, but i have to return to a real life now, getting on with it as they say, and go live life being my real Self.
look me up sometime if you want Marco, as i am not that far away…………closer than you may realize.
i’ll stop by an hour a day for awhile, but not beyond that, as i curb my time away from the internet and towards getting back to a life, where taking some part time course is of interest for me right now.
have a good night!
bless you
ya, i am unhealthily ‘overly’ addicted to the internet, which at the end of the day, finds me of my reality of being alone, sorta like the opening scene of the Matrix movie…….isolation, albeit, isolation from critical others has been a good thing for ‘me’, but i have to get on with it, not sure which direction career wise, don’t want to think about career just yet, just take another year out for me away from the world, partime gig of autonomous job, classes, get myself rejuvenated…….seems to be working so far.
all you people out there on the internet, stop what you are doing and go live real life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i am
i am……BE Cause…….We are………real life!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Give it to me !!
I’m going to research cultural diversity next year, in between doing gym, and theater group & other stuff now that i am free from the shackles of working 9-5,
Studying different cultures not just modern day but ancient as well is so interesting the challenge is to find the common thread between them all, (not the installed religious ideology, that’s just prefabricated) that common truth between human culture that’s what i want to search for, as that is the truth that’s binds all humanity as One, breaking down the manufactured division’s between society, oh my it’s going to be such a challenge fixing all the conflict in the world..
where will i get the time to cook dinner & iron my shirt’s
oh, no kidding, these ideology are so absurd, it amazes me people actually believe it, of ideologies which have no foundation……….clearly, these people were bored out of their minds in human history, making up these absurd story telling absurd ideologies that a child today easily feels the truth of, in saying, “that’s just absurd!”
i do not follow, participate, nor have any inclination to participate in any religious groups of the world, and rather just as a student who studies in ways most are not of awareness level to do so, of the subtle higher intellect which i came to know about my self over time.
the challenge which may seem daunting today, is daunting because of the fear based controlling world which surrounds us, snaring of heart, mind, body, spirit and souls like it does.
the world is going to evolve one day to a time where power from the sun will end all enegry concerns, which may take a few mellenia, or maybe a few centuries, and with the endless supply of energy from massive solar collectors in space, and the advanced robotics technology that is expanding exponentially, will see the end of all labour needs one day too. The transition of course, will be slow. I am optimistic of our likeminded government leaders who are of inclination as one mind today, of the coming together of all races around the world like we obviously are, our love of the various cultures, foods, music.
It is already happening, and naturally so, of what is of the core of every human BEing, sincere inner peacefulness and love, the truth, where truth prevails, and overcomes.
like the of common trueness aspects of the blessed Self Marco?
ah, yes, the shackles of 9-5. bin there. done that. no desire to return, as i turn towards my passions in life, art, music, writing…………….
lead by example of blessed real Self is all God asks us to do, easily so, of our exceeding joy, yes?
bless you
how can i give you what you already have Marco, ‘that’ of ‘me’?
i have learned that i am able to discern truth of all things i reflect apon, of anything i study, of fearless scrutiny where i do not hold to any of current organized religious groups, which are all of the insincere self-serving lackluster spirit of merchant salesmen, are they not?
unlike the artist ~ muse relationship, where both the artist and the muse are of sincere want for love for each other to always BE of……….key word ~ sincere
sincerity is of the subconsious yearning with us all, of where we all came from in experience of the womb and the blessed loving bond of mother and child.
knowing this as an artist who is of empowerment to nurture, protect and help assist in growth of what is already within everyone, is what is of sincerity of Self of the artist, which we naturally turn towards easily so like we do, because of the nature of art and music, where art and music is Self expression. I know this well of my Self as one who began playing guitar at age 10.
We connect with the resonating of the harmonious strings for example, which to us is what is of most value in life, is it not?
in truth, there is no difference in Self of a musician and Self of another in this regard, where all love the constant loving feeling of harmonious strings, voice, music, where the musician is merely one who is more relaxed and more tuned in to their real Self, by means of BEing their real Self, particularily the professional musicians.
i quit playing when i got into composing my own music, a difficult time in life for me which saw the loss of my guitars, of no return to it for some reason, and no desire as yet, as a way to express Self, prefering the more fascinating realm of stream of conscious writing awareness that is leading and growing in fearlessness into certainty understandings i like to embrace and conclude on, the insecure 15 year old me, yet building apon his foundation of certainty for him to BE of knowingness of what is of priority for him, to feel loved and loving, something he always yearned for, of a more deliberate approach today in his acknowledging what is of greatest value in life, something he already had, just did not have the supportive loving others in his life at that time of life who were of encouragement, a dysfunctional crowd he found himself around mostly.
the dynamic of familiarity is a reality check for me in life, where if one come from a dysfunctional family history, as adults, the familiarity dynamic does play out in their lives which are of familiarity(normal) for them in feeling of being around(birds of a feather), not something most any think about as truth about their subconscious.
i have grown tired of their boring asses, that’s all, i want SEX damn it…………NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
fuck!
lol
oh oh……….we woke somebody up!
sssshhhhhhhhhhhh!
iron shirts?
i prefer you in a t-shirt and blue jeans Marco!
as for cooking dinner, well, like the old saying, “Let’s eat OUT!!!!!!!!!”
lol
oh hey, did anyone see M in that wet T-shirt?
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
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the healthy happy real Madonna Just BEing her fun loving usual Self
ya, i could easily get used to BEing REAL around ‘that’!!!!!!!!!!!!!
if only………be careful what ya pray for?
oh, me very careful not to piss her off, no worry, i love her!
and she knows it
like i know it
when you know, ya just know, not like one can ignore it, and besides, i mean who could possibly ignore M in a we t-shirt?
huh?
Unstoppable
irrefutable
definition of irrefutable
impossible to deny ‘me’
i know ‘me’ like you know ‘me’
Self-Actualization is the objective of Jesus, God and We of Self-Actualization
Madonna is spending Christmas with A-Rod?
I thought of changing my name to A-Tom? Is that good? Or does it sound a bit like A-Twat? I dunno.
where’s she spending the 5 Jan, i dunno,
Enjoy Christmas everyone, I’m spending it at Gym
love you all xox
Kisses X
i have open the dictionary for the word twat…i mesure that i don’t open enough my hears for the rap because it is a basic word like dork……and about dunno “i don”t know “, it is right: yes or not ?
x x
yes that is right Eric, i dunno is i don’t know some silly Australia slang word. Your funny,
i love French such a beautiful language, my house mate is from Mauritius & i feel like I’m in Europe when he speaks to his gfriend in French.. Bonjour Xxoox
ow why is everyone so quiet ??
time i give you all kick start…
i’m buyin a cofee machine, love my coffee
cannot decide which one to get ….
choices choices life is full of choices
should i get a thermoblock heating element, energy saving mode option, multi function steam attatchement or just settle for the basic,
I know i’ll get one with a Special Frothing Attatchment !!!!
byiatch
while we do get to make choices of friends and lovers, they may not always choose us?
i recommend settling for where your Real Self is of ease in Just BEing Real Self, of conducive fun loving at ease environments with those who also are at ease in Just BEing Real Self, the one i KNOW ‘me’, like the one i KNOW ‘me’ of ‘you’.
people move in various directions along life’s road, for what ever reasons of their own, which i don’t trouble my Self over much any more, and just let people do what they do, go where they go, with or without ‘me’, knowing i will always Just BE ‘me’, the same ‘me’ i always was, always WILL BE, where i truly love and KNOW ‘me’, and those who come to KNOW and love ‘me’, and for those who do not fully desire ‘me’, not to worry, someone else WILL.
i find i am most joyful when others are of sincere genuine full desire of ‘me’, and not joyful when it they are of half hearted approach, or lack luster passion, which is so not ‘me’, nor will they find ‘me’ should they not BE of their genuine emotional honesty in turning towards ‘me’.
you know how you can just tell, where you find yourself with those who are there in body, but not fully of heart, mind, spirit and soul with and of YOU?
it has been a while Marco, and our trust has grown all this time, and will continue to grow should we continue to BE of what appears to ‘me’ of sincere genuine emotional honesty for us BOTH.
so worry not, as i shall remain of what is true of ‘me’ of my genuine emotional honesty for ‘you’, so long as you continue to likewise turn towards ‘me’, where trust is the bridge of time we fearless walk apon toward one another, where eventually we may BE of real life together someday, and if nothing else, at we shall have grown within as a result of the nurturing we have both been of one another like we have.
i feel the truth, which is not rightly correct, our love is true?
i know i love you
i feel the truth of ‘you’
go where you ‘sincerely and genuinely’ wants to go, and when you turn around and find that you are of sincere genuine happiness of your CHOICEs along life’s road, and you feel sincere and genuinely happy, then you were of your emotional honesty CHOICE.
i know this well of my Self, of my own CHOICE of friends and lovers along life’s road, of both good and not so good CHOICEs.
for you and ‘me’ Marco, i feel neither of us will TRULY know and come to appreciate fully the ‘me’ of either of us, until an adequate amount of ‘time spent together’, of sincere genuine emotional honest desire for ‘time spent together’, where i just KNOW, we would both come to know the true loving ‘me’ of us both, where surrendering to genuine feelings of ‘me’ within of us both, is what is required for any of us, of CHOICE directions we all make along life’s road, is it not?
given the opportunity for you to fully come to know ‘me’, i KNOW you would not regret every second of ‘time spent together’ with ‘me’, where ‘time spent together’ is what is of greatest value in life for ‘me’, of what is beyond all the riches of the world, constantly feeling loved and loving of what HEAVEN is for ‘me’
your CHOICE, not mine to make, as already i made mine, as regards you, yet here waiting for you.
rather than the kick start, do they not have the push button kind, where an easy tender touch of the button gets things started?
lol
no matter who, no matter where, BE of what is of the CHOICEs of the real ‘me’ within, where truly i know if of ‘me’, your genuine sincere WILL not BE of regret of ‘me’………trust ‘me’, i KNOW ‘me’, like you KNOW ‘me’, merely asking for you to BE of your own genuine sincere emotional honesty CHOICE as regards to ‘spend time together’ with ‘me’ for us both to see(feel) the truth of our love which i KNOW is pure and true.
how ever long it takes for you to become fearless like i know i am, always know, i am here for you.
just make sure you decide sometime during my life time WILL YOU?
tic toc tic toc
waiting…………..waiting………………………….oh, for fuck sakes, hurry up WILL YOU?
i love you
you KNOW i do
bless you bless you bless you
i feel it is only fair to us both of ‘time spent together’ to find out if our love is true, which i already know of ‘me’, praying you grant us both the opportunity to establish once and for all what i feel we both know to BE true, our love is true?
i will spend the remainder of my life wondering why you did not, should you decide not to
the question one needs to ask, is who is most comfortable for ‘me’ to Just BE ‘me’? ~ who loves BEing around ‘me’ like i do them, where it is obviously so, given time spent together in establishin our awareness knowingness of such.
of course a resonable amount of time is generally required in getting to truly know one another, at ease in Just BEing our real Self, where i find the most conducive environments for real Self of ‘me’ is of those who are of Just BEing at ease as real Self easily so of those of resonable good self-esteem and a healthy approach to their mental/emotional/physical/sexual/spiritual well BEing, which i know you are, where i am too, of improvement in my phyical well being that i am addressing, like working out at the gym.
who cares what anyone says thinks or does, when at the end of the day, we find our Self in sincere reflection of how we feel about those of our inner circle, where our feelings are of clarity of who is of comfort for us in BEing around.
i merely ask to BE around you so that you can conclude with clarity the Truth by means of your feelings after having spent time together, a leap of faith and yet not really, if we are both of desire of one another, if indeed you truly are, which i feel you are.
i am of the exceeding grace and gentleness of my real Self like i know you are of awareness of your own Self, which i know is conducive for both of us, as we are not different in this regard, where only by time spent together do we become fully of awareness knowingness of this truth, and the truth of just how truly conducive such friends in life are for us, just as you have come to know of any of your inner circle friends along life’s road thus far.
i feel i speak for sake of both of us in addressing the future, where i feel we are both of geninue sincere yearning for one another, merely asking you to decide where our friendship starts and stops, and go from there, letting you know, i want to spend time with you in getting to know you more………when you are ready, of your knowing, i am a life long loving friend, of my accepting merely a friendship with you is fine, if you feel that is all that you want, of my merely asking you this day, “what do ‘you’ want?” and move in the direction of what you want, with ‘me’, with another, of YOUR LIFE, YOUR CHOICEs we all must make, and ultimately do eventually, of the consequences of all our CHOICEs of our journey of life along life’s road, a book of our life CHOICEs at the end of life, wishing not to find my Self at the end of life wishing i had of made better(healthier) CHOICEs for my real Self.
YOUR CHOICEs of what is YOUR LIFE, where my choice of friends and lovers, are of what HEAVEN is for my real Self, my constant feelings of feeling loved and loving, which some of you know fully how that feels.
not to worry of ‘me’, as my own choices of friends and lovers in life which leave ‘me’ feeling anything other that what i am constantly of yearning to feel, to constantly feel loved and loving, i come to discern of eventually, where i just leave and go to others who make ‘me’ feel what HEAVEN is to ‘me’.
so decide and let everyone KNOW, what we already KNOW………..ALWAYS the TRUTH of you and ‘me’
blessings to all
bless you
i feel people know when they desire someone, and in truth, they know it all day long, constantly there in their minds of who may be of their loving thoughts.
with that said, i feel this is the last and only chance of my life, of your life, to come clean……….of what may be the truth?
what does ‘you’ want of ‘me’?
blessed are those of truth
bless you
i feel we all want the same thing, to feel genuinely loved and loving with another and others, of Jesus and God’s WILL, OUR WILL BE Done on earth, that which HEAVEN is
one merely need to turn towards and feel the truth of their own emotional honesty, where ever one finds themselves along life’s road, where we are all friends in life, or at least that is the way we should BE, seeing as we are of ONE ETERNAL HUMAN BEING, all of free flowing loving feelings in likeness of one another, not different, beyond all the barriers between us, of what we all have in common.
All these oppression from others in life, are unwise, and absurd useless false approach, away from truth of blessed Self, including away from blessed Self of those of oppression, are they not?
Examples of True Leaders of Love and Life, is of those who are of True Self-actualization, Truth for those who know.
blessings to all
bless you
genuine sincere approach of others is what works for Self, of what we all yearn to hear and feel, the emotional honest truth of another with us, and indeed, of what does not work, insincerity, which we feel.
i guess you could say this is the end of the line for ‘me’ where you and i are concerned Marco, where if of another, than i accept friendship and move on, not looking back again at you as a potential partner………..there, i said what i wanted to say.
i love you, blessedly so, of the glowing feelings which are sincere, genuine and pure in feeling like we do….eternal.
blessings to all of you who are of sincere genuine loving feelings of your real Self forever more
bless you
“Just BE your SELF”
forever more
100%………….without doubt
Special Frothing Attatchment ?!!!!
oh hey, i know how this attatchment works, you have to hold and move it a certain way!!!!
lol
when it comes to choices, there is only one choice for ‘me’
biyatches!!!!
oh hey biyatch, it says here biyatch is a slang word, as a harsh substitute for “idiot”……………….
surely i am no idiot in choosing you, am i biyatch?
is it true Guy won’t let M stay at the house?
oh, i am sure the kids will understand that bullshit.
Guy and his ego, if it’s true.
How the fuck are the kids suppose to understand that one?
fucking bullshit if that is true, and perhaps Guy can enjoy Christmas in New York?
hmmmmmmmm, let me get back to you on that one.
reminds me of when my partner and i came to Christmas, and were told that Andy and his homosexuals lover were not welcomed at the Christmas dinner……………and did i return to them? And will i return to them? Maybe in another life time?
people are their own worse enemies in life.
ok………none of my fucking business…………
why does everyone get sentimental at Christmas, & stuff, gee shouldn’t we be like real & happy all year round every moment, it’s like oh no I’ll be trapped in fear all year, and break out of it just once a year for Christmas another lame excuse for lack of self love, the reason the planet is in such a mess everyone too afraid to change everyone allowing it to be the way it is, except for a small few strong enough to walk to talk, like M and then when she does when she puts so much effort into tackling the task everyone except a few criticize her… see what fear does to people …dear me it’s just a day Jesus was not even born on the 25 December he was born in January if you go right back and read the ancient text’s, anyway he was a Capricorn like me, strong, but not as strong as a Leo the fearless lion that which M is..
I’m in a shitty mood today, people can be so fucking fickle wake up everyone,
lol
Sagittarius here………..who try to get along with everyone…….usually………
i am not sentimental……….just mental.
i am axed from Christmas, remember, why would i care about it………..i am merely looking out for all you sorry ass motherfuckers of low morale.
Christmas is a time when people turn inward toward the constant yearning to feel loved and loving, a good thing, so i don’t really knock it, but it is just another day for me………a day for kids to BE of their usual fun Self, us too, all children of God for those of you who believe in God.
What else is there in life, if not of time of our fun loving real Self, where in truth, unless we are of our fun loving real Self, then what are we?
not fun to be around is what i have found of many along life’s road, sticks in the mud so many are.
hey, maybe Bill Clinton and i can get together and do some motivational speechs some day?
definition of fickle;
marked by lack of steadfastness, constancy, or stability : given to erratic changeableness
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i get erratic sometimes, is that ok? But only when they piss me off from from something they did of sometimes don’t do.
ya ya, i like eating xmas pudding but extra cream 4 me please
everyone gets erratic, but again its a negative energy achieves things the aggressive way, one can master their reality much more calmly and effectively with positive energy , less draining on the mind body and soul, i’ll show you how
Go on Run away from YOU r SELF
SILENCE IS GOLDEN 🙂
This is what i wan’t to do with you babe
http://au.youtube.com/watch?v=kxXIYK13p94
there ain’t no way i am getting on top of that motherfucking bus………….well, ok, but only if i get to pick the color.
well…….a girl could die from exposure to the cold OUT here biyatch, and you are so fucking late it ain’t funny any more…….so long as you promise, ill be ok.
that is such a classic!
want to do ‘with’ me or ‘to’ me………..it is just not fun doing anything alone……………so you better BE with ‘me’.
we shall see soon enough…….once this nail polish drys………..
i truly feel that the world is not of the correct priority in life, of life merely BEing that of our purity love sweet and tender delight of loving life with one another, of our awareness where we dwell and reflect and feel the truths of our own Self, and the Self of another, of awareness which reveals to us the truth, none of us are different from one another as regards the true tender sensitivity of Self, albeit, the many there are of misleading examples of tender loving Self.
what if all the poor were told what HEAVEN really is?
that all these governments, church and falsifiers of tender loving Self are themselves not of the certainty we are of in awareness?
what if the world stopped for a moment, and felt the pure undenialable truth somehow, someway, which reveals the truth of how we actually really ALL are inside, and not these phony exteriors of the many who unwisely proudly, boastfully think they know life is this way or that way, heaven is up there, in the stars(like the star we are on floating in space? that heaven?)
what if in this moment, in an instant, one realizes 100%, none of us different, and all are being lead around by these many untruths?
i see the uncertainty anxiety in their eyes, ever present, the ones who don’t question what heaven may be.
i feel it in their words, their smiles, ever present, unaware i am observing the divine one within of their joyfulness real Self, wanting, not seeing what i see in them, of their yearning to be free of their uncertainties, or place in life, where already they are of the tender loving Self, unknowingly that they are what is of the greatest value, greatest treasure in life, that there is nothing in life beyond their loving real Self, of pure connectedness of healthy Self of another joyful loving experience who journey together in life, of the constant love devoid of doubt between them which they feel, is what HEAVEN is.
so many high risk trouble youths, of bashed in self-esteem, themselves not of the knowingness that their own abusive parents were likely abused themselves, of generational lacking of understandings like it does, of time running out for some of them, should they not get the help they need in rebuilding their self-esteem……….what can we do to remedy the world of the illnesses of heart, and the manifestations of the illnesses of heart which continue to grip and teach another, or abuse another, on and on an on it continues, from before the days Jesus walked the earth, all yet here with us today………..
the statistics are grim, year after year, of all these useless things which unnecessarily torment so many souls like it does………as we scream out, “No, stop this absurdness, don’t you understand, why are so many of you so unloving like you are with one another? Do you not reflect apon the consequences of your actions, the consequences of your undescerning useless bitter words you utter like you do? Do you not see and feel what we feel? All of you! Seemingly so wise and so obviously not! Don’t you feel what we feel each day of this upside down world of great suffering of so many children behind these spiritual poverty walls of death we are cause for? Is no one listening? Is anyone there?!!!!!!!!!!”
blessings to all
bless you
if of a purpose in life, let it BE; the truth we feel which speaks to us within, renonates deeply within, speaks thru us to others yet unaware; of the truth we look apon of precious innocent souls born into the many generational spiritual death voids devoid of love, projections of the unwise world which are not true of the child, no matter education, language, race, religion, status, wealth, sex, orientation, or politic, of the truth, “We are all the same, sweet child of God, where only love is good enough for you….at all times.”
forever more
blessed truth
bless you
wow!
Jesus, the model, is so beautiful!!!!!!!
ahhhhhhhhhh!
who could possibly resist that one?
can i meet him?
lol
trust ‘me’
he will be just fine around ‘me’
i promise!!!!
lol
i hate christmas
my friend tried to suicide, but survived now his blind, seriously the world’s gone crazy
may be sometime when i m aggresiv i m just jaleous…it is not nice, but is like that…i try to cure …XX
nah, the world is just unwise, that’s all…in truth, the reality check of the 95% who are not of the fortitude of wisdom in psychology.
i was chatting with someone over lunch, of a cousin of his who was born into a household which passified the child before the age of six, by letting the child sit endlessly in front of the tv and playing video games, which i think alot of parents do, to passify their child, keep them quiet, where these children grow up with serious self-esteem issues and resulting social ineptitude, which further keeps the adult child in a cycle of psychological stuckness, themselves unwise in what is of health approach to positive mental emotional well being, a child of neglect.
as adult children, we coming into discovery and awareness of what is a health approach to healthy positive mental emotional well being, of getting our needs met, and addressing, healing of past unresolved issues with the use of professionals who know what they are doing, dedicated lives of wise compassion for sake of themselves and others along life’s road.
slowly, the world is evolving in this regard of issues of the human condition, issues which cross all barriers of language, race, religion, status, wealth, sex, orientation, politic……….of what is most valuable in one’s life, our positive mental emotional well being, and the development of the required healthy approach to achieving and maintaining our mental/emotiona/physical/spiritual/sexual well being.
i know i am not blind Marco, perhaps abit crazy at times, my abreactions, the unresolved abandonment issues i am addressing, of world that is not healthy for most of us, of the critical others in life, such as the bully mentality bosses like they are at times, themselves their own worse enemies, professionally speaking, where condescending towards staff is always wrong, of shooting one’s self in the foot, in creating low morale, low productivity, high turn over, and well, most importantly, coming to work where many are not of their fun loving joyful self around them……..you know who are.
crazy is a derogatory word, where everyone each day, is of how their entire life has been, and whether or not they are taking action with regards to addressing and cultivating wise respectful approach for their own Self, where no one is really crazy, rather, that is just they way they are according to how their life has been, where failing to address issues is detrimental to their future, remaining in stuckness of issues which do plaque a person their entire lives if left unaddressed.
what do you hate about Christmas Marco?
the pretentiousness of it all?
ya, me too.
truly, the approach to life is of daily enjoyment of loving life, each blessed moment by passing moment, where Christmas tends to wax over, or fill the void missing in their daily life, does it not?
take a look at these career zombies of 80 hour work weeks, stressing out, dead at 55, all the while of their journey of life, they bring their stress home with them, detrimental to themselves, their partner, their loving children, not embrace the most valuable aspect of life being the joyful journey of tender loving Self and loving Self of another and others, where time together is what is of value for blessed loving Self, feeling loved and loving.
so many running and running away from what is most valuable, the joyful delicate tender loving daily state of Just BEing Self, their adventurous fun loving Self and of tenderness of holding hands, kissing, hugging, all the things which are of sincere yearning of Self with another and others daily.
~ i suppose being alone is actually a good thing, helpful to Self, in establishing what is unacceptable in Self of inappropriate others, and in establishing of what is of constant yearning of Self, is it not?
~ with intimacy comes fear of rejection, a normal issue when entering into trust with others, where eventually, when of gradual fullfilling the constant yearnings, we feel the love that eventually disarms us, as we overcome our fears and surrender to constantly feeling loved and loving with another…..a process which merely requires time, and sorting thru our emotional honesty of others.
ya, me too Eric, i am of passive aggressive, seemingly of jealousy at times, but not really, rather it is merely of my not getting my needs met with someone i want to get my needs met with, a good thing, yes?!!!
~ just a few random thoughts for you today………
Blessings to all involved with Madonna’s Sticky and Sweet Tour, tonight being the final show, an incredible part of the fun loving joyful journey of loving life for so many of you, of the unending eternal journey of life where all of us are of constant connectedness, past, present, future.
blessings to all
bless you
argh…..the music on my blog is so annoying……..
i have my moments of introspection, which ultimately lead me to certainty of what i want, what we all want…..someone to love and have fun with daily.
i has been a year of introspection for me, of my seemingly constant searching for Self, where today i am making a list of goals as regards my real life.
at the top of the list is simply being happy as my real Self, with who ever wants to join with me of their sincere delight of being around me daily and i them, as best friend loving lovers, where both of us are of the sincere reflection within of our emotional honesty feelings for one another, at ease of being who they are, and what they too want of life.
i am not going to beat myself up over this, as to who that person may be, where everyone like myself, have their own thoughts and feelings of who may be of their daily yearning like my own, of what is true for them, where only when of sincerity, do two people come together of fun loving togetherness each day.
mirror mirror on the wall, who is the most joyful of them all?
huh?
i know, like you know, forever free to Just BE YOU along side ‘me’
i need some upbeat fun loving dance my ass of music that sets our joyful self free………hmmmm…..let me see what i can find…….
im bored………what’s worse, i am bored with ‘me’ and my writings………….
lol
i want to go live a fun life!!!
so who wants to join ‘me’ of endless fun?
we have to get our needs met on a regular consistent basis, ideally with a minimum of no less than three safe and supportive others…………it is a required responsibility approach of the adult child, at the individual level, thru out the entire life of us all…….key words; ‘required responsibility’.
so who wants assistance in getting their needs met?
huh?
let ‘me’ show you!
what ever ‘sincere happiness’ is for you, of your introspection, ‘that’ is what i want for you, for ‘me’ !
so tell ‘me’…….is it ‘me’ ?
~ andy and his psychology humor.
“is it true Guy won’t let M stay at the house?”
If she can make it to Swansea we have a spare bed.
“tonight being the final show,”
Is that right? It’s over?
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Somewhere over the rainbow Andrew!!!
is where you WILL find ‘me’ ?
i keep getting these vision of pure exceeding joyfulness which feels 100% unstoppable in feeling, of the highest platitude of the joyful real Self, which has a released kind of feeling, which also releases others who bare witness and connect with ‘that’ of the outward appearance of that within ‘me’, connected sameness as ‘that’ within them, of radiant smiling bright brilliance which does not seem to fade, so incredible is the pure feeling which i am feeling at times, of an overflowing abundance of seemingly none stop exceeding joyfulnesss, while of my recent meditation.
‘that’ kind of OVER Andrew?
over the TOP?
im feeling joyfully friskie today!
lol
deep breath…….i am here to stay for as long as you want ‘me’ around
forever more
just let people be the way they choose to be M, where we know at times, compassionately speaking, we can all be our own worse enemies, where in truth, we are all children in God’s house of love and peace, and the exceeding joyfulness some of us are with one another, like those of the unending yearning of joyful dancing of true loving life, of who you have always been for so long now, inspiration for several generations of millions of us.
it would make me sad to think anyone would choose to make you cry, where we both know the truth, at times we all wear false masks…….just ignore it and come to the dance floor of unending joyful loving life with us, where you belong, of we who truly love you, of the joyful true real Self connectedness we all love to feel with one another at all times.
do you feel the pure exceeding joyfulness of my recent visions? Why do i feel that you do? Care to explain?
i love you
you know i do…..always did….always WILL
always
it is useless to feel anything other than only love, where only love is good enough for you……at all times.
bless you forever more
i am here where i yearn to always belong as a part of your life forever more, so pure the feeling is for ‘me’.
peace be to this house
peace be to you
bless you
thank you God
thank you Jesus
thank you everyone
Jesus loves ALL God loves ALL We love ALL
God blesses ALL
bless you bless you bless you
forever more
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in truth, many do not know how to just relax and BE a REAL friend, just as they choose not to BE REAL of blessed Self, albeit, they are aware within of their REAL Self, however submerged at times we all can on occasion BE.
i know, take an ipod with you every where you go, listening to some recent personal selections of dance music of your choosing, and turn the volume up really loud, and when someone comes along to speak with you, say, “What? I can’t hear ‘YOU’!!! huh?”….and then like do one of those dance spins as you exclaim, “Whatever!” as you dance over to another.
lol
im bad i know
actually, i prefer Christmas away from those who cast ‘me’ away as though i am some deviant soul……little do they know much of anything about ‘me’, do they?
even 5 seconds is too long for ‘me’ with some of them……
so toxic they are for ‘me’……..yuk!
only love is good enough for you from now on
bless you
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ok…….here’s the rule…..if even of one false bitter condescending belittling word from ‘any’ of them who are of falseness, turn around and walk out.
as Jesus said, “Where untruthfulness is, you will not find ‘me’
you know the feeling, the toxic bullshit?
fuck that, who has time for their mean spirited emptiness……..not ‘me’………not ever ‘me’……..not from any of you will i tolerate untruthfulness of bless real Self ‘me’
bless you Madonna bless you bless you bless you
forever more
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oh for fuck sakes……..ist that Perez in that video in his rainbow funk wear? Damn, it is!
we all have a joyfulness within us, where merely truning towards our true inner joyfulness within, is all one needs to do, and Just BE who you really are in Jesus and God’s eyes, the holy blessed pure fun loving joyful child of God True Real Self YOU………including you Perez……..who at times, like ‘me’, can be really annoying…………
ah well, at least i turn towards knowing the real ‘me’
blessings to all
bless you
I thank you guys for the support of my tour…all done .
Happy Christmas i love you all.
The tour maybe having a revisit in 09 just finalizing the details..love to visit OZ..Watch this space.
Love you all xXx
you are welcome!
ohh….on film, or another stage performance?
ya, me too.
been living in oz for a long time, although the ex still is so belittling with me…….his own worse enemy…….so annoying!
i go back for a visit, for his sake, and all i get is his bullshit attitude of put me downs………like anyone wants to hear that…….
eventually, i will just stop altogether, which is how he makes me feel ever single time…….a serious behavioural issue for him.
ah well………i love my new freedom of no critical others.
blessed Happy Birthday Jesus, even if you were not born on the 25th, God knows you were born……..of blessed spiritual truth awareness knowingness certainty like my own that is, free advice for all to hear(feel) the TRUTH.
~ constantly evolving
i keep coming back to the inspiring divine breath of the beatitudes of Truth, that are simply stated, but are profound in meaning. They guide. They point. They teach. They show us the values that Jesus cares about. These values if followed, can not only bring a believer into a state of peace and happiness, but also right into the Kingdom of God of our journey on this earth is where it is a state of BEing, that of Self-actualization, which seems to BE the end goal of all the words, away from degeneration, becoming fully restored in purity of heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, words of living waters so to speak, or fountain of (true)life.
after a long journey of feeling the goodness of life without self-medication coping like i did for some twenty years, i feel a safe enough distance has occurred for me, where a significant amount of time has passed which sees my sincere appreciation of my at ease real Self, of normal everyday living, of clarity of mind, relaxed in the peaceful by nature real Self i once was prior to my twenty years of self-medication coping.
‘Safe Distance Appreciation’ is what appears as most significant of my awareness today, where i know without doubt, i shall not return to my old ways, and that is comforting for me, to feel safe and secure, unafraid, loving of my gentle real Self, where i feel the difference between those of healthy real Self, and those who yet self-medicate like they do, lacking in at ease confidence and love of their gentle real Self.
~ just some more notes for those of you considering a full recovery program out of the clutches of substance abuse, which nearly ended my own life years ago…….i survived.
blessed Truth
God’s presence with us is the greatest present, of Jesus and God’s divine WILL that we all embrace the presence of TRUTH
forever more
amen
blessings to all
bless you
omg omg omg
oh my God..
Oh my God
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while the virtue of temperance as regards alcohol may work for some, it does not work for ‘me’, of my preference to feel100% healthy in TRUE feeling awareness of my real Self, like we all did before any of us consumed an alcohol drink.
with that said, i am also of the preference of the more at ease individuals in life of likemindedness, in selection of my inner circle friends and lovers.
it is my life, of how i want to live it, no one elses.
then there is the issue of setting an example for others, where most do not seriously consider that perhaps their unwise example may be of serious consequence, detrimental to the future of those of high risk behaviour to over indulge in self-medication coping, of so many statistics on the serious traumatic events consequences to such, the statistics alone is enough to sober anyone up.
“i ask, what of your friends you love?”
“do you truly love them 100%?”
“what of your children you love?”
“do you truly love them 100%?”
In Jesus and God’s eyes, my eyes too, no one 100% loves another, so long as alcohol is allowed in God’s house of love and peace.
i say this in honor of Troy William Bateman, once a best friend and lover of mine, who’s life ended tragically, a direct result of the consequences of self-medication copy thru the use of alcohol, a behavioural trait he picked up from others in his life, including ‘me’, of why i no longer desire to participate with those who yet allow alcohol in God’s house of love and peace.
my life, my CHOICEs
the ONLY WAY, the ONLY TRUTH to blessed loving TRUE LIFE, is thru experience of 100% health real Self.
as Jesus said, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to God except through me.”
of my life is the awareness i am of today, which clearly reveals the WAY, the TRUTH, the ONLY LIFE for ‘me’, is a life of ‘No Alcohol Allowed in God’s House of Love and Peace’.
forever more
amen
blessings to you and those you love
bless you all this holiday season of safe journey
peace be to this house
peace be to you
give thanks to Jesus and God
thank you God
thank you Jesus bless you Jesus bless you
bless you
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omg,
oh hey Marco………how is your day going?
hey, no alcohol this holiday season……..
appreciate and love your gentle tender mild sincere true real like i do, and stay 100% healthy, where you will feel the difference between you and those who drink alcohol, an awareness you will love and appreciate, as have i for the past 14 years, where i listened to my therapists at the time, and of discerning wisdom, i chose a partner that did not drink alcohol, which was essential for my full recovery which i know i am of this day, albeit, an occassional back slide of relapse no more than five times a year, and when i do, it is no more than three drinks, not like before, of my active binge alcoholism that nearly ended my life along with Troy’s, of why it is so hard for me to find forgiveness, turning to Jesus and God as the only one’s who can forgive ‘me’, where the truth is constantly there for ‘me’ daily at all times, unavoidable, undenialble……..a good thing.
trust ‘me’……..you WILL come into full awareness appreciation of the Healthy Real Self YOU awareness knowingness certainty appreciation with those around, ONLY thru 100% adherance to God’s rule of ‘No Alcohol Allowed in God’s House of Love and Peace.
forever more
so take my hand Marco, the blessed path of destiny is this WAY, this TRUTH, this blessed LIFE, always your CHOICEs which are YOUR LIFE.
forever more
come on…….were late!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
the dance floor music starts soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i love you, the real you……….and you know i truly do
forever more
bless you Marco bless you bless you bless you
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praise be to Jesus and God, and all those along life’s road, who were of consistent encouragement and nurturing of my self-esteem self love, and of my staying away from alcohol like they were and yet are.
thank you to all
bless you all for saving my sorry ass!!!
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and besides, dancing our asses off, all sweaty of sweet tasting salty sweat of our endless kissing on the dance floor, and the hours of endless SEX afterwards, is just so much more fun than dysfunctional, is it not?
come on Marco…….whatcha waitin for?
keep up WILL ya?
don’t worry, i WILL wait for the real YOU Marco!!!!!!!!!
forever more
here, try this one;
[http://www.imeem.com/ladyoffantasy/music/LukJZ8no/steve_winwood_give_me_some_lovin/]
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surely you did not think after my traveling all this way, i was going to leave without what i came for, did you Marco?
well don’t think that again!
come on………we truly are late!!!
blessed safe passage is this WAY!!!!!!!!!!!
bless you
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i like this sentence from wikipedia about ‘Beatitudes’;
The Beatitudes do not describe many separate individuals, but rather all the specific characteristics(what i like to call ‘Trueness Aspects’ of blessed real Self) each must have to experience heaven.
~ common sense truth
[http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Beatitudes]
so does this sentence have clarity for you now, of these words of Jesus?
as Jesus said, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to God except through ‘me’.”
as in the real ‘me’
~ common sense pure 100% connectedness, is it not?
thank you Jesus bless you forever more
thank you God
blessings to all
bless you forever more
“AHHHHH!!!!……..someone needs to tell Perez to STAY OUT of Brighton Michigan, USA…………..”
Brighton City Council approved a public conduct code Monday night, which includes fining someone up to $500 for being annoying.
sorry Perez……could not resist that one!
trust ‘me’ Perez, you do not have enough money to cover all your fines for being annoying!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol
i jest……………………………………………..
nah………i love you Perez……….one of the few in the GLBT worldwide community who is always of genuine joyful smiling Self, a good example for all.
bless you Perez, and happy HO HOs to you!!!!!!!!!
The Beatitudes (from Latin beatus, meaning “blessed” or “happy”)
~ not the false happiness that comes with substances abuse.
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BE sure to bring ALL your true and faithful friends with YOU, of YOU, like YOU, on life’s road into the Kingdom of God’s True Real Self YOU……undivided, rejuvenated in Spirit, finding their own source and not enduring loss to their soul(bitter derrangement twisting of truths+untruths), of the isle of the blessed, demonstating in TRUTH, and dwell in Life Everlasting, where our Pure Loving Blessed Spirits Celebrate, what is of constant pouring out of unconditional love for ALL our Real brothers and sisters, ‘that’ of Truth that we come to BE our holy blessed pure loving divine child of God True Real Self………….YOU.
~ common sense 100% pure TRUTH, is it not?
bless you ALL
bless you
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Jesus loves ALL God loves ALL We love ALL
God blesses ALL
bless you forever more
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oh, i just feel like one glass of red wine, maybe two thats not too much is it ??
Merry Christmas and congrats on your amazing tour!!!
I’m really into Nana Mouskouri these days –
but don’t ever think I’ve forgotten you!
I love you M and always will
Hope you’re doing well
Always sending you my best.
Love Michael
Xox
Are you really dating Jesus,
fuck A Brazillian Jesus I love it,, lucky Girl Xoxo
Jesus
My Ass
sorry, it is not ever going to work for ‘me’, where alcohol is an issue.
so go do what you want with who you want should you decide you want to allow alcohol in God’s house of love and peace…..i am standing by my decision choice WILL of my preference for consistently feeling as my true real Self, of what i have discovered works best for ‘me’, of MY LIFE CHOICEs.
it is not for me to decide of what works for you, where when dealing with addiction, ultimately, the addict has to be the one to bring to the table, a decision that they commit to, and their mustering of steadfast determination to achieve the end results, where i am of the end results of a 14 year long campaign of a full recovery program out of self-medication coping addiction, of MY LIFE CHOICEs.
You have to decide what works for you, of your own desires for how you prefer to feel each blessed day, of your own introspection of LIFE CHOICEs.
i am not going argue with any of you addicts, knowing already, i will not win where there is horizontal hostility of you and your friends who are of addict likemindedness, nor will i openly debate the issue with you, and rather i will close with Andy’s LIFE CHOICEs, of what i have found works for MY LIFE, ok?
i will leave you with some notes to reflect apon as well about the addict personality, and i don’t care what you may have to say, where it is serious introspection of your own that has to take place, and make your CHOICEs of what accounts for YOUR LIFE.
~ personally, i prefer consistent constant real self feelings, without alcohol, and i also prefer friends of likemindedness, of our at ease peaceful TRUE real Self, of MY LIFE CHOICEs.
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Here are some addict personality traits for any of you to reflect apon, as i already have for the past 14 years of my attempt to stay sober.
To gain insight, consider carefully this commonly accepted list of personality traits found in the addicted person. These are characteristics that occur in normal people, but in the addict are exaggerated and uncontrolled. These things render addicts incapable of being at peace.
Low Frustration and Tolerance seems to be the most consistent trait. This is the inability to endure, for any length of time, any uncomfortable circumstances or feeling. The addict is impatient.
Anxiety that state which seems to exist in all people, exists in an exaggerated way in addicted persons. They are subject to nameless dreads and fears. This anxiety drives alcoholics and addicts to “fight or flight”. Sometimes this is called free-floating anxiety.
Grandiosity is worn as a protective armour to hide feelings of low self-esteem. In reality, although addicts nourish an inflated image of themselves, their deep conviction is one of self-worthlessness.
Perfectionism sets impossible goals with inevitable failures and resultant guilt. The alcoholic/addict is an idealist. This idealism may be one of the reasons for success after recovery. They can be exceptionally fine workers once the illness has been arrested and after the perfectionism has been reduced to reasonable proportions.
Justification Addicts are masters at this. Justification is the science of arranging to do what we want to do, then making it appear reasonable.
Isolation and deep insecurity deprive the addict of the real generosity needed to make close and enduring friendships. They become loners.
Sensitivity exaggerates all the unpleasant interpersonal relationships experienced by the addicted person. This inevitably produces extreme resentment.
Impulsiveness “I want what I want when I want it.” This is probably related to a low frustration tolerance. In some ways the addict takes pride in this impulsiveness, as though it were a valuable asset.
The alcoholic/addict can’t seem to enjoy a job or task and long before completion is already moving on to something else.
Defiance is a common response to society as a whole, whether the addict is under the influence or not. This is associated with a feeling that one does not fit, exactly, into society.
Dependence on other persons exists in an exaggerated form in most alcoholics/addicts.
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is it true, she is seeing that beautiful Brazillian guy named Jesus? He really is beautiful, and perhaps a sweet personality too? Is he smart? Centered? Grounded?
ah……none of my business, and i don’t really want to hear about it, thinking(knowing) we had something of likemindedness special connection, most don’t ever find…….the ever hopeful ‘me’…………..i’ll just keep telling myself it was all just a dream i once had.
time to wake up………time to go life a real life as ‘me’
blessings to all
bless you
Jesus loves ALL God loves ALL We love ALL
God blesses ALL
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it is of Jesus and God that Andy remains commited to living a sober life from now on, with sober friends, where i will not swayed in changing my decision CHOICE WILL…….MY LIFE according to MY CHOICES
i find people who drink to be uncomfortable for ‘me’ to be around on a daily basis. We all have friends and aquaintances who entertain with alcohol. It is the inner circle friends on a daily basis, where i draw the line for selection of my inner circle friends and lovers.
so there you have it, the TRUTH of how my life WILL BE till my last foot steps on earth, of this generation.
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i feel your remark about intimacy with Jesus the Brazillian model to be an empty remark which would not come from the ‘real self’ of someone genuinely and sincerely in love with him, so why would you say something like that?
so i guess that’s it then Marco, where you and i are concerned, as mere aquaintances along life’s road?
i do not want to participate if of a life that includes your issue of alcohol, ok?
i am 100% committed to the wise destiny path i have chosen for my real Self, so don’t even consider if thinking that i will BE of inviting those who drink into my close inner circle of life…..i WILL not.
bin there. done that. not again. too annoying. not of consistently BEing geniune mild tender real Self enough for ‘me’
to each their own on the road of life.
i will say this, for those of you who yet are of the clutches of substance abuse snaring……”It statistically spirals downward into the bottom and usually gets horrifically worse, ending badly, of the continuous ongoing findings of case study. The bridge is out up ahead.”
blessings to all
bless you
never mind, don’t bother answering my questions……..it will just lead to more and more passive aggressive bullshit, which i don’t enjoy.
as for issues of alcohol abuse, i do not want to talk about that either, and ask that you speak with professionals who are more qualified than i am, as it is a serious life issue.
blessings to you and those you love
bless you
the name Luz means Light
Jesus Light
what a great name!
i wonder if the world will treat him like they ignorantly treated Jesus 2000 years ago….most likely, as most are not wise of how to be respectful of another’s soul.
Not another boyfriend??!!! How many its that this month??
I’ve lost count.
no but i don’t really looking for…i m too much twisted, and i m not really ready to shake my mind with some one and to support an other mind… the more difficult is to find a brain with a body or a body with a brain…and many gays if they don’ t find exactly what they are looking for, they are lost… they are very squarred but it is over boring… so… to miss Andrew
ya, what ever eric, we all make excuses for our insincerity, where often i have caught myself making excuses for myself as regards another, where i was not really passionate for them, and on and on i kept making excuses for my lack luster passionate zeal for them, where they were just not my type, that’s all, no beating ourselves up over that one, move on, and let them move on too.
for me, the first thing i have to connect with, is their level of emotional availability, so in that regard, i know i am not lost, and i know i am not gay, i am mere a male who love sex with either sexes, where priority of a conducive real Self-actualized individual, fearless in BEing themselves, works best for me, where irregardless of sex, without that, it won’t work.
Obvious passion also has to be there.
Sometimes i wonder how many souls we pass by in life, of not having spent enough time with them together, if any time at all, of who may or may not of been a truly incredible soul to be around daily. You know those moments where you see some, you sense abit of what they are about, thinking to yourself, “ya, i would love to spend some time with that one!”
well……….life is like that, and sadly, those ones who may have been once available, become unavailable for all you slow as molasses in Feburary sorry ass motherfuckers.
i am frustrated………….
you know, i know that if one were to give themselves a chance to see how a sober life feels, without doubt, they would see what i am talking about, and i want that with you Marco, but only if you are serious about following thru on addressing the issue……….i really do want to show you……..please, let me show you how great it feels to always be your health Self.
i know you KNOW what i am saying, and you KNOW i am correct, deep within, you KNOW the truth, i am correct.
so do you want to work at addressing it with, or without ‘me’ ?
no rush, as you cannot rush moment by blessed moment, you know those wonderful moments? Why would anyone want to rush a great moment, such as this?
ok………no more insulting me with excuses everyone, either spit it out, or i lose interest in your boring ass……….. lol
no really…………
bless you
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no but i don’t really looking for…i m too much twisted, and i m not really ready to shake my mind with some one and to support an other mind
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help me with the translation on this one Perez!
Translation;
You are not my type that turns me on?
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why is it people go away and come back later after soul searching their emotional honesty, often too late, after you have already moved on in life with someone else………..are people that unable to make decisions for themselves Perez?
and like, why do they not think of us as wise Perez, where we interpret every motherfucking word they say? Do they not know they cannot slide anything past us Perez?
fuck.
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Not another boyfriend??!!! How many its that this month??
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i only want to know where i stand……….the TRUTH, so that i can get on with LIVING a REAL LIFE.
two years at this blog now, my therapist is seriously worried about ‘me’, where in truth, it better get real soon, or i am running to real with someone else, ‘that’…. everyone can count on, as my therapist has some thirty years in the field, and she is not going to allow me to be of my yet psychological stuckness.
making excuses is not what is of sincere passion between loving lovers………last time i checked, so friendship i accept.
i get it, everyone thinks Andy is actually gay………..fine.
lucky is the one who gets Andy
blessings to all
bless you
~ i have a cold, and the cold medicine is affecting my mood.
i want your sincerity……………..
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many gays if they don’ t find exactly what they are looking for, they are lost… they are very squarred but it is over boring
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i want someone who is equally passionate for me as i am them, obviously passionate.
i want someone who is of sincere openness as their fun loving passionate real self, of loving tenderness at all times, and passionate kisses.
i want someone who is sincere within, of obvious love for me, like my own, of sweet passionate anticipation each hour we are apart.
i want open at ease fearless emotional availability.
i want sincerity, and i will not settle for insincerity, able to know the difference.
and anyone who refers to ‘me’ as boring, your loss for not spending time in getting to know ‘me’, and rest assurred, many there are who are of sincere WILL to know ‘me’
anyway……… i am calm, but a cold always makes me miserable, on top of my already miserable frustration.
boring……….for sure, i am not fucking boring, rather bored i am becoming of my boring ass sitting here at this blog……..that i agree on.
mmm
excuses?
avoidance?
hesitation?
oh, all too familiar to ‘me’
i am spending Christmas alone in the ghetto, with aquaintainces, where i feel sincerity is at the top of my list of what i want and expect from any of you, and if i don’t get it, well, you won’t get with ‘me’
you would think of all times, the day Jesus Christ was born, people would be fucking sincere with one another.
hell ~ people cannot even BE sincere with their own blessed Self
i said to someone the other day, i want certainty, where uncertainty is toxic.
ya, that is what i 100% want, and i won’t settle for less than 100% certainty…………it is what we all want, and i feel fucking stupid for even saying this.
it start and stops with certainty…….without doubt.
i am captain of my own life of certainties……irregardless of all and any who choose to BE of uncertainty with ‘me’
i want sincere love devoid of doubt, like my relationship with Jesus, constantly there with me, my true and faithful friend till the end, 100% without doubt, of my awareness connectedness with him, which is without any useless absurd doubtfulness like the doubt found in the world.
truly, who wants to feel doubt from anyone, of family friends and especially a lover?
100%……..without doubt……….not ever ‘me’
it is what works for us, of another, and of our own undoubtful feelings within we have for another
with ‘that’ said, i am without doubt of what works for ‘me’
and if any of you ever want to BE of ‘me’, it WILL only work when it is 100% love devoid of doubt of the real ‘me’ of all of you.
there, i said what i wanted to say, fearlessly expressing of TRUTH
blessings to you ALL, and my you ALL feel what it is i am of feeling, 100% without doubt of the love of Jesus and God forever more, of sincere reflections of your meditations.
bless you bless you bless you
anyway, Marco, if you are of WILLINGNESS to commit to coming fully into blessed awareness of life without alcohol, however long it takes, of my own awareness feelings of just how great life is without alcohol, i am of WILLINGNESS to BE of surrendered spirit with YOU forever more, where i KNOW in time, you WILL come thru ‘Safe Distance Appreciation Awareness’, which rewards you with the TRUTH of how blessed loving True Life really is while of our blessed Real Self 100% of the day, each blessed day…………i merely require that you entertain the idea of openly exploring this discovery of your blessed loving soul like my own, so that you do come clear of the hazards of unwise fate, and walk the path of wise destiny, where i know, without doubt, you WILL BE so thankful of the discovery.
so please, give it some serious consideration, while i am yet here with YOU, not ever against YOU, rather against the learned behaviours of the forefathers.
my love is 100% true for YOU, of surrendered loving spirit here for YOU to walk beside along life’s road forever more……….and you KNOW i am of purity love sincerity like your own in saying this.
if merely of friendship, then tell ‘me’, friendship is all you want at this time, so that i can come clear of the uncertainty which yet is there as regards the future of you and i, albeit, i am of certainty, of our true and faithful friendship till the end.
so please, don’t hesitate in thinking you are sparing ‘me’ the truth you want to say, as the uncertainty is uncomfortable for ‘me’, which i don’t like to experience.
just tell ‘me’
bless you
in truth, one more day of this uncertainty is not something i want to do…………..
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the more difficult is to find a brain with a body or a body with a brain…and many gays if they don’ t find exactly what they are looking for, they are lost
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i would say if any of you are of the superficiality surface desires, and not of the desire for the delight of the pure genuine trueness aspects of Self within, Self of another, well, have fun with superficiality of the lessor wise ones………..where indeed, you are correct Eric, LOST and AIMLESS is the correct.
i love my Self, the entire package, heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, and for sure, God knows someone in life WILL BE of loving ‘me’, of exact sameness of truly loving them as well…………without doubt between us.
but for those of you who do not spend time with ‘me’, how is it possible for you to TRULY know ‘me’ ?
~ andy and his frustration continues…………..
you know, i feel kinda silly explaining, as though trying to convince someone to love ‘me’…………..where in truth, people either are of geniune desire in yearning to love you………….or they are not.
i want open obvious genuine sincere desire, which is what i am used to feeling of a most loving lover, and is what i KNOW i am looking for Eric.
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ok……….i’ve said my peace…………
God bless us ALL
Jesus loves ALL God loves ALL We love ALL
God blesses ALL constantly forever more
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sorry if i sound so self centered………it’s the therapy i am going thru.
Congrats to Madonna of adopting another child……..if it is true……….a blessing.
blessings to Madonna and family
bless you
don’t put your shit on me, now everyone here think’s im an addict because i had two glases of red wine.. omg
how embbarasing, well actually i do have a slight addiction to love, i love making love, ( not to be mistaken for shallow sex) real love i mean
Hello out there, “”Who does’nt love making LOVE .. ??? “””
see no answer !
It’s a good addiction… YEs ?
i was talking about serious life issues Marco, of your giving the green light to alcohol, which may see one of your children suffer from your unwiseness, so enough with the trivializing serious life threatening issues, where 100%, i am concerned for your chidren’s future.
i don’t know the extent to your wine drinking, and i am sorta on the fence actually, of the benefits vs the serious side of alcohol use.
ah, ya, life without sex.
sometimes i am made to feel as a nescience, which for me, is not love…………
certainty, uncertainty
round and round
i need to stop with uncertainty, that much is certain
nice to here you are getting your sexual needs met…………perfectly healthy, no doubt.
anyway, i feel my recent writings were of sincerity of my soul, and your words of “Putting my shit on you?”
is that even of a sincere friend?
no it is not.
go enjoy your arrogance with someone who will actually enjoy it ok.
i can’t even have a civil conversation with you like i do with my university friends, which is of your chosing to belittle me like you do from time to time.
i really felt you had deep sincere feelings for me Marco, where now i am made to feel like a jerk, of what most would consider wise approach for any parent of children.
you trivialize my writings as though they are of nothing to you…………….painful to me.
i think i will go now, as i feel i have my answer, you don’t really desire me like i had hoped you did.
‘that’ is how you make chose to make me feel, of not even hesitation to be of mature conversation with me, of what i felt was of serious consideration.
obviously i am not of your serious consideration, where others are in my life, of at ease gentle self conversations we have
fine
good bye
i here M has some expensive wine she may invite you to share with.
some 25 bottles for $7500.
who the fuck pays that much for wine when children are starving to death.
be sure to enjoy each drop without ‘me’ Marco and M
looks like the socially accepted disease of alcohol wons this time round.
which i don’t take personal, although i do feel it personally within, of how one can be so trivializing of me like they are, when i was merely of sincere concern for all.
it is like i mean nothing to you, ok.
who wants to ever feel that way when i actually felt i was of your serious consideration as a potential life long partner.
i was not condescending with you at any time, rather of open discussion of what is of serious life matters.
i won’t let anyone speak to me like that, and i am surprised you did, knowing it would make me feel belittled, of no importance…………
it is your world i suppose, of which you obviously have decided not to invite me into, other wise you would not speak to me like this.
so am i correct?
you had no intention of inviting me to real life?
i know, why not leave me out there forever to wonder, like i have for the past two years………….
i cannot talk to you, and i have no desire to anymore, so go enjoy you wine, knowing i how you made me feel, as though nothing to you.
no one is descerving of that rude conduct.
and i do not feel as though you are deserving of me, and certainly not of desire for me.
i want to try and understand, and i cannot see past your alcoholic personality which is being defensive to continue to exist as a part of your life.
fine.
i have said my considerations…………which mean nothing to you?
i won’t come back here, where it is you who i leave in approaching me, and if not of your sincere true Self, don’t bother, as anything other than sincere truthful and genuine loving is toxic for any of us in feeling.
ya, now i really hate Christmas………..not really, just the jackasses who mind fuck us with it
there is not sincere converstation, when only one is sincere…………
my next topic of discussion was a good one too, called “Unspeakable Joy and Splendor”, of my recent visions…………
but who will listen to the babbling fool who is made to feel as though a fool, when in truth, it is those of mockery who are foolish, are they not?
thank you God
thank you Jesus
blessed are those of a pure heart
blessings to all
take care
~ i expected your defensive alcoholic personality today.
denial is a powerful thing………..
why did you chose to mock me like that?
is that your way of nurturing, thinking it is actually ok, thinking i would respond positively?
or is that your way of saying, you are unimportant to me?
clearly, that is how i now feel.
fine, go be with your latest fling……….
and to think i placed the significance of my life destiny as a friend with you, and you mock me
you will not mock me ever again, and in truth, you make of your as your immature self
ok……admittedly, i am oversensitive right now, over reacting………….
all part of my current mental health.
i just bugs me that rather than responding to what i requested of an awareness issue discovery for you, you come at me with mocking me instead, where i am here daily wondering where it starts and stops with you and me.
so have you reflected sincerely on my considerations yet?
it starts and stops with respectful approach with each other, that much i am certain.
so why not tell me what i yearn to know?
here is a tip……..you have BE of God’s grace, your grace, when of sincerity.
ok, you already know ‘that’
so why did you mock me during a sensitive time for me?
it is poison to me, of darkness which you cast into me, unloving.
ok……..abit over reacting on my part………..
don’t do that, ok?
i am being sincere with you………..
shall i stay or shall i go, as regards to real life?
ok people, don’t rely on emotional availability of people on the internet, where they can walk away any time they want, and leave you wondering however long they feel like………..where in real life, people are genuinely more respectful of one another.
~ just a tip from my therapist this week.
i am going for a walk……..be back later.
i am being truly respectful of you and your life.
i expect the same respect from you, if you want to continue this friendship, where i won’t, if you chose to ever mock me again…….i WILL not tolerate toxic belittling bullshit from anyone, as a way of respecting them, telling them, it is not ok, unlike most others who tolerate the inappropriate behavioral trait.
if you want a truly respectful friend, then be respectful people, and less annoying.
thank you
i would not make it as a therapist, that my i am certain………
Don’t be sensitive joy is just around the corner, actually, it is now let it be now, joy and happiness, banish the pain by turning it into growth, understanding of what the once unknown has become now the knowing the understanding of that which has allowed the soul to grow and understand it is you that matter most , the
YOU .. hey
i can’t believe you have not invited me to lunch yet……….all this time.
why?
ok……that’s the Marco i know and love
id ‘ love to do lunch, maybe at at restaurant by the ocean, where the water meets the earth and air meets the sky,
hang on i left out the fire,
Where the Fire meets the heart
fire in your heart…Dah !!
you don’t understand………when love is pure and true, even the slightest deviation from it is confusing for me, as regards the real self and ego.
you and i are both wise Marco, so incredibly wise, of the same sincere zeal and thirst for wisdom, which is what is most significant of our relationship.
listen!
i have become aware that individuals of sincere relationships grow stronger than if the same individual were not of a sincere relationship.
this is vital for our ongoing work which is evolving.
you and i both respect the evolving, and the incredible opening of the soul into greater wisdom, of higher platitudes where others are not of troublesome to us any longer.
when disrespect(transference from others) enters into our relationship or ego(which you yourself warn me about), then i grows apart, away from love, away from Jesus and God.
argh………i know i am overly sensitive right now, and over reacting is what you can expect from me, so bare in mind my reality at this time, which is yet of transition in coming clear of all toxic critical others as we speak, where i know my self well, in six months time i will be rejuvenated………..it is not a good time in my life right now, other than you and my dearest of friends who are yet along side me, who i need and love…….cherish.
forgive my outburst yet again. you are far greater in self confidence than i am, where at times i am not aware of your jabs as being merely that, jabs.
i am yet coming to knowing you more and more, and i am sincerely loving of you, of a pure feeling connectedness with you that tells me you love me too, at times where, “omg, they totally love ‘me'”
which you know always goes to my head(ego).
so tell me about the crystal candles in the sky……..they actually have crystal candles on that jet?
oppppppssssss
ya well, you have an bad way of igniting the fire of my heart……..you always did, knowing how i react to it, of others once on this blog like they were, at seemingly every turn, my defensive discerning wisdom which blocks the darkness from entering into me, becoming like them in outward appearance……..you know what i am talking about……
really?
around the corner?
i have been thinking that all week, all month actually…….
let it BE NOW!!!!
and already it is NOW!!!
living in the now, not the past, not the future, moment by blessed NICE WORDS moment
bless you
sorry………..for someone i care so much about, it is HARD for ‘me’ when they treat me less than how i constantly yearn to feel.
always here for YOU
forever more
bless you
you know by now, when of negativity of others, days later i channel it into my writing………..the fire.
at times i feel you do it on purpose, knowing in advance i will channel the negative energy into postive result writting like i do
bless you
~ Unspeakable Joy and Splendor
i have come fully into awareness of this feeling……..where it is a feeling of radiance so brilliant in outward appearance, only of being present in the moment, is one able to truly feel the affect/effect directly of what is only of feeling, not words which discribe, what is of Unspeakable Joy and Splendor to FEEL
overcoming truth wisdom is an interwoven component of it
forever more
YOU is what matters is the main aspect of what is Unspeakable Joy, of what matters to YOU most……JOY
Unspeakable Joy and Splendor is of purity love feeling of the innocent child memory within us all, and indeed, for ‘me’, M’s clown outfit when one wears it, is of Unspeakable JOY and Spendor.
i recall the Joyous reaction of everyone who drew near, a magical feeling, where i want one day to see 100 of them of a beautiful day…….maybe a cloud burst of rain, a rainbow.
i wrote about it in school, and my teach was so enthusiastic by what i wrote…….either that or he really liked my ass……both!!!!!
with Unspeakable Joy and Spendor comes the pureness of freeness from all fear, like that of our innocent childhood we once were of feeling, not of any fear like the world is, of our sheltered lives.
maybe that is what is wrong with me, i grew up too sheltered from the world………
actually, i love the sensitive qualities of my real self, the delicate tender mild sincere pure feelings i feel mostly in my hands, of the whole body state of BEing feeling, which is sacred to me, or our trueness aspect of pure grace state
while of our sincere prayer, the one praying is the one who turns fully of surrendered heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, towards the blessed trueness aspects of Self, aspects which are of the pureness state of BEing feeling of Unspeakable Joy and Splendor we FEEL
Unspeakable Joyful tears pure and true of the real self YOU
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understanding of what the once unknown has become now the knowing the understanding of that which has allowed the soul to grow and understand it is you that matter most , the
YOU
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ya, my therapist says i tend to seperate in personality from the one who is of the sincere zeal seeking of pure awareness undestanding…….it is my real self who does the writting, the reading research, the one who is wise, where at times, of abreaction splitting, old personality behavioural traits(old self) get the best of me somedays, depending on the amount of rest, diet, excercise, sex i have had recent, all of which are of vital addressing in keeping them in check at their appropriate levels, such as 8.5 hours sleep for me, which sees me at my peak best, mentally/emotionally/phsyically/sexually/spiritually
although some of my wackiest writings come from days on end with no sleep, of macro expanding, which leaves me exhausted and don’t come to close…….i tend to flame…….
so how are you handling everything?
you seem better than six months ago, so i don’t worry about you in that light……although it is true for everyone, Christmas is an emotional time for most, albeit, you seem to always have a handle on your emotions, which you do not let rule your life.
nor should anyone, and rather BE of merely feeling our emotions moment by moment living in the now, moving away from those who obviously make us feel uncomfortable like they do……where once of freeness from all critical others, the Unspeakable Joyful self returns in awareness of joy at all times, nearly an impossible task for most, what with their family, inappropriate friends they do not know enough to set boundaries with, school, work, all of these meshed toxic relationships………..not me, i am totally free, more so than any other time in my life, where my sensitivity levels are good in feeling, awareness where i love my sensitivity state of BEing
i have a nasty cold right now, so the next time i have a cold, i will stay one hour on the net, and go home and rest, as i am nasty bitter when i have a cold…..i think we all are, yes?
ha ha, not that kind, crystal’s are are captured Light, light that has entered a cave in ancient time’s and crystallized to form a crystal, so it’s like an ancient light ( literally the light in a solid form, a bit like me ha ah).
And by a Crystal Candle in the sky could mean, the light from above, ( ethereal above, ) candle being the warm tender light/love that soothes and calm’s , a bit like me ha ha,,)
it also means a craky in the jet … lol kidding
i know all about transference, all about sensitivity, patience healing and growing, kind of like, your my medicine, i’m your medicine..
Healing each other, growing learning like transfer’s like..
Just as the entire human race does every moment,
More now in a positive love’n way, than before, as you see humanity is EVOLVING , Finally …. just a little junk to clean out in this process, that’s why the is still quite some pain & anguish still occurring on the planet but it’s nearly there..
Back to you.. Back at you XOXOXOXOXXXOXOXOXXOXOXO
i am going home in an hours time…..my new place of inner peace.
here is an awareness note;
when one comes fully into their Self awareness mode, the macro thinking awareness reveals with clarity that Jesus too was of macro thinking Self awareness, which is of his real Self, not ego, where you realize Jesus was aware of the false masks of ego, and that his words were directly for one who also is of Self awareness and ego, and that is the connection channel with Jesus which is 100% open for ‘me’
i don’t speak of much, likely because it is of constant for me, of no need to remind myself.
Jesus was about nurturing the real Self, a therapist.
some of the recorded words feel contrived, and false, as though not of Jesus, and yet, i have sat with many of the recorded words for weeks, months at a time where eventually, the awareness of the revealing truth is obvious.
i prefer the ancient text over the bible, because it is of the 3 rd century papyrus paper they wrote on, and for me, it is closer to the time Jesus walked the earth, of where the paper they wrote on, was of the most expensive paper of that time period, of sincere followers or devoted monks, and where the burrial of it, is indicative of the yet uprising during that time, where they were executing the followers well into the third century, by the oppressive regime.
while of my real self introspection and reflections, the calm peaceful gentle at ease self, awareness reveals the ‘State of Being’, is what is of the objective nurturing words, something i became fully aware of within durig the second decade of devoted study, a dynamic which is clearly deliberate of the teachings, for any student of the Nag Hammadi Library study, were the student becomes fearless within, rejuventate in true real self they always were, where maintance of the State of BEing of real Self is also the objective, something clearly the monks who recorded the words, were well aware of.
The Experience of the Kindom of Heaven, is of the State of BEing awareness for any student of the Nag Hammadi Library, of students who come into full awareness that the objective is the State of BEing, of what 100% HEAVEN is………….without doubt.
often times i would try speaking to others about it at length, and they became troubled by the awareness, and became alarmed, as they mocked my seemingly endless desire of discussion of it, where i would retreat within, realizing they are not of my devoted desire study like i am(think nerd sitting in a library 24/7).
ya, i 100% know you, like i know ‘me’ Marco, and it is no mystery of our sincerity awareness.
overcoming the fear in coming together is easily done, merely thru time together, where trust will naturally develope of our defenses disarming by means of lovinging tenderness………..in the jet? Really?
what do they that, the mile high club or something?
candle being the warm tender light/love that soothes and calm’s
ya, been lighting them daily now……..it is so true….of the real YOU
they do more than that, 🙂
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i know all about transference, all about sensitivity, patience healing and growing, kind of like, your my medicine, i’m your medicine..
Healing each other, growing learning like transfer’s like..
Just as the entire human race does every moment,
More now in a positive love’n way, than before, as you see humanity is EVOLVING , Finally …. just a little junk to clean out in this process, that’s why the is still quite some pain & anguish still occurring on the planet but it’s nearly there..
Back to you.. Back at you XOXOXOXOXXXOXOXOXXOXOXO
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yes, i am of the awareness of the evolving, gradually.
i feel there is a deliberate fast track way of approaching the matrix which connects everyone, sorta like music does in club, where the deliberate approach is of our awareness knowingness which is of clarity of what Unspeakable Joy and Splendor is, where those who are of the pure awareness, are the ones who are able to address truthfully what that fast track way of approach may BE, of the same deliberateness of the teachings of the Nag Hammadi Library, of students who fully are of the State of BEing awareness of what HEAVEN constantly is.
pure thought for example aspects vs impure thought
i have seen some of Ms videos, and one i recall is the black wisping which i realized got the attention of my inner child within awareness level, something i feel M can attest to as deliberate.
with that said, that is why i am here, as one who is of knowingness of what HEAVEN constantly is, the state of BEing which is 100% love devoid of doubt awareness, of what is a component of the Unspeakable Joy and Splendor.
obviously, our objective likemindness is what is of most significant, for sake of our Self living a most blessed constant pure loving life devoid of useless doubt, leading by example, as well as the projects of likemindedness, which is what i want to do in life, alongside you, of why i am yet here all this time.
with that said, please know, i merely was addressing the issue of alcohol, from an awareness point of view which i realized is harmful in stay in the State of BEing, where i really don’t feel moderation should be giving the green light, strickly from my own awareness conclusions, and not an attack on you, rather for sake of improving you.
bless you
so it’s a date?
forever more
bless you
what could possible surpass doing more than ‘that’ in a jet, besides jumping out of it in a parachute?
jumping out of it naked in a parachute, fucking while you plumet 100 miles per hour towards the ground, making sure your partner comes before you do?
ok, top that one………i dare you!!!!
i double dare you!!!!!!!!!!
oh come on, let’s just doing it and get over it already!!!!!!!!!!
fuck.
ooppsss…………i X-rated the blog…………again……….
“what is wrong with those two?”
i am here!
just for YOU
forever more
you know my heart is pure, and as much as sometimes i appear like i want to leave, i know i cannot, knowing how long i have felt the way i do, decades, and like it is ever possible to change a incredible pure loving feeling, of no desire to.
blessings to you
peace be to this house
peace be to you
bless you bless you bless you forever more
thanks for tolerating ‘me’………it has been a difficult road at times of toxic others, which i told them all to kiss my ass!
finally!
ok…….i have entered into a pure state, of no toxic others in my life full time now, and the transition has been what most transitions are, of time required to adjust, although the inner peace is incredible, constantly all the time.
i feel this is vital for me in further exploration in to awareness of human condition, and obviously the health benefits that come with it……argh, how did i tolerate them like i did for so long?!!
i am feeling your sincerity which makes for the glowing within, and indeed, impure thought of useless negativity is something we can control, where sexual desire is of a component advantage, which serves well for maintaining positive mental emotional well being approach with one another.
andy is where? in the dog house? for how long now? a WEEK?!!!! It’s freezing out there, he’ll die! What do you mean you don’t care?? He did what?………….ok, leave him there for another week or so, but no longer.
“what is wrong with those two? They have not had sex in at least how many days?” lol
don’t they know sex is fundamentally the most important part of true loving life?
ok, it is obvious, perhaps they both do know………….without doubt…………………………………….
i will sleep good tonight.
thank you
bless you
sorry…….i really lose it somedays, my oversensitivity=overreactions.
it is of my current self-esteem issues i am addressing, of a two to five year commitment, although i feel i am perhaps not as bad as i think i am, as i do feel good though out most of my day, no ruminations, just at ease as my real Self, and all my girl watching!
what?
you know what’s amazing, is how the street people are so at ease relaxed, something i have been monitoring for some time.
i take time with them, of what is of only value for them, not a dollar, rather the words of nurturing, merely chatting with them, which is part of getting their needs met?
which guy?
oh, that one………i merely spent some time with him in the spa, out of the cold, his idea, not mine, of endless kissing for hours and hours, his delight of not tiring at all……….that was more than a month ago though………i love him……….he has issues……..we all do
oooooooooooooo………….three days off to do nothing!
i will hand out address to the homeless of where all the free meals are in the city………..something to do……..Christmas in the ghetto 2008
oh, you worry too much, as if anything could ever compare to our purity love………..not possible, so i have learned of my own awareness, of what HEAVEN constantly is
forever more
blessings to all
bless you
you always know the right thing to say to get me back in focused……………..you really do know ‘me’ better than i do.
i know alot too, and our focus is of the same place………….without doubt.
i am surrendered to it 100% ok?
i did this alone before God, and entered fully into the chamber, where i know is where you dwell.
nobody knows ‘me’ like you know ‘me’
what an incredible song that is……….profound
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literally the light in a solid form, a bit like me ha ah
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ya, i am that light, the State of BEing purity loving real Self, indeed of our virgin spirit memories, is it not?
people wonder what is the virgin spirit.
i am like, “Surely you were a virgin once, we’re you not? OK, i did not ask you Perez!!!”
it is pick on Perez week, because he can take it more so than those of us of the ghetto outcast crowd at Christmas time……..which i am cool about, these parents of so many in the ghetto who unaccepting of their own child……….makes no sense to ‘me’………….truly, people are their own worse enemies.
i am over it as regards my own family, and could not wait to get back to the ghetto cocoon that year……..
i know my own self-esteem is ten times better than those who outcast us…………TRUTH
one day these churches will be abolished…………mark my words.
there will be court case brought before them, and the Supreme Courts will terminate operations.
the only reason the are allowed is because they feel the off set of good outweighs the yet right wing governing bodies.
they are not all bad, rather they are fractured, not complete of God’s instructions, mere merchants of God’s word, which all started with the first early church which sided with the Romans in the first centuries, wanting to be the only church of God, for sake of ruling the uneducated people of the time, using fear to control like they yet do, not fully wise that God is the opposite, 100% fearless.
let me eloborate on fear abit as it relates to the State of BEing real Self.
while of our State of BEing real Self awareness of our exceeding grace, alone, we are without fear, where we come into awareness of the TRUTH that FEAR goes against the State of BEing real Self awareness of what HEAVEN constantly is, where awareness is of 100% knowingness that FEAR is ABSURD, not true of the blessed State of BEing awareness halo of what HEAVEN constantly is
rather fear is what is of yet controling the world, by church(the same Roman Catholic Church which started it all), government and business, all of which Jesus railed against their fearful false ways which Jesus was fully of the same awareness we are of, where fear goes against the purity loving blessed real Self, Jesus of his own evolved adult child of God true real Self.
blessed are those of truth
bless you all
bless you
oopppss……….left out an important word……….
Jesus of his own AWARENESS KNOWINGNESS CERTAINTY of the evolved adult child of God true real Self Jesus.
abit further eloboration of common sense………..
Jesus spoke constantly about Self, our love, our hatreds, our useless jealousies, our empty apathies, our compassion, all of our good and not good quailities, where constantly he was about pointing us in the direction of the storehouse of goodness within us, and away from that of bitter derangements which twist the soul and bind the heart(illnesses of the heart) in painful dark captivities, where Jesus knew of his own observations of those around them, the awareness of TRUTH of the many illness of the heart the Holy Blessed Pure Loving Virgin Spirit Evolved Adult Child of God True Real Self Jesus became fully aware of while out picking his nose in the sunshine………do think Jesus picked his nose? oh, i do not.
anyway the point is, Jesus was constantly of what was of his State of BEing awareness of the trueness aspects of Self, as well as the false bitter behavioural traits of the forefathers before him, like a scientiest of macro thinking awareness, Jesus merely was of awareness of what was trapping the heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, and obviously more so then, of a truly brutal regime likely far beyond anything of current today.
ok………i take that back……….the USA killed an estimated 100,000 iraqi kids.
ok, the point is the discerning between the beautiful feelings of the 100% State of BEing one is able to become fully aware of, with assistance from another, and the obvious detrimental things which hinder and prevent feeling the 100% level State of BEing awareness…….which is so incredible, so graceful, pure exceeding grace, where our clarivoyance opens wide.
so, there you have motherfuckers, all you governments, church and business have it all wrong.
i am so excited by the merging of life around the planet of the internet which has us all discovering one another, and the most significant truth aspect conscious/subconscious awareness connectedness occuring naturally between us all of the existing trueness aspects of the human condition, no matter the barriers language, race, religion, sex, orientation, status, wealth, or politic.
the greatest evolving ever thus far has been the last 100 years, and the greatest evolving is yet to come, where the light of TRUTH does not fail, as it is not able to fail.
forever more
blessings to all
bless you
i say music is the #1 most important tool of God, because of the constant aspect flow of music which keeps a constant connection within us open wide to our fearless purity love feelings, a dynamic of the flow of music from beginning to end, as well as the resonating harmony i love so much of the stringed instruments.
Bravo Madonna, and all musicians of the world……..the visions of Unspeakable JOY and Splendor indicate to me……….without doubt………..the best is yet to come
ok……………..Unspeakable Joy and Splendor is 100% ……….without useless doubt, where the objective is to be able to come into full awareness of the 100% level State of BEing of what is Unspeakable Joy and Splendor, which exist ingrained in the core of every human being that walks the planet, today, and all of eternity forever more……….eternal purity love which is of no fearful control time constraint device found in the world.
God bless Madonna bless you bless you bless you
forever more
bless you
damn Marco, you gave me too many sugar cubes!
is it not true that musicians are tuned into their LOVING emotions more so than most others?
100% proof of what is of the trueness aspects of us all, myself a musician.
seeing M with the acoustic guitar, and the others musicians, brought back my childhood memories of the houseful of musicians that gathered at out home on the weekends, during most of my childhood of country music………which i hate by the way…….no, not really, i just don’t like the cry in my beer songs of lament, on an on, oh for fuck sakes, go jerk off somewhere will ya. Here, let me help you with that!
opppsss……….i am determined to get banned from this blog yet…………
God knows i love her 100%
we all do, our love for her which has been growing within us all for decades now, and that is significant M, of generational spanning evolving flow, where it is vital to continue to BE of evolving of what is the Unspeakable Joy and Splendor feeling, of visions i have been recently experiencing, and will make notes for you to ponder, of what is actually of the dynamics of the matrix connectedness evolved growth of us all like you said, and this is not a light subject……..no pun intended………..rather, it is of mental/emotional/physical/sexual/spiritual life and death weight.
and of course, you know i want to participate with all of you at some level eventually………….what’s that? 33,000 feet?
im bad i know
F Barbie and Ken
“http://brandon-gilbert.blogspot.com/2008/12/fuck-barbie-ken-101.html”
expressions of the loving virgin spirit
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i know all about transference, all about sensitivity, patience healing and growing, kind of like, your my medicine, i’m your medicine..
Healing each other, growing learning like transfer’s like..
~~~~
i am so relieved to hear of you wisdom Marco
your wisdom makes you less susceptible to the troublesome mindsets of others.
what a year it has been for us both…………so much joy of sincerity between us of so many days, where only more is all i can think of.
it is true of us both, and i feel that from you for ‘me’, where it is seemingly you are trying to contain it……..why?
anyway, a time of relaxation and rest…….as if you could sit still for too long, fuck that……….i just wanna fucking dance!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok, time for a brain quiz;
which of these statements of Jesus are of the Self-actualization trueness aspects of the State of BEing Self awareness?
Jesus said, “You received grace, don’t you wish to BE properly prepared?”
Jesus said, “Your hearts are intoxicated with worldliness, don’t you wish to BE sobered up?”
Jesus said, “He healed you when you were sick, in torment, so that you might rule over your Self”
Jesus said, “Leave no room within you unfulfilled(macro thinking), or he who is coming is able to scorn you.”
Jesus said, “Paradoxically it’s good to be in want, so as to BE fulfilled more often, and not forget your Divine Self so much; so BEcome full of Spirit(practice BEing your real Self more often).”
ok……..i gave you a couple of freebees………
bless you
i love you
bless you
ok, another one for you to ponder;
Jesus said, “And there’ll BE nothing left to frighten or disturb them again; when you scrutinize death, and enquire who dies? it WILL show you the way to BE chosen.”
~ this is indicative that Jesus was fully of his own evolved awareness of the self created ego masks the self creates to hide behind, usually of oppressive abusive environments that this occurs, which without doubt, Jesus was of the awareness of the exact causes of the illnesses of the heart, such as ego masks, and the submerging of the Holy Blessed Purity Loving Divine Child of God True Real Self YOU
~ an easy one
sweet dreams i have of YOU, and you KNOW i do, ‘that’ of our pure awareness knowingness certainty…………………………………..without doubt.
that was a special day for me, the day i realized it was you, sorta like the awareness of the director’s version of Boys don’t Cry…..the sex scene.
i realized that day, that moment.
what were the words again? oh yeah……..”i wanna dress you up! i will love you forever!”
can’t hide from ‘me’
ok, a few more words of centering;
Jesus said, ” The good WILL not re-enter the world(egotistic worldliness), so mock spiritual death(emtiness of wisdom)(poke fun at their false egos….you do this one well which is of awareness for them, is it not?), and reflect on life everlasting(coming fully into outward appearance purity love meditative awareness you are already of awareness of).
Jesus said, “Remember the emblem of my Cross, and my crucifixion, and you shall live!(truly live as true real Self, where forgetfulness of the issue of transference, for example, is the foe, and remembrance that HEAVEN is about the descerning wisdom of State of BEing of real Self-actualized, where the Cross is the emblem of TRUTH about the false egos which crucified Jesus, of his willingness to reveal not just the TRUTH, but also that of just how signficant awareness is, surrendering of his life 100% platitude level of compassion which is of the of ‘PURITY LOVE devoid of doubt’ pureness feelings we are of awareness. Jesus knew we would come fully to his level of awareness like his own, and his surrendering to the Cross, which this statement clearly reveals he knew he was going to the cross before they crucified him, knowingly, WILLINGLY, to speak to those at the time, and to us in the future, where of his own awareness level, he realized fully, oh, if this is true of me today…………without doubt………..it will BE TRUE of future generations, where like we know, Jesus also was of the awareness of evolving which would continue to grow in the future, constantly, of the constant yearning aspect within the core of our BEing which constantly yearns to constantly feel loved and loving at all times. In this regard, Jesus assist us with his level of awareness of ‘LOVE devoid of doubt’ which clearly is true of Jesus, ‘LOVE 100% devoid of doubt’, is the LEVEL to reach for.
we know this aleady from our meditation awareness levels we love so much.
bless you and those you love forever more
bless you
Jesus said, “BEcome seekers for the death of the egotistic petty self, like the dead who yearn for life(wholeheartedly), for that which they seek shall BE found.”
‘that’ of the State of BEing Self awareness purity love of meditation we are of awareness knowingness certainty of how blessed it feels.
forever more
bless you
Jesus said, “I am telling you the TRUTH when i say that none of you’ll BE saved(come fully into awareness of the State of BEing Self awareness), unless you believe in the emblem of my Cross, where those of you of great faith(insight), they shall KNOW the Kingdom of God(State of BEing Self awareness purity love feelings we love of all the trueness aspects of Self, such as exceeding grace)
bless you
and now a word from our sponsor!
“http://www.imeem.com/ladyoffantasy/music/LukJZ8no/steve_
winwood_give_me_some_lovin/”
i so love that song!!!
Steve Winwood – Gimme Some Lovin Lyrics
Well, my temperature’s rising and my feet hit the floor
Twenty people knocking ’cause they’re wanting some more
Let me in, baby, I don’t know what you’ve got
But you’d better take it easy, ’cause this place is hot
So glad we made it, so glad we made it
You got to gimme some lovin’, gimme some lovin’
Gimme some lovin’ every day
Well, I feel so good, everything is sounding hot
Better take it easy, ’cause the place is on fire
Been a hard day and I don’t know what to do
Wait a minute, baby, it could happen to you
So glad we made it, so glad we made it
You got to gimme some lovin’, gimme some lovin’
Gimme some lovin’ every day
Well, I feel so good, everybody’s getting higher
Better take it easy, ’cause the place is on fire
Been a hard day, nothing went too good
Now I’m gonna relax, honey, everybody should
So glad we made it, so glad we made it
You got to gimme some lovin’, gimme some lovin’
Gimme some lovin’ every day
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every blessed day of the only value in life beyond all the riches of the world, our awareness which knows the truth of this 100%………………..without doubt.
forever more
i love you
bless you
what is there in life more valuable than truth of Self?
the truth of what happens when two Selfs get together!!!!!
duh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The Gospel of Christ, when sought, reveals the secret mysteries to those purified(real Self virgin spirit restored, and Self-actualization maintainance), to those purified though His grace, enlightening all encased in darkness(unwiseness ego) through forgetfulness(of their real Self submerging beneath false ego masks).
~ grace is a trueness aspect of our real Self, again, indicative of the truth of how aware Jesus was of the trueness aspects of his real Self, of healthy Self-actualization awareness knowingness certainty…………..without doubt.
~ Jesus was constantly of the likeness of a therapist who’s objective in approach is of Self-Actualization wisdom pure truth words which all point conclusively to the State of BEing awareness which comes with healthy self-actualization.
He pointed out the Way of Truth, which he preached. Error became enraged(ego), persecuted and attacked him, but was nullified by his sacrifice, of pure truth revealing of ego, where it is the light of truth which destorys ego thru humiliation, humbleness, the blessed submerged real Self released, freed from behind the false mask ego we all create.
Crucified, he became a sourse of Knowledge concerning his Father.
It didn’t lead to annihilation because his Wayu was practised. Those who practised rejoiced, discovering Him in themselves……………of what is real SELF, the trueness aspects of Self awareness, which is what Jesus 100% was constantly of, not submerged, fully of within, and as well as outward appearance.
Jesus said, “when you learn to make the outward of likeness of the inward as One, eviction of the ego.”
ok, Jesus did not say it exactly like that………i did
blessings to all
bless you forever more
bless you
Right, that’s just about it for another year. I’m outta here for about 10 days.
Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year for all the strange people on this site.
I’ll see you all again next year.
Andrew.
X
I can top, that one, but for now it’s Xmas,
See you ALL in the New Year
2009… Your Gonna be mine…
I have no doubt. You always get what you want.
I’ll look forward to it!
X
already i am……..
i am………BE Cause……….We ARE!!!!!!!!!!!!
on board ‘i am’ the captain
fasten your seat belts everyone, Andy is at the helm again.
oh, this is not good……………
you sure you know how to fly this thing?
oh relax, everything is automated, built in, you just need to know which buttons do what?
omg omg omg
oh my God
i love the feeling of flying, don’t you?
landing gear up, climbing to 35,000 feet
feel free to move around everyone………..
and thank for joining us as we make our way for Unspeakable Joy and Splendor of the future world.
All are invited to our all inclusive celebration of our fun loving Joyful Spirits forever more, ALL of us as the unconditional lovers of ALL, the many in the One and One in the many united as One, of the WorldWide GLBT community, where one day, they will do away with these names and embrace what we all are, merely ‘that’ of loving lovers, are we not?
forever more
blessings to all of you and your loved ones
bless you
Jesus loves ALL God loves ALL We love ALL
God blesses ALL
bless you bless you bless you
forever more
+
blessed blessed blessed is the feeling
forever more
+
sailing is boring……….i wanna FLY!!!!!!!!!!!
i always had ‘me’
andy and his self-actualization humor……
you always had ‘me’
you will always have ‘me’
hey, who is ‘me’?
can’t you see?
i am the one who can see you, any time you feel like ‘me’ (as in feel like seeing ‘me’ that is)
“ALWAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”
~ constant sameness connection of constant feelings of feeling loved and loving forever more
True Feeling Awareness of what HEAVEN constantly is, merely by turning towards the overflowing abundant storehouse of our loving compassionate wise heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, that of the Spiritual State of BEing Self Awareness Knowingness Certainty of the Holy Blessed Purity Loving Divine Child of God True Real Self YOU
forever more
blessed safe passage thru the holiday season for ALL
please everyone, if you have to travel in bad weather conditions, SLOW DOWN!!!
thank you
blessings to all
bless you
Love you
I EXPECT A REPLY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
10,9,8,7,6,5,4,3,2,1,0
Gweneth ?? you there ???
tell her to wake up !
it’s a NEw Day,
Wake up & Smell the Coffee
GayBoy Aromour, Amour
yer Jesus said so
whatever …
Hurry Up, Erik my Chef needs to sleep
lunch is waiting
erik, roses not coffee owh, wake up & smell the roses
HELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
HELOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
Fuck i just want to make you happy..
humpty dumpty sat on the wall, then he had a big fall and cracked in half, all the soldiers and all the whoever’s put humpty dumpty back together again
humpty dumpty was so not gay, ask him now .
http://au.youtube.com/watch?v=yd8CApTkCtw&feature=channel
already i am happiness within, just like i know you too are Marco, dancing, spinning, smiling, of forever more confident feelings which are of our certainty that only love is good enough for us, where should anyone not be loving of us, then they are not of what is ever going to work for us, as we are of the true fun loving real self, of fun loving dancing, spinning, smiling forever more true real self that is free to Just BE our SELF, are we not?
indeed, it is a new day of 100% blessed pure loving awareness knowingness certainty of what Jesus knew we would come fully into 100% awareness of, ‘that’ of Self-actualization, true of Jesus, true of YOU, true of us ALL, albeit, sadly, many there are in life who plod along aimlessly unaware of what is most sacred in life, sadly not of full cognitive appreciation, awareness knowingness certainty like we truly are now about the evolved Self-actualized Jesus who wants us all to come fully into what he most wanted for us to know about our real Self, “What is true of you, is true of ‘me’, is it not?”
This is what is most sacred in knowing about the evolved adult child Jesus Christ; Self-actuailzation of the real ‘me’ within us all, where sameness of ALL Self, is what is true of Jesus, true of us ALL.
Jesus was of 100% certainty devoid of doubt, fully of his real Self, so much so, he WILLINGLY surrendered to the claws of the beast of ignorance(egos) which he knew would kill him like they did, like they did of so many, like they yet do, do they not?
I stand in front of Jesus, in the light looking into his eyes, of him looking into mine, while he is yet alive there apon the cross, feeling the pure truth of everything, of a world which is sadly not of knowing what is of greatest priority in life, for how can one be of priority of something, if they are not of awareness knowingness certainty of real Self like we are?
yes, roses, i love roses!!!!!!!!!!!!
i merely looking for the hand of another to hold, to run down the street with, sincere in feeling within them, same as my own, where on such a day, it is obviously true of our love for one another, pure and true, without doubt, of exceeding unspeakable joy and splendor, pure and true courage to finally step away from the cross road i am yet at, waiting patiently for such a person, seemingly an eluding day that may not arrive, and yet, already i am of the feeling of running down the street with them, looking to see of who these feelings is also true of within, of their sincere 100% emotional knowingness certainty like my own, utterly fearless to surrender fully to our constant yearning within, to BE constantly of feeling loved and loving at all times, hand in hand forever more…………
is that what you are talking about Marco?
i just want to BE HAPPY forever more with someone like ‘me’, someone like ‘you’, someone wise and fearless enough to realize we need to surrender to our emotional honesty in order to BE our real Self, conducive of for another to likewise Just BE your SELF?
there is someone for everyone out there……where i merely ask, is the someone for ‘me’, you?
turn and look, and you shall see, i am yet hear waiting………
doubt is what derails it all for any of us, where great are those full of doubtful words of ‘me’ in passing, of people who did no take the time to truly know ‘me’, and yet, they have alot to say about ‘me’, of many hypocrisy words which are not true of ‘me’ at all, their empty mocking, laughing like they do of ‘me’, so hollow the feeling it is inside they project onto ‘me’, as though i am not worthy of love, as though i am a fool.
in Jesus and God’s eyes, it is clear to ‘me’, who sadly fool their own real Self like they do, their emptiness of words with ‘me’, i know i cannot stay, the emptiness of feeling which will soon surround them, once i am gone away, where they will feel the truth of how they treated ‘me’, and perhaps humbly pray.
i know their real Self, but when they get together, they are of mean spirited words of ‘me’, on and on, my self feeling relieved as i walk on further on the path alone, having left them alone together, my last words with them, “Enjoy the blessed day.”
of many days they shall soon find without ‘me’, for i cannot stay where i am not made to feel welcomed…….
~ lessons, such is life, on the road of life.
i always did despise empty hypocrisy, coming from a small town, where if they could not find some bullshit on you, they would make it up, to satisfy their own insatiable desire and delight of the bitter hypocrisy heart they turn towards, something i learned as a youth.
when i listen to a dance song like this, i am of my real Self, a fun loving dancer, radiant, brilliant, bright of glowing feelings within, smiling exceeding joyfulness in outward appearance, where i all i want is for another to feel the joyful harmonious loving sincere feelings within of their own real Self, as i extend a hand to them to take hold of, hoping they too are of the sincere fun loving joyful spirit of dancing within, like my own, of a certainty awareness knowingness of truth, they really ARE like i am……….
i am……BE Cause……..We ARE.
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i m from brasil i lives sao paulo congrtulations maddona come back in brasil i went show at sao paulo i adore a lot this music but i had been police every day mr chairman globo mr roberto irineu marinho and lili marinho dont likes people he put but i dont lost this show self jail thanks
Are we not of the awareness that the pure loving feelings of Self do not change like the hypocrit heart does?
such foul tasting all things from the hypocrisy heart are in feeling, of so many bullshit fuckhead mentalities out there, snaring of the heart, mind, body, spirit and soul of the divine self of so many of you, who do not realize your soul is snared like it is, nor do some of you question the truth of the snaring of your divine self, like it so obviously is, like those of the skinhead racists fuckheads, which is hard to believe these souls actually march around like they do, all proud of their fuckhead racism like they are, not realizing how truly and utterly immature they are…….sad how these low-self esteem vulnerable youths are preyed apon by you fuckhead leaders of the skinhead racists.
well, we have 10,000 new RCMP officers coming online, just for you and your violent racist fuckhead attitudes.
can you believe how unwise some of these souls are?
one of them commented to me, and i told them to fuck off. They came up to me again the next day, and i asked, “What did i say to you the last time?”
i tryed to enlighten one of them of their error, of truth words, but they smiled yet again, of their proud hateful attitude, which for me is so unbelievable of their convincing themself in feeling so right like they do.
i suppose we could say this about any of the religions, governments and business in the world, yes?
i am still sickened by the USA killing so many iraqi kids like they did, knowing full well that their firepower technology far out matched the iraqi weapons, which to me, is akin to murder, knowing the iraqi kids had no chance of survival against their technology.
all these regimes, including the USA, have the wrong approach, from the ongoing fued in Israel, to where ever there is one against another, all are of unwise snaring of the divine Self in God’s eyes.
this has been going on unbelievably for so many mellenia, it is alarming to feel that all this time, few there have been who sit down and reflect apon the pure undeniable truth of the blessed divine loving Self like we do.
As TRUTH revealers, the task is just that, reveal the undenialable TRUTH of the divine Self;
Revealing the HEART of their divine Self
Revealing the MIND of their divine Self
Revealing the BODY of their divine Self
Revealing the SPIRIT of their divine Self
Revealing the SOUL of their divine Self
Revealing the TRUTH to their divine Self
there is no other way, than coming fully into cognitive awareness knowingness certainty, which is difficult, because of all these useless egotisms which distract us from our work like it does, although, great is the focus i have seen of Madonna and those who work tirelessly like they do.
i feel her greatest work is yet to come, free of all these petty egotisms, in likeness/contrast of our own/other divine Self evolving.
When i think of the iraq war, i look apon the truth………that of a bully who lives up the street, with the firepower of a 50 caliber rifle, with a lethal range of 2 miles, coming to shoot young billy next door, who has only a pellet gun which cannot harm anything.
Sadly, most of the Iraqi kids had no idea of the firepower they came up against and died as a result of their ignorance, and of the ignorance of those who forced/brainwashed them to fight like they, and still do, all of it of unwiseness on both sides of the useless hateful conflict of ego versus ego, is it not?
that is what all conflict is, unwise ego masks against unwise ego masks, devoid of the purity love turning towards the divine Self of us all, and this is what is required to bring an end to all such absurd useless conflict of egotism in the world, turning fully towards wisdom of the divine self, as well as turning towards the truth of the unwise egotism in contrast with the cognitive wisdom awareness knowingness certainty of divine Self.
that is the ONLY safe passage for all of mankind yet to come, of God’s divine WILL that we BEcome the WILLINGNESS to BE Done on earth, that which HEAVEN is……….ALL truths of the divine Self of us ALL.
forever more
but no, still another will die unnecessarily like they do.
you people of Israel seemingly so wise like you are, seemingly so glorified of Jesus Christ.
None of you is of your divine Self, so long as you are of the desire and delight pointing a weapon at the divine Self of another and killing them like you unwisely yet do, where yet again today, another mother and father will weep for their son or daughter killed in these egotistic wars which are not of God’s divine WILL, and rather is of the WILL of all you who are without God’s divine WILL, without God’s divine WISDOM, obviously so like you all are, full of your hateful useless absurd spiritual death devoid of love like you all do.
well, keep it up, and if one day your hatefulness of your neighbor comes in the form of great fire, don’t say you were not warned, for truly, your casting of fire into the hearts of another is what keeps the fires of ignorance burning within you all.
let’s see, Iran plant’s 100 nuclear bombs in 100 major metropolitains around the world, and within the same 24 hour period Iran disappears too.
that is how stupid we all yet are, and so long as we continue on this path, that is what we can expect, more of the same useless absurd egotism from both sides, thinking you are so wise when clearly none of you are, and clearly, this path will lead to distruction like it continues to do.
time is running out, where we have to turn towards the ONLY safe passage for mankind to journey forward, or we will see the great fires of Armagedon which we know is lurking, with Iran soon to have a nuclear weapon.
We have to sit down with them as our divine Self, respectful in speaking with their divine Self, without ego, lest the precious souls of millions cry out to the future generations, our error of turning away from the sacred divine Self, that of us ALL.
Look back apon those of Japan of all those souls which cry out to us, men, women and innocent children, all of us precious innocent souls born into the world of unwiseness.
this is the pure 100% TRUTH of the world today, and if we do not fully 100% embrace the TRUTH, then many millions of souls will cry out to all future generations the truth of our error, for all of children of the future to learn of in their schools of thought, the TRUTH we are currently fully aware of like we are right now.
war is not the solution, where all division between any of us, is the egotistic enemy yet within of the divine Self of any of you who chose to look apon another as not divine of God. We have to see past the generational false teachings of the forefathers which bind the divine Self of so many worldwide, and embrace the truth of all these false teachings which snare the divine Self.
there is no other way, than thru embracing of the TRUTH of the unwise UNTRUTHs, sadly yet being taught in the world.
Already we are on the threshold of enlightenment of Truth as regards the divine Self, psychologically, spiritually.
Where we continue to fail and will continue to fail, is our apathetic falling away from embracing the divine Self within, and divine Self within another, allowing our divine Self to turn towards egotistic unwise battles of ego masks, of what is of every divisional barrier of the past, present and future.
already i am happy we are yet chatting Marco, are we not?
chocolate, i love chocolate!!!!
i love you
bless you
oh the weather’s great in Melbourne, Kylie just did her show’s
( I didn’t go, thought i’d save my money & buy a box of cadbury Cream’s instead) yer & wow Paris Hiliton just arrived, boo hoo.. next Mariah Carey thing will turn up…
No one’s listening… What ???
Speak…
Lol 🙂
Ha …
save me 😉
Hope you all had a good Christmas.
I’m back in the library. I’ve got a stinking cold – feel real rough.
Anyway, happy new year everyone! XX
rest up Andrew, take it easy ok
for the cold : inhalations…it is boring but efficient, xx
the new calendar 2009 of Eminem is just coming by the post, i was so quick to open the box that Eminem cut my hand with the paper, it feels hurt…
argh….me too Marco, this cold i have is now past a week, still coughing….i am so miserable and easily irritable when i have a cold……granted, i am easily irritable most any time, a goog thing.
what is it with all these this planet anyway? Did no one check to see just how many of these annoying viruses there are on this planet before we migrated here? Seems likely an oversight for ‘me’.
ha. you’re funny Marco!
Paris Hilton is so unbelievably ditzzy!
I met with Princess Vannesa yesterday, who is now six years old, grade one.
She kicked my ass on every single Wii game, and i was trying my best too!
During the boxing match, she is like screaming at me really loudly, “Move to the left, so he doesn’t hit you. Now move to the right.”
Incredible to be coached by a six year old, who’s brain is faster than my own, and she so obviously knows it too, of her sarcasm with ‘me’ at times, and her empathizing with ‘me’, as she smiled and said, “Oh, it’s just because i have had more practice than you, don’t worry about it.” ~ truly a humbling joyful experience, and humiliation in feeling, of her frequent delight of laughter, and her hugging me, knowing i was feeling humiliated. Kids are amazing! Ten of them would be like, WOW!!!
I asked her if she wanted a brother or sister, her immediate exclaimation of, “NO!”
Without doubt, her self-esteem is better than my own, naturally so, of parents who tryed to have their own child and could not, of their adopting Vannesa, a child who was found abandoned in front of an orphanage in China, and taken into the orphanage….the ugly rule of one child per family in China. I said to the parents, “It is a blessing for Vannesa that you were not able to have your own children, and truly a blessing for you, of her now in your lives, of what is now a house full of joyfulness each day.” ~ obvious is the joy restored that i see and feel in their eyes, of a friend who has known them for the past 12 years.
Looks like Princess Vannesa may be an artist, of her love for drawing, and anything of creative arts.
i was thinking about a business idea i have had for a long time.
The business would be of a retail/wholesale store front, for home building materials, where as such, the law permits you to purchase wholesale, directly with the timber companies here in Canada(half price).
The main concept of the outlet(s), is the store is both a retail/wholesale outlet(passing on the wholesale prices to the consumer), and a school which teaches people to build their own home.
The idea is to reveal and teach a young couple, that working two days per week(weekend), starting in the spring, thru till the first snow fall in December, they could build their own home, and move into it by Christmas, saving themselves the usual 60%+_ labour cost that goes into construction of a home.
The young couple could easily do this, with proper coaching/teaching, and the aid of a friend or family member(three people needed), and not only save themselves $50-100,000 of the labour costs of realestate, they can also be spared the same amount of interest cost/payments the would be enslave to on any 25 year mortgage with a bank.
in the end, the young couple would also be able to allocate those same deferred bank interest payments into positive growth investments instead, and thereby be of even greater increase financially again of $50-100,000+_ later in life, thereby $300,000+_ ahead in life after 25 years, and own their own home on top of the $300,000.
personally, if it were my own company, i would run it just to break even, as a non-profit organization.
and only single family first home owners would be entilled to participate, where the goverment subsidized outlets would carry the initial building material loans(as most banks would not likely participate, knowing the company is against home mortgages).
building a home is as easy as reading an instruction manual, although, a coach educated in safety, should be assigned to participate with home constructed, as it is extremely dangerous work for anyone who has not worked in construction.
i was thinking video tapes for each phase of construction of what they would be doing for each phase as construction workers of their own home. The young couples would make more money on the required two days per week, building their own home, than they do working their five days per week career jobs.
and what adventure it is to work in the outdoors too, truly alot of fun! Especially of the mountains of BC!
ah, i am so obviously old school……bah, video tapes are obsolete……..HD DVD!!!
of the hands of prayer, are the participation hands of the hands of prayer.
of the hands of prayer, are the participation hands in the prayer; of the hands of prayer.
Destiny of the hands of prayer, is the blessed participation hands of the prayer of the hands of prayer
ok Marco……standing on the street in the sunshine, feeling of pure freeness of our spirits set free, our genuine smile restored, eyes beaming brightly, the ipod playing our favorite upbeat dance track, the natural occuring urge is there within, yearing to BE of the next joyful step, hand in hand we both jump high in the air, spinning, our hands joyful of reaching out for one another again, as our feet hit the ground, smiles beaming, beamning, beaming brightly of our finally surrendering to BE what we are constantly are of yearning to BE at all times, with one another at last, hand in hand of our journey of everlasting joyfulness restored within, obvous in outward appearance, the truth of the divine Self of us ALL.
forever more
come on, it’s easier to BE what we yearn for, and so much fun of exceeding joy, and get this, at the end of the day, we get to have sex!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!
and then, we wake to yet another day and do it all over again, every blessed day of our journey of everlasting loving blessed true life, healthy in Just BEing our Self!!!
come on, abit of practice as your real Self, i assure YOU, is all one needs to do, consistently, day after day, BEcoming fully Self-actualized of and as the constant yearning of Self to BE of feeling loved and loving at all times, of what we KNOW HEAVEN is………………without doubt.
of course, unless one overcomes the projections of fear on them from the world and BEcome of the fearlessness of Self, you are not truly as free feeling as i am, albeit, of everyone is the constant yearning to BE of the truth of what i am……..BE Cause……..We ARE!
i have limited funds and cannot be here as much as i would like to BE, although i have yet to go to the library…..i will look into it.
oh, and watch out for the miserable lame ass victim mentality ones along life’s road, who not only derail it for their own divine Self, they derail it for those around them too.
not ‘me’, i am running past them, as they really are not fun to BE around, not of healthy self-actualization like we fearlessly are.
deep breathes, inhale, exhale, hurry up and catch up with ‘me’, as i am yet waiting here for you.
~ the exceeding joyful dancing feeling within, is of your joyful real Self, of what is Unspeakable Joy and Splendor.
hurry up, stop being so lame, lest i get bored and run with someone else……….
i jest…………………………………………………………………………………
while you are the only one that works for ‘me’, as regards sameness of what i am, you are not the only one.
it is a running dancing down the street exceeding joyfulness freeness feeling of having escaped the lamers along life’s road…………..argh, i am fretting your hestitation with ‘me’ is going to fuck it all up for us.
lol
i jest…………………….
i have no where else to go other than where it is easy to find ‘me’, dancing, skipping forever more of my life everlasting along side YOU
forever more
bless you all
bless you
I’m feeling a lot fitter today. And the sun is shining. I’ll get out for a long walk. X
Greetings the Madonna!
My name is Artur, I from Russia from the Siberian city of Krasnoyarsk,
All at once likely will think, that here very coldly and go Bears )
But there is no, it not so, here very warmly in the summer and in not too coldly winter, I think weather as in New York.
Krasnoyarsk is one of the greatest megacities Russia
To me of 18 years.
I understand, what this letter will fall not directly to you into hands, but nevertheless I ask, if it is possible, to make so, what it is has reached the Madonna, impossible is possible, in fact so?:)
Today all over the world New year, in the West this holiday do not celebrate so strongly and cheerfully as in Russia, and here it is the most national and big holiday of year! Russian love Holidays
I wish you all the best and kind in new to year, executions of all desires and greater creative successes, and the main thing of health to you and your close people!
Happy New Year!
I am not your fan, but your songs and your person, to me very much like, you do much, aspiration to change the world in the best of the parties , These are the best, that can be in the person, I too wish to make much and I do and I shall always do!
While at me not so it is a lot of opportunities, I would like to help requiring people and animals and when I will have an opportunity to open the charitable center, I do not eat meat and not so long ago have started to be engaged in yoga and shall tell-it is healthy!!!)))
I shall be the actor and is fast I shall move Moscow, only in this city of Russia, it is possible to achieve in creativity of that of that you want, I do not see other of destiny! I am assured, what all that I want, I and shall receive, who if not I, will make me happy?!
I already for a long time and Persistently learn English language because I shall sometime work in Hollywood, it is my purpose which I shall achieve! Would be excellent to meet !:))
All the best the Madonna!
I have translated this letter on English language through the electronic translator and is not assured of accuracy of translation, therefore I send the same letter in Russian!
Transfer it please to the Madonna, in fact it is not difficult!
Happy New Year! ARTUR! My email : Artur-Rublev@rambler.ru
Привет Мадонна!
Меня зовут Artur,я из России из сибирского города Красноярска,
Все сразу наверно подумают, что тут очень холодно и ходят медведи,
Но нет, это не так, тут очень тепло летом и не так уж и холодно зимой, думаю погода как в Нью-Йорке.
Красноярск это один из самых больших мегаполисов России
Мне 18 лет.
Понимаю, что это письмо попадет не прямо тебе в руки, но все же прошу, если это возможно, сделать так, что бы оно дошло до Мадонны, невозможное возможно, ведь так?:)
Сегодня во всем мире Новый год, на западе этот праздник не празднуют так сильно и весело, как в России, а здесь это самый народный и большой праздник года! Русские любят праздники)))))
Я желаю тебе всего самого лучшего и доброго в новом году, исполнения всех желаний и больших творческих успехов, а главное здоровья тебе и твоим близким людям!
С Новым Годом!
Я не являюсь твоим фанатом, но твои песни и твоя личность, мне очень нравятся, ты делаешь очень много, стремление изменить мир в лучшую сторону, это лучшие, что может быть в человеке, я тоже очень много хочу сделать и делаю и буду делать всегда!
Пока у меня не так много возможностей, я хотел бы помогать нуждающимся людям и животным и когда у меня появится возможность открыть свой благотворительный центр, я не ем мясо и не так давно начал заниматься йогой и скажу-это здорово!!!)))
Я буду актером и скоро переду в Москву, только в этом городе России, можно добиться в творчестве того чего ты хочешь, я не вижу другой свой судьбы! Я уверен, что все что я хочу, то я и получу, кто если не я, сделает меня счастливым?!
Я уже давно и усиленно учу английский язык, потому что когда-нибудь буду работать в Голливуде, это моя цель, которой я добьюсь! Было бы отлично встретиться когда-нибудь
Всего самого лучшего Мадонна!
Я перевел это письмо на английский язык через электронный переводчик и не уверен в точности перевода, поэтому высылаю это же письмо на русском!
Передайте его пожалуйста Мадонне, ведь это не трудно!
С новым годом! Артур!
we are in control now..
you lizard’s bow down gracefully as you know, illuminated ones…. NOT !
The game is
OVER @!
hi
im back….
spent two days in the sanctuary alone with God, just feeling the feelings of my real self, of sincere retrospective introspections which span my entire life, of alot of past issues of love and life, of what matters, of what is true, of what is not true….alot of writting…..
beyond everything in life, beyond mere survival, is our constant yearning to feel loved, where any who are obviously not loving of us, what with their absurd bullshit mindfuck behavior with us……….my New Year’s day for example……….sitting on the sofa at my old place of thirteen years, feeling compelled not to leave the ex alone for the holiday season, his new alcoholic roommate that just moved in after i moved out, comes walking in on New Years day, and has the motherfucking audacity to say, “What, you moving back in?”
Who the fuck says something like that on New Years Day?
I told him thanks for the insult, don’t ever speak to me like that again, of me being a life long partner/friend of my ex, and to fuck off, you are the alcoholic roommate, nothing more to me or my ex, as i walked out the door, of no desire to ever step foot in the door again, so long as that jerk off is there…………what a great way to start the new year, yes?
people and their mind fuck illnesses of the heart………it took me a day to calm down, where just thinking about it is so unnerving for me……….how dare anyone speak to me like that!!!!
anyway, getting back to what is true…………..while alone, i had a vision of someone coming to me, angle like, of sincere pure loving approach, graceful, gentle in taking hold of my hand, clearly seeing(feeling) that i felt unloved, of the angel in front of me, i lift my head to look into their eyes, and felt the pure comfort of the angel’s presence, of what is most sacred of my divine Self in likeness and form of the angel, where i constantly felt loved by the angel, of feeling my own feelings exactly that of the angel, obvious genuine sincere only love, of what it is i am looking for in life, and have always been looking for my entire life, perhaps to feel once again the way my parents made me feel as a child.
Only Love………..that is what is of blessed angelic divine real Self.
I was observing the angel, and my self, as i watched from a third party perspective, of the angel’s presence with me, where i felt both the broken spirite ‘me’, and the angelic ‘me’ of constant, genuine, sincere, pure love for the broken spirited side of ‘me’, wondering to myself, which one am i, the broken spirited ‘me’ of life’s shattered dreams of love, or the knowingness angelic CONSTANTLY loving ‘me’ of constant, genuine, sincere, pure loving ‘me’
clearly, i am both.
from this experience is the wholeness feeling i am feeling, where it is my knowingness pure awarenes of these pure genuine deep core issue feelings i have embraced in these reflections, where any and all who approach me with insincere unloving, of half hearted sorta fractured loving/unloving(those who act loving with you one minute, and then belittling with you the next, themselves their own worse enemy in life, of many i continue to run from).
i came here today with something of goodness i have experienced lately, wishing for you to feel what it is that i feel, a wholeness feeling of certainty.
i am working on a short film, with an excellent soundtrack, which depicts this VICTORY feeling of wholeness, which is of someone standing in sunshine of a day of .coming fully into their awareness of what it is they have been constantly yearning for their entire life to 100% feel at all times, the constant feeling that you are constantly loved 100%, in contrast to all the bullshit unnecessary absurdness of the many along the entire distance of life’s road lived, and yet to live, where Constantly Feeling LOVED and LOVING is without doubt, what HEAVEN 100% is, beyond everything in life, beyond survival, for what is life without feeling loved, where we are made to feel unloved by so many along life’s road?
So BE of true genuine sincere ‘real’ love for ‘me’, as that is what i am constantly yearning to always feel with someone and others along life’s road.
i am…..BE Cause….We ARE, constantly yearning to feel true genuine sincere real love and loving with someone and others along life’s road, of what is wholeness feeling of the blessed divine real Self
while of the isolated meditation for two days in the sanctuary with God, i came fully into understanding the meaning of the words Jesus spoke, “You have to stand in alone in darkness to see(feel) the light(loving wisdom of blessed real Self).”
clearly, i felt the 100% pure wholeness of the duality between uncertainty(insecure self) and certainty(wise secure self knowledge awareness pure feeling of blessed Self).
as i said before, i can no longer afford to be here as much as before, where i am in survival mode now, deciding between food and internet time…….which is ok with me, as this is my life, of my journey into self awareness, and today, i feel 100% wholeness of the genuine sincere pure loving divine child of God true real Self Andy, where the most significant thing i have to say in conclusion of today’s discussion is, “Fortunate is the one who gets with Andy!!!”
It is not about money, it is not about status, it is not about anything more important in life, than feeling loved and loving, what i know 100% is what HEAVEN is, where indeed, i am constantly yearning for someone’s hand to hold this day, and everyday till the last day life on earth.
i am done with the phony bullshit whatevers and whatevers of those who are not courageous in BEing REAL, and i do not care who you are or who you think you are, like so many of you do, all so full of bitter emptiness of words with me of belittling, condescending absurdness like so many have been and yet are with ‘me’.
Like Jesus said, “Where untruthfulness is(of blessed real self ~ egos), you will not find ‘me’. “, nor ‘me’, as i continue to run from those who chose not to BE the loving ‘me’ with ‘me’, nor should anyone.
wait till you see this short ……..it will take a few more weeks, as i am delving into alot of reflections in the short.
i figure there is no point in doing anything, as far as projects go, unless it is of serving the divine Self of us all in some awareness certainty encouraging way that is of wholeness in pure feeling, descerning of truth from bullshit, and let’s face it, we have all had enough bullshit tossed our way in life….for sure i know i have had my fill of bullshit, where i won’t tolerate it any more………..rightfully so.
blessings to all
bless you
I charge $10,000.00 an hour for my wisdom & creative expression
I don’t charge anything for SEX .
love is free
& if i so much as smell any doubt
I’LL WALK !
even a scent, & i have better sense of smell than a FOX
( ok your allowed 2 minutes a day to contemplate on doubt, but only two minutes a day no more, that should give me enough time to raid the safe and take all the $3 bills i can get my hand’s on.
& i am the boss,
“this is going to be so much fun ..”
..
boss eh?
ok.
just don’t leave me stranded in a foreign country, and if you do, make sure you send someone to get me out of there, ok?
ok.
there is no doubt i love you, i want to BE with you every day, every night, for sure every night of pure perfect delight!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i have no time for doubt, who wants more absurd doubt?
argh………. i am running from it!!!!
i am without doubt the real ‘me’ who wants to love you, of no doubt as to how much, how often, constant of anticipation daily of more love with you, breakfast, lunch, dinner in Italy, midnight snack, always with you!!!!!!!!!!!!
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
i can hear your excitement again……………you are tuning into 2009, are you?
‘me’ too!
constant smile when i do, which i constantly want to do, BE of you and ‘me’ constantly smiling!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
date, time, place……………..
just commit to something and follow thru………….i want to do the ‘no sex until i say so date’………….tease you into oblivion!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
it’s better when anticipation is heightened……….way better!!!
are you sure you can handle a bisexual marco?
i am not doubting, just asking…………….
i am kinda wild, a fun kinda wild, comfortably so, at ease, free to BE ‘me’ at all times, which puts others at ease as their real self too………joyful.
ok boss, i need a raise!!!!!!!!!
and new shoes
a hair cut too
and flowers, i want flowers of every kind from around the world…………..and chocolate, Belgian!!!!!!!!!
i am ok with you wine, so long as it is moderate, but wine is not good in my body, so don’t offer me it.
i like feeling healthy of body, real sensitivity, the tender real self…………
so tell ‘me’ a time, place, day, month boss, and i WILL BE there, waiting for you, like i yet do, and likely always WILL……………………without doubt…………..like i always have
oh, you could try and find someone to love you more, but you won’t, and you could pretend your life away with someone else, but you won’t.
i already know you won’t, because already you are yet here with ‘me’!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
you see?
let ‘me’ love you, set ‘me’ free, so that we can BE what we constantly yearn to BE!!!!!!!!!!!
NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
living in the now, everyday, of none stop endless fun.
you got ‘me’ hopes up again, so follow thru!
ok
ah, boss, there is no such thing as a three dollar bill…………it’s just your imagination running away with ‘me’. lol
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LLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
VVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVV
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
do they have Belgian chocolates with real cherries in it? hmmmmmmm, my favorite!!!!!
every day is constantly blessed sacred love
bless you
Hi madonna,
check out my blog…. i think you find it interesting :
http://www.conversationwithmadonna.blogspot.com/
By the way andy,
As i am a belgian person i can tell ya we have chocolate pralines with cherries inside of them….
They called MERCIES (french for Thank you)
Oh and Andy,
I do like your comments here on this blog…
Its nice to see that there is another soul in thsi world who feels and thinks the same way I do for madonna and I am sure there are still others left to.
As my blog mentions… everybody has their own reality with madonna…. :):)
I share the feeling that i wanna be with her to but I am pretty sure she doesn’t want to be with me….
After all there is a reason why there is a hard candy album
FUTURE LOVERS
that the BEAT goes on…….. !!!!!
Ha Ha Ha
Kevin you make me laugh, your so subtle i love it 🙂
just read and watched your blog, what a reality hey amazing well done, you captured the spiritual essence, nothing short of amazing.. Isaac is the one song that expresses it all hey… you chose wisely..
i have, still do and always will know the connection,
we are all God, we are all one
we are together
we are in this together.
i have, still do and always will know the connection,
Future Lover’s
tic toc
don’t sit there like some silly girl… opp’s just pretending i’m not bisexual, testing Andy’s tolerance to doubt lol …:)
I have a funny story to tell, yesterday i went to have lunch at a kitch little cafe where my housemate works as a chief, it was my birthday .. I expecting to bump into the love of my life,
so there i am sitting there all alone i turn around and Katy Perry is at the next table, all the staff running around saying Katy Perry was just here, so as i stroll home after walking along the river in the sunshine, i started singing to myself, your so gay you don’t even like boy’s & i kissed a girl & liked it..
True story ….
life is treasure, life is short & time waits for no one ..
And there is no time like Love time..
Time Love
Love xox
well we don’t know for sure f it really was Katy but it liked like her anyway i thought it was funny
Heyyyyyy Marco !!!!!!!
you said it there….
We are all ONE….
Now tell me… were did you get your wisdom ??
Please do not tell me through religion !!! I hope you discoverd it within yourself…. :))))
~ i have, still do and always will know the connection ~
~
We all have the connection, where the difficulty is mostly of the world distractions which claim wisdom is this way or that way, of many false incomplete wisdom of the macro thinking, which are left off, or seen in a light as though complete(distracting) when in fact they are not, although some of the truth wisdoms are part of the macro thinking halo connection perspective understanding of what HEAVEN constantly is, of the higher subtle intellect of the divine self, where many are afraid to venture into the vulnerable real self in allowing themselves to just stand in the moment and feel what it is that they feel….feelings of TRUTH of the blessed true real Self YOU
more later………..
Kevin, within myself, it’s was actually the Hippocratic nature of religion that motivated me to search for the truth elsewhere, and it’s a long journey, am still learning but have come a long way so far..
Hey Marco, andy,
I hear ya boys….
i just realized i am a true sage of God this morning, where i am of the self knowledge of the unknowable one, where it is the cognitive awareness knowingness certainty of the divine self that i am apparently of knowledge of, as a devoted monk of pure thought, who is 100% of God’s WILL, surrendered to what God wants ‘me’ to embrace for sake of ‘me’, for sake of ‘me’ of others, of clarity now, no uncertainty.
with the cognitive awareness comes the pure loving feelings of calm certainty, a passive element within ‘me’ which i recently fully embraced, of the fundamental question as to whether the Unknowable One, the uncognisable can BE cognised, the pure loving, pure thought angelic self.
while it may appear i have stumbled apon the mystery of what is of most significant awareness of my life, awareness of the gentle loving fearless angelic wise self, i am not of stumbling as to fully embracing the pure loving, pure thinking angelic self, as far as focus of the cognitive awareness, without doubt, without uncertainty, because it is the beautiful loving feelings of the exceedingly graceful state of BEing which i relish beyond anything else in life, sorta like, i don’t ever want to feel any way other than the way i feel, highly guarded of wise protection from the unwise world which is predominantly aimless, not so much on purpose are they aimless, rather compassionately so they are, where they have not had the wise sages along life’s road who lead by example, naturally of the connected(with the ALL) encouragement and assurance of what is within us ALL, without the desire for egotistic empty masks we hide behind afraid.
100% fearlessness is what is of the angelic wise self, of cognitive awareness certainty one easily feels about the state of BEing the angelic wise self, which is easy once you fully embrace the reality check of the unwise generational teachings which yet continue to be passed along generation after generation.
wow……….i had no idea i really am a pure thinking devoted sage according to God, where it is not of boastfulness that i say this, rather perhaps of warning as to how others chose to approach ‘me’, where things like when a tyrant threatens ‘me’, then remember your Divine Angelic pure thinking loving Self when they do, awareness of the condition of their soul, where engaging in their heated unwiseness is able to bring harm to push us out of the State of BEing the Diviune Angelic pure thinking loving real Self, yes?
wow……..i feel so blessed right now in my ability to remain of this State of BEing awareness, where i know without doubt, this is what is of God’s WILL, my WILL for others to always feel.
Beyond everything, and everyone, i want to unveil this to the world, for sake of ALL, for sake of ALL generations yet to come.
The Sextus Proverbs are what is of wise halo protection as regards to how one is able to remain of the centered State of BEing as the Angelic Pure Thinking Loving Wise Divine Real Self.
if one does not desire to fully embrace these wise protective understandings, it is possible to fragment the passive element within, where uncertainty(transference energies of unwise others) is what is of fracturing of certainty, where feeling afraid(transference energies of unwise others) is what is of fracturing of fearlessness.
i love the pure 100% fearlessness feeling, and i know thru great lengths of time in meditation how to enter fully into the State of BEing.
i said something to someone today, just i passing, thinking out loud, that i felt Jesus was constantly of BEING this meditative State of BEing at all times, something he learned how to do, likely of growth in his deliberate time invested of internalizing for example the wisdom of the Sextus Proverbs, where my awareness reveals these proverbs are 100% wisdom protection as regards approach of the unwise world, as well as the constant yearning approach and desire of entering and remaining fully of the meditative State of BEing which truly is so beautiful to feel the pure exceeding grace, unafraid of the unwise world around us when we focus, where the importance is vital as regards the affect/effect/direct/indirect constant connectedness matrix of all souls at all times, including the entire future, which is what what i feel was what was of the greatest empowerment and motivation of Jesus, the entire future of God’s children(us) yet to come, where i know 100% without doubt, Jesus was fully of awareness of the constant connectedness matrix of the ALL, across all time, timeless, where truth does not change, truth is not of time dimension, rather is of constant unchanging, and that is how it feels while dwelling in the protective wisdom halo, of no time dimension, where our empowerment, motivation, and compassion does span eternally into the future, of what i like to refer to as on par with the magnitude of the sun above, constantly shining.
i like this proverb, “Adore truth and hate lies, like a viper’s venom.”
truly, we know how the poison venom makes us react, do we not, pushing us out of our beautiful preferrence in feeling of the exceeding graceful State of BEing of the Angelic Divine True Real Self, do we not?
~ i realize my greatest gift from Jesus and God, is my pure interpretation ability, where i have learned how to enter fully into the fearless macro thinking State of BEing, which is where i am able to explore and make sense of the ancient crystal light.
it is a pure loving feeling to be able to feel the pure thinking ability which is indeed 100% fearless.
best of all, i am internalizing the wisdom which is growing in my ability to remain of the State of BEing, cognitively aware of the ongoing growth marco, indeed of coming along way, and of the certainty that growth is the objective of my relationship with Jesus and God, of what is the divine WILL of God for us to know it is about the State of BEing of the Angelic Divine Pure Loving and Thinking Child of God True Real Self YOU!
the abundance of wisdom is flowing faster now, where the state of fearlessness opens wide the mind into the required macro thinking State of BEing cognitive awareness, and this is what is most exciting for ‘me’, so long as they don’t chemically straight jacket ‘me’ one day, and leave ‘me’ in an institution, made to feel stupid and crazy, when in truth, it is the world which is unwisely crazy, is it not?
my TOXIC feelings of the unwise negative energies of others, reveals clearly the TRUTH of my reality awareness of the world.
we all do, do we not?
i love this sage proverb, “The untimely, hurtful, uncalled for phrase points to an impure mind.”
this is so true of the aimless, unfocused, unseeking souls, is it not?
which is not judgemental of ‘me’, rather merely an observation, where truth is that the enlightened true sages of the world are the ones who light the path for all, which we are of awareness it is about growth, thru our own self awareness, where the reality check is one of our taming our thoughts, from impure thoughts and speaking to the required enlightened pure thoughts of the Angelic Divine Self of the constant connected matrix affect/effect/direct/indirect with ALL souls, today, and the entire future of mankind, for all eternity.
Hi people,
Do not forget to check out my blog…
http://www.conversationwithmadonna.blogspot.com
Thank you all !!!
Oh, Kevin
thank’s for thAT i thought it was
http://www.conversationswithgod.blogspot.com
as Neale Donald Walsh would say,
God, i command the universe to
Give it to Me.. 🙂
What ?
shhh Andy, i know what your thinking !!!!!
~ now they have ‘found’ each other ~
this is a pure statement most would not grasp, where with a pure heart one is able to understand what it is we ‘found’ to BE TRUE of each other, that pure State of BEing Only Love, a pure loving feeling of the One Love for you, for ‘me’ in this world, seemingly afraid to BE open to one another of our pure loving emotional honesty while alone?
i know what you are thinking!!!!!!
yes
like today in the shower, the sensual feeling of the water dripping on my body, the oh so good feeling of the smooth silky feeling of soap lathering of the body, i stood there alone feeling this pure loving feeling of your presence marco, where you had you fingers delicately thru with each hand, of the pure prayer State of BEing, your hands raised to your mouth, the pure loving kissing of the hands, your eyes looking forward where you felt a pure loving feeling come over you of pure happiness of a sorta dream coming true for you, of ‘me’ BEing the one you want to BE with, where i want to convey to you in this moment…………….without doubt…………..is it possible you really feel this way too?
am i correct that you feel this way?
hey, i was thinking, seeing that we will BE alone for dinner, in our meeting for the first time, why not both of us gracefully enter the candle lit room and come to the table naked, where the rule is, you have to keep you hands above the table, no masturbation while eating dinner!!!!!!!!
oohhhhhhhhhhhh, hey, what about our feet? We could…………………..
tell ‘me’ you were thinking the same thing, yes?
so is it true, i feel what you are feeling, and you feel what i am feeling?
i am of surrendered spirit to you, for sake of you forever more, where what is most important to ‘me’, is that you feel what HEAVEN is at all times, that you are constantly loved by ‘me’ at all times, of my focused, diligent, dedicated, devoted, steadfast determination of only pure loving thoughts for you, of not allowing anyone to ever interfer with my pure love for you, where no one can, as it is of my choice in surrendering my heart, mind, body, spirit and soul to you forever more, so that you and i will grow into what is of the State of BEing we feel while alone.
that is what is forthmost in my mind, as regards my approach with you, where i know you are able to teach ‘me’ more about what you know of the State of BEing i have observed of you for a very long time now, of what is of ‘Nobody knows ‘me’, like you know ‘me’, yes?
truly i want to follow thru and BE with you, praying you too feel what it is that i feel you feel, and if so, then it is a blessing i am here before you, both for you and for ‘me’, where without the pure love knowingness awareness of the State of BEing i speak of, then our relationship of the real world will not work for either of us, yes?
are these words i speak true of you?
if so, when do you want to meet?
fear will see the opportunity pass us by in life, leaving us feeling what we have been feeling all this time, the uncertainty we both want to escape from feeling, becoming fearless with one another, like the fearless State of BEing we both are of cognitive awareness while of our meditative pure love State of BEing, yes?
that is why i do not want others around us when we meet, so that i can BE of the exceeding graceful State of BEing we are of during meditation.
realize than, i feel i am the one for you, of no desire to BE anywhere else than with you, because of your awareness like my own, of what is most important for both of us, that we can BE of our favorite way of feeling, the pure love State of BEing we both cherish, where perhaps you have been wondering of this about ‘me’.
clearly you need not wonder any more, yes?
i have spoken with clarity of what you may have been waiting to hear?
i KNOW we will BE of the exceeding unspeakable Joy and splendor happiness together, having explored feeling the pure love State of BEing two soulmates genuinely feel for one another, of pure love that is without doubt, that joyfulness happiness of running forever more hand in hand of life everlasting.
i was wondering the other day, which one of us will die first, where, of a vision, i saw you without ‘me’ in life alone, and it was so sad to feel how you were feeling, of my not being there of our deliteful tender whispering words of love and reflections we were of daily with one another, while laying beside each other day after day.
i suppose there is no guessing what my prayers are with God?
is your pure love for ‘me’ true?
was it your presence i felt this morning in the shower?
ok, if not nude, then how about some soft cashmere robes?
without doubt, i know my love is true for you, profoundly so, yes?
so is it true?
i have overcome fear, and i am of the fearless State of BEing, where fearlessness is an element of the State of BEing.
it goes without saying, that for us to come together, we have to BE of the fearlessness which holds us back from one another, where perhaps my words with you today, as regards my approach with you in the physical realm, are the words you needed to hear?
i see my Self entering into a candle lit room with you, of exceeding grace in coming out of the shadows, where i am standing there before you, alone, of my exceeding graceful state, nude, or robed, either way, but why cover what is more beautiful than hiddeous annoying clothing? lol
ok.
im ready
i have a cold still, which has been lingering for two weeks now, a fever of 104 last night, chills, sweating, so this week is not a good time.
or were you talking about the clenched fists state of hopefulness that our love is true?
let’s finish what we started?
I woke this morning feeling you’r presence that warm loving joyful feeling, a natural high, ( i was naked, i always sleep naked) then as i awoke i was thinking about how short life is and how wonderful it is and the importance of organizing this dinner, without just talking about it for another two years or is it heading into 3 yrs now, or 15 i’ve lost track of time, i was also thinking about the candles, in a romantic sense ( but also the glow makes my skin look softer ) .
The thought of eating dinner naked did not cross my mind however, i think I’ll pass on that one LOL, what if i accidentally spilt the caviar on myself and my cat happened to stroll past.
Today, I pray, for souls young and old,
from land’s far away, where it is warm & where’s it’s cold
to awaken from thought’s that are old, to unite as one in peace
and love.
we are all the same
One.
well im feeling like a stripped gaza,,,
i hate it when you think you have met the love of your life, and drop everything for eachother, because it is sooo blinding, im not a size queen, i dont bicker, i dont feel the need to perv on others or wish i was with someone else when i am hanging with my man! oh well, i dont know what i am trying to recreate ewhen im experiencing something like never before!!! im in love with someone and cant tell them oh well i live on, i am what i am,,, i gotta try and be strong——————
or get back to that feeling
WHERES A NEW BLOG, what happened on the last one, too much coffee??? not enough?? its gotta be real though,
i feel so sad and i dont know why?!
im missing my best friend, quit my job, and trying to start a business in a recession, damn,,, wish someone could just tell me im crazy so i can move on, why do people find it so hard to be honest, its hard enough to get people to believe in themselves let alone believe in something beyond themselves,
ill get back onmy horse, wonder how many times that is now/ im in love with an aussie ,,, sick of feeling sad,
sicophant s i dont have time for it, time after time, im creating my own life, my own empire, my own family, and all the love to share in a world that doesnt fit me,,, i just wish i could meet a like minded soul, kindred to the heart, ethereal exists , like a 3dollabill, i am… and i wish i could say “i do”
lol
YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
honestly, i fully felt it possible at one time, intuitively so, of that time long ago, of your presence so near, my heart racing, feeling as light as a feather while walking down the street, the snow falling ever so softly in the air, wondering, could it be true you were feeling it too, so overjoyed you were near, my soul lifted higher than i had ever felt, a feeling so pure, thru and thru, that i truly do belong with you, of both of us feeling the same way, the minutes that passed by, the tears that fell of the hour i was so afraid, yearning to explain why merely seeing you would not be enough, knowing the forever feeling i was feeling of always being with you, feelings so real, i just knew it was true for you too, as the minutes turned into hours and you were gone, the days and years that followed, all this time i kept the secret to myself, of how i seemed to feel what you were feeling too, so pure and true that day, of a joyfulness i always wanted to feel, high up where we both belong, on top of the world, of happiness all the time, still afraid even now to ask, is it true, you felt it too?
“i never wanted someone like this”, really is the best expression of that day long ago, of that forever feeling i was feeling.
so is it true, you felt it too?
and like me, were you overwhelmed and afraid to open up about how you were feeling that day, wondering if it was just you that felt what you were feeling, so pure and true, could it be true, i was feeling it too?
forever loving is the feeling, pure and true, of where we yearn to always be found.
you relax and disarm me like no other.
i am afraid, because you are of a boy’s dream coming true, who is still wondering, hanging on your every word, every day passing………….is it true?
my own insecurities defeat me some days, so excited to greet another day, afraid to look, in case you are not there. Each day passing of us coming closer, is this really happening, after all this time, of what i always wanted? I am not sure how i will feel of the day i am told the day i will get to really be with you. I am so not ready for this, seemingly of shock and disbelief at times, and yet why, am i not a truly loving soul like you, where if anything, we are so obviously to souls who yearn for one another and belong together?
i already know fully within, if of you, i won’t ever long for another the way i have and do you all this time.
i am terrified at times, because i know how happy i will be with you, where it is you who sets my spirit free to BE what i have yearned to BE for so long, of the way i felt that day so long ago, of what i have been afraid to allow myself to feel, so pure and true, of omg, it really is true?
Scottie!!!!!!!!!!!!(my therapist)
damn, she goes on vacation, just when i need her the most.
deep breathes, relax, inhale, exhale…….
i am too afraid to ask what day, as i feel am not ready for this……….
seemingly it was/is a silly boy’s dream, and yet, that is not how i felt that day so long ago, when you were near, still wondering, seemingly knowingly, that you too felt it too, and yet do, of yes, it really is true for you 2.
without doubt……….i always loved you
i know i WILL always love you.
omg, the overflowing joy, i am so not ready for what may be next…………
Scottie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok…………..tell me………………when and where?
no wait……………argh…………..don’t tell me yet……………
ok…………………tell me
OXO
LMAO !! Marco and andy… you really rock my world.
yesss…marco … I felt it too and when i read Andy’s enlightement I guess he do….. :))))
In one way I am so glad that I am not the only one who has those feelings… I am sure they are different with both of us…
I really hope for you guys and I am pretty sure …. one day you will meet her… you will succeed. I can see both of u are lightworkers and let me say marco you give some erotic touch to it which i dont mind at all !!!!! So count me in that nude dinerlight !!!! LMAO
So I wanted to ask you both a small favor….
Im sure you have red my blog … and what it is about… so can you both write something for me… As I understand correctly you both have felted something too…. So can you write your experiences….what you have felted, how you have felted it,… or in another words… what is your madonna truth…. I would like to place it on my blog if it is allright for you guys…. I have no offense at all when you dont want to do it…. I am an empatic, understandfull person. :)))
I… on the other hand blew my chance…. I am pretty sure madonna is pisted of, mad, and dissapointed in me….
So my blog is not to intend to hurt, or make madonna bad.
I am sure …now i read your stuff guys, that there are interesting madonna truths out there…. I’m only trying to help her making resourcefull…:))…. after all that is what she said in the making of give it to me video …. I WANT TO BE RESOURCEFULL
Marco, Andy
I added you to my blog…. :)))
FUTURE LOVERS
CONNECT IN TIME
Marco,
regarding your message above you said you thought my blog was like the blog u reffered to….
Well… if i may honnest with you … I don’t think i can do that… I don’t think I am up to that yet…. because there are so many voices i hear sometimes …. it is not always clear who i have on the line sometimes… I know from myself that i block my spirituality…. not because i have hesitations, I passed that stage now, …. I think… it is the expectations… Why is it so hard to just take time and talk about it…
When I think about that well ….everytime I bump into life’s diversity,… one party wishes for serenity, the other one wants sensation…. so you figure which one madonna wants and which one I want…
I told you i was so glad i have found other people like you and to be quiet honnest, i am not jalous or feel myself unlucky that i am not the only one…
If I can spent one day with madonna, I wish and hope you can spent weeks with her…. because that’s only what i need…. only one day…. to ask the questions that are burning inside of me. If there would exist a connection it would be nice… but when it appears that our truhts seemed to be different from each other… believe it or not but i have no problem then to go on with my life and search my way. Because …. I finaly have my questions answerd… Most people do not understand what it is to have or sit with burning questions.
I can still remember that i never have been busy with Madonna in my life like the past years…and now…
The reason i got stuck at this point is mainly my part because i allowed it in my life… but I never started it out on my own… or did I… ?
I feel a lot of wisdom inside of me but i am blocking it real hard. …. because i first need some questions to be answerd. Perhaps those answers can be found in the wisdom that i have inside of me … but then again those questions are like a burning barricade …. So i have to pass this burning baricade first before i can reach my true wisdom.
ITS TIME FOR YOU To READ THE SIGNS….
I have seen so many signs !!!!! I don’t know where to look anymore or what to do and thats why i am standing still….
Sometimes I don’t even know anymore what i really like…
Hello !
is anybody out there?
Hey Kevin,
my thoughts on Madonna are:
she has my respect foremost for her dedication and courage to do what so many people in this world lack, the strength to be who and what they are and want.
she’s sincere, which has become evident more so over the year’s.
gives a shit about the world and the people in it, so many people turn a blind eye go into denial or are too afraid to speak out, M is a little more vocal, and that takes courage especially for her, i mean so many people have be quite harsh and critical towards her and her achievement’s but she took the bull by the horn’s and kept pushing, what is it about this world when someone stand’s up and tries to change the world and enlighten, illuminate the wold people attack you or criticize you.
To me it seems as though she’s sacrificed a lot for her achievements, everyone probably thinks oh she rich & famous everything is handed to her on a platter, she’s got a great life, on the contrary i think she’s probably got a fuck load more challenges than most.
I like her music, always found a deeper spiritual message in her work’s right from the beginning. obviously she’s channeling love and light through her works in a very profound way, as have many of he world’s great artist’s.
I think she needs to chill a bit and focus on herself more, one person cannot change the world alone, it only take’s one person, but two people can take turn’s and get a decent nights sleep, preferably not alone.
I think she is searching for spiritual enlightenment, read’s a lot, which is probably a good release for someone with a high intellect, and keeps her sanity in this insane world.
I think she is extremely vulnerable as many creative people are, but I’m confident she would have a close circle trusted friends and family that protect her.
if i met her, it would be a challenge to discern the real her from the persona she has created, a worthwhile challenge at that, as i am sure she would also do herself, as i also feel everyone should confront, to find our true selves we are after all just actors on a stage, playing out of character’s to the script we call life, what for, well to find our true self, to realize who we are what we are here for once we do, then it all makes sense. All that is.
There are many enlightened being’/ GOD’s/souls that have made the greatest sacrifice of all, to be born into a world so dark, to shine their light and awaken the sleeping… you cannot help but love and admire them, for they are love, as we all are, if we only woke up and realized.
I pray she’s find’s her soul mate soon, enjoys a unconditionally loving relationship void of jealousy, but is there such a thing, i know with me i get bored with someone after a year or two, so the whole life time with one person thing seems almost an illusion, but then nothing in life is in vain, everything happens for a good reason, then again if the sex is good, anything is possible, base i know but that’s the physical world we are in, the pleasure’s of the flesh, the pleasure’s of the material world, such is the nature of this physical world we live in.
there is so much more i could say, there is so much more i know, bit there is a time and a place, the world is controlled by a dangerous race, the human race.
it wont be long were growing strong, the world is strong, that’s my song.
Well damnit MArcoooo !!!
If i wasn’t married…. :)))))) LMAO !!!!
Those words really got to me… True and sincere…
If its allowed I would like to copy it and place it on my blog.
I put a special tag to it… MARCO’s truth
Ty !!!!!
sure you can,
i have the flu…………….argh………….
the true self thrives best in safe and supportive conducive environments with others who are likewise BEing their true self, of healthy self-actualization, at ease at all times in just BEing themselves.
the world is toxic for the joyful at ease true self, of my own life experience of so many absurd jackasses along life’s road who were so rude with ‘me’, it is humiliating to even speak of just how wretched they treated ‘me’ like they did. As usual, time and time again, i walked away from the toxic environments, releived each time i did, where i stayed true to my real self all these years since being a youth who ventured out on his own at 15, of no choice, the family breakup, and the bank which foreclosed on our family home that i grew up in since birth, which initially stripped me of the natural sense of security i had not realized i had while i had it, landing on the streets as a teen far too young to be out fending for myself at such a tender age of 15. I recall the emotional turmoil i was feeling hourly each day which did not go away, and still haunts me from time to time today.
of all the things i want more than anything in life, it is the restoration of the natural at ease inner joyfulness i had as a youth, which i feel returning more and more over the years, where the conducive environments without the absurd critical bullshit others, is what one has to establish for themselves as the number one priority in life, where aimlessness or lacking of knowledge of what is a healthy approach to our positive mental/emotional/physical/sexual/spiritual well being will leave us feeling the consequences of not taking the time to invest in developing a truly wise understanding that works for us.
i thought she did find her soulmate?
i realize coming from the simple country side of simple people, plays the most significant in my life, of the at ease real self ‘me’ of a truly carefree spirit as a boy, running thru the open fields with my dog Brandie, both of the same inner joyfulness and delight of life, of genuine happiness.
Becoming restored of that inner joyfulness is not about status, wealth or fame, and rather it is of our own descerning of friends and lovers in life who are of the conducive healthy mentalities of loving reciprocation with us. I don’t look at us as acting when we are of genuine sincere love for another, like i know i have of many lovers in life, albeit, i have at times seen my self acting at times in relationships i knew i made the mistake of getting into.
The one who does not have to work at loving ‘me’, and who genuinely really does yearn to love ‘me’ without effort, of their at ease loving real self, is what will be of my next lover. You know that feeling when you genuinely enjoy being around someone and they you? The natural occuring at ease self fearlessly reciprocating tirelessly with you, of seemingly constantly warm inner smiling that does not fade?
in truth, the best friends and lovers in life i have been with, had nothing, the poorest of the poor, and i have always preferred being among the poor, with disdain for the rich and all their arrogance so foul tasting like many of them are, who snub the poor as though they are better than the poor, where true wealth in life is spiritual wealth, seldom found of the rich and famous, where boastful pride of wealth, and the insatiable greed is what is the distraction for them away from becoming spiritually wealthy, of which i am compassionate. I used to despise people, but now i don’t as much, where i look closer at what is really of the truth, where we are all precious innocent pure loving souls born from the womb of God into unwise households of a world, where the generational unwise teachings continue like they do.
The story of the pearl reveals the deep inner feelings of truth about the city of habitation(kingdom of heaven), of the rich and their warm houses, and the destitute outcast poor made to feel worthless by the rich, where Jesus clearly knows the truth of the unwise snare which snares the wealthy, finding the poor easier to teach about the greatest treasure one shall ever find.
Truly, the story of the pearl is the most compelling story about the pure loving real self Jesus deliberately brought into awareness for so many, of what was of his every intentional step, as one who truly knew his own self more so than most realize as to what eternal love feels like.
if pure love devoid of doubt, is devoid of all the absurd things like empty jealousies or whatevers, then without doubt, one who learns to master their own thoughts and tongue by means of slowing into the grace of descerning before speaking and descerning about pure thought from impure thought, is where it starts and stops for me in selecting friends and lovers, where clearly there are many bitter mean spirited ones in life along life’s road we have all learned to keep at a distance, toxic just being in the same building with them for me, some of them are, a bad energy which i feel, which does not allow me to trust a person once they fall off my list of people to trust, having been betrayed by them, especially of the ones who were of empty mean spirited delightful cajoling mockery of me like so many were, as if i would ever have anything to do with them again.
the ones of the bitter hypcrisy heart like they were with me, i realized saw what they wanted to see, not who i really am, where i remember standing staring into the eyes of a boss of mine for about 10 minutes, knowing i was about to quite my job, but before walking away, i just stood there without a word, and starred at him, of his raised voice of continuous wretched words with me, on and on he went of my not flenching, exceedingly calm, as i realized how blinded he was by his own ego mask, of no desire to see the real me, and rather this made up persona he had in his own mind of me, of what is true of any who are of the bitter unloving hypocrisy heart words in life like they are, a form of entertainment for so many, so hurtful to both themselves and others.
if the true self is pure loving, then only pure loving words is what is comfortable for the true self, when it comes to choice of friends and lovers.
of course, it goes without saying, if we do not take time to know and build trust with someone we want to love, then how can we ever come to know and trust them?
how many souls have we passed by in life, without knowing much of anything about them?
i don’t think most any of us get with the right person in life.
Hey Marco,
Tnx again for the truthfull text …
It also brightend my perspective in some way….
Damnit I still have a lot to learn…… No Hesitation !!!
No anticipation !!!!…. LMAO…..
UNIVERSE I COMMAND TO GIVE IT TO ME….
And now im cracking myself….. lmao !!!!
Anyway… Im aware that the universe works in a particular way….
Masters in life starts their affirmations with a keysentens to get universal engine going…
I CHOOSE ….. :))
I PREFER… :)))
I WANT… :)))
sounds strange, perhaps unlikely but … it works…. :))
TTYL Marco !
oooops and you to madonna…. I’m sorry i forgot this was your blog im talking on… And yess i still remember that i added marco’s personal blog to mine….
isn’t life a jigsaw puzzle sometimes, oh i cannot think of anything to say today, i’ve lost myself, divine inspiration’s not coming through, i lie, had a dream last night very prophetic but the dream confused me even more … maybe i need to get my shit together, these damn cross road’s in life..
sometimes i wish i couldn’t see all the things i do, i so need a a smack on the ass… kick up the backside..
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Chinese whisper’s
ya, i wish i could get my shit to stay together too marco……….fuck……….this flu is horrible!!!!!!!!!!!
i’ve lost ten pounds, and feel so drained and weak, likely a another week or more before i feel normal again.
i kept having this recurring dream over and over again last night which would not let me sleep, of someone tickling me persistently, running from them, unable to escape, like a ghost chasing me that i could not see. So then i spoke to the ghost and the ghost stopped. Strangely the ghost had a particular interest in my ass…..weird.
speaking of cross roads, i would literally rather be walking down a road somewhere, anywhere other than my new place which has a horrid bad energy to it, of others who live in the same house(roomers) who are the most unfriendly people i think i have ever met, who don’t speak with one another, low functioning, no joy, you know the kind, downers who enjoy being down? yuk. i so have to get out of there, a temporary place to find rest. The energy there is so toxic for me, although not as bad as the old place of my ex and his fuckhead roommate of even greater negative mindfuck bullshit, where being on the same street is toxic for me. lol
argh………same old cross roads, over and over again and again, year after decade, since i struck out on my own long ago, a passerby i know i am. i need to find someone like ‘me’
for sure i know the meaning of the words, “Cannot find a place of rest.” (toxic free)
decided to quit smoking next week, and to go back to my career, save some money, get my own private digs, put a big red WHYMIS sign of skull and bones on the door, the symbol for materials causing immediate and serious toxic effects. lol
Hey MArco, Andy,
I’ve found the inspiration back … I hope its gonna stay this time… I know I’m blocking it myself but I am working on it… 🙂
I can so hear you Andy what you said above about people who enjoy being down… not a very fun place to be…; and your right about one thing…. it”s no use at all staying there…
But if you allow me …. I would like to tell ya about that black zone… because that is what it is… negativism is a spiral which ends into blackness…The longer you stay in there, the harder it is to get out…. because after a while, feelings, thoughts, are turning black… I’ve been there a while…
As i am a true analist … I’m sure I wass a scientist in a previous life…. :)))) … I try to live and relative GOOD or BAD as much as i can because if you take off that google… the picture looks bigger…
but all this things … i dont need to tell you because I know and I am sure u both know this…. You are both very wise and spiritual beings….
Andy you said you were gonna go back to your carreer…. Im a wrong when i say that i felt no good feelings with that and that it is with opposite feelings… is that what you really want to do ?
What do you both really like to do Andy, Marco,….
I do recognize the same patterns… not finding the inspiration sometimes, crossroads,…. negative surroundings,…
once you become aware in this life… it calls changement, adjustement and acceptance… one you got through that you passed the transistion periode …
Of what ??? …. you only you knows… what.. or why… after all you are living your truth….
Talking about the flue… it hit us here to … Here in belgian we have a very aggresive flue for the moment which causes bad infections on the aspiration ways that can lead to amonia…
Cannot find a place of rest….. cannot find my inspiration or it is not coming true…. Well MArco… it means…. something is blocking your spirituality …. which explains the feeling of taking crossroads all time… The key is to search the true reason which is blocking you…. I’m sure you gonna find it… It think it has something to do with a feeling of missing, …. am i right ?
Anyway,…. I found in a way 2 beloving souls with an amazing personality…..
hi kevin………
it is an isolation thing for me…….that i go thru each one of these times i jump out of relationships, where the toxic relationship(s) are worse than isolation, albeit, the isolation is equally as toxic, of inner anxiety surfacing again for me, a sort of cannot sit still feeling, go do anything, run, bike, long walk, anything but feel isolation, where going back to work is something enjoyable for me. I actually enjoy my line of work, depending on the team i get with.
ya, i am suffering from inner anxiety turmoil again……..normal for me when i go thru breakups. I have friends in life, but lately even they are annoying for me……….and i don’t know why, other than it is linked to the inner anxiety thing.
i do go into the chamber with God and the angels, which is the most calming for me, beyond anything anyone in life is able to do for me, something i learned some time ago, but dwelling to long along is not healthy, albeit, dwelling with toxic others is defeating as regards inner growth.
i would like to return to school, but my credit rating prevents it. School is a healthy environment more so than most work environments, and i love learning what i am passionate about.
people do not realize how vital a hand to hold is in getting our needs met, which i why i am still friends with my ex, knowing he still deeply loves me, where i will always be his friend in life, irregardless of interference from the nomad so called friends of his, and their horrid hypocrisy heart.
and clearly, i need the friendship of my ex as well, even though it is now of these toxic others in his life, i enjoy going for lunch with him.
i am coping, the transition not going as well as i hoped, where the last thing i needed was this flu, which has left me now with this anxiety disorder, and the things which come with it, like oversensitivity, overreacting abreactions.
i don’t know kevin, i guess i sorta hoped for a real life friendship with a few i had met on the internet over the past few years, seemingly to no avail, my ever present wishful thinking, feeling deserving of it, feeling crushed when nothing comes of it, as i wind down my time on the internet more and more, returning to the adventurous life i love, go live life, you know, good friends, downhill skiing, camp fires, sleeping on the beach, running of playful fun loving life. i have to get back to life.
the year off of introspection has been of great help, but it’s over now, and not healthy to stay doing as much like i have been doing, where a few hours a week is enough introspection, and not for hours at a time every day. I have become free from the relationship i wanted to graceful get out of, friendship completely intact, and i am far less toxic than before, so all good, but the next phase is to get into the groove of my old fun loving adventureous self i always was, happy and joyful every single day. Quiting the smoking is a physical toxic major one that is holding my outdoor adventureous self down.
go be of the fun loving adventureous self everyone, and keep the internet thing to a minimum. I see way too many people who spend far far too much time sitting in front of computers……….it is not healthy.
anyway, at the advice of my therapist, who i trust, i am curbing my time on the internet, as i was living on it far too much at one point, not addressing my needs, and the needs of others. It is not bad, chatting and what not, but not like i was doing, as much as 12 hours a day at one point………….
i want real life friendships, of real smiling faces, really laughter i can hear, real hands to hold, lips to kiss, bodies to hug………..what is of normal life………..the internet does not meet our needs in a healthy way, so i have to get myself away from it, especially right now with this transition which is going horrible for me right now. i’ll get thru it, but i have to go do things to ensure it, like some dancing, anything, anywhere, with any one, as long as it is real life.
truly, there is nothing at all funny about inner anxiety turmoil if you have ever experienced it.
we have to get our needs met, and as for this whole internet thing, for those that don’t want to participate in getting my needs met of real life as real friends, well, i did extend the invitation, and the door is always open, and if not, then i will find others who have genuine desire like my own to go be of ordinary, and i will not be doing this internet thing much longer, disengaging, for sake of time spent in real life, hold real hands, where i have been abandoning myself spending too much time in front of a computer, with people who are not extending genuine sincere real life friendship with me.
i thought about the unconditional love thing, and for me, it is all bullshit, of no hand holding mine, no lips kissing mine, no hugging, no cuddling, no sex?……………NO WAY!!!!!!!!!!!
whatever
control freak
soz, Ansy , let’s not rehash the Anal Retentive thing, your not anal, not
Hi Kevin
I just read your latest, the “bike” comment from m was funny as I’m still laughing… true about the weed though, give it up, it makes you paranoid, lazy and gives your body toxic shock… make’s you think your on a high, when in fact it actually trap’s you into a low…
they call it “Dope” in Aussie land, say’s it all really …..
after being away for five days, i return back to my new place, and was shocked by what i saw……
i called Norm, loco gayboy, “Norm, you are not going to believe this……i am standing in my this my new fucking place, and get this, it is so cold, i can see my breath!”
“No WAY!!!!!”
“ya, WAY!!!!!”
“Get back over here and stay here then!!!”
fucking unbelievable these slum lords…….that’s ok, we are taking pictures, and sending them to authorities to review, including a few to the loco tv news network to have fun with, so by the time Norm and i are done, the entire city will know about this slum lord.
couch surfing until i find a new place………….
keep it real, keep it real, keep it real
made of steal, made of steal, made of steal
never left,, never left, never left..
always right, always right, always right..
good lick, good, luck. good fuck..
omg lol
coming here today, i so needed to laugh, and some solid affirmation in real self……….and wow marco!
ok………i have something i have not spoke at length about, which is a secret i have held back within, that is of God, of what is full circle wholeness that i am yet writting. It is the most complete divinity wholeness words i will now reveal this day, of what is of today where every day of the future is of this day, unchanging, because it is of TRUTH which does not change.
are you ready?
the writtings are of great length, and i will begin to publish some of it today.
fogive my weaken state of mind of recent, as i was extremely toxic from medication i was taking for the flu, which has such a profound affect on my mental eye.
i am here for you, and my approach with you is going to BE of what is nurturing for our friendship to become greater than it has ever been, and best of all, it will remain of what it is we have been yearning for all this time with one another, of what it is i have been holding back, blocking as you say, where it was fears, such as fear of rejection which had it’s grip on me recently, lashing out with false masks, feeling after the truth, that you sense the real ‘me’ who is there, quietly feeling my love for you that is unfailing, knowing that you too are of the same feeling within, yearning to come free of all uncertainties which is yet between us, keeping us apart like it does, deeply saddening for us both, of such depth in feeling within our soul, it makes us cry.
ok……….here comes what i have been yearning to say, words of affirmation which are of my entire life’s journey till this day, words of affirmation which will not ever change, these words i am about to say, which break the chains which bind our soul, setting us free to soar high and free, where no one will ever be able to trouble us ever again, no matter what any will ever say……….this eternal day, of the eternal light within ‘me’ constant shining, lighting every blessed day yet to come, for you, for ‘me’, for all who constantly yearn to BE what we truly are, eternally free by means of the these unchanging eternal words as you shall soon BE.
give thanks to Jesus and God who are constantly there.
thank you Jesus thank you
bless you Jesus bless you
thank you God thank you
thank you thank you thank you
ok….deep breathes, as the words of eternal light are extremely bright and impactful to the core of our BEing this eternal day that will not cease to shine forever more into every blessed day yet to come.
blessed blessed blessed
i am constantly of pure loving feelings for you, knowing you too feel what i feel, deep within the core of our BEing, of what needs to BE set free this eternal day of blessed love and light.
are you ready?
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the eternal awareness i am about to write about actually came to me some time ago, of what it is we are seeking, and have been seeking out entire lives.
today is the eternal day of revealing the eternal light that will not stop shining, so radiant and bright it will light up the entire world for all eternity.
forever more
“blessed blessed blessed eternal love and light forever more shining forth for all to SEE!!!!!!!!!!!!”
ready?
ok……..there is alot of typing, and i will publish it soon.
bless you bless you bless you for all eternity of what is eternally true of you, ‘me’, of us all forever more
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you should be somewhere quietly alone when you read what i am about to reveal.
im sorry for taking so long to reach out my hand to you, knowing you are there yearning for ‘me’ like i too am yearning for you, pure and true.
i know i am eternally loving of you, of blessed pure love that is of the core of my BEing feelings, and i know you too are of eternal loving for ‘me’, of exact sameness in feeling. You know i am here for you, and you know my feelings will not ever change as the pure love feelings are not able to change. i know you are of these same core love feelings within for ‘me’, where you need not ever wonder what my feelings are, merely by feeling what is true in feeling within you, as my feelings are exact sameness of you, no different in any way.
it is the TRUTH
“blessed blessed blessed you and all those you love who love YOU forever more!!!!!!!!!”
ok…………ready?
are in a quiet place alone?
holy holy holy
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HOLY! HOLY! HOLY! IS THE BLESSED LIGHT FOREVER MORE!!!!!!!!!!
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~ because the writtings are sacred, i am publishing the first draft on my blog, so that i can edit and redit as i go along later………..
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Grace and peace to you from/of/with God and Jesus!
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i love the Forbidden Love song M, a timeless classic!!!
i have always felt we are supposed to be together
argh…..i am forced to take refuge with my ex, until they fix the heat at my new place……sad to say, i would rather take refuge at a shelter than endure the belittling condescending behavior of my ex, who is relentless in speaking down to me, seemingly unable of him to say anything positive or loving with me………so much for my detoxing from him.
i don’t understanding why it is hold onto his friendship, when clearly he is so toxic for me to be around…….i suppose like anyone, he does have a sweet side to him, like when he cuddles me at night, which i am trying my best to be of grace with him, as painful as it is to tolerate his absurd attitude of nearly every word he speaks with me, where the only time he is pleasant, is when he is quiet, or asleep. lol
i need to get away, go out dancing somewhere, mingle, chat about whatever with whoever is there, relax, be at ease, find some new friends who are fun to be around, of pleasant words and tenderness of loving spirit like my own, and rid myself of the tension that has it’s grip on me still.
i am my confident real self which knows i am deserving only of tender love of another, and that is what keeps me going thru this detoxing i am so tired of feeling like i do, of not ever wanting to feel this way ever again, of running running running to the future to find my self one day of love’s embrace with new friends and a lover who genuinely is of their pure sweet true love with me, knowing happiness is all i ever want to feel apon waking each and every day, each hour, each passing moment, knowing that i am pure and true, thru and thru, wondering why it is that others do not see me the way i see my self, the way i constantly am, of my constantly pure and true loving feelings that do not stop feeling any other way than the tender gentle loving feelings i constantly am.
i pray that the new love of my life appears soon, and i will recognize them when they do.
oh how i yearn to feel loved again, only this time i want to feel loved at all times, of no unnecessary condescending belittling approach from them, of their true real pure loving self like my own, of our sameness of tender grace with one another, so blessed the feeling of holding hands, the soft kiss of their lips, the oh so good feeling of the embrace of each other’s body, skin to skin, the aroma of their hair, the, the, the………….the SEX!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hey M, are you busy?
what are you doing for the rest of your life?
i feel a pure freeness feeling when i think of the real you and the real me, of not wondering if we would be happy around each other, rather of pure knowing we both would be of happiness, if your love for me is pure and true like my love is for you, where only a matter of time spent together is all we would need to do to establish the truth for both of us to feel, that indeed, we can be the happiest we have ever felt in life.
it is a certainty feeling that i feel, of knowing the tender pure true real me, where i sense the true real you as being the same as my own, yearning to be fearlessly unfraid to love one another like we know we do, of our feelings we feel in each passing moment each day, that speaks to us within, the truth of these words i say.
of course, it could be my own imagination that you feel the same way too? i feel awkward, and i do not know what you want to do, or when you want to do, or even if you are going to do what i pray we have an opportunity to do, to spend time with one another, coming fully into awareness of just how pure and truly loving we both are in our natural state of BEing like we are while alone.
Are you too afraid like i am inside to BE what you yearn to BE with me. I know i am at times, where any fear is of my current detoxing i am yet going thru, which could last for months, depending on how i set my boundaries with certain others in my life right now.
i keep coming up against this mental block that says to me, because of my current status in life, of no real income like your own, that you and i won’t be coming together in life, even though we want to, and the issue keeps at me like it does, and i don’t know why, when it has nothing to do with the pure and true me, of how i am, knowing i am deserving of only love with another, knowing one day i will be of another who is only loving of me, where it is silly to ever think status has anything to do with my at ease true nature of BEing the happy pure and true real me of sameness of another just like me.
is society going to dictate to us, against us like it does, of it’s expectations like it does, when in truth, we both know the level of awareness we both are of feeling?
anyway, i know i am being forward in my approach with you today, and yet, i know you appreciate my keeping it real with you like i always want to BE with you, of the only way it will ever work for us both in the future, should the day come we may come together like i want to, somehow sense that your yearning to do so is the same as my own, of why i am saying what i want to express today.
i keep getting this image of how others will look apon me, if we ever were to be what i want to be with you, where they see me as some nobody in the world, when in fact, i am wiser than most any of them who may have their opinion of me, of what i know about the divine real self of any of us, like the way we know the pure love of Rosie & Kelly, like the way we know the pure love of so many loving souls in life.
i hope you don’t take offense to my words, and see them as what it is i feel many souls may look apon me, should one day you and i surrender fully to one another, in BEing our true loving real self with each other at all times, of the pure at ease peaceful loving true nature of our real self like we know we are, of what is the only way for you and i to BE with each other, of what is pure and true conducive environment for each other. i know i need that with you, and i know you would be that with me, of what you yearn to be, of what we both yearn to always BE, our real self.
The benifits of such for both of us, is what i hold onto, of what is the greatest value in the future for us both, that will only grow together in releasing our spirit and soul into pure and true happiness.
it will take BEing our fearless self to come together, to overcome any concern of notions the world may have of us coming together.
it will take both of us saying to hell with the world, this is what we want.
so fuck off cruel world, and step aside……..Madonna and Andy are in the house!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol
~ oh hey, i am truly expressing my self, yes?!!!
this is where you say, “Well it’s about fucking time!!!!”
“fuck!!!!!!!!” lol
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~ Raising Malawi ~
The spiritual poverty of the world is what is cause for all world struggles.
merely addressing the immediate crisis needs thru fund raising for children of starvation, is a short lived solution for a long term problem.
the vastness of the problem is so great, the solution requires all souls of the earth to participate in order to ‘PERMANENTLY’ irradicate poverty in the world.
the problem is not money, the problem is the spiritual poverty of the souls of the world which are what is cause for every void devoid of love in the world, and this is where i feel Madonna’s presence on the world stage, is of her fully embracing the aspects of spiritual poverty, and how to ‘permanently shift the souls of the world over to spiritual wealth. There is a way, and that is what is the core of my continued study with Jesus and God.
