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Hi Madonna
I love the new look of your blog! Keep on blogging 🙂
check out madonna calls gaga spoof video. enjoy x
Love Madonna and I am very thankful that she lend her voice to this project http://tiny.cc/p8yfn
Change is good…. I like your new blog!
sounds like a Win Win Win relationship to me!
Only way to fly!
It is God’s way.
Angels of mercy that have God with them, at all times.
Creamy smooth?
What flavour?
Just asking…again!
She keeps me…
😀 😀
thanks again for letting me know
even if it is angela or whoever
it was very very nice of u to respond to me
i really and truly appreciate that
it made me feel really special so thank u
i am going to the dr. for my biopsy i have never ever been so afraid in all of my life m
i know it is a touchy subject for u and many others
however my family is my life and well, i dont want to think negative just afraid.
so thank u again for letting me know the new post
believe it or not my scanner has been broke for some time if u can leave us an address where some of us who dont have a scanner and are not computer literate like me lol
any address even a po box so we can join in on contests would that be too much to ask?
thanks again
again, i cannot belive how much i enjoyed myself at rosies ny comedy festival and how hysterically funny she was and it was cool to talk to sandra b and meet kelly she is so petite and adorable and viviane lachiam that does mean that is a rubber stamp of her
i am concerned about ro’s hand because when u get a staff infection i read that it can come back again
with msra that disease going around i am concerned about her
dont say a word to her please
however, there are things she can do to illiminate any sought of germs
like always always washing ur hands not ocd but in general like just making sure she doesnt pick up dogs who lick other dogs who are not her dogs
even zoe i know it sounds upsurd
but once u get a staff infection it is not good
i am concerned in general this world is so scary
i swear if it was not against the law i would walk in the white house and tell mr. bush exactly how i feel but i doubt they would let me past his secretary.
they spoke about nuclear weapons and i am not worried about this because i feel that our security forces will not allow this to happen maybe i am just praying,
there is light i know it
and so we must go on believing right?
Hi M!
I just have seen the ‘About’ section… I like the new blog, and also your posts. 😀 So keep on blogging and saving the world.
Here is the lovely and talented Liz Wright covering “Stop”. It’s very good don’t you think?
I think that you are very creative and good person!!I must admit that I was angry at first!I felt like a fool!But It’s ok,I forgive you…:D
Peace+Love
Barbara
Thank God ! I found you here. I was wondering where the blog has gone ?
So is this blog “fake” or real?? I never quite understood what happened with the other one. And now that this one is up and running, do I dare let myself get as invested as I did with the last blog.
Hi Madonna,
Cool blog, however the previous one was fare better than this one with reference to the features and advertisements regarding Kabbalah books.
Pls put this back on, as quick as possible. And where did the Kabbalah lessons dissapear to, I miss this sort of stuff.
Anyway, Im patient……but not old, so hurry up!
Greetz,
Dennis
P.S. should you require any other tips or comments, pls contact me, no problemo.
hi madonna when is your new album going to be out??????????/
Happy 7th Anniversary to you and Guy time goes by so fast!
I fyou were an Ice cream what ice cream would you like to be so that all your fan would eat it.
Hi Madonna!
I´m not sure if you´re going to read this, but here it goes. I would like to thank you for inspiring me over these years. I´ve been following your work since I was 13 years old….that´s 22 years and I cannot believe it! I´m not complaining about age, in my country they say women are like port wine, the older they are the better they get… I want to wish you all the best for 2008. I am very proud of you and I wish you many years to come of inspiration and saving the world! Please continue to show your beautiful light! Lots of Love, Cristina
Hi Madonna,
I just discovered your blog. I’m a 38 year old gay man from Baton Rouge currently living in Atlanta. I came out of the closet in New Orleans at 16 way ahead of my time.
You have been a huge inspiration to me particularly throughout the 90’s. I’m sure you’ve heard the idea that our male dominated culture is fearful of and disgusted by gay men because gay men represent the weakness of women which are also hated and despised, and ultimately feared by our male dominated culture. Men have hated you in the same way they’ve hated me. I always felt that, even in Junior High School. That connection and the strength I’ve gotten from you, particularly when I was younger, is why I’m a true Madonna fan and always will be. I wish you nothing but love, happiness, and success.
James
you forgot to mention that you are a tease with a big “T”
Hi Madonna.
I have just found your new blog and love it! I just started blogging again and have started a new one on here. The site is joshsownblog.wordpress.com if you would like to have a look at it. I hope all is well with you and yours!!
Much Love,
Josh
You are my superwoman you are my Hero!!! 🙂
i need Madonna 🙂
dont leave me alone!!!
I like your post, you must write something, please
i want to listen your stories, your physical pain, your lyirics…. please
would you like to try, please?
A single fan….. I like your NEW Icon , great 🙂
Markos
The Beat Goes On –
This is my new spring song. This is the open the windows, clean the apartment every inch and bring flowers in. This is the new chapter in my life song. This is the new goals, plans, etc…song…
I’m getting married in less then 30 days, I have friends who are not happy about it I guess. I finally found him. He’s my prayer answered. He’s that floodgate that has been opened and the blessing poured out upon me. They are not happy for me I’m guessing because it is not them. We’ve been talking for years like an episode of Sex and the City …wondering where our Big or Aaden is. Where is our Mr. Right. I found him and they send their RSVP cards back and declined the invitation. I was sad and hurt, but THE BEAT GOES ON… I’m not going to beg them to come to the wedding. They made a choice that they may or may not regret, but The beat goes on…Right? Right!
Time to cook. I love the song…I look forward to the album, the videos and every little marketing scheme that comes with it. I love you. Kiss Kiss to you and your little darlings and dumplings.
Your West Coast Fan,
Crybaby
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is this really you Madonna ??
if it is i love u girl you rule the world
………as u already know….lol
everyone i talk to says its not u and is fake satire!
i got to email Liz and see for myself if its really u.
i use to call maverick headquarters
when i had a question like this to find out
if something was true or not !!
but anyway i have lots of great inspirational ideas
for u and your career ..lol maybe one day
i can produce your records
like i said im full of ideas 🙂 🙂
heres a few i just made up
“urban legend”
‘veronica-hiphopica’
‘the dark beat alchemist’
‘ Darth-star’
‘funkadelic relic’
‘come-hither ‘!!
feel free to send a masage if u need
any more ideas sweetie.
DEAR MADONNA,
Congratulations on your induction to the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame. You’ve put blood sweat and tears into the last 25 years, you’ve worked hard for this moment.
Enjoy it!!!
Kiss Kiss
Hi, Madonna. I’m very happy to have found your blog. I hope it’s really yours. I am a brazillian woman who loves your word, your ideas and reinvention. Keep on blogging. God bless you and your family.
Kisses.
I once sat next to your baseball costume from your roll in ‘A League of their Own’. In was pinned into this shadow box frame. It suddenly came to me as I was walking past the Wakiki location…I’m going to frame my wedding gown and display it as art. It’s an amazing dress…to preserve it is brilliant. I don’t know why I’m telling you this. I guess the world is in such a hurrey to publish your everyday doings…I guess i’d share mine…whatev….I’m digging the artwork and first release of 4 minutes off your new album.
give Justin kissies for me…I’ll never get a chance to…
oh…I totally forgot that I sat next to your costume at Planet Hollywood. I’m such a doorknob..
Hi Madonna,
I am one of your fans in France. I am pregnant, and a male baby will born in June. I am looking for a comfortable family to adopt this child because I can not keep him. I know that you have been involved in this kind of situation.
Do you know in your environment a family interested by a direct adoption of a French white baby?
Thank you for your possible recommendation.
Deiba.
Hi, Why are my comments always “Waiting for moderation”?
u r da best singer in da world!
Madonna,
I am writing my autobiography, and I was wondering if you, being a published author, would provide me with the name (or names) and contact information (E-mail address if possible) of anyone that you know who I could contact to help me to publish such a book. My intention is to send this person the material that I have already written to get advice on how to add and improve on this material, and basically to find out if it worth the effort to continue with writing such a book.
I could really use your help.
Sincerely,
Mario Stelzner
Madonna,
I watched with interest your recent publicity interviews for Hard Candy. I think you may be deluding yourself, and attempting to delude others perhaps, by the assertion that your song 4 minutes is an attempt to bring attention to the current social/socio-econimal/enviromental issues that are affecting the world. Having scanned the lyrics to this song I am seriously struggling to understand what, if any valid message about said issues, is being promoted. Perhaps you are donating the sales from 4 minutes to Greenpeace? The Red Cross?, perhaps not. Having been a campaigner for both I find your cynical overtures about ‘running out of time’ unpalatable, because your oh-so sincere twitterings fail to mask the stark fact that this record is just about making a buck. Of course there is nothing wrong with that Madonna, but please don’t patronize your audience into believing your intentions are altruistic. By the same token that your adoption of David Banda is not saving Africa, your record 4 minutes, will not save the world either. I applaud your status as a recording artist, but cod-moral-convictions do not save the world – actions do. One thing you should never underestimate in your fans and admirer’s, is their capacity to divine insincere behaviour.
Obviously, you dont understand that song or have an idea of efforts that Madonna has made for MANY causes. You should at least research her efforts far beyond the adoption of David Banda in Malawi. I am sure you will be embarrassed in your accusations. There is no telling how much money this woman has raised or donated for the AIDS research in this country beginning back when the first cases surfaced when many others viewed the disease as a punishment and little was known. I am sure she in a sense is partly responsible for the funding of the first retroantivirals.
I just remixed a couple of your stuff and made a mixtape about you. you can check out my myspace and let me know what you think.
http://www.myspace.com/theremixkid
I have stood my son for you,so I love you.
your music sucks!!
I remixed a bunch of your songs. I’d appreciate it if you can give me some feedback. Thanks M.
your homie,
Remix Kid.
http://WWW.MYSPACE.COM/THEREMIXKID
Here’s a link to hear all the songs…
http://www.sendspace.com/file/iw40p9
Hello Madonna,
Thankyou for sharing your blog with the public.
I hope to see you in Boston in your upcoming tou,orginally from Toronto,Ontario i was hoping to see in in Toronto this year we will see.
I guess all the insanity with dumb rumors do not satisfy those who want some sort of demise.
I do like your current album and i wish you continued success.
I am a freelancer and i hope contribute my part of talent to the world.
Questions ,questions about what the hell are we on earth for ?
To help others or to drown in it?
Like any other self searching individual,i hope to learn many interesting tibits you share.
Peace and Love,
ldrumonde Toronto,Ontario
GuyStyle blogazine has named Madonna’s “Hard Candy” among the best new dance albums…head over and check out what we had to say about it!
http://guystyle.net
If you look at the dooms day clock it’s set to 4 MINUTES to midnight.
Justin: “Don’t be a pri(hey)ma donna.”
* Pre-madonnas cannot help they way they are because their parents spoiled them and they are still developing their personalities.
* Used by idiots who do not know the real phrase is prima donna.
* Originally used in opera companies, “prima donna” is Italian for “first lady”. The term was used to designate the leading female singer in the opera company, the person to whom the prime roles would be given. The prima donna was normally, but not necessarily, a soprano.
Legendarily, these “prima donnas” (prime donne in Italian) were often regarded as egotistical, unreasonable and irritable, with a rather high opinion of themselves not shared by others. Although whether they are truly more vain or more hot-tempered than other singers (or than any other people in the opera houses) is not substantiated, the term often signifies a vain, obnoxious and temperamental person who, although irritating, cannot be done without.
SAVING THE WORLD STARTS WITH BRINGING PEOPLE’S ATTENTION TO THE ATTITUDE TOWARDS life, life style, our behavior, how we treat one another etc…
Madonna could be referring to the fact that she also needs to work on it herself…and it’s like a treadmill, we seem to never get anywhere because of our never ending everyday mundane things we do each day.
sorry for my bad english…I’m Italian…but how can we save the world?I feel so sad when I look at all the bad things that happen in a lot of countries…I just want to cry!!!
I’m 25…and I love you since I was 6…I hope 1 day we could talk together of these thing. Thank you for all the thing you do..
dear maddy,
I’m david and I’m your big fan…I don’t speack good english because I’m italian…but I love you and l Iike your song…I have all about you and I want yuo see…I don’t go in your tour because we don’t have enough money…sigh…however I continue love you,love your famyly,love your project…
with love
your David
time to practice what u have explained to be important-forgiveness. please don’t crash & burn- i have not been your fan this long to suddenly watch u crumble. hopefully u remain intact and this crazy period ends. the album–didnt sell well, radio not playing your hot new song, marriage issues, a shadow brother. hold your children & remember you are the maker .. dear lord, i also hope there is no “sex” tape of u and a-rod. if this is true, run girl, pacentro.
-beautiful!
FAKE
when will you have show in hong kong?????????????????????????????waiting for you……………………………hong kong singer is too bad……they like justin(hong kong)!!!!!!!!but justin don’t have any hair!!!
that is too bad
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Romannk,if you don’t like madonna,why you still come here???????
Hi Madonna,
I just want to tell you how happy I am that you are coming to Denver for your Hard Candy Tour. I have tickets for the second show. I can’t wait. Also about 7 years ago, after your Drowned World tour I bought your old Breedlove guitar. It came with a letter for the Breedlove President saying you used as a loaner until your custom guitar was finished with the mermaid inlay. It still has the same strings on it that you last played on. I have pictures of you playing it during La Isla Bonita. It would be a dream come true if you could sign it while your in Denver. I know a lot of fans want something from you but not everyone has one of your old guitars. Thank you for being an inspiration to me and all your fans.
Melissa
see ya in August M!
Madonna, I have been a fan from day one. I’m 36 years old and feel kind of silly emailing you at this point in my life. I have so much to say to you, but I will just say this,… I have always felt the need to say thanks for getting me through some hard times as a kid. Having your music and understanding your message was a big help,….. What was the message????…who the hell knows, but as a kid I made out of it what I wanted, and it helped some how. I wish you well and stay close to the people you love. They will teach you everything you need to know about life, that is what they are there for. I’ll be seeing you for the first time EVER in Atlanta,….I feel like a kid all over again!. Have safe travel, and thanks for everything!!!! Stay strong!
madonna how are You? how do you really feel ? remember that if you are happy ,i’m happy and if you suffer, i suffer. I’ll be in rome to see you strong as you were in 2006. love you Luisa
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This is my first venture into Madonna’s website, and, I seriously doubt this will ever be read by M, but, I just wanted to comment for posterity. I have been a fan since 84 when I lived in LA, and, will be for eternity. I don’t pay attention to the press and propaganda, just what I feel & hear through her (timeless) music. I’m 52 and find M more beautiful now than ever. Today is August 16; Happy Birthday. No music has ever inspired me like hers… I can play any CD over and over and never tire of it. I get excited (still) when I know she’s about to put out something new! I hope she pumps out more music and dance beats ’til she’s in her 70’s. Don’t worry about my buying the book her brother wrote, why would I??
Hi Madonna!How are you today?
I love your songs,special 4 minutes and give it 2 me.
They’re so cool.You’re verry cool,Madonna.
I love you!I’m a big fan of you and I’m from Roumania.
kisses ^^
Hi Madonna!!!!
Sorry for my really bad english I’m from Mexico and just want to say that I can’t wait for you concert. You are my inspiration since 1985. I love your song’s, your movies and your books.
I love you!!!!
Mad-donna (stark raving)…why don’t you just stay out of the USA. Nobody would miss you and your hate (which btw is making you look haggard my dear)
Professional advice.
My brother is a struggling musician and his big break may have come and gone. A song he composed and recorded was used as the main soundtrack in a Sundance award winner film without him getting any neither credits nor royalties. What should he do?
BTW, great new look!
Hello Madonna,
I hope you read this, I want to tell you, that you are not the best here of this world. You are only an people like me and other people.
You only knew how to sell yourself, and now after 25 years you try to be like an 16 year old girl. This is very very sad, cos now all turn in to bad.
You are an loser inside yourself!
Usually to you pay compliments, i shall speak the truth. A site usual, anything especial… You – not the god. You just woman, wife and mother. Yes, you beautiful, strong, talented. Such it is a lot of. But in you something is. Something bewitching, unusual. Big luck Madonna.
i’m just a normal person – not trying to pry. i need some spiritual help and am researching kabbalah – i’m jewish but don’t know much about it. i need help where to start, who to trust. there are so many wackos out there preying on people like me. i lost both my parents last year, weeks apart, and am just looking for answers and comfort. my rabbis just don’t have the answers i need. can kabbalah help? i respect you and your privacy and don’t want to bother you personally, but i just need to be pointed in right direction. saw gwyneth on oprah the other day, and she spoke so highly of you as a friend and just a good person. i thank you for any advice you can give me.
It’s great Madonna has faith – that’s wonderful. I’m delighted. I respect that.
I have faith too. I’m sure Madonna would respect that.
And you know, what the cabbal is a belief only for men???
I am unsure if this blog site is read by Madam M, but it this is no reason why it couldn’t be either !
This blog site feels like a place to share a thought, maybe a confession with like minded souls.
I have been a fan of hers for many years, finally at the age of 41 I am heading to the US to see her in N.Y.
This will be my first time in N.Y and flying up from New Zealand on what almost has the feeling of a spirtual journery for me.
some one asked me the other day why I admire Madonna so much, I emailed them the following:
Why I admire Madonna:
I admire her music , for me it is emotive on all levels it inspires me, it is retrospective, it is sad, happy, and powerful to list a few.
I admire her passion and drive in being the best she can be.
As a fellow Leo, I admire her Leo traits 🙂
I admire the fact she is erotic and powerful as a women, without being slutty (in my opinion)
I totally admire her artistic ability
I admire her ability to change, and re-invent her style/music over the years
I admire her ability to maintain individuality
I admire the fact as she gets older she appears to be developing a more spiritual ‘in tune’ understanding of herself.
I admire her as a diva..and why not 🙂
Thank you Madonna for being you x
‘Life is not measured by the breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away’…
Meeting Madonna in person would be one of those moments for me !
Hi, I have a Breedlove guitar that Madonna used on the first 14 concert of her Drowned World Tour while her custome guitar was being built. I bought it diectly from the Breedlove guitar company and have a COA from the President of the company with serial number of the guitar and I have pictures of Madonna playing it on stage. If anyone is insterested in buying it, Please e-mail me. maj13777@aol.com. I will e-mail pictures to anyone who is interested. I don’t want to sell it, but I have too.
Melissa
Hi Madonna ,
Why don’t you have a show in Tel Aviv , Israel?
David
Hi M,
I’ve just found your blog. Wondering, is this real you?!
I’m 34 married, one of your fan from small country in Asia, Indonesia.
I have to tell you that your ‘Tick Tock’ is clicking in my head & have to playing your music every morning when I on my way to the office. Seems that you want to tell us how to dance, ha ha…
Don’t worry about anything. Keep rockin’ M! We need your energy.
I hope all is well with you and yours!!
Big love from me & my husband,
Meilyn & Ronald
Hey Louise…haha
Like Patricia Im wondering if this Blog is real. But anyway you will not be able to read it. You are propably busy because of the S&S-Tour. The concert in Dusseldorf was great by the way. It was unbelievable for me…You the biggest star in the whole universe…I saw YOU….performing on stage…incredible. You were late a couple of minutes and I was soooooo excited and suddenly you sat on that big thrown. It was such a memorable moment for me. I am very young (well not veeeery young, but im not in my twentys yet) from Germany and you are the one who I admire. I admire you so much. You are the reason why I want to be a millionaire…lol or singer or an actor or somthing….just to meet you. Well, thats never gonna happen but it is a dream…my biggest dream. But someone learned me, that every dream can come true…it was YOU!
Love you so much
Hi dear Madonna!
it is fantastic to have a chance to write you! I am form Moscow and what you do support me many years!
Thank you for all what you do ! You are GREAT!!!!
Hi Madonna,
I’ve been a fan since the first time I heard your voice. Seeing you perform simply parlayed my enthusiasm to listen to you.
This is why I am so disappointed when I heard what you said to your fans about Sarah Palin. You seem so much smarter than that.
I hope you find a way to redeem your honor because I love your talent.
TES
I’m also very disappointed in Madonna for singing that anti-Sarah Palin song – I just saw the clip on Fox News and she deserved the PINHEAD award! To tell you the truth, Madonna is a fucked up bitch. One of these days, Madonna’s daughter will be walking down the street and going into some public place, and people will make fun of her and Madonna – calling her names and telling Madonna’s daughter that she’s not invited to any parties or any shows!!!! Just watch, Madonna’s daughter will be next to be picked on – what goes around comes around!
I just say the video of Madonna at her show, speaking so negatively about Sarah Palin. This really is too much, it’s amazing to me that such a supposed spiritual person would put out such negativity. It makes you think that the super spiritual image is exactly that, an image. Chill out, we are all just people and I am sure Madonna doesn’t know Sarah Palin from a whole in the wall. California puts out some great movies, but the self righteous, know it all attitude that comes from the celebrity community in California isn’t so great. They should remember that they aren’t perfect and we really don’t want to know what they think, if we did they would be up at the podium with Biden or Palin. Normally I don’t know or care about what celebrities are saying, but I accidently stumbled upon this news piece online, and it just was enough. Celebrities should just do their own thing, practice humility and do what they know best. That seemingly isn’t how to behave in public or to remember that they too are just ordinary people. Manners people, manners.
Can I just ask a question…
Why in the world would you think that someone like Sarah Palin, who is running for office, would ever want to come to one of your concerts.
Speaking up in your concert saying that she can’t come sounds just lie some of the 12-16 girls that I know.
GROW UP!
Hi Madonna,
Trully am sorry to hear about your marriage. I acutually got married on the same year and always thought if she can hang in there, so can I.
Thanks…
Just Kidding.
Trully am sorry and hope you all can work out the kids and the next step which is, where wil you all establish your selves being from two diffrenet countries that are so far from each other. Good luck with that one.
I still try to figure that out for myself.
I think it’s important to be flexible and not make hard-and-fast rules, just sort things out on a day-to-day basis. You haven’t got to plan eveything set-in-stone from the start. Some questions can remain unanswered.
It seems that every time in my life that I have found myself at a cross roads or I am struggling for guidance, she finds me.
Thank you for blogging
M, I know for a fact that you underwent surgery and had cheek implants. I know for an absolute FACT. It helps the jowls but you look scary. Much like Madame the puppet. It is really none of my business and I understand the pressures, poor dear. But honestly, you of all people shouldn’t deny it–express yourself, darling, don’t repress…the truth.
great show last night. almost got those glasses, chica would have loved them. borderline rocked!
wow! you are amazing. Thank god I got to see your show last night. There is no one like you and never will be. People may not agree with you but you sure “have balls” lady!!!
ya, well…if it is true, that is Madonna’s decision, that she lives with, not you, and if Madonna makes one million dollars from advertising and it feeds one starving child one meal, then it is worth it, so before you go hypocritical on us, why not focus on what Matters most in Madonna’s heart, close to her heart, that’s if any of you are able to focus and think about what matters…
don’t suppose any of you look at that way, have you, Madonna who’s face makes millions?
and besides, she looks fucking amazing!!!!!!
jerks
Madonna I love you so much, I send you all my love in this difficult time. You are a brave woman, a real fighter and an example of selfsuperation, strenght and heart power. Don´t let nothing to bring you down, you are a star not only under the stage, your brightness come from your soul. I love you!
Lady Madonna, you are a Ray of Light in my life.
Your songs are beautiful because they have given me strength and faith during sometimes hard times.
I admire your courage, strength and resolve. Your Songs are beautiful. I love you always. May you
Live to Tell forever. I love you!
Madonna, you definitely RULE!!! I just left Brazil to be at your concert in Buenos Aires and I wanted to tell you that it was a life experience! I was 12 feet from the stage! You are SOOOOO WONDERFUL and BEAUTIFUL!!! Keep it up, you are such an inspiration to us women. I’m no sure God exists, but if he does, God bless you!
oi, eu sou uma fã do Brasil ,tenho16 anos e adoro você, gosto de arte e sinceramente você é arte pura, isso me encanta.Se você vier ao Brasil daqui a 2 ou 3 anos eu vou estar lá…até a proxima!!! I LOVE YOU.
Aryanne
huh?
Oi Madonna!!!!!!
Eu sou sua fã daqui do Brasil eu tenho 13 anos e eu lhe acho linda adoro suas musicas e você eu vou no seu show daqui do brasil
I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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i love the snowing crosses at your website Music!
truly amazing, knowing M would more than approve.
blessings to you
bless you
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super je pjevacica jako super meni je najdraza pjesma 4 minutes
i vama mislim
Hi Madonna
I know you get a lot of these comments and that you dont even have time to read all of tham. I have always dreamed of contacting you but I didnt know how. Now that I have found your blog I would just like to say that you have been to me a great inspiration. I am a tinage boy from a smal cuntry caled Croatia maybe you have heard of it. From my chieldhoud I have always knowed who is Madonna. To me you are not just a pop star you are a great artist and a great person, strong and brave, suscesfull and profesional. I wanted to came to your concert in Budva but I couldnt and I am sad because of it, when will I have the cance to see in person the greatest pop artes of all time. I would be soo thankful if you could reply to me or just send me a hi so I could say the great Madonna has noticed me.
P.S. oh and please excuse my grammar
I love you! are you?
am i what, HARD cAndy?
duh! several times a day actually. next silly question.
hey madge,u’ve changed my lif completely.ur such arole model to follow.keep singing for the fans like me.i cant see dat queen of pop crown on sum1 elses head.plz release music video fr ur singles,n only dose creative ones.a great single like miles away gt wasted.keep rockin mam.m always wid u.
Hi Madonna
I just wanted to say hey and tell you that because of you, you’ve made me and my business very popular. I was born as Madonna Carol Kohnen in 1961. My siblings called me Donna because they didn’t think I was worthy of a name like Madonna (virgin Mary)
Over the course of my life I have slowly begun to start using my birth name and find that because you’ve made the name so popular it’s a great marketing tool tool for my business.
Thanks again for the boost and if you’re ever in Cincinnati, I’d love to buy you a coffee! There are very few Madonna’s in the world so I feel we have some sort of a bond! 🙂
Lots of luck to you in 2009
Do you really think that all of this articals is written by M? I don’t! I think it’s written by special person!
Of course, I like Madonna’s creativity!
hola M estoy enamorada de las botas que usaste en four minutes siempre sueño que algun dia yo pueda tenerlas. tambien es lindo soñar. no!
LOUISE, ME ENCANTA your New Look!!!
Moreover of your Beautiful New Style of Hair, always is very NICE to see YOU to SMILE!!!
Hello,Madonna/
I’m so glad i can write a short massage to you/I’ve been your fan since the very childhood,I’m from Russia,from the far east and I’m so sorry I can never be able to see your shows.You gave a show in Moscow, but it’s so far from here,I couldn’t come. Nevertheless thank you DEAR Madge, for you job?for your music,you’re the greatest person in my life!!!!
Great blog .. can we exchange links??
I been reading this blog for a while, but never really commented. I love reading your entries. Straightforward and to the point…thats the person we have come to love. Best of luck always for you and your family! ::hugs::
Needs up dating ….
ya, the entire heartless motherfucking world of the horrid sensless death of 30, 000 children TODAY needs updating, what Jesus was railing about in his every step, every heartbeat, every breath, every word, every blessed day.
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why?
the heartless apathetic disconnect of all you of the self serving empty hearted egotistic falsehood financial wealth of empty gold vessels held up high!
hey, don’t look at me, look at your SELF………i am just a messenger of God’s divine WILL LIGHT of self-awareness.
oh hey look, your so precious wealth economy is emploding…………gee, i wonder why?
not!
hey, wouldn’t it be cool to see the entire world fall into starvation?
perhaps the only way they are able to connect with how a child of starvation constantly feels, yes?
goodbye world economy!
do you genuinely care about the child who is going to die today?
no you do not!
goodbye
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do you care?
no you do not!
the defenseless child who dies today is the reflection of ALL of YOU!
the #1 priority that a DEFENSELESS CHILD does not die, is what is not yet of this heartless egotistic disconnected world.
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do you care?
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enjoy your fancy meal tonight everyone!
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do you care?
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only when the world makes the #1 priority in life that a DEFENSELESS CHILD does not die from starvation, will God and i change our opinion of this yet disconnected world………….not until.
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people are so self absorb with their self serving mentalities of the insatiable desires of wealth, the ugly dynamic of this unwise snare is now showing it’s teeth.
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30,000 CHILDREN ARE GOING TO DIE TODAY!
30,000 CHILDREN ARE GOING TO DIE TODAY!
30,000 CHILDREN ARE GOING TO DIE TODAY!
30,000 CHILDREN ARE GOING TO DIE TODAY!
30,000 CHILDREN ARE GOING TO DIE TODAY!
30,000 CHILDREN ARE GOING TO DIE TODAY!
30,000 CHILDREN ARE GOING TO DIE TODAY!
30,000 CHILDREN ARE GOING TO DIE TODAY!
30,000 CHILDREN ARE GOING TO DIE TODAY!
30,000 CHILDREN ARE GOING TO DIE TODAY!
30,000 CHILDREN ARE GOING TO DIE TODAY!
30,000 CHILDREN ARE GOING TO DIE TODAY!
30,000 CHILDREN ARE GOING TO DIE TODAY!
30,000 CHILDREN ARE GOING TO DIE TODAY!
30,000 CHILDREN ARE GOING TO DIE TODAY!
30,000 CHILDREN ARE GOING TO DIE TODAY!
30,000 CHILDREN ARE GOING TO DIE TODAY!
30,000 CHILDREN ARE GOING TO DIE TODAY!
30,000 CHILDREN ARE GOING TO DIE TODAY!
30,000 CHILDREN ARE GOING TO DIE TODAY!
30,000 CHILDREN ARE GOING TO DIE TODAY!
30,000 CHILDREN ARE GOING TO DIE TODAY!
30,000 CHILDREN ARE GOING TO DIE TODAY!
30,000 CHILDREN ARE GOING TO DIE TODAY!
30,000 CHILDREN ARE GOING TO DIE TODAY!
30,000 CHILDREN ARE GOING TO DIE TODAY!
30,000 CHILDREN ARE GOING TO DIE TODAY!
30,000 CHILDREN ARE GOING TO DIE TODAY!
30,000 CHILDREN ARE GOING TO DIE TODAY!
do you care?
no you do not!
by the time you eat your evening meal today, 25,000 children will already be dead………..
do you care?
no you do not!
nor does God care about your imploding economy.
nor do i
where is the abundant overflowing compassionate love for these defenseless children of the horrific state of their constant feelings of feeling unloved, not understanding why?
look at you people.
i mean really look at your SELF sitting there!
what is forthmost in your heart right now, of your thoughts?
did you think about a starving child today?
do you connect with the constant feelings of feeling unloved that a child of starvation feels ALL DAY LONG?
no you do not!
not my problem you say?
actually, in truth it is a problem, a run away insatiable desire problem the entire world is snared by, led away from it’s pure of heart pure love flawless self-awareness.
look at you people!
all worried about what?
you worry about losing your fancy car!
you worry about losing your fancy house!
you worry about losing your high paying job!
you worry about losing your mind!
do you worry about losing your life to starvation, like a child does ALL DAY LONG?
no you do not!
perhaps you all soon will, of a worldwide imploding economy?
it is of 25% right now, and the fall out is coming!
what the world needs, is not an injection of more insatiable desire for wealth, it needs an injection of pure love compassion, and perhaps when of a fully imploded world economy of suffering on a massive scale like the last depression, some of you will turn towards the compassion within your hearts in helping another to eat?
i doubt it!
most of you will only come to truly feel how a child of starvation feels once you are of starvation, and not until.
you are all so self absorbed by self serving wealth.
well, here comes the fall out everyone.
apathetic unloving ignorance vs compassion wise loving self-awareness.
let’s see, what really happened with the economy everyone?
well, inflation rates during 1780-1880 were of .4% for the entire 100 years.
inflation of the last 100 years?
WOW!!!!
what is that?
it is insatiable desire for wealth!
a falsely created one, is it not?
you people jacket up and jacket up the cost of everything!
the Joe-six pack guy working stiff has not had a raise in wages in 30 fucking years!
and now they want to do away with the unions!
fuckers!
the rich and their fucking need for more more more more!
well, you can all fuck off and count me out of you shit for brains approach to life of keeping up with the jones!
emptiness fucking egotistic fucktards is all any of you almighty rich are…….or should i say, were?
it’s not over yet, the implosion will continue.
and rightfully so, of all your jack it to the prices, jack it up more, more more more!
prices beyond absurd!
bunch of fucking idiots!
oh, poor rich guy is feeling poor!
well, you are more poor than you think poor little rich guy!
horrific hellish poor in the eyes of God.
you are all so fucking heartless disconnected from the horrific horrid reality of these starving children, i despise everyone of you!
well, no, not really………….i despise the generational false teachings that has snared your souls, of the business forefathers Jesus said are not of desire to know God, to know the pure of heart pure love flawlessness healing feelings of your own divine child of God ‘real’ self!
‘that’ IS where the world IS today, all business! well, mostly.
some of you amazingly actually give a fuck!
the world is of the disconnect pure love priority, and is why it is the way it is right now, and why the economy became and is now of, 100% truth, all of building apon building, make money without effort jack the price up for Joe-six pack and his loving family.
so long as this world is not of the pure of heart pure love priority of what matters most in life, you are all about to suffer unnecessarily of this snare i speak of, of your own unwiseness of the true ugliness of the snare which has continued to be taught since Jesus(God) walked the earth.
of course, some of you have no clue what i am talking about, nor do you sincerely desire to learn about what matters most in life, of what TRUE LIFE REALLY IS.
so go for a long walk and perhaps wonder who I AM IS, and maybe i WILL BE here to speak with you all further of what is priority #1.
in the eyes of Jesus and God, YOU ARE the only value of your entire LIFE!
from the first breath of LIFE till the last!
YOU!
constantly loved by Jesus, loved by God, by all of you who are yet asleep in ignorance thinking you are wise.
i feel every word each of you say every day!
so go think about that one for awhile, ok?
so who AM i?
do you truly know who I AM IS yet?
who give’s a fuck who you are Andy,
one thing for sure\
your not very spiritually evolved,
an evolved soul, harbour’s no anger..
you lower yourself being so common.
i’m out of here,
you have too many issue’s.
fuck off!
what a horrible thing to say to another soul, who cares who you are?
you sit there with your arrogant hypocrisy heart of bitter seperation words like this tell ‘me’ i know nothing about spiritual evolving of the ‘real’ self?
no one has said something like that of utter blackness words, darker than the darkest hell voids, destructive words for any soul to ever hear utter apon them.
you do not TRULY love me
issues are of every soul, where 95% of us come from dysfunctional families of one degree or another.
you do not TRULY love me
wow, i would not ever say something so horrid to another soul like that
who gives a fuck who i am?
Jesus and God
and clearly not you
i came to you every day of my every word, of obvious wanting yearning for you since 1995, the pure of heart pure love feelings i have felt all this time.
and you say, who gives a fuck who i am?
Jesus and God
not you
go play your immature mind fuck mental abusive (dangerous) games with some other unsuspecting soul to transfer all your inner bullshit on to.
who knows Andy?
Jesus and God, and someone i came to know with a pure of heart pure love like my own, now hiding behind her egotistic arrogant hyposcrisy bitter heart who betrays both of our pure of heart pure love connection, turning towards fear, rather than fearlessness.
i fucking loved you and you know it.
you go prancing around(intentionally) with your fucking boy toys, like you always do so arrogantly, your drama queen stage mentality, not the real you, knowing it would fuck with my head, get a response, i get pissed off feeling clearly betrayed after you talked about us enjoying a loving dinner made with love.
you did it on purpose, and you say i have issues?
we all have issues.
who gives a fuck about Andy?
Jesus and God
and you, but you run and hide your real self away, afraid of getting hurt, behind this exterior bullshit drama queen stage mask you wear when you get doubtful like you do.
i came to nurture and protect your real self with only love, only wisdom
divine fucking wisdom, ok? of Jesus and God!
i cannot do be of any use so long as you keep playing this fucking drama queen bullshit!
you wanted real, and i am fucking real, of real response to all your drama queen intentional fucking staged shit.
well fine, you go do that for as long as you want, and wonder why i got fucking tired of the falsehood unreality abstract you have been playing for how long now?
it’s old hat and you know it.
you want the presence of Jesus and God, for sake of your arrogant drama stage, and you are in denial of this truth.
boy comes to girl he wants to marry, and girl kicks him in the fucking balls, because boy got upset over her going out with someone else, then girl turns and says, “who gives a fuck who you are?”
Jesus and God, who 100% constantly know, love, and teach ‘me’, and you!
‘that’s who i am!
a child of the light of God.
how dare you fucking say something like that to me!
i forgive your fucking immature ignorance, but don’t expect me to come crawling back for more of your fucking lying unloving immature unwarranted unwanted useless absurd egotistical falsehood ignorant drama queen hateful seperation words not of God.
honestly, who wants ‘that’?
fuck off!
if you ever want me to speak with you again, you can do it in person.
biyatch!
fuck off!
you got that Madonna?
fuck off!
you and all your fucking alias names here.
how many, what ten alias names you use?
i am done with the issue of your fucking abstract unreality uncertainty
fuck off Madonna!
don’t ever speak to me like that again, nor speak to any soul like that again.
you defile your own soul when you do.
your exterior falsehood shell is the most damning hateful fucking arrogant ego i know of any soul.
fuck off!
i deserve better!
she does it on purpose Rosie!
then i respond like any normal person to her fucking mind fuck game, and then she kicks me in the balls as though i have too many issues.
we all see right thru it Madonna!
you seem to be the only one unaware of the truth that Andy fucking loved you with all his heart, all his mind, all his body, all his spirit, and all his soul.
and like you love to do, once you win them over, you toss them in the trash.
you don’t want to truly know me like Jesus and God do, and in so doing, you do not want to know Jesus and God, nor your own ‘real’ self.
fuck off!
i am not speaking to you ever again so long as you approach with this fucking abstract lying motherfucking mind fuck game you play like you do.
you falshehood egotistical unknowingly blind fuckers who do not desire to TRULY KNOW and LOVE ‘me’?
you falsehood egotistical unknowingly blind fuckers who do not desire to TRULY KNOW and LOVE Jesus and God!
nor do you desire to know and love the constant pure of heart pure love flawless healing feelings of the divine child of God ‘real’ self!
approach Jesus, God and ‘me’ egotistically like you do, not of the humbled pure of heart, mind, body, spirit and soul, and your WILL is not of the ONEness exact sameness divine WILL of Jesus, God and ‘me’, of what we constantly know about your divine child of God pure of heart pure love ‘real’ self.
you cannot embrace, know and love the ‘real’ self so long as you are turned towards the egotistical hypocrisy falsehood heart, nor shall i embrace any of you who approach in unwiseness.
where all untruthfulness is, you WILL not find ‘me’
so fuck off with your useless arrogant untruthful egotistical falsehood approach with ‘me’.
i will not stay where i am not loved. nor should any of you.
you cannot bring harm to my soul that is protected by God.
rather it is your own soul you leave unattended, unnurtured, unprotected.
God does not cast anyone out of heaven, rather you cast your ‘real’ self out of heaven, away from Jesus and God’s presence, thinking you are wise.
the power of the love of the ALL is what lifts the ALL out of hell into the constant love devoid of doubt ONEness of heaven of where i constantly dwell with Jesus and God ever present in my life, where many of you will be of the last to enter into clarity of sight out of your wretched blindness, by means of the power of the love of the ALL of the GLBT community united as ONE.
forever more
only love devoid of doubt IS good enough for Jesus
only love devoid of doubt IS good enough for ‘me’
only love devoid of doubt IS good enough for ALL
only love devoid of doubt IS what HEAVEN constantly IS
fine, you don’t want to know and love ‘me’, i don’t care, someone else WILL and does.
as if your lying fucking hateful words WILL ever mean anything to ‘me’
go be the liar you choose to BE!
you are a liar in the eyes of Jesus and God, speaking like a fool.
fine. Go be that way.
good fucking bye!
so long as you approach ‘me’ like that, you do not deserve ‘me’, nor do i want to stay where i am made to feel unloved, nor should any soul.
so obviously delightful is your black hellish heart of useless mental fucking abuse capable of destoying a soul
oh, and i am supposed to love ‘that’? ya, right.
go find some idiot who will pretentiously kiss your ass and put up with your hiddeous mind fuck bullshit!
you speak like a fool. In Jesus and God’s eyes, you are yet that of a fool who thinks they are wise and clearly are not.
a true monk of God comes before you, and you chop his head off.
clearly, you are not of Jesus and God’s wisdom, nor shall you ever be so long as you do not desire to truly know and love Jesus, God and your own divine child of God pure of heart pure love ‘real’ self as i do, as one who is of the ONEness of the bridal chamber with Jesus and God, of my every word of wisdom meant for the bride and groom who dwell in their pure of heart pure love of the bridal chamber with Jesus and God.
fine. go be like that and see if i ever speak to you ever again.
to be sure………..i won’t.
i will only share my words with the pure of heart soul that is of genuine sincere desire to know and love ‘me’ which are not for sale like the merchants of God do, who claim to know God and do not, of what is their yet fractured incomplete scattered understandings.
i know my heart, mind, body, spirit and soul belongs 100% to Jesus, God and the children of the light, past, present, and future
I AM not for sale
forever more
biyatches!!!!!!!!!!!!
i will only share my writtings with the pure of heart ONEness WILL like my own, which you have chosen not to BE with ‘me’, thinking and feeling you once did and yet do.
you wrote ‘me’ off because of too many issues.
IS that someone who genuinely wants to know and love ‘me’?
no
closure
goodbye
God bless
like confessions on a dance floor woody and lou,” future lovers”. forever.”transcendentalism”?. xxx
oh, very funny.
true. i need some dental work.
come to think of it, i need alot of work.
working out.
sex workouts!!!!!!!!!
yes!!!!!!!!!!!!!
forever biyatch!
a poll asks if i would pay to see Madonna?
i say, “fuck that, when i can see her for free!”
Love IS FREE!
I AM FREE!
well ok, i need dental work!
and a hair cut!
im sure she can afford ‘me’!
oh, and food to eat!
I AM the low maintainance loverboy!
to keep ‘me’ happy one only has to make sure i am fed, kept clean, and fuck ‘me’ when the urge arises. Leave ‘me’ too long without getting fucked, and like a stray cat, i wonder to a new home.
lol
transcend beyond aimless haphazard plodding along in life of unknowingly unwise disconnectedness subconscious asleep uncertainty into awake wise knowing awareness certainty constant yearning seeking of sameness inner connectedness with another who also is of the wise preffered cognitive pure of heart pure love flawless feelings as our own.
Alone, we are of this awareness within, of our constant yearning to sense a pure love connectedness with another without the element of doubt, like all the useless doubtfulness disconnected seperating distracting useless words of many in the world like they do, unknowingnly derailing not only themselves, but also the paths of others who may know what they are seeking.
We know the pure of heart flawless pure love of our ‘real’ self is what IS most sacred in life, likewise sacred for us all to know what we know.
i know this is what we both are, and always will be, so i don’t fret about what i know we 100% are.
Even our own egos can get in the way when we fall away from feeling centered at times like we do, yet that IS not ever able to change the truth of our awareness we can always return to and embrace like we do.
with that said, clearly i am of encouragement of our sameness awareness, of what i feel is what works for two souls to BE of what IS already pure healthy self-actualization while alone, a healthy conducive relationship for continued thriving growth into self-actualization for both souls, of full restoration of the exceeding joyful happiness of self of both souls.
albeit, i have my moments, i am not stupid, impatient at times, but far from stupid.
i ask, “why not give us a year to find out once and for ALL if indeed we are a healthy combination for ALL to see and feel the truth we both embrace like we do while alone, leading the world by example?”
or do you want to play the field for awhile?
i am at the point now where i don’t care either way, and rather want to get on with it, which every direction.
this is getting too boring, on and on going now where now for way to long for me, how many years?
it is starting to piss me off badly, like you don’t give a fuck.
waiting this long is speaking more to me that you don’t give a fuck, more so than you actually want to come together, and then all the boytoys, well, i don’t hold it against you, but it makes me feel as though i am not of interest to you like i am of you.
and then the excuses i hear, well, just more of the same thing, you don’t really want me as much as i do you.
on and on it goes, where i need contact badly with someone, for sake of self-esteem needs, where i don’t think i am going to accept anymore excuses from you or ones i make myself for you.
there, i said what needed to be said, without being angry aggressive or passive.
assertive
this is getting boring for me more than i want to admit, where it is natural to be of enjoyment of real life with someone else, and you can’t blame me for that.
two years is dedication enough to clarify to me you don’t really want me in real life 100%. It feels i am perhaps merely a curiousity for you, and yet, our love is pure and true.
i don’t say this to blame, on the contrary, i say the truth of how it is feeling for me, the stagnant stuckness, where like you said, words don’t cut it. On your side of life, i am not able to compete with the real life boys who are there by mere words alone, which is why i feel it is coming to a close for me, as though futile, albit, of wise exploration into self awareness discovery of the pure of heart pure love flawless healing feelings we feel like we do.
anyway, just ranting again, of a boy who is like sitting in the living room, the year 1975, hot summer sun outside, beautiful breeze russelling the leaves of the trees, everyone else is gone, wondering why i am sitting here alone when everyone else is have a great time.
it’s like that most days………the waiting.
joyfulness in real life awaits us all!
you asked for real, did you not?
well, there is good real, and not so good real, is there not?
this blogging is not so good real unreality for me, and well, just sucks big time!
oh sure, nice to leave a few directional words for others to think about, but not of where and what i yearn to constantly BE, in real life of the fun loving real me.
look me up sometime, i’ll be around, but the internet for me, is of the stagnant stuckness for me, as though my brain is rented out for others to just walk thru whenever they want……….well, i am not interested in that, i want real life with someone, where at this point, anyone will do! lol
save my self! lol
no more excuses for any of you lame ass ones every again!
i’m done!
you are the dream
i am the dreamer
Where is MADONNA?
remember me, the British guy?
we had a brief fling in the early eighties at the Chelsea Hotel rm 917.
we met at Keen’s where i worked as a bartender.
As embarrassing and desperate as this is, I need to sell some paintings to pay for legal fees to keep my apartment in New york.
If this ever reaches you, please check out the work at: jazilek.com
Roger
I LOVE U!!
just be happy, cause i love you too
Your all God Damn emotional train wreck’s
i am the only emotionally pillar of strength here..
ok all aboard !!
mount me !!
ha ha
gee, i wonder why? NOT!
do you know what it’s like everyday in your professional world to be thought of as deviant by your co-workers who gossip about you, in front of you?
i do
do you know what it’s like everyday in your personal world to be thought of as deviant by your own biological family?
i do
do you know every day of the emotional steps i GRACEFULLY walk of my journey along life’s road with what i consider the true blue loving souls of what are my true blue loving brothers and sisters of the GLBT worldwide community united as ONE
i do
We are what HEAVEN constantly IS………..the TRUTH
of the generational homophobic bitter unloving teachings, not of God, who is both male and female ONEness of 2
ya, i know you are solid, more so than i
gee i wonder why? NOT!
you get to enjoy ALL of HEAVEN with or withOUT ‘me’!
i am not jealous or envious, no, just pissed of you won’t let ‘me’ fuck you!
ya, well, fuck you! LOL
when love comes to town, im gonna catch her train!
white train that IS!
Biyatches!
i adore him, and he ‘me’, you si?
you comprendi?
he ‘me’, so si si si si sisi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so girlie, so whirly, hmmm, must be his pot smoking! lol
have you heard the new U2 album yet?
U2 ~ No Line On The Horizon
http://www.imeem.com/u2music/playlist/KXvszOfr/u2-no-line-on-the-horizon-music-playlist/
released today
i was born to BE with you in this space in time
i like this line which holds true of how i purely feel my every step is of God at all times, with regards any soul i happen to meet, like i met Troy, for a reason, like any soul, all for a reason, to learn from one another, where my heart goes to the truth, we are all the same.
we all constantly yearn to feel loved and loving with another.
what HEAVEN constantly IS
oh, the entangled bodies of the loving lover embrace is the only place i want to BE found, when you don’t cum round! lol
forever more
for ‘me’, HEAVEN is the constant unbroken connectedness of pure of heart flowing of flawless healing feeling, which is a focused cognitive awareness above mere sex, albeit, sex is the highest of place to float up to.
my love consists of both feeling the flawless feelings flow, and my compassionate love for another to feel what it is that i feel like i do, where ever so gentle graceful surrended spirit of tender loving caressing of another ignites the fires within their soul, as i watch the flawless feelings grow and grow, sing and dance, they always come back for more of what i know is true of them, true of ‘real me’, you si?
si si si si you bunch of sisissyyyyyyyyyys!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WE ARE ALL 100% SAME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I know it is of God we met
perfect love drives out all fear! ~ U2
i know you are pefect love
perfect love…………devoid of doubt you feel like we feel, to constantly BE what we feel, like i feel when i am alone with you………biyatches!
i’ll go crazy if i don’t crazy tonight!
broken glass shattering, venting, against, against, against………..it all
he stepped calmly into my halo, of a 100% pure calm fearlessness of his soul, what is it about this one passing before me that i feel?
his defenses were down, no pretentiousness to be anything other than himself, unafraid, utterly calm, profound, so much like my own, who is this kid now found?
my brother who is just like ‘me’, so girlie, so whirly, so, so, so, so…………fuck! he has nicer legs than mine!!!!!!!!! LOL
the others looked apon him for everything he is not, a drug addict, perhaps a theif, a hustler? who’s to say, of one so obviously gay?
dressed like a girl, so girlie, so whirly, i could tell, what he wanted to yell!
i could see him feel,
what he yearns to feel,
of no places he goes,
of no one who knows,
of where he belongs,
his yearning prolong,
his pavement pounds,
his love not found,
who he obviously is
one of us
always will be, one of us!
please God, watch over this one for me
his virgin spirit still looking for true love
his virgin spirit
does not fear it
knows his accusers,
knows his abusers,
knows how to yell,
knows how to tell,
he will not fall
no matter how tall
does not fear it
her virgin spirit
OUT from the cold,
his love so bold,
his running farther,
seeking his father,
his spirit swept away,
allowed not to be gay,
he felt no love there,
he felt no one cares,
his love so bold,
OUT from the cold
Hello Madonna,
Or may I call you Maddy? I tried hard to get at your old blog but it’ closed. Afraid I don’t get at this much; started my own blog but don’t get at that much either. Used to have your private email but lost in a pc crash, but that is probably gone too, judging by the stuff that gets thrown at your here. The few idiots who do blog here only talk of themselves, you don’t seem to excist for them. Well that way your don’t get so much mindless slag. You know, when I read all this pseudo inelectual/arty/poesy junk I have to ask myself what it’s supposed to be. I just can’t understand how, when someone gets the chance to talk to the great lady herself, they spew such puke.
Anyway I just want to say that I think that you are wonderful, as singer und definately as woman. Pity that I can’t write a few words in private to you; without the junk heads having a field day with things they wouldn’t understand. Keep it up, you do have friends you know. You are lucky wih your best friend, she must be a doll.
I suppose I don’t really fit in here well, you wil have noticed I expect that I am a bit of a dinosaur, an old slyle brit.( and not a bit ashamed of it ) If as I have heard you will be leaving the UK, I would like to say that the islands will be poorer for the loss. I’m too long in the tooth to take much notice of this goddess stuff, but you must be the nearest thing ever to hit my country. Do you know the old song? Stay as swet as you are!!! Willie
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ON SEX
Hi M,
I think there is a mistake in the info under “About” you are not A goddess, but THE goddess… 😛
I really hope that it is you who is in this blog… If it is not, I still hope that the real Madonna reads some comments once in a while…
I’ve been reading some comments and I have found that the issue of sex is brought up constantly, especially in relation to gay men… But I think your influence goes further…
Your actions have influenced my life in important ways and I have submitted a comment about what you make me feel in general, but I’ll try to organize my posts a little…
What do I have to say about sex? well, I am a 23 year-old girl who has grown up in a family where sex is taboo… this means that I have had to learn about sex though my own means and, in a way, it was taboo for myself as well… I have been a fan since I was about 15 but till recently I was only interested in your music… I went to your show in Buenos Aires and I could see deeper… The Madonna that was on stage was not the Madonna I saw on Tv… It was you not the person described by the press, by cameras… this encouraged me to find out more, and I guess I have learnt more in this past months than in my whole life…
SEX is not only “condemned” in relation to gays and lesbians. There are heterosexuals who also suffer. The mere fact that it was taboo in my environment makes sex a hard subject when it should be the other way round…
I’ve seen your shows, where the sexual element is always present, and I am reading your book and the only thing I can say is that I only see other part of you. one more part, just as if I was finfing out about your family, your childhood or whatever… Who condemnes sex and why? why? why? why? you were very brave in coming out to the world and showing what you had to say about sex… you have taught me that there should be no regrets… there may be some thing we wouldn’t do again but no things one should not be respnsible for… I love your attitude… I love you M…
I’m not a demostrative person, I guess I’m getting better at expressing myself, I listen to what you have to say… and I know that millions do the same… that’s why I think you should be THE goddess 😛
Those who think I’m a blind fan or whatever fuck off… M and I both know she is not a God in the “religious” sense… she is the closest to god on Earth…
THE goddess, is a egotistic condescening view, that goes against ONEness Exact Sameness of the divine child of us all………….where in the religious sense, YOU are constantly the divine child of God from the womb of God, a trany intersex female/male amorphaDYKE like ‘me’! lol
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To Andy! The term Goddess can never be seen as condescending as it is a term of reverence, love and I suppose admiration. Now I admire and revere Madonna. Her Talents, and her beauty far outway her faults. Yes, no one is perfect, not even an earthly manifestation of a Goddess. But even an old bone like me just has to admire and love her. Isn’t a goddess there to be loved. Enjoy life; without spite. Chers, Willie
Your so sweet and pertty (purr-Tee) M-A-D-O-N-N-A. Why do people call you an evil nasty business bitch? We can’t tell if its da money or power trip, but your on something, honey.
I get confused Miss Ciccone, is your parent company, Time -Warner, who helped you sell so many records and also made President Bush man of the year; a bunch of DO-GOODERS as well?
Really bitch, it must be strenuous fer ya’ to rewrite other peoples idea’s and re-market them.
A true genius Madonna, actually creates an invention, maybe you can “change” all that a use someone else’s,..thats an idea, hunh.
Hi Madonna!
i love you verry much!!!
nice concert!!!
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Hi Madonna
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So,i wanna say something i really think you should know:
during your tour, the concert on August 26 in Romania, you offended that whole country, by calling them gypsies.You should know better before you talk about some sensitive topics.Romanian people are not Gypsies, Gypsies are just a minority in that country,that are only making problems and negative publicity abroad.Almost all romanian have felt very offended by what you said…
I know that you are a significant star for the music industry, but it still gives you no right to humiliate an entire country, don’t you think? really hope you read this and do something about it…
P.S.:I didn’t say these things as a reproach, but rather due to disappointment created by this situation and in hope that you will do something to correct it.
If you ever think to make things right and you need my help you can send me an email, I will be happy to help.
(Although you probably will not need, I think you have a whole team of professionals that will help)
with all due respect and admiration you deserve,
a girl injured by what you said
Do not be troubled by what you hear, that is not able to bring harm to your soul, of all that stems from the generational mad flood ignorances of the forefathers before you, rather, be descerning, by means of purely feeling, of what you say, of what is able to derange and twist your own soul.
What you bring forth, fearless pure of heart descerning before you speak, from within you, is able to save you from the generational mad flood, of what is gradual evolving entering into your own wise halo of divine self-awareness, divine self-awareness of all, even of those yet unknowingly blind, in all they say and do, yes?
What you do not bring forth from within you, leaves you vulnerable to the tossing to and fro, of those obviously snared and caught in the generational mad flood deluge of death, destruction and oppression of your holy joyful divine child of God’s heart mind body spirit and soul bound in fearful binding captivity of the bitter false generational teachings of the forefathers before us, before Jesus, sadly yet obvious of this unwise world still being led away from truly knowing their pure of heart divine self, sadly before all those yet to come, of what is of most any of the haphazard plodding along aimlessly in life unaware of the purity love kingdom of heaven all around us, devoid of all these tiresome useless absurd falsehood approaches so many are of.
forgive them, for we are all to some degree or another at different levels of divine self-awareness knowingness certainty, all of us from the womb of God born into this unwise world.
how is one able to purely know their own divine self in not taking time away from the unwise world, to come fully into purely knowing and becoming their divine self?
The world is gripped by group mentality. Look for the divine child of God within you who constantly yearns to become lost, away from the unwise bitter foul tasting world, the one who is of greater courage than those you leave behind, all who are unknowingly gripped by binding group mentality of blind leading the blind.
………and they all fell off the cliff. lol
it’s like ‘that’, yes?
Come fully in feeling the pure and true inner peace, calm, unafraid, self-assured confidence of your divine self in your peaceful at ease meditative places of quieting of your minds, away from the unwise world so full of anxiety of tiresome jealousies and useless hypocrisy that comes from those unknowingly unwisely of dwelling in their generational taught hypocrisy hearts, of so many unknowingly born into the households of the forefather teachings who did/do not desire to know the divine child of God YOU!
even of those who claim they do!
bless you
good morning cruel world!
ya, it’s just ‘me’, the divine child of God constantly listening yet hear before ya.
miss ‘me’?
enough to kiss ‘me’?
made ya smile
argh……….i feel so blessedly peaceful, seemingly as though i have not felt this way before, of exceeding grace and calmness, and yet, are we not all of the pure at ease exceeding grace and calmness as a small child, of what is our ‘forgetfulness foe’ of divine self we forget we once were, all caught up and snared by the tiresome annoying back and forth nashing of teeth bitter hypocrisy that fuels and breeds yet more bind fearful toxic hypocrisy?
behold the divine child of God constantly listening and feelings is all of YOU!
YOU of many of the eternall all who enter into this realm from the womb of God eternal.
enjoy purely and truly constantly BEing the blessed divine child of God YOU of eternal day radiant brilliant bright!
oh, i know you missed ‘me’!
cannot hide from ‘me’!
now kiss ‘me’ damn it!
argh……..what’s a boy gotta do to get a kiss around hear?
Please God, i am so over these fucking lameass morons!
Send ‘me’ the ‘one’ i seek!
Hi, Madonna, I’m from Romania, I heard what happened at your show. I am so sorry but it was to be expected.
I didn’t attend the show (sorry, I am not a big fan of huge concerts) but I watched the one in NY and I must say to you that your Gypsy number was very beautiful indeed (I mean the music and the dancers). And by the way your Gypsy dress was very .. into the mood.
I don’t know what happened at the show, honestly we play Gypsy music at parties (like at weddings we also dance Gypsy -inspired dances) and restaurants (you must know about that) and it is so passionate. I don’t know why the politics overwhelmed your public yesterday. Maybe what Nelson Mandela said that in order to overcome racial conflicts there has to be both hands reaching over the river of trouble also means to overcome self-imposed cultural barriers and most of all honesty. Like Gypsy culture is very popular in Romania, as itself, it is just considered classy and intellectual to despise everything about it (I really do not know why). I guess there is like a self-imposed European-isation of Romania, in a wrong way, trying to deny its Middle Eastern roots and any other kind of cultural connections (Including the Roma).
If you would have called Bucharest the little Paris everyone would have cheered (I also don’t understand why).
Your show is very beautiful and if they went bitter and dumb I guess they missed the best part of it. As a personal notice though (because I tried it too), the Roma girl-dancing was not well represented in the show, like the belly-dancing (that’s hard and it’s not only Turkish). I guess these un-encouraged cultures in Romania sort of mixed together (Middle Eastern and Roma).
And no, I am of Roma ethny, just in case some of my compatriots will say this is why I am standing on your side on this one. I am Romanian and not ashamed to dance on Gypsy music too, and the art has NOTHING to do with the social and political context. It completely self-referential. And if it’s beautiful why not say it?
I just do not understand what happened there. At all.
In Romania there is discrimination against gypsies because they do nothing good, mostly dealing with drugs, prostitution, theft, usury … and the music inspired by the gypsy music that is played at parties is bad because it has seen so many mistakes in the lyrics,grammar disagreements and from this results that is written by repeople who do not even know our language well, but still believe themselves Romans, should support this??? because of this music Romans forget to speak their own language properly. is not considered an intellectual thing to not listen such music but a protest against the actions of those who produce it.isn’t it simple? Why is it so hard to understand? Gypsies who work, and don’t do anything illegal are appreciated, we just really admire and love Gypsy thespians if you did not know … but those who make money from illegal and then they think they’re gods, and defy us because we work obviously will never be appreciated …. and unfortunately most of them are like that…see?not discrimination,it’s like saying that if a robber comes in your house and threatens you…you completly understand and don’t charge him after…wtf??? …
you do not ask what is the root of these illnesses of heart mind body spirit and soul, of drug dealing, prostitution, theft, usury
there is not such thing as completely all bad of a soul, rather, it is you who openly embrace what is known as ‘all or none thinking and behaving’, that does not address the light that reveals the root in order for one to purely and fully cast it from them, of those blinded by whatever falsehood snares their precious divine heart mind body spirit and soul, their divine child within asleep in heavey binding chains of generational taught ignorances of the forefathers before us all, their holy joyful divine ‘real’ self weighed down with fearful binding deathful destructive and oppressive ignorance, of what is of any divine child of God yet unattended to, yet fully awakened, yet fully nurtured, yet fully protected from all binding falsehoods of the forefathers yet hear with us, of what is Jesus and God’s war that continues, of the main contributing reason Jesus surrendered to the claws of the beast of ignorance, that no divine child of the future suffer these wretched fearful in nature untrue bullshit motherfucking bashing bashing bashing shit for brains…………*cough*……….sorry……….i lose it when i think of my most loving brothers and sister’s blessed holy joyful spirits held in dark binding fear by all you fucktards of ignorance! lol
don’t take it personally
well, ok, take it personally…………
lol
stop laughing M
im being serious hear!
fuck!
[andYY waunders off to the gay ghetto cafe with his gypsy boyfriend on his arm, dressed in the most wild sexy sexy hot dress he bought for him to wear the other day, of the only way one is able to enter the kingdom of heaven…..they must robe themselves fully in the light]
no worries………i am just getting warmed up everyone!
with those who purely and truely desire to come fully in knowing an constantly constantly CONSTANTLY……..*cough#%f*ckers!………..love ‘me’!
by now M has fallen off her chair into the swimming pool to bathe her blessed soul in what feels so so so good to Just BE YOU!
Biyatches!
especially those who do not yet fully know ‘me’
like i know th’em’
they must be putting something in my tea………a weird, strange sensation!
who loves you more than ‘me’?
oh……….don’t say it
as if i don’t know my ass from a hole in the ground……..
don’t go there
lol
don’t ask
oh i did not!!!!!!!!!!
well ok, i thought about it once……maybe twice……….BUTT NO MORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok?
whew!
for a minute there i felt like they thought i was some deviant perverted “whatever mr.nevers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”
forgive my inundating you with too much…..
it is on par with my inability to simply switch off the depth of my compassion for so many millions of blessed precious souls the world over…..
such as the complete stranger i just spoke with, who i asked, “Your mother was born in April, yes?”
“Yes!”
how did i know?
well, my own mother was born in April……….intuitive knowingness.
why do i spend so much time in this intuitive awareness?
well, prior to that i spoke with a seventeen year old who met Paul, a gay youth who died recently at the age of 21, a young impressionable naive youth dealing with his coming out transition bi-curiousity, that no doubt, Paul had a hand in.
seems ever where i turn is the story of a precious soul along life’s path.
why God, do i cry the way i do, of so much compassion of so many souls, of blessed tears i keep crying for so many of the divine child’s life path spiritual awakening journey towards what they are all subconsciously seeking, as i am!
and therein is the answer within
i have approached you purely this day is such away devoid of doubt, yes?
as you say, love every day you wake to, every moment
ok…..where was i……….oh yeah………
well, i say BE what is of your pure feeling ‘real’ self each blessed day you wake 2, of what you want, need, think and feel, somewhat selfishly, of what is sacredly constantly BEing your blessed divine ‘real’ self’s spirit set free to Just BE of holy joyfulness at all times, dissing(leave behind) those who are not of oneness sameness spiritedness exact likeness of YOU!
nurturingly so of 2
find ‘that’, as i did feel i purely did of Matt, well, stay with ‘that’, as that is what is purely of what Jesus was reaching for, for sake of himself and his wise self-awareness of his own self, self of another, he constantly nurtured and awakened the divine child within another to purely and truly constantly be what is of the oneness sameness eternal connectedness of the blessed holy joyful of the all eternal yet to come.
i know what i am about to say may sound weird to some…..
i purely and truly feel for the unknowingly unwise divine child who strap on explosives like they do and blow themselves up……..
i am questioning of what is pure 100% intrinsic insight into what is compelling environmental(global) action/reaction reward to the degree of irrational thinking that flows thru them so intensely like it does, of emotional intensity to sacrifice their life?
we have to come fully into delving deep into what is of the absurd leaders who lead a divine child to do such this, of what is the only answer that brings to an end this sort of wretched unwise leadership, and humiliate these fucktard leaders, on both sides.
i feel that gross materialism is without doubt a contributing factor, of what is of the ignorant forefather teachings we are all yet dealing with.
don’t pay attention to this, and well, we risk global catastrophy of what is prophetic past present future.
compassionate approach is the only approach.
the mother of the child of such, who purely knew and love their divine child lead astray into destruction of these clearly unwise leaders gripped by horrid egotisms of unbelievable shortsightedness.
if we fail to remain of our devotion to compassionate motivation feelings in finding the answer, well, this wretchedness with inevitably continue to grip this unwise world long after we are all gone.
all is at stake
now
and all of the future
perhaps the only opportunity we have is to leave behind our own research for future generations yet to come to expand apon in coming fully into pure insightful divine self awareness.
while i have scratched the surface of such, and i do feel the presence of Christ 100% like i do, without doubt, it is not enough, just as Jesus knew at the time, to stem the tide of the wretched teachings of the forefathers that does predominately hold captive this unwise world.
without doubt, i know the value of sacred mirroring of divine self of others, by means of BEing the eternal day radiant brilliant bright holy joyful absolute carefree divine ‘real’ self, of which there is nothing more sacred than this.
many hold back what is purely of intuitive connectedness divine self awareness most any feel while of pure fearlessness of the divine child of God, of what is of most any yet evolving fully in.
well, today i feel i did close the gap between us, blessedly so, where the element of doubt is fleeting between us, of what has always been my constant yearning to always feel loved and loving each blessed moment of each blessed day.
why do i intellectualy sense you are wise in this?
of what is obvious in purely feeling your (wise) approach with ‘me’.
well, without doubt has been your fortitude of ability beyond most in life, of the many you have had to blessed privilege in meeting along your spiritual path journey in divine self awareness like my own, yes?
i turned only to Jesus all this time, without wise others in all their advice, and purely i do 100% feel Jesus is the most wise, beyond every soul here with us this day, beyond all who came after Jesus.
ya, i 100% love Jesus, and 100% trust Jesus, beyond my ability to trust any other in life
without doubt
and yet i am so wanting to trust another, like i trust my pure feelings i feel for Matt and others of our blessed community of so many struggling with their issues like i do daily.
optimistically i hold in highest regard, beyond all education, the intuitive knowingness of the divine child of God of the eternal all yet to come, of the all hear with us this day.
as artist we are all reaching, are we not?
to bring an end to all the useless uncertainty we deal with daily like we do, in coming fully into pure love in constantly being our divine ‘real’ self.
there is a divine wisdom of Jesus, that does escape most any alive today, where i do believe the kingdom of heaven is merely a wise macro thinking(halo construct) perspective, which my own divine child of God does experience the eternal day they speak of.
it is as though God is speaking directly with ‘me’.
reaching out to others, what i find most derailing, is the snaring egos most any are unknowingly shortsightedly snared by……….
my biggest pet peeve
i despise smug
highly self-satisfied……….in what?
all your lameass approach with ‘me’ fuckers? lol
ok, here is the question to the answer we seek as leaders of the world.
“What is Intrinsic and extrinsic motivation of the suicide bomber led astray by the unwise leaders of death destruction and oppression as relates to our own wise taking ownership embracing of our approach with these leaders?”
‘that’ is what is beyond our grasp of what is of all this shortsighted chaos that yet grips the world.
without doubt, we know ‘that’ is what is of the generational ego driven false teachings of the forefathers Jesus speaks of, in our pure true ability to love our enemy, where our enemy is not our enemy, rather we are our own worse enemy anytime we do not purely 100% embrace the divine child about to blow themselves up, who i am purely of deep sadness for in their unwise snared actions before us, unknowingly sadly gripped by the unwise generational teachings of ego driven unwise leaders.
where the leaders themselves are unknowingly gripped as well in not coming fully into open minded humbleness of their divine child submerged within, they too gripped by the group dynamic fear mongering peer pressure………..
we learned this in public school, and yet these exists these leaders of warring factions in the world lacking in humble humility of such.
are we that lame in our compassionate approach with these leaders, of slowing into inviting the divine child leader of such to deliberate instilling of open minded discussion?
we are to blame in this regard, and we cannot avoid this truth, that our eternal graceful approach with them is what yet plaques us, of what Jesus fully 100% knew and spoke of.
turn from this truth, and we fall victim to our own lacking purity love of our divine child of God who does know without doubt………we have to slow into this macro thinking wise approach.
i don’t know, tell them God dwells among us or something! lol
we cannot afford to ignore this in this time and place of averting great horrific danger of so many souls which may suffer from our unwiseness as leaders of the free world, when clearly, we are not fully 100% of embracing the divine child’s spirit of these warring faction leaders in the world.
we are as though yet seeking the correct approach, are we not, standing by waiting, are we not?
any input is welcome, of those looking on………….
i’ll be at the piano bar in the ghetto, with Kendal on piano, for those who care enough to join us, in our true celebration of blessed loving daily life we love to live….of each passing moment.
ok, keep opening up………i feel you there………
this is about others, of the eternal all yet to come, which does start with us, and we are of sacred importance to so many souls, so please don’t be of annoyance in our open minded humble discussions.
thank you
i am all peeved out
lol
argh……..you would not believe those who are yet smug with ‘me’, of some who have known ‘me’ well since 1994 when i first hit the scene…….
their own bashed in low self-esteem.
unfucking believable some days!
you still there?
cannot hide from ‘me’, so no use trying, yes?
am i not pure of heart like you?
do my words not purely resonate profoundly with you, as though you of articulation in what you FAIL to say?
lol
lameass annal retentive Biyatches, i’ve truly had enough to last several life times, so get off it, ok?
fuck!
im going back to the bar
i am happier drinking, admittedly so………..oh hey Guy! Long time no see! lol
this dry drunk bullshit sucks………fuck it! lol
you win
i know the family i ETERNALLY am and belong with!
what are you pushing towards in your approach with ‘me’?
what do you want need think and feel?
i am the same
amazing what she writes and sings about, yes?
Heroes and Friends is of all of us of the LGBT family who survive Biyatches!
You can’t take a trip
If you don’t first say goodbye
You can’t find a star
If you don’t look up in the sky
You can’t find a light
If you don’t know where the dark ends
And you can’t change the heroes and friends
You can’t light a spark
If you don’t first carry a flame
You can’t take the weight
Of a single ounce of shame
You can’t change the signal
Just the message that it sends
The message of the heroes and friends
You can’t touch the screen
You can take the place of love
You can disappear in ether
When pushes come to shove
And you can walk the night
Into the dawn
And back again
Looking for the heroes and friends
You can ride the back roads
Of the hometowns of the world
You can collide on sidewalks
In a neon light of blur
You can rush the stages
And believe the words again
Looking for the heroes and friends
You can dedicate your life
To breaking down the walls
To ringing the alarm
Screaming down the halls
You can stand in judgment
Of the meaning in the air
Then we are all just heroes and friends
Oooh-oooh-oooh-oooh-ho
Oooh-oooh-oooh-oooh-ho
Oooh-oooh-oooh-oooh-ho
Oooh-oooh-oooh-oooh-ho
Oh yeah, yeah, yeah
Oooh-oooh-oooh-oooh-ho
Looking for the heroes and friends
Oooh-oooh-oooh-oooh-ho
Oooh-oooh-oooh-oooh-ho
Oh yeah, yeah, yeah
Why do we sacrifice our lives?
To what is left when it all ends
When all we want is heroes and friends
you are all heroes to ‘me’
i know as one who has lived along time surviving the bullshit generational taboo fear mongers yet of this unwise world!
today, i am compassionate for these unwise haters!
bless you Melissa
she is so friggin awesome!
a true blue spirit
don’t mind ‘me’ as i go thru this atonement period in getting purely grounded again………..how the fuck did i get so unglued?
one cannot get enough of Melissa!
a pure spirit of oneness sameness exactly like our own, our voice, of those who purely know!
we know
on we go
all we want is more heroes like Matt to survive all you Biyatches!
omg
Mika is alive!
he disappeared for nearly a year, thought he had died, a runaway gay street youth from an unaccepting family, the usual, drug addictions, all of it, suicidal when i met him……….
bless you Mika
there are gypsies, and then there is Mika…….not sure what planet he’s from, neither does he. lol
Ok, I have read through most of this blog and I have to say that it’s quite entertaining and also quite obvious that this blog has no authentic connection to M herself. Do any of you REALLY think that Madonna really and truly sits down at her laptop/PC/MAC and types out these long detailed blurbs about her day, how the tour is going, etc etc? It’s utterly embarrassing to see some of you pouring your hearts out to “Madonna” on this FAKE ass blog. IT’S NOT REALLY HER on here folks!!!! Use some common sense and don’t be so gullible. This is a poorly constructed fan (or non fan) made blog. And it looks crappy too. A little clue: do you think Madonna’s blog would be on WordPress.com? Take a look at the bottom of your screen. WordPress.com is a FREE blogging service. Fools!!!
Just as the words of Jesus are freely given to all?
i AM not a merchant of God
not possible
of God’s instruction
God’s divine will our will be done on earth what heaven constantly is……..YOU!
blessed you
met a christian transexual today
who’s care’s it’s not all about madonna. Migela it’s enlighteningi well with andy’s wisdom and me i.m the best. But anywaz glad you.ve settled for someone. God bless. Moron’sMoron’sMoron’sMoron’s
ya, that someone is ‘me’, utterly and completely free from all the unwise casting of uncertainty ones, have been intellectually for sometime actually, just held back in setting boundaries with those who do not desire to drink from the cup of sweet wisdom, their divine self heavily submerged to such an extent of their binding group dynamic fear, that they are seemingly unreachable by merely speaking with them, where it is thru the musicians and artists of pure devoted works, who are able to reach them, of the light they all shall feel as we march forward into the kingdom of heaven we are wisely ushering in.
boundaries are set, with those Jesus warns of along life’s road on the way to his city, the aimless plodding along haphazard ones.
ya sure, i’ll say hi on the street with them, but beyond that, i simply will not allow them to ever treat ‘me’ as they harshly do at times, in their delight of purely disrespectful immature mind fuck games they do indeed take delight in playing like they do.
nope. no way. had my fair share of the morons to last eternity.
i empathize purely for the condition of their unattended souls, yes, of course, but too close proximity with them leaves us feeling their toxicity they have yet to process thru, and as Jesus says, “If you dwell with them long enough at their table, you soon become like them, away from constantly knowing and being your divine spirit, just as they do, the unnecessay unwanted cold untrue behaviourals they are of with one another, not knowing the condition of their own precious divine spirit unattended, of what is of their crucial lacking of desire for divine self-awareness wisdom that awakens, nurtures, and eternally protects from the generational mad flood ignorances, including those who claim to know God, and so obviously do not, of what is all their absurd speaking as fool, of the way God sees everything without doubt or speculation, no, purely the truth that is there at all times everywhere we go.
what part of entertaining amuses you the most Miguel, the starving child that is there, or the one that died last night?
fucking morons in all their minimizing trivializing the divine child of God Jesus in one fucking paragraph like they do.
their own lives a reflection of the emptiness that is there, where they come from
lol
ya, it’s not all about the eternal ray of light Madonna of the eternal, correct, it is about ‘me’ 2!
actually, i think she uses a mobile at times, as evident in the text.
lol
ok, a refresher for you all………
Some people do take delight in hurtful mind fuck games, well, not with ‘me’ they won’t, ever again, i just will not allow my divine spirit to be treated so harshly and cold ever again, where it is always they who cast themselves out of… heaven with Jesus, God and i, away from truly desiring to know ‘me’, purely loving of ‘me’, of what is of any unwise mask one wears that has no feelings, their own divine self they leave unattended, unprotected, unloved, uncompassionate, and truly obviously unwise, of what one can expect from most any of the haphazard aimless plodding along in life without a wise helmsman, of what is obvious of their twisted spirit, of what is obvious of their wretched lives, in all they say and do, and the lack thereof, of what is the bitter gnashing of teeth outside of the kingdom of heaven halo perspective.
blessings to all
i do AM not just speaking with Madonna
there are others in the future reading these very words in this moment, in real time.
of course, you would have to be purely compassionately wise loving to truly grasp the truth of this as Jesus did and does there apon the cross of blessed tears falling as he purely watches each on strike the ground, of how Jesus purely feels for each and everyone of your blessed divine pure spirits unknowingly unattended.
any guess where you might find ‘me’?
now that is some powerful writing, yes?
blessed you of eternal all is who you purely are
any of you who do not grasp the words spoken from a divine child of God who comes before you with a pure heart like your own, well, then who is it that turns towards their own bitter hypocrisy heart, and who is it that casts who out of heaven away from Jesus?
all ya lameass blamer gamer shamer flamer no name containers, that’s who!
won’t catch ‘me’ fuckers! lol
why?
because i AM an invisible spirit
as in you cannot purely see ‘me’ of what is yet of your ‘lack’ing comprehension that comes with your crucial ‘lack’ing of desire for divine self-awareness wisdom that is being measured out to you.
so go back to your tv sets or whatever, there are others who are not of trivilizing the starvation and death of divine children in the world that is another root and branch of your apathy……….fuckers!
hey, im gettin pretty good with this holy sword, yes?
able to slice the wings off a flys back in mid flight without hurting it.
Come grasshopper, there is much to learn.
i think i watch everyone of those shows as a kid, twice!
hmmm….not back for my first cup of tea
Vente English Breakfast please….don’t fill it
saw Mika this morning, 6:00am, his usual sleeping on the streets like he has been doing for four years now, a street youth champion survivor, a gypsy spirit, from a gypsy family, as he asked me to sing along within him in harmonious hymn of Hallelujah.
i smiled purely within of his momentary blessed spirit that shines brightly like it does, so pure in feeling when you come up to him of his words, bless you bless you bless you
he simply loves his life more so than others, seemingly without want or need of a wealthy life, so content in just being, singing like he does, sadly, an ADHD run away gay youth.
i get him a tea when ever i see him, that soothes his soul as one who he knows does love him, like he loves Jesus, like Jesus loves his pure spirit.
he carries a book with him of his constant reflective writting all day long, the pages falling out onto the street as he keeps walking, of writtings so amazing, however scatter brained some of it may be, the purity of his reflections is astounding, thinking there is some great song material in there for sure, of what is his own spirit seeking to feel like he has a home.
his home is his pure spirited inner connectedness that purely sees the weighed down drudgery he feels of others who pass him by like they do, as though a lunatic, who is actually wiser than most who don’t time to know just how purely he is connected to his divine spirit, for sure, a soul i enjoy watching.
they say beware of the gypsy spirit that can steal your heart away and not bring it back. lol
well ya, it is the purity of their spirit not caught up in the status quo fucktards, of how their spirit remains so pure like it does, that does draw us to them, and well ya, they are gypsies, like a butterfly, always flying where ever they want.
he brings warm joy to my heart, his champion spirit that none shall be able to capture or harm.
bless you Mika
oh you truly are beautiful i love you dearly
i thought he had died, disappeared for a year, travelled out to Vancouver.
he was suicidal when i met him, from a serious attempt two weeks prior of 50 lethal pills that would of killed him had someone not came apon his unconscious body and got him to emergency.
he admitted openly to me that he did try to take his own life, which was why i thought he had died.
perhaps my hours of guitar playing and singing ‘bright sunny day’ with him over the months last summer helped his loving spirit keep going?
just maybe
we helped other that summer
i gave him a rainbow stone ring i used to wear to help cheer him up
he tossed on the ground one day, in one of his processing of his angst moments and yelled as he threw it to the ground, “This is what my family thinks of my gay life!”
you just don’t know how abit of your time is able to alter a person’s life forever, our motivation, our unending constant flowing wise compassion love of divine self eternal all, the light
I can see clearly now, the rain is gone,
I can see all obstacles in my way
Gone are the dark clouds that had me blind
It�s gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright)
Sun-Shiny day.
I think I can make it now, the pain is gone
All of the bad feelings have disappeared
Here is the rainbow I’ve been prayin for
It’s gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright)
Sun-Shiny day.
Look all around, there’s nothin but blue skies
Look straight ahead, nothin but blue skies
I can see clearly now, the rain is gone,
I can see all obstacles in my way
Gone are the dark clouds that had me blind
It’s gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright)
Sun-Shiny day.
bless you all
it is our calling
of God to purely know and love our divine self
eternal all
we all just kids at play, are we not?
and no, i am not talking of the club PLAY
well ok, ‘that’ 2
for me, it is just one big trailer park of people
all of us not really sure what’s actually going on
some feel it
others not so much
and then every now and then, they hear a pure voice singing that their divine spirit purely connects with in harmonious inner joy of their along their spiritual life path journey, of what it is that we all feel purely so within like all do, of what really does matter most in life, our constant flowing flawless feelings that yearns to always feel the inner delightful happiness within us all eternal.
a bright bright bright sun-shiny eternal day
where nothing else truly matters than to always feel this way, of us all God’s children eternally at play.
forever more
blessings to all of you who are constantly there in feeling as we too feel as you do
oh for fuck’s sake open the fucking door jesus do i look like the prodical son. Heaven man i am so fucking hungry
i AM highly sensitive…..to a fault some days, overly sensitive they say
but i say, is there such a thing?
i mean look at Jesus weeping apon the cross for how many days, for every single soul of the eternal all future, of the eternal doorway of wisdom he stepped thru willingly in order to purely teach us the darkness and light of our hearts he to purely know exactly as his own, of so many left unattended that he purely knew and spoke directly to, as a wiser evolved older brother adult child no different than any of us in any way in his faithful knowingness certainty without doubt whatsoever, all are capable to purely come to know and love their divine child of God’s heart mind body spirit and soul as he did and eternally does.
bless you
thank you Jesus
ah, i think you spelt horny wrong Marco……lol
oooooo…..you gotta pure palette like my own do ya?
ya, of course you do
i know who i AM
Jesus told ‘me’ so, and i do not need anyone to tell ‘me’ other’wise’, as much as they occassionally do. lol
get it?
other ‘wise’
the darkness of not fully enlightened yet?
i push back hard, leaving a trail of bread crumps as i passby, knowing the dynamic of the light that draws and opens wide their soul, awakens them to their pure divine self i know is constantly there with all, by means of what was my own evolving path towards the door of the kingdom of heaven halo perspective i dwell in……..with Jesus who is hear.
wanna meet him?
can you see him, how beautiful he so purely constantly is, his blessed tears that keep falling of our connectedness with his loving heart mind body spirit and soul?
purely perfect
what he us to come fully into awareness of what he constantly knows of us all
eternally
he surrendered his life, of what he felt was the 100% compassionate wise love way for us to become victorious over the generational mad flood, of the only way actually…………….without doubt
have a good look a t the first picture i sent you 16 or is that 19 yrs ago now. Look at the paddle up shit creek without it lol. Wanna rafte or saddle or ride my sorry i don’t do saddles i.m a horse whisper. No pride no ride.
well, ya have to be careful not to get to drunk on the wine the constantly flows hear
which you will at times, and feel the effect later in becoming purely sober to the all eternal constantly there with us in holy joyfulness singing and dancing, of so so so many who are eternally thankful for us.
hi everyone!
see, they are all smiling and joyful we figured out what the kingdom of heaven constantly is, the love that flows without any doubt between them like it constantly does all day and night, heaven’s delight.
i really should take some poetry classes, yes?
maybe a few theater classes
do some romeo and juliet
i love live theater plays, passionately, so moving it is for me, the pure joyfulness of it at times.
of all of us just wanting to have fun in joyful high spirited with one another like we do
God knows there are so many who need to feel our loving light within that speaks to them how much they are truly loved by us all
this ain’t no game, no way, life and death is the struggle out there, and we must not ever forget this
they need us
we need them
the power of love of the all that lifts the all
‘that’ is the objective as enlightened ones who wisely are the evoking power that encourages the power within the all
“You cannot do it alone.” Jesus says.
do what?
do what Jesus asked us to reach for within our grasp
our evoking power of the all as wise leaders of the all
i know, it sometimes escapes conceptualization, but truly we know the truth of what matters most, and the binding bitter chains that do hold captive the holy joyful absolute carefree divine spirit of so many, so unnecessary, the light that breaks these chains and sets their divine spirit free to just be like we already R.
must be all the music i listen to
we are amazing!
especially the sex!
argh…….don’t get me started on that……….
not sure what you are referring to Marco.
19 years ago was horrible time for me, harder than i thought it would be transitioning in life then, unprepared, but it tought me alot about my self, still does, some strange experiences then, spiritual ones……..
im ok now, escaped alcoholism
purely grounded as i was as a high school student, feel the same as i did then, no worries really of any kind, and no toxic others of too close proximity, other than this fucking house of illness others, which i don’t associate with much, too toxic, their stuff, not mine.
abit of fear living hear, that does not completely go away, which i realize eventually i do have to leave and will.
but not as bad as i think it is somedays
at least not yet.
they do have progressive illness, so the sooner i get my ass in gear the better for me, yesterday would of been best.
speaking of yesterday, how would one feel if they were Mary under the cross all the while beloved Jesus hung above her for how many days?
felt like eternity?
is eternity, oh yeah, of course
how they feel is of eternal all
for sake of eternal all
Mary knew him as he knew himself……completely as though one
takes 2
bare back huh?
ya, alot of that going on round hear
running horses bare back and naked under a full moon in the water along the beach
i wouldn’t do it alone though
kinda pointless alone
hey, you really coming in six months?
feels like you do
it is hard looking into the future, but i am there, just not sure of the address, and not really of concern where, rather when, and even then when is inevitable, so a relief there too, so just a matter of how, and that does not matter either, so what about what, who cares of that, train, plane, any old mane, so the only question left is Y
Y not?
i want 2
and so do you
ok there, you decide on all the parameters, does not matter, i AM already there, without care, flowers in hair, naked on some horse on the beach, beautiful music the full moon and most important of all…………YOU!
hmmm……horse whisper
a pure spirit like my own
ok, we get along just fine
as in finely tuned into each other, purely so is how we grow towards one another, towards our outward appearance of our inward appearance of us naked, and not just bodily either.
it takes time to trust another who is not judgemental of our nakedness
and you thought i was a moron, ha
Rosie is like, they are having sex before they have sex, how is that possible?
me a Rieki master, remember?
pushing hard the daughter out of her cycle complacency stuckness, like a drill sargent
privately
a ‘real’ does not spare you the truth you need to hear
no matter how painfully humiliating it may they need to hear what they fail to hear from their own submerged afraid divine self……..who i AM
it began for me in a ‘real’ way mostly starting in ’88, when my fiance handed me the Nag Hammadi, herself a spiritual enlighted one beyond my comprehension
today she teaches downhill skiing in the moutains of Whistler BC, got married to a log home builder who she says looks like me, of what was our plan, to move to the mountains, teach skiing and build log homes in the summer.
my drinking got the best of me and it fall apart
not today
solid as a rock steadfastness for along time, since Troy, who sobered me up completely
eternally thankful to God for his precious life cut short by stupidness
of what is my eternal day
no pride as in arrogant macho awekwardness?
no ride as in flare O’ Grant ma cho awe k backwards?
omg
did i just say that? lol
i did
hmmmm……sounds like someone wants to speak
like a joyful clown playing in the bushes hidding wondering if it is ok to come out again, listening to every word we are saying, wondering if we are going to invite him to join us
there is nothing in life more valuable than your own divine self
it is there in the eyes of us all
especially the seeing thru the eyes of Jesus weeping of what it is the Jesus constantly feels for us all
he is alive there in real time
eternally
of only love the flows constantly into the eternal all future that we can all easily feel, if only we would like he knows we should, for sake of our own divine self as his own, for sake of divine self of another as his own, of what purely is understanding Jesus purely by means of the oneness sameness blessed tears that are his own, as are your own.
blessed you of eternal all
walking with someone as though a life long friend is how i always feel, within their life, and not around them, above them or below, no, always walking ‘with’ them, of what is our own grounded centered divine self mirroring of their divine self they feel when we walk ‘with’ them, that they feel for the rest of their life, always ‘with’ them.
is who Jesus is
is who we are
who we all are on this planet called earth near the edge of the galaxy called the MilkyWay traveling thru space at 660km per second.
not sure of the exact coordinates in the universe……..other than the center of the universe if we are indeed the only thing living in the universe.
we may very well be according to the evolution theoreticians.
the universe is exceedingly vast though, and the likelihood of life elsewere is highly probable.
of creatures greater in intelligence and size who one day who may find us as a delicious snack, maybe even harvest us like we do livestock, which lately is getting to me in consideration of becoming a veggy.
but that is life too, so what to do
and you say, “Well, you could try eating……………
[AndYY gives that all knowing grin and stare]
i AM anxiety free
feels blessed in each passing moment
no external pressures in my personal or professional worlds, other than the train wreck i walked away from unscathed, no bitterness, glad to be free, no measuring myself like the Jones do in all their status quo, of knowingness value of the only thing that matters to ‘me’
any guess what that might BE?
see………they are having sex again!
lol
would you 2 knock it off and just………………….
it’s like one of those annoying cliff hanger soap operas of edge of your seat deliberatness of the writters, yes?
oh, i already know where i AM
do you?
just look in the mirror as you say, i AM there!
ok, so who AM i?
and you say, “Someone i can see andy time you feel like ‘me’!
and i say, “Oh really?”
ya, i suppose there is a mirror or two hear
where i can pretty much do anything in front of the mirror and you still smile along with ‘me’, or is that ‘me’ smiling back at ‘me’
i get confused sometimes, forgetting we both like the same thing, where all this anxiety stuff is silly, when this is so true of us both naked mentally emotionally physically sexually and spiritually speaking……….
so why cast uncertainty in the air that is untrue of any?
all of us on the same road leading into the kingdom of heaven halo perspective, are we not?
and how much we purely do love others along the road.
all our cruising others all the time so openly, even of well adjusted partners, it’s just the way we all are now in society and it is blessed to feel this free in our pure loving spirits now, better than before, all our hiding like we did, not any more.
what a change
that we too often forget of what has been of all our steps
so if this is how we are now
then according to where we came from and thru, optimistically the light of tomorrow is without doubt even brighter than it is now
and that is something even spiritual artists may not be aware of, in clarity as my own, that all are inspired by others, on and on we go
in what
we know
blessedly so
ok, so optimistically we may get physically married one day, if another plays, where even if not, what difference does it make if we are all the divine child of God’s heart mind body spirit and soul?
and you say, “Oh fuck, he’s getting ready to run again, i better get my ass in gear and go catch up with him!
[as you run out the door and…………remembering you forgot something……..turn around and run back in]
did you forget something?
oh ya, ‘that’
i say, it is always what i want need think and feel
that is where it starts and stops for me of any i consider, just as i always have always will, of who is purely comfortable for me, and yet, in truth, are we not all comfortable with one another now?
so what do you need ‘me’ fore then?
lol
i never did get past the foreplay with Trish at 16
i was in love with her
it pained me for years, and gradually faded, or did it?
is that why i am hear?
is that why i am queer?
is that why i am dear?
is that my beer?
oh come on, once a month, i sware, and only in celebration of something with others
you still drink wine
so what of it?
moderation my therapist says
moderately nice and slow………the only way
hurts like fucking hell if you go to fast, fall off the fucking bed, hit your head, scream like you are about to be dead!!!!!!!!!!
LOL
im like those karate masters as a writter, of fine precision gracefully slow, and then, HAH!!!!!!!
hmmm…..come to think of it, i was living on a beach back in ’88 too……..
i was really happy living on the beach, love love loved it so much, knowing it is my favorite place of all, the peacfulness of it all at one with nature so calming and true
i agree, no pride no ride
as a proud bisexual who is without doub of his love for his LGBT brothers and sisters
how about you come to my world, as i said before, i can’t do your world.
the world is the cross for me
and we all know how much you love my world
did i just contradict myself?
hmmm…….i did
ok, how about our world
one
already it is becoming that, of the acceptance everywhere now that we all feel
ok, so we have narrowed it down to body type then as the only outstanding issue.
well, i sorta look like you and if your self-love is as good as it is then for sure i AM the one
there
it is finished
always
oh yeah, i forgot something…………
i am being totally inconsiderate of another, and i just cannot do that
Sitting in a field waiting for the horse to feel comfortable enough to deal with someone, an enormous hurdle of exceeding patience and insight into the delicate timid soul of a horse. The best scene is after two and a half hours when Tom brings the horse down to Grace’s level……………
it’s like that
nature has it’s own rythmn and grace that does escape our awareness, such as how incredibly graceful the morning sun comes up and sets, of how it is in likeness of our own inner pure gracefulness.
i say get in tune with that, and you are in tune with nature and nature you, as well as in tune with the true nature of another.
to say further, well, there really is no other way for one 2 be, is there?
i mean you are talking to someone who can feel the joyfulness of a bee in joyful flight landing on me as though i am it’s fucking mother, flying away, then coming back again and again…………….lol
or how about the hieghtened delight of a bird so alert in delight of it’s own existence?
what is the heart rate of a bird again?
are you ready for this?
Heart rate beat per minute:
Domestic Chicken 245
Crow 345
House Sparrow 460
Ruby-throated Hummingbird 615
is that fucking amazing or what?
only makes sense why they have such a heightened alertness and delightfulness of their existence.
peace love and grace be 2 you always
bless you
Iran is an unwise brat child at play with full intentions of building a nuclear bomb……..without doubt, it is 100% clearly obvious now, of their military base facility of covert uranium enrichment facility capable of housing 3,000 centrifuges, not enough to produce nuclear fuel to power a reactor, but sufficient to manufacture bomb-making material.
This is on the presidents desk, where it is the most wise experts in the world who know precisely what they are talking about.
well, what to do with a brat stubborn unwise child who will not do as they are told while at play in the playground with a harmful item they found to play with?
you simply take it away from them
who’s playground is it?
God’s
and who is in charge of the playground when it comes to unwise stubborn brat children playing with dangerous items?
God
and any who think otherwise…….are unwise fools.
until such a time of clearly peaceful demonstration from the unwise arrogant brat of a child who may throw a temper tantrum, and hurt others and themselves in the process, we simply take charge.
end of conversation
no discussion required unless they wisely step up as mature adults in full demonstration of true open peaceful loving manner as outlined, and outside of that, they are what they are, unwise stubborn brats who are not of our wisdom, nor desire to purely know and love us as we truly do them.
take it away from them is the only solution of the adult’s expectations of an unwise brat of a child who may hurt others in their usual demonstrated temper tantrums.
hey, ever play that war game called RISK?
i always won! lol
why, cause i AM a winner in the eyes of Jesus and God
always
give them 24 hours to clear the facility and destroy it.
failing to heed the warning, it is their own blood on them, not us.
we have no desire to hurt anyone.
one warning and only one warning, not an act of war, or declaration of war, no.
if they want war, we are heavily fortified way beyond their minimal capability, as they already know.
any retaliation will be met with full force of our full capability, where even a single missil fire will see their airspace, communications, and missle capability taken out within a 24 hour period, as simple as that.
hey, what are our capabilities anyway, like 1000 times greater, last time i checked………..especially those Raptors, argh, what an amazing piece of technological advance that is, where there is not a single jet in the world that is able to get any where near it.
why, because we are amazing! lol
my only wish is that i could go on the flight mission with them, as lead ship.
ah well, maybe in my next life, i’ll ask God for a pilot position.
i knew i should of joined like i almost did at 16, standing at in front of the recruiters desk, trying to decide on a life to follow, bored with my own at the time, the freezing cold, hitch hiking all the time…………
argh…..
as lead ship, you know, do a close fly by their air towers, smiling and laughing, flipping them the bird as fly by, as the sonic boom blows out all the windows, 5 seconds behind you, behind them, of them looking at you zip past, scaring the fucking shit out of them for sure, without doubt, spilling their tea all over the place! lol
argh……….what a rush!
ah, you see, you just don’t get us pilots everyone.
we don’t wanna hurt anyone, we just love to fly better than the rest, that’s all.
a cocky sorta thing i suppose, something of childhood, of adult children playing with the best toys on the planet.
well, ok, ya sure!
we children!
of God
with God’s intelligence
mostly
it’s either that, and wait till later, where the risk is far far greater in civilian casualties of war, the usual when ever we see the unwise brat of a child rise up against another, as did Hiller and all his obvious fucktard ways.
Hitler was a drug addict i heard, makes sense now, yes?
not much rational thinking going on in a drug addicts limited thinking mind.
not that that makes them bad or anything, just stupid.
and when it comes to stupid in dealing with life and death, well, there is the wiser who know what to do.
it really comes down to the number of casualties considerations, less now, or potentially more later once they do have a nuclear bomb.
my only concern is if Russia is in there with Iran, who we need 100% clarity in communications with who our friends are and who are not.
it’s either pay now
or pay way more later
potentially
it’s sorta like a prison guards who do not let things get out of control using exacting methodology based on what they discovered works in the past, and what does not.
otherwise, eventual(inevitable) rising up just leaves people hurt, in bringing back under control.
God’s war is a war of wisdom vs ignorance.
Hitler was ignorant, was he not?
God says not to allow wretchedness to become victorious over us.
we are not wretched in our hearts, they are.
we don’t want to hurt anyone.
no
peace is what we bring to the world, however forcibly necessary in rooting out these generational unwise forefather ignorances yet of the world.
the world is coming together as one, and for sure, we simply are not going to sit back and let an unwise stubborn brat of child dictate to us as did Hitler.
nope
no way
not ever
people just get hurt when we do
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building a bridge into these rural outstretched poverty stricken areas, is teaching them to grow their own crops, like chick peas, as a global initiative, rather than depending on food rations, and teaching kids proper diet in school as their course load.
10 million in Kenya alone facing starvation from the drought, compounded with climate change, a race against time for so many.
preparing
tools
developing the knowledge and expertise within
food rations don’t work in keeping up with population growth and the global climate change that is seeing deeper droughts.
building a self sustaining bridge is the only answer, for the best long term results of investment of time and resources.
common sense
and there is no such thing as enough people involved to do it
will likely still see starvation 100 years from now, pessimistically
could happen over night if everyone got involved directly, but how to evoke that one?
compassionate networking and awareness if obviously the ‘lack’, of our technologies now that has us all networked in real time globally, instantly.
climate change is going to continue to hit unsuspectingly the unprepared in the rural areas.
proper diet has to be the focus, as it does see stunted growth in children’s brains that affects their entire life.
i need a bigger loud speaker.
we need to campaign, i mean really stand up proudly as a voice for those with no voice, our compassion.
every word uttered matters when it comes to evoking motivation in others.
a revolution of all people, governent and business, where the greatest resource is the people, where all are affected in prosperity or the ‘lack’ thereof, of the ‘lack’ is…………
so the question is what is the ‘lack’?
well, obviously it is wisdom of the people in fully embracing what prosperity is to them.
with that comes the compassion
and of course with prosperity comes love all around
just need to figure out how to enlighten people on what prosperity means to them personally, sorta like investing in their own future, where they need to envision what the future prosperity looks and feels like, and the ways to get there.
hmmm
with technology, what will the Africa look like 100 years from now.
well, without doubt, everyone will have mobile pc……wireless is cheaper as an infrastructure.
with that comes the fun of education for all
and the spiritual connectedness in real time with the rest of the world, which is not something that has been measured or considered, in particular of how we would feel what is of their spiritual enlightenment in a world that is not wealth driven, more serene, peaceful, ‘real’, at one with nature, rural farming families.
our own people can be connected as sponsors of those families directly as an extended family, of what is harnessing the compassion within all
ok, so which came first, the chicken or the egg? lol
and you say, “oh come on, the chicken, i mean how can an egg have sex for fuck sakes?”
“Shut up Jack!”
oh sorry, did i just call you Jack?
hmmm…i did
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it always comes back to the ‘lack’
and that is where to start, asking what comprises the ‘lack’
alot of motivational open minded experts out there trying to find a solution, like those involved with Sir Richard Branson.
ok, so prosperity is the goal in addressing what is the ‘lack’
these people simply do not have the sustainable tools to dig themselves out, of what is part of the ‘lack’
so, that has to be addressed.
from there, given the amount of effort needed to fill the ‘lack’ has to be addressed, where potential, at the top of the scale, everyone is involved.
so addressing how to get all envolved(potentially) is what is of the ‘lack’
well, direct motivational telecommuncations is obviously an inroad.
we just need a speakers group together as one, of what Branson is talking about as a revolution
ok, so part of the lack is the coming together, which has to be addressed
EARTH DAY is coming up next April, and that is where the revolution is gathering, so, we have to all pick up the phone and network together as one united force with one voice of all our voices.
ok, so that is rather easy.
prior to that would be coming up with the sound strategy of think tankers in addressing all the issues of what is the ‘lack’
processing thru one linking issue to the next as one common goal………PROSPERITY for the future generations who will feel what we leave them to enjoy, each other in harmonious equality love, the greatest reward of all that comes when the ‘lack’ is filled by all God’s children united as one.
already we are the motivation and capable wisdom in addressing the ‘lack’
already the solution is found
we are the solution
all of us uniting as one
there can be no other way to remedial this as quickly as possible.
leaving it to a handful of a few governments and business leaders is not able to bring the vast change in the ‘lack’
and the reward when all are involved is what is the greatest reward as regards prosperity, the children of tomorrow who are what is most sacred of all for them, education of their wise compassionate love for one another, who will dance and sing great songs of their own one day, from what is of what was our entire lives before them, thankful for everything we did bring forth from the overflowing storehouse of our constant flowing loving hearts.
hey, i would make a great motivational speaker yes?
oh, get off the stage, let me have the mic, i know what needs to be said!
well ok, i could write your speeches?
ok, you write your own speeches and i merely assist, waiting quietly in the wings?
lol
do you know what the greatest tool of all to fill the lack is?
your voice
your mind
your heart
you body
your soul
and your true champion spirit that unites us all as champions of our spirits.
I think Bill and i would get along fabulously, yes?
i suppose i would annoy him eventually
same great spirit though, yes?
my heart in the right direction, constantly flowing outward
Jack, “and why can i not wear the pink leotards on stage? Fine, you tell them, im not going! Fuck that, i won’t have someone telling me what i can and cannot wear!” lol
ooooo……a pink phallic microphone!
what?
ya ok, someone left the closet door open, you got a problem with that?
your problem, not mine
lol
thank you Stuart for last night!
call me
lol
i say,”What’s the point of having children if you are not going to leave them a beautiful playground to play in, and education of what matters most in life to them to every discover, the greatest hidden treasure of all, their own divine self.”
there’s no high spiritedness motivation at the United Nations, all weighed down sticks in the mud, a big pity party with no wise speakers.
argh……i really need to get back to work in sending out more emails.
ya, ok, whatever, i know about the human rights, i mean come on people, get motivated, same ol old school speakers, boring boring boring……..yawn
tea time
and good morning to you!
you had a good sleep?
come on, there is work to do, stop hesitating, get to work!
lol
can you imagine having sex with some of these sticks in the mud, how boring it must be for them, it’s just all so horribly sad for me!
lol
oh, i would just drive you nuts if i was around the house all the time…………..trust me, i know myself well, drive myself nuts somedays………
nuts
yes, i need some nuts and fruits to prevent cancer…..
i still say when you combine fresh incredients of pinapple, coconut and banana with a 0% yogurt, it is the most delicious tasting………although mango and pinapple is good too……
so good for the digestive track too!
what to say
when it comes to an individual’s inner sense of joyfulness they feel in their thoughts of another, they either feel it purely as joyful without doubt or hesitation, or they don’t, which is not to say they won’t someday………..
it is not a matter of the right thing to say to someone when it comes to emotional honesty one fearlessly embraces within so eaily when love is true, of effort when uncertainty pervades………
a true best friend loves you for anything and everything you say, however stupid i may or may not be, they simply enjoy you, love you for all that are, all the time, expecially your exceeding inner happiness like your own that they too feel for you, the sacred mirror that cannot be hidden when love is so obviously true, of others in awe of two soulmates who do find one another in life, as i have you, their extraordinary wondrous presence with one another and others, of, “What is wrong with those two?”
well, what to say……..
when every i see you or hear you, i always felt this way for you, felt the ray of light within so beautiful to feel like i have all this time, that i know won’t change for me, having grown to into what it is………………without doubt
something to think about…………without pought
lol
i didn’t know what to say to Trish either, walked away, praying all the while she would say what i wanted in waiting for her to say…………………someday
that did not come………….
we were too young, too immature, too afraid, too many others pulling her away from ‘me’, and yet i knew what we both felt inside, derailed by too much pride, why hide?
i want happiness
i AM happiness
and so R YOU!
bless you all
i say marry your best friend
who constantly loves you, good and bad, always Glad, for everything you R to them, just as Jesus does 2, ain’t no taboos, of generational blue, come on, let’s screw!
lol
overcoming generational blue fear, is by means of wisely seeing thru generational taboo queer, to the pure of heart divine self one who is constantly there, when of prayer.
hey, that’s pretty good, eh? Bet you could not right that?
anyway, just letting you know i am not throwing in the towel just yet, leaving that up to you, of who i know i AM to YOU!
i AM without doubt
just like YOU!
peace be to you
love andy
Hi have a great day..
i AM a great eternal day of holy joyful absolute carefee happiness in my pure of heart loving constant feeling thoughts of YOU, as you are of ‘me’ and ‘me’ of others, just as Jesus 2 is of YOU!
bless you always
our love is true of 2
forever more
blessed overflowing abundance of the divine child of God’s eternal heart mind body spirit and soul’s constant loving compassionate wisdom in the kingdom of heaven love devoid of useless absurd doubt of constant flow, constant grow, constant………”Come on, let’s go!”
i AM without effort or doubt of the constant yearning of the divine child of God 2 consatntly always feel LOVE.
the way we are meant to Just BE……..YOU!
the ‘real’ YOU i know!
bless you who are most like ‘me’, eternally free to always Just BE what we are, the eternal day radiant brilliant bright sun shiny day, what we pray, for all at play.
happiness
the truth, i constantly love you
always have
always WILL
of what is blessed true
YOU!
OMG!!!!!!
there has to something in the water in Chicgo, these people are just not normal!
unfucking believable!
that’s it, im moving to Chicago! lol
‘that’s what im talkin bout……..pure inner joyful happiness, amazing!
contagious YOU!
Embedded video from CNN Video
here is the original video they ran on CNN
pure energy! love it!
Montreal is a fun town, bin there once or twice for Pride.
inspiring of what is within us all!
JUST DO IT!
let’s do it again!
and again and again and………..argh
the true evoking power of music
of God within us all
and whoever else is within us! lol
mmmmmmmm
JUST KEEP DOING IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
there’s pink leotards, and then there is LeotardBoy! lol
that was amazing, they did it all in one take!
there is drag and then there is……..
im not sure what it is…………what is that?
sex!
yes!
we love sex sex sex sex sex and more sex!
right on!
blessed holy joy happiness knowing the kids are obviously more than just fine
they are fucking amazing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
joyful tears are real, yes?
feelings so pure inside us all
bless you all
JUST KEEP DOING IT!
forever more and more and more and more, where did all these happy souls come from?
oh yeah, same place as everyone, from the blessed womb of God
argh………..i need to take break! lol
shower time
admittedly, i love my homosexual life, and so i will go with that………..im just spinning my wheels here anyway, of how it feels when no one is around.
i am happy for you, and worry not, i wll be exceedingly happy in life, when of the joyful reciprocation each blessed day with another in ‘real’ life who is the same way with who i AM.
blessings to all
gotta go
sit alone along, and you start to feel the truth of how that feels, the optimism fades, others are having fun, why not you, happiness takes 2
i mean ya, none of us are alone in life, all of the same road we all subconsciously walk apon, but without a hand to hold of tender touch like our own, then we feel how that feels, unnatural, against our own loving spirit, of what constantly is within, of who i AM is, same as everyone of so many loving where we all constantly yearn to be found, together as one.
i don’t do pretend very well, or at least not for too long, of what feels wrong, according to what feels right, heaven’s delight, plain as sight, for all the world to behold, in outward appearance of our inward knowingness certainty that is without doubt.
bless you and all who constantly love you forever more
i’ll be around
without frown
like a clown
maybe a gown? lol
as i turning towards the abundant storehouse of my heart that yearns to constantly flow all blessed day long with a most loving lover like i purely know i AM
blessed is the loving lovers within all YOU!
of what happiness is for ‘me’
bless you all
I think it’s quite evident from my previous post that what I find “entertaining” are the posts from people who think some of these comments are made by the real Madonna herself. I wasn’t referring to any of the more serious non Madonna related posts on here. Re-read my post. No need to be offended.
i am not offended, just yawning of the lacking zeal motivationals and all their lameass hypocrisy waste of time, a constructive critism for you to wisely embrace, a ray of pure light, from Jesus thru me.
we are all constantly connected in every word, every step, every heartbeat, every breath, every blessed day we wake to and make sure you get this…………..for you limited attention spanners……………eternally all connected past present future.
ok, rant over
shine the light radiant brilliant bright withn us all being nurtured awakened and protected in eternal all by wise attending invisible spirits whom most are not yet able to see because of their lacking comprehension, and yet all feel the light at all times
forever more
bless you bless you bless you all
non Madonna related?
that’s like saying non Jesus related
all are related(connected) in real time where time eternally stands still
that’s waht i mean, people and their annoying limited attention span to grasp or desire to grasp anything i am saying, so why bother…………
when all they want to do is take jabs at you, amuse themselves, which is fine i suppose, and my age is starting to show, ok, whatever Biyatches!
peace out
only love feels good enough to always feel every blessed day of eternal all constantly there waiting to feel what you want them to feel, the light within so many unattended, dim, hurtful and grim, of constant yearning to burst forth in overflowing abundance so friggin bright, it does light up the entire world.
already it is there with you all eternal
blessed are you who purely understand in your fearless self-awareness exploration of eternal divine self YOU!
Constant Loving YOU
non related Madonna, argh, none related music flowing, none related spirits growin, none related human beings, yeah ok………………
i really AM an alien
butt not to my divine self i AM not an alien like some R
i am preaching else where now for those i may have annoyed or offended, which i did not, if you slow purely gracefully into feeling all my words written purely as goodness attending to your pure spirits.
ok admittedly, i do occassionally interpret incorrectly depending on my day.
there, i said it
actually you did not offend me, only yourself
as Jesus says, “It is not what you hear that is able to bring harm to your soul, rather it is your lacking descerning of what you say that is able to twist and derrange your own soul.”
It is in this wise divine self-awareness pure light that none are able to ever offend ‘me’, only yourself.
peace love happiness be 2 you
who cares what who says what, when it comes to wise descering self-awareness evoking of what anyone says as pertains to your evoked awakening nurturing and protecting of your flawless healing feelings so true?
does it matter who is saying anything when we hear wise words meant for the divine YOU?
no, it does not matter, just as the light is the same for all that crosses across all the divisional barriers of the entire world, the entire eternal future, the light is being felt their all the way thru eternity of what was of your entire life, so BE HAPPY DAMN IT!
they feel it, however immeasurable or subtle, the light shines eternally, just as the light of the constant feeling heart of Jesus shines eternally constant bright revealing oneness sameness as our hearts, what Jesus constantly knew of us all then, of us all eternal.
for those of you who take time to purely gracefully know Jesus, to purely gracefully surrender to knowing your own divine self as my own
blessed you
ya ok, somedays i am more of a road block, just rise above it for the way i am somedays, like most any of us are for whatever reason or more accurately, for whoever reasons………….of what is of our entire life journey and all who were there along the path up to each blessed day we wake 2
oh, as in the ‘real’ madonna and not the fame game Madonna……….ok, i understand who, i mean what/is you are saying………..lol
you’re funny!
well ya, anyone could easily feel thru that truth.
question is, people are evolving in pure divine self-awareness self-love, where you need to ask, where are you on the growth curve, ahead, beside, above, below, around?
and where should you be as relates to where we are journeying to?…. in other words you need to visualize where you are running 2, what that looks and feels like in the future of the future you who is there, where some already have arrived
don’t look at me, im off the market Biyatches! lol
saving it for someone special, butt then again, are we not all purely special within?
i AM
and so are all YOU
‘real’
yes
that is what i AM
‘real’ holy joy yearning to be set free to forever be happy
inspite of all the lamer shamer flamer gamer no namer containers!
cannot change purely feeling constant ‘that’ which i AM…….holy joyful happiness
some try, why lie, say goodbye, fuck
lol
i jest
people set me on fire and it’s like i end up breathing fire like the flamers………
some are so vicious too, and then they realize who they tripped, their own divine self.
which was the point of the exercise
life is the greatest teacher
and as for the ‘You don’t know what you have until it is gone’, that simply is not true, where ‘that’ is the light within all merely unwisely unattended to by which is of most any unknowingly unwise, not knowing what they are saying, not descerning, just talking like most as though they are, not of their own pure divine self-reflection awareness of what is understanding what God says, “Do not speak of that which you do not purely come fully into awareness of your own divine self.”
like so many of the merchants of God and their waning disconnectedness unmotivated lameness in their words, no zeal, no appeal, no ‘real’
me, i cannot stop the constant flowing river pouring forth, of all ‘that’ which i AM
Miguel is quietly backing out of the room. Talk amongst yourselves.
oh forget it
ya we are
something us fags are famous for when it comes to nurturing ‘real’ family
anyway
be happy
i know where i belong
where i truly feel like i belong
with those exactly like ‘me’
24/7 we all-ways R!
lol
it was fun, the self-exploration back to where i started
always was good at amusing myself
lol
feels sacred actually
speaking with those less in self-acceptance
something you become tuned into when around family all the time, knowing each step is important
my next step to absolute inner joy happiness the most important of all of the mirroring happiness within family
and that to me is the most important lesson of all
to fearless Just go be what we always R
i am looking forward to someone’s nice ass i can wake to each day and feel the same way for one another, the playfulness once again.
it is just who i am, and where i feel most myself, having been out for along time now…….entertained the bisexual thing, but not to the extent i felt comfortable, at least not yet, so for now i can get back to my usual gay self, and who knows, maybe someone ‘real’ will come up to me in life, where words alone just cannot compete with real life, although spiritually words can evoke in passing, just not to the extent of the warmth of another or kiss can
why do people say things they don’t mean?
that’s it, i am not ever going to allow myself to go any where near people already in a relationship, waiting on them like i am left to feel as though nothing, the one doing some sorta betrayal, when in the end, who betrays who, if what you say was indeed true?
it’s all just so lame for me, lamest on record so far.
i mean not even a coffee somewhere together
there is cold and then there is motherfucking cold!
where i feel i am the most lame for hanging around like some love sick fool, no, make that idiot, which i clearly am not
won’t allow myself to trust like that again, the long distant thing, and yet, Jesus is like right there for me, 2000 years ago, so i guess i contradict myself yet again
or maybe i just really love my gay sex?
ya, i do
ok
there, no confusion or delusion when it comes to being ‘real’
i was ‘real’
i AM ‘real’
it was not like i wanted something i could not have either
did that one before
no, i felt the connection
it is like, you want to feel loved by someone, and when you do, it is the magic one feels, especially when you love them as much too.
but then time has away of fucking it all up, the immaturity of it all, the conviction ‘lack’ that does not grow to a degree where one knows where they yearn to be, well ya, we didn’t go anywhere……………truly the lamest fucking thing i’ve ever done or be treated that way.
could of been extraordinary and wondrous
for both of us
but hey, that’s what you get when you play second fiddle, learn to expect it when you do like they do, the way it just goes.
i got my Hilary Swank on tonight, and she feels fearlessly in expressing what she wants to say in walking away.
you treated me like fucking shit, you know that, so think about that for the rest of your fucking life!
lol
and when you catch pretty boy with another, don’t come crawling back to me, i won’t be there, i’ll be happy, where i belong, where i feel loved 24/7, like we both felt and both wanted, but you are to fucking self-absorbed to give a fuck about how someone is left to feel like you did me………..should i say the B word……..lol
well, it’s all true……..oh, i so want to use the B word!
in the end you hurt and betray yourself, and for what?
when you figure that one out, call me, i might actually give a fuck about talking with you again, but then again, maybe i won’t be willing to extend my trust like i did for so long, do you how hard that was for me?
to comstantly hope like i did for so fucking long, unbelievable like i did, it’s just not normal, or maybe it is, normal in the sense that only Jesus could feel eternal love for someone.
and look what the fucking assholes did they do to him?
ya, that is what i am purely within, the constant yearning aspect of the divine child of God i know i AM
but to be treated less than how i purely feel and know i AM?
i would rather be dead than take any more of it, so maybe that is one more reason why Jesus surrendered to the claws of the beast of ignorance hearts, he would rather he was dead.
oh well, in God’s eyes i AM emotionally honest, anger masking my hurt, that anyone would feel when they get fucking ‘real’
i AM ‘real’
as in pissed off in you being so fucking lame with me anymore, it’s just fuckling bullshit, and you think it’s all so fucking funny, when in truth, it is not funny at all.
i’ll be happy one day
and truthfully that is what i wanted for both of us
and you know 100% in your heart that i did
without doubt
so go ahead, talk shit to me in telling me to grow up like you do in all your usual self denial lying ass way in avoiding what you ‘real’ly want to say like you do at times, in my finally walking, as you realize who it is that needs to hurry the up and grow the fuck up if you truly think and purely want to ever get with ‘me’
i am just not going to take your fucking shit any more
who the fuck ever should be left to feel you leave someone to feel, seemingly as though none of what you say or do matters to you for who you betray, who you hurt as you fucking continue to play
that is all i feel i was and AM to you, a fucking play, of
no concern for others who actually did come to love you, ya, i was swept away, dancing in the light like i was and yet am inside, or at least until my therapist reminds me yet again of your bruised ego being more fucking important to you than me, to get the fuck down of my fucking cross and walk the fuck away from those who chose not to be 100% authentic genuine and sincere in emotional honesty with you.
ya, who the fuck wants or feels anything for someone like that
to be sure, i don’t any more
won’t keep fucking lying to myself that i am fucking happy sitting the fuck alone.
and so there, that is what best friends are for, they don’t hold back the motherfucking truth you need to hear and the one you so obviously immaturely continue to avoid………….the ‘real’ fucking you they grew to love day after fucking day, putting up with your shit!
i’ll come the fuck down when people start acting like fucking wise adults with ‘me’
go and feel where and with who you purely feel you authentically genuinely sincerely want to get with, where i am done with this fucking play, feelings as though someone you can just toss whenever you feel like it, i’ve had enough, no more, cannot take it and i won’t any more, got my fucking head out of it now, with the help of some dear friends here.
and the commit to the ‘real’ you, and stop with all this fucking wanting your fucking cake and eat it too.
i am walking away, i am just not going to let someone keep fucking treating my like i am a fucking piece of shit nothing any more, not one more fucking day, no way, i’ve had it
other people get all fucked up in not saying what needs to be said, as people go thru their fucking lameass motions in moving away from someone, of lameass fearful excuse after another and another, the whole fucking stuckness of it all that we have been for way to fucking long for me, what i graciously tolerated, all the while hurting inside again and again.
that’s it for me
go fuck yourself
and if you decide on him and it fucking sucks after however long, i’ll say the say fucking thing then, go fuck yourself and all your fearful fucking disconnected way that is so hurtful of others you think the are ok with your shit, where clearly, i am not any more, and i never was.
i should of fucked off when you did the whole dinner tease and showed up with someone else.
no one ever did that to me like you did
i fucking hated you for that, and yet i over saw it all, excused it, when i should not of, no body should, i mean how fucking horrible would that of left you feeling if it was you, it’s a fucking miracle i even talked with you after that
well, enough is enough, you are a fucking asshole when ever you feel like it, and well, it’s all fucking lameass shit that you know full well, you would not tolerate for five seconds if someone left you day after fucking painful day to feel like you left me to feel for so fucking long, like a piece of fucking shit to scrap off your fucking boots.
go fuck yourself and don’t ever talk to me again unless it is 100% true in following the fuck thru.
do it again with me, and you won’t get a second chance with me, wondering even now, why the fuck am i even talking to you yet
it’s all painful fucking shit to me now, ok?
im done
for good
no more
go, just go, seriously Andy go back to your gay life ..
life is too short for this childish shit..
go marry him, obviously she’s too insecure to appreciate a sincere soul like you, penis issue or lack of so to speak…
she’ll find any exscuse to run away hesitate let her settle for second best & honestly after all this time your probably over it anyway …
just go marry who ever make’s you happy, penis or not..
lol…
you’ve had enough Andy..
just dont marry a fucking ITALAIN
too fucking EMOTIONAL
although ITALIAN’S, DO IT BETTER
OK FUCK OFF THEN
& DON’T BOTHER HAVING THE LAST SAY..
BECAUSE I’M DELETING THIS UNHEALTHY LINK..
NO MORE ANdy’S HAD ENOUGH..
i AM BLOCKING THIS SITE FOR GOOD..
come visit me in the real world”
but unless your prepared to say hello and spend more that 10mon’s with me well then dont bother, save your jet fuel cause im am fucking dine with your fucking insecurity ..
i’ll spell it for you
INSECURITY
INSECURITY
i’m fucking over it GROW UP !
i’ve had enough
ENOUGH
my insecurity?
fuck you
i AM the well adjusted verstale homosexual, and make sure you truly fuckning hear this, WELL ADJUSTED way beyond your ability to see and peer purely into what the fuck i AM talking about as one who is twenty fucking years into WELL ADJUSTED VERSATILVE who LOVES to fuck and get fucked every fucking day and night, under starlight, with any star light!
ok?
comprehendYY?
fucking flamers who think they know who the fuck they are talking to in all their obvious lame attempt to purely know who i AM is, seemingly wise in approach, WHEN OBVIOUSLY YOU ARE NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ever going to get with ‘me’, of how fucking happy i ALREADY AM of where you do not know where the fuck i AM is!
a healthy well adjusted versatile homosexual looking for the same, with a female well adjusted versatile homosexual…………THE NEXT FUCKING LEVEL LAMERS!!!!!!!!!!!
that we are not going to traverse to in exceeding holy joyful motherfucking happy with our entire bodies, because of YOUR INSECURITY, not mine
so when you do realize this 100%, call me, where to be sure others have do and WILL, in what is of their fearless oneness sameness versatile seeking versatile like we do, OUR WILL of insane happiness we purely know where we are taking all you lameass wannabes who are fucking clueless!
insecure
let me know when you find your fucking ass
or sorry, let someone else know, because after that, you would need to find my ass, which others already have and to be sure, constantly of my same WILL
ok?
ok
delete yourself out of the kingdom of heaven with ‘me’ biyatches all ya want and do like so many do in all their fearful gripped lameass pathetic empathy i constantly feel in the eyes of so many obviously not fucking happy, like you are, and will be so long as you don’t hurry the fuck up and get with ‘me’!
got it?
ok, so what is AndYY, once again to clarify to all the lameass wannabes?
AndYY is a truly and 100% purely weill adjusted versatile homosexual male seeking a truly and 100% purely weill adjusted versatile homosexual female!
why?
because i want it all
oh, and to be sure, there the one(s) i seek do fucking exist!
and we are the happiness beyond most any’s knowingness certainty we have grown into and fully become.
so please, do us a favour and delete lameass presence from us who are empathic in feeling sorry for you lameass FEAR MONGERING wannabes who purely feel and see thru your obvious fearful approach with us, just as you are, just as you likely shall remain, just as we continue without your lame.
call ‘me’ insecure, DO YOU FUCKING THINK AT ALL OF WHO I AM?
no
which is why you will appear miserable in life without ‘me’ should you make the wrong choice in not choosing ‘me’
lol
now that was some true homosexual mud slinging, yes?
fuckers!
won’t ever catch ‘me’ around your lameasses, knowing what we like and are with one another, and truthfully, we do get bored with the lamers, just so you know without doubt how your lame leaves us feeling, like you are, lackluster in appeal, the dimmer light than we purely always are
so fuck you in who you thought i was in seeking what i constantly AM
could of been truly happy for us both of what i already AM, the wiser one you did not and don’t want to purely know, casting yourselves out of heaven with and of ‘me’
where none are able to get ‘me’ down, not ever
we have learned to process evaluate every single one of you lamers, that which escapes your lacking comprehension of us.
but hey, feel free to look us up at our bisexual hang outs biyatches, our group meetings and be sure you do, in order to really know us, your yet unevolved potential future self, and feel the truth of how purely happier and far more comfortable in our own bodies than anyone else.
and yes, we are exceedingly rare, and hard to get with, as we tend to run with one another of what is same for all orientations, yes, bisexuals run with bisexuals, just as is of the other orientations.
ah well, i sorta always figured i was wasting my time hear
ok, i am confused
are you coming on to ‘me’?
or trying to keep up?
hmmmmmm
i don’t want ten months, i want the remainder of our blessed life together, what i don’t have to explain what you already know!
and if i do
then you are not the one for ‘me’
when you love someone, you know purely know them
and when you don’t, you pretend you know them
and the light is obvious in difference, which one day you will feel the truth of this if you miss getting with ‘me’
fair warning
last chance
to dance with ‘me’
i ain’t waiting for you to realize what lame feels like
if you are that disconnected, then this is already over before it has begun
insecure
you don’t even know hardly anything about ‘me’ in what is of your obvious lacking going against oneness words with ‘me’, where if you did purely know ‘me’, you would speak with ‘me’ as though you are ‘me’ ALL THE TIME!
so what’s it going to be and when?
is all i want to hear from you ever again
blessings to all who thought you knew ‘me’ of one day you shall feel our light constantly shining bright.
i AM versatile bisexual seeking same
please, no lamers need apply
thank you
delete the blog, and you strike God in the face
and every one of the LGBT community
not forgiveable by God or ‘me’
ever
ok, that was some healthy venting i had to go thru
frustration built up long enough, that’s for sure!
i am not going to sit around while you get it on with someone else, not one day, not one minute.
no way
had enough
time to say goodbye farewell blah blah blah
fucking flamers, all they seem to know how to do is flame flame flame, shame shame shame blame blame blame, insane insane insane, wane wane wane, constain constain constain, no name no name no name,
lame lame lame
game game game
i wanna fuck, so hurry up!
some good old fashioned angry sex
YES!!!!!!!!!! lol
ya i am way over it
always was
the true happiness she seeks, she has pure known i AM
‘that’ which cannot change and to be sure……..won’t stop, can’t stop being ‘me’
butt i love her
and she fucking knows how much i purely 100% do without doubt
i AM going to continue to be happy without her
where it is her i AM more concerned about in not being constantly happy as ‘me’
i see the future already
together
or apart
where i AM happiness either way, all-ways!
lol
there, the well adjusted bisexual has expressed him/her self biyatches!
for all the world to eternally hear
you want to love ‘me’ and always do
you just need to get your desire up to my level, that’s all
i won’t ever hurt you or stray
i AM YOU
i AM both male and female 100% without doubt
and so R YOU
so come on if you don’t want blue
trust ‘me’
i know what i AM
and so WILL YOU
love so pure and bright that lights up every minute of every blessed day we wake 2
miss with ‘me’
and i will always feel sad for you
when i take time 2
hey, you ever think of someone else when you are doing it?
is that a bad thing?
i think it is healthy
as far as what you want need think and feel
maybe not for the other if they ever found out
oh, i don’t want to do that any more
lol
daughter relapsed………badly again, four days no sleep
afraid of the inevitable that may come
why i am so upset
she needs a geographic relocate completely out of the scene with professional and doctors
she is thinking sensible and talking sensible, scared of herself, lacking the motivation to commit to a full recovery program
this goes on along time for them without intervention
one of her friends is nearing death too, an extreme case ADHD kid, of the high risk low impulse control brain chemicals naturally of others.
maybe her friends death is the wake up call
it plays for them badly
has to hit bottom hard for many
hospital, prison, death
the bleek outlook that constantly surrounds the chronic ones, like a hospital ward of sick kids is how i see them, as they are, sadly in low fortitude wisdom of recovery……..this is the last year i am going to associate this closely, so i tell myself……….
ya, i am upset beyond belief of how sketched out she gets, worse each time she relapses……….
bless you all
second best
ya, i know i AM the best
same as YOU
which is why it makes no sense to ‘me’
please stop, i honestly don’t want to hurt any more
i feel i have invested enough time hear for you to feel i AM worth time in the ‘real’ world, wise like you, purely so, evolved self-confidence in knowingness happiness, sexually speaking, have been along time, no victim mentality hear of that i allow too near, wise.
the ball is in your court
i am going to take a shower
and i want your answer when i come back
the answer i already know
call ‘me’ insexcure
ha
as if
maybe to the bashers, yeah, i AM afraid insecure of them
butt not YOU
so tell ‘me’, what’s behind the door?
as if i don’t already know
hello?
we have fucking weekend long celebrations of what’s behind the fucking door!
hey, what planet is this?
have i stopped at the wrong planet?
can’t stop won’t stop us Biyatches!
the happiness we are with you all who do not purely 100% know us like we do each other, not some sex deviants either, purely 100% loving more so than you, of emotional intensity that is purely always ‘real’ for us 24/7 of our bubbling feelings we love to feel each blessed holy joyful absolute carefree eternal day we wake 2
so come on, who is obviously more fearless and wise than ‘me’?
oh, so you think
you just need to work on the want need and feel part
as in only in ‘real’ life R you able 2
i mean look at ‘me’
every fucking word of ‘me’ meant for you 2
always
i just want always love YOU
and so WILL others who easily see us 2
it is not so much of betraying another i realize, as much as it you who may betray you
and so i speak in this light of concern for your happiness i already AM, and the length of time i have spent in coming to fully realize……………….without doubt…………….is YOU 2
so stop with this
i want be with you for the rest of my blessed life
what i know you 2 want of ‘me’
and have for how long now?
fuck, how many years has it been anyway?
ah fuck that, live in the present of your pure constant presence
that i feel of ‘real me’
YOU!
or don’t and suffer that decision one day without ‘me’ where you know you constantly yearn 2 belong like we have for so long now.
seriously, it will tear me apart to move on
butt for sake of my happiness i have 2
getting my needs met
serious ‘real’ life issue
well ok, think it over, feel it over, want it over, need it over
i AM over it
the fucking rainbow Biyatches!
i AM there!
i AM a role model for many of solid stance
as are many of our vast LGBT community
and that is purely who i AM and shall always BE
so know where you are going in coming to ‘me’
jumping into my arms every blessed day we wake 2
already i AM there, praying it is YOU
where no matter who, in truth, YOU are there 2
always
forever more
eternal all yet to come
of our every wise loving compassionate step
every blessed sacred day
only LOVE
daughter is really getting to me and i don’t know what to do
well ok, it’s good to see you standing up……finally
go slow, walk of your pure grace, you’ll be fine, the muscles just need time to adjust.
lol
see, feels good to Just constantly BE ‘real’ YOU!
perhaps i should of been more demanding, instead of my soft sissy comfortable way i am when i am usually, without having to explain anything like we do, that inner deep grace knowingness in all our eyes constantly there.
heaven
insecure i AM not
just another lameass excusing yourself while you go do whatever with who ever and not me.
explore ‘that’ thoughly and wonder all you want why i walked away from the disinterest lame game.
and maybe, just maybe, you will realize how it all fucking hurt me in the end, drove me away from being left to feel unloved by someone who toyed with my soul, an amusement for you, of a soul once held hostage in his own hopefulness constant yearning certainty that only love was all he wanted to feel with you at all times, and did.
for how long?
at some point we stop making excuses for their avoidance of you and muster up the courage to walk away to a blessed day of others who are of ordinary life ‘real’ approach gentle sincere honest authentic, as in, “Hey Andy, wanna catch up at the cafe later?”
“ya sure! love 2!”
you know?
ordinary gay
ok
your loss
toyed withy your soul.. omg catholic guilt dont work with me..
I love 2.. see we’ve been healing each other for so long it’s all good it’s never been bad, all growth all fantastico …
all teenage girls are difficult not really much you can do except stand back and be a silent observer in case you need to pull her out of danger, I would recomend inviting a pshycologist over ( as a friend ) to silently observe and manipulate in a good way, cannot do it on your own cause you’ve got an emotional connection .. whatever you do don’t flip at her worst thing but some disipline definatly..
hey shall we move to twitter or email, this is really too open for my likeing im getting insecure .. not ..
ok cafe then, no more disco’s too much distraction, or how about a yoga class, omg i went to a yoga class once & the three girls in front of me had really big ass’es then they fliped over & their ass’s seemed to get bigger..
haha
mwah
jesus is not invited !
i don’t know why but everytime i try to be gay, my friends turn into girls drag queens & trannie’s omg, andy you trannie with breast’s this is for you
http://www.facebook.com/home.php?#/profile.php?id=1243777634&ref=profile
oh and the biological father MUST play an integral part, then she’s less likely to find a substitute which in a rebelious way she might.. just to prove a point,
you should consider that… maybe there is someone you forgot about all these years, well even as friends ya know ..
anywaz I look forward to seeing you soon, alway’s enjoy catchin up wif ya, as i know you do too..
& to anyone out there listening .. trying to make sense of it all..
The only thing more important in the whole universe ( apart from oneself) is the love, Honour & respect of the innocent the children.. for one day you will also be a child again..never forget that !
thank’s Michael 🙂
but it’s so true
i just want to say something i was contemplating before i forget(the greatest woe)
Into this yet world yet bound by generational ignorances of binding death destruction and oppression, a precious divine sacred child of God is born.
Life is precious
To all you who participate in illegal drug use and trafficing, you are participants in a generational mad flood ignorance that sweeps our precious loving brothers and sisters into death destruction and oppression of the blessed life directly, that is not forgivable by God, nor can it be, because of the directness of truth that you are directly cause for the ongoing death destrution and oppression of so many.
Those who think they escape this truth are foolishly unwise in fully embracing the truth that you do not serve God, rather you serve this mad flood ignorance that is direct cause for the mother’s tears that fall at their child’s grave side, in what is one of many of the aimless plodding along in life generational ignorances that Jesus rose up against in his attempts to point your sacred precious life towards awareness of the truth that none can escape.
So long as you do not apon the truth, then you serve in a darkness mad flood ignorance of death destruction and oppression as a direct participant against God’s will for the eternal day light of divine self-awareness wisdom, where unknowingly, you do serve the light, but on the wrong side of the light.
It is not forgivable by God
nor should it ever be
the only way to make things right and brighter, is in YOU BEcoming of the pure eternal day light brightening for sake of another precious divine blessed sacred child of God born from the womb of God into this yet obviously unwise world of generation man flood ignorances.
Avoid the light of truth, and you avoid the BEcoming of the truth of your own divine child of God, as evident of what is of the condition of your soul so obvious for all the world to see, as indirects who unknowingly serve the light of truth, where all constant truth that is there constantly at all times serves God’s divine children forever more eternal all yet to come.
blessed is eternal unchanging truth that serves as wisdom for the divine child of God’s heart mind body spirit and soul’s eternal day light radiant brilliant bright of the eternal all who are there
bless you all
you gonna reply to me or what .. ok
just wait……..i will come before you in a moment, one more contemplation i coming thru…….
we are all children when we enter into the BEcoming of the light in the kingdom of heaven love devoid of doubt.
ya, it’s true, i have my emotional break downs, healing as you say, like two eternal soulmates who walk along their spiritual journey path to the light shining bright ahead of them in the future, of one or the other that falls apon the ground momentarily in illness of heart mind body spirit or soul, of what is the light that is delving deep into us in healing and plucking the root of whatever may be cause for our illness, the other slowing in loving concern for the other, waiting for them to stand up.
yes, me too, i need you and love you in this way
generation binding ignorance transformation(salvation) is what is of our BEcoming of ‘real’ self setting free from that which binds.
at times i get toxic, what with my pure emotional concern for my daughter i chosen to be there for, herself of grave danger in association with others of generational binding ignorance of death destruction and oppression.
BEcoming a wise warrior of God’s divine light is not what we think, all is going to always be ok, where in truth, each blessed day, we learn more and more in our towards awakening in and of our eternal day lignt of truth growth, of truths which come to us all in ways that are horrific, such as the loss of a loved one, all of us who are of affect/effect/direct/indirect eternal day light of truth of our divine child of God’s heart mind body spirit and soul evolving alongside one another.
i have contact with pure loving souls around the world who purely feel as i do like we do, where we do feel the presence of each other purely there of what is our deep pure place of sacred divine self-awareness flawless healing feelings.
many who were/are purely thankful for my presence when death and destruction came into their lives one blessed sacred day of revealing light of truth of a generational snaring that swept one of their loved ones away from them, as i say to them it was only of their body, not their spirit swept away from you, they are yet there with you always.
bless you all
just as i AM always there with you however far away
building of trust to come together has been my approach with you all this time in such a pure way as i am spiritually able to cast from you all doubtful binding fears that do stem from the generational unwiseness yet hear all around us, of what is my clarity of sight by means of flawless meditative healing feelings where i wisely dwell in the wisdom halo that shields one from the generation mad flood dangerous ignorances.
on occassion i become weary and weak, from many things, like not enough rest, or toxic emotional stuff i am dealing with of others, and my own toxic stuff past, all purely of my blessed life, no matter the darkness that was or is yet of my blessed life, that God is pointing out for me to learn of the misfortune darkness i too have come thru all this way before you today.
how do i look? lol
a fucking mess i know
ah well, i AM that special friend who was always there in a pure way of love in my eyes i could not hide from wise you
where i don’t want to hide any more as i did for so long as before, as you know.
and when i came before you, i felt something i did not expect to feel, so blessedly pure and so ‘real’, my god, my god i thought, she ‘really’ does love me, a true friend you purely are to me
saying goodbye in moving on with another, was not what i wanted to ever hear, of what was my coming before you all this time.
but i do love you, and so long as you shine bright in your eternal day light brightness, my divine will wise objective approach with you all this time, then i too feel as i want you to always feel.
do as i do
i AM constantly evolving out in the eternal day light of divine self-awareness that pushes out and sheds all generational unwise mad flood ignorance darkness, not only of my life, no, of others too who are there along the path with me at all times.
you feel with clarity of the truth of our every step of what is the light that pushes out all darkness from the precious loving souls we love of so many, just as i do
and that is my focus with you, not just for sake of you, for sake of all eternal
so ya, being who you are, of course i want to be closer with you, to protect you from falling, of the high places and paths clarity understanding i speak of, of God that i AM hear.
i know, someday i am all over the place, a scatter brain and all my emotional manifesting useless words at times, the occasional disconnect from where i rather be, in blessed harmony within, within others.
but hey, you have not lived my life, which most as you say would not likely have survived, and for me, that is what is of sacred value in what friends are always for.
so don’t throw me away just yet
and even if you do, i AM always there, all around you, of what is and has been of all my steps in life affect/effect/direct/indirect light of others who are there, just as undeniably has been and yet is you
we purely embrace one another in this sacred wise light awareness of eternal all
just as Jesus too knows i AM
ok, follow me into my sactuary of the laboratory of macro thinking clarity like your own i know of and will speak of directly with you now……..
i come before you in pure spiritual divine self awareness like your own in speaking directly with you standing there in front of you, and there are millions of precious souls all around us as we speak with one another, some listening in, some not, yet all are there doing whatever with who ever.
ok
you are hear in front of me, in what i want you to purely know of me of what is our oneness sameness wise speaking on serious life and death spiritual awakening nurturing and protecting of our blessed divine self, divine self of all eternal
welcome to my halo of wise pure descering compassionate love for all these millions of precious souls not just of this generation we see and look apon daily, also of the trillions apon trillions of unborn yet to come.
many there are who are not yet of our wise journey thus far, that we know without doubt they too may fall along their blessed path, where some will die, others injured and damaged for life, others who subconsciously feel the light of the enlightened ones we know we are more so than others, and it is this that i wish to elaborate on with you, just as i have been all this time, of the only way we are able to ever come fully together in life, the merging of our wise halos into one.
we have to be humble with one another of the classmate surrendered open minded collabortion for the two halos to merge, there is no other way.
for you to learn of my accumulation of wisdom, and i yours, open minded thristing desire is the only way we can learn fully one day in pure appreciation merging of our combined wisdom, which is vital sacredness of the high places and path we walk apon with one another for sake of eternal all, of what is of the understanding comprehensive extensive divine self-awareness wisdom Jesus rose up against, himself who also BEcame wisely descerning in pure flawless feeling awareness of the generational binding ignorances yet of the world from the forefathers, here in the halo with Jesus who is hear with us, teaching us what he already knows what we thirst for, where time does stand still, because we are the wise eternal aware pure spirits who feel the truths of all these eternal generational ignorances and what is the ‘lack’ wisdom that breaks the binding chains of the divine self of others we clearly feel the truth of everywhere we look.
without doubt, we know the eternal all are of generational evolving out of all darkness in ushering in the kingdom of heaven wise halo perspective we purely 100% flawless feel while dwelling in the halo, of how one sees the kingdom of heaven all around us, and this is why i am hear before you to wisely motivate and encourage with you, for sake of you, for sake of others we compassionately feel for like we do.
you and i have blessedly purely felt the purity of one another all this time, so for me to turn away from you, without doubt is to turn away from the flawless purity love i feel within, as do you of me, which neither of us wants to as friends.
well ya, i wanted more, no doubt there, of your light like my own that draws me to the sacred place that is of the constanty yearning aspect of the divine child to always constantly flawlessly feel this without doubt loving light, that is of the kingdom of heaven wisdom halo love devoid of all doubtfulness, as Jesus says of the useless absurd untrue falsehood doubt found in the world.
i do know what the kindom of heaven wisdom halo perspective is, that brings clarity by means of our flawless feelings(how one sees) when dwelling within it, of what has been of all my slowing into graceful ‘real’ self turning towards and dwelling within the meditative halo for sometime over many years of devoted study evolving growth in divine self-awareness processing until such a day as Jesus speaks of that i already came thru, without doubt of the day i came fully into the eternal day of the light of my divine self where time does stand still, and you purely 100% feel the truth of the words of Jesus there with you saying, “Like You, i too was born into this unwise world of generation mad flood snarings of the divine child of God’s heart mind body spirit and soul all around us that you flawless purely feel the TRUTH of that is constantly there of so many, such as the pure compassion we constantly wisely feel of the precious souls of aimless haphazard plodding along in dangerous paths of death destruction and oppression, just as any of our homosexual loving brothers and sisters constantly feel of the generational taboo ignorant others all around them as we do.”
hi marco
the discussion is endless and extensive of where i am, where you are, where we are not purely there yet in our coming fully into 100% awareness of the other’s wisdom, and yet, our oneness pure flawless feeling we both already were of, of what has been our own cultivating within of deliberate divine self-approach all these years, is the same oneness light that has been drawing us both towards one another, of what is of soulmate oneness without doubt
spiritually speaking i will speak for both of us on something neither of us has openly said.
neither of us can dwell with another where subtle uncertainty doubtfulness pervades, that our meditative awareness reveals to us as it has all these years, nor do we ever want to.
it is this fear that keeps us apart, afraid that the other may not be on the same level, the same page, and i am hear to tell you, we already are, where of open minded student mentality collabortive likeminded desire to become one, is how we are able to become one.
there is no other way
i am not boastful of my wisdom over yours, even if that is sometimes how you may interpret ‘me’, no, rather, these wisdom are what have benefited ‘me’, and likewise benefit you, and another, as ones who do walk in the high places and paths of the world.
i AM fearless in coming before you in what i know is of sacred value for you and eternal all, where i do value your sacred life on par with the value of my open minded relationship with Jesus and God, 100% without doubt, but how can i do that if you are doubtful of ‘me’, where like you, i too cannot dwell with those of the lessor toxic approach with us, of how that leaves us feeling?
i ask, what sacred value to you see my role model in life as regards to God’s children who look up to ‘me’?
well, i will say this, if you are even of 1% doubtfulness of the sacred value i know i AM, then i cannot be with you, in the eyes of them who look on and feel any disrespectfulness of ‘me’, ‘me’ of them when you do.
unconditionally you and i fully know the potential haphazard dangerous path ahead for the generations of homosexuals coming thru, of what is all our wise descerning of their self-awareness self-acceptance sooner rather than later, that is able to avert disaster for their likewise sacred footsteps of life, just as each one of our steps every blessed day, 100% sacred in the eyes of God, and we who are of the greater evolved blessed divine self-awareness that we want others to successfully transition into in their constant evovling processing no different for any, all of oneness sameness, of what is our flawless healing oneness sameness of the vast worldwide LGBT community.
regard ‘me’ in a lessor light of the value of my own sacred life as regards the all, then it is childish immature approach of you in doing so, is it not?
as you say, it does not revolve around you
where all are invited to the kingdom of halo wisdom perspective that has evaded full understanding to this day, of what is the truth of the ushering in of the kingdom of heaven wise halo perspective Jesus and God speak of, what we look for already hear, the path i set myself on decades ago to journey towards in divine self-awareness discovery wisdom, that is 100% pure in feeling, intuitive of the divine child of God’s heart mind body spirit and soul’s of all flawless healing feeling eternal all.
*gulp*
yes, it’s true
lol
i know who i AM
same as YOU
without doubt
the only way one is able to meditatively purely feel what flawless healing feeling feels like, just as all those who are in process of their homosexual divne self-awareness acceptance, of what is of my every sacred step, every blessed day.
who i AM to them
i AM who they R
where we all need each other, and we all feel the eternal day light of our divine self growing brighter every blessed day
and thankfully so, that does avert disaster for our precious LGBT youth who are in the highest risk category for self inflicted injure and lacking self-respect, of what is of all our self-medicating coping like so many of us do, that unfortunatel for so many, because of lacking self-acceptance, sees us die horrible deaths every blessed day, and what of all the oppression we all feel in our professional and personal worlds that we all feel like we do each blessed day.
desth destruction and oppression of our holy joyful absolute carefree happiness spirits is what is of a mothers angst and tears at the grave side of her precios child, wanting answers, not know of what we wisely speak of, of what Jesus speaks of, that we are 100% without doubt of…………
bless you all
i need and love you all
constantly
who i AM
i AM all YOU
of ‘me’ 2
so uhm, does this mean we WILL look at collaboration of some special projects for the world?
what i have always wanted with you, along side of you, as lover and/or friends, as the most wise warriour of God carrying God’s wise holy sword of truth i AM learning to wield, with the most powerful defensive sheild ever found, the wise faithful truth wisdom of Jesus that none can penetrate or ever destroy, even unto death.
of what cannot ever be destroyed
TRUTH
i AM the TRUTH
i AM the WAY
i AM the LIFE
and so all all YOU!
forever more eternal all
bless you all who are there in our daily unceasing prayer
at some point we BEcome what we envision
the future of divine self constantly hear in the presence of all divine self past who too envisioned who we all R
bless you
argh……..i have to stop……….the tears prevent ‘me’ from seeing clearly
what clarity is
lol
so i ask, do you want to explore ‘me’ further?
where is my freak in the sheets?:mrgreen:
ok, if i stepped over boundaries, forgive ‘me’, i meant no one any harm, only constant goodness divine light of who i AM
an invisible spirit
constantly there
that i feel within all YOU
is YOU
who i AMM
who i AM
Andy + Madonna
forever more
i etched this in wet concrete one day, only to return the next day, and someone fucking cemented it over.
fuck
who would do something to something so beautiful
my heart?
argh……..fucking morons
lol
fear is the way we die
physically
but not ever spiritually
is the intuitive divine spirit able to ever die
don’t listen to the unwise haters Biyatches!
they are in denial of their own divine self happiness
fucking morons
yes, in truth, Jesus is not invited into the hearts of many, sadly
of many who do not know who Jesus actually is
the wise evolved adult child of God’s heart mind body spirit and soul of eternal all yet to come
of what is the ushering in of the wise halo macro thinking pure of heart perspective kingdom of heaven
that some think/thought was/is in the sky
fearful denial of divine self is the reason why
for those who know why
of why they cry
we are all emos in the wiser eyes of Jesus and God, and those who purely are emos
the divine child of God is emo
no matter their insight or wisdom, they are of the purity love intuitiveness
we all R
constantly
no matter how asleep in outward appearance, the pure faith wisdom clarity of Jesus who feels YOU constantly there within eternal all
bless you all
thank you
and yes, that is my free flow stream of conscious writting today
the way i want need think feel i AM
YOU!
it’s your covertness that seperates us
or should i say, seperates you from divine you?
fine
hide all want from an wise invisble spirit(the aparition you felt and saw of wise ‘me’
who of clarity sees
eternal all
i AM
i just did not tell you of my wise abilities prior to the apparition you saw
ya, it was ‘me’
just like YOU
of purity love pure of hearts
did you just fart?
lol
what is that smell?
Jesus says to beware of those of foul smelling
do you know the meaning of this spiritually, the spiritually unwise who cannot see like we do?
ok, so who am i?
Jesus and God constantly know 100% who i AM?
do YOU?
wise YOU!
as you said, we easily see each other
the way we are meant 2
i just can’t handle the coolness lame that makes me insane
the manifestations of my needs not being met
which is not your responsibility in my taking ownership as i do, we all need three safe and supportive others in wisely maintaining postive mental emotional physical sexual spiritual well being.
and the day i question the validity of what is wrong in wanting you 2 participate in such
well, call me insane then, ok?
as if i don’t like the same thing we all do
as if i AM some sorta fucking alien
[andYY waunders out the back door of the studio yet again, his self-esteem still waning, as a sense of doom lurks over him at times like it does, his mere desire of wanting to be constantly loved, as though he has a problem others leave him to feel daily like he does, when purely within he feels the truth, of all those just like him, left unatteneded, seemingly unlovable, if only he could be you, what a difference he would make in the world of his time running out to do so]
perhaps i did make a difference in you
me me me me me meme mememe
it’s a all about memememememememe
nothing else exists’s but mememememememememem
it’s all about mememememememememme
no one else but mememememem
AND YOU !
thank’s marco
ANY TIME..
MAKE A LITTLE SPACE 🙂
FUCK YOU YOUTUBE
HEAL the WORLD –
FUCK YOU TUBE…
SILLY EARTHLINGS
OH FUCK ME DEAD
OH FOR gOD’S SAKE KEEP IT CLEAN WILL YOU TWO..
nah she’s a big dyke
oh really dont take me seriously im just playing you….
im gay i got a boy
toy & well you dont.. so that settles that !
oh your always one step ahead Byiatch.. but like really do i care ?
you know what this one deserves the Mensa Club – God All Mighty – I second the vote
but dont we all suffer, i mean maybe with the exclusion of JESUS – “BEEN THERE DONE THAT !!!!!”
NEXT !
beautiful
a pure place of awareness
without doubt
of the doubtful void
and all their avoid
of who?
same as you
to fearless constantly feel LOVE
the kingdom of heaven
i know of
with Jesus constantly there
of all souls everywhere
purely of care
and beware
in the stare
of our intuitive eyes
merely the ‘lack’
in being told
who they all are
same as you
purely of care
and evolving beware
our life experience
revealing light
of divine self
exceeding bright
eternal all
always there
all the truths
we feel like we do
why we care
as evident in our devoted work
i AM there
everywhere
same as you
same as 2
same as all you
bless you all
lol
nice to feel your exceeding inner joy again
and how do you suppose i do
well, i wood have to be like you
ok
it used to be suffering for me
but then i rose out of ignorance
into the wise descerning halo of the ability see with clarity as to what once was of my own divine self unattended suffering, of where the suffering stems from and constantly is, of what is our wise descerning of the truth of the generational binding fear of any soul unable to be of attentiveness purely constantly fearlessly loving of us so long as they are bound by the absurd unwise generational that yet flows thru others.
ie, “fucking faggots!” they yell out their car windows as they throw eggs at us gathered there at our usual hangouts.
we get beaten too, and crucified like Jesus
and why?
we no longer wonder why?
we know why now, the generational mad flood ignorance we wisely purely flawless constantly feel at all times in our time stands still awareness of seeing thru the eyes of Jesus who is revealing the kingdom of heaven halo perspective to us in our devoted graceful meditative sanctuaries of study, in layman’s terms so easy for all to purely embrace, thru our devoted writings, art, music, in all mediums, especially the most sacred of all, the medium of our outward appearance of what is of our inward holy joyful absolute carefree happiness growing brigther every blessed day in the eternal all who are constantly their, constantly aware of who we all were and yet are to them purely in their hearts of eternal thankfulness blessed tears of their own, as our own.
you know, i really wish for once you were of something tangible ‘real’ with me in clarity of words as regards the two of us in physical life.
ya, God has ‘me’
this i already know
and i do think God has a sense of joyful playfulness of me as God’s joy, perhaps like a toy, but not as a ploy, to disable our holy joy within us all.
what did Jesus actually suffer from?
not a lack of his sense of pure divine self-love
no
he suffered from the witnessing in feeling the ‘lack’ of not enough love in others, of what is the love of Jesus for and of eternal all
you know, the falsehood mask that replace the void of lacking environmental love so many constantly feel within, and deny themselves from purely feeling how they truly do feel within, the avoidance, boys don’t cry, like fuck they don’t, and the reasons why
not enough love shining forth for others
thru the greatest medium of all
the BEcoming Jesus speaks of that Jesus said to reach for within our grasp that was far more difficult then, than know.
Jesus to me was one of fifty people who first gathered at our first LGBT Pride celebration decades ago, of how i see Jesus walking the earth during the brutal ruling roman empire.
Jesus is not just of our awarness of the generational taboo ignorances our loving brothers and sisters constantly wake to each blessed day
there are many generational ignorances to fully explore in coming free of by means of wise light revealing of the roots of the tree of which the axe is already laid for us to cut from within us, in BEcoming the outward appearance light of sacred mirroring of that of inward appearance within us, within all eternal
TRUTH
ok, imagine for a moment
that Jesus came forth in the world today and walks amoung us constantly of radiant brilliant wise eternal time stands still light shining bright at all times, and says to the world, “What you turn towards you become within in outward appearance for all the world to obviously see of what is the truth of the condition of your soul unwisely unattended unnurtured unprotected, your divine child of God asleep in binding afraid ignorance that you do not realize, of all you who have not come fully into the eternal day you purely feel the light of your divine child of God within.”
so what then?
well, it is the TRUTH i speak to every soul today and eternal all yet to come, of what are the words of Jesus thru my own lips, as Jesus says, “BEcome what i constantly AM, not your master, no, who am i purely most like?”
YOU!
ya morons!
the wiser evolved future divine child of God YOU who are there in this moment looking back apon what was of our life devoted to YOU who is there in full understanding wisdom that is being yet revealed here in the present past, that you already know what was of our all our present past footsteps we took while we walked the earth, now physcially dead, but not spiritually are we?
no
we are spiritually there in purely feeling how you flawlessly feel of our contant radiant brilliant bright LOVE all around YOU, is YOU of holy joyful absolute carefree happiness so beautiful to behold everywhere you go!
Biyatches!
you R welcome
yes, we care
we constantly care
just as you too wisely do 2!
bless you all
lol
so ya, i AM BEcoming of what Jesus says to reach for, where already i AM ‘that’ which Jesus speaks of within
i just need someone who purely gets ‘me’, without the annoying unwelcomed absurd lameass flamer gamer shamer blamer no name hopeless binding container dumbass doubt.
either fuck ‘me’ or get OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
no wait, that makes no sense
you have to get OUT BE fore you can fuck ‘me’!
hmmmmmmmm
what to do
sorta reminds ‘me’ of you
well, i do love you
but i am growing weary in my doubting we will ever come together beyond friends
and can you blame ‘me’?
it was not anything i did
it is you who turn away from ‘me’
see what i mean, constantly i AM the wise student BEcoming as his teacher
as requested
you R welcome
i AM a dyke, yes, it’s so true.
bless you
as i evolve, as a female purely in feeling
i am left feeling what transexuals purely feel like they do
that as a female, we are straight, are we not?
and yet i am phsically male……..just don’t tell my boyfriend who like fucking ‘me’ lol
ok, seriously though
what of the Alpha male female of either a male or female that we know is ‘real’?
and what of the Omega female of either a male or female that we know is ‘real’?
clearly i AM both
so is my female sex with a male of either a female or male make me straight when having sex with the Alpha male of a female or male?
and is my male sex with a female of either a female or male make me straight when having sex with the Omega female of a female or male?
and you say, “oh who the fuck cares AndYY, just fuck ‘me’ for fuck sakes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”
GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LOL
made ya smile
uhm…….you wanna catch a movie sometime?
you know, a date?
or hey, i know, how about one of those huts out on the water of a peer in the Hawian islands, of a glass floor, just the two of us naked, fucking our brains out for hours of endless sheer holy joy?
ok, just askin
lol
gotcha again, your turn
this video has a slowing into graceful divine self awareness, but is mostly just unfocused angst lacking articulation
it attempts to, but lacks the wisdom of divine self constantly seeking for purely what?
like arrows shooting in the dark attempt, which is fine, just where they are at in time, that’s all
some interesting words though, that one can easily expand on into macro thinking awareness wisdom, the halo voids.