Only thru becoming fully centered in fully embracing that spiritual poverty = spiritual death = physical death, where ever second, every heartbeat, every breath, every step, every word is of the divinty of Jesus, God and the pure and true divine self, are we going to be able to address this shift from spiritual poverty to spiritual wealth.
i know 100% that this is the solution, although i do not yet know fully the impactful way in which to BE of change from the current spiritual poverty to spiritual wealth, albeit, i have alot of insight and ideas into how, where more devoted time in a pure blessed sanctuary is all i need to do, of collaboration with likeminded souls like my own.
i am not about any religion, nor shall i ever be of such, rather i am of the pure and true divine child of God self of us all.
this is what is of my destiny with Jesus and God, although i do not know to what extent if any that i am to be of collaboration with you M, where perhaps my writtings alone in my sanctuary is where the most insight may come.
i don’t know.
i have yearned for a safe and supportive sanctuary with you as a best friend in life who is keen on further investigation into my ongoing study of addressing the shift of spiritual poverty to wise spiritual wealth. I leave that decision with you to make.
without doubt, i know who i am, a wise child of God who surrendered his life fully to Jesus and God, for the sake of coming fully into understanding all there is to know about the spiritual wealth State of BEing, of what is of Jesus, of what Jesus knows is also of every soul of the world.
we stand here in the present, during a time of the world where there is great spiritual poverty in the world, where future generations will look back apon us as the dark ages of mankind transitioning out of spiritual poverty into wise spiritual wealth of the divine child of God self.
i do not see business in the future of mankind, where the self serving mentalities of today of the business world will not be of the wise spiritual wealth of the future of mankind, where i see mankind harnessing the power of the sun using robotic technology, of such massive amounts of energy supply, there there is no need for the foolishness of business, where the entire population of mankind lives in excess of anything we need, where one day all souls of the world stand at ease of their true nature, wisely so, in tranquility of spiritual beings living on a planet floating thru space.
the universe is so vast, and if we do not embrace the vastness of the ability of our brain power, and the true nature of our pure and true peaceful loving divine child of God self, then we are left to the whims of the unwise teachings of the forefathers to run amuk like it yet does, on and on the continued spiritual poverty goes, the disconnected apathy of this world which leaves a child to die daily.
it is the child dying who is the one we must constantly towards at all times, of what is our constant empowerment, of a child who is constantly there, constantly feeling the truth of the apathetic world in each passing moment, the pure truth that the world is yet gripped by the horridness of spiriual poverty, the disconnectedness from our pure and true loving divine child of God self.
it is blessed to BE of serving SELF(a master of spiritual wealth enlightenment) than to be of the apathetic disconnected self serving spiritual poverty like so much of the world yet is, and yet, of every soul, is the blessed pure and true loving feelings of the divine child of God self.
FULLY BEcoming of the pure and true divine child of God self, we realize it is not of any effort to feel the pure loving feelings we constantly feel for the precious loving souls trapped in spiritual poverty(rich or poor), of what is BEing centered in the pure and true loving State of BEing of the blessed divine child of God self.
Clearly, we are both of surrendered spirit with God, of what is a single greatest empowerment of our daily life, the pure and true loving feelings we feel that are constantly there each and every day.
giving our life to God is the life giving pure and true breath of life into the divine child of God we constantly are who is constantly of the pure and true blessed loving feelings, and constantly of yearning to feel the pure and true loving feelings we feel like we feel. We are not any of the projections of society(albeit, without wisdom, we can be affected/effected by society), when we fully BEcome centered as our divine child of God self.
Like the divine child of God self trapped in the voids of spiritual poverty in the world, we too are of constant yearning to feel the blessed pure and true loving feelings of our pure and true loving divine child of God self. When we look apon the child trapped in these voids of spiritual poverty, we realize the child is indeed trapped in a void devoid of love, devoid of wisdom, and devoid of compassion, of what these spiritual voids truly are, are they not? Truly, the world is blindly absurd in this regard, in all of it’s unloving, uncaring, unwise, disconnected apathetic self serving ways, so cold for any soul, so painfully sad to be trapped in a spiritual poverty void, is it not?
We love these souls who are trapped in these spiritual poverty voids, where these children of starvation do not realize that there are souls in the world who are there in pure and true loving feelings for them, wise to the world which is cause for the spiritual poverty voids which hold fast these precious souls, where more than food, we know it is our words of love for them which they yearn to hear from us, where it is our loving presence before them which they yearn to feel, more so than the food they need, is it not?
this is true of every soul of the world, including our own, is it not?
We need a loud drum, no, make that 10,000 loud drums, all constantly sounding over and over and over, marching down the street, leaving every soul wondering what is going on, drawing attention to what we know is Jesus and God’s pure and true divine WILL for every soul of the world, to reconnect with our blessed pure true constant loving State of BEing, of what HEAVEN constantly is.
We need to do it now. We needed to do it yesterday. We need to BE constantly doing what constantly is of the pure and true loving divine child of God self of every soul of the earth, our WILL BE Done on earth, what HEAVEN constantly is.
the joy, the exceeding joy of millions of child today who can be freed from the prison of this world which is so cruel to them, so unloving, so uncaring, so painfully sad to feel and watch this wretched world that leaves a child to die every day………it must stop, because this ongoing unloving sickeness is causing us to remain of denial of our blessed pure and true divine child of God self, where continuation in our giving the green light that it is ok to let a child die, is completely against the pure and true love of every soul, where we too are trapped in spiritual poverty, are we not?
instead of the sadness which yet grips the entire world of precious pure true loving souls, we are the ones who are the pure and true wise free spiritual BEings of God, who are wise in feeling the pure and true blessed love feelings of our divine child of God self. We are the leaders of love and life for every blessed soul of the entire future, of every blessed soul of today, of what Jesus knew to BE true of his own divine child of God self, true of every blessed soul from the womb of God, where it is merely wisdom which breaks the chains which bind the soul, freeing forever every soul of the world from this horrid prison of spiritual sickeness of the generational spiritual poverty we all yet dwell in, other than those who have BEcome free by means of Jesus and God’s divine wisdom meant for the divine child of God of us all.
Jesus loves ALL God loves ALL We love ALL
Jesus blesses ALL God blesses ALL We bless ALL
blessed blessed blessed is the divine child of God self who is awakened into awareness of the pure true blessed love feelings they feel so pure and true like we do.
You are blessed
Every soul of the earth is blessed
It is by means of the collaboration of every blessed soul of the earth that every spiritual sickeness of the heart, mind, body, spirit and soul shall be wiped from the face of the earth, where no more tears shall fall, no more pain and suffering,
no more, no more, more more
STOP this insanity that is making us all sick, and cause for every child that dies from starvation.
Embrace the pure true love feelings of your divine child of God self forever more, of what HEAVEN constantly is.
bless you bless you bless you
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here comes the Sun
here comes the Sun
here comes the Sun
let’s smile again!
can you all pray for me, ( i have quit cigarettes ) i can do it, i am strong, i have the will power, yuk, i despise tobacco it is so toxic, another form of self abuse, my last bastion of denial of the self… no more toxic friends, toxic substances, toxic thoughts’.. no more.
i am no more a mirror of others fear’s, way to destructive and toxic for me, i am not a puritan, i am not in denial of my weakness’s or fear the temptation of any form of addictions i am merely aware and in control of all of them, i am stronger for having experienced rather fear them. i strength not a weakness.have you ever eaten food that you know is not healthy and then later felt ill from doing so or depressed for doing so obesity is such a common occurrence in the western world, considering there is so much poverty people are dying from obesity at alarming rates, and people are dying of malnutrition and lack of safe water at alarming rates. balance is what is required balance is the key, the universal law is balance and what we need is Synchronicity.
who wants to Synchronicity me 🙂 lol
i’ve just been through all my papers for the last 20 yrs, do you know how much shit i’ve been through rape, someone tried to kill me, another spent 14yrs brainwashing me so i would be their sex slave my GOd after reading the forensic Psychiatrist report i am surprised i am still alive.. BUT i am ..
I’ll always be stronger mentally emotionally & spiritually ..
& you thought Jesus had it tough… babe you ain’t heard anything until you’ve heard my story…
My Spirit is not broken.
it’s been sooooooooo long since we’ve spoken, don’t you want to hear
who wants Synchronicity ‘me’?
ohhhhhhh…..i can Synchronicity you……i am actually quite good at it!!!
trust ‘me’, one synchronicity with ‘me’ and you will know, truly, i am the one for you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
forever more
lol
ohhhhhhhh how i want to BE of SYNCHRONICITY with YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
you have no idea how badly i do, how much i do, i often i do it!
hmmm….seems i am feeling fantastic now!
the only thing i like about having a cold or the flu, is how incredible it is to feel good again!
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fearlessly pure and true as our real self with one another while alone together, the word synchronicity is an excellent word that describes the constant flowing of love between us, love of ‘me’ for you, love of you for ‘me’, of our love devoid of doubt.
i am not here to enslave your spirit, rather to free your real self to constantly BE your real self every moment of every blessed day.
it is the WILL of each soul that is required for the blessed synchronicity love devoid of doubt between two souls, where only love is of what HEAVEN constantly is.
together or apart, i know 100% i am constantly of the constant blessed synchronicity of love devoid of doubt between Jesus, God and my divine child self, of a relationship i have had for along time now, that continued to grow more and more, until such a time that i BEcame fully aware of the pure and true State of BEing of my divine child self, seemingly unattended, unnurtured, unprotected during the many earlier years of my blessed life, where i realize today it was Jesus and God who had the protective nurturing wisdom meant for my divine child self all along, where no one of the earth was fully as wise of my divine child self than Jesus and God.
in saying this, you can fully realize then, that perhaps i am likely suitable for you as a soulmate lover best friend, where i do not wish to ever BE of discomfort for you, and rather constantly BE of the pure and true at ease gentle mild tender loving divine child self i am, where i am of desire in BEing my divine child self at all times, where the only conducive environment for ‘me’, is of someone who is likewise of likemindedness like my own, which i know you are.
there is no other way to find out if we are compatible other than spending enough time together to find out if we are meant for one another, and that is all i am asking is that we both give honor to our real self to find out once and for all if it is true, where i truly do feel that it is true, we are meant for one another, even if of just BEing best friends along life’s road, which i already know we always WILL BE, because of our pure and true approach to life as our real self, becoming more obvious now in each passing moment.
obviously if the WILL is only of one of us, than we WILL not come together in the physical realm, and that is where my own discerning tells me that you do have the sameness of WILL as my own, which is what excites me like it does, of such incredible surprise actually some days along life’s road thus far, where i sensed something so pure and true, genuine sincerity like my own, of the beautiful loving feeling inside and exclaiming, “OMG, they love ‘me’.”
you have no idea how overwhelming those moments were and yet are for me.
so if you do have an inclination to do so, the please follow thru, lest i get swept away by another, should i sense the your sincerity waning, making me feel that perhaps it was merely my yearning imagination.
and that is the thing, i know 100%, it has not been my imagination, of such beautiful pure and true moments i have experienced with you like we have all this time.
in truth, i feel there is something more pure and true about you than i yet realize, of blessed pure loving light i have witnessed about you so many times, where it has been me who has been lagging behind of the spiritual growth of my divine child self.
although recently, my divine child self has come fully into his State of BEing awakeness and alertness, unafraid of anything anyone should ever say, and rightfully so if anyone is of choosing to BE anything other than pure and true love around ‘me’, where i know my divine child self is only of pure and true love State of BEing, as i have revealed recently.
the pure and true inner love experience i became aware of some time ago, is the most powerful experience i had ever experienced in my entire life, where 100% clarity was of that day of awakening to the pure and true presence of my divine child self who was there, where all toxic uncertainty of any soul i met along life’s road disappeared, and my divine child self was just there, in full perfect pure and true State of BEing which i am yet of describing what that feels like, where 100% constantly pure and true is what my divine child self is, where Jesus and God were instrumental of my coming fully into this new awareness, where aspects of the divine child self, such as the exceeding graceful State of BEing, i realized was something i was afraid one before to BE, where Jesus and God reveal that this aspect is what is the PURE TRUTH as regards my divine child self, where now i am no longer afraid to embrace the many blessed aspects of the divine child self who is of sameness of the divine child self Jesus, where more and more i am learning about things of the divine child self Jesus that i believe no one yet knows about, where fearlessness is how i am able to probe further into knowing Jesus, knowing my divine child self.
i feel if of the physical realm with you, i would see the greatest growth in my ability to constantly remain of the State of BEing of my divine child self, and yet i don’t want to make you feel awkward as a best friend that i have this expectation of you, rather i want you to BE of the pure and true love of your own divine child self who likewise feels you too would BE of growth in your ability to likewise constantly remain of the blessed State of BEing your divine child of God self, where i feel that is the only way it will ever truly work for us as a relationship of the physical realm, of best friend and/or lovers.
so if one day you do want to investigate further, then follow thru, knowing i truly do want to…………..without doubt.
the most significant aspect about you which interests ‘me’ the most, of my observation of you all this time, is the blessed spirituality about you, where i want you to know fully and completely(and already feel this to BE true of you) that it is the blessed purity of the spirituality of your divine child of God self that is of why i am most interested in you, where my own growth by close proximity with you is what is of priority for ‘me’, of what i also feel is of priority for you.
clearly, my experiences of the spirituality with Jesus and God reveal the truth of this about my divine child self for you to BE of fearless approach with ‘me’, where you need not ever wonder if i would BE anything other than the pure and true love of my divine child of God self with you in each passing moment of each blessed day, so alive, so full of blessed happiness, of what i constantly pray one day the truth BE revealed of what i have suspected to BE true of you all this time, that we truly would BE of the greatest happiness either one of us has ever experienced in life thus far.
so if it is true, of my seemingly knowing that it is, then i know, you will follow thru in the physical realm.
i don’t even want to think of any other path in life at this point in time, of my yet here at a cross roads of everlasting life.
and yet, if you do find another who to BE of blessed happiness, then i will love you like i always have, hoping and praying that you BE of the constant pure and true happiness of your divine child of God self every blessed moment of every blessed day. You know i cannot BE anything other than loving of you, the same way Jesus and God love us, of our pure true spiritual awareness of the truth of this, awareness i feel you and i are more so than most know about us.
i keep sense the pure true State of BEing of your divine child self, who i sense is so solid in your focused ability, that i know there is no soul of the world who is ever able to push you out of your State of BEing awareness, and that is something i want to learn from you.
truly, who of this world is of the approach with you like i am, where i am of the awareness of State of BEing where you dwell, of the divine child of God self i speak directly with like i do, fearlessness like your own?
there is only one way for us to come fully into knowing if we would BE compatible for one another, something i feel we are both secretly of zealous optimism about while of our blessed meditative State of BEing while alone, and that is for you to invite my divine child of God self to your sacred sanctuary, where today, the blessed pure true loving feeling is so incredible and beautiful of feeling for me to feel this day, so calm, so pure of grace i am of, so tender of joyful loving feeling in my every step this blessed day, even if of just BEing best friends, i know i WILL always feel this way, and i know you too are of the sameness ability as my own, where the unwise world is not ever able to make us toxic again.
i know it is early at this point, and i apologize for my impatience, where i really don’t know what is a most suitable time for either of us at this point in time, so don’t be of anxiety over this, as we both are of the pure true eternal love State of BEing awareness of the divine child of God self forever more……….im just abit bored, that’s all, and i suspect perhaps you are too.
do you know how long i have yearned for the day to hold your hand, to hug you, to kiss you?
there is no element of doubt within me as regards my love for you, albeit, i have been afraid of rejection, and yet, no one should ever BE of such useless fear, where the only way a relationship is ever able to work for the divine child of God self between two souls, is when they are of the genuine sincere pure and true love for each other, where the element of doubt is not of the divine child of God self of either of them, of what i suspect is true of you, sameness of ‘me’.
so, ah, lunch sometime?
i know you want to!
cast doubt away, for i am not of any doubt.
such incredible joy we could be feeling this day, if fear and useless doubt was cast out.
already i am of incredible joyfulness feeling this day, inspite of the absurd toxic attitudes of those who yet attack me like they do……..morons! Their own worse enemy in life. Well, the lost my friendship, destroyed it actually, but not ever able to destroy the pure true loving spirit and soul of my blessed divine child of God self. There are no words of any soul of this world who are able to BEcome victorious over the pure true love feelings my divine child self enjoys feeling like he does daily. Many have tryed. Many have lied. Many i’ve said goodbye along life’s road, always of connectedness with the divine child of God self within, however submerged he became at times.
i am not really concerned of when we may BE of real life in the physical world together as best friends, rather of if we WILL. I am of the fearlessness to do so, and yet, i don’t allow myself to get my hopes up too much, knowing you have your life to live, your way, with those of your choice, praying i am to one day BE of your choice of best friends in your inner circle forever more, a knowingness certainty i keep feeling of how healthy i would BE for/of/with you, for both of us.
the wisdom i have internalized of recent years is what is meant for my divine child self, and in so knowing, i know it is meant for every divine child of God self, of every soul of the world today, of every soul of the world tomorrow, forever more
blessed blessed blessed is the divine child of God self forever more
bless you
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ya, the smoking is stopping soon. I quit for eight years once before. I will be using Nicorette to quit, and i know i will be sucessful in quitting, because of my great disdain for the habit, which is exceedingly toxic for my divine child self, who is going to be so thankful to be free of the illness feelings that come with substance abuse.
truly, this decision is exceeding happiness for my divine child self
bless you
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of all the things in life for ‘me’, the presence of Jesus and God in my life is the most incredible of all, of significance as to vital importance of the wisdom of Jesus and God as regards my divine child of God self, where there is no wisdom in life that surpasses the wisdom which resulted in the pure true blessed 100% clarity love feelings i have experienced of what is awareness in both seeing and feeling the truth about my divine child of God self, and this is what i feel is what is most significance for every soul of the world, of what is the most compelling subject in life beyond everything. The divine child self State of BEing awareness i came fully into knowingness certainty of, is what i believe is the divine WILL of Jesus and God for all souls to fully come into awareness of, of what i feel surpasses anything and everything a soul will ever do in their entire of life’s journey, where i do not have any uncertainty as to the degree of priority of such, where it is the blessed purity love feelings which clarifies this for ‘me’, of no effort whatsoever in making spirituality of the divine child self the number one priority in life, because of what the spirituality reveals, the true pure nature of the divine child self.
the real quest now is obvious, how to approach the divine child self of others in assisting them in coming fully into the awareness clarity i am fully 100% tuned into of certainty knowingness about the divine child of God self, where i am yet trying to express what appears to be on oversight for everyone, the genuine true purity of the State of BEing feeling of the divine child self of no time constaint fear like that which rules the world like it does, snaring by means of distracting the attention away from a soul’s ability to come fully into the meditative awareness State of BEing, which we are of clarity awareness.
currently, my divine child self is entering into the fearless State of BEing in fearless speaking and expressing, and this is exciting for me, as to the interpretations of art, and ancient scripture, where i see and feel the presence of the angelic divine child of God self in most any art work, music, poetry, or any form of expression in the world of any soul, across all barriers of life in the world.
truly, this is the most exciting time of life for me, of what i feel is unlocking the mystery of what Jesus too saw of every soul apon the road of life while he walked the earth, where i am not at all afraid any more in seeing my divine child of God self as an equal to Jesus, where in fact, i feel Jesus was constantly of desire that a soul 100% opens wide to the truth, that indeed, Jesus is our equal, of pure blessed sameness, an oversight everyone is yet of disconnectedness of, because of the fearful approach the churches have been all this time since Jesus walked the earth, where i see with clarity, that no church of the world is of the full complete embrace of Jesus and God, all merchants of God who claim they know Jesus and God, and yet none are of the full pure true embrace of the divine child self Jesus, as evident by their behaviour which reveals the obvious clarity they are not of the full true embrace of the divine child self of their own blessed soul, where it is my BEing tuned into the purity aspects of the divine child self which gives me the ability to know the difference or condition of every soul of the earth.
what?
hey, i was thinking, seeing as so many along life’s road were of mockery approach with us like so many were, why not turn the table around, and make a mockery of the absurdness of all things which are not true of the divine child of God self in the world? …..in a fun way……..where our clarity observation of truth from falseness behavioural traits is how we are able to assist others in BEcoming reconnected with the blessed pure true aspects of the divine child self we know to BE true of every soul?
I feel my life is currently entering into the most important time period of my life in this regard, and it truly is the most exciting time for me, in a joyful way, a fun loving way, of a fearlessness i have not experienced like i have until recent, because of the clarity of the divine child self i now am of, and the growth of the fearlessness is increasing for me daily, perhaps because of so much absurdness from so many along life’s road i suppose, where i am truly tired of the way so many treated my, unknowingly unwisely like they did.
i am not angery, rather relieved that this past chapter of my life is finally over, and i can breath the beautiful at ease State of BEing i am of now, of what i always subconsciously was seeking all this time, the uncertainties within BEing replaced with pure certainty awareness, the incredible fearlessness that comes with the State of BEing divine child of God self like it does, something i was able to do with the assistance of the wisdom of Jesus and God, of my returning again and again to the sanctuary alone with them like i did for the past twenty years, of the wisdom which was awakening the divine child self fully into awareness of the blessed feelings which come with the State of BEing, where the words, 100% pure and true is what accurately describes the awareness of the State of BEing i am fully of awareness now, alone with Jesus and God of the sacred surrendered spirit of my divine child self with Jesus and God, completely humbleness knowingness that not me, nor anyone is fully of the complete wisdom of God, where humbleness to this truth is the only way one can learn anything about the divine child self Jesus, sameness of the divine child self of every soul, what Jesus knew to BE true of us ALL.
i feel every word of Jesus is of the sacred understanding Jesus had about every soul of the world, where it is 100% sameness Jesus embraced of his own divine child self, of his own awareness of all the truth aspects of his divine child self, the blessed pure TRUTH of every soul, exact sameness, again, the most significant oversight which results in the disconnectedness with the divine child self Jesus, the same disconnectedness with the divine child self within us all that most souls currently are of, according to my observations of the aimlessness of most any soul in the world(sadly), of why the world is yet grip by so many wretched horrid illnesses like it yet is, of what will see the continuation of all these wretched horrid illnesses in future generations, until such a time a generation comes along and BEcomes fully awakened into the blessed pure true awareness of the divine child of God self, and the vital wisdom which makes this possible.
having said that, how significant is our life in this time period of mankind?
well, we can safely say, that one soul, the blessed divine child self Jesus, did alter the entire future up till this day, did he not?
so if we had 10,000 blessed divine children of the light of God all of blessed divine WILL while walking the earth, then without doubt, we are the generation Jesus prayed one day to come which would BE the generation which opens wide the safe passage for all of mankind in the future to safely travel, are we not?
without doubt, every step, every word, every heartbeat, every breath, every blessed day is sacred in the eyes of Jesus, God and the eyes of our own divine child of God self, where once a soul comes fully into the awareness of the blessed pure true loving State divine of BEing of their divine child of God self, they no long question what is of priority in life any longer, easily so, without effort whatsoever, where it is the blessed pure love feelings one experiences while of the meditative pure State of BEing of the divine child of God self which reveals 100% with clarity the blessed TRUTH of how the world actually is, devoid of love, devoid of wisdom, devoid of compassion, devoid of the blessed divine child self Jesus and the divine child of God self YOU and ‘me’, exact sameness of Jesus…………albeit, great and numerous are the many pure loving souls in the world who are of genuine loving assistance to other souls in the world, such as ‘Doctor’s Without Boarders’.
still, i place ‘Awareness’ of the State of BEing of the divine child of God self as the most significant in life, having come fully into the 100% pure true State of BEing awareness of the divine child of God self.
and that is what is my divine WILL for every soul is, each blessed day i wake to, of my ongoing study into how to BE of the affect/effect/direct/indirect in this regard.
blessed blessed blessed, you are pure true blessed love of the divine child of God self forever more
bless you bless you bless you forever more
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really marco?
sounds like the kind of hell i too experienced along life’s road, of many many wretched ill approaches many were of with ‘me’, unknowingly of their own haphazard aimless unwiseness like they were.
hmmm…..i suppose we have alot to talk about then, yes?
my theraputic approach with my divine child self is where i have a big warehouse full of boxes, where i am the only one who has the key to enter the warehouse(my mind), and in each box are the life experiences i went thru, where i am free to go and open each box and feel what it is that i felt and yet feel, of any unresolved past issue i may not have worked thru yet, of what is my ongoing therapy with professionals, of therapy i have invited into my life for years to come. We have to work thru this past stuff in order to become free of the toxic effects of it, that is debilating for the divine child self until we do.
i am not that bad actually, mentally/emotionally, and truly at ease as my divine child self while alone, away from any toxic others, an awareness i have been tuned into for along time, of great length of time in practicing BEing my divine child self for a couple decades now, ever growing, ever healing, ever evolving in wisdom and the fearlessness which comes with healing like it does.
i am ready for genuine sincere happiness, and i feel it radiating within me more and more each passing day, which gives me assurance of how the future WILL BE for ‘me’, of what is the wise awareness of my divine child of God self now awake and feeling blessed each passing moment of each blessed day, more and more as time passes.
i am excited that you too are feeling happiness returning, of what is most of value that i pray for you and ‘me’, for all souls of the world.
blessed blessed blessed, constantly blessed is the divine child of God self forever more.
bless you
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fearlessness is an aspect of the wise divine child self, where the child comes fully into knowingness certainty awareness that indeed, most any soul of the world is sadly of aimless haphazardness like they are, spiritual deprived of the Jesus and God’s wisdom, obviously so by their unloving unwise behavioural traits, like that of delight of the bitter hypocrisy heart many turn towards like they do.
fearlessness is something that is of exceeding joyfulness, and is one reason why it is great importance for the divine child self, where we yet see, for example, the fear mongering of these merchants of God in the world as regards the homosexual. In truth, the truly well adjusted homosexuals who are of fully of acceptance about themselves, exibit a true fearlessness exceeding joyfulness of their homosexuality, having overcome the unwise fear mongering merchants of God in the world.
The divine child is not of any fear whatsoever, where it is obvious that the fear mongering merchants of God, do not truly know Jesus and God, our awareness knowingness certainty of the State of BEing feelings of the divine child self which reveals the pure truth of this, of what is yet overlooked about the divine child self Jesus and our own divine child self, of what is yet the unveiling of the divine child self Jesus.
i have had numerous exact same spiritual connectedness with the spirit of Jesus, which revealed the pure true ‘Exact Sameness’ aspect of my divine child self with the divine child self Jesus, and is something which was of 100% purity in feeling when i did, which is why i am fearless in speaking of it, and the obviousness of the significance of this finding as one of the most overlooked sacred truth wisdoms about the divine child self which has been overlooked all this time, for centuries, including those who claim to know Jesus and God, and so obviously do not, for their approach would not be of any fear mongering like they do, where fear is actually stifling for the pure true loving blessed divine child of God self.
these merchants also do not approach what the divine child self Jesus truly is about either, where it is the blessed feelings of the State of BEing awakened divine child self, which they haphazardly approach, without the brilliant radiant joyfulness of delight that an awakened divine child of God self would BE of, should they come fully into the awareness which i now am of, and in truth, have been of my entire life, where i was merely not fully of divine truth wisdom which are meant as a protective nurturing shield for the divine child self, something Jesus was fully in awareness of, of his words which clearly reveal he stood within the protective wisdom shield, where one can sense the constant certainty he was constantly of, as regards his approach with everyone in explaining the truth wisdoms of what he knew they were lacking, of what he was not lacking, a fortitude of wisdom shield he knew no one was ever able to destroy, having become constantly awakened in his ability to constantly BE of the pure true loving State of BEing awakened awareness of his divine child self like he constantly was aware of.
still, i feel the oppression of that time period was what was most damning of the divine child self for any soul of that time period, where exceeding joyfulness may not of been possible for anyone, because of the brutality of life then, a result of the brutal ruling Roman empire and it’s throne of nescience that weighed heavily over the uneducated souls of that time period, of what likely was of the daily contemplations of Jesus while walking among them.
Today we live in a most blessed time period, where freedom is what the majority of the free world embraces, and without doubt, it is our generation which is providing an environment for the ability of the divine child self to thrive and grow in, inspite of the yet many numerous unwiseness that are indeed illnesses of the heart, such as the insatiable desires of greed and wealth like it does, where there is no value in the empty gold vessels they hold up high and boastful like many souls do, where true blessed pure love of the divine self is able to alternatively BE of any soul, merely by taking time to embrace what i feel is finally the unveiling of truth wisdoms meant for the divine child of God self, which have been obscured from us by those who claimed to know Jesus and God, and did/do not, where fear hinders the ability for the divine child self to become fully awakened into awareness. My staying clear of the churches all this time found myself sitting alone with Jesus and God, of my natural at ease peaceful state of BEing while of continued study, and it was the peaceful sanctuary as a devoted monk which revealed the truth of what i feel is the objective of the divine truth wisdoms for the divine child of God self, where my own awareness certainty reveals without doubt the truth of this to me, of my pure true awareness feelings of what the State of BEing of my divine child of God self feels like……….blessed.
blessed blessed blessed is the constant pure and true loving feelings of the divine child of God self while alone in the sanctuary with Jesus and God forever more
or with those of likemindedness……….you know who you ARE.
i am……..BE Cause………We ARE.
you know i had to say ‘that’………the truth!
bless you
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“KISS ‘me’ damn it!!!!!!!!!!”
aaaaaaaaaaargh!!!!!!!!!!
(andy walks of yet again, grumbling away to himself like he always does)
lol
Hello Madonna,
I hope you are invited today to the inaugration and we can see you on TV otherwise I will be very upset.
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out of nowhere, Andy comes running quickly, seemingly of exceeding happiness and joy, smiling brightly, his feet sliding to a stop center stage, as he exclaims loudly,
“I AM the perfect day!!! And in ‘me’ dwells that light which never sets!!!”
someone near speaks softly with andy, saying, “ah, andy? Could you put some clothes on please?”
lol
just thought i would share a spiritual happy moment i had this morning with you!
blessed blessed blessed is the feeling of the awakened divine child of God pure and true real self forever more!
you are constantly blessed in the eyes of Jesus, God and those who know Jesus and God who constantly know YOU!
i will be speaking today about how the awakened divine child self eventually comes to a day of coming fully into awareness of the presence of God, the knowingness that God was constantly watching the divine child it’s entire life, where apon the divine WILL of Jesus and God’s divine wisdom is bestowed apon the divine child self for a certain length of time which eventually wakes the divine child fully into awareness of what is of the destiny of the divine child self who becomes freed from the unwise world that all souls are born into, of Jesus and God’s divine WILL which fully 100% BEcomes the divine WILL of the divine child self’s State of BEing, an aspect of the awakened divine child self that the child is aware of as to why the divine truth wisdoms are vital for the divine child self of us all.
blessed blessed blessed is each breath of the divine child self YOU forever more!
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i thought everyone is invited?
in our hearts is the constant loving invitation for this blessed day of our wise pushing forward in life as a society and shattering these horrid racist mentalities which yet exist in the world.
Truly, without doubt, it is of Jesus and God’s divine WILL, OUR WILL BE Done on earth, that which HEAVEN constantly is of our divine child ‘real’ self forever more.
We are the generation marching forward, of our every step a step of blessed WISE TRUTH, opening wide our souls into the safe passage the entire future of mankind WILL traverse into the constant State of BEing of our divine child of God true ‘real’ self here in the kingdom of HEAVEN forever more!
blessed blessed blessed is the TRUTH which is not able to fail, where it has always BEen the many souls along life’s road which failed to fully embrace the truth of their own divine child true ‘real’ self, unknowingly unaware, blinded by distractions, to Jesus and God’s summoning the divine child ‘real’ self to the wisdom meant to protect the divine child ‘real’ self from the yet unwise world every pure loving blessed soul from the womb of God is born into!
well, that is until andy stumbled apon the divine truth wisdoms, and now andy cannot simply sit quietly while other souls in the world run aimlessly amuk! 😉
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ONLY LOVE ONLY LOVE ONLY LOVE i yearn to BE!
ONLY LOVE ONLY LOVE ONLY LOVE is meant for thee!
ONLY LOVE ONLY LOVE ONLY LOVE is what i want too see!
ONLY LOVE ONLY LOVE ONLY LOVE is what sets ‘me’ free!
ONLY LOVE ONLY LOVE ONLY LOVE to truly BE you see?
…….the real ‘me’
forever more
constantly now is the awareness presence of the divine child ‘real’ self, of each passing moment, the constant blessed truth everywhere surround, constantly there, of every sound, of seemingly no one fully knowing, the one now constantly awake, forever found, you of comprehension being brought forward into revealing light so easy for all to KNOW, what has been so long obscured, unknowingly, of no comprehension until now, by the unknowingly yet unwise world of darkness that cloaked the one unknowable one who was constantly there.
How is one able to comprehend that which is not of their comprehension, if one does not seek comprehension?
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The Truth is Constantly There’ at all times, but if one does not desire to reflect apon the truth, then how is one able to know 100% without doubt, the pure truth wisdom of ‘The Truth is Constantly There’ ?
such is the unwise world we are born into, so full of the unknowingly unwise cloaking distractions which blind and lead the divine child ‘real’ self away from the divine perfect truth wisdoms meant for the flawless divine child of God true ‘real’ self YOU.
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flawless thought is what is ONEness with Jesus, God and the divine child ‘real’ self, where pure TRUTH wisdom is flawless by means of unchallengable, undeniable, unquestionable, unbreakable pure TRUTH.
True awareness of flawlessness of the divine child ‘real’ self is by means of the deepening of love one experiences from the continued extensive internalizing of the truth wisdoms which provide protection and nurturing self-actualized awakening of the divine child ‘real’ self who BEcomes fully awakened into the pure self-awareness aspect that the concept of falsehood is nonexistent in them, and rather, falsehood is what is of the many false petty bitter unloving mean spirited egotistic masks of the hypocrisy heart that a divine child of God ‘real’ self learns to create and wear, unknowingly unwisely until such a time of pure and true self awareness of their divine child of God true ‘real’ self, and feels that indeed, their divine child ‘real’ self was born without wisdom into the unwise world, albeit, of the intuitive ability to discerningly feel loving pure wise truth from empty bitter foul tasting falsehood, of what is the ongoing extensive internalized wisdoms of what is the truth, where unveiling of the truth about falsehoods is easily revealed by means of the feelings of the pure and true loving divine child of God ‘real’ self, merely by paying attention to the feelings of your own Real Self, and less time on that which you’ve rejected from your petty self(undenial awareness of our learned and created immature unwise behavioral traits), becoming more and more fully self-actualized as the divine child of God pure and true ‘real’ self, where it is Jesus and God who know the divine child self of us all are lacking of the vital protective truth wisdoms which assist us in BEcoming fully self-actualized divine child ‘real’ self. At some point, the divine child ‘real’ self 100% fully realizes the objective of the truth wisdoms, and no longer questions the validity of the truth wisdoms, and rather begins to sincerely question the truth of the falsehoods everywhere, of the pure truth wisdom ‘The Truth is Constantly There’.
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Vast is the truth about many falsehoods along life’s road, where the obviousness of the required macro thinking vastness of the divine WILL of the sublime beneficent truth wisdoms of Jesus and God meant for the divine child self, becomes fully apparent to an awakened divine child of God pure true ‘real’ self who has experienced the self awareness that comes with ongoing extensive internalizing of the truth wisdoms, and not until one reaches a certain point of internalized truth wisdoms, does the divine child ‘real’ self become fully awakened into awareness of the blessed flawlessness feeling of the State of BEing of the divine child ‘real’ self, of what flawlessness feels like.
quick to jump are the bitter petty hypocrisy heart of the world which yearns to crush the divine child self speaking, with unwise words like, “There is no such thing as flawlessness!”, which one can expect to come from any divine child self which has not fully awakened into the pure true self-awareness like we have.
Do not fear ridicule of the unwise, where our fearlessness wise leading, is what is the divine WILL of Jesus and God for victory of truth over all unwiseness falsehoods yet of the world, of the ongoing spiritual death poverty which grips the souls of so many, of what is continued cause for the spiritual death void falsehoods devoid of love, compassion and wisdom yet in the world, which is cause for the ongoing physical death of blessed precious sacred children of God in the world daily, where indeed, our every step, every word, every heartbeat, every breath, every blessed day, is sacred, for sake releasing the blessed souls from the prison of these voids that exist because of the dynamic of fearful ridiculing unwise souls who have uknowingly fallen into the pits of falsehood, of all those who do not see the world thru the eyes of Jesus, God and the wise divine child of God true ‘real’ self, albeit, everyone is of subconscious seeking and discerning to one degree or another, where most are merely not yet fully awakened as their divine child true ‘real’ self, of comprehension all souls are unknowingly subconsciously seeking.
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“hey! You in the back there! No falling asleep in class!!!!!!”
Really, yes & Therapist was worse than all the other’s you cannot trust anyone in this world
Sounds like a wild ride – glad to hear that you’re not broken
Throw your fist to the sky!
I do want to hear
And I am here
sorry for Mr. Sleepy Head
winter grey
and I saw the Sun today
above the clouds is where I went
to work and walk
with doGs I spent
in crisp cool air
and clouds below
there was only you to think about
You were always on my mind (Pet Shop Boys)
was playing to our jig
Love you
Talk soon, eh?
i have learned to trust my self, and those of obvious genuine sincere approach with me, and those obviously not of genuine sincere approach, where i simply close the door to those who choose not to be, and generally i give people sufficient time to BE how they choose to BE.
genuine sincerity is the only thing that works, and one should not convince themselves otherwise when genuine sincerity is not there…………..which i sometimes do, but usually short lived when i do.
I am going to live in the now, of each passing day with who chooses to BE there, letting go of any expectations of anyone, and just go live life as my fun loving real self of a real life, where i no longer am going to concern myself of who it may be along life’s road that wants to be a friend or lover with me, and just chat up who ever is wanting to chat up with me, a true free spirit unbound, free to just BE me, the happy joyful one i always was and yet am, where my only expectation of anyone, is that they likewise do the same.
Go BE the HAPPY REAL SELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i hear ya all… go britney..
thank’s !!!!
what’s that sayin, “where there’s will there’s a way”
Way to Go !!!!
how many times do i have to TELL you, don’t let them get too you. Transference from other’s (negative other’s) it has a profound EFFECT on CREATIVE soul’s….
You become their insecurity, you believe their lie’s you become their fear’s their insecurities..
I am Strong & here for you !!!!!!! as a friend, expecting nothing less but the same from YOU!!! which i already have ( by the way )
I AM ,,, perfect in Spirit, ( hopeless in the material world, but I AM concerned about my hopeless ness, i can change that i an instant when nessasary, doing quite fine at the moment, no need to change there, or WANT in that respect either)
Back to my Perfect SOUL… again,
Imagine Andy, you were Madonna just for a minute, 25yrs ago, think about the passion and determination to be an Artist, to make a living out of it, to be acknowledged and appreciated, just imagine how aswsome that passion that drove her spirit,
That is who I AM, same determination but toward’s Humanity, to evolve Spiritually , now you know…
God does that make any sense at all, I AM High as a Kite, my Chef left his cigarete’s in the Kitchen, i have overdosed on them… Lol 😉
Temptation, i Love it !!!! even though i know it’s bad for me..
Hey Everyone !!!
Just have a read of President Richard Nixon’s resignation speach, what a load of BullS@*T
WAKE up USA
nothing CHANGES
unless YOU CHANGE
WAKE up USA !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
oohhh no i’m not a trouble maker, I AM an Alien
you cannot
GET me…
I AM
FUCK YOU
my family and friends are Aliens also
you cannot get Them
They ARE
FUCK YOU
WERE ARE ALREADY HERE !!
in case you need a reminder
Have you Forgotten your
Weapons of Mass Destuction
NO LONGER WORK !!!
no worries !!!
LEAVE IT TO US
chill babe,
i’m not WEIRD like you think
i am, joke jokin YA ..
i am smart like you, i am your twin
soul
&
I am
your
mate !!!! as well
that’s what friends are for..
seriously
i’ve just had a cigatrette
that’s all
maybe a glass ( or two Chardonnay) but no drugs
say no to drug’s
but i am off my face
Natuaral HIGH
HI
HI
HI
HI
I LOVE YOU
sometime’s probably 75% of the time
let’s get it up tp 100%
maybe
my limit is 99.99%
😉
of course i Love YOU, are we not human after all
without doubt
I LOVE YOU>>>>
MADONNA
forgive me,
perhaps i love you for the wrong reason’s
I still have feelings for Judas as I do still love for you,
(which makes me confused)
i love you,
But
( I dont feel you around me )
lately
are you running late…
or are you forgotten ?????????????
&
dont give me that shit about ” IT”S UP TO ME !~!!!~~~!! )
b ecause it ain’t
it’s up TOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
US
OR
IT
AINT
UP !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SPEAK @@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@
oh, no kidding, the transference issue……….of yesterday my ex is screaming at me over the phone, leaving me feel bewildered, and the desire not to ever be spoken to by anyone like that again……….so unbelievably absurd, my usual abreaction response that came as i told him, don’t ever speak that way again to me, as i hung up the phone, feeling that was the last time i will ever speak with him, of no desire to allow myself to be in a position to be subjected to his shit mouth ever ever again……….no fucking way!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
at first i thought, ok, i am not going to let this get to me, but it did, and soon after i found myself chatting up who ever was there at the loco gay bar, getting drunk and laughing about the stories most any have of their dealing and coping with their chosen gay lifestyle along life’s road, of sameness of experiences most any of the GLBT community have experienced, which is always comforting for me, of ah yes, i am not alone in this regard of the unaccepting jerk offs who treated us, and yet treat us the way they unwisely, unknowingly do.
ya, the artist in me is what is on the forefront of my passion in life, of my yet exploring deeply within, the pure and true perfect acute sensibility i have discovered about my real self, who is of such pure loving delight in his expressing the pure and true view of life like he does, which i am growing more and more fearless in expressing what ever it is i turn my attention to, although i have not looked apon my art as a way to make money, feeling the truth of my pure and true real self(the artist expressing) is about his pure and true compassion for revealing truth for sake of the real self of another.
most any great artist, like Madonna, is of the blessed pure and true real self of their beautiful reflections which shine thru the darkness, the muddy waters of the mind, where the pure and true light of truth shines thru and reaches deeply into the precious loving soul of the real self of another, something that is true of Madonna, which i love most about her, her fearlessness like my own, and that is what i want to nurture and protect with her, of no effort in doing so, as my pure and true real self who is of the pure and true connectedness with her pure and true perfect loving real self.
at times though, i get beat up, and i faulter from the crushing blows of others somedays, where yesterday i felt for the first time that i am of perfect true freedom now, of my certainty feelings of not every returning for more mental abuse with my ex, as well as another i terminated contact with yesterday, who was of immature words with me expressing how they felt about me, so far off base as someone who was not of genuine sincere desire to truly know me at all, of the empty words about me which concluded for me the truth, they really don’t reflect apon the gentle pure loving real self i was with them. Oh well, i planted and nurtured some truth seeds with them while of time spent with them, but when it comes to allowing myself to be mentally abused like they unwisely immaturely do, i have to move away from them, where saying it is ok to beat me up, is not ok, neither for me or for them, as in, “Go speak with someone else like you do me, and see how long they stick around.”
so i am yet frazzled at this point in time, which will fade as time passes, and i can breath in as my sweet loving real self who is constantly of inner joyfulness of the experience of every passing moment of life, with zero tolerance for these haphazard souls of the seemingly constant spuing forth of their junk mentalities of empty projection crap like they do……….no way, i am soooooooooooo done in feeling the toxic effects of their horrid belittling mind fuck crap, and i truly am a free spirit seeking joyful loving pure and true souls along life’s road like my own, although being alone is something that is difficult for me, which weighs heavily apon me at certain points of my day, where i need to fill my time with constructive positive things, of perhaps further letting my artist self out to do what ever he wants to do. I do love sculpting, and interpreting the spiritual meaning of other artists work, of art which speaks clearly to me of the pure and true self of the artists, where i like to explore beyond what the artist was attempting to express, into the realm of what their perfect flawless self is reaching for, out of uncertainty into certainty awarenesses for example, where truth wisdom pours forth from my extensive study with the divine child self Jesus and God, of what is of my own divine child real self who is constantly there, alert, awake in ways others are asleep.
as i said before, i know that i am on the edge of the most important time of my blessed life, although i do not know fully to what extent of projects i will be of endeavoring in, nor do i even know what projects i am to be of working on, where perhaps art work may see most of my time spent in the future, or perhaps song writing.
What i do know, is that what ever it is i will do, it will have to do with the blessed pure and true loving State of BEing my real self now is of, fully awakened now into a flawless feeling which is so joyful to feel like i do.
i miss playing guitar, so maybe i will hack around at that some more too, finish some of the compositions i was working on.
i get strange sensations thru out my day, while among other souls, where i feel the condition of their aimless haphazard souls like they are, unknowing of the one who wisely looks apon the condition of their souls, where i feel the path of their entire lives which finds them doing and being the way they are there before me, thinking to myself, i am glad i am me and not them.
i know that sounds bad, but i mean it in a good way, as regards my pure and true loving sensibility as one who is of knowing what is of most priority in life, my ability to constantly BE of the pure and true State of BEing awareness like i am, although at times i do get frazzled, and spu forth useless crap.
some souls can be soooooooooooooo annoying for me, of my breathing a sign of relief in moving away from them, a daily thing for me.
it is hard for me right now, during some points of my day, of not having appropriate nurturing friends in life which would be good for me, where i am hesitant of entertaining souls of many, in selecting new friends, after observing them for a certain length of time in establishing the condition of the mental/emotional/spiritual well being, although i do take time to plant truth seeds and nurture their real self, no matter how fucked up they may be.
yesterday was one of my worse days………..
one of my favorite passtimes for years and years, was going to jam sessions with other musicians, where we are of the free flowing loving spirit in singing and playing whatever we want. I love working on new compositions with another, where i have come to embrace and feel a purity love feeling which is coming thru in the new compositions which are yet being written, building apon where i leave off from one day to the next.
the feeling of playing music is so incredible for me, where i loved spending entire days, weeks, month after month, just hacking around in mastering certain finger styles, to exploring the free flowing fearless love of my inner child who is the one who is of fearless joyfulness, wanting to express what it is that he feels, who is yet growing into the highest realms of the exceeding joyfulness, where the compositions are both an expression, and a building nurturing he feels while of the trance like state of awareness of his high exceeding inner joyfulness he is yet of discovery of about himself, fearlessness of compositions which are beyond anything he has heard before, of his own pure and true expression that is purely of the reflection of his delightful singing and dancing soul.
for sure, i love spending countless hours exploring the joyfulness of my inner child who is truly fearless in expressing how he feels thru his own way of expressing what he feels, both for sake of BEing to the trance like delightful feeling, as well as seeing how the compositions move another soul in a pure and true way, that he knows how they feel when they hear the compositions, of delight to stir their soul like the music does, in such a pure and true perfect blessed way, of a inner free spirited delight that most any soul had forgotten how they once felt while of the joyful childhood fearlessness we all once were.
nurturing what matters, that is the objective, for both our own soul, and the soul of others, where wasting time in being anything other than the pure and true loving environments that we constantly yearn and love to BE of, is where a soul should focus on establishing what those environments are, and seek them out, and without doubt, i know that is why i am yet here with you, of where i want to explore what it would be like of spending time with you, knowing already the condition of your soul is like my own, of your connectedness with your true real self like you do.
of course, i know i am not as healthy as i would like to feel at this time, and in that regard, i know this is not a good time for me.
i am connected with how i know i will feel in the months ahead, where the established boundaries i have set, will assure my positive well being, so i am of any anxiety of the future in that regard.
the last thing i want to ever be is toxic for you, and right now i am faultering at times, where anyone would if they had gone thru the last year i went thru, or lived my life.
i was thinking about the simple country boy self that i am, where i am of an at ease relaxed spirit, where i see just how peaceful i am within, and with others, where i know i have an affect/effect on the soul of others who spend time with me, in a good way, of the mirroring of their true nature, of my preference in being the true nature i am aware of about my own real self.
in that regard, you have something to look forward to, should you be of entertaining the idea of us coming together in the physical world.
someone said to me, i have to go thru with this, so that i don’t spend the rest of my life wondering what could of been, and so with that said, i feel it is fair to us both to go thru spending time together to find out, so that neither of us goes thru life wondering. If we don’t work, then we don’t work, but maybe we will work more than we know, of where perhaps, the 100% feeling we are of within, is able to shine constantly every passing moment of everyday, where our presence with one another may work for both of us more so than any other soul either one of us has met in life.
i am of a powerful self confidence, when i feel sincerely loved by another, and i am a one to one soul, who fearlessly loves to be of the constant loving sensibility while of the presence with another, in a pure and true constantly perfect awareness sensibility with them as my real self, which is of constant loving nurturing of the real self of another, of what is excellent for both souls, a freeing of the true spirit sensation.
so why not find out. I know i will always wonder, and that is something i don’t want to spend doing for the remainder of my life. I want to know, what i already know, and so do you.
don’t worry about when, where there is a day in the future which will feel perfectly right, of the perfect day that we do for both of us.
i am here, and i am not going anywhere until such a day, as i genuinely sincerely want to know. In truth, i am not able to turn away, knowing i cannot, of no desire of my pure and true real self, who feels blessed in sensing a pure and true connectedness with your pure and true real self like my own.
we have that, and we cannot say we don’t.
it will either grow for us, or it will not, and i am sensing that it is growing more and more fearless for us both within, of what appears to be of genuine sincerity for us both, of what we both yearn for.
take your time, as this is yet a healing time for us both………
and i don’t want to fuck it up by rushing something that cannot be rushed.
the day will come, and we will know and feel that perfect day when it arrives, comfortably so for us both.
twins always love each other
no matter the distance
I’ve learned so much from you
Thanks
twins in the sense that we have always loved and admired one another all this time……..without doubt, we know we always WILL, irregardless of our steps we take or don’t take towards one another, we both will love and admire one another the same way we always have, of a bond that is like no other in life for me, a blessed pure and true loving trusting bond, which is why i feel so confident we would work, merely by turning towards what is of our constant yearning, able to become constant anticipation hourly, daily for us as lovers, while apart during our day.
i know my lover self who completely loves is his lover when involved, who is truly of the pure fun loving passionate sweet anticipation of his lover when ever they are seperate, like most any i suppose.
Looking back, i realize that it is my lover self which has always been at the forefront of what matters most in life, beyond everything else in life, indeed of my every step is the constant passionate lover i am, of no hesitation whatsoever to be of where i constantly yearn to be, of the intertwinning of naked bodies with my lover, of what HEAVEN constantly is for me, the tenderness of touch, the graceful caresses, the sensual kisses, the blessed relaxed pure state of being of two bodies passionately united as one for hours at a time.
(andy’s lip begins to twitch again, like it always does when ever he thinks of the delightfulness of sex)
i am still getting grounded and centered in my real self, and it is going to be awhile yet for me, of a resonably healthy conducive environment for me now that will ensure the continued restoration of my self confidence like it is growing daily for me now.
i still have my mood swings which manifest themselves at times with spuing of useless words like it does……….where it is merely my bashed in self-esteem that is yet of transitional restoration to previous healthier levels of before. It takes time, along time sometimes, but i am far wiser than any previous time in life, and i am not caught up in mentalities like keeping up with the Jones or any status quos like many are, where some won’t even acknowledge you unless you are of a certain status or same class in life as they are. Fine. Go be like that, and miss out on the chance to have been with the best lover you ever experienced in life! lol
i truly know and love my lover self, who is of as healthy sexual attitude than most, something i was always of positive thinking about my entire sexual life.
anyway…..for any of you wannabees out ther, there is only one way to find out about ‘me’, and you only have one guess as to how !
Once apon a time
There was a boy called Yang and a Girl called Ying
everyone called them ying & yang…
So Ying went to the market to by some Mug bean’s so she could cook Yang a nice soup, and he would be healthy and have lots of vitamins..
oh my god, i’ve lost the plot..
ok. to be continued….
OK, it’s bugging me. Madonna!!!!
I am so sick of hearing about how u are desperately trying to stay young. I don’t know why??
I grew up in the 80’s. You were my idol. I adored you for your daring, for doing what u wanted when u wanted. For not fearing to have a point of view and say it out load. To get what u set your mind to get. Your father said it best once on an interview. He said u were an achiever. Never truer words have been said.
Go back to classical ballet you sure have the discipline for it. Open a dance school right in your back yard. Perform intimate concerts of music and dance.Things that you grew up on and that inspired you. Music that you love,music that opens your heart. Learn to cook and enjoy watching your children grow. Stop chasing. U’ve done it. I envy all the options that are at your feet. Yet I see u do nothing about them. I wish to see u kicking back. There is no high or low u can’t reach. Let go your age. Enjoy it. Age gracefully. Remember what Kieth Herring said to you? What he taught you? “We’re all made of flesh and blood” It seems like you forgot that.
In a world of Paris Hilton’s’ and Britney Spears flashing, you no longer belong. You’ve been there, done that. You created it but at least you had more class. Why would you wish to continue in an industry you helped built yet has changed so much for the worst.
Get a home in London where your kids belong cause that is what they know and that is where their father is. Just for now. They won’t stay young forever. If u don’t the consequences will be emotionally devastating to you. Your kids will turn against you and think you crazy for constantly chasing youth. What are u teaching them by doing that anyways?? In the western world women think it is NOT ok to grow old, they think that they are not worth much of anything cause they do not look like you at 50. But even u do not look like you do at 50. You have had plastic surgery and you as well as they, are trying hard to stay on top of looking young. Who the hell needs all this pressure??? It gives you wrinkles!! You have the ability to influence so many people inspire so many lives yet you do nothing about it. All the Kabbalah in the world would not help you. It is within that u need to go. Within yourself. Stop caring what others say, think or do. It is killing you. If your rabbi gives a fuck about you he should be telling you this. It seems like it is very convenient that you stay where you are emotionally cause that leaves you needy which gives him the opportunity to make more money off your back. It is so obvious. I can’t believe you don’t see it
If u do this, if u let go, you’ll come out a winner. You’ll achieve so much, you’ll help so many people.
You’ve had kids. I know you’ve loved at least 2 men in your life. You know what love is. What are u so afraid of??? That you won’t shine? That people will actually see that you are like the rest of us?? That you won’t be number one?? That people may actually forget about you??? You always will be Madonna. No one can take that away from you yet you’ll inspire so many if u do, as you have before just in a different way. Evolve! Truly evolve not just with a new hair do or some new dance moves. We know u can do that. We’ve watched you do that for 30 years!!! But enough! I grew out of it and wish to see u do the same. I will love u and adore you forever.
We all get old. You think I have not worried about it?? But I learned to accept it and welcome it cause it is inevitable, it happens to us all.You have the ability to throw in the towel, to point out that the king is naked!! To show that when Gods gives u lemons you make lemonade. If u do so many of us will! Stop escaping. Just Be! These Kabbalah guys are after your money, Kabbalah water my ass. You’ve lived and succeeded many years without it. Trust me girl, water is best from the tap. It’s all a scam
Enjoy who u are and what u have built. If u do not, you’ll regret it. It will hunt you till your last day on this planet. MARK MY WORDS. It all went up to your head. There will always be someone better, more talented, more beautiful, much younger, more fit then you. You did your thing, gained power to influence. In spite your insecurities you climbed to the top. Teach others, your children perhaps, guide them. Use it! What a waist it would be if u didn’t. So many will follow. You posses such wisdom, such courage. Look at the world. It’s a mess. You can truly create a revolution for women all over. Help them feel comfortable with themselves, their bodies and their age. That is what u did back in the day. Move a long to the next message you have for us all. Your message is inside of you. Only you can pull it out only if u stop chasing youth. It is distracting you from your true goal.
Your gurus seem like they enjoy the cash flow. A real friend will tell u the truth. The truth that u may not wish to hear. The truth that may be others wish to point out yet they fear your reaction but regardless it is the truth. I wish I had an hour with you .Best thing is go to your Father. There is nothing greater then family cause blood is thicker then any other circumstance
MBZ – get a fucking life and stop telling madonna WHAT TO DO with HER LIFE
she has a LIFE ALREADY !!!
MORON
OMG
everyone has the answer @!!! so they think
your all fucked
GET aLIFE
Marco my dear,
I am not sure why u got so angry over what i wrote. I mean well, no harm and I come with love…Madonna does have a level of responsibilities and regardless, if she did not wish to know what we all think then she would have not put this blog up
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The TRUTH is most souls are of aimless subconscious seeking, unwise to recognize what it is God is teaching their souls everyday, and yet, every soul is of the pure and true innate core experience feelings of their submerged divine child of God ‘real’ self which does feel the truth of God’s presence at a subconscious level, unable to BE of the cognitive level awareness knowingness certainty of a wise sage until such a time they are draw fully into the God’s light of wisdom meant for nurturing and protecting the ‘State of BEing’ pure and true awareness of the flawlessness feelings of the divine child of God ‘real’ self, where they come face to face into 100% full pure and true awareness of their sacred blessed divine child of God ‘real’ self who was constantly there, yet asleep in ignorance, BEcoming awakened, of God’s divine WILL for all souls to eventually BEcome awakened.
I am a recently awakened sage of God’s divine wisdom, who fully understands the divine WILL objective of God’s divine wisdom meant for awakening the divine child ‘real’ self into full awareness of the flawlessness feelings of the pure and true ‘State of BEing’ of their yet unknowingly submerged unwise asleep state, where Jesus, God and the sages of God know the condition of any soul which is yet unknowingly awakening into awareness certainty.
All the words of Jesus(taught by God) are for the divine WILL objective nurturing, protecting and restoring the divine pure and true blessed loving flawless ‘State of BEing’ of the yet asleep child of God ‘real’ self we all once/are as a flawless child of God from the womb of God, which was/is merely not yet of the pure true protective wise halo wisdom meant for the divine child of God pure and true ‘real’ self YOU, of all souls born from the womb of God into the yet unwise world, unknowingly snared by generational distracting teachings of the ego falsehoods, unaware, submerged, until such a time a required amount of extensive truth wisdom reveals, awakens the divine child ‘real’ self YOU fully into the pure and true flawless ‘State of BEing’ flawless feelings, BEcoming 100% pure fearlessness and no longer afraid of the unknowingly unwise aimless snared submerged divine child ‘real’ self souls of the world, of flawless pure and true feelings we all once felt while yet a small child, of pure and true flawless feelings which are the core of every soul, of every submerged yet asleep divine child of God ‘real’ self, awaiting to awaken fully into knowingness awareness certainty, subconcsiously seeking, hearing and feeling the approaching of God’s pure truth wisdom in life which is still being unveiled, and yet has already been fully unveiled by Jesus, unknowingly of most souls, the presence of the life of Jesus yet felt in the world down thru the generations, where the words of Jesus, a sage of God, are yet being fully understood by sages of the world, where all Sages, in the eyes of Jesus and God, are of evolving in awareness wisdom like any divine child of God ‘real’ self, of the most overlooked ‘Exact Sameness’ aspect of the divine child ‘real’ self Jesus, where apon the pure and true aspects Jesus came to know of his own blessed divine child of God ‘real’ self, Jesus knew/knows is also the 100% pure and true blessed aspects of every divine child of God ‘real’ self, where the Sages of God know without doubt of this is what is the TRUTH, of God who acknowledges this truth to the Sages of God, where in the eyes of the Sage, it is unwise for any to think otherwise.
We all came from blessed pure and true love of the womb of God, and it is thru pure and true blessed love that the divine child of God ‘real’ self YOU is restored to our original ‘State of BEing’ awareness, where our second birth, is into the Wise Spiritual Awakened State of BEing, that of a Sage of God, where constant pure truth, pure love, pure wisdom, pure compassion is what is of the Wise Spiritual Awakened State of BEing of a Sage of God.
All souls are of what is of the wise knowingness certainty of Jesus, God and the Sages of God, that all
blessed souls born into the unwise world are all capable of coming fully into the Wise Spiritual Awakened State of BEing Sage of God. There is no element of doubt of the TRUTH of this in the eyes of Jesus, God, and a Sage of God who is of the wisdom of Jesus and God meant for the divine child ‘real’ self of every soul born into the unwise world of on going teachings of the generational ego falsehoods.
Any soul can BEcome fully awakened into the Wise Awakened Spiritual BEing Sage Awareness, however; you do need to internalize an extensive amount of God divine truth wisdom in order to come fully into the awareness level where the element of doubt is nonexistent, where you realize without doubt the divine WILL objective of the divine truth wisdoms is indeed meant for the nurturing, protecting and awakening the divine child of God ‘real’ self into the Awakened Spiritual BEing Sage Awareness Flawless Feelings, of the flawless feelings which are the core of the divine child ‘real’ self YOU since birth.
Everyone’s path in life is different, and yet the same, in the eyes of Jesus, God and the wise Sages of God, where unknowingly for most aimless haphazard souls plodding along in life, is the unwise ego falsehood snarings which varie in degree from one soul to another, albeit of the same snarings, where the submerging of the blessed flawless divine child of God ‘real’ self is unknowingly alseep in ignorance to one degree or another, of subconsciously seeking awareness of seeking for that which is not yet of their comprehension, although of the intuitive flawless feelings in the core of the divine child ‘real’ self which is of constant feeling awareness, however submerged they may BE, where the constant light of TRUTH is constantly there. Wise ability(of God’s instruction) of descerning feelings of the divine child ‘real’ self, is what restores sight to the soul, and awakenes the divine child ‘real’ self into the Wise Spiritual Awakened State of BEing Sage Awareness, where every word of God’s divine WILL wisdom is meant for this objective.
Only a Sage knows fully without doubt, the meaning of the words, “After God, nobody is as free as a Sage.”
It is because it is only a Sage who BEcomes 100% oneness with Jesus and God’s divine wisdom.
blessed blessed blessed is the divine child of God pure and true ‘real’ self YOU forever more.
i will be leaving all of my Sage wisdom on my blog, which will continue to be written until my last day on earth, of what is the divine will of Jesus, God and the Sages of God, where future Sages can continue God’s divine WILL for all of mankind in the future, where all words of Jesus, God and a Sage are pure TRUTH words of wisdom meant for the pure and true flawless divine child of God ‘real’ self, constantly eternally loved by Jesus, God, and the Sages, and all souls who truly love Jesus, God, and the Sages, where all souls born from the womb of God are the divine child of God ‘real’ self forever more, where merely nurturing protective wisdom is what is yet lacking for the divine child ‘real’ self, where the crucial lacking of desire for wisdom, is what is cause for all unloving, unwise apathetic spiritual voids devoid of love, wisdom and compassion in the world, of the entire past, present and future.
BEcome fully of wise truthful embrace of the entire past and present, and you BEcome fully the constant divine WILL of God which constantly sees clearly what will continue to BE of what is of crucial lacking of the entire future, where the TRUTH is indeed constantly there.
bless you bless you bless you
Jesus loves ALL God loves ALL We love ALL
God blesses ALL
forever more
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What most do no realize is that God’s divine wisdom is what makes able the divine child ‘real’ self to BE constantly fearless, rather than the obvious fear which yet sadly snares their sadly unknowingly unwise heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, where most any do not question the divine WILL objective of God’s wisdom meant for the divine child of God ‘real’ self YOU of us ALL.
forever more
constantly blessed blessed blessed is God’s divine WILL of wisdom for the divine child ‘real’ self YOU forever more
bless you bless you bless you
peace BE to this house forever more
peace BE to you
bless you
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What we turn towards, we BEcome at all times.
Where our heart is, there too is our treasure and our life at all times.
We merely need turn towards the goodness of our pure and true loving divine child of God ‘real’ self who is constantly yearning to BE of feeling ONLY LOVE, WISDOM and COMPASSION.
We owe it to our divine child ‘real’ self to cease BEing of aimless haphazard approach in life as regards all things loving/unloving, wise/unwise, compassionate/apathetic.
It is neither a test or trial of God along life’s road, rather all things are constantly of the graceful wise descerning feeling ability of the divine child of God pure and true ‘real’ self YOU to learn, where we merely need fully acknowledge 100%, we are all students of Jesus, God and the Sages, who are ONLY LOVING, WISE and COMPASSIONATE for us ALL, CONSTANTLY at all times, where Jesus, God and the Sages know we are all of the ability to BEcome 100% focused wise children of the nurturing protective awakening light that brings all souls into the Awakened Spiritual Wise State of BEing Sage Awareness, merely by means of what is the constant genuine sincere desire of the divine child ‘real’ self YOU within, to do so, an aspect of the divine child ‘real’ self most are not of 100% cognitively awareness of without doubt.
blessed blessed blessed is the constantly loving, compassionate wise child of God pure and true ‘real’ self YOU forever more
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So Ying went to the market to by some Mug bean’s so she could cook Yang a nice soup, and he would be healthy and have lots of vitamins..
From the garden is the pure vegetables so good to the taste, especially while of the loving presence of one who constantly of genuine sincere pure true love for us, like i know i am of YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!
how is dinner coming dear?
a crisp cool evening, the delightful taste of homemade soup, and your warm tender loving hand is all i could ever want, of an eternal love feeling that would not ever leave me, where such a day that may not come is what is most difficult for me.
Without doubt, Happiness is of two souls of the physical realm.
I will not BE of Happiness until such a day of BEing of the physical realm with YOU, or another who is as loving as YOU.
It is what i pray for, and hope you too are of genuine sincere desire like my own.
If not, then cut me loose, so that i may find another.
And if not, I will always wonder if we would of been the blessed loving Happiness two souls could possibly ever BE, and yet, unless it is of TRUE equal sincere genuine desire of both, it will not ever BE true Happiness, where both souls constantly yearn to feel loved every moment of every blessed day, and constantly yearn to BE loving every moment of every blessed day, of what HEAVEN constantly is.
I merely ask YOU if what is genuine sincere TRUE of ‘me’ is also genuine sincere sameness TRUE of YOU?
It either is or it is not, or perhaps you are preoccupied of another?
this being alone really sucks! painful actually.
ONLY LOVE
ONLY COMPASSION
ONLY WISDOM is good enough for the divine child of God pure and true ‘real’ self YOU forever more
God bless you forever more
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well not really painful, as i do feel the blessed love of the sp[irit of Jesus constantly with me, thru out my entire body, of the blessed graceful pure state i love to feel.
rather it is more like i would rather BE of warm loving embrace of another soul, any soul WILL do!
well ok, not just any soul, as some are really viciously stupid, sadly not of their divine child ‘real’ self………..well, at least before andy came along in their life.
that is what Jesus was about at all times, nurturing and protecting the heart, mind, body, spirit and soul of every divine child of God pure and true ‘real’ self he came across in life, such is the life of the surrendered heart, mind, body, spirit and soul of a Sage with Jesus and God forever more.
and to think, i get to constantly love all day long!
well, what more could a person ask for?
to eternally live forever you MORONS!!!!!!!!!!!! lol
i suppose my recorded words WILL live on forever, and BEcome that of an unborn Sage in the future, yes?
so in that sense, i do live forever yes?
it’s a simple thing actually, where the one’s belief system becomes their personality, by means of words left for them to read by souls previous to them from the past, where the blessed love of the divine child of God pure and true ‘real’ self is the exact same, is it not?
Eternal Love
blessed blessed blessed is the Eternal Love of Jesus, God and those who truly love Jesus, God and the divine child of God ‘real’ self of us ALL, where Eternal Love is felt exactly the same by ALL souls of the past, present and future forever more.
all i ask is for YOU to love ‘me’ like i know i do YOU!
do you have fresh ground pepper for that soup from God’s perfect garden?
argh………the suspense is driving me insane!
tell ‘me’, soup or no soup!
i need to know what i already know!
take your time………….when you are ready.
Welcome to the Pure and True Zone!
you are constant blessed blessed blessed of God
you are constant love love love of God
you are constant wisdom wisdom wisdom of God
you are constant compassion compassion compassion of God
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blessed blessed blessed child of God, speak your emotional honesty intentions for sake of the long suffering child of God of another who is truly loving of you, so that both souls may BE at ease as their peaceful loving by nature divine child of God pure and true ‘real’ self forever more.
hey, can i help prepare the soup?
i love having fun in the kitchen! At one point i wanted to be a chef. Still considering it as a career actually.
of course, having fun together of us both in the kitchen would be a joyful daily event, so long as the chef helping us is nice. Is he cute?
what?
it is ok to be surrounded by beautiful loving souls!
i was thinking about you yesterday, standing on a beautiful spacious white porch near the sea, of large potted plants on the floor that reached the ceiling, the gentle peaceful warm breeze in you hair, and the oh so blessed loving feeling of your sincere love in having me there with you, it made me cry.
where else does any soul yearn to BE than with someone who is genuinely loving of us. It is what i desire beyond everything else in life, to constantly feel genuinely loved and loving with another.
have you decided yet?
it is not of doubt that i ask, rather wondering if perhaps you may be of another or not, of my own getting on with life with or without you, yet always i will be loving of you either way, praying blessed true love of another for you forever more.
ONLY LOVE is good enough for YOU!
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i know how i feel about you, and i know i would be pure and true happiness with you every moment of every blessed day, but only if you are of genuine love for me like i am for you, of course, of the only way it ever works for any two souls who come together in the phyiscal realm.
i feel you would be the best thing that ever happened for me, and i feel my best writting may be a result of our blessed sameness love. I know i am already in the 100% pure and true zone already, and merely by turing my thoughts to pure and true love, wisdom and compassion, i shall always remain of the pure and true zone as a sage of God, of what took years of wise focus in training my mind to turn towards pure thoughts away from impure thoughts, an aspect which is naturally occuring for the divine child ‘real’ self when we are of the correct conducive loving environments which are free of the impure unloving thoughts like so many are.
i don’t look at other souls as bad, rather merely that of what is the truth, we are all suseptible to the generational falsehood impure ego thought teachings, me included, where at times, i too am of falling away at times, where i look apon the affect/effect of our love in the physical realm as a way to help maintain the pure loving wise compassionate thoughts of my divine child ‘real’ self, a relationship of God.
i am not about trying to convince you, rather merely of desire for you to know what i am about as a potential soulmate lover for you.
Decide damn it!!!!!!!!!!!! lol
i jest…………
or have you already?
let’s just do lunch or something, nothing serious, just fun loving meeting one another, where you have to keep your hands off me……….like that’s possible!
ok……..sorry about yesterday, i should of told you i was taking a day off to be of study with Jesus and God in my new sanctuary.
i love to love you, always and forever, i know i WILL, and i know you too are of the WILL to always love me forever too, of what is natural of our pure and true loving divine child of God ‘real’ self, of the WILL of Jesus, of the WILL of God, of OUR WILL forever more.
LOVE! LOVE! LOVE!
JOY! JOY! JOY!
i am truly easy to BE around, something you have yet to learn about me, that i want you to realize just how good i am for your relaxed at ease natural State of BEing, where only there is only one way to come fully into awareness of this truth…………….lunch, then dinner in Venice, breakfast in Paris……………..lol
and then toss me to the curb any time of your chosing, of which i won’t ever give you a reason to. Nope. Not possible while of the pure and true zone, although i suppose you could get bored of me eventually………..i do know how to play guitar, i teach it actually, and i sing, rather strangely, of a voice that resonates and reverberates with a sense of certainty…….a few vocal lessons, and vwaLaaaaaaaa, a new band is born!
what?
ONLY FUN each and every day!
Happiness of the physical realm awaits us both, either together or of another.
bless you either way forever more
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Well MBZ, that is alot of reflections, yet you skipped over what is of most value in life, the genuine sincere happiness between two loving lovers of every moment, daily of the physical realm.
i have searched my heart, and without doubt, the tender sincere graceful loving presence of another soul near to us is what HEAVEN constantly is for me, like the two lovers of a moonlit night at the beach.
yesterday, i ventured into a desert on a moonlit night, so sacred is the pure tranquil feelings while there, of pure love in the eyes of the a lover who i felt was pure and true loving of me like i was with them, AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! such an incredible feeling i felt come over me, and that is what i constantly yearn to feel with another, of who ever it is, where i know it is of God’s divine WILL that i constantly feel this blessed loving pure and true loving State of loving feeling that i truly am constantly of yearning to feel, where without it, i am not living, and would rather be dead actually.
hey, i think maybe that is why Jesus surrendered to the cross, because he did not have that pure and true blessed loving feeling with anyone, albeit his divine child ‘real’ self loved their divine child ‘real’ self, but i wonder if they connected with the pure and true love feelings within like he had for them, where perhaps no one did. What is most indicative of this, is of everyone who kept question him, where it appears that none were of the pure and true zone blessed flawless feelings of the State of BEing Jesus was. Without question, Jesus knew they could feel the flawless pure and true loving feeling, but i don’t think any arrived at the exact sameness awareness State of BEing flawless loving feeling like he did, until such a time it was too late, after being nailed to a cross to die………and i do think Jesus did die on the cross, his spirit set free from the world which left him feeling isolated and alone in his pure and true blessed flawless loving feelings, which was painful for him daily, of the crushing unwise uncertainty of all souls around him like they constantly were, where one can empathize, i would want to leave that world behind too.
Jesus likely knew it was his sacrificing himself to the cross that would unveil the pure and true flawless loving feeling for them, where those closest to him, like Judas, knew his intentions of surrendering to the claws of the beast of ignorance generational ego falsehood teachings which snared all the souls of that time period, where one can easily see those that loved him crying beneath his cross, the blessed loving tears i too cry for Jesus, of my connected pure knowingness state of awareness i am with Jesus, of my blessed loving child ‘real’ self who will sit beneath his cross, or sometimes lay beside his cross, sometimes stand in front of him looking into his eyes, crying, expressing what i feel and say to Jesus who is constantly there, i am too am with him, of what is my loving relationship dwelling with Jesus. Other times i dwell with Jesus in a desert on a beautiful sunshine day, of just me and him wondering in the desert talking, where of all the sacred desires in life i have, it would be to have walked with Jesus everyday, and in truth, i do, coming more and more to feeling who he is, of a pure and true fearless spirit like my own.
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oh ya, i realize the feelings of the desert on a moonlit light is of the inspiration of Madonna’s ‘Frozen’ video, and of her sitting on a beach alone, of what i feel is something spiritually sacred awareness that Madonna is of knowingness about her divine child ‘real’ self.
God bless the pure and true blessed loving spirit of Madonna forever more, so much like my own, like all precious souls of the world who are yet unknowingly disconnected within, alseep, unaware.
In that sense, are we not of the sameness of the pure and true blessed flawless feelings of our meditative State of Awareness BEing, like that of Jesus?
I feel this sacred flawless feelings is of God’s divine WILL that we all BEcome aware of about our divine child ‘real’ self, where we are yet of evolving further into the fearless pure and true loving exceeding joyfulness fearless state of BEing, deliberately thru the focused meditative approach which is how we enter into the flawless feelings of what is the encompassing wise knowingness halo of the Kingdom of Heaven, where words like, “As though a fatman thru the eye of a needle,” are indicative words that the falsehood egos is what the fatman is, is it not?
100% pure true common sense, is it not?
It is not the answers which matter most in this regard, rather it is the questions, and that is what i do as a devoted student of Jesus and God, i question every single word, which all point to the divine WILL objective of a nurturing truth wisdom halo which is a flawless pure true wise fearless conducive shield environment that allows the divine child ‘real’ self to come fully into awareness awakeness of the blessed flawless feelings of the meditative state of being that i know Madonna is aware of, in the same way i know, in the same way Jesus knew/knows, of what is meant of every word of Jesus, according to my extensive study which concludes of this.
In that sense, are we not of the sameness of the pure and true blessed flawless feelings of our meditative State of Awareness BEing, like that of Jesus?
I feel this sacred flawless feelings is of God’s divine WILL that we all BEcome aware of about our divine child ‘real’ self, where we are yet of evolving further into the fearless pure and true loving exceeding joyfulness fearless state of BEing, deliberately thru the focused meditative approach which is how we enter into the flawless feelings of what is the encompassing wise knowingness halo of the Kingdom of Heaven, where words like, “As though a fatman thru the eye of a needle,” are indicative words that the falsehood egos is what the fatman is, is it not?
100% pure true common sense, is it not?
It is not the answers which matter most in this regard, rather it is the questions, and that is what i do as a devoted student of Jesus and God, i question every single word, which all point to the divine WILL objective of a nurturing truth wisdom halo which is a flawless pure true wise fearless conducive shield environment that allows the divine child ‘real’ self to come fully into awareness awakeness of the blessed flawless feelings of the meditative state of being that i know Madonna is aware of, in the same way i know, in the same way Jesus knew/knows, of what is meant of every word of Jesus, according to my extensive study which concludes of this.
i’ll bring the fresh Basil!
oh come on……….im on your side and you know it!
my subsisting diet is starting to annoy me!
i feel that the abundance of the pure and true blessed State of BEing of the human spirit is yet to BE revealed, of what is of the future, and we may just BE the two souls of many souls in the world who are going to BE affect/effect/direct/indirect of the overflowing abundance of the loving spirit yet unreleased, where all souls released, is what is of the overflowing abundance, where merely nurturing the divine child ‘real’ self fearless pure true loving spirit of all combined souls of the world, sees abundance come to this world on a scale it has not ever seen before.
i have always felt that the self serving mentalities(of most) is what is the lowly mentalities, the hohum, drag their feet like they do, lacking of the pure blessed zeal like that of the exceedingly joyful free spirit, set free by means of wisdom, you know, like a massive revolution on a world scale.
i will keep probing further into the wisdoms and post the insightful findings of our shared quest. I want to break loose every soul from all these absurd motherfucking mindtraps that enslave souls like it does, from all you useless unprofessional motherfucking break the spirit managers, for example………i guess i am still tender over that one.
Hi MBZ,
I would like to comment on your reaction here…and i can say there are parts were i do agree and parts were I don’t agree.
First of all … i think it’s normal and i guess everybody is struggling with the figure of age… but… i don’t think that Madonna is struggling with that… She has accepted she is 50 and that your body is changing when you get older…
I think you do underestemate her insights, her strenght and goal she is reaching for… I can never believe and i am sure we will never see that Madonna is just settling down in a cousy home with her children, and building up a danceschool… and just being… A HOUSEWIFE… After all she doesn’t like to be called ‘Madge’ …. which sounds very houswify….:)))
But i do agree with you that she can inspire, teach,….
She writes a lot of stuff down …. you know she is pychic ?
You cannot believe what this woman is gonna do and change a lot in the future…
After all… do you know what the true meaning of life is ?
I know you have your vision, your truth….
Mine is…. life is the time were you have the abbility to explore and find everything that you want to do and you want to be… but all on your own !!!
Parents should let them children more free and by stopping to keep them despretaly from bad things by overprotecting them…. Life has so much to offer … but most people can barely see it…
This world we live in… is not created by God but by human…. us……
So MBZ, i hope you don’t want madonna to stop….
BECAUSE SHE NEVER WILL BE…..
that inconsiderate bitch who fired me for loving and building the morale of the staff!
i am still furious over that, getting fired for doing a better job, by a boss who twenty years with the company and all her jerkoff superiours who wine and dine together all the time. They lost one of the best employees that company every had, able to influence the company in a positive direction, higher…………but no, she had to set me ablaze, where if anything, the employess despise her even more, all of them shocked, yet not surprized by my getting fired. I was the one unafraid to stand up to the truth of her mean spirited bulling mentality, the TRUTH in the eyes of Jesus and God.
Indeed, the world is of the many useless unwise haphazard generational ego falsehood teachings Kevin, and if you think letting a child out to be of defenseless unwiseness of just how many dangerous aimless unwise souls there are in life, is to be negligent of your children.
Children need to come fully into awareness of the statistical data of what happens to a soul that gets caught up in substance abuse for example, where there are drug dealers and pushers out there on every corner now, of some serious life threatening addictive drugs worse than heroin or crack cocaine, such as the powerful addictive effects of meth, a serious brain chemical release drug, so addictive, of poor to nil recovery prognosis.
There are many unwise dangerous souls along life’s road, which a child needs to be educated about, or suffer the consequences of learning horrible hard lessons in life, and there are addictions people do not recover from.
No way, you cannot simply let a child out into this fucked up world and pray for the best. Teach them the true life dangerous are real, and do exist. Teach them why they exist, such as the poor inability of parents to raise their children, ensuring positive mental emotional well being of their child, who exhibit the manifestations of such as adults.
No way, educate your kids everyone. Make them read about the hazards of unwise souls in life who are able to lead them into dangerous life threatening paths.
It is of God’s divine WILL for WISDOM meant for the divine child ‘real’ self. It is the crucial lacking for desire of God’s wisdom that is cause for all the wretchedness in the world.
Avoid truth wisdoms, and you avoid blessed pure and true loving life.
The truth wisdoms are meant to free a spirit from enslavement of the world’s falsehood egos, not enslave it.
life is the time were you have the abbility to explore and find everything that you want to do and you want to be… but all on your own !!!
ya, well, being alone is not for me Kevin……….fuck that!
no, i know what you mean, of our own persuits of study, of whatever it is we focus on in our spare time, like i do in ancient Christian antiquities, which i will always be of study in the years ahead, while of loving partner with another.
finding the true passion of the divine child ‘real’ self is something most overlook, of not exploring into the musical or artistic side of life for example, where one can only discover their passion for the arts by getting their feet wet, a must sure encouragement of any parent with their child.
100% without doubt, i know my passion is with the arts, and the wisdoms of Jesus, God.
most of all, is my desire to be of happiness in the physical realm with a truly at ease other of joyful loving every day.
Happiness is at the top of my list, where only of the physical realm with another and others, am i able to be happiness.
being alone is unhappiness for me, although, i do like my time alone in study…………finding a balance is what couples need to do, of genuine input from both, and not all of one, where we are all different as to how much time alone we need, for example, which changes, where an open easy going relaxed self, not rigid, is what works in open communications to say what we feel, without criticalness from other.
of course, there are the inseperable loving lovers, who are of constant loving delight of each other all the time, daily, rare, but they do exist…………
When i think of love, i think of you and me of exceeding joyful happiness, dancing, smiling, of our blessed loving real self finally set free to BE what we both yearn to BE all the time, as the most loving lovers we both KNOW we truly are within, our reflections of the joyful feelings of such which reveal the truth of just how happy our souls truly are, while of the surrendered loving lover with a lover we love like we do.
ok, perhaps that is how i feel about you, and not necessarily true of you for me, but if then again, maybe it is true of you………….and i do feel it to be true of you.
if happiness is with me, then i ask you to be of the fearless loving real self you are and make know your emotional honesty truth for all the world to know………or perhaps take time to find out first and annouce to the world later?
i love this feeling i feel, and i am going to keep allowing myself to entertain the loving dancing feeling i feel until you tell me otherwise.
i know i am of connectedness of my own emotional honest pure and true i feeling within, where fear is what is yet there(normal) between us………my own fear is that you won’t.
i will deal with it if you are of another…………eventually.
after all, true loving lovers is of two true loving lovers………not one.
i love exploring my emotions
fear is an unwise dangerous transference in the world which i despise, as i have seen what it does to souls here in the GLBT community, nearly destoying the precious loving souls of many here that i see with scares on their arms from self inflicted abuse, and then there is all the wretched motherfucking drug dealers on every corner, these bottom feeders who feed on the unsuspecting unwise precious loving souls who learn to self medicate their inner pain of unaccepting family and friends like they do, becoming addicted, becoming HIV infected from the same lack of self respect unsafe sex they practice, uninhibited from the drugs and alcohol flowing thru their bodies, waking up to the reality check of what happen and could of been avoided, if parents would just take more time to learn about the reality of external/internal homophobia of their kids. Talk about it, you have to talk about it.
SILENCE = DEATH
what an incredible morning i had this morning riding the subway.
he was a Mormon, who do what they always do, chat up who ever is there.
i told him i have studied all the teachings of the many merchants of Jesus and God, and how every word of Jesus is of the teachings of God thru Jesus, truth wisdom meant for the blessed divine child of God ‘real’ self you for the sake of awakening you fully into the pure and true beautiful flawless feelings State of BEing awareness certainty, of the beautiful flawless feelings God knows about YOU, of what is the core of every child born from the womb of God into the unwise generational ego falsehoods, of what is the thuth wisdom halo God knows is the only way you are able to enter the pure loving wise compassionate Kingdom of Heaven with Jesus and God that is constantly all around you, you know those images we see of the halo all the time of angels?
he said, “I don’t believe in the halo.”
i said, “You don’t believe in the halo, only because you are not yet of the comprehension of the halo like a sage of God is. Jesus was a sage. A Sage is not a merchant of God like all the merchants of God are who are not of the pure zealful compassion of Jesus and the Sages of God who know what every single word of Jesus(God) are meant for, a nurturing protective sheild for your blessed divine child of God pure and true ‘real’ self, that Jesus, God and the Sages of God constantly love.”
I step off the train, and the lady walking next to me says, “That is way to heavey for this early in the morning!”
I said, “Heavey are the compassionate feelings for the 30,000 children in the world who will die because of the spiritual death voids unknowingly unwisely created by the spiritual poverty which yet grips the entire world as we speak, just as it did when Jesus walked the earth.”
lol
ah, such a beautiful unwise world, who’s ass i love to kick daily!
MBZ should change their name to Transference, im not going to be judgemental or critical or opinionated, ( well i’ll try my best not too) but i do not belive anyone should guide or advise anyone how to live their life but oneSELF, we can certainly lead by example, and certainly if it is a healthy positive and productive life than it most definatly is a good example, but to transfer our views judgements and opinion’s is simply that transference, and we have to deal with that from people everyday, friends, family, work collegues, lover’s ( god forbid) i mean look at me i am so weird, i make everyone seem, normal, oh my… sorry for calling you a moron BMZ, i did’nt mean it just testing ya..
I agree with Kevin i don’t think she is strugglin with her age at all, she probably frustrated at having to deal with everyone else’s jelousy because she’s looking so healthy and fit for her age, it challenges the agest mindset that you have to look and grow old just because, people look and feel how they feel within themselves, that in itself should be proof.. i know 90 yr old’s with more jest and energy than 20yr old’s.
Anyway, i’ve gotta go, have to practive my cooking skill’s in the kitchen, apparently i’m undecided or seeing someone else, Basil where did Basil go, come back basil, time is waiting.. ( for no one) LOL 🙂
hurry up, Thyme
where did Thyme go ???
look i settle for the Wise Sage’s of God, just don’t call me a Paprica when we get to Venice ok !!
ya, that is so true, people do unwisely interpret and feel negative energy when a wise sage approach who is of advice, guidance, and constructive criticism, indeed, a dynamic which does block the divine child ‘real’ self of another from FULLY HEARING(feeling) the blessed words of God thru a devoted Sage of God who is of oneness understanding with God’s divine WILL, indeed, 100% of God’s divine WILL for the wisdom meant for the divine child ‘real’ self of us all.
so the question is, how do we present the understanding of a Sage of God in to the divine child ‘real’ self, without the blocking dynamic of fear that inhibits the awakening and internalizing truth that God is speaking directly to them in each passing moment thru the wise Sages of God, of the many Sages who yet to come, of the many Sages who are yet evolving in the learning and understanding for example, what is the correct most successful flawless affect/effect/direct/indirect approach that 100% works?
as i said, i know i am a constantly a wise STUDENT of Jesus and God like everyone is, where the only difference between me or another is the amount of time i have studied and internalized the Sage Wisdom of Jesus and God, no different in any way whatsoever, where it is absurd to think of myself as different from another divine child of God ‘real’ self, in the eyes of God who is constantly there, or whatever life force entity is constantly there, of their pure subtle presence that my divine child ‘real’ self awareness sensing like he does.
more and more each passing day i feel the purity feelings of exceeding fearless joyfulness feelings of the future of my divine child ‘real’ self, where my biggest concern is coming fully into the day i am constantly of the exceeding joyfulness yet growing within me, without you, where i cannot turn away from you, and only able to let go if you turn to another in life other than me, where we both would continue like we have been doing since birth, of our continued growing awareness of our own divine child ‘real’ self who is entering fully into the what i call the kingdom of heaven love devoid of the useless doubt unwise transferences, where i feel it is the constant flowing of love between our two souls of pure and true friendship along life’s road, which i feel is the combined motivational encouragement which ushers us into the kingdom of heaven State of BEing awareness as best friends.
to say i am of the cognitive awareness of the incredible exceeding fearless joyfulness of my divine child ‘real’ self, is to acknowledge that i know this to BE true of you as well in your own cognitive awareness of exact sameness like my own, of what i feel has to BE our focused effort for sake of both our souls, or we will fail to come fully into the kingdom of heaven wise perspective awareness of love devoid of the useless fearful doubt transferences you and i both know does indeed unknowingly unwisely grips the souls of many in the world.
the 100% pure blessed motivation for such, is for sake of the precious loving souls trapped in the voids devoid of love, wisdom and compassion, such as every blessed child of starvation, of every child of the unwise egotistic unaccepting falsehoods voids of the homosexuals, where REVEALing of TRUTH is what is of the divine WILL of Jesus, God and we the Sages of God………………that is of course if you are interested, which i already know you are.
It is constantly the divine WILL of the awakened aware divine child ‘real’ self to do so, where i am here before you as a likeminded humble student of collaboration of what is most sacred to me in life.
your fearlessness is powerful, of what is a sacred aspect of the divine child ‘real’ self.
we do not know the future, and yet, we are growing in the cognitive awareness of the love devoid of doubt exceeding joyfulness feelings, are we not.
i am so done with the useless negativity energies which are draining for a soul, where more and more i won’t allow myself to waste precious time of such with others, rightfully so, where all useless negativity is unwise, is it not, an it blocks the exceeding FEARLESS joyfulness of the divine child ‘real’ self, where any and all fear goes against fearlessness.
argh, i despise these fear mongering fuckheads who aimlessly haphazard so many precious souls into the wretched destruction, of what is willful delight of some of these fuckheads.
It makes me want to scream and draw the holy sword of truth out apon them, where the pure truth wisdom words is what cuts thru to the core of their being, thru the layers of the wretched unwise generational ego falsehoods, instantly awakening their divine child ‘real’ self into the heightened alert awakened awareness that indeed, God is speaking directly to them in that moment.
Sorta like the words, “Let it be known this day across all the divisional barriers of the land that God dwells among us!!!”
ok, i promise call you a prick when we get to Venice marco.
is it ok to think it without saying it, without the other one knowing? lol
damn, looks like another week in the dog house for me.
fuck!
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what distinguishes a wise Sage of God the most, is the pure and true fearless flawless pure discerning feelings of a wise Sage, where it is by means of the pure and true flawless pure discerning feelings of the Sage that a Sage learns and internalizes fully the truth wisdoms of the protective halo meant for the divine child ‘real’ self of every soul, the State of BEing wise perspective awareness of the kingdom of heaven constantly all around us, of the truths which are constantly there.
The love devoid of doubt pure feeling, is what draws the divine child ‘real’ self into the kingdom of heaven wise awareness, where once the divine child ‘real’ self BEcomes fully awakened into the wise knowingness certainty awareness, they do not leave the kingdom of heaven flawless love devoid of doubt, where for example, the pure graceful feelings while of our naturale at ease peaceful state, is what is most sacred in feeling for us, is it not?
that is what i want with you, the sacred pure graceful feeling we feel while of our meditative state of awareness, and i know you want that too. The difficulty with most in life, is that most are not of the appreciation like we are, and many there are who are not of the awareness yet, unable to be of appreciation priority for what is sacred.
of course my approach with you is going to be of the encouragement of the sacred pure loving divine child ‘real’ self you, easily so, because i really dread being in the dog house! lol
ah, the sunshine is returning.
time is sacred in the eyes of Jesus and God, as regards the many precious loving souls trapped in the horrid wretched unwise chains of the generational egotistic self serving falsehoods in the world, where i want to shatter every single wretched untruth in the world, by means of the humiliating light of revealing truth which disolves these nothing wretchednesses into what they are, wretched empty horrid unwise nothingnesses, revitalizing, restoring, awakening the divine child ‘real’ self of all souls into what we know is true of the divine child ‘real’ self, the sacred pure true wise fearless loving Spiritual State of BEing (Sage) Awareness carring the most powerful weapon in God’s armory, the Holy Sword of Truth, one in each hand, where no soul is ever able to become victorious over Gods words of Truth, nor would a divine child ‘real’ self want to, once a divine child realizes, “Oh, forgive me God, i did not know your words with me this day were meant to nurture and protect my blessed divine loving self from the absurd horrid wretched world yet gripped by the generational ego falsehoods that Jesus railed against. Thank you God. I now realise every sacred word is constantly meant for me, and every precious soul born from the your womb forever more, of pure eternal truth words meant for every soul born into this yet wretched unwise unloving apathetic world. Thank you God. Thank you Jesus. Bless you Jesus bless you forever more! ”
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yeah! i get my ipod touch phone 3G uplink in a few days, so i can post my writings in real time 24/7, instead of carring a book and pen to write when i get the urge to write, around with me.
The world of precious loving souls are evolving in the sacred blessed pure loving feelings of their divine child ‘real’ self more and more each day, and i am joyful of this, of artists who are expressing so purely their feelings like they do, like U2s recent release. All artists are of the sacred instrument of revealing truth of the divine child ‘real’ self evolving, where the fearless connectivity of the world is increasing more and more daily of the divine child ‘real’ self awareness into the constant pure loving feelings in the core of every soul of the world.
Truly the artists are the sacred instrument of God in awakening us all, of the sacred compassionate pure loving blessed peaceful feelings, which embrace just how horrid the nothingness feelings a child of starvation trapped in the spiritual death void pits of nothingness, for example………..
RIGHT NOW
in this moment
a precious child is taking their last breath of LIFE
trapped in a spiritual death void
created by the wretched horrid spiritual empty death spiritual poverty of the uncaring disconnected souls also trapped by the beasts of ignorance egotistic falsehoods, such as the egotistical insatiable desires of wealth emptiness nothingness falsehoods, which are not true of the every precious loving child of God pure true ‘real’ self snared by such.
RIGHT NOW
in this moment
another precious child is taking their last breath of LIFE
{cameras rolling, a child of extreme poverty looks bewildered into the massive camera lense in front of him, not knowing who are why the camera is there, not knowng the presence of Jesus and God’s divine WILL is why the camera is there recording the broken spiritedness of the child of poverty, who does not yet know they will soon be clothed in beautiful coloured clothing, and asked to come to school for three healthy meals per day, of a blessed new day of Jesus and God’s divine WILL bestowed apon the precious loving child of poverty, where later the camera guys WILL once again come before the precious child to record the rejuvenated exceedingly joyful happiness of the precious child dancing about in beautiful coloured clothing, who has forgotten and shed the dreadful broken spirited empty nothingness feelings they once constantly felt all day long, of no food to eat.}
It is this kind of filming which is of reconnectedness to the pure true loving compassionate pure loving spirit of the divine child ‘real’ self of us all, which is of the sacred divine WILL of Jesus and God of us ALL as 100% equals the world over, all of the exact sameness sacred pure true loving feelings of the divine child ‘real’ self of us ALL, and it is also of the sacred divine WILL of the divine child ‘real’ self of us ALL, of unknowing cognitive awareness of all divine child of God ‘real’ self yet unknowingly asleep in the blinding intoxicating unwise empty ignorant nothingness egotistic falsehoods that grip so many souls of the world, that gripped so many souls of the entire past, which will continue to grip many souls of the future, until such a time that the wise awakened Spiritually awakened ones arrive, and despell all the thrones of nescience, desolving the empty nothingness back into nothingness, breaking the binding unwise empty nothingness fearful chains which yet gip the heart, mind, body, spirit and soul of any precious loving divine child of God pure true ‘real’ self, freeing of all souls into the kingdom of heaven most do not cognitively 100% realize they stand in, where it is the wisdom of the halo perspective that is what the kingdom of heaven constantly is forever more, unknowingly by any precious souls which are yet blind and led astray from truly knowing who they actually are and always were.
God bless us all apon the road of life as we venture wisely into the future, BEcoming FULLY restored of pure true loving flawless spirit of the divine child of God ‘real’ self YOU of us ALL forever more, bringing and end once and for ALL these wretched empty generational egotistic self serving falsehoods, so that no child yet to be born ever again experiences anything other than LOVE every blessed day, of every blessed step, every blessed heartbeat, every blessed breath, of every blessed child of God of the entire future of mankind.
We are the generation who is addressing the TRUTH which all generations of the future will look back apon in pure thankfulness, as the generation of the self discovery of the divine child of God ‘real’ self of us ALL forever more who brought about ending of all the wretched empty bitter unwise binding chains of the egotistic nothingness falsehoods.
or maybe they will all be too busy having fun at the beaches?
constantly blessed blessed blessed is the pure true loving flawless spirit of the divine child of God ‘real’ self YOU of us ALL forever more
It is Jesus who is the one who came fully into the sacred pure knowingness awareness of the divine child of God ‘real’ self, where Jesus knew about the our generation of the future which would fully embrace what he knew. Jesus often spoke of our generation with many while walking the earth, speaking openly of his own generation as not BEing the generation which would embrace what he was constantly teaching, obviously so of all those who were not of the pure connectedness awareness Jesus was constantly aware of about his divine child ‘real’ self. Thank you Jesus bless you Jesus bless you forever more.
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every passing moment of a child of starvation, is a sacred passing moment of their approaching death, and that is how we must embrace that indeed, every passing moment is sacred, and stop the senseless wasting of precious sacred time that is running out for a child of starvation.
RIGHT NOW
in this moment
a precious child is taking their last breath of LIFE
This is our pure true sacred empowerment of the sacred time, where our every breath, every heartbeat, every step, every word is sacred in the eyes of Jesus and God, and we the divine children of the light of God forever more, till our last day of LIFE, of our lives surrendered fully to the divine WILL of Jesus and God, of what is the ONEness of divine WILL of the divine child of God ‘real’ self of us ALL forever more, for sake of every precious soul from the womb of God for all eternity.
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may the blessed pure loving sacred tears of loving wise compassion of the divine child ‘real’ self YOU continue to fall every blessed day until all poverty is irraticated from the earth forever more.
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God blesses the artist, constantly loved by Jesus and God forever more, who are of exact sameness of the pure loving spirit of the divine child of God ‘real’ self Jesus forever more
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God blesses all the souls who tirelessly of the divine WILL of their divine child ‘real’ self, weild the Holy Sword of Truth cameras each sacred day of the revolution uprising of the future that awakens the loving compassionate pure loving feelings of the divine child of God ‘real’ self of ALL souls of the world, of what is of every sacred breath, of every sacred heartbeat, of every sacred step of every sacred loving child of God of every sacred day yet to come for all eternity forever more.
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all those of you who boastfully mock and laugh at the divine child of God ‘real’ self, thinking you are wise, unknowingly yet of the disconnected distracting unwise snarings of the constantly pure loving divine child ‘real’ self YOU within, will BE of the last to enter into the kingdom of heaven.
although you need not worry, as andy is of the constant divine WILL to constantly hold the door open for YOU, until such a time he no longer walks among you. Watch me get hit by a bus or something really really stupid! lol
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We are the sacred voice of the broken spirited child of starvation in weaknes unable to speak forever more.
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The divine child ‘real’ self is of constant awareness feelings of equality, however submerged the child may be; within the core of everyone is the pure true source of which we all experienced and came from, such as the flawless perfect harmony(mostly) of our bodies, where everything of our body works together in perfect harmony, the source from within which all souls of the earth were conceived, the core of our BEing source of which is of the overlooked natural occurring flawless perfect harmony ‘Constant Aspect’ of everyone, where all disharmoniousness inequality is felt by the divine child ‘real’ self at all times, however much of denial, or submerged subconcious awareness, this truth is constantly there all around us.
When of the constant (divine Will) natural occurring flawless harmony equality ‘Constant Aspect’ of our divine child ‘real’ self, we are most at ease as our peaceful by nature ‘real’ self, and not at ease when of the false inequalities like so many are, where indeed, the condition of their souls is not of the natural peaceful loving at ease self, like say of those who work daily in the field of child poverty prevention.
The stressful lives most live, of morning rush hour, and the burnout stress levels many allow themselves to be subjected to of the career priority climb the corporate ladder mentalities, is cause for 50% of all stress related terminal illnesses, yet again, indicative that we are not meant to BE of the unwise stressful career lifestyle worlds we chose to create for ourselfs, bringing our stress home like we do to our loving families, thinking we are all so wise.
When i quit my corporate ladder climb stressful job, my alergies went away, yet again, an indicator that we do not know what we are doing as regards to what a healthy approach to life is.
and to top off the lives we fill up with so much materialistic junk, we have become uncaring of a defensely child of starvation, of our turning away from the needless suffering death of 30,000 children who die daily.
are these the priorities we want to teach our precious loving children, and that it is ok to let 30,000 children die daily like we continue to do?
apparently it is.
what the submerged divine child ‘real’ self of any soul fails to realize, is the blessed pure loving feelings which come with the divine WILLINGNESS to BE our true pure loving divine child ‘real’ self, like all those who sponsor a child in the world know, indeed, blessed are the unconditional loving feelings in holding back the spiritual death void walls from crushing to death a child of starvation.
RIGHT NOW
if everyone of the world turned toward the divine WILLINGNESS ‘aspect’ of their divine child of God ‘real’ self today and sponsored a child of starvation, no child would ever experience the horrid death of starving to death ever again.
We can look one thousand years into the future and imagine everyone is of their blessed pure true loving divine child of God ‘real’ self, daily of the divine WILL ONEness of Jesus and God, where we can easily see, there is no child of starvation, easily so, without effort, for the WILLINGNESS to love of our divine child ‘real’ self is without effort to BE what is of the source we ALL came from, the source of flawless perfect harmonious equality within the divine Spiritual Being of God, of what we look for has already come, of the truth which is, was and shall constantly BE there forever more, where we merely need to turn towards what is better in feeling for our divine child of God ‘real’ self, the constant WILLINGNESS to BE LOVING, naturally so, easily so, of the ONEness of the ONE Eternal Human BEing that lives on the planet called earth, in a galaxy called the MilkyWay, in a universe(at last measurement) that is 156 billion light years wide, which means it would take you 156 billion years to cross the universe if traveling at the speed of light, rather large compared to the smallnesses of our brain, yes? lol
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God is an alien with a constant sense of sarcastic humor………..thank God!
have a beautiful evening!
i love you!
maybe is very abstract and sounds similar to doubt or i doubt it don’t you think
are you referring to what is of the eternal observation of how we are with one another, of a seemingly absurd secrecy pervading doubtfulness(which i detest, no matter what my therapists says of my familiarity dynamic of painful others of my past and childhood), which i try to understand as merely that of a sensitive time for all respectfulness………but what about how Andy wants to feel, truly loved without doubt, of what is of the true internal depth of soul of both of us while along, of our yet occassional inner emotional turmoil?
what?
lol
the manifesting frustrated unapproachable defensive inability to trust appearance of my yet evolving step by step is coming to an end, and we run off together into blessed happiness every day abstracted(yet fractured) imagination?
i wish you would be more specific and direct when speaking, or am i not slowing into my graceful self enough to understand what you are talking about?
i sorry, i am an emotional wreck right now, all over the place at times, praying for constant certainty connectedness, like when someone asks you for a date, they answer directly to you, “yeah! sure! what day, what time?”
abstract doubtful uncertainty?
yeah, sure! i guess you could say we are ‘that’.
although as of last night, i now understand your approach thus far with me.
truly you are wise, and i am eternally thankful of your blessed loving constantly pure loving soul within, abstracted masks you wisely wear to protect from the world of unwise disconnected others, which i too am guilty of painful ego false masks, my blessed pure spirit 100% surrendered now before you, of only gratitude and thankfulness of my now understanding what it is you wanted me to come fully into awareness of.
God bless every blessed day of your blessed sacred life of eternal love that radiates from you unabstracted wise discerning, only of those able to know you of their sincere genuine divine child of God blessed ‘real’ self of pure true constant eternal loving like you constantly are.
thank you thank you thank you forever more
bless you bless you bless you forever more
shields up!
if one more of you of ego approaches me ever again, i will wisely quietly walk around you, of your not knowing neither your divine child of God ‘real’ self, nor of the know of the one speaking with, of your not fully of acknowledging deep within of who i really really am!
do you know who i am?
who am i most like?
do you really really know who i am?
am i not you?
the wise evolved you of the future who is speaking directly with you both now here in the past and now here in the future?
ok……..i have annoyed you all enough for one day! lol
i love all of you, although the masks some of you wear are rather strange, although no stranger are any of you to ‘me’, the one you can see, when ever you feel like ‘me’!
blessed blessed blessed is the this eternal day, the same day of every day of the eternal future, of the radiant eternal light of wisdom that does not stop shining for all eternity to feel the truth of who i really really am, just like you, am i not?
how could i possible BE constantly loving of any of you who are different than that of which i constantly am?
constantly loving of all of YOU, no different within of who i really really am!
forever more
a child of the light of God we all are!
unknowingly for many souls yet to come fully into the awareness knowingness certainty of the flawless perfect harmonious equality State of BEing of the Eternal Spiritual Wise Being of God Human Being.
~ hey, that is some interesting abstract(for some of you) to ponder, yes?
oh for fuck sakes, who wants to go on a date with ‘me’!
i promise to BE my quiet no words required constantly loving of you ‘real’ self of what i know 100% without doubt to BE true of you too!
we are all God’s children of the light, always were, always WILL BE, unknowingly for many who are not yet of the internalized wisdoms of God.
sounds egotistical, i know, and yet every word is of Jesus, the most wise Sage of God who walked among us. Some say Jesus is the eternal intelligent alien spirit of God who knows every word uttered alters the entire future of all souls, wisely so, of God knowing that all words are of the same divine WILL objective of God……for sake of the pure love feelings in the core of every soul, of the pure love source experience we all came thru when conceived, of the blessed pure exceeding graceful state of our bodies floating in warm fluids for nine months like we all did.
truly, nine months in a hot tub, 24/7, must have some kind of internal impact on us, yes? lol
so where do you suppose you might find Andy everyday?
you KNOW it!
hey, if a boy asks a girl for a date, is it ok for the boy to wait months for her answer?
it is not a matter of if it is ok, rather it is indicative of how much the boy truly loves the girl!
ah, andy, step away from the ledge. Come andy, get back here, she loves you ok? She always did, always WILL, her best friend in life till the end.
oh, fuck her, who the fuck does she think she is leaving me waiting so long like she still does?
lol
i jest…………just having some fun of old memories of a girl who once treated me far worse than any girl did, broke my heart for over a decade of sorrow i felt after, of what perhaps i am yet trying to prove to myself, that i am lovable by a girl…………..and a boy!
hmmm…..
what if the boy became so frustrated, he went to the girl and said, “I have asked you time and again to go out with me, and i am here this day to give you four minutes to decide right now, or i am not ever coming back to you, and will leave to find another!”
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2
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oh for fuck’s sake
will you two
just
get it together
we are over the love song’s
show me the mirror
ah, becareful with that mirror dear, if you don’t know how to use it…….i can teach you the mirroring light awareness reconnection with the source of your BEing!
i am here, until such a time as all petty ego is dispelled and cast out, of what i know is of the constant yearning desire of your divine child of God pure true ‘real’ self to constantly feel the sacred connectedness constant pure love feeling i know to BE true of every soul forever more.
ok……..times up, that’s a wrap everyone, see you all at 7:00am sharp……..don’t BE late, if you can HELP it(your self).
blessings to all
this emergency broadcast has been brought to you thru God’s channels not of the current comprehension of most souls of the year 2008, from outside the universe! lol :mrgreeen:
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oooooooooo…..that last one was really annoying!
leaving a ringing in one’s ear, yes? 😉
hey, i am not as strange as one may first think!
only if one slows into the graceful at ease natural state and feel the words written, are you able to know how to READ, by means of your pure love feelings, where apon, your realize, every word was utter in pure love for sake of your blessed constantly pure loving ‘real’ self i 100% know of each and every one of YOU!
forever more
ok, enough annoying for one day.
i will take the day of tomorrow and leave you to enjoy the blessed pure peaceful loving at ease pure loving exceedingly graceful child of God ‘real’ self who is constantly loved by Jesus, God and we who truly love Jesus, God and the divine child of God ‘real’ self YOU!
eternal love pure and true forever more of all eternity of every child of God yet to be born from the womb of God.
blessings to all
peace be to this house
peace be to you
and peace be to you
bless you bless you bless you
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depends if she is married.
she’s married?
i thought she was divorced?
oh, i see, i was the best friend that broke up her marriage, and my name is mud in the eyes of Jesus and God.
fuck!
what if i go and come back a year from now, can she marry me then?
depends if she is married.
oh for fuck sakes!
fuck this, there are lots of girls who would love to be with me! I just KNOW there is!
like this girl i saw yesterday, there she was just a-walking down the street
Singing do wah diddy diddy dum diddy do
Snapping her fingers and shuffling her feet
Singing do wah diddy…
She looked good, looked good
She looked fine, looked fine
She looked good, she looked fine
And I nearly lost my mind
/ D – G D / / / / DA A / DA A / DA DA / /
Before I knew it she was walking next to me / Singing…
Holdin’ my hand just as natural as can be / Singing…
We walked on, walked on
To my door, my door
We walked on to my door
Then we kissed a little more
{Bridge}
Wo-o-o-oh, I knew we was falling in love
Yes I did, and so I told her all the things I’d been dreaming of
/ D – – – Bm – – – / G – – – A7 – – – /
Now we’re together nearly every single day / Singing…
We’re so happy and that how we’re gonna stay / Singing…
Well I’m hers, I’m hers
She’s mine, she’s mine
I’m hers, she’s mine
Wedding bells are gonna chime
{Bridge, Repeat Last Verse}
Wo-o-o-o-o-o, oh yeah
Do wah diddy diddy dum diddy do (3x)
/ A – – / D – G D / / / /
ahhhh, i always loved that song!
hey Madonna, do you want to go on a date with me?
i will wait here until you answer me, yes or no, and i will not stop annoying until you answer me, yes or no!
im waiting!
ohhhhhhhh, for fuck sakes, that’s what it was, i did not ask her for a date!
how insensitive of me, or was i actually BEing sensitive?
hey, are you asking me to be abstract?
just wondering……..
ohhhhhhhhh……are there any normal people left?
“hey girl, im Andy, a bisexual who has lived a gay lifestyle for the last twenty years! You wanna go on a date with me?”
“hey, you could at least say yes or no instead of walking away like that!”
fuck……….im never gonna get laid!
ohhhhhh……..i miss Rosie!
ROSIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
get back here!
NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
tell her, “He is obviously in love with You!”
please?
text her!
please?
and tell her, “It is totally wrong of you to leave him waiting like this! It’s destroying him!”
i jest!
it’s actually been helpful for me!
you are wiser than you appear! yes?
far far wiser than most realize who i really really am!
and no, i am not Madonna.
Jesus and God spoke those words, “Do you not realize who i really really am?”
truly, the most fascinating words of all of the ancient Christian antiquities!
even more so is the blessed pure sacred understanding of the one who is speaking! 😉
ok, let me help you!
to say the word YES, you have to form a sorta smile, and clench your teeth together, take a deep deep breath, and with all your strength, force all the air out using your abdominal muscles, and make this eeeeeee sound, then like a yawn you open your mouth, as though you are actually yawning, yaaaaaa, then make and hold the sound briefly of the e sound in the name Jeff, eeeeeeeeeeeeee, then like the hissing of a snake, you clench your teeth back together to make the SSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS sound.
or, if you find the word N O easy to say, that’s ok too!
fucking lazy ass @&%@*#
lol
God is not the way most think God is
ok………i think it is safe to say andy is in the lost and found, yes? :mrgeen:
what is he looking for? Did he lose something? The girl of his dream? Can he not see she is standing right there laughing her ass off?
as usual!
carry on
on we go
ok, time for some fun spirited dancing!
ok, here is how the song goes………
Who are you ?
am i like you?
how did you grow?
closer closer,
what i failed to know?
Who are you?
is it really true?
my fear to grow?
closer closer
where i failed to know?
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Who are we?
are we like you?
how did we grow?
closer closer,
what we failed to know?
Who are we?
is it really true?
our fear to grow?
closer closer
where we failed to know?
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Who am i ?
are you i am?
how did i know?
closer closer,
what i failed to grow?
Who am i ?
is it really true?
my fear to know?
closer closer
where i failed to grow?
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Who are we ?
are we you?
how did we grow?
closer closer,
what we failed you know?
Who are we ?
is it really true?
our fear to grow?
closer closer
where we failed you know?
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Who is you ?
are we you?
how did we grow?
closer closer,
what we failed we know?
Who is you?
is it really true?
our fear to grow?
closer closer
where we failed we know?
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Who you are!
i am like you!
how i did grow!
closer closer,
what i failed i know
Who you are!
it really is true!
my fear to grow!
closer closer
where i failed i know!
Who i am!
i am like you!
how i did grow!
closer closer,
what i failed i know
Who i am!
it really is true!
my fear to grow!
closer closer
where i failed i know!
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we are you!
we are, it’s true!
you are we!
it’s true, we are!
i am you!
it’s true, i am!
you i am!
i am, it’s true!
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it’s true, it’s true!
you we are!
it’s true, it’s true!
we are you!
it’s true, it’s true!
you i am!
it’s true, it’s true!
i am you!
first rendition attempt of equality certainty awareness……….
argh………it has a fucked up flow to it!
ah, tomorrow is always a brighter day!
hey, is there an edicate line on being over presumptous of another who keeps taughting and teasing you of a correct time to step over the line?
just wondering.
well, not really wondering……….more like, “Could you please hurry the fuck up and decide! Fuck!”
grumble grumble grumble, and waunders back to his cave!
oh, that’s truly sad, of one who does not spell their own name correct, yes?
truly!
fucking pathetic is more like it!
fuck!
lol
it’s official, Andy has truly lost it, yes?
well, not really, i mean how can one lose what they failed to realize they always had, and always WILL have?
and that would BE?
exactly!
ohhhh, i am getting bored again! not good.
now where did i put those dancing shoes?
my therapists wants a report, stat, on what my career objective direction is going to be, back to school, return to old career, get on with it.
i am like, what is wrong with what i am doing right now, my spiritual sabatical of, *cough* thirteen months now?
well, ah, let’s see, there is the bankruptcy, the ah, bankruptcy, oh, and the bankruptcy……….
ah, fuck them!
like those creditors give a fuck at all about my mental well being, only if it means being a nice healthy slave for them to shackle to their prison walls for the rest of my life. fuckers!
i love my therapist, she smokes, and swears worse than Madonna………if you can believe that one! lol
no, really, she does!
my most favorite therapist i have ever had, someone my real self truly trustfully connects with 100%.
she knows exactly what i need to address, and she is like rock solid firm about it too, no excuses, no wining about nothing!
although she let’s me rant endlessly all i want about Madonna! lol
too a certain point, always prodding me to stop with the internet, of real life or forget it!
for sake of us both!
something to do with acceptance……….
but she is busy with more serious life matters……..
there i go again, making excuses for her again…….
ah, she will let me know one day of perhaps a day i get to meet her in the flesh! ooooooooo!
Madonna naked in those sexy boots?
YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
right on!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
oudoors somewhere in nature!!!
where those high boots are a necessary requirement for the nature we are standing in……….
hmmm……..let’s see, the ocean?
nah……
the deep winter snow of the Swiss Alps dropped off in the sunshine by helicopter at the top of a mountain?
YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
she can wear a long fur coat if she starts to get cold………like that’s ever possible when we are near each other!
oh hey, i know, in the deep jungles where those funky strange dancing birds live, of so many creatures sounding all around us!
definitely need the high boots for the dangerous deadly snakes there!
that would be awesome, Madonna naked in those sexy boots, deep in the jungle with all the other wild animals there!!!!!!!!!!!!!
what?
ok, whatever!
Where is Madonna? Why she stops blogging here for half a year? Does she have a new one again?
so did you really feel me last night, because i found it interesting you said that, as i did spend the whole night thinking about you in fact you were on my mind alot , to the point i was looking over my shoulder thinking you would sneak up behind me and smack me on my bottom,
so it is reassuring to hear these things, confirms to me what i am feeling is not just my vivid imagination or anticipation but something more substantial and an affirmation of my spiritual connection with you. which i never doubted, but sometimes it is nice to have confirmation, in a sense confirmation that is is real, and mutual..
keep your freinds close and your enemy’s closer from your spirtual connection edward woodstock your black prince?
i’ll give you one more clue where i live.i live in a mystical town where the father of all cremation came from?a town of the three saints illid gwyno dawrd?
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[retrospective reflective]
{spiritual connection with you. which i never doubted}
this goes back along time for me, of the time you were hear, the awareness of the pure heart love i experienced that day, of what i realize now after years of study of the spirit realm clairvoyance, it was your blessed pure heart love sameness that i was unknowingly at the time connected with, of the pure joyful love tears which fell that day you were near, which frightened me to feel so pure loving of someone, of an eternal forever love feeling, far beyond merely meeting you like i could of, and so wanted to, but i private, where the pure eternal love for me revealed to me how i always wanted to feel, my own insecurity at the time, feeling like i boy dreaming an impossible dream, thinking the opposite of your pure loving approachable spirit as being unapproachable, well, at least as far as a partner i could spend the rest of my life with, which is how i felt that year long ago, knowing fully in my heart, it was you i could easily spend my life with, sadly, i did not come to you that day, feeling your disappointment in doing so. forgive me for that.
at the time i was thinking what could i possibly have to offer of value, as far as spiritual advice, or psychological advice, as i was a fairly new student in study of the ancient Christian antiquity.
today, i think with more insight knowingness awareness certainty, knowing fully that every step, every word, every blessed day i wake to, is 100% pure sacred of God, of all i speak with, where it is you i turn to the most, for sake of what i am now fully aware of about both of us, the pure heart constant undying love of the divine child of God pure true ‘real’ self of us, of all souls, where this is what is our sacred ONEness of the divine WILL Jesus, God, and all those who truly knew/know Jesus like we do, our awareness pure knowingness certainty feelings that are of 100% pure love of the divine child ‘real’ self, true of us, true of all, where the our sacred ONEness divine WILL of Jesus, God and all those who knew/know like we do is to bring others into awareness knowingness certainty we already are of daily, the pure heart of the artist, film production, all envolved, even if not of the connectedness pure love we are of yet, knowing eventually they WILL, of what is the divine WILL objective of God.
we know already the sacred grace walk of our sanctuaries of meditation. I have witnessed the pure heart of you many many times in the past, not realizing you were at the time of an evolved awareness i now am fully of awareness of, of my own awareness of my divine child ‘real’ self which reveals the clarity knowingness certainty……………without doubt!
truly we know, child poverty cannot be irraticated from the earth merely on our own, rather it requires all souls to participate.
the obvious approach as artists, film production, is clearly that of bringing the divine child of God ‘real’ self into the awareness knowingness certainty level we are of.
without doubt, that is what is the ONEness divine WILL of Jesus, God, and all those who knew/know Jesus and God.
every day is a sacred day of blessed life, where our own time is running out to assist the world in this regard, of the many many years on life’s road we evolved apon, where we now fully embrace without doubt, every day is sacred in the eyes of Jesus, God and those who knew/know Jesus and God’s ONEness pure heart love divine WILL, which is a constant ‘aspect’ of our divine child ‘real’ self, of our greatest empowerment to increase the spiritual wealth of a world yet unknowingly gripped by spiritual poverty, of what is cause for the spiritual death voids of the children of poverty who feel the horrid empty nothingness feelings hourly, daily, death all around them.
Well, get ready world, for the unveiling of the blessed pure heart love ONEness divine WILL of Jesus, God and all those who knew/know Jesus and God.
truly, we are the ONEness connectedness of the pure heart love of Jesus(God) and all who knew/know Jesus was of God’s ONEness divine WILL constant pure heart love, of every breath, every heartbeat, every word, every blessed day a sacred day for Spiritual Wealth LIFE, of what is TRUE LIFE, constant pure heart eternal undying love of the divine child of God pure true ‘real’ self of ALL souls, what Jesus and those of the ONEness knowingness awareness knew was/is true of us ALL.
forever more
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hey, are you serious about a world stage tour of fundraising?
of course you are!\
i was thinking we could invite all the artists, musicians of the world to it, like the band U2, for sure we know Elton John will come, Paul McCartney without a doubt!
i don’t want to leave mention of anyone out, and rather invite everyone to a three day concert event that does not stop, 24/7, like Woodstock!
no artist is to be excluded according to genre! That is the rule!
we need all souls of participation to irradicate child poverty from the earth. FACT.
the most important aspect of this event is the launching of the connectedness ‘Momentum Constant WILL, which is of the blessed constant ‘aspect’ of the divine child of God ‘real’ self, once they come fully into connected awareness within.
without doubt, this would be the most emotionally charging good WILL event ever seen in history, merely by seeing what is possible, of EVERYONE INVITED, including motivational speakers, such as the President of the United States, who we know WILL come!
ONEness Divine WILL of God!
YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
make is so!
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there are considerations of long term approach of experts in the world as regards irraticated Child Poverty in the world, who are fully tuned into what works.
obviously the shift from spiritual poverty to spiritual wealth connectedness has the fallout affect/effect/direct/indirect impact on so many souls, where government leaders in the world take notice, and connect just like any soul, and seriously sit down and fully embrace what matters most in life is not the economy and financial wealth, rather it is the pure heart love connectedness wise compassion equality we all can experience with one another everywhere we go in the world, the true lifting of all souls out of hell into the kingdom of heaven.
i feel only thru the motivational empowerment good WILL of the artists, film production and such, are we able to make the shift a reality, where we have witnessed the momentum of such events in the past that were of the affect/effect/direct/indirect cause for change in many areas of life thruout history.
truly we KNOW 100% without doubt, it is the ONEness divine WILL constant pure love connectedness that WILL make all things possible in the future for all eternity, and we ARE ‘that’ of the ONEness divine WILL constant pure love connectedness, of what is most sacred, most blessed in feeling of our divine child of God pure true ‘real’ self every blessed day yet to come forever more.
Jesus loves ALL souls of the world forever more
God loves ALL souls of the world forever more
We love ALL souls of the world forever more
God blesses ALL souls of the world forever more
Holy! Holy! Holy! is every scared day yet to come!
forever more
bless you bless you bless you
peace be to this house
peace be to you
and peace be to you
forever more
thank you Jesus thank you
bless you Jesus bless you bless you bless you
thank you God thank you
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i feel the lead statement for these events to be ‘Irradicating Child Poverty WorldWide’.
i also feel we need to BE of the compelling divine WILL to return EVERY YEAR of the same organized event, where film footage updates, such as interviews with these children retreived from death get to speak to the audiences via world wide telecasts, of their giving thanks, and the obvious joyfulness of their brightly coloured new clothes, dancing about, of exceeding joyfulness, and not the previous broken spirited child of the horrid empty nothingness feelings they were of daily.
there is no greater importance in life than encouraging love, compassion, wise equality in the heart, mind, body, spirit and soul of the children of the future generations, of all souls of the world, young and old.
i am not leaving this world in it’s current unloving state, so don’t even think i am going any where other than annoying you ALL!
forever more
bless you bless you bless you
you are blessed blessed blessed
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get on the phone!
let’s get the momentum flowing motion going!
RIGHT NOW!
not tomorrow!
start making the calls RIGHT NOW!
bless you bless you bless you
you are constantly blessed blessed blessed
forever more
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the yearly thing is what is most important, i feel, in so many regards……….
everything from the open door policy of invitation to ALL artists, where new up and coming artists get the opportuninty to be heard for the first time on a world stage, and they get to meet with their mentor fellow artists, of jam session hang outs set up near, a full on event of whatever anyone can think of, like selling musical instruments, schools of learning, and of course the sacred heart t-shirts of a child of pover smiling, who was not ever of poverty when born from the flawless source we came from!
we could end Child Poverty within a short time period, where it is the momentum of the YEARLY event which keeps all souls connected to WHAT WE ALL ARE!
LOVE! LOVE! LOVE!
COMPASSION! COMPASSION! COMPASSION!
WISDOM! WISDOM! WISDOM!
EQUALITY! EQUALITY! EQUALITY!
ONENESS! ONENESS! ONENESS!
JOY! JOY! JOY!
forever more
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as regards the ‘momentum’ we may surpise our SELF!
truly, the overflowing abundance of the human spirit connectedness has not fully occured yet, of what makes possible the Kingdom of Heaven on earth.
there is no other way.
ONE WAY DIRECTION!
UP out of hell !!!!!!!!!!!
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hey, good morning!!!!!!
some more free flowing loving thoughts for you today………
i want to say, “i 100% know how if feels to be you physically!”
however; “I DON’T HAVE BREASTS, ok, so stop with that, WILL you? lol
just thought i would mention last nights reflections!
ya, i know, why are you there and i am here? i thought that too.
stop thinking that i am struggling. Truly i tell you, i am not. Everything all around you, is meant for you, to nurture and protect one who is of great importance for many many souls of the future yet to come. Do not consider all that which is around you as materialistic, rather of what is able to nurture and protect you, a blessed pure of heart immortal free spirit like Jesus and Mary. There is no value at all in any of the things around you, rather, the pure of heart constant love blessed feelings is what is only of any value in life from beginning to end, our own experience of the pure love devoid of doubt exceeding grace feelings we feel which reveals the truth of this.
take for example, of my own life’s journey on the road of life, where at one time, i found myself stripped of everything, back when the construction business Dad and i owned collapsed(economic collaspe of 1989). I literally found my self standing in a day where everthing was gone, of no money in my pocket, no place to live, no food, no one there to turn to, mortified to not have any food to eat. Who did i turn to? My Mom undying love. I said, “Mom, i am stranded, no money, calling collect from a pay phone, the company collapsed and the creditors came and took everything, all the trucks and equipment locked and sealed by a shiriff, the landlord close eviction.” She cryed.
Of couse like any mother, she came to my aid right away, where her and i were always best friends in life, still are. When i arrived safe and sound, the blessed feeling of having a warm shower was sacred in feeling to me. The first bite of food was sacred to me. Everything became pure sacred appreciation thankfulness for me, glad to be alive.
That is what matters, the sacred pure love appreciation thankfulness of everything all around us, where none of the materialistic (boastfulness) things are of any value, rather the pure creature comfort of everything is what is of value for sake of that the divine child of God ‘real’ self YOU is able to be of a blessed safe place of comfort so that you may BE at ease every moment of every blessed sacred day, where you are chosen by God, because of who you really really are, of a TRUE blessed pure of heart soul God knows is only pure in loving compassion pure feelings for other souls God knows you have become more fearless in BEing your TRUE NATURE, a blessed sacred mirror for the precious loving TRUE NATURE of all souls to see(feel) and bare witness of (their Self), of what is our own awareness connectedness in our sacred meditative sancturary which has revealed with clarity our awareness of that indeed, we are pure of heart.
I am here before you with the divine WILL wisdom of God that my divine child of God ‘real’ self, pure of heart like your own, who has dwelled along time with Jesus and God, internalizing the Sage wisdom of Jesus(God), where i want you to know this day, God is instructing me the same way he instructed Jesus, asking me questions that God knows my pure of heart divine child ‘real’ self is ready to answer. This is ongoing for me daily since i surrendered what belongs to the immortal spirit of Jesus, my body, heart, mind, spirit and soul.
just a quick note; the pure of heart immortal spirit of Jesus and my own pure of heart immortal spirit share the same body, sometimes of a duality disconnectedness at times, other times of the exact sameness pure of heart love of Jesus, of experience exactly like the other night of your pure of heart immortal spirit coming to me.
we are immortal spirits.
it is important that you fully realize who you really really are in the eyes of Jesus, Mary, me, God and those who are of the exact sameness pure of heart immortal spirit, which i suspect you already have and do.
with that said, it is unrealistic to go around expecting others to be of the awareness of who you really really are, of the exact sameness blessed immortal spirit of the immortal spirit realm.
and likewise, we cannot be of useless unwise judgemental egotistic falsehood either, because all souls are capable of coming fully into awareness of who they really really are just as we have. The obviousness we see thru the veil which only the pure of heart immortal spirits are able to see, is the wise knowingness awareness certainty of the souls snared by the generational falsehoods which do snare their heart, mind, body, spirit and soul into what we know is clearly toxic illnesses for their divine child ‘real self immortal spirit which is asleep in ignorance, of all souls which do not yet realize the eternal Sage wisdom exists, able to be internalized, of the only wisdom which brings fully their divine child ‘real’ self into knowingness awareness certainty of who they really really are, immortal pure of heart spirits of exact sameness of the eternal spirit realm.
i have traveled thru time in the spirit realm, by means of the pure of heart peering into the spirit realm, where i have seen Jesus baring witness to the horrid empty nothingnesses of when he walked the earth, exact sameness compassion as the my own pure of heart which also knows 100% the pure of heart compassion i feel while of baring witness to the exact same empty nothingness voids today which exist today like they did then, of the very same thing which was cause for these voids then as today, the unknowingly unwise spiritual poverty of the souls who are unaware of God’s Sage wisdom meant for the immortal pure of heart spirits we know we are, just as Jesus knew he was, of his own spirit realm clairvoyant experiences which 100% reveal the existence of the clairvoyant ability of the pure of heart children of God who come into full awareness of their ability to peer into the spirit realm which does exist, which you and i now know fully, without doubt, it is TRUE.
do not be fearful of the yet unwise souls in the world, for they are not of our comprehension (yet). There is no reason to be alarmed by the pure of heart immortal spirits, rather, what is alarming is the absurd mindtrap fearful falsehood ego mentalities, is it not, able to make us feel the same lessor feelings we feel as not pure of heart, bitter in feeling, not true in feeling, false useless absurd please move away from now! kinda feeling.
turning towards the pure of heart pure love compassion is by means of the Sage wisdom of God that God wants for the immortal spirits who are of greatness for sake of the souls yet to come. You have to embrace fully that the human being is an eternal creature able to reproduce eternally, as the greatest empowerment as a wise immortal spirit, of our 100% certainty of what is of our sacred lives while yet here with the many souls today, of our understanding of the matrix constant affect/effect/direct/indirect connectedness we know to be true, where our ONEness divine WILL of God, is what is of our every breath, every heartbeat, every step, every word, every sacred blessed day as immortal wise spirits, of who you really really are in the eyes of God, and all the immortal spirits.
as a pure of heart immortal spirit, i have been peering thru the veil, just as Jesus and the other pure of heart immortal spirits did/do, where constantly i am a humble student of 100% surrendered body, heart, mind, spirit and soul, where it is the immortal spirits of the spirit realm who are teaching me daily, where i am a pure of heart young student, delighted to realize what he is experiencing, seeing, were it is sometimes comical for me of my daily walks seeing how others approach me, of the somewhat funny ego masks, like the prim and proper expensively dressed cute business guy(oh, for sure he is gay!), seething with ego looking apon me and the way i dress, as though i am beneath him, where in truth, if he truly truly knew my pure of heart, he would be in my bed instantly!!!!
what?
i told you i am a pure of heart bisexual.
be of blessed love that i am, where a precious soul in life may read these vary words and laugh out loud hysterically, exclaiming, “omg, that was you on the subway this morning, you were like wearing that funked out indian outfit, with a huge diamond bracelet on your wrist? How did you know i was gay?”
andy responds, “OH, come on! please! there was not a single fleck of dust on you, you were smell so beautiful, what was that, Jean Paul Gaultier Cologne, nose hairs, no ear hairs, your pure of heart exceeding grace like my own, of the soft blinking eyes and smile which told me you were having sexual thoughts of me standing there? please! i am far wiser than you know, a veteran of the GLBT ghetto. Let’s make it perfectly clear ok, i know everything about YOU! So when was the last time you got laid? you seem rather desperate to find a boyfriend! I know the feeling well, bin there, done that many times. Just hang out in the ghetto everyday, and God will present you with someone, just for you. Don’t get frustrated, and go easy on the booze if you need a drink. One per hour, max, so that it wears off, and you stay of descerning abiltiy, and not wake up with all your shit stolen!” lol
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Ok M, as immortal spirits, we know i am meant to be here in life by your side forever more. i promise not to be too annoying, although somedays ramble on abit.
i love sitting in the internet cafe here, watching the precious loving souls walk by, each of their own pure of heart loving spirit, not know a pure of heart one is looking apon them compassionately of only love, connecting with those of obvious struggle, of those of at ease fun laughing self’, like the kids who skip down the street, the boastful proud loud, the working class stiffs like my self, the drunken indian, the drug dealer, the junky, the musician, the oh so beautiful girl, “Hey, wait up girl, you gotta sec, im Andy, a bisexual of the GLBT ghetto of twenty years, you wanna hang out sometime?”
“come on girl, you know my love is pure and true!”
and like you, i need you too!
we could be laughing right now……….well ok, we are laughing right now!
why is it so hard for you and i to go for a nice meal somewhere?
i don’t understand…………
everyday is like, i don’t want to go another day of this without you by my side!
who else can i turn to who is of our pure of heart understanding?
ok, all are of pure of heart, but they are not focused like we are, like we constantly always like to feel.
i am a pure free spirit, able to be only nurturing of your pure free spirit, pure of heart feelings.
in meditative study every day, and i write the lessons i am learning, like this mornings pure of heart meditative reflections study……..in tune with what you said the other day about transference…….
God asks, “Try and consider the importance of the soul currently surrounded by spiritual death poverty.”
i said(wrote), ” to learn(feel) the truth of contrast of the constant pure love of their pure of heart divine child ‘real’ self awarness connected feeling while in graceful meditative awareness observation mode, in contast with the unloving falsehood bitter ego masks of the souls unknowing the one who is constantly gracefully descerningly listening(feeling) and seeing(feeling), of me, and indeed, of them, however subconscious their pure of heart divine child ‘real’ self is!”
God says, “Yes, you’ve understood, by why does this comprehension lead a soul towards God?”
i said(wrote), “BEcause the divine child pure of heart ‘real’ self realizes there are no souls of his higher subtle intellect awareness knowingness certainty comprehensions in the world of which to learn further, evolve further into the pure of heart State of BEing of their awakened immortal spirit of who they really really are, of the exact sameness connectedness within and with the immortal spirits who are exactly sameness of pure of heart like the pure of heart divine child pure of heart ‘real’ self immortal self they have come fully into knowing, of the ONEness of God’s divine WILL for sake of their precious loving pure of heart blessed child of God ‘real’ self, constantly loved by God and the other immortal spirits of the spirit realm that DOES EXIST!!!”
God says, “You are correct! Life and Lift are of God, from which all souls emanates! Contemplate this wel and you too shall rise from the spiritually dead forever more, unable to be troubled by any unwiseness, by means of your wise compassion pure of heart awareness knowingness certainty you now are of, without absurd fearful doubt like the fearful egotistic falsehood useless absurd unloving bitter doubtfulness masks of the generational falsehood teachings that snare the many souls!”
i love my relationship with God and the immortal spirits which are of NO FEAR, and wise pure of heart awareness like my own!
you are constantly blessed blessed blessed and loved by God and the immortal spirits ONEness!
bless you bless you bless you
peace be with you
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pure of heart wise immortal spirits of the spirit realm like Jesus i know i am. Jesus knew the existence of the invisible(veiled) spirit realm of the immortal pure of heart spirits like our own, just as we have experienced the truth of our awareness, so too did/does Jesus and those of the awareness, without doubt, where the spirit realm is only visible by the pure of heart divine child of God ‘real’ self. It is the constant pure of heart love connectedness of the eternal immortal spirit of the divine child ‘real’ self which fearlessly clairvoyantly connects with the pure of heart love of other eternal immortal spirits, such as Jesus and Mary.
of the immortal thinking wise child comes the pure of heart compassion for all unborn children of God yet to come of the eternally reproducing human being, where pure of heart love tireless encouragement is what is constantly of ease of the immortal spirit of the divine child of God ‘real’ self, a connectedness of no time constraint past, present and future, not so much of what is priority, rather what is pure and true constant pure of heart wise compassionate feeling we are of, merely by slowing into the exceedingly graceful State of BEing meditative awareness like we do and have done for so long.
indeed, without doubt, i know you are an immortal spirit, of my own awareness which reveals the TRUTH.
there is much to speak about, of my reflections, as i WILL do, as i have been doing, of my ongoing learning evolving. It is really really amazing study, the spirit realm! So pure in feeling, beyond anything else in life!
well ok, sex is awesome, but this is amazing to feel as well, although i suppose sex is not seperate in feeling from the pure of heart love feelings between two loving souls, yes?
well, ok, i was not seperate last night!………………albeit, seperate…………….i have a really really great imagination!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol
made you smile!
oh how i love you so!
eternally, i always want to be of the pure love feelings with you, knowing you too feel the same!
blessed blessed blessed is God’s wisdom!
bless you bless you bless you
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Lady, since you haven’t blogged in a while I’ve had to post this one about you: http://31dreamers.blogspot.com/2009/01/when-cat-flips-bird.html
http://www.imeem.com/people/zqHNG53/music/CP7aL2Mn/party_animals_do_wah_diddy_diddy/
i suppose the bisexual issue of acceptance is a reality check for me?
that is what i tell myself when i get impatient within, wondering if you want to meet me, knowing you do, yet waiting for a concrete certainty from you, of like, hey, how does………whatever place……….sound.
what is considered normal life, is it not?
ah, my insecure side is showing again.
i suppose you have your reasons, which i have not thought thru, the whole sensitive timing thing, and yet i think to myself, what about the sensitivity of Andy disconnect feeling?
we are not any different in life people, 100% equality, across all unwise falsehood divisional barriers, and for you who think otherwise, you are not truly wise yet of what is the flawless pure of heart constant TRUTH.
anyway, thought you might be around today, guess not.
anything would be nice! 😀
uncertainty sucks!
my own worse enemy at times, and yet, am i not always here endlessly of LIFE and LIGHT words?
ONEness divine WILL of the pure of heart of the at ease ‘real’ self.
rant over…………..
for those who cannot accept the bisexual Andy, then you don’t truly love him
i should be experience joyfulness in the physical realm with someone right now………….end of conversation.
ah, she is likely have fun with someone else by now Andy…………as usual.
to my new spiritual connection andy(you can now call me woody)you are the first of my children,now you can spred my word of god here my words”this is the dawning of the age of aquarius”you don’t have to beleve in me because i beleve in you.i want my idenentity kept secret but you will know me by the tattoo’s i have.firstly i’ll tell you my beleifs i’m a celtic druid i am a pagan i have a celtic knot in the center of my back a celtic band on my right arm a yin yan on my left shoulder and trible markins on right shoulder and bottom of my back.spred my word to your freinds belevers and non belvers.i won’t be in touch for about a week because i’m going on a fact finding mission to egypt(TO THE “VALLEY OF THE KINGS”)so be patient my freind i will be back
i am not trustable?
wrong………i am more trustable than most any, of Jesus and God’s trust.
Jesus and God 100% know and trust me, it is without question that they do, for they truly know ‘me’, just as they know you.
i get like this when i am tired………just ignore it………
why do i feel so unimportant to you at times?
am i that insecure?
apparently i am……….argh………..another few weeks, months, i have to get past this beatup state i am yet in……..
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what is amazing, is how Jesus loved his enemy, of no soul which was his enemy, his wise knowingness certainty awareness of the pure of heart divine child of God ‘real’ self pure of heart he was constantly of connectedness with, till a day where he saw thru every falsehood ego of any soul, the condition of their soul unattended, unnurtured, unprotected, where all souls came from where he came from, from love of God’s womb, the source of our flawless pure of heart love.
rather, what is the TRUTH an immortal spirits sees(feels) with 100% clarity while of dwelling in the kingdom of heaven halo perspective, is the existence of the generational falsehood masks of the divine child ‘real’ self asleep in ignorance, not knowing God is there speaking thru the immortal spirits of the ONEness with God, of what is the ONEness divine WILL sacred pure of heart words an immortal spirit speaks, feels, contemplates like we do.
[someone grabs the remote off the coffee table and changes the channel, exclaim, “who is this guy? fuck, he makes no sense at all!”
~ the abstract veil of fearful distracting uncertainty pervades the atmosphere all around, thinking it is wise, not of the comprehension, nor even of desire to know what is unfailing TRUTH, of what is continue cause for generational spiritual poverty, ‘Crucial Lacking of Desire for Wisdom.”
~ some seed fell on…………………………….
oh yeah, i forgot that one………
The Power of the ALL is what eventually draws ALL into the kingdom of heaven awareness, however many generations it WILL take……….it is the divine ONEness WILL of God of the ONEness Equality immortal spirits chosen by God, because their pure of heart realized FULLY, without doubt, the immortal spirits of God are the most wise attending, nurturing and protecting, constantly.
i love to study, but i like to have fun too!
in case anyone was wondering………. 😀
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ooooooooooo…….a real druid!
about time you guys showed up!
i feel your pure of heart presence!
what you look for has already come, within you, are all the answers. God knows the ability of the pure of heart sincere student who comes to God, and surrenders before God, where only thru humble humility is your soul able to open wide into the fearless state of awarenes of your pure of heart divine child ‘real’ self.
only then, does one realize fully, God choses you because you chose God.
sorta like any student who does not feel a teacher is stupid, yes? is the student able to learn with a closed heart, mind, body, spirit and soul?
the spirit realm is constantly there at all times, and God is constantly there, where only thru 100% awareness certainty does a student genuinely come to God with their heart fully open to purity awareness of the truth all around.
for those who think we should just kick back and let the world do what it wants, well, that is what disconnected uncaring apathy is, is it not? Of no concern for this generation or the next.
in truth, the pure of heart pure love, once one feels it fully within, is the most sacred feeling of all, healing exceeding grace and calm, of no anxiety fears like that found in the world.
overflowing abundance of wise exceeding joyful pure of heart love is what true happiness is.
i am merely a student leaving my daily reflections here as i learn.
the learning is of macro thinking connectivity, and where one learns one thing, it later leads into another macro thinking connected lesson, where all the wisdom unites as one perspective awareness, the kingdom of heaven perspective halo of great power, beyond all the dark forces, because the dark forces are not of the comprehension to attack that which they cannot see, and yet the dark forces sense the presence of the pure of hear light which emanates, shining into darkness, desolving the darkness back into the nothingness from which it came, of what darkness actually is, empty nothingness voids devoid of the pure of heart love, wisdom and compassion, of what is the petty ego falsehood generational snarings yet in the world, just as Jesus bared witness to while walking the earth, who is now an eternal immortal spirit(Holy Spirit), and knew he was while in the a body, just as i too know i am, of my out of body experiences which reveal this to me with clarity.
cool yes?!!!! 😀
ok fine………….write me of as a nut case………..see ya around sometime………….
feels like spring, yes?!!!
andy unimportance is just a state of mind?now i’m going to preform a mirical (“there is no such thing as mental illness? just cognative brain dysfunction.”)its’ in your gene’s you ither got it or you don’t. im off on hol’s now c u swn woody…
Hey mothers..
So i know what ya thinking..where you been mother? Well you will soon find out ….I love ya xXx
ya, i know that. I know fully my importance by means of the pure of heart ONEness divine WILL i am with the immortal spirit real and God.
it’s just where i am in life right now, that’s all, got the shit kicked out of me this past year, which started with the bashers who fired me from my long standing career. i saw it coming, and actually was grateful, as i knew i could not work with non-unpolished-professionals, where the professional from head office who had the task of issuing my termination papers, said, “you won’t thrive in this company Andy!”
i said, “ya, i know, i have worked with the best and the worse, and so far most of the key players in this company are not of the professional mindset i am accustomed to, knowing i cannot stay.”
this same individual later quit the company as well to leave for a better more foreward thinking company of positive likemindedness. He too was of experience in his career, where he recognized me as one who saw what i saw, a company with the old school management approach with staff, of break the spirit, crack the wip, beaten down morale of low productivity, high turnover of staff and poor public relations. He did me a favor.
i am clear of chemical brain disorders which we now know is hereditary, of assessment by the mental health community. I have more of my Mom in me than my Dad, where my Dad was of the heretitary ‘blue blood syndrome’ of the Danes of Danmark, a blue blood viking!
i am a mix of the blue blood Dane and blue blood English(mostly), cousin to the Queen.
the cognitive brain dysfunction i am not yet clear of, of what is transference. My own wisdom and awareness sees with clarity the future of my ‘real’ self, now that i am coming clear of those not of pure of heart like i know i am.
woody? what is that, a slang gay slur of the ghetto?
we have a club called Woody’s in the ghetto.
think what you want of me, i don’t care, i know i am a bisexual………100%.
and i am to 100% love both, of what is 100% WHOLENESS, not of duality inconsideration like those who do not know fully both sides of their brain, of both the female and male primal innate sexual behavour where i know i am 100% both, of pure awareness as such, i am both primal male/female……….100% loving and respectful of both, allowing both to dwell openly, as a true bisexual of the GLBT community, under ONE SKY, ONE WORLD, ONE ETERNAL HUMAN BEING.
blessings to all.
enjoy the holiday!
life is one fantastic joyful loving holiday, is it not?
when we are of those of the ONEness pure of heart loving spirit, which i know 100% we are, and always WILL BE.
the dark clouds are clearing, the beautiful pure spirit feeling.
xx bisou quand même
cryptic mother
having or seeming to have a hidden or ambiguous mothering?
ya, i know i am that to many.
or are you refering to you?
you are that too.
i have had lot’s of mothers along the road of my gay lifestyle who were there for me, always of loving embrace acceptance like so many were while of my cocoon isolation gay lifestyle since 1994, which i needed and was truly a blessing for me in accepting my female side, eternally thankful of all the veterans before me, of me now the indirect thruput likewise with others now, easily so.
the bisexual side though is strangely more difficult of many dynamics related to my homosexual self.
namely the openness of the gay fun loving brotherly/sisterly love personality i am of with those in the ghetto, of the at ease joyfulness real encouragement of the real gay self i am within, not of duality with the heterosexual self within, rather it is the external phobia i am contending with, as one who is well adjusted sexually of both, of self acceptance, but not of self acceptance of most females of the hetersexual world, which i am not even looking for out clubbing.
i am in GLBT group therapy now, as well as my usual weekly personal one on one therapy sessions.
so is that what you mean? You are the cryptic gay encouraging mother?
you could of told me sooner, where in truth, i don’t need any more mothers, thanks anyway, i suppose.
so is that it? Is that all you have to say? Go back to my gay life?
why can people not speak directly openly like ordinary people.
as in, “Hey, i enjoy being around you, you wanna hang out sometime?
fine. go do what you want.
i prefer direct elaborate extensive specific fearless assertiveness.
where uncertainty is for morons
feel free to correct me if i am wrong.
is that your way of politely saying you are not interested in a bisexual?
i was thinking today, i want to know directly from you what your you want?
as in a specific direct answer, no beating around the bush any more, just talk like ordinary people do, so that i can either get on with life and let go of this ongoing seeming endless nowhereness direction feeling, albeit, i am of direction with or without you.
why not just tell me exactly, specificly, directly, yes, no, so that i can get on with the direction in life that i am to be.
wondering is toxic, albeit i am not of wondering deep within, where it is my therapist on top of me to be of real life direction in seeking a real life potential partner…….i said, “i am!”
it is nice to know the truth of what another is thinking, anticipating, where there is no uncertainty, and in truth, i don’t want you to be of uncertainty any longer either, as it is a stuckness place that is toxic.
we are all worthy and deserving of feeling loved and loving without any doubt with another. I know i am that, and so are you, without question, without words to say, a flawless feeling, no words required, of the pure of heart state of flawless being, of quite silence awareness, while of the stillness of our meditative sanctuary where we know the flawless pure feeling……..without doubt.
you hint at it, but not in the real life sensibility certainty yet.
at some point, a person loses interest, or feels rejected by what is considered normal consideration in ordinary life.
so why not end the uncertainty for both of us. i want to know…………what i already KNOW……….without any doubt.
and yet, i already am without doubt connectedness of the pure of heart self, am i not?
are we not?
contain your fear’s.
oh fearless one.. love is near, when your head is clear.
i should be a poet, would be more exciting than growing old all alone, hey did you see Morgan’s blog
http://31dreamers.blogspot.com/2009/01/when-cat-flips-bird.html
the modonna pussy cat that point’s the finger, i’m still laughing sooooooooooo funny
sorry about that………the shit kicking i took still manifests it’s ‘old’ unwise self at times, of which i asked you to ignore earlier, knowing my self well, of daily mood swings unstableness i yet am of at times.
my best time of day is the mornings, of clear mind, where as my day prolongs, i become the lessor focused emotional unstable ranting ‘old’ self mentality of useless absurd utterances, although all utterances are indicative of something pure and true as regards my beaten bashed in self-esteem of what is my entire life’s journey thus far, of yet unresolved inner uncertainties of the generational falsehood egos of my old self which i am yet stripping my self of.
the pure truth wisdom awareness of my yet wise pure descerning of the generational ego falsehood duality within(stripping of) is ongoing.
this morning however i entered the Holy of the Holies, the final stage of 100% united oneness in the bridal chamber with the IMMORTAL SPIRIT REALM of the pure of heart IMMORTAL SPIRITS, of what the bridal chamber IS(Immortal Spirits), of FULL understanding deciphering of the words of Jesus,
“Bessed BE he/she who IS, before he/she cam into (FULL) BEing(wise awareness), for he/she who IS has always BEen and always shall(WILL) BE.”
the extensive deciphering of 20 years is complete this day, of my fully entering into the Holy of the Holies gate of surrendered spirit with the Holy Spirits Oneness of the Eternal Immortal Spirit Realm of no time constaint.
It is a FULL 100% pure awareness wise certainty awakening pure of heart knowingness of what every single word of the Immortal Spirit of Jesus(God) means, of a pure 100% exact sameness connectedness that only the pure of heart are FULLY able to come fully into the awakened pure wise state awareness in full oneness with the Immortal Spirit of Jesus(God). “I AM ‘THAT’!!!”
pray God that i am alotted the time to publish all the deciphering work which is extensive and now complete, which i have written in books. I will begin today to release the deciphered works. My greatest fear is that these books will not be published, for whatever reason, of the forces in my life which may prevent full publishing, what of the creditors currently seeking warrant for my arrest of my yet not dealing with them thru a trustee who needs a retainer that i am not yet able to afford.
ironic if the mystery of God goes unheard because i end up in jail for 6 months, the landlord throwing all my writtings in the garbage, yes?
the compiled work is extensive and complete now, of thousands of pages which will take time. i will release some of the deciphering today to give you a full comprehensive view of “Who i reallly really AM.”
i was thinking of mailing the books to you for safe guard, as i am concerned the books will not be published in time.
ok. forgive my absurdness at times.
i am not my sanctuary wise surrendered spirit of God’s sanctuary at times with you, of my yet emotional unstable at times days. forgive me for that.
in truth, ‘I AM’ a pure of heart surrendered body, heart, mind, spirit and soul for Jesus(God) to have, of my constantly asking forgiveness at times of the Immortal Spirit of Jesus(God) who dwells in with me.
ok. here comes the first deciphering, which is yet being expanded and elaborated on into fuller macro thinking pure of heart awareness wise connectivity understanding which clarifies what the subconscious yet asleep in ignorance divine child of God pure of heart ‘real’ self YOU of us all is subconscious of two things;
1/Subconscious INTERNAL awareness of pure connectedness with the ‘CONSTANT SOURCE’ from which we all came from and thru, ingrained in the core of our BEing.
2/ Subconscious EXTERNAL seeking of FULL understanding comprehension of wisdom ‘THAT’ clarifies who we really really are, of what “I AM” truly means.
i will publish what i can today…………..hang on to your hats, as this IS complete comprehension unveiling CLARITY!
blessed blessed blessed
sacred sacred sacred
IS
the pure of heart divine Child of God constant pure loving ‘real’ self YOU!!! forever more
thank you Jesus, Mary, Madonna, God thank you
bless you Jesus, Mary, Madonna, God bless you bless you bless you
ok……here it comes!!!
warning………this is pure sanctuary oneness comprehension clarity which no human BEing has fully understood until now!!!
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in order to comprehend the deciphering, you have to 100% realize FULLY that EVERY SINGLE WORD is of the same oneness objective!
if you do not fully embrace the pure truth of this, then you will not enter FULLY into the oneness certainty of the Holy of the Holies bridal chamber which ends all uncertainty of who you really really are, the divine child of God pure of heart constant pure love, pure in wise knowingness certainty, of constant pure love compassionate wisdom of ALL TRUTHs.
the deciphering is also the only way we are to BE able to come together in oneness without useless fear of seperation, once you fully understand what unknowingly unwise seperation refers to.
ok……publishing now!
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the pressures of life we sign our self up for, do we not?
at one point i was putting in over 120 hours per week, working three jobs to finance my upstart business which never made past the upstart research phase, in seeking a niche market, although some amazing business idea insights of many niche markets. I was investing all my time and resources into it, and eventually became burnt out from it.
anyway i signed myself up to it, and i signed myself out of it, where today, i truly love the 100% autonomy life i am living now, part time work, no pressure at all, a free spirit, love it!
i am merely of small pressures of resolving a payment of a Supreme Court Trustee to clean up the mess left behind, of a small fee for a big cleanup mess, which i am sure they will take payments if i recall, of my last failed business venture.
that’s it for me, no more business venture pressures!
If it is not fun and i am passionate about it, i ain’t doing it!
i have learned alot about what life is and what life is not, eternally thankful of where i am today! Truly!
i have nothing but freedom of my pure loving free spirit to look forward to now, to go do whatever i want!
love it!
what an excellent idea extending the tour!
what with unbelievable ticket sales that sell out in minutes, it only makes sense to extend a great show, which could included added material, after all, Madonna is the one in charge, is she not?
what a great idea!
Saw u in B.A and it was wonderful…
Friends are our life, without them life it’s like a “nonsense time”
What’s up with Andy,
God sound’s like he think’s Candy Alien is madonna, plus he’s obsessed & in love with her, not healthy seriously.. as if…
anyway.. Andy chill a little, life is too short for DRAMA !
i posted some interesting video’s for you on my Blog
marcofaccio1.blogspot.com
Enough psychological bullshit, what are you trying to achieve, Mirroring me like you do, how many time’s do i have to tell you i can see right through you..
please don’t insult my intelligence
please don’t test me anymore
please don’t transfere you FEAR’s onto me..
“I AM”
what more would you like to know about me ?
Get Fucked
it is not a question of fear but a question of understanding of the world.
even you just one part of the world…
I heard you laughing out aloud today !
if it’ wasn’t for the fact that you make me laugh so much.
you are hilarious, does not mean I’ll give in but 😉
it’s not so much that i am stalling, but i am not quite sure what my purpose is, that is why i have not net found my way or blazed my trail in the world, i was hoping you could help me with that, after all you do know me, better than i know myself sometimes, & there’s nothing wrong with asking for help , i always pay my due’s, what your price, don’t be cheap I’ll pay top $
sorry……………i don’t know what’s wrong with me, my mood swings are so intense lately.
i am not angry, i am hurting deeply within.
all the intense emotional junk has brought the intense emotional junk from my past, a double wham that sees me collapse into breakdowns.
i had some beautiful visions of you and i in some beautiful places in the world, and i thought to myself, why would i run from such a beautiful life with someone i know i truly love, profoundly so, in the core of my being, the same depth of love i have for Jesus, the scared boy afraid to dream such beautiful dreams he wants to live, knowing i truly want to, where it is the love we have for each other that makes these beautiful places feel so beautiful.
i have the love for you that makes these beautiful places truly beautiful.
in the dream, i was there, thousands of miles away from everything, not a care in the world, so free, so at ease in being the one you love being with.
why am i so postive one minutes and so fucking negative the next?
i do have a fairly major stressor i have to address yet, and realize that is part of the inner anxiety shit storm i find myself in.
wow……when i go off, i really go off, over what i thought to myself, why all this nonsense negative bullshit that no one wants to hear or feel, especially me.
i have been this fucked up in years.
i guess the breakup of my 13 year relationship is hitting me harder than i thought. We think we are ok, we get out, and then we get those moments of the day we collapse into fucking spirally emotional turmoil junk, fucked up thinking, lashing out at anyone near……ya, im fucked up, no question there.
normal……….considering everything
my self-confidence comes and goes.
what a jerk i must seem to you at times.
it’s really bad for me right now……..you have no idea.
i have a something major wrong.
my therapist said to write you a letter, but don’t send it.
a real hand written letter.
of course the real Andy and his feelings of love for you, knowing you are only deserving of genuine loving sincerity is all i want to say.
oh, fuck that, just marry me and i can annoy you everyday with what i have to say!
i don’t want to hinder your own healing at this such an emotional time for us both.
i am not obsessed with her.
i am obsessed with a beautiful dream of the most happy souls the world has ever seen.
however, i am not mentally/emotionally capable at this time, of my own break up that is hitting me more than i thought it would, as i still love my ex, and know he too still loves me. Precious delicate sensitive souls we all truly are.
ok……..i want to say, i have made some new spiritual awarenesses because of you, instrumental to the ongoing research into the pure of heart pure love of our divine self. I do admit, i am obsessed with this study. I see how i write, such haste, and i realize i am of anxiety when writting, not of the comfort at ease self i am while in meditation. I am going to write like i used to, not on a blog, and just of the santuary study, publish later after re-editing, as there is anxiety fear in the writings which go against anyone reading it, failing in the objective of the understanding so to speak……..of which i am evolving in.
ya, i am not tuned in spiritually as much as you, it’s true, but you don’t have to hit me with it like you do, and rather, say, ah, andy, try letting go of inner sadness/anger angst frustration that is coming thru, fear based, unspiritual inner junk, unfocused.
i know you are wiser in this regard, and embrace the truth of this of my observations of you as one who is of healthier evolved inner peace spiritually. It was just the way you said it, and how you ended it that tossed me for a loop.
i am a best friend to souls in life, starting with my own, and i am useless any other way, where if i don’t get zoned in within, what good am i to anyone, including my own self?!
i need to go out, have a few drinks and fuck my brains out all night long! lol
great stress reliever, yes?
i am healthy sexually, no problem there, of daily/hourly sex.
ahhhhhhhhhh……..i don’t think anyone loves sex as much as i do, not possible.
i am not addicted to it though. Actually i like to go sometimes a week without sex, and then when i do have sex, it is like so fucking good!!!!!!!! Expecially by the third, forth, fifth orgasm!
lol
my focus for the next six months is going to be me, and my spiritual focusing, of no serious relationships, just platonic……….or at least i will try.
i cannot be with you till after this time, as i am truly fucked up, and like i said, i don’t want to bring you any of it. I need to back off, relax, deep breaths.
sorry
ok, here is the anxiety list;
1/ joyful thoughts of my bisexuality, returning to a female, are intense, of heaven memories of my previous heterosexual life till i was 29. This is a big one of me, seriously!!! no pun intended. lol
2/ so overwhelming joyful thoughs of my bisexuality with someone with a perfect body, heart, mind, spirit and soul like my own, i had not thought possible i could one day marry Madonna!
3/ running away from my boring boring boring ass life to be so fucking happy fucking everyday with Madonna! lol
*cough*
4/ just thinking about her sexually makes my sexual chakras glow so brightly, it radiates out the top of my head!!!!!!!!! lol
it’s TRUE!!!!!!!!
5/ is my body her type? not sure on this one, and yet feel, if of genuine love for one another, that is what matters most, and the fact we are both of healthy sexually attitude, well, it could only BE AMAZING, no matter if she has more muscle mass than i do, a good thing for me! I suppose a gym with a trainer could whip my sorry ass in to shape, which i know 100% i would if with her, no problem, working out together, sex in the showers, you know, what lovers love to do, fuck when ever they have the urge to!
6/ being prepared if she decides on someone else, as i am not ready mentally/emtionally, although a good night of fucking could easily remedy this, see Andy, everything is working more than just fine! Fuck me again will ya! OK!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol
fuck, i want get laid so bad, and open the flood gates to my hetersexual side again! hmmmmmm……..hey M, can i sleep with someone else in the mean time? I have to do this!
hello?
hello?
M?
fuck, she hung up me!
7/ being sensitive to her life right now, of no more bullshit fucked up words with her, as if anyone likes to hear anything other than their own heavy breathing while fucking!
ahhhhh….fuck, this is obviously something that have to work at.
hey, let’s get back to being just friends!
i promise i’ll fuck you if you want, but no serious talk of marriage or even if we will see each other again, just fuck all night long, and kick my sorry ass out the door, no breakfast, just go away, and i’ll call you if i need i feel i liked the experience with you!
ah, fuck it, what am i thinking, i am fooling myself again, thinking i healthy enough for you. At 45, i look back over my life and see how many failed relationships, failed business ventures, alcholism, Troy, how the fuck did i survive?
Jesus and God, my therapists, and happy healthy friends like you.
when i came to you two years ago, i knew what you were going thru, knowing you needed a friend, my own experience in life of just how important real friends are, who are not flaky fickle out for their own interests kind of friends, able to really kick your sorry ass! lol
well, ok, of course i always thought of you more so! duh!
i mean fuck, show me a male who would not want to sleep with you, and i’ll show you it is likely some female gay boy bottom of 20 years who forgot how to use his sex organ, recently awakened into old memories of heaven! lol
*cough*
what?
not true, i do so remember how to use it, i just forget to remember how beautiful heaven constantly IS while fucking!
ok, i won this round!
ok, clearly i embrace what i want, feel, think and need.
so it’s either with you or another female. You decide. I’ll understand if you say no.
it’s your turn for the best life has to offer. As i friend i ask you to be true to you in finding a most loving lover. And don’t just decide on the first one that comes along, ok? There are some truly amazing males in the world. Give me a whirl if you want, but in truth, i don’t think i could handle the fallout of breaking up with you, knowing it would likely cripple me for life. I just don’t want to find myself where my pure love for you is tainted in any way, not ever.
forgive my bullshit once again, which has nothing to do with you, and everything to do with how my life has been. i am toxic for you at times, and if i don’t stop, i will lose our friendship i know is of God.
blessed is the pure of heart pure love flawless feelings i have of you when i am alone.
the genuine sincere truth i do not hide from you
it is so stupid to be anything other than love
not again will i speak with you in an unloving way, knowing it is not true within if i do.
to keep asking your forgiveness will eventually annoy the fuck out of you, and i could end up losing the best fuck of my life! lol
ohhhhhhhhhhhh, for sure i won this round.
YESSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!
Andy KNOWS what he WANTS!
what was i thinking? duh!
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i am not bipolar, ok?
seriously, it’s this bisexuality issue for me, scared of rejection, as you say, run away.
what was i thinking?
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with you or another.
you know i will always love you either way, just as i always have, just as so many love you and always will, just as you love us.
forever more
blessed is how i feel each day.
i was thinking every day may be too much for either of us.
or how about if when every you want to say something?
for me, getting back to me is a great thing, and the healthier boundaries are clearly revealing how unhealth i am and how healthy i am growing now.
it is not your responsibility of friendship to fix me. It is my own.
i want to take up swimming again, and for sure the smoking issue is 100% going to happen.
i love the real healthy me i once was, calm, relaxed, healthy happy spirit, where when our body is healthy the sex is fucking amazing, yes?
and more of it too, yes?
YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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sorry for being such a jerk M, like anyone deserves or wants that fucking bullshit!
i am my own worse enemy, it’s true.
i am not trying to wack you on the face, i just want to clear all that emotional weight out from you, forgive me if my tactic’s are raw, but that is who i am & that is the most effective way..
I want you to be free, a soul that is light & loving one that hear’s the bird’s chirping in the tree’s connected to the wonderfull & loving world, that does exisit a universe of love within a universe of light within your own heart mind & soul..
and truely i say to you …
“are you not already free” ?
silly question, nah the answer is you
just clear your mind, of all the troubles that cease to exist..
manifest a thought, just one thought, no more.
picture a rose, just one thought. a pretty blue rose..
no other thought’s
now your mind is calm and free from troubled thoughts,
your now free to be, everything you’ve desired to be, free of trouble your’ve cleared away all the rubble…
now wake up & smell the rose’s
God damn it
wake up & smell the coffee
God damn it
where’s my coffee !!#@$@#
give me my coffee 🙂
now !
Madonna’s not the only one that like’s coffee..
& Andy i’m not M, i have a penis
go marry jesus,he’s more gay that Andy is..
oh sorry, latent bisexual, coming to term’s with his pussy
may it would be nice to clean little bit this blog, with new items or to take off all this bla bla…it feels like a house more and more dirty…but the artists are not easy …
and the real M comes here just one time evry two months… she does’t care if this blog is an hanted blog by the freaky freaky trapper
I need you right now, I’m out of control…. it concern’s me
I AM not of uncertainty about the love devoid of doubt Oneness I AM with Jesus, of what is love devoid of doubt Sameness Oneness of your ‘real’ Self-awareness connectedness.
I AM not hear to enslave any soul, rather to free their soul, am i not?
i do not seek to enslave Madonna, not at all, if anything, i seek to protect her from you motherfuckers who mean any harm to her pure of heart pure loving soul, of what IS generational unknowing unwiseness blindness yet in the world.
This is my opportunity with her as a true and friend till the end to say to her, why not come away from all these uncertainty ones like they are, and BE of who i know YOU are, of my own self-awareness of our preferred pure of heart pure love meditative State of BEing.
I AM here as comfort for her, like the comfort she IS for/of ‘me’.
I AM yet a student of Jesus/God, BEcoming restored of the fearless pure love without doubt feelings i once was, of what IS my ‘real’ self, and she knows the truth of this, sameness oneness I AM.
there are chances in life for two souls to come together. i realize this may be my only chance, our only chance to investigate if we are what each other looks for. I already know her ‘real’ self like my own, pure and true, and she knows that i know, of what I FEEL, our oneness sameness pure love devoid of doubt connectedness.
even is she were to go to another, i know she is of love devoid of doubt for me, as IS my love devoid of doubt for her, of a true and faithful ‘real’ friend who WILL always BE of true concern for her happiness and well BEing till my last breath of life, and beyond.
she knows the truth of this about ‘me’
i know the free spirit feeling, and indeed, i want her to BE of that free spiritedness I AM
so i reach out to her this day and extend to her my true and faithful friendship till the end, knowing I AM always going to BE of love devoid of doubt for her, just as she too is of love devoid of doubt for ‘me’, just as she is love devoid of doubt for her own children.
I AM nothing of this world in life, of no financial means, of no financial wealth and possessions, as I AM a free spirit not tethered to the mentalities which snare the world, such as insatiable desire of wealth, rather I AM of what IS beyond all the riches of the world.
I AM love devoid of doubt.
~
at times, because of my own yet healing self-esteem, weary, i fret over missing the opportunity in this short life to come together with her as her most loving lover, missing the opportunity for us to BE what i know I AM, of what i know she too IS, of her own self-awareness knowingness certainty.
If two souls don’t take time to stop and see/feel another soul who is there, then they miss the opportunity of what could be the most loving lover for them in life, of a truly healthy relationship of likeminded approach to what a health approach to positive mental/emotional/physical/sexual/spiritual well BEing IS
clearly, I AM ‘that’; of a humble student like anyone, who is of obvious sincere genuine desire in seeking understanding of what IS healthy.
I AM not perfect, althought the feelings of sex tell ‘me’ otherwise, so maybe we are perfect, were it is just these bullshit generational issues we have to confront, is it not?
I need to BE her friend right now, just as i have been thus far, of healing for us both, and she knows i will not leave her side, until she needs her space which i will give her, should she move on with another.
I AM here for her
and i know, she is yet hear for ‘me’
a God sent for one another.
here is my conclusion………..i cannot BE of another who is not of genuine sincere delightful desire of ‘me’ as I AM of them, not possible, done that one far too many times with many arrogant belittling rich folk who i walked out on.
i do not see her in the light of arrogant boastful rich , i see her pure of heart pure love devoid of doubt Spirit of Oneness Sameness i know I AM.
i will not be troubled is she chooses another, just always concerned for her health and happiness, just as i know she too is of me, of many.
so if she wants me, I AM here!
and i will stay until she moves on, and even then, i am not far away.
I AM not far away, just as she is not far away from ‘me’!
you see?
you can see ‘me’ any time you feel like ‘me’
I LOVE YOU!
bless you bless you bless you
let go of the motherfucking fears in this world.
time together, I AM always near!
ok, I AM going to speak openly as my ‘real’ self.
who I AM is a student sitting at my desk in class who took a shine to a girl in the same class, nothing more.
So i approach this girl who i see and feel is of the sameness pure of heart pure love self-awareness as my own, where in truth, the only way i am able to say this is by means of my own inner self-awareness of my pure of heart pure love feelings.
she knows the truth of this, just as i do, of what IS Oneness sameness.
so i say to the girl, hey, look what i found, it’s thirteen leather bound books burried in a clay jar for two thousand years by the true Sage monks of God(God’s Spirit), who kept the recorded words of Jesus that the Roman Empire and the early church were seeking for, crucifying those and taking the recorded words of Jesus(God’s Spirit) from them, for sake of being the only church which sought to control the uneducated masses of the people of that time. The early church and Roman Empire did not get their hands on these teachings of Jesus(God) which the Sage monks kept rewritting during the two centuries which followed the crucifying of Jesus, who burried and sealed the leather bound books in a clay jar, carbon dated to the third century.
i have been studying them for the last twenty years, and i have been internalizing the teachings which reveal the Oneness Sameness connectedness relationship that Jesus had with God, in other words, the mystery of how God spoke with Jesus is in these books, which the sage monks likely knew, and reason why they concealed it away from the brutal fear controling Roman Empire and the earlier church which sided with them, today’s Roman Catholic Church, who today, disregard these leather bound books burried in the third century.
i have alot of reflections on this which i will post on a blog, when ever you want to take alook at what i am evolving in as we speak, of my own Oneness Sameness connectedness with the Spirit of God, just as Jesus had, which you can imagine how incredible this is to ‘me’, yes?!!!
it’s mind blowing for ‘me’, actually!
in the beginning of my study, i had no idea the Self-awareness i was stepping into as i kept returning alone in a sanctuary as my peaceful by nature at ease ‘real’ self, until such a day, i came fully into realizing, omg, God is speaking directly with me in real time!
i know, abit overwhelming to hear, but is true, and i am publishing my relationship with the Spirit of God, where God is speaking in real time.
hey, i keep hearing these shortcoming words of obssession and what not with you.
listen, i am not obsessed with you, rather i am excited about what i see in you as the sameness of pure of heart pure love as my own, where the objective of Jesus and God’s WILL is of the Exceeding Joyfulness Happiness Understanding our divine child of God ‘real’ self is TRULY and FULLY able to come into BEing what it IS our divine child of God ‘real’ self we know is of constant yearning for, to constantly FEEL the love devoid of doubtful fears in the world, which prevent us from the preferred State of BEing we are of awareness of in our meditative sanctuaries where you and i go to dwell alone like we do.
I AM here as one who has grown wise in this, and merely wish to leave you with what i have come to know of what IS my yet evolving into.
sure, of course it would be truly incredible if one day you and i became the best of friends in life, of our true love feelings i sense with you to be true, and obviously more so if you feel what i feel to be true, knowing i would be of pure happiness with you, but only if you too are of the same pure love feelings know I AM of YOU!
i mean come everyone, since when did two souls ever get together in life when love is only of one soul, and not the other?
heck, i have been with many i came to love, and after being with them for awhile i came to realize they were not spiritually there i the room with me, of the pure love connectedness which IS what IS the Overflowing Abundant Exceeding Joyfulness of TWO LIKEMINDED souls in life who are of the Oneness Sameness pure of heart pure love connectedness of what IS TRUE HAPPINESS of the two souls of joyfully holding hands dancing thru every blessed day they wake to, where no soul is ever able to seperate the two of them, because the preferred State of BEing Oneness Sameness the two souls (eventually) come fully into discovery of the truth about the ‘real’ self of them both, which can only be fully discovered when BOTH are of the ‘same genuine sincere emotional honesty desire’ to do so, spending time with one another like they do.
the shortsighted embrace of the fearful uncertainty seperating word obsession hurt me, as i start to see perhaps she is turning towards embracing Andy as an obsessed fan, when in truth, he is not, and is more of the very same thing she too is seeking with another soul.
i meant it’s not like she is the only female in the world, nor is she the only one i am able to love, of many many souls i have loved along life’s road, and do, just as she has and does.
obsessed?
well fine, go think that if you want, as an excuse to pass me by, for whatever reasons, of perhaps i am not the most stable person in life, i know i am not, but at least i am working with the most highly educated professionals in the mental healthy field of one psychologist who is of three degrees, in her sixties, of 30 years field experience, and another doctor of phsychology, both of which i see each week, who are putting humpty dumpty back together, after yet another great fall in life, of many i have had.
no fall is greater than the day i learned of my first gay lover Troy’s suicide though, which is still the most impaceful core of my healing as we speak, of what is of the emotional intensity like that of a five year old, which you see from time to time, when i am upset, going off like i do, unfocused, screaming, like the days after Troy’s suicide, where i was jamming my pen into the pages of my diary, no words to say, forget the fucking words, and just feel flowing of the pure of heart pure feelings, of what is my inner child ‘real’ self who is five years old, now becoming exceedingly wise of what God is teaching him daily, in real time.
i suppose that alone is enough for most any to say, Andy’s crazy, lost it, stay away from that one!
i don’t care, ok?
as i said, there are many many beautiful females and males along life’s road who i know, i WILL BE of the Overflowing Abundant Exceeding Joyfulness HAPPINESS one day, running down the middle of the road, holding hands, kissing, dancing, inseperable by any, having found what both of us have been seeking our entire lives………………
LOVE DEVOID of DOUBT
bless you bless you bless you
my love is true
morons!
ok, so let’s say the day comes(or perhaps it already has) that we exit this cross road, and you go your way and i go mine………
i know I AM always going to BE of concern for you in life of finding true love HAPPINESS with another soul, and that is what i want for you, with ‘me’ or with another!
you know it is when we get with a lover, in the heat of the moment, the passionate love making for weeks on end, and then after months of being together, we wake and begin to realize who they really are, what they are about, the disconnectednesses we start to feel, the ego masks, the awareness of their idiosyncrisies we start to realize, and we are like, “Fuck, how did i get here! ANDY!!!!!!!!!!! get your ass back here!!!!
“fuck! i did it again! Sorry! i love you! can you come over!”
ya, sure, BE right there!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol
made you smile!
~ ok, how about some more Oneness Sameness learning with Jesus, shall we?
[i know you may not believe this yet, but this is God speaking in this moment, in real time, of what is my Oneness relationship open connectedness with the Spirit of God, which i have been entertaining now for a number of years. I am not going crazy. This is a long standing relationship i have with God, which i am now opening up and sharing with you, what IS my relationship with God, Oneness Sameness connectedness ‘that’ Jesus had with God while walking the earth, a relationship awareness most are not able to realize as true, of what is a pure awareness without doubt. It is my relationship with God, which no soul can ever come between, of what IS my higher subtle awareness intellect.]
ok, there!
i just wrote myself out of a relationship with Madonna.
Andy’s crazy!
fine. i don’t care what any of you think.
Do i speak as though one who has lost his mind?
ok, admittedly i do lose it, of what is the manifestation of the pure of heart pure love knowingness certainty within of my ‘real’ self who gets frustrated with those who are of the useless uncertainty disconnected egotistical bitter hypocrisy heart bullshit mentality of heart and tongue, which i will soon publish my full understanding of the truth of this.
Coming Soon!
to a theater NEAR YOU! lol
I AM always near YOU!
I AM YOU! :mrgreem:
the evolved YOU!
you’ll see soon enough who I AM IS!
anyway, carry on with whoever and whoever, and i will do the same, just as i have been of may souls here in the ghetto, always a most loving lover i know I AM!
no seriously, ask around. “Who Andy? Fuck ya! He’s has a beautiful penis! Are you two going out? Oh, you have to find out, you WILL love it!” lol
ok…………………….
i think that is about as open as i care to get on a public blog………..must be all my reading of the local ghetto rag each week. Some the columns are so incredible to read! I have always loved the openness of the gay ghetto rags magazines!
bless you bless you bless you
my love is true!
hmmm….come to think of it, Madonna is of the same openness, is she not?
an obsessed fan is an individual who does not know what they are looking for, of what is another healthy individual for them to entertain having a relationship with.
in truth, many people think these famous stars are all healthy happy souls, where in truth, they are the same individuals as you or i, all of us of the required wise addressing of what is a healthy approach to our positive mental/emotiona/physical/sexual/spiritual well being.
any soul which fails to take time to truly address who is healthy for us and who is not, will experience the consequences of their decision CHOICEs of real life experience along life’s road, of many lovers i have experienced, and passed by, for whatever reasons, where the substance abusers were always of some level of mental/emotional/physical/sexual/spiritual unavailability dysfunction disconnectedness which our ‘real’ self FEELS the truth of, bringing us down to their level of disfuction.
well people, i am seeking healthy vibrant overflowing abundant exceeding joyfulnes every fucking day with a lover who better fuck me every day, or get the fuck out!
lol
oh hey, that sounds like something M would say, yes?
indeed, great minds think alike and work best TOGETHER!
i have that together feeling deep within with the ‘real’ Madonna, and is why I AM yet here, merely of what IS real for the ‘real me’, genuine sincere desire to BE set free and find myself one day of the overflowing abundant exceeding joyfulness happiness, not only of me, but of my lover as well, where it is not possible when love is only of one of the lovers, try as many do, of so many souls yet in denial of their dysfuntional lover, wondering why they feel so fucked up like they do.
i am not of that unwiseness, of the greatest teacher in life Jesus spoke of………”LIFE it SELF!”
get it? lol
always the hidden meaning of the ‘real’ you, everywhere you look!
ok, that’s a wrap…………did someone get M her coffee yet?
you know how pissed off she is in the mornings until she has had her coffee, don’t we? Capable of tearing the soul out of your body, stamp apon it with both feet, than handing it back to you! lol
hmmmm……a daily thing for me, come to think of it.
ah, she is making me face my fears, i know. She is an evolved soul, and i am blessed of her every word, even if at times of the likeness of the manifestations of our current healing experience, i know, she loves ‘me’, and she knows…………..without doubt………..Andy loves her, always did, always WILL
of what IS………..LOVE DEVOID of DOUBT certainty within.
of what IS………..God’s divine WILL for all God’s children, like any father genuinely wants for their child, to always know they are loved, that only love is good enough for YOU!
forever more
bless you bless you bless you
my love is TRUTH
not only do Madonna and i know we FEEL alike, we think alike, speak alike, and annoy all you motherfuckers alike, who are yet unlike who we really really ARE!
God’s WISE LOVING COMPASSIONATE children!
I AM………BE Cause……..We ARE!
forever more
bless you bless you bless you
my love is YOU!
hey M, can i borrow those two new horse you bought recently?
i want them for the parade, with two beautiful flawless identical androgynous looking twins riding them.
M says, “ya sure andy, just make sure you clean up the shit they leave behind, so others don’t have to walk thru it!”
I say, “Well, ya……….that’s what we have been doing all this time, is it not? Dealing with the motherfucking shit for brains oppressive mentalities of the world, yes?”
bless you bless you bless you
my love is TWO!
‘that’s what friends ARE 4!!!
GLBT
actually, now they have like ten different fucking names for sexuality!
hmmmm…………i was thinking the other day, do they have male strap ons?
if so, what sexuality would that be?
don’t ask……….oh, ok!
whatever
M is like, omg, how did you know?
duh!
i’ve been a gay boy bottom for how many years now?
I KNOW EVERYTHING, at least what works for ‘me’, and the many i have taught along the way.
well ok, take me out for lunch sometime in the future, which i know you WILL, once i finish publishing all my writtings, which will like take till Christmas to complete.
here comes SPRING! Yeah!
already feels like spring for ‘me’, the joyful spirited one I AM!
bless you bless you bless you
my love is TABOO!
you know, our Spirit is always free, is it not?
free to think like we do while alone, in or out of a relationship.
we are always free in this regard, are we not?
we are free to feel and think whatever we want at all times.
I FEEL ONLY LOVE
I WANT ONLY LOVE
and the occasional bouts of insanity that come from not getting laid in how long now?
hey, i was thinking of the dimensions of what Celibacy is, that it is more than merely not having sex with someone.
If say for example, we are having sex with someone we are NOT of the pure of heart pure love deeply felt cognitive awareness connectedness that two loving souls share opening like they do, you know, like at a spa, where we don’t even know their name, nothing about them at all, how they think or feel about anything in life, other than the raw delight of the sexual encounter engagement, where in truth, celibacy is of the open or closed connectedness of our own soul with another soul, is it not?
Sexual encounters of only sex, are of the soul sexuality, where within, we do connect with our own compassion that the other experience the delightful joyfulness of sexual acceptance, of what ever sexuality.
Growth into the other areas of connectedness between souls, sees what is of the making of platonic friendships, sexual friendships(fuck buddies), and whatever relationship of our loving connectedness between two souls.
Celibacy is of the WILL to share or not share our inner connectedness with another
bless you bless you bless you
my love IS
hi all i’m back.just a quick word to day please can you all stop sending me e.mails because its clogging up my wife louise mail and she is getting pisst so i will talk to you all on this blog.ps my wife alreafy thinks im a loony tune.so please i beg you all to stop
who’s woody ?
and wtf did Andrew Thomas go..
marco look my sprirt up on http://www.wikipedia.com then serch edward of woodstock and thats me also i have two spirts,(dr william price and owain glyn dwr. also look up llantrisant,all will be reveiled?
sounds like William Price had good self esteem of his own body as a child, running around naked in the local hills where he grew up. This is indicative of a free spirited soul.
today, there are more nude beaches in the world, than there are clothed beaches, where most likely Price one would find Price. personally, i don’t agree with public nudity, although privately, i love my graceful at ease nudity of self love.
William Price an archdruid, who did not believe in marriage, which he saw as the enslavement of women.
most do not know what true(spiritual) marriage is, so in truth, if one does not know what true marriage IS of their Spirit, so how can one BE of marriage, if they don’t understand it in the first place?
so in truth, marriage is an enslavement, yes?
the spiritual disconnect with a partner like i was speaking of earlier.
Vegetarian. I feel like becoming a vegetarian because i feel creatures have a soul like our own. I just feel it sorta savage to eat another creature.
Price had an illegitimate son with his housekeeper, named Jesus Christ Price.
When a child is born, they are legitimately born, just like any of us, are they not?
all this bullshit of legitimate, illegitimate stigmas for a child to bare, is what is degeneration mindsets.
i 100% see the birth of Jesus from Mary and Joseph out of wedlock, where the church cover up story of Jesus being born from a virgin, is one of the many falsely created false teachings of the church. It’s absurd.
although i see Mary as a virgin spirit, undefiled by another soul, just as is the truth of what the defilements are in life of any soul, of what is the disconnect from our pure of heart flawless pure love feeling ‘real’ self, where wisdom is what disolves the ignorant defilements, revealing truth of all defilements of heart, mind, body, spirit, and soul, yes?
woody is andrew thomas of SwanSea, is she not? lol
oh hey, this Owain Glyn Dŵr character portrayed in Shakespeare’s play Henry IV, Part 1 (as Owen Glendower) as a ‘wild and exotic man’ ruled by magic and emotion!
Yes!!!
that’s me!
i was thinking a 53 foot long transport truck full of beautiful pink cherry blossoms blown up into the air using blowers for the parade would be so highly spiritual, the soft pedals falling into the hair of those gathered at the parade, and the ground covered with the pedals everywhere they walk, the horses walking behind on the pedals, so beautiful to behold, the aromatherapy!
so amazing!
clarity.
+ TRUTH +
The exiled [truthful pure of heart souls] WILL return to unity and BE fulfilled.
TRUTH is what is held in great respect and IS really strong! [especially true is the pure of heart respect we see and feel of the pure of heart souls of united ONEness of the connectedness feelings [truth] of those who are at ease as their ‘real’ self, so true the feelings they feel, of these special celelbration days, knowing the unknowing unwiseness bitter false binding unloving chains they too were once held captive by, of all those who mock of their graceful effeminate mild sweet loving beautiful qualities of their true by nature effeminate self, of the self love TRUTH they now fully come to embrace of ‘real’ self so tender and TRUE, of me and you! ]
We enter in weakness of the weakness weary of the battered self-esteem that came from all who mock and cajoled us like they did, like they did of the boy they locked in his own locker at high school because he was gay, who cryed profoundly over their not truly knowing him, of his true loving feelings he hid away, afraid perhaps he really was gay.
that boy returned one day to the world, his power and glory of self love that surpassed all power and glory by means of the TRUE self love he always was, TRUTH he 100% knew to BE TRUE of his loving brothers and sister he knew too were yet hiding away, afraid perhaps, they really really are gay.
Divine prefection is revealed with the concealed secrets of TRUTH.
The Holy of Holies opens; we are [all] invited to the bridal chamber [of TRUTH].
Hidden [uwise delightful untruthful bitter hypocrisy mockery and cajoling of beautiful TRUTH] wickedness is now less effective, but not fully cleansed from the seed of their True Hidden Spirit; where many may still BE slaves of evil [unloving unwiseness].
When revealed, the perfect light WILL shine on ALL; all those within its rays WILL BE anointed and receive baptism of the chrism. The slaves shall BE FREE and the prisoners redeemed!
ALL those who enter the bridal chamber [of pure of heart TRUTH] WILL light the light as at night weddings.
But the mysteries of the marriage are perfected by day, not at night; an eternal day [of truth] that never sets.
ALL who BEcome sons and daughters of the bridal chamber [of TRUTH], WILL receive the light [of wise true knowing and loving self-awareness self love]; they WILL BE invisible and free from torment, even in this [yet fucked up] world. lol
When he/she departs, he/she WILL have known TRUTH through these symbols; The world has BEcome Eternal, and IS perfect for him/her.
This is how TRUTH is given; not hidden in darkest night but revealed in brightest day of holy light! [light of wisdom truth which desolves the binding dark untruth ignorance for ALL who ARE gay!]
~
Rosie is like, “Fuck Andy, where do you get this stuff?” lol
cool eh?
words of Jesus!
carbondated to the first century
well, it IS the perfect truth for ‘me’, the taboo gay love boy they locked in his own locker way back when!
maybe that’s what’s wrong with me, perhaps i have not grieved that one fully yet?
SCOTTIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
if a picture can paint a thousand words,then a lyric or a proverb cant paint a thousand times more abstract pictures?
actually, I AM bisexual, not of denial like so many who call themselves gay.
my self love is of both, 100% equally of both, of what is my ONEness of the male and female self ‘me’.
In the ancient Christian antiquities, there is communications which speak about the male and female ONEness of self, a fear based issue for most any of the church, yes?
but not Andy!
so what IS the significance of this understanding as relates to Spirituality connectedness between two souls?
i see/feel that the female and male self is not any different, albeit, there exists the generational teachings of boys to be one way, and girls another way. This is not actually true for those who come fully into awareness of their own self love.
Clearly i have exibited the obviousness of both my female and male self, have i not? Clearly i know i am both female/male, am i not?
or is it more that I AM neither male or female, and rather ONE?
of what IS my ONEness Sameness pure feelings with all males and females inner connectedness that is unknowingly Sameness within them?
albeit, i am not sure about the female of Rosie!
what?
oh come on, you guys are too uptight!
sheeeshhhhhhh! lol
and with M?
well, that ‘s a whole other chapter! lol
oh hey you!
ya, i was thinking that all morning, of what IS ‘the picture’?
as artists, we probe deep within to bring forth the encouraging picture mirroring for sake of other souls to FEEL and truly come to embrace their self love, of what is our own self love.
so what IS and ARE the pictures/images of pure of heart pure flawless love self love we truly embrace within of our own self love, is what all artists need to ask.
i keep seeing M in the Frozen video, the ever so pure delicate seemingly afraid self who is there.
i had a most pure love vision while of my meditative focus as i drifted into sleep some days ago, where my pure of heart soul/spirit was in seeking traveling mode to connect with another pure of heart soul/spirit of exact sameness as my own. I was floating thru this dark corridor that opened into a desert night of moon light, and i realized i was seeking what IS both my inner connection of the pure of heart pure love within, able to TRULY connect with the one who IS there in the desert.
As i came into the desert, i realized i was of my alone fully surrendered spirit who wanted to acknowledge to the alone fully surrendered spirit of the soul in the desert who felt the same way i did, of our constant yearning to truly connect with what IS of our pure of heart ‘real’ self.
the connection is of the required aspect of ‘fully surrendered spirit’, which i not only felt as truth of my own soul/spirit, i realized it to be true also of the soul/spirit who is there, Madonna’s Spirit.
ya, careful descerning of what is abstract and what is not, is required.
i prefer clarity.
although mirroring of the abstract is what Jesus knew he was doing of his surrendered body to the cross, so both are of equal importance, of what is truth wisdom revealing of what is hidden by the abstract, where the goal is to reveal what is hidden.
the Frozen video profoundly does this for me.
my pure of heart inner child connected purely with the Frozen video, which i feel was of deliberate intent of the creators of the Frozen video.
true spiritual awakening art of both moving images and purity harmony of music harmonics that resonate with the constant yearning seeking connectedness sameness within of another soul……aspect.
truly blessedly brilliant!
out of the binding unwise drudgery which opens into what i feel is God’s objective, freeing the pure of heart soul God knows IS us, into the constant overflowing abundant radiant brilliant bright exceeding joyfulness; the breaking of the bitter unwise chains which bind so many souls, does it not?
i am a soul watcher.
i study souls passing by, using my discerning feelings.
for me, my compassion is in feeling the blindness that IS of the dark blindness ignorance that bind the souls, who unknowingly are blinded by whatever snare they are of, where wise self-awareness sets their spirit free to BE the truth of all the fearless beautiful aspects of their true self, such as effeminate, graceful, tender, mild, gentle ‘real’ male self and not these false macho male iconic symbols, that the world teaches for example.
in this regard, what is the correct way to raise a child?
the answers for me, come from my own self love awareness, where BEing my own effeminate, graceful, tender, mild, gentle ‘real’ self IS the image which teaches the most, unafraid to Just BE ‘me’.
It took me years to fully come into and BE in outward appearance self love sameness of what is of the inward self hiding, of what is a constant evolving self-esteem growth.
Wisdom plays huge in self-esteem fearlessness to Just BE Self!
Contrast of false\true self IS the mirroring image.
those who came to know Jesus by walking along side him daily, his graceful effeminate ‘real’ self like their own, of self love which took root and grew within those who knew/know him, came fully into the 100% certainty, the day Jesus hung apon the cross, of a many who only spoke about love, wisdom, compassion, the contrasting mirroring relfection meant for those who did/do know the ‘real’ Jesus, unlike the bitter hypocrisy heart ones who voted to crusify him like they did, because of the uprising Jesus was stirring in the hearts of so many he taught incognito behind the great walled city.
for me, the contrasting mirroring of the cross is what is most significant of the WILL of Jesus, where my greatest focus is unveiling the pure of heart pure love feeling of why he chose to surrender to the claws of the beast of ignorance as a contrasting mirror, not only for those there, but for all of us to reflect apon.
i also believe Jesus knew something about Immortal Spirit life, of what is the ONEness Sameness Pure of Heart Spirit we know about, yet evolving in.
Let’s say, we are immortal spirits, and we want to leave something for our self to find when we return, that we can identify with which clarifies, this is YOU, or I AM YOU, for example.
what would one leave on the planet that we would identify as us?
sorta like speaking to your self in the future, what would you say?
what a great subject matter, yes? How cool is ‘that’? lol
truly, no one has ever ask you this, yes? lol
M says, “and no one ever will Andy, your fucking crazy ok, go away!” lol
well, it would consist of
ONEness
Sameness
Pure
True
Flawless
……………..
actually, this is what is of the core as my greatest motivation.
Scientifically, we unveil truth in research, where once unveiled, the teachings into say, atomic level electronics understanding, do not change.
did you know the mathematics for all electronics today, ‘boolean algebra’, was invented in the 1940s?
I do not see our world as a compassionate world, where business and investors take care of themselves, of no concern whatsoever, compassionately speaking, for society, of what is pure bottomline thinking.
well, changes may be coming from government leaders who will dethrone the freeforall mentalities of these irresponsible uncaring investors if the world collapses far enough into the current free fall it is now in.
i welcome strick stablizing regulation on all banking and investors worldwide, where priority is of stability for sake of the millions in society, of the needs of the many which outweigh the few. It is absurd the way investors are able to do as they please, free of any stabilizing regulation laws, such as ending the day trading practice, which is a serious problem if allowed to continue, as it is attracking the addictive gambling mentalities of a growing increase of day trading investors, which in the future, will see yet again, a wider reaching free fall than the one we are in.
RESPECT stable mental/emotional well being of all in society, has to be the mandate of government regulation laws, or we will see a repeat for more serious than the one we are in today, as evident of past free falls, the problem is of increasing levels of devastation, where we have not seen where this is going to land yet.
now is the time to introduce the publicly applauded stabilizing regulations, which will not ever see this bullshit happen again.
banks have to participate with stable rates for example, and the power of the banks over assets people devote their lives to, such as a family home, have to be stripped away from the banks. It’s just wrong, of what is the bottomline uncaring concern for the mental/emotional well being of the children raised in the family homes, who suffer the consequences later in life, of the so called free world.
free to do what, strip a child of their sense of security and self-esteem?
is that the irresponsible world we want to leave the generations of the future children to be born into after we are gone.
HELL NO!!!
HEAVEN YES!!!
~ compassionate loving wisdom for sake of ALL Self!
i say, dethrone the few who sit apon thrones of nescience………….or, society of the future will suffer the consequences of the stagnant stuckness unhealthy unstable approach our elected government is yet of.
not for long!
and let’s not forget what got us here! The insatiable desire of wealth snare of the few powerful investors, who likewise can be freed as well from the heartless insensitive uncaring bottomline mentality snare as well, becoming compassionate like the rest of us who truly care and love our children.
Let’s evolve, shall we?
Change is coming!
and we have the best leaders at the helm who compassionately invite goodness change, truly, of God’s WILL, our WILL BE Done on earth, what HEAVEN constantly IS.
blessings to all
When a water damn begins to breach, it is STABALIZED quickly, is it not?
simple fix for a big problem, yes?
STABILITY!!!
(andy slips on the wet floor back into the pool………..AFTER SOMEONE PUSHED HIM!!!)
gee, i wonder who that could BE?
or wish she could BE!
“as smart as ‘me’!!!” lol
Hey Madonna, i was thinking what i wanted to say the other day, without any hesitation to say how i feel.
“i want to marry YOU!!!”
hay andy you are a truly wise man.you are not only on the same wavelenth as me but riding the same wave aswell.what music do you like?
Exceeding Joyful Happiness IS without doubt of ‘real’ LIFE ‘real’ SELF of two souls spiritual united in the physical world!
LIFE for ‘real’ SELF of any soul can BE no other way than this TRUTH.
ok.
i believe you, truly i do
So however long you need, is fine with me.
We have been best of true loving friends along time, and it is without doubt that we have and are, the knowingness within our soul of this truth.
And even if we do eventually end up with someone else, we will always be of this truth.
Still, we cannot possibly know how we may be of the physical world together, merely by thinking about it, as you said, words don’t cut it, where physical presence touching does, beyond words, of no need for words.
and as a friend, your happiness matters to me.
my thinking right now is that you would not find another in life who you could be as happy as we could, of what we don’t know the truth of, nor will we so long as we don’t explore this.
anyway, just thinking out loud………
it is rather obvious that we feel the same within for one another of our pure of heart spiritual connectedness, and i question that, as in, who else in life could possibly be of this with us like we already are, as in, we both venture along life’s road seeking this with another, denying ourselves what is so sacred to us both, as we continue to deny what i feel is best for us both………each other.
and neither of us can ever know the truth of this without commitment to finding out if we would be best for one another in life.
how long, another year, maybe two, to realize andy was right all along? What if you go the remainder of your life and realize you did not find what we already have, and denied would could of been the opening of the door into exceeding joyful happiness for us both?
tragic if we do.
i am merely reflecting of how i feel, not wishing to seek another what i already feel is what i am looking for in another, knowing you do as well.
it frustrates me, because i don’t want to look elsewhere, and yet, i cannot sit alone indefinitely either, which is unhealthy for an extended period of time, for either one of us, for anyone.
i have been wanting to say this emotional honesty with ease with you, and finally today i did.
it is not about rushing you or anything, rather asking you to reflect on maybe not finding the pure spiritual connectedness we already are of with another out there. Our entire life so far of self love spiritual embrace, is what IS of the spiritual connectedness we both are of feeling like we do.
this won’t change either, no matter how pissed off we ever get with one another, although i know somedays i do go off the deep end, which has less to do with you and mostly my life experience, as though having been in a car crash, stumbling around in a field, dazzed and confused, bruised and batter, greatful to have found a true friend.
the pure love feelings i have felt with you are beyond any level of sincerity i have felt in another, and i simply cannot walk away from this truth i embrace, knowing how you may feel for me, and i you, regretting later in life of not ever having found something so pure and close in sameness of soul like my own.
you know this, and i know this to be true, that to me, it is of God that i am experiencing this with you.
so just how significant are you to Andy? 100% significant!
without doubt
which is why i am feeling frustrated one minute, beautiful pure love feelings the next, wanting complete wholeness of this feeling 24/7, which can only be of the physical world with you.
cannot condemn me for speaking the truth, and God knows i am speaking the truth of what IS TRUTH of us both.
forever more
let’s say you were ‘me’, knowing what you felt of another, as the one waiting like i yet am.
what would you do?
ironically, the very thing that is able to completely heal me, is the very thing which keeps me from getting healed, Andy, of unhealthy lower self-esteem, normal according to how his life has been, able to be healthy, only by means of physical contact of another.
i call it ‘stagnant physchological stuckness’, my new term for where we yet are, of which for both our sakes, staying is what is unhealthy, moving in one direction or another, the eventuality IS, we both have to move in a one direction or another.
perhaps you are not wanting to hurt me, in telling me to let go?
i stepped over the line like you wanted me to, from friendship to intimate friendship love mode, fearlessly i might add! lol
anyway……just thinking out loud, for YOU!
what music do i like?
i like all music, all of it.
it all has spiritual significance indicativeness of connected/disconnectedness of where society currently is in evolving, which feels weighed down for me actually, where it is the constant yearning for what is yet hidden within the soul of everyone, exceeding joyfulness happiness.
i especially do not like where we are currently, of a sorta low morale kinda feeling atmosphere the stems from the fear mongering unnecessary uncertainty of the economy today, an economy unstable because the voting public has had the wool pulled over their eyes, not knowing who is controlling everything of the economy, a handful of powerful investors.
not for long, as new sanctions are on their way that will desolve their ability to see this bullshit keep cycling like it does over and over again, of such absurd bullshit no concern whatsoever of the mental/emotional stability bottomline thinkers that the handful of these powerful investors ARE!
things like no more short term investment like the uselessness of making money day trading, who volley and manipulate the playing field, as addicted gamblers.
yep, the mental/emotional stability of our entire society is allowed to be manipulated by a bunch of loser mentality addicted gamblers.
TRUTH
not sure how serious a free fall we need to go thru for the government and courts of law to wake up to this reality, but i do know, it needs to be a hard hard landing, which may be this cycle, the next cycle, or whatever cycle it is.
what i do know, is the devastation of each free fall is of wider reaching increasing devastation, and therefore, the inevitable day of the creation of new stability laws will come.
there are arguments on all sides of the current stock market business model, but what is not of the any of the arguments on any side of the table, is the most important issue, the mental/emotional stability of our global society, which is sad, because we are just coming into an ever increasing joyfulness across all divisional barriers in the world, where obvious is the biggest barrier of all that is derailing it, the completely disconnecting barrier of lacking concern of the most wealthy in the world, for that of our entire society.
well, i don’t mean to be the one to burst your bubble guys, but it is already over, and the day IS coming, where all of society is going to rise up against you with the creation of new laws that says to fuck with you handful of gambling addicts, enough is enough.
oh hey, that was a good rant, yes? lol
may not be this cycle, but the day is coming where economic stability of society becomes the most valuable priority, beyond the insatiable desires and greed of financial wealth, which actually has no value!
oh, and let’s not forget who is the biggest investor at the table……China, with deep deep stock piles of cash, and a growing economic horizon, able to buy us all out.
We need to embrace one another as a global economy, of adherance to same likeminded good business practice, and address the world as a global market, nurturing the needs and positive growth of all business identities, particularily the future energy supply for coming century, where already, supplies demands are beginning to surpass capacity supply.
If China does not want to participate with us, well, forget them and do what Danmark does, a 160% tax on all imports, creating jobs for our own markets, ending what they have in mind, squeezing our economy to death like they currently are doing, manipulatively as the biggest most powerful investor of our corporate global landscape.
any who don’t see the truth of this, check the numbers.
China wants a fire sale for two reasons, the most obvious, to buy out existing corporations and factories and ship them to China, secondly, to shrink the global energy supply demands, which was/is stalling their current growth market in their quest for energy supply that has started to be unmet.
Fact.
You can bet that the powerful investors of China have long term thinkers on their economic team, and they will look out for their own interests ahead of our own.
why?
likely because we treat them the same way, do we not?
Well, two can play this game, or we can say, nah, you guys go ahead and play without us, our team has decided no more rough play.
everything is a metaphor! lol
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lol
i’m all burnt out
You win
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ya, i know
i feel that way too!
fucking biyatch!
i get all twisted around my own and forget who i am
i am slowing into my calm graceful true nature, purging my junk mentalities……….it takes time, and it is normal to feel this way after ending a toxic relationship.
Spring is coming and so am i !!!!!!!!!
lol
BE of self confidence true to self, that only love feelings is what you ‘truly’ yearn from/with others, of what our soul knows at all times to BE TRUE.
I have made two new best friends, who are a loving monogamous couple, (except when I’m the brick between the concrete), they met in high school so sweet & tender is their love so gentle & loving is their energy, they have been so healing for me, to listen to their words of truth and love for each other to watch them kiss in their tender embrace, i resonate.
I’ll put the kettle on. Lol
arghhhhhhhhhh……..my head hurts……..fucking Norman got his hands on me last night, and we went out and got smashed drunk off our asses, staggering down the street……..argh, i hate hangovers!
brick between the concrete?
as in we are all sometimes our own worse enemy?
ya, it is the duality of petty self ego, and the real self, is it not?
it is for me.
or are you talking about my homosexual self who wants to fuck my heterosexual self and take back control? lol
argh, i had no idea the internal duality bisexuals go thru in coming out!
my therapist said it best, “Love both sexualities as that IS who you are!
yep, a bisexual, who wants to live in both worlds!
and i suppose that is what the problem is, i cannot live in both worlds, unless i date someone, oh say…….. like……..Madonna!
who i know loves me inspite of my annoying petty self, who knows the ‘real’ self more so than i do, having practiced at being the ‘real’ self more than i have.
ya, i know that about you.
i have been feeling this lifting joyous feeling lately of my ‘real’ self, more and more each day, of a transitional final arrival in Just BEing my ‘real’ self, of what is my ongoing steadfast diligent earnest desire to BE so, with the aid of the best in the field of psychology.
you know, i do know the pure love state of BEing well of what HEAVEN constantly IS.
the problem is in staying in the zone, where the petty self false ego derailing bullshit mentality does not interfer, as is evident of me, the duality between stupid and wise ‘real’ self.
i know that it is my ‘real’ self who is the one embracing wise discerning, who is pure of heart 100%.
the day i was jamming my pen into my diary after losing Troy, was the day i woke up fully into the 100% pure of heart pure loving ‘real’ self, who was outraged over my motherfucking petty false ego self which derailed my relationship with Troy, that is unforgivable, of only a lesson learned, the greatest lesson, that of the duality of the pure of heart ‘real’ self, and the falsehood petty ego self mask we hide behind.
i find dwelling in practive of being my real self alone is what is of the ongoing growth into restored fearlessness of my ‘real’ self, pure of heart, pure love, graceful tender gentle mild peaceful by nature.
i know you know this about your own self, and my greatest concern is my own fucked upness that may hinder your own ability to evolve further, hence why i am returning again to my study of what i feel we both know 100% of what HEAVEN constantly IS, study of which speaks clearly to my ‘real’ self, feeling the presence of God who knows i know what Jesus knows of what HEAVEN constantly IS.
At times i feel as though i am from the future mindset coming back in time to today, to do what Jesus did, leave behind the truth words of self-knowledge self-awareness of my pure love clarity feelings which know IS the objective of the words, of what is 100% of value beyond all the riches of the world.
let’s say a soul had all the riches of the world, and did not have a true loving lover?
clearly that is what is beyond all the riches, yes?
or let’s say a soul had nothing, but had pure of heart pure love knowingness, and got involved with souls who had all the riches of the world, who all treated that the pure of heart soul like shit, and walked away.
so the pure of heart knowingness of what HEAVEN constantly is, IS without doubt what IS beyond all the riches of the world, for any soul to fully embrace as the undenialbe truth, yes?
ok, so that is where we are at, and i am truly happy about this, because we are both of the knowingness of what HEAVEN constantly IS, where it is merely our evolving into fearlessly coming forth in life as who we really really are, fearlessly of our pure of heart pure love, not just for sake of self, or self of each other, but what i feel is for sake of the self mirroring of so many souls.
and the best news of all, is that the pure of heart awareness understanding of what HEAVEN constantly IS, does not change, inspite of how haphazard our stumbling is, and this is something that Jesus confirms, that the pure of heart soul can ALWAYS return to the knowingness pure love feelings of what HEAVEN constantly IS, irregardless of self of another, or even of our own self stumbling.
this to me is the 100% assuredness which reveals that there is nothing able to stop us, and merely only able to slow us down, yes?
i think my concern of late is that one of us is going to get left behind, and i don’t want that one to be you!
so tell me, has anyone ever said this to you in life?
and does that not tell you that i truly do love you 100%, as one who is not in denial of my own shedding of my petty ego self falsehoods?
my sense is that you are the one i am looking for and that i am the one you are looking for, although, this could all just be the boy dreaming.
we all want someone who genuinely sincerely loves us, and i feel we have to genuinely sincerely love our own self before we can love self of another.
i practice alot at this self loving……………….alot! lol
becoming healthier day by day.
when does the day come where these difficult days appear absurdly of unnecessary absurdness?
it’s just life.
i see all souls in life as one giant none stop vacation each day.
are we not all of the same delight enjoyments, aside from the kinky bisexuals?
we all love the taste of food.
we all love the smell of flowers.
we all love the warmth of sunshine.
we all love the caress of body oils and lotions.
we all love the sensual kissing of lips in a hot tub.
we all love sex
so tell me, what planet are you from? lol
fucking biyatches always get my head turned around backwards!
ah, there you are!
i keep sensing most souls seem eternally more focused on our differences, rather than focused on celebration of our exact sameness, which is were alot of the petty ego self falsehoods stem from, does it not?
i mean listen to some of the absurdness some souls embrace, so absurd it is bewildering to see that they cannot see the absurdity, their tunnel vision blindnesses.
oh for fuck sakes, she’s talking about her new fling!
fuck!
admittedly, he is adorable, and likely comfortable to be around, of natural occuring youth joyful inner happiness, which is better for us than say the jaded mentalities of so many we meet.
ok. bravo!
We are both free spirits to go anywhere, with anyone of our choosing.
ok. i got it.
the journey of evolving into our happy self continues!
i am returning to my homosexual life then, knowing how much i do enjoy homosexual sex, which is linked to my inner happiness.
have fun! BE happy!
Just BE your SELF!
hmmmmm……..let’s see, what am i looking for?
5 foot 10′ tall
slim build like me!
radiant joyful bright personality!
nice perfect ass!
a beautiful cock!
yearns for me like i do him…DAILY!
does not have to be house trained
no substance abuse
already in priority lover mode
hey, do they have internet male order for this? lol
well, ok…………i doubt i will return after finding the one to run down the street holding my hand.
your enjoying your free spirit life now, and i am happy for you, i suppose.
no use hanging around her just annoying you like i do……..who wants or needs more of that?
BE the HAPPINESS of the ‘real’ YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
forever more
God bless YOU!
Jesus loves ALL God loves ALL We love ALL
God blesses ALL
perhaps in another life time we will meet again.
blessings to all
say something true as the ‘real’ you!
(andy ducks as a frying pan wips past his head) lol
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i get these incredible pure feeling moments while alone and unafraid, which are devoid of the useless fears transference, which to me is “the day you see the Light of your own true Self, you WILL rejoice!”
i sense these pure feeling moments as being true of you as well, and praying it to be so, because of how incredible the feeling is, devoid of absurd useless doubtful, so tender and true.
clearly, the useless uncertainty yet of my own bashed in self-esteem and the ongoing transference i occassional feel from others i waunder into, is what keeps me from feeling the pure feelings of fearless certainty, of what HEAVEN constantly IS for me, althought the pure feeling is growing more and more each day, which tells me, YES!!!!!!!!!!! the is how my future will BE!!!!!!!!!!
Slowing into the graceful meditative focused ability is how one maintains the feeling, and clearly, setting healthy boundaries is vital!!!
or, if one fails to adjust the boundaries, then our feelings serve us as to the truth of the consequences of our haphazard decisions, yes?
So in this sense, everyday is a good day as far as awareness of the truth of our tender mild delicate sensitive true nature, yes?
Heaven IS True!
Heaven IS YOU!
Clearly, Love IS True!
Clearly, Love IS YOU!
Clearly, Heaven IS Loving TRUE YOU!
Clearly, Heaven IS Loving YOU TRUE!
i love my effeminate self!
and for those who don’t love my true tender gentle mild delicate sensitive effeminate self?
fuck off!
LOL
I love you too!
I love all souls!
but do you love ‘me’ like i love you, where i want to be with you?
well, not so far!
oh sure, we can all feel we want to, but to genuinely truly 100% want to as in ‘NO Hesitation?’
well, from this side, i feel the answer!
not so far.
so let me clear the air, ok?
from this day forward, i am making my SELF available for someone else, and if you do want to be with ‘me’, then you let me know in a ‘real’ way, such as motherfucking real life world way! lol
ok. No point leaving you wondering, nor shall i wonder any more either.
it’s time, and i am moving on in life, presenting my ‘real’ Self to others in the motherfucking ‘real’ world to who ever is there that takes a shine to ‘me’!
I don’t play games, i just say the truth.
Andy’s moving on
Enjoy your worldwide tour adventure, of many beautiful souls of the world you shall meet.
i have to unstuck my self.
the obsessed remark did finished it for ‘me’, of what i felt was an egotistical thing to say to someone who merely wanted what every motherfucking soul on this planet wants……….reciprocation of tender loving souls.
oh, and Andy is so obsessed about something he knows IS what HEAVEN constantly is for him, of every motherfucking orgasm he ever had! lol
obsessed?
obsessed with what, an emptiness void devoid of what HEAVEN constantly IS for me?
oh yeah, clearly i am obsessed with that, as i get my sorry ass on down the road with someone else joyfully holding my hand!
anyway, im happier in my homosexual life, and clearly miserable sitting here like i yet do, and why i have to find someone who OBVIOUSLY TRULY wants me like i do them.
you know, as in holding hands, kissing, hugging, cuddling, sex, ordinary ‘real’ life.
there. i did what my therapist asked me to do, unstuck myself from stagnant stuckness.
it was a healing experience for me, but now my head feels like it’s been shoved in a garbage can, and well, i deserve and want better, knowing i will find that special someone like ‘me’.
YOU are FREE to see who ever you want and so AM i, starting right now!
it’s not healthy to sit in uncertainty, and my real self truly despises all uncertainty from others.
i mean fuck, you never even asked me to lunch.
oh, i feel so fucking special about that one.
Andy’s not good enough for a dinner date.
like fucking hell im not.
truly i tell you, you don’t truly know ‘me’! Nor will you ever truly know ‘me’ so long as you toss out useless fearful uncertainty.
someone had to do it, may as well be ‘me’
i’ll keep blogging my reflections for any interested in the study of Jesus and God.
I am not pursuing you any longer. I feel i have presented myself to you long enough for anyone to decide.
YEAH!!!!!
i am so not going to miss the bullshit uncertainty abstract. no more wondering. Andy left the motherfucking building, and you want to catch up with him, you better run after him, as he’s not looking back.
that’s what friends are 4, to kick our sorry motherfucking ass! lol
God bless
take care
oh oh, here comes the bullshit egotist fires of justification.
run Andy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol
seriously though, if i left you sitting here for as long as i have, you wouldn’t even speak to me again!
people and their motherfucking useless overinflated bruised egos, seemingly more important than Andy short amount of time left in his life!
how many years did you say you have left to live Andy?
i’ve got maybe 20, 30 years fucking years left to go, God willing, and that’s it, my life ends!
all you people and your fucking egos, oh so important leaving me sitting here actually feeling as though i am not important enough to even spend lunch with!
oh, Andy’s an obsessed fool, don’t go near that one!
well, i know what motherfucking HAPPINESS IS inside, pure and true, and as for all you with a lame ass approach with ‘me’, well, honestly, if you spent one day like i have all this time, of these horrid feelings of not being good enough to spend time with, trust me, one day would do it for you.
Goodbyes are sorta like a death, i feel, where when we part and go seperate ways in the world of real life, we don’t get to experience the precious loving tenderness of the soul of the one’s we pass by, where our path along life’s road is only of a certaint length, and then we are gone.
so in that sense, my moving on, is a sorta dying of our soul for one another, where we won’t ever get to embrace and love each other in ‘real’ life.
and as for the whole music thing?
well, my life is far more than mere music!
oh yeah sure, put some music on!
and light the candles too!
then join me in the hot tub with you beautiful naked body so incredible to be next to, your sensual kisses sooooooooooo what YOU and I AM……….constantly HEAVEN!!!!!!!!!!!!
forever more
obsessed………like fuck i am!
people and their useless fucking words that lead to nowhere, and certainly not to ‘me’!
go ahead, justify, justify, justify all you want of why………….you don’t want to BE with ‘me’!
where in the end, it is all indicative words of why you DON’T want to be with ‘me’, is it not?
not about why you want to BE with me, is it?
where the opposite is true!
when you find the ‘genuine sincere want to BE with ‘me’ feelings, truly, that is the only words anyone wants to hear, is it not?
of why i kept coming back here day after day for the past two years, always of sweet anticipation of loving yearning words, true of us both.
two years was a long time, where in the end, i found myself spinning my wheels looking at a fucking Christmas tree of boytoys! lol
oh, that is such a great way to let a guy know you are sincerely interested in him!
i must try that one sometime!
anyway, take you time next time ok? We are always vulnerable after exiting long term relationships, so keep that in mind, and make this time around a partner who does not have substance abuse issues!
got it!
you can thank me later!
someone like you!
i still recall seeing pictures of the time you were in the land where Jesus walked, going to the places of prayer, and then the pics of your ex getting drunk with all his jackass drinking buddies!
don’t make the same mistake twice!
Jesus and God say to you, “BE WISE!”
or don’t be wise and suffer the consequences of your CHOICEs!
life is a continuous learning school about just how precious the soul IS, of what IS ‘REAL’ 100% TRUE PURE FEELINGS that the divine child of God ‘real’ Self feels from one moment to the next, every blessed day of our short precious lives lived.
it is sad for ‘me’ that we did not get to live and love one another in this life, but i have to get back to real life and BE what HAPPINESS IS for ‘me’ and likewise for YOU too, where we both have to let go of this uncertainty, for sake of self, for sake of self of another, so that we are spiritually 100% in the building with who ever it is that is there for us.
so in that sense, it is vital that we let go, and move on, is it not?
im not running away, I just can’t go on living like this feeling of not BEing alive, which for me is only possible with another in ‘real’ life, of what IS all the ‘real’ feelings of ‘me’.
uncertainty wondering is so toxic for ‘me’, i am surprised i stayed and waited for as long as i did.
the years of just internet killed it for me, where had you held my hand, something ‘real’, even as a friend at lunch, would of saved it for me, but apparently i am not important enough for you to give a damn.
well, i died, ok?
(Andy went on in life, and never did meet her, and died at the age of 80, leaving behind pages and pages of his study of Jesus and God published free on the internet for any and all to read forever more, a body of work he did not ever want to see published in a book for sale, like that of the merchant’s of God, of what is true and free of every soul born into the world………..Love)
forever more
blessings to all
TRUTH does not fail
Turn towards the TRUTH aspects of the divine Child of God pure of heart pure flawless healing love feelings of the constant yearning ‘real’ self YOU to constantly BE found of*for*with the blessed ‘real’ self of another, and others!
blessed IS the TRUTH that does not fail the divine Child of God
forever more
i played the role of a fool, where clearly, I AM not a fool!
just slightly foolish enough to seem as the role of a fool, that others unknowingly unwise mistakenly thought was a foolish soul, because i feel laughter is the best medicine.
clearly i am no fool, just foolish
what?
no justification excuses this time?
hesitation says the truth of what i see/hear/feel
you know when you see someone, and without hesitation you want to know more about them?
and then without hesitation, our bubbling feelings greet us each day with delight and joy of our sweet anticipation loving thoughts when in our moments of thinking of them.
that to me is what love is, which does not fade for me when love is true for us within.
i mean think about, you are like waiting for someone to respond to going on a date with you, and then the hesitation, and your like, what the fuck! lol
oh fuck this!
clearly Andy is not in a good mood today! lol
Andy keeps starring at the phone day after day, wondering why she doesn’t call.
Oh for fuck sakes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
actually, i don’t know if i want to trust you again!
ah forget it, im not interested any more, expecting more of the same ill treatment.
Andy’s an obsessed fan everyone! nothing more!
and he’s delusional in saying God speaks with him daily, crazy like Jesus!
a crazy mind which is obvious far more sane than any of you! lol
truly i tell you, you do not truly know ‘me’ like Jesus and God constantly do, so how can you love ‘me’ when you don’t know me, or genuinely desire to know ‘me’.
how can you ever truly 100% love ‘me’ if you remain not of desire to 100% truly know and love ‘me’?
according to Jesus and God, it is not possible.
that’s ok, there are lot’s who do and will.
so go be of who ever and who ever and i’ll have fun doing the same.
thanks for your half effort………i feel so special now!
not!
i better go, and come back in another century when i am able to be in a better mood. lol
lame
ok people, if you are genuinely interested in someone, you may want to show you are genuinely interested in someone when they present themselves to you.
and don’t waste time wondering why they walked away from you when you don’t!
lame
make your decisions, and live with them.
i’ve made mine. No more lame ass excuses.
i want a ‘real’ partner who displays genuine sincere emotional honesty.
i will know the difference, and i will walk when it is half hearted, like this one turned out feeling for me.
ah well, that’s what i came for, the truth.
yawn!
it’s ghetto time for Andy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i may not be financially wealthy, however, Jesus and God know the truth, I AM of value beyond all the riches of the world, spiritually wealthy!
tanquility under the stars on a beautiful peaceful beach is where you will find ‘me’!
forever more
blessings to all
Jesus loves ALL God loves ALL We love ALL
God blesses ALL
Check!
HURRY UP!!!!!!!!
IT’S YOUR TURN!!!!!!!!
MOVE!!!!!!!!!!
LOL
argh!
i hate playing with you!
your too slow and you cheat all the time!
LOL
could someone please explain why i have been treated so horrible?
i thought i was at least a true friend?
you don’t act like one, where it is like you go and do all this bullshit i am supposed to rap my head around as perfectly ok?
no one has disregarded me this badly in my entire life, if you must know.
no explaination, no, Andy’s no worthy of that!
which tells me, you don’t give a fuck shit about my mental emotional well being!
fact.
you don’t deserve my trust even as a friend, ok?
the fact that you just go and be like this, the whole empty distant thing, says it all!
you are playing a mindfuck game with a true friend you once had.
after today, i am not extending my trust or concern for you again, and will give my trust to someone who earns it and is worthy of it.
i am yet here extending myself to you as a friend who does not understand your absurd COLD behaviour, which is off the charts for me, ok?
this is it for me for the rest of my life, where i am not going to extend my trust to you ever again, where you don’t even make the grade as a friend, ok?
you have hurt me deliberately and you are relishing the fact that you ARE!
after today, i will make myself available to someone truly special and worthy of my precious time, someone like Matt.
and you can go mindfuck someone else.
in truth, i feel it is already too late even to salvage a friendship.
no one treats me this horridly, and like i fucking deserve it, after i held your fucking hand for two fucking years, only to get BETRAYED as though i am nothing to you, as though a complete fucking nothing.
what is it with you?
you hate all men or something?
anyone looking on is like, what the fuck andy, why even give her the fucking time of day?
oh, i forgot, Madonna is the fucking egotistical fucking boss of who……………..no body!
as in no buddy fucking there for you even as a true friend you once had.
you hurt me
and you fucking do it on purpose, which makes me second think of you even as a friend, much less a potential partner.
well go hold your egotistical head up fucking high Madonna, you don’t deserve me!
there, i handed back what you transfered to me, where your bullshit rightfully belongs, with you.
i extended 100% trust to you and this is how you treat a friend that actually gave a fuck about you?
well, good luck making true friends in the future, as i am totally worthy of others who act like ‘real’ friends.
you ask me to be near and you treat me like a fucking shit, and you fucking know you are deliberately treating me like fucking shit!
who the fuck would tolerate your bullshit mentality?
oh, i can have any fucking body i fucking want egotistical fucking loser fucking bullshit!
ah, hey clueless one, guess what works for Andy, someone like Matt who was genuine and true in loving me.
i am not playing your fucking mindfuck games ever again, this is totally fucking it for me, and you will learn the truth of this when i am gone, too late, Andy found someone worthy and deserving of his pure of heart love and trust.
i don’t even know why i am bothering to speak with you after this bullshit mindfuck you put me thru, as though i fucking deserve it.
which tells me, you really so fucking insecure in yourself, beyond fucking belief!
oh, hey, why not sue Andy, the best fucking friend you ever fucking had, and you know it.
i have had nothing but beautiful fucking precious pure loving dreams of being by your side EVERY FUCKING MINUTE OF EVERY FUCkING DAY!!!!!!!!!!!
i know how i feel about you, and you just go and toss me to the side like i don’t even fucking exist????????????????????
24 hours, and that’s it for me, and this door of trust closes forever for any loving thoughts i ever had for you.
i will find a precious pure loving trust worthy soul like Matt in life and you can go try and find your soul with someone’s fucking brain you have not fucked into the ground.
i was suicidal over all this bullshit mindfucking you enjoy last week, and today i woke up, who the fuck would tolerate anyone’s fucking bullshit like yours, who treated me like this, after i was there for you for how fucking long?
well, guess again, i am not going to be there for you any more after tommorrow, and you can fuck right off with you petty ego fucking mindfucking lying motherfucking shit for fucking brains mentality!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i fucking quit your pathetic mindfuck bullshit!!!!!!!!!
forever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ah fuck it!
it’ over before it even got started!
fuck you!
go fuck up someone else!
oh look who it is, it’s Madonna and egotistical, “I’m so much better than any of you bullshit!”
you deliberately fucked my pure of heart spirit who once trusted you, and you fucking know you did it on purpose.
well go ask God how God feels about that, ok?
fuck off!
you don’t even make my friendship list anymore!
and now you can sit back and laugh like in shallow hypocrisy of the poison you deliberately, purposefully injected into me, in your useless delightful hyppocrisy of heart where you dwell, and wonder why Andy spoke his final words of good fucking bye to you!
enjoy!
~ the reflecting mirror of what you deliberately did to a true friend who once trusted you.
oh, i so am not going to put up with you sorry ass bullshit ever again!
tonight i went out, and i am sitting there feeling………..and this feeling came over me, questioning, “Is this someone who genuinely loves me?”
NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
fuck off!
there is no justification for you deliberately pushing me towards a potential suicide death!
oh, hurray for Kabballa, you are so fucking not spiritual at all!
mind fuck games Madonna?
oh really?
be sure to ban me and sue me like everyone else you deliberately poison with your egotistical fucking manipulative mindfuck!
ya, that is so close to Jesus and God
about as far away as one can get, actually
thanks for the painful mindfuck Madonna!
i so deserved that fucking suicidal fucking garbage bullshit.
i don’t think i can ever consider your friendship, honestly, after this mindfuck stunt that i did not deserve.
you hate men!
that much is obvious!
and you turned against a best friend in proving it!
you won’t get a chance to ever betray me again, not in this life time.
i see the motherfucking truth now.
your whole egotistic bullshit has gone off a cliff, and you breed that in others, something i always despised of your shortsightedness about all of us being precious pure souls born into this world.
who mind fucks their best friend?
Madonna!
go ask Jesus and God for forgiveness.
i will someday, but being as totally heartless and careless with a best friend like i was, someone who geninuinely 100% loved you complete to the end of the earth, and you fucking know i did, you go and mind fuck him!
well, i expected it, ok?
just another fucking egotistical Madonna thing for her to chalk up about how much she hates men!
heartless
careless
yep
that’s what you deliberately did to Andy Madonna!
no ever again will i allow you in close to my heart for you to childishly betray like you DID!
on purpose!
oh, i’m so fucking cool, i can do what ever i want!
ya sure, ok.
that’s true love.
not!
the thing that gets me the most is you lured me in close, and then you deliberately did what you did, and walked away, on purpose, knowing i would sit here with your mindfuck!
that is not a friend!
fuck you!
you fucking blew your chance to ever be with me!
and why did you do it?
because you are not this brave girl you pretend to be, afraid to trust someone who may 100% love you completely, which i did and do, always of concern for you at all times, just as Jesus and God constantly ARE!
and when that someone comes in close, you cannot 100% believe it to be true, that someone genuinely 100% loves you completely, so you panic and run away to hide, posturing like you do.
anyway, i am pissed right fucking off, and i am giving you the mirror you asked for, as if i deserve this bullshit from anyone!
fuck! fuck! fuck! fuck and fuck!
this is YOUR BULLSHIT transference, ok?
you keep it, it belongs to you, not me!
cya
and some of it belongs to your ex too!
fucking people man, just treat Andy like i don’t even matter at all!
you did it on purpose, to a true friend, and you fucking know 100% that you did, and so do Jesus and God!
fuck off, ok?
you nearly fucking killed me.
you posture yourself so wise and so smart, “Oh don’t harbor anger.”
you don’t understand the pyschological dynamics of the false mask of anger which is dynamically less emotionally intensive than the deep seated sadness(anquish in my case over Troy) the anger mask covers, which dynamically is easier, less overwhelming for a human being to deal with, and is why anger is DYNAMICALLY the surface manifestation of deep seated anger.
granted, i am one fucked up human being, who still blames himself over the suicide death of his first gay lover, which i was cause for, ok?
and only Jesus and God can forgive me for it, this i already know.
at least after my own copy cat suicide, i woke up to the truth, my motherfucking egotistic fucktardedness was what was cause for Troy’s suicide, of my hanging up the phone on him two weeks before his irrational suicide!
and that is the thing for me, i despise egotistical fucking mentalities of falsehood which are not true of the divine child of God within.
it is this lesson in Jesus and God’s eye which i did not turn from, could not turn from what was 100% TRUTH, and is why God is in my life, knowing i am totally guilt ridden over Troy’s death, and always will be, because it was partially my cause.
God says speak the TRUTH
i spoke the TRUTH
and i don’t spare anyone the TRUTH
you shattered my dream of you and me on purpose, knowing it would grip my heart tightly deep within, where you and i came so close to what HEAVEN constantly IS for us and could of been, but no, you had to go and throw it away!
why?
someone fucking tell me the TRUTH why Madonna?
a true and faithful friend speaks the TRUTH!
so what is the TRUTH?
Andy fucking loved you completely, only to find out how shallow her childish and immature she actually is!
well, you go laugh it off like you always do, of a best friend you nearly fucking destroyed………..on purpose!
i did not deserve the way you treated me.
nor would anyone ever deserve the way you treated me.
nor will i let anyone treat me like this ever again, trust is betrayed and destroyed.
Game Over
i didn’t even like half your music, so as far a fan, i don’t even qualify for that!
i loved the real you, and you fucking know i did!
God knows it
Jesus knows it
I know it!
and you know it!
so tell me why someday!
you hurt me on purpose, with no warning, YOUR deliberate mindfuck!
well, i see you as childish and immature now, so congrates on that.
oh, the kabballist know everything!
like fucking hell they do.
just more scattered merchants of God is what they are, of group dynamic mentality which prevents them from true atonement with God of fully knowing the divine child of God self within.
you have not experienced the day i know of, and i know this by the truth of the way you treated my precious loving soul recently.
i pray someday you do, as the atonement gives 100% clarity to what HEAVEN constantly IS, in each passing moment of every blessed day.
boastful divisions of the scattered religions is of those who did not know God, nor desire to TRULY know God.
Those who know God, know the truth of this in all the scattered religions in the world.
so go be the boastful all knowing leader in the world, who took delight in egotistically trashing a best friend like you deliberately did, and see if i ever give a fuck about anything you say, because i don’t.
seeing as how you totally disrespected me recently, you are not of desire to truly respect anything i say as truth, so why should i care to continue further with you?
aimless pointlessness as far as i am concerned, a bridge of trust you deliberately betrayed, of your unbelievable shattering of a boy’s dream who once trusted and loved you, and what gets me, is you know i truly did.
why?
transference?
you were bored?
oh, yeah, i forgot that one, “I get bored of someone after a year or so.”
you know, if i had a chance to hold Troy’s hand again, i could not ever say something like that to him.
immature
anyway, that’s some of my useless breakdown junk of my theraputic grieving over a boy’s shattered dream, of letters not sent
sent
i would not do to anyone what you deliberately you did to me.
i would of at least given direction to the friend of concern, who i knew was in love with me, and let them down easily.
and you talk about being respectful
you don’t even respect the friendship we had, too important for a true friend who was there for you when you needed one.
you cannot ever take that away from me. I was there when you needed me.
anyway, i said what i had to say, im over it, trust destroyed, time to move on, find someone who is of genuine true approach with me, knowing what works for me, and what obviously does not and won’t ever work for me.
you people and your insensitive bullshit can all fuck off, ok?
some of us still have a loving soul
fuck! he’s not even my type! so what’s there to be jealous of! lol
as a friend you could of told me you just wanted a friendship, and let me down gracefully, instead of leading me to feel like i was more than a friend, and then you tripping out the door with someone else like you did.
or as a friend you could of said you just want to be free for awhile, which i totally understand, considering how one feels once they have true freedom of from a previous toxic relationship.
emotional transition is what we are both of, that’s all, perfectly normal.
anyway, i don’t have much trust for you right now, and why should i, after this?
when a soul genuinely yearns for another, they naturally move in the direction of following their true feelings and anticipation for that soul, which is what has been my approach with you, genuine and sincere 100%.
of course i feel abandoned and betrayed, the same way they abandoned Jesus, and yet i embrace true freedom of our heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, which i know to be true of my own life at this cross road of life, a blessed feeling.
i don’t begrudge you being happy with another soul, that’s not why i am upset.
i genuinely felt you and i wanted the same thing, only to face a day where the opposite appeared before me, a day where i came face to face with embracing that perhaps we did want the same thing at one time, but now it was only me as the only one still standing there yearning for what i have always yearned for as i have for so many years.
and this is not a bad thing for me to feel, that indeed i do love you, it’s just not going in the direction i had prayed for, of what any soul constantly yearns to constantly feel what HEAVEN constantly IS, constant flowing of the feelings of feeling loved and loving of another.
is that what obsessed is?
so Jesus was obsessed in his love for the pure of heart divine child of us ALL?
ah well, i do love love love my homosexual lifestyle, and look forward to getting back to a one on one true loving lover again, excited actually, YES!!!!!!!!, oh how i love getting fucked!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol
so in that sense, a thank you and my apology for my drunken disorder last night are in order?
fuck you!
fucking biyatches!!!!!!!!!!!!
LOL
you are so going to have stand directly in front of me now, if ever you want to re-establish my trust of you ever again!
if Jesus was abit more slender, instead of the heavier build, i would snatch him away from you biyatch!!!!!!!!!
just to piss you off!
but i don’t waste time playing games like that any more.
i know what i am looking for, someone who is totally into me as i am them, as love takes root and grows into the beautiful wonderous extraordinary blossoming of exceeding joyfulness of two souls running down the street holding hands every where they go, of constant passionate sweet anticipation in every heartbeat, every time the thought of one another enters our minds, of the most loving lovers who obviously cannot get enough of each other, of the most precious thing they are running out of in life………….more time together!
you know, that’s what i hate about life the most, is that we all have to die some day.
i mean what the fuck is up with that anyway?
it’s just so fucking wrong!
we run thru life loving loving loving, and then fucking die?
what the fuck God?
please explain!
oh yeah, the immortal spirit thing.
i am close to understanding what that is, in a true knowingness way.
it appears Jesus came into awareness about something unexplainable, of the existence of an Immortal Spirit realm one can and does enter into, of only love devoid of all the bullshit junk bitter mentalities in the world, of only 100% constant flowing pure love at all times.
you know, i felt that with you, and that is what confuses me Madonna.
we both felt it, and so i ask, why would you throw something like that away, doing things which destroy the ability to trust between us when we were embracing these pure of heart awarenesses like we did and do?
you make no sense to me somedays.
what, you think i am going to be happier getting fucked every day instead of being with you?
is that it?
you cut me loose so i could be the happy ass fucking fucker i know I AM?
admittedly, i do love getting fucked!
and in truth, i would totally miss it, after getting fucked like i have for twenty years now!
ok, i get it!
still, i am not going to apologize for your latest fling.
fuck you! lol
fucking Madonna, she just steam rolls right thru a person’s soul, leaving them smashed apon the ground to scrape themselves up.
who needs friends who emotionally beat the fuck out of you like that?
you were beating on the wrong dude biyatch!
fucking transference, fuck!
warning to all, don’t get too close to a female who is divorcing an abusive partner……….it’s about as much fun as shoving your fingers in an electrical outlet, leaving you with an out of body experience as you try to make sense of why your hair looks the way it looks! lol
i like my new androngyous long hair look.
oh, i know what i am doing this year for pride!
body painting!
a totally nude body painted by an artist all beautiful, of every inch of the body, face and hair, sorta like the way Rosie paints, a walking beautiful colourful art piece of exceeding joyfulness.
two lovers in total body paint of exceeding joyfulness running down the street, of the obvious joyful TRUE free spiritedness mirroring for the entire world to FEEL, and trust me, they will FEEL the joy of these two beautiful slender tall immaculate naked bodies of exceedingly joyful bright loving lovers, so pure in erotic free spiritedness.
the body painting is not perfect at all, not flawless, rather of a sorta care free spiritedness of fast painted faces, birds, a sun rise, the ocean, all of bright colour, no black.
hmmmm……….some ten mile bike runs between now and then, and presto, a nice firm body!
my then, my hair should be shoulder length, of wild colour sticking out every direction!
only love and joy is good enough for any soul!!!!!!
BE your JOYFUL SELF!!!!!!!!!!
blessings to all
if you truly love and want ‘me’, you have some serious explaining to do.
anyway, i think a year out for both of us is in order.
free spiritedness is healthy for us.
i am still the loving true and faithful friend i always was, and shall be till the end, and hey look, it does not end!
we are over one million strong now here in Toronto!
and it keeps growing more and more happy!!!!!!!!
gee, i wonder why?
not!
must BE those insanely dressed lovers who obviously love one another!
Yikes, i don’t know why you get so worked up about her toyboy,
if you cannot join them, then outdo them them i say..
i got two toyboy’s… now i’m in the middle.. so don’t start on me ok…. Lol
Brick between the concreat ! , get it ?
oh never mind..
boy & a girl .. lived in a different world !
Parallel universe,,,,, more likely…
spooky hey !!!!
oh well
life is a comedy
laugh… God Damm it !!!
Paranoid Universe…
Lol….
i can see right through
YOU !!!!
hey, G W H Sxoxoxo your like an uncle to me, it’s in the blood after all hey !!
organise to meet me, i want to meet you
dont stress i won’t judge you, i just want to meet you cause all my family from that side have passed away i think somehow you’ll be a good father figure for me that’s all…
i felt you…
hey
organise it
OK
who wants or needs deliberate hurtful mental abuse?
if i did this to you, you would call me a heartless self-centered fucking jerk off!
you know the kind, who cannot stop looking in the mirror at themselves, too preoccupied with themselves to realize you are even standing there.
boy finally gets bored and tired of girls self-centered disconnected bullshit.
i am not coming back to you once i find happiness with another who reciprocates in exact sameness with me.
i’ve been coming to a final awareness conclusion lately, that if you truly genuinely wanted to BE with me, you would easily BE of true genuine approach with me.
you know, like in high school, the one who you wanted to pay attention to you, comes up to you and appears clearly attracted to you and interested in being around you?
well, i was that guy for this girl, but she just kept running around with other guys, saying hi to me as she passed by me, always another guy on her arm.
do you know how that feels?
so i said to the girl, do you even remotely think of you and me at all?
she laughed as she ran out the door with the another guy.
the boy standing there alone yet again, crushed feelings in trying to stop denying and accepting the obvious truth, the girl simply does not want him like he wanted her to, like he does her,
the boy finally turns away, tears in his eyes, no more denial, and no watching where he is going, the boy bumps into this totally beautiful sweet guy who is alot like himself, their bodies making full contact with each other as they find one another in each other’s arms, standing there hugging. The beautiful boy of such sweetness he had ever seen, asks him, “Can i kiss you?” Suddenly, these overwhelming feelings come flooding over the boy which were of all his secret homoerotic fantasy masterbations that he had not told anyone about, his face turning red, a surrendering feeling coming over him, his sexuality completely flooding his brain with his oh so incredibly beautiful true deep homoerotic urge, as he leans in and kisses the beautiful boy who obviously wants the same thing he does.
the beautiful boy asks him, “What are you doing tonight?”
the boy says, “Nothing!”
the beautiful boy says, “Would you like to come home with me and have sex?”
the boy says, “FUCK YEAH!!!!!!!! I have been masterbating over you fucking me for years, ever since i hit puberty!!!!!!!”
of exceeding joyful delight, the two sweet loving beautiful boys smiling, kiss again, and take hold of one anothers hand, walking down the street, the other students starring at them, of the two boys so obviously happy and joyful, kissing like they do all the time, as they give the finger to all the ones who shouted hateful words at them, and yelled back, “Fuck you, we truly fucking love each other more so than any of you fucking heterosexuals could even dream about!!!!!!!!”
LOL
oopss……
i agree, who wants to waste time feeling negative, when they could be having the best sex of their life?
well…………i am that boy……………who you know still loves you, but you are not making me feel like you want to have sex with me, and when it feels like that, you know how it feels, yes?
it feels like rejection
it’s not that you want to hurt me or anything, just as neither of us want to hurt anothers feelings, it’s just that, well…………..you don’t want to have sex with me like i do you, of the boy standing there alone day after day like i have for along time.
eventually, everyone in high school moved on in life and all found a lover, and none of us looked back, once of the loving lover arms of another, no one really hurt, as we all found our way in life, and indeed, we all did find a loving lover, did we not?
well………i am still standing here looking at you, at this point in the time line, where you found a lover, and the only obvious direction for me now, is what?
ok?
our lives are going in the natural direction of what is next, is it not?
You are not truly interested in being with me, like i was you. True or False?
Actions speak louder than words.
I have the option to feel constantly loved with a lover. We all do, and it is where we all constantly yearn to belong, not here in this horrible place alone, feeling the truth i don’t want to feel, that it is only me and my fantasies of you.
So the direction for Andy is what? To where we all yearn to be found, in the arms of a most loving lover. It’s what we all do. No one to blame. It’s just where we sometimes find our SELF at times on the road of life, that’s all.
Getting real with me while you are getting real with another?
Goodbye Madonna
I truly loved and love you, and you know 100% that i always did, yet do, and always WILL
blessings to all
Jesus loves ALL God loves ALL We love ALL
God blesses ALL
Just search your true emotional honesty, and decide, before i decide for you.
last chance
God says i 100% deserve to KNOW the truth.
It is absurd that i even have to ask, where if you TRULY did want to BE with me, i would not have to ask, i would obviously KNOW.
well, running around with someone else?
clearly i obviously KNOW the truth now, do i not?
we all yearn to constantly feel loved and loving with a loving lover.
trust me, i have no problem finding that, and as for anything less, well, who wants to feel that?
blessed is this day of truth
I KNOW 100%, you and i would be HAPPINESS!!!!!!!!!!
and we would not ever feel anything but happiness every moment of every day.
the door for you and me as lovers is closing.
if you found happiness, i am happy for you both, truly i am.
i am a loving lover veteran of the GLBT community, who pushes forward daily in togetherness for all the loving lovers here.
it is insulting and mentally abusive for me the way you brush me off like you do, and anyone in the ghetto would agree. Fuck her Andy! Look at the way she treats you, like i am some competitive warrior!
well ok, perhaps we are, yes?
im not putting up with the excuses i keep making for you any more.
just fucking decide, ok?
fuck! Is that so fucking hard?
Is that too much too ask?
i should just ditch your sorry ass and walk away with someone else, who will make me forget you.
last chance biyatch!
it’s hurting me badly, and i don’t want to let go of what i know to be true of us both so far.
and you know i am hurting badly over this.
worse than anything in life, other than Troy.
i want HAPPINESS!!!!!!!!
not this place of unhappiness of wondering about happiness with you.
it is hurting me deeply inside, and i can’t keep going like this, wondering, i have to let go, and i don’t want to, but i have to, and it makes me cry thinking about the truth i don’t want to feel..
please stop
i really can’t handle this any more.
you know i am spiritually wealthy, pure of heart, and so you know 100% i am the way i am, just like you, and you know Andy will always be looking towards spirituality, even if i am not as evolved as i will yet become, i am 100% turned towards spiritual wealth, am i not?
It is what I AM, and you know i WILL always be someone near in pure of heart for you.
i want more, that’s all.
bless you bless you bless you
well, ok, you have a lover, and i am happy for both of you, who are of what HEAVEN constantly is, the delight of constant flowing of sweet anticipation of the loving lover each blessed day you wake to.
i wanted that lover to be me, and you know 100% that i did
how am i supposed to laugh about a shattered dream?
are you for real?
if you dressed him up in flowers, naked, would he be the ever radiant brilliant bright shining joyfulness in his every moment of wedded bliss i know i would of been every day?
i doubt it, and yet, if you are 100% genuinely loving of his soul, he will feel the truth of that, and he will blossom beautifully so along side you.
i want that for both of you as i exit the bridal chamber here with you, so that both of your souls are no longer distracted away from each other.
remember ‘me’ at times, after i am gone, of what mattered most to ‘me’ in life, blessed happiness of the loving lovers forever more.
so bye bye love
“halo spaceboy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”
don’t worry, I AM HAPPINESS of my ‘real’ self radiant brilliant bright when of the genuine emotionally true loving feelings of a loving lover, which was what i wanted with you, as i turn to find another.
if he turns out to be a stick in the mud, then look me up sometime, where God willing, i may still be single, as i am descerning of finding someone like ‘me’
which i know you 100% ARE and always will be, of why i know i will always feel the way i do for you, and you know this to be true of ‘me’
we would of been the most extraordinary wondrous radiant brilliant bright loving lovers the world has ever seen, but you did not give us a chance to find out.
i don’t know why you didn’t, knowing how we both feel for each other.
100% loving lover mirror IS what we would of been for the entire world to FEEL everywhere we went.
i was 100% commited, of surrendered heart, mind, body, spirit and soul to you, and you know………..without doubt………….I AM and was, always shall BE who I AM
i was concerned for the much needed healing of my own life, your life, and life of the ALL, of what IS the Power of the Love of the ALL is what lifts the ALL up out of hell into heaven.
I AM who i always WILL BE forever more with or without you physically of the most loving lovers, knowing another is equally able to take hold of my hand just as you could of, and BE the loving lover mirror of SELF within us ALL, and……….without doubt…………I AM the WILL to BE ONLY ‘THAT’
forever more
i pray ONLY happiness for you, and you know i mean this when i say this……….without doubt.
so far we journeyed along side one another, i am shocked that you turned to another, wonder if someday you wake and feel that perhaps you made a mistake, not sure if you feel you are.
there seems to be a duality with you, of the pure of heart self ‘real’ you, who 100% loved/loves me without doubt, and the lessor undecided self, feeling perhaps there will come a day after i am gone, that you find yourself missing ‘me’, the one who 100% loves you without doubt, knowing every blessed day would of seen the wholeness power of two pure of heart loving lovers who are 100% spiritually wise of the constant WILL to BE what HEAVEN constantly IS, not of a wishful thinking way, rather of what we constantly ARE, wise in 100% LOVE WITHOUT DOUBT.
well, if he wanes on you, promise to get back to ‘me’, which i know you will, knowing i really do love you……..without doubt.
something you and i came to know and fully discover to BE TRUE of us both, did we not?
you know i know you
i know you know ‘me’
the same way you know you
of our sacred blessed sanctuaries
like the one in the video of you sitting alone at the beach under the moon light.
i know you know ‘me’ like i know you
this IS who you and i both are, is it not?
meant to BE who we truly prefer BEing, the pure of heart genuine and always true pure flawless healing loving lover we 100% are……….without doubt.
this is hurting ‘me’, and i know you know it is.
i ask, “Have you thought about how i am feeling, seeing me standing there alone, not understanding why you got up from the beach and walked away leaving ‘me’ sitting here, knowing i will always yet be sitting here till my last day?”
you know it is not possible for ‘me’ to BE anything other than who I AM
just as you know you cannot BE anthing other than who you really really are.
~
nonetheless, I AM here in this life as a wise child of God, which you know i always WILL BE………without doubt.
i cannot be inconsiderate of you for loving another soul, just as you cannot be of ‘me’ for loving another soul, BE Cause we both ARE loving of ALL souls, are we not?
i am……..BE Cause We ARE………..children of the Light of God, the self-knowledge self-awareness Light of the blessed ‘real’ self of us ALL
blessed is the flawless wise Light of the child of God ‘real’ self forever more
blessed blessed blessed we ALL ARE!
blessed blessed blessed is YOU!
blessed blessed blessed is ‘me’!
blessed blessed blessed is the day you see ‘me’ when every you feel like ‘me’!
forever more
taxi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol
i fucking love you biyatch, and you fucking know this to BE TRUE >>>>>>>>>>>> without doubt!
YES?
or no?
i want wise Light collaboration radiant brilliant bright, not the lessor fractured egotistic competition dull unwise dim!
there is no hidding the truth of ‘real’ self over petty ego self, and in time, the Light of truth of ‘real’ self WILL shine radiant brilliant bright for us both, either with each other or with another.
if you are of another, my light shall shine radiant brilliant bright for sake of ALL souls
if of ‘me’, our Light shall shine radiant brilliant bright for sake of ALL souls
I AM of God’s wise Light of the trueness aspects of the blessed divine child within us ALL.
as for paranoid, well, if you stopped for a moment and really feel what is my life, then you would know each moment why i am feeling the way i do, which you used to do, until the boytoys distracted you away from ‘me’
anyway, none of your boytoys are my type, slender effeminate and tender gentle delicate sweet loving like ‘me’
so with that said, “Do you have any girl toys, and if so, can i come over?” LOL
what? I AM a girl! You know i had to ask!
i want girl toys, not boy toys, where it is hard to find boytoys that are of any use!
for sure, some of you got that one, yes?!!!
i mean half of them don’t even know how to masterbate properly! lol
ok, without doubt, you WILL let ‘me’ know one way or another, with or without ‘me’
always with ‘me’, i shall always find you in my heart!
forever more
biyatch!
am i ‘real’ Madonna?
i feel ‘that’ which I AM, ‘that’ which i really really AM, according to Jesus, the I AM of us ALL, the Power of Love of the ALL which lifts us ALL out of the darkness of hell into the Light of Self in HEAVEN of constant flowing love………………..without doubt.
i can’t let go, and i don’t know what to do
it’s sorta like us both jumping out of an aircraft, free falling to the ground quickly approaching, where i cannot pull my chute open until i am certain that yours fully deploys first, knowing you are ok.
even if it means my hitting the ground
SO HURRY UP WILL YOU!!!!!!!!
TIME IS RUNNING OUT FOR BOTH OF US!!!!!!!!
i am such a hopeless romantic, yes?
(andy soft lands in some trees, as Madonna crashes thru a barn roof, thru a hay loft, down thru to the basement, landing on flat on her back, with a beautiful stallion standing above her, snorting!
LOL
gee, who is that Stallion she lays next 2?
huh? a bisexual stallion?
ah, did someone tell Madonna about the nature of this stallion?
LOL
hey, did i tell you about this vivid vivid dream i had of ‘me’ sitting naked in a tree, under a full moon?
At first i thought i was alone, then without a sound, a hand touched me, and i looked over to their dark shadowy appearance, but i could not make out what sex they were, and then i realized it was another male.
i had this dream back when i was first coming out of the closet, so afraid to come out as a homosexual, of great internal homophobia.
the dream was so vivid, it cut thru to the core of my being, as i cryed in that moment of my finally accepting my homosexuality, of a spirit which knew i was going thru such great difficulty in accepting my self, back when i was suicidal over being gay, because of the church which outed me in front of the congregation, saying all sinners are welcomed here before God, including homosexuals, of Troy and his family sitting there, so overwhelming for me, i got up and walked out, and did not return.
alot of us experience this sorta thing, and is why i want to collaborate with you in life, for sake of other souls, like we have all this time.
but now i am out as a bisexual, and i do love both of my sexualities 100%
i know if of you, i would be eternally happy every blessed day i woke to, because of your inner joyfulness like my own, and our fearlessness is beyond others, where combined of 100% surrendered commitment to one another, which i am, and i know you are too, spiritually, truly, i know, this world is not ready for us!
bless you bless you bless you
forever more
oh my god, i can’t stop laughing!
damn, that really is some bad ass weed!
I AM a flawless father, mother, brother, sister of the ALL
anyway, you two love birds have my blessing
YOU are both constantly loved by Jesus and God at all times, who ask and want you to constantly BE the radiant brilliant bright Light of the ‘real’ YOU!
for sake of you both, and for sake of the Power of Love of the ALL, Just BE your SELF!
Let me know if he let’s you down Madonna.
i don’t think he will.
he will adjust to your beautiful loving soul in time, and bloom brighter than the brightest star, more and more in each day passing.
don’t ever hurt him, and he will always love you.
i have to exit the bridal chamber, yet not ever do i exit the bridal chamber, of both the bride and the groom, where i am to BE of what I AM, the silence of my pure of heart love that does not stop flowing.
my radiant brilliant bright Light WILL continue to shine in the world, and like i feel your light thru others, you too are of the same WILL to feel mine, of what we all are, Flow of Perennial fresh water, unconditional lovers of ALL, the many in the One and One in the many united as One, of the WorldWide GLBT community.
thank you Madonna!
bless you bless you bless you
Jesus constantly loves YOU!
God constantly loves YOU!
i constantly love YOU!
We constantly love ALL!
forever more
blessings to all
best friends forever more you shall always have of ‘me’
bless you and your loving family
bless you
biyatch!
in kabballa, sex is of the highest regard
so then our lover is to ALWAYS BE of the highest regard, 100% at all times!
just as sex feels 100% divinely pure and flawless in feelings, which it IS, so too are we to BE wise in surrendered commited spirit to our lover, who feels the truth of to what degree we are commited.
truly, a loving lover is of constant sweet anticipation for their lover, this i know of having many lovers in life, knowing what is of most value to me, my lover self.
so let me go, and go BE 100% of a loving lover, of God, before you.
We are all of God, and God’s divine will IS constantly 100% LOVE WISDOM COMPASSION at all times, and the bridal chamber threshold of the true ‘real’ self, is fearlessly stepped thru into what HEAVEN constantly IS at all times, Love devoid of doubt, the loving lover chamber where no others are allowed to enter, unless they are 100% of God’s divine Oneness WILL, which i know I AM, however fractured i may appear at times, a result of the road of life, my continued evolving in wise self-awareness knowledge of the pure of heart divine Child of God’s wisdom meant to nurture and protect those who enter into the bridal chamber away from the world of doubtfulness, where love devoid of doubt constantly flows.
It is this Light from the bridal chamber which constantly shines radiant brilliant bright for ALL the world to FEEL, of what IS wise PURE KNOWING ‘REAL” SELF-awareness encouragement understanding of the divine WILL of God, of not just understanding both the bride and groom embrace, rather what they constantly 100% ARE at all times, the radiant brilliant bright light of ‘real’ self 100% enthralled of*for*with ONE another at all times, where no soul is able to come between them, once they BEcome fully of God’s divine WILL for the Light which lights up the entire world, where it IS the this wise Light which IS the Power of the ALL which lifts ALL out of ignorant dark broken spirited bitter binding chains of what hell IS, the radiant brilliant light MIRROR that awakens Self of another into full awareness of what the Light actually IS, constant pure of heart pure flawless flowing connected feelings of love devoid of doubt, where we all yearn to BE found at all times, of what HEAVEN constantly IS, just as the exceeding joyfulness of sex constantly is, YES?!!!
ok, thank you for listening/feeling!
blessings to all forever more
halo space boy, where did you go?
where AM i?
I AM YOU halo space boys and girls!
now get OUT of here and go live your exceedingly joyful lives, and stop annoying ‘me’!
blessed are the loving lovers of the bridal chamber of eternal love devoid of doubt here in HEAVEN!
you biyatches, wait up!
take him to the gym with you M, so that the love grows!
What ya mean, i don’t listen
I listen to every word…
cluch every straw.. lol
I am rather bored atm, my friend has passed out..
you wanna do lunch.. like right now uhmm ?
oh for god’s sake,
don’t think i am just going to use you as a sex object..
i have real feeling’s, no one else makes me feel like such a dumn ass…. dah, got me again i am so cornered, &
I Love it
i don’t have girl toys but you can play with me instead…
hurry up !!! Damn it, i really want to hear you laughing at how dumn ass that i am,
i love hearing you laugh,
yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes
I fucking love you,
yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes
i love hearing you laugh
yes yes yes yes yes
is anyone listening ?
i have already decided,
come ova and cuddle me, if you want to that is…
else make me laugh
seduce me God Damm it,
or are running away again.. ?
don’t run away from your self …
come back here @#@#
this is pointless, i am talking to my self
guess i’ll go rest up then,
i’ll try again later on today…
girl i gonna make you sweat
till you can’t fret no more
and nobody gets in my pants
i just cuddle
where r you hiding all my life
self no paranoid just occupying a void without you
i love you and you know it
lol
ya, ‘me’ too
cuddling feels so pure and true, with who ever is there.
but i am saving all my love for someone true.
not sure who
is that someone you?
tell ‘me’ it’s true
i feel it is you
is it true for you too?
or was it just my imagination?
blessed blessed blessed is the love i feel for you
and i know i always will, praying radiant brilliant bright happiness for you and ‘me’
i am in love with who i feel you are.
why are we so afraid?
fearlessness is what i am used to BEing as my ‘real’ self.
but at times with you, i am afraid.
afraid to find my self alone one day of you and another true blue like ‘me’, leaving ‘me’ truly blue!
fuck, i wanna have sex with a loving lover again someday!
you know the lover who makes our brain swim with delight of sweet anticipation of fucking again and again?
ya, i miss the lover ‘me’!
ok, so we both know what we both want, do we not?
maybe i didn’t treat you quite as good as i should
maybe i didn’t love you quite as i could
you are always on my mind
you are always in my heart
and then i hear someone fart
oh for fuck sakes Andy, you always spoil a romantic moment!
lol
i love love love my body
i love love love you body 2
i love love love ‘me’ & you
i love love love when we screw!
lol
where am i hiding?
i am masterbating back in the 1970s
i have these secret homoerotic feelings of a male fucking me, and i have not told anyone, especially not my next door neighbor Mike, who has such a beautiful penis.
we were skinny dipping in the pool the other day, just him and me alone. We discovered that the water jets in the pool feel good sexually good!
Later Mike was laying there on his towel, in the warm sunshine, as i kept starring at his beautiful body, wanting and yearning to have sex with him.
my heart was racing and racing, and after an hour of just looking at his naked body, i finally got the courage up to touch his body.
As i went over to him, a car pulled in the drive way……..it was his family coming home.
we screamed as we raced to get our shorts from out of the pool………………
another time Mike caught me with my Mom’s playgirl mags……………i died a thousand deaths that day!
I was nick named Pansy for the rest of high school, indicative of Mike’s secret homoerotic fantasies of ‘me’, fantasies i too kept alive, but later submerged.
i discovered it is natural to feel the erotic female side of ‘me’, which is why i love you like i do………..100%
and oh how i ‘really’ do!
love to screw!
as a boy and a girl, i know i both am!
oh how i know how it feels to be a girl!
oh how i know how you feel to be a boy!
what shall we do?
oh tell ‘me’, what can we do?
i saw you one day, driving that old camero!
is it true, you feel like i do too?
why not go for someone like you?
who you know will love you true blue?
i love you and you know it
i need you
i don’t want to cry any more
and neither do you
we yearn to BE the happiness of loving lover life!
so love ‘me’ or pass ‘me’ by
don’t leave me HANGING bye
somebody get ‘me’ OUT of hear
somebody get ‘me’ out of here
i am not running away from ‘me’
i cannot run away from ‘me’
can’t you see, that i am ‘free’
the gentle breeze in my hair
the ‘real me’ still standing there?
i have no place to go
other than what I AM
do you love who I AM?
do yo want to love ‘real me’?
i love ‘real me’
others love ‘real me’ 2
so let’s not be blue
bin there already, it ends in death
i came thru deaths door, and ran to life
checked my ego at the door
don’t you see, i am ‘free’?
to just BE, the ‘real me’?
do you love ‘real me’?
purhaps not as much as you want 2?
i am all these things of ‘real me’
can’t you see/feel?
who i really really am?
do you know who i really really am?
am i not you 2?
come on, i am full of so much fun and exceeding joy!
and you know that i am!
don’t worry, i’ll understand.
don’t leave me hanging bye
of these tears i yet cry
either let ‘me’ go
or get on with the show!
lol
fucking biyatch!
i am so much happier than most any in life, and you fucking know it!
argh……..you are making such a huge mistake!
although i do admit……….he is FUCKING ADORABLE!!!!!!!!
fuck!!!!!!!!!
but not my type.
he has a warm beautiful personality which resonates with you, yes?
i am so very happy for you.
is he the one truly meant for you
and will he stay radiant brilliant bright?
well, that depends on if you commit to loving him forever more as your lover.
it is sad that we did not get to explore, what i know would of been my radiant brilliant bright loving lover for you
don’t worry, i will find another
don’t leave ‘me’ hanging bye
of these tears i yet cry
i have to go
so you can get on with the show
i don’t think you fully realize and appreciate what i successfully transitioned thru in life.
Rosie knows
it is a mindset of pure self-love
and this pure self-love, is self-love of another
this mindset is beyond everything else in life
of what IS the Oneness of the GLBT
do you truly love who I AM?
do you truly feel who I AM?
a 20 year veteran of the GLBT community
so i ask, how much joy do you think you and i would truly ALWAYS BE?
i have so many dreams of so many loving joyful projects we could collaborate on.
i feel that you are not as free as you would be if of you and me, and we did not explore the truth of this, of what appears to be what is of your yearning to do so.
i would not ever leave you, and you know 100% could not.
i want to only be with you forever more
and you know i do
and i feel it’s true for you too
so stop running away from the boy who is yet standing there waiting for you, who you KNOW truly wants to be with you!
i want what you want, and i feel it is ‘me’
i am a simple country boy, of sweet loving charm as the ‘real me’.
don’t leave ‘me’ hanging bye
of these tears i yet cry
i’ll be find
one so kind
no wait.
don’t leave ‘me’ hanging bye
of tears i yet cry
i WILL BE find
of one so kind
come on!
let’s grind!
lol
i need to stop being afraid of just being ‘me’
and get back to the happy joyful loving beautiful lover i really really am
like a beautiful flower that attracks a bee
of truely returning to thee
I AM a beautiful loving bisexual, and i am truly of fun loving pure erotic joyfulness daily, of radiant brilliant bright constantly smiling.
don’t you see, i cannot be radiant brilliant bright without someone true
don’t leave ‘me’ hanging bye
if it’s time to say goodbye
don’t leave ‘me’ hanging bye
if it’s time we start to try
don’t leave ‘me’ hanging bye
because i don’t want to die
look, this has to stop!
either commit to what you truly yearn for, which appears to be the beautiful fun loving 20 year veteran of the GLBT community, a sweet sweet tender delicate gentle mild truly fun loving effeminate bisexual country by of healthy self-actualization.
i mean come on Madonna, i am not just anybody, we are talking 20 fucking years as a true ghetto boy, of the most carefree fun loving spirit of any you will ever meet.
and i am highly intellectual in the field of study in theology.
fuck! i can’t believe you would screw it up for us, which it appears you are, of what you know makes me feel sad, when you know i cannot stay for more of that.
i mean fuck, go be with him then, and stop toying with my heart and soul, of what could destroy me if i put up with much more of the fractured uncertainty that you keep between us.
it’s just stupid ok?
ok, look.
let’s say you wanted to date someone you saw.
and you decide, hey, i know how i feel about this person.
so you approach them..
they too tell you what is true of their feelings for you too, and we are not talking about a mere passing here.
how many years now?
so do you then go and break their heart, and smash them apon the ground like you are doing?
if someone did that to you, what would you do?
you would say, fuck you! what the fuck? oh fuck you!
lol
ya, i heard about your happy kissing of your new lover.
it hurts.
so…………………………
don’t leave ‘me’ hanging bye
if it’s time to say goodbye
don’t leave ‘me’ hanging bye
if it’s time we start to try
don’t leave ‘me’ hanging bye
because i don’t want to die
i have come along way in life, living in the cocoon of the GLBT community now for 20 years.
i am not an ordinary soul of life lived.
i love where i am today.
my bisexual humor that surprises even ‘me’
so open as a bisexual, i am like, wow! i love this ‘real me’.
looks like there is more than humor to the bisexual ‘real me’, there is deep feelings of song writing too.
i wish you would respect and love the ‘real me’ bisexual more than you do Madonna, feeling you genuinely would, just as you truly do the Gays and Lesbians.
i think it is perhaps the out bisexual i am, which is beyond Gay or Lesbian, in the true knowingness of a true out bisexual, a rare soul, so fearless i am, am i not?
it is a beautiful place where i am today after a 20 year walk in the GLBT ghetto cocoon of so much love and joyfulness.
the other day i was talking as my out bisexual self in the cafe for the first time, and i felt so awkward, paranoid as you say, of others who don’t know how much i 100% love their gay self, as much as my own, of what is their own lack of understanding and fearlessness in BEing the bisexual i feel we all are.
these fucking names we hold onto is so fragil for so many, in their work places and personal lives.
i realize i am a unique flower, a blue rose, and i love myself more so now than before, as seemingly only a gay boy, which secretly inside i always knew i was more than gay, no different than a seemingly heterosexual who secretly fantazises about homosexual sex, and YOU ALL FUCKING DO, OK? fucking liars!
anyway, my point is, that the way a heterosexual lover relationship or a homosexual lover relationship works, is because of the 100% certainty between the two.
the (seemingly) fractured issue of the ‘real me’ of a now out bisexual is what is of uncertainty, and it is this issue which is ‘real’ and yet between us, and yet we both love the male*female side of us both, so there is that pure connectedness as well.
anyway, i love who i am, an i need to spend more time with other out bisexuals this year, in fully accepting who i really really am.
my thinking and feelings as the true ‘real me’ out bisexual IS beyond my previous so called ‘real me’ gayboy.
the problem is like that of families who don’t accept their gay/lesbian sons and daughters, where the bisexual, actually is even more deviant in appearance than the gay or lesbian tabooness.
i don’t see an exit door out of bisexual, knowing 100% that i am, of what IS the ‘real me’ who loves GLBT and the seemingly Straight souls too.
i cannot stay where i do not feel accepted, just as any of us in the GLBT community.
so………..
don’t leave ‘me’ hanging bye
if it’s time to say goodbye
don’t leave ‘me’ hanging bye
if it’s time we start to try
don’t leave ‘me’ hanging bye
because i don’t want to die
i suppose i should just go, and get it on with another lover.
i am happy for you, and yet i sense you want me, more than where you have found yourself lately.
if we don’t explore it, we won’t ever know
i know you love ‘me’
ok, well, i am happy that you have fearless returned to lovers embrace, that feels pure and true of ‘real’ self, yes?
healthy ‘real’ you!
i am not jealous, rather i am of feeling where i yet am, not of lovers embrace, of what i too know what lovers embrace feels like, so pure and true of ‘real’ self.
i thought you wanted that with ‘me’, and why i held on for so long like i did.
you felt the truth of what i was feeling and yet feel for you, of what is pure and true of ‘me’, my bisexual female lover side, which i 100% love.
which i 100% love
which i 100% love
which i 100% love
which i 100% love
which i 100% love
of what IS 100% of ‘me’, an out bisexual pure and truly loving as both a male lover and a female lover.
here is an interesting question for you.
IS God male and female?
the answer is obvious………without doubt………..YES!
both
the male and female become one to recreate blessed SELF of both the male and female.
how can i begrudge the beautiful place where you now are of lovers embrace, of what it IS that i too 100% yearn to BE found?
it would be foolishly untrue of me to do so, would it not?
just as it would be foolish to think God would want anything other than love for you to constantly feel and BE found of what IS the blessed ‘real’ self you.
what i am feeling is my not BEing of lovers embrace with someone who i thought wanted the same thing.
we did feel that we did, and perhaps you still do, like i yet do.
here is the thing, i know i always will feel this for you 100%
so you need not ever doubt that i will.
however, i have to turn fully towards where i yearn to BE found, of what it is that you now feel, the beautiful feelings of lovers embrace.
i don’t ever want to hurt you in turning away, but i have to go now, away from feeling crushed beyond belief, and stop crying over what did not come true, of what i wanted since 1995.
ok, so i am hurt beyond belief of the day i always dreaded and why i chose not to approach you before, of not wanting to feel this day of rejection which has come.
but here is the thing, you did not truly come to know, love and truly appreciate the beautiful effeminate pure loving soul of Andy, so delicate and sensitive like your ‘real’ self, because if you had, you would not of ran with another.
and that is the thing, you did not explore who i really am in ‘real’ life, and so instead of feeling rejection, i don’t, because the truth is, you did not get to experience the pure fullness of the graceful pure and true ‘real me’, albeit, as a true and faithful friend along life’s road you did feel my presence with you, like that of the ‘real’ you i resonated with, just as most any soul does.
seduce you?
it’s not like that.
when i think of another, i think of their beauty, their delicate gentle pure graceful mild self in likeness of my own, of what feels comfortable for ‘me’ of lovers embrace to feel the blessed constant flawless feelings like we do while of lovers embrace where you are now, and i am not yet of.
you say i just like to cuddle.
strangely, that is where i am emotionally, of just cuddling with someone, like my ex which i still see, concerned for his self-esteem of the breakup transition we both yet are of.
that’s the thing with gay lovers, they never stop loving each other even after breaking up, not like the heterosexual world.
i mean how can you be friends with someone for over a decade and not still be friends?
oh please, you are more than just cuddling with Jesus.
i would kick your ass out of bed if you didn’t want more than just cuddling. please!
ok. you left ‘me’
i did not leave you, but now i leave for another, feeling the truth that i was not the one you truly yearned for like i previously thought, of what is yet fractured in feeling for me, as far as how blessed lovers embrace feels.
question is, do i want a male lover or a female lover?
i don’t know
i would love to have children of my own, and i do love being with a female lover, of many female lovers i experienced in the first half of my life.
the pitter patter of little feet in the mornings, so beautiful of heaven that must feel, of my own children running around, ten of them.
God is both male and female, this i know 100%
when of lovers embrace sex, we are ONE!
when of lovers embrace of recreation of another human, the offspring is ONE of the two lovers.
ONE human BEing created from two of the ONE human BEings created from the two of the ONE human BEings created from the ONE GOD which created him/her SELF, the alien life force entity God who is the universe.
hey, here is a thought.
when we look at the automic level of electrons spinning around neutrons, it is in likeness of the galaxies spinning, yes?
so what if beyond the universe we comprise something bigger, like the atoms are of something bigger?
i always wondered that, what is beyond the universe?
i sense the presence of a super intelligence beyond our own, and that is where i explore as the mad scientest i am. lol
hey, are you still wanting my friendship with you?
seems like you do.
i am going thru a hard time right now though, of what is the letting go of my dream from 1995 that did not come true, of what is the yearning of lovers embrace with you.
unto thy self be true!
i am partly glad to traverse thru this door of uncertainty which once gripped my soul, in letting go of uncertainty(paranoid) which was binding my soul like it did, where now i am not of uncertainty any more, you were not as intested in me like i wanted you to be, like i yet am of you, or perhaps in truth, you did not actually get to truly know ‘me’.
well, it is not possible to truly know ‘me’ merely by words alone, just as it is not possible to know my ‘real’ self merely by words alone, of my day of jabbing the pen into the pages of the diary, devasted over Troy’s suicide death, 100% fully realizing my ‘real’ self, the 100% pure loving feelings in likeness i once felt like i did as a child, only feelings of love, like the day our parents seperated Mark and i from each others arms, crying like we did, at that age of five, knowing we would not see each other again, his family moving away.
i went thru days of wondering why you did not come for me, perhaps of hesitation that i was too screwed up mentally emotionally as a potential lover, but today i don’t embrace this excuse, and rather, it was you who was not fearlessness enough to open fully the door of 100% pure of heart flawless healing pure love feelings for us both to be found of, of what IS of lovers embrace you now are of, is it not?
of what i truly yearned for both of us to feel, of what was my constant sexual teasing like i did, day after day here at your blog.
i am holding back my inner deep seated sadness in being torn away from you, these last moments of genuine love i yet feel for you, wanting only to express to you my pure and true 100% love feelings i feel for you as true, i really do love you.
i don’t want to hurt you in going to another, where one day i will be of the exceeding joyful lovers embrace once again, as i ask you one last time, “Why did you turn away from what we both know to be true of each other, our profound blessed pure of heart love beyond most any in life?”
we are excelled in human condition understanding, are we not?
spiritually evolved, are we not?
perhaps it was the uncertainty which gripped my soul like it did, that of being an out bisexual, uncertainty which you felt was true of me, as one who was not sure what he wanted?
i know what i wanted.
i always knew.
to feel 100% loved by another, of what IS lovers embrace.
there are no words to say
of my sorrow, swept away
we did not take the time to feel the truth in real life with one another.
i did present the opportunity for you to do so……….you turned away from what could of been beyond any experience in life to feel, of what is the pure of heart flowing of only love devoid of doubt like we feel alone at the beach in blessed meditation.
i feel betrayed and devasted within.
your betrayal, not mine
your doing, not mine
this is not what i wanted
~
be true to your lover Madonna, lest he not feel the 100% pure surrendered committed lover of you.
just as you too would not want to feel of a lover not spiritually there for you in each passing moment, like i was for so long, still am.
i’d rather die, than say goodbye
I am the loving lover who crys
~
oh fuck this!
taxi!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LOL
fucking biyatches!!!!
well, ok Madonna, what of the day i am of the blessed loving lover hand holding mine, the hand you once wanted to hold?
i cannot stay where i am not 100% loved.
perhaps inside you feel you do
perhaps inside you feel we hid
perhaps inside you feel we do
perhaps inside you feel you did
i cannot say goodbye
still friends after all these years
perhaps inside we feel BE TRUE!
unto thine own SELF, BE TRUE!
it was fun, but now it is time for 100% ‘real’
masturbation is great, but ‘real’ is where you WILL 100% find ‘me’
no more half hearted ones
no more half approaches
i just want someone who obviously 100% wants the same thing as ‘me’
ah well, too bad you did not get to truly know ‘me’
maybe someday i will find myself surround by beautiful children of my own, all dressed in sating outfits, running, dancing, feeling like ‘me’
Jesus and God know how good it feels to be 100% ‘real’
i don’t feel rejected by Madonna, i feel she does not truly 100% love, know and respect what a bisexual is, of what i feel we all are.
and in truth, she does not 100% love ‘me’, although she 100% loves ‘me’ of us all.
just not ‘me’, the one who is free, and running as fast as he can so she does not get her claws back into ‘me’
LOL
run Andy!!!!!!!!!!!
fucking biyatches!
try to rain on my parade will you?
not possible.
take care Madonna
let me know if you change your mind about truly getting to know ‘me’, which is only possible by holding my motherfucking hand biyatch.
i ain’t waiting any more you biyatch!
that you can count on!
My therapist said, Andy, there is someone for everyone!
She has made it known to you, that someone is obviously not her being interested enough in you to 100% love you! You are just as loving as any soul is Andy! Let her go, as she already has.
Goodbye Madonna
your bisexual lover, Andy XOX
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oh, i’ll be around somewhere in God’s garden, making love with someone who genuinely truly 100%, of which i won’t settle for, unless they obviously do.
which you obviously don’t
can’t believe i walked all this way for happiness, only to find my self devasted yet again.
well, who the fuck wants to feel that?
you have so blown it for ‘me’ to ever trust you like i once did.
ah well, at least i know enough to 100% extend my trust to someone, as that is the only way the door opens for the loving lovers to step thru.
only for another loving lover to step thru, that was supposed to be me.
hey, who do we betray when we betray?
100% without doubt, only our self
i better go, i am starting to get bitter
i can’t fucking believe you.
you are like so committed to spirituality, and along comes someone of the same dedicated spiritual path understanding, of 100% pure of heart, and you like pass him bye, after he expressed his undying love for you?
i mean what the fuck?
who the fuck does something like that?
oh yeah, the petty ego self, and the betrayed ‘real’ self
of what is forgetfulness foe
ah fuck it, i am done trying to win your love.
people decide to love someone or they don’t
you choose not to truly love me like i did you, and so why bother when it is obvious you don’t genuinely want to truly 100% love me, like i did/do you?
well, you hurt me for the last time biyatch.
time for someone else to truly 100% love ‘me’
you don’t even know me, so how could you even love come fully into love devoid of doubt of what HEAVEN constantly IS for me?
who was Andy?
oh, no body really, just a twenty year bisexual veteran of the GLBT community who actually gave a fuck about Madonna!
even after she deliberately hurt him with another, not letting me down easily, as a friend, telling Andy she just wanted to be friends, and she turns to look and laugh at me feeling her deliberate transference of pettiness egotistical bullshit.
i ask, why should i ever trust someone like that ever again?
when all i am i someone to play mental mind fuck games with?
i didn’t even do anything to deserve that, and it leaves me wondering, what is that?
homophobia
well thanks for the bashing Madonna
i was thinking about this thru and thru, the fact that people like myself and Rosie have lived the pure loving respectful homosexual lifestyles like we have for so long, where our ever blessed breath, heartbeat, step and words with our loving brothers and sisters, sons and daughters, is constantly of the pure loving respectfulness at all times, are we not?
and in truth, Madonna has not truly lived along side us in our community like we do daily.
this is evident in how she treated me
of not even a luncheon with a highly respected veteran who helps organize the world’s largest GLBT event of it’s kind, the Toronto Pride Day Parade, now over one million in attendance.
i mean really Madonna, perhaps some day when you wake up and feel the truth of how you were so disrespectful of me, maybe my respect for you will be there.
fortunately i am wise about the issue of homophobia not just for gays and lesbians, but also of bisexuals, of what I AM, and always have been, since birth.
God is both male and female
anyway, i 100% deserve only ‘real’ love, and i am so done with this ego dancing with you Madonna.
you hurt me, and you fucking did it on purpose
totally disrespectful
but then again, you always did behave that way, have you not, always so fucking slamming of other souls like you have done for years.
all fucking bullshit, to make me feel like i am not worthy enough to be loved.
i so don’t respect you any more, and i don’t know when or if i ever will, after this deliberate intentional total disrespect of even a friendship, like i am like no one in the GLBT community.
simple question
what if Keith had evolved into bisexuality?
would you treat him the way you have me?
i am way too sensitive for your haphazardness
deserving of another like myself
perhaps some day you can let go of the petty ego self you love to entertain like you do, sweet loving one minute, horrific betrayal the next, duality.
i am only deserving of 100% respect at all times.
any other approach with me ever again, and i will keep walking away from all untruthful bullshit egotisms you people toss around you like you do.
childish immaturity
clearly, i am of your transference now, becoming so useless in heavey bitterness.
i just felt i may as well vomit here, than somewhere else
trust?
what trust?
oh that trust, the trust you betrayed in not gracefully telling an twenty year bisexual veteran of the GLBT worldwide community, who was an obvious true friend to you, that you did not even have the decency to take time to tell him you just wanted a friendship with, no, i was not deserving enough for that, just fuck off with someone else all happy and all.
oh, someone tell Andy, he truly deserved that one?
fuck, i can’t stop puking!
the fact that you intentially did this to me, tells me you are not the one deserving of me, no matter the justification spin you put on it.
if you people don’t embrace your own homophobic mindfucking bullshit in your approach with those of the worldwide GLBT community, well, don’t expect us to have respect for you when you do this kind of bullshit to us, ok?
we treat each other with high level of respect and regard daily, something you homophobes need to take time out with us to feel in our communities.
congrates to Sean for his oscar award
God bless you Sean
fucking biyatches!
if i dissed you like this Madonna, you would not speak to me again, and you fucking know it.
and still, you come and want to entertain a friendship with you?
fuck, i mean really M
im supposed to feel ok to be bashed.
well i don’t ok?
not for along time!
why not go be 100% of your new lover you so very much want to be with rather than me?
yeah right!
the only way to teach you respect is by walking away from you, of the trust you destroyed, not me.
speaking of the GLBT parade………
what, don’t believe me on homophobia?
what if Keith came to you with the idea of the androgynous twins on horses?
would you dis his idea for something beautiful?
see what i mean, i am this beautiful bisexual veteran of the motherfucking GLBT family, and you treat me like i don’t fucking even deserve the time of fucking day, of no genuine true to heart pure loving ‘real’ life communication of one artist with another.
ok?
honestly, how would Keith feel if you were the way you are with the ‘real’ Andy, the bisexual ‘me’ twenty year veteran of FAMILY?
see what i mean M, it’s like everything revolves around Madonna and her music, of no connectedness with a ‘real’ person, an artist, a bisexual of family.
i thought you were 100% about family of the GLBT community?
i always respected this about you, and today, it is like, what happened to the Madonna we still all love and adore?
is it all strickly business for you now?
do you not associate with our family i real life any more?
any bisexual friends?
any gay/lesbian friends daily?
do come to our communities in your off time?
feels homophobic to me at times.
you want a friend with me, well, i don’t feel it as genuine, a concerned real life friend, feeling bashed actually.
i’ll get over it, and already i am over it, because it is not genuine true, and what is of the lessor petty ego self condescending belittling behaviours, according to Jesus.
i am not pulling punches either, i am speaking the motherfucking TRUTH!
i really wanted to do the androgynous twins on horse back, and it’s like not a topic at all for you to talk openly with me, and that alone says, well what if we did get together as lovers, is this what i can expect, everything revolves around you, Andy can’t do his Pride events?
argh, clearly i am upset and still hurting
i came to you as the 100% pure of heart ‘real me’, and you are like so not there for me in life at all, seemingly not even of the time of day am i deserving of.
well, i am deserving of far better friends, and/or lovers in life, and indeed, i have better.
i will march on in life, unscathed by these untruths which are not of the pure of heart soul i know i am, nor of you either, which is surprising to me that i was not regarded highly like you yet regard Keith, of my wondering, what the fuck is this? Not someone i once esteemed highly like i have for along time!
i mean are you tuned into even a friendship with me?
a genuine ‘real’ life friend in the world?
or am i to be disposed of and left to feel as though nothing, as though i would rather be dead than to be treated like this?
honestly, you people have more poison than pure of heart love i know i am 100% of in my daily life.
well, you let your own self down being like this, and i can easily pass you by in life without difficulty, where in truth, if you treated Keith this way, he too would be of questioning, huh? what?
i know who i am, an artist like any one of you, not some fucked up obsessed fan, no, i am LOVE!
how dare you attempt to destroy my precious loving spirit and soul!
i said to myself this morning, “If she does not approach me 100% true and pure, of what i am only deserving of, then will walk on by in life, where if it were her feeling it, you too would walk on by anything or anyone who is not 100% spiritually there.”
if i don’t feel the genuine respect i am deserving of, well, don’t wonder too long why i choose to spend my time with others who are!”
i can’t believe you treat me so badly like you do.
so do i get the horse for the parade or what?
fuck! I try to do something wonderful and beautiful, and i get left out in the motherfucking cold all the time!
i am so not going to tolerate your absurdness with me any more M, so either get real with me, or i am going to be real gone as far as i can get from you.
no more
i will find my own way in life with family who are always so loving of me daily, and that is a reality check you obviously don’t realize how you yet are with me.
get me my horses and i will consider salvaging our friendship.
or don’t, and go make friends with someone else.
i am so done with lame ass bullshit, you don’t exist Andy.
like fuck i don’t
been here along fucking time everybody, a loving brother that most of you did not get to know in real life, but i know all of you who yet hide like you do, and i will continue to mirror the beautiful self of all of you like i continue to do year after year.
as for you Madonna, well, my door is always open, but if you don’t feel i am worthy of your time in real life, forget it ok?
just fucking forget it!
fuck! not even a fucking luncheon to talk about real life issues and real life projects for family that i want to work on for sake of God’s WILL!
well, fine, go be that way.
i’ll find others who make me feel loved.
egotistic bullshit that seperates, that’s what it is.
ah fuck it!
go back to your pretty boy lover!
you’ll just pull the rug out from under me again anyway.
i deserve descent friends in ‘real’ life, something you couldn’t even be with me, for sake of a blessed spiritual friendship, for sake of a family friend, for sake of maybe we could of discovered we are best as lovers.
no, don’t invest your time in something of God’s WILL for us ALL, no, clearly the world does not need that!
every breath, every heatbeat, every step, every word, every blessed pure of heart pure love feeling every blessed moment of every blessed day is what I AM
and you treat me less than what I constantly AM
well, Jesus and God say to come away from it, and i will, so long as this illness of heart continues.
i can’t believe how horrid i have been treated.
two fucking years, and Andy is not worthy of your time in real life.
why not go to Keith’s grave side and ask him how he feels about that someday Madonna?
i really have nothing more i want to say, treated as badly as any human being has ever treated me, where i know if i did what you did, you would like not ever speak with someone so arrogant!
motherfucking truth and you know it!
ok, im over it
cya
ok now, everyone go back in your motherfucking closets, and do us all a favor, stay there!
how the fuck am i supposed to be happy Madonna, without my fucking horses?
i want real life with you, and you can start with the horses i need for the parade, otherwise walk away and forget entertaining the artist friend Andy.
i am being respectful of the ‘real’ life Andy who is deserving of ‘real’ life respect in friendship, and the fact i have let you continue to be just this blog for this long, was a bad decision, which derailed the only way two people can ever be of what is beyond words, holding my motherfucking hand biyatches!!!!!!!!!!
fucking useless, ok?
please, no more fucking unreality blogging!!!!!!!!!!!!
i am leaving for real life, with or without you, i don’t really care any more.
you said you trust me?
oh, and this is what is trusting Andy, not deserving of real life?
oh, Andy is some psycho, is what you project on to me.
you know what, there are so many beautiful souls in the is world, it is a wonder i tolerated this kind of treatment for as long as i did, so ill, it is hard to believe, where i could be of any lover in the world.
My therapist says to slam this door, and leave it behind, because of the ill treatment which derails my self-esteem.
so there you have it everyone, ‘real’ life professional perspective from one of Canada’s top leading professionals in the field of psychology………..my best friend.
ok………..im done.
take care Madonna, and like i said, if not of real life, i don’t want your friendship any more.
you can start with the horses, which is not even for me for fuck sakes, of a real life issue concern for others.
if you cannot respect that, then fuck off, ok?
go do what ever
i won’t be back for more of your ill treatment.
this blogging is what destroyed our chance to find out if i am the one meant for you.
i already know who you are to me.
and know that i do
this is our last dance,
our last chance
ah fuck it, pretty boy is way better looking than me.
you people and your fucking superficiality lack depth.
he is so not of your intelligence Madonna.
although i am sure he stimulates you other ways.
how the fuck can anyone seduce anyone if they are not naked in a hot tub?
ah, fuck this, i am still spinning my wheels here in the gutter you dragged me into and left to die.
i am walking
i am going to keep on walking
i used to look forward to hearing from you here, and I said to my therapist, now i cringe, of my wanting to not get lured back into more painful betraying behaviour, starting with the betrayal of real life friendship.
she says she is surprised i tolerated half heartedness for as long as i have, of what is my familiarity for abusive behaviour, because of my past of familiarity of my dysfunctional drunken abusive father.
ok
forget it Madonna, i have way to many fucked up issues to be a father, so no point going further.
i am letting go today.
this is is
goodbye
i will seek corporate sponsorship for pride, just as we continue to do.
i don’t need you
i can find others to assist with my needs
the difference is, I WANTED YOU!
If it is not 100% in feeling of another, i don’t want it.
and we had that for along time, did we not?
we inspire one another in life as artists, but only if we are open to being inspired, to feel what we feel, as the ‘real’ self, of what IS the radiant brilliant bright light that shines outward, lighting up the whole world.
why would you dis a monk Madonna?
did you not feel the truth that i am a monk of God?
i think that is what troubles me the most, your arrogance.
i don’t trust you any more
and feel no desire to get betrayed again
and so would you if you went thru this week of anquish like i have.
anyway, it’s your life, your way to live anyway you want
and for me to keep pleading like some pathetic fool, well, it’s fucking not who i constantly AM!
if i don’t walk away, you will keep on being this half hearted approach with me like you yet are.
oh, let’s go play with Andy’s feelings again on the blog, and then let him go home alone and feel the truth that i am interested in someone else now, while Andy goes and hangs himself in his motherfucking closet.
well, thank you for being so fucking dangerous with your mental abuse and total lack of respect for my mental emotional well being.
you wanted someone ‘real’, and yet you were not ever ‘real’ in life with me, which is what IS 100% total insulting for me.
i am going to find someone real Madonna, as i have tolerated this fucking bullshit blogging to last a fucking life time!
you honestly don’t deserve my friendship after this attack on my self-esteem, like i am some loser who could of been you loving lover till the end.
it is not 100% for you, and you are not of my fearlessness in life issues like i am
you are, but you look at me as competition, rather than the blessed pure of heart Oneness that is sacred to us both, of collaboration like we are with our corporate sponsors.
well fine.
i got tossed out into the garbage, remember Madonna, you walked off with someone else, with no warning to a friend you once had.
abuse
i had enough of that in life, and i don’t have the ability to trust you again.
i am not going to deny my self the truth.
compete compete compete, Madonna knows every fucking thing there is to know!
like fuck you do
i am just garbage to you, a true monk devoted to unveiling God’s blessed pure loving WILL for all of us, where in truth, i feel the only thing that is able to fully awaken you is my own fucking suicide, if you must know.
but i am loving of life, and i am going to go live a 100% loving respectful TRUE life with someone who is i can 100% trust of in their every word, every step, every heartbeat, like i once did of you Madonna.
so ya, go talk to Keith till your last day of how i was treated, like some obsessed fan you did not have the time of day for, of someone you did not truly desire to know, just as those who did not and do not desire to know Jesus and God.
you approach with me, is of those Jesus speaks of, of which i won’t spare the truth.
I am of the path with Jesus and God, and that is why i don’t understand how underhanded you are with me, trashing my self-esteem………….bashing…………me like you did.
oh, it teaches me so much, yes, not to trust you.
congrates Madonna, for being a total fucking jerk with Andy, knowing how close he held you in his heart, betraying his heart, mind, body, spirit and soul completely, betraying what you had a chance to genuinely take time to truly know Andy, but you didn’t, you just have to go and fuck around with who ever happens to appear.
tramp! lol
i am way to upset to deal with you, and i don’t think it will be any time in the near future that i will, so go back to pretty boy who is so important to you, and i will find a lover who is 100% RESPECTFUL in 100% SINCERE approach of what is 100% GENUINE EMOTIONAL HONESTY with me and i them.
your leaving for another told me the TRUTH, i was not the one you were thinking of daily like i was you.
a sad ending to a beautiful dream i once had of us, since 1995
you tossed me in the garbage, but i came prepared, with Jesus and God in my life.
i may dark right now, after nearly killing myself, but i will be shining radiant brilliant and bright, of only love am i deserving of, where i feel the truth of the generational twisting of truth every moment in the lives of many, including your own.
i mean think about what you did Madonna?
where am i?
in the fucking garbage where you left me to feel as though unworthy
not according to Jesus and God, who say i am worthy of the kingdom of heaven.
well get this, I AM the kingdom of heaven Madonna
of only love devoid of doubt
i am still puking vomit, of what is yet making me sick from the ill treatment, but i won’t return to more doubtfulness about love again with you, no fucking way!
no horses?
no friendship with Andy!
i’ll get thru this somehow, starting with staying away from you and this fucking blogging that destroyed it for us.
anyway, i am mentally emotional at my lowest point right now, and i have to go and rest with Jesus and God for awhile.
go enjoy your CHOICE Madonna!
take care
homophobic transference destroyed us Madonna.
the day you wake up 100% to this truth, is the day you will truly know and love me, and not until.
i am not some business for your stage perfomances to be sold and made money on.
i am of those who hold the highest suicide rate in the world, because of all the motherfucking homophobic transference, the same transference bashing you were of me lately.
well, that is how i see and feel it, the truth
homophobic transference
You trust in the spirit of Keith and not me?
you don’t know me
of your desire not to truly know me, as one who is not worthy of your time.
thanks for the dinner date
bye
where do you think your spirit or soul lays?in your head or body?eg hart?
i blame your ex mostly for the homophobic transference
and i also feel you don’t trust homosexuals around your kids.
thank God for Rosie and Kelly, veterans in the GLBT community who lead the world to the truth that WE ARE MORE FUCKING LOVING THAN YOU FUCKING HETEROSEXUALS ARE!
we are constantly loving, and that is the disconnect with you and me Madonna, that you don’t see what we see about you.
it is just because you did and do not dwell in our community daily like we do, of what is our mindset of only love all the time.
my spirit is free, outside my body, in the eternal realm.
all these words of spirit, soul, heart, mind, body, is not what people think.
When of the day you see/feel the Light of your own true Self, you WILL rejoice, it is a 100% pure oneness wholeness which is devoid of abusive approach by others, such as your recent abuse of me
i don’t want to return to where you are able to injure my free pure spirit set free from this world by Jesus and God.
i just don’t trust you any more as much as you want me too, i can’t and i won’t.
you did everything that reveals you are not trust worthy, for whatever reason, i don’t even care to understand, other than possible homophobic transference, which is what i feel is the issue, that you don’t trust homosexuals around your kids, of homophobic transference from your ex perhaps.
i don’t know, i just found myself on the outside of an abusive world i was tossed out into the garbage like you did of me, of a true friend who was concerned for you when i came to you here long ago, what, two years ago, concerned you were experiencing an abusive lover.
i don’t know how or why, but i felt that you were.
a spiritual connectedness strong in me, i was fearless in my approach with you, was i not?
100% fearless was i not?
kicked the motherfucking door down and extracted you, did i not? lol
i am upset M, and i am not my usual mature self right now, fragil actually, anxiety of loss of what we had.
people gravitate in the direction their heart is turned towards.
i thought it was turned towards mine, but there was always this fractured feeling about you, of a duality about you, which you hid from me, perhaps of your not willing to trust a homosexual with your kids, you wrote me off the list along time ago.
i understand that.
most don’t trust us around their kids.
we feel it all the time, daily actually, of the homophobes who are not wise in understanding like we are.
sadly
i love you, you know i do
i am just devasted over this loss, that’s all, of my dreams of an incredible life dashed, tossed out in an instant.
crushed
do you think your spirit is in the eternal realm of the earth resonance of f # fsharp connecting to the whole universe to infinity to where god lays?
all right, i’ll open up to you fully about my spirit.
the other day, in pure quietness isolation meditation, i felt the presence of Jesus looking apon the world led by the business world, of all the obviousness of the pure of heart spiritedness of all the souls, the entire world led to believe that life is just about this shallow superficiality of life which grips everyone like it does, where no one is of the pure of heart flawless feelings of what HEAVEN constantly is in feeling for me.
i know you feel a blessedness in feeling daily all the time like you do, of what i too feel is real for me, of pure blessed inner joyfulness, of tranqulity, and i apologize for my absurd bitterness today, of being so upset, seemingly impossible to break free of.
but you see, my dreams of what i know to be true of your own graceful loving spiritedness you are of daily, has vanished for me, of a life ahead for me which is like most any other working class stiff, of what a life i could of lived if of where i so wanted to be in life with you.
you do live a blessed life in feeling daily, i know that.
i am grappling with my own inspiration of a life ahead for me, which is dim right now, having focused on how i felt your pure of heart loving life that you feel daily.
i got left behind, made to feel as though not worthy, when in truth, i am more than worthy of you, of higher spirituality that you are not aware about me.
i wanted to evolve with you, in tranquility of what is the pure flawless grace of our two souls, which we both sense to be true of each other, of what we sense.
i am of the preferrence to live a graceful life of rejuvenated spirit of personal life and spiritual projects.
i don’t see salvation of mankind as some remedial financial salvation.
that is not what HEAVEN constantly is.
the disconnect i was left to feel, was innappropriate for me, not true of someone who truly knows or desires to know the real me, which you did recently with me, as though i am of no value whatsoever to me.
in truth, i feel who i am, the wholeness pure of heart spirit of seeing who i am of the day you see/feel the Light of your own true Self, you WILL rejoice that Jesus speaks of.
the feeling is one that i felt while of as a small child, only this time, i am wise in understanding of the nurturing protective wisdom for this same child i yet am, an adult child, like Jesus, and this is something that most do not value, cannot prioritize what is not yet of their valuing of what i know 100% what is of the pure of heart protection of the wisdom Jesus speaks of, of what is impossible for any soul which is distracted by, well, almost anything in life like it does, where even the church is not of the earnest sincere diligence to make sense of the words of Jesus which i know now, are of God, 100%.
who would not want to live a blessed life like you do?
i am devasted to be made to feel as though worthless.
destroyed in spirit, and yet, it is of lessons of Jesus which i am holding on to as to what to expect from any soul in the world, including yours.
i saw it coming, i guess you could say.
i think the shortsighted lacking of appreciation is what affects me the most.
in truth i am glad to be free of uncertainty from anyone, a true returning to my free spirit 100% i am knowing of what Jesus speaks of as regards the day you see/feel the Light of your own true Self, you WILL rejoice!!!
albeit, i am pissed off with your fickle flakiness of preference of a model over me.
ah well, i will continue to evolve without you, this i am 100% certain of.
it did devastate me beyond anything in life, other than Troy.
It is all of God, of my learning what Jesus speaks of, as you say, trust no one.
i don’t
not even you, although i once did.
ah well, there will be lots of down time for me to evolve and write, where writers know, relationships are a drain for the writer who spends hours and days in isolation writing.
it’s sad though, because i was breaking thru the boundary of what HEAVEN constantly is, just when you pulled the rug out from under me.
i thought you respected me more than that, as a spiritual person like you.
i don’t want you to stop enjoying your life, on account of what i want.
it’s just that, the dreams i had ended for me, devasted me, it all just crashed into the ground, dead, not to be restored.
i don’t fool myself when it comes to intimate desire of another for me, where when one goes off with another, i let go, and embrace the truth, no, they were not thinking of me in the way i was HOPING they were.
it’s ok, i’ll get thru it, just a few weeks and i will bounce back brighter than ever, knowing there is someone for me, that God wants and wills for me, meant for me, just as you too will, or perhaps have.
i don’t want to say anything to disrupt your relationship with him, as he is close in your heart, and it’s not fair to him either.
it ended for us, plain and simple, and i will clamer back as a friend eventually, of the ongoing spiritual research i am involved in.
there is something strangely beyond my life of the spirit realm that i am peering into, where it is as though Jesus does not ever die, i feel it, and i don’t say words just for sake of boastfully saying something.
i feel the eternal spirit that is not of any time constraint, and it’s presence is incredible to feel. ya, sure, you pros call it delusional, but for me, it is of deliberate inner study awareness, which is of the same delving into research as any of you are in the field of study in psychology, where i am merely peering beyond todays insights, that’s all, an obsessed scientest.
anyway, ya, F# resonates with pure TRUTH, evoking of the depths of ‘real’ self.
i wish you had of giving us a chance to know each other in real life.
you would of loved my company. I love my company, and so i know, just as you know your self.
truly sad for me
the very thing i was aware of in constant flawless feeling of what HEAVEN constantly IS for me, you shattered apon the floor into a million pieces.
that’s what you did
unwisely i might add, thinking you can destroy my spirit.
you cast your self out of heaven with me, but i am always here in heaven, if someday you truly want to feel love devoid of doubt with me.
you can keep your cajoling childish mockery of me, and go laugh about it with someone else, or how about just go to a beach with your new lover and enjoy your blessed life, and forget about me.
i am going to stop blogging soon, not sure when, and go back to my study and really write about where i now am now, without you, anticipation of another.
you were like so nonchalant about it too, in dropping me like you did, running to a model?
oh, ok, you are not attracked to me, that much is certain.
well Madonna, someone will be
thanks for the worthlessness feelings of transference.
still, i will continue to reveal my own understanding of what HEAVEN constantly is, for any soul to embrace, of what will inevitably be my life with another loving lover one day.
i honestly thought that lover was you
we are all lovers in life, as friends or otherwise, and i am happy now to know where i stand, wanting since 1995 to finally find out.
i have had the blessed loving lover embrace with many lovers, and i am confident yet again i will without doubt find myself once again.
without doubt
thanks for the doubt
actually there is no doubt any more, no doubt you and i are not going to be lovers that is.
i realize i have not been my stable self recently, of many stressors i have been shedding this past year, personal and professional, including you.
so thank you for that i suppose, i truly am 100% a free spirit now!
incredible, like being born!
for me, HEAVEN is not about financial wealth, just as it is not in the eyes of a small child.
granted, the many beaches we could of been of tranquility of in the world would of been fantastic, i have beaches local here i can be of with a loving lover.
anyway, let me know someday if you think a twenty year bisexual veteran of the GLBT community is worthy real life friendship, ok?
i won’t be fretting over it while i am fucking someone else, ok?
biyatch
i have been feeling a solid feeling of the wise mature adult Jesus lately which i sense is of my future evolved self.
i know it all sounds absurdly crazy for most, but here is the thing, i know who I AM!
and not a single soul in this world is ever able to detract me from what Jesus taught me about the day you see/feel the Light of your own true Self, you WILL rejoice!!!
you want to see exceeding joyfulness motherfuckers?
get ready to see motherfucking genuine fucking exceeding joyfulness beyond any of you sorry ass fuckers!
this child is his happy real self, and those around me feel my presence.
i thank God for my being alive at this point in time, of an instrumental time as regards the turning point of mankind into the future of what HEAVEN constantly is, love devoid of all your motherfucking doubt everyone!
you can all just fuck off with that, ok?
bye bye loves!
this ass fucker is returning home! lol
hey, did you know they have a name for anal stimulation female orgasm?
ya, i was watching this sex education program the other day, and i was like, really?
apparently the female can experience three types of orgasms!
well, this female knows them all, except vaginal orgasm, and the thoughts of sex change, well, it would not include all the parts of the female vagina, so i have ruled that one out.
biyatches!
you know what i think insults me the most, is you did not take time to even invite me as a friend/artist in real life, much less a potential lover.
100% totally insulting to any artist
well, i said i would not spare you the truth, and i have spoken the truth in God’s eyes.
SPEAK the TRUTH everyone!
and feel the motherfucking truth of just how incredible our orgasms truly feel!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol
biyatch!
i have been wading thru this homophobic transference for along time with you M, where it is me who should be question my inviting you into my life, not the other way around.
my mistake
so much for collabortation of projects of God’s will, which i so wanted to work with you in.
i don’t even feel like living now.
it feels pointless now
i feel like Jesus standing on a motherfucking street corner handing out brochures.
ya right
i really should jump of a fucking building and teach you sorry ass motherfuckers the truth of your horrid treatment of me!
but then i think of the one thing that keeps me here, Rodrigo, a child of God who i am his guardian.
anyway, that’s how i feel about you now, so fuck off ok?
thank you making me feel so fucking unimportant and worthless Madonna!
you have a nack for that, which i did not deserve, where you do not deserve to even be anywhere near me, where truly, there are so many who do daily for me
there, now you can go hate me for the rest of your life, of what is your fucking transference, belongs to you, and your ex, not me
fucking homophobes!
bye
you just talked about delusions well delusions are just false believes so who to say your thoughts are delusional KNOW ONE KNOWS? only you
andy i think you need help
you are a hypocrite who injects poison into a soul, the soul gets mad, and you say, oh look, he is harboring anger, not very spiritual, not of God!
of what hypocrisy IS
what Jesus calls, “self -serving twisting of truth!”
completely unspiritual, the opposite of the most poweful force of blessed spiritual revealing…………..the TRUTH
unfucking unbelievable
someone so spiritual like i am, made to feel worthless, unimportant.
i think maybe it is this sorta feeling Jesus was feeling that compelled him to commit suicide, is it not?
deep seated sadness of utter hopelessness cast apon him of the TRUTH he 100% felt of the day you see/feel the Light of your own true Self, you WILL rejoice!!!
the deep seated sadness manifested in 100% pure rage, compelling him to surrender to the claws of the beast of ignorance of death and destruction, an ignorant beast so ignorant, it not not know it’s own blindness, did not know God was present, did not desire to know that indeed, God was present thru Jesus, a surrendered soul 100% to God’s immortal spirit.
ya, that’s what compelled Jesus to commit suicide.
i realize the truth now, because I AM the TRUTH, the WAY and the motherfucking LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
of sheer HAPPINESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
you’ll see
i am not letting you ignorant fuckers of homophobic transference put me in the motherfucking ground.
i will rail against you all till my last day!
that you can count on
and i already know there is a most loving soul in life meant for me, of God’s WILL, my WILL BE Done of what HEAVEN constanlty 100% IS at all times, unbroken flawless pure of heart loving feelings that the loving lovers feel like they do you ignorant fucks!
oh, i am so obsessed for feeling 100% natural!
fucking morons!
i came to talk about my life of as a twenty year veteran of our worldwide GLBT community, and i honestly don’t recall anyone treating me as badly in life as you did Madonna!
oh, you are so important, but what you fail to realize is you really did homophobic bash me Madonna, where a true friend would of said, Andy, you are not my type, and i just want to play the field for awhile.
someone of the motherfucking family for fuck sakes, an i am not just any lame ass fucker who can’t even masterbate properly!
i mean fuck!
did you forget who you were chatting with?
anyway, i feel totally bashed, and i have to leave for awhile.
not sure when this whole shit storm will subside.
a year, maybe more
i have a question, what part of my blog was not pure of heart?
i can change it if you like
and what part of the blog was not of pure connectedness of the TRUTH of all the areas i reflect apon?
i can change it if you like
oh sorry, i cannot change the TRUTH
not now
not tomorrow either
for all eternity, the TRUTH of who I AM IS resonates
F#cking sharp!
yes
LOL
rant rant rant
see what happens when i go too long without getting laid!
go spend time with some effeminate well adjusted homosexuals Madonna, not the fucking flaming queen types, the true blue homosexuals of gentle delicate effeminate self at all times………just themselves.
then you would have a true sense of who i am
of the one who you bashed
who IS worthy
who IS important
to all you sorry ass fuckers who continue to bash my loving brothers and sisters like you do daily
the battle of TRUTH continues
and without doubt…………..I WILL BE there!
forever more
fucking useless, that’s how i am made to feel
thank you for that
ya, i need help
you are correct
i simple hand to hold mine, who genuinely loves me
which i thought you did
i don’t hate you
that’s immature
i am feeling hurt, that’s all, just like anyone does when trying to grapple with the feelings of rejection loss from someone they genuinely had feelings so pure and true like i did and yet do for you, as someone who you KNOW 100% wanted to be with you, who made me feel you loved me too, 100% true.
i mean look what has transpired, after we walked all this way together, and you go running off with another, leaving me here feeling my feelings of, “huh? What the fuck? Oh, i am so going to ignore you biyatch when you come back! How fucking dare you build my belief up that i was the one for you and then you run off with someone else!”
what do they call that?
oh yeah, promiscuity, which is linked to lower-self esteem, normal i guess, considering your recent life transition.
i don’t take it personal
i just thought, well, you know, that we wanted the same thing.
i still do, and feel you are perhaps afraid of just how blessed our love really was and yet is.
there is alot about me i have not revealed, where at times i am of the tendancy to be the insecure old self, where i am highly sensitive to others, especially when they ditch my ass and run off to the spa with another.
ok, so if i did that with you, and you considered me as a potential life partner like i did and yet do, what would you feel, and what decision would you make given the same circumstances? and what of making sense of it, of understanding it?
as a friend, what advice would you give to someone in the same situation?
run!
lol
how am i supposed to feel now?
like shit
well, merely friends is the only place to start, which i know how to be, of many along life’s road.
biyatch!
i don’t want you to feel guilty for feeling good about loving life, not ever!
we came along way together along the road as friends, a very long way, of extremely difficult times, of children involved who too are also of their own emotional turmoil in trying to understand.
it is unrealistic of me to expect you to be interested in a bisexual who is unstable in appearance, when as a mother, stability for both your self and your loving children is forthmost in your mind.
i am my own worse enemy, of similar emotional struggle of recent, of what is yet cause for my obvious emotional instability.
that is all this is, of where we both are in life today.
i would not someone emotionally unstable like i am in appearance lately around my children either, and yet, the very thing which could of been so healing for me, is what i am kept away from, a constant flowing of love all around, like you are of daily with your precious loving family.
sorry M.
i am just a fucked pre-op bisexual transexual, sitting in the top of a tree, high up in isolation of twenty years now of the GLBT cocoon
i am not your typical individual in the least.
anyway, our greatest strength was always felt as true best friends along life’s road, at ease, relaxed, without the emotional tug of war of recent i opened up in feeling with you.
i am highly focused in my self-actualization work with the best professionals on the planet right now, of ongoing incredible rewarding self work that MUST be addressed, as i have taken some major emotional hits along life’s road, where if i do not address it fully, now in my third year of one to one therapy, i will derail in life from self-medicating alcoholism.
and we all know how that story ends.
i have to take a break, and go get some fresh air, slow down, regroup, recollect, get a full time job, get back to my ordinary life stable self.
i am making some incredible breakthrus in my theology research, of my furthest reaches thus far.
there is an macro thinking eternal awareness door that i found which opens wide into the entire past of the journey of mankind, which is of pure truth descerning of all the falsehoods which lead that pervade history, where there is a presence of an eternal spirit there.
i know it sounds all wacked for most, but it is my choosen study, where the other day, this incredible feeling came over me where today is the same day that does not change, so pure in feeling, where i realized fully, oh, this is the eternal spirit realm i just stepped into.
it is mind blowing to say the least!
there is no time constaint there, where all truth awareness constantly exist the exact same, today, the entire past, the entire future.
i suspect Jesus felt this feeling as well, of what he too concluded was the eternal spirit realm he too stepped into and peered.
stepping into it, is only by means of pure focused emotional feeling awareness of macro thinking TRUTH which does not change across time, unable to.
hieghtened awareness hyper alert macro thinking is the only way this door opens, where your entire being steps thru.
it is only thru 100% of your entire being that one can step thru into fully feeling the presence of this eternal realm.
i love the study, which i realize is beyond most any in the area of combined study of theology and psychology.
i always was abit of an obsessed student nerd, holding the highest marks in math, science and such.
i think one year i scored the highest mark in the entire history of the school fo r mathematics.
i really am a scientist student, not an obsessed delusional nut case, albeit, a nut case in appearance, at times, of my hyper emotional, “what the fuck is Andy smoking today?!”
only the best biyatches! lol
no really, there is an eternal door of awareness i know 100% Jesus knew existed, and i do feel his presence there in the realm, which says alot about the purity of my own level of embracing the ‘real’ self……….off the charts actually, i totally 100% love my self!
some call it arrogance, and i say to them, “Oh, it is wrong to love self, is it?”
no, in truth, it is what is of higher subtle intellect of every word of Jesus who is in this eternal realm i peer into, where i sense/feel the presence in a pure way, of what are the exact samenesses of self awareness of my own, the same as his.
that is one of the most overlooked areas in theology, that people are not of the depth of feeling the truth about, the exact sameness aspects of self, which are what Jesus fully constantly knew in much much higher self awareness than any who he walked among, as is evident by all their questioning, Jesus knew he had evolved beyond all souls, alone into a realm where most humans would go crazy, if not of the focused ability of say a dedicated monk in quiet isolation like i have been for along time, of no desire to be any other place than where i was always of joy to be, in the peaceful sanctuary of my life that has not changed in 15 years.
anyway, i apologize for my scattered emotional shit storm lately.
im just having a hard time letting go of what i wanted like i did with you for so long, and yet, at the same time, i feel your genuine true friendship, which i hope i have not destroyed or tarnished.
we are best fucking friends Madonna, and have been for like, oh who the fuck cares……………FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LOL
biyatches!
ya, i wanted you as a lover.
it’s only natural that i feel hurt over this.
can i go cruise in the ghetto now?
hot tub time!!!!!!!!!!!
yeah!
there, see, back to my self already!
hmmm, just who am i anyway?
my therapist says i am blessed, for being able to love either a male or female 100% like i do!
yep, i have way more to choose from in life, all males, all females!
let’s see, that like what, double most any, yes?
yes yes yes yes yes
LOL
i hope i did not alarm you too much?
oh come on!
come on!
get back in the ring!
only this time, no fucking tripping or cheating, ok?
fuck!
LOL
YOU ARE SIMPLY THE BEST MADONNA!
ONLY the best is ever good enough for any of you!
where in truth, YOU ARE 100% the very best, when it comes to our joy of sex, are you not?
everyone around the world IS sexual!
or at least i hope they all are!
can you imagine not having sex organs?
or how about this joyful possibility………
a boy born with two penises, gets with a girl for sex, and they both have simultaneos double orgasms at the same time, where the girl says, “Whoa!!!! Was that Venus we just flew by!!!! ”
LOL
boy says, “Yes!”
“wanna do it again?”
girl says, “silly boy, no need to ask when you already KNOW the answer!” duh!
I am going to use air brush nude painting for those wanting to participate at this years Toronto Pride. Feb. has always been the planning month of ideas.
can you imagine both a boy and a girl airbrushed as nude leppards?
people will gasp at the sight of it, extracting the homophobic homosexual out of them all, of all the sexual orientations, does it not?
Tina Turner WILD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YOU ARE SIMPLY THE BEST MADONNA!
who on this motherfucking planet would not want to always BE with YOU?!!!
well, ok, other than me? The one you love to annoy the most!
sorry for my abrasiveness
at one point, i really did feel you wanted to have sex with me like i know i do you.
i am like a twenty year celibacy virgin when it comes to the last time i enjoyed heterosexual sex, which is cause for my obvious significant sexual frustration which manifests itself like it does, as in, how dare she ignores me like this, what the fuck!
then again, who would not want to be with Jesus?!
i mean whoa! He is so fucking adorable!
i could like just stare at him all day long, anticipating his naked body next to mine, the racing heart beat, the, the, the……………………place we all yearn for and belong!
HEAVEN
blessings to all
ok, new rule!
no more painting of derrogatory inflamatory useless bitter false negative words which are not true of any of the pure loving child of God of any of us ALL!
where God says, “Only love is good enough for YOU!”
duh!
rather silly to think otherwise, is it not?
although it is rather surprising of how many actually like the whole bondage thing.
Taming of the shrew?
hey, remember that live theater performance back in school?
i saw it at Stratford Theater. funny as can be.
i guess it sorta holds true for us at times.
anyway, we are both tender right now, and i should go take a break for awhile, and let things settle.
i am happy you are a true free spirit now Madonna!
and it is obvious that indeed, happiness is returning to your spirit, which i have always loved, someone who is a fearless carefree spirit who has lifted us all up to fearlessness where we forever belong, unafraid of all the bitter false naysayers!
so many souls who have benefited the life of Madonna, and so much more to come!
truly, you spirit has been set free, from me as well now, which you are feeling the truth of this, of what we both have always been, best friends in life along life’s road, of what is true of Madonna for us all, in some way or another, of whatever song resonated true in their life, during those uncertain times we all experience like we do.
ok
break time everyone!
blessed blessed blessed are YOU!
bless you Madonna
forgive my ranting, although, you equally would be as upset as i have been lately, of the same loss i am feeling.
so now you know!
i truly did and do want you!
always did!
always WILL!
duh!
bless you bless you bless you
i’ll be back in a week or so
andy i think you need help
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im bored, thought i would stop by one last time to address this rather unspecific statement.
what part of my statement of two world class professionals did you not understand?
one is a doctor in psychology
the other has three degrees and over 30 years in the feild.
it is you who chose unwisely to be of useless unreality neglect of me in life, as though unworthy of even a real life freindship, which is toxic mentally abusive for me, of what the professionals have requested i close this blogging friendship with you, and walk away to real life with decent genuine sincere interactions with others in each moment.
It’s professionally called Social Priviledge abuse, in case you were wondering.
My letting it continue like i did, in giving the green light enabling to what was stagnant stuckness for even a healthy friendship to thrive in, much less a potential lover relationship, was unwisely my own doing.
Real Life always wins out over reading a book.
I may have missed out on two years of a great fun loving life with another, having focused on you as a potential partner like i did, but then again, there was some good which came out of it, i found out what you really think of me, and i can finally let go and go live a happy life without ever thinking of what i always felt for you all those years like i did.
the door closes
I am of fearless in wanting real life with you, where you are not of the same level of fearlessness.
it’s just motherfucking life of loving lovers! That’s all any of us are! And i am a nut case for wanting what is 100% considered normal?
In truth, i am more ‘real’ self-actualized than you are in this regard, as to the fearless aspect of real self, as regards my being 100% genuine here with you all this time, of what was always my wanting to meet you since 1995, too afraid to back then to do so, a fear i over came, only to be inundated with more unwise fearfulness that i am not worthy of even a real life freindship with you, a horrible way to be made to feel.
i have to walk away in respect of my real self who the professionals say i am deserving of what is considered genuine healthy living; holding hands, hugging, cuddling, kissing, all the things of what HEAVEN constantly is for us all, of what i wanted with you.
When we betray another, who do we actually betray in the end?
So who betrayed who here?
And should i wait around to enjoy more betrayal?
no
and to be sure, i won’t
as you said before running off with a model, “I am out of here!” of what was YOUR sexual desire of a model you were fucking, instead of desire for me, which had nothing to do with Andy’s mental emotional well being that is ever growing healthier, of what was your mental abuse transference, was it not? Selfish disconcern completely disrepectful to even extend a hand in friendship, which i have been all this time, was i not?
I call it fame arrogance
andy i think you need help
ya, from genuine sincere approaching real life friends that surround me here in the GLBT ghetto now since ’93
Andy got written off of even a real life friendship because of arrogance petty ego self falsehood.
God casts no one out of heaven
When we betray real self of another, who do we betray?
and who casts who out of heaven?
the petty ego self, does it not?
anyway, i know you know the difference of real self.
i have been pushing hard for pure real self to come forth with you, and you have, so don’t stop Just BEing ‘real’ self!
and i will do the same
but as for this boring lame ass blogging in continued entertaining you as a potential partner?
nope
the door is closing, as andy returns to ‘real’ life, with or without you.
what is a bisexual to do, but find someone of 100% genunine display of desire to BE with ‘me’!!!
forever free, to Just BE ‘real me’!!!
if you want my friendship M, try being abit more genuine and sincere in ‘real’ life, as i am closing myself off from blogging soon, of only once or twice a month posting.
it’s been fun, but painfully harsh as well at times, where i hate to say it, but i feel you are of deliberate delight in the way you haphazardly left me feeling like you did.
i was like, whoa, she is trashing me like she does others?
it is you who has pattern behaviour Madonna, which is rather obvious.
we all have pattern behaviour, where some is rather, well, off the chart mentally abusive and neglectful.
one last question
how does it feel knowing how you deliberately hurt another in life who loved you like i did and yet do?
biyatch
catch me in real life, or forget it, i am not doing the blogging thing with you any more, as i won’t ever get out of the pages of this book into real life, so long as we continue to pick up the book to read instead of going and living ‘real’ life.
the only thing i will be posting is self-awareness reflections on my blog once or twice a month from now on, of what is the professional advice on my side in closing of this door and going to real life.
so let me know someday if you felt i was worthy of ‘real’ life living with you or not, ok?
God seems to think i am worthy of love
i want to live. not die.
andy i think you need help
ya, i need help to feel loved
R E S P E C T
not ridicule
i am going to a Babylonian bubbly party sat night so won’t be my usual boring ghetto in case you were going to surprise me off guard, Also i am getting intensive counseling myself should be a brand new new bird beaked reptile with a sexy muscly substance free mind & body soon, all i need now is an ego … to go..
out with Lol
Hi
i am the son of Anu naki,
“the real one”
not that impostor Jesus
omg that name Jesus, it’s so yesterday
bubble party?
*cough* really?
is that like a big hot tub party with lots of beautiful bods?
just wondering
Anu naki?
where do you come up with these strange alien names?
Nephillim?
is that any relation to Nympho?
Someone, normally female, that eats, breathes, & lives for sex. She dreams about it, often playing it over so much in her mind that something she has never tried can be exceptional the first time done with another person(pure connection between body and the brain sex, like that of masterbation while alone, a more true brain sex connection~ i know this well).
She is insatiable & always ready to play but that does not always make her a slut or whore, for she can be picky in her selection.
I am a nympho but very selective in my lovers. Tramp! lol
ya just never know what Andy is ‘really’ thinking!
but then again, perhaps Nephillim is related to Nympho? lol
i am not jealous or envious, just miserably sexually frustrated, like a caged beast i suppose, a mild delicate overly sensitive gentle beast that needs attention ONCE IN AWHILE!!!!!!!!!
fuck! lol
i won’t ever leave you, so long as you don’t ever hurt me.
i promise
you say you get bored with someone after a year or so.
that intimidates me
you do have a hystory of indicative pattern behaviour that reveals the truth of this.
i was surprised by how honest you were about this in speaking about it, of what felt like a real friend talking with me outside the cafe, crusing the boys like we do.
but here is the thing, maybe niether one of us met the right one all this time, and perhaps once together, they could not tear us apart no matter who they think they are, because we are the best?
well, i know i am the best, not sure what your level of healthy connection with brain sex masterbation is, although i do sense it is pure and true like my own.
now there is something most don’t openly speak about, yes?
and you know why?
because they don’t know what we know, yes?
so stop fucking around with the immature ones will ya, and give us a chance to find out, what we already KNOW!!!
i know you know ‘me’ like i know my SELF
i need you
only the one who injects the pain can take it away!
or, only the one who is injected with pain, can tell the one who injects them with pain, to “get the fuck away from me biyatch, and come back when you mature and wake the fuck up to who i really really am to you!”
your future lover, Andy
forever more
my insecurity is a manifestation of the uncertainty that comes with the yet stagnant stuckness of Andy yearning to jump out of the pages of this book, and come alive in real life.
a reptile?
how about a reptile with wings that can fly away from your sorry ass whenever you do anything to piss me off?
just wondering OUT LOUD!!!
hey, I AM a bisexual pre-op transexual………with wings
not sure if i updated you on that or not.
i know who I AM
did you feel the incredible peacefulness of the cool morning air this morning?
and did you feel the pure free spiritedness i gave you?
that is how i feel all the time!
i wanted you to feel who i really am, as a best friend, feeling that perhaps that is the only place to start, is it not?
i am standing outside a cafe today, a beautiful spring like day, thinking and feeling about you.
i am rather obviously in love with you.
i just don’t want to get hurt.
i feel that if we did get past the ever eluding time together of a year or so, that we would come fully into realizing what i feel to be true, that you and i were meant to be, according to God.
im sorry, i am just so frazzeled in over thinking everything, ruminating that keeps me awake like it does at times, a mentally emotionally unstable time for me, like when i was dating Troy and sharing him with his girlfriend, the toxic pervading uncertainty that ebs and flows.
we have to start being openly respectful at all times with one another as friends, as in, i want to play the field awhile or i need time alone to heal, where in truth, neither one of us is relationship material right now, or at least i know i am not.
and yet, you are what is able to heal me, and likewise ‘me’ you, yes?
as in i am the male version ‘me’ of you, am i not? lol
only better………i have a penis!!!
you and your penis envy!
trust me, i would rather have a fully functioning vagina with all the parts!
a penis is boring!
hey, i was thinking the other day of the biological stimulas response to the sensitive part of the sex organ which cause my legs to open.
is this true of you as well?
what are laughing about?
this is serious honest open dialog between the male and female, which scientest have not been able to research the truth finding, because most any male is not going to say, “Oh yeah, when i stimulate my penis, my legs open and the urge for someone to fuck me comes over me, unless of course you are ‘me’!!!
just wondering
TINA is so friggin HOT!!!!!!!!!!!!
she feels like a the female sex God to me, of ‘me’?
is ‘me’?!
i am getting breast implants before i leave this planet!
damn straight!
damn bisexual transexual!
honestly, i had not felt the genuine urge of this awareness that i want breasts until the other day when i was thinking about your breasts, of how we caress them when of masterbation.
i really should start my own column in one of the loco GLBT rags here, yes?
One of our Bisexual Transexuals, Andy, gives thanks to Madonna recently for discovering his genuine awareness urge to have breast implants!
hey, i am 100% serious!
i want breasts!
and i am going to get them!
and not those ungodly big ones either, just in between ones, abit smaller than yours.
hey, what size are yours anyway?
(Standing outside the ghetto cafe after bumping into Andy in the ghetto, in the beautiful moring 7:00 am sunrise and crisp cool feel good air, after another all night run of no sleep, doing the walk of shame home, chatting with Andy about his recent awareness, Madonna drops her coffee)
omg God Andy, is it true? You are a transexual?
yeah.
it’s true
a new day
a new life
a new friend
for you of penis envy, i am keeping my penis.
you cannot have mine, you’ll just have to get one of your own! lol
i do love my penis, but have always wished i was a girl since youth.
i can feel you smiling in a way like never before, of tearful joy!
yes?
who loves you more than me biyatches?
simply the best!
hey, a male with breasts would work well with a latent bisexual lesbian, yes?
although i don’t think there is anything late about Madonna, other than late in picking my sorry ass up from this fucking street corner i have been standing on since 1993, waiting for her dumb ass!!! lol
i love the male butch side of Madonna!
makes my heart futter!
can’t hide from ‘me’!
this is what is of my professional counselling lately, my transexuality.
Rosie is like, “WHOA!!!”
time to celebrate!!!
Andy finally knows who he IS!!!
always was since youth, of my years of memories of feeling like a girl!
all you gay lesbian straight bisexual boys give it up ok?
Madonna is shopping for a transexual!
BIYATCHES!!!!!!!!
lol
hey, can we do like a mock wedding party sometime, of me in the wedding dress, and you in butch Madonna?
John Lennon and Yoko Ono, eat your heart out!
I can feel how much Rosie and her beautiful son with long hair feel so much alike, one and the same of the same inner joyfulness radiant brilliant bright, ONE
i had long hair the whole time i was growing up.
and i am returning to my long hair days of carefree true inner joyfulness of no more corporate stressors or personal stressors.
who knows our ‘real’ self better than we do?
no one
who know the inner pure and true carefree spirit of our ‘real’ self better than we do?
no one
and that is something that our children reveal to us, is it not?
blessed are all you with your own loving children, for you are truly blessed of God’s constant flowing love each moment of each day.
i always wanted to have ten children of my own, a full return to being who i always was, of pure and true carefree joyful loving spiritedness i always was, and yet am.
of what IS TRUE of us ALL
who knows our ‘real’ self better than we do?
God
and YOU!
and your beautiful children
blessings to all
ok, friends it is!
bless you Madonna
you are constantly loved by me
you are constantly loved by God
you are constantly loved by your children
you are constantly loved by all who know you
MY LOVE FOR YOU ALL IS PURE AND TRUE, of what IS my male and female self for ALL orientations!!!!
I AM a BIsexual Pre-Op Transexual!!!
forever more
SING IT EVERYBODY
clap clap clap clap clap clap clap
I call you when I need you, my heart’s on fire
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You come to me, come to me wild and wired
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Mmm, you come to me
Give me everything I need
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Give me a lifetime of promises and a world of dreams
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Speak a language of love like you know what it means
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Mmm, it can’t be wrong
Take my heart and make it strong, baby
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You’re simply the best, better than all the rest
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Better than anyone, anyone I’ve ever met
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I’m stuck on your heart, I hang on every word you say
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Tear us apart no, no, baby, I would rather be dead
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In your heart I see the star of every night and every day
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In your eyes I get lost, I get washed away
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Just as long as I’m here in your arms
I could be in no better place
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You’re simply the best, better than all the rest
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Better than anyone, anyone I’ve ever met
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I’m stuck on your heart, I hang on every word you say
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Tear us apart no, no, baby, I would rather be dead
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Each time you leave me I start losing control
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You’re walking away with my heart and my soul
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I can feel you even when I AM (not) ALONE!!!
Oh baby, don’t let go(best friends, ok?)
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Ooh you’re the best (woo)
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Better than all the rest
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Better than anyone, anyone I’ve ever met
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Ooh, I’m stuck on your heart,
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I hang on every word you say
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Don’t tear us apart no, no, no,
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Baby, I would rather be dead(than live without your sex!) lol
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Oooh, you’re the best!
your best friend forever more future lovers,
constantly loving of you ALL forever more
Andy Pansy XOX
kissed the girls and made them all cry when he said he loves the male within us ALL! lol
Hey, is Madonna really really an Alpha male?
just wondering
not only do i love the smaller breasts sexually speaking, i love the idea that they are easier to tape down when out as a male, when Madonna wants to be out as a female.
of course no one will ever know who we really are when out as our ‘real’ self!
omg! i don’t i have seen you smile this brightly before!
yeah, it’s 100% TRUE
I AM both male and female……100% thru and thru, equally 100% loving of both my female self and my male self, loving of all males, all females, loving of all males and females within the females and males!
yep!
100%
ah, did i just evolve past you as an out bisexual transexual Madonna?
oh well
i honestly had no idea until recently who I really really AM!
so pure is the feeling 100% in healing that i constantly feel like i do, of no fear whatsoever in BEing who i 100% am in the eyes of God.
of pure delight in walking down the middle of the street this year, with those who truly know and love ‘me’ 100% like i love my ‘real’ SELF!
without doubt, i always have and always always love Madonna!
without doubt, i always have and always shall love ALL females!
forever more
SIMPLY THE BEST of both worlds everyone, i know 100% I AM!!!!!!!!!!!
forever more
united as ONE both inward and outward in appearance!
forever more
for those of you who call ‘me’ a sick freak, truly i tell you, do not truly know ‘me’ in order that you can 100% love ‘me’ like i do ALL of YOU!
some of you do!
some of you don’t!
some of you won’t
some of you……….it’s just as well?
i jest
i am revering to those of you who snear at my loving brothers and sisters who truly know and love ‘me’ 100% like i constantly do them.
those who know ‘me’ like i know ‘me’ like they know the ‘me’ of ALL of us!
forever more
I AM FREE to Just BE ‘me’!
the ONE who can see you, any time you FEEL like ‘me’!
forever more
blessed is this day of TRUTH
what has been troubling ‘me’ all this time, is the likeness i feel about Madonna, of those days of ‘me’ sitting there with flowers in my hair, without a fucking care what any of you think, of your shallow words with ‘me’ like so many of you are, “Oh hi Andy, how’s your day going?”
fuck off!
i know what your thinking!
lol
always did
i know Madonna has always loved ‘me’, more than i loved my own self, who has lovingly assisted ‘me’ with who I AM, just as she has so many of us over the decades, as i recall hearing the lyrics for the first time of her song called RAIN
I feel it, it’s coming
Chorus:
Rain, feel it on my finger tips
Hear it on my window pane
Your love’s coming down like
Rain, wash away my sorrow
Take away my pain
Your love’s coming down like rain
When your lips are burning mine
And you take the time to tell me how you feel
When you listen to my words
And I know you’ve heard, I know it’s real
Rain is what this thunder brings
FOR THE FIRST TIME I CAN HEAR MY HEART SING!
all those warm summer days i first heard this song, where FOR THE FIRST TIME I FELT MY HEART SING!
alone in the ghetto, the soothing feeling of lyrics which resonated 100% true in the core of my being, of how joyful and 100% accepted i felt inside in Just BEing ‘me’!
she saved my life from suicide, where i know, if this is true of ‘me’, it is also true of others.
how do you repay someone for that?
By Just BEing the Overflowing Abundant Exceedingly Joyful ‘REAL’ Self YOU, CONSTANTLY, everywhere you go, Just as I AM!!!
forever more
i know without doubt, it is of God that Madonna’s lyrics were meant for ‘me’ to hear/feel, of what Madonna IS, a constant pure of heart flawless pure healing feeling Child of God!
forever more
always was
always IS
always WILL BE
forever more
Madonna constantly loves ALL of us at all times, inspite of our generational taught unwiseness which sadly grips and binds the soul of so many of us like it did, homophobia, which we became fully aware of those days and days, years and years alone for so many of us of the inner emotional turmoil so many of us when thru during our coming OUT years!
constantly blessed blessed blessed we ALL ARE!
forever more
so you see, of course i love Madonna!
she unknowingly/knowingly saved my life from suicide during my coming OUT years so painful, of such an overwhelming magnitude of emotional turmoil of losing my first gay lover to suicide, the experts all holding their breaths as to whether i would survive, of what yet is my inner emotional turmoil that flares like it does from time to time, in emotional intensity like that of a five year old, my falling into my immature abreation outbursts like i do, unstable ranting rage manifestation of my deep deep seated sadness which is still there, unable to heal over my loss of Troy.
i know i won’t ever completely heal over Troy, where grieving is crucial for me to do like i do, sometimes crying daily whenever i think about it.
i have been running to happiness all these years, seemingly impossible for me to escape the sorrow, of why i recreated the clown outfit, painfully hiding inside something so radiantly brilliant and bright with joy, i could not let them see me cry, albeit, i cryed.
every year that i march, i shed tears from deep down inside, of how far we have come, of my still yearning for Troy’s hand to be holding mine, of his overflowing happiness we shared like we did, which i still feel inside, knowing today, without doubt, 100%, it was internal/external homophobia which took him away.
of what IS petty ego generational taboo falsehood lacking in self-awareness understanding education, which yet exists in the world for so many of us, 10% of the world population, of what IS the worldwide GLBT community.
forever more
blessed are ALL we of the GLBT worldwide community, and those who truly know and thus, truly do love us
to all the parents in the world, please know that 10% of your children may be gay, lesbian, bisexual, or trangender.
for sake of your precious children, you MUST embrace and read the self-awareness understanding education of the TRUTH and AWARENESS that 10% of the population is gay, lesbian, bisexual, transgender, lest they hurt themselves like Troy did, like i did, like so many of us continue to do.