Creed – My Sacrifice
i fucking love the two andrgynous twin green mermaids swimming bi, that any of us purely relate to of what is our sacred wiser loving life souls found like we are as lovers and friends every blessed day of the LGBT community
ok, so you purely embrace the sacredness of our steps, as you always have.
i too have the same purity self-love awareness within, within all, yes?
so what of our friendship?
well, we are artists who will continue in our medium expressing of divine self-awareness light, no doubt
but what of more than just friends?
should i stay or should i go of what is our glow?
oh, you fucking love ‘me’
i already know
who i AM
and who YOU R
always the same wise compassionate love of the all
maturity
for sake of the all
im ok living a gay life
but there is something pure i came to feel of you
and you know what i am saying, without doubt
where we hide without too much pride
only LOVE
is all we constantly yearn to feel
and that is what is of the eternal day light divine self-awareness one 100% purely flawlessly healingly feels once they experience their eternal day
which i know you already have, even if you don’t know it
ya, the easy ride lie
that two hot sweaty loving lovers of ordinary working class stiffs feel every blessed thankful day for one another found in each other’s arms where they purely do constantly feel for what we unceasingly pray for others also to constantly feel, do as i do
i stay in time and watch you pass by, i draw the line, and hope you’ll take my side, you shouldnt have to fight alone, you shouldnt have to fight at all
from the pages of GayBoy emos
the purpose of life is to live it, to taste experience to the upmost. to reach out eagerly amd without fear for new and richer experience.
no body (purely) knows ‘me’ in order to (purely) love ‘me’ until such a time as they (purely) constantly R ‘me’
get run over bi a train?
really………………..
well we can arrange that if you want Biyatch! lol
personally, i find getting too consistently intimate with another is not comfortable for us, our space, our health space independance that for sure is healthy for us, considering the amount of reality life of our many years of the toxic effect of marriage……….which does not hold true for all, and even then, it is perfectly the light of truth revealed to us that individuals each blessed day they wake to, the accumulation of their entire life up to each blessed day there before us, which from a distance we purely empathize with the condition of their soul, but being married with them is allowing ourselves to overly feel the condition of their souls, which is ok, just not eternity, fuck
lol
good morning
as i have said before, with dYsfunctional partners, we purely empathize with what is of whatever issue left unchecked of what is ‘their’ life, not ours, and yet, waiting for a dYsfunctional to have sex with us once a fucking week at their chosen pace of dYsfunction, of lackluster boring sex at beast(read: you do all the work, may as well masterbate in a pure fantasy session that feels better), what happens is even with all the intellectualizing we can possibly do(think), we ‘feel’ their(not yours) dYsfunction in the form of rejection, which it is not, butt we ‘feel’ it that way, and when it cums to getting our ‘need’s met of the constant way we ‘want’ to always feel, you know, that special bubbling inside sweet anticipation of the clothes coming off before you even get in the door every day!
look OUT!!!!!!!!!!!
fuck!
you know, you really have to start looking OUT for your self, i can’t keep doing this all the time, i mean what if i AM not there one day for YOU when you step out in front of a train, or a bus, or whatever fucking bullshit fucking aimlessness that grips you like it distractingly does, you know, i AM not going to live forever, even though i live forever, and as much as i ALL-WAYS want to BE YOU……………..
did i just say that? BE YOU?
mmmmmmm……. i do
lol
bless you bless you bless you
i AM YOU
ya, we were their for each other when needed.
and always still
i love you
call me
Turning towards what is of our outward shining appearance of what is our meditative turning purely towards inward appearance that is there within, is of what purely is our divine self-love fearless confident self-awarenesness wisdom light that does encapsulate insulate and maintain our constant motivational unconditional love encouragement empowerment, by nature, our true nature, where truth is not able to faulter or fail, so long as we constantly turn towards truth.
where truth of untruths of the generational falsehoods, is constantly always the truth, as Jesus said, “Everywhere is the truth”, even of the truth of the untruth as regards the sacred mirror we wisely flawlessly purely have come to know in our eternal day light divine self radiant brilliant bright shining forth, indeed, lighting up the entire world, for sake of our own desire to constantly feel holy joyful absolute carefree happiness of our true nature divine child of God’s heart mind body spirit and soul set free, for sake of that of those we constantly are compassionate for of what is our empathy pure in feeling of their ‘lack’ in fortitude of what we now know.
our treasure
our life
what we have BEcome, the sacred mirror of Jesus within us all
bless you all
i always love this song of Whitney Houston, ‘Greatest Love of All’, that we have been doing as drag queens for years, in particular Chris Edwards, a black transexual drag queen here in Toronto, who, bless her soul, don’t know how the fuck she did it, but she did, during Pride Day parade, none other than Michael Jackson, sitting on top of a van thru the parade, that tears me up everytime i think about it, not just a black man, a black homosexual man, who i still say was transexual. blessings to Michael and all who purely did and do know him.
did i forget someone from the past?
‘me’?
well, no, not really, i AM always ‘me’ when alone, something i always maintained a sense of who i AM all thru the years, purely so within, in everything anyone every says/said or does/did, wisely grown in my descering abilities now sharply focused of what is the truth of all that i constantly purely feel as i have since childhood, as to what always felt false in self-reflection comparison to ‘me’, constantly knowing the difference of all the truths and untruths of our divine child of God’s heart mind body spirit and soul, of what i later came to fully realize, is the wise descerning compassionate loving faith Jesus has of us all, not faith we have in Jesus, no, the constant wise descering centering grounded anchoring compassionate loving faith shield of the heart mind body spirit and soul Jesus of us all, of our lips as the wise descerning holy sword of truth, in Jesus wisely saying, in our BEcoming of Jesus for sake of all those in unbecoming conduct, do as i do, as i AM
as i constantly AM is what is fully entering into the macro thinking wise descerning constant compassionate love devoid of doubt halo perspective kingdom of heaven, where our wisdom is our constant compassionate flawless loving feelings we feel when ever we feel the truth that is there before us of all souls who’s journey has not yet seen them arrive where we are, where we wait, in the kingdom of heaven, where i AM, alongside the most loving brothers and sisters on the planet that i have come to purely love know(mostly), of our worldwise LGBT community of ‘real’ family.
where purely who i AM is who they constantly are 2
and outside of our community, well, so are all YOU
but turn your backs on them, i cannot ever do, as i would have to turn my own back on who i AM
not possible
ever
who i purely know YOU are 2
bless you
there is no such thing as last say in the kingdom of heaven eternal day wise light sayings of the words of Jesus
that’s just foolish
and untrue
of any, of YOU
on we go
as one family
eternal all
every breath
every heartbeat
every step
every word
every blessed eternal day light of eternal all where time does stand still in the kingdom of heaven of us watching the all growing day after blessed day
who i AM
YOU
hey, could we get some tea in hear please!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol
that’s what best friends are fore
what they don’t yet know Jesus, is who i AM to you and you to ‘me’, what we both purely know within without doubt in our both saying harmoniously true, “I AM YOU”
of all YOU who have yet to BEcome who i AM
just ‘me’
humble annoying fun loving ‘me’
with a perfect ass
hey, Last Say, you wanna meet at the cafe?
come on, let’s play
on the world stage, where indeed, all the world is a stage, in the eyes of God, and all God’s divine blessed children of God’s heart mind body spirit and soul.
i remain purely true 2 YOU, true 2 ‘me’ when i do
as YOU do 2
argh………..cannot seperate one from the other, male from the female.
hey, maybe this is what Jesus means by when you, “when the 2 BEcome 1”, alot more fun.
or instead of two eyes, you see constantly descerning thru one wise eye, of the two we constantly see, truth and truth of untruths.
or how about the truth that there is no diffence between the male and the female?
2 BEcome 1
of so much more fun
now if i can just teach you how to BEcome a male
come one, for sure it is a long run of nothing butt fun!
ha
hey, what happened in the story of Job, did he finally get his treasure, his life?
did not read how the story ended
oh wait, the story does not end
eternal all who are there
“hi everyone!”
“Hey, can i talk to you guys in the future for a moment? Ok good. Can you do ‘me’ a favor? If her and i don’t hook up one day, can you give her that glaring stare knowingness that AndYY really did love her, and still does? Thanks”
“oh, and tell her i really AM the truth, the life, and the way for so many i know i AM! Ok thanks! bless you all”
it’s all the same, all around us, every blessed day, the same flawless feeling is constantly there, of the all making their way in life, not knowing their own constant purity love yet bound in useless untrue transference fears, our compassion at all times like we constantly feel like we do in purely feeling of the YOU of all YOU
LOVE
it feels as something stopped, it all just stopped for me, constant now in purity love graceful divine self of constant flowing flawless eternal love feeling at all times, the sacredness feeling of our life at all times, every blessed day we get to wake 2
alongside YOU and ‘me’, none of us different within, no matter the dim or brightness of their precious soul we want so much to glow like our own
hey, i really know how to say so long farewell, yes?
well, it doesn’t have to end, and you whY
and to BE sure, we both know we won’t
can’t stop won’t stop
who i AM
YOU and ‘me’
forever free to JUSt Go BE youR SELF!
so are you coming somDAY or what, fuck, i’ve been waiting to meet you since way back when!
fuck
what is going to take, Jesus showing up on the scene or something?
they would not recognize him if he did, now would they, their blind comprehension, and yet, their intuitive constant glowing love light is constantly our own, yes?
boastfulness and pride arrogance is not of Jesus, nor of us
although we do like getting into our flame matches!
you are the wise champion to ‘me’
im just hear to say to you, “Wisely well done, good work, keep on keeping one!”
you came back to us, purely now in know, family
and whY?
well, we both know whY, don’t we?
whY we pray so much like we do
the blessed pure love tears that easily flow for them all
such saps we both are
lol
i love you and miss you constantly
i have metl downs from time to time, same as you
well, ok, i really melt down, to let you thru, the gate into the kingdom of heaven, with that big fucking ass of yours!
LOL
ohhhhhhhh…….you better come meet ‘me’ someday, to sooth my precious soul like your own, i need you, i love you, you need ‘me’, you love ‘me’, like we all do
so silly why we did meet after all this time
and yet look what has come, Time Stands Still now
as God says, “Where are YOU running 2?
full comprehension now
by means of the flawless feeling constant flow of constant glow growing
i’m going out for a smoke
hey, i saw i pic of Brad Pitt smoking out back of the studio, looked like James Dean, did not know he smokes, does he still?
and what of this drinking bullshit i hear about him
no matter we are, the generational mad flood is there everyone
beware with care
or be of stare
for all those to clearly see the condition of your precious loving soul
someone slap in the head for ‘me’ WILL YOU?
thanks
bless you
love is true
constantly of 2
of all YOU
eternal all of BEcoming of God’s divine WILL wisdom, our WILL BE Done on earth of what heaven constantly is………..constantly YOU of 2 of all YOU
always was……….merely of already cosntant intuitive YOU of 2 of all YOU
welcome to the kingdom of heaven everyone
and no, that was not saying that, “It is Jesus who says this to all YOU, his eternal spirit that cannot die, BE Cause Jesus is constantly true, where truth does not change, cannot fail……..ever………constantly ‘that’ of what is true eternal all YOU
a mystery yet to some, and many yet to come
not 2 ‘me’
not 2 YOU
both of us constantly true blue
what we always knew
of love in our eyes that we cannot hide, and don’t want any more
as Jesus says, “Shine forth the eternal day light that breaks the binding chains of so many souls held in dark false captivity, our loving brothers and sisters who feel just as we constantly do.
bless you
they send me private videos of them happily kissing their boyfriends fearlessly with only love they contantly feel for one another, no more fear, i AM hear, to tell you what i know the truth of all YOU, in secret, their yet coming out to family and whoever, so radiant, so bright, so overlflowing in exceeding abundant holy joy like our own.
you reallly have to see some of these precious videos of our LGBT family, so happy to Just constantly BE all the time, the bubbling within i know all too well.
bless them all
Absolute Carefree Joyful Happiness bubbling within is how we all feel. The trick is not to be afraid of what others don’t purely know about us, as you know, they just don’t purely know how much we love like we purely do.
thank you
http://www.facebook.com/home.php?ref=home#/profile.php?id=1698775610&ref=profile
it this video does not bring tears of holy joy to you, you have no soul…….
ok hear, you can have your soul back now……
lol
so beautiful they are to me, constantly, and you know whY
every step
every breath
every heartbeat
every kind word
every soft touch
every blessed day
Holy Joy
thank you and bless you all
forever more
blessed
from around the entire world, different languages, and yet, you would know them as any different whatsoever of their constant love shining bright, eternal flow, what we so easily always know, come on, let’s go, you’re late!
lol
i take their pictures and add the rainbow to it for them to print and show their out friends.
Did one yesterday for one in Indonesia.
the light the keeps on keeping on shine bright
all of us coming together now
so amazing how it has all unfolded ovre so many years
and will continue as it has
growing
sowing
flowing
oh, i am not goint to say that………. lol
and hear is the thing, it is not just us who feel the light, everyone, across all the generational unwise divisional barriers feel it, no matter who you are, you will feel our light
so blessed in purely feeling
constant radiance brilliance bright
inspite of plight, darkness that fades away like it does, and leaves the room when we cum together
only da light
da lick table
huh, you wanna do it on the table?
ok
lol
‘real’ life
only God is able to fill the ‘lack’, our cup of divine self wisdom we drink from, our clarity that peers thru the truth of the generational untruths, the darkness that constantly serves as ligh, unknowingly, sadly of many yet asleep in generational binding dark held fast captivity ignorances(untruths) of their divine self constantly there who we see with clarity, by means of our flawless healed feelings, the eternal day, light of divine self eternal all, constantly there, of affect/effect/direct/indirect, across all divisional barriers of the yet unwise world, a child is born, all from the womb of God, who is constantly there, of constant care, wisely purely aware, God’s clarity, our clarity and ‘lack’, constant beware, constant care
eternal day
i love this video(you have to watch the whole thing to understand the message, the duality within us all, the foe, unaware, aware, the ‘lack’ that reveals aware to unaware useless duality brought to rest in eternal peace, our true nature, being is seeing
http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=143557727846
The Love YOU know is of SPIRIT ‘WILL’ GROW grow grow
and remake of an old song, a reflection of those in reflection of we turn towards and bring to show what love purely is within us all, the sacred mirroring light aglow abundant flow, of constant desire, what we know, purely so
ohhh….don’t be hatin on ‘me’, she has a powerful voice that resonates in many in reflection pure
we know what love is
love is what we know
merely of surrendering to what love constantly is, sometimes of blessed tears, compassion joy
not some ploy
within this boy
if you miss ‘me’, you ‘better well’ kiss ‘me’
no where left to hide, the process of LGBT
where we stop hiding something so beautiful within them all
of so many all i love as they do
do as i do
this is the right sound track for the slideshow, yes?
blessed joy love constant flow so easy to know……..’me’ 😀
the one who purely sees by means of our constant loving heart overflowing in abundance of absolute holy joy carefree happiness of 2
i always wondered why Jesus holds up two fingers like we do, like your photo of the champion you and i truly are that i love so much, that spoke purely to ‘me’ when i saw the two fingers of leather clad gloves, i knew what you were saying, same as Jesus says, that constant pure connectedness between 2 that is there within us all
i can only feel love of 2
at all times everywhere i go, even when alone, i am not ever alone in spirit, none of us are in truth, what is of the intuitive subconscious seeking constantly of the divine child of God’s heart mind body spirit our soul’s love of YOU of 2
it is there when we purely pray, of what prayer really is, surrendering to the grace of the divine child within all YOU, without doubt of YOU 2
bless you all
God is love
and we r all God’s child
kinda silly to think that Jesus was the only divine child of God, when we purely feel the words from his lips like we do, in every word, every breath, every heartbeat constantly in step of who Jesus knows without doubt who we all constantly r
the divine child of God eternal all here in the kingdom of heaven all around that we purely can see, merely by means of our flawless healing feelings YOU of 2, eternal day light that lights up not just the whole world, the whole world of eternal all yet to come purely of exactly what we constantly always are within, the truth, the way, and the blessed life, one generation of eternal day eternal all constantly there past present future of time stand still, ‘that’ of the divine child’s constant aspect true nature Love YOU know of SPIRIT ‘WILL’ GROW grow grow WILL!
hey, there is a sexual connotation in there, yes? 😀
don’t look at ‘me’, i didn’t create us to have sex, God did
remarkably actually, when you sit and feel the truth, that within us all is the eternal reproductive mechanism to create a human being blood line that can and does span eternally into the eternal all
of what is the true size of our motivation empowerment one can purely and easily feel in turning towards, as big as the universe is who we all constantly r within
the hidden treasure Jesus speaks of just how much blessed love is actually constantly there
the eternal all of the eternal universe that spans into eternal forever more
argh…………..i need to have sex with someone and not just think about it any more, this celibacy is doing something to my brain, now in overdrive…………..argh
hey, did you know the fastest most powerful computer is the human brain?
and Rosie says, “WHO KNEW?”
you know, i have always felt the purity of her love all this time, so pure and true, was not sure why, of why we cry, cannot ever say goodbye, that’s just not true of ‘me’ of YOU
hey, my poetry is coming along good, yes?
and as for YOU
i always knew
it was ‘me’ who we came to know who feels as YOU
do as i do
1 LOVE 2
“what time, i am free this weekend!”
argh…………………….my bisexual side that is always there for YOU
al-ways
i am not well, healthy is failing, somethings wrong with me, avoided the doctors far to long, my procrastination you know all too well, my greatest foe in life, ah, leave it for tomorrow, this generation is so lost!
or so i once thought
not anymore
i know what is of the constant love eternal spirits i feel like i purely do between Mary and Jesus, of constant love flow tears of them both who are there for how long was Jesus on the cross?
something a film won’t ever be able to convey to the world
but we can all visit Jesus eternally there on the other side of the door he stepped thru in exiting the physical realm, where you can easily find ‘me’ sitting beneath his cross, sometimes laying down, no where i would rather be in life than the love i have found of Jesus who found ‘me’ constantly there with him.
here is a strange thought, maybe Jesus feels ‘me’ in the future who he and Mary are without doubt i too would come to know the LOVE of 2, the only thing of any value in life, truly and without doubt, beyond all the riches of the worldly, of what escapes so many who God asks, “Where are you running 2?”
a deliberate cathardic prodding question for the divine child to ponder, of when they purely do, they come fully into awareness of their constant yearning love trueness aspect of 1 LOVE 2
Oneness Exact Sameness between Jesus, Mary and all YOU
their spirits come to ‘me’ in the night, sometimes when i am of fright, the world so scary for ‘me’ like it is
i used to think i was a paranoid schitz like my brother Warren, sadly institutionalized in chemical straight jacket, a broken hearted boy, of past reasons foe, his spirit that got caught in the mad flood generational drowning ignorances that left him half alive half dead that i witnessed like it did………………………….
in assessing his life, i feel that the purity of healing divine self-awareness wisdom ‘lack’ was what left his soul wide open to the generational drowning ignorances, not knowing what was happening to his blessed spirit yet there unattended in ways that only Jesus can attend to, and those of oneness sameness within eternal all.
been meaning to go spend quality time with him, see his radiant smile again return to him, of devoted blessed days of healing i know i am able to constantly be for him, good for ‘me’ in the end, of what we know, of spirit will grow grow grow
wisely so
turning to ‘that’ within
bless you
i love you and i miss you………..as you already know and r
‘me’
the greatest value of all in life, is time itself, where time stands still for those of constant LOVE 2, and why does time stand still you ask?
well, when love someone so purely as you do, you realize fully without doubt that you r of the constant yearning trueness aspect to not ever want the flowing healing feeling to ever end, and in truth, it does not end, where perhaps there are many in the future spiritually hear with us feeling the truth of the hidden treasure now found and revealed, the eternal day light of divine self that shines forth into the unwise world and pushes out all darkness with their hearts unwisely unknowingly snaringly there of so many sadly bound in dark captivity generational mad flood bitter fear binding blinding absurd useless ignorances of the forefathers who did/do not desire to know God, as evident of the forefathers who did/do not desire to purely know divine self, as evident in all they unwisely say and do, as Jesus says, “Look apon the truth that is constantly there, where the truth of the untruths of divine self trueness aspects such as exceeding grace replaced by bitter falsehood mean spirited ego foe, leave divine self of another unwisely unattended unnutured and unprotected for all to feel with clarity the truth that is there, where all untruthfulness is, you WILL not find ‘me’.
pure clarity now of turning fully to Spirit ‘Will’ grow grow grow
grow damn it!
ah fuck it, im taking a shower, you can do your self!
it’s healthy you know, to masturbate when even in a relationship, according to experts, so let your partners pleasure themselves everyone, of how we all started out in coming to purely know ‘me’
you know, since coming to the LGBT community, i found was so open about fearless speaking of all my once held secret sexual explorations, like the time…………….oh i can’t tell you this one, tabloids would have a field day for sure!
hey, do you think Jesus masturbated?
i always wonder about ‘that’
only seems nature that he did
i think he found his purity love inner romancing object of pure desire love of others, during in his secret places of joyful masturbation while alone so long in the desert as reported how often he went off alone, him not saying a word to those of his object of desire he loved so purely as he did, light so bright it awakened them fully in mirroring of themselves apon his return, the exclaiming, “Why are you so radiant Jesus?”
Jesus saying, “Who AM i most like?”
yet another cathardic deliberate prodding for them to explore the truth of what he knew without doubt was of their own secret masturbation sessions of so much inner joy exploding all over the fucking place!
argh………………………..must be all the bathhouse sex i got addicted to…………….ya, maybe…………..cannot hide, i mean why hide such an incredible beautiful purely graceful floating across the room like a ghost of a body as mine?
oh, i came across another indicator of an eternal spirit entering into the one called Jesus who surrendered to what Jesus actually spoke of, “Come that i may show you an invisible eternal spirit.”
so in other words, Jesus did know about his channeling abilities in his study like my own, where i too am without doubt clairvoyance exists, and spirits to, that do visit me in my house of doom and gloom, where the lotus flower needs the mud it cathardically pushes thru, rechanneling of fear i learned works in my study of the spirit realm, as though one wants to desperately leave their body fearfully so, of my own deliberateness in meditative laboratory of study, ………i know, abit of an obsessed scientist i AM
chasing ghosts
only to learn, the ghosts are all coming before ‘me’
angel ghosts pure in spirit oneness as my own, where all the angels who visit are of oneness of ‘me’ learning what they are teaching about ‘me’ who choses to see with clarity flawless feeling
i don’t think many there are, who are cut out in this kind of research at my level of comprehension
and yet, many there constantly intuitively are, who are cut out in this kind of research as in outcasts
sacred reasoning of sacred seasoning, (summer/winter) of warm spirits blow
we know
on we go
“reach for ‘that’ which i AM unable to reach fore”, Jesus says
ya, unable to reach my fearless level of expressing myself, eh Jesus?
Jesus smiles knowingly, i purely do know him without doubt
can’t hide from ‘me’ Jesus, i know YOU the same way YOU know ‘me’ by means of so easily purely turning fully now to who i AM
just ‘me’, same as all YOU 2
therapsist would have a field day with ‘me’, yes?
they do actually, where we all laugh our asses off time and again, so purely in just being our ‘real’ self and all the morons who obviously have such a fearful time in doing so.
ah well, the light of eternal day constantly is shining bright now, of holy joy light constantly there, in the eyes of all who stare, exclaiming, “What the fuck is wrong with those 2 of none stop insane hysterical falling of their chairs laughing all the time!”
can you picture the two of us together, of none who actually get us, in our own world of how we see them all hidding from who we know we constantly always r?
i AM ‘me’
‘me’ of th’em’
you just need to turn them around sometimes and well, you know what they WILL want to do next!
BE like YOU!
1 LOVE 2
SOMEBODY LOVE ‘ME’ DAMN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
oh, there you r
i was wondering where you went
into and from the sanctuary of God’s angels sent comes forth those of eternal day oneness sameness radiant brilliant bright, behold and praise forever more, those who r just like YOU, the ‘real’ YOU
forever more eternal all
my anchor is YOU 2
can you tell i AM drunk from the bubbling stream that pours forth from their pure hearts shining so bright?
i love facebook!
i can like have 100,000 people in no time
get it?
no time?
time stands still?
for all those without ill?
are you still on the pill?
AM i jack or jill?
and which one fell down the hill?
it was Jack, wasn’t it?
laughing his motherfucking ass off after breaking his ego crown into pieces in knowing the obvious truth, we are all the same, all from the womb of God
all the divine child of God
faith Jesus has purely true of all YOU
bless you bless you bless you all
forever more
peace be to this house
peace be to you
and peace be to you
argh………that songs gets to ‘me’, cuts right thru ‘me’ purely so, of all we of Love YOU know of wise turning towards SPIRIT ‘WILL’ GROW grow grow
purely cathardic devoted intuitive work WELL done
all as ONE
for those of you in the future looking back apon we who are hear, of our current coming together as ONE world, please know, it was not easy, where many fell along the path, in our coming free of the generational mad flood ignorances, as you all look apon what did unfold for us of our yet unknowing what the future holds for us all banding together now as ONE
at some point we had too, during the coming of age of our world becoming aware of the sufferings of others we purely came to know in our what was our cathardic experience in coming fully in knowing our own divine self, by means of each other so freely to expore each other the world over, thru our telecommications that now span globe here in the second mellinia.
the most powerful instrument of God’s instruments of our WILL created that did span across and thru the old generational ignorant divisional seperation barriers of all race, religion, sex, orientation, status, wealth, political, merely of great entertainment with one another daily, where right now, more people are tuned into the internet on a regular daily basis than those of watching tv, the shift of acting entertainment with that of ‘real’ life preferrence like we now are, where we purely came to know, a dear friend of mine in Asia who taught his grandmother of no English language, to say “Fuckers!”, and “Motherfucker!” in English, the most hillarious thing we have ever seen, hear, let me get you the clip!
i had nothing to do with it, i sware
Alvin is my closest spiritual internet friend online, of both waiting for the other, our wise oneness spirituality so easy between us aglow, natural at ease fun loving so.
of course, her gay grandson did not tell grandma what she was prodded into yelling over and over again in the camera in her first pronouncing of the words she had yet ever uttered.
i can’t stop laughing over this one!
http://www.facebook.com/friends/?filter=fra#/video/video.php?v=162980735780&ref=mf
you may want to sit down before watching that one, or fall down from laughter when you do.
fair warning
easily Madonna is in better physical shape than Lady Gaga, not to mention her finely tuned in(as per usual), spiritual connectedness of the all, not ever aimless, no, wise
what is it with Gaga anyway i hear so much about, is it gaga gaga like an infant entering the kingdom of heaven?
i think/feel/want/need AM so
lol 😀
The Celebration release is huge for any new comers to the scene in their tapping into their self-love true power nature within in overcoming the whatevers!
we all need each other
we all want each other
we all feel each other
we all think each other
we all grow each other
we all flow each other
we all b
oh damn, that word keeps coming UP for ‘me’
im never going to get with you………..oh wait, why don’t you get the sex change and then we wood both be so friggin happy, more so than now?
just thinking OUT loud…………..lol
perhaps we are not so much what we think we r, and rather r what we think?
i AM what YOU think i AM 2
Dear Madonna,
I am 50 years old and I am observing your work during all those years of your fantastic career. Me and my husband, we are your fans. Many times I am thinking about you to contact you trough internet. But now first I collect some courage to write to you. As you: I have a motivation to help the world and also to you. To feel better. Because good feeling are also beauty that last forever. You are beautiful as person and in spite of years that harm our skin, body, so that we get tired, you can do something for yourself. To slow down the time which cause to us to get older, you can make change with reflexotherapy. But not Thai massage which is a little rough but gently massage which do no harm to our body just good feeling. I recommend to you this therapy which give a human body miracle results. The tranquillity come in flesh and soul. The person feels better, our energy flows up and joy of life grows up. Please read on internet pages all about reflexotherapy and upon reflection you can decide to use that or not.
A lot of health, good feelings, success and love we wish to you and your relatives and friends who you love- wish to you all nice things: Biserka and Matija from Slovenia, Europe
excellent Biserka! bless you
this is my favorite dance song right now
the link works, it just won’t play imbedded anywhere………
feel what it is that you purely constantly yearn to always feel
“And no i AM not talking about your dick in my ass!!!!!!!!!!!!”
…………..well, ok, ‘that’ 2
i love the spanish guitar in this remix!
such a pure powerful song of our oneness spiritedness that spans the globe of one generation evolving across all time into the distant future, who we know many there will struggle with their inner transferance struggles that stem from the generational mad flood drowning ignorances of death destruction and oppression of the holy joyful absolute carefree happiness of the divine child of God’s heart mind body spirit and soul of eternal all YOU who are there.
bless you and peace be to you all who are constantly loved and loving of one another, just as Jesus and God constantly love all YOU
forever more
Andy, bless You too!
truth of all untruths manifesting everywhere thru those not awake in their mixed light that flows thru them, to and fro, asleep in binding ignorances, of what is all their subconscious behavioural stuckness they generally stay as, easy to feel the condition of their souls unwisely unattended, of what is their greatest foe, “Crucial Lack of Desire to know God’s divine self wisdom, where it is God who 100% purely and truly knows ‘me’ of all eternal, of what is my earnest steadfast internalizing becoming oneness comprehension with God’s unfailing truth that breaks all the binding chains of the generational mad flood drowning ignorances.”
God is my best friend who warns me of everything to expect from every single one of you who do not purely desire to truly 100% know ‘me’, as evident by everything all you shall ever say or do at all times, the condition of all souls who come before me where i wisely dwell, in the eternal kingdom of heaven with Jesus who says, “They will eventually betray you, betraying only themselves when they do, unknowingly, unwisely, our compassion for eternal all lost in the abyss of the generational mad flood drowning ignorances, asleep in ignorance.”
who’s light is this i speak of and for as an instrument that belongs 100% to God?
God’s eternal day divine true ‘real’ self light of what is my eternal day where time stands still, unafraid of any of you in all your wretched unwise approach with ‘me’ forever more
Michael sums up how you left me to feel this day, and i am happy to walk on in life now, unbound forever more free to Just BE my divine eternal day self, without concern for anything any of you have to ever say of me ever again.
I will not let any of you come close enough to hurt me ever again, until such a time of my choosing, where it is you who has to come fully 100% in surrendering to your own eternal day light of divine self first in order to do so.
i will publish the teachings annonymously for the entire world to read in all languages.
bless you and peace be to you all
now where did i leave that one who is dreaming of ‘me’ as though in love with ‘me’?
argh….they will find ‘me’ eventually
how do you know you have a true friend?
when they speak emotionally honest of purely being at ease as their relaxed true ‘real’ divine child of God’s heart mind body spirit and soul of eternal all self oneness sameness Biyatches!
you make me want to SCREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
God bless you Michael
forever more
you kicked ‘me’ down for the last time, final round, you win, i don’t want to fight any more with a cheater of your own divine self
argh…..im turning into a fucking drama queen…… lol
BEcoming fully 100% your divine ‘real’ self at all times is NOT a competition
rather it is a constant challenge to stay tuned into the higher self-awareness in using our higher subtle intellect feelings of how others feel around us, where we are always in charge of our adjustable flexible boundaries we wisely set according to US.
and remember, it is only you who kicks you our of heaven with ‘me’ Jesus and God, not ‘me’, not Jesus, not God, YOU
OUT
kicks you OUT ^
get OUT Biyatches!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol
how do i keep mis-spelling that fucking word.
someone called a crack addict…….can you fucking believe that?
you sure, maybe i have too much fucking coffee somedays, and i get all fuckedup from whatever bullshit is going on in my fuckedup life, but no thanks to drugs Biyatches!
hey, that’s fine with ‘me’, if that’s your excuse you want to use to justify your own lame ass fucked approach with ‘me’
fine
be that way
and who do you leave hurting?
fucking morons, i am so done trying to talk to morons who cannot even hold a conversation with me in all their limited limited limited narrow afraid in the fucking darkness of emptiness attention span voids they fall into, sadly unknowingly of the one who wisely comes before them.
Jesus, God and ‘me’ Biyatches!
my boots are laced
and i stand 100% certain in knowing who i purely and truely AM according to Jesus and God.
not according to any of you, no
according to Jesus and God
the only god damn trustworthy enough friend i ever made along life’s road, and still, the only god damn friend i want to talk to right now!
fuck whiny ass fucking jerkoff run away scared of themselves excusing excusing no love for you Andy, please go away
oh ohhhh! Hiliary Swank is hear again………oh fuck………..
hey, you know what, “FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”
[leather clad gloves, giving the finger…………again………..]
somebody have some god damn fun with this script……..if it even warrants fucking reading, with half the god damn class asleep in ignorance, skipping OUT and down the god damn street, prancing away with………….WOW WOW WOW……….did you see the hottie?
holy fuyck!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol
grrrrrrrrr……….im going to get laid, be back……………….when ever i god damn feel like coming back here, and for what?
fuck fuck fucking fuckedup fuckity fucked FUCKERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol
oh you are probably fucking lowsy in bed anyway…….why the fuck should i care for someone who makes excuses to fucking me anyway.
fuck this for the last fucking time
im fucking tired of this fucking trainging ok?
im going to have a shower at the spa and let who ever wants to fuck me, fuck my fucking ass off Biyatches, and me theirs!!!!!!!!
ya bunch a useless whiny small limp dick big ass Biyatches!
“ya, FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”
lol
my friend is going to make it, thinks and talks sensible, aware, awake, out of denial, but his junkie friend likely won’t, someone close to him, the empending death that is likely what will wake him wide awake……for good.
or, i bust both their stupid asses and put them back for another year…………hmmm……ya, let’s do that
argh……..you know, i am still realizing how much i deeply love Michael.
profoundly
purely
without doubt
fearless unafraid of expressing emotional honesty
healthy and necessary to stay healthy
everyone should go outside and scream as loud as they can from time to time
or find a best friend you can scream your ass off like i do, as the need arises, and if she kicks me in the balls again, well, i likely deserve it……………
argh………fuck………….that fucking hurt!
“you you you and you up against the fucking wall fuckers!”
“NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”
lol
you didn’t learn a god damn thing the first time, so, enjoy your second stay Biyatches!
or is it third…….forth?
oh just get them the fuck out of my sight!
i said to one kid the other day, “You wanna know why i do this kid? For sake of YOU.”
cannot teach anyone who has no respect for ‘me’
and to be sure, i AM not going to waste my time anymore with those who are deaf, too asleep in binding ignorances
i will say this though, i 100% know without doubt i AM fully awake and aware in the eternal day light God speaks with ‘me’ about in telling ‘me’, “You have seen and purely felt the eternal day light of your divine self, and are without doubt, so why are you yet troubled then by others who you know are yet asleep, as you once were, in generational binding blinding generational mad flood ignorances?”
and i said to God, in my meditative chamber alone, “Forgive ‘me’, i know, and thank you. Thank you Jesus for being hear. Thank you all(a miriade of thousands of angles too numerous to count) for being hear. There is great work yet to do, wisely so of what we all purely know, and are without doubt as regards the generational mad flood drowning ignorances of he forefathers all around us. I am yet contending with shedding of my old self ways with others, as you know, where i am without doubt in pure knowingness of what yet grips the unwise world we are all born into. Forgive ‘me’, and thank you for always being hear for ‘me’ in our oneness exact sameness united eternally forever more. bless you all.”
my relationship with Jesus, God and the miriade of many angels, all of us of oneness sameness thinking and pure emotional constant flow certainty love devoid of the useless doubt yet found in the world that no longer binds me when i enter into the chamber alone with God and all those who are there. The feelings is purely the most powerful feeling of all, not of imagination either, of angels who speak with ‘me’ in pure angelic clairvoyance voices, where two of the angles gasped one time of a question they asked of me, so purely was they felt as i did too in becoming purely of the oneness sameness constant flowing love between of emotional honesty, the only way you can open to channeling in clairvoyance with the angels who are there.
The chamber is constantly available for me now, and is the most blessed thing in life for me, always there for me to return to where ever and when ever i want.
Being out in the world pushes me out of the purity flowing constant love devoid of doubt, and it is this constant meditative awareness a walk about as that assists my learning of what are the numerous falsehoods i write about in exploring like i love to do.
Truly rewarding spiritual work that started out merely as a curiosity, now a full surrendering to what is beyond all the riches of the world.
There are things about God i am looking into that may be hard to believe for some, and in truth, God is not revealing the truth of my speculations of what God is, where i do speculate that some intelligent alien life force entity is what God is, who does know what is this place we call the universe.
Purely, they are with me spiritually, and i don’t care who calls me crazy, so long as, “Somebody fucking calls ‘me’………..FUCK!!!!!!!!!!” lol
interesting, yes?
oh, and yes, sex is the most healthy thing for us to do, spiritually, purely of our constant divine pure loving self with another, or even alone, all healthy, in what is your own coming fully into oneness exact sameness letting go of all falsehood in surrendering to purely Just BEing YOU
bless you all-ways
oh fuck you, you can run all you want, can’t hide from ‘me’………ever Biyatches!
ok…..have a nice night…….
this is fucking nuts! omg! LOL
i AM the small black and white cat standing up taunting you fearlessly, until you, the big cat, pummel me senseless……….
with clothes off please!
made ya smile
i did not deserve that, to be made to feel as though nothing, just another childish fucking mind fuck game that unwisely thinks it can destroy the purity of my souls constant knowingness that i am deserving of only love.
you betray only you in such wretched treatment of ‘me’ that you obviously do take delight in paining another so fucking heartlessly, leaving me to wonder why i even give a fuck at all for the way you treat ‘me’
enjoy you fucked wretchness without ‘me’ then, i deserve only love with someone who is fearlessly unafraid to purely and truly constantly love ‘me’ as i constantly do them of what heaven constantly is of two magical lovers who know they are in love.
im leaving, and you sit there your whole life for all i care, of my hand the eternally extends for the one fearless in purely knowing who i AM within them.
i played these childish mind fuck games as a teen, with lameass immature ones then, not any more.
you go against God and your own divine self in being so fucking immature with ‘me’
and God reminds ‘me’ constantly that i AM the truth of one who knows i AM deserving of only love and wise fearless approach of the pure loving divine self of another with the divine child of God’s heart mind body spirit and soul of eternal all i AM
fine
i will leave you with your childish boundary and shall not return here ever again until such a time you tell ‘me’ the truth i already know i AM worthy of better treatment than the way you chose to cowardicely treat ‘me’.
and if i decide to speak with you at some future point of your surrendering to the divine self i AM, in approaching ‘me’, don’t waste my time i useless chatter of what you purely want need think and feel of ‘me’ like you have for so long, of not even feeling i deserve a normal fucking FUCKING conversation like every god damn fucking person on the planet……….EXCEPT YOU………knows i fucking deserve.
GOD KNOWS THE TRUTH of how fucking sick i AM of YOU and all your fuckling pettiness, for this being the very last time i will tolerate it ever again from any of you who enjoy being mean spirited with your empty nothingness void devoid of love, the poison bitter cup you offer me to drink from.
i do not drink from your empty cup, nor shall i, of others who offer me a sweet cup so easily to drink from and be with like so many loving brothers and sisters i AM
can you not for once speak emotionally honest with one who has only wanted to hear the truth of what you want need think and feel?
wait long enough, and i will find another of greater fearlessness who will make me forget about you each blessed day of happiness we wake 2
you have one opportunity left to speak the truth with ‘me’ and only one.
so be sure you come prepared in what you have to finally say to ‘me’ who will listen one last time before walking away for good.
and if silence is going to be your answer, well, i’ve seen people kill themselves over such wretched approach with others, ok?
so you need not wonder what i think of anyone who is of this bullshit treatment towards who i know i AM
where it is God who warns me what to expect in this bullshit fucked world from most any of you who do not desire to know God, just as is evident in all your wretched approach with your own divine self, divine self of another.
make no mistake, none of you shall ever become wretchedly victorious of my pure heart mind body spirit and soul of eternal all
cast fire on me, and it is you i shall pass by in leaving you to feel the truth of your own wretched words and emptiness way with ‘me’ for all the world to purely see and feel with clarity of the truth you constantly are at all times.
we could of been the most radiant brilliant bright best friends in life, what you always wanted, which is why i don’t understand you at all some days.
i mean who the fuck wants to feel unloved for even one god damn second like you make me feel like you have for so god damn long, as though i am not even worthy to talk to?
who the fuck gets off on being that way and who the fuck honestly enjoys being treated so horrid anyway?
oh yeah, that would be ‘me’ again, the one who would rather be fucking dead than to ever ever ever again be left to feel the wretched cold i am not going to ever allow you to treat me like you have for so long……….EVER AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i have absolute zero tolerance left now
you are grossly arrogant
according to God
perhaps i overly esteemed you as one most loving in life, as the one who has treated me the fucking worse!
i despise what God tells me to despise
the light of TRUTH i AM that humiliates entirely because it is the TRUTH
and if you come at me with ego again, it will be the last time, where i will puke it out one last time and walk away to brighter day, so do what God does in searching your hearts people, before saying anything unloving, where i cannot fucking believe some of you actually do think that i deserve you fucking illness treatment so vile, so wretched, SO NOT TRUE of who i AM
God’s divine child
with God’s robe of divine wise descerning light armor that none of you are able to penetrate so unwisely like some of you actually think you can destroy the truth of who i AM of eternal all
blessed is the divine child of God eternal all forever more
bless you
however long you need, i will wait to listen to you one last time, in person, not hear.
my therapist says i will not gain the truer respect of a person via the internet, to stop with what alot of it is, cyber bullying, and ya, you are cyber bullying me now, congrates on that one.
is this TRUTH forgivable by God?
well, not according to a dead 13 year old who killed himself as a result of cyber bullying.
zero tolerance
looking back i can’t believe how i allowed myself to be allowed to be left to feel as though i am not deserving of the best, just as i am doing now, and that is the thing, i allow it, i give the green light that it o fucking k………….
i am to blame
for my own fucking pain
in letting any of you ever make me feel like fucking shit
you can all keep it
blessed radiant brilliant bright light of eternal day beams brightly within me now, and none shall ever again be able to cause it to become like the dim falsehood of so many of you are, and don’t even realize how you feel to others of the way you are.
already i AM the eternal day that draws those of oneness sameness to ‘me’ where i AM without doubt of the eternal day light of divine self i purely constantly feel like i do of others.
be anything less, and i don’t know you, and why would i want to?
and hey, if you are too egotistically busy, well, already i AM everything i shall ever need, as others know, and from this day forward, i AM purely going to be what i constantly AM
fearless divine will courage is within us all of what matters most in life, our constant flowing flawless healing love feelings some of us allow ourselves to always feel and be, what is of the divine child of God’s heart mind body spirit and soul of eternal all within us all…….YOU
God’s divine WILL, our WILL BE Done on earth what heaven constantly is……YOU
beautiful how fearlessly pure is the constant radiant brilliant bright eternal day light of the divine child of God within all eternal.
and that is what is the divine WILL objective of God is, to come fully into the eternal day wise light of constant loving YOU
forever more
God knows, just as we know, this world is of the ‘lack’ of loving compassionate wisdom that pushes out all darkness of apathy ignorance and hate.
What you turn towards you become at all times
Where your heart is there too is your treasure and your life at all times
Turn towards the hidden treasure reward within YOU of constant flowing flawless healing feelings of your divine true ‘real’ self as you do, of what you know without doubt, the truth revealed by means of what you constantly feel and are, the divine child of God, and already you know that it is your flawless healing love feelings that is beyond all the riches of the useless absurd worldly led astray from purely and truly know who you constantly are, our compassion for those who do not know, our wisdom that wisely descerns of those who do not know, our constant flowing flawless love radiant brilliant bright eternal day light shining thru and of YOU, the sacred mirror of the divine child of God eternal all YOU
blessed is the divine child of God YOU forever more
bless you bless you bless you all
i AM the sacred mirror, merely seeking the one who dreams of ‘me’ as though they are in love with ‘me’
anything that i feel as less, well, that is not the one for ‘me’, of where ever one may be in their evolving processing to where i already AM in my self-actualized atonement of the wise compassionate loving divine child of God of eternal all YOU forever more
i ask of God, “Who is this one who dreams of ‘me’ as though they are in love with ‘me’?”
thank you God
thank you Jesus
thank you eternal all YOU
blessed YOU
forever more
peace be to this house
peace be to you
and peace be to you
bless you all
i’ve made a decision to take charge of my life now……
i’ve decided i am not coming back hear any more, getting out of this stuckness i have been of for so long now…….deserving of better ‘real’ treatment of ‘real’ lovers and ‘real’ friends who are fearless in holding my hand……..at the urging of my most wise therapist who sees thru all of you who have mistreated ‘me’
your loss in not purely and truly desiring to know and love ‘me’, ‘me’ of yourself, ‘me’ of others.
fucking people and all their egotistic fucking bullshit……..keep it
who could possible ever enjoy your toxic emptiness dysfunctional neglect?
to be sure…..”I don’t.”
thank you Scottie
bless you
i will post my writtings annonymously that you may stumble apon in blessed path ahead some day…..but not here in wretched untruthfulness shall you ever find ‘me’ again.
ok
bless you all
thanks for the bashing Mark
Don’t be so cheap, you can pay for a better blog.
which is not to say a sense of purpose and fullfillment is not to be embrassed in BEcoming the divine will of God, our will BE Done on earth in what heaven constantly is, YOU
a sense of purpose and fullfillment are words that discribe guideposts we can utilize in maintaining our focus on the path to fully entering in BEcoming the outward appearance of what is our transitioning thru our fear of what is inward appearance of the divine child of God within pure and true of the intuitive subtle higher intellect divine self-awareness, which is to say, of the subconscious we all constantly are of within, where the transition into eternal day light, is exactly that, transitioning thru our fear(that stems from the unwise world that does not celebrate, cannot be of priority celebrate so long as they are yet asleep/subconscious in generational bound ignorance) in fully BEcoming wide awake conscious cognitive self-actualized authentic true ‘real’ YOU at all times.
yes, of course, our wisdom knows we can expect most any to be of the masks we all utilize in hidding behind, which is 100% normal, all of us at somewhere on the scale of evolving restoration of the intuitive we are all born as in BEcoming the wide awake conscious divine child of God by means of the divine wisdom of God’s divine will meant for eternal all YOU.
at all times we have to always be of wise embracing that the objective of God is not for sake of just YOU, rather is always for sake of the eternal all YOU in what is the wise escape out of the generational mad flood ignorances we know without doubt are indeed binding blinding in nature in what is of all unwise falsehood snarings of heart mind body spirit and soul in all deathful, destructive, and oppressive of the pure and true holy joyful absolute carefree happy spirited YOU of eternal all.
the dimensions of the out of the mud(lotus flower) evolving growth into eternal day light of divine self priority appreciation is collective of the entire world of all divine children born from the womb of God into the yet unwise world at all times, as well as being fully awake in what is of the collective of all souls past present future.
*ya, gulp is right*
we are talking about omnipotence hear, are we not?
over many years i utilized therapists who helped me establish guide posts as regards my becoming aware of my unwise decision making in chosing healthy friends and in setting of my adjustable flexible boundaries, and indeed, i felt directly the results of wiser mature decision making, in retrospect of what were all my unwise decisions of the first half of my life, that did see failed relationship after failed relationship, most because of my self-medication with alcohol, a learned behaviour from the unwise forefather household i grew up in……….
beyond the guide posts in coming fully into our eternal day radiant brilliant bright enthusiastic holy joyful absolute carefree happy spiritedness, is the fearlessness of constantly enjoying the blessed flawless healing feelings of love devoid of useless absurd unwise doubt we do eventually become fully aware of that we are indeed constantly feeling what has always been of the constant yearning intuitive knowingness certainty of the divine child eternal all born from the same place, the same way, at the core of what is our constant oneness exact sameness, merely of lack in what is the divine will of God’s divine self-awareness articulation wisdom in purely and truly, constantly, nurturing, awakening and eternally protecting the divine child in their ability to remain always of the constant flowing of flawless healing feeling that purely constantly is the divine child within eternal all YOU
in other word’s, constant yearning to always feel our inner pure and true intuitive happiness, is what is of the objective of God’s wise divine WILL.
from a personal perspective as regards my own life, i have come fully into my divine self-love awareness, mentally, emotionally, physically, sexually and spiritually speaking, all bound together in what is our constant wholeness flawless healing feeling by means of internalizing/cultivating/inviting the wise divine WILL wisdom to myself, as one who did experience first hand up close and personal the toxic affect/effect/direct/indirectness of the falsehoods that do stem from the mad flood generational drowning ignorances, of such things as hypocrisy heart of others, that is belittling and condescending in feeling, such as my own family telling my partner and i that we are not welcome to sit at the Christmas dinner table with my own god damn fucked family…….argh……..that one still gets to me after all this time……………my aunt apon hearing of such absurdness coming to our rescue in handing us the keys to her mansion for Christmas, where my partner and i woke alone in supposed celebration of Christmas……argh fuck, i don’t even want to talk about how that felt and yet feels………….me of all people who love’s and purely knows Jesus more than my own family celebrate, ha, imagine that, how would that look on film i wonder, i mean, who has the courage to even go where i AM? lol
anyway, coming away from the experience, in trying to not feel harsh, albeit harsh, i was already fortunate enought to have internalized sufficiant wisdom of God that speaks of the mad flood generational falsehood drowning ignorances, where prior i entertained what those ignorances felt like introspectively in my retrospective thinking of the past, yet again, dealing with the bitter foul tasting cup offered to us to drink as they did, casting it from me, in purely intuitively knowing without doubt, ah, yes, the generational mad flood drowning ignorant ones bound in blind bitter falsehood ignorances, hmmmm, i feel sorry for yOu all.
purely i do, mostly for others like myself who experience first hand what this feels like, who are without the wise helmsman of what is falsehood inability to purely constantly be what is of their already intuitive knowingness that only love feels good enough for the divine child of God eternal all YOU
where some do kill themselves over those of YOU who are yet foolishly asleep in dark bitter held in captivity ignorances like they do, leaving so many of you to wonder why at the grave side, where were of all your words with your son, daughter, brother, sister, uncle, aunt, mother, father, friend, friend of friends…………..
ok, so hear we all are today, where the words of Jesus do escape even those of the highest places and paths in the world of what are all you merchant’s of God’s words, who do not purely desire to feel what it is that we of the LGBT community are now wiser than you are in purely coming fully awakened as the wise divine child of God’s heart mind body spirit and soul, more so than you yet comprehend of appreciation in what you cannot appreciate until such a time as you comprehend, sadly, of what is yet of your own loved ones who do kill themselves in leaving you all to wonder the TRUTH of why.
Bruised is how i feel, and have for along time, only now the bruising is scaring over with in the heavy heavy wise armore i picked up from God’s armory, God’s divine wisdom of ‘me’, a wise divine child of God, according to Jesus and God, and none of YOU who do not purely know Jesus and God, without doubt like the way i have purely and truly explained.
i like this song, that attempts to discribe what is of all our angst by a fellow musician subconsciously seeking just as we all constantly are.
i will write more with you, and i do want to apologize for my innappropriateness with you, as a dear friend i know i AM to you, and constantly always want to BE. There are exacting reasons that have little to do with you, although there are expectations i have within that i wanted to see come to light in a ‘real’ life friendship with you, that i don’t feel bad about having, considering what are all the dreams of the boy dreaming inside who knows who he purely is at all times, of the same dreams all of you too dream. I will speak further at a later time, merely asking that you do not be troubled by what is my own emotional baggage processing, more to do with me, less to do with you, my wanting you to grow to the highest place of inner happiness i already am of awareness of, in yet transitioning fully into applying what is my awareness wisdom in fully BEcoming wide awake consciousness, as is evident of my fearless stream of conscious writting, yes? :mgreen:
remember, it is about God returning to this unwise world, and that has to purely embrassed in what is of my greatest challenge personally with all of you, who i know i AM and have been BEcoming, a surrendered (monk) life alone to Jesus and God, merely wishing to express what are of all my findings of the blessed path i walk along side with eternal all YOU
bless you all
hear is the bruised song, with what i love the most, the guitar playing(and the guitarist!). lol
purely a beautiful song that resonates with our pure flawless healing feelings like it truly and purely does, yes?
I’ve got my things, I’m good to go
You met me at the terminal
Just one more plane ride and it’s done
We stood like statues at the gate
Vacation’s come and gone too late
There’s so much sun where I’m from
I had to give it away, had to give you away
And we spent four days on an
Island at your family’s old hotel
Sometimes perfection can be
It can be perfect hell, perfect…
Hours pass, and she still counts the minutes
That I am not there, I swear I didn’t mean
For it to feel like this
Like every inch of me is bruised, bruised
And don’t fly fast. Oh, pilot can you help me?
Can you make this last? This plane is all I got
So keep it steady, now
Cause every inch you see is bruised
I lace my Chucks, I walk the aisle
I take my pills, the babies cry
All I hear is what’s playing through
The in-flight radio
Now every word of every song
I ever heard that made me wanna stay
Is what’s playing through
The in-flight radio, and I
And I am, finally waking up
Hours pass, and she still counts the minutes
That I am not there, I swear I didn’t mean
For it to feel like this
Like every inch of me is bruised, bruised
Don’t fly fast. Oh, pilot can you help me?
Can you make this last? This plane is all I got
So keep it steady, now
Cause every inch you see is bruised, yeah
So read your books, but stay out late
Some nights, some nights, and don’t think
That you can’t stop by the bar
You haven’t shown your face here since the bad news
Well I’m here till close, with fingers crossed
Each night cause your place isn’t far
And hours pass, and hours pass, yeah, yeah…
Yeah, yeah, she still counts the minutes
That I am not there, I swear I didn’t mean
For it to feel like this
Like every inch of me is bruised, bruised
And don’t fly fast. Oh, pilot can you help me?
Can you make this last? This plane is all I got
So keep it steady, now
Cause every inch you see is bruised, bruised, bruised
our oneness compassionate heart YOU and ‘me’, yes?
i love all of them, just as i know you purely and truly do too.
bless you all
is merely who we purely all constantly r
LOVE
guitar, one of my favorite resonating ways of divine self expression.
and that is the thing with the passion of a guitarist, i AM, so r YOU, is the constant yearning knowingness awareness of our LOVE in turning towards fearlessly feeling of our loving emotions, and to evoke what we want others to feel the way we constantly yearn to always feel, knowing they do, perhaps just not at the awareness level of the amount of time we do dwell in fearless constant desire in just BEing who we all r
LOVE
LOVE is the POWER of the ALL that lifts the ALL out of hell into the flawless healing constant feeling LOVE devoid of doubt in God’s divine WILL wise perspective KINGDOM of HEAVEN YOU
bless you bless you bless you all
i AM yet flawed in my perfection restoration salvation from the mad flood generational drowning ignorances that did nearly take my life several times.
thank you for purely understanding the wise TRUTH of ‘that’.
behavioural modification
anger management
i take it all seriously
the quiet kid, his head down in group therapy, constantly taking notes for future reference, the quality of having the most wise in the field of psychology, can you imagine having three University degrees and a lifetime of field work, soon to retire?
i AM blessed by God to have such remarkable chance of being found among the best in the world like Scottie.
who is wisely your friend too
without LOVE i die
without LOVE i cry
without LOVE i sly
without LOVE is Y
in group, the professionals do no allow us to be of emotional outbursts with one another, in a controlled environment of expectations of the professionals in control, and for good reason, we are all of our issues of unwise boundaries in life, unmet needs to what ever level are being met, not being met, unresolved issues healed/unhealed, and the obvious ‘lack’ of self-awareness wisdom as to how to go about self-actualization restoration setting our divine holy joyful absolute carefree heart mind body spirit and soul free from the generational mad flood drowning ignorances, most any of us yet are of, all of us evolving along the same blessed path eternal all YOU walks apon, of the ALL which is bound by ALL the TRUTH(s) that exist and are there, across all unwise divisional false seperation barriers of the forefathers, across all time past present future.
yep
God’s omnipotence as one divine child of God who is revealing of God
i know without doubt
constantly
i AM
so on that note, please forgive the outbursts of this growing old and wise tranny homosexual/heterosexual Biyatch! lol
speaking of happiness, i think/feel/want/need it is safe to say, i AM happiest with a male lover?
and yet, my top is happy with either a male or female
being versatile though……..
my bottom leans towards being with a male
and i have to accept this as regards my happiness
although………”YOU STILL HAVE NOT TOLD ME WHAT IS BEHIND THAT DOOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”
lol
when i first got to the LGBT ghetto of Toronto, i discovered this leather harness that hangs from the ceiling in the leatherboy club, naively asking, “What’s that fore?”
since that day, i may as well say, i have always had a sexual fantasy of ten guys lining up with me in the harness…………argh……….it’s true………..the fantasy.
not true of me fullfilling such a thing, and yet, i AM most comfortable while naked among my gay brothers at the spa, as though i AM a most happy wild sex slave in the times of Greece of constant smiling radiant brilliant bright………….argh………….i love the male body, so guess all my letting go angst does revolve around this truth of ‘me’
and with you too, yes?
ok
so in turning towards my future happiness, i shall follow my own light until such a day as you tell ‘me’ what’s behind that door………………..’me’? lol
well, ok, ya, i AM behind that door………………..it’s true
of you 2
what you have been trying to tell ‘me’ all this time……..
i got caught up in my retrospective happiness of my past heterosexual life, my own doing in recalling that i was happy as a heterosexual, wanting to do the whole family thing with ten kids of our own, three times engaged to be married………………….
crushing breakups to say the least, always wondering how my life could of been, like i wanted it to be, my alcoholism that fucked it all up for me in each case……..
my alcoholism that continues fuck it all up for me in each case
i got so drunk the other day, i did not recall writting emails to certain people the next day, and that scared the fuck out of me, that i was out there wondering around in a black out……….the most dangerous level of alcoholism i have returned to yet again……….the feelings of useless false doom that pervaded in the days that followed, all of you who bore witness to the otherside of me that rages like i do when i drink, the inner rage within unhealed over Troy that manifests like it does, my own yet grieving all this time that reveals to me that i won’t ever get over Troy…………
and yet, i have to hold onto my therapist question, “What would Troy want for Andy?”
Happiness
constant happiness
bless you Troy
i still feel him with me at times, purely so, at times of exceeding inner joy that when i do leave this world i will be with him forever more……………and that scares me too, because the feelings of purity love are flawless in feeling for me so vividly of him and i always being together eternally in constantly holy joyful absolute carefree happiness………….
the human mind is far greater than most of us know or appreciate………sadly, all of us dealing with the lessor that continues to stem from the mad flood drowning ignorances of the forefathers and all their bullshit limited limited emptiness of not purely knowing and constantly being their own divine child of God, of God’s wise constant awareness, our awareness now, of the TRUTH.
i remain optimistic of blessed happiness is my future, in this life, and or after i am gone………..i just know, what i purely constantly AM within, having been of exceeding holy joyful absolute carefree happiness of my childhood experience as an adult child now who does feel the same in my homosexual lifestyle that i do purely constantly love………….especially that Black guy the other week with the most perfect ass and dick i have ever seen and been with in my entire miserable life!
maybe that’s what’s wrong with me, he did not come back, gave him my address, to no avail…………
leaving me to feel who i AM, an old drama queeen size queen tranny Biyatch without a man…………………argh
not for longgggggggggg
lol
you have no reason to ever trust me again, and i ask that you don’t, until such a length of time that i earn it in taking full ownership of my issues that belong to ‘me’.
i do not earn it at this time
let it go and go live the life of your pure inner happiness, and i shall continue to attempt to do the same, not of goodbye, not possible, as we are all connected at all times in life every blessed day, no matter light or darkness, where both light and darkness are always the TRUTH that constantly at all times serves the divine child of God’s heart mind body spirit and soul of eternal all YOU
blessed is the divine child of God YOU forever more
bless you bless you bless you all
ok, so that about covers the extent of my exploration of bisexuality, in returning to happiness of my homosexual preference…………
and as for kids of my own one day, truly, i AM an my alcoholic forefather, and as child, i recall what i went thru, and there is no way i would want my own child to be around what has unwisely become, of my unbecoming conduct of ‘me’
TRUTH
i AM
instead, i can go be the adult child i AM, in sacred mirroring of happiness i AM, where i do know without doubt every blessed day i wake 2 is purely 100% sacred for sake of another adult child in process.
of eternall all YOU
i ask God for forgiveness in what i purely know without doubt is not ever forgivable, in humble acknowledgement of the TRUTH as relates to my ongoing behavioural modification, relaspe is a part of recovery.
at least i AM in a recovery program
where
No Recovery Program = No Recovery
oh, best foods to ward of heart disease and cancer r;
beets(raw, not cooked)
Guava(especially the peel, blender juice)
and i forget what the other two are
visit Tesh (dotcom)
bless you
and thank u
I did not meet Troy at the Terminal like i purely wanted to, as did he, now dead because of my hesitation fear to love and feel loved like i constantly always yearned to feel and did feel with Troy.
the worse thing that haunts me in life, is an empty chair with no one there.
of what is my constant pure appreciation of eternal all YOU who r there!
purely and truly we all care for ONE another
i feel so purely for everyone of you i come across in life, of my slowing into graceful pure ‘me’ i AM there, knowing at all times who you all purely are within
LOVE
with OUT LOVE i die
with OUT LOVE i cry
with OUT LOVE i sly
with OUT LOVE is Y
lol
on we go
he is using a pedal to slowly phase in and out the guitar
constant yearning LOVE
a blessed trueness aspect of the divine child of God eternal all YOU
oh, and stay out of helicopters!
they have a high crash rate, and zero survival when they do crash.
hey, they finally proved it scientifically, that out spoken homophobes have homoerotic feelings they try to suppress! Yep. The did a experiment that concludes proof that homophobes are liars!
i mean, ya, we always knew this, butt try telling the homophobe this, even after conclusive evidence in tests, the homophobes keep on lying!
argh………
here is the update Beautiful YAOI homoerotic art collection. YAOI has various meanings, depending on who you ask.
lol
hilarious!
what is that hideous black and white outfit M wore at the opening ceremony, i mean, you are planting a tree of life, at least wear something that bright like the sunshine that sustains all life…….argh
argh…..i need a makeover……..hmmm….let’s see, something sexy, something sexy, oh, and something rock hard sexy…………… lol
ya, if i see one more artist playing up half-hearted prostitue sex sells thing, i mean leave some imagination for us, will ya?
if i want hard on porn, i’ll go watch porn…….which i don’t like anyway……i mean how cold is it for two strangers to come together, of pure hearts, barely know one another in order to love one another, for the sake of showing the whole world how desperate they are to make money they don’t need, in their yet being untrue to self again, of attempt to keep up with the fucktard ego maniac Jones and their small dick unknowingness and desire to make love with this boys ass? lol
somebody fuck me!!!!!!!!!!!
argh……….
oooo….now that is hot!
a snake skin leather jacket!
oh la la!
oh fuck off! $5,000?
are they crazy?
oh la la .. what are they doing ?
the usual, shopping for that perfect tight fittin pair of jeans……..found them!
and that blue flower silk shirt!
oooo la la!
these are friggin hot on my ass! damn!
i mean if you saw me in these, you would like stop the friggin car……..NOW!!!!! lol
i always was turned on by my own body……is that a bad thing?
self-love = self-love of another = the best damn sex on the planet!!!!!!!!!! ha
sad
that people have nothing better to do with their time than to waste it on creating these insensitive mockery homophobe videos, with us of slurs such as ‘fruitcake’ tossed in it’s attempt to be funny with the same homophobes who actually find this stuff funny.
or maybe i AM overly sensitive(is there such a thing) lately……maybe……to what is yet my own transitioning thru my somewhat yet empty void of a lover and friends, in getting centered and grounded in that purity love wholeness flawless feeling i feel within, that i AM already everything one shall ever need as a lover and friend, without useless absurd distraction of the falsehoods.
i just don’t find it funny when people make fun of being gay or lesbian, that’s all, considering how sensitive there are of people out there yet in the closet dealing with their own internal homophobia that stems from the ongoing ridicule such as this that continues to make fun of us, devoid of nurturing, awakening and protecting the centering exceeding graceful purity love homosexuals are within, that continues to be inundated with crap mockery ridicule of being gay, lesbian, bisexual, transexual, that seems only they purely know what the fuck i am talking about.
even more sad is that i spent money and time to come here and waste time watching it………….
anyway, my rant for the day………..
………getting back into my sculpting of homosexual lovers, that always feels purely sacred of the time yet remaining of my life, in leaving behind what it is i purely feel within, of oneness sameness of eternal all yet to come to likewise flawless feel what it is that i feel, expressing in outward mirroring the exact same purity love oneness sameness delightful holy joyful absolute carefree happiness of what truly is eternal day light of divine self of eternal all who are (constantly) there…………not mockery, not ridicule, not cajole, not lessor, in truth, blessed flawless healing nurturing protective centering feeling within that assists in their BEcoming fully of OUTward appearance of what is purely of INward graceful true appearance
~ the radiant brilliant bright eternal day light of divine self of eternal all YOU who i know are constantly there, flowers in hair, in holy joyful celebration of yOUR loving sacred blessed gift of life.
ok, maybe i am growing old, and growing more and more annoyed with where the mockery ones yet are in their evolving towards what the fuck i am talking about.
and maybe that is a good thing that i do, in my own stop wasting precious time in returning to the mediative pure sanctuary studio of divine art……..
pure loving delicate graceful true homosexual art is rare, this i know, yearning to be surround by it, of what i know to BE true for ‘me’, oneness sameness ‘me’ of another, and so many ‘me’ others of eternal all yet to come………
ok, you know where to find ‘me’
easily
beyond all the riches of the worldly
this i know i AM
we all are
many just do not purely flawless truly know who i AM
ya sure, i may be a starving artist who goes without food in order to get art supplies, butt in that is sacred, in view of how money gives rise and opportunity for an artist to become distracted from devoted sacred work.
In truth, all i need or ever want is my most loving lover like ‘me’, who not only purely constantly knows who i AM within, they are what i AM constantly within as WELL, yOUR oneness samenss magical flawless pure true exceedingly graceful loving YOU!
and besides, my spelling sucks when it comes to writting, not to mention my mental emotional angst/inner rage breakdowns of needs not currently being met……100% normal where i AM today, and i AM just tired of this constantly BEing without YOU!
what was once(and yet is) true
within eternal all YOU!
~ although i suppose this is perhaps my best writting so far, yes?
no beating around the bush, no, directly of what is the constant yearning divine aspect of eternal all YOU, AM i not?
blessed blessed blessed is wise compassionate loving divine child of God’s heart mind body spirit and soul of eternal all YOU
bless you bless you bless you all
and no, the art is not for sale or market………….ever.
God forbids serving the worldly in all their useless annoying chatter.
what?
WELL, it’s the god damned truth, is it not?
i will give it to my most loving brothers and sisters as gifts they shall forever more charish in surrounding themselves with purity love they constantly are within, where the art sacredly belongs daily, for all who enter their dwellings to purely feel who i know they always constantly are, true blue.
although i suppose donations for supplies is not something to BE left OUT.
butt hear is the thing, the last time i checked, ROCK is free!
like ‘me’
as in rock hard solid like ‘me’ Biyatches
grinding bits are expensive though, butt not that much that i cannot afford them.
and if worse comes to worse………”I’ll use my god damned teeth………..fuckers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!” lololol
pink stone of course………
hey, did i tell you my grandfather was a stone mason? built churches of stone with his hands?
ya, bless you and thank you Grandfather………the only one who purely knew and loved me like he did, our endless speaking of Jesus every time we got together, the light of God thru him to/thru ‘me’ to blessed blessed blessed divine all YOU!
enjoy the blessed day, we only have so many to enjoy, yOUR way, a leader of the eternal all set free to Just BE yOURSELF.
bless you al-ways
starting with this image, a relief carving you can hang on a wall.
one thing i always noticed and valued most during my coming out years, was all the homosexual art i came across, and realized how rare it is………..
like we are
rare
true blue
YOU
sacred evoking mirroring devoted art work is angelic in the way it constantly purely speaks from within YOU
is YOU
how i enjoy channeling my angst, is a pure positive OUTcum way!
lol
when i AM not of my devoted works……..i AM my devoted work
constant flawless flow
the only way i want to Just BE, constantly free, like the wind, and all these pink stones!!!
bless you all
this one will look beautiful in relief carved stone hanging on one of our family walls.
art like this eternally speaks purely in our sacred (alone)ness before and with God, alone and with one another, of oneness sameness from within.
Perhaps that is what Jesus means, “Where there are three, i am not there.”
?
hypocrisy heart generally thrives instead?
~ some awareness pondering of what purity love centering and ground is, and how one goes about it……..
that is why i always wanted to meet you alone…….not of three, of life lessons of so many times where there are three or more, i have a difficult time in purely remaining of my constant yearning to just be the flawless healing feeling ‘me’.
and i know you purely appreciate exactly what i AM saying, yOUR oneness 2.
and in truth, i mostly did come before you alone, of what i grew to come fully in purely knowing and loving like i did for so long, my own flawless healing divine self in meditative study for so many years like i have and yet do, where you feel the flicker of a candle, that pure special feeling so subtle, so pure, like when we are drifting off to sleep.
dreamt of my girlfriend Trish last night, who i love at the age of 15………….no wonder as to why i have returned to my pure loving memories of her, a virgin boy who knew he was terrifiedly in love with her, who mocked and ridiculed me alot, mostly as one who was center of attention at school, of so many others, all the boys who likewise wanted her as their girlfriend, fighting for her attention like they all did, coming between her and i endless anywhere we went………where i saw a part of her enjoyed playing along with them in their tyrant ways of making me jealous………till the day came i had enough of deliberate neglectfulness(against my needs being met), and overcoming my fears to walk away and not ever return to allowing myself to be hurt by any of them, mostly her, all of us immature at the time, i realize today, of what is my old self immature abreactions of resorting to old mentalities of yesteryear like i explosively do, the tender delicate sweetness of the one who is yet there within, unhealed i suppose, after all this time, the inner fear to purely trust 100% in order to constantly be of the constant yearning aspect to purely constantly feel loved and loving, something i think those with a family take for granted in not realizing how blessed that is, compared to others who do not have the constant blessed surrounding love like so many of the outcast homosexuals do, directly of why their suicide rate is so high i suppose, and their not wisely addressing what their needs are and to what extent their needs are being met, which is why i feel art work is so sacred, an extention of permanent YOU in each devoted work, as though a duplicate of YOU, in our ability to be in two places at ONE TIME, yes?
able to fill the void, the lack, even of those not of wisdom for sake of their own divine loving self, devoted art, music, dance, is all purely sacred of God thru us all eternal forever more.
i like the medium of stone, because of how long it lasts, like thousands apon thousands of years, purely i know, there is someone thousands of years from now, perhaps weeping blessed loving tears of one of my stone carvings they are holding in their hand.
there is motivational empowerment, and then there is ‘me’, who does not know what century i AM from or which century i belong 2, other than to purely say what i purely know without doubt, i AM of all eternal past present future YOU, AM i not?
ok, have a great day!
bless you
perhaps i was of projection identification, of the returning to my previous pure loving self i always was, the constant yearning aspect of us all eternal, where i did purely feel the ‘real’ you who loves ‘me’, in my become fully restored in what matters most to everyone of us all eternal, to constantly be what we constantly yearn to always be………constantly loved and loving, i know without doubt………i AM……..oneness exact sameness of eternal all YOU
forever more
i love u
bless you all
homoerotic art
i will be adding ongoing update pics of the sculpting to the above link.
Rewarding relaxing pure of heart work, that someday will be evokingly enjoyed so purely by so many
forever more
The Kingdom of Heaven is yOUR feelings
blessings to all
This stone piece is will have 5 homoerotic lovers of relief carving carved into it.
i like this saying, even if it is rather common sense, without need to be spoken, it validates and reassures students of divine self awareness, of as student in process of BEcoming their wiser teacher(s)….
Just as a seal is impressed apon wax…
Reproducing the configurations of it’s device…
So too the thoughts, character, and aspirations…
Are impressed apon others…
In continuous transference…
The teacher’s stanza is reborn in the heart mind body spirit and soul of the eternal student all YOU.
blessings to all
Gnosis = God’s Knowledge of the Heart
not a title of glory
rather a crown(halo) of TRUTH awareness…
what Christ really means, even escapes those of this film, in purely and truly KNOWING WITHOUT DOUBT(as evident of their lacking seal), as to what truly is the wise HALO perspective Kingdom of Heaven.
i am Gnostic….without doubt…i am
i am without question as to what the kingdom of heaven constantly is..
it is compassionately sad for all who i clearly seee(feel) with clarity the truth of their unknowingly being snared by generational fearful binding asleep in ignorance illness of the heart falsehood teachings of the mad flood all around us of this unwise world we are all born into from the exact same place we all enter…from the womb of God.
i cannot shut off my awareness, of all who come before me into my halo, where i purely constantly feel truth of their every word, their every body language, constantly there, in a blessed comnpassionate wise peering thru the layer masks of the one who hides, afraid of the world that is not conducive for their precious constant intuitive knowingness certainty that only love feels good enough to always feel at all times, as i take a stanze time and again in defense of others like i do every blessed day i wake 2.
Every moment of our life is purely 100% constantly sacred as regard our wise stanza….
of what is the wise light of eternal day shining bright within us all, no matter how dim the light, it is constantly there, within divine self of eternal all YOU, constantly purely there, unable to ever be estinguised, of all generational falsehoods that cannot ever BEcome vicotious over truth of the submerged divine child of God’s heart mind body spirit and soul of eternal all YOU
and yet, the generational unwiseness mad flood does lead us away from the truth of the divine child submerged and snared by generational mad flood drowings, of what is of all these wretched deathful, destructive, and oppressive fear binding submerging illness of falsehood teachings yet all around us in the world, such as the unwise brat of a child President of Iran’s control freak power mongering that is indeed deathful for homosexuals in hiding in Iran.
The LGBT community knows this oppression all too well, and how long it takes for generations to come free of these wretched untruth generational teachings of the forefathers who claim to know God, who don’t even realize their obvious of words and behaviour that is indicative of their not even knowing their own divine self as purely and truly as we do.
What to do?
i say we should have a high court of united nations to start pressing criminal charges apon these unwise leaders of all church and state, in what does amount to negligence death, destruction and oppression of homosexuals worldwide.
We are talking about 10% of the world population hear people, that far far far OUTwieghs anything Hitler did, which is not to dismiss what he did….
as of right now, this day, November 6th, 2009, according to estimate by the United States Census Bureau, the world population stands at 6.795 billion, where an estimated 10% homosexual population is 695 million worldwise.
At law, an accomplice is a person who actively participates in the commission of a crime, even though they take no part in the actual criminal offense.
well ok, IN THE NAME OF GOD, i charge any of you who are openly against a homosexual, as an accomplice to ALL wretched unwise apathetic unloving hurtful acts of negligent death(murder), destruction, and oppression of my loving brothers and sisters, at all times, every blessed day….ACCORDING TO GOD
TRUTH
than none of you are ever able to escape from, truth that trillions apon trillions of generations from now shall look back apon all of you in utter dismay of how ignorant so many of you sadly R
hey, im just the messenger of God….fuck…don’t shoot the messenger, who + wisely + compassionately + constantly lovingly, + comes to save all your sorry pathetic miserable lameass frustrated small dick sad sad sad anal retentive fucked lives…..
and no, i am not talking about myself this time Biyatches!
i have a big dick……
hey, can i write x-rated lines for Rosie’s stand up some day?
oh come one, that was funny!
and if you are not laughing then you are so in need of……’me’ damn it!
blessed is the divine child eternal all YOU
forever more
TRUTH + LIFE +the only WAY
duh!
[muttering to himself….again….”always explaining….why didn’t i just sign up for the airforce like i wanted too, and forget about Trish? BECAUSE I CAN’T!!!!!!!!” Just like i cannot forget about any of YOU! Why wood i want 2?” lol ]
i have to annoy someone at least once a day damn it….lest this world becomes stifling more boring than it already constant is…….yawwwwwnnnnnnnnnn…..COFFEE!!!!!!!!!
my relapses hit an all time high……always serves me in reminding me how much i hate myself when i get so bent out of shape……you are correct….transference, my shit, not yours, my needs not being met, that’s all, my responsibility, no one else’s, of appropriate approach only…..forgive me someday…….in truth, i am the product of my past, and that is what i look and feel of us all past present future, because it is the TRUTH.
God cannot forgive the truth, i mean since when would God give the green light to all our bullshit world wide, when God wisely says to the unwise child, “Everywhere is the TRUTH”
?
at all times
constant flowing of past into the future
hey, i know, as a wise starting point, door into Heaven, let’s input all our psychological case study date, based on psychological autopsies, and forecast the future, especially how many more homosexual loving brothers and sisters will die over the next 100 years.
and then announce to the world the truth of all you falsehood teachers who claim to know God, Pope included, that you are wretched witch hunt murders of my loving brothers and sisters according to solid case study data we have been gathering now for decades…..and according to GOD….we know the TRUTH…..we constantly r the TRUTH….for some time now….the likes of which are still at large each blessed day to walk among us.
Truly i tell you, it is YOU who cast yourself out of heaven in purely and truly coming fully to know and love with my blessed blessed blessed loving brothers and sisters i protect with the power of God’s wise TRUTH in my right hand, i use my left hand to….oh never mind…..where it is God’s wise loving compassionate eternal day light divine self TRUTH that WILL humliate each and every one of YOU one day who come before God where i stand eternally in God’s right hand, as a devoted instrument of God freely given to God to have forever more, having found none of you purely wise in truly knowing and loving God as i do, as evident in your OBVIOUSLY not purely and truly knowing in constantly BEing the flawless healing loving feeling divine child of God like so many of you haphazardly unknowingly(sadly) do in all you say and do each blessed day.
Truly i tell YOU, i know what the kingdom of heaven constantly is…that has eluded all of YOU thus far, hear in the year 2009.
Be Quiet!
Listen!
The Kingdom of Heaven is Eternal ALL YOU!
blessed blessed blessed YOU
forever more
blessings to all
look apon all the religious art in the world and what do you see….a halo.
The Kingdom of Heaven is a CONSTANT wise compassionate purely loving divine self macro thinking awareness halo of nurturing, awakening and eternally protective divine self wisdom that does protect against the mad flood generational deathful, destructive and oppressive falsehood drowning ignorances of the unwise forefathers who did/do not know God, even those who claim to know God, you got that Pope? Ya, i am talking to you, and you will NOT get into heaven accept by ‘me’!
I speak the truth you continue to deny your divine self to purely feel, that you WILL one day flawlessly feel the eternal day light of God’s divine child who is before you this day speaking the TRUTH you do not yet know, nor do you desire to know, even unto your last day like so many of you do, in all your heartless ways that condemns, binds, and casts only YOU out of heaven in purely and truly coming to know my loving brothers and sisters who feel sad for all your wretched illness of heart, where you are so blind, you do not even know you are blind to God’s divine child who stands before you speaking the wise TRUTH this day, which you will not feel the truth of because of that which you do NOT bring forth from within that continues to keep you bound and cast out from among us.
It is i, a wise divine child of God who invites you to my table, and not ever shall i sit at yours until such a time of my choosing, where it is you who has nothing to offer me in what is yet of your spiritual blind shortsighted self-serving merchant of God impure poverty illnesses of heart mind body spirit and soul that is yet poisonious to ‘me’ to be found among you and those like you.
YOU are heartless cold murders in God’s eyes, in my eyes, the eternal awareness TRUTH none shall escape from or become victorious over who i am…..constantly, i am the truth every blessed day i wake to and feel what it is i yet feel of all untruthfulness in this yet wretched unwise apathetic world of deniers of TRUTH according to God who is with ‘me’…..100%….till my last day among you all.
blessings to all
you say such things as below, and yet you cast homsexuals to the fires of what is yet your living fires of hell for us?