The ongoing research is pointing towards primal innate male and female sexual behaviour within both the male and female brain, 100% of primal origins before any of us were born.
currently the ongoing research reveals approximately ten indications which point to primal sexual behaviour within both sexes as being 100% conclusive FACT, of a day i pray comes, where we can be set free in accepting this as true of us ALL, of which I AM certain, future generations WILL.
blessings to all
well, you can love ‘me’ of leave ‘me’ Madonna, of your knowing who I AM, where either way, i know we WILL always BE LOVING and FREE from all the naysayers who go against our shared love devoid of doubt of our GLBT FAMILY!
forever more
oh hey, Madonna has a new fantasy of Andy! lol
yep!
Andy is getting breasts everyone!
been putting it off way to long!
I AM MALE and FEMALE!!!!
forever more
the sun is CONSTANTLY SHINING in this girl’s/boy’s world!!!!!!
forever more
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Transsexual
can you see me dancing in the street, on top of the cars?
that’s how i constantly feel!
forever more
and i don’t give a fuck about what any of you naysayers think or say about ‘me’!
why?
because i know what ALL of you think! lol
intimately so!
omnipotent
oh, hide all you want, i know everyone single ONE of YOU!
forever more
so who am i?
I AM ALL OF YOU!
am i not?
forever more
i was a gayboy bottom for twenty years, where this is 100% natural in feeling for me, of what feels pure and true of ‘me’ a female in a male body!
so who do i love most in life?
the females of course, who cannot live without a male counter part!
and any strap on part you can buy over the counter WILL DO!!!!
my ass cannot tell the difference!
LOL
some of you may be able to keep up with my none stop overflowing abundant exceeding joyfulness radianting brillant and bright, and if not, well, in time you WILL feel the mirroring pure truth of who I AM within ALL of YOU, of what IS the TRUTH, i 100% LOVE ALL OF YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!
forever more
the spirit of my TRUE ‘real’ SELF is SET FREE!!!!
forever more
Champaign please!
just ONE
hmmm……all is quiet on the set.
they must be out to lunch somewhere.
lol
there is evolved………and then there IS ANDY!!!!
holy fuck!
what the fuck is he wearing this time!
WHOA!!!!
are those breasts?!!!
damn straight biyatches!!!! lol
i can’t stop dancing to this song!
there are lovers, and then there IS ANDY!
is that a girl he is with this time?
HARD to tell! lol
fuck, why was i so afraid to tell everyone this?
some guy overheard me talking and called me a sicko!
i am like, huh?
you love female breasts, don’t you?
It’s my life to live MY WAY everyone!
i don’t care what any of you think.
i don’t sleep with you, i sleep with a loving lover who truly fucking loves me 100%!!!!
so you can all kiss my ass, ok?
and make sure you bring some candles next time you cum over ‘me’!!! lol
ah fuck, i am starting to sound like nasty Perez!
i am not like him at all.
I am constantly 100% graceful and gentle as my ‘real’ Self, totally fearless!
the ONLY WAY to BE!
forever more
so can i still come over?
well ok, let ‘me’ know if you change your mind.
BE a true friend, and speak ONLY the TRUTH please!
i will know when you don’t, so it don’t matter.
thank you
bless you bless you bless you
Thank you to everyone at Rosie.com
bless you bless you bless you
How much does Andy love females?
enough to BE ONE!
i figure seeing as i cannot ever get with one, i may as well BE ONE!
LOL
i like that analogy! yes? 😀
YOU’re the BEST Andy!
better than all the rest!
better than any ONE!
than any ONE i ever met!
stuck on your heart!
oh tear us apart, baby, i would rather be dead!
than to BE anything other than what I AM!!!!
forever more
blessings to ALL
~ clarification
This is a 100% personal decision on my own life of having lived as a gayboy bottom, which has absolutely nothing to do with any of you lame ass sorry motherfuckers!
OK?
So BE sure, i know i want to wake each morning with breasts, where i do not care one bit what anyone ever says about my beautiful body in what remains of MY LIFE yet to live, not any of yours!
It is years of ongoing psychotherapy of which I have embrace what i want for ‘me’!
MY LIFE!
with or without any of you sorry ass lamers!
MY LIFE!
MY WAY!
Leave it to andy to stand alongside the most rare of human beings on the motherfucking planet in equality as ONE!
forever more
yep!
i don’t recall being more excited about a day of decision than this!
beyond belief!
Decision day has arrived!
Andy wants to wake each day with his own breasts!
fucking awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
why did i not decide on this so long ago?
fear
come on your gonna have to smack me more if you want a return on your investment..
mummy 🙂
ha ha,
how kinky is that !!!
i know you want it..
oh my… ego is back…
🙂
🙂
that could be a good thing !!
never been afraid of fear !!
foundation’s
solid concrete
just like the secret of the Romans
solid foundation’s !!
to truly know oneself, without doubt is the essense of creation.
& i am
a creative person
as you
and with my fat ego
i need a solid foundation !!
Lol..
same…
it’s ok to feel my love …
i have a good filter….
purify me …
go on i Dare you too..
ha ha…
Truth or Dare ?
i’ll have one of each thank’s…
see i am a white canvas
a masterpiece
priceless !!
( well at least no one is going to out bid you ! ) lol
ha ha
Not that money’s an issue for you after all … but you know i like to have the upper hand you know….
co-dependancy my ass lol…nice try …
I am
one step ahead of you ..
hey wait for me .. … lol i am am coming…
wait
slow down
wait for me
ok
you win 🙂 🙂
uhmm
you think !
i think TOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
are you me !
or am
I you ?
don’t worry
i know
how too keep my
own identity !!
to truly know oneself, is strength.. solid concrete
go on break me !!
i dare you !!
lol..
truth or dare ?
i’ll have both thank’s
In truth
There is a third soul, which i am compelled to explore..
In my truth you will accept
By no way diminishing my connection with you,
Those which I truly desire to strengthen
To break the void of competition
To fill the void of Love…
My Love
I HOLD
UNTO YOU
my intent?
happiness for you for me for all the souls in the world….
my love?
For you for me for all the souls in the world…
heaven on earth?
For you for me for all the souls in the world….
my sexual appitite?
For you for me for all the souls in the world…
me me me?
For you for me for all the souls in the world….
Chorus
For you for me for all the souls in the world….
xox
(andy, half asleep in the morning, looks in the mirror)
*GASP!!!!!!!!!!*
“I HAVE BREASTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”
“WHOA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”
what an incredible feeling this IS!!!!!!!!!!!
a setting free feeling!
ya, same is what i was getting at about the sex organ research, which pin points to the truth about the instant brain sex response from stimulation of the sensitive tissues of the sex organ for both male and female.
the response is the same for both the male and female, of the same subtle urge that is present in the brain response.
in other words, that makes us all both male and female.
who we are, is who we always were growing up, where the social interactions for boys does vary for girls, such as boys play football, girls don’t.
well, i grew up much different. I did not play much sports at all, was not ever a jock of anything, other than the itching. I was an exceedingly joyful child, still am, mostly of being a musician and artist, a delicate sensibility as a boy growing up, not the macho tough boy raising. I didn’t need to, i had Mike next door to out do me in all sports, so why compete?
i am a boy at heart, merely delighted about how much like a girl i really really am!
100%
I AM FEARLESS!!!!! in exploring this door i stepped thru.
i love girls, because i am one in likeness of spirit!
delicate, effeminate, ever so graceful
but here is the thing, this is true of us all, is it not?
some boys just don’t get us girls, and don’t get with us either, because in truth, we love love love being our delicate sensitive gentle mild SELF!
so ya, i love girls so much i am one!
question is, am i a lesbian?
i have always loved loved loved the lesbians more than the gays, always wondering, am i a lesbian?
apparently I AM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
however, that don’t mean i will get with one, no matter how i try!
i am a boy with breasts!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
How apt !!
all on this post
“That’s What friends are for”
can i suck your titts Andy
ha ha
lol 🙂
lol
you want breast feed suckle on my titties do ya?
my breasts are an Erogenous zone area of my human body that has heightened sensitivity and stimulation of which normally results in sexual response, and so with that said, for sure i am 100% willing to be naked with you of what HEAVEN constantly IS for us, is it not?
i was wondering if you were song writing!
excellent!
ok, as the most true loving friend i 100% feel i am to you, when we are alone, we tune into what it is that we feel, slowing fully into our graceful exceedingly delicate sensitive ‘real’ self we always were, and yet are, and this for ‘me’ is what is most beautiful of all in feeling like i do, where there are no elements of doubt.
when i enter fully into this surrendered state, i realize that this IS who I AM 100%, so delicate, so pure in feeling, so sensitive, so worthy only of love from any one.
while in this state of being, it is you that i crave and yearn for 100%, of no element of doubt whatsoever of how i feel the truth of wanting to gracefully extend my hand to you eternally to hold on to forever more.
with that said, i extend my hand for you to hold on to forever more
just ignore my meltdowns that i get, of what are my occasional breakdown abreactions of myriad thought patterns i find my self ruminating like i do at times, which are triggered by whatever or WHATEVER!!! lol
the most beautiful of all things about this state of being, are my tender loving true pure feelings i feel for you, feeling that you too are perhaps there in these moments like i have daily, of the blessed pure peaceful state of being, and i see you there, wanting and yearning for the exact same thing as i do, your hand to hold eternally forever more.
how else can we ever arrive at such a day, of 100% surrendered spirit with one another, than by standing before one another, other than by doing just that, standing there before one another of surrendered spirit of us both saying what it is we truly yearn to say, of what is our ‘real’ feelings.
And so, in this day i stand before you of 100% surrendered spirit in saying to you what is my 100% pure true feelings and thoughts of my state of being like i feel when i slow down into my graceful true self in speaking my words of that are 100% true for me, “I 100% want to hold your hand eternally forever more, of no doubt whatsoever that i do!”
i do not want to hear from you anything other than what i want to ask of you this day, “IS this true of you too?”
or is it just my imagination of how i truly know you like you know you?
i want only to be this pure ‘real’ state of being with another at all times, without all the useless myriad unfocused ego falsehood masks we all wear like we do.
i have been this gentle mild delicate effeminate state of being now for some twenty years of practice in being my true ‘real’ self, where no one can ever push me out of feeling my state of being like i do, when ever i slow into the graceful true state of being like i do, like i did last night, alone, feeling that perhaps you were feeling uncertainty in your own state of being yesterday, wishing you to know that i 100% love you without doubt.
no matter any one in the future, come what may, we meet, we do not meet, i always know i will always feel what it is that i feel when i think of you while in my graceful meditative state of being.
always know that i am there in moments of my day, thinking of you too, if it is true, that you do to, where if you do, i know that what you feel is the same way i feel, is it not, as though these words are what IS of what you too feel while thinking of me.
i love you with all that i am, and want you to always know that i always will love you the way i feel while feeling my pure loving feelings of the ever so delicate graceful state of being i am of like i do, though out my day.
so wonderful it would be if the day comes where we do come before one another in our pure of heart flawless healing feelings of the delicate graceful state of being of our true ‘real’ self, and express to one another, “YES! It is true! I too feel my yearning to eternally hold your hand forever more, wondering if you felt it too! Truly, i do! 100% without doubt!”
It’s true
i do
forever more
the exploration into these areas of self, such as wanting breasts, is merely that at this point in time, an exploration, which theraputically takes along time to transition thru.
for instance, a boy who feels like a female in anticipation of a sex change of one degree or another, is asked to practice being a female with false breasts, going around thru out their day as a female, as part of the run up to a decision to go forward with sex change.
i am not at that day of commitment to surgery, in case anyone is wondering, where in truth, i 100% love my boy body, and the idea of female breasts is equally of 100% of joyfulness i feel to be true of me, a gayboy bottom of twenty years, who is 100% tuned into my female sexual self, where indeed, that is who i am, the female of my male body.
however, the stigmas of being a male with breasts i am not sure i want to experience, knowing how they are not generally socially accepted in life, of my first day in accepting i would like breasts, being told i am a sicko, that sorta thing, which i know transexuals experience if they do not go thru the entire sex change and become 100% female in outward appearance, no longer a boy.
In the film Paris Is Burning, many transexuals prior to full surgery, experience a running away from everyone in life, a hidden isolation existence of their probing fully into discovery of ‘real’ self, some of which i feel is pretentious for them, of which they themselves are of denial of, not of the pure true delicate graceful state of being i speak of that i feel is what is 100% of sameness for any soul to feel, knowing you feel it, just as i do, just as any can and do, merely by slowing into the delicate graceful state of being i speak of, like i know you do, where constantly we know, we are only yearning and deserving of constant love with another.
i am
what i am?
im not really into i am this or i am that of what i am mentalities.
why open one door and close another in doing so, if we embrace what i am, such as i am what a transexual is, or i am what a gayboy is, or i am what a lesbian is, or i am what a bisexual is.
no, personally, for me, what i am, is the bessed pure of heart flawless constant flowing healing pure love feelings while of the surrendered delicate graceful state of being you and i both are of at times during our day, where it is only 100% pure flowing feelings thru out our body, is it not?
i love this state of being feeling
~
exploring some feelings further, if i had of met Venus, from the film Paris is Burning, in real life, i would of ran away with him! without hesitation. Because of his surrendered spirit to his delicate effeminate graceful state of being like he so obviously is all the time in the film.
for me, his state of being is what i explore, of what IS my true ‘real’ self, where it is the state of being i speak of, which i know you appreciate as well like i do, where what is most important in life for me, is not what someone is, rather if they are of the surrendering to their own delicate graceful state of BEing what I KNOW IS their true ‘real’ SELF, SELF of us all, but only when we slow down and surrender to the graceful healing feeling state of BEing.
for me, trying to BE this while of a tough toned retail manager, does not lend itself for my self-actualization, hence why i have decided not to return to retail management. It’s not for ‘me’.
I am exploring what is of conducive environments for ‘me’ in this regard, where school and study research is my most favorite place of all.
of course, true inner joyfulness is at the top of the list in self-actualization, doing whatever it takes to acheive the constant joyful state of BEing.
i know i need someone of the same approach to their true ‘real’ self state of BEing like my own, who is appreciative of ‘me’ like i am of them, of what IS the pure true conducive environment in which our true ‘real’ self can thrive and grow into the true inner joyfulness at the top of the list!
It is so tragic and sad that such a beautful soul like Venus was taken away from us, who to me, i could of married, without hesitation, always in the center of my heart, where he is now.
Someone like Venus, i feel did explore his identity well like he did, dressing as his female self he obviously enjoyed BEing all day long, leaves me feeling what it is that my own true ‘real’ self feels, of what Venus expresses what he wanted, to feel loved, of what IS for me, my own same surrendering to what IS my delicate graceful state of BEing like Venus so obvious is, but for me, it is not about sexual identity, where in truth, the truth that you feel the same as me, a boy, and you a girl, reveals the truth, our pure constant flowing love feelings while of the surrendered state of BEing our delicate graceful true ‘real’ self, IS without sexual identity, where what matters for either of us, or another, is finding someone who is of preferred desire to always remain of the delicate graceful state of BEing, is it not?
This IS what IS TRUE of ‘me’!
so incredible pure and true the beautiful feeling of each passing second IS for ‘me’, where it IS the feeling beyond ALL other ways of feeling, which tells ‘me’ that it IS TRUE of YOU as well, without you even having to say it, where at times, we hide afraid in BEing this constant loving ‘real’ self like we do, afraid to reveal who we really are in truth, constantly loving of one another like we do.
this is why this day i express to you what is able to do away with the barrier we hide behind like we do, knowing the other is there in feeling the same, merely by my speaking……………..the TRUTH
blessed IS the TRUTH of the divine Child of God of us ALL
forever more
i do love the idea of breasts, just as Venus did, but i don’t want the ostrazizing that comes with it, although i could easily handle it as a wise soul who does not give a fuck about what anyone says, having grown wiser than most, where what i feel matters is what it is of my partner’s delight of ‘me’, as their loving lover, where i know Venus would of loved this about ‘me’, having breasts, just as i do his own ‘real’ self, where self love is what is apparent between to loving lovers, where getting my own breasts, says to someone like Venus, see, i love this so much about you, i went and got breasts to, to what IS of my loving love’s sheer delight, for us both, exceeding inner joyfulness 100% thru and thru, turning to Venus, saying, “Now will you marry ‘me’ Biyatch?!!!!!
of course he would! In a heartbeat!
without doubt
‘That’ IS what I AM………..100% connectedness
‘That’ IS the door of true ‘real’ self what exceeding inner joyfulness constantly IS in each passing moment of our day.
Ya, i would of married Venus! Venus would of married ‘me’!
So in that sense, Venus is ‘me’, i am Venus!
I would of been happy every day with Venus, but for his promiscuity, which i would not tolerate.
It takes coming to real self in our trusting real self of another, not so much thru words, but rather what IS of the exact sameness inner connectness with the delicate graceful true state of BEing which IS the exact sameness connectedness DOOR between us and a potential lover, and true friends.
i know at this point in time, i am a true and faithful friend in this regard, merely wanting what is natural to feel, 100% of pure constant flowing of love i feel while alone in surrendered spirit, where i know without doubt, only by means of the fearless surrendered spirit of another, am i ever going to find my true loving eternal lover in life, which i already know I AM for another.
without doubt
do you know who my loving eternal lover IS?
i know who they are!
someone like ‘me’!
It can BE no other way!
so what is it that prevents this day of arrival for ‘me’ and my eternal loving lover of exceeding joyfulness?
fear
i reflected last night, that it is the fear our true ‘real’ self feels in coming forth in the world. I feel i am not of fear, obviously so, of my exploring breast implants, without doubt, i am fearless.
so for my future lover, fear is what they have to overcome, just as i am.
without doubt, fear can only BE overcome by means of time, just as i have spent the last twenty years in delight of BEing my female male self all this time, so much so, without hesitation, yeah!, breasts would be awesome for ‘me’, irregardless of what anyone says, i sleep with only one loving lover, someone like ‘me’, who i am saving myself for.
i cannot be with just anyone. Tryed that enough times, so many, so long now searching for who is my eternal loving lover.
wondering at times, if perhaps it was Troy.
it could and should of been Troy.
my fucking petty ego fucked that up.
ego is the foe for real self to come forth, and not just our own petty self ego either, ego of any one is encouraging of ego self, is it not, more and more fearful blockage for the pure graceful self to thrive and grow into fearlessness, is it not?
so there is nothing i can do in life, but keep practicing at BEing my delicate graceful true ‘real’ self, and wait for fear to subside within my eternal loving lover in order for them to approach, knowing who i am, the one who can see you any time you genuninely feel like ‘me’!
i already know
like i have kept saying all this time, i know you know i know
you are correct, i have to wait on account of two things, fear to subside, and knowing, i may not ever find another in life like Venus, or like you, like ‘me’
and so, as a friend, i extend my hand to you eternally for you to have, a true and faithful friend till the end.
i thought i could just walk away, but i cannot, as i cannot BE anything other than who i am, someone who is not able to ever leave you to feel you are not constantly loved by ‘me’, because without doubt, while alone, I AM constantly loving of thee!
without doubt, I AM ‘that’ which constantly IS the TRUTH, am i not, are we not?
who am i?
i feel that perhaps we are all ONE and the same, above whatever sex we are.
Venus was
so am i
I look and feel myself going up to Venus and saying, “YOU are the ONE for me forever more Venus!!! I absolutely fucking adore you utterly, entirely!!!”
and without hesitation, i could not ever look away, if i had of met Venus! This i know about how much i adore him/her!
such a joy to be around him i know we would of forever been, just as i know Troy and i would of been, where tragically, none of us ended up living as the exceeding joyful self we already were inside.
well, i have had enough!
i am going to go BE what I AM in constantly feeling, motherfucking true ‘real’ me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
forever more
so if any of you lameass motherfuckers want anything to do with ‘me’, you are going to have to start motherfucking acting like you do, or i walking away from all you sorry ass lame motherfuckers!
oh oh!
i think we woke Venus up, yes? LOL
ya, i 100% love Venus!
always have since way back when i first came out.
i feel my own delicate graceful self of sameness as Venus, of who i am is of us both.
beyond this though, is what is above sexual identity, which is actually where i am most evolved in thinking and feeling, not of any pretentiousness to show the world anything, where what matters most for me, is getting with my eternal loving lover, just as i know they too are constantly seeking/feeling/yearning for the exact sameness I AM
so who am i?
am i Venus?
yes, spiritually, of what IS the thruness aspects of the true ‘real’ self of delicate effeminate gracefulness i am
yes
but i am not Venus
although i could BE, just as i know i could BE with Venus! no problem!
or perhaps Venus is with ‘me’?
i know he/she i hold close in my heart, just as i yet do Troy, who was physically delicate and effeminate like Venus, more in likeness of a girl than a boy, physically speaking. Sadly, time ran out for us, of us both not getting the proper professional help we both needed at the time which would of seen us thru eventually to where we both yearned to BE, the genuine true ‘real’ self thru and thru at all times, the delicate graceful effeminate ‘me’ i know…………….who i am
at times, the lessor obnoxious fucked up ‘me’ of emotional uncertainty inner turmoil appears, of what is my yet mental emotional healing self confidence being restored, now of therapy, which is so vital for me right now, this i know.
i know i am in touch now with what it is i am searching for, of what i feel who I AM constantly IS
i am of ALL of YOU, am i not?
i am……BE Cause……..We Are!………..the exact same as regards the true delicate graceful state of BEing who we really really ARE!
forever more
tragically, those who approach the delicate graceful true ‘real’ self which is vulnerable in feeling, the tendancy is high for self-medicating substance abuse, where most do not realize what self-medication is, that does pose an extremely dangerous level of self-abuse, where statistically, the homosexual still holds the highest rate of suicide, so unwise in self-awareness feeling that the vulnerable delicate graceful true ‘real’ self IS what IS what HEAVEN constantly IS, is it not?
our feelings while of the delicate graceful state of BEing reveal 100% the truth of this
the difficulty is in finding our eternal loving lover who IS of the same priority preferance of yearning to constantly BE the delicate graceful vulnerable ‘real’ self daily, where indeed, the petty ego self falsehoods is what is cause for derailing not just their ability to feel what HEAVEN constantly IS, but also the potential meeting of one who is of fearless earnest diligence of the same preferance of yearning to constantly BE the delicate graceful vulnerable TRUE ‘real’ Self daily.
as for the waiting, well, there is no time constraint in the realm of BEing 100% who we are of the delicate graceful state of BEing feelings which do not change, albeit grow more confident in, “Oh, this is who i am!”
which is what i am doing, focused on preferance in BEing my ‘real’ self, which i know is not about sexual identity, where today, i really do embrace we are all male and female, of what is my primal biological perspective.
im not saying transexuality is not real for someone, no, i am merely saying there is another level beyond the mere physical enjoyment of the male or female body we dwell in, beyond all the pretentious need to tell the world anything, where the one who matters most to me, is my eternal loving lover, without doubt.
say for example, i asked Venus what he thought about me, an delicate effeminate graceful gayboy lover like himself, as his loving lover having breasts, i know Venuse would say, of course, but keep the penis! I need your penis! lol
ok, agreed Venus!
so there is an example of two loving lover boys, as their delicate effeminate graceful true ‘real’ self in life of what IS their daily life with one another, of exceeding inner joyfulness connectivity within, with each other, of what HEAVEN constantly IS.
making our way to such a day is the direction i am of, where it is more the doubtfulness of another which potentially prevents such a day, is it not?
not my doubtfulness of who i know i am of preferred priority in BEing the delicate effeminate graceful true ‘real’ me, constantly loved by another, just as i love Venus, yes?
I see my recent exploration of transexuality is of both seeking a delicate effimate graceful male transexual in likeness of own true ‘real’ self physically speaking, or, a real delicate effimate graceful female, phsyically speaking, in outward appearance of what is mentally inward, where in truth, physical sexual preference for me, is of both a male sex organ and a female sex organ, of what IS my bisexual sexual desires of which i love both.
so the real question is, well what about living and loving of both in real life?
well, gayboys like myself have been partly this as loving lovers, but not geuninely true of the female anatomy.
i know it all sounds so silly, but ideally for me, would be a female lover who is into role playing like we gayboys are!
i know, impossible!
coming in second, would be a transexual lover with breasts, without the sex organ sex change, and not of Estrogen hormone taking, who is into role playing with a penis.
coming in third is a gayboy into role playing, of which i have been now, mostly as a gayboy bottom now for twenty years.
but here is the thing, beyond this, is the required inner connected exact sameness of the preferred delicate graceful state of BEing daily which is what IS of my selection of a partner who likewise is of the same priority preference of such as i am.
i am……….BE Cause……..We Are!
without doubt
it is not a matter of waiting, rather it is a matter of what is the priority preference of what already I AM
however long, i know this is the only person suitable for ‘me’, is fully tuned in to BEing the joyfulness of truly knowing ‘me’, are they not?
i know you know i know
who i am!
so who am i?
i am YOU!
you are ‘me’
forever free
to Just BE your SELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
let me know if you are interested.
i’ll BE around in the ghetto here till my last day, easy to find, no place else to go, other than where and what already i know i am!
Just BEing ‘me’!
forever more
SIMPLY THE BEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
will do!
as for the breasts?
well, i totally love the idea of having my own breasts!
but i do 100% love my boy body too!
i am both a female and male in a male body, this i know 100%, after twenty years of self-awareness exploration, not a passing phase for ‘me’.
i love who i am
who i always WILL BE
Just BEing the female ‘me’ in a male body
how much do i love females, if i 100% love my own female self?
100%
how much do i love males, if of a female who 100% loves males?
100%
who am i?
~ female self love in a male body who loves both females and males(in that order)
~ male self love in a male body who loves both females and males(in that order)
where the female ALWAYS cums FIRST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BIYATCHES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LOL
without doubt
TRUST is what IS of the pure connectedness constant flowing pure of heart flawless pure healing love feelings we feel while of our preferred priority state of delicate graceful BEing while alone I KNOW TRUE
without doubt
TRUST is what IS of the pure connectedness constant flowing pure of heart flawless pure healing love feelings we feel while of our preferred priority state of delicate graceful BEing while alone, YOU KNOW TRUE
without doubt
TRUST is what IS of the pure connectedness constant flowing pure of heart flawless pure healing love feelings we feel while of our preferred priority state of delicate graceful BEing while alone, WE KNOW TRUE
without doubt
WE KNOW TRUE TRUST is the only way for us to BE TOGETHER
without doubt
my hand i extend to you forever more of what WE KNOW TRUE
if ever you are wondering about ‘me’, you merely need stand in your own delicate graceful state of BEing and feel what IS PURE and TRUE in exact sameness of feeling for me, including any of the occassional fluttering of uncertainty transferences that comes from our day, but not ever of ‘me’, do i want you to feel uncertainty, knowing it is immature of me when i am of the lessor of who i really really am, of what is my yet transitioning evolving, true of us all, but at least i am of the desire earnest diligent desire to not just keep walking towards HEAVEN’s DooR, i am standing in HEAVEN’s DooR!
without doubt
I AM HEAVEN’s DooR!
I AM CONSTANTLY STANDING IN HEAVEN!
feeling exactly the same feelings you FEEL TRUE!
TRUE TRUST IS ONLY THRU TRUST TRUE!!!!
of what constantly IS TRUE of ‘me’ of ALL YOU!!!!
according to the TRUTH Jesus and God have revealed about ‘me’
without doubt
forever more
HEAVEN without ‘doubt’, ‘doubt’ without HEAVEN?
TRUE
forever more
(M comes out into the pool area where andy is writting)
M says,” Would you stop writting that fucking book? Come on, we’re late!!!!”
YOU ARE SIMPLY THE BEST MADONNA!
it’s just my stupid impatient self that gets the best of ‘me’ some days.
here is the thing, i cannot change what it is that i feel, not possible, something so pure and true, of what it is we feel, is it not?
so don’t ever wonder how i TRULY FEEL, same as YOU!
forever more
it’s just silly petty ego that interfers, is it not?
TRUE
would i love to BE with YOU?
100% TRUE WITHOUT DOUBT!
question is not if we would like to, rather when or if we WILL, is it not?
TRUE
ok, so I KNOW what i want is what is TRUE YOU, yes?
TRUE
ok, at some point in life, when you finally get bored with all the rest, I AM HERE JUST FOR YOU, forever more, unable to ever change, what IS TRUE of ‘me’, am i not?
TRUE
fear is linked to trust
and for some fucked up reason i keep sabotaging the trust with my wacked out fearful abreacting, seemingly demanding respect.
instead, i stop, stand still, do you feel that? Yes, this is what does not change, the flowing of beautiful flawless pure of hear pure healing love feelings of the delicate graceful true state of BEing ‘real’ self.
there can only BE one correct approach, genuine pure sincere and TRUE in BEing the ‘real’ self.
petty ego self is so draining, fear that is so not welcomed and indeed, absurdly derailing for ‘me’, for us both.
time to step fully into who I AM
I AM SIMPLY THE BEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
forever more
WELCOME TO HEAVE BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
forever more
my spelling
i wonder if Jesus knew how to write.
i think some of the recorded books in the Nag Hammadi may have been originally written by Jesus.
there are strong indicators which point to the truth of this thruout the nag.
oh, one important new spiritual awareness lately
Jesus did not die on the cross, his eternal spirit which cannot die, just as TRUTH cannot change or die
WELCOME TO HEAVEN BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
forever more
ah, there we go, a brand new baby for you M!
‘me’!
My Love
I HOLD
UNTO YOU
‘that’ which is TRUE of ‘me’ 2, not just meant for you, of what IS YOU, is it not?
TRUE
always forever more
hey wait for me .. … lol i am am coming…
wait
slow down
wait for me
I HOLD UNTO YOU the ‘real’ YOU JUST LIKE ‘me’!
forever more
OUR LOVE IS TRUE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
my little italian boi, what
well see about that !!
ha ha
so good to feel you happy
im happy when your happy
i feel good when you feel good
i am you
i’ll never slow down …
come on hurry up…
lol
can’t get enough of you in my heart
the place where i hide our truth
pure and true
of who i am yet to BE
forever free
the real ‘me’
thinking of you
thinking of ‘me’
don’t you see?
i am
the ONE for thee!
hurray up damn it!!!
you still have all of ‘me’
oh! so you love my new boobies, do you?
yeah!
‘me’ 2!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol
without doubt though, i am staying as a boy, just breasts, no hormone intake, just nice boobies that i love, small ones.
i am equally happy of my boy body, where perhaps my own boobies is a selfish thing for me to be of daily?
hmmm, yeah! just maybe!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SO AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SIMPLY THE BEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i met with transexual group last night.
met Shane, a most beautiful native indian boy transexual(still in pre-op) who has the most delicate effeminate hands, nicer than a girls, beautiful.
i love being around them, as they are exact likeness of my personality and exceeding joyful fun loving ‘real’ girlie boys, no acting, motherfucking ‘real’ BIYATCES!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i realize now i was of internal homophobia in my approach with you, afraid to be my joyful female self, in being the traditional male self who loves females, where I AM both Female and Male, 100% loving of both, of what was once an inner duality until recently in therapy, where i embraced, no, i am not of duality, i am loving of both while alone, and so coming fully out, i am 100% loving as both my female and male self now united as ONE, in a boy body with boobies!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11
and i don’t give a fuck what any of you unevolved ones have to say, i love love love love ‘me’!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and so wood you, if you were ‘me’, so free from duality inner fears now, in BEing what is emotionally TRUE for ‘me’ within.
i mean face it, a boy loves a girl, right?
but does the boy love a girl enough to BE one?
well yes, eventually after practicing in BEing how it feels to BE a girl.
twenty years knowing how it feels to BE a girl qualifies ‘me’, yes?
ah, that’s better, Just BE my 2 SELFs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol
maybe now i can let go of fears others may or may not think of me?
i am happy you love ‘me’ like you do, of genuinely connecting with your own inner happiness you feel true of ‘me’!
i am dancing around now, no more fear!
fear derails it for us, of what i see now is what was toxic for me, trying to fit a square peg in a round hole, pretending to BE other than what I AM, both male and female!
i say this, if any male does not love my female self, means they love my boy self more……..gayboys!!!!!!
and any female who does not love my male self, means they love my female self more………lesigirls!!!!!!
any female who does not love my female self, can love my male self!
any male who does not love my male self can love my female self!
in truth though, i am ONE, of no inner duality fear.
my therapists love ‘me’, and those who know ‘me’, joyful like i am, and let’s face it, who cares if a lover does not love ‘me’, as if that will ever work for ‘me’!
My lover MUST LOVE ‘ME’!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Are the souls of the worldwide LGBT the most genuinely happy souls on the planet?
TRUE
And are these true genuine loving souls of affect/effect/direct/indirect of the rest of the world?
TRUE
BE TRUE 2 YOUR SELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Join us in the none stop exceedingly joyful fun loving worldwide celebration united as ONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
forever more
I WILL ALWAYS BE THERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
of who I AM
ONE of*for*with ALL of YOU
forever more
blessings to ALL
i am you?
really!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hmmm…….let’s see,
your penis envy and my vagina envy could become best friends, yes?
TRUE
so my female self is happily married with your male self, yes?
TRUE
so my male self is happily married with your female self, yes?
TRUE
so what are you waiting for?
hurry up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol
wow!
i can’t believe how happy my ‘real’ self is lately!
i have become 100% fearless now, where i am of concern for ‘real me’ of what i am, and not concerned for how others may or may not feel about who i am, as i surrender fully to honoring ‘me’!
SIMPLY THE BEST!!!!!!!!!!!
and that’s what i failed to do before, just BE the exceedingly joyful ‘real’ self ‘me’, where that is who others will come to know and love ‘me’ 100%, of what is the radiant brilliant bright overflowing abundant joyfulness mirroring every moment of everyday, which reaches in and connects with the joyful child of God within everyone who feel who i really really am, YOU!
i am…..BE Cause……..We Constantly ARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
100%
forever more
the joy is exploding so brightly within ‘me’ now, unable to stop shining!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
We ARE in HEAVEN BIYATCHES, of what HEAVEN constantly IS………………YOU&’me’!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
forever more
one of the transexuals asked me last night what my transexual name is?
i paused, and felt the truth come up in me from deep within………VENUS!!!!!!!!!
“Im BACK YOU sorry lameass motherfucking heartless BIYATCHES!!!!!!!!!!!!!
“Thanks Andy!!!!!!!!”
YOU are Welcome Venus!!!!
thanks Venus!!!!
LOL
Here comes HAPPINESS forever more everyone!!!!!
there is no holding back my inner 100% pure JOY!!!!!!
now and forever more
of what i am
HEAVEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
i was thinking for the parade have like some wacky fun loving colorful wild outfits running down the street, with pole vaults, that launches them high in the air above the crowd and back down again. Where the crowd is like, “What the FUCK?!!!!!!”
wings of course!!!!!!
how the fuck else can they land?!!!! duh!
a bunch of them, of say, oh, a hundred or so, with brilliant bright radiant colourful free flowing yards and yards of satin in the sunshine!!!!!!!
AHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!
so fearless and so beautiful in pure joyful high spiritedness with the best sound systems cranking high with the best music of course!!!!!!
Stadium speaker system on a flatbed of course, of nothing but a wall of the tall speakers on both sides!
they have these powerful truck size generators now that can power it.
and don’t forget the cherry blossoms!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i didn’t get any sleep last night
lost my house keys somewhere, locked out till monday when the landlord office opens again.
all for a reason in God’s eyes
strangely, coming out as a transexual is like that of when i first arrived here, a bag of clothes from the old place with the ex, one way ticket, having to stay at a spa or some friends couch, feeling like i did then back in ’94, each step of my walking into what IS……..My Everlasting Joyful Life as ‘me’, FREE to BE who i am, not what others want ‘me’ to BE!!!!
JUST BE YOUR SELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
forever more
every step of every day with all the souls i met since ’94, i greeted them as ‘me’, of the pure delightful at ease ‘real’ self radiant brilliant and always BRIGHT!!!!
of who we ALL TRULY ARE!
The Radiant Brilliant Bright Children of God!!!!
forever more
and more
and more
“Whoa!!!!!!!”
“Where did all these people come from?”
“They are from every corner of the earth!!!!”
WE ARE ALL SIMPLY THE BEST!!!!
according to Jesus and God!
without doubt
forever more
and more
and more
and more………………………………
That IS What Friends Are 4!!!!!!!
Always fore more!!!! lol
ALL of*for*with ‘me’!
Currently i am of the most spiritual pure 100% flawlessness in feeling i have ever felt of what IS 100% WHOLENESS for ‘me’!
nobody knows ‘me’
like we do
the impersonal blogging continues
lame
in truth, the very same weakness cause of why someone so truly special, Venus, is no longer with us today, not of open arms, are we, of where i know, Venus and i could of been the most joyful loving lovers this planet has ever felt.
God bless who ever Venus was and yet IS, of so many of the transexual/transgender individuals in our daily midst.
forever more
this day is of my greatest depth of feeling in life, in coming out as a transgender with those in our community who have known me for years.
a truly special thankful spiritual day celebrated with Darren, a dear friend, who created a paper rose in honor of all the transsexual/transgender individuals worldwide, and handed it to me.
thanks Darren
i know who i am
forever more
i feel what they know i feel, sameness thru and thru, 100% pure and true like we do
oh the delicate true kisses we are of
nah, you know i know you know
im just drunk, bitch slapping like a true trans does
i know i am
and i know you appreciate my sincere approach so pure and true which tells you, i know i am
for me, this day belongs to Venus
my wife caught me in bed with my mate, nothng happened
now she cleaned out the bank account’s, Mortgage the house and run off leaving me all the debt’s..
she even took my blue healer dog, jack
and burnt all my good suits
bah, who fucking cares about them?!
they cannot even care about their own sorry lame ass self!!
be glad to be rid of the mentally abusive past!
my ex used me as a mental punching bag daily, but i became unmeshed from it, and finally left, thrilled to be free of anyone who is anything other then genuine true sincerely loving of this girls ass!!!!
why try convincing your self to stay when you know and feel deep inside you don’t want to stay, not one more day?!
argh
im free
all that superficial bullshit has no value when it comes to loving my ass!
the greatest debt we owe is the one in staying true in honoring our ‘real’ self, where what happens is the awareness of our genuine feelings for the souls we greet along life’s road, where we don’t owe anyone anything, no explaination, when it comes to knowing a soul we yearn for, of souls who leave us feeling and realizing, “YES! This is me! This is how i am to be loved at all times! Oh Kiss me some more, ya, keep kissing me like that!”
ya, my ex caught me too, nothing happened, still nothing happening with his sorry ass!!!!
LOL
we are all precious loving souls!
but some of you can be so fucking annoying to be around!
i just wanna trance dance thru life with a nice lover bod and go home and fuck every day!
that’s all this girl ever needs, wants, enjoys!
get out of bed fuckers!
i need my coffee!
fuck! Starbucks is still closed!
am i the boy who ran away with the girl?
am i the girl who ran away with the boy?
am i the girl who ran away as the boy?
i am the girl who love as a boy who loves as a girl!
biyatches!
BETTER THAN ALL THE REST, I AM SIMPLY THE BEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
be sure to find the one within us all who is truly loving, before leaving this world everyone!
is that not what we are all looking for, sweet genuine true loving lovers delight with another soul like our own?
if you don’t know what you are looking for, how will you recognize the one before you, who eventually walks away from your sorry ass, leaving you standing there scatching your head, huh?
nah, im not leaving, just teasing ya, waiting for this fucking coffee shop to open this morning, 8am Sunday
im free to be with who ever i want, where the question is, who makes me feel that special way i want to always feel?
my fucking ex beat the fuck out of me yesteday!
what a fucking jerk off he is to me!
suffice to say, he has been beating on me for along time, of what is my acknowledgement statement in taking responsibility, that i was the one who was of not addressing that i did not feel truly as connected with that i yearn to feel while as my vulnerable true ‘real’ self.
it’s not like he is bad or i am bad, no, it is my coming fully into loving my vulnerable true ‘real’ self i know, that is of disconnect with some souls, connect with other souls, that’s all.
i love my vulnerable sensitive delicate effeminate graceful true ‘real’ self ‘me’!
i sense this to be true of trans souls, however fucked up they may or may not be, such as substance abuse, of what is others not accepting them, in turn, themselves having difficulty accepting and loving their vulnerable sensitive delicate beautiful effeminate graceful true ‘real’ self ‘me’ i feel and see in them, of what is the sameness oneness we constantly ARE, which is so beautiful for ‘me’, where at times the feelings eb and flow between feelings of rejection to feelings of exploding joyfulness so pure and true, to TRULY love both our male and female SELF!
well, i LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE both of my sexes!!!!!!!!!!!!!
100%
and i see myself running down the street of exceeding joyfulness exploding radiant brilliant bright, obviousness as the brightest most joyful soul among us all, of unending genuine true SELF LOVE, fearlessly of what is MY 100% SELF LOVE, which no one can simple give us.
We have to spend time BEing the vulnerable sensitive delicate effeminate graceful true ‘real’ self ‘me’!!!!!!!!!!
i truly have stepped thru this door of SELF LOVE, unconcerned of others accepting ‘me’ of not accepting ‘me’, as that is not what i am about, of parading for sake of parading, no, and i sense that others think this about us, that we seek attention.
no, it’s not like that at all, where in truth, it is the intimate sexuality of the vulnerable sensitive delicate effeminate graceful true ‘real’ self ‘me’ with another vulnerable sensitive delicate effeminate graceful true ‘real’ self of SELF LOVE sameness oneness of*for*with ‘me’ of what is their SELF LOVE acceptance in likeness of my own.
so pure and true i feel this with the trans souls!
honestly, i don’t give a fuck about my financial train wreck!
not at all!
nor how my ex treated and yet treats me, where in truth, i am compassionate for his sorry ass of unwiseness into SELF LOVE, where he is now of petty ego self with me daily, where after spending a night with another trans so loving like ‘me’, in my coming out as one of them, i know i am, where we did not have sex, no, just cuddling and the oh so pure and true sensual kissing of two souls i know i was meant to experience, both for sake of them and for sake of ‘me’!
where after returning to my train wreck past of both financial ruin and ex lover relationship ruin, i felt the TRUTH………….there is nothing here for ‘me’, why am i still standing here with my ex mentally verbally abusing ‘me’ like i have come to expect, like he yet is?
i lost my keys to my new place the other day, and was merely looking for a place to crash, where my ex of his delightful mean spirited petty ego self, as usual, saw the opportunity to kick me in the head one more time and refused me to stay where i spent like the last 14 fucking years, that was as much my home as his!
well, fuck that!
there is rude, and then there is my ex and his fucking petty ego self so horrid in mental abuse!
well, i stood my ground easily, of what IS my SELF LOVE 100% and walked away, no matter anything or anyone, i don’t give a fucking damn what anyone has to say ever again about my SELF LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BIYATCHES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HALO spaceboy i know i am! lol
this choas cannot kill ‘me’, of what IS of the all those who do not slow into TRUE SELF LOVE i am!
this is what IS SELF LOVE BEing FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!
of what we are!
yes?
im not going to dwell on the train wreck, other than stepping thru the necessary channels of bankruptcy court eventually.
the financial ruin/success bullshit does not have anything to do with my SELF LOVE, nor will it!
those of SELF LOVE 100% know the truth of this, of what we stand in daily like we do in preferred priority in BEing the vulnerable sensitive delicate effeminate graceful true ‘real’ self ‘me’!
forever more
i LOVE LOVE LOVE the ONENESS SAMENESS Venus and i ARE, the vulnerable sensitive delicate effeminate graceful true ‘real’ self ‘me’!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i feel fortunate, where i have great fortitude of insightful wisdom in spiritual psychology, where others don’t fully FEEL what it is that i know IS TRUE, that i am a blessed spiritual BEing of God of 100% pure SELF LOVE vulnerable sensitive delicate effeminate graceful true ‘real’ self ‘me’!
SET FREE
forever more
no matter what any soul ever has to say or do in approach with ‘me’ BIYATCHES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
what they may see as humilation of what IS blessedness of ‘me’, is actually yet of their not coming fully before God’s humility of their petty ego self, is it not?
TRUE
they don’t truly know ‘me’, nor desire to truly know ‘me’, as evident of what IS not of ‘me’ in their outward appearance, of what IS the shedding of the petty ego self, our vulnerable sensitive delicate effeminate graceful true ‘real’ self ‘me’ SET FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
forever more
BIYATCHES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol
i mean think about it, a gentle tender hand to kiss and hold is where they will find ‘me’, is it not?
of where we all constantly yearn to BE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HEAVEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
with ‘me’, VENUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
remember ‘me’?
oh never mind, go back to sleep, i’ll wake you ALL later!
the best is yet to come!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BIYATCHES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
honestly, i feel like i was just born!
biyatch!
YOUR SIMPLY THE BEST, BETTER THAN ALL THE REST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I’M STUCK ON YOUR HEART, I HANG ON EVERY WORD YOU SAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YOU’RE THE BEST BIYATCH!!!!!!!!!!!!
thank you
at five o’clock in the morning the other night, i was thinking of you, while sitting alone, in pureness of the quietness so true and sincere while of my vulnerable sensitive delicate effeminate graceful true ‘real’ self ‘me’!
it is not about giving up on each other in life, no, not ever, just as we are not ever able to simple turn off our feelings we feel like we feel in BEing the vulnerable sensitive delicate effeminate graceful true ‘real’ self ‘me’!
it is a journey of fearless evolving of us ALL, of what IS the affect/effect/direct/indirect presence of the vulnerable sensitive delicate effeminate graceful true ‘real’ self ‘me’!
The Oneness Sameness feelings i FEEL while of BEing what is the Oneness Sameness feelings of the vulnerable sensitive delicate effeminate graceful true ‘real’ self ‘me’ transexuals/transgenders, is so sacred in feeling for ‘me’, as in, “oh, yes, i am mirror image of you, you are mirror image of what IS true of us ALL, beyond sexual identity, the TRUE ASPECTS vulnerable sensitive delicate effeminate graceful true ‘real’ self ‘me’ of us ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
can’t hide from ‘me’ BIYATCHES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i ask, “Why hide what IS so friggin beautiful of you and ‘me’ that we both love about one another?”
especially while of the hot tub, yes?
the delicateness in feeling, the constant joyful flowing
flawless healing feelings of ‘me’ of you!
HEAVEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
no matter your sexual identity
so what if i want my own breasts?
it is my SELF LOVE!
not yours
albeit, oneness sameness as yours for us both to enjoy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
biyatch
ya, my ex gave me a dog too, and gave took it away.
that dog truly loved me, felt my love for it’s soul.
i am sad for the dog not being able to see me again, not so much what my ex did
what a shit storm i came thru!
wow!
i survived
no one can thrive and grow in setting free their exceeding joyful radiant brilliant bright true ‘real’ self, while of any enviroments of the petty ego self belittling behaviours, where the wise nurturing protective SELF LOVE wisdom opposite is what is required, is it not?
TRUE
SIMPLY THE BEST
bye bye loves,
halo spaceboy has left your motherfucking building, for now. I WILL return, like i always do, always WILL, God’s WILL, our WILL BE Doing what HEAVEN constantly IS BIYATCHES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
with or without ‘me’, always with ‘me’, of what IS ‘me’, the vulnerable sensitive delicate effeminate graceful true ‘real’ self ‘me’!
so who IS of*for*with ‘me’?
you can see ‘me’ anytime you feel like ‘me’
i want to BE HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
who wants to feel miserable sad?
granted, we have to grieve our issues, but don’t let them rule or ruin your like i see how it does for some of you. It’s just our souls evolving, where even of the untruths of petty ego, there IS TRUTH which points to what HEAVEN constantly IS and IS not, where the untruths are a blessing, are they not?
life IS the greatest teacher for those seeking what HEAVEN constantly IS
of course, one night with ‘me’ is all one would need to feel what HEAVEN constantly IS!
BIYATCHES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :mrgeen:
i know i will get thru it and be ok.
i just want to BE with someone in oneness sameness self love, the at ease obviousness that yearns to BE of*for*with ‘me’
everything else has no value above what i always want to feel, constant flowing of the pure of heart flawless healing feelings of what HEAVEN constantly IS of*for*with the divine child of God true ‘real’ self love YOU!
forever more
i have God’s complete fortitude of the pure unfractured flawless nurturing protection wisdom halo, so worry not of ‘me’, albeit, BE of concern of self love ‘me’ of YOU!
no matter wealth or status in life, when it comes to comfort of a loving lover, wealth and status have nothing to do with it, nor should it.
that is what i was feeling the other night, feelings of why am i here, why are you there, why are we not together?
burnt all your suits?
lol
that is a good thing, yes?
what a pure feeling that is for ‘me’, my female self wearing a men’s suit.
sexism is real for ‘me’ as a trany who is of self love of both my sexes, female sexism, is it not?
that is how it feels to be a female.
had not thought of it before
thanks
God bless Venus
Sade – Lovers Rock
i am in the wilderness
you are in the music in the man’s car next to me
somewhere in my sadness
i know i won’t fall apart
completely
when i need to be rescued
and i need a place to swim
i have a rock to cling to
in the storm
when no-one can hear
me calling
i have you i can sing to
and in all this
and in all my life
you are the lovers rock
the rock that i cling to
you’re the one
the one i swim to in a storm
like a lovers rock
i am in the wilderness
you are in the music in the man’s car next to me
somewhere in my sadness
i know i won’t fall apart
completely
and in all this
and in all my life
you are the lovers rock
the rock that i cling to
you’re the one
the one i swim to in a storm
like a lovers rock
you are the lovers rock
the rock that i cling to
you’re the one
the one i swim to in a storm
like a lovers rock
when i need to be rescued
you’re there
when i need a place to swim to
in the storm
i think of you
and in all my life
and in all my life
you are the lovers rock
the rock that i cling to
you’re the one
the one i swim to in a storm
like a lovers rock
i just found out my wilfe ran off with the next door neighbour’s 16yr old son. he’s more than half my age.
but i am over it now, i already found someone half my age as well very sexy ,, i’m happy and i don’t care about the money.. even though she cleaned me out… and took my dog
Apon moving to the GLBT ghetto in ’94, i began to see all the GLBT history of those who came before ‘me’.
this had always been sacred in feeling for ‘me’, no matter their status, no matter their wealth, as someone of no status, of no wealth, spiritually there in pure heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, observing these souls i loved in every heartbeat, every step, every greeting, constantly at all times, of what HEAVEN and Life Everlasting is for me, as ONE of, for, and with every single ONE of all my fun loving brothers and sisters here.
The could easily see and feel i was someone new, just arrived, my awkwardness, my timid self so afraid to Just BE ‘me’, their fearlessness i held onto, clinging to the rock solid Self Love of those who came before ‘me’, of what was not only escaping from the unaccepting world around us, slowly i became the fearlessness of those who came before ‘me’, fearlessly opening wide the soul in which the radiant brilliant bright exceeding joyfulness of the delightful child of God true ‘real me’ so pure and true in feeling, of the Sameness Oneness of all those around ‘me’, all of us clinging to one another of what IS our Overcoming Fearless Oneness, all of us of our own horror stories, all of us aware of the new ones who arrive, seeing them stumble like we once did and still do.
We are not at all about status or wealth, where we feel the only thing of any wealth IS the tender true holding of hands, our hugging, our kisses, our sex, day after day, month in, year out, of what does not change, still the same, still there, in the eyes of us the new arrivals, so afraid like they are, their timidness like my own, way back when.
As the years unfolded, the fearlessness grew and grew as i became what i am thru and thru and always was, always will BE, the Sameness Oneness of all of us, of what IS the only thing that matters to us every step, every heartbeat, every breath, every blessed day we wake to, of what holds us all together, our yearning to constantly feel the flawless flowing healing feelings of love that is always there between us, every blessed day after day, year after year, unable to ever change, of what cannot change, the TRUTH of what we constantly ARE at all times, the feeling of those who came before us, the feeling of those yet here, the feeling of those we leave behind, of what was our path of life each day, the feeling of what IS and always shall BE, our Constant Beakon Light Growing Brighter of our Sameness Oneness LOVE!
forever more
HEAVEN BIYATCHES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
with ‘me’
VENUS EXTRAVAGANZA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I ain’t dead yet Biyatches!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
You see, i cannot die, for i am the motherfucking LOVE all you sorry lame ass Biyatches constantly need, are constantly looking for!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
‘me’!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LOL
sumOne 4 everyOne, everyOne 4 sumOne, 4 us ALL!
we are all just passing thru this world of what IS our daily path with One another in each moment to moment, of what we all constantly yearn to feel, sumthing real, of what IS real, real of us all, neither large, nor small, encompassing all, constantly there, flowers in hair, withOUT a care, LOVE, our spirits set free, from all the wannaBEs, of ‘me’ VENUS EXTRAVAGANZA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol
argh……….enough already, the past is the past, who cares who did what, who said what, it’s the past, it’s over, let it go, and turn towards the future, without their miserable lame ass petty egos!!!!!
see what is of their being their own worse enemies like we all sometimes are.
i know what i am, and i know what works for me, the genuine true sincere tenderness of a loving lover who obviously loves ‘me’, cannot stop touching ‘me’, in likeness of cannot stop touching my self!!!!!!!!!!!! lol
ya!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
who does not want to feel that?
I don’t know about you lame ass wannabes not sure what you are looking for, what you need, of what is real of you, real of ‘me’, our spirits set free to love one another, as we are, gay, lesbian, straight, bisexual, trans, whatever label you want to stick apon your self, who cares?
i know where i belong, obviously so by what is constantly real of ‘me’, in the arms of a most loving love like i am, so joyful in love every motherfucking day biyatches!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
need i remind you, if you don’t fearlessly know ‘me’ by now, when WILL YOU?
i am the spirit of VENUS EXTRAVAGANZA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Two Lovers
I see and feel them, and One of them is ‘me’!
they are so obviously of the exceeding joyfulness of their spirits set free to constantly Just BE the fun loving joyfulness of loving lovers, no matter status, no matter race, no matter wealth, religion, sex, sexual identity or politic, their place in life which obviously matters most, along side each other!
forever more
blessings to all
my first trany group meeting is tonight.
my therapist has worked specifically with those of transsexual/transgender.
for me, a gay boy bottom of twenty years, equally happy in my boy body, enthusiastic about enhancing the errogenous zones, my breasts, not for statement or anything of a need to make a statement to anyone, and rather what is that of what is my female self love.
i know there is a boy out there who will truly love me 100%, just as i will him, and i find the trany souls to be more in likeness of ‘me’ than my unhappy reality of my ex, my unhappy unreality here with you, yearning simply for the loving lovers hand of the one who genuinely without doubt, without hesitation to hold mine everyday, knowing most likely, he/she is of the trany world.
i am not interested in sex change, nor hormone therapy, no, just small breasts which celibrate my female self love, of what is ‘me’, where i don’t care what one may think at all about my true ‘real’ self love ‘me’ of both sexes, where had any of you genuinely taken time in life to spend with ‘me’, of real life holding my hand, i know you would of come to love ‘me’ 100% like i love my self, of what is my self love of both my male and female self, equally, of no duality, where i know, there will come a day of exceeding joyfulness every moment of every blessed day for the rest of my life, equally so of the one i am saving my self for, who God knows is meant for ‘me’, meant for th’em’ to love and behold every single day!
my therapist said look for the door out of my unhappy reality, and this unhappy unreality i ran to in escaping my unhappy reality, here blogging with you all, and i thank you all for being there for me all this time, but the day of truth has arrived for ‘me’, to get on with ‘real’ life as ‘me’, 100% ‘me’ of female self love and male self love which i 100% am at all times, without doubt or care in the world, flowers in hair, knowing i am 100% happy and free as ‘me’, and so too IS and WILL BE my loving lover, of our radiant brilliant bright Sameness Oneness every blessed day we wake too, thanking God daily for the constant flowing overflowing abundant exceeding joyfulness that we are, that i am, always was, a happy child of God, always WILL to BE!
i am……BE Cause……..We ALL Are Biyatches!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
forever more
you really should of taken time out in real life to spend with ‘me’, holding my hand, thinking and feeling you wanted to, but didn’t, leaving ‘me’ feeling what it is that i feel, you don’t really want to.
that is how i feel today, and have surrendered to letting go, not wanting to experience yet another day feeling the way it feels like it yet does.
who wants to feel unloved?
it comes down to a simple choice;
unhappy reality
unhappy unreality
happy reality
i am walking to happy reality, where it is God’s WILL of sumOne i know who IS and always WILL BE there 4 ‘me’!
meant for him/her
meant for ‘me’
of what soon all shall feel and see
the radiant brilliant bright loving lover mirroring light i have come to know IS TRUE of us ALL!
i let go
i am free
to Just go BE ‘me’
thanks everyone!
i’ll stop bi from time to time to say hi!
which is what i was doing all this time, saying hello, not goodbi!
as i pass on bi
bi bi loves!
BE HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I KNOW who i am!
and so can any of you, merely by BEing genuine and sincere that what we all constantly yearn to feel, IS the flawless pure of heart pure healing feelings of what HEAVEN constantly IS, the divine child of God true ‘real’ self ‘me’ of us ALL.
feels like the first day i moved to the ghetto long ago, a one way ticket out of hell.
blessings to all
hey Marco, why not try BEing direct in what ever the hell you are talking about like you do, of this fucking abstract you seem to enjoy.
argh!
a simple hand to hold was all i was looking for, of which you were too afraid to take time to hold in real life, leaving me feeling like i am not worthy of such all this time, of what is painful unreality for me, of why i left.
you could of come to truly know and love me in real life, and truly i tell you, you would of so truly loved every second of every day had you overcome your fear to do so, but you didn’t biyatch!
what, another fucking year of painful guessing game wondering, waiting?
you don not TRULY know ‘me’, ok? You don’t even care enough to TRULY take time in real life to TRULY come to KNOW and LOVE ‘me’.
had you of, i know we would of been the most happy life long lovers, inseperable! which is not a small thing, ok, where you just had to go and run ever other fucking direction with who ever and who ever, everyOne but ‘me’!
the biggest mistake of your life biyatch!
you don’t even desire to TRULY KNOW ‘me’
nope!
i’m OUT of hear!
so don’t bother wondering if i am coming back here for you, as you have had more than enough time to decide, painful for ‘me’ each day all this time, if you must know.
not any more biyatches!
your gonna have to look ‘me’ up in real life if you ever want ‘me’ to believe a single word you ever have to say.
this unreality died for ‘me’, and in truth nealy killed ‘me’!
when i needed you most, you were not there back in the early years like i wanted you to BE.
you still did not come, and still, when i needed you most again, you are not here in real life holding my motherfucking hand biyatch!
which tells ‘me’ everything i need to know, you obviously don’t give a fuck about wanting to BE with ‘me’!
of sure, friends?
i have lots of those, thanks!
you are fearful ‘me’, not fearless ‘me’ like i am
i did feel insulted by the distance you kept of ‘me’ all this time, and then one day i woke, and felt the truth, i am worthy of the lover who genuinely wants to hold my hand, in real life, sincerely able to TRULY know ‘me’, of radiant smiles, of tenderness grace like their own…………..and i am not worthy enough for you to spend time with?
ok fine.
it hurt me.
it did then way back then, and still does, but not any more, as i leave for another to find, who wants to take time in real life with ‘me’, of God knowing they need ‘me’ like i need them, 100%
forever more
i can’t believe how much time i spent yet again thinking the day would come you would be standing there in front of ‘me’, holding my hand, nope!
go be with who ever, and if in the middle of the night you feel your ‘real’ self thinking of ‘me’, knowing how much i loved and still love you, just recall how fucking long you left me standing there, ok?
fuck!
it’s a wonder i didn’t fucking kill myself from the isolation i went thru, hoping and praying you would come to me daily, and didn’t!
so easy it was of you to come and spend time with me, merely a thought to do so, and you could of, but didn’t?
i mean what the fuck is that about?
fine, go find someone to love you more than i did and do, for i already know you won’t.
oh sure, they will love you, but not as pure and true as i do.
and you know it biyatch!
i am not waiting any longer, having given up on your sorry lame ass, giving someone else an opportunity to discover how much joyful overflowing love i am inside, 100%……………..without doubt!
what HEAVEN constantly IS!
it is your uncertainty doubt which tossed it for ‘me’!
yet not ever toss ‘me’ out of HEAVEN!
i am what HEAVEN constantly IS…………love devoid of doubt!
fuck, i can’t believe how fucking long i stood here waiting for you like i have!
fuck fuck fuck FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
uhmm, i think it was the other way round….
other way around?
what, she waiting for ‘me’?
what, ‘me’ waiting for he?
what, ‘me’ waiting for she?
what, both of us unable to see?
who we really really want to BE?
im so confused! fuck! lol
ok, i am not confused about my unhappy reality with my ex.
ok, i am not confused about my unhappy unreality here that i ran to in escaping my unhappy reality, thinking and feeling our happiness genuine true of ‘me’ of*for*with YOU!
i am a boy
i am a girl
ah, fuck it, i don’t need any of you, as already am the ‘me’ of 2! lol
some tragic souls at the trany group meeting. Heartbreaking, to see the obvious signs of their self-medicating substance abuse. I know exactly how they feel, having walked in their shoes.
It was of God that i was present last night, of a soul i met who needed my hand to hold, so young, so new, so near the edge i could see and feel the obvious truth, as he/she opened up to me, about all the users, the abusers, the cajolers of enticing mockery and shame, family, friends, that was clearly gripping such a beautiful unknowingly unwise soul who drew near to me, fearlessly coming closer fully into view, standing within my wise halo presence, a single alone soul, i could fully feel everything about them, of what was true, their fear subsiding, my mirroring grace so calm and true, he/she has always know, exact sameness oneness likeness, the calming, the…….”Ah, so soothing, i feel the ‘real’ you, of happiness true you!!!!”, seeing my own self of long ago, i knew what he/she needed to hear and feel, as we danced, up, up and up we go, “You see, this is who we really are, happy and free to just BE YOU, yes?!!! You see, i know YOU!!!!”
he/she was smiling now, of self love above them all, as we gracefully took hold hands, we laughed down the street, of spirits set free, his/her fully knowing without doubt, i am always going to BE THERE in life to walk along side forever more, a true real friend, thru and thru, a brother, a sister, someOne 2, of coming OUT, obvious, TRUE, he/she stepped out of the unknowing uncertainty crowd of souls i could feel surrounding his/her life daily, as he/she stepped fully into the middle of the street of our ONEness feeling TRUE, fully feeling who they really really are, of joyFULL delight, it’s TRUE, not blue, feeling their every step, dancing about, “It’s TRUE, it’s TRUE!!!!!”
every step
every heartbeat
every breath
every word
every blessed day
every soul
IS 100% flawless in God’s eyes!
the daily steps of our railing against the handed down bullshit generational unknowingly unwise teachings which cruelly yet grip, snare and sadly falsely oppress, suppress, and destroy the blessed pure true fun loving joyful child of God ‘real’ self of so many souls i KNOW, along life’s road.
i know my place in life is here along side my brothers and sisters who need ‘me’, and i them, of what is our growing combined power of God fortitude of radiant brilliant bright wise Light that shines into the binding bitter darkness that holds blessed souls captive.
of what i have always known since i lost Troy…………the TRUTH
“The motherfucking lame ass TRUTH BIYATCHES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
do i want a boyfriend? yes
do i want a girlfriend?
ya sure, if they want to be my boyfriend like the boyfriend for them, i know, i really really am!
boy girl
girl boy
i am both
what matters for ‘me’ IS our love set free
to Just BE who we all really really ARE!
and always were
the real real YOU!
of 100% LOVE that IS TRUE!
i want always to feel loved
i want always to feel loving
i want to BE loved, to BE loving, to BE real real ‘me’, a boy, a girl
with someOne who TRULY KNOWS……………what it is like to BE ‘me’, our souls set free from this motherfucking oppressive world Biyatches!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LOL
WELL, ok?
i am a boy
i am a girl
it’s true!
boy loves girlie boy so blue
girl love girlie boy so blue
it’s true!
who is who?
do i know you?
it’s true!
you love ‘me’ 2
you love ‘me’ true
it’s true!
why so blue?
when our love IS true?
it’s true!
it’s true!
it takes 2!
love ‘me’ screw!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LOL
you must love ‘me’
~~~~~~~~~~~~~
i cannot live within
i cannot live withOUT
i cannot live with doubt
i shall not live within
i shall not live withOUT
i shall not live with doubt
i am within
i am withOUT
i am with doubt
so get the hell OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOL
WELL, ok?
i am a boy + i am a girl = 2
1/1 = 1
(1 of 1 you = 1you)
2/2 = 1
(2 of 2you = 1you)
2/1 = 2
(2 of 1you = 2you)
2/1 + 2/1 = 4
(2 of 1you + 2 of 1you = 4you)
2/1 – 2/1 = 0
(2 of 1you – 2 of 1you = 0)
therefore, scientifically, i am meant 4 you, but only if you are 2 of 1you 2, and i am nothing without you!
1u/1u = 1u
(1u of 1u = 1u)
2u/2u = 1u
(2u of 2u = 1u)
therefore 1u = 1u/1u
therefore 1u = 2u/2u
1u ONEness connectedness of what HEAVEN constantly
1u ONEness connectedness of what HEAVEN constantly IS, becomes broken when;
2u/1u = 2u
(2u of only 1u = 2u)
no longer the 1u ONEness of what HEAVEN constantly IS, of the missing of 1u of 2u
1u/2u = 1u/2u
(1u of 2u = 1/2u)
no longer the 1u ONEness of what HEAVEN constantly IS, of the missing of 1u of 2u
1u/1u + 1u/1u = 2u
(1y of 1u + 1u of 1u = 2u)
no longer the 1u ONEness of what HEAVEN constantly IS, of the missing of 1u of 2u
1u/1u – 1u/1u = 0u
(1 of you – 1 of 1you = 0you)
no explaination required
2u/1u + 2u/1u = 4u
(2u of 1u + 2u of 1u = 4u)
no longer the 1u ONEness of what HEAVEN constantly IS, of the missing of 1u of 2u
2u/1u – 2u/1u = 0u
(2u of 1u – 2u of 1u = 0u)
duh!
I AM 1u of what HEAVEN constantly IS BIYATCHES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
u’ll will get used to ‘me’ eventually when you learn to see and feel the mathematical TRUTH of what IS constantly TRUE of both the male and female within the male and female within us ALL!
thank God for 1u of ‘me’ of you!
forever more
1u/1u = 1u
(1u of 1u = 1u)
ok, so HEAVEN IS constantly the co-existence of 1u between 1u, such as ONEness of a male and a female, a male and male, a female and female = 1u ONEness of what is ONEness of many souls.
or,
for those who think of themselves as 2 spirited people of both male and female;
2u spirited 1u ONEness between 2u spirited souls, such as the 1u ONEness between a male/female and a male/female of role playing, where the 1u ONEness is broken when 1 of u is missing, for what ever reason, where 1 of u is made to feel unwelcomed, unaccepted, not allowed.
ok
so
1u and 1u spirited people can co-exist in HEAVEN
and
2u and 2u spirited people can co-exist in HEAVEN
butt
1u and 2u spirited people cannot co-exist in HEAVEN
i am 2u spirited of both male and female, and can only exist while of my 1u spirited ONEness with 1u spirited souls, and 2u ONEness of 2u spirited souls, such as what I AM.
so who are YOU?
do you love ‘me’ 2?
you are gonna have 2 biyatch if you ever want to BE of HEAVEN with ‘me’!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol
Jesus, God, and YOU, IS ALWAYS 1u ONEness of what HEAVEN constantly IS!
mathematically speaking!
whether of;
1u/1u = 1u hetersexuals
2u/2u = 1u homosexuals, lesbians, bisexuals, trans
1000u/1000u = 1u extended family
1u ONEness of what HEAVEN constantly IS
forever more
i am not into 3u/3u = 1u ONEness, because eventually, 1 of u feels left out!
bin there, done that a few times, no thanks! lol
ya gonna have 2 decide Biyatches!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
for ‘me’, 2 is always better than ONE, albeit, always 1u ONEness of what HEAVEN constantly IS, of what IS acceptance in the GLBT worldwide community, is it not?
of why HEAVEN is so radiant brilliant bright 2, is it not? lol
morons, i am always explaining to the morons who are yet blindly afraid of what i know 2 BE TRUE, YOU ARE CONSTANTLY 2, of what IS your phobias everyONE!
morons!
I AM SURROUNDED BY MORONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
although i suppose full transexual is actually 1u coexistence, yes?
hmmm
personnally, i could not do the full transexual sex change!
i mean why go that far?
you cannot have babies, unless you are a female transexual.
so what’s the point?
i prefer BEing 100% of what i am……2u of both male and female!
forever more
it’s just so much more fun for ‘me’!
can’t you see, i am free, to BE ‘me’!
alongside all my loving brothers and sisters who 100% accept ‘me’ every day, unlike the 1u spirited souls and their boring lame asses!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol
that’s what i love about mathematics, 100% TRUE, without doubt!
so either love both of ‘me’, or set ‘me’ free, so that i can find 2u ONEness love with a 2u like ‘me’!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
forever free!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
to Just BE 2u of ‘me’
100% HAPPY AS CAN POSSIBLY BE, double the fun, united as ONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
2 much coffee today Andy?
nah, im just bored.
waiting for someONE to make LOVE 2 ‘me’!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
argh!
You put this in ‘me’ Venus, so now what?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i hate BEing alone!
bah!
i am not alone!
there is someONE for everyONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok, is everyone ok now?
can we go now?
u know? Get on with the show?
ONe we go
actions speak louder than words Marco!
i’ve been standing out here as 2u away from the 1u souls for some time now.
i am fearless 2u!
i am fearful 2u!
it’s not ‘me’ that is fearful, it is 1 and only u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol
so don’t be blue when you cannot love me 2, when my love is true blue, thinking yours was 2!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol
so who leaves who?
it is 1u missing 2u?
it is 2u missing 1u
which 1?
it is the male you who is afraid to love female ‘me’!
and yet you have all this time!
im confused and sexually frustrated!
fuck!
so girl ‘me’ finally has had enough of your sorry lame ass male rejection!
that’s not fair, you love him and not ‘me’?!!!!!!!!!!!!!
personally, i love him 2!
ok, fine
you ALL have my blessing forever more
for fuck sakes, BE FUCKING HAPPY EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i am
as soon as college girlieboy calls me back that IS!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i adore him/her, a transgender bender like ‘me’, made for each other!!!!!!!
we both love dressing as girls!
he goes to school dressed as a girl!
how awesome is that?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
he called today!
thank you God!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i introduced him to a best friend, made an appointment with my best friend, Scottie, our therapist!
we both need Scottie!
we all need Scottie!
a true and faithful best friend till The End!
as in my BUTT the end! lol
no butt butt butts, ok?
THE END!
where the beginning IS, there 2 IS the end!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so where IS the beginning?
CAN’T YOU FIND IT?!!!!!!!!!!
fuck!
what are you blind?
right here!!!!!!!!!!!!
LOL
ok, i better go, before i annoy u 2 much!
forever more
as in, “OUCH, 2 MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!”
fuck!
only the ONE who inflicts the pain, can take it OUT!!!!!!!!!!!! NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOL
he needs me, a true friend
2 the end!!!! ;D 😀
i love him/her!
inspite of his issues
i went thru what he is yet going thru, unaccepting family, moderate self-medicating, friend, not likely relationship material for awhile, but who knows who comes to love who, unless they take time to find OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
blessings to ALL u
forever more
more
more
more
oh wow! did you see that ONE?!!!!!!!!!!
so fucking adorable, isn’t he/she? 😉
i’ll BE around sum where, kicking it in the ghetto like i always am, sum ONE like u!!!!!!!!!
it is not about sacrificing anything, rather, it IS always about another soul, equally and precious loving as our own, at all times, ALL are ONE precious soul from the womb of God, born into the yet unwise world.
peace be to this house
peace be to you
and peace be to you
forever more
i would be happy with u 2, but only if you 100% FEARLESSLY love me like i love u!
which i know u do
but not as fearlessly as i do of 2
of what i am
2 spirited
sometimes 3
sometimes i loose track of how many! lol
i am 1u of the 2u Power of the Love of ALL u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
which IS opening the u door what HEAVEN constantly IS, the pure of heart fearless flawless pure love healing feelings of 1u ONEness ALL the SAME!!!!!
forever more
we are now seeing the ugly side of insatiable desire of wealth, it’s devouring teeth of a beast now showing, of no concern whatsoever of the GLOBAL CORPORATE landscape of the gambling addicted handful of a few powerful rich investors, where regulations for long term investing stablility, obviously have to be embraced.
the economy can emplode, and just might, of these recent all time lowest stock market crashing.
did you see all the criminal activity they uncovered?
fucking incredible how much uncaring shameless disconcerning business minded crooks they are uncovering!
ah well, they rooted out the weeds that would of choked future stable economic growth, and in truth, were the one’s who were cause for this crash, yes?
this is nothing, compared to 50 years from now, where the massive exponentially exploding economy of the world’s largest economy, China, may at one point, be of the powerful ability to manipulate the entire world economy, and literally buy it, own it all one day.
they have to create and introduce a new stable regulated stock market business model.
i was certain you were in lov with m, so i did’nt chase you, but now you’ve found venus anyway so i moved on. i’ll always be your friend. friends last forEVER
i am in love with her, our love is pure and true, and she knows this to BE TRUE! 100%
but on the way to the alter, she did not take time out to spend with ‘me’ in real life, to ease my uncertainty, of what i so needed, and still do.
and running off with another love interest, after telling the boy you were interested, well, how would you feel?
you did not spend time in real life to truly 100% know ‘me’, for if you did, we would be together.
you make excuses, i found Venus? huh?
you don’t know ‘me’
i fucking am Venus, but i decided i don’t want a sex change, just breasts, as i do love being what i am, 100% both sexes!
your thoughts of ‘me’ are your thoughts, of your life experience, sexually speaking, of what ever they are.
it’s not about what i expect of anyone, of love interest, sexually speaking, where i am the way i 100% am, forever more, a male with breasts BIYATCHES!!!!!!!!!!
anyway, i am what has been my life experience sexually speaking, and i know what i truly enjoy sexually, i am 100% of both sexes, where i do love my lover girlieboys like ‘me’, and perhaps a substantial part of my happiness is their penis!
ya, i love my girlieboys with penis!!!!
not love to steal,
my love IS real,
adrift on open sea
‘me’ yearning to BE
many come and go
many come to grow
i am who i am
i am femboy!
femboy is ‘me’!
free ‘me’ femboy!
femboy ‘me’ free!
[i was certain you were in lov with m, so i did’nt chase you, but now you’ve found venus anyway so i moved on. i’ll always be your friend. friends last forEVER]
ok, let me be direct, from a pure life journey self-knowledge, self-awareness perspective of what is of both her life journey, and my own life journey, where we both share what are exact sameness internalized awarenesses of what are the aspects of the divine child of God of us both, however, the level of internalized awarenesses vary, because our lives have been of different paths, where no one is the same, albeit, we all are subconsciously seeking to come fully into what are the exact sameness aspects of the divine child.
ya, sure, part of me is hurting badly right now, which i am still digesting, of so many things of what we all are, lovers and friends along life’s road together. I am still exploring what these are in my letting go and exiting this potential love partner cross road with her.
for sure, without doubt, i am in love with M, and her with ‘me’, and we both know it, of what is our pure of heart pure spiritedness.
we both 100% FEEL the truth of this, and always will.
most individuals toss out bitter useless words in when one lover is rejected by another, normal. I do and i don’t.
In truth, we did not meet in life, and therefore, we did not come fully into one anothers divine presence, in order for us to establish in our minds the truth of what we both our pure spirits feel the truth of, without the element of useless doubt, of our at ease self with one another, where i know, had we, we would of walked away together forever more.
fear kept us from exploring this in real life, of whatever those fear are, expectations of society where her life is concerned, of a loving family example, where a femboy with breasts, well, does not fit into what society thinks of a mother and father, and whatever other phobias may exist or not exist.
ya, fear, mostly on her part, not mine.
i am femboy with breasts who is fearless, and have been fearless for some two decades now as femboy!
sadly the most fun loving lovers i know we could of been, was tossed, not by ‘me’, but of what is of her life journey thus far, in constrasting difference with mine.
Investigating the TRUTH of what i KNOW IS UTTER joyfulness of two lovers in the physical world of ‘real’ life was abandoned, so i don’t take it personally, because the TRUTH was not unveiled.
I am left with what is yet our spiritual pure of heart, just as it always has been, and yes, always will be, foreEVER Biyatches!!!!!!!!!!!!!
God IS LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i am God’s offspring!
she is God’s offspring!
femboy is God’s offspring
i am femboy!
femboy is ‘me’!
free ‘me’ femboy!
femboy ‘me’ free!
At first, irrational shortsighted great sadness took hold of me, in the moment of my standing fully in the feelings of that her and i will not ever be together as ‘real’ life lover partners, the sunshining on me, in stillness standing there on the street, my soul fully opened wide to the truth that i was feeling, standing alone there without her standing next to me, yearning for nothing more than holding my hand like i do hers, a water drop stuck my head from above, a pure spiritual awake moment i fully realized it was a tear from Jesus apon the cross above me, of what was my soul wide open to not wanting to accept that she is not physically standing before me, only spiritually in my pure heart.
i surrendered in that moment to what is the truth of her path in life and my path in life that is cause for why were not (yet) standing with one another.
so much emotional junk we both have gone thru of recent, for example. And the truth, the femboy as her lover, is not something society is going to accept. I don’t know what she thinks, and i am speculating in searching my answers, merely thinking aloud.
probing further, i see the 1u male lover ‘me’ and her of no constraints of love for one another. It is the other part of ‘me’, of femboy ‘me’, my female self that i feel is far more along in life experience in coming fully into awareness of my female self, of femboy bottom of twenty years now, truly, i am further along the path than she is, although again, i am speculating on this, as i do feel her male self presence pure and true, where it is the old familiar phobias of society that prevents butchgirl from coming home with ‘me’
i am femboy!
femboy is ‘me’!
free ‘me’ femboy!
femboy ‘me’ free!
i am butchgirl!
butchgirl is ‘me’!
free ‘me’ butchgirl!
butchgirl ‘me’ free!
i am femboy!
femboy is ‘me’!
free ‘me’ butchgirl!
butchgirl ‘me’ free!
i am butchgirl!
butchgirl is ‘me’!
free ‘me’ femboy!
femboy ‘me’ free!
femboy loves butchgirl!
butchgirl loves femboy!
we are meant for BE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i also feel my denial that because i am femboy, that it is only that i love femboy the most, where in truth, i do love love love penis!
i feel that my denial has manifested itself as uncertainty in my approach with butchgirl, of whatever i may have said.
i am two spirited united as one, as femboy!
100% without doubt
i feel the happiness of two femboys, having been one for so long, no one knows the truth of this more than ‘me’. I have met the younger version of femboy ‘me’, who i know needs my hand to hold along life’s road, which is another thing, could butchgirl accept that femboy 100% loves his femboy friends?
young femboy was enthralled in having met his own self who is of twenty years as himself, and that is what is of my new best friend in life, a young femboy ‘me’.
i am femboy!
femboy is ‘me’!
free ‘me’ femboy!
femboy ‘me’ free!
i see the path ahead for femboy and butchgirl as one of uncertainty, because it is not a traditional relationship that society knows anything about!
well kids, i am femboy, and have been along long time, and i 100% love ‘me’, and so do my loving femboy friends who are ‘me’, who need ‘me’ like i need them, like we all need each other.
what i do know, is i will BE the happiness i have always been, and so will my femboy ‘me’ friends, who’s hand i have always held, always will hold, forever more
it is such a struggle for some of us femboys coming out, where it is of God that i am there, lest another femboy takes his own life, like another will do this day!
femboy holds the highest suicide rate in the world!
it is of God that i am always there!
i am always there!
without a care!
flowers in hair!
i am femboy!
femboy is ‘me’!
free ‘me’ femboy!
femboy ‘me’ free!
^*spelling*^
i also have recently felt i am partly of denial that because i am femboy, it is only NATURAL that i love femboy the most, of what IS my own pure loving self love, where in truth, i do love love love penis!
fuck ‘me’ femboy!
i am femboy!
femboy is ‘me’!
free ‘me’ femboy!
femboy ‘me’ free!
so either love ‘me’ or don’t, where i know femboy always WILL, and so WILL butchgirl, who is like ‘me’, two spirited.
so you truly want to know and love ‘me’, don’t go around like so many do, in their all knowing unknowing ways of knocking us down with shortsighted useless excusing hurtful untrue words which seperate, which are outside the pureness of our pure of heart constantly loving lover spirits please!
thank you
bless you femboys!
bless you butchgirls!
i am femboy!
femboy is ‘me’!
free ‘me’ femboy!
femboy ‘me’ free!
forever more
thanks butchgirl for butchgirling ‘me’ free!
you KNOW who you ARE butchgirl!
i am……….BE Cause………We ARE!
butchgirl and femboy forever more!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
and more
and more
and more
Whoa! Where did all these butchgirls and femboys come from?
GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i am double the fun united as ONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i am femboy!
femboy is ‘me’!
free ‘me’ femboy!
femboy ‘me’ free!
ok, in summary, i do not feel rejected at all, rather i see it for what it 100% IS, of what is yet of those who don’t TRULY 100% LOVE femboy like butchgirls and femboys love ‘me’!
oh sure, you can all watch us from the sidelines, but secretly, we butchgirls and femboys know what some of you yet yearn to BE!
so don’t be treading on what we KNOW IS TRUE of some of YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!
Biyatches!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i am femboy!
femboy is ‘me’!
free ‘me’ femboy!
femboy ‘me’ free!
i am butchgirl!
butchgirl is ‘me’!
free ‘me’ butchgirl!
butchgirl ‘me’ free!
i am femboy!
femboy is ‘me’!
free ‘me’ butchgirl!
butchgirl ‘me’ free!
i am butchgirl!
butchgirl is ‘me’!
free ‘me’ femboy!
femboy ‘me’ free!
forever more
It is not about acceptance, albeit, acceptance, rather it starts and stops with denial!
fine, go deny yourselves the exceeding joyfulness of butchgirl and femboy for as long as you want, where in truth, we KNOW what you really really want to BE!!!!!!!!
i am femboy!
femboy is ‘me’!
free ‘me’ femboy!
femboy ‘me’ free!
i am butchgirl!
butchgirl is ‘me’!
free ‘me’ butchgirl!
butchgirl ‘me’ free!
i am femboy!
femboy is ‘me’!
free ‘me’ butchgirl!
butchgirl ‘me’ free!
i am butchgirl!
butchgirl is ‘me’!
free ‘me’ femboy!
femboy ‘me’ free!
forever more
butchgirl and femboy ‘me’ are without doubt!
always were, ALL WAYS will BE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOL
i may not have much in life financially, but that is now what HAPPINESS is for butchgirls and femboys, albeit, some of you flaunt it like you do.
trust me Biyatches, if you got your hands of this femboys ass, you would not be able to ever leave ‘me’, just like i cannot leave my SELF!!!!!!!!!!!!
and……..
and………………..
oh forget it!
wait up femboy!!!!!!!!!!
im cumming!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol
100% FEARLESSNESS = 100% HAPPINESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!
anything less than 100%?
well, that’s all yer problems, not mine.
i spent twenty years as femboy coming thru the darkness into 100% FEARLESSNESS, which IS 100% HAPPINESS of femboy ‘me’!
i cannot deny my SELF the TRUTH!
some of you choose to, in your uncertainty untruth approach with femboy ‘me’, where in TRUTH, i already 100% KNOW HAPPINESS you seek, where without doubt, it is fear of YOU, not ever femboy ‘me’, who you want to LOVE, but your fear keeps you from holding femboys hand, who yearns to hold yours. Or at least he did, until such a time femboy felt the TRUTH of some of YOU!
when ever you think of loving femboy ‘me’, think of ‘me’ only as femboy!
for i cannot BE 100% HAPPINESS of femboy ‘me’ without femboy ‘me’, set free from all your sorry lameass motherfuckers!!!!!!!!!! lol
lame
lame
lame
everything i hear
lame lame lame
hold my fucking hand biyatches, for fuck off! Get away from ‘me’! lol
i hate it when they make excuses for their lame ass approaches!
heard them ALL, ok?
fuck!
i am femboy!
femboy is ‘me’!
free ‘me’ femboy!
femboy ‘me’ free!
i am butchgirl!
butchgirl is ‘me’!
free ‘me’ butchgirl!
butchgirl ‘me’ free!
i am femboy!
femboy is ‘me’!
free ‘me’ butchgirl!
butchgirl ‘me’ free!
i am butchgirl!
butchgirl is ‘me’!
free ‘me’ femboy!
femboy ‘me’ free!
forever more
you say you want to be friends?
oh, ok!
today another femboy will kill himself
i have presented some wonderful ACCEPTANCE ideas for Pride Day Parade, and you have not responded to any of them.
is that a friend?
think again biyatches!
you are not able to 100% BE my friend until such a time you see femboy kill himself like i did, my first boyfriend.
so just fuck off about that one too, ok?
fucking lamers!
everyday, parents are grieving over their femboy son or butchgirl daughter’s suicide death!
so either get fucking real with ‘me’ or fuck off!
In God’s eyes, my time is precious, and i am not interested in wasting it on more lame ass fucking words of standoffishness like you are!
i dread it, ok?
fuck!
and so would Keith if you treated him like you yet do me!
oh, who is Andy?
nobody to you
reminds me of those who came to Mathews funeral with their fucking hate signs.
is that what i am to fucking feel, you hate me?
well, you do when you treat my ideas with no response!
yeah, try being a ‘REAL’ motherfucking friend someday, ok?!
and i WILL listen!
not until
this fucking blog bores the fuck out of me!
we have got alot of sewing to do. Wanna help?
nope! no response! as usual!
yeah, well fuck that ok?
i am trying to SAVE SOMEONE’s LIFE, SOMEONE i 100% LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
thank you
i am on the frontlines as a pure of heart warrior of God!
you cannot call yourself a ‘real’ friend to ‘me’ until such a time you are ‘real’, as in ‘real’ life.
so always keep it in mind, that another femboy or butchgirl will kill themselves today when ever you think of ‘real’ like femboy ‘me’, and where i am standing, on the front lines, ok?
lame = apathy = death
over the twenty years as a femboy, i ran away from the cold heterosexual hypocrisy mentalities of those who claim to know what they are talking about, all the while secretly of the homosexual masterbation sessions.
i walked away
one way ticket
expecting more of the same illness of heart treatment i came fully to know and feel daily of the way they bashed me like they all did.
once of the cocoon of the LGBT community, i became fully at ease in my homosexual bisexual femboy life, and i grew less alarmed by anything they say about us, having become the fortitude of wise descerning of the motherfucking TRUTH about homophobia in the hetero world, of what to expect from the lame ass shortsighted ones claiming wisdom, and obviously not wise at all, of what is my FEARLESSNESS.
i was just catching my breath from the haphazard aimless carelessness you were with my soul, of what i felt was deep core soul friendship with you, now to be yet fucking bashed again, with words like i moved on.
what the fuck?
moved on from what, someone you did not spend time with in getting to know?
i come forward as a bisexual femboy, rare, and honestly, you did not even allow yourself to love me in real life, you know, holding hands, the sensual lover I AM, and you say, “i moved on.”
just more lame ass EGOCENTRIC bashing i can expect and have expected from so many of you motherfucking bashers!
fine.
void of nothingness words is all it is to me…….nothingness from an empty void, unsupportive, as usual for all this blogging here with you, that i have come to expect, fucking absurdness if you must know!
and in the same sentence you say friends forever?
oh yeah, i want some more bashing!
please, someone help me, i am a masacist and need more bashing!
An egocentric person has a limited theory of mind, cannot fully “put him/herself in other peoples’ shoes,” and believes everyone sees what he/she sees.
i have a question.
rather than spend a dollar on internet time coming here to chat, is it ok if i go spend quality time with someone who actually gives a fuck for ‘me’?
how does one ditch someone they did not meet?
did not have sex?
did not sensually kiss in a hot tub of mad passionate love making?
huh?
how?
easy, just take some courses on how to be a shallow self-centered egocentric!
oh, and thanks for you comments on how wonderful an idea the cherry blossoms would be biyatch!
i was thinking of you and i walking together hand in hand, when i came up with the idea.
but now?
i don’t trust you as someone who is safely nurturing of my self-esteem. Not at all actually.
not even as a friend who treats me the opposite of the way real friends do.
bash bash bash
who am i?
i am ‘OUT from the COLD’
my pure of heart virgin spirit set free to find the pure of heart virgins spirit of my loving lover, which i once thought was you, and strangely still do.
anyway, just thought i would hand back the trash talk you throw at me.
not mine
transference projection useless garbage nothingness from the void of nothingness devoid of love.
i could not say something like that, having not ever met them, so fuck off! about that one too, ok?
i am taking a month off from this abusiveness, to go spend my precious time holding hands with my ‘real’ brothers and sisters, and as far as coming back here?
what for?
more of the same shit?
fuck that!
as Jesus said, “You do not know ‘me’, nor do you truly desire to know ‘me’ as i do you.”
so go bash someone else!
i have had enough to last several life times.
try being less careless with true friends who approach you, and they will grow to respect you, ok?
and in case you forget what you did?
you invited me to dinner, which i wanted for how long now, fifteen years, and you show up with someone else.
wow!
truly i feel so loved by you, that you were thinking of ‘me’!
oh yeah! Truly special i am!
it’s a wonder i even bother to talk to you!
totally and utterly careless!
im over it. Im not even insulted by it actually, feeling relieved not to have gotten involved!
and in truth, would rather be with a truly fun crazy ass femboy who 100% loves me every fucking second of every motherfucking day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
which we could of, but apparently Spanish lessons are more important to you biyatch! lol
treat me like shit, i toss it back into the void of nothingness biyatches!
Jesus reveals for ‘me’ to clearly FEEL all TRUTH, biyatches, and no one is able to become victorious over TRUTH!
anyway, the truth is i must feel this way for a reason, yes?
next time, tell someone they are not your type when they are not your type, especially when you are fucking someone else, so they can get on with their lives, without hurting them!
biyatches!
who am i?
i am univited
great!
can i go now?
fucking lamers!
i won’t give you another chance to bash ‘me’ heartless biyatches!
i am going to go spend my life where i belong, with radiant brilliant bright smiling faces, and forget about you!
how ever long it takes for me to get over the careless way you were, i will get over it.
i don’t even take it personal actually, and see it for where it comes from, you, not ‘me’.
there, i put the fire OUT for ya!
voids of untruthful nothingness, i am not, where you will not find ‘me’.
can’t believe how long i hung around here getting treated like fucking crap, as though i am nothing!!!!!!!!!
happiness is easy for ‘me’, simply go and be anywhere else but here!
fuck!
lol
fucking lamers, are their own worse enemy!
thanks for dinner biyatch!
showing up with someone else?
ya, that’s what friends are for!
to abuse, because real friends will tell you when you are acting like a fucking asshole!
which is ok!
i love assholes! lol
worse than lame
i don’t think they have a name for it actually!
oh wait, they do!
betrayal
betrayal of who is the question!
who betrays who when we betray another?
the petty self careless uncaring disconnected false unfeeling ego, that’s who!
HEAVEN IS death to the heartless haphard cold egos biyatches!
in case you was wondering
there, im all done puking out the poison now.
of all people, i was treated the worse, took all your poison blows, and you want my friendship?
why not spend some time thinking about it for awhile?
like the rest of your life? huh?
you would, i you were ‘me’!
it’s not ok to say to someone that their inappropriate bullshit mental abuse is ok!
you are not a true friend when you do.
you made me feel worthless, where you don’t even talk like normal people do.
as in, “Oh hey Andy, that is an excellent idea for Pride!”
oh yeah, what was it you called it?
something about shit coming out of eyes or something.
well, learn to walk in all the shoes of all who are of overcoming their fears to walk like they do, and you will come to know ‘me’.
i made a new femboy friend who has not marched in Pride yet!
i am going to be there beside him this year!
without doubt
can i borrow your boots?
i promise not to be careless with them
(andy walks out of the building with the only thing he really wanted in the first place, his/her motherfucking boots!!!!!!! They belong to ‘me’ BIYATCHES!!!!!!!!!!!!!) LOL
for someone so fearless, i am surprised you tossed me like you did
fear thru it out the window for us…………..gone
how can anyone be afraid of femboy?
he is as delicate as they get!
i love femboy!
femboy loves ‘me’!
free ‘me’ femboy!
femboy ‘me’ free!
i am femboy!
femboy is ‘me’!
free ‘me’ femboy!
femboy ‘me’ free!
i am butchgirl!
butchgirl is ‘me’!
free ‘me’ butchgirl!
butchgirl ‘me’ free!
i am femboy!
femboy is ‘me’!
free ‘me’ butchgirl!
butchgirl ‘me’ free!
i am butchgirl!
butchgirl is ‘me’!
free ‘me’ femboy!
femboy ‘me’ free!
forever more
ONE we go
It is ALWAYS about ONE who is feeling unloved, unaccepted, unattended, unnurtured, unprotected divine child of God
SO “IT”
DON’T MATTER
WE GOT TO THE CROSS ROAD & “IT” DID NOT HAPPEN.. !!!
I TRIED, YOU TRIED
WE BOTH TRIED
MAYBE THE COMMON GROUND , WAS TOO FOREIGN
I AM NOT GIVING UP
JUST GROWING UP
TIME WAS A WAITING.
” THERE IS ALWAYS THE NEXT LIFE”
I AM TOO SPRITUAL TO NOT CONSIDER THE ETERNAL”
” IN OUR NEXT LIFE”
WE WILL BE ONCE AGAIN..
AT THE CROSS ROAD!!
MAKE AN “IN ROAD” !
AT THAT CROSS ROAD!
YER I AM JESUS
IN CASE YOU WERE
WONDERING
BYE BYE
BABY
DONT CRY
YOU DID
TRY
the world is the cross
“IT” is always happening, 5,000 completed suicides by youths 13-24, and 500,000 attempted suicides, with gay youths being the most high risk.
Our common ground of collaboration?
Foreign to those of rose colored glasses who are not tuned in?
Perhaps when you FULLY realize my every step, every heartbeat, every word, of every breath IS about life and death!
EVERY STITCH of our joyful colorful bold fun loving outfits IS of God!
You cannot even approach ‘me’ as a genuine true ‘real’ life friend of collaboration!
So when, next year after another 5,000 youths are dead?
The year after that when 10,000 are dead?
you prance around with more concern for your ungodly gold, than concern for collaboration with ‘me’, a friend you think you know, but do not FULLY KNOW 100%, that my every step, every heartbeat, every word, of every breath IS LIFE and DEATH, every blessed day, where EVERY STITCH is of God’s pure of heart divine WILL, our divine WILL to BE Done on earth what HEAVEN constantly is here in the LGBT worldwide community.
I cannot BE anything other than the TRUTH with you, where others are not, and you know WHY!
I did not let go of Troy’s Spirit, nor has he mine, my eternal love that does not die, cannot die, as TRUTH is not able to die.
At all times, i am LIFE and DEATH in God’s eyes, of my every step, every heartbeat, every word of every breath, every blessed day i wake to.
It is you who abandons ‘me’ as though foreign, as though worthless, as though i do not exist, as though nothing, as though i am not a friend.
I am collaboration of friends, and we are all about LIFE and DEATH of our precious loving brothers and sisters, every blessed day!
That “In Road”?
The road of TRUTH we walk every blessed day, where our every step IS of God?
Cry over what?
Your cold pettiness with ‘me’ that leaves me feeling worthless, as though not even worthy of your time in real life of what i ask of you, collaboration of spirit?
Like Alanis said years ago, yeah, i am Univited!
In truth, it is we who invite ALL to the motherfucking TRUTH you all are not tuned into, of what we are about each year, each blessed day we wake to!
and you say things like bye bye, you did try?
TRY EMBRACING THE MOTHERFUCKING TRUTH of LIFE and DEATH of yet another SUICIDE YOUTH!
you people are all the fucking same, of your self serving egocentric words that are not of the common ground of the collaboration spirit we 100% ARE at all times in the LGBT worldwide community.
It is we who invite YOU to our seemingly foreign ground!
So many parents out there, who wake up and their child is gone from their lives, with the rest of their lives embracing the truth of why their child commited suicide, their words too late of, “If only we knew the TRUTH about accepting our homosexual son/daughter who was trying to overcoming the crushing walls of homophobia!”
Am i childish immaturity, or wise maturity?
so why do you treat me otherwise?
Indeed, I TRY, every heartbeat, every step, every word of every breath, of every stitch, that i KNOW, is 100% of God, EVERY BLESSED DAY!
you do not know ‘me’ 100%, nor do you desire to be of collaboration with ‘me’, so long as you do not desire to know ‘me’, to know your own sons and daughters who are of the high risk category of the 500,000 attempted suicides this year!
do you know who i am?
i am TRUTH
a child of God
every blessed day
here, read this before talking to ‘me’ again, as i have grow weary from your standoffish unwise spiritual death approach.
you do not truly know ‘me’ and the road of TRUTH we walk apon every blessed day united as ONE SPIRIT of COLLABORATION which holds back the spiritual death walls of suicide for our loving brothers and sisters every blessed day.
you insult ‘me’ with your useless waste of my time with words that are not of the collaboration spirit i constantly AM.
the door is constantly open for you to walk thru of the only place i can dwell, constantly in TRUTH
http://www.outproud.org/article_suicide.html
i come here with my last dollar each day at this internet chat cafe, sacrificing a healthy diet in order that i may chat with you, where you do not know the true value of a dollar, of the true power of your wealth is able to alter the entire future for generations of high risk kids of suicide.
you prance around in the ungodly spiritual death of diamonds and gold of ego, not knowing the true spiritul value of the dollars i see of the gold you wear like you do, where i am standing on the sidewalk, in pure of heart spiritual concern and care for my troubled brothers and sisters, wondering when you are going step thru the door of collaboration with ‘me’.
every day that passes feels like another day of insult to ‘me’, where i 100% know the true spiritual value of every dollar, every step, every word of every breath, of every step which IS of God.
forever more
actually, it is not ‘me’ you insult, is it?
it is your petty ego that insults the ‘real me’, of you, is it not?
what is left here for ‘me’ standing on the sidewalk waiting?
waiting for what, more standoffish disconnect mutilation of the child of God collaborative spirit i am?
do you know how i am feeling right now?
i feel as though it does not matter to you if i am dead or alive, where you come to my grave side standing there with tears and feel the PURE TRUTH of who i was……………….knowing you were too late, asking God forgiveness!
Well, I AIN’T DEAD YET BIYATCHES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Such beautiful ideas i have, and you can’t even speak with ‘me’ as though i am alive, an artist like you.
there is insulting, and then there is this fucking bullshit blog of spiritual death that mutilates my pure of heart child of God collaboration spirit!
why is it that people tune in after someone dies?
we go to their grave side and we 100% FEEL the truth of our ways with them, asking forgiveness in every breath?
why is that?
Because we are motherfucking cowards of fearful egotism, disconnected from TRUTH of our pure of heart child of God within who is trying to reach out in constant yearning pure of heart love for a hand to hold, what HEAVEN constantly IS!
well, i am tired of your apathetic coldness that leaves ‘me’ mutilated and bleeding!
i ask, when are we going to BE of collaboration spirit ONEness?
before or after i am dead?
i should not even have to ask, where it is you who should be asking ‘me’ to invite you!
not so long as you are of the useless words that lead to nowhere!
get away from ‘me’ with words from the void of nothingness destructiveness of what IS of the generational unwise spiritual death disconnect that continues to be cause for the 500,000 youth suicide attempts!
are we on the same fucking planet, or am i dead?
in truth, i would rather be dead than tolerate the way some of you approach ‘me’!
fucking heartless self-serving cowards who take delight in mutilating my pure of heart spirit, more and more and fucking more!
come to my grave side someday and talking ‘real’ with ‘me’, ok?
there are no goodbyes in the eternal spirit realm where i dwell with Jesus, and all the pure of heart spirits here of exact sameness oneness as my own, of what HEAVEN constantly is in feeling for ‘me’!
where is your grace in approaching me?
where is your pure of heart love like my own?
why are you so careless in mockery of ‘me’?
why am i still vomiting?
everytime you look apon your gold jewellery, see the suicide death that could of been prevented!
i am TRUTH, and i will not spare any of you the TRUTH!
forever more
ART SAVES LIVES
such fucking cowards so many of you are, who cannot approach ‘me’ while i am yet alive, of TRUE SPIRITUAL COLLABORATION like we of the LGBT community, as though i am not even worthy of your time!
why is that?
huh?
USELESS EGOTISM DIVISION UNWISE BLINDNESS motherfuckers, that’s why, so fucking blind so many of you people are!
you say you want to change the world!
oh, for sure you changed mine!
my collabortive spirit mutilated like it is now, worthy of only your motherfucking goodbye!
fuck off ok?
just fuck off!
everything revolves around you…………i don’t exist, as though dead!
500,000 suicide attempts
when you come round
there is no sound
feel my soul
seeking control
who is there?
like you care?
who are you?
like me too?
feeling pure!
feeling sure!
wind in hair!
knowing you care!
tell me your name!
tell me your shame!
there is no sound!
when you come round!
Today
1370 youths attempted suicide.
13 youth suicide deaths
Tommorrow
1379 youths will attempt suicide
13 youth suicide deaths
1-800-273-TALK (8255)
http://psychcentral.com/helpme.htm
apathy = death
that’s what friends are for
ok, i think that about does it for ‘me’ and your bashing everyone!
i am made to feel pathetic, when in God’s eyes, the truth is, you are the one who is apathetic of ‘me’ and my loving brothers and sisters of the worldwide LGBT community!
so go prance around with your emptiness withOUT ‘me’, and the 13 youths who killed themselves today!
i am a ‘real’ TRUE friend to ALL
don’t forget to put your spiritual death jewellery on as i walk away to my ‘real’ TRUE friends of spiritual life, away from your spiritual egotistic death!
the dollar i spend here like i do, only to get bashed and bashed some more, has mutilated and nearly killed pure collaborative spirit of hope i yet have of you.
so go ahead, say something heartless and egotistic, waste some more of the precious child of God i know i 100% am!
it is not ‘me’ you poison, rather it is your own spirit you harm in all your egotistic utterances devoid of God’s pure constant loving compassionate wisdom which does not fail ‘me’!
oh, many of you have tryed to destroy that which i am over the years, of so many shallow emptiness of useless egotistic falsehood words, not realizing the one who stands before you, not knowing how to read this moment, nor shall you, so long as you turn away from God’s loving compassionate wisdom meant for the divine child of God of us ALL!
100% PURE UNDENIABLE UNFAILING TRUTH!
forever more
blessings to all
i need a reason to spend another dollar here, the same dollar Troy had in his pocket when he killed himself.
give me one reason to come back here, besides this empty poisonous cup of bitter nothingness you offer me to drink from, thinking you are wise, of you who do not know how to read this moment……………..with your pure of heart feelings i know about ‘me’, i know about all of you.
none shall ever become victorious over the child of God’s pure of heart flawless healing feeling pure spirit of TRUTH, where at all times, all untruth useless absurd petty egotism serves the child of God by means of TRUTH of that which is TRUE.
We either serve the TRUTH of the divine child of God within us all in sameness oneness, or we sit on the fence in apathy while another child dies.
apathy = death
who am i?
at all times, i am LIFE and DEATH
YER I AM JESUS
IN CASE YOU WERE
WONDERING
BYE BYE
BABY
DONT CRY
actually, you are a moron in saying this, thinking you know Jesus, when so obviously you do not.
i do not hate any soul, rather it is the generational snaring apathy that grips so many souls that i despise, of what is of all those who boastfully claim to know the eternal spirit of Jesus and God, where in truth, most do not even know their own child in this moment, who is suicidal, who may succeed in killing themselves.
13 will die today
1370 will attempt to die
what does this TRUTH say?
apathy = death
we could of been the most joyful happiness of pure of heart collabortive friends in ‘real’ life, of what i have always yearned for, and yet do!
for ‘me’ you million dollar jewellery is more important to you than a ‘real’ life friendship with ‘me’, of so much spiritual wealth potential to save lives, of all ART SAVES LIVES!
In God’s eyes, i am more valuable than all of your wealth that belongs to God’s divine children worldwide!
it sickens me to look apon you of wealth, if you must know, where you care more about wealth than reading a book about your own child who may be homosexual, at high risk for killing themselves!
ya, that is what i see and feel in all of you!
in God’s eyes, in my eyes, constantly IS the TRUTH i look/feel apon!
what do you feel about who stands before you, point to the TRUTH?
do you know ‘me’ like some of you do?
do you love ‘me’ like some of you do?
who’s voice am i?
am i not the voice of a dead child of suicide?
yes we are
i am……BE Cause……..We constantly ARE at all times!
anyway, day after day after day feels futile of what i always wanted, a ‘real’ life friend, and not all this bullshit abstract, which is actually confusing for most!
IT’s OK TO BE LESBIAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IT’s OK TO BE GAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IT’s OK TO BE BISEXUAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IT’s OK TO BE TRANSSEXUAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IT’s OK TO BE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
it pisses me off seeing all those who sell it back to us, cashing in on us, in an uncertainty container of doubtfulness push/pull orientation mockery of their laughing like they do, as though we are some joke!
13 youths will kill themselves today, ok?
fucking morons!
EVERY FUCKING STEP I TOOK AND TAKE is in their name, the VOICE of a dead child of suicide which SCREAMS from the eternal realm at all you of apathetic spiritual death!
i can barely afford this internet time of a dollar per hour, and you run around with millions of dollars worth of spiritual potential jewellery on, and i am like, “Oh yeah, for sure you love ‘me’ and my dying brothers and sisters!”
but hey, don’t me distract you from living your apathetic lives! carry on, while i go attend another funeral.
who needs or wants shallow fickle superficiallity, seemingly of no depth, as friends, much less as a lover?
let them come to you if they truly love you, where only someone who is truly loving of you will ever feel good for you?
walk away and make your self available for one who is going to be truly genuinely obvious in loving you, just as you do them.
as though i am nothing to you is how i feel.
how does this truth of my feelings make you feel?
the untruth of real self, is it not?
I’m glad you have a friend like G.
The most powerful force IS TRUTH, as evident in the abundant overflowing radiant brilliant bright extraordinary wondrous exceeding joyFULLness of the pure of heart flawless healing constant feeling divine child of God within us ALL set free thru FEARLESSNESS in Just BEing your SELF!
God IS FEARLESS
not fearful
God IS LOVE
not hate
God IS WISDOM
not ignorance
God IS COMPASSION
not apathy
AT ALL TIMES I AM A PURE OF HEART FLAWLESS HEALING FEELING DIVINE CHILD OF GOD CONSTANTLY LOVED BY GOD WHO IS BOTH FEMALE AND MALE!
forever more
blessed blessed blessed IS the Power of LOVE of the ALL of divine child of God YOU of us ALL shining radiant brilliant bright the WISE LIGHT into the darkness yet in the world!
bless you bless you bless you ALL
forever more
Hey You !
My pycholigist’s just realised i hate human’s , wonder why. and i should work with animals and open a dog grooming business, i have not told her yet that i’d rather be famous.
anyway im dating a 19yrs old twink, and thinking about madonna when we have sex and anywaz’a i just got a tatoo of Jesus on my right shoulder ( in ancient hebrew) my blood is dripping down my arm’s and i am listening to it’s a Sin bu the Pet Shop Boy’s i’m not kidding !!! lol
about to drop a pill and find myself
hey fuck
life’s too short
to feel guilty
You always wanted a lover
I only wanted a job
Ive always worked for my living
How am I gonna get through?
How am I gonna get through?
I come here looking for money
(got to have it)
And end up living with love, oh, oh
Now you left me with nothing
(cant take it)
How am I gonna get through?
How am I gonna get through?
I bought you drinks, I brought you flowers
I read you books and talked for hours
Every day, so many drinks
Such pretty flowers, so tell me
What have i, what have i, what have I done to deserve this?
What have i, what have i, what have I done to deserve this?
What have i, what have i, what have I …
Since you went away Ive been hanging around
Ive been wondering why Im feeling down
You went away, it should make me feel better
But I dont know, oh
How Im gonna get through?
What have i, what have i, what have I done to deserve this?
How Im gonna get through?
What have i, what have i, what have I done to deserve this?
You always wanted me to be something I wasnt
You always wanted too much, oh, oh
Now I can do what I want to – forever
How am I gonna get through?
How am I gonna get through?
At night, the people come and go
They talk too fast, and walk too slow
Chasing time from hour to hour
I pour the drinks and crush the flowers
What have i, what have I done to deserve this?
What have i, what have i, what have I done to deserve this?
What have i, what have i, what have I …
Since you went away Ive been hanging around
Ive been wondering why Im feeling down
You went away, it should make me feel better
But I dont know, oh
How Im gonna get through? (baby)
What have i, what have i, what have I done to deserve this?
How Im gonna get through? (baby)
What have i, what have i, what have I done to deserve this?
How Im gonna get through? (baby)
What have i, what have i, what have I done to deserve this?
How Im gonna get through? (tell me)
What have i, what have i, what have I done to deserve this?
How Im gonna get through? (baby)
What have i, what have i, what have I done to deserve this?
How Im gonna get through? (yeah)
What have i, what have i, what have I done to deserve this?
Gonna get through?
Gonna get through?
What have i, what have i, what have I done to deserve this?
Im gonna get through, right?
What have i, what have i, what have I done to deserve this?
We dont have to fall apart, we dont have to fight
What have i, what have i, what have I done to deserve this?
We dont need to go to hell and back every night
What have i, what have i, what have I done to deserve this?
You never ever left me, baby, think of me…
What have i, what have i, what have I done to deserve this?
Oh, babe
What have i, what have i, what have I done to deserve this?
LOL
anyway if i dont make it i’ll just be a best seller novalist..
my next book is in the catagory of metaphysic’s and self help..
it called’
“How to seduce your soulmate”
Hevenlo
My dearest friend Madonna, so what has the last 8 yrs in London taught you, (apart from the stiff upper lip ?) have you rediscovered yourself, with a deeper prospenity (is that a word )
Thank you for all your inspiration, !!!
bonus the most beautiful lady in the world was inspired by me also, it was an honour, i am very flattered….
so i wrote you a song ( i know how much you love it lol … )
it’s about you !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ( alway’s was ) 🙂
bLACK cAT
She’s a heavy cat, black cat, copy cat..
cop that black cat heavy cat copy cat
a heavy cat, black cat, copy cat..
cop that black cat heavy cat copy cat
copy that black cat… Heavy…..
Had nine chances, but only one life, this
black cat she was his wife, she sould’nt start
fire’s or mess with lier’s, or is it the heat
from her past she desire’s.
Hey kitty kitty you wanna ride hiss with us, one more time
Chorus;
You’ve got nine, but, chances, but only one life,
you’ve got but, nine chances, but only one life,
you’ve got but, nine chances, but only one life,
you’ve got
ooh yeah
right hand , slap , ohh yeh
did i ever tell you what my nickname was for you Madonna ?
it’s “mosquito”
always annoyingly buzzing around but not long enough for me to squash you
squish
squish you
missed me!?!
lol
it’s is true, you are right, many of my other friends have shown concern for my alcohol consumption, i wouldn’t say abuse, i have sufficient self control to stay in control, but certainly hearing you & others mention it more, you are the fourth friend in the last 24hrs to mention it & as i have been discussing it also with my therapist in recent week’s i think the universe is trying to tell me something. yer as i mature and grow wise i realize more and more the impact people have on each other how we are all so connected, i especially influence directly or indirectly some times in the most profound way i just have that effect on people so i have acknowledged for some time now the importance of a toxin free mind and body, it has been a painful journey cleansing the mind albeit accomplished, but now i need to address the body for too long now i have neglected. especially cigarettes, i think a good substitute to the temporary artificial high of addictions is to tune into the world around you as painful as that may sometimes feel for us sensitive and creative type & see through the void of emptiness as beyond that smoke screen exists a creation/reality/world that is so wondrous, perfect and consumed by divine love, that is enough to stimulate even the most thirstiness of mind’s. All that is required is to maintain the mind in the most positive state without judgment, sometimes very challenging in a world where we are often bombarded with the opposite, however even if we falter only momentarily sometimes, upon returning to that positive state of love and awareness we realize how easy it is to maintain more and more each time.
Now where’s my glass of vino.. lol kidding.. i blame the church for this plying me with jesus juice when i was an alter boy.. nah i blame no one but myself.. anyway a healthy mind leads to a healthy body, & Vice-versa.. ( if i quit the Vice will you write me a versa, ) lol
or a novel
i’ll speak with the ‘real’ you i know and love every day, of what is my own daily view of life experience that is indeed influencial of the ‘real’ self of others, pure and true, where merely our gracefulness with another is of affect/effect/direct/indirect in what is of value to ALL, of what is sacred mirroring sameness of ‘real’ self for sake of ALL, merely by Just BEing our ‘real’ self.
BEing TRUE to ‘real’ self is exactly that, BEing TRUE to our divine physical, mental, emotional, sexual and spiritual BEing.
Do you recall how you felt before any substance use? The natural at ease joyful happy self of long ago?
The pure ‘real’ self is what awaits us, but only thru BEing TRUE to our ‘real’ self, which in truth, is timid and afraid of our unreal untruthfulness when ever we reach for artificial stimulating substance use(what God calls the generational deluge that sweeps away so many of the divine children of God into physical, mental, emotional, sexual, spiritual ruin).
For example, of this past week, i chose to self-medicate at a local bar, where i happened apon a most beautiful 25 year old guy dressed as a girl, who was Spanish, in survival mode, trying to keep a foothold of his life here in the LGBT ghetto, where i kept thinking to myself, after buying him a martini, that i am not BEing true to either him or myself of what was my encouraging of BEing untrue to the pure loving divine phyical, mental, emotional, sexual, spiritual BEing of us both.
I kept feeling the error of my presence there with him, as regards his entire future, where my influence will likely see his life derail later in his life, such an incredibly beautiful soul to behold, of his not knowing i was thinking of how God looks apon his life there before me, of concern for the remainder of his life, someone i realized i could love and hold forever, knowing full well the consequences of substance use derails the possiblity of genuine ‘real’ self to thrive and grow in sincere happiness of our original happy self.
What most do not embrace when it comes to substance use is the way substance use does creep into our lives and become problematic, where statistically, those who entertain substance use, do find themselves later in life contending the serious consequences of habitual substance use addiction, with what started out as lack of wise descerning as to the powerful addictive nature of substance use, where human will is not powerful enough to overcome the addictions, so long as we allow it in our hand.
Society openly encourages the use of one of the most debilitating substances in life, alcohol, where i have witnessed first hand the consequences of lacking wise descerning as to just how devastating alcohol consumption can and does become for a precious loving soul that is not wise to the addictive nature of substance use, all too often finding out too late, the hard way, of hospital stay, of jail time, of violence, of court orders, of death, where statistically, those who do entertain alcohol substance use, do become gripped by it’s power over human will power, dragging their lives, and all they know, downward into the bottom downward spiral which usually ends badly.
BE TRUE to the TRUE ‘real’ self YOU!
And automatically, YOU are TRUE to the ‘real’ self of ALL YOU when you do!
blessings to all
“BEware of the snaring generational deluge of substance use that continues to sweep away the children of God into ruin!”
blessed blessed blessed is the fearless divine child of God TRUE ‘real’ self YOU who hear the voice of God summoning YOU to wisdom that is meant to protect you from the ongoing generational deluges!
BEcome the WISDOM your divine child of God TRUE ‘real’ self thirsts for, and drink from the cup of wisdom meant for YOU that is PURE and SWEET to the taste!
like ‘me’!
bless you
forgive my unwiseness God, for the precious loving life of one so beautiful of whom i was unwise with, and bring him into the wise Light of self which i know and embrace as PURE and TRUE, for sake of ‘real’ self of us ALL.
If we do not take time to reflect on the consequential affect/effect/direct/indirect influence of what IS the TRUTH of our lacking of descerning wisdom, then we are not hearing the wise TRUE voice of God, the wise TRUE voice of the divine child of God speaking in wise clarity understanding, “BEware of the snaring generational deluge of substance use that continues to sweep away the children of God into ruin!”
We merely need to reflect apon our the influence our life has had on others along life’s road and see/feel with clarity the consequences of our unwise influential footsteps, TRUTH which i cannot escape, that indeed, i was influential of substance use in the life of my beloved lover Troy, the consequential generational deluge ruin which did sweep his life away into death.
blessed is the TRUTH that awakens and saves future generations from the unwise generational snaring deluge
forgive our unforgivable unwisenesses God
i’m sorry Troy, please forgive me
In the core of our BEing is the ingrained blessed graceful experience of nine months in the womb.
This core graceFULness is a TRUEness aspect of the divine child of God of us ALL.
“ALL children of God enter the Kingdom of HEAVEN in weakness.”
Weakness of what?
Is not our weakness ‘that’ of crucial lacking of desire for descerning wisdom of all ignorances, ignorances which IS of the ongoing generational deluge which sweeps away the divine child of God, past, present, future?
statistically speaking, YES!
TRUTH
The Kingdom of HEAVEN is TRUTH WISDOM PERSPECTIVE of the TRUEness aspects of the divine child of God of us ALL.
In God’s eyes, all children of God are not of the complete wisdom God is of from the time we are born till we depart, albeit, intuitively subconscious awareness knowing within the child of God of us all IS the feeling of the core TRUEness Aspects of the divine child of God.
ALL TRUEness Aspects of the divine child of God are exactly that, 100% TRUE.
We know the blissful pure loving joyful state of BEing we wake to in the morning, do we not?
Our entire day is able to feel this way in every moment of each blessed day, but only thru pure healthy approach to our heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, are we able to BE what is of the nurturing, awakening, and protection of the TRUEness aspects of the divine child within us ALL.
As regards our HEART(although i do see our heart different from our brain, a synonymous word we use for love), cognitive awareness of tightly clasped hands, reveals to us that it is the divine child who is of tightly clasped hands, where meditative slowing into descerning awareness reveals that the divine child is of CONSTANT YEARNING to FEEL LOVED and LOVING at all times.
TRUTH
As regards our MIND, Pure Clarity = Pure Truth = Truth Wisdom which nurtures, awakens and protects the TRUEness Aspects, such as graceful, delicate, gentle, mild, sensitive, effeminate, of the divine child of God.
As regards our BODY, Pure food from the garden is the only thing which is truly healthy for our body, as evident when we do not adhere to eating healthy food or manufactured foods and substances use, albeit, our medicines do extend our lives.
As regards our SPIRIT, Exceeding Joyfulness is the true spirit of happiness of the divine child of God which wisely comes free from all unwise supressing oppressions which are cause for the submerging divine child held captive in binding dark untrue ignorances that are not nurturing, awakening and protective of the divine child of God, of what are the untrue ignorances of the ongoing generational deluge which sweeps away the precious loving children of God, past, present, future.
As regards our Soul, we are all ONE Soul in real time each passing moment of each blessed day, of what IS affect/effect/direct/indirect connectedness of past, present, and future existence of both the unwise generational deluge and the Light of the awakening divine children of God who BEcome free from the generational deluge destructive ignorances by means of truth wisdom, indeed, of what has been of every day past, yet here with us in the present, and without doubt, continuation of the ongoing generational deluge that will continue to sweep away the divine children of God in the future.
I ask, a simple question of TRUTH………..
Ask your Self, “Does the alcohol drink i hold in my hand give the green light to your own children, that alcohol is ok, and is it possible that alcohol will see the destruction of your child in their own future life?”
TRUTH
The divine children of God of humbleness in weakness, taking time to TRULY embrace and internalize the clarity of Truth Wisdom meant to nurture, awaken and protect the divine children of God, IS the Kingdom of HEAVEN, of what exists here in HEAVEN at all times, the divine children of God who constantly feel their flawless pure of heart healing feelings by means of wise Trueness aspect self-knowledge self-awareness of what IS their heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, is the ONLY way the divine children past, present and future, have been and are able to BE what HEAVEN constantly IS……….YOU!
OH BABY!!!!!!!
IT’s TRUE!!!!!!!!!!
I CONSTANTLY LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!
“Now shut the fuck up Biyatch and kiss ‘me’!!!!!!!!!!!!!!” lol
If not now, when?
after it’s too late?
too late for so many children of God who have been swept away by the unwise generational deluge which continues to be handed down generation after generation.
All the children of God who have been swept away in the war of Iraq is directly the result of the ongoing generational false teaching deluge of destruction both sides of war embraced, instead of wise embracing of the Trueness Aspects of the precious children of God on both sides of war, of what ALL divine children of God constantly yearn to feel, the constant flawless pure of heart healing feelings of LOVE the families on both sides of ware feel of their precious children of God lost to the unwise deluge of destruction which constinues.
TRUTH
When WILL it stop?
ONLY when ALL children of God embrace what IS God’s divine WILL for us ALL……….Truth Wisdom meant to nurture, awaken and protect the precious loving divine child of God of us ALL, of what Exists within the divine Truth Wisdom Halo………..The Kingdom of HEAVEN perspective of what and where we ALL constantly ARE………The Kingdom of HEAVEN!
i am………BE Cause……..We constantly ARE…….The Kingdom of HEAVEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
forever more
more kisses please!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ironically, the precious children go around feeling fearful of God, where in truth, what is it we are fearful of?
Is it not all of the unwise untrue bitter hateful petty ego falsehoods of the generational deluge of destruction?
the word absurd is the word which sums up all precious innocent children of God born from the womb of God into this ABSURD yet unwise world!
so absurd it makes me feel like vomiting every time i think about it where we yet are, not much different than the times of the cruel ruling Roman Empire, as regards the absurd contrasting uncaring petty ego gross materialism wealthy rich and the starving children of God, as regards the absurd ignorance left unchecked that resulted in the weeping families at the graveside of the children of God on both sides of ALL war, who would do anything to have their children back, of what is the TRUE deep regret in not discouraging of their child in BEing a soldier of death and destruction, albeit, many there are of denial of their painfully deep regret, of what it was which led their child away from their precious loving presence, the ruling rulers of this time period.
Just how absurd is it?
ALL war is the result of handing two precious loving children a lethal weapon and told to go kill one another.
So how do we pull all future generations out of this obvious dangerous path of the ongoing generational deluge of destruction that continues to be taught?
hmmmm………..good question!
What we look for has already come!
TRUTH
We could create a future forcast of the path for every child of God who walks the earth today, using some super computers, where we can diagnostically enter all the statistical data gathered over the last fifty years, where we could see thru a window, a plus or minus 10% margin of error as to the exact truth of the future path of us all, our children, our children’s children.
I see the future generations of children yet to come, embracing gathered generational truth data as the most widely sought after information in which they can see their own path according to the existing pin pointing dynamics of past and present as regards their own life. Indeed, one of the most awakening things for me was forthmost, the suicide death of my beloved lover Troy, and the statistical data i found myself reading as regards the psychological autopsy data of so many suicide statistics.
How much do i love Troy?
I wish it was Troy who lived instead of me.
At the time i found myself question the dangerous high risk behaviour we both were of, of what was and yet is my transition out of the generational deluge of destruction for me, and without doubt, the influence my life may have of what is of my every step.
It is of God’s WILL, Jesus’ WILL, Troy’s WILL, my WILL that i am wisely embracing the unwise generational deluge of destruction like i do, of what is my life today, delving into revealing TRUTH like i do, and who knows, perhaps we all do come back in future generations, and find one another of the celibration of HEAVEN with one another, of Madonna still trying to get Andy’s attention away from Troy! lol
well, why wait?
Celibration of HEAVEN for me, is of healthy approach to heart, mind, body, spirit and soul.
What i find difficult in tolerating is the impure uncertainties which exist in so many like it does, of what i clearly see and feel as the ongoing unwise snaring of the generational deluge of destruction, like how some yet treat homosexuals like they do, merely that of their own unaware unwiseness, not to be scorned, rather to be awakened.
Celibration for the divine child of God to me, is what exceeding joyfulness is.
Sometimes i find myself dreaming of someone telling me i was having a bad dream, as i picture Troy coming to me and taking hold of my hand like we both wanted to, sincerely genuinely obviously in love with one another, and running for the rest of our lives without anyone ever being able to come between us ever again.
In truth, in life, i have not let go of his hand, as regard my addressing what the Kingdom of HEAVEN constantly is, yes?
How significant are my words?
Life and Death significant in the eyes of God, Jesus, Troy and ‘me’.
blessed blessed blessed is the revealing TRUTH of the existence of the generational deluge of destruction.
forever more
our life is a novel(ty) ?
[upon returning to that positive state of love and awareness we realize how easy it is to maintain more and more each time]
growing in safe distance appreciation is exactly this, more and more each time. The truth is, we do love feeling our natural healthy self, more so than the substance induced self.
The state of love awareness is best felt while of those who are likewise of the mindset to BE substance free, and indeed, sex in the morning is a favorite way to start the day, yes?
How many horrible substance relationships do we have to experience in order to wake up and come clear of the generational deluge of destruction?
I wish i had of come free of substance use before meeting Troy, for sake of his life.
We cannot change the past, but we can alter the future, and that is where i am today, as though standing in the light of what i knew Troy needed, a healthy influential friend to take hold of his hand and escape the generational deluge of destruction which took his life.
Jesus says, “Life is the greatest teacher!”
“ya, well, i fucking hate my teacher then!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!” lol
not really………………..
u don’t have a problem with anything – moderation baby
it is tough being 2 sensitive sometimes
versa and no vice
if a novel u want
a novel u get
yule hafta weight a couple more ears dough
thanx 4 visits afar
exile could end in my heart
connected no matter
choice not there
see u all the time
in the thin air
hope u get my love shots back
i send them daily
down the invisible track
kiss me
and u know that sometimes
(i’m wit u when i’m wit her)
shhhhh….
boy, you gotta stop doing that!!!!
and start being true to self!
The spirit connection is real for me, and leaves me pondering at length as to which one of us is more fearlessly evolved, without being falsely egotistic superficial.
argh…….i want genuine real with another, like what we have.
i know what it is!
i have stepped thru the transgender door as a boy who knows he is a girl, loving as both a girl and a boy.
hmmmm…..let’s see, what name would the Alpha male Madonna go bi?
that’s it, i figured it OUT!!!!!!!!!!
Madonna is a transgender bender like ‘me’!!!!!!!
how did i not see this until now?
meeting a transgender girl tonight reveals everything to me now!
it’s true ya know, i am more fearlessly evolved in coming out as a transgender boy of both sexes!
it’s like, you are one foot out of the closet, where i am both feet OUT, exclaiming, “Here i am Biyatches!!!!!!”
well ok, fine, go live your boring lame ass life withOUT ‘me’ then, and see who is happier already Biyatch!
i already know it will be ‘me’, and so would you if you weren’t as sorry lame ass afraid like you yet are!
this is so amazing for ‘me’, coming out as what i know 100% i am…….a transgender boy girl who loves being both sexes, with no duality whatsoever!
twenty years now, whatever fear i had is gone, unable to be anything other than my joyful ‘real’ self, and trust ‘me’, i am happy, ok?
and so could you if you choiced to BE!
ha!
the TRUTH cometh!!!!!!!!!!!!!
finally!
i knew i would connect the dots eventually!
hey, it’s my life to live as my happy self, and for sure, i am going to be happy with or withOUT YOU!!!!!!!!!
Biyatch!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
of course, without doubt, i will always love you!
you know ‘that’.
it’s just sad that we did not get a chance to find OUT what we already KNOW to BE TRUE!
and hanging around here broken hearted?
well………
today was difficult for me emotionally, walking away, to a new life, withOUT what could of been, should of been, still is!
and you KNOW the TRUTH Biyatch!
we both do!
i’m going to wear the most sexy outfit i have ever put on this body this Pride year, that you can count on, and realize the HUGE mistake you are making, and maybe God will introduce me to that special someone before Pride!
someone like ‘me’!
forever more
truth or dare?
TRUTH!!!?!!!
argh………forget ‘me’, i already KNOW!
what i don’t get is how can one be interested in someone who cannot even masterbate properly?
well ok fine!
boring boring boring!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i am far more spiritual than you KNOW in real life, of exceeding pure true grace like your own, and that is what i don’t understand, is how does one turn away from TRUE LOVE Biyatch!!!!!!!?!!!!!!!!!
Just my imagination?
Just your imagination?
actually, cum to think of it, i am highly imaginative as a female!!!!!!!!!!
and yet, I AM FEMALE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Biyatches!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Try BEing FEARLESS YOU sometime, OK?!!!!!!!!!!
The fun loving exceeding joyful FEARLESS YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!
And what happens when i find another?
How is that going to feel for YOU?
Pretend like you don’t care?
Truth or Dare?
How about BOTH!!!!!!!!!?!!!!!!!!?!!!!!!!?!!!!!!!?!!!!!!!
Double the fun!!!!
Actually, that’s not even what it’s about!
It’s about BEing the joyful ‘real’ YOU!
well, i KNOW where i BElong, along side my loving transexual/transgender brothers and sisters!!!!!!!!!!
forever more Biyatches!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i will always love YOU!!!!!
without doubt…………..i KNOW you KNOW i KNOW i WILL!!!!
It’s not a matter of chasing anyone……………it’s a matter of standing still and feeling the TRUTH we KNOW, what we will always KNOW…………….the ‘real’ YOU!!!!
fortunately……………..TRUTH is not able to change!!!!
We all deserve to feel constantly loved at all times!
forever more
did you get my ip address ?
good so you know who i am ?
it’s really sad that you have to lower yourself to spy on me so much
if anything it’s evil
but i don’t pitty you
your painful
Does coming to understand and know someone qualify as spying or realizing who is the ONE lying? lol
How about a book called, ‘Transgender Warriors’ Biyatches!!!!!!!!!!!
Why is it the heterosexual world thinks homosexuals people are evil, when in true they are the opposite, they know who to live!!!!!!!!!!
live – not – evil
The truth is we homosexuals are loving lovers who are more sensitive as their ‘real’ self than most even care to take the time to truly know us like we know our ‘real’ self.
I stopped being concerned of how others that don’t really know us, think and speak about us, along time ago.
How does that go again?
Oh ya, our feelings of inadequacy that result in our unrealistic expectations of those who don’t want much to do with us.
hence, why i surround myself with joyful loving lovers united in Oneness Sameness like my ‘real’ self, some twenty years now, of what is my thankful exceeding joyful living of every blessed step in HEAVEN every blessed day i wake 2!!!!
forever more
my therapist says the souls of LGBT community are healthier in self-actualization, as evident by how comfortably at ease we are every day.
i suppose that is why i am still here after twenty years……….with thanks, i survived BEcause of my ‘real’ family.
forever more
and more
and more
and more…………………………………..forever Biyatches!
what is truly painful and truly sad, is the useless bullshit of bitter petty ego falsehood words that seperate two precious loving souls who obviously love one another.
transference is exactly that, a phenomenon in psychoanalysis characterized by unconscious redirection of feelings for one person to another.
well, my ‘real’ self steps forth in the world, merely seeking ‘real’ with a fearless other of oneness sameness exactly that of my own, of what my love is daily with my ‘real’ family………….to LIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
no more bashing, ok?
thank you
blessed are those who take time to dwell with ‘me’ and come to truly know ‘me’ like you do, of my ‘real’ family i love daily like i do, every one of us.
people who are of useless cajoling and enticing into bitter haphazard blind mockery of another pure loving soul are what?
Are what is our inadequacy illness feelings of unrealistic expectations of the bitter blind morons snared by the generational deluge of destruction, are they not?! lol
thinking they are wise, when in truth their every word is of the obvious bitter blindness of petty ego falsehood which has no feelings, ripping and tearing at our souls!
well screw that!
trying loving ‘me’ real sometime and you might come to love your ‘real’ self when you do, like i do you!
or, go be like those of the complacent undescering, i don’t really care, as i have risen above this mundane bullshit, along time ago actually!
you want to be loving nurturing and protecting of your own children of God in life, and yet so many of you continue to not question the obvious complacent undescerning of the useless petty ego bitterness of words you spu forth, which slash and lacerate another soul like it does.
not this soul
I am of God’s wise protection which is beyond the complacent undescerning bitter foul tasting mockery of useless words which lead to nowhere but the empty void of nothingness from which the petty ego words come from, devoid of love.
the petty ego is a mask which has no feelings, so why wear it, when in truth, you are constantly loving as i am?
do you not realize i constantly know and feel the ‘real’ self YOU of al of YOU like i know the ‘real’ self me?
think again……
or, please think is more like it…….
my petpeev for today……………or actually it is every day among the morons!
spies get fed
what they want to hear
we play along
to feed their fear
if they believe
a word i say
their grave grows deeper
everyday
yawn………..
huh? what?
sounds like manipulative mind games johnny for sake of achieving what?
nothing.
as in from the empty void of nothingness comes nothing, and returned to the void of nothingness returns nothing.
feed fear?
how mature is that?
argh, this blogging here has got to be the most annoying part of my entire life!
yawn and yawn and yawn
argh……….what time is it?
damn, im late again
is there any real people here with genuine real love like those of the loving LGBT family with a shred of sincere tender loving true kindness?
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
im going to go find something more fun and interesting to do than this useless blogging of nothingness the breeds nothingness.
are there any real souls out there of genuine beautiful approach?
can you play your games without ‘me’ johnny, i find it all rather boring as, as, as………………….
what is it about the internet and the uselessness of words people are with one another so much like they are?
on and on and on about nothing!
has anyone asked ‘me’ a validating question?
there is unreal, and then there is the blogging here, which for me, has been the most horrible experience of twisted wretched drowning of my soul that i can recall in my entire life.
must be my simple country boy spirit that grows intolerant of the absurdness.
who says something like “their grave grows deeper?”
Every soul born into the world is a precious innocent soul……………..until they come to this horrible blog!
LOL
does anyone know what that means?
does anyone really care?
as in how can i bare to be here any longer without something intelligent pure and truly nurturing of my soul to read?
fine, you people want whose mental acumen seems none existent, foul tasting, please enjoy your delightful blogging like you do, and excuse ‘me’ while i go enjoy a fun loving life!
their grave grows deeper?
that’s indicative of an unwise unattended unnurtured unprotected spirit.
not to worry, many there are of the hypocrisy heart friends in life of the same vicious delightful illness of heart like that.
God grant ‘me’ the wisdom not to participate in absurdness any longer.
thank you God
their grave grows deeper?
In the eyes of God, and all God’s children, is that spiritual enlightenment?
no
wretched
the darkness that serves the light by means of the obvious truth of something so foul tasting as saying something like that, which is CLEARLY from the hypocrisy heart.
excuse ‘me’ while i go tenderly hold the hand of another and listen to their sweet voice speak in the sunshine of another beautiful blessed day, in Just BEing my loving Self, loving Self of us ALL!
what a miserable world this is, of so many downtroddened in spirit…………yuk!
dancing, yes!
i want to go dancing!
oooooo…..homoerotic theme of The Collected Poems of C.P. Cavafy
now this i’ll read!
their grave grows deeper?
ya…………………i this immature comment does it for me at this blog!
i am not going to participate in unreal blind empty immature bitter foul tasting petty egotism any more, of what is immature intentional delightful illnes of the bitter hypocrisy heart, the illness of heart Jesus speaks of.
ya, ONLY LOVE Rosie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
today, i was dreaming of riding motorbike………..the whole eroticness of it all of a loving lover’s legs opened with me between them, riding so free of total erotic feeling for both of us, the leather, the vibrations and bumps of the road(well ok, that does get annoying after awhile!), the wind, the scrunny sexy body me stepping off the bike in the gayborhood so hot and bothered………..ALL THE TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i so need a life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Get on you boots!
ya, someone get ‘me’ OUTta here!
Easily, we merely need ask what our ‘real’ self wants!
When we take time to ask what ‘real’ self wants, we BEcome aware of the delightful joyfulness of our ‘real’ self happiness, of what is the bubbling feelings that we feel when we grant ‘real’ self to decide what we ‘really’ want.
and when we don’t, who do we hurt?
‘me’
and the conscious ‘me’ of society which does not feel the radiance of ‘real’ self as brightly as we all should, of what is the significance of understanding affect/effect/direct/indirect.
merely of BEing who we constantly ‘really’ are, the radiant joyful loving brilliant bright Light of ‘real’ self is what lights up the whole world that we ALL feel at all times growing brighter.
so please, know fully what is of my every step, breath, heartbeat, word, and every feeling of what is the trueness of us all, pure and true, the ‘real’ YOU!
as for the heterosexual world, i do not wish any of you unhappiness, as that is hypocritical of my ‘real’ self, a bisexual.
at all times, the ‘real’ self is constantly a free spirit, even if we are not of the wisdom in knowing we are, of whatever untruth may blindly bind us, it is the wisdom of ‘real’ self which is the key, where it is the ‘real’ self who is most wise in truth wisdom, of who IS the one who writes in a daily diary or journal.
blessed blessed blessed is the ‘real’ self YOU!
blessings to all
is this your blog an AnDy
is he dumb ? he look’s dumb..
nice body, but dumb,
young dumb and full of .. anywaz enjoy
i am dating a biker!
must be the spring fever!
what am i doing?
oh ya, homoerotic ‘me’ in leather Biyatches!
cut all my hair off………easy to manage.
anyway…….sorry for being so obnoxious and annoying lately!
we now return to our regular scheduled boring lame ass programing! lol
hi Marco!
huh?
who are you talking about?
i feel so friggin wild in leather!
only leather touches this naked body!
seriously!
i love it!
my submissive side is out enjoying being what i am……..homoerotic!
and you though you were out of control?
i am like, whoa!!!!!
this is friggin wild ass homoerotic submissive me in leather ripping down the highway, of what is so friggin raw homoerotic for me!!!!!!!!!!
as long as he does not speed, i am ok!
not really vulnerable……….just don’t care much about anything any more, and besides, i truly love feeling wild homoerotic in naked body leather clad!
i trust them with my life, more so than i would most others…………as strange as that may sound, it’s true.
I needed to set myself free to just be, and this works for me.
it’s the country boy you don’t know, did not take time to out to know what i always know, i am a simple country boy who loves the calm spirit i am, of what was my country boy growing up in the country side.
simple things like country gravel roads, at one with nature, pure and true, at ease in just being my self.
it’s a bond thing with us country boys.
well……..at least for this week………always a free spirit to decide where i yearn to BE!
oh, you must be talking about tranny girl with chronic substance abuse?
nah, that was last week! lol
whew!
that one scared me!
i still maintain sister love with them all biyatches, of the same sidewalk i have walking down for along time now, always there as a true friend they know is always there for them.
watched a Canadian made film called ‘Sugar’.
abit disturbing for me, about chronic substance abuse, homophobia and the denial of truth of love between male homosexuals who wake up too late, after too much substance abuse becomes chronic……….somewhat haunting for me actually.
a twisted homosexual prostitution drug addict film, not for the faint of heart.
whatever….
fuck your full of it..
cannot drive either…
see i am spying on you now
so you drive then!
hmmmm……not sure which would be scarier, me driving or you driving!
admittedly, i do have a leather fetish, but biker dude is too dysfunctional for me…….bin there and done that a few too many times.
i do see a lover and me riding a bike one day though, where what matters where ever they go, joy is always felt, so long as they are together.
and if clad in leather, well ya!!!!
im into that!!!!
or how about nude horseback riding on the same horse!!!!!
on a beach!!!!!!
under a full moon!!!!!!!!
and a bottle of vino!!!!!!!!
ok!!!!!!!!!!!
so what’s your cell number, i’ll call you
since your to up yourself to dial a number yourself, i’ll take the pole out of my ass & do it myself..
seriously are you not tired of this game.. there comes a point/cross road when someone has to take the initiative ..
i just want a friend you know i’ve got a crush on someone half my age a little 19yr old twink, but shit man i still love you, your my best friend i want to keep inspiring you as you do me.. so let’s be friends propper friends…
who know’s one day we might just end up in the same retirement home… think of all the memories we could share as we are rocking in our arm chair’s..
Lol
I don’t bite and well keep your power trips too yourself
i am sincere
i wan’t for nothing
but sincerety
without doubt…
however if your jealous about my twink who i love
THEN DONT CONTACT ME
if your sincere
GIVA ME YOU A NUMBA
BEing REAL
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
you and me in the same retirement home……….ARGH!!!………….no F&*cking way!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LOL
i jest
Did you see and feel the moon hanging in the morning sunshine sky this morning?
So beautiful the feeling, yes?
Your twink is not my type at all, so how can i be jealous?
In thinking of your twink, i think of how precious their soul is in likeness of my own, which is how i think of everyone, especially you!
BEing a true and faithful friend starts with BEing a true and faithful friend of SELF!
So what are the attributes of a true and faithful friend till the end?
One needs to slow into the purity and grace of their ‘real’ self to grasp the true sincere knowingness of a true and faithful friend who is of the SAME journey of life along life’s road while of time and space of this world, of what is of most value in life………TIME with those we love.
In truth, without doubt, in the core of our BEing, are our true feelings that we all love one another, across all divisional barriers of life, where one can easily embrace their compassionate feelings, say for, a child of God who lives in China, under similar oppression as any other child of God somewhere else in the world.
SINCERITY is ALL that which is of TRUTH, of what is our SAMEness ONEness in our probing the human condition.
This is where it starts and stops for a true and faithful friend, of what is the TRUTH WISDOM insight of all truths of the human condition, past, present, future.
These TRUTHs are eternal truth insights of our sameness oneness not just across all the absurd barriers in life that exist, but across all time, past, present, future.
Jesus fully 100% embraced the truth of this, so much so, he stepped fully into the mirroring truth the day he surrendered his life in allowing the wretched beast of petty ego ignorance to nail him to a cross.
What many do not fully fearlessly embrace, is how Jesus felt prior to being nailed to the cross, of what is of how he felt while hanging from the cross, of what Jesus 100% felt what most do not realize, afraid to realize……………the ETERNAL TRUTH MIRRORING of UNWISENESS, of 100% COMPASSION of Jesus which speaks to the divine child asleep in ignorance BEcoming awake, is it not?
Jesus knew the Eternal Truth Mirror door he willing surrendered in walking thru, a decision of suicide, for those of you who do not yet fully know Jesus, where what we fail to fully embrace, is what Jesus wants and knows of the divine child of us all to fully embrace, of what is most significant, the 100% purity of our macro thinking ability of salvation wisdom light which shines into the generational deluge of destructive ignorance darkeness of the human condition that Jesus knew existed before he came into this world, the true he felt present in his every footstep, every heartbeat, every breath, of every word, the same truth mirroring comprehension Jesus knew the unborn children yet to come would also find themselves standing in, of sincere reflection of truth we feel like we do, is it not?
Without doubt, the only thing which is eternal is TRUTH, which is unable to fail.
This is what is of the no time constraint comprehension, where in truth time stops, time does not exist in the no time constraint macro thinking of truth.
While standing at ease before Jesus, i ask Jesus, “Why did you do this Jesus?”
Jesus replys, “I know all the unwise oppressions you have experienced in your life, of what are the same unwise oppressions i too came into awareness of in my life, which are not true of your divine spirit, knowing your the purity of your own spirit like my own, would come and ask me many questions of truth, wise truth questions of significance which you know have to do with the significance of my decision in surrendering to this eternal truth mirroring cross. Do not be afraid of the bitter unwise petty ego fearful oppressive words of the generational deluge of destruction which weigh down your pure spirit like my own. Within you exists all the anwswers you seek, where it is you who holds the key that knows the kingdom of heaven is thru questioning the truth.”
Jesus and we are the door to the kingdom of heaven of our divine child of God, where only truth, wisdom, compassion, and love devoid of doubt surrounds the divine child of God for as far as the eye can see, feeling with clarity the wise truth of all unwise untruth ignorances of the divine child of God YOU!
bless you Jesus bless you bless you bless you
~ more later
as a true and faithful friend, this is where i stand, in the eternal truth realm, seeking comprehension of the human condition.
without doubt, i am aware of the sincere purity of my divine child of God who has stepped thru the door into the kingdom of heaven, still learning, still question just as Jesus did, of what has been and shall be my continued evolving in wisdom path of life, where i do embrace the significance of my life is that of the wisdom of Jesus, of God, of what is the unveiling of all truth wisdom for the divine child of God of us ALL to embrace fully, wisdom which awakens, nurtures and protects the divine child of God, past, present and future.
Truth wisdom is a shield which is not able to fail, an eternal shield meant for the divine child of God to find refuge from all the absurd bitter generation untruths which are able to snare the divine child of God into dark painful illness of heart captivities, absurd oppressions which do bind the heart, mind, body, spirit and soul of the divine child, do they not?
Across all the divisional barriers in the world, across all time, past, present, future.
As a true and faithful friend who sincerely loves you 100% without doubt, i fearlessly extend the hand of my divine child of God for you to hold forever more.
i am still learning of the truth wisdom Jesus came to embrace, which is of greater extensive comprehension than we question, that Jesus knew the divine child of God would find the key to the kingdom of Heaven, the same key that Jesus found, merely questioning of all TRUTH
blessed blessed blessed is the divine child of God YOU!
forever more
Currently of my life, i am of extensive human condition seeking, with the aid of two professionals in the field of pyschology, who i consider are of the most wise individuals in my life that i have had the priviledge to meet.
They are assisting me in becoming unsnared by what are and have been my taking full ownership of my own immaturities, as regards my explosive abreactions, where the only way out is thru embracing the wise TRUTHs which are cause for MY condition.
Addressing all issues, past, present and future is extensive comprehension into areas of getting my needs met, healing of past unaddressed unhealed issues, all of which ARE MINE, my life, my abreactions, my yet lacking in the fortitude of protective wisdom, such as setting boundaries with innappropriate others.
We have to take FULL ownership of OUR issues, where our issues left unchecked, do continue to manifest and plague us till our last day.
The ONLY way out of painful past into joyful future is thru education of our divine child of God who constantly yearns to feel loved and loving, of what HEAVEN is for the divine child of God, love without useless absurd doubtfulness.
blessed blessed blessed is the divine child of God YOU!
forever more
This year is the year for me, where i am taking time out in life to address all issues of MY life.
i have to, as i have been plagued by my own failing to address taking ownership of MY issues of MY life.
currently i am content working a part time job of 100% autonomy that is a conducive environment for the divine child of God to thrive and grow in happiness.
actually, setting a deadline is incorrect, where safe and supportive environments are not just required today, are required EVERY BLESSED DAY for the remainder of MY life.
we are all precious souls born from the womb of God, it is merely the generational bitter untruths which bind the joyful spirit of the divine child of God in captivity, where easily by means of internalizing truth wisdom of spirituality and the findings in pyschology, the divine child is assured success in freeing the divine child of God of exceeding joyfulness.
TRUTH that is unable to fail, where past, present, and future, it is ‘Crucial Lacking of Desire for Truth Wisdom’ of the false generational teachings which bind the divine child of God in darkness.
As i progress in my increased wisdom, i am becoming more fearless in coming forth in the world, of what is the radiant brilliant bright Light of truth wisdom that is setting free the heart, mind, body, Spirit and soul of the divine Child of God You of us ALL!!!!!!
blessed blessed blessed is YOU Jesus!
forever more
We ARE the Ray of Eternal Light Wisdom for ALL to FEEL, the undying unfailing TRUTH Wisdom of the divine Child of God of us ALL!
There is only one door to the Kingdom of HEAVEN, the door of TRUTH of the divine Child of God YOU of us ALL!
blessed blessed blessed is the divine Child of God YOU!
forever more
will you marry me now?
i love you
for those of you of useless shortsighted words of mockery questioning of the comprehensive ability of a devoted monk who came to know the restoring breath of lips of Jesus who speaks life and death truth wisdom words meant to awaken, nurture and protect the divine child of God of us all, you do not know ‘me’, nor WILL you know ‘me’ so long as you do not truly genuinely sincerely desire to know the divine child of God YOU of us ALL!
forever more
The descerning of words of the divine child of God spoken are of extensive internalized study into the awareness of the exact sameness oneness knowingness certainty comprehension which awakened my divine child asleep, afraid, submerged in the subconscious ignorance of what has been my entire life, until such a time i stepped out of and away from the world into the sanctuary alone with Jesus and God, becoming unafraid of the bitter unknowingly (yet) unwise world of aimless haphazard divine children of God who are without a wise helmsman in so many ways…………
speaking of which, can you believe the siphoning off of million dollar bonuses at AIG, paid out to the same opportunist ones who brought our economy to the brink of emplosion?
So just how big was the bankers table Jesus kicked over in the temple, and what is the significance in doing so?
The only way to truly embrace Jesus is to do what alot of film and book writters attempt to do, in exploring the entire life of an individual, of what are all of their baring witness to everything that is of a persons entire life, and giving voice like we do to so many issues which are life and death for another who internalizes the words uttered, are they not?
There are alot of writters, producers, directors and all involved who tickle the truth of issues. As a monk of twenty years now, who has slowed into the pure sincere genuine grace of the divine child of God, what i came to realize most obvious, is the insincere approach into delving deeply into macro thinking awareness revealing truth of the many issues we attempt bring into awareness like we do, while at the same time, the same individuals are of ever increasing slowing into the required gracefulness of their divine child of God who knows 100% without question the depth of emotional probing within the core of impactful life experiences, of what is my ever present optimism of all of you.
The only value our entire life leaves for future generations, are the combined TRUTH understandings we leave for them of what is our pure sincere genuine loving desire to do so, of what is our pure sincere genuine love for our own children.
Our words are of LIFE and DEATH sincere concern!
Optimistically speaking, as a devoted monk who has given his life for Jesus and God to have, i came to know EMOTIONAL FEAR in probing of LIFE and DEATH issues, is an obstacle which dissipates over time as we get older, of what is our VOICE of the VOICE unheard, such as the VOICE of any lover who found themselves weeping and kneeling before God after losing their beloved lover to suicide.
Why is it we do not talk about these issues which are sweeping away the lives of so many youth like it does, alarmingly so of the highest statistical rate of suicide belonging to the gay youth of 13-24 year old age group?
FEAR
well fuck that, your children of high risk in hurting themselves everyone, and if you don’t want to hear my words, then look apon the statistical TRUTH data that keeps coming in as we speak, where another will take their precious life by the close of this day.
LIFE and DEATH
God grant me to focus and embrace time of the no time costraint realm i probe in bring forth the LIFE and DEATH issues of words which the divine child of God, past, present and future, wishes to hear and be heard, and to forgive my past nescience which lends to the mockery of the LIFE and DEATH issues.
ONLY SINCERITY
Indeed, of the words of the band U2, “Perfect Love drives out all fear!”
What is to come, has already come, the awakening, nurturing and protecting truth wisdom of the divine child of God of us all which is of our WILL to steer the course of future generations to safely journey!
Nothing to fear?
Well, actually, the ongoing generational deluge of unwise destruction has seen and will continue to see millions of divine children of God swept away, where from the senseless death of any divine child of God past, present and future, radiates the brilliant bright wise LIGHT of TRUTH, does it not?
Israel for example, recently asked for airspace over Iraq to attack Iranian research buildings, which they were denied, where we know, fueling such a fire as this will lend to more senseless erupting of these senseless shortsighted false bitter hateful untrue petty ego masks of the generational deluge of destruction, of what is the TRUTH of all senseless war of the past of millions of the children of God swept away.
The full power of TRUTH is the humilating wise LIGHT of the divine child of God which connects deeply between the divine children of God, by means of the exact sameness oneness awakening that occurs.
It is this wise LIGHT of the divine child of God which is my focus of study, just as is the same focus of all those in the field of study of psychology.
Ovious is the VOID of lacking LIGHT of wisdom of the divine child of God we see and feel the TRUTH of in all warring factions in the world, is it not?
Too late for so many who are yet to die in the coming future.
What we look for has already come, of what is the eternal radianting brilliant bright wise LIGHT that shines forth from the senseless death of ALL the children of God who where swept away senselessly, where TIME HAS STOPPED for all these children of God, has it not?
In this moment, TIME HAS STOPPED, merely by our standing and turning FULLY towards the eternal radiant brilliant bright wise LIGHT our FEELINGS 100% FEEL the TRUTH of every senseless death, which the divine child knows 100% the utter senselessness like we do.
As writters, producers, directors, musicians, artists, politicians, religious leaders, and every divine child of God who are awakening, our combinded embracing of the humilating wise LIGHT is what is increasing and stemming the tide of the generational deluge that continues, of what Jesus knew existed before he came into the world, and in so knowing, would continue to exist for all future generations, until such a time that TIME STOPS.
Jesus step fully thru the door that TIME STOPS in surrendering his remaining life to the claws of the generational beast of ignorance deliberatly of his intentional wise descerning that the divine child of God yet to come would to FEEL the LIGHT of TRUTH of why he stepped thru the eternal door of the LIGHT of TRUTH, “Appreciate our sameness oneness without doubt, of what is most significant in my surrendering to mirroring the obviousness of the claws of the beast of ignorance which i knew would place me apon this cross, where we are 100% without doubt of our wise loving compassionate feelings for all divine children of God past, present, future who sadly unknowingly become swept away by the ongoing generational deluge of senseless death of the divine children of God, where doubtfulness fear to FEEL the TRUTH is our foe! I am without doubt here apon the cross, am i not? So too are you without doubt, are you not? The signficance that you 100% embrace the wise LIGHT of TRUTHs of the divine child of God YOU, is what obviously matters to me most, is it not? Question not then, my undying love for the divine child of God YOU! Know what it is that i know of you, without doubt, that i too experienced the same fearful unwise oppresions of my heart, mind, body, spirit and soul of this yet unwise world while alive, just as all of you have and yet do, of what is your awake divine child of God who questions and yearns for TRUTH, do you not”
blessed blessed blessed is the eternal truth of the divine child of God YOU Jesus
bless you bless you bless you Jesus
forever more
thank you Jesus
does this mean i get my horses for Pride Day?
and the two beautiful androgynous twins?
oh, come on!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
argh!!!!!!!!!!!
always explaining to the morons!
i jest……………………………………………..wait…………………………………..wait for it………………………………..wait………………………
hey…………”YOU ARE THE BEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”
and so am i
although many there are of nashing of teeth who continue to mock ‘me’ and our loving brothers and sisters like they do.
the truth is, sadly their comprehension is not able see and feel the truth of who we are, and so the arrows they shoot do not hit a target they cannot yet see/feel, yes? :mgreen:
well let’s forget about them, and focus on releasing the eternal radiant brilliant bright shining overflowing abundant exceeding joyFULness that is extraordinary and wondrous to BEhold of the fearless wise constantly loving divine child of God of us ALL, shall we?
SO IS IT A DATE?
oh……………fuck, i can only do so much alone you know, and being alone, well, it gets rather boring after awhile, and, and, and, hey, wait a second, im not finished!!!………………………..
(two security guards assigned to andy escourt him back to the institution that gives him a day pass from time to time, of his good behaviour with the ever so cute friend at the desk) lol
do you wanna BE FREE????????????
do you like girls or boys?????????
BOTH DAMN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
duh!!!!!!!!!!
hey, what planet are you guys from anyway?
just waundering……………………………but not aimlessly.
nope!
HALO SPACEBOY signing off to go play in the ghetto!
that’s what friends are four…………..fore EVER Biyatches!!!!!!!!!!!
get it?
fore…………..as in fore_ _ _ _!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
never mind, go back to sleep!
hey, wait up, don’t leave me here damn it!!!!
im bored, ok?
hurry up!
anyway, i will keep you posted on my progress.
i am in the most safe and supportive place in life thus far, and i am healing more and more everyday, with healthy setting of boundaries, addressing needs of maintaining positive mental emotional physical sexual spiritual well BEing, healing past issues abit at a time(you cannot rush healing, and it is best to do it slowly in revisting old painful stuff, lest it overwhelm and derail us too much).
ok……….keep smiling, knowing i sincerely love you!
i want this friendship to last by means of what is a true and faithful friend………..TRUTH of the divine child of God YOU!
forever more
bless you
blessings to all
peace be to this house
peace be to you
and peace be to you
blessings to all
i already gave you a number, and if you are that careless, well, tough! lol
don’t jerk me around like that any more……….
if you want to contact me someday, then contact me, but don’t tease me like you want to and then don’t, that is not nice for anyone to experience how that feels.
trust building requires alot of time, years, and i am here as eternal truth that does not fade or die, albeit, i die alittle each day i don’t hear from you.
i know i love you
my eternal love for you ripples deep in the core of my being, and bubbles to the surface like i felt this morning, blessed in feeling!
oh, that NUMBA!
hmmm……..
you merely need stand in stillness and feel the drops of blood which strike the ground from divine child apon the cross
who’s heart is still beating,
who’s tears are still flowing,
who’s lips are still speaking,
who’s feelings are still feeling,
at all times is the TRUTH
of the divine child of God apon the cross,
who constantly yearns to hear,
who constantly yearns to be heard,
who constantly speaks undying words,
the TRUTH of every child of God apon the cross,
who constantly feels the TRUTH that the world is the cross.
every heartbeat
every breath
every feeling
every tear
every word
ever blessed day
eternally forever more
ONE world
ONE sky
ONE divine child of God
YOU!
the divine child hears
the divine child feels
the divine child speaks
the divine child connects
feeling the words a divine child hears from the divine child speaking
i find writting, using pen and paper is a safe and supportive environment my divine child fearlessly comes out, although more and more i am becoming fearless in all i say and do
i feel each moment of my day, every step, all the time, of calmness at ease in just being who i always was.
the autonomy i have with my current job contributes to my current well being in feeling the joyful way i feel, the fearlessness like i am while walking among those in the ghetto, a light joyfulness merely of simple things, like the warm sunshine, a gentle breeze, a song playing, and of course, those who are there, flowers in hair, without a care…………..truly, we care!
we know
one we go………bravely………….every blessed day!
bless you
our live are sacred in the eyes of God, where we know our lives do deliver many of our loving brothers and sisters of the LGBT family from self-destruction daily, where we cannot know just how many we deliver, where it is not even so much of deliberateness for veterans, and rather merely of just being the brave self-confidence we have become, albeit, as veterans, i feel great is the need that we remain focused on the truth that there are many out there in great difficulty in coming out.
so do i get my horses?
i know you want 2!
true and faithful friends 4 LIFE!
i am
we all have our own personal stuff of life issues that we have waded thru along life’s road, of what is not only our own stuff, but of others as well.
we are all solely responsible for taking ownership of our own stuff, and until we do take responsibility of our own stuff, how is one able to come clear of our own debilitating stuff, such as setting healthy boundaries, like i do with my own family, who are unaccepting of me to this day, an OUT transbender gender bisexual twenty years now of worldwide LGBT community, although, i am not sure when exactly it all started for me…………although there are the days of my fascination with Light Bright pegs………don’t ask!
or how about Mike and i skinny dipping all the time in the pool?
argh………….that was so intense for me at the time………still is!
and what of my constant staring at Tim Leavey’s butt all thru school?
ah, yes, Tim had the nicest butt in school!
or how about …………………………………………………???????
BEing HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i am……….BE Cause……..We ARE……….BEing HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YOU!
forever more
It is not our responsibility to fix others, nor are we qualified to do so.
The best we can do in life, is take ownership responsibility of our own SELF, and in so doing, release our divine child of God in BEcoming what we always were as kids, healthy exceeding joyfulness radiant brilliant bright which shines into the darkness where other divine children of God are held captive, evoking their own fearlessness to come forth in the world OUT from the bitter dark horrific binding chains of the false generational deluge of unwise destruction that continues to exist in the world, the eternal wise LIGHT of TRUTH of the divine child of God ever increasing of the bright wise LIGHT which pushes OUT all darkness in the world.
God’s WILL is our WILL BE Done on earth of what HEAVEN constantly is……….the TRUTH of the divine child of God YOU of us ALL!
forever more
blessings to all
Andy is the cleaner
you told me you lost your phone so i threw that number out
i’m not sure i’d have to spend more quality time with you before i could make a decsision of that nature how else am i meant to know if there is compatibility .. but time is running out i’m falling for someone else i don’t want to be in a situaltion where i have to choose between two people, nor do i want to be alone and loose both, & i am not into have two at the same time either
you can fix someone simply by being there for them and loving them & playing with them,
not playing them
games are for children to play not adults
omg i just played into your hand’s…
i think i love you but i am not sure, because lately i have not felt your soul, well not to the degree i did say last August when i was overwhelmed by your energy & love energy, maybe it’s my own distraction or we have drifted apart i’m not really sure i guess i’m confused.. anywayz im kinda obsessed with this other person atm, hey i don’t know i am so confused i forgot my own name ..
SHIT are you close, i’m COMMING
WHATS A GOING ON this BLog is rude !
i think Romoe is sexually frustrated..
Eric, you agree
i can address the compatibility from my perspective of how i would feel, if ever a day were to come that you turned fully towards your genuine sincere desire to explore our combined potential thriving happiness growth of the divine child of God.
I was probing this the other day, sitting with the feeling of what is constant yearning of the divine child of God, who is wisely without doubt, feeling thru the truth of the required surrendered spirit that is required to truly connect with the spirit of the divine child of God of another, of what are the sameness oneness trueness aspects of the divine child of God of us both, of us all, such as exceeding gracefulness, subtle pure and true, so blessed in feeling like we do.
Useless uncertainty fear is debilitating and not true of the divine child of God, is it not?
BE not of the useless doubtful fear that exists in the world, as fear is what is of the false binding oppressive suppression of the exceeding joyfulness of the divine child of God’s spirit.
I am fearlessly able to stand before you in this moment, just as i will be fearless in standing before another tomorrow, should you choose a different path in life, in my asking your divine child of God a to stand still and ask your ‘real’ self a question this day, “What is of genuine sincere exceeding happiness that you want?”
Sometimes the true answer to a question like this takes time for our divine child of God to fearless feel thru and answer, of what is my own awareness research of the divine child of God ‘me’.
What i know of my own pure and true feelings is that the love i feel is pure and true, where even if try to turn away from the love i feel, i am not able to, as it is who i truly am.
therefore you have the rest of your life to decide, and in truth, there is yet fear between us which keeps us apart, as you say, spend more quality time with you before i could make a decsision.
yes, of course, that is the only way to come fully into the light of true knowingness the divine child is able to know and trust what is obviously apparent, able to trust with certainty of what is not just constantly yearning of the divine child of God, it is what IS the divine child of God apon the crose(our life)……….LOVE WITHOUT DOUBT.
these are not mere words eloquently spoken, rather, are of the fearless depths of embracing the trueness aspects of the divine child of God.
For me, it seems senseless for us not to be together, than to be apart, where i know without doubt, if of you, the word that best describes how i would feel every moment of every day, is what i feel when i think of the genuine sincere releasing of our spirits i sense is true not just of me, but of your own denial holding back as well of what i feel you too feel in asking the denial question, “What is of genuine sincere exceeding happiness that you want?”
is it ‘me’?
JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY
The purity of the feeling is overwhelming JOYFULNESS of the divine child of God, where i know that it is constant TRUE LOVE your divine child of God is seeking, of what is constant yearning of the divine child of God of us ALL!
Even if i am of distraction at times in life, while alone, i am of the genuine surrendered spirit of my divine child of God while alone in meditation, fearlessly standing still, fearlessly feeling what is pure and true of ‘me’, the constant yearning to love and feel loved with another who is of sameness oneness likeness of my graceful ‘real’ self.
of what is constant subconscious seeking of the divine child of God within us all, of what is the core of the spirit of the divine child of God…………JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY
truly, i already know you are the one for ‘me’.
in truth, we are all of the sameness oneness potential JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY of the divine child of God in cuming together, are we not? lol
seriously though……………i am the surrendered spirit of the divine child of God, where fearlessly surrendering past fear into JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY in the core of divine child of God, is what true marriage of the heart, mind, body, spirit and soul truly is, is it not?
hmmm…….let’s see………..if i were to ask someone what they think about the possibility to marry someone say like Madonna, should i go for it?
without doubt, the instant response would be, “DUH!!!!!! are you fucking crazy, of course!!!!!!!! Butt only if she truly loves YOU!”
Good Morning! Enjoy the blessed day!
I am on the path to exceeding JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY, and so are you!
we all are!
i am……….BE Cause………We ALL ARE JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY!!!!!!!!!!!
the evading question not yet fully disclosed is, “What is of genuine sincere exceeding happiness that you want?”
is it ‘me’?
this is the question that came to the forefront of my meditation, which i feel is perhaps a denial question surrounded by fear in exploring.
the only way to deal with fear, is bi fearlessly walking fearlessly toward the TRUTH of the divine child of God YOU of us ALL of what is constant yearning of the divine child of God, feelings of love, of what HEAVEN constantly is!
i love you either way…………………..without doubt
always have always WILL
blessed blessed blessed is the divine Child of God YOU!
forever more
oh, and as for keeping off Madonna’s worldwise stage, think again, where beyond Rupal, my stage presence as an out transbender gender bisexual would shack the world to the core of their BEing where abundant JOY overflows with every color of the rainbow, every flower of the garden, radiant brilliant bright fearlessness this world has not experienced, just as you and i have not yet experienced what it is that we both would feel of the surrendered spirit day of the oneness of the divine child of God of us both holding hands.
truly, the world is not ready for us!
i am though, of what is eternal happiness oneness with someone i sense truly loves me without doubt, where the truth of my love for you is of one who awaits your answer, where you know, it is not within me to turn away from the love we feel.
Like Jesus, i too am of the surrendered spirit in fearlessly stepping forth as the eternal loving divine child of God’s spirit who holds out his hand to you to have and to hold forever more, knowing i would not ever leave you if your love for me is pure and true, which i already know it is.
the pure and true love of your ‘real’ self is there in so many moments, like the other day when you said, “I love true.”
are you afraid i would leave you one day?
do you not realize fully how long i have wanted to as you this question?
it is the sincerity of your pure love which has drawn me to you since way back when, where blessed tears of joy have fallen so many times when i felt that your love for me was not my imagination, again and again and again the other day when you reached out in saying, “I love true.”
i have another denial question for you, “How long have you loved ‘me’?
and “How long will you love ‘me’?”
i am standing alone in life extending my hand for you to have and hold forever if you want to hold mine like i 100% want to hold yours.
i am 100% fearless in doing so, knowing there is no element of doubt of my love for you because i have sense the same of your love for ‘me’.
so is it true, our love for one another ‘really’ is true blue, of what you have always wanted?
is this not what is true of the divine child of God of us all?
i know without doubt what i want, 100%.
and i have sensed over and over again and again the incredible realization of, “OMG, i thought it was my imagination at first, but you really do love me!”
stop crying and answer the question!
in HEAVEN feelings of love is pure and true, of blessed feeling that does not stop flowing, of no element of doubt.
i first came to know this about my divine child of God when i met Jesus in the desert, where i realized, he waits for me as a true and faithful friend, where it is not within him to turn away from me, and that is what is my love for you, that i do not deny myself from feeling the blessed flowing constant feelings of love that i have had for you for so long, knowing without doubt i always will, so you need not ever wonder if i would leave you, where the only question that needs resolved is, ““What is of genuine sincere exceeding happiness that you want?”
is it ‘me’?
take your time to wade thru the days to come, and should a moment like the many moments before comes where you fearlessly step out of denial as i have, know that i will be standing there in the glorious sunshine that does not stop shining, just as i know my love for you, i am not ever able to stop feeling like i have and do, of what is the truth of the surrendered divine child of God’s spirit before you, the constant flowing fearless ‘me’ who knows without doubt, “I LOVE YOU!”
so is it true?
YOU constantly love ‘me’?
i have tryed to turn away from you, it’s true, but i came to realize, i cannot, nor do a truly want to, in stepping out of fearfulness into the eternal fearlessness of my divine child of God’s spirit.
it is the self-knowledge self-awareness study of the oneness sameness trueness aspects of the divine child of God’s spirit of Jesus and God in likeness of my own, that i cannot, where elements of doubt are false, just as is the love without doubt we feel for our own children, elements of doubt is false.
when i think of you and i together, i feel only fun loving joyful happiness of us both that is beyond anything either of us have yet to experience, where once freed of denial, merely in thinking about it, we can sense the joyfulness of our divine child of God bubbling up like we do.
truly, who in life have you met as fearless as i am in my approach with you like i am?
is it not obvious to you my love really is true?
it is your love which drew me to you, where coming in close, the greatest joy i felt was in sensing how long you have loved me and the purity of love i sensed you have for me was true.
the shock of it when to my head at times, and i became some what disorientated in my approach with you, where perhaps you sense i was playing games, but in truth, i was not, i was merely afraid to open fully into trusting what it was i was feeling, the LOVE we feel like we do.
as for my bisexuality, yes, it is true, i am 100% bisexual, which i don’t deny the truth of.
I am not gay, i am bisexual.
what matters to me, is a partner who is of genuine tender sincere love in holding my hand, which is what i sense with you.
so is it true?
ah, ok, so it is true!
you put this in me, so now what?
i can wait as long as you need.
for me it is sorta like always wanting a date with the girl i had a crush, feelings i can not merely switch off.
friends is ok too, as i do respect time to our selves in life, and in truth, friendship is what is the joyful fun loving spirit, which we already have………..that won’t change.
but as for loving lover life partners………”TELL ‘ME’ DAMN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”
i want to know what i already KNOW!
oh, sorry Jesus, didn’t see you standing there………………….
what i feel is most inspiring, is my feelings of us being together in life, of no fear, only joy, pure and true of us the oneness love of our spirits, that to me, is of the purity of love in stepping fully into the kingdom of heaven, because of the purity of love i sense about you, which has drawn me to you where i yet stand before you, knowing i cannot turn away from what is true in feeling for me, until such a time as you answer my question, which you already have in so many ways, so many times.
so you want to go out sometime?
any where is fine, flowers in hair, without a care, you know, i will BE there!
perhaps your greatest inspiration is the fearless true expression of your own feelings of love, yes?
personally, i feel our exceeding joyfulness would be so insane every where we went, because of how long we have loved one another, held back, the pure and true divine child of God’s spirit, so fearless radiant brilliant bright of constant lover’s delight!
well, i know that is how i feel about you.
i just need time with you to feel the truth, that’s all, a nice beach, some beautiful days, of only JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!
please know i am not playing any game, and that my words with you today have been coming along time, that i have held back from you to hear, of what i have been so afraid in letting go and just being the truth of my feelings for you.
either way, i am walking towards JOY filled days of happiness, so don’t fret if you find you decide to pass ‘me’ bi.
at some point though, i think we should resolve this, for both our sakes.
this is serious for us both, not a game.
let me know if you want to meet sometime, knowing i would love to meet you……………………..without doubt.
however long, when ever, where ever, i’ll be there to meet you, this year, next year, when ever.
till then, friends we are and always will be, having fun in life with who ever and where ever we want to go.
i don’t want to tie you down with this, as we pass in the hallway of the school of life, merely letting you know what you have likely sensed of me, just as i have you, truelove is without doubt, true of us both, true of the divine child of God’s spirit of us ALL.
forever more
i am not going to spy on you any more, and just go be ‘real’ life me, and if a day comes you want to meet and greet, know that i do 2! lol
forever love
constant flowin’
forever love
constant growin’
forever love
constant knowin’
forever love
constant glowin’
forever love
fool’s goodbye
forever love
fool’s we lie
forever love
fool’s we die
forever love
fool’s we cry
potential thriving happiness, wow that sounds delicious
purposeful, i like that word, divine purpose,
purposeful divine spiritual purpose
strike a purPOSE
proPOSE to me
GOD DAMM IT !! HAHAH 🙂
what, ok
i supPOSE
ya big fucken POSE’R
peacock without a cock
how are your breast’s going AnDY
EEE CUP
oh mummy
I mean how can you assisinate the president of the united states jfk and live with yourself ?
rape & pillage the country
rationalise nazi thinking, i mean perhaps your intent is genuine but is your approach…
look things have changed since we were here last…
you’ll learn about us soon enough..
were here to assist you … we learn from you as well
assist who?
God?
nah, God says to learn how to assist your precious loving divine SELF!
learn about us? who are you, the cia?
morons!
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actually, interesting you should ask, while being bored, i dressed as a female last night, while listening to beautiful persian music, ushering celebration of a New Year.
you know i didn’t know just how effeminate my body really is……..i still weigh in at the same as i did at 19……..130lb………clothes off!!!!
so lean, trim, perfect ass, hmmmmmmm!
biking again, so refreshing in the cool morning air, tuning into our own body of JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY!!!!!
ya, beyond our fear, is the door that opens wide the potential thriving happiness of the divine child of God’s spirit of ‘real’ self YOU, so if anyone is going to rain on my parade, well, think again, as it has not rained yet since ’94.
a whisper, “what would make you most happy?”
my reply, “YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”
i took some hot hot hot pics last night, and will publish soon!
like Rupal says, “If you cannot love your SELF, then who the hell can you love?”
so true!
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assisinnation, rape, pillage, nazi murder…….all TRUTH of from the void of nothingness generational deluge of destruction dark ignorance which turns away from the pure genuine TRUE aspects of the divine child of God you morons!
i have a question, “if the divine child of God’s spirit Jesus stands beside me, then who do i need assistance from?
the answer is in the question!
the question is in the answer!
you need only ask questions of what is truth of the divine child of God’s spirit YOU!
http://www.imeem.com/nimakomyzi/music/d9ig1JfI/song-persian/
Happy New Year!
breasts?
actually, i am leaving the decision for breasts for my future partner to decide, as they are half of what is my life.
i love my boy body self equally as much as i do my female body self which is me, who has always felt the presence of a female body.
it is not something of silly taboo jokingness for me, rather it is merely our body, where a female loves the body they dwell in the same as a male loves the body they dwell in, where the question really is, “is the female person within the mind different from the male person within the mind?
no
we like to think we are, according to society, but in truth, we are not.
happy joyful kids display the truth of this while they play, where society is not yet of their young minds.
we are all the joyful child of God’s Spiritual BEing, left unattended, unnurtured, unawakened, unprotected……….well, at least until Andy came along where in the most wacked OUT OUTfit on the planet! lol
i am a bisexual who is into role playing, having lived a gay lifestyle of role playing for the past twenty years, comfortably so i might add, of tender lover love, and not the way many think of us homosexual lovers.
fearless role playing is liberating fun, and that is something i am not going to stop doing, having fun, as it is something purely natural for me, just as my feelings of feeling like a female did while of my youth, just as i still do, which is a beautiful thing for me to feel, not at all twisted taboo like many of you think and talk about us.
There is a more gentle female “True Voice”, as Rupal says, beyond the screaming nasty drag queens, and i know what that is and feels like, as though i am 100% female, of the delicate sensitivity of females, which i love about females, which i love about me, of what is of the whispering lovers with one another, of only love so pure and true the way they whisper with one another, joyful pure love of what is their delightfulness of loving life of both individuals, like the whisper of one lover to another who asks, “What would make you most happy?”
this is a good experiential technique, if you lay comfortable at ease, with some romantic music, under the stars, and softly whisper this question.
you can easily feel the joyful delight of pure love feelings of your own true ‘real’ self come to the surface, do you not?
granted there was some fear in consideration of a female lover who is not (yet) into role playing, but not any more, in coming out as a bisexual who is into tender fun loving role playing, where i can dress and feel as a female or as a male, of what is natural pure fun for me, and likewise natural pure fun for my lover, as they would discover for themselves, should they over come their own inner fears.
i don’t give a fuck what any of you say, i really don’t.
If Madonna wants a bisexual lover who is of fun loving role playing, well, damn it, she always gets what she WANTS!
the question is merely of, “What would make you most happy?”
and let’s not forget about our ‘real’ family, which i am 100%, the worldwide LGBT community, who we already know would love to see Madonna and Andy together as joyful lovers like all the loving lovers of our ‘real’ family genuinely are……..mostly.
i cannot decide for Madonna, butt, i have decided for ‘me’, of who i ‘really’ am, and have been along time, a male bisexual who is of pure comfort knowingness of my female self 100%, not merely of a passing phase, no, twenty years of role playing.
Rupal is one of my most beloved inspirations, who shines radiant brilliant bright sincere love that we all feel, who is not a poser, not fake in any way, which i identify with deeply within, 100%, of what is my female self.
i am not about need of attention like many appear to be. i am beyond that. I am tuned into the pure genuine delicate sensitive effeminate female self, both as a male and female 100%, beyond societies embracing of who i really really am, the divine child of God’s Spiritual True BEing, where i know God is both male and female.
We all come from a male and female, where it is more foolish to think we are not both male and female, than to think we are just male or just female, when in truth, we all have abit of our Mom in us, abit of our Dad in us.
i have my Mom’s hand’s and feet and bone structure(mostly), my Dad’s eyes, my Dad’s hair,
Actually, in truth, is see our entire body is of a subtle mix of both our parents, when looking apon our bodies.
this song is joyful in feeling, yes?
http://www.imeem.com/nimakomyzi/music/d9ig1JfI/song-persian/
so do you want a fun loving joyful bisexual role playing lover Madonna?
i cannot be any other way, nor do i want to.
let me know someday, when you overcome your own fears in fearless coming OUT, because i am not going back into that horrible closet ever again!
you can join me, or i can find another who will.
i am not promiscuous, no, i am a one to one loving lover life partner, and fourteen years with the same partner pretty much dispells any notion of my being promiscuous.
when the true ‘real’ self connects genuinely with ‘real’ self of another, of their tender whispering love as ‘real’ self, they connect, nurture, awaken, and protect one another, in constantly BEing their ‘real’ self each blessed day they wake to.
all i ask is a chance for us to connect in ‘real’ life, already knowing we would come to love one another if we do someday.
Potential thriving happiness is only possible thru fearlessness of the divine child of God’s spirit BEing released, by means of fear which overcomes all fear.
there is no other way to enter the kingdom of heaven, where useless fearful doubt does not exist between those who are there, of what is their love devoid of doubt they constantly feel, ‘real’, at all times, not of useless fear mongering unwise words of seperation like that of many in the (yet) unwise world, who are not cognitively awake to the generational snarings that exist in the world, not awake, not aware, that indeed, the generational snarings are able to bind their heart, mind, body, spirit and soul into dark captivity, that we know in truth, does lead to death for many of our loving brothers and sisters.
TRUTH is the way
TRUTH is the ‘real’ life
TRUTH i am
i am the truth of ‘real’ life ‘me’ of what is the only way i want to BE, forever FREE, the way to constantly Just BEing my true ‘real’ SELF!
Just thought i would clear the air, letting every one know, i am not going to compromise my genuine sincere happiness in BEing what i am, an OUT bisexual of tender fun loving role playing, of which i have had twenty years practicing Just BEing ‘real me’.
forever more
if you are not interested, well, hey, someone WILL BE!
i really don’t care at all of any negative derogatory words any of you ever have to say.
Go live YOUR LIFE, YOUR WAY, and i WILL BE DOing the same, of what HEAVEN constantly is for ‘real me’, my WILL BE DOne on earth, what HEAVEN constantly is, constantly awake in LOVE, WISDOM, COMPASSION and TRUTH of what i have come to ‘really’ KNOW of the divine child of God’s Spirit ‘me’!
JOY JOY JOY JOY JOY!
WILL YOU MARRY ‘me’ Madonna?
i know you want 2!
you always have ‘me’ as a true and faithful friend till the end, no matter anything you ever do or say, like true friends we are, forever more at PLAY(as in PLAY on church street where we have daily drag shows morons!) lol
i am in counceling for my breasts, and it is not a decision i will be making this year.
i have to wear a false breasts bra for a year or so, feeling how it feels to always be of breasts, as part of the possible transition into having breasts, small ones, not big dorky looking ones.
i am not about showing them off, seeking attention, rather it is of my sexuality sex with my lover.
i love my self
http://www.imeem.com/nimakomyzi/music/d9ig1JfI/song-persian/
i was thinking last night, if we were able to take small snapshots of live musicians playing in clubs worldwide, and splice it all together and play it back, we can get a true sense of the spiritual matrix that exists in the world.
You have to do this from a pure spiritual seeking approach, not some staged idea, where you can get a pure true sense of the flowing connectedness spiritual matrix of what is our daily evolving lives together on planety earth, in our coming together as one, of what is affect/effect/direct/indirect.
tuning into random selected clubs with live musicians in the same evening, of say four hours of sampled music, and you can peer into the ever so subtle feeling and influences of the spiritual matrix that feels the same across all divisions, however various the fluctuations of difference is, bright, dim, the divine child of God of us all is there constantly seeking the joyful feelings of connectedness love we all love to feel like we do.
there are some truly tuned in spiritual musicians in life, of the tanquility music that i love the most.
see, we think and feel the same, yes?
i love you more than you know, pure and true YOU!
i whisper, “what would make you most happy?”
is it ‘me’?
i constantly love you true
pure and true, ya, i feel that way too, more and more each day, like the tranquility i was feeling last night.
it has to do with how we view the world while at ease, and i sense it is growing within others too.
tuning into this and bringing this light forward, like the musicians of tranquility kind of music, is part of our daily life, and so music having this aspect in the mix, ensures this matrix connecteness of pure and true you within us all.
ok, where were we?
let’s chat about you am me.
you look sensational by the way!
of recent pics at Valention’s bash.
i have a question, “are you spying on Poser me?”
if so, why? You are interested in knowing me more?
i sense that you are, so i am being candid in my speculations of what i feel is true.
i may not be much in life, but then again, as you know, self-knowledge wisdom is where it’s at, where all are concerned.
i had a beautiful feeling last night of whispering lovers who genuinely love one another.
this is not some crazed notion either, this is genuine true insight into my own psyche of the ‘real’ me, of beautiful feelings, like the passionate lover’s hand who genuinely firmly loves their lover’s hand they tenderly caress and hold.
we are all loving lovers along life’s road with one another, where at times, we have the privilege to happen apon in spending time in getting to know the true ‘real’ self who is there.
what i notice most of my own ‘real’ self is just how afraid i am in being the tender loving lover i am, of pure whispering of words for the someone i know i love, like i know i do you, wondering if someday you too sincerely want to explore the ‘real’ self of one another alone with each other like i know without doubt that i do, of full surrender in being at ease as ‘me’, who feels that perhaps it is true, you too feel something pure and true of me like i do you.
ultimately, that is the day i pray for to come true.
fearlessness is the only way we will see this come, so if spying on me helps with that, then great!
i do have a nice body after all, do i not, just as you do!
there are so many indications that speak to my heart, like growing old together that you express, where i am like, “Whoa! did you just say that? You are thinking of ‘me’!
well, in life thus far, i want you to know, that there is no single greater feeling of joy i know of than one day meeting you, but only if it is true, that you want to spend some quality time in genuinely embracing one another as our at ease real self.
my every word is obviously of encouraging you to do so.
i want to say this though, what i sense about you is the sincere depth of your true ‘real’ self so much like my own, without the pretentiousness, where our true free spirits are of genuine delight of one another, like true loving lovers are, and friends.
i was praying last night for only one thing, that this day comes true for us, if it is true we both want the same thing, our sincere desire to be at ease as our real self, where in truth, any other way is not going to work for either of us.
happiness is what is of greatest importance i want you to feel, no matter who, and if you feel it may be of me, then explore it with me in ‘real’ life someday, where i will be there if of your request, of what i am this day without, a genuine true loving lover before me that i want to love in life.
in time, i know myself well, i will find another, as i always have. i am taking my time this time around though, not rushing to latch on to just anyone. i have the self-confidence to see me thru in not settling for just anyone, like i have in the past.
please know, this is sacred to me, of what potential happiness of our ‘real’ self is, only by means of genuine sincere loving desire of someone like ourselves who knows what they are looking for.
the fickle, the unwise ones, they are not fearlessly tuned into their own ‘real’ self, so how can they possibly feel our ‘real’ self in the light of appreciation of the tender gentle graceful ‘real’ self we are?
so many aimless unwise morons!
if you are merely of concern for my life as a friend, which we both are, however if that is all this has been about, then i am cool with that, yet i feel there is more you are not surrendering to in disclosing yet, which is ok, as our ability to trust should not just be thrown out there quickly.
so do i present myself to you as someone you sincerely want to know in ‘real’ life as your at ease ‘real’ self who whispers true pure words with you like i do, “What would make you most happy?”
is it my feelings of love for you genuine and true in feeling for me that i have for you that you relish?
i know i do, when ever you say something pure and true.
you are timid in so many ways, and yet, you are so fearless too.
what of a life of exceeding joyfulness happiness?
how sacred is that?
for me, it is what heaven is in feeling, and i want that for you, which i know you are tuned into in a pure true knowing way, where what you need to ask is, “how is it that i know this of you?”
is it not by means of what is the same of for us both, the genuine sincere true ‘real’ self who fearlessly loves being ‘real’ feelings of our ‘real’ self?
i am no expert, yet i am tuned in, however haphazard my stumbling with you has been, the obviousness that i want the same thing you do.
trust takes time, and we are yet here all this time, which is a true indicator of my love for you, is it not?
many i am sure say, “oh, andy is obsessed with you.”
no i am not.
i am like everyone else of you morons who all want the same thing, to CONSTANTLY passionately feel love, so you can all just fuck off about that!
anyway, however long you need, i will wait for your final disclosure of what you ‘really’ want, of what your response is to, “what would make you most happy?”
as for the future of you and i, i feel only joyfulness fun loving high spiritedness of us both, of what is most sacred for us both in life, where we would be foolish to walk away from exploring the potential thriving happiness in fearlessly setting our ‘real’ self free.
it is the depth of your love that i feel pure and true within that speaks to my ‘real’ self.
Dear God, if it is true, then grant to us and the world, fearlessness in overcoming our seemingly yet afraid place we are of in coming forth in the world as our radiant brilliant bright shining joyful ‘real’ self.
forever more
you said something the other day which captured my attention, about what level one is evolved at, and if the other is not at the same level, then how can they grow together.
in truth, how can they genuinely interact and be together intimately as their at ease pure flowing lover lover self?
you and are are more than a flight of fancy in passing by one another in life, as regards the depth of both of us as individuals in life, of what we feel like we do while of the comfort at ease real self.
so tell me, “what would make you most happy?”
if it’s true, i’ll be there for you, ok?
i just want to love and be my passionate loving lover happy self with someone.
we all do
actually, i was thinking 30C
peacock with a pea cock? lol
i am Fed Exing my peacock feathered ex, as in fed up with my ex? lol
PASSIONATE LOVER SELF is where it’s at!
if we are not passionate for our lover, we are not our PASSIONATE LOVER SELF!
i am not the feelings of my passionate lover self right now with anyone other than you!
just so you know, if of me, i am of outdoor adventure, like downhill skiing, surf boarding, sky diving, scuba diving, biking, horseback riding, of what is the free spiritedness of ‘real’ self, easy to find and feel, by being outdoor free!
without hesitation
flowers in hair!
without hesitation
without a care!
without hesitation,
i will be there!
without hesitation
merely say where!
Moron’s
thats all i can say, seriously what the x@#&… is wrong with people….
Like you do someone a favor or be sincere are REAL & when it comes time for them to move on they have to x@#& you over or more to the point start an argument, put their shit on you..
what ever happened to….
Hey it’s been great knowing you time for me to move on..
Nah too hard .. they have to make you feel guilty or put their shit on ya..
Moron’s…
God i know why you are the way you are with people, Moron’s they make you frustrated .. people are so ignorant & in denial … Wake Up Moron’s…
Human Nature I guess …
Not everyone can be strong …
looser’s
please don’t let me become bitter with the world
hello
is their someone out there who know’s
someone strong ?
i know
if heaven is the constant flow of our feelings of love, then anything which interupts or eskews the blessed feeling, is unwise, is it not?
being true to self, is seeking another who is genuine real where the constant flow is not unwisely immaturely interupted like many haphazardly are, what with all their egotisms of this or that.
it is difficult being our real tender gentle mild graceful delicate sensitive ‘real’ self among those who are not, and easy among those who wisely are.
evolving development of a wise responsible approach for sake of the divine child of God true ‘real’ self is an ongoing evolving in self-knowledge true aspects wisdom that sees our ‘real’ self BEing ‘real’ more often each blessed day.
the wise child knowingly realizes it is our mirroring of BEing our ‘real’ self that is awakening, nurturing and protective of the divine child ‘real’ self of others, of what is the constant flow of love affect/effect/direct/indirect here in heaven.
not sure who’s shit you are refering to Helen, however, life teaches us to expect it, albeit, i am aware of the constant evolving of the condition of all souls in life of what is our every heartbeat, every breath, every footstep, every word, of every blessed day.
watch out for false toxic transferences
bless you
unwise ! what it’s inconsumable ! hello Moron’s wake you now
time for morning coffee !!
no.ah those unwise oph’s,,,, i mean.. inconsumable one’s they suck you’r lifeforce ya it’s not easy being around them..
we’ll being true to yourself saves a lot of pain in the long run ! so hey save your’ selves some pain.. & wake up today !!, instead of tomorrow !
yer seek the truth.. the force … loveforce..( the power be with you nicki ! )
cinderella cinderella .. ” mirror mirror in the wall, who’s the finest of them all ? ”
lol ha ha …
i’m refering to all those who are in a state of ignorance of the divine godchild within.. the inconsumable one’s.. lol ok maybe not inconsumable but definatly unwise.. so yer there’s been a few but hey.. you learn ..
yer toxic.. poo…
shit man ..
i’m in aussie paddled here all the way from Venice…
on my Gondola…
i grabbed a few noddle’s from china on my way here ..
ha .. gotta go now .. got fish to catch.. plus noodle’s to boil i’m a making seafood marinara tonight ! the Venecians, great cook’s, uhmmm… yummi,…
lol…
no i’m not being cryptic !
i’m multi dimensional !
every schysophrenic’s Phantasy !
oh. babe you hardly know me … i’m very complex !
do you wan’t me to take over babe ?
no_one would notice !!
ah oh no way,
like i could be bothered,
it’s all your’s honey !!!!..
just show me the money !!!!
owchhhh ha ha lolipop..
just an old hooker’s joke
Malwali Morals ,
hey bebe..
well fair enough.. dress to impress
Un-impressed, felling duressed, ?
( you undress just to impress)
i’m impressed, why mess with just a guess… it’s all a test..
beside’s there’s alway’s the REST…
like i giva a shit about your love nest !
ah ha Lol….
ONE STEP A HEAD OT THE REST !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok mummy i’ll do my homework..
if only you
smack me
if i dont’
ahh see she did’nt like that one !
uhm
well
careful what you wish for !
we are best friends in life, of what is the constant subconscious/conscious seeking of the divine child ‘real’ self within.
hey! Look! Listen!
please listen to what is of my every breath in this moment of true reflection of my own divine child of God here before you this day, lest we become of the false afraid disconnected masks the divine child hides behind, slowing and potentially damaging, and derailing of the divine focus of the divine child of God of you, and the divine child of God ‘me’.
I give thanks to God my what i know is our blessed life long friendship for someone who i know is of the same sincere diligence like my own, beyond that of most, of what i know unknowingly grips the divine child of God yet asleep in ignorance(unknowingly), albeit, submerged in the subconscious, constantly seeking, feeling, of what Jesus knows is the TRUTH of the divine child of God of us all is constantly seeking connection with what the divine child intuitively seeks and knows to be true.
all of us are constantly evolving in wisdom protection meant to protect the divine child of God becoming fully awake by means of the radiating Light(truth wisdom of aspects of the divine child) which nurtures, awakens and protects the divine child of God, of Jesus, of you, of me, of us all.
truly we know our every step, every breath, every heartbeat, of every blessed day is of LIFE and DEATH of the divine child of so many.
here is where we all are, past, present, future, of Jesus, of you, of me, of us all;
ALL souls are unknowingly evolving, unknowingly drawn subconscious drawn to the PURE wise Light of divine children of God Jesus, you, me, all, of what is constant Light radiating like the sun which constantly radiates of the divine child within us all, the constant connectedness, however dim, however abstract, however unwisely shattered broken the blessed spirit of the divine child of God of any of us may be of each blessed day we wake to, constantly, there is the TRUTH at all times of what is the truth we constantly feel, by means of our wise descerning ability to peer into the eternal TRUTH realm of every blessed soul born from the womb of God, past, present, future, of no time constraint.
at some point we evolve to a level of wise descerning, just as Jesus is, where we feel alone in our wise descerning ability of what is the wise protective halo shield and door into the kingdom of heaven where love devoid of doubt constantly flows.
truly i tell you, i stand alone beside Jesus in a desert, of my surrendered spirit in having come away from the world which was my life experience i began to feel the truth of many years ago in my awakening of the TRUTH i began to become aware of, of what is the unwisely unknowingly snaring by the bitter false generational deluge of ignorant bitter destruction that sweeps away the blessed pure spirit of the divine child of any of us.
What is happening to us all?
Jesus is a FULLY awakened in self-taught(God’s teachings with Jesus alone in his meditative pure love feelings in the desert with God) self-awareness pure knowingness, evolved in blessed awakening, nurturing , protective wisdom shield.
In know such wisdom of his own divine child of God ‘real’ self, just as you and i know and seek, ist the TRUTH of every blessed child of God.
For sake of the precious divine child of God of another, we need to embrace that we are yet entering FULLY into the wise protective halo shield meant for the divine child of God of us all, of what we KNOW is the halo door of the kingdom of heaven, where it is by means of our pure love feelings which reveals the truth of this, does it not?
so who am i to you? Am i not an eternal true and faithful friend till the end? I know without doubt that you are for an eternal friend for me, by means of what is our sameness oneness knowingness pure love feelings we feel like we do, which reveals the truth, indeed, we are eternal loving true and faithful friends till the end.
I am not 100% fully completely wise in the awakening, nurturing, protective halo shield/door of the kingdom of heaven, and yet, i know i am compassionately beyond the snaring ‘Crucial Lacking of Desire Seeking for the TRUE door Kingdom of Heaven Perspective’, which i know without doubt, is indeed the door of the kingdom of heaven, where what is of the kingdom of heaven, is what is constantly happening, knowingly/unknowingly conscious/subconscious, awakening/asleep, the awakening of the divine child of God ‘real’ self of any of us into the trueness aspects of the divine child of God Jesus, you, ‘me’ of us all.
i need you
please don’t toss me to and fro as though i am worthless, as this is painful in feeling for me at times like you do.
Just as i know i need Jesus, so too i know i need you, just as you need me.
i want to dispense with these trivial minimizing denial immature blame games which is a waste of time unfocused distractive destructive unwise derailing of the pure blessed divine spirit of the divine child of God Jesus, you, ‘me’ of us all.
we are yet holding one another’s attention, of what is the awakened divine child reaching out our hand to one another like we do, are we not?
i constantly need your assured respect, just as i know you too need my assured pure love respect, just as all the divine children of God constantly seek and need the wise nurturing awakening protective wisdom shield, of what is the subconsious divine child asleep/awake submerged/emerging into cognitive awake cognitive awareness of the blessed pure love feelings we feel like we all do, of what is the day you see/feel the Light(wisdom halo shield/door) of ‘real’ self rejoicing in the kingdom of heaven’s love devoid of doubt fully awake wisdom descerning of all truth, where it is our feelings which wisely descerns the existence of the generational deluge of ignorance bitter destracting oppressive supressing destruction of the blessed pure constantly loving spirit of the divine child of us all, is it not?
am i some kind of joke to you?
then why do you mock our friendship?
i find you annoying at times, if you must know.
i have had enough of the scattered mentalities of so many along life’s road to last thru all eternity, truly grown sick of it, vomiting like i do.
~
reflecting back to my first day in a gay/lesbian bar back in 1993, when i Troy was still alive, of us both coming to terms with our homosexuality, stuggling so painfully of each waking day to the homophobic destructive fear which gripped our loving spirits of true love for one another, i entered a sorta doorway into awareness of my divine child of God ‘real’ self while standing there with my (true) loving brothers and sisters, family.
what i became fully awakened in awareness of, was how every breath, every heartbeat, every step, of every passing second i was in feeling for the first time a room full of my loving homosexual brothers and sisters, where i was feeling their every kiss with one another, so openly, every hand holding, every hug, constantly there in the blessed feeling of knowing i belong here with them, of their looking apon me new face, knowing i was timid, so afraid and gripped by the bullshit homophobic fear that gripped my like they knew still had it’s hold on me.
i made it out alive, as a result of you, and all the loving homosexual brothers and sisters of that first day, and every day since, of what is constantly of our every step, every breath, every heartbeat, of every blessed day we wake to, ok?
Troy did not.
If we trivialize our blessed friendship, then we are being forgetful of who we constantly are and always will be, family.
i have reached in purity of my life experience to you in wanting to be along side you in life, just as that kid which called Harvey from out of the blue, of his life experience suicidal feelings like he did, where i know, i too am that same blessed loving child.
Harvey knew the truth of what was and constantly is yet happening to so many of our precious loving brothers and sisters in life each blessed step, breath, heartbeat of their blessed life each blessed day we wake to, where if we don’t do away with this trivial nonsense conversations, then who are we hurting besides ourselves?
our family depends on us both, on every blessed one of us of the Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual, Transexual/gendered worldwide community.
i was hoping to get my horses for this pride, and still, i am disrespected by the yet no response, and this is all fucking toxic bullshit for me to feel, ok, not real, where i am trying to hold onto my ‘real’ life, and the ‘real’ life of so many of our loving brothers and sisters.
if i don’t demand respect, then this motherfucking world is going to keep doing what it does with so many of our loving brothers and sisters daily, bashing us to death.
Harvey lived and breathed every blessed day he woke to pushing and holding back the death walls of destruction like he did, only to be killed by the crushing walls of destruction.
my God, my God, don’t you know who i am, who you are, who we all are?
family!
i need those fucking horses damn it! lol
i constantly love you, and you know i do.
i want our friendship to become the purity of family, and if you don’t have time for me, well, try to imagine how that would feel if i did that to you.
this bullshit hurts, and is toxic for me, and i don’t want to do this anymore.
i want ‘real’ life with you, and you are so fearless, which is confusing to me, of why you remain standoffish with a pure loving soul of the family like you do, making me feel like i don’t belong at times.
this immaturity has to stop, and it stops today, as i turn towards our respectful wise concern for so many of our loving brothers and sisters in harms way of the generational deluge of destruction which sweeps their precious souls away into death like it does.
Every step, every breath, every heartbeath, every word, WE ARE CONSTANTLY LIFE and DEATH every blessed day we wake to.
God bless Harvey Milk.
I was that child you reached out for Harvey, and you reached all the way out to my life here in Ontario way back in 1991!
Thank you Harvey!
Thank you Sean!
God bless you
Last night a young friend of mine of only 18, sat and watched the film MILK, as i watched him awaken and connect just as i did that first day in a gay club.
That’s who we constantly are!
motherfucking family, every blessed day we wake to, and i am not taking any more shit from any of you! lol
i love you
you know i do
i want to love you more in ‘real’ life of where i constantly am, in real life with my true family of loving brothers and sisters of the LGBT worldwide community.
God constantly blesses us ALL
so do i get my horses or not?
sorry, have not had my second cup coffee yet………Biyatch!!!!!!!!!!!!!
fuck, i can barely pay my fucking rent this month, in trying to motivate others to make things happen in real life this pride.
i am done with disrespect.
argh!
LIFE and DEATH
constantly at all times!
every step
every heartbeat
every breath
every word
every blessed day
every precious child of God
there is alot i have yet to elaborate on the door to the kingdom of heaven which i have found, just as Jesus 100% knew is the kingdom of heaven wise persepective doorway of constant flowing love devoid of all the useless motherfucking doubt in this bullshit fucked world!
COFFEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
where’s my fucking coffee Biyatch!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BOOTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i need my boots back Biyatch!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol
hey, i love you!
every day i feel the pure true loving feelings i feel for you like i do.
i am i a difficult place in life right now, emotionally, financially, and somedays it feels like you don’t give a fuck, wondering when you are going to stand in front of me as a ‘real’ life friend! I mean i feel your love for me, but it is abstracted, fractured, eskewed in so many annoying ways for me, as i realize the transference in your own life which has come between you and family.
what the fuck is going on with you any way Biyatch!
another fucking year out here in the harsh cold world, of my scratching away at motivation others to get involved like i do, trying to pay for those motherfucking boots i can’t afford………….FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol
i sware to God this year i am done trying to convince we have a true friendship, so either get with me, or go be fucking annoying with someone else, ok? FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol
(andy kicks the garbage can so hard it leaves a permanent dent in it) lol
sorry………..i really am in a bad situation right now, in so many ways. If i don’t fight back and claw may way out of this deluge, then my spirit is at risk of falling.
i am not going to fall, no matter what any bullshit any of you toss my way. I will toss it back. That you can all count on.
i have to go………..i can only afford an hour or so a day here, and this week, i can’t even afford that…………oh wait, the library, they do have free internet access there.
resource is my middle name.
i am lesbian
i am gay
i am bisexual
i am transgender
i am female male
i am love
argh………..fuck………….round and round this fucking merry go round, stop, i am going to puke………
how about some motherfucking clarity, shall we?!!!!
fucking annoying subtle unaddressed assertiveness transference is what is between us, of what is of every second of the film MILK, of the ‘real’ life of Harvey Milk who was murdered by a (supposed) closeted homosexual(according to the film MILK, not sure of this truth about the insightfulness of the ‘real’ life Harvey Milk, as to his constituant that shot and killed him, plausible). What an beautiful film MILK is, blessed of God, the candle light vigil so overwhelming the first time i saw the ‘real’ pictures of it that made me cry, and still does.
ok, i am going to end this absurd nonsense of unreality abstract today, as unreality uncertainty suptle transferences i feel in sticking my head out from the LGBT ghetto life of twenty years now, for any of you to kick me in the head like so many do of me in my daily life here, and in my ‘real’ life, so toxic for anyone to feel like i continue to feel.
i’m truly sick and tired of it everyone, and so i am going to take time this day to express openly exactly who i am right now in this moment.
I AM who i 100% know i am, a transgender bisexual who loves both male and female equally 100%, and i do not opinions of any of you of what is firmly established already in my own fucking head of who i constantly AM and will be in the days, months, years to come, 100% just as Harvey Milk 100% constantly KNEW, that of the truth of himself, and compassionately of years and years and years of exploration of that which he and i, like so many of us veterans take time to do, exploration of your own ‘real’ self of many of you we suspect are unknowingly closeted.
how this pertains to any of you reading this, is your business, not mine, nor anyone elses, of what is merely my speaking openly like i am, just as Harvey constantly did.
i am a veteran of the worldwide LGBT community, a member of this extended family, of every soul i have met and came to know and love like i do of everyone i come to meet, including those of the unknowingly unwise heterosexual unwise world, just as Harvey did, knowing the vital imporance of coming out fully to everyone we know, for sake of others to be able to truly embrace and accept us, of Harvey’s perspective that this is one way to reach those in grave danger……….we know those who are there in isolation, closeted, afraid, of dangerous toxic secretiveness, oppressed into thinking they are sinners possed by evil fucking spirits according to some of the fucking religious jackasses out there, which contributes to the unwise suicide death of so many of our loving brothers and sisters.
the battle Harvey fought, as express in MILK, does not fucking end everyone, and if some of you want to stand along the side lines and mockingly joke about us, instead of embracing the grave danger some of us are in, well, as a veteran, i am going to kicking your ass, ok.
i fucking see it every where i go daily, and i get so fucking upset by it all, everything from the heartless aimless fucking idiots who deal drugs to our self-medicating dangerously suicidal brothers and sisters who contribute to their suicide deaths, to the bashing we experience in our work places daily, to our rights being questioned constantly by you fucking right wing opportunist merchants of God, and i am here to fight back with the most powerful weapon in God’s armory………TRUTH!
Just as Harvey did, i too will not spare any of you the bright Light of TRUTH!
so what of all your standoffishness with me in accepting ‘real’ life ‘me’, an open transgender bisexual?
well, females, once they know i have lived a gay lifestyle, almost always toss me to the side as some freak.
fine.
weak.
their shit, not mine.
people think i am some deviant sex pervert, and i feel their unspoken words of silent standoffishness all the time, from my biological family, to my professional family, and even some of you of my extended family who label yourselves as gay or lesbian, who think bisexuality is some kind of confusion closetedness.
well, i am not fucking closeted confused about transgender bisexuality ‘me’ everyone, and if twenty years of my own personal research in self awareness of my gay lifestyle does not dispell your uncertainty, then who’s shit is it?
not mine.
i am not even looking for sex in seeking a life partner!
no
i start with how purely accepting and loving one is with me in ‘real’ life, where if i don’t feel loved by them, i move on.
i have waited for so many of you to love me along life’s road all these years, and in truth, none of you surrendered to 100% loving me as a ‘real’ life best friend always there for me, much less a loving lover, of where i yet am in seeking, a true loving lover best friend, of which i have held the door open inviting some of you to come to my ‘real’ life to explore.
oh, no, i am not good enough for you to take time out, a day, an hour, to sit and hold my hand in a coffee shop, of how standoffishness feels to me of so many of you i invite like i do.
how do you think this feels to me?
honestly?
fucking bullshit, ok?
am i some nut case or something?
you make me feel like i am, and then when i go to walk away, i get this, oh, i have moved on.
well, tell me what the fuck am i supposed to do, sit in isolation and not get my fucking needs meet, and slowly become of dangerous suicidal feelings?
i’m done with it, ok?
and so would any one of you who truly walk in my shoes.
of recent, of my own ongoing therapy, i have come to a place where i realized i need genuine sincere ‘real’ life contact with loving ‘real’ life holding hands of another, and walk away from those who are not sincerely interested in me, where for whatever reasons you chose not to, it is not of me that you did not, it is of the transference of this fucked world in you, of what is the standoffish harsh experience i have been feeling all this time, as though some freak, gradually becoming weaker and weaker, and still, sadly no one there.
i have to go to save my own life, ok?!!
i leave the door open for any and all to sincerely approach me in ‘real’ life, and i am not going to hold my breath for any one to do so……….too toxic to entertain in my mind, of what is not my shit.
want to know my current ‘real’ life situation?
well, i spent my fucking rent money, self-medicating myself in seeking new friends in the ghetto, something we homosexual pervets tend to alot, landing on each others sofa over and over again like we do.
my shit.
and why?
well, self-medicating is still something that snares me occasionally everyone.
fortunately, i am always less concerned of my own life each time i hit the ghetto, hooking up with who ever is there, knowing they too need a hand to hold, where i know without doubt, my every step, however reckless at times, is of God, where the other night, the two of us danced down the middle of the fucking street, drunk and silly, stopping in the middle of the intersection, where we hugged and kissed in the middle of the honking cars wiping by, giving the motherfucking finger like we always do! lol
i don’t know where my feet are going to land as we speak, and i don’t really fucking care somedays, where i always wake up each blessed day, my loving brothers and sisters constantly there like we are, and always will be, surviving in the heartless motherfucking ignorant world that continues to treat us like shit, knowing, it is not ever our shit.
nope!
not now, not ever.
either love us, or don’t, where we always do, even compassionately so of those who don’t.
why is it so many of you wake up often too late like you do, of your own children hurting themselves in your lacking acceptance?
ignorance, that’s why.
take time to hold the hand of one the family today, ok, and ponder your own sincerity of love for me, if you cannot with me in ‘real’ life, for i am constantly loving of many, knowing what Harvey always knew, the TRUTH.
blessings to all
i’ve always wanted to live in San Fransisco. Will give it some serious consideration, and maybe get on the one way bust ticket again.
while searching for yet another excuse not to hold my hand in ‘real’ life, why not just ask the question, “Do you or do you not want to ever meet Andy?”
and then take a moment to tell your answer, yes or no, so i can let go and look forward to someone who does.
which is the only thing i want to hear from you apon my return to this blog.
if you held my hand in real life, you would more sincerely respectful of me of your every word, and that truth lends it’s self to my questioning, “why bother coming back here to this blog that is of the yet toxic transferences from the fucked world for me?”
my therapist says i reached out to ‘delusional’ because of my yet unhealed anquish over Troy’s suicide.
ha, Andy’s delusional?
think again everyone, of who is more genuine true in self-awareness true to self.
so hold my hand in ‘real’ life, or i am going to go somewhere else for sincerity, where in truth, i have already left this blog, tired of it.
it’s your life.
it’s my life.
it could be our life.
i don’t ever close the door.
so who or what does?
generational snaring deluge of ignorance that continues to sweep away our loving brothers and sisters into death, is it not?
take me seriously, and in doing so, you take your own ‘real’ self seriously.
ya, i have minor issues of self-medication, but at least i am in therapy for it.
anyway, i am all ranted out and emotional drained exhausted from it all now, and basically tired of being here at this blog, of my how long of my request for ‘real’ life with you?
ya, my shit.
whatever
it was not making a joke,
i’m not that insensitive
oh, and calling someone a looser is not insensitive?
derogatory hurtful untruth
saying that of someone is what?
unwise and untrue mockery words of the precious divine child from the womb of God.
there is no such thing as a looser, and anyone who thinks and says that of another is of what is the losing breaking eskewing interupt of the constant love devoid of doubt between the true ‘real’ self divine child within, within another, of what heaven constantly is, sadly not fully of the internalized halo perspective wisdom meant for the divine child, of what is God’s divine will that the divine child of us all come fully into awareness understanding of what true self-wisdom is……….nurturing awakening protection halo from the yet unwise dangerous generational snarings that exist in the world.
if we do not fully embrace each day as though it is our last, of what is constant awareness of our divine child that every heartbeat, every breath, every step, every word of every blessed day matters as regards the breaking of the generation deluge of ignorance chains, then we are of participating in what is the sweeping away of our precious loving brothers and sisters into death.
you say wake up today, not tomorrow, as though you know what being fully awake means.
God says not to speak of things you do not yet know.
do you understand the meaning of these words of God?
if we plod along spuing of undescerning words from the generational deluge, mascarading as though we are wise in the eyes of another divine child looking on who hears such harmful words like looser, then we have contributed to the bind in dark captivity the divine child may yet be held in, have we not?
do you not take serious the existence of the dangerous generational deluge?
what of the future of your own children who may one day become snared by the dark ignorant destructive forces of the generational deluge?
ya, sure, i felt the name calling ‘looser’ momentarily, and then descerned it as that of immature annoyance not true of the divine child who either utters such, nor true of the divine child utter to.
insincere lacking of descerning concern, and a waste of precious time.
so if not today, when?
after it is too late for yet another divine child’s life?
constant compassion for those snared by dangerous generational falsehoods, is constantly of the divine child’s self-knowledge wisdom awareness which breaks the chains of dangerous oppression that bind the precious loving souls the divine child constantly loves.
i am speaking merely of constructive wise critisms as regard any untruth truth which prevents the divine child from dwelling fully(evolving internalizing) in the wise protective halo wisdom conducive environment for thriving and growing of genuine happiness of the divine child of us all…………..the doorway to the kingdom of heaven(wisdom of God perspective).
these are not my words, they are words of Jesus my brother taught by God, who teaches us daily the divine truth, for sake of bring an end to the dangerous generational deluge.
suck it up Biyatch! lol
argh, we would just drive each other fucking crazy if we got together!
so what, i am a looser for not wanting to stay interested in wait around for her to finish exploring other potential partners, which leaves me feeling what you want me to feel like, a looser?
Biyatch!
excuse me, while attend to another.
hey, before you speak, be descerning consideration of others who may be looking/feeling on, and don’t be knocking my words of the Light(wisdom) of*from*for the divine child of God ‘real’ self of us all, and be thankful i take precious time with you as a wise helmsman.
thank you Jesus
hmmm………i think i WILL just let Jesus speak from now on. He is purely wise in a gracefully CONSTANTLY of wise offering wisdom concern for the divine child, is he not?
something huge is coming……………..
Jesus is my best true and faithful friend
forever more
hey, are you going to get ‘real’ with us in Pride participation in ‘real’ life?
like Harvey said, “You don’t realize how rediculously unwise some of you sound in our current times.”
well ok, not exactly those words verbatim, but the same meaning Biyatch!
and remember, at all times our every step, breath, heartbeat, and words every blessed day are constantly of LIFE and DEATH consideration, or not of consideration.
therefore BE of your divine child’s blessed pure wise wisdom descerning who is constantly of yearning for the flow of love devoid of doubt, of what is HEAVEN for the divine child of us all to constantly feel.
if i was walking in Pride, would you come up to me and call me a looser?
or how about calling my precious loving friend who fearlessly walks beside me a looser, his first Pride march?
that is what i love about the film MILK, the cutting thru the revealing of the constant truth Harvey and others battled daily in bringing forth the awareness of the existence of the dangerous generation deluge of ignorant destruction that stems from the unwise merchants of God.
Jesus is the TRUTH WISDOM HALO DOOR of the divine child of God, and i am 100% certain, i have something to say from the wise understanding perspective thru the eyes and lips of Jesus, to this yet unwise world of all the unwise untrue destructive forces which bind the divine child of God in dark painful captivities…………………the TRUTH of what is the divine child of God you, meant for the divine child of us ALL to fully come into awareness of.
The objective is thriving growth genuine happiness of the divine child who becomes free from the binding ignorance darknesses by means of wise truth which sets us free.
so when are you going to take my life seriously to heart, and stop mocking ‘me’ as though some delusional joke, after more of our loving brothers and sisters die?
13 more will take their own lives today, and still, you do not have give consideration to my ‘real’ life requests openly of ‘real’ life communication like i am at all times in my life here in the LBGT getto community of Toronto.
perhaps i should go waste my time with those who listen to my empowering words who i need to get involved.
i feel insulted daily in your not being ‘real’ with me, as though i am not worthy.
i truly have had enough, and wish to leave, and so would anyone, including you, if you were treated as though your words meant nothing, of what is your no reply inconsideration.
do you or do you not want to participate?
yes or no?
planning phase is underway here in Toronto
blessings to all
oh, one more thing, go up to Jesus on the cross and call him a looser, and wait quietly for the revealing truth of who the looser really is.
you want sincerity, i give you God’s sincerity meant for you, the divine child of God.
yes or no?
oh sorry, i forgot, you said you don’t believe in gay marriage.
in other words you are of the fractured untrue unknowingly unwise perspective of the right wing merchants of God Jesus warns about.
never mind
hmm…….should i get 30B or 30C breast size?
clearly, i am done with unreality.
i mean, what is the point of caring on with someone who has no consideration in BEing REAL with ‘me’?
as in, “Oh hey Andy, i love your ideas for Pride!”
if i treated you the way you treat me, you would be so totally insulted.
well, i leave all insult to injury behind me on the path of true life.
inexcusable, ok?
you people and your insincerity mascarading as though sincere…………not realizing how not current you are in so many ways.
either accept me, a transgender bisexual, or don’t, where others will and do.
your shit, not mine.
i agree, “How about today, as in the last fucking day i am going to allow myself to be tolerant of your insincerity in BEing fucking real with ‘me’, surprized my patience of Jesus has lasted this long.”
oh yeah, i forgot, Jesus is eternal patience of eternal TRUTH of all you who spit apon him like you do, of the TRUTH, the world is the cross for so many of our loving brothers and sisters of the worldwide LGBT community every blessed day, unto those you do, you do unto ‘me’.
13 more will die tomorrow, because of all those who hesitate to embrace our loving brothers and sisters held in dark ignorance captivities of silence = death
i don’t get it, i mean your best friend Keith embraced silence = death, which confuses me why you are silent with me in your not BEing ‘real’ with me, clearly toxic for me.
you don’t accept me?
you accept our loving family and not me?
oh, Madonna has to be careful not to be so OUT and LOUD?
you know what, a single moment of hearing the words from Madonna, “It’s ok to be gay?” is able to save a life, where not saying these words, we lose a life.
so yes, or no to participation in Toronto Pride?
i am not going to ask again
blessings to all
need each other ? uhm, or want each other ?, never been able to work that one out,
same difference really…
you don’t accept that I DO accept you..
that’s the problem,,
one other thing… don’t always take it for granted that i am refering to you when i blog about people in genral, because i’m not.. it’s not always about you. you know.. if i am going to critisize you, (& i’m not likely to anytime soon) then trust me you’ll know about it.. i’m not that subtle…..
that’s a yes . lol
yes yes yes ..
yes i’m reffering to YOU !
Congrats Louise on your upcoming adoption of Mercy.. If you don’t activate this crazy blog again.. will you pls redirect us to facebook or something?
Love light and blessings,
Butterfly
hey you..
on a serious note … look i feel like if I take a wrong turn, or piss you off in the slightest, then it’s over like you’ll ditch me for the closest ditch..
& I’m too strong & I’ve lived too much to waste my time with that lower level of evolution/maturity.,,,, but hey i ‘m sure id react the same way.. im your twin soul after all , i know that aling with yours as well hey i don’t wanna be just a another ALREADY.. & mAYBE i’d enjoy munching on your carpet I’ve never been an artefact man myself, but i do know true love when i feel it, & hell yer i know you love me,
it’s about escaping from my baggage 20yrs of it and yours as well.
Look it’s unconditional friendship. love ship. comradeship, what ever you want from me it’s your’
s ill give that to you.. it’s all yours .
i don;t want a lecture, i don;t want a fracture, i dont’ want money I don’t want a honey…
I WANT A FRIEND
MOST OF ALL..
I WANT A CUDDLE !!!!!!!
lol
bless you
could not of said it better myself!
ya, you are correct, we want and need the same thing.
professionally speaking, as you know, we have to address our wants and needs as to what degree our needs are getting met on a regular consistant basis, where things like cuddling(touching) is one of our needs in maintaining our positive mental emotional sexual well BEing.
the wants of our child within true ‘real’ self(who we always were and yet are) can easily be felt when ever we sit long enough to feel what our child within wants, in asking what we want.
we have to give our child within an opportunity permission to feel what we truly want, and when we do, that special bubbling feeling comes up, like we felt as a child, when ever we let ourselves out to play in getting what we want. I know you know this one well, considering your lifestyle of many years that is beyond the scope of most of us working class stiffs.
i want you to know that i am honored and feel previliged to have your friendship that i place at the same value i have in my friendship with Jesus and God.
i do know you are more pure of heart than most know, more than i know actually, where i am deliberate in slowing like i do, of the pure of heart of my own child within ‘real’ self who is the one who is connecting with your pure of heart child within ‘real’ self.
we are all who we are in each waking day, according to how our life has been, and the degree of responsibility ownership in addressing and ensuring the positive physical, mental, emotional, sexual, spiritual well being of our child of God within true ‘real’ self, and everyone is at a different place in this regard accordingly, while at the same time, we are all the same in the eyes of Jesus and God who’s divine WILL is for sake of the divine child of God true ‘real’ self come fully into the genuine sincere purity wisdom halo of nurturing awakening wise protection, of what is the most conducive environment for the divine child’s happiness to thrive and grow in.
i have been overlaying the findings of the words of Jesus as it relates to the findings in psychology for some twenty years now, and i am the wise evolving pure of heart child within true ‘real’ self who is writting to you daily of my sincere concern for my ‘real’ SELF, and in so doing, concern for your ‘real’ SELF, everyone’s ‘real’ SELF child of God within.
at times, especially lately, i am of obvious faultering of my mental emotional stability, in reaching out to you, what with my rantings like i do, and you do, we all do, which i think is healthy, as it is giving permission to our child within to express and feel whatever it is we are going thru, of what we all have to go thru and let go of all this junk you refer to.
our child within does have a pure of heart bond which is not able to fail, where it is just the junk transferences from the outside world, our needs getting met, not getting met, which manifests itself like it does from time to time, what with obvious unresolved issues that do manifest itself like it does.
these manifestations are indicative of the degree of healing of past issues, and the extent to which our needs are getting met.
as a friend, it is wrong of me to impose myself apon you in seeking the issue of getting my needs met with you, considering i am a stranger in life along life’s road, who may or may not be your type, and what with the unrealistic expectation of me in your accepting comfort level of my transgender bisexuality of a gayboy bottom of twenty years, ya, i too would hesitate too.
we have not spoken of the degree in which you accept the truth of my transgender bisexuality, and yet, i feel you do, what with the bathhouse videos and the gayboys there, you laughing behind them, me standing there, for sure, i know you do 100% accept me in this obvious light i see and feel the TRUTH of you, of what is societies tabooness that keeps us apart like it does, what with your career considerations and what not.
there are more serious considerations you address in life as regards the serious life threatening situations of the children in Africa, and i don’t feel right in asking you for anything, where i know every single dollar is of vital importance for these blessed children of God, where of God, i cannot ask even for a dollar from you, knowing the inconsideration of these blessed children who need you, need us all, so i don’t ask, albeit, lately i have been embracing the serious life threatening issues of our loving brothers and sisters in the worldwide LGBT community.
i do not have resources like you do in addressing the financial considerations of the children in Africa, albeit i do sponsor a child of God in South America. My other foot is participation with the LGBT community who do need us, and yet, i feel the children of Africa are of greater need in life, where life threatening starvation outweighs the LGBT needs, where our countries are of great resources for any to network with, and the dangers are not as great as they used to be, with the advent of everyone having internet access, our television programing that is opening the closet door for us now, more so than before, and films like MILK.
once again, thank you Harvey and Sean, and all those involved in a truly needed film like MILK. Truly, the best film i have ever seen and felt like i am yet feeling, a film i know i will see time and time again, a timeless masterpiece like Boys Don’t Cry. God bless you
i could not sleep last night, hoping and praying my words were not too strong and bitter with you, in my returning here seeking the truth of the pure of heart feelings of my child within true ‘real’ self, and what a blessing to see and feel you shining so brightly as your ‘real’ self which is evolving along side me, out of the muck of our past dysfunctional life.
i know without doubt the hand i extend for you to hold, is not able to be retracted, not ever, and there is pure of heart understanding wisdom as to why this is, from the blessed pure of heart perspective of Jesus and God.
no matter how upset i may ever get of any blessed day i wake to, the TRUTH of our pure of heart divine child of God within us all, is that we ARE CONSTANTLY of the yearning to FEEL LOVE at all times.
i teach this to many struggling gays and lesbians i meet, taking time with them in quiet at ease environments, where i introduce and awaken them to their divine child within, in a pure knowing way of the same way of experiential techniques i too have utilized in doing so, such as sitting quietly in at ease meditation of hands clasped tightly, where one can feel the constant yearning aspect the divine child within, who IS the one clasping of hands tightly.
so many i have startled awake, of exceeding joyfulness of them awakening before my smiling face who knows who they truly are in the eyes of Jesus and God, of what was of the approach Jesus was of with everyone he met, like the blind man who connected with the pure of heart genuine sincerity of the voice of Jesus he heard speaking, where Jesus knew his tone of his own voice, graceful and true, connected and resonated in sameness oneness of the blind man who recognized him, the divine child of God Jesus, the divine child of God within YOU!
this is what is of the understanding eluding mystery of Jesus which has been overlooked in religious circles, that Jesus is the evolved divine child older brother, wise of who we all truly are, the divine child of God within.
thanks to the fearful fear mongering of the merchants of God, this eluding mystery continued, where fear is a dynamic of group mentality that stiffles the growth of required macro thinking wisdom that a divine child is capable of coming fully into what is of the incredible place where i dwell, in the eternal realm kingdom of heaven with Jesus, my true and faithful best friend in life, beyond any other i have met or shall ever meet, although i do esteem your pure of heart love, oneness sameness as my own, of what is our oneness sameness of Jesus and God, where no one truly 100% knows God, nor shall anyone until such a time of God’s chosing.
well, as crazy as this may sound, and i don’t like to say this too often, knowing most would throw stones at me, God chose ‘me’, because i 100% chose God as the most wise to turn to in life, where it was my experiences of the horridness vile darkness of the binding generational deluge of ignorant destruction i experienced that saw me running fearfully away from this world, taking refuge with Jesus and God for the past twenty years, destruction which saw the death of my beloved lover Troy. Truly, such experience leaves a soul shattered, and humbled apon their knees before Jesus and God, where attempts to evade the truths of our own egotisms, is not possible, in the eternal light of the truth that is there, yes, my ego was cause for Troy’s suicide, where only Jesus and God and Troy are able to forgive me, and i know, they do.
Jesus says to me, “It is not your fault Andy, as you too were unknowingly snared by the generational deluge at the time, just as Troy was, both of you battling in struggle with our substance abuse self-medicating coping with our internal homophobia.”
i knew Troy’s spirit, which did not want to die, a most joyful loving spirit like my own, where it was the 18 bottles of beer which impaired his ability to think rationally, in his moment of impulse irrational emotional depressed sad hurt thinking feeling, in taking his own life like he did, knowing Troy loved life, where he would ask me for forgiveness, if given the chance to do so.
Troy died as a result of the claws of the beast of ignorance generational deluge that gripped him and i tightly at the time, what with the merchants of God church calling us evil sinners at the time, and his own father threatening my life if ever he found out i was having sex with his son.
ya, my life hit the wall when Troy died, where i fell to my knees where i am still kneeling beside Troy’s lifeless body, beneath the cross of Jesus above us, asking Jesus and God for understanding all these years like i have been doing, feeling the depths of my soul, the depths of Jesus’ soul like my own, of what is the truth of Jesus, that we need to look not apon our faith in Jesus, and rather apon the evolved wise macro thinking knowingness faith Jesus has in us all, where we are all capable of coming fully into the wise macro thinking wisdom of Jesus and God in the kingdom of heaven all around us at all times.
Jesus says, “What you look for has already come!”
What our divine child constantly seeks is the wisdom of God, intuitively, subconsciously, and the PURE TRUTH awareness of this, is what it is that we feel while alone with tightly clasped hands, the TRUTH of the constant yearning aspect to feel love at all times of our divine child within, which does not ever change, not able to change, no matter what anyone unwisely ever says or does along life’s road till our last day.
this is what is of our connection, of what is my on going researching in opening the door to the kingdom of heaven.
i know without doubt that i have found the door to the kingdom of heaven, no matter what any of you ever say, and i do stand beside Jesus in the oneness sameness of his soul and mine, and this is what has been my path thus far, extensively so, and i know without doubt, i am bound for the kingdom of heaven, where no one shall be able to ever come between Jesus and ‘me’, of God’s divine will for Jesus as my best friend who i have need, that Jesus and God know, indeed, i do need the wisdom of Jesus and God, because of the impact of life i have experienced.
i know without doubt, it is my research in finding the kingdom of heaven which is of the only value of my life, the words i leave behind for the unborn children yet to come, just as Jesus did.
there is more going on than most realize, as regards the existence of the spirit realm, which is a taboo subject labeled ‘delusional’ by the mental health professionals.
i have been aware of their tabooness of such for along time, way back when my research began, where i was afraid of being institutionalized should they ever hear of my words i think and feel. I eventually overcame this fear as i probed further into the existence of the spirit realm, until such a time of extended stay there, i came fully into awareness knowingness certainty experience, yes, the eternal spirit realm does exist, and is only revealed fearlessly by God to those who sincerely genuinely turn towards the pure of heart purity of the divine child of God’s pure feelings, who is able to peer into it, devoid of egotistic desire to boastfully go before the world in exclaiming such, where coming fully into the awareness of such, is what is entering fully into the door of the kingdom of heaven protective wisdom halo omnipotent perspective of God’s divine will for the divine child, and this is what Jesus came fully into awareness knowingness understanding that God revealed to him, and is revealing to me as well, where there is no soul apon the earth who is ever able to bring destruction to the pure of heart divine child of God who enters into the protective halo comprehension, because the halo construct is comprised only of pure truth wisdom that has no fracturedness to it as regards the divine trueness aspects of the constantly loving divine child who is eternally unceasing of love devoid of doubt of what HEAVEN constantly IS.
intuitively, subconsciously, the divine child within us all, is seeking this wisdom, and Jesus knew this of us all. As i have said before, of Jesus in the desert(meditative state of BEing away from the toxic unwise world of the generational deluge of ignorant destructiveness), Jesus came into knowingness of wisdom truth of himself, and in so doing, realized fully 100% the TRUTH, “If this is true of ‘me’, then it is true of all.” (common sense, yes?)
bless you bless you bless you Jesus
currently i am coming free of toxic others of my past in life, and have taken full ownership of my irresponsible approach to maintaining my own postive physical, mental, emotional, sexual, spiritual well being, more so than any other time before in life.
i do not weigh anything of greater value than this in life, such as materialism, where indeed, you and i know the truth, there is no greater value than the well being of the divine child of God within.
we both are of growing wisdom in this, of what is the pure of heart connectedness of the holding of hands of our divine child within, which we both know 100%, they don’t want to let go, nor will they.
i am thankful of you most in life, in your assisting my battered and bruised self like you do, where assurance of “Im ok, your ok” is all either of us needs to hear from time to time.
i don’t want to impose on your life, truly i don’t, but if you do want a ‘real’ life experience friendship, then please do, as i could grow healthy if you do. I don’t expect more than a friendship with you, even though i would like an opportunity to explore more than a friendship. There are yet issues of substance abuse concern for both of us, and left unchecked, well, even our friendship will become threatened and strained.
i asked my therapist if she believed in moderation?
it is an individual thing she said, where if i realize i am most comfortable with those of abstinance, than that is what is suitable for me, and likewise of a future partner of me for them.
birds of a feather.
i do have a serious problem with alcohol, where it is too dangerous for me to entertain having it in my life, given the dangerous emotional impactful events in my life, which eb and flow in emotional intensity sensitivity to slightness of triggers, where without alcohol, i am able to be more stable, of less sensitivity, and in truth, i do enjoy sobriety more so, because of the focused level i appreciate like i do of my macro thinking study research, which is where i spend most of my time dwelling as my ‘real’ self, at ease in the wisdom halo perspective of the kingdom of heaven all around us.
bless you
sometimes i do like to cut loose, 5-10 times a year so far, since Troy died in 1993.
but daily use, no way.
i am back to my 10km biking again, and it feels so good physically.
if i had one prayer in life to pray as my last prayer, it would be to meet you and hold your hand.
i am healthier than most, and you would eventually come into cognitive awareness of this in real life, should you give me the opportunity to be a real life friend.
i can understand your precaution, should you decide not to.
i have alot of work yet here with my professionals, of my on going recovery work.
when we do not take full ownership responsibility of OUR LIFE, then we are not able to recover.
and statistical data points conclusively to the truth of this, where an estimated 8% do recover from substance abuse, a prognosis of poor to nil, that does not change during the first five years of commitment to a full recovery program.
as you said, we are complex, far more complex than most people are aware of cognitively, of their lacking appreciation of just how incredibly complex we really are.
to each their own, but do pay heed to one who takes time to offer you advice, as a true and faithful friend, my research in statistical case data, has found that those who entertain substance use self-medication of their emotions, do statistically progressively become chronic users, where there are serious psychosis that comes with chronic use.
i prefer the at ease health ‘real’ self feeling which is exactly how i felt at age 15 before any substance use.
i was not into substance use much beyond mere recreational use, where any time i did, it was always of celebratory gathering, and not sitting at home alone using. I seldom ever drank alcohol alone, and when i did, i noticed the depression effects of alcohol, where medically speaking, alcohol is listed as a depressant in the medical books.
someone who is emotionally depressed of past issues, the worse thing you can do, is reach for a depressant…………dangerously so. Take my word on this, i know what suicidal feeling feels like after consuming too much depressant.
i want fun joyful loving exciting life of outdoor healthy adventure, which is part of what i feel would be a real life friendship with you.
i can teach you downhill skiing, under a full moon, which i know you would love so friggin much, you would wonder like i did, “Why did i not do this before?”
or perhaps you have.
so ya, please do give serious consideration to an adventurous ‘real’ life friendship, if you are thinking of doing so.
perhaps my participation in life will bring you clear into where i am, of infrequent substance use, which is something i would give you a hard time with, where it is my own distancing away from such, that i discovered how incredible one can reconnect with in feeling, of our youth, pure and true, so joyful at ease, and so my giving you a hard time, is for sake of you feeling better than you do now.
if i am speculating, forgive me, as i don’t truly know the extent of your substance use.
beyond that is the consideration of influence on impressionable others in our lives, who in God’s eyes, Jesus says, “Cast alcohol out of God’s house of love and peace!”
i know the blessed graceful purity of feeling of not allowing alcohol in God’s house of love and peace where i dwell, where we all dwell, the entire world that is God’s house of love and peace, still stiffled by the haphazard unwisenesses that continue to be taught, of bad endings the reveal the truth to those thinking they are wise in the socially accepted norm of substance use.
the truth is two fold, both of hazard, and of the better feelings of graceful at ease divine child of God true ‘real’ self in which to dwell.
have you noticed how more genuine your oneness sameness connectedness with your children is, when you are of distance from alcohol use?
when your divine child ‘real’ self is of the same health as your own children, the true connectedness is able to thrive and grow in natural occuring happiness of the divine child of God.
blessings to all
you don’t accept that I DO accept you..
that’s the problem,,
~
well, ok, you accept ‘me’, but to what capacity as a transgender bisexual?
abit vague, so let ‘me’ eloborate………
firstly, i do feel 100% female, and therefore i am sexual behaviour of a female, to the degree i have no hesitation in getting breasts, although the sex change is not something i want to do, for reasons i have expressed before, where obvious is my sexual enjoy of being with a male, which would require a female to fully accept in pleasuring me………..not sure if your acceptance includes this.
secondly, i do feel 100% male, and therefore i am of sexual behaviour of a male, to the degree that i am happy sexually with a female or a gayboy bottom, both of which are i am equally able to love and do the same.
The compromize of being with a female where my male sexual behaviour enjoyment is of consideration, is for sure A+ at the top of my list, but only if the female is of role playing like that of my twenty year gayboy bottom lifestyle.
i don’t expect to find many females in life who are into this to the comfort level i am accustom to, of what is unrealistic expectation at this evolutionary cross road time and place, and so i have stopped looking, although not entirely, always there in the back of my mind it shall always BE.
look, i am a fearless exceedingly joyful gayboy bottom girl, and if you want to love me in this capacity, your clarity of such has to start with your self first, secondly in expressing that you are with ‘me’.
you say yes yes yes to what?
you say i want to cuddle.
every divine child wants this, where you do not express exactly with who you want to cuddle.
i don’t want to entertain going down the garden path with you in my imagination any more, as this is growing stale for me somewhat now, my gayboy bottom eager to get back into ‘real’ fun exceeding joyfulness, and you have betrayed my trust in this regard in the past, so if you do want to entertain ‘me’, then BE of foreward clarity in ‘real’ life with me, as i am leaving this cross roads soon if you don’t.
currently, my therapist has brought me to a point of letting go of my long standing entertainment of imagination of being your lover like i have for a long time(since the beginning actually), where she says you want your cake and eat it to where im concerned.
i think, feel, want closure clarity on this, and will proceed to do so on my own without your clarity imput in feeling what i feel, you are not standing in front of me as yet.
being alone gets horribly depressing for me, and my therapist is concerned for my wants and needs getting met, of my having held onto waiting for you for an extended period of time.
i think i deserve to know with clarity where i stand with you, in considering how long i have been here all this time.
as a friend, i ask that you resolve this within of what your thoughts and feelings are, and address fully what direction you want to go, and then express your final decision to me, so that i too can let go of the anxiousness which is growing impatient with you as we speak.
as a friend, i know you respect my forewardness with you this day in address a serious life issue of what is my current place in life along side of you.
if not of me, i do want to maintain a joyful fun friendship with you, and accept your turning towards seeking a potential life partner lover…………i just want clarity of where i stand.
i feel you are thinking of me, and have felt this for along time, of what is the pure of heart divine child within true ‘real’ self you, oneness sameness of ‘me’.
the psychological stuckness secretiveness of unresolving this issue, is becoming toxic for me, and i say this in from a pure psychological perspective, out of respect for both of us, where we both MUST get out wants and needs met in life in order to maintain our positive mental emotional sexual spiritual physical well being, and yes, our mental emotional sexual spiritual well being, does have a direct affect/effect on our physical, where when of stress in these areas, the medical community says, “stress is cause for 50% of terminal illnesses.”
so don’t feel this is an attack of some sort, and rather is that of the professionals in my life who are pushing me towards resolving where i am where you are concerned.
i did let go, not because i want a male lover, albeit, a male lover is on my list of potential life partner lovers, rather, i let go purely from a psychological well being perspective for sake of the divine child of God ‘me’ of us both.
we have to come to closure on this, for sake of our well being.
thank you for taking time to come fully into awareness certainty closure within, in stepping out of the denial stuckness we yet are of.
i am a damaged individual in life, where many others are healthier choices for you, and so i don’t expect i am at the top of your list of potential life partner lovers.
if of you, i know i would heal and grow in the safe and supportive conducive environments i would find myself in, (read: beaches, mountain ski resorts skiing in a bikini with a fur coat, YES!!!!!!!, sky diving, scuba diving, being with the constant smiling YOU of oneness sameness WITH ‘me’)
ya, for sure i would heal greatly, and i do want to keep pace with you of physical exercise, knowing i can beat you in an arm wrestle biyatch!
hmmm……list of wants and needs?
endless………………………………………………………….
perhaps i am not as unhealthy as i think others think of me at this time, i don’t know, but ya, like anyone, we all have unresolved healing issues of our past.
if you want a year out for yourself, i accept that, ok?
and besides, i am in two full recovery programs right now of group and one on one professional programs, truly thankful and truly loving of each day with them, growing constantly in self-knowledge awareness wisdom insights.
my financial situation is fine, so no worries there.
everything is fine.
in truth, happiness does not require alot of money to maintain, and rather it is our descerning of healthy functional friends and lovers we invite into our inner circle that is crucial of us to do, where anyone of reasonable healthy diet, exercise and rest, is able to do so on even the most scaled back budget, especially here in Toronto, where we have free professional services, housing, food, made possible by the millions of hours of volunteer service and the foreward thinking of Canadian parliament.
simply the best, better than all the rest…………….
for me, personally, i love cuddling joyful sexual arosal that is so sensually loving, but finding a healthy permanent highly functional lover?
well, not exactly that easy, as any that are, are usually already happily married with another, and if not, well, my aging looks is finding me locked out more and more often than not, thinking maybe i should marry that old man who keeps hitting on me every time i see him, knowing he too is sadly alone.
ha
can you let me know soon, as i am eager to move foreward, where being alone?………..well, it’s painful, and i don’t want to continue to exist alone, although, i am not ever alone, my true and faithful friend Jesus always there.
i was thinking, perhaps my aging and being alone will lend time to my continued research, and that in doing so, the most important purpose of my life is going to be realized, like that of a long bearded Sage Monk in the desert cave, who i would love to meet one day, my soul that i know feels exactly like his own, of hours of our at ease gentle pure loving divine self in communication with one another.
if of you, i know i could get to meet him one day, and so many other Sage Monks who quietly exist in life like they do, far wiser than anyone knows about just how truly wise of God we really really are, where we do feel the presence of God daily like we do.
being around the wise sage monks is something i know is nurturing for the divine self of us both, and is of God that we do, where our combined insights lead us to further unveiling of sage wisdom that we can hand down to the generations of unborn children of God that we know is of God’s divine will wisdom meant for all children of God, past, present, future, the eternal door that does not close, where pure eternal truth oneness sameness connectedness, is what the doorway IS.
the other day, i was sitting in the doorway, feeling the truth of Jesus still alive apon the cross in the present future of looking out across the city landscape of buildings, where there is no barrier of time between the past and present moment whatsoever, that my divine child feels purely like i do, of the mirroring of truth Jesus constantly unceasingly is of there apon the cross, not dead, no, yet alive and breathing, of his 100% surrendering in stepping thru the eternal doorway of no return to life, where Jesus knows the ability of the unborn divine child yet to come, in exact sameness likeness of himself in speaking to the unborn child yet to come, knowing i would stand in the eternal doorway with him like i do, able to feel the message Jesus wants for me(us) to fully embrace and internalize, “Yes, the existence of the generational deluge of ignorant destruction exists here in the past, just as it yet does there in the future, does it not? Be without doubt then, just as i am, of what is my surrendering to the eternal doorway mirroring awareness of the truth you look apon and 100% feel like you do, of the unknowing snaring unwise untrue behaviour of the children of God here, who placed me apon this eternal cross of revealing truth that points without doubt to the ongoing generational deluge that i realized existed before i arrived in this world, and knew would continue to exist like it yet does in your future, does it not?”
without doubt
blessings to all
thank you Jesus!
ok, so we know the existence of the eternal doorway to the kingdom of heaven, starts and stops with the divine child of us all fully embracing the PURE TRUTH of our awareness of the generational deluge of ignorances that continues to not only sweep away our loving brothers and sisters in the world, of starvation, of war, of suicide, of drinking driving snare of alcoholism, so many generational unwisenesses snaring untruth truths for us to look apon and know, able to scare us all to the safe passage that is always available for every divine child of God to chose.
beyond this, is what Jesus asked us to reach for in his words, “Reach for that which i am unable to reach!”
take a moment to reflect apon the entire life of Jesus, from childhood to adult life, as one who grew fully in the direction of maintaining his connection with his own divine child of God true ‘real’ self.
what is revealing here is that in looking apon Jesus the child alone in the desert, of his preferred meditative quietness of being at ease as his pure of heart ‘real’ self, is what we too are aware of, the genuine pure love joyfulness of loving feelings that we feel like we do, just as any delightful child of God does, just as your own children do daily, in safe and supportive environments surrounded by love.
well, in the times of Jesus walking the earth, there was extreme harsh brutal reality of the ruling Roman Empire, on par with that of the brutal Iraqi fear controlling regime that controlled Iraq before we brought them liberty and freedom, breaking the fearful ruling regime that would come into your house, drag you out into the street, and behead you in front of your loving family and neighbors like they did of countless thousands of Iraqis, where if you do not take time in life to here the words of those in real life who bared witness to such, then you are not of the true awareness of the same generational deluge of ignorant destruction that existed prior, the same generational deluge of destruction Jesus is fully 100% of awareness the existed prior to and during his life.
this is the capacity of our compassion Jesus knew we all are capable of coming fully into pure truth loving awareness compassion that is 100% the sameness oneness of his own compassion in each passing second of our own tears that fall, the same tears as his own, where Jesus tuned fully into his embracing the realization of his own tears falling, so too would the unborn children of God weep tears apon the ground like we do.
this is the oneness sameness that is over looked of what Jesus wants for the divine child of God of us all to embrace as his equals, where his surrendering his life to the claws of the beast of ignorance is of his 100% compassionate speaking to all the unborn children yet to come, of what he wants us all to know.
BE without doubt
BE of God’s Wisdom meant for you the divine child of God of all wise awareness truths, of all untruth truths everywhere in the world that you look apon, just as it does here, everywhere at all times is the constant TRUTH.
BE the COMPASSIONATE ‘me’ of YOU, constantly the divine child of God!
BE the WISE ‘me’ of YOU, constantly the divine child of God!
BE the LOVING ‘me’ of YOU, constantly the divine child of God!
BE the awakened ‘me’ of YOU, constantly the divine child of God!
without doubt
thank you Jesus!
bless you bless you bless you
back to you and i………..
we both want to BE of the exceeding joyfulness of our divine child of God set free to just BE, and i most of all, i want you to BE happy, with me, or with another, just as i too want to BE happy, with you, or with another.
true and faithful friendships last eternally, just as Jesus is our eternal true and faithful friend.
i am beyond the minimizing betraying jealous type mentalitys(mostly) like so many are, when they go seperate ways, which i know you feel the truth, that indeed, i love do love to continue to annoy you like i do.
however; we have to make progress in moving forward, and bringing to closure any toxic uncertainties in both of our lives where WE are concerned, and just be open with one another of what direction you want to go, so that we both can move on, and perhaps meet up later in life, another time, where a year out would be healing for us both, but not if we keep entertaining the uncertainty stuckness we are in, or at least i know i am.
a clean break, or if you are thinking of meeting me, the clarify what you want.
that is what is annoying for me, is your vague uncertainty lack of clarity, of the hinting like you do.
if i am merely a member of your audience, and this is stage drama, and is all you want of me, i am fine with that.
i just want to know where i stand in addressing the future of the possibility of ‘real’ life friendship that i truly want with you, and feel you do too, however hesitant you may yet be, i sense the feelings are true for you as well.
no more vagueness, ok? We are abit more mature in our adult approach with one another in our minds, than the way we are being with one another, considering our age, are we not?
it’s your call to make, not mine.
i know what i want, and still sense you want the same.
you have 4 minutes to save your world, my world, our world. lol
the mirroring image of the joyful divine child is what Jesus was unable to attain, because of the impossible brutal environment that surround him the loving brothers and sisters of their time, where Jesus knew, and spoke of it as well, that the coming of the kingdom of heaven would not be seen by his generation.”
truly sad
of all the things i have dreamt of, is walking with Jesus daily while he walked the earth. I don’t know why i have always felt this way for him, i just have, since childhood.
i constantly love Jesus, because Jesus constantly loves ‘me’?
Love without doubt constantly flowing without interupt, is what HEAVEN is.
i know you have that with your children, of what is most sacred in feeling, and indeed healing for you, of God that you rise above the past out of the generational deluge that did have a hold of your life, and yet does to some degree.
God says speak the truth.
well, if i have offended anyone in speaking the truth, just remember that God says, “Speak the TRUTH.”
TRUTH is what sets the divine child of God FREE to Just BE your SELF!
bless you bless you bless you ALL
i love you
without doubt
i have and always will, just as Jesus constantly loves you, loves us ALL
forever more
blessed blessed blessed is the divine child of God YOU
forever more
love and peace be to this house
love and peace be to you
and love and peace be to you
bless you
if it’s ‘me’ you want to love, i am here just for you to have and to hold forever more!
you merely need reach out your hand to hold mine that is extended to you to hold……………always WILL BE!
forever more
bless you
i love you
bless you
forever more
it would be a terrible tragedy to go through your life constantly passing your soul mate by & both you you never actually uniting..
a terrible tragedy…
but i really believe ….. it does take two to tango….
am i being vague, i try not to when i write to you, but it is in my nature to be open to all possibilities in life, life is abundant with possibilities, when one has so many options it’s more of a challenge to harness the REAL..\
i’m real & so are you..
we could write some fun happy songs together, yes?
an adventurous loving life of you and i as our happy joyful self, without doubt, i know we would BE HAPPY!
i feel your exceeding joyfulness happiness when you turn towards entertaining our being together, so pure and true in feeling that i sense in your expression……..it’s as though you have loved me from afar for along long time, of a fully surrendered spirit in coming fully into awareness of your own yearning, not of denial, which surprises me why we are not sitting over dinner somewhere by now.
the surrendered spirit of the divine child, as you know, of your moments alone on a beach meditative awareness, is what is required to enter into the constant flowing of love feeling for us to feel, the loving feelings we feel from another, and the loving feelings we feel for them, of what HEAVEN is for the divine child, constant uninterupted flowing of love feelings that are not eskewed in some immature like it does when we come to close to the unknowingly unwise generational deluge that snares the heart, mind, body, spirit and soul of many in life, of why i too, take refuge in my sanctuary of meditative study, at ease as the divine child of God ‘real’ self.
this is what is of priority in life for me, beyond everything else in life, where thru wisdom, the divine child is able to come fully awake, nurtured and protected, able for the happiness of the divine child to thrive and grow in the wise protective halo shield that is protective by means of fully understanding ability of the awareness truths of the untruth generational teachings, merely by means of the awakened divine child internalizing the truth wisdom that the divine child within us all intuitively subconsciously senses in seeking understanding of their blessed self, that up until a certain moment in time, remains asleep in ignorance as to the absolute truth the generational snares which may or may not have a hold of their life.
Clearly i am a student of God who is more than intrigued, where my own divine child has internalizing a significant amount of wisdom, to the degree, i do 100% believe that the kingdom of heaven that eludes mankind, is by means of the wise halo that thru life experience in learning how to enter into the halo, i am able to see the divine child within them afraid and unaware of the constant seeking i am able to sense of their divine child, who is yet unaware of the wisdom that they intuitively are searching for.
for me, this is beyond merely a belief, and rather, as you probably realize by now, i am truly the fully surrendered spirit of my divine child humbled before Jesus and God, becoming enlightened wisdom, far beyond what i realized i was stepping into long ago.
the ‘real’ self, as we both know, is of our meditative at ease self. i know you know this already, by means of my own awareness.
i see us together in life, of us both at ease as our meditative ‘real’ self, of what i feel is what is a threshold you and i have already journeyed past in our own ongoing research into self, where we know, likeness of our at ease ‘real’ self is not only what is of conducive for our divine child ‘real’ self to thrive and grow in happiness, the conducive environment of another who is of the same appreciation of our at ease ‘real’ self, is the only way for us to truly enjoy a loving life.
that’s how i feel about what is my own life.
ya, there are many along life’s road who are pleasant for us, but with you, there is this deeper sensibility of you that i sense, where only thru my own exploring into the same deeper sensibility of my divine child ‘real’ self, am i able to say this, of my revealing awareness like i have with you at times.
truly, the pure of heart constant love feeling of my divine child of God ‘real’ self, is without doubt, the most blessed in feeling for me, where i truly do feel the truth of the words of Jesus, that the feelings are what is the kingdom of heaven of love devoid of the fearful doubt like that found in the world.
Jesus knew his real self, and so do you and i, and i know without doubt, how blessed the pure of heart feelings you feel like you do, are the same as my own.
so what is it that keeps us apart?
well, we too are yet both evolving as regards our occassional use of our defensive petty ego masks, normal, where we know that our most favorite place of all, is of the at ease meditative ‘real’ self.
truly, we know thru experience of others who push us out of the blessed pure feelings while being around them, and that fear is what keeps us from exploring our potential uniting.
i hope my speaking openly that this, assures you of what i want you to fully embrace, that Andy wants to explore the potential of our at ease meditative self with one another.
substance use is also something which goes against the blessed ability of our at ease divine child of God self, where i want you to know, i have a rule about allowing alcohol in God’s house of love and peace. I simply do not allow it.
i will on occassion have a drink in public places, but not ever in my place of peaceful dwelling.
i truly hope and pray you here the genuine sincerity of my words with you this day, of what i feel would be most sacred for us both if of a future together, of what is most valuable to me, the peaceful at ease divine child of God true ‘real’ self meditative blessed feeling of BEing ‘real’.
forever more
bless you
ah, Filth and Wisdom is out on DVD!
looking forward to this fun film of what is real/unreal for many in real life, where what they look for in life, they already are, the gentle, mild, peaceful, tender, delicate, sensitive, graceful loving ‘real’ self, sadly unknowingly for many, who aimlessly plod along in life unaware of what is of most value in life, the CONSTANT flowing of love feelings of their divine child of God within true ‘real’ self, who is able to become fearless by means of wisdom, and the safe and supportive conducive environments which are required for their fearless exceeding joyfulness to thrive and grow in.
We are all evolving by means of the mirroring light of the enlighted fearless free spirited divine children of God, of what is constantly the affect/effect/direct/indirect connectedness of us all.
clearly, there is a point where we become the wise empowermed encouragement of the divine child within coming forth in the world for sake of others, of what i do feel is the ushering of us all into the constant flowing pure of heart pure love devoid of absurd doubt, that i feel is what the kingdom of heaven constantly is, of truth, where even the harsh reality absurdnesses in life, serves as truth for the wise divine child of God, of what Jesus speaks of, “Everywhere is the TRUTH!”
so, when asking of how do we usher in the kingdom of heaven, there is only one way, the exceeding joyful mirroring happiness of the divine child who’s binding unwise bitter chains have been broken, of what is the generational deluge of ignorances yet in the world, their blessed pure of heart divine spirit eternally set free by means of God’s divine WILL wisdom meant for us all, and i am not talking about the merchant’s of God understanding here either, who think they are wise, not aware of the fractured fear appearance they obviously are of in so many ways, the divine child held captive by fearful oppression, like that of the views of the Catholic church who do not accept homosexuality.
Homosexality is not a learned behaviour everyone, rather it is 100% primal sexual behaviour of the female within the male, the male within the female. The fact that it is not learned behaviour, such as my own experience of homoerotic fantasy at the age of 13, conclusively points to the truth of my homoerotic fantasies, that of what i now call, ‘The primal innate female sexual behaviour within the male brain’, and likewise for Lesbians, “The primal innate male sexual behaviour within the female brain’, of us all.
i love the idea that i am a Lesbian, of my evolving into what i know 100% that i am, a transgender bisexual.
you have no idea of the inner joyfulness i am of, in thinking about having my own breasts!
it is off the charts for me! Truly!
there is no turning back for me now, and why would i?
I am every male Lesbians fantasy, am i not, a boy with breasts……….oh wait, some of the Lesbians don’t want breasts, oh yeah, like Alec, an incredible soul i met recently, a veteran female intersex transgender boy with facial hair!
Being a member of the LGBT community, i realize it is perhaps not i who has to come to your world, and rather it is you who has to come to my world Biyatches!!!!!!!!! lol
why?
because i love my loving brothers and sisters of my ‘real’ extended family, and i am not about to ever leave them after twenty years! No way! Not possible!
Come feel my exceeding joyful happiness TRUTH, if you DARE, if you CARE about YOU!
what incredible fun we could be, of you dressing as a boy one day, and me as a girl, then switching it up when ever we want, leaving the world wondering everywhere we go, “What is wrong with those 2?”
hey, if we got married, could i dress as the girl, and you the boy?
just asking………
we do not know the extent to which our happiness would BE, and so long as we stall on coming together, we won’t know.
it bubbles up inside of me every time i think of our combined happiness, and i have the wisdom to ensure we stay healthy in life, just as you do, of our physical, mental, emotional, sexual, and spiritual well being that we address so adimantly like we do, with only a few issues to address, like alcohol, like my smoking.
i want us both to be rid of these things which weigh down the potential thriving happiness of the divine child of God of us both, for we are of mature life lived in our knowing our commitment to taking ownership responsibility is without question, and rather merely of yet answering, not of denial, no, we are free of that.
bless you
What a shining example for our loving brothers and sisters to feel our presence every where we go, our joyfulness like their own, radiant, brilliant, true and bright happiness, kicking this world’s ass at every turn!
there is so much participation in life that we can be of daily through out the entire world, where we know without doubt our voice is the voice that cannot be silenced by the unwise world.
just how great is our fortitude of fear?
We are the fortitude of fearlessness of the entire worldwide LGBT community Biyatch!
every single day!
forever more
flowers in hair,
without a care,
of what to wear,
when i get married!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOL
there is Madonna making a huge come back to the family, and then there is, “Whoa! She wants to marry who, Andy, a transgender bisexual? No fucking way!”
and if you give me the, “I just want to be friends speech”, i am so not going to talk to you again!
well, ok, there is no such thing as a successful happy relationship without ‘real’ friendship between 2 ‘real’ friends!
hurry up!
im getting bored waiting around here for you!
i love you, and you know i do and always WILL!
come on!
i want to have fun damn it!
every blessed day we wake 2!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and so do you!
so stop denying your ‘real’ self happiness!
let’s go!
sometime people prefer their car to somebody else when their car is the synthese of their life…;but i didn’ t know… good trip in your submarine,,kiss
eric
Oh Madonna my heart goes out to you right now! I read the criticisms and the comments about you adopting from Malawi -It is the hardest thing going through an International Adoption – we have 3 daughters we adopted from Guatemala – this is when you really find out who your friends are. We have experienced every emotion in response to the over reactivity from others. Many have been supportive which is great – but many have been incredibly malicious and judgmental- I feel like I am fighting to protect my children every day. Most of the malicious and critical comments are made by people who are ignorant of the entire adoption process and also the political state of Guatemala. Few know of the common murders that take place when a woman is pregnant and unwed, or of the domestic violence that is so prevalent, or of the children who are abandoned in the rubbish tips, or countryside. So easy for Save The Children to make such a naive comment such as children should stay with their extended family – do they actually realise there are NO Social Services in Guatemala to deal with these children? I think they are out of touch with the reality of the plight of the children. I think it must be so much harder for you being constantly in the public eye – you have the courage of a lioness! I think also, some people would rather criticise than have their eyes opened up to the reality of places in the world that we are not taking careof…but we all need our eyes opening. Thinking of you and your children.
It takes courage to enjoy the TRUE fearless FREE spiritedness of the divine child true ‘real’ YOU!
God’s WILL is for the divine child to awaken fully into the pure true awareness day of you see/feel the LIGHT of our ‘real’ self, where the divine child in having momentarily stepped away from close proximity of the generational unwiseness snaring of the souls of many in the world, REALizes fully 100% the TRUTH that the divine child is NOT any of the generational unwise stiffling transference projections, where even distance silence is stiffling for the divine child to feel.
When i first came out of the closet to my biological family, i lived in close proximity to where my biological family lived. During the entire time i was there, i noticed that none of my family ever took time to come and visit me, where i was literally a few city blocks away for them to easily do so, and in fact, they had to drive past my place of dwelling on their way to their please boat docked down at the lake. I felt the truth of there standoffish silence with me the entire time, where to this day, none of them since 1993 have come to see me, of genuine desire to visit the joyful free spirited Andy who has steadily grown in exceeding joyfulness like i have, inspite of their lacking participation in my life, thanks entirely to my ‘real’ extended family here in the LGBT ghetto of Toronto, where so many here are of the exact same unaccepting families as my own.
It has been such a long time now for me and others here in the ghetto of our shared lives of the obvious constant growing pure fearlessness of our divine child of God true ‘real’ self, where we easily feel the difference of our free spirited joyfulness we constantly are, and that of others, we too once were in our descerning like we do, the stiffling of the fun loving free spiritedness of our loving brothers and sisters.
Veterans like Rupal and so many other veterans, know the truth of this daily everywhere we go, where we feel the obviousness of the condition of the souls of our loving brothers and sisters of the worldwide LGBT commuinty, compassionately so for the new arrivals to our ever growing family, of the fear we feel in their eyes like we do, of the harsh journey arrival into the kingdom of heaven forever more along side of us all united as ONE.
for us, there is no closet door that closes, as we kicked the motherfucking door off it’s hinges along time ago Biyatches! lol
on we go!
on we go on Madonna’s stage that is, of a grand entrance one day i am certain of, if not me, always my loving brothers and sisters there shall always BE! lol
Biyatches!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!\
forever more
“If you can’t love your SELF? Just who the hell can YOU love?” – Rupal
“We CONSTANTLY love ALL of YOU!”
forever more
and more
and more
and more
and more
blessings to all
when i read David’s biological father say that David had grown so wise and big, well it makes your heart sink, i can see that boy when he returns one day to his place of birth as a man a beacon of light, there is no time for hope, only action. un relenting strength in the face of adversity is all it takes & you’ve certainly got that, you only need to look into the eye’s of that little girl to know your doing the right thing.
unrelenting strength in the face of adversity is all it takes.
~
unfailing TRUTH in the face of UNTRUTH is all we constantly give!
Never have i seen/felt the CLARITY of unborn child born into the unwise world of the ongoing generational deluge of the beast of ignorance, than that of the powerful depicting film i watched yesterday called, The Boy in the Striped Pyjamas.
I felt the horrid ignorant oppressive unwiseness of this film deeply, of what is yet of any and all ABSURD oppression suppression of the joyful fun loving spirit of the divine child of us ALL, of whatever oppression, such as the children of starvation.
I sat there feeling the TRUTH of the entire world is one giant prison that is cause for any and all oppression suppression, including that of our loving brothers and sisters of the LGBT worldwide community, who we know are yet struggling in their dangerously difficult emotional struggle of coming out into the blessed joyful fun loving freedom of broken binding chains of unwiseness that sadly many of them we know, do not realize what it is that binds their minds in silence, the horrid homophobic untruths created by a supposedly responsible church of God, the Catholic church.
I don’t get it, here we are in the year 2009, where the worldwide professional community knows 100% the continuing statistical data that pours in daily of the highest suicide rate in the world belonging to the gay youth group aged 13-24, and still, a result of the fear mongering Catholic church that does mascarades as though of the wisdom of God, and yet, they do not wholeheartedly embrace the decades of study research of homosexuality, taking up position in what is cause for the suicides, their unwise homophobic transference projection, of the same said church which does not wholesomely celebrate sexuality, as evident of their priests.
ABSURD unwise dangerous oppression of the divine children of God, is the TRUTH that God looks apon, that the Catholic church does not.
Mark my words, there will come a day where the Catholic church will be ignored by the entire world population, should they continue in their dangerous lacking of desire for TRUTH, and indeed, more and more are stepping away from the Catholic church as we march forward into the future, of what Jesus refers to, “Many there will BE who are the last to enter into the kingdom of heaven of love devoid of doubt.”
if you have not seen this film, truly, it is the most powerful depicting film of the unborn child being born into this yet unwise world.
Materialism is also another ABSURD oppression suppression for millions of God’s divine children in the world daily.
When will it stop?
It will only stop when the divine child of us ALL BEcomes fully awake into our blessed loving TRUE compassion who looks apon the TRUTH of the harsh oppression of the divine child of another, such as this film of the children of God who are intiutively confused by what is going on.
BE WITHOUT DOUBT, of the divine child of God who is of harsh starvation oppression as we speak, there in every moment of every day, feeling the exact same oppression suppression of their blessed fun loving spirit of the divine child of God depicted in this film.
TRUTH is of God
TRUTH is of the divine child of God
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0914798/
Every divine child of God who reaches out a hand to the hand of a divine child of God in oppression, is of the pure of heart love of the divine child of God’s divine WILL love devoid of doubt here in the kingdom of heaven.
Our blessed contant feelings of pure of heart ‘Love without doubt’ IS what HEAVEN constantly is.
Without doubt, everyone involved in the creation of this film, even if they do not know it, were of God’s divine WILL in every step, every breath, every heartbeat, of every blessed day the TRUTH SPIRIT of their divine child of God woke to, a film which conveys the TRUTH of the ongoing generational deluge of the beast of ignorance destruction in this yet unwise world, a world that is indeed, a worldwise prison of the generational dark ignorances that continues to hold back the ushering in of the kingdom of heaven for the unborn child yet to come.
blessed blessed blessed is the constant flowing pure of heart love feelings of the divine child of God YOU!
forever more
Truly M, in the face of the entire world, YOU are doing the right thing in your every step, every breath, every hearbeat of every blessed day you wake to!
WITHOUT DOUBT
This film is the wise compassionate perspective doorway to the pure of heart divine child of God of us ALL, where indeed, it is the pure of heart TRUTH WISDOM that ushers in the wise perspective kingdom of heaven the divine child of God intuitively constantly knows and feels, the TRUTH constant LOVE of the pure of heart divine child of God of us ALL!
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0914798/
it’ll stop when people wake up..
or at least until i stop just sitting around like some silly girl..
how many time’s do i have to say “stop callingme a sissy”
ya big sissy ! lol
omg i think i’m getting fat, i’m growing breast’s
that make’s you a dyke lol ..
We reflect apon the Holocaust as one of the most horrid times in human history, and yet, as we speak, the same unwise disconnect of the pure of heart love of any and all divine children of God, led astray by gross materialism, is direct cause for the starvation of a divine child of God taking their last breath as we speak in this moment, where the word Holocaust, is a truth word that describes all of the ongoing generational ignorances in the world which ARE cause for death and destruction of the divine children of God being born into the horrid yet unwise prison that the world is indeed holds captive in darkness so many divine children of God, by binding chains of ignorance.
Everywhere we look, we feel the truth of the lacking compassion of what is the divine child of us all yet awakening into our constant pure of heart flowing love feelings here in the kingdom of heaven.
So many unwisen distructive untruths that exist.
Truly, this world is yet held captive by so many horrid unwise generational teachings, a worldwide prison of the precious loving children of God, such as the horrid destruction of the drug cartels in Mexico, of so much death and destruction.
Well, God declares war on all unwise horrid oppression suppressions of the constant flowing pure of heart love feelings of the divine children of God in the world, and God has already won this world in the eyes of TRUTH, of what is the most powerful weapon in God’s armory, the wise sword of TRUTH the divine child of God constantly carries and IS, the radiant brilliant bright exceeding joyful love that humiliates and pushes out all unwise dark generational ignorances of the deluge of destruction, the TRUTH that is not able to stop shining, no matter how weary we become at times, as the TRUTH is not something that us able to cease in shining, of all TRUTHs of all UNTRUTHs that existed when Jesus walked the earth, constantly, the exact same ETERNAL TRUTHs of all UNTRUTHs yet in the world that the unborn children of God will continue to be born into, so long as forces of these dark ignorances are not brought fully into the revealing light of the humiliating LIGHT of TRUTH, of the humiliating LIGHT of the pure of heart constantly loving divine child of God true ‘real’ self YOU of us ALL!
CONSTANTLY at all times is God’s war of TRUTH that is not able ever to be defeated, even unto death that constantly shines for the the divine LIGHT of TRUTH from the grave of any and all divine children of God swept away by the generational deluge of ignorant destructions!
forever more
blessed blessed blessed is the constant flowing pure of heart love feelings of the divine child of God YOU!
forever more
sissy, ya, me 2, im a big sissy girl dykeboy, it’s true, i am 2!
as the best friend of Jesus, his big fearless sissy girl best friend he constantly loves, i turn to the world and speak what is of the divine words of TRUTH that the divine child of God of us ALL constantly intuitively feels and knows.
Madonna is one who is of the high places and paths in the world, and constantly she has been of the embracing of TRUTH in the humiliating loving light artistic subject matter that shines forth in the world.
Constant Pure of Heart Loving Wise Compassionate Truth Self-Aspect-Knowledge Self-Awareness is not just the eternal protective shield meant for the unborn divine child yet to come, it IS the divine child constantly BEing the constant flowing love feelings the divine child of us all constantly yearns to feel like we all do!
Without doubt, i am here to eternally stand along side of her, of God’s divine WILL that i do, of what is the constant WILL yearning of TRUTH of the divine child ‘me’ of us ALL, eternally united as ONE of the constant radiant brilliant bright loving fun loving humiliation of the Day we see/feel the MIRRORING LIGHT of ‘real’ SELF YOU of us ALL, that is required for us all to fully embrace the choice of the absurd unwise untruth weapons of hatefulness in our hands, or feel the TRUTH ASPECT of Love without doubt we know of the divine child of God of us ALL!
I don’t know about the rest of you, but i want to wake to fun exceeding joyfulness every blessed day, not ever without my truly knowing at all times the truth of what i am, of what we all are, constantly the fun loving wise compassionate divine children of God in the kingdom of heaven all around us!
blessed blessed blessed is the constant flowing pure of heart love feelings of the divine child of God YOU!
forever more
ya, it’s true, im a dyke marching motherfucker who fearlessly kicks your sorry fucking lame ass, Biyatch!
i love you!
DesperatelySeekingMadonna
First of all, disclaimers. I’m NOT desperate, my nick is just a pun, so please refrain from accusing me of being crazy.
I am a regular girl who was encouraged, or inspired, to do this by the fact that Madonna has recently being in touch with her fans on Twitter… I just want to express myself and I would like to be heard, that’s all. I think that nobody’s feelings should go unnoticed and I want Madonna to know the following. I love her because she makes so many people happy. As she said once, her shows are full of lights, not of people, but I think this is only possible because she and her team bring that light out. I guess we can see things and things have their colour because there is the sun shining above us. Well, people shine in her shows only because she is on the stage, the sun with her own light. I also like the idea that all lights combined make up ONE greater light. That light translates into hope and peace. When she sings and people dance to her music or just shake their hands and clap, one feels complete, unique and equal at the same time. Unique because you are yourself and nobody can steal that; but equal because you are together with the others. I guess that we are, I am and she is because the rest of us also are… I suppose she must know about these reactions she provokes, but I just wanted to put my own thoughts into words.
Whoever created the world gave this gift to you consciously. Your songs, your greetings, your words can get millions of smiles. Your soul is young but no doubt it will grow old, trascend our time and light up more and more faces… Love you for that
People please don’t be mean and answer saying you are Madonna, unless it’s really you M… Just one word from you could make me the happiest person ever…
Comments are welcomed: desperatelyseekingmadonna@hotmail.com
keep kicking, it’s working wonder’s
i love you too 🙂
don’t just see the film, feel it!
it is a pivotal film of time and place!
the list is long of the unwise snaring of the heart, mind, body, spirit and soul of the precious unborn children yet to come and those being born as we speak.
it is of God’s divine WILL that you truly embrace the pivotal moment that connects with the pure of heart constant flowing love of the divine child of God YOU, as regards all foolish ignorances which go against the precious constantly loving divine child of us ALL, and is not a merely a film!
the film is of current time and place of the reflections of the evolving divine children of God here and now, no different that of Jesus apon the cross, where what matters is the constant flow of love feelings of the divine children yet to come to always BE what is INTUITIVELY TRUE of them to feel, of what HEAVEN constantly is.
the film is both a starting and ending point encouragement of turn towards the TRUE WISE KNOWING LiGHT of the divine child of God of us ALL to feel the TRUTH ASPECTs of what is the divine child of God of us ALL, of what HEAVEN constantly is and is not.
This film is a film which is of the required reflection of the divine child of God that ushers in the eternal kingdom of heaven for the unborn children yet to come, which the divine child of us all INTUITIVELY knows the TRUTH.
descerning wisdom is the path ahead for all eternity of the divine children yet to come, wisely descerning of what IS of more value than all the riches of the world, of what HEAVEN constantly IS for the divine child of us all, the constant pure of heart feelings that we all feel like we do.
LOVE devoid of doubt, IS what HEAVEN constantly is INTUITIVE KNOWINGNESS of the divine child of God, is it not?
This film embraces the no time constaint true reflective knowingness of the divine child of God of us all of revealing light that humiliates ALL untruth generational ignorances of the divine child that yet diminish and sweep away the children of God daily, where at all times, the world IS of our holocaust ignorances no different then that of NAZI murders which result in the ongoing deluge of divine children into death like it does…………DAILY!
REVEALING TRUTH is the unfailing wise power of God’s divine children!
forever more
how will the unborn children yet to come look apon our times, and what word comes to mind of the TRUTH of this world?
ABSURD unloving unwise apathy everywhere we feel, constantly the unfailing TRUTH!
i mean look at you and i for example, so absurd we are not friends in real life, and why?
because of the fucking bullshit FENCE mentalities of this fucked up world prison, that’s why!
this film woke me up to my own reality of the daily unwise oppressive others in life i have felt for decades, and i feel the truth of how we yet are, so sadly of this motherfucking world’s unwiseness that yet keeps us apart, is it not?
well, it’s the fucking TRUTH, is it not?
i mean you don’t go for a coffee with me in real life, after all this time, and i am like, “What the fuck is this bullshit?”
fucking bullshit of this fucked world, that’s what!
i thought you far wiser than this!
i am shocked, if you must know, thinking you knew my sensitivity to it all after so many years, wondering, huh?
i esteemed you so much more than where we yet are, and in truth, i am bewildered by it, considering the level of genuine ‘real’ you i have sense like i have.
i mean really sit back and feel it, of how long it has been, of my unrelentless undying unfailing certainty like i am, and still, this fucking unwise world’s transference keeps our loving friendship apart.
it’s fucking absurd to me!
which one of is the prisoner of this fucked world and which one of us is not?
obvious, is it not?
i’m free, and i have been free along long time, truly surprised you are not yet there in life along side of me, of who i am, way beyond this fucked up world bullshit mentalities of the weighed down unwisenesses.
anyway…………just ranting!
how much longer are you going to wait?
how much longer am i too feel the way you and the world yet are towards me?
well, no worries, as it has been twenty years of this world’s daily bullshit, so i think my wisdom is able to sustain a few more…………just don’t expect me to wait much longer!
i want fucking happiness, and i am running faster than you realize towards it, so if you don’t keep up, well, always know the constant TRUTH…………
i love you
i always will, because it is who we both TRULY are, precious constant loving divine children of God!
forever more
i just feel our being in person with one another would be so much more fun than this annoying blogging you leave me here to feel as though i mean nothing to you at times, insulting to who?
not to me
to the entire fucking world!
bless you
lol
there is ranting, and then there is………….
speaking the motherfucking TRUTH Biyatches!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
forever more
blessings to all
amazing what a few beers will reveal, yes?
i admit, i had a few tonight………..three to be exact!
so!
you would too if you were me!
i mean fuck!
fuck! fuck! fuck! and fuck!
lol
i am 100% beautiful and so are you!
forever more
touch this skin!
all of it!
lol
Venus!
sweet dreams of only love are good enough for YOU!
peace be to this house
peace be to you
and peace be to you
forever more
bless you
the seemingly dark passage we travel thru in life have value to the divine child of God, leaning of the TRUTH about our divine SELF.
but only if we take time with divine SELF to truly reflect apon the TRUTH!
blessings to all
10yrs probably,
Biyatch..
beer makes you fat, and your breast’s sag..
not a good look Venus
you should could start up a new Sexy lingerie Range, called “Venus”
touch me, feel me, grind me
ohwi, i just ate a whole jar of stuffed green spanish olive’s, tasty but.
night all ..
may god protect ya all
is there anything i can do to help, let me know …
move a couple of mountains for you perhap’s …
you’d be surprised what i am able to do, when i put my mind to it.. you only have to ask.. “ask & you shall receive..” ( how many times have i said that in a past life ) LOL 🙂
oi,
hello !!!
Look ….i’m down here.
(oh,,,, open your eye’s…. for god sake jump will you)
i went back to my career today……….somewhat leary of the staff environment of my new office, where it is what it is when i arrive, the morale high or low, always a few bad apples, including on occassion my own colleages who are supposedly professional.
after 30 years experience, i pick who i work for, not the other way around, where the simpliest question is, “How do i feel when i walk thru the door each morning?”
Depending on the answer, i usually know fairly quickly if the team i am with is workable or not, where often i have to move on, as i have a low tolerance threshhold………could be my old age, where i just don’t put up with other people’s immaturity, or maybe it is my own crank demanding expectations of others that annoys them at times? lol
I am here anytime you visit with me in real life!(that was a hint bi the way!)
I was telling my friend Stephan, “Do i want to wake up next to a naked male body or a female naked body?”
i then answered my own question, “How about a female naked body with the best sex toys on the planet, of male counter parts most males don’t have, or if they do, they are married to someone else!”
YES!
my final answer! LOL
it’s your move……….hurry up damn it, MOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
where am i moving to LOL !
YES ! it’s not about gender it’s about love !
dah !
ever put two mirror’s in front of each other ?
the reflection goes on & on and on … to infinity…. and it’s like you cannot hold or touch the image in the mirror… why because it is a just reflection …
can you see why this is going the way it is ?
Mathematically speaking, a continuous function with a continuous inverse function is called bicontinuous.
Therefore we are bycontinuously bi-curious!
YES!
BE Cause we both are the continuously the same, female/male?
yes
BE Cause we both continuously like the same, female/male?
yes
BE Cause we are both continously of ‘real’ self love, ‘real’ self love of each other?
yes
BE Cause we are both continuously annoying to one another? lol
cannot touch or hold?
fuck that!
i want to hold
i want to be held
i want to touch
i want to be touched
i want to feel love
i want to feel loved
i want to feel same
i want to feel samed
why is (this) going the way (it) is?
round and round in circles like a Möbius strip that has the mathematical property of being non-orientable.
what way is (it) going?
an endless continuous circle re-cycle! lol
we are all just passing thru this world, and without hesitation, i ask, “Would (it) make you sad if (this) stuckness grew stale for Andy, and you did not ever get together with Andy in this life?”
lame
our heart continuously beats until one day it just stops beating.
ask, “What do i want?”
ideally before someone else wants ‘me’ and i say yes to them instead of (this) boring lame ass stuckness nowhere place (it)!
ha
i want to speak open about my sexual satisfaction concern………….
pleasure of my female self(gayboy bottom) is assured if of a male lover, who by nature, is constantly a Möbius strip of cycle restoring testosterone levels.
therefore if of a female lover, predominately(no pun intended), my sexual role would be that of a male lover, which i love, just unsure as to the assurance of surviving my female lover self, where being with a gay male role player, i am.
honestly, i don’t feel genuine pulsating excitement of your male lover self for me like i do with gay males, of what is naturally occuring for them, and therefore i am not pulling punches here, merely observations.
i honestly don’t know 100% what you want, where you are not genuinely pursuing me OPENLY ACTIVE in ‘real’ life as much as i want to feel wanted like i do, like gay lovers do.
you may want to give one final serious consideration soon, as i am losing interest in the staleness this boring lame ass place we yet are of, where others make me feel the opposite.
you too know how good it feels to be wanted sexually in real life, both of my continously being here, and others as well.
purhaps if you truly felt what it’s been like for me to wait for someone who is looking at other lover interests, you can understand why you too would grow tired of the staleness of being alone in the evenings, where eventually you just get OUT in the world to BE among others like i now am doing.
either surrender to exploring us, or don’t, and don’t be upset when i leave for another when you don’t.
be of realistic clarity of how another feels by your own sincere or insincere approach with them instead of denial of the truth, in seeking getting unstuck and move forward to what you want.
any genuine sincere input here would help
thanks
if you want to feel the joyfulness of what it feels like as a homosexual lover like most of us are, then give ‘me’ consideration, where rest assured, if of ‘me’, a twenty year veteran of the LGBT community, you need not ever wonder how fun i am sexually!
i already know the pure joyfulness of my female/male lover self 100% without doubt!
and so will you come fully into knowing and loving your own male/female lover self like i do, should we give us a chance.
BE without doubt, lest without doubt i seek(ing) the only lover that is comfortable for ‘me’, a lover who is without doubt.
self-doubtfulness is the foe
of course, i understand the whole homophobic tranditional heterosexual family thing that most of the world is of, which is how it feels for me in entertaining us at times.
truly, if anyone knows residual homophobia of a lover coming out, it’s ‘me’!
i mean this in a good way, where generally, once one starts on the path to embracing both their female lover self and male lover self, there is no turning back, of exceeding joy actually.
i am compassionate for you in this regard, but just don’t get too lame ass boring for ‘me’, ok?
promise? lol
be happy that i am yet here patiently waiting for you Biyatch!
and yes, you already know, i love you without doubt!
and of course i always will…………family
it is not ‘me’ who is doubtful, hello, it is you.
clarity
moving to?
good question.
when we move towards fully accepting both our male and female lover self, a beautiful feeling comes over us, where we realize fully, we are moving to the living in the whole world, where the entire world is our play ground, every single exceedingly joyful playful fun loving homoerotic nonstoppable erotic delightful blessed day………..Biyatch!
so…….”What do you want?”
‘me’
oh sure, you can deny ‘me’ all you want Biyatches, but i truly know you all, who wish you were as joyful as i constantly am dancing around in the middle of the street like you see me daily, of “What is it with those two?”
motherfucking happiness Biyatches!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
argh………..you are so late, it is a wonder i am still standing here all this time! Hurry the fuck up Biyatch, it IS youR MovE damn it!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol
im not going anywhere other than where i already constantly AM, BEing ‘me’!
forever more
nothing fake about ‘me’ Biyatches!!!!!!!!!
hello?
argh……..why is it people want something after it is taken away from them, like my putting up with waiting and waiting for you to join us all this time Biyatch?
huh?
i can’t hear you!
SHOUT ABOUT ‘me’ damn it, like i constantly do!!!!!!!!!!!!!
like i constantly am, exceeding joyful radiant brilliant bright LIGHT of the ‘REAL’ FEMALE/MALE SELF LOVER in my brain united as ONE, of what is the CONSTANT ONEness nonstop Flowing feelings within, the Perennial fresh water, unconditional lovers of ALL, the many in the One and One in the many united as One, of the Entire fucking world Biyatches!
of what most do not know, subconsciously wishing to know, of the ones who have the most to say against us, have the most to hide.
ya, i see you Catholic priest there too, you cannot hide from ‘me’, just as you cannot hide from God’s omnipotence Biyatches!
argh, you people are so lame, and boring as fuck too! fuck!
Stephan!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Wait up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
blessings to all
you’ve got exactly 4 minutes to decide what i know you want to decide!
so decided damn it!
i am so not doing (this) with you by this time next year!
fo fucking way!
i’ll be luck to last another week! lol
Stephan!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
we now return to regular sheduled boring lame as programing……….
(elevator music)
lol
i like my new name!
as i contine to function as a continuous inverse role playing function of my bicontinuous bicurious self!
Bicontinuous bi-curious!
a new one for us!
they ask, “Bicontinuous Andy?”
“Ya, according to mathematics, it refers to my continuing function as the continuous inverse role playing female/male function of my bicontinuous bicurious self!”
who knew?
we know
on we go
and the bicontinuous gayboys, lesygirls and transies!
A NEW DAY!!!!!!
of the BICONTINUOUS BICURIOUS ‘me’!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
forever more
(Venus in her highheel boots, is tackle faceplanted into the stage from Stephan sneaking up from behind)
Stephan is alot of fun, a new sister, daughter, who i watch over, always there for him to talk with as he walks thru his transition into a gay lifestyle, unlike some of you stuck up biyatches here in the ghetto who have little or no concern for anyone but yourselves!
‘real’ family who are always there, always the same joyful fun loving spirit others count on, always will BE ‘me’!
forever more
Jeez andy you still on this?? seriously man GET OVER IT
you really want to hear what i have to say, so i’ll shut my mouth.
get over the dull dim unexcitement of no hand to hold, not lips to kiss, no genuine delightful lover with flowers in hair?
oh, ok, im over ‘that’
and so would anyone who does not feel the joyful presence of someone that sincerely loves being around us, where there is no element of doubt of their undying love for us, and we them.
life is a delightful experience moment by moment, every blessed day we wake to when we turn towards the genuine sincere constant flowing tender love feelings of our divine ‘real’ self who constantly yearns to feel the excitement of a blessed lover who obviously loves us like we do them.
‘cannot hold or touch the image’ when we don’t genuinely sincere ‘obviously’ want 2.
ok, i can accept we both want a male lover, without doubt, however, i want a female lover as well, and so would you if of sincere desire like that of the gayboys, of what is fun loving joyfulness like we are.
it is this fearless playfulness i am, and feel you 2 are of, however stiffled your playfulness may be, for whatever reason.
BEcause i am the fearful playfulness of a gayboy bottom, only a lover who is of the same fearless playfulness is going to feel comfortable for me, and i know and feel the fearless playfulness in another, or the lacking fearlessness compared to my own.
well, ok, the biological testosterone nature of a gayboy lover i am, and therefore most comfortable for me is a gayboy lover, where i do feel the obvious difference of fearless playfulness like my own with those who are not OUT like i am, and yet, there is a pure of heart love that i have felt all this time, which feels fearless, feels without doubt at times, even while doubt yet keeps apart like it does, for whatever reason, the world, your own sense of freedom of self to explore who ever you want, or whatever.
I want to BE happiness of my role playing lover self, and in truth, a gayboy lover is without doubt, able to be the joyful oneness sameness of my ‘real’ self, so i guess that is where i belong, where i don’t get the sense you really want to be with me, as obvious by your yet not of genuine sincere real life joyfulness desire to BE with ‘me’ as yet, where each day passing leaves me feeling more and more that perhaps i need to accept what is likely most comfortable for me, a gayboy lover, and yet, we did not explore how happy we could of been, had you been of the same fearless desire as my own to explore the potential thriving happiness we could of been.
ya, i want to be free of toxic contrived uncertainty that i do feel daily of you not holding my hand, where others do, leaving me feeling no doubt of my yearning for ‘real’ life tender love of a loving lover.
what we all constantly yearn 4
as you say, it takes 2 tango.
it takes 2 of genuine sincere surrendered spirit with one another to tango, to do anything together, which i do sense you want to, just not to the degree of ‘real’ life holding my hand as yet, of the only thing that is able to 100% dispell my toxic contrived uncertainty, someone holding my hand.
normal
ok, let me know if you want to hold my hand some day by holding my hand, that may or may not be there, depending on who else may find ‘me’ in life, as i turn towards making my self available to who ever i happen apon along the path near the end of my life’s journey, where without doubt, i know what works and what does not work for ‘me’, ideally, someone just like ‘me’, of the same surrendered fearless spirit as my own.
i do feel your purity of love, which i obviously wanted as a partner in ‘real’ life, but the toxic contrived uncertainty will always be there, so long as you no one is there holding my hand in ‘real’ life of what we all constantly love and yearn to feel, the tender loving lover we all constantly are.
we are all the same oneness loving lover, some of evolved fearlessness like my own, some still evolving.
alright, i’ll go, and set my self free to just feel genuince sincere ‘real’ desire of another who is obvious of the fearless loving lover like ‘me’, and the obviousness of those who are not.
keeping it real, as they say, where only real is where you will find ‘me’ of where i don’t feel any toxic contrived uncertainty of a real hand holding mine, constantly wishing what is true of ‘me’ the same for all of you.
no guilt
no goodbyes
just turning towards what we all constantly deserve and constantly are
real love
we have real love, because we all constantly are real love, just not to the degree of real life love of merely a hand holding mine, which dispells all toxic contrived uncertainty within.
i know you love ‘me’, and don’t want ‘me’ to ever feel toxic contrived uncertainty, nor do i you, where we both have to let go and just go BE our loving self with who ever.
if you do find you do want to love ‘me’ in real life, then come stand in front of ‘me’ someday.
till then, i am surrendering to where we all belong, the purity of the pure of heart constant flawless healing feelings of the divine child of God true ‘real’ self with another.
blessings to all
Jesus constantly loves ALL God loves ALL We love ALL
God blesses all
forever more
love and peace be to this house
love and peace be to you
and love and peace be to you
forever more
*spelling*
BEcause i am the *fearless* playfulness of a gayboy bottom, only a lover who is of the same fearless playfulness is going to feel comfortable for me, and i know and feel the fearless playfulness in another, or the lacking fearlessness compared to my own, like any veteran does of the LGBT community.
i accept my place in life along side of you as a life long true and faithful friend, nothing more, as i turn towards where we all BElong.
blessings to all
no more toxic contrived uncertainty for ‘me’ Biyatches! lol
Venus, always has the last word to say, as i sashay away!
for fuck sakes everyone, BE HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
there is no greater value in life you WILL ever discover, than genuine sincere real happiness i know of ‘me’ of YOU, of what is TRUE of us all, always was, always WILL BE…………without doubt.
anyway……….i have decided to make this my last post at Madonna’s blog, of what is my resent of any and all who approach ‘me’ of emptiness of a statement of “get over it”, which feels as though your summarizing of my life, of the depth of my heart, mind, body, spirit and soul as though nothing, as evident by the hollow emptiness of words like this.
get over what?
get over the fact that 13 gay youths will kill themselves today?
got over the fact that 30,000 children will die from childhood preventable deseases and starvation?
get over that after all this time, no one has come forward with a genuine concerted effort of what i stand up for year after year in our pushing forward like we do in the yearly Toronto Pride?
well, what is there to say to someone of hollow words like this to me this day, other than, fuck off!
i won’t be back to this blog again to experience this kind of bullshit conversations that are as toxic as i ever want to experience.
any and all who want to speak with me, do it in person, as i am not doing anything other than ‘real’ life from now on, at the urging of my therapist to discontinue from how you people leave me feeling like i yet am, as though of no importance in ‘real’ life or your speaking with me the way some of you yet do here at this blog.
for sure, without doubt, i am done expressing the significance of my life on par with the significance of Jesus Christ, who i know is the most evolved divine child of God, of 100% surrendered spirit to the flawless healing feelings that i too feel daily.
how can i feel purity of love with those of egotistic emptiness of hollow words of the divine child of us all in their expressing ‘get over it’?
fuck off
where all untruthfulness is, you will not find ‘me’
i won’t be back
And they lived happily ever after…..
one, two, three, four…
five, six, seven ….
Eight…………………………………………………….
kids playing hide and seek?
no seriously, you don’t take my life serious, as though i matter to you in real life, of issues and concerns that matter to me, where if i spoke up on issues, and ignored you, you would feel what that feels like, not at all like ordinary real life best friends do…………..of what is contrived in feeling for me, for anyone to feel.
i mean think about it……………..really think about it.
how would you feel if you were left standing there alone in life by a supposed best friend?
best friends?
i ask for horses and i am left standing here, no reply, no nothing.
so why both even speaking with someone who makes me feel as though i don’t exist?
my feelings are real, and true real feelings i feel, you too would feel if of my shoes.
well, i throw it back for you to sort out, in my feeling i need to speak with others who are more motivated to participate in serious real life issues.
i can’t believe you ignore me the way you do, of emptiness nothingness you leave me to feel…………hugely toxic for anyone to feel.
you want a best friend, but you don’t act like best friends do.
truly, if i treated you the way you do me in real life, you would run away too.
I ask for something special like horses, and you cannot embrace how special this would be for me, so if you want to act like a best friend, then get me my horses, damn it!
or go feel what is of your contrived feelings for me that i feel in hanging around you of seemingly best friends………..without me…………..i want fun loving best friends, not lame boring ass ones.
best friends………….oh yeah, best friends with my therapist that i need because i have no best friends………ok, i get it.
fuck!
ten kids, one from each country
what do you mean there are 195 countries?
well, ok, then adopt 195 kids! lol
can you image what a riot each blessed day would be, if you had 195 kids running around?
let’s see, 195 kids who laugh 400 times a day = 78,000 laughs per day, only to wake again the next day to 78, 000 more laughs!!!!!
clearly, it would be impossible to be unhappy in a such happy environment, or if you ever were unhappy, it would be short lived, momentarily.
The countries of the world and capitals of every country follow:
Afghanistan – Kabul
Albania – Tirane
Algeria – Algiers
Andorra – Andorra la Vella
Angola – Luanda
Antigua and Barbuda – Saint John’s
Argentina – Buenos Aires
Armenia – Yerevan
Australia – Canberra
Austria – Vienna
Azerbaijan – Baku
The Bahamas – Nassau
Bahrain – Manama
Bangladesh – Dhaka
Barbados – Bridgetown
Belarus – Minsk
Belgium – Brussels
Belize – Belmopan
Benin – Porto-Novo
Bhutan – Thimphu
Bolivia – La Paz (administrative); Sucre (judicial)
Bosnia and Herzegovina – Sarajevo
Botswana – Gaborone
Brazil – Brasilia
Brunei – Bandar Seri Begawan
Bulgaria – Sofia
Burkina Faso – Ouagadougou
Burundi – Bujumbura
Cambodia – Phnom Penh
Cameroon – Yaounde
Canada – Ottawa
Cape Verde – Praia
Central African Republic – Bangui
Chad – N’Djamena
Chile – Santiago
China – Beijing
Colombia – Bogota
Comoros – Moroni
Congo, Republic of the – Brazzaville
Congo, Democratic Republic of the – Kinshasa
Costa Rica – San Jose
Cote d’Ivoire – Yamoussoukro (official); Abidjan (de facto)
Croatia – Zagreb
Cuba – Havana
Cyprus – Nicosia
Czech Republic – Prague
Denmark – Copenhagen
Djibouti – Djibouti
Dominica – Roseau
Dominican Republic – Santo Domingo
East Timor (Timor-Leste) – Dili
Ecuador – Quito
Egypt – Cairo
El Salvador – San Salvador
Equatorial Guinea – Malabo
Eritrea – Asmara
Estonia – Tallinn
Ethiopia – Addis Ababa
Fiji – Suva
Finland – Helsinki
France – Paris
Gabon – Libreville
The Gambia – Banjul
Georgia – Tbilisi
Germany – Berlin
Ghana – Accra
Greece – Athens
Grenada – Saint George’s
Guatemala – Guatemala City
Guinea – Conakry
Guinea-Bissau – Bissau
Guyana – Georgetown
Haiti – Port-au-Prince
Honduras – Tegucigalpa
Hungary – Budapest
Iceland – Reykjavik
India – New Delhi
Indonesia – Jakarta
Iran – Tehran
Iraq – Baghdad
Ireland – Dublin
Israel – Jerusalem*
Italy – Rome
Jamaica – Kingston
Japan – Tokyo
Jordan – Amman
Kazakhstan – Astana
Kenya – Nairobi
Kiribati – Tarawa Atoll
Korea, North – Pyongyang
Korea, South – Seoul
Kosovo – Pristina
Kuwait – Kuwait City
Kyrgyzstan – Bishkek
Laos – Vientiane
Latvia – Riga
Lebanon – Beirut
Lesotho – Maseru
Liberia – Monrovia
Libya – Tripoli
Liechtenstein – Vaduz
Lithuania – Vilnius
Luxembourg – Luxembourg
Macedonia – Skopje
Madagascar – Antananarivo
Malawi – Lilongwe
Malaysia – Kuala Lumpur
Maldives – Male
Mali – Bamako
Malta – Valletta
Marshall Islands – Majuro
Mauritania – Nouakchott
Mauritius – Port Louis
Mexico – Mexico City
Micronesia, Federated States of – Palikir
Moldova – Chisinau
Monaco – Monaco
Mongolia – Ulaanbaatar
Montenegro – Podgorica
Morocco – Rabat
Mozambique – Maputo
Myanmar (Burma) – Rangoon (Yangon); Naypyidaw or Nay Pyi Taw (administrative)
Namibia – Windhoek
Nauru – no official capital; government offices in Yaren District
Nepal – Kathmandu
Netherlands – Amsterdam; The Hague (seat of government)
New Zealand – Wellington
Nicaragua – Managua
Niger – Niamey
Nigeria – Abuja
Norway – Oslo
Oman – Muscat
Pakistan – Islamabad
Palau – Melekeok
Panama – Panama City
Papua New Guinea – Port Moresby
Paraguay – Asuncion
Peru – Lima
Philippines – Manila
Poland – Warsaw
Portugal – Lisbon
Qatar – Doha
Romania – Bucharest
Russia – Moscow
Rwanda – Kigali
Saint Kitts and Nevis – Basseterre
Saint Lucia – Castries
Saint Vincent and the Grenadines – Kingstown
Samoa – Apia
San Marino – San Marino
Sao Tome and Principe – Sao Tome
Saudi Arabia – Riyadh
Senegal – Dakar
Serbia – Belgrade
Seychelles – Victoria
Sierra Leone – Freetown
Singapore – Singapore
Slovakia – Bratislava
Slovenia – Ljubljana
Solomon Islands – Honiara
Somalia – Mogadishu
South Africa – Pretoria (administrative); Cape Town (legislative); Bloemfontein (judiciary)
Spain – Madrid
Sri Lanka – Colombo; Sri Jayewardenepura Kotte (legislative)
Sudan – Khartoum
Suriname – Paramaribo
Swaziland – Mbabane
Sweden – Stockholm
Switzerland – Bern
Syria – Damascus
Taiwan – Taipei
Tajikistan – Dushanbe
Tanzania – Dar es Salaam; Dodoma (legislative)
Thailand – Bangkok
Togo – Lome
Tonga – Nuku’alofa
Trinidad and Tobago – Port-of-Spain
Tunisia – Tunis
Turkey – Ankara
Turkmenistan – Ashgabat
Tuvalu – Vaiaku village, Funafuti province
Uganda – Kampala
Ukraine – Kyiv
United Arab Emirates – Abu Dhabi
United Kingdom – London
United States of America – Washington D.C.
Uruguay – Montevideo
Uzbekistan – Tashkent
Vanuatu – Port-Vila
Vatican City (Holy See) – Vatican City
Venezuela – Caracas
Vietnam – Hanoi
Yemen – Sanaa
Zambia – Lusaka
Zimbabwe – Harare
While the listing above is an authoritative listing of the independent countries of the world, it is important to note that there are also more than sixty Territories, Colonies, and Dependencies of independent countries.
* No country maintains its embassy in Jerusalem and some posit that Jerusalem is not a legal capital city. However, the executive, judicial, and legislative headquarters are all in Jerusalem so Jerusalem is the de facto capital of Israel.
somewhere RIGHT NOW in the world, there is a child waking up to another blessed day, who while we are sitting here, in this moment, the defenseless child is feeling sad sorrow feelings of no food to eat.
blessed are the merciful who sincerely take time to feel what this child is feeling, for truly, you recieve mercy from having to feel this child’s sorrow, by means of your compassionate knowing merciFULness love feelings, do you not?
i saw a picture of David standing in front of a group of kids in Africa, of children just like him, who looked apon David, their awe struck feelings of who is this beautiful child like David, who looks like ‘me’?
Truly, a captivating moment i could feel of all those children there, wondering if you too felt what i feel, yes?
Oneness Sameness Divine Loving Pure Spirit of the Children of God.
blessings to all
why is it that when others fall down in life, others come along and kick them some more, mocking them, making them feel as though losers?
my boss is laying me off, only to give my job to someone else? huh?
like i needed that, more homophobic bashing.
i’ve gotten used to it.
they can kick me all they want, none shall ever break my pure of heart fearless loving spirit, not ever!
who is really losing in their contrived unloving approach with ‘me’?
morons
i am surrounded by moron wannaBEs, couldaBEs, supposedaBEs, get away from ‘me’ BEE!
hey, did i tell you the time i ran over a bumble bees nest with a tracktor one time?
looking back, i saw this one bee that kept chasing me, which really freaked me out, all the way across this field until inevitably, it succeeded in stinging me!
i deserved it? ya, i guess i did.
relentless was the be, of what is my relentless need to BE!
BE what?
Constantly my need to BE the pure of heart constant flawless healing love feelings of ‘me’, are we not?
cannot hide from ‘me’, no matter how hard we try.
do you know how hard it is to get a job when they realize you are gay?
it fucking sucks, trying to live in a world so unaccepting some days! bash bash bash is what we get every fucking day we wake to, where we feel compassion for how immature people are, and that is what most don’t know about us, is our compassion for their unwiseness. We had to become wise in order to survive in such a stiffling unloving unaccepting world, where some of us do not survive your homophobic attitudes everyone, we die every day!
Silence = Death
I ain’t dead yet
ok, so where are we?
hmmm…..let’s C
according to 6.67428(67)×10−11 m3·kg−1·s−2, we are of the constant gavitional attraction to this ball of dirt we stand on, comprised of 1.672 621 637(83) × 10−27 kg, the same constant proton mass as the earth, where 299 792 458 m·s−1, we are of the constant speed of light bombardment of warm light from the sun above which sustains all life on this ball of dirt. lol
now if we can just learn how to BE of the constant yearning of the divine child within us all to feel love, of what is TRUE of every divine child of God.
i suspect even God is scratching his head on this one, as to what could possibly BE wrong with us, knowing we are all perfect in God’s eyes, where obviously we all have just not yet come fully into our awareness of how brilliant and bright our constant brain capacity and capability actually is.
Truly, it boggles my mind some days, of the useless bickering i hear and feel like i do, as in, “What the fuck is wrong with you people, don’t you know who your constant flawless healing feelings of radiant brilliant bright nonstop unstoppable abundant overflowing exceeding joyFULLness that awakens, nurtures and protects the whole world from the generational deluge of ignorant destructive unwisenesses that continues to sweep away the divine children of God?
constant is the obvious constant TRUTH of our descerning feelings, which are unable to fail, TRUTH that is unable to ever die, the constant TRUTH Jesus knows of the unborn children of us all for all eternity yet to come, the kingdom of heaven so easy to find, our constant feelings, merely by holding one another’s hand.
blessed is the divine child asleep and/or awake who is always of the constant awarenesss of the TRUTH of our dreams.
forever more
well, i have been marching since 1993, so what is the likelyhood i will keep on marching?
100%
and what does the marching do?
reaches into the loving soul within others, encouraging of fearless empowerment like our own, in overcoming denial of our homoerotice feelings, does it not?
we know
four three two one we go
where the beginning is, there 2 is the end, is it not?
where end of fearfullness,
is the beginning of fearlessness.
where end of binding unhappiness,
is the beginning of free happiness.
where end of ‘real’ female/male self uncertainty,
is the beginning of ‘real’ female/male self certainty.
where the end of hell imprisoned love doubtful feelings,
is the beginning of kingdom of heaven love devoid of doubt feelings.
where the end of death,
is the beginning of life,
So where is the kingdom of heaven and when will it come?
What we look for has already come and is all around us, is us, the constant flawless healing feelings of radiant brilliant bright nonstop unstoppable abundant overflowing exceeding joyFULLness that awakens, nurtures and protects the whole world from the generational deluge of ignorant destructive unwisenesses that continues to sweep away the divine children of God, just as the unwise did with Jesus who they unwisely mocked and placed apon the cross, where what most do not know, is that Jesus WILLingly surrendered to the claws of the beasts of ignorance, for sake of mirroring our unwise ugliness, which Jesus knows we would turn away from, and turn towards what Jesus knows of us all, the constant eternal TRUTH of the eternal reproducing divine child of God, created in God’s image, YOU!
Jesus speaks the TRUTH to every unborn divine child of God yet to come for all eternity, just as we too embrace the TRUTH of everything we take time in stepping fully into our awareness of the pure TRUTH of our constant love devoid of doubt feelings we feel like we do, asleep in dreams, and awake in the constant yearning dream of a loving life.
i know where i constantly BElong, and where i constantly am, easy to find, standing next to Jesus, next to YOU, here in the kingdom of heaven all around us, embracing of all costant TRUTHs, past, present, future.
eternally forever more
(Madonna, standing there next to Andy babbling on like he always does, of inner delight bubbling feelings she feels and keeps hiding from him, listens to Andy ask another question.)
hey, do you think Jesus knew how to write words on paper?
i question this, from two plausible explainations.
one, he was born in a rural area, where schooling was not likely something his family could afford, what with his father a carpenter.
secondly, if Jesus was not of the distraction of education of that time period, this would lend time to Jesus to merely be of his constant self awareness feelings like you and i constantly feel in our meditative sanctuaries like we love to do, hence, the pure focused ability Jesus grew and evolved in like he did, where i see Jesus as one who is of meditative Self-taught Self-knowledge Self-awareness, where words such as, ‘Jesus in the desert with God teaching him’, is indicative of Jesus being meditative Self-taught Self-knowledge awareness teaching, alone, where we know without doubt, pure fearlessness of self, is able to thrive and grow, just as one become fearless of their own healthy masterbation, do we not?
Sex Education Class 101
hey, can you loan me some horses for the upcoming Pride?
i love the fearlessness feeling of horses in a parade, that speaks so loudly of our fearless love!
i’ll understand if you are too busy…………….hmmm………..actually, no i won’t………….i take that back!
no excuses!
that’s the new rule Biyatches! lol
when will sexism stop?
when all males and females are of priority embrace of ONEness SAMEness TRUTH!
when will racism stop?
when all males and females are of priority embrace of ONEness SAMEness TRUTH!
when will homophobia stop?
when all males and females are of priority embrace of ONEness SAMEness TRUTH!
when will war stop?
when all males and females are of priority embrace of ONEness SAMEness TRUTH!
when will barriers of religion stop?
when all males and females are of priority embrace of ONEness SAMEness TRUTH!
when will status stop?
when all males and females are of priority embrace of ONEness SAMEness TRUTH!
when will wealth stop?
when all males and females are of priority embrace of ONEness SAMEness TRUTH!
when will i stop annoying you?
when all males and females are of priority embrace of ONEness SAMEness TRUTH! lol
ONE LOVE
waking this morning, my ex insulted me nonstop, so i handed him the set of keys i had, and walked out.
junk transference
argh……..someone told me today they don’t allow horses in the parade.
a peaceful Sunday of sunshine and moon in the sky, waundering around in the ghetto, thinking, God will present me with someone, and sure enough, behold, an old boss of mine in a gay club, obviously one of us, i did not know at the time, after the usual laughter, he offers me what i need, a job. Question is, how did i know i would meet someone who would be a part of my future? Weird, i always get these strange clairvoyance days of knowingness.
An emotional week coming up in addressing my accountability statement for group therapy, which ties in a review of my entire life experiece since childhood, the yet immature abreaction manifestations of resorting to an immature way of dealing with emotions, that are easily triggered by inappropriate others like they yet do, of my now taking the high road of assertiveness, rather than the draining passive/aggressive action/reaction interactions that plaques us, so long as we don’t step away and set healthy boundaries with those who we are aware have a tendancy of enjoyment of getting on our case, in our professional and personal worlds.
I love the new calmness of a new day in my life’s journey, however the struggle emotionally will be, my awareness that reveals, i am better being away from those who belittle me with condescending unwanted behaviour, their own immaturity, belongs to them, not me.
blessings to all
ya me too crossed path’s with my ex.. last Friday fortunatly i can easily make myself invisible, little alien trick, but one must forgive & move on, were all the same oneness expressing separation while connected to the whole, damn my next lover will be one that look’s within for the truth… who you looking at !
never too late
to be at the gate
and open things
Up
It’s true
If you need me
Baby
I’ll be
Anywhere
you want me too
But if it’s too late
to slip through your gate
baby
I know what to do
Sing you a song
You sing along
There’s nothing
That we can’t do
Please play along
and please sing my song
Cause baby
I know you
If you sing along
and sing me a song
Then it’ll be true
Cause Never’s too late
Let’s open the gate
And just be you
And here ends the song
please sing along
and know
that i love you!
x
that’s such a lovely song,
i printed a copy to carry around every day,
i’ll memorise the word’s by singing it everyday
so long as you stay
hey you wanna play 🙂
You’re so strong
that’s why I’ve liked you so long
It’s not too late to be my mate,
Baby its true,
I always think about you
I’ll sing you a song
You sing along
Never afraid to be myself
When you’re around
I am who I am,
Because you love me
For being all that I am
I know you’re real
It’s what I feel
We think the same
You and me
Both so strong
You and Me
Never Afraid
You and Me
From the beginning
Until the end,
You’re going to be my friend
But i think it’s Heaven sent,
That we were meant,
To be more than
just a friend
Until the end…..
Because you’re smart
And listen to your heart
You’ll see
What I can see
Lovers apart young and free
Cuddling under the tree –
just you and me
x
what with your talent
my secret power’s
your secret power’s
my talent
together
we can move mountain’s
i am ready
im not shy, ( never was )
i’ve spent 30yrs working damn hard for my knowledge
you’ve spent 30yrs working damn hard for your knowledge
i have what you want
you have what i want
let’s share
the knowledge
and we
can
and we
will
Turn
THIS WORLD AROUND !!!!!!!!!!
God Bless XoX
One Virgin Mamma & One hell of a torchered baby,
on the Rock’s
don’t forget the straw !
ok
I’m Shy…
but “Hey You”
take me away
to you’re Crystal Candle in the Sky …
& i’ll take you to my Crystal Candle in the Sky …
One Light
One Candle
One of me.. is more than enough for you to handle …
🙂
your surrounded by fake peope, i am not gonna chase you because i am to strong and independant to play that silly game..
spiritually some one does love love love you, he want’s nothing from you !!
but he does look for love in all around and will follow that .. the love…
but he’ll protect you
he’ll be true to you
and he’ll be the one for you…
be carefull my love…
& for god’s sake
if your not sure
just ask me
i’ll tell
you
how it Is
i’ll be true
to
you !!!
Fuck off Marco
Ok Madonna
You Win
I give Up !!
i saw
it comming
I thought
I was still the King of Rock & Roll
Heyyyyyyyyy
Where the Fuck
is
Madonna ?
i gotta a size D cup !
im a looser
pay my way
i’m french
i’m not really gay..
Madonna “Will you” ???????????????????
uhm
tie up my Shoelaces..
WTF
is going on ??
did i miss something
nah woody
you missed nothing,
just trying to convince Madonna
well that’s another
Story !
After all
she get’s to have the last say…
rightly so
You really need to cut down on drinking at high altitudes Biyatch! You making me dizzy Biyatch! lol
i’ll be true
to
you !!!
hmmmm…..”sounds like someone is coming in for a landing Jesus, in approaching their surrendered spirit! Should i wave them bi, and ask them to come around again? They appear to be flying upside down, not knowing it! Or perhaps they are as wise as we are, and are just enjoying being their COCKY usual self?” lol
Jesus, “Do you trust them 100%?”
Andy, “Fuck NO!!!!!!!!!!”
Jesus, “Are you willing to trust them 100%?”
Andy, “……………………………………………………..eventually”
hey, did you see/feel the moon yesterday? I was thinking of you, and our true free spirits in life.
I forgive my ex, as he is not a monster, and i will be there in life as a friend, just as i am any in the ghetto, family. He was not my type when i met him, something i have denied along time. We got together way back when out of convience, and in truth, his clean and sober life likely saved my life. His needs have not been getting met lately, and like most who get older, they get abit crankier, or at least i know i have. I watched my grandparents get crankier, crusty, as they got older, so it is a normal thing. It just stop working for me, as regards the sex with my ex, as i did fall out of love with him. He is a beautiful soul, but sexually, he really didn’t turn me on the whole time i was with him, like i know others do.
I’m not sure if i feel abandonment guilt, or guilt for overstaying staying as long as i did. I know he will be happier with someone else, where i know, no matter how well i pretended with him, he could intuitively sense my lacking sincere zeal in being with him, merely because he did not turn me on since the beginning. I remember thinking about it in the beginning, and should of not gotten involved in the first place. He clung to me at the time, i did not have it within me to pass him bi, although now i feel as though he may have missed out on years of happiness, had i let him meet someone who is more sexually attracted to him than me.
I will still be there in life, being assertive of any who approach him who i deem inapproriate for him, such as substance abusers, where i know i am a solid friend in life he can confide in as needed.
my other friend? He has some moderate>+>severe self-medication issues, who needs some solid guide posts in his life, myself and some safe and supportive souls, where others are not, in re-building his self-esteem up enough to get out of the danger he is in. He confides in me openly without fear of recrimination, no denial, reaching out, speaking sensible, afraid of his future path, in need of coaching, where i don’t spare him from hearing the truth of what he can expect statistically, just look around, the truth is there all around you.
he is out of denial, but not out of danger, and having ADHD doesn’t help, of his own recreational experimenting with brain chemical enhansing drugs.
i see alot of ADHD kids into these brain enhancing drugs, where they don’t realize their own predisposition susceptible impulsiveness acting before thinking of consequences, places them at higher risk of moderate to severe for becoming addicts.
Usually all these kids need is someone to talk sensible with, encouraging of their already existent sensible thinking and feeling. Most run away from these kids in danger who do need safe and supportive friends. I have solid ground rules that i tell them are of God’s rules that i had to make in order to save and protect my own liffe from years of addiction that i too experienced, and the friends who died along the way who did not, of what they can expect in life, and from ‘me’……….the TRUTH.
~
argh, you got it wrong, spiritually some one does love love love you 100%
this is an important aspect of the divine child of God who is from the womb of God, 100% perfect in God’s eyes, 100% capable, 100% only deserving of love, compassion and wisdom of God.
shesssshh!
always explaining…………………….
blessed is the 100% pure flawless healing feeling divine child of God
forever more
too late?
late, yes, i give you that, “Your fucking late Biyatch, and your singing the same song over and over again gets fucking annoying after awhile too!” LOL
well? it’s true, isn’t it?
i am a singer, guitar player, so i know, we get bored of the singing the same song all the time, yes?
i was thinking joyful happy songs like ‘Ray of Light’, is what we all want to hear and feel, and God knows most are not feeling to great right now, in need of a boost.
That’s the thing with any era, is the musicians who help pull us out of the eras, of sincere concern for others who are getting lulled into whatever, such as the Veitnam war, where musicians were activists.
spiritually speaking, i know what Jesus was reaching for, and indeed feeling, his own inner joyfulness, where if indeed he was a virgin till death, well, we know he was thinking beautiful thoughts, yes?
likely could not decide between sex with a male or a female, not wanting to betray either of his feelings for males and females…………too bad i did not exist back then, as i could of easily been his tranny biyatch following him around daily, warning everyone not to tread on his shiny garment i made for him to wear and protect him/her.
maybe Jesus was physically of both sexes, or no sex………we don’t know.
Jesus esteemed love above lust, which is correct for any of us who have surrendered to our lust feelings for sake of sex with someone we barely know, waking in the morning, “Who are you, and how the fuck did you get in my bed, get out!” lol
“Or make me breakfast, and get your beautiful bod back in bed with me and keep me warm, damn it!”
you are in a special place in life, protected from harshness of life of an ordinary life, which is really just mind over matter for any of oppressive behaviour in their professional/personal worlds, where wisdom does assist us in overcoming any toxic relationships, where realization of leaving is the only option at the time, of later evaluation should we wish to reconsider.
so, you like the idea Andy is FREEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!
do ya?
ya, we have something pure and true, where i know without doubt, if of you, i’ll be true 2 you, likely several times a day actually, or as often as you want !!! lol
my biking has doubled now, healthier path which i welcome, wanting to overcome my smoking addiction by appreciation of the better healthier level i am striving for. I think it’s around 15km per day now, down to the lake and back, around town and what not.
if you want it
here it is
come and get
but you better hurry cause it’s going fast
remember that song?
ok, so if you want joyful feeling, we have to surrender to our joyfulness feelings, yes?
so if you want to write joyful songs, you first have to surrender to the blessed joyful feelings of what the songs will be, yes?
so aim for the target Biyatch, while i am still standing here, with no uncertainty doubt, and you will hit the target, only bi means of your comprehension of what i speak of, of what you already know 2, the ‘real’ you is what we both value most in our wise approach with one another.
and likewise, the true artist/musician is of the same precious endeavor to awaken, connect, nurture, protect what is sacred.
it does take 2 according to God, in our assisting one another mirroring wisdom, and Jesus 100% knew this by his own awareness of the pure connectivity with the divine child of another, which he felt, as did they, as did Jesus not only mirror the divine child true aspects, he willing surrendered to fearless humilation mirroring of the opposite truths of the unwise generational deluge of ignorant destruction he saw snaring all those he loved, just as we too see and feel like we do, where it is said, there is no greater feeling of loss, than the death of our own child.
well people, the world is a haphazard aimless dangerous place for the child of God, young and old to play in, where merely by means of wisdom, the divine child is able to BE protected, of what is of Jesus and God’s divine WILL wisdom meant for us all, obviously so, 100%, is it not?
BE FEARLESSLY WITHOUT DOUBT, of what is constant yearning of the divine child of God YOU…………….WITHOUT DOUBT.
Jesus overcame fear of this world, to the extent, he fearlessly calmly willingly walked thru the eternal door of his own death, where beyond the obvious mirroring teaching, is what is most significant in Jesus doing this, which i know Jesus knew someone would come fully to the evolved level of understanding what Jesus wanted us to know fully as the most important issue………………fearlessly without doubt of all truth, 100%, the divine child of God YOU!
we know the divine child constantly(100%) yearns to feel love, as you say, we’re all the same oneness expressing separation(consciously/subconsciously) while connected to the whole, where what is true, is the manifestations that point to the truth, when a divine child is not feeling love, of the obvious manifestations of such.
in looking apon Jesus next to me in the desert, i see who i really am, who i once was, the fearless child who knows i will always love my best friend, no matter how bitchy she gets, just as i know she will always love me, till our last day.
as kids, we had childhood friends that we constantly loved like we did, and that is what is same oneness true feeling expression of my constant pure feelings that i feel for you, that is the same as i feel for Jesus, who does not ever turn away, that is the same as i recall from childhood friends, where we are of blessed purity of heart as children, becoming the lessor jaded fucked mentalities we see in adult life.
what?
well, it’s true, some of you are really fucking annoying! lol
and so too am i at times, as i 2 am shy.
blessed is the fearless divine child wisely without doubt, for you shall meet God
blessings to all
actually, i love the joyful spiritedness of your song writing words, where without doubt, YOU are the gate of the divine child of God.
without doubt
forever more
it is more than just aiming for a target, it is embracing the truth that in order to hit the target, we first have to BEcome fully of comprehension of the target we aim for, in other words, aim towards the target of comprehension of the divine child of God, which you do, and without doubt, i too am of the same genuine sincere eager diligent dedicated devoted determination, towards self- knowledge awareness knowing of the divine child we are, are we not?
according to Jesus and God we constantly 100% are, always were, always will BE the pure of heart flawless healing feelings of the divine child of God YOU!
Nature laughed with love when she saw his beauty and splendid energy! Nature then embraced here newly BEloved with self love welcoming arms!
I was thinking out loud the other day, as to why two soul mates who feel the truth of their joyful ‘real’ self, as you say, heaven sent, meant to be more than just friends……………well yeah, friends first, lovers second!
so i contemplated this well, and came to peer into the truth of what keeps two pure of heart souls of the constant yearning love for one another apart, and i look apon the existence of impure substances, of my smoking, of your Vino, as what is cause for my greater healthy brighter TRUE ‘real’ self shining more brilliant radiant brightly, like i we both once did long before any substance use came into our lives.
this fractured dimming, wavering, hazziness is exactly what is the momentary in between fluctuating states that does fluctuate like it does, of many causes besides substance use as well, such as transference, depending on what day, of whatever distracting dimming.
then there is the fear that emanates from these fractured fluctuating momentary states that strikes fear into us, unwisely, and yet, again and again, our own returning to our pure feelings of our meditative pure state of BEing ‘real’ self, like we do, which rekindles our unextinguishable inexhaustable replenishing (secret power) TRUE spiritedness, exactly that of our divine child of God of our fearless childhood, like we were, like we yet are, according to psychology, who the ‘real’ self actually is.
the divine child is pure, and anything impure, is of fractured dim for the divine child to feel, of what is uncertaint, untrust.
i don’t say this to pick apon anyone, rather of my contemplated fearless free flowing introspection study of the divine child.
ok, so without doubt, we know impure thought and words, is fractured dimming of the divine child of God’s pure spirit, of what is dimming of our connectedness between us all, of whatever is cause for the dimming, of what is inescapable truth for any divine child of God’s pure spirit.
by nature, the pure harmoniousness of every cell in our bodies, is exactly that, harmonious. So by nature, unwisenesses(generational deluge), is consciously, subconsciously felt by the pure divine child of God.
our pure light draws us to the self love mirror of one another, not merely a notion, no, deeply pure in feeling, like i was feeling yesterday well looking up at the moon, feeling the purity of feelings i feel like i do, knowing you do too.
pure trust is of the purity feeling of this light that emanates and draws us toward the self love mirror of the blessed divine child of God of us all.
but whenever impurity is felt, the trust is dimmed, fractured, fearful in feeling.
so how do we overcome these partialities?
well, one of us has to step fully into the kingdom of heaven and weight for the other(s), yes?
ok, i will step fully into BEing my fearless self now Biyatch!
and wait here for you
i am not going anywhere, other than where i always am, stuck on this ball of dirt with YOU!
forever more
“Who goes there!”
“Announce your as you ‘real’ SELF before Jesus and God!”
oh, it’s you, i didn’t recognize you at first………..been awhile since i saw you last.
“ALAST YOU ARE HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!”
what did you say you name was again? lol
Nature laughed with love when she/he saw her/his beauty and splendid energy! Nature then embraced her/his newly BEloved with self love welcoming arms!
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm…………..
blessed blessed blessed is the pure of heart pure love feelings of the divine child of God true ‘real’ self YOU!
forever more
my name’s
tease
want some reiki ?
i’m so tired i cannot write a word tonight i think i shall go to sleep, ( alone as per usual ) , anywz be happy smile, & all that jazz.,.. and feel the love.. love
actually i’m feeling a little disturbed, i met an old friend last night, who was once very close friend that i went to school with and lived next too in my youth, i asked him about his 3yr old daughter, & said she must mean to world to him, his response was not really, not quite prepared for that response i delved deeper and asked what is most important to you in your life his response was money, at that point i thought it was best to leave as i was very close to puking on him, what a jerk, no wonder his girl left him not long after their daughter was born, anywaz i should stop being an idealist & accept the world truly is still full of many lost soul’s..
Reiki, yes!
the pure reiki feeling sensation of our body, is what is our awareness of the meditative at ease pure ‘real’ self of our peaceful calm meditative state of BEing our divine self.
the pure reiki feeling is what is of the day we see/feel our true ‘real’ self of rejoicing.
the pure reiki feeling is the same pure feeling of our childhood, recalling how i felt at the age of five.
the pure reiki feeling fluctuates between certainty love devoid of doubt we feel like we do of love devoid of doubt that emanates pure and true from others, as well, at times thoughout our entire life that our keen insight awareness reveals is true, is the uncertainty doubtful love we feel like we do, of what is of the world yet evolving in wise knowingness realization certainty awakeness(our conscious cognitive reiki self awareness) of the divine child(others) unknowingly asleep(subconscious) in dulling oppressive unwise suppressions of their blessed pure reiki spirit, the divine true ‘real’ YOU!
this reiki pure feeling place we know that the divine child of God within us all intuitively(intuitive constant knowingness from our graceful experience of floating in warm fluids for nine months in the womb, the intuitive subconscious awareness knowingness core of our BEing within us all, the first moments of life) the divine child of us all that is indeed, intuitively constantly yearning/seeking to feel what is constantly 100% pure in feeling, free of the absurd doubtfulness(generational falsehoods) found in the world that Jesus often spoke of, of what was his own evolving awareness of his blessed self.
i do know the pure reiki place that is free of absurd doubtfulness of others, but it is not what necessarily what you may think, by means of wise others who are there, albeit, constant is the intuitive yearning/seeking of my divine self to find another who is of the same priority sincere desire to wisely feel what is our constant yearning/seeking, which cannot ever be switched off, because it is our pure reiki spirit of childhood divine ‘real’ self awareness recalling of the pure reiki feelings, also comprised of our core experience while yet in the womb.
in other words, we are all intuitively yearning/seeking what was our blessed pure reike feeling experience of nine months in the womb.
not only of my own meditative sense of self awareness, i am also aware of what i sense of others, that unknowingly, are the distracting unwise petty ego fearful doubting masks(defense machanism) we all wear like we do at times, false masks we learned to hide behind, naturally so, from the bitter foul tasting fear mongering untrustworthy unwise world, a world that does not know it is of unwise aimless plodding along in life like it does, and dangerously haphazardly so, is it not?
so yeah, we do seek refuge from the unwise world, where there is a priority threshold of awareness we eventually surrender in cossing over, a point of no return surrendering of spirit of stepping fully into what is the wisdom halo, our divine child becomes knowledgable about, a wise robe of wisdom light woven of life experience, meditation awareness, and for me, the wisdom words of Jesus, who we know was intuitively of his own self-knowledge teaching awarenesses.
for me, this special place, of a day i came into seeing/feeling my pure reiki feeling of my divine self, i am alone there, afraid of the unwise world which did batter me, tossed me to and fro my entire life like i did and yet does, oh how i have yearn to be free of this world of unwise brutality and cruelty.
alone there, the unwiseness of the world serves as truths of all untruths, wisdom descerning from a distance, where the truth of the untruth falsehoods the divine child of others unknowingly wears(unknowingly haphazardly snared), is what is of the woven robe of light(woven of many wisdoms, a wise halo) the divine child prefers to fearlessly wear, where even fear has pushed me away from the world into wise fearlessness.
so ya, all the untruths are truth wisdom woven into the protective robe of light.
and all immature ignorant fear in the world is the wiser overcoming mature wisdom fearlessness woven into the protective robe of light, where indeed, constantly at all times, is the truth of untruths, fearless of fear, all of which is what is imperviously woven of the robe of light the divine child of us all, where by means of revealing truth, the robe of wise revealing light does not allow entrance or passage of affecting disturbing damage or harm that continues to emanate from the unknown generational deluge of ignorant destructions yet in the world, of any and all falsehoods that go against the trueness aspects of the divine child of us all.