“Even today we want to proclaim this with innermost conviction,” said the Pontiff. “Yes, Jesus, you are Christ, the Son of the Living God! We are aware that Christ is the true ‘treasure’ for whom it is worth sacrificing all. He is the friend who never abandons us for he knows the innermost expectations of our heart. Jesus is the ‘Son of the Living God’, the promised Messiah, who came on earth to offer humanity salvation and satisfy the thirst for life and love that dwells in every human being. What advantages would humanity get if it welcomed the announcement that brings with it joy and peace!”
Following the Apostle’s confession of faith Jesus conferred upon Peter his mandate (And so I say to you, you are Peter, and upon this rock I will build my church, and the gates of the netherworld shall not prevail against it. I will give you the keys to the kingdom of heaven.).
“It is the first time that Jesus spoke about the Church whose mission is to implement God’s grandiose plan to unite in Christ the whole of humanity as a single family. Peter’s mission, and that of his successors, is to serve the one and only Church of God, which includes Jews and pagans. Its indispensable ministry is to ensure that it does not identify with any one nation or culture, but that it is a Church for all peoples, so as to make present among people, who suffer from countless divisions and contrasts, God’s peace and the renewing strength of his love. It must therefore serve the inner unity that comes from God’s peace, the unity of those who have become brothers and sisters of Jesus Christ. This is the unique mission that falls upon the Pope, Bishop of Rome, Successor of Peter.
Lastly “before the huge responsibility of this task I feel ever more the importance and the duty of serving the Church and the world that God placed in me. For this reason I call upon you, dear brothers and sisters, to help me with your prayers so that, faithful to Christ, we can together announce and bear witness to his presence in our times. May Mary enable us to obtain this grace! We call upon her, full of trust, as the Mother of the Church and the Star of Evangelisation.”
God blesses all
God is all
i ask a simple question, “Where are your followers and to who are they purely turning towards?”
these wretched hateful fires consume only you and your followers, to whom the truth is revealed in the blessed tears they yet cry at their beloved child’s graveside, right now, in this moment, the TRUTH is there, and still, it is all you who turn away from purely embracing the TRUTH you continue to deny of your wretchedness that is killing members of our worldwise LGBT communit, your own beloved children loved by Jesus and God, YOU of the netherworld who are direct cause for their death, destruction and opression, and not ever shall you prevail against ‘me’, Jesus or God of TRUTH that is not ever able for anyone to unwisely, apathetically, unlovingly become victorious over!
Deny ‘me’, and it is you who deny the true real YOU, the divine child of God, Jesus, Mary, and God…at all times.
blessings to eternal all YOU
forever more
i am the key to the kingdom of heaven where i dwell with Jesus, Mary and God, who dwell with ‘me’
blessed TRUTH
forever more
God’s ‘grandiose’ plan?
What of God’s constant flawless healing wise compassionate eternal love devoid of useless absurd doubt like all the doubt of you in the netherworld who actually think you have God’s omnipotent understanding you yet reach for, that is able to save another of your beloved children from your senseless haphazard ways that yet sees you gather for yet another funeral of your beloved children like they do this day?
i ask, “How many more have to die until the day you purely feel the TRUTH of your wretched illness of heart, thinking you know Jesus, Mary and God, when obviously you do not even desire to purely and truly know and love your own beloved children, just as you do not desire to purely and truly know and love your own divine self within?
Truly i tell YOU, i would rather be dead than dine for one second at your table of wretched ignorance illness of murderous hearts who cannot even love your own beloved children of God.
and to be sure, i will not ever dine with any of you of such illness of hearts, where it is God who asks that i do not, lest your arrogant poisonous fearful controlling impure ways enters into ‘me’ and i become like you who are yet chainded and snared in the netherworld i see and feel with clarity like i do.
i do not despise YOU, rather, i despise your false teachings of the forefathers who did/do not desire to know Jesus, Mary and God truly and purely as i do.
You go to God in asking forgiveness from God who cannot and will not forgive you of the truth of your murderous error ways that you continue to return to again and again, denying the TRUTH i wisely knowingly speak of and constantly am!
You know not why it is that you cannot come to dwell in heaven with Jesus, Mary and God with your untruthfulness you hold onto, that continues to bring harm to your own beloved children who continue to die directly because of YOU liars and deniars of TRUTH.
oh hey, this starbuck coffee is amazing! lol
Rosie’s video of horses and Autism…beautiful
my initial thought was the child feels safe and protected by the bigger creature, what with all the parents out there who try to console an inconsolable child, without doubt, they are likely traumatizing the child with controlling fear of yelling at the child, which only furthers keeping the child in a cycle of pattern behavioral of toxic stuckness fear, no different than any of us who know full well how long it takes to detoxic from such fearful behavioral, where the child continues to test to see if the fearful one is yet there within the parent, subconsciously unaware they are doing it, test none the less, thus the cycle pattern stuckness continues like it does….repeating over and over, merely of the child in need of a complete detox, weeks, months, years?
then there is what i do know about other creatures….
creatures in their natural habitat, exhibit constant pure ability of innate primal beginning desire to purely be of their primal beginning, completely at ease…AT ALL TIMES….completely removed from we of seemingly wiser world stress junkies, where i have been able to gain the pure primal innate trust of a creature’s soul at ease, so relaxed, so incrdible is the pure calmness that does escape must any of us as to the true relaxed innate primal beginning centering of the soul of a creature, of the truth that we do not fit into nature in our all wise stress junky ways…lol
Autistic kids are likely of more of their natural occuring primal innate beginning desire than we are, of merely a past evolutionary stage we came thru, are yet transitioning evolving thru(think millions of years hear), where the evidence holds true, Autistic kids do better in nature at one with nature and nature at one with them, than we are with nature and nature with us.
and let’s not forget, creatures in nature do have an ability to sense us emotionally….compassionately, of primal beginning innate compassion like creatures do in their natural habitat.
In other words, Autistic kids have more refined sensibility in what we call overly sensitive, when in truth are of the more true natural sensitivity of the divine child, on par with the delicate natural primal innate sensitivity(truer) of creatures….
….in other words people, Autistic kids are not the one’s with a problem….we are…..
think about it…..it’s true
oh wow, i just helped every Autistic child speak what they are unable to articulate, yes?
yeah for all the fun loving Autistic kids out there!
i used to work with them, and i always thaought they are more sensitive than we are….constantly, as the researches say.
a good thing, is it not, where Autistic kids are teaching us about the more truer self us, are they not?
i love Autistic kids, more so than most others…..it’s true
i mean look at all the bullshit mouth we all put up with daily like we do? lol
and then compare that with the natural occuring at ease preferedness of Autistic kids in their timid approach with us, like a horse is with us wingnut ego maniac stress junkies….pay attention hear….
and don’t forget to remember this….FORGETFULNESS is yOUR greatest foe according to God….
….according to Autstic kids who remember everything about YOU they want to forget….lol….the same way i….oh never mind…..
good news….
+ ‘that’ of our divine wise compassionate pure and true loving eternal day light awareness forever true WILL continue to enter into eternal all YOU forever more of all we of holy joyful absolute carefree happiness of the divine child of God’s heart mind body spirit and soul eternal all YOU in setting you free from the mad flood drowing falsehood teachings of the forefathers past present future of death, destruction and fearful binding dark held in captivity oppression of blessed blessed blessed eternal all YOU +
some of are naturall pretty good at it too! lol
argh….morons….oh how i dread spending time with the blind heart morons in all their infamous lackluster boring lameass excuses escuses escuses denial ways who do not purely intentively hear/feel a word i say that God asks me to purely speak on what i have purely come to know to say before saying it!
ok…have a wonderful night Biyatches….
truly…i mean that, a beautiful weekend in store for all….
peace be to you
and peace be to you
forever more
eternal all YOU constantly loved by Jesus Mary and God and all we who purely constantly always know who we r
bless you bless you bless you all
oh…one more thing….
+ Constantly i am the expectations of your precious blessed divine hearts like my own +
bless you and thank you eternal all YOU who are purely there, just as i am, constantly
Wow can’t believe all these people fell for this, that’s insane!
ya, i know the feeling well, they play you time and again, but when 1:30am rolls around, you begin to realize they are not really thinking of you…………….fuck
ah well, seems people don’t ‘know’ a good thing when they have it, where it is their own fixation of whatever or whoever, how about never mr.nevers?
fuck fuck fuck
i am so not feeling this any more………………
time to stop denying my self what i am deserving of, someone who is at least spiritually in the same fucking building…………………..
fuck, the scored my favorite pair of jeans and a really nice Italian shirt of mine…………what is it with fags in stealing each other’s shit anyway?
don’t they know they are already everything anyone shall ever want need think and feel?
apparently not…………
ah well, who is the better for it in the end?
‘me’
the lessons i am to learn that the seller of pearls refers to, of what is the useless absurd distractions of the aimless haphazard plodding along in life one’s who do not realize the greatest hidden treasure yet.
i remain compassionately centered in praying to God, “Who is the one for ‘me’ that truly knows ‘me’?”
as Jesus and i know, they are likely not even born yet!
fuck fuck fuck
lol
giving new meaning to time running out, yes? lol
time and again, i find my self alone in life, pondering the TRUTH of why it is i turned to Jesus and God so as not to feel the impactful pain of those caught up in their own obvious distractions away from ‘me’…………………..
coming away compassionately, rather than hurt, that so many really are of distraction seeking for something they already have, perhaps too afraid to purely feel as i do, like i too once was, and it’s just of others either, their drug and alcohol relationships as well………………
ah well, who is the better for it, certainly not the aimless one’s, bin there, done those wasted years far too many times, how i got thru it?
Jesus
God
and my true and faithful friends YOU
bless you all
the lesson…..
don’t ever pretend with anyone when it comes to yOUR constant pure flowing loving feelings that the divine child is of within us all, of myself, wisely so, as one who truly purely does know who i constantly am……
actually, i didn’t really like the jeans……too loose……lol
and the shirt was a hideous grey, of what i always wondered everytime i looked at the damn thing, “who the fuck wears grey?” ha
opppsssss…….wrong blog again, damn, why do that, where my heart on my sleeve? lol
it is always just one more step to grace
of YOU
‘that’ i know
bless you all
forever more
life sucks
they say our soulmate purely know us like we know our own divine self, to the same extent as purely knowing our divine self, and that is the truth i am constantly aware of, as regards the connectedness and disconnectedness i feel of everyone, each at various levels of awareness, all one and the same, we all are.
still, there is the magic when two who are at the same level come together in life, the obviousness of constant flowing love for one another, shining radiant brilliant bright of eternal day light holy joyful absolute carefree happiness of YOU set free to constantly always be what is of the pure constant yearning knowingness certainty we do purely feel within of our divine self,,,,,,,
~ the sacred mirror of divine self eternal all YOU
sometimes it feels like id rather be dead than feel the momentary moments of seemingly break in the constant flow of constant yearning i have been all these years, some days worse than others………
what is TRUE of us all
what Jesus and God constantly always know of YOU and others too, in how we all leave one another to feel like we do, all the taboo, all the fuck you, all the…………what to do
lol
made ya smile
oh fuck you
i wish
don’t ever pretend with anyone
the spirit of imitation that leaves us feeling the way we do, the denial, the pain on pain, of what purely constantly always remains…….and is there………without doubt………
YOU
i wish i was dead, so as not to feel what i feel, and yet, it is of God’s constant knowing how we always feel, who summons to the TRUTH that is always there of everyone of us at all times, even if of the pervading spirit of imitation…………………i remain, what i am……………without doubt…………even after i am long gone from this earth………..feel the TRUTH of eternall all YOU
TRUTH of eternal all YOU
forever more
TRUTH that does not fail YOU
TRUTH that is constantly YOU
i am
eternal TRUTH
eternal WAY
eternal LIFE
am i not?
yes we r
bless you all
TRUTH of the WAY to what LIFE constantly is…..
the true ‘real’ YOU
always there
blessed is the true ‘real’ YOU
forever more
bless you all
TRUTH that sets YOU eternally FREE to BE what i always wanted to BE……….’me’
the one you can easily see when ever you feel like ‘me’
oh just feel ‘me’ for fuck sakes, will ya, even if just for a moment, before i am gone……….
you just never know, when our time is up………
did i tell you got hit by a fucking car?
twice in one fucking month, unfucking belieable the way you fucktards drive!
hyper maniacs is an understatement
and please, when you open the fucking car door, be sure to fucking look next time will ya?!!!
fuck
morons…….i am surrounded by morons…………someone get me out of hear!
ok God, what next?
blessed is the constant TRUTH of all YOU
a new day always dawns for eternal all YOU
always just one more step to grace
of YOU
the one that i know
as i purely do 2
of ‘me’
and as for spirit of imitation
i will know that 2
like we all do
as i am really 2
if only we would be of just one more step to grace
of YOU
i am
+
ya, anything other than falling in love, making love, true blue love, for sure, is seemingly insane, i mean look at all the ways people pretend away in spirit of imitation codenpence relationships, relationships of convenience the surrender to, for whatever reason, and there are alot of reasons……….
candle light
feels right
music bright
love making height :mrgreem:
mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
can i cum over now?
get it?
cum over?
oh never mine…………. lol
im joking with you,…….sheeshhhhh
made ya smile
actually i am yet teasing you, of the one who has my heart, of my bisexual other side you know so well……..
hey, make love with me and then decide, you know, rush into the burning fires of passion, half way there in your helicopter, that breaks down in mid flight, because you left the other one without tell him first, a cruelty of sorts……
and for sure, God is not happy with my approach, in lacking consideration of another………..and others.
so i have to stop, ok?
and set your spirits free
so you can calm the fuck down, in taking the one more step to grace with one another you both need to take, for heaven’s sake, eternal all YOU
well, i mean, unless of course………………
you are still in love with ‘me’
surrender to ‘me’
and you WILL see
how it is to be
of spirits set free
ok, i am already of one more step into grace
the same first step i took from a hospital bed long ago, after Troy’s suicide, my own copy cat suicide that followed.
as you already know, my exceeding grace, has has always been this way since then………..why time stands still
today is the last day i am using words……………..
the ball is in your court for the last time
decide now, or i walk away
to brighter day
playing in the hay
oh so………..oh for fuck sakes, i want to use the word, butt then you will think the opposite
well, i will live a gay life without you
and always love you the way i always have
my bisexual other side
and yet, who’s side am i on, when you are purely on my side, if you know what i mean, and i know you know what i mean, know what i mean?
lol
so much more fun on my side of the house Biyatches!
and you know it
make love for free
make love with thee
make love and BE
make love and pee
what?
it’s the only word i could think of, and it’s also true like the other words…………….. lol
made ya smile twice
two times
let’s do it again
again and again
not pretend
my dearest friend
till the end
hey, you ever pretend?
i think asked that one already………..no reply
hey, today is the day, yes?
come on, let’s play
or forever hold your peace
of course, i have no one right now
could change in a heartbeat though
end of my rope if you know what i mean……………
we gotta go
before the snow
begins to blow
summer’s hoe!
what?
i was not talkin about you!
fuck
why does everything always have to be about YOU
oh yeah, because everything always constantly is about YOU, even of those who do not realize the divine TRUTH (yet)
ok, no more lies
no more crys
no more denys
no more bi’s
wait, that is contradicting my divine self
no more goodbi’s
no wait, again contradicting my divine self
no more………..hmmmm………..think of something you hate doing…………..
no more……………..dies
ya, no more dies
no wait, too confusing
no more………………hi’s?
but i always want to talk with you
hmmmmmm
you think of something as relates to YOU
and i already approve it
let’s go with ‘that’
as you do like to always have the last say, right?
ok…………let ‘me’ know what i aleady know then………
bless you bless you bless you
if you are already happy…………that is why i came in the first place………..and the second place, third place, hmmmm……….what other places did i cum?
omg…..i am so bad
lol
made ya smile forever……………Biyatches!
i await your final answer
humbled hear before YOU
eternally
for already
i am
yOURs
i love you
forever more
thank you Jesus
thank you God
thank you all
bless you all
respectFULLY yOURs,
yOUR beloved Andyy
+
actually, crying blessed compassionate tears is a holy blessed thing, so crying is good for us, and even if of hurt, we all need to grieve in order to resolve all our hurtful issues, of some crying that does last our entire life till our last day, of blessed tears that change from hurt and loss of others necessary crying, to compassion of hurt and loss of others, yet hear with us, not necessary, just something we do
do as i do
of the divine true ‘real’ YOU, ‘that’ which i know
sorry, should of read:
to compassion of *potential* hurt and loss of others………
bless you all
how about ‘no more spys’ on the second one?
and you can decide on the last one………..
that is if you have not already decided……..i am being so presumptuous……….argh………other than to say, i am far from obsolete, and that being full of my self, well, that is a good thing, and for sure, as far as readiness……..WELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol
or, how be we check back hear one year from now and see who is the happiest?
where already we know who the happiest is of ALL
hint:
within ALL is the?
oh come on……..been talking about this for like decades now for fuck sakes……….another hint: wondrous, extraordinary, radiant, or so brilliant, so bright………………….?
lol
don’t cha just love my new nickname!
i am God’s Holy Harlot Angel of Mercy!!!!!!!!!!!!
oppppssss………now every time you look at Mercy……you have to think of ‘me’
lol
boundaries are essential for our well being……….
i quit the world
the world quit ‘me’
Hey Juliet
You wanna hang out ?
what if i dont fit inside
oh dont matter well just shove it in
i really dont mind james bond, never did just offended about the trust thing but i did understand the reason james bond did feed my ego anywaz he would learn much hese days am very boring but hey ,., come fuck me
AHHH!……oh for fuck sakes……..too early in the morning, caught me off guard………in a purely beautiful way………….
fit inside, interesting point, i mean just how big are we, our spirit, or how big were we when our spirit was initially born, that first spark, at the moment of conception, and does our spirit see it’s own self as pertains to dimension, when at times we feel as big as the universe, or should i say, if the soul is comprised of all souls as one, and our wise spirit comprehends the expanding wise halo able to fit everyone in love and peace on the planet, one day the entire universe we shall enhabit……..
oh Romeo, how i miss you so, feeling so small somedays, as though without my loving friend for so long now……….
im scared,,,,,,,,,again……….too loose boundaries again, my sense of autonomy deminished, my own doing, the vulnerability thing, the desire for intimacy…….whoa, slow down, im doing it again………….fuck
yeah though i walk thru the valley of death(spiritual), i shall not fear………
please Romeo, you have to get me out of hear………
sometimes we fool ourself in deserning compatibility, not a bad thing, as within all is the child of God, but in times of vulnerability, the rushing towards intimacy compatibility physical, sometimes sees us haphazardly neglect our spiritual compatibility……and hear is the question, at what point did we start to evaluate and protect our own spiritual self cognitively aware?
that’s my problem, where most any are not spiritually compatible for me now, a secret place i hide, not in a bad way, rather in what is the pure exceeding calm i am of when away from the world completely, my meditative state i purely am at ease in comfort with Jesus, God, and the attending angels.
hence, my remark, boundaries are essential, VITAL
particularily with those of substance abuse, and all their manipulative fearful controling ways of the falsehood masks that is of the addictive personality yet running the show for them…………fuck, im doing it again………..
VULNERABLE:
Pronunciation [vuhl-ner-uh-buhl] Show IPA
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–adjective 1. capable of or susceptible to being wounded or hurt, as by a weapon: a vulnerable part of the body.
2. open to moral attack, criticism, temptation, etc.: an argument vulnerable to refutation; He is vulnerable to bribery.
3. (of a place) open to assault; difficult to defend: a vulnerable bridge.
4. Bridge. having won one of the games of a rubber.
Origin:
1595–1605
see what i mean, the fucking word did not even exist till like the 16th century, in what clearly is our recently addressing this fucked world……….
addicts are so controlling manipulative…………annoyingly, did i mention annoyingly?
fuck fuck fuck
you are always so friggin late for me, or perhaps it is my genuine fear this time Romeo, of just how vulnerable i am at this time……………
wears me out most days, emotional exhaustion, an overdue holiday, the constant yearning to just run away, and keep running, don’t look back, got to be free free free
so maybe you too have issues of your own Romeo, as i explain away your delay, what has taken you so long, to come my way?
come let’s play, come let’s play, come let’s play………..well fuck, stop saying it unless you are serious, where keeping one endlessly stuck in a constant loop of hopefulness and not progressing to knowingness certainty, is why we walk away to another, as we all need intimacy, ignoring our compatibility issues in doing so, and now i am so fucked Romeo, by the time you get hear, i may be dead!
lol
oh, don’t mind me, having had my morning shower or tea yet…………….
lesson of the day; don’t rush into burning buildings, where the only one left alive to save, may only be YOU
fuck
i gotta stop doing this, today’s the day, but they are so fucking adorable…………………..ARGHHHHHHHHHH…………..
i really do need about a year on a beach somewhere to detox completely, of my pain on pain layers of armor, tired of pretending away………..and yet, each one teaches me something more about my divine self……..as afraid as i may be, like my therapist reminds me, inside, behind their facade, they are afraid(too)…………….
yeah well, when fear starts manifesting into rage and violence, guess where i always find my self?
running down the fucking street for my motherfucking life Biyatches!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
fuck, see what i mean, you’re worried about your bordom, and im worried about my life, not even on the same page……………actually, everything of everyone past present future, is the same motherfucking page we all are on.
what day in the future will see us both coming clear into 100% connected awareness of our compatibility evaluation of everyone around us, and realize you and i are meant to be?
likely after i am dead
sorry……….some days are worse for me, and the whole stalling thing wanes for me, my soul that yearned for my true friend for how many years now?
perhaps you are as insecure as i am, or more so, in my trying to understand and realize why you keep your distance, in what is our yet getting to purely let each other in to our pure place, and i respect that, as i too have my useless masks i have grown tired of wearing, always the same fucking defensive posture i have to maintain in not letting others in who are not compatible for me, maybe why the spa sex thing works for me in getting my sexual needs met, where i don’t have to even give them my name…….as i explain that useless one away to you too.
trust
ya, without trust, there is no way you are getting in, even if spiritually i am already there in the same room purely sitting beside you all this time, of where i constantly yearn to be found one day……….since way back when
i took my time, i waited patiently for you and for God, knowing the degree of the purity of my own loving emotions that flow so purely within, how it is i purely do know you, like we both constantly yearn to always do one day, without hesitation, without frustration, without cancelation, without intimidation, without speculation…………….without doubt
Juliet cloaks herself again, as she hears another coming, in slipping away, whispering, “im not really gay, im bisexual.”
your true lover should be the most important person alive, and that reality check is fully revealed when we use our mental powers to purely evaluate all the compatibility issues, which if even one is left ignored, happiness of the two lovers is directly affected by the other, or another’s unresolved stuff.
open communication is the only way
and i am not flexible on the serious issues like drug and alcohol use Biyatches!
your shit, not mine
i can tolerate it for awhile, but when i hear one say, abstinance is not in my vocabulary, you need not ever wonder why i walked away, to a brighter day, with those who purely are at healthier functioning free spirited constant flow holy joyful absolute carefree happiness, that with drugs and alcohol, gets swept washed away……….why we pray.
as God says, “where are you running to?”
cannot run away from your own self
and yet, so many do, do they not?
afraid to feel their vulnerable ‘real’ self, where vulnerable is a strength, not a weakness, although appearing in weakness i came before all of you i revealed myself to, of your yet wondering why i could not stay………….
apathy stuckness
it all comes back to the crucial lacking of desire for God’s divine self wisdom, ALL OF IT!
every single bullshit of this world past present, and be sure you get this fuckers…………THE ENTIRE FUCKING FUTURE of GOD’S DIVINE CHILDREN MOTHERFUCKERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
……….having a mental breakdown are we andy?
oh fuck off
lol
ok
ya i wanna hang out
thought you’d never ask
are you talking bout hanging out hear at this blog?
well, no, i’d rather hang out with you somewhere alone…..
away from the world, feelings of foreverness locking us together, of what is the constant yearning to always feel love constantly flowing between, the true nature of the divine child of God within us all
hey, did i tell you i am a pool shark?
my Dad was a pool shark, used to gamble at it as a teen in the pool halls, and get this, you would only get one shot when playing with him, blew my mind, i had no idea Dad was a pro at playing pool, who loved to frustrate me for hours on end, giving me that single shot, as he would play all the balls into the pockets, until one day he taught me how, always thinking of where all your balls are on the table, and where to leave the white ball using whatever spin on the ball you can put on it, left, right, back, forward, curve shots, mind blowing to watch for a kid, who loved his Dad like i did, seeing him laugh like i wanted him too, sensing his pain like i did, not sure why at the time, his lover Jimmy who moved away…………
what an incredible life i have lived………..
the awareness, of everyone i look apon now, the entire world, the entire future, where it has been, how to get out of all the drudgery, in fully realizing it has not ever been about stature in wealth and status, nor ever shall be, no, it all revolves around the divine true ‘real’ YOU of constant holy joyful absolute carefree happiness within, shining radiant brilliant bright eternal day light into the yet dark world of supposed sin, that is really just blindness led astray from divine within, where the greatest ‘lack’ is the spiritual wise leaders of sacred mirror, that does evokingly purely connect awaken, in loving nurture, wisely protective, the greatest stature of all, the kingdom of heaven divine self awareness halo, free of sin, only love devoid of doubt, always there inside us all, returning restoring of what is the primal innate beginning end core of our being life experience we all came thru in entering the yet unwise world, the womb of God.
past
present
future
all exactly the same eternal day that does not ever end
here is a question, what was before the universe?
only God knows the answer
and until someone tells me, none of us are of God’s full wisdom
all of us of eternally humbleness to this one truth, in what is able to keep us humble to our ability to learn, where a closed mind cannot.
i just want one lover’s hand to run thru life with every day, just as i know they do too, of 100% trust assurance in pure knowingness that i really really am everything they shall ever want need think feel
we say so many useless things that seperate us all in life, seperating us from divine self knowing whenever we do, the slippery rocks some say, the raging river that awaits those who fall, my compassion for all
wax poetic?
how does life and death reality wax poetic?
and who says something like that?
oh yeah, the all important status quo junkies who seeming have all the answers, while their own life is lackluster boring as hell, get me the fuck out of hear! lol
at least i am in a reasonable good mood
always a pure feeling when you stop bi
im just rambling……..trying to maintain my balance, need to go for a long walk, a bike ride, clear my head, rethink my steps, address my boundaries once again……
when will it ever end?
when i step fully thru the door of the beginning of who i already am, in what i look for has already come……….TRUTH, everywhere we look/feel,
life is the greatest teacher, and i love everyone purely, knowng what is condition of their unattended precious soul like my own, holding onto the truth that i am the greatest wealth i shall ever find, the hidden treasure within, free from sin, where sin i just anything unloving, untrue of our divine true nature of exceeding grace, so subtle, so pure, so free flowing………
i get this energy sensation in my body that flows outward from my hands, so unbelievable is the feeling of constant flow pure feeling i am……..of what is the eternal day light that does not want to stop flowing, and can stop flowing when the lessor falsehoods win……..
or so they think……….
win nothing
not my heart Biyatches!
they don’t purely know ‘me’
like i do them
and to be sure, i cannot let them in
the sense my delicate vulnerable self they fear of themself, and dynamically, the fear brings up their falsehood masks, that are so controlling, fearful in nature, manipulative, overpowering, frightful, as it all falls apart, in my moving away………..hence, the passerby Jesus speaks of.
the sacred mirror they all feel, but the process is of great length, spanning years, decades, centuries, eternity
why i seek my true soulmate
im tired of it all now
wanting eternal peace and rest i already am within
if only they knew what i know of them all
and yet they do, intuitively, subconsciously, asleep in ignorance as Jesus says, of what is the core of everyone’s BEing, all of us from the beginning, where the beginning has not changed, just as truth cannot change, mathematically speaking, spiritually speaking
this is what is of eternal life
where life is love and truth is the way
forever more
bless you all
you really want to hang out?
i know you don’t say things unless it is true within you
respectfully so, not wishing to lead another on only to break their heart
where my heart is unbreakable according to Jesus and God
how can one break the truth?
not possible
ya sure, why not, let’s go hang out
naked in some hot tub somewhere, like the Swiss Alps, or how about Bora Bora?
oh, i so want to make out with you there someday!
already i am there!
speaking of which…………………… lol
you know what i really need?
‘me’
someone who is ‘me’
that would solve everything!
lol
made ya laugh
i love my self
TRUE
at first i was compassionately concerned for those there each day, as an activist, and then i stepped over the threshold of the entire world is at stake hear, every single day, and the greatest motivational empowerment threshold of all, where i found the truth power of God’s divine self truth in FULLY 100% realizing, this is about the entire eternal future of divine true ‘real’ YOU of eternal ALL
bless you all
oh, that low note always gets me………how can i break another one’s heart?
you know what i do…..this may sound bad, but i let them trip themselves, beit whatever, ego, sex, drugs, with another, their aimless waundering, fags, so predictable, mostly, the low self-esteem promiscuity dynamic………as i slowly walk away without a sound, what are left feeling……….the TRUTH they run from, their own denial of the lure of the hype, the pipe, the fightful night……..alone.
which is a learning ground of all in process
praying one day they wake up and realize the one who really really did love them the way they wanted to be loved, purely, truly…………..constantly
Jesus says, “Life is the greatest teacher of ALL.”
yep
it’s TRUE
all of us
in blessed process
beginning thru end for all eternity one day shall end what is yet of all things unTRUE.
bless you
it’s all blessed truth, past present future, where even the untruths constantly serve the divine child of God’s heart mind body spirit and soul of eternal all YOU
forever more
bless you all
argh……….don’t even know who i am talkin too any more, or who is there, and i suppose it does not matter, where the divine self of any slows in purely feeling thru what God wants them to learn about their own self, the only way to read the word of God, where in the beginning, same as at the end, and in between, at all times, across all time, of the no time dimension in eternity, no beginning that we know of, and no end, where it all starts and stops, with YOU
and ‘me’
bless you all
as in always ‘with’ YOU
i am
i dont drink, smoke or take drugs lol… well the occational glass of red wine.. but you keep going on about it 4 sum reason
do you smoke ?
do you take drugs ?
better not..
or you’ll be sorry one day
occassional glass of red wine…….filled how many times?
it’s like every picture i see of Gwenyth there is a bottle sitting on the table………argh………..lol
i do not do drugs, AT ALL, however, i did get too closely associated with those who are into the potent dangerous dangerous dangerous drug chrystal meth, that takes over their brain, shutting down their impulse control to stop, where one of them died on the fifth day, no sleep, no food, their heart stopped from exhaustion over stress, age 21, another gay youth.
it takes over the life of everyone else they know too, if you let it, which i don’t now, no way, no way, suffer the consequence of your own decision making, authentically………not a problem for me, setting boundaries, however, it does leave them out there in the streets, where the drug dealers pray apon them, and i am not just talking money hungry dealers either, i am talking guys that get these kids hooked on drugs, plying them for sex, the bathhouses being the worse place now, undercovers hovering, the usual raids across the city………..i am going to write another artical exposing the truth of all those who ply gay youth with potent drugs, which in my opinion, Chrystal Meth………..is a rape drug
once the gay youth get hooked on it, these predators know they come back for more, so easy to get anywhere they want, with so many using it everywhere we walk in the ghetto now, fucking bullshit, this rape drug, that KILLS.
breaking the law = death, destruction oppression
anyone who has it in their hand, is breaking the law
youth need to be educated to the max on these rape drugs, which is the only term that best describes it, giving someone these drugs, where even society plays into the whole get drunk party party party scene, here, try this, makes you feel better, ply them for sex, in every fucking club out there, it is there…………
WE ALL NEED TO TALK ABOUT THIS OPENLY, AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE, reminding us all of what is going on out there……….death destruction oppression.
it’s like most anything, until it strikes home, no one cares.
we set aside $3.4 billion for 10,000 new RCMP officers to fight in the war on drugs that is killing people daily.
anyone who participates in any small way, is participating DIRECTLY with the death of others.
that is the TRUTH
ya, i have a dear friend i tryed to reach to no avail, the same cycle pattern behaviour every month………………
hard to watch as the intake progresses, days without sleep, fucking insane this beast of a drug once it gets a hold of them, a beast in their brain that takes over complete control of their brain..
i have this glowing sensation in my hands so pure in feeling, mind blowing, had not felt this glowing so strong till now, the eminates thru my entire body, so healing, so true and pure, self-love
AND NO DRUGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!
those fucking dipshits are fucking stupid
ok, a glass of red wine sounds like a good idea actually……..
i still smoke, ya, embarassing for me, especially when i see kids near by, i toss the thing away.
wine eh?
i get fucked up on wine, emotionally…………takes me to a deep place that is too overwhelming for me, cannot handle even one glass of it, and honestly, i don’t desire the feeling of intoxication, preferring a clear mind that allows for my pure feelings to flow that are subtle, alcohol clouds it for me, like a sleeping pill, and i don’t want to sleep, i want to fuck all night long!
fuck
lol
i go on about it because of the hyper alertness i have been of in seeing what has been happening to my friend, the exact same cycle pattern words, behavior, over and over again, the avoidance to talk about it when i raise questions of affirmative action……i did succeed in getting him involved with my professional team,,,,,,,,,,,finally.
he was so screwed up the other day, i said to him, “This friendship is over right now, unless you do as i say right now, or i walk away.”
he followed me to the outpatient clinic, where the staff were shocked to see his condition, not eating, so so weak, barely able to walk, where they gave him liquid protein drinks right away, and proceeded with his assesment………..
he loves people, and i think alot of youth see these professionals as fearful, which they are not, the exact opposite, a stigma of sorts in their head, that makes them feel as though they are a bad person in society, that comes with the drug scene sneaking around mentality like they are, sketched out of their minds dissociatives………
anyway, i adjusted the boundary, as i was getting too toxic from being overly involved, his being in professional care now, the detoxing i am experiencing, a relief of sorts, deep breath, maybe i did save someone’s life, or help them save themself is really what it is, self-love = self-respect, time will tell………….
parents should not close doors on their kids, if involved in the potent drug Chrystal Meth.
what they should do, is be fully prepared that their child may die
then, with urgency, they need to realize the value of consistency of nurturing the self-love of their child, not the critical attacking of their drug use, no, let professionals talk to them about that, they are qualified where parents are not, instead, parents need to treat their child exactly the way they loved their child all along, with perameters, of no money extended to them, or paying of their bills, taking responsibility where their child is the one expected to act responsible, as regards adult children.
do not disown your children
they need self-love at a most critical dangerous time when the become envolved with Chrystal Meth.
this drug is so powerful, until you have seen the effects it has out in the field on your children, you do not know how seriously they come apon deaths door so quickly.
LOVE = SELF-LOVE = SELF-RESPECT = SELF-PRESERVATION
E
V
O
LOVE
O
V
E
bless you all
stupid
i mean that in a good way
stupid as in not fully informed as to the true potency of the drug Chrystal Meth, in what they can expect once this beast enters their brain and completely takes over in deminishing the impulse control ability of their brain, that this drug intentionally attacks, why Chrystal Meth is so rampant in spreading around the world today.
Stupid in listening to any words from of anyone who puts the drug Crystal Meth in their hand……….THEY ARE NOT YOUR FRIEND!!!!!
Stupid in not believing in themselves well enough in the first place, low-self esteem, to the extent they are of pure self-love self-respect self-preservation.
Where as Stupid sees, Stupid does, in following anyone involved with the potent dangerous drug Crystal Meth
Where all of the above is of the mad flood drowning ignorances of death destruction and obvious oppression of the divine child of God thruout the world, that all stems from the seemingly wise, unwise forefathers who did/do not know God, claiming as they do, where obvious it is of what is yet of all these generational wretched illness of the heart fucked world that is directly having an impact on every single one of eternal all YOU
where Stupid past meets Stupid present, shakes hands as though a true and faithful friend till the end, and all is ok in what becomes the Stupid future of the Stupid past, where the only thing of any value in life, is the present, that being the gift of blessed loving life of YOU STUPID!
lol
i get it from my brother, he was really hard on me like this as i kid, i mean yeah sure, maybe i was stupider than he was, what, five years older, does not mean i would always be as STUPID as he made me out to be of what i actually was, and still am, as regards God……..or at least i thought i was until God started talking to me, reassuring me daily…………..STUPID BROTHERs!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol
bless you all forever more
im a sister now brother! lol
nah nah nah nah nah…….
sticks OUT tongue
that lesbian thing again……..
oh never mine………
and if you go to Bora Bora without ‘me’, i am so not speaking to you ever again! lol
Biyatch!
ever see an adult child who has not eaten in days, try to painfully swallow some food for the first time after almost a week?
maybe in third world countrys of starvation is the only place…………that is until the potent beast of ignorance drug called Crystal Meth came along everyone, that is killing your beloved children daily.
WE HAVE TALK ABOUT IT EVERY DAY
in all our media
all our newspapers
all our magazines
God says, “WE ALL HAVE TO FACE THE BLESSED TRUTH THAT SERVES US.”
lest the beast of ignorance rises up and becomes victorious over our blessed pure loving tender hearts.
we are the Constant Wise Spiritual Loving Warriors of God’s unfailing TRUTH
blessings to all
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i am one such warrior of God who surrendered his blessed life to Jesus, of whom i realize purely 100%, my life truly does belong to Jesus, my true and faithful friend till my last breath, his breath that breathes his wise words of constant unfailing TRUTH i can no longer turn from, purely becoming what i always was and what i am
LOVE and the TRUTH of the WAY to LOVE thru unfailing TRUTH of eternal all YOU
forever more
bless you bless you bless you all
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i carry the mighty sword of TRUTH from God’s armory
and the mighty shield of FAITH that Jesus has in ‘me’
for sake of the blessed TRUTH of ALL thee that i know, exactly like ‘me’, where common sense of the TRUTH Jesus came to know of his blessed self, in so doing, 100% realize, the blessed TRUTH of all thee.
forever more
bless you bless you bless you all
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[scene cuts to Andyy lacing up his boots to go into the ghetto in finding his friend, fearlessly wisely unafraid of all those who are there who sense his presence of intolerance/tolerance]
[a gunshot rings out in the night……as police race past Andyy walking down the streets thru the valley of spiritual death, knowing his purpose in life is to serve God wisely unafraid of those who lurk and pray apon the weak and the sadly yet unwise misfortune that holds their precious life trapped in darkness asleep in binding ignorances of death destruction and oppression of the precious loving souls…..that is until that Biyatch Andyy shows up]
lol
as their smiles return to their faces, exclaiming, “Andyy!”
“Hey Norman! bless you”
[a candle flickers and is snuffed out by a breeze, as another precious lost child of God takes their last breath yet again]
God’s war of wisdom vs ignorance, love vs hate, apathy vs compassion continues……………
that is not mellow dramic people
that is what happened last night with one of your beloved children, God’s child, who was the result of ALL YOU of all souls connected at all times, past present future, where time does stand still in fully embracing this of this TRUTH, does it not?
mmm…this sword feels good in my hand, as another approaches the gates of the kingdom of heaven where i stand, of another who comes before Andyy, his sword drawn, exclaiming to them, “Stop! And who might you BE?”
lol
hey, did i tell you i had to play the lead role in high school of this knight with a sword who walked thru the valley of death, unafraid, becoming victorious over the one who sought my demise?
they filmed it
i was like, well why me?
because you are the only boy in the class Andyy
but what if im not?
of course they had no clue at the time, nor did i, come to think of it, just said it as a joke………
unfucking unbelievable this life so insane…….
lol
i just joined because my girlfriend lover was in the class…………….who now teaches as a professor at York University, Denise Nuttal
*gasp*
FACEBOOK!!!!!!!!!!!
omg
why didn’t i think of that?
you fucked yet..
stop fucking smoking
i will serenade you my lover…forever.but who is truly on your mind when you think of me?…i want to trust you but i cant.you promised me my dreams and i promised you my hand….do you understand the importance of that?the importance of me?i wont be a secret i will not tolerate it…i need you to show me off…i love you lover. dont lie …i need proof, my integrity and sensitve soul is at stake here…profess your love already!…..im afraid its not even existent to the world …M make him confess…
Hi, I’m Raven a Graphic designer in Iceland.
My friends and I have been working overtime working two jobs day & night trying to survive the recession that hit our country hard & to do something thats fun and different.
We have finished a music application for the iPhone and iPod Touch and are now looking for Artist to help us promote it, and promote them. What we are doing is so different and we are the first to do this on the Apple App store, (the game is due this christmas). I really want to give you access to a video or even the game (only works on iphone & ipod touch) with no obligations at all – we are just four guys trying to survive 🙂
If your curious please e-mail me back rave@dexoris.com and I’ll send you some more detailed less foggy info 🙂 and a video link. You would be the first person to see the game in action.
We have a website http://www.dexoris.com & our last game http://www.peter-und-vlad.com
Even though this is a special project, we are looking for artist to work with in developing new ideas for iphone games. I can think of one project that would be very interesting for kids… L8tr on that one 🙂
Best
Raven Ravenson
rave@dexoris.com
+354 6606366
i am bisexual
hi Cody
ya…..im fucked
hmmm…….it all comes down to trust…….
well, i always trust the future, in letting the past sort it’s SELF out in the present path we all eternally walk apon into the unfolding eternal future, where in time, all TRUTH becomes revealed……..the eternal day light of God’s divine WILL, for sake of eternal all YOU
Jesus and God is who is constantly always on my mind Cody, wisely so of all TRUTH and unTRUTH, when ever i think of any divine child of God’s heart mind body spirit and soul of eternal all YOU
you may not fully know ‘me’, but i know ALL YOU
it is not Jesus, God or i who cast any of you out of heaven, rather it is always the TRUTH that it is you who cast your own divine self out of heaven with Jesus, God and ‘me’
betray ‘me’, and you only betray your own divine self, where i am not able to betray any, as regards the purity love flawless healing feelings that is of you for another, and each other.
we are all one eternal generation evolving in what is the holy sacred revealing light that humilates all untruths of the divine child held in dark captivities afraid in binding fearful ignorances yet alseep.
why it is you are before ‘me’, seeking the TRUTH
even if you do not realize you are doing it…….subconsciously
i am wide awake at all times
Gabriel, “Who goes there? Annouce yourself before God!”
well ok, im not really as fucked up as some of you, or at least that is what i keep telling myself, wondering why i even think i am……….
that is a hint, for those of you who understand sbuconscious testing of boundaries afraid child within transference…..
huh?
what?
oh never mine………
go back to sleep Biyatches!
you won’t remember much of who i was anyway, yet you will all feel my life presence of the activist i was, for all eternity
which holds true for every soul, past present future, no matter truth or untruth that is constantly reverberating thru eternity of everything anyone ever says or does at all times, all of affect/effect/direct/indirect constant connectedness of one eternal generation of eternal all YOU
forever more
blessed is the wise descerning loving compassionate divine child of God’s heart mind body spirit and soul of eternal all YOU
you know, i’ve always wondered if i would be a good motivational speaker, you know, like Bill Clinton that everyone loves…….always wanted to see him, where they did not invite me to dinner, asking me to pay for my own meal at their dinner party?
what the fuck is up with that?
fuck
don’t they know who i am?
oh yeah, they don’t even know who the R…….yet
lol
you wanna hold my hand in front of a million people Cody?
shining radiant brilliant bright as your most loving lover of everlasting loving life?
i dare you
i double dare you
to be sure, someone will be holding my hand, just as they always have, just as they always WILL
of what is the constant yearning trueness aspect of the divine child of God’s intuitive knowingness certainty, that only love feels good enough to always feel, at all times
who i am
YOU
bless you bless you bless you all
can you see me playing a role in Romeo and Juliet?
ok, which role?
and can you feel your own divine self of eternal day light awareness of true ‘real’ YOU as i do
do as i do
oh, somebody just do ‘me’ for fuck sakes
fuck
lol
im bored…………………….put the guitar down and come fuck me damn it!
NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol
ok….enough of the down time, back to work everyone!
oh, Cody wants to send you a demo, i said, not until you master it first!
practice practice practice
no such thing as talent
your music really does make my hands glow Cody
bless you
ya, ‘quit’ smoking…….i like that direction
thanks
dysfunction is what it is that obliviously leaves another to feel rejection
another direction i like
bin there, done that one way to many times
no pun intended………lol
now that is funny! ha
“TAXI!!!!!!!!!!!”
“oh sorry hun, no smoking when i am in the car”
“just take the next taxi behind this one”
hey, they banded smoking in the car, illegal now, when i child is in the car.
question is, which child are they talking about?
the immature childish one of course! lol
where child like is the most wise carefree true one of ALL not childish.
thanks Scottie
bless you
you’ll feel better each & everyday if you don’t smoke, everyday you’ll wake up feeling more self love less self harm.
ya, i know, and i am purely tuned into that truth, of my ‘real’ self, the kid who started smoking at age 15, no questioning in my the truth of this whatsoever……..i have the patches, just need to take that last step into grace, where even if of one more day of denial, i lend control to that side of me that is of useless absurd self-harm.
there is a vulnerable thing about quiting smoking too, a self-conscious thing for me that goes way back to when i first started, sorta like a hard to accept who i am thing, during a tender vulnerable time of my life, my mom and dad splitting, my sense of security stripped away from me at the time, realizing what i had not knowing i had it, swept away, the mad flood of alcoholism that affects everyone so dramitically, that spark in me turning to crushing self conscious insecurity…..
although i obviously want to explore this fully, love who i really really am……….vulnerable, a good thing, the true nature of divine self, yet i am not vulnerable any more in many ways of descering who is healthy in approach for me, using my feelings that feel truth, comfortable, uncomforable………their issues, not mine, compatibility…….vital.
vital vitality
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i found Cody in the mad flood drowning cold cold raging river, able drown him, weak and weary from physical mental emotional exhaustion………..
he reached out his hand to me as i took hold to bring him ashore
don’t let go of my hand Cody
don’t listen to those who are not able to be a healthy true and faithful friend till the end, themselves caught in the raging mad flood drowning river.
bless you bless you bless you Cody
and welcome ashore
pay careful attention to me in the days, weeks, months to come, of one who is of God’s powerful revealing truth wisdom able to break this binding chains that yet have a hold of your precious loving spirit like my own.
don’t let go of my hand Cody
i love you
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look out cruel world, here we come, where all of you shall see with clarity the absolute truth you all shall soon BEhold, what holy joyful absolute carefree exceeding grace happiness purely looks and constantly feels like, when you behold the two of us next Pride Day here in Toronto, of two warriors of God, dressed in white Native headdresses to the ground, beautiful …white bone armored breast plates, of two identical spiritual soulmates, of God that we finally met.
Purely in know, Cody is the one for ‘me’, and for all you to easily see, who you all purely constantly R within.
i love him with all that i am
bless you Cody
Our love is TRUTH
hey M, you got any feathers around the house i can borrow?
wait till you purely see and feel this ‘one’
oh so beautiful, you will tremble at the sight of these two powerful warriors who are completely without fear of this unwise world surround.
this will BE Cody’s first Pride march
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i love you all
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only love feels good enough to always feel….who you all purely r within
bless you bless you bless you all
forever more
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thank you God for Cody
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oooo….this last step to grace is starting off so perfectly, fuck! lol
bless you all
forever more
my heart needs a love dove, my heart needs YOU
trance music lends to one feeling the pure running spirit of YOU in constant flowing inner desire for constant love feelings, of what is the constant yearning aspect of the divine child of God YOU within
blessed YOU of eternal ALL forever more
and the constrasting ‘lack’ there of for any yet in process towards coming fully into constant knowingness certain of this trueness aspect of their own divine self, of what is constant eternal day light divine self awarenesss certainty devoid of doubt, where the contrast serves as the truth of others who too are yet in said process, a higher subtle intellect awareness platitude, or threshold doorway to the kingdom of heaven halo perspective that is love devoid of doubt, where darkness of others no longer troubles us, or is able to toss us to and fro as before, rather blessed compassionate tears flow instead of this unawareness truth of others yet sadly of the lessor uncertainty pervading obviously in their outward appearance condition of their precious loving child of God within, yet trappped, gripped by fear, the body language, the nervous tremble in voice, seeking to take the one more step to grace they purely feel within that is there within eternal all YOU
bless is the precious pure constant loving divine divine child of God YOU within
Cody’s favorite video of Bjork………..2
it takes courage to constantly enjoy BEing YOU
so many souls lost along the way….
smudging day tomorrow, a Native ritual for cleansing the spirit, cleansing a house, and it works!
truly a purifying experience
then we are off to the sweat lodge for more spiritual atonement reconnecting within
issues r issues r issues
left unchecked the issues remain unresolved…..
a pipe dream…..
i really need to stop dreaming of people in ways they purely are within, and not in outward appearance of how i purely know all can BE.
somewhere over the rainbow……..
it’s not ‘me’ who ever gives up on thee, rather it is thee who gives up on ‘me’
i love everyone
i do not love ‘their’ unresolves issues…….
ever been patronized by someone who has issues i do not?
the falsehood ego masks want over my dearest of friends……
not ever ‘me’, one who is wisely free…………again.
fcuk
worlds collide……..compatibility is only possible when both are on the same page……do not blindly deny the actual truth of the compatiblity issues of physcial mental emotional sexual spiritual…….
TRUTH
some are more evolved than others.
can i come over now……i promise to quit smoking…..my true and faithful friend till the end, like we always have been since what, 1995?
i ask, who truly truly is the pure ONE for ‘me’?
hint: rhymes with thee
grow the fuck up everybody
and stop hurting your own divine self in all your useless egocentric false hypocrisy heart you turn towards, away from……..
and i am the one with the problem…….ya right fuckers!
deniars
liars
slyers
hypno-goodbyers
yeah though i walk thru the valley of spiritual death, i do not fear falsehoods who cannot see ‘me’, comprehend ‘me’….yet
bless you all
come over … no smoking, no drugs and no running away
ya, 1993…….when i fully woke up
no running away from my pure true ‘real’ self that constantly knows only LOVE is all the divine child of us all constantly yearns, of all souls, the world over, past present eternal future, of ONE generation unto God at all times.
inescapable LIGHT ofeternal day TRUTH of your divine self that serves YOU
forever more
bless you all
bless you always Cody
i love you
always and forever more
bless you all
Cody?
the lovers spoke with one another this morning, in wisely addressing vunerabilities of failing one another this past week they first met, overwhelmed by each other’s presence…..both of same reckless past experiences…..conceeding to the TRUTH the creator wills apon them both, divine self wisdom, for sake of the path ahead for them both, together, or appart, always spiritually connected they shall always remain, just as you and i have all this time.
TRUTH….we are not safe enough for one another or another…..vulnerabilities…..yet
~
so how is your day going?
i want to run away and i cannot keep running away from ‘me’
do you still love ‘me’?
will you always love ‘me’?
‘that is all i am wisely looking to always constantly feel
of God ‘that’ i do
do as i do
friend till the end, i remain, till my last breath, my last words, with eternal all YOU
God WILLING ‘me’
i don’t want to die, but i don’t live either…..without love
bless you all
how do you know if someone is sexually attracked to you?
they are obvious in wanting to take your clothes off every chance they get…..
hmmmm…..
they run towards YOU and with YOU, not ever away from YOU
and if they do, well, they are not the one for you, meant for you by God, your true soulmate friend till the end
i am
ok, so let’s say i am the soulmate friend of Jesus, and Jesus is the soulmate friend of everyone, then i am a soulmate friend of eternal all YOU, am i not?
and no, i don’t do pot!
the lovers spoke again….
ok Cody, peace be to you always and bless your sacred path ahead at all times of only love feels good enough for YOU to always feel and constantly BE
bless you bless you bless you always forever more with ONLY LOVE
just because we love another, does not mean they love us as much as we do them
i don’t unnecessarily trouble myself with pain when they don’t, of all individuals of their own thoughts and feelings for what turns them on, as evident by how many tiomes i found myself alone while involved with you, just as i yet am and will be now, your telling me you won’t be there.
ok, that is all i wanted to know….the TRUTH
thank you
peace be to you
and peace be to you
forever more
love andy
ok M, let’s go paint the town a different color….hmmmmm….im thinking rainbow, with a splash of bisexuality pink and blue, like in 1998
either get with ‘me’ or ‘me’ of another, just make sure you get ‘me’
blessings to all
ok….i am acting like an emotional jerk, i confess, when a friend needs me to just be a friend, in what is my fortitude of wisdom and sticktoitive strength of staying the course, as i have for so many years, my destiny, of stepping up to the plate, the student who knows his own sacred footsteps as relates to others, wishing i had someone like me strong enough to kick my ass when i need it……..
hey, did Freud have a big penis?
just wondering………. lol
i love him with all that i am
and the pink flamingo award goes to………….Andyy
duh!
still, bisexuality is purely real, where of pure spiritual constant love at the same level as my homosexual self-love pure and constantly true, for sure, my bisexuality is the same, is it not?
perhaps the intimacy pure yearning of my bisexuality(likeness of the virgin spirit, in no having been with females since…..since…..oh fuck, i forget now….lol) plays into my homosexuality, yes?
hmmmm……interesting……one and he same spirit, where the disconnect i think comes with people’s inability of openmindedness to he reality check of just how real bisexuality is for one well adjusted in their own self-acceptance, and trust of course, where in likeness of my secret homoerotic fantasy feelings as a teen, for sure i would continue to be of feeling of my homosexual self, especially considering how many years living as a homosexual, in other words, for sure in how much i do love my female self……..
the pure truth is i do purely feel of transexuality……
if my female self has sex with a male, what is that……straight, right?
and what of my female self having sex with female…..lesbian, right?
and my male self having sex with a male? gay.
and my male self having sex with a female….straight
and what of my female having sex with female of a male? what is that? gay lesbian?
see what i mean?
it’s all just fucked up for transexuals, is it not?
or is it less of me that is fucked up, and more the unopenmindedness of the world that does not know the transexual perspective until such a time as i have, in fully embracing and loving he tender trueness of who i really really am, so pure, so true, i am both female and male everyone.
kinda obvious all this time, have i not been?
i still say, the female female self love sex is best
and male male sex self love sex is best
whether of male or female body, the male and female is of eveone’s brain, and here is another point of view, which points to primal beginning, all of us still of the original design exactly that of the beginning, that neither the male and female are any different at all, purely speaking, as far as the purity of love of either is able feel and be of their own self-love awareness.
on a beautiful positive note, ever notice he shimmer around the morning sunrise when wearing sunglasses(be careful here, eye protection is manditory!).
you can sense the purity of your own pure deep core self-love feelings when meditatively watching the shimmer at the edge of the sun, where when i watch the sun come up, i watch it as though the outline of a person’s head, of a spiritual being, in purely feeling the spiritual being i am….try this, and you will feel how i feel for all of YOU, of what is the purity love awareness awakening of the divine child of God’s heart mind body spirit and soul of eternal all YOU
there is no other purity love level beyond this meditative experiential technigue that i am aware of.
oh, and you should initially try this alone in your at ease pure inner meditative relaxed true ‘real’ self.
‘that’ is how i purely feel about eternal all YOU in observing what is of his great wealth fallen into such absurd poverty Jesus speaks of, purely i know the meaning of this.
and now, so do all YOU
bless you all
ok everyone, this is my final request…..
all i want is someone who genuinely authentically sincerely emotional honestly safely wants to hold onto my motherfucking belt and not ever let go, of no thoughts of such in letting go, just as i purely do them, and when it wanes, for whatever or whoever reason, then i ask, how would that purely feel for YOU?
for anyone?
i don’t allow myself to pretend for too long while of the lackluster zeal so obvious that i feel with all you lameass pretender one’s, so when you turn around and i am no where to be found, go to the words of Jesus in not ever wondering why i walked away, “Where all untruthfulness(falshoods divine self creates and hides behind) is, you will not find ‘me’.”
i confess, profess, i don’t want anything less!
everyone is where they are, as they are, according to how life has been for them, according to their taking 100% ownership responsible hold of their own life as the wise helmsman, or in not letting their true ‘real’ self to take the helm, in what amouts to blind following the blind for alot of individuals in stuckness cycle pattern behavior.
i am out
been out along time actually
not something one can appreciate as i do, in what i call safe distance appreciation awareness of living a blessed more authentic genuine healthy positive mental emotional physical sexual spiritual well being, because i chose it for ‘me’.
Just as God is not able to choose anyone as a student, without 100% surrender to the truth that God is the most wise of any past present eternal future of eternal all YOU in humbling your divine self to fully come into divine self awareness in crossing the threshold of divine truth awareness awakening as one does, in realizing indeed, God is your most wise teacher of divine true ‘real’ self YOU of eternal all YOU, for pure blessed sake of the constant feeling YOU that God knows without any doubt whatsoever the divine TRUTH about YOU, ‘that’ only love feels good enough for you to constantly feel.
let go of my belt Biyatches for another, and i am not going to wait around and let my needs faulter while you play your silly mind fuck games you now will be playing by your self or another.
cya all later Biyatches
i am running for my sacred life hear now, of what i found within, the holy sacred treasure of holy joyful absolute carefree inner happiness of ‘me’, wise ‘me’ of another who is of sincere diligent desire as i am in BEcoming the constant radiant brilliant bright OUTward appearance i am within eternal all YOU, of the sacred divine constant WILL of God’s heart mind body spirit and soul in what is the constant sacred mirror of eternal all YOU.
is anyone listening at all to a fucking word i am saying?
fuck
[Andyy obviously hasn’t gotten laid lately, and she is beyond pissed off with all the lameass excusing dysfunctional using]
fuck ‘that’
it is not for ‘me’
or ‘me’ of anyone
bless you all in wise descerning as my own
somewhere over the rainbow is where you all oneday shall BEhold ‘me’
sadly, i am there spiritually alone at this time…….
enough of the trivilizing lameass whatevers
im done with every single one….time to go…..on with the show.
you hurt on you in denying ‘me’
blessings to all
catch you on the other side one blessed sunshine rainbow day……i WILL BE there, and already, i am there!
keep up or get left behind, as i am not blind
blessed is the divine true ‘real’ YOU of constant flawless healing feelings of overflowing abundant healthy holy joyful absolute carefree happiness that comes with what is a healthy approach to YOU
there is no other way
i’ve been down all the dead end dysfunctional streets everyone, and i do not wish to return to lessons i learned along time ago.
and if you cannot handle the truth i speak of, in speaking back at me with cajoling mockery mad laughter, well, i spoke the TRUTH, as God requests of ‘me’ to do, do as i do, for sake of eternal all YOU
bless you all
cioa
i only want need think feel and CONSTANLTY DESERVE what i am within of eternal all YOU, of what i was and yet am with everyone of you, but none of you grabbed hold of my belt, like i waited for so long for someone to so easly joyfully do, what you want 2.
so don’t ever wonder why i am not there any more Biyatches, and BEhold the truth when i return with a most loving lover holding my motherfucking belt, as ONE of who i constantly am……..YOU
[Andyy walks off stage again, muttering away, “useless fucking lameass excusing lying denying slying goodbying dis me for another Biyatches! fine, enjoy! Ciao!”…….as the door closes behind her, in finding another lover, returning one fine day, God’s WILL her own WILL, that no one knew or desired to purely know as some of you do, do as i do, according to the passerby i am, as Jesus was 2. Who has time for blue? ]
tired of feeling isolated as though i am deserving not of love?
what the fuck?
fuck off
get real someday Biytaches!
TEA!!!!!!!! WHERE’s MY TEA!!!!!!!!!!
thanks everyone
bless you all
……………i made it thru
………………………………………..2 ‘me’
………………………………………..bless you
thanks Rosie
bless you always with everlasting constant LOVE, ‘that’ which YOU constantly always R, and have been all this time
forever more
and more
and more
and where the fuck did all these beautiful homosexuals come from?
oh yeah, the same place we all sadly enter into this yet unwise world surround….
from the womb of GOD
ONE world
ONE sky
ONE word
ONE, y?
and as for YOU Madonna….there is only ONE way to say thank YOU to YOU….
in person, of course, duh!
So let’s get this party started, what R YOU waiting 4?
and you say, “Christ mass”
and i say, “What of it?”
no wait….
and i say, “PRESENT!!!!!! lol
get it?
oh never mine…..
fuck….if i hear one more Christmas song, i swear…..alot, don’t i?
hey, you edited my last post….damn, that was a good one…..
Dear Madonna.
I’m not sure did you get this message,I’d like to somebody listen to me and I think you are wonderful person,but I’m not sure is this possible to talk with you somehow,i’m alone with two kids and very illness Mum-is it to big dream to just talk with You?
Paul from Poland
I forgot,I’m so sorry,if my english isn’t so good.
Paul from Poland.
go ahead Paul, say what is on your mind….don’t mind me, im just the annoying inhouse mental patient psyche ward resident….according to sum who don’t know ‘me, or desire to purely know ‘me’…..i’ll shut up for abit, the stage is yOURs
Hi Holy Harlet Angel,who are you,sorry,but I don’t understand most things what you wrote?
Greetings to you
your divine self intuitively yearns to understand Paul, at all times, constantly of yearning listening feeling subconscious seeking as some say, where by means of pure mediative fearless unencumbered deliberate approach surrendering to your divine self’s subconscious higher subtle intellect true listening ability, by means of flawlessly feeling in meditative unrestricted and undistracted by the useless noise nescience of the world around you, you learn to how to meditatively deliberately slow into your graceful divine self’s subconscious true ‘real’ YOU within, your original personality, yet is who you purely constantly are, regardless of exterior mask one might create/adapt as your own(learned) to hide behind, where once of willing wise disarming surrendering of the masks, your subconscious true ‘real’ YOU, is able to learn of your divine self by means of purely feeling, slowly, gracefully, truthfully, purely, the wise words of the adult divine child true ‘real’ self Jesus, just as was of the greater ability of the blind man undistracted by the worldly, having no sight, where sight restored, was actually sight restored to his divine heart mind body spirit and soul in coming fully into clarity of eternal day light awareness of his own divine self in exact same oneness sameness of the constant flowing love that is of Jesus, is of the divine self eternall all YOU, is what is of the magical child’s holy joyful absolute carefree happiness in uniting with another magical child’s constant yearning of constant flowing love unbridled for the two soulmates to constantly BE of each blessed day they wake to, the excitement of hearts racing in sweet anticipation in seeing one another as they constantly yearn 2.
still with ‘me’?
and likewise, is why we feel such sadness when of experiencing the magical fearless loving divine child of another, who waunders away from us as a potential loving lover eternal friend, if one is not of the wiser understandings of why one would do such, in what amounts to what is of the ease of distracting others who do come between us in life like they often do, especially in the gay community, where even if you are in a long term partner relationship with someone, other fags have no consideration whatsoever in snatching your lover away from you for a fling, the excitement itself of the fling, no different than when the two commited partners met, and well, one is left out, to feel what that feels like……”It fucking SUCKS Biyatches! Fuck you!” lol
Does not make anyone bad at all, whatsoever, as the same magical feelings is one and the same for us all, across all unwise divisional boundaries of the world, beit race religion sexism orientation status wealth politic………..in what is of the trueness aspects of divine self awareness understanding…….all the divine child of God, all entering into the unwise world from the same place, all as one, all from the womb of God, just as Jesus too entered into this world.
with Jesus however, the plausible explaination was that his growing meditative higher subtle intellect awareness at some point opened wide his soul to the channeling of God’s eternal spirit, or as some call it, the Holy Spirit, what i prefer to call an alien life force entity of higher intelligence level than we yet are at, able to communicate with us telepathically in wise knowingness of our intuitive clairvoyance ability, even of those not awake in awareness of such, we the offspring of the alien life force entity in the universe, who migrated across the universe to here, some 4 billion years ago, which is not that long in universe time…..a blip.
which makes more sense to ‘me’
ever wonder of your drifting off to sleep dream state, that sees images flashing in front of you? Pay close attention to the images by means of your flawless feeling ability awareness(fearlessly), and you may realize what i sense, something is deliberately goin on within our brain, which may simply be our super computer brain of constant computation seeking understanding(subconscious seeking) like we do……did you know our brain is more active when we sleep than awake?…….or the plausible understanding that an alien life force entity is of deliberate programing our brains with learning, for sake of whatever the higher intelligence alien is wisely aware of ar regard the eternal future ahead, and the upcoming pitfalls of avoidance…..
still with ‘me’?
hey, don’t laugh, this is what was of the compelling feeling reasoning of Jesus in wisely surrendering his physical existence in stepping across the threshold of his own death in surrending to the beast of ignorances surround him in the world, that he knew they would do, of deliberate knowingness mirroring of the TRUTH of the ugliness of our sadly unattended precious divine self submerged within, that Jesus was of constant awareness everywhere he walked with everyone he came apon, just as anyone can learn to do, like wise phsycologists do, although i feel Jesus was of the greater 100% constant sensing of all who came before him, which lends to the plausibel TRUTH that who ever the man Jesus was at one point, became oneness with the alien’s omnipotent macro thinking comprehensive awareness thinking, of God as some say, or the Holy Spirit.
In my studies, Jesus does speak about sending a protecting spirit, which is indicative that Jesus became aware of an invisible spirit realm that (may) exist, actually on numerous occasions, there is conversations that point to the existence of a wise eternal spirit realm, which in my opinion, has to do with what may be beyond the universe…..we just don’t know what is there…….do we?
The power of our telescopes continue to peer further and further, and so far, there seems to be no end to how vast the universe actually is, although some argue otherwise, that the universe currently(according to our telescoping technology at this time) is 156 billion light years wide…..let’s just say, there may be more going on than we know, yes?
i keep an open mind, the only way a student is able to learn, yes?
for me, the biggest downfall ahead for mankind, is our yet turning away from the pure flawless trueness aspects of our divine self, in what God refers to as our greatest foe, ‘that’ of ‘Crucial Lacking of desire for divine self-awareness wisdom’.
and when you sit with ‘that’, you do realize the exacting truth of ‘that’, in what yet is of all wretcheness that grips the unwise(sorry…absurdly unwise) apathetic unloving condition of so many divine children of God’s heart mind body spirit and soul, past, present, and sadly yes, the future of what is these horrid generational mad flood drowning deluge of deathful destructive oppressive ignorances that fearfully bind and blind the divine child’s hioly joyful absolute carefree constant yearning for constant happiness, unless of course YOU are Madonna, which in Madonna’s heart, we all R.
forever more
bless you all
~ constantly R
i am…BE Cause…WE constantly all R
anyone who wants to purely KNOW Madonna, BE without doubt…..the defenseless children R who Madonna sacredly cares about the most in her heart of hearts, her heart pure and true just as the children she dedicatedly devotedly diligently determinedly attends to each blessed day we all wake to.
‘me’, i am just one who is seeking the Holy Grail, and i am quite certain, i found it…..a macro thinking halo perspective of divine self-awareness wisdom, what the kingdom of heaven actually constantly is, of constant flowing love devoid of the useless generational unwise doubtful fear binding annoying annoying annoying….did i meantion annoying, untrue falsehoods that go against the trueness aspects of yOUR divine self.
Clasp your hands tightly in front of you, and meditatively slowly realize who is of the constant intuitive knowingness certainty feeling of the holding of hands.
yOUR divine self
blessed is the constant intuitive knowingness certainty feelings of divine self of eternal all YOU
indeed, the grace of the poverty stricken divine child of starvation, is the one who teaches you the most about your own divine self in likeness and form, do they not?
bless you bless you bless you all
forever more
peace be to you
and peace be to you
bless you all
on the second day, Jesus notices that the sobing of those below him has stopped, of blessed purity love flowing and glowing within all those yet there unable to leave his side, of holy joyful tears like his own, in the eyes of all who fearlessly are there looking into his eyes, as he does theirs.
the wind buffeting his beautiful hair back and forth, of blessed calm serene all around, the constant flowing of love devoid of doubt encompasses them all in oneness exact sameness as Jesus knows they are of in constant flawless feeling as his own, in what is the surrendered spirit of the divine self of them all as ONE of united pure feelings of the blessed warm sunshing apon them.
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in the quiet air, they flawlessly feel their pure feelings in watching and hearing another drop of their beloved friend’s blood striking the ground, all of them realizing without doubt, what it is Jesus constantly knows they are able feel as he does, ‘that’ not another drop of blood of anyone should ever make ‘that’ sound, ever again from this day forward, in what is the oneness sameness Jesus knows of eternal all YOU, likewise of all YOU who R there without doubt of Jesus not being any different in yOUR flawless wise divine self-awareness YOU
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hey M, still waiting on those feathers…come on, i wanna kick some ass!
I mean how sexy will i look with the loin cloth, these sexy sexy legs of mine, the leather strapping clad feet, no man made materials on this one, all leather, bone, feather and sinue holding it all together, the smudge ritual before the march, then, kick to the music that floods the air, without a care, up we all rise from the ashes of death destruction and oppression in purely flawlessly feeling of holy joyful inner happiness set wisely free…….
the one hundred satin colored clown thing with the kids would be beautiful too…..
oh, you guys are so lame………
i jest…….
bless you
i am merely a student of ancient Christian antiquities Paul, twenty years in devoted study now, my greatest meditative discovery awareness passion in life, growing in exceeding divine self-awareness wisdom knowingness certainty, just as is eternal all YOU
forever more
andyy
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it is God who summons ‘me’ to ‘me’
it is God who summons YOU
bless you
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[andyy trips thru the door, yet again, in one of his wakiest outfits EVER, as he/she makes his/her way to center stage to once again address those in attendance, a side kick dressed all in feather at his/her side……..]
hmmmmmmm….i wonder who ‘that’ could possibly BE?
i mean, they would have to purely and truly love Andyy completely in order for Andyy to constantly BE of their obvious inner joyful happiness constantly exploding like it does…..ALL THE TIME!
mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
hey, come on, i want to have everlasting none stop holy joyful fun!
coward!
ok, i take that back……..
it is me who is afraid of you
what?
well, it’s true….. lol
they all ran away from ‘me’….ahhhh, peace at last
Sorry,but I haven’t a time to read all this comments what you wrote,beside I’m not interest what you got to say about religion,I respect you,but it really doesn’t matter for me-thats it what I wanted to saying and I don’t wanna even read that.
Ok.I hope you will not answer to me no more again,you have to know,that I’m not interest,as I wrote before what you got to say about religion,really with whole respect for you, but I really don’t care
you are not alone in your apathy
it is not religion….it is pure 100% factual findings reesearch
argh….the gnashing of teeth useless waste of my precious time
whatever
happiness is God’s revenge, purely in a blessed way mirroring TRUTH of all within
hey, they walked awat from ‘me’, not i them…
merry chistimas !!!!!!!!!!
Happy New Year Madonna! 🙂
100 000 000 000 000 000 000 000 000 000 children are going die today!
100 000 000 000 000 000 000 000 000 000 children are going die today! 100 000 000 000 000 000 000 000 000 000 children are going die today! 100 000 000 000 000 000 000 000 000 000 children are going die today! 100 000 000 000 000 000 000 000 000 000 children are going die today! 100 000 000 000 000 000 000 000 000 000 children are going die today! 100 000 000 000 000 000 000 000 000 000 children are going die today! 100 000 000 000 000 000 000 000 000 000 children are going die today! 100 000 000 000 000 000 000 000 000 000 children are going die today! 100 000 000 000 000 000 000 000 000 000 children are going die today!
what fucking day are you talking about?
oh, ok…..you do understand the eternal day we walk in of affect/effect/direct/indirectness of eternal all YOU yet to come, of my motherfucking time running out in every god damn effort each second of my preciously life to wake you all the fuck up from your ignoramous fucked generation tabooness motherfucking haters!
ya well fuck you all!
you are about as much god damn fun as jumping of a god damn building
well ok, this is me after getting bashed……….where momentarily i hate everyone! lol
im fucking sick of it all the fucking time, 24 fucking 7, with all these small dick anal retentive fucktards who don’t know what we know, no, just keep showing up at our god damned funerals that result from all you who do not know God, nor desire to know God, as evident that you do not know your own divine self, in all your ego maniac lying ass boring as fuck, fucking fucked fuckity fuck fuck fuck right off!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
fuck, i had so many friends who will be looking for me today, and where is Andy, oh, the fucking killed him, didn’t they!
you fucking low life scum of the fucked earth lying wimp bastards in all your bullshit hypocrite means spirited murderous mouth!
ya well, i have God with me fuckers, of all you who do not truly give a sweet ass fucking shit of your own life in what is all your lameass boring misery filled heads of garbage nothingness……
fuck fuck fuck fuck off!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol
ah, there, that’s better……im ok now………
lol
Hello Maddy,
Thought that I was bad enough, but you really do get them. Are you really such a bad girl that you should be so plagued by such crap heads? Why can’t they use your blog as it was intended? And all this God crap, they seem to spell it backwards. If there really is a god, then he must be standing there with a tear in every buttonkole. I think you deserve better than this.
Bill. And as seems to be the custom here, LOL
Self-actualization into divine self awarenes is an invidual catharsis process of spiritual life journey nurturing awakening and protecting of pure constant loving flawless feeling divine self of an unwise world we all unknowingly entered into as riff with so many others just like us who get distracted by whatever and wehatever plodding along aimlessly as many do.
God knows the divine self of us all of whatever distracting away is of our entire life, away from purely knowing our eternal day ligh of divine self-actualization awareness that is angelic true natured.
Everyone has insight or lack of insght opinions on divine self awareness to one extent or another, where you may want to keep an open mind to those who may know without doubt what the kingdom of heaven constantly is, of those like myself who spent years in research delving into self-actualization of our vulnerable true self internalizing wisdom of God’s divine will objective.
We do not have to look far in life to see and feel the reality check that indeed, just as Jesus was, we too are all born into the generational binding false teaching and learning forefather ignorances all around us so obvious and easy for us to feel the truth of such in first hand life experience, second had life observing, of what is the untruth truth of all these aimless haphazrd plodding along in life fateful false unwise paths of death destruction and oppression of the true natured holy joyful absolute carefree happy divine children without having taken time to cultivate within them the wise compassionate loving helmsman Jesus Christ as our best true and faithful best friend in life, far wiser than most realize in approaching his sacred mirroring cross of the untruth truths Jesus wants the divine self of us all to come fully into feeling descerning awareness beware, lest your precious life becomes unwisely snared by the mad flood drowning generational ignorances of all death destruction and oppression of your true natured divine self.
Saying things against God, well hey, speack against that you obviously do not know all you want, you hurt only your own divine self in the end, lead only you into the cruel gutters, not ever Jesus or God, and those who have come to know Jesus and God as i have.
Speak all you want against Jesus , like so many afraid to come a true and faithful friend of wisedom beyond your current comprehension, of all able to easily comprehend.
Do not demonically speak against the Holy Sprit, lest you leave the divine self’s soul wide open unprotected in likeness and form of wretched twisting derranged demonic spiritedness to enter as you as the host.
Light shines forth from one of light, if they do not shine purely forth, they are (falsehood)darkness, are they not?
The kingdom of Heaven destiny is a ‘constant’ wise compassionate loving macro thinking divine self-actualization conducive nurturing healing awakening protective HALO PERSPECTIVE for the divine child of any of eternal all YOU to take wise refuge in wise constant intuitive awareness decerning ability clarity truth descerning, by means of your feelings, of the untruth of all fateful in nature binding blinding mad flood generational forefather FALSE teachings of death destruction and oppressionof divine self happiness.
‘that’ is what the Kingdom of Heaven really really is at all times.
any questions?
Clearly we know the greatest foe of the forefathers of all deathful war destruction and oppression, without doubt, we know, their foe as is yet ours, ‘Crucial Lacking of Desire for Divine Self-Actualization Wisdom Restoration(salvation OUT of generational flaseness).’
indeed, our greatest foe is ‘forgetFULLness’ of divine self within us all
i love Jesus
Jesus loves ‘me’
Jesus loves YOU
forever more
blessed is the divine child of God’s heart mind body spirit and soul of eternal all YOU
forever more
i have to say i am somewhat dismayed by those who do not hear(feel) the divine self true words of God of what i am saying, the wise words and thoughts of Jesus now my thoughts and words about the Kingdom of Heaven found.
im like huh? what? you don’t want to hear about the kingdom of heaven that continues to elude so many, you of so many fateful binding paths of death destruction and oppression?
im sorry….i too am of forgetFULLness foein purely remembering the wise truth, “Oh yeah, many there are of eternal all YOU yet asleep in ignorance of ‘me’
hey, i was thinking, of how many souls there are in the world, of so so so many we do not ever get to meet in our short life lived, as though they did not exist as we pass thru this world. When you really sit with that, that is just sad is it not? Yet one more think i don’t like about being born only to die a short while later….my pet peeve.
Good thing i am an eternal spirit, yes?
motherfuckers! lol
bless you all
fine, spit on me all you want hateful wretched fuckers who act as though you know ‘me’ of someone you have not ever met!
i mean, is it not obvious you are truly and asshole in saying that Bill?
like fuck off and die ok?
to be sure, i will not return here again to listen to yet more of your useless unwise wretched foul tasting bitter gnashing of teeth outside the kingdom of heaven halo i dwell in.
puke puke puke
spiritual death is what you are
puke puke puke
you serve God in speaking against God?
you may want to be careful with the unwise path you are on.
there are those who purely know ‘me’ in order to purely love ‘me’
then there are those who clearly do not
i’ve had enough
goodbye
After eight days burried alive in the rubble, apon shining light into darkness of a tomb he was burried in, boy says, “You have given me Life(Light)”
http://www.cnn.com/video/data/2.0/video/world/2010/01/21/ac.pkg.haiti.rescue.cnn.html
Stop calling quake victims looters ~ i agree.
Who are we all nice and comfortable, armchair warriors twits who mostly do nothing to help, worse than a looter, spiritually speaking, where vastness of devastation exists in their hearts, and in ours where they are not, in likeness and form of racist mentality during this crucial time of survival recovery.
To define someone as a looter is not simply to describe him, or her, through an act, it is to mak…e a moral judgment. It is to characterize the person as lawless and criminal. It connotes someone who is without self-restraint; an animal; wanton and depraved. It is this kind of news media lacking concern mentality that perpetuates and slows the recovery of what clearly is these outcasts of society in us not being purely sensitive to their situation of desperation survival, so please stop covering this in media that paints them as such, of adding more harm than good, of our insatiable hypocrisy heart we thrive in, where spiritually, we are the ones of spiritual dead grave situation when we do, that is far worse than physical grave situation of the desperation survival mode of all those in Haiti, of a country brought to it’s knees and destroyed, that was financially poor to begin with.
bless you all in loving assist WITH Haiti
http://www.cnn.com/2010/OPINION/01/21/Charles.haiti.earthquake.looting.race/index.html?hpt=C2
Peter Gabriel, one of my favorite people in life. Truly a purely compelling video. We can BE US, just for ONE Day.
http://cnn.com/video/?/video/bestoftv/2010/01/21/lkl.gabriel.heroes.cnn
Light of Life
*prayers*
One can only imagine their feelings of blessed light shining into their tombs, of loving hands reaching into them, having no doubt whatsoever in their minds and in their hearts, of the greatest hidden treasure beyond all measure, merely ‘that’ of loving feelings purely felt.
bless you all
forever more
http://www.youtube.com/view_play_list?p=831CCA6DE3B88DDB
my God my God my God
holy holy holy
don’t look back
keep going everyone
we can out run this vile wretched shit
they kiled him over a bag of fucking rice?
i can’t stop crying blessed tears over that one
put down your guns that seduce you
Hello Andy,
Your answer shows your state of mind and soul. I seem to have hit tje nail on the head. You self elevated twats always react to critic in this manner, being above all reproach. Wake up man, you are’nt the center of all things. There are other opinions, which are all valid.