Jesus wore this robe at all times, after great distance of life traveled experience along the road of life, his witnessing just as we do, of so many horrid life experiences.
the evolving continues, long after Jesus walked the earth, and long after we too are gone.
i embrace this woven garment of light, as what is most sacred in my life.
blessed blessed blessed is the truth of the divine child of us all
forever more
ya, your friend is sadly not of comprehension tuned in cognitive awareness of his own sweet loving joyful divine child of God ‘real’ self, and therefore cannot BE of priority of what is most sacred, of pure constant flowing flawless healing genuine ‘real’ reiki feelings like we do.
alot of people are of the disconnected uncertainty knowingness of their genuine ‘real’ self, of what is obvious aimless plodding along in life, not of earnest questioning seeking of what we know is constant yearning/seeking of the divine child within us all, however (yet) submerged, however (yet) asleep in dulling ignorances of following the crowd, those of snaring ‘life is this way'(monetary), or ‘life is this way'(prostitution drug addiction), of many many falsehoods which are obviously not encouraging of the pure meditative beautiful reiki feelings we enjoy like we do.
i so would love to play guitar with you someday, of what we musicians love most in life to do, a group of accomplished musicians, some Taylor guitars, without effort fun jam sessions, experimenting with the beautiful sounding expressions that resonate with our soul, where the instruments are an extension of the divine self expressing, connecting with others, what feels good to us, feels good to them.
pick a perfectly tuned Taylor accoustic guitar sometime, open chord E on the twelfth fret, 4/4 timing, 2 bars of 1/4 note strumming, single bass string alone striking for first bar, higher 3 strings alone striking for the 2nd bar, slide to open B, same strum, slide to open A, same, slide ending down to open E at bottom.
so beautiful, yes?
picked up a set of strings today, played the Taylor they have there, what a beautiful instrument of God!
i find the better instruments of perfect harmonious strings all the way up and down the fret board, come alive in my hand, of what truly is a way for us to express our pure feelings, like an artist, like a writer, like a singer, the guitar, truly a soothing instrument of God, of what has always been my greatest passion in life, the accoustic guitar, partial to the Taylor or Martin accoustic.
soothing, yes?
see, i am not even there, and yet i am there!
i am ready to get back into playing again, where connecting with these pure feelings, in a knowing cognitive approach way, is how we are able to fearlessly explore expressing the feelings, that these perfectly tuned instruments, lend in their ability to soothingly motivate in a pure harmonious connectedness way with our fearless exploring of our pure feelings, where building creative compositions come to life, recorded forever for others to likewise connect and feel the same soothing pure feelings, just as we do, where without doubt, i know these intruments are of God, where we can see the affect/effect of others feeling what we joyfully express, of what is the pure motivation of a true artist/musician, not for fame, not for money, for sake of another soul to feel what we too feel, the beautiful reiki feelings, yes?
does this mean i can come over now?
just asking……….
fearless connecting with this true musician motivation is where i am now, and soon i will have that Taylor guitar i purchasing(what motivates me to go back to work), where i find my relationship with the guitar, is likeness of feelings for a lover that i love to hold, to sooth, to BE what is of the beautiful sacred feelings coming thru in pure perfect harmonious soothing of the soul within me, within another.
i love the 4/4 1/4 consistent striking strumming of the stings in this composition, that so far has about ten variations of the grouping of stiked strings that i switch up with this open E slidding chord melody.
the consistent hammering in 1/4 timing has a summoning feeling to it which i am yet exploring within, that is taking me somewhere within, of what is the constant yearning/seeking of my divine child self who loves to feel the constant harmoniousness of my pure loving beautiful feelings like i do while playing with this composition that is unending musical expression exploration of our loving self.
just play it, and see what i mean, as it is a playful feeling that is truly soothing to hear/feel.
can i come over now?
how about now?
later? lol
before going into the studio, we have to connect with the pure feelings, and we have to do it by means of fearlessness emotional exploration.
what i find, is the constant yearning of the joyful self is always there, as though waiting on our boring lame ass to let us express what our joyful self is constantly yearning to be given permission to express ~ just let go, and fearless go/follow where the divine joyful self wants to explore, where what i notice most, is that the divine self is already joyful within, and the giving permission to express so easily like we do with the (Taylor) accoustic guitar, is joyfulness for the loving self, not only to feel good of the soothing music feelings, but also to take others to where we constantly yearn to BE with them, like that of the sensual soothing lover’s lips we love kissing!
can i come over now?
i love you damn it!
let your loving self explore your loving feelings, fearless setting what i know is constant yearning feelings like my own to fearlessly explore these pure love beautiful ascending upward joyful love we both want to forever feel, and i will come in with the lead guitar work i am still composing!
ok, from the top! again
again
don’t stop, and become more and more fearless of what i find is the most fearless way to express ourselves, thru a perfectly tuned (Taylor) guitar, that is indeed, for me, the most beautiful pure soothing extension of my pure loving self………..constantly there.
hmmmm…….i suppose if i did come over, we would not get much guitar composing done, wood we? lol
i’d be in the middle of composing, and you wood be like wanting to kiss me, and and and…………….wood you stop that!
and then after arosing me, you walk away, and i am left sitting there with a headful of erotic thoughts, unable to concentrate, where you know, within the count of ten, i put the guitar down and and and………..mmmmmmmmmmmmm………..heaven!!!!!!!!!
what is it about a perfectly tuned accoustic, that soothes away all our foolish thoughts, replacing it with what is the constant pure love feelings of our real self?
this does lend to the indicative truth that musical intruments are an instrument of God, yes?
can i come over now?
of all the places in life i love most, guitar playing is one of my most favorite places of all, that no matter how bad a mood i ever found myself in, the guitar was more so than most lovers, a certainty knowingness of always there!
forever more
kiss me some more
more reiki, YES!!!!!!!!!!!
the lead for this composition is of constant hammer ons, pull offs and slides, non stop, up and down the entire fret board, a composition i have been building on since 1989, which i don’t like to feel is ever finished, of what is true self exploration to a place that is free of uncertainty, radiant brilliant bright, constant harmonious light that does not allow and darkness in, emotional soothing that carries the listener to where my divine child self wants to carry them, as though knowing they to want to come free of the blind absurd dullnesses of life weighing down of the pure reiki loving spirit within us all.
reiki, what a great word!
music does lend to us overcoming silly annoying fear, of self-confidence building, when the musician is truly tuned into where they fearlessly want to go and be, where the fearlessness is so obviouis in the self exploration compositions.
guitar playing is an ever ending evolving fearless joyful self exploration that does lead us somewhere to beautiful heights up out of doldrum stuckness, but we have to give our self permission to freely let go and explore what the pure love joyful feelings are, perhaps of where we yearn to be, other than where we find ourselves at during some points of our life, where the power of music is beyond comprehension of just how many it truly affects/effects in life in a profound life altering way.
how many times have you heard fans say how your music changed their lives, or assisted them in overcoming whatever may have been troubling them.
our own awareness of the pure connectedness that a perfectly tuned accoustice evokes, is all the evidence i need in knowing that music is of God, that helps us in so many ways, of joyful feeling, of sorrow too, the required grieving we all have to go thru during points of our lives.
like Beyonce’s Halo song, truly a beautiful deep fearless soul exploration of the divine reiki feelings of the divine self, fearless felt and brought forth, of what is the special ability of accomplished musician/composers.
one need only ask how many healing tears have been evoked by this artist’s composition, of what is not of distracting fame and fortune, albeit, i feel the song can still some work, truly beautiful though, of what is leading exploration connectedness/seperation of the constant yearning/seeking divine self of us all, from love, and thru love that we return to one another in blessed pure constant flowing love feeling……….true.
http://www.imeem.com/people/CrQhBm7/music/O9tQwwr1/beyonce-halo/
you can come over now, wood you come over now, i’ll reiki you now. i yearn to be a teenager again, happy joyful and fearless, having found my true self , it’s a little lonely here just me and my self, needing my self to be my reiki patient, i have been patient , my reiki hand’s burning up with all the heat and no where to go , not going anywhere without myself
lol
ya, it’s like that!
we try being our fun self with all the sticks in the mud looking on, and it is like, who is this wise alien obviously more intelligent than i am of my yet stiffled afraid to come out self?
if only i could be my fearless self like him/her that i recall being so long ago………..i really dread getting old? or, is it i really dread those who assist in making ‘me’ old? or if i desperately get involved with one more dysfunctional ‘old’ stiffled person again, i’ll end up feeling old?
argh……..did not think getting older would be so unnecessarily unwelcomed painful, but wait, it’s not my shit damn it, it’s my desperate vulnerable wasting of time on the obviously stiffled ‘life is this way’ morons, where my own forgetfulness of ‘me’ is the foe!
i know we would be good for one another, given the chance to realize, and i have connected all the dots of my own issues, not in denial of my substance use of smoking and occasional alcohol use, which i am completely aware does impair my ability to be my more enjoyable rational thinking self.
one thing that comes with abstinance, is the fearlessness of our original ‘real’ self prior to any substance use, which does become fully restored, of the same self-confidence we were in high school, 100% in feeling, but it does take some distance appreciation to come fully into this awareness.
emotionally, i am a mess, admittedly, still detoxing, which will likely take another year to get fully back to my calm carefree at ease gentle loving self, where if you really do want to love ‘me’, for sure would be welcomed soothing healing, and yet, i don’t want to allow myself to imagine such possibility, i really don’t, where in the past, letting go of a knowing joyful life like you live is hard for me, where at times, i do feel like a wannabe loser of the working class stiff, and yet, there is this beautiful artist/muscian pure of heart ‘real’ me so beautiful in his pure love expressions like he does, waundering the opposite, what is there not to love about ‘me’?
i was actually talking with my FtM(female to male) trans friend Alec(out since 1976), about the joyful happy love female/male self i am, of what is genuinely true of ‘me’, a gayboy bottom(mostly) of my twenty years of self-acceptance adjustment self love of the so easy to love female/male lover i 100% am that knows a gayboy is able to love and do, of my many gayboy platonic friends who keep hitting on me like they do.
strangely, the very thing you speak of, of your yearning of the joyful original teenage true ‘real’ self, i know i am consitently so, where speaking with Alec Monday night, i said, “We are here at this point of our veteran self love lover happiness evolved journey, which does not change, where others are back here, of our knowing that it is our well adjusted lover self emanating light, pure in feeling, that attracts these others toward what we know is yet unnurtured thus far of them, of their female/male self.”
ya, the conversations of Alec and i, of the self love conversation of our same veteran light, is good for me. He(she) is so incredibly calm to be around, as though i have known him/her my entire life, our at ease genuine calm relaxed, ain’t going anywhere other than where i always am, center of the universe ‘real’ self, that all the wannabes can bitch about us all they want, they just have to live a few more years till they calm the fuck down! lol
oh, i so 100% want an exceeding joyful exciting life with you, i sometimes allow myself to daydream of, while at the same time, the crushing feeling of the daydreams not ever coming true, leaving me feeling this bullshit status think i dread to feel, of me seemingly being a nobody in life, a loser……………i really wish you would refrain from saying that word.
i was always abit of a paranoid nerd my entire life, like i felt in high school, my self conscious complexes i had, of bad body image that i had about my self, like you do about your legs, although your legs look awesome now, what did you do, some high rep workouts to define them?
i feel we let the world and all of it’s opinions come between us, although, i would ask a professional of when a potential good time would be to meet me would be, if you are considering meeting me.
i really am an emotional wreck lately, as evident of my emotional writings.
well, if of you, i would want to continue in self-help work like i am doing, my third year of self-help support networking therapy of the required three safe and supportive others.
it takes time, and i am 100% optimistic of the future, of what is my ever increasing self-confidence building, but maybe too late for us, considering the healthy prospects of others you can turn to.
perhaps closure is best, of just being friends, you move on, i move on, and perhaps one day we do come to a trust level that is of greater at ease comfort for you.
honestly, considering how messed up i am some days, i don’t want you to see me this way, not yet. I am not as joyful as i used to be years ago, but at least i am addressing the issues of what constitutes a healthy approach to our positive mental emotional well being, where i don’t want to hinder your well being in any way, keeping my posting to once a day, question if my writings are too toxic, too interpersonal of my introspections, ……………….too annoying?
and yet, after all this time, you are yet here, leaving me wondering why?
why have you not brushed me off by now?
do you really think of me all the time? if so, why?
am i good for you? do i have a positive effect on you?
i am growing daily from the self-work, and appreciate your patience, as i do want to meet you one day.
i am putting a down payment on the Taylor.
i love it!
highly motivational for me.
sweetest of dreams.
wow, day three of my new relaxed freedom away from critical ex………..now this i can get used to!
i am feeling highly spiritual everywhere i go, new beginnings of starting over, embracing this excitement within me, which i did not expect to be feeling so soon!
wow!
inner joyfulness levels restoring quickly!
when i think of you and i, i feel the purity of you and i, and this is what is sacred to me, if one day you decide you do want to spend time in real life with me.
i am exceedingly calm and graceful in appearance, and for sure, of exceeding fun loving joy!
for me, you are the most spiritual person i sense like i do, and this is what would be of us if we came together, the most pure spiritual joyfulness set free for us both to BE our pure of heart loving ‘real’ self.
please do give it some serious consideration
bless you
i will, on one condition, lol there’s always a condition..
so long as you teach me to play the guitar again,,
i have’nt played with it since i was 15yrs old
don’t ask me what happened at 15yrs old you already know
anyway…
HELLOO
Ye’shu’ah or is that Ye’h shu’ah
who know’s
ask daddy
“yes you are”
“yes i know”
tell me something i don’t know !
i think i gave you the wrong strum timing…..
and there are some up pick strums thrown in as well….
oh, and there is a fluid flow tempo change thru out…..
fifteen?
i think i discovered my butt by then!
or was it fourteen…..thirteen?
ya, it was thirteen!!!!!
i was thinking you are more grounded in your pure of heart connectedness than i am, which would be good for me, yes?
so Ye’h shu’ah, don’t forget the up picking crashes!
actually, it was Dad’s idea we got together!
tell me something we don’t (yet) KNOW, yet intuitively, we KNOW?
Every heartbeat of life of the divine child is always of intuitive awareness, however suppressed or cognitively(awake) aware………..
we need to be humble of this truth as it relates to our constant evolving, however slowly, stagnant, or the moments of heightened awareness learning……….otherwise, we are not open to our embracing learning of more life experiential (daily) awarenesses, of what is cognitive awakening self-knowledge awareness learning, where eventually, objectively, thru true awareness surrendering into self love purities of the divine child, such as the trueness aspect constant fearless carefreeness………..
seeing as you are regarded by God, as a pure of heart divine child of the high places and paths, according to what is obviously true of your life, i too realize the significance of my own life that is of my surrendered spirit with Jesus and God, in what is of our combined awakening evolving of the divine child of us both, for sake of all divine children of God in the world.
in this regard, i shall speak of what is of my most sacred recent awakening evolving from sleep in ignorance paths of my life, of my on going introspection into what is the cognitive aware doorway awakening of the divine child(s) in full awareness of pure knowingness of the kingdom of heaven, according to Jesus and God, of this week’s divine self exploration.
this work is open to continuous elaboration into macro thinking self-awareness, of any and all who are of sincere desire to push further in pure of heart peering into the evolved future of the children of God yet to come, where without doubt, our lives are of constant affect/effect/direct/indirect with everyone alive today, and all the unborn children of God yet to come.
this recent introspective study is what i feel is the furtherest i have explored that feel 100% awakening wholeness of the divine child, keeping in mind, that the objective is to attain the pure awakened state of being, as well as any and all supportive additional elaborations yet to come, that are able to assist in maintaining what i feel is indeed, the wisdom in finding the doorway of the kingdom of heaven that the divine child of us all intuitively knows and seeks.
at some point in the distant future, i will recollect the body of work of this introspective work, into a more concise complete book, but for now, i am of peering into self awareness of the divine child yet awakening.
my approach is of interpreting the metaphoric words of Jesus, as it relates to my entire life experience of self awareness, from a pure meditative place of study alone in a peaceful state of being sanctuary away from the distracting noise and nonsense, of what is the unafraid divine child embracing of self exploration awareness knowledge(divine child self wisdom).
in other words, a ray of light of many rays of revealing light in so many other apects of the divine child, this being merely of one ray of light that is of ever increasing exploration brightening.
I am 100% convinced that every word of Jesus is entirely of his own exploration into these rays of light of his entire life experience of self awareness, which is not something alot of people embrace about Jesus, his life, from the first day till his last, where many are merely of curiousity of seeing Jesus apon the cross, where most do not congitively connect that Jesus surrendering to the cross, was of Jesus’ teaching desire to mirror what we know as the obvious truth, ‘the cross is the mirror of the generational deluge of ignorance distruction that swept away those Jesus came to know and love, where Jesus knew, without doubt, would continue to sweep away the unborn divine children of God yet to come”.
there is a depth of compassion i am yet exploring that is sacredly pure in feeling of the surrendered pure loving spirit of Jesus who stepped thru the eternal doorway of his surrendering to the claws of the ignorant beast of destruction like he did, deliberately, not of angst like some may think, no, there is something powerful and sacred in feeling there that i have peered into, that i will speak of later.
we know there are extremely hazardous ignorance mentalities in the world that our own children are in danger of walking apon destructive paths that do lead to death, such as gang leaders who put thoughts into the new generation of kids coming of age, leading them unwisely(absurdly unwise i might add) into these horrific behaviours of death and destruction, where lacking of encouraging wisdom of the divine trueness aspects of the divine child is evident, where in place of wisdom, divine children are being led into dangerous ignorant mind traps, seduced by such things as power of a weapon(control), and boastful pride of wealth(drug dealing), where all the leaders above this divine child, are what is yet the evolved level of the world as a whole here in the the year 2008.
if we don’t take a proactive approach in exploring the divine child nurturing awakening and protective wisdom, like Jesus did, then the generational ignorances that exist today, that existed yesterday, will continue to exist tomorrow…………….of an unending cycle, just as it has done since the beginning of time.
given our brain capacity, it is hard to believe such horridness yet exists in this world, where our world leaders, country, state, city level, are obviously not yet of finding a way to bring these horrid ignorances to a stop, where use of force i feel is not the answer, albeit, abviously necessary at this point in time.
right now we have massive amounts of imprisoned divine children held for what was of their becoming snared by unwisely taught ignorances, and the lacking necessary nurturing most of these divine children did not receive, the lacking understanding at the parent level, on up thru all levels of leaders of city, state, country, world.
truly, there is not a parent in this world that would give everything to have their child back who became slain from this yet horrid existence of the generational treachery ignorances of destructive forces in the world, and indeed, these parents are of the undending motivational search for understanding activism, of what is motivation for any activism empathy of any of us, one family of God, brother and sister of Jesus.
Approaching what constitutes a healthy approach to positive mental emotional well being of the divine child, we know 100% that a healthy diet is required, and that any manufactured substances have side effects on the human body, where parents adherence to ensuring high self respect of a healthy diet, encourage their own kids that only something good for their bodies is good enough for them, where the kids who are of healthy diet, have both the healthy self-respect mindset, as well as the increased healthy feeling results of a healthy diet, of their daily active lives, where we know without, kids are likewise not of the better suseptibility to learning in school.
~ Proper rest and exercise.
today we see kids playing computer games endlessly for hours at a time, where the opportunity for outdoor healthy activity exists, where kids enjoy the better feeling that comes from a higher level of exercise, benifits to the body, mental and emotional well being, where neglect as parents is exactly that, irresponsible neglect of parents who let their kids be irresponsible, where it is unrealistic for a child to be automatically responsible. If we don’t wake up to the truth of the bottomline business world lulling our own children into these life long developments of unhealthy patterns of irresponsible self respect, then these children, and their children, will continue to be the offspring of unhealthy generational unwise snaring of what is neglectful apathy that contributes in numerous ways to the paths of deluge of destructions that await these kids later in life, such as low self-esteem self-medication substance abuse.
Everything and everyone is linked together, past, present, future, constantly at all times, where the future is always here in the present along with the past, of what is the cross road opportunity every single day to alter the entire future, an eternal cross road awareness, that is of the same eternal teaching doorway Jesus stepped thru, in hopes of awakening us to the lulling obvious truth of snarings that exist all around us like it does.
a beautiful full moon while out with a friend last night, peaceful calm and at ease as our relaxed self, a gunshot rang out in the night nearby………………leaving us with the horrid feeling of the truth, without doubt, this world is not yet a safe place for any of us, is not yet fully of God’s wisdom of the state of the kingdom of heaven yet to come, here in the kingdom of heaven all around us.
clearly, the unwise lulling is the result of apathetic lacking wisdom, where the most powerful weapon in God’s armory for the divine children is eternal truth wisdom which awakens, nurtures and protects the divine children of today and for all eternity yet to come, where things like the gun toting gang leaders we know is of the manifestation of low self esteem divine children who are not fully of the divine awakening nurturing protective wisdom of God meant exactly for that, to awaken(aware), nurture and protect the divine child from the (yet) unwise world……..eternally.
what we look for has already come, divine truth wisdom meant for the divine children of God here in blessed kingdom of heaven all around us.
It is not i who summons us to wisdom, it is God who summons us to wisdom, of wisdom i came across that was already here in this world before i entered into this world.
i am merely a humble student who surrendered my life to Jesus and God, as an instrument of Jesus and God to discover, examine, explore, elaborate and convey the already existing wisdom i came across, where what is most sacred in value to me, is the time i have to delve further into this introspective study that i am passionate about.
YOU are the precious divine child of God, brother, sister of Jesus, of ‘me’, of us all.
Common sense tells us, of Jesus in the desert in his meditative self study awareness, his coming fully into the pure light of his own self discovery introspective acknowledgements, where in these moments of acknowledgements, of these 100% pure trueness aspects of divine self, obviously, Jesus knew this is what is TRUE of all divine children of God, no matter how badly snared our precious loving souls become snared and held captive in dark ignorances, Jesus and God know 100% the power extensive wisdom of revealing light of all truths of the untruths, is what eternally casts all ignorances out of heaven, by means of humiliation of the bitter dark foul tasting ignorances, in contrast with the sweet bright fair tasting wisdom, as felt at the individual level.
this is what is sacred opportunity in high places and paths of all leaders, all artists/musicians/activists in the eyes of Jesus and God.
In asking, what is the divine will objective of Jesus and God’s revealing wisdom light that helps us evolve, and where, when, why, what, who and how long for the ushering in of the kingdom of heaven?
as for who?
all of us today and all eternity, as well as our retrospective introspection self- assistance of all those from the entire past.
as for why?
ask any parent who has lost a child to the claws death and destruction.
as for how long?
is anyone’s guess, albeit, definitively, the entire future is altered right here today, every day, in our attempts to stem the tide of the continuous flowing of ignorance teachings in the world as it yet does, every second of every day. As for increasing the amount of time to usher in the kingdom of heaven, i look apon all affect/effect/direct/indirect as exponentially growing, increasing in speed, breadth and increasing scope of our ongoing self discovery approaches of more effective programs and such. Our society is only as healthy as the health of our priority for a healthy world for the divine children of God to thrive and grow in, where in our eyes, Jesus and God’s eyes, truly without doubt, there is no greater value in life than our loving children. Ask any parent who has lost a child, and the radiant truth is there in the endless tears they yet cry.
how pressing is the time to do so? Immediate continuous nonstop affirmative proactive action to avert another senseless death of a divine child of God, is what any mother wishes could of been embraced prior to the loss of their child, of the revealing truth that continues to be revealed, indeed, proactive averting action is constantly there and available, however seemingly small and insignificant our willing endeavors are, all of it alters the entire future forever more, of what Jesus wanted, that no divine child of the future should ever experience the horrid trials and tribulations Jesus witnessed and experienced, just as we too yet do daily.
as to what and where?
Revealing wise awakening, nurturing, protective eternal pure light self awareness wisdom of ALL TRUTH of untruths of the divine children of God here in the eternal kingdom of heaven, where every precious soul is from the womb of God, where it is not harsh judgement of the divine child we have to accuse, rather humiliate and reveal the truth of the ongoing generational deluge of destructive ignorances, is the objective of Jesus, God, and all we who know who we all are, the divine children of God here in the kingdom of heaven forever more.
blessings to all
so what does the kingdom of heaven look like?
more later
so what does the kingdom of heaven look like?
if we were to come from another planet of perfect harmony, a suplanted feeling, so to speak, of all our senses, is what would be the bewildering inharmonious feelings we would experience, and this is the meditative focused place i look out from within apon the world, of deliberate slowing in introspective thinking and feeling awareness that i love to study of others in life, of where they are mentally emotionally, joyful or not joyful, sweet or bitter, centered stable calm gracefulness or unstable hyper anxiety ridden, all of it truth manifestations of the obvious evolving the world is yet transitioning in, of the awakening divine child into wisdom which prevents the distracting ignorances yet in the world from snaring the divine child, as evident by the truth of the bitter horrid wretched snaring of so many divine children of God everywhere i look each day, truth that is there.
for me, i consider myself useless to Jesus and God as an instrument of God, so long as i do not come fully into the objective of Jesus and God, of what is the day we see/feel the light of our divine ‘real’ self rejoicing radiant brilliant bright exceeding joyfulness light mirroring of the divine child of us all, which i have come fully into knowingness of what this is and is not, as well as how to objectively remain(protect) the pure of heart divine ‘real’ self, according to my own life experience self awareness as relates to the metaphoric baring witness self awareness words of Jesus, as relates to current psychology findings of original self-actualization positive mental emotional well being, unscathed by the generational transference projections, of what is my own pure in feeling ‘real’ self Holy Joy, that is absolutely carefree at ease peaceful inner blessed love feelings devoid of the absurd useless fears found/felt in the yet unwise world of worldly distractions which do indeed distract and snare the attention of the divine child away from the blessed pure feelings of our meditative self awareness state of being we intuitively prefer to be of, subconscious yearning and seeking of every divine child of God, that is directly connected to the innate core of their being experience of floating in warm fluids in the womb for (nine) months, the gate from which all entered into this world where we are, which in itself, if we really sit with this, we can feel an incredible feeling of, “How remarkable it is that we are all created and enter into this world, is it not?”
In truth, we don’t really know where we are, or why, in looking up at the vastness of the universe above, of what mankind has been pondering since the beginning, yes?
truly mind blowing, the size of the last measurement of the universe, something like 156 billion light years across( traveling at the speed of light for 156 billion years).
i disagree with this, where it is our limitation of our instruments at this point in time that gives us this number.
ok, so how does Holy Joy feel, and how does one come into awareness of this feeling in a cognitive knowing way that it is Holy Joy we are feeling?(i know, another annoying question for you)
well, we can utilize the contrasting absence of Holy Joy, from any and all stiffling horrid unjoyful life experiences that emenate from the generational deluge of ignorance, which is fearful in experience, however mild, moderate or severe our life experiences are, they all point to how none of us want to feel.
It is evident that Jesus knew the divine child of us all is intuitively constantly seeking/yearning Holy Joy our entire lives, and just as Jesus bore witness to what was of his entire life experience like our own, we too can peer easily into the obvious existence of the generational deluge of distracting ignorances that snare our loving lives into doldrum stick in the mud mindsets that do leave us feeling and looking in appearance as hohum doldrum for others to feel the truth, we are without the radiant brilliant bright Holy Joy objective divine will of Jesus and God, of what they know is constant intuitive(subconscious) yearning/seeking of the divine child of us all, that many indeed, are of submerged asleep and snared in the generational ignorances yet here with us in the present.
take for example, an introspection i had today, of my contrasting feeling of self with that of my observations of another my own age, 45.
i am of the Holy Joy delight of my happy Holy Joyful self, rainbow shoelace converse, funked out happy rhinestone covered jeans, and “Is that a rainbow hoody? YEP!”
and i am observing these others who are all like slaves in appearance to me, of the seeming need and desire of their ‘oh so important career paths, their stuck up status attitudes, where up close, they are so boring to me, of yawn, yawn, yawn, COFFEE!!!!!!!, get me out of here! are there any exciting souls like my own in life?
well, according to the warning words of Jesus, many of us are indeed unknowingly of becoming our own unwise aimless plodding along in life enemies, of what is our lacking desire to descern and ask our divine child within, what is happiness that we all constantly intuitively seek/yearn/crave for?
well, if you don’t genuinely take time in life to sit down in meditative permission with your own divine child within, in feeling the divine child’s constant feelings of yearning and seeking happiness, you will not come free of your unknowing obvious snares that i see so many of you snared by, as the funked out boys and girls of Holy Joy bounce by you skipping and dancing down the motherfucking street!
sorry
seriously, you don’t see and feel what we have come(ing) into awareness of our fun loving Holy Joyful divine self like we do in the LGBT communities worldwide, where if i may take a moment, to personally invite all of you to come spend some time with us, then you get a true sense of what i am talking about here.
oh never mind, we will come to all of you eventually, as indeed, we are doing, our ever increasing radiant brilliant bright Holy Joy wise Light that is mirroring the divine child of all of you, setting us all free to BE the divine will objective of Jesus and God, the blessed blessed blessed Holy Joy absolutely carefree spiritedness of our true at ease PURE peaceful divine ‘real’ self without the burden of homophic fears no longer, by means of our internalized wisdom and support with one another like we naturally do, where it is the purity of the mirroring trueness aspects which binds, awakens, nurtures and eternally protects us like it does, unknowingly for many we know yet in exile, knowing they shall return yet again with us like they do year after year.
i know this ever growing pure loving light we feel year after year, is of God’s divine will objective for Holy Joy of the divine child of God, that is actually beyond orientation for me now, the millions that gather, all of us from every corner of the earth, all of us stepping across all barriers in the world, from every race, every religion, every language, sex, orientation, status, wealth, or politic, the Holy Joy awakening, restoration, nurturing, and protection that does not stop, is unable to stop, of this years theme for Toronto Pride, CAN”T STOP. WON’T STOP……………….the TRUTH!
forever more
and if i don’t start sewing those hundred satin outfits soon, they won’t be done in time damn it, back to work Biyatches!!!!!!!!!!
opps………my run-on-sentences are getting longer……….
longer is good for all you size queens OUT there, yes? lol
i am not!
well ok, i am!
it was the one night stand with that boy from New York, it’s not my fault damn it!
i haven’t been happy since, and that was like 1995!
fuck!
fuck! fuck! fuck! FFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i hate it when they don’t call back………….
the other problem is, asking a gayboy to wear a strap on, which i feel is insulting for the gayboy, hence, where is my female/male tranny curiousity?
with any one of you who wants to sign this clip board!
thank you
lol
im feeling reiki friskie Ricky!
what’d you say your name was again?
Rosie is like, whoa! Are you ok Andy?
NO!
im NOT!
fuck!
fuck! fuck! fuck! FFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!
STEPHAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
oh, there you are………………….
if you want it,
here it is,
come and get it,
butt you better hurry cause it’s going fast!
if i run away, don’t let ‘me’……………….
or, chase the fuck after ‘me’, and enjoy the aesthetic value of the sexecize will ya!?!
or don’t, and be your boring lame ass selves Biyatches!
won’t find ‘me’ without Holy Joy!
nope!
bin there, done way too many hours on the sofa sorting OUT………..i wanna run, dance, prance, romance, take a stance, with that girlie/boy Vigance!
what’d you say your name was again?
day four is going rather well for you Andy?
YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
if i feel this good now, what of next week, omg, next year, and what if i do find myself somewhere over Rainbow?
what’d you say your name was again?
Rainbow the clown! lol
some rather funky shoes, yes?
fun fun fun fun
wouldn’t it be awesome to see hundreds of younger kids of their families, of their gay brothers, sisters, mothers, cousins, friends all dancing in colorful satin outfits, of radiant brilliant bright joyfulness so bright, no one of inner bitter delight is able to ignite the fires within them.
the radiant Holy Joy mirroring light extinquishes the snares that unknowingly bind the divine child in blinding ignorant darknesses, by means of awakening the Holy Joy sameness oneness feelings within all divine children of God, as is evident of our ever growing family of Holy Joy.
forever more
and more
blessings to all this holiday weekend.
please, no drinking and driving!
oh, and one last thing, NO DRINKING AND DRIVING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
thank you
bless you bless you bless you all
tell me something i don’t know !?!
how much i know that you too, like me, want to only feel the splendid energy like we love to feel, all the time, without interupt, which is possible, and truly blessed when it grows more and more year after year, so pure and calm, like i felt in childhood, a loving family home.
earth is my home
My names “Yashuwa”
whats your name Biyatch…
We all come into this world the same way, and this is what is of pure truth of our oneness sameness Holy Joy Spirit, however tainted, jaded, snared, distracted or unaware, all of us are of the oneness sameness of the divine Holy Joy Spirit that Jesus, You, i and others are cognitively evolving of in our awareness like we do, some of us of our joyful deliberate meditative pure certainty knowingness awareness awake experience, and others awake in more or less aimless uncertainty asleep experience, where intuitively, the divine child of us all is leading us in truth of what is constant yearning/seeking of what is the core of our BEing experience of how we all were created, in perfect harmony of every cell of our body, remarkably!
we all arrive here the same way, and yet none of us know why or where we are.
i do sense there is more going on than meets the eye, of what is my pure feeling introspective study in pure sanctuaries of peaceful meditative quieting of the mind places i take refuge in like i do.
The divine child is naturally of Holy Joy in our youth, of absolute carefreeness at ease of inner peacefulness pure and true, free of the whole burden of fear found in the world.
We too, are of the wise ability to maintain the Holy Joy feeling of absolute carefreeness at ease peaceful inner peace like we do, and are aware of what is being free of the whole burden of fear found in the world, of what is our setting of healthy boundaries according to our feelings that sense the truth.
Renouncing of everthing, my own career for example, now in my 14th month of sabatical, i feel Holy Joy absolute carefreeness at ease peacefulness free of the whole burden of fear in the world, cognitively pure in feeling like i do.
Thank you Jesus
bless you bless you bless you
time for me to let go, & move on….
I’m telling you this as it’s the respectful thing to do. i wouldn’t want to wish uncertainty upon anyone…
ouch…
spiritual connections are eternal true, as Jesus says, “In Truth i say these things.”
i’ve been feeling sacred pure and true feelings lately, thinking it is the pure connection i have with you, under the full moon.
Sitting with this sacred feeling pure and true, Rob appeared in front of me, where i know my love for Rob is pure and true like i feel for you, sacred.
I am not uncertain of my feelings pure and true like yours, where if anything, you are more centered in feeling your pure feelings, more so than i, surpised to here you say something like this…..thought we were best friends of and is the divine chilren of God, are we not?
how about you let me know when you feel certain like i am?
Enough already!
whatever
i feel somewhat insulted in your not spending quality time with me in real life, did not truly come to fully know me, someone who is of genuine pure exceeding grace, just write someone off, that you did not truly get to know like i truly know my self, and so would/should anyone.
i am constantly loving and lovable, as any who have spent time with ‘me’ have come to know, which you did not, so why should i care about anyone who treats ‘me’ like this?
fucking bullshit
i am not going to let this shallow approach with ‘me’ trouble my soul, where the only thing that will ever work for ‘me’, is someone who spends time with ‘me’, in real life, and comes away with the pure and true sense of who i really really am………….without doubt………..only love is good enough for any of us.
this friendship has fallen to it’s lowest level yet, where i don’t feel compelled to trust you any more even as a friend, who did not come to know me fully as a genuine friend.
wretched transference, if you must know.
whatever
in the end, someone will come to truly know ‘me’ in real life, where i know without doubt, they will feel my pure of heart genuine true love mirroring of who they too really really are………without doubt, 100% loving and lovable like i know i am.
i am not concerned by any who are shortness with ‘me’ like this, of their passing ‘me’ bi in life, your own decision not to truly come fully into my light and feel what it is that i constantly feel pure and true of who i really really am, where i will wait for what is only ever going to work for me, their undying true love for ‘me’, just as is my undying Holy Joy true love for them, of our combined souls of absolutely carefree unfettered feelings that is of the at ease inner peaceFULness of our divine child of God’s spirit SET FREE from the whole burden of fear that Jesus says to hand over to God, including your useless absurd fear that you carelessly haphazardly tossed my way like this, of what i have grown used to in your approach with ‘me’ that leaves ‘me’ feeling, “Why should i ever trust you again, of what is your consistently pulling the rug out from under me?”
i mean honestly, would you, if i was of this approach with you, so shallow, did not hold my hand in real life in getting to feel what i know is pure and true of who we all really really are, without doubt, the divine children of God.
why should anyone care for any potential partner who does not come to fearlessly embrace and know the pure and true love feelings they have for ‘me’, after spending sufficient time with ‘me’ in real life to do so, which you did not, and then Joyously, of their pure Holy Joy like my own, fearlessly express it with me of great delight like they do, like i do them?
you turn towards empty mockery in likeness of those who did not spend time with Jesus, laughing like they did at Jesus apon the cross, of where i always am found, looking apon the world thru his eyes, something you do not yet truly know like i do, of pure inner peacefulness like a blade of grass blowing in the wind.
you hurt your self, not ‘me’, of what is my self-knowledge awareness, true of ‘me’, true of us all.
i honestly felt something more sincere from you than this empty shallowness that is now of our exiting away from even a potential friendship.
whatever
i am going to go wait for someone who is of genuine sincere pure and true fearless Holy Joy love like my own, thinking and feeling you did, of who we really really are.
this is shallowness of you that no one should ever have to experience like i am, after all this time, just toss me to the wind as though nothing.
fuck off
what is there to wonder about now, where you are not anywhere near my fearless Holy Joy that i feel and know i am, only deserving, and only what i am able to feel genuinely comfortable of, at ease of what is oneness sameness of ‘me’?
get away from ‘me’ and stay away from ‘me’, all of you who are of empty nothingness shallow approach mockery such as this absurd hollowness in feeling transference that is not of me.
fuck off
i am not going to leave my self open to trusting you ever again, where you don’t even make the grade as a true and faithful trusting friend, so fucking unbelievably immature, a side of you i have seen time and again, of what is your aimless haphazard approach with the divine child of God.
you have mocked me for the last time, and in truth, it is you who is making a mockery of your self, in the eyes of others who can easily sense the truth your immature, insincere approach with ‘me’, where you did not spend time with ‘me’ in real life to decide to let go and move on.
move on from what, someone you did not truly genuinely sincerely come to know and love like so many do?
fuck off
whatever
you are not even a friend to me, thinking you are.
i can’t believe how empty you are, and yet, i suppose i can, what with what is your immature dart board mentality, is it not.
i treaded carefully with you, hoping and praying i would not eventually have to endure ending up in a sinister categorized place like i have witnessed you doing with others.
did you forget who i really really am?
fuck off fuck off fuck off
who the fuck needs enemies with asshole friends like this?
take your shallow empty fucked negligence bullshit and fuck off, this friendship is over.
what friend would tolerate this kind of insincere genuine approach of no quality time spent together in life, and you just saying, “Oh, i have decided to move on?”
move on from what?
you do not know ‘me’, nor shall any of you who approach ‘me’ like this, not now, not ever.
it’s a lie
an empty mockery lie that i am not going to allow my self to feel hurt by, of what is the generational immature deluge of destructive ignorances that attempts to bind the pure of heart precious divine child of God’s spirit like it does of so many.
fuck off
in Jesus and God’s eyes, the only justification for this bullshit mockery empty shallow fucking approach you are with ‘me’, of your not quality time with ‘me’ in real life, in not truly coming to FULLY KNOW ‘me’, is what is of shortsighted COWARDICE approach with the divine child of God’s pure and true sincere genuine Holy Joy fearless carefree divine Spirit, set free from the such bullshit shallowness like your approach with ‘me’, of what is OBVIOUS, according to Jesus’ warning, your shortsighted shallow turning towards the empty bitter foul tasting useless absurd empty shallow hollow hypocrisy heart that is of your words towards someone you did not come FULLY in KNOWING and FEARLESSLY LOVING CAREFREENESS like my own, oneness sameness, like so many have with ‘me’, of audicity to pass on by, moving on, away from half way coming to truly know and love who i really really am.
you insult only you, not ‘me’.
so go put picture up on the dart board like you have of others, of what is your immature fuckedupness.
fuck off
oh, you know fucking everything, God forbid anyone speaks the truth of how you carelessly enjoy leaving a soul to feel like you do, that any stranger of you, can easily see the obviousness of your haphazard careless mockery approach with ‘me’, deeming yourself as genuine and sincere of your empty words with ‘me’ of “Im moving on”
who the fuck should give a fuck about anyone who does not choose to come in close and love us?
oh yeah, that would be ‘me’, the one who tolerates your absurd inappropriateness as evident of this recent attempt of tossing ‘me’ as though of no importance, of what is you people and your fucked up status mentality absurd greater than the lowly ones in the world, not of the carefree Holy Joyfulness of my TRUE and FAITHFUL loving brothers and sisters, of pure of heart spirits becoming set free from the useless immature worldly fears that binds so many in captivity of unwise ignorances of this world, alone and afraid, where you can count on us to of what is the TRUTH that none of you can stop us, of our won’t stop enlightenment of the truth we deal with every fucking day in our personal and professional worlds like we do, our oneness sameness exceeding joyfulness radiant brilliant bright like my own.
some friend you turned out to be in the end, of seemingly no desire to come and shake my hand as a friend, much less a lover.
yeah, well, i waited and waited like i do and WILL constantly continue to wait, for someone to fearlessly sit with their genuine sincere Holy Joy constant loving emotional honesty feelings they have for ‘me’, where it is not ‘me’ who betrays them in my words of truth, it is they who betray their own self in thinking they truly know ‘me’, and obviously don’t, the condition of their souls left unattended, unchecked, unnurtured, unprotected, and the manifesting petty ego masks they wear, spuing of words seeming as though wise insight of ‘me’, of my twenty years of dedicated, determinded, devoted, diligent steadfastness in self-knowledge awareness constantly evolving in TRUTH of the divine child of God Jesus, you and ‘me’.
i can’t fucking believe this yet again slamming ‘me’ like you do as though of not even worthy of a friendship in life, your giant fucking petty egotism.
well, you go be like that of what any stranger can feel the truth of this past week, i deserve better.
goodbi
Shut up!
…and listen!
ready?
i call it, ‘Intuitive Ushering Marching into the kingdom of heaven, Apon Awakening greeting of each blessed day, the divine child of God’s Spirit set free to Just BE YOU!
Open E chord, 12th fret
3/4 timing, 2 bars, 1/8th notes, finger picking style(using three finger picks and a thumb pick) per measure, stings > 4,3,2,1,2,3,4,3,2,1,2,3,4
Open B chord, 7th fret
3/4 timing, 2 bars, 1/8th notes, finger picking style(using three finger picks and a thumb pick) per measure, stings > 4,3,2,1,2,3,4,3,2,1,2,3,4
Open A chord, 5th fret
3/4 timing, 2 bars, 1/8th notes, finger picking style(using three finger picks and a thumb pick) per measure, stings > 4,3,2,1,2,3,4,3,2,1,2,3,4
Open E chord, 0th fret
3/4 timing, 2 bars, 1/8th notes, finger picking style(using three finger picks and a thumb pick) per measure, stings > 4,3,2,1,2,3,4,3,2,1,2,3,4
again……
forgive me.
i love to play this sitting at the steps of the 519, in the early morning till noon.
there is an old ghetto looking building across the street that i look at, imagining my lover and i living on the top floor, myself playing this stringed musical peice outside for him/her to hear, while my love is waking to another blessed day of Holy Joy delight inner feeling, a dancing bubbling feeling precious pure and true.
bless you
alternating bass picking as well as other fingerpicking styles, and for toss in the pinky finger on the 12th fret will playing the Open B chord…….
i love the harmonics!
enjoy the blessed weekend everyone!
my friend Stephan was out with friends and says someone slipped him some estrogen pills that makes him feel like a girl…..”Oh really?”
boys will be boys who love boys to be girls to be boys
She’s your daughter, i don’t see why i have to go out of my way to talk to her, i mean every time we catch up, she sit’s there like a stunned mullet, it’s embarrassing i sometimes think she’s either totally mesmerized by my presence or she’s damn right paralysed, or maybe she’s so god damn bored by my conversation she falls asleep, yer i know abandonment issue’s , issue’s in general i don’t see why i have to be the one to sort it out i mean what do i get out of it, nothing, i’d much prefer to stay here in heaven with you sipping on my cuppa tea… anyway i must go … god know’s i’m gonna get a mouthful… hey she’s mastered the art of learning how to say fuck off…. ain’t that an achievement…
Fuck off …. must learn that one …. fuck off fuck off fuck off
wow almost got it…
next ….
uhm can someone turn on the light… it’s awfully dull in here …
make some room, there’s plenty of space to fit us both … oh sorry I’m late, i was busy sorting out some shit, you know how it is, one step at a time, better late than never… & i can do without the what ever’s , save it for Mr Never, cause I’m on a tether…
Oh sorry, excuse me wrong blog,
Kylie.. you there ?..” ready to go horse riding” ,.. ( better the devil you know)
Kylie … wait up
i’m coming… ha ha
omg im stuck to the ceiling
this song is awesome
Artist : K-OS
Song : I wish I knew Natalie Portman
Album : Yes
I’m Haunted!
authentic is what i yearn to always feel!
where unathentic is authentic 2, such as the our feeling senses of the false unathentic generational falsehoods that falsely drag our heart, mind, body, spirit and soul into the gutter, where all falsehoods are not of the blessed trueness aspects of the Holy Joyful absolutely carefree divine child of God’s Spirit set free from the obvious generational learned bitter useless gutter mindtraps.
authentic lovers dream of authentic lover’s dreams
authentic ‘real’ is where and what i always want to feel with others and a lover, where unathentic serves ‘me’ true 2
excuse ‘me’ while i go waste my precious time with someon of authentic feelings……….
its not very often the light comes to save those in the darkness, no appreciation,
litlle or mostly nil connection
you see that is the reason the light often does not bother..
each to their own enlightenment..
Ohh GREAT SPIRITUAL ONE YOU …. NOT ….
no idea…. obsolutly no idea…
& how does your ego interpret my words, with contempt as words of toxic transference of course it does, ego is fighting for its existence,
Perhaps my word’s are too harsh, a venting of frustration, in my moment of pure divine connection, to you, there was a sensation of two minds as one, your fears became my fears your joys became mine, easy to manage with positive thoughts… but for one… the past … the past injustice.. & yet it is a barrier.. a block… i cannot change that … no one can change the past… yet the block remains…manifesting itself into the future.. yet again… think about what i am saying.. read between the lines… it is very important you connect to what i am saying .. “not for me but for you..”. that’s a hint by the way .
as for me, me that is… i know you are one step ahead of me in many ways, i’ve been playing along with these game’s in a way because it was healing in many respects & fun at times & a medium for communication, without it there would have been very little communication i expect… on your part.. but words grow tired, words are in capable of manifesting emotion, they can express but they cannot embody…
& no friendship can grow & prosper with words alone, the fears that hold back all these things are a manifestation of the blocks the barrier’s placed at the road block, when i took the right turn at the cross road, i knew i had taken the right road, yet i did not expect to reach a road block.. so for me facing this barrier at the road block , really leaves me only two choices, to stand here at the road block unable to move forward, where i will remain stagnant or i turn around and go back to the cross road from where i came and take the other road, with anticipation that there will be no road block’s on the other road…
excuse me ?? excused from what ?? standing next to me ?
were you standing next to me ?
forgive me, i could not see you … I must be blind !
anyway, don’t reply to my words,
let me have the last say this time,
be mature and strong, show that you can be better than me..
by doing that we can put a stop to this madness.. this place of fantasy where the only thing that manifests are words, words in a void of cyberspace which really is an empty place,
me turns around now and walks off into the sunset down the familiar road from where i came back towards the cross road, ( thinking to me self) even if i get to the cross road and take the other road, if there is yet again another road block like the one which i have just returned from then so be it, for i will forge my own road.. and the only barrier’s i encounter will only be those i have placed my self… moving on …
me me me its always been about me hasn’t it
well me will haunt you for the rest of your life…
me shut up now..
me shut out
me smart… don’t you think…
me special
me sexy
me funny
everybody love me
me love everybody
me tired of being alone
me find me a partner by Friday
yeah, the manifestations of the cruel unwise petty ego self falsehoods we hide behind like we do, afraid.
Partner with the truth of the vulnerable ‘real’ self which is constantly intuitively certain that only love is what the divine child of God’s pure loving heart, mind, body, spirit and soul yearns to always be found.
i am merely a student of God who has my own struggle of descerning my pure of heart flawless healing feeling ‘real’ self deserving of only love, and my own use of the cruel petty ego self falsehood masks i wear like i do.
this is not a good time for me emotionally in life, and yet, i realize i am stepping out of my old self into my ‘real’ authentic self, the musician.
this is my darkest hour in life, if you must know.
i lose focus somedays, and perhaps i need time alone to get anchored in my ‘real’ self, so forgive my absurdness at times, which is the manifestations of my darkest hour, that i have to go thru and will.
i have the aid of three doctors………i’ll make it
don’t know who any of you people are
cyberspace is so empty and far
saying things like, Ohh GREAT SPIRITUAL ONE YOU …. NOT ….
is egotistical slamming of a divine child of anyone who is of their intuitive authentic pure of heart seeking, where these words are of uselessness in the eyes of God, mockery of my every single word spoken thus far, of what is my peering into divine wisdom that i know without doubt, after years of dedicated study, i am of realizing the nature of the construct of the awakening nurturing protective halo perspective, that my divine self intuitively feels pure and true, 100%.
while words may not be able to describe the pure feelings we feel, they are necessary in articulating our assertive directness as to the condition of our own soul left unattended, and the souls of others.
these words are without doubt, from the empty hollow cruel petty egotistical hypocrisy heart, which betrays our inability to fully and truly trust one another, not of collabortive likemindedness seeking, rather of a waste of time bashing mocking the pure of heart certainty that i am tuned into at times, faultering just as anyone does, like we all do, in resorting to this kind of nonsense pettiness that in my opinion, is a direct attack apon every single one of God’s divine children, as viewed from the wise perspective of Jesus.
you have your believes, i have mine, and our ability to be civil minded with one another is becoming apparent, where i don’t want to entertain any further toxic fueling of the cruel petty ego self falsehood masks.
i hold onto the wisdom of Jesus, and this to me is like someone spitting in my face, which is fine, as i am of greater wisdom than i have spoken of here, where what concerns me, is how others may have felt some goodness from my words, where another comes along and mocks my words.
i don’t know who you are, but i do recognize absurd nescience bashing mockery when i see/feel it.
i feel today is the day to end this disrespectful approach with one another once and for sake of all, of what is my growth of intolerance for nescience bashing behaviour, and return to my sanctuary with Jesus and God in continued growth of my authentic sweet loving genuine pure of heart flawless holy joyful healing feeling divine child of God’s heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, of the absolutely carefree feeling i have grown to enjoy like i have all these years, free of the absurd bitter foul tasting whole burden of fears found in the world, where what matters, is my embracing of the radiant brilliant bright light mirroring that shines forth in the world, mirroring of the divine child of God’s heart, mind, body, spirit and soul.
it’s not a competition or silly childhood game, rather it is of life and death of my every heartbeat, breath, step, and words of what i truly am, a student of God who has surrendered my life to the only one i trust, Jesus Christ.
yeah, sure, i faulter, i stumble, i vent, just like anyone does, but right now, i need safe and supportive others, where attempts to mock a student of God is, well, in anyone’s eyes, who makes a mockery of who here?
yeah, out of respect, i think this is it for me, the last time i am going to blog here, with who ever you people are.
i will go grow in my own study of the divine child, and come forth in the world in real life authentic approach with others along life’s road, where the internet really is a breeding ground for bashing others.
look what happened the 13 year old Shaquel Wisdom, a beautiful gay youth coming out of the closet, of school and cyber bulling that contributed to his suicide.
be of ridicule cruel petty ego falshood masks with any divine child of God, and it is you who are the mockery of the blessed divine child of God self you.
yeah, im done.
out of self respect and preservation, i am not going to blog here any more, today the last day, where i feel if anyone of you is tuned into your own genuine authentic pure of heart love for me, then you will come to me in real life and be of authentic holding of my hand, genuine, sincere, true, only love.
instead of preaching of the divine child, i am going to ‘Just go BE’ the evolving mirroring of the holy joyful tender fun loving graceful peaceful mild effeminate genuine sincere authentic divine child of God’s heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, set free from the whole burden of the generational cruel petty ego falsehood fears (yet) in the world, where constant uninterrupted flowing connectedness of absolute carefree holy joy between souls, is what is the kingdom of heaven flawless healing constant feelings devoid of doubtfulness fear, intuitive knowingness certainty of the divine child of God of us all, of what Jesus came to know without doubt of his own self, is the divine will objective of God that his generation intuitive knew in reaching for, just as our generation is intuitively reaching for, of words that point to our pure love feelings, where words are no longer needed, once we are of the day we see and feel the light of the divine self rejoicing in song and dance with one another forever more……………without doubt.
if you want a ‘real’ life friendship, genuine and true, then go be genuine and true of a ‘real’ life friendship, just as Jesus was of all he met along life’s road.
God constantly loves ALL
Jesus constantly loves ALL
We constantly love ALL
Oneness Sameness Intuitive Knowingness Certainty Awareness of Holy Joy Absolute Carefree Feeling set free from the whole burden of the fearful cruel petty ego falsehood masks of the generational deluge of destructive ignorances that continue to sweep the divine children of God into death and destruction, is the divine WILL WISDOM of God, the divine WILL WISDOM of Jesus, the divine WILL WISDOM of us ALL, united in what does not fail, is unable to fail, the eternal trueness aspects of the eternal victorious TRUTH.
God blesses ALL
Respectfully yours forever more, a divine child student of surrendered heart, mind, body, spirit and soul to Jesus of God, of the only way God is able to teach any one truth wisdom, by means of us choosing the truth wisdom teachings of God meant for the divine child of God of us all.
bless you bless you bless you all
love and peace be to this house forever more
love and peace be to you forever more
and love and peace be to you forever more
blessings to all
i am easy to find, if someday you want to truly know, love and find ‘me’
BE TRUE
bless you
your truly are beautiful, however the guilt trip is not effective on me, if you really desire to reach me, you will touch my heart and soul, if you wake up tomorrow free from all that burden’s you all that beholds you into this time you describe as your darkest moment in life, and i re-worded that to “moment” for you because it is just that a moment.. allow that moment to pass..
and pass in an instant, free yourself from the shackles of your own mind… it’s all in your head, you just need to free you mind of those thoughts, easier done than me trying to express it in word’s, if i can do it, so can you…
ya, the moment was a moment of letting go, a self-imposed prisoner of my real self, the unauthentic self overly concerned status quo mind traps i sometimes find myself contending with, the disconnected falsehood ego mask that is left behind, no longer concerned of what others think of me, letting go to just be me and let others love me for me………..a complex i have had since a teen, where i need to keep reminding myself that if another is not genuinely loving of me, then when would that ever work for me?
i want authentic sexual desire of someone for me, for example.
i let go
i stepped thru the door yesteday in therapy, expressing, “I’ve always concerned my self of what others think of me, and today i am letting go to simply let others love me or not, i don’t care if they don’t, where i know without doubt, somewhere in the garden is the most loving lover that God knows is meant for me, and i for them.”
“Romeo Romeo, where the fuck are you Biyatch!!!!!!!!!!!!” lol
i don’t know, life’s too hard sometimes…
chasing, running chasing running.. vicious circle..
love yourself i guess, and the love will follow..
oh, and i really do want breasts, without waiting for a partner to decide what is of genuine joyfulness feeling within of the ‘real’ me, where denial of my own loving joyful spirit will leave ‘me’ not as my authentic ‘real’ self, knowing already what is of joyfulness of my ‘real’ self, as it turns out from my therapy sessions, i am transexual, a female trapped in a male body, where i love both my female and male self, of both sexualities.
Truly, i am joyfulness in being both sexes, as some have come to feel the truth of my inner joyful ‘real’ self.
i have many more sessions yet before committing to feminizing the body with estrogen, seeing specialists now.
who am i?
i am both female and male, loving of both, naturally so.
blessings to all
Im a Hooker Now, a Rent Boy, Co Dependancy.. my Ass.. no way… I like to be in control of my destiny… independant…
Hey I went to gym 3 times this week.. first time in 5 yrs.. feeling great.. cause i worked Damn Fucking Hard at Gym … & i Got Big Mother Fucker Gun’s… bigger muscles than your Breast’s
But hey who said this was a competition…
Were Equal … alway’s were
Alway’s Will Be…
I can Sing Too …
except when i smoke
Damn Gigarete’s ..
Europa – Parte 2
4 de Julho, 2009 Londres Inglaterra The O2
5 de Julho, 2009
7 de Julho, 2009 Manchester Inglaterra Manchester Evening News Arena
8 de Julho, 2009
9 de Julho, 2009 Paris França Palais-Omnisports de Paris Bercy
11 de Julho, 2009 Werchter Bélgica Festivalpark
14 de Julho, 2009 Milão[2] Itália San Siro
16 de Julho, 2009 Udine Itália Stadio Friuli
19 de Julho, 2009 Marseille França Stade Vélodrome
21 de Julho, 2009 Barcelona Espanha Olympic Stadium
23 de Julho, 2009 Madrid Espanha Vicente Calderón Stadium
25 de Julho, 2009 Saragossa Espanha Feria de Muetras
28 de Julho , 2009 Hamburgo Alemanha Trabrennbahn Bahrenfeld
29 de Julho, 2009 Oslo Noruega Valle Hovin
30 de Julho, 2009
2 de Agosto, 2009 São Petersburgo Russia Palace Square
4 de Agosto, 2009 Tallinn Estônia Tallinn Song Festival Grounds
6 de Agosto, 2009 Helsinki Finlândia West Harbour
8 de Agosto, 2009 Gothenburg Suécia Ullevi Stadium
9 de Agosto, 2009
11 de Agosto, 2009 Copenhagen Dinamarca Parken Stadium
13 de Agosto, 2009 Praga República Checa Chodov Natural Amphitheatre
15 de Agosto, 2009 Warsaw Polônia Bemowo Airport
18 de Agosto, 2009 Munich Alemanha Olympic Stadium
20 de Agosto, 2009 Ljubljana Eslovênia Ljubljana Hippodrome
22 de Agosto, 2009 Budapeste Hungria Kincsem Park
24 de Agosto, 2009 Belgrade Sérvia Ušće Park
26 de Agosto, 2009 Bucharest Romênia Parc Izvor
29 de Agosto, 2009 Sofia Bulgária Estádio Nacional Vasil Levski
30 de Agosto,2009,Porto,Portugal,
I’ve decided on Andyy as my trans name, that relates to a beautiful experience while yet a young virgin teen of 12 years old.
In 1976, i was 12 years old, well into my homoerotic fantasies of Mike, my next door neighbor boy, a year older than me, where i was heartbroken that he was unable to come with us on a vacation trip to Florida, of him having been the subject of my beautiful homoerotic masterbation session that i kept secret from everyone until later in life, in my 30s, where i began openly speaking about the ‘real’ me during my coming out years, joyfully so, just as i do now.
Still feeling heartbroken and beside myself the whole time while in Florida with my family, a truly awe inspiring event happened for me, while OUT for breakfast at a local resturant. I recall the day clearly, of my doldrum down grumpiness pushed out of me by exceeding joyfulness feelings i was experiencing, of my truly ecstatic behaviour in seeing the name tag of the wattress who was serving us, there before me, a beautiful female with the name Andy!
I was completely overwhelmed by the moment, my Mom looking at me in a knowing way, of what she feared most, that her son may be gay!
well, for sure i was gay then, and have been of joyful gay delight the past twenty years now of my gayboy bottom gay spirit set free to live a gay lifestyle, gay as in joyful gay, where if anyone knows if they want breasts, truly, it is me!
for sure!
Every man and woman constitutes 22 pairs of chromosomes plus one pair that is the difference between them; these are the sexual chromosomes X and Y.
Men have the chromosomes pairing of XY and women have the pairing of XX.
– Both the egg and the spermatozoa have 23 chromosomes.
– The egg is always the carrier of the X chromosome
– The spermatozoa(male sperm) can carry either an X or a Y chromosome.
This means that it is the male side that determines the sex of the baby.
A Y sperm that fertilises the egg will produce a boy (XY) while an X sperm will produce a girl (XX).
As for me, i am 100% girl(XX), and i am 100% boy(XY), 100% loving and lovable as both, as many have come to know, where chosing my trans name, Andyy, is an easy one for me, as in Y not? lol
or, i always knew i was a girl first(XX), and keeping/adding/adjusting of my boy(XY) sexuality, was second in life for me, suppressing my female joyful gay self till i was 29, where i truly was mostly of my homoerotic thoughts during my first years of puberty, more so than of heterosexual thoughts, of my wild gay joyful total body experience masterbation sessions, thoughts/fantasy as my female self in delight of sexual encounter with a male, just as i still am today, the homoerotic thoughts predominately of my masterbations sessions(admittedly so), where adding of my boy self(XY) to my original girl self(XX), also makes sense in my chosen trans name AndyY, yes? :mrgreeen:
this is where i have arrived in therapy, of what i am openly sharing with my friends this week.
ya, i am a BITCH, as in a Bitch In Total Control of Herself too!(my therapists favorite line) lol
TAKING OWNERSHIP RESPONSIBILITY of MY positive mental/emotional/physical/sexual/spiritual well being, belongs 100% to me, no one else!
i am up to 15-20km of daily biking now, which affects us entirely, of our mental/emotional/physical/sexual/spiritual positively!
i feel fantastic!
addressing the career again, just got off the phone with a prospective employer, a retail store down at the lake, that i have already checked out the morale at prior, coming to know the staff over the last year or so, as an outside wholesale merchandizer at their store, they all love me, and i them, of my gentle at ease fun loving ‘real’ self.
looking to quit the smoking, of my gradual improved physical well being feeling better and better, dreading the way smoking drops me off down low.
Transexuality is somewhat of an isolating experience for me so far, where i embrace unrealistic expectations of others who may not be able to embrace me like my professional team does, and my trany sisters.
this is 100% about me first, no one else, of my pure inner joyfulness knowingness certainty of a gayboy bottom who knows he/she wants breasts, where if anyone knows the truth of this, truly, a twenty year gayboy bottom 100% KNOWS, yes?
truly, this has nothing to do with anyone butt me!
and i am 100% excited bi this new reality check, Andyy, a truly happy transexual!
blessed happiness of me
bless you
Juliet, has Wobbly knee’s …. STAND UP JULIET …
your sure about the breasts Julietta …. have you prepared yourself emotionally for it, waking up each & every morning morning to a pair of breast’s staring right at ya in the face .. i mean there’s no turning back .. it’s not like you can just take them off and hang them up in the closet LOL…. he he
are you getting pear shaped one’s or big round perky type ?
i say go for it, where there’s a will there’s a way, just say…
I will …
big mother fucker Squirters..
is it ok for me to call you Candi… Short for Candice, very feminine
Hey Candi …
Candi Squirter…
soz i don’t mean to be filthy, i cannot help it, us Hookers always got sex on the mind.. speaking of which..
a bubbling feeling of inner joyfulness in reading your words……….’waking up each & every morning morning to a pair of breast’s’…………..for sure a trembling in the knees kinda feeling.
cannot explain it, something genuine in feeling for me, having breasts, feelings of my joyful ‘real’ self as seen by my therapist who i am open with in talking about having breasts.
this is something i am slowly embracing of what continues to be of inner joy feeling, not so much of how others feel about me, rather of my own feelings of me, by my self, in admiration of who i ‘really’ am.
i don’t expect others to understand, and i don’t really concern myself much of the way others may think of me, where this is truly about my own self love.
it is of sensual lover delight for me, not some trashy erotic hooker mentality.
ya, i was think Candi as a name.
AndYY
AndYY as in two champaign classes?
AndYY as in two breasts?
AndYY as in two boys(XY) who enjoy the breasts? lol
AndYY as in Madonna exclaiming, “Why? Why? the fuck does Andy think he’s a girl?” lol
AndYY as in happY happY AndYY!!!!!!!!!!!
i want to keep my male sex organs, and do realize that i may be painting myself into a corner, as regards acceptance of others, a girl with a penis, where straight boys and gay boys are somewhat standoffish, of what is isolation reality check for many trans who don’t go the full distance of sex change.
i am not committing to a decision just yet, although i am 100% accepting of my own self love inner joy feelings i feel in having breasts, not as some joke either, rather of pure and true self love of the ‘real’ me, truly of pure happiness within.
i don’t even understand why this is, but it is real for me.
the isolation issue is a concern for me, and why i am not committing to a decision any time soon, although there is no hesitation of my inner joy feelings……….will work thru more therapy until such a day of commitment, and in the mean time, enjoy going out dressed as a female boy.
it is genuine sincere happiness for me, inspite of where others are in their own thoughts………..this is about me, my inner happiness, not someone else, albeit, eventually of someone else who comes to truly know and love me 100%, of what is my own self love!
it’s not about getting attention or anything like that, it is about my female self.
enjoy the blessed day!
i was thinking pear shaped, not big ones, but not too small either, 34C
hey, i was thinking how the male and female sex organs, while different, actually work together as one, of what is the eternal reproductive mechanism for creating an eternal human being, where the rest of our body is the same, as in sameness oneness of what constitutes 22 pairs of chromosomes, plus one pair that is the difference between them; the sexual chromosomes X and Y.
in truth, the sex organs are of the same purpose, both reguired to unite as one to recreate a human being, and seeing as our bodies are the same according to our same chromosomes, then wtf is different about us, other than our fucked up society sexisms?
with transexuality comes sexism, as well as those who having not even taken time to read anything on transexuality, who call us freaks, deviants, perverted, demented, prostitutes, on and on the list of names the cruel petty egotists yell out at us.
i bought a pair of girl jeans the other day, always of delight within that i feel when ever i purchase something girlie to wear, and i was walking down the street while out in suburbia, and these guys in a pickup truck yelled out WTF!!!!!
i figure they must of seen me girl self legs, then apon seeing my face, a boy face, they felt betrayed or something. lol
blessings to all
yeah, for sure, it takes courage to enjoy JOYFULNESS, and a few Karate lessons i took earlier this week! HA!!!!!!!!!!!!!
during my coming out as a gay male, i noticed these beautiful quality mirrorings of self, from spending time with gay males(twenty years now), such as gracefulness, effeminate(rather than macho), tender, delicate, as can be said of spending time with my trans brothers and sisters in their at ease safe and supportive environments that we gather in, not afraid like we are in the unaccepting environments, where truly, this is what is true pure blessed in flawless feeling for me,
With that said, seeing as we are all oneness sameness, biologically speaking, in truth, does not those of wearing of bitter cruel petty ego falsehood masks betray only their own self from coming into the true sensibility of their own divine self?
Jesus says, “BEware of the falsehoods that drag us thru thru the cruel gutter!”
~ where truth understanding is in our awareness wakened knowingness, the true meaning of this is for us to beware we do not BEcome the falsehoods, not so much of staying clear(judgemental) of falsehoods others. Our wise descerning for sake of self is what is of coming fully into pure divine self awareness, by means of both what is trueness aspects of divine self, and what obviously is not.
there is joking around like we sisters love to do, and then there is the fearful ones, like the boys in the pickup truck the other day, where had it been at night, and had they been drinking, they likely would of(and do) stopped to beat the fuck out of me, in recalling the time of the pick up truck tryed to run over me.
who do they hurt?
according to Jesus and God, those of these unwise snarings hurt only their own divine self, not those of our wise descerning self-knowledge awareness like we are.
i am………BE Cause……….We ARE!
argh……..some people are soooooooooo annoying!
when the object of desire is some one else or something else, no matter how much we intellectualize it, we ‘feel’ it.
i just want someone who won’t let go of my belt, thinks about me as much as i do them, loves to undress me, caress me, feel my our naked bodies together, you know, fuck me damn it!!!!! lol
the lamers are not my enemy, they are their own worse enemy, and they wonder why i lose interest in their immature head games, ditch their lame sorry ass, and after i am gone, they come begging at my door, and play me a fool again, for the last time, i sware(their issues, not mine, get real!), argh………….
something pure, something true………..
someone like you!
i need a hug………..
keeping it ‘real’
i know
our love is true, of why i feel so blue sometimes……
others just don’t know what we know
was that you hugging me, or was i hugging you?
bless you
made a new friend, Jamie, one of the most effeminate males i have ever met, has started his/her hormone, is more of a girl than a boy, so incredible.
hey, do you think drag queens are sexist?
he/she is of our ‘real’ girlfriend feeling, where he/she is beyond the drag queens, of what is ‘real’ 24/7, not like that of that of most draq queens.
bizzare, he/she has the eyes of my first girlfriend, but he/she does not think they will ever use their penis again…………argh………..compatibility just died for me!
ah well, one cannot have enough ‘real’ girlfriends!
girls rule, true and sincere love, way beyond the lame ass macho males, who are so awkward and anal, sexually, don’t they know?
apparently not……
there is no greater confidence in life, than two girlfriends who are pure and true of hearts.
i know
and i feel like you feel?
i don’t want to end up in the lost and found ego, staying tuned into my pure and true ‘real’ feelings…..
not that i could avoid them, although many do…..
I am What I Am….
i will not conform to that which does not resonate with me,
Because it’s all about me…
& it is because of me…
that
you are you…
You are me
I am You …
Soz love , i don’t do jealously …
so i guess
i won’t be Doing YOU …
Oh Well…
Make a Wish
in the Wishing Well..
Cast Your Spell…
You big
Black Cat …
and i won’t be doing this internet thing any more….seems getting beat up all the time does not work for me…
whatever
i don’t care
someone will come to truly know and love me, and i them, without effort, of ease to constantly feel our oneness sameness joyful love flowing between us
of what Heaven constantly is
forever more
never jealously no
no Doing is fine
Black Panther in the Night
if looks could kill
hope you are doing well
and I’m still loving you like a child
even when you’re long gone
baby gone away
always be here 4 you
check in once and a while
i get messages even when not posted
healing is on
spring is strong
i still care
and always will
forget about the shit
it’s already being recycled
love you
take care
x
it’s all just a dream..
life is a distraction
we often resond by reaction
keep well..
enjoy what’s most important
and share the love..
love
it’s all just a dream…that one day these motherfucking drug pushers of crystal meth, will come to embrace the harmful truth they are of, and be of concern for the death and destructive damage they continue to knowingly cause, where it is seemingly a dream that they will stop preying apon our self-medicating precious loving LGBT brothers and sisters, who arrive here from small towns, seeking the acceptance they need, in their running away from their own biological families who don’t take time to embrace the reality check of sexuality issues their son or daughter may be dealing with, a sad reality we all see every day while out walking in our gay ghettos.
the leather arm band on my arm, which i know is of the no time constraint realm of eternal truth wisdom, consisting of the skulls of death symbols and two crosses, reminding me of the truth of what is obvious to me daily, this world is yet of the same destructive ignorances that continue to sweep so many divine children into destruction, like it did my first gay lover Troy.
After arriving in the gay ghetto, i came to embrace that every day is of our proud marching forward, not just once a year, merely of what is our veteran presence with those just coming out, who feel our solid unwavering stance, at ease, of pure inner peace like we are, of what is our joyfully surrendered loving spirit of fearless courage we slowly came to know of our selves, in living our gay lifestyles, inspite of the unaccepting others along life’s road we that we continue to journey.
what was most important to us way back when, is still important to us today, our genuine loving authentic homoerotic feelings that some of us fearfully, secretly entertained since puberty.
As veterans, it is important that we stay in remembrance that there is someone out there yet struggling with the internal homophobic fears of external homophobia this world continue to project onto us, in their safe transition in coming out, which can take years for their internal fears to subside like it has for us veterans who have more than just over come the unwise world that snears at us, we have become purely compassionate for all those yet of their
obvious unknowing lack of understanding like they are, rather than the angst of our fist held high, like we once felt so long ago.
Our pure and true inner peacefulness feelings, genuine, authentic, and real, sees our grace being felt as natural mirroring affect/effect/direct/indirect light of the ‘real’ self rejoicing, ‘real’ self of us all.
Who are these millions of souls that gather every year like we do?
Are they exiles?
In God’s eyes, we are exiles, when ever we turn away from the love we feel for one another that truly does crosses all divisional barriers of language, race, religion, sex, orientation, wealth, status, politic….as evident by the love millions of us feel like we do, while in attendance at Toronto’s annual Pride Day event, held the last Sunday of June.
blessings to all
holding the one way bus ticket in my hand long ago, of my knowing i wanted a fun loving boyfriend then, still holds true for me today, i want a fun loving boyfriend.
while the exploration of my bisexuality of recent, is real for me, in the end, i am still of the more stronger homosexual feelings i have been of in living a gay lifestyle the last twenty years….
ah well……it’s true.
we can still be friends, yes?
bless you all
Your.. loss..
nope, don’t wanna be friends..
it’s not a real friendship is it.. ?
ah well….. it’s true
my loss as in my waiting around for someone who is preoccupied with everything under the sun other than ‘me’?
i feel something pure and true with you, it’s true, always did, but i need and want to feel authentic ‘real’, of natural at ease fun loving lover self.
i would have been exceedingly happy with you, because of the pure and true love you are….
of course i wanted us to BE together, and likely always will, and maybe i am giving up on us and myself too soon, but if you were me, how would you feel, and what would be your response?
im not well this week…..alergies
nope, don’t wanna be friends?
who says something like that?
the cruel petty ego self that drags us into the gutter, according to God, and our common sense.
why am i talking with people who cannot even use their own name?
maybe my therapist is correct, i really am delusional
emotional torment………thanks but no thanks
that’s pretty sad, yes, when my own therapist thinks i am delusional?
i say, the only thing delusional is my thinking the internet is of a genuine authentic way to truly know and love me…..not possible.
well, i signed my self up, and have left myself open for what ever any of you wish to say, and in the end, i have only myself to blame for feeling the way the internet leaves me feeling like it does, unauthentic, disingenuine, of no warm hand holding mine.
i have to stop and take my therapist’s advice now people, where ‘real’ life is where it’s at, and where anyone can easily find ‘me’, so if you are sincere, then go be sincere in ‘real’ life with ‘me’ or someone else.
i am just not going to sit here and spin my wheels any longer, of what has been my unceasing hopefulness dreamy boy for you to come to me in ‘real’ life, something i sensed you have always wanted, just as i have since…………….
without doubt……………….is someone holding my hand
i am not going to concern myself any more of each day passing, finding myself alone, of no one holding my hand, of how it leaves me feeling, you don’t really really want to.
or if you do, you are not of my courage to do so.
no worry, there are many hands to hold in the kingdom of heaven, where letting go of no one there for me, is actually setting myself free to go love another.
anyway…..take care Madonna
i love you true
What the fuck do you mean by saying, “Your.. loss.. nope, don’t wanna be friends.. “?
Im like standing here all this fucking time waiting for you, knowing and expressing my self to you all this time, and you say something that is not like you at all to say, “don’t wanna be friends”?
it’s not like you to say something like that, so what the fuck are you saying, in saying that?
omg….she wants to fuck me!
omfg!
she wants a lover!
she wants ‘me’!
omfg! duh! i am so fucking stupid some days! lol
why didn’t say so in the first place!
well, don’t just think and say it, do it!
hot hot hot, hot look.. hot boot’s … hot dress.. hot hair..
burning up
again
lol
uhmn……are you talking bout you or ‘me’ in a dress?
im more butch fem than fem butch, in a feirce pure genuine healthy loving body sensitive to every touch kinda way!
as long as it’s always comfortable fun, doesn’t really matter what one wears, where the most fun is with wearing anything at all………….HOT TUB TIME!!!!!!!!!!
what is it about the hot tub that gets me so sexually aroused, of a “i don’t want this to end kinda feeling”?
i was looking kinda intense Friday night, sorta shocked myself actually!
can’t stop;won’t stop
why would anyone wanna stop having sex? what is wrong with people?
what is wrong with me?
argh…..
i dont think so, i don’t wear dresses would’nt fit into one anyway to muscly now, been weight training for three and a bit weeks owch, have to go to bed now, up early for my gym session, love my trainer she works me hard, lol
I was just thinking Mio Madonna, my favorite song of your’s has to be Hey YOu … well commercially Vouge, but really Hey You anywaz, did i tell you that i had the most amazing dream, about kylie ha ha.. nah seriously let’s talk about your next album … worthwhile topic.. yes .. it is going to be your best yet ..
you know,.,
everyone know’s
Lol
i know alot of things….
most important…i know God exists!
God is drawing the divine child to wisdom that, however submerged, or asleep in ignorance, the divine child intuitively knows/feels the truth of this, by means of constant subtle higher intellect self-knowingness awareness certainty connectedness, where we are all constantly connected every blessed day we wake 2.
and oh how we all love to connect, yes?
YOU gotta give me some a lovin everyday!
mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
enjoy the blessed day of blessed self YOU!
such inner delightful joy i feel with so many of the LGBT community, the obviousness of the condition of souls becoming their carefree Holy Joyfulness at ease in their having surrendered to self acceptance of being gay, being lesbian, being bisexual, being transexual, being transgendered, being queer, their true spirit BEcoming set free of the ignorant taboo generational oppression, where once out, we truly are of our inner joyful delightful within, obvious in outward appearance of what we are within, happy.
this external radiant brilliant bright outer happiness of what is our inner happiness, is what is of the mirroring connecting with others along life’s road, and for me, is what is of my own understanding of the divine will objective of God in my life meant for me and others to come forth fully of exceeding joyful happiness love devoid of the world’s oppressive suppressive unwise doubtfulness of love we share in likeness of/with/for one another here in the kingdom of heaven all around us, every blessed day we wake to.
no matter how destitute, unattended, broken, some of my loving brothers and sisters may appear, they all have the inner spark true sense of belong here in the LGBT ghetto community, our knowingness we are at home here with one another today, tomorrow, each blessed day we wake to, of what is my spiritual journey life with them daily, taking time to feel the love i feel for all of them like i love to do, gimme some a lovin everyday!
i love them all, inspite of their yet coming free of the fearful world. I am one of them who has journeyed a long time, of unwavering stable comfort in knowing my own spirit, of oneness sameness of us all.
blessings to all
there are many along life’s road whom i have had the sacred priviledge of meeting, who have been of sacred mirroring self-discovery awareness in coming fully into know my Holy Joy Absolute Carefree Spirit of the day(s) i came to see/feel the Light of my divine ‘real’ Self.
The Sacredness of coming to fully know and feel our Pure Loving Holy Joy Absolute Carefree Spirit is beyond all the riches in the world while of feeling the pure flawless healing love feelings we feel like we do, such as in a hot tub with a most loving lover likeness of Self, and this is where Heaven constantly starts flowing and stops flowing, were forgetfulness of this sacred feelings is our greatest foe.
Many souls there are who are of the yet unknowing aimlessness plodding along in life, subconsciously seeking what i know i have found, that is beyond all their status quos of career or wealth, that no matter who you are in the world, without doubt, i know what Jesus was speaking of that is beyond all the riches of the world, the blessed flawless healing love feelings of the Pure Loving Holy Joy Absolute Carefree Divine Child of God’s Spirit YOU!
This is what is the divine objective focal starting point, where our wise descerning protective wisdom, particularly of remembering forgetfulness as the greastest foe, is also of crucial importance in maintaining what we have already come to know as the sacred reaching Jesus was of while walking the earth, well aware of his own Trueness Aspects of divine Self, divine Self of us all.
I am of sacred thankfulness of such souls that i know are of God that i met them, wise in descerning knowingness why, meant for me to realize and acknowledge the divine self sacred mirroring i was meant to BEcome aware of what has been my long spiritual journey thus far, where without doubt, i am eternally thankful of every moment of my growing evolving self-discovery self-knowledge awareness that even words cannot adequately express my thankfulness, nearly as well as a touch can! lol
best of all, no one and nothing in life is able to tarnish the wise descerning ability of the divine Self, once we come fully into the kingdom of heaven devoid of doubt, other than our own petty ego self that is able to drag our divine self into the gutter…..this one i also know well.
I am in love with life itSelf!
forever more
thank you Jesus thank you God thank you to all
bless you bless you bless you all
forever more
Happy Happy Mama’s Day!
International Standard Version (©2008)
Jesus said to him, “It is also written, ‘You must not tempt the Lord your God.'”
New American Standard Bible (©1995)
Jesus said to him, “On the other hand, it is written, ‘YOU SHALL NOT PUT THE LORD YOUR GOD TO THE TEST.'”
GOD’S WORD® Translation (©1995)
Jesus said to him, “Again, Scripture says, ‘Never tempt the Lord your God.’ ”
King James Bible
Jesus said unto him, It is written again, Thou shalt not tempt the Lord thy God.
American King James Version
Jesus said to him, It is written again, You shall not tempt the Lord your God.
American Standard Version
Jesus said unto him, Again it is written, Thou shalt not make trial of the Lord thy God.
Bible in Basic English
Jesus said to him, Again it is in the Writings, You may not put the Lord your God to the test.
Douay-Rheims Bible
Jesus said to him: It is written again: Thou shalt not tempt the Lord thy God.
Darby Bible Translation
Jesus said to him, It is again written, Thou shalt not tempt the Lord thy God.
English Revised Version
Jesus said unto him, Again it is written, Thou shalt not tempt the Lord thy God.
Webster’s Bible Translation
Jesus said to him, It is written again, Thou shalt not tempt the Lord thy God.
Weymouth New Testament
“Again it is written,” replied Jesus, “‘Thou shalt not put the Lord thy God to the proof.'”
World English Bible
Jesus said to him, “Again, it is written, ‘You shall not test the Lord, your God.'”
Young’s Literal Translation
Jesus said to him again, ‘It hath been written, Thou shalt not tempt the Lord thy God.’
This Is WAR !
you win
you fucked ( with ) the (wrong) Jesus…
Omg are you in for some
Big KARMA
Big Mamma
daddy said, because i was such a good boy in my last life, considering i gave my life and soul for humanity, that i can be a little more selfish in this life…
so selfish it is
your fucked
i’m gonna make you pay !
this is one mother fucker
you should have not fucked over
( fucked under )
fucked in general
just just a general fuck
fuck
fuck me dead
i’ve already been fucked dead
you just wait
& keep waiting
fuck
seriously your fucked
your Karma
it’s gonna get
YOU
don’t underestimate me…
i am the son of Of GOD
i am powerfull
i earn’t my POWER
oh never mind go back to your faker
ha ha
Jesus goes to hollywood
& comes back the Angel of the Devil
Angel’s & Demon’s
Meh …
black Cat
oh i’ll just go fuck Andy’s 20yrs of, old loose old bottom ass
irk…
grwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww….
Andy Madonna is getting married to Jesus
i guess that just
leaves us two…
will you marry me ?
( are you loose ? )
i don’t do loose !
Romeo Assend’s up the stage in his white robe
all the lights are shinning
with the instrumental of LIKE A PRAYER playing
Man DONNA
what ???? i am the male version of You …
it’s peanut’s
i should have walked away the last time you did this to me
but i loved you
so i over looked the past
& you know
all i can say is
this time
you are wiser
so you don’t get a second chance to fuck up
if you choose to walk
away from my love
remember i’ll always love you
if you choose to walk my path i’ll always love
either way i’ll always love you…
because i love you..
hey
you …
thank’s for everything you’ve shared with me
i just want you to be happy for me also
cause after all i’m only human
i feel the same things you feel that we all feel
a desire to be loved
and
beloved
Farrah Fawcett
Your MiRiCal has come true.
in my heart
do you belong
i’ll be with you .. don’t be afraid
it’s those weleave behind who we will need to concentrate on …. with our love we cannot go wrong
love
LOVE
You ‘MAY NOT’ put the Lord your God to the test.
MAY NOT, as in NOT POSSIBLE, because we are all morons, unable to do so, like shooting an arrow at a target you cognitively cannot yet see, of what is blind asleep in ignorance, uncomprehending, comprendYY?!!! lol
at some point, we come to realize the truth, and humble our divine self that no one here knows why, where or what this place is, the universe, and that what ever life force may have created us, is beyond our comprehension at this moment in time, although, there is the wealth of intuitive self, merely by turning towards our pure and true Spirit, where developing cultivation of our wise descerning flawless feelings, easily reveals the absurd untruth falsehoods, does it not?
ya, exactly, without LOVE(light) stems all the absurd useless degenerative racism, sexism, war, and any and all unloving, uncaring, unwise generational oppressive suppressions, destruction, and death each blessed day, where daily the averting of future death, destruction and oppression exists in the daily questioning, “Who died today, and why?”
i ain’t dead yet Biyatches, although yesterday some ignorant bashers got closer to me than cared to be of proximity to, live and learn.
blessed is the divine self YOU!
blessed is the FLAWLESS HEALING LOVE we feel!
bless you bless you bless YOU ALL!
you are wiser
it’s not a competition, it’s an intuitive subconscious seeking spiritual quest we all are on, even of those not cognitively seeking like we deliberately, dedicatedly, diligently, devotedly experience in our meditative experiential techniques of BEcoming (re)aquaited with our blessed divine child of God’s pure and true ‘real’ Self Spirit, where i sense the presense of an eternal Spirit realm constantly there, like a gentle breeze of our hair, the tranquility feelings we feel during the morning twilight hour, walking on beach, hand in hand.
i come to add, not take away, although at times, i yet stumble, but deep down, i love you pure and true, always did.
always WILL
i only have approximately 20 more summers to go Biyatches, so ya better hurry up and get with my tight trany ass!!!!!!!!!!!!
20km per day biking……..i am in better shape than when i was 16, now if i can just find someone like ‘me’ to fuck with!
you’re funny Marco, always feels good to feel you genuinely smile.
we are of great maturity, and our hearts are genuine pure and true spiritual quest seekers.
i always sensed the deeper pure and true you, that i may not know as well as i could like you know your own divine Spirit, yet i know, intuitively, we all know.
on we go
Constantly at all time, Life is sacred for us ALL!
we are all ONE family, the world over, and what is of constant concern each blessed day we wake to, is our questioning each blessed day, that our divine pure and true self intuitively knows/feels the answers;
“Who is of oppressive suppression TODAY of their Holy Joyful Absolutely Carefree Pure and True Self, and why?”
“Who is of destruction(unknowing unwise aimless derrangement) TODAY of their Holy Joyful Absolutely Carefree Pure and True Self, and why?”
“Who is of death TODAY of their Holy Joyful Absolutely Carefree Pure and True Self, and why?”
We are all up against these generational degenerative unwise untruths, where wise intuitive knowingness descerning is the only safe passage for who we are, the eternal human BEing on planet earth, and we need to hurry up soon, as we only have 9 billion years left to escape this solar system!
hurry up damn it!
time WELL spent………..life is so short, i feel it, only 20 summers left to go for me, God WILLING!
bless you
i should have walked away the last time you did this to me
but i loved you
so i over looked the past
~
well, eventually forgive my abandonment issue manifestations someday, a life of fear based experiences, bad relationship experiences that make us more guarded and fearful in future, where i am of moderate imprinted susceptibility to my inability to 100% trust, hence, why i run away, always did most of my life, a complex that developed in as a teen, of not truly sitting and feeling thru my pure and true emotions, just run away, of my procedural memory system storage of the instructions for my habitual responses, autopilot, or how about of what some refer to as ‘fight or flight’ instant reptilian brain response when emotional intensity cross a certain level that triggers my reptilian brain response, of my reptilian brain located in my brain stem?
ah, now that one is interesting, yes?!
a slippery wet green sexy sexy sexy reptile that loves slithering with another reptile! YES!!!!!!!!!!!! lol
will you marry me ?
YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
under one condition………and this is important to ‘me’!
you first cogntively slowly establish who is a pure and true soulmate lover that is most conducive for your pure and true loving Spirit to thrive and grow in Holy Joyful Absolute Carefreeness, of God that i ask this of YOU!
of what you need to ask YOU!
we did not meet in life, so neither of us know the truth of how we could of come to truly know and love one another.
i know i love you, profoundly, like i love my SELF.
bless you bless you bless you
this simple guitar playing music has a casual easy to feel, deminishing of fear to feel our feelings, reaquainting us with our pure of heart feelings, gentle genuine stirring of our souls awake to what we intuitively know what matters most to us all in life, our pure and true BEloved LOVE feelings we constantly yearn to feel.
http://www.imeem.com/marselip/music/NoEqB-7z/sonya-kitchell-11so-lonely/
i am not walking away from you?….where would i go, when all is connected, always constantly walking with you, somewhere in the world.
my life is a pure of heart spiritual life, of what is my constant compassionate observations of any soul along life’s road, so much destructive unwisenesses, the radiant brilliant bright flawless healing feeling light that constantly radiates within, outward, each step on my loving journey of life, every learning self awareness reaquaintance pure and true.
my only prayer is that my life affect/effects YOU all, and those you love in a positive helpful way.
im not perfect, my own Spirit yet of the generational unwise snarings, 15 months now of my sabatical exiting from the corporate ladder climbing that saw me working 120 hours per week, burned out, crashed hard, became stress free, carefree, joyful, holy restoration of my Spirit, feeling better than i have since childhood, priority thinking and feeling of what matters, my postive mental, emotional, physical, spiritual, sexual well BEing, a gift that only i can give to my SELF, of self respect that stops and starts with ‘me’, growth in SELF love, wisdom, and compassion.
truly, where i am, is my favorite place of all thus far in life, where i am without doubt of what matters.
it is i who needs to thank you for being there, like we have, like i constantly yearned to be for so long.
oh how wanted to love you in real life, truly, without doubt, so pure and true in feeling, afraid to, afraid not to, the pure of heart tears, the constant clasping of hands, intuitive eternal undying yearning hopefulness that is unable to be lie, only hide, at times, afraid, submerge, no, not the masks, not again, run away, to nowhere i can run away to, away from my feelings, finding myself only to cry again and again, blessed loving pure and true tears, the divine child ‘real’ self always knows, of feelings that show, feelings that grow……….the truth of who i am, who we all are, always were, precious loving divine children of God, we all are, of where we all are, the same place, the same way we came into where we know not where, what or why, only when and how, and oh how we love to HOW WHEN ever the urge arises!!!!!!
ah love, is where i can easily, joyfully be found, of where i always yearn to be found, without tears, without frown, bin there, done enough of that over the years……….Troy.
we pass thru our short amount of time of our blessed lives we live.
stand still, at ease, as your blessed authentic constant loving self, of who you ALL are, the compassionate loving wise children of God who 100% intuitively constantly KNOWS…………..without doubt………….only love, wisdom, and compassion, FEELS good enough!
BE without doubt, anything other, is what is comes from past of the ongoing generational degenerative untruths, not of who you really really are, a divine child of God’s heart, mind, body, spirit and soul.
forever more
blessed is the constant radianting light of truth, where even the truth of the dark untruths intuitively serves the divine child.
blessings to all
if you choose to walk my path i’ll always love YOU
i feel the same things you feel that we all feel
a desire to be loved
and
beloved
~
compassionately so of many others
ya, graceful at ease authentic ‘rea’ self, fearlessly feeling the subtle grace feelings so pure and true, is in every step now, each blessed day i wake to, no desire to argue, to fight, to flight, to react in that exhausting repetitive nowhere place ‘play’ any more, i let go, exhausted my self, silly, at least not of recent, some weeks are worse, i let people overly get to me, just feel the goodness that constantly yearns to flow……..only love
silly to trouble ourselves in silly irreducible differences already reduced.
any more than 10, supposedly, statistically, not good idea.
the research continues
bless you
Hi Madonna,
Just taking a flyer that you might read this. Our records indicate you were once involved with Camp Fire. That is awesome. Next year is our 100th anniversary and we are trying to connect with some of our better known alumni to see how they might like to participate in one or more of our major events during the year. Our national office is in Kansas City. You can reach me by writing to the info address on our website, or by the address I listed here which I guess is invisible to everyone. Sure would be amazing to have you invovled. I hope to somehow hear from you. This is legit by the way.
loose?
as in foot loose promiscuis loose like a wild stallion?
no
sad to see so many precious healthy souls, once of at ease confident healthy self, becoming snared by the ever present drug dealing here in the ghetto, that sees many suseptible coming out beautiful souls, the snaring of occasional self-medicating internal homophobia, recreational drug use phase, gradually becoming chronic drug use, these uncaring drug dealers, who think it’s cool, seem to be taking over the ghetto scene more and more, that i have been watching over now since ’93.
what are the answers to these runaway teens from their unaccepting homophobic families of small towns?
that we don’t stop:won’t stop caring, researching more and more understanding, get involved, stay involved, without doubt, each step matters.
drugfree[dot]org
to wake each day with the beautiful feelings of love for someone is how i felt with Troy, and once again, for the first time since, i have become restored in feelings of love someone, of what mattered most in life then, what matters most in life once again, to feel the beautiful butterfly feelings to love truly again, ready for my soulmate lover friend, where being together is of sacred love each passing moment of every blessed day!
all this time, i have been afraid to love again like i did Troy.
I know God places certain people in our life that reveals our precious loving true spirit, where God wants us to fully embrace what matters most, the love we truly feel, truly live for, truly living, of our Holy Joy Absolute Carefree Spirit set free from the mind traps.
blessings to all
http://www.imeem.com/popmusic8/music/yQhsxb1h/melissa-etheridge-nowhere-to-go/
Seems the number of irreducible differences with my ex were too oppressive for me to continue on with him, my spirit unable to be at ease, my spirit that constantly yearns to be of the pure and true peaceful inner peace and love i am, his stuff, not mine, belongs to him, his not willing to change, to really feel his belittling condescending approach with me, sadly, i left for the last time last night, standing in the ghetto street, overwhelmed, feeling as though completely alone in life, a paralizing feeling, praying for someone i know to come along, God knew, and with gratitude, an old faithful friend thankfully appeared, in need of him, in need of him, our precious loving spirits willingness to remain victorious, marching onward, thanks Norman!
thanks Melissa, always able to sooth our country boy/girl souls, who i am, always was, always will be, that at ease countrified ‘real’ me where i was born physically, spiritually.
Nowhere To Go lyrics
I know a place
Down past an old shack
On a road that goes to nowhere
Ain’t nobody coming back
We can go there tonight
We can talk until dawn
Or maybe something else
I’ll leave the radio on
There’s no one to hear
You might as well scream
They never woke up
From the American dream
And they don’t understand
What they don’t see
And they look through you
And they look past me
Oh, you and I dancing slow
And we got nowhere to go
Past the Wal-Mart and the prison
Down by the old V.A.
Just my jeans and my t-shirt
And my blue Chevrolet
It’s Saturday night
Feels like everything’s wrong
I’ve got some strawberry wine
I wanna get you alone
Down by the muddy water
Of the mighty Mo
In an old abandoned box car
Will I ever know
Dance with me forever
This moment is divine
I’m so close to heaven
This hell is not mine
This hell is not mine…
My real eyes realize real lies!
_ Norman
blessings to all
Just my jeans, my t-shirt and love is all one ever needs……..authentically, genuinely, sincerely, real.
Holy Joy
Absolute Carefree
Set Free
To Just BE
YOU!
Hey, if gavitational pull is electrons attracted to other protons in the galaxy, solar system, gravity on earth, do you think the spiral of a spiral galaxy is related to the spinning plane of electrons around the atoms proton?
indicative plausibility, yes?
and what of the energy of an electron that continues to spin around a proton? What is that, and how is it that it continues like it does?
in the vaccum of space, an object in motion, stays in motion, without an egual opposing force, where the vaccum of space has no opposite forces, just as at the atomic level, the distance between atoms is great, of space with no opposing forces, the electron energy force at the speed of light which is remnant of the big bang beginning/end of all matter in the universe.
im bored, can i come over?
oh hi Jesus, how are you today! You two look fabulous in white! Where are the happy flowers for your hair, without a care?
i asked this science question of Mark at work this morning, and he says, “Hey, where is that hippy Andy i know?”
i smile and respond, “Yeah though i walk among them, they do not know that which they intuitively sense of me, that which i know to be true of them, true of me, Holy joyful, carefree, absolutely YOU Biyatch!”
rainbow shoe laces, and belt, i spun around on one foot, hand in air, without a care, the truth of YOU, that i dare!
“Your looking at my ass gives you away every time Mark!” lol
as i watch his face turn red
we know everything damn it!
one we go!
too many of these slave to the world robotic egos are stiffling my fun loving free spirit!
argh……..
ok, so seeing as we know and embrace, without doubt, the purity of the affect/effect/direct/indirect constant connectedness of all souls of the earth, then we need only ask each blessed day we wake to, what energy contribution of love and light are we naturally of, deliberately of, dedicatedly of, diligently of, devotedly of, the radiant brilliant bright Holy joy loving light of our divine self, that wisely knows, the divine self constant yearning truth of all our spirits set free from the bitter generational degenerative falsenesses, that leaves us feeling our flawless pure feelings like we do, our ease absolutely carefreeness, true of us all, in staying to to self, true to self of another, in our priorty asking, “What is of one thing i shall do today that is nurturing, awakening and protective of the precious loving spirit of another like our own?”
God’s WILL, our WILL BE DONE on earth, that which Heaven constantly is, all around us, the pure loving light of the enlightened spiritual BEings who light up the whole world, by means of mirroring TRUTH of the divine child of God trueness aspects of us ALL, of constant yearning without doubt knowingness certainty hopefulness as true and faithful friends till the end, unable to turn away from each other, away from the inner truth of that which we constantly are, and deserving of, only love, only wisdom, only compassion for ALL.
The divine Self Spirits constantly evolving of what is our intuitive unifying of the divine Self Spirits, past, present, future, ALL is connected.
without doubt
forever more
blessings to all
someone in class says, “And what of the galaxies which are not spiral Andy?”
close observation of the matter of such galaxies, should reveal the age/youth of the galaxy, and/or the predominate density of the element that is present there.
I’ve had too self exclude myself from this blog, it’s too addictive and at the same time it’s awesome, but to be true too myself i must accept that it is not reality, borderline …
that’s where i reside “borderline”, a place of balance,
no judgement..
Well i had to convince my live in chief, Eryk the black boi from Mauritiuous who every little james bond think’s is my crack dealer, even though i’ve never tried crack in my life, that ( he has the password to Trent Micro Internet security. which has blocked this blog..) so well this is my last opportunity to chat in cyberspace anyway, Eriik has forbidden me from accessing this blog after this moment, ( as per my request, im still the boss)
So anyway what does One say when One has the last say ?
so i’ll leave you with this …
Imagine a boy meet’s a girl in on a dance floor, & she say’s “hey Boy pick me up like a Ballerina” – so he does, ( but he struggles a little until he manages to flip her on to the podium where and when she is secure on the podium, he take’s a breath of air, thinking to himself , oh boy you need to get stronger if your gonna be able to carry that ONE again..
lol….
lot’s Love
and hey yer
what’s real is real what’s not is not
“May the truth set you free..”
i’m free, if only you opened your eye’s
( erik come please… block me NOW )
ya, i was thinking the same thing, i am not going to allow my self to entertain any thing but ‘real’ physical life, face to face, hand to hand, body to body, soul to soul, heart to heart, mind to mind, spirit to spirit in my searching for a potential partner soulmate lover in the garden.
into this world a divine child of God born of heart, mind, body, spirit and soul that intuitivively senses the truth and untruths at all times, where untruths in approaching others along life’s road, can leave the divine child feeling toxic uncertainty, it is only momentarily felt, as flawless healing feelings restoration of their heart, mind, body, spirit and soul comes from setting healthy adjustable flexible boundaries, that the divine child intuitively learns to set by means of descerning feelings of the truths and untruths as regards the trueness aspects the divine child intuitively constantly knows, of what is their evolving self-knowledge awareness that only love feels good in each passing moment of every blessed day.
so if anyone wants to truly come to know and love ‘me’, then please do so in person, as i too, am deserving of only love of a loving lover’s touch.
blessings to all
ONE?
actually, i am thinking and feeling ONEness of TWO!
who the fuck wants to be alone?
fuck that
everything is of two
we feel everything as one of two
we hear everything as one of two
we see everything as one of two
we touch everything as one of two
we smell everything as one of two
we taste everything as one of two
we walk everything as one of two
we hold hands as one of two
we hug as one of two
and get this, we have sex as one of two!!!!!!!!!!!!!
can i be the bottom this time?
who knew?!!!!!!!!!!!!!
you picked him over ‘me’, so i best be on my way home to reciprocal oneness love of two in the real world, where we all belong.
you know, i never understood why Madonna has not had her fun loving lover singing joyful pure and true happiness of two truly fun loving souls in the studio.
although, i suppose there are some who may argue otherwise?
seems abit arrogant, does it not, this seemingly better than others, i don’t want or need a man, rant rant rant?
don’t mind ‘me’, im from the Sunny and Cher era.
Holy Joyful Absolute Carefree Happiness Pure of Heart fun loving lovers!
TWO damn it!
Jesus and God says you cannot do it alone, it takes TWO!
oh never mind, go back to sleep
i’ll just have 2 find another like ‘me’ to shine 4th
thanks
bless you bless you bless you ALL
as for the podium, what podium, you can walk the rest of your way home like the rest of us prefer to do, at eye to eye level of our oneness sameness.
and if you climb up on a podium, well, becareful you don’t fall on your ass and make a mock your self like a fool unknowingly annoyingly boringly does.
yyyawnnnnnn…not enough sleep last night
ok, i love you 2
let ‘me’ know if you change your mind, although im not sure what there is 2 change.
(AndYY picks up a strap on dildo)
do these come in different sizes?
who knew?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol
blessings to all who love love love the truth of who i am, of who we are!!!!!!!!!!!!
forever more Biyatches!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(we now return to our regular programing)
Ciao
it’s not about judgement, never was, nor shall it ever BE
it’s about divine self awareness
Jesus says, “The trueness aspects i came to fully 100% know to BE true of my self, without doubt, are true of you, are they not?”
blessed is the divine self of intuitive seeking divine self wisdom of God meant for all
taking a break
blessings to all
Fearless absolute carefree holy joyful spirit of YOU! set free from the boring lameass oppressive world! lol
Self-Love Can’t Stop! Won’t Stop! Don’t Ever Stop BEing Self-Confident Fun Loving Free Spirit of ‘real’ YOU!
Can you imagine 100 shufflers in funked OUT clothing?
May Shufflers take over Madonna’s stage forever!
Learn to fearfully dance like this, and maybe then, you may come to truly know your own free spirit like these fun loving souls do, yes?
forgive and forget all bitter useless emotional nescience, including my own, as i too am yet evolving out of my own unfocused darkness of tattered old….
towards tomorrow, here today, unfortunately, is the only thing we can change….
communities should host and award weekly dance competitions in local areas for the youth, to inspire and provide a healthy fun interactivity for them, away from the dangerous drug scenes.
may shuffling take over the world! lol
unbelievable inspiration, sorta like the disco era, only way more intense, truly fantastic unstopable healthy energy of explosive radiant brilliant bright inner joy!
blessings to all
these dances so easily kick Madonna’s wannabe ass!
lol
keep up or these youths WILL leave ya behind!
you can start by inviting some of them directly to your stage!
youth inspire youth
omg! truly amazing, are they not?!
all they need are small spring boards(trampolines), built in flush with the stage, and some wacked out funky satin outfits, and stand back!
i love their FEARLESS CONFIDENT energy vibration!
inspiration especially good for youth, during their self-confident developing years.
remember how insecure we all felt then?
well, ok, i was, still am some days……..
what thrill for the ones who get invited on a world tour, yes?
huge for them and their peers!
get off the stage Madonna!
or at least share it………with some better dancers!
Self-Love Can’t Stop! Won’t Stop! Don’t Ever Stop BEing Self-Confident Fun Loving Free Spirit of ‘real’ YOU!
blessings to all
For you wannabes, BigMilan at YouTube has created alot of shuffle dance lesson videos for us.
anyone can learn how to shuffle dance
practice practice practice healthy experiential fun for the heart, mind, body, spirit and soul of ‘real’ self YOU!
stubborn
One entry found.
Main Entry:
stub·born Listen to the pronunciation of stubborn
Pronunciation:
\ˈstə-bərn\
Function:
adjective
Etymology:
Middle English stibourne, stuborn
Date:
14th century
1 a (1): unreasonably or perversely unyielding : mulish (2): justifiably unyielding : resolute b: suggestive or typical of a strong stubborn nature 2: performed or carried on in an unyielding, obstinate, or persistent manner 3: difficult to handle, manage, or treat 4: lasting
& i thought ( being a Capricorn ) i was Stubborn…
obviously, i am not alone in this regard…
then again,
I’d rather be alone & happy
than un-happy and alone…
exscuse me whilst, i go make love to my newly aquired
extra large biceps …
see what 21 days without alcohol does to someone !
FRUSTRATED
&
BORED
I love the way people ditch you because you wont, melt like butter in their arm’s
so it’s like an ultimatum fuck me of fuck off..
what happened to
i love you, i want you to be my friend
nah
same old shit
all or nothing
maybe you don’t know
what TRUE love is YET
I’ll Show you …
Goodnight
all or nothing(thinking and behaving, forgetful of what is real, our potentially unending growth process in self-knowledge awareness wisdom that frees our 100% pure blessed Spirits from the generational deluge of oppressive untrue ignorances yet of this world, fearful suppressive in nature, obvious to see, truly, most are not of desire for the wisdom we cognitively seek, yet ALL are of what is true of every divine child of God’s Spirit……….intuitive subconscious seeking.)
~ maybe you don’t know
what TRUE love is YET
intuitively, every divine child of God intuitively purely knows what TRUE love is, ALL having come from/thru blessed purity of harmonious womb bliss, the beginning of us ALL life experience(not something we read about, no, what we ALL experienced), of what is 100% purely true core of the Spiritual BEing divine child of God, 100% oneness sameness of ALL, past, present, future.
also intuitive, is the natural occuring protective barriers that go up when of close proximity to the fearful falsehood casting of controlling fear egos some are of, and yes, i am yet of anxiety fear within of some who unknowingly are yet of their ego snarings, they too, of fear in letting down their guard, their own life experience numerous betrayals from so many they too met along life’s road, particularly those who betrayed them while yet a youth.
it’s not so much i don’t trust you, rather it is you who has reason not to trust me, my obvious yet coming free of the old self useless ego foes…..my natural occuring guardedness that anyone would be of, in consideration of this past year life experience along life’s road of what was my too close proximity to those who were not healthy for me, not to judge, just where they too yet are in their own evolving, i love all, but not the generational taught binding fearful exterior ego masks worn.
i am more free this day, than any day previous, in likeness of my carefree joyful years of youth, so subtle in feeling, the pure calming grace i wake to now, yes, alone, of my preference at this time.
bless you
how does one explain cognitive presence of the spirit of Jesus and God in my life?
purely i say this for the first time, “only by means growth in self-knowledge self-awareness that came thru, of many years in having turned towards the self-knowledge awarenes words of Jesus and God, did i eventually stepp over a point in time threshold level of macro thinking awareness understanding that revealed to ‘me’, my purpose is of God’s divine WILL, that is now 100% the WILL of my ‘real’ self Jesus and God have knowingly, wisely been attending to…..i am without doubt.
bless you
true dissociative disorder….
the melbshuffle… those guys have so much energy & balance.
my best friend used to dance like that, sadly he took his own life at 24, way too sensitive for this world. so wonderful the world has become so drenched with creative people so many expressing their talent’s and in so many different way’s, like those dancers.
Well rejection is one thing, i can deal with that..
it’s the contempt and nastiness i sense which does tend to pain me, although your honesty to yourself in being aware of your own demons that need to be addressed, does redeem you from thoughts i sometimes have that your just plain evil, so perhaps i have been too critical.
i have addressed my own short comings completely on my own, whilst at the same time having to carry the burden of everyone Else’s.
any further continuance of the current expression of contempt & resentment, & i imagine what little remains of a once strong bond may truly be broken.
one must learn to grow up, before they grow old, if they truly desire to remain young.. & connect to the child within.
what’s that game called ping pong game, silly game ..
Dissociative disorders[1] are defined as conditions that involve disruptions or breakdowns of memory, awareness, identity and/or perception. The hypothesis is that symptoms can result, to the extent of interfering with a person’s general functioning, when one or more of these functions is disrupted.
The four dissociative disorders listed in the DSM IV TR are as follows:
~ 1 ~ Depersonalization disorder (DPD) is a dissociative disorder in which the sufferer is affected by persistent or recurrent feelings of depersonalization and/or derealization. The symptoms include a sense of automation, going through the motions of life but not experiencing it, feeling as though one is in a movie, feeling as though one is in a dream, feeling a disconnection from one’s body; out-of-body experience, a detachment from one’s body, environment and difficulty relating oneself to reality.
Occasional moments of depersonalization are normal;[1] persistent or recurrent feelings are not. A diagnosis of a disorder is made when the dissociation is persistent and interferes with the social and occupational functions necessary to everyday living. Most cases of depersonalization disorder are triggered by abuse, trauma, and drug use, although a variety of genetic and environmental factors are implicated. Depersonalization disorder can be conceptualized as a defense mechanism as the core symptoms of the disorder are thought to protect the victim from negative stimuli. Depersonalization disorder is often comorbid with anxiety disorders, panic disorders, clinical depression and/or bipolar disorder.
Although depersonalization disorder is an alteration in the subjective experience of reality, it is by no means related to psychosis as sufferers maintain the ability to distinguish between their own internal experiences and the objective reality of the outside world. Sufferers are able to distinguish between reality and fantasy, during episodic and continuous depersonalization, and do not represent a risk to society since their grasp on reality remains stable at all times.
~ 2 ~ Psychogenic amnesia, also known as functional or dissociative amnesia, is a disorder characterized by abnormal memory functioning in the absence of structural brain damage or a known neurobiological cause; severe cases are very rare.[1] It is defined by the presence of retrograde amnesia or the inability to retrieve stored memories and events leading up to the onset of amnesia and an absence of anterograde amnesia or the inability to form new long term memories.[2][3][4] In most cases, patients lose their autobiographical memory and personal identity even though they are able to learn new information and perform everyday functions normally. Other times, there may be a loss of basic semantic knowledge and procedural skills such as reading and writing.[5]
There are two types of psychogenic amnesia, global and situation-specific.[5][6] Global amnesia, also known as fugue state, refers to a sudden loss of personal identity that lasts a few hours to days.[4] This is preceded by severe stress and/or depressed mood. Fugue state is very rare, and usually resolves over time, often helped by therapy. Situation-specific amnesia is a type of dissociative amnesia occurs as a result of a severely stressful event, as in post-traumatic stress disorder. Dissociative amnesia is due to psychological rather than physiological causes and can sometimes be helped by therapy.
~ 3 ~ A fugue state, formally Dissociative Fugue (previously called Psychogenic Fugue) (DSM-IV Dissociative Disorders 300.13[1]), is a rare psychiatric disorder characterized by reversible amnesia for personal identity, including the memories, personality and other identifying characteristics of individuality. The state is usually short-lived (hours to days), but can last months or longer. Dissociative fugue usually involves unplanned travel or wandering, and is sometimes accompanied by the establishment of a new identity. After recovery from fugue, previous memories usually return intact, however there is complete amnesia for the fugue episode. Importantly, an episode is not characterized as a fugue if it can be related to the ingestion of psychotropic substances, to physical trauma, to a general medical condition, or to psychiatric conditions such as delerium or dementia, bipolar disorder or depression. Fugues are usually precipitated by a stressful episode, and upon recovery there may be amnesia for the original stressor (Dissociative Amnesia).
~ 4 ~ Dissociative identity disorder (DID) is a psychiatric diagnosis that describes a condition in which a single person displays multiple distinct identities or personalities (known as alter egos or alters), each with its own pattern of perceiving and interacting with the environment. The diagnosis requires that at least two personalities routinely take control of the individual’s behavior with an associated memory loss that goes beyond normal forgetfulness; in addition, symptoms cannot be due to drug use or medical condition. Earlier versions of the DSM named the condition multiple personality disorder (MPD), the term still used by the ICD-10.
There is a great deal of controversy surrounding the topic. There are many commonly disputed points about DID. These viewpoints critical of DID can be quite varied, with some taking the position that DID does not actually exist as a valid medical diagnosis, and others who think that DID may exist but is either always or usually an adverse side effect of therapy. DID diagnoses appear to be almost entirely confined to the North American continent,[1][2] adding to the possibility that DID may not be a legitimate diagnosis.
link:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dissociative_identity_disorder
by the way you are right i don’t trust you, partially because your not totally sincere to me and partially because your not totally sincere to yourself, you think you are but you are not. but hey who’s running, not that there’s anything left to run from anymore.. i think i have said too much.. be mindful i returned this last time for closure.
in hindsight, i am sure you’ll agree with me on this, it has all been worth while, a positive outcome for all concerned which at times often seemed like four instead of two. once there were four then there were two and now there are none.
alone in a peaceful safe sanctuary allows for quieting of our minds, where our ‘real’ self is able to come forth and feel our emotional honesty of constant intuitive seeking for emotional safety, where i have come to acknowledge not many are along life’s road have i been able to feel pure emotional safety like that which i have with the (Holy) spirity Jesus and God, who are of pure certainty devoid of doubt in assisting ‘me’ to TRULY see and peer thru to the truth of the existing generational snarings of heart mind body spirit and soul, not for sake of finger pointing, but for sake of protective descerning awareness wisdom that keeps ‘me’ from feeling afraid of the falsehoods as my fearless calm at ease truly peaceful graceful self, where what is of importance is the fearlessness which is required for the expansive macro thinking wisdom halo i enjoy dwelling in, a construct of pure truth wisdom that crosses across all time.
i am looking into the plausibility of what is of the eternal spirit realm of how one’s spirit becomes prepared to enter into the eternal realm.
ya, sure, most would say, “crazy”
i am completely without concern of what any have to say of my research into unfathomable realms of higher subtle intellect.
dissociative behaviour, well ya, sure, a life time of sincere desire to dissociate from the belittling condescending absurd toxic fearful ego controlling others, *cough*, ya, i am dissociative, proudly so!
lol
but mean spirited or revengeful, no, i am way beyond petty blind illnesses of heart, rather, i am purely compassionate while of peering thru the veil of self-awareness detecting truth of the condition of souls, as a mere student of Jesus and God growing wiser, growing fearless, growing of the divine child of God’s heart mind body spirit and soul that belongs to Jesus and God, the greatest gift one can bring to the alter and give to Jesus and God, where when one truly surrenders ONLY in pure 100% humbleness(acknowledging none are fully of God’s wisdom), are we able to enter into the wisdom perspective halo of what constantly is the kingdom of heaven all around us, unafraid to feel the unwise aimless haphazard approach of others who are not yet of our comprehension looking apon the unattended condition of souls.
it is not like the scatter incomplete merchants of God, rather, is purely of attending nurturing wise conducive halo protection for the divine child of God’s heart mind body spirit and soul to thrive in grow in what is intuitive core of our Spiritual BEing of ALL, unoppressed Holy Joyful Absolute Carefree Happiness.
truly, this world is of great many fearful in nature non-conducive environments of oppressive suppressive egotisms that are toxic in nature, yes?
our subtle higher intellect pure of heart feelings, feel this without question, easily so, anywhere in life, of what is of many circles, such as the fear mongering street gangs and their gun toting fear mongering unknowingly unwise of the snarings they are of, our pure compassion for their obvious level of unattended unnurtured snaring unwise falsehood, of what is their haphazard aimlessness that does result in death daily for many, leaving all to wonder why?
purely is our compassion that knows without doubt, these deaths are the direct result of the unattended unnurtured unprotected blessed divine spirit of any child of God in the world, unable to be protected from the generational deluge yet here with us in the present day, 2009 years after the pure Holy Spirit of God connected with Jesus, advising and wisely drawing(a subconscious intuitive seeking dynamica only God purely knows) the spirit of all divine children toward cognitive self-knowledge awareness wisdom words of the awakening, nurturing, wise protecting macro thinking halo, that 100% protects a blessed pure of heart divine child’s spirit from the existing generational deluge of ignorances yet of this world, a perfect halo that does allow for thriving fearless growth, restoration, and maintainance of Holy Joyful Absolute Carefree Happiness, of what is constantly the intuitive knowingness certainty ingrained in the core of every child of God, past, present, future.
we all have our own develope(ing, ed) belief systems.
mine is mine
yours is yours
i say this not out of spite, rather of where i know i am, beyond comprehension of most, in a pure blessed unafraid sanctuary with Jesus and God constantly teaching ‘me’, unconcerned of what any have to say.
ya, sure, i’ll listen to any, and i have listened to many, but i chose what is of developing my own belief system, my own growth, of what i know is the divine WILL of God meant for all, past, present, future, of what is to come, of what intuitively already is hear ALL around us, the kingdom of heaven.
extensive are my ongoing research writtings that one day will be released for any and all to read, should a day come an editor will sift thru the spelling mistakes. lol
true wisdom vs false ignorance……….truth is unable to fail………eternally
true love vs false hate…………truth is unable to fail……..eternally
true compassion vs false apathy………truth is unable to fail………eternally
blessings to ALL
the eternal humble doorway to self does not close, is unable to close.
i come here for sake of Self-knowledge awareness wisdom of ALL past, present, future.
trivialize my presence in this world all you who approach ‘me’, and who is it who is trivializing of ‘me’?
ok, if you seek closure, i will stay away from this blog.
forgive me in thinking you were of the same compassionate seeking desire for Jesus and God’s wisdom as i am.
you know not the one who you trivialize, nor do you desire to truly know ‘me’.
clearly in my heart, you are not who i esteemed you to BE.
and i have grown weary of this trivilizing of Jesus and God, where it is not ever ‘me’ you are able to bring harm to, but only to your blessed pure loving self.
closure?
i ask that you do not approach ‘me’ again with such trivialness of heart, as i seek likeminded gentle graceful pure of heart sincerely loving students of ‘real’ Self YOU of us ALL!
blessed is the divine child of God’s intuitive heart mind body spirit and soul
forever more
my motivation of when i first came to you, was purely for sake of ALL today, and ALL unborn yet to come, where i yet remain, my life surrendered 100% to whom i know without doubt who it belongs to………Jesus and God.
and in so doing, i am of the comprehension that my life is surrendered to ALL, for sake of the Power of Love of the ALL, that lifts the ALL, of what is of God’s wisdom flowing forth thru ‘me’, a child of God, merely a pure of heart messenger for ALL.
it is not i who is drawing the divine child of God towards wisdom………..it is God thru ‘me’.
i am merely a child of God who turned towards God, having grown exceedingly weary from the betraying ways of so many along life’s road.
betray ‘me’, and who is it you betray?
where untruthfullness is, you WILL not find ‘me’
there is trivializing, but truly this day is the most damaging trivializing of words with you, where i thought, imagined that i knew YOU.
clearly, i do not know YOU in the way i had esteemed YOU!
if it is a game you enjoy playing like this feels, well, play it with someone else, where it is God, not me, who smites all of you in trivializing LIFE and DEATH protective wisdom, where it is you who speaks like a fool, obviously so.
ask God for forgiveness, as i desire not to at this time, of where i stand eternally in humbleness, in the doorway to blessed ‘real’ self, beside Jesus, of which all must pass by to enter fully into the kingdom of heaven comprehension of what is yet to come to this world.
disengaging, wishing you only wise compassionate blessed love
blessings to ALL
fair well
death to ego
Death to useless absurd shortsighted false bitter fear monger mean spirited vengeful ego, is only possible by means of gradual eventual full interalize(d,ing) ‘real’ self-knowledge protective nurturing awakening descerning awareness wisdom(halo) of a pure loving emotional safe conducive environment, beyond that of today’s professional psychology understanding, in which the divine child of God’s heart mind body spirit and soul of Holy Joyful Absolute Carefree Happiness is able to thrive and grow, set free from the old self impure doubtful thoughts that stem from the ongoing distracting generational deluge ignorances of death, destruction and oppressive suppressive submerging of the child of God’s heart mind body spirit and soul of ALL divine children of God past, present, future, where the past constantly meets the future here in the present, of what is our daily bearing witness to all manifestations of all wretched death, destruction and unwise oppressions we compassionate feel and wisely see each blessed day we wake to.
What we look for has already come, the undenialbe truth our pure of heart divine child of God positively compassionately feels and wisely sees each day.
While many divine children may not yet be of wise descerning words of God’s divine wisdom, purely, truly, intuitively, are the descerning feelings we feel like we feel, without need of words, of what is loving or hateful, of what is of bewildering confusion of any child trapped behind walls of starvation of this yet spiritually impovershed world that allows for the walls to exist.
thankful, the eternal human BEing is of what Jesus and God constantly knows is purely intuitive of all divine children past, present, future, only pure compassionate love feelings is of the divine child within us all, where without doubt, our oneness is intuitively of the same divine WILL desire for descerning restorative salvation sight wisdom for ALL, exact same constant oneness divine WILL desire of Jesus and God, where merely it is our humbling to the obvious truth of what is the greatest foe past, present, future of ALL divine children of God, “Crucial Lacking of Desire for Self-Knowledge Protective Awareness Wisdom ‘that’ defends, awakens, nurtures and protects against the existence of the generational deluge ignorances of binding death, destruction and opprossion of the Holy Joyful Absolute Carefree Happy heart mind body spirit and soul of us ALL……….eternally.
forever more
what we look for which has already come, is merely ‘that’!
Jesus constantly loves ALL
God constantly loves ALL
We constantly love ALL
Peace BE to this house forever more
Peace BE to YOU forever more
and Peace BE to YOU forever more
bless you bless you bless you ALL
can i go now?
oh wait, i merely need give my self permission to leave. duh!
thank you Jesus!
thank you God!
thank you ALL!
YES!!!!!!!!
I AM FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
we ALL are
always were
it is and always has been, the binding fear mongering absurd useless ignorant petty ego falsehoods ‘that’ held/hold captive in dark oppressive suppressive submerging of the Holy Joyful Absolute Carefree divine child of God’s heart mind body spirit and soul.
“peace OUT BIYATCHES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”
Returning 2 my sewing!!! lol
some seed fell on……………..oh never mind, you already have all the answers, YOU merely need feel ‘that’ which is intuitive pure of heart flawless healing feeling of the ‘real’ YOU i know of YOU ALL!
and if you want to understand God’s divine wisdom, well, go spend time reading God’s words, where by means of your feelings, is how one is able to understand divine self-knowledge awareness wisdom.
it’s ‘that’ simple!
thank God, as i am not WELL with languages!
Ciao
~ once strong bond may truly be broken?
it’s not a bound
it is ‘that’ which is intuitive of the divine child of ALL unable to broken as it purely truly is of the core of the Spiritual BEing of us ALL…………..damn, i esteemed you as wiser.
you speak as though you are alone in the world of what is intuitively ingrained in every ONEness sameness.
hmmmm…..what is ‘that’ again?
oh ya, egocentric
In psychology, egocentrism is defined as a) the incomplete differentiation of the self and the world, including other people and b) the tendency to perceive, understand and interpret the world in terms of the self. The term derives from the Greek egô, meaning “I”. An egocentric person has a limited theory of mind, cannot fully “put himself in other peoples’ shoes,” and believes everyone sees what he/she sees (or that what he/she sees, in some way, exceeds what others see).
It appears that this egocentric stance towards the world is present mostly in younger children. They are unable to separate their own beliefs, thoughts and ideas from others. For example, if a child sees that there is candy in a box, he assumes that someone else walking into the room also knows that there is candy in that box. He implicitly reasons that “since I know it, you should too”. As stated previously this may be rooted in the limitations in the child’s theory of mind skills. However, it does not mean that children are unable to put themselves in someone else’s shoes. As far as feelings are concerned, it is shown that children exhibit empathy early on and are able to cooperate with others and be aware of their needs and wants.
Jean Piaget (1896-1980) claimed that young children are egocentric. This does not mean that they are selfish, but that they do not have the mental ability to understand that other people may have different opinions and beliefs from themselves. With his colleague Barbel Inhelder, Piaget did a test to investigate egocentrism called the three mountains problem (Piaget & Inhelder 1948/1956). He put children in front of a simple plaster mountain range and then asked them to pick from four pictures the view that he, Piaget, would see. Younger children before age 7, during the so-called pre-operational stage, picked the picture of the view they themselves saw and were therefore found to lack the ability to appreciate a viewpoint different from their own. In other words, their way of reasoning was egocentric. Only when entering the so-called concrete-operational stage at age 7-12, children became capable of decentring and could appreciate viewpoints other than their own. In other words, they were capable of cognitive perspective-taking.
However, the mountains test has been criticized for judging only the child’s visuo-spatial awareness, rather than egocentrism. A follow up study involving police dolls showed that even young children were able to correctly say what the interviewer would see. It is thought that Piaget overestimated the levels of egocentrism in children.
Egocentrism is thus the child’s inability to see other peoples’ viewpoints. The child at this stage of cognitive development assumes that their view of the world is the same as other people’s, e.g. a little girl covers her eyes and says ‘daddy you can’t see me now, can you?’
or are you talking about our UNDYING love for one another?
i really wish you would BE more specific, and concisely direct in your communications.
God summons ALL to self-knowledge awareness wisdom, not ‘me’, as i don’t like most of you, barely able to tolerate my toxic feelings from things some of haphazardly say!
lol
alright, alright, im going, sheeesshhhhh!
BE Holy Joyful Absolute CareFREE Intuitive HAPPiNESS YOU ‘that’ i constantly KNOW!
~
gonna miss ‘me’?
enough to kiss ‘me’?
actually, i love you more than i have revealed.
with all ‘that’ i am………..100%…………..without doubt
and i always WILL BE, ‘that’ which i constantly am……….without doubt
bless you
ask self
what i want
what i feel
what i think
what i need
don’t deny YOU what YOU want, feel, think and need!
however, what we want, feel, think and need, may not be the same as what another wants, feels, thinks and needs….
i spent many years pretending this with many, not a judgement, just an observation of the truth of their evolve(d,ing) level ‘that’s ALL.
i know what i want, feel, think and need…….what i yet seek……..oneness sameness, purely, which i already know you are of……….’that’ which i am
i am……BE Cause……We ALL are
only authentic works for ‘me’, as in ‘real’ life hold my motherfucking hand Biyatches!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
forever more
bless you
damn right i am pissed off, i am such a fool, i should had learnt my lesson the first time, once bitten twice shy,
third time, ( oh i just remembered there wont be a third time)
all i can say is i am a fool …
but hey
i can sleep at night…
& i am not afriad of death, because i am not afraid to meet my God..
enjoy your God….
shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
http://www.imeem.com/artists/armin_van_buuren/music/1O9wTluj/armin-van-buuren-hold-on-to-me-feat-audrey-gallagher/
2 love is divine
2 live is 2 shine
2 not is a line
2 not is 2 bind
in truth, we constantly yearn 2 love, 2 shine, not a line that binds, no, what is of our purity love flawless healing feelings, is it not?
how much does Jesus and God love us?
sadly, more than most acknowledge of what is our cognitive awareness of our pure self-love flawless healing feelings while of our meditative graceful pure spiritual state of BEing the ‘real’ self, pure feelings that eb and flow in fearless unafraidness to feel……the truth of the fear mongering absurd world and all it’s falsehood masks.
100%
they don’t know
so how can they prioritize what they know not what to prioritize like we do?
lead a horse to water…….
i say, bring forth to the canvas your pure graceful approach that is required to convey thru what ever medium of choice, what it is of our flawless healing radiant brilliant bright feelings, that is only possible while truly BEing in our meditative state in quiet places with those of our likemindedness, tender, mild, pure sweet loving, the mirror the divine child of us all needs to wisely see and compassionately feel who they truly are within, of what we truly know 100% who all are.
something you always noticed in your devoted works.
the contrasting is helpful too.
don’t let anyone unwise distract you from your wise approach in your sacred devoted works, that diminish and dim your radiant brilliant bright pure light.
a true artist is not about fame or fortune, rather about bring forth what it is they feel, compelled for others to awaken into awareness of where we have evolve(d, ing) 2.
and remember to BE of the pure empowerment motivation that goes beyond our short time of life, just as Jesus, for sake of all unborn yet to come.
if we do not take a stance, then who WILL, when most are unknowingly unaware of their unwise snarings?
truth does not fail, is unable to fail, just as i know i am unable to fail loving YOU!
in our own special pure way
compassionate love just feels better
wisdom just sees clearer
don’t get me started on my passion
argh…….2 years of celibacy, my therapist says, “what are you waiting for?”
………you don’t wanna know, and if you did, you would not believe in ‘me’ of who i really really am! lol
bless you
ya, shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
they’re still sleeping, let them rest, wake them ALL later…….
Jesus and God’s Oneness Sameness WILL, OUR WILL BE Done on earth what Heaven constantly is…….YOU!
forever more
i cannot lie
i love you
i get lost somedays, don’t i?
when i come out of the laboratory of my mind, after alot of study, i am socially inept, a scatter brain………am i that obvious……..a mad on A + scientist. lol
bless you bless you bless you
peace be to you
and peace be to you
blessed Holy Joyful Mercy blessed
emotional closeness is the only feeling i feel in feeling the ‘Gospel of Judas’, of pure reflections of every word, with particular focus on the [quest]ioning of what generation is of the kingdom Jesus speaks of, that at the time, Judas was obviously not of the evolved awareness Jesus is of, where Jesus knows this of his dear friend Judas humbled before him, of what Jesus knows Judas needs to not only hear, but to quietly reflect within on the truth by means of pure of heart feelings, the truth of what Judas seeks, of what has already come, ‘that’ the kingdom of heaven is of ALL generations past present future, of where Judas has not (yet) come fully into pure awareness of his divine immortal spirit that Jesus knows, of what is exact oneness sameness, pure in feeling, without need of a name, of accolade, of all who eventually arrive where intuitive pure flawless feelings we feel like we feel, articulated with words, where what matters is that we acknowledge our flawless divine spirit of pure of heart loving ‘real’ self.
Just as Judas struggled during this moment of his evolving and coming into comprehension of the generational snaring teachings of the forefathers into the (yet) unwise world he was born into, so too, this is true of all unborn divine children of God, is it not?
the angelic pure connectedness we know and feel, is what the kingdom of heaven is, where we can easily feel and see the most humble eyes of the divine child Judas before Jesus, sincerely of desire of his pure of heart purely loving spirit who truly loves Jesus, utterly and completely, of what is ‘thru the eye of a needle’ understanding of snaring unwise egotisms yet of this world, wise words of wisdom in addressing what is our free(d,ing) of our divine spirit hear in the kingdom of heaven all around us.
bless you
just finished my first run(on going expansive) interpretation of ‘Gospel of Judas’, of what is the awakening of the divine child Judas that Jesus knowingly leads Judas, and divine spirit of ALL, into wise articulate self-knowledge awareness certainty of our divine eternal spirit oneness sameness as Jesus, devoid of need of praising name(s), and rather, what is of pure sacred awakening into awareness of our pure of heart flawless healing feeling immortal spirit, of ALL generations past present future, of what is of great sadness one feels when they come fully 100% into awareness that at first eludes Judas as to when or what generation is of the kingdom of heaven, where Jesus knowingly does not disclose this to Judas for a reason, for sake of the divine child spirit of Judas to come fully[awaken] into feeling his pure of heart intuitive pure feelings Jesus and God already know of, the TRUTH, the kingdom of heaven is of ALL generations past present future.
this full awakening is a necessary awakening experiential cathardic experience(technique) that brings an intuitive divine child of God’s heart, mind, body, spirit and soul fully into pure awareness in truly knowing certainty of what is of the oneness sameness flawless healing feeling of the immortal divine spirit ALL alongside Jesus and God, of what is divine WILL objective, devoid of the uncertain fearful controling egotistic unwise world surround, intuitive in feeling knowingness already of every divine child lacking the articulating exact wisdom, pure in holy joyful absolute carefree fearlessness we all are of, the core of our divine spirit intuitive subconscious seeking acknowledging awakening nurturing protective wisdom certainty the divine child descerningly wisely sees by means of compassionate certainty pure of heart love feelings.
the divine child’s spirit ascending up out of the muddy water mixture of doubtful binding fearful controlling generational taught egotistic falsehood snaring distracting ignorances of all forefathers who did/do not know God, claiming they do, obvious to a divine child they truly did not and don’t.
i will publish my clarity understanding of ‘Gospel of Judas’ as to my the clarity of my own eternal divine child of God’s heart mind body spirit and soul soon….God WILLING!
clarity is a macro thinking evolving process of connecting all the dots so to speak, eternally expansive, where the greater the macro thinking, the greater the level up out of toxic uncertainty of others is, becoming wholely fearless in feeling, pure and true becoming trueness of our spirit shining outwardly from within our pure hearts where we constantly yearn to dwell without absurd useless doubtfulness like that found in the (yet) unwise aimless dangerous plodding along world without a helmsman.
for ‘me’, Jesus is the most evolved in self-knowledge awareness certainty, where i do feel my own evolving out of doubtfulness into fearless certainty more and more in passing of each blessed day of returning to my peaceful at ease pure sanctuary of study alone with Jesus and God.
i know without doubt Jesus and God WILL divine awakening nurturing protective wisdom of my purely loving divine (eternal) spirit, and in so knowing, i know this to be true of us ALL past present future.
sadly, the distractions of the world are exactly that, distractions that lead us away from the required articulate wise knowing clarity macro thinking evolving process, that is of most any who do not/did not desire to truly know Jesus and God, and in so doing, sadly, compassionately, do not truly desire to know their own pure eternal spirit that Jesus and God know of us ALL, that is, until M takes to the stage like she has for some time now, purely and truly, her own self evolving devoted works!
peaceful at ease calmness certainty is taking over for ‘me’, without need to argue, and instead delve deeper into pure awareness of my divine child spirit within like your own.
i am merely leaving my study for any and all to ponder, just as the translation scholars of the NAG and other antiquities do, albeit, i do not agree with some of these scholars, specific in my arguements and descerning insight as to their own level of evolving at this time.
many are of a hurried sorta approach with their own divine child of God’s spirit, not slowing into the pure natural grace of their pure spirit Jesus and God knows of us ALL, where common sense wisely sees with compassionate feeling clarity the oneness sameness approach of Jesus and God with us, leading us to pure true awareness of our blessed pure flawless spirits that are unawake unattended unnurtured unprotected, tossed to and fro at the whims of the unknowingly unwise non-conducive world of (sadly) aimless haphazard condition of plodding along in life souls like they do, easily led away and distracted from coming fully into knowing our pure eternal spirits, when ever we do not take the helm of ‘real’ self.
embracing that all past present future divine children of God are of ONE evolving uninterrupted unending process, is the insight of Jesus and God and those who are of clarity oneness sameness unity with Jesus and God’s divine child self-knowledge awareness wisdom, albeit, the world is of unknowingly haphazard unwise distracting interuption, of dangerous life paths for many as we speak.
i may be rough around the edges(at times), and unable to trust others, as would any who were of my spiritual life journey path, at least i know my own pure of heart spirit, and i do love who i am evolving as with the aid of Jesus and God, purely so, surrendering to my pure graceful spirit more and more, becoming my spirit outwardly of what is of my turning inward towards the pure loving spirit of divine ‘real’ self, although somedays i have appeared otherwise, truly, i know my graceful clam at ease fearless intuitive spirit i always was and yet am.
the study of ‘real’ self ‘me’ is of greatest priority sacredness in life, beyond importance of anything else in life, not just for sake of finding safe passage for ALL, but for sake of what has been my growing toxic intolerance of absurd innappropriateness with others, all the while becoming true ‘as’ my ‘real’ self, and in so doing, mirroring reflection of ‘real’ self of others.
witnessing of my own constant evolving reveals what is and WILL BE of any.
while i may not be of the wise level of cathardic prodding as is of Jesus and God, my awareness understanding certainty of every word is growing in macro thinking fearless certainty, seemingly in a way the escapes many, including the scholars, such as Rodolphe Kasser, Marvin Meyer, and Gregor Wurst, where i am able to with clarity what it is that snares their thinking, or, what actually is not of their divine child self flawless feeling pure awareness concise articulation, themself of their level of evolving out of whatever distracting is of their spiritual life journey path, not in a bad way at all, no, purely just what is of any spiritual life journey path.
from where i stand currently, looking into the future, the divine will objective appears to be of 100% pure fearlessness as our divine spirit within our own bodies, radiant brilliant bright, set free from the harsh absurd mean spirit toxic world, no easy feat, for any, without a wise protect helmsman/woman descerning shield that is easily able to see the condition of any haphazard soul approaching.
it is not so much my eluding them, as they appear as unknowingly fearfully eluding their pure feelings of the mirroring of their divine ‘real’ self………….especially you closeted straight boys!!!!!!!!!
lol
just had to get that one out…….argh, back into my professional world career path again, as i wonder how long it takes for the staff to realize my gayness, and as for explaining to their limited thinking of my bisexual transexuality?
argh! no thanks…
a scarrier world for them, not ‘me’, as i already transitioned safely out of this world…..it’s the rest i am more worried about than my self…….truly.
something most don’t know about ‘me’.
i look forward to running with a soulmate again, of no desire to be anywhere other than with each other, of what is of greasted value in life, time together.
blessings to all
this years pride is going to be a beautiful elegant delicate pure in feeling outfit devoid of angst, an offwhite satin cloak with a yellow hoody, a joyful rainbow wig, wild pink roses in hair, and who knows what divine wisdom symbology may appear on the cloak, if any.
how does one purely express divine will objective of Jesus and God?
by means of eventual evolving BEcoming 100% radiant brilliant bright outwardly of our inward self-knowledge flawless healing feeling awareness of our divine child of God’s eternal heart mind body spirit and soul oneness sameness divine WILL objective, OUR WILL BE Done on earth what we constantly know Heaven constantly is………YOU!
ALL of YOU!
past present future
forever more
and more
and more and more, my God, my God, where did all these beautiful souls we love come from?
~
i am still adding interpretation of ‘Gospel of Judas’, that is deeply saddening, of wise peering of my divine child’s spirit thru the veil into the eternal realm of the kingdom of heaven past present future, of so many souls of oppressive binding dark paths, today, yesterday, tomorrow……….
i was thinking of video that reveals the exactness of these bitter oppressive dark bottomless paths some divine children fall into, of a fast foward from their precious beginnings from the womb of love surround, down these twisted bitter binding fearfilled dark passages they sadly aimless become unknowingly snared by, of what is their constant intuitive knowingness toxic feelings within that they feel while of the bitter harsh environments, their blessed spirits tossed to and fro by the generational teachings yet of this fearful controlling absurd world……..so many souls trapped in harsh horrid extremely dark paths, their precious pure spirits trying to cope, trying to escape, unable to, progressive falling of their pure of heart spirits, as Jesus says, “It is easier for the pure of heart one(unknowingly unwise) to fall, than for the wise of heart one(wisely knowing) to fall.”…..which is what the adult divine child of God is, wise, knowing fully, ALL are of the same capable capacity oneness of Jesus, of God.
ALL children of God.
forever more
blessed is the growing fearlessness of the BEcoming awaken divine child of God’s heart mind body spirit and soul.
blessings to all
Jesus says, “One of YOU is a devil.”
which One do you know Jesus referring to?
the ego self of any, yes?
the foe
bless you
the other day i envisioned sitting at ease beside you, pure in grace of the pure loving spirit as my ‘real’ self, calming speaking fearlessly with you of my asking you what you think of some of my probing interpretations i feel compelled and safe to share with what is your pure spirit as ‘real’ self.
there was no hurried ambition of sorts, or need for accolade, just relaxed oneness pure and true alongside you as a true faithful friend, who comes to know things to be true of his own pure spirit, wishing merely to share what feels purely blessed with the precious divine spirit of you, of another, of what i genuinely and knowingly feel as subconscious seeking of ALL, past present future, such as feeling and seeing with clarity the humble eyes of Judas softly speaking with Jesus, of what Jesus already knows purely, truly of Judas, his heart is one and the same as his own, however timid Judas may appear, his timidness as something of humble beauty, is it not?
was Judas the closest one to Jesus?
obviously, without doubt, pure emotionally, yes, beyond that yet of the others.
but not in a bad way or judgemental speculatively way, no, rather just where the divine child Judas had evolved to in his pure eternal spirit of self awareness that had grown beyond the level of the others, of what was of the dreams of Judas, and the others stoning him to death in the vision, divine spirit of subconscious dream state self awareness.
this lends to what is of our ease in wise seeing and compassionate feeling oneness sameness consciousness of subconscious Jesus’ divine spirit of ‘real’ self knowingness certainty……….100%………without doubt, where our pure flawless feelings reveal with clarity, we are 100% pure in feeling, not less, albeit, at times…………….
evolving eternal divine child God’s heart mind body spirit and soul, ALL connected, past present future, is what i am, what we all are.
i am…….BE Cause……We ALL are!
forever more
blessed is the eternal divine child spirit constantly of love
argh……….after a 16 month spiritual sabatical away from the mind fuck bully mentality world of retail burned out uneducated old school manager left over from the seventies, their own worse enemies, yet again i am faced with the writing on the wall that i cannot stay in these bullshit negative condescending belittling environments so stiffling for my graceful pure spirit, of their not being able to realize or appreciate the caliber of new school management i bring to the table, as they continue like they do in the truly absurd unwise perpetuation of low morale staff the comes from their mindless inconsideration of who they are speaking with, their mind warp bulling break the spirit of what is most value to their business organizations………their employees.
again i am left feeling my yearning to leave, coming back to what i already acknowledge previously, that no matter how much i am able to intellectualize others, i cannot escape the harshness emotional impact of these mind fuck jackasses, in particular some of you arrogant fuck head franchisees.
im done……..
being of priority consideration of wisely seeking out of reasonable positive conducive environments for sake of my spirit, my feelings reveal without doubt, the obvious absurd horrid mind trapping bulling some of you people are, as in, ‘how dare you speak to ‘me’ like that!’
i should of walked out of the meeting in front of all the staff, giving voice to all what i see and feel in all their eyes…..i hesitated, bound by useless fucking fear yet again………
fuck
is it just ‘me’, or do all the followers of Jesus feel as though uncertain?
i sense this in all followers of Jesus, including those of today, where i feel their uncertainty unknowingness as to who Jesus and God are wisely speaking directly with, the pure loving divine child of God’s heart, mind, body, spirit and soul of us ALL.
not sure why it is that i am able to with clarity like i do, i just do
The best thing you can do for yourself
is just LIVE
not think about living,
not sitting around analyzing your life
or other’s actions
but just LIVE
not online
but outside
mix it up with people
out where the sun is shining and the birds are chirping
breathe in the deliciousness of life
appreciate all that is
and be thankful that you are a part of it
even if
no one is acting the way you would like them to act
appreciate it all
breathe it in
and let it be as it is
without any desire to change anyone or anything
because
that’s all you have in this moment
Amen
Ohh for God’s sake grow some Breast’s Andy…. already
ya big Dyke….
go on get on your Byke take a hike, (if you like)
riding off into the sunset we go…
friend or foe… off we go …
ya big Dyke…
hey Erik, you seem cute & together !
How much ?
i’ll buy your love
i agree with Miss Shivarica and it is almost my last wright here…just before to leave i m looking for a little draw of an old plane mixed with SF fiction for a new and real tatoo on my chest…
thank you
uhm……are you talking about the eternal sunrise and sunset of eternal day light shining bright(YOU), or the sunrise sunset of twilight hour we love to enjoy like we do?
lol
i merely seek divine self-wisdom, intuitive subconsciously at first during the early years of my spiritual life journey path, more cognitively today of growth of joyful happy free(d,ing) divine self, mirroring of divine self of ALL.
to each their own of eternal drawing wise awakening light of God they may not realize is of God’s wise awakening of divine self, not mine, albeit of ‘me’.
it is of sacred concern for those who fall into bottomless pits of deathful destructive oppressive ignorances, surprised by many who wish to be of disheartening disencouraging of one from spiritual devoted self-knowledge awareness endeavor like most of you do, when ever i speak of such, of not only no desire to hear about your own divine self, but of openly minimizing belittling of ‘me’.
who do you harm in the end?
not ‘me’
not Jesus
not God
divine self and divine self of each other, do you not?
one does not have to see and feel too far to realize without doubt, the hazard bitter dark deathful destructive oppressions (yet) of this world.
i care not of what any of you say any more, of what is obvious indication of the condition of many souls, where i know without doubt the divine wisdom meant for ‘me’, is what protects against you of ill concern, seemingly wise in approach of ‘me’, mocking Jesus God and ‘me’ as you pass near.
truly, Jesus and God have made ‘me’ aware of what to expect from most of you unknowingly of the snared condition of your own miserable souls so easy for ‘me’ to descerning see and feel like i do.
you cannot buy my love, as i am not for sale.
i am free
love ‘me’ or another as you love your self, of what is your own self-love radiant brilliant bright shining holy joyful mirroring light happiness of only love is good enough for the divine child of us all past present future.
mock ‘me’ and you make a mockery only of your own divine self in the eyes of Jesus, God, ‘me’, and those of our oneness sameness wisdom.
love begets love
compassion begets compassion
wisdom begets wisdom
hate begets hate
apathy begets apathy
ignorance begets ignorance
Jesus passes by many, wisely knowing the condition of the pure spirit unattended unnurtured and unprotected of us all……….at all times.
is it so wrong to seek eternal safe passage for the eternal human being, in probing over ancient antiquities of the one called Jesus?
not according to God and my own now wise spirit that constantly feels like i do, albeit, i too am growing out of my own useless emotional nescient baggage of old self.
i invite all as a true friend of Jesus and God, just as Jesus and God invite all to knowing their divine child of God’s heart mind body spirit and soul.
forever more
blessings to all
~ without any desire to change anyone or anything ~
it is not so much a desire to change anyone, or even be able to, as much as it is mirroring awakening evoking of trueness aspects of self-actualize(d,ing) divine self, such as exceeding grace.
merely BEing our natural occurring at ease exceeding grace for example, is of affect/effect/direct/indirect of the matrix of constant connectivity of us all past present future.
why is it difficult for people to be their delicate sensitive natural at ease peaceful loving ‘real’ self without the need for these superficial egotism masks they enjoy wearing like some do?
well ok, perhaps my heightened awareness reflections of recent surrendering embrace of my trans female self overshadow my conversations of what is my growing toxic intolerance of many along life’s road, but hey, it’s my life road, and i will feel what i feel and say what ever the fuck i want to say!
and honestly, i am truly happy to BE ‘me’, and not some of you i meet along life’s road, seemingly oblivious to your own manifesting petty egotisms that partly stem from low self esteem, and the truth, that indeed, some of you are of genuine sincere delight of your mean spirited cruel petty ego approach with others along life’s road……….get to stupid with ‘me’ too many times, and without hesitation my inevitable desire to leave will come, just as i have of many along life’s road, as a passerby.
i do appreciate ALL ‘that’ is
as in ALL ‘that’ is the truth i descerningly feel like i do
my friend has rebound remarkably, saying he feels blessed, his true spirit beaming healthy and brightly as his joyful loving self, who i know he knows i love, easily so, so much like my self………self love.
with self confidence is fearlessness freedom feelings of ‘real’ self unbound from complexes we tend to develop along life’s road for what ever reason.
God knows i have had a few, like at the tender age of fifteen, the impactful day of my drunken father who slammed his pickup truck into my girlfriends car with us sitting in it, which he must of been obliviously too drunk to notice. Our car slammed into the one in front of us, which slammed thru the garage door of the house.
i recall getting out of the car and screaming at the top of my lungs to my father, “FUCK OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”
over and over i kept yelling this at him till he drove off, the neighbors coming over to calm me down.
this traumatic event impacted my mental/emotional self-esteem greatly from that day forward, more than i realized for many years, and still does, emotional baggage i am finally working thru…….a year or two more, however long it takes……..
i love who i am within, pure and true blue ‘real’ self aspects such as tender sensitivity, which i value more than many i meet, albeit, of all is their sensitivity, although with some of you, you would not know it……….
so ya, it is not about change anyone, rather it is of evoking true blue ‘real’ self aspects of others, easily so, and fun, bi Just BEing YOUr ‘real’ SELF!
that is my focus in therapy, at ease to just be my ‘real’ self in therapy……….it’s the outside world that is not conducive for me, and i don’t expect the world to be anymore, just that when one is, it feels beautiful for us, relaxed, peaceful, a soulmate i am seeking, who i know i will find, and if i pass bi them, then i know, like my own desire, they will recognize ‘me’, and come to ‘me’, and so i don’t fret about it much any more, as you say, let it be, what WILL BE WILL BE (already is?)
i’ve been yearning for a lover’s touch lately, of what i miss, cautiously descerning of who is not so much a matter of thinking about, analysing, or ability to ignore, of what is…………..constant feelings of ‘real’ self ‘that’ i constantly seek and feel, true of ‘me’, true of us all.
forever more
blessing to all
so what’s wrong ?
hmmm
when r u gonna sing me a happy song ?
hmmm
mm
the streets of Iran
the streets of Japan
no matter where
i am there
the words of God, “Where are you rushing 2?”
learning to stand still is easier said than doing. We see of any their seemingly all important place in life, seemingly of their certainty of their path in life is where it is at for them….what of any intuitively seeking and feeling purely within of what we purely feel?
i keep denying my pure joyful feelings to flow, of what i know you too feel, not wanting to move on, let go, true happiness i secretly yearned one day to BE along side you, and yet here i am, along side of you, purely of gratitude to be here, not desire to leave.
i am sad for those of Iran…the oppression…….
they too feel purely within too, courageously feeling indeed the oppression of unwiseness surround.
oppression of our own pure spirit is oppression, of any and all oppression that goes against the divine blessed pure flawless healing feeling ‘real’ self, of anyone alive today, yesterday, tomorrow….
i have internalized a great deal of what i refer to as halo wisdom, ‘that’ of what i fully realize Jesus too internalized while of walking among us, learning and becoming of the ability to remain unscathed by the poison bitter falsehoods of many souls unknowingly snared by the oppressive generational deluge of ignorances, the great tyranny that existed then, “Reach for what i am unable to reach for”, indicative of extreme brutal oppression when Jesus walked the earth, baring witness just as we do to the horrific brutality of absurd without God’s purity love tyranny egotisms, of what ever bullshit fuckedupness is of any of us who are of these oppressive ignorant distracting falsehood teachings of all forefathers who did not know God, did not desire to know God, did/do not embrace knowing their own pure flawless divine blessed holy joyful divine spirit of God’s child Self, of what continues to flood and drown the earth like it does, optimistically we are ascending out of all dark bitter apathetic ignorance, coming fully towards intuitive knowingness certainty feelings the divine child knows without having be told, only purity love, only purity compassion, only purity wisdom is good enough for any of us to feel, the divine child vomiting in feeling any and all these horrid generational false teachings of the forefathers that indeed keeps flooding forth like it does.
i feel those of ascending rising up against oppression, weeping nightly in their blessed dwellings in Iran, their doors being painted and marked for later return by the fear mongering hateful unknowingly unwise oppressors……….what can we do?
i say fly them all out of there to safe countries and set their souls free in our free lands………we cannot turn our backs on these blessed children of God weeping…..we of the entire free world, so easy for us to reach out our hand to them and say to them, “Come away and do not return to what makes you vomit!”
Iranians are so beautiful, yes?
*gasp* ….i adore them, male or female!
why stay and fight for something of nothing that is so highly guarded and protected, the oil rich sands of Iran?
there is no spiritual value in what actually does not belong to any one, here from the beginning, where merely planting of a seed in the ground, radiant sunshine, freely grows fruit to eat, flowers that bloom, who’s seeds do these belong to?
ALL
free like the sunshining above.
fucking bullshit, all of it
YES! an exodus!
fuck the fuckhead murderous Iranian leaders of wretched willful delight in killing unarmed children of God!
evacuate the entire country, come be one of us us, free to just BE what we know they all yearn to BE, blessed purity love feelings constantly flowing with us here in the kingdom of heaven all around us.
and then humiliate those who remain with our radiant brilliant bright shining light that WILL shine forth into every dark corner of the earth, drawing the blessed divine child of all to join us in our holy joyful absolute carefree celebrations of pure loving life!
forever more
are you happy?
honestly, are you?
i pray you are, feeling guilty of my still being here….
a platonic relationship i can do, but i don’t want just a platonic relationship, and i know i won’t, no matter how convincing i may try to convince my self or you…….besides, platonic relationships are so fucking excruciatingly BORING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
argh………………
so what’s wrong?
i am not happy……….not yet, and yet within, the bubbling joy i feel i always there, yearning to spring forth…………
ah fuck it, i’ll say it, “what joy we would of been each blessed day, i know without doubt, we would of been! How does one let go of ‘that’?”
and why would i want 2?
and so i ask one last time, are you honestly happy?
not to worry, i will return again another time and ask again
bless you
you already know what it is you feel 2……i love you
we always did
always were and shall be pure self-love happiness
i fell into a rut, that’s all, and i feel restoration of my pure loving spirit occuring daily…..it’s just life, and the misfortune of my coming to near to bitter mean spirited ones in my life, like those whose of hypocritical delight in tossing me out of my career…..lawyers said i could sue them, but i question my own non spiritual motivation in doing so, the snaring of gross materialism for example, the higher subtle intellect that reveals beyond all waste of time annoying egotisms.
supposed to rain this pride parade Sunday! lol
imagine ‘that’
rain, and my reinvented rain outfit made specifically to keep rain OUT!
hey, if i am a dyke, and it takes a dyke to truly know a dyke, then what does that say of YOU!
truly, i know i am bisexual, and if asked which preference i am of, i say, it is not about preference for ‘me’, rathe, priority i cannot avoid, is about blessed pure love spiritual comfort level of a true blue lover of surrendered spirit to only love.
you know how you just know, the bubbling feelings always there within?
getting grounded and anchored in self is my goal this year, calm confidence restoring, boundary settings, adjusting to inner peace, be careful what you say to me, i will claw your eyes out! lol
what’s wrong?
you know what’s wrong, the world, you and ‘me’, hence, why you asked the question!
i am not a fool
although sometimes i fool my self in denial…….a human thing, something we aliens have a difficult time in dwelling within a human body! lol
ah, such fun you are 2 ‘me’!
bless you
i constantly yearn to love you
i do
grrrr, another two lovely light’s have left this world – i hope that the children left behind are well loved
ill marry you if you quit smoking, i like to snog
snogging! ya, ‘me’ 2!
girl, i married you along time ago, of what being married actually is, according to Jesus and God’s 100% knowing of the (intuitive) light we all are from, returning to…courageously surrendering to fearless feeling and purely being our ‘real’ self…i have loved you along time, of what is not able to ever change….the truth.
why would i want to change something purely beautiful in feeling like i do of YOU?
my love for you is of my pure prayer state, and i know you too are of the oneness sameness puriy love for ‘me’.
intuitively, we all are, where some are merely of distraction to feeling and being their flawless pure divine blessed child of God’s heart mind body spirit and soul.
come on, let’s go heal the world, awakening all to who we know we all truly are, always were, always shall be, he blessed divine children of God, across all divisional barriers (yet) of this sadly unwise world.
God bless you Michael
blessed true loving you of us all
a mission of God
you always get what you truly want!
i truly am of the wanting will to easily quit smoking.
ironically, i started smoking as a result of peer pressure of a girlfriend who smoked when i was 15, and just finished my last one a few minutes ago, a result of peer pressure from a girlfriend!
i am doing this firstly for ‘me’, as in what is physical illness of body ‘that’ directly affects the mental emotional sexual spiritual divine self, like someone who exits a burning building with smoke inhalation, illness dimming of my divine self radiant brilliant bright light, secondly for setting an example for ALL, and let’s not forget second hand smoke that does cause illness for them.
i will get the smokers gum today, where one does not get the side effects of smoke inhalation, and WILL ween myself from the substance addiction….i quit once for 8 years, and this time for GOOD!
blessed blessed blessed YOU!
i love you………without doubt
thank you
me too, well i have been through my list of toxic , ( been eating been bean sprouts and raw foods all month) my housemate thinks i am a vegan my fridge has nothing but fruit & beans ) but hey alcohol was easy, drugs well that was so yesterday, & smoking last well i am still smoing too a litlle i left the hardest till last & i know it will be hard but i have done it before i will do it again, i have set a goal 1 Sep to compleatly quit until then 2 a day , after that none ever. it’s feels so good … it will feel even better why ? because to feel is to be realy connected to your inner emotion, and to be connected is to be well, at one with the one..
God bless…
Yes Michael was a light, a channel of light, such a burden he must have endured, many more still do, i understand that … with compassion
Stop Smoking Now,
fuck your girlfiend’s ( or i will, ha.. ha. you would’nt like that…..)
Ok seriously , Stop smoking NOW.. otherwise i will not speak to you for 2 days,
maybe 2 & 1/2 days ( depends what mood i’m in )
~ feels so good … it will feel even better why ? because to feel is to be realy connected to your inner emotion, and to be connected is to be well, at one with the one.. ~
spiritually purely feeling is sacred of the divine child, and is not easy for one to do in non-conducive fearful environments that are not of wisely encouraging priority of such.
purity feelings of private sanctuary prayer alone with Jesus and God, is the way to learn how to eventually constantly dwell in your heart of love devoid of doubt like the useless unwise doubt found in the world. I have learned this fully of my self, where eventually, more and more, i kept returning to my pure graceful blessed sanctuary of my heart utterly purely free from anxiety and emotional turmoil, quieting of the mind while of the sanctuary, able to be of clarity purity feelings of divine self, something i am no longer afraid to be, the beautiful blessed divine qualities of ‘real’ self loved by Jesus and God, delicate, graceful, exceeding subtle sensitivity like that of our drifting into our dream state when we fall asleep, the divine child of God of us all.
i STOPPED!
standing still, unafraid to feel what i feel, purely so, of what is sacred of YOU, sacred of ‘me’, i won’t turn from you again as i turn away from my divine ‘real’ self when ever i do, and so NOW i am of where i have constantly yearned to always be found, dwelling in my pure ‘real’ self heart, knowing that is where i can always find YOU, of my love for you that i have felt for so long, so many moments, minutes, days, weeks, months, year after year, i always have felt the same pure love as i did in the beginning, only love!
constant yearning to always feel love, ‘that’ of the divine child of God YOU of us ALL!
forever more
i am using the patch to quit smoking
but quit YOU?
not possible
i love you like you love ‘me’!
girlfriend?
na, i have no girlfriends
truthfully, any friends i do have, all have toxic uncertainty approach with ‘me’ at times, where i empathize what is of their evolving, just as has been and is of my own constant evolving, knowing i am standing still in the light of divine ‘real’ self, where they aimlessly blindly waunder towards, their own masks they wear from time to time, affects/effects of their own spiritual path of unwiseness in others world surround.
i know where you dwell
the biggest denial i have embraced, is i want a ‘real’ biological family!
can we have surrogate kids together?
Rosie believes in surrogate mothers, something i did not ask you till now…of what is beyond words for me deep within, as is of most any gay/lesbian/trans person you ask.
50 of them!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol
all dressed in beautiful satin outfits, squirtguns, fun fun fun joy joy joy love love love
all we need is love
that would be so insane each and every day, yes?!!!!!
i say, “if you want to heal/change the world, Just BE what it is you want to heal/change the world 2, yes?!
i cannot be happiness without another, and your radiant brilliant bright light happiness is what has drawn ‘me’ 2 YOU!
i want ‘that’ with YOU every blessed day i wake 2!
YES?
do YOU?
come on, say it damn it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
the entire world needs these things i know of YOU!
i am hear in constant pure support of these priority truths of divine ‘real’ self YOU, true of ‘me’, true of YOU of us ALL.
ever find yourself secretly feeling like you are not where you want to BE?
i want to be with YOU!
my evolving journey towards dwelling in the heart of ‘real’ self along side YOU!
forever
not one day, no, FOREVER damn it !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
love between male and female
love between female and female
love between male and male
all there beautiful relationships are of genuine sincere self-love, are they not?
some say, “Oh, he would be so much happier living a gay life!”
ya, perhaps Michael would of, had he sucessfully journeyed OUT, which i feel is what plaqued him most, his own homosexual awareness he felt daily….only Michael knows the truth of his own feelings.
i don’t see happiness is of orientation, and rather is of individual level self-confidence comfort levels, where there is a tendancy for males to be of more at ease relaxed in ‘real’ self with another male, as is of females, yes?
this lends to practicing of BEing our ‘real’ self that allows for thriving growth of our ‘real’ self happiness, like that of when we had our best friends in childhood, of none stop insanity laughter like we did.
why is it the world looks apon us homosexuals as deviant sex perverts, when in truth, we are more so of our genuine sincere divine blessed joyful ‘real’ self, unstiffled, inspite of the hardship coming out we go thru, where some of us do not survive.
the one who do, come out of these burning buildings with a developing alert toughness awareness of what to expect from the world, of our professional worlds, personal worlds, and family circles.
this toughness is of our, “YOU don’t know ‘me’, and if you motherfuckers ‘truly’ did, you would not think, say, or feel these things that are so hurtful to us daily!”
i loved Michael with all that i am, and easily could of been his most loving lover without hesitation.
sadly, i should, could of been!
and indirectly, i was/am his most loving lover, of what is of any of us who come fully into dwelling in the pure of heart ‘real’ self soulmate lover, ‘that’ of what is purely conducive for any loving lover with another loving lover, blessed pure exceeding graceful YOU of us ALL.
the divine self pure of heart virgin spirit Michael certainly was, his own self-love awareness of what is obvious to us in feeling of his music, pure exceeding grace, holy joyful absolute carefree spiritedness, without doubt, Michael did come to truly know and dwell in his blessed sacred knowingness of his divine self pure of heart virgin spirit, just as YOU do, just as i do, just as any of us can and do….
‘that’ of the intutitive purity harmonious blissful in the core of us all of life beginning experience of us all, of how we all came into this unwise world, from the womb of God, or whatever life force entity alien being offspring in the universe we are(of what i believe).
sadly, damning sexual speculations of Michael are yet there….
i don’t know the truth, nor do any of us, only Michael, and those of speculation….
i do feel Michael was of homosexual feelings, or if not, an hour with ‘me’ and there would be no other choice for him to make….trust ‘me’ on ‘that’ one! lol
ya, well, i can speculate on equally damning things of any of you of unwiseness in not coming to know your own blessed divine self, like all of you who are of will to leave a child to die this day behind the great horrific walls of poverty, that stems from the spiritually impoverished world, of what is of so many of you cold heartless ego snaring disconcern disconnectedness that results in death.
my/our first transgender march yesterday, working all day today, return later this evening.
i miss you
i love you
bless you
i mean every word i say
adoptive kids are equally sacred, i just always wondered what our own child would like and behave like with us as parents…..undoubtably joyful spirited unrestrained, yes? lol
uhm…..make sure someone takes pictures at tomorrows parade, to show the kids, “this is your father before you were born!” as they likely won’t believe you without a picture….you will see soon enough….my wackiest fun spirited outfit to date, of disbelief actually!
the true fun loving heart mind body spirit and soul of ‘me’ set free to just enjoy being the ‘real me’ i always was, and yet am, pure in feeling within, happy exceeding joyfulness……the kids are going to love this one, the adult children too!
one day being surround with a loving family of my own, is something i felt one day i would, yet, in truth, we are all one extended family, my/own most loving purely understanding ‘real’ family! YOU know who YOU ALL are!
i am…..BE Cause…..We ALL ARE!
i quit my one of my three part-time jobs today, after i attempted to stop a security guard from beating a drunken theif, who picked him up and threw him on the ground, nearly breaking his neck! i yelled at him, if you hurt him, you will be charged with assult, and i will be a witness in court!
my boss came to me all angry of my taking a stand with the injured theif, telling me to sit down, that i can leave when i tell say you can leave.
i said, “i try to save someone from serious injury, and this is an issue for you? kiss my ass!!!!” as i walked out.
i was feeling toxic from them before this, so in the end, i am protecting my self from future stressors.
i know you are of priority of ‘real’ self, and this means everything to ‘me’ in life, in selecting inner cirlce friends, and for sure, a lover!
i deserve YOU, having grown tired of many.
ya, there are many blessed pure loving ‘real’ souls in life we all know, i just find most of them rather boring…..
well, it’s true….
once in awhile i see these radiant ones who are purely their fun loving at ease confident self, but rarely, and most are already with another.
if i seem judgemental, truly i am merely wise in self respect setting boundaries that comes from having lived and learned greatly along life’s road.
my ex is walking with ‘me’ tomorrow, flowers and all, although he seems abit hesitant of my wacky fun outfit!
here’s a hint……it involves alot of holy joyful absolute carefree water spraying every where!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and no, not rain, albeit, RAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!
you know, i waited for Michael to come out of the closet since the early nineties, and he never did….although, some of us feel the truth of his joy filled spirit like our own, we knew what we know.
looks like the bottomless pit of drug abuse has taken another one of us.
i so wanted to meet him, knowing i likely could not leave the room once i got chatting together with him……..endlessly like i do, which is a good thing, as i am relentless, and i would of eventually won his love for ‘me’ as someone crazier than him! lol
Michael is a part of us ALL, dearly missed by a world weeping blessed loving moving ‘real’ tears as we speak…….i am still crying over him, his pure of heart love for all the children of God yet to enter into this (yet) unwise world, ‘real’ love, of him, of Jesus, of God, of us ALL.
forever more
blessed blessed blessed ALL
wow, another joyful pride event here in Toronto!
in particular for some of those weilding squirt guns, not knowing i had two giant super soakers under my cloak, my standing their before them in my wet gear, obvious i am in need of water….their eyes widen in shock and disbelief as the two super soakers unveiled, the screaming, the hysterical laughter like when we were kids, the crowd roaring in unity…..ya, i have fun, just as i always have, just as i always am and was, shall be, the fun loving joy feelings of divine self i wisely turn towards within, wise in knowing ‘that’ which is true of ‘me’ is true mirroring of us all, wondering why it is so many get distracted away from knowing and being who they always were and yet are within, who Jesus, God and i know are there, here in the kingdom of heaven all around us, blessed love devoid of doubt, ya, that is how i feel about us all, one extended family across all useless divisional barriers that serve no one, only falsely divide us not only from each other, clearly and truely, away from knowing and being our ‘real’ self.
not ‘me’, i know who i am, who i always was and shall be, just like all of you, blessed children of God, brothers and sisters of Jesus.
you are all beautiful 2 ‘me’
every step, every breath, every heartbeat of every blessed day, not just one day out of the year, of every blessed soul, yesterday, today, tomorrow
only LOVE is good enough for the divine children of God.
YOU of us ALL
forever more
blessings to ALL
hey, that’s not fair, you’re spying on ‘me’ again…ya, im still smoking abit, half as much as before, feeling better…
smoking is so hard on our physical well being and feeling, making me wonder why i ever bothered to smoke in the first place, remembering how sick i felt from my first cigarette at 15, having to lay on the ground from the feeling nautious….the only way back to full restoration of my pure confident calm relaxed at ease ‘real’ self is to quit what is of my toxic list……be careful not to end up on my toxic list biyatches!!!!!!!
i jest………
argh….you are such a stalker! lol
thankFULLness of course, in anticipation of getting back to feeling great….thanks for the motivation……now marry ‘me’ Biyatch!!!!!!!!!!!
oh ya, we already married…..spiritually, just not physically yet……………….”ARE YOU STILL THINKING OF ME WHEN YOU”RE WITH HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”
lol
there’s stepping over boundaries, then there is kicking the door down! lol
merciful relentless unbending adamant unyielding rigid HARD ‘me’, like YOU?
like i say to all my friends, it’s not what others want of you, it’s what you want in asking your self,
what (i) want
what (i) need
what (i) think
what (i) feel
of what being true to self is, or truly loving of someone without effort like we do, radiant enthusiasm of our ‘real’ self with others we adore and enjoy being around.
BEing happy of Just BEing ‘real’ YOU
blessings to ALL
well ok, give it some thought and let ‘me’ know……what i already know, the ‘real’ YOU!
i miss you
i love you
bless you
forever more
the ‘real’ YOU of us ALL
IT IS ,,,,,,,,, “what it is,”
is it NOt ?
or is it
“JUST US IS”
JeSUS
Jeee
argh……
CNN, Mr. Jackson,”My son is a superstar!”
No Mr.Jackson, your son is a dead homosexual because of the all important superstardom you drilled into his head since youth, Michael’s resulting internal homophobia of an unaccepting homophobic world that Michael did not come free of in overcoming his internal homophobia, of what could/should of been a joyful gay life.
ignorant parents
what it is
all bullshit
not sure what you are saying Marco….when it comes to my own children, abit of clarity would be nice.
some of my lesbian friends have expressed having kids with me, just thought i would give you an opportunity to express what your thoughts are…..
huh?
rather than my own biological kids, i feel more compelled to adopt, sparing a child already hear in the world from the harsh confusing bewildered intuitive feelings they feel as outcasts of the spiritually impoverished world, not knowing why the world is the way it is, of what Jesus, God and those of oneness with Jesus and God wise self-awareness knowingness understanding of what is beyond all the riches of the world…the pure of heart flawless loving feelings of the divine child of God’s heart mind body spirit and soul.
now if i can just find a place to work where people are not such fucking assholes, albeit, i love assholes! lol
anyway, i am being completely inconsiderate of others at this time, merely wishing to express what is of great exceeding joy for me within, pure in feeling, of visions i have had of my own son(s) or daughter(s) one day.
without love, we are nothing
blessings to ALL
nothing as in the empty gross materialism nothingness that snares so many of you, who pass by a starving child, without courage and afraid to feel what it is that your divine child self is purely are able to feel in courageously picking a starving child up into your arms, leaving the child feel worthless, when in truth, it is of all your gross materialism egos ‘that’s is worthless to ‘me’.
blessed are ALL YOU of courage to feel the pure of heart feelings of your divine child of God SELF.
forever more
Ian Halperin claims he has spoken to two men Michael had relationships with.
“In the course of my investigations, I spoke to two of his gay lovers, one a Hollywood waiter, the other an aspiring actor. The waiter had remained friends, perhaps more, with the singer until his death last week. He had served Jackson at a restaurant, Jackson made his interest plain and the two slept together the following night. According to the waiter, Jackson fell in love.”
“Other witnesses speak of strings of young men visiting his house at all hours, even in the period of his decline. Some stayed overnight.
“When Jackson lived in Las Vegas, one of his closest aides told how he would sneak off to a ‘grungy, rat-infested’ motel – often dressed as a woman to disguise his identity – to meet a male construction worker he had fallen in love with.”