My own experience in life is that people who take God in their mouths too often, have not and will never understand. What a mimose.
Bill
merchant’s of God do not know God as i constantly do, as God constantly knows me who God dwells with….i do not know why God chose me, other than to say i chose God, 100%, without doubt, like the doubt that you take delight in tossing about like you aimlessly enjoy doing, of the hypocrisy heart you obviously take delight in dwelling in, as evident of the words you speak, according to God.
Paint me any color you want, just don’t expect me to allow myself to be cajoled, mocked and enticed by you into nescience you enjoy…..rather than me.
~ some, in the grip of spiritual death, corruption moved on, mocking and scoffing of degenerative crude lies and partnered stupidity of evil malaise, hypnotised as if in a lunatic dream of spiritual suicide, not knowing their birthright is Eternal Life of Eternal Day Light Self-Love Awareness of flawless healing feeling divine self.
I do not require your validation Bill
thank you, but no thanks
goodbye
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i say the words of God above on behalf of the boy who a police officer in Haiti shot in the back, of no police report with the precious boy’s name on it filed by the murderous officer, who scoffed in walking away leaving the boy to die.
may God bless us all
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oh, and i am not a twat, i am a ‘bisexual versatile male’, who has found a female who is willing to have children with me one day, all dressed in beautiful satan rainbow outfits and roller skates, smiling forever more happiness they purely r within, as R all YOU, for all the world to see and feel in Just BEing yOUR Self, at our LGBT Pride Toronto Parade, annually held on the last Sunday of June.
bless you all
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what reproach are you speaking of, the disgrace in the art piece of my unborn child apon the cross that homophobic Madonna is not willing to have with me?
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or are you talking of the disgrace of the empty nothingness of the homophobic true and faithful friendship bridge building her and i yet are of in our self-actualization catharsis process evolving up out of the mud of homophobia causing suicide, yet of this unwise wretched world?
could you be more specific when speaking with ‘me’ please?
i don’t have time for useless banter….i want closure
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Go ahead and close my casket with your rebuking unwise spiritual false approach with ‘me’, of one you do not wisely know, nor desire to PURELY CONSTANTLY KNOW, as well as some do, as Jesus and God constantly do, for truly i tell you, my spirit is not there, and rather is eternally set free and felt eternally forever more, of what was my life of affect/effect/direct/indirect wise approach of shining light thru all of you thru one another as i have all this time, just is of the TRUTH of eternal all YOU
any more questions?
argh…..you are so annoying…..
speak, say what you have to falsly say against ‘me’, a divine child of God, as though my life means nothing to you, an amusement of sorts, while deathe of others i can save, hangs in the balance of you yet wasting my precious time running OUT, as an OUT bisexual like PINK….deal with it, your issue, not ever mine!
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i am God’s wise compassionate loving WILL of TRUTH as a TRUTH revealer of all untruth asleep in ignorance darkness false captivity of vile hateful apathetic unwise hypocrisy roots in the heart of this obviously yet unwise world, am i not?
you do not know the one who is before you, nor do you desire to know, just as is of all those of apathetic blinders who we KNOW do not know like we constantly know and R
++ 4ever more happiness LOVE sets FREE++
peace be to you
and peace be to you
bless you all
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Jesus is my heart mind body spirit and soul that i wisely lovingly compassionately gave to Jesus at the alter alone with God, of what belongs to Jesus, and God gave me Jesus to always have and BE TRUE WITH, my true and faithful friend of eternal all YOU 4ver more
what (purely) eludes others, is that i truly did give my life to Jesus 100% without doubt, trusting only of Jesus as the ‘most’ sacredly purely wise aware of all TRUTH and unTRUTH everywhere at all times, of a sacred halo i share in oneness with Jesus and God, and the Holy Spirits of oneness sameness with Jesus, Lord God ALLmighty, my Lord and Saviour who tells ‘me’ ONLY LOVE is good enough 4 ‘me’ of eternal all YOU
bless you all
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i am bringing forth all revealing TRUTH that mirroringly humiliatingly reveals, awakens, nurtures and exposes the root of all unTRUTH generational falsehoods one easily purely feels thru by means of their flawless intuitive healing ability all are born with, of eternal day light of the kingdom of heaven halo perspective, of God’s sacred divine WILL ‘that’ i do, as Jesus did and does thru ‘me’ of eternal all YOU 4ever more
i am not alone
i am oneness sameness of Holy Spiritedness of eternal all YOU who will know ‘me’ by means of your flawless healing pure feelings constantly flowing radiant brilliant brightly at all times, just as i am
every prayer
we are rising up in Holy sacred Spiritedness that will bring an end to all future generations experiencing the falsehoods yet gripping this (yet) unwise world
across all false barriers of generational unwise forefather binding ignorances that yet hold many souls in dark captivities…falsely untrue of the divinechild of God eternal all YOU
WE R ONE
together 4ever
WE R everyONE
and YOU shall know us ALL easily so, as many of you do
so don’t let go….i mean let go of bullshit, butt don’t let go of ‘me’…BIYATCHES!!! lol
bless you all
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and BE always happy that ‘i am’ fearless uncontrived LOVE everywhere i go at all times in our ONEness sameness LOVE ‘i am’ constantly of eternal all YOU
blessed is ONEness sameness LOVE ‘i am’ constantly of eternal all YOU 4ever more
bless bless bless blessed all you
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He was shot in the back and died, accused of stealing a bag of rice the boy was carrying, that had fallen off a truck….i can’t stop crying over him dying like he did there on the street, of a beautiful sunny day that i witnessed, hear in the year 2010.
~ to the officer who shot him, i say this on behalf of the boy he shot, ” some, in the grip of spiritual death and corruption, moved on, mocking and scoffing of degenerative crude lies and partnered stupidity of evil malaise, hypnotised as if in a lunatic dream of spiritual suicide, not knowing their birthright is Eternal Life of Eternal Day Light Self-Love Awareness of flawless healing feeling divine self.” ~ God
I picked up this cross and chrystal dolphin today, sitting on a shelf together like this(coincidence?), a shine always in remembrance of him, of one i had not ever met, don’t even know his name, just his face on the news of him choking and gasping for breath thru his own blood coming out of hs mouth.
Vile wretchedness in the heart of the one who came his way, a supposed police officer who is to ‘serve and protect’, who walked away and left him to die, with no police report filed, a murderer.
May the boy’s precious life taken away from him, serve us all as constant remembrance of thee untruth truth of all false vile wretchedness in the hearts of many, of what yet stems from the mad flood generational ignorances of death destruction and oppresion of the divine child of God’s self within us all, darkness lurkning that yet grips this (yet) unwise world falsely like it does. blessing to his loving family forever more.
May God grant us courage to speak fearless TRUTH of all TRUTH and unTRUTH we bare witness 2.
bless you all 4ever more
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Twa not sexually, intelectually. A man’s sex life is his ownmatter, and as long as he harns no one should remain so. Meant was the empty blather that is certainly not worthy of the lady whose blog you are misusing as you very own treadboard. My thoughts are for her, who God knows is put upon enough without the misuse and abuse of her blog space. Let’s widmen the dear lady for a change. Bad thing?
Bill
i am a devoted student(monk) of theologies of the world, and last time i checked, Madonna personally requested that one shine forth wisdom, specifically in her own exact words as regards her kabbalah openness to teach and learn enlightenment faith….what her blog is for…has that changed with Madonna? Not until she personally requests so Bill, and secondly, she personally loves me and has for along time as we both yet do. Not sure who you are Bill, however, i do know who i am to her and have for along time, of the same feelings i too have held for her.
i have been expressing myself openly of my feelings, and if that is a bad thing, well excuse me for living, in the only way life has any value, when we are TRUE with one another.
i am not going to entertain your conjecture Bill, as i said, do not expect me to follow you into tiresome boring nescience waste of my precious time, of your words that lead to nowhere, and certainly not to my sweet loving ass….how big did you say yiour penis was again? lol
she knows i love her, and she knows to what extent i love her, according to spiritual marriage of kabbalah, and in so knowing, knows imy pure spirit like her own, is not able to ever change from our pure meditative divine self awareness of constant flawless love feelings we both know we are constantly of within, of her own words that our egos keep wanting back in, in what all ego is, false, annoying, blocking, futile, a mask of avoidance of truth of real self, normal, we all do it.
how much do i love her?
of only one thought, that i could spend every waking moment with her every blessed day, of the dreamy boy who knows he has always felt this way for her, praying she to felt the same constant love as i do, in what is my now open honest emotional words with her, of constant yearning in disarming her ego she asked me to leave behind in chasing her, of her not really running away, even when it appears that she is.
i love her
and she knows i do
so fuck you Bill, and get that small dick of yours out of my face! lol
if she is purely happy, she is the only one who knows if she is, of only her who decides what she wants, needs, thinks and feels, not ever what anyone wishes her to, including myself.
if she loves me, and i am the one she secretly truly wants, well, that is up to her to figure out in purely knowing and decide apon, no one else, is it not?
we love who we chose to love, not who others speculate apon in chosing who we should or should not love. duh!
she is the one who knows i purely mean well for sake of her own loving feelings that are hers, no one elses
so buzz off Bill
Kabbalah (Hebrew: קַבָּלָה, lit. “receiving”) is a discipline and school of thought concerned with the mystical aspect of Judaism. It is a set of esoteric teachings meant to explain the relationship between an infinite, eternal and mysterious Creator and the finite and mortal universe of His creation. Kabbalah seeks to define the nature of the universe and the human being, the nature and purpose of existence, and various other ontological questions. It also presents methods to aid understanding of these concepts and to thereby attain spiritual realization. Kabbalah originally developed entirely within the realm of Jewish thought and constantly uses classical Jewish sources to explain and demonstrate its esoteric teachings. These teachings are thus held by kabbalists to define the inner meaning of both the Tanakh (Hebrew Bible) and traditional rabbinic literature, as well as to explain the significance of Jewish religious observances.[1]
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someone emailed me this, some humor to perhaps help lighten us all up abit. Keep in mind it is not my intention of anything other than some people’s humor put togehter, for sake of nothing more than that, comedy….from a male’s point of view…that may help save some people’s marriage out there…. lol
1. Men are NOT mind readers.
1…. Learn to work the toilet seat.
You’re a big girl. If it’s up, put it down.
We need it up, you need it down.
You don’t hear us complaining about you leaving it down.
1. Sunday sports It’s like the full moon or the changing of the tides.
Let it be.
1. Crying is blackmail.
1. Ask for what you want.
Let us be clear on this one:
Subtle hints do not work!
Strong hints do not work!
Obvious hints do not work!
Just say it!
1.. Yes and No are perfectly acceptable answers to almost every question.
1. Come to us with a problem only if you want help solving it. That’s what we do.
Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for.
1. Anything we said 6 months ago is inadmissible in an argument.
In fact, all comments become Null and void after 7 Days.
1. If you think you’re fat, you probably are. Don’t ask us.
1. If something we said can be interpreted two ways and one of the ways makes you sad or angry, we meant the other one
1. You can either ask us to do something
Or tell us how you want it done.
Not both.
If you already know best how to do it, just do it yourself.
1. Whenever possible, Please say whatever you have to say during commercials..
1. Christopher Columbus did NOT need directions and neither do we…
1. ALL men see in only 16 colors, like Windows default settings.
Peach, for example, is a fruit, not A color. Pumpkin is also a fruit. We have no idea what mauve is.
1. If it itches, it will be scratched.
We do that.
1. If we ask what is wrong and you say “nothing,” We will act like nothing’s wrong.
We know you are lying, but it is just not worth the hassle.
1. If you ask a question you don’t want an answer to, Expect an answer you don’t want to hear.
1. When we have to go somewhere, absolutely anything you wear is fine… Really .
1. Don’t ask us what we’re thinking about unless you are prepared to discuss such topics as baseball,
or golf.
1. You have enough clothes.
1. You have too many shoes.
1. I am in shape. Round IS a shape!
1. Thank you for reading this.
Yes, I know, I have to sleep on the couch tonight;
But did you know men really don’t mind that? It’s like camping.
Pass this to as many men as you can–
to give them a laugh.
Pass this to as many women as you can –to give them a bigger laugh.
and one last thing Bill, i wake in sweet anticipation of her every day, just as i always have, of only love feelings i yearn to always feel for her as i have since way back when.
and if some days i have my bad hair days, well fuck you, i am human, and i get dirt kicked in my face all the time that gets my back up like it does, in what is of anyone’s too loose boundary adjustment making.
and another thing, who the fuck are you to speak on her behalf Bill? uhm?
are you her? uhm?
is that respectful of her, someone you don’t know? uhm?
you want to meddle in Madonna’s personal love life? uhm?
a fair warning Bill….truly a bad idea, as she can and will shred anyone who steps out of line with her untruthfully, like you know every god damned thing about her speculating away like you aimlessly enjoy doing.
hmmm…maybe she will put you in the dungeon instead of me….ok, keep going Bill, amuse us some more…..NOT!
oh, and mise use of her blog by Jesus and God’s words as kabbalah seekers of God’s wisdom?
is that an open mind and spirit Bill?
and should we tell the Holy Spirit of Jesus and God being channeled thru a wise medium to stop speaking Bill?
trust me, Madonna will do what she wants to do, when she wants to do it did Bill and if anyone will respect her, for sure, she knows, without doubt, it is ‘me’
we are both of the same wise quest Bill, which you obviously did not take time to PURELY REALIZE as regards all souls of today and tommorow, evloving every day into higher self, fearlessly.
You are one of empty mockery caloling Bill, and to post that under a sacred post of God speaking on behalf of a precious life lost to the generational ignornces like you did, without saying anything of the boy, is as though you walked into the boys funeral, likely being held today, and blathering away like you did, not me.
what the fuck is wrong with you cold harted people anyway?
At least go to God in prayer for the boy and his family, if not hear, for sake of you and everyone else.
really Bill, that is one of the most insulting things i have experienced in life as you just did.
think about it….no, really think about it
the words are for the boys funeral i could not attend
like what the fuck?
WHAT THE FUCK?????????????????????????
wretchedness is what you are to me Bill, the same partnered stupidy i speak of in the hearts of so many.
fuck fuck fuck fuck off
i am not in the mood for any bullshit from anyone……especially when the question my existence
like WHAT THE FUCK? Is everyone possessed by fucking demonic empty heartless spiritedness void of nothingness?
do you even get the words spoken by God at all?
cruel gutter mind fucker is what you are to me Bill, of no concern for my mental emotions spiritual well being at all! none whatsoever
the opposite…a LGBT basher
IT IS AGAINST THE LAW TO CYBER BULLY BASH US, OK?
HATE CRIMES IN AMERCIA…google it, and realize what lawas you may be treading unwisely apon unwisely
if Madonna wants me to stop, she has my email address to politely do so, which she would.
so fuck right off Bill with your mind fucking
i still cannot believe you posted that under my post
and i doubt anyone can Bill
like holy fucking bullshit
your only intent is to bash me Bill, any lawyer in the world can easily see with clarity your ill intend it to openly bash not just me, everyone of the worldwide LGBT community when you flame me
Cyberbullying “involves the use of information and communication technologies to support deliberate, repeated, and hostile behavior by an individual or group, that is intended to harm others.
~ pejorative labels (i.e., hate speech), ganging up on victims by making them the subject of ridicule in forums, and posting false statements as fact aimed at humiliation.
~ A pattern of repeated such actions against a target by and between adults constitutes cyberstalking.
~ Legislation geared at penalizing cyber-bullying has been introduced in a number of U.S. states including New York, Missouri, Rhode Island and Maryland. At least seven states passed laws against digital harassment in 2007.
~ The city of St. Charles, Missouri has passed a similar ordinance. Missouri is among other states where lawmakers are pursuing state legislation, with a task forces expected to have “cyberbullying” laws drafted and implemented
~ In June, 2008, Rep. Linda Sanchez (D-Calif.) and Rep. Kenny Hulshof (R-Mo.) proposed a federal law that would criminalize acts of cyberbullying
~ The proposed federal law would make it illegal to use electronic means to “coerce, intimidate, harass or cause other substantial emotional distress.”
~ In August 2008, the California state legislature passed one of the first laws in the country to deal directly with cyberbullying. This law took effect, January 1, 2009.
~ Research had demonstrated a number of serious consequences of cyber-bullying victimization.[4][5][6][7] For example, victims have lower self-esteem, increased suicidal ideation, and a variety of emotional responses, cyberbullying back, being scared, frustrated, angry, and depressed.[5]
One of the most damaging effects is that a victim begins to avoid friends and activities, often the very intention of the cyber-bully.
Cyber-bullying campaigns are sometimes so damaging that victims have committed suicide. There are at least four examples in the United States where cyber-bullying has been linked to the suicide of a teenager.[5] The suicide of Megan Meier is a recent example that led to the conviction of the adult perpetrator of the attacks.
~ Intimidation, emotional damage, suicide
The reluctance youth have in telling an authority figure about instances of cyber-bullying has led to fatal outcomes. At least three children between the ages of 12 and 13 have committed suicide due depression brought on by cyber-bullying, according to reports by USA Today and the Baltimore Examiner. These would include the suicide of Ryan Halligan and the suicide of Megan Meier, the latter of which resulted in United States v. Lori Drew.
Cyber Bullying according to PFLAG: PARENTS, FAMILIES AND FRIENDS OF LESBIANS AND GAYS
Cyber bullying is defined by the Center for Safe and Responsible Internet Use to mean “being cruel to others by sending or posting harmful material using the Internet or a cell phone.”
According to Pew Research, about one third (32%) of all teenagers who use the Internet say they have been targeted in some form of cyber bullying; ranging from receiving threatening messages, having their private e-mails or text messages forwarded, having an embarrassing picture posted to rumors about them spread online. Cyber bullying is the new frontier in bullying where anti-gay rumors, messages, and threats are often the center of this high-tech harassment.
Terms you should know:
Flaming: online verbal attacks or fights via electronic messages.
Harassment: repeated messages of an offensive or derogatory nature.
Cyberstalking: repeated messages of an intimidating character that make a person feel afraid for his or her physical safety.
Denigration: online “put-downs,” including sending or posting hurtful gossip or rumors to cause a person embarrassment.
Impersonation: using someone’s e-mail account to send out messages, supposedly from the account holder, that reflect badly on that person and may cause trouble, shame, or embarrassment.
Outing and Trickery: disclosure of someone’s private information online, sending or posting embarrassing images, or deceptions leading another person to reveal personal details about him or herself.
Exclusion: deliberately keeping someone out of an online group, such as a buddy list.
What students should understand:
There can be consequences to actions you take online (schools, jobs, personal).
You do not always know who you are talking to.
Your messages can be re-broadcast to others.
Tell an adult immediately if you receive a threatening, harassing, or upsetting message.
Remember – never give out personal information online.
Items that are posted online or texted can be traced to their original source.
What schools should do:
Add cyber bullying to existing anti-harassment or bullying policies.
Provide training and education for students, teachers and parents.
Take cyber bullying seriously.
is there no one hear that has anything positive and supportive to say towards an out bisexual spiritual artist?
ya, i am talking to you, cyber bullying spiritual suiciders!
oh, and look, new lawmaking sprcific just for you!
fuckers!
you know, as a transexual, which i know i am, but do not declare openly to most others, as a transexual who is not wanting to go thru with it, preference for the more fun versatile of both a male and female in a male body, i feel i am purely Pansexual in spirit of my transexual awareness, of a female in a male body who naturally loves her male body. duh!
anyway, recently explored the issue of making babies, and i have this to ask, “How come most LGBT members of our community don’t talk about making babies in what i know is of denial in all LGBT members. How is it possible for them to be in denial so much so like so many are of something so purely loving within them that heteros know of well like you do?
For sure this is a serious issue that remains unaddressed in our community, where the only cause i can think of is internal homophobia yet with them all. Sadly, as outcasts of society they yet are predominantly treated as. Thanks alot fuckers!
anyway, i managed to find support on this as regards my own life recently, and im pissed off! lol
i am going to make babies one day, that much i know for sure…..fuckers!
bless yiou all
treadboard…..like fuck right off with that, ok?
you people cannot even have a fucking conversation with me for fuck sakes so fuck off and die, all of you!
so fucking sick of other people’s small dick fucking useless fuckedupness they want to put over as mine…..i don’t think so fuckers! You keep it. ok?
argh…..if you don’t vent this shit, it can kill you…..fuckers!
i need to make more healthier wiser sincerely loving friends….
Kieth would roll over in his grave if he saw this bullshit still going on in the fuckedup world he knew all too well as do i….
rant over
MY o MY,
How intelectual. And your language could be held out anywhere, if only to dry. Start your own blog man, then you don’t need to sully this one. Don’t know who kieth is, but if he’s like you you can keep him. And you still are’nt getting the message. I t is’nt about me, it’s about madonna. Her last blog was ruined too. Give her a break man!!! And if you can only argue on this level, the leave it. It’s pathetic.
Hi Andy,
My last message as I see the kind of person I am dealing with. You mention bullying? I ahve treid ( invain) to make a point. Take a look at your foul mouthed tirades, and tell me more about bullying. If yo were so Godly as you like to give your behaviour would be very different. You say you loved Madonna? Well apart from you being a very mall drop in a very large ocean if it’s true; you certainly have a strange way of showing it. For myself, I am not trying to profilate myself, just breaking a lance for a lady I admire very much. It has always got up my nose the way she is put upon. And; I don’t claim to kow her and what she want’s: do you? But I see no harm in speaking as I do. It’s not in her name but mine. My opinion, which not even a word rich Andy will take away. Anyway, your reactions seem to bear ou t the fact that you know that I’m right. It just does’nt suit you much. And I am sure that her beliefs are much more genuine than yours.
And to keep things clear, I am not running a personal grudge here, for that I have my own blog. NOL
bill
Egotism means placing oneself at the center of one’s world with no direct concern for others.
you keep on with the ill repute falsity malice attacking the intellect of one you know not at all as though you do, of one who is an exceedingly vast in spiritual intellect of decades as a devoted monk alone with God.
that is cyber bullying fucker!
truly i tell you, you clearly take delight in dwelling in hypocrisy heart foolish fueling of cajoling, enticing and mocking another who is friends with M.
that is cyber bullying fucker!
and it is a chargable offence in the courts of law, to be of the vicious ill repute lacking concern of the reputation of another who you delibertate seek out in repeated attacking.
that is cyber bullying
indicative of low self-esteem attention seeking, of no pure concern AT ALL for another’s reputation in all your closed mindedness becasue you chose to turn towards empty nothingness of seemingly arguementive evidentiary objective without facts, in what is CLEARLY your self-centered ‘egotism’ badgering of another in spinless attempt to draw inference conclusions based on your rules you want to apply to one you have not met, do not know AT ALL, nor desire to purely know ‘me’….
which is fine if you are experimenting in cognitive psychology observations of the internal mental processes of another, for sake of another in your professional concern….which doubt, as indicative of your passive aggressive opening remark (how intellectual), so in truth, you are of subconscious projection identification, futile attempt to ……..argh…..this is annoying, i have better things to do with my time than waste it hear with one who choses not purely listen to words of God, seemingly unable to spiritually make sense of my wrods, of hurried fearful hyper aimless waundering haphazardly, unknowingly snared by spiritual death, such is the nature of the beast of ignorances that lead to nowhere
whatever
i am a calm mellow person spiritually (most of the time), so you may want to be careful in the future who you decide to bully with your fueling fires of hypcrite heart there bully….oh, i stopped reading after you said how intellectual, in case you was wondering bully
Jesus says beware of those who are of delight of cajoling enticing mockery false shame and guilt usless bantering, lest their poison enters into you….argh…i have to keep reminding myself of that one….
and ya i do know Madonna…im her best friend, so she says….hey, can best friends fuck each other from time to time when they get bored in between relationships?…You know, that midnight call in the middle of the night,
“You doing anything?”
“No.”
“Wanna cum over?”
“No. i mean YES!”
“YES!!! I wanna cum! Be right there! Hust wait for ‘me’, ok?
LOL
oh, her last blog was ruined by the words of Jesus and God was it?
that is cyber bullying….no wait, that’s not cyber bullying, that’s just spirit of the other 99 sheep following one another blingly, hapazardly, aimlessly, because of the dynamics of group menality….hey, you got any others in your group with a big penis, i need a big penis, i want need think wish i could feel a big penis every god damned day to keep my motherfucking ass haappy as fuck, and my manfesting frustration behavior is certainly indicative that i don’t have a big penis, i mean, i do have a big penis, butt i…..oh never mine….you don’t understand……because you don’t want to…..JUST LIKE YOU DON’T KNOW WHO KIETH HARRING IS FUCKER!….one of Madonna’s best friends in life until his body quit on him, but not ever his spirit that lives on in all of us….in part due to Madonna and those who know Madonna’s pure heart like our own….fuckers!
and if i appear pissed off because whe won’t tell me what’s behind that door over there…..well, you wood be two, if you knew me, which you don’t, when im not getting it, which you are correct, im not getting it….enough…..and what of all the other areas of compatible concern? uhm?
why go around painting someone as though they are nothing? uhm?
is it because you feel as though nothing bully? uhm?
because you lack fulfilment in your miserable life? uhm?
because you are as though nothing in your empty void nothingness falsity malice of words you speak against one who is of God that serves ‘me’, if if you do not understand how darkness serves the divine child of God her and i constantly R, just as you two r, even while you ignore your birthright of eternal life in the life stream purity love constantly flowing with those who are wide awake like WE R
personally i find you annoying in your nescience…so why not say something pure and intellectual of your higher subtle intellect purity of divine self you turn away from? uhm?
i am merely a wise spiritual artist to artist with Madonna, who wanted more, wanted the moon, got it, gave it to her, she still won’t give me her boots…do you know how friggin expensive those damn boots are? uhm? lol
you may be surprised to learn ONE day how many blogs i have bully
ok, im bored, im going to go find someone else to do now……
im pissed off because of a boys dream that turned into a nightmare, ok?
fuck
you wood BE two if you were ‘me’ lol
fine
no worries
i WILL BE happy, and so WILL my lover who has no desire to let go of my belt, and so WILL and R my friends, and so WILL my children of ONE ETERNAL DAY!
as per usual, i return, to the spiritual valley of death i continue to walk in unafraid of you fuckers and all your bash bash bash away, “somebody call the police!”
Yes, Sting and the Police!
wow, cool instument!
ya, i agree….it is all pathetic of you to bash disrespect a pansexual transexual artist, which is fine, at least now i know the truth of where i stand…..better for me now that i get and stay as far away spiritual death in others you obviously clearly are….viperous falsity malice lawbreaking heartless spinless insecure ego snared bully
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i am of ‘real’ vision now free to just be of eternal day light of divine self-love constant awareness, even in silence, filled with beatitutde sweet anticipation of a new lover’s embrace, and pray you all the same ~ the divine breathe of TRUTH, all my heart, all my soul, all my might, knowing who i am meant only to be LOVED….at all times.
i am….even of those who are not in false outward appearance
blessings to all forever more
farewell and be happy
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Dear Madonna,
Sorry about the unpleasantnes which my remarks to you have brought. The message I sent was adressed to you and noone else. I pointed no finger and mentioned no names. That Andy immediatly donned the jacket shows only that he felt it fitted well. His hate tirades at feeling criticised tend to show his delinwuentsy. Anyway I appoligise again, feel bad about it for your sake. I shall of course still visit your blog in anticipation of you yourself making an entry. But you probably have too little time. I would just like to say that I feel only warmth and admiration for you. Sorry again love. Bill
wow…….uhm, Bill, are you that blind to others seeing conclusively that you are the viperous one of ILL REPUTE FALSITY MALICE INTENT?
how does someone do that, and come back and speak a lie, yet again, in twisting of the TRUTH you just did yet again?
Don’t you see Bill, i am the one who is of God’s truth in speaking the truth about one who is as some, in the grip of spiritual death, corruption moved on, mocking and scoffing of degenerative crude lies and partnered stupidity of evil malaise, hypnotised as if in a lunatic dream of spiritual suicide, not knowing their birthright is Eternal Life of Eternal Day Light Self-Love Awareness of flawless healing feeling divine self.
You see Bill, not to rain on your parade, but i am the one who knows 100% without doubt what the kingdom of heaven constantly is, and truly i tell you, i take time to offer the words of God’s wise light for sake of you, a divine constructive criticism.
As Jesus says, you are CLEARLY one who is of delight in twisting of truth, of injecting your venom into others who see your first ill repute attack in falsity malice intent to damage another’s reputation, WHICH YOU DID , you viperous wretched lying snake, then come back and say, oh look at the lunatic one all fucked up.
ok Bill, you may think you are leading us somewhere blindly like you do, away from divine self’s true nature, as a cunning snake, and not a very bright one at that, of most anyone who sees thru your ill intention, and i will say this, you have come before one who is purely wise of God, against God, against the divine children of God eternalin your evil wretchedness of approach in attempting to make a mockery of one who is purely united with God’s TRUTH.
You lead only you away from your own divine self Bill, in all your senseless nescience in attacking one who knows what the kindom of heaven constantly is, of one who is always purely concered for sake of your error to wake the fuck up and realize who you are speaking with…for sake of you and others that you sadly you do not realize your obvious unwiseness of hypocrsy heart.
I am going to ask a lawyer about your attacks and come back with his wiser reflections, purely for sake of you Bill, in what has been your outright ill repute falsity malice cyber bullying attacks, ok?
and if Madonna wants to follow up with charges in the court of law against you, tracking your email address, well, you may want to pray hard she does not, as she is like me, somewhat of a pitbull, when it comes to those of vicious unTRUTH bashing against all those her and i constantly love.
personally, i pity you Bill, as one who purely knows the condition of your unattended soul, and pray for sake of all those you may likewise be of what is your continued desire to bring harm to another, where you cannot bring harm to me, not possible, protected by God’s wisdom, nor against thos who are wisely of God’s pure heart like my own, who easily see thru your bashing.
like how do you do that Bill, just go around openly bashing another person in your mental abusive ways, claiming youare not speaking to me at all, where you like obviously were, where you make obvious your own lying ass motherfucking anal retentive limp dick ass?
uhm?
honestly, you amuse me…..fool
here is a hint Bill, there ain’t no way Madonna is going to want anything to do with a LGBT basher of her loving family, WHICH YOU OBVIOUSLY ARE, so why don’t you take that small dick of yours and go play somewhere else? uhm? Cause you ain’t ever gettin it on with any body hear!
they really don’t know who they are talkin to M, a wise protector of our pure loving spirit. Keep going Bill, this is good energy i can wisely channel into some greater insights of my study of darkness, in making light of what the beasts of ignorance look and feel like.
are you sure you don’t have a bid dick under there you is too shy to show off to the world baby, i mean, we is talkin about Madonna’s door you come runnin up to and completely ignoring my hot ass standing at the door, as the one who hold’s the key to her heart baby. You sure you got nothing else she may wanna know about you? You know she has this fetish thing of collecti specimans from around the world….yawn, oh, excuse me, i have not had enough of my beauty sleep.
Can you believe that M, they come runnin over hear like there is a fire and all goin on, completely ignoring me, not realizing if they say one wrong word to me of impure thought and feelings, you ain’t gettin in baby, and the only fire around here is the one in yo pants and in yo heart, somewhere up there in that tiny little brain of yours.
you sure you ain’t got a big dick, cause you sound like someone who is too shy to tell everyone they got a big dick
oh, come back next year when you cool off over who ever it was that done tryed to break the heart of a man with every thing he ever is going to need to get in………….
so what next Bill, you gonna beat me black and blue next? You want some leather wips, or do you like them wooden ones? uhm?
oh, and sorry about stumbling stutter, it’s these damn heels i ain’t ever going to figure OUT how to walk IN
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the only offense any of you are clearly not of duy in your (yet) unwise hearts of payment overdue, obviously is ‘that’ of turning towards the constant TRUTH of divine self-love awareness YOU R all of, in fearlessly following the flawless healing constant love feelings the unattended child of God within you waits apon in constant yearning intuitive knowingness that only love feels good enough to always feel and be of at all times.
It is your divine self who knows the truth of God’s words i wisely speak as one who is without doubt what the kingdom of heaven constantly is, just as the child of unattendance in starvation is of constant awareness each blessed day of intuitive feeling dismay (con)fusion knowingness as to the useless arrogance of the self-serving gross materialistic ones led astray all this time since Jesus pointed to the TRUTH long ago of what is the ring thru their noses leading them to and fro as it yet does.
Any of you who approach ‘me’ with all your useless unwise falsity ill repute malice of chosen words chatter against Jesus, against God, against your own divine child of God waiting, against the divine child of God in starvation who will DIE from your OBVIOUSLY (yet) unwise spiritual death today, DIRECTLY as a result of all you (yet) in starvation of God’s divine WILL objective for divine self-love awareness wisdom, well, i ask, when are you going to purely realize the TRUTH of Holy Sacred words wisely spoken by Jesus, as to who it is you are all hurting with neglectful deathful oppressive destructive abandonment false generational forefather teaching led astray slavery of worldly possessions, of your divine pure loving spirits yet bound in dark captivity egocentric arrogance blindness of the wise TRUTH?
‘that’ is what the kingdom of heaven constantly is
in this world, the (worldly)slave serves the (supposed)free (ring masters of deception)
in the kingdom of heaven wise halo perspective of divine self-love awareness TRUTH, the wise loving compassionate free serve the slave yet bound in false captivity of ring master decpetion, as it was when Jesus walked the earth, as it yet is of all we who walk the earth as the holy joyful absolute carefree happiness of the divine child of God’s pure true heart mind body spirit and soul of eternal all YOU forever more.
‘that’ (un)kind of delquency Bill?
i will ask you all one final request, in the name of God
go alone before to the starving child weeping in tears who is alone, neglected and afraid this day of eternal day divine self-love awareness, and explain to the child in your own choice of words you decide to say directly to the child, why it is you cannot attend to the child as you walk away with backs turned to the weeping child you leave behind to die.
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what of the word PERSPECTIVE due YOU not (under)STAND, you of unknowing slavery captivity undermining falsity il repute malice intent against a wise divine child of God? uhm?
instead of going to the lawyer Bill, i went directly before God and asked for God’s wise divine self-love constructive criticism final judgement of TRUTH no one shall ever become victorious over.
you seek to destroy ‘me’ satan, and you seek to kill ‘me’, of many of your legions that i have cast out of others i met along the wise path i walk apon, but you may not ever become victorious over the pure spirit of the divine child of God with us all, that your unwise legions are not able to ever cling to.
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it is only the kingdom of heaven we are talking about hear.
do you know what day it is yet?
do you care what day it constantly is yet?
my new girlfriend purely feels everything of my exploration of divine self-love awareness of my spiritual quest as a devoted monk who went alone before Jesus and God, of my at ease stedent mentality sitting in class with her, no egocentric anything, no, just pure love fascination with ancient Christian antiquity like my own, in what has been of my true and faithful best friend i welcomed into my fuckedup life, of Jesus and God telling me beware of the genrational pitfalls that are binding in nature that do lead into cruel gutters of despair.
the only despair i have ever felt in life, was if someone purely loved me or not, of so many betrayals i always purely felt each time, i finally gave up on trusting anyone, and turned to Jesus, who sheds light on everyone of you as to the condition of yOUR ONEness soul of ONE generation that spans across all eternity, across all false unwise divisional barriers of seperation of divine self within us all from one another, and indeed, of egocentric false masks seperation from constantly BEing and feeling as our divine self-love constant awareness, egotisms being one and the same cause for what is of these absurd seperationalist mentalities of binding group mentalities most any of you don’t know what the fuck i am talking about, even while one of your own dies as a result aimless plodding along haphazardly without cultivating a wise helmsperson within you, in questioning, maybe none of us really know what is this place we all enter into the exact same way.
it is absurd and FALSE to think we are different from one another as regards our constant pure flowing flawless healing feeling divine self-love awareness.
and when it come so my sexual orientation of both male and female in a male body, i have this to say, i am constantly way more fucking happy on a daily basis than most of you give a sweet lying ass fuck to even think about.
i always knew i was purely happy of my sexual delight exploration since hitting puberty, of two sexual orientations, and if any of you don’t care to love ‘me’ in this capacity, well who the fuck gives a fuck when they don’t?
i don’t lie about it, i don’t fucking hide about it, and if any of you think i am about to change something i have been for so many god damned many years, well, it is all you who are delusional fucked up in avoidance of ‘me’ in not loving ‘me’ as much as i have learned to love myself, and to wait around for anal retentive one’s to love my ass, well, i don’t think so, ok?
does not mean i don’t love your lessor pathetic unevolved place you all may yet be of that i transitioned thru like fucking decades ago, what it means is, there are those who obviously do love ‘me’ openly so, and that is where i am easily found. So cast your own doubt away as whether i am going to wait and tolderate any of you who chose not to love ‘me’ like Jesus, God and those who do know ‘me’, constantly do love ‘me’, 24/7 Biyatches!
ok?
ok
rant over
and yes, i have a new girlfriend
i am pansexual
always was
and yes, she loves loves loves my gay ass…..more so than some gay guys i have met, of what i know is her own self-love awareness of her latent male sexual behavior i am constantly nurturing of, and if our babies come out as androgynous looking hermaphrodites with both sex organs, well, look OUT cruel world, cash they won’t ever take any bullshit from any of you lying ass anal retentive fuckers….EVER!!!!!!!!!!!
LOL
now that was a funny one, yes?
fine, be that way.i don’t care any more, ok?
well ok, i care….it’s you who ignores ‘me’, is it not?
anyway, i love her and she loves me, blah blah blah blah
only LOVE i am meant for thee
it is you who cast your own self away from ‘me’, is it not?
i have this to ask, how do you feel that left ‘me’ feeling? uhm?
rejected, that’s how, as though nothing, as though unworthy, and God knows how much i cryed over ‘that’
i learned from it
of God teaching ‘me’
as in, oh yeah, binding group mentality of the 99 sheep waundering off a cliff into oblivion void of nothingness partnered stupidy
in other words, i cryed needlessly over over falsity ill repute malice injustice i was left to feel for so long like i did
i learned about my true divine self-love awareness from darkness contrast
thank you for ‘that’ unwise unaware ones
peace OUT
fucking morons, talk to me like i am some kind of idiot….i don’t think so moron wannaBEs!
Rosie is like…oh my God
PANSEXUAL
yes i am
in truth….we all PURELY constantly R
ONEness LOVE of ONE Eternal Day divine self-love awareness Light that does not set, is unable to ever set thru all eternity of LOVE sets us all FREE 2 Just BE yOUR SELF.
God’s SELF
How great you are. Knowing the unknowable, and that at 100%. Ans is your name Madonna? Don’t think so, she’s more. And try less packaging with more content. But that’s a sign of our times.
Bill
And to Lady Madonna!
I don’t bring heaven into my admiration, just eternaty.
Bill.
everyone is just standing around so boring, like wtf? And where are the sweet hot ass skimpy clad gay boys strutting their shit around knowing how much you want their ass so badly? Like come one people! Fuck! lol
some gay boy dirty dancing grinding bodies pleassssssseeeeeeeeeeeee!!!! thank you
yawn yawn double yawn…………
nice spa music, i’ll give Tiesto that, but they really need to take it to the next level, i mean the film ‘Dirty Dancing’ came out how fucking long ago? Like come on, get some sweet ass effeminate gay boys in spandex shorts doing their shit they love to do all the time, grinding their asses off, waking you people the fuck up!
sounds great on the theater system! Crank it Biyatches! With CLOTHES OFF PLEASE! Thank you! enjoy
and if you time it right to the building of the music…..well……way to go! Bravo for you! hahaha love it!
could you pleasssssssssseeeeeeesssss do something about this Madonna! thank you
oh and before i forget, give Tiesto a call and slice him a deal of a life time he won’t refuse. He is the best in the world after all, like YOU 😉
your welcome
and look ‘me’ up sometime, ok? Let’s go dancing somewhere, anywhere, as long as it’s with YOU!
bless you all
rsvp?
a derogatory distracting nescience thing to say, from God’s perspective, and from the pure spirited divine child of God’s intuitve knowingness certainty wise articulate discerning perspective 2
firstly, as regards ‘party’ when did pure inner holy joyful absolute carefree happiness begin for you, for any of eternal all past present future?
according to Jesus(God), “What you look for has already come.”
secondly, as regards to your none specific location invitation, who does God invite, if not eternal all past present future of planet earth?
according to Jesus(God), eternal all are invited(summoned) to divine self-love intuitive awareness articulation wisdom(ushering in divne self mirroring kingdom of heaven halo perspective wisdom), to ‘that’ which has already come, where the party started in the beginning, unchanging TRUTH same thru/of eternal all yet to come, albeit, the kingdom of heaven halo perspective has yet to be realized in this world yet lead astray by the mad flood drowning generational deathful destructive oppressive falsehood ignorances that yet hold fast the purified true pure spirited happiness of eternal all divine self.
thirdly, are regards specific ‘real life’ contact(holding my hand), as was this morning sitting alone under a tree of life in the radiant warm sunshine thinking about us, tomorrow will likely see ‘me’ doing the same, yet there without out you, albeit not ever without you, of what is your ongoing derogatory distracting nescience cycle behavior stuckness that keeps ‘me’ distracted in hopefullness at times away from getting on with getting my needs met with another more fearless than you to do so, more ‘real’ with ‘me’ to do so, more honest truthful with ‘me’ to do so……..any more lies you want to tell ‘me’ miss faker?
i asked that you not jerk ‘me’ around any more, did i not?
and what are you yet doing? Jerking my chain yet again?
does not matter who i eventually surrender 2, as regards a life partner choice i eventually will realize purely within, oneness sameness within us both one day, whre already, we are all of the oneness sameness already thruout the world past present future, of ehat has already come, in concordance with Jesus(God) of eternall all ONEness inner happiness that our sex purely reveals the TRUTH of us all, does it not?
as per usual, it is ‘me’ who awaits you as i have and will till my last day, for you to fearlessly truthfully surrender to yOUR emotional honesty safety we already are within, of 2gatherness none shall ever see us part.
and so tomorrow i will do as i do each day, revisit being alone like i do without you in shedding a tear, praying love and happiness be 2 you 24/7 with ‘me’ or ‘me’ of another, where what is purely most sacred 2 ‘me’ is the radiant brillant bright eternal day light continue 2 shine forth thru the world of eternal all YOU forever more.
blessings 2 all
peace BE 2 you + you 2 BE peace
at all times, divine self-love awareness light shining forth tomorrow is always of eternal today
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already ‘i am’ there
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i pray unceasing peace, grace, love and happiness shall BE with you and all who love you in brotherly/sisterly love at all times where you r always welcome in my life!
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party @ same old place as last time in da gay mixed bi straight transgender club… i’ll be wearing a wig and make up cause ive been banned and only way to get in annonomous it next sat 13 March no more extentions, your invited to my party..
am celebrating YOU
it’s all about you
the rest was just for the zoo
lol
now now, just because many there are who are without cultivation of their own divine self-love wise helmsman as is Jesus, in referring to an untruth of others as animals, albeit of sarcasm angst humour of so many who for sure have earned such a slap in the face……..argh……..don’t even get me started on that, a brutal week for ‘me’ i do not want to even think about of others who attempted to inject deathful poisonous ‘just for kicks’ immature mentalities i came up against this week, like the male witch i came up against, or should i say. blindly haphazardly, immaturely came up against ‘me’ in his futile attempt to cast down one he has no comprehension of.
anyway, i want to apologize for my overly emotional approach with you that sees me leaving the passive/aggressive emotional door open, rather than fully turning towards the assertive wise discerning ‘only love’ wisdom of my yet learning divine self-love nurturing awareness i am of as a devoted student of God.
i have painful unhealed issues……..that much is obvious
we all do, mild, moderate, severe…….all the result of the constant flowing binding generational extrinsic/intrinsic forces many are intellectually blind to, but none intuitively blind to, in what is the divine will objective of revealing divine self-love awareness wisdom light of truth of all binding untruth, setting free of the eternal all YOU
there is so much i have yet to say i want to share with you of what has been for me, a true friend as yourself who i know is purely as intrigued as i am in our both evolving like we have in our deliberateness for how long now?
i am glad you maintained a boundary with ‘me’, as i don’t want to surrender to anything other than constant flowing flawless healing love true nature of divine self-love wise awareness helmsman both of us as mere students before God, that i know without doubt is what is the greatest treasure Jesus speaks endlessly on in his every breath, heartbeat, step and words of Jesus, who knew his own awareness in fully constantly becoming his blessed divine self as evident of his BEcoming conduct……….my goal………God’s divine will objective for ‘me’, ‘me’ of eternal all peace, grace, love and playful inner happiness delight of the loving lovers and friends thru eternal all end that we know won’t ever end, pfffffff, impossible!
hey, i know you and see you more clearly than you may realize i do, of your turning to purely BEing your pure true flawless feeling self yet timid in approach with me, and no wonder, as i am yet of the manifesting unhealed stuff at times, am i not?
alarming at that at times, am i not?
i would hesitate too, but i am slowly coming clear of my self-harm old behavioral, like my yet smoking, argh, i am so sick of this vice that yet lingers in my life, so wanting to get fully back to my pure healthy original vulnerable self i know i pure am within, so blessed the flawless feelings i love feeling so much like i do, more and more, especially while laying naked face down on my bed, the soft sheets, the music, the air, the titillation i feel even while of no one there…………ARHGGGGGGGGGGGGG, SOMEBODY FUCK ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ALWAYS IN THE NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THE ONLY PLACE I WANT TO BE FOUND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NOW PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol
healthy is the path ahead
and i appeciate you taking time out with one who i know you know i am not purely as healthy as you are as i can be, and so ya, you really do turn to those who have fallen lowly in life’s blessed path, as one most like Jesus i realize now, in what is constant compassion you, Jesus, God, and others have for so many of eternal all around and yet to come.
i know my destiny, purely i do, purely flawlessly within of ‘i am’ destiny
i respect the time spent, and time you need to feel assured as to if ‘i am’ your most loving lover i know ‘i am’, inescapable light, even if ‘i am’ not of ‘i am’ of another.
~ spiritual divine self light ONEness is what is fearlessly unfolding.
oh Romeo, how i miss you, how i want to kiss you so, how i, hey……….how big did you say your dick was again? Why don’t you answer my questions Romeo? These are not insignificant questions! I am in my 46th year now, my third year of spiritual sabatical in exiting the worldly in turning towards my creative side i purely dwell in now, where i belong from now on, just BEing ‘me’
tic toc
why not just reveal yourself of the one i clearly see who is purely there in stillness of gentle breeze in your hair?
pure
grace
peace
love
happiness
set free
to just BE
female
male
constant
flawless
healing
true
‘real’
lover(s)
YOU
‘i am’
blessed
2
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ya, remember that play i said i was writing……….a rewrite of Romeo and Juliet, of frustrated transsexuals playing both roles, both of female and male within a female and male body……….truly, purely, illuminating sexual coming OUT hilarious so far in the script, feeling it is time for such a script i know i am one who is purely able to write as one who is purely in transsexual awareness, which for me is of my continue catharsis process in utilizing an experiential technique in self exploration of the roles of Romeo and Juliet, in none stop blossoming awareness that i will see most any fearless exploring the flawless subtle vulnerable tender loving self within of awareness TRUTH i know exists within everyone, just as Jesus knows, so 2 do i of eternal all YOU
not rushing the script that i will release whenever i feel it is complete, which as most script writers know the truth, there is no such thing as finishing a script of ever ending changes and alternates that all pretty much point to the same thing any which way, our subconscious seeking to always feel and BE our the constant yearning within everyone of only flawless healing love feeling good enough
sacred truth
oh Romeo, i know about your female self ok, just as you know about my male self, so who don’t you just give in and accept the truth of us both, our destiny that sees me alone time and time again, knowing even while of another, i am thinking and feeling of you too?
and i realize at times when i do, that maybe you yet do 2, so like what the fuck Romeo? Are we both going to die in the end without fucking each other? That is just so not how the story is supposed to end, and everyone purely knows this, so like what the fuck Romeo, you are such an asshole sometimes you know! argh………
LOL
………………to BE continued…………………….
ya, i agree, extensions are so annoying, when all you need is toss on a wig.
banned by who?
oh, i don’t think i like how the story ends if you were banned for being you?
or is it a part of you that is banned that you should learn about your self?
could you BE more specific in self-exploration please? Cannot follow what i don’t know who ‘i am’ to follow
you know? Express yOUR SELF!
may as well, you only get so many days of blessed loving life to do so, for sake of purely consistently enjoyingly BEing YOU, and for sake of mirroring TRUTH of the nature of others, what God requests of us all.
oh for frig sakes, i got bashed by an Islamic i reached out to today………block
they ban their own self in unattendance, all the while acting as though none deniars of hidden truth they unwisely falsely turn from, thinking they can hide from God……….NOT
and that is my gift from God, the wise learning eyes, heart, mind, body, spirit and oneness soul of Jesus whom i surrendered my life to, who my life belongs to, wisely so, having found none as wise as Jesus and God’s constant truthfulness of ‘me’ that they constantly know as i know self 2, self of others i see of so many hidding behind falsehood masks, although i am partial to purple wigs lately, and chicks holding two solid gold Oscars in their hand, argh, did you see that?
my first thoughts, ya, she needs those two statues to build and tone her lame looking arms up to look like Mandonna’s, mine 2.
March 13, no more extension for what? What does that mean? Why not Be pure specific and assertive as is ‘real’ feelings anticipation of loving lovers with one another in ‘real’ life, where the party you speak of is 24/7 of celebration inner happiness that comes with true nature of divine self ‘real’ grace of YOU, tender and true, connectedness within that connects with ‘real’ grace of YOU of another and others at all times.
with that said of divine self eternal all, no more extensions of eternal truth is likeness of preaching charlatans without experience, not knowing purely within they are preordained from birth not to trip into the deep pit of folly they unwisely preach, who merely lack in true redemption divine self-love awareness wisdom able to keep them from tripping into the deep pit of folly, such as the nature of trolls who encourage(plying) gay youth in self-medication coping of feelings with alcohol, a social disease, or plying gay youth with powerful addictive destructive rape drugs like Chrystal Meth.
not ‘me’, i prefer feeling the BEing of a healthy body, where even one drink of alcohol fucks up my pure sensibility enjoyment of sex……no thanks……don’t think i will be in attendance at the club, maybe outside the club, in the bright sunshine, on a beach, or skiing a mountain, which can be dangerous if you ski beyond your ability.
im bored
need to be doing ‘real’ life
need sweet authentic pure anticipation ‘real’ feelings of a ‘real’ life lover.
this blogging boringly sucks big time now………
well ok, enjoy whatever party you are talking about without ‘me’, as i will as per usual BE somewhere else on the planet.
have fun with who ever, as we are all the same within, while i go find someone who likewise is of sweet anticipation shared flame
The Kingdom of Perfect Faith is purely of self-love awareness knowingness, not philosopher argumentation reasoning blind leading the blind mixtures of distracting false untruths in attempts to find and BE pure truth of YOU, of the pure subtle constant flowing love feelings lovers know well of feelings within they have for each other, of constant sheer delightful inviting of the other into wholeness oneness flawless self-love awareness they both are of while apart, but not in the heart where they purely yearn to always dwell like we do.
2 BE or not 2 BE at your party?
well, as i said, constant oneness ‘i am’ is already there within us all, of the constant oneness world party that has no beginning and no end, as truth is not able to change from the constant it is, like the tender kiss of lips of a lover that constantly feels divine no matter who YOU are in life, no matter time YOU walk this planet, truth of divine self eternal all past present future, why YOU are here in this moment, of the passionate lovers kiss of all those who came before us all.
life sucks, we get to fall in love with BEing alive, and then we die, and i won’t ever make sense of something so stupid as that.
i miss my Dad, and all those i came to know who are gone now, getting old sucks, but it teaches us what is of most valuable in life, our flawless constant flow love feelings, where no one shall ever find anything in life of greater value than the feelings of YOU
however, love does take 2 Biyatches
and we were all invited by God to love one another in sanctified truth of the oneness we constantly all are of the eternal party of blessed life YOU of eternal all
anyway, ya sure, no more extensions to boring lame ass wannabe YOUs, i go along with ‘that’, so fucking annoying, hard to believe i hung around here as long as i did of no genuine true faithful friend of fearlessness to appear and stand before me, no, just the same old mind fuck bullshit of nowhere man in nowhere land i am left to feel as though nothing………..my thanks to Jesus and God who purely reveal otherwise.
ya ok, whatever miss never
i am purely bored out of my fucking mind now, and yearn for fearlessness lover of pretty much anyone besides this stuckness spinning of wheels going nowhere man of nowhere land empty void i have learned to dread standing in, so ya, please do not extend ‘that’ any more
thank you
im bitter right now, not entirely to do with you, transference from a brutal week yet again, stepping permanently out of reach of the ego driven annoying mind fucking charlatans without experience of emptiness nothingness of words which stifle their own divine self yet unattended, egos so big their vulnerable pure true divine self is though unreachable at times, as i pass on by, can lead a horse to water, cannot make them drink, but you can drown the fucker! lol
i jest…………why do i let morons get to me like i do, temporarily, their bitter gnashing of ego teeth so untrue of their unknowingly unattended asleep in ignorance the seem to take delight of enjoyment in dwelling of hypocrisy immature heart they enjoy like they love to annoy?
i am going to go take a long walk in ‘real’ and not come back, ok?
ok
maybe one day you will choose to BE ‘real’ with ‘me’, of only ‘real’ love i constantly deserve and constantly am, purely within, albeit i have a bitter exterior at times when i normally am not in my ‘real’ life, as many know, of our happiness flow.
ya, ‘real’ life from now on, all i ever wanted with any of YOU
bless you all with unceasing peace, grace, love and happiness of the ‘real’ YOU 24/7 of ‘real life heaven’
‘i am’ eternal TRUTH of eternal all YOU
forever more
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yikes…
well maybe don’t come 2 my party .. well not with that negative attitude ..
I wanna have an enjoyble night all dressed up as a female..
dont really want any negative energy … putting a damper on my night..
but enjoy your real life because i want to see you happy..
mwah… kiss kiss
so do i
happiness starts with addressing our own well being, ensuring our rest, exercise, diet, boundaries, getting our needs met, all vital ‘real’ not of fake happiness, no, geunuine natural occurring ‘real’ inner happiness there within us all of ‘real’ issues that left unaddressed, sees us following false approaches to happiness, like the drug and alcohol crowd, for sure, yikes to them, experienced enough in life to purely know how the story ends for many gripped by fateful unwise paths into the obvious oblivious pit of folly many plod along aimlessly, haphazardously without a cultivated wise helmsperson.
something you and i know all too well, yes?
truly, such wisdom is sacred leadership of divine self YOU, divine self YOU of the eternal all.
i have journeyed along time in safe distance appreciation of healthy ‘real’ happiness, knowing what works for ‘me’, both in life experience in what works, and what does not work for ‘me’.
just abit of pissy momentary frustration yet again of setting healthy boundaries with others who i once again got too close with in feeling what is of their own unaddressed baggage and plodding along aimlessly as many do, the ego falsehood masked saboteurs of deliberate false self action aimed at weakening another through subversion, obstruction, disruption, belittling destruction, be it religious unwiseness, homophobic fear, or perhaps they really do enjoy fucking someone else right now, obviously not interested in ‘me’, which is too bad, cause i am purely wise of my exceeding exuberant healthy sexual attitude of inner happiness that does not wane once hooked up with the healthy ‘me’ of another in both of us getting our needs met………being single sucks!
but hey, did you know most people are single? Just need to get out there and present myself, where when i don’t, well, i don’t exist for one just like ‘me’ who likewise is looking for magical fun lover happiness we all constantly are within that two set free to just BE.
at least when i get upset, i become clarity of assertiveness in channeling most of my energy into pure insight God wills for ‘me’
at my age, i am not blind at all to the pit of folly out there that grips the lives of many, and i am compassionate for our loving brothers and sisters i don’t want to learn from mistakes the hard way, of many who do indeed die from the pit of folly, senselessly, sadly, ya, they die from stupidness, and yet, the truth of extrinsic/intrinsic forces is sacred truth light awareness of untruth darkness, where the divine self within us all is of discerning intuitive ability feelings by means of the true light within we all come from, merely lacking the articulate clarity divine self wisdom that changes a persons path from fate of the pit of folly, back on track to their preordained path of destiny God will for eternal all.
in this light, there is more at state than our own happiness in wisely approaching our own divine self one has to purely address, of when we do, we don’t stray from the treasure within now found, of sacred leadership mirroring that is purely sacred light of truth God wills firstly for YOU, YOU of eternal all.
someone said, “If you do not stand for something, you fall for anything.”
and is that not what wise discerning between fate of the pit of folly and destiny of divine self happiness constantly is?
at all times, we are of influence of the divine self of others, in concordance with God
God’s eternal light of discerning revealing truth of all untruth is what is the divine will objective of God for YOU of eternal all.
i am without hesitation in purely truly saying what i know without doubt.
and well ya, you know, you wade thru the pits filled with human shit to much, you come out smelling badly, and for sure, in really bad moods, standing there covered in shit, but at least i am still able to laugh at my own self, as i do value the divine self awareness teaching as purely sacred, and ‘that’ is what is of true celebration of the one eternal generation we are all bound together by means of inescapable truth everywhere all around us, at all times, one big classroom of divine self-love awareness learning, no matter the level of evolving anyone may be at in life, compassionately, wisely, lovingly……..we know.
oh, ‘i am’ the party, and you know it, same as all YOU……..Biyatch
you see that? you just excused yourself……yet again……from hooking up with ‘me’, in not purely addressing the issue of my own needs being met that healthily comes when two do get 2gather as lovers, and it is so obvious why…….you are fucking someone else.
ya, well, maybe when you land on your ass alone in life without a lover, you will purely know how that yet is for ‘me’, and that is what i feel is where i am, on the outside looking in, as most any single person who is sadly without a lover, which is actually sacred, as it is downtime for them to purely find the treasure within and whole heartedly BE the most valuable treasure they shall ever find in life………their own inner delightful happiness that is without question of what purely truly does compatibly work in oneness sameness united wholeness wise discerning without doubt who the magical lover is for them………the sacred mirror of a soulmate who appears before them……eventually.
i already know purely ‘i am’ of my inner happiness destiny path treasure, just a matter of my soulmate fearlessly appearing before me and i them, of fireworks none stop every single day for both, of love set free to just BE, already ‘i am’, sadly of you being to busy fucking someone else.
well, all i can say, i pray they are indeed the one meant for you and you for them, of time that will run out and hit the end, as regards my being yet available, until God’s heavenly send i know will fearlessly appear and stand before ‘me’
my destiny is preordained by God
and perhaps my place in life with you was as a true friend who was there when you needed ‘me’
~
as for dressing like a female, how does one who is both female and male prefer to dress?
i say, they prefer not to dress at all, of maybe wrap themselves in a soft flowing fabric of gentle pure delicate touch of the skin, a divine robe of sorts, in likeness of the divine robe of wisdom light that nurtures, awakens and eternally protects them at all times within, a shield that only the pure of heart YOU is able 2 easily comprehend and BE who YOU always r within, only love.
bless you all
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anyway, no debating or disputing the truth, ‘i am’ versatile seeking same
and i do not, and shall not, deny my own divine self the pure truth ‘i am’
‘i am’ happiness of 2
blessings to you
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ok, i am off to find whoever is out there, a versatile male like me, with lots of testosterone in their blood, and try to forget the boring lameass unhappiness i am willing without effort now to leave behind anyone who does not grap hold of my motherfucking belt.
i easily know what i am seeking, the self-love mirror image of ‘me’
and if you get bored, well, don’t say i did not warn you.
peace out Biyatches
and besides, who wants to be around those who’s egos leave you feeling as though unworthy of a real life friendship?
Somehow i don’t feel i will much miss this belittling hollowness of a blogging experience in exiting to go be ‘real’ life oneness of others i always have been.
but hey, you are obviously so much more important than i am
im bitter………and so i will leave for awhile
Why does Jesus say we must not test the Lord?
BECAUSE YOUR TOO UN TRUSTING
i trust my feelings so pure and true, but i do not seem able to purely trust others. Been betrayed many times in life.
Why does Jesus say do not trust anyone?
Because they betray the feelings of their own divine self.
Why do they betray the feelings of their own divine self?
Because this world is lead astray from purely knowing their divine self like i do.
When they betray ‘me’, who is it they actually betray?
as regards the birth of my child that hangs in the balance, i ask that you be of clarity in addressing specific trust issues you are referring to, a conclusion list of which i have already written that is not open to debate.
feel free to speak on exact issues i am willing to elaborate on in your exploration of what i already know to be true, and perhaps in the end, we can both realize the oneness that purely already exists between us, of higher subtle self-love awareness wisdom ‘i am’
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The Kingdom of Eternal Faith is purely grounded in subtle higher intellect divine self-love awareness wisdom unceasing TRUTH and not that which belongs to unawareness argument.
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let this be our last open discussion of closure commitment
oh, and i truly am hermaphrodite
yes, i am purely both sexes
so you need not question if i emotionally trust a female to love ‘me’, in oneness sameness of the emotional female i am who loves a male the same way you do, but i am also male who loves the female the way a male loves a female, which is actually the same as the way a female loves a male, no difference in emotional purity of love both feel the same within.
ideally, a hermaphrodite is my best choice of a life partner, as equals who enjoy being both sexes without hesitation or annoying frustration that does not exist between hermaphrodites, as does not exist within hermaphrodites who do not question what they love and constantly are, both female and male, i am
so the trust question is, are you purely hermaphrodite spirit like my own, as that is the only one i am able to purely trust constantly in who i am
and as for happiness of two sexually active hermaphrodites who purely know without doubt their enjoyment of being both female and male, one need not ever question as to whether or not……..
[m interrupts Andyy, rushing in with a kiss so purely intense of true surrendered oneness spiritedness as that of Andyy, who is not surprised at all by the intensity of passionate lover’s kiss so pure inside, it is a wonder they ever go anywhere that they have to wear clothing]
LOL
good morning………Biyatches!
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so either love both of ‘me’ or leave both of ‘me’, where i cannot ever leave one or the other of my oneness wholeness true ‘real’ SELF sexes of the hermaphrodite female male i constantly am forever more, it’s just not possible.
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i am a transgender pansexual hermaphrodite female/male
~ The word (pan)sexual is derived from the Greek prefix pan-, meaning “all”
i am a freak!!!!!!!!!!!!!!……………………………NOT!
10 Reasons under $10 to be happy today.
1. Give a smile to everyone in the morning when you wake up
2. Donate at least $10.00 to a third world country.
3. Spend 10 minutes picking up rubbish in your neighborhood
4. Spend 10 minutes on the Telephone to your friends & loved ones letting them know you love them
5. Encourage a child to attain their own goals & desires in life
6. 10 minutes to concentrate on ones own talents & gifts one can share with the world to make it a better place.
7. Put an action plan in place to make the above a reality
8. Love YourSELF
9. LOVE everyONE
10. Thank GOD for the joy & opportunity to have awaken to another day to enjoy the splender of Life & the opportunity to help another soul in ones life journey.
10.
Just BE yOUR SELF
is it just me, or is everything old hat to me now? Seems everyone is doing all before….
so many lead 2 to-day,
so many along the way,
so many could not stay,
so many, why i pray
indeed, BE the eternal day light within YOU that shines forth thru the same light of the all that is who they too all are within, is the all of eternal all yet to come.
Fun loving 24/7 in Just BEing all YOU who i know are purely all one and the same flawless healing feeling da light i am 2
what kind of world are we to leave behind that our children will endeavor in oneness of the way the world should equally BE if not already of we?
the truth is, the children already intuitively know what they wonder what we don’t
just because it’s been done before
does’nt mean we carn’t do it some more
never enough to love some more
take off your old hat dont be a black cat
everyones doing it everyone’s \\oh fuck my creativity just stoped
ok everyone
on the count of three
1.. 2.. 3..
rip the wig of andy’s head ..
lol
well ya, no matter who you are in standing up, pray God you are at least able to fearlessly stand up more so than before, of all those who came before us who paved the way.
but for me, i’ve seen it all too often over many years, and well, it just bores the fuck out of me, that’s all, and besides, it’s just not how real life is, what with all their queeny, almost desperado need of attention flakyness that gets really annoying after the first five minutes, which really is not how ‘real’ daily life is for a LGBT lover, albeit, it is………
i don’t know, maybe i have mellowed with age, i just find so much of the angst to be overtheTOP boring, when all any of us really want to do is ‘shut the fuck up and let’s fuck! Kiss me…..now damn it! lol
i prefer the exceeding pure calm peaceful ‘true’ inner serenity of my day of ‘real’ self, not some nasty get my bitch on wig, although i do like the fun loving joyful flower wigs………did i say flower wig? Oh, i am so not telling anyone anything what i am up to for Pride.
Just BEing yOUR SELF
well i invited you to my party & you did’nt turn up so that’s ok.
I’ll have a party next week instead ,,
your invited ,,,,
dont bring the Devil….
i am not much ready for anything right now, i have internal bleeding, alot, so pray the blood tests come back negative, as i really dread hospitals with a passion, although some of these doctors are really adorable, and when they get to play my ass, well, you know i like it, alot actually! lol
it’s probably nothing they cannot fix or heal on it’s own, and no, it is not from what you may think it is, as i have not done that for along time.
Devil?
oh, it’s just theater, and not even that good of theater, somewhat of the immature mindset most any are at in their twenties, are they not?
nothing at all to do with me, albeit i do relate to the angst most any of the LGBT community do of Gaga and Beyonce’s recent kick in the head to this yet unaccepting world so many out there want to run away from and escape from their unaccepting families and small minded town world’s, bravo to the pure angst so in sinc with the pure true angst we know is going on with many of today’s LGBT youth out there who are coming out, where it is better to channel the angst outward to where it comes from, than inward in self-harm…….brilliant.
had i wrote the script, oh, there would of been less of the plastic doll thing
and let us not forget the mind fuck bullshit of tranny prostitution pimp fucktards who really are better dead than alive, in my opinion, such vile falsehood trannies and females alike stupidly allow themselves to get involved with like they do, like wtf, who the fuck are you, pimp daddy jerk off bottom feeding on souls scum of the pit of human shit you stand in?
rant
i don’t fucking understand how fuckedup fucking blind so many are out there, with these pimp ass motherfucking money in one pocket, drugs in the other, mental mind fucking they are like so fucking unbelievable so many do exist…….
and worse, seeing artists actually glorify this fucking garbage?
well, that is untill Gaga kicked them all in the balls
like wtf is wrong with you artists? uhm?
you all stoop low in sleeping in the same pit of human shit mentality in cashing in on vile wretched falsehood snared soul garbage like so many of you do, like get the fuck off the stage, and off the internet, and for sure get the fuck out of my face fucktards, unless you like the sound of your bones breaking when kick(and bite) your sorry pathetic excuse of a none human being ass.
rant
wtf?
where is all this coming from?
like holy fuck, who is this person?
lol
uhm…..what the fuck is Gaga saying about a fucking cow and hamburger?
wtf is that about?
local farm girl finally realizes the real lies mentality of fucked up shit for brains bible belt fucktards thru real eyes of her and her girlfriend lover?
ok………i get it
don’t laugh…….it’s true
and for what?
so religious jerk off grandpa and uncle Don can convince me long enough to stay for them to keep starring at my sweet ass?
i don’t think so motherfuckers!
rant
is my 10 minutes up yet?
oh, it takes alot more than 10 minutes to keep me happy, although not much more than 10 usually works for ‘me’
oh, you are so going to miss me and you know it
personally, i enjoy the more pure free spirited joyful free positive sexual energy trance dance music without angst, where angst is more of a phase one goes thru in coming out and eventually free of the fucktard world we unfortunately were born into of some parts of the world yet so ignorant of how loving we purely are so much more than most any truly purely realize……….
but i like my black cat who kicks ass like no other, with a serious sensual pure and true side to her soul like my own, but win in a race with me, forget it, ok, there is just no possible way you could ever beat me in a humiliation race, and why?
cause i am fearlessly the best in class, that’s why, ain’t no disputing it!
only one way to settle it………… a race, where i am already at the finish line start……your engines, on your mark, get set…………..GOOOOO!!!!!!!! damn it
lol
a great mix and a serious girl’s car, for you versatile top and bottoms OUT there everyone is looking 4!
we are of the same grace in nature, our true nature within
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per·pet·u·al
Pronunciation: \pər-ˈpe-chə-wəl, -chəl; -ˈpech-wəl\
Function: adjective
Etymology: Middle English perpetuel, from Anglo-French, from Latin perpetuus uninterrupted, from per- through + petere to go to — more at feather
Date: 14th century
1 a : continuing forever : everlasting b (1) : valid for all time (2) : holding (as an office) for life or for an unlimited time
2 : occurring continually : indefinitely long-continued
3 : blooming continuously throughout the season
currently, conventional energy sources and it’s big wig buyers(corporate world), are still the get rich quick childish mentality that is shooting us in the foot as regards polution related illnesses and warming of the planet.
i mean how stupid is it that we don’t concern ourselves about the physical illnesses that come with air polution?
we are all of the ring master slave ring thru our nose
i am confused. you think to much on this blog, its meant to be about madonna not about yourself.
im sorry but it is about her, and it should be, cause we all love her.
im delirious. but you dont hear me writing lots
Madonna’s too busy with her family career, charity work & new BOYFRIEND to write on this blog so we just decided to take it over BOO… like if she came back then maybe we would give her some attention but if she dont then well BOO life goes on ..
and on
and on ..
and on …
then again, when is’nt it about Madonna…
haha
truly, the greatest resource Africa has, is it’s deserts.
a none profit organization operated by it’s people for it’s eternal future generations, is able to create the world’s largest most competitive priced energy supply the world has not yet seen, easily by continously putting moneys back into expansion of solar collection in it’s desert regions, at whatever rate of expansion they want to expand at, ideally, the faster the better of continuous exponential expansion until it’s desert regions are covered with solar collection.
obviously, greed of corporate owned fuctards, does nothing for it’s people, where the energy collection should be 100% for it’s future generations.
when you calculate the math of the free flow state of exponential expansion over the next 50 years, you are easily able to see the light at the end of the tunnel, of solar collection that eventually becomes almost free as regards operating costs of the solar energy collection.
the corporate world really does not much care for the future generations and the planet as regards prosperity of mankind, rather is of an immature master/slave mindset of greed of wealth financial empire building that globally does see continued lowering of wages greed by unwise unconcerned corporate leaders who sit apon thrones of nescience, why the world is yet of such unnecessary disconnected hardship.
full human potential prosperity will only be possible by means of none profit organizations owned by the people.
i mean look at the prices of these concrete boxes in realestate……..beyond belief people actually buy into the bullshit.
enter none profit organizations who work exclusively with other competitive none profit organizations with the sole intent of prosperity for future generations who will inherit what we leave behind.
truly, corporate greed is an ugly blemish in human history that future generations will embrace as the dark ages.
perhaps China will wake up and lead the way out in steering clear of the greedy train wreck that is unfolding in our supposed idealism of capitism?
and to think it is all low self-esteem driven
wow
the height of mindlessness has yet to be seen…..
although the technologies we continue to advance in, is what will save the future, especially robotics powered by a continuous exponential expanding not for profit solar energy collection that will expand into space over the next million years of human history
Madonna has a new BOYFRIEND?
boring……….
let me know when Madonna has a new fulltime GIRLFRIEND Biyatches! lol
when you discect out the bottom feeder corporate greed leaches that drain off prosperity, future generations are reward with what obviously does concern them, of entire generations opting out of working for today’s corporate owned companies to work for better more attractive prosperity of 100% profit sharing companies are able to attract.
of course it will take many generations to realize this light of equality and far greater ‘real’ prosperity
it is the corporate bottom feeder greed leeches who are siphoning off human potential prosperity in the world, of the yet immature master/slave relationship of the self-serving nescience leaders held captive by their own low self-esteem building financial empires greed mindset.
if all corporate greed was distributed to the people, there would be no poverty in the world.
and what is it we are teaching future generations?
that immature self-serving delusional greed is the end all be all way of life, that leaves generations of defenseless outcast kids without basic necessities and education which should be free like it is in many countries.
20,000 years from now, world labor will be entirely robotic, working for it’s people who do away with corporate bottom feeder leeches of prosperity
the only reason most any of these countries have massive numbers of military, are of world leaders in bed with corporate and religious leaders to control it’s own people as they have and yet do for centuries.
one day there will come a wiser generation of pure concern for global prosperity that does away with all these forefather ignorances of controlled seperation, a generation that easily peers thru the wretched forefather fear mongering falsehood leaders on thrones of nescience, where already, equality is of ‘real’ realization within today’s generation, something i am proud to see and feel daily as a Canadian
awesome!
Ellen and Madonna are cousins!
well now, who knew?
if we go back far enough, we are all related
minimum wage in 1955 = $0.75/hour
minimum wage in 2009 = $7.25/hour
wage increase since 1955 = $0.12/per hour, per year
therefore, US federal minimum wage in 2009 has increased by 9.67 times that of minimum wage in 1955 in 54 years,
>>>>>>>> or 0.18 % percent of yearly wage increase over the previous year, on average since 1955.
means nothing, right?
until you compare it with the ‘average % inflation rate’ since 1955 …………*cough* ……….unfucking believable you fucking heartless ring master slavery FUCKERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!
13.18 % per year!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
year after year since 1955 to present day, what the greedy corporate boys and girls don’t want you slaves to KNOW, and the hole keeps getting deeper and deeper, imploding…………
well congradufuckinglations assholes!
my only prayer is that China is paying attention to the you assholes dictator keep us all blindfolded, oh, don’t say anything once we get working for you masters of tricker deception, no, would not want to do that
we have yet to see the fallout that is coming in the next 50 years
equally worth noting is the negative inflation rate of last year of – 0.35 %, FOR THE FIRST TIME, since 1955’s negative inflation rate of – 0.28%
you simple cannot keep doing this to minimum wage earners, and this my friends is the ugly ‘hidden truth’ of the idealism captitalism lacking concern that capitalism does indeed consume it’s own body.
there is only one way, and that is the ‘real’ human potential prosperity that corporate does not want us to know.
already, captitalism has spun out of control, and the truth is, some of the smarter ones at the helm know full well where we are heading, where China is banking on it.
how long before the general public is made aware of the imploding future? uhm?
again, we are back at the same fucking game, of increasing inflation rates that should not even exist.
inflation since 1955 – 2009 is a grand total of 712%
that is the true inflation over the past 54 years, or 13% per year
you corporate people are bottom feeding law maker in your pockets fucking slime of the earth, and when it implodes, which we all know full well it will eventually, the mess will be irrecoverable, and the smart ones know this already, why they are so desperate at their gambling trickery fraud deception…………there is not going to be a future at these rates, and still corporate is squeezing the minimum wage earners, which is so stupid, it is choking their own bottom line…..
see what i mean?
in Canada, we have been increasing our minimum wage over the past five years, now at 10.25, oh and look, our dollar is the same as the dwindling no future USA
lol
corporate greed is our enemy, and in truth, the prosperity belongs to the people who will one day, without doubt at all, cast out the handful of greedy ones today who are leading us to an more emptying future, that most any of us are a long time sick of, especially considering the stupid prices of realestate, like wtf, 800k for a box of a house with less than 50k worth of building materials in it? huh?
if i were to open my none profit home building school, that teaches people how to build their own home on the weekend in an eight month period, i could sweep the entire realestate market middle guys out the door, every last one of them, within ten years……….argh……..i am so tempted!
when we step away from true growth rates in a greedy eager inflationary fashion, we are cashing in on the future generations who may not have any way of recovery from where it is obviously heading.
and the fact that government hides this truth from it’s own people is just stupid, a lie like any lie that catches up with you eventually.
if the government wizards do not get a true handle on growth rates and opt for listening to the thrones of nescience cash in the future corporate greed, well, the future will be what it is……….fucked!
why can we not trust our own government of highly educated graduates to set the laws where growth rates and inflation are concerned, where today, we should see a zero inflation rate at the very least for the next two decades if we want prosperity for the future generations?
otherwise kiss it goodbye
the future is obviously yet left to the whims of corporate dictatorship, which really is a hideous dictatorship according to my caclulations, according to others who assisted me with these calculations
what’s worse, is everyone and their dog is banking on it
look in the mirror morons, and see the ugliness of the future YOU
lol
oh hey, today was a good rant!
if China is wise, they will stop contributing to an already sinking ship
let me get back to you on specific years and numbers in the future that you morons can all look forward to, of the same ugly mirroring truth you need not look far and see, the one in the mirror that does not care at all about the future, just as you all obviously DO NOT CARE ABOUT TODAY………….FUCKERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol
the answer is simple
government law makers HAVE to grow up and stop listening to corporate dictatorship. casting them all adrift to go else where, let them go, their sinking ship mentality will see them all drown eventually anyway, as regards competitive prosperity in the future that will come when government and it’s law makers grow up and be REALISTIC in growth rates without playing deaf to hidden lying like they have for fifty years.
well ok, i don’t take into account the other higher wage earners, but the point is, who are the bulk of the population? uhm?
that’s right, THE TRUTH!
follow the TRUTH
and maybe my kids one day won’t snear at you lameass lawmakers of today……..although i cannot guarantee that, as we are talkin about my kids, not yours
lol
MARCO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ARE YOU GOING TO ASK ME FOR A DATE OR WHAT?
oh, i am not always like this in group settings, although i have noticed most don’t know what the fuck i am talking about, embarrassing for them, not us, so don’t worry about ‘that’, ok?
did you keep your envestment in gold like i asked you to?
China is the future, so invest there, as they are far wiser than we give them credit for, and in truth, far more spiritually tuned into spirituality of it’s people than we are, and remember, they have a vast pool of smart people to draw from, like ten times that of us, so ya, China……..invest in China!
although i am not sure what their corporate mindset is……..
true ‘real’ prosperity of any society is being constantly TRUTHFULLY and EXACTINGLY concerned for it’s people, and not to worry, they will take charge eventually anyway, once truth of the hardship of these false leader who sit apon thrones of nescience are purely realized…………mathematically…………..spiritually 2
i just want to see poverty end in the world, that’s all i care about, of unborn yet to come who won’t ever experience what so many do today, because of the avoidable illness of heart corporate greed………….it really is an illness of heart in the eyes of not only Jesus and God, but also in the wise aware awake eyes of any mathematician divine child of God who knows what realistic growth rates are, and what are not, just as any farmer can tell you what realistic growth rates average out to between bumper crop years and drought years………..of a zero growth rate average……….that is what realistic growth rate thinking is, a mathematical constant, and what we have to aim for, and do away with these inflationary price fixing grap the cash out of the hands of the future and run low self-esteem fucktard mentality of the ones currently(not for long) at the helm……….or should i say more accurately, no one is at the helm? As in no divine child of God is at the helm? lol
oh come on Marco, i promise not to embarass us……ever! Your just too insecure to go out with the best, that’s all!
see, im feeling better each day!
oh, don’t worry about it, it’s been awhile now, and i have grown used to ‘not expecting’ you will ever ask me OUT!!!
even if i already am OUT!!!!!!!!!
Biyatch!
its getting steamy.
Im back , sorry i’m so late..
are you hungery ? ..
im starving
did you know more than 1 billion people earn less than a dollar a day?
Since 1955 we have not had a single deflationary year so none of the following recessions since then are related to deflation, an oversight most consumers do not understand.
If there are 10 items for sale and $10 in the economy… the average price for each item will be $1.
If the supply of goods doubles, but the money supply stays the same, there will be 20 items but only $10 so the average price of each item will fall to 50¢.
i do not agree that there are such things as recessions, rather what we see is the fluctuation of over zealous time periods of investors, and the lackluster cash out, shut it down time periods of investors who are gamblers….
Hi Christopher, love that name it has Christ in it
so what is prosperity?
Prosperity is the state of flourishing, thriving, success, or good fortune. [1] Prosperity often encompasses wealth but also includes others factors which are independent of wealth to varying degrees, such as happiness and health.
Economic notions of prosperity often compete or interact negatively with health, happiness, or spiritual notions of prosperity. For example, longer hours of work might result in an increase in certain measures of economic prosperity, but at the expense of driving people away from their preferences for shorter work hours.[2] In Buddhism, prosperity is viewed with an emphasis on collectivism and spirituality. This perspective can be at odds with capitalistic notions of prosperity, due to their association with greed.[3] Data from social surveys show that an increase in income does not result in a lasting increase in happiness; one proposed explanation to this is due to hedonic adaptation and social comparison, and a failure to anticipate these factors, resulting in people not allocating enough energy to non-financial goals such as family life and health.
anyway, my point earlier is that $5/week increase in weekly wages does not translate into tens of thousands of dollar price increases in realestate.
true econonmic prosperity is only possible thru zero inflation rate stability of all of society steadily working at production of whatever marketable items a corporation wishes to bring to market in a society where all of it’s people have income to spend.
things like inflationary price fixing speculation get rich quick and get out addictive gamblers, and banking which strives to loan people money to pay back later with interest, is what is cause for the any recessions we continue to cycle thru, with greater and greater devastation swings directly linked to more and more market speculators coming online.
why can we not get back to a world that seeks to mass market it’s products to all of society in the ENTIRE world, where everyone of us is regarded as a consumer, provided that we are all working with manufacturing corporations we ALL need to work with in REQUIRED symbiotic relationships, of corporations content in making money thru yearly expansion of it’s manufactured products that increase it’s bottom line, doing away with these day traders and even the banks which continue to bleed off prosperity in self gain?
indeed, the bankers table Jesus kicked over when we look at the bankers table that spans into the eternal future, is indeed a big table, and is indeed what holds back global prosperity.
moneys taken out of the global economy to pay bank interest is at an all time high as we speak, that does indeed bleed off the global economic moneys available for spending on manufactured items, a curse of sorts that drains off moneys that employs people, in what it is we are actually seeing today in this recent recession that was entirely manipulated by these gamblers, where we know, most any individual out there wants to buy the products they cannot, so long as they don’t have jobs.
when we look at the billion people making less than $1 a day, we need to see each one of them as a valuable consumer, but only when they are employed.
we cannot escape the truth that we have to embrace the symbiotic REQUIRED relationship with corporations and it’s people.
if corporations are smart as a WHOLE, they would realize the true potential prosperity of continued yearly expansion in it’s manufacturing and highering of more and more people in society, rather than looking the other way cutting back it’s symbiotic required relationship.
truly, the numbers are great when we look at the potential of an entire global population working.
well ok, we won’t likely ever escape the gambler speculators in society, that if anything are of a steady increase, albeit alot got burnt in recently, a welcoming reality check that has done away with alot of them.
one way to look at future prosperity if the eternal future, is to see it for what it truly is, metaphorically speaking as though there is a massive crop that does not have enough workers to harvest it, and yet, the workers are constantly there, truly a gold mine of sorts, but so long as governments let these gamblers continue to play havok with our sound accounting principals we already know work perfectly, then we will continue to see the unnecessary stalling take place in where all corporations want to grow, reaching out to the entire global market, that is constantly potentially always there, and not there when we legally allow over zealous speculators, including the banks, to drain off more and more moneys out of the perfect smooth running global economy…….. i really am an realist at heart, optimistically speaking.
Home prices in the over whelming majority of local U.S. housing markets are falling. Some markets have already seen prices come down as much as 50% from their peaks. Foreclosures are at record highs.
i see it all as legalized criminal activity where banks and it’s investors simply repo a house or car that people fail to make payments on, as i said before, a cash and asset grab by the banks and investors, that i feel was all manipulated right from the start, when our own governments stood up and scared the crap out of the consumers in announcing an upcoming recession like they did, knowing full well it would result in consumer tightening of moneys that would lead to layoffs, that would lead to where we are now, repossession of all the equity people put into the realestate they did that the banks and it’s investors are sitting on as we speak, who know full well the prices will go up again at some point.
and what do they get to do?
resell all the assets they grabbed back from us.
and let’s not forget the credit rate jump on everyone of you credit card owners and loans.
a license to steal, is what you investors have
while many go without jobs and a family home.
do you know what the foreclosures are to date since the recession started?
i guess the whole thing pisses me off, because i see the ugly TRUTH of how you thievery investors are legally protected in your manipulation tactics you all knowingly played like you did, of foreclosure events that continue in a cycle pattern like they did back in the 1980s when they took our family home, that stripped my youth of a sense of security i did not even know i had until it was taken away from me, my ass landing on the streets at age 15 from a shattered family home of job loss, divorce, bankruptcy
truly, you are all hideous to me
i remember how the bank manager repossessed our family home, and sold it to a friend of his standing in the wings…….
you are all shysters in bed with legalizing shysters, like the slime ball pigs you all clearly obviously are
~ a shyster (pronounced /ˈʃaɪstər/) is a slang word for someone who acts in a disreputable, unethical, or unscrupulous way, especially in the practice of law and politics.
and what do you lose?
a friend like me who will not dine at your swine tables…….ever
i am going to add up all the legalized asset grab repo and resell you investors have been doing since this started, and get back to you on the exact amount of accumulated financial asset theft you all managed to take from the working class, that none of you care at all about, as though we are livestock you all cash in on in taking to slaughter like you have of so many.
i mean can you people not see the ugliness of your teeth now showing?
banks should not be legally allowed to take a single family home that families have lived in and paid into for years, that Supreme Courts need to address in changing protective laws away from you who love this whole stealing back of decades worth of asset building so many have been doing, where in truth, banks make more money during a recession, that shows up years later on it’s books as resold repossessed assets, as though remorgaging the entire home value in their possession, when already they have collected for it’s value from it’s previous owners.
it is criminal
and one day, i am going to prove it, and reveal it to the world, these exact numbers that will reveal conclusively the hidden truth that the recessions are welcomed and manipulated by all you shyster investors who now have our own government assisting in your legalized criminal activity.
get ready for the TRUTH
my only hope is that some day society wakes up to entirely to all that is hidden from view.
when the Supreme Court changes the laws with all the nationalized banks to protect the single family home from you vultures, it will take the air out of your ability to asset sting…..and when enough evidence reveals conclusively the massive numbers of asset sting and resell over a five-ten year period like this recession, as we come out of it, it will be all society needs to see thru to not ever trusting you people ever again.
to give you an idea of the asset grab back for reselling, foreclosures in 2009 were 3,957,643 filings
four million properties, hmmmm……now that is some serious equity asset grab back, yes?
and why are the banks profiting?
gee, i don’t wonder why
oh look, the tell tale truth of US Federal Reserve earnings of 45 billion in 2009, double what it did in 2005.
all on the backs of the ignorant working class slaves
fuckers
this is going to get ugly as fuck, and soon
well ok, US Federal Reserve earnings came as a result of Fed owned $1.8 trillion in U.S. government debt and mortgage-related securities, up from $497 billion a year earlier, in attempts to help out, and i suppose the 45 billion does go back to Treasury, but it all makes me wonder how it is they convinced China to continue to invest……..now we know.
so how much of it was indeed manipulated buy government before and during the recession?
well, with those tabulated numbers, 45 billion in interest revenue, double what they did in 2005, it is kinda obvious, is it not?
imagine that…
what?
and no i have not been hanging around Rosie too much in conspiracy theory, as numbers don’t lie!
anyway, at the end of it all, i learned real self-esteem is believing in yourself, that has little or nothing to do with status quo, as much as some of you ego trippers may think it does.
and happiness?
well, happiness is simply how one feels around those we love
anyway, there is ordinary healthy good investing in the world, with wholesome accounting practices that bring forth good in the world, without theft like that of manipulation speculator bank investor gamblers that not only cause havok in society, in truth, they cause intentional havok, and all we need to do is track the resale of every single one of these foreclosure properties, and the equity that was in them when foreclosure came.
the recession is a combination of two things, consumer fear tightening of spending, which drives down demand of products, that results in job loss, and the resulting job loss that causes more driving down demand of products, that results in more job loss, while the smart equity asset boys and girls stand by legally to take your equity and sell it, knowing you cannot sell it, what they hope for.
well, now the banks are nationalized, and consumer protection measures are still being addressed, where for sure, this equity asset grab should not be allowed at all, as a way to rid the world of this kind of manipulation equity asset grab back, where anyone in realestate will tell you, realestate may temporily go down, but are always short lived, in what were overly priced properties in the first place, all intentional of the speculation boys and girls, of course.
i am going to attempt to track all these foreclosures, and see if i can get an exact number on the working class equity asset grab back the banks and government are sitting on, looking to resell(twice).
wow, so easy for them to make so much money, yes?
just take a family home’s equity and sell it
legalized theft
plain and simple
and if the entire economy crumbles into the nothingness void legalized theft is allowed to manipulated, blame the shyster banker investors and their legalized theft of your equity everyone
remember when they all cryed wolf and ran out the door with whatever golden parachute moneys were left in the vaults as they closed their doors and ran?
ya, you are all such heroes
this is going to kick in society, but do investors care?
no, like good little animals(slaughtered slaves), the working class victims calm down and tend to actually believe and buy into that it was all ok for these investors to legally STEAL back the equity they built up for however many decades.
of course the slaughtered slaves don’t have a legal leg to stand on, now do they?
stop protecting investors and start protecting consumers, or all kiss the economy goodbye, and this may or may not be the final cycle, as the shake out is still not over yet………far from it.
but hey, the slaughter slaves just need food and water, they will be fine, and one day they get a job again, and again, you FUCKERS get to fuck them again and again……..this is the third fucking bankruptcy i have been thru
anyway, i don’t give a fuck about it, and i am returning to my art studio, much happy in life than i have ever been, with someone who loves me without concern of what my status quo is Biyatches!
sculpting being my favorite medium of choice right now.
i figure i can easily sculpt several pieces a week……sexual art of course!
i am my favorite past-time, sex, 24/7!!!!
now that is an original saying, yes? lol
anyway, it won’t shut down, just as farmers won’t ever have to stop growing crops, just as we all have to eat, and if we have no jobs, well, goverment has lot’s or resources to house it’s cattle in, and keep them all fed and warm for however many people, for however long needed, as the master loves it’s nice peaceful slaves they get to take to slaughter every ten years or so, and cash them in, able to keep the slave alive for yet another slaughter later.
brilliant
simply brilliant fuckers!
hmmm…..sorta like any kind of renewable resources, yes?
like lambs and their wool coats they get to take time and again
i have to say, it really is brilliant, and all legal for them too, how convienient, yes?
of course the law makers are in bed with the corporate investor boys and girls, obviously.
what would be really interesting is how many homes have repeat repossesion history, and what is the exact capitalizing investors gained from reselling the equity of these repo properties we could track back over the last 100 years and maybe peer into a hidden truth, depending on just how much equity we are talking about, all free moneys of course.
hmmm…….what is free money(equity) today, worth in tomorrows dollars?
100% cash profit
my family owned our family home from the day i was born till the age of 15, that my dad built with his own hands, and from a simple job loss set back that came with the 1980 recession, banks were legally allowed to take the family home out from under us, a sense of security i did not know i had till i was stripped of it.
that was hard on me, i remember dealing with the emotional impact of it daily for many years after, a feeling that did not go away, and even today is yet there at times, but i have risen above it all and now see the world for what it is, immature children of God at play, and egotistically viciously if you choose to play along with their childish mentality, that i have long learned to despise entirely for just how obviously ego driven the status quo fucktards grossly are.
gross materialism according to God
indeed gross when we see how we turn our backs on a defenseless child that will needlessly take it’s last breath today.
ya, i love you all so so much…………..not
anyway, get out there and think goodness in your hearts as investors, where it’s ok to make moneys to continue in expansion of creating jobs for more and more people, a corporate mandate, but when it comes to overzealous speculation of markets, well, all inflation is a reflection of speculation, which is why we see inflation like we do, that does not really amount to much, but it could, if regulations are not enforced.
governments have nationalized the banking systems, and it should be clear sailing from here on, perhaps not ever to see the depths of this recession we are yet climbing out of ever again.
personally, i would invest in poverty stricken parts of the world, paying people the same as we pay people here, where employees are far more grateful than i feel most any of us are here, and let us face the truth, who really needs the jobs more than heartless us with our backs turned on defenseless kids? uhm?
you know, there is not a single job in our country that one could not be trained to do within a few weeks, no matter the language barriers that anyone of us can easily overcome, likewise in a few weeks.
all one needs is to turn towards and constant dwell in the goodness in your hearts, where we all constantly yearn to dwell in BEing who we all constantly are, the divine child of God
bless you all with peace, grace, love and happiness forever more
you best friend in business is Chartered Accountants and CMAs/CGAs, with strick adherence to GAAP
personally, i don’t trust anyone but seasoned CAs
Generally Accepted Accounting Principles (GAAP) is the americanized term used to refer to the standard framework of guidelines for financial accounting used in any given jurisdiction which are generally known as Accounting Standards. GAAP includes the standards, conventions, and rules accountants follow in recording and summarizing transactions, and in the preparation of financial statements.
get back to work everyone
and be sure to truly enjoy your blessed life each blessed day in just being YOU
no matter any derogatory falseness others may unwisely choose to be towards you, none of which is ever true, according to Jesus, according to God, according to the wise awake aware divine child of God’s heart mind body spirit and soul of eternal ALL YOU
forever more
i am
Adam if you want me to join this cause then you need to get serious and advertise, ok well i’ll do it for you just this once just to help you get started,
i’ll use Madonna eveyone else does …
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MARCO IM SO CONFUSED!
your gonna have to explain yourself next time i see you.
xo
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point im trying to make is,
6 out of 7 people in this world dont have enough food to eat
1 in 7 do
so if i billion people gave $40 at least once a year, there would be 40billion dollars a year to feed and assist those in need to sustain..
it should’nt be just the responsibility of just the few but the resposibility of the all..
obviously, but people dont care.
to put it simply
leadership
leadership is stated as the “process of social influence in which one person can enlist the aid and support of others in the accomplishment of a common task.
financial prosperity in the world is the result of leadership
financial poverty in the world is the result of lacking leadership
ALL corporations and governments have to look at each individual as necessary for financial prosperity.
it has taken the world along time to arrive where we are today, and it will take along time of many generations to come to see financial prosperity increase in the world.
i do see solar collection as a huge player in future prosperity of generations to come, where my concern is that corporations will be the ones who will own, sell, and control the solar collection price fixing, much the way those who own oil, price fix to their own liking.
the other thing with increasing corporate solar collection, is the corporate robotics that come with it, in producing whatever products it wants, and selling to society whatever it can get for them, a potential dark age of sorts, although arguably is the dark age we yet are in………
the unwise divine children need leadership
this is without doubt why the world is where it is, was, and WILL BE.
future generations of the WILL 2 BE, listen!
look apon the truth and ‘lack’ of truth of your leaders
Seroconversion ~ Day One
i asked the doc, “So i don’t have hep? Then how come i have all the symptoms of hep?”
doc, “That’s what HIV does during seroconversion, it attacks the liver.”
boom…….
i asked the doc, “How come my HIV test results don’t say if i am positive?”
doc, “It’s too early in seroconversion for the 4 ways to detect the HIV virus that is just now revealing the seroconversion symptoms, why we want to do another test.”
a surreal day, to say the least
~
Seroconversion ~ Day Two
There are worse things than HIV
When did seroconversion actually start as relates to my low self-esteem self-respect self-preservation, in taking ownership of my own contributing low-self esteem behavioral?
I say it started way before i was born…
my father was a dysfunction abondoning father, a result of his father abondoning his family as a youth…….how far back is anyone’s guess, as Jesus says, blame the forefathers.
well ok, exactingly speaking, i am the absolute inescapable truth result of the forefathers, that leads to a dead stop with me, as regards my fathering my own kids…….although i have heard they have such a thing as sperms scrubbing that removes the fluids that carry the sperm, that also carry the sperm……for those who can afford that it….and how safe is it? i don’t know, will look into it another day.
as regards who i feel did KNOWINGLY INTENTIONALLY invected me, at this point, i want to see that behavioral also in the same light of what seroconversion really really is………a direct result of the forefathers……..although it does not have to BE.
fuck, i was so close to my higher self-esteem too, in going thru a divorce that impacted my behavioral, no matter what i wanted to think otherwise, in my now dealing with my seroconversion, and the obvious contributing behavioral.
ah well, i have a new set of wings i have to get used to, whether i like it or not, in taking up position along side those who likewise are HIV positive.
i love how far we have come after all these years in our community, where i honestly just see HIV as a simple bug like any bug out there, where indeed, there are far worse things than HIV, like cancer.
for those who have not experienced what seroconversion feels like physically mentally emotionally sexually spiritually, you really don’t know how it feels.
yesterday was the most surreal day of my life.
PRACTICE SAFE SEX!!!!!!!!!!!
fuck, a part of me is so pissed off, about someone who knowingly infected me, and as much as i dread saying it, i don’t know who, and worse, what if it was my ex who intentionally infected? I don’t want to think that, but i have to deal with it.
well, what of the seroconversion of my ex anyway? An equally ‘traumatized’ kid out of the jungles of war torn North Veitname in the 1970s. Is my seroconversion linked to the end result of that war we did?
maybe
i always look at all behavioral as inter-linked extrinsic resulting intrinsic forces, no matter who you are, although with applied psychology, it does not have to BE.
fuck, i should of kept my therapy going, i knew it was too early for me to drop out of therapy……..i am my own worse enemy.
i have to think positive about my HIV…….no pun intended
it’s just a bug, nothing more, my meds are free, thank God for the country i live in, i am fortunate, and i am one to teach others first hand what not to do.
and with todays meds, i can live for decades, and who knows when they will find a cure, God willing.
i am not really that worried about my health at all, where HIV is concerned, given the meds we have today.
but it does put a damper on my choice of sex partners, and they me, and fathering kids? If there is no risk with sperm scrubbing, well, that is not a decision for me to make.
so ya, there ya have it everyone, i am most likely HIV positive, in more ways than one…….argh
Symptoms of HIV Seroconversion
Understanding the process of HIV seroconversion and the symptoms are key factors in early detection and treatment of HIV infection. This article will first explain what seroconversion is, and then outline the symptoms of seroconversion. If you are exposed to HIV and exhibit any of these symptoms within the first 2-6 weeks of exposure, visit your doctor immediately.
Understanding Seroconversion
Seroconversion describes the process of the body’s immune response to either infection or immunization. When the immune system detects an antigen (virus, bacteria, toxins, etc.), antibodies are made and can be detected in blood tests. This process of creating detectable antibodies to a specific antigen is called seroconversion. In HIV specifically, individuals are considered seropositive when HIV antibodies are detectable in blood tests.
HIV Seroconversion: Acute Infection Phase
For two weeks to three months after exposure to HIV, individuals may experience what is considered the acute infection phase. This is the time during which seroconversion occurs. The body is recognizing the HIV virus and producing antibodies to try to fight the infection. The immune system becomes overwhelmed, and physical symptoms develop. Often, the symptoms are manageable, although some individuals may required medical treatment and even hospitalization. By the end of the acute infection phase, the body has generally produced enough antibodies to be detected in a routine HIV test. At this point, a positive HIV antibody test results in the diagnosis of HIV infection.
Symptoms of HIV Seroconversion
The symptoms of acute HIV infection (seroconversion) are similar to the flu or mononucleosis. Individuals may experience headache, aching muscles, fatigue and fever. Symptoms may also include nausea, vomiting and diarrhea. In some cases, a sore throat, mouth ulcers and a rash may also be present. In almost all acute infection phases, the lymph nodes will be swollen as a result of the body’s immune response to the introduction of HIV.
Confirming Seroconversion
The only reliable and definitive way to confirm HIV seroconversion is through a blood test. An HIV test may not give reliable results after exposure for up to six months, so it’s important to retest within six months of exposure. Additionally, the Centers for Disease Control recommends annual testing for individuals at high risk of HIV infection.
Treatment During Seroconversion
If HIV infection can be detected during the seroconversion phase, immediate and aggressive anti-retroviral therapy (ART) has been shown to be effective in significantly reducing viral loads, sometimes to undetectable levels. While ART therapy may be effective at all stages of HIV/AIDS disease progression, it is particularly effective during the seroconversion period, so an understanding and recognizing of symptoms of HIV seroconversion becomes even more critical.
hmmm…..so this is what it feels like on the other side of the tomb? ~ a morbid thought
i always was a morbid kid
firstly Andy .. im not impressed I know people who have lived with HIV & are HIV positive and they are not victims .. your not even tested positive & you are acting like you are, is it a sympathy vote or something.. YOU BLAME EVERYONE BUT YOURSELF ..
i AM so over this blog, I am so over Madonna
I am going back to the real world
back to my french girlfirend Cecilia
she can have my baby
your a loose ass, bottom bitch … who cries wolf
God bye & God bless
Cecilia’s Pregnant OMG im gonna be a dad..
my baby’s gonna be a boy, i just know it..
im gonna propose to her now.. on the 24 April @ her favorite club the Market … she doesn’t know yet so keep it a secret..
im so excited ive always wanted a baby boy but I would love a baby girl two .. Maybe cecilia will have twins a boy & a girl
yer
I want two now babies now
A boy & a Girl
I’ll be the Best DAD on planet earth
i just dont think i should teach them how to spell
i’ll leave that up to AnDy
actually on second thoughts maybe NOT
AnDy carn’t fucking spell either
if you LOVE me i’ll LOVE YOU
if you do not LOVE , ME
then
I’ll Be Just Fine
BECause
I Love
ME
YOU DO NOT
CONTROL ME
I CONTROL ME
COME ON GIRL
YOU gotta LOVE that ALIEN
HOW CUTE IS HE ???
LOL
HE”S ADORABLE
& SO ARE YOU
😉
I really think
that Alien
CAn Dance…
how subtle is He
lol
Surrender
FOR ONCE
ya, well fuck you Marco, and the mind fuck gamer you truly are…….
i took ownership of my fucking behavioral, you hypocritic jackass who thrives in ego tripping like you obviously do……
i was right when i said i should not of listen to you long ago, and walked away then.
truly, i am glad this mental abusive relationship is over, and ya, i do partly blame you for my seroconversion, of someone who lead me on to no where……..all the while having no intention at all of seeing me……
and besides, you enjoy dwelling in the hypocrisy heart of a fool who did enjoy making fun of my theological views, not knowing it was the words of Jesus and God.
so thanks alot Marco, for bashing the fuck out of me time and again, where for sure, i am not going to miss you in taking up position with others who are positive, a more comfortable less stigmatizing place for me in life of lovers and friends from this day forward.
so fuck off and die Biyatch
truly know, i despise you the way Jesus and God despise your wretched mind fucking hypocrisy shit for brains
good fucking bye bashers
and truthfully speaking, you are one of the most screwed up people i ever came across in life….obviously
ok Madonna, you can trash this blog now
as i said before, those who have not experienced seroconversion, do not physically mentally emotionally sexually spiritually know what it is like.
i try to make sense of my seroconversion, and you come along and bash me during a serious time in a person’s life?
clearly, only those who experience seroconversion know what it is like.
argh……..truly i despise you entire now Marco, of no desire at all to ever trust or listen to a single fucked up word from your lying ass mind fucker cyber-bully jackass gamer you OBVIOUSLY ARE, of the nowhere nothingness viperous wretched hypocrite i have no doubt at all you are Marco
Go to God for forgiveness, you immature jerk
as Jesus said, “death to ego”
in my mind, your words are spiritually death that does indeed sometimes lead to physical death for those who enjoy dwelling in the hypocrisy heart.
and what of a world that does not have HIV drugs, uhm?
i would die
and as for the victim remark, uhm, my ex was positive from the time i met him, and i was one who chose to be a caregiver who made him feel as though his HIV status was as though nothing, in getting him to work a part time job, to improve his phsysical mental emotional sexual spiritual well being, and he survived thru the years it was dangerous, back in the 1990s, and it worked, while all around us, so many HIV positive ones died, as a result of not transitioning well thru their HIV seroconversion, of those who come thru it well, and those who do not.
take my word for it, i am one of the most powerful warriors of God on planet earth, here in the year 2010, easily able to deal with my HIV status, a mere bug, nothing more to me, where far more serious are the many other life issues in life, compared to being HIV positive.
fuck, you are so fucking immature Marco!
you are not even a fucking friend in my mind……..at all, saying i am about my victim mentality.
this is fuck all to me, truly, as though nothing, where in truth, the only fucked up thing i have to deal with, is you jackasses of stigmatization……..i always knew this of the most loving ones along lover’s road i came to love and know who were/are HIV positive.
anyway, we did not meet in life Marco, and now i don’t want to meet you
so there you go jerk, enjoy playing with yourself alone here of nowhere land and the nowhere man you are in God’s eyes, mine too
and ya, i am still seeing my ex, who i do love, and who loves me, writing down this recent event as an accident, that in truth, even if it was intentional, it is still an accident in my mind, of the truth of the forefather fuckup shit for brains lead up to where our ONE generation currently is.
fuck, did not expect you to be such a jerk with me today like you clearly are…….not who i esteemed you to be at all……my mistake.
well, enjoy your karma Marco
without me
i will end this with the words of Jesus, “Where all untruthfulness is, you will not find ‘me’
anyway, pos lovers usually run with pos lovers, and there is no difference between the pos lovers and the negative lovers, of so many pos lovers i have enjoyed being with for many many years, where most of my gay lovers were positive………so sad to see such beautiful people feel stigmatized by all you hypocrite jackasses, and ya, i say this from the perspective of Jesus and God, just as exists stigmatization of so many other things in life.
anyway, that’s it, the end of a potential lover i anticipated of you for so long, no longer, barely even a friend i did not meet, where i have so many other friends so truly joyous to have me as a friend in life, including internet friends who want so much more of me in real life, but i am not going to entertain anyone who is negative as a lover, in more ways than one.
this is my choice of closure, without input from anyone, where i don’t want to feel any stigmatization of any kind, like pos lovers enjoy, happily.
perhaps i am rift with inner rage of the deep seated impactfulness recent news, and not entirely, as depression does come with seroconversion.
victim mentality……….fuck you Marco, and thanks for the dinner date you stood me up on, showing up with someone else………you cowardice Biyatch!
and just like you to tease me with a loving family Marco, you fucking jerk, as if i could ever ask a female to be my lover and mother of my kids, where that is the only way i wanted to have kids, is with a loving lover mom and dad……….talk about rubbing salt into an open wound………….fuck you fuck you and fuck you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and as for standing me up on a dinner date like you did, how much of an impact to you suppose that was on my self-esteem? uhm?
on and on, the empty nothingness come ons of no intention on your part to follow thru…….
i should of stopped trusting you then, and in truth, i mostly did, only to listen to more and more of you empty nothing mind fuck come ons, and now the shoving of me head into the greatest loss of my entire life, of a loving lover and family i still want some day.
just how significant was that dinner date you stood me up on?
the worse possible thing one could ever do to me.
and perhaps that is part of why i am making this choice where you are concerned, to not entertain negative others as potential lovers.
that’s it, i am done, closure has come
such a happy ending for the dreamy boy you trashed, is it not?
i have zero trust in me where you are concerned Marco
none
it is officially over for me, as i don’t want to trust you, in not wanting to continue this any more, of on and on and on to the nowhere low self-esteem behavioral of a kid who ended up trusting others i should not of………so ya, thank you Marco
it is all of God’s teaching
go jerk off somewhere else with someone else, ok?
and another thing, how does one say goodbye and God bless in the same sentence you fucking piece of shit?
Jesus and God are eternal spirits
my mistake in thinking maybe you know them
ya, you know them, in making fun of them, just as you are enjoying making fun of me now.
my God, no one has been this wretched to me in life, the same shit for brains jerk who stood me up, ya, you really really are a jerk
and you call that being supportive when a person needs it?
truly, you are a horrid wretched fuckup mindfucker Marco, truly
i am done with your mindfucking now, you fucking jerk
seems my inability to want to trust you is now officially gone Marco
congrats
ya, i don’t need abondoning mindfucking goodbyers for friends Marco
and now i can look forward to not ever concerning myself in visiting this blog ever again, the same way you had no intention of ever visiting me in life
it’s over
and i have decided this, knowing i will be happier with a pos lover, who won’t stand my up on a dinner date
truly, only fuckheads cyber-bullies like you Marco, do things like that to people who deserve better than you
i should of ran then, and now i am running to higher ground, where i belong, and forget the empty hollow nothingness you are……….not a real life friend.
but hey, this appeases you, what you are avoiding to say, the stimatization of HIV positive people, does it not?
you are clear and free to put it all behind now
you are welcome, somewhere else, as i won’t sit at your fine dining dinner table while others starve to death, in your not serving God, but the opposite of God bolstering of stimatization inequality like so many of you egotistic gross materialist enjoy doing, sadly, of lower self-esteem than most of the poor
who is truly poor Marco?
that’s right, you are
far more poor spiritually than you may know
it is one thing to think and feel divine self-love awareness truth of God’s heart mind body spirit and soul of eternal all………it is another thing to constantly BE in every step, every breath, every heartbeat, 100% the divine child of God, something most of you rich pricks OBVIOUSLY do not purely yet realize in who you serve, and who you do not.
you cannot possibly serve both, you wretched spiritual death egotistic fucktards are blind to your own wretched ego
well, God says you are all spiritual death that IS cause for physical death of defenseless divine children
you cannot escape this truth
no one can
ever
the truth a wise awake financially poor but spiritually rich divine child easily feels thru of every single one of you heartless fucks
nope, no way, i won’t ever dine at your table
God and Jesus tell me not to, so don’t bother wondering what my answer is, so long as you serve against God, i will not dine at your tables fuckers
nor should any divine child who gets caught up in your deathful falsehood biyatches
this is my decision of closure, of God’s instruction
as i do despise the wretched blindness you people are heartlessly of
how do you people sleep at night while a defenseless child goes without, as you party party it up, spending such horrid amounts of money, actually glorifying what is against God like you do, where truly, those who where gold chains like some of you do, is the heighth of hedonic whoreshipping
did i spell that correct? lol
fuck you Marco
i hand you over to God now
God is much closer than you fully purely realize or care to know
i did what Jesus asked of ‘me’, to reach beyond what Jesus could not reach, incognito within the great walled cities of the brutal Roman enslavement of heart mind body spirit and soul prison camp that most of you do not realize is yet of today.
i purely am all that is the wise divine child Jesus Christ, as one who reached even further in God’s understanding than did Jesus, of what Jesus asked ‘me’ to.
so ya, fuck your hypocrisy heart Marco, as i won’t allow you to cajole and entice me into useless waste of my time ever again
it is you who cast yourself away from Jesus, God and ‘me’, here in the kingdom of heaven, in all you bitter useless falsehood absurdly ignorance foul tasting gnashing of teeth immature brat of a child you obviously are Marco
about as much fun as a wet par of socks
thanks, but no thanks
seen enough of unwise hypocrisy heart those in life, just like you, of so so many unwise others i learned about since i was born, all this time a student of God growing rich in divine self awareness wisdom.
make fun of me some more Marco, pointing your finger at me in getting upset from your intentional cajoling.
truthfully, i am upset about you not being who i esteemed you to be
but hey, it’s all just useless bitter foul tasting gnashing of teeth in the end, of your saying goodbye, an immature way of dealing with your HIV stigmatization i came here today with the intent of openly telling you my decision before getting here, shocked to see how immature you are.
mocking me
then cajoling me with greivous humilation of my own stupidness about a loving family you know i wanted
how evil is that Marco?
100% in God’s eyes
you may want to watch your next step before God, that could be off a cliff into the forgotten oblivion abyss of all evil God casts evil into
and do not think for one second i don’t know what i am talking about
perhaps my wisdom already know how your life ends Marco, that i have not entirely shared with you
ever think of that?
Jesus did
and so do i already know what has already come
that so so many of you are obliviously blind to
anyway, your foul stench is aweful, and so i will gladly leave it behind where it belongs, forgotten in the past, where all forgotten evil truly does belong………forgotten
so unless you have a loving proposition of making the grade as a friend of God(a wise place to start), then what else is there to say?
i am not enjoying your humilation
fuck, don’t you realize i already went before God for this humilation?
and what do you do?
you mock it up
you cajole it up
you laugh at me
just what i so needed
not
thanks Marco
fuck off
time to rachet up God’s awareness of the eternal TRUTH none can escape from, nor should any wise divine child who knows fully that the truth is sacred to the future ONE generation we all are eternally of, as relates to affect/effect/direct/indirect
ready to hear the humilating TRUTH before God and the world Marco?
so what did happen dynamically with in my low self-esteem behavioral where you are concerned Marco?
well, i came away from a happy loving relationship i was in, a result ‘partly’ of the blinding burnout low self-esteem i was under during my stupid 120 hour work weeks for five years, at the end of which i started chatting with you.
where you toyed with my heart mind body spirit and soul
where you enticed me away from a fixable state of being i underwent in therapy, in my attempt to regroup from career loss, that is more impactful than most realize while they go thru it, and yes, it was truly impactful to get gay bashed by an old school manager who i caught covertly talking with my colleagues in setting up my upcoming termination……..they are all lucky to be alive……..i wanted to kill them after, knowing their intentional gay bashing i overheard them planning……truly i tell you, they are lucky i am of God, or they would be dead.
you mocked my homosexuality at times, and again, you do it again in front of the entire world, of yet more damning harm than good, laughing at my falling down in life low-self esteem behavioral directly linked to you, and your enticing that lead me on to believe you wanted to be with me………i accept the truth now, i was nothing more than an amusement, and yet the boy inside at one point did believe in your enticing me away.
i found myself alone in a halfway house, contending with my bashed in low self-esteem that came with my gay bashing termination of career…….i really should of sued them with a 100 million dollar class action law suit, but i chose to hand them over to God, and set my spirit free of their wretchedness that was and yet is of them, where God knows the truth of their wretchness, as do i
so there i was, alone, feeling exceedingly vulnerable, self-medicating at times, dangerous high risk behavior sitting at the bar at the spa, of the returning old behavioural i thought i had come clear of over 15 years of my ongoing recovery in alcohol addiction, knowing at the time i was relapsing, but what i was not paying attention to closely that i should of been, was my unsafe sex practice, where i am leaning toward accepting i got infected at the spa, a result of the high risk behavoral i found myself dealing with over the past two years or more.
and where did you run to Marco?
oh, just entice me some more, of the no show vacant hollow feelings i found myself dealing with day after day, week in, month out, with the sweet trusting anticipation of a boy who did trust you, to his own detriment of this ongoing cyber-bully fake enticing i was foolish enough to allow myself to entertain for as long as i did.
ya, you are partly to blame Marco
so many times i ventured away from sitting alone, feeling beatup from so much ‘real’ psychological stuff of gay bashing termination career loss, that my ex an i both psychologically felt the fall out of, the financial spiral down and down from where we were, more seemingly inescapable feelings of failure i don’t really see as failure, as much as professionals say it feels that way, i don’t, in seeing it as one who participates in this ego driven world of the lost.
you show up at dinner with someone else
fine
that was hard for me
crushing for the dreamy boy of sweet anticipation he was of you for along time
not any more
this is closure time for me, in my choice of moving on in life with pos lovers, so that everyone avoids feeling HIV stimatization, that may sound contradicting, but unless you have dealth with HIV stimatization directly, then you don’t really know what that is about.
i am doing this for me
i don’t want to ever feel it, knowing i won’t with a pos lover
sorry to burst your false bubble Marco, but the more i sit back and listen to you, you really do seem to sound like someone suffering with Schizophrenia, that did have a lasting affect/effect on me feeling as though i am of Schizophrenia, many many times like i did.
so ya, i am exiting now, from all this dynamic shit that saw me spiral thru real psychological shit i thought i was emune too.
you were not there for me in life Marco
you did not come like i sweetly anticipated one day you would.
and now the entire world knows this story of high risk behavioral i transitioned thru, that now has left me HIV positive.
how dare you blame it entirely on me, you fucking jerk off coward, who cannot even apologize for your amusement with another soul.
truly, this is an example of the dynamics of cyber-bullying a persons mental emotional well being that left me unattended like YOU did
i do blame myself for discontinuing my therapy, dealing with so so many issues, including transexuality
and your remarks today are truly wretched and vile off handedness of an immature brat who avoids the truth of what did happen
so go back to your bullshit world without me Marco, as it is officially over for me, as regards my desire now for a pos lover
and as for a friend, well, you don’t 100% serve God in your approach to the world, just as you did not serve God in mocking my spiritual belief system like you did, ironically right at the first days of my seroconversion symptoms, where i found myself praying to God just weeks pryer for a resolution of you and i
and it came
this is all of God, that i am not to be with you, and i know this now, purely in my heart, especially after you wretched vile remarks of goodbye today
i am not coming back here Marco for more of your amusement with me
it has purely ended in my heart now
the world awaits me and my pos lover
so blessings of peace, grace, love and happiness to you and those you love forever more
as i said, i won’t be found dining at your table in this life, so long as you do not 100% serve the goodness of God’s divine children you turn your backs toward
rest assured, you can be without doubt that i will ever dine at your table
you are nothing to me now, all the while of your thinking i need you
i don’t
and clearly, i did not
my mistake to play along with a faker, who saw me as nothing more than an amusement and a way to pass the time
i am free now Marco
forever more
thank you God
thank you Jesus
for helping me clearly see the TRUTH
and besides, you really are a homophobic jerk Marco
obviously, your standoffishness all this time, 100% indicative of that, is it not?
ya, as harsh as life has been, and now saddled with HIV, i am going to be more than ok, as HIV is what has set me free of your emotional tyranny Marco
forever more
and no, i am not Schizophrenic, according to my professionals, as much as your hypocrisy heart wants to think i am, although i will say, being around you did live me feeling toxic uncertainty day after day for such a long time, of the hopeful sweet boy you played all this time.
well, i pray whoever you end up with is as sweet hearted as i am, or as i once was, and still am, just not willing to ever trust anything you have say any more Marco
there, you are free now
and so am i of you
don’t bother looking for me here any more Marco
i will not be returning to blogging with you any more, in giving my time to others who i know do need my presence.
honestly, i would not of done what you did for so long with me, in leaving me to sit alone for so long
that was harsh for me
but the dinner date thing? Well, normally i permanently walk when someone does that………and perhaps i subconsciously did, in finding myself alone with my high risk behavioral in attempting to trust anyone else besides you like i foolishly haphazardly did
ya, i take 100% ownership of my high risk behavioral, and now so can you
it crashed into a serious life issue, and for you to make light of just how serious it is, well, that is just cold in your saying goodbye today.
anyway, i already decided to end it before i got here today, in my choice to run with a pos lover
and if one day a cure comes, i will entertain a female versatile lover like myself one day in bringing forth a family, who i do have in the wings as we speak, but i cannot ask here to deal with HIV stigmatization that can and does alter the sexual experience, because of the pervasive fear……..i know this from experience……although i am wondering if i am being fair in not giving time to listen to their feelings and choice……….door is not completely closed on this, and perhaps it is not possible to close the door, when it comes to how a person TRULY feels for another……i will wait and listen to what they have to say, but i have seen this so so many times in life with those who are HIV positive, time and again, when others learn of your status, up goes the fearfulness levels of the fallout standoffishness that all too often grips them, something i have deliberately sat back and watch unfold so many times for many of my loving friends along lover’s road
anyway, enough rambling, time to go
Schizophrenia (pronounced /ˌskɪtsɵˈfrɛniə/ or /ˌskɪtsɵˈfriːniə/) is a mental disorder characterized by abnormalities in the perception or expression of reality. It most commonly manifests as auditory hallucinations, paranoid or bizarre delusions, or disorganized speech and thinking with significant social or occupational dysfunction. Onset of symptoms typically occurs in young adulthood,[1] with around 0.4–0.6%[2][3] of the population affected. Diagnosis is based on the patient’s self-reported experiences and observed behavior. No laboratory test for schizophrenia currently exists.[4]
Studies suggest that genetics, early environment, neurobiology, psychological and social processes are important contributory factors; some recreational and prescription drugs appear to cause or worsen symptoms. Current psychiatric research is focused on the role of neurobiology, but no single organic cause has been found. As a result of the many possible combinations of symptoms, there is debate about whether the diagnosis represents a single disorder or a number of discrete syndromes. Despite the etymology of the term from the Greek roots skhizein (σχίζειν, “to split”) and phrēn, phren- (φρήν, φρεν-; “mind”), schizophrenia does not imply a “split mind” and it is not the same as dissociative identity disorder (previously known as multiple personality disorder or split personality), a condition with which it is often confused in public perception.[5]
Increased dopamine activity in the mesolimbic pathway of the brain is consistently found in schizophrenic individuals. The mainstay of treatment is antipsychotic medication; this type of drug primarily works by suppressing dopamine activity. Dosages of antipsychotics are generally lower than in the early decades of their use. Psychotherapy, and vocational and social rehabilitation are also important. In more serious cases—where there is risk to self and others—involuntary hospitalization may be necessary, although hospital stays are less frequent and for shorter periods than they were in previous times.[6]
The disorder is thought to mainly affect cognition, but it also usually contributes to chronic problems with behavior and emotion. People with schizophrenia are likely to have additional (comorbid) conditions, including major depression and anxiety disorders;[7] the lifetime occurrence of substance abuse is around 40%. Social problems, such as long-term unemployment, poverty and homelessness, are common. Furthermore, the average life expectancy of people with the disorder is 10 to 12 years less than those without, due to increased physical health problems and a higher suicide rate ( about 5% ).[
i can purely hear the music again…….
blessings to all
oh, one more thing Marco, talking in circles, of mixed messages?
it is indicative of unaddressed mental emotional issues you may want to take time out in resolving closure as i have with you
who wants fake internet friends when you can have real?
i do
ahhhh……what a relief, i don’t ever have to wonder about you any more!
yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
fucking jerk offs, ya, that is what you can expect from this world
i constantly am(was) there on the cross Jesus Christ brutally hangs apon
BE descerningly careful in what you ‘choose’ to say, as lacking of truthful wise divine self-love descerning is what leads to ruin of the constant pure flawless loving divine self
i say this at this point for sake of the future self of you, as i am no longer going to concern myself where you are concerned any more Marco, setting us both free to just be your true self.
besides, you take delight in openly mocking me of the pure true teachings God has revealed to me, mocking of God when you did/do
what you failed to unknowingly unwisely realize(d), is God’s presence in my life
i will share this with you though, the part of my wreckless self-harm also wants to die, just as Jesus did, because of the impure generational infected mindset of so so many along my journey home to God, all the while knowing God was constantly with me, something i felt as a child, a pure knowingness presence.
i don’t speak of God’s presence much, but i do feel it all the time
God has been teaching me daily about my divine self awakening into full wise awake descerning awareness that easily peers thru all generational falsehood snaring of heart mind body spirit and soul
i am true to my relationship with God that no one can ever come between
i have to say, i was shocked by your mockery of God in my life
in that moment, you brought a descerning end to my desire in extending my trust to you ever again, where i prayed for resolution, then my seroconversion hit
now my descerning is in staying true to me in a choice of a pos lover, and if you have anything stupid to say, well, be careful with that in mocking only yourself in front of the world, ok?
i don’t care what you may have to say, expecting more of the same mocking waste of my time.
but for sake of your own true divine spirited self, let it go, as i am not going to ever be your lover, and i am not going to ever dine at your table so long as you do not 100% surrender to serving the defenseless divine children of God
half heartedness begets half heartedness begets half heartedness
the way the world is, is it not?
ok, enjoy you blessed day
i am sorry it ended this way, mostly for the potential mother of my kids that may or may not be born, and certainly not anytime soon while i am in this depressing funk that comes with seroconversion.
so if you have any derogatory shit to say, well blow it out your ass, ok?
rant
ah fuck it, i really need to go do real life now
enough already, fuck this
her name is Stephanie, a versatile lover like me, and she lost 4 bothers to HIV, that left her feeling so crushed inside, so i said to her, hey, why don’t we have ten kids? You know, that is the path God wants you to fearlessly embrace Stephanie, of overflowing abundant happiness every blessed day God purely constantly knows and wants you want to wake to at all times, just as you constantly know and want.
we both wanted to move forward in this
all the while, i was fucking up with my high risk behavioral that had a grip on me
and i am sad for her happiness that i cannot ask or expect this any more, and equally concerning is that she will end up with someone worse than me.
well, we will always be friends, as one who purely does acknowledge my spiritual higher self understanding, although i fail to see what there is not to understand, in anyone who openly mocks the divien self-love awareness kingdom of heaven wisdom halo teachings of Jesus and God
so laugh all you want Marco
you betray(ed) only YOU
and if you choose to openly mock God some more Marco, well, remain as the fool you choose to remain as, where unknowingly, unwisely your untruth serves as truth that the wise divine child of God’s heart mind body spirit and soul of eternal all purely constantly intuitively knowingly flawlessly feels, even if of subconscious asleep, where all awaken eventually, sadly and all too often, during their last moments and/or days of life as many do.
anyway, part of me wants to let Stephanie decide, where if anyone is of the least amount of HIV stigmatization, it is Stephanie, and so i am contemplating letting this issue roll in whatever emotional direction it may role for two versatile lovers we both are, and ya, i purely am bisexual as i said, my male self who loves the female body, my female self who loves the male body, as one who is both female and male physically mentally emotionally spiritually
so ya, enjoy your homophobia Marco with someone who will actually care to tolerate it
to be sure, i think i have had enough, have i not?
you are fucking right i have………Biyatch!
boring as fuck for me all this time
argh………….TAXI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
if Madonna calls, tell her im not here!!
if Madonna calls, disconnect her!! lol
let me ask you this Marco…….
how would you feel if you were me waiting all this time on you?
what would you do with a jerkoff like that towards you? uhm?
answer truthfully
that is my answer
ok?
ok
bless you
you are still boring as fuck
and i don’t expect that is going to change much from two years ago, just as it has not changed from the FUCKING STUCKNESS OF THIS BORING FUCKING BLOGGING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
final rant
bye
all you do is tease Marco
you bore me now, ok?
all talk
like boring bullshit fucking soap operas i fucking dread watching
AND NO I DON”T WATCH SOAP OPERAS
you won’t ever get me to admit that i do
fuck, i just did
fuck you Marco
show show show
all a fucking lie
fuck, i went into the drugstore for a specific hair shampoo that is usually expensive, like $7.99, and it was on sale for 2.99
and the mud i usually like to use for my hair that i also needed, was also on sale
fuck, this shit wierds me out………..every fucking day!
it is like my entire life is a preordained calculated path
and it freaks me out constantly in feeling maybe i am a nutcase……
do you think i am a nutcase Marco
just so you know, my professional team does not
they say i am purely normal, knowing my brother is, and i question that at times, but then again, my brothers are most like my dad, and i am most like my mom, as far as bone structure, looks, and perhaps my brain too?
English, a cousin to the queen……..Biyatches!
i want to be king
i want to be queen
i want to be king and queen
uhm……………..i already really am, and none of you fuckers can ever change ‘that’ about me, no matter what bullshit you pull of your ass
well ok, thanks for picking a fight with me Marco……clearly i needed to vent all that……….lest i keep taking it out in my self-harm behavioral………smart ass
i still say you are a psychologist, so when are you going to give up this role playin? uhm?
i am alot wiser in psychology than i tell you
and yes, i see right thru you Biyatch
but that does not change the fuck you are boring as fuck to me, ok?
so fuck off Marco, and get fucking real or fuck off
or say hello to my many lovers waiting in the wings who leave your ass behind in a heartbeat
NURSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
can you please remove this fucking clown from my presence?
thank you
The Alien Can really sing too,
his name’s Frank, mate of mine 🙂
I keep telling him FRANK stop sitting there like some silly girl everyone will think your gay 🙂
oh Come on FRANK time to get up and Dance & Sing
you can wear the clown outfit & no will know your an Alien 🙂
Well sorry for standing you up on the dinner date, but least you no longer have a fear of rejection…. anymore..
fears have a terrible way of getting in the way
if you know what i mean..
and i know you can see right through me… Dahhh
its meant to be that way …
& who on earth doesn’t have unresolved emotional issues, that’s just human nature…
well maybe with the exception of Frank but he’s not from earth & he’s not human …
actually im not really sure Frank is a He i think Franks a she..
anyway either way .. at least Frank.. ( Franka ) doesn’t sulk like a spoil t brat…
get over yourself seriously …
its just a little honesty & FRANKness..
anyway.. i gotta go Frank waiting in the Taxi were going to the Zoo today
Ok lets do dinner,
don’t worry i’m not bringing Frank, just you & me no one else
hey do you know what, i actually don’t get upset or hurt when you vent your shit at me not in the slightest, I actually laugh that’s the honest truth, which is a good thing really … because if i did it would be quite destructive .. so yer things are going well so far
my brain chemistry has altered……..severely
i watch so many go thru it over so many years, had no idea what they were going thru…….now i know
poor guy behind the counter did not see me coming tonight, as i started yelling at him in front of the entire resturant and all it’s staff, “This is fucking downtown Biyatch, and if you had ten customers in line, by now nine of them would of left(i was next in line, ha). I am doing you a favor, ok, constructive criticism, where your downtown clientele have a certain amount of patience in drawing the line in your slow ass shit, and if you are still in business this time next year, with your wingnut chat chat chat staffer there making sandwiches, i will be shocked!!!!!!! You will not survive in this part of town Biyatches, in deliberately(jokingly too) taking your sweet fucking time to serve a paying customer!!!! Do you know how much a daily paying customer is per year? You lost my business Biyatches! This is fucking bullshit!
fuck……..maybe i better get my ass into the therapists, and maybe some meds…….i’ve lost it, and i keep losing it…
and stop spying on me Marco!
there, i just signed my certified nutcase papers for you
in this mental emotional state, clearly i am not fit to be a father, so let’s take that out of question for awhile, where i don’t know if i can get back to stable again or not at this point in time, and i do need all the professional help i can possible get right now. I had no idea this is what they go thru, it is absolute sheer horror, deep deep depression, irrational thinking so pervading, my God, am i going to get thru this fucking hell?
i just feel let down Marco, completely, irrationally thinking and feeling as though betrayed by a faker, and the pervading downer won’t let up.
i sleep between 14, sometimes 18 hours a day, and still i feel weak, and so depressed at times, i need to avoid emotional dealing with life choices right now, so if you don’t mind, i think i will take a long break, as the same uncertainty with you is yet the same, like a dog chasing it’s tale, i just don’t find this at all fun, as much as you do.
and ya, i keep feeling you let me down in life
i kept telling you in needed someone to hold, over and over too, and still nothing
and now everything you say makes me even more angry with you, like you don’t really give a fuck at all for me, where if anything, you seem relieved it is officially off.
in my mind right now, it is officiall off
and i need to get the fuck away from all uncertainty right now
some on the net are purely wonderful for me, although i am sensing their hesitation with me, the stigmatization thing………if anyone knows what that looks like, i do
honestly, i don’t want to entertain anyone else but a pos lover, where no matter who you are, the difference is huge between neg/pos partners and pos/pos partners, something i have studied along time, i know it fully, of my own stigmatization i too knowingly was of, to what extent, well, not as bad as some i have witnessed.
it just makes perfect sense that pos lovers work better than mixed
and i do feel optimistically excited about this, in embracing my future happiness
and i realize that is without concern of the feelings of others……….i just don’t want to do it, and this is an early time to exit, where respectfully, feelings of others are not of intimacy lovers, as i am not Stephanie’s lover at this time, nor yours……i am with my ex though, comfortably so
i do feel he is my soulmate God send
it is a pure feeling of enduring all engulfing love that feels great for both of us
and i need that right now
ya, i have to go, i really do
although i prob was at times a little at fault by being a little bit of a bully but that’s because i was a little insecure in the past, emphasis on the word past, one has to love them self enough to change…
(No Frank were not going to the Strip Club, were going to the Zoo.. )
Frank wait up come back …
please Frank …..
COME
BACK
PLEASE 🙂
ya right, destructive……..so how many things have you broken in the house so far Marco? uhm?
oh, don’t tease me with dinner
either show up, or don’t
but don’t drag me thru this any more
i am not interesting in getting my hopes up with you any more
it’s all completely stale for me, if you must know
i dread it
it is exceedingly childish immaturity in feeling for me, where i have hit a serious fork in the road
please, don’t do that any more
lol
the strip club thing, now that was funny
how did you know i like strip clubs, mostly for the pervading innocence that yet shines thru in their smile, and i thing a certain amount of voyer is healthy for one’s self-esteem, but in downtown strip joints, the pimps/drug dealer/sugar daddy fuck pig trolls, do take their toll on assisting so many youth in becoming chronic addicts of both drugs and sex, a false existence for them, sadly, and some do die
well fair enough, i’m neg & i intend to stay that way, because i could never stomach the medication I’d need to take to stay alive, I get sick from taking an aspirin, & your right its a barrier also you seem to be more connected to you former lover, you go as far to say soul mate, well so yer.. that’s it then, no need to go on about it anymore is there.. time to move…
thanks for all your help if it wasn’t for you I wouldn’t be the perfect person i am today…
sorry for spying on you, I know you know I already know..
thats what made it so much fun..
NEXT FEAR..
next …
oh sorry
you have to go
NEXT
i know, let’s go get drunk together, and you can punch kick and punch the fuck out of me, but no biting(seriously, biting can actually kill you from infection).
and then you can fuck your brains out with me like you always wanted to
condoms suck, but you are worth it
and oral is safe, provided there is no bleeding of the gums
and bring the sex toys
hurry, i am growing weary and impatient with your sorry slow moving ass Biyatch!
cough……Marco, im not………..im not angry anymore
well ok, i still am
fuck you
well ok
i think this is the best answer where all are concerned, but if of pure emotions you may have, well, if they come up for you, then maybe you should let me know
this is not an overnight decision thing, and i need to get my mental emotional well being back before this goes anywhere, as i am at even higher risk now than before to self-medicate cope
im scared, why i am staying with my strict ass ex who survived me thru my alcohol recovery for 15 years
he is better than any therapist where my issues are concerned
i know this, even before seroconversion hit, seeing the amount of times i was relasping
i will say this, bootyist(buddist) are really really strick in life
thank God
lol
Fuck the Zoo, I just rather fuck YOU….
the purity of surrendered love one feels for another is real, and i feel that for you like i did in my youth
why i have taken soooooooooooooooo long with you
as you know
wow, took me long enough to approach you
honestly, i did not think you would be interested in me
im not much to look at any more, as far as my body
but in the dark, well, that is a WHOLE different story, as i do have a really really nice ten inch cock……as you already know from spying on me
i always knew you were too Biyatch
i set you up a few times……..hmmmm……quite a few times actually
i have had visions of my son
and i am not sure what that is about, as the visions are so vivid of the pure love i came to know for my son
must feel overwhelmingly beautiful to give birth to your own child, something that has terrified me my entire life, that i only felt unafraid about when i was in love with a female lover, in the joyful fun loving lover embrace we obviously both were of like we were, and i am not talking one night stands here, no, i have always been an exclusive lover predominantly of my lover life, you know, met someone exlusively, no one else, just one, the break up, someone new, a new lover life begins……….fuck, been thru alot, in looking back now over 30 years……..wow
i was a father twice actually, with two single moms
and i loved that life, devasted over the break ups of what was our fun loving family time i enjoyed.
but as for a child of my own, that must be so incredible to feel
it makes me cry thinking about it, why i do believe one day i will see my own son(s) or daughter(s)
ten would be nice
twenty would be fucking awesome, all one year apart, you ever watch that tv show with 17 kids?
so much joy every blessed day
what i want Stephanie to fearless step towards, but with me, well, i cannot ask that of her
what will be will be
of real self
what you already know
i’ll just get off at the next round about ,Taxi Driver … thank’s
I better stay with Frank he need’s me, he’ll get into trouble otherwise…
especially in Hollywood, come on Franky lets go to the Zoo..
AnDy’s busy with the ex.. & Hollywood is not in Canada anyway..
dumb ass Alien
I REALLY FEEL SORRY FOR THE ZOO…
seriously i do
…Totally Crazy ….
ok, a new rule
no more bullshit
ok?
which means if you say something, you purely mean it within, and you only say it after it does come up for you, ok?
no acting allowed
and if it is not there in feeling, then don’t do the whole fucking bullshit tap dance around in front of the other lameass patronizing shit any more, ok?
it’s just boring as fuck to do that
when all either of us want to do more than anything is FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
for how fucking long now? uhm?
arghhhhhhhh…………..
i am not a violent person, just so you know
really, im not
i think evil thoughts sometimes, like i did of those who i overheard planning their set up planning story they all agreed apon as the same fabricated lying ass story to tell head office……can you fucking believe that shit?
oh, i don’t wonder any more why people are murdered, really i don’t, i know why
fuckers
fucking turfed me because i won over the morale of the staff, who all secretly loathed them, but it showed, no matter who well the staff pretended
ya, my boss was jealous of me
i told(yelled) at her the last day, “You know what your problem is, you are insexcure about yourself, why it is you bully the staff like you do, why they all secretly loath the sight of you.”
it was the constructive truth no one had taken the time to tell her why her staff morale was in the basement with low productivity, low public relations, high turn over, and low bottom line
fuck, an eight year old can learn that one, but do you think this old school manager pit bull would let up?
nope
which is fine, they usually kill themselves eventually, mostly from stress related illness they continue to harbor like they do
yuk
fuck that, in my mind, i knowingly left two months before
i was pissed momentarily, and ya, i did feel like killing them, but i did not get to a planning stage………what?
well, at least i am honest
ha, for sure my certified nutcase papers i signed with that, are they not?
look, i really don’t want to subject anyone to HIV stigmatization, where friends is fine
it is too much for some people to handle
although sex with me i would say is totally worth it……..
just go with whatever comes up for you
but no tap dance fucking patronizing feel sorry for me fucking shit ok, i will easily know the difference
really, mentally, i think my answer is best for all concerned
but that does not change my emotional answer, or yours, if one exists………Biyatch!
lol
yes of course, would be pointless to waste each others time
im not really confident in parenting a surrogate child, unless the real mother is involved in the child’s life, as an infant recognizes a mothers voice while in the womb, that i believe can and does have an emotional innate impact on a child if the voice stops for the child, at a subconscious awareness level of a void that comes with that when seperated from the mother.
honestly, i could not do that to a mother either, why i would want them involved
and that just gets all potentially wacked for a surogate mother i suppose
i don’t know much about surrogate mothering
but i do think that is what is correct where both the child and mother’s mental emotional is concerned
ya, it really is a fucking zoo, with mentalities that are not worse than animals, as far as true nature is and is not
you should try living alongside them like i do in their fucking cages
did i just say that?
like the drug dealer who came up to me today trying to chat me up
i said, “stay the fuck out of my ghetto!”
he’s like, “huh? who are you?”
i go, “no, who are you mr. drug dealer? I have a photographic memory.”
total silence…………….
the thing with bullies, is they back down when the sense your fire power is greater than there’s. where mine is the RCMP firepower, and i am not afraid of these fucks at all, as i loath them for stealing the precisous life of many, what they really are, stealer of souls, satanic actually
im not in love with my ex sexually, and i am still fuckup over that, although i wonder if i could be
he just didn’t turn me on much……….ever
i mean ya, enough to have sex with
but not the intense vibrational climax climax climax all night long i have experienced with those who did turn me completely on
they have therapy for that, yes?
oh fuck it, you are either turned on by someone, or you are not
and that is not superficial
really, it’s not superficial
and yet he feels like a God send
fuck, speaking of wasting each other’s time
i always felt like i was wasting both our times……..for years actually
but i need him right now for awhile, as i know when i am in danger, and i am in danger right now
my brain chemistry is terrifyingly so fucked up right now, so severe the emotional episodes i cycle thru, not as bad as the first week, fuck, that was so mind blowing, especially not know depression is a symptom of seroconversion that i did not know(or want to accept is more like it) i actually was in
you know how it is you don’t want to know what the bad news is………..that’s what it’s like, a temporary denial of sorts
ya, if anyone knows seroconversion, i do, thru others, and now first hand
i am in seroconversion
and that does alter the sexual attraction of another, drastically for some
so don’t worry if you want to bypass this in letting me go to where i know i will be ok and happy, with a pos lover
i won’t take i personally
so take time out to feel thru this
and honestly, i don’t know if i will regain my mental emotional stability, and that is not healthy to be around unless you are a professional
or a crazy ass hot Biyatchin lover who just has to get fucked at least three times a day
oppsssssss
did i just say that?
im going to go get drunk, and cry this shit out
just a few
or maybe i should sit here and chat with you?
or maybe i should stay the fuck out of the bar till i am out of mental/emotional danger?
see, i am thinking and feeling rational
just don’t look at me the wrong way, ok?
lol
can i call you Joey instead of Marco when we are fucking?
just asking………… hahaha
hey, go break something you feel is grossly materialistic, are as many things as you want
just don’t hurt yourself or anyone else when you do
a good release of the true spirit
as long as it’s not on the Mexican tile though……..although it would add more rustic character to it i suppose
something you really loath the sight of, that feels evil to you
and no wrecking balls either, ok?
just sell that shit, fuck!
oh no, what i have started
what have you started?
i love who you are
always did
if anything i want to go the next higher self level
at this point in time, i am somewhat stressed………horrible stressed actually
i think maybe i’ll bypass the bar and just go home to bed
grant me the strength to do so God
i was so motivated by you for so long
and that feels all fucked now
and i don’t know how to deal with that
other than to let go and move on
but is that fair to you?
hey, why not be friends, and if someday i get too close to you, and you grab my cock, then just fuck me!
and you can keep seeing who ever, untll long enough you realize who really is the best for you sexually…….which i already know……..Joey!
lol
i am so twisted…….like you, am i not?
im working on my drag show song lineup………and that is one of the songs………
i want to do something fierce and purely sexy blue jean baby t-shirt baby ‘real’
im scared
so please don’t toy unnecessarily with my emotions for awhile
seroconversion can last months
i have some brain chemical pills i am takin, and they seem to offset the hell i was going thru
i could not belief how sad i got, all from my fucked brain chemical balance, especially the first week.
i got scared and ran to my ex, and did not go back, too afraid of what i was experiencing
it has balanced off alot now, but still moments of deep seated stuff coming up, the ruminating, my yearning to lash out……at anyone it seems…….
and there under it all, a boy who still loves you like he always wants to, and will, more than he wants to allow himself to now, knowing what stigmatization is, a natural thing between pos and neg persons, that i think anyone can get bent out of shape over others feeling that way, and not something you can force on anyone to feel one way they are not able to feel, it’s unrealistic, so i hope you purely realize my level of intellectual thinking
there is the mental emotional fallout too, which i don’t know much about as to what the truth is from a broad perspective study of mental emotional well being in pos people…….but soon will in more research.
but what i do know, is two pos lovers does work well
and no, i am not speaking about my ex
i left him for over a year being apart, remember?
but i need support right now, as it is bad, far worse than anyone can predict or imagine, where i don’t even think the pros know just how extensive the brain chemical shift is with seroconversion, it is a massive shift
i really did get scared, the whole body trembling thing that came out of nowhere, anxiety attack central, yep, that was me
not something i have seen before
i mean ya, i get pissy some days, normal
you would too if you had to wait on homophobic Joey for as long as i have…………Biyatch! lol
well i always got Frankie if all else fails..
imagine what it would be like to fuck an Alien those legs just bend like rubber…
ok, let me be fair then, the future of you and me is not my decision to make
it is yours
but do know, i am not doing this tap dance around the fucking blogk for another fucking year………no fuckin way! That is unrealistic…………isn’t it?
is it?
how long does one need?
oh, it’s not about measuring how long, or how fast, but if love is true or not
well, find the truth
or have you already
then why not tell everyone the truth, starting with yourself?
uhm?
the ball is in your court, and i am takin a break for however long you need to practice getting the ball over the net without going out of bounds, ok?
lol
uhm…….just how big is this sex toy room of yours anyway?
i am a bit twisted and wild in my sex, but i really think the male stapon dildo for males when of both anal and vaginal orgasmic achievement, is of the most huge and best climaxer of all, with the correct lube………as a female who knows from experience………of course
shhh.. im’ here already..;)
i’m reading … , go out and have a drink or two but not three
Im taking Frank out for dinner he’s upset because he forgot where he parked his spaceship, & now he’s stuck here..
i gotta go reading
omg i dont do toys sorry but that’s just fake..
its about feelings and energies not just sensation..
sensation plays only a minor role
oh, and remember, the anal tissues take up to a month to adjust, with every third or forth day of anal sex, allowing the tissues to adjust
then after 4-6 weeks, you can increase the frequency and duration as much as you want, all pleasurable once the tissues adjust
lovers who do not fully know this awareness, tend to fall away from anal sex, no matter your orientation, as the comfort level necessary for anal orgasm is not realistic, nor achieved before the 4-6 week regiment is worked thru
not sure if you knew that or not
can i come over now?
oh yeah……..the rubber doll thing, ya, i guess that is what i would be……..is that what you are implying?
well, what of my having to compromise for a rubber strapon, what about that?
hey, i think the best thing females can use is the vaginal condoms, that personal i feel are better than the male condoms, for sake of greater pleasure for the male, particularily of the ribbed or stipelled vaginal condoms, and experimentation with varies materials and lubes one can discover works well
hey, all is not lost, this could work just fine!!!!!!!!!!!!
and still the female can achieve orgasm, so everyone is happy, yes?
do they have anal vaginal condoms?
and you say, “Andyy, stop asking stupid questions!”
well, these are serious life issues, and people need to be REAL about it
i am being REAL, am i not?
this is a REAL LIFE STORY, is it not?
so tell me Joey, i mean Marco, how much more real do you want this story to get? uhm?
ok, i will see you alone, under a full moon, on the steps Jesus walked along, with whatever security you need, that’s fine, and they can strip search me if they have the urge too.
but don’t jerk my chain any more, ok?
just don’t do it, im not in a good frame of mind right now for back and forth endless yo-yo-ing that may be fun, but grows stale after awhile
anyway, i need to see my pro team to sort thru what i can expect, based on my latest tests, and i am in to see the specialists next week too……….so lot’s of time(months) to mull this over, and as i said, it is unrealistic for anyone to can force themselves to be without HIV stigmatization that is of the natural innate primal brain response to danger
in truth, the only way i learned to deal with it, is to live the experience of life in going thru it to the other side, which can take months and years, a process i don’t feel actually ever ends at that subconscious level
you know, i always wondered if one day my ex would deliberately infect me, although i don’t know if he did, just sayin, what if he did?
what of other lovers out there barebacking UNNECESSARILY with pos lovers like i did, the not cumming rule, putting them at high risk that an emotional lover could deliberately infect at their own whim to do so?
anyway, i still see such things as an extention of mental emotional depths of the early weeks of seroconversion fallout we don’t know much about, that i feel is what sees the out of control behavioural accidents later, of what seroconversion actually is resulting in, more and more people becoming infected, by others who know full well they are infected.
that did not make sense to me before, and now i am wondering just how drastic is the mental emotional break down is for some during seroconversion, of lingering irrational fallout thinking and feeling they do experience for long periods of time during seroconversion……….think extensive 24/7 fallout irrational thinking and feeling inability to think rational that may last months for some.
well, it is a plausible therory
why do infect others willing and knowingly infect others?
i don’t believe in accidents, i mean come on people, if someone cums in you, and they know they are positive, then they know they are infecting
question is, why are infected others knowingly doing it?
or rephrased, why are infected others unknowingly subconsciously irrationally doing it?
people are not talkin about it, and that is why we are seeing the continued spread of HIV, especially of females who all too often put the trust into their male lover’s hands
don’t do it females
we are talking about the ego driven male here
seriously, so many men are so egotistic towards females
ok?
ok
of, fuck Frank, he’s a boring old man, and you know it
Joey’s secret war is with taking ownership of his problematic downward spiral self-medicating coping need for his developing alcoholism
yer i still cannot fathom why people deliberately infect others maybe out of spite who knows what makes people do these things, anyway will talk more under the full moon..
& you can call me Yeshua when you come … just not Joey please he’s an alcoholic & i’m not… and the thought of a dildo up my backside makes me cringe with pain
ok ok …
OK…
in other words, just how smart is HIV in a host as regards brain chemical altering, and to what extent does the body become the alien(ated) virus?
and why does alie(nations) contribute lead to more infecting besides the host body?
remember the movie Aliens, with the alien growing inside the person’s body?
that’s what seroconversion feels like
you can feel the feeling of the alien virus attacking your body, and your body fighting back
it is a truly horrible feeling to feel your body being infected and taken over by a an alien virus
truly, i am creeped out
that’s fine, i don’t like anal sex anyway
just vaginal sex
unless i am of the anal sex, which i do like
uhm……..how do you pronounce Yeshua?
Yessshhewahhh?
Yes/whoooah?
the correct spelling is Yesua?
why don’t i just call you by Arabic name, Jesus?
Jesus said, it is not good that they be alone and i will make a help mate for them
opppsss, i left my ex at the bar, doing his drag show, and oh look, it is now almost closing time………thank God
i have to be careful, and i am grabbing hold of my pro team in telling them how extensive this fallout brain chemistry shift is, maybe up the strength of my brain pills, as i still feel i am flying sideways…….thanks, have a good night
bless you
seroconversion is a most horrible experience for anyone to go thru, that creeps up slowly and steadily without warning, where the swing of the brain chemical balance is so drastic, i know without doubt, some may have died, in just how drastic, and constant the shift is, especially for those of self-medicating coping, i mean how much more horrid and dangerously depressing is it combined with the depressant called alcohol, and to what extent does the self-medicating coping rise?
dangerously so, to high levels, no question there
where some most likely have died directly from seroconversion periods of self-medicating coping with alcohol and drug abuse, of seroconversions that last for months in some
its pronounced
“Yes You Are”
God Bless (ed)
and how many HIV positive people with drug and alcohol addiction, is the end result of seroconversion periods without the aid of brain chemical balance enhancing?
and let’s not forget just how dangerous to one’s health addictions are for HIV positive persons, in combinations of smoking, alcoholism and drug abuse
i lived in a pos building for 15 years, and saw so many of them die as a result of addictions and poor approach to the health of their bodies, in diet, exercise and rest, party party party, dead dead dead
moderation, ok, two drinks, then home to bed
thanks, the magic number is two a day, or every other day
actually i don’t drink anywhere near that, more like two a month
Yes You Are
Yes i know
lol
yes I know, you know
I partied for too long already & stoped doing tha party at least 12 months now, its very boring to me, infact life is really far more enjoyable now a days.. I have so much more I want to do, besides Alcohol = pot belly and Im very self Self-conscious of my body, two drinks twice a week is more than enough .. actually once a week is probably enough every sunday night, with a meal .. I really do have any desire to go out and drink with the crowd to much scattered energies which upset my inner balance, which I have recently rediscovered …..
Im glad it’s Sunday I can have a drink tonight haha.. I have to jog in the morning it’s the only thing that encourages me to quit smoking my only vice …
smoking sucks
i have a strong aversion to smoking right now, a symptom of my condition…..and ya, i have to quit, gladly
managed to bypass the bar scene last night and go home to a nice warm comfortable bed with the cat, wisely i managed to stay away from alcohol, knowing the mental emotional fallout i have completely learned to dread that comes with every single relaspe i have had since 93
staying true to my divine self seems more and more effortless over the many miles under my feet in safe distance appreciation now, where my true self does become afraid when ever my old personality gets the notions to go drink………knowing how the rational wise divine self thinking and feeling ability becomes impaired with false self irrational thinking and feeling, all the while recently of this depressing brain chemical imbalance funk i am still dangerously in as we speak……..i tell myself, just a few more days, weeks, months, i have to get thru this, seemingly my biggest challenge to date, where i know if i fall backwards……….i will die
saw a pair of shoes sitting on the side walk as i walked by, reminding me of how suicider building jumpers take their shoes off before jumping, a strange think forensic teams get to see
as i said, unless you experience seroconversion first hand, you don’t have a clue as to the constant funk they find themselves in, and the altering brain chemical imbalance really really is off the charts, that does not let up, a 24/7 funk, no matter how well i seem to approach my phsycial well being…….albeit the smoking does drop me off even futher, but somedays it is only two a day, where sometimes just half a one makes me vomit…….a good thing, as this is assisting in my cuting down, with the eventual stopping i am getting prepared to do, and soon
i have to, as my appetite is below half, and i don’t want to look sickly, bad enough to feel sickly, and no one enjoys being around sickly, especially the sick
this will pass, and i have to stay focused and on course to summer that is coming, so today i went out shopping for the fake flowers to incorporate into the full floor length headdress wig i creating……found all the parts for it, including some vines that the flowers will flow thru the air in every time i swing my head, really cool…..the wind will put up the vine leaves if there is a breeze.
a nice silk flowered open shirt and silk flowered fabric skirt, the silver, with pink and blue feather mask in the pics on my blog, a master piece, and so sexy fun to wear, the lover who refuses to wear under garments!
anyway, i thought thru the issue of HIV stigmatization, and i feel compelled to seek happiness with a pos lover, as the right choice where all are concerned.
i got infected from complacency, and lovers do become complacent over time, so i am not going to risk someone negative becoming infected, although i just cannot grasp how one who is infected can knowingly cum inside another, knowing full well they are infecting them.
given my recent mental emotional state though, i am gaining insight into what i feel is the unknown truth of why this is happening in the world, a fallout mimicing that comes later, of the original weeks/months of seroconversion fallout funk one experiences, truly, that is the missing link i see clearly as the cause for HIV infecting others.
females need to stand up in the world and pay CLOSE ATTENTION to the reality check in NOT EVER ALLOWING a male to cum inside them, of females who now are the ones being infected the most today, dynamically also of increasing infection because of the male testosterone ego
today, Canada is putting people in jail for it for the first time, sending a message to all infected males out there.
and so they should, given the irresponsible irrational behavioral that is going on in the world.
i have calmed down, but i do need to address this need to blame someone in therapy, and i will follow thru on it, as i am truly angry about it, although i realize i am the one to blame in not taking ownership of my own responsible behaviour, a fucked up kid, yep, i realize now that i really am and have been all these years…..as most any would i suppose, given my life experience.
at this point, i am commited to only considering a pos lover, especially right now during my seroconversion funk, where i got infected thru complacency, so how can i ever go against what i have learned in letting down my guard.
remember how scared we were of HIV infected others back when HIV first hit?
people where going around wearing rubber cloves when around HIV others, remember that?
some still do
anyway, i am 99% towards being with a pos lover, and eventually, this will simply take over as i process thru my happiness in doing so
we have to let this go, and stop entertaining any notions to the contrary
i know first hand what HIV stigmatization feels like, and it is really difficult, for both, so let’s just forget it, ok?
it is what i want to do, in avoiding what HIV stigmatization feels like, of me now on the other side of HIV stigmatization
this is that mature choice
and it ensures that i don’t infect anyone, that would just mortify me if that happened…….and yes, condoms do break, and i know that one first hand as well.
does not mean we cannot be friends, in between all the none stop wild ass sex the pos lovers are having! lol
strangely, my sex drive is not affected at all, other than not phycially feeling compelled for activity, a pervading lathargic sluggish feeling
i am feeling slightly better each week, and staying clear of alcohol for sure is helping, as it is my liver that i have to pamper right now.
i am downing big vitamins, and B complex, alot of orange juice, staying away from fatty foods that zap the metabolism, exercise still in check
i will get thru this, and i’ve decided now is the time to be loyal to my divine true self first, all egotistic shit out the door, a stress relief that only i am able to give to my divine child of God self
proud of me?
pretty smart, ya?
i really am ya know
i saw my divine child smiling so radiant and mischeviously in the mirror today, like i had not seen in i don’t know how long, how he felt in his early teen youth………..all i have to say, is he better not be thinking about barebacking with pos lovers……..oh well, if he does with just one pos lover, that is not so bad, is it? I mean it could be, but not that bad to have two strains of HIV to deal with, considering the drugs we have
ya, he has this wild ass smile going on from ear to ear, clown like, and i am like, what the fuck is this about?
he seems so free spirited………….truly bizarre for me today, as i ponder what was happing inside his crazy ass brain………sex of course!
ya, always loved my sex
just need my big dig boy pinning me to the wall standing up every day when he gets home!