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you watch, even the press will avoid what was central focus of Michael’s loving soul in life, like so many of us did and do during our coming out years, hiding, internal homophobia, sneaking about, eventually coming out to everyone.
I mean my God, how much more effeminate can one get than Michael’s beautiful gay voice i loved so much? duh!!!!!
the question they all fail to ask, is how much of Michaels internal homophobia contributed to his self-medicating drug use?
100%
and who knows this better than ‘me’?
none of you damn it!
My first boyfriend lover of three years died as a result of self-medicating depressant effects of high risk high consumption levels of alcohol.
i had been that biyatch’s boyfriend love, i would of screamed at Michael and drag his sorry ass to a hospital my self, durning his crisis episode he had on Sunday prior to his death!
something so special to so many, gets swept away as insignificant, of what was most significant Michael’s loving life.
way to fucking go you fucking heartless ignorant morons!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol
anyway, rant over….in truth, we are all bi-sexual, bi nature.
i am
forever more
im starting to feel like some sorta hanger on dork who can’t let go, hanging around this blog now….
no hand to hold i suppose, nothing to hang onto that feels ‘really’ my own, as though i am an annoyance now…….argh, i hate playing fifth wheel………..i really need to get on with a ‘real’ life…..this is so lame…
alright, look me up someday if you want, and i will be happy to spend time with you, in real life.
have a great summer and blessings to all involved with the concerts.
bless you
l love kid’s, they always speak the truth, without false ego mask’s unlike us adults
ya, the intuitive divine child of us all within….
i see and feel the condition of all souls i come across daily, always of compassion of them all, the obviousness of their aimlessness uncertainty of what is knowingness certainty priority for ‘me’….you know what i know.
i am a student of Jesus and God directly, where i feel their blessed presence with me, as one of humbled heart, mind, body, spirit and soul who comes to them.
it’s been a long spiritual journey for me of the insight self-awareness of my own pure of heart divine self loving spirit like your own, of what is my own certainty priority in life that surpasses all riches in life, sacred precious love purely so with others like you and i have attempted to bridge with each other, but ultimately, ‘real’ life wins over mere words on a blog….albeit, the wise words of God spoken for sake of you and those you purely love….
i have emptiness in what is of my real life, a painful void that Jesus and God fill, thankfully, not knowing what is of my future, other than my absolute knowingness certainty that only love is good enough for ‘me’, and the vision of my son i had.
i am seeking what i already know is sacred life for my son, without knowing necessarily how he is to come into my life at this moment, only with certainty that he will, of books i perhaps will leave for him to ponder of my research, for sure of my words with him, “Only love is good enough for you son!”
it has been along time here with you…..what do you want of ‘me’?
blessings to you and those you love
of all words i wish to impart apon you are the same words i shared with my therapist, of my having lost the love of my life “The striking of the pen in blank pages of a diary, is what is sacred!”, not of words able to speak of anquish i was feeling, where what is of importance is the pure of heart flawless feelings of my divine child self(five years old) purely in feeling, 100% without doubt, what matters most in life, ‘that’ of your pure undying love for one another, just as any mother for her child constantly feels.
i screwed up with Troy, my ego fucked it up between us, he died as a result, no desire to be forgiven what is unforgivable……..the TRUTH.
what i want for you, you already have with your blessed children.
it is i who is yet not where you already are and have been for some time.
i wish you only love with your loving lovers, and if they ever fuck up, i am wish only to be there when they do, damn it! lol
i wish eveyone the depth of love you and i feel, profoundly so like we do.
my instable insecuriy has gotten the best of me at times in my approach with you, a dreamy boy who felt your presence long ago somehow he knew how pure and true your heart is, how could ever turn away from what he felt like he did and yet does.
he doesn’t want to let go of you, seemingly impossible, knowing what he knows, wanting to assure you of what matters most in life, what you already know, truly, without doubt, you know, and i am pleased that you do.
i don’t want to come across like someone with the right words to say to you to win your heart, only to say that i did feel you love for me, wishing you fearlessness to trust me more, so that day we could be what we constantly yearn to be.
it is overwhelming for me in feeling what i feel for you, of blessed tears i cry.
i love you, and i know you know i do.
bless you
the day of my jabbing the pen over and over again and again into the blank pages of a diary, while alone, of an overwhelming complete emotional break down in sitting with feeling the finality of having lost someone i knew i was truly in love with each day i woke to, i found my self struggling to find adequate words to express what i was feeling, as i gracefully surrendered in slowing into the pure place of loving feelings, i came to know my pure of heart divine ‘real’ self of emotional intensity i recalled in feeling once before, as that of when i was five years old, of no need for words to express what was obvious, the pure loving tears flowing.
“The kingdom of heaven is your feelings”
if only we would allow ourselves to truly feel what we all need to feel of this world, ‘that’ of our divine child of God Self, truly, only love.
forever more
blessings to ALL
this vilifying damning homophobic world of projecting untrue taboo transference sucked when i was loving Troy, of all those who damned our pure true obvious open love for one another like we were, every where we went, of our obvious exceeding love and joyFULLness when together each blessed day, and it still fucking sucks of all you who do not desire to truly know ‘me’, ‘that’ only the ‘real’ YOU of us ALL is ever able to come to know and FULLy appreciate who i am most like, always was, always shall BE, ‘that’ which i came to know in BEing TRUE as my ‘real’ self, ‘that’ which i know in BEing TRUE of ALL YOU!
i know who i am and what i want, what i need, what i think and what i feel…..do you?
forever more
blessed YOU of us ALL
YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
arghhhh……….always explaining what you already kNOw, YES?
i truly i felt i was the one you loved and wanted most in life.
and who is ‘that’ walk(s, ed) away from truly knowing and loving ‘me’?
and who is not ever able to leave leave ‘me’?
so again, who am i?
lol
round and round we go, when it stops, no one kNOws, YES?
are you going to marry ‘me’ some day, because feeling like a dork, well, it’s just not ‘me’!
times up
NEXT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
oh hey, i kNOw you from somewhere, YES?
argh…………………
how can we be happiness apart?
and if you say JESUS, i am so not going to talk to you again!
admittedly, i truly i felt and yet feel YOU are the one i have loved and wanted most in life.
so how does one let go of something like ‘that’ so pure in feeling like we do, of ‘real’ me, of ‘real’ YOU?
Jesus
and Jesus says
Just BE the blessed ‘real’ YOU i know, of only love feels good enough for ALL
blessings to ALL
seriously though, i want(ed) 2 marry YOU, and i know i always will, but i cannot stand in the way of potential thriving happiness you may have with another, and so i must go.
it’s a small planet, and i am easy to find, closer than some of you may realize of who constantly looks apon ALL YOU
does anyone know who?
constantly the ‘real’ YOU is always there in purity of constant yearning loving feelings, merely of allowing our ‘real’ self to feel what we all yearn to always feel
LOVE
forever more
the only way i can come back to you is if i leave?
no wait
the only way you can come back to ‘me’ is if YOU leave?
how can you leave ‘me’? this is so not fair, you have no idea how much that hurt, and still does, and yet, i feel only love, of what you wanted most for me to feel like i do.
blessed peace and love be with you each blessed day to come
of what i know is blessed peace and love of YOU, of ‘me’
i know you love ‘me’
and i know you always will, just as i know my own pure of heart constant love feelings of ‘me’, you ci?
thank you
blessed ‘real’ YOU of us ALL
you hurt the one you love because i was being indecisive toxic uncertainty?
all you had to do was hold my hand to know the truth you already knew of ‘me’, just like you, of exceeding pure loving grace, the ‘real’ you of us all
bless you
Horizon – Eri Sugai
well now that’s the $M question ?
answer, what do YOU want !
YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11
because i have purely felt ‘that’ is what YOU wanted 2
so if it is true, then i am here for YOU, how ever long it takes for you to trust ‘me’ enough to come and hold my hand, i understand, and without doubt i WILL BE there, God WILLING.
you wake gracefully in the mornings of pure loving feelings, and this is how i always yearn to feel and do all day long, away from this world, feeling you feel what i feel too, of our priority in BEing ‘real’.
is it true?
do you still love and want what i still want?
I have to be careful opening this door of exceeding happiness i feel it what i feel of a future with you is true, as it is of exploding light, uncontainable once released!
so are my intuitions true?
i am the one for you?
YOU. & YOU !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
On Michael Jackson, well he was a cameleon, he confronted the hypocrisy of the world head on, he did it right infront of all the fools and judge’sof the world amazingly he summoned a truth that many fail to see, truly amazing.. & all the hypocrites could do was to ridicule & judge. well that was to be expected from pea brain’s..
bless you
peace be to you
and peace be to you
sadly, a drown(ed, ing) world of the false generational snaring teachings of the mad flood that continues to sweep away the divine children of God away into death, destruction and oppression of their blessed pure of heart flawless healing feelings of their holy joyful absolute carefree spiritedness of pure ‘real’ self, YOU of us ALL, yes?
solution?
* sacred mirroring evoking awakening nurturing and wise self-awareness knowingness certainty (pure divine) internalize(d, ing) freeing descerning wisdom from the generational snares.
it has taken ‘me’ a long blessed road of many steps and time of my meditative pure slowing into where i have come to know, restore(d, ing) prefered place of constant yearning to dwell, the pure of heart ‘real me’ i always was.
holy joy absolute carefree love devoid of doubt is within every blessed soul, core of our BEing ‘of ‘ us ALL, the power of the ALL that WILL eventually lift the ALL, ascending of ALL to what is the kingdom of heaven Jesus and God speak of constantly (t)hear ALL around us.
Jesus says, “There is (purity)light within those of turning towards (wise self-awareness) light, who light up the whole world.” * mirroring……..
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i have felt this pure trusting love within since the day i was walking down the street with tears streaming down my face when you were near……i held onto that day since then, of how i yet purely feel of you…..100% without doubt.
of what thriving potential happiness is for YOU & ‘me’ mirroring within ALL.
i constantly love you
the ‘real’ you of us ALL
bless you
lol, a funny closet boy joyfully obsessed with his own penis? ah, maybe! lol
ah, self love is beautiful, pure in feeling like we all do, alone or with another, “ENJOY YOUR SEXUALITY!!!!”
i do
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sacred mirroring role models of healthy physical mental emotional sexual spiritual self-actualize(d, ing) ‘real’ self is the divine WILL objective of Jesus and God’s wisdom words.
YOU are ‘that'(more so than i at this time, at least i know where i am going, of wise helmsman, not haphazard aimless like before, of what is 100% priorty in my life now)
clearly, great is the need of healthy enlightened ones in life, past present future, of sacred life and death vital ‘that’ averts the tide of the ongoing generationally taught destructive oppressive snarings.
no one is able to clearly know and say who feels most comfortable for us to be around, in our wise descerning choices of inner circle friends and lovers in anyone’s loving life, only YOU.
when it comes to our descerning feelings of such, at all times, YOU have the final say, according to YOUr feelings moment by moment, day after blessed day, able to come free at any time from any who are not comfortable for you to be around, decisions that to directly increase or decrease our level of healthy mental emotional physical sexual spiritual well being, of our joyful happiness each blessed day of life.
‘me?’, i have gotten to a point where if someone even looks at me the wrong way, or says the smallest slight, i feel it purely within, where easily moving away from them, my toxic anxiety gradually fades and disappears after a few days in quiet meditation.
wise descerning healthy decisions, according to our feelings, in setting healthy flexible/adjustable boundaries is what accounts for what is our mental emotional physical sexual spiritual well being that we feel and know of our ‘real’ self, and the level of joyful appearance we see and feel of ‘real’ self of others each blessed day of our short journey of life.
like Rosie says, start with u, is my empowerment first, secondly for sake of the vital sacred mirroring, where it is not only alot more fun to Just go BE ‘real’ YOU(mirroring) on a consistant moment by effortless moment all day long, it outshines the lasting affect/effect of mere words spoken, where most individuals attention span is limited for all i have to yet say(in a book).
with that said, i am seeking my most loving lover in life who joyfully wants to assist in consistently meeting our needs to eternally shine forth in the world, each and every blessed day!
forever more
YOU still interested?
blessings to ALL
Director, “Cut! …..did you forget to say something AndYY?”
“No i did not forget to say something, it’s too cliche a thing to say, and besides, now is not the right time to say it, what with that beautiful one she has been seeing lately, and oh so beautiful he is purely dressed in white!”
“Hey, why is it she gets to forget her lines and waunder off when ever she feels like it, for coffee, for dinner with ‘what’s his name’, leaving me standing here like a dork, as she comes back like a day later as though nothing, all is well, me still crying, and like, it’s as though she is the boss or something?”
oh ya, she is the boss………boss of no one butt her self, although, i do like being submissive from time to time, alot actually……..am i ‘that’ obvious?”
just wondering……
“i am hear, just for ‘that’
there, i said it!
BE the happiness i purely feel within all day long, true of YOU, true of ‘me’, true of us ALL!
forever more
why would anyone stop BEing loving happiness ‘that’ of YOU, ‘that’ of ‘me’, ‘that’ which i am?
oh ya, the generational oppressive fear binding ignorances of the forefathers yet hear with us all around, distracting blinding us in ‘forgetFULLness’ of our holy joyful absolute carefree pure spirited HAPPiNESS of blessed blessed blessed divine child of God ‘real’ of ALL YOU ‘that’ i know………the greatest foe!
let ‘me’ know
or let ‘me’ go
so ‘that’ can grow
blessed is our remembrance of the greatest forgetFULLness foe!
Director, “AndYY?”
“Hear!”
“Marco?”
“Hear!”
“Madonna?”
“Madonna?”
………”Madonna?”
“Jesus?”
“Jesus?”
…….”JESUS???”
“Are those two at it again?” lol
only love
blessings to ALL
hey, i was thinking about Michael’s select team of dancers.
there is getting cut during auditions, but then there is making it through, the joyful excitement, and then out of no where this horrible place they yet are feeling, wondering, if M is able get her hands on a list of the dancers who made it thru, for future referance, future shows, the years ahead?…..
must be so hard for all of them
bless you
Michael Jackson and Diana Ross shared a bond
“Although she was older than Michael, they had a real connection and that connection, I think, and that friendship really moved throughout his career.”
just his career?!!!!
ah, hello, we are talking about Diana Ross here, an all time favorite music selection with the female impersonators in our GLBT ghettos worldwide, thruout gay history, of our oneness spirit!
it is sad Michael did not come out to the world of his last loving days of his joyful gay lifestyle.
well, actually, he came out to a few, who i hope one day speak openly about with us all.
BE happy!
knowing i am always (t)hear, somewhere in the world, of my constant hopeFULL yearning pure prayer feelings of pure loving happiness like Your own.
blessings to ALL
God says, we live in one house, as in one world house.
ya, well, if Jesus waunders over to my side of the house, you ain’t gettin him back! lol
blessings to ALL
this one gave me goosebumps from the awe
awesome
truly powerful pure fearlessness evoking mirroring fearlessness, such a suprise loving feeling for everyone inside, in keeping Michael’s joyful high spiritedness alive, our oneness high spiritedness.
you are soooooooooooooo amazing! keep on keeping it together girl!
i love the guitar playing…..takes me back to 1970s of our none stop getting out to concerts having fun all summer long years.
argh…..i live such a mundane boring life compared to yours.
currently, my physical fitness is so easy in restoring of pure energizing of my spirit. One merely has to stay at it, where fun exercise like biking is adventurous pure in feeling, escapism from mundane. Turn off your TV and computers everyone and get outdoors, doing whatever, just get outdoors!
camping, i miss camping outdoors!
skiing too!
i’ll get back to how i was in my first half of life, ditching all these nelly nasty byatches for sheer outdoor adventure…..just need to find those like ‘me’ who love to thrill!
way to go Madonna!
seems Michaels drug addiction started from the time he got burned way back when…..sad to see such a powerful force like Michael taken by something so easy to get away from, saying ‘no thanks’…..keep him alive M, what is always there within us all, the joyful free spirited happiness of us ALL, the power of the ALL that lifts us ALL out of fear!
WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i love that guitar playing!
can’t stop. won’t stop the truth of our carefree fun loving spiritedness!
thanks to all those who stay tuned into their carefree fun loving spirit, of none stop shining fearless light forth into this world, the true value of any artist!
best is yet to come, of what is evolving purity love!
do you feel it?
it takes fearlessness to feel purity love!
goosebump chills, YES!!!!!!!
so pure in feeling!
REAL
we had Michael in our parade!
like the clowns, not able to die
i mean that purely in a good way, like the purity of the subtle evoked feelings of the clown during The Girlie Show!
bless you
ya, for sure, keep Michael for the tour, and maybe some of his entourage!
LET’S KICK IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
seriously, you and me, let’s kick it sometime!
argh….. i am not going to ask again…..
i get goosebumps everytime i see a pic of you!
LOVE, all one ever needs!
the more the better we feel how we are supposed to feel, purely loving, at all times!
God bless ALL of YOU!
forever more
huh? what?
nah, Michael ain’t dead, i just saw him walking down the street!
bless you
the sight of seeing a rainbow as a child, of actually believing there was gold at the end of the rainbow, only to find out later in life, scientifically, that there is no fucking end of the rainbow, a circle of light from the source of the sphere shaped sun above, or is there?
if one looks apon their life as one continous evolving path of blessed ‘real’ self past present future of all divine children of God being the same, past present future, a path that does not end while walking on the endless eternal rainbow path, coming full circle of restoration, salvation, preservation of pure of heart flawless healing feeling holy joyful absolute carefree happy divine ‘real’ self, of value beyond all riches, then purely in truth, our pure loving shining radiant brilliant bright light rejoicing ‘real’ self feeling, is exactly ‘that’ of a rainbow, unending round and round we merrily dance, here at the end of the rainbow, of where the end is, there too is the eternal beginning?
ya well, Jesus seemed to think so, or did he know so, his every word of self-awareness knowingness certainty ‘that’ revolves around blessed divine ‘real’ self of us ALL, that eluded everyone then, just as it does today, seemingly of no one truly grasping fully what Jesus and God are purely saying.
i do
bless you
New York Rep. Peter King called on the media to “knock out the psycho-babble” and stop covering Michael Jackson because “this guy was a pervert.”
he goes on to say, in addressing media responsibility, “There are men and women dying today in Afghanistan. Let’s give them the credit they deserve,” he added.
“glory glory glory hallaluia to all you of willful killing your brothers and sisters like you do, so nobal brilliant radiant bright self-knowledge awareness purely loving light you all are!”
NOT!
the most vile thing i have witnessed in life, was a video on the internet of a soldier being beheaded.
ya, well, so smart you all are in you aimless haphazard fueling of wretched fires like you willfully do, wait watch and see where it is clearly leading you all to of what is to come, should we not purely embrace inner peace of the divine child of us all.
you have all been warned, not by ‘me, albeit ‘me’ who is of oneness wisdom with Jesus and God.
we have to embrace the root of wretchedness, of what is cause for all of it, “Crucial Lacking of Desire for Self-Knowledge Awareness Wisdom of Divine ‘real’ Self, of what is CLEARLY the single cause for all lost to death, past present future, to the destructive willful killing of your brother or sister of boths sides of warring factions.
Truly i say to all of you, you are all blinded by generational snaring absurd boastful ignorance, speaking obviously as fools, not knowing the presence of the divine spirit of God oneness with your own divine child within, of God who is wisely drawing us all towards self-knowledge awareness realization, purely felt by some of you.
Personally i despise greately all you of bitter hypocrisy heart tongues, so foul tasting in feeling making me vomit, of how you mockingly speak of my most loving brothers and sisters in life since my youth, and i will continue to despise all of you of your seemingly wise posturing like you do.
does God forgive any of you for these wretched things?
should God forgive any of you for these wretched things?
ok, final judgement, the next killing of a tax paid soldier, i charge you all with willfulness murder.
the truth.
all of us of willful murder, lead astray by your oh so wise leaders who DO NOT KNOW GOD, nor do they truly fully embrace the divine child of God within.
i will not leave quietly in shouting the truth of final judgement apon all of you who do not know what you are saying from the hypocrisy heart you speak from, thinking you truly know the divine child of God.
and i am just warming up to what is to come……..the pure final truth, as in finally hear of what we look for has already come here in the present where past meets future, in these absurd cycles of pattern behaviours we all yet are of, just as the forefathers, yet as the forefathers, thinking they knew God, did not truly desire to know God, claiming they did and yet do.
Truly i tell you, none of you of this generation know God who is drawing your pure intuitive divine child into awakened knowingness certainty, purely only of constant yearning for only love.
woe to you who do not take time to dwell with your pure of heart divine ‘real’ self, of your willingness to kill a brother or sister, of what is not forgiveable, and never was, leading your divine self into error of death destruction and oppression of the holy joyful divine child of God YOU of us ALL.
to you leaders i say, God is hear!
always was and WILL BE!
morons!
i am surrounded by fucking pea brained morons
there is alot to edit publish of my research…..i am emotionally drained and tired in need of rest and will return another day.
with the blessed truth this world is going to see hear and feel of the wise descerning truth of everything, includinging the truth of all untruths humiliatingly revealed that i have come to despise, of what is of impure erroring absurd ways of this yet unwise world surround, of my tired dwelling here among you, yearning to one day leave and not ever return, as in return to what, more of the same unloving uncertainty i tolerate and bare?
who wants to bare feeling unloving behaviour of anyone?
i cannot believe how arrogant some of you have been with ‘me’ in life, of so many i have walked away from, of some of you yet there actually wondering why i left?
huh?
afraid to feel and see the truth of your own ugliness of hypocrisy heart so many of you are of?
how many more millions of unborn yet to come have to die because we CHOSE unwiseness over available wisdom?
do you think your enemies are actually your enemies?
do you know know who the real enemy is?
do any of you hear a messanger of God speaking with clarity to you the truth of your error is of your unknowingly being snared by the ignorant teachings of the forefathers?
do you not realize you are of the same unwiseness of the forefathers who did/do not know God, did/do not desire to know God, did/do not desire to know your own blessed pure loving divine child of God ‘real’ self?
what is it going to take, all of Israel being destroyed in a nuclear holocast, with all of Iran being destroyed within a 24 hour period following the destruction of Israel, of millions of souls crying out at the same time the truth of our ERROR in turning towards hate rather than LOVE?
i am speaking with ALL of YOU today, and ALL of you yet to come into this obviously yet unwise world yet filled with the absurd ignorances of the forefathers, so many of you, ARE the forefathers of unwiseness, of what you are afraid to do, look in the mirror at the truth of your completely absurd foolish foul tasting bitter heartedness that makes ‘me’ vomit!
holocaust or no holocaust, the WILLINGNESS to purely embrace the TRUTH is the same, before or after.
woe to all of you who look apon another as though different from your own blessed divine spirit that dwells in a body exactly the same as your own, leading your pure blessed spirit into error of ways that are not forgiveable by God, just as i am not of desire to forgive any wretched cycle pattern behaviours handed down by the forefathers i purely despise with all that i am.
ask your selves, “what will your children think of your error of ways after millions die in a nuclear holocaust?”
will they question it as wrong or right, when clearly it was wrong, of great shame awareness of your arroganct unwiseness revealed you all were of prior to the millions dying?
ok, next stupid question….
who among you truly wants to die besides ‘me’? lol
i jest………
i don’t want to die, i want to run towards love with another, always did, always will, divine WILL.
anyway, enough for today
put down the weapons of your forefathers, of suffer the consequences of ‘that’ which is coming……..the unfailing divine truth, i pray ALL come towards, before a holocaust fallout.
it is easier for a pure of heart one to fall, lacking in wisdom, than for a wise(evolved) pure of heart to fall…..the divine adult child of God Jesus, who did not fall, and rather rose up to God before he was struck down, not like the bible says, he rose after death………that’s just stupid.
what rises?
our hearts rise up, pure in blessed feeling YOU, yes?
our spirits soar, of joyful loving laughter for more!
COFFEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i need my coffee! lol
i cannot believe the absurd audacity of N.Korea, a country impoverished, “Oh, look at what we have, missles, let’s show off our missles, are we not so loving and so smart, we leaders of N.Korea who don’t care about the well fare of our own blessed people?
middle evil dark ages is all i can think of, of what is just so immature unwiseness.
how do you humiliate an unwise child leader?
oh, i don’t know, fly formation 20 of our F-22 raptors thru their air defense shield unscathed a few times? lol
that should get their attention
blessings to all
one of my coming of age gay films is ‘My Fair Son’, a truly beautiful film of the beauty one feels, depicting of embracing the delicate afraid homosexual self-awareness feelings, as one who can atest to, indeed, this is how it feels to come towards homosexual self, timid, fearful, delicate, constant yearning desiring, what others think and how they cannot accept us, until they themselves know how.
i don’t like the twisted incest betraying ending though.
oppsss……i gave the ending away……..sorry……well ok, im not sorry.
purely so, i am more asian cultured than any other.
i love Asian culture and it’s people the most in life, their pure gracefulness they are of priority in being, unlike the rest of the world.
and let’s not forget, [wikipedia] *China has one of the world’s oldest and continuous civilizations, consisting of states and cultures dating back more than six millennia. It has the world’s longest continuously used written language system, and is viewed as the source of many major inventions. Historically, China’s cultural sphere has extended across East Asia as a whole, with Chinese religion, customs, and writing systems being adopted to varying degrees by neighbors such as Japan, Korea and Vietnam. The first evidence of human presence in the region was found at the Zhoukoudian cave and is one of the first known specimens of Homo erectus, now commonly known as the Peking Man, estimated to have lived approximately from 300,000 to 550,000 years ago.
i would rather live in China than America! Truly!
my grace is like their own, purely comfortabe to be around, of gentle mild ‘real’ self.
Go to where YOU want to purely BE found each blessed day, with who ever that may be…….just be sure you do.
pure blessed loving life is what i a(i)m 4!!!!!
care 2 join ‘me’?
same-sex relationship ‘recognition’ in USA map
http://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:Recognition_of_same-sex_relationships_in_the_United_States.svg
after 15 years as a same-sex activist, i always feel a gentle tug of the heart strings in seeing rainbow flags proudly displayed on the front of people’s dwellings, while out walking in the our ghetto neighborhoods, of more and more flags appearing year after year.
hard to believe the majority of the USA is so far behind the times…..absurd.
artists need to purely embrace the importance of voices unheard so pure and true of any GLBT individual any where in the world, who see and feel our ongoing activism in reaching out to them, just as Harvey MILK did and yet does, of what we all went thru, always knowing, there is someone out there who is going thru their emotionally charged and tryinging difficult years of coming out in a clearly unaccepting world according to this map.
the world map paints an even darker picture of how the world yet is of same-sex recognition.
http://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:World_homosexuality_laws.svg
how is it something so beautiful pure in feeling is beyond the grasp of the entire world, of their vilifying damnation of the most precious loving souls on the planet?
generational taboo ignorance, of most any of the religious circles in the world who think homosexual sex is deviant, perverted, evil……….when in truth, we are purely tuned into our loving spirits more than the heterosexual world, which is not to say all are, of either homosexuality or heterosexuality.
let’s see, heterosexuals joyfully celebrate openly the sexual pleasure of their bodies, but God forbid a male touches a male penis, or a female touches a vigina, where the heterosexual world does this every day!
i really really don’t understand you people.
you males love your own penis, yes?
females love their sexual bodies too?
if any of you say no, you are lying!
well, Jesus calls you all hypocrites of what is purely plainly obvious as the truth, you are all hypocrites liars and falsifiers!
forever more
well, ok, not all of you………all or none thinki………….
ya buncha virgins! lol
*gasp*
dat’s ‘what it is’ !
the problem with this unaccepting homophobic world
i knew id figure it OUT eventually!
yizzzzz alllll a bunch a scaredy cat homophobic virgins!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ya, well ya can all keep your fear to ya selves, ok?
well ok, call ‘me’ sometime!
we talk……….in a hot tub?!
YES!!!!
‘real’ talk!!!!
hypocrite liars
falsify deniars
afraid afraid afraid
virgins!
thank you for (finally) recognizing us DC!
blessings to ALL
Fuck YOU Michael Jackson,
YOU little bLaCK cAt
YOU were too Fucking beautiful, for your own good.
Love YOU
Bless YOU
lol
i felt his spirit*edness within me yesterday, pure in feeling, of what Michael felt within, to one day run thru life as his homosexual self at all times everywhere he went, away from all unaccepting others of family, friends.
i know this, because that is exactly what i did after Troy died, a one way bus ticket to life everlasting in Just BEing my pure loving ‘real’ self, quit my job, quit my family, quit my friends, quit the life i was living, a lie, feeling excited about weekend trips to the LGBT community of Toronto Canada, tugging at my soul, till the day i eventually mustered up enough courage to walk away from the life i was living and go to where i knew i purely belonged, without doubt, daily walking among my most loving brothers and sisters……getting off the bus, a bag of clothes, blue jeans, t-shirt, all i knew that i needed, no job to go to, no place to stay, figuring i could sleep at the bathhouses(cheap $8/night) till i got settle…..walking from Yonge street down Maitlant to Church St. into the heart of the LGBT community that day, a 100% pure in feeling surrounded me, of no doubt, exceeding pure grace of my ‘real’ self, blessed in feeling, as i began to see and feel the lesbians who were there holding hands, the gay brothers purely loving in spirit, delicate, effeminate and true like my own spirit, i felt no fear, of no concern for anything other than knowing without doubt, this is where i would be for the rest of my life, everlasting life, of the only words to describe the feeling, i was walking into the kingdom of heaven all around ‘me’.
i am yet hear, so look ‘me’ up someday, and feel what i am, so comfortable for your divine ‘real’ self to be around, as you will feel, of what i yet am, the pure graceful real evolved wise ‘me’ i surrendered to in constantly being daily ‘that’ day so long ago.
one thing i recall purely feeling of my thinking back then, was that i was not concerned about what my loving brothers and sisters thought of me, knowing they were all at different levels of self-adjustment of those who arrived here ahead of ‘me’, where i came as an observer of all of them, hearing and feeling their wise words, their stories of coming out, connecting with what we all share in common, someone somewhere, family, friends, ex-lovers(wives left behind), who were/are not accepting of us, and how that left/leaves us feeling in our exiting OUT of our toxic past lives, so many of us now, who have constantly daily been here pushing forward like we do, rising up, our without doubt knowingness certainty ‘that’ at all times, there is a purely loving brother or sister in life out there who has yet to come fully, safely, in transitioning thru what we too all went thru, knowing how long it took/takes for the residule toxic feelings to wear off over time, provided they courageously surrender to Just BEing their precious loving effeminate graceful TRUE ‘real’ self we all are and have been for so long. It is there in their eyes daily, of their body language, without words or questioning, what we all feel daily with one another, constantly, the TRUTH, our hearts purely feeling the anxiety the new arrivals are of, “Oh yeah, i remember feeling like you are feeling, fucked up. Hear, take my hand and stop with the fearful doubtful transference others were/yet are with you, deep breathes, let it go, of the past, live in the now, it’s over, it’s in the past, leave it there, you will be fine now ‘that’ you are here where you belong, along side us for the rest of your life!”
Indeed, many BEcame more than just fine over time, of pure in feeling radiant brilliant bright exceeding holy joyful absolute carefree happy spiritedness of their divine ‘real’ self set free from the doubt found and felt in this world, realizing every word of Jesus was and is about us, of my long ago question of truth, was Jesus bisexual? Duh! Hello!……….without doubt.
the ‘real’ question is, did Jesus surrender his virginity to anyone, male or female, who was purely loving of him enough for him to surrender to?
personally, i do not feel that Jesus did, no matter what any of you may ponder, i don’t believe he did, and instead, found himself alone more often than not, in secretly purely feeling while of quiet meditation, of both his heterosexual and homosexual pure loving feelings for those he grew to love along life’s road, which explains his words of deserning innane pleasures he speaks of, such as sexual desire ‘lust’ without love, where in truth, purely spiritually connecting love devoid of doubt with another soul, purely so, as you know, is not easily done, of what is most any of us yet evolving in blessed divine ‘real’ self.
it takes time to purely know and love the divine blessed ‘real’ self of another, where until we fully 100% surrender to our true ‘real’ self, how can we love the blessed divine true ‘real’ self of another, or how can we attrack divine ‘real’ self of another who is intuitively subconsciously seeking what a true soul mate is, purely in exact oneness sameness likeness as our own(evolved) soulmate lover divine ‘real’ self?
well, purely i say to you, i know this of you, what it is i know of ‘me’, of why i am yet hear, my natural intuition that feels who the blessed divine ‘real’ self of YOU, of my inability to turn away from YOU, just as i cannot turn away from ‘me’.
i am without doubt of my pure feelings i feel for YOU, and i know you too are as well, wondering why it is we did not come together in ‘real’ life after all this time, and yet, i know why………..it is the pure delicate sensitive ‘real’ self’s inability to just trust another, who may or may not be of numerous ego masks, hiding like we do, of what has become clearly obvious for us both now in reflecting back, our subtle fearful ‘real’ self there, constantly yearning to fearlessly come forth and BE the expressing radiant brilliant bright exceeding holy joyful absolute carefree happiness we held/hold back with one another like we have, the door slowly opening like it has.
and this leads to the question of ‘What does the future hold for us both?”
i don’t know about you, but i do know what is and has been my long spiritual journey in life, of my fearlessly coming before you this day, and purely expressing what is next for ‘me’, ‘that’ i have grown in purely feeling for along time along life’s road, a wise sage monk, dedicated, devoted, determined diligence, without doubt, i KNOW……..
ONLY radiant brilliant bright exceeding holy joyful absolute carefree happiness of blessed divine ‘real me’, and YOU of us ALL, with or without YOU, or the YOU of another, somewhere in this world, is my true purely loving ‘real’ soulmate love of God’s intention for ‘me’, for YOU!
forever more
so i ask one last time, “Is ‘that’ someone YOU?”
if not, then tell ‘me’ why it is that i feel it is PURELY YOU?
bless you
i constantly want YOU
i constantly need YOU
i constantly think YOU
i constantly feel YOU
i love YOU, of what is my pure bisexual loving ‘real’ me
forever MORE
blessed is the divine ‘real’ YOU of us ALL
blessings to ALL
hold my hand someday, and YOU will know without doubt, who i really really am!
i a(i)m YOU?
someone Just like BEing YOU!
bless you
~
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the delima;
~ dilemma (Greek δί-λημμα “double proposition”) is a problem offering at least two solutions or possibilities, of which none are practically acceptable; one in this position has been traditionally described as “being on the horns of a dilemma”, neither horn being comfortable; or “being between a rock and a hard place”, since both objects or metaphorical choices being rough.
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i like rough sometimes! lol
ok, neither YOU nor ‘me’ settles for just anyone, having evolved for so long like we both have along life’s road, which brings us back to why perhaps Jesus did not surrender to anyone, as much as he wanted to, could not, of what he had grown into, his own comfort level of his blessed divine ‘real’ self after many miles and years along his constantly evolving BEcoming of WISDOM of Self-Knowledge Awareness, where no matter even if we are of constant yearning desire for another, once evolved to a high pure graceful State of Meditative daily BEing, it is no long a question of just anyone will do, rather it is a the question ‘that’ not just anyone will do.
ya, sure, within all, is the purely blessed divine ‘real’ self, not to sound contradictory, but have you noticed, some are toxic for us within a few seconds, yes?
not to belittle anyone one, truly, that is not my intention, of what is my constant observing the condition of all unattended unnurtured unprotected souls along life’s road, of most any not being of wise focused knowingness of what the divine WILL of Jesus and God is.
ask anyone if they know, “What is the wise self-knowledge awareness divine will objective of Jesus and God, for i have not met any yet who do, including you so called ‘Scholars’ of dedicated devoted study of God at universities.
truly, i know without doubt, my spirit is what is of priority, no matter male or female lover, of what it is i cannot avoid………
the TRUTH
ya, of course, you cannot answer this question, of our constant yearning to do so for so long, having not held my hand, of what i am saying this day, “Come, fully surrendering to your divine ‘real’ self so much like my own, of constant yearning fearlessness one day to hold my hand, and you WILL be fine!”
‘that’ is the only way forward for YOU & ‘me’, is it not?
if not, well, i cannot wait forever, nor should you, leaving me wonder if perhaps another is ment for us both.
this cross road of friends is an eternal cross road of Jesus in the middle of the cross road which all must pass……..personally, i desire not to ever leave the cross road with Jesus, where i have come to realize, the blessed divine ‘real’ self Jesus surrendered to the cross for the soul purpose in speaking directly to us, “Look apon this eternal door my divine ‘real’ self like your own has surrended to in stepping thru, of what is most sacred to ‘me’, ‘that’ YOU ALL BE without doubt of what i too came to know and feel along life’s road of the toxic unnurturing unattending unawake unprotecting snaring false learned ego behavioural masks the divine self of many hide behind, feeling what it is that i feel, in so doing, knowing without doubt, the blessed divine ‘real’ YOU of us ALL also feels what i do………..without doubt!”
let ‘me’ know someday if YOU want to explore further the potential thriving happiness i know without doubt, i a(i)m 4, as in what i am, Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual, Transgendered.
blessings to ALL
i am yet hear waiting……..for what?
for the same thing you purely feel of your meditative state of Just BEing blessed divine ‘real’ self YOU, purely delicate, sensitive, effeminate(some call me), mild, gentle, exceedingly graceful and purely loving………..
the ‘real’ YOU of us ALL.
Like i did so long ago, go to where you truly know where YOU BElong, with those Just like YOU!
forever more
bless you
peace be to you
and peace be to you
Jesus loves ALL
God loves ALL
We love ALL
The Power of Love of the ‘real’ ALL is what lifts the ‘real’ self of us ALL up into the wisdom of the kingdom of heaven, Jesus and God’s wisdom meant for ALL.
i stand where i am most comfortable, beside Jesus, of the beauty in knowing what it is we all intuitively know, without doubt of who i really really am is……….the blessed qualities i am, always was, always WILL to BE, i know, i am forever more
blessings to ALL
hey, where do you suppose Michael’s gay lovers were during the memorial?
cying somewhere alone…….the usual……
i wonder what the views on homosexuality are of Michael’s family and friends, the same as Michael’s…..closeted or none existent, just as Michael is no longer with us?
ya think?
equally drowning of Michael was his self-medicating coping addiction to drugs, an off shoot manifestation of homophobia.
i say don’t look for acceptance with those who do not love their own homoerotic feelings, of what so many suppress like i did of my secret homoerotic fantasy masterbation sessions that began when i hit puberty, lasting a few years, until i let go of them, afraid secrecy, the suppression that came and lasted till i was 29 years old, which reveals the truth, homosexuality is not a learned behaviour.
and then, this oh so beautiful precious loving soul Troy came along, of effeminate hands more feminine than a female, femine body and face, of my trembling homosexual virgin spirit shining brightly in my allowing myself to feel what i felt so long ago there before him, our smiling faces, the sunshine, our naked bodies on a rock along side the cottage lake…………..purely loving.
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girl, don’t make me have to get into makeup and your stage outfits to perform Madonna better than Madonna can perform Madonna! lol
argh……my smoking really does make me look and feel hagard……..that’s it, for sure i am done with smoking.
i do have your eyes ya know!
freaked me out the first time i did makeup, it was you starring back at me to see if i was starring back to see if you were starring back at ‘me’. lol
i LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
forever
i have your legs too!
i just need to your breasts! lol
please!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
don’t make me ask again!
bless you
of course i do
same as YOU
of course i do
like YOU, it’s true
of course i do
thru and thru
of course i do
LOVE is YOU!
of course i do
same as before
of course i do
wanting more
of course i do
not some whore
of course i do
galour galour
of course i do
what YOU think?
of course i do
on the brink
of course i do
blink blink blink
of course i do
think! think! think!
of course i do
feel like YOU
of course i do
pure LOVE is true
of course i do
true true true
of course i do
‘real’real’ YOU?
of course i do
‘really’ LOVE YOU!
oh come on, do you think for once you could date a guy with a smaller ass than your own?
argh………..i have always been slim my whole life, of constantly hard working, low fat diet, lot’s of sex, vitality!
Vigor ‘Vitality’ is where happiness truly appears within, outwardly shining brilliant radiant bright!
people are their own worse enemies, of no priority cognitive knowingness certainty awareness.
lead by example, easily so, Just bi BEing YOU!
and if you meet those along life’s road just like ‘real real’ YOU, well, of course i do……….want to marry YOU!
certainty knowing within thru and thru without doubt wondering if you feel the same way 2, of awareness that points to the truth, that if i feel this way, so can/do YOU?!
so is it true?
i feel as YOU?
do you understand what i speak of?
that pure pure place of our ‘real’ self?
and you say………of course i do!
Just BEing pure graceful ‘real’ YOU!
only LOVE
make sure you get proper amount of peaceful rest, the more the better, of pure self-confident high performance, and remember, there is no such thing as catching up on rest, you have to stay in the sweet spot zone, merely by strick adherence to RED40.
don’t let anyone keep you away from your required rest time, “OUT, get out! Time for my rest.”
Be purely disciplined(BOUNDARIES) of your rest time, where you greet pure self-confidence each blessed morning, of joyful step for yet another fun filled day.
Rest does directly affect/effect our mental emotional phyical sexual and spiritual well being, where we need our required REM sleep, which takes a few hours of sleep to enter into, so let’s say you only sleep 4 hours, then you are only getting say 1 hour of REM sleep.
personally, i need 8.5 hours rest to stay at peak performance.
and yes, sex is relaxing and purely healthy for us, so long as we get the right amount of rest.
and let’s not forget, our bodies are not as nible as our youth, of slower absorption of nutrients, lower metabolism, naturally so, and yes, we do need more rest, also part of our naturally aging bodies.
if you feel great each day waking, mentally emotionally physically sexually spiritually, all day long, then you are in the sweet spot zone.
pay attention to how you feel, where it is only you who knows if you are in the sweet spot zone, where you need to stay, of strick regimented adherence that leads to postively fantastic results of peak performance.
if not for sake of performance at work, then for sake of BETTER SEX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
leading of self is what leading of others constantly is.
bless you
peace be to you
and peace be to you
love and peace
Oneness Sameness Divine Self-knowledge Awareness ‘Wisdom’ is the only solution of safe passage for the future
bless you
hmmm….do you have friendship relationships such as this?
many there are in their approach with us to entangle us in codependence cycle pattern relationships, themselves oblivious to this extensive reality check as enablers….unhealthy for both enablers and the enabled.
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wikipedia
Codependence is a pattern of detrimental, behavioral interactions within a dysfunctional relationship which is regarded by some as a form of disease.[1] The codependent person is the person, who in the beginning of the loved one’s drug career, in good faith, tries to help them stop by trying to control the drug addict and the drug. The codependent’s life gets more and more out of hand and at the end, they might become as sick as the drug addict.[2] In general, the codependent is understood to be a person who perpetuates the alcohol or drug dependence of someone close to them in a way that hampers recovery.[1] This can be done through direct control over the dependent, by making excuses for their dysfunctional behavior or relieving them of the consequences of the dependence. This is called enabling, which can have negative social and health consequences for both parties.[2]Codependency advocates claim that a codependent may feel shame about, or try to change, their most private thoughts and feelings if they conflict with those of another person.
[edit] Symptoms
Symptoms of codependence may include controlling behavior, distrust, perfectionism, avoidance of feelings, problems with intimacy, excessive caretaking, hypervigilance, or physical illness related to stress.[3] Codependence is often accompanied by clinical depression, as the codependent person succumbs to feelings of frustration or sadness over their inability to improve the situation.
tendency to place the needs and wants of others first and to the exclusion of acknowledging one’s own
continued investment of self-esteem in the ability to control both oneself and others
anxiety and boundary distortions relating to intimacy and separation
difficulty expressing feelings
excessive worry how others may respond to one’s feelings
undue fear of being hurt and/or rejected by others
self-esteem dependent on approval by others
tendency to ignore own values and attempt to adhere to the values of others
“I Don’t Feel Anything”Denying True Feelings Codependents often are confused about how they really feel. Their only concern is how others feel about them. While codependents may seem happy on the outside, their true feelings may be eating away at them inside.
Does This Sound Like You?
I find it difficult to make friends.
I’m afraid nobody will like me.
I have a lot of friends, but none of them are close.
If you get close to people, you’ll just get hurt.
I have a hard time expressing my feelings.
I get angry at people all of a sudden for no reason.
When I’m angry, I take it out on the wrong person.
I feel like the decisions I make are always wrong.
I prefer to have others make decisions for me.
I have no opinion of my own.
I let somebody else lead the conversation. I’m afraid of saying something stupid.
Arguing makes me uncomfortable.
If I don’t agree with people, I’m afraid they won’t like me.
I must make others happy, even if I’m not happy.
I do what someone else wants, even if I don’t want to do it.
I feel responsible for solving other people’s problems.
When people say nice things about me, I don’t believe them.
I blame myself when things go wrong.
Nobody cares about me.
I feel like a failure.
[edit] Treatment
Individuals who are suffering from codependence may seek assistance through various therapies, sometimes accompanied by chemical therapy for accompanying depression.
In addition, there exist support groups for codependency; some of these are Co-Dependents Anonymous (CoDA) and Al-Anon/Alateen, Celebrate Recovery, and Adult Children of Alcoholics (ACoA), which are based on the twelve-step program model of Alcoholics Anonymous. Although the term codependency originated outside of twelve-step groups, it is now a common concept understood in many of them.[4]
Many books have been written on the subject of codependence. Pia Melody (Facing Co-dependence) and Shirley Smith (Set yourself Free) Melody Beattie was one of the first to describe such behaviors. She is the author of Codependent No More among many other volumes.
[edit] Controversies
The view that it is just a popular psychology concept,[who?] codependency is also a concept in for ex Medical Subject Heading.[5]
Caring for an individual with a physical addiction is not synonymous with pathology. To name the caregiver as a co- alcoholic responsible for the endurance of their partner’s alcoholism for example, pathologises caring behaviour. The caregiver may only require assertiveness training skills and the addict accountability in taking responsibility for managing their addiction, or not[6] [7].
Not all mental health professionals agree about codependence or its standard methods of treatment [8]. It is not listed in the DSM-IV-TR diagnostic manual. Stan Katz & Liu, in “The Codependency Conspiracy: How to Break the Recovery Habit and Take Charge of Your Life,” feel that codependence is over-diagnosed, and that many people who could be helped with shorter-term treatments instead become dependent on long-term self-help programs.
Some believe that codependency is not a negative trait, and does not need to be treated, as it is more likely a healthy personality trait taken to excess. Codependency in nonclinical populations has some links with favorable characteristics of family functioning [9].
The language of symptoms of and treatment for codependence derive from the medical model suggesting a disease process underlies the behaviour. There is no evidence that codependence is caused by a disease process, communicable or otherwise.
Some frequent users of the concept codependency use the word as an alternative to use the concept dysfunctional families, without statements that classify it is a disease. [10]
Not everything promoted by recovery agencies is a demonstrable scientific fact, some of it is based on fashion and faith alone [11] [12].
People who have experienced natural disasters, life threatening illness or accident, and personal and community tragedy have been found to perceive a benefit from the ordeal such as positive personality changes, changes in priorities and enhanced family relationships [13]. Caring for survivors serves a worthwhile ethic of empowerment – both for the caregiver and the survivors.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Codependence
at some point i became tuned into the purity of my spiritual life path, interested in feeling thru of the many souls along the road, of what life story each has, my interest purely focused on their own ‘real’ self and the manifestations of toxic uncertainties they too are obviously of, their angst, their bitterness, their screaming, like my own, of the misguided inappropriateness of others in their personal and professional lives, connecting with oneness sameness introspection affirmations of were i too once was, still am, yet to be, of what is the none stop evolving process fully becoming ‘real’ self-actualized, healthy descerning decision making choices, healthy flexible adjustable boundaries, all of our intuitive knowingness subconscious seeking of conducive enviroments, pure in feeling, the finding of our pure pure ‘real’ self more often than not sitting alone away from others, equally unhealthy as unhealthy others.
my professional team have assisted me the most in life in my self-actualization pure in feeling in the practice of being ‘real’ self-awareness.
even more so has been my constant confident certainty now, that God is always with me, not ever to judge, no, rather always of constant acknowledgement teaching of the purity of divine ‘real’ self, left unattended by a world that predominately is not able to be wisely concerned of what constitutes healthy nurturing and protection of divine ‘real’ self, again, not as judgemental, no, purely of compassionate wise descerning awareness of what Jesus too came fully in realizing as well…..the world is yet of generational teaching/snaring of falsehoods that go against the purely loving pure of heart divine child of God ‘real’ self’s heart mind body spirit and soul.
key word GENERATIONAL!
and it is this word that is of the ‘no time constraint’, across all generations past present future, an eternal day of divine ‘real’ self-awareness that does not set, of wise descerning purely feeling ‘real’ self awareness knowingness certainties, where without doubt, if all leaders past present future were of the Jesus and God’s ‘real’ self awareness, there would be no wars of destruction death and oppressive repressions, past present future, purely of what is of the divine child of God of us ALL,
‘real’ self love not hate
‘real’ self wisdom not ignorance
‘real’ self compassion not apathy
optimistically, darkness serves the divine ‘real’ self by means of truth of all untruths that are not true of divine ‘real’ self, and this is where purely we embrace, the balance is leaning towards the light of divine ‘real’ self, as evident by the past journey to where we all are today.
blessings to all
oh ya, how could i forget……..
‘real’ self sex, not sexism
hmmm….let’s see, the male has one half and the female has the other half, where combined they are the whole of ONE reproductive mechanism for eternal reproduction.
why do you people think you are different, i mean, ya sure, we have different penis sizes and breast sizes, for all you size queens and kings OUT there, but in actuality, one without the other, both of equality importance, in the beginning, of eternal beginning reproductive life of your children, since the beginning, that without coming together, well, the world would be left to the gays lesbians bisexuals and the transgenders………………
hmmmmmm………hey, maybe that’s not such a bad idea either……….lol
i am all of YOU!
equally loving as either or……
bless you
Ya know,
I forgot what i wanted to say
Oh yer
when your the
“CAPTAIN”
Ya know the
“DESTINATION”
yes
the objective destination of practice in being our pure ‘real’ self becomes clear, pure in feeling, without doubt, however timid afraid vulnerable any of us may be feeling, the intuitive knowingness certainty destination light of pure ‘real’ self is all always there to dwell in, of radiant brilliant bright holy joyful absolute carefree exploding light of pure ‘real’ self, however dimly deminished that may be, of many not yet wise in descerning ‘real’ self-awareness wisdom nurturing and protection approach in how to constantly be true to pure ‘real’ self of another, merely by means of being our constantly loving wise compassionate pure ‘real’ self.
oh, just fuck me, no need for words!!!!!!!!!!!
i am equally loving as either male ‘role playing’ or female ‘role playing’, of many comfortable loving years in purely being my ‘real’ female and male self, of happiness in being both, not just one or the other, no, of pure loving joyful happiness released in others i came to know and love of many lovers along life’s road, just like ‘me’, albeit, many there were who were not (yet) of healthy self-actualization in conducting long term pure ‘real’ self emotionally honest relationships, which i know, without doubt, you and i would be able to, our graceful preferred being our pure ‘real’ self, if you would just stop being so lame in your approach with ‘me’! lol
it is in this light that i am married to YOU, am i not?
at some point we lose interest in those who are lame in coming to purely feel their own emotional honesty, fearlessly expressing what that may be purely feeling for someone they sincerely genuinely yearn for, perhaps of their greatest ‘primal’ fear, rejection, or perhaps of imagination?
well, here is the ray of light most of you are not wisely tuned into, of what is my own introspection of pure ‘real’ self knowingness certainty without doubt of YOU of us ALL, are you ready?
IMAGINATION is ‘nullified’ by means of what is Sage Wisdom TRUTH, 100% without doubt, the intuitive core of our being constant yearning free(d,ing) of the holy joyful absolutely carefree ‘wise healthy happiness’ of the divine child of God’s heart mind body spirit and soul, the YOU of us ALL!
for some this is seemingly a competition in appearance, but in truth, again,
COMPETITION is ‘nullified’ by means of what is Sage Wisdom TRUTH, 100% without doubt, the intuitive core of our being constant yearning free(d,ing) of the holy joyful absolutely carefree ‘wise healthy happiness’ of the divine child of God’s heart mind body spirit and soul, the YOU of us ALL!
So hurry up and slow down into the intuitive core graceful pure loving divine ‘real’ self YOU i know of YOU ALL, before i lose interest in the haphazard aimless fearful lameness of so many of you i yearn to love, of what yet is my boring boring boring daily existence………
argh……….i want to go skiing under a moon lit night of naked bodies covered in leather strap on fur, and no, that is not a fetish………..it is purely incredible being ‘me’, that’s ALL!
blessings to ALL!
your words speak truthful of what i know you know i know.
but the teasing is getting lame, and my fear is we may wane, my mere words not being able to compete with the ‘real’ world, of where i constantly yearn to dwell beside you, as in skin touch close beside you, and yet, i am eternally hear beside you.
bless you
When I was very young
Nothing really mattered to me
But making myself happy
I was the only one
Now that I am grown
Everythings changed
Ill never be the same
Because of you
Chorus:
Nothing really matters
Love is all we need
Everything I give you
All comes back to me
Looking at my life
Its very clear to me
I lived so selfishly
I was the only one
I realize
That nobody wins
Something is ending
And something begins
(chorus, repeat)
Nothing takes the past away
Like the future
Nothing makes the darkness go
Like the light
Youre shelter from the storm
Give me comfort in your arms
SPOT ON….
CORRECT
ALRIGHT..
but are we not already married in the RAy OF LIGHT>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
Zephyr in the sky at night I wonder
Do my tears of mourning sink beneath the sun
She’s got herself a universe gone quickly
For the call of thunder threatens everyone
Chorus:
And I feel like I just got home
And I feel
And I feel like I just got home
And I feel
Faster than the speeding light she’s flying
Trying to remember where it all began
She’s got herself a little piece of heaven
Waiting for the time when Earth shall be as one
(chorus)
Quicker than a ray of light
Quicker than a ray of light
Quicker than a ray of light
(verse)
And I feel
Quicker than a ray of light
Then gone for
Someone else shall be there
Through the endless years
She’s got herself a universe
She’s got herself a universe
She’s got herself a universe
And I feel
And I feel
And I feel like I just got home
And I feel
Quicker than a ray of light she’s flying
Quicker than a ray of light I’m flying
Waiting for the time when Earth shall be as one
I AM, your UNIVERSE
earth shall BE as one by means of BEing as one with earth, the kingdom of heaven ALL around us.
what we look for has already come, but many there are who do not know what they intuitively subconsciously look for, lacking merely of divine ‘real’ self wisdom atonement acknowledgement, ALL is ONE, past present future…..
forever more
always was
always shall BE
ALL connecteded of affect/effect/direct/indirect……merely of a subtle gracefulness as ‘real’ self which awakens connects with ‘real’ self of another…….
forever more
bless you
walking desert sands
of millenia ago
feeling of hands
reach out so
when we read books, we feel as though we are actually there in the story, of well written books, yes?
where this feeling falls short is when the writter is not of the greater purely surrendering in graceful ‘real’ self, taking time to enter fully into the pure flowing feelings of their ‘real’ self that intuitively knows what we feel, of mere yearning to be allowed to express the pure pure ‘real’ self constant pure love feelings.
one such as Jesus, of most who do not look apon the entire spiritual life Journey Path of the evolving divine ‘real’ self-actualization restorative reaquaintance wisdom adult child of God Jesus, there walking in the same millenia desert sands today, yesterday, tomorrow, his purity compassionate love for others of ‘what it is’ he came to know of his blessed divine ‘real’ self, in so doing, his knowingness certainty ‘what it is’, true of us ALL.
One question Jesus spoke, already knowing the answer, from the no time constraint purity observation spiritual realm of divine ‘real’ self of us all is, “Tell ‘me’ whom i am most like?”
Easily, we can venture back to walking beside Jesus of desert sands, in our knowingness of our divine ‘real’ self of oneness sameness likeness of Jesus of millenia sands, of constant knowingness certainty that every heartbeat, every breath, every graceful step, every graceful touch and every word spoken that eminates from divine ‘real’ self while of being divine ‘real’ self, is always of affect/effect/direct/indirect of the ALL, past present future of millenia sands……..eternally, where without doubt, the grace of Jesus is yet felt by divine ‘real’ self of ALL, here in the present.
blessings to ALL
Forgetfulness Foe
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Once again,
awaiting train,
anticipation gain,
avoiding pain,
friends of foe,
truly i know,
sorrows show,
in you i grow,
down the stair,
of flowers care,
how to bare,
no one there,
love we beget,
not of regret,
when we met,
cannot forget,
avoiding pain,
anticipation gain,
awaiting train,
once again.
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years later i realized why Troy did not get off that train that day long ago.
the homophobic world surround
oh hey, you and i have not met yet!
question is, will we, and do we want 2?
i want 2!
im greedy, i know!
it’s true!
why settle for one, when you can have 2?
you are 2?
hmmmmmm……
many times i felt purely of your love for me, 100% without doubt, other times i don’t.
so what does one do when no one gets off the train, of me standing there alone?
hmmmmmm……
i suppose if i have 2 i should go 2 where i feel like i belong?
i honestly felt we belonged 2gether, but at some point, the obvious shines thru……..no one there.
Real eyes realize real lies?
so long as you feel loved and are happy is all ‘real’ self needs to know.
blessings to ALL
forever more
the door to the kingdom of heaven love devoid of doubt is YOU, the holy joyful absolute carefree happy blessed divine child of God ‘real’ self YOU of us ALL!
peace be to this house
peace be to you
and peace be to you
forever more
Jesus loves ALL
God loves ALL
We love ALL
hear in the kingdom of heaven constant surround Flow of Perennial fresh water, unconditional lovers of ALL, the many in the One and One in the many united as One, of the WorldWide GLBT community, and those who love us like we love ONE another.
blessed is the holy joyful absolute carefree happy blessed divine child of God ‘real’ self YOU of us ALL!
eternal forever more
blessings to ALL
omg, that’s horrible…..
is it true?
blessings to their loving family
how the fuck does a stage collapse?
do they not have safety inspectors constantly paying attention? obviously not!
construction people are so lazy when it comes to safety first, their own worse enemies!
i know, i worked with them for years, dangerously so, until the day i finally realized it was too dangerous an occupation and walked away for good.
take time off and go to the next city, next venue, reschedule………..
morons!
blessings to all
Merely of Wood
~~~~~~~~~~~~
merely of wood,
i understood,
real 2 real,
purely i stood,
merely of wood,
only of good,
real 2 real,
knowing i could,
merely of wood,
no one should,
real 2 real,
die misunderstood,
merely of wood,
not of hood,
real 2 real,
gone for good,
merely of wood,
thinking ‘that’ you’d…
real 2 real,
you know? …good!!!
Merely of Wood comes from a pure place when i found myself pondering a simple piece of wood in my hand, a closeness to Jesus i had not felt before, pure in feeling of my ‘real’ self, where what once was of difficult struggling in my overcoming imagined uncertainties of insecure self(such as false ego transferences of others who speak from unwisely turning towards hypocrisy heart, a manifestation of their own insecure afraid ‘real’ self), i came to a pure place of greater evolving in ‘real’ self-awareness protective knowledge wisdom, at ease easiness of merely understood wisdom i had internalized, feelings of ‘real’ self merely i stood, merely i understood, merely i could, merely of good, merely of ease to come to purely know at ease in being ‘real’ self, of what becomes obvious of what Jesus wants us to purely know, of common sense knowingness of what he too came to know of his own ‘real’ self, prior to his surrendering to mirroring their unwise ego driven hypocrisy heart nailing Jesus to a cross made merely of wood, purely i am there in oneness of what Jesus want us to purely know without doubt, knowing we merely could, if only we would.
I keep coming back to what was most compelling for Jesus to surrender to the hypocrisy heart cross he knew they would unwisely nail him to, and what stands out the most, is not so much the mirroring of the ugliness of the hypocrisy heart, albeit mirroring, beyond that is that we “BE WITHOUT DOUBT!”
as in, “100% i am without doubt of what i came to despise of the generational taught ways we feel how so many unwisely egotistically treat one another in turning towards hypocrisy heart.”
blessings to all
without doubt is the door of the kingdom of heaven love devoid of doubt
forever more
Oh for fuck’s sake Andy….
Who’s that shallow Demon she’s dating…
does he eat pussy
Like your stage is crumbling
I’ll Save you
for
price
$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$………
crumble
tumble
i’ve always
been
humble
your choice
you can fumble
ya know its not evident in his soul, he ain’t just got the life experience to be spiritually jesus, he almost looks naive..
what bothers me is not ones life lacking experience because we all get a chance at life …
what bothers me…
is the wast of TIME…
& your stupid evasiveness, i really am quite bored
ya know its not evident in his soul, he ain’t just got the life experience to be spiritually jesus, he almost looks naive..
what bothers me is not ones life lacking experience because we all get a chance at life …
what bothers me…
is the wast of TIME…
& your stupid evasiveness,
i really am quite bored
enough
to
find a
better
FUCK
Like your stage is crumbling
I’ll Save you
for
price
$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$………
a monsterous thing to say from a wretched heart.
by the time the lawsuits are done, you won’t have a dime to your name.
fuck off
a 23 year old is dead, and another, and it’s like huh? what?
who says something so wretched like this?
i ask, what is the price of a life?
fuck off
my problem is i keep going around esteeming others in a pure light, denying myself the truth of how they are ‘actually’ are in their useless unloving insincere approach with ‘me’.
ya well, not any more
none of you will get near ‘me’ with your emptiness of ‘unreal’ words ever again.
only loving compassionate wise ‘real’ self words are good enough for ‘me’, according to God, according to Jesus, according to ‘me’!
blessings to all
having a hard time absorbing the deaths?
what if it was your child?
ok then, no more trivializing the pure sacredness of blessed life of any, ok?
~
there is no such thing as an accident when it comes to human error and safety considerations, of what is forthmost in the minds of the families of those who died and those injured…….Why?
Construction Accident Facts
The Bureau of Labor Statistics, a part of the U.S. Department of Labor, compiles accident statistics for a wide variety of industries, including construction. The following statistics reflect construction workers in private industry for the calendar year 2003
In 2003 there were 155,420 construction related accidents, of which 152,260 were men and 3,150 were women.
Workers between the ages of 25 and 34 were the most likely to be injured
Most injury cases cause construction personnel to miss more than 31 days of work
Construction workers injure their trunks and backs more frequently than any other part of the body, followed by legs, arms combined injuries.
Construction parts and materials cause the most injuries involving outside sources (33,840), but falls (34,330) and contact with equipment (54,230) make up the other most common injuries.
One out of every 10 construction workers will suffer some form of injury this year.
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why were so many people under and near the operation of lifting a structural component of a structure, as in the entire structure, where when one part fails, the entire structure is placed under stress, hence the collapse.
the deaths are purely of safety inconsideration, a result of incompetence of those in charge, clearly, who were not structual engineers who know full well without doubt what the potential danger of structural failure mathematically when one part of a structure fails, stressing the entire structure.
lawsuits pending, and rightfully so, of moneys that cannot ever be enough to compensate the life of those lost.
the only good thing that can be extracted from this is the error of safety consideration for the future, sadly, it is usually like a none existent traffic light at an intersection, where statistically ten people have to die before action is taken, and a traffic light is installed.
who is to blame?
well, everyone is, when i comes to incompetent safety considerations management, although, when not of education in the true potential danger of structural failure, all you morons are exempt from blame, or at least you were, not any more.
live and learn, as Jesus says, “Life is the greatest teacher.”
~
the purity connection i have purely felt with you was instrumental in establishing what is the door to the kingdom of heaven, a life long struggle Jesus contended with of every step in the millenia sands, so trivializing comments are not welcomed, of what none of you know fully what is of my comprehensive study into what constitutes the wisdom halo kingdom of heaven perspective.
but hey, why should any of you desire to trust, believe or come to know someone of angels purely of my feelings i am intuitively connected with of the eternal spirit realm that i can see and feel, of what has been my experience of pure loving angel spirit presence with me?
i am a delusional nut case and you can all fuck off now, ok?
i am not bitter, just tired of the trival noise nescience of words so many of you are of in your approach with ‘me’.
perhaps i should find another muse?
hey, i know, how about someone ‘real’ as in ‘real’ life courage to fearlessly lovingly gracefully tenderly gently mildly hold my motherfucking hand so that i can get my motherfucking needs met and don’t kill myself like Jesus did in his attempt to teach the blind bound in binding bitter dark cruel petty generational taught egotisms that stem from the generation deluge of the ignorant fathers of all who did/do not purely desire to know God, that existed when Jesus walked the earth, and guess what you heartless blind fuckers….it still exists!
the same battle of love vs hate, wisdom vs ignorance, compassion vs apathy is alive and well here in the present, and without doubt, will continue for generations to come, of God’s knowing, Jesus knowing, my knowing, and any of you who actually give a fuck to take time in pondering where and what is the kingdom of heaven.
again, i am not bitter, rather i am a fool in esteeming others for what they are not…….appropriate for ‘me’!
if motivation empowerment of any generation is not of eternal perspective evolving consideration for growing wisely in divine ‘real’ self-knowingness awareness, then the horrid generational bullshit of all forefathers before us who did/do not purely truly desire to know God, will continue for your own children and their children yet to come………the TRUTH
~
somedays i don’t even know why i bother to come to this blog of trivializing ‘me’ over and over again……..it’s futile annoying mockery that leaves ‘me’ wondering when will the day come when i purely feel, enough is enough?
well, today is that day!
i’ll be at my own blog from now on, and you can come look ‘me’ up someday.
why bother with someone who’s only concern is the bruised trivializing petty ego that goes around mocking others as lessor, when in the eyes of God, every soul is 100% equally precious, just as your own children are precious.
oh, but hey, God forbid AndYY ever had a ‘real’ friendship with Madonna, with Jesus, and truly i tell you……….with God!
go doubt your selves like you love to do, as i purely despise doubtfulness of the purity love i have felt and yet feel all this time.
rant over
argh….i am boiling with emotional unfocused nescience, yes?
clarity, i need clarity
oh yeah, AndYY is a freak, someone to avoid.
fuck off
all of you
i have God, and i don’t need any of you, where i will chose who i let close to me, according to their pure sincerity approach.
game fucking over
blessings to all
in truth, you are as wise as i esteemed you to be, as evident of what you do not wisely speak of or focus, of aimless haphazard mocking approach to divine ‘real’ self love devoid of doubt, of what the kingdom of heaven is, where i eternally stand, beside Jesus and God, where it is not within Jesus and God to look away from us, although in truth, so many of you are purely annoying for ‘me’, toxic cowardicely annoying, leaving me to feel like some freak, where to real freaks are you homophobic fuckers of blindness of harming to your own divine ‘real’ self!
ya, AndYY is a freak!
thank you for leaving me feel this way all this time, as though not worthy of a hand to hold, when in truth, why would i want to hold those of you who enjoy leaving me to feel like a freak?
fuck off
enough
im done
and no, it’s not your fault.
you are just as incompetent a manager as the rest, lacking in wisdom.
we can change the future, not the past, as much as we all truly and purely want to.
my every footstep
and yeah, i purely wanted you for your money…….
ya, that’s what we all want everybody, more money, to fatten our useless fucking petty cruel egos that leave a CHILD of GOD to starve to death!
you people disgust me
i wanted a ‘real’ life friend with you cowards who enjoys purity love of pure ‘real’ spiritual ‘me’, who wakes to the smell of incense burning each blessed morning i wake to, of a precious loving boy from Veitnam that i have loved for so long, pictures of his Mom and Dad now passed blessedly placed at his shrine where he prays each blessed day he wakes to, of thankfulness for each day.
yesterday i looked apon the faces of his parents pictures and said thank you to them, asking forgiveness of them, in how could i turn away from their precious son.
ya, you really know ‘me’
or if you didn’t, maybe now you do?
all any of the ‘real’ you of any of us purely and truly constantly want need think and feel is love.
no matter status
no matter wealth
no matter race
no matter religion
no matter sex
no matter orientation
no matter politic
across all these useless absurd fucking barriers of seperation is the divine trueness aspects of the blessed divine ‘real’ self you Jesus knows, God knows, of what i too came to know just as Jesus came to know, just as ALL are capable of knowing, eternally, no matter what………….the unfailing eternal TRUTHs of this (yet) spiritually impoverished world of the millenia sands where truth is not able to fail or change, rather, it is we who fail or change in purely feeling and being the truth.
ya, for sure, i am all about your fucking money………whatever Mr. Never!
i know without doubt, the spiritual life path Jesus of his every footstep was cause for an uprising behing the great walled cities of Rome, no different than are any uprisings we witness today, of wretched leaders who seek out the leaders of revolution, without doubt, Jesus knew they were looking for him, unable to ever destroy a target they cannot comprehend like they thought they could.
at some point, the depth of feelings of the heart of Jesus was handed back to Jesus by these wretched leaders of unwiseness, who likely placed one of his most beloved apon a cross along the roads that led into the cities of Rome, where they knew Jesus would likely find them, and likely did, of a beautiful day, pure blessed tears of Jesus weeping before one he came to purely love……….
~ just one other pondering of the compelling reasons why Jesus eventually surrendered to the claws of the beast of ignorance.
Jesus and God are 100% attainable
it is this fear controlled world that keeps us all blind from dwelling in our pure hearts, is it not?
ya, for sure, i am all about money everyone, money is what i need to bring Troy back to life!
do purely desire to truly know ‘me’, or do you desire to sell ‘me’, just as all those who claim to know Jesus and God, of these many fearful control freak merchant’s of God?
i want to be surround by love, and already, i am surrounded by love, in the LGBT communities of this bullshit spiritually impoverished world that willingly leaves a CHILD of GOD to starve to death each day!
“what will it take to motivate empower the ALL, that lifts the ALL?”
‘that’ is the question already answered by Jesus, of the senseless willful murdering deathful claws of the beast of ignorance (yet) of this world.
there is only one priority in life we need to embrace, of what life is!
LIFE is LOVE
LOVE is LIFE
without LOVE is spiritual and physical death
We are all born of Physical Life, but we are not all born of the wise Sage Wisdom Words of Spiritual Life, albeit, within ALL is the intuitive flawless feeling knowingness divine child of God’s ‘real’ heart mind body spirit and soul that easily connects with the awakening(born) nurturing protective Sage Wisdom Words of Spiritual Life here in the kingdom of heaven love devoid of doubt.
truly, we all despise mocking doubtfulness of love, do we not?
eternal forever more
i need consise ‘real’ life now, of the only way any of you WILL ever purely and truly know ‘me’
so in approaching ‘me’, consider doing so in ‘real’ life nurturing i want need think feel i am.
you expect the same, do you not?
coward
common sense
blessings to all
anyway, i am not a stable individual, that much is obvious, and so would any of you who live my life.
i have learned that others not purely of graceful sincerity ‘real’ self approach with me, bring out the worse in me…..
ignore my useless annoying emotional nescience ranting and extract what is only of value, the insightful truth that leds to where the divine ‘real’ self you is easily found, dwelling in your hearts.
“Where your heart is, there too shall be your treasure and your life.”
What you turn towards, you become.”
“Be Wise in coming to wisely know and wisely purely be what is constant yearning of your divine child of God ‘real’ self for only flawless love feelings, of what is the sacred mirroring emPOWERing of the ALL that lifts the ALL ushering in of the kingdom of heaven.”
or don’t and be looked apon by all future generations as the unwise generations coming free of the binding in darkness illnesses of heart (yet) of this world, of all generations yet to come who take time to reflect apon the pure truth that none of you truly 100% know God, for if you did, your priorities in life would not be as so many of you (yet) are, apathetic, unwise, and unloving, despised by the eternal future generations yet to come.
ya, part of me yet despises this world, this generation, where my slowing to anger is gradually being replaced by compassion that embraces the truth, it is not forefathers who are to blame, not of any child from the womb of God.
blessings to all
*correction*
it is the forefathers who are to blame, not of any child from the womb of God.
while standing alone in your marble floor palaces, ask yourselves,
” ‘what is it’ a divine child of God coming before you would purely want to know most about you?”
is it not their wanting to know and feel your purity love, flawless in feeling, they are already of?
is this not the priority you seek to constantly be?
morons
blessed is the divine child of God of purity love flawless feeling YOU of us ALL
forever more
fuck off
it is i who will chose you!
biyatches!
fuck, i cannot even spell writte today….
what is life if we do not have appreciation for the living, much less the dead?
and who is of appreciation of ‘real’ YOU?
someone of ‘real’ 2 ‘real’ YOU?
this city life is toxic for me, i miss the country side fresh air, calmness of horses of my youth, at one with nature, the beaches.
slowly of improved approach to healthy ‘real’ self, physically, mentally, emotionally, sexually, spiritually, constantly ALL connected, where truth of untrueness serves the divine ‘real’ self, purely i stand.
anyway, go be of stable minded others, as i am not, in finding my way back to my Self, a slow process of many years, of eventually finding my way out of this self-imposed prison of the mind, the shackling projection transferences, optimistically, i am wise.
blessings to all
my toxic levels are up this week of adjusting boundaries…..noticably.
i get insecure moments sometimes, ya fumbling along in my mind, mornings i am ok, usually.
fumble as in drop the ball?
fumble as in throw the ball away, i don’t want to play games any more?
fumble as in analyze this?
fumble for words to say that cannot come close to expressing like the way some mediums can?
ya, i have had numerous angel visits in my mind, seemingly of an invisible spirit realm who purely know my ‘real’ self, there as purely nurturing of my ‘real’ self.
at first i thought i was skitz, like my brother, and maybe i am, avoiding the clinical fuckers and their billion dollar experimental drug empire analyzing, fearing chemical straight jacketing like my brother, now institutionalized, deeply sad for me.
do you think i am nuts?
my therapists love me, but the clinical ones and their seemingly all knowing omnipotent egotistic eye frighten me.
i think i do suffer with depression, triggering events that send me into horrible tail spins, but nothing too dramatic, no ruminating like before when Troy died, no extreme dysfunction like before…..it’s been a long path of self-help recovery, and i won biyatches.
i actually dread going into clubs and bars now, seeing all the dangerous self-medicating going on.
i am back to my original healthy outdoor fun loving self mostly now, with periodic episodes of emotional storms.
ya, it’s just me, nothing like you in smashing everything like in that truly awesome video, ANALyze this! lol
made ya smile
i am someone alarming when i come unglued, i know, likely my sexual frustration in holding back in celibacy….argh…….ya, that is a problem for me right now…..i am just not going to settle for just anyone this time. Thanh and i are friends, and he will always need my love, but at some point we both have to let go. Friends of mine says it takes a couple years to emotional transition out of a 14 year relationship.
yep, it’s true!
bless you
forgive
Calmness ‘me’
~~~~~~~~~~~~
calmness ‘me’
i am hear
calmness ‘me’
not of fear
calmness ‘me’
graceful true
calmness ‘me’
just like you
calmness ‘me’
virgin spirit
calmness ‘me’
do not fear it
calmness ‘me’
love 2 admire
calmness ‘me’
peace 2 desire
calmness ‘me’
pure in feeling
calmness ‘me’
on the ceiling
calmness ‘me’
can’t you see?
calmness ‘me’
it’s just ‘me’!
this is how i woke this morning, pure in feeling thruout my entire body, self-actualization of my original self, the way i always felt, the calmness serene, of purity love, our virgin spirit as before, attending nurtured, protected of what all the words of Jesus and God revolve around, that you be of this pure feeling thruout, inspite of any and all who may approach us, and their haphazard ways.
it’s just ‘me’
who i always was, still am, of calmness graceful purity love feeling we all once were, still are within, where once of the day we see and feel the light of our pure ‘real’ self, we become of the knowingness focus priority to remain as our pure ‘real’ self flawless feelings, not someone pretending.
if others do not accept us, fuck them, get away from ‘me’!
Come, let us just be, our holy joyful absolute carefree virgin spirit free happiness!
if not, well, fuck off, i love who i am, and so will someone else who genuinely sincerely takes the time to truly and purely know and love ‘me’!
i am seeking who i am!
do you know who i am?
do you know ‘me’?
blessings to all
hear, you try it, calmness ‘me’
think of words to write down that describe calmness ‘me’
it is an excellent experiential technique for coming fully into being ‘real’ self ‘me’, purely grounding, flawless feeling thruout the body, devoid of all the barriers of this spiritually impoverished bullshit world.
how can one love ‘you’ if i don’t purely and truly know ‘me’?
bless you
i love the guitar and piano in this easy listen song,
http://www.imeem.com/popmusic23/music/M9xYsLT3/glen-hansard-and-marketa-irglova-falling-slowly/
argh……some of the covers for this song are really really bad, i mean screeching voices bad bad bad, quick, hit the back button!!!!! lol
no need to be insecure, faith & trust
ha
easier said than done.
i am like a fish out of water with regards to safe environments, like the halfway dry house i am yet in, of drug/alcohol addicts, one a crack addict of 25 years….there is frightful others and then there is frightful others…..you have no idea.
i was afraid at first, turning and asking God what is it that i am to learn at this place of my spiritual journey unfolding insight of my own vulnerable afraid self no different than the one’s with far more severe consequential behavioural self-medication coping vulnerable self they always were, yet are, issues……..
in this light, without doubt, something i have avoided saying, with you i have always wanted, a pure safe and supportive environment that brings to end my ever being afraid again, of what has been my inescapable toxic professional and personal world environments thus far in life.
so fly me to the steps Jesus walked on and meet ‘me’ there some day, as i am actually afraid for my life at this time………
my shit, not yours…….i may as well be open with you, of what is humiliating for me, of both my professional and personal worlds destroyed…….not entirely, praying i will always have you.
bless you
“Reach for ‘that’ which i am unable to reach for.”
what exactly is ‘that’?
well, ‘that’ is a story of great length, as in what is of any divine child of God’s entire life journey, the subconsciously asleep in ignorance unattended heart mind body spirit and soul of any divine child of God we wisely look apon in life, as writters of books, songs, poetry, of the singers of pure fearless delight of the purity love resonating of loving words of their divine self screaming out what is of their own spiritual life evolving purity love knowingness, of artists angst that points to where they have been, the overcoming of darkness paths journeyed, expressed, pointing towards where their intuitive divine self of purely of holy joyful colour constantly yearns to one day constantly dwell in only love, harmoniousness of the divine self of all, the activists who dangerously put their lives out there like they do, the hermetical wise sage monks of devotion only to God, not of any church, not of slaves to this unwise world they purely clearly feel is led away from coming fully into the priority knowingness of what divine self constantly is within us all, obviously left unattended, unnurtured, unprotected, of what is any useless fearful binding snaring taught empty generational egotisms that serve no one, all so empowered that they seemingly KNOW and clearly do not, as evident of the hollow empty mockery words that fall from their lips like those of the control freak drug dealers and their horrid approach they are with me, their minds dark and blind of the one who looks apon them, the divine self of ‘me’, the divine self ‘me’ of them, unknowingly.
the divine child of God of us all awaits the wise return of God to clearly speak directly with the divine child, of what Jesus came to know, his feelings of futile attempts to reach within to the divine child of all he came apon along the road of life……..
my professional world thinks they trashed ‘me’, when in truth, it was i who trashed all of them, of every job i had since hitting the streets i found myself walkin on at too tender an age of 15 from a broken home, where at times i was temporarily afraid to say what i wanted to say, the fearful bullshit mind fuckhead ego driven recriminations they all were of, my futile inability to say how they made me feel, of walking away to let them feel the truth of how they treated me, of calmness ‘me’ restored within days and weeks once free from the negative environments, of professional and personal worlds, all of the limited intellect fortitude consideration of divine ‘real’ self, once again, hear i am, thick skinned to a fault, the screaming rage within that needs channeling into positive approach outcome……
blah blah blah……..
this time around is at times seemingly the worse as i don’t want to return to the so called professional world i feel i have quit for good this time, purely of no desire to return, expecting the same mindfuck bullshit i dread contending with for one second, much less an entire day…….
my first great passion in life was guitar and still is deeply, purely within, an artist life i know is where my heart is, of daily dwelling in our pure of heart harmoniousness that knows only love is all we want to feel all blessed day long.
music, singing, dance, art, writting, all of it the open door for the divine child of God of any to have permission to express what is of the divine ‘real’ self, yeah, i know where i belong, and in truth, it does not require moneys to do so, as far as becoming an accomplished musician, something i learned in youth, that my practicing led to realizing i was as accomplished as Liona Boyd, of great delight i always felt in weekly returning of those at our jam sessons of adult band playing accomplished musicians with the likes of Kris Kristopherson and Gordon Lightfoot, their shock of how i became better than them, of what was always of their inspiring me the entire time………
Coming back to what exactly was Jesus reaching for, i know without doubt, it is the harmonious intuitiveness place of divine self that any accomplished musician can attest to when they enter into that pure place of resonating strings and voices……..only love feels good.
of all, including the lost souls of drug addiction, there within is the divine child of God purely feeling listening each day of the place i know you too love to always dwell as accomplished musicians, from one accomplished musician to another……..purely i know.
the string instruments are my favorite
i am a composer now, and it is time i take my life seriously and get back to practicing and writting, as my spelling as a writter sucks!!!!!!!!!!!! lol
DESTINATION HOME, dwelling in that pure place we KNOW!
bless you
how does the story end for ‘me’, i don’t know, although currently, it does this is seemingly the worse time of my life, seemingly stuck in wrong places i dread being, of what is yet my running home to the ‘real’ self musician i am.
ie…one of them stole one of my guitars and sold it for drugs.
it was a peice of shit Les Paul copy, and i was glad to be rid of it actually.
accomplished musicians refuse to play on shit instruments, it’s true, yes?
a waste of time indeed
in the end, it has always been about coming back home to self, who i always was, yet am, feeling the best is yet to come from this pure place i yearn to dwell constantly dwell that i first came to know in my youth, pure in feeling………it’s time, no more excuses, i am going to kick all your sorry asses!!!!!!!!!!!!
that is if i survive this train wreck that keeps trying to have it’s way with ‘me’, dangerously so.
walking away has always been the only way out for me, and that is exactly what i have to do, no matter what, i simply have to get away from toxic places fearful in nature, in order that i am able to dwell for long periods of time in the pure of heart place like we do, the radiant brilliant bright light that shines forth from doing so like it does and has for any musician in the world.
can you imagine a world without music?
it’s bad enough, but without music……..argh, i can barely bare this world, much less a world with music!
i just wish some of you would fearlessly slow into the pure of heart place of dwelling and create more pure of heart fearless work.
at the end of life, what we leave behind is all anyone hears, where when one dies, they are usually forgotten, and this is what is sacred for us to embrace, to be of motivation empowerment that the future generations are listening to YOU right now in this moment!
cool eh?
and for those of you who rattle on and on over the same lame boring ass bullshit as last week, “SHUT THE FUCK UP, OK???!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol
what a beatiful peice this is,
http://www.imeem.com/popmusic23/music/M9xYsLT3/glen-hansard-and-marketa-irglova-falling-slowly/
“what ‘you’ look for, has already come.”
“reach for that which i cannot reach.”
purity love inner happiness knowingness is of any divine child of God, no matter how oppressed the environment may, what ‘you'(divine ‘real you) look for has already come, where intuitively, the divine child of God knows without doubt the truth of any oppressive environment, pure in feeling truth, where the eventuality of oppression sees the divine child of God muster up the courage to fearlessly ‘be’ their purely unafraid divine ‘real’ self, reaching for words to speak they may not yet be of atonement acknowledgement of with Jesus and God and the divine fearless purity love mirroring of evolved others of their wise faith and trust knowingness certainty of the divine child of God within they have taken time to nurture, attend to and protect, of what it is we all reach and look for already come, seemingly unable to reach when of any oppression of divine child of God’s intuitive purity love heart mind body spirit and soul
purely i know
purely i grow
bless you
when the divine child ‘real’ you comes into the eternal no time constraint awareness realm, while dwelling purely there in meditative thought, you eventually come fully into purely feeling your divine purity love of ‘real’ self you, where it is, always has been, always shall be, merely the lacking wise articulation true words which describe the divine ‘real’ self you there, is it not?
with this also comes the knowingness certainty ‘weight’ of these wise pure true words which do not change, beyond the immediacy merely of today or merely of the generation you are of, rather, of what is our oneness sameness motivational empowerment, the clear undenial truth of our clarity……….these wise words are without doubt, the weight of all generations of the unborn children of God yet to come.
blessed are you who come fully into the intuitive purity love of your divine ‘real’ self who feel the divine eternal weight of the divine life and death wisdom words of Jesus and God of divine will objective meant for the divine child of God past present future, where it is you the divine child of God ‘real’ you who ‘purely feel’ the truth of the words spoken by Jesus.
blessed are you the divine child of God ‘real’ you who is there of your purity love feelings
forever more
bless you
ask another if they know what the divine will objective of Jesus and God is, and most do not know concisely the answer, where you can bring to not an end to your doubt if any are of the wise knowingness certainty without doubt the divine ‘real’ you and i are of, without doubt, the world does not purely know as we do of what all the divine will wisdom words of Jesus and God eternally revolve around.
Holy Joyful Absolute Carefree Blessed Spirited Happiness set free from all the false generational teachings of the forefathers before Jesus, before us, yet here all around us hear in the kingdom of heaven purity love devoid of doubt where we dwell, purely in our loving hearts where the divine child of all intuitively constantly yearns to always be found, surrounded by love devoid of useless absurd doubt of all these useless unwise barriers between the divine child of you all past present and there in the eternal future.
bless you bless you bless you all
forever more
Everyone one is on their own path for sure manifesting, consciously or unconsciously the experiences their soul requires to grow and evolve and those souls that participate in that certain reality are also creating the experience, be it the victim, the perpetrator or whatever role is required be it consciously or unconsciously.
By trying analyse the experience without the knowledge the experience is yet to attain is to be judgemental for the Soul is yet to learn and understand what is occurring for the Soul would not have created the experience if it already had the understanding.
Even the false teachings of the forefathers before Jesus, ANDY serve a purpose to provide for a setting by which the TRUTH in contrast can be shown to be, that which it is.
It is important to understand what is and has occured, and is constant, the process which guide our wisdom and understanding af who we all really are, it is best to not dwell so much on the processes themselves rather understand them for what they are and focus on where they are taking us now.
easier said than done, hey… sometimes its easer to do than say, easier to feel than fear, easier to love than hate, easier to be than run. easier to know than throw, ( away ).
We can all change the world, once we understand the reasoning behind processes in which the world is functioning today, the purpose behind it all we can be free to learn without judgment the ultimate destination of all our united souls, and truly create a Heaven on Earth.
ok that’s my ramble for then day..
now come spank me.
By trying analyse the experience without the knowledge the experience is yet to attain is to be judgemental
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ya, that is why God says, “Do not speak of what you yourself do not clearly know what you are talking about.”
while at times i am of scattered thought process, perhaps of too much caffine, not enough sex, or just plan pissed off for what ever reason……..i wonder what that could be………..argh……….what i am actually doing thru introspection at this time, is allowing myself to fearlessly explore my ‘real’ self, giving permission in to first feel and then attempt to ‘articulate’ describe in words as associated with the wise prodding cathardic words of Jesus and God………from there i return again and again and build apon the constant evolving expanding macro thinking……..of what is my annoying repetitiveness for some………which is a good thing regarding ‘forgetfulness foe’ of our divine ‘real’ self left unattended and submerged, gripped by the fear binding oppressive motherfucking bullshit mindfuck oppression of this fucked world!!!!!!!!!!……*cough*………..sorry…….
i am doing quiet well of recent, of the greatest level of clarity so far in life, knowingness certainty purity love replacing useless uncertainty as before while of youth, where i did not have the articulation wisdom, not yet spiritual born.
if i have annoyed any, clearly that has not ever been my intent, merely feeling you too were of curiousity like my own, of our seeking articulation.
you have not spoken openly of your own evolving process, which i know is of great length like my own, if anything, of me catching up with you.
faith and trust
well, ya, faith and trust purely of divine ‘real’ you descerning ‘real’ self loving compassionate wise words is what awakens attends to, nurtures and protects divine ‘real’ self of another, where faith is a misunderstood word when it comes to words of God.
it took me along time to reach a place of 100% connectivity with God’s faith in me, my trusting in God, where eventually i realized, “Oh, God is assisting the divine ‘real me’, knowing without doubt the world i dwell in led astray, for sure, i purely know, trusting only in God and those of wise awake divine ‘real’ self, which i know you are, but you do not 100% trust me, and nor should you openly trust just anyone, they have to earn it.
and where trust stops and starts is when the divine ‘real’ self fully recognizes the evolved level of ‘real’ self of another, where we are all constantly evolving, sorta like how we first feel apon entering a dance club, after awhile we evolving to the magical child level of inner pure happiness(good transe music) rejoicing.
same with relationships, time to grow together, of quality time.
i know i am somewhat alarming at times, but no different than the way you scream express you?
Even the false teachings of the forefathers before Jesus, ANDY serve a purpose to provide for a setting by which the TRUTH in contrast can be shown to be, that which it is.
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darkness serves the enlightened ones, by means of the truth of the untruths, which only the divine ‘real’ self is purely able to see and feel all truths.
ya, ushering in the kingdom of heaven the divine child of God of us all is constantly intuitively of deep within the core of their being, of Jesus’ knowing, of God’s knowing, of we knowing Jesus, God and our divine child of God’s ‘real’ heart mind body spirit and soul eternal.
lead AS the divine child of God’s heart mind body spirit and soul ‘real’ self……….Just be YOUr ‘real’ Self!
leather or wood?
*gasp*
what’s this??!!!!!!!!!!
HOT CANDLE WAX?!!!!!!!!!!!!
YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
“OH COME ON, have faith, trust me, you will love it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol
there is something i have not spoken of, as regards my faith in wise descerning of what are the ‘real’ words of Jesus and God, and what may be interpretive words of another who recorded them, and that concern appears in the Gospel of Judas as regards the plausible error of stars being that of the movement of the six solar system planets they thought were stars…….
for me, this tosses the entire plausibility of God the universe out the window, in my turning towards all life perhaps beginning the way scientists today recently claim, of what comes from water, iron, and i forget the other element, when under extreme high temperatures and pressures, such as impact of astroids, the creation of amino acids are created, according to astroid impact recent tests that proved it.
ah, it’s a beautiful world we all share with one another, and at the end of the day, i just want to feel loved with another and others, a family one day, of what you and i have always been all this time, the extended family of the worldwide LGBT family that you were of before i came out.
i do not want to read too much into our relationship beyond that, but if you invite me on a date someday, well, hey, i will cum!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol
im bad, i know
ya, at this point in time of the universe, we may be the only life in the universe.
i don’t know, ya know, ever since youth, i have always beholded the universe of such incredibleness, surely, there is more going on than we obviously DON’T KNOW!
oh sorry, too much wax??
i’ll go slow
only love is good enough for you & me and all of thee
i want a family
purely, i always have wanted a family
i mean ya, i have a family………….coming home i guess is what i am doing, yes?
bless you all
from one bisexual to another, ask your female friends, “Do you like sex with a female?”
and your male friends, “Do you like sex with a male?”
usually leaves them with a stunned perplexed look of denial truth.
ha
speaking of sex, i was reading that condoms in India cost 13 cents, while condoms in Itally are $1.58
well, ya, hello, everyone knows Italians have the biggest cocks!!!!!!!!!! lol
speaking of penis size, according to Kinsey interviews they did way back when(which most don’t know), they asked 5,000 males their penis size during the research, and get this, the homosexual males all had larger penis sizes!
although, ask any homosexual male if they lie about their penis size, and well, the truth is these gay boys often get confused about the question of penis size of their own penis they have and the penis size they want. lol
seriously though, more research reveals that heterosexual men worry more about penis size than do gay men.
and yes, the gay males partners with larger penis size, stupid question, are the tops in relationships.
argh……..who comes up with these stupid questions?!!!!!!!!!
oh, i we would just drive each other ‘crazy’ if we got together……..crazy in love that is!
so ya, from one bisexual to another………
hey, did you know this year is the first year of a Gay Pride Festival in Shanghai, China?
yep!
In Uganda, homosexuality is still punishable by death
i was shocked to read the HIV+ status traveling ban was only recently lifted by the USA, last year 2008, that was in effect since 1993.
that’s stigmatizing bullshit that keeps many from being open about their status.
this world is so friggin immature, yes?
i was thinking we need to do more for awareness awakening connectedness of divine ‘real’ self of us all across all these divisional barriers, and we need to be consistent about it.
i mean what is it with the West Bank anyway, with it’s stupid walls?
has not changed much, has it, since Jesus walked there?
we need to speak directly to the divine child within all, not of differences, but of what is oneness sameness divine child ‘real’ self of all.
we all enjoy film, music, arts, sports, computers, sex exactly the same way across all these ignorant barriers of the forefathers.
right now we have a weapons hold with Iran, but why should we hold back from a pre-emptive strike if they don’t come friendly to the table with trusting transparency?
after all, it is they who stood up and declared all of Israel will be wiped of the face of the earth.
they want sanctions lifted, well, sure, no problem, but we are concerned of these unwise false teachings of the forefathers you may yet embrace.
Love and Peace purely is not of any divine child of God pointing a weapon at anyone with willfulness in their heart to kill.
i was chatting with an A-Wall soldier yesterday who killed 17 people in Afganistan as a sniper, who expressed his entire life to me of how he ended up as a soldier, like that of his father, a soldier, who put weapons in his hand as a child, the child becoming fixated with the power of the weapons growing up, coming home completely messed up over killing 17 people he grew to love over the course of the past three years he was there.
all learned behavioural of the unwise forefathers that Jesus speaks of, then, today, tomorrow.
that is the purity love understanding wisdom of God’s divine will meant for ALL past present and the entire eternal future………and we are going to continue to see this unwiseness unfold so long as leaders do not embrace………the TRUTH.
Afganistan is an opium drug war.
Iraq is a strategic base on Iran’s doorstep.
What many may not know is if Iran is more than just Iran……..say Russia or China oil trade……….
embracing our enemies, who are not our enemies, always it is the forefather teachings, is our only opportunity to avert disaster, but how?
lots and lots of meetings, talking, purely talking for sake of becoming friends, i feel is what we have to do. Invite them to talk as friends openly about these false teachings of the forefathers.
if we keep treating them as enemies, they in turn treat us as enemies.
so what are the common lines of friendly discussion political seperation of church?
well, economic considerations are of reward for both sides, with us, or with other nations, and that is the problem.
where are we in G8 protocal on Iran?
well, where we need to be, together as one, lest they take up sides in continuing futility of creating warring factions that gets handed down again and again to the generations of the unsuspecting children of God unborn yet to come, of their too pondering just as Jesus did, is this the kingdom of heaven yet left unattended all this time?
sure feels like it to ‘me’
i say weapons hold until we get friendly transparency with Iran……….which may or may not come, depending on wisdom embraced, ‘that’ of both sides.
‘that’ is the choice
blessings to all
leather, wood is un-animated, as such is the the whole gay transexual lesbian, facade, i find my “straight” “flexible” friend’s like Jack more appealing because I can cuddle and show affecton to him in the knowing that that he don’t mind and it’s real then i can enjoy his company & enjoy watching him pick up his girls for the night… true love he’s straight bi i’m bi straight, neather of us are gay its all quite real…..
omg im in love with a straight girl and a straight boy…
will some one come bend me.. ???
ok…
spank me at least
there is alot of case study research in transexuality that may appear as a facade to others, purely not for the ones of the experience of transexuality, and that is the disconnect between those who know of their own life experience and those who do not.
while a facade may exist as to the argruements of dynamics of transexuality, the debate continues into possible truths that may not be fully understood at this time.
i will say this though, i do purely 100% know my female self sexuality of 20 years as a gayboy bottom, where i purely do feel as though 100% female sexually speaking, purely of my own introspecting of my feelings.
explaining it too others is seemingly futile though for those not of life experience of their other primal innate sexual behaviour in their brain, a door that many of us love to FEARLESSLY EXPLORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol
oh yeah, i love being fucked fuckers!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and those lame asses out there not up to the challenge, well, your fearful loss of what is our delight of role playing of any of us in the worldwide LGBT community.
forever more
blessings to all
i love both my sexualities equally, although i am hesitant as a bisexual to entertain relationships with those not of joyful delight role playing, of what has been my gay bisexual lifestyle for the past 20 years.
i am looking for who i am, a gay bisexual transgender bender!
or it could be i am looking for someone who loves my entire body as much as i do theirs?
perhaps………
entirely up to those who love to explore ‘their’ sexuality, a door that is unable to close for any one.
i don’t think we are any of these names we identify our sexual lifestyles with, when in truth, i 100% believe in primal innate sexual behaviour is of all female brains, all male brains, primal innate from the beginning, a evolving understanding yet of research of what we all are 100% equally the same as, one reproductive eternal human being, that without each other, well, how would that feel?
LOVE IS LIFE
LIFE IS LOVE
forever more
bless you
oh but hey, God forbid we talk about these false generational taboo gripping fears your divine children self destruct from, of who hold the highest risk for suicide that comes from lack of accepting environments, the resulting self-medicating coping of internal homophobias, the slashing of wrists, the suicide attempts, the suicide deaths………
no, we would not want to save our own children, now would we?
so many parents out there who feel their precious loving children of suicide attempt and suicide death, where some parents deny themselves the educational truth widely available, even after their child dies.
a sad yet unattended world.
gays, lesbians, bisexuals, trans, or what ever name you identify with, are not deviant perverts everyone………in truth, they are more purely of ‘real’ self love than most of you realize or take the time to care and know.
to you parents out there, know that 10% of the population is estimated to be LGBT, that each of your own children are of 10% high risk behaviours that comes with your silence with your children, who may not speak opening and loving from an accepting educated perspective you may be lacking of, of your unknowing how dangerous their lives may be of when you do not educate yourselves on homosexuality.
personally i am tired of funerals, praying one day for a higher understanding of pure science conclusiveness that reveals we are all of primal innate sexual behaviours of both male and female, and end once and for all the debate in this truly (yet) unwise unloving apathetic evolving world of suffering.
wise are those who pay heed to one who takes time to offer you advice, lest you learn from your own sufferings along life’s eternal blessed road, past present future.
blessings to all
going once, going twice .. SOLD
something’s in life are real, something’s are a fantacy
and something’s have a heart of Gold…
Priceless ……
mwah
we are all at the instant of creation female, at a point during the 9 month gestation period where the the x cromo’s go a bit hay wire some embrio’s starts to grow a big italian you know what and anyway out pop’s a boy… some boy’s grow up and get it chopped off and become an female again, some grow up and spend their whole life trying to put it back into the female again and others get insecure about it so they spend their whole life grabbing other’s big you know what’s in order to understand it…
as for the embrio’s that don’t go through all that drama, they just wait patiently for the big XY homo, i mean XY cromo, ( my spelling is terrible today) to get it together…
Y because , that’s the way it is.. X X X .. xy
do you want me to be your editor Andy, i can express your novel’s into a paragraph add a bit of humor, people loose interest after 30 second’s you need to win them over within 29second’s,
except when it comes to love, there is no time frame, just love,
except for sex you’d be lucky if a man can hold off for a day let alone 15 years, NOT that SEX is IMPORTANT or ANYTHING..
i understand the reasoning behind love & the greater love to sacrifice love if it is toxic, (perhaps justified as self love,) i am less tollerent with hipocracy ( even if it can be justified if one believe’s its own toxicity is contained )
Ultimatly two one’s of the same yoke could work together to contain, ( the contained toxidity ) anything else could be percieved as an exscuse to fear the ultimate fear be it fear of love of the same, one’s greatest fear, or just love itself…
& i don’t use the work love, loosly, as many do…
only love know’s love.
love…
you gotta love it …
i do …
i just found a way to make my first $Million, create a blog that has fucking spell check, Google suck my italian haha,
i know what your thinking, WOW !!! ( oop’s that was Kylie )
your thinking OWOH he’s VOCAL today must be on drug’s, well actually IM NOT… it’s a natural high must be the current planitary alighnment or maybe its the knowing of what is about to CUM
anyway i saw kylie’s mum walking down toorak rd last night, my friend michael pointed her out to me then made me laugh saying kylie got her show girl inspiration from watching her mum boogie at her house parties when she was a little girl funny well to me anyway being a melbourne boy.. brings back memories, kylie not the party lol… im having a kylie day today.. ohh i love kylie she’s pretty special … getting married soon i hear… congrat’s you deserve it.. everyone deserves true love..
Madonna hello, you there ?
where did Madonna go ?
Andy, you ass , you beat me too her …
lol….you are joyFULLy excited within Marco, a blessed purity love thing of fearless divine self.
the balance is always leaning towards harmoniousness loving light in likeness rather than these exterior unlikenesses of the rude and grude generational shortsighted egotism facade masks.
purely i want you to purely know and love me from my perspective that you too would be of if you lived my life thus far, of where i purely am, being so far advanced in coming to know my female self 100%, where i want you to know without doubt, 100%, i truly do physically feel as though a female body sexually, where what is purely absurd is to think that i do not love the female self you, given the evolved perspective i now am of after decades of self awareness.
our bodies are purely of exact functions which have to be embraced for what each and every function of our bodies is firstly of primal continuation eternally, where the purity of 100% is what is primal from the beginning, and this is the purity perspective most do not FULLy embrace from a wise awakened awareness that comes from extensive period of time in truly coming FULLy into this massive wise light awareness perspective, sorta like wishing to hand some one a University degree, unable to do so, where they too have to spend the required time dwelling within the wise light to purely feel what is of primal understanding, so much so, it gradually eventually brings end any of these bullshit exterior shortsighted, clearly and obviously apathetic limited understandings of the generational self serving inharmonious egotism mask that mascarade as being of the primal purity of God’s eternal insight, where purely, we are ETERNAL creatures from the primal beginning, exactly as we were in the beginning, yet are, and, now get this everyone, “A million years from now, the exact same primal of you will be there!”
argh………people and their boring ass limited shortsighted loud screaming fearful egotism purely annoy me, in a good way, of energies that i channel into my on going research running towards dwelling in pure harmonious light.
i mean look and feel the absurdness of some of these wretched ego masks yet here in this world, clearly of the same shortsighted treachery understandings of the forefathers of so many generations ago, such as the yet stoning to death of adultery in Iran, an age old fucking horrid inharmonious delusional petty ego from so long ago, the truth that the same forefathers and all their ignorance are yet walking about today.
well people, get ready, because in God’s armory is where we stand, of what we purely have and WILL continue to build apon, eternal fortitudes of primal beginning purity harmonious love understanding, eternal compassions for more primal beginning understanding, of where we constantly yearn to dwell, of primal natural occuring harmoniousness yearning to dwell where we dwell, in an eternal reproductive body of the creature called the human being.
lol
good morning love
what did i miss?
ya, of course i am of 100% primal purity love desire to be with a female, as i am 100% of female.
to think other wise is abusrd
and i feel this is what you may not purely fully embrace what is of my evolved purity love feelings of my female self in complete harmoniousness with my male self, united as one with no shortsighted discords i learned to discard over time.
it’s like being a professor i suppose, where of last words to a student who out of frustration in class who is grappeling with their frustration to let go of fear into primal fearlessness that opens wide into wisdom light, where i say to the student of unwise manifesting words falling from their lips, tripping over themselves, “Go think and feel what ever you want, not to worry, in time, you too will come fully into the light i speak of, of wise words that will be left here in a book for you, for all generations yet to come, for you to one day evolve into the truth of where i already was, perhaps long after i am gone.”
i am a student scientest seeking primal understanding, purely of wise articulation words that describe the primal purity love i 100% feel and know without doubt……….i am 100% flawlessly ‘that’ which is of the primal eternal beginning.
blessings to all
look, i fucking love you damn it, of blessed tears that reveal how much i purely do, and i am frustrated i am not yet of holding your hand as a friend, as a potential lover i know i truly am, equally frustrated in not allowing myself to compromise what i am, both male and female.
Jesus spoke of this as well, and is why part of my study is of what appears as God speaking thru Jesus.
we just don’t know what may have created us, offspring of an alien life force entity in the universe, what’s outside the universe, or are we a fluke of nature.
well, what we are is of primal eternal beginning flawless healing feeling, merely lacking the clarity articulation wisdom words, and that is what is of my body of work.
bless you
i love you
truly from within, you aint’ missed a thing babe…
you got it, all
oh i get it,
truly from within you. within truly me…
me & you…
ok ifeel it. 🙂
withing you 🙂 🙂
Within…
omhg… i can spell…
spell… ??
LOVE …
LOL ….
LOTS OF LAUGHS
LOTS OF LOVE
hey, where did Matt go……….i don’t understand………..he said he loved me………..love within…………still there within…………purely i know…………he is still thinking of me this i know………….just as i too think of him………..purely within!
the kingdom of heaven is love devoid of doubt
fear is what fucks it all up for us everyone!
someone like Matt, i came to purely know my feelings for him, knowing had i been his age, with him i would wanted to run thru life with………purely i know.
when we feel purely of love someone has for us, like a magical child all aglow, truly i tell you, that is what heaven constantly is!
by chance we met
blessedly i know Matt was for a revealing reason, my own purity love of ‘real’ self he purely is, and that is what i know within, why i know he too still thinks of me, where ever he may be in life, knowing what ‘real’ me feels, that reveals the truth, no matter how they hide, they too feel as i do.
forever more Matt
bless you bless you bless
the kingdom of heaven is love devoid of doubt
trust me, i do not doubt, and is why i know, purely i know, purely we grow.
well, i feel after all this time i deserve to know what i already know, so hide if you must, does not matter, i already know just as i did then, ya, i love(d) you Matt.
still do
what heaven constantly is babe……
do you think heaven is something else other than your purity love?
purely you know
and that is how i know
same as you
blessings to all
i deserve to know, makes no sense to me, of something that felt so real for us both.
im not going anywhere, so someday, let ‘me’ know, what we already know biyatch!
i love you
silence = death
so how does one know when another is of their emotional honesty in purely loving of you?
you know, that pure pure place of only constant yearning love for someone to be with them the rest of your life, to think other wise seemingly not possible, the ever hopeful praying divine ‘real’ self, unable to ever let go?
oh sorry, talking about ‘me’ again, an annoying habit i have……..
well, for starters, they don’t toss you excuses
their heart wide open in sweet anticipation for more of the radiant brilliant bright loving light exactly that of their own emotional honest purely ‘real’ self.
and oh how purely sweet loving we truly are!
for me, it there is no questioning of whether or not a certain someone was meant for me and i for them, rather it is the wondering why of their fearful staling of what we both already knew…………..what we always wanted.
within us, is the sweet thought anticipation of loving interaction constant yearning, the holding of hands, the kissing, the………..knowing………..always knowing………..love so pure it overcomes all previous foolish fear, kicks down the door forever more, and runs to everlasting eternal loving life, our pure spirits set free to eternally be what we are, eternal holy joyful absolute carefree happiness………….where we already know 100% what happiness is within, of our anticipation thoughts, wondering if the other feels the same way, the dreams we have, the knowingness certainty that we truly do love them………..if only we knew if they felt the same way too………….the sad waiting, the eventual waning, the silent goodbyes…………all of lies.
argh……….
about as much fun as a wet pair of socks!
ya know, Matt was purely the most radiant brilliant bright light i had ever met in life, so pure, likeness of my ‘real’ self, where what makes me wonder is if i yet feel the love we felt for one another just as i did then, then without doubt, i know he too feels exactly as i am……….
an eternal love
because it is purely who we are within
so ya, he may not show me what i already know, where i realize i am his evolved future self!
don’t believe me?
hmmmmmmm…….
how about some experiental fun?
When i say something, you reply, “Ya, i know.”
ok…..here we go……
“i love you Matt!”
“Ya, i know.”
“i will always love you Matt!”
“Ya, i know.”
“i wanted to spend the rest of my life with you Matt!”
“Ya, i know.”
“i used to be afraid like you Matt!”
“Ya, i know.”
“i know how you feel Matt!”
“Ya, i know.”
“you too where what i always wanted Matt!”
“Ya, i know.”
“You are so beautiful to me Matt!”
“Ya, i know.”
“You will always be so beautiful to me Matt, forever!”
“Ya, i know.”
“It was your unaccepting family and internal homophobia.”
“Ya, i know.”
“It’s a horrible place to feel so purely beautiful inside, of love withheld!”
“Ya, i know.”
“The feelings are overwhelmingly powerful pure unable to subside!”
“Ya, i know.”
“Our feelings Inside reveal to us we will always be loving friends Matt!”
“Ya, i know.”
“You have no idea how i one day would feel in meeting you, seeing and feeling your radiant smiling face Matt!”
“Ya, i know.”
“The kind of feeling you don’t ever want to stop feeling Matt!”
“Ya, i know.”
“i love you Matt!”
“Ya, i know.”
“i want to always feel this love i have for you Matt, knowing i always will!”
“Ya, i know.”
“Truly, i really am exactly like you Matt!”
“Ya, i know.”
“How happy we would of been as eternal friends and lovers Matt!”
“Ya, i know.”
“I purely feel someday we will meet, knowing the incredible feeling i feel like i do when ever i think of you Matt!”
“Ya, i know.”
“This is a wonderful day of affermation, yes?”
“Ya, i know.”
“Saying what you always wanted to express, yes?”
“Ya, i know.”
“…………without doubt”
“Ya, i know.”
“articulation of what you always wanted and always will be, just like ‘me’ Matt!”
“Ya, i know.”
“i love you i love you i love you Matt!”
“Ya, i know.”
huh?
~
we are all at the instant of creation female, at a point during the 9 month gestation period where the the x cromo’s go a bit hay wire some embrio’s starts to grow a big italian you know what and anyway out pop’s a boy… some boy’s grow up and get it chopped off and become an female again, some grow up and spend their whole life trying to put it back into the female again and others get insecure about it so they spend their whole life grabbing other’s big you know what’s in order to understand it…
as for the embrio’s that don’t go through all that drama, they just wait patiently for the big XY homo, i mean XY cromo, ( my spelling is terrible today) to get it together…
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i have decided i am not chopping it off
i enjoy both my male and female self
as for breasts, well, that is something i have not fully evolved in, and i really don’t want to paint myself into a painful corner where potential, as time runs out over the next 20 years, i may not attrack my soulmate lover to me, who likewise, is not of well adjusted evolving, hence, the potential avoidance, of what i witness with most of the single unmarried transexuals who are in transition.
no, i love being my gay self, 100%………without all your useless bullshit doubtfulness.
you know, that’s something Matt and i had, 100% without doubt within of our purity love homosexual self………..100% BIYATCHES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i don’t know what happened, the age thing i guess, ya, i am alot older physically, yet within us all is the pure truth that we all want to feel 100% loved by another who is without doubt of wanting to spend the rest of their life with us………….ya, that’s how i felt for Matt, naturally so, just as he did, just as i yet do, just as i know he does too.
huh? other’s get insecure about it, grabbing others you know what?
that is such a load of fucking grap Marco!
you are totally clueless of our pure homoerotic feelings!
what part of purity love holy joyful absolute carefree true happiness in spending every single second with the most beloved one you will ever meet?
and best of all, i know i will always love Matt………….eteranlly without doubt!
you people and your limited shortsightedness emotional dishonesty and fearful phobias……..argh……..
every second!
holy joy
anyway, i have presented myself here along time, openly expressing fearless articulation, and if any of you yet have any emotional honesty regarding me and my future life of holy joy, please let me know, as it is time to go………….
i do not enjoy feeling empty in feeling of one sided conversations………..
just my constant hopefullness?
or is it true, one of you purely does love me the way i do 2?
please, i deserve to know
bless you
oh forget, i already know…..
AndYY fell in love with Matt, didn’t i?
yes, 100%, i did, and still feel the way i do, i love Matt!
he walked away, what could i do, but keep at my art consistent turning within of work inspired by him, meant for him, for all the Matt’s in the world.
question is…….
was Matt a fictional playwright character someone created?
was Matt a ‘real’ person?
was Matt both a ‘real’ person as felt by a playwright?
~
well, 100% Matt felt purely as a ‘real’ person of emotional honesty intensity exactly like my own, and of higher intellect self-love knowingness awareness devoid of doubt purity love feelings exactly like my own.
How does the story end?
well……….this is what is the sacred gate of the kingdom of heaven, so slow into your real self and pay attention.
Jesus said, “Those who purely know me, love me, and love God”
Matt knows me in the same exact way he knows his pure of heart ‘real’ self, just as i do, do as i do, and that is the only way one can truly know and love me, 100% without doubt, every inch of my body, just as i do Matt, which Matt purely and truly felt/feels the truth, i do.
the opening of the gate of the kingdom of heaven is pure of heart surrender to our pure of heart ‘real’ self-love that is both of our self and self of another, of 100% oneness sameness, where there is no element of betraying useless doubt, the truth, i know i could be(en) Matt’s friend and lover, the same way he can/will love another, just as they will him, 100% without doubt.
the kingdom of heaven i came to know standing beside Jesus is 100% devoid of useless absurd doubt……………..now get this………………ETERNALLY!
eternal love
ya, that is what i am for Matt, eternally loving of him, and in knowing this of how i feel, in his expressing, “What i have always wanted!” he too was/is of surrendered ‘only love’ for me, and ‘that’ is what the kingdom of heaven is.
so please, save your trivializing nonsense, and useless lame ass counter attacks for someone else, as this is what is the kingdom of heaven is……………..without doubt.
from this came good, that purity love art work left behind eternally for all generations yet to come, and God willing, some more added later over the next two decades.
so is Matt ‘real’?
‘real’ as ‘me’!
100%
without doubt
just what the art work constantly does, evoke purity love ‘real’ feelings for all.
what a true artist does, not for fame or fortune, of ‘real’ self expressing.
in truth, i do not want an explaination of Matt, of life excuses, only what i am deserving of some day, that he come and hold my hand in tenderness of love like his own.
Matt purely was the most beautiful cathardic experience of my life that helped me finally deal with healing of Troy’s suicide that i had to go thru in order to come to know ‘me’ and who i know i purely am……
i am the truth, the way, and the life!
forever more
thank you Matt
God bless Matt
Jesus loves you
God loves you
We love you
and for sure,
i love you Matt!
eternal love
is only good enough for you, for all
bless you bless you bless you all
thank you Jesus
thank you God
thank you Matt
thank you all
blessings to all
forever more
how can one ever enjoy ‘real’ life, without first coming to know ‘real’ me?
and now
it’s time
for ‘real’ life everyone
God blesses you ALL
eternally forever more
always did
i was always us who did not fully realize how sacred pure our pure of heart purity love is, like Matt’s, like ‘me’.
forever more
Just BE yOUR ‘real’ Self!
Well, it was a year ago that we parted, where each day i woke in sweet anticipation of the our growing friendship that was pure and true in feeling for both of us at the time, an eternal loving feeling of not wanting to ever say goodbye, both of us of the same joyfulness we felt like we did within for each other………
a year went by………..
i don’t know why, the emotional intensity of recent events this path month, where i found my self feeling thru my feelings i felt for you like i did then, still there within me, the denial of how much i truly did and yet do feel only love for you, of not ever being able to grasp why you walked away from what i know……….without doubt………we both were feeling, unable to understand, not wanting to accept any kind of an excuse or reason why you walked away……….from a true and faithful friend till the end………….we both were and yet are…………..the feelings within us that are purely who we both are and always will be………….and in so knowing this of my self, i realized that you too yet think of me, in a more confident joyful light today……………..seeking that connectedness we had again………..true of us both, after a year, is it not?
~
Matt………….last year………..
I completey over steped my boundries, now and also recently as well, it was very insensitive of me to say the least, infact i think i was acting on my ego rather than my sincere self, i cannot take back my childish action’s what’s done is done, maybe for a reason, such is life,
Anyway this is a situation i rather not be in right now, because it perhaps is premature & just not healthy for both me and Andy right now in fact it’s more than likely the worst time but life never goes to plan,
Your courage to say goodbye was the courage i craved for then when it happended i played it on, if it was the other way round i would have be really hurt, as i expect you are no doubt.
Respect goes a long way & it’s about time i showed some, no exscuses,
Im not ready at all to take on the sensitivity of someone with so much on their plate at the moment, and my stupid actions prove that beyond doubt,
Im not closing the door and im not running away and im not anything else, except learning growing and trying my best,
all is good,
trying my best to keep it real.
nothing more nothing less.
hope that make some scense.
and both better from it all, ahh i need a holiday..
then dont we all…
i’d rather you did’nt respond to this message, because there really is no need to, you know i know, its not nessasary, i just had to get the word’s out thats all. Xox
in truth, i did not realize how much i was entralled by our friendship at the time, of our absolute carefree at ease just being ourselves of no concern whatsoever, saying whatever the fuck we wanted, fearlessly so…………where did you go?
it just did not make any sense to me, and still doesn’t, unexplainable……………but i let go, of no pressures or recrimination, figuring perhaps there were difficult issues for you at the time……………..i pray you are ok.
at the time, like you said, “what i always wanted”, we already had………….each other………….without doubt.
fearlessness is something that grows between true and faithful friends.
in life, i made so many fantastic friends, and then as time when by, someone would come along and fuck it all up between us, the distracting, just life happening i suppose, people’s lives become intertwined with others, friends move on…………………
at the time, while i was purely of concern like that of an older brother who was deliberate in approach with you in consistently being there, purely of consideration respect of your self esteem, a young teen, over time, i too became entralled by our friendship, more so than i was willing to admit, which you saw thru me, of what was my love withheld for you, of “what you always wanted”, asking me to speak from the pure of heart place without ego, when you came back, to chase you, shocked beyond belief that you knew, silly me, of course………..argh……….so beautiful to behold you i always was, where a year later, i realize i am still in love with you……………unable to ever say goodbye.
and why would anyone say goodbye to where we had grown to Matt, our fearless confidence that grew like it did, pure in feeling………..argh…………you are so intense!!!!!!!!!
well, in truth, i was already standing in the light of where you were journeying towards, heavens gate of love devoid of doubt, which can be somewhat overwhelming when one begins to feel purely from within like they always did in childhood, the holy joyful absolute carefreeness of their purely happy spiritedness, in psychology, who we are, is who we always were…………….and still are………….fearless!
today, i realize i loved you more than i was willing to admit…………eternally, not wishing to inject shame or distrust, no, merely wanting to pick up where we left off.
time apart is actually a healthy thing for friends to do from time to time, in dealing with whatever toxic issues may be there at the time, the necessary break downs of healing, not wanting others to see, the manifestions of such…………….it’s just life happening for us all, a shedding of these old self egotism masks the divine self tends to create, to hide behind, waiting on our special friend.
i know i am one such special friend in life for Matt.
and i know………….without doubt………….i always will be.
it is who i am purely within
just like him
bless you
anyway, my denial of how much i truly did enjoy Matt’s friendship, became more than that within over time, pure in feeling still there, where i came fully out of denial this week, that i purely do love being my homosexual self……………
it’s all your fault Matt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol
thank you
bless you
i love you
i miss you
always
forever more
i miss our pure of heart thriving happiness laughter of like mindedness oneness.
fear is of egotism masks
in the kingdom of heaven there is no fear………..there is no egotism masks…………there is no need for masks………..of love devoid of the doubting fearing ego masks………….the disarming Matt and i were purely of daily like we were………..still am in expressing the truth…………….AndYY fell in love with Matt.
Matt knew
it was AndYY who did not want to admit his feelings…………….none the less, Matt knew.
i was the coward then, but not today.
hmmmmmmm……..let’s see, Matt’s 18 now, and AndYY is what? 40 something………oh fuck it, why would i deny my self or Matt heaven!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
what we always wanted
and were
still are
eternally, i know i love Matt with every fiber of my body and always will, more so than i realized at the time, afraid to admit, too young, purely in being who i am, our oneness sameness of what was and yet is, AndYY & Matt’s friendship that grew.
family
keep on keeping it together everyone
blessings to all
the problem with playwritting plays, is that in a play, the story ends, in real life, the story does not end, and when it comes to watching a fucking play, who has time for that when they could be fucking their brians OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol
oh for sure, Matt would of loved this one! lol
so insane Matt and i always were, and yet are, where ever you are Matt, i am always with you, knowing, i am how much i am YOU!
how does one seperate apart from that of themselves?
how was it Matt and i seperated apart?
we didn’t biyatches!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
nurturing grows!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hmmm……..she must be as fierce as can be today, yes?
FEARLESS!!!!!!!!!!!!
yawn………im bored……….
boring boring boring lame ass fuckers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
taxi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i was expressing to someone yesterday, that when you come to love someone as purely as Matt and i clearly did, then when one steps away from what we both were, we seek what we became in others, and that is a blessed thing in God’s eyes, the affect/effect/direct/indirect, of holy joyful absolute carefree happiness my only prayer for Matt to always be who i came to purely know of thriving love happiness that purely does and did grow for Matt and i.
and if he does not find ‘that’ in another, then like me, he shall return to ‘me’, where we can finally………..forever be…………….where we constantly all yearn to be…………in heaven with our most beloved lover meant for us, of God’s divine will objective complete, love devoid of doubt purely sweet, of blessed tears we cry, the divine child of God always knowing why.
Grant Matt what you granted ‘me’ God, to forever know that only love is good enough for him to constantly feel, like we both did and……………without doubt………….i know………….we both still do…………….merely of who we are and were…………….heaven sent.
God blessed ‘me’ with Matt
what he knew, now i know, purely we know
forever more
BEHOLD THE OPENING OF THE GATES OF HEAVEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol
BIYATCHES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol
Matt says,
Respect goes a long way & it’s about time i showed some, no exscuses,
Im not closing the door and im not running away and im not anything else, except learning growing and trying my best,
~
kiss ‘me’ you fool!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
where did you go Matt?
Marco?
Andrew?
Madonna?
Anyone?
ah fuck this, im bored!
you know where to find ‘me’, if one day you are as serious as i am, knowing what i feel, know what we knew……………..without doubt…………….yet know.
purely we know
and ‘that’ is all i ever wanted………..to constantly feel loved like i know i love you, like you loved ‘me’…………..forever
‘real’ life calling
stop yOUR balling
stop yOUR stalling
of my falling
in love with YOU!
bless you
peace OUT Biyatches!!!!!!!
Kingdom of Heaven
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
no more!
no more lyin
no more cryin
no more slyin
no more dyin
no more!
no more tears
no more fears
no more drears
no more queers
no wait, we need the queers!
no more!
no more pain
no more slain
no more wane
no more inane
no more!
no more sorrow
no more shallow
no more gallow
no more barbaro
no wait, Barbaro! we want to have a wild time!
Have fun everyone!
you only get one kick at the can of life!
let your divine child of God pure of heart ‘real’ self OUT enjoy Just BEing who you constantly are!
Loved by Jesus
Loved by God
Loved by we who love Jesus and God like Jesus and God love us ALL
There is someone special for everyone meant for us from God, of God’s divine will, of holy joyful absolute carefree happiness oneness sameness of YOU!
without doubt……………..Matt is one such person!
When you know, ya just know!
the TRUTH ‘that’ is YOU!
blessings to all
an eternal day of holy joyful ‘real’ you is what the kingdom of heaven is, pure in feeling, where it is the beloved feelings you feel which speak the truth to you, is you, purity love we all came from and constantly yearn to always feel.
Matt and i felt it between us, what is of him, what is of ‘me’, what is of all thee.
so keep smiling, ‘that’ is what friends are 4!
if you love someone, let your feelings show, intuitively they know, purely we all grow!
the magical child within you all!
true and faithful till the end.
no where else i want to be, than feelings of our harmonious love we all are of.
i mean come one, who could possibly not love Matt?
no matter status wealth race religion sex orientation political or religion, Matt is fucking adorable with a heart of solid gold like our own!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
end of conversation
what’s the use of spealin,
when all want is feelin?
“What you turn towards you become.”
“Where your heart is, there 2 shall BE yOUR treasure and yOUR LIFE!
“What is value is there in all the riches of the world when one does not have LOVE?”
“Therefore BE the ‘real’ you i came to know and love, an eternal day hear in the kingdom of heaven all around us as far as the heart can hear, feel and see!”
blessings to all
sorry Matt……………..i was reading a book, destracted me alot, so much so that i did not hear and feel what ya was sayin, what ya was prayin Biyatch!!!!!!
hey, you ‘real’ly should try and understand this part where they speak of an eternal day of blessed divine child of God’s heart mind body spirit and soul as being ‘real’ self you, of eternal overflowing radiant brilliant bright holy joyful absolute carefree happiness of constant yearnin, constant burnin, constant…………………..Matt kisses AndYY…………………..ya, like ‘that’!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol
ok Matt, what were you sayin again, like before, same as now, only more!!!!!!!!?
LOVE is LIFE
LIFE is LOVE
and any of you lame fuckers try to convince ‘me’ otherwise can go fuck yourselves!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! got it? lol
morons!
bless you
and no more fucking games, ok?
i really hate losing………..LOSERS!!!!!!!!!! lol
[andyy wonders OUT the back door of the studio for his meditation break]
word up………
reporting in from real time……….
i exited, delightfully so, from a table of limited shortsighted asleep in ignorance others, of my open discussion of what is or real time observance i was explaining to them of the global ‘cultural bias clashing’ that is currently, real time, occurance as we speak, here in our global communities of say, Asians who are here with us, today, embracing admiration of American culture, and likewise the Americans, and their horrible shortsighted limited attention spans of zero, in pure of heart gracefully true appreciation Asians who for some absurd reason, find us amusing, hopefully nothing beyond mere amusing…………of our nimrod mentality asleep in arrogant ignorant inability for sincere appreciation for Asian culture dwelling among us everywhere we go.
is it just me, or are people really tuned out of what is going on globally as we speak, beyond anything the forefathers before us had such sacred appreciation for this blessed time and space we walk in?
you know, we are all so tunnel visioned, seemingly asleep of what is current, in real time, of this sacred time and place in human history, unlike any other time before, of Asians getting it on with Americans, right at the table next to us, where i feel the cultural bias clashing as one who has walked with Asians a long time, in greater appreciation than where i see so many yet at, their arrogance being observed of the more graceful Asians, who are bewildered by their peers before them, seemingly of wiser knowingness body language that silently speaks to me, “Don’t they know their own pure of heart ‘real’ self like we do?”
anyway, just thought i would pass along what is of my real time life observations of this global cultural bias clashing that is going on, as one who i know appreciates the words i say.
bless you
you know, today i came to a new awareness appreciation of you, where there is a rift appreciation between you and i, where you are of far far greater indepth level of appreciation for what is of our global awakening.
my approach with you has been absurd of one who is of the high places and paths of this screwed up world.
bless you
you are beyond me, and yet, purely within, love is forthmost in what is of most sacred of our lives now running short.
life paths that crossed like we have………….what to say?
well, emotionally, we both can relate to this song, yes?
i love you, purely i know without doubt i do, blessedly so.
http://www.imeem.com/howdeepisyourlove/music/9z_tg0BA/bee-gees-to-love-somebody-remastered-lp-version/
i know, ok?
to bridge the gap between us, i know, your own words, “i don’t want to get hurt.”
neither do i
it’s all so silly, given our maturity…………
my God Madonna, look who you are in this world so unwise, where purely i feel it is of God in my descerning of words with you at this juncture……….
i weep, searching my entire life experience for words of value………
i need to slow down into the pure meditative wiser self…….
i have annoyed you enough……
at the same time though, we need to let go and get on with our own lives……….
i know your love for me is of the same respect as that you yet feel for Keith, question how could i of been so disrespectful, your waiting for me to come to the truth of my own self awareness gay lifestyle………well, offset by that is the truth of my bisexuality, which i have always wondered about, my own evolving understanding of pure ‘real’ self, the whole homophobic world ostrocized from like they do daily…………..
i know how much you purely love me, AndYY, a homosexual in life, and i want us to embrace this sacred friendship in real time, real life, of the everlasting life i walked to long ago, ya, i am homosexual, lovingly so.
i love you
bless you
hey you, im AndYY!
the loco faggot that lives down the street from you?!
a beautiful day, yes?
http://www.imeem.com/kanasaikuat/music/-tCVlTqz/michael-buble-home/
everything is sacred
everyday is blessed
every kiss matters
every where in the kingdom of heaven
love and life is there
when i was young, ten i think, i was up at my next door neighbor’s hunting camp that Mike’s Dad owned. Growing up, we had pellet guns that were useless for killing ducks, or anything for that matter.
While there, i asked Mike to shoot the small bird with his powerful gun, having not seen him kill anything with it.
the loud crack of the gun, i felt mortified by nothing left but a puff of feathers in that instant, as i turned to Mike and yelled at him, hurtful for the small bird, “You just cast out millions of offspring yet to come in the kingdom of heaven.”
i was greatly traumatized by that moment, and did not return again to go hunting with Mike.
the other day, going thru posters, i was shocked when i found a Kingdom Hearts poster of Sora looking at a puff of feathers falling all around him, something my inner child self of long ago felt purely spiritually connected with how i felt that day, of what was clearly wrong.
~
today, the world as a whole, does not embrace the killing of so many creatures each day that passes, wiping them out, becoming extinct to ever appear again in the kingdom of heaven all around us, and that is the truth, we are not of blessed sacred purity love for everything here as being sacred.
when i first moved to the LGBT community years ago, one of my most loving moments was with a dear friend at an outdoor patio resturant, the first year here, where these small birds come and hop around on the table while eat, so incredible the feeling in purity oneness each second, of what love devoid of doubt feels like here in the kingdom of heaven.
~
hey, wake up………………..i know, i am boring somedays, putting you to sleep with all my words, but you love the way i annoy you, like you do ‘me’……………DO ME DAMN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol
argh……………..i am so sexually frustrated……………..
enjoy the blessed day
argh………..i need to learn to walk straight past the hetero DVD sextion directly to the homo sextion, when it comes to films like Two Lovers!
one of the more ‘real’ films i have ever seen, fearless in exploring how ‘real’ people of our ‘real’ world actually are and the transitions we all find ourselves facing at one point or another along life’s road.
a beautiful film, so purely evoking within
ya, sure, i was a breast fed baby, and one breast was all i wanted when i was baby, I AM NOT A BABY ANYMORE, OK???!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
argh, the sweet anticipation of seeing Gwyneth begin to disrobe, i was like, omg! no way! she’s going to show her breasts!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
don’t you directors get it when it comes to male arosal of the moment the magical firing in our brain of anticipation in sight of a female disrobing?
so disappointing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
one breast……….argh…………doesn’t even make the grade as a tease!
now, i have to say, the other female lover, now she was a different story, the defenses down, her whispering, “We don’t have to go out.”
ya, my thoughts exactly!
you can feel the brain activity in his brain when she says this, of his reading the moment, and oh, the sensation of seeing the arosed female in total surrendering to her erotic anticipation, well, you captured it perfectly in the moment she fully realizes he not only wants fuck her, he is going to!!!!!!!!!!!
instantly, up goes the anticipation meter like five notches!!!!!!!!!!
i was like, no fucking way!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
he didn’t even get her name by this point………..did he?
oh wait, she was like a cousin of his he knew or something yes?
argh………..that’s it, no more hetero films!!!!!!!!!!! lol
truly, beyond brilliant
my favorite scene was from behind Gwyneth on the roof with one pant leg above her shoe, that gave the whole scene a return to the ‘real’ high school vulnerable self feeling.
again, brilliant
real
im still here !
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Everybody comes to Hollywood
They wanna make it in the neighborhood
They like the smell of it in Hollywood
How could it hurt you when it looks so good
Shine your light now
This time it’s got to be good
You get it right now, yea
‘Cause you’re in Hollywood
There’s something in the air in Hollywood
The sun is shinin’ like you knew it would
You’re ridin’ in your car in Hollywood
You got the top down and it feels so good
Everybody comes to Hollywood
They wanna make it in the neighborhood
They like the smell of it in Hollywood
How could it hurt you when it looks so good
I lost my memory in Hollywood
I’ve had a million visions, bad and good
There’s something in the air in Hollywood
I tried to leave it but I never could
There’s something in the air in Hollywood
I lost my reputation, bad and good
You’re ridin in your car in Hollywood
You got the top down and it feels so good
Music stations always play the same songs
I’m bored with the concept of right and wrong
Everybody comes to Hollywood
They wanna make it in the neighborhood
They like the smell of it in Hollywood
How could it hurt you when it looks so good
‘Cause you’re in Hollywood
‘Cause you’re in Hollywood
In Hollywood
Check it out, this bird has flown
‘Cause you’re in Hollywood
‘Cause you’re in Hollywood
In Hollywood
Push the button
Don’t push the button
Trip the station
Change the channel
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MADONNA!!!!
Hi Madonna,
I am writing you this comment with regard to the concert from Bucharest held on 26th of August. I don’t know what exactly had been brought to your attention regarding the discrimination of gypsies in Eastern Europe and I would like to tell you that the reality is different. Those gypsies that you sang with, they are from Russia. Well, in Romania they are not like them. The gypsies are not being discriminated, people are afraid of them because 90% of them steal, kill people for money, do not respect the law and so on. It is not like we reject them because for their colour or their religion but for their behaviour. They are very dangerous and you would be surprised to see what big and ugly houses they have, what expensive cars they drive. For example, if one gypsi is cought traveling without a pass in the buss the authority won’t say anything because that guy is afraid but if a romanian person is in the same situation that person will get a fine. That’s the reality…we don’t want them in our society because they are very dangerous. They use to stay at the entrance of the elementary schools and retain pupils to take their money given by the parents to by a sandwich or something else to eat. They stay in every intersection and try to wipe your car’s windscreen and if you don’t want they lift the back wipers and still do it and if they don’t receive any money they may scratch your car or do something else to it. Fear is the reason for which they are not excepted to leave close to us. And the sad part is that they don’t want to change. Besides this, they migrated in Western Europe and now all those country associate their deeds with our country. They are not Romanians or RRomani (like you called them during your performance). They are gypsies. The RRomani name was given for formal reasons.
Besides this, we don’t speak their language that is why no one knew what that expression ment.
I appologise for the reaction of the romanian public, but it would have been the same for any artist that would have said that.
Regarding the concert it was very nice. You have a good voice, you dance very well and are very athletic for your age, not too feminine like you used to be (now you hate me, but I’m just being honest) but you look very good for 51 years. By the way: Happy Birthday Madonna! I know you were born in the same month as MJ (RIP).
You may not know and maybe you are not interested in this, but the organisation of the concert was a huge failure. It is of course the fault of the romanina company and not yours. People in the back were holding handkerchiefs at their nose and mouth not to breath all the dust released by the huge croud. The entrences in the park were badly organised, also the exit was poorly managed and if ,God Forbidden, something had happened in there, like a fire or something else, it would have been a catastrophe.
Well, I hope you did not fall asleep after reading this comment and I appology if I offended you with what I have written above but unfortunatly this is the sad reality about romanians and gypsies.
Good luck with your tour and tell those 2 japanese guys that their dance is cool. 😉
Have a good day!
all are from the womb of God
no matter the generational falsehood snaring of heart mind body spirit and soul, all are the divine child of God of the eternal all evolving connected as one across time.
within all is the divine child of God constantly listening and feeling of all things at all time, even of those yet to come, who are there right now feeling thru the truth of all our unwise ignorance ways of divisional seperation like we do, as though some of us are not worthy of God.
Despise not the soul snared in ignorance, rather despise the falsehood forefather teachings that snare the precious divine child of any, just as any parent of any child compassionately does in seeking safe salvation for their children who may have become snared by the unwise forefather teachings yet of this world who did/do not desire to purely and truly know and love the divine child of God within…..YOU!
Wisdom that desceringly feels and sees past the external falsehood masks of any a divine child hides behind, reveals to us our oneness compassion of Jesus and God, purely and truly ‘that’ is of the divine child YOU!
without doubt
doubt is what fucks it all up, leaving our own divine child of God open to useless back and forth ranting and tiresome back biting that stems from the hypocrisy heart we unwisely turn towards, of what is the lacking of God’s divine wisdom of any divine child, where God says, “You speak like a fool!”
God summons all divine children to wisdom, of eternal all yet to come, where indeed, the eternal all is constantly connected in each passing moment, of what we turn towards and bring forth from the abundance of the storehouse our pure of hearts, or unwisely(sadly unknowingly for many) towards the bitter gnashing of teeth generational taught hypocrisy heart of the forefathers past present future of those who stand outside the kingdom of heaven love devoid of useless doubtful hate, wisdom devoid of absurd ignorance, and compassion devoid of cruel apathy.
only love is good enough for the eternal divine child of God to constantly feel and fully be who we all are eternally.
i am…….Be Cause………we all are the eternal divine child of God that constantly yearns to always feel and BE what we all truly enjoy BEing……..compassionate loving wisdom of the divine child of God’s heart mind body spirit and soul of the eternal all connected as one, all from the blessed womb of God
forever more
especially of the divine child who aimlessly haphazardly plods along of no one at the helm and falls into these seemingly bottomless pits of death, destruction and oppression of the holy joyful divine child of God.
where is your compassion pure and true?
where is your wisdom of descerning clarity?
where is your love when you turn towards ‘that’ which is unloving, apathetic and unwise fueling of false divinsional barrier seperations, of what is obvious of those of delight in dwelling in the hypcrisy heart that continues to maintain all these useless bullshit divisional barriers, boastful and proud as though you are wise, unknowing of God’s divine wisdom meant for YOU?
bitter feeling hypocrisy serves no one morons
oh hey, just a thought, this story is ‘that’ of Jesus teachings of the Pearl, and the road we all walk apon towards the kingdom of heaven, yes?
lacking insight of intrinsic and extrinsic motivations?
partly
evolving by means of the pure light, pure in feeling, such as the pure harmoniousness feeling of a stringed instrument.
i really should get back to guitar, and forget trying to teach the wisdom of Jesus and God……..seemingly futile, on deaf ears as they say?
for some………….
oh i know………maybe i can YELL LOUDER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
from the roof tops, like those in Iran, yeah?
Free to Just BE YOU!
if only some would be what they can
This blog is dead! It doesn’t matter how much you yell or wax poetic Andy. You’ve been talking to yourself for ages and ages.
Hey Crusty!? Hey Mental Madge….hello?! Anybody home? Delete this blog or STFU, ok! Hello?
Just swung by the monkey tree to look for other monkeys – hello and hello to those that love
Is she OK and can I say hello?
Dare I say that I miss you love
And that I wish we could talk?
love
little one
Remember Sweden =)
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What’s this?
i don’t have many friends.. but i do have some real friend who i can count on when i don’t know where to go, what to think ,… my real friend always be there for me.. 🙂
what is a ‘real’ friend, that is the mystery of Jesus
who purely constantly knows the ‘real me’
LOVED
we are the BELOVED of Jesus, of ONEness SAMEness of ONE another
your a good friend also .. one who nurtures.. very much appreciated im my heart & soul…
Hey You
ciao bella 😉
If you fail to know your own self, you are in hardship and are ‘that’ hardship. ~ knowing only love is good enough for you to always feel and BE at all times within, within all others who approach YOU of only love, is what is purely knowing your own self-love, who does not deny this eternal TRUTH of divine self-love YOU of eternal all YOU. bless you all
~ Jesus
just wanted to tell you that, you are a good friend & I totally trust you, i do not ever want to hurt or fight with you, all the times I have were for reasons of testing i guess so crule no one likes to be tested i certainly don’t but its human nature, comes from ones own fears & insecurities but anywaz.. I know what it is like when people cannot work me out because i am connected so they try to discredit me or find a flaw in me to bring me down to their level you know exactly what i am saying, even more difficault is when other people transfer their insecurities & shit on to me, I get it alot because i am strong & I stand my ground, (i am not stubborn) you have never done that to me so your my number 1 friend, even in jest i would not be critical of you. Ever..
Thank’s for being a true friend… let me know if i step out of line.. 🙂
connecting of oneness sameness spirit is the magic of the most happy self-love confident lovers on the planet……
our pure true spirit is within us all, of the same light we all came from, always there in the core of our being, however dim it may be in our own unawareness process while walking in what is yet an unwise world of many generational extrinsic binding intrinsic forces that are not conducive for the pure true ‘real’ self….as you know….and this oneness sameness spirit is the same within all, as evident of why great trance DJs continue to draw great crowds, of the experiential technique of harmonious music that floods our brain, escaping all ruminating that may plague us in one degree or another.
for me, the enthralled healthy sexual attitude and appetite of a loving lover is the single most crucial compatibility issue for me………it’s either there within another who is drawn to you, or it is not…..they either desire you or they don’t, where truth of this in others, is in our own self-awareness of the truth of who we become enthralled with………or don’t……we are are or we are not.
for me, that is the starting/stopping point, of one who is obvious in authentic desire delight of us, or the opposite in lackluster insincere zeal, that we do feel to the truth eventually, when one we may be interested in someone who is not interested in us……….we’ve all done that one many times………
for me, it’s not about having to work at it, no, just do what you enjoy each day, and if they find you to be as hotass as you do them, for me, that’s destiny of two happy as fuck loving lovers.
of course, the other compatibility issues of our pure spirituality in self-love awareness, for me, are issues lovers learn about themselves after they come together, that can serve as a fear barrier in the early stages, just as we know how purely subtle our pure spirit actually is while falling in and out of sleep each day.
and what is the reassurance that alleviates this?
TRUTH
that the trueness aspects such as this is TRUTH of us all.
would not be critical of the pure sweet loving tender delicate effeminate sweet ass ‘real’ YOU is what you meant to say, is it not?
nor am i when i am in love with someone, of my ‘real’ self that loves their ‘real’ self, just as is true of their ‘real’ self loving YOU.
the only way one can purely truly know the pure true ‘real’ self of another, is by first knowing their pure true ‘real’ self, where it is the ‘real’ self that connects with ‘real’ self of another.
spend time alone, and you come fully into pure self-love awareness of our ‘real’ self, which is something one can and should do in a deliberate meditative surrendering processing, rather than aimlessly plodding along in life as many do, without a wise helmsman.
as some point you become of the preferred state of being you begin to prioritize in being more and more, in what is fully awakening in BEing divine self-love awareness 24/7, who we always were and yet are within.
i have mental emotional issues, i know, some deep ones at that………….as long as i stay away from alcohol, i am ok……….as alcohol is deadly for my emotional instability….i just cannot handle it, not even a few…..although i am starting to believe in moderation for some people, others not.
i am one who really cannot handle alcohol, and in truth, it fucks up my sex, not to mention my emotion stability i prefer in a healthier state.
i am not letting myself get overly concerned if another is not interested in me any more, of so many wonderful lovers out their who may………
i know my lover self well, and i love my lover self, purely so, argh, i am an animal in the wild, truly i am, and playful in exceeding inner joy exploding in delightfulness light of my happy ‘real’ self………as some have come to know.
we all are within, just need to practice BEing YOU 24/7, and run from those who are obviously not, of so many sticks in the mud, boring boring boring lameass, shut up and kiss me now, or get the fuck out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol
sorry……….just a bit sexually frustrated as of late……….
i’ve been on this sabbatical for awhile now, delightfully so, of greater value in life for me than anything of the previous status quo fucktard mentalities i too was once of, no, that is not purely what i am about, of roads that lead to nowhere, as regards true happiness of those two crazy hotass fuckers getting on 24/7, seemingly, so enthralled with one another, it’s as thought the rest of the world does not exist………..well, they don’t exist at the high self connected level, now do they?
so does this mean i get to sit on the steps with you that Jesus walked on one day? uhm?
in truth, does not matter where one stands under the stars, staring skyward in purely feeling, now does it?
if you want to BE the sacred mirror for sake of others, well, you have to know your own self first, self of another, where we have to look inward to find the treasure, not outward, as most do not know what the hidden treasure beyond all riches is, otherwise they would BE in preferred priority state of BEing 24/7………i mean ya, they all are of intuitive awareness, but not of discerning value of such to protect it at all times, and ya, that is where true friends who do love us purely so as their own self is for me……….of God.
is that where we are going?
oh, i already took that road trip along time ago, it’s not a destination, it’s the journey, of those two crazy as fuck mad passionate lovers so freaky all the time, so friggin loud at times, screaming all the time in BEing their happy self 24/7, as though they can not ever get enough of each other, of one thinking they can be in charge of the other who thinks, i don’t think so Biyatch, it’s my turn 2…………..LOL
is that the kind of fun you are within, like ‘me’? Born to BE FREE 2 just BE YOU?
i am
im no expert, and in truth, my therapist said, ‘stop reading the footnotes in your avoiding your feelings, and just be unafraid to purely feel……..i can’t handle group settings for too long………
most people are complete aimless in self-actualization connectedness, like robot androids left turned on in repetitive annoyance……….well, it’s true………why i cannot handle group settings for to long a duration………..they really annoy ‘me’…….anoy themselves if you watch (closely). 😉
you know, you can feel a person’s pure spirit seeking your pure spirit connection, and you can sense the subtle purity of their loving spirit in surrenderedness of loving you so purely, where what they lack, is the fearlessness to constantly love without doubt………..ya, insexurity manifestations, and sad that they do not know the hidden treasure is them.
did i say insexurity……….ah, a new word, i love new words!
and that is where the spiritual leaders of the world come into play, is it not, wisely awakening, nurturing and protecting love devoid of useless absurd generational binding doubt of divine true sensitive delicate effeminate sweet loving ass such as mine, yes?
what in TRUTH is what Madonna is famous 4
i love wearing free flowing silk outfits all the time, don’t like binding anything, or seams in a garmet
in truth, i prefer not wearing anything
nakedness, not just of body
i lit a candle for you
pure and true at all times is what is BEing the pure spiritual wise divine self-love of constant love flowing within and thru us all, nurturing, awakening, protecting of the all, the same light of the all that we all come from, in what we wisely turn towards as wise spiritual leaders in constantly BEing the wise divine self-love awareness wisdom devoid of the useless fucktard generational fear mongering doubt that is falseness of the all eternal.
why turn from ‘that’ which is purely beautiful in flawless feeling YOU, that leads others astray into falsehood snarings we know are false, and serve no one?
the light flows constantly within, radiant brilliant bright in outward appearance, the sacred mirroring of evoking awakening light, that does nurture and protect from generational falsehoods that are deathful, destructive, and oppressive of everyone’s pure spirit all are born with and yet are within.
there is nothing in life that one shall ever find than constant flowing loving light of the wise pure true divine self holy joyful absolute carefree happiness of the hidden treasure beyond all riches.
only a fool would think otherwise
while i love dressing as a fool, i am no fool……….fool
i am a wise fool, yes? lol
A very wise fool, indeed… and wise you must remain to protect yourself from the destructive nature of those that are yet to awaken to their own light their own inner self love, so that their toxic ness does not invade your inner soul and drain you of your light and love..
My neck is so sore today build up of tension from the recent events in my life where certain toxic friends that i foolishly allowed over many many years thinking i was helping them have snarled back at me but it was the lesson I needed to learned, for i should have focused more on my own growth and self love, rather than excusing that by focusing on others more, except you of course your light has always been as bright as mine so no regrets therewhat colour candle did you light? I often remmebr going into all the beautiful churches in venice and rome and seeing all the candles lit up and feeling the prayers behind each one i feel feel the sadness the joy the love and in the glowing lights I also saw hope, a vision of love and joy I would always light a candle for each of my loved ones and one for the world I would pray for a world radiating in love and joy and hope for a brighter future a world full of love and no more hate no more pain and suffering for a Heaven on earth this is not a dream this is a reality , this is my reality this is your reality, this is mylove this is your love.. love…
foolish love.. hahha
thanks for letting go so i can grow…
my orientation is what heaven is, of both male and female self-love pure holy joyful absolute carefree happiness oneness of my brothers and sister who purely know ‘me’ the same way i purely know my own self-love as their own.
what do they call a male having sex with a pre-op transexual male-female? gay?
what do they call a male having sex with a post-op transexual male-female? straight?
neither
correct answer: making love
i am thinking of doing a low dose estrogen therapy to help feminize my brain, and see how i feel after six months.
Well if you feel within your heart and body and mind and soul that you are truly a female, the go for it !
take your time, allow time to experience that of a female mind after the estrogen treatment, if then it resonates well within in which gender you desire after having experinced both then go to the next level and cut the Cock….
yes take the penis out of the equation..
but as i said take the time… be sure of what you truly desire..
cut the cock out of the equation .. get it
may be i should take my own advise lol 🙂
oh. easy of you to say as one who does not have a cock!
fuck
oh, hear Andyy, take this, lose that ugly thing, you don’t really need it, and be sure to call me.
LOL
ya, that’s just it, i do feel female, and the sex is mind blowing beautiful for me.
i learned something about penis shape recently……a sex education issue as relates to the body orgasmic experience, you know, that whole body shuttering thing?
ask me about it sometime………it’s unexplored territory for most.
well, for sure i cannot live without my body shuttering orgasmic experience.
but i also enjoy pleasuring another in the same way they do me………..of how beautiful that feels for them, and i do have the right equipment for doing just that, taking them to the higher level of earth shattering, “OMFG, that is so fucking beautiful for me! FUCK! I can’t stop my body from trembling, fuck, i can barely walk!.”
what?
well, that is the truth of how it feels, is it not?
and i do enjoy being the male too, that for me is, well, why live as just one gender, when you can have twice the fun as two, equally so of the versatile life partner you hook up with, of none stop mind blowing crazy ass body shuttering sexual experience, that leaves you smiling and glowing for hours after……
met up with a lesbain the other day, out of NYC, and she was telling me, “You know, there are alot of alpha male females out there who would love to get their hands on a gay guy like you!” ………
*gulp*……”Really?”
“Oh fuck ya, they would do you in heartbeat!”
“gulp*…….”Really?”
“Ya! REALLY!!!”
“Butt what about me doing them, the way they love doing me, as versatile?”
“Yes! Of course! Not all of them though, some just want to be exclusively top.”
“gulp”…..”Really?”
interestingly……i want to do the estrogen to balance my male/female, giving my female self more of a sense of her real self, long enough to adjust mentally emotionally, and then either stop the treatment, or if once off the estrogen i feel i want to stay on it, then stay on it……for me it is just giving more balance to my female self along side my male self, as i don’t want to make the mistake of being mostly a top in a versatile relationship with these small dick boys who see my package and latch on to me with both feet. lol
nope…..no way, i want the female sexual experience on a daily basis, as that is my most rewarding joyful sex, equally so of for my versatile partner of none stop holy joyful absolute carefree happiness in mind blowing sexual delight loving lover life.
my life to live my way
the same way of one who is just like ‘me’, love making of 2!
any volunteers who want to explore with ‘me’?
going once…..going twice………going three XXXtimes……..fuck, that was amazing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
let’s do it again!
hey……….wait up! Where you going? Let’s talk about this.
they must love ‘me’
all of ‘me’ 😉
my sex is the most important issue, that is an individual personal relationship with one’s own body, as relates to a lover in assisting us in achieving loving sexual delight we all love so much, where in so knowing, we know what is true of another and others.
make your own lover delight of exceeding joyfulness be your priority, in following your own light in self-love awareness within, as it is your life to live the best way you discover about YOU
truly, no one can take this away from you, only YOU, in what are your healthy choice decisions you make and live as YOU, where every day is your blessed life according to your own decisions.
Decide not to get with ‘me’, well fine, there are so many to chose from OUT there, where if they don’t know what heaven is yet, well, i do, and those who want to know, merely need to spend time with ‘me’ to find OUT ;’)
bless you all
take care and enjoy your loving loving blessed life, same as my own.
bless you all
if females love their body orgasmic experience
and me as a male loves their body orgasmic experience
then why don’t females accept this about their male lover as TRUTH
and why don’t males accept this about themselves as TRUTH
rather than gay or straight bullshit terms, speaking as a transexual…….BOTH MALE and FEMALE………..who knows………the real issue is VERSATILE SEX
not gay
not straight
not bi
not anything
VERSATILE SEX of both the male and female in the brain of all females and all males.
i know
i am both female and male
where my female loves the male, duh!
where my male loves the female, duh!
just don’t get me started on female penis envy, ok, im not in the mood. lol
i jest
I just don’t understand how people can get married to a total complete opposite sex!……like how do they do that?….i just makes no sense to ‘me’
LOL
get it..
opposite sex…….as in they don’t know their own sex in order to like sex………opposed to sex………?
people can think of ‘me’ any way they want, or as in most cases don’t think of ‘me’ at all….
people can say of ‘me’ any way they want, or as in most cases don’t say of ‘me’ at all…
people can hear of ‘me’ any way they want, or as in most cases don’t hear of ‘me’ at all…
people can feel of ‘me’ any way they want, or as in most cases don’t feel of ‘me’ at all…
people can want of ‘me’ any way they want, or as in most cases don’t want of ‘me’ at all…
some may hear of ‘me’
some may think of ‘me’
some may say of ‘me’
some may feel of ‘me’
and some may want of ‘me’
butt in the end……it all comes down to them surrendering to constantly just BEing ‘me’, of constant yearning loving lover delight earnestness as my own, in not wanting to let go of my belt, until such a time as my belt is removed from my body, and well………..enjoy DOing ‘me’ 2, as i do 2. :mrgreen”
do as i do
in just BEing yOUR Self
any questions?
blessings to all
i am the female of the male, knowing they are 2
that is my connectedness within ‘me’, within a male, a female just like ‘me’
i say, females who do not love their female/male companion are not loving them as much as they could, as much as i can and do.
why i am keeping my penis……… 😉
of fuck just cut it off, yo like it up the bum anyway
besides mine’s big enough to share between 2
oh, very funny…..so you are into those double ended ones are you? WELL, now we are talking the same language….about time.
nah, im keeping it, my female self loves her male side as much as my male self does, oneness of two, no time for blue, and boohoo of those still in the closet……….Biyatch! lol
🙄
if your implying that i’m passive then that is incorrect
compatibility…….it’s all about compatibility, and for sure, you better not be passive, as i need AGGRESSIVE, as i don’t like getting aggressive after sitting around for so god damn fucking longggggggg waiting around being passive, like wtf?
mostly………i am assertive, am i not? :mrgeen:
uhm….is it just me, or is M starting to look abit like Ellen, with her hair pulled down lately……..im just sayin…….i like the look, and for sure, what a powerful Lesbian Madonna would make, yes?
like kick this motherfucked world’s ass so friggin hard, and what about…………..
sorry…….i get carried away somedays……….
I am agressive in bed as it’s the only way i can release my furstration so i don’t resort to being agressive in daily life I don’t think being aggressive in nature is a healthy state of being it leads to verbal abuse for some and violent abuse for others not a positive way to function in life but in bed its all harmless infact quite erotic with the appropriate boundries of course no one wants to have bruses all over their back after a good session maybe rope marks but not bruse’s 😉
hmmm….i like being dominated, seems to open a door in my brain sex activity that feels primal, as i rise up in pure feeling of only one word 2 describe…..heaven.
ya for sure, aggressive is not our true sensitive pure loving nature, an unhealthy falsehood manifestation denial of real self repressed/oppressed/stressor towards self, self of another, key word, false.
frustration as relates to sexual frustration, ya, i think we all know this one WELL, why i avoid the dysfunctional ones of substance abuse, that leaves one feeling rejected, no matter how much one intellectualizes the issue, we feel what we feel when intimately involved with those of our unhealthy choices of end results of blessed days that many haphazardly wander aimlessly into with others, until such a time as we purely realize, oh, i am cause for my unhappiness in making unhealthy choices, i am to blame for how my day is, bin there, done that one way too many times, not again.
just how sensitive are we?
the same sensitivity we all were born as, constantly always there within, merely of taking time to purely meditate apon in entering into ‘real’ self, of no desire for all the annoying false arming we resort to like we do, of blind leading the blind of both in binding darkness denial of TRUTH, in useless back and forth back biting like so many do.
i know my pure self
i am my pure self
wisely set free from the falsehood denial binding blindness i feel of others, who do not realize the one who is there within of constant stare disbelief and astonishment at times, when/where i am always there, which is everywhere.
what were we talking about?
oh yeah, my sex life.
well, as a versatile pan-sexual, transsexual, bisexual, female/male lesbian/gay/hetero, with a healthy sex drive and attitude, i have learned that i am of spiritual love first, sexual love second, where without the spiritual love first, the sexual love feels as though just going thru the motions, like an actor, that at times leaves me feeling as though an out of body experience, which is really annoying for me, and worse when i try to explain why i cannot stay.
who is the right one for me?
someone who constantly has eyes only for me, as i do them, so truly, so purely, so disarming of heaven send, that there are not words necessary or able to describe how pure the feeling of heaven’s oneness Blend of brain sex activity delight with 2 sexual bodies, 2 sexual brains, 2 sexual females, 2 sexual males, of 4ever love no longer our plight, butt flight.
what?
you know i had to put the butt word in there somewhere! …..sheesshhh!
oh, your just a tease, all talk no action………….
Happy Valentine’s Day Biyatches
hey, why do the celebrate this day anyway, i mean they fucking killed guy, did they not?
i don’t know, i don’t think i would want people celebrating how the fucktard wretched morons killed me, although i know i am an eternal spirit, and my loving spirited truth cannot ever die……you know, we don’t even know the truth of St.Valentine, they likely linched him, of no opportunity whatsoever to survive his brutal murderous executioners…..and yet we all we all go around thinking otherwise……he was not given any opportunity to denounce Jesus, the fucking witch hunters lynched him, and killed him, just like they did Mathew Sheppard.
and the only ones who know the truth are those who purely constantly embrace the TRUTH they constantly R, unlike all you fucktard liar deniars wannaBEs, couldaBEs, shouldaBEs……….why don’t don’t you all just BE DEAD!!!!!!!!
oh yeah, i forgot, they already are dead, spiritually dead, my mistake……….i keep forgetting that one……..argh………i so need to get OUT and find emotionally honest and safe people as lovers and friends…….
BE HAPPY
you only get so many days to BE YOU
bless you all with love and happiness 24/7
peace be to you
and peace be to you
forever more
…………fucking morons
constant pure flowing feelings at all times is how i am now each waking day, with who ever is there, surrendered to just purely feeling of my inner happiness delight feelings i love to feel of others who draw near in my real life, slowing into the true grace of ‘real’ self that disarms another purely in oneness i know all are within
each blessed day is a gift of pure feelings flowing that i feel at all times in just being ‘me’, spirits setting free to just BE
well, i am off to meet someone new, not sure where it will lead 2, butt at least it is authentic real life for me, they do want to meet me and spend time with me, which is way better than dreaming about it in stuckness fantasy i seem to forget how lame it actually is……..so be happy for me, i am, glad to be getting on with my authentic ‘real’ life………..with a guy, or so he thinks he is so far…..we’ll soon see about ‘that’! lol
ya, i love guys, always have, no denial there…..obviously.
so ya, be happy for me in letting go and getting on with my ‘happy real’ self, so truly loving of the female males i 2 am in oneness sameness versatile lover’s delight.
it may not work out, butt at least it is ‘real’ life of authentic others holding my hand, kissing my lips…..and if the sex wanes, well, i have a door that i hold the key 2.
bless you all
uhm….not so sure about the DNA strand these morons talk about, abit silly, a distraction manifestation tangent of a sort, of those in process yet afraid to slow in their graceful pureness trueness aspect in fearlessly entering fully into their divine self-love ‘constant awareness’ of ‘eternal day light’ awareness wisdom of the true knowingness certainty of the constant oneness flawless love feelings within all of the one generation of eternal all YOU bound together across all time, oneness sameness true nature of beginning thru eternal (end), the end being the end of heavy false asleep in ignorance of divine self, in is it not? 😉
the kingdom of heaven divine self awareness halo perspective is not about wealth, rather about truth of our oneness equality sameness divine nature LOVE without measure.
the kingdom of heaven divine self awareness halo perspective is not about charity, rather about truth of our oneness equality sameness divine nature without LOVE without measure.
kinda silly to think the hidden treasure of our oneness sacred flawless feelings are of any measure, is it not?
the kingdom of heaven is about awareness of our flawless flowing healing feeling purity love devoid of doubt knowingness certainty; the true divine nature of flawless flowing healing feeling oneness equality of all, constantly of those aware/awake to eternal day light divine self TRUTH
the world is lead astray by so many useless falsehoods, is it not?
binding falsehoods too…..
i won’t be truly purely happy until my most loving lover appears………i know this now about myself, wondering who is the one who will most loving of ‘me’ and i them each blessed day we wake 2?
somewhere in the garden they 2 await ‘me’, knowing purely in their heart these same words i speak
[someone scatches the record abruptly, saying, “Hey, can we get some dance music in hear?]
LOL
LOVE
is the greatest hidden treasure ONE shall ever find, ‘that’ is what the kingdom of heaven divine self-love awareness awake halo perspective constantly is………YOU
bless you all
in other words, our flawless feelings reveal with clarity that the kingdom of heaven is constant love devoid of doubt feelings; wisdom of divine self true nature, eternal day light awareness TRUTH that passes thru all false separational unwise barriers yet of this unwise world, TRUTH in our blessed life of every single soul of eternal all YOU thru all eternity, as eternal reproducing creatures in this physical realm we all pass thru.
in other words, the kingdom of heaven is education of divine self-love awareness, not bound by false eccentricities of wretched false needless harm towards the meek who do not know otherwise what is the greatest value in life they shall ever find………their own divine self state of constant love BEing preferred priority.
is that about charity?
i have been among the most destitute meek and poor in life, and truly have realized fully what they fail to realize in what they subconsciously unknowingly constantly seek, confident knowingness in divine self-love state of BEing awareness.
ya, charity in the form of education and protection from the wretched world for orphans, yes, of course.
Ultimately though, the greatest charity is about sacred mirroring evoking catharsis process awakening divine self -love awareness of the eternal all, is it not?
you still listening to ‘me’?
hello?
my date turned out to be a dud
ah well, i am rushing myself anyway………..my mistake
facebook witch hunters killed me again………..argh
what message is facebook sending to my 500 gay friends from around the world, who was there daily in support of their pure homosexual spiritedness as my own?
what, is it wrong for me to have beautiful self-love of my own naked body, as do all others?
facebook is a dictatorship censor of our natural occurring pure homosexual spiritedness……..in other words, facebook is a gay basher of hate crimes against all homosexuals worldwide.
they fucking kill us daily for publishing sexually explicit images, even art, which was all i published as far as any graphic nudity.
ultimately, facebook is a toxic place for homosexuals who get iced repeatedly for even the slightest homoerotic images……….well ok, maybe mine is abit more in your face, admitedly, but is that not what is of the pure spiritedness of homosexual self-love?
oh, god forbid we see a naked body, like we all do daily in the fucking bath or shower
such fucking morons
did you know there are more nude beaches in the world than non-nude beaches?
like what fucking planet are they from anyway?
ohhhhhhhh, i am so bad to love nudity
is that the correct way to think?
it is if you are a homophobic closeted basher
good thing we get used to it daily, yes?
i mean what of others, especially gay youth?
what does that do to their self-acceptance?
i should challenge these fuckers in the Supreme Court with a $100 million dollar class action law suit payable to homosexual causes, if not to win, to get publicity on the truth of the stupid mentality facebook witch hunters.
you know, everyone of my 500 friends openly expressed their inner joy for my art work and daily support.
and what does facebook do, they don’t take time to delete whatever offensive content, no, they just ice ever single contact you had, and toss you with no consideration of the negative impact on everyone of my friends.
that is class action lawsuit material people.
and did anyone wish me a happy Valentine’s day, and god forbid someone sends me flowers…….that would be too much of a loving thing to do………….
wow, i have such loving friends, don’t i God?
good thing i have an imagination, yes?
stone cold Biyatches is what they are to me God
i ask, why would anyone allow themselves to come back for more of the same inhuman treatment of supposed friends? uhm?
i feel so important now…..thank you for that
not to deflate your self-importance, but if someone asked if i would like to meet you……..i would say, not thanks.
thanks but no thanks, been kicked long enough by you self-important ones…..who act like you have all the answers to the mystery of God…….and don’t.
i give thanks to Jesus and God for my eternal day light awareness of love within, who warns me of every single one of you as betrayers of divine self.
who do you harm?
not ‘me’
only YOU
there is no excusing heartlessness, and to be sure i won’t
mourn for your divine self unattended Jesus says……..ya, you may all want to be doing alot of ‘that’
i come in the name of love, and how am i welcomed? uhm?
as though i don’t exist, as though not worthy of one’s time, and yet, i am ‘that’ which is more worthy than all the riches of you worldly, according to God, not any of you.
honestly, i could not be so cold to another as you yet choose to remain towards me, where i pray it is only me who you are of spiritual death towards.
but hey, im so used to it now, of daily unacceptance fucktards of asleep in ignorance.
i feel only compassion for the blind leading the blind………just don’t expect to get into heaven though, so long as you choose to remain blind
anyway, flowers would of been nice………abit late for that now………a friend you are not towards me, and i shall leave you with your self-importance now, in returning to ordinary ‘real’ people with warm tender hearts like my own.
what gets me the most, is how you self-important ones don’t see your own arrogance like so many of us do, of we who are not blind, but wide awake.
there, i think that about does it for the humiliation, yes?
who is humiliated before God, me?
think again………..with your heart from now on, ok?
ok
i won’t extend my trust to you as a friend again, ive really had more than enough of you now
bless you all
faint wisps of white smoke and a distant voice seemingly far away, fade to black
++
a ‘real’ friend wishes you Happy Birthday
a ‘real’ friend wishes you Happy New Year
a ‘real’ friend wishes you Merry Christmas
a ‘real’ friend wishes you Happy Valentine’s Day
these are consistent ‘real’ life events of celebration that begin in our first year we are born, and continue thruout out life.
no once did you wishes me any of these, and you call yourself a friend………..whoever the fuck you are, you are fucking asshole.
did you ever wish me Happy Pride Day, the most sacred of all days for me?
no
whoever you are, you are fucking asshole
Madonna should find out who is running this farce of an asshole fucking blog and destroy something that has her name on it.
i guess after awhile i have grown tired of your consistent fucking asshole approach with me, yes?