“Oh fuck, your home, oh God, fuck me baby, now, right now, ya, that’s it, oh fuck ya!!!!!!!
what?
doctors orders Biyatches!
so ya, let’s roll with ‘that’
i don’t want to entertain outside of this, so let’s drop it, ok?
thanks
i have to respect us both
and that is the correct friend i want to be with negative lovers along lovers road, as one who does know first hand about complacency infection………how i got HIV infected
ok, so that’s that Biyatches
the mature choice i have made for us all
the only choice i feel
i am with my ex right now, and i am staying till i get thru seroconversion, which could take months
and we always did enjoy our sex, still do
he is a sweet guy, truly he is
and he does not let me drink
he cares about me, genuinely at all times, as i do him
i am using pink and while cherry blossoms for the flowered wig
wish i could afford a truck load of them, and sprinkle them on the entire parade route, always wanted to feel the spirituality of something so simple, and not really that expensive, considering the spiritual impact that shines on into the eternal future
you can live life eating fake foods, or live life eating real foods
you can let your true divine self shine forth divine self light at all times, or choose to let your false self shine forth darkness
the CHOICE is always of YOU
so don’t be afraid to WISELY JUST BE YOU
especially when others around you who are not wise enough to know the difference
that is the mission of the divine child of God’s heart mind body spirit and soul of eternal all YOU
bless you all
and thank you
see, i am thinking and feeling rationally better each day, yes?
yes i am
‘real’ me
and i am not afraid any more to just go be my ‘real’ self
oh, and i though Guy’s recent work was his best to date
the choice of the two leading actors was the best
i loved the gay lover spatting thing…….that was so funny, i fell off my chair laughing my ass off
funny as fuck!
would be awesome to see some sequels, but get abit more contempory in the gay relationship with Sherlock and Watson
im serious!
no one knows 100% if they were having sex, now do we? uhm?
there is so much gay history we are still digging into and bringing into the light each year
would be so awesome to see maybe i kissing scene at some point, you know, one of those happy drunk moments, and out slips the tougue?……as homophobic Watson slaps Sherlock upside the head
and hey, a homoerotic sex scene, well, maybe by the third or forth sequel………some ass grabbing here and there, the stumble into each others arms, genuinely by mistake
you know, most fags don’t come out till age 33, statistically speaking?
yep
so there you go, you could play the build up outing for ten or twenty years, easily
but once they fuck, you lose the audience
play on it, and for sure, you have a garanteed repeat audience of us fag boys who will grab it off the shelf each time without hesitation……not to mention all the closet cases
hey, i was thinking, do you think there are more people in the closet than out of the closet?
if so, to what ratio?
ya, the pervading scattered energies can be overwhelming and annoying, can’t they?
i thought it was just my old age, but i find their manifesting insecurity to be so annoying i can’t wait to leave, wondering why i bother walking into the joint in the first place, here yet again, my ex doing his drag show, my avoiding the boringness of it all i have come to dread for many years now
i was always an inquisitive youth in math and sciences, and that is far more intriquing to me than watching the struggling new comers muster up their drunken lies to go home with some sugar daddy they end up leaving, only to return again to the same old boring ass troll scene time and again………slap up side the head……..what are you thinking?
i should just go up to them, and ask, wtf are you doing hear? Why are you not running up and down the streets to the dance floors with some hot ass Biyatch like yourself?
fool!
people should run with their own age group
and subconsciously i don’t feel anyone is able to be real in mixed age relationships
i’ve done them, and the issue was always there, a pervasiveness that does not go away
anyway…….stepping over boundaries again
you can see me any time you want
but i am ‘no’ to sex
just friends from now on
may God grant us both 100% surrendered courageous commitment in our hearts of true consideration equally for us both and others from this day forward
bless you always
im ok
im here till my last day
but that is the boundary i am sticking with, wisely
innate primal brain fear response to danger is not something you can simply turn off, no matter how much you may think you can……..you cannot
no one can
just the way it is
honestly, i feel relieved within, so let me continue to enjoy this new life path feeling that is coming to me now, ok?
just let it go
and accept our friendship we always were and yet purely are of
i am not letting my guard down on this decision, so don’t let yourself entertain notions, ok?
do yourself a favor and let it go
if you have not already
which i feel you did sometime ago………
past is the past, leave it there
i don’t want to be bitter, and i am not……..mostly
new day, new life
peace be to you all
bless you all with peace grace love and happiness
dont know what your going on about …
anywaz back to me
I auditioned for a short film today… was fun
the character I went for was a Gay Colonel ( closet) set in the 30’s my long term lover’s wife is about to find out he want to end the relationship I end up killing him in a rage with a whisky glass ( I get to kiss him before ) the other actor is really cute .. I know i’ll get the role touch wood,
( marco hit’s FranKie on the head)
oh it’s just fantacy, I do everything backward’s, one needs to in an upside down world….
yer Andy stay with your pos ex.. the sex would be better no boundries if your pos.. dont worry too much your old now what is it 40 something well the life expectancy with modern day drugs is 30yrs + so youll life to a ripe old age of 80+ plus by then you’ll be all wrinkly anyway and wanna move to the other side.. I’d probly on the other hand die of stomach complications ofter day one of taking those drugs.. so im not permitted to contract that ..
Speaking of which now that it’s been more than 7 yrs since antivirals were discovered maybe the generic ( Cheaper ) drugs should be made available to 3rd world countries where entire generations have been wiped out due to HIV & AIDS related illness…
I think that’s something to seriously consider YES an organisation or charity structure to fund & provide affordable or even free generic drugs to 3rd world countries and lets reverse this dire situation NOW… after all we are all one & we are all connected to the one…
It’s now time for us to help each other ( help ourselves in effect) & turn this world around
hand’s up if your interested !!
Franky’s got his hand up .. well i think its his hand..
hey Frankie
winning starts and stops in the mind
and this stupid virus i know has an Achilles’ heel
just as i know all living things have a weakness in the food chain
when you look at animals that are immune to HIV, well, why are they immune?
is it not the higher metabolism rate?
and is it not the higher metabolism rate in children born with HIV that is cause for why some children born HIV positive become negative later?
so there is the answer
100%, i know there is an answer
so already the virus has lost, and merely an annoying stupid virus that kills it’s own host and dies itself…….i mean how stupid is that?
i will find the Achilles’ heel by Christmas of this year
yer it’s all in the MIND…
the HIV virus is so small it can actually pass through the cell atom structure of a condom anyway …
IT”S ALL IN the MIND
it’s all an illusion
there is no real scientific proof or link between HIV & AIDS even the guy that origianlly discovered HIV has indirectly said that,, someone did a movie in it recently..
it;’s all an illusion but beware the mind is a powerful computer & if you allow it to create your reality it will…
so dont let it..
Franlky get off me will you… bloody hell FRanki.. ( he just got home from WalMart they have a 50% discount on breast implant’s… ) Frankie please im not in the mood right now..
dumb ass Alien
it is of God that i have this virus, which will compell me to find the virus’s Achilles’ heel that does exist
so simple too
cannot believe they have not figured it out
or maybe they did, and the drug business is too great to give up?
are you still smoking that shit weed?
ya, well, i will come up with a metabolism that is not normal for humans, and may indeed kill some patients whose heart is too weak to handle the regimented week long meta ramp up, with heart acceleration drugs, strong steroids, in a controlled way that kills the virus faster than it can multiply over a week long period or however long, i figure about the same as a flu virus
the HIV virus has a temperature it dies at, and that can be sustained in the human body that becomes conditioned in a year long training program
i have known this about my own metabolism for years, where i can get rid of a cold within two days from increasing the metabolism, gruelingly i might add, no fever pills that do the opposite
there is a way to ramp up and condition the human body beyond it’s normal metabolic rate
the target is the temperature at which the virus dies
and then the time it takes for the entire body of the virus to die
i say start a patient with a complete blood transfusion, and then ramp it up for the week long duration needed, with interupt times of need rest, but timed faster than the virus can multiple, which we already know what that rate is
simple
that is the answer
i was thinking of using an animals blood cells too, that we know are immune to the virus, as a way to scrub the blood, using donor rejection drugs, but the animal blood cells would have to be like that of the human, likely from the chimps
but i think it is merely the metabolic heat that kills the virus in animals which have much higher metabolic body temp rates, like all birds
and i don’t think the rate is that high up, considering that we know young children born with it, do become negative later, a result of their much higher healthy metabolism
all aspects, 360 degrees, of conditioning the body and ramping up metabolic rate increase need to be addressed, in diet, exercise and rest
then simple hit the magic number of heat temperature for a week, and the patient is cured of the HIV virus
how one gets to above none human metabolic rates, well, however it is able to be done, we have to do it.
that is how animals remain immune to the HIV virus, as simple as the heat temperature of the metabolic rate for the ‘sustained period’ needed, which is constant normal for these animals with higher metabolic rates
or how about small microwave clamps around however many viens in the body, the heat the temp of just the blood as it flows thru, or a blood transfusion thing that heats the blood to the exact temperature needed for the exact time needed, which i feel is longer than we may feel the blood is able to survive, but if you get into the micro numbers of those exact temps and times, we may find that it does not kill all the blood, albeit, some for sure are going to die, but we have fresh mixing back in with say half of the dead filtered blood
sustained temperature attack
that is the key to HIV virus kill
whatever it is, you have to go to that
then find ways for the body to survive it
steroids, whatever is needed,
or how about cold, does the virus die in cold temperatures?
or how about flash laser burn temperature increase?
sustained at a slow rate that gives the body time to heal, but just slightly faster than the infectious, where you can say burn out the blood over a constant 24 hour, two, three week period, at whatever those exact numbers are?
blood transfusion occuring at the same constant rate
however it is able to be done, it can 100% be done, and we have to push towards the exact numbers it can be done
the answer is ALWAYS there and does 100% exist
the defeatist have already lost to this stupid virus with no brain
I am so over Frankie..
Frankie please leave…
I sent Frankie over to your house…
lock up your cat,,
he eats pussy’s
fuck no… i stoped smoking weeds 5 yrs ago.. although i have had the occational one … just enough to realise how fucked up dope is really .. those that say it’s natural grows in the Ground God put it there for a reason BULLSHIT … TRUTH is WEED makes you LAZY.. PARANOID… & UNMOTIVATED and I break out in an allergic reaction to it so as far as i am concerned it STINKS…
Seriosly it REALLY stinks
have you tried the new drug out called MEOW MEOW ??
better than coke
MEOW
im only joking i haven’t tried MEOW ive just read about it..
I dont do drugs.. although I drink way too much coffee
COFFEE
where’s my Coffee
I spent last night on the couch with my cat
i have friend who has now tried meow meow and he said he’ll never do it again, so its put me off.
can life get any more busier, have hardly had time to look at myself, cause i do like to do that occasionally.
3 jobs down, about to start a business all beginning to take their toll on a 18 year old.
but i must admit with all my negativity that i just wrote, i can not get enough of my life now, its amazing. i have my family, i have my friends, i love and in the end i am so grateful for that.
amazing.
last night i went to bed early.
GLEE SEASON 1 EPISODE 15 is dedicated to all of madonnas songs
has anyone tried Acai Berry detox ?
well my advise is dont …
ive aged 30 years in two days .. have pimples all over my face
and I have to sleep with the windows open plus I feel like my skin has turned into lizzard scales ..
omg …
my stomach is burning up…
I think im going to die…
maybe it was the Dried Californian Pitted Prunes
Cell Protein Gives Monkeys Innate Immunity to H.I.V., Researchers Discover
By GINA KOLATA
Published: February 26, 2004
. .Scientists have discovered that monkey cells have innate protection against infection with the human AIDS virus, a clue that may help explain why some people are susceptible to certain viral infections while others are not.
The finding, reported in today’s issue of the journal Nature, offers one of the first concrete examples of what researchers call an intracellular system of innate immunity and may open the door to the development of new antiviral therapies, the scientists said.
The monkeys were protected from the virus by a mechanism that resides within cells and that is independent of the antibodies and white blood cells of the immune system. The mechanism appears to have evolved to protect animals from specific viruses.
In the case of AIDS, the researchers found, the monkeys blocked the human immunodeficiency virus, or H.I.V., as soon as it slipped into cells, using a protein that prevented the virus from shedding the hard casing around its genes. The protein, called TRIM5-alpha, apparently floats inside the monkey cells, looking for H.I.V.
”This is really telling us about a system of natural immunity to viruses,” said Dr. Joseph Sodroski, a professor of pathology at Harvard’s Dana-Farber Cancer Institute who was the lead author of the study. He described the protective mechanism used by the cells as ”very specific, very potent and very targeted to particular viruses.”
Dr. Nathaniel R. Landau, an AIDS researcher at the Salk Institute in San Diego, called the study ”excellent,” and predicted, ”I think it’s going to open up a new avenue of research.”
Dr. Sodroski and other researchers said innate immunity might help explain why some people were more prone to getting H.I.V. or other viruses, or why the same types of infections were mild in some people and severe in others. The clue may lie in slight individual differences in cellular proteins conferring this immunity, they said.
The finding will not immediately lead to new AIDS drugs, the scientists said, but they said that any time a new way of intervening in a virus’s life cycle is discovered, it can generate ideas for antiviral therapies.
”Once you know there is something that is important for a virus to do you can figure out a way to stop it,” said Dr. John Coffin, a professor of molecular biology and microbiology at Tufts University.
In the new study, the researchers began with a well-known observation, that some species of Old World primates, including rhesus monkeys, macaques, mangabeys, baboons and African green monkeys, seem impervious to H.I.V., although they are susceptible to a similar virus, simian immunodeficiency virus, or S.I.V.
Dr. Sodroski and others who wanted to study human AIDS in animals began looking for a way to infect monkey cells with the human virus. A method that seemed to work, they found, was to make viruses that were part H.I.V. and part S.I.V.
Using such hybrids, Dr. Sodroski said, ”we could infect monkeys and cause AIDS.”
Then the researchers asked themselves what made the difference between a virus that could infect monkeys and one that could not. They focused on the capsid, the candy-corn shaped casing that surrounds the virus’s genes when it enters a cell.
The hybrid viruses had the capsids of monkey viruses but the genes inside were from the human virus. What would happen, the researchers wondered, if they made viruses with capsids that were mixtures of humans and monkey?
Such viruses, the researchers found, could no longer infect monkey cells.
”As soon as you put the capsid from H.I.V. into the viruses, they suddenly were blocked in monkey cells,” Dr. Sodroski said.
Seeking to understand why this was so, the researchers discovered that it was the monkey’s TRIM5-alpha protein that, in a way not yet understood, prevented the infection.
If the scientists put the TRIM5-alpha gene into human cells, the human cells made the monkey protein and were protected from H.I.V. infection. If, however, the researchers blocked the gene in monkey cells, preventing the cells from making TRIM5-alpha, the cells became susceptible to H.I.V.
Chimpanzees
Chimpanzees are the only nonhuman animals with a healthy immune system who can be infected with HIV-1, the cause of most cases of AIDS. Of approximately a hundred chimpanzees infected with HIV-1 over a ten year period, only TWO have become sick.
why don’t they see the truth staring at them?
seems their focus is on a drug treatment experimentation, and not the cure that is starring them in the face, as indicated by this response they stupidly say…..
Unlike the human immune system, that of chimpanzees shows little antibody- or cell-mediated response to HIV-1.4 Further, chimpanzees differ from humans in their immune system ratios of T4 to T8 lymphocytes,5 a disparity that makes chimpanzees’ immune response to HIV-1 infection virtually uninterpretable in human terms.
huh?
what?
you fucking morons!
i think i saw every episode of Alf as a kid…..twice
i need a team of lab techs and doctor research scientists for an unlimited amount of time
mind boggling stuff………
The various simian immunodeficiency virus (SIV) strains do not appear to cause illness in their natural monkey hosts — either in the laboratory or in nature. However, they may cause immunodeficiency diseases in other monkey species who are artificially infected in the laboratory, such as sooty mangabey SIV infecting rhesus monkeys. All strains of SIV differ markedly from HIV-1. Some SIV strains, however, resemble HIV-2,10 which causes a less aggressive immunodeficiency syndrome in humans than HIV-1 and is responsible for far fewer cases of AIDS.
Cats
As Bennett and Hart note, feline immunodeficiency virus (FIV) is “more closely related” to non-primate lentiviruses (that infect horses, sheep and cows) than to HIV.15 Whereas HIV infection occurs through binding to the CD4 cell receptor, FIV infects by way of the CD9 cell receptor. While naturally acquired FIV infection causes many cats to become immunodeficient, FIV infection induced in the laboratory apparently does not.11 Most likely, FIV requires concurrent infections–those found in household cats but absent in the artificial laboratory environment–to cause immunodeficiency.
why don’t they see the animals natural high metabolic rate as to why they don’t develope AIDS?
such morons
Considering the OAR’s recommendations, human-based research is far more likely than animal experimentation to produce findings about HIV and how it infects humans. To date, critical insights into AIDS disease mechanisms and therapy have derived exclusively from in-vitro and in-vivo studies of humans.
>>>>>>> In contrast, animals infected with various immunodeficiency viruses consistently fail to faithfully reproduce the human AIDS syndrome.
anyway, buckling in for what may be a long haul…however long it takes
i will figure this out
i would say the cure is likely an extensive multi-faceted attack of numerous findings that partly work, when combined, it works
i would say, the key is to put the virus into a CONSTANT weakening attack alert mode(distraction from replication) using many attack approaches, including increasing the metabolic rate
strategically…SUSTAINED ATTACK KILLING slightly ahead of the replication rate.IS the answer
even if it may kill some people who’s bodies are too weak for the process
refinement research of the process would eventually come for the weaker bodies
i do think using a mixture of animals blood of the higher metabolic immune systems able to sustain high temperatures, is a way to scrub the body and blood during the onslaught of a sustained high metabolic rate of the human body, where the use of the blood cells as a scruber(remover) is necessary to use where human blood cannot tolerate the high metabolic heat
using donor rejection drugs would work in this, for how ever long the scrub takes.no more than two weeks i figure of high heat sustained metabolic rate that is slightly ahead of the replication rate
of course combined use of todays durgs today is part of the HIV cure treatment scrub process
organisation or charity structure to fund & provide an HIV CURE to the world, with me as the human experimentor in research?
i WILL find the team of forward thinking high risk taker researcher team of those i need to work with
they got a cure, LOL just wont release it, population control .. + make too much money from the drugs.. anywaz power of the mind cure yourself..
hear is the TRUTH
during a virus attack, our natural occuring metabolic rate increases the body temp to high levels where it does put the (weaker)human body at risk of dying
experimentation at high level risk of dying, obviously is the answer, but we can anticipate and ramp up condition the body to withstand the needed higher metabolic rates required to kill the viral load with a two week sustained scrub
clearly, we ALREADY KNOW the required metabolic heat temperature rate is above the normal human level, and that is the absolute undenialable truth of where the HIV CURE is, beyond our research at this time, of individuals too afraid to risk dying
it will work
i already know it will work
the HIV virus is a smart SLOW attack killer that does not bring the human body alert system fully online, knowing it will die doping so, rather the virus is an evolved virus above what it has learned does and does not work to it’s own survival advantage
and by the time the immune system is fully weakened, the human body is too weak in attacking the AIDs level of other bugs attacking, in order to survive the eventual metabolic rate needed that does come TOO LATE and why it is when we die
it is an evolved (superbug) virus, no question there, in looking at it’s attack strategy, and that is what/where the HIV Achilles’ Heel is, in it’s own strategic attack
it is so obvious to see in the strategy of the evolved HIV virus’s SLOW ATTACK of evolved learning from experience that metabolic HEAT is what the virus is avoiding
i think it is birds that are immune to the virus, with really high metabolic rates
we don’t know how many millions/billions of years old this virus is, but i do suspect it is from the early beginning of life on this planet, that lay dorminate in an eco system somewhere, evolving slowly thru infecting various creatures it was able to move thru, and clearly not be able to move thru at all, where no evolving occurs because it dies in the higher metabolic rate creatures…….where that line is in exploration of all creatures on the planet, is where we will find the heat temperature required to kill the STUPID HIV BUG
comprendie?
i also believe the HIV virus has an evolved awareness of it’s deliberate evolved slow attack low alarm response of it’s host as relates to the sustained long term altering of the creatures positive thinking and feeling brain chemistry that is a part of it’s evolved strategy
we have to look at the age of this evolved superbug that has managed to strategically survive all this time, and when it comes to evolved life, it is PURELY EXACTING in it’s nature, which is what the counter-attack strategy has to be, PURELY EXACTING slightly above and wisely beyond as to what IS this stuperbug’s ability to see and evolve quickly enough to our strategy before it dies
i don’t see the HIV CURE as something that complicated, rather simple exacting complex
i can out smart this bug, no problem, and already i have and am
can you imagine the jumping joy around the world for a cure?
i better get my truckload of cherry blossoms for this Biyatches!
i also belive ths evolved bug knows about complex Psychosomatic body chemistry responses during it’s strategic attack, as part of it’s steady constant weaking it’s host
perhaps this evolved bug has symbiotic relations in nature in it’s ability to weaken a host for other bugs to inhabit and consume below the weaker immune system, as part of it’s strategy?
that is a given
i love the purity of the simple way nature is, where thruout the entire food chain is what nature does to survive, consume other living things
that is why it is a given that the HIV virus likely does have a symbiotic relationship with anotht bug(s), where it is simple a natural thing in all life forms that consume/use other life forms as part of survival, all purely natural, not an evil thing, although the fish in the deeper parts of the ocean truly are the most hideous creatures i’ve seen
have you seen those things?
talk about scary
and yet, even the shark is not an evil creature at all, doing exactly what all creatures do, although i don’t like how sharks play with their live food before eating it, like the way they toss seals in the air
clearly the HIV virus seeks to weaken the immunity of it’s host
but i don’t think it seeks to kill it’s host, that just makes no sense in all sybiotic relationships found in nature
i say we die from AIDS because of our stress junky life styles where humans are not of the constant relaxed natural state in nature any more
with that said, we see this truth in nature with Chimpanzees, do we not?
ok, so the HIV virus is not a killer bug
we are the altered evolution fuckedup point in human hitory time way outside the true nature of the human being in nature existence we have fallen away from thruout the world, of all the contributing factors that lead to AIDs such as stress and poor diet we know is where the other bugs that is of AIDs is what is killing out of it’s true nature the human being, not intentional of the HIV virus
so what is the HIV virus symbiotic relationship with it’s host from a positive enhanced view point?
well, clearly the brain chemstry does alter with the HIV virus
“Yo, dude, you got any new HIV strain shots i can get jacked up on, i miss my higher manic depression mood swings of the other strains i did last month.” LOL
can you imagine a world like that?
hey, don’t laugh, there is likely some HIV junkies out there doing just that…as morbid as that may sound, is likely true, given the anti drugs we have now
any questions?
oh for fuck sakes………check this out……….
HIV, unlike most viruses has to be within a host or culture at a temperature of 98.6 degrees give or take only a degree or two. Outside of the body, the virus dies within minutes without the temperature necessary for its survival. It, unlike many of its virus cousins, does not have the ability to go into a spore state and “shut down” until another viable host comes along. Its cell walls begin to deteriorate within minutes after leaving its host….. this is why it cannot be transmitted with a kiss or a hug, but only through sexual intercourse or shared IV use, usually associated with drug use where needles are passed from one person to another before the virus had a chance to expire…..
it is a blood to blood pathogen.
Answer
HIV is fragile by nature and is also extremely sensitive to even small fluctuations in temperature and the presence of oxygen. Outside of strictly controlled laboratory conditions, HIV will only survive for a couple of minutes at the very most.
The one place that HIV has been shown to survive for extended periods of time (several days) is in needles used with syringes; the needles frequently contain enough blood to prevent the HIV from drying out.
In the almost twenty-five years that scientists have been studying HIV, there has not been a single known instance of HIV being transmitted trough casual contact in the environment.
ok, so why not do a 24/7 one week out of body cooling of blood scrubbing with ten quanties of the entire human blood supply constant cooling transfusion until the body is scrubbed completely clean?
or how ever long needed that proves to work
as i said, the key is in the ‘necessary required time’ of the process body/blood scrubbing
duh!
obviously the speed of removing the blood out of the body at a slightly faster rate above the replication rate of the virus, is the target zone, where you may need to do say four vien hookups with main areries at the same time
I cannot sleep…
omg I wish I could sleep i am going to be so tired in the morning, well ill sleep during the day… ave a sore neck anyway… it’s a condition i have from all the stress ive taken on over the years from other people… yer that’s right taking on everyone elses shit.,.
jealousy … that what you get when you have a strong character when you are honest & truthfull to yourself .. other people have to attack you … instead of admiring your strength and trying to aspire to be strong themselves instead thay attack you try to destroy you upset you bring you down … I know all to well I have had to deal with energy sucking vampires all my life… ok im going off now.. but its a subject i am too familiar with .. something I can relate to…
I fully understand … with complete clarity … no one will ever demonise me EVER… & you know what I AM STRONG..
fucking morons stay in your cage haha..
ok well maybe I can sleep now…
ive vented all my anger…
omg i allow myself to be born into this stupid fucked up world to help & all I get is jeoulosy
Character assassination is an attempt to tarnish a person’s reputation. It may involve exaggeration or manipulation of facts to present an untrue picture of the targeted person. It is a form of defamation and can be a form of ad hominem argument.
For living individuals targeted by character assassination attempts, this may result in being rejected by his community, family, or members of his or her living or work environment. Such acts are often difficult to reverse or rectify, and the process is likened to a literal assassination of a human life. The damage sustained can last a lifetime or, for historical figures, for many centuries after their death.
In practice, character assassination may involve doublespeak, spreading of rumors, innuendo or deliberate misinformation on topics relating to the subject’s morals, integrity, and reputation. It may involve spinning information that is technically true, but that is presented in a misleading manner or is presented without the necessary context.
oh whatever Marco, blah blah blah and fucking blah
let me know when you pull your self-centered head out of your ass and embrace compassion for all of us who are HIV +
i will say this, you who are not HIV + and remain of the apathetic don’t give a fuck for all we who are +, your children will inherit the apathetic world you leave behind for them
anyway, i am not interested in wasting one fucking second on any more of this fucking blame shame fucking marry go round till i puke some fucking more passive aggressive mind fucking
so fuck off with that, ok?
fuck
you distract my focus from assertive thinking i need for figuring out this bugs weakness.
i am seeking like minded individuals to assist in my research, and you come back with all this mind fucking shit?
like what the fuck?
fuck fuck fuck fuck off
all of you apathetic fuckheads
there are billions of us in need of the healthier ones, so stop with all this shit, i am not reading one more word of it
~
i say, embrace this bug in a positive light of how it has managed to evolve and survive like it has.
and no, it is not a killer bug, no matter how many of you think it is, rather it is a symbiotic bug with it’s host, with no intention of killing it’s host.
we have to think in terms of the evolved age of the HIV bug, and go back thru time of how the human being would be in it’s natural habitat as part of the eco system we once were a part of likely for millions of years.
today, the human being is not a part of an eco system, and our metabolism is stressed from so many things like pollution and stress itself from the ego world we live in today.
this deminished capacity of our higher metabolism is the difference and cause for why some die from HIV and those who do not.
if i were part of an eco system as a creature living in nature at one with nature 24/7, i would look like our ancestors in caves and tents, with no polution, raw fresh veggies daily, high exercise from chasing my food each day, and at bed time i get to crawl in out of the fresh air into some nice furs against the naked body and fuck all night long, where my entire physical mental emotional sexual and spiritual well being is way beyond any of you anal retentive fucktards today. LOL
just as the chimpanzee shows the none developement of AIDs from HIV infection, so too did we when we were of our higher metabolic DAILY rate, and of couse the weaker ones die, which is something also of a positive light that keeps the healthier creature’s reproduction of it’s creatures………this is not an open debate for you whiny fucktards, ok?
anyway, here is more proof of this, and i do want to eloborate fully on what is the evolved counter measure we see in these findings of HIV immunity our ancestors are of with an evolved gene found in them that has been handed down in others who are immune to HIV.
as relates to evolved immunity and the fact the HIV bug is a symbiotic bug, only thru the natural habitat of the human being’s higher metabolic rate, are we able to see a counter strategy evolving thru the offspring who did survive contanct with the HIV virus, at a time in human history we were of our natural habitat existence, where the offspring born did evolve with the gene which makes us immune to HIV.
pure natural evolving is the ideal solution for future generations to come, that would ensure all offspring with immunity to the HIV virus, and for sure, this is something we can manipulate preborn genes, like we do in vaccine research…………not just plausible, it is 100% TRUE, and already we have the evidence of the evolved human beings with the evolved gene switched on, which is also indicative that at some time way way back in human history, the counter gene for immunity already did exist, perhaps switched on, and then back off thru human history, when the threat no longer existed after however long the HIV virus was thrust back to it’s eco system.
here is the findings……………
Genetic mutation called CCR5 Delta32 makes it’s bearers immune to HIV. Highest frequencies can be found in nordic and baltic-countries aswell in european Russia. Highest frequencies being in Finland ~16% of population.
You can see the allele frequency map here:
http://biology.plosjournals.org/perlserv/?request=slideshow&type=figure&doi=10.1371/journal.pbio.0030339&id=40192
Scientist conclude that the gene propably arose in Southern-Finland around 800AD and was spread around the baltic-sea area by the finnish vikings.
“Our large estimates of dispersal are consistent with the
Viking hypothesis of Lucotte and Mercier [12]. Moreover,
when selection is assumed to be spatially uniform, the
maximum likelihood origin is in southern Finland.”
Unfortunately there are no written sources from Finland 800AD. Why did finnish vikings come up with HIV immunity ? What happened back then ? The Black Death was hundreds of years later so it cant be that. Any russians here with good knowledge about Novgorod annales ?
apathy was cause for my HIV infection, and still you choose to remain the apathetic fuckhead you obviously are Marco, and i have zero time to entertain your bullshit any more, that is dull and boring as fuck for me.
so please, drop it, i don’t give a fuck about any of who is to blame or not, where in truth, the strategy of the evolved HIV virus is what is cause for my infection.
how does the HIV virus spread?
it spreads thru sex
the HIV virus knows this, and it is a part of it’s strategy
i noticed during the early weeks of seroconversion how my brain chemical balance shifted so drastic, without hesitation as a result of the change in my brain chemistry, i found myself feeling overwhelming desire and need in seeking close intimacy with another, running back to my ex no less, who i feel is likely the one who infected me, where normally, one would be enraged, would they not?
nope, this virus knows full well what it is doing, and the extent of this is evident in how i shut down and ran towards intimacy with anyone i was of potential intimacy contact with
hence, how the virus knowingly spreads to other hosts
anyway, if you want to participate, then offer a hand
if not, well, i will find those who are compelled with the same motivation empowerment as i am
i will find the answer that i know already does exist
we just have not figured it out yet.
there may not be a cure for a host already infected, and i am prepared to deal with that, and yet, optimistically, the TRUTH starring us in the face in the above case, reveals that our ancestors did manage to live with HIV infection in handing it down thru it’s offspring.
While they likely did not become rid of the HIV virus in the original host, the switching of the gene is likely what we see happening in children we know in the world who are born with HIV, but later become negative.
another interesting point i want to make is the ancestors in question in the above case
they lived in a cold climate
HIV does not like cold
how long does it take for this gene to be switched on?
i have no idea
can we switch it on in those alive today?
well, ya, obviously we can, we are just stupid at this point of the ability of the human being.
as for thinking governments may have the answer, i disagree…………they are not that smart
the human body has dealt with this prehistoric HIV bug, as evident that we have a gene that is able to be switched on and off, as are any genes in our body that switch on and off in evolution
so there you have it, the human being has come up against HIV in our ancient past
which place this symbiotic(friendly) bug in ancient human history
so if you want to help me figure this out in a lab, all are invited
thank you
there is not ever going to be a sexually intimate you and me so long as i am HIV +
got it?
ok, so help me figure out how to put HIV back into it’s own eco system Biyatches!
or your children will suffer your apathy, just as i am, just as billions of us are
fuck, i was so hoping you would offer some interest in participation, and you are going off about fucking bullshit attempts to peg me as though a useless person, glad to be free of me………….although i don’t take a single word you say personally, all hypocrisy gossip
MILLIONS OF PEOPLE ARE DYING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
fuck, you people and your fairy tale lives, not thinking about the truth your offspring will eventually come face to face harsh reality of your apathy one day
TRUTH
the answer to HIV does 100% exist
and already the gene solution will see it run it’s natural course without our help at some point, even if it does wipe out billions of our offspring from ever existing
HIV is a symbiotic friendly virus with no intent of killing it’s host, a stupid thing to do when we look at eternally surviving, is it not?
we can learn to live with HIV, and have
although even with the new drugs, if you party, drink, smoke, and do drugs, you will likely die
we just lost one of our infamous drag queens last week, who was here on the scene when i got here in 1993, dying from not taking care of herself, party, drugs, alcohol, time and time i have seen this hundreds of times.
and the other drag queens from 1993 who did shut down the unhealthy behavior, are alive and well
http://www.allempires.com/Forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=17335
HIV immunity in ancient Finland ^ ^ above link
anyway, what will be will be as regards the eternal future of mankind, where there is no need or use for wasting time in anger, where indeed, every second of time is potentially going to alter the lives of the eternal future.
i say the cold in Finland slowed the HIV virus ability, as well as the higher metabolic rate from living in cold climate, because we need metabolic body heat, long enough for the human body to evolve in switching on the gene
HIV is likely what wiped out the Neanderthols in Europe, in not (yet) having the gene.
some of the oldest bones of our ancestry are found in Danmark, vikings
anyway, i am not doing the blame game double speak imply emotional tyranny with you, i don’t need stress, so keep it up and my finger hits the delete button
MADONN AIS BEAUTIFUL.
EU GOSTO MUITO DE MADONNA .
POR QUE ELA CANTA BEM E DANÇA MUITO BEM.
E EU SEI ISSO PORQUE FUI AO CONCERTO DE MADONNA EM PORTUGAL E FOI MARAVILHOSO.
this is the greatest place to be at dont you think,
close enough to feel the love
not too close to taint the love
any closer & well end up fucking the love
ok come closer now , fuck it
fuck it
just fuck it will you
lol
well now, seems someone is missing out on something……….
oh, i have thought about being near you physically, sorta like a wild stallion that has been let out from the barn into the field in approaching you, the heart pounding, the heavey breathing sweet anticipation in knowing what i am feeling is most likely the same feeling you are thinking………
and well, i would simply go crazy waiting for you to unbutton my shirt, making your way down as i come alive even more, my mind overwhelmed with the thoughts of fucking you for the first time………
and for sure not the last time, that much i can assure you
butt…………what about fucking me?
i need some fucking 2 ya know, exactly the same as you, i love it 2!
what to do?
are you really versatile 2?
i can teach you!
and with practice, for sure i could bring out both of your female and male sexual self you would come to love equally as i do!
truly, two versatiles is like a foursome, both of them of a female and male self, butt in truth, it is really the melding of the two sexes into one explosive orgasmic experience guarnteed to be nothing butt fun fun fun!
and the best part is you get to wake to another day even better than the last.
and always remember, sex is important for our healthy positive well being, what with all those happy brain chemicals being released and anti-stress horomones.
fear of intimacy is normal, much like the fear of our own masturbation sessions we overcome as we move thru the fear in realizing no one is around, time to have fun……..until you walk in the door and catch me, as you take over where i left off, higher and higher we go, each other an extension of one another’s masturbation heaven cuming 2gether as one.
i know i cannot stay for long with a non-versatile partner, and all i ask is that they be open minded to the ease of coming to know their other sexual self.
of course, once the door is open, there is no going back, where i am living proof of that
happily so
what my happiness truly is!
i disagree with fucking up the love…….unless of course you are still on the prowl for new sexual expierences in learning more about your own sexual self with others.
i find penis shape is what is of most importance, narrow at the tip, wider at the girth, that lends to a greater pulsing sensation physically, the opening and clusing during thrusting, that translates into greater ease of orgasmic ability, quicker and with certainty, that likewise translates into our daily sweet anticipation as lovers getting naked again with each other each day of equal delight knowingness of our orgasmic love delight, what heaven is…………something i learned about my female sexual self when it comes to penis shape, where pencil dicks truly are the worse, personally, for me, although there was this 11 inch guy from NYC that drove me into a frenzy all night longgggggggg…….
and what of sex toys, that can assist in greater orgasmic experience.
one of my favorites is hot candle wax dripped onto the skin from about one foot up, that cools quickly, but a sudden sting that does electrify and awaken our brain sex.
i find alot of people are not at ease in talking about their sexual experience, and yet when i start talking openly, they are all smiles and attentive to my every wise word of what i have learned truly works for me, likewise of another.
the only distance between you and i is your fear that keeps you away from you
i am not afraid of meeting you, butt it is obvious i have strong sexual desire for you……..more than you may realize.
something i would not tire of if you 2 are likewise of the same versatile enjoyment i am, or at the very least, open minded to learn about your other sexual self that i am exceedingly mature in, of no fear whatsoever, to the extent i am one who is of ease fearlessness in assisting another in sexual self loving discovery
i simple cannot stay in a non-versatile lover relationship, no matter how much i would allow myself to pretend, i would only pretend for so long and grow bored of them.
i am no longer of the afraid closeted conventional crowd, nor will i ever be again, nor should anyone!
i have my HIV issue a partner has to contended with, but i don’t think that is much of an issue really, mostly imagined fear of another……..so long as neither becomes complacent……..although i don’t feel the fear every goes away, which is a good thing in keeping the lovers in avoidance of complacency
did i address your fears?
why not just fuck me and walk away from the experience, no strings, and decide if you enjoy me enough sexually, in deciding to fuck me again?
oh fuck it, let’s just fuck ok?
i want 2!
i always wanted 2!
i always knew i wanted 2!
and still, i want 2!
i am 2!
2 YOU!
2 + 2 = 4
impossible not to be fun sexual happiness i already am!
you know, i can look pretty fierce when i get dolled up.
i tend to enjoy just being my relaxed blue jean t-shirt messy hair relaxed self without need or feeling to have to look perfect for please anyone’s expectations, which is not to say i am a slob, or that i always like to look like a slob, just relaxed in being my cassual fun self, and besides, who cares what my hair looks like when i pop me head up out of the hot tub water fully naked there with you? uhm?
please note that i am versatile seeking versatile
and i am not interested in less that what i always am, ok?
i can assist one in this, butt only if they are open minded to sexual self exploration long enough to come fully into awareness heaven like i have, of, oh say, a month naked with me!
after which i already know, there is no turning back once you have been with the best!
well, i hope i made you smile this morning, and i hope your smile lasts long enough to find your way into my arms, where you won’t ever regret your decision.
but i cannot expect you to come to me as much as i would love you to cum with me!
intimacy fear is real
perhaps you think i would get bored with you?
oh, i know i would not ever get bored with you, of the entire world our playground to play in
and i would not stray
when love is pure and constantly true of the real you, that is what heaven constantly is
if anyone is of certainty in their mental powers, it is ‘me’!
beyond most, am i not?
are you too embarrased to be around someone who is at ease in being their dual sexuality?
why would you worry about what the fuck the lameass fuckers think, who don’t think at all?
sexual maturity is what i am
so if you are what i am seeking same
then set your spirit forever free as my own
i love you
i have always loved you
i will always love you
forever wanting more
Biyatch!
oh, and as for the penis shape thing as regards me, well, i am not going to tell you
you will just have to fearlessly find out one day!
Biyatch!
and yes, this is how i openly talk around my LGBT family, fearlessly.
BE CAUSE i am, fearless
oppss…..i put the wrong blog address in my link
so ya, who do you know who is as equally fearless as ‘me’?
it is always your life to live as you
it is always your decisions to choose as you
it is always your choosing living life decisions YOU
so if you do want to fuck ‘me’
i do 2!
lol
i already know i always will want 2……….
fuck you that is!
or go spend some more time with the boring lackluster sexually immature conventional crowd, thinking about ‘me’ all the while, if that is what you have 2 do, where it’s not like my sexual feelings are ever able to change………
i was thinking lately, of how i had always wanted 100% certainty lover love with another at all times, having felt how that feels with many lovers before, of fuckups that occurred, mostly of others interfering in coming between us, as they strayed away in going our seperate ways.
truly, the happiness of another’s joyful obvious confident lover delight holding on tight to our belt is what heaven constantly is, love devoid of doubt.
i know this of myself, and i don’t have that purely with anyone at this time, always the pervading uncertainty that wants in, where of my mental power oneness with Jesus, is where i purely constantly am of 100% certainty in knowing Jesus and God know i constantly deserve to always 100% feel the way Jesus, Mary and God make me feel at any time in my turning to them.
i am without doubt of the constant love devoid of doubt oneness heaven with Jesus, Mary and God, knowing the flawless healing feeling is what is constant yearning of my divine true real self at all times, inspite of any others in their aimless immaturity false ego masking they tend to be of, waundering like they do unwisely looking subconsciously without wise inner certainty first, of others too looking subconsciously, the egos that fuck it all up, as time passes, the drifting away that occurs like it does, others who come along and appear before us, and the potential thriving lover happiness once there is gone, perhaps till another day, perhaps not ever, our thinking that we live forever and don’t, at the end of life, wishing we had of and did not.
heaven is constantly of wise mature fearless certainty love devoid of doubt oneness sameness of our own divine true real self pure flawless constant connectedness with the divine true real self of another.
‘that’ is my mental power wisdom i know won’t change, where it is others who are the lessor immature subconscious seeking, are they not?
i may not be 100% capable of ever feeling as physically healthy as i once did, hoping this acute infection phase will end soon, my mornings that i feel the best, of afternoons and evenings seeing weariness take over like it yet does…….it sucks, but i do understand i am in a physical phase, keeping optimistic, addressing my physical health approach……
compatibility is extensive in the areas of physical, mental, emotional, sexual, spiritual
i am confident as we speak that we would be purely compatible, knowing time together would give us the chance to come fully into realizing this, of time apart to each day lending to the others who may approach as our dream of being together fades away and forever gone……
and yet, i will always know purely in the heart mind body spirit and soul of my divine true real self that i constantly am the compatible one you seek, of fearlessness to explore fully the truth i constantly already flawless am within, knowing that won’t change for me, as one who does constantly always discerningly knows what heaven is, easily so, by means of what heaven is not.
what’s that ABBA song again, “Take a Chance on ‘me’?
ok, these two brutalize the ABBA song, but i admire their fearless spiritedness they are of in running towards their fearless fun future oneness they obviously enjoy with each other
if you change your mind, i am the first in line Biyatch!
uhm……..not sure if you realize it or not, but i think that my last move puts you in ‘check mate’, does it not?
your move……
MOVE DAMN IT!!!!!!!!!!!
LOL
i think this is where you sexually frustratingly throw all the chess pieces off the table onto the floor, in your wise surrender conceeding that there is no point in playing any more, climbing over the table in reaching out to hold onto me forever more, tired of holding back your constant desire to fuck me all this time?
………..just wondering
lol
i will be there for you if you decide you want 2, ok?
made ya smile
your turn
uhm…………is that close enough for you Biyatch?
i WILL BE there
i promise
and already i am there
i know love when i feel love, like i always have for you, knowing i always will, no matter what you ever do in life, as one who does purely know you like you know ‘me’
and i always yearn to feel my love for you so pure and true
ya sure, at times i get beside myself, frustrated like i do……..normal
i am addressing our issues directly, fearlessly, am i not, trying to assist you in overcoming your own fears, yes?
oh just say YES!!!!!!!!
i know you want 2
a simple question
do you want always to feel the magical inner holy joyful pure flawless inner happiness you feel like you do, of a constant skip in your step every blessed day, what the divine true real child of God’s self constantly always knows of their inner love devoid of doubt knowingness certainty of what heaven constantly is for us?
i do
i am BE CAUSE we R!
just say it Biyatch!
i do!!!!!!!!!!!!
SAY IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol
i have fears too at times, like how my body is aging, and yet i think i can improve it with targeted exercising, something i am not 100% of right now
perhaps i could follow your exercise routine………oh wait…………probably not a good idea, as we would keep interrupting one another sexually, unable to finish our routines………..actually, that sounds fun!
always loved that damn bench press i wish someone would do me on!
hey, you could be the first Biyatch!
saving it all for you Biyatch!
so if you need me, let me know
it’s not a matter of doing my very best when already i am the best!
why would i ever want to let go of what heaven constantly is?
where even if i ever try to let go, it is not really possible, in letting go of my own divine self true nature as a bisexual transgender.
i am without doubt of this, unlike the arguementive immature ones of their false insincerity with their own divine true real self.
which is not ever to say i am not purely of both my female and male sexual versatile self
i am a versatile bisexual transgender bender seeking same
forget all the right things to say overthinking stuckness when it comes to your own happiness first……..where if of concern for my own happiness the same as yours, we both know our happiness is dependant on the oneness fun of the two loving lovers we both are, either together, or with another, for sure, we will both be of our own individual lover happiness as one’s who do have healthy sex drives like we do.
if now is not the right time, well, i don’t feel there is such thing as a right time when it comes to lovers who constantly love one another ALL the time.
so it is our inner fear that keeps us apart, keeps us seperated from our constant yearning to constantly 100% WHOLLY BE our divine self inner happiness of the two lovers we always are too, does it not?
if not now, then when?
if not now, then likely not ever?
and that is what i feel we both are grappling with
why not spend some time with ‘me’?
i am rather calm in my at ease pure graceful true self like your own, of preferredness to BE, which is compatible for you, is it not?
only bi experiencing ‘me’ are you ever able to conclude the truth you ponder.
as for insecurities, well, jump in a hot tub with me, turn out the lights, some soft music, a gentle breeze, and in the dark, make your way towards ‘me’ so easy to find
and with our first tender tantilzing touch so amazing the feeling of two bodies gracefully floating together, all your insexurities will disappear, of hearts racing, the flawless trueness desires, the oh so unavoidable sensational tantilizing feelings of what exclusively is of the lovers we always r.
personally, i have a body image complex, always did, not so much now as i did as a teen, but i still do, and it is cause for my insecurity at times…….normal………why i need sex to remind me daily of how perfect i always am. 😉
lol
as long as we are together
~ what heaven is
keep on keeping it 2gather! 😉
i WILL BE there……..you merely ever need say where
and in truth, i always am there where i know we all purely flawless constantly always r
in the kingdom of heaven we all enter flawlessly as we yet all purely are within, the divine child of God’s heart mind body spirit and soul of the eternal all you
bless you all-ways Biyatch! 😉
so ya, mentally, emotionally, sexually, spiritually i am as close to you as you are with your own self……….where physically i am not where i constantly yearn to BE, of the physical you i am 2.
so stumble over yourself forever and a day, a week, a year……….ya, i could wait another year i suppose if i have to, questioning it all the while, where i cannot assure you that i won’t become involved with another by then………lackluster zeal is lackluster zeal, is it not?
why don’t you take time out and spend a few hours with me and find out how comfortable i am 2 BE around? uhm?
what are you waiting for?
the return of Jesus to this fucked up world?
actually, the eternal pure true feelings of Jesus don’t change from then till now, nor from now thru all eternity.
pure is pure
true is true
does not change
i noticed this about Jesus, that there is no time contraint between then and now, where i purely entered into this flawless spiritual meditative connectedness in real time acknowledgement presence of the living feeling Jesus then who purely knew his feelings the same as us all across all time.
the presence of Jesus is one that does span across all time, because the feelings are pure and true oneness sameness of everyone of us, much like how one drinks water, or how one feels sunshine on our skin, our feelings feel the same, where we merely are not always feeling the same thing at the same time all the time.
Just as Jesus knows we all feel the same feelings the same way he does, so too do i, and purely at our subconscious core is the eternal unavoidable truth that we all do, why some well done heart felt movie productions do well in moving us all within.
our purely is of oneness feeling at the same time, where we all constantly yearn to be, in harmonious oneness trueness of our divine self atonement connectedness within, the same atonement with another.
at times i wonder what your pure feeling concern is of me as regards the unfolding future of where you may or may not want to be in my life, where already we are in each other’s blessed life.
i merely want to explore us more, because i do feel a pure compatibility potential with you that could be of exceeding happiness in every passing moment for us both, as best friends lovers, not just highly respectful of one another, no, purely respectful of one another of the only respect suitable for divine self of another, pure respect that can only come from our divine self love devoid of doubt, as though we are purely always knowing the other person to the extent we purely know our own self.
awareness atonement wisdom in what Jesus constantly is, merely a wise meditative adult child of many years of divine self study feelings, at all times, no different than our own.
for sure, not some mystical fanciful obviousness of merchant of God mentality, no, something beyond all measure, constant, pure, flawless, sincere, authentic, genuine, true, real, loving, compassionate, wise, divine……………YOU
bless you all
now how did i leave that word out?
our ‘SEX’ purely is of oneness feeling at the same time
Jesus is actually alot closer than most people are aware, where it is their unawareness disconnectedness masking egos in seperating them from their own pure flawless feeling true real self that prevents that, yes?
Jesus said it best, “Forgive them God, for they know not what they do.”
ain’t ‘that’ is the truth
the divine self is intuitively emotionally wise when born, however, lacking divine self spiritual teachers in the world, leaves the divine self to experience the unwise forefather taught suppressive egos like it obviously does, no matter who you may think you are, of a world government leader, a businessman or woman, a pope, does not matter who any of you are, past present future, oppression suppression of our divine flawless child of God within us all, is exactly and evidently just that, suppressive oppressiveness of our divine self flawless feeling real self, sadly unattended, bound in captivity by so many forefather deathful destructive oppressive FALSE teachings that do lead many into death(suicide), lead many into destruction(alcoholism, drug abuse), and oppression(religious churches against homosexuality)
and make sure you get this fuckers, the statistical evidence is gathered daily on homosexuals who do have the highest rate of suicide in the world, because of the forefather generationally taught so many of you who are the DAILY OPPRESSION of so many of us who are loyal and true as our fearless divine self like Jesus constantly was and is.
of course, us wiser ones of the LGBT community see purely right thru you lying ass miserable oppressive immature fuckheads in all your childish name calling and finger pointing, but the one who troubles me the most, is one who God’s calls apon to be of divine wisdom for sake of the world, the Pope, who continues to be of direct oppression on homosexuals thruout the world.
truly i tell you, if i were one day able to stand before him with a gun to his head, the gun would go off if he did not move foreward with my request of God to stop the horrific deadly destructive oppression of every single homosexual the world over, one tenth fuckers, of the entire population of the world, ok?
make no mistake, the Pope will be executed in a public place one day as we rise up in numbers, by someone who 100% purely wisely sees the evil in the heart of the Pope who is not of God’s wisdom like he boasts to the world like he is.
he and his evil followers are of falsehood evil teachings that i feel are the direct link to the homosexuals having the highest rate of suicide in the world.
it won’t be me who kills the Pope one day, but i am certain someone like me will, of enough evil oppression is enough.
the Pope is not one who purely embraces our long standing phsychology in the world, so why is the Catholic church allowed to be in our country?
do we knowingly allow Islamic terrorist groups to teach in our counrty?
no
the Pope is a terrorist group towards every homosexual the world over, and when our 1 Billion people do rise up as we are doing, the clashing with the Vatican will be far greater than anything of ancient Rome, and there will be blood, where already, there is our blood as a result of them, is there not?
vile
and utterly stupid
that is what the Vatican is
who’s days are numbered, and they are feeling the shift of our numbers rising up, in stepping away from the Vatican
that will continue thruout the world until such a day as the Vatican is finally ruled against as an unwelcomed terrorist organization, the truth of what it really really is
and a stupid one at that
the Pope thinks he can spiritual hide from my truthful eyes of God’s omnipotent powers, not knowing he cannot, not ever, not even for one second.
and if the Pope trembles in fear of one who purely is of God in approaching him, well, he needs to question why i am approaching his wrong doing we will continue to rise up against like we do thruout the world.
the LGBT bond is the purity love bond of Jesus, Mary and God, beyond the Vatican, why the Vatican will either change, or become what they already are, evil failures to God’s divine children, themselves the merchants of God they know not they truly are in their hearts, bound by ancient forefather group mentality to this day, of forefathers who did not know God, claiming they did and yet do.
the early church sided with the Roman Empire, that’s right fuckers, the Roman Catholic Church, killing Jesus and his followers, for three hundred years after Jesus was slain by them, stealing the teachings of Jesus, in creating a bible, an interpretation of Jesus, which is not inclusive of all the teachings of Jesus, as we are not discovering in clay jars burried in the ancient, hidden away by devote followers to Jesus, of monks who were being chased by this fucked Roman Empire shit for brains group called the Vatican.
they are spiritual death for the LGBT family, historically, currently, and in the future, where they are the spiritual death false evil they spu.
so i ask can i kill that which is already spiritually dead, or how do i destroy satan?
easily
simply forget them
where we remember and celebrate love
where we do not remember and celebrate evil
just as the world is doing daily in trying to outrun evil terrorism in the world, moving quickly in education of the youth against false stupid terrorism, so too are moving away from the Vatican
i cannot protect the Pope from his own choice of evil teachings, just as i cannot and would not protect the Pope from the evil he creates that will come to him one day……….’that’ is what the Pope can count on, his coming face to face with his own created dark evil one day, who will take him down without hesitation.
i don’t wish this apon anyone, but part of me, if placed in a position to kill the Pope, i likely would.
mentally though, i know the Vatican is already of the spiritual death evil dead they spu forth into the world.
someone will likely kill the Pope, as our numbers increase daily, what he can look forward to one day
if anything, i am wisely warning the Pope of the inevitable, am i not?
ah, so it was Madonna who helped free the gay couple from a 14 year prison sentence.
bravo!
helped free them from the clutches of the Vatican, did she not?
helped free them from the unwise hateful apathetic world, did she not?
saying thank you, well, i am not the one who should be thanking her, they should be the ones.
although i do thank Madonna for being on our side, purely in her heart i know Madonna is LGBT family, without doubt.
thank you Madonna, for helping us all feel abit more free from death, destruction and oppression of the unwise hateful apathetic world we all walk in, as did Jesus, the same as today.
bless you all
watched Sandra in the film called DARE
gee, i wonder where they came up with that name? not!
an interesting film for me, of what i feel is beyond our sex, as regards our divine self subconscious seeking of pure bonding with another of either sex, for sure, relationship(s) are only as healthy as the physical mental emotional sexual spiritual well of the individuals in the relationship(s)
pure bonding is rooted in our earliest childhood, before we are born actually, of the harmoniousness bliss of the womb core of our being constant subconscious seeking of pure trusting unchanging pure love devoid of doubt core of our being bonding in oneness sameness with what is the core of our being exact sameness in others.
sense of belonging, call the bonding subconscious intuitive constant seeking of the pure inner knowing divine self within us all whatever you want, it all revolves around the constant truth of the core of our being pure harmonious intuitive beginning that begins before the moment of conception, does it not?
i mean what occurs at the moment of conception?
is it not the pure harmonious primal innate constant knowingness nature of the male sperm and the female egg to come together in anticipation of each other?
is not this same pure harmonious primal innate constant nature of the cells of our parents that reproduces it’s own celled self, beyond our thinking, of the hardwired celled creature we all are?
apparently it is, according to the various language speaking humans from around the planet that have come up thru the mellenia the exact same way, across all time, of the hardwired human being, exactly the same across all varieties of the human being.
so no matter what anyone thinks, what is constantly of everyone, is the constant harmoniousness within our bodies of every single cell working together in primal innate ingrained hardwired pure knowingness of how to replicate it’s own self eternally.
kinda remarkable when you think about the eternal reproducing capability of any living species on the planet, that not even our the universe is able to continue forever, as the atoms are burned off in the form of the energy the all life is sustained by.
so where is our primal innate eternal reproduction capability source from, if not the everntual dying universe?
and why is it that our cells are not able to replicate forever the same way we actually do replicate ourselves forever?
a mystery
butt here is what is not a mystery
i love sex!
we all love sex!
we all should love sex if we don’t!
so without doubt, i know this constant of my own self, know this constant of you, know this constant of everyone, past present future
what i don’t know, is when you want to have sex, other than i know it is daily, butt what of having sex with ‘me’?
well, if not me, then fine, i am the same as anyone else physically………just watch out for the not so healthy ones, ok?
ok
enjoy your blessed day
well ok, maybe i am not the same physically, clue!….a good thing! 😉
not the same mental well being
not the same emotional well being
not the same sexual well being
not the same spiritual well being
and yet we all phycially, mentally, emotionally, sexuall, spiritually are the functionally the same, are we not?
well ok, excluding the 95% dysfunctional to one degree or another ones…………
that’s right fuckers, 95% of us come from unhealthy dysfucntional families to one extent or another on the spectrum, all of the affect/effect handed down thru mellenia, of one obviously fucked up world out there, of the dangers of death, destruction and oppression daily.
as remarkably perfect as we are as eternal reproducing creatures, why is the world so fucked up?
the forefather teachings morons, that so many of you do not purely see and feel the reality of your own bound in captivity darkness like i constantly do everywhere i look, i am discerningly constantly always there in awareness.
i am optimistic in the knowledge of the true nature of us all, as is God, or whatever life force entity may have created us, of true joyfulness i feel flowing forth thru many of you, of exactly what is of the greatest value one shall ever find, holy joyful absolute carefree happiness of life itself, the same flowing mirroring light that evokingly awakens the true self of another in humble coming forth in humiliation awareness from behind the false forefather ego masks the many of you choose to defensively falsely hide behind, your own divine self unknowingly unattended to, not anyone’s fault, the obviousness of it all………..
blame the forefathers
i do
just don’t expect me to enjoy being around the many harsh bitter false egotisms that many of you seemingly yet enjoy, or so you think you do, forgetful of your pure true playful fun at ease graceful self, of who i truly am, of who i likewise truly seek, of who likewise truly seeks ‘me’
with who i am most in oneness compatible happiness with, someone like ‘me’, of choice to remain so free, in Just BEing my SELF.
so how do you find ‘me’?
well, it requires earnest sincere authentic genuine diligent determined devoted dedicated fearlessness to first know your own true SELF in order to fearlessly BE your own true SELF oneness with true SELF of another.
do you truly know you like i do?
do you truly want to know you like i do?
i do 2!
listen to all your lies and all your stories
whatever
who the fuck are you?
besides a mindfucking ego jerk off with nothing better to do than be of the transference of your own immaturity of self uncertainty into a conversation?
obviously
so many of you of spiritual death immaturity, leading only yourself fearfully away from pure grounded centering in being your own real self.
you don’t specify exactly what you deem is a lie to you, so how can one have a conversation with you?
oh, i get it, your false ego self is attempting to having a humble genuine conversation with your own self
ok, sorry, carry on
perhaps i should stay with those who are purely loving and accepting of me in leaving behind you immature ones?
perhaps i already have along time ago, attempting to enlighten some of you?
perhaps i should just forget the lot of you and go be my holy joyful absolute carefree happiness wisely set free for all to you along the sidelines to purely see what it is like to Just BE ‘me’?
i mean who the fuck wants or needs the immature uncertainty so many of us easily left behind?
do you truly enjoy being your fuckhead ego uncertainty you spu forth?
in the hopes of attracting who?
oh, im sorry, i am attempting to speak with one who is yet bound in captivity with the group mentality bitter lost hypocrisy heart transference crowd who actually do relish in their own foul smelling shit
ya ok, well have fun with that jerks, while i go enjoy pure happiness in fearlessly BEing the at ease relaxed ‘me’
and thanks for wasting my sacred precious time and everyone else’s sacred precious time with your mindless shit of blind leading the blind darkness of the empty nothingness nowhere you come from in unwisely approaching ‘me’, thinking like a fool you are wise in your fool heartedness finger pointing transference attempt.
what was it Jesus said?
oh ya, don’t waste time with those who toss your precious divine self words apon a pile of shit attempt in making the words worthless, of those who yet remain as they are, bound in their foul stench mindfuck ego captivity.
you are either interested in purely knowing ‘me’ in order to purely love ‘me’, or you are not
remain as you are if you must
i have no more time for you immature mindfuck ones.
get fearlessly real as i constantly am or fuck off
and you may want to be careful when it comes to pissing all over a divine child of God’s divine self wisdom, for sake of your own divine self plodding along aimlessly into the mindless unwise foul stenching ego disaster you turn towards in obviously becoming and remaining as you are………without ‘me’
not even for one more second do i wish to stomach the likes of the empty nothingness you spu forth haphazardly like you CHOOSE to do, generalizing everything i say as though a lie, that you want others to embrace as false
spritual death fuckheads listen!
your deathful destructive oppressive path betrays your own self and self of others
unforgivable
how can God forgive willful enjoyment of evil hypocrisy heart you take delight in spuing forth apon others as though it is ok?
well, if i choose not ever to return here in your fuckhead conversations, then you are already dead to me, are you not?
i choose not to ever return here
why bother?
always the same annoying mindfuck i have come to know, over and over again and again, spinning of wheels wasting of my precious time, of others who do appreciate coming fully in knowing their divine self as my own
so fuck off and die the spiritual death you already are………deathful destructive oppression to ‘me’ and the many others exactly like ‘me’
go speak with Jesus
go speak with Mary
go speak with God
and then with fearlessness courage as your divine self come and speak with ‘me’, without your mindfuck immature shit for brains foul stench emptineness horrid ego that i purely despise
ok?
thank you
jerks
so many of you are these cowardice fuckheads in approaching ‘me’, as though i am not worthy of even a friendship, as though the sacred words of Jesus i speak are as though nothing, when in truth it is your foul stench mindfuck cowardice ego that is nothing to ‘me’
i see alot of you cyber bully childish ones on the net, who have nothing better to do than go around pissing all over others, smelling up the place with their shit for brains death, destruction and empty nothing oppression wasting of everyone’s time.
who is bound in self inflicted stupic captivity? uhm?
like why waste your own time and other’s time in saying absurd none specific falsity malice ill refute intentional words you cast around like you do? uhm?
so as to cause injuring to ‘me’?
who are the ones you cause injury to?
your own children, do you not?
i have purely had it with you mindfuck immature jerk offs to last several life times!
get and stay the fuck away from ‘me’!
i assure you, i WILL NOT return for more of the same, of the instruction of Jesus NOT to.
got it?
fuck off and die
oh, im sorry, you of the foul stench deathful destructive oppressive spiritually dead you unwisely turn towards, of the same cowardice immature childish hearts as those bound by group mentality in coming up to Jesus on the cross the second day, laughing and spitting apon him, while Mary and those who purely love Jesus, purely realized their wise oneness hearts with Jesus apon the cross, in that moment, of the obvious truth of all you sadly snared by the unloving unwise apathetic horrid generational spiritual death false egos so many of you yet choose to remain as……….obviously
casting only your own divine self away from purely knowing and constantly being the love devoid of doubt oneness kingdom of heaven sameness with Jesus, Mary and God.
blind foul stench fools
once and for ALL, get and stay the fuck away from ‘me’ with your foul ignorant stench that Jesus, Mary, God and i purely despise!
you do not realize, nor desire to purely realize, that the darkness you unwisely turn towards in BEcoming, serves the purely wise divine child of God’s heart mind body spirit and soul of eternal all………AT ALL TIMES!
where no one can become victorious over the wise divine child of God’s pure of heart discerning wisdom
where it is always of unwisely foolish attempt to make others believe your empty foolishness that leads to where?
that’s right!
no where!
of all your foolish empty untruthfulness exists, you will not find ‘me’………Biyatches!
these fucking unmoderated blogs suck!
and so do the owners of the unmoderated blogs, who like those of illful shit for brains mentality, think it is ok of jerk offs to bash the fuck out of us
well people, i have had enough now, ok?
how is pure divine self able to thrive in these horrid non conducive mind fuck unmoderated blogs of childish immature jerks being allowed to come into intellectual conversations and piss all over the intellectuals?
truly, you fuckheads are are as those of willful drunken desire to come up Jesus at a dinner table, and willfully with hypocrisy heart delight……piss on the table and on Jesus.
i hand you all over to God in letting God deal with you now.
i won’t waste one second of my time any more with this blog that consistently has jerk offs allowed to come in here and spu their mind fuck shit
and you owners of the unmoderated blogs are of the same lot as these falsity malice mindfuck bashers
like grow the fuck up everyone!
some of us choose to live a gay lifestyle
some of us choose to live a lesbian lifestyle
some of us choose to live a bisexual lifestyle
some of us choose to live a transsexual lifestyle
i choose to live all four as a versatile bisexual transsexual
twenty fucking years beyond you childish immature shit for brains fuckheads!
fuck off!
my favorite picture of all time, is of a female carrying a sign that says, “I love my transsexual boyfriend!”
gee, i wonder who the transsexual boyfriend is?
fuck off Biyatches!
you are all fucking immature to ‘me’!
why is it the fuckheads wish to paint us as they want to see us and not as we actually are?
kinda obvious why………..they are fucking immature!
i invite everyone to the pure mature place i am
of my life long self-awareness mature knowingness that exceeds them
and what do i put up with fucking daily?
empty fucking nothingness jerkoffs who take delight in pissing on ‘me’!
well, that’s your choice to remain as you are, in what you yet turn towards, immaturity i already transistioned thru.
fuck, you people use fake fucking cowardice names, like why the fuck would i even want you as a friend?
cowardice fuckhead friends who cannot even use their own name, much less hold my fucking hand!
oh, like i need more asshole friends like that around ‘me’!
i have truly fucking had it with you jerks!
ok?
so go fuck off with who ever, and don’t bother looking for my ever returning to this unmoderated blog again!
i won’t be back for more of the same immature mindfucking!
it is NOT ok for me to continue on here in letting any of you think it is ok for any of you to bash a versatile bisexual transsexual!
not now!
not ever!
i was the mature one all this time!
i came across the street, knowing i would get bashed
and still, you fuckheads keep on pissing on ‘me’!
ya, well go and enjoy your immaturity with immature others you think you enjoy and don’t, ok?
i have fucking had enough of all of you!
fucking decades of it!
like why would you not realize how many fucking years of immature others i have grown to despise in your being just like them? uhm?
do you think i fucking enjoy it?
i don’t!
so go your own fucking way Biyatches!
im tired of you all!
i want need think and feel as mature ones like ‘me’
where i cannot and WILL NOT settle for less!
come and hold my fucking hand some day cowards!
when you get over your cowardice using of false names, ok?
in the mean time, i am going to let mature others hold my hand from now on
bashing is bashing
a useless immature mindfuck!
so grow the fuck up someday, ok?
cya
you are not even a friend, much less a potential lover
here is the truth ok?
you cannot be the lover i am when you don’t want 2!
end of conversation Biyatches!
so go waste someone else’s time like you enjoy wasting mine
i have tolerated enough of you immature childish cowards who think you know what you are talking about and so obviously don’t, of willful minimizing slamming those who clearly do
i can only be with those who are purely constantly loving 100% accepting of ‘me’, a versatile bisexual transsexual, the most mature sexuality awareness of us all, eternal truth of everyone!
morons
correction
boring as fuck morons!
it is the immature all you who are of all lying ass true 100% unacceptance of ‘me’
so fuck off, ok?
i am purely open to my female friends as a vesatile bisexual transsexual, where many of my female and male bisexual friends DO 100% accept ‘me’
so where does that leave you fuckheads?
that’s right, in the immature world you yet run with, and not with ‘me’
where it is not possible for ‘me’ to ever feel purely comfortable around the yet immature unaccepting crowd.
so grow up, or stay clear of ‘me’, where you need not worry, i will easily turn away from that which i purely despise………..childish boring as fuck immature ones
i know you won’t make constact with me in the real world, in your continued cowardice ways, so i won’t bother thinking about it any more, ok?
it has been a long enough confirmation for ‘me’ that you don’t want to, as evident you don’t even care enough to moderate protect ‘me’ from the jerkoffs!
ok?
as i said, come hold my hand in the real world, once you overcome your cowardice mentality, ok?
not to worry, i won’t be holding my breath in moving on with mature others, so this is goodbye for ‘me’, as i have come to dread this immature stuck fucked blog in you people thinking i needed your immaturity all this time and did not, where it was you who needed my maturity you turn from as evident by the obvious immaturity you yet are and choose to remain as.
grow the fuck up someday, ok?
thanks, but no thanks, been around long enough to know who is mature and who is not, why wait around for more the fucking same shit for brains mind fucking you enjoy?
fuck this fuck this and fuck this, i won’t allow myself any more of it
ever find yourself in a room full of jerkoffs, where you find it difficult to breath in your loathing of every single one of them?
ya, i get that alot
fucking shitheads who bore the fuck out me
GOOD Girls go the HEAVEN
BAD Girls go to LONDON
SMART Girls follow the LOVE
STALK 🙂
Lot’s Love
LOVE
oh you again……….
heaven is not some distant place we go to after we die
heaven is a state of being, a wise state of being self-awareness, like the self-awareness of just how fucking perfect our total body orgasms are!
heaven
all around us
for all
of all
eternal past present future
fucking stupid how these religious morons teach heaven is a place we go to after we die
while we all fucking swim in the spiritual death mindfuck absurdness of death destruction oppression of the same blind leading the blind as these babbling idiot religious ones who cannot even masturbate properly
goodness of heart is goodness of heart of the divine self flawless healing pure wholeness feeling the divine self wisely turn towards, away from following the badness shit for brains egocentric obvious mindfuckers who really really are fucking babbling idiots in the wise omnipotent eyes of God’s wise divine children set free from their horrid dark captivity unwiseness perpetuation of sorrow pain death destruction oppression, not only of others, of their own divine self…………..and they do it unknowingly as to the full extent of just how foul smelling their shit for brains stench really really is………as i leave the room.
some you cannot even have a conversation with, that leaves me frustrated in realizing the generational ignorance wall that seems to pervade with most anyone i try to have an intellectual conversation with, of macro thinking fearless free expanding exploration in self-awareness.
they plod along like these preprogramed robotic nimrods, as i question, what is their cognitive divine motivation empowerment purposeFULLness they think about?
does not exist for many
such simpltons really
annoying
so i ask them
ever have experience a total body anal orgasm?
no?
oh really, so you are telling ‘me’ of all people who has enjoy my total body anal orgasms for decades that you have not had one, don’t know anything at all about what many of us enjoy, and yet you speak against us as though you do know what you are talking about?
oh really now?
well, i think it is perfectly clear and obvious who is the less wise here, of all those like ‘me’ you speak harshly and horridly against that you know nothing about, speaking lke so many of you do, as though you do……….
anyway……….
London?
and just who are you stalking in London?
do you dress as a girl or a boy?
i like the really effeminate purely sensitive femboys like myself, where if you even look at them the wrong way, we instantly shred you like no one else can.
admittedly, i am obviously bad for that………
an anal retention thing i think………or maybe the oppositie, a small penis that does not work at all for me frustration thing?
ya, that’s my problem
and i have known about it a longggggg time……….
maybe Mike’s big penis i admired so much as a teen really did set the course for how i yet feel frustrated………i was thinking, if the male penis grows one inch every ten years, and Mike’s penis was ten inches at age 16, then at age 46 now, his penis would be………..gulp…………11 fucking inches long, a fucking baseball bat……….can you imagine………..argh………..i can………….ya, maybe that is what i keep on in avoidance of, of how much i really really do want Mike to fuck me after all these years………….a fantasy that does not seem to ever fade away………his smiling face everytime i go to see him………knowing full well what he knows i know of just how perfect that dick of his is………….i should call him, yes?
oh, you call him and invite him to a big ass party full of really hot sissy boys and dominatrix perfect ass hot females, without him knowing i am there somewhere, secretly spying on his latent homosexuality he so badly wants like he so badly always wanted to fuck my ass!
that kinda bad?
butt that ain’t bad
bad for some people i suppose
as in how badly they really need to overcome their lameass annoying fears and either fuck my ass or let me fuck theirs………..or ideally, BE like ‘me’………..VERSATILE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
does not get better than versatile Biyatches!
does not get better than ‘me’!
so keep all your anal retentive sexually frustrated fears to ya self in your secret masturbation transistion Biyatches!
mama ain’t got no time to waste any more, at the end of my life exiting of this sadly unwise anal retentive small dick moron world……….
learn to love my ass, and i will let you love ‘me’
and vice versa, i will love you
uhm……..i am doing a hot hot hot sexy sexy sexy perfect ass erotic outfit that i think kicks Alexanders ass in anything he ever created, albeit, Alexander is the inspiration.
i approach the design from my own view point of what a perfect ass purely erotic sissy ass fearlessly perfectly well adjucted daily fucking combination of a delicate effeminate gay boy and a hard body ‘don’t fuck with me lesbian female looks like………what their fearless mood looks and feels like in their wisely having to walk among so many morons, in a sorta combat ready mode, able to love your ass one second, able to kick your ass the next………evoking fearlessness others need to step into within themselves, of the raw angst i recall having so deeply when i first hit the scene, living and breathing angst 24/7 like some i see yet do.
i have mellowed over the years, a preferredness in not having to contend with any of the morons, where this is mostly me acting for me, and yet not really acting, of residual angst that is yet there within, especially for the youth i know are out there struggling within in allowing the morons to even remotely trouble them in any way, still finding their own feet in getting purely centered and grounded in their own sexual happiness, without fear of what anyone thinks, finding that compatible lover ment for them and they for them……….
over the top battle hardened fearless fierce and obvious pure inner happiness beaming brightly all rolled into one, with a futuristic feel in the design and materials.
still cannot decide on which wig to where yet………if any……
may have some Asian Budda influence in it, embracing of the largest minority group here in TO.
is it a boy or is it a girl? pure fierce kick you in the fucking head androgenous look………..my bisexuality angst
this one is dedicated to Alexander, sadly missed
what a moron……….what was he drunk out of his fucking mind and on drugs or something?
have not followed up on the story……………pisses me off
i saw his last collection…………a celebration of pure delicate stunning beauty of the female body!
went shopping yesterday, or should i say my female self took my male self shopping?…………and she found these sissy ass pink and blue flowered shorts with a Nazi prisoner uniform stripe……..of a small gasp i always let out when ever i see something pure prefectly meant for ‘me’, that most any would be too afraid to wear, that for me is a feeling of, “This is how i dress in my world, constantly of expressing how i purely feel.” ~ atonement
and of course the outfit will be one of self-expression exploration purely within of how i have come to feel about you, of an obvious mixture of both frustration and certainty within of approaching my bisexual transexual inner happiness yet held back oppression, not lost, no, a knowingness, but of a frustration that comes from having to walk in a world that does not see what i see, the female of the male, the male of the female………..why does androgenous perk everyone’s interest? uhm?
emos attempt to know this well within, so an emo feel for sure is the main theme………you will just have to wait like everyone else, Pride rule, no one gets to see the finished outfit till Pride Day Biyatches!
i will say this though…………it kicks everyone’s fucking ass, for those of you who like getting your ass kicked and fucked!
fuckers!
lol
your so mean to me 😦
but I forgive you
I always do
cause i’m just a nice guy
whats an anal orgasm ? sound foreign
greek ..
how am i mean to you in Just BEing my lovable SELF?
please try to BE specific in addressing issues of the heart.
what is an anal orgasm?
something David and i would of come to learn and love with one another, had we had sexually educated parents back in the 1970s, where today i knew i was completely in love with David’s heart mind body spirit and soul of the oneness happiness we constantly always were of, seemingly inseperable of one another, meant for each other of heaven surround, the happiest two souls one could ever behold.
i remember the day of him and a new girlfriend, his obvious inner happiness love still shining brightly for and of ‘me’, wondering to myself how i wished it was me David was kissing instead of her, the shooting star they saw together without me…………i was supposed to be the one holding his hand, and kissing his lips, not her, so sad inside it made me cry 😉
a wholeness surrendered feeling of constantly knowing the love you have for someone, in realizing you will always feel this way for another, joyFULLy when they too are as you……..
what to do?
Just BE yOUR SELF!
and if one who is obviously meant for you comes along, you will know the constant wholeness flawless feeling so pure of forever endure……..
i remember the day i was walking with David of a beautiful day, the two of us climbing rocks at the local quarry like we always did, the pure constant feeling that came over me of how much i was purely drawn to David, utterly and completely, so intimately strong i felt in wanting to hug and kiss him, not knowing what i know today of what was happening to me in entering puberty.
i was not happier in life than when i David and i were together for those endless summer days and nights at the beach, the flawless wholeness feelings of no desire to be anywhere else than with him, the obviousness of our oneness fun love and laughter we constantly were of.
how to return to the happiness of that person i know i yet am within, when inundated by those of the lessor uncertainty pervading between us?
somedays i don’t know why you say the things you say
like today
anal orgasm is everything to ‘me’ Biyatches!
are you for real that you don’t know what i have always known in who i purely am, sexually speaking?
i thought you felt the same way as ‘me’
am i wrong in assuming this like i do?
is this is the reality check damper i need to hear in coming fully into awareness of the wholeness i prefer of inner happiness pure deligth enjoyment is of my desire to imagine that you don’t feel as i do?
what to do?
nothing here for ‘me’?
i should of kissed David endlessly llke i wanted 2
i should of kissed Mike endlessly like i wanted 2
i should of kissed you endlessly like i wanted 2
when love is true within, in showing them how i feel, i revealing to them likewise the pure wholeness oneness constant love feeling they 2 were afraid to feel as i was……….
a question………
“HOW THE FUCK CAN I KISS YOU OVER A FUCKING BLOG BIYATCHES?!!!!!!!!!”
and no, the pure flawless wholeness feelings are not my over active imagination like i was then and yet purely am within………..albeit my overly active imagination i yet have of Mike somedays when another is fucking ‘me’ into total body shuddering anal orgasmic heaven!
you cannot love the wholeness ‘me’ so long as you choose to turn away from the wholeness love i constantly yearn to feel when of my thoughts of love that is true, true of ‘me’, i can see, within, yes, i am there, without care, of constant stare, waiting for your truth and dare like my own.
greek?
no i am not fucking Greek, i am a half breed of blue blood Danish and blue blood English, with a mix of Black somewhere way back in my mom’s side of the family ancestry.
who are you?
what do you really really want need think and feel we both are running 2 in life, with each other or another?
why do you toss uncertainty in the air between us
forgive ‘me’ for the wholeness heaven love of my own ass?
huh?
like what the fuck are you talking about?
David is dead
Troy too
and Mike is happy with a loving family of four beautiful kids…………or at least i pray he is happy in his choice of of a life without ‘me’
can we please stop this immature nonsense that shatters my dream of us?
or are you fucking someone else now
oh, go ahead, carry on with whoever, still the same distance as always of no one there, why should i care?
do you care about your own happiness?
what exactly is your own happiness i know so well of my own?
i need a lover who is as mature as i am, purely tuned into the oneness i 2 turn towards,,,,,,,,,,not the pervading uncertainty stuckness held apart………..God knows how long i did that one as regards David, Troy and Mike……………a pipe dream where Mike is concerned, where i was always the one calling him in chasing him………till the day i stopped………..
i should stop where you are concerned too, yes?
one moment i feel whole, the next i feel ripped in half by your words that lead to nowhere, that leave me hanging onto a dream where seemingly i am the only one dreaming the oneness dream
obvious the frustration all this time manifesting like it does time and time again……….
so tell me before i turn and go, what exactly do you want need think and feel about ‘me’, of any longing to BE the oneness wholeness like i know, in which way to go, with you or without you, together or apart, does it really matter to you how much i love to fart?