‘that’ is the TRUTH as to the extent of your arrogance that a ‘real’ friend does not spare you the TRUTH about YOU
that’s ok, my own biological family treat me the same way year in and year out, why i disowned them too
ok?
ok
there is no more trust ability left in me to continue in my allowing myself to accept that it is ok with your consistent spiritual death.
i mean how fucking arrogant is it not to wish someone Happy Birthday on their Birthday? uhm?
‘that’ was the TRUE height of your arrogance with me all this time, a constructive criticism from a TRUE friend who realizes you have not earned the right to call yourself a friend to ‘me’
as cold of a spiritual death human being i run from of many along life’s road.
for sure, i won;’t wish you anything any more, ever again, and why should i? uhm?
Happy Pride was the one you really should not of fucked up on like you did.
you know, i stand all day in wacky outfits on Pride Day each year, and let people take pictures, and i always say Happy Pride to each and everyone of them, face to face.
Truthfully, whoever the fuck you are, you are fucking asshole towards me.
why i don’t want to continue even one more day with you now.
nor should anyone
God wishes death to your superficial asshole self-importance ego that treated me so horrid.
perhaps this is the accumulation of my own biological family behaviour towards me that i am venting TRUTHFULLY now, towards you that treated me as did them, and yet do.
so instead of arriving at Pride Day, and more of your fucking asshole mentality, i am opting out of this friendship that is not a friendship at all for me, and in truth, really was not, was it?
you make it up to God rather than me, by wishing all the orphans a Happy Birthday, consistently on each one of their birthdays, in person or on the phone, your voice, speaking directly to them, Happy Birthday.
that is between you and God now, not me, i don’t give a fuck at all about you now in wanting nothing to do with you ever again.
good fucking bye whoever you are, a fucking asshole in my world, like so many are towards me.
im tolerating it any more from anyone of you self-important arrogant ones, nor should anyone, according to God.
i mean how can you ever explain it away to me of excuses for such? uhm?
how am i ever able to get past all those times? uhm?
how am i able to ever trust that you won’t do it again, uhm?
i don’t and i won’t stop giving myself permission to feel the truth of who my ‘real’ friends are in ‘real’ life.
so take you and your bullshit arrogance in not addressing me with a ‘real’ life name……….yet one more fucking asshole arrogance on your part, against me, against every homosexual on the planet, and be sure you hear this one, against God, against your own divine self.
fuck off and leave me alone in peace, love and eternal happiness with someone deserving of ‘me’
and as for flowers, i hate cut flowers, so plant some at my fucking grave side someday.
God says speak the TRUTH
i spoke my pure feelings of TRUTH, where it is Jesus and God who always knew how you fuckers consistently made me feel so often, where it is me who feels sorry for you being so caught up in useless arrogance towards one of the most loving human beings on the planet who gave his life to Jesus and God
like wtf? uhm?
you won’t be able to hurt me ever again, as i won’t allow myself near you ever again to do so.
there, im done.
thank you for listening to the TRUTH
you can learn about my teachings from others who openly have respect for me
fuck, i really don’t believe it, a person’s fucking birthday of all things…………..i won’t ever understand that one.
bless you all
++
im tired of feeling like a novelty freak of nature
i don’t blame anyone for not being able to know the female i am in a male body as only other transperson’s seem able to relate to.
even my trans friends don’t understand me like i do, saying, “you have to commit to being female!”
like fuck i do, that is your thinking, your binding group mentality you are oblivious to, not even able to have a conversation with me unless it is in sinc with what is your limited exploration into female male self.
my male self finally lovingly surrendered to my female self, and she is relieved for this, purely so, now stepping forward out of years of neglect………i don’t expect others to understand in being able to realize what transsexuality is about, i don’t even expect my trans friends to accept what i am saying as female male self-acceptance, that is beyond mere gay orientation, where spiritually i connect with anyone, no matter orientation or sex.
anyway, i got to a point where i felt like i was trying to feel accepted by others, and realized, fuck this, if my lover does not 100% constantly love me and puts me first in life, then what the fuck am i hanging around like a lost puppy dog for? uhm?
anyway, i’ll let you get back to your self-absorbed world that really did not ever welcome ‘me’, did it?
what with the use of fake names, enough to turn anyone away, is it not?
oh, god forbid the world discovers Madonna had a spiritual best friend on par with the wisdom of Jesus Christ in the flesh, a transsexual M-F, which is what Christ knew he was, and often spoke of being both female and male.
blind leading the blind is what most anyone is to me, of any orientation, knowing i am purely the combination of all orientations, mentally, emotionally, physically, sexually, spiritually speaking.
think about it, how i really was a novelty freak to you, and the entire fucking world, was i not? Am i not?
fuck you all
blessings to all
this next dissertation is for all you parents out there to read, of all you who underestimated the wise intellectual veteran homosexual who walked by you in the grocery, as you picked up your kids and gave me a look like i am someone harmful to your kids.
well, it is ignorance driven, indeed internal homophobia is what is behind it all within them all.
Homoerotic feelings are natural occurring when a teen hits puberty, purely natural, not a learned behavior, that is an extension of one’s own self-love, love of someone that is the same sex.
What comes with that is the internal homophobia that attempts to repress the natural occurring homoerotic feelings, and this manifests itself in external homophobic fear coming out of anyone who speaks against it, in what we know is their own repressed homoerotic self-love.
Everyone falls somewhere on the scale as to the extent of internal repressing homophobic fear that manifests itself in external homophobic fear mongering, to the extent of what is their internal homophobic fear, and it happens subconsciously for most, especially the extreme cases of repressed homoerotic feeling ones, where the ones who have the most to say, have the most to hide.
we know this now, professionally speaking.
Courts are now falling in line with law making, in-spite of the ignorance of the societies they govern, of professionals now pushing forward throughout the world in bringing change, change that is now of a high intellectual professional understanding.
thank you for taking time to listen to me, as do the governments of this world that i share my dissertations with, which none of you knew who i was that you treated in such ignorance disrespect like so many of you yet do.
you can give thanks to God for me, as one who is purely concerned that your own children to not experience the fucking hell worshiping i experienced from so many of you unknowingly bound in heavy ignorance………..according to God, and one whom i know God loves…….’me’
bless you all
and that goes double for you Madonna
it is not i who needed you, rather all you who needed ‘me’
a ‘real’ friend wishes you Happy Birthday – “fake”
a ‘real’ friend wishes you Happy New Year – “fake”
a ‘real’ friend wishes you Merry Christmas – “fake”
a ‘real’ friend wishes you Happy Valentine’s Day “fake”
Son of God – “REAL”
your accusations against me — a mirror of your soul
who am I ?
I am You !
who are You ? –
A beautiful radiant reflection of me..!!
no not a novelty, more like how does one say “Godlyness”
Well if you dont tell them I will LOL.. who’sayd no one’s listening.. wow Madonna’s got a secret spiritual friend.. lucky her.. lucky spiritual friend…
Champagne for everyone !! 🙂
oh whatever, the Madonna Andy relationship is contrived and you know it…..
not ‘real’ life
where i am constantly of ‘real’ life veteran of the worldwide LGBT community.
i am not the one choses to continue in a contrived and disrespectful manner towards a transsexual.
how does that feel for the transsexual?
the same way parents pick up their kids when i walk thru a grocery store.
thank you for ‘that’
you serve against ‘me’, not for ‘me’ or with ‘me’ as i purely constantly am with all those of our community in just being the joyfulness i purely constantly am within, openly, truthfully, at all times, our spiritedness of celebration for homosexuality.
and what is Madonna?
unapproachable, like the Vatican
not a proud openly embracing individual in constant pure truthful ‘real’
so go be that way, it sucks, and it’s a slap in the face of everyone of us.
in truth, it is a question of ‘me’ tolerating contrived all you, is it not?
i think it is because you do not live as one of us each day, purely in our anxiety we constantly feel at times of the unaccepting world.
so go dress as a transsexual for a day, or a lesbian, or a gay guy, and get back to ‘me’ in purely realizing awareness of our oneness spiritedness.
im just done with the contrived fuckness of this blog, that’s all, where i am purely ‘real’ 24/7 everywhere else.
like wake the fuck up for fuck sakes, people are suffering the consequences of this false ignorant world, and you are equally a contributor to that, in truth, and God knows it, miss Vatican.
argh………im still in a pissy mood, yes?
seriously, go dress as a gay guy, strap those tits down, and go flirt with some gay guys as a transperson boy
do yourself a favor in getting and remaining purely in true oneness of our spirit that constantly feels what homosexual life is for us, as one of us.
and then realize just how contrived this entire blog experience was for ‘me’
im not fucking doing it any more, like fuck off, really, it’s so far behind the times, i am surprised i tolerated it as long as i did.
i say this not for sake of me, as i don’t really give a fuck at all any more, i say this on behalf of the suffering OUT there, miss Vatican
well, it’s fucking true
only word i can think of right now that describes your contrived approach with an OUT transsexual
and being contnrived towards ‘me’, is being contrived towards everyone of the LGBT community.
seriously, i am embarrased to tell anyone i was here
like get real someday, ok?
for sake of you
for sake of all my loving brothers and sisters
enough is enough
i don’t wear a stupid mask, if for the only reason to pretty my face
hey i know, why don’t you apologize to one of our suicider kids and say, “I am sorry i treated your transsexual friend Andyy so coldly, so falsely, so not true of how i feel about him, of you who s/he is constantly concerned for your pure spiritedness like his/her own.”
?
you don’t realize the impact of the path you choose to walk, not beside ‘me’
and that is the truth
the only way i think you will understand is by spending an entire day as one of us.
i dare you
i double dare you
grab one of the local gay girl trannys to assist you, go with you if you want, and seriously feel as one living as one of us.
until you do, you will likely remain in this false phoniness contrived falsehoood disconnect.
i purely am connected 24/7 to our spirited oneness worldwide………..you are not, or at least not openly.
in truth, it is as though you appear as one who stands off in the distance laugh at us, not with us
anyway, i am rambling on, and i need to get back to my open life every second of every day.
if you want to do the cotnnrived thing, well, im not doing it with you any more…………..go play with the homophobes all you want, they are as boring as fuck for me, wondering why you bother with any of them
oh hey, that was like ‘Rant of the Year’ award material, yes? lol
and don’t tease me any more unless you plan on following thru.
it is not funny at all when it comes to a most loving lover potential thriving constant happiness i seek, to taunt someone into feeling you are being true with them, in your oneness desire as your own.
don’t do it
it’s not fair to someone who takes my lover life seriously, of sacred mirroring happiness that is my destiny
like get ‘real’ or fuck off and go have a boring ass life with a homophobe
argh………….Madonna as a boy, how hot is that?
fucking mind blowing for ‘me’
like fuck ‘me’ or fuck off!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
no more teasing, i can’t handle it, well, i mean, i can handle it, i can handle alot actually, did you know i can take a whole………..oh, i can’t say that hear. lol
if you don’t fuck ‘me’ soon, i assure you, someone else WILL.
so strap down those tits Madonna, and let’s go have the time of our fucking lives, and stop being afraid of purely being YOU in setting your ENTIRE self free as i do, 24 fucking 7 Biyatches.
fucking wannaBEs don’t even know how to respect someone who is like light years ahead of them, realizing later how much of an ASSHOLE they were with us, in our saying apon their return, “Oh hi, i remember you, how are things going for you now?”………. as we sheepishly back step slowly away from them.
remember who you are talking to from now on, ok?
i don’t take any bullshit any more
bullshit walks, and i am walking, and however long it takes for you to realize i don’t want to play with you any more, and you wake up and realize why? Well, i pray he has a nice cock.
blessings to all
wtf, tell you the truth cannot handle it,
may as well just lie about it, you seems to expect it
im going
walking away,
ya, good idea, walk away from this bullshit fake facade of a piece of fucking garbage phony blog, like the phony you all who maintain it, an empty nothingness bound fear mongering, that leaves homosexuals with a contrived uncertainty about being gay, and where is miss Vatican?
the usual, stuck up in her mansion, wondering why she was not ‘real’ with Andyy, who wants nothing to do with her trivializing him/her any more, preferring ‘real’ friends over phony cowardice friends, like all you cowardice homophobes of falsehood fear mongering deathful destructive oppression of every homosexual on the planet.
next time you see ‘me’, i will be with oneness of the lover i am of another, constant motherfucking happy 24/7, not pretending, no, 100% authentic emotional honest ‘real’.
i need you like a hole in my head
you are all fucking talk
you do not embrace my current ‘real’ life at all.
anyway, i am too fucked up bitter right now, and i am taking a break for however long, a few months, that i need to get centered and purely grounded in my ‘real’ ordinary life
i may return this way again, i may not
cannot do contrived any more
enjoy your ego trip
more toxic bullshit, just what i so need right now
i am returning to ordinary ‘real’ life of oneness with others and another, so you can think or say all you want till your last day of life, and when you wake up and realize how degenerative cold this blog experience was for me of not ‘real’ life authentic holding my motherfucking hand………..it will likely be too late, i will be with another by the time you do.
coward
my time is precious, and all you want to do is waste it in useless nonsense mental spinning of wheels going nowhere, saying nothing, when others need ‘me’.
if you don’t want authentic, don’t waste one more day in phoniness with me at this blog, as my time is valuable…..every second counts in the life of others, at all times.
go cajole and entice another in wasting their time talking about nothing, miss Vatican
i am only interested in ‘real’ from now on, not imagination fluff, puff my feathers, how do i look?
no, i am ‘real’ LGBT family
not for sale, free to just BE
i am not a prop in your closet
hmmm…..what do i want to do?………i think i will go write a play
anyway, i can’t tolerate beng around phony any more, ok?
it’s all just words that lead to nowhere, of each day i wake, in none authentic emptiness i contend with each day, no one there, no ‘real’ life friend of hand to hold, your world, my world, separate worlds in one world, of one generation, your homophobic fear just like most any in life who do not purely care at all to be of ‘real’ life in my world………………
until such a time as you do, don’t bother looking for ‘me’ any more.
i need ‘real’ life friends right now, and that is what you don’t give a fuck at all about, obviously, after two fucking years of what? This blog?
oh, i feel so fucking important to you miss Vatican
i will write a play that will leave this world crushed beyond belief inside, and i am not holding anything back in speaking the TRUTH, of the hollow empty nothingness TRUTH you homophobes don’t even realize how dangerously toxic you are, completely fucking blind leading the blind, until the day you show up at your own child’s funeral in you wondering why they killed themselves.
ya, i think i will go write a play now
i am toxic right now, from over exposure to the homophobes, likely this hellish fucking house i am living in, that is deathly to my pure spiritedness………need to get back to my ghetto i am too far away from right now……..my bitterness.
thought you wanted a ‘real’ life friendship one day that did not come, and i can’t deal with ‘that’ any more, so go do whatever it turn towards doing, i don’t really care any more, need to be doing my own life for awhile in ‘real’ life with authentic ‘real’ friends, as i am too sensitive for the homophobe world, such as this blog has been all along, and yet is………contrived phony waste my time stuckness
my therapist says, “You can get down off the cross now Andyy”
really?
i am free to go?
spiritual death fuckers
hey, why is it when one is down in out in life, so called friends come along and kick you some more?
egotism, that’s why
it’s all in my head, my esteeming so called friends, who are not ‘real’ life friends at all……….it was all just my imagination miss Vatican.
i will survive, better without you miss Vatican
along side pure spirited ones as myself.
where two worlds collide, the spiritual death gross materialism egotism crusader hell of heaven, the spiritual death homophobic taboo ignorance crusader hell of heaven, the spiritual death apathetic disconnected crusader hell of heaven……….that i rise up against each blessed day, of each heartbeat, each breath, each word and each step, always of God’s TRUTH that none of you shall ever become victorious over ‘me’
i knew i should not of stepped outside of the ghetto……..what was i thinking?
that someone loved ‘me’?
hey, i know, let’s fastforward to our last day of life, and you have something you want to say to me………go ahead, trivialize me some more as i take my last breath
you have something you want to say?
go ahead, say it
just know, that i am constantly 100% protected by God’s wisdom before saying what you have to say, ok?
and if i do not respond, because i have already died without you know it, and you are left feeling your own words, just ask yourself, were they true pure words of harmonious love together forevermore, or were they false impure words of false separation against us?
that is how i live each day, only love is good enough to always feel and constantly BE
you were not there for me then, you are not here for me now, in ‘real’ life, holding my motherfucking hand, and until the day you overcome your cowardice ways, i don’t want to speak with you ever again.
so goodbye and farewell, and be thankful i took time out of my life to be with you like i purely did for so long, did i not?
it’s time i let someone chase me day and night, forever at play, of laughing fun loving lovers none stop in only joy.
my destiny
according to God
the time has come
there won’t be an execution this time around fuckers.
other than death to all your useless egos that i will humiliate every single day i walk this planet, everywhere i go with my most loving happy lover, not about wealth, not about religion, not about any of the falsehoods so many of you don’t even realize intrinsically bind your pure spirit like my own.
so instead of talk talk talk, why not walk walk walk beside ‘me’ miss Vatican?
cause you are a coward, that’s why, you run away from yourself, and ‘me’, forever free to Just BE yOUR Self.
rant over
blessings to all
there is nothing trivail about homosexual lovers, as evident of the constant glow of radiant hearts shining brightly, and why?
because our sex is fantastic pure joy for us, that’s why, every single day.
if you want ‘me’, WELL, i am already there, are we not?
we R everywhere Biyatches!
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my last candle just went out, as faint white smoke fades to black and leaves me in peace to just go BE forever more
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i am my comprehension of sacred mirror inner happiness found between to lovers who purely spiritually 100% surrender to one another of forever more flawless healing feelings constantly flowing between them each blessed day they wake 2, of holy joyful absolute carefree happiness shining radiant brilliant bright into the world of affect/effect/direct/indirect at all times, the eternal day light of divine self within eternal all that flows into all eternity.
do not trivialize ‘me’ ever again.
i am holding out for just one
so anything you say contrary to ‘that’, is a waste of your time and mine
and from this day forward, unless it is in person, face to face, as others fearlessly are with ‘me’, don’t bother, ok?
i am not spinning my wheels any longer with you miss Vatican
thanks, butt no thanks
bless you all
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‘that’ is my destiny of divine self, according to God
100% authentic emotional honest safe ‘real’ at all times, every blessed day we wake 2
i do not need anyone to tell ‘me’ what i already know is my destiny, as the ONE i am holding out for who is just like ‘me’, of God that i do as i do
trivialize ‘me’ before God, and you humiliate only yourself from this day forward
if you find ‘that’ with another, enjoy your happiness found within us all
forever more
blessings to all
just ONE………ETERNAL LOVE
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and don’t forget to torch this garbage blog while you are at it.
i did, so can you
Malawi Couple to Be Sentenced in March
Tiwonge Chimbalanga and Steven Monjeza the gay couple detained for holding an unofficial same-sex wedding ceremony in Malawi will be sentenced next month.
Tiwonge Chimbalanga and Steven Monjeza face a maximum of 14 years in prison, according to Agence France-Presse. The couple were denied bail when they went before the court last month.
According to AFP, magistrate Nyakwawa Usiwausiwa said after a hearing Thursday that the court will meet on March 22 for judgment.
in the mean time, rich gay guys like Alexander McQueen, who lived a blessed gay life in the free world, fucking kills himself, like wtf? No one has it as bad as this couple have it, who will be separated from each other for years to come now, who willing stood up in sacrificing themselves, knowing full well they would be charged, a wake up call to the world that we are still out there in harsh realities, hello? Anybody there?
We are the ones who have it better, and we all need to stop feeling fucking sorry for our selves and feel the truth that we are living a blessed life compared to the harsh fucking reality out there, where worse than this is places like Iran, who has executed 4000 of us for homosexual conduct.
Fucking stupid what Alexander did, killing himself, a spoiled fucking brat is all i have to say about you Alexander McQueen, completely fucking ungrateful, like take some of your time and motherfucking money you had Alexander, to free some of our loving brothers from these countries, but no, too fucking pathetically self-absorbed to give a fuck at all in consideration of others, to realize how we need to all be helping one another 24 fucking 7 in the motherfucking fucked up world so many of us yet contend with. Like fuck me Alexander, you fucking had everything so many don’t, not even their fucking freedom you fucking jerk off. Ya, you are dead Alexander, because you are a heartless fuck, and now the homophobes have your fortune, who will piss it down the fucking drain. Way to go Alexander McQueen, you fucking idiot.
last night i listened to the sobing words of an 18 year old Arabic speaking gay youth tell me how bad it is for him and his lover where they live. I put him direct contact with the email address of lawyers here in Toronto, who specialize in sexual orientation refugee status………Siraj’s last words with me after telling him the solution……i hate my country.
and so there you have it, when i say you don’t give a fuck about my ‘real’ life at all people, so go back to your self-absorbed lives like Alexander McQueen, you spoiled fucking brats.
oh for sure, we are friends………….not
thanks for asking about my daily ‘real’ life like you don’t, and why, cause you don’t give a fuck about what i care about, about what i do each blessed day. fuckers
24/7, that is the frontline battle, every second of every blessed day that i know counts in the eyes of God
blessings to all
anyone want to volunteer their precious gold(God’s gold) to usher this Arabic couple to safety? uhm?
no, cause you don’t give a fuck for anybody but yourself.
if one of these kids die, well, you can be sure this friendship is over.
you don’t even have time to listen, do you?
tic toc ……….arghhhhhhhhh
what was that you said again, that i can’t handle the TRUTH?
ah, no, like i said before, i am the TRUTH, and you are forgetfulness foe, are you not?
tea, i need my tea, like yesterday, hello?
i see, they are all still on vacation, are they?
people and their boring lives, how do they live that way, so bored out of their fucking skulls all the time, when there is God’s work to be done, every second, 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, for however long it takes to rid this world of the falsehoods.
are you listening to your heart like i do?
or just pretending like so many do? uhm?
you want eternal day light that shines lights up all eternity, or don’t you?
one soul at a time, where each soul is of affect/effect/direct/indirectness of every soul they come into contact with their entire life, eternal light that shines thru the, thru all others to another, such is the homosexual who walks the planet, of eternal light that in real time lights up the eternal future.
are you people that clueless that you don’t understand that the eternal future is constantly there in the same darkness or light as it is now, that changes or does not change according to you apathy vs compassion, love vs hate, ignorance vs wisdom, devoted works vs empty nothingness?
each second of eternal day light divine self-love shining forth, reverberates thru all eternity in real time, where not just the billions of this generation who walk the earth feel the eternal day light, no, all eternity feels the constant flowing divine self-love eternal day light that does not set, is unable to set once awakened, because ‘that’ is the TRUTH of your divine self………..STILL SLEEPING……………WAKE THE FUCK UP!!!!!!!!! NOW WOULD BE NICE!!!!!!!
argh………..even when you shout it from a roof top, no one can hear.
i speak in every different language, am i not speaking the same language as you? uhm?
= الحياة الروحية
أرواح الموتى لا نعيش.
النفوس حية لا تموت.
ومع ذلك ، عندما كنت تعامل على ارواح القتلى.
كنت تقديمهم للأحياء (مع الحب)
i love the guitar in this song, not so much Paul’s horrible singing
hmmm……all is quiet………
i guess their rich life is more valuable than i am, than my brothers are, than their own divine self is.
ah well, i tryed
no friends of God here
too proud, not humble
well, go to God after this, as i do
i will others to assist like we do, of weekly drag shows
cya
who needs phony friends, when ‘real’ is available
ok, you can torch this embarrassing blog, that humiliates only you now
would not want the world see you humbled before God, no, that would spoil your phony worldly happiness
who’s fake now? uhm?
what part of the future of these teens hangs in the balance did you not hear? uhm?
and who is the trivial one hear? uhm?
who is being trivialized? uhm?
is it not your egos?
according to God it is………the TRUTH
i found God, and God found ‘me’ who finds all YOU…………………….
so i guess that’s it then, yes?
you go live your life now, and i go live mine, hear at the ‘cross’ roads of intertwining lives.
how do you suppose i esteem you now? uhm?
and how do you suppose i will esteem you from this day forward? uhm?
an embarrassment only to you, not ‘me’
i have ‘real’ friends who love ‘me’, like these two teens do, an eternal feeling of only love in their precious lives.
i am not being judgemental
i am BEing TRUTHFUL
i cannot be friends with the likes of you any more who don’t at all about even the words i say in their heart like i do.
poor man meets rich man
question is, which one of us is TRULY rich? uhm?
whatever Biyatches
better places to BE
i won’t return this way again, of Jesus who says to BE as a passerby, and now i know why
i could not be dis dis-concerning like so many of you are, of impure hearts too proud of hollow nothingness that tears us apart.
i wanted a ‘real’ friend i said to God
is that too much to ask
not according to the ‘real’ friends i have.
ha, one who is purely of God comes your way, more wise than any of your rabbis, who says he won’t dine at your fine tables, and you cannot even look apon me to speak, because you know purely in your heart, i am 100% of God’s eternal light.
so much for happiness found not hear, nor shall you find ‘me’
unwise spiritual death
what you turn towards you BEcome at all times
where your heart is, there too shall BE your treasure
is my friendship with you not of any value to you?
you cannot smite God
it is God who smites you
anyway, they just need airfare, not difficult to fund raise, many organizations here standing by
just thought you might want to participate in ‘real’ life of my world, ya, i sorta expected a homophobic empty cup from you
i know where my heart belongs, and always has been found each blessed day for how many decades now?
and look how vast we have grown, of hearts aglow without frown, albeit of frown
ive always wanted to overcome this world, and in my heart i did along time ago, and always shall.
not sure who you were that was hear all this time, other than to say, you were not Madonna.
take care
farewell
blessings to all
no ONE listening………….
for the homosexual, God’s war is one of ease in cosntant feeling as we all do each blessed day, of constant TRUTH we constantly R; God’s war, our war within and without, of love vs hate, wisdom vs ignorance, compassion vs apathy in our Just BEing yOUR Self.
blessed is the homosexual constant self-love i know i i am
blessings to all
forever more
ohh what ever
go cry Wolf
you stupid old Poof
no one care’s
fuck off homophobes
homophobes like you who stand by and do nothing to save others from being stoned to death are no friend of mine, or those of the LGBT worldwide community, or of God.
cry wolf? do i lie about the those who kill homosexuals? see for yourself.
you are the one who lies to God and your own divine self in leading only yourself away from a blessed path.
you are an embarrassment to yourself homophobes, making only a mockery of you
obviously
well if you camp queens and lived a normal life you would’nt draw attention to yourself to these homophobes…
your fault for labeling yourself.
god why does everyone have to label themselves or belong to a group
be a fucking individual
for fuck’s sake
be yourself insted of copying the mainstream gay bullshit
dickhead
who me, im fine, no problem for me or concern.
you do not embrace reality for homosexuals in danger.
gay couples in these Arabic speaking countries, hide as much as possible, but the get found out eventually, and the hypocrisy heart ones, like yourself, come along and report them, as execution gangs come and nab them.
that is what is going on over there, they fear for their lives, and do not want to live like that daily in fear of dying.
so as a minority, you say we should not gather together in celebration of our blessed life that most religions are against us who take away our sense of belonging, a psychological need?
i should of know it was a homophobic snake pit here. fuck.
i am an individual of all sexualities as a pansexual
anyway, you have given me reason not to ever return here again
fuck off and goodbye
we are rising up in the world, and our numbers are vast.
we shall rule this world one day
By: Nox Arcana
Lyrics: Michelle Belanger
Album: Blood of Angels
We are the twilight and we are the dawn.
We are the silence when all else is gone.
We are the ancient ones, we are the flames.
Once you would pray to us, call us by name.
Ours is the power and ours is the might.
Ours are the shadows that swallow the light.
Worship us mortals, bow down to our reign!
The blood of the angels, it beats in our veins.
Azazel, Sariel, Koshbiel, Shamsiel,
Ananel, Sethiel, Raziel, Zaquiel.
Gibborim, Annakim, heroes of old.
In words of the prophets our fate is foretold.
Once we were scattered, in hiding, alone,
Now we have marshalled to reclaim our throne.
We are the twilight and we are the dawn.
We are the silence when all else is gone.
We are the ancient ones, we are the flames.
Once you would pray to us, call us by name.
Azazel, Sariel, Koshbiel, Shamsiel,
Ananel, Sethiel, Raziel, Zaquiel.
just one who will love me forever each blessed day as i do them
that passes us by along lover’s road………story of my fucking life
DID YOU EVER CONSIDER THE GAYS IN ARABIC CUNTRIES MAYBE WERE GAY BASHERS IN THEIR LAST LIFE AND ARE NOW INCARNATED IN THIS LIFE AS SUCH SO THAT THEY MAY EXPERIENCE WHAT IT WAS LIKE FOR THEIR VICTIMS IN THEIR LAST LIFE… ? HA ?? DID YA ??
NAH YOU WERE BEING JUDGEMENTAL AS PER USUAL !
YOUR ARE YOUR OWN WORST ENEMY
YOU DISMISS ME TIME AND TIME AGAIN WITH SUCH ARROGANCE
WHEN YOU FAIL TO SEE WHAT I SEE
YOUR TOO BUSY INSIDE YOUR OWN HEAD
TO LISTEN TO ME
YOU COPY WHAT SUITS YOU
AND FORGET THE REST
FORGET
FORGET
FORGET
ME NOT
some how i don’t go along with your eluding delusional sitting on the fence explanation justification of a gay youth hanging by the neck that appeases the egocentric spiritual death squad bullies, and obviously racist you, who get off on control over others, and when the day these asshole bullies attack us with the same said mentality brat of a child of God, i will celebrate their dismembered bodies burning in flames and cast out of the future path of any further death destruction and oppression of my loving gay brothers and sisters.
as i said, as one who is of God, i am not being judgemental, i am divine truth that is not challengable by you ego maniac hypocrisy heart fucktards who stand idle, and when these jackasses kill one of your own loved ones one day, you can thank your own ego maniac sitting on the fence self for ‘that’.
honestly, that was the most stupid fucking thing i have ever heard in my entire life, in attempt to justify your own homophobia towards me coward.
wow………i really understand what Jesus means in not listening to those who cajole entice and mock you into useless conversations, and rather pass them by in letting them feel the truth of their turning towards their wretched hypocrisy heart like they do, obviously only they who make a mockery of themselves……….like how fucking stupid is that anyway?
well, ok, come back another time, after one of these wretched ones hurts one of your loved ones, and tell me this explaination again, and be sure to laugh about it again, ok?
you are sick in the head, not me, laughing about a defenseless gay teen hanging by the neck.
well, all can say to you, is God has a lesson in life that will come your way, and no longer will you ever laugh again.
honestly, i would rather be dead than to ever endure listening to such absurd childish empty mockery mad laughter fool such as you…..like how much of a fucking idiot are you………forget i asked, explain to God whom i hand you over to now, as i no longer wish to deal with your shit for brains mockery.
there is nothing to remember of your empty nothingness you come from hypocrisy heart fool, where it is you alone shall remaing alone without ‘me’ in your delight of such cajoling empty twisting of truth mad laughter, and when you fall to your knees before God and no longer laughing, in coming face to face with your own wretched self one day, you shall come fully to know the ‘real me’ who peers purely apon the truth everywhere i do and am.
what suits ‘me’, are the tender loving lover words of another whispering in my hear.
so ya, i am too busy to listen to you any longer, purely loving inside my own brain sex activity head, ya, i guess i do copy the loving lover of another in our oneness heaven’s delight we purely both are, in easily forgetting the rest……what lovers do.
and for the one who said i wax poetic, you too shall feel God’s truth one day, where there are no words that wax poetic at all, of flawless feelings you feel when you come face to face in pure knowingness of your own wretched false self so blind.
what is there to remember at this blog, uhm?
oh ya, contrived falsity rhetoric of a sexually frustrated closet case fence sitter who openly thinks it is ok to execute a gay teen.
i doubt God is on your side, and what will be will be the exact truth that shall greet each and everyone of you from this day forward, as to the exact negligence fence sitters you all yet remain as, indeed of the horrific future that is going to unfold, just as 9/11 unfolded, where everyone said the same thing, “how come we did not do something about it?”
because you are a fence sitter alongside those of wretched vile evil so black in their hearts, it is a wonder they are able to be alive.
so ya, sit back, and relax fence sitters, here comes the truth you all subconsciously seek, of the future unfolding everyone, that will greet us all, just as it does everyday for every homosexual on the planet, where we are the ones who are the constant TRUTH.
i equally loath the fence sitters as much as the evil ones they side with as though what they do is ok, which i am having a hard time sitting here actually listen to you laugh in mad laughter over the senseless death of gay teens…..clearly you are a homophobic jerk like those who kill us.
well, now you can go humble yourself before God one day asking forgiveness from God, not me, as i am done wasting time with useless mindlessness you seem to enjoy.
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Jesus says, “Mourn for your divine self, obviously unattended, as evident of your impure empty mindless mad laughter thoughts you take delight in spewing forth”
one day you shall longer laugh ever again at ‘that’ which is not funny at all………the TRUTH…….that you turn away from purely feeling within, just as you do not desire to purely truly know ‘me’ the same way i know you.
any more senseless empty offerings to a divine child while standing before God? uhm?
you are a selfish coward in the eyes of God……….obviously
you cannot even have a conversation with one who is purely of God’s divine self-love awareness truth.
do you think your words are funny?
somehow i doubt the parents of the gay teens hanging by the neck think your words are funny.
all of you who continue to trivialize homosexuals in your outward conduct, know this, truth of your empty perpetuating trivializing of homosexuals shall greet you squarely one day, and you will fall to your knees before God asking forgiveness of every single word you ever foolishly uttered in taking sides with the wretched forefather snarings yet of so many who do not know God, nor desire to know God, even of those who claim to know God and so obviously do not, such as you of the Catholic Church.
The day will come when the Catholic Church will no longer be allowed to openly oppress homosexuals, just as is now the against the law here in Canada, so too the entire world will follow suit, in casting such vile wretchedness away from us like they openly yet do.
they are direct contributors to suicide of homosexuals in the world, just as are all you in open remarks so blatantly vile in wretched mad laughter.
there is light within those of light, if they do not shine forth light of constant truth, then they are darkness. ~ Jesus
Jesus is not judgmental, Jesus truthful, for sake of divine self eternal all.
Go before God if you want to know one such as ‘me’ who is surrendered to oneness truth with my best friend Jesus, somewhat beyond the comprehension of you mad laughter falsity malice fools, with nothing better to do, such as God’s work, than make fun of one who is of God.
to be sure, i won’t allow myself to waste any more precious time with you again, of Jesus who asks that i do not, as it is obvious you just want to throw me into a pile of shit, in not weighing the life and death words i speak that are from the lips of Jesus who you openly attempt to make a mockery of.
discern for sake of you your own unloving bitter gnashing of teeth waste of time outside the kingdom of heaven, for that is what you are to ‘me’
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beyond my own life, is the light i awaken and purely nurture in the souls i take time with, each one of blessed path ahead who remain purely as they are within as i am, our oneness sameness divine self-love light that shines thru them to another, every blessed day of their entire life journey, oneness sameness light that shines thru another to another, long after i am gone from this earth, long after they too are gone from this earth, of oneness sameness divine self-love awareness light that shines into the eternal future, lighting up all eternity forever more.
so i ask, why do you waste my time in useless hypocrisy heart you take delight in, when clearly i do not?
why say anything unloving?
i do not despise the pure soul within everyone, rather i despise the senseless ego falsehoods that want over ‘me’, that serve no one, bringing only false harm to others not of the fortitude of divine self-love awareness wisdom that awakens, nurtures and protects them from your generational mad laughter.
at all times it is life and death for us out there.
so think twice before attempting to ridicule only yourself before God from now on, ok?
your fueling the fires of darkness in the hearts of many out there is exactly ‘that’, more madness darkness that continues to kill us, destroy us, oppress us.
yes, at all times, you are either light or darkness that you choose to turn towards.
at all times, your darkness you choose to spu forth, does fuel the death of others directly/indirectly.
there is nothing funny at all about a gay youth being hanged.
at all times it is God’s WAR of TRUTH
God’s divine self-love awareness TRUTH is not judgmental
rather it is inescapable
where it is only the fool thinks they escape God’s TRUTH that a wise divine child of God clearly feels with clarity all you who turn away from divine self-love awareness TRUTH wisdom in everything you say or do.
go question God’s divine WILL for TRUTH, my divine WILL, rather than ‘me’ from now on, ok?
i am merely a messenger
blessings to all
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all i ever want from you is ‘that’ of yOUR ONEness love
anything less is exactly ‘that’, less than what i am
of those i do not find ‘that’ with, i pass by until another day
many there are who i do find ‘that’ with daily
what i turn towards (most of the time)
admittedly, i am still detoxing……so piss off, ok?
fuck, try to get some rest and heal around here, and all i get is flack!
somebody flack me! lol
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omg your staring to sound like a victim, not a good look
Just ask Jesus ! 😉
for flack’s sack,
all you need is what you already got…
A spiritual friendo
Every one needs and Angel,
I’ve been rehursing this song now for sex months i’ll sing it to you one day
seriously i wanna shaggy, but im a homophobe so it would’nt work, closet gay they say ..
did the hair’s on your arm’s STAND UP when you heard the word’s to that song ?
Omg LOL
Dirty Bitch
what i know, is the female of the male is ‘real’ of everyone
therefore the male of the female is also ‘real’ of everyone
those who explore this of their own self, are the one’s who purely know the truth
those who do not explore this of their own self, are the one’s who do not purely know the truth
it is a rift in society that sees foolish generational taboo ignorances that keeps those who do not purely know, remaining as they are, sadly outside of the realm of knowing the truth of their own divine self.
no matter how much angst, or how much one side says of the other, the truth remains the truth, one side knows what the other side has yet to know.
i don’t see myself as a victim, but i do compassionately feel for those of the truth who are victimized to the extent of being killed by deniars and liars of the truth.
those of the truth are not victims, rather are purely joyous of the truth we celebrate.
those not of the truth are victims, rather are not purely joyous of the truth we celebrate.
how can one celebrate preferred priority of truth they do not (yet) know?
intuitively everyone knows, of what is the purity love harmoniousness of self-love within those purely of their own self-love, self-love oneness of another.
i just wish we could do away with the argument debate over truth, and scientifically prove that everyone is of primal innate sexual behavior of both male and female sexual behavior within every brain of the female and male.
is God female or male?
both. duh!
morons
shag?
WELL, i am not one who is able to deny the truth i am
both female and male
on bridging this rift of awareness, i speak on my own awareness;
~ when it comes to my male having sex with the female of the male, the sex is the same as with a female for the male.
~ when it come to the female of the male having sex with a male, the sex is the same as with a male for the female.
therefore for my female counter parts;
~ when it comes to their female having sex with the male of the female, the sex is the same as with a male for the female.
~ when it comes to their male of the female having sex with a female, the sex is the same as with a female for the male.
the ‘real’ difference is that of the ONEness self-love between two of the same sex who are WELL evolved in self-love exploration of the truth of being both male and female, particularly of the versatile crowd, which i am.
truth be told, i cannot be with those who are not of the self-love awareness exploration i am
although i can teach the self-love awareness with willing participants…..key word: WILLING
you are all angels 2 me
as for a match made in heaven, i already am truth of heaven, which leaves you where, in denial untruth of ‘me’ who is forever free to just BE heaven’s truth?
OUT side of heaven, on the otherside of the TRUTH rift yet of this unwise world.
so if you wanna find ‘me’, surrender to ‘me’, and we shall forever see the constant glee when you fumble trying to strap on that……….omg, get away from me with that thing, like holy fuck, did not know they made such a……….
well ok, admittedly, i get alot of females of males who love my male self, but unfortunately, as shallow as this may sound, they are not properly equiped to satisfy my female self, and that is a problem.
when it comes to my female self, which i predominantly am of preferred priority in being, physically mentally, emotionally, sexually, spiritually, i am most comfortable around females, which means i am mostly a female lesbian trapped in a male body, butt please know, i am female first, male second, which means you get to cum before i do………….Biyatch!
cause i respect you more than those egotistic self-serving males.
lol
it’s not up to ‘me’ to decide what i already am, now is it?
omg it’s all too confusing you know all this gender stuff, it freaks me out all too complicated …
anyhow forget about me because im not interested in people who just want me for sex…
I think that is so lame…
as for the dirty bitch comment………..
i am surrounded by angels as their guardian, in a world that is harmful to their pure spirit like my own.
the only thing dirty is how people falsely paint me as less than what i constantly am to my angels, the same spiritual pure self-love i started OUT as long ago, as they constantly are too, only much wiser than my tender young angles with new wings, as i once was before, in seeing myself in them, so afraid, telling them the truth that only love is good enough for you to always feel and constantly BE who i know you all are within…………only love.
they sense my constant unwavering eternal love as a spiritual best friend who respectfully does not cross the line with them. Just ask any of them for the truth i am with all of them, merely a guide, the same guide i did not have at their tender age of coming out.
i love them all as though myself, in truth, they are who i am
a spiritual true and faithful best friend to eternal all yet to come
i am
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honestly, i don’t have any experience with the male of a female to know if they are more loving with my female self, which i suspect they are, naturally so, in what we know of oneness between those of the same sex.
i know, kinda out there in realm of thinking on my own, as one who crossed over to their other sex as a M-F transgender.
i absolutely purely love who i am
my difficulty is with those who do not purely attempt to know me in order to love, where i am left having to chose among many who do not measure up. lol
do you think i am shallow? is that shallow and selfish of me?
once you have experienced certain sexual height awareness, it’s not like you can simply ignore the truth, i mean ya, you can ignore it, but who suffers in the end?………no pun intended
i constantly love them all, purely i do, but when it comes to personal choice of a lover for ‘me’, well, i will decide ‘that’
without doubt………..they must love ‘me’
as much as i do as i do
ya, well fine, be that way, scardy cat.
blessed spiritual love between spiritual lovers is what i am, and the one who gets ‘me’, according to God, is the one meant for ‘me’, just like ‘me’ physically mentally emotionally sexually spiritually of none stop happiness oneness of 2
i agree with you partly, ya, i cannot do the phobia one sex relationships
and why should i surrender to anyone less than i am, if i am knowingly of two sexes? uhm?
‘that’ is what is lame for ‘me’
you know, in life, i honestly have to say, there is nothing worse than being patronized by someone who is more lame than i am
TRUTH
peace OUT
forever more
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fine, go live a boring life
i am way past being directly concerned any more for lameass wannaBEs
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most valuable of all in blessed life is constant purity self-love oneness awareness happiness mirror of the loving lover YOU of eternal all YOU
what is sex?
in truth, sex is always between a female and a male, even of those who are not yet of full awareness of this truth, no matter your orientation.
i am one who has explored this along time and i know this purely so, as one who is equally loving as one of two sexes that i originated from.
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and i say, both the female and male orgasmic experience is one and the same experience for both, although i will say, there is the total body earth shattering orgasmic experience that is achievable for any to enjoy………..daily!
if you desire positive well being, sex is one way to release those happy chemicals in your brain, and you do not need a partner to achieve this.
so go be whatever way you want to be, sex is all the same for all of us, no matter orientation or what sex you are, orgasmic experience is the one and the same for all.
as for ‘me’, i enjoy my female total body orgasmic experience the most, ideally with the assistance of another playing the role of the male.
and likewise, my self-love respect is the same love i am while playing the role of a male with my female lover of either a female or male body.
any questions?
ok, be sure to spend sufficient time working your homework assignment………’me’!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol
one kick at the can of life, kick it WELL
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ok, i am off to my daily spa Biyatches
enjoy the blessed day, you only get so many of them, one less than you had yesterday.
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oh, and the best lube on the market is the product line called ‘pjur’
take my word, only the best, fuck the rest……….i mean who has time to sleep with this hotass body laying beside you? uhm?
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oh, i know you better than you care to admit to your own self, much less the world.
i was like that once before.
then i realized i was denial of my own happiness now truthfully found.
well, i am not about to change my sexual orientation to appease anyone, not ever, that’s just false of even me to think i can.
so go be whatever self-love discovery you endeavor in, as i continue on in my own, where i do not see any of us different from another, when it comes to the divine true ‘real’ self-actualization.
in truth, no matter who you are in this world, today or all eternity, we are all doing the same thing as human beings, enjoying what it is like to be the sensory perceptions of the creature called the human being, together along side one another on ball of dirt covered in life forms called planet Earth, of all life here sustained by the radiant energy as the star sun floating near to our planet, in a galaxy called the Milky Way…….what a great name, fuck, so gay, yes?
is one person more capable of enjoying the their taste buds more than another?
no
is one person more capable of enjoying their hearing more than another?
no
is one person more capable of enjoying their sight more than another?
no
is one person more capable of enjoying their smell more than another?
no
is one person more capable of enjoying their touch more than another?
no
is one person more capable of enjoying their ass more than another?
is one person more capable of enjoying their ass more than another?
some people think they are, butt in truth, no one is more capable than another, other than those who are handicapped, where their loss of one sensory perception, is offset by enhancement of the others.
and as for me chopping my dick off to appease another, think again Biyatches! It ain’t happening! Not now, not ever! So don’t even speculate that it will, as it is not my will, rather the unwise will of another who says i have to conform.
i conform to BEing ‘me’ of delightful joyFULLness as the two sexes i came from………….daily.
thank you for listening/feeling to truth.
blessings to all
peace be to you
and peace be to you
forever more
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only love
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the rest is all bullshit
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fuck off, your just jealous cause i got a hot French chick living in my house … & your not in my life right now..!! your loss .. like i giva a Toss…
mwah ,,,,
who’s care’s not even a billion AIR could tease my curiosity
yer it’s still UP in the air
but hey
YOU
pay UP
or
Stuff
UP
huh? what the fuck are you going on about now? smoke another one……
it’s not about anything other than divine self-love inner constant connectedness within of oneness sameness as another, of the only value in life our time together each blessed moment of each day, ya, sure, i mean there is all the annoying derogatory scatter brain bullshit that interferes with intimacy of lovers and friends, that the dysfunctional self-medicating crowd know all too well, but not ‘me’
i am my own destiny already in preparedness of one just like ‘me’, in pure delight of our mutual enjoyment delight of heaven’s fanciful dance in the moonlight, prance to the noonflight, that gets you ass in my hands to fuck i hope of soonlight………..
jealous of a hot french chick with no dick, oh yeah, i am so jealous of ‘that’…………..not
what is it about people who take delight in hearing themselves say nothing at all anyway, like why say anything if it’s not about my dick in your ass? uhm?
fucking wannabe lameass contenders of not even pretender, i mean why not say something useful, like wanting fuck me at the oceans edge under a full moon, with soft music, the eternal soothing of the waves breaking, the shark the eats your sorry ass that i am not able to save, not that i want to, after you swim too far away from me? uhm?
what about ‘real’?
is there anyone hear of ‘real’ words to say?
oh go back to your boring girlfriend, see if i care, and like that is ever going to help ‘me’ with may earth shattering anal orgasmic heavenly experience that reveals without doubt, there is no better place in life than your ass in mine hands………..Biyatch!
the only one jealous around hear is you of my fearlessness way beyond your miserable pathetic sex life that i walked away from years ago, like two fucking decades ago Biyatch!
you know, as a teen, i did the same thing with my boyfriend David, where we invited all our ex girlfriends to the same party, did not tell each other who each one was, invited some of our stupid anal retentive boyfriends as well, and when they all got in the car and fucked off on David and i, after realizing what we did, i picked up stone gravel from the driveway and threw them at their car as they speed away, as David and i turned to one another, smoked another joint, and kissed of heavenly kiss under moonlight, as we frantically tore each other’s clothes off and dove back into the pool………..then the hot tub, sauna, shower and bed with only thoughts of cock in my head…….and my ass……..mmmmmmmmm……..heaven
whatever homophobe mr.nevers
not like i am even knocking on your door any more, and why should i? uhm?
so i can listen to more patronizing hide in my closet YOU too afraid to do ‘me’? uhm?
that reminds me, i really should look David up again……..
Loving blessed lover life is divine self-love angelic awareness oneness within, oneness within another, of one’s surrendered true authentic genuine sincere desire enjoyment as though one with each other of mirroring likeness and form of each other.
keywords: desire
i come to say one last time, if you do not desire ‘me’ then i will seek another, and pray you love and happiness 24/7 as i purely already am within, of momentary pausing along love’s road to purely feel the truth of who is there……….or not.
life is short, and we get brief moments along life’s path with potential lovers, and then the moment is gone, as we pass one another by, and before you know it, our life is over, where i don’t want to find myself at the end of life, wishing i had of said the words i wanted to say and did not say.
i cannot say what i have to say, and instead would rather show you, of the only way i can truly convey my tender graceful sensual lips kissing another ever so softly with beads of sweat dripping from our faces to our naked bodies.
oooooooo……..that is a hot scene, yes?
with that said, perhaps another time we shall entertain one another again.
it has been a fun time(mostly) all this time at Madonna’s blog Biyatches, although i am not sure who most of you were, and you were all rather insincere for the most part, not like others out there in real life connecting with each other like many of us do, for whatever and WHATEVER reasons…….
as you know, the world is of heavy spiritual poverty arrogance and blindness, that i am wisely protected from by the light of God who has awakened my divine self-love, now wisely discerning of what spiritual arrogance blindness is, having once been blind to my own pure spirit now protected.
indeed, there are dark powerful forces yet in the world, such as the arrogance of the yet scattered falsehood incomplete aimless religions in the world, where church and state should not be allowed to sit at the same table, when considering the forecast of united global economic prosperity for all people.
Capitalism does have a viscous insatiable appetite to consume it’s own body, if left unregulated by governments who do have the law on their side. As in the past, as will be the future, there will always be lawlessness in the world economy, but over all, the people are generally pure of heart in outward appearance as individuals who work as participants of our global economy, who really are not even about status quo, in their heart of hearts, particularly of the most happy loving lovers who know full well, status quo is not ever the measure of anyone’s soul, nor will it be.
whatever created us, and i do believe we are offspring of some life force entity in the universe, i have to say, were are extraordinary wondrous beautiful purely delicate sensitive creatures by nature, just like nature, where i am always dismayed by any of you who are contrary to your own divine self true nature that some of you have come into awareness of.
personally, i just want someone to share each day and night with as fun loving best friends and lovers doing whatever the fuck we feel like doing when we feel like doing it.
and is that not what any of us do day after day, just doing whatever we turn towards doing in the free world?
enjoy your blessed life each passing moment of each blessed day as your divine true natured ‘real’ self i know as my own self, of priority preferred pleasantness with one another, as that really is the only value of anyone’s life journey, not any of these status wealth things that none of us were born with or had any true need of.
i always say to people, you can live in a mansion, and feel alone and unloved in life, without the sincere true best friend and lover to be with each blessed day, needlessly, where it is merely a matter of you being the sincere and true best friend and lover YOU, that we all desire, as one who purely knows the loving lover i know i am……just ask around.
oh hey, i know that tramp, ya, she fucked off with my boyfriend for the weekend, i caught them kissing on the subway platform……….again! lol
ya, i guess it’s that time, yes?
that i get on with my lover life?
why delay?
no one sincerely approaching ‘me’ hear………….my be cause i am queer, yes?
you know, queer is way more fun people.
truly
blessings to all
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wow, that’s cool, ever since i sent an email to the techie boys at intel, telling them instead of trying to go faster, link chips together as one, they have been doing just that, now with quad-core microchip core linkage, that does four times as much work at the same speed they left off at as before…….simply brilliant, yes?
Expensive to, fuck, $1200 for a cpu, i mean come on guys, that price is like way out of range, you are hanging yourselves out to dry, as in pricing yourselves out of the main stream market. duh!
been thinking of moving to Vancouver, mountains, ocean, start a new life, a fresh start, invigorating for the soul. Toronto is somewhat of a cold town, i always found, stand offish, i hear Vancouver is more laid back, better for this country boy spirit, yes?
natural inner core happiness of dwelling in our own body.
yes go move on …
I’ve seen & heard enough today…
you know what im talking about…
like i said i can see right through you…
& right now i dont like what i see..
Goodbye
just one thing about mr never, i made a choice a while back actualy 15yrs ago now (after realising that fake plastic blow up doll’s can actually drive a Cab’s), to take a different path a spirtitual one,because i did’nt want to end up being something and then a making a complete idiot of myself & besides Id rather be a real person and nothing than… than well i wont lower myself you’ll only say im being insincere in my approaching..
& you think I allow these stupid games to effect me ?
I’d rather be who i am and nothing, than a plastic house on a monopoly board game…
games , games , games
what do you..!
I dont DO people…
go fuck off yourself
and whats the album title going to be
singing chimpanzee
or singing & dancing chimpanzee
maybe the hit sing should be
the chimp & his pimp
you should learn how to speak to one as though you are speaking to God when approaching ‘me’ as i am protected by God’s wisdom of divine self-love awareness 2
attempt to ridicule ‘me’, and your only ridicule yourself before God
oneness takes authentic sincerity of 2, not 1
i pray you find oneness within, within another
i already am what you look for, but you don’t have time for ‘me’
how do you suppose that leaves ‘me’ feeling day after day?
i am not running away, i am waiting for you catch up
where would i run 2?
cannot run away from my own self
i commited to you as a true and faithful friend along time ago, the only way i knew how, in being true and faithful ‘real’ me, in which we both have grown and continue to grow.
i am more ‘real’ than ever, in saying honestly, i don’t feel you are truly as interested in ‘me’ as i am YOU
i am expressing myself purely of the truth i am left to feel daily
i realize i am healing over many things deep in the core of my being, where i am slowing in my question what others may think negatively of ‘me’, as one who is coming fully into eternal day light divine self-love awareness of the true ‘real’ self i always was.
i have been of inappropriate behavior in a none controlled environment, recklessly so, that has steadily been non productive……..forgive me for that, i am not expert in psychology, nor do i claim to be.
derogatory words are exactly ‘that’, non productive, and a waste of time in continued falsehood mask layering of underlying unresolved issues, that much i do know.
my own bitterness is the manifestation of my needs not being met, that much i do know, as a result of where i am right now, not a bad thing, just exactly where i have journey thru thus far, of the most catharsis process experience of my life so far.
is it so wrong of me to have the same wonderful pure homoerotic feelings i have been living as for twenty years?
no
i wanted to explore us, but how, on a fucking blog?
how about you ask yourself how insulting that would be if i did that to you?
as i said before, there is no way to purely know and love someone unless it is in person
so go on with your fake little spiel in your phony fake crocodile tears Biyatch, just adding more insult to injury of inauthentic, when all anyone wants or deserves is pure emotional honest safe……….100% or forget it.
i am not playing a game, you are.
and now you are playing the phony cop out
either get real with ‘me’, or don’t
i want a hand to hold and kiss everyday
we all do
and you treat ‘me’ like an alien, where other’s do not.
hello, the year is 2010, and how long has Andy waited? uhm?
you don’t even talk to me in private any more.
miss cop out
what you really need to do, is realize the purity of the oneness love i am within, within others, if you are ever going to step foot purely so into the LGBT worldwide community in standing up as one of us alongside of me, respectful in the sacred deeds of my every word with ‘family’ i am supportive of………….these kids need someone to talk to, so they don’t fucking hang themselves stupidly like Troy did, or did you forget the life experience i came thru, or should i say more accurately, the death valley i still walk in alongside of family.
if you cannot purely respect ‘that’ 100% as does God, you and i cannot ever be true friends like i am with God and God with ‘me’.
when i lost Troy, i realized i was up against the entire world that crushed down on us like it did, GENERATIONALLY SPEAKING.
at all times i am of pure awareness that my every step, every word, every breath, every heartbeat is the same as Jesus, rising up against generational mad flood drowning ignornaces of death destruction and oppression of our loving brothers and sisters thruout the entire world.
i used to march the streets of Toronto, now i march the entire world in all languages, and in truth, in only ONE language, our oneness love language of the most loving lovers on this bullshit planet of wretched vile deathful destructive oppressive IGNORANCE.
if you think for one second i am going to turn my backs on them, think again Biyatch.
it is i who invites you to my life, not i who wants to come to yours………Biyatch!
oooo, that last one i really need to say, why is that?
CAUSE IT IS THE TRUTH……..i loath the homophobes, ok?
miss cop out
you started it with words like Toss
i cannot handle this any more, i really can’t, i crushes in on me daily, so badly, you have no idea, and yet it is cathardic for me, but somedays you feel cruel, mecilessly cruel, of what God refers to as cruel gutters we allow ourselves to get dragged thru.
i have needs that are best met with a loving lover
end of conversation
so unless you want to kiss my ass all day and night like i do yours, well, there is nothing more to say, is there?
either fuck me or fuck off!
plain and simple
miss cop out
oooooo………this should make for some really good angry sex, yes? lol
Biyatch
oh, and one more thing, i KNOW i am the best fuck in town, way beyond your boring ass wannabe anal retentive robbing the craddle ones can even dream of.
did i just say that? lol
they MUST love ‘me’
and they all do
and the ones who do not, are cowardice egocentric fucktards afraid of their own divine self.
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holy holy holy
learn to know the Divine Self of your own BEing which brings freedom for your pure spirits as my own, away the mad flood deluge tyranny world yet bound in ignorance.
i don’t suppose even one of your rabbis has these true divine self words written down any where, do they?
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an no, i don’t know what you are talking about, i am just living my life like i always do every day like i always have, ordinary ‘real’, of no desire for tyranny spiel excusing themselves away day after day, so how be you stop talking and find the courage to kiss ‘me’, or go kiss someone else, just don’t expect ‘me’ to wait around here even one more day for more the same negligence i have grown utterly and completely tired of with someone who does not even ask me how my day is, if i would like to go for dinner sometime, no, just miss cop out trying to find her way OUT of boring lameass wannabe homophobiaville……..
not ‘me’, i found my way out along time ago, so either catch up or don’t, there is nothing i can do to change ‘that’, only you can change.
what would i change, back to boring lameass homophobiaville i have dreaded for the past twenty years?
think again, won’t ever happen, just like i feel we won’t happen, so long as……………………so long as………………….so long as you don’t ask me to marry you, cause i don’t want to ask you to marry ‘me’ as i am already married to God, just as Jesus was, so am i, but you can ask God to marry Jesus, just as i did…………..
[Andyy leans over and whispers to Jesus]
ya, you remember that time in the hallway Jesus?…. i softly whispered it to you, marry me, and you thought i was joking, i wasn’t joking……………………OH, IS THAT IT, I AM A JOKE TO YOU? WELL FUCK YOU BIYATCH!!!!!!! lol
what?
no sense of humor
i was being serious, actually……………………
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your reward shall be egolessness
in case anyone is wondering what i am about
give thanks to Jesus and God
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we are all the sanctity of equals the world over in selfless striving of this truth that leads to everlasting peace
‘that’ is the TRUTH in concordance with God
anyone contrary to the TRUTH, temporarily, in unwisely unknowingly following falsehood, unwisely condemns the purified soul of the truthful wide awake consciousness within everyone(blind leading the blind)
so fire away, miss cop out, speaking as though i am an unwise fool you do not desire to spend time with in purely knowing ‘me’
you cannot smite God’s divine will for truth in this unwise lead astray falsehood world of so many of you who ‘think’ you are wiser than in exalting yourselves as though greater among others.
in your heart of hearts, tell God, and then tell me what your exiled spirit purely is for, other than to be wholly united with ‘me’ in all of ‘that’ which i am that we all are?
oh, and i like your new nickname that sticks, so long as you do not repent in fully embracing God’s divine self-love truth wisdom
you cannot bring unwise harm to anyone’s spirit already united with God, rather the falsehood unwise undescerning self-serving words you speak, are able to bring harm to your own purified divine self.
according to God
i am merely a messenger
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I AM HOMOSEXUAL! ~ self-love of my true ‘real’ self by nature since puberty….in true, since born if you want to talk about the true nature of divine self light we originate from in the core of our being while in the womb.
you do not accept my orientation, and your useless words in falsity malice ill refute emptiness of no point discussion remain as a black mark on all Lesbians, Gays, Bisexuals, Transsexuals/Transgendered, that makes a mockery only of you, not any of us who are wise to your homophobia miss cop out
I AM BOTH FEMALE and MALE! ~ that i originated from in reproduction of the exact same oneness sameness cells as the beginning thru all eternity
so now your useless words of falsity malice ill refute emptiness of no point discussion remain as a black mark on ALL FEMALES as one who is sexist, again, making only a mockery of you.
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hey, why don’t you just tell me the simple truth, i am not your type that turns you on?
instead of all these aimless tangents that lead to nowhere?
does my homosexuality offend you? Are you that homophobic of your own pure self-love homosexual feelings of your own body you live love and dwell in? You don’t love your self as much as i do?
i can fix that ya know, by loving you more than anyone ever has in your entire life, 24/7 of sweet anticipation holy joyful bubbling absolute carefree happiness beaming radiant brilliant bright each morning you wake to that eventually see and end to your bad dreams you keep having each morning like you do, of me not yet there laying beside you like you purely want me to one day, like you always pray, of one so gay just like you, eternal happiness of 2 forever more, of you taking deep breaths in sigh of relief that you finally did marry me………Biyatch!
you know, there really is lots of fish in the sea who know our constantly love being our oneness sameness in each passing moment, purely ‘that’ of our true nature as found in nature.
Biyatch!
ya, God is pimping me out for free Biyatches, remindiing all of you that every single cell in my body is the same as yours, of constant conscious awakeness of oneness tasting, smelling, hearing, seeing, touching and flawlessly healing feeling exactly the same way, especially of our heavenly orgasmic brain sex activity……….WE ALL ENJOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
like wtf?
maybe i really am an alien…………..not according to God i am not, rather it is all you who alienate your exiled intuitive flawless spirit like my own, what Heaven constantly is, of the only value in life, so aimlessly haphazardly foolishly ignorantly blindly in distracted falsehood unattendance you morons do like so many of you do each day, treating one another as though greater than another, as though better than another.
you are all fucked in the head, according to God, ok?
ok
piss off then miss cop out cowardice runaway runaway runaway till the day you fall to your knees before God asking forgiveness of your black boot marks apon a veteran of the worldwide LGBT community, that contributes not as harm to me, but to all those yet dealing with self-acceptance each day like they do, where without doubt, your actions of late, are contributing spiritual death perpetuation of moving coffin purified spirits yet bound by the same kind of bullshit i hear spu forth from so many of you bound by generational taboo ignorance.
yes, indirectly, your black mark words may cause someone to kill themselves.
not me, i just decapitated your ego falsehood head cowardice Biyatch!
care to explain?
either you do not purely accept my homosexuality, the sex you are having with another is enjoyable for you, i am not your type, you don’t want to trust ‘me’, a combination of some or all of the above.
i cannot believe how you trivialize me repeatedly over and over again and again.
you are bashing me, ok?
anyone in our community knows 100%, you are bashing me
and now the black mark is there in LBGT history that is harmful for others to read and feel the way i was treated time and time again by so many of you
fucking bullshit, all of you, truly
according to God
why can’t you just be polite like everyone else and express the truth if i am not your type?
on and on all this time, all the while, i was your amusement as one who was not ever your type.
do you know how many incredible extraordinary wondrous people are out there as potential lovers for ‘me’? uhm?
MILLIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
in truth, every single one of them i love as though my own SELF.
blessings to all
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i am waiting…………i deserve an explanation, and so does everyone of our worldwide community past present future………….God says speak the TRUTH
if you cannot speak the TRUTH, then start with purely surrendering to flawlessly feeling and BE the TRUTH of your purified divine true ‘real’ SELF alone before God.
and a word of caution, your own blindness denial untruth falsehood emptiness will lead you to nowhwere, and certainly not with ‘me’ shall i ever be found where all untruthfulness is ~ according to God
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good old fashioned raw SIMPLE truth for a change, is that too much to ask?
in truth, you cannot Toss a lover you did not purely come to know and love without spending time with them as a lover in the physical realm
and as for spiritually Tossing a purified spirit as your own, that is not of God, nor is it of your purified spirit…….a falsehood, just as all the falsehoods Jesus contended with daily of so many asleep in ignorance denial of conscious awake like so many of you yet do, not cognitively realizing you are doing it……..that is how God sees all of you, at all times, as do i
what, no more spiel? no more cajole? no more bitter tiresome enticing? no more malice falsity ill refute egotistic falsehood untruth denial mockery………of your own purified divine self miss cop out?
ah, so you do know God
good, now maybe we can all GO enjoy BEing yOUR everlasting inner peaceful oneness sameness rest forever more………….finally
peace be to you
and peace be to you
blessings to all
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how about this title for the album
(likeness mirroring restorative) ‘REDEMPTION’
is that not what we do at all times in just purely spiritually BEing YOU?
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appologies for lowering myself, so you hit a raw nerve and i took the bait,…
but i feel presured and I don’t like to be presured into feeling something i once felt and lifestyle is a factor but not the only reason, you moved on and I did not for a long time, but i have now also and i still have feelings for you but I have moved on also and I have stronger feelns for another right now but i have been patient with you both and for a six months I have had too much confusion, so yer anyway…
what to do, just be my friend don’t fall in love with me I cannot give you what it is you desire, the universe has guided us on different paths..
if you love me you will let go of expectations.. friends last forever
it’s not that your not my type, I love everyone and I can love everyone… unless your fat .. I dont do fat.. but seriously 15yrs plus another 4 on top of that ?
come on..
I’ve been on my own for 20yrs
dont ever say i never waited …
I have to look at this situation in perspectve there is obviously a higher purpose to our connection ..
but in reality you did turn your back to me many times over so i cannot exscuse it for shyness or insecurity & the stronger you are the more vaunerable & sensitive you are..
from this present moment in time the now.. I no longer desire to compete with you and I am aware of your feelings and that you are aware of my hesitaion in the past but I overcame that and tried to move forward in unison but it did not happen .. anywaz I feel sometimes that your like attracted to me because part of you feels you cannot have me and that causes competition and I think that is what is so crazy about this whole situation & it has to stop .. Im not playing hard to get, I hope you are not playing that game either.. but I have fallen for another ( dont kill them , ) & so fuck well anyway we are still good friends yes ?
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ya, of course, eternal all friends, in disarming of all falsehood ego uncloaking as equals 24/7, hi, of God’s divine will objective for happiness of divine self eternal all, same as the beginning thru eternal end in wise divine self-love unfailing TRUTH; ‘egolessness’ sanctity as equals the world over in selfless striving of this truth that leads to everlasting peace
‘that’ is the TRUTH in concordance with God
anyone contrary to the TRUTH, temporarily, in unwisely unknowingly following falsehood, unwisely condemns the purified soul of the truthful wide awake consciousness within everyone(blind leading the blind of any of you who ‘think’ you are wiser than God in exalting yourselves as though greater among others)
in your heart of hearts, your exiled spirit purely is for BEing wholly united with ‘me’ in all of ‘that’ which i am, ‘that’ which we all are……..only love is good enough to always feel and BE at all times…….the TRUTH.
ONEness likeness mirroring restorative ‘REDEMPTION’ is what is of every cell you yOUR body that is an exact replication from the beginning thru all eternity, just as is the true nature of divine self-love purified spirit within everyone of the only language the divine true ‘real’ self YOU of eternal all understands………LOVE
bless you with love and happiness forever more
peace be to you
and peace be to you
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ya, manifestations, you are correct, but not entire comprehensive in probing for the truth
purely, i prayed i was the one you secretly admiringly yearned for as your lover, the truth i have felt purely within of my own desire for you, 100%……..without doubt.
i have explored my sexuality equally in time spent both in heterosexual life and homosexual life, more so in homosexual life, now at age 46, equally accepting of the overlapping truth of how both sexualities do overlap, my male top, purely feeling as the same as i was during my heterosexual years, with the female of a male, and honestly, i miss being with a female/female lover.
……..since way back when, desire to feel loved 24/7, surrendered happiness love 2 set themselves free in purely surrendering to wholly love each other, in ability to easily explore sexual orientation, regardless of sex(male/female, male/male, female/female, trans/trans), in what is my own pure sexual orientation awareness i am easily able to assist anyone with in self-discovery sexual fun of their own brain sex activity, respectful of both the male and female within everyone’s brain…..yes, i know without doubt, am authority on this, that only your own self-love awareness discovery is able to celebrate after you cross the threshold into truth awareness oneness as my own.
it really comes down to trust issues, where awkwardness of trust issues dissipate when two lovers walk together ‘as lovers’ over time, where we did not arrive at……….sadly.
it is not that i felt i cannot have you, rather i was afraid to feel that perhaps it was true that i could, not knowing for certain if it was true, purely in your heart of hearts if i was the one you wanted as a lover, praying it was true, all the while terrified if it was, of momentary exceeding vibrant happiness i witnessed with you that was fleeting, yourself equally afraid to purely just BE your fantasy feelings you (may) have been feeling towards me, did/do you not?
it is not a matter of my trying to convince another to love you, rather it is a matter of presenting yourself before them long enough for them to establish love feels they may or may not move towards feeling within……..you either do or you don’t, to whatever degree long enough that desire overcomes the trust issues that pervade as per usual when potential lovers to look apon exploring their feelings for another, as we did/do?
manifestations during transition of two lovers entertaining their thoughts and feelings of another, appear in many forms, such as frustration, hesitation, fear of rejection, fear of acceptance……..the list goes on, and ya, appearing as though strong, is a mask we may create to hide behind in isolation vulnerable shy sensitivity, not of hopefulness as some think, no, rather of hesitation of purified spirit intuitive knowingness that only love is good enough to always feel when exploring emotional honest safety with others.
my own hesitation at times is linked to my sincere enjoyment of homosexual sex i have enjoyed for twenty years now, my tendency preferredness of well adjusted homosexuals, boundaries that i can adjust in accordance to my awareness of a potential other’s obvious sincerity enjoyment of friendship of potential lovers, where your best friend makes for the best lover, spirituall, mentally, emotionally speaking first, sexually second…………wholly.
sadly, as i suspected and said before, real life physical contact with others is of naturally of greater ability to win than mere words of another, where had we come together in physical real life, i know myself well, without doubt we would of remained together till our last day.
did not happen
and now the worse that i have to eventually accept that i don’t want to accept right now, that we won’t happen, my manifesting frustration in fearfully realizing within all along as before, that it would and has waned for you, feelings now more for another who was there all this time with you, as i steadily dreaded accepting over time and distance apart, love of another has won your heart.
so with ‘that’, well, i pray they fuck up and you come crawling back to me and finally fuck me, ok?
ok
Biyatch!
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as a devoted student of God’s teachings of divine self, you can take or leave what God has to say thru ‘me’ of eternal all
apologies for lowering yourself? raw nerve? ~ vague and you speak like as a fool who is yet of the mixture of blindness generational ignorance catharsis process transition, as most are, of who is actually speaking directly with you in real time thru ‘me’, meant for ‘me’ of me, meant for ‘me’ of you; ‘me’ of eternal all; eternal day light divine self-love awareness of the purified spirit of eternal all.
…….meant for my eyes, yours and others, as one(s) who’s purified spirit God knows are constantly open and able to purely hear/feel the uniting divine self wisdom halo words with God, in this moment of eternal all consideration(+divine will empowerment motivation+) of eternal day light divine self-love nurturing awakening protecting of the conscious listening purified soul of eternal all.
please, slow down into divine self-graceful wise discerning in not wasting sacred valuable time in useless ridiculing vagueness of one who stands with God as a student who humbled and surrendered 100% their purified spirit for God to teach about the purified spirit of eternal all.
you speak of higher purpose, yet you think you can do this of your own reasoning alone without the assistance God thru others, where it is only God who purely knows our purified spirit 100%.
i mean ya, sure, you can say whatever you want about me as an individual, where i am way past concern what any of you think of me, now wisely protected with God’s omnipotent eternal all comprehension, fine, does not bother me in the least, but when it comes to your own motivational empowerment, please know purely in your heart my words at times are from ancient times that i know is the spirit of truth words of God thru those long ago, eternal truth that does not change over time.
yes, i know who i am, just as is everyone else, of constant oneness sameness intuitive knowingness within the core of everyone’s being, however asleep and bound in generational ignorances they may appear in outward appearance, truth of the purified spirit is what is the core of their being, across all generational taught divisional falsehood unwise seperational barriers of divine self eternal all in the world, across all time.
you may trivialize me, that is fine, i can live with that no problem, as i have and do of many, but for your own sake, and for sake of eternal all yet to come, do not directly trivialize the words of God before anyone.
from now on i will only speak as a student of God, of no further desire to entertain you as a potential lover at this time, out of respect of boundaries.
i will return again another day with more insight i am purely learning as a student alone with God, as we journey forward in the awakening of the purified divine self true ‘real’ spirit of eternal all YOU, that you need not feel pressured in any way, i am not leaving these words here necessarily only for you, i am wisely speaking with eternal all of the future who are constantly there in purely listening as too am i, of the wisdom halo words of God coming forth. I do not desire followers in open debate of these pure words, no, i am merely leaving the words behind in my spiritual life path journey of a path i will only venture once apon in passing this way, until my last day i am gone from this earth and the divine self-love kingdom of heaven halo perspective is left behind, just as others left the teachings behind that i yet study.
thank you
blessings to all
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i want need think feel the versatile lover(s) i am…….family
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i want need think feel the versatile HAPPINESS lover(s) i am forever more
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BE the happiness oneness i purely am within, same within others
i am going to go spend my time presenting myself to versatile lover(s) out there now, give you your space, respect boundaries for a change, seeing as you are ok and seem happy
bless you both with love and happiness 24/7
it’s not a fantasy, i just fall in love with people that think, feel, act like i do, I admire people who want to make the world a better place, as do i, i admire people who want to become more evolved spiritually and emotionally …
I like everyone else desire to be to be loyaly with another .. sex is not formost on my mind although i believe it to play an important part it goes much further than that..
I was not really aware of my connection or the similarities between us until my dear friend Roy ( God bless his departed soul) pointed it out to me at least 20yrs ago when he saw Andy’s blog… but then i think the penny began to drop, and have spent a brief moment in real life one has to did realise that a connection & attraction exist’s I really have to say that some people have amazing qualities that are addictive..
never say never, but forever is good…
Im not comming crawling back by the way ( that’s just your ego butting in), we are equal in all respects & i have done nothing wrong that my ego has yet to appologise as authentic as you so am i too…. except a brief moment in my past where i was toxic.. and momentarily as we all have those periods from time to time where, how do you say life is full of ups and downs its all about how you cope, how you adapt to those challengening period’s in life & most importantly if you chose to LEARN from those experiences & become a better and stronger person…
So yes we must get this fantasy stuff out of the way & at some point come together time in real life, but we have both moved on with another lover so i dont know now what to do like we should let go, so we do not hurt the one’s we are with, I know if i was with you I would not want to hurt you so the same goes for the one i am now with …
see what you’ve created now, if you did not turn your back on me in the past we would not be in this predicament…
lol 🙂
well I can still be your friend my partner is not jealous type.. but if I fuck you omg im all confused yet again…
why the fuck is life so hard
ok well I must stop flurting with you because that is not a good thing for you for me for my current lover..
Im might become a monk and be celebant then I can love everyone at the same time…
I still love you… my friend.. best friend
i found God who found ‘me’
omg, you see that hotty spinning on the pole? a perfect moment in the video, yes?
stay tuned into ‘real’
‘that’ is where ‘i am’ at is, of purified true purified spirit within all, is it not?
we all are the same inner delight self-love of living loving dwelling in our own bodies that are all the same.
turn fully towards the pure 100% authentic joyful overflowing delight of your own precious perfect flawless feeling body and feelings; ‘that’ which constant is YOU, is it not?
stand purely 100% in this moment of artist to artist approach in my coming before you and JUST FEEL what i 2 FEEL
surrender to nurturing, awakening and constantly protecting that within, easily so, merely of 100% surrendering in just BEing YOU of sacred mirroring ONEness within another at all times.
ART SAVES LIVES
in concordance with God and God’s divine child of eternal all YOU
blessed is true ‘real’ you of only love flawless pure feelings good enough to always feel and constantly BE
does he have a nice cock like mine?
just wondering………lol
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and get Seth Gold on the phone as an assistant ‘leader’ like yourself of pure spiritedness of family……….truly, he is a best friend you need to be associating with and staying tuned into ‘with’ his oneness he wisely purely turns toward, of collaboration motivation empowerment rising up of eternal all oneness 2gather
keep on keeping it 2gather
keeping in ‘real’, as in, my fantasy female is ‘real’ within Biyatches!
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ya, i let go, not that i had anything to let go of, of no one there AUTHENTICALLY holding my motherfucking hand……Biyatch!
pfffff
whatever
get ‘real’ with ‘me’, and ‘me’ of another; ALL ONEness same in accordance with God
does he have a nice fuckable ass like mine? 😉
just wondering……im bored, going to go play in the ghetto now
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i am God’s assistant helper, and obviously i am loyal to the divine true ‘real’ child of God’s heart mind body spirited ONEness soul forever more
in concordance with God and God’s divine child ONEness of eternal all YOU
forever more
blessings to all
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oh, and before i forget, that fat remark is going to cost you
every dollar in your name to be exact, going orphans in the world who are the only ones who need it, little fat ego man thru the eye of a needle, if you want in 2 heaven with ‘me’ 😉
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[UpStage Center: Andyy spits out the seeds, and takes another bite of the apple, and then places the half eaten apple back in the bowl of fruit he picked up from. DownStage Center: Andy walks out the front door still open, OUT into the radiant sun shining of another beautiful day to just go and enjoy being happy all day long along lover’s road, as though some unkissable toad covered in warts, according to those who do not know Andyy enough to love Andyy like many constantly do their own self]
some fun bizarre dance moves
cool.. every dollar can go to the orphans .. who are the true angels in this world … wtf wont people wake up !!
someone wake them up please
i dont have a fat ego, ok maybe i do, but its only to protect myself im not really nasasistic truly im not ,people just missinterpret that about me and think im aloof but im not it’s just so I dont have to deal with people sucking my energies from me,, i dont mind being sucked btw
well, you know me, i am the one who is of consideration for the ‘real’ you, nurturing, validating, protecting, the one i love who i know is purely loving within of blessedness i know the same as i know of my own ‘real’ self, and in truth, that is what heaven is
although i admit, i am not an expert, stepping over boundaries, and somewhat of an emotional tyrant lately, that has nothing to do with you, my own reckless worse enemy at times.
ya, i was thinking the same thing, such a wealthy world of excess, and defenseless kids in bewilderment of the unloving disconnected world of their long suffering in each passing moment of each day they wake to………….it has to stop, it just wrong, completely wrong.
it is not the fault of these kids whose parents brought them into poverty stricken situations, parents who cannot even afford birth control, selfish governments that don’t care how to embrace their own people as the greatest asset to their country, investing in their future of education and necessity, all the while there exist role model governments that do just that, like how is that possible they yet continue in such seemingly uneducated disconnectedness of the government leaders?
So the real problem is the lack of wise leadership mandates, obviously
these kids are the future of the world, where our own kids are of disbelief themselves as to the harsh reality they see of their peers, questioning why?, of the same mutual feelings of the kids without question why?
Spiritually emotionally, the intuitive loving kids are the wiser leaders, merely lacking the mental fortitude leadership skills denied by the leaders in power.
Education(mental powers) is the key
Spiritual emotional oneness compassion as equals is the empowerment motivation
Capability is of all
They just need to sit down and look at where they are, and where they want to be of a mandate available resources dictate the time line to get there,
simple
as a global society, the generations coming thru are major contributors as participants of the global economy, where each individual consumer is an exact amount value global economic stategists need to consider in forecasting their own potential prosperity, corporations and same said consumers all contributors to prosperity of the governing bodies thruout the world, where forecasts spanning say 100 years are possible to easily process the input data of every single person on the planet.
i say mandate free university/college/trades education for all as the first priority, that results in a healthier mental emotional positive well being of a society over all, as well as a more responsible society for all future generations of infrastructure that remains into the eternal future, like Danmark and other countries already have in place.
ya, it costs more, and the taxes are more, but the rewards are not up for debate in terms in weighing the value of ensuring the well being of society for all future generations to come.
hey, i know, why don’t we ask what Jesus and God think?
brb
ok, God says, what do they need business and governments for, when already we have the technology to harness the power of the sun that produces and provides however much energy we all need of energy for free, of properity not yet imagined by the shortsighted leaders of this yet stupid world? lol
uhm…….you are telling me this because why????
*gasp*
you’re still thinking about me, arn’t you?
you see ‘that’?
i knew it!
when it is not happening, ‘that’ is not fair to any body, and least of all ‘me’
i was wondering to myself just how sensitive you are
and then i thought, why not ask what they pray about
and then i thought, if i knew that, i would purely know them
and then i realized, oh wait, i already know, the feel the same as ‘me’
surfacing of the real self requires time and healthy boundaries only we know to adjust accordingly at our own speed, of awareness resulting experience that realizes the adjustments we make when we make them, in giving our self permission to be 100% in charge of healthy decision making we learn as to what those boundaries are, our feelings as the barometer.
the one question i keep coming back to, is just how sensitive are you?
i don’t want a reply, merely realizing alot lately in my own emotional tug of war with ‘real’ self and false self duality.
i get moments of exceeding sensitivity that are purely angelic in subtle feeling, and when i feel that way, i always wonder to myself, do you feel this way too at times?
i pray that you do
im pretty connected yeh
sorta like the ‘real’ sensitivity in the frozen video so well captured
i told you have dreams about that video, where my pure spirit is floating unafraid in the video, uniting with the one who is there alone, yes?
in other words you know your boundarries well that i stomp up and down on…
oh well, at least got your attention
i love this remix alot, has a liberating free running self-confident alone spiritedness like most any teens out there are within.as their ‘real’ self
have had those dreams, I know my fear’s I know my boundries I know boundries are made for breaking, Limitations are illusions… having spent soooooooooo much time finding out who i am and stuff well it’s kept me busy but maybe I am now looking towards a new challange to consume my time.. do you get like that ? always taking on the next challenge in life ..life is an opportunity to grow & learn and learn so many people are afraid of change or avoid any for of self perfection because it’s can have the illusion on being a painful experience but not me I like to learn & grow my favorate saying in life is
“pain is growth in disguise” …
to me it’s like well the reward at the end, the reward being after the challenge after the discomfort of being on that journey is to become more like God more like Jesus well it makes it all more worthwhile one becomes a better person stronger to deal with life more spiritually evolved more able to assist others more loving more radiant in the light in the love.. that’s my desire in life & I know all so well that its a direction the universe will guide us into anyhow so rahter than avoiding something you cannot avoid for fear of pain it’s best to just face it head on and get ot over with as quickly as possible or nessasary to grow so that the pain is not drawn out and you can reap the rewards…
i want to be like God..
I want to be loving in the Light
I dont want to be uptight
I want to fuck you tonight
ha haha 🙂 just kidding
i used soft subtle barely noticeable colors in this next piece, rather than loud screaming color alarming frightful, as that is how trans-sexuality/transgender is in the early stages of awareness(that begins in childhood), subtle slow unafraid awareness that grows less afraid over time, and yet the fear is always there in the world for a transperson’s life, of a taboo ignorant world, where we do not yet know 100% conclusively if the brain of everyone is both female and male………personally i wish they were all female with out males, but then where would that leave ‘me’……hmmm…..miserable frustrated and alone as per usual? lol 😉
i have always loathed sexism in the world of these dominant males actually thinking they are better than females, another generational falsehood ignorance that contributes to the darkness a transperson peers thru so easily like we do in our awareness that i find only transpersons truly know what i am feeling as they too feel, as one who is yet of both female and male awareness within, where in truth, i feel that my female and male self is no different in purely feeling, in spite of the extrinsic false generational forces that continue to pervade as intrinsic taboo fear forces within. It is difficult for a transperson during transition awareness, of such subtle awakening awareness into a pure light feeling within that i love, as though a tragic relationship between a boy and a girl within since being born that has continued my entire life, the boy who loves the girl, the girl who loves the boy, the boy giving into the girl to go girl shopping for clothes and her home making love she has for the boy.
what?
you are not me, and you want to know me better, do you not? 😉
with that said, i do want to do low dose estrogen to give my girl a more true sense of herself, of the boy who loves the girl within, of the girl who loathes the male ego, so does the boy out of respect for the girl, of generational society contributing forces that paint the girl as different from the boy, the boy different from the girl, where in truth, they are not different at all, as regards the constant love they purely are at all times for one another.
i pray Madonna does not mind me painting her pic, it was either that, or the dart board. lol
i jest……………..wait…………….wait for it……………..
this is not only about us in the world, purely of others who are revealing the truth of us all, are they not?
bless you all
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elaborating more accurately of ‘pain is growth in disguise’, painful spurs are in TRUTH unTRUTH falsehoods of generational teachings yet in the world.
i look at the entire world in purely peering apon the delusional illusional generational binding extrinsic/intrinsic forces, particularly the gay youth of in places like Iran, Iraq, Jordan, where homosexuality is yet of pure generational taboo self-love loathing denial so harsh, they have adamantly call apon execution for homosexual self-love.
for me, the challenge is how does one become a wise aware revealer of TRUTH that those snared by the extrinsic/intrinsic falsehood fearful forces?
well, you have to bring them into their own awareness of TRUTH so that they themselves stop denying the TRUTH
not an easy task, particularly when the want nothing to do with you in being even remotely seen with you directly, yet another problem to overcome.
Enter center stage: the artists and musicians, who leave behind their historical self-exploration of devoted works that are purely of their slowing in self-awareness dedicated time and effort, as Jesus says, slow into your true graceful self if you want to know ‘me’
obviously, (con)frontation is futile, of all war the clearly reveals this TRUTH
the only alternative is the law-makers and professional communities alike in taking up the challenge of self-awareness with the artists and musicians of the world, that i say are the true politicians leading the politicians, although i hesitate to say this of bands like U2 and Madonna not yet having rainbow flags on their stages…….not sure if you heard me clearly or not………RAINBOW FLAGS ON THEIR STAGES!!!!!!!!!
like come on guys, everyone of you have dear friends who are LGBT, and you all know they constantly need our support in this yet deathful destructive oppressive dark world.
we have to band 2gather from now on, where today, it is foolish not to in the eyes of the wiser homosexual worldwide community who in truth, have turned a deaf ear to the naysayers and none supporters now, scoffing even of the corporations now who appear to us as though cashing in on us, and in truth, they do feel as though bottom feeders to us, not purely of the spirited oneness of our worldwide family.
the world is the challenge, that every member of the worldwide LGBT contents with in every waking moment of every blessed day, my true ‘real’ brothers and sisters united forever more in ONEness celebration for all eternity yet to come.
blessed are the leaders of TRUTH
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in my heart, i did not move on like you claim i did, nor shall i, as i am purely about oneness of the female and male within us all
and if i don’t stop crying soon………i am going to run out of kleenex
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i feel for so many OUT there, as i know you do too, following their light like our own in oneness of blessed pure feelings constantly flowing every blessed day, feeling so blessed along the way of such pure constant love flowing feelings i am as they too constantly are within.
as for the transperson questioning sex change, i don’t agree with it
personally i have learned to be of versatile happiness of both female and male with those who likewise enjoy their own versatile female male sexual behavior
for those who enjoy one more than the other, well, i don’t feel they give themselves a long enough time to thoroughly explore the potential thriving happiness of versatile female/male sexual behavior for whatever reasons, such as lack of association with other versatiles, that i know is true of my own self-awareness, as one fortunate in long duration of versatile sex, now concluding, i am both female and male, who loves all females and males, regardless of your orientation, as i am purely the love of all orientations as both female and male……..100%
so before you shelf ‘me’, well, i don’t what to say, other than i am saddened that you are unable to come into the light of happiness with a well adjusted versatile of many years in self-love awareness TRUTH, knowing i will be happy in the future following my own light, that is no different than the light within any of you, regardless of orientation.
and for me, i don’t ever want to see you unhappy in my reluctance to say goodbye, and yet, i have to move on, don’t i?
you have no idea how hurt i am inside, do you?
it is a though impossible to say goodbye, as though to say goodbye to a part of my own self.
and i don’t feel you know what the feels like, and yet at times, i suspect that you do, in not telling more about your own awareness like my own.
i don’t to listen to any more of anyone’s shortsightedness in transsexuality awareness of what they think i should be doing, as it is purely much more than many transpersons may purely truly realize.
if a female purely loves a male, and a boy feels as though a girl, then how can the girl simply kill the boy off with sex change?
that was my challenge, where today i conclude no to sex change, and now i am walking around having this crazy love affair daily going on between my boy and girl self within who are in love with each other.
just remember……you heard it hear first, ok?
ok
lol
i fucking love YOU, and what pisses me of, as i said before, YOU KNOW I DO
bless you always
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at all times, purely realize the TRUTH, indeed, you R an instrument(all) of God’s ONEness pure flawless holy joyful spiritedness as my/yOUR own 2gatherness
still working on the full on Pride color version bursting with exuberant inner happiness fearlessly releasing, add some glitter, some stars, purely of the inner delight happiness i have learned about within us all over many years of incredible life alongside of family, where YOU of all BElongs as ONE 2
eternally with ‘me’
forever free to just BE yOUR SELF
bless you always
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the only way you ever end the rift between females and males, between females and females, between males and males, is by putting all males on low dose estrogen to bring down their testoterone level, and low dose testosterone for females in bringing balance to us all.
picture it, boys feeling girls, drooling over other boys, no more fighting, girls drooling over drilling the boys and girls, so badly like they have historically always wanted to do………..so there you go, problem solved.
what a world………that would BE so awesome, yes?
and is it ‘that’ not where i am easily found?
bless you all-ways
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[UpStage Center: Andyy tosses her/his dissertation papers in the air, turns around and walks out the door, downstage center, into the sunshine flooding in with the massive cheering crowd of over one million people outside, whistles blowing, music and laughter all around, no one feeling stress of any kind, all of oneness having a fun time, just as they always did as kids, their hearts so full of inner joy happines, full of exuberance self-love delight of their sexuality, regardless of orientation, all united now as ONE]
no need to cry.. just be happy..
i used to cry a lot but all the time but now i am seeing the world differently and i am feeling that I am truly divine in loving myself or maybe i just cried all the tears already..
o kmnow u lve me..
self-love awareness reveals the love we have for each other is the same love we have for others as of each other ~ yOUR ONEness wisdom of the TRUTH.
i am mostly happy thruout my day now, with moments of mourning for myself tears that are of the false ego self mostly, of any ridiculing hurtfulness i was of with any……no more do i desire such, abit of tongue in cheek old hat done before annoying humor stuck in the past now and then, my pure spirit breaking free from past in surfacing to bright new day of the same eternal day i always was, denial in boundary setting issues, all perfectly normal when viewed from third party perspective, oh, i am enmessed with the eternal evolving historical past generational ignorances and wisdoms i turn towards that reveal the no more desire discerning of truth of untruths yet learning……..did i just say that in a runon sentence……again…….my stream on conscious writing self exploration digesting.
yes, i do greet each day purely now, happy overall, knowing that is all i ever want to be, just need to stay focused on inner happiness and what that is, not really any oppression of others or really any struggle in live right now, a good place, conducively speaking, realizing the healing i have journeyed thru the past two years, more so than before, therapist says i was not ready to deal with Troy until now, ya, depth of inner pain is yet their, of the single most impactful event of my life that altered me in a good way, tendency to loath the fake hyped ego driven madness status quo fake world that wants over tenderness gentle honest sincere authentic emotional safe ‘real’ self life, self-actualization of my original personality i yet am of who i always was………not knowing at the time i was the greatest treasure i would ever find in subconscious seeking, our flawless feelings of constant yearning desire pure love within, connectedness within eternal all others in life i purely feel at all times(mostly) anywhere i am, the treasure Jesus speaks of, in ‘what we look for has already come’, Jesus says.
i know, so long as you come first, just don’t fall asleep on me, ok?
spiritually speaking first, for without that, there won’t be any sex with ‘me’ Biyatches!
anyway, i feel i have presented myself thoroughly as an individual in life, and for whatever personal reasons you chose not to entertain me beyond mere friends, i respect of you as with any individual, interest that is either authentic sincerely within them in intimacy desire they have or in our case, don’t have, and for sure, i am stepping on boundaries once again in speaking so openly like i do, just letting you know, i need the true sense of a lovers authentic desire for me that is obvious and consistent, which we have merely as playful friends from time to time, fun, as with any of your friends along lover’s road.
wanted more, you know i did and yet do, did not venture to the next level like i so wanted us to, and with that said, i respectfully am letting go for your new found love, as well as purely allowing myself to entertain others as potential live-partners, and who knows, maybe however long down the road with our friendship we turn to from time to time as we have for awhile now, perhaps there is more we may personally explore within of denial surfacing inner happiness releasing we both seem fearless of in playing off one another as spiritual intimate friends.
i am a mess at times, admittedly, not stable at all, and yet i see myself as healthier than before.
will likely begin to be less frequenting of this blog in the coming months, just to let you know, i too am entertaining others at this time in seeking a life-partner.
bless you with love and happiness 24/7 forever more
and thank you for so much insight i had not ever experienced as much with any other in life as i have with you, so so much intellectual insight into the human condition.
God bless us all with courage to consistently just be our divine self inner happiness constant flowing compassionate true connectedness of eternal day light divine self-love awareness forever more
peace be 2 you + you 2 be peace
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I love You TOO !!!
lol. you wont find anyone else, don;t take another 78yrs to realise that … Heaven only made One of me.. so i must be the one..
my new found lover is not so new, just a bed warmer to pass the time, just in case you took forever to overcome your intimacy issues with me because no one should have to wait but sometimes we wait when we should’nt wait and when we wait well we get frustrated so hurry up and sort out your fear’s before I get all old and crusty like a bit of burnt toast !
it’s time to celebrate a toast ! coast to coast cause i’m the one you love the most .. ok now i’ve said too much you’ll probably run away again, for fuck’s sake it’s inevitable I know that because you know me too well better than any other your so wise… who else is going to keep me in line nurture my soul protect my heart and bla bla bla.. once i commit i am very loyal & faithfull to only one.. it’s up to you to be the one if not well i am really enjoying being your spiritual friend so from time to time we’ll be there for each other 4 sure..
enjoy your other persuits Good luck with that..
“and thank you for so much insight i had not ever experienced as much with any other in life as i have with you, so so much intellectual insight into the human condition”
And thankyou for aknowledging the above… that’s exactly the reason I stalked you because I truly knew … 18 yrs ago you would appreciate me !! ( was thinking of writing a poem to elton john NOT !!! ) ha ha
Thank you … my confirmation now from you that i did INDEED TRULY make the RIGHT choice !!
but then again im so connected I never doubted I would make the right choice !! 😉
i just dont want an easy ride, i want a long ride, long & slow ride me..!! ha ha..
that’s aussie 4 “sit on my cock….”
it’s all comming back to me now, my heart will go on, I drove all night, the power of love, 10 DAYS …
When there is only ONE in a universe of “Billions” that thinks the same was as you & ME then ME can’t help but be drawn to that energy,.
ask David..
night xox
that’s it from ME
4 tonight anywaz….
attending to my friends from the GLBT community in Canada..
happy PRIDE ALL 😉
“so so much intellectual insight into the human condition”
FUCK YER !!!!
😉
HE SAID YOU COULD BE SOME OLD FAT GUY HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH
HAHAHAHA
Dio this…. Dio that…
God …..
Dio Madonna
i ask that you jerk me around any more, ok?
i am of the same pure place within you know of, where trust is pure and true, so please dispense with any more bullshit that keeps us apart, keeps us from sacredness mirror within shining forth thru and of others.
ya, tragically David and i did not have the fearlessness to take hold of each other’s hand in loyal trueness within to overcome societies expectations, until it was too late of ignorance fate that bound our pure spirits in false seperation directions in life away from one another like it did, of treacherous paths that nearly did see us both die, i survived.
i look around and i see so many listening to who ever, truly wasting time with them, i say to myself, so obvious their standing there in unhappiness yearning to be somewhere else, themselves likely question the same thing, ‘what the fuck am i doing here?’
ya, i know my pure heart, and so do you.
so instead of even having to say anything, fearlessly take it to the next level, as i am done listening, and get real, i mean come on, stalling on our happiness?
life is passing by and will be over as it is for David, for Troy, for so many who don’t wisely purely fearlessly listen to their own heart.
saw Jamie again, from last summer, still doing her/his estrogen treatment, so happy to see him, watched him from a distance, 25 now, thinking to myself, you are so obviously not fucking happy at all Jamie, wasting your time with others instead of your heart, not even purely knowing his own sexual awareness i feel, to the extent of what is real for her/him, as far as the right lover who is able to crush any of your timid fears that leave you yet trembling and afraid, so beautiful Jamie purely is, obviously not where he/she belongs yet along side the most loving commited lover meant for her/him, of sadness prevails.
how much longer till Jamie eventually kicks it with her/his most loving lover, of complete fearlessness knowing they won’t ever part holding onto her/his motherfucking belt unable to even remotely consider letting go?
i could be that lover for Jamie, purely so i know within, as i went over to say hi again, cheerfully happy to see me again, expressing my decision of versatile rather than M-F sex change, staying true to ‘me’, always felt awkward around Jamie, yet again, realizing why, so i finally told Jamie the truth, i was attracked to him/her during our transsexuality group therapy i no longer attend, Jamie too expressing his interests in females, i am like, what? Well fuck me! Who knew? Jamie knows.
and so i ask, if you really do know me like you seem to know me, and clearly you do, well then fuck, i mean even one more day apart is so hard on me, tired of wondering what i don’t wonder purely within, so ya, fuck, stop jerking me and yourself around, ok?
it’s really annoying the fuck out of me now, and i have truly had enough, won’t keep this up much longer, you are treading on thin ice, and you need to be thankful i am even bothering with you after all this time, like for fuck sakes, just stop, ok? Either commit like you say you want/do, and stop denying us both exceeding happiness i know already of you, seen it enough times to know you are healthier than me in loyalty to your true self.
it is not so much loyalty commitment, as it is knowing who i belong with, the one who loves me as much as i do them, as did David and i, sadly of a time in this world we were cast apart.
im serious, if you want me, you have to turn fully towards me now and commit to your own true self, where all i have to say is, there is no other place i want to ever be found than always with you, under moon light, without fright, always in spite, naysayer plight.
if only you knew my pure spirit is on that beach holding your hand of foreverness stand
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gay and lesbian, in truth, speaking as a wise experienced transsexual, is actually transsexual exploration of their other sex, that in truth, is actually heterosexual sex for the female transsexual and the male transsexual explorer.
………..there is no such thing as gay or lesbian segregation.
…….there us no such thing as sexism segregation either.
The female and male orgasmic experience is the same.
…….all bullshit of liars and deniars.
liar deniar pacifiers
ok, doing away completely with sexism, there is no such thing as heterosexual sex either.
it’s all just sex according to our brain sex activity response stimuli of our bodies.
if you want to see yourselves as female or male, fine, go ahead morons
i am both
oh oh, not even my trans friends are going to back me up on this, damn! lol
there has got to be someone out there just like ‘me’
i suppose i could run an ad somewhere, ‘Versatile Hermaphrodite with both sex organs seeking same’, yes?
whoa!….. that should get their attention!
do you think Jesus was Hermaphrodite?
i bet he was and he did not tell anyone other than God
i know, i know … i’ve been a naughty boy..
so when you comming over to smack me…
so if Jesus was a Hermaphrodite on the 21 century.. & decided to have a sex change … which would he choose
To be a male or a female or a female with a penis.. or a male with breast’s ??
or a FeMale with Balls.
why can we not accept that our sex does not make us different like many yet ‘choose’ to think it does?
orgarsm is orgasm is orgasm
same same same
personally, i am both female and male mentally, emotionally, sexually, spiritually, where ya, i may have small(flat chested) breasts physically, but they are mine, and i like them.
society expects us to be one or the other.
i am both, and so is God
Females and males are not different in pleasure response stimuli, merely of physical difference in appearance, in the arrangement of orgasmic arousal sensitive tissues and density of the sensitive tissues, which all play into the same thing…….orgasm.
oh, i think we all know who the female with balls is.
or should i say, some of us purely truly know her in order to love her
‘me’, i am oneness of both, and i am commited to live out my life in happiness versatile oneness love of both, not two, no, happiness wholeness of oneness of female and male, the same happiness of all males, all females, regardless of orientation, where purely the love of both female and male is the same…………ONEness
i just need to find my SELF-love life partner of both sexes like ‘me’ to share time with in our pure enjoyment wholeness we already R within
i am not doing a sex change
no need to, as i purely am both female and male physically, mentally, emotionally, sexually, spiritually………a hermaphroDyke
when am i coming over? when ‘i am’ invited
the party is today !
your invited !!
eternal day self-love established truth awareness that does not change
ok well i’ll start the party tomorrow then.. since im still waiting on your RSVP,
dont say i never compromise…
dont be late… or hesitate
mate
YOU ARE FROM DETROIT MICHIGAN MADONNA. AS A FOSTER CHILD. i FIND IT SAD THAT YOU CHOOSE TO GO TO COUNTRIES THAT HAVE HAD THESE PROBLEMS FOR MILLIONS OF YEARS AND YO U WILL NEVER FIX. AMERICA’S FOSTER CARE SYSTEM IS A FIXABLE PROBLEM THOUGH. ONLY 1/2 A MILLION KIDS WITHOUT HOMES. AND YOU WERE ON THE NEWS CRYING BECAUSE YOU COULDNT BELIEVE KIDS DIDNT HAVE WATER OR FOOD WHEN YOU VISITED?? THE WORLD IS NOT A FAIRY TALE MADONNA. THAT HAPPENS IN AMERICA ALL THE TIME AS WELL. BELIEVE ME, IT HAPPEND TO ME AS A KID ALL THE TIME. I LOVE YOU BUT ITS LIKE A PERSON NEGLECTING THEIR OWN KIDS AND GOING NEXT DOOR TO THE NEIGHBORS KIDS TO TAKE CARE OF THEM FOR THE WEEK WHILE THE KIDS AT HOME SIT AROUND IN DIRTY DIAPERS WIHTOUT FOOD OR WATER! … IT MAKES NO SENSE. AMERICA GAVE YOU YOUR START, NEW YORK, ETC. I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOUR MUSIC BUT I JUST COULDNT BELIEVE IT WHEN YOU WERE ON THE WORLD NEWS CRYING AND SAID”I HAD NO IDEA THIS WAS HAPPENING IN THE WORLD!” , I AM AN ANIMALS,GAY RIGHTS AND AIDS ACTIVIST, AND AUTHOR OF THE BOOK SUPER-HUMANS WHICH CONSIDERS THE POSSIBILITIES THAT HUMANS ARE NOT DONE IN THE EVOLUTION PROCESS. IT IS A SCI FI . MY NAME IS J.DAVID STEVENS. SORRY FOR CAPS MY STUPID BUTTON IS STUCK XOXOXO
um i think she understands this, your arrogance isnt flattering here. your facts are well obvious and i believe no -one would disagree nor tell you they didn’t know this.
madonna,union electrician was not a safe place to bet my future,going the saint Phillips college to train for truck driving.thanks to my brother howard katz,the way i am to make it,after a gang life,has been pointed out.thank you decedents of jesus.AAH ! the red lips of the octopus.president obama has done right by the creator.he is one of the leaders,now.
M
stop the dElusion
it creates so much coNfusion
end The game
without Any blame
tie your Lies in a knot
using a cleverly devised plot
and put your critics to shame
a tick and a tock
a diggitity doo waaat
bababadoowahshishbamboo
there is no delusion about one’s HIV seroconversion virus attack going on in their body……..
fuck………HIV serconversion truly sucks!
you can tell your body is undergoing an invasion attack, so much so it comes thru in your dreams…..
last night i had the strangest of dreams, and yet not so strange while we are in the pure dream state oneness of our subconsciousness that includes the oneness of every cell in our bodies that our brain is constantly awake to…….
in the dream, i was walking with friends, and one of my friends caught what i first thought was a rattlesnake.
i attempted communicate to my friends and commented on the strange markings on the snake, “Look at these markings. I have not seen a snake like this before.”
then i noticed the snake was sending out these small tail like things with a mouth, thinking they would bite you if one touched you, as i noticed that no one else noticed the small biting things the snake was sending out.
more and more of these things were coming, and then with a horrific fright, realized we were surrounded by them, with no way to escape as we all started to run, not knowing exactly what the strange things were that we were running from, unable to escape, completely surrounding us, having walked into it’s nest.
HIV is horrifying!
i believe while of our dream state, we are of atonement oneness connectedness within our brain’s activity in monitoring the cells of our body, the way our brain automatically does.
for sure, HIV seroconversion reveals the tell tale bodily signs that your body is experiencing an invasion attack one experiences constantly, especially during the high peak levels of HIV viral load initial infection phase that lasts for weeks, months.
i woke from the dream, while still in pure atonement calm oneness dream state of the hugely rapid brain processing of our subconscious mind that is pure in feeling, as i pondered the meaning of the dream, as i recalled what someone told me about how the HIV virus invasion attack targets the immune system cells that are at first unable to identify the HIV virus as a potential threat.
indeed, the HIV virus is a stealthy virus, but not entirely stealthy, where the weakness of the virus can be found in it’s own ongoing evolving, of our own evolving thinking that has to be of atonement awareness in exactly how our own body works, and is likewise evolving…….
that other thing i felt, was a pure flawless atonement oneness awareness connectedness not only of my subconscious constantly processing brain activing and the cells of my body, but also a pure atonement oneness awareness connectedness in the same light that extends beyond my body, while yet of the same pure atonement as that of my body, of a pure occuring oneness with every human body on the planet, past present future, all of us exactly the same, all of us of pure harmoniousness unity in combating whatever it is we come up against, of one human family.
then i extended into pondering what are all these things we come up against?
thruout human history, our ancestors learned from mistakes they made as leaders, in evolving out of dark times like most any human race has, beit China, America or the UK, the human race continues on it’s evolving journey out of darkness into wiser (en)light(enment)……..
we are all of the pure atonement intuitive oneness ability, no matter our place in life, that is an extention of our pure harmonious oneness subconscious brain and cells, naturally occuring, no matter one’s education in life.
our cells communicate chemically, unlike our language speaking communication, and yet, our speaking communications are of the natural occuring pure atonement intuitive subconscious harmonious oneness seeking, no matter any of the annoying falsehoods anyone may be of, or historically been of in our evolving human history that continues.
in life awakening journey of self, there are many many snaring ignorances generationally handed down thru mellenia, that do take hold of individuals and those they know and love.
personally for me, alcoholism was one such generational ignorance in our household that i had the misfortune of being born into.
the same can be said of anyone born into our worldwide households of these religious oppressive cults in the world, no matter where you are born, and yes, i do think of all religions are all of the blind evolving forefather ignorance cults, that are not entirely wretched, rather are flawed, incomplete, scattered, and contrary to our wise findings in psychology, away from and contrary to our intuitive natural occuring harmonious oneness true nature Jesus speaks of.
the human body is truly a remarkable and purely extraordinarily functioning unity of so many types of cells, such as the immune systems cells……..In a world where it is best to “know thine enemy,” naivete should be a fatal flaw. But cells of the immune system need a certain innocence in order to fight new invaders. After the battle, they carry a “memory” of their bacterial or viral foe and remain alert for its next attack.
While HIV infection is marked by a general decline in the number of immune cells, new evidence indicates that the virus may scuttle the immune system by destroying naive immune cells that have yet to taste battle
‘that’ is truly amazing……..
i am not completely wise of how to best assist mankind’s struggle in the world, but at least i question where the human race has journey thru in learning, in evolving in what not to do, and i do purely feel our state of BEing is what is of the eluding Kingdom of Heaven we all subconsciously intuitive seek, of the pure harmonious state of bliss harmonious core memory every one of us has in the core of our BEing of what is the natural occuring extension of the state of flawless BEing intuitive harmoniousness of our cells that we all came from(the light), all of us yet of the harsh reality check misfortune in entering into the yet unwise world of absurd generational forefather ignorances yet all around us.
some of us take a wise intuitive stand in the world, for sake of the led(ing) astray blind world, awakening from the asleep in ignorances of the forefathers we all continue to come up against, no matter who you are, or where you are in the world………..we are all united and uniting in our subconscious intuitive natural occuring oneness atonement seeking, as did our forefathers, as do we, the forefathers of future generations yet to come, where the ignorance darkness of the past serves as wise descering light eternally shining radiant brilliant bright into the future, at all times, of oneness sameness hear in the present, we are constantly intuitively all the same, yet we are not constantly wisely all the same, and yet we all intuitively seek the same light we all came from, everyone of the same core of their pure flawless BEing memory and intuitive knowingness of the light we all came thru that we all constantly purely flawlessly are………
……….and if one more of you queeny anal retentive good for nothing annoying fucks tell me again that the pastel pink feather boa does not go with my neon rainbow color jacket and motherfucker boots……….well, some of you just don’t get it, that i have a protective spiked boot outer self and an soft delicate effeminate tender sweet sweet loving inner self that some of you have a difficult time yet in wisely descerning of………
hear is a hint:
say anything unloving CONtrary to my true nature real self………you get to meet my outer protective self
say anything apathetic CONtrary to my true nature real self………you get to meet my outer protecitve self
say anything unwise CONtrary to my true nature real self………you get to meet my outer protective self
say you want to fuck me?
cum protected!!!!!!
no seriously, come protected, i tend to get kinda wild sexually, where injuries can occur, especially the standing up sex!
ok ok…………….i confess…………i dearly miss you…………..2!
i think it is safe to say, HIV serocoversion is able to alter our behavor, yes?
give me your credit card number so i can order this book online
i’ll pay you back
one way or another
i suppose homophobic/heterophobic manifesting nescient avoidance denial masking behaviorals of the curious exploring sexuality can be seen as a game…….
until someone gets hurt
for me, sexuality is not a game, of yet more annoying shortsighted vagueness i have come to endure at this blog…….which does not really trouble my future as much as it potentially can trouble those of hypocrisy heart dwelling like so many of you yet are………a learned behavioral you can unlearn thru self awareness exploration.
i know my sexuality exceedingly well, knowing i am a well adjusted versatile bigender transgender bisexual seeking same, most likely settling in with a versatile bigender male lover in the future……..unrealistic to put much faith in finding a versatile bigender testosterone driven female.
from there we can will explore a surogate family like the 1000+ gay couples have legally done.
we are all of our own individual spiritual life awakening, nurturing, protecting and seeking from the moment we all enter into the yet unwise world, where it is only you who can give invite spiritual well being to your own self.
peace grace love and happiness be to you all forever more
wtf … lol… 1000 surogates omg all those nappies to wash
I just landed a movie part, im playing TIm a Gay Govt official in Stillflown based on a true story about a Rap singer who writes contraversial lyrics , you gonna cum to my premier in March there’ll be a nude scene of me 😉
i like the outfit Adam, however, it does reveal where you yet are as i once was before, no where near your embracing your own transexual self-awareness self-acceptance as i have……………yet
Pride is coming up this weekend, and i am so going to kick every one of your sorry asses in revealing how yesterday you all are, including you Gaga, selling back to us everything we already did, like two fucking decades ago………arghhhhhhh……….boring boring boring, and so far off the mark in transexual awareness, the obvious following others who came before you, perhaps where most any yet are i suppose, of what is intrinsic/extrinsically forces affect/effect/direct/indirect…………YOU…………..not quite ‘me’………….sometimes i think you all are about selling us back to us, for sake of your lost afraid souls selling out to fame, fortune, voyerism…….butt hey, we all go thru it, hopefully arriving one day in constant blissful state of preferred pure flawless BEing your true fun loving nature you were all born as……..blame the forefathers for where you all yet are, most of you unknowingly intrinsically/extrinsically snared………blind following the blind………..none of you purely constantly happily alive……….well ok, not entirely i suppose, but honestly, i cannot stand being in the same room with most any of you lameass fucks!
may the truth serve you as it constantly does ‘me’
alright, get the fuck off the stage now, all of you lameass unwise asleep fucks following each other around and let mama show reveal the target you yet fail to see and constantly BE Biyatches!
i do love this vid though…….a pure angst running true, butt is so yesteryear for ‘me’, the transexual future self of all of YOU!
im sorry, let ‘me’ correct you all, it is so last CENTURY!!!!!!!!!
still, nice to see you are standing you ground in not letting their shit for brains forefather falsehoods knock you to the ground. Ya, i get you Adam, and you too Gaga………….i fucking am you, was you, of everyone of you following the light that trickles thru from what we all fucking did…………..LAST FUCKING CENTURY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!……………fuck!
ok ok……mama is still recovering from her bitterness over the fucker who intentionally infected her………still cannot believe someone deliberately knowingly fucking infected me………do you know how much that fucking pisses me off? And what of others i know they will infect as they did me? I am so going to wright about this in my next magazine artical! fuck fuck fuck fuckity fucked up fucking fucker fuck off!!!!!!!!
speaking of rap singers, do you think Lil Wayne would have sex with me if he found himself alone in a room with ‘me’, in oh say…..less than five minutes or so?
just waunddering………
like Gaga, i pray Lil Wayne wakes the fuck up and realizes purely in their heart that at all times, every second, they walk before the world in influencing what they wisely turn towards or remain as their asleep in destructive ignorances of their old self behaviourals that stem from their yet unknowing snaring of the forefather taught ignorances they were born into that influentially DOES lead others to death, destruction and oppression…………….fucking idoits!
oh hey Lil Wayne, thanks for stopping by, hey, you do realize you are cause for youth out there dying self-destuctive deaths, yes? you fucking jackass! Get the fuck away from me!
well ok, if you are still spying on ‘me’, i suppose that means a part of you does love ‘me’
i am so emotionally fucked up over my recent HIV infection, where the fucking four months now fallout of seroconversion severe acute fatigue, puking from both ends of my body and the severe acute depression episodes does not fucking help………..my issues, not yours………..worse time of my fucking fucked up life, and yet i am spiritually closer in atonement with Jesus and God than i recall ever BEing before…………life is not a test, it is a classroom of learning divine self-awareness……..at all times!
the unwise fucked up world around is we were all born into is not who we purely are………….YOU GOT THAT LIL WAYNE?,,,,,,,,,,,you fucking ignorant fuck………WAKE THE FUCK UP TO THE ONE WHO IS SUMMONING YOU 2 YOU!!!!!!!!!
do they not fucking think at all?
do they not read books?
do they not look apon the consequential downward spiral self-destruction influencing they are causeing in what is happening each blessed day?
are they really that fucking stupid?
apparently they are…………….maybe that is why i am still puking each day………..it’s not the HIV seroconversion, it is the blatant oblivious ignoramous fuckheads so fucking blind it is a wonder they themselves are yet alive………….only in body i suppose, not in spirit………SOMEONE TELL ME AGAIN WHY SHOULD GOD FORGIVE THEM FOR THAT WHICH IS NOT FORGIVEABLE???????????????????????
hey, i know, let’s invite them to one of their fan’s funeral, and see how long they can stand before their wise parents before their parents rip their ignorant fucking heads off!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
……………should i add spikes to the should of my Pride jacket, or would soft pink cherry blossoms BE more evoking of their beautiful ASLEEP IN FUCKING IGNORANCE divine self? lol
what if someone wisely points to the truth that they are cashing in on glamourizing self-destructive deathful oppressive NOT COOL learned behaviourals that may one day take their own stupid lives……..sooner i pray, rather than later? uhm?
everyday, so many parents wake to another blessed day, of blessed tears that gently fall in loving remembrance of their beloved child lost to the ongoing influential self-destructive…………..YOU IGNORANT FUCKING FUCKHEADS………..WHEN ARE YOU GOING TO WAKE THE FUCK UP? WHEN YOU REALEYES YOUR OWN BLESSED CHILD DIES AS A RESULT OF YOUR SNARED IGNORAMOUS MINDLESSNESS?????????????
surprisingly, even them, many do not wake up to their own binding generationally snared fuckedupness………..of seemingly bottomless pits of ignorance so dark and binding of their divine self held captive, that they seemingly cannot escape from, often dying stupid, likewise of the many who unfortunately follow them blindly into death destruction and self-oppression………..sadly, Troy did die from influencial stupidness…………including my own unwise infuences then, of my early recovery program i had began shortly after meeting Troy…………forgive me Troy……..
bless you all
oh, and Adam, you always have ‘me’, you merely need take time to realeyes the TRUTH of mama still kicking this world’s stupid ass while you were still in the womb………….ah well, i suppose they all grow up eventually……..
i pray for God grants each and every ONE of you WISEFUL courage, graceFUL patience, peaceFUL descerning to purely come FULLY into knowing and BEing the flawless loving divine true nature of the divine child of God that i constantly wisely compassionately lovingly always know i am 2 of you all
forever more
bless bless bless bless you all
as for you fuckheads who think you can sneak past Jesus into the kingdom of heaven, think again Biyatches!
YOU cannot escape the truth you unwisely unknowingly deny your divine child of God self
oh, you can try, as some do, their entire miserable fuckedup lives, better off dead than of the influence of others…….hmmmmm……although i suppose witnessing of others of their absurd horrid darkness captivity in wretched dark places does descerningly serve the divine self of eternal all in what not to BE
still, it is not possible for God to forgive anyone who willfully continues on in untruth as though truth, of what yet holds them captive in wisely awakening hear in the kingdom of heaven all around us………..and that is what eludes those yet snared by the generational mindfuck traps………morons………….complete and utter fucking MORONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
maybe i should go to the gym and channel my bitterness into a punching bag……….keeps me awake at night sometimes…………ya, i am toxically bitter……….obviously, and yet my mental faculty ability is not diminished, just distracted by unresolved hurt that someone would deliberately infect me with HIV
i am not stupid………….i know someone intentionally infected me on purpose………and these are supposed to be my loving brothers and sisters of the LGBT community?
i need to stop esteeming everyone of the LGBT community in it’s ok to be fuckedup, i mean there is fuckedup and then there is severely fucked up, where i cannot seem to grasp that this kind of fuckedupness is ok, is natural occuring behavioural, when it feels so life threateningly evil betrayal of ‘me’……………..perhaps they too experienced the betrayal infecting by another in the same way………….it is not forgivable, why you go to jail hear in Canada for not declaring your status to another before having sex with them……………fuck, had they told me, i would of been cautious, i would of practiced safe sex, fuck fuck fuck fuck!
i am beyond bitter………..i am livid with inner rage that runs thru my entire life up to this moment of my life, of all the betrayal i experienced, of all divine children of God’s betrayal past present future, that gives me a pure feeling angst that i will not tolerate one drop more of it ever again from any of you, rightFULLY so!
blessings to all
Happy Pride!
let go hate!
hold on love
let go fate!
‘that’ i shove
i am ‘just’ love
was watching ‘The OC’ yesterday on tv, as i related purely to the bisexual lesbian saying to a bicurious girlfriend(her lover???), “I am so over guys, i am so over (immature)girls!”
not sure if many understood what she meant, purhaps only lesbians, of pure angst discerning arrival in awareness of the tiresome immature crowd she had finally OUT grown, a Gaga moment kinda feeling, running away, not turning back, no more denial, i know who the fuck i am, i know who the fuck i love to fuck and who the fuck loves to fuck ‘me’ the exact same way i love to fuck th’em’…………..hey! you like the new Eminen? I love the new vid! Maybe that’s what Rosie was talkin about???………..I AM NOT AFRAID!
so pure……..albeit an immature thread(unknowingly) runs thru it……..
so much empowerment!
so powerFUL!
so helpful to youth
blessed IS Eminem
~
I’m not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We’ll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you’re not alone
Holla if you feel that you’ve been down the same road
(Intro)
Yeah, It’s been a ride…
I guess I had to go to that place to get to this one
Now some of you might still be in that place
If you’re trying to get out, just follow me
I’ll get you there
(Verse 1)
You can try and read my lyrics off of this paper before I lay ’em
But you won’t take this thing out these words before I say ’em
Cause ain’t no way I’m let you stop me from causing mayhem
When I say ’em or do something I do it, I don’t give a damn
What you think, I’m doing this for me, so fuck the world
Feed it beans, it’s gassed up, if a thing’s stopping me
I’mma be what I set out to be, without a doubt undoubtedly
And all those who look down on me I’m tearing down your balcony
No if ands or buts don’t try to ask him why or how can he
From Infinite down to the last Relapse album he’s still shit and
Whether he’s on salary, paid hourly
Until he bows out or he shit’s his bowels out of him
Whichever comes first, for better or worse
He’s married to the game, like a fuck you for christmas
His gift is a curse, forget the earth he’s got the urge
To pull his dick from the dirt and fuck the universe
(Hook)
I’m not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We’ll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you’re not alone
Holla if you feel that you’ve been down the same road
(Verse 2)
Ok quit playin’ with the scissors and shit, and cut the crap
I shouldn’t have to rhyme these words in the rhythm for you to know it’s a rap
You said you was king, you lied through your teeth
For that fuck your feelings, instead of getting crowned you’re getting capped
And to the fans, I’ll never let you down again, I’m back
I promise to never go back on that promise, in fact
Let’s be honest, that last Relapse CD was “ehhhh”
Perhaps I ran them accents into the ground
Eminem Not Afraid lyrics found on http://www.directlyrics.com.com/eminem-not-afraid-lyrics.html
Relax, I ain’t going back to that now
All I’m tryna say is get back, click-clack BLAOW
Cause I ain’t playin’ around
There’s a game called circle and I don’t know how
I’m way too up to back down
But I think I’m still tryna figure this crap out
Thought I had it mapped out but I guess I didn’t
This fucking black cloud’s still follow’s me around
But it’s time to exercise these demons
These motherfuckers are doing jumping jacks now!
(Hook)
I’m not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We’ll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you’re not alone
Holla if you feel that you’ve been down the same road
(Bridge)
And I just can’t keep living this way
So starting today, I’m breaking out of this cage
I’m standing up, Imma face my demons
I’m manning up, Imma hold my ground
I’ve had enough, now I’m so fed up
Time to put my life back together right now
(Verse 3)
It was my decision to get clean, I did it for me
Admittedly I probably did it subliminally for you
So I could come back a brand new me, you helped see me through
And don’t even realise what you did, believe me you
I been through the ringer, but they can do little to the middle finger
I think I got a tear in my eye, I feel like the king of
My world, haters can make like bees with no stingers, and drop dead
No more beef flingers, no more drama from now on, I promise
To focus soley on handling my responsibility’s as a father
So I solemnly swear to always treat this roof like my daughters and raise it
You couldn’t lift a single shingle lonely
Cause the way I feel, I’m strong enough to go to the club
Put a ??? and lift the whole liquor counter up
Cause I’m raising the bar, I shoot for the moon
But I’m too busy gazing at stars, I feel amazing and
(Hook)
I’m not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We’ll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you’re not alone
Holla if you feel that you’ve been down the same road
this is improve music writing, where the artist purely steps into their angst thru whatever means works best for them, listening to favorite track(s) of musical instruments, or other artists, whatever works best for in experiential technique evoking of your atonement(zen) with your real self, where one is wise in letting go of the negative voice that others may not be accepting of the pure way our vulnerable self is, a denial unawareness of sorts of our false self, where in truth, PURELY SO, as Eminem reveals, THIS IS WHO WE ALL PURELY FEARLESS ARE WITHIN!!!!!!!!!!!!
wise in discerning we need BE without fear that is of the foolish unwise bound world held captive by the controlling falsehood forefather(read drug dealers) fears, is it not?
improve writing is BOTH healthy for our self-actualization validation in real self, self in others
as Eminem says, i don’t give a damn what you think, i am doing this for ‘me’! 😉
in truth, he is doing it firstly for his own self, of wise sacred mirroring for sake of others……….
going to our pure place, unafraid, improve flowing of feelings, expressing words that flow out while there, worry not what the words are, edit later, but go there first in improve flowing FEELING words of whatever issue that is purely awakening of your own divine self first, divine self of the eternal all
and remember………….BE wise in purely knowing without doubt that your empowerment pure motivation divine self light shines eternally for the eternal all who are constantly always there right now in this moment, no different in feeling as divine self of you, divine self of those around us, across time, eternally…………something Jesus constantly was of atonement knowingness in WISE divine self-awareness certainty while walking among the obvious blind leading the blind in death destruction and oppression of the divine child of God eternal all YOU
flowing improve real self writing
and if anything i say or do pisses you off enough to cause you to express truthfully, WELL, you can thank ‘me’ later………….anal retentive Biyatches!
admittedly, this Eminem vid easily caused me to cry fearless flowing blessed tears………….down the same road……………had enough, fearless we go…………
at all times, you R the pure flawless true divine child of God’s heart mind body spirit and soul within the eternal all
even of those who do not k ‘no’ w YOU r
forever more
i grow weary of walking thru the valley of your motherfucking ignoramous gay bashing death that envelopes your ignorant soul that cannot love me without purely taking time to know me as i have come to know my own self……..in this sactuary unafraid place where i pray…….one day……….that you find eternal true love shining radiant brilliant bright, eternal light, in you i see, the one who is there, hiding afraid, as i too once was……….i am…………no more……
improv
Improvisation
Improvisation is the practice of acting, singing, talking and reacting, of making and creating, in the moment and in response to the stimulus of one’s immediate environment and inner feelings. This can result in the invention of new thought patterns, new practices, new structures or symbols, and/or new ways to act. This invention cycle occurs most effectively when the practitioner has a thorough intuitive and technical understanding of the necessary skills and concerns within the improvised domain. Improvisation can be thought of as an “on the spot” or “off the cuff” spontaneous activity.
The skills of improvisation can apply to many different abilities or forms of communication and expression across all artistic, scientific, physical, cognitive, academic, and non-academic disciplines. For example, improvisation can make a significant contribution in music, dance, cooking, presenting a speech, sales, personal or romantic relationships, sports, flower arranging, martial arts, psychotherapy, and much more.
Where the improvisation is intended to solve a problem on a temporary basis, the ‘proper’ solution being unavailable at the time, it may be known as a stop-gap. This particularly applies to engineering improvisations.
~ a rewrite
i grow weary of walking thru the valley of your motherfucking ignoramous gay bashing death that envelopes your ignorant soul that cannot love me without purely taking time to know me as i have come to know my own self……..in this sactuary unafraid place where i pray…….one day……….that you find eternal true love shining radiant … See Morebrilliant bright, eternal light, in you i see, the one who is there, hiding afraid, as i too once was……….because of you……..i am…………no more……….afraid
opppss……..i posted the wrong vid earlier………hear it is………Not Afraid
at all times, true eternal radiant brilliant bright divine self light shines thru us all TWO ONE another united eternally forever more by means of the of the Stop-Gap rap carrying us higher out of the useless mindfuck drug dealer trap crap slap motherfucker……..tap tap tap
in pondering our place in the kingdom of heaven apon entering, of our slowing FULLY into our pure flawless atonement true nature grace while alone, one need only ask “What is the pure constant thread running thru every divine will word of Jesus and God in summoning us to wise compassionate divine self-love awareness fearless unbinding from the forefather falsehoods of death destruction and oppression?”
TRUTH
for sake of YOU, who wisely know at all times you are the required sacred mirror revealing oneness atonement of and with Jesus, of and with God, of and with the eternal all, for sake of eternal all coming free of the generational forefather binding captivity apathetic unknowing asleep in the willful falsehood ignorances of death destruction and false oppression of the divine child of God’s heart mind body spirit and soul of the eternal all who are constantly ALWAYS there in each passing moment.
slow into your graceful true nature and come quickly away from the unwise who are unknowingly bound in capitivity while you are yet able to, lest you remain as you yet are of the falsehoods that lead in death destruction and oppression of the eternal all, as did and yet do ‘the unknowingly unwise forefathers’
know who you are
a divine child of God who comes alone before God of your true nature in purely truthfully seeking what is your divine true nature you all are born as, that is not of the yet unwise world around you falsely led astray by the generational forefather teachings, the graceful true compassionate loving YOU i have come to know within eternal all YOU
bless you all forever more
be careful while walking among those obviously led astray and snared by the addictions of death destruction and oppression, lest you too become as they yet are and remain as their lowly falsehoods of false unhealthy happiness lie
Establish yourself in cultivation of Wise Healthy Choices in RED40(rest, exercise, diet, 40 days to change a bad habit), and Wise Healthy Choices in flexible adjustable boundary setting with your choice of friends and lovers, your ability to make choices each blessed day that constitutes what is your blessed day, your ability to make choices that no one can take away from you, of your spiritual life path that is only as health and happy as the wise healthy choices you CHOOSE to make, you leading you, rather than follow the unwise asleep in ignorance ones into death destruction and oppression like they do daily, dying daily, destructive daily, oppressed daily.
BE wise
bless you all forever more
certainly will follow your wise advise,
i enter the 40 days in the desert not questioning how I shall survive instead with rapture of how I am when I shall return.
but courage, because its 6 fucking months not 40 days without being addicted to anything..
except my addiction to you …
🙂
ok i admit it ..
well at least it’s healthy
we are all on a spiritual quest, some subconsciously, some of deliberate spending of time alone in peaceful sanctuaries away from the masters of deception ring thru their nose(unaware) probing of what EXACTLY is emotionally occuring for them of pure flawless intuitive subconscious eluding certainty(core of your being) emotional feelings and wise mental addressing.
indeed, we are all doing it, even of those who don’t know they are.
sadly, in the unwise world lurks masters of deception trickery, such as the drug dealers and pimps, of many who cross paths with them, becoming eventually led down destructive dark paths, snared and held captive by the progress nature of addictions, that is not merely physical addiction, in so much that it is mostly the dynamic psychological enmeshing of an individuals entire life journey’s unresolved issues that start the moment we all enter into the world from the womb of God.
you are perfect unto God
the question is, “what is of Jesus, Mary and God’s divine will for sake of you and the eternal all?”
starting with this question first with our own divine self-love awareness, indeed is of ‘rapture’ pure flawless revealing of our divine nature true atonement, that reveals our oneness sameness core of our being subconscious seeking(in the heart, where i dwell) a sacred sanctuary place within that is actually always protected there within, as it is the core of our natural calm state being oneness begining thru eternal end(the ALL), hidden treasure within that Jesus speaks of.
without doubt, Jesus spent more than 40 days in the desert, more like our entire life is a desert when we look apon the truth of the falsehood desert like ego alienation masks we all are of natural occuring defense mechanism wearing like we do, not a bad thing, just annoying really, where we can go in any direction we choose, although arguably not always the case for those predisposed to bashed in low self-esteem individuals with low mental fortitudes who do become the prey of the preditors that lurk, likewise of dark low mental fortitude false leading into death destruction and oppression of the divine child of God eternal ALL.
i don’t directly invite many to my inner sanctuary alone with Jesus, Mary and God, and yet, the eternall ALL you are constantly there at all times, where it is the many who do not know i am present among them of wise discerning looking apon their divine self yet unattended, of my heart that aches for the divine children of God being yet snared by so many deathful destructive oppressions.
for those of you who purely do want to come closer to know ‘me’, i am most like a monk’s calm preferred pure flawless loving feeling state of being, wisely so, awake, attentive, likewise pondering what is of God’s divine will for sake of ‘me’ as regards the eternal ALL that Jesus speaks of.
for some of you, it is evidently easily clear to see/feel with clarity of your evolving awakening divine self-love awareness in purely knowing that indeed, of our wise evolved brother Jesus pointing to the obvious truth, the world is snared by the forefather generational teachings, of so much wretchedness in the world, it makes me vomit.
to pick up the holy sword of truth is at first no easy task, and in truth, not a task at all once one comes fully 100% awake in their divine self-love atonement awareness true nature that reveals to us, YOU are the holy sword of truth in every step you take till your last day, where your life is CONSTANTLY of affect/effect/direct/indirect intrinsic/extrinsics behaviorals results, as regards the eternal ALL in the future, likewise of the eternal ALL of the past who have left this world for eternall ALL present and future to see each blessed day.
standing still in our inner sacturary with the holy sword divine will wise words of divine self-love awareness, in fully realizing the sacred value of your blessed life is indeed of rapture greatness for sake of the eternal ALL sadly unknowingly snared and yet to be snare in the eternal future unfolding, of darkness held captivities so dark, so vile, so wretched and horrid of death destruction and oppression, i know without doubt, i would kill a great many of the igorant ones without hesitation, or perhaps in the blink of an eye or lightening strike they realize the one who stands before them with sword in hand, moments before i decapitate them…………… lol
in truth, i decapitate their ego, do i not?
although admittedly at times i too completely lose it in my own falling backward emotional spiking abreactions when at times i come to close to the ignorant ones who walk among us like last night of gay bashers who approached me, only for them to realize my fearless fortitude(warrior of death or angel of death) that caused them to tremble greatly as the back away……….on and on it goes………
i look forward to inviting you further into my inner sanctuary, of one i love and respect, in oneness sameness i have come to realize you do appreciate where i am fearlessly walking to………….the holy wise divine oneness awareness kingdom of heaven wisdom perspective in understanding the cross that Jesus surrendered himself to, for sake that the eternal ALL be without doubt as is Jesus without doubt in his empowerment motivation to step thru his own door of physical death in his own self-awareness knowing how much he loves the divine child of God eternal ALL
100%
without doubt
i have been thinking and feeling so much about our true real self lately that i do seek to nurture awaken and protect, mostly, although lately the HIV seroconversion has had a dramatic affect on my physical emotional well being, now in my forth month, a slowing i notice of the severe acute fatigue and depression that is occuring as antibodies build up in my body, into see my specialist Monday for viral load test results.
worse things are happening to people than HIV infection
can we stop the world for a moment, and have a wise divine self-love awareness awakening protecting talk with everyone and shed the world of the generational forefather binding dark horrid captivities?
yes
what we look for has already come
eternal revealing truth that is constant thru eternal begining eternal end, where the end is the same as the beginning, the same door we step thru, out of darkness ignorance of divine self true nature into wise light awareness.
awakening awareness is ongoing as well, where as the future unfolds, the eternal ALL is leaning towards the victorious wise divine self awakening light within the eternal ALL, by means of darkness ignorance forefather teachings that unknowingly serve the discerning wise divine child of God eternal all YOU
i will return later, have a parade to go march in, of devoted work, a sarced jacket i created that i love, so much so i want to be burried in it, has a cross on the back, a shrine, surrounded by cherry blossom flowers, a Romeo and Juliet sorta feel to the jacket, the modern day Leonardo version, love that film!
bless you
my love is true for you
i know that within
i have always known that within
just did not know how much i wanted to love you and do……..
100%
as does Jesus
however haphazard i may at times i know i get
alot of issues, mostly the bigender bisexual one, that my ex cannot even have an intellectual fun conversation about, mostly unproductive anytime i bring the subject up, thanking God for my wiser bisexual lesbian friends
thank you
i will return, God’s WILLling
to ‘that’ which i am
to ‘that’ which is the eternal ALL
unchanging unable to fail truth
XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOX
my ex is getting nastier as he gets older, and i cannot tolerate it somedays, knowing it is my unaddressed bigender bisexuality that he subconsciously is picking up on……..ya, part of my wants out, part of me wants to stay……..but if not of true inner happiness priority………i cannot stay……….where i do feel i would be most happy with a versatile female lover who do fearlessly exist, and what of kids of my own one day?
peace grace love happiness be to you at all times
i think our interaction are healthy and productive, mostly
i do try to curb my abreactions i am yet of tendancy at times, mostly due to the HIV seroconversion, so bare with me ok?
no seriously, bare with me, get naked, NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol
i am happy around you
i don’t deny this within
my problem is i want more
which is not really a problem for me as much as i feel it may be for you, i mean i would fuck you in a heart beat if only you would let me!
eternally yours beloved
you know
i am
Happy Pride
i love you
more than you may know………..100%
can you be more specific ?
i’m not really getting the point Like I understand the part where you said you miss me & the other part where you said you love me more than i realise..
I do realise btw,
but the part I didn’t get was
so what’s happening next ?
no dog called George no hot man on ya arm’s passing on bye on life’s road
just you
naked
in God’s eyes
of course
There I am and where I go, what I do and who I know, yeah, take a picture ’cause it’s always changing
But I wanna hold on to you
Yes, I wanna hold on to you
But you’re slippery like the gasoline and you feel like fire
And I’m out on a limb
I’m giving in
I’m selling out to the pay, to the show
This is my gimmick and I wanna win it
I’m selling out
I won’t fight you no more
Honey babe and honey boo, I always pictured you by my side forever
And I can’t believe that you’re gone now ’cause I got a love to give
Yes, I got a love to give
I got something you should see
Baby, just come back to me ’cause I, I’m out on a limb and I’m giving in
I’m selling out to the pay, to the show
This is my gimmick and I wanna win it
I’m selling out
I won’t fight you no more
Oh, don’t go away
I want you to stay
I’m-a sing you a song
Listen to my song and I hope that you like it
Oh, don’t go away
I want you to stay
I’m will sing you a song
Listen to my song and I hope that you like it
Hey, everybody gather ’round for me
[ The Sellout lyrics from
http://www.lyricsyoulove.com/m/macy_g… ]
I know I ain’t the same as I used to be (Used to be)
But there are things that I really need (Really need)
There’s some people that I wanna meet
So, one (One), two (Two), three, let’s go (Three, let’s go), four (Four), five (Five), to the show
Nursery rhymes and lullabies gonna make you dance but I cry ’cause I, I’m out on a limb and I’m giving in
I’m selling out to the pay, to the show
This is my gimmick and I wanna win it
I’m selling out
I won’t fight you no more
I’m out on a limb and I’m giving in
I’m selling out for (To the) pay, for (To the) show
This is my gimmick and I wanna win it
I’m selling out
I won’t fight you no more
(Oh, don’t go away)
Won’t fight you no more
(I’m-a sing you a song
Listen to my song and I hope that you like it)
Won’t fight you no more
(Oh, don’t go away
I want you to stay)
I wanna win it
(I’m-a sing you a song
Listen to my song and I hope that you like it)
The Sellout (Macy Gray)
all are born mentally emotionally physically spiritually naked…….as did your evolved adult child Jesus, your true brother
like that of a computer without programing, and yet, we are of extensive primal brain programming, more than we currently biologically understand at this point in human history…..
when you want to feel love at all times……
you feel love at all times
what you turn towards within, you become, at all times
alone i turn towards love i constantly yearn to feel
especially in the immature face of the unloving blind
fears of rejection just under the surface
at times that can make us cry oh why?
turn again you feel another of their pure face
smiling more as you recall than last year’s lie
running running to who knows where i am easily found within?
peace grace love happiness you finds you and fuck you,,,,,,descern.
purely within i know i want the same thing you do
purely within i know you want the same thing i do
why so blue like a tatoo?
do you truly know?
‘me’
like i know you truly want to know ‘me’?
‘me’ 2!
what’s next?
self-love evolving awakening honesty
beyond the foolish mostly imagined blind binding falsehood fears of others………who fucking cares what they choose to think, what they unwisely turn towards, the hypocrisy mean spirited heart within, unable to find ‘me’?
life is peaceful for me now, more consistent than ever before, other than my childhood, of greater self-confidence than i had back then, yet same love feeling emotion flow, appreciation in wisely knowing my feelings are what is the kingdom of heaven found within, the wise discerning at all times, so many bound and blind, their subconscious seeking i feel in their presence, seeking the kingdom of heaven found.
if only they all knew what i know
as i grow
wanna tag along for awhile?
im not really going anywhere other than where i am so easily found
why on earth would i run away from love i know so true?
same as you?
‘me’ 2
i just wanna stay here forever
eternal rest and peace of nothing but play
come on, we should let it show, our love that nurtures and grows
let them all know of our oneness love forever grow
takes courage to be our sensitive self in a harsh ego driven world i enjoy to kick
some are truly wise, enlightened like ‘me’
all our efforts greet us, as we turn around in our love surround
so happy i purely am inside to see them all so free as before
the happy free spirited child of God forever at play they all are within
you are the beacon light summoning awake within
of God’s divine will same
not a game like so many lame
~
smile so bright
feel God’s smite
zeal of flight
replacing plight
once thought of as though some plight
so many who are not wise as we are
yet all are the same oneness intuitiveness we are within, all born the same from the same place, the womb of God
all enter into the unwise world of yet so many who sadly become what is of the environmental journey we all constantly are on together eternal bound by the intrinsic extrinsic resulting affect/effect/direct/indirect forever flow
i smile as i ask them, “Did you know the kingdom of heaven is your feelings?”
their divine flawless self smiles validation in knowing the truth of the words they hear of their emotional recognizing instantly
need some down time for awhile, still abit fatigued and HIV depression symptoms at times………….
it will pass……….
and i will be there
no place to go that i do not already know
same as you………come on, let’s go!
my fearless love for you has to resonate in oneness as your own self-love esteem, as is your love of ‘me’
the constant joy of being alive is what i know i am within the eternal ALL
oneness love eternally forever more
and more and more and more
for ‘me’, life is a constant wedding reception where everyone us is family day after blessed day
six months without sex with someone?
really?
you are exagerating…….
as for the healthy part, i do relate…….
statistically, 95% most individuals are not healthy for constant maintaining positive mental emotional sexual spiritual physical well being, which is not to say they are completely wrong for us, rather, they are not of the well being fortitude priority we strive for, in what is of all their haphazard plodding along aimlessly without a wise helmsperson……..
and yet, all are the divine child of God’s heart mind body spirit and soul of the eternal ALL
i find i am most at ease as my assertive self, with less desire for passive aggressive interactions that leave me hiper and toxic at times, of normal reaction in my not adjusting to healthier boundaries.
~
looking forward to presenting my art collection to the world, of limited edition replicas they can bring home with them, of evoking sensitive homoerotic self-love acceptance art they will love like i do.
thinking of setting up a booth at next years Pride festival to display the devoted works, in the hopes of getting the art work into as many people’s lives as possible, for their sake, for everyone’s sake, offering the art as cheaply as i can offer it to them, say $5, while being able to pay for the cost of the booth permit.
sculpting is my all time favorite past time hobby……although if sex is considered a hobby, then for sure, sex is my favorite hobby.
what’s next?
happiness
i am still exploring my bisexuality, becoming more fearless in stepping forth one day, just not so sure of a healthy spiritual connection with others, that intimidates me more than my bisexual sexuality.
life has taught me who is comfortable for me to be around and who is not…….most are not, where you are, and that part of me of conviction certainty that wants to be with you grows stronger each day in awareness of your true spirit, where now i feel and realize i won’t be happy until we do, and i am fucked up over this in where we yet are, where we want to be, and where we are going, beside around in a circle, and i am not talking about the full circle self-love actualization atonement either, although i am……….
it comes down to what do you want?
whatever you decide, i say yes
i am ok where we are right now, abit over-sensitive and paranoid because of the HIV symptoms that has altered my body and brain
slowly returning to normal, and yet, the intense depression drop off has assisted me in probing unresolved emotional issues, so go figure…….
if you feel your future happiness depends on being with me, well, why don’t we explore this together in person?
i want to
i always wanted 2
i still want 2
so long as you do 2
so shut the fuck up and do ‘me’, ok? lol
you have to kiss me first
in a hot tub, the oh so heavenly tantilizing sensuality of naked bodies tangled together, the sweet anticipation that takes over our brain, the feeling of knowing this really is what heaven constantly is, of not wanting to be anywhere else but where we are………do you love me?
are you falling in love with me?
are we falling in love?
what is love?
is love our self-love oneness?
i suppose it is when we orgasm at the same time……
hey, i know, why not meet, and see how long it takes for us to hold hands, to kiss, to undress, to say to the entire world, “Go fuck yourselves, we are in love, of our love that we know is eternal love of beginning thru end, that none of you of hypocrisy heart dwelling shall ever be able to come between us, not ever, when we are together, and so help me God if one of you trys, you will lose, motherfuckers!!!!!!!!!”
hey, i know, why don’t we get married first, invite everyone, and don’t bother showing up for the wedding, leaving them to try to figure out what they may not ever figure out that we already got married spiritually, like two fucking decades ago, as we find a secluded beach under a full moon, naked together, in surrendered oneness nakeness we constantly yearn for in our yet avoiding?”
i know you want 2
and without doubt, i am rather obvious, i want 2 as WELL!
think it over and let ‘me’ know
what we already know
love takes 2
and with the four of us, how can we ever fail? uhm?
lol
made ya smile
your turn………
isn’t Macy amazing?
ya, i knew i was falling in love with you decades ago, and i know that i always want to feel the love i think and feel for you like i do so often, of constant yearing hopefulness prayer within that you do 2
so the ball really is in your court, of this courtship that i don’t want to leave, seemingly impossible to do so, in our inability to ever leave my our own self-love?
and what of those who are not of our healthier evolved(ing) self-love we are unable to be with?
are we going to keep on fooling our own self till our last day, in continued stuckness avoidance of our sacred oneness thriving happiness growth thus far that not only hinders us, in hindering the eternal all, of the sacred mirroring we wisely know we are within, of constant yearning awaiting to burst forth in brilliant radiant shining eternal bright light into the eternal ALL who are constantly there?
are we not of God’s divine will self-love awakening wholeness fullness happiness for sake of us both, for sake of everyone, when together or apart?
i think of us more than you may know, although lately i am not sure where you are emotionally, spiritually, the HIV interference that has blind sided me……
doc says up to six months for the antibodies to kick in, now in my forth month, still feeling the high spiking HIV viral load symptoms, get dizzy when i over do it physically, feeling better than i was before, slowly returning to normal………two more months……
tears of Joy
hear us say,
“She’s my boy!”
“Now go away!”
oppps….bad timing
ah well, i am no shape for much of anything right now
perhaps another time………
peace OUT babes
now i want all all back
Turn around
I want you BACK
come back
wtf?
more emotional awreness?
is there such thing as a right time for emotional awareness?
ya, i purely feel you are the one who is meant for me
if given the chance, i know we would sore to the highest of places, that i already know is of the subconscious seeking of the eternal ALL oneness
a sacred awareness understanding
but at times, i feel i am as though a nimrod like so many haphazard plodding along that you choose to leave me feeling as, when in truth, i am know purely within, i am that of the pure emotional understanding of Mary and Jesus in knowing why Jesus surrendered to the Romans, his stepping thru the door of his own physical death
can you imagine how one feels once they step thru that door?
i do
i am upset, drunk actually, knowing you yet seeing another for your sexual amusement, in seeing as Jesus too felt, of most anyone he came apon in purely realizing their drunkenness of no desire for self wisdom lost haphard learned forefather teachings
what to say?
well, where can i run to?
my own self awareness transexual bisexuality?
that you brought me into?
ya, we both have the same strong compassionate feelings we purely feel for our sisters and brothers
but lately, i am bored out of my fucking mind with all of them
in my own transexual awareness that surpasses lesbians and gays
here is my spiritual reasoning, ok?
you need to purely hear this
you are of sacred instrumental value unto God, this i know, as regards the eternal ALL
where at times, i realize you are not where i am
fuck, sometimes i feel i would rather be dead than alive in dealing with where i have arrived at in self-awareness
listen!
i cannot turn away from you, because your happiness is what is of greatest value to me, and after all this time i feel i your love for me, where time stands still, in our awareness trust that does yet exist between us, ya, i know you are more evolved than i am, duh! your life lived of so many who came before us in bisexual awareness OUT of denial
well, i hold out for you
no one else
so pure and true
a chance of true romance
and dat after day i struggle with it
perhaps because of my need for versatile that i cannot live without
and why should i deny my own total body orgasmic experience i have wisely come into awareness of
like any female out there?
fuck!
how long are you going to pretend?
uhm?
i am not stupid
i do it too
fuck
we are choosen by God
and i bring to you oneness samenes regards of Mary, Jesus and God to you, knowing you too are chosen
albeit, i do question my sanity at times
at the end of the day, my sexuality comes first, that no matter how much that part of me may wish to appease another, unless you are versatile as i have grown in awareness, well………….we cannot be
and i am confused by all this time with you
not entirely
avoidance perhaps i sense of you
you know, i don’t really know your sexuality awareness at all, perhaps as much as some of your inner circle friends do
and yet i sense it for some time now
i am not some immature 17 year old who is unable to even remotely compare
i am emotionally chareged right now
so i will stop for today
i want you in the same pure oneness way you keep pretending of me!
fuck
fuck fuck fuck fuck!
give it up!
lol
hey, you know, they can not ever say we did not express ourselves!
fuck!
lol
you see?
there it is!
you do want to love me as much as i want to love you
i am so done with everyone!
including you, should you keep on with this bullshit!
we love each other, and have for so long
are you afraid of my rejection of you?
we cannot cross this bridge of fear without holding onto each other’s hand in the physical world
where both of us are of sexuality awareness transition
i am no lameass ignornoramous
far from it
obviously!
i love you
and i know i purely do
and i want a chance for us to find pure true happiness
which i sense purely that i am the one you constantly yearn to love
you won’t regret getting involved with an evolved individual such as my self, way beyond the lames ass gays and lesbians, and beyond the transexuals
i am merely of my own female total body orgasmic sexual enjoyment, same as your own, which is not difficult to love of another
butt i do require respect in this
no bullshit lameass denial immaturity
and what gets me, is that i sense how much you want ot fuck me, yet afraid
no one on this motherfucking planet is ever able to come crushing down on a transexual’s twenty year awareness
not you
not anyone
and if anyone trys, well, immatuity!
end of conversation
as a versatile, there is no way i am remotely interested in chopping of a ten inch fucking penis that i love
speaking of which, you know, sadly all lesbians do not know the pure brain sex enjoyment of sensation in having their own penis
where i do!
so i feel sorry for all females out there of penise envy
sorry…………not sure why i had to express that……..
lol
ok, so you are of fantasy sexual imagination with your current love?
obviously!
fuck!
i am so drunk………….
i am in love with you!
and i know you are in love with me
i am not some perfect human being
but at least i question what eludes us
happiness that Jesus was unable to reach because of the wretched oppression of the Roman empire that none of us know first hand just how bad it actually was for a child like Jesus born into such a fucked world of Roman occupation and those to the east that we still up are against in forefather fuckedness
if i am the one you want to be with, i am way beyond being your devoted lover you need not ever doubt
i had my bisexual fears
but what you may not realize, is how much i loved my female lovers, albeit of immaturity i was then with them, in letting them all down like i did
i am not the same heterosexual i was then
i am an evolved bisexual transexual now
twenty years exploration, AFTER my ten years of hetersexual awareness
truthfully, i am so happy inside you turned to speak with me
fearless in expression knowingness i don’t need to be fearful of any recrimination
although being an total immature unaware asshole in transition awareness i won’t ever be with you, so relaxe
im just drunk
and emotionally upset
but hey, i invited it, did i not?
sorry bout that…….seems i was more thirsty than i realized last night, the heat wave, drank a few, five i think…….i have learned to drink in moderation, however, i notice my old immature self of years ago in learned behavior drinking binge comes forth with just one drink of alcohol, who wants to cut loose as before in haphazard fashion that is not pretty at all…….yuk
ok, i am sober now………what were to talkin about again?
oh ya, your ever flowing forth radiant brilliant shining bright divine self true real happiness you constantly yearn to always feel and be as does everyone born past present future
peace grace love happiness constant flow is your divine true nature of every one of you
i purely love so many of you from a distance in my knowing so too do all you feel as i do, of eternal celebration in your hearts resonating pure and true like it obviously does year after year, of all our sexuality celebration not just of lesbian gay bisexual transexual awareness as before, no, hetersexuality too, although i personally don’t feel there is such a thing in light of my awareness of primal innate female and male sexual behavior of my brain, of everyone’s brain when true of my own, is it not?
beyond enjoyment pleasure of our sexual bodies is our fearless spiritual awakening awareness taking place within every one of you that i discerningly watch and observe at all times, your true nature at times stifled from whatever environment i see some of you find yourselves in, as too have i experienced so many many times, a lifetime lived now at age 46, the inner struggle i feel of all of you in dealing with the intrinsic/extrinsic forces of forefather falsehood teachings we all were born into, not knowing divine self-love awareness wisdom is available for us in nurturing, awakening, and eternally protecting what is of your natural occuring divine child of God true nature of the eternal all YOU forever more from the forefather ignorance(s) that we easily all see each blessed day with clarity, the useless death destruction and oppression that is linked directly to the ignorance(s) of the forefathers, all of it, is it not?
i come in peace to speak as my true self in spiritual self-love awareness wisdom i have cultivated over a long journey i have travelled, as did Jesus, as do all you, where i came to realize that Jesus is the most evolved of any of us, where Jesus too comes forth as the humble student Jesus constantly is and was then, in saying, “Reach for that which i am unable to reach.”
Jesus says these wise words not so much to those of his generation likewise bound in forefather captivity, rather Jesus says this from his pure heart directly in conversation with the eternal ALL you that Jesus always knew were constantly there in his every blessed step.
the question is, “What do you suppose Jesus knew his generation of brutal killing Roman occupation was unable to reach that Jesus wisely knew the eternal all you of the future were able to reach when of eventual divine true nature uniting?
and end to all forefather nescience falsehood ego driven ignorance suffering, yes?
it is all you who are the eternal generation Jesus wisely addresses in his pure heart wise divine self-love true nature awareness oneness sameness of the eternal all you who are constantly there in the future, knowing fully without doubt the unwise world you too are born into yet bound by the forefather useless ignorance captivities you easily purely feel with clarity that is yet of the unwise world in all absurd immature and needless suffering of the loving brothers and sisters you come to know as do i, as does Jesus.
eternal oneness of pure flowing constant yearning divine self-love natural occuring true nature is the safe passage for the eternal all you who are eternal there forever more by means of your pure loving true nature holy joyful absolute carefree happiness, are you not?
bless you all
i will return another day
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sorry for the drunken stuper……….i get beside myself some days in my relapse falling off the wagon………which is not really a problematic issue for me, although potentially it is, a few times a year, where over many years, decades, i have come to despise my old self immaturity drunken shit head i am of when i drink too much
blame the forefathers i learned it from
i do
i have to admit though, i did have a lot of loving laughs with my dad each friday evening at the end of our hard construction laboring week, which i out grew of the repetitive annoyance i came to be of in stepping out and away from years ago, 1990 i think…….
hey, i don’t have a drinking problem…….seriously, i don’t, although i suppose if i am not careful i could slide back into self-destruction learned behaviors that eventually did take my dad’s life
did i tell you how my dad’s dad died at age 61, from the very same thing that my dad died from?
smoking
ya, believe it or not, against my doctors request to quit, i am still smoking
an imbarrasing addiction stupidness i loath, and yet that part of me that enjoys it still enjoys it, but physically i really really feel the results that is so harsh on my weakening body now, where if i don’t stop, i will die from it like i have seen of many who kept on with the self-destruction behaviorals………..
they are not much fun to be around, so don’t worry about my having any desire to run with them…….i don’t
mostly
lol
‘Safe Distance Appreciation Awareness Development’
is my motto
i relapse about five times a year, in moderation, although even three beer pretty much gets me drunk
i don’t like the feeling of a lower functioning intoxicated brain
so, uhm, do you want to hook up some day?
yesterday?
ya me too!
what took us so long in being honest with one another?
seems we are both of the useless fear of rejection at times
but we have grown in our self confidence i feel from our interactions all this time
self-expression
validation
needs being met
you wanna go skiing with me, night skiing under a full moon? a healthy mind blowing experience that i love!
healthy fun physical activity, including sex, is how one can easily distract our time away from any old self behavioral patterns we may have picked up in haphazard aimless learning from others in our youth…….come to think of it, which was pretty much every single one of my teenage friends in high school, and the stats are just as bad today as it was then in the 70s
i tell them the truth
if anyone puts a hard core rape drug of any kind in your hand, they are not your friend, they are rapists
their eyes widen in thankfulness of a wise older brother taking time to give them serious life advice as i walk away leaving them to ponder those words
im off to enjoy breakfast……enjoy the blessed day of blessed pure loving you!
will catch up with you later………i love that song you posted
learn to live before i die
ya, i am doing that, learning about my true self
we both are
i feel our love for each other so true like best friends do and i want always to feel this way every minute of every blessed day, where each day really is a gift, of only so many we get to live and then we are gone from this world that all of us passing thru in entering and all too soon leaving, my god my god, how so many years have gone by, so many now gone, half my family now dead……….and soon will we too will all one day die, leaving the world behind with whatever it is we leave behind of devoted works
i say leave behind your heart for them to purely come to know as you have your own, of no greater gift in life than the loving flawless pure feelings of our true divine self nature
hey, do you really want to fuck some day? lol
more than i realize?
hmmmmm…….
you know, i realize(imagine) quite abit as a versatile bisexual transsexual who has spent a great deal of time in loving oneness validating the female of many many males i know is there as my own female self, easily so, as you know, of my male body with a female brain
hmmmmm…….
is there any difference between the female and male?
lets start with emotionally………no, love i feel is the same way you too feel, like the feelings this song purely evokes in us, yes?
how about mentally?……….our mental power is the cultivation of discerning words vocabulary anyone can learn, so no, we are all the same there
how about physically? Boys do have nipples like females do, and when the two parts of the reproduction system come together, both are of the same physical sexual brain sex activity enjoyment
sexually? I really don’t believe the female orgasm is different from the male
spiritually? all the same flawless pure spirited holy joyful absolute carefree happiness true nature we can all easily turn towards, if only we all would, and in truth, we are are turning towards, even of those in subconscious asleep cogntive unawareness awakening
Jesus says, “It is finished.”
Jesus set things in motion, knowing the outcome, as do we set in motion our evoking devoted works of affect/effect/direct/indirect that shine brightly into the future, just as Harvey Milk yet shines, just as we all shine the same light we have all been striving for in holy joyful absolute carefree happiness.
there is far greater carefree abundant flowing prosperity of pure hearts in the future generations, way beyond our current survival mode capitalist ugly ego mentality here in the present, that is unfortunately yet needed for the process transition of the eternal all out of the many mindfuck forefather ignorances yet lurking and snaring, no different than when Jesus walked the earth, although we are of a far healthier positive mental emotional well being society than any other time in our evolving history, although i do wonder about our early beginnings when we were in oneness harmoniousness with nature as is nature, as is our true nature
bless you all
it is foolish to think any divine child of God of the eternal ALL does not want always to feel love, so why are so many of you contrary to your own divine self-love awareness?
is it not true that we are all of an unwise world left behind by the forefathers of ignorance, of all death, of all destruction, of all oppression, all around us, that we all bare witness to day after blessed day?
so what is the kingdom of heaven?
TRUTH
a mathematical constance
truth does not fail us
rather we fail in truth
falsehoods are exactly that!
false hoods
you lurking fuckers of hateful hypocrisy heart who do not realize i am constantly of the pure powerful spirit of God looking apon you as you shutter and recoil away from the light that is drawing your true self out of all your cultivated falsehoods……..unknowingly of my wise approach intention.
motherfuckers!
you wanna dance?
find pure true happiness………fuck, i really was drunk last night………
I AM ‘THAT’ of PURE TRUE HAPPINESS within
i am constantly purely flawlessly ‘that’ which i seek
duh!
same as you
the eternal all YOU radiant brilliant shining bright eternal divine self-love light……….YOU!
forever more
hmmm……..feels like love to ‘me’
i
love love love love love
you you you you you
2 2 2 2 2
i can help motivate empower the bringing out the sculptor in you if you want
come on, it will be fun, day after blessed day, till our last day, none stop fun holy joyful absolute carefree happiness of YOU
it is not a matter of what to do, rather what you already constantly are within, are you not?
same as ‘me’
love love love love love
you you you you you
2 2 2 2 2 2 2 2 2 2 2 2 2
B B B B B B B B B B
YOU
lol
fuck, i feel like i am writing antivirus program……..and perhaps i am………..?
lol, ive been single for 4 yrs …
like who’s going to give me the emotional support i need !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
may as well spend the rest of my life alone
boring i know
but i’m sure someone will surprise me
bump into them in a supermarket or something
have sex on the oranges display
i am not feeling well yet, taking time out during the seriously life threatening potentially dangerous time of HIV seroconvsion
please do not question my insight on HIV seroconversion that no one knows if you are HIV-
no one knows the serious altering of body and brain for the HIV seroconversion phase better than someone who is in it………it is of potential life threatening seriousness when not of understanding how best to manage it………and yes, many are still dying consequential to the pitfals of HIV seroconversion that lasts for as long as four to six months or more…….
i am feeling better……slowly recovering as my HIV seroconversion phase passes, taking up to four months for the antibodies to kick in, of less fatigue and acute depression symptoms becoming less severe.
i would not wish HIV on my worse enemy……it’s fucking horrible!
and yet treatable! if you become HIV+ positive say at the age of 20, the … See Morecurrent drugs today will keep you alive until you are 80, and that is just our current drugs, what of the new drugs constantly coming down the pipe in the future, of eventual cure?
still, HIV seroconversion is a dangerous time for those of self-destructive behaviorals such as self-medicating coping with the use of drugs and/or alcohol, where the severe acute depression leaves one reaching out in desperation to escape the HIV acute depression symptom that really really is severe, actually makes you cry, over nothing, you just start crying, not knowing why, as though you have lost your mind, gone insane, where you don’t even know what the fuck you are crying over, of past unresolved issues coming to the surface, which actually is good for us to grieve over any ungreived past issues, so the HIV acute depression symptom actually has a plus side to it, however, self-medication coping is a serious serious reality check i have witness of many who are yet falling thru the cracks and dying consequentially as a result of not understanding what is happening to them during the lengthy HIV seroconversion period, often isolating themselves without getting their needs met, not taking action in learning how to cope with HIV seroconversion, such as increasing their exercise, better diet, stop smoking(still working on that one), stop all drug and alcohol intake completely for no less than six months, or only in low low moderation a few times in celebration of something, while our body and brain undergoes the crashing low low side effects of HIV seroconversion.
my doctor gave me a 900 page book on HIV
you are the only one who can insure affirmative safe guard action in taking 100% ownership of your HIV seroconversion phase in avoidance of the pitfall potential development in self-medication coping, or potential increasing of already existing self-medication coping…….BE WISE……or suffer your own unawareness consequences anyone can avoid thru understanding HIV seroconversion in what to expect, that does eventually pass within four to six months.
bless you all
i am looking for a new place this summer, moved out of my old place to go stay with my ex during my HIV seroconversion phase, the moral support i need, the avoidance of the fucking gay bashing assholes i was sharing my old place with
why is it so many fucking assholes feel they can easily pick on a truly sensitive transsexual like they do, fuck!
the fucking homophobic assholes got violent with me, so i left, no returning, other than to get my things, and not alone……..
somehow, i just cannot come to trust being around hard core drug addicts at the half-way house i was staying in, one of them with knife slash scares on both sides of his face, truly nightmarish!
anyway, got away from that horrifying place i am completly terrified of, thought i was going to die there, seriously, i did, the most spiritual death creeped out horrifying place i ever lived in, and i am not over exagerating it, although i suppose i have lived a cocoon existence away from the homophobic world 14 years now, unable to tolerate it any more, and won’t.
i cannot give you true mental emotional sexual spiritual pure fun loving support over a fucking blog!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
duh!
like how are you ever going to be able to purely flawlessly enjoy our perfect beautiful sexual bodies tangled for hours at a time over a fucking blog………….and if you are still fantacy fucking him in thinking of me, well, that’s just fucking wrong!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and sure as fuck not fair to me having to fantacy you too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol
all you have to do is come 2 me, so easy, and if not soon, well, someone else WILL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
what did you say your name was again?
oh never mind, you are too much of a lameass coward to come and have sex with me, of this same old boring ass fucking blogging…………..argh
coward coward coward coward
pffffffffffffffffffff
to truly love is to let go …
some thing i should tell my ego ,
that was very merciful
When seeking love from a place of lust, ones needs will never be met, to truly have ones needs met, requires love & to truly love someone is to let go.
Children of the light, know the grand view
As above so below