LOL
you are such a fucking Biyatch, you know that?
stuckness uncertainty is not health for either of us
i know my own phycical mental emotional sexual spiritual true real SELF WELL!
oh, go play in London if that is truly what you want………
give me some piece of mind closure in what is true of you
for sake of ‘me’
for sake of you
for sake of all
please
thank you
bless you always
i want need think feel to hear the truth of words with ‘me’ from now on, or go our seperate ways in life, ok?
ya whatever, we will both be around somewhere, say hi to one another now and then, blah blah blah……….
this is our chance to speak clearly and directly as our true real self wholeness of either coming together or going our seperate ways………perhaps i was the only one of fearlessness to kiss you, to have sex with you, forever and ever, no concern of where or when so long as i always feel the wholeness surrendered flawless pure certainty feeling i constantly yearn to always feel and BE of only love devoid of doubt, what heaven constantly is…………
so say what your true real self has to say, maturely, respectfully, for sake of your own inner happiness, for sake of my inner happiness, in what direction you are purely turned towards as i am………….simple……….the truth.
i need to hear that now.
enough of this lame stuckness, ok?
either move forward in a oneness direction of friends and only friends, or as freinds and lovers, you decide, let me know, as i have to go, cannot stay somewhere i like this stuckness blogging, that does not address getting my wants and needs met on a consistent basis like lovers lovingly do.
i ask this for sake of happiness of us both, and others
please
let’s end this once and for all
friends and or lovers?
what do you wholly purely constantly want of ‘me’?
i am not going to play this spin your wheels forever and day nowhere empty suffering and pain isolation
it is not healthy for anyone over a long duration
and i am not going to do it any more
in turning my sights to others of genuine real life approach holding my hand, kissing, you know, ordinary REAL!
ok?
thanks
think about it
i mean really think about it
if you really really love someone with everything you are, you know this within, and you move with confidence towards them while they are yet there standing in front of you, or risk lossing them to another.
happiness in real life
not a fucking blog!
fuck, on and on with this hollow empty longing of a place that just causes me to feel horrid isolation day after day after day………….my own fault for participating in staying stuck all this time.
no more, ok?
let’s end this in moving toward where you want need think and feel your true real self constantly yearns to BE of wholeness oneness love devoid of doubt with each other or another, ok?
bless you
i really don’t want to keep on with this wondering any more, in getting my needs met with someone.
so please be a friend in telling me you just want to be friends
i am 46 years old, ok, i think i am mature enough to handle rejection.
rejection as regards what, well, you will have to figure that one out on your own, either with me or without me, time to move in one direction or another.
closure
it’s time
i have to go
with someone
is that someone the true real you?
if you still want to play the field, hey, that’s fine, i can handle hearing that, all things considered
it is purely fair at this point that you speak with clarity and directiness with my own true real self, so i can get back to my constant yearning to BE of the wholeness oneness i speak of and have come to know purely within for a truly long time, have i not?
friends is fine, i think i have pretty much revealed my maturity in wisely BEing ‘that’, have i not?
how else can i ever get back into my wholeness oneness constant love connectedness inner happiness purely BEing with a loving lover, if i keep holding out for someone who may have been only of my desire and not yours?
and when you toss in uncertainty words of anal sex, well, that pretty much does it for ‘me’, if that really really is where you are at in your sexual maturity?
a tease?
a play on words?
what’s the point of it?
a waste of precious time that leaves another hanging
i want and need closure for sake of my well BEing and yours, for sake of the all
happiness is a sacred mirror for ‘me’, that i have spoke on endlessly for sometime, yes?
well, this stuckness at a blog is not my wholeness happiness true real loving lover life of holding hands, hugging, kissing of endless summer days and nights, allowing myself to be held back from where i constantly yearn to BE how i purely feel within
nor can anyone
it sucks, ok?
ya sure, friends is fine, blah blah blah, whatever
does nothing for the crucial getting my wants and needs met………unhealthy
just decide and let me know, ok?
of that part of me that already knows………..but to do this blogging even one more minute………….no fucking way!
this is not happiness
loving happiness of lovers is a door you have to surrender in stepping thru purely with them at each other’s side, where only by means of BEing together are the two lovers ever able to purely come fully into BEing the constant oneness flawless loving lover love devoid of doubt feelings shining brightly within where ever they go for all the world to joyFULLy see and BE what heaven constantly obviously is of the loving lovers who know what truly is beyond all measure, of the greatest treasure that exists of heaven purely found.
we make choices in life to walk past or step thru these doors with other lovers we meet along blessed lover’s road
i don’t regret my decisions in life, and yet a part of me will always wonder just how happy David and i may have been, given a healthier wiser conducive world for us, or how happy Mike and i may have been, or Troy and i
the oneness door is the same door for two lovers to step into the future with, of certainty they come to purely feel and know within both their hearts of how their true real self is feeling in fearlessly wisely surrendering to where the divine self constantly intuitively always purely knows what heaven constantly is, of what is the core of everyone’s BEing, the same light we all came from while in the womb, always it is there within us all, always the pure holy joyful absolute carefree inner happiness is of constant yearning to fearless BE allowed OUT to Just BE yOUR SELF!
at the end of life, you have only your own divine self of fearful or fearless choices the divne self of us all make for sake of our divine self happiness, in a world that is not as conducive and wisely healthy as it could BE for so many of us, of us wiser ones who greatly came to know and learn the truth of this unwise world we are all born into, not knowing at first that the world really really is bound in captivity by the forefather generational taboo ignorances handed down thru mellenia, at all times, it is the same world Jesus walked in, and yet, great has there been so many of us who BEcame wise in our loving LGBT lover lifestyles, knowing at all times, without hesitation, the struggle so many yet are of that we all came thru in coming out to our friends, our family, our coworkers, fearlessly setting our pure wholeness happiness inner spirit free from the clutches of the mad flood generational binding ignorances yet there.
i am one such individual
thank you for taking time to purely attentively assuredly knowingly wisely listening to your own divine true real SELF as my own
bless you all
forever more
what is the world?
at all times, it is one big fucking soap opera everywhere you go, if you ask ‘me’!
lol
i don’t live a in fantasy life
rather,
a fantasy life lives in ‘me’
i want and need to hear a simple YES or NO from the true real you.
i think you have had enough time to evalutate us after all this time.
to continue on like this is to risk us both falling away to others that comes from our natural occuring desire in getting our needs met with others.
i am not going to entertain this isolation blogging with you any further.
isolation truly sucks!
us trannies are famous for it as the worse isolationists on the planet in what is our intolerance of unwise unaccepting others.
and for you to ask what anal orgasm is?
uhm……….just who the fuck did you think you were talking to all this time anyway? uhm?
oh, i get it, one of your annoying mental mind games on issues i have explored since puberty, some 35 years for fuck sakes! Longer actually, if you go all the way back to when i was five and the fetish i had with my rainbow colored Light Bright Pegs that i was sticking everywhere else but on the board!
LOL
hmmmm……..maybe that’s where the rainbow flag idea came from………always wondered about why the rainbow colored flag……….
fucking morons!
i am surrounded by a bunch of afraid anal retentive fucking morons asking stupid questions they already know the answer 2!
waste any more of my precious time fuckers, i don’t think so!
i give you one last day for your true self to speak with clarity of your true real self feelings, or i go catch up with more mature ones, and leave off with you as only friends.
wise boundaries
one of us has to set them
i will stop by here later this evening to feel what your divine true real self has to say, ok?
and if i don’t purely feel your oneness love as i do my own, well, let’s just say, i will know what i already know
did you know, people fucking STUPIDLY kill themselves over isolation immature afraid unhealthy mindfuck stuckness like this, in not getting their wants and needs met healthily?
trust ‘me’, we are wisely going to go one direction or another for both our sakes, and others, after today, towards a healthy future.
i have to go
my future awaits
meet ‘me’ there, or don’t
i know without doubt, someone’s WILL
what is an anal orgasm?
oh nothing really……………..just what heaven constantly is for ‘me’ Biyatches!
ever see those straight boys on occassion who drunkenly waunder into our ghetto street hangouts at three am in the morning sometimes, as they stand there unaware of where they are fucking standing with all the sissy ass boys and their perfect asses hanging out, the titty girl boys showing off their new breasts, the drag queens no longer afraid to smudge their lipstick, shows over, kissing the fuck out of their suitcase lugging boy toys, as they just stand there taking it all in, totally fucking oblivious to where they are?
and then!!!!!!!!!!
gasp!!!!!!!
they see a girl who sorta(read: inner homoerotic hopefully) looks abit like a guy, kinda difficult to see, drunk and all and at night, kissing some hot guy, as they wonder over to chat them up, and omg, she talks like a guy, it is a guy, oh wow! this is so fucking amazing, i always wanted to have sex with a guy, too afraid to admit it to myself(what’s really happening inside), as they stumble backwards into the street and get hit by a fucking bus………….
lol
what is an anal orgasm?
i have no idea!
you like my new nails?
do you know how fucking long it took me to stop fucking biting them since i was a teen in letting them grow like this?
fuck
30 fucking years!
and still i get fucking nervous from time to time(read: the anal retentive fucktards), and start fucking biting them again, gee i wonder why? not!
fuck
you either love ‘me’ or you don’t, where i always know the truth, even if of every fucking one of you who hides from your own self as my own.
fuck
i have to go
the only thing you are interested in is pissing me off, knowing my sexual frustration like you clearly do, and for what? uhm?
so i eventually go jump off that fucking bridge?
so i eventually go jump of that fucking building?
so i eventually go and fucking hang myself like Alexander did?
i don’t fucking think so fuckers!
you are the one’s who need ‘me’
got it?
ok
let ‘me’ know
what i already know
since i was fucking born according to Jesus and God
and that fucking Lite Bright peg board game my parents gave me…………….you know, i even took those fucking pegs with me into class in grade fucking one! I remember sitting there doing what i loved doing!
hmmmm………maybe my babysitter did fuck with me, i don’t know, i don’t remember it, other than i know he was fucking with me at the age of three
fine, right me off fuckers!
and see who is the happier of us all
i am way fucking healthier than most of you even care to realize.
one of us is lying?
is my female self lying?
or is my male self lying?
neither one is lying!
nope
they are both fearlessly unafraid in constantly BEing who they both have sexually evolved as, respectfull of each other in not surrendering to just one sexual orientation, when in truth, they are all sexual orientations, purely and truly.
however, that does not necessarily hold true for the lessor evolved lovers on blessed lover road OUT there…
let’s see, sexually i have evolved in sexual awareness of………..
my male self loves sex with a femaleor with the female of a male
and my female self loves sex with a male or with the male of a female.
that makes me versatile
ideally with a hermaphrodite lover, yes?
am i a hermaphrodite lover?
yes i am
i can compromise and have, with an equally mature versatile an alpha male dominatrix female
or a versatile femboy, so long as they have a right penis…………with no compromising there Biyatches!
i am fearlessly in charge now in taking action with my life left to live MY way!
you either love ‘me’, or you don’t
where i am not waiting around here on this fucking street corner for any of you to make up your fucking mind if you love your anal fucking orgasms!
fuck
that has got to be the stupidest question of the fucking century!
likely BE CAUSE it is!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol
well thanks for taking time out to feel thru what you want to purely express……….
i said to the lesbian standing there,” i need to go have a conversation with my dominatrix girlfriend.”
she says, “Is there any other conversation to have?”
i said, “You are soooooooo correct!!!!!!!”
well ok, you know ‘me’
and it is not fair that i have to wait around for when you decide on a right time, when all the time IS THE FUCKING RIGHT TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”
got it?
ok, i am glad we are have clarity on ‘that’
i am out entertaining my daugthers, their own worse enemies of life not yet lived as my own………
they feel my stature, they know i really really am the wiser when i take time to speak with them
do they listen?
not really
i say to them, where are you standing?
look around you
see that sissyass gayboy in the doorway?
where are you?
you are in your own heart, are you not?
i hang out in a lesbian gay club now, a mixed comfortable open minded crowd, were it is obvious we all admire one another, and the conversations? WELL, everything from who got a free sex change thru whatever organization to “it is penis shape, not penis size that matters!”
i stroll thru the streets, wondering where you are tonight
get this, i waunder into this fucking club for the first time, a lesbian bisexual gay clientele club, and guess who is fucking playing on the big screen?
fucking ABBA!
fuck
cannot get away from you!
so why don’t you take time and purely tell me WHY this is a good thing? uhm?
if love is true, we are about to find out just how true it purely is, and i want you to know, without a ‘real’ friendship as a starting point, there is no starting point.
we have both been ‘that’
but the truth is, blogging is not the happiness we constantly yearn for, and won’t ever BE
stuckness
i am merely wisely addressing stuckness
i want and need the same thing we all do
knowing you do too
knowing you do 2!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol
BIYATCH!!!!!!!!!!!!
im going back to my daughters
Mika of all people is in the crowd
fuck, he still looks as hot as ever and still as fucked up as ever…..sadly
i know he needs my precious time well spent
we all do, of each other, every blessed day
what makes a blessed day blessed, does it not?
happiness
what is happiness to you?
those who are true?
i am true
i purely know at all times i am
world’s collide as i wonder if anyone is cogintive of their needs BEing met as the most important issue in life?
I cannot stand LADY GAGA
monotone talent less mole
some one
shoot her drug fucked brains
no, what you really are saying is……
i cannot stand LADY GAGA i want to have sex with so badly like i have all this time, of here looking around realizing where she is standing among those who came before her, who is obviously yet afraid of her true real tender self, mascarading around as though fearless, not aware she appears clueless like immature ones obviously do, till they settle in, find their true real self feet, the noise many are of when they first hit the scene like they do, the false hype drug induced zombies trying to come out of their fucked up dysfunctional isolation shell of needs not being met, the cycle pattern self-medicating coping behaviour that destructively oppressively and sometimes deathfully derails their precious life consumed by the bottom feeders who feed on them in perpuation of the false hype, when all any of us really really need…………
is to first of all BE FEARLESSLY TRUE with and as your real self wants and needs that have to get met on a regular consistent basis, and that means no to the dysfunctional ones who are lost and irresponsible in not taking ownership of what is THEIR ISSUES, not yours, who remain as they are in cycle pattern learned behavioral they pick up along the way, where we do feel their dysfuction directly when we get overly involved with them………does not make them bad people, no, not at all, perfectly normal actually, according to where society as a whole has evolved to, it just makes them intolerable lovers and friends for our own higher functioning healthier true real self to be around, of the choices we made for our own true real self path all this time in making healthy choices regarding our physical mental emotional sexual spiritual well being, where obviously others are yet of their own worse enemy stuckness plodding along aimlessly haphazardly following the dim light of the unhealthy others like they do, ending badly for some, remaining badly for some time for others, free and clear for those like our own healthier choices self like some of us have and do……….of a healthier higher functioning happier true life
so you are attracked to Lady Gaga are you?
abit young and fool hearty don’tcha think?
i have always noticed the older generation ahead of me over the decades, who are the calmer mellow confident ones of a long learning life like we are of now, all the obvious mistakes the younger ones make, seemingly oblivious to the bottom feeders all around them suck them into learning self-medication coping as though a something cool, as though something necessary if you want to fit in……….
who the fuck wants to fit into dysfunctional lovers and friends who eventually sometimes die, end up in hosptital, end up in jail, with years and years of recovery undoing that has a horrible ‘poor – nil’ prognosis of successful recovery during the first five years of a ‘Recovery Program’ for those who actively do enter one, of no recovery for those who do not………..and the drugs today, fuck, so bad out there, where now they are lacing pretty much everything with Chrystal Meth now, into the other drugs the youth are getting into.
it’s all a fucking lie!
all you need is the healthy high functioning natural physcal mental emotional sexual spiritual self-confident you without the horrible side winding false effect of stimulants, waking each blessed day to feeling perfect, at ease, calm cool collected, maybe a cup of tea, the tender true real self of another from the night before of all night sex you both love with one another, in coming fully into knowing the true real self of our masturbation sessions with each other, fearlessly of communication with each other of what you like, what works for you, what works for them, compatible mutual self-loving, and oh look, we are all pretty much the same oneness wholeness feeling divine true real self, beyond the hype, beyond the distructive deathful oppressive bottom feeder jerkoffs who are equally as stupid as those who follow the crowd into oblivion
there are no accidents why they die, why they sly, why they ply, why they leave without goodbye
why we should all hang our heads and purely cry for those who we know purely are as our own self, sadly unaware of the clutches of the beast of ignorance around their precious precious life, steadily growing worse over time like some of them do.
i stand up for them when others treat them like fucking shit
like i did Mika last night………..a bouncer saying to him, move along box boy, in not letting him in………my saying to the idiot bouncer, “Who the fuck are you? How long have you been on the scene? A week? A month? uhm? Do you know who i am? No you do not! You cannot speak to gay youth like that in your openly bashing them in their own fucking ghetto!”
i was yelling, making a scene, knowing i was the wiser more intelligent one, in the hearts of all who were there listening, to a veteran who writes columns in the local gay rags….of a constant validation of the true real self oneness i know i am with everyone within who i know is constantly there.
at times, it is an inner stuggle to remain above the nimrod mentalities pervading, so i take time out in my necessary meditation self-actualization, that keeps ‘me’ centered and grounded in my true real self…….
well ok, so you are attracked to females……..
that’s great!
and i purely relate as one who is just like you, attracked to females
what to do?
wisely, maturely, lovingly, fearlessly follow your own inner light awareness of what happiness is for YOU
i cannot do this for any of you, you have to come fully into your own awareness as i have over many years along blessed lover’s road
i will say this though, the oneness light we all look for is the same inner happiness lover delight light flawless pure feeling, no matter what orientation you learn to enjoy and love BEing the most.
just BE sure you take time OUT to purely come fully surrendered in knowing exactly what orientation your true real self lover is happiest…….fearlessly!
your self-lover happiness depends on you fearlessly admitting to your own self the truth of which orientation is the most intense flawless in feeling for you
and don’t be afraid either, as there are so many of us now along blessed lover’s road who have come out of our closets, millions of us worldwide now, all looking for YOU
bless you all
i am wearing a bisexual transsexual bubblegum pink and blue satin flowing outfit this year, so amazing!
the pants are like Madonna’s Girly Show clown pants, one meter round pant legs, one leg of bubblegum pink, one leg of bubblegum blue, transsexual and bisexual colors.
the top has bisexual purple, not quite the bisexual Deep Lavender color of #734F96, a more deep purple, that for me is of our gay history purple color that was used to represent gay before the rainbow pride came along
and the bisexual pink and blue are my choice of transexual pink and blue, rather than the true bisexual Magenta pink and Royal blue
this outfit is going to kick ass, with the happy free flowing of the soft bubblegum pink and blue satin pants walking joyFULLy in transexual bisexual self-confidence representation for all transsexuals and bisexuals………who i know purely am……….and my obvious happiness will shine thru this year of my most recent transsexual bisexual awareness exploration for all to feel within as i do………..inner fearless self-confident happiness
has some angst to it, with the use of spike leather defensive bracelets, for all those out there being bullied to relate to, evoke their inner need to become the fearlessness i am and have become, as will they
hey, i think that is fantastic, your love of females!
does this mean i will get my breast implants soon?
……..just wondering………..OUT LOUD!!!!!!!!!
Biyatch!
why do i love you so much?
you should see these huge bubblegum pink and blue transsexual color diamond shape glass gems i found
they are two inches across, the shape of a huge diamond, of the transsexual colors
could not believe i stumbled apon these things while OUT shopping materials for this years Transsexual Bisexual Pride Day outfit yet in production.
i love love love this outfit so much, of a truly effeminate boy who knows he really really is a girl at heart, physically, mentally, emotionally, sexually, spiritually
a somewhat tragic story of a life transition to watch all this time like i have, of a girl as though held prisoner without permission to exist in life, now allowed out to go shop for anything effeminate.
who is she most like?
honestly, i don’t know
she loves the delicate purity of Mary’s constant flowing flawless tender love in oneness with Jesus, of an unceasing wise awareness offering of flowers to us all, in knowing our hearts better than we know our own self.
the transexual Pride outfit outfit is covered in bubblegum pink and blue crystal flowers, of holy joyful bright dancing of sunlight at all times.
i suppose you could say, i am most like a fearless butch Lesbian who loves the female and the female of the male, as ‘that’ of my own self?
fearlessly! 😉
and for all you jealous penis envy butch Lesbians OUT there, as a female who has decide to keep here male parts!
gee, i wonder why?
NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
if you love a female as though your own self, how can one best sexually please the female?
i get the best of both worlds in BEing the female in a male body, able to truly love the female i am as they are within
perfect!
now if i can just find someone like ‘me’……………fuck!
you know, the female dominatrix really really is still my favorite wise choice!
maybe because i am the dominatrix female with feel real fuctioning male parts?
we are all beautiful, no matter who we are.
i said to someone last night, “Always remember the truth, that no matter who you are, your body shape, how old you may be getting(my own complex), your ass still feels exactly the same as everyone else’s ass when it comes to getting fucked!”
they all laughed
BE Cause………..it is the truth!
same goes for female and male body orgasms
i really do believe the female and male brain sex body orgasms feel identical for the female or male individual
and we cannot prove this, where a male cannot simply jump out of their male body into a female body
however, i am 100% convinced the feeling is identical
so just how different have we generationally allowed ourselves to think we are different?
we are not different at all
although admittedly, as a size queen, we are abit different 😉
bless you
in truth, we are all a physical replica of one and the exact same wise emotional sexual spiritual human BEing of the BEgining thru eternal (end)
our loving lover sex reveals the truth of our oneness sameness constant love devoid of doubt heavenly place we don’t want to ever leave like we flawless feel while having sex with another.
and what do all our generational false indifferences do?
falsely keep us away and seperated from heaven’s oneness love devoid of doubt constant flawless feeling TRUTH that our sex purely reveals to us, feelings so pure, so bright, as though eternal day light unable to ever set.
for sure, Jesus was having sex
who with is anyone’s guess
remember, it was a severly oppressed time period not so different in our recent past and present, where homosexuality was thought of as a mental illness, where homosexuality still deems execution in some parts of the world, yet of the very lands Jesus walked in.
i know Jesus was having homoerotic feelings, just as any of us do, where Jesus actually appears more as a wise closeted transsexual than heterosexual, of transsexuals who are the ones able to feel the wiser truth, hiding, but not really hiding, of a oneness light so bright that one cannot wisely see the one who is holy joyfully actually there before us, wisely aware we are all the same within, wisely aware we do not purely realize the awareness of the evolved adult child Jesus, of Jesus knowing this at all times, even of those who falsely claim (other)wise, Jesus always knows, a wise devoted meditative monk of exceeding self-awareness.
enjoy your loving oneness sex everyone!
i do
and if not with ‘me’, well, just who do you think you are with, if not ‘me’ of another who is just like ‘me’ of all thee?
i know
truly i know
outward happiness shining eternally bright, originates from our inner happiness, even while of whatever plight, your inner happiness is always there within all of you, where happiness is the pure flawless love devoid of doubt ONEness true nature of the divine true real self of the eternal all YOU
blessings to all
nope i dont like LAdy Gaga one bit, who sings lyrics like that !
“I want your ugly, I want your disease”
she got a responsibility as an Artist with so many young fans who are easily influenced so subliminally influencing them by saying I want your disease is not on.. its a clinically know fact that many young adults in this harsh world are searching to belong & many deliberately go out and get infected with HIV so they can belong to a group or feel like the belong so to encourage them is undermining all the hard work and money people have contributed to safe sex education and awareness bi yatch ….
I don’t like her, all she does is copy, what trying to emulate Madonna and be controversial instead being reversal she’s a dark soul, I can see and she is dangerous …
Rant over ….
Like I’ve said before It ain’t over till the fat lady sings & since Mariah cannot sing it’ll never be over LOL 😉
where’s Madonna gone ? come back the world needs you 😉
ok AnDy so you need some advise on how to please a female ?? what you turning straight ? or into Gay lesbian btm boy girl either way does’nt MATTer, easy just use a gentle touch and apply a little preasure at the right spot LOL 🙂
mind you, I do like Debra Harry she’s what 65 this year & still recording music to entertain her fans & touring still as well good on her admiration for all the hard work so yer I might go see her perform I think she’s heading this way soon so i’ll support her…. be nice to listen to the new material ….
As for Jesus well yer he did wear a big white robe/dress didn’t he maybe he was a big poof but then wasn’t he fucking Mary Mag horny toad wasn’t she a hooker ? she must have been good in bed, only the best for Jesus ey !!
what of the wiser evolved adult child Jesus of his true real self mirroring in approaching Mary the prostitute?
is not the prostitute mentality a false survival mask?
i would say since Jesus constantly knew his pure flawless true real self, he was able to know the true real self of Mary, of anyone.
so what did Mary see and feel in Jesus what Jesus constantly knew and was?
love devoid of doubt flawless healing pure feeling
heaven
i know you are of the wise meditative knowingness of love devoid of doubt sacred mirror, so why do you go off on these tangents in a smire campaign of Mary, when in truth, most any in the world is of some form of survival mask, that is not who the divine true real self of any of us is?
personally, i cannot have sex with anyone i don’t love, like all the flaky false ego ones with their nose high in the air.
some have tryed to catch me, but they are too keyed up in their own annoying egos
and if sex for both the female and the male sex feels exactly the same in our brain sex activity oneness pleasure, then it is likely Jesus and Mary were having sex, in what is also of what constitutes for the wise adult child Jesus to speak of the false indifferences both the female and male may have, where Jesus not only was of defense for his female lover previous prostitue he obviously loved, the male followers of Jesus often jealous over how much time and his kissing of Mary all the time, Jesus, like any of us today, was without doubt, aware of the horrid dominant ways of the yet dominant sexist males towards females, of their stoning to death of females for adultery, as yet of today as then, for sure, Jesus depises sexism, which is without doubt…………indicative of the effeminate Jesus.
was Jesus having sex with males?
for sure Jesus was of awareness of his heteroerotic and homoerotic feelings, where it is absurd to think otherwise, just as most any of us entertain our heteroerotic and homoerotic feelings, to what extent this led Jesus to have sex with others, well, i would say for sure, 100%, Jesus gave way to the coming on of Mary at some point, of a sexual relationship that may have started out with her survival mode mask in approaching Jesus, only to fall in love with Jesus, and maybe Jesus had a perfect penis too that was of greater ease for Mary’s orgasmic achievement on a consistent basis?
i do know prostitutes are really fussy selective about who the enjoy having sex with in their spare time, away from their clients, where most any prostitutes are exceedingly fearless in embracing their own bodily sexual enjoyment, joyfully, just add some wine, with Jesus and Mary alone, well, it is more that they were sexual, than they were not sexual.
and why does Jesus speak of making the female not female and the male not male?
this question is without doubt, of the higher subtle intellect awareness, where i still ponder the exact meaning of this that obviously stems from the despising angst towards sexism Jesus is obviously of.
Jesus is out there, meditatively speaking, in a pure higher subtle intellect awareness away from the world, in making sense of the behaviorals he witnessed, compared to his true divine real self nature he was constantly of atonement awareness of.
well said
la différence qu’il y a entre vous et moi c’est que vous vous êtes payé pour faire ce baratin !
Madonna,
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no entiendo nada de lo q se dice.pero solo decir q me encanta madonnna!!para mi…no exixtira jamas nadie q la iguale!!ella es ESPECIAL y no habra otra tan DIVINA CM ELLA!!!UN BESAZO MUY GRANDE.
I will always love you and hope you will never give up on me because I know I will not give up on us. I miss knowing you are around. sometimes I feel so lost and lonely but still keep the faith. that is what keeps me going. You are the only person that can shock me with your presence.. it is like I can feel you when you are around. I hope you love me as much as I know I do. XOXO, O 🙂
speaking of being psychic, could not of said it better myself, truly truly from and of the true ‘real’ self you
blessed you
opening the door to our constant pure flowing divine true ‘real’ self is like that of a wise master who delves deep deep into their own higher subtle intellect subconscious, which is what is the divine true real self, your subconscious self of tens of thousands of times more mentally powerful than the empty void of the unfeeling unthinking masks we seem to be of constant developing sorta shift changling masks………
oneness love of two is what is of the divine true ‘real’ self subconscious constant yearning, not so much of any effort to do so, no, rather is purely of the core of being natural occuring harmoniousness of every single celled creature oneness sameness of the beginning exact same replication of our earliest mellenia ago, no different thru the all eternal future.
fearlessly embracing one’s own higher subtle intellect is what meditation master monks do, of why when we read of the higher subtle intellect awareness writtings of monks in the world, our pure divine real(subconscious) self purely flawlessly does feel the oneness as do the monks, as though the monks, yes?
Jesus was one such monk master teacher student of his own higher subtle intellect subconscious flowing opening awakening awareness self……fearlessly.
there is no fear whatsoever in the chemical communication between the cells of our body, an absurdness insatiable arguementive person who thinks that there is
we not only all are of the constant yearning oneness seeking core of our being subconscious the same as the beginning thru all eternity yet to come, indeed, ‘that’ is who we all really really are within, purely, flawlessly, natural occuring, not of need to wear a mask, where when we do come together, our defense mechanism created walls become disarmed, as a sigh of relief comes over us in our awareness that indeed someone does feel the way we feel, someone does constantly yearn to love us the way we all constantly yearn to, all 100% not just an extension of the harmonious true nature of every cell in our body, no, it is who you actually really really purely constantly always are
the younger a person is, the more obvious it is to see how they are in closeness to the harmonious peaceful graceful unafraid true nature wholeness oneness they naturally are in their presence
as we journey thru our survival life, which is actually what is of anyone in life, everyone of survival primal brain instinct no different really from our ancestrial past innately ingrained survival mode, we become of many many masks we wear, of whatever career game face we chose to put on, and perhaps what may elude us in thinking we can change the hearts and minds of the world, in truth, these wearing of masks are actually an not just an extension of the primal brain survival mode, it is the primal brain at work seemingly unable to change from it’s survival of the fittest mode like society obviously clearly does, seemingly slow in growing inner concern for anyone else other than our offspring, when in truth, every human being is an exact replica of you, of eternal oneness sameness biologically speaking, mental ability speaking, emotionally speaking, feeling are feelings, the same for everyone, sexually speaking, perhaps more so than we realize, of not just all males feeling the same sexually, indeed, the brain sex pleasure of the male and female may be identical, and spiritually speaking, although i don’t really like the word spiritual, in attempt to discribe what may be beyond our cognitive awareness awakening of something beyond this universe that none of us no why or what is of this realm of existence we all are born into for a short time and leave all too soon.
when i lost the lover of my life Troy, it opened wide my higher subtle intellect awareness, becoming fully alert awake, something i realized when i felt the crushing blow of not ever seeing his beautiful face again, not ever kissing his kissable lips again, not ever enjoying the amazing sex we loved so much together like we did, where in truth, Troys tragic death means blessed cognitive awakening life of my subconscious divine true real self, that has vast mental powers most are not aware we all have.
you are obviously one such fearless awakening individual Otilia, in your truthful unpretentious expressing like you do
bless you Otilia
we all feel the way you do 2
as regards what may actually be happening in accordance to a possible channeling of a divine omnipresent life force alien entity(God) in the universe that may actually exist, seeing how truly truly vastly complex our bodies are, our own technology no where near able to replicate the complexity of our powerful powerful super computer brain, well, i have not ruled out the possibility that God exist, preferring instead to think that an alien entity may be of an invisible monitoring of us all in real time somewhere, an invisible realm of some sorts, or many invisible realms we know do actually exist, such as dark matter gravitational forces we know are there, but we cannot see it or understand why or how it exists…….it just does.
time is running out for all of us of our blessed lives to live, and the more one can live in constant blessed pure flawless graceful harmonious loving oneness of two, the more healthy we appear in life of our constant yearning divine true real self holy joyful absolute carefree happiness shining radiant brilliant brightly, of the entire eternal future feeling the mirroring holy blessed light shining from us, constantly to and thru one another, of what actually truly truly is an eternal oneness harmonious light, as evident in that it does awaken our divine true self into awareness like it does and continues to do
the master monk Jesus not only came to know this well in his devoted studies he lovingly compassionately wisely surrendered his life like to understanding of the higher subtle(subconscous) intellect self-awareness………….he became FULLY cognitively awake subconscious real self, seemingly devoid of need or desire for foul tasting masks he expresses in how one can shed of ‘old self’ developed defense mechanism masks.
it’s all perfectly natural occuring what happens in life with everyone of us, not a shameful thing, no, natural occuring, rather, one needs to ask where one is purely most at ease in awakening awareness to fearlessly be their calm at ease true nature, which even with the masking defense mechanism occuring like they do, we actually subconsciously eventually do find our place of rest most comfortable environments we all constantly yearningly seek, as though likeness of rapid flowing water naturally comes to rest in calm peaceful state.
it is fascinating to see how individuals such as the wealthy do come into at ease calm relaxed environmental settings, that most any are of seemingly envious of, which is a shortsighted word discription of the hypocrisy heart use, where in truth, it is just our natural pure state of the core of our being celled bodies wholeness oneness………..of everyone, past present eternal future.
and perhaps that is why it is seemingly unable for the wealthy to come into harmonious constant at ease peaceful state with those of the harsh survival mode who while they yearn to be of what the wealthy already know, the nervous nimrod twits, speaking of myself hear, seem unable to stand fucking still!
i fucking hate myself somedays for this………….but at least i do attempt to understand my own divine real self who is constantly yearning to find a place of constant inner peaceful loving existence………….which is what is of my manifestation frustration behavioural abreaction that i have not yet found the environment with a lover, and yet i have found it within, as a devoted monk master/student
the greatest teacher is also a student, in humble oneness ability connecting with others.
Jesus was constantly a humble student of a seemingly invisible life force alien entity(God) Jesus has a one to one personal open dialoge relationship with, and i do believe this, although i question what category this may fall into of our psychological understandings, knowing full well, it was a place in the world in history not much different than today, hellish survival
the same can easily be said of Jesus, as an individual operating from his subconsious primal brain survival mode, and yet, Jesus was not a merchant of God priority in expressing what most any of us purely flawlessly do feel what Jesus calls the kingdom of heaven, being in love constant flowing surrenderness to our divine true real self constant yearning true nature denied like most any of us continue to do, most of the world still of the survival mode
robotic advancing technologies are such today that in a distant time in the future, there will not be need for capitalism markets, of vast wealth that will come when we harness the mind blowing power of the sun, as i discribed once before of a solar collector sphere that surrounds the sun
with vast prosperity comes the wealth peaceful environments for any one’s inner peace to thrive and grow in, bringing an end to all the bullshit absurd falsehood generationally teaching violence and oppression of the true nature of every single one of us.
we already know today, the behavioural results when we can take anyone and put them in a healthy positive environment we all constantly subconscious yearningly seek.
alarming for sure is how i yet am, but normal considering the environments i came thru
responsibility to others of the eternal ALL becomes obvious in pure compassionate flowing observation healing feelings to you artists of the wealthy positive environments in sacred evoking mirroring of those you love and adore like you do, where it is obvious the maturity of such one can easily see and feel of subtle calm cool collected motivating empowering inspiring likes of Madonna, Sting, U2, Elton John, compared to the somewhat aimless immature yonger one’s coming on line, in likeness of a kid sitting down to play a set of drums for the first time
and no, i am not mentioning any names like Gaga, just sayin what i see and feel in my sanctuary observation post
oppssss………oh whatever Gaga!
if anyone is sexually emotionally spiritually frustrated, it is Gaga!
in a purely good way, as with anyone running from past oppressed poverty environments do to calm wealth environments, kinda interesting to see this unfolding in the likes of Gaga yet transitioning……….
my approach with Madonna was not just for sake of her and my own self all these years, no, rather of a compassionate concern awareness observation we both are maturely aware in over many decades of the life path we both walked on as brother and sister, family, all these years now
the same question, where are we leading our own divine self and divine self of others to?
well, love of course
constant flowing flawless healing loving oneness of two sacred mirroring awakening divine healing holy joyful absolute carefree eternal light that we know does shine into the eternal future of the eternal ALL constantly always right there, ahead of their time as some refer in saying, the same place everyone is running to find and discover deep deep within their own self-awareness actualization awakening that in truth, is actually going to subconsciously continue as it has before we entered into this world, no matter what any choose to do in devoted works, but what i do question is what may in fact BE the kingdom of heaven Jesus speaks of so openly, so constantly for so many years like he did
well, like you Otilia, i constantly yearn to feel and be loved and loving, not just of sexuality, the wholeness package of heart mind body spirit and soul healing healthy positive well being
for sake of me first of course, of constant yearning happiness, and spiritual mentally aware of the sacred mirroring Jesus speaks of, myself as a humble student to the truth of our humanitarian effort outcomes, that may be more eluding than we realize, if in fact the kingdom of heaven is merely that which is obvious to see, merely that of the FULL potential macro thinking mental power of our brain’s cognitive discerning processing divine self-awareness nurturing healing protective wisdom perspective ability
Jesus was a healer, but not in ways i think most yet realize in their yet shortsighted state of awakening awareness they are at………
i have written a book on it over many decades now, adding to it daily, the new insight higher subtle intellect awarenesses i come into knowing of my own self, which have growingly served me all this time in my growing self confidence, so much so it is at though i have left the planet behind and jumped into a future that is as though thousands of centuries from now, mentally, emotionally, sexually, spiritually speaking
not to sound as though boasting, no, not at all, just my humble student ever curious inner sanctuary of study that belongs exclusively to me to dwell in so to speak……..
hey, you wanna go on a date sometime Otilia?
we can talk endlessly on ways to nurture heal and protect Madonna, and who knows, maybe the kingdom of heaven Jesus found really really does exist!
does for ‘me’
and those of constantly heavenly passionate ten inch cock lover’s bliss!
did i just say that
hmmm……my top is showing
maybe my top is the happier lover self, been pondering that alot these past few years, as i did suppress my top for nearly two decades…………
a versatile i think is the ultimate, where both my top and bottom can happily co-exist……..
ok, versatile it is!
that’s my final answer
well ok, i confess………i found the kingdom of heaven perspective
in truth, i am BEcoming of the kingdom of heaven divine self-awareness wisdom oneness perspective of Jesus Mary and God
and i have been diligently a devoted student of it since i was a kid, which i still am within, of the same wisely divinely protected pure spirit i always was when born, thanks to Jesus Mary and God
any questions?
i want to marry Madonna too, sensing her pure loving true real self spirit like my own, thinking to myself, well how else is one able to purely know her true real self loving spirit unless of course, oh, my own spirit is of oneness likeness blessed form as her own…………according to my studies with Jesus Mary and God in the eternal classroom the eternal all dwell of within
i want to surrender to one lover exclusively, provided they too feel purely 100% to love me 2 like i do………
we all do
some haphazard in their selection, heat of the moment, and while there has been some pretty spectacular heated moments that sometimes lasted all night long, well, i did not fall in love with any of them since i lost Troy………..sadly, it’s true
i mean i love them all, but…………..not purely like i have recently come to feel of Madonna’s powerful positive well healed self, which i feel she knows more than any of us do, perhaps of her own secret devoted inner sanctuary divine self study similar to my own………oh ya, our own, all of us of the subconscious constant processing………….
you know, everyone’s life is as though that of a MadMax character of getting beatup along life’s road, all of us abit scared, tatter around the edges, some more so than others……..not a bad thing, a truly fascinating realm of study actually……….
and then there are the beautiful youth, unfortunately dump as fuck, fickle as fuck, seemingly not grounded in anything of substance, where i don’t allow myself to get involved with anyone under 35 now, respectful of my self first, and the youth second, who naturally gravitate to their own inner and outer beauty………..some are truly truly so beautiful, as though a perfect flower one would always want to behold, but to hold them, forget it, beyond what is valuable to them and our own self, an eternal friendship for sake of everyone, family
i love love love them, truly i do, but they have small penises that cannot keep mama happy, so i am wisely maturely no more of that self denial oppression path, as much as they may come to absolutely fucking love mama’s big ass penis, mama has her needs babies, so stop with the hitting on me and FORGET IT BIYATCHES, OK? lol
see, im not as stupid as i look……….
thanks Otilia, you are fucking amazing!
i have to get going
enjoy your blessed day
we only get so many of them
and give it some thought about what i said, as you seem rather maturely intellegent………fearlessly i might add, of your protected pure fearless loving heart as though my own
bless bless bless bless you
while many of us may indeed truly love Madonna enough to marry her, for sake of her happiness like our own, what matters is that she come to truly love and adore someone in likeness like we do her, of her true real self constant flowing loving feelings each day of holy joyful absolute carefree inner happiness shining non-stop like the non-stop dancing spirit she is inside that she has shared with all of us, for sake of us she knows better than perhaps we do……….
yep! i’ve just added a link to your blog! very funny!
ya, well, if you keep spinning and dancing around like that, you may fall down and hurt your SELF…….and stop stepping on my feet, with plenty of room for your own………and mine too.
ha
i was talking to a female in passing, during pride, of what i know as the single most not talked about issue in the LGBT community, that of raising our own kids, me all dress like i usually am during Pride, expressing how ten kids would be so amazing!!!
she looked at me, and said with conviction, “You will have ten kids one day, and they will love you!”
seems females openly love me the most during Pride, who have always been my most sincerely loving confidants, including my Mom, who always wanted to see me live a happy life with a family of my own, my constantly explaining away why i have yet to bring my own kids into the world, the taboo generational captivity i am yet of, externally mostly, where internally i am the purely willingness to give birth to my own kids, so much so, as though it is their pure spirit willingness in awaiting my own to come forth in oneness flawless pure loving feeling within me that has grown, which in truth, is the only way one day that they will be born, of my constant love as they are and will be, and likewise, of the females who are my child’s heart, also my own.
bless you all
i felt what she said to me that day………and it dawned on me, ya, they really really will love ‘me’
of their constantly asking their Mom, who was Dad?……..a very long life story of one who set out to change the world…….and did, for your sake, for your friend’s sake, for your friend’s friends sake, for your lover’s sake, in YOU just freely able to just BE YOU, no matter who you fall in love with, male or female, just be sure you let your SELF love some one genuinely, authentically, sincerely, for that is what the kingdom of heaven actually IS………..according to your father, that he was most adamant about in his every waking heartbeat, breath and blessed step, as is your own.
2 love is 2 live
2 live is 2 love
2 love is 2 give
2 live is 2 love
so don’t stop, fuck, what are you stopping for, i was almost there, fuck fuck fuck!!!!!!!!
LOL
we are all just passing thru this world for but a short time, of a blessed life that is over too soon………..
where true life is a constant loving life journey, at all times, in our ability to just BE our pure flawless fun loving SELF unbound from the generational mad flood drowning dark captivity ignorances handed down thru mellenia by the forefathers who they themselves did not purely realize their pure spirited divine self became bound by so many various binding captivity ignorances, including the insatiable desire gross materialisms.
don’t get me wrong, there is nothing really wrong with wealth, but not if wealth is predominant in one’s life of the horrid egotistic wearing of cruel arrogant masks disconnecting from divine pure real flawless healing feeling YOU within, within another, and eternal all others.
wealthy people know this well eventually, in coming thru the years in getting bored with it all, in returning of their divine pure flawless feeling SELF coming to the surface, where i personally applaud Madonna as one who i know is most successful in this, even if her true real delicate sensitive self is unable to 100% trust me up close and personal, i know she does from a distance.
while i am not as sexually promiscuous as i may appear to be, in what is of my free spiritedness love of the many like i am and have been, freely just being ‘me’ like i have, in truth, i am still searching for the hearts of everyone, of their exclusive trusting ONE within like my own, not so much for my own sake, albeit, my own sake, in as much as i am compassionately concerned for their own.
perhaps i am the BEcoming conduct of my grandfather the minister, in building a much bigger church than grandpa ever dreamed possible, pfffff, i mean, i don’t even think grandpa truly knew ‘me’ at all, of the pure sissyboy gay ass prancing around him all the time like i did, his eyes always of amazement of me as i pranced on by him so carefree like i always was around him. I knew he loved me utterly and completely like he always did, glad he did, so unconditionally of God like he always was with me.
did i tell you he came home from the war, and caught my grandma with another guy?
yep! true story, pfffff, thank God grandpa was a forgiving man of God, or i would not be here annoying YOU like i yet am, which i know you enjoy, although my abreaction crashings are getting more severe at times from my past stuff surfacing lately, that i am no longer suppressive of, just allowing myself to feel whatever, partly as a result of the HIV physical symptoms fallout that has lasted so friggin long, remembering others who went thru seroconversion, my now knowing why they were seemingly so emotionally hyper like they all were……….a good thing i feel, a necessary healing in order to free one’s pure spirit.
so who wants to be an assistant to giving birth to my kids?
i will perhaps ask again another time………..just pondering at this point in time, in forgeting all the useless rhyme, i mean my god, we are talking about the blessed precious loving life of my child hear!
as is your own
suppression of our pure spirited flawless healing feeling divine true ‘real’ SELF, is what is of every wise divine will wisdom word of the evolved(ing) adult child Christ, where my biggest question of Jesus, is what was of his every blessed step since birth that he experienced first hand physically, mentally, emotionally, sexually, spiritually, where the TRUTH is, not likely not much different than my/our own.
blessed is the eternal TRUTH awareness that reveals and sets free our precious pure spirited bound in false captivity forefather ignorances of their/our divine pure true ‘real’ SELF
forever more
just fearlessly BE yOUR SELF!
SELF of the eternal all, for sake of YOU, for sake of the eternal all set free, by means of fearless constant loving YOU within, within the eternal all, BEcoming wise to the yet unwise world surround.
‘that’ is what is of God’s omnipotent divine will objective
you know, i was thinking, in building a really really big church, the CN Tower would make such a great steeple, yes?
and already, rainbow colors and all, oh look, it really really IS!
of that day long ago between the minister who outed me in front of the congregation, “I WILL build the biggest church this world has ever seen!”
purely in my heart i meant it, not knowing at the time, just how purely devoted to my own divine self awareness i was of in going alone before Jesus and God, away from the others, and all their group mentality binding blinding snaring, ya, for sure, it is purely about YOU and YOU who is alone born into this unwise world that YOU all purely feel like we all do, YOU who dies alone, YOU who lives alone, even at times when we are not alone, feeling as though we are(spiritually) alone, all the annoying distractions that keep us from freely just BEing, which i pray i have been more of a help than a hindrance, as one who does wisely understand God’s divine will objective, the student BEcoming the teacher transistion, the son BEcoming the father transition………wisely, purely, compassionately, for sake of sacred mirroring oneness, ya, i feel i really really do know who i am i asking you all to take a moment in asking what really really is of our wise brother’s words of the wise compassionate loving lips of Jesus.
i wonder to myself at times, how long i could resist kissing Jesus if i were to walk with him day and night, unable to leave his side, of no desire whatsoever to wonder off into the moron world without him……….ya, i likely would of been kissing Jesus daily, stealing him away from Mary, for sure, i know i would of, and i would of won his heart that i feel i do know, is purely that of his own homosexual self suppression. I know how it is that i feel who Jesus purely really really was within, alone with his feelings as too am i, in realizing Jesus was gay, i just feel it is what is of his most pure truthful self hiding from everyone, or perhaps not, we don’t know what was going on with all his wine drinking in secret places behind the great walled city. I would of been his most relentlessly perusing pure loving heart one, where i don’t feel it is ever within Jesus to simply cast me away, tell me to shut up, tell me i am wrong to love like i purely do, where if anything, i am more fearlessly loving than you are Jesus!
there, i evolved past Jesus!
hallulya! holy holy holy joyful hallulya!…………Biyatches!
have you seen all the gay couple dance numbers on ‘So You Think You Can Dance’ lately?
oh, so incredible the pure feeling they reach for so fearlessly, of the gay producers, judges and assistants all feeling as i do, of how far we have come today…………ALL THE WAY BIYATCHES!!!!!!!!!
or forget it!
lol
im off to pick up some more stone today, bigger stone, as detailing is too fragile difficult with the smaller stone.
I am stamping a divine self-wisdom saying on the back of each stone, including the replicas.
there is a healing that is taking place within while i turn towards my own divine child self within, an attendance in his necessary healing over Troy that requires time in self-actualization practice safe conducive environments i am of, freely so, no stressors of any kind, where in life, i have not felt this free as i do today as an artist who gets to dwell in my heart all day long.
we cannot heal the world until we first learn how to heal our own self, in purely realizing what is of our preferred healed self’s graceFULness, tenderness, delicateness, mildness, gentleness, kindness, respectFULness, thankFULness, hopeFULness, grateFULness, ONEness of the eternal all YOU!
bless you all
maybe i was once an unattended sham………..ok, granted, butt Jesus says, ‘blame the ignoramous unloving hateFUL deathFUL destructiveFUL oppressiveFUL unwise forefathers!’
where i know the truth, they did not know their divine self was blind to my sissy ass!
Biyatches!
although i am rather obvious……..am i not?
a gay bisexually confused brother to Jesus!
i blame Jesus too, for not coming out of his closet!
which i purely know in my heart as is his own, that had i been walkin around with him day and night, i would made him mine, would of brought him OUT into the eternal day light for all the world to SEE, and look, already, I AM!
hmmm…..maybe Jesus was secretly sleeping with all of them?
he was likely the most gorgeous of gorgeous cute ass guys ever born then, and knowing it, everywhere always knowing it, all the attention he naturally drew to himself, relishing his own pure oneness feelings of the other sissy ass closet cases he fell in love with of so many, and all the beautiful girls too, argh…….ya well, maybe i am his type too, and for sure, if of me, Jesus would come crawling back, having been with the best, fuck the rest………..oh ok, i will stop for today…………ya but wait, if every day is of the constant wise compassionate day, then i guess i won’t ever stop, and look, what has been started is unable to ever stop, eternally growing, of the holy eternal day light SELF shining radiant brilliant bright, for sure, ‘that’ light does light up the eternal future who are constantly always right there………
i was thinking Tish for a girl’s name, my first girl love(Trish), Tray for a boy’s name, my first boy love(Troy)…………..of course, Mom has the final say that blessed day………of the eternal day.
peace be to you all
at the end of the eternal day, is the beginning………
where who you choose to love is who YOU choose to love, no one else, we just love who we all choose to love like we do
and of course who chooses to love us the same way we do
be it female or male, love is one feeling we all feel the same way in the eternal day light awakening divine pure true ‘real’ self YOU!
i see YOU in my dreams, wondering who you are, realizing your love so pure like my own, wondering why? please God why cannot be with the one who i know is in the garden dreaming of ‘me’ too?
for i know already
I AM
blessings to all
‘that’ IS what friends are four………
i was thinking of writing a script of a gay disciple of Jesus, that Jesus happens approaches one day, “Oh, there you are, fuck, what took so long? Been waiting here my entire life for you to finally show!”
“Come on, let’s go show them fuckers who is the ‘real’ boss around these bullshit towns!”
as Jesus realizes too, i am the one he was secretly dreaming of too, me being the older wiser one in what to wisely purely truly just do!
as in do ‘me’ Biyatches! NOW!……before i change my mind………..AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!
LOL
ya, some none stop sissy gay boy ass who eventually gets Jesus to fall in love with his own suppressed SELF i know better than Jesus does, and yet, purely so does Jesus, from behind his father’s mask he wisely wears, i mean for fuck sakes, Jesus was an evolved meditative monk who spent more time alone in meditation than most any in nuturing his pure spirit, so ya, i know, as does Jesus know, his own suppression of homoerotic feelings………100%!
yep, the ‘real’ Jesus is a closeted sissy boy, likely better looking than others, in what was of his own closeting narcissism in not finding a face as beautiful as his own, met alot of them over my life, who are still alone without ‘me’, too busy looking in the mirror in attempts to find ‘me’, who sticks their head out from time to time, like we do, happy, not blue.
it would be such a fun script, me tripping over myself, of secret love for Mary too, every time she came near, my being quite again, of the secret love between Jesus and i, both of us closeted away from her, all the while wondering, “Do you think she knows about us?”
“Kiss me Jesus!”
LOL
OK then, i think that pretty much rules out Andyy allow to be alone with Jesus, yes?
LOL
i am not to be trusted! ……………EVER!!!!!!!!!
LOL
albeit, trusted
phsycally
spiritually
mentally
emotionally
……….just not sexually around other guys
my ex knows this well of me actually, why he keeps a short leash on me when ever we go anywhere, the others who approach, the instant lighting up of their pure heart within i know so well, oh well, fuck, the ring, he’s married? to who? Jesus? apparently so, how else can he know ‘me’ so well like he does?
Jesus is my first love, but not my last
peace grace love and happiness BE 2 YOU!
always
at all times
just BEing yOUr ‘real’ SELF YOU!
always of ‘me’ 2
they used to call me Mary, some still do, wishful thinking i suppose, of………
so many who tryed,
of so many who lied,
of so many who………cried
of so many who died
bless bless bless bless you all
You who knows this world, has found a corpse; you who has found a corpse, this world finds unworthy ~ Happy are the solitary and those chosen, for they shall find God’s Kingdom. If you seek it in your heart you shall enter again.” ~ Jesus ~ my unborn child who may not ever be born. It is as though the most horrible issue in my life that i may not give birth to my own kids, as though i am taking their life away from them in not bringing them forth into the world, which weighs so heavy deep within my soul, where i am the pure spirit within that i am of constant flawless feeling awareness of in every step, every breath, at all times, in oneness of the flawless feeling spirited oneness of my unborn children yet to come, who WILL know my love for them as IS their own wise compassionate constant self-love as and for ‘me’, where i question my delay in something so sacred, my god, the life of my own child being questioned? How dare them, how dare i allow my own self to be of the wretched ill hearts of taboo generational transference that i am far far wisely awake to, than are any of those yet of their own bound in captivity bitter foul tasting horrid false ill refuting taboo bullshit ignorance’s, why my child does not yet walk the earth as they should this day……..and shall one day, of a most beautiful of blessed days, perhaps reading this one day, long after i am gone……To them i say, “bless bless bless bless you my sweet child with a pure heart exactly as my own, that i have take time to share with you, as an individual just like YOU of ‘me’, a child of God’s heart mind body spirit and soul in oneness of the eternal all ONEness true and faithful loving brothers and sisters all around YOU, whom i have purely come to constantly love of so so many my entire life, as do you, across all false barriers of ignoramus captivity barriers of race, religion, sex, orientation, wealth, status, language and politic. BEhold the kingdom of heaven constantly IS ‘that’ of your divine flawless pure true ‘real’ SELF feelings as my own. While i may be your father, in truth, i am oneness of a most loving brother/sister to you in likeness and form of all brothers and sisters the world over, that you shall and have come to purely wisely truthfully 100% know as though your own SELF. BE ye constantly awake as your wise compassionate loving divine pure and true ‘real’ self, at all times, in always knowing that your life is of the highest value beyond all riches and sadly yet unwise others, ‘that’ of the sacred mirroring catharsis processing awakening holy joyful absolute carefree inner happiness shining from within, ‘that’ which is of your constant radiant brilliant bright dancing prancing outward appearance of the holy divine self-awakening TRUTH in others, which breaks the horrid bitter false generational binding mad flood captivity ignoramuses of the generational mad flood deathful destructive oppressive suppressive false ignorances, which is purely truly the oneness of the eternal all generational constant flowing LOVE as your own, set free and happy forever more, ONLY be means of the pure true ‘real’ self YOU!, directly, indirectly, affect, effect, wholeness oneness sameness. Do not be of unwise forgetFULness foe like many of those all around you yet bound in dark captivity, for YOU are indeed a wise loving compassionate divine pure spirited flawless feeling true real child of God’s SELF of the eternal all ONE generation of the children of God eternal all, even of those who do not (yet) know they always constantly are within, just as IS YOU! Say wisely within yourself, “I AM their destiny as a revealer of truth that sets the eternal all free, in greeting the eternal all generation all around you and those yet to come, who may be sadly of the generational falsehood captivities flow you remain so purely compassionate for in all truth you bare witness to, where they will purely know who your really really are, by means of their awakening divine true real self oneness at all times……with YOU!” 😉 bless bless bless bless you my child, so truly purely constantly loving as ‘me’
peace be to you
“Luke! The force, use the force!”
i am damn it, but this fucking water based lube is shit, and the silicone lubes are too fucking expensive!”
LOOL
………..i am so bad………i know
made ya smile, your turn……….
when my life hit the wall full impactfully, so crushing and utterly life shatterly like it did back in 1993, in my leaving ward three so bravely like i forced vulnerable self to do, not really wanting to, of no place to i wanted to be inner stuckness, it was as though a feeling of having already died in my addressing what i can do with each day that is able to change this world, as i set forth alone, a one way bus ticket out of hell, knowing my true brothers and sisters is where i constantly belonged, knowing i could not stay, impossible, their hatred they still were of me, even after Troy killed himself two weeks after i broke off with him, at their insistent threatening urging to, even the minister treating me like i was a wretched soul as though deranged in my sexual loving desire i was with Troy in secret, our love affair we tryed to hide from everyone for three fucking years!
spend three years doing that, and then at the end, have it ripped out of your soul with the death of your beloved lover, and you all come and tell me how that feels for you……..
truly, i tell you, i already know…….
in my pure heart felt meditation following his death, i realized my own petty ego betraying frustration was what was of my outward false behavior with breaking up with him, listening to false others, not knowing Troy and i were passionately in love with each other, our own mistake of well developed hiding behavioral, our processing thru our internal homophobia towards the day we would just stop pretending with everyone, who all knew anyway, that we were gay and in love, both of us trying to come out at the same time………..
i did not have the insight in knowing that coming out of our internal and external homophobia was a process that requires sufficient time to succeed to safer more conducive healthier boundary setting environments that i have come to know and love of my blessed homosexual life since stepping on that one way bus ticket out of mental, emotional, sexual and spiritual death hell for Troy and i, all the while of our pure loving sweet anticipation for each other each day we woke, a knowingness of our love devoid of doubt heaven in our hearts we could not hide from, nor hide from the world as much as we tryed to deny the truth, we were meant to be together.
Some of our gay and lesbian friends, of the scant few well adjusted ones that we both had welcomed to us on our journey forward, knew without doubt, we were supposed to be together.
crying one day, I told him that was what i wanted, knowing i purely truly 100% did……………and yet do.
the self-medication we both were severely of that was increasing in frequency and intensity, getting worse like it did, like it statistically does……….
when you know in your heart who you want to always be with, that is what heaven is, so don’t treat it as though nothing, when inside, you know it IS everything, that magically feeling of not wanting to go thru life without feeling your constant flowing love for them, that comes with time in coming close to someone with an open welcoming heart to purely truly always swim in every blessed day.
the generational taboo ignorance transference won over Troy and i in life, physcially
but not mentally emotionally sexually spiritually shall they ever become victorious over us, even after i too am gone from this world, in what was of the life we lived and died as……….the happiest sissy gayboy asses this world ever saw!
i realize i am not yet 100% to my full inner happiness health, and yet, i am healthier than i was then, of the healing process i yet am of after all this time, which is exceeding anything i could of ever for seen as to what the self-actualization healing process results are.
spent years in therapy, and still, i am always of therapy, mentally, emotionally, sexually, spiritually, at all times………..we all are.
there is a pure place platitude oneness growing awareness of our calm at ease graceful pure flawless divine feeling true real SELF’s higher subtle subconscious intellect of constant yearning reaching into the deepest part core of our soul, which is of the eternal day outward appearance coming forth from within everyone in the world, as we all realizing and priority valuing what heaven truly really actually is, a shift of sorts for many swimming in the egotisms processing out of…………knowing without doubt whatsoever, heaven is the flawless healing pure running constantly true feelings of our divine child of God’s spirit.
forever more of the eternal all yet to come
bless you all
you love me more than i may realize, i know that, i feel that at times, realizing that you know i too can feel as you constantly yearn to do, too
and that is how i truly feel about you, as one who is heaven sent, just as i know we all are.
you strive to shine wise light into their hearts you know are as your own, your vision, where i want to say to you, i do know the place you hide so purely of like you do, where physically i may not ever be there holding you hand, but mentally, emotionally, sexually, spiritually, i constantly yearn 100% to always be found there in that pure place of your heart i too prefer to dwell in, meditatively like we do.
before sex, we have to come fully into our pure self-actualization awareness BEcoming, which is above sexual orientation.
how so you may ask?
well, mentally, emotionally, sexually/physically, spiritually i am female like you
i know this purely and truely of my own self, as do you
so already, in truth, i am already always heaven’s divine wise loving compassionate perspective in my mind, as 2 are you, as too are the eternal all ability to know what we value beyond all riches of the world.
the hidden treasure Jesus speaks of, the pearl, IS YOU!
bless bless bless blessings to you
the divine self knows purely and truely, intuitively, that there is no wants or needs greater than to feel what is that pure place within, away from the noise of the absurd generational flow world lost, so let us always be in celebration of the constant pure truth we both know of so deeply, so purely, so true of heaven found within, surrounding us all, as ‘that’ is what is of every willing sacred word from the lips of Jesus pointing us to the hidden treasure now found
i felt this love with Troy
and still i am this love of Troy, ‘that’ which i am within all YOU!
heaven
bless bless bless bless you all
forever more
brotherly love, sisterly love with and of one another
‘that’ is what we all are, oneness exact sameness from the womb of God
hey, did you know it was only in recent human history that brothers and sisters were not allowed to marry?
today, the law is you cannot marry within three kissing cousins near
in some parts of the world they still do
in Danmark, the reality check of inter breeding for centuries now, has resulted in what is now known as blue blood syndrome, which includes many mental and physical ailments.
in pure understanding, outside of the taboo taught realm of thinking and feeling, in the intuitive pure running core of our harmonious celled bodies, is the pure light constant harmonious flow, that is free from useless absurd speculations generationally taught, beyond speech, the biological harmoniousness of every cell in your body, in every cell of the two bodies from which we came from, which is really miraculous when you stop and think about it, i am from my mother, i am from my father too.
must be so incredible to give birth to a child between two people in love with one another.
honestly, i cannot think of anything greater in life that giving birth to your own child, of two loving lovers.
if only i could BEcome a full biological female, where i would likely have one baby every single year, for as long as i physically was able to.
i see these families with 18 kids, and i think to myself, now there is happiness constantly all around, of loving bonds growing deeply running within each of them for and eternally with one another their entire life. Would be interesting to see what those kids do later in life as adults, the same i would pray for them.
bless you all with constant flowing love of YOU
for ‘that’ IS what heaven is
at all times
so when you catch yourself thinking otherwise, think again, slowly, gracefully, surrendering to your intuitively wiser divine child of God within who patiently awaits on others to likewise do, so as to disarm the false masks we all occasionally sometimes wear.
not really a bad thing, professionally speaking
rather is what is the obvious TRUTH of the manifestations of the ongoing unhealthy generationally teachings so falsely binding like it is, so much so as to be deathful of another and self, destructive of another and self, oppressive suppressive of another and self, the TRUTH that is constantly always right there all around us everywhere we go……….is the TRUTH that serves the wise descerning divine child of God YOU, at all times.
mostly annoying
and yet, more so, there is self deathful, there is self destructive, there is self oppression suppression, of self, self of another.
Jesus opened the gates into heaven, and knowingly is the first to enter.
He the gate open for the eternal all yet to come, knowing he did, when he said, “It is finished.”
he knew without doubt whatsoever, meditatively, the gates to the kingdom of heaven inner child flawless healing feeling true real SELF would remain open for all eternity yet to come fully into self-love discovery wholeness pure feeling as his own, what was constantly of his every waking wisely discerning moment every step, his every step, every breath, every heart beat, sacredness for sake of the divine child of God within us all that he knew was unattended, beaten down, in treacherous paths he walked along side of us like he did, like he purely lovingly did, there among us, just as we too are among one another, protecting, nurturing, healing constant flawless flowing LOVE, who you always really really always were and R within!
truly, so many of your hearts i came to know so loving like you are, of the best friends one could ever wish for, purely always knowing, we are not so far apart at all, although miles apart physically, not spiritually, not mentally, not emotionally……….oh how i wish i could say NOT SEXUALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!
fuck
LOL
ok ok, enjoy you blessed day, of one less to go than you had yesterday
blessings to all
must be the clouds in my eyes
*correction*
He *left* the gate open for the eternal all yet to come, knowing he did, when he said, “It is finished.”
when he left
but did not really leave us, having already entered love devoid of doubt heaven within him, in leaving the wise opening gate eternally open for the eternal all yet to come, wisely knowing our hearts, in oneness constant flowing loving feelings as his own, for us to easily enter like as the forever young divine loving child of God within the eternal all YOU 2 enter in just BEing yOUR pure true ‘real’ YOU set free from the false generational snare Jesus knew purely WELL!
blessed is the divine pure true flawless loving child of God YOU!
forever more
when i think about Troy’s death, i think about how Jesus too likely came to know and love ones who he too likely found hanging on a cross, brutally murdered like the Roman empire constantly did, using fear to control the masses of uneducated people like they did, like the dictators yet do in some parts of the world.
Do you know how purely sacred the USA is to this world, of God WE Trust, of God who is the pure constant flowing trust of the divine SELF?
100%
for sake of the eternal all yet to come and just BE happy and free, like WE all strivingly constantly yearningly to do.
however, the church needs to stop gay bashing the pure hearted ones who i feel because of their century long teaching oppression, is what is cause for how purely loving homosexuals truly purely constantly yearningly are like we are, like we all are supposed to be, regardless of orientation, sex is just sex, where without loving sex, is exactly ‘that’, not loving sex when it is merely just physical, which is not to say it cannot become loving, seeing as it is rather impossible not to love one another as though our own self, when in truth, we all are our own SELF, are WE not?
peace to YOU all forever more
spiritually lovingly wisely compassionately raising our leaders of the next generation coming thru, ‘that’ of your children, which BEcomes ‘that’ of your children’s children of the eternal all.
‘that’ is what is constantly always the TRUTH all around us
‘that’ is what is constantly always the eternal realm we all ponder what WILL BE after we are gone
so you SEE, in TRUTH, WE do all live forever………young
well ok, not all of us, not some you zombie fuckers, like wtf, how can you belittle me with bullshit remarks like that, that’s it, i quit, fuck you!………not you, them, always it is them, who did not take time to purely truly know ‘me’ in order to love ‘me’ like i do………do you think i am narcisistic?………..don’t answer that………..i call it self-love of the eternal all, because ‘that’ IS who i am according to all the endeavors of Jesus, my best friend.
Hey Jesus, do you know how to play basketball, i love that game, where i was a sissyass skinny kid who was always bench warming the seats while watching them all run………forever and a day…….always away……..pffffffff……….oh well, look at where i have come!
LOL
now he’s after my boyfriend, cannot have me, so now he wants my boyfriend, oh you are so fucking dead Andyy, you stay the fuck away from him, you got ‘that’?
………i am ‘that’……..hey, what about that other guy they say you were interested in, where did…………….
LOL
the Ever Ending Story that has no end, BEcause where the end is, there 2 is the BEginning of the eternal all YOU!
just make sure you start something, ok, something passionate, something fun loving, always something from your heart of pure hearts that i always LOVE
peace be to you
and peace be to you
bless you always
i do alot of what others may think at first as spiritual bizarre things……..
i walked into the small chamber, of no one there at the church at King and Church, of private prayers, kneeling before the alter in prayer, as per usual, the flowers on the alter that are always there, the pure while cloth on the table, the cross of Jesus, as i placed a piece of wood on the alter, in the hopes of stirring intimate close feelings of Jesus within the Priest who would happen apon it, in a pure way of close trusting ‘real’ self intimacy with Jesus like my own that has grown so pure and true all these years gone by now, closer and closer to wise eternal divine self awareness self-love sacred eternal day light awareness so crucial to the future of the eternal all safe passage………
i then walked to one of the stain glass windows and looked up to the face of Jesus, just starring like i always do, as the sun came back out and lit up his halo, feeling his presence with me so purely in that moment that it made me cry, for reasons only Jesus and God knows why?……….and some of you of my close inner circle of trusting friends i sacredly share my inner true self with.
bless you all
hold your enemies closer, as they say, who are not really your enemy, of the forefather genearational snaring ignorances which is the real enemy, of all binding dark captivities of the pure flawless feeling divine child of God’s heart mind body spirit and soul of the eternal all. I hold enemies closer than they may realize of one who purely draws intimately near to them in not at all knowing the one who is comes before them like i do, their not knowing i am searching their heart by what they say and do, especially in how they say the things they say, determining if they are able to purely truly hear what Heaven actually is according to Jesus, before i choose to tell them or not tell them, of another who may someday……..
………the TRUTH
that so many do not know, yet all intuitively always do know
of how our spirits grow………..truthFULLy happy and free!
to the seeker, Jesus says, “Seek and you shall find”
your unattended divine self who is constantly waiting there within
follow your heart of lover’s abide
follow your heart of lover’s collide
follow your heart of lover’s pride
follow your heart of lover’s Glide!
get it?
Glide, the lube?
Happy Pride everyone!
Jesus loves YOU!
forever more
homosexuality can be the likeness of a physical mental emotional sexual spiritual prison cell for a homosexual in the world, and the secret lives they lead, especially in some parts of the world where they do openly seek out execution of us, both legally and illegally, like packs of wild dogs on a witch hunt of us, daily.
i speak with them in every language from around the world, in every country of the world, using Google translator………a ray of light into their oppressive suppressive horrid worlds, their out right crying like they do, saying how scared they are all the time………..
welcome to the generational taboo ignorant world everyone, where most homosexuals live secret sadly oppressive lives like we too once did decades ago, where my god, rather than fear of what others may think of us, they fear for their lives!
today, our governments now have in place, laws which are able to protect those seeking citizenship asylum in the UK, USA, Canada and other participating countries, no different than the underground movement of slaves from the USA into Canada in our history.
when will it all end?
only God knows the answer to that
and so too can we, simply by speaking directly with those in oppressive parts of the world, first hand, thru facebook and all these personal private chat places we have on the internet.
i urge each of you to take time to chat with them, even if you are not gay or lesbian, in purely hearing and feeling the truth of all our ongoing perpetuation of self-hate manifesting homophobia that is taught early in our childhood thru our schools, churches, and unwise families who likewise were taught as too were we, as too was once my own ignorance internal homophobia result of living in an external homophobic childhood like it was in the 1970s, and yet is in most parts of the world like it obviously is.
in truth, it is terrifying for so many souls who are making their way in transition of homosexual self-love acceptance.
so before you say any rude remarks against a homosexual you could come to know and purely love as a friend, think twice before perpetuating the very same ignorance of the leaders in Iran who have executed over 4000 homosexuals, as young as 13 being tried as adults.
homosexuality is NOT a learned behavior everyone, as much as some of you may unwisely think it is, no, it is truthfully that of one’s self-love esteem connecting with another, which can and does become sexual intimacy of SELF-LOVE, SELF-LOVE oneness with another.
in truth, our sex is what is purely of our flowing love feelings that is of our brain chemical releasing when we are stimulated, check it out next time you have sex, and realize the pure truth that it is.
we are all hardwired to feel our brain chemicals that are naturally always being released as a result of self-stimulation that we naturally all do, and im not just talking about in our sleep either, of natural occuring wet dreams when we hit puberty………where my ex and i watch you all, and place bets with each other, on if someone we pick out will touch themselves or not, while we are there……..you should try it, it’s alot of fun! lol
but seriously, we don’t know exactingly of identical brain sex activity response to stimuli for the female and male as a society, as to purely knowing if there is a difference or not, and that needs to be our thinking that breaks down false seperational barriers of sexism and homophobias we all need to be rid of, where for me, as a female, sexism is my greater concern than is homophobia, where half the world gets to feel all the useless false egotistic sexism of you males, that i won’t ever stop feeling the truth of this like it is most anywhere i go, the oppression that is seemingly always there, of a physical mental emotional sexual and spiritual prison cell of so many females to stand up for themselves, because of your your stupid ass fear mongering shit for brains testosterone driven small dick egocentric males who like wise as they are afraid of, so too am i afraid of most of you males, and yet, if you corner me, take my word for it, you will lose more than just an ear or two, why i just might take your balls in the process.
LOL
peace out fuckers!
love one another as though your own self
and when they don’t love you……….walk away, until one day, they just may………..truly know you in order to truly love YOU!
bless you all
the only way to purely truly think of life, is by means of your own flawless feeling true divine real self, as though you have already died, in greeting each day as though you are entering into the kingdom of heaven in each step, in each passing moment of precious time you are able to do so, where all too quickly, our time is up, and that’s it, that’s all you are freely given in choosing to turn towards your constant yearning to love and feel love in just BEing YOU!
at all times
everywhere that you gracefully go and are as i am
purely so(w)
truthfully so(w)
gracefully so(w)
tenderly so(w)
peacefully so(w)
patiently so(w)
honestly so(w)
sensitively so(w)
attentively so(w)
humbly so(w)
surrenderingly so(w)
without masks so(w)
vulnerably so(w)
sensually so(w)
tantilizingly so(w)
lovingly so(w)
HEAVENLY SOW what heaven actually really really IS………..YOU! 😉
loved by the holy spirit, Jesus and God, my best friend
i am
forever more
how do i truly know?
when you know, you just know, what others fail to purely truly know, where only one who does know, can say such a thing, yes?
love devoid of doubt constant flawless feeling is what heaven IS, indeed, IS YOU!
at all times
all around YOU IS likeness and form of eternal all YOU hear in heaven’s one generation of the eternal all flow!
so come say hello with ‘me’ someday hear in heaven, where you just don’t know, if Jesus WILL shows you all, what he always knew!
YOU!
the ‘real’ YOU!
of course!
same as ‘me’
i mean, how else am i able to love anyone who is not just like ‘me’ of any of YOU?
here is a hint: i don’t love all of you, well, not entirely hateful of anyone either, although close for some………..who don’t know ‘me’
yet
peace grace love happiness IS YOU!
always of 2
hey, i mentioned i used to write sermons daily, for the 6:00am morning prayer service at church, yes?
am i ‘that’ obvious?
i am my grandfather,
more so than he,
i am my grandmother,
more so than she
i have a penis!
LOL
uhm, i have moved from the third floor, to the ninth, progress, in more ways than i care to talk about somedays………..all growth oriented
closer to the heart
i am
where we all belong
forever more
so the next time you hear a church bell ring, feel for a moment, what time it really really is, in your wise knowing reality check of so many out there who have not yet been told they are the pure flawless feeling divine child of God hear in heaven with us, bound in captivities so horrific, i would cut the head off of some of you unwise fucks without hesitation! I am coming for all of you one day! So you BETTER all pray, cause i do, you will know what to do, as i watch you recoil away from your falsehood ways i learned to shed along time ago………..no wondering at all why? of these tears i yet cry……….
TRUTH
of YOU!
they told me i am mildly diabetic now, my eating too much sugar that i love, especially chocolate, mmmmmmmm…………
affects my behavior too………..mildly………no excuse really………in just being ‘me’
my feelings that are always just right there, the only way to cry…….sometimes sad, sometimes joy, hard to tell the difference most days……..im really doing just fine………the artist life the only life for ‘me’ now.
thank you
bless you
please pray eternal loving happiness for Matt
of one so pure hearted like my own, of only love is good enough for you Matt, where ever you may find our divine self, like i yet do and did.
who has time for anything less than none stop happiness flow like we were and yet are within?
bless you Matt
Hello Madge-lovers!
In a few weeks, a very special remix of Beautiful Stranger by Aaron Darc will be unleashed into the cyberworld, and we need anyone – preferably the kind of people who, only when they’re dancing can they feel this free – to star in a viral video to accompany the remix. This will involve simply filming yourself singing along to Beautiful Stranger (no sound will be required, however – it will be overdubbed with the proper remix) either to your webcam or, if you so desire, something slightly more extravagant. But we need it by September 9th. The finished product will include segments of various participants as an ode to the global meme and network this special icon represents. The Aaron Darc “Rebranded” remixes have achieved over 200,000 downloads, but this is the very first time an accompanying video will coincide with the release. Get in it!
To be a part, simply email beautifulstrangers@hotmail.com and we’ll send you the track. Then simply upload the result to any file storage system and let us know when it’s ready. People will look into your face… and the world will come tumbling down.
xo Aaron Darc
ya i suppose if they see an exact mirroring contrast reflection of their inner self, eskewed however slightly along the beveled edge of refracting rainbow light, ha, ya, they just may realize fully that part of them in the constituent spectral radiant bright diversity of colors in likeness of their own gay ass yet held captive in dark binding false places they unfortunately yet walk thru in life……..argh………i know that one well………
ha
oh, but i need assuredness of the wise ass other in sync with me, although at times i do catch myself dancing by myself lately……….
the need IS, 2 glance
the need IS, 2 prance
the need IS, 2 stance
the need IS, 2 dance
the need IS, 2 YOU!
most amazing, stew?
most amazing, 2?
most amazing, who?
most amazing, YOU! 😉
bah……………..
should we not step back long enough from the frey, of the plodding along unknowingly led astray, then we become and remain what is of all the generational falsenesses
all these paths we haphazardly plodded along aimless into
the emotional mental tiresome immaturities ever pervading of the cycle pattern behavioral spin
for how long?
till i beloved gets sick of it, internalize it, and takes their own life?
ya, statistically, it is true, why they do what they do, not knowing what they do, dying stupidly
dynamically, intrinsic/extrinsic are the ignorance forces that are binding, the end result statistic of it all, day after blessed day, all bullshit, all lies, all falsehoods, why we die daily thruout the world like we continue to do
fuck you fuckheads and all your ignoramous shit
dynamically, why someone deliberately infected me on purpose, that is how low the paths were that i entered into, on my mission?
for what?
to purely realize how fuckedup this world really really fucking IS?
apparently so
if you don’t take time to allow your real self to feel thru what you authentically feel, how can one ever follow their own heart to their own real self where we purely dwell within?
and likewise, how can anyone else find us when we are not outwardly of what we know not inwardly, buried somewhere in the mindfuck ego bullshit drowning quagmire, often isolated, afraid, wisely unattended to and alone?
i turned to Jesus and God as the way to find my pure true real self buried under false oppression self-defeatism suppression, as a way up and out of the generational falsehoods quagmire.
and turned and looked, to my surprise at first, they were there.
peace grace love happiness of your true nature BE to you all
bless you
and thank you
~
The Absolute
No mind, no form, I only exist;
Now ceased all will and thought;
The final end of Nature’s dance,
I am it whom I have sought.
A realm of Bliss bare, ultimate;
Beyond both knower and known;
A rest immense I enjoy at last;
I face the One alone.
I have crossed the secret ways of life,
I have become the Goal.
The Truth immutable is revealed;
I am the way, the God-Soul.
My spirit aware of all the heights,
I am mute in the core of the Sun.
I barter nothing with time and deeds;
My cosmic play is done.
from Seers Poetry website
beautiful IS the soul
Здравствуйте. Хорошая штука интернет, хоть с самим призидентом пересечся можно, вот и к вам зашёл. Интересный вы человек, вроде на сцене и в кино как бы развращённрсть, такая сверх сексуальность, а в жизни все по другому, и детей от
агрессивного насаждения и пропоганды всяческой грязи уберечь пытаетесь (долбынный телевизор хуже наркотика) да и глаза у вас интересные , умные, немного строгие в общем интересные.
Хотя не думаю что вы это прочтете. Но всеровно приятно написать человеку, зная что никогда с ним не встретишся , всеровно что с инопланетянином пообщался (другая страна, другой мир).
Donna, kno´ wat I mean … go ´n crazy …
well, i chatted with Sean Combs, just an open classroom chat of expanding thoughts on questions he was asking…..
seems most everyone is of a somewhat aimlessness as regards enlightened conviction, seemingly without direction, and the motivational empowerment one would know FULLY when of their pure true self-actualiz(ed)(ing) oneness emotional honest safe atonement………cough……lost
but anyway……i guess i am in the groove of my own transgender oneness atonement that came with the last twenty years of transgender sexual experience, so pure the feeling, noticing how much more centered and grounded i am in my transgender self-love oneness self body, body of others, transgender or otherwise, where being both female and male, i relate to both sexual identities……..I AM SO BLESSED!!!!!!! thank you Jesus
lmao
this seems like a fun tune for doing drag, wow, snap snap, kick their lame asses for sure when mama gets on stage prancing this one! love it so much! And so do my transgender friends who are tuned into their own female self walking thru all the lackluster lost ones of ‘ish’ sexism disconnected lost ones….well, until us grounded transgenders hit the scene, and kick you all in the ass again, our duty it seems, maybe to fullfil our dream of finding that magical transgender yet in the closet, my god, so cute some of you R!
thanks Troye….i love u
uhm….i just want to say to Lourdes, why not throw some soft pink splatter on those white docks of yours, of your generation trying to relate to our generation that knows first hand why we wore the steel toed docks, if you really want to feel the pure angst we always felt while walking among all the haters, so violent like some of us experine(d)(ing)….
for awareness sake only of course, i am not a violent person, and i do not advocate social privilege abusive violence as a solution to anything, although defend myself, for sure, i will break both your colar bones biyatches, should you ever pull a weapon on me again.
and why not add some soft baby blue shoe laces, ya! Where those for an entire year, someone will know exactly what you are saying! 😉
not that i am saying anything here, and well, even if just an understanding well read loving compassionate friend of our LGBTQ family, always you are family to us all, like your mom has been for decades and IS…….family, so are you
bless you all
oh, and some flowers, ya, joyful happiness radiant bright like our oneness always victorious hearts
ok thanks
LGBTQ
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oh, i just want to finish these 100 stones God………not yet, ok?
ok thanks
ok thank’s
bye …
please dont’ slam the door on your way out…..
